a story to tell

Alhamdulillah... AllahuAkbar...we were pregnant again...=D

it wasn't an easy pregnancy for me...
usually ppl will advice u to take a good care of yourself in this 1st trimester...after 3 months...then u should be in safe zone. unfortunately not for me. i've been in and out of hospital... starting from 2nd trimester. i was diagnosed with placenta previa stage 2. i panicked and cried hysterically when i saw blood. not the usual brown spotting . i thought the baby was gone..takot hanya Allah yang tau. we went straight to emergency...alhamdulillah.. i can still hear his heartbeat. i was ordered to bed rest...for a week. it happens several time... until i was warded for 4 days... and my boss asked me to work from home rather than travelling to and fro to the office.

it didn't end there...its like having your period monthly... i continue to bleed... but since i already know the drill...and the baby is still moving, no abdominal pain... i just lay down and rest.

On 34th week
Doc. Delaila advised to go for caesarean...because of the low laying placenta. it was scheduled on 6th August 2013... ok to tell you frankly... i'm quite comfortable with it ~ngee... yelah..org ckp sakit bersalin nie uncompareable and  my tolerance to pain...is closer to 0. hahahhaaa. i planned to deliver in Kuantan....thus it is advisable to go back before 36weeks.

Ramadhan at home...
It is sad to leave Nizam alone for Ramadhan and to be apart from him. we are now playing the part of weekend husband and wife for a while. to all weekend husband and wife... i salute all of you... i know i can't do it any longer...it sadden me to wave goodbye to him every Sunday or Monday morning.

Alhamdulillah... the placenta is in its right position...
i can go for normal delivery...erk...i started to think about the drugs options :
1. pethadine - u can still feel the pain... it will cause sleepiness...and breathing problem for the baby and                               you... - No! hahhaa.
2 epidural - ooo yes... hahahaa. epidural... the procedure is like lumbar puncture... quite scary... imagining                        big syringe injected to your spinal cord. but then... when ppl said the labour is more painful... but                    the cons of using epidural... if its injected correctly... u wont feel anything at all... the cons...u                          wont know how hard to push..in result...forceps or vacuum will be use.
                   - ok masa doc ckp mcm nie..mom dah against epidural.

i was so scared... i asked a few ppl...including the midwives... my mom even ask me to ask the doctor... if its ok to go for elective caesarean. hahaha... yeah... still mummy's little girl =D

11/8/2013
i started to bleed... my sister said its a sign. gulp! so we went to the hospital...the midwife do a CTG. no contractions she said...so we went home...i couldn't get a good night sleep...keep on waking up due to stomach ache...more like period pains and this is just the beginning...

Roti Naik

kecur air liur bila teringat roti naik kat kedai arwah Pakcik Latip, Pekan. Then, dad pernah beli roti naik yang comel dia Kuala Terengganu...but i forgot the name.

for the past week, kami sgt rajin berkunjung ke bakery...beli roti. hahaha. maklumlah, kalau malas masak, the only thing that i can think of eating masa dlm pantang ni adalah roti. thus, i decided to bake buns today. =D

we followed this recipe. at first, we tried the Kak Ros's version...everything in half....tp doh tu x naik sgt. maybe yeast tu sikit kot. i dont know. end up roti tu padat....tp still sedap rasanya.

then, just now, we decided to bake the buns second round...this time according to the original recipe and a bit of improvisation ~ngee

referring to the link given above, we used fresh milk for 250ml...replacing water and milk powder.

voila! the result =D

A year older and....better

a sad comeback

lama dah x menjenguk blog, sampai nk klik sign in...dlm hati terdetik...eh apa password nye ek. hahahaa. mmg x der alasan kali nie...i choose to take a break from writing here...sbb i sibuk main cityville =D

well...i'm back...with a sad story unfortunately...

on 10th Feb 2012...its confirmed that nizam and i lost our 1st baby...i had a miscarriage...probably on 9th...sbb time tu i dah start bleeding.

we went to see Dr.Delaila Ahmad SDMC,Subang Jaya...on 9th & 10th buat blood test for hormon level, my hcg level menurun...maksudnye baby confirmed dah x der. sepanjang pregnancy, hcg levels kita mesti naik setiap hari. masa tu agak speechless... trus doc suruh admitted ....

i cried....bukan sbb we lost the baby....tp sbb i takot masuk ward,kena masuk IV....and the idea that you were put to sleep while they do the procedure. but if I were awake during the procedure...i guess it would be horrific! i could scream my lungs out. hahahaa.

kitorang dah nangis puas puas about losing the baby...on 9th. nizam kept on asking me...sure ke x der dah. i'm sure of it...because the bleeding didn't even stop.

Alhamdulillah...after 2 hours (according to Nizam) i came out the OT safely,groggy and last but not least...babyless...(T__T)

kesian Nizam the last meal he had was nasi lemak....at 5pm barulah dia pg lunch...he waited 2  hours outside the OT. My parents, my aunt and cousins....accompany me while Nizam get a bite to eat....then, came my mother in law and family, my waiting to pop cousin, followed by my brother and my best friend...hehehe....Alhamdulillah...i'm blessed with all the love...

now, I'm in Kuantan...on 1 week mc...mom said i have to pantang...for at least 2 weeks...everyday menu, black pepper is a must....hahaa...not bad...im starting to love it. =D

p/s: Nizam, thank you so much...i know i cant thank you enough...for ur support, ur love...I love you.

Selamat Berpuasa...

Alhamdulillah... masih berkesempatan bertemu Ramadhan sekali lagi.

Tahun nie kena bgn awl la kan... sedia apa yang patot untuk bersahur. kalau dulu... bgn bgn...semua dah sedia terhidang. sekarang kita yang kena hidangkan. mampukah??insyaAllah boleh... susah susah...kita sahur oats, kurma, susu and air masak jelah ek Mr.Teddy. hahahaa.

to all...

Selamat Berpuasa... semoga Ramadhan kali ini membawa keberkatan kepada kita semua...insyaAllah.

Mr. Teddy's 1st day

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18/7/2011

Yesterday was Mr. Teddy’s 1st day at his new work place. I even marked the date as miserable. hahaha. =P.

Mr. Teddy left early for work which starts at 8.30am... while me.. hehehe flexible hours. dtg lambat balik lmbt lah. managed to arrive 9.10 at the office. seriously i felt lonely... driving alone, walking from the car park alone. it felt different, really.

The whole day.. we whatapps each other. Not seeing him in front of me.. really makes me misses him terribly. which is good right?hahaha.

We got lots of things to talk about over dinner. i got to say... the decision accepting this new job opportunity really turn out to be a good thing, for his career and our relationship, insyaAllah...

Mr. Teddy's first day @ new place. =D

sing with me!!

I'm so into this song this last few weeks.

I used to love singing... kalau time sekolah dulu dulu... sukalah menyanyi time shower!! sumbang ke.. sedap ke... x kisah... janji nyanyi! hahhaa. bila pk balik..kesianlah org yang terpaksa dgr tu... minta maaf bebanyak! skang, mcm dah x der masa. walaupon duration mandi tu sama je.. 20-30 mins.. tp mcm x tpk nk nyanyi dah.. - adakah sbb sy dah tua? hahaha.

Mr.Teddy... jomlah kita p karok minggu nie? macam dah lama gila x jejak kaki kat RedBox. =D