I was standing at the
Crossroads. I was cloaking my question in general terms, but my question was about my life, my marriage. One year later, here I am experiencing a very different life in a new city, with family and friends embracing me and holding me up.
I didn't feel I was living authentically, and I didn't quite know how to change that.
I had a dream: to live a more fulfilling life, a life where I was wanted and loved and appreciated. A life that was free of the chaos I had found myself in -- free to be me and to ask for what I want. It was possible, I knew, but could I pull myself out of my mental and emotional quick-sand and make it happen?
Yes! It was a long process, and it was far from easy, but,
Yes!
I have found that happy existence now: I can join friends for dinner at the drop of a hat and share good food and conversation -- just a short walk from my home. I am delighted every day by the places I see, the people I meet, the friends and family I spend my time with. I can have family stop by unannounced and stay for dinner.
There is nothing earth-shattering about this. I'm am a soon-to-be grandma who just wants to enjoy her life and learn to knit a decent baby blanket! I want to read, and see movies, and cook good food. Take long walks. Sit in the park. The bare necessities. And I want to do all this in the context of good health - mental, spiritual, physical.
I want to enjoy a live baseball game, and blog, and play with my photographs. I want to drive up into the hills and visit my friends at their forest paradise. I walk the streets of my neighborhood and soak up all the new visuals, sounds and smells. Roses in this town are ubiquitous and so very fragrant. Beautiful Victorian Ladies grace the streets alongside California Bungalows. Then you turn a corner and there's a gleaming aluminum state office building with 'the suits' standing outside for their cigarette break.
Oh what a difference a year can make. Change can be very very good. And it's never too late. Never. Ever. Carpe Diem, my friends. Like the blog subtitle says, Wake Up! Life is transient, swiftly passing. Be aware the great matter. Don't waste time.