Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Thankyou everyone


Thankyou every single readers of mine, since 2008 till now. HAHAHA! Sorry everyone but I've decided to ditch this pretty blog of mine here, and hop to a better site to blog. I'm no longer activate here, due to the fact it caused me too much unwanted happiness that doesn't belong to me, anymore. Even though i love this site of mine. Kinda of sad bcos i'm super used to using blogger to blog so much stuffs, but not now. But who knows, in a few months time, i'm back here again. HAHAHA! Nevertheless, this blog of mine did a gr8 job for letting me to rant. Hahaha. This will be the last post of mine. Goodnight!
Xoxo,Priscilla(:

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Shooting Star, i could really make a wish right now

I always talk about the same old topic, also boring right? I decided to post about my 3D2N's class chalet. As mentioned on my previous post, though not everyone turn up, but i believed is the laughter, joy, fun, jokes that we created & shared. ;)

The girls - Phelicia, Olivia, Rhonda, Miracle, & me. (:
My fav project group - Andre, Rhonda, Miracle, me! Not in picture: Kelly & Shawn ):
Last but not least, 2/4 of the classmates that stay on the first night. (: you guys created the laughter, and the bonding we shared. Have a gr8 holiday ahead. Xoxo to all. (L)
Desmond & me. Bro, when you said "no matter what, you've my support". Fuck, i felt so touched when you told me that. I nearly cried out, really. At my weakest, darkest period of life, your words make me feel a little happier. Thanks! See you when i see you ;)
Rhonda & me. Dear, throughout all these, you really stood by my side, you didn't turn your back on me when i wanted to speak out. You've all the patience to listen to all my nonsense. Thanks dear. You heard what i wanted to speak when i'm drunk. I just wanted to say, thankyou being there for me when i need a pair of listening ears and cry out loud so badly. You never fail to cry with me. Just want say, i love you, & thanks! See you when i see you. ;)
Leonard & me. Thanks didi, for all your words that make me feel better. Your lame jokes, actions never fail to make me wanna bash you up. You were the first who said "you were acting too strong". I thought no one notice, but you were the one who told, then came to realise, indeed i'm putting a strong front. Thankyou for being there when i needed to speak. See you when i see you. ;)
Nevertheless, thanks to wenli bbyg, miracle dear, douglas didi, kelly bbyg, zhixian mummy, kelvin sis, jamie sis, lionel sis and everyone who stood by me, never once turn your back on me. I appreciated so much that you guys are there for me. You all listened to all my nonsense, give me advice, cheer me up no matter what. Know what? I really love you guys, without you all, i might had die somewhere. I can't promise you guys anything, but what i'll really do is, at least make myself feel happier than before. Xoxo.
I came across this post on a particular blog, & find it quite suitable my situation now. "If you love him, you hold on till he ask you to let go, till when he ask you to let go, you let go willingly, and when he ask you to let go, he knows what he wants. and not because he thinks that he's hurting you though he really is."
Well, i find it quite true, he didn't ask me to let him go. At least this the thing i could tell you guys, till the day he tell me face to face, to ask me let him go, only then i'll let him go willingly. You guys may say i stubborn, but this the least i could do for my love life, and the small little thing i could do for no one else, but him.
My love may not be as strong as any girls out there, my relationship may had fail, but at least i tried, i didn't give up halfway, i still carry on the love i used to have for him. There isn't any past tense in love, is either you love or you never. I can tell everyone, i love you, J. There isn't any past tense in this love i had for you. If you still come here & read (doubt so you do), i didn't learn to move on when i was told by you. Put yourself in my shoes, you'll understand. Goodnight.
Xoxo,Priscilla(:




Wednesday, September 14, 2011

The thought of you, kill me instantly


Hi, i spent my 3D2N's class chalet. Jokes, fun, laughter, sad over there. Though not everyone came, but i believe is the bonding we created and shared. ;) at that moment, i wish you were there. Look! I'm so weak, sigh! ):
I don't know when the last time, after we broke up, i cried terribly. It happened on mon's night. Feel so horrible, but i'm thankful to those who listened to what i said, but nothing better than having you with me. Sadly, you're not. & i really detest myself for writing so many rubbish here, and yet my little heart is not healing. Few weeks had passed, i wish i'm stronger, but apparently, i haven't learn to move on. Idk how long all these gonna end, idk how long it gonna took for you to realise i still love you. Idk how my heart gonna heal. Nevertheless, i sincerely thank you to all (you know who you're) who stood by me, listened to me be it face to face, messages, whatsapp, twitter, fb. Even it's not 24/7, at least you guys never turn your back on me when i needed ppl to talk to. ^^ to those who're back with your partner, be it what kind of reasons that brought you both back, congrats, you guys deserved to be loved by your boy/girlfriends. I'm envy, but then still giving my blessing to all. (:
Dear boy, how're you doing? Are you doing fine? I still wish you're doing good. I always have the urge to remind you to take care of yourself. After tying one long message, i backspace. Damn! I don't have the courage to let you know how much i misses you, how much i always wanted to let you know, do take care of yourself.
I really detest myself, looking so horrible, terrible. Sometimes, a text message from you can brightened up my day. But it doesn't seem to be happen. Sigh. Fuck, i really miss you badly. :\ do you heard me?
Xoxo,Priscilla(: