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    Insomnia
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    Insomnia

    By Stephen King

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    A #1 national bestseller—“A yarn so packed with suspense, romance, literary reference, fascinating miscellaneous knowledge, and heart that only Stephen King could have written it. Marvelous—that is, full of marvels” (Booklist).

    Since his wife died, Ralph Roberts has been having trouble sleeping. Each night he wakes up a bit earlier, until he’s barely sleeping at all. During his late night walks, he observes some strange things going on in Derry, Maine. He sees colored ribbons streaming from people’s heads, two strange little men wandering around town after dark, and more. He begins to suspect that these visions are something more than hallucinations brought on by lack of sleep.

    There’s a definite mean streak running through this small New England city; underneath its ordinary surface awesome and terrifying forces are at work. The dying has been going on in Derry for a long, long time. Now Ralph is part of it…and lack of sleep is the least of his worries.

    Returning to the same Maine town where It took place, a town that has haunted Stephen King for decades, Insomnia blends King’s trademark bone-chilling realism with supernatural terror to create yet another masterpiece of suspense.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherScribner
    Release dateJan 1, 2016
    ISBN9781501141843
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    Stephen King

    Stephen King is the author of more than sixty books, all of them worldwide bestsellers. His recent work includes the short story collection You Like It Darker, Holly (a New York Times Notable Book of 2023), Fairy Tale, Billy Summers, If It Bleeds, The Institute, Elevation, The Outsider, Sleeping Beauties (cowritten with his son Owen King), and the Bill Hodges trilogy: End of Watch, Finders Keepers, and Mr. Mercedes (an Edgar Award winner for Best Novel and a television series streaming on Peacock). His novel 11/22/63 was named a top ten book of 2011 by The New York Times Book Review and won the Los Angeles Times Book Prize for Mystery/Thriller. His epic works The Dark Tower, It, Pet Sematary, Doctor Sleep, and Firestarter are the basis for major motion pictures, with It now the highest-grossing horror film of all time. He is the recipient of the 2020 Audio Publishers Association Lifetime Achievement Award, the 2018 PEN America Literary Service Award, the 2014 National Medal of Arts, and the 2003 National Book Foundation Medal for Distinguished Contribution to American Letters. He lives in Bangor, Maine, with his wife, novelist Tabitha King. 

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    Readers find this title to be a slow start, but worth the time. The ending is abrupt and disappointing for some. However, the interwoven characters and themes from other Stephen King stories make it a unique and enjoyable read. The portrayal of humanity facing evil is a standout aspect. The book also explores the concept of auras, which some readers found fascinating. Despite mixed reviews, fans of Stephen King appreciate the connections between his stories and the importance of characters like Patrick.

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    • 3/5
      Great ending. Very long book and you began to wonder after the first part of it how it can go on -- but King weaved in a wholly different theme when bringing the auras and Clotho and Lachesis into the plot. Sometimes it got pretty bizarre, but smoothed out nicely in the last 50 pages or so.
    • 4/5
      Our hero, an old man with a dying wife, begins loosing sleep and (he thinks) hallucinating. He can see auras around people, fields of light that change according to their mood and health and terminate in a long "balloon-string," their soul. And if that's not strange enough, he starts seeing three little bald men dressed as surgeons, who go around snipping people's strings. ( I could not make this up).

      On the whole, while I personally have some affection for this book, I can't give it my unconditional recommendation. Steven King has written many great pieces that anybody can read (Desperation, Hearts in Atlantis), but this is not one of them. While King fans will find a lot to like, anybody who's not already fimrly entrenched as a King enthusiast should probably stick to one of his more accessible books.
    • 5/5
      Good King.
    • 5/5
      I read this in 1995 and thought that I remembered the plot, but after almost 20 years, this book was new to me. It was wonderful in the suspense-filled, philosophical, fantastical, and horror-tinged way that only the best Stephen King books can be. The first time I read it my head was riled by The Random and The Purpose for days afterward, not so this time as life experience can certainly work it's cynical ways with you. I had a good cry at the end for the main character who was a really great guy in the average, everyday sort of hero way. Great read. Now I've got to read the Dark Tower series. Can't put it off any longer.
    • 4/5
      Another great read by Stephen King.

      And again too long ago to really write a proper review but I do highly recommend it.

      The book starts of slow but the characters are great and it gets better and better once you start to get what is going on.
      It is also very related to he Dark Tower series (which I love)
      Another one I am going to re-read in English on my kindle soon.
    • 4/5
      I liked Insomnia a lot. I was quite surprised by the older protagonists, although of course there are things which compensate for their age. It wasn't a bad surprise, either. I thought it might be harder to relate to Ralph and Lois because of it, but it ended up not really being a problem at all. The most fascinating character for me, though, was Ed Deepneau. It was interesting how he kept the photo with him until the very end.

      I loved a lot of the imagery that ran throughout this -- the auras, the "deathwatch", the "balloon strings". The Clotho/Lachesis/Atropos triad was a very, very interesting plot point. I love references to mythology. And the trade Ralph makes to save Nat breaks my heart a little, and is a lovely way to end things.

      It's also interesting to see all the links between this and other Stephen King books. I'm guessing that a large amount of the references were to The Dark Tower, which convinces me that it's probably time to start reading those.
    • 4/5
      Second in the Derry trilogy. I felt there was a good story here, King just missed it by trying too hard. The Greek mythological aspect is more successful than in Rose Madder, though the Dark Tower tie-in las act is mystifying.
    • 3/5
      I've been reading Stephen King novels for what seems like ages, and I love some of them. Some of them just fall a little flat for me. This is one that I'm not crazy about.Sure, it was entertaining, but there was nothing new of different or exciting about it. To me, it feels like it was phoned in, although something that is approximately 900 pages long would take one heck of a phone call.The protagonist, a recent widow, has increasing problems with severe insomnia, and starts seeing people's auras. And creepy little doctors. And good neighbors have become bad neighbors. Of course, the protagonist is called to save the world. Right-to-Lifers are pitted against Pro-Choice people, and this doesn't bode well for anyone.Despite a storyline I could have bought into, (I like Stephen King and have a pretty good capability of suspending my disbelief), this story just didn't resonate with me, didn't make me care about the characters nearly as much as some of his other books have done.I listened to an audio version of this book, and the narration by Eli Wallach also didn't work well for me. His voice as children was especially off-putting. But more than that, I really disliked the creepy, atmospheric music that was played at the beginning and end of segments. Sometimes it was so loud, it covered the words I was trying to hear. At any rate, for me the addition of the music detracted rather than added.So, I'll happily continue to read Stephen King novels, including older ones I never got around to reading, but this will just isn't one that drew me in.
    • 2/5
      I'm a great fan of Stephen King so when I didn't really enjoy this book I'd say it was more because the book wasn't aimed at me. Probably those who can associate more with Ralph and Lois will enjoy it, but for me it wasn't one of his best.
    • 4/5
      Scared the S&%@ out of me!
    • 2/5
      Every time I re-read another Stephen King novel, another fond memory is shattered. I was already of the opinion that King's earlier works, like Christine, Cujo, It and The Stand, were his finest hour, but now I'm not even sure he had one. This particular rambling epic is far too long, cribbing from previous novels and the Dark Tower series, and overflowing with King's corny, all-American, small-town, quasi-religious good vs. evil cliches. What I used to love about King's writing now makes me gag, I'm sorry to say.All I remembered about Insomnia from my first read was an elderly man who stops sleeping after the death of his wife, and starts seeing colourful auras around people. The auras represent health and mood and even thoughts, and there is a little umbilical 'balloon string' poking out of people's heads, measuring the length and condition of their lives. To counter this, King introduces the three Fates of Greek mythology, Clotho, Lachesis and Atropos, who spin, measure and cut the thread of human life. Two brilliant ideas, and I still remember the names of the Fates now, thanks to King.What I forgot - or possibly didn't notice, when I first read the novel in my teens - was the childish dialogue (what the hell does 'done-bun-can't be undone' mean, and do people really say 'goshdarn' anymore?), depressing nostalgia for the less than enlightened 1950s, when men were Working Joes and beat up their 'homemaking' wives, shameless references to King's other stories, heavy-handed condemnation of abortions, and weak ending. Ralph and Lois are the white hats, living honest-to-goodness Christian lives where love triumphs over hate, and the black hat is a foul-mouthed little demon, pilfered from Tolkien. The only recommendation I have for King's novels is that they are not exactly challenging to read, even 750 page exercises in ego, like this one. Disappointing.
    • 4/5
      Like much of the latter King overlong and overwritten. The book has always been personally compelling to me because I first read it during a period of my life when I suffered from dreadful insomnia. Like Ralph I find that everyone had a cure for me and none of them worked. To this day whenever I wake up at 3 in the morning I think of this book.It is interesting to see King attempt to expand on what had earlier been a more implied than clearly explicated shared universe.
    • 3/5
      Another one of my favorite King stories. Loved the men and their auras. Another of the only to make me cry
    • 3/5
      Good, but easily 300+ pages too long! Ralph can't sleep, Ralph sees auras, Ralph has a job to do, a job that is Dark Tower related. See, concise! I did like the abortion issue, the Old Crocs, and the characters. Just too long!
    • 4/5
      Despite the length of this novel I read through it at a pretty quick pace (at least for me). After hearing mixed reviews I finally decided to go for it. I was not disappointed at all. It is kind of hard to describe, and overall it has almost a metaphysical feel to it. Generally though it is kind of a sad story with an unsuspecting hero.King revisits many places in Derry that will be familiar to those who have read It, and this adds some character to the setting.This is certainly not my favourite King novel, but I wouldn't steer someone away from it either.One thing I found with It, was that King could have shortened the story by reducing the amount of time spent on the side stories. In Insomnia - there is not much time spent on side stories - things stay the course for the most part.
    • 4/5
      Currently reading and about to finish this book. This is my 3rd King book. I was never a huge Stephen King fan but was pushed to read him by my bf who is a big fan. The book has a slow start and is fairly long, the story really does not start to pick up until the second half of the book, which has caused me to take long pausing in reading because I was loosing interest. However once you get through that rough patch, the book is very good and as always very well writen.
    • 4/5
      It's been a long time since I've read one of the Derry novels. It's like slipping into an old pair of shoes, comfortable and familiar. I've got a vague feeling that I've read this one before, but it must have been over 20 years ago. Once again Mr King's skillful writing give you a near tactile experience of the ordinary every day things in Derry. You're soothed by the familiar so when the strange and creepy starts happening you go along with it. You get swept up in the details and the crazy becomes acceptable.As you'd expect there's a fair bit of crazy in this novel, tho nothing more odd than you'd expect from Derry. As an on/off insomniac myself I can say the Stephen King is either a sufferer himself or he really did his homework. I found myself feeling every bone weary move Ralph made as he tries to come to terms with less and less sleep. There's plenty of "ordinary working joes" in this story and although there is battle of sorts between good and evil I'm left with the vague feeling that no one really won. Saying that everything worked out for the best, or at least as well as short timers can hope for.Not exactly light summer reading as you find yourself very involved with the action and characters. Well worth a read if you like intelligent horrors than give you that odd creeping feeling up your spine.
    • 2/5
      Not one of Stephen King's better efforts. The story could have been told in half of the 749 pages. I persevered to the end but was disappointed. I was intrigued by the idea of auras which I don't think are that far fetched.
    • 4/5
      This book is one of King's more bizarre works. I bought it as a joke for my son who was experiencing a rather bad case of insomnia. I ended up reading the book since I am a fan of Stephen King. What I got out of the story took me completely by surprise and was nothing like I expected. It was a good read but bizarre to the extreme. This book reminded me that you never know what you will get when you read a Stephen King book. I enjoyed reading the book and couldn't put it down, but it is not the type of book I will read again and again. I would recommend this book to anyone who is a fan of King, Koontz, or their type of genre.
    • 5/5
      I'm doing a review on this book because i saw some from other people and it reminded me that its' in my collection. for some reason this brings to mind swan's song as well. these two books are two of my favorites. This book does twist and turn and kindof like from dusk til dawn throws you into a place you don't remotely expect, more like in a direction it wasn't headed to. However it is probably my favorite king novel, this and the bachman books. I was completely absorbed in the story and loved it. i have to admit when i started the book it gave me the creeps but it isn't that type of book. it is definently worth reading, and completely. i felt very drawn to the characters and i couldn't put it down either.
    • 5/5
      Another cracking story from the strange mind of Stephen King. I really enjoyed the caring and thoughtful way SK approached the subject of ageing and how he used his considerable prowess as a writer and story teller to give his, primarily elderly lead characters, charm and presence and made them very engaging in this rather dark but somewhat uplifting tale. I was quite surprised at the amount of story still to tell when I entered the epilogue, which in itself spans quite a few sub-chapters. I didn't enjoy this quite as much as Duma Key, I found myself losing interest a bit about 4/5ths of the way through, (Perhaps I couldn't go up to that level) but I'm ever so glad I stuck with it as my struggles were well rewarded with a wonderful tying up of another epic read. I cannot wait to choose my next venture into SK Land. But first I think a few other authors are calling me.NB: I noticed quite a few references to places and characters I'd met before in other books of his that I've read. I'm beginning to think I should read his books in chronological order of publication. I'm also beginning to think the Dark Tower series has moved a notch closer on my "Must Read" horizon,
    • 3/5
      Here's a rarity for me. A review of a Stephen King book that I just did not like.Troubled by the death of his wife, Ralph Roberts is having trouble sleeping. He spends the wee small hours of the morning staring out of his living room window... and he's started seeing the strangest things. Is it a glimpse of a hidden world, or is the lack of sleep causing hallucinations?Now that, friends, is a good setup for a horror novel. It has King's trademark strong and likeable characters that you come to care about. The story is quirky and interesting and unlike anything else that King has written. Unfortunately, Insomnia is one of Stephen King's books that I like the least.For the first 200 pages or so all we know is that Ralph is waking up a few minutes earlier each night. The book just sort of meanders along with no real plot or driving narrative. Ralph visits other old crocks, takes walks and gets increasingly frustrated at his inability to sleep. Any of the enjoyment in the book is due to the personality of the characters. Which is to say that two hundred pages in it is mainly "The Life and Times of Ralph Roberts: Sleepless Old Fart." The pacing is slooooooooooow.Once things do get rolling, my interest was piqued. But the further you go the more the story ties into King's Dark Tower universe. Many of King's books will have oblique references to the Tower. But here, the story ends up so connected to those books that I think a reader unfamiliar with Roland's struggles will be lost.The book also is saturated with abortion politics and it is not exactly unbiased. Now, I happen to agree with King's politics, so it didn't bother me. But I do wonder if at times it became intrusive to the story.So in the end, there's a fuzzy, slow-moving story, perhaps too heavily invested with abortion arguments and definitely too connected to an 'outside' series of books. Yeah, the characters are great, but you can get that in almost every King book. Even King (in On Writing) refers to Insomnia as a "stiff, trying-too-hard novel." Well, at least we agree on that.
    • 2/5
      Way, way, way too trippy.
    • 5/5
      In this Stephen King book you must prepare yourself to face the supernatural and the spine tingling yet again. In his book, Insomnia, you walk with two elderly people, facing the struggles of insomnia, and the supernatural powers that come with the lack of sleep. I never thought that a horror book could be so heartwarming, but you find yourself loving the main characters. This book is very well written, and stays true to the Stephen King style we all love. It is a must read for anyone loving horror, suspense, supernatural, or mystery stories. A book for young and old alike.
    • 2/5
      I love Stephen King but this book was the one I liked the least. It started out good then turned redundant. I had to FORCE myself to finish reading the whole book,.
    • 5/5
      This is one of my favorite King novels. It is smart, plausible, in an odd sort of way, and terrifying. I think it is a commentary on the thought that when your time is up, there is nothing you can do. You will never look at balloon strings the same way.
    • 4/5
      The story of Ralph Roberts. We have a local book publisher and public access tv star named Ralph Roberts. I find this very amusing. If you are familiar with mythology you will recognize the Moirae, or the fates. Their names are intact, yet here they have manifested not as women but short bald doctors. The Crimson King is here (rock on King Crimson) and he is up to no good. Ralph and his girlfriend (both elderly, which I think is cool, I've always been old) travel in different planes of reality which give one the distinctive feel of dream landscape. Something King is skilled in providing. My favorite part is where Ralph and Lois are tracking down Atropos on railroad tracks when they come by a vagrant who is drunk on Boones Farm. The suck up his energy and continue to track down Atropos. They come to his lair which is under an old oak tree. Ralph has a lot of slicing to do here. I'm sure you too have had dream sequences similiar to what takes place.
    • 2/5
      Rated: PG-13 Language
      Through some paranormal quirk Ralph Roberts gets a look into alternate view of our world. As always Stephen King is very descriptive, and fun to read. One of the better Stephen King endings.
      There is a lot of crossover in this book with the Gun Slinger series. That is really fun for me, but if you haven't read the Gun Slinger series I could see this crossover as annoying.
    • 4/5
      Insomnia seems to be Stephen King's attempt at a morality tale, which succeeds with mixed results. He creates a cast of memorable characters. I found his use of an elderly couple as his hero/heroine to be both unique and charming and the epilogue (that continues to follow these characters) is, without a doubt, touching. King's lurking references to his other works also surface here (s0mething I've always enjoyed in his work). On the other hand there, are a quite few times when the story starts becoming rather ridiculous and laughable - not a response I think the author had intended. Over all, it's not a bad read if you have the time.
    • 2/5
      One of his worst...it put me to sleep, fast....took me 6 months to finish..read other books in between. Weak plaot, weak characters and too overblown...

    Book preview

    Insomnia - Stephen King

    Prologue:

    Winding the Deathwatch

    (I)

    Old age is an island surrounded by death.

    —Juan Montalvo

    On Beauty

    1

    No one—least of all Dr. Litchfield—came right out and told Ralph Roberts that his wife was going to die, but there came a time when Ralph understood without needing to be told. The months between March and June were a jangling, screaming time inside his head—a time of conferences with doctors, of evening runs to the hospital with Carolyn, of trips to other hospitals in other states for special tests (Ralph spent much of his travel time on these trips thanking God for Carolyn’s Blue Cross/Major Medical coverage), of personal research in the Derry Public Library, at first looking for answers the specialists might have overlooked, later on just looking for hope and grasping at straws.

    Those four months were like being dragged drunk through some malign carnival where the people on the rides were really screaming, the people lost in the mirror maze were really lost, and the denizens of Freak Alley looked at you with false smiles on their lips and terror in their eyes. Ralph began to see these things by the middle of May, and as June set in, he began to understand that the pitchmen along the medical midway had only quack remedies to sell, and the cheery quickstep of the calliope could no longer quite hide the fact that the tune spilling out of the loudspeakers was The Funeral March. It was a carnival, all right; the carnival of lost souls.

    Ralph continued to deny these terrible images—and the even more terrible idea lurking behind them—all through the early summer of 1992, but as June gave way to July, this finally became impossible. The worst midsummer heatwave since 1971 rolled over central Maine, and Derry simmered in a bath of hazy sun, humidity, and daily temperatures in the mid-nineties. The city—hardly a bustling metropolis at the best of times—fell into a complete stupor, and it was in this hot silence that Ralph Roberts first heard the ticking of the deathwatch and understood that in the passage from June’s cool damp greens to the baked stillness of July, Carolyn’s slim chances had become no chances at all. She was going to die. Not this summer, probably—the doctors claimed to have quite a few tricks up their sleeves yet, and Ralph was sure they did—but this fall or this winter. His longtime companion, the only woman he had ever loved, was going to die. He tried to deny the idea, scolding himself for being a morbid old fool, but in the gasping silences of those long hot days, Ralph heard that ticking everywhere—it even seemed to be in the walls.

    Yet it was loudest from within Carolyn herself, and when she turned her calm white face toward him—perhaps to ask him to turn on the radio so she could listen while she shelled some beans for their supper, or to ask him if he would go across to the Red Apple and get her an ice cream on a stick—he would see that she heard it, too. He would see it in her dark eyes, at first only when she was straight, but later even when her eyes were hazed by the pain medication she took. By then the ticking had grown very loud, and when Ralph lay in bed beside her on those hot summer nights when even a single sheet seemed to weigh ten pounds and he believed every dog in Derry was barking at the moon, he listened to it, to the deathwatch ticking inside Carolyn, and it seemed to him that his heart would break with sorrow and terror. How much would she be required to suffer before the end came? How much would he be required to suffer? And how could he possibly live without her?

    It was during this strange, fraught period that Ralph began to go for increasingly long walks through the hot summer afternoons and slow, twilit evenings, returning on many occasions too exhausted to eat. He kept expecting Carolyn to scold him for these outings, to say Why don’t you stop it, you stupid old man? You’ll kill yourself if you keep walking in this heat! But she never did, and he gradually realized she didn’t even know. That he went out, yes—she knew that. But not all the miles he went, or that when he came home he was often trembling with exhaustion and near sunstroke. Once upon a time it had seemed to Ralph she saw everything, even a change of half an inch in where he parted his hair. No more; the tumor in her brain had stolen her powers of observation, as it would soon steal her life.

    So he walked, relishing the heat in spite of the way it sometimes made his head swim and his ears ring, relishing it mostly because of the way it made his ears ring; sometimes there were whole hours when they rang so loudly and his head pounded so fiercely that he couldn’t hear the tick of Carolyn’s deathwatch.

    He walked over much of Derry that hot July, a narrow-shouldered old man with thinning white hair and big hands that still looked capable of hard work. He walked from Witcham Street to the Barrens, from Kansas Street to Neibolt Street, from Main Street to the Kissing Bridge, but his feet took him most frequently west along Harris Avenue, where the still beautiful and much beloved Carolyn Roberts was now spending her last year in a haze of headaches and morphine, to the Harris Avenue Extension and Derry County Airport. He would walk out the Extension—which was treeless and completely exposed to the pitiless sun—until he felt his legs threatening to cave in beneath him, and then double back.

    He often paused to catch his second wind in a shady picnic area close to the airport’s service entrance. At night this place was a teenage drinking and makeout spot, alive with the sounds of rap coming from boombox radios, but during the days it was the more-or-less exclusive domain of a group Ralph’s friend Bill McGovern called the Harris Avenue Old Crocks. The Old Crocks gathered to play chess, to play gin, or just to shoot the shit. Ralph had known many of them for years (had, in fact, gone to grammar school with Stan Eberly), and was comfortable with them… as long as they didn’t get too nosy. Most didn’t. They were old-school Yankees, for the most part, raised to believe that what a man doesn’t choose to talk about is no one’s business but his own.

    It was on one of these walks that he first became aware that something had gone very wrong with Ed Deepneau, his neighbor from up the street.

    2

    Ralph had walked much farther out the Harris Avenue Extension than usual that day, possibly because thunderheads had blotted out the sun and a cool, if sporadic, breeze had begun to blow. He had fallen into a kind of trance, not thinking of anything, not watching anything but the dusty toes of his sneakers, when the four-forty-five United Airlines flight from Boston swooped low overhead, startling him back to where he was with the teeth-rattling whine of its jet engines.

    He watched it cross above the old GS&WM railroad tracks and the Cyclone fence that marked the edge of the airport, watched it settle toward the runway, marked the blue puffs of smoke as its wheels touched down. Then he glanced at his watch, saw how late it was getting, and looked up with wide eyes at the orange roof of the Howard Johnson’s just up the road. He had been in a trance, all right; he had walked more than five miles without the slightest sense of time passing.

    Carolyn’s time, a voice deep inside his head muttered.

    Yes, yes; Carolyn’s time. She would be back in the apartment, counting the minutes until she could have another Darvon Complex, and he was out on the far side of the airport… halfway to Newport, in fact.

    Ralph looked up at the sky and for the first time really saw the bruise-purple thunderheads which were stacking up over the airport. They did not mean rain, not for sure, not yet, but if it did rain, he was almost surely going to be caught in it; there was nowhere to shelter between here and the little picnic area back by Runway 3, and there was nothing there but a ratty little gazebo that always smelled faintly of beer.

    He took another look at the orange roof, then reached into his righthand pocket and felt the little sheaf of bills held by the silver money-clip Carolyn had given him for his sixty-fifth. There was nothing to prevent him walking up to HoJo’s and calling a cab… except maybe for the thought of how the driver might look at him. Stupid old man, the eyes in the rear-view mirror might say. Stupid old man, walked a lot further than you shoulda on a hot day. If you’d been swimming, you woulda drownded.

    Paranoid, Ralph, the voice in his head told him, and now its clucky, slightly patronizing tone reminded him of Bill McGovern.

    Well, maybe it was and maybe it wasn’t. Either way, he thought he would chance the rain and walk back.

    What if it doesn’t just rain? Last summer it hailed so hard that one time in August it broke windows all over the west side.

    Let it hail, then, he said. I don’t bruise that easy.

    Ralph began to walk slowly back toward town along the shoulder of the Extension, his old high-tops raising small, parched puffs of dust as he went. He could hear the first rumbles of thunder in the west, where the clouds were stacking up. The sun, although blotted out, was refusing to quit without a fight; it edged the thunderheads with bands of brilliant gold and shone through occasional rifts in the clouds like the fragmented beam of some huge movie-projector. Ralph found himself feeling glad he had decided to walk, in spite of the ache in his legs and the steady nagging pain in the small of his back.

    One thing, at least, he thought. I’ll sleep tonight. I’ll sleep like a damn rock.

    The verge of the airport—acres of dead brown grass with the rusty railroad tracks sunk in them like the remains of some old wreck—was now on his left. Far in the distance beyond the Cyclone fence he could see the United 747, now the size of a child’s toy plane, taxiing toward the small terminal which United and Delta shared.

    Ralph’s gaze was caught by another vehicle, this one a car, leaving the General Aviation terminal, which stood at this end of the airport. It was heading across the tarmac toward the small service entrance which gave on the Harris Avenue Extension. Ralph had watched a lot of vehicles come and go through that entrance just lately; it was only seventy yards or so from the picnic area where the Harris Avenue Old Crocks gathered. As the car approached the gate, Ralph recognized it as Ed and Helen Deepneau’s Datsun… and it was really moving.

    Ralph stopped on the shoulder, unaware that his hands had curled into anxious fists as the small brown car bore down on the closed gate. You needed a key-card to open the gate from the outside; from the inside an electric-eye beam did the job. But the beam was set close to the gate, very close, and at the speed the Datsun was going…

    At the last moment (or so it seemed to Ralph), the small brown car scrunched to a stop, the tires sending up puffs of blue smoke that made Ralph think of the 747 touching down, and the gate began to trundle slowly open on its track. Ralph’s fisted hands relaxed.

    An arm emerged from the driver’s-side window of the Datsun and began to wave up and down, apparently haranguing the gate, urging it to hurry up. There was something so absurd about this that Ralph began to smile. The smile died before it had exposed even a gleam of teeth, however. The wind was still freshening from the west, where the thunderheads were, and it carried the screaming voice of the Datsun’s driver:

    You son of a bitch fucker! You bastard! Eat my cock! Hurry up! Hurry up and lick shit, you fucking asshole cuntlapper! Fucking booger! Ratdick ringmeat! Suckhole!

    That can’t be Ed Deepneau, Ralph murmured. He began to walk again without realizing it. "Can’t be."

    Ed was a research chemist at the Hawking Laboratories research facility in Fresh Harbor, one of the kindest, most civil young men Ralph had ever met. Both he and Carolyn were very fond of Ed’s wife, Helen, and their new baby, Natalie, as well. A visit from Natalie was one of the few things with the power to lift Carolyn out of her own life these days, and, sensing this, Helen brought her over frequently. Ed never complained. There were men, he knew, who wouldn’t have cared to have the missus running to the old folks down the street every time the baby did some new and entrancing thing, especially when the granny-figure in the picture was ill. Ralph had an idea that Ed wouldn’t be able to tell someone to go to hell without suffering a sleepless night in consequence, but—

    You fucking whoremaster! Move your sour shit-caked ass, you hear me? Butt-fucker! Cunt-rammer!

    But it sure sounded like Ed. Even from two or three hundred yards away, it certainly sounded like him.

    Now the driver of the Datsun was revving his engine like a kid in a muscle-car waiting for the light to turn green. Clouds of exhaust smoke farted up from the tailpipe. As soon as the gate had retracted enough to allow the Datsun passage, the car leaped forward, squirting through the gap with its engine roaring, and when it did, Ralph got a clear look at the driver. He was close enough now for there to be no doubt: it was Ed, all right.

    The Datsun bounced along the short unpaved stretch of lane between the gate and the Harris Street Extension. A horn blared suddenly, and Ralph saw a blue Ford Ranger, heading west on the Extension, swerve to avoid the oncoming Datsun. The driver of the pickup saw the danger too late, and Ed apparently never saw it at all (it was only later that Ralph came to consider Ed might have rammed the Ranger on purpose). There was a brief scream of tires followed by the hollow bang of the Datsun’s fender driving into the Ford’s sidewall. The pickup was driven halfway across the yellow line. The Datsun’s hood crumpled, came unlatched, and popped up a little; headlight glass tinkled into the street. A moment later both vehicles were dead in the middle of the road, tangled together like some weird sculpture.

    Ralph stood where he was for the time being, watching as oil spread beneath the Datsun’s front end. He had seen several road-accidents in his almost-seventy years, most of them minor, one or two serious, and he was always stunned by how quickly they happened and how little drama there was. It wasn’t like in the movies, where the camera could slow things down, or on a videotape, where you could watch the car go off the cliff again and again if you so chose; there was usually just a series of converging blurs, followed by that quick and toneless combination of sounds: the cry of the tires, the hollow bang of metal crimping metal, the tinkle of glass. Then, voilà—tout fini.

    There was even a kind of protocol for this sort of thing: How One Should Behave When Involved in a Low-Speed Collision. Of course there was, Ralph mused. There were probably a dozen two-bit collisions in Derry every day, and maybe twice that number in the wintertime, when there was snow and the roads got slippery. You got out, you met your opposite number at the point where the two vehicles had come together (and where, quite often, they were still entwined), you looked, you shook your heads. Sometimes—often, actually—this phase of the encounter was marked with angry words: fault was assigned (often rashly), driving skills impugned, legal action threatened. Ralph supposed what the drivers were really trying to say without coming right out and saying it was Listen, fool, you scared the living hell out of me!

    The final step in this unhappy little dance was The Exchange of the Sacred Insurance Screeds, and it was at this point that the drivers usually began to get control of their galloping emotions… always assuming that no one had been hurt, as appeared to be the case here. Sometimes the drivers involved even finished up by shaking hands.

    Ralph prepared to watch all this from his vantage point less than a hundred and fifty yards away, but as soon as the driver’s door of the Datsun opened he understood that things were going to go differently here—that the accident was maybe not over but still happening. It certainly did not seem that anyone was going to shake at the end of these festivities.

    The door did not swing open; it flew open. Ed Deepneau leaped out, then simply stood stock-still beside his car, his slim shoulders squared against a background of deepening clouds. He was wearing faded jeans and a tee-shirt, and Ralph realized that before today he had never seen Ed in a shirt that didn’t button up the front. And there was something around his neck: a long white something. A scarf? It looked like a scarf, but why would anyone be wearing a scarf on a day as hot as this one had been?

    Ed stood beside his wounded car for a moment, seeming to look in every direction but the right one. The fierce little pokes of his narrow head reminded Ralph of the way roosters studied their barnyard turf, looking for invaders and interlopers. Something about that similarity made Ralph feel uneasy. He had never seen Ed look that way before, and he supposed that was part of it, but it wasn’t all of it. The truth of the matter was simply this: he had never seen anyone look exactly like that.

    Thunder rumbled in the west, louder now. And closer.

    The man getting out of the Ranger would have made two of Ed Deepneau, possibly three. His vast, deep belly hung over the rolled waistband of his green chino workpants; there were sweatstains the size of dinner-plates under the arms of his open-throated white shirt. He tipped back the bill of the West Side Gardeners gimme-cap he was wearing to get a better look at the man who had broadsided him. His heavy-jowled face was dead pale except for bright patches of color like rouge high on his cheekbones, and Ralph thought: There’s a man who’s a prime candidate for a heart-attack. If I was closer I bet I’d be able to see the creases in his earlobes.

    Hey! the heavyset guy yelled at Ed. The voice coming out of that broad chest and deep gut was absurdly thin, almost reedy. Where’d you get your license? Fuckin Sears n Roebuck?

    Ed’s wandering, jabbing head swung immediately toward the sound of the big man’s voice—seemed almost to home in, like a jet guided by radar—and Ralph got his first good look at Ed’s eyes. He felt a bolt of alarm light up in his chest and suddenly began to run toward the accident. Ed, meanwhile, had started toward the man in the sweat-soaked white shirt and gimme-cap. He was walking in a stiff-legged, high-shouldered strut that was nothing at all like his usual easygoing amble.

    Ed! Ralph shouted, but the freshening breeze—cold now with the promise of rain—seemed to snatch the words away before they could even get out of his mouth. Certainly Ed never turned. Ralph made himself run faster, the ache in his legs and the throbbing in the small of his back forgotten. It was murder he had seen in Ed Deepneau’s wide, unblinking eyes. He had absolutely no previous experience upon which to base such an assessment, but he didn’t think you could mistake such a naked glare; it was the look fighting cocks must wear when they launch themselves at each other, spurs up and slashing. Ed! Hey, Ed, hold up! It’s Ralph!

    Not so much as a glance around, although Ralph was now so close that Ed must have heard, wind or no wind. Certainly the heavyset man glanced around, and Ralph could see both fear and uncertainty in his look. Then Heavyset turned back to Ed and raised his hands placatingly.

    Look, he said. We can talk—

    That was as far as he got. Ed took another quick step forward, reached up with one slim hand—it was very white in the rapidly darkening day—and slapped Heavyset across his far from inconsiderable jowls. The sound was like the report of a kid’s air rifle.

    How many have you killed? Ed asked.

    Heavyset pressed back against the side of his pickup, his mouth open, his eyes wide. Ed’s queer, stiff strut never faltered. He walked into the other man and stood belly to belly with him, seemingly oblivious of the fact that the pickup’s driver was four inches taller and outweighed him by a hundred pounds or more. Ed reached up and slapped him again. "Come on! Fess up, brave boy—how many have you killed?" His voice rose to a shriek that was lost in the coming storm’s first really authoritative clap of thunder.

    Heavyset pushed him away—a gesture not of aggression but of simple fright—and Ed went reeling backward against the crumpled nose of his Datsun. He bounced back at once, fists clenched, gathering himself to leap at Heavyset, who was cringing against the side of his truck with his gimme-cap now askew and his shirt untucked in the back and at the sides. A memory flashed across Ralph’s mind—a Three Stooges short he’d seen years ago, Larry, Curly, and Moe playing painters without a clue—and he felt a sudden surge of sympathy for Heavyset, who looked absurd as well as scared to death.

    Ed Deepneau did not look absurd. With his yanked-back lips and wide, unblinking eyes, Ed looked more like a fighting cock than ever. I know what you’ve been doing, he whispered to Heavyset. What kind of comedy did you think this was? Did you think you and your butcher friends could get away with it forev—

    At that moment Ralph arrived, puffing and gasping like an old carthorse, and put an arm around Ed’s shoulders. The heat beneath the thin tee-shirt was unnerving; it was like putting an arm around an oven, and when Ed turned to look at him, Ralph had the momentary (but unforgettable) impression that that was exactly what he was looking into. He had never seen such utter, unreasoning fury in a pair of human eyes; had never even suspected such fury might exist.

    Ralph’s immediate impulse was to recoil, but he suppressed it and stood firm. He had an idea that if he pulled back, Ed would fall on him like a rogue dog, biting and clawing. It was absurd, of course; Ed was a research chemist, Ed was a member of the Book-of-the-Month Club (the kind who took the twenty-pound histories of the Crimean War they always seemed to offer as alternates to the main selection), Ed was Helen’s husband and Natalie’s Dad. Hell, Ed was a friend.

    … except this wasn’t Ed, and Ralph knew it.

    Instead of pulling back, Ralph leaned forward, grasped Ed’s shoulders (so hot under the tee-shirt, so incredibly, throbbingly hot), and moved his face until it blocked Heavyset from Ed’s creepy fixed gaze.

    Ed, quit it! Ralph said. He used the loud but steadily firm voice he assumed one used with people who were having hysterics. You’re all right! Just quit it!

    For a moment Ed’s fixed gaze didn’t waver, and then his eyes moved over Ralph’s face. It wasn’t much, but Ralph felt a small surge of relief just the same.

    What’s the matter with him? Heavyset asked from behind Ralph. He crazy, do you think?

    He’s fine, I’m sure, Ralph said, although he was sure of no such thing. He spoke out of the corner of his mouth, and didn’t take his eyes from Ed. He didn’t dare take his eyes from Ed—that contact felt like the only hold he had over the man, and a tenuous one at best. Just shaken up from the crash. He needs a few seconds to calm d—

    Ask him what he’s got under that tarp! Ed yelled suddenly, and pointed over Ralph’s shoulder. Lightning flashed, and for a moment the pitted scars of Ed’s adolescent acne were thrown into sharp relief, like some strange organic treasure map. Thunder rolled. Hey, hey, Susan Day! he chanted in a high, childlike voice that made Ralph’s forearms break out in goosebumps. How many kids did you kill today?

    He ain’t shook up, Heavyset said. He’s crazy. And when the cops get here, I’m gonna see he gets tooken in.

    Ralph glanced around and saw a blue tarpaulin stretched across the bed of the pickup. It had been tied down with bright yellow hanks of rope. Round shapes bulked beneath it.

    Ralph? a timid voice asked.

    He glanced to his left and saw Dorrance Marstellar—at ninety-something easily the oldest of the Harris Avenue Old Crocks—standing just beyond Heavyset’s pickup truck. There was a paperback book in his waxy, liverspotted hands, and Dorrance was bending it anxiously back and forth, giving the spine a real workout. Ralph supposed it was a book of poetry, which was all he had ever seen old Dorrance read. Or maybe he didn’t really read at all; maybe he just liked to hold the books and look at the artfully stacked words.

    Ralph, what’s wrong? What’s happening?

    More lightning flashed overhead, a purple-white snarl of electricity. Dorrance looked up at it as if unsure of where he was, who he was, or what he was seeing. Ralph groaned inside.

    Dorrance— he began, and then Ed lunged beneath him, like some wild animal which has lain quiet only to regain its strength. Ralph staggered, then pushed Ed back against the crumpled hood of his Datsun. He felt panicky—unsure of what to do next or how to do it. There were too many things going on at once. He could feel the muscles in Ed’s arms humming fiercely just below his grip; it was almost as if the man had somehow swallowed a bolt of the lightning now loose in the sky.

    Ralph? Dorrance asked in that same calm but worried voice. I wouldn’t touch him anymore, if I were you. I can’t see your hands.

    Oh, good. Another lunatic to deal with. Just what he needed.

    Ralph glanced down at his hands, then looked at the old man. What are you talking about, Dorrance?

    Your hands, Dorrance said patiently. I can’t see your—

    This is no place for you, Dor—why don’t you get lost?

    The old man brightened a little at that. Yes! he said in the tone of one who has just stumbled over a great truth. That’s just what I oughtta do! He began to back up, and when the thunder cracked again, he cringed and put his book on top of his head. Ralph was able to read the bright red letters of the title: Buckdancer’s Choice. "It’s what you ought to do, too, Ralph. You don’t want to mess in with long-time business. It’s a good way to get hurt."

    What are you—

    But before Ralph could finish, Dorrance turned his back and went lumbering off in the direction of the picnic area with his fringe of white hair—as gossamer as the hair on a new baby’s head—rippling in the breeze of the oncoming storm.

    One problem solved, but Ralph’s relief was short-lived. Ed had been temporarily distracted by Dorrance, but now he was looking daggers at Heavyset again. Cuntlicker! he spat. Fucked your mother and licked her cunt!

    Heavyset’s enormous brow drew down. What?

    Ed’s eyes shifted back to Ralph, whom he now seemed to recognize. Ask him what’s under that tarp! he cried. Better yet, get the murdering cocksucker to show you!

    Ralph looked at the heavyset man. What have you got under there?

    What’s it to you? Heavyset asked, perhaps trying to sound truculent. He sampled the look in Ed Deepneau’s eyes and took two more sidling steps away.

    Nothing to me, something to him, Ralph said, lifting his chin in Ed’s direction. Just help me cool him out, okay?

    You know him?

    Murderer! Ed repeated, and this time he lunged hard enough under Ralph’s hands to drive him back a step. Yet something was happening, wasn’t it? Ralph thought the scary, vacant look was seeping out of Ed’s eyes. There seemed to be a little more Ed in there than there had been before… or perhaps that was only wishful thinking. "Murderer, baby murderer!"

    Jesus, what a looney tune, Heavyset said, but he went to the rear of the truckbed, yanked one of the ropes free, and peeled back a corner of the tarpaulin. Beneath it were four pressboard barrels, each marked WEED-GO. Organic fertilizer, Heavyset said, his eyes flicking from Ed to Ralph and then back to Ed again. He touched the bill of his West Side Gardeners cap. "I spent the day workin on a set of new flower-beds outside the Derry Psych Wing… where you could stand a short vacation, friend."

    Fertilizer? Ed asked. It was himself he seemed to be speaking to. His left hand rose slowly to his temple and began to rub there. Fertilizer? He sounded like a man questioning some simple yet staggering scientific development.

    Fertilizer, Heavyset agreed. He glanced back at Ralph and said, This guy is sick in the head. You know it?

    He’s confused, that’s all, Ralph answered uneasily. He leaned over the side of the truck and rapped a barrel-top. Then he turned back to Ed. Barrels of fertilizer, he said. Okay?

    No response. Ed’s right hand rose and began to rub at his other temple. He looked like a man sinking into a terrible migraine.

    Okay? Ralph repeated gently.

    Ed closed his eyes for a moment, and when they opened again, Ralph observed a sheen in them he thought was probably tears. Ed’s tongue slipped out and dabbed delicately first at one corner of his mouth and then the other. He took the end of his silk scarf and wiped his forehead, and as he did, Ralph saw there were Chinese figures embroidered on it in red, just above the fringe.

    I guess maybe— he began, and then broke off. His eyes widened again in that look Ralph didn’t like. Babies! he rasped. "You hear me? Babies!"

    Ralph shoved him back against his car for the third or fourth time—he’d lost count. What are you talking about, Ed? An idea suddenly occurred to him. Is it Natalie? Are you worried about Natalie?

    A small, crafty smile touched Ed’s lips. He looked past Ralph at the heavyset man. Fertilizer, huh? Well, if that’s all it is, you won’t mind opening one of them, will you?

    Heavyset looked at Ralph uneasily. Man needs a doctor, he said.

    "Maybe he does. But he was calming down, I thought… Could you open one of those barrels? It might make him feel better."

    Yeah, sure, what the heck. In for a penny, in for a pound.

    There was another flash of lightning, another heavy blast of thunder—one that seemed to go rolling all the way across the sky this time—and a cold spackle of rain struck the back of Ralph’s sweaty neck. He glanced to his left and saw Dorrance Marstellar standing at the entrance to the picnic area, book in hand, watching the three of them anxiously.

    It’s gonna rain a pretty bitch, looks like, Heavyset said, and I can’t let this stuff get wet. It starts a chemical reaction. So look fast. He felt around between one of the barrels and the sidewall of his truck for a moment, then came up with a crowbar. I must be as nutty as he is, doin this, he said to Ralph. "I mean, I was just goin along home, mindin my business. He hit me."

    Go on, Ralph said. It’ll only take a second.

    Yeah, Heavyset replied sourly, turning and setting the flat end of the crowbar under the lid of the nearest barrel, but the memories will last a lifetime.

    Another thunderclap rocked the day just then, and Heavyset did not hear what Ed Deepneau said next. Ralph did, however, and it chilled the pit of his stomach.

    Those barrels are full of dead babies, Ed said. You’ll see.

    Heavyset popped the lid on the end barrel, and such was the conviction in Ed’s voice that Ralph almost expected to see tangles of arms and legs and bundles of small hairless heads. Instead, he saw a mixture of fine blue crystals and brown stuff. The smell which rose from the barrel was rich and peaty, with a thin chemical undertone.

    See? Satisfied? Heavyset asked, speaking directly to Ed again. I ain’t Ray Joubert or that guy Dahmer after all. How ’bout that!

    The look of confusion was back on Ed’s face, and when the thunder cracked overhead again, he cringed a little. He leaned over, reached a hand toward the barrel, then looked a question at Heavyset.

    The big man nodded to him, almost sympathetically, Ralph thought. Sure, touch it, fine by me. But if it rains while you’re holdin a fistful, you’ll dance like John Travolta. It burns.

    Ed reached into the barrel, grabbed some of the mix, and let it run through his fingers. He shot Ralph a perplexed look (there was an element of embarrassment in that look as well, Ralph thought), and then sank his arm into the barrel all the way to the elbow.

    Hey! Heavyset cried, startled. That ain’t a box of Cracker Jack!

    For a moment the crafty grin resurfaced on Ed’s face—a look that said I know a trick worth two of that—and then it subsided into puzzlement again as he found nothing farther down but more fertilizer. When he drew his arm out of the barrel, it was dusty and aromatic with the mix. Another flash of lightning exploded above the airport. The thunder which followed was almost deafening.

    Get that off your skin before it rains, I’m warning you, Heavyset said. He reached through the Ranger’s open passenger window and produced a McDonald’s take-out sack. He rummaged in it, came out with a couple of napkins, and handed them to Ed, who began to wipe the fertilizer dust from his forearm like a man in a dream. While he did this, Heavyset replaced the lid on the barrel, tamping it into place with one large, freckled fist and taking quick glances up at the darkening sky. When Ed touched the shoulder of his white shirt, the man stiffened and pulled away, looking at Ed warily.

    I think I owe you an apology, Ed said, and to Ralph his voice sounded completely clear and sane for the first time.

    You’re damn tooting, Heavyset said, but he sounded relieved. He stretched the plastic-coated tarpaulin back into place and tied it in a series of quick, efficient gestures.

    Watching him, Ralph was struck by what a sly thief time was. Once he could have tied that same sheetbend with that same dextrous ease. Today he could still tie it, but it would take him at least two minutes and maybe three of his best curse-words.

    Heavyset patted the tarp and then turned to them, folding his arms across the substantial expanse of his chest. Did you see the accident? he asked Ralph.

    No, Ralph said at once. He had no idea why he was lying, but the decision to do it was instantaneous. I was watching the plane land. The United.

    To his complete surprise, the flushed patches on Heavyset’s cheeks began to spread. You were watching it, too! Ralph thought suddenly. And not just watching it land, either, or you wouldn’t be blushing like that… you were watching it taxi!

    This thought was followed by a complete revelation: Heavyset thought the accident had been his fault, or that the cop or cops who showed up to investigate might read it that way. He had been watching the plane and hadn’t seen Ed’s reckless charge through the service gate and out to the Extension.

    "Look, I’m really sorry," Ed was saying earnestly, but he actually looked more than sorry; he looked dismayed. Ralph suddenly found himself wondering how much he trusted that expression, and if he really had even the slightest idea of

    (Hey, hey, Susan Day)

    what had just happened here… and who the hell was Susan Day, anyhow?

    I bumped my head on the steering wheel, Ed was saying, and I guess it… you know, it rattled my cage pretty good.

    Yeah, I guess it did, Heavyset said. He scratched his head, looked up at the dark and convoluted sky, then looked back at Ed again. Want to make you a deal, friend.

    Oh? What deal is that?

    Let’s just exchange names and phone numbers instead of going through all that insurance shit. Then you go your way and I go mine.

    Ed looked uncertainly at Ralph, who shrugged, and then back at the man in the West Side Gardeners cap.

    If we get into it with the cops, Heavyset went on, I’m in for a ration of shit. First thing they’re going to find out when they call it in is I had an OUI last winter, and I’m drivin on a provisional license. They’re apt to make problems for me even though I was on the main drag and had the right-of-way. See what I mean?

    Yes, Ed said, I guess so, but the accident was entirely my fault. I was going much too fast—

    The accident part is maybe not so important, Heavyset said, then looked mistrustfully around at an approaching panel truck that was pulling over onto the shoulder. He looked back at Ed again and spoke with some urgency. You lost some oil, but it’s stopped leakin now. I bet you could drive her home… if you live here in town. You live here in town?

    Yes, Ed said.

    And I’d stand you good on repairs, up to fifty bucks or so.

    Another revelation struck Ralph; it was the only thing he could think of to explain the man’s sudden change from truculence to something close to wheedling. An OUI last winter? Yes, probably. But Ralph had never heard of such a thing as a provisional license, and thought it was almost certainly bullshit. Old Mr. West Side Gardeners had been driving without a license. What complicated the situation was this: Ed was telling the truth—the accident had been entirely his fault.

    If we just drive away and call it good, Heavyset was going on, "I don’t have to explain all over again about my OUI and you don’t have to explain why you jumped out of your car and started slapping me and yelling about how I had a truckload of dead bodies."

    Did I actually say that? Ed asked, sounding bewildered.

    You know you did, Heavyset told him grimly.

    A voice with a wispy French-Canadian accent asked, Everyt’ing okay here, fellers? Nobody hurt?… Eyyy, Ralph! Dat you?

    The truck which had pulled over had DERRY DRY CLEANERS printed on the side, and Ralph recognized the driver as one of the Vachon brothers from Old Cape. Probably Trigger, the youngest.

    That’s me, Ralph said, and without knowing or asking himself why—he was operating purely on instinct at this point—he went to Trigger, put an arm around his shoulders, and led him back in the direction of the laundry truck.

    Dem guys okay?

    Fine, fine, Ralph said. He glanced back and saw that Ed and Heavyset were standing by the truckbed with their heads together. Another cold spatter of rain fell, drumming on the blue tarpaulin like impatient fingers. A little fender-bender, that’s all. They’re working it out.

    Beauty, beauty, Trigger Vachon said complacently. Howdat pretty little wife of yours, Ralph?

    Ralph twitched, suddenly feeling like a man who remembers at lunch that he has forgotten to turn off the stove before leaving for work. Jesus! he said, and looked at his watch, hoping for five-fifteen, five-thirty at the latest. Instead he saw it was ten minutes of six. Already twenty minutes past the time Carolyn expected him to bring her a bowl of soup and half a sandwich. She would be worried. In fact, with the lightning and the thunder booming through the empty apartment, she might be downright scared. And if it did rain, she would not be able to close the windows; she had almost no strength left in her hands.

    Ralph? Trigger asked. What’s wrong?

    Nothing, he said. It’s just that I got walking and lost all track of time. Then this accident happened, and… could you give me a ride home, Trig? I’ll pay you.

    No need to pay nuttin, Trigger said. It’s on my way. Hop in, Ralph. You t’ink dose guys gonna be all right? Ain’t gonna take after each udder or nuttin?

    No, Ralph said. I don’t think so. Just one second.

    Sure.

    Ralph walked over to Ed. Are you okay with this? Are you getting it worked out?

    Yes, Ed replied. We’re going to settle it privately. Why not? A little broken glass is all it really comes down to.

    He sounded completely like his old self now, and the big man in the white shirt was looking at him with something that was almost respect. Ralph still felt perplexed and uneasy about what had happened here, but he decided he was going to let it go. He liked Ed Deepneau a lot, but Ed was not his business this July; Carolyn was. Carolyn and the thing which had started ticking in the walls of their bedroom—and inside her—late at night.

    Great, he told Ed. I’m headed home. I make Carolyn her supper these days, and I’m running way late.

    He started to turn away. The heavyset man stopped him with an outstretched hand. John Tandy, he said.

    He shook it. Ralph Roberts. Pleased to meet you.

    Tandy smiled. Under the circumstances, I kinda doubt that… but I’m real glad you showed up when you did. For a few seconds there I really thought him and me was gonna tango.

    So did I, Ralph thought but didn’t say. He looked at Ed, his troubled eye taking in the unfamiliar tee-shirt clinging to Ed’s stalk-thin midriff and the white silk scarf with the Chinese-red figures embroidered on it. He didn’t entirely like the look in Ed’s eyes when they met his; Ed was perhaps not all the way back after all.

    Sure you’re okay? Ralph asked him. He wanted to go, wanted to get back to Carolyn, and yet he was somehow reluctant. The feeling that this situation was about nine miles from right persisted.

    Yes, fine, Ed said quickly, and gave him a big smile which did not reach his dark green eyes. They studied Ralph carefully, as if asking how much he had seen… and how much

    (hey hey Susan Day)

    he would remember later on.

    3

    The interior of Trigger Vachon’s truck smelled of clean, freshly pressed clothes, an aroma which for some reason always reminded Ralph of fresh bread. There was no passenger seat, so he stood with one hand wrapped around the doorhandle and the other gripping the edge of a Dandux laundry basket.

    Man, dat look like some strange go-on back dere, Trigger said, glancing into his outside mirror.

    You don’t know the half of it, Ralph replied.

    I know the guy drivin the rice-burner—Deepneau, his name is. He got a pretty little wife, send stuff out sometime. Seem like a nice fella, mos usually.

    He sure wasn’t himself today, Ralph said.

    Had a bug up his ass, did he?

    Had a whole damn ant-farm up there, I think.

    Trigger laughed hard at that, pounding the worn black plastic of the big steering wheel. Who damn ant-farm! Beauty! Beauty! I’m savin dat one, me! Trigger wiped his streaming eyes with a handkerchief almost the size of a tablecloth. Look to me like Mr. Deepneau come out dat airport service gate, him.

    That’s right, he did.

    You need a pass to use dat way, Trigger said. How Mr. D. get a pass, you t’ink?

    Ralph thought it over, frowning, then shook his head. I don’t know. It never occurred to me. I’ll have to ask him next time I see him.

    You do dat, Trigger said. And ask him how dem ants doin. This stimulated a fresh throe of laughter, which in turn occasioned more flourishes of the comic opera handkerchief.

    As they turned off the Extension and onto Harris Avenue proper, the storm finally broke. There was no hail, but the rain came in an extravagant summer flood, so heavy at first that Trigger had to slow the panel truck to a crawl. Wow! he said respectfully. Dis remine me of the big storm back in ’85, when haffa downtown fell inna damn Canal! Member dat, Ralph?

    Yes, Ralph said. Let’s hope it doesn’t happen again.

    Nah, Trigger said, grinning and peering past his extravagantly flapping windshield wipers, dey got the drainage system all fixed up now. Beauty!

    The combination of the cold rain and the warm cab caused the bottom half of the windshield to steam up. Without thinking, Ralph reached out a finger and drew a figure in the steam:

    What’s dat? Trigger asked.

    I don’t really know. Looks Chinese, doesn’t it? It was on the scarf Ed Deepneau was wearing.

    Look a little familiar to me, Trigger said, glancing at it again. Then he snorted and flapped a hand. Listen to me, wouldja? On’y t’ing I can say in Chinese is moo-goo-gai-pan!

    Ralph smiled, but didn’t seem to have a laugh in him. It was Carolyn. Now that he had remembered her, he couldn’t stop thinking about her—couldn’t stop imagining the windows open, and the curtains streaming like Edward Gorey ghost arms as the rain poured in.

    You still live in dat two-storey across from the Red Apple?

    Yes.

    Trigger pulled in to the curb, the wheels of the truck spraying up big fans of water. The rain was still pouring down in sheets. Lightning raced across the sky; thunder cracked.

    You better stay right here wit me for a little bit, Trigger said. She let up in a minute or two.

    I’ll be all right. Ralph didn’t think anything could keep him in the truck a second longer, not even handcuffs. Thanks, Trig.

    Wait a sec! Let me give you a piece of plastic—you can puddit over your head like a rainhat!

    No, that’s okay, no problem, thanks, I’ll just—

    There seemed to be no way of finishing whatever it was he was trying to say, and now what he felt was close to panic. He shoved the truck’s passenger door back on its track and jumped out, landing ankle-deep in the cold water racing down the gutter. He gave Trigger a final wave without looking back, then hurried up the walk to the house he and Carolyn shared with Bill McGovern, feeling in his pocket for his latchkey as he went. When he reached the porch steps he saw he wouldn’t need it—the door was standing ajar. Bill, who lived downstairs, often forgot to lock it, and Ralph would rather think it had been Bill than think that Carolyn had wandered out to look for him and been caught in the storm. That was a possibility Ralph did not even want to consider.

    He hurried into the shadowy foyer, wincing as thunder banged deafeningly overhead, and crossed to the foot of the stairs. He paused there a moment, hand on the newel post of the bannister, listening to rainwater drip from his soaked pants and shirt onto the hardwood floor. Then he started up, wanting to run but no longer able to find the next gear up from a fast walk. His heart was beating hard and fast in his chest, his soaked sneakers were clammy anchors dragging at his feet, and for some reason he kept seeing the way Ed Deepneau’s head had moved when he got out of his Datsun—those stiff, quick jabs that made him look like a rooster spoiling for a fight.

    The third riser creaked loudly, as it always did, and the sound provoked hurried footsteps from above. They were no relief because they weren’t Carolyn’s, he knew that at once, and when Bill McGovern leaned over the rail, his face pale and worried beneath his Panama hat, Ralph wasn’t really surprised. All the way back from the Extension he had felt that something was wrong, hadn’t he? Yes. But under the circumstances, that hardly qualified as precognition. When things reached a certain degree of wrongness, he was discovering, they could no longer be redeemed or turned around; they just kept going wronger and wronger. He supposed that on some level or other he’d always known that. What he had never suspected was how long that wrong road could be.

    Ralph! Bill called down. Thank God! Carolyn’s having… well, I guess it’s some sort of seizure. I just dialed 911, asked them to send an ambulance.

    Ralph discovered he could run up the rest of the stairs, after all.

    4

    She was lying half in and half out of the kitchen with her hair in her face. Ralph thought there was something particularly horrible about that; it looked sloppy, and if there was one thing Carolyn refused to be, it was sloppy. He knelt beside her and brushed the hair away from her eyes and forehead. The skin beneath his fingers felt as chilly as his feet inside his soaked sneakers.

    I wanted to put her on the couch, but she’s too heavy for me, Bill said nervously. He had taken off his Panama and was fiddling nervously with the band. My back, you know—

    I know, Bill, it’s okay, Ralph said. He slid his arms under Carolyn and picked her up. She did not feel heavy to him at all, but light—almost as light as a milkweed pod which is ready to burst open and disgorge its filaments into the wind. Thank God you were here.

    I almost wasn’t, Bill replied, following Ralph into the living room and still fiddling with his hat. He made Ralph think of old Dorrance Marstellar with his book of poems. I wouldn’t touch him anymore, if I were you, old Dorrance had said. I can’t see your hands. I was on my way out when I heard a hell of a thud… it must have been her falling… Bill looked around the storm-darkened living room, his face somehow distraught and avid at the same time, his eyes seeming to search for something that wasn’t there. Then they brightened. The door! he said. I’ll bet it’s still open! It’ll be raining in! I’ll be right back, Ralph.

    He hurried out. Ralph barely noticed; the day had taken on the surreal aspects of a nightmare. The ticking was the worst. He could hear it in the walls, so loud now that even the thunder could not blot it out.

    He put Carolyn on the couch and knelt beside her. Her respiration was fast and shallow, and her breath was terrible. Ralph did not turn away from it, however. Hang in there, sweetheart, he said. He picked up one of her hands—it was almost as clammy as her brow had been—and kissed it gently. You just hang in there. It’s fine, everything’s fine.

    But it wasn’t fine, the ticking sound meant that nothing was fine. It wasn’t in the walls, either—it had never been in the walls, but only in his wife. In Carolyn. It was in his dear one, she was slipping away from him, and what would he ever do without her?

    You just hang on, he said. Hang on, you hear me? He kissed her hand again, and held it against his cheek, and when he heard the warble of the approaching ambulance, he began to cry.

    5

    She came around in the ambulance as it sped across Derry (the sun was already out again, the wet streets steaming), and at first she talked such gibberish that Ralph was sure she had suffered a stroke. Then, just as she began to clear up and speak coherently, a second convulsion struck, and it took both Ralph and one of the paramedics who had answered the call to hold her down.

    It wasn’t Dr. Litchfield who came to see Ralph in the third-floor waiting room early that evening but Dr. Jamal, the neurologist. Jamal talked to him in a low, soothing voice, telling him that Carolyn was now stabilized, that they were going to keep her overnight, just to be safe, but that she would be able to go home in the morning. There were going to be some new medications—drugs that were expensive, yes, but also quite wonderful.

    We must not be losing the hope, Mr. Roberts, Dr. Jamal said.

    No, Ralph said. I suppose not. Will there be more of these, Dr. Jamal?

    Dr. Jamal smiled. He spoke in a quiet voice that was rendered somehow even more comforting by his soft Indian accent. And although Dr. Jamal did not come right out and tell him that Carolyn was going to die, he came as close as anyone ever did during that long year in which she battled to stay alive. The new medications, Jamal said, would probably prevent any further seizures, but things had reached a stage where all predictions had to be taken with the grains of salt. The tumor was spreading in spite of everything they had tried, unfortunately.

    The motor-control problems may show up next, Dr. Jamal said in his comforting voice. And I am seeing some deterioration in the eyesight, I am afraid.

    Can I spend the night with her? Ralph asked quietly. She’ll sleep better if I do. He paused, then added: So will I.

    Of gorse! Dr. Jamal said, brightening. That is a fine idea!

    Yes, Ralph said heavily. I think so, too.

    6

    So he sat beside his sleeping wife, and he listened to the ticking that was not in the walls, and he thought: Some day soon—maybe this fall, maybe this winter—I will be back in this room with her. It had the feel not of speculation but of prophecy, and he leaned over and put his head on the white sheet that covered his wife’s breast. He didn’t want to cry again, but did a little anyway.

    That ticking. So loud and so steady.

    I’d like to get hold of what’s making that sound, he thought. I’d stamp it until it was so many pieces scattered across the floor. With God as my witness I would.

    He fell asleep in his chair a little after midnight, and when he woke the next morning the air was cooler than it had been in weeks, and Carolyn was wide awake, coherent, and bright-eyed. She seemed, in fact, hardly to be sick at all. Ralph took her home and began the not-inconsiderable job of making her last months as comfortable as possible. It was a long while before he thought of Ed Deepneau again; even after he began to see the bruises on Helen Deepneau’s face, it was a long time before he thought of Ed again.

    As that summer became fall, and as that fall darkened down toward Carolyn’s final winter, Ralph’s thoughts were occupied more and more by the deathwatch, which seemed to tick louder and louder even as it slowed down.

    But he had no trouble sleeping.

    That came later.

    Part I:

    Little Bald Doctors

    There is a gulf fixed between those who can sleep and those who cannot. It is one of the greatest divisions of the human race.

    —Iris Murdoch

    Nuns and Soldiers

    Chapter 1

    1

    About a month after the death of his wife, Ralph Roberts began to suffer from insomnia for the first time in his life.

    The problem was mild to begin with, but it grew steadily worse. Six months after the first interruptions in his heretofore unremarkable sleep cycle, Ralph had reached a state of misery he could hardly credit, let alone accept. Toward the end of the summer of 1993 he began to wonder what it would be like to spend his remaining years on earth in a starey-eyed daze of wakefulness. Of course it wouldn’t come to that, he told himself, it never does.

    But was that true? He didn’t really know, that was the devil of it, and the books on the subject Mike Hanlon steered him to down at the Derry Public Library weren’t much help. There were several on sleep disorders, but they seemed to contradict one another. Some called insomnia a symptom, others called it a disease, and at least one called it a myth. The problem went further than that, however; so far as Ralph could tell from the books, no one seemed exactly sure what sleep itself was, how it worked, or what it did.

    He knew he should quit playing amateur researcher and go to the doctor, but he found that surprisingly hard to do. He supposed he still bore Dr. Litchfield a grudge. It was Litchfield, after all, who had originally diagnosed Carolyn’s brain tumor as tension headaches (except Ralph had an idea that Litchfield, a lifelong bachelor, might actually have believed that Carolyn was suffering from nothing but a moderate case of the vapors), and Litchfield who had made himself as scarce as medically possible once Carolyn was diagnosed. Ralph was positive that if he had asked the man about that point-blank, Litchfield would have said he had handed the case off to Jamal, the specialist… all quite proper and aboveboard. Yes. Except Ralph had made it his business to get a good look into Litchfield’s eyes on the few occasions he had seen him between Carolyn’s first convulsions last July and her death this March, and Ralph thought that what he’d seen in those eyes was a mixture of unease and guilt. It was the look of a man trying very hard to forget he has fucked up. Ralph believed the only reason he could still look at Litchfield without wanting to knock his block off was that Dr. Jamal had told him that an earlier diagnosis probably would have made no difference; by the time Carolyn’s headaches started, the tumor was already well entrenched, and no doubt sending out little bursts of bad cells to other areas of the brain like malignant CARE packages.

    In late April Dr. Jamal had left to establish a practice in southern Connecticut, and Ralph missed him. He thought that he could have talked about his sleeplessness to Dr. Jamal, and he had an idea that Jamal would have listened in a way Litchfield wouldn’t… or couldn’t.

    By late summer Ralph had read enough about insomnia to know that the type with which he was afflicted, while not rare, was a lot less common than the usual slow-sleep insomnia. People unaffected by insomnia are usually in first-stage sleep seven to twenty minutes after turning in. Slow-sleepers, on

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