Close to You

It's a trans child negotiating his family relationship drama set over several days in present-day Toronto and Cobourg, Ontario, Canada. Sam (Elliot Page) is a trans male who transitioned from female, probably in his early 20s. He lives and works in Toronto and rooms in a house owned by Emily (Sook-Yin Lee). Sam has not seen his family for five years. Still, he has decided to go home to Cobourg, 95 kilometers east of Toronto along Lake Ontario, to help celebrate his father Jim's (Peter Outerbridge) birthday with the rest of the family.

The movie follows Sam's train ride to Cobourg, on which he meets his old high school flame, Katherine (Hillary Baack), who is now married with children in Cobourg. Two parallel stories unfold, one follows Sam's encounters with his family, including his mother (Wendy Crewson), two sisters (Janet Porter and Alex Paxton-Beesley), brother, Michael (Daniel Maslany), and the two sisters' partners (Andrew Bushell and David Reale). The second follows Sam's efforts to reconnect with Katherine.

"Close to You" is dark and filled with uncomfortable conversations. Sam's relationships with different family members vary and end in crisis. The yearning for understanding and acceptance amidst discomfort is powerfully portrayed. Sam's relationship with Katherine is also complex and is not as well explored, partly because she is deaf. That story leaves many unanswered questions. The film's cinematography is intimate and doesn't always work, sometimes feeling like it drags. Elliot Page is outstanding. My ears had trouble understanding Hillary Baack at times. The various Cobourg family members' characterizations are well-done and varied.

"Close to You" gets an extra point for an insightful portrayal of a challenging subject.

This is about what it means to be seen, and feeling invisible seems like part of many trans people's lives, because our real self exists beyond the illusion, this is why only through delusion=de-illusion we can penetrate the veil and see each other. The physical transition allows the inner self to emerge and challenge the narratives of the illusion to help people enter something far more real. This used to be one of the ways how trans people as Berdache were serving within indigenous cultures. The ego only accuses others of being delusional for not buying into its illusion, which feeds the narcissistic false self that is reduced into an object.

The love interest at the end of the film revealed how much physical disability was almost like a connecting bridge between them, however, it is more than that, it is a search for depth and transcendence by those who have various physical disabilities, it is an exchange, in order to embody ourselves fully, sometimes we need to let go of some things, and a conventional beauty can be one of them, because it serves a homogenous norms and standards, which the ideology of sex binary has been providing for generations already to hold the paradigm within the master vs slave hierarchy. However, when you try to bring down into the body your own higher dimensional self, in a sense you can also manage to bring heaven or paradise down to earth. This is also one major reason why trans people used to be revered as sacred in many cultures for containing this ever-present potential to free humanity from a two dimensional consciosuness that keeps most humans in self induced prison. It can change the way we relate to others, it makes us humble, balanced and highly intelligent, because we operate at higher frequencies of the light. This is the sacrifice many trans people make, the way you see the world heals the world, and people connecting to you can be transformed by it. This is why trans people are so important as highlighters.

However, if the wider public can truly understand transgender people, it can not happen without exploring multi-dimensionality by deconstructing patriarchal narratives of what is a woman that perpetuate the oppression of women, because humans exist in the trinity of time, space and consciousness rooted in the Elemental Law of 3 (proton/electron/neutron), let it be understood that humans do not exist in duality of man and woman outside of ourselves, but trinity of man and woman within ourselves, this ignorance is what largely cultivated an epidemic of narcissism in our society through the fragmentation of our psyche, but also managed to reduce humans into an object or pieces of meat. Trans people are an embodiment of men and women as multi-dimensional subjects the same like art, dolls, etc. This is why this world can never truly get into the depth of trans people, and neither many trans people themselves, unless people start exploring the true nature of reality we live in from a scientific standpoint, which would also help in understanding autistic people, this is why it can be so hard to explain what is really happening on the inside. This kind of movie is still waiting to be made, which could become revolutionary and even life-changing, because most people still live in complete and utter ignorance about trans people, enough that politicians have been exploiting it to erase their existence to help the collective consciousness descend from the 3rd dimensions deeper into the 2nd to trap it in the matter, so that it could be controlled through the body. This is how trans people pose threat to the entire predatory paradigm based on exploitation.

All things are seen in terms of duality, however, by embodying both polarities, just like like those who can give and take away life through their own body (abortion), you gain consciousness as the authority over duality. When you turn the lights on or off, the consciousness is given authority to determine whether it is on or off. Not the outside authority. Time, Space and Consciousness become unified into Mother Trinity. Which consequently takes the power away from the biblical Male Godhead, this is how it permeates into Abrahamic religion and its programming.

The only use for binary thinking is purely utilitarian for those instances in which consciousness, through its persona, attempts to delineate which aspects of reality it wishes to presently investigate but that delineation must always remain acknowledged as temporary and provisional lest a social cancer comprised of pathological personas fastens on to it as actually representative of reality. For example, there is no way to absolutely define up versus down without referring either to an absolute position in space (the strong absolutist method) or the self preserving unitary position of the persona (the weak absolutist - narcissistic method).

The only truthful and accurate definition would be the relativist method that each point in space has its own up and down - much as each persona has its own self and non self. These two absolutist methods make use, symbolically speaking, of three nails: two horizontal (the strong absolutist method, with its reliance on one nail for good and another for evil) and the third for the vertical axis (the weak absolutist method, with its reliance on one nail for its one point of reference). But reality is neither two-dimensional, for there is a third dimension for which there exists no nail that the pathologically inhibited persona can conceive of, nor is it only three dimensional, for there exists time within which consciousness expands, nor is it only four dimensional, for there exists the unification of all reality within the fully expanded consciousness. The only evil is that which inhibits consciousness. And the fundamental inhibitor of consciousness is binary/two-dimensional consciousness of Man above and Woman below that burns the bridge that allows one to access the other, where the subject merges with the object to embody trinity/unity/heart/mystery/feminine.

In this way one can notice the paradox that trans women might be in a sense more real women and trans men more real men, because they are uncovering their real selves that laid dormant, whereas those who cling to labels and enforcing them onto others are more prone to their narcissistic false persona that controls them. Man and Woman are multi-dimensional, once that is recognized and fully embodied, the way you present yourself can reflect it all of a sudden. Trans people are a bridge to a more authentic world where people feel free to be more of who they are. Make no mistake, it is a bridge towards the freedom for all human beings on earth.

The film Matrrix was based on this soul searching journey that real trans people are undergoing, which the society attached to the matrix are pathologizing and dehumanizing, because they are protecting the 3D duality matrix system that suppresses the 'truth' existing within the symbolical number 3 and its whole curvature that represents the feminine, this is reflected back by the oppression of women and mother nature herself on this planet. It is the space that frees the mind and brings it back in touch with one's true nature stored in the unconscious, the higher self.

It has to be understood that many autistic and trans people in general are embodying an energetic intelligence that other people are either not biologically endowed with, or it remains dormant within them, and scientific evidences are already pointing in that direction.

First of all, this kind of film should explore the depths of gender dysphoria rooted in biological gender identity that directs your own entire life. The smell, anatomy, language, sound, psychosomatic symptoms, etc.

Secondly, delving into multiple challenges in life that serve as energetic messages to the body that is speaking back to the mind asking what it needs and how it needs you to embody it, the same like when it needs to eat, exercise, sleep, and so on.

Thirdly, and most importanly, it needs to explore the truth of what it means being human. This is why the filmmakers would perhaps benefit from reading Cosmic Mother by Monica Sjoo exploring the mistakes humans have made in the Bronze Age patriarchal ontology, mistakes about the nature of being and the nature of human being in this world, including what is natural and real, and how we need to re-discover our ancient practices and relationships to mother earth herself, which consequently becomes reflected by the harmonious state of human beings on this planet.

Close To You is poetic and symbolical, and I am grateful for having been able to read into it, it left me emotionally exhausted, but most people will probably miss the whole nuance and depth that permeates it. Let's hope films like this help people to help and encourage children to transition before unnatural puberty damages their body, so they could self actualize in a natural way, because what's truly natural is when the inner and outer worlds meet in harmony and not when nature is weaponized in order to trap the spirit in the matter by controlling the mind through it, this kind of psychotic mindset led to lobotomies and experiments by Mengele in Nazi Germany, this is how the authoritarian regimes used to rely on pathologization as a way how to disconnect people from their own inner nature. People who play God see all puberty as natural for all humans, because they have denied people their own nature already, this is the entire paradox, let it be perfectly understood that this is a predatory consciousness, it is a belief system that is imposed upon people to suppress nature. These people can not see what they are being manipulated to perpetuate because of their own ignorance of how energy works from a scientific standpoint, let alone Mother Nature herself. Understanding and holding the paradox within heals the world while allowing people to ascend in their own spirit.

Sam has left home - the small town of Coburg - moved to Toronto, and has transitioned from female to male. He now takes a trip home - the 1st in 4 years. On the train, he happens to meet Katherine, his best friend from high school.

The reason for the return is his father's birthday party, which allows the writers to populate the family with a selection of attitudes about the transition. His father is mostly relieved that Sam has found himself, and is no longer in pain. His mother will always remember him as her little girl, consistently misgenders him (not necessarily maliciously), and is concerned about his well-being, compared to his sister who stayed in Coburg and got married. His sister wonders why he never confided in her, when they shared a bedroom growing up. And his brother-in-law is transphobic.

Escaping the family, Sam seeks solace with Katherine.

This is a Elliot Page vehicle, inspired by his life. The direction allows him to casually show off his boy bod. This answers the question "where are they now"? However, after this autobiographical-inspired story, I am wondering what other projects he will appear in.

Using available-light photography lost one star by me. Too often, the subjects were shot with a background of a bright window, making it to hard to see facial expressions.

Don't believe the overall rating, most of the 1 star reviews must be from transphobic viewers. This is a brilliantly acted, very moving movie. They don't attempt to idealize a lifestyle or make it look picture perfect. It's raw it's gritty and it very beautifully done. I'm so impressed by the entire cast, they provide a perspective from many different view points. If you can watch this with someone queer in your life, it might help you connect to them better. Elliot Page deserved much more praise for this role, I hope his star continues to grow. I think it's a must watch for families going through similar things.

I remember going home to tell my family that I was transitioning. You know what, the conversations were not polished, as some reviewers point out, as if its a negative. It was a very real family figuring out how to move forward. It is hard to watch at times but I can also tell you it is hard to live at times. My siblings and their significant others all dealt with my news in different ways. They dealt with it differently than the characters in this film. The moments of joy also mirror my experience. They are the same but different. I recomend this movie to anyone who loves someone who makes a change to be themselves. If you don't love someone, maybe you should watch it anyway. It could be a helpful way to begin learning how to love someone.