This Is Me... Now

Where to even start? Admittedly I'm not a JLo fan, but I wasn't rooting against her either, or at least I wasn't until seeing this. I was in awe, in the worst possible way. I cannot fathom the level of ego and cognitive dissonance required to believe that not only was the world waiting with baited breath to see a feature film that details your love life, but that it's wise to spend 20 million of your own dollars producing it. I don't begrudge her her success in life or in work, but her self-obsession is unreal. This movie is what happens when a woman who never hears "NO", has money to burn, and has every whim catered to runs amok. What happened to humility? And yes, I know the 1% are free to spend their money however they like, but instead of using 20 million dollars to, I don't know, build tens of thousands of wells to provide drinking water, or sending hundreds kids through college, or honestly literally ANYTHING else, you use it to give the world the most insane vanity project they never asked for. Ick. She's officially the w.

I was looking forward to this documentary because I read her book when it first came out and I liked it. I think this documentary should have explain why she does not allowed workers to look at her. Why she makes her manors work 16 hours 7 days a week and why she took money from the waitress after Ben Affleck gave a good tip to the worker. I thought this film was going to be about empowerment of women still growing through difficulty but it was more about trying to find sympathy for herself. Which in that case she should have explained why she miss treat the staff and her back up dancers. OMG.

This is suppose to be a "movie"? Really?

The bad: let's get things straight. This is nothing more but a one hour compilation of video clips glued to together by some incomprehensible storyline which I wont even attempt to make sense of.

Dont get me wrong, if you are an avid J-lo fan, go right ahead and enjoy the several songs and you probably wont mind the chitchat scenes in between the videos that supposedly elevates this product to a "movie".

But if you are not a diehard J-lo fan, better stay far away from this videoclip compilatioin, because that is what it truly is. Nothing more, nothing less than a bunch of fancy looking music video clips.

At an endnote: I truly do appreciate Jennifer Lopez as an actress. She has proven herself to be a really solid actress. But this is not a movie. This is not even a music documentary. This is a music video compilation dresssed up as ....????

Another Jlo doc/movie cringe fest. If Yaoundé had any doubts of whether or not JLo was a raging narcissist then look no further. Not sure why I watched other than morbid curiosity after reading about how bad it was. And yep! It's bad. This multi millionaire for over 3 decades is now trying a new angle... to make the audience feel sorry for her somehow?? Didn't get enough love as a child yards yards yadda. And that her mother is actually a narcissist. Welp. Clearly she has no problem throwing people under the bus if it serves her. She has always talked about how supportive and great her mother is but now it's suddenly "poor me". There is a scene where she "sings" about being broken and it is soooooooo bad. I had to turn it off at that point because it was borderline creepy. These celebs are so out of touch and self obsessed. I'm over it.

It's clear to me that tremendous effort went into this project. It has some nice visuals, a veritable fashion show of costume changes, plently of choreography, a slew of high-profile cameos, etc. I just wish all that effort had been put toward a more worthy project. This is a Vanity project through and through, all created to help Jennifer Lopez justify being married four times and to prove to the world why this fourth marriage will last (it won't). The accompanying behind-the-scenes doc is even worse, with her contrived efforts to act like a genuine person falling embarrassingly flat and Ben Affleck's very "I so don't want to be here." demeanor, which has lead to a steady barrage of divorce rumors.