Ottavio Rosati: The Player

Perdo/nanda Pivano

The Player

Fernanda Pivano: Listen: I have erotic fantasies at night. In all my life I have never had them, not even when I was young, and, at the age of twenty, in order not to take money from my father, I used to go to Mondovì in cattle cart every day. And I was pretty, my dear!
The Player: And with whom would these sudden erotic fantasies are?
Fernanda Pivano: It is not that there is anyone with a face. No. Of course he is a man because he has that thing there. But it doesn't have a face.
The Player: Interesting. Really interesting. You don't see the face as in "Eros and Psyche" fable-...
Fernanda Pivano: Interesting? What answer is this? Explain to me why these fantasies begin now?
The Player: Good sign. All health.
Fernanda Pivano: Is it possible that at the age of eighty a person has erotic fantasies?
The Player: Yes. However, there is nothing wrong. Eros is a dear God.
Fernanda Pivano: How would it be: is there nothing wrong? I am ashamed.
The Player: Amashed? In front of whom?
Fernanda Pivano: In front of me.
The Player: What part of you? What internal persecutory object?

Fernanda Pivano: You realize that in six thousand pages of my autobiography I never talk about sex and now it turns out 'that's what. Tell me why.
The Player: I do not know. I have no idea.
Fernanda Pivano: Tell me. Tell me.
The Player: Calm, Nanda. I really do not know.
Fernanda Pivano: You know, you know it and you don't want to tell me. See it as you are!
The Player: I really do not know. Give me time. I should think about it; However, the message of the unconscious, broadly speaking, could be: sex exists. It exists also for you and in you.
Fernanda Pivano: You'll understand. For me? I have done so little.
The Player: Not true. We did it and also passionate.
Fernanda Pivano: You'll understand! Two years out of eighty. Besides, it wasn't even sex.
The Player: How would it be that it wasn't sex? Are we angels?
Fernanda Pivano: It was Love.
The Player: Well, it was Love with Sex. Venere Celeste and Venere Terrestre.
Fernanda Pivano: Then? What does the dream mean?
The Player: In Jungian terms your dream could mean that you feel attracted to the male part of you. Okay so?
Fernanda Pivano: Would be?
The Player: That Fernando attracts Pivana. And now pay me. I want a kiss.
Fernanda Pivano: A kiss? Forget it.