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How deep is the deep blue sea?
The days have passed and gone is the past. "How long will it last?" I mumbled to myself as
I was gazing at the ocean. The sea was calm, and the breeze was warm, I was waiting for the night
to fade for the sun has not yet come to shine. There was nothing to do and I have nowhere to go,
I was swallowed by the comfort of the sea. Then a thought came across to me, "how deep is the
deep blue sea?". The waves crashing inviting me, as if it were asking "why don't you go and see?".
Unknowingly, I have already jumped into the sea. With my dive reflex kicking in, apnea
comes to me, vessels start constricting and I am slowly bradying. “Alas! This is it” I thought to
myself, I can now see how deep the sea is. I look up the sky and look at the moon one last time
before the sun will finally shine-----
But wait! What is this I see? I have gone far yet is this a hand I see? I can barely tell since it
was blindingly bright. I panicked, lost composure, instincts telling me that I should go and grab that
hand; but my body was tired so as soon as I was able to grab it, my mind was slowly fading.
I was slowly coming back to my senses, my memories and vision seem blurry, diver’s
sickness, I guess? I closed my eyes and opened it once more and I thought I saw an apparition, but
It was a man after all… A man who had a clear face and silk hands as warm as sand, and to my
surprise he was a man as bright as day! Compared to me who had sunken eyes and complexion as
pale and dull as gray. I was lost in my thoughts thinking “was he glowing?” ------ “Hello are you
okay?” he asked. I only nodded in reply, unable to move my body, he just carried me to a hut near
the shore. Was it there before? I do not know, that is for sure…
Days have passed, and years have gone by, I guess I am still here, and I guess I owe that to
the glowing man. Over the time, I have learned so many things: I learned that it was okay to be
gray sometimes, that it was okay to have sunken eyes, that it was okay to laugh at myself and I
thank the glowing man for his silken hands always there to caress my restless heart. The sun still
has not shine but that is okay for now, for I learned that the night may be long, but the sun will
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still rise, not today but maybe someday. I thank that man for being so gentle, stern yet so patient.
I have stumbled over and over, he does not carry me, but he lends his strength so that I may learn
how to stand again by myself.
Sometimes we walk by the shore letting the waves touch our feet, sometimes I get
overwhelmed, but he said, “Hey It’s okay, I am here…”. Ha! What a foolish glowing man indeed,
for he does not know the depths of the sea. But he continued as if he read my mind “I’ve been
there before and trust me the shore is a far better place than the sea…”. It left me in awe for how
a man can do such things. Little by little, I learned that maybe the man was glowing for he had
learned how to conquer the sea.
I too want that! But not today but maybe someday, I know that what we have is not forever
and someday we will part ways. But I thank that man for sharing his glow, sometimes I feel like a
glow inside me starts to grow and I hope that someday I can share this too. So, I smiled and held
his hand more as we continued to walk by the shore.
But if you ask me “How deep is the deep blue sea?” My past self could have an answer to
that; but now I just thank that I was not able to know, for now I have a better goal: how can I brave
the sea and find my glow. I could never have the words to tell that man how much I love and thank
him and his glow, I guess I will just have to walk for now but some day for sure, I will glow like that
man too!
