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ew
.
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Hi
m:hi
Me:
Hi
Hi
m:so….
.
Ishr
uggedmyshouldersunknowingwhatto
sayorhowtobr
eakt heice.TheMeloIknow
andlov
ewouldhaveinvi
tedmet ojoi
nhimin
bed.
Hi
m:I’
dint
roducemy
sel
fbuty
oual
readyknow
whoIam
Me:
I’
m Yandi
swaGxaba
Him:
I’dl
ovetosayitr
ingsabellbut
…bythe
wayyoufucki
ngbeaut
iful
,hasanyoneev
ert
old
youy
ouhav eabonergivi
ngbody
Ichuckl
edthi
nki
ngaboutthedayhewalkedin
onmenakedi nmyroom wit
houtknocki
ng.He
hadasmi r
konhisf
ace.Eveninthi
sstat
ehe
sti
ll
hadtheener
gytofl
ir
t.
Me: y
ouactual
lyt
oldmethatexceptIwas
nakedthenandhadali
tt
lemorewei ghtt
han
thi
s
Hechuckled,t
hereitwas.Thatlazyl
aughofhi
s
t
hatdi
dt hethingstomybody .Fuckhewassti
ll
yummyinal l
possibleways.
Him:t
henwhatmadey oulosewei
ght?Imean
youbeaut
if
ulandall
butyoudon’
tseem happy
wit
hthiswei
ghtyougot
Ishr
ugged.HowdoIanswert
hisquest
ion
agai
n?
Me:afewday sagoIwasheldcapti
vebymy
boyf
ri
end’spsychoexgi
rl
fr
iendasifthatwasn’
t
badenoughhewentonandgothi mselfinan
acci
dentall
inthenametosaveme.
Hi
m:soundsl
i
keaher
otome
Me: ofcausehewoul
dbutwhathedi
dwas
stupidandheknowsver
ywell
Iwouldhav
e
neverwentwithhi
spl
an
Hi
m: Ithi
nkanor
mal
gir
lf
ri
endwoul
dbe
gr
ateful
Me:
Iguessi
m notnor
mal
then
Him:Iguessy
ounot.Iseewhywedat
edorar
e
dati
ng…arewest
il
ldating?
Me:
Iguess
Him:howdoInotrememberdat
ingsucha
beaut
y.I’
vebeenknownt
obeanass,wasIan
asstoyou?
Ichuckl
edbef
orer
espondi
ng
Me: t
hat’sact
uall
yhowwemet .Onmybi r
thday
l
astyear,youandy oursi
stergr
aceduswith
yourpresenceandshegotsupersloshedand
yougav emesomeat t
it
ude
Hi
m:soundsl
i
kemeal
ri
ght
.
.
Seey
ousoonf
am.Lov
eyou<3
[12/
15,
13:
40]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E01
***“
tellmehowI ’
m supposedt
obr eathewithno
air
…buthowdoy ouexpectmet oliveal
one
withjustme,causemywor ldr
evolvesaround
youitgetssohardformet obreat
he…” *
**
-
Yay
a
Call
meinsaneorstupidi
nloveorcrazyof
messedbutthatwasme.Mel owasmyai randI
coul
dn’
tbreat
hewithouthi
m.Iwasmessedup
wit
houthi
m andthethoughtofl
osinghim was
enought ocrushme.enought ocrushmyl it
tle
fragilehear tintotinyf r
eakingpieces.Ofal lthe
thingst hathav ehappenedt odayt hishastobe
thewor st,Iwant edt obelievehewaspr anking
mebuther eall
ylookedconf usedt oseeme.My
hear twasi nami lli
onpi eces.Howcanhenot
remembermeaf terev ery
thingheandIhav e
beent hrought oget her?ImeanIam t hereason
heev enendedupher eont hisbed.I t’
snotfai r
.
It
’sal ltoowr ong.Oneshoul dn’
tgot hrought hi
s
kindofemot ionalpai n.Thedoct orwal kedout
andhel ookedatmeandsmi l
edf aintl
y ,
atthat
momentIwi shedIcoul dgetintohi sheadand
seeexact lywhathewast hi
nking.
Hi
m:hi
Me:
Hi
Hi
m:so….
.
Ishr
uggedmyshouldersunknowingwhatto
sayorhowtobr
eakt heice.TheMeloIknow
andlov
ewouldhaveinvi
tedmet ojoi
nhimin
bed.
Hi
m:I’
dint
roducemy
sel
fbuty
oual
readyknow
whoIam
Me:
I’
m Yandi
swaGxaba
Him:
I’dl
ovetosayitr
ingsabellbut
…bythe
wayyoufucki
ngbeaut
iful
,hasanyoneev
ert
old
youy
ouhav eabonergivi
ngbody
Ichuckl
edthi
nki
ngaboutthedayhewalkedin
onmenakedi nmyroom wit
houtknocki
ng.He
hadasmi r
konhisf
ace.Eveninthi
sstat
ehe
sti
ll
hadtheener
gytofl
ir
t.
Me: y
ouactual
lyt
oldmethatexceptIwas
nakedthenandhadali
tt
lemorewei ghtt
han
thi
s
Hechuckled,t
hereitwas.Thatlazyl
aughofhi
s
t
hatdi
dt hethingstomybody .Fuckhewassti
ll
yummyinal l
possibleways.
Him:t
henwhatmadey oulosewei
ght?Imean
youbeaut
if
ulandal
lbutyoudon’
tseem happy
wi
tht
hiswei
ghty
ougot
Ishr
ugged.HowdoIanswert
hisquest
ion
agai
n?
Me:afewday sagoIwasheldcapti
vebymy
boyf
ri
end’spsychoex-
gir
lf
ri
endasifthatwasn’
t
badenoughhewentonandgothi mselfinan
acci
dentall
inthenametosaveme.
Hi
m:soundsl
i
keaher
otome
Me: ofcausehewoul
dbutwhathedi
dwas
stupidandheknowsver
ywell
Iwouldhav
e
nevergonewithhi
spl
an
Hi
m: Ithi
nkanor
mal
gir
lf
ri
endwoul
dbe
gr
ateful
Me:
IguessI
’
m notnor
mal
then
Him:Iguessy
ounot.Iseewhywedat
edorar
e
dati
ng…arewest
il
ldating?
Me:
Iguess
Hi
m:howdoInotr
ememberdat
ingsucha
beaut
y.I’
vebeenknownt
obeanass,
wasIan
asstoyou?
Ichuckl
edbef
orer
espondi
ng
Me: t
hat’sact
uall
yhowwemet .Onmybi r
thday
l
astyear,youandy oursi
stergr
aceduswith
yourpresenceandshegotsupersloshedand
yougav emesomeat t
it
ude
Hi
m:soundsl
i
kemeal
ri
ght
Me:
Mel
owhatdoy
our
emember
?
Him:Ij
ustst
art
edwor
kingf
ormyf
ather
’s
company
Inodded
“Igotyourwat
erandIal
sogoty
ouasandwi
ch,
Ididn’
tknowwhichon….
.OhmyGodyou’
re
awake”
Thatwashissi
ster
.Sheli
teral
lydroppedthe
thi
ngsshewascarryi
ngandgotont opofhi
m
andhuggedhimfordearl
ife.Helaughedather
exci
tement
Him:nowIknowwho’
sgoi
nmi
ssmewhenI
’
m
dead
Her
:ohscr
ewy
ou!
Shegotof
fhi
m andpunchedhi
m
Hi
m:OUCH!
Her:
youscar
edus.Youscar
edYay
a!Shebar
ely
at
ebecauseofy
ou
Hi
m: soI’
mther
easony
oul
ostwei
ght
…you
mustlov
emehuh
Her
:okwhat
’sgoi
ngonI
’
m conf
used
Helookedatmewai ti
ngformetorespondand
Ij
ustshrugged.Howcanheexpectmet o
answerforhim whenheknowsverywellt
hathe
i
stheonewi thamemor yloss…makethatwit
h
nomemor yofme?
Her:
Mel
odoy
our
ememberhowy
oul
anded
her
e?
Hi
m:i
fIgott
hest
oryr
ightf
rom Mi
ssGxaba,
I
gotmysel
fintoanaccidentt
ryi
ngt
osav
eher
fr
om mypsy choex-
gir
lfr
iend
Her
:shi
i
t!
Shel
ookedatme.
Me:hethi
nkshejustst
art
edwor
kingf
orhi
s
f
ather
’scompany
Her:
youki
ddi
ngmer i
ght?Mel
othi
sissome
ki
ndofasi
ckjoker
ight
?
Heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s.
Her:
maybeyoushoul
drestali
tt
le.Wheny
ou
wakeupyou’
l
lpr
obablyhaveali
ttl
ememory
back
Him:I’
verest
edenough.I
’
m hungr
y.Wher
ear
e
ourparent
s?
Her:
shii
t.Letmegocallt
hem andgety
ou
somethi
ngt oeaty
eah.
Henodded.Asewalkedoverandpat
tedmy
backbef
orewalki
ngout.
Hi
m:comeher
e
Iwalkedov
erandstoodnextt
ohisbed.He
pat
tednexttohi
m onthebedandmov edasi
de
Hi
m:j
oinme
Me:
Idon’
twantt
ohur
tyou
Hi
m:y
oumygi
rl
fr
iendr
ight
?
Me:
lastt
imeIchecked
Hi
m:t
hengeti
nher
e
Igotontopofthebedandhepul ledmetohi
s
chest.I
tfel
tsoreal
.Imissedt
his.Thisi
swhatI
neededthatni
ght.If
oundtear
sr oll
i
ngdownmy
cheeks.
Hi
m:Imi
ssedt
his
Ikeptquiet
.Heprobabl
ymeanshemi ssed
cuddli
ngwithsomegirl
hedoesn’
tknowor
something.
Hi
m:Maf
akudon’
tcr
y.I
’
m ok
Hesai
dki
ssi
ngmyhead.Ir
emov
edmyhead
fr
om hi
schestandlookedupathi
m andf ound
hi
m smil
ing.Iwon’
tli
eIwasannoyed.How
coul
dMel okuhl
epl
aymel i
ket
hat?Ihithi
s
shoul
der
Hi
m:OUCH!It
houghty
oumissedmeandy
ou
want
edal
lofmeandnothal
fofme.
Me:
Ihat
eyou!Ihat
eyousomuch
Hi
m:di
ditwor
k?WasIconv
inci
ngenough?
Me:
fucky
ou!
Hi
m:comeher
e.Imi
ssedy
ousomuch
Hesaidpul
lingmetohischest
.Hewas
l
aughi
ngatmet hiswholet
ime.Iwassomadat
hi
m butatthesameti
mehappyt ohaveal
lof
hi
m backtome.ThankGod!
Hi
m: I
’m sorr
y.Ij
ustwant
edt
oknowi
fyou
r
emembert hat’
sall
…howwemetandwhenwe
met,
thethingsIsai
d
Me:
fucky
ouMel
okuhl
e
Him:
Ishouldprobabl
ygobacktobei
ngi
na
comathen.It
houghtyoumissedme
Me:
youscar
edmeMel
okuhl
e
Him:IknowandI’
m sor
ryok.I
twon’thappen
agai
nunlessi
thastohappenagai
n
Me: don’
teverscaremeli
ket hatagai
n!I
t
doesn’thavetohappenagain.Justdon’
t
fuckingscar
emel i
kethat.
Hi
m:di
dyoul
i
ket
hecar
?
Icl
i
ckedmyt
ongue
Hi
m:happybi
rt
hdaybeaut
if
ul
Hesaidmakingmel ookathim andt henhe
pl
antedakissonmyl i
pswhi chhedeepened
i
ntouslocki
nglips.Ibrokeitandlookedathi m
andsmil
ed,hereturnedt hesmil
e.FuckI
missedthi
s,t
hisloveandt hispassion,thi
skind
oflooki
nhiseyes,thethingshiskissdoest o
me.Iwaswet .Meloget smewetwi thjusta
ki
ss.
.
.
-
Mel
o
DamnI ’
vemi ssedher .FuckI ’v
emi ssedherso
muchmor eespeci all
yherl i
psl ockingwi thmi ne.
Beingawayf rom herf eltli
keanet ernit
yev en
thoughitwasonl yj ustforday s.GoodGodI
prayIneverexper iencet hi
sagai nandIpr omise
tochangemyway sj ustasl ongasIgett okeep
herandIgett ost aywi thherf orasl ongasIl ive.
Iheardhercriesandt heywer epainful,t
hey
mademecr yandIwant edt ot akethepai n
awaysobadl ybutIcoul dn’tbr i
ngmy sel
ft o
wakeup.I ’
m gladmypl anwor kedoutev en
thoughIhavebl oodonmyhandsbutasl ongas
sheissafethenI ’m compl ete.Il ovehersoso
muchandIwoul dki l
lagainf orher.Iwashappy
tohaveherbackonmychest ,herhome.We
weresit
tinginsilenceandshewasj ustlaying
onmychestpeacef ull
y.
Me:
babe
Her
:Mh
Me:
don’
ttel
lmey
ousl
eepi
ng
Her
:Ihav
en’
tsl
epti
nawhi
l
e
Me:
ncooohar
en’
tyouador
bs
Her
:what
’sup?
Me:
wer
eyouandAsehi
gh?
Her
:why
?
Me:becausenosanepersonwoul
daski
fadi
ck
goesupiftheowneri
sinacoma
Her
:youhear
dthat
?
Shesai
dgi
ggl
i
ng.Thi
sgi
rl
!Obv
iousl
y!
Me:
duh!
Her:
itwasy
oursi
sterandnotmeok!CanI
sl
eepnow?
Me:
butImi
ssedy
ou
Her
:mi
ssmebyget
ti
ngoutoft
hisbed
Docwalkedi
nandl
ookedatusandj
ust
l
aughed
Dr:shoul
dhaveknownitwasall
anact
.These
bedsaren’
tforcuddl
i
ngMr.BessandMiss
Gxaba
Me:makeanexcept
iondoc.Wehav
en’
tseen
eachot
heri
naweek
Dr:f
ine.Youwi l
lcal
loneofthenur
sesi
fyou
needany t
hing.Iam donewit
hmyrounds
fi
guredIshouldcheckony ou
Me:
I’
m st
il
lgooddoct
hanks
Docwal kedoutandjustthenmyf amil
ywal ked
i
n.Ohf ucktherewasanar gumentear l
ieron
aboutIya’
sbrokeboy f
ri
end.Itoldhertogetr id
oftheguybutmysi steri
sheadov erheels.His
di
ckgamemustbet hatgoodf orhertost i
ck
around.Idon’
tgetithonestl
y.Ijustthi
nkmybi g
si
scandobet t
erthat’
sall
.Ifeelsorryforher
becauseIknewt hatMr.BessSnrwoul dmos
defreactthewayhedi dandhav inguncle
Damienbackwasn’ tgoi
ngtosweet enthe
si
tuat
ionatall
.Theywalkedinmaki ngnoise
andIputmyf i
ngeronmymout hindicati
ngthey
keepitdown.Iknowsheneededt his,she
hasn’
thadanypr opersl
eepthesepastf ew
days.
Mom:
soi
nanut
shel
lwecan’
thugy
ou?
Dad:
asy
oucanseeBoobi
e
Mom lit
eral
lysucked.Aythi
smotherofmine
canbeacr ybabywhenshewant sto,
sometimesI’m convi
ncedshet
hinksI’
m her
husbandthewayshecanbeacr ybabyy oh!
Dae:
howy
ouhol
dingupboy
?
Me:
good,
I’
m st
andee
Dad:y
ougett
ingoutwhenthedoct
orsay
syou
saf
etogetoutthi
sti
mearound
Me:
we’
l
lseeaboutt
hatdad.Yana
Her
:babybr
o.goodt
ohav
eyoubacki
nthel
and
oft
heli
vi
ng
Me: oneminut
emyt
wini
scal
l
ingy
ouandt
he
nextshe’
sgone
Dae:
shehasaboy
fri
endnowsoy
oudon’
t
meanmuch
Yana:
yout
wol
ooksocozy
.CanIt
akeapi
ctur
e?
Me:
yeahhav
eati
t.Justmakesur
eyousendi
t
Dad:t
owhatphone?Remembery
oudeci
ded
t
hatyouweret
ir
edofli
vi
nganddeci
dedt
oget
your
sel
fint
oanacci
dent
Me:
comeondad
Mom: t
hat
’sthelastcary
ouwr
eckDer
ri
ckand
what
’sworseitwasmycar
Me:
howbadi
sit
?
Dad:
bey
ondr
epai
rs.
Mom:
Insur
ancewon’
tev
encov
eri
tson
Dad:
youl
uckyi
twasol
d
Mom:butt
hatcarwast
hefir
stcary
ourf
ather
ev
ergaveme.i
twasspeci
altome
Dae:moreli
kei
t’
sthef
ir
stcart
hatmadey
ou
fal
lforhi
m
Mom: Dami
enIam st
il
lol
dert
hany
ouandIwi
l
l
hi
tyou!
Dad:
stoppi
cki
ngonmywi
fey
ou!
Me:
ncooohi
tssent
iment
al…y
ou’
l
lbef
inemom
Mom:
Iwi
l
lsl
apt
heshi
i
toutofy
ou!
Me:
languageMr
s.Bess
Dae:youkidst
reaty
ourpar
ent
sli
key
ourbest
fr
iends….
Mom:
yeahwhynot
?
Dae:
not
hingwr
ong,
justsay
ingchi
l
l….
I
ya:
canwet
ell
him pl
ease
Me:
tel
lmewhat
?
I
ya:niggay
ouscr
ewed!Yourasspr
obabl
ygoi
n
getdumped!
Me:
okI
yanaIam r
eal
l
ylost
Mom: soKaterockedupi
nfr
ontofour
door
steptoday
Me:
oh….
I
ya:
youi
nshi
i
it!
!!
Me:cansomebodyt
ell
mewhat
’sgoi
ngon
al
ready
Dae:
you’
reaf
ather
…
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
13:
44]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E02
***
“…Well
ifi
tai
ntenough.Wejustwantt
ogi
ve
up,i
tai
nteasyt
rynast
ayinlov
e.Arewegonna
walkout,whenitrains.Tellmewegotenough
ofl
ovetokeepust ogether…Ar gumentsBack
andfort
h.disagreement s.canwemakei tout
,
makeitri
ght?Canwef i
xit.Causeitai
ntal
ways
goi
nbeper fectbaby …”
** *
-
Amahl
e
Iwaspr epar i
ngdinnerformyf amil
ywiththe
hel
pofSi mmy ,Damien’swifeandshei sacr azy
onethisone.Shei sSi
yandaandSbu’ sli
tt
le
si
ster(from Amahl e’
sDi ar
y).Shelooked
beauti
ful asusual,Imeant hisonegr ewupto
besomet hingel
se.Sheal way ssaidshewill
nevermar r
yabr okeguyandt hankGodDami en
wasar ichoneandst i
lli
sbecausenoman
couldhav ebeenabl etokeepupwi thher.
Her
:Amahowdoy
oudoi
t?
Me:
whatbabe?
Her
:yourchi
l
drenloveandr
especty
ouandt
hey
t
ell
youalmostevery
thi
ng
Me:
whatdi
dtheydo?
Her
:it
sZanda.Idon’
tknowany
mor
e,she’
s
bey
ondme
Me:
whydoy
ousayt
hat
?
Ipoureduswine.Shereal
l
yseemedst
ressedby
whateverZandaisdoi
ng.
Her:
she’
s19andshe’
spr
egnant
…Wehav
en’
t
t
oldDamieny
et
Me:
what
?Howf
ar?Dami
enwi
l
lmur
derher
Her :
yout hink.Shedidn’ttel
lme,Ifoundthe
testhiddeni nherthi
ngswhi leIwasl ooki
ngfor
thisothersweat erofmi nesheli
kes.SoIasked
herabouti tandshej uststart
edcryingand
apologizi
ng.Shegotpr egnantbyDami en’
s
fri
end
Me:
whi
chf
ri
end?
Her:Don.Theguyismarri
ed,
hiswi
feandIar
e
fr
iendsMahle.Theyhav
echil
drent
hesameage
andeveny ounger
.Howarewesupposedt
ogo
aboutt
his?
Justt
hent
her
ewasaknockont
hedoor
.
Her
:I’
l
lgeti
t
Shesaidwalki
ngov ert
othedoorasI
processedwhatshejustt
oldme.Whywoul
d
Zandamessar oundwithamarri
edman?
Sim:
ther
e’saladyher
ewi
thababy
…Say
sher
nameisKate
JustthenKatewalkedinbehi
ndher.Iwon’ tl
i
eI
didn’
tseethisonecoming.Shewascar r
yinga
babycov er
edwithablanket
.Ifshekeptthe
chil
d,thenthechi
ldwouldbethreemonthsnow.
Wow.
Kat
e:Mr
s.Bess
Me:
hel
l
oKat
ecanIhel
pyou?
Her
:Ihear
daboutMel
o’sacci
dent
.
Si
m:y
oucangot
oloungeI
’
llf
ini
shher
e
Me:
thanksSi
m.Kat
efol
l
owme.
Ican’tsayIwashappytoseeherandI ’m not
thatgoodatpretendi
ng.Thischil
dscrewedmy
sonov erandputhisrel
ati
onshipwit
hmeatr isk
witheveryt
hingt
hathappenedsoNOIdon’ tl
ike
her.
Me:
Nuni
meetKat
e,Mel
o’sex-
gir
lf
ri
end
Nuni
:Ir
ememberher
.Hel
l
oKat
e
Her
:Hel
l
o’s
Them:
hi
Int
heloungewasYana,DamonandDami
en
andnowmeandKat e.Iof
fer
edhert
osi
t.
Me:
soy
ouwer
esay
ing?
Yana:
ist
haty
ourchi
l
d?
Shenoddedl
ooki
ngdown.
Yana:
mayI
…
Shesaidoff
eringtot aket
hebabyandshegav e
Yanathebaby ,Yanasatdownwi t
hthechil
d
hol
dinghercloset oherboobs.Mypoorchil
d.
Herbabywoul
dbe3mont
hsnow.
Yana:
he’
ssocut
e.What
’shi
sname?
Kat
e:Ky
le
Me:
Backt
owhyy
ouher
e
Kat
e:Ikeptt
hebaby
Justt
henDamon’sphoner
angandheexcused
hi
mselfandwal
kedout.
Yana:youmeany
ounev
erwentt
hroughwi
th
theabort
ion
Me:
Igotabanknot
if
icat
iononmyphoneKat
e.
Her:
Icouldn’
tgothr
oughwithi
t.Iwasscar
ed
andsoIranoutandconvi
ncedyouguysIdidi
t
Me:
why
?
Sheshr
ugged.
Yana:
youwant
edt
opuni
shMel
othat
’swhy
Dae:wai
tbackup.Sothi
schil
dyoucar
ryi
ngis
Melo’
s.whom y
ouliedandsai
dyouabort
ed…
whyshoul
dwebel
i
evey
ou?
Yana:
may bebecausethechi
l
dlooksexact
ly
l
ikeMelo…how’sthatf
orastart
?
Me:
letmeseet
hatbaby
Yanahandedt
hechil
dtomeandy ep,hel
ooked
l
ikeMelowhenhewasababy.Tookmebackt o
whenhewasjustababyandl
esstroubl
esome.
Me:
howol
dishe?
Kat
e:3mont
hs
Dae:
whycomenow?
Kate:Ihear
daboutMel o’
saccidentandIgot
scaredandwor r
iedbecausewhenwemeti n
KokstadItol
dhimt hatI’
dwentthroughwit
ht he
aborti
onwhenIhadn’ t
.Idon’
twantmychi l
d
growingupwithoutafather
Yana:
well
he’sbeengr
owingupwi
thoutonefor
thr
eemonthsnow.What’
sther
eal
reason?I
sit
money?Whatisi
t?
Trustmydaught
ertoputy
oui
nacor
ner
.Just
thenDamonwalkedin.
Him:
SothatwasAsemahl
eandshesaysMelo
i
supandhewokeupwithamemorylossof
somesor
t.
Icoul
dn’
tev
enhi
demyexci
tement
.
Me:
wehav
etogoseehi
m now.
Nuni
:butKat
eisher
e.SoKat
ewhatbr
ingsy
ou
her
e?
Dae:
yoursoni
saf
athert
oa3-
mont
hol
dchi
l
d
namedKyl
e
Il
ookedathi
mrol
li
ngmyeyes.Dami
encanbe
somethi
ngel
sewhenhewantsto
Nuni
:whatdoy
oumeanbecausey
ouandMel
o
t
oldmeshehadami
scar
riage
Me:wedidn’
twanttotel
lyout
hatshewentto
getanabor
ti
onbecauseweknewhowy ou
wouldr
eactandt
urnsoutshekeptthebaby
Nuni
:andy
ousur
ehe’
sMel
o’s?
Hesai
dlooki
ngatKat
e
Her
:yes,
sir
Me:
hel
ooksexact
lyl
i
kehi
m Nuni
Icouldtell
hewasnothappyaboutthisbuthe
hadnochoi cehere.Thi
swasourgrandchi
ld.He
wassl eepi
ngsopeacefull
ysucki
ngonhistiny
fi
st.Ihandedhim overt
ohismother
.
Me:li
stenwehavetogoseeMeloatt
he
hospi
tal.We’
l
ltal
kaboutt
hiswhenwegetback.
Isaidgoingupst
airsandDamonwal kedi
n.I
hatelyi
ngt omyhusbandbutsi
tuati
onfor
ced
met o.Ididwhatanymotherwouldhavedone.
Hi
m:sowel
i
etoeachot
hernow?
Me:
honeyi
tsnot
hingl
i
ket
hat
Hi
m:t
henwhat
?
Me:thi
sisexact
lywhatwewant edt
oavoi
d.I
knewthati
fItol
dyouthatoursongavehi
s
gi
rl
fr
iendmoneyt
ogetanabor
ti
ony
ouwoul
d
ov
erreact
Him: overreact?OverreactAmahl e?Whythehell
wouldMel okuhlegiv
et hisgir
lmoneyt ogetan
aborti
on?Wehav eallthemoneyi nthewor l
d
forhimt or unawayf r
om hi sresponsi
bil
i
ties
Amahl e.Wer en’ty
out heonet hatconvi
ncedme
totaker esponsibi
li
tyforIyanaaf t
erwhat
happened?
Me:Damonpleasej
ustcal
m downsot
hatIcan
t
ell
youwhathappened
Hi
m:enl
i
ght
enmepl
ease
Me:
theabor
ti
onwasKat
e’sdeci
sion
Hi
m:andthatmakesitr
ightbecausei
twas
Mel
okuhl
ewhogav ehim money
Me: Idon’
tev
enunder
standwhyy
oumad
becauseshekeptt
hebaby
Hi
m:I
’
m madbecausey
oul
i
edt
omedammi
t!
Me:
Nuni
I’
m sor
ry
Hi
m:what
ever
.Let
’sj
ustgoseeMel
okuhl
e
Hesaidtakinghi
scarkeys.Idi
dn’tevenknow
whatmor etosay,
hewassoangr y.I
underst
andhisangerbutIsti
ll
feelhe’s
over
reacti
ngbecausethechil
disal i
ve.
.
.
-
Mel
o
IjusthopeYay aandIhav eenoughofloveto
keepust ogetherbecausethis?Thisri
ghthere…
Idon’tknowhowwegoi ngtomakei tt
hrough.I
am lit
eral
lyhangingonbyat hread.Howmuch
doesoneneedt otakeinbeforethrowi
nginthe
towel?I’
veputhert hr
oughsomuch.IguessI
shouldbehappyshedi dn’
tgot hr
oughwiththe
aborti
onbutwhoam Iki ddi
ng?Istandtolose
mygi rl
fri
endhere.
Me:
afat
her
?Kat
ekeptt
hebaby
?
Mom:
he’
s3mont
hs
Yana:
looksexact
lyl
i
key
ou
Shesaidhandingmeherphoneandt hel
it
tl
e
onelookedsoadorabl
e.Kat eandIneededto
tal
k.Shehassomeexplainingtodo.Iwas
worri
edaboutYayaheari
ngal lt
hisbutshe
l
ookedl i
keshewasinadeepsl eepbecausethe
YandiswaIknowwouldhav ebeenupt he
minutesheheardIwasaf ather.
Me:
wher
e’sKat
enow?
Dad:
backathomewi
thSi
m
JustthenAsemahlewalkedi
ngiggl
ingwit
hher
phone.Aymysisterl
ovesthi
sguyshameand
i
tscutebecausesheisthehappi
estshe’
sever
been.
Ase:youl
ookli
keyou’
veseenaghost
.You
asshol
e!Youwerepr
anki
ngus
Me:
sor
ry.Justhear
dI’
m adad
Ase:
nof
ucki
ngway
.Yay
aispr
egnant
?
Ir
oll
edmyey
es.wassheser
iousl
yaski
ngme
thatr
ightnow?Sheknowsallt
hegi
rl
sI’
vebeen
withandshewouldknowift
herewassomeone
Iwouldhavemadepregnant
Yana:
yousodumb.Hedi
dn’
tsayhewasgoi
ng
tobeadad,
heisone
Ase:
towhosechi
l
d?
Mom:
Kat
e…
Ase:
thatbi
tchi
sback?Whatt
hehel
l
?
IgaveherYana’
sphoneandshel
ookedatt
he
pi
cture
Ase:soadorable.Butdoesn’
tmeanIl
i
kehi
s
mother.Whatthehell?
Mom: Kat
erockedupwi thhi
mt onightsaying
shegotscar
edwhenshehear dyourbrother
wasinanaccidentandshedidn’twantherchild
togr
owupnotknowi nghisf
ather
Ase:
bul
l
shi
i
t!!
!
Me:
language!Youf
orgett
her
ear
eel
der
sin
her
eandcoul
dyoupl
easekeepi
tdown
Isai
dpoint
ingt
oYay
awhowasst
il
lsl
eepi
ngso
peacef
ul
Dae:i
fyourgi
rl
fr
iendcansleept
hroughthi
sI’
m
sur
eshecansleepthroughtheworl
dending
Mom:she’
sjustt
ir
ed.Shehasn’
tsl
eptf
orf
our
day
s
Dadwasawfull
yquiet.Iknewthatwewere
goi
ngtodealwit
hthiswhenwewer et
ogether
orwhenIgotoutofhere.I’
m notr
eadyforthat
…
Ase:
youhaveputmyf r
iendthroughhel
lbr
uh!I
f
yout
womakei toutoft
his,IsweartoGodyou
woul
dhavegiv
enhersomel ov
epot i
on
Dae:butthi
shappenedbef oreshecamei nthe
pict
ure,
Imeanit’
sonlyfairthatsheforgi
ves
hi
m.Imeani fBoobieherewasabl etoforgi
ve
DamonandYana’ smother…Idon’ tseewhyit
shouldbehardt
of or
giveyou
Mom:
thatwasdi
ff
erent
Dae:ifyoureal
lycareabouty ourson’
s
rel
ati
onshipwiththisgi
rlt
heny ouwi l
ltal
kher
i
ntost ayi
ng.Givesomelif
elongspeechabout
whaty ousurvi
vedanddidf oryourhusband.
Melodi dnothi
ngwr onghere.Thepersonat
faul
tisthisKatechil
d
Dad:
sowhat
’st
hewayf
orwar
d?
Mom:
meani
ng?
Dae:
whathappenswi
tht
hegi
rl
Mom:
hest
art
ssuppor
ti
nghi
schi
l
dduh!
Dae:Isti
llt
hinkther
e’smoretowhatthatgi
rl
wasletti
ngon.She’sbeenrai
singthechi
ld
al
onef or3mont hsandthensuddenl
yshefeel
s
heneedshi sfat
her…thatgi
rli
shereformoney
Yana:ofcauseyouwoul
dthi
nkthatuncle
Damien.Anyonewho’
snotaBesswant sthe
Bessmoneyr i
ght
Dae:getovery
oursel
fIyana.Thi
sisnotabout
youandthatbrokeboyf
riendofyour
s
Mom: donotst
artyout
wo!Mel oIknowy ou
andIknowthatyouwil
ltaker
esponsibi
l
ityof
yoursonandmakesurethatheneverneeds
anythi
ng
Ase:Iunder
standi
t’
shi
ssonbutMom Kat
e
her
epl ay
edhim
Mom:ev
eni
fshedi
d,t
hechi
l
ddi
dnooneany
har
m
Ase:andwhataboutt
hemoneyshepai
dfort
he
abor
tion
Me:comeonAsedon’
tbepet
ty.What
’sdonei
s
done
Ase:
Ijustdon’
tgetwhyshewouldrockupnow.
Whypayofy ounotgoi
ngtogothroughwi
thit
?
Mom:shechi
ckenedout
.Let
’smov
eonf
rom
t
hatandj
ustf
indawayforward
Dad:
whatki
ndofhomedoesKat
ecomef
rom?
Me:theyl
iv
eof
fhermot
herandgr
andmot
her
’s
paycheque
Dad:
youandKat
ehav
eal
ott
otal
kaboutt
hen
Mom:
Iwantmygr
andchi
l
dher
e
Dad:
thati
ssomethi
ngweneedt
odi
scusswi
th
t
hekidsandherpar
ent
s
Ase:I
’
m wi
thmom.Thechi
l
dshoul
dcomest
ay
her
e
Me:andwhataboutKat
e?Youcan’
tsepar
atea
chi
l
df r
om i
tsmother
Mom:
shecanmov
einwi
thus
Yana:i
sn’tt
hatl
ikei
nvi
tingt
roubl
e.Wher
e
wouldthatl
eaveYaya?
Mom:
Yay
awi
l
lhav
etounder
stand
Yana:
wouldyouhaveunderst
oodi
fmymom
movedint
oyouri
n-l
aw’shouse?
Mom: thi
sisthet
hingaboutl
oveYana,
it
conquersal
l.
Yana:Ij
ustf
eell
ikey
ouguysareli
ter
all
y
droppi
ngMelo’
sbaggageonYayaaft
er
ev
erythi
ngshe’
senduredbecauseofhi
m.No
of
fenseli
tt
lebr
other
Dad:
thenwhatar
eyousuggest
ingYana?
Yana:t
hatYay
awakesupandv
oiceouther
opi
nion
Dad:Yandi
swaandMelokuhl
earen’
tmarr
ied.
Theyhaven’
tev
enbeentoget
herforay
ear
Me:ei
therwayIy
aisri
ght.Yandi
swaispartof
myli
feandwhathappenstomeaf f
ectshertoo.
Shedeserv
estovoi
ceoutwhatshethinks
Dae:andifsherefusestoaccepty
ourchil
d?
Will
youturnyourbackony oursonbecause
yourgi
rl
fr
iendrefusestoaccepthi
m?
Me:ofcausenotbutIknowYay
aandshei
s
ver
yfai
r.
Dae:
I’
mjustaski
ngwhati
f?
Me:
we’
l
lcr
osst
hatbr
idgewhenwegett
her
e
Mom:
okt
hen.Wewi
l
lleav
eyout
orestand
comebackt
omor
rowmor
ning
Me:
great
.
Theysai
dthei
rgoodby
esandIwasl
eftwi
thmy
si
ster
s.
Me:
Ineedaphone
Yana:
I’
ll
tryhooky
ouupt
omor
row
Me:Idon’
twantany
thi
ngl
esst
hanmyphone
Yana
Ase:
beggar
scan’
tbechooser
s.
Me:myphonewasinmybackpocket.The
hospi
tal
mustknowsomet
hingaboutthet
hings
i
swasadmitt
edwith.
Ase:ev
enify
ourphonewasiny
ourbackpocket
whataret
hechancest
hati
t’
sst
il
lal
i
ve
Me:canyoupl
easej
ustgoenqui
reaboutmy
t
hingssi
s
Ase:
fine
Shewal
ked.Ineededmyphone,
thatphonei
s
myl
ife.I
thasmyever
ythi
ng.Thewal
l
etcanbe
r
epl
acedbutnotmyphone.
Yana:
youok?
IwasbrushingYay a’shai
rki
ssi
ngthetopofher
head.Ihat
et his.Ihatet
hist
urnofevent
s.It
’s
notfai
ronher .Whendoesherhappinesscome?
Whendoest hedr amaend?It’
stoomuchf or
onetotakein.
Me:
I’
mjustwor
ri
edaboutherYana
Her
:Yay
aisabi
ggi
rl
Me:
I’
veputhert
hroughsomuchsi
s
Her:
Iunderst
andthatbutLov
eisaccompani
ed
bypainbr
other.
Me:
itshoul
dn’
tbet
hismuchpai
nthough
Her
:Iknow
Shesai
dki
ssi
ngmyf
orehead.
.
.
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49]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E03
***
“…Whydoesshest ay
? .
..She’ssomuch
bett
erthanme.I’m sounwor thyofher.Why
doesshestay?She’sinlove….AndIdon’ t
underst
and…Igottabeabet t
ermanf orher….
SoItakemyt i
meanddowhatI ’m supposedto
do….BecauseIjustcan’
tseemyl if
ewi thout
you…”***
-
Yay
a
Iwokeupt oari
ngingphoneandi twasmi ne,
whenIlookedupMel owaswat chingme.My
phonehadstoppedringing.Ismiledathi
m and
heret
urnedafaintsmile.Lookedl i
ke
somethi
ngwasbot heri
nghi m.Iwonder .
Me:
heyy
ou
Hi
m:heybeaut
if
ul.Damny
oucansl
eep
Me:
whatt
imei
sit
?
Hi
m:nextday
,8am
Me:
wow.Imusthav
ebeenr
eal
l
yti
red.
Heki
ssedt
het
opofmyhead.
Me:
ever
ythi
ngok?Youseem al
i
ttl
edi
str
act
ed
Hi
m:Kat
enev
erwentt
hroughwi
tht
heabor
ti
on
Whatawayt owakeup.Iwentt osleepwi t
ha
manwhodi dn’
thaveachildonlytowakeupt o
onewhohasone…i fthat
’snotmagi cthenI
don’tknowwhatis.Iswall
owedr eall
yhard
beforerespondi
ngtothatstatementbecause
l
ordknowsi twasdamnwel lnotaquestion.
Him:
Ifoundoutl
astni
ghtwhenmyf
ami
l
y
cametoseeme
Isti
ll
didn’
tanswer
.WasIthatasl
eept
hatI
didn’
thearhi
sfamil
y?ImeanAsemahl
eisa
l
oudoneandIknowf orsurethatshehad
somethingt
osayonthemat t
er,knowingher
sheprobabl
ycametomydef enseonwhat ev
er
theBessesthr
ewather.She’
ssol oy
al andso
l
ov i
ng.
Him: mom say sKaterockedupontheir
doorsteplastnightsayi
ngthatshehear
dabout
theaccidentandshedi dn’
twantherbaby
growingupwi thouthisfat
her
Ist
il
lkeptqui
et.
Hi
m:pl
easesaysomet
hing
IthinkI’
m donecr ying.Ithi
nkI’
v eoutcr i
ed
cryingasi nt
her earelit
eral
lynomor etearsl ef
t
i
nmyey es.may beifIwasn’tsodr ainedI’
dbe
hurtbyt hi
sbutpar tofmeal way ssuspect ed
thatKat eneverwentt hroughwi t
hi tbutIjust
didn’texpectthistohappennow.Igotupf rom
hischestandf ixedmysi t
ti
ngposi ti
onont opof
him.Iknowhewasi nanaccidentbuthe
offeredthatIsitont opofhimi nsteadrather
t
hanont
hechai
r.It
ookhi
shandsi
ntomi
ne
Me:Igrewupwi t
houtmyr eal f
ather.Hedenied
mebecausehi sfathert ol
dhimt oorsohesay s.
Hecouldhav elookedf ormewhenhewasno
l
ongerunderhisf ather’scarebuthedi dn’
t.He
l
ivedhisli
feli
keIdi dn’texistandhewashappy
orwhatever.MeloIknowwhati t’
sliketonot
haveaf at
herandt hel astthingy ouwantisy our
sonresenti
ngy ouov eradeci si
ony oumade
year
sago.Myf atherandIdon’ tseeey etoeye
andIdon’twishthatf ory ouandy ourson.You
aregi
venasecondchanceher e,useit.
Callmest upidoraf oolbutthismani smyman
andIlovehi mt obi t
sandhehasl osttwoki ds
alr
eady,hecan’ tloset hi
sonet oo.Idon’tknow
whatit’
sliketol oseachi ldbutIdon’twanthim
tolosehisallbecauseofme.Hel ookedatme
withoutanythingt osay ,t
helookonhi sface
wasenought ot el
l met hathewasst unnedby
myr eacti
on.Ineedy out ounderstandthatin
l
ifeyougett oapoi ntwher ethefi
ghti
ngget s
ti
ringandy oujustwanttobreatheandl ivea
nor mall
i
fewi t
houtthedr amaandev eryt
hing
else.Notthattherewon’tbeanydr amaseeing
thatther
e’sababyi nthepicturebutI’m wil
li
ng
tocompr omiseandmaket hingswor k.Ij
ust
hopeKat ewillmeetmehal fway .Isawasmi le
curveonhi sl
ips.
Hi
m:Idon’
tbel
i
evey
ou
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:Ir
eal
l
ydon’
tbel
i
evey
ou
Me:
what
?
Icoul
dn’
thel
psmi
l
ing.
Him:Ithoughtyouweregoingtostor
m outof
hereandleaveorthr
owaf itorsomethi
ng.But
thi
s.ThisIdi
dnotexpect.Youoncetoldme
thatyouweren’
tcutoutf
orbabymamadr ama
Me:I
’
m sti
l
lnotcutoutfori
tbutMeloIl
oveyou
andI
’
m wil
li
ngtogivewhatevert
hisi
sashot
.I
al
mostl
ostyouandinthosefewdaysofnot
knowingthepainwasunbearable.Icoul
dn’
t
standitandIdon’
twantto.Wecanmakei t
work,Iknowwecanj ustasl
ongasKat ei
s
will
ingtomeethal
fwayandasl ongasy oudon’
t
expectmet opl
aystepmummy
Him:Iunderst
andit
’salotony
oursi
deandy
ou
cant
akeal l
theti
mey ouneed,
Iwon’
tfor
cey
ou
i
ntoalloft
his
Me:
thanky
ou
Irestedmyf oreheadonhi sandpl ant edaki ss
onhi slipswhi chher espondedt owi thout
hesitation.Idon’ tknowwhyIst ay.I’
llnev er
knowwhyIst aybutsomet hi
ngt el
lsmet hatit
’s
therightt hingt odo.it’
snotsomet hingIhav eto
dobuti t’
ssomet hingIwantt odo.hehasa
chil
d, bigdeal .May beifIhadmethi m wi tha
chil
d; thingswoul dhav egonedifferentlybut
nowheandIhadal r
eadybeendat i
ngwhen
Kate’spr egnancycameoutandIhadal ready
fall
eni nl ov
ewi t
hhi m sobadi thurt.Soshoot
mef orlov i
ngthisman.Mom andLedi won’t
takethisonei nproperly
…heckwhatam Iev en
saying?Theywi llneversupportmeont hi
s.
Theywi l
l saywhat ev
ertogetmet oreconsider
thi
sdeci sionwhichIdonotr egretandhopet o
notregreti nf
uture.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Yazini
thiswomansi tti
ngont opofmei sgoing
tobemywi fesomedayandIwi l
l gi
veherthe
worldandmor e.Shewi l
lnevercr yagain
becauseofmeandIwi llnevernotoncehur ther
i
ntenti
onally
.Herr eacti
ont othesi tuati
oncame
unexpected.Ireall
ythoughtshewoul dwalkout
onmebutshedi dn’
t,shestay ed.Idon’tknow
whyshest aysbecauseIdon’ tdeser veherandI
don’tt
hinkI’
v egivenherenoughr easont ostay
butsheisstillhereandhasn’ tleftmysi defor
anyofmymi stakes.I’
m gratefulshedi dn’
t
l
eave,I
’m gratefulshestayed.Idon’
tknow
whereIwoul dbewi thoutherandIdon’ twantt
o
know.Ibroket hekissandlookedatherwi tha
smil
e.She’sper fect
.Ifper
fecti
ondidn’texi
st,
nowitdoesbecauseshei sthedef i
nit
ionof
perf
ect.
“Idon’
tthi
nkyoual
l
owedt
ori
deeachot
herona
hospit
albed”
Webothl
ookedatt
hedooranditwasLuc
f
oll
owedbySiy
a.Wejustl
aughed.
Yay
a:onl
yyouwoul
dsayt
hatLuc
Luc:
heyI
’
mjustsay
ing.Sohav
eyouguy
sdone
i
t?
Weal
lj
ustl
aughed.Mycousi
nisani
diot
.
Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oocuz,
Siy
a
Siy
a:neverscar
emyfri
endli
ket
hatagai
n.Next
ti
mey ouwon’tbesol
ucky
Me:itwi
l
ltakemor
ethanacarcr
asht
oki
l
lme
bud
Luc:
Isweart
oGody ouspi
kedhi
sfoodwi
th
somelov
epoti
on.Thisi
snotmycousi
nbr
uh
Me:
thi
sismedude
Yay
a:unt
ily
oumeett
her
ightgi
rl
,don’
tjudge
Luc:
ohy
out
her
ightgi
rlf
orhi
m?
Yay
alookedatmeandIsmi
l
ed
Me:
duh!
Si
ya:
trustmeshe’
sagoodone.Sohowar
eyou?
Whenaretheyl
ett
ingy
ououtofher
e?
Me:
appar
ent
lywhent
hedoct
orsay
sI’
m good
t
ogo.
Justt
henMr
s.Besswal
kedi
nfol
l
owedbyAse.
Mom:
Siy
a,Nephew
Theyhugged.
Ase:
yout
wol
ookcozyandcut
e
Me:
shutup.Whatdi
dyoubr
ingme?
Her
:yourchar
ger
Me:
Imeansomet
hingt
oeat
Her
:hav
eYay
a
Shesai
dr ol
l
ingherey
es,IlookedatYay
awitha
smir
kandsheblushedlookingdownshyl
y.
FuckImisshavi
ngherbreakfast
Mom:
sti
l
lint
her
oom peopl
e
Luc:
yeahy
ouguy
sar
enotal
one
Yay
a:wel
i
ter
all
ydi
dn’
tdoany
thi
ng
Mom:
buty
ourf
acessayi
tal
l
Me:
it’
sbeenf
art
ool
ong.Youcan’
tbl
ameus
Mom:wedi
dn’
tnotneedt
oknowt
hat
.Di
dyou
t
ell
her
?
Me:
yep
Ase:
andy
oust
il
lher
e?
Yay
anodded
Luc:
whatar
ewemi
ssi
ng?
Me:
Ihav
eason
Si
ya:
bywho?
Me:
Kat
e
Luc:
andYay
aisokwi
tht
hat
?
Yaya:whydoy ouguy
smakeitseem l
i
keIr
eact
overever
ythi
ng.Li
keIleav
eev
eryti
me
Il
ookedatherandshehadast
rai
ghtf
ace
Luc:that’
scauseyoualwaysl eav
eort hreat
en
toleave.Oneoughttowalkoneggshel lsaround
you.Yougott hebet
tercousinsweetiebecause
Iwouldhav edumpedy ourassal ongtimeago.
Yay
a:goodt
hingI
’
m notdat
ingy
out
hen.
Siy
a:Kat
ekeptthebaby?Mr
s.Besshowar
e
yousocal
m aboutthi
s?
Mom: sheshoweduponmydoorstepl
astni
ght
wit
har epl
i
caofMelokuhl
eandwhatwasIto
say?
Luc:t
hebi
tchl
i
ed.Shest
oley
ourmoneyand
thenshel
i
edabouti
t
Me:shedi
dn’
texact
lyst
eal
it,
shej
ustdi
dn’
tgo
t
hroughwi
thi
t
Luc:doesn’tchanget
hefactt
hatshel
iedand
keptthebabyawayf r
om hisf
amil
y.Sowhat
now?Doy ouguy spaydamages?Seei
ngthat
Auntyisblackandall
Mom:itwoul
dbetheri
ghtthi
ngtodobutMel
o
i
snotXhosaandnei
theri
sKate
Luc:
buthe’
shal
fXhosaBoobi
e
Mom:she’
l
lbev
isi
ti
ngy
oul
ateron.Yay
ayouok
wi
tht
hat?
Yaya:reall
yyouguys?Whydoy oumakeme
thi
sper son?I
fMelowantstohav ea
rel
ati
onshipwithhi
sson,t
henIt hinkheshoul
d
despi
teme
Mom: wel
lheki
ndofsai
dy ouneedtohav
ean
opini
ononhowthi
ngshappenbecausewhat
happensi
nhisl
i
feaff
ectsyoutoo
Yay
a:t
hat
’ssosweetandcut
e.
Mom: Iwassuggest
ingKyl
eandhismother
moveinwithmeatthehouse.Ican’
thav
emy
gr
andchil
dli
vi
nglordknowswhere.
Yay
a:ifMeloi
scoolwi
thi
tthenIdon’
tseewhy
i
tshouldbeaprobl
em.
Ase:
butar
eyouokwi
thi
t
Yaya:
youguy smakeitseem l
i
keI’
m hi
swi
fe
andIdict
ateever
ythi
nginhi
slif
e
Me:wel
lyouaregoingt
obemywi
fesoon.I
t’
s
onl
yfai
ryouactl
ikeone
Mom:
so?
??
Yay
a:Idon’
tseewhynotMr
s.Bess.
Luc:Idon’
tgetwhyKat ehast omov ei
nthou.I
meanshecancomev isitthechi
ldthesame
wayMel owil
lbevisi
ti
ngt hechil
d.Doesn’
tshe
studyorsomethi
ng?
Mom:shedeci
dedt
odr
opoutt
otakecar
eof
Ky
le
Me:butyouoff
eredtot
akecareofKyl
esoI
don’
tseewhyshedoesn’tgobackt
oschool
whil
eKylel
iv
eswi t
hyou
Yay
a:youdoreal
i
zet
hatyougoi
ngtohavet
o
movebackt
hissi
der
ight
?Foryourson
Mom: she’sri
ght.Idon’
tmindhavi
nghim st
ay
wit
hmebuthei sstil
lyoursonandyouneedto
havearelati
onshipwithhi
m
Me:
thi
sisal
otmor
ethanIhadant
ici
pat
ed
Yay
a:we’
l
lfi
gur
eitout
Ase:I
’m st
arti
ngtothi
nkthatweneedar eal
i
ty
showespecial
lywit
hthedramaIforesee
unfol
dingi
nthenearfutur
e
Shesaidlaughi
ngandYay alaughedto.Ididn’
t
fi
nditfunnybecauset hisi
smyl i
feher ethat
’s
undergoi
ngmassi vechangesandIl it
erall
ydo
nothaveasayi ni
t.Ipr omi
sedYay aIwoul dn’
t
for
ceherintoanythingandIwon’ t
.Ifthings
werediff
erentI
’dmar ryYaya,buyahouseand
mov einwi thherandmysonbutshei sstil
li
n
school andt hewayshel ov esCar l
i Idon’tsee
herquitti
ngt hatsidetof inishoffher ewhen
therearesomanyoppor tuniti
esther ethanhere.
Thiswasal ott otakein.justwhenwet hought
wewer eov ert hewhol edi stancet hingnowwe
areforcedt ogoback?Whenwi l
lsheandIev er
sett
letoget heri nonepl aceandj ustbehappy
andbeus.Anor malcoupl ewi t
houtt hi
smuch
dramasur r
oundi ngourlives.May bei fIhadn’t
start
edt hiswhol edatingsceneIwoul dn’tbe
caughtupi nt hiscrossfi
rebutIal sowoul dn’
tbe
withthel oveofmyl i
ferightnow.
Me:
younotbei
ngf
unnyAsemahl
e
Yaya:shewasonl
yjoki
ngbabenoneedt
o
tenseup
Me:what
everhappensf
rom her
eonaff
ect
smy
l
if
emorethanyouknow.It
’snotat
imefor
j
okes
Ase:
somebodyneedssex.Yousoupt
ight
Me:YandiswaisgoingbacktoCarl
iintwo
months’t
ime.HowcanInotbeupt ightandI’
ll
onl
yseeheronhol i
days?Everyt
imewegeta
gl
impseofhappiness,somethi
ngcomesal ong
andtakesitaway.Whythefuckcan’tt
hingsj
ust
gosmoot hforonceinmyli
fe
Mom:
Honey
Yay
a:babelookatme.thi
schangesnothi
ngok?
I
tchangesnothi
ng.Wemadet hedi
stancethi
ng
workbefor
eandwestil
lcan
Me:i
tsdi
ff
erentnowYandi
swa.Youhav
emor
e
wor
ktocovernextyear
Her:thingsdon’
thavetobediff
erent
.We’l
ldo
thi
ngst hewaywedi dthem l
astyear
.Anybreak
Igetfrom schoolIcanfl
yhereoryoucanfl
yto
Carl
i.Wecanmakei t
Shesaidwi
thherhandsonei
thercheekofmy
face.
Ase:
thi
sisdepr
essi
ng.Can’
tyoul
eav
eforCar
li
andcomebackeveryoneweektobondwit
h
yourl
it
tl
eone?Imeanwehav eahel
perand
homeandhismotherwil
lbei
ntown.Youcall
ever
ydayandall
isfai
rinl
oveandwar
Mom:
it’
snotsuchabadi
dea.
Me:
you’
reageni
us
Ase:
Iknow.Ij
ustdon’
twanty
ouguy
stopar
t
Yay
a:comeher
e
Shesai
dopeningherarmsf orAsewholaughed
andhuggedusboth.ThisiswhyIlov
eher.This
i
swhyshe’ smybestfr
iend.She’
ssmartand
sheal
way sfi
ndsaway .
Luc:wow.Yay
ayoubet
tersayy
eswhenhe
asksyoutomarr
yhi
m
Webr
oket
hehugl
aughi
ng
Luc:nol
ikeI
’
m seri
ous.Heisli
ter
all
ygi
vi
ngup
wit
nessi
nghisson’
sgrowthforyou
Me:
I’
m notgi
vi
ngupany
thi
ngi
fyout
hinkabout
i
tbecauseI’
l
lbecomi
ngbackev
erymont
hjust
t
obewi thhi
m
Si
ya:
myni
gga…wel
comet
ofat
her
hoodIguess
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
Wecont inuedchatti
nguntil
Yay alef
twithSiya,
saidsheneededt oshowerandSi yasai
dheand
herneededt ochat,
catchupal i
ttl
e.Knowing
Siyahewaspr obablygoi
ngt omakesur ethatI
didn’
tfor
ceYay aintoherdecisi
on.
.
.
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Yay
a
IknewSiyawantedtoknowt hatIwasn’t
manipul
atedi
ntoalloft
his.Wewal kedtothe
parki
ngl
otinsi
lenceandt henwegoti nt
omy
car.
Hi
m:soher
eal
l
yboughti
t
Me:
youknewandy
oudi
dn’
ttel
lme?
Him: Idi
dn’
tthi
nkhewoul dgoonwi thi
t,l
ast
ti
meheandIspokeabouti t
;itwasjust
somet hi
nghewast hi
nki
ngofdoi ngandI
thoughtIhadtal
kedhim outofit
Me:
clear
lyhedi
dn’
tli
sten
Him:youknowy
ourman.Whenhe’
smindi
s
madeuponsomethi
ngnoonecantal
khi
m out
ofit
Me:
Iguessso.
Hi
m:myf
ri
endt
alkt
ome
Me:
about
?
Him:thi
s.Mel
ohavi
ngachi
l
d…howdoy
ouf
eel
aboutal
loft
his?
Me:Idon’
tfeel
anyt
ypeofwayaboutt
hisCy.
Thechi
ldi
sbornandit
sMelo’
s…what’
sther
eto
feel
?
Him:y ourfeel
ings.Youcan’
ttel
lmeyoufi
ne
withev er
ythi
ngasi ti
s.Thi
sisgoingt
oaffect
yourrelati
onshipwithhi
m.Whataboutyour
mom?
Me: Iwil
lhandl
emom whent heti
mecomes
andasf ormyrelati
onshipwit
hMel o…Idon’t
knowwher ethi
si sgoingbutthat
’sthebeaut
y
ofital
l.Themystery.Siy
aIlovehim.Ilovehi
m
somucht hatmyl ov eforhimi sunshaken.Even
aft
ereveryt
hingthathashappenedIj ustcan’t
walkaway.Ev er
ytimeIt ellmy sel
fI’
m donewi t
h
him hedoessomet hi
ngt hatamazesmeandI
suddenl
yrethinkev ery
thing.WhenIdeci deit
s
overIfi
ndmy selfrunningbackt ohim even
aft
ereveryt
hing.Am Iwr ongf orlovi
nghiml i
ke
thi
s?
Him:Iwi
shIcoul
dmeetsomeoneIl ovethat
much…younotwrongforl
ov i
nghimtheway
youdomyfri
end,j
ustdon’
tloseyour
selfi
nitok.
Me:
Iheary
oumyf
ri
end
Hi
m:Ij
usthopeMel
oknowshowbl
essedhei
s
t
ohaveyou.
Hekissedmycheekandhegotof finfrontof
hi
shomeandIt henIdr ov
eof ftomypl ace.We
wereinmyr oom,Mom, AshandLedi .Nitaand
Serenawentouttobuygr oceriesorsomet hi
ng,
arghIdon’tknow.Iwasonl yheret oshower
anyway.Ihadjustfi
nishedwashi ng.Isatont he
bedbecausecl
ear
lywehadal
ott
otal
kabout
.
Mom:
sowhenar
ewegoi
nghome?
Me:whenIknowt
hatMel
oisf
ineandi
soutof
t
hathospi
tal
Her
:Yandi
swacomeon.Whati
sitwi
tht
hisboy
?
Me:heal
mostdiedf
ormemom nowcanI
pl
easej
ustl
oti
onmybodyi
npeace
Her
:fi
ne.
Mom walkedoutandl ef
tmewi t
hAshandLedi .
ImissMthathaandSisekohasbeennagging
meaboutcomi ngbackbutIcan’tleav
eunti
lI
knowthatMeloisrecoveredwel
l andhe’
sout
ofhospi
tal
.
Ash:
youok?
Me:
rememberKat
e
Ledi
:whatabouther
?
Her:
Katei
sthatexofMel
o’st
hatf
ell
pregnant
andhadanabort
ion
Me:t
hat’
sexact
lyher
.Shenev
erwentt
hrough
wi
ththeabor
ti
on
Ledi
:asi
nshekeptt
hebaby
Me:
yepabeaut
if
ult
hree-
mont
hol
dbaby
Ash:wher
edoest
hisl
eav
eyourr
elat
ionshi
p
wit
hMelo?
Me:whatki
ndofquest
ioni
sthat
?I’
m notgoi
ng
any
where
Ledi
:Uphambene(
YouMad)
!
Me:
thanksf
ort
hesuppor
t
Ledi
:support
?Ar
eyoudr
unk?Younotgoi
ngt
o
pl
aynost epmommytoMel
okuhl
e’
schil
d
Me:
goodt
hingi
t’
snoty
ourchoi
ce
Ash:
ladi
escanwecal
m down
Ledi:
I’
mtell
i
ngy ourmot
heraboutt
his.Thi
sis
puremadness.
Shesaidst
ormingout
.IknowIoncesai
dIwill
neverpl
aystepmommybutIwasy oungthen
andst upidanddi dn’tknowwhatbei nginl ove
fel
tli
keandnowt hatIknowwhati t ’
sli
keI ’m
happyandIwoul dn’ttradeanythi
ngofwher e
I’
m at.I’m ataplacewher eI’
vealway spray ed
ormay beev enmor e.Ihaveamanwhol ov es
memor ethanany t
hinginthisworld,I
’m
extr
emel yhappyandIam onest epclosert o
graduat i
ngandIpr ettymuchhav eachiev edhalf
mygoal s.Whatmor ecouldIaskfor?
Ash:
arey
our
eadyt
opl
ayst
epmommy
?
Me: i
t’
snotli
keIhav
et obei nv
olvedi
nthe
chil
d’sl
if
e.Hehasagr andmotherwhoismor
e
thanwil
li
ngtodoanythingforhim
Her:
butMelohastohavearel
ati
onshi
pwithhi
s
soneit
herwayandhealsowant
shisgir
lf
ri
end
i
nvolv
edinhisson’
sli
fe
Me: beasitmay ,hesaidhewon’tf
orcemeint
o
havingarelat
ionshi
pwi thhim.We’
l
ltakei
tone
stepatatime.Unt i
lI’
mr eady
Ash:
youbr
aveandmat
ure.It
hinkIwantt
o
gr
owupt
obel
i
key
oumyf
ri
end
Me:I
’
m scar
edbutwe’
l
lpul
lthr
ough.Weal
way
s
do
Ash:
ababychangesev
ery
thi
ngt
hough
Me:
ababydoesn’thavetochangeany
thing.I
t’
s
t
hepeopl
ethatchoosetochangeandblame
t
hebaby’
spresence
“
soi
t’
str
ue”
Itur
nedar
oundandmom wasst
andi
ngbyt
he
door.
Mom: y
ouarewil
li
ngtori
skever
ythi
ngt
orai
se
ababythati
snoteveny
ours?
!
Me:
mamapl
ease
Mom: Howdareyoust
aywit
hhim?Hehasa
chil
dYandi
swa!Youar
enotfi
ttobepl
ayi
ng
stepmom
Me:isthathowyoufel
twhenyoudat
edMandl
a?
Thatyouwerenotfi
ttopl
ayst
epmom tohi
s
chi
l
dren
Her:
youknowwhat?goonanddoasy ou
pl
ease.Iwon’
tst
opyou.Ij
usthopet
hatal
lthi
s
i
swor t
hiti
ntheend
Withthatshelef
t.Idon’
tli
kedisrespecti
ngmy
motherbutsomet i
messhej ustneedst oletme
be,l
etmegr owup,makemyownmi stakesand
l
earnfrom them onmyown.Thi streati
ngme
l
ikeachildwon’tfl
y.
Ledi
:Wow!Mel o’sdi
ckmustreal
lybedoing
wonders.Ori
sitthecar
?Whatexactlyisit
becauseIdon’
tknowwhatelsewouldmake
youstaywit
hthisguyevenaf
terever
y t
hinghe
hasputyouthrough.
Me:EVERYTIME!Whydoesev ery
thi
nghaveto
beaboutdickwi
thyou?Youmybestf r
iendand
thel
astthi
ngIexpect
edfrom youwas
j
udgement.
Ledi
:youactl
i
kehe’
stheonlyguyonthi
seart
h.
Ther
earemenoutther
ethatcantr
eatyou10x
betterthanhedoessoyesI
’m convincedit
’shi
s
dickbutknowt hi
s,t
her
earebetterdicksout
therethanhis
Me:
getout
.
Her
:gl
adl
y.Ican’
tst
andy
our
ightnow!
Shesai dstor
mi ngoutbangi ngthedoorbehi
nd
her.Ithrewmy selfont hebed.Whydopeople
makei tseem li
keIj ustsignedmydeath
sentence?Ashdi dn’tsayany t
hingshej
ustpat
mykneeandwal kedout .
.
.
-
Mel
o
Every
onewasgoneandt hedoctorhadcometo
checkonmewhi l
edoi nghisr
ounds.Asemahle
managedt ogetmemyphonebackandi twas
l
uckyuninjur
edeitherthanacrackedscreen
prot
ectorbutitwasfineanditwasusable.
“
…NowIknow.I
tai
ntnev
erwor
thy
ourhear
t.I
t
aintnev eryourt ear
s.Itai
ntnev erwor t
hthose
scarst hatmi ghtnotheal.Ineed, Ineed, Ineed
you…. ”Iwasl ay i
ngonmysi dewi t
hmybackon
thedoorl ist
eni ngtomusi cviaear phones
playingTGT–INeed, t
hewor dscutsodeepI
foundmy selfthinki
ngabouthowbl essedIam
tohav eYay ai nmyl i
fe.Iam unwor thyofher,I
donotdeser veherorherki ndhear tbutI’m
gratefultohav eherinmyl i
feandIpr omi seto
spendmyl i
femaki ngupf orallthet imesIev er
tookherf orgr antedandmadehercr ybecause
ofme.
“
Hey
”
Shesaidinav erylowtone,i
tcouldonlybeKat e.
Ididn’
tturnaround.Myv ol
umewasn’ tthathigh
soIcouldst i
ll
hear.Shecamear oundtot he
sideIwasf aci
ngandsatont hechairnextto
thebed.Ipausedt hesongandtookoutmy
earphones.
Me:
hi
Her
:howar
eyou?
Me:
let
’scutt
hesmal
ltal
kpl
ease
Her
:Mel
o
Me:
WhyKat
e?
Her
:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:Imeanwhy?Whycomenow?Whyso
sudden?Whydi
dyoul
ie?JustWhy
?
Her :DerrickIlovedy ou.Iknewy ouwer ewr ong
formebutIst i
lltookachancehopi ngthaty ou
meantev erythingy ousai d.Iknewy ouwer ein
l
ov ewi thYay af r
om t hatdaywebumpedi nto
heri nthecaf ébutIt houghtIwasi magi ning
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medi tal l
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llstubbornt hinkingthaty oul ovemeand
may bethet hi
ngwi thYay awasj ustacr usht hat
comesandgoesandwheny ousl eptwitht hat
Lathi t
haIwashur t
, crushedev en.Iwant edt o
forgiveyou, Iwant edt omov epastt hingsand
l
eti tsli
debutwhenIhadsul kedenoughand
wasact uallyreadytot r
yitoutwi t
hy ouagai n
youhadal readymov edonwi thYandi swaandI
knewt henandt her
et hatyouandIwi l
l probably
neverbeandsoIaccept edthesi t
uationasi t
was.WhenIf oundoutIwaspr egnantIt old
my sel
fthenandt her
eIwasn’ tgoingt okeepi t
becauseIwant edtomakey oupayf orwhaty ou
putmet hrough,Iwascl oudedbysomuchhat e
foryouandwhenIwast herewai t
ingt ogoi nI
reali
zedt hatIwouldbeabor t
ingforal lthe
wrongr easonsandt hat ’
snotme, Ir
ef usedt o
bechangedbyy oubecauseI ’
m notahat eful
personbynat uresoIdidn’tgot hr
oughwi t
hi t
.
Mom di dn’
ttaket henewsl ightl
ybutshe’ smy
mot herandshef orgav emeandhel pedme
throughitall
.Itwasn’ teasybutwemadedo.
mygr andmadi dn’ttakethenewsl i
ghtlywhich
thenresult
edi nherdeat handt hatalonewas
enought omakemeseet hatli
feisshor tand
whenIr eadaboutt heacci dentIwaswor ri
ed
abouty ou;Iwaswor riedaboutKy lenev er
meet
ingy
ou
Me:weranint
oeachotherKat
ebuty
oudi
dn’
t
sayany
thi
ng.Not
hingatall
Her:IknowandI ’
m sorryaboutthat,Ididn’
t
thi
nkIwoul dbumpi ntoyouinKokstad.Iwasn’ t
readytoseey ou.Seeingy ouonlybroughtback
everyt
hingthathappenedbet weenusl astyear.
MeloI’m sorryforrockingupliket
hisandI
understandifyouwantnot hi
ngtodowi thKyle.
Me:he’smysonKat
ewhatdoyoumean.You
wenttomyhomeforar
eason
Shelookeddown.Isawhershoul der
smov e
whichonlyindi
catedshewascryingandIhear
d
somesni f
fsinbetween.Idon’
tknowwhatshe
wasex pect
ingfrom mereall
y.
Her
:di
dyouev
erl
ovemeDer
ri
ck?
Shelookedupatmewitht
earsstr
eamingdown
hercheeks.Thatt
ookmebysurpr
ise
Her
:ay
esornowi
l
ldo.Ideser
vet
hatmuch
Me:
Kat
elet
’snotdot
his.
Her
:Ineedt
oknow
Me:
why
?
Her
:Mel
opl
ease
Me:
Wher
eisKy
lenow?
Her
:wi
thy
ourmot
herandsi
ster
s
Me:
oh.WhencanImeethi
m?
Her
:Icanbr
inghi
mlat
eron
Me: t
hanks.Li
stenmyf amil
yandIwer etal
ki
ng
aboutthewayforward.Mymot herwantsyouto
mov einwit
hherbecauseshewant sher
grandchi
ldunderherroof
.Idon’twantyouto
mov eint
omyhome
Her:
MeloheismysonIwi
l
lnotl
ety
out
ake
hi
m awayfr
om me
Me:I’
m nottaki
nghim awayfr
om you.Al
lI’
m
sayi
ngisthatyoucanli
veinmyfl
atuntily
ou
getaplacearoundher
ewhileKyl
eleaveswit
h
mypar
ent
s
Her
:andwher
ewi
l
lyoube
Me: I
’
llbehereunti
lnexty
earJanuar
ywhenI
havetogobackt owork.OfwhichbythenIwi l
l
comebackev erymonthtospendwithhim.You
canhav ehi
m onweekendsbecauseI’m sure
duri
ngt heweekyou’l
lbebusywit
hschool and
I’
m sureKylewil
lbeadist
racti
on
Sheshookherhead.
Her
:youwon’tt
akemysonawayf
rom me
Der
ri
ck.Iwon’
tlety
ou
Me:
noneedt
oshoutgeez.
Her
:your
ichpeopl
ear
eal
lthesame.
Me: Kat
eIam tr
yingtowor kwi t
hyouhere.You
needtogobacktoschool sot hatyoucanhelp
outathome.Youy oursel
fsaidit,y
oucan’t
aff
ordtofeedanothermout handababyi sver
y
expensi
vetomaintain
Her
:we’
vemanagi
ngj
ustf
inet
hanky
ou
Me:he’
smysont ooKat
eandIwon’
thav
ehi
m
l
iv
ingfarf
rom hi
shome
Her:
youdon’tev
enknowhim andyousur
eas
hel
lwon’
tevenbether
etoseehim gr
ow
Me:
canwebeadul
tsaboutt
his
Sheshookherhead.
Me: youneedtofi
nishwi
thschool.Thi
sisme
tr
yingtohelpher
e.Thisi
smet r
yingtotake
careofourson
Her
: andyouthi
nkt
aki
nghi
m awayf
rom hi
s
motheristhewayt
ogo
Me: di
dy ounothearmesayt hatyoucanmov e
i
ntomyapar tmentwhil
eI ’
m atwor kunt
ilwe
cangety ouapl acetorentcl
oset oschool.You
wil
lhav ehim onweekendsandy oucangov i
sit
him everydayaf t
ercl
ass.I’
m nottryi
ngtot ake
him awayf r
om y ouher
e.Justthinkaboutthis
Kate.Thelastthingwewantt odoi sgot ocourt
overthis,l
i
key ouIhaveright
sast hefatherof
t
hischi
l
d
Her
:youwoul
dn’
tdar
e
Me:
don’
ttr
yme.
Shet ookherbagandst ormedoutofmyr oom.
I’
m al awyerandmycur iosityhasmademe
studyaf ewf amilyl
awbookssoIknowwhat
I’
mt alki
ngabout .Tomei t’
saf airdeal
.Hateme
allyouwantbutIwantmysoni nDurbanwhere
Iknowt hathei swelltakencar eofandhe’ s
l
ivingt helif
et hatIl
ivedwhenIwasababy .
Kat ecanei thertakemeuponmyof f
erorwe
canset tl
ethisincourt.Hat emeorl ovemef or
thi
s, Idon’treall
ycare.Al lIcareaboutri
ghtnow
i
smyson’ sbesti nt
erest.
.
.
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.
S03E05
***“
…Somet i
mesy oujustcan’
tmakei tony our
own……I fyouneedapl acewhereyoucanr un.If
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l
lalway sbe
yourfr
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om
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wil
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eti
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-
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m.Myl i
feisnotmyl i
fe
withouthim.Youcannotsepar at
eachi l
d, more
especiall
ya3mont holdf r
om hismot her.How
am Isupposedt osurvi
vewi t
houthim?School
wast helastthingonmymi nd.Yes,Ineedt ogo
backt oschool butnotanyti
mesoon.Ist i
llwant
tospendt imewi thmybaby .Iwast hi
nkingof
goingbackt oschool torepeatmysecond
semest erseeingthatIcouldn’
tdoitwi t
ht he
bell
yandst uff.Isatdownonabenchand
buriedmyf acei nmyhands.If el
tahandt ouch
myshoul ders.
Hi
m:ExcusemeMi
ssar
eyouok?
Ij
ustcri
edev
enharderwithoutl
ooki
ngatthe
guywit
hadeepsexyvoice.Ifel
thi
m si
tdown
nextt
ome.
Hi
m:pl
easet
alkt
ome
Iwipedt
heli
tt
let
earsIhadbef
orer
emov
ingmy
handsfr
om myface
Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngok?
Me:
yes,
ever
ythi
ngi
sfi
ne
Him:youknow.Sometimestalki
ngtosomeone
whodoesn’tknowyouactuall
yhelpsbecause
whentheygiveadvi
cether
e’snojudgementor
senseofknowledgeofwhatyouwentt hr
ough
Me:y
es,butt
hent
alki
ngt
oyouwi
l
lgi
vey
ouan
i
deaofknowi
ngme
Him:ei
therway.I
twon’
tbeeasyt
oj udgey
ou
basedonthestuf
fyout
ell
me…whi chcoul
dbe
tr
ueoruntrue
Me:
Imi
ghtl
osemybaby
Hi
m:y
ouhav
eachi
l
d
Me:
andt
her
eyougoj
udgi
ngmeal
ready
Him:I’
m sorr
y.Youjustdon’tl
ookli
keamot
her
t
hat’sal
l.Pl
easecontinue,
howmi ghty
oul
ose
yourchi
ld?
Me:
right
.Hi
sfat
heri
sar
ichnar
cissi
sti
cass
from arichfamily
.Hisfatherisaj udgeandhe
i
sal awy er.Mygreatestmi st
ake.Hewas
i
nv ol
vedi nanaccidentaf ewday sbackandhe
wokeupy ester
day.Ihadbeenr aisingupmy
babyalonef orthepastthreemont hsbutwith
theaccidentandal l
Ifearedthatt hefat
herof
mychi l
dwoul ddiewi t
houtmeet inghisfather
andthatwoul dbewr ong.Ididn’twantthat.
Him: okbackup.Idon’
tmeantojudgeyourli
fe
choicesbutwouldyouhaveevencameto
i
ntroduceyourchil
dtohisf
atherhadt
hefather
notbeeninanaccident
?
Ikeptqui etforasecondandt houghtt omy sel
f.
May bei fhedidn’
tfacedeaththenIwoul dn’
t
havecomeher ebutatthesamet imeIcame
heref orhim.Icameher eforDer r
ick.Evenafter
everythingthathappenedIstil
llovedhim and
seeinghi minKokst adthatdayresurfaced
feeli
ngsIt houghtI’
df or
gott
en.AndknowI
didn’tthinkthatr
ockinguphereheandIwoul d
playhappyf ami l
ywithourchil
dbutIhadsome
hopet hatmay behewoul dstayinSAf orthe
sakeofourchi ldbutseemsl i
keYay ameans
mor etohimt hanhisownbl ood.Ican’thav emy
soncompet ingwi t
hhisf at
her’
sgir
lfr
iendf orhi
s
att
ention.I
t’
snotf airt
hathewant stot akehim
onlyforhimt oleavethecountrywit
houthi m.
Whatki ndofrelati
onshipdoesheexpectt hey
wil
lhav e?
Hi
m:y
oust
il
ll
ovehi
m don’
tyou?
Me:hehasagi
rl
fr
iend.Hel
ovesherwayt
oo
much
Hi
m:I
’
m sor
ry
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
.
Him:whatmakesyouthi
nkhewant
stot
ake
yourchi
l
dawayfrom y
ou?
Me:
becausehesuggest
edthatmybabymove
i
nwit
hhismotherandIl
ivei
naf l
atar
ound
t
ownandgetmychildonweekends
Hi
m:why
?
Me:becauseaccordi
ngtohi
mI’
ll
betoobusy
dur
ingtheweekwi t
hschool
soIwon’
tbeabl
e
tot
akecareofKy l
e
Hi
m:soundsl
i
kehe’
sonl
ytr
yingt
ohel
p
Me:t
ryi
ngtohelpi
snotbysepar
ati
ngt
hechi
l
d
f
rom i
tsmother
Him:oksowhatdoyouproposesot
hatbot
hof
youwini
nthi
ssit
uat
ion.Imeanasonneedshi
s
f
atheri
nhisl
i
fe
Me:onethatwi
llbebusygal
l
ivant
ingwi
thhi
s
gi
rl
fr
iendinCal
i
forni
a?
Hi
m:Idon’
tknow
Me:
yeah.Ihav
etogo.Ni
cet
omeety
ou.
Iwalkedout…mor
eli
keranoutoft
hehospi
tal
andrequest
edanubert
otakemetotheBess
resi
dence.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Asmel lIhav en’tsmel
tinav er
ylongt i
mef i
l
led
myr oom.Het hrewhimselfonmybedand
pull
edmet ohi schestandIjustcouldn’thel
p
my sel
fbutsnuggl emysel
ftohim, hechuckl ed
andkissedt het opofmyhead.I ’
vemi ssedt hi
s
asshole.Ineededhi m.
Hi
m:Heyhoney
Me:Whatar
eyoudoi
nghere?Whydi
dn’
tyou
t
ell
mey ouwer
ecoming?
Hi
m: andr
uinthesurpr
ise?Not
hanky
ou.
Happybel
atedbir
thday
Me:thanks.Si
sekohowdoesyourgi
rl
fr
iendf
eel
aboutyoubeingher
eri
ghtnow?
Him:sheknowsshecan’
tcompet
ewi
thmy
bestf
riend.
Me:
ever
ythi
ngi
samessSeko
Hi
m:t
alkt
ome
Me:
hehasachi
l
d.
Hi
m:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
Imeandoy our
ememberKate?Shekept
t
hebabyandhe’
s3months’
old
Hi
m: ok.Whatdoesthatmean?Wher
edoesi
t
l
eaveyourrel
ati
onshi
p?
Me:
ify
oumeant
oaski
fI’
mleav
ing,
it’
sano.
Him: Iunder
stand.Howdoesy ourmom feel
aboutit?Ican’
timagineherandNaledi
takingi
t
i
nlyingdown
Me: t
hingsgotoutofhandwi t
hthem andIsaid
somest uf
fIregret.Idi
dn’
tmeant obe
disr
espectf
ultomom andt opushLedi away
butIwasmadt hattheycl
aimtolovemebut
theynotwil
li
ngt ostandwit
hmeont hi
s
Him: wel
lfi
rstofallyouneedtomakethings
ri
ghtwithyourmom andLedi .Makethem see
thi
ngsthewayy ouseet hem wit
houtgett
ingal
l
defensi
veabouty ourrel
ati
onshi
pwiththi
sguy
Me:Sekomom hasbeenagai
nstMel
osi
ncet
he
f
ir
stti
mehebrokemyheart
Him: doy oublameher?Yay abehonestwi thme.
Woul dyouwanty ourdaught ertol
ivetheli
fe
thatyouar ecurr
entl
ylivi
ng?Woul dy ouwant
herdatingamansi mi l
artot heonethatyouare
datingnow?Happyf or5mi nutesandthen2
minutesl at
ershe’
scr y
ingbecauseof
somet hinghedidorbecauseofabl asti
nthe
pastthatwi l
ldoanythi
ngt or ui
nwhatshehas
goingon
Me:
Sekopl
ease
Him: whatkindoff ri
endwoul dIbei fIdidn’
task
yout his?You’
v eall
owedy ourselftobethis
guy’sdoor mat.I’
velostcountoft hetimeshe’s
hurty ouandtheshi ithe’
sputy outhroughand
thencomear oundandapol ogize+asi fSorr
yis
supposedt ofixit.Icareabouty ouandy our
wellbeingandt hi
sguyi sdrai
ningy oubruh
Me:
sowhat
?Ishoul
ddumphi
m?Seko
Him: I
’
m notsay ingdumpbecauset hemor ewe
tryt
alky ouint
odoi ngt hatthemorewel oseyou
totheguy .You’
llleavet heguythedaythatyou
decidey oudonewi thhi m myfri
end.Iadmire
thelovey ouhavef orhim, j
ustdon’
tgetlosti
nit
.
Don’tloseyourselfinitok
Hesai dkissi
ngmyf oreheadandr ubbedmy
shoulder.Ineededthis,Ineededthisshoulder
,
thisshel
tertorunto.Hel i
tabluntandwe
start
edsmoki ngtoget herwhil
etalkingabout
him andhi sbae.Theybr okeup.
Me:
Why
?
Hi
m:shef
eel
sli
keshe’
sincompet
it
ionwi
thy
ou
Me:
ouch….I
’
m sor
ry
Hi
m: ar
ghI’
m notevenbummedout
.Sowhen
doIgettomeett
hisguyofy
ours
Me:
whenI’
ml esshi
gh.Hedoesn’
tappr
oveof
meget
ti
nghigh
Hel
aughedr
eal
l
yhar
dandweedpl
ayedapar
t
i
nhi
mlaughi
ngatmel
i
ket
hat
.
Me:
comeon
Him:
what’
snext
?Yougoi
ngt
ost
opdr
inki
ng?
Comeon
Me:noi
tsnotevenli
kethat
.Hedoesn’
tsmoke
i
tsoyoucanunderst
andwhyhe’supti
ghtabout
i
t
Hi
m:what
ever.Hasn’
thetri
edt
ogety
out
o
st
opwear
ingshortt
hings?
Ihi
thi
sshoul
derl
aughi
ng.
Me:wenotmarri
ed,heknowshehasnor
ight
andIwoul
dn’
tli
stentot
hat
Hi
m:whoknows?Yououcheat
ell
i
ngeachot
her
t
oqui
tweed
Me:
scr
ewy
ouSeko.
Isai
dwalki
ngt ot
hecloset.Isti
ll
hadatowel
wrappedaroundmybody .Ichangedi
ntoa
tr
acksui
tandthenjoi
nedhim onmybedand
j
ustthenmyphonemyphoner anganditwas
Sino’
snumber.Icoul
dn’tevenhi
dethe
excit
ementbecausethenitmeantshewas
awake.
/
/Me:
li
tt
lesi
ster
Her:
IthoughtI
’
dfi
ndy
ousl
eepi
ngont
hechai
r
besi
deme
Me:
you’
real
i
ve.You’
reawake
Her
:obv
iousl
y.I
’
mtal
ki
ngt
oyouam Inot
?
Me:don’
tbeabit
chaboutt
his.Howdoy
ouf
eel
?
Howareyou?I
’
m comingtoseeyou
Her:t
henIwil
lanswery
ourquest
ionswheny
ou
gethere…pl
easebri
ngmesomeoft he….
Me:you’
reinhospi
tal
.Pl
us,
yourmot
herwi
l
l
nev
erletyousmokeweed
Her
:comeonYay
a.Atl
eastbakeke
Me:
fineI
’
llbakeandcomel
ater
Her
:thi
siswhyIl
ovey
ou
Me:
what
ever
.By
e!
Her
:fornow,
//
Igr
innedt
hrowi
ngmysel
fonthebed.Thank
Godshewasok.Thi
ngsseem t
obeturni
ngout
j
ustfi
ne.
Hi
m:l
i
ttl
esi
ster
?
Me:
yep.She’
sawake
Her
:andshewant
sweed?
Me:
yep
Hi
m:y
our
uinedt
hechi
l
dYandi
swa!
Me:
don’
tbel
i
ket
hatnow.Letmegobake
Hi
m:Ledi
wasbaki
ngwhenIcamei
n
Me:
I’
m herl
eastf
avor
it
eper
sonatt
hemoment
Hi
m: uNaledi
lov
esy ouYay
a.Tal
ktoherand
wor
kt hi
ngsoutproperl
y
Me:
oh…kay
Hi
m:sot
ell
meaboutAsh
Me:shehasaboyf
ri
endwhoi
swayabov
eyour
l
eaguemyfri
end
Hi
m:howabov
e?
Me:
asi
ntheguyi
sapr
ince
Hi
m:Ican’
tcompet
ewi
tht
hat
Me:
exact
ly.Sor
ry
Iki
ssedhi scheekandwalkedout
.WhenIgot
downst ai
rsmom wasn’tt
here,
Nit
awas
sl
eepingont hecouchandAshwassit
ti
ng
watchingtv
Her
:youok?
Me:
li
tt
lehi
gh…wher
e’smom?
Her
:shewentoutf
oradr
iveIt
hink
Inodded.
Her
:Ledi
isi
ntheKi
tchen.Fi
xthi
ngswi
thher
Me:
yesmami
Iwal
kedt
otheki
tchenandLedi
wasbusy
chatt
ingwit
hSerenaasi
fthey
’veknowneach
othersi
ncefor
ever.
Me:
youback
Ser
:youhav
eaf
ucki
ngcar
?!
Ledi
rol
l
edherey
es.
Me:
Iwasj
ustasshockedasy
oudude
Her
:doesn’
tMel
ohav
eli
keat
winorsomet
hing
Me:
all
hehasar
esi
ster
s…sor
ry
Her
:ar
ghI
’
llbef
ine.
Herphonerangandsheex
cusedher
sel
fleav
ing
mewithLedi.
Me:
chomee
Shekeptqui
et.
Me:
Ledi
please
Her
:whatYandi
swa?
Me:Iknowyouonl
ylooki
ngoutformeandy
ou
j
usttr
yingt
obeanamazingfr
iendtome…well
sisterandIappr eciatey oufori
t,Ireall
ydobut
weneedt odr awt helineher e.Melo’s
relationshipwi thmei sj usthisandIand
what ev erhappenst oiti sourbusinessunl essI
comet oyouandaskf ory ouradv i
ce.Iknowy ou
don’ tlikehim andy oubl amehimf orpr etty
muchev erybadt hingt hathashappenedi nmy
l
ifeandIdon’ tblamey oubecauseIwoul dfeel
thesamewayi ft her oleswer ereversed.Iknow
youdon’ tunder standwhatIseei nhi m orwhyI
stayev enaf t
erev er yt
hi ngandIdon’ tknow
eitherbutunt i
lIf i
ndt hest r
engthtowal kaway
from hi m.Ican’ twal kawaybecauseofy ou
guy s, Icannotdepr i
vemy sel
fofwhatIf eeli
s
ri
ghtandi fIendt hingst opleasey ouandmom
thenwher edoest hatleav emyhappi ness?
Her:Ij
ustdon’twanttoseey ouhurt
ingagain
becauseofhim orheldhostagebysomecr azy
exofhisorsomet hi
ng.Idon’tknowwhatI
woulddoifIlostyouYaya.Youmor ethana
fr
iendtome,y oumyt wi
nandt hosefewday s
wi
thoutyounotknowi
nghowyouwer
edoi
ng
weretheworstday
sofmyli
fe
Me:
aaaahLedi
Her
:comeher
e
Wesharedahugwi
tht
ear
srol
l
ingdownour
cheeks
Me:
you’
l
lnev
erl
osemenomat
terwhat
.
Her:Ican’thelpitYaya.Especial
lywit
hy ou
dati
ngMel okuhle.Ican’thelpbutworrywhat
hisotherexesar ecapableofandmi ghtdot o
you.Butfory oursakeIwi l
lstayoutofyour
rel
ati
onshipandwi ll
supportyourchoicesbutI
won’tstoptelli
ngy ouwheny oudoingbul l
shi
t
thoughorwhenMel oisbeingshii
ty
Me:
Iknow.Justasl
ongasIhav
emyf
ri
endi
n
myl
ife
Her
:andnoIdon’that
eMelo,Ij
ustdon’tl
i
ke
hal
fthet
hingshedoesorput
syout hr
ough
Me:
Iknow…Andt
hanky
ousomuch
Her:Igotyou.I’
m her
ef ory
ouandevenifhe
hurt
sy ouagainIwon’thesi
tat
etotel
lyouIt
old
yousowhi l
ey oucryonmyshoulder
Ilaughedhar dandsodi dshe.ThatmuchI
know.Ihat efight
ingwi t
hLedi andIknowshe
hatesfighti
ngwi thme.wef r
iendsli
ket hat
,we
awesomet hatway .Ipul
ledhert omeand
kissedhercheekandshet r
iedfight
ingmeof f
ofher.Icouldn’thelpbutlaughather .She’
sso
dramaticthisone.Iletgoof fherandshewent
tocheckt heov en
Me:
doesmom knowy
oubaki
ngspace?
Her
:nah.Shewasn’
ther
ewhenIst
art
ed
Me:
didshesaywher
eshewasgoi
ng?
Her
:sai
dshewasgoi
ngt
omeetaf
ri
end
Me:
ohokcool
.
Her
:youwor
ri
edabouther
Me:
Idon’
tli
ket
hewayIhandl
edt
hings
Her:she’
sy ourmother.She’l
lfor
giv
ey ouifshe
hasn’tal
ready.Sheunderstandsyoujustachil
d
goingthr
oughst age
It
hrewaswabatherandshecaughti
tlaughi
ng.
Her:howel
sedoyouexplai
nyoudefyi
ngher
wordandbei
ngall
rebel
l
iousbecauseofaboy
youmetayearago
Me:
Ledi
!
Shel
aughedandIal
socoul
dn’
thel
plaughi
ng
Her
:it
str
uenj
enana.I
t’
ssad.
Me:
youneedamanIswear
Her
:someday
.Notany
timesoon
Me:
rii
i
ght
.Si
nowokeupandshewant
sweed
Her
:int
hehospi
tal
?
Me:yeah.It
oldherIwoul
dbakebutsi
ncey
ou
al
readybaki
ng
Her
:youcant
akeat
rayt
oher
.
Me:
thanky
oumyf
ri
end
Her
:howi
sshe?
Me:
I’
ll
knowwhenIgett
her
e.Il
ovey
ou
Her
:what
ever
…
Iwal kedoutl
aughi
ngandwentt ofetchmy
thingsinmyroom.Iwasgoi ngtogowi t
h
Siseko.Onourwayoutwemetwi thBabesand
wespokeaboutear li
erandIapologi
zedof
whi chshetol
dmesheunder stood,I
’
mj ust
goingt hr
oughastage…blackparent
sand
stage…Mom andIwer egood,t
hankGod.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Mom andmysi sterscamewi t
hmysonandI
mustsayhei sprobablythemostbeaut i
fulchi
ld
Ihav
eev erseen.Ifel
linlovewithhim
i
mmedi atel
y.It
hinkKat ewaspr obabl
ystil
lmad
atmeforourencount erearl
ieronwhichIwi l
l
notapol
ogiesfor.Iwasholdingmybabyinmy
armsashewassl eepi
ngsuckingonhisthumb.
Iwasaf at
her.Iwasn’tr
eadybuttheli
tt
leonis
hereandhe’sheretostay.Iam gl
adKatenever
abort
edhim.Hel ookedli
kehebelongedinmy
arms.Hewasj ustbeauti
ful
.
I
ya:
Inev
ert
houghty
ouwoul
dbeaf
ather
Ase:Ial
wayst
houghtI
’
dbet
hef
ir
stt
wint
o
haveakid
Mom: y
eahey.Ihav
et ogo;
Iwi
llseeyougi
rl
sat
home.Wenagetwellsowecandiscussaway
for
wardwi
thyourbabymama
Me:
okmom.By
e
Her
:by
eki
ds.
Shet ookKy l
eandwalkedoutwi
thhim,Iwasn’
t
readyt oletmybabygobutIhadnochoice.
Aftershel ef
twespokeaboutpr
ett
ymuch
everything.
Me:
shest
ormedout
Iwast
ell
i
ngt
hem aboutmyencount
erwi
th
Kat
e
Ase:
whatdi
dshethi
nk?Thaty
ouguy
swoul
d
pl
ayhappyf
ami
ly?
I
ya:If
eel
li
key
oucoul
dhav
ehandl
edt
hings
bet
ter
Me:
shedoesn’
twantt
otaket
hedeal
mos
Iy
a: butthatdoesn’ tmeanf or ceitonher .Melo
wegeti t,you’real awyerandwebot hknowy ou
atanadv antageher emor ethanshei sandy ou
standagr eaterchanceatwi nningifi
tgoest o
courtbuti fyout akeitthatfarandshel osesher
son, shewi l
lresenty ouandy oursonwi llhat
e
youf ortakinghim awayf r
om hi smot her.
Ase:youhav
eapointbutKateowesi
ttoMel
o
forkeepi
ngt
hechi
l
dawayf rom hi
m
I
ya:
shehadherr
easons
Ase:
Mel
ohashi
sreasonst
oo.
Me:
guy
sjustl
eti
tgo.Iwoul
dn’
ttakeKat
eto
cour
t,Ij
ustdi
ditt
oscar
eher
I
ya:
IwonderhowYay
awoul
dfeel
aboutt
hat
“
Feel
aboutwhat
?”
Weall
lookedatt
hedoorandYay
awas
f
oll
owedbyherfr
iendSi
seko.
Me:
heybaby
Her
:hey
.Yana,
Mahl
e
Them:
hey
Yaya:
thi
sismybest
ieSi
seko,
Sekot
hat
’sMel
o,
I
yanaandAsemahl
e
Hi
m:ni
cet
omeety
ou.Ihav
ehear
dal
ot
Yay
a:goodt
hingsonl
y
Hechuckl ed…clear
lyheknowsev eryt
hing.I
’m
notcomf ortabl
ewithherbei
ngf r
iendswith
guy sbutwhatchoicedoIhave?They ’v
ebeen
fr
iendslongerthansheandIhav ebeendat i
ng
afteral
l.Hesatdownandmysi stersstar
ted
bombar dinghim wi
thquesti
onsabouthowhe
andYayaweref
ri
endsandal l
.Yayawasinbed
wit
hmeandwewer ehavi
ngourownchat,Itol
d
heraboutt
hewaythingswentwit
hKate
Her:I
yanai
sri
ght
.Youshouldhav
ehandl
ed
t
hingsinal
essbr
utal
lawyerway
Me:
Iheary
ou
Her
:KateandIaren’
tfr
iendsbutdon’
ttr
yto
t
akeherchi
ldfr
om her
Me:andwhataboutme?he’
smychildtoo.I
’
m
j
usttr
yingt
oli
ftof
fsomeofherbaggagefor
her
Her:Iknow, butMel oy ouwon’tbeherewi th
him.Looky ouwantt hechildherei
nDur banand
Katewant sherchi l
dt obewi t
hher24/ 7.When
Katemadeadeci si
ont okeepKy l
e,she
acceptedthathewoul dbeherbaggagef oras
l
ongashel i
v es.Don’ttrychangethatnow.You
wanttomaket hi
ngssi mple.Getheraplacet o
stayandanannyt ohelpheroutwiththebaby ,
seeingthatyoudon’ twanthert oli
veiny our
home.Shecanbr
ingKy
leov
ert
oyourhomef
or
theweekend.
Ishookmyhead.Yayaisanamazingperson
withanamaz i
nghear
tbutIcan’
thavesome
nannylooki
ngaft
ermybaby.Whatifshedoes
somethingtomykid?
Her
:justt
hinkabouti
tok.
Inoddedandkissedherf
oreheadandjoi
nedin
ontheconver
sationt
heotherswerehavi
ng.
.
.
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15,
14:
01]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E06
*
**“
…I’
m noty
ourenemy
,sowhydoy
out
reat
melikeImeannot hing…..Kwazekwabhl ungu.
Kwazekwanzi ma.Ukuy ekel
ela.Kwaze
kwabhlungu.Kwazekwanzi ma.Ukuy ekel
ela.
Something’
snotrightwi t
hme, mysoul is
suf
feri
ngbecauseofwhaty oubr i
ng…”***
-
Mel
o
Kate’smot herandsisterwer eher eandso
beingKat e.Todaywasgoi ngt obeal ongass
day.Yay awasgoi ngtocomeov erlateronbut
Yay adoesn’ twanttospendt heni ghtinthis
housewi t
hmypar entsint henextr oom, her
respectgoesf art
hanIwoul dant ici
pate.I
wasn’ tbadlyinjur
edast hefirstaccident,Iwas
abletowal konmyownandpr ett
ymuchdo
everythingonmyownev ent houghi twassai dI
shouldt aket hi
ngseasy .Mom wasv ery
cautiousaboutme.Asemahl eandYanawer e
busywi t
hpar typl
anner sforAsemahl e’
s21st
birt
hdaywhi chwasgoi ngt obehel dand
granddad’ shouseseei ngt hatitsbiggerthan
mypar ents’houseplusi tsalway sthebest
placetoholdanyfamil
yev entandtheplace
alsomakesusf eelcl
osertothem.Itwasmom,
dadandI ,
wef i
guredthi
sshoul dbebetweenus
only.Wewer ei
nthediningroom si
tti
ngar ound
thetabl
e.
Dad:Mi
ssRomerIwon’
twast
eanyofourt
ime
seei
ngt
hatweal
lknowwhywehere
Kat
e’smom:
cal
lmeKendel
lpl
easeMr
.Bess
Thewayshesaiditmademechuckl e.Wast hi
s
womanseriousl
ytry
nafli
rtwithmyf at
herwith
mymom sitti
ngri
ghtnexttohim?Ijustshook
myhead.Iknowmom not icedbutsheleti
t
sl
ide,
sheshouldbeusedt oitbynow.
Dad:
MissRomerwilldo.Soourson
i
mpregnat
edyourdaughter
Kendel
l
:yes,
hedi
d.
Mom: wewoul
dli
kethechi
l
dtomov
etoDur
ban.
Ihear
dyouworkatDUT
Kendel
l
:IdobutKy
lei
sbet
terof
fathomei
n
Kokst
ad
Mom: wi
thwho?Yourlastborn?I
’
m sor
rybutI
can’
thav
ethat
.Iwon’thavethat
Dad:honeycal m down.Weal lwantwhat’
sbest
forKyl
eher e.MeloproposedthatKatemov e
i
ntohisflatwitha24/ 7nannyunti
lwecanget
herabetterplaceforhertoli
veinwithKyleand
thenwecangett ohavethechildhereon
weekends.Att heendoft hedaywenott r
ying
totakethechildawayf r
om it
smot herbutwe
wantwhat ’
sbestf orhi
m
Mom: andwhat ’
sbestforhimisi
fheisher
e
wherehewillhaveeveryt
hinghemayneed.
We’l
lpayforKate’sf
latandwhatev
erour
gr
andsonneeds
Shel
ookedatKat
eandKat
eshr
ugged.
Mom: yourdaughterowesust hatmuchseeing
thatshekeptt hebabyfrom usforsolong.Had
usconv incedthatshehadabor t
edthechild
wheni nact ualf
acthewasal i
vethi
swhol eti
me
Kendel
l
:whywoul
dyout
hinkt
hat
?
Mom lookedatKate.Seemingl
yKat
e’smom di
d
notknowaboutthedecisi
onherdaught
er
al
mosttook.
Mom: I
’
lll
ety
ourdaught
erf
il
lyoui
nont
hat
.So
whatdoyousay
?
Kendel
l
:Katewhatdoy
ouwantt
odo?i
tisy
our
chi
ldaf
teral
l
Kat
e:Idon’
tevenunder
standwhyMel
owoul
d
wantt
hechil
dherewhenhewon’tbeher
e
Me: l
i
keItol
dyou.Iwill
comebackev eryone
weekofeverymonthandIwi l
lcal
lev
er ydayto
tal
ktohim.Iwi
ll
bet heref
orhim.BesidesI’
m
l
eftwith2moreyearsinCali
befor
eIcome
back
Kate:whyam Inotsur
prised.Yougoingtowait
foryourgi
rl
fri
endtograduatefi
rstbef
oreyou
canbeaf at
hertoyourchil
d.Idon’tevenknow
whyt hehel
lwecameher e
Mom:
cal
m down
Kat
e:NoMrs.Bess.Yoursondoesn’
twantt
his
chi
l
d.Hej
ustwantstopunishme
Me:ifIwant
edtopunishyoui
twoul
dbea
per
manentsolut
ionhoney
Dad: Derri
ckt hat’
senough!Listenthi
siswhati
s
goingt ohappenandIam notaski nganyofyou
becausei tseemsl ikewewon’ treachany
decisionsher eifIdependony ou.Thechi
ldwil
l
stayher euntilMelokuhleandKat esor
tout
what everissuestheyhav e
Kendel
l
:excuseme?No!
Kat
e:Ov
ermydeadbody
Dad: oryoupr ef
erwet akeittocourtandthe
statedecides?Idon’tneedt obeinsideyour
homet oknowt hatyounotcopi ngKendell
.You
don’tmakeenought osuppor tall
fourofyou.
Wear etr
yingtomaket hingseasierforyouand
gi
v eourgr andsonthelif
ehedeser ves
Kendel
l
:andt
aki
nghi
m awayf
rom usi
stheway
togori
ght
Mom: i
fwewer etr
yingtot akehi m awayfrom
youKy l
ewouldbemov ingt oCal i
withhisfather
butinsteadheisgoingtost ayinDur banwher e
bothyouandy ourdaught erresidethroughout
theyear.Iwon’
thavemygr andsonbei ngtaken
bysome16- year-
oldandanannywhopr obably
knowsnot hi
ngaboutr aisi
ngachi l
d.I’
m sorry.
Kat
e:Itol
dyoumom.I twasabadideacoming
her
e.Justbecausetheyhavemoneyandallthe
meanstheythi
nktheycancontr
olevery
thi
ng
Mom chuckl
edl
ooki
ngatKat
eandthenshe
st
uff
edhermouthwit
hfoodr
efr
aini
ngher
sel
f
fr
om at
tendi
ngKat
e.
Dad:ifthi
sthingwentt ocourt
,itwouldn’tend
wellforyouandy ourmotherKat e.You’l
ljustbe
l
osingmoneyy oudon’thave.Iunderstandt hat
yourmot hermanagedt orai
sey ouandy our
sist
erwi t
hnothingbutthehelpofy ourlate
grandmot herandyout urnedoutwel lbutweall
knowt hattherear
esomet hingstheycouldn’
t
full
ydof oryouguysall ont heirown.Normall
y
peoplewantabet terli
fef ortheirki
ds,onethey
didn’
thav ewhengr owingup.Wewantt ogive
ourgrandsont hekindofl if
ey ouneverhad.Let
usdoso
Kat
e:I
’l
ltaket
hef
ir
stdeal
.Mov
ingi
ntoMel
o’s
pl
ace
Dad:t
hatdeali
sofft
hetabl
e.Youhadachoice
tomakebutyouchosetocompli
cat
ethi
ngs.
Weeitherdot
hingst
hiswayorwetakei
tto
cour
t
Kat
e:SoKy
lel
i
veswi
thy
ouandwhataboutme?
Mom: he’sy ourson.Youcancomeseehi m
whenev eryouwantt oseehim.Kateyou’r
ea
chi
ld,yousupposedt obeinschool t
ryi
ngtoget
yourdegr eebutinsteadyouhav eachil
d.Do
what’
sbestf ort
hischildandgogety ourdegr
ee
sothaty oucangi vehim ever
ythingheneeds
Kat
e:sowhenIf
ini
shschool
Icant
akehi
m?
Mom:
ify
ouhav
ethemeanst
otakecar
eofhi
m
Kat
e:f
ine
.
.
-
Yay
a
Mel owasdi scharged, wel lheforcedt hathebe
discharged.Saidhecan’ tspendhi sbir thdayin
af l
ippi
nghospi t
al bed, howi shegoi ngt ohave
greatsexwi thhisgi rl
fr
iendst uckinthatt i
ny
bed…SoMr .wasbackatt heBessMansi on.So
hespoket oKateaboutmysuggest i
onandshe
actuall
yagr eedwithi tsoKat elivedinMel o’s
fl
atuntiltheygetheraf latthat’
sbabypr oofand
i
si nasaf eneighbor hood.Herf amil
ywasi n
townt odiscussthenextst epfrom her eseeing
thattheBesswantt hebabyi nDur ban.I t’
sbeen
twoday ssinceMel owasoutofhospi talandI
wasi ntownwi thSi seko, AshandSer enal eft
l
astweek.I t’
sbeenaweeksi ncehe’ sbeenout
ofhospi tal andt hisweekendi shi sbi rthday
weekend.Wewer eshoppi ngforbi rthdaygi fts
forhim andhi ssister.Iwasgoi ngt ogohome
withSi sekoaf ewday saf terMel o’sbi rthday.It
wasThur sdayandt omor r
owwast hei nt i
mat e
dinner, Sat urdaywoul dbeAsemahl e’s21st
birt
hdaycel ebr ati
onwhi chwasgoi ngt obet he
i
sh, Mel osai dhedi dn’twantt obei ncludedi n
that,yenahewant stogocl ubbingandgetl i
tAF
andt henSundaywast heirbirt
hdaybutt heywill
benur si ngt hei rhangov ersandst uffbutt here
wasgoi ngt obet heirnor malSundayl unches.I
stil
lhav enotmety oungKy l
e,onlyev erseen
him onpi ctur es…Idon’ tknowwhybutI ’
m kind
ofscar edt omeethi m, I’
m notreadyandMel o
i
sunder standi ngofi t.Wewer epar adi ngar ound
Gatewaywi thmyar m hookedont ohi s.
Me:whatdoyougetamanwhoal
readyhas
ev
eryt
hing?
Hi
m:Idon’
tknow.Yourhear
t?
Me:ver
yfunny
.Hegotmeacarf
ormybi
rt
hday
dude
Him:thengi
vehi
m sex.Di
dn’tyousayya’
l
l
haven’
thadanysi
nceever
ythingthat
’s
happened
Me:obvi
ousl
yhe’
ll
gett
hatbutIneed
somethi
ngwort
hy
Hi
m:gethi
m at
ieorsomet
hing
Me:Mel
owi
l
lbemadf
ormespendi
ngmoney
onhi
m…
Hi
m:y
ohhay
iIdon’
tknow
Me:ar
ghlet
’sgoeat
,we’
l
lthi
nkcl
ear
erwhen
we’
veeat
en
Hi
m:per
fecti
dea.
WewalkedtoSpurandbot
horderedt
hesame
t
hing,
mewi t
hchocolat
emil
kshakeandhi
m
wi
thaglassofdr
ywi ne
Me:
thi
sear
ly
Hi
m:i
tsni
ghtt
imesomewher
e
Me:
spokenl
i
keat
rueal
cohol
i
c
Him:whatcanIsay
,it
’sbeenawhi
le.Wenay
ou
don’
ttakemeouttoDurbancl
ubs
Me:
we’
l
lgot
oni
ghtIpr
omi
se
Hi
m:unt
ilMel
okuhl
ecal
l
syoucr
ying
Me:
hahahaj
eal
ous?
Him:nev
er.I
’
m happyt
haty
ouhappy
.He
seemsli
keagoodguy
Me:
soy
ouappr
ove?
Him:he’
sok.He’
sbet
tert
hanZuko…t
hatmuch
Icansay
Me:
but
?
Him:butnothi
ng.Theguylovesyounodoubt
.
Butt
het hi
ngshe’sdoneorhasputyouthr
ough
l
eavemeaquest ioni
nghim ali
tt
le
Me:
butwepastt
hat
Hi
m:Ihopeso.Yay
adoy
out
rustt
hisguy
?
Me:
ofcause
Hi
m:thi
sguyt
hreatenedt
otakehi
sbabymama
t
ocourt
…who’
st osayhewouldn’
tdot
hesame
t
oyou?
Me:
Sekocomeon.Hewoul
dn’
t
Hi
m: Ihopeso.Ihopet
hingswi
l
lst
aysweetand
al
lrosesbet
weeny out
wo
Me:
tal
ktome
Hi
m:Iwor
ryabouty
oumyf
ri
endt
hat
’sal
l
.
Me:
nomani
sper
fectr
ight
?
Hi
m:t
ruet
hatbutj
ustbecar
eful
ok
Me:
yesf
ather
.
Isaidrubbi
ngt hebackofhi shandwit
han
assuringsmile.Il
ovethisguy,heist
hebest
fr
iendagi r
lcouldpossiblyhaveandhisnext
gir
lf
riendwill
bel uckyt
ohav ehim.
“
Iwonderi
fMel
owoul
dappr
oveoft
his”
Il
ookedupanditwasLat
hit
ha.Whydoesshe
havetobeev
ery
where???
Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Her:youwalki
ngaroundwithhi
sr i
ngaround
yourneckwhil
ebusyrubbingotherman’s
handsinpubli
c.AndI’
m consi
deredthewhore…
Societ
y
Seko:y
oumustt
heeLat
hit
ha.Yourr
eput
ati
on
doesn’
tdoy
ouanyj
usti
ce
Her
:excuseme?
Him:youwor
sethanwhatYay
atol
dmeabout
you.I
’
m Si
sekobytheway
Her
:whogav
eyout
her
ightt
otal
ktome
Me:
Lat
hit
haj
ustgo
Her:nowthat
’snowaytospeakt ot
hewoman
car
ryingy
ourli
tt
lebr
otherorsi
ster
Shesai
drubbi
nghertummy .Myjawdr
opped
st
rai
ghttot
hefloor
,bypassi
ngt
hetabl
e.How?
Her
:hear
daboutMel
oJuni
or.He’
sacut
ie
Iwassotemptedtosl
apt heday
li
ght
soutof
herbutmydadisnotcheati
ngonmesoIjust
keptmycomposure
Me:
Congr
atul
ati
ons
Her
:huh?
Me:
congr
atzont
hebaby
.
Icouldseet
heshockonherf
ace.Idon’
tknow
whatshewasexpecti
ngmetodowi t
hthenews
real
ly
.
Thomas:
okI
’
m donewecang…Yandi
swahi
Me:
hiThomas
Lat
hi:
yeahl
et’
sgo.
Hi
m:meety
ouout
side.
Shegavehim alookandThomasdi dn’
tshake.
Hewasj ustl
ookingatmenotmov i
ngorsay i
ng
anyt
hingtohissi
st erwhodi
dn’
tseem pl
eased
wit
hhowhehandl edthi
ngs.
Hi
m:I
’
llmeety
ouout
sideThi
tha
Shenoddedandwalkedout.Hesatnextt
o
Sisekoopposi
teme.Sekol
ookedatmewi th
that“andt
hen?”l
ookandIshrugged.
Hi
m:Howar
eyou?
Me:
good,
you?
Hi
m:al
sogood.Yougood?
Hesai
dref
err
ingt
oSi
sekoandSekoj
ustsai
d
“
sho”
Him:howcoul
dyoust
aywi
thhi
m?Hehasa
chi
ldYandi
swa
Me:
areweser
iousl
ydoi
ngt
his?Now?
Seko:
dudewhati
syourpr
obl
em?
Thomas:I
’
mt r
yingt
ohav
eaconv
ersat
ionwi
th
myfri
endher
e
Me:andyouarer
uini
ngmydat
ewi
thmybest
f
ri
end.soify
oudon’tmi
nd
Thomas:
whati
sitwi
thy
ouandt
hesef
uckboy
s
Sekochuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.
Seko:Yandikhaxelel
alent
wanaihambeapha
okanyeizokhaty
wandim( Tel
lthi
sboyt
oleav
e
thi
stableorelseIwil
lki
ckhisass)
Knowi ngSeko, heiscapable.Myf r
iend’sanger
i
snott obetakenforgranted.EverytimeI
pissedhim offhewoul dwal kawayf r
om me
becausehedi dn’twanttohur tme.heoncebeat
thisboyinschool i
ntoapul pandwhen
someonet r
iedtointer
venehet hrewapunchat
himt ooandbr okehisnose.Hedoesn’ tl
ooklike
someonewhohasangeri ssuesbuthedoes
andheat tendsAngermanagementcl assesto
keephi mselfi
ncheck.
Me:Thomasl eave.Whathappensbet ween
MeloandIisnoneofy ouory oursi
ster’
s
busi
ness.Idon’tknowwhyy oudon’twantto
gett
hatthroughy ourt
hickskul
l
Thomas:I
’l
lleav
ebecauseIdon’
twanttolose
youovert
his.We’l
ltal
kwhenyougetbackin
Cal
i
Hegotupandl
eft
.Sekol
ookedatmeand
l
aughedhi
sassoff
Him:theguy
syouat
tr
actbr
uh.What
’shi
s
busi
ness?
Me:
someguywhocan’
tleav
emeal
one
Hi
m:sur
elyMel
ocan’
tbehappyabouthi
m
Me:hewasamistakeIdon’ti
ntendon
r
epeati
ngey
.Let
’sjusteatandgo
Hi
m:y
our
ight
Ourfoodcameandweat eov erl
ight
conversationsandt henaft
erwewal kedoutand
wenttoaj ewelerystor
ewher eIboughthi
ma
Calvi
nKl einwat chandthenwentt oembroi
d
“Yes”oni tinthebackofit.Let’
sjusthopehe
understandsit.
.
.
-
Kat
e
Nothinghur tsmor ethanhav i
ngt ogiveup
somet hingy oul ovemor et hanany thi
ng.Why
wouldMel ol ethi sparentsdot hi
st ome.Il ove
mychi ldmor ethanany t
hingandi fbei nga
parenthast aughtmeany thing, i
twoul dbet o
doany thingy ouhav etodot ot akecar eofyour
chil
dandmakesur et hattheynev erneed
anything.Idi dn’tev enstartmysecond
semest erbecauseIwasheav i
lypregnantand
workingt ogi v emychi l
dthebestIcangi v
ehi m
andnowt heywantt otakehi m awayf rom me.
Howam Isupposedt oli
vewi t
houthim?Ican’ t
l
ivewi thoutmybaby .Iwassohear t
broken
wordscan’ tev enbegi ntodescr i
bewhatIwas
feel
ing; myhear twasi npiecesal lbecauseI
messedar oundwi t
haBesswi t
houtacondom.
Whywon’ tt heyputt hemsel vesinmyshoes?I
wasst andi ngov ermysonwhowassl eepingon
hisfather’sbedwi t
ht earsrolli
ngdownmy
cheeks.Hi scol ognef il
l
edt hewhol er oom butI
di
dn’
tturn,
inst
eadIt
ri
edtowi
pet
het
ear
sthat
woul
dn’tst
opcomingout
.
Hi
m:I
’
m sor
ry
Me:ar
eyou?Younodiff
erentf
rom y
ourparent
s.
Youpr
omisedmethatyouwouldn’
ttakehi
m
awayf
rom meDerr
ick
Him:nooneistr
yingt
otakeKyl
eawayf r
om
youKate.Youhi
smother.Wenotr
uthl
ess
peopl
ewhowoul ddosomethi
ngli
kethattoa
mother
Me:thenexpl
aini
ttome.expl
ainal
loft
his
Der
ri
ck
Hejustpull
edmei ntohisarmsandbr ushedmy
back.Hewassowar m andt hefeeli
ngwasso
ni
ce.May beifIhadn’tbeendr amat i
cabouthi m
sl
eepingwithLat hi
thawewoul dbef i
ne, we
wouldbeaf ami l
y.May beifIwasal otmor e
underst
andinglikehispreciousYandi swat hen
hewouldbemi ne.Wewoul dbet ogetherand
wewoul dbegr eatparentstoourson.Hej ust
l
etmesobonhischest,i
tfeltli
kehome.Iknow
i
t’
snotmyplacebuti
tjustfeltsor
ight
,li
keI
bel
onged.
Him:i
t’
sgoi
ngtobef
ineIpr
omi
se.Thi
ngsar
e
goi
ngtoworkout
Ishookmyheadcr
ying.I
’
m donewi
thMel
o’s
promises
“
SoIf
oundt
heper
f….
”
Sai
dal
ady
’sv
oicebehi
ndus.
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
14:
08]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E07
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“ …WhenI’m hereiny ourarmsIf eel l
ov ein
myhear tIcan’tbreathe.Notev enment ion
my sel
fIwanty ouherwi t
hme.Inev erwi shed
ont hestarwhent hest artai
ntgotnot hingon
me.causeIcoul dwi shy ouanydr eam.And
whenIcl osemyey es,Ifeell
ikeI’
m al ive.Cause
Icangot osleepknowi ngthattonighty ou’llbe
herewithme…” *
**
-
Kat
e
IgotoutofMel o’sarmshopingandpr ayi
ngthat
i
twasnotYandi swa.ThelastthingIwanti
sto
beaLat hi
thaint hei
rrel
ati
onship.Hist
winwas
standi
ngbyt hedoorcar r
yingapaperbag.
Her:begladi
twasjustmebecauseifi
twere
Yayathi
ngswouldhavegonedif
fer
entl
y.Car
e
toexpl
ainMelokuhl
e
Him:eydon’
ttal
ktomel
i
ket
hat
.Not
hingwas
goi
ngonhere
Me:
not
hinghappened
Ase:ofcause.St
ayawayfr
om mybrot
her
.He
hasagirl
fri
end.What
evert
hiswhol
est
untyou
tr
ynapull
,itwon’
twork
Hi
m:si
scal
m down
Ase:
cal
m down?
Me:
canwehav
ethi
sconv
ersat
ionel
sewher
e?
Weallwalkedoutandstoodinthehal
lway.
Asemahleclearl
ydi
dnotli
kemeandIdi dn’
t
qui
teunderstandwhybecauseIhavenotdone
anyt
hingtoherorMelo.
Ase:
car
etot
ell
mewhatIwal
kedi
nto?
Him:she’
shur
ti
ngsi
s.Noneedt
obehar
don
her
Ase:
real
l
ynow?
Shesaidrol
li
nghereyeslooki
ngstr
aightatme.
Ij
ustlookeddown.I’
m ki
ndofgoingthrougha
l
otforhertobedoingthi
stome
Ase:
ify
out
wohadusedacondom noneoft
his
wouldbehappeni ngrightnowandMi ssyhere
wouldn’tneedcomf or
ting.Honeyi t’
snosecr et
thatIdon’tli
key ouandIt hinkyouhav ea
hiddenagenda.Tr yany thi
ngandy ouwi l
lhave
met odeal with.Daretrytohar m Yayaordo
anythi
ngt ohur therI,
y ouwi l
lhavemet odeal
with.Gotit?Good
Withthatshewal
kedawayandMel ojust
chuckled.Asf
orme,Iwasshi
itscar
ed.Idon’t
knowwhatt hi
sgi
rli
scapabl
eof.Idon’tknow
whatshewoulddotome.andher eheisbusy
l
aughingatthi
s.
Melo:sor
ryaboutt
hat
.SheandYay
aar
esor
tof
besti
es…
Me:
yeahIki
ndofcaughton
Hi
m:I
’
mreal
l
ysor
ry
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
Hi
m:heyandt
hen?What
’swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
Me:
not
hing
Him: Kateli
sten.Wenoti narelat
ionshiphere,
I
can’tbedefendingy ouherebecausetheni twi
ll
ruinthi
ngsbet weenYay aandIormysi st
erand
I.Soifyouwantt osurvi
vemotheringaBess,
yougoingt ohav etolearnt
ostickupf or
yourselfok?Cryingwon’thel
py ouhere.
Hekissedmyf or
eheadandthenwalked
towardsthest
air
s.Ij
ustst
oodthereblank.I
deci
dedt owal
kinsi
dehisroom t
ojustsitwith
mybaby .Heseemstocalm medown.Just
l
ookingathimisenoughtomakemyhear tsoft
andcalm mynervesdown.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Myt wi
nhasami ndofherown.Idon’tknow
whatthehellhappenedwithherbutuli
fehas
donethethi
ngst oherandturnedherint
othis
personsheis.Idial
edYaya’
snumberandshe
answeredsamet ime.
/
/Her
:Mi
ssme?
Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
ooBeaut
if
ul
Her
:heybabe.Howar
eyou?
Me:
I’
m goodNi
noandhowar
eyou?
Her
:Ni
no?
Me:achar
act
erf
rom someanimethi
ngIwas
wat
chi
ng.Ver
ycute,
remindsmeofyou
Her
:uuhmm ok…howar
eyou?Whatar
edoi
ng?
Howdidi
tgo?
Me:
onequest
ionatat
imepr
incess
Her
:Ij
ustneedadi
str
act
ion
Me:
Ihav
ejustt
het
hing.Comef
etchme
Her
:okI
’
m onmyway
.
Me:
seey
ousoon
Her
:by
efornow/
/
Idroppedthecal
landheadedbackupt
omy
room.Katewassleepi
ngnexttoKyl
ewit
hher
arm overhim.Iwon’ tl
i
etheyl ookedprettycute.
Iwentintothecl osetandchangedi nt
oa
cl
eanert-shitandt ookoutahoodi eandmy
wall
etthenheadeddownst air
st owaitforYaya.
Mom wasatmygr andparent’
shousemaki ng
surethateverythingwasati tslevelbest,dad
wasbackatwor kandKat esmom andsi ster
weregonebackt oKat esmom’ splace.Shehas
ahouseher einDur banseeingthatshei sa
l
ecturerandal l
.
Ase:
youandKat
e
Me:
ther
e’snot
hingt
her
edon’
twor
ry
Her:
yes,
butwhatifYayahadbeentheoneto
wal
kinonyouguys?IknowIwouldn’twantt
o
wal
kinonJameswi thhi
sarmswrapped
ar
oundhisexnow
Me:she’
sjusthur
tthatourf
atherdi
dn’
tgi
veher
muchofachoiceaboutwhathappenstoKyl
e
Her
:whywhatdi
dbi
gbadj
udgeBessdonow?
Me:hedeci
dedthatKyl
estay
sher eunt
ilshe
f
ini
sheswit
hschoolandisst
andingonherown
t
wof eet
,wi
thvi
sit
ati
onswhenevershewants
Her
:whathappenedt
oYay
a’ssuggest
ion?
Me:
shesor
tofcont
est
edi
t
Shel
aughed
Her:
ohdaddy.Iknowhowbrut
alhecanbe.
Ni
ggaai
ntevenopentonegoti
ati
onswhenhe’
s
t
ir
ed
Me:youknowourf
ather
.It
hinkKat
e’smom
hasacrush
Her
:hahahahow?
Me:shewasallfl
i
rtat
ious.Ar
ghdaddi
dn’
tpay
heranyat
tent
ionbutmom noticed
ShelaughedandsodidI
.justthenmygir
l
walkedinandcover
edmyey es.Iknowher
per
fumeal lt
oowell
.
Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oo
Her
:howdi
dyouknow?
Me:
per
fume.Toost
rong
Sheuncov
eredmyey
esandki
ssedmycheek.
Her
:HeyMel
ody
Mel
:youdon’
tgett
ocal
lmet
hat
.
Yay
a:why
?
Me:
causeherboy
fri
endcal
l
shert
hat
Yaya:ouch!AndI
’
veknowny
oul
ongert
hanhi
m
butit
sok
Ase:
sor
rybuti
t’
sthewayt
hingsar
e
Iwassi
tt
ingontopofMel
o’sl
apwithmyarm
ar
oundhisneckandhi
shandssuppor
ti
ngme.
Yay
a:what
ever
.Babecanwel
eav
ehernow
Ase:ohpl
ease.Ser
iousl
yguy
s?Your
eal
l
ygoi
ng
todomelikethi
s
Me:yep.Got
oyourboy
fri
endandl
ethi
m do
you
Yay
aandIl
aughed.
Ase:
scr
ewy
ouguy
s
Me:
byesi
ster
.
Yayagotoffmeandwewal kedouttal
ki
ng
aboutwhathappenedear
li
eronandshedrov
e
tomyf l
att
ell
ingmeaboutherruninwit
h
Lathi
thawhoclai
medshewaspr egnant
.
Me:
soy
ourf
atherscor
ed
Her
:don’
tputi
tli
ket
hat
.It
’sj
ustdi
sgust
ing
Me:
I’
m sor
ry.Don’
tlett
hisgett
oyou
Her
:it
’snotanyofmybusi
ness.Ij
ustf
eel
sor
ry
f
orhiswif
e
Me:itsor
tofi
sbecauseshei
scar
ryi
ngy
our
br
otherorsi
ster
Isai
dthatl
aughi
ngatherandshereachedover
tomeandpunchedmel aughi
ng.Ar
ght hi
sgi
rl
i
ssomet hi
ngel
se.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Igott ohisapar tmentandpar kedi nhispar ki
ng
spot.Webot hgotof fandheadedi nside,he
openedt hedoorandt henhepi nnedmeagai nst
i
twi thhislipsl ockedi ntomi neandhi shands
caressingmyassgent ly.Justhi ski ssalone
wasenought osendshockwav est otherestof
mybodymaki ngmef eel asensat ionIlastfelta
fewweeksback.Imi ssedt hi
s,Imi ssedt his
kindofcl oseness.Wewer ebot hnaked, he
pickedmeupandpl acedmeont hecount erand
wenti nwi t
houtwar ningIl i
terallyscr eamedi n
painandpl easur e.Ihav en’tfeltthi skindof
feeli
ngi nsol ongIt hinkIwasav irginallover
again.Hewenti nandoutandpl easur ekicked
i
nhar dIcoul df eelmy selforgasm, t
oescur li
ng,
nail
sdi ggingonhi sbackandbi tingonhi s
shoulderunt ilIcameandhecameaf terme.He
coll
apsedont opofmeandwest ayedlikethat
forsomet ime.
Hi
m:Imi
ssedy
ou
Me:
Imi
ssedy
out
oo.
Hi
m:doesi
thur
t?
Me:
whatki
ndofquest
ioni
sthat
?
HechuckledandIhi
thi
m play
full
y.Heknows
hissi
ze,heknowshe’
sbigandlengthysoof
causeithur
ts.
Hi
m:wantmet
oki
ssi
tbet
ter
?
Icouldf
eelhi
m smirk,
hisfacewasbur
iedi
nmy
neck.Ij
ustgi
ggl
edandpl ayedwi
thhi
shair
whichwasgrowing.
Me:
whati
fsomeonewal
kedi
n?
Hel
aughed,
mor
eli
kechuckl
edl
azi
l
y
Him:wetheonl
yoneswhogott
hekey
…unl
ess
yougav
esomeoneacopy
Me:
right
.Getof
fme
Hi
m:andt
hendr
ama?
Me:
no.y
ouget
ti
ngheav
y
Him:funnyhowyoudidn’
tcompl
ainwheny
ou
werescrat
chingmybackandscr
eamingmy
namebeggingmetogodeeper
Ipi
nchedhi
m andhej
ustl
aughedatme.
Me:
scr
ewy
ou
Him:youj
ustdi
dbutIdon’tmi
ndgoi
ngt
her
e
agai
n.Youmydrugl
ikethat
Me:
right
.
Hepi ckedmeupandl edustotheloungeand
thr
ewmeont hecouch,hewasstil
linsi
deme;I
couldf eel
him gohardagai
n.Thisguyisan
addict.WellIdon’tbl
amehimthoughcauseI’
m
addictedtohimt oo.
Hi
m:hungr
y?
Me:
nope…y
ou?
Hi
m: di
dn’
treal
lyeatearl
i
eronwi
thev
ery
thi
ng
t
hathappenedsoy eah
Me:bl
ackpeopl
eandanswer
ingt
hingst
hey
wer
en’
tasked
Hi
m:whatdi
dIdonow?
Me:y
oucoul
dhav
ejustsai
d,y
esy
ouhungr
yor
noy
ounot
Hi
m:okt
eacher
!What
ever
.
Hegotupandl ef
tmel ayi
ngther
eonthecouch,
Itookthet
hrowont hecouchandcov
eredmy
body.Iwasabouttogetupwhenhewalkedin
withatowel
Hi
m:andwher
ewer
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
togocl
eanmy
sel
fup
Hi
m:chi
l
l.Nowopenupf
ordaddy
Ij
ustlaughedathowhesai dit
.Thi
sdudewas
somethingelse.Iopenedmyl egsandhepl
aced
anicecoldtowel onmyv agina
Me:
OUCH!
Hi
m:col
dwat
ermakest
hepai
nbear
abl
e.Sor
ry
babe
Me:
what
ever
Hewipedmeupcl eanandhewasr i
ght,t
he
col
dtoweldi
dthet r
ick.Notthatthepainwas
gonebuti
twasn’taspainfulasbefore.Iwasso
busyenj
oyi
ngwhathewasdoi ngIf oundmysel
f
moaningandIheardhim chuckle
Hi
m:usi
sbat
ywar
haa!(
yougethor
nyeasi
l
y)
Me:
yeahwel
li
t’
sbeent
hatl
ong!
Ifel
thiswar mtonguefli
ckerov ermyclit
makingmemoan.Hehel dmywai stupwithhis
coldhandssqueez i
ngmybutgoi ngdeepinwi t
h
hismouthi nmycake.Myj uicescameoutl ikea
waterf
allandhesuckedmedr yandthencame
ri
ghtupandki ssedme, Icouldtastemyselfon
hismouth.Hebr okethekissandl ookedmei n
theeyes
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Hegotoffmeandt henwalkedoutwit
hthe
towel
,Iwasonlyt
henthatInoti
cedhewas
weari
ngboxer
s.Igotupandf ol
lowedhim and
hewalkedi
njustaft
erme.Isatonthehigh
chai
r.
Hi
m:ar
en’
tyousupposedt
ober
est
ing?
Me:
whyr
estwhenIcanwat
chy
ou
Hi
m:per
ver
t
Me:
onl
yfory
ou
Him:Iopenedwaterf
oryouupst
air
ssoke
bett
ergocheckthatwhi
l
eIprepar
esomethi
ng
toeat
Me:somebodyi
sinl
ovet
oday
…whatam I
mi
ssing?
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:y
oumakei
tsoundl
i
keInev
erspoi
lyou
Me:
youdobut
…
Hi
m:but
…?
Me:
not
hing.I
t’
scut
ethat
’sal
l
Hi
m: r
ight
.Goonandcheckt
hewat
erbef
ore
t
hetubfil
l
sup
Ileanedi nont hecount erandweki ssedbef ore
Iranupt hestairstohisroom.Hi sflathadt wo
bedrooms, bothensui t
es.Thet ubwasal most
fullwhenIwal kedinandi thadbat hsal t
sand
bubblesi nit,i
tsmel tsogood.Igoti nandl aid
backr elaxi
ngi nt hesoothingwat erpreparedby
myguy .HowcanInotl ovehi m?Tel lmehow?
Thesear ejustsomeoft hel it
tl
ethi
ngshedoes
thatmakemest ay.Icouldf eelmyselfdri
fti
ng
offtolalaland.Iwasdi sturbedbyt hedoor
opening
Hi
m: don’
ttel
lmey
ouwer
egoi
ngt
osl
eepi
nthe
wat
er
Me:
sowhati
fIwas
Hi
m:yougonnacat
chacol
d.Comeoni
tst
ime
t
ogetoutnow
Me:whathappenedt
oyouwhi
l
eyouwer
eina
coma?
Him:I’
l
ltell
youwhenwegettothebedr
oom ok.
Fornow,let’
sgety
ououtofher
e.
Me:
yes,
sir
Igotupandhehel datowel formeand
wrappedmei nitt
henhegotmeoutoft he
waterandcarr
iedmei nt
ohi sroom.Hewi ped
mecleanandt henhetookoutat -shir
tforme
andIworeitandgotinundert heblanketsand
hegavememypl ateoffood.Hedi dn’
tmake
much.Hehadmadegr eensal ad,
chickenand
mash.
Me:
so?
Hi
m:so?
Me:yousai
dyouwer
egoi
ngt
otel
lmewhenwe
gott
othebedr
oom
Hi
m:chi
l
l
Me:
what
ever
Iduginmyf ood,f
uckitwassogood.Mel owas
agreatcookwhobar el
ycooked.Whenwewer e
doneItookthedishesdownstai
rsandcame
backandsnuggledunderhisarms.Iwaslay
ing
onhischestandhishandwasbusygoi ngup
anddownmyspi ne.Itfel
tsogood.
Hi
m: soyouaskedmewhathappenedt
ome
whi
leIwasinacomari
ght?
Inodded
Him: I’
llputi
tinasongi nstead.“WhenI ’m her
e
i
ny ourar msIfeelloveinmyhear tIcan’t
breathe…….Letmeknow, i
fthisisadr eam.I
don’twannaknow.CauseIai ntaboutt obe
withouty oubabe.Letmeknow, ifthisisa
dream.Idon’ twannaknow.ThenIai ntl et
ti
ng
go,causeev eryt
hingIloveisabouty oubabe.
SoIr atherbeheredreami ngthanwaki ngup
withnobodyhome.I fthat
’stheonl ywayt obe
withy outhendreamingy ouiswher eIbel ong”
HesangDr
eami
ngbyBey
oncé,
oneofmyol
d
ti
mef aves.Ialwaysimaginedhav i
ngmyf ir
st
dancetot hatsongthedayIsay“ Ido”tothe
l
ov eofmyl if
ebecauseIbel i
evedthatt
hel ove
heandIshar ewoul donl
ybef oundinadr eam.
Melohasmademyl if
eadr eam.Agoodoneat
ti
mesandsomet i
mesani ghtmare.Ofall
the
songshedeci dedtosingmet hi
sone.Tears
rol
leddownandf el
ltohi
schest .Il
ovedthis
songandhi sv oi
cewasn’tdoinganyjusti
ce
eit
her.
Him: y
ou’veturnedmylifeint
oadr eam i
na
shortperi
odoft i
meYay a.Beinginacoma
mademer eali
zethatl
if
ei sshortandIwantt
o
spenditmakingy ourl
i
fef eell
ikeadream.Il
ove
youMaf aku.Kakhulu(
Al ot)
Hekissedt hetopofmyhead.HowdoIr espond
tothat?Ican’tevensingtosavemylif
e.Thi s
guyjustdoest hi
ngsl i
kethi
sandpeoplest i
l
l
thi
nkIcanendt hingswit
hhim soeasi
ly.How?I
l
ovehim.Il ovehim somuch.
Me:
Ndi
yakut
handanam(
Ilov
eyout
oo)
.
.
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THPAI
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.
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S03E08
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ight.Theyneverthoughtthey’
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beautif
ulsi
ght.Youtookthebr eathandt he
worldwasr i
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hadbeenbl essed.Andyourloveitshinedso
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ght.Youbr i
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beautif
ul…”
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Yay
a
Wehadj ustfinishedget t
ingdr essedf or
Asemahl e’s21’s.Hert hemewasal lwhitewith
ahi ntoft r
adition.Idon’ tknowwhatt hatmeant
butIwaswear i
ngabl ackandwhi teXhosa
traditi
onal dress( Umbhaco)wi thawhi t
edoek
thathadbeadsoni tandMel owaswear i
nga
whi tepantwi thawhi tet -shi
r tthatsomewhat
hadt hesamepr i
ntasmi newi thbl acksuede
shoeswi thar edsol .It ookmycl ut chandwe
headeddownst airsaftert akingaf ewshot s.He
l
ikesmat chingwhenwegot oev ent s…Idon’t
knowbuti t’sbecomi ngahabi tforus.
Yest erdaywewer ewear i
ngal l black, Iwas
wear ingabl ackopenbackl ongdr essandhe
waswear i
ngabl acksui t
,it’
sat hing.Wewer e
downst ai
rsandaboutt oleavewhenmyphone
rang
/
/Me:
Hel
l
o
Her
:Yay
aIneedaf
avor
Me:
tal
ktomebabe
Her:Ineedaphot
ogr
apherandtheguywho
wasmeantt obemyphotogr
apherf
orthe
eveningi
sMIA
Me:
Asemahl
ebr
eat
he
Her
: I
’
mj ustsof
rust
rat
ed.Iwant
edt
odayt
obe
per
fect
Me:
andi
twi
l
ldon’
twor
ry.Weonourwayok
Her
:thanky
ouYay
a.You’
real
i
fesav
er
Me:
any
time/
/
Melowaslooki
ngatmewai
ti
ngf
oran
expl
anat
ion
Me:Ase’
sphotogr
apherbai
l
edonher
.Canwe
passbymyplace?
Hi
m:f
ine
Hedidn’tseem pl
easedwit
hthi
sbutAsemahle
i
smyf ri
endandsheneedsme.Wewer eearl
y
anyway.Wegott omyplaceandthegi
rl
swere
superchil
ledbecauset
hepart
ywasstart
ing
l
aterontodayaround6,
shewantedsomet hi
ng
thatwil
lhappenatni
ght
.Sheprefer
reditt
hat
wayandwhoar ewetoj
udge?Itwasalsoa
graduat
ionpart
yofsomesort.
Ledi
:ar
en’
tyoual
i
ttl
etooear
ly?
Me:wearebutifI
’
m notdressednowt
henI
won’
tgett
hetimetochange
Her
:Iheary
ou.We’
l
lmeety
out
her
e
Iwalkedint
omyr oom andlookedformy
cameraandf oundit
.Thebatter
ywasl uckil
yful
l
butIcarr
iedevery
thi
ngjustincase.Iwalkedout
andheadedt oMelo’
scarandhewasont he
phone.
/
/Hi
m:y
out
aki
ngadv
ant
ageofhersi
s
Her
:I’
m notMel
o.Ir
eal
l
yneedher
.I’
l
lpayher
Hi
m: I
’
m nothappyaboutt
hisAsemahl
e,I
’
m
r
eal
lynot
Me:
Idon’
tmi
nd.
Hi
m:y
ouwoul
dn’
tsaysoev
eni
fyoudi
d.
Her
:Yay
aI’
m sor
ry
Me:
itsok.Idon’
tmi
ndbabe
Hi
m:We’
l
lseey
ouandgr
andpa’
s
Her
:fi
ne.Thanksagai
nYay
a//
Hedroppedt
hecal
lbefor
eIcouldev
enr espond.
Il
ookedathi
m wi
ththat“
andthen”l
ook.Idon’t
ev
engetwhytheatt
it
ude.
Me:
okandt
hen?
Him:Ij
ustdon’
tli
ket
haty
oul
etmysi
sterbul
l
y
you
Me:she’
snotbul
l
yingme.she’
smyf
ri
endand
sheneedsmyhel
p
Hi
m:Iki
ndofneededy
ounotwor
kingt
oni
ght
Me: Soyouwantmet ocallyoursi
steronher
bir
thdayandtel
lherIcan’
ttakepict
uresofher
eventbecauseyouwouldratherhavemeunder
youwingallni
ght?
Him:y
ouknowthat
’snotwhatImean.Ar
ghy
ou
knowwhatnev
ermind
Me:
Mel
okuhl
edon’
tdot
his
Hi
m:what
?
Me:
thi
s.Whaty
oudoi
ng.Thi
sisunnecessar
y.
Hi
m:cool
Me:
scr
ewy
ou!
Ilookedout si
det hewi ndowandl ethi m be.I
don’tev enunder standwhyhei sact ingupov er
this.I
t ’
snotabi gdeal plusAsemahl eismy
fri
endandIwoul ddot hisforherany ti
me.I ’
m
thet ypeofper sonwhowoul ddropany thi
ngf or
myf r
iend.Wegott ot hehouseandhepar ked
thenwegotoutandIheadedi nwithouthi m.
Peopl ewer ebusymov ingaroundlikeheadl ess
chickens, Icanonl yimagi nehowchaot icitwill
bewheni t
’sherweddi ng.Iwenttol ookf orher
i
noneoft heroomsandbumpedi ntohermom
ont hest air
s
Me:
Mrs.Bess
Her
:hel
l
obaby
,youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
thanky
ouMa.Yout
oo
Shewaswear i
ngahi ghwaistwhit
epantwit
ha
blackl
i
ningonthelegsandawhi teshi
rtwi
tha
beadedneckl
ace,herhai
rwasnotdoney etand
shewasstil
lweari
ngsleepers.Thi
swoman
knewhowt odressIswear.
Me:
Wher
ecanIf
indt
hebi
rt
hdaygi
rl
?
Her
:2nddoorony
ourl
eft
Me:
thanky
ou.
Iwalkedupandshewal keddown.Iknocked
onceandletmysel
fin.shehadaglam squad
fi
xi
ngherup.Shewaswear i
ngawhitelace
bodysuit
,someonewasdoi nghermakeupand
somegayguywasf i
xingupherhair.
Me:
isi
tsaf
etocomei
n
Her
:yes,
it’
ssaf
e.ThankGody
ouher
e.
Me:
whatdoy
ouneedmet
odo?
Her:
takepicturesofthet hingsI ’
l
l bewearing…I
don’
tknowwher etherightspotwi llbebutI
knowy ouwil
l f
indit…thegar denhasan
amazingviewandIal sowanty out otakeafew
shot
sofwhati sgoi ngoni nthisr oom.The
vi
deographerisinthetentIt hink.Yanawi ll
showy ouwhatel seIwoul dlike
Me:
sur
ethi
ngbabe
Her:t
hankyousomuch.We’l
ldi
scuss
ever
ythi
ngelsewhenI
’
m donehere
Me:
wher
ecanIf
indYana?
Her
:Ihav
enoi
dea.l
etmecal
lher
Shecal l
edI yawhowal kedintheroom and
greetedmeandt hentheyspokeal it
tl
ebef or
e
wet ookhercov eredoutfitandhergoldpairof
heelsout si
detot hegarden.Shewasgoi ngto
bewear ingacr eam l
ongdr esswithl
ongl ace
sl
eev es,blackbeltar
oundt hewaistwithher
graduationgownont opandar eddoekwi th
beads.Onet hingIknewwast hatitwasgoi ng
tolookbeaut ifulonher ,i
thadanopenbackand
agol di
shl i
ningatt hebot t
om.I tlookedal l
pri
ncessandbeaut iful.Herdr esswasmor eor
l
essabodyhuggi ngt ypeofdr essbecausei t
l
ookedl ikeitdr ewev er ycurve.Itwasmadeby
SageHi rayamaNdaba, hermot her’suniv ersity
fri
endandf l
atmat e.It ookadozenpi cturesof
i
tandappar ent l
yt hatwasn’ tall
.Shehad
Umbhacowhom shewoul dbechangi ngi ntoi n
themi ddleoft hecer emony .Itwasal ongwhi t
e
skir
twi t
hbl ackl i
nesoni tandawhi tecr opt op
withstri
ngst ot ieint heback.I twasbeaut iful
andshewoul dbewear i
ngthisonewi thbl ack
heels,beadedneckl aceandabeadedbandf or
herhair.Imetupwi thherv ideographerwho
wentupt oherr oom wi thmewhenIwasdone
withbothherdr essesandcapt uredthe
moment .Ihav en’tseenmuchofMel osi nceour
i
ncident.Itwasnowar ound5andshewasonl y
get
ti
ngdr
essednow.
Her
:I’
m sor
ryf
orhi
ghj
acki
ngy
ou
Me:
don’
tsweati
t
Her
:IknowMel
oisn’
thappywi
thi
t
Me:
andhewi
l
lbef
ine…ev
ent
ual
l
y
Iwasbusytaki
ngpi
ctur
esofher
.Shewasdone
get
ti
ngdressed
Me:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Her
:thanky
ou
Me:
Iwi
l
lmeety
ouout
side.Letmegett
owor
k
Her
:seewhyMeloisnothappy.Youworki
ng
i
nst
eadofhav
ingfunli
keevery
oneelse
Me:
whosai
dI’
m nothav
ingf
un?
Shelookedatme.Ireall
ylovedwhatIwas
doi
ng.Ienjoy
edev er
ymi nuteofit.Melowalked
i
nasIwaswal ki
ngout.Wedi dn’tsayanyt
hing
toeachother
.Ifhewantst osulk,thensobeit.I
wil
lnotbeghim shame.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Ican’
thelpbutfeell
ikemyt winist aki
ng
advant
ageofmygi r
lfr
iend.Yayawassupposed
tocomeher et
or el
axandenj oyt hepartybut
i
nsteadsheisbeingsl avedaroundbymyt wi
n
andI’
m nothappywi thitandIwon’ teven
pret
endIam.Iwal kedi ntomysister’
sroom as
shewaswal ki
ngout .Iwon’tl
iemyt wi
nlooked
beauti
ful
.
Me:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ul
Her
:thanky
ou
Shewasstandi
nginfrontoft
hemirr
oradmir
ing
her
sel
f,shewaslooki
ngatmet hr
oughthe
mir
ror
.
Her
:youl
ookgoody
our
sel
f
Me:
thanks
Her:
Iknowy ounothappywi
thYay
adoi
ngt
his
butI
’m desper
ate
Me:
andy
oucoul
dn’
tcal
lany
oneel
sebuther
?
Her
:MeloIcal
ledever
yoneIknowbutnoone
wasav
ail
ableandthosethatwer
e,wer
enoti
n
t
own.I
’m sor
ry
Me:
sur
e
Her
:br
otherpl
ease.Iknow
Me:ok.Areyour
eadyt
ogo?Yourguest
sar
e
al
readyhere
Her
:I’
l
lleav
ethi
sroom at6
Me:
itsal
ready10t
o6Mahl
e
Her
:Iknow.
Mom walkedin.Shelookedl i
keaGoddessand
j
ustthendadwal kedinbehindher.Ourparent
s
don’
tgooutofst yl
ethatmuchIwi llt
ell
you.
Mom waswear ingwhitehighwaistpantsanda
whit
elonglacesleevecroptopwhi chdi
dn’t
showherbel lythankst othepantandshehada
whitecapecov eri
nghershoul ders,abeaded
necklaceandawhi teZuluhatwi t
hbeadoni t
andshewor eblackr edbottom heel
s.Dadwas
wearingwhitejogger s,bl
ackredbottom suede
shoes,whitetradit
iont-shir
tandabl azerontop,
hehadabeadsonhi sneck.
Ase:
youguy
slookamazi
ng
Shesaidsqueezingt
hem bot
handtheyhugged
herback.Theythenbr
okethehug.
Ase:
Mel
opl
easet
akeapi
ctur
e
Me:
right
Theyal l
stoodtogetherandIt ookpict
uresof
them andwet ookaf ewsel f
ieshereandthere
andAse’ shai
rdressertookaf ewshot softhe4
ofusunt i
lYanajoi
nedusf orafewwhi chwer e
capturedbyYaya.Ther estthenlef
tuswi ththe
parents.
Mom:
I’
m pr
oudofbot
hofy
ou.
Shesai
dbr
ushingmyheadandlookingatAse
wit
hasmil
e.Icoul
dn’
thel
pbutsmilemy sel
f.
Dad:webot
hproudoft
heyoungmanand
youngl
adyyouhav
ebecomekids
Ase:
thanks
Me:
thanky
ouguy
s
Mom:wewon’
tsaymuch.Seey
ouatt
he
bot
tom ok
Us:
ok
Theywal kedoutandIputonmygr aduat i
on
gownandhel pedherwearher sandt henwe
headeddownst air
s.Hersongthatshechoset o
walkt owasBey oncé’
s-GodMadeYou
Beaut i
ful.Shel
ov esthesongandmysi sterwas
areal beautyey.Ourparentswerewear ingthei
r
graduationgearst ooandsower eLiz,Lucand
Siya.Thosewer et hepeopl
ethatwoul dbe
si
ttingont hetable.Thedécorwaswel ldone.
Ther ewasal otoft r
adi
ti
onalpri
ntsandher
décorwasred,blackandwhiteinthetentwi
tha
hi
ntofgold.Everyt
hingwentaccordi
nglyand
peopl
ewer ebusywi t
hspeeches.Asedidn’
t
havemanyf r
iends’outsi
deourfamil
y.
Mom: Iknowy ouwant edt hist obey ourdaybut
Ididn’ tgivebirtht oonechi ldont hisday , Igav e
bir
tht otwoandsoIwi llbet alkingt obot hof
you.Wheny ouguy scamei ntomyl i
feIwas
alr
eadyamot herbutIwasonl yusedt o
mot her i
ngone.Iwasf reakedoutwhenIhear dI
wascar ryingtwi nsbutwhenIhel dy ouguy sin
myar msy ourf ather’smoodswi ngsand
mor ni ngsicknesseswer eal lwor thit.Ihad
nev erseensomet hingsobeaut iful.Ididn’tt hi
nk
youguy swoul dgr owupt obet heseamazi ng
peopl ewhohav epl ay edsuchahuger olei nour
l
ives.Wear eincompl etewi thouty ou, itwas
throughy outhatIgr ewupandbecamet his
awesomemot herIam t oday .I
twasn’ teasy
rai
si ngy ouguy sbutl ookingaty ounowIr eali
ze
thati twasal lwor t
hi tandIam pr oudt ocal ly
ou
mykids.Ilov
ey ouguysandIwishyounot
hing
butblessi
ngsandneverlosesi
ghtofwhoyou
areandwhatisimportanti
nli
fe.
Sheblewki
ssesatusandwecoul
dn’
thel
pbut
smil
e
Dad: yourmot herhassai di
tall
.Keepmaking
uspr oudandmaket heworldnoti
ceyouforthe
peopley ouare.Iam pr oudofbothofyou.Asof
todayy ouguy sarenol ongerki
dsandthat
meansnomor echildishactsfr
om anyofyou.
Wewer eluckyenoughbecausey ouguys
mat uredatanear l
yageandy ouknowwhatt he
worldhol dsoutthere.Iloveyouguysandthank
youf orbeingthebesty oucanbeev enthough
somet imesy ougiveusgr eyhair
s
Weal l
laughedandheputthemi cdownand
Lediwhowast heMCeet ookov
erand
welcomedmor espeaker
s,andthenYanaspoke
ashersibl
ingandthenIhadtosayat hi
ngor
two
Me:youknowI ’
m notbi
gonwor
dssoIwon’
t
sayanyt
hing.
Iwentt
ositbehi
ndt
hepi
anoandst
art
ed
pl
ayi
ngit.
Me: youknowIdon’ tsingmuchsoI ’
l
lplaya
l
it
t l
esomethingtwinnieinappr eci
ati
onofthe
personyou’v
ebeeni nmyl ifefrom si
ncebirth.
“.
..You’
resobeaut i
ful.Givet heworldshow.Go
updownup, updownupdown, Goupdownup
down….You’resobeaut i
ful.AndIdon’ tcar
e
whoknows. .
.”.Il
ovey out winnie.
Iwalkedbackt oherandkissedhercheekand
satbesideher.Atsomepoi ntshewascrazy
aboutthesongandsheusedt osayJamal Lyon
wassingingthesongt ohercauseyenasheis
thatbeauti
ful
.Lizsai
dsomet hingasafri
end
shegrewupwi t
handBanel espoketooasa
highschoolfr
iendandunderherv ar
sit
yfri
end
Siyasaidathi
ngort woandshechoseYay aas
herguestspeaker,Iwon’
tlieIwasshockedand
It
hinkYay
awasj
ustasshocked.
Yay a:uuhm Idon’ tevenknowwhyshechose
measherguestspeakerseei ngthataguest
speakeri ssomeonewhoi ssupposedt ohave
accompl ishedalotandisalsosomeonewhom
shel ooksupt o…Uhhm I’m notbi
gonspeeches,
I’
mt hebehi ndthescenestypeofper son.Gosh
Asemahl eyoucaughtmeofguar ddude.Mr .
andMr s.Bessyour ai
sedanamazi ngbeaut i
ful
strongy ounglady.Sheiseveryt
hinggoodand
alloft hatisony ouguys.I’
veonlyknown
Asemahl eforayearnowandi t’
sbeenonehel l
ofar i
de.She’ sbecomemor ethanaf riendto
me, she’slikeasist
ertomeandIknowt hatshe
alway shasmyback.You’ reanamazi ngperson
honeyandIpr aythatGodblessesy ou
abundant lyandthathekeepsper forminggood
i
ny ourl i
fe.Happybirt
hdayandIl ov eyou
Shewasabouttogobackt oherpostwhen
Mahlecall
edherforahug,t
heywereboth
tear
y…typi
calgi
rl
s.Inanutshel
lmysister
’s
part
ywasasshehadi magineditandmor e.We
tookadozenmor epict
uresandshechanged
i
ntoherotherdress.Wheni twast i
met ocutthe
cakeshehadchangedi nt
oherMbhaco.Weat e
andweremer ryandhadaj ol
lygoodtime.Iwas
nolongeratthetablewiththefamily
.Ifound
Yayawiththevideographerchick.
Me:
hey
Them:
hey
Me:
nicespeech
Shechuckl
edandt
hechi
ckexcusedher
sel
f
Me:
I’
m sor
ry
Her
:it
sok
Me:
noi
t’
snot
.Ishoul
dn’
thav
eov
err
eact
edl
i
ke
t
hat
Her:real
lyi
tsok.Lookingatt
heeventyousee
thatonewayort heotherweweren’
tgoingt
o
besitti
ngtoget
herri
ght ?
Me:
yesNi
noIseet
hatnow
Her
:good.Don’
twor
rywegood.
Me:
didy
ouenj
oyy
our
sel
f?
Her
:I’
m enj
oyi
ngmy
sel
f
Me:
don’
tgetl
ostok.I
’
llseey
ouar
ound
Her
:sur
ebabe
Me:theaft
erpar
tywi
llbehel
daty
ourpl
ace.
Ledi
offer
edtohosti
t
Her
:youpeopl
edon’
tgett
ir
ed
Me:nope.Pl
us,wheni
t’
siny
ourpl
acewecan
di
sappearpr
operl
y
Iwhi
sper
edl
i
cki
ngherearandshegi
ggl
ed
Her
:st
opi
tper
ver
t!
Me:
okI
’
m gone.I
’
llf
indy
ou
Her:
noneed.I
’
llbebusysnappi
ngpeopl
eint
he
phot
obooth
Me:
right
.
Iwal kedbacki nthet entwheresomepeopl e
wer edancingandsomepeopl ewentt otake
picturesi
nt hephotoboot hwithher.Ihadf un
andIknowev ery
oneel sedidtoo.Lat eronat
around12wedr ovet omypl acefir
stt ochange
i
nt osomet hingmor echi l
l
edandsomet hi
ngI
candancei ntoandt henwedr ov eofftoYay a’
s
placewher et hemusi cwasal readypumpi ng
andpeopl ewer edrinking.
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
14:
23]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E09
**
*“…I’
l
lnevergoaway.Ireal
l
ywishthaty
ou
wouldstaybutwhatwil
lwedo.all
thedayst
hat
youbeengoneIdr eam aboutyouandI
anticipatet
hedayt hatyouwillcomehome…. .
no
mat terhowf ary ouare.Nomat terhowlongit
takeshi m.Thr oughdistanceandt i
me, I
’
llbe
waiting.Andi fyouhav etowalkami l
l
ionmiles
I’
llwai tamil
lionday stoseeyousmi l
e.
Distanceandt i
meI ’l
lbewaiti
ng…” *
**
-
Mel
o
Shewashomef orthehol idaysandshewas
onlycomi ngbackinJanuar y.Can’tsayIwas
happybutwhatchoi cedi dIhav ereall
y?She
mi ssedhergrandmot herandext endedf amily
andme, myfami l
ywasal lheresot here’sreal
ly
nowher eI“hadto”gof ormyhol idays.My
fami l
yandItookoneofourv acati
onsf or
Decemberandi twasamazi ng, i
twast he30t h
ofDecemberal ready .Weal lhadf un,drinki
ng
andpl ayi
nggamesandcapt uri
ngt hemoment s
andj ustmakingmemor i
es.Iwoul dsendYay aa
pictureonadailyorshewoul dsendmeher s
andt henwewoul dFaceTi mebecausewecan
andwej ustwant edt oseeeachot her ’sf aces.
Youknow, thattypeoft hing.Ourl ov ewas
bey ondnor mal,i
t’sbecomeanobsessi onof
eachot herIguess.Ishoul dbeusedt ot he
distancebuti t
’snotsomet hi ngIgetusedt onor
i
si tsomet hingIwantt ogetusedt o.Iwasn’ t
goingt ostaythewhol eDecember , well Iwas
goingbackt oDur banst r
aightaf t
ert henew
yearbecauseIhav easont hatneedsaf at her
alsoIwantt odri
v etoMt hat hatoseeBaeev en
i
fi t
’sf oraday .Thewat chshegav emeonmy
birt
hday ,shesaidI ’
m notsupposedt oweari t
untilhergr aduation…Idon’ tknowwhybutIdi d
ast old,itwasav erybeaut i
f ulwatch.Mygi r
l
hast ast einallaspect s.Wewer einMi ami with
uncl eSandi soandhi swifeZekhay a…t heyonce
divorcedbutl i
febr oughtthem backt oget her,
sheoncecheat edonhi m wi thherbossbutnow
theygoodandt heyhav e4amazi ngchi l
dr en
toget her.Lathit
hawhowas22, Vuy olwet huwho
was20andt woboy sSandi le18,andSanel e16.
Sandi soandmom ar ecousinswhooncedat ed
before, i
t’sfunnyandsadt hei
rstorybecausehe
brokemom’ sv i
rginit
yandaf ewmont hsdown
thelinet heyf oundoutt hatt
heirmothers
actuallyshar eaf ather;
butthathappenedwhen
theyhadal readybr okenupandmom wasbusy
withdad.Li fedidanumberont hem whent hey
wereonl y18and19.Wewer ei
nchi l
l
ingbyt he
pool,mysi bli
ngs, meandmycousi nsjust
havingagoodt i
meandourpar ent
swer eout
havingl uncht ogether.
Me:
Ijusthopey
ounotapsy
cho
Lat
hi:
I’
m not
hingl
i
ket
hatgi
rlok.I
’
m anangel
comparedt
oher
Ase:andyenashe’
sawitchbr
uh.Li
kenow
she’
spregnantwit
hYay
a’sfat
her
skid
Me:
orsoshesay
s
I
ya:
who’
stosayshe’
sly
ing?I
t’
spossi
ble
Ase:
youdi
dnotseehergl
oatonYay
a’s
bi
rt
hdaywhenwer
ani
ntot
hem atgat
eway
Vuyo:
youhavebeenadvent
urous.Youand
Yay
adeserv
ear eal
i
tyshow
Ase:dudethemoneywewoul
dmake.Theyar
e
anint
erest
ingcoupl
e
Me:mylif
ewil
lnev
erbespl
ashedal
lov
ert
vfor
ev
eryonetowat
ch
Sandi
:whynot?It
squi
ckmoney
.Pl
us,
ther
e’sa
babyi
nthepict
ure
Me:
exact
lywhyIcannotaf
for
dsuchonmyass
I
ya:
asi
fyouwoul
dev
enconsi
deri
t.
Me:whyareweevendi
scussi
ngt
his?I
t’
snev
er
goi
ngtohappen
Ase:whenyoudochangey
ourmi
nd.Hal
aatme
andIwil
lhookyouup
Ispl
ashedherwit
hwat
erandshescr
eamed
makingmelaugh.
Her
:youasshol
e!
Me:
isi
twet
?
Ase:
no.y
oual
mostmademedr
opi
t.Ihat
eyou
Me:
andIl
ovey
out
oosi
ssy
.
I
ya:howdoesJamesf
eel
abouty
oubei
ngt
his
f
ar?
Shesi
ghed.
Vuy
o:James?
Me:
shedi
dn’
ttel
lyou?
SheshookherheadandAsej
ustcov
eredher
face.
Ase:
he’
smyboy
fri
end
Lat
hi:
Inev
ert
houghtIwoul
dli
vet
oseet
heday
Me:
Dur
banwi
l
lshowy
ouf
lamescuz
Vuyo:andy
ourpar
ent
sjustl
ety
ougoanddat
e
theguy
Ase:y
es,
becauset
heyunder
standt
hatt
hey
ent
ernowhere
Me:asi
fyouwouldt
ell
them that
.Youhav en’
t
ev
enint
roducedt
heguytothem proper
ly
Ase:
Ican’
thav
emamaBessandpapaBess
meddli
ngi
nmyr el
ati
onshi
p
Me:
theydon’
tmeddl
einmi
net
hou
Iy
a:causey
ou’
reaguyandt
heycoul
dnev
er
keepupwit
hyourgi
rl
s
Vuyo:
true.I
’
m sti
l
l shockedyout
ieddownand
youevenpoppedthequestion
Lat
hi:
whydi
dshesaynot
hou?
Me:she’
ssti
ll
busywithschool
andstuf
fand
shej
ustwantstogett
hatoutofthewaybef
ore
shecanthi
nkofmarri
age
Ase:seewhyIlovehersomuch.She’ssmart
andshe’spassi
onateaboutherstudi
esand
growingasanindi
vi
dualbeforeshecanbeti
ed
downbybi gbadBess
Sane:
IneedtomovetoDurban.Theamountof
dramather
e.I
t’
sunbel
i
evable
Sandi
:ni
ggay
ousoundsogayr
ightnow
Vuy
o:shutup.Sowhendowegett
omeether
?
Me:
wecanal
way
sfacet
imehernow
Lat
hi:
wewantt
omeetheri
nper
soni
diot
Ase:y
oudon’
tli
veinCal
iorDur
ban…howdo
youpl
antomeether
Vuy
o:whenhebr
ingshert
oJobur
g
Me:your
esidei
nCapeTownandy
oursi
ster
wor
ksinFreeSt
ate…how?
Lat
hi:
makeapl
anbr
o.Makeapl
an
Justt
henmyphonerangandi
twasKat
e.I
answeredhersamet
ime
/
/Me:
Kat
e
Her
:Mel
oit
sKy
le.He’
sinhospi
tal
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?Whathappenedt
ohi
m?
Her:
Idon’tknow.Hejuststar
tedheat
ingup.
.
andI’
m scared.Ij
ustIdon’
tknowwhattodo
Me:
I’
ll
getont
henextf
li
ght
.
Her
:ok/
/
Shesoundedsoshakenandshewascr ying.
Nothingscaresmel i
keagi rlcalli
ngy oucr yi
ng
becauset henitmeanssomet hingislikereall
y
wrong.Okmay beI ’ml y
ing.Kat eandYay aar e
theonlygirl
stoev errai
semywor rieswhent hey
callcr
ying.Ther estnev erreallygottot hat
pointinmyl i
fe.Idi dn’
tplayKat e,Inev erwant ed
tohurtherbutt hingshappenedandt heyar eas
theyarenow.
Ase:
ever
ythi
ngok?
Me:
Kyl
e’
sinhospi
tal
.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Homehasbeenabl i
ss.Iwasmostl
yatmy
grandmot
her’
shouseorsmokingweedwi
th
LediandNi
taoveratSi
seko’
scri
banddar
eI
say, we’vebeenget tingext r
alit
.thisonet imeI
camehomesohi ghIt hi
nkIhad3pl atesof
food, mygr andmot hert ookmet othedoct or
thenextdayt ohav et hem checki fIwas
pregnantornot …itwasr eal
lyfunnybecauseI
fel
tshewasj ustbeingdr amat i
c.Iam ont hepi l
l
andsof arit’
sbeendoi ngwonder sf orme.i t’
s
beenay earandI ’
m st illnotpregnantpl usit
helpswi ththeper i
odpai ns.Mel oandIspeak
everyday ,nomat tert het imewej usttalkf or
hour suntiloneofusf allsasleepwhi l
et alking
ont hephoneandsomet imeswebot hdr if
toff
ont hephoneandwakeupt olowbat teriesor
empt ybatt
eries.Wel lthat ’
snormal lywhenhe
call
sme, I’
m notont vwher eairti
menev erruns
outbutdat ingMel oandTel kom wi thits
benef it
s…it’sadifferentst ory.Itwast he30t h
ofDecemberandmyf ri
endsandIwer ebusy
gettinghigh, i
twasal mostget tingdar k.We
wer eov eratSiseko’shouseandNi tawas
alr
eadygonehome.
Me:youevergett
hatwei
rdf
eeli
ngli
ke
somethi
ngbadisgoingt
ohappen?
Ledi
:nahnotr
eal
l
yunlessIthinkIf
ail
edat
est
orsuspectmy
sel
fofpregnancy
Seko:
whywhat
’swr
ongMunchi
es?
Me:
Idon’tknow.Ijusthav
ethiswei
rdf
eel
i
ng
t
hat
’sal
landIcan’tseem toshakei
tof
f
Ledi
:maybei
t’
syourbodyt
ell
i
ngy
out
ogot
o
bednow
Me:
yeahIguess…
Rockingupathomewi t
hami nicooperneeded
someexpl ai
ning.Mom backedmeupwi thmy
l
ie,IsaidIwonitattheWashi ngtonArt
conventiont
hingyIattendedandgr andma
actual
lyboughtthest or
y.Mom wasn’ tsohappy
aboutlyingt
ogr anbutthel astthingIwanted
wasal ectur
eoni ndependenceandboy sand
howt heymessupone’ sli
fe…AndMel ohas
messedupmyl i
feprett
ywel l…enought olast
memywhol elifesoI’m goodwiththelectur
es.
Wegoti nSeko’ smot her’scarandhedr oveus
toourhomesandwesai dourgoodby esandI
wentst r
aighttomyr oom, mom wasint he
l
oungewat chinghert el
emundoshows.Ical led
Mel obutIcoul dn’
treachhim, i
twouldringand
thengot ov oi
cemai leveryti
mesucht hatIgave
uponhi m andcal ledAseandsheanswer ed
aftersomet ime.
/
/Me:
Asehey
Her
:hel
l
ohoney
.Howar
eyou?
Me:
I’
mfi
ne.I
sMel
oar
ound?
Her
:he’
suhhm i
nhi
sroom
Me:I’
vebeencal
l
inghim andhe’
snot
answeri
ng.I
’
m worr
ied
Her
:letmegogi
vehi
mthephoneok.
Me:
isev
ery
thi
ngok?
Her
:Iwoul
drat
herhet
ell
youhi
msel
f
Ijustkeptqui
etandwai
tedonherunti
lshegot
toMel owhichwasli
ke5to10minuteslat
er…
wellitf
elt
sthatl
ongtome.
“
Hel
l
o”
Hesaidinaveryl
owt onewhi chonl
yworri
ed
meevenmor e.Mel
o’sv oiceisalwayshypedup
whenhe’stal
ki
ngtomeorhehear sthatI
’m on
t
heotherendofthecallbutt odaywasdiff
erent
.
Welastspokeint
hemor ning.
Me:
Heybabe
Hi
m:HeyMaf
aku.Howar
eyou?
Me:Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
ou.I
sev
ery
thi
ngok?
Ar
ey ouok?
Hi
m:Ky
lei
sinhospi
tal
Icl
aspedmymout h.DearGod!Ihaven’tmet
himy et
…pleasedon’tj
udgemebutIam st il
l
notreadyyet,
Ialwaysgot otheBessresi
dence
aft
erIhearthatheissleepi
ngorheandhi s
motheraregone.It
’snotthatIdon’
twanttobe
partofhisli
feoranythi
ngbutIdon’
tthi
nkI’
d
wantmybabydaddy ’sgi
rl
fr
iendi
nvol
vedinmy
3-monthold’sli
fe.Maybewhenhe’s6months
we’l
lbeay tbutfornowIthi
nkthi
siswhat’
s
bestforallofus.
Me:
ishegoi
ngt
obeok?
Him:Idon’
tknow.Ijustbookedaf
li
ghtt
o
DurbannowsoI’l
lknowwhenIgetthere
Me:
arey
ougoi
ngt
obeokt
ofl
y?
Him:y
eahI’
ll
befi
ne.Katesai
dhehadahigh
t
emperat
uresowedon’tknowhowser
iousi
tis
yet
Me:it
’syourson.Hi
m bei
ngi
nhospi
tal
means
i
tsseri
ousbabe.Gobewithhi
m
Hi
m:wi
l
lIseey
ou?
Me:Idon’
tknow.I
’
m kindofhomebuti
fyou
needmeI’
llt
akeafli
ghttoDur
ban
Hi
m:pl
easedo.I
’
llcal
lyouwhenIt
akeof
f
Me:
sur
e.Il
ovey
ou
Hi
m:Il
ovey
out
oo/
/
Aftert het oneIl etoutadeepbr eath.Ev eryti
me
thi
ngsseem t obegoi ngoksomet hinghappens
andt akesusbackt opai n.Whenwi llthepai n
everend?I fthisisserioust henMel odoesn’ t
needmet her ebecauseIf oronedonot
under standhi spain,Kat edoesbutatt hesame
ti
meAsemahl ehasherdoubt saboutKat eand
shef eelsl ikeIshoul dn’tgivehert he
satisfactionoft hi
nkingt hatt hi
sbabybei ngin
thepict urewi l
lbri
ngt hem cl osertoget her…I
don’tknow.Asemahl eisjustbeingher .
Speaki ngofKat e,Ihaven’tseenher …Il astsaw
herwhenshesai dsheabor tedthebabyand
thatwasi t…Ihav en’tseenheruponmyar ri
val
soIdon’ tknowhowt hiswillgoonr eally
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
14:
27]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E10
***“
…Babyi t
’syou,you’retheoneIl
ove,you’r
e
theoneIneed.You’ret heonlyoneIsee.Come
onbabyi t
’syou.You’retheonethatgetsitall
.
Yout heoneIcanalway scall
.WhenIneedy ou,
youmakeev er
ythi
ngst op.Youputmyl oveon
top…”***
-
Mel
o
Befor
eIlef
tIcalledmom toinfor
m aboutKy l
e
andshewassuperwor r
iedaboutthelit
tl
eguy ,
sheevenoffer
edt ol
eavewithmebutIt ol
dher
I’
dhandl
eit.Heismysonaf t
erall
andi tsti
meI
grewupandhandl edthi
ngsmy sel
fyouknow?
SotheminuteIlandedinDurbanIcalledYay a
andshesaidshewasonherwayt ot heairport
andwoul
dmeetmeatthehospi
tal
.Ical
l
edKat
e
andsheanswer
edsamet
ime.
/
/Her
:Mel
o
Me:
hi.Ij
ustl
anded.Wher
ear
eyouguy
s?
Her
:wei
nthehospi
tal
yourauntwor
ksi
n
Me:
howi
she?
Her
:he’
ssl
eepi
ng
Me:
whatdi
dthedoct
orsay
?
Her:shehasn’tt
oldmeany
thi
ngpr
omi
sing.She
say
si t’
sjustt
heflu
Me:
andy
out
hinkot
her
wise?
Her:
hewasburni
ngupMel
oyoudi
dn’tseehi
m.
Iwasscar
edt
hatther
emi
ghtbemore
Me:
andi
shest
il
lbur
ningup?
Her
:no
Me:
youwor
ryi
ngov
ernot
hing.He’
sfi
nei
sn’
the?
Her
:youdon’
tcar
e!Ev
enabouty
oursony
ou
don’
tcar
e
Me:Icar
eabouthi
m Kat
e.Whyel
sewoul
dIf
ly
f
orhourscomi
ngtoseehim?
Her
:noy
oucomi
ngt
oseey
ourgi
rl
fr
iend
Me:nott
hisagai
nKat
e.I
’
m notdoi
ngt
hiswi
th
you/
/
Icutthecallandr equestedanubert odroveme
tothehospital.Idon’tknowwhatKat e’
s
problem wit
hmeandYay ais.Ev erytimeshe
j
usthast obringYay aupwher emysonwi t
hher
i
sconcer ned.Idon’tseewhyshef eelstheneed
tocompar ethem.WhenIgott hereIwenti n
withmyl i
ttl
ebag, therestofmyt hingswere
goingtocomebackwi thmyf ami l
y.Ispoket o
therecepti
onistandImetupwi t
hauntAmber
onmywayt oKat eandKy le
Her
:backsosoon?
Me:Kyl
eisher
e.Yest
erdayhest
art
edheat
ing
upandshepani
cked
Her
:howdoesi
tfeel
bei
ngaf
ather
?
Me:i
t’
sov
erwhel
ming…buti
tsok,
he’
sagr
eat
ki
d
Her
:he’
sonl
y4mont
hs,
chi
l
l
Ichuckl
ed
Her
:andhowar
ethi
ngswi
thy
ou,
Yay
aandKat
e?
Me:
theyhav
en’
tseeneachot
her
Her:hasn’ti
tbeenl
i
keamonth?Whati
sYay
a
notcomf ort
abl
ewit
hthebaby
?
Me:noit’
snotthat.Ij
ustdon’twantt orushher
onthi
soneandi t
’sbadenought hatshe’s
endur
edsomuchf rom me.thisisthelastthi
ng
sheneedstocarryonhershoul ders
Her:Ihearyoubutremember.Kyleisyourson,
yourbloodandifYayacannotacceptthatthen
i
t’snotmeanttobe.Imeany ou’
reaf athernow
andy ouneedtosetyourpri
ori
ti
esstraight
Me:
nahi
twoul
dn’
tgett
oapoi
ntwher
eIwoul
d
hav
etochoosenow
Her
:andi
fitdoes?
Me:
itwon’
tgett
oitAunt
ydon’
twor
ry
Wewer estandingoutsideKy l
e’sroom l
ooki
ng
throughthewindow.Hewasasl eepandKate
wassi t
ti
ngbesidehim wi thherbackfaci
ngus.
Amberhuggedmeandt henshewentt odoher
roundswhileIwalkedin.
Me:
hey
Sheatt
ackedwit
hahugandjustsobbed.Ok?
!
WhatdoIdonow?Ibrushedherbackand
pul
ledherawayf
rom me.
Her
:I’
m sorr
y.I
’mjustscar
edandst
ressedand
j
ustworr
iedaboutme
Me:
he’
sfi
nemos
Her:
I’m sor
ryf
orov
err
eacti
ngear
li
eron.Ij
ust
di
dn’tt
hinkyouwer
ecoming
Me:
he’
smyson.OfcauseI
’
lldr
opev
ery
thi
ng
f
orhi
m
Her:samewayy ouwoul
ddr
opev
ery
thi
ngf
or
yourgir
lf
ri
end?
Me:
Kat
ewhati
syourpr
obl
em r
eal
l
y?
Her
:not
hing
Me:don’
tgi
vemet hat
.What
’sy
ourpr
obl
em
wi
thmygirl
fr
iend?
Her
:justl
eti
tgo
Shesai
dat
tempt
ingt
owal
kawayandIhel
dher
arm.
Me:younotdoingt
his.Yougoi
ngt
otel
lme
whatiti
sthati
sbotheri
ngyou
Her
:Il
oveyouDer
ri
ck.That
’swhat
’sbot
her
ing
me.Il
ovey
ouandy oucan’
tseei
t
“
Am Ii
nter
rupt
ingsomet
hing?
”
Canhert
imingbeanybetter
?Shej usthadt
o
wal
kinnowofallti
mes.Iknowherv oi
ceal
ltoo
wel
landherscentevenbett
er.Il
etgoofKate’s
arm andturnedtoYaya.Iwal
kedupt
oher
tr
yingtokissherandshegavemehercheek.
Me:
howwasy
ourf
li
ght
?
Her
:fi
ne.
Kat
e:y
oubr
oughtherher
e?
Yayashotheraquesti
oni
nglook.I
tdi
dn’
tmake
sensebecausesheknowsthatYandi
swai
sin
mylif
e,she’
spartofmyli
fe.
Me:
obv
iousl
y.
Yaya:Asemahlewarnedmeabouty oubutI
keptbrushi
ngherassumpt i
onsoff
.Idi
dn’
twant
tobuythatyouhadulter
iormoti
vesbutaf
ter
whatIjusthear
d…I’
m conv i
ncedyoudo.
Kat
e:pl
easel
eav
e
Me:
she’
snotgoi
ngany
wher
e
Yay
a:i
tsf
ine.I
’
llgi
vey
out
wosomet
imet
otal
k
Me:
NO!
Kat
e:good.Leav
e
Me:Kat
eshutuppl
ease.Yay
apl
easedon’
t
l
eav
e
Yaya:I
’m cur
ious.WasKyl
eevensi
ckorwas
thatanexcusetogetMeloal
oneseei
ngthatno
oneisheretostopyoufr
om t
ryi
ngtogetint
o
hispant
s?
Kat
e:howdar
eyou?
Me:Yayacomeon.Thatsoundsal
i
ttl
efar
f
etched
Yay
a:washesickorwasi
tsomel
i
eyoumade
upsoyoucan’
tgethi
m al
one?
Hervoicewastoneddownandshewasso
cal
mi twasscary.WhenYay
adoesn’
tshoutI
thi
nkit’
ssaf
etowor r
y.
Kat
e:Ido.
.
Yay
a:WASHESI
CKORNOT?
Kat
elookeddownandshookherhead.Yay
a
l
ookedatme
Yay
a:t
her
eyouhav
eit
.
ShewalkedoutandIfol
lowedaf
terherunt
ilI
caughtupgr
abbingherarm.
Me:
Yay
awai
tup
Her :yester dayIcouldn’
tsleept ossingand
turningt hinkingthatmay beKy l
ewasr eal
lysick
youknow.ButI ’
vebeenar oundmot her sand
sickkidsl ongenought oknowt hatwheny our
babyi ssi ckandi nahospitalbed, y
oudon’ t
hav etimet obeconf essi
ngy ourf eeli
ngst oy our
ex.WakeupMel okuhl
e.Setthingsst raightwith
thisgirlorshewi llhav
ey ourightwher eshe
want sy ou
Idon’tknowwhatabl essingisbutminecame
i
nabeaut i
fulcaramel skinnedgirlwear
ing
shortsandheel sint hemi ddl
eoft heni
ght
walkingwithmydr unkasssi steronthe18thof
Nov emberlastyear .Godknewwhathewas
doingwhenhemadeuscr osspathsandi t
becauseofherIgi v emy selfovertoher.Shei
s
ev
ery
thi
ngonecoul
dev
eraskf
ororev
erneed.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Ilookedathi
m.Mencanbedumborbl i
ndwhen
theywantto.Howcanhenotseer ightt
hrough
Kate?Iunderst
andhim cari
ngaboutherbutthe
restisj
ustcomplet
eb.s.Nigganeedstoopen
hiseyebeforehegetsplay
edbythisgir
l.
Me:
goseey
ourson,
I’
ll
seey
ouaty
ourpl
ace
Hi
m:I’
m notgoi
ngt
ospendanot
hermi
nut
e
wi
thKate
Me:
youshar
eachi
l
dMel
o
Hi
m:IknowthatbutIcan’
tst
andherri
ghtnow.
Woul
ditbet
oomuchofmei fIaskedy
outo
st
ay?
Idi
dnotexpectt
hat.Am Ir
eadytoseethe
fat
her
lysi
deofMelo?ImeanI ’
veseenhim
post
ingpi
ctur
esoftheki
donhi
sWhat
sAppand
al
lbuter
rh…thi
sI’
m notr
eadyf
or…
Hi
m:pl
ease
Me:
uhhm okf
ine
Wewal kedbacki ntother oom andKat ehadher
headbur i
edont hebedwhi l
elit
tl
eKy lesl ept.He
wassobeaut i
ful.Mel opickedhim upandhe
tri
edopeni nghi sey esalittl
eandt henhecl osed
them again.Hewassof uckingadorabl ey ou
can’thel
pbutf allinlovewi thhi
m.It ouchedhi s
cheekandMel osmi l
edatme.Iwasf all
ingi n
l
ov ewiththi sl
itt
lecr eat
ur einmyboy fr
iend’ s
arms.Katewasl ookingatuswi t
hev ileye, she
wasnotl i
ki ngthesi ghtshewasseei ng.
Hi
m:doy
ouwantt
ohol
dhi
m?
Par
tofmewant edtoconf
irm wit
hKatefi
rstbut
Ial
sowantedtospi
tehertoo.Inoddedand
Melohandedhi
mt ome.
Hi
m:don’
tdr
ophi
m
Webot
hlaughed.
Me:Anit
ahasababy.Whodoy outhi
nkhas
beennursi
ngt
hatl
i
ttl
egir
lforher
?Don’tpl
ay
meBess
Hi
m:I
’
m ki
ddi
nggeez.
Me:
he’
ssobeaut
if
ul
Hi
m:l
et’
shav
eourown
Il
it
eral
lychockedonmysal iv
aandst ar
tl
edthe
l
it
tl
eonei nmyar mswhoj ustopenedhisey
es
andlookedatme.Ithoughthewoul dcr
ybuthe
j
ustkeptquietandst
aredatme.
Him:I’
mjoki
nggeez
.Iknowy
ouwantt
ofi
nish
schoolf
ir
st
Me:
thanky
ou.
Kat
e:Ineedsomewat
er
Shewal kedoutandMeloandIlookedateach
otherandcrackedupinlaught
er.She’
sbei
ng
pettyf
ornor easont
hisgir
l.
Me:
don’
tdot
hat
Hi
m:what
?
Me:
that
.Spi
ti
ngKat
e
Hi
m:i
t’
sfun.Hel
i
kesy
ou
Me:
am Iwr
ongf
ornotwant
ingt
oputhi
m down?
Him:notatal
l.He’
sanador
abl
eki
d.He’
sa
char
merlikehisdad
If
oundmy
sel
flaughi
ng.
Me:
aren’
twef
ull
ofour
sel
ves?
??
Hi
m:can’
tbl
ameani
gga
Me:r
ight
…Sot
hisi
showy
oul
ookedwheny
ou
wer
eababy
Hi
m:j
ustmor
ehandsome,
buty
es
Me:
Ithi
nkhel
ooksbet
tert
hany
oupr
obabl
ydi
d
Hi
m:gi
rlpl
ease.Sowhenwi
l
lyousayy
est
ome?
Hesai
dpl
ayi
ngwi
thKy
le’
sli
tt
lehands
Me:
Itol
dyou.Wai
tti
l
lIgr
aduat
e
Hi
m:y
ousuck
Me:
yes,
andy
ousuckev
enbet
ter
Hi
m:y
ousuchaf
reak.Whatdi
dIdot
oyou?
Me:
babyear
sMel
okuhl
e
Hi
m:f
ineI
’
m qui
et.Letmecal
lmom
Me:
younotl
eav
ingmewi
thhi
m
Hi
m:It
houghy
oucoul
dhandl
ebabi
es
Me:
notwhenhi
smot
herwant
stoki
l
lme
Hi
m:y
ouov
err
eact
ing
Me:yout
hink?Thelookshegav
ewasas
t
houghshewasr oast
ingmewithhel
lfi
re
Him:youwat
chal
otofmov
ies.Hewon’
tcr
y
don’
tworr
y
Hewenttost andbyt hewi
ndowcalli
nghis
mom toupdat eheraboutKy l
e.Hej
uststar
ted
cr
yingandIlookedatMel owhowassocaught
upintheconv er
sati
onwithhismothersoIput
hi
m onmyshoul derandbrushedhi
sback
becauseIdon’
tknowmuchaboutbabi esand
thi
siswhatNit
anor mal
lysuggestsIdowithher
babyanditworks.I
tactual
l
ywor kedbecause
hewasmor ecalm now.Melodroppedthecall
andcamebackt ome
Hi
m:y
ou’
reanat
ural
Me:
don’
tgetanyi
deas
Hi
m:y
oushoul
dgetof
fthepi
l
l
Me:no.Andwenev
erhav
ingt
hisconv
ersat
ion
agai
n.
Thel astthi
ngIwanti stofallpregnantbefore
fi
nishingmycour se.Icannotaf fordto
disappointmymom andgr andmot her,
especiall
ymom wi theverythingthatIhaveput
herthroughbecauseofmyl ovef ort
hisoneguy
whom shef eel
sisnotwor t
hyofmeormyl ove.
Idon’twantt ogiv
ehermor er easontohatethe
guyorgi veherreasontokeepmeawayf r
om
him.
.
.
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15,
16:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E11–Gr
aduat
ionDay(
2year
slat
er)
***
“…a105i st henumbert hatcomest omy
head,whenIt hinkofal lt
hey earsIwanttobe
wit
hy ou.Wakeupev erymor ni
ngwi t
hy oui
nmy
bed,that’
spr ecisel
ywhatIpl antodo.Andy ou
knowoneoft heseday swhenIgetmymoney
ri
ght.Buyy ouev er
ythingandshowy ouallt
he
fi
nerthingsinl if
e……. .Wil
ly oumar r
yme…” *
**
-
Mel
o
Alothashappenedfrom si
ncet
hatdaywith
Kateatt
hehospital
.She’
stri
edafewtri
cks,she
andYay ahav ehadaf ewar gument sher eand
therebuther ewear eandweal lgood.Kat ehas
aboy friendandshei sbacki nschool anddoi ng
herfinal yearwi t
honemor esemest ertof inish
upnexty ear .Ky l
ewast urningt wot hisyearand
hewasgr owi ngupt olookmor eandmor el i
ke
mei twascr eepyr eall
y,youwoul dswearKat e
wasn’ tev enhi smot hert hewayhel ookedl ike
me.Thi ngsbet weent het hreeofushav ebeen
goodandKat ei scomf ortablewi thYay aand
Kylebondi ngorYay at akingKy l
eoutandhi m
actuallycomi ngt ov i
situsi nCal ievenifi t
’sf or
aweek.Mybabywasgr aduat ingtodayandi t’
s
beenhect ic,Mi ssywast urning21t hisy earand
Iwast urning23t ogetherwi t
hmyt winand
Yanawast urni
ng26onmom’ sbi rt
hdayand
mom wast urni
ng46anddad50.Yanahada
chil
d, shewasay earol dandshewasv er y
adorbs.Shewasl eftinSA, shecoul dn’tcome
duet owor kandshedi dn’twantt otravel witha
1-year-oldv iaplane.Sheandheroncebr oke
boyf
ri
endwer emarried,t
heguydi dashort
cour
seinbusinessanalysisandthat’
swhathe
doesforal
ivi
ngandhei sactual
lygett
ing
moneyoutofit.Iwalkedintoherroom andshe
hadaglam squad,court
esyofmyt wi
nsister
.
Me:
hel
l
o
Ase:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Me:
toseemygi
rl
fr
iendhawu
Yaya:
y ouwear
ingt
hewat
chIgav
eyouony
our
21str
ight?
Me:
it’
sinmyr
oom…I
’
llweari
tbef
orewel
eav
e
Her
:Mel
o!
Me:
fineI
’
llgof
etchi
t.
Iwalkedoutofherr oom andwentt oweart his
watchofher swhichIhav en’
tbeenallowedt o
wearfortwof l
ippi
ngy ears.I
twasbeaut i
ful,l
i
ke
ver
ybeaut i
fulandunder neat
hitwasanot e
whichread“I’
vebeenwai t
ingforthi
sdayandI
am hopingthatyouhav ebeent oo.Turnthe
watchar oundandseewhati treads.Askme
again”Irereadt henot eaboutthreet i
mest ryi
ng
tofigureoutwhati tmeant.Iturnedt hewatch
aroundandi twaswr i
tt
enmyi niti
alsandbi g
“YES!”init
alics.Irereadthenot eagai nto
understandi ti
nt hecontextofhav ingseen
what ’
swr i
ttenont hewat chandIl iteral
l
yran
outofmyr oom t ofindher.Ibargedi nandshe
waswear i
ngabl acklacebodysui tandt here
wast hatCar ti
erboxIoncegav eher2y earsago.
Me:
doest
hismean?
Ase:
knockmuch
Shelookedatmewit
hahugesmileandnodded.
Ipi
ckedherupandspunherar
oundkissi
ngher
Ledi
:cansomebodyexpl
aint
omewhati
sgoi
ng
onhere?
Ibroket
hekissandputYay
adownwhowas
l
aughingathowexci
tedIwas.WhatcanIsay
,
I’
vebeenagoodboythesepastt
woy ear
sand
I’
vekeptmywordofmakingherhappyand
nevermaki
nghercry.Weonlyar
guedabout
pett
yli
tt
let
hingsbutei
thert
hanthatwe’
vebeen
goodtoeachother
.
Me:shej
ustsai
dy es.Wellshesai
dyest
wo
year
sagobut…arghy ougetthepoi
nt
Igr
abbedtheboxont
hetabl
eandwentdown
ononekneeandshej
ustl
aughed
Me:
yout
oldmet
oasky
ouagai
n
Her
:yes
Me:
Idon’
thav
etodoaspeechr
ight
?
Ase:
Wewantaspeechher
e.I
’
m capt
uri
ngt
his
Yay
a:y
oursi
sterhasspoken
Me:Makemethehappi
estmani
nthi
swor
ld
andsayy
es.Pl
ease
Ledi
:nowy
ouj
ustpl
ayi
ng
Yay
a:ofcauseI
’
llmar
ryy
ou
Atsomepointinl
if
eIhadthoughtt
hatshe
wasn’
tgoi
ngt osayyesorwewouldreachher
graduat i
ony earwi thherandIexes.Thi sisby
farmyl ongestr el
at ionshi pandnogi rlhasev er
mademef eel thewayYandi swahasmademe
feel
.Nogi rl hast ur nedmyl if
ear oundi nless
than6mont hsandact uallysucceededand
mademegodownononekneet oaskherf or
mar r
iage.IknowI ’
v ehur thermor et hanshe’ s
hurtme, andasdy sf unctional aswemayhav e
beenbutIwoul dn’thav eourl oveanyot herway
becausei t
’swhathasbr oughtust hisfarinour
rel
ationshi p.Hadwenotgonet hrought hepai n
andhur tandt hesl ipupst henwewoul dn’tbe
heret oday .From wher ewewer et owher ewe
arenowt her e’sl i
ter all
ynot hi
ngIwoul dchange
aboutus.Isl i
ppedt her i
ngonherf ingerandI
gotupt oki ssher .IwassohappyIcoul dev en
dance; Idon’ tconsi dermy selfassomeonewho
candanceev ent houghpeopl esayIcan.We
sharedal ongki sswi t
hmyhandssqueezi ngher
buttandshej ustbr okei t.
Me:
ser
iousl
y
Iwhi
sper
ed
Her
:ther
e’speopl
eher
e.Don’
ttel
lmey
ou?
Shecov
eredhermout
hwi
thherr
ingf
ingerand
gi
ggl
ed.
Ase:
wear
est
il
lher
eguy
s
Ledi
:Congr
atz.Mel
ocanwehav
ehernow
Me:
NO.Lat
er
Yayajustgi
ggledev
enmor e.Ineededmyboner
togodownal r
eadyandYay ainl
acewasn’
t
hel
pingatall
.Shewhisper
edinmyear
Her
:thi
nkabouty
oursi
sterhav
ingsex
Me:
thati
sdi
sgust
ing!
Her
:it
’senought
omakey
ourbonergodown
Ilookeddownandshewasr ight
.Itwaswr ong
tot hi
nkofsuchbutitact
uall
ywor kedand
l
ooki ngatAsemahleIcoul
dn’tshakethefeeli
ng
offandsoIr anoutoftheroom.Ineededa
drinktofor
get.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Andev enaf terthelittl
eargument swe’ vehad,
noneoft hem hav emademer egretengr av i
ng
“YES!”ont hatwat chbecauseIdon’ tseemy self
withany onebuthi m.Icannotst ressi tenough
howmuchIl ovehi m.Onet hingI’venot iced
aboutt hiswor l
dwel i
veinisthaty oucannev er
behappyi fy oulivey ourl
ifetryi
ngt osat isfy
everyone.That ’
showwel oseour sel ves.Yes,
Mel ohasmademequest ionhi m butt hel ove
hisshownmet hroughouthasout wei ghedal l
thepainandt hehur tIenduredbecauseofhi m
andt hat’sthet hingwi tht
hepeopl et hatar enot
i
ny ourr elati
onshi p,theyj
udgey ourl ov ebased
ont hehur ty outwohav ecausedeachot her
forgett
ingt hel ovey ouguy sshar e.SoYesI
wantt omar ryhim becauset hegoodhehas
beenout weighsal lthebadhe’ sdone.Il ov ehim
andIwantt obebur iednexttohim someday .
Asmuchaswehav eallt
heseent heringbuti t
l
ookeddi f
ferent,i
tlookedgoodonmyf inger.I
sti
l
l cannotbel i
evehegott hesizeri
ght .Mom
walkedi nwithmygr andmotheraswewer e
busyadmi r
ingmyr ing.Herecomest hel ecture.
Ledi andAsemahl eexcusedt hemselves.Ihi d
myl efthandi nsi
demygown.Weal lsatdown.
Gr
anny
:I’
m pr
oudofy
oubaby
Me:
thanksKhul
u
Mom: soam Ibaby .Youdidn’
tlosesi
ghtof
what
’simpor t
antandy ouhaveachiev
edprett
y
muchev er
ythi
ngIhadhopedandpr ayedyou
woul
d.Ilovey oubaby
ShehuggedmeandIhadtot
akemyhandsout
ofmygown,nott
oberude.Webr
okethehug
andIqui
ckl
yputi
tbacki
nmygown.
Gr
an:
Babal
wapl
easegi
veusami
nut
etoget
her
.
Mom:
uhhm okMa.I
’
llmeety
oui
nther
ecept
ion
Gr
an:
sur
e.
Mom walkedoutandgrannyl
ookedatmei
nthe
mostuncomfort
ableway.
Her:
noneedt
ohi
det
her
ingf
rom me.I
’
m not
st
upid
Me:
hai
boKhul
u
Her
:sowhendi
dyousayy
es?
Me:
heaskedmeagai
ntodayandIsai
dyes
Shenoddedlookingatmewi ththatlookofher
s.
Iwasreall
yworriedastowhat’sgoingto
happenhere.Thelastthi
ngIneedisabeat i
ng
onmygr aduati
onday .Don’
tgi
v emet hatl
ook,
sheiscapableok?Shewoul dreal
lydoitthi
s
woman.
Her
:doesheknow?
Il
ookedupathersoconf
usedmysmi
l
eli
ter
all
y
di
sappear
ed.
Me:
know?KnowwhatKhul
u?
Her
:thi
sboywhoseri
ngyouarewear
ing.Does
heknowthaty
ou’
repr
egnant
?
Il
ookedatmygr andmotherexpectinghert o
l
aughorsayshewasj okingorsomet hing.
Any t
hingreal
lybutnope.Shewasser ious.IfI
am Ihopeshehasn’ tt
oldmom y etbecause
Babe’sdon’tplay.Shewillmurdermei nt he
bl
inkofaney eandIwon’ tgetthatcarshe
promisedmef ormy21stbi rt
hday.NoI ’m not
beinggreedybutsheandIhadadeal f
rom
whenIgotoutofmat r
icthatIgraduatewi t
hout
ababyt henIgetacar .
Me:Khul
uI’
m notpr
egnant
.It
hinkIwoul
dknow
i
fIwas
Her
:whenl
astdi
dyougoony
ourper
iods?
Me:l
astmont
hbutithappens.Thepi
l
lmakes
mybodydoweir
dthings
Her:l
ikeyougaini
ngwei ghtkodwayougym
ever
yday?Ory oueatingalot?Gaini
ngali
tt
le
complexi
onthany ournormal compl
exi
on?
Me:
grannyI
’
m notpr
egnant
Her:
thenyouwon’
tmi
ndt
aki
ngt
hist
estI
br
oughtyou?
Shesaidtakingoutaboxfr
om herhandbagand
handi
ngittome.It ooki
tandwenttothe
bathr
oom andpeedont hesti
ckandthencame
backwithitandputitont
hedressi
ngtable.
Her
:setanal
armf
or5mi
nut
es
Me:
thi
sisr
eal
l
yunnecessar
yKhul
u
Her
:foryoursakeIhopeso.Yourmot
herwon’
t
behappyaboutthi
s
Me:butI
’m donewithschool
andImightgeta
buy
erformysculpturest
odaywhichwi
llbr
ing
meonestepclosertomygaller
y
Her:ev
enso.Youweresupposedtofi
nish
schoolandgetaj
obandsecureyour
selfbef
ore
havi
ngababyandsayingyestomarr
iage
Iwasl
ookingdownbecausewhenanol
d
per
sonspeakstoyoui
tisrudet
olookt
hem i
n
t
heey
e.
Her:Idon’
tthinki
twil
lmatt
ertoyourmother
thatyoufi
nishedwit
hschoolbutyoutwohada
deal,
graduatewit
houtget
ti
ngpregnantandyou
getacar
Me:andthedeal
isst
il
lonKhul
ubecauseI
’
m
notpr
egnant
Her:per
sonal
lyIl
iketheboy.hemakesyou
happyinwaysIhaveneverseenyouhappybut
babythi
sgoesagainstever
ythi
ngyouandyour
motherspokeof
Me:
hav
eyouspoket
oheraboutt
his?
Her:
ohchi l
d.I
t’
snotmynewst
otel
l
,it
’sy
our
s
andthatboyofyour
s
Me:
whati
fIam?
Her:t
heny ouareaboutt
ogothr
oughthemost
beaut
iful
thinginthi
sworl
d.Mot
her
hoodisan
amazingjourneybaby
Justt
hent
heal
armr
angandt
hener
vesst
art
ed
kickingin.t het houghtal onewasenought o
makemegoandt hrowup.Iwasscar ed,
wor ri
ed,st ressedandf eelingal otofemot ions
allatonce.Mom i snot hi
ngl i
kemygr andma
andt hent here’smyaunt sandmycousi nwho
i
s27andst il
l doesn’thav eachi ld.Howwi llal
l
oft hi
slook?Ipukedagai nandt henj ustsat
therebyt het oil
etseat .HowdoIgoand
graduat ewi thev ery t
hingt hati shappeni ngnow?
What ’
swor sei sthatMel okuhl ebeingsi gneda
deal withmyschool lasty earsohei soneoft he
ambassador sorsomet hingal ongt hoselines
buthei ssomet hingi mpor tanti nmyschool and
hewi l
lbegi v i
ngaspeecht odayandhandi ngus
ourcer ti
ficates.Mygr andmot herknockedbutI
j
ustsatt her eandf oundmy selfcrying.Funny
becauseIhav en’
tev enseent het estand
alreadyI’m cr y i
nglikeani diot.
“Mafakupumakal
okust
handwasam”(
Maf
aku
getoutmylov
e)
Thatwasmygr
andmot
herpl
eadi
ngf
ormet
o
getout .Igotupandwashedmywhol ef
ace
ruiningthewhol emakeupwhichmyf ut
ure
sisterinlawwi l
lgi
vemeal ect
ureabout
.Igot
outandgr annywasholdi
ngthesti
ck.
Me:
so?
Her
:you’
repr
egnant
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
16:
39]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E12
***“
…Heygirl
, Iknowthi
sshiitmightsound
crazybutbeforeyougetinbedthoughont hose
heels.Heygi
rl,nowIknowwhyy ouwaited.Had
tobesur et
hatIwaswor ththethri
ll
.Ladies
comeandgo, buty ougotsomethi
ngdif
ferent
hadmesoaddi ct
edfrom t
hestart
.AndI’
d
neverknown,allt
hislov
ethatI
’vebeenmissing
i
fIhadn’tworkedmywayi ntoyourhear
t.You
gi
vemev er
ti
go…”***
-
Yay
a
Igrabbedthesti
ckfrom herhandandlookedat
i
t.Shii
ttheli
nesweret woandnowt hereal
questi
onwoul dbehowf aral
ongIwas.Iam
screwed.Mom willmurderme.ther
ewasa
knockont hedoorandgranandIstoodt her
e
andlookedateachot her
.
Me:
uhhm whoi
sit
?
Tear
swerethreateni
ngmyey esal
ready.I
nmy
mindIwasprayingthati
t’
snotmymot her
.
“
It
sAmahl
e”
Gr
an:
goopen,
I’
ll
taket
his
Iwasaboutt
ogoopenwhenshejustpul
ledme
i
ntoherar
msandIfoundmysel
fcryi
nginher
homelyar
ms.Thisisthel
astthi
ngIneednow
ofal
lti
mes.Mrs.Bessknockedagai
n
Gran:
comein(
shout
ing)gogety
our
sel
f
cl
eanedup
Iwalkedint
othebat hr
oom towi pethelit
tle
tear
sIhad,it’
sli
kethemor eItri
edst oppingthe
tear
st hemoretheycameout .Iwashedmy
facetryi
ngnottoalarm Mrs.Bess.Iwalkedout
andshewashol dingthetestwithasmi leon
herface.Whywasshesmi li
ng?There’snot hi
ng
goodaboutthis.
Ama:
youpr
egnant
?Congr
atul
ati
onshoney
Shewal kedtowar dsmeandpul ledmei nfora
hug.Knowi ngMr s.Bess,sheprobabl ycorner
ed
mygr andmot herintot
ell
ingherwhati sreal
ly
wrong.Ilookedatmygr anwhoshr uggedher
shoul
der swithanappr ovi
ngsmi le.I’
m not
happyaboutt hisatall
.Shebroket hehugandI
wipedmyt ear s.Idon’
tevengett heexcitement
witht
hesepeopl e.
Her
:youdon’
tseem happy
Ishookmyheadandsheledmetothebedand
satmedownwithmygrandmot
herontheother
si
de.
Gr
an:
she’
swor
ri
edabouthermom.
Ama:
why
?Yousai
dyes
Shesaidadmi ri
ngtheringonmyf inger.I
suddenlyhadregret
saboutev ensay i
ngyes.I
knowi t
’sstupi
dandchi l
dishbutI’m notready.I
washopi ngthatal
lofthiswoul dgoata
reasonablepace.Marr
iagef i
rst,f
ewy ears
enjoyi
ng“ us”t
imeandt hencomest hebabies.
Thisisfuckedup.
Gran:
don’
tcr
y,y
ougoi
ngt
oov
erwhel
mthe
baby
Me:
mom i
sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lme
Ama:
noshewoul
dn’
t.Honeyl
ookatme
It
urnedt
oher
Ama: youkidshaveat endencyofexpecti
ngt he
wor stofuspar ent
s.Yourmot herwon’tki
llyou,
I’
m notsay i
ngshewi l
lbehappyaboutt henews
butshewon’ tgoasfarasmur deri
ngyou.She’s
yourmot herandshelovesy ouandshewi l
ldo
any t
hingt oseeyouhappy .Mysonl ovesyou,he
l
ov esy ousomuchandIknowf orafactt
hat
thi
swi llexcit
ehim andhewi ll
dowhati sri
ght
Me:Idon’
twantusjumpi
ngint
omar
ri
ageand
ev
eryt
hingel
sebecauseoft
his
Gran:Maf aku.Yourmom wi llbedi sappointed;
yesbutshe’ snotper fect
,shehady ouwhenshe
was20y earsol dandwasst i
l
l t
ryi
ngt oget
throughv arsi
ty.Atleastyouar edonewi th
school andIknowf orafactthatt hose
sculpturesar egoingt osellandy ouwi l
lopenup
thatgaller yofyoursandst i
llmanaget or ai
sean
amazi ngbaby .Chil
drenareabl essi ng
Yandiswa, nomat terwhent heycomei nt
oy our
l
ifeit’
snev erami stake.
Me:
eveni
fthechi
l
disone
Ama:yourgrandmotheri
sri
ght
.Thisbabyyou
ar
ecarry
ingisablessi
ngdespi
tethe
ci
rcumstancesheorshecamein.It
’sst
il
la
bl
essi
ng.
Gran:l
ookatt
heti
me.Youneedt
opr
epar
e
befor
ewegetlat
e
Justthenmyphoner angandMrs.Besshanded
i
ttome.I twasMelo…Justgreat
,it
’sl
ikehecan
sensewhenI ’
m notok.
/
/Me:
hey
Hi
m:heyNi
nowher
ear
eyou?
Me:
sti
l
lcoopedupi
nmyr
oom
Him:why?What
’swr
ong?Ar
eyouony
our
peri
ods?
Ichuckl
ed.OhMel
othou
Me:
Iwi
sh.What
’swr
ong?
Hi
m:I
’
m wai
ti
ngf
ory
oudownst
air
sandsoi
s
y
ourmom andf
ri
ends
Me:Asemahl
edoesn’
thappent
obet
her
ewi
th
your
ight
?
Hi
m:she’
sri
ghtnextt
ome
Me:
pleaset
ell
hert
ocomeupst
air
s
Hi
m:i
sev
ery
thi
ngok?
Me:
I’
ll
tel
lyoul
ateronok?
Hi
m: howcanInotwor
rywheny
ouspeakl
i
ke
t
hat?
Me:
honeyI
’
mfi
ne
Isaideyei
ngmygrandmother
.I’
daskLedi
to
comebutIdon’twantoneofherl
ectur
esj
ust
yet.Shewon’
tevenhol
dbackthatone.
Hi
m:I
’
m comi
ng
Me:
Mel
o
Hi
m:I
’
m comi
ngupYandi
swa/
/
Justgr
eat
!Justper
fect
.WHY?
???Gr
anandMr
s.
Bessexcusedthemselvesandleftmyroom and
Igotuptogetdressed.Mydresslookedpret
ty
that
’sf
orsure.Heandhi ssi
sterwalkedi
njust
asIwaswear i
ngmyshoes.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Thisisonet hingI ’
venot i
cedaboutYay a; when
shedoesn’ twantal ect ureshecallsAsemahl e
becauseshedoesn’ tputt hewordstoher
brutal
lyasNal edi woul d.Yesshelov esherbest
fr
iendbutLedi doesn’ thav ewhatonewoul dcall
asensi t
iveappr oacht ospar eyourfeelingsso
ofcauseIwaswor r
ied.Whati fsheregr ets
sayingYest omeandsheneedsmysi st erto
conv i
nceherot herwi se?AseandIwal kedt othe
el
ev atorandmom andhergr andmot herwal ked
outofi t
,wedi dn’tsaymucht oeachot herso
wej ustpressedherf loorandwentt oherr oom.
Weknockedonceandt henwalkedin.Shewas
l
ooki ngathersel
finthemirroradmir
ingher
dresswhi chsatperf
ectl
yonherbody .Itwas
sli
ght l
ybelowthekneeandhel dherboobsup
perfectl
ybutwasopenf rom thewaistdown,
thoseBonangki ndofdresseswi t
hapai rofr
ed
bottom heels.
Ase:
honeyi
sev
ery
thi
ngok?
Me:
letmehel
pyouwi
tht
hat
Isaidkneeli
nginfrontofhert obuckleupher
shoeandshesmi l
edf aint
ly.Hereyeswere
sl
ightl
yredlikeshehadbeencr yi
ngandshe
didn’
thaveanymakeupon.Shewasst il
l
beauti
fulbutitdi
dn’tstopmef rom worryi
ng
abouther.Shewascr y i
ngforHeav ensake!
Yay
a:I
’
mfi
ne…Ineedmymakeupr
edone
Me:
Maf
akut
alkt
omepl
ease
Ase:
comesi
tov
erher
e
Shesaidpointi
ngatachai
rinfrontoft
he
dressi
ngtable.Shest
oodi
nf r
ontofherwit
h
hermakeupkit.Mysist
erisforeverr
eadywit
h
hermakeupkitandfunnyenoughhermot her
doesn’
tputonmuchmakeup, mom onlydoes
l
ipst
ickandtheresti
sallnat
ural.
Yay
a:t
hanky
ouAse
Me:
you’
vebeencr
ying
Yay
a:gr
angav
eahear
twar
mingspeech
Me:
right
Her
:don’
tworr
yI’
m nothavi
nganysecond
t
hought
saboutmarr
yingyouMelo.
Me:
ify
ousayso
Icouldn’tshakei toff.Iwaswor riedabouther
andt hat’
st hat.Igotat extt elli
ngmet oavail
my selfi
nt hegr aduationhal l.Thehot elwewer e
i
nwasn’ tf
arf rom theuni versi t
y,itwasa
walkingdist ance.Ileftthet wodoi ngthei
rthi
ng
andIt ookmyspeechf r
om t hecarandheaded
totheuni versit
y.Theev eningwentokandI
won’tlieIwasn’ tenjoy i
ngmy selfasIshould
becauseIcoul dn’
tshakeseeingYay ali
kethat
earl
ieronandshewasn’ ttoohypedoutabout
todayasshewast hismor ni
ng.Allofher
sculptur
essol dtothehighestbi
ddersand
somear tbuy eroff
eredherajobt hi
ssideso
basicall
ytodaywentasexpect edIguess.We
wentt ocelebrat
eandt hensheandIwentback
tomyhot elr
oom lateron.Shestoodinfrontof
meandl oosenedmyt i
e.
Me:
sowhat
’sony
ourmi
nd?
Her
:I’
m pr
egnant
Shesaidt hatpul
li
ngmyt i
eof fandlooseni
ng
thefir
stbuttonofmyshi r
t.Iwon’tl
i
et hi
swas
thri
l
li
ngf orme.may bethebabycameal i
ttl
e
toosoonseei ngthatKyleisstil
ltwobutatthe
samet imewenotr eadyforababybutI ’
m glad
thatshewashav i
ngourbaby .Icuppedherf ace
andmadeherl ookupatmeandshehadt ears
onhercheeks.
Me:
pleasedon’
tcr
yNi
no
ShejustwailedevenmoreandIpul l
edherto
mychestandki ssedherhead.Thiswas
di
fferentfr
om whenKatetoldmeshewas
pregnant.Iwasfeel
ingt
hingsIdidn’
tfeel
with
KateandImosdefwasnott hisexci
tedaboutit
.
Me:
Ninowehav
ingababy
.OURbaby
Her
:I’
m notr
eadyf
orababyMel
o.
Me:
IknowNi
no.Iknow
Ikissedthetopofherheadwi thhercrying.
Nor mall
ysexsolvesalotofthingswher eshe
andIar econcernedbutnotthistime.Idoubt
thi
sonewasgoi ngtobesol v
edbysex.Il edus
tothebedandshecr i
edonmychestwhi ch
broughttearstomyey es.Idon’tl
ikeseeingmy
gir
lfri
endli
kethisandwhat ’
swor seisthatI
don’tevenknowwhatt hehelltosayt oher.
Me:
it’
snotsuchabadt
hing
Her
:mymom wi
l
lbesodi
sappoi
nted
Me:
howf
arar
ewe?
Her
:Idon’
tknow.
Me:
howdi
dyouf
indout
?
Her:Khul
u’
sbeennoti
cingsomechangesi
nmy
bodyandtodaysheboughtmeatest
Ichuckled.Hergr andmotherhaszer ochil
l.She
andIgetal ongv erywell
byt heway .She
actuall
ygav emeherbl essingwhenshesaw
theringhangi ngaroundYay a’
sneckandshe
toldmest raightupnottoscr ewitupandnott o
elopewithhergr andbaby.Ithinkit
’ssafetosay
shelikesmemor ethanYaya’smom does.She
andIev ent alkonthephoneatt imes,that
’s
howcl osewehav ebecome.
Me:
ncoooh
Her
:Mel
oI’
m ser
ious
Me:
andI
’
m happy
Her
:why
?
Me:becausemydream i
scomingt
rue.I
’
m
hav
ingababywit
ht hel
oveofmyli
fe
Iki
ssedt
het
opofherhead.Shel
ookedupat
me
Her
:real
l
y?
Me:
I’
ll
doev
ery
thi
ngt
radi
ti
onal
l
yifneedbe
Her
:obv
iousl
y.Yougonnahavetopayfor
maki
ngmepr egnantandt
henI’
m sur
ethe
l
obol
awon’tbecheap
Me:andI
’
m wil
l
ingtopaywhatev
erIhaveto.
I
’v
ebeensav
ingfr
om sincewestar
teddat
ing
Sher
aisedaney
ebr
ow
Me: don’
tgi
vemethatl
ook.I
’v
ealwaysknown
thatthi
sdaywoul
dcome,I’
mjustshockedi
t
camel at
ert
hanearl
i
er
Shehi
tmychest
Her
:you’
reani
diot
Me:andyoul
ovet
hisi
diotandy
ouar
ecar
ryi
ng
t
hisi
diot
sbaby
Shesmi
l
edmaki
ngmesmi
l
etoo.Ineededt
o
seethatsmi
l
e.Shewassocut
ewi
thherpuf
fy
pinkeyes
Me:
yousocut
e
Her
:st
opf
li
rt
ingwi
thme.
Me:
youmybabymama
Her
:don’
tputi
tli
ket
hat
.Pl
easedon’
t
Me:fi
nemami .Yougonnamaket hehottest
mom ever,
Iwill
spoil
youforaslongasIl i
ve
andIourbabywill
neverneedanythi
ng.Isure
hopei
t’
sagi r
l
Her
:why
?
Me:becauseIwanthert
olookj
ustl
i
key
ou.My
l
it
tl
enino
Her
:ri
ght
.
Wespokeunt i
lIwastal
ki
ngt omy sel
f.I
changedoutofmysuitbecauseitwasreal
ly
notcomfort
abletosl
eepinandsoIt ookYaya’
s
dressof
ftoobecauseI’
m sureshewasn’t
comfortabletooi nthedressandmadeher
wearoneofmyt -shi
rtsandpulledhercloseto
mychest .Iloveherandourl it
tleoneandt his
doesn’
tchanget hewayIf eelabouthernor
doesitmakemequest i
onherbecauseIknow
shewillmakeanamazi ngmot hertoourlit
tl
e
oneasshehasbeent oKyleandAni t
a’schil
d,
soI’
m notwor riedev enthouthesituati
onwi t
h
hermot herwor riesmemost .Wi t
hthewayshe
i
sscaredofdi sappoi nti
ngMissGxabaI ’
m
worri
edshemi ghtnotev enmakei ttofullt
erm.
Iam compl etelywor riedaboutthewayshei s
str
essingaboutt his.
.
.
-
Yay
a
“…..
soifI’
m dr
eaming,
pleasedon’
twakemeup.
Ifal
lofthi
sishappeni
nginmyhead.Wai t
edfor
solong.Butwhatyougotisdi
ffer
enthadmeso
addict
edfrom t
hestar
t.BoyI’
dneverknown,
all
t
heshi
i
tthatIwasmissi
ngifIhadn’
tworked
mywayint
oyourhear
t.Yougivemev er
ti
go…..
”
Idon’ tthinkthere’sasongt hatcoul ddescr ibe
thewayIwasf eelingl i
keVer ti
gobyJason
Der uloandJor danSpar ks.Iwaswokenupby
Mel osingi ngtheJasonDer ulo’sf ir
stv erseof
Ver ti
goasIsl eptinhi sar msonhi schest ,i
nmy
mi ndJor dan’sl yr
icswer eplayi
ngonr epeat .
FuckIcoul dgetusedt owaki ngupl i
ket his.I
j
ustkeptqui etandpr etendedt obesl eepi ng
becausei fheknowsI ’m awaket henhe’ l
l stop
singing.Myguyhadv oicef orday s,John
Legendai ntgotnot hingonhi m Iswear .Iwas
wear inghi st-
shi r
tandhewasonl ywear ing
briefs,Idon’tev enknowwhenwef eelasl eepor
howhechangedmeoutofmydr ess.Il ov ehow
hehandl edthenewsev ent houIwasacr ybaby
aboutt hem andwedi dn’ tevenhav esexl ast
night.Ilov ethathedi dn’ teveni niti
ateit ,Ididn’
t
needsexy esterday ,Ijustneededt obei nhi s
armsandbei ngi nhi sar msact uallywor kedand
mademefeel
bet
ter
.Canamanbemor
elov
ing
t
hanMel
o?
.
.
<3
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15,
16:
39]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E13
***
“…Ijustwanna.Showy ouhowmuchI
appreci
atey ou,wannashowy ouhowmuchI ’m
dedicat
edt oyou,wannashowy ouhowmuch
yougoty ourgirlf
eel
inggood, wannashowy ou
howmuchhowmuchy ouunderstood,wanna
showy ouhowmuchi twil
lfor
everbey ou,
wannashowy ouhowmuchIv al
uewhaty ou
say.Notonlyar eyouloyal
,youpat i
entwithme
babe.wannashowy ouhowmuchIr eall
ycare
aboutyourheart,wannashowy ouhowmuchI
hatebei
ngapar t……Iwannakeepi thowiti
s,
youcannev ersayhowi tusedt
obe…” *
**
-
Yay
a
Idon’tt
hinkt herewasev eranythingbetterthan
wakingupnextt oMeloespeci al
lybeinga
graduateandal landalsoonewhosol dal lof
hersculptur
esandpi cturesyesterday.Tosay
theveryleast,I’
m pr
oudofmy selfdespitewhat
i
sgr owinginsideofmeandhav i
ngt obreakt he
newst omymom.Atl eastmygr andmotherhas
myback.If inall
ydeci
dedt oopenmyey esand
l
ookupathi m andhef lashedmeasmi le.
Hi
m:mor
ningNi
no
Me:
mor
ningbabe
Hi
m:howdi
dmyt
wof
avor
it
egi
rl
ssl
eep?
Me:
fav
ori
tegi
rl
s?
Hi
m:y
oucar
ryi
ngmybabygi
rl
Me:
say
swho?
Him:me…duh!Whoareyouhav
ingt
his
conv
ersat
ionwi
thkant
i?
Me:
scr
ewy
ouMel
okuhl
e
Ihithisbarechestandhechuckledandplant
ed
aki ssonmyl i
pswithhishandstroki
ngmyass.
Itfeltsodamngoodwhathewasdoi ng.He
broket heki
ssandt henst
areddeepinmyey es
Him:Ibookedusadoct
or’
sappoi
ntmentf
or
9am
Me:
whatt
imei
sit
?
Hi
m:i
tspast7chi
l
l.
Me:
howdi
dImi
ssmyal
arm?
Inormall
ydri
nki
ngmycontracept
ivesat7:
30am
butIguessIgot
tast
opnowt hatt
here’
s
someonegrowingi
nsideofme
Hi
m:Iswi
tchedi
tof
f.Youneedt
her
est
Me:
Iguess
Hi
m:speaki
ngofwhi
chy
ouneedt
ost
opt
aki
ng
t
hose
Me:
yeahIknow.I
’
m notababyMel
o
Hi
m:buty
oucar
ryi
ngmybaby
Me:
don’
tst
artwi
thmeBess.Notnowpl
ease
Hi
m:f
innnnemami
Hepl antedaki ssonmyheadandt henIgotup
offhimt obr ushmyt eet
handhewal kedinright
behindmeandt ookhi stoot hbrushand
brushedhi steetht oo.Whenwewer ebot hdone
wegoti ntot heshowerandhadaqui cki
eand
thendr i
edourbodi esandl otionedthem.Ist ood
i
nf rontofthemi rrorandj ustadmi redmybody ,
therewasn’ tanythingdifferenteit
hert hanmy
boobsbei ngper ky ,Ir
eal
lycoul dn’
tseet hi
s
weightgainmygr andmot herwasr ef err
ingto.
Hi
m:y
oust
il
ll
ookt
hesamet
hou
Me: exact
ly.Idon’tunderstandmygran
becausemycl ot
hesst i
ll
fitperf
ect
ly
Hi
m:ar
ghwe’
l
lseehowf
ary
ouar
etoday
Heki ssedmycheekandwor egr eyj ogger swi th
abl ackt -
shirtandabl acksneakerandIwor e
greyj oggingshor tswi thabl ackv estandanal l
-
blackai rmaxandwor eagr eyAdi dascap.I
l
ookedcut eandhet houghtsot oo.Wet ooka
fewpi ct
uresandt henIt ookmybagandwel eft
forthegy nea.Iwas3mont hspreggi es,
meani ngIfellpregnantsomet i
mei nFebr uary
seeingt hatitwasnowMay .Niggawashopi ng
foradaught erandIwant edason…Idon’ tknow
whyIwantaboy ,Ifindboy sf ascinat ingandt he
probl em withhav i
ngadaught ery out hinkoft he
thingsy ou’vebeent hroughbymenandy ou
don’ twanty ourdaught ert ogot hr ought he
same.Ipr ayshenev ermeet samanl i
keher
father …ifwehav eadaught er.Ilov eMel oand
hehaschangedbutl ookingbackonev ery t
hing
we’ vebeent hroughIdon’ tthinkIwantmybaby
togot hroughanyoft heshi itMel ohasputme
throughshame.Wewentt ogogr abbr eakfast
anddaddydear estwasv eryexci tedabout
seei
ngthesonogram heev entookapict
ureof
i
tandmadei thi
sprofil
epictureonWhatsApp…
Idon’
tevenunderst
andt heexcit
ementmna
seei
ngthatImightj
ustbet hrownoutofmy
homebackinMt hat
ha.
Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine
Me:
yousayt
hatnow
Him:lookatme…itdoesn’
tmat
terwhat
happens,yougotmeandyouhaveyourgr
an
Me:
butIst
il
lneedmymot
herMel
o
Hi
m:Iunder
standt
hatYay
a
Me:
sowhathappensnow?Wi
thwor
kandal
l
Hi
m: Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
out
hat
.Ar
eyougoi
ng
t
otaket hej
ob?
Me:Ican’
ttaket
hej
obher
eMel
o.Iwant
somethi
ngofmyown
Him:woulditbesobadtoworkf
orsomeone
unti
lyourgal
ler
yiscompl
ete?
Me:nobutI’
m pr egnantandIdoubtMr.St
ell
er
wantsapregnantgirlworki
nginhisGal
ler
y
scar
ingthecustomer sawaywithatemper
tant
rum
Hi
m:oksot
ell
mewhatt
hepl
ani
s
Me:Idon’
tknow…I’
l
lgohomeandseewhat
happenswhenI’
mther
e
Hi
m:andy
ourgal
l
ery
?Wher
edoy
ouwanti
t?
Me:Iwashopi
ngtoliv
einJoburgorCapeTown
whenIcamebackfrom t
hestat
es.Wellt
hat
wasmyplanbefor
epregnancy
Him:oksoI’
llTalkt
oYanaandseei ft
hereare
anysit
esavai
lablet
obuil
dt hi
splaceofy our
s
andthenwe’l
ltakei
tfr
om there.Woulditbeso
badtoli
vei
nDur banunti
lthegall
erymakes
enoughmoney
Me: Iguessbei
nginDur bani
sconv
enient
accommodat i
onwi se.ButMel
oIwanttopay
formyownGal ler
y
Hi
m:Ya…
Me:no.Youal
readyboughtmeacar
,letmedo
t
hisonmyownpl ease.Letmegr
ow
Him:f
inethen.Hav
eityourwaybuti
fyouneed
hel
pwithanythi
ng,t
ell
meok?
Me:
ofcause
Hi
m:okcool
then.
Wef i
nishedeat i
ngandheset tledthebilland
wewentbackt othehot el.Lat eronwewentout
forlunchwi t
ht hewhol efami l
y .Wewer egoi ng
toleav ethest atesnextweekendbecauseMel o
hadsomebusi nesstotakecar eoffandIst il
l
want edt ospendal i
ttl
et i
mewi thmyf ri
ends.I
wasgoi ngt otellmom whenIgotbackt o
Mt hatha.IknowIshoul dn’ tbehi di
ngt hi
sor
procrast i
natingtheinevitabl ebutIneedsome
ti
met opr ocessal l
ofit.Mr s.Besswasbey ond
wor dsexci t
edandhi ssister swer eyettof i
nd
outandmyf r
iendstoodi dn’ tknowshi it
.
Theparentshadleftandt
hingswer ebackto
normalIguess.IwasinMelo’sapartment
makingsomet hi
ngtoeatwhenAsemahl e
knockedonthedoorandletherselfinfol
l
owed
byLedi.Wegreetedeachotherandt henthey
satonthehighchairswat
chingmemakeus
somethingtoeat.
Ledi
:sowhat
’st
hebi
gnews?
Ase:
yeahwhatar
en’
tyout
ell
i
ngus?
Me:Ledi
needstopromi
seshewon’tgoall
Dr
Gxabaonmelikeshedi
dthatot
heryear
AseandIl
ookedatLediandshesi
ghedand
sai
dshepr
omi sesnott
ooverr
eact
.
Ledi
:nowt
ell
usal
ready
Itookoutt
hesonarandpl
acedi
tinf
rontof
them.
Ase:
whati
sthi
s?Whatdoest
hismean?
Ledi
:wai
t.Youpr
egnant
?
Inoddedmyheadsl owl
ytry
ingtoreadher
expressionandshedidn’
tgiveawayanythi
ng.
Likehermot her
,Asemahlewasallsmil
esand
allexci
ted
Ase:I
’m goingtobeanauntagain.I’
mthe
Godmot herri
ght?Actual
l
yit
’snotevena
quest
ion.Youcar r
yingmytwinsbabyso
obvi
ously
Me:
ledi
?
Ledi
:wow.Congr
atzmyf
ri
end
Me:
doy
oumeant
hatory
ouj
ustsay
ingt
hat
?
Sheputthesonardownandtookmyhandsi
nto
her
sandl ookedmeinmyeyeswit
ha
comfor
ti
ngsmi le
Ledi:myfri
endy ou’
returning21,
you’
ve
graduat
edandy ouar egoingtostar
tbuil
ding
yourgall
erysoon.DudeI ’
m proudofyou.You
haveaccompl i
shedal otforsomeoneyourage
plusyourmanador esy ouandheputar i
ngonit
sowhywouldIj
udge?Youar
esortedandy
ou
ar
ehappyandthatmakesmehappy.
Me:
ohmyf
ri
end
Ase:wow.Whathashappenedt
oyou?Di
dyou
hi
tyourhead?
Ledi
:shutup
Shecamear oundthecounterandpull
edme
i
ntoherar msandhuggedmet i
ghtl
y.OhGodI
neededthis.Onelesspersontowor r
yabout
.
Nowcomeshomeandpr ett
ymuchev ery
thi
ng
el
se.Ifi
nishedmaki ngusfoodandt henweate
andduri
ngl unchIgotacallfrom mybaby
daddy/
fi
ancé.I twasTuesdayalready.
/
/Hi
m:heyhotmummy
Me:
Heydaddyhowar
eyou?
Hi
m:I
’
m goodandhowar
eyouguy
s?
Me:wegoodgood.I
’
m wi
thy
oursi
sterand
Nal
edi
Hi
m:great
.Ij
ustspoketoSerenaandAshand
t
heyonthei
rwaytheresogetdressedok
Me:
why
?Wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Hi
m: youl
ikeaski
ngquest
ions.Justget
dr
essedandthey’
llbet
her
ein10mi nut
esorso
Me:
Fine…
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
wel
ovey
out
oo
Hi
m: notmorethanIl
ovey
ouguy
s.Enj
oyt
he
r
estofyourdayok
Me:
thanky
ou.Yout
oo.By
e
Hi
m:by
e//
AfterthecallIwentt
ogetdr essedbecauseI
knowSer enaandshewi l
lbegivingmeahar d
ti
measi fIknewthattheywerecomi nghere.I
wasal mostdonewhensheandAshbar gedi
n
theroom whi l
eLedi,
AseandIwer ejustbusy
chatti
ngupast or
m asIgotdr essed.
Ser
:OhmyGod
Me:
What
?
Ser
:youpr
egnant
Me:
what
?
Ser
:I’
m agynae.IknowwhatI
’
mtal
ki
ngabout
.
Howfarareyou?
Me:
3mont
hsandaweek
Ash:
honeyt
hat
’samazi
ngnews
Theybot
hsquashedmewi
thahugIcoul
dn’
t
evenbr
eathe
Me:
guy
spl
ease.Ican’
tbr
eat
he
Ash:
wedon’
tcar
e.Youpr
egnant
Me:
yes,
notonmydeat
hbedsopl
ease
Ser
enaletgoandlookedatmewit
hpr et
ty
muchboredeyes.Icoul
dalr
eadyt
ell
whatshe
wasthi
nkingsoIgri
nnedandshej
ustlaughed
Ser
:Getdr
essedsowedon’
tgetl
ate
Me:
wherear
ewegoi
ngandwhatdoesi
thav
e
t
odowit
hMelo?
Ash:
itwoul
dn’
tbeasur
pri
sei
fwet
oldy
ounow.
Me:
ya’
l
lsuck.Am Idr
essedok?
Ase:per
fect
lydr
essednowcanwel
eav
e
al
ready.
Weleftandwewentt oaspaandwedi dour
mani’
sandpedi’s,massages,
sauna’
sand
st
eam rooms…t heworks.Whenwewer edoneI
wassor el
axedandsohappyIwasgl owi
ng.
Howdi dheknowIneededt hi
s?Ideci
dedtocal
l
hi
m.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Getti
ngYayatogetusedtotheideaofbeing
pregnantwasnotaneasyjobtodobutwehad
hergrandmotherandmymom doi ngt
heirbest
tomakesur ethatshe’
sokandshedoesn’tfal
l
i
ntosomesor tofdepr essionbecauseoft his
pregnancyandendupl osingt hebaby .Wet ook
i
tonedayatat imeandImadesur ethatshe
spendsasmucht i
mewi thherf riend’srat her
thanbei ngalonebecauset hatwoul dmakeher
gomad.Sher ej ectedthej obof ferandwe
agreedonherbui l
dinghergal l
eryi nDurban, of
causeIwasn’ tgoi ngtol etherdot hi
sher sel f
.
Wemanagedt ogetabui l
dingbi genoughand
mysi sterhadpeopl efi
xi tupsot hatshecan
j
usthav eitpai nt edanddoneasshepl eases
withit.I
twasanol dBESSbui ldi
ngwhi chmom
usedt ousef orhercompanybackwhenshe
wasj uststartingup.Af terwor kIwenthome
andwaswel comedbyt hesmel lofscent ed
candlesandt hesmel loff ood…Yay aisagr eat
cookbutshe’ snotonet ocookheav ymeal s…I
walkedi nandt herewer er osepet alsont he
fl
oorandt her oom wasdi mmedup, Ismi ledt o
my selfandf ollowedt het railofredandwhi te
petalsandf oundheri nt hel oungewear inga
shortsi
l
verdr ess,onet
hatwouldr evealherass
i
fshewer et obeddown.Istoodt her
eshook
andinanticipati
onofhersexyelongatedl egs
bytheheel shewaswear i
ngandherweav e
l
ooselyhangi ngonhershoulder
s.Shef l
ashed
measmi l
eandmetmehal fwayandpl anteda
ki
ssonmyl ips.
Her
:hel
l
oMi
ne
Me:
uhhm…Hi
Beaut
if
ul
Ili
terall
ycoul dn’tut t
erany t
hing.Shewasso
fuckingsexyIhadnowor dsforher .Shel edme
tothe4seat erdi nnert abl
ewehadi nthel ounge
andopenedt hechai rformeandt henIsat
downandshesatbesi demeandwel comedme
witht hatbeaut i
ful smileofherst hatmakesmy
daygobr i
ghter .WOW!Theonl ylightint he
room wast hatoft hecandlesbuti twasn’ tdar k
eit
her .Shedishedupf orusbot handt hen
servedmewi thredwi neandpour edher selfred
grapej ui
ce.Icoul dn’
thel pbutlaughather
Her
:it
’snotf
unnyDer
ri
ck
Me: i
t’
scut
e.Younotal
l
owedt
odr
inkf
ort
he
next6months
Her
:yes,
nowcanweeatpl
ease
Inoddedwi t
hasmi rkandshej ustignoredme.
weat eoverhertelli
ngmeaboutt heirspaday
andhowgr atefulseisofwhatIdi dandaf ter
dinnershetookmyhandandl edmeupt oour
room andsatmeont heedgeoft hebed.She
satont opofmeandl oosenedmyt ieslowlyas
i
fshewasst udyi
ngmeandt henshewentont o
unbuttonmyshi r
tunt i
l Iwasnakedonmyupper
body.Shestoodupandsl i
doutofherdr ess
anditfeelt
ot hefloor,underneathshewas
wearingwhitemat chingunder wear.
Me:
fuck!
Shesmi l
edandthengotontopofmeandt hen
shetookmyhandsandputt hem onmyass
whil
esheattackedmylipsandownedthem.
Herkisswashungrybutnottoor
ushedeit
her,
shewasgr indingonmemaki ngmegohar dby
thesecondwi thherhandst uggi ngmyhai r
whichhadgr own, herl i
pshadahi ntofmi nt.My
handskeptsqueez i
ngherassassher ockedon
meandswi rledont opofmemaki ngmef eelall
kindsofbl i
ss.Shebr oket hekissandl ooked
mei nt heey esandsmi led.Iwassohor nyI
couldn’tevenhel pmy self.Shepul ledmeupand
thensquat tedi nfrontofmet alkingmypant s
offandt henmybr iefs, shel ookedupatmeand
smi r
kedt henshepul l
edt hem downmaki ngmy
manhoodspr ingf r
eely .Shet ooki tinherhand
andt hencar essedi twi thherhott ongue.Yay a
givesameanbl owee, funnycauseI ’
mt heonly
guyshe’ sev erwentdownon…orsoshesay s
butIbel i
eveherbecauseshesay sLedi gave
herthet ri
cksandsecr et sofhowt o.Aftera
massi veexpl osionshecameupandweshar ed
akiss, Icouldt astemy sel fonherl i
psandt hen
shet hrewmeont hebedandshegotont opof
mest r
addlingbackandf ort
hwi thmyhands
taki
ngherli
nger
ieoffunti
lshewascompl
etel
y
nakedandthenshegotupal i
tt
letogi
vemea
bett
erentr
ancei
nhert i
ghtcakeandshet
ook
chargeofmeuntil
shecameandIcameaf ter
her.
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
16:
40]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E14-
Yay
a
***
“…I’
m missi
ngy ousomuch, can’thel
pitI’
m
i
nlove.Adaywi t
houtyouisli
keay earwithout
rai
n.Ineedyoubymysi de.Don’tknowhowI ’
ll
survi
ve.Adaywithouty
oui sl
ikeay earwithout
rai
n…”***
Wewer ebacki nSAandIwasal l
packedupand
readyt ogohome…l etmer ephraset hat, Iwas
goinghomebutIwasn’ treadyt ofacemom but
Ihadnochoi ce.Ideci dedt hatIwasgoi ngt ogo
homebyLedi ’scarbecausemom wi l
lpr obably
throwsomei nsultaboutt hecarandsaysome
stuffli
ke“ youwentonandgotpr egnant
becausey ouknewt hatthatboy fr
iendofy ours
hasal lthemoneyi nt hewor l
dandwi lldo
any t
hingf ory ou…y oumi ghtaswel l l
eav emy
houseandgobackt ohi m” …may beI ’
m
exagger ati
ngbutt rustmeIknowBabal wa
Gx abaandshei scapabl eofsay i
ngsuchand
notgi vi
ngadamnhowt hatwi l
lcomeacr ossto
youj ustasl ongasshehassai dwhatshef eel
s.
Mom i sadi fferentper sonwhenshei smador
disappoi nt
ed.Ledi wasgoi ngtoMt hathat oo
j
usti ncasemom doessomet hingliket hrowme
outshecoul dbeabl et ocomeandf etcht ogo
sleepatherpl ace.Iwasi nbedwi t
hMel o, he
sleptov eratmypl ace.He’ sbeenv erycl i
ngy
he’sl
ikeali
tt
ledogandi
t’
sst
art
ingt
oannoy
theshii
toutofme.
Me:
weneedt
owakeup
Hi
m:y
ousur
eIcan’
tcomewi
thy
ou
Me:youwantmymot
hert
othr
owmeoutwena
Iswear
Him:Ij
ustdon’
tfeel
comf
ort
abl
ejustsi
tt
ing
anddoi
ngnothi
ng
Iputmyhandonhi
scheekandhel
eanedi
non
myt ouch.
Me:I
’l
lbefi
ne.Ihavemygrandmat
obackme
upandeasethesit
uat
ion
Hi
m: Idon’tknowNi
no.What
’st
her
ightt
hingt
o
dotr
aditi
onally
?
Me:waitf
ormyf ami
lyt
ocomet
oyourfamil
yto
r
eportt
hepregnancy
.Havey
out
oldyourf
ather
yet
?
Hi
m:noty
et.Waspl
anni
ngont
ell
i
nghi
mtoday
Inodded
Hi
m: don’
twor
ryaboutmydad,
he’
sacool
whi
tedude
Me:yeahsuret
hatmakest
hesi
tuat
ionmuch
muchbetter
HechuckledandIj uststaredathimf ora
secondandt hent urnedmybackonhi m.He
can’
tbemaki ngjokesher eaboutthis.Whati
f
hisfat
hertel
lshimt odenyt hepregnancy?I
meanmyf ather’
sf athertol
dhimt odenymy
mom’ spregnancyandl ookathowt hatwent.
I’
m notcutoutt obeasi nglemother.
Hi
m:Maf
akupl
easel
ookatme
Me:
no
Hi
m:I
’
m sor
ryNi
no.Pl
easej
ustl
ookatme
Me:
noMel
o.Pl
easej
ustl
eav
e
Him:uy
aphambanakengoku(
nowy
ouj
ust
bei
ngcrazy
)
Igotoutofthebedandwalkedt
othebat
hroom
andhefoll
owedmeandcl osedt
hedoorbehi
nd
hi
m.
Him:Iknowyouscaredthatthesamethi
ngt hat
happenedtoyourmothermighthappent
oy ou
andIguarant
eeyouitwon’t
.IloveyouMafaku
wam andIwouldneverdenymyownhei r
Me: Meloyoucomef rom SA’sri
chestfamil
y
andI’mjustaregul
argir
lraisedbyasingle
parent
.I’
m nodiff
erentfr
om Kate.Youonce
thr
eatenedtotakeKylefr
om hismot her.Who’
s
tosaythesamewon’ thappenagain?
Hehel
dmebymyshoul
der
sandl
ookedatme
i
ntheeyes.
Him:Iwoul
dneverdot
hatt
oyouYandi
swaand
youknowthat
.
Me:buty
oul
etyourf
atherdeci
defory
ouand
Kat
eonwhatt
odowi t
hy ourchi
ldMel
o
Hi
m:t
hati
sint
hepastandt
hear
rangement
wor kedoutperf
ectl
ydi
dn’ti
t?Mafakuyou
stressi
ngovernothi
ng.Docsaidyouneedto
takeiteasyfort
henextcoupleofdays
Ihuffedandhej ustpull
edmetohi m andkissed
myf oreheadandt henwewentt oshowerand
thenbr ushedourteethandwalkedoutofthe
bathroom bothdryingourbodi
es.Iwrappeda
towel aroundmybodyandt henwentt ocheck
onLedi andshewasdonewashi ngtoojust
aboutt oloti
onherbody.
Her
:youok?
Me:I’
m scar
ed.Idon’
tev
enknowwher
eIam
goi
ngtostartwi
thall
ofthi
s
Her:
tel
lheraty
ourgrandma’
shouset
hatway
shewon’
tdoanythi
ngtoyou
Webothlaughed.Webot hknowt hatmom can
beali
tt
leweakundermygr andmother’
sroof.
Shewil
lbemadatmef ordroppingthebomb
onheri
nhermot her’
spresencebecausethen
shewouldn’
tbeabletotell
meexact lywhatshe
f
eel
scausesher
espect
sgr
ant
oomuch.
Me:verysmar
tLedi
andt
henIhav
etodeal
wit
h
heral
onewhenwegohome
Her
:atl
eastshewon’
twhoopy
ourass
Me:
wedon’
tknowt
hatey
Her:didhermotherhitherwhenshegot
pregnant?Exact
lymypoi ntbecauseit
’snot
ri
ghttohitapregnantwoman.DoesMel o’
s
mom st i
l
l hav
eherhousei nMy ezo?
Me:
Idon’
tknow…It
hinkso
Her:Iwouldsuggestt hatMeloandhisparent
s
got oMthathaforacoupl eofdaystohandle
themat t
er.Idon’tseeyouruncl
eand
grandparentsfl
yi
ngt oDurbantoreportt
he
pregnancy.Youknowy ourf
amily
Isortof
,ki
ndofam regar
dedasr oy
alt
y.Pl
ease
notethesortofandki
ndof.Mycousinist
he
chi
efinNgqeleni,
wheremyrural
areasare
basedbutthat’
snotsomethi
ngIgoaround
tel
lingeveryone.Soy eaht hat’sme…asor tof
pri
ncess…t heeldersofmyf amilyarehard
headedpeopl e,whenmyauntwasgoi ngtoget
mar ri
edt heywant edhertol eavethecar
becauseaccor dingtothem itbelongst othe
Gx aba’ssincesheboughti tbeforegetti
ng
mar ri
edandmyauntbei ngj ustashardheaded
ast hem shet oldthem thatifsheleavesthecar
thent heywi l
ltakecareoft heinstal
lmentsof
theAudi andt hat’swhent heyjustletherbe
becauseAudi i
sexpensivel i
kethat…
Me:yohdudeandy
ouknowt
hem.Thel
ect
ures
I
’l
lbeget
ti
ngdude
Icoveredmyf aceandshejustpul
l
edmeinfor
ahugandt henshebr okei
t.Wespokeal
it
tl
e
mor ebeforeIr et
urnedtomyroom.Mel
owas
alr
eadydr essed.
Me:
Idi
dn’
treal
i
zeIt
ookt
hatl
ong
Hi
m:y
eahy
ouandLedi
cant
alk
Me:
Iknow.Iseey
oumadet
hebed
Hi
m:don’
tst
artwi
thmepl
ease
Me:
I’
mimpr
essedt
hat
’sal
l
Hi
m:r
ight
.
Wespokeal i
tt
leandthenIwor esweatpants
andav estwit
hawhi t
epumaandt hen
accompaniedhimt ohiscar.Iaskedhim about
theMy ezothi
ngandhet oldmet hathisuncle
Aluncedoli
vedtherewithhiswifeKarenbuthis
mom woul dn’
tmindthet r
avels.
Ledi droppedmeof fatmygr andmot her’
s
houseandt hehousewasqui et.Butthenagain
that’
showi tnor
mal lyiswheni tsschoolti
me,
theonl ypeoplethatwer et
her ewasmycousi n
andt he2l i
ttl
eonest hatwerei ngrade6;my
aunt’skids.Mygr andmawasi nherr oom
readinghernewspaperandsi si wasinthe
kit
chencooki ngdi nnerandthel i
tt
leoneswer e
doingt hei
rhomewor k’
sinthel oungeandmy
cousinwasatwor k.Welefti
nt heear l
yhoursof
mor ningaround7andgothomear ound2.Ledi
greet
edandshespental i
tt
let
imei nthehouse
andleftat3:
30pm orso.Ihadact ual
l
ygained
somewei ghtovertheweekandt heli
ttl
edays
wewer einDurban.Grannycal
ledmet oher
room.
Her:
sohowar
eyou?How’
spr
egnancyt
reat
ing
you?
Me:
okIguess.Idon’
tknowhowt
oanswert
hat
Her
:youwi
llbef
ine.Oncey
ouaccepti
t,t
he
j
our
neywil
lbeamazing
Me:
yeahandmom wi
l
lbemadatme
Her
:ar
ghBabal
wawi
l
lgetov
eri
tev
ent
ual
l
y
Me:
whati
fsheki
cksmeout
?
Her
:thenyouwil
lcomest
aywi
thme.Hav
eyou
t
houghtaboutwork?
Me:wellIhav
eabuil
dingf
ormygal
l
erybuti
t
needssomef i
xi
ngup
Her
:dot
ell
mei
fyouneedhel
pok
Me:
ohgr
annyIcan’
tdot
hatt
oyou
Her
: youmygr andchi
l
d.I
fyouneedsomethi
ngI
am herefory
ou.Sowhatareyouandthatboy
goi
ngt odo?
Ishr
ugged
Her
:howdoy
ouf
eel
abouthi
m pay
ingl
obol
a?
Me:t
oosoon.Mom doesn’
tev
enknowIsai
d
yesy
et
Her
:ohwel
l
Me:
whatdoy
oumean“
ohwel
l
”?
Her:
he’sthi
nkingofpayi
ngl
obol
aforyou…a
l
ett
erwasbr oughtbysomeguyAl
uncedoor
somethi
ngalongthoseli
nes
Me:
that
’shi
suncl
e
Her
:yest
hat
’swhathesai
d
Me:
whendi
dhebr
ingt
hisl
ett
er?
Her
:thi
smor
ning
Ibur
iedmyf
aceinmyhands.Idon’
tunder
stand
ther
ushkuMel
okuhl
e.
Her:
what
?Don’
tyouwantt
omar
ryt
heboy
kant
i?
Me:
IdobutIdon’
tunder
standt
her
ushKhul
u
Her:t
hattummyi snotgett
inganysmal
lerand
nei
therar
ey ou.Yourmotheri
sadoctor
,it’
s
onl
yamat terofti
mebeforeshenoti
ces
Me:yohhay
iKhul
umeI
’
m notr
eadyf
oral
lof
t
his
Her
:theny
oushoul
dhav
eusedacondom t
hen
Shechuckl
ed.JesusChri
stthi
swoman, no
wonderherandMelogetalongsowell
.They
l
aughevenwhent hesi
tuat
iondoesn’
trequi
re
l
aughter
Her
:sodi
dyouv
isi
tthedoct
or?
Me:
3mont
hsand2weeksKhul
u
Her
:andpr
essur
e?
Me:
itsok
Her:
stopstressi
ng.Iwantthatgr
eatgr
andchi
l
d.
Iam notget
tinganyyounger
Me:
I’
mt r
ying.I
’
llbef
ineonceIknowhowmom
f
eel
saboutthewholesi
tuat
ion
Her
:Wecancal
lhert
ocomehomenow
Me:
Idon’
tthi
nkI
’
mreadyt
ofaceher
Her:Yandi
swayoucan’trunawayfrom t
hisany
l
onger.Shewil
lfi
ndouteitherwayandIwould
r
athersheheari
tfrom youinst
ead
Me:
eishokkhul
u
Her:
gorest
,I’
m sureyout
ir
ed.Wewi
l
ltal
k
whenyourmotherget
shere
Inoddedandgotwasaboutt owalkoutwhen
shecall
edmet osl eeponherbedi nstead.
SometimesIswearI ’m herfavor
it
egrandchil
d,
thewayshetreatsmei sjustl
ovel
y…butt hen
agai
nIwast hef i
rstgrandchil
dsheev ermet
andIwaspracticall
yraisedbyher(that’
sa
storyforanotherday).Icall
edMel ofi
rstand
toldhim Igothomesaf elyandt hedudewas
goingonabouthowhemi ssedmeal readyand
wishedIwasbacki nDur ban.Saysaday
withoutmei sli
keay earwi thoutrain…seewhat
Imeanaboutcl i
ngy?Iwaswokenupbymy
mom, whenIcheckedt het i
mei twaspast7
andt heywereeat i
ngsupper .Wecaughtupov er
supperandt henwhenwewer eaboutt oleave
grancalledsheandIt oherr oom forthetalk.
Khul
u:ther
e’snoeasi
erwaytotel
lyouthi
s
Babal
wa.Yandiswais14weekspregnant
Iwasl
ooki
ngdownt
hiswhol
eti
me.
Mom:
excuseme?
Khulu:
nowIknowy outwohadsomedeal
aboutschool
andstuf
f.Iknowyou
di
sappoint
edbutwhat’
sdoneisdoneandwe
needtoworkonawayf orwar
d
Mom:
Yandi
swaumi
thi
?(Youpr
egnant
?)
Me:
yes,
Ma
Mom:
sowhat
’sy
ourpl
annow?
Khulu:Babal
wacalm down.Youwer
emuch
youngerthanherwhenyouhadher
Mom: yes,butthatdidn’
tmeanshehadt ogo
onandexper i
ment .Ibeggedyouandpleaded
withyouwheny oul eftf
orDurbannottomake
thesamemi stakesImadewhenIgott ovarsi
ty
buthereyouarepr egnantandwithoutaj
ob.
If
eltt
ear
str
ickl
i
ng
Khulu:Babal
wat hatisnowayt otalktothe
chi
ld.Shemadeani nnocentmistakeandthis
boyofhersistakingresponsibi
li
tyforhi
s
act
ions.Noteverymanoutt her
eislikeThando,
Meloisoneoft hegoodones
Mom:
I’
mreal
l
ydi
sappoi
ntedi
nyoumybaby
Me:
mom I
’
m sor
ry
Her:
sorr
ydoesn’
tchangeany
thing.Seei
ngthat
youseeyour
sel
fasawoman, youony ourown
f
rom her
eon.
Me:
Mamapl
ease
Khul
u:Babal
wal
etsber
ati
onal
aboutt
his
Mom: ifshecansayy estomarr
iagewi
thout
consult
ingmeandt hengoonandgetpr egnant
thenshedoesn’ tneedmemosMa.Yandi swa
hasdisrespectedmeenoughal li
nthenameof
herloveforthi
soneboy .shemi
ghtaswel l
be
l
ivingwithhim
Khul u:Iwon’thavesuch.I fyoudon’
twanther
thenshewi l
lli
vewi thme.att heendoft hedayI
raisedherandIknowherwaybet t
erthany ou
everwi ll
.Yandiswahasdonesomanyt hingst
o
pleasey ou,she’slivedherwholeli
fetomake
youhappyandt henshemakesonemi stake,
onehumanl ymi stakeandy ousuddenlyt hr
ow
hert othewol ves?Itdoesn’tworkli
kethat
Babal wa.Thisisachi ldandshemadean
i
nnocentmi stakeandsheneedsy ounowmor e
thanev er.
Ijustsattherenotknowi ngwhattosay.Icould
feelmyt emper atur
eri
singbyt heminut
e.My
heartwasbeat ingsohar dalmostasthouit
want edtojumpoutofmychestandt hepain
waspai nfulandunbearable.Iputmyhandr i
ght
wher ethepainwasbutnot hi
nghappened.I
couldheart hem gobackandf orthaboutal
lof
thisandt henthenextthingIknewitmyv i
sion
gotbl ur
ryandIf ell
tot
hef loor
.
.
.
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15,
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THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E15-Mel
o
***
“…Sunl
i
ghtcomescreepi
ngi
n,i
l
luminates
ourski
n.Wewatchedt
hedaygoby,st
oriesof
allwedid,i
tmademet hinkofy ou….Let’
sgo
down, i
nthemomentwel ostandf ound;
Ijust
wannabebyy oursi
de,ifthesewi ngscouldfl
y.
Damnt hesewounds, i
nt hemomentwet enfeet
tal
landhowy outol
dmey ourdirt
y ……Forthe
restofourl
ives…”**
*
Idroveovertomypar ent’
splace.Imissedher
alr
eady,IknowitsmessedbutIwasmadl yin
l
ov ewit
hYay aj
ustbeingawayf r
om herforthis
l
itt
lewhilewasenought odri
v emecr azy.Igot
totheyardandparkedmycari nfrontofthe
garageandgotoutandwenti nsi
de.Iwas
welcomedhomebyl it
tl
eKy l
e’snoisewhom I
metwhenIopenedt hekit
chendoor ,hewas
beingchasedaroundbyAsemahl eandhewas
l
aughinguncontrol
labl
y.Mysonwasabr eathof
fr
eshairandheandYay agotalongsowel l
you
wouldswearhewasher s.
Me:
heyl
i
ttl
eguy
Isai
dpi
cki
nghi
m
Ase:yeeeyi
youher e.Youcangethi
mtoeat
,
yoursonistroubl
esome
Kyl
ejustgi
ggl
edandhi
dhimselfonmychest
,
hewassoadorabl
eandhelookedjustl
i
keme.
Me:he’
snott
hatbad,
I’
m sur
ehe’
sbet
tert
han
youwer
e
Shestuckhertongueoutandthrewaswabat
meandwej ustl
aughedather.Wewal
kedto
thel
oungeandcar toonswerepl
ayi
ng…I’
m sur
e
i
twasKy le’
schoiceofcause.
Me:
wher
e’smom anddad?
Her
:int
hei
rroom…y
ouknowhowt
heyar
e
Me:
ofcause…st
il
ltheear
lyhour
sofmor
ning
ShelaughedandsodidI.j
ustdadwal
kedi
n
dressedi
nahispjayshort
sandnothi
ngontop
Hi
m:mor
ningki
ds
Ky
le:
grandpa
Hesai
dget
ti
ngof
fmeandr
unni
ngt
odad…
uwoahuy aphaphalo.Mysonwasveryfondof
myparentsandt heylov
edhi
m backevenmore.
Dadpickedhim up
Me:morni
ng.Don’
twewearcl
othesi
nthi
s
houseany
more
Dad:
inwhosehouseagai
n?
Ase:
yout
ell
him dad
Dad:
whenIwasy
ourageIal
readyhadahouse
ofmyown
Ir
oll
edmyey
es
Me:no.y
ouhadanapart
ment
.Yougotahouse
whenyouandBoobi
egotmar
ri
ed
Hi
m: whenwewer
eengaged.Wemov
edi
n
af
terI
yana
Me:
samet
hing.I
smom awakey
et?
Hi
m:y
eahshe’
sawake
Ase:
theny
oudi
dn’
tdoi
tasy
oushoul
dhav
e
Wej
ustcr
ackedupi
nlaught
er
Dad:
Iwi
l
lki
l
lyouki
ds
Me:
sheshoul
dst
il
lbesl
eepi
ngdad
Dad:
scr
ewy
ou!Der
ri
ckl
et’
stal
kinmyst
udy
HeputKy leandtoldhi mtogoupst ai
rst
omom
andheact ual
lyli
stenedandwentupt omom.
Dadwal kedtothest udyandIfol
lowedafter
hi
m, Asegav emeal ookandIshrugged
becauseIreall
yhadnoi deawhatthe
conversati
onwasgoi ngtobeabout.Iwal
kedin
andIclosedthedoor .
Hi
m: y
ourmothertel
l
smey ouwantt
osenda
l
ett
ertoy
ourgir
lf
ri
end’shome
Me:
yesdad
Him: areyousure?Becausemarriageisahuge
stepandi t’
snotforchi
ldr
enwhoar en’tdone
playi
ngandbr eakinghear
ts.Mar
riageisa
commi tment ,
arealcommi t
mentwi t
hr eal
chall
engesandy ouneedt obecertai
nt hati
t’
s
somet hingyouwantbecauseifyounotr eady
f
ori
tthendon’
tgoi
ntoi
t
Me:
Ilov
eherdad.Il
ovehersomuch
Him: t
henwhoam It ostopyou.I ’
veseenthen
wayy oulightupwheny outalkabouther ,t
he
wayy ougetexci t
edatthement ionofhername,
thewayy oupani cwheny ouheart hat
somet hi
ngi swrongwithher…that ’
sthewayI
am abouty ourmom andt hat’
sthewayI ’
ve
alwaysbeenabouther .Don’tl
etwhat everyou
got hr
oughwi thherchangethewayy oufeel
aboutherandnev ermakeherfeel asthough
younott herewhensheneedsy ouson.The
numberoner easonformarri
agef ail
ureisnot
beingthere.Youcanhav eital
lbuti fyounot
thereorshei snotther
ethenwhaty ouhav ei
s
notwor t
hi tson
Me:
Iunder
stand.Nev
ermakeherf
eel
lonel
y
Hi
m:exact
ly
Me:
Ineedt
otel
lyousomet
hing
Hi
m:She’
spr
egnant
Me:
mom t
oldy
ou?
Heshookhi
sheadandchuckl
ed.
Hi
m: y
oucl
ingy
,youeatal
otandy
oupi
ckywi
th
t
hethi
ngsy
oueatlat
ely
Me:
what
?
Him: wheny ourmotherwaspr egnantwithyou
andy oursist
erIwasj ustl
i
key ou.Icoul
dn’t
spendasi ngleminuteawayfrom herandIwas
verymuchi nlovewithher…youl uckycause
unlikemey oudon’thavethemor ning
sicknesses
Me:
younotmad?
Hi
m: whyshoul dIbe?YouandYandi swaarei
n
l
oveandt hat’
sallt
hatmatters.Youareri
ght
whereI’
veimaginedy out
obeandal ways
wantedyoutobesonsowhywoul dIbemad.If
i
tsanythi
ng,I’
m proudofyoubecauseshehas
gr
oomedy ouintothemany ouare,shehas
madey ouseeli
fedi
ff
erent
lyandt
hat
’sal
lI’
ve
everwantedf
oryou.Tomeetawomanas
amazingasyourmother
Me:wow…thingshaveafunnywayoft
urni
ng
out
.Yousur
emom i snotpregnant
Hi
m:boyIwi
l
lfucky
ouupr
ightnow
Me:I’
mjustkiddi
ngdadchi
ll
.Butthankyou.
Thankyouforpret
tymuchever
ythi
ng,the
advi
ce,t
hesupport,t
hel
oveandjustever
ythi
ng
Hi
m:l
et’
snotbegaynow
Ij
ustl
aughedathi
m andsodi
dhe
Hi
m:sowhenar
eyoul
eav
ingf
orMt
hat
ha?
Me:
Iwaspl
anni
ngongoi
ngt
her
etodayl
ateron
Him:andthel
ett
er?Whendoy
ouwantust
o
senditandwher
e?
Me:
tohergr
andmot
her
’shouset
oday
Him:I
’
llcal
lyouruncl
ethen.Ar
eyousur
eyou
canaf
fordher?
Me:
youher
etohel
pmeoutol
dman
Hel
aughed
Hi
m:nobodyhel
pedmeoutwi
thy
ourmom
t
hou
Me:t
imeshavechanged.Pl
us,gr
andmaand
gr
andpaboughty
ouguy sahouse
Hi
m:t
heyhel
pedmepayf
ori
t
Me:
eit
herway
Hi
m:getoutofmyof
fi
ceboy
Ilaughedandgotupandsodi dhe, weshar eda
mi nihugandIwentov ertomypl acelateronin
thedayaf terspendingthedaywi thKyle.Iwas
goingt ogodr ophim offathismom’ sflatwhen
wewer edonewi thourday .Ilovedmyson,
wor dscouldn’tevenbegint odescr i
bethe
amountofl oveIhadforthisl i
ttl
eone.Ear l
ieron
Igotacal lfrom Yayatell
i
ngmet hatshegot
homesaf el
yandt hatshehear dabouttheletter
andshescol dedmef ornott ell
ingherabouti t
butweendedt hecallonagoodnot e.Idr opped
Kyleof fatKat e’splaceandt henIwentov erto
myapar tmentt ost ar
tpacki ng.Speaki ngof
whi chI ’
vebeenl ookingtogetahouset o
accommodat emysonandnowt hatYay ai s
pregnantt hepr essureison.I ’
vebeent alkingto
anagentandhe’ sbeenl ooki ngf orasui t
abl e
housef orme.Igotacal lfrom myuncl eandhe
tol
dmet hattheysentt helet terandt henI
packedmyt hingsandt hendr ov ehome.Iwas
goingt odr i
vewi thmom anddadwasgoi ngto
comet omor rowwi thauntSi y aanduncl e
Zuki sa.It’sbeenawhi lesincet hey ’
vebeent o
Mt hat ha.Iwasathomewi tht hef am andwe
wer ewai ti
ngf orAsemahl et of inishpacki ngoff
whi chIdon’ tunderstandwhyshedi dn’tpack
befor eIgott hereifshewant edt ol eavewi thus.
Wewer esi t
tingint heloungewat chingamov ie
andl aughi ngwhenmyphoner angar ound7pm
andt hecal lwasf rom Khulu.Igotupt oanswer
i
t.
/
/Me:
Khul
u
Her:
Melokuhl
eYandi
swai
s…….
.youneedt
o
comehere
Me:
Khul
ucal
m down.Whati
swr
ongwi
thYay
a?
Her
:shef
aint
edandweonourwayt
ohospi
tal
Therewassomuchpanicinhervoi
ceandt hat
al
onescaredmeandwasenought owatermy
eyesandrai
semypressur
e.Itol
dhert
ot akeit
easy.
Me:
okKhul
uI’
m onmyway
Thiswomanwasl i
ket hegrandmot herInev
er
had…don’tgetmewr ong,Bomi wasan
amazinggrandmot herbutYay a’
sgrandmother
wasjustanamazi ngper sonforsomeonewho
knowstheshiitI
’v
eputYay athrough.Sheeven
wentasfarast osayIr emindedherofher
husbandbecausehewasal adies’manunti
lhe
mether.Thewaysheandherhusbandmeti s
themostcuteststoryI’veheard.
Her
:pl
easedoMel
o.Seey
ouwheny
ougether
e
Me:
okKhul
u.Pl
easet
akecar
eofher
//
Iwipedt
helit
tl
etear
sIhadandjustthen
Asemahlecamedownthestai
rswithherbag.
Her
:ar
eyouok?
Me:
Yay
aisi
nhospi
tal
Her
:Whathappenedt
oher
?
Me:
Idon’
tknow.Ineedt
oleav
e
Iwal
kedt
othel
oungewi
thAsef
oll
owi
ng
behi
ndme
Mom:
final
l
y.
Dad:
youok?
Me:
Yay
aisi
nhospi
tal
.Ineedt
oleav
e
Dad:
I’
ll
cal
lthePJt
otakey
ouguy
sther
e
Mom:
whathappenedt
oher
?
Ishruggedandwal
kedoutwi
thmom andAse
fol
lowingmeanddadmakingaphonecal
lto
theairpor
t.Wedr oveofftot heairpor twi
th
mom behi ndthewheel ,
shef iguredIwasn’ tok
todriveandy etsheher selfwasdr i
vingli
kea
maniac.Iwasn’ tev ensurewewoul dmakei t
ali
vebutwedi d.Shepar kedandwer ushedt o
theplaneandhef lewust oMt hatha.Whenwe
gotthereIcalledKhul uandshet oldust odrive
StMar y’
shospi talandwehi r
edacaranddr ove
tothehospi t
al.ImetKhul uatt her ecepti
on.We
sharedahugandshegr eetedmymom and
sist
erandt henwewentt othel i
ft
Me:
Khul
uwhathappened?
Khulu:
hermotherandIweregoingbackand
for
thaboutherget
ti
ngpregnantandshejust
fai
nted
Iknewt hatshewasn’ttel
li
ngmeev er
ythi
ngbut
knowi nghershewasgoi ngtotel
lmewhen
Yay awasf ineIhope.IknowYay a,shewouldn’
t
j
ustf aintoutofnowherebecauseofal i
tt
le
bickering,ther
ehadtobemor e.Wegott oher
wardandhermot herwassi
tt
ingwi
thherf
ace
bur
iedinherhands.
Me:
hi
Mom andAseal
sogr
eet
ed.
Me:
howi
sshe?
Babes:
she’
ssl
eepi
ng.Shehadapani
cat
tack
Me:whatdoyoumeanshehadapani
cat
tack?
Whatcausedhert
ohav
eone?
Mom lookedatme, Idi
dn’
treal
i
zemyv oi
cewas
rai
sed.Iwasworri
edaboutmygi r
ls.Il
ookedat
Khuluandshelookeddown.
Me:
MaGxaba
Isai
dlooki
ngatYay
a’smom
Babes:sheandt
hebabyar
efi
neandt
hat
’sal
l
thatmatter
s
Me:
whatdi
dyousayt
oher
?
Mom:
Mel
okuhl
eHay
i!
Me:Yandi
swaisinhospi
talmom.Ineedto
knowwhatledherher
einthefi
rstpl
ace
Mom: andther
e’satimeandplaceforal
loft
hat
.
Fornow,canwef ocusonhergett
ingbet
ter
Khul
u:y
ourmotheri
sri
ght
.Yay
aisgoi
ngt
ofi
ne
andsoi
sthebaby
Me:Ma’
Gxabawhathappenedt
omyf
iancé?
Whatdi
dyousayt
oher?
Babes:
Idon’
tanswert
oyouaboutmydaught
er
Me:yourdaughteriscar
ryi
ngmychil
dandIwill
bedamnedi fshelosesmychi
ldbecauseofy
ou
Babes:
youdon’
twantt
otr
ymeboy
Me: wit
hallduer espectandthisisbecauseyou
themot herofmygi r
lf
ri
endbutIwi l
lnothave
youhur t
ingherbecauseofasi mpl emistake
whichhappenedwhenshewasdonewi t
h
school.Yes,t
hingsdi dn’
thappenasy ou’
d
hopedt heywouldbutbehappyt hatshe
fi
nishedschool i
nt herequi
redtimeandi s
buil
dingherownst udioasshehaddr eamedof .
I’
m notlikeYandiswa’sfather
,Ilov
eherandI
wouldn’tletherr
aiseourbabyonherown
knowingv erywellt
hatIhav ethemeanst o.I’
m
nottryi
ngt oprovemy selftoyoubutIam here
ri
ghtnowbecauseIl oveherandIpr omisedto
keepshowi ngherthatforaslongasIl iv
e.If
youhermot herr
efusetobet hereforherthen
that
’sfi
nebymebecauseshehasmeandshe
hasamot herinminetoo
Babes:
whatexact
lyar
eyousay
ing?
Me:thati
fyougoingt
oconti
nuest
ressi
ngher
thewayyouarethenyouhav
enori
ghttobe
here
Khul
u:Mel
okuhl
ecomewi
thme
Me:
noKhul
uIneedt
obecer
tai
nshe’
sok
Mom: she’
sfi
ne.Theset
hingshappen,
gowi
th
Khul
u
Il
ookedathermot
herandwal
kedoutwi
th
Khul
u.IknowI ’
m wr ongtodisrespectt
he
motherofmygi r
lfr
iendbutifthisishowt hi
ngs
wil
lbethenI’
m sorryI’l
lspeaktoherany how.
Yayawouldn’
tsurviveami scarri
ageandneither
wouldI.i
t’
sthelastthingweneedr i
ghtnow.
Khul
uandIst oodint hehall
way .
Khul
u:t
hat
’snowayt
ospeakt
oyourel
der
s
Me: I
’
m sor
ryKhul
ubutIknowthatshehad
somethi
ngtodowithYayahav
ingapanic
att
ack
Her:attheendofthedaysheisYandi
swa’s
motherandshehasev er
yri
ghtt
oscoldand
di
scipl
ineherdaughterasshepl
eases
Me:evenifi
tmeansYandi
swal
ayi
ngi
na
hospi
tal
bed?
Her:youknowt hat’
snotwhatImeanbutal lI
’
m
sayi
ngisthatYandiswawoul dn’
tappreci
atey
ou
tal
ki
ngt ohermot herli
kethat
.Youknow
Yandi
swa, sherespectshermotherandshe
l
ivestopleaseevent houghsometi
messhemay
goastraybutsheandhermot herhaveamutual
understandi
ngandifhermotherdoesn’
tgi
ve
herherblessi
ngtomar r
yyouthenchancesare
thatYayawontmarryyou.
Ishookmyhead
Her: youar esost ubbor njustli
key ourgir
lfr
iend.
Listenher echil
d, Babalwai soldert hanyouand
youwi l
lrespecther .I
’m notaski ngy ou,
I’
m
tell
i
ngy ou.Youwi llshowherr espectandy ou
willapologizetoherf orthewayy ouspoket o
her.Younotdoi ngt hisforherbuty oudoingit
fory ouandt hef utureyouwantt ohavewithher
daught er.Thebiblet ell
sust or espectour
elders,youwi l
lrespectBabal wat hesameway
your espectmeandy ourparent sok?
Shegavemeal ookwi
thast
rai
ghtf
ace,
no
smil
e,nonot
hing
Me:
yes,
Ma’
am
Her:
good.Nowgetint
hereandapol
ogi
zeli
ke
youmeanit
.Act
uall
yIwantyoutomeanit
Il
ookedather
Her
:doIl
ookl
i
keIam j
oki
ngt
oyou?
Me:
fine
Her
:good.Nowgi
vemeahug
Shepul
l
edmei
nforaqui
cksqueeze
Her
:it
’sgoodt
oseey
ouagai
n
Shebr
okethehugandgavemet hatsmil
eof
her
swhichlookedl
i
keYandi
swa’s.Icoul
dn’t
hel
pbutsmileandt
henwewalkedintogether
.
Me:Ma’GxabaIam sorr
yfort hewayIspoket
o
youear
li
eron.Itwaschil
dishandwr ongofme
t
ospeaktoy outhewayIdi d.I’
m sor
ry
Isuckatapol
ogi
esbutwhenIapol
ogi
zebest
beli
evei
tImeanit
.
Babes:Iunder
standyouwer
ehur
ti
ng.I
’
m sor
ry
tooandIforgi
veyou
Khul
u:good.Weal l
under
standwhyweher
e,f
or
asecondIthoughtIwasgoingt
ohavet
oput
y
out
woont
imeout
Weal l
justcrackedupinl aught
er.Thiswoman
hasawayofsay ingthi
ngsandt heseriousness
i
nherf acedoesn’tdoheranyj usti
ce.Iwas
si
tti
ngr i
ghtbyherbedsi deandAsest andi
ng
behi
ndme, Khuluwassi t
tingontheopposite
si
deandmom wassi tt
ingnexttoBabe’ sonthe
chai
ropposi t
eYay a’
sbedbel owthewi ndow
Yay
a:hey
Me:
Ninoy
ou’
reawake
ShesmiledandIsmil
edt
oo.Shewasso
beaut
if
ul i
t’
scr
azy.
Khul
u:wasaboutt
ime
Yay
a:hai
boKhul
u.Howl
ongwasIout
?
Khul
u:l
ongenough.
Ase:
howar
eyoudoi
ng?
Yay
a:nor
mal
.Whendi
dyougether
e?
Me:
aboutanhourago.Yousur
eyouok?
Yaya:
wel
lIhav
en’
tseenadoct
ory
et…soIdon’
t
knowMel
o
Shesai
dsoundi
ngannoy
ed.Uwoahhai
key
ena.
Babes:
youandt
hebabyar
efi
ne
Yayanoddedandlookedatmeandbr ushedmy
handandIjustsmil
ed.Wedecidedtogiveher
andhermothersomespacet otal
kaboutallof
whathappened.Ij
usthopeshedoesn’
tslipi
nto
acomat hi
stimearound.
.
.
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16:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E16-Yay
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…He’
sher
eandal
lofmyhur
tisgone.Ev
ery
nighthei sholdingme, If eell
ikeinsideamov ie
buthi sl oveisallrealtome.He’ shereandI
fi
nal lyfoundsomeonet hatIcancal l myown…. .
Andnohel ovesme, thewayt hatIwant edyou
tolov eme, he’salwayst hinki
ngofme, he’s
not hingl i
keyouatal landIdon’ tknowwhyI
stay edwi thyouf orsol ong….Wow, Inev er
foundl ovesogoodIwakeupandmywor l
dis
bright ernow.Ther e’snomor erainyclouds.
Wow, everydayIwearasmi l
e.Youcamei nmy
l
ifet hecl oudsar egone, Ionlyseet he
star s…”***
Wakingupt of i
ndMel onexttomei spr obabl
y
thebestfeeli
ngEVER.WhatcanIsay ?Ilovemy
babydaddymor et hanwor dsandhej ustkeeps
showingmej usthowmuchhel ovesandcar es
aboutmeandt hisbaby .Yes,hiscli
nginessisa
l
itt
leannoyingbutIr atherhavehimt hiscli
ngy
thanhavehi mr oami ngaroundthestreetsof
Durbanlookingf ornewass.I ’
m prettysurethat
heandmom shar edaf ewwor dstoeachot her
becauseofmebei nginahospi tal
bed,Melo
couldl
oseallrespectwheremeandhi sbaby
areconcer
ned, i
t’
scutebutit’
snotr i
ght.I
l
ookedatmom whowassi tt
ingnexttome
whereMelowassi tti
ng.Iwasn’tsurewhetheri
t
wassafetobr eaktheicebecauseifsheissti
ll
madasear l
ieronthenImi ghtj
ustslipint
oa
coma.
Her
:Yandi
swa
Me:
Mah
Her :Iwon’ tli
eandsayI ’
m proudoft heway
thi
ngst urnedout .Wehadadeal andy oubr oke
i
tandt here’snot hingwecandoaboutt hatnow
eit
hert hant of indawayf orwardf r
om t his.I
’m
reall
ydi sappoi ntediny oubutI ’
m glady oudi dn’
t
getanabor ti
onl i
kemostpeopl einy ourage
group.Iov erreactedandI ’m sorr
ybuty ouneed
tounder standt hatIwasn’ texpecti
ngt hisof
youespeci all
ywi thev ery
thingthatIwent
throughwi thy ourfatherbutunlikemey ouhav e
amanwhol ov
esy ouandiswi
l
li
ngtotal
kto
yourmotheranyhowjustt
omakesurethaty
ou
andhisbabyareok.
Yep…justasIthought
.Hespoket
omom
anyhow.Typi
calMelokuhl
e.
Me:IknowIdi
sappoi
ntedy
oumom andI
’
m
sor
ry
Her
:itsok.What’sdonei
sdone.Weneedt o
r
eportthepregnancytot
hefamil
ythoughso
t
hatyourunclescangotoMelo’
shouse
Inodded
Me:
mah
Her
:yes
Me:Khul
urecei
vedal
ett
erofMel
oaski
ngf
or
myhandinmarri
aget
oday
Her
:oh.Doy
ouwantt
ogetmar
ri
ed?
Me:
wit
hyourbl
essi
ng…y
es
Her
:ButYay
ayouonl
y21
Me:I
’m al
readypr
egnantwi
thhi
schi
l
dMa…I
don’
tseewhynot.
Her:
ifit’
swhatyouwantt
henyouhavemy
bl
essing.Ij
usthopey
ousureaboutt
his
Me:Iknowyoudon’
tli
kehim…nordoy out
rust
hi
m butIl
ovehi
m andhelovesmejustas
much
Her:
Iknowhel ov
esy ou.ThatmuchIknowand
I
’v
egottowi t
nessthattodaysoI
’m wi
ll
ingt
o
gi
vehim ashot
Me:
thanky
ouMa
Her
:howf
arar
eyou?
Me:
14weeks
Shenodded.
Her:l
etmecall
ever
yoneelsei
n,I
’m sur
ethat
boyf
ri
endofyoursi
sprobabl
ythi
nki
ngIkil
led
you
Il
aughed.Yept
hat
’sMel
ofory
ou.Sheki
ssed
myf oreheadandwal kedoutt ocall him and
everyoneelse.Theyal lcamei nandt henmom
wentt osortoutmydi schargepaper s.Thebaby
wasf ineandsowasIsoi twaspoi ntlessforme
tostayher eanylongerandt henther e’sMel o
whowant edmet ost ayal i
ttl
elongerj ustt
obe
surethatthebabyandIwer eoutofdanger .He
wentasf araswant ingmet ogosl eepathi s
uncle’
shousebutt hat ’swher eIdrewt heli
ne.I
can’tbesleepingelsewher ewhenIhav ea
home.I t’
swrong.
.
.
6MONTHSLATER
Iwasnow9mont hspr egnantandmyt ummy
wasv er
ymuchbi gbutdespi tei
tallIwashappy.
Thenegotiat
ionswentwel landdareIsaythey
chargedhim anarm andal eg…itwasalotfor
someonewhoonl yhasadegr ee.SoIhadto
stayinMthathaunti
lthenegot i
ati
onswereover
anditwaspr obablyt hehar destt hingMel oandI
hadt ogot hroughbutwedeal tey ,nott hatwe
hadachoi cet houbutaf terev erythingwas
compl etet heysetmef r
eet ogobackt oDur ban
todomyt hing.Myst udiowascomi ngalong
j
ustf i
neandMel oandIdi dn’ tli
vet ogetherj ust
yet;i
t’
ssomet hingIf oughtwi t
hal l Iam.I ’m not
allf
orlivi
ngt ogetherwi thoutmar ri
ageandas
formeget tingmar ri
ed…Iwassol azyt opl an
butIhadMel o’ssisterandmyf r
iendst odot hat
forme.Myhenpar ty(Amabhaso)washel di n
myr uralar easdur ingSept emberhol i
daysand
dareIsayi twentwel landev erythingwas
beautifulandIwasbeaut iful inmyt radit
ional
att
iretoo.Wewer einNov ember ; Icoul dgi ve
bir
thanymi nutenow.Mybi rthdaywasi ntwo
days’timeandIhadnot hi ngpl annedf orit
becauseIwaspr ettymuchl azyt odoany thing.
Melogotmeadr iverbecauseIcoul dn’teven
dri
vemy sel fanywher e.Iwascar ryingababy
gir
landwewer est il
linDur banbecausemy
fri
endswant edt ot hrowmeababyshowerand
thenIwasf reet ogohomeaf t
er.Mom waswi t
h
meev erystepoft hewayandherandMel ogot
alongv erywel lwhi chwasgr eatofcause.My
weddi ngwasgoi ngt obehel dt hisDecembera
dayaf terMel o’sbirthday,yesmybabywi llsti
l
l
beababybutIdon’ twanttowai tforlongto
mar ryherfat her.Ican’twai tt omov einwith
Mel oalready.Iwasi nmypl acewi t
hmyf ri
ends
andmot her’
s( Mr s.BessandBabes)wewer e
planningtheweddi ng.Mybr idesmaidswer e
goingt obeAsemahl e,Si
not handoandNal edi.It
wasl uncht i
meandt heywer epi cki
ngoutt hei
r
dressdesi gns.Mel o’scolognef i
ll
edtheroom
befor eheev enshowedhi sf ace, mybaby
startedkickingasi fsheknewherf atherwas
around.Heki ssedmycheek.
Hi
m:Ladi
es
Them:
hey
Hi
m:whatar
eyouguy
supt
o?
Me:
picki
ngoutdr
esses
Hi
m:gr
eaty
ounotbusy
.Ineedt
obor
rowy
ou
Ama:
real
l
yMel
okuhl
e
Hi
m:I
’
llbr
ingherbackIpr
omi
se
Me:
I’
ll
beback
Hehel pedmegetupandt henwewal kedout
together.Westoodinthekitchenandshareda
kiss,I
’vemissedhim.Itwasmyf i
rstt
ime
seeinghimt oday
.He’sbeenbusysi nce
mor ni
ngsoshootme.
Hi
m:Imi
ssedy
ou
Hesai
dsul
ki
ng
Me:
that
’ssocut
e.Youl
ookcut
e
Hi
m:don’
tbeabor
enow
Me:
what
ever
Hi
m:t
her
e’ssomet
hingIwantt
oshowy
ou
Me:
oh?
Hi
m:y
ep.
Heledmetot
hecarandt
henhecov
eredmy
ey
eswithabl
i
ndf
old
Me:
ist
hebl
i
ndf
oldnecessar
y?
Hi
m:y
es,
iti
s.
Hedr ov
eforawhi l
eunti
lhestoppedthecar
andthenIheardthedooropenandcloseand
thenawhileaft
ermydooropenedandt henhe
pull
edmyhandandIgotoutandhecl osedmy
doorandlockeditbehi
ndhim.
Me:
can’
twet
aket
hisof
f
Hi
m:j
ustaf
ewmor
emi
nut
es’
chi
l
l.
Ihear
dadooropenandt henhel
edmei nsi
de
andthenhetookthebli
ndfol
doffandIopened
myey es.i
twasdarkandhewasn’thol
dingme
anymore
Me:
Mel
o??
Hi
m:t
heswi
tchi
snextt
othedoor
Me:
youpl
ayi
ngwi
thmer
ight
?
Hesoundedal i
ttl
ef arbutnottoofar.I
searchedforthedoorwi thmyhandsunt ilI
founditandthenl ookedfortheswitchandt hen
Ifl
ippeditonandt her ewasli
ghtsever y
wher e.I
l
ookedar oundandwewer einthebuildi
ng
wheremyGal lerywasgoi ngtobe.Itwasf i
xed
up.Therewerepi ctureshangingonthewal l.
Most l
ypict
uresofmeandmyt ummyasi tgrew
andsomeofhi m andsomepai nt
ingsIoncedi d.
Hi
m:Ihadal
i
ttl
ehel
pofcause
Iwassti
ll
speechless.Theplacewasbeaut if
ul,
bett
ert
hanIhadi maginedittobeev en.The
wall
swerewhitewithhint
sofbl ackhereand
ther
eandcharcoalgrey…itwasj ustmagical
.
Hewalkedovertome.
Hi
m:pl
easesaysomet
hing
Me:
thi
sisbeaut
if
ul
Hi
m:y
ouhadmewor
ri
edf
orasecond
Me:
Ithoughti
twasn’
tdone.Ther
ewer
edel
ays
Hi
m:nope.Nodel
ays
Me:
Mel
owespokeaboutt
his
Hi
m:i
twasn’
tmet
hist
imear
ound
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Hi
m:t
hisi
scour
tesyofmypar
ent
s.
Hesai
dhandi
ngmet
hekey
Me:
thi
sist
oomuch
Hi
m:t
akei
tasanear
lyweddi
nggi
ft
Iwalkedov
ertothewall
andthepictureswer
e
al
ignedper
fect
ly.I
twasbreat
htaki
nglybeaut
if
ul.
Me:
canwegobacknow
I
tsnott
hatididntwantt
obeher
ebutt
hiswas
t
oomucht otakein
Hi
m: don’
tworr
yyounotmi
ssi
ngany
thi
ng.So
whatdoyouthi
nk?
Me:
thatIl
ovei
t
Iturnedtohim andwr appedmyar msar ound
hisneckandpl ant
edaki ssonhi slipsandt hen
brokeit.I
t’
stoomuchf orabi r
thdaypr esentbut
atthesamet imeI’m gratef
ul f
oritall.Theplace
wasst unni
ng.Ineedt othankhi sparentsfor
thi
s.Wegotbacki ntot hecaranddr ovebackt o
thehouse.ThisIwasnev erreadyfor .My
gall
erywascompl ete.
Hi
m:whatdoy
oupeopl
ewantt
oeat
?
Me:
wewantRoccoMamasr
ibsandchi
ps
Hi
m:and?
Me:t
hat’
sall
fornow…ohandpanar
ott
ispi
zza
f
orever
yoneelsei
nthehouse
Hi
m:okcool
Wedr ov
etoGatewayandthenhepar ked
outsi
deandwewal kedi
nandplacedanor der
thenwewenttopanaandplacedanor derand
satdownwait
ingformil
kshakesandwi ngs.
Theymakethebesthotwingsever!
Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Ibl
ushed
Me:
yout
hinkso?
Hi
m:whywoul
dIl
i
e?Pr
egnancysui
tsy
ou
Me:shutup.Thi
sisourf
ir
standl
astonebyt
he
way
Hi
m: noway
s.We’
l
lst
opwheny
ougi
vemet
wo
more
Me:
youmustt
hinkI
’
m ababymaki
ngmachi
ne
Hi
m: hav
ey ouseenhowbeaut
if
uly
oul
ook
pr
egnant?
Icli
ckedmyt ongue.Iwasn’ tget
tingpregnant
anyt i
mesoonmna.Pr egnancyi
st i
ri
ngy oh.Our
mi l
kshakesandwi ngscameIdugi nwit hhim
helpingme.thesewer esogoodwor dscan’ t
evenbegintodescr ibe.Whenwewer edoneour
pizzacameandMel ot ookitandwel eftfor
RoccoMamasandt henwedr ovehome.Ont he
waywewer eli
steningt omusicandIwasj ust
br
ushi
ngmytummytryi
ngt
ocalm downthi
s
l
it
tl
eoneinmybel
l
y.Shewasneverset
tl
ed
whenIwaswi
thMelo
Hi
m:she’
sst
il
lki
cki
ng?
Me:
youhav
enoi
dea
Hi
m:shecansenseherf
ather
’spr
esence
Me:
yes,
andIneedhert
ounsensei
tnowy
oh
Hechuckl
edandki
ssedt
hebackofmyhand.
Hi
m:j
ustaf
ewmor
eday
smami
Ij
ustkeptqui
etandfocusedontheroad.We
gothomeandhepar kedthecarandwewent
i
nside,
Lediwasinthekit
chenpouri
ngjui
ce.
.
.
<3
[12/
15,
16:
41]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E17-Mel
o
***
“…Youmakemewannasi ngtoyou.It’
sthe
l
itt
lethingsy oudof ormehomi e,l
over,fr
iend.I
canspendmyl if
ewi t
hyou.Girl
weaintgota
thi
ngt olosesol et’
sgoandr unaway .It
’syou
andme, nevergot t
aworrycauseweal way sgot
eachot her.Likethemoonandt hesea, gir
lyou
gotmef eeli
ngy ourway.Youmy4l etterword…
Youcoul dbeany wherei
nthewor l
dbuty ou
herewithmecausey oumy ,andI’
my our4
l
etterwor d…”***
Lastnightwasepi c.It
hinkIfal
linlovewith
Yandiswaev erydayIlookather,shei st
he
mostbeaut i
ful womanIhav eeverlaideyeson
andIwi l
lforev erbeatmy sel
fupfortheshiitI
putherthrough.Imeanti twhenIsai dIwanted
tospendt her estofmyl ifemaki
ngi tuptoher.
Shewassl eepingsopeacef ul
lyonmychest
andsowasYandokuhl e( acombi
nati
onofYaya
andI’sname, somet
hingAsemahlecameup
with)
.Isli
doutofbed, Iworemybri
efs,t
ookmy
phoneandwentdownst air
stopr
epare
breakfast
.Icall
edmyt win.
/
/Her
:Mel
okuhl
e
Me:
don’
tst
artwi
thmeAsemahl
e
Her
:buty
oul
etYay
acal
lyouMel
okuhl
e
Me:
yes,
andt
hat
’showi
twi
l
lal
way
sbe
Her
:youdi
dn’
tcal
lmef
ort
hat
.SowhatdoI
owethi
scal
l?
Me:
isev
ery
thi
ngsetf
ort
oday
?
Her
:obv
iousl
y.Whatdoy
out
akemef
or?
Me:
justmaki
ngsur
e
Her
:justkeepherbusyunt
il1pm ok
Me:
yesMa’
am
Her
:I’
l
lhavesomeonebr
ingYay
a’sdr
essov
er
t
oyourplace
Me:
great
Her
:Mel
o
Me:
yeah
Her:I
’m proudofyou.You’vegrownov ert
he
year
sandy ou’
reever
ythingI’
veeverhopedand
pray
edy ou’dbe.Il
ovey outwin
Ikeptqui
etforasecondt r
y i
ngtoprocessmy
twincompli
menti
ngme.i t
’snoteverydayyou
hearAsemahleactuall
ycompl i
menty ouand
sayevery
thi
ngshej ustsai
d.
Me:t
hankyousi
s.Thismeansal
otcomi
ng
f
rom y
ou.Il
oveyoutoo
Her
:yes,
nowby
etwi
n.Seey
oul
ater
Me:
byesi
s//
Aftert
hecallwit
hMahl eIcont i
nuedtomake
breakf
astformyt wogirl
swhom Il ovemor e
thanli
feit
self
.WhenIwasdoneIputar oseand
aglassofgrapejuicewiththeplateandtookit
upstai
rs.Shewasst i
ll
sleepingintheposit
ionI
hadleftheri
n.Iputthet
rayonthepedestal
and
ki
ssedheronherf acecont
inuousl
yunti
lshe
bat
teredherlashes
Her
:I’
m awakeal
ready
Me:gr
eat
.Comel
et’
sgobr
ushourt
eet
hand
eat
Her
:youmadebr
eakf
ast
?
Me:
ofcauseIdi
d.I
t’
syourbi
rt
hday
Shegi ggl
edandwebot hwal kedt othe
bathroom andbrushedourteet hinfrontofthe
l
itt
lemi rr
orabovethesi
nk,wef oundour sel
ves
actuall
yplayi
ngandsplashi
ngeachot herwith
wat er
.Itwasthesemoment st hatIcherished
withher,whenwecanj ustbeki dsandhav efun
withoutacareintheworldjustus.
Her
:okokst
op
Me:
youst
art
edi
t
Her
:yesnowI
’
m endi
ngi
t.Wehungr
y
Me:
alway
s
Sheshov edmeandIj ustl aughedatherwhi ch
onlymadeherl aught oo.Iwon’ tli
eYay abeing
pregnantwasn’ taneasyt askbutwewer egood
toget her,wemadeeachot herhappyandI
madei tmydut yt okeepasmi leonherf ace
becauseshecr iedal otandhercr yingdidn’tsit
wellwi thme.i twaswor sewhenshewasback
i
nherr ur alareasandt heweat herforherhen
partywasunset tl
ed; shej ustcriedbecauset he
rai
nwoul dn’tstop.It riedmybestt ocalm her
downandIf inallydid.DamnIl oveher,asmuch
asshe’ sacr ybabyIl ov eher .Wewal kedt oour
room t oeatandwhenwewer edoneIf i
ll
edt he
tubwi t
hwat erandsomebat hsaltswhileIwent
downst airs.Justt hent her ewasaknockont he
door .Iopenedt hedoorandaguywasst anding
i
nf rontofmygat ecarr yingwhatI ’m assumi ng
wasYay a’sdr ess.
Me:
thanky
ou
Hi
m:pl
easesi
gnher
e
Ididjustt
hatandtookthedressthenwent
backupstair
s.MissywasinthetubandIput
thedressinthecl
osetwhil
eIwentt oj
oinheri
n
thetub.
Her
:thi
sisni
ce
Me:sowhatdoy
ouwantust
odof
ory
our
bi
rt
hday
?Youoffi
cial
l
y21
Her:
Ijustwantt
ostayinbedwit
hyouandhav
e
l
otsofsexunti
lIgoint
olabor
If
oundmy sel
flaughi
ng,shewashellaser
ious.
Thi
sgir
lwascr azyandknowinghershewasn’t
pl
ayi
ng.That’
sexactlywhatshewantedtodo.
Me:
whyam Inotsur
pri
sed.Sexaddi
ct
Her
:Il
ear
nfr
om t
hebest
Me:nobutser
iousl
y.Whatdoy
ouwantust
odo
t
oday?
Her
:I’
m ser
ious,
Ijustwantt
ospendt
heday
wi
thy
oui
ndoor
s.
Me:that
’sf
inebymebutlat
eronI
’
mtaki
ngy
ou
outsomewherespeci
al
Her
:doIneedt
odr
essup?
Me:Ihaveadressf
oryouandyouwon’thav
eto
wearheel
sbecauseyouheav
il
ypregnant
Her
:asl
ongasIwon’
twearheel
sthenwegood
t
ogo
Me:
don’
twor
ry
Her
:st
opdoi
ngt
haty
oumaki
ngmer
eal
l
yhor
ny
Iwasmassagi ngherboobs.Theywerebigger
thanbeforeandmoreperkierandfel
tal
l
cushi
ony .Theywer
etheper f
ecttomassage
andplaywi t
h.
Me:
it’
sfun.Il
ovey
ourboobs
Shel etoutasoftmoan.Shewasseri
ously
turnedonIcouldn’
tevenbeli
evei
t.Imovedmy
otherhanddownt ohercooki
eandstart
ed
pl
ayingwi
thi
tstr
oki
nghersoft
lywi
thmy
fi
ngersmaki
nghermoansoft
ly
Her
:don’
tst
op
Me:
addi
ct!
Her
:fucky
oudude.Bl
amey
ourdaught
er
Her
:shutupMel
okuhl
eyoh
Imademywayi nandoutwi t
hmyf ingerwhi
le
rubbi
nghercl itgentlywi t
hmyt humb.Her
moanswer emaki ngmehar dandhor ny.I
stoppedasIf eltheror gasm bui
ldupandI
knowt hatpissesherof fbuti
t’
sfunpl ay
ingwi
th
herfeeli
ngsliket hat.Igotoutofthetuband
shelookedatmenotsohappy
Me:
let
scont
inuei
nther
oom
Her
:forasecondIthoughty
ouwer
egoi
ngt
o
l
eavemelikethat
Ichuckl
edanddri
edherbodyandthenwe
walkedoutt
othebedr
oom nakedwhereIwent
downonhergivi
nghermulti
pleor
gasmsand
thenwehadsexydoggyst yl
eandfli
ppedus
oversoshewasont opi
nr ever
secowgirl
sty
le.
Wekeptswi t
chi
ngposit
ionshavingmind-
blowi
ngorgasms.Bythetimewewer edonewe
werecuddl
ingnakedonthebed.
Me:
youst
il
lup?
Her
:mh
Me:
youf
all
i
ngasl
eepar
en’
tyou
Her
:that
’swhatsexwi
thy
oudoest
ome
Me:
meansI
’
m doi
ngagr
eatj
obt
hen
Her
:shutupIwantt
osl
eep
Ikeptquietandjustbrushedherhairand
watchedherf al
lasleep.OneminuteI’
m
brushi
ngherhai randthenthenextshewas
busystroki
ngmydi cksogood.Iwokeupt oan
amazinghandj ob.
Her
:goody
ou’
reup
Shegi
ggl
edandIf
oundmy
sel
fchuckl
i
ngatt
he
punshej
ustmade.
Her
:let
’sgoshower
,yousai
dyouwer
etaki
ng
meouttosomewherespeci
al
Me:
your
eal
l
ydon’
tfor
get
Her
:nope
Shecont i
nuedst roki
ngmeunt il
Icameand
thenaf terwewentt oshowerqui cklybecauseit
wasal readypast12andherpar tyisat1pm.
Whenwewer edoneshegotdr essedi nalong
boobt ubenudepi nkdressandsl eeperandI
wor eat uxwi t
hanudepi nkt i
e.Whenwewer e
donewet ookaf ewpicturesandt henwedr ove
offtoherpl ace.Themi nutewewal kedinwe
wer ewel comedbyapar t
ybannerwr i
tt
en
“Happy21stBi rt
hdayYay a”andonet hatsai
d
“It
’saGi rl”wri
tt
eni npinkonawhi tebanner.
Shet urnedt omeandbur i
edherf aceonmy
chest.
Me:
don’
ttel
lmey
oucr
ying
Shejustwai
ledevenmore.NowIdidn’
tknow
whattosay.Hermotherwal
kedovertous
Her
:don’
ttel
lmeshe’
scr
ying
Ij
ustnodded
Babes:
Yay
amnt
anam
Yay
a:Mah
Babes:
lookatme
Shet
urnedsl
owlyandl
ookedathermot
her
whocuppedherf
ace
Babes:ever
yoneher
eisher
efory
ou.Wel
ove
youandwewantt oshar
ethi
smomentwi
thyou.
Pleasedon’
tcry
Yaya:
it’
stoomuch.Idon’tdeser
vet
his.21st
bi
rt
hdaysareforpeoplewhomadeitto21
wit
houtfal
li
ngpregnant
Her:no.21stbir
thdaysaref
orpeoplewhohave
achi
evedgr eat
erthingst
hantheyshoul
dinthat
age.Getti
ngadegr eeisagr
eaterachi
evement
t
hanmaki
ngi
tto21wi
thoutget
ti
ngpr
egnant
Shekissedheront hefor
eheadandwipedher
tear
s.Thiswasbeaut i
ful
.Someofherfri
ends
star
tedjoi
ningherandsuddenlyIdi
dn’
texist
anymoreast heyallwant
edapieceofheranda
pict
urewithher.Ideci
dedtogoandchil
lwith
someoft heguy s.
Seko:
tot
hinkIdi
dn’
ttr
usty
ouwi
thher
Si
ya:
he’
sachangedman
Me:
Yay
achangedme
Luc:no.shemadey ouawhimp.Lookaty
ou,
you’
reabouttogetmarri
edandbecomea
fat
herandy ouonl
y23
Seko:
there’
snoguygr
eat
erf
orhert
hany
ou.
Keepitup
Me:
thanksIpl
ant
odoj
ustt
hat
Luc:
Ihav
etoask,
arey
ousur
e?
Me:
I’
m mar
ryi
ngher
.Idon’
tthi
nki
tget
smor
e
ser
ioust
hant
hat
Si
ya:hehasapoint
.You’
vedonegr
eatbuddy
.
I
’m pr
oudofyou
Me:
thanksmyf
ri
ends
Luc:
wegoi
ngoutl
atert
oni
ghtr
ight
?
Me:Ican’
t.I
’
llpr
obabl
ybegi
vi
ngYay
aaf
oot
massage
Lucr aisedhi
shandsi
nsurrender.Ishrugged.I
don’tgetwhyhe’sact
ingup;Yayais9mont hs
pregnantmeaningshecouldgivebirt
hany
minut enowwhichmeansIhav etobet herefor
her24/ 7.
Me:Imadeherpregnantsoifsheneedsme,I’
m
goi
ngtobether
ef orheranyti
meoft heday
Luc:
uhhm what
ever
Hewal kedoffandl
eftmewithSiy
aandSi seko.
Mycousi ni
ssomethingel
se,he’
sdramaticas
fuckwhenhewant sto.Af
teranamazing
bir
thdayandbabyshowerIdroveoffwit
hYay a.
Her
:wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Me:
you’
l
lsee.
Her
:comeont
ell
me
Me:
bepat
ient
Wegoti nfrontofthegateandIpressedthe
remot eandopenedt hegat
eandIdr oveit
.It
wasnot hi
ngbi g.Justa6-
bedroom housewitha
pool houset hathad3bedroomsand1
bathroom.Igotoutofmysi deandopenedt he
doorf orherandt henwewal kedtothedoorand
Iunlockeditsoshecoul dgetin,Iswit
chedthe
l
ighton.
Her
:who’
shousei
sthi
s?
Me:
howdoesi
tlook?
Her
:looksbeaut
if
ul.
Thekit
chenwasanopenplan,itwast urquoi
se
andcharcoal
withahi
ntofcream.Wewal kedto
thel
oungeandthefur
nit
urewasr ed,blackand
whit
e.Thecoucheswerebl
ackandr edwi th
whi
tecushi
ons.
Her
:Mel
othi
sisbeaut
if
ul
Me:
soy
oul
ovei
t?
Her
:ofcause
Me:
onel
astpar
tIneedt
oshowy
ou
Wewal kedupstai
rsandIledust oar oom wi
th
apinkdoorwrit
tenYasmi
ni npink.Yes,that
wasanameIpi ckedoutforherandt hesecond
namewasgoi ngtocomeupwi t
hYay a.I
openedthedoorandshewal kedinfi
rstandI
fol
lowedinbehi
ndher.
Her
:Mel
o…
Me:
pleasedon’
tcr
y
Her:I
’
mt ryi
ngv
eryhar
dnott
o.Thi
sisso
beaut
iful
Me:
youl
ovei
t?
Shet
urnedt
omeandwr appedherar
msar
ound
myneckandki
ssedme.Ibrokei
t
Her
:doest
hatanswery
ourquest
ion?
Inoddedwitha5-year
-ol
dsmi l
eandshejust
giggl
ed.Shewalkedovertothebabycotand
j
ustadmi r
edit
.Shestart
edscreaminginpai
n
holdi
nghertummyont heside.Ir
ushedtoher
Me:
Yay
ayouok?
Her
:It
hinkI
’
minl
abor
Istartedpani cki
ng.Myphonewasi nthecarbut
l
ucki l
ywekeptaspar ebagi nmycarboot .I
rushedusdownandi ntot hecarandt henIwent
backt olockandt hencal ledmom andt henher
grandmot herandhermom whi ledr ivi
ngt ot
he
hospital.Shekeptscr eami nginagonywhi ch
onlymademedr i
vef aster.Iwassoscar edand
whatsuckst hemosti st hatIdidn’tknowwhat
todobecauseIneededt okeepdr ivingand
maki ngsur ewegett ot hehospi t
al ali
v eand
well.Shescr eamedt el l
ingmeherwat erjust
broke.Ipar kedinf r
ontoft heentranceandt hen
Irant ogetanur seandshecamewi tha
wheelchair
.Wedr ov eheri
ntotheemer gency
room asshewascl oseenoughtogi v
ingbirt
h.
Afterhoursofscreamingwewel comedl it
tl
e
MilaYasmi nBessintotheworld.Shewasso
adorableandsopi nkwithsuperblackhair.
.
.
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E18-Yay
a
***“
…I'
vewaitedallmylif
e,al
l myl ifetoseeya,
I'
vebeendreamin',dr
eamin'abouty ou.I
wonderedwhaty ouwouldbel ike, youwouldbe
l
ike.NowI '
m speechl
ess,can'tbelieveit
.I'
ve
beendreamin'aboutyou.Andbef oreIever
knewy ourname,beforeIheldy ourhand, Il
oved
you(Iloveyou).OhIl
ovedy ou(
Ilov
ey ou)
.And
beforeIeversawyourface,&Goddon'tmake
mistakes.YouknowthatIloveyou(Il
oveyou)
.
Lovey ou…”*
**
Iwaswokenupbyt henoiseint heroom and
ever
yonewant ingt oholdli
tt
leYasmi n.Idon’t
knowwhyIchoset hatnamef orher ,
IguessI
j
ustloveitandIwantmybabyt oal sobe“Yay a”
l
ikehermummy .Iknowi t
’scrazy.Ikeptquiet
andwat chedt hem passherar oundf rom Khulu
toMrs.Bess.If eltl
ikeIwasrunov erbyat ruck,
Iwassot ired,sodr ainedandsogl adshewas
fi
nal
lyout .Icoul dn’
twaittomeetherandnow
she’
sfinallyhere.
Me:
hel
l
o’s
Theyal
ltur
nedt omeandmygroggyv
oice.
Melowasrightnextt
omehol
dingmyhand
ti
ght
ly.
Hi
m:Heybeaut
if
ul
Hesai
dhandi
ngmeagl
assofwat
er
Ase:f
inal
l
y,you’r
eawake.Iwasbegi
nni
ngt
o
thi
nkyoudecidedtowal
ktotheli
ght
Weal
lj
ustl
aughed.Asemahlel
i
kest
obr
eakt
he
i
cei
nthemostweirdestway
s
Mom:
howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:
tir
edasf
…sot
ir
ed
Melochuckled.Ir
eall
ywantedtosayIwasti
red
asfuckbutthere’
sli
kesomanyol dpeopl
ein
thi
sroom andIcan’tj
ustswearli
kethat
.
Ama:
atl
easty
oupoppedoutone
Ase:
mom don’
tst
art
Ama:
Iwasj
ustsay
ing.
Me:
canIseeher
Khul
uwal
kedov
erwi
thher
Khul
u:cany
ouev
enhol
dher
?
Me:hai
bokhul
u.Aft
ersomanyl
i
ttl
ecousi
ns
youst
il
laskmethat
Khul
u:wej
ustt
ryi
ngt
obesur
eher
ethaty
ou
don’
tdr
opher
Ichuckledandshehandedherov er
.Shewas
sleeping,herl
asheswerewell
-shaped,shewas
goingt ohavebeauti
fuley
esthisoneandt he
ri
chbl ackhairwasmosdefnotf rom mysideof
thefami l
y.Herhandsweresot i
nyandsopi nk.I
felli
nlovewi t
hherinst
antl
y
Me:
she’
sbeaut
if
ul
Mel
o:she’
sper
fect
Ismiledlookingather .Ourli
ttl
ecreati
onwas
themostcut estthingknownt ohumans,yes
ther
ei snobabycut erthanmine.Melokissed
thesideofmyheadandwhi speredi
nmyear
“Thanky ou”Ilookedathi m andsmiled.
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Hi
m:Il
ovey
out
oo
Ij
ustsatt
hereandadoredmyl i
tt
leonepl
aying
wi
thhercuteli
tt
lehands.Isai
dashortpr
ayerto
my selft
hankingGodf orthisamazi ngcr eation
sl
ashmybi rthdaymat e.Ismi ledthinkingjust
howi mpat i
entshewas, shej usthadt ocome
outonmybi rthday.Thiswasr ealcontent ment
ri
ghtherei nthisroom wi t
ht hepeopl eIlov eand
l
ovemeback.Wesav oredt hemomentanda
whilelat
eranur secamet of etchher .Ididn’t
wantt olethergobutMi ssyneededt or estand
sodi dI,
orsoshesai d.Every oneleftexceptf or
Mel o.
Me:
youl
ovespeci
alat
tent
ionneh
Hi
m:Ij
ustl
ovebei
ngi
nyourpr
esence
Me:
Igav
ebi
rt
h;y
oucanst
opbei
ngcl
i
ngynow
Hecl
i
ckedhistongueandIj
ustl
aughedathim.
I
twassocutethathewasst
il
lher
eev enaf
ter
t
hebabywasbor n.Mel
owashookedtomeand
i
twasplai
nadorable
Hi
m:mov
eov
er
Imov
edov
erandhej
oinedmei
nbedaf
ter
t
aki
nghi
sshoesof
f
Me:
Idon’
tthi
nkt
hat
’sal
l
owed
Hi
m:y
ouknowIdon’
tfol
l
owr
ules
Me:
right
…
Hi
m:Maf
aku
Me:
Mel
o
Hi
m:t
hanky
ou.
Iwascuddl
edi
nhi
schest
.
Him:Ihav
enowordstot
hankyouforMi
la.
She’
sperf
ect,
youar
eper
fectsot
hankyou.
Thankyousomuch
Me:
arey
oucr
ying?
Hi
m:what
?No.
Ichuckl
edinbetweenmyt ears.Mel
ohasaway
withwords.Icoul
dn’
tevenhelpbutshedatear
becauseofwhathesaid.Ididn’
tknowthat
Mila’
sexist
encewouldbri
ngoutt hi
ssi
deof
him andIam sograt
efuli
tdid.
.
.
Ihadbeenexer cisi
ngev ersinceIgotoutoft he
hospi tal.Ineededt obebackt omywei ght,
pregnancygai nedmeal otofwei ght.Iwasa
size36butnowIwassl owlyget ti
ngbackt oa
size30.Idon’ tknowwhatwasmor epainful,the
gy m ort he6weekswi t
houtsex…i twas
ri
dicul ousi fy
ouaskmeandMel odidn’tseem
tomi ndbecauseni ggawast oobusybondi ng
withhi sdaught er.Wi t
hYasy( pronouncedas
Yazy )bei ngbornIhadnochoi cebutt omov e
i
nt oourhousewi thMel o,wewant edtor ai
se
hert oget herandherf atherdi dn’twantt omi ss
asi nglemomentofhi sdaught er’sli
fe.Theway
hewashandsonwi t
hMi laitwasamazi ng
becauseIhar dl
yev erdidany thing.Myj obwas
topl anmyweddi ng,feedherwhenshe’ shungr y,
bathherandt hent hat’
sit…t her estwasal lon
him.
Hi
m:FUUUUckkkk….
Hesai
dafterexpl
odi
ngi nt
omymout handthen
hepul
ledmeupandki ssedme.Ibr
okeitand
l
ookedathim
Me:
Happybi
rt
hdaydaddy
Hi
m:Icoul
dgetusedt
owaki
ngupl
i
ket
his
Ihi
thi
m onhischestandhechuckl
ed.He
makesitseem l
i
keIneverwakehim upwi
tha
bj
Hi
m:I
’
m ki
ddi
nghai
bo
Me:
what
ever.Weshoul
dgowash,
wehav
ea
l
ott
odotoday
Hi
m:i
sYasyst
il
lsl
eepi
ng
Me:I
’m st
art
ingt
othi
nky
oul
ovehermor
ethan
youl
oveme
Isai
dpout
ingandhej
ustpul
l
edmei
nforaki
ss
Me:
scr
ewy
ou
Hi
m:y
ouknowIl
ovey
ou.
Me:
what
ever
.
Igotoutofbedandwentt oshowerandaf t
erI
wor emyr obeandwentt ogocheckonmyl ittle
one.Shewassl eepingsopeacef ul
l
y .Ijust
stoodt hereandadmi r
edmy3weeksol dtwi n,
Godshewassoper fect.Shewasami niversion
ofmewi thbeautif
ul eyesandcutelipslikeher
father
’s, pinkcheeksandal l
.Shewasj ust
everyt
hi ngI ’
vedreamedofandmor e.
“
she’
samazi
ng”
Mel
osai
dbr
ushi
ngmyupperar
ms
Me:Idon’
twantt
owakeherupbutshehast
o
eat
Hi
m:y
oucan’
tbest
arv
ingmydaught
ernow
Me:stopbei
ngdr
amat
ic.Whatt
imei
sKy
le
comingover
?
Hi
m:heshoul
dbeher
eat10
Il
ookedatmyphonei
nmyhandandt
heti
me
waspast7.Mel
owastaki
ngKy
lef
ort
hei
rfi
nal
tuxfit
tingsandIandmygi r
lshadtogoanddo
ourhair,nai l
sandev er
ythi
ngelseinbetween.I
pickedmi ssyupandsheopenedherey esand
l
ookedatme.Icoul dn’thelpbutsmileather,
shedidn’ tcrymuchonl ywhensheneededher
nappychangedorwhenshewashungr yor
sleepy.Isatont herockingchairandbreastf
ed
herwithMel ochatt
ingmeupabouthi splans
fortoday
Him:butIwantt
ospendt
her
estoft
hedaywi
th
youguys
Me:you’l
lseeuslat
erbef
oreyougooutwi
th
theguys.Speaki
ngofwhi
ch,wher
eareyou
guysgoing?
Hi
m:Idon’
tknowy et
.Si
yaandLuchav
e
ev
ery
thi
ngplannedout
Me:
don’
tdoany
thi
ngIwoul
dn’
tdo
Hechuckl
ed.
Hi
m:Ipr
omi
seIwon’
tdoany
thi
ngIshoul
dn’
t
do
Me:
good.Ki
ssme
Hechuckl
edandpl
antedaki
ssonmyforehead.
Justt
henmyphonerangandi
twasLedi
.
/
/Me:
Heyhone
Her
:heymami
.Whyar
eyouupsoear
ly?
Me:
Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
out
hat
.I’
m anew
mot
her
,I’
m al
l
owed
Her:
I’
mthemai
dofhonorsoIshoul
dbeupat
t
hishour
Me:
yeaht
rue.Whatt
imear
eyoucomi
ngov
er?
Her
:Ibookedourappoint
mentfor1pm.We
goi
ngoutforbr
eakfastat10am
Me:I
’
llcal
lSi
noandhearwhenshe’
scomi
ng
ov
er
Her
:okMami.AlsoI
’veal
readyspokentoyour
mom andKhul
uandtheydon’tmindbabysi
tt
ing
whi
lewegoouttoni
ght
Me:
noway
s.Ican’
tgooutLedi
Her
:youwon’
tdr
ink
Me:
sti
l
l.Ican’
tputmybabyatr
isk
Her:whoknewmot
her
hoodwoul
dsuckt
hef
un
outofyou
Me:don’
tbeabor
enow.Ibr
east
feedkal
oku
Ledi
Her:ohyeah.Kanene,
comeonYandi l
et’
sjust
gooutjustthi
sonce.Tomorr
owy oubecomea
wif
eandt hatmeanswe’l
lbar
elygoout
anymore
Me:
we’
l
lst
il
lgooutwhenYasyi
sal
i
ttl
eol
der
Her
:I’
l
lseey
ouatbr
eakf
ast
//
Hi
m:Nal
edi
want
syouguy
stogooutt
oni
ght
?
Inodded.Ist
oppedfeedi
ngYasyandputheron
myshouldertobur
pherandt henhandedhert
o
herfat
hertogoandfixherwatert
owash.
Me:
shedoesn’
tgeti
t.I
’
m amot
hernow,
Ican’
t
j
ustbegoingoutanyt
imeespeci
all
ynowt
hat
I
’m br
east
feedi
ngandmybabyneedsmethe
most
Hi
m:somebodyhasgr
ownup.Yousocut
e
Icli
ckedmytongueandt ookt
hewatertoher
room whi
leMelotookherclot
hesofftohel
pme
washher.Mom andKhul uweregoi
ngtoliv
e
withusunti
lshe’
satleastamonthold.
Me:
cir
cumst
anceshav
efor
cedmet
ogr
owup
Hehelpedmewashherandt henIdressedher
upandwentdownst airswithher.Mom and
Khuluwerewatchingtvsippingontea.These
twowakeupt ooearlyformyl i
ki
ng.Wegr eet
ed
andmom of f
eredtotakeherandIt ooktheti
me
togoupstair
stoactuallywearsomet hi
ngeit
her
thanarobe.Iset
tl
edf orMelo’st-
shi
rtandhis
boxers
Hi
m:y
oul
ookador
abl
e
Me:
Iknow.
Igr
innedandhel
aughedatme
Me:I’
m goi
ngt
omakebreakf
ast
.Doy
ouhav
e
any
thingi
npar
ti
cul
ar?
Hi
m:I’
lleatwhatev
ery
oumakingbabe.Al
so
mom saidshe’
l
lcomebyl
ateron
Me:
okbabe
Iki
ssedhischeekandheadeddownstai
rsto
makebreakfastf
orevery
one.Kyl
eraninand
wrappedhisarmsaroundmylegs.
Me:
wel
lhel
l
ocut
iepi
e
Hi
m:Yay
a
Me:
wher
e’smummy
?
Hi
m:out
side
Me:
daddyi
sint
her
oom
Hi
m:wher
eist
hebaby
?
Me:
she’
ssl
eepi
ng
Hewasal
readygone.
“
Hi”
Itur
nedt
othedoorandKat
ewascar
ryi
nghi
s
bagandaschool
bag.
Me:
hey
.Comei
n,pl
easesi
t
Shewal
kedi
nandsatont
hehi
ghchai
r.
Her
:thanky
ou.Howar
eyou?
Me:
I’
m goodandhowar
eyou?
Her
:al
sogood.How’
smot
her
hood?
Me:
I’
mlov
ingi
t
Her:wow.Notmanypeopl
ear
eabl
etosayt
hat
wit
hasmi l
e
Me:she’
sanangel
.Ir
eal
l
ycan’tcompl
ainand
t
henther
e’sMel
owho’sj
usthandson
Her
:luckyy
ou
Shekeptquietlooki
ngar
oundandIjust
cont
inuedchoppingupthethi
ngsIwasgoingto
useforanoml ett
e.i
twastheawkwardsil
ence
ki
nd.Ithi
nkIhitanervewit
hthatwhole“
hands
on”piece.Idon’
tgeti
tthoubecauseshewas
theonewhodeci dedt
okeepMel ooutofhi
s
son’
sl i
fe.
Me:
Ithoughty
ouwer
ebr
ingi
nghi
m at10
Her
:IwasbutIhav
eani
nter
viewat9
Me:
joi
nusf
orbr
eakf
ast
Her
:uhhm not
hanks,
Ican’
tst
ay
Me:
uhhm ok
Shewasaboutt
owal
koutwhenMel
owal
kedi
n.
Hi
m:Kat
e.Hi
Her
:hey
,howar
eyou?
Hi
m:goodandy
our
sel
f?Wher
e’sKy
le?
Her
:hewal
kedi
nbef
oreme
Me:
he’
sint
hel
ounge
Hi
m:okcool
Her
:I’
l
lseey
ouSundayt
hen
Me:
goodl
uck
Her
:thanky
ou
Wit
hthatshewalkedout.Shewasdressedi
na
gr
eykneelengt
hdr esswit
hablackbel
tonthe
wai
st,
awhi t
eblazerandredheel
s.
Hi
m:goodl
uck?
Me:
she’
sgoi
ngf
orani
nter
view
Hi
m:oh.Whenwi
l
lbr
eakf
astbeser
ved?
Me:
in30mi
nut
es.Wannahel
pme?
Hi
m:not
hanks.Ir
athergopl
aywi
thmyki
ds
Me:
seewhatImean.
Hi
m:I
’
m ki
ddi
nghai
boMaf
aku
Hesaidpul
lingmet ohim andkissi
ngthetopof
myhead.Igotoutoft hehugandwentbackt o
whatIwascookingwhi l
ehesatont hechair
andtol
dmeaboutsomer andom st
uff
.Actuall
y
weweretalkingaboutourhoneymoonand
whereIwantedtogo.
.
.
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E19-Mel
o
***“
…WhenIf ir
stsawy ou.Isaidohmy , t
hat’s
mydr eam.That ’smydr eam.Ineededadr eam
wheni tallseemedtogoback.ThenIf oundy ou
andIhav ehadt hemostbeaut i
fuldreams.A
man’sev erhad.WhenIf i
rstsawy ou.Isai doh
my ,t
hat ’
smydr eam.That ’
smydr eam.Ineeded
adream t omakemest rongandy ouar et he
onlyreasonIhadt ogoon.Youar emydr eam,
al
l t
het hingsthatI
’l
lneverknow.Youar emy
dream, whocoul dbeli
evet heycouldev ercome
tr
ue.Andwhowoul dbelieve,t
hewor l
dwoul d
beli
evei nmydr eam too…”***
BreakfastwasamazingandIwasnowi nt
he
room withYayaget
tingr
eadytogoformyfinal
fi
tti
ng.Shewasont hebedplay
ingwit
hMila.
Her
:Ij
ustdon’
tgeti
twhyNal
edi
isact
ingsome
t
ypeofway
Me:she’
sjusthur
tthatshewon’
tgett
odot
he
t
hingsyouguysusedtodo
Her:butt
hat
’st
het hi
ng.Ihav
eababynow,
surel
yshedi
dn’tt
hinkthat
’st
hingswouldgo
backtothewaytheywerebeforepr
egnancy
Iwalkedupt oherandbal
ancedonthebedwith
myhands.Sheseemedf r
ust
ratedbythi
sLedi
thi
ng…f unnyenoughIwassti
ll
goingtodeal
wit
hLucwhohi mselfi
sanot
herNaledi.
Me:youandLedi havebeenfri
endssince
f
orever
.Asmuchasy ouarelearni
ngtoadjust
t
othesituat
ion,
soi sshe.Gi
vehertimeandshe
wi
llcomearound
Her
:ar
ghshemi
ghtaswel
lfi
ndheranot
her
bestfr
iend.I
’
m amothernowandmybabyi
s
only3weeks…clubbi
ngcanwait
Igotofffr
om t
hebedt
ocont
inueget
ti
ng
dressed.
Me:
youamazemey
ouknowt
hat
Her
:why
?
Me: IneverthoughtI
’dl
i
vetoseethedaywher
e
youact ual
lyspeakli
ket
his…Missli
ghtupt
he
stage
Her
:ohshutup.Bl
ameMi
l
a
Me:
it’
sagoodchange.I
’
m notcompl
aini
ng
Sheroll
edherey
esandIlaughedather .She
wassocuteandshehadlostal otofbabyfat
exceptt
heassandtheboobs…t hatwasst i
l
l
ther
eandshelookedhel
l
asexy .Herhairwas
ti
edupinamessybun.
Me:
wheni
syoursi
stercomi
ngov
er?
Her
:sheshoul
dbeher
e.Shesai
dshewason
herway30mi
nut
esago
Me:
she’
sat
eenager
.Al
l
ow
Her
:Iai
ntsay
ingnot
hing.
Justt
hent
her
ewasaknockont
hedoor
.
Yay
a:comei
n
Mysi
sterandherl
i
ttl
esi
sterwal
kedi
n.
Me:
don’
tmakenoi
se.Shej
ustf
ell
asl
eep
Ase:
thenwhyt
hehel
lam Iher
e
Yay
a:hel
l
otoy
out
oo
Shegotuptoputheri
nhercotandt
henshe
andthegi
rl
ssharedahug
Me:
letmel
oveandl
eav
eyou.
Iki
ssedYay
a
Yaya:
don’tgetsupersl
oshed,
Iexpecty
ouat
theal
tert
omor r
ow
Ichuckl
ed.Asi
fI’dt
akethatr
isk.Thelastt
hing
IneedisaYayatant
rum andmysi st
ersand
mot
hergangi
nguponme.not
hanky
ou.
Me:
noneedt
owor
ry
Ase:
Ihopeso
Me:
byeguy
s
Itookmyt hi
ngsandleftt
hem chatt
ing.Iwent
withKy l
eandhadhi smeasurementsdonef ir
st
beforemom comi ngtopickhim up.Itwasnow
Siya,Luc, Asange,Al
u,AsakheandIdoi ngour
fi
nal f
it
tingsf ort
heweddi ngt
omor r
ow.The
guy swer en’tgoi
ngtobehappyaboutt hebomb
Iwasaboutt odr
opont hem.
Luc:
I’
vegotal
lther
ightgi
rl
sfort
oni
ght
Sange:
Wegoi
ngett
urnt
Me:
I’
m sur
eyouguy
swi
l
lhav
eagr
eatt
ime
Si
ya:
whatdoy
oumeanwe…whatabouty
ou?
Me:
Yay
aandYasyneedme
Luc:her
ewegoagai
n.Sowhatnow?Youdon’
t
haveali
fenowt
hatYaya’
sgi
venbi
rt
h
Sakhe:
comeonLucnoneedt
othr
owaf
it
Me:
I’
lljoi
nyouguy
sforawhi
l
ebutIcan’
tst
ay
t
henight
Luc:
Siy
abackmeup
Si
ya:
hehasapoi
ntt
hou.Mi
l
aisonl
y3weeks
br
uh
Me: t
hanky
ou.I’
m af
athernowandgoingtobe
ahusbandtomorr
ow.Alotofst
uffneedst
o
change
Sange:
Inev
ert
houghtIwoul
dli
vet
oseet
he
day
Sakhe:
you’
vegr
own
Al
u:I
’
m soproud.Weneedt
ocel
ebr
atet
hisy
ou
gr
owingupt
hing
Luc:excuseme.Am It
heonl
yonewhohasa
probl
em witht
his?
Them:
Yes
Me:
Youst
il
lhav
eSi
yaasy
ourmascot
Si
ya:
niggay
ouneedagi
rl
fr
iend
Luc:noIdon’
t.Ij
ustdon’
tgetyou.I
t’
sli
kethis
gi
rlhasyouwrappedaroundherli
tt
lefi
ngerand
al
lshehastosayisjumpandy ouaskhowhi gh
Sakhe:
butt
hat
’smar
ri
agemos
Sange:
Idon’
tgetwhyy
ouev
encompl
aini
ng
Me:cousi
nli
sten.Ihaveachi l
dnowandI ’m
get
ti
ngmar r
ied,t
herehast obesomechangei n
mybehavi
orandt hethingsIdo.Yandiswais
mywifeandIhavet orespectherwishes.
Luc:
she’
scont
rol
l
ingy
ou
Me:noshe’snot.Herwor
dswere“don’
tget
supersl
oshed”andmydecisi
oni
snottoget
sl
oshedatall
Si
ya:
I’
m pr
oudofy
ou
Luc:
that
’sgayshi
i
t
Me:thensobei
t.Il
i
vef
orYandi
swaandMi
l
a
now
Al
u:l
etLucbe,
he’l
lunder
standt
hedayhe
meet
stheri
ghtone
Sakhe:ther
ecomesat imeinli
fewheret
he
l
adies,thebooze,
thefunandgamesgets
overr
atedandallyouwanttodoistoset
tl
e
downwi ththewomanofy ourdr
eams
Me:
thanky
ou!
Sange:wher
ear
eyouguy
sgoi
ngf
ory
our
honeymoon?
Me: wehav
en’
treal
lydeci
dedyet.Shewant
sto
gotoNewOr l
eansandIwasthinki
ngRioor
Greece
Si
ya:
theyal
lni
cepl
aces.Whydon’
tyougot
oal
l
?
Me:expensescuz
.I’
m st
il
lwai
ti
ngfort
he
Pandor
adeal t
opull
thr
oughandthenwe’
l
lsee
Sakhe:
arghyouknowy
ourj
ob.I
twi
l
lpul
l
thr
ougheit
herway
Siy
a:pl
us,ther
e’st
heGall
eryopeni
ngwhi
chI
’
m
surewi
llbr
inginmil
li
onsofdoll
ars
Me:
nah,
that
’sYay
a’sbaby
Al
u:mar
ri
agei
s50/
50
Me:IknowbutI
’
m notgoi
ngt
ousemywi fe’
s
moneytogoonourhoney
moon.I
tjustseems
wr
ong
Luc:seewhatImean?Shehasy
ouwr
apped
aroundherl
it
tl
efi
nger
Me:i
t’
snotli
kewei narushtol
eav
e.We’l
ll
eav
e
i
nJanuar
y,atleastMi
lawil
lbe2monthst
hen
Wecont i
nuedjustchat
ti
ngandthenlaterwe
wenttotheclub.Lucwassti
l
lunhappyabout
mesettl
ingdown.Wehadaf ewdr i
nks, I
deci
dedtoleavetheguystofi
ndaqui etspott
o
tal
ktothegir
ls.
/
/Me:
heybeaut
if
ul
Her
:heyf
utur
e.Youhav
ingf
un?
Me:
Imi
ssy
ouguy
s
Her
:that
’ssoador
abl
e.Wemi
ssy
out
oo
Me:
yeah.Whatar
eyouguy
supt
o?
Her:she’ssl
eeping,I
’m wat
chingtvwit
hmom
andgr anwhowon’ tst
oppesteringmetogoout
wit
ht hegirl
s.Ledical
ledmygr andma
Me:thenj
oinusatt
hecl
ub.I
twi
l
lonl
ybeaf
ew
hour
s’
Her:honeyI
’veal
readyhadthi
sconver
sat
ion
wit
hLedi.Idon’
tfeell
ikegoi
ngout
Me:
comespendmybi
rt
hdaywi
thmepl
ease
Shegi
ggl
ed
Her
:fi
neI
’
llgoshower
.
Me:
Ilov
eyousomuch
Her
:what
ever
Me:
seey
ounow
Her
:by
ebabe/
/
Idr
oppedthecal
lwi
thasmile.I
t’
sbeensol ong
si
nceYayaandIwentcl
ubbingt
ogether,
itwil
l
befunandIknowLucwil
lhaveaproblem wit
h
t
hattoo.Idecidedt
oheadbackbutonmyway
i
nOlonawal kedout
.
Her
:It
houghtIsawsomeonel
i
key
ouwal
kout
Me:
hi
Her
:foronceIact
ual
l
yseey
ouwi
thouty
our
pur
se
Me:
uhhhm ar
ewedoneher
e?
Her
:Mel
ocomeon
Me:
Olonaar
ewedoneher
e?
Her
:youmaki
ngami
stake
Me:byst
andi
ngher
ewi
thy
ou?Yeah.Myf
iancé
won’
tbehappy
Her:
seewhatImean?Lucwasr
ight
.Shehas
youbyt
heball
s
Me:
Luc?
Her:Meloyourushi
ngint
othi
s.Di
dn’
titoccur
toyouthatshewastry
ingtot
rapyouwitha
baby?
Istoodther
ethi
nki
ngofhowr i
dicul
ousshe
l
ookedandsounded.Ican’
tbeli
eveLucwould
discussmewithmyoncefuckbuddy.
Me:
youwer
edi
scussi
ngmewi
thmycousi
n?
Shepl
ayedwi
thherhands
Her
:Ir
anint
ohimt heotherdayandhet
oldme
hewasworr
iedaboutyou
Me:
sohecal
l
edy
ouher
etoni
ght
?
Ididn’
tevenwai
tforherresponse.Iwal
ked
backinsi
deandshefoll
owedmet otheguy’
s
table
Luc:
youback.Hi
Olona
Her
:heyguy
s
Me:
youcal
l
edherher
e
Luc:
seei
ngt
hatIcoul
dn’
tconv
incey
ou
Me:
whatt
hef
ucki
swr
ongwi
thy
ou?
Al
u:Mel
ocal
m down
Luc:
I’
mtr
yingt
ohel
pyouher
e
Me:howareyouhel
pingmebytry
ingt
ohook
mewi t
hsomeoneIusedtoscr
ew?Whati
syour
pr
oblem wi
thmyfi
ancé?
Luc:
Idon’
thav
eapr
obl
em wi
thYay
a
Si
ya:
guyscanwejustt
akeabr
eat
herher
e.
Ol
onapl
easeleav
e
Me:i
fyoudi
dn’
thaveaprobl
em wi
thhert
hen
youwoul
dn’
tbetr
yingt
osetmeupwithher
Ol
ona:
Mel
oweonl
ytr
yingt
ohel
p
Me:
hel
pmehow?I
’
m get
ti
ngmar
ri
ednotdy
ing
Luc:
she’
ssucki
ngt
hef
unoutofy
ou
Sakhe:
guy sl
i
sten.Lucy
ouwer
ewr
ong,
apol
ogize
Me:
don’
tbot
her
.
Itookmyshi tandwal
kedout.Someonewho
l
ov esandcaresaboutyouwouldneverdoyou
l
ikethat.IgottomycarandSiyacaughtupwi
th
me.
Si
ya:
Mel
owai
t
Me:
I’
m goi
ngt
omywi
feandki
d
Hi
m:youknowhowLuci
s.He’
sjustbei
ng
hi
msel
f
Me:thatbeingajer
kri
ght?Ifhereal
l
ycar
ed
aboutmet henhewouldn’
tbetry
ingtobr
eak
meupwi ththemotherofmychildsoont
obe
mywi f
e
Him:Iunderst
andthat
.Butlookatitt
hisway,
hefeel
slikehe’
slosi
nghisbestfr
iendhere.
Me:
I’
ll
seey
out
omor
rowbr
o
Igotinmycaranddr ovehome.Knowi ngYaya,
shewaspr obabl
yst i
l
lathome.Shet akeshour
s
toprepare,
shechangesf r
om oneout f
itt
othe
next.Igoti
ntheyardandparkedmycarand
walkedinsi
de.Igreet
edtheparentsandwalked
toourroom.Shewaswear i
ngjeansandAse
andLedi weresi
tt
ingontopoft hebedhelpi
ng
herpi
cksomet
hing
Me:
ladi
es
Yay
a:It
houghtIwasmeet
ingy
ouatt
hecl
ub
Me:
notanymor
ebabe
Ase:
we’
l
lgi
vey
out
wosomepr
ivacy
Ledi
:thi
shadbet
ternotr
uiny
oucomi
ngt
othe
cl
ubwi t
hus
Theywalkedoutandl
eftuschuckli
ng.Isaton
theedgeofthebedandshecamet ostand
betweenmyl egs,
Iwr
appedmyar msar ound
herwaistwhi
chhadtakenthathourgl
ass
shapeofhers
Her
:what
’swr
ong?
Me:
Luci
nvi
tedOl
onat
othecl
ub
Her
:oh…why
?
Me:hefeel
sli
keshecanconvi
ncemenott ogo
t
hroughwit
hmarryi
ngyoutomorrow.Hethi
nks
youhavemebytheball
s.Say
sy ousucki
ngthe
f
unoutofme
Shesatontopofmyl
apandwr
appedherar
ms
aroundmyneck.
Her:okwhatLucdi dwasstupi
dandchi l
dish.
Butbabey oucanst il
lhangoutwit
hy ourf riends
andhav efunli
key oudidbefor
eev erythingel se.
Iunderstandyouwantt omakeupf orthet ime
youmissedi nKyle’
slifebybei
ngconst antly
ther
eforMi labutthatdoesn’
tmeany oucan’ t
haveal i
fe.Iwantyout ohaveali
feandenj oyit
Me:Iheary
ouandIunderst
andyoubabebut
youandMil
aaremyli
fenow, y
ouguysareal
l
t
hefunIneedi
nmyl i
fe.
Her:
that
’scut
ebabe.Butcomeon,l
et’
sgo
dr
inkandhaveloadsoff
un.Westi
l
lyoung
Me:
soy
ouwantt
ogoout
?
Her
:Ij
ustwantt
ogodanci
ngi
nthecl
ubwi
th
myman…
Me:
justasl
ongasy
ounotdr
inki
ngt
henwe
good
Her
:Iknow.Nowwhatshoul
dIwear
?
Shegotupandwentt ot hecloset
.Shesettled
foravestanddeni mj acket.Whenshewas
donewel ef
tt ogether.I twasjustaft
er9pm
anyway.Wel eftthecl ubat1am.Whenwegot
homeIwasn’ tthatdr unkandYay awasas
soberasajudge.Iwentt osl
eepatmycr ibafter
becausewewer eget tingmar ri
edtomorrowand
apparent
lyit
sbadl uckt oseethebri
debef ore
thewedding.That ’
st ortureifyouaskme.
.
.
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15,
16:
41]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E20–Yay
a
***“…You’ r
ewhoI ’mthinki
ngofandgi rlyouaint
myr unnerupandnomat t
erwhatyou’realways
numberone.Mypr izepossessiononeandonl y,
ador ey ougirl
Iwanty ou,t
heoneIcannotl iv
e
withoutt hat’
syou,that’
syou.You’r
emyspeci al
l
itt
lel ady,theonethatmakesmecr azy,ofall
thegi rl
sI’veeverknowni t
’syou.I
t’
sy ou.…”**
*
Theweddi ngwasgoi ngtobeheldatMelo’s
grandparents’house,
theyhadabeauti
fulhouse
afteral
landt heyardwasbigenough.Wewer e
i
nt heroom, mybr i
desmaids,
mymom andmy
grandmot her.
Khulu:
ladi
espl
easegi
veusami
nut
ewi
tht
he
br
ide.
Lucki
l
ymymake- upwasn’tdoneyetanditwas
sti
l
lmor ni
ng.Peopl ewererunni
ngaroundli
ke
headl
esschi ckenstry
ingtomakesur emyday
i
sperfect.Thegi r
lswalkedoutandleftmewit
h
mymot her’s.
Khul u:Yandi swamybaby .Mar riageisahuge
step, notsomet hingonej ustjumpsi ntoey es
closedev ent hought hechal l
engesofi tmay
makei tseem l i
key ourey eswer eclosedbuti t’s
notsomet hingoner ushesi nto.Idon’ teven
knowwhet herI ’m maki ngsensebutbabyunl ike
yournor mal dat ingandst uff,youcan’ tjust
l
eav ewhent hingsgett ough.Youhangi nt here.
Lucki l
yy ougr ewupi napr ayinghomeandy ou
knowv erywel lthatpr ayersol vesev er y
thing.
Ev enwhenwor dsar en’tther e,tearsst i
llmean
somet hingt oourGod.Pr aymyl ove,ingood
ti
mesandi nbad, nev erfor getthatGodi st here.
You’r eamot herandawi fe,therear esome
thingsy oucannotdoandwhathappensunder
yourr oofbehi ndt hatcl oseddoorst ay sthere.
Nev erlety ourf riend’si nonwhathappensi n
yourmar riageandIsayt hisbecausenoneof
yourf riendsar emar riedsot heywon’ t
under st andt hest ruggl esofmar ri
age.Iwon’ t
saymuchbutwe’ vehav et histalkbef oreand
y
ouknowhowt
ocar
ryy
our
sel
f
She’
snotlying.WhenIgothomef r
om t
he
hospi
tal
aftergivi
ngbirt
hshesatmedownand
gavemeal ectur
eaboutbecomi ngamot her
andawife.HowI ’
mr esponsi
bleformaki
ngour
houseahome.I twasprobablythemost
l
ongesttal
ksheandIhav eeverhad.
Me:
thanky
ouKhul
u
Her
:justbei
ngamot
her
.
Mom: Inev ergotmar riedsoI ’
m notonet ogive
youat al
konhowt ocar ryyoursel
fasawi fe.I
’m
proudofy ouandev erythingyou’v
e
accomplished.I’m proudoft hewomany ou’ve
become.Youar eli
terally10xawomanIcoul d
everbe,thet hi
ngsy ouhav ewentthroughmy
baby,Iwoul dhavenev erbeenabletocomeout
ofthem ali
v eandasst rongasy ou.You’r
ean
amazingper sonandt heBessesar eluckyto
haveyoui ntheirli
ves.Il oveyoubaby .Somuch
Me:
ahhhmom.Youmaki
ngmecr
y
Khul
u:atl
easty
ounotwear
ingmakeup
Ipul ledbot hoft hem inf orahugandwe
embr acedt hemoment .Itf eltsogood, these
womenwer esay i
ngallther ightt hings.My
make- upt eam finall
ycameandmyhai rwas
styledupandmymake- updone, Iwaspr etty
muchdol ledupandl ookedbeaut if
ul.Iwas
l
ooki ngatanangel r
eflect edi nthemi rror
bef oremeandmybabywassuperador ablein
herpi nkonesy .Wet ookaf ewpi cturesandt hen
around10i twast imet oheaddown.The
mi nut eIwal keddownt heai sleMr .Bessj nr
coul dn’thelpbutshedat ear .Iwon’ tli
ei fhe
didn’ tcryIwasr eall
ygoi ngt oturnbackand
star toverunt i
lhecr ies.Iaskedmyuncl et o
wal kmedownt heai sl
eandhewasmor ethan
happyt odoi t
.Mydayl ookedl i
keadr eam andI
j
ustcoul dn’twai ttobecomeMr s.Bess.We
wer est andingi nfrontoft hepast oraboutt o
sayourv ows.Mel owasgoi ngtogof i
rst,Iwas
ki
ndofner v
oust ogof i
rstandsowashe.
Him:
fir
stthi
ngsf i
rst
.Youarethemostdif
fi
cul
t
womanIhaveev ermet,noneofmysist
ers
comecloset
oy ouey
Igav
ehi
m adeat
hst
areandhechuckl
ed.
Him: butapar tfrom al l
t hethat .You’ r
e
everythingI’veev erwishedorhopedf or.You
taughtmehowt olov eandhowt obecomea
bettermanandnowaf athert oourbeaut if
ul
daught er.You’vemademer ealizethatwhat
happenedi nthepastdoesn’ tmat t
er,what ’
s
i
mpor t
anti swhathappensnow.Idon’ tknow
howmanymi stakesI ’
vemadeorhowmany
ti
mesI ’
vescr ewedupbuty oul ookedpastt hat.
You’reanamazi ngwomanYandi swaGxabaand
I’
m mor ethanhappyt hatI t
sy out hatIwi l
lbe
spendi ngther estofmyl i
fewi th.Ev eryti
meI
i
magi nedmyf uture,Ialway ssawy oui nitandI
sti
llseey oui nit.Thanky ouf orput ti
ngupwi th
meandst i
llgoingt oputupwi thme.Il ovey ou
Maf akuandIpr omi seIwi l
lalway sl i
vet omake
youandourdaught erandsonandt her estof
ourki
dshappy
.Youhav
emyhear
t;i
tbel
ongst
o
you.
Byt hetimehewasdoneIwasi ntears.Ismi l
ed
throught het earsofjoy.Eversi nceMel ocame
i
ntomyl ifeI’
v ealwayspicturedt hisperfect
weddi ngandt odaywasmydr eam comi ngtrue.
Mel oisachangedmanandt hati sallbecause
ofmeandIwi l
lforev
erbegr at efultothe
heav enl
yf atherforgivi
ngmehi mt ospendmy
eternit
ywi thbecauset hereisnomanbet ter
thanhi m.
Me: Idon’ tknowhowI ’
m expectedtof oll
ow
afterthat.Itri
edgoogl i
ngv owslastnightbut
noneoft hem betterexpresshowIf eel.Idon’
t
thi
nkt her ewasev eranyonemor einfl
uent i
ali
n
myl if
et hany ou.You’vechangedmef orthe
betterandt here’snothi
ngaboutwhatwe’ ve
beent hrought hatIwouldchangebecausei t’
s
thoset hingsthathav ebroughtusheret oday.I
hav enoi deahowmanyt i
mesI ’
vepray edtothe
Lordt okeepy ouinmyl i
febecauseIdon’ twant
toexperi
enceli
fewithoutyou.Thanky oufor
alwayschal
lengi
ngmeandmaki ngmest epout
ofmycomf ortzone…thatbeingmaki ngmea
mothertoourbeauti
fuldaughterandourson.I
wouldn’
tbewher eIam nowwi thoutyou.Ilov
e
youMelokuhleBessandy ouownev eryi
nchof
myheart.
Hehadt ears.MelokuhleBesswascr y
ing.The
greatsonofDamonBesswascr yi
ngbecause
ofme.i twassocut e.Hequicklywipedhis
tearsthouandIf oundmy sel
fgiggli
ng.Hei s
suchadr amaqueen.Thepast orannouncedus
husbandandwi feandweshar edanamazi ng
kiss.I
nt herecepti
onpeopl ewer enowmaki ng
speechesandMel o’sparentswer etal
king.
Ama: youknowIlovedyoufrom theveryfi
rst
ti
meImety ouasmydaught er
’sfri
end.There
wasjustsomethingaboutyouthatreminded
meofmewhenIwasy ourage.Iremember
aft
eryouleftIt
oldmysont obewi thyou
becauseyouarethekindofwomanheneeds.
Lookingaty outodayIcanseethatIwasright
abouty ouandnot hi
ngpleasesamothermor e
thanseeingherchi l
dsett
ledownwithsomeone
whohel psthem grow.Welcometothefami l
y
YandiswaandIknowt hatyouwil
ltr
eatmyson
well
.Mel okuhleyouhaveanamazingwoman
ony ourarm, don’
tmessitup.Il
oveyoukids
Mymotherinlawisprobablythemostsweetest
per
sonIhaveevermet .OneofthereasonsI
nev
erwantedmar r
iagewast hefearofget
ti
nga
monst
erinlaw.Iwouldneversurviv
e.
Dae:Ireal
izedmysonwasi nlov ewithyou
whenhef oundouty ouwer einhospi tal
…It hi
nk
youhadapani cattackorsomet hingbuthewas
unsett
ledandi t
’spret
tystrangebecausehe
keptdenyinghowhef eltabouty ou.Lookingat
youtwoIseet hestartofsomet hingbeauti
ful
thatnomancanbr eakifGodi sy ourfoundati
on
andwi t
hthewomany ouhav eIbel i
evethatGod
i
st hefoundati
on.Amahl eandIar ewherewe
aretodaythroughprayer.Idon’tknowabout
youki dsbutpray eristhekey .Don’tlosesight
ofGod.I ’
v emety ourmot herandgr andmot her
Yandi swaandIhav enodoubtt haty ouarea
childthatgrewupi nchurchandaChr i
sti
an
home.AndMel ower ai
sedy oui nchurchso
whent hi
ngsgett ough, don’tgooutt oclubst o
l
ookf ort
hingsy oudon’ tknow.Getony our
kneesandpr aythaty ouandy ourwifeget
throughwhat everst ormitisy ouarecur r
ent l
y
facing.Iloveyouki ds.
Damon’ sdadgotmecr y i
ng.Bot hheandhi s
wifesai dthesweet estthings.Howdoesone
notlistentosuch?Idon’ tment i
oni talotbutI
neverf orgettopr ay
.Iwasr ai
sedi nahome
wher epr ayerwasl i
ter
allyyourev erythi
ngand
uptilltodaypr ayeri
sstillmyev erything.Trul
yI
am bl essed.Mymom sai daf ewkindwor ds
thatgotusi ntearsandsodi dmygr andmaand
l
itt
lesi st
er,Siya,Asemahl eandLedi alsosaida
fewwor ds.Mydaycoul dn’tgetanymor e
perfectthani twas.Wewer eonthedancef l
oor
danci
ngt oBeyoncé–Youaremyr ock.The
songprettymuchdescr
ibesj
usthowIf eel
aboutmyguy .Aft
ert
hatonehesaidhehad
somethinghewantedtodo.
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:Ihav
easur
pri
sef
ory
ou.
Me:
oh.Shoul
dIwor
ry?
Hi
m:nahnotr
eal
l
y.
HesangmeJust inBieber’sFavori
tegirl
,very
oldsongbutst i
ll
myal l
-timefavori
tetrack.I
couldn’
thelpbutkeepbl ush.Heknowshow
muchIl ovethesong.Whenhewasdone
si
nginghewal kedupt omeandIwr appedmy
armsar oundhisneckandat tackedhim wi t
ha
ki
ss.Myhusband…f eelsgoodsay ingthat.My
husbandwast hemostawesomeguyi nthis
pl
anet .
.
.
<3
[12/
16,
07:
43]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E21–Mel
o-3YEARSLATER
***“
…Sincet helastt i
mewehadsexhonest l
y
I’
vebeenamess.Feel i
ngcausey ougott he
best,borderli
neki ndaobsessed.I ’m onsome
kindofdr ugandI ’vebeenaddi ctedandIcannot
fi
ndenough…. .andwecanputupt hepl easedo
notdisturb.Igott hedrink,Igottheher b.I’
m
tweakingnowImustbecur edtheonl ywayI
restassuredi sif
, Igetmyf ixIlovethewayy our
dressjustslipsrightoffy ourwaistrightdown
yourhips, t
echniquest hebesty ouknowsome
tri
cks.Ineedy ounowIneedy oubad…” * *
*
Yay
awastur
ning24andI26.Thi
ngsbetween
uswer
egr
eat,wewereongreatt
erms.
Mar riagelifewast reatingusper f
ect l
yandwe
wer el i
vinginJobur gnow.I twasn’ teasyt o
mov efrom Dur bant oher ewi thal lofourl i
fe
beingt hereandhav ingst artedt here.Mysi ster
andJameswer est i
llgoodandst illgrowi ng.It
wasi nApr il
andYay awasl aunchi nghernew
gall
er yher einJobur gt hef ol
lowi ngweek.The
onei nDur banwasbei ngr unbyhersomear t
ist
wemet3y earsbackandt heyact uall
yhi titoff
andnowhe’ sinchar ge, I
’m okwi thhim
becauset hedudei sgaysoIhav enot hingt o
pani cov er.Ourlit
tl
eonegr ewupt olookmor e
l
ikehergr andmot herAmahl ethanYay aorme,
sheonl yhadaf ewf eaturesf r
om usbutei ther
thant hatshel ookedl i
keAsemahl e’ski d.My
sisterwal kedinandt hrewher selfont hecouch,
Yay awasoutshoppi ngwi thYasy .
Me:
youl
ookedst
ressed
Her
:lastni
ghtJamesaskedmet
omar
ryhi
m
Me:
ok…whyar
en’
tyouexci
ted?
Her
:I’
m notr
eadyformar
ri
ageandev
ery
thi
ng
t
hatcomeswithi
t
Me:whatdoy
oumean?Guyl
ovesy
ouandyou
l
ovehi
m…whyaren’
tyoumar
ryi
ngt
heguy?
Her:
becausewi t
hmar ri
agecomeseveryt
hing
el
se.I’
m notcutoutforallt
hestr
essandthe
dr
amaandal lthatcr
apt hatcomeswit
h
marri
age
Me:YayaandIar
ehappil
ymar
ri
ed.Ourpar
ent
s
ar
esti
ll
happil
ymarr
ied.
Her
:mar
ri
agehasi
tsownpeopl
e
Me:t
hatmakesnosense.Asemahl
ewhatar
e
your
eal
lyaf
rai
dofhere?
Her
:ar
ghMel
oit
snot
hing
Me:i
t’
snotnothi
ng.Tal
ktome,
what
’sr
eal
l
y
bot
her
ingyou?
Her
:it
’sr
eal
l
ynot
hing.Don’
tst
ress
Me:
Iknowy
ou.Somet
hingi
sony
ourmi
nd
Her
:rememberwhenIgotr
aped
Me:
Iremember
Her
:Igotani
nfect
ion
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Her
:thecleani
ngdi
dn’
tgoasi
twassupposed
t
osoi tl
edtoaninf
ect
ion
Me:
andyouonlytell
i
ngmet
hisnow?Coul
dn’
t
t
heinf
ect
ionbecured?
Her:i
twasbutwhati
fIcan’thaveanykidsand
Jameswantstohavet
hem? ..
.actual
lyhedoes
wanttohaveki
dsbutI
’m scaredthatImight
notbeablet
ohavechi
ldr
enev erandthatwould
crushhi
ssoul
Me:Asemahlewhyhav
eyounev
ert
oldanyof
usaboutt
his?
Her
:itj
ustnev
ercameup
Me:I
’myourt
winAsemahl
e.Al
otoft
hings
comeup.
Her
:thi
sisexact
lywhyInevert
oldany
one.You
wor
rytoomuchMel o.I
’
mf i
ne
Me:
didy
ouev
err
evi
sitt
hegy
nae?
Her:
yeahIdi
dandshesaidIwascl
eanbut
whatif
?Imeant
hesethi
ngshappen
Me: t
henvisi
tagy
naeandhearwhatshesay s
aboutthi
swholet
hing.AsforJames,helov
es
youandhewouldn’
tletthi
scomebet weenyou
guys.Tel
lmewhatdidyousayt ohi
m?
Her
:tol
dhi
m wenoti
nanyr
ush
Me:andi
fheraisesi
tagai
n?Theguyi
snot
get
ti
nganyyoungerher
e
Her
:canwepl
easej
ustst
opt
alki
ngaboutt
his
ShesnappedandIkeptqui
et.
Her
:I’
m sor
ry
Me:
itsoksi
s
Her
:wher
e’st
heMr
s.andt
heki
ds?
Me:
Kyl
eisathi
smot
her
’spl
aceandYay
awent
shoppingwi
thMi
l
a.Whenar
eyougoi
ngbackt
o
Durban?
Her
:Whent
hisdeal
goest
hrough
Me:Whynotmovet
othi
ssi
de?ImeanJames
i
sbasedt
hissi
denow
Her:nahwegoodl i
kethi
s.Wehadat al
kabout
thi
sthingandhefeelst
hatIdon’
tneedajob
andthatIshoul
djustmovethi
ssideandli
ve
wit
hhi m
Me:
letmeguess,
yousai
dnot
othatt
oo
Her:
I’m notonetogi
veupmyjobfora
r
elat
ionshipIhav
enoideawherei
t’
sgoing
Me:you’
reacompli
cat
edperson.Whenlastdi
d
youspeakt
oIya?Shehasn’
tbeenansweri
ng
mycall
s
Her:she’
sjustgoi
ngt
hroughst
uffwit
hher
husbandandshedoesn’
tneedyoutel
li
ngher
youtoldherso
Me:
whywoul
dIsayt
hat
?She’
smysi
sterandI
car
eaboutherwel
lbei
ng
Her
:herhusbandcheat
ed
Me:
WHAT?
Her:
youarenotonetot
alkconsi
der
ingt
heshi
i
t
youputYay
athrough
Me:yes,andI’
vegr
ownfrom al
lofthat
.The
minut
ey oudeci
detoset
tl
edowni tmeansyou
doneplayi
ng
Her
:okIheary
oubuti
thappenednow
Me:
Issheok?
Her
:she’
scopi
ng.
Me:
andt
heki
ds?
Her:
theydon’tknow.She’
sdoi
ngherbestt
o
hi
deitfr
om them.
Me:
Idon’
tli
ket
hisonebi
t.
Her:
ithappenedonceMel
o.Wecan’
thol
dit
agai
nsttheguy
Me:wedon’
tknowthat
.CanIgety
ou
somet
hingt
oeatordri
nk?
Her
:asandwi
chwi
l
ldoandagl
assofj
uice
Me:
okcomi
ngr
ightup
Igotupandwenttomakeussomet
hingtoeat
.
JustthenMil
acameinr
unni
ngandwrapped
herarmsaroundmyl
egs.
Me:
hel
l
oangel
Her
:hel
l
odaddy
Me:
wher
e’smommy
?
Her
:tal
ki
ngont
hephonewi
thaunt
yAsh
Me:
sowhatdi
dyouandmommydo?
Isatheront
opoft
het
abl
e.Shewassohy
ped
up.
Her
:weat
eicecr
eam
Expl
ainst
heener
gy.
Me:
Isee.Andwhatdi
dyoubuyf
ordaddy
?
Her
:not
hing
Me:
hai
bo
Shegi
ggl
ed
Her
:weboughty
ouchi
psandmeat
Me:
let
’sgohel
pmummybr
ingi
nthet
hingsy
ou
t
wobought
Her:whuuuu….I
’
mti
red.Mummyt
ookme
ever
ywhere
Me:
real
l
ynow
Her
:yes,
daddy
Me:
AuntMel
odyi
sint
hel
ounge
Her
:Yheeey
!
Me:
ok
Itookherofft
hecount erandsherantothe
l
ounge.Iwalkedoutt ogohelpmywi f
e.Yaya
wasstil
labeauty,sti
llsexyasf
uckandv ery
muchasexaddi ct.Ihuggedherfr
om behind
andkissedherneckwhi chmadehergiggle.
/
/Her
:it
sMel
osor
rybabe.Soy
ouwer
esay
ing?
….
.
Her
:No.
….
Her:honeyI
’
m sosor
ry.I
’
llgetont
hepl
aneas
soonasIcan
….
Her
:noAshwef
ri
ends.I
t’
smydut
y
….
Her
:I’
l
lcal
lyoul
ater
….
Her
:Il
ovey
ouandhangi
nther
e
….
Her
:By
e//
Shedroppedthecal
landputherphonei
nher
backpocket
.Sheseemeddown
Me:
what
’swr
ong?
Isaidwrappi
ngmyarmsar
oundherwai
stand
hersaroundmyneck.
Her
:Shehadami
scar
ri
age
Me:
What
?Howi
sshehol
dingup?
Her
:she’
sindi
str
ess.She’
snotok
Me:
Micahmustbecr
ushed
Her:
yep.Iwast
hinki
ngofgoi
ngt
oEngl
andt
o
seeher
Me:
When?
Her
:Idon’
tknow.Somet
imenextweek
Me:
I’
ll
freemyschedul
e
Her
:youhaveameetingTuesdaymor
ning.I
ts
okBabe,
I’
ll
probabl
ybebackSundaynextweek
Me:
Ohok.Whatdi
dyout
wobuyt
oday
?
Her
:al
otbabe.Yourdaught
eri
sashopahol
i
c
Me:
shel
ear
nsf
rom hermot
her
Iki
ssedherf
oreheadandshechuckl
ed
Her
:ev
enI’
m notthatbad.She’
sspentt
oo
mucht
imewithAsemahle
Me:
andy
ou
Her:ar
ghhel
pmegett
heset
hingsi
nsi
det
he
house.
Me:
fine
Iletgoofherandsheopenedthebootandwe
tookthethingst
othehouse.Ai
ntl
ikeshe
boughtalotofclot
hes,
itwasmostlygr
ocer
y
bagsandf ood
Me:
byt
hewayAsemahl
eisher
e
Her
:expl
ainswhyYasyi
snotsi
tt
ingher
enow
Me:
theybest
ies
Her
:andpeopl
eal
way
sthi
nkshe’
sherdaught
er
i
nst
eadofmine
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
jeal
ous?
Her
:ofcause.She’
smybaby
Me:
butshel
ovesy
oumor
esochi
l
l
Her:I
’
m chil
led.Pl
easeunpackt
hegr
ocer
ies,
I
’m dr
ainedandhungry
Me: st
aywi
thmeandchatmeup.Tel
lmeabout
yourday
Her :
Ihadalotoff
un.Ever
yonejustwantedto
takeapictur
eofherandyourdaught
erbeinga
l
ov eroft
hecameraposedli
kenobody’s
business
Me:
Hermot
heri
saphot
ogr
apheraf
teral
l
Her:
yeahwel l
sheki
ndofhasto.Sot
odayIgot
acallf
rom somemodel
li
ngagency
Me:
oh
Her:
theywantt
ouseYasyf
orsomecl
othi
ng
commerci
al
Me:
Ihopey
ousai
dno
Her:
ofcauseIsai
dno.She’
stooy
oungf
ort
hat
ki
ndofexposur
e
Me:say
sthepersonwhoi
sfor
everupl
oadi
ng
heronI
nst
agram
Her
:asifyoudon’
t.she’
smymostperfectart
.
Haveyouseenthepict
uresI
’
vetakenofherand
Kyl
e?Theygoingtobemycenterpi
ece
Me:that’
scut
ebabe.Sowi
thy
ougoingtoCal
i
,
doesthatmeanyougoi
ngt
oshif
tthedat
eof
theopeni
ng?
Her
: shi
it
!Theopeni
ng!It
otal
l
yforgotabout
t
hat.I’
m gonnahavet
omov ethedate.My
f
ri
endneedsme
Me:
what
every
oudobabeIgoty
ourback
Her
:hel
pmeouther
e
Ishr
ugged.Botht
heGall
eryandAshmeanalot
tohersoIreal
l
yhavenoideawhatt
osaytoher
.
Herphonerangandsheansweredi
tput
ti
ngi
t
onspeaker
.
/
/Her
:HeySer
ena
Ser
:eyhone.Howar
eyou?
Her
:I’
m goodbabeandhowar
eyou?
Ser
:al
sogood.Hav
eyouhear
dfr
om Ash?
Her
:Ispoket
oherj
ustnow.She’
snotok
Ser
:Icani
magi
ne.I
’
m onmywayt
oEngl
and
now
Her
:Iwi
shIwast
her
eforher
Ser
:Ibeti
t’
shermot
heri
nlaw.
Her
:don’
tbemeannow
Ser:
nothatwomanhashatedherf
rom si
nce
dayone.Iwoul
dn’
tbesur
pri
sed
Her:butt
henagai
nwhaty
ousay
ingmakes
sense
Ser
:I’
l
lcal
lyouwhenI
’
m wi
thher
Her
:I’
l
lpr
obabl
ybookat
icketf
ort
omor
row
Ser
:don’
tfor
gett
obr
ingYasy
Shelookedatmefi
rstandIj
ustrol
ledmyey
es.
Yayawouldn’
tgoanywherewi
thoutYasy
Her:she’smypurse.WhereIgo,shegoesbut
notthisti
me.Ashisgoingthr
oughenough
al
ready ,
thel
astt
hingIwantistorubYasyin
herface
Ser
:Iheary
oubabe.Iunder
stand
Her
:I’
l
lseey
ouwhenIseey
ouok
Ser
:by
ehone
Her
:by
ebabe/
/
Shedr
oppedt
hecal
l
.
Me:
aren’
tyouasweet
hear
t
Her:
Ashneedsme.Yasy’
snannywi
l
lbe
sl
eepingher
eint
hist
imebei
ng
Me:
yout
hinkIcan’
ttakecar
eofmyownbaby
Her:
Iknowy oucanbuty
ouhavewor
kandYasy
l
ovesattent
ionmoret
hanany
thi
ngsoit
’ssaf
e
shestay
s
Me:
okbabef
ine.
Wecont
inuedj
ustchat
ti
ngaboutst
uffandt
hen
wewenttotheloungewi t
hthefood.Asemahle
andYasyweretoobusyt aki
ngpict
ures…Yay a
andIl
ookedateachot herandchuckl
ed, t
hese
twobondintheweirdestwayanditscute.
.
.
<3
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16,
07:
43]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E22-Yay
a
***
“…standinginthelightofyourhal
o,Igotmy
angelnow.It’
slikeI’
vebeenawaken, everyr
uleI
hadtobreaki t
.It’
sther i
skthatI
’mtaki
ng.Iaint
nevergonnashuty ouout .Ever
ywherei’
m
l
ookingout ,I
’
m surroundedbyy ourembrace.
BabyIcanseey ourhalo.Youknowy oumy
savi
nggr ace.Youev eryt
hingIneedandmor e.
I
tswr
it
tenal
lovery
ourf
ace,
Ipr
ayy
ouwon’
t
f
adeaway…”
***
Igotonl i
neandbookedat i
ckettoLondon,
that’
swher eAshwasany way.Iwassitti
ngin
frontofmyl apt
opwhenYasyandherf at
her
walkedi nlaughing.Iclosedmyl aptopbecause
sheal way swantst opressitorwat chamov ie
oni t
…Tangl edtobespeci fi
c.Iputitonthe
pedest alandwat chedt hem play
ingand
chatti
ngupast orm, actuall
ytheywer eargui
ng.
Yasy
:ButIwantpi
zza
Me:
whatar
ewear
gui
ngaboutnow?
Theyl
aughedandl
ookedatme.
Hi
m:shewant
spi
zzaandIwantspur
Yasy
:mummyt
ell
daddywewantpi
zza
Me:
buty
oucan’
tev
eneati
tbaba
Melostuckhist
ongueoutatherandshe
pouted.Ist
oodupandwrappedmyar ms
aroundthem.
Me:
okf
inewe’
l
lgetpi
zza
Hi
m:t
hat
’ssonotf
air
Me:
she’
sachi
l
dMel
o…st
opt
ri
ppi
ng
Hi
m:youguy
swi
l
lgety
ourpi
zzaandIwi
l
lget
myspur
Me:howaboutthis.Noonei
sgoi
ngany
wher
e
andI’
l
ljustcook
Yasy
:noooo.Iwantpi
zza
Hi
m:Mi
lawegoingtohav
easmuchpi
zzawhen
mummyisgoneok
Il
ookedathi
m andhechuckl
ed
Her
:mummyi
sleav
ing?
Me:
justf
oraf
ewday
s
Her
:Iwantt
ogowi
thmummy
Me:
comeher
e
Itookherf
rom Mel
oandwentt
osi
tdownwi
th
her.
Me:wearegoi
ngt
oleav
etoget
herwhenIcome
backok
Shestil
lpouted.Mel
oj usthadtobri
ngme
l
eavingup.Ilookedupathi m andhemout
hed
“sor
ry”
,Irol
ledmyey es.
Me:
nanal
ookatme
Shejustpoutedwanti
ngtocry.Leavi
ngMi l
ais
alwaysthehardestt
hingtodo.sheissoused
tohavingmear oundherandnowi tj
ustget
s
dif
fi
cultforhert
oletmego.
Me:
honeyl
ookatme
Sheshookherhead
Me:
hai
keI
’
llcal
lKy
leandt
ell
him nott
ocome
Her
:NO!
Me:
thenl
ookatme
ShelookedatmeandIsmi
l
edatherbutshe
wasn’tf
azedatal
l
Me:
ohwel
l
.Fi
net
henpout
…we’
l
lseewhowi
l
l
t
akepi
ctur
esofy
ou
Shesmil
ed.Godt
hischi
l
dandpi
ctur
es.She’
s
camer
aobsessed
Me:whenIcomebackwear
egoingtodoa
phot
oshootatmummy’
sgal
l
eryok?
Shenodded.
Me:
kissme.Il
ovey
ou
Shesmi l
edandkissedme.par enti
ngi saf ul
l
ti
mej obyoh.Wedecidedonor deringpizzaand
stayi
ngindoorshavi
ngitdeli
vered.ItookMi l
a
tobedandcamebackt ofindMel oinbed
tal
kingonthephone.Itookmycl othesof fand
j
oinedhim,hepulledmet ohim cuddledme.he
saidhisgoodbyes
Hi
m:sowhatt
imedoesy
ourf
li
ghtl
eav
e?
Me:
at6
Hi
m:t
hat
’swayt
ooear
ly
Me:
Iknowbabe.Ser
enai
sgoi
ngt
ofet
chme
Hi
m:ok,
I’
ll
dri
vey
out
otheai
rpor
t
Me:
don’
ttel
lmey
oupout
ing
Him:I
’m notpout
ing.Ij
ustr
eall
ywant
edt
ogo
wit
hyoubutitsok.Myweeki sgoi
ngt
obe
hect
ic
Me:thegall
eryopeningwillbenextweekFri
day
,
I’
vealr
eadyarrangedwiththecater
ersand
ever
yoneelseandashar dofaj obitwasI
managedtogetev eryt
hingsort
ed…
Hi
m:oht
hat
’sgoodt
hen
Igotont
opofhi
m andsatonhi
scr
ouch.
Me:
I’
m goi
ngt
omi
ssy
ou
Hi
m:howmuch?
Ichuckledandstar
tedkissi
nghim andhe
responded.Iwentdownt ohisneckwhi l
e
grindi
ngbackandf ort
honhi sD,Icouldfeel
him gohardbythemi nut
eashecar essedmy
asssqueezingit
.Wehadmi ndblowingsexand
mul ti
pleor
gasms,Ithi
nkwesl eptaround1am.
AllIknowi sthatIwasdr ained,superti
red.The
nextmor ning,wewokeupandshower ed
toget herandt henhewentt omakeme
breakf astasIgotdr essedi nasi mplejeanandt
-shirtwithsneaker sandabomberj acket.He
broughtmeaf r
uitsaladwi thyoghurtandhe
star t
edget ti
ngdr essed.Wedr oveofftothe
airport,Icall
edSer enat el
li
ngherIwasonmy
wayt otheai r
portandt hatIwoul dcallherwhen
Ilanded.Wel eftYasywi t
hhernanny .Shecame
whenIwaseat i
ngbr eakfast.Wegott othe
airportandMel ogav emeagoodby ekissandI
wentof ftoLondon.Af t
erhour sofflyi
ngIwas
her e,Icall
edSandshecamet ofetchmeaf ter
20mi nutesorso.
Me:
howi
sshe?
Her
:she’
suhhm…Idon’
tknow,
okIguess
Me:Ican’
tevenbegi
ntoi
magi
net
hepai
nshe’
s
goi
ngthrough
Her
:not
hingaboutAshl
osi
ngt
hebabymakes
anysense.Shewasatmyof f
iceforacheckup
j
ustlastweekFr i
dayandev eryt
hingwasgoing
well,herstr
esslev el
swerefineandsowasher
pressureandt hensuddenlyshecomesher e
andt woday slatershemiscarri
es?Thatwitch
di
dsomet hing
Me:
Whatdoy
oumeanS?
Her:thatonemi nut
eshehatesAshand
suddenlynowt hatsheispr
egnantsheinv
ites
hertoherhomeandt hen48hourslat
ershehas
ami scarr
iage
Me: soundsal
i
ttl
efar
fetchedSerdon’ty
ou
thi
nk?Imeanyeahsureshedoesn’tl
ikeAshbut
Idoubtshewouldgothatfar
…that’
sher
grandchil
d
Her:I
’vebeentryi
ngtogetAsh’sfi
lebut
apparentl
yI’
m notauthori
zedtoseeherf
il
e.I
’
m
Ashanti’
sdoctorYaya,Ishoul
dbeall
owedto
seeherfil
e
Me:
thi
sisLondonandnotCal
i
,may
bet
hings
ar
edonedi
ff
erent
lyher
e
Her:
ormaybeshespi
kedAsh’
sfoodl
eadi
ng
hert
omiscar
ry
Me:
younotgoi
ngt
olett
hisgoar
eyou?
Her:no.Youmi ssedoutonthedr
ama
yester
day.LucyandEv el
ynhadapickateach
other
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Her:
LucyaccusedEvel
ynofki
ll
ingAsh’
sbaby
andslapswer
eexchangedbet
weentheladi
es
Ichuckl edt ry
ingtopictureMi cah’
smom
slappingsomeone.Thatwomani stooclassy
andt ooqueenandcomposedt obehav eratchet.
She’st hety peofwomany oulookatand
wonderi fsheev enshiit
sornot .Lucyisclassy
AFbutt hatdoesn’ tmeanshecan’ tber at
cheti f
needbe.Il oveherper sonali
tyandasf orAsh’ s
father,thatmani shel
laintimidati
ngyoh.
Me:
noway
Her:y
ep.Theguyshadt
ostepi
nandst
opt
hem.
LucydidanumberonEv
ely
ney
Me:
poort
hing
Her
:serv
esherr
ight
.Herhusbandi
scheat
ing
onherbr
uh
Me:
what
?Howdoy
ouknow?
Her:
youremembert
hepr
incesst
heyt
ri
edt
o
hookMicahupwi
th?
Me:
Kat
her
ine?
Her
:yep.Wal
kedi
nont
hem ki
ssi
ng
Me:noways!WhatwasKat
her
ineev
endoi
ngat
Mi
cah’shome?
Her:
topayherr
espect
sorsomethi
ngdowni
n
her“
shoul
dbe”daddyi
nlawspants
Me:
Ser
enacomeon
Her
:yep.Iwal
kedoutslowl
yandwentbackto
myroom.Theydidn’
tseemebutIsawthem
Me:
youar
esosneaky
.
Weparkedatthehospi
tal
andwal kedinand
headedst
rai
ghttoAsh’
sroom.Igoti nand
huggedhert
ight
lyandshejustcr
ied.Seei
ngher
l
ayingi
nthatbedwasenought omakemet ear
up.
Me:
HoneyI
’
m sosor
ry
Shejustsobbed.West
ayedineachother’
s
armsuntilwewerebot
hcalm.Ibrokethehug
andwipedhertearswi
thmythumbs.
Me:
howar
eyouhol
dingup?
Her
:I’
l
lbefi
newit
htime.Howarey
ou?How
wasyourf
li
ght
?Itol
dyounott
ocome
Me:youmyfri
end.you’
veal
waysbeenther
ef or
me;whatki
ndoffri
endwouldIbenott
odot he
same
Her
:thanky
ou
Ser
:wher
e’st
hehusband?
Ash:
hewentt
ogetussomet
hingt
oeat
Me:
whenar
eyouget
ti
ngoutofher
e?
Ash:toni
ghtortomorr
owmor ni
ng.I
’mjust
wait
ingforthedoct
ortorunsometest
sand
makesur et
hatevery
thi
ngisok
Ser:andhowdoesLucyfeelaboutt
hem
keepingyouher
ethi
slong?
Ash:
mom i
smom.Youknowhowshei
s
Me:butwhatdi
dyourdoct
orsaycausedy
our
mi
scarri
age?
Her:
hesai
dthebabywasgrowingi
nthewrong
pl
aceandt
hatmystressl
evel
swerehigher
Ser:bul
l
shi
t!I’
m aGynae,Iknowmyjoband
yourbabywasdoingfi
ne.Iwouldhav
etol
dyou
hadsomethingbeenwrong
Ash:
may
bet
her
e’ssomet
hingwemi
ssedf
ri
end
Ser:ababygr
owi ngel
sewherethanthewomb
canbebroughtbacktowhereitshouldwi
th
meds.Thatdoctorisl
yi
ng.Ineedtoseeyour
fi
le
Ash:Ser
enapl
easej
ustleti
tgo.What
’sdonei
s
done.Howisl
i
ttl
eYasy
?
Me:
she’
sgr
owi
ngup.Godshe’
ssuchadi
va
Ash:ncooohmahn.She’
sasweetchi
l
d,l
oves
peopl
e
Me:
nev
ersay
snot
otaki
ngapi
ctur
e
Theybot
hlaughed
Ash:
Iwantt
osee
It
ookoutmyphoneandpagedt hr
oughmy
pi
ctur
es,
someIgotthem f
rom Asemahl
efr
om
whenshevi
sit
edusatthehouse
Ash:
sheget
spr
ett
ierbyt
heday
Me:
arght
hanksguy
s
Ser
:youshoul
dgethersi
gnedi
ntoaki
ddi
es
modell
i
ngagency
Me:Yasyi
swaytooyoungtoleadthatli
fe.I
wanthert
ogeti
ntomodell
ingwhenshewant s
t
oandnotputhert
hroughsuch.I
’dloveherto
hav
eanor
mal
chi
l
dhood
Ash:Acelebri
ty’
schil
d?Andnor
malli
fei
nthe
samesentence?Doesn’twor
kli
ket
hathoney
.I
am thedaughterofLuci
ndaWal
shandmy
chi
ldhoodwasn’tnormal’
Ser:yourmot
herent
eredy
oui
nev
erypageant
ther
ewas
Ash:
andi
twasn’
tni
cebr
uh
Me:Iwouldn’
tputYasythr
ought
hat
.She’
s
goi
ngtoleadanormal l
i
fe
Ash:yougogi
rl
.Sotel
lme, t
heopeni
ngwas
supposedt
obethi
sFriday,whoi
shandl
i
ng
thi
ngswhil
eyouar
eher e?
Me:
Imov
edi
tupt
onextweekFr
iday
Ash:seewhyIdi
dn’
twanty
out
ocomeher
e.I
t’
s
aninconv
eni
ence
Me:youmorei
mportantt
hani
t.Pl
us,
Iwoul
d
r
atherhav
eyouther
ewithme
Ser
:ncoohar
en’
tya’
l
lsweet
hear
ts
Myphonerangandi
twasmyhusband.If
orgot
t
otel
lhi
m Iwashere
Me:
excusemeIhav
etot
aket
his
Iwal
kedoutandanswer
edhi
m.
//Hi
m: sowewi t
hAshandSer
enaandwe
suddenlyf
orgetwemarr
ied
Me:I’
m sosorr
yhoneyi
tsl
i
ppedmymind.
Ser
enadist
ract
edmewithsomegossi
p
Hi
m:i
tsokbabe.Howi
sshe?Howi
sMi
cah?
Me:wet
alki
ngandl aughi
ng,
Iguessshe’
s
get
ti
ngt
here.Ihav
en’tseenMicahyet
Hi
m: oht
hat’
sgood,
Iguessy
ouguy
sbei
ng
t
herehel
ps
Me:
yeahi
tdoes.Youst
il
latwor
k?
Hi
m:Ij
ustgothome
Me:awesome.Swi
tcht
oFaceTi
meImi
ssmy
baby
Hi
m:whataboutme?
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oo…j
ustnotasmuchasMi
l
a
Hel
aughed
Hi
m:f
inewhat
ever
.
Heswi t
chedt oFaceTimeandawhi l
elat
erwe
werev i
deocalli
ng.MilaandOlwet huournanny
werebusyar gui
ng.EishMilacanbev ery
stubborn,whenshewant ssomet hingshe
wantsitandshehast ohavei
t.Mel oand
Asemahl ehaverui
nedmybaby .Theyspoi l
her
toodamnmuch
Me:
heyYasy
Her
:MummyLwet
hudoesn’
twantt
ogi
veme
i
cecream
Me:
Mil
ait
scol
dfori
cecr
eam baby
.
Sher
ubbedherey
es
Me:
Mel
odosomet
hing
Hi
m:howabouty
ouhav
eyoghur
tinst
ead
Her
:butIwanti
cecr
eam
Me:andy
ouwi
l
lhav
eicecr
eam wheni
tshotok
baby
Shepout
ed.
Me:
she’
snothav
ingi
cecr
eam Mel
o.I
t’
scol
d
Hi
m:f
ine.Idi
dn’
tev
ensayany
thi
ng
Me:
youhav
eaweaknessf
orherpout
ing.Yasy
Her
:mah
Me:I’
m wit
haunt
yAshandSer
ena,
don’
tyou
wanttosayhi
?
Her
:Ido
Me:
okhol
don
Iwalkedbackint
ot heroom andt urnedthe
phonet oAshandSer ena.Haiketheyspokefor
qui
tesomet imeandshet ol
dt hem aboutthe
i
cecr eam i
nci
dent.Afterabout10mi nutesIgot
myphoneback.
Me:
Yasy
Her
:MummyImi
ssy
ou
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oo
Her
:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oobaby
Her
:okby
enow.
Shel
eftt
hephoneandthenIspoket
oMel
ofor
awhi
lebefor
edroppi
ngthecal
l/
/
.
.
<3
[12/
16,
07:
43]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E23-Mel
o
***
“…Ther
eisasweetanoi
nti
nginthi
s
sanct
uary
.Ther
eisasti
ll
nessint
he
atmospher e.Comeandl aydown, t
heburdens
youhav ecarri
ed,forinthissanctuary
.Godis
here.Hei shere,
hei shere.Tobreakt heYork
andlif
ttheheav yburdens.Hei shere,heishere.
Toheal thebrokenheartandbl essthe
broken…”***
Finally,
shewasbackandt odaywewer e
attendingherGal l
eryopeni ng.Wewer eboth
exci t
ementt hatwecoul dn’tcontainthe
exci t
ement .Imeant hedaywe’ v
ebot hf i
nall
y
beenwai ti
ngf orandhav ingourf riendsand
fami l
ytosuppor tusmeantt hewor l
dtobot hof
us, Iusethet erm“ us”becausehersuccessi s
mysuccessandsamegoesf ormi newi t
hher .
We’ reinapar t
nershipher eandbel ieveyoume
shewoul dn’thavedonei twithoutmeandI
woul dn’thav eachievedt helotI’
veachi eved
withoutherbymysi de.Cal lmel uckybutI ’
ve
foundmyper fectmat ch.Shewor eadust ypink
sli
ghtabov ethekneeopenbackl ongsleeved
dresswi thagol dr edbot tom heel andabei ge
l
ongcoat
,itwasali
tt
lechil
ly.Iwor
eblack
j
ogger
s,t
-shi
rtandablazerwithascar
f.
Me:
honeywegoi
ngt
obel
ate
Her
:justonemor
emi
nut
e
Iwalkedi
ntothecl
osetandshewassi t
ti
ngin
fr
ontofthemirr
orwit
hhereyesclosed,I
’m
assumingshewasprayi
ngbecauseshewasn’t
makingasoundorwhatsoever
.Shethensaid
Amenandopenedherey es
Her
:whendi
dyoucomei
n?
Me:
ami
nut
eago
Her
:ohok.I
’
m done,
wecangonow
Me:y
oulookbeaut
if
ulanddon’
twor
ry
ev
ery
thi
ngwil
lgoaccordi
ngl
y
Isaidki
ssingthesideofherhead.WemetYasy
i
nt hecorri
dor
.Shewaswear i
ngadust ypink
warm dressli
kehermom andcut egoldpumps.
Talkaboutmat chi
ng,herhai
rwastiedintoa
ponytail
.Wedr oveofftothegal
ler
y,Ikept
steal
i
nggl ancesather
,sheseemednervousas
fuckandshel ookedsofucki
ngbeaut
if
ulwit
h
herhairt
iedupi nt
oabunwi t
hgoldhi
ghli
ghts.
Me:
don’
twor
ry
Her
:I’
m ok.Ev
ery
thi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obeper
fect
Me:that
’st
hespi
ri
t,nowy
ouj
usthav
eto
bel
i
ev ei
t
Her:
I’
m nervousbabe.Alotofpeopl
eRSVP’
d.
whatifnoneofthem showup?
Me:
theni
t’
sthei
rloss.
Herphonewaspl ayingmusi cv i
aBl uetoothand
“GodI shere”waspl aying.Gospel hasthat
calmingef f
ectonmeandIt hi
nki tdoest oher
to.Icouldseehersi ngal ongandr elaxi
ngaswe
gotclosertot hev enue.Thepl acewaspacked
alr
eadyandt hecar sout sidewer eenough
evidencethatt oni
ghtwasboundt obea
success.Wepar kedandt henwal kedouthand
i
nhandi nsi
de.Wegr eetedev eryoneandIl eft
hertomingl
ewitheveryone.Iwasst
andi
ngwi
th
Ase,Siy
a,Ni
taandLedi wit
hhernewman;
Thaboorsomething.Yayaaskedtomakea
speech.
Her: Thanky ouallforshowi ngup.Ont heway
hereIwasner vousashel lthinkingoft hewor st
possi blescenar i
obuty oual lshowedup.Fi rstl
y,
Ibeliev ethatt odaywoul dhav enev erbeen
possi blewi thoutGod, hemadet odaypossi ble
andmadei tasuccessandf ort hatIam for ever
grateful Iturnedmyl ifeov ertohi m andlethi m
takeov er.Secondl ymyhusband.Mel okuhl e
BessIdon’ tknowwher eIwoul dbewi t
houty ou.
Thanky ouf orthelateni ghtswi thmei nst udio
wor kingont hesescul pt ur
est haty ouguy sar e
seeingher et oday,thef orcedphot oshoot ,
sacr i
ficingy ourtimeandwor kj ustsothis
gall
er ycanopent oday .Ilovey ou.Myhear t
belongst oy ou.Lastbutnotl eastt hanky out o
everyonewhoputi nt hewor kandhel pedme
maket hisplacewhati tisnow.Youguy sar e
awesome.Youguy scanlookar
oundandj
ust
br
owsethrough.Theonlythi
ngbei
ngsol
dare
hescul
ptur
es…can’thavemyhusband’
s
pi
ctur
eshangingony our
’l
lswal
l
snow
Weal
lchuckl
ed
Her
:enj
oyt
herestofyourev
eni
ngandagai
n,
t
hankyouf
orshowingup.
Shewalkeddownt hest
airsandwalkedov
ert o
us.Ipul
ledherbyherwaistandki
ssedher.She
brokeit
.Iwentcl
osetoherear
Me:
yousof
ucki
ngsexyIwanty
oubr
uh
Shegi
ggl
ed.
Her
:st
opbei
nghor
nydur
ingt
hepeopl
e
Me:
stopbei
ngsex
ydur
ingt
hepeopl
e
Ledi
:guy
swear
est
il
lher
ethanky
ouv
erymuch
Me:
you’
l
lunder
standwheny
ougetmar
ri
ed
Ase:ohGodIdon’
tevenwantt
oknowwhaty
ou
guysweret
alki
ngabout
Ash,Mi
cah,SerenaandJameswal
kedov
ert
o
j
oinuswit
hdrinks.
Ash:
thi
spl
acei
sami
niheav
enbr
uh
Ser:
howmuchdoy
ouchar
get
otakenude
shots?
Yay
a:huh?
Ser
:youhear
dme
Ash:
don’
tmi
ndt
hiscr
azyone
James:
greatt
urnofev
ent
sMr
s.Bess
Yay
a:t
hanky
ouguy
s.Thanky
ouf
orcomi
ng
James:andIam sor
ryt
ocutmyst
ayshor
t.I
havet
obei nsur
geryi
nanhour
Me:
weappr
eci
atey
oucomi
ngt
hrough
Hi
m:al
way
sapl
easur
e
Aseaccompani edhim out.Thi
ngsbetween
them havebeenal it
tl
eunsteadyeversi
ncethe
rej
ectedproposal.Poorguyreal
lywantsto
marrymysi st
er,guyevenaskedf ormyparent
’s
blessi
ngsbutwithoutAsesay ingy esthenthei
r
handsweretiedandsower emi ne.Theev ent
wasasuccessandwel ef
tthepl acearound12,
Yasywasal r
eadysleeping,hernannycamea
l
ittl
elat
erandshet ookherhome.Whenwegot
homeIhelpedhert akehershoesof fandthen
thedressandwewentt oshowert oget
herand
gotinunderthecov er
sandsl ept.
.
.
ONEWEEKLATER
Yaya’
sf atherhasbeensi cklatel
y,prost
ate
cancer.TurnsoutLat hit
ha’sbabywasn’thi s
andsot heybrokeupandhewor kedonf ixing
hismar r
iageandshef orgavehim andnowt hey
good.Hisr el
ati
onshipwi thYayawassubt l
e.It
wasn’tbadandnei therwasi tgood,itwasj ust
ok.Yayahadt oflytoDur banbecausehewasi n
hospit
al andshewant edtoseehim andal sogo
checkonhergal ler
yt hatside.
Her:I
’l
lbebackSat
urdayok,i
twason
Wednesday,shewastal
kingt
oYasywhowas
cr
yingwanti
ngtogowi t
hher
Yasy
:butIwantt
ogowi
thy
ou
Yaya:butbabayouhaveschool
tomorr
ow.Yasy
pl
easedon’tbedif
fi
cul
t.WhenIcomebackwe
aregoingtogoshoppi
ngandbuylot
softhi
ngs
Her
:youpr
omi
se
Yay
a:pi
nki
epr
omi
se
SheheldoutherpinkieandsodidYasyand
theyi
nter
twinedthei
rf i
ngersandseal
edthei
r
dealwi
thapeckont heli
ps.Mygirl
swerethe
mostcutestthi
ngknownt ohumansIswear.
Yaya:nowcanwegoandwashandgetr
eady
forbed
Yasy
:let
’sgo
Theywal kedoutandranupt
hestai
rst
oYasy’
s
room.Idi al
edYana’
snumberandsheanswer
ed
aftersomet i
me.
/
/Me:
bigsi
s
Her
:heyy
ou.Longt
ime
Me:say
stheper
sonwhohasbeenignor
ingmy
cal
l
sandmissedmywif
e’sopeni
ng
Her:i
twasn’
tint
ent
ional
.I’
vej
ustbeenso
caughtupwi
thworkandstuff
.I’
m sor
ry
Me:I
yanawhat
’sgoi
ngon?You’
vebeen
i
gnor
ingmeeversi
nceIcanr
emember
Her
:Ihav
en’tbeeni
gnor
ingy
ou.I
’
m sor
ryI
madeyoufeelt
hatway
Me:
trysomet
hingel
se
Her
:wher
edoIev
enst
art
?Ev
ery
thi
ngi
samess
Me:
what
’swr
ong?
Her
:Canwej
ustmeetupf
orbr
eakf
ast
t
omorrow
Me:
yeahofcause
Her
:cool
Me:I’
l
lpassbyaf
terdr
oppi
ngYay
aof
fatt
he
ai
rpor
t
Her
:Whywher
eisshegoi
ng?
Me:
herf
atheri
ssi
ckandhe’
sbeenadmi
tt
ed
Her
:ohmyGodt
hat
’sbad.Howi
sshehol
ding
up?
Me:youknowYandiswa…shedoesn’
tlet
any
thinggetherdown
Her
:ei
shIr
eal
l
yfeel
bad.Ihopeher
ecov
ers
wel
l
Me:
I’
m sur
ehewi
l
l.
Her
:Nkul
ulekoj
ustwal
kedi
n.I
’
llseey
ou
t
omorr
owok
Me:
oksi
s.Il
ovey
ou
Her
:Il
ovey
out
ooMel
o//
Aft
erthecal lIwentt
owasht hedishesand
poppedt hem int
othedry
erandt henwent
upst
airs.IfoundtheMrs.tal
kingonthephone
wit
hhersi
ster,t
heyspokeforabout20more
minut
esbeforeendi
ngthecall
.Shejoi
nedmein
bedandgotinundermyarm.
Me:
Ever
ythi
ngok?
Her:
thatwasSi
no.Shesay
she’
snotget
ti
ng
anybett
er
Me:
I’
m sor
rybabe
Her:t
hat
’swhathappenswhenyouscr
ewwi
th
God.Youpayfori
twithyourl
i
fe
Me:
youcan’
tsayt
hatbabe
Her
:it
’st
rue.Thi
siswhatwecal
lkar
ma
Me:
Iguessso…ar
eyouok?
Her:I
’
mf inebabe.Ij
ustf
eelsorr
yformy
si
bli
ngs.Sinosayshermom isn’
tcopi
ng,she’
s
l
ostweightandshe’sbar
elyeveneati
ng
Me:hemustbereal
l
ybad.Let
’spr
ayheget
s
bet
ter
.Not
hingbeat
spr
ayer
Her
:GoddamnIl
ovey
ou
Ichuckl
ed
Her:Imeanit
.Il
oveyou.Youalwaysknowwhat
t
osayandy oualway
stheretopickmeupwhen
I
’m down.You’
reamazi
ngMel o
Ismil
edandkissedthetopofherhead.She
l
ookedupatmeandpl ant
edaki ssonmylips
andthenwewentt olal
aland.Idrov
ehertothe
air
portandt
henIyaandIwentoutf orbr
eakfast
.
Her
:I’
vebeenhangi
ngoutwi
thNgawol
atel
y
Me:
Isn’
themar
ri
ed?
Her
:heandhi
swi
fedi
vor
cedear
li
ert
hisy
ear
Me:
ouch.Whathappened?
Her
:lov
elostIguess.Idon’
tknow
Me:
andwher
edoy
oucomei
nthepi
ctur
e?
Her
:Mel
oIt
hinkI
’
minl
ovewi
thNgawo
Me:
andwher
edoest
hatl
eav
eNkul
u?
Sheshr
ugged
Her:ev
ersincehecheat
edthingsbetweenus
wereneverthesameagainandIseenopointto
st
aywi t
hsomeoney oudon’
tev ent
rust
Me: soyouwi
ll
ingtoj
ustthr
owi
tal
laway
becauseofhi
m cheat
ing
Her:
wecan’tall
beli
keYayanow.Someofus
ar
en’tst
rongandfor
giv
ingenought
ojustl
eti
t
al
lgo
Me:someti
mesit
’snotevenaboutbeingstrong.
I
t’samat
terofl
oveandthewill
tofightforwhat
youwant
Her
:It
ri
ed
Me:
didy
our
eal
l
y?
Sheshr
ugged
Me:IknowIhav en’
tbeenmar ri
edf orl
ongbut
marr
iageisnotaboutgivi
ngupatt hefi
rsttr
y.
Marr
iageisaboutlayi
ngallyourtroubl
est oGod
andl
etti
nghimt akeovereveryt
hinginsteadof
j
ustgivi
ngital
lup.Youmar ri
edNkul ufora
reason,
Iknowthet
rustmaybebr
okenbutdo
youhonestl
ythi
nkt
hatgiv
ingupi
sthewayto
go?
Her
:Idon’
tknow
Me: t
hinkabouti
t.Don’
tal
lowyoursel
ftobe
dist
ractedbyanewdick.I
t’
sgoingtobenicei
n
thebeginni
ngbuttheendi
ngmaynotbet hat
good
Her
:whendi
dyougr
owup?
Me:
sit
uat
ionssi
s.Ihav
eawi fewhoi
nspi
res
metobet
hemanIam t oday
Her:
Iseeandlor
dknowsI’
m gr
atef
ulyouhav
e
heri
nyourl
if
ebecausenowyou’
vegrownand
youmoremature
Me:al
ri
ght
…enoughwi
thwhat
evert
hisi
s.I
hav
etogettowor
k
Me:
justt
hinkaboutwhatIsai
dok
Her
:yes,
li
tt
lebr
other
.Thanky
ou
Igotupandkissedthetopofherheadand
headedt
owor k.Igotacall
from Yayatel
l
ing
meshetravel
l
edsaf el
yandt hatshewouldcal
l
toupdat
emeonhowt hi
ngsarethere.
.
.
<3
[12/
16,
07:
44]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E24-Yay
a
***
“…Sotell
me, yoursecr
ets.Ij
ustcan’tst
and
toseeyouleavi
ng.Butheavencouldn’twai
tfor
you,noheavencouldn’
twaitforyou…Sogoon
gohome.West oodont heceili
ngs,y
oushowed
mel ov
ewasal l
youneeded…” ***
Dur
banwasf
ine.Myf
atherwasr
ecov
eri
ngand
thankGodf orthat.Ispoket
omyf amil
yin
JoburgEVERYDAY.I twasSundayandt odayI
wasf l
yingback, Imissedmytwost ubbor
n
people.Dadwasoutofhospi talandhewas
backinhi shouse.Iwasmeet i
ngMel o’smom
forbreakfast,shewasgoi ngtoflytoJoburgt
he
nextday .Ivideocalledmyhusbandand
daughter,I’
m pr ett
ysureMil
ahasbeensl eepi
ng
i
nourbedi nmyabsence
/
/Me:
Mor
ning’
sbeaut
if
ulpeopl
e
Mel
o:mor
ningwi
fey
Mi
l
a:mommy
Me:
howar
eyoumyangel
?
Her
:youcomi
ngbackt
odayr
ight
?
Me:
ofcause.Imi
ssy
out
oomuch
Her
:wher
eisSi
no?Wheni
sshecomi
ngher
e?
Me:Sinoi
satwork;
shewil
lcomet
her
ewhen
she’
snotbusywi
thworkok
Her
:Imi
ssy
ou
Me:Imissyout
oo.Whatdi
dyouanddadeat
l
astni
ght?
Her
:daddycookedusmacar
oonandmi
nceand
pot
atoesandveggi
es
Me:
anddi
dyoueaty
ourv
eggi
es?
Shegi
ggl
edandl
ookedatMel
o
Him:hay
idon’
tlookatme.y
ouknowy
oudi
dn’
t
eatt
hem
Her
:shhhhdad.
Sheputhersmal li
ndexfingeronMelo’sl
ipsto
shuthim up.Ifoundmy selflaughi
ng,
thesetwo
wereador abletoget
her.I
t’shardnott
omi ss
them andt hei
rconstantbickeri
ng
Me:
soy
oudi
dn’
teaty
ourv
eggi
es?
Shegi
ggl
edandshookherhead
Her
:daddydi
dn’
tmaket
hem l
i
key
oumake
t
hem
Hi
m:Ij
ustdi
dn’
tputcheesesaucet
hat
’sal
l
Me:
wel
lthat
’showwegethert
oeatt
hem
Him:ohwel
lIf
orgot.I
fshewasn’
tbusypl
ayi
ng
gameswit
hOlwethuthenshewasgoingt
ohelp
me
Her
:Ol
wet
huandIar
egoi
ngt
otownt
oday
Me:doest
hatmeany
ouwon’
tfet
chmeatt
he
ai
rpor
twit
hdaddy
?
Her:
noooo.Iwi
l
lfet
chy
ou.Wewi
l
lcomeback
ear
ly
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Her
:Il
ovey
out
oo
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
e
Her
:Il
ovey
oubi
ggert
hannumber
s
Ichuckl
ed.Iwasnev
err
eady
Me:
oky
ouwi
n
Her
:Yheeey
i!MommyI
’
m goi
ngt
owashnow,
by
e
Me:
byemybaby
.Enj
oy
Her
:Iwi
l
lthanks.Comebackear
ly
Me:
ofcauseIwi
l
l
SheleftandIwasl eftwit
hmyhusband’
s
gorgeousface.Itshouldbeacri
metolookthat
goody oh,t
othinkIthoughthewasanasshole
whenIf i
rstmethim.Godwe’ vecomealong
wayf r
om whenwef ir
stmet
Hi
m:Yandi
swa
Hest
art
ledme.
Me:
what
?
Him:whatar
eyout
hinki
ngabout
?Orshoul
dI
saywho
Me:Iwasjustt
hinki
ngabouthowf
arwe’
ve
comefrom whenwef i
rstmet
Him:youwer
esodi
ff
icul
t.Iseewher
eYasy
getsi
tfr
om
Me:
yes,
andy
ouwer
eani
diot
Him:oneyouf
ell
inl
ovewi
thwi
thoutagunt
o
yourhead
Me:
youshowedmeasi
deInev
erknewexi
sted
Hi
m: t
hatsi
dewasfory
oureyesonl
yand
maybemydaught
ersomeday
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Him:I
’
m notYasy
,don’
texpectt
hatwhol
eIl
ove
youar
gui
ng
Me: y
ouknowj
usthowt
orui
nthemoment
yeses
Hel
aughedatmesohar
d
Him:sor
rySt
handwasam.Il
ovey
out
oheav
en
andback
Ifoundmysel
fbl
ushi
ng.Wespokesomemor
e
andthensai
dourgoodby
es./
/
Igotdr
essed,
highwastemom j
eans,over
sized
t-
shi
rtt
uckedinthef
rontandbl
ackredbott
om
opent
oeheel
s.Whenmeeti
ngupwi thmother
i
nlawyougot
tast
epup,st
ylewise.That
womanknowshowtodr
essy oh!
.
.
-
NARRATED
OlwethuandYasywerewalki
ngaroundGol d
Reefcit
yandtheyhadtostopever
ymi nute
becauseever
yonewantedtotakepict
ureswith
her.I
tgottoapointwher
eevenshewassi ck
andtir
edoftaki
ngthatmanypict
ures.Aguy
walkedovert
othem
Hi
m:Hi
Lwet
hu:
uhhm hel
l
o
Him:isn’
tthi
sYandi
swaandDer
ri
ckBess’
s
daughter
?
Her
:iti
s
Hi
m:she’
sar
eal
beaut
y.CanIbuyher
somet
hingt
oeat
?
Her:
I’
m sorr
ynott
oday
.She’
sti
redandwe
wanttoheadhome
Hi
m:sowhatar
eyousay
ing?
Her
: t
hatyoucangetapict
ureofheronher
mother’
sInst
agr
am page.Byesi
r
Theywal kedawayandwenti ntotheparkinglot
.
Shenot i
cedt heguyf ol
lowingr i
ghtbehindher.
Shef iguredhi scarisprobablyparkednextt o
hers.Het ookat urnandgoti ntosomebr own
car.Shegoti nsi deandplacedMi l
ainsi
det he
caranddr oveof fhome.Ont heroadshe
noticedt hattherewasacarf oll
owingthem,
Mil
awassl owl ydozi
ngof fintheback.Thecar
woul dn’tstopf oll
owingher,everyturnshe
made, t
hecarmadet oo.Shecal l
edMel o
/
/Hi
m:Hey
…youguy
sst
il
lgood
Her
: hel
l
oMr .Bess.Weonourwayhomeand
t
here’sacarbehi
ndus
Hi
m:cany
ouseei
tsnumberpl
ate?
Shelookedi
ntot
her earv
iewmirr
orandi
t
sl
oweddownabi tandgotinbehi
ndacar
passi
ngby
Her
:itj
ustswer
vedi
ntoadi
ff
erentl
ane
Hi
m:wher
ear
eyouguy
snow?
Her
:passi
ngbySandt
onmal
l
Him:I’
l
lsendsomeonet
ocomefet
chy ouguys.
Justdri
vear
oundorgoi
ntot
hemallunti
lhe
cal
lsyouok
Her
:ok.Thanky
ouMr
.Bess/
/
AfterthecallshedroveintoSandtonmalland
parkedt hecarandlockedalldoorswakingMila
up.Theydeci dedtochatinstead.Thecarthat
wasf oll
owingt hem bef
orewasnowher ein
sight.Shedecidedtodriveoffhome,thecar
thenshowedupagai n,shespedupscar i
ngMi l
a
Mi
l
a:y
oudr
ivi
ngt
oof
ast
Shet
urnedt
olookathercr
ying
Her
:Weal
mosthomebaby
Therewer ecar shooti
nginherdir
ecti
on,she
turnedt
ol ooki nfr
ontandacarhitthem onthe
sidemakingt hem spinontheroadonlytoget
hitbyatruck.Theyr ol
ledoverandthecar
l
andedoni t
sr oof.
.
.
Themi nut
eIlandedIswitchedmyphoneon
andIhadadozenmi ssedcall
sfrom my
husband,Asemahle,mymom, andtheli
stgoes
onofthepeoplethattri
edtocallme.Iwalked
outoftheair
portandrequestedanuber.Igot
i
nsideandaskedt hathedriv
emehomewhi l
eI
tr
iedtoreachmyhusband.Ideci dedt
ocall
hubbyfir
st.
/
/Me:
heyhoney
"
Yandi
swat
hisi
sAsemahl
e"
Shesoundedl ikesomeonewhowasaboutt o
cryanymi nutenowandt hatal
onewasenough
torai
semybl oodpressure.Mymi nd
i
mmedi atelythoughtofmyhusbandand
daughter
.Icannotl osethem.Ijustcannot
affor
dthatrightnow!
Me:
heyboo.Wher
e'sMel
o?I
sheok?I
sMi
l
aok?
Ont
hewaywewer
eli
steni
ngt
othenews
Her
:Yay
awher
ear
eyou?
Me:Ij
ustl
anded.I
'
m onmywayhome.
Asemahl
epleasej
ustt
ell
mewhat
'sgoi
ngon.
Wherei
sMelo?WhereisYasy
?
Asemahl ej
ustcriedandImy sel
fdidn'tknow
howt orespondtohercr y.Ikeptquietwai ti
ng
forhertoatleastcal
m downbecausehonest l
yI
don'tknowhowt ohandl esomeonecr yingon
thephone.AsIwasl isteningtohercry i
ng,
somet hi
ngont heradiograbbedmyat tention.
Theywer etal
kingaboutanacci dentthat
happenedaf ewhour sagoandt heydon' tknow
whethert
herewereanysurv
ivors.Theyt
hen
wenttomentionthatt
hecarbelongedtoa
Ol
wet huNakhawhowasdr i
vingwithababygi
rl
.
Myphoneslippedoutofmyhands
Me:coul
dyouuhhm.
..Pl
easet
urnt
hatupa
l
it
tl
e
Hedi dast oldandt her eporterment i
onedt hat
theli
ttl
egi r
lOl wethuwast r
av ell
ingwi thwas
thatofYandi swaandMel okuhleBess, andt hat
shewaswai tingout si
det hehospi taltohear
anymor edetails.Ikeptquiett r
yingt oprocess
whatIj usthear d.Iwasdi sturbedbymyphone
ri
ngingandi twasAsemahl e.Iaskedt hedr i
v er
todrivemet othehospi tali
nst ead.Ithinkthe
worstpossi blet hi
ngtoev erhappent oamot her
i
shear ingelsewher eespeci all
yonr adiothat
thei
rbabyi sdead.Thi scoul dnotbehappeni ng.
Ianswer edAse' scall.
//Me:Asemahlepl
easet
ell
met
hatwhatIj
ust
heardi
snottrue
Her
:Yay
aI'
m sosor
ry
Me:don'tt
ell
met
hatAsemahl
e.Wher
eismy
husband?
Shedi
dn'
trespond.I
nst
eadshej
ustcr
ied./
/
Idroppedt hecalli
nstead.Ididn' twantt o
believ
et hatshewasgone.Wespoket his
mor ni
ngbef oreshewentt obat htogot otown
withOl wethut owastesomet i
mebef oreIgot
thereandshet oldmet hatshel ovesmeand
shecan' twai tt
oseeme.It ookmybagsand
rushedi nsidebetweent hepr esswai ti
ngt ohear
aboutMel okuhleandYay a'
sdaught er.Camer as
wer ejustflashinginmyf aceasImademyway
through, t
hankst othehospi t
al secur i
ty
otherwiseIdon' tknowwher eIwoul dhav ebeen.
HeckIdon’ tevenknowwhenIbecamef amous
orknownt ot hepointofbeinghar assedbyt he
press, I
’
mj ustanarti
stforChr istsake.Iwal ked
i
nshout i
ngMel o'
sname.Whywasmyhusband
nowher et obef oundwhenIneedhi mt hemost ?
Ledimovedt hi
ssidewhenImov edt hi
ssi de,
shewasl uckyt ogetajobalmostinstantl
yand
Anit
aandSi y acamethissidebecauseofSi ya’
s
j
ob.Hewasanar tbuyerandNitagotaj obasa
Danceinstructori
nthisotheruni
versit
y.
Asemahlewasav i
deodirect
orandshewas
al
sointodoi ngmov i
es.Ledimetmehal fway
andjustpulledmet oherarms.
Me:
wher
eisshe?
Shej
ustbr
ushedmybackcrying,hercr
y i
ng
di
dn'
tmakemef eel
anybett
erreall
y,i
tjust
movedmymindt ot
heworstpossibl
escenari
o
Me:
wher
eismydaught
er?
Her
:comel
et'
ssi
tdown
Ipull
edmy sel
fawayf r
om herandi twasthen
thatInoti
cedall
ourfri
endsgat her
edinthe
recepti
onareawithr
edey es.Iscannedthe
room andtearsj
ustrol
leddownmycheeks
Me:
wher
eismydaught
er?
Iaskedinaver
ycal
mt one.Ever
yonewasjust
l
ookingatmewithpi
tyeyes.Iwalkedt
othe
recept
ioni
st
Me:hi
I'
m Yandi
swaBess.Pl
easeshowmeMi
l
a
Yasmi
nBess'sr
oom
Her
:I'
l
lgety
ouan.
..
Me: Idon'
twantafucki
ngnur
se.Justt
ypeon
thatcomputerofy
oursandshowmet omy
baby'sroom
Ifeltsomeonerubmyshoul der
s.Iknewhis
cologneallt
oowell
.Iturnedtohim andhe
l
ookedbr okenandcouldnotbef i
xed.
Me:
Mel
oisi
ttr
ue?
Hej
ustl
ookedatmewi
thpi
tyey
es
Me:
Mel
okuhl
eanswermedammi
t
Hejustcr
iedandnodded.Hepul
l
edmet
ohi
s
ar
ms
Me:
Iwantt
oseeher
Isai
dpul
l
ingawayf
rom hi
sar
ms
Hi
m:noYay
ayoudon’
t
Me:
Mel
okuhl
eIwantt
oseemydaught
er
Hi
m:y
oudon'
twantt
oseeherl
i
ket
hatYay
a
Me:Mel
okuhl
eDer
ri
ckBesspl
easet
akemet
o
mydaught
er
Idi
dn'thavethestrengt
htoraisemyv oice.It
wassol owpitchedandsowashi s.Seeinghi m
madeev er
y t
hingseem soreal.Ikepthopi ng
someonewoul dwakemeupandt el
lthatI'm
havi
ngani ghtmareandthatitwillbeoversoon
butt
herewasnoneoft hat
.
Hi
m:Yay
ayoudon'
twantt
orememberherl
i
ke
t
hat
Me:
thenhowwi
l
lIknowt
hatshe'
sreal
l
ygone?
Iwasl
ookingupathim.Heshookhishead.I
wal
kedawayf r
om himtowar
dsthepassage.If
hewasn'
tgoingtotakemetomydaughter,t
hen
Iwasgoi
ngtof i
ndhermysel
f.Imetupwitha
doct
or.
Me:Yandi
swaBessl
ooki
ngf
orMi
l
aYasmi
n
Bess
Hi
m:pl
easef
oll
owme.
Hel
edmet oherr
oom andshewascover
edi
n
awhi
tesheet
.Wewalkedin,
Ibehi
ndhi
m.
Hi
m:I
'
m sosor
ryf
ory
ourl
oss
Iranupt oherbedanduncov er
edher.Her
beauti
fulfacehadscars,shehadabandage
wrappedar oundherhead.Likeherfathershe
sti
lll
ookedbeautif
uleveninahospi t
al bed.
Everyt
hingbecamer ealbutIdidn'
twantt o
beli
evethatshewasgone.Il ookedatherwi th
tear
sr ol
li
ngdownmycheeks.
Doc:
wehav
etomov
ehert
othemor
gue
Ishookmyhead
Me:
no.Younott
aki
ngherany
wher
e
Ihel
dhert
inyhandandi
twassocol
d.That
warmthshenormallyhaswasn' tthere,t
here
wasnobloodrushingthroughherv ei
ns.Her
cheeksweren'
tsopinkandpl ush.Shewasso
palei
tscaredme.Ididn'twanttoacceptt hat
mybabywasgone.Shecoul dn'tpossibl
ybe
gone.Notli
kethi
sany way.Somanyt imesher
fat
herhasdodgeddeat h,whycoul dn'
tshe?
Melowalkeduptome
Me:Mel
otel
lhi
mtol
eav
e.He'
snott
aki
ngher
any
wher
e
Hi
m:Ni
nohehast
o
Me:NO!Hehast
otakehert
oICUandt
rysav
e
her
Hi
m:Yay
ashe'
sgone
Me:NO!Don'
tsayt
hat
.Ify
ousayi
ttheni
t
meansi
tsreal
Hi
m:Ni
nopl
ease
Doc:
sirwehav
etot
akehert
othemor
gue
Mel
o:pl
easej
ustgi
veherachancet
osay
goodby
e
Docnoddedandwal kedout
.IlookedatMelo.
Hewascr azyr
ight
?Saygoodby e?She'
snot
dead.Igotont
opoft hebedandpulledhert
o
mychest.
Me: honeyyouhavetowakeup.Showt hem
thattheyarewrong.Prov
et othem t
hatyouar
e
sti
llal
ive.Pl
easeYasy.Pleasebabygir
l
Idi
dn'tgetanyresponse,nohugback,
no
not
hing.Couldshereall
ybegone?
Mel
o:Yay
apl
ease
Me:
NO!
Hi
m:Yay
ashe'
sgone
Ijustheldhertightl
yhopingtof eelherbr
eath
hitagainstmychestbutnot hing.Ijustcr
iedand
themor eIcr i
edthemor eeverythingbecame
real.Shewasdeadandnev ercomi ngback.I
criedlouder.Why ?Whywoul dGoddot hi
sto
me?Inev ergotthechancetoatl eastsay
goodbye.Justonemor echancetotel
l herhowI
feel
.Justonemor esensel
essconversation.
Justonemor edaywithhersothatsheknowsI
l
ov eherandthatIwoulddoanythi
ngf orher.I
cri
edsol oudunti
lnur
sesbargedinandhel dme
downkickingandscreamingtosedateme
Me:
please.Pl
easedon'
t.Ineedt
ofeel
.Ineed
t
omour nher
Noamountofbeggi
ngmadethem stop.They
i
nject
edmewithwhatev
erandIdozedoff
i
nstant
ly.
.
.
<3
[12/
16,
07:
44]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E25-Mel
o
***“…Icoul dthrowmyf isti
ntheai rdemandi ng
answer sbutinspi teofallt
hequest i
onsI ’
m sti
l
l
givingy oumyl i
fe.Andifitdoesn’ttur noutli
keI
thi
nki tshould,i
tdoesn’tchanget hef acty
ou’r
e
alway sgood.Yourway sarehighert hanmi ne.
Andt hetruthremai nsthesame, ev enwhenI
don’ tknowwhatt opray.ButwhatIknowi sthat
youmyGodar er ealnomat t
erhowIf eely
ou’ve
nev erletmego.AndwhatIknowi st herewil
l
nev erbeadayy ouar ej
ustabr eathawayand
throughi tallI’
vegott oholdtowhatI
know…” ***
Seeingmywi f
ei nthest ateshewasi nhastobe
the2ndmostpai nfulthi
ngt ogot hrough,the
fi
rstbeinglosi
ngy ourl i
ttl
epr i
ncess.Iwatched
hersleepi
ngpeacef ul
l
y ,atleastshewasat
peaceandnott hinkingaboutwhatwear e
current
lygoingt hrough.It hinkthemostpai nful
thi
ngaboutl osingsomeonei sthatther
e’sno
warning,youdon’ tgetachancet osayapr oper
goodby etothem andt her e’snot ell
ingwhen
you’l
leverseet hem agai n.Deat hisat hief.Yasy
wasonl y3,shehadn’ tev enl iv
edhal fhery ears
butIguesswheni t’sy ourt imet heni t
’sy our
ti
meandt here’snot hingany onecandot o
changewhat ’smeantt obe.Ij usthopeGod
helpsmywi f
eandIgett hr ought hisaswehav e
everyothertri
al andt ri
bul ationwef acedi nt he
past.I
twasn’ teasyl eavingt hehospi t
al butwe
didit
.Mywi f
eneededmenowmor ethanev er
andIneededherr ightbackbecauseshe
understoodmypai nmor et hanany onear ound
us,Yasywaspar tofherandIso“ getti
ngov er
i
t”wasn’ tgoi
ngt ocuti t
.It uckedheri nsi deand
walkedt oYasy ’
sr oom, itwasj usthowshehad
l
eftitthi
smor ni
ng.Ij ustsankt ot hefloorand
cri
edmyhear tout .Idi dn’twantt obeliev et hat
shewasgonebuti twasev i
dentf r
om t he
minuteIsetf ooti nsidet hi shouseandt his
room thatshewasgoneandnev ercomi ngback
tous.
Me:Idon’
taskf
ormuch,j
ustamomentt ot
ell
youj
usthowmuchIlov
ey ouandnot
hingmore
Ijustcriedbur yi
ngmyf aceinmyhands.If el
t
someonewr apt heirar
msar oundme, j
udging
byt heperfumei twasMr s.Bess.Sheal way s
usedt hisveryper fumef rom sinceIcan
remember .Shepul ledmet oherar msandI
buriedmyf aceonherl apcrying,shedi
dn’tsay
anyt hi
ngeitherthansi ngWhatIKnowbyTr i
cia
Brookssof tly.Ihadsomanyunanswer ed
quest i
onsbuti fmom hast aughtmeany t
hing
i
t’stonev erquest ionGod.
“
howi
she?
”
Icoul
dhearthevoi
cebuti
tsoundedsof
ar.I
t
soundedl
ikedad’
svoi
ce
Her
:he’
ssl
eepi
ng
Ir
aisedmyhead.Imusthavefal
lenasleep
whil
eshewassingi
ng.Ohbutmom hadav oice
ofanangel
,hervoi
cewasjustbeaut
iful.Isatup
Her
:you’
reup
Dad:
I’
m sor
ryson
Me:
IsYay
ast
il
lsl
eepi
ng?
Dad:
sheneedsy
ouson
Me:andIneedher.DadIdon’
tknowhowtodo
t
his.Idon’
tknowhowtohandleall
oft
his
Mom:throughpr
ayeri
tcanal
lbedonebaby.
Godi
st her
eevenindar
kti
mes.Don’
tlosef
ait
h
i
nhim no
Dad:Iknowyouhur
ti
ngnowbutwewill
allget
t
hroughthi
sson.St
ormsar
enotther
etolast
Ijustnoddedacknowl edgingwhatdadhadj ust
said.Ideci
dedt ogoandchecki nonmywi f
e
andshewasi nast ateevenIcannev erpull
her
outof .Not
hingIsayordowi ll
bringourl i
tt
le
Yasyback.It hinkshe’ shurt
ingthemostseei ng
thatshecarriedherf or9mont hsandt henthey
alsocelebr
atedt hei
rbirt
hdayont hesameday …
i
t’skindofhar dt ojustacceptthingsast heyare
i
nthi
sst
ate.
.
.
Thef uner alarr
angement swentwel l
,ourfami
ly
andf riendswer emor ethanwi l
li
ngt olendina
helpinghand.Yay ahasn’teatensincet heday
wef oundout ,t
rustmewehav ealltr
iedtoget
hert oeatsomet hingorsaysomet hingbutnone
ofuswon.Wewer eprepari
ngt ogot othe
funeral ,
itwasonaSat urdaymor ning.Iwas
wear ingasui tandYay awaswear i
ngaknee
l
engt hbl ackdresswi t
hst ocki
ngsandabl ack
doekonherhead.Isquat tedinf r
ontofher
sit
tingont opoft hebed.
Me:
it’
sti
met
ogo
Isai
dwit
hherhandspl
acedi
ntomi
ne.She
l
ookedatme
Her
:howar
eyoukeepi
ngi
ttoget
her
?
Me:
oneofushast
obest
rongf
ort
heot
her
Her:Idon’
tthi
nkIcandoit.Idon’
tthi
nkIcan
saygoodbyetoherMelo.Pleasedon’
tmakeme
Shewasn’tevencryi
ngbuthervoicewashusky
asthoughshehadbeencr yi
ngorwasaboutt o
cry
.Ididn’
tevenknowwhatt osay,Ibeli
evethat
wegetclosur
ebyact ual
l
yseeingthem being
pl
acedundergroundbecausethenweknow
wheretheyar
eandt hatt
heyarenev ercoming
back.
Me:Yasywil
lal
waysbepartofourl
ivesYay
a
nomatterwhat
.Thi
sisnotgoodbye
Her
:Ican’
tdoi
tMel
o.Idon’
twantt
odoi
t.I
t’
s
j
ustsohar
d
Shepressedherforeheadagainstmi
ne.Ireal
ly
didn’
tknowwhatt osayanymor eandthetear
s
roll
i
ngdownmycheekswer en’
tmakingthi
ngs
anyeasier.Idi
dn’
twanttodot hi
stoheratall
.
Shepulledherhandsawayf rom mi
neand
wipedmyt ear
swit
hherthumbs.Ther ewasa
knockont hedoorbutneit
herofusmov edan
i
nch
“
It
’st
imet
ogo”
I
twasYay
a’sgr
andmot
her
.Shewal
kedov
ert
o
us.
Her
:Mel
okuhl
epl
easeseatont
hebed
Igotupandsatnextt
omywi f
e.Shepul
l
eda
chai
randsati
nfrontofus.
Her:it
’snoteasytolayourlovedonest or est
butweneedt ofi
ndcomf orti
nknowi ngt hat
theyareinamuchbet terplace.Wedon’ tknow
whyGodt ookherbutIcanassur eyout hathei s
herewithy ouguysandYasmi nliveswi thinthe
twoofy ou.Konkekuzolunga( I
twillallbeok)
may benotnow, maybenotnextweekornext
mont hbutitwil
lgetbett
erintime.Comel et’
s
go.
Shegotupandki
ssedourforeheadsandwent
tost
andbythedoor
.Il
ookedatYay aandshe
l
ookedatmeandwebot hstoodup,shefi
xed
herdr
essandthenwewalkedoutandKhul
u
cl
osedthedoorbehi
ndher
.
Thet hi
ngaboutat hree-
yearold’
sfuner
ali
sthat
there’
sreall
ynotmucht osay,
notmanypeople
tosharestuffabouther…thefuneralwasj
ust
anintimatethi
ng.Asemahl egotuptoread
somet hi
ngIhadwr itt
en;Iwasn’tgoi
ngtobe
abletosayany t
hingwi t
houtbreaki
ngdown.I
heldYaya’shandt i
ghtl
y.Asemahlestar
ted
reading
Her
:TomydearDaught
erYasmi
n.
Lif
ewi t
hyouwasl i
f ewor thl
ivi
ng.Iwasaf ather
befor
ey oubutyout aughtmehowt obear eal
dad.Beforeyoucamei nt
oourl i
vesIwashal f
themanIam t oday.Youshowedmet he
bri
ghtersi
deoflif
ewi thy ourconst
antsmi l
e
andyourbeautif
ullaughter.Yougaveusr eason
tosmileandbehappy .Youtaughtmehowt o
l
ov eyourmotherbet t
erandbet hemanIam
today
.Idon’tknowwhyy oul ef
tustoosoonbut
Iwanty
outoknowthatIl
ovey oubabyandIwi
l
l
al
wayshol
dyouinmyheart.Lovedaddy
Shewentt osi tdown.Thepast orpr eacheda
l
ittl
eandpr ayedandt heser vicewentonand
thenwewentt ot hecemet er yt olayYasyt or est.
Themi nutetheboxwasr olleddownYay a
startedcryinghy steri
cal l
y,Ihel dhert ightl
yto
mesoast opr eventherf r
om goi ngany wher e.
Realityreal
lyst r
uckt henandt here, shewas
goneandshewasnev ercomi ngback.Icoul dn’t
holdbackmyt earsei t
her ,wewer ebot hsitt
ing
ont hef l
oorundert het ent.Itwasn’ teasy ,t
his
hadt obet hemosthar destt hingt odof orbot h
ofus.Wewentbackhomeandi twaspr ett
y
chaot i
c.Wewenti ntoourr oom andbot h
changedi ntocl eanercl othes.Iwal kedoutt o
getuspl ates.
Mom:
howar
eyouhol
dingup?
Ishr
ugged.Thathastobethehardestquesti
on
toanswer
.Ijustl
aidmydaughtertorestso
honestl
y,I
’
m notholdingupatal landt
hen
ther
e’smywifewhom I ’m worri
edabout.I’
m
scaredshemighthurtherselforsomething.I
j
ust,Idon’
tknowreall
y .Shegav emetwopl at
es
Her
:pl
easehav
ehereatsomet
hingbaby
Inoddedandt henwalkedupt oourr
oom and
shewasn’tinther
esoIt r
iedYasy’sr
oom andI
foundheront hefl
oornexttothedoorwit
hher
teddybearthatYasytookwithherever
ywher
e
shewent.Iputthefoodinfrontofusandsat
nexttoher.
Me:
Yay
ayouhav
etoeat
Shedidn’tr
espond.Mybeaut i
fulwife,
gor geous
bodyandallhadlostsomuchwei ghtinjustthi
s
oneweek.Itookaspoonf ul
landshov edininto
mymout h.Ireal
lydi
dn’tknowhowIwasgoi ng
togethertoeatbutallIknowisthatIwasn’ t
l
eavingthatroom wi
thouthereating.
Me:Yandiswayouhav
etoeatsomethi
ng.You
can’
tkeepdoingt
hist
oyour
self
.Yasywouldn’
t
wanty
oustarvi
ngyour
sel
fli
ket
his,
pleaseeat
somet
hingbaby.
Shedi dn’tmov eani nchfrom wher eshewas
stari
ng.Wesatl ikethatforsomet imeandshe
fi
nall
ydeci dedt oeat ,
itwasn’ tmuchspoons
butsheat esot hatwasast artatleast.Sheleft
theplat ehal
ff ull,It
ookt hepl atesdownst air
s.
Thecopsr uledYasy ’
sdeat hasanacci dentbut
nothingabouti tmadesense.Ir emember
Olwet hucall
ingmet ell
ingmet hattheywer e
beingf oll
owedbysomecar ,Itoldthecops
abouti tbuttheysai dt hatther ewasr eall
y
nothingmucht heycoul ddoabouti t.Lateron
thatdayIcal ledupBanel emycousi n.Wemet
upatabar .
Her
:soy
out
hinkt
hiswaspl
anned?
Me:Idon’
tevenknowwhatt
othi
nk.Olwet
hu
hadcal
ledsayi
ngshewasbei
ngfol
lowed
Her
:Igett
hatcousi
n.Sowhatdoy
ousuggestI
do?
Me:getmetapesofGol
dReeforsomet
hing.
Any
thingt
hatwil
lgi
vemecomfort
Her:
I’l
lseewhatIcando.i
nthemeant
ime,
how
ar
ey ou?
Me:
Iwi
shpeopl
ewoul
dst
opaski
ngmet
hat
Her:i
t’
stheri
ghtt
hingtodoi
nthesesi
tuat
ions.
Justdon’
tnegl
ectKyl
eok
Justthet houghtoftheli
tt
leguy ,
Ihav ebeenso
busywi t
hev eryt
hingthatIhaven’tseenhim or
spentanyt imewithhim.Wegotdr unkandI
droveofft oKate’
sinPretori
at ovisithi
m.Yes,
theyweret hereatthefuneralbuttheydidn’
t
stayforlong.
.
.
<3
GuysI’m sorr
y,I
’mjustt
ryi
ngtosettl
ein.I
thoughtI
’dbegoodt opostregul
arl
ymar aagi
rl
hasbeenr eal
lybusyandIcomebackhome
verylat
eandtoodrai
nedtoevent
ypeorpost.
I’
mr eal
lysor
ry,
assoonasI’
m onmyf eetand
setthenIwil
lbepost
ingonadail
y.Il
oveyou
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16,
07:
44]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E26-Yay
a
***
“ …Theysayingthatfr
om t helooksofi
t.That
youandIpr obablywon’tmakei t.ButwhenI
holdy ourhandIknowt hatsomewher edeep
i
nsideofust heloveisstil
ltherebutI’
m not
giv
inguponussot hat
’swhyI ’
mf eeli
ngfora
pulse…”***
Beforemydaught ercameintot hepictur
eI
usedt odri
nkandgetr eal
l
ydr unk.Alcoholhas
alwaysbeenacopi ngmechani sm fandmygo-
toforpret
tymuchev eryemot ion,beit
happinessorsadnessorev enanger …itwas
alway smygo- to.ButIst oppedwhenIf ound
outIwaspr egnantandonl ydrankev erynow
andt henbutnev ertogetdr unk.Losi ngmychi l
d
hasbeenhar d, it’
sbeenast ruggleIam y ett o
conquer ,ifhowIal sodon’ tknow.I ’venev er
beenabl et ohandl epaineasi ly,former eality
stri
kesaf tersomet i
me…l et’sjustsayIr eactin
amuchl at erst aget opai nort rauma.Yes, she
wasgonebutIdi dn’twantt oaccepti tatfirst
andIcan’ tsayt hatI’
veaccept edi tnow
becauseIhav en’ tsti
llbutI ’
mt aki ngitoneday
atat ime…I ’v
ebeendr inkingt oeaset hepai n
andnott hinkaboutherorr ememberherbut
that’
sst upi dbecauseev erypar toft hisbi g
houser emi ndsmeof fher .It’
sbeenamont h
sinceherf uner al andI’
v ebeendr inking
excessivel y.I’
m notcopi ngandnei therisMel o.
Icannoti magi neussur vivingthisone.Wej ust
strangerswhosl eepont hesamebed.She
didn’tdeser vet odi e.Sheshoul dn’ thavedi ed.
Mel owentbackt owor kthef ir
stMondayaf ter
herf uner al,hewasbar el
yhome, Ithinkhewas
avoi dinghav i
ngt of acemeordeal wit hme.
ArghIdon’ tknowbuthel eftint heear l
yhour s
ofmor ningandwoul dcomebackwhenIwas
alreadyasl eepori nbedandher eekedof
alcohol inhi sbr eath.Thatwasourl i
fenow, I
hadmyownst ashandwasv erycar eful about
wher eIhi ditbecauseIknowt hati fMel of ound
outIwasdr i
nkingt henhel lwoul dpr obabl y
breakl oose.Wehav en’ tsaidawor dt ooeach
otherev ersincet hef uneral.It’
sbeent wo
weekssi ncethef uner alandev eryonehadl eft
usandIhav en’tbeent owor k.Ideci dedt ojust
takesomet i
meof fandmour nourdaught er.
Nal edi, Asemahl eandAni tawer emymost
const antv isit
ors.Ev erydayt heycamet ot he
houset ocheckonmeandj ustendupt alkingto
eachot herwhi leIwoul djustsi tthereandnot
sayany thing.Asemahl ewasher ev isiti
ng, Ihad
j
ustf i
ni shedshower i
ng.
Her
:soIgotaj
obof
fert
ogowor
kabr
oadf
or
12to24mont hs.Thepayisgoodand
ever
ythi
ngitcomeswi thi
sgreatbutI’
m wor r
ied
aboutJamesandwhathewi l
lsayaboutthis.I
meanheandIj ustgotbacktonor malandthen
suddenl
ythere’sthi
s.Idoubthe’l
levenbe
happyformewi t
hthisone.MyfriendIneedy ou
onthisone,Ineedy ouradvi
ce.HowdoIt ell
hi
m andnotendupl osinghi
mi ntheprocess?
Ilovehowsheusesmont hsinsteadofsay i
ng
twoy ears,Iguesssay i
ngmont hsmakesi t
soundl esslongasopposedt osay ingyears.
Yes,Mel oandIar en’
tdoi nggoodatt he
momentbutIdon’ tt
hinkI’dsurviv
e2y ears
withouthim, okmay beI ’
dsurv i
vebutIwoul dn’
t
wantt o.I’
vegottensousedt obeingaround
him everydayofourl ives.Hewal kedinand
greetedusandt henwal kedupt hestai
rs.Idon’t
knowwhyhewasbackear lytodayandIwas
notaboutt oask.
Her
:Hav
eyouconsi
der
edgoi
ngf
ort
her
apy
?
Ithoughtforawhile.I
’m blackandsomeofus
blackpeople…mei ncludeddon’tbeli
evein
seeingashr i
nk.Imeanwhat ’
sashrinkgoi
ngto
dor eal
ly
?Tellmet hatit
’sallgoi
ngtobeok?
Tellmet hatl
if
egoeson?Whatexact l
ywil
la
shrinksaytomakemef eelanybett
erabout
l
osingmychi ld?Myonl ychildeven.
Her:thi
sisnotri
ght.I
t’
snothealt
hy,
Iknowyou
hurt
ingbutIthi
nktherapywil
lhel
pyourat
her
thanthi
sconstantdri
nking
Ikeptqui
et.I
’
vebeensocaref
ulnott
oalar
m
anyone.Howdidsheknow?Melowalkedi
n.
Her
:youhomeear
ly
Hi
m:ourel
ect
ri
cboxbur
stt
odaysoI
’
m back
Her
:whenl
astdi
dyouseeKy
le?
Hi
m:y
est
erday
Her
:howi
she?
Hi
m:he’
sgr
eat
.Hav
eyouguy
seat
en?
Her
:nah…notr
eal
l
yhungr
y
Hi
m:Yandi
swa?
Ishookmyhead.Shest art
edt el
li
nghim about
thejobof f
ershegot ,it’
snott hatIwasn’thappy
forherbutI ’
m sti
ll
tryingt ogetusedtonot
hav i
ngherr unni
ngar oundus, f
orci
ngmet o
takepicturesofher,forcingAsemahl etopout
whent heyt akesel
fiesandt henherconstant
bickeri
ngwi thherfatheronwhatt oeat.Itwas
strangeandunusual nothav ingherher
ewi thus.
Icouldn’twr apmyheadar oundi t
.Herabsence
wasv isi
ble;itwasfeltinev erywaypossible.
Hi
m:sohav
eyout
oldy
ourboy
fri
end?
Her:Idon’
tevenknowhowtotel
lhi
m andI
’m
supposedtogetonthepl
aneendofthemonth
Hi
m: shi
it
.Youhavelike14daysl
eftbr
uh…
whatareyougoi
ngt odo?soundsl
ikeyou’
ve
al
readymadeupy ourmind
Her
:it
’sagr
eatoppor
tuni
tyf
ormet
ogr
ow
Hi
m:but
?
Her:Ihaveaboyfr
iendnowandIneedto
considerhi
minthedecisi
onsImakeaboutmy
l
ifeandcareer
Hi
m: exactl
y.Rel
ati
onshipsar
eaboutst
icki
ng
t
ogetherthr
oughthickandthi
n.Nostor
mi s
t
heretolastaneter
nity
Theycont inuedtalki
ngandt henMel ogotacall
from thecopssay ingt hattheyhadf ound
somet hi
ngandt hattheywant edhi mt ogoto
thest ati
on.Iwentoutwi t
hhi m andleftAsein
thehouse.Shewoul dl ockupany way.Wegot
tot hestati
onandwer eledi nt
ot he
i
nt err
ogationroom wher etherewast hisguy
.
Nott oobadont heey ebutIdon’ tknow,
somet hi
ngabouthi ml ookedfami li
ar.Wesat
down
Hi
m:I
’
m sorryaboutYasmi
n.Idi
dn’
tmeanf
ori
t
t
ogothatf
ar
Mel
o:meanf
orwhatt
ogof
ar?
Him: shewasbeaut iful,shewasev erything.She
remindedmeofmydaught er,everyt
hingabout
herremindedmeofmyl itt
ledaught er.Shedi ed
whenshewasf our,l
asty ear.Ilostherinacar
acci
dentt ogetherwithhermot herandIt hings
haven’tbeent hesameev ersince.WhenI
bumpedi nt oyourdaught eratt hemal ltheot her
dayIwast akenbackt omi ne, soinnocent ,so
beautif
ulandj ustperfect.Ididn’tmeanf or
thi
ngst ogot hatfar,
Ijustwant edapi ctureof
her
Ilookedatt hisguy .Ifonlyheknewhowwhat
hewassay i
ngsoundedt omyhusband.Iknow
Mel oandi twast akingev eryt
hingi nhim notto
kil
lthisguywi thhisbar ehandst henandt here.
Hisf i
lewasi nfrontofusandhi sdaughter
l
ookednot hingli
kemi ne.Therewer epi
cturesof
hisapar tmentandt hisguyseemedobsessed.
That ’
sallIgatheredf rom looki
ngathi sfile.I
t
wascr eepyr eal
ly,Imeanwhoobsessesov era
three-year-
old?Asf ort heapologyandhandi ng
himselfovert
othecops…Idon’tknow…Imean
you’
v eal
readygot
tenawaywithit…whyhand
yoursel
fin2weekslat
er?What’sthatgoi
ngt
o
solv
e?Hi sapol
ogymeansjackshiitt
ome.
Melo:api
ctur
eyoucoul
dhavedownl
oadedor
somethi
ng.WehaveatononourI
nst
agram
pages.
Thisguy’
svoicesoundedver
yf amil
iar
.The
mor eIl
i
stenedtohimthemor eIkepttry
ingt
o
thi
nkwhereIcouldhavehearditfr
om.
Hi
m:IknowandI
’
m sor
ry.I
’
m sor
ryf
ory
our
l
oss
Mel
o:Yandi
swal
etsgo
Il
ookedathi m butheseemeddeadser ious.I
gotupandf ol
lowedbehi ndhim.Wegothome
andhedidn’tsayshii
tandnei t
herdidI.Iwalked
i
nsideandIhear dthecardriveoff.Hewas
probabl
ypissedorsomet hi
ng.Igottothe
ki
tchenandpour edmy selfaglassofvodkaand
headedupt oourroom, Melowoul dn’
tbeback
unti
llaterany way .Isatdownandconnect edmy
phoneont het vandwat chedv ideosofher ,
whenshef irststartedcrawli
ngt owhenshe
star
tedwal king.Shewasabeaut i
fulchi
ld.It
thenhitme, thatguywast hesameguywho
oncecal ledmeaski ngtofeatureherf orsome
adverti
sementorsomet hing.Ijustsatthereand
admiredher .Howcansomeonebesocr uel,
whatwast hi sguy’splankanti
?Tost ealherand
dowhat ?Ihadsomanyquest ionst hatneeded
answers.Idon’ tevenknowwhenIpassedout
butwhenIwokeupMel owast ucki ngmei nsi
de
thecover sandher eekedofboozehi mself.I
openedmyey esslowlyandjustlookedatt his
beautif
ul manbef oremydr unkey es.
Hi
m:t
hiski
ndofdr
inki
ngneedst
ost
op
Idi
dn’
trespond.Hewasonet
otal
k.Hehi
msel
f
smell
edli
kebooze
Hi
m:Yandi
swaDI
DYOUHEARME?
Her
oar
edst
art
li
ngme.Wel
lthatwasaf
ir
st
sinceforever
,Melorai
singhisvoi
ceatme?I t
’s
somet hi
ngIwasn’tusedtoanddidn’twantt o
getusedt oknow.Evenwhenweusedt oargue
henev errai
sedhisvoi
ceatme.It hi
nkhel ast
shoutedatmet hatyearMirandat
r i
edto
commi tsuici
de.Il
ookedathim withtears
threat
eningmyey es.
Me:
doy
ouev
enmi
ssher
?
Hi
m:What
?Idon’
tunder
standy
ourquest
ion
Isatupandl
ookedathi
m st
andi
ngbesi
det
he
bed.
Me:
doy
oumi
ssher
?
Him:j
ustbecauseIdon’
tdr
inkt
hewholeday
l
ikey
ou,doesnotmeanIdon’tmissher
Me: dr
inki
ngmakesthepai
ngoaway
.Iwanther
back.Iwantmybabyback
Him:andyouthi
nkdri
nkingisgoi
ngtobr
ingher
back?She’
sgoneYandiswa.She’
sdeadand
nothi
ngisgoi
ngtobri
ngherback.Youhear
d
theguyy
oursel
f.Hewasobsessedwithher.
Thewasprooft
hathewasnev ergoi
ngtolet
herbe
Me:
NO!
Ishookmyhead.Shewasgone, butIdi dn’
t
wantt oacceptherdeat h.Isawthecof fingo
downbutIdi dn’twanttof acereali
ty.Iwasn’t
will
i
ngt oacceptherdeat h.IknowIonl yknew
herfor3y ear
sonl ybutshewasmyev eryt
hing.
Shewasami nimeandaconst antremi nderof
thebeautyofl i
feandnowt hatsheisgoneal lof
thatisgonewi t
hher .There’
snobeaut yinli
fe
causeiftherewasshewoul dsti
l
lbeher e
.
.
<3
[12/
16,
07:
44]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E27-Yay
a
***
“…Ther e’sast r
angeri nmyhouse.Tooka
whil
et ofigureout .Ther e’snowayyoucouldbe
whoy ousayy ouar e.Yougot tabesomeone
el
se.Causehewoul dn’ttouchmelikethatand
hewoul dn’ttreatmel ikey oudo.hewould
adoreme; hewoul dn’tignoreme.soI ’
m
convi
ncedt here’
sast r
angeri nmyhouse…”***
Hegotont opofmeandsatonmyt highsand
heldmeonei t
hersideofmyar msandshook
mev igorousl
y.Icouldsmell
thealcohol inhi
s
breat
hwi t
hahintofmi nt
.Hewasdr unkbutnot
enought opassoutl i
keme.Iguesst hiswasus
now.Al coholwasourcopingmechani sm.
Normal l
yhecomeshomeal i
tt
lel
essdr unkbut
todaywasdi ff
erent
.
Hi
m:she’
sgoneYandi
swa.Ourbabyi
sgone;
he
t
ookherawayf
rom us
Hesoundedangr
yandt
hatal
onescar
edme,
I
’m usedt
ohim beingpi
ssedandlashi
ngouton
ot
herpeoplebutnotme.itwasnewtome.he
wassoheav y
.Itr
iedtopushhim
Me:
fucky
ou!
Him:
swearatmeall
youwantshei
snot
comi
ngback.Hel
edhert
oherdeat
h
Me:
NO!Iwantherback.Ineedmybaby
Mel
okuhl
e.Ineedher
Idon’tknowwhyIwascr yi
ngbutsomethi
ng
abouthim sayingt
het
hingshewassayingfel
t
sowr ong,Iknowshewasgonebutforhimto
putitthewayhewasput t
ingi
tdidn’
tsi
twell
wit
hme
Hi
m:y
ouwantababy
.
Me:
getof
fme
Hi
m:y
ousai
dyouneedy
ourbabymos
Me:
Gett
hef
uckof
fofme.y
oudr
unk.
Hi
m:soy
oucant
alkaf
teral
l
.
Me:
getof
fofme
Isai
dtryi
ngtopushhim of
fbuthewasheavy
andstr
ongerthanme.Il
ostweightkal
okumna
andIwashalfdrunk.
Him:yousai
dyouwantedababy.Yousai
dyou
neededoneandthat
’swhatI
’
m goingt
odo,I
’l
l
gi
vey ouababy
Hesaidthatpinningmeont heheadboar dwith
bothmywr istsheldt ogetherwithonehandand
pul
ledmypant sdownandr i
ppedmypant ies
apartwi
thonehandonl y.Idon’tknowhowI
wassuddenl ylay
ingonmybackf latont
hebed
butIwas,hepul l
edhi sunder wearandpant s
downandt henshov edhimsel fbetweenmy
l
egs.Iwasnowcr yingwi thmyey esshut
Me:
pleasej
ustof
fme
Sexwhendr
yispai
nful
str
aightup.
Hi
m:l
ookatme
Ishookmyheadwi
thmyey
escl
osed.
Him:youwantababydon’
tyou?Lookatme
Yandi
swa
Me:
pleasej
ustst
op
Isai
dshaki
ngmyheadwi
thmyey
escl
osed
Hi
m:LOOKATME!
Her oaredandmyey esshotopen.Thel ookin
hisey esisoneI ’v
enev erseenbef ore,helooked
pleasedwi thhimsel f
, hebur i
edhi sf aceinmy
neckandpl antedsof tkissesal lthewayt omy
boobswher ehi sotherhandwassqueezi ng
eachboob.Ij ustlai
dt herewai tingf orhi
mt o
fi
nishup.Thepai nbel owwasunbear abl
e; i
t
wasj ustplainpainful.Sexi snotni cei fyounot
wet .Hewenti nandoutr epeatingt hesame
wor ds“I’
llgiv
ey ouababy ”Icri
edt oapoi nt
wher emyv oicewouldn’ tcomeoutanymor e.
Hedi dn’tstopunt i
lhecamei nsideofmeand
thenhegotupandwentt ot heshower .The
painbet weenmyl egscoul dnotbeputi nto
wor ds.Icannotbel i
ev ehej ustdi dthattome.
hiswife.Ipul ledupmypant sbecausemy
underwearwasr ippedapar t
.Igotupandused
thewal l
tohel pmewal kt otheguestr oom and
l
ockedmy selfi nandsl iddownbyt hedoorand
j
ustcr i
ed.Iwant edt oscream sol oudbutmy
voicefail
edmedi smal l
y.Ijustsatthereand
enduredt hephy sicalpainbetweenmyl egsand
theemot ional painwhi chIam y ettof i
ndwor ds
todescribei t.Idi dn’twantt obeli
evet hatwhat
hadhappenedwasr eal
.Ikepthopi ngt hatit
wasani ght mar eandIwoul dwakeupf rom it
anymi nutenowbutnot hing.Nothi
ngwor ked.I
tri
edpinchi ngmy selfbutev enthatdidn’tdome
j
ust i
ce.Her apedme.MyHUSBANDr apedme.
“
Maf
aku”
Iwasstartl
edbyaknockont hedoor .Ilooked
upandt hemorningsunwasshi ningt hr
ough
thewindowwhichmeanti twasmor ning.I
wonderwhenIf ell
asleep.Lastt
hingI
rememberwascr yingcurl
edupi naf etus
posi
ti
on.Thepai nbetweenmyl egsr emi nded
met hatIwasn’
tdreami
ng,
itwasreal
.What
happenedlastni
ghtwasal
lreal
.
“
Maf
akuIknowy
oui
nther
e.Pl
easel
etmei
n”
Heshoutedfrom theothersi
deoft hedoor.Hi
s
voi
cealonewasenought omakemewantt o
puke.Hedisgust
edmeandIhav en’
tevenseen
him si
ncel
astnight.Ij
ustsatthereandcri
edall
overagai
nhuggingmyl egsandr esti
ngmy
headonmyknees.
“Yandi
swapl
easej
ustopent
hisdoor
.I’
m sor
ry
aboutl
astni
ght
”
Ist
il
lkeptqui
et.Judgingbythesoundofhis
voi
cehewassi tt
ingont hef
looragai
nstt
he
doorontheotherside.
Hi
m:I
’
m sosor
ryMaf
aku.I
’
mreal
l
ysor
ry
Ist
ill
keptquiet.HowwasIexpect
edtor espond
tohimr eal
l
ynow?Imeant hi
smansexual ly
vi
olatedme, t
hesamemanwhopr omi sedto
neverhurtmeormakemecr ywast hesame
onewhowentagai nsthi
sownpromisesand
didtheopposit
e.HowwasIexpect
edt oever
facehim agai
n?
Hi
m:st
handwasam pl
ease.
Istillkeptqui et.Themor eIt houghtabouti t,t
he
mor ei tsunki n.Iwal kedgotupandwentt o
shower ,Icouldsmel lhim onme.Ist oodi n
frontoft hemi r
rorandsuddenl yf eltsodi rt
yand
notl ikeMel o’
swi f
e.Igoti nt heshowerand
scrubbedmy selfhopi ngt oscr ubhi m andhi s
scentof fofme.l et’sber eali
stict hough, how
doy ouwasht hebr ain?I t’
st heonl ythingt hat
doesn’ tforget.Ihear dhi m comebackandl eave.
Itwasday sl i
ket hisIwi shedSi sekol i
vedi n
Jobur g.Iknowi t’
scr azyandst upi dbutmy
fri
endal way sknewwhatt osayordowhenIf elt
mi ser able.Hewasher ef orthef uner al andt hen
hel ef tbecausehehadt ogobackt owor k
straightaf t
erbuthet ext edmei nspi r
ational or
mot iv ati
onal quot esev ery daysot hatsomewhat
broughtmecl osert osomeheal ingbuti tdidn’t
repl
acehim notbei
nghere.Maybeifhewere
hereIwouldhavelonggoneforther
apyand
tri
edtof
indawayt omov eforward.
.
.
ONEWEEKLATER
-
Nar
rat
ed
It
’sbeenaweeksi nceshel astsawMel o.
Yay a’
sr outi
newast hesame, shewasa
permanentr esi
denti ntheguestr oom inher
house.Thepai nbet weenherl egswhi chcould
notbeputi ntowor dsaweekagohad
disappear edbutt hepai ninherhear twhichno
west er
nmedi cinecoul dfixwasst i
l
lthere,
it’
s
noteasyt ojustacceptt haty ourhusbanddi d
sucht oy ou.Yay ahadshutev ery
oneoutand
j
ustst ay edwithhert hought s.Herfriend’
scame
andwentwi t
houtseei ngher .Themor eshe
aboutt hatnight;hert earswoul dstophi m,her
screamsandpl easdidn'tdoheranygoodnor
didthescr at ching...I
nst eadhewenti ndeeper
andf astersat isfyinghi msel fwi thhi swi feev en
thoushedi dn'twantanyofi t, shewoul dget
angryandf indher sel
fhat i
nghi m wi thal lshe
wasbutwhoar eweki dding?Wheny oul ov e
someonet hewayshel ovesMel oi t’snott hat
easyt ohat et hem.Shegoti nt ot heirr oom and
i
twascl ean, thel i
nenhadbeenchangedbutt he
smel lofhi m wasst il
lther e,hedi dl ivether e
afterallev ent houghhehadn’ tbeenhomef ora
week.Shel ookedatt hewel l
-madebedand
memor i
escamef loodingback, shecl osedher
eyesf orami nut eandr e-openedt hem andt he
i
magesdi sappear ed.Shewentt ohercl osetand
wor eat racksui t.Shewentt omakeher sel f
somet hingt oeatbutt hatdidn' thel p,instead
shej ustlett hesandwi chsi tt her eanddr ankt he
glassofdr ywi neshehadpour edt odr i
nkwi th
thesandwi ch.Thehousewassoqui etwi thout
her.Itwassocl ean, everypar toft heirhouse
wasar emi nderoft hebabyt heyl ost.Herphone
ranginherhanddisturbi
ngherfrom her
thought
s.Itwasherf r
iendSi
seko.Asmuchas
shedidn'
twantt oanswerhiscall
,shemissed
hiscompany .SheanswereditandSeko
demandedt hatthegatebeopened
/
/..
..
Yay
a:I
'
m nothome
Seko:
that
'sal
i
e
Yay
a:Sekopl
ease.Notnow
Seko:Yandiswayoucan'tkeepdoi
ngt
histo
yoursel
f.Justt
ell
theseguystoopent
hisdamn
gate//
Hedr oppedthecallonher .Shegotupof fher
assandbuzzedhi min.Shej ustsatther
eand
foundherselfcryi
ngalloveragain.Shefelt
armswr apar oundherandcomf ort
ingher.Li
ttl
e
didSekoknowt herealr
easonshewascr yi
ng.I
t
wasnotj ustaboutYasyany mor ebutitwas
nowaboutt hepainherhusbandputher
through.
Seko:
OhMunchi
es.Ihat
eseei
ngy
oul
i
ket
his
Her:whycan’tbehappyforj
ustonecompl
ete
yearwit
houtanyhiccups?Whydobadthi
ngs
alwayshappentome?
Seko:
Munchieseveryt
hingwi
l
lbef
ine.Godwi
l
l
hel
pyouguysthroughthis
Her:Iwishi
twereeasySeko.Iwi
shthi
ngs
wouldbebetterandIwoul
dgetoverherbeing
gonebutit’
ssohardSeko,i
t’
ssohardtojust
acceptherbei
nggone
Seko:thenlet’
stryther
apy
.Nooneexpectsyou
tojustacceptthatshe’
sgonebecauseshe’
s
not,she’
spartofy ouandwil
lal
waysbepartof
youbaby
Shekeptqui
et.Ei
shSekohadapoi
ntshe
thought
.Maybeit
’st
imeshewokeupandfi
xed
upherli
fe
Seko:asmuchasshedi
dn’
twantyouleaving
forworkbutwebot
hknowthatshewouldn’t
wanty outodot hi
stoyoursel
f.Younotan
alcoholi
c,youneverwere.Don’
tletherdeat
h
turnyouintoone.Focusthispai
ny ouare
feeli
ngrightnowintoar
t.
BeforeIdiscoveredalcohol,
myheal i
ngagent
usedt obemyar t.Iusedtopai ntwhatIwas
feel
ing.Ican’tr
emembert helastt
imeIwasin
myst udio.
Seko:
gochangey
ourshoesandl
etsgo
Her
:why
?Wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Seko:
somewher
e.Justcomewi
thme
Her
:okf
ine
Shewal kedupt oherr oom andchangedinto
sneakersandwal keddownstair
sandf oundhim
standingtalkingont hephone.Hewast al
ki
ng
tohiscolleaguet elli
nghim hewouldbeback
afteraweek, atthemomenthewaswi thhi
s
fri
endandsheneededhi m more.Ontheway
theywer etalkingaboutst uf
fthat’
shappened.
Her
:Ihav
en’
tseenhi
minaweek
Seko:butt
hat
’sunl
i
keMel
o,hav
eyout
ri
ed
cal
li
nghim?
Sheshookherhead
Seko:
Yay
awhatar
en’
tyout
ell
i
ngme?
Her
:it
’snot
hingSeko.I
t’
sbet
weenMel
oandI
Seko:
didhehur
tyouYandi
swa?
Theconcer ninhisvoicewasenought oremind
herjustwhatshehadmi ssedaboutherbest
fri
end.Heal way scaredabouthernomat ter
what .Yayawant edtot el
lhim butanangry
SisekoandaMel owhom y oudon’treal
lyknow
hisemot ionswasasceneshedi dn’
twantt o
exper i
enceorhearaboutbecausebestbel ieve
witht hetwooft hem therewoul dbeadead
body ,doesn’tmatterwhichoft hetwoitbelongs
to.
Her
:NOdon’
tber
idi
cul
ous
Seko:
then?
Her:he’
sjustdeal
ingwit
hthi
stheonl
ywayhe
knowshowandI ’
m doi
ngthesame
Seko:
heshouldbedeal
ingwit
hthi
swit
hyou
Yandi
swa.Youaremarr
iedandYasmi
nwas
bothyour
sandhis
Her
:Canwej
ustdr
opt
hissubj
ectpl
ease
Seko:
fine.
Hedr ovehertoaplaceshehadnev erbeen
before.Theywer
epar kedi
nfrontofabui l
ding,
theygotoutandhet ookheri
nsideandi twasa
whiteroom andthewaspapersandl otsof
paint
.
Yay
a:whati
sthi
s?
Hi
m:j
ustapl
aceaf
ri
endi
ssel
l
ing
Yay
a:oh…
Him:
yeah.You’
l
lcal
lmewheny
ouwantt
ogo
home
Yay
a:ar
en’
tyoust
ayi
ng?
Hi
m: Ilov
eyoumyf
ri
endbuty
ouneedt
odo
t
hisalone
Yay
a:ok.Thanky
ouSi
seko
Henodded,hekissedherforeheadandl ef
ther
toworkinpeace.shetookapai ntbr
ushand
blackpai
ntandstart
edgetti
ngcr eat
ive.
.
.
<3
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16,
07:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E28-
Mel
o
***
“…AndnowI ’
m mi ssi
ngyourlov
e…I ’
mf aded
onceagai
n;Idon’tknowwhereIam.ButIj ust
knowI’
m dri
ft
ingfarf r
om y
ou.I’
mt rynakeep
myheadstrongbutmyhear t,won’
tjustletme
goawayf r
om youdon’
tyouknowwedri
ft
ing
off
,drif
ti
ngof f
…Iknowy out
hinkt
her
aindon’
t
fal
lthatfarapart
…”*
**
Ihatedmy self.Myf i
rstthoughtwast ogoget
my selfar restedf orthecr i
meIhadcommi tted.
Shedi dn' tdeser vewhatIdi dtoherandbei ng
drunkwasnoexcuse.Isatdownandl eanedon
thedoorhopi ngshewoul dopensoIcan
apologi zebutshedi dn'topen.Ifi
nallydecided
togetupandgogetsomeai rbutwhenIcame
backshewasst i
lllockedup.Iknockedbutshe
didn'trespond, Iknockedagai nandshest i
ll
didn'trespond, Ikeptknocki nguntilIranoutof
knocks.Idr ovemy sel ftothebar..
.Idrank
my selft othepoi ntofnor eturnandt hendr ove
off,Ifoundmy selfpar kedinf r
ontofKat e's
house.Shewaswor kingthereasar adiologist
orsomet hing.Shel ivedinasmal lthree-
bedr oom house.Iknockedonherdoor
continuousl yuntilsheopened.
Her
:whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
eatt
hist
ime?
Me:Imessedup.Imessedupreal
lybadand
she'
llnev
erf
orgi
veme.She'
ll
neverforgi
veme
Kate
Her
:Mel
oyouar
edr
unk
Me:thanksf
ornoti
cing.CanIcomei
n,i
ts
f
reezi
ngouthere?
ThelasttimeIcameherenothinghappened
betweenus.Nokiss.Nonothing,shejust
off
eredmeapl acetosleepandthatwast hat.
Shest oodasi
deandletmein.Iwal kedtothe
l
oungeandsatdownont hecouchandbur ied
myf aceinmyhands.
Her
:her
eyougo
Shesai
dhandingmeaglassofwat
er.Idr
ank
thecol
dwaterinonegoandt
henputthegl
ass
onthetabl
e.
Her
:I'
l
lgof
ixt
hespar
eroom f
ory
ou
Me:
pleasest
ay
Ihel
dherhandandshest
oppedandl
ookedat
myhandt
henatme.
Her
:doesYay
aknowy
ouher
e?
Ishookmyheadno.Themer ethoughtofwhatI
didtoherwasenought ot earmeapart.It
’ssaf
e
tosayIhatemy sel
fmor ethanshehat esme
andwhatIhatet hemosti sthatshehasa
forgi
vi
ngheartandI'm scaredthatshemight
j
ustforgi
vemef orthi
s.
Her
:shoul
dIcal
lher
?
Ishookmyhead.Themor eIthoughtabouti
t
themor efearcrepti
n.Mom wouldprobabl
y
resentmei fshefoundoutanddadwouldkil
l
mest rai
ghtup.
Me:
canIpl
easej
ustsl
eepher
etoni
ght
?
Her
:yeahsur
e..
.
Iletgoofherar m andwewal kedtothespare
room passingKy l
e'sroom,hewassleepingso
peaceful
ly.Wegott ot hespar
eroom andshe
tookoutabl anketforme.Itookmycl ot
hesoff
andwhenIt
urnedar
oundshewasst
arr
ing
Her
:uhhm I
'
llseey
oui
nthemor
ning
Me:
thanksKat
e
Her:
youthef
atherofmychi
l
d..
.I'
l
lal
way
s
comethr
oughforyou
Shewalkedout.Iswi t
chedtheli
ght
soffandgot
i
nunderthecov ers.IwaswokenupbyKy l
e
j
umpingont opoft hebed.Itwaski
ndofvery
har
dnott othi
nkaboutYasyespeciall
ywhen
sheandKy l
ewer ethatclose.
Me:
Heybuddy
Hi
m:heydad.Whendi
dyougether
e?
Me:
lastni
ght
.Idi
dn'
twantt
owakey
ou
Hi
m:wher
e'sYay
a?
Me:
athome
Helookedatmef orawhile.Ky
leandYayawer
e
ver
ycloseasifshewerehi smom.Yes,Kat
e
andKylehaveamot her
-sonrel
ati
onshi
pbut
YayaandKy
leareli
kemot
herandsonandKy
le
tel
l
sYayaever
ythi
ng
Hi
m:wel
lmom sai
dnott
owakey
ou
Me:
buty
oudi
dany
way
Him:Imissedy
ou.Ev
ersi
nceYasy
'sf
uner
alI
haven'
tvi
sit
edhome
Me:I
'm sorr
ybuddy
.Thi
ngshav
ejustbeen
compl
icated
Hi
m:Imi
ssy
ou.Imi
ssmom
Me:maybeyoucanasky
ourmom t
odr
opy
ou
of
fther
eaft
erschool
Hi
m:r
eal
l
y?
Me:
yeahsur
e
Hewalkedoutallexci
ted,Ipul
ledtheblanket
overmyhead.Iwasf ucked!Igotuptosearch
mypantsformyphoneandIt ri
edcall
ingYaya
buttonoluck.Kat
ewal kedinandwaitedforme
toremovethephonef r
om myear .
Her
:mor
ning
Me:
mor
ning
Her
:canyouborrowmeyourkey
s.Wantt
o
moveyourcaroutoft
heway
Me:
usemycari
tscool
Her
:uhhm ok
Me:
aren'
tyougoi
ngt
owor
k?
Her
:no.I
'
m of
ftoday
..
.You?
Me:
nah
Igavehermykey sandt henshet
ookthem and
walkedout.Shecamebackandputt hem onthe
smalltabl
eintheroom.Shesatopposit
eme
andlookedatme, Isatup
Her:what
’sgoingon?Youcan’tjustrockupin
myhousewhenev eryoudrunkandt hinkt
hat
I’
mjustgoingtosi
tandnotaskanyquest ions.
Lastti
meIunderstoodbecausey ouhadjust
l
aidYasytorestbutthi
sti
mear o…
Me:
Ifor
cedmy
sel
fonher
Shelookedatmeal mostasifshewas
expecti
ngmet osayI’mjoki
ngorsomet hi
ng.
Sheslappedme,Ithinki
twasi nvol
unt
aryand
becauseshewasi nshock.Iheldmycheek.
Damnt hischi
ck’
shandwasf ucki
ngpai
nful
Me:
OUCH!
Her
:takey
ourt
hingsandl
eav
e
Me:
Kat
ecany
oupl
easej
ustl
etmeexpl
ain
Her
:Leav
eDer
ri
ck.GodIcan’
tbel
ieveyou
woul
ddosomethi
ngl
iket
hat.Ju.
.justl
eav
e.
Pl
ease
Me:
Kat
e
Her:Derri
ckgetoutofmyhouse.Idon’ tcar
e
whyy oudiditbecausethere’
snojust
if
y i
ngrape.
Shejustlostachil
dandt henyougoanddot his?
Pleasejustgetout.Justgo
Shegotupandstor
medout .WOW!Thatwas
nott
hereact
ionIwasexpecti
ngbutshewas
ri
ghtandIguessshehadev eryreasont oreact
thewayshedi d.Ialr
eadyhatemy selfenough
forwhatIdidtomywi f
eandIdon’ tthi
nkIcoul d
everbeabletofaceheragainaf t
ert hi
s.Itook
myshi i
tandleft
.Ididn’
tknowwher eIwas
goingbutIwasdet erminedonleaving.I’
ve
screwedupenoughandgoodGodi fmypar ents
everfoundout…t heywouldprobablycastrate
me.
.
.
ONEWEEKLATER
It
’sbeenaweeksi nceIlastsawmywi fe,my
sonorKateandIwon’ tlieit
’sbeenhel l.Ihave
wenttocheckont hehouseandhadpeopl e
keeptabsonherjusttomakesur et hatshe’sok.
Yandiswadeserv
esbet terthanthis.ifshe
askedforadivor
ceIwoul dgranti
tt oherno
questi
onsaskedbecausehonest l
yspeaki ng
ther
e’snogett
ingov erwhatIdi dandIdon’ t
expecthert of or gi
v eme.t hemor eIt hinkabout
hercr i
es,herscr eami ngandscr at ching,the
fi
ghtshehadi nherandwhenshef i
nallygav ein.
i
t’samemor ythatcont i
nuest ohauntme.My
phonehasbeenof fev ersinceIl ef tKat e’
s
house.Iwasl ivingi nsomeshadyasspar tof
Pretori
a…Iwassor tofhidingout .I ’
m ashamed.
AllIeverdoi sdr i
nkandpassoutandt hat ’
s
prettymuchmyev erydaydeal .Ihadabur ner
phonej usttomakesur eev ery
thi ngwasst i
ll
goinggood.Isentt hepeopl eatwor kanemai l
sayingIwasi nanoser vi
cezoneandsoIwoul d
getbackt ot hem t hedayIcameback.Iwas
shadyasf uck,hai rgr ownout ,bear dandal l.I
l
ookedhomel ess.Imi ssedYay a, Imi ssedher
somuchbutt her ewasnogoi ngbackt oher .A
knockcamet hroughont hedoor , Iwashesi tant
toanswerbutIwentt oopenany wayandKat e
stoodont heot hersi de.Howdi dshef i
ndme
here?
Her
:canIcomei
n?
Inoddedandst oodaside.Shewal kedinand
l
ookedar ound,
therewer ebott
lesofalcohol
l
ayingaroundont hefloorandcigaret
te
packet
s…Iknowi t
’snotlikemeandi t’
snot
somethi
ngIdobuti tbecameat hingnow.
Her
:yousmokenow?
Me:
canIhel
pyouwi
thsomet
hing?
Her
:youcan’
tjustr
unawayf
rom ev
ery
thi
ng
Der
ri
ck
Me:
Kat
ehowdi
dyouev
enf
indme?
Her:Ihavemyway s.Mysonneedshi sfather
andy ouj
usthidi
ngisn’tdoinghi
m ormeany
good.He’sconst
antlyaskingaboutyouand
he’
swor ri
edhemi ghthavebeenthereasonyou
wentMI A
That’
sthelastthi
ngIwant
edforKy
le.He
doesn’
tdeservethi
sbutheal
sodoesn’
tneeda
rapi
stforafather
.
Her
:whaty
oudi
dtoYandi
swacannotbe
forgiven.Imeany oursisterisar apev i
cti
m
her selfsof ory outogoonandputhert hrough
that ?It’
snotr ightMel o.Andy our unningaway
i
snotgoi ngtosol veany thi
ngher e.Idon’tcare
whosay swhatorhowy ouputi tbuti twon’tfix
things.Youandherr ecentl
ylostachi l
dandt hat
alonewasbad, foryout ogoonandhur therthe
wayy oudi d…t hatwasf arwor se.Icar eabout
youast hef atherofmychi ld,Ireal l
ydowhi chis
whyI ’
m her e.Mel ogohomeandf i
xt hemess
you’ vecaused
Me:no.Ican’
tfaceherKat
e.Youdon’
t
under
standhowmuchIbr okeher
Her:
thenfi
xher.i
t’
syourmesst
ofi
x.Youdi
d
t
histoher
,undoit
Me:
ifIcoul
dIwoul
dbutIcan’
t
Her:
ther
e’snosuchat hi
ng.I’
veseeny
ouwi
th
her
,youl
ov eherandshelovesyou
Me:
youdi
dn’
tseeherKat
e
Her:Idon’tneedtoseeherformet
oknowthat
sheisdisappoint
edinyou.Gohomeandf
ix
yourmess
Me:
wher
edoIev
enst
art
?
Her :
startbycleani
ngupy ouractandt akeit
from there.Yandi
swalovesy ouandf orsome
reasonIjustknowt hatshewi l
lfor
giveyou.
May benotnowbutshewi llf
orgiveyou.She’
s
stupidlyi
nl ov
ewi t
hyouev enthoughy ou’
ve
givenhercount l
essreasonstoleavey ou
Katehadapoi nt
.Idon’tknowwhyshest ay
s.So
manyt i
mesI ’
vehurtherbutshe’sstay
edbut
thi
sone?Idoubtshe’llstaywit
ht hi
sone.Idon’
t
expecthertoanyway,heckI’l
levenmov eout.I
don’tdeser
veher.
Me:
I’
ll
see
Her
:fi
xthingsDer
ri
ck.Her
eyougo,
Ifoundt
his
ont
hefloor
Me:
oh…t
hanks
ItooktheA4si zeenv el opef r
om herhandand
shewal kedout .Iwal kedt ot hewindowwhi l
e
openingit.itwaspi ctur esofOl wethu&Mi l
a’s
caraccident .Therepi cturesoft heengineand
howt oassembl eitanddi sassembl eit,
there
werebr akepadsandpr ett
ymucht hecar
Olwethuwasdr ivi
ngt hatday .IfIwaslookingat
thepicturespr oper l
y, thebr akeshadbeen
temperedwi th.Thequest ionremainsast owho
wouldhav edonet hi sbecauset heguyImetat
thepolicest ati
onmaybeapsy chobuthe
doesn’tseem smar tenought opullt
hisoff.As
forme, Idon’ thaveenemi esornonet hatIknow
off.
.
.
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[12/
16,
07:
45]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E29-Yay
a
***“
…Iwasi nt hedar kness.Iwasouti nthecold.
Seenot hi
ngcoul dheal this,
thi
shol einmysoul .
Your eachedouty ourarmst ome, heldoutyour
hearttome.pul ledmebackf rom theedge,
thoughtI’
dr eachedt heend.WhenIwas
drowning.WhenIwassoconf usedy ou,you,
youpul l
edmet hrough.Iwasi ntheshadows,
l
ost,nothinglefttolose.You, you,
y oupulled
met hrough…” **
*
Istoodther
ewi thSekobesi
demel ooki
ngat
whatIhadpai nt
ed, i
twasmorethanonewall
andpainti
ngitselfmadenosensebutitwas
beauti
ful
,fi
ll
edwi thsomanyemot i
ons.
Seko:
thi
slooksgood
Me:
yout
hinkso?
Hi
m: y
eah.Thi
sisartMunchi
es,
doesn’
tmat
ter
whati
tlooksl
i
ke.I
tsart
Me:
Sekot
hanky
ou.Thanky
ouf
ort
his
Hi
m:any
timeMunchi
es.Readyt
ogoeat
?
Me:
Eatwher
e?
Isaidl
ooki
ngdownatmydi
rtysel
f.Ican’
tbe
goingouti
npubl
i
clooki
ngl
i
ket hi
s
Him:
arest
aurantwi
thnor
mal
peopl
e,eat
ing
comegoodexpensi
vef
ood
Me:
Sekoy
oudoseemer
ight
?
Him:yeah.Iseemybeaut
if
ulbestf
riendwho
hasn’
teatenanythi
ngi
ndays.Ubhi
tyi
leandi
ts
notpr
ettyatall
Me:
OUCH!
Hi
m:it
’st
hetruth.Ubhit
yil
e(y
ouski
nny
).You
l
ooksi
ck,wal
kingskeleton
Ihithi
m onhisshoulderandhejustlaughedat
me, Il
ookedathi
m pout i
ngandhej ustlaughed
evenhardermakingmel augh.Ar
ght hisguy
thou;hewasheav ensent.HewasjustwhatI
needtoleavethathouseandnotdi
eint
his
batt
leI
’m havi
nginmyhead.
Hi
m:Munchi
esl
etsgo,
I’
m hungr
ymna
Me:ok.Let
’sst
artbymypl
ace,
Ineedachange
ofcl
othes,
Idon’
twantt
oembarrassy
ou
Hi
m:I
’
mfr
om Mt
hat
haandsoar
eyoudude
Me:
what
’st
hatsupposedt
omean?
Hi
m:f
igur
eitouty
our
sel
f
Hewal kedoutandl ef
tmewi thaquest ion
mar k…Whatdi dhemeanwef rom Mt hatha?
Thatpl aceisnotabadpl acet obef rom.I t’
sa
niceplace…atl easttomei tis.Ifollowed
behindandf oundhi mi nhiscarl i
steningt o
JenniferHudson’ sYoupulledmet hr ough.I
foundmy sel
fsingingalong,Seko’smusi cwas
nothingl i
kehi
m butheal way shadt her ight
songsandr i
ghtnowhehadpul ledmet hrough
andsav edmef rom drowninginmypool of
thought s.Hewassl owlypull
ingmet hrough
f
rom t
heseshadows.
Me:
sowher
e’sy
ourgi
rl
fr
iend?
Hi
m:backhome
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Him:topickyouupandt oremindyout hat
ther
e’ssti
ll
beautyinli
fe.Itmaynotseem l i
keit
now,itmaynotlookitbutt her
e’sbeautyinli
fe.
I
’m notsayi
ngdon’tmour nherordon’ tgri
eve
herbutdon’tf
orgettotakenoteoft hebeautif
ul
thi
ngsinli
fe
Me:
hav
eyoubeenwat
chi
ngCol
l
ater
alBeaut
y?
Hechuckl
edandsodi
dI
Him:naht
hatmovi
eist
oosadf
orme,
buty
ou
coul
ddowithi
t.
Me:alr
ight
….Andwhatdidyousayt
oyour
gi
rl
fr
iend?Shedoesn’
tli
kemeatall
Him:It
oldherIwascomi ngt
ocheckuponyou
andshewasn’thappyabouti
t,sheev
enof
fer
ed
t
ocomewi
thmeandIt
oldherno.
Me:
yourassi
sgoi
ngt
odi
esi
ngl
eandal
one
Him:never
.Ican’tst
aywi t
hsomeonewho’snot
comfort
ablewit
hmybestf ri
endandIt
oldher
that
.Shecaneitheracceptthaty
oumyt woin
oneorleav
eandshechoset ostay
Me:nankuumntuezondi
bul
ali
sa(
yougoi
ngt
o
getmekil
led)
Hi
m: ahhnev
er.Youmymunchi
es,
dayone,
the
r
estcomeafteryou
Me:
stopf
li
rt
ingwi
thme
Hej
ustl
aughedandsodi
dI
Him:
Imissedt
his.I
t’
sgoodtoseeyousmi
l
ing
andl
aughi
ngandcracki
ngj
okesagain
Me:
Iguess
Not
hingaboutmelaughi
ngorsmili
ngfel
tbad,
i
tact
uall
yfel
tgoodtolaughagai
n.Maybeit
wasaboutti
meIwentbacktowor kandpi
cked
myl i
feup.Gr i
eveherwhi lest i
ll
mov ingonwi th
myl i
fe.Ther e’
snot hi
ngwr ongwi ththat.We
parkedi nfrontofa5- starrestaurantandwe
bothwal kedout .ThewayIwassodi rty
, Iev
en
hadpai ntinmyhai r
.Wewal kedi nandSeko
hadmadedi nnerreservati
ons, theguylookedat
mef rom headt ot oe…Idi dn’tnotlooktheway
YandiswaBessi ssupposedt olook…Ilooked
l
ikeYandi swaGxabaf rom backi nfi
rstyear
var
sity.
Hi
m:uhhm pl
easef
oll
owt
hisguyt
oyourt
abl
e
Sekoj ustlaughedatme, knowinghim,hewas
probablythinkingwhatIwast hinki
ng.This
placewasapl aceofclass.Mel oandIonce
cameher eandIwasdr essedt okil
lbutthi
s
ti
mear oundIjustlookedl i
keahobo.Wesat
downandheor der
edmej ui
ceandhi m aglass
ofdrywi ne.Ilookedathim andhet ol
dthe
waitertobr i
ngourdr i
nksnowwhi l
ewedeci de
onwhatt oeat
Hi
m:y
ounotdr
inki
ngany
mor
e
Me:
what
?
Him:
it’
sbadenoughyoulookli
keahoboand
nowyouwantthesepeopl
eheretocont
inue
j
udgi
ngy ou?Hayi
munchiesdon’
ttr
ip
Asmuchast hatwasi
nsult
ingIcoul
dn’
thel
p
butl
augh.Hewassoserious.
Me:
ouch!
Him: youknowIl
ovey oumunchiesbutwedon’t
needthesepeopl
ethinkingyousomealcohol
i
cI
pickeduponthestr
eet sandoff
eredt
otakeout
forgoodexpensi
vefood
Me:
ohnowewoul
dn’
twantt
hatnow
Helaughedandsodi
dI.Sekoandbel
ongedi
n
ourownworldshame
Hi
m: uhhm soI
’
m pl
anni
ngonaski
ngSi
wat
o
marr
yme
Me:
youki
ddi
ngmer
ight
?
Seko?Set
tl
edown?What
?
Him:apar
tfr
om hernotl
i
kingy
ou,
she’
sper
fect
Yaya
Me:
arey
our
eadyf
ormar
ri
age?
Hi
m:i
fyoucandoi
t,what
’st
ost
opme
Ij
ustl
aughed
Him:nobutonthereal
Ithi
nkI’
mreadytoset
tl
e
down.Iwanttostar
tafami
lyandj
ustbehappy
wit
hmygi r
lthat
’sal
l
Me:thenIsaygof ori
t.Youl
oveherandshe
l
ovesy ou.Idon’
tseewhynot
Hi
m:sot
omor
rowwegoi
ngr
ingshoppi
ng?
Me:tel
lmeinti
mesoIknowtogetdr
essedand
act
uall
ylookl
i
keYandi
swaBess
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m: youj
ustneedtogai
nali
tt
lewait
,you
al
readyl
ookli
keherandsmel
lli
keher
Me:
arghwhat
ever
Hi
m:Sot
alkt
ome,
what
’sr
eal
l
ybot
her
ingy
ou?
Me:
Idon’
tknowwhaty
out
alki
ngabout
Him:I
’m notbl
i
nd.Isawwhaty
oupai
nted.You
angr
y
Me:
am Inotal
l
owedt
o?
Hi
m:whatdi
dMel
okuhl
edot
oyou?Wher
eishe?
Me:
Sekohedi
dn’
tdoany
thi
ngt
ome
WhenKhul uwar nedmeaboutmar ri
age, she
saidthatwhathappensi nsi
demybedr oom wi th
myhusbandoughtt ost ay.Sheal sowentont o
ment i
onthatasmuchaswecanhav ef r
iendsof
dif
ferentsexes,nev erconf i
dei ntheopposi te
sexaboutt hethingst hathappeni nyourhouse
becauseinherey esamanawomancannev er
bejustfri
endswi thoutt heot herhavingf all
en
fortheother.Imaynotf eel anythi
ngf orSiseko
butwhoi stosayt hathedoesn’ tf
eel anythi
ng
forme?
Hi
m:Maf
akuar
eyousur
e?
Me:
evenifhedi
ddosomet hi
ng,whathappens
i
nmyhousebehindthosedoorsoughttostay
t
her
e.Thankyoufortheconcernbutwegoing
t
obefi
ne
IwishedIcouldbelievetheshiitIwast r
yingto
sell
;ImeanIdon’ tseeusmaki ngi tthr
ough
withthisone.Idon’twanttolieI’mreall
y
disappoint
edinhim andatt hi
sst ateIam in,I
don’tseehim andIcont i
nuingwi t
hthis
mar r
iage.Idon’
tcarewhosay swhatabout
givi
ngupandshi itbuthowam Isupposedt o
j
ustmov eonandf orgetthatmyhusbandr aped
me?Whoi stosayhewoul dnev erdoitagain?
Him:okIunder
standyouwhenyouputi
tli
ke
that
.ButYayawhatev
eryouneed,
youhaveme
ok?
Me:
Iknowbuddy
.IknowIgaty
ou
Weplacedourf
oodorder
sandjustcaughtup,
hewasprett
ymuchtel
li
ngmeabouthi sl
if
e
seei
ngthatt
her
ewasn’tmucht
ot el
laboutmy
l
ife.Iwon’tli
eIhadanamazi ngnightwit
hSeko
andIdi dn’
tgetdrunkletalonetasteal
cohol.We
gothomeandhewal kedmet othedoor,
kissed
myf oreheadandl ef
t.ThenextdayIwokeup
anddidal it
tl
espr i
ngcleaning.Igotacal
lfrom
mymot herinlaw
//
Her:i
t’
sgoodtoheart
hesoundofy
ourv
oice,
It
houghtyou’
dbemuteforev
er
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
OhMahy
oubei
ngdr
amat
icnow
Her
:buthonest
ly,
howar
eyouhol
dingup?
Me:
taki
ngi
tonest
epatat
ime
Her
:hav
eyout
houghtofget
ti
ngcounsel
l
ing?
Me:
it’
ssomet
hingI
’
mthi
nki
ngofdoi
ngMah
Her:
okbabyt
hat
’sgood.Takeal
lthet
imey
ou
need
Me:
thanky
ouMah
Her
:andy
ouandMel
o?
Iremovedthephonefrom myearandsighedso
thatshedoesn’
thearme.hopeful
ly
.Iwasreal
ly
hopingshewouldn’
taskmet hat
Me:
wegoodMah
Her
:youl
yi
ng
Me:
wewi
l
lbef
ineMah
Her:Ihopeso.Hehasn’
tbeenret
urninganyof
mycal l
sandatBesstheysay
inghe’sinano
ser
vicezone
Me:Mahthere’
ssomeoneatt
hedoor
,canIcal
l
youbackl
ater
Her
:okmybaby
Me:
bye
Her
:by
ebaby
//
Ireal
l
yhavenoi deawhereMel oisandforher
toaskmeherson’ swhereabouts…mnaIcan’t
shame.EvenifIsayIdon’tknowwherehei s,
shewill
sti
ll
askmeadozenquest i
onandwant
toknowwhyhewoul dj ustgoMI A.I
fhi smom
foundoutaboutthi
s, I
’m pr et
tymuchcer tai
n
shewouldcastrat
ehi mf inishandkl aar.Mama
Bessdoesn’tt
akesucht hingslightl
y.Isawt hat
whenshegotansmsi nforminghert hather
cardwasusedatMar ieSt opes…Soy eah,she
wouldgomad.Ichi l
ledi nmyhouseandwhi l
e
j
ustcheckingmyemai l
sandr espondi ngto
someoft hem unt
ilSisekocameandwewent
tothemalltori
ngshop.
.
.
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
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a
*
**“
……”
***
ONEWEEKLATER
Sekost ayedf orawhol eweekandt hr
oughout
thatwhol eweekt heonl yti
meIev ergottothink
aboutev erythi
ngthathashappenedwaswhenI
wasl eftaloneinthatbighousewi t
hnothingbut
myt hought s.IwastalkingtopeopleandIwas
seeingashr i
nk…thankst oSisekoandImust
sayit’sbeengoi nggoodev ent houghit’
ssti
ll
noteasyt osayhernameoutl oud.Itwasa
regularSaturdayandIwast alki
ngt omy
grandmot heront hephone
/
/….Her
:sowhenwast
hel
astt
imey
oupr
ayed?
Ikeptqui etforawhil
etryi
ngtot hi
nk.Thatwas
agoodquest ion.Whenwast helastti
meI
prayed?Ev ersincemydaught erdiedI'
vedri
ft
ed
awayf rom t
heLord.SheandIusedt opray
befor ewesleptandthelastti
mewespokeshe
helpedmepr ayforasafetri
p,yesshewasn' t
perfectbutsheknewpr ayerandt hat'
sallt
hat
mat tered.
Me:
theni
ghtbef
oreshedi
ed
Icoul
dn'
tevensayhername.Itwassohard.I
t
wassopainful
.Say
inghernamewoul donl
y
makemewi shshewerehereeventhoushe
wasn'
tandthatwasonlygoi
ngtohurteven
more
Her
:Yandi
swa
Me:
Mah
Her
:pr
ay
Me:
he'
sfai
l
edme.Het
ookherawayf
rom me
Themor eIthoughtaboutt
hisprayerthi
ngthe
mor eIf eltl
i
keGodl etthi
shappen, t
hemor eI
feltl
ikeGodf ai
ledmeandgoi ngtohimt opray
woul dn’tmakemef eeli
nanybet t
er.Yes,ev
er
sincet heaccidentIhaven’
tprayed.Notonce.
AllI’
vedonei saskGodquestionsast owhyhe
woul dt akeherawayf r
om meorwhyhewoul d
l
ett hishappen.Shewasonl y3.
Her
:shewasnev
ery
our
stokeep.Godbor
rows
usy
ouki
ds.Youar
enotour
stokeep
Me:t
henwhydi
dhegiv
ehert
omet
obegi
n
wi
th?I
fshewasnotmi
ne
Her:Yandi swamnt anam Goddoesnott ake
fr
om usandnotl eaveabl essing.Yasyi sy our
angelwat chingoveryouandy ourhusband.
Don'tl
ett hiscomebet weeny ouandy our
husband, youandhi m needeachot hernow
moret hanev erandmostofal lyouneedGodt o
hel
py out hroughthisdif
ficulttime.Youandhi m
understandt hepaintheot herisgoingt hrough
moret hanany thi
ng,don'tpushhi m awaybaby
Ikeptquiet
.Shewasright
.Butwher
edoIeven
beginprayi
ng?I
'vedr
if
tedsofarf
rom t
hel
ordI
doubtheev enr
emember sme
Her:praybaby.Ever
ythi
ngwill
fal
lintoplace.
Don'tlett
hedevilwi
n.Yourfi
ghtiswiththe
devilandnotwithGod.Nevermaket hemi st
ake
ofresenti
ngGod.Henev ermakesmi stakes;he
hashi sownreasonsforthet
roubleswef ace.
Beiteasyordi
ff
icul
t,heknowswhy
.Il
ovey
ou
baby
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooKhul
u//
Il
ookedaroundYasy '
sroom andjustfellont
o
myknees.Icoul
dn'tfi
ndmy sel
ftocleani tout
.
I'
m notr
eadytogot hr
oughthatjustyet.Isaton
myheelsandclosedmyey eslookingup.
Me: Ihavesomanyunanswer edquest ions.I
'm
try
ingsohar dt ounder standwhyy outookher
awayf rom mebutnor easoningIcomeupwi th
makesanysense.Unhar denmyhear tlor
d.God
Ineedy ou.Ineedy ousobad.Idon' tknowhow
I'
m supposedt ohandl et his.Idon'tknowhow
tomov eonf r
om t his.Pleasepur ifymyhear t
andmakemeunder standt hatev erythi
ng
happensf orar eason.Gi vemest rength.Father
givemeandmyhusbandt hecour aget oheal
andmov eon.Fat herIwel comey oui ntomy
homeandf ightoffwhat ev erevi
lt hatistryi
ngto
rui
nwhaty ouhav ebui ltforus. .
.
Icoul
dn'tevencontinue.Wordsjustf
ail
edme
andtearsjustrol
leddownmycheeks.Ihopehe
underst
andst hetearsbecauseIhavenowor
ds
toconti
nuewi th.
Me: pl
easejustgivemest r
ength.Rest
orewhat
hasbeenbr okeninthishome.Givemea
for
givingheart
, br
ingbackthepersonIwas
beforeeveryt
hingwentsouth.GodIneedyou
Ispokeinbetweenthet
ears.Idon'tknowifI'
m
theonlyonebutwhenyouhav en'
tprayedina
l
ongt i
meandy oufi
nall
ydo,it
’sli
keawei ghtis
beingslowl
yremovedoffyourshouldersand
thefeel
ingi
samazing.WhenIwasdoneIgot
upandwentt omyroom andcal l
edAsemahl e.
/
/Her
:heyhoney
Me:
Mahl
ear
eyoust
il
li
nJobur
g?
Her:yeahI'
m her
ebabe.What
'swr
ong?I
s
ever
ythingok?
Me:
Ineedy
out
ohel
pmewi
thsomet
hing
Her
:okbabeI
'
m onmyway
Me:
thanky
ou.Seey
ouwheny
ougether
e.
Her
:by
e//
Iwalkedtot hegar ageandgat heredsome
boxesandt henwentbackt oYasy '
sroom.I
call
edanor phanagehomeandt heyweremor e
thanhappyt ot akethethingsinYasy '
sroom.I
star
tedpacki ngherdozent oysint
oabox .I
don'tevenknowhowshehappenedt ohavethi
s
manyt oys.Awhi l
elaterAsemahl ewalkedinas
Iwasput ti
ngt helastofthet oysinabox .
Her
:Yay
a
Me:
hey
.Thanksf
orcomi
ng
Weshar edatightcomf
ort
inghugandt
henI
br
okeit.Shelookedatmef orawhi
l
estandi
ng
bythedoor.
Her
:howar
eyou?
Me:
bet
tert
hanmostday
s
Her
:whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Me:I
'm packi
ngupherthi
ngsandgi
vi
ngt
hem
awaytoanorphanagehome
Her
:di
dyouspeakt
oMel
oaboutt
his?
Ishookmyhead
Me:keepi
ngt
hesethi
ngsAsemahl
ewi
l
lonl
y
makemegocrazy
Her
:Iunder
standbutar
eyousur
eyouwantt
o
dot
his?
Ishookmyhead
Me:
it’
sjustsomet
hingIhav
etodo
Shenodded.Shet ookaboxandhel pedmeout .
Aboutanhourlatermyphoner anganditwasa
guyfrom theor
phanagesay inghewasher eto
fet
cht hedonat
ions.Itol
dthesecurit
yatthe
gatetolethimi
n.Iopenedt hedoorforhim and
welcomedhi min.Wewentt oYasy '
sroom and
everyt
hingwaspackedi nboxesand2
suit
casespackedwi t
hclothes.
Hi
m:t
hisi
sal
ot
Me:
wil
lyouhav
espacei
nyourcar
?
Hi
m:ei
shIdon'
tthi
nkso.
..I
'
llcomebackf
ort
he
r
est
Me:I'
llpacksomei
nmycarandf
oll
owbehi
nd
you.
..Tosaveyoupet
rol
Hi
m:t
hanky
ousomuchMr
s.Bess.
Me:
it’
smypl
easur
e
Wepackedt hethingsintohisvanandthe
remaininginmyboot .Jeephasabigbootat
l
east.It ol
dAsemahl eIwoul dbebackafter
droppingtheseoffandshewascool withit
.We
gottot heorphanageandhecal ledsome
peoplet ohel
pwi t
ht hethingswehadinthe
cars
"
Yay
a"
Iturnedandi
twasThomas.Whatwashedoi
ng
here?
Me:
Thomashi
..
.Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Him:youlookgood.CanIatl
eastgetahug?I
t’
s
beensolong.
Ihuggedhim andqui
ckl
ybrokei
t.Il
astsawhim
thatyearIgotmar
ri
edtoMelo.Hesti
lll
ooked
thesame, HOTandsmeltsodamngood.
Him:it
’ssogoodtoseeyou.Ihear
daboutyour
daughter
,Iwant
edtocomebutIdidn'
twantto
star
ttr
oublewit
hyourhusband
Me:
itsok.Iunder
stand.St
il
li
nCal
i
?
Hi
m:i
nbet
weenact
ual
l
y.Howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
mtaki
ngi
tonest
epatat
ime
Hi
m:heal
i
ngcomest
othosewhowanti
t
Me:
Iheary
ou.Sowhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Hi
m:Iownt
hispl
ace
Me:
wow
Hi
m:t
hanky
ouf
ort
hedonat
ion
Me:
mypl
easur
e
It
urnedt
omybootandi
twasempt
y.
Me:
Ishoul
dgo
Hi
m:canIatl
easthaveyournumbersoIcan
t
hankyoupr
operl
yforthi
s
Me:
I..
..Uhhhm
Hi
m:I
'
m har
mless,
youknowt
hat
Me:
uhhm.
..Ayok
Hegav emehisphoneandIpunchedmy
numberinandgaveitbackt
ohim.Hethanked
meandcl osedmybootformethenopenedmy
cardoorforme.
Hi
m:I
'
llt
exty
ouok
Me:
sur
e
Hi
m:by
eYay
a.I
twasgr
eatseei
ngy
ou
Me:
byeMar
s
Idr
oveof
f.Ipar
kedmycarandwenti
nsi
de,
Asemahl ewasgonebutIhadat extonmy
phoneexpl aini
ngwhyshehadl eftearl
y.The
housewascl eanandempt y
.Igotacal lfr
om
Sekochecki nguponmeandwespokef ortwo
hours,hewast el
li
ngmehepr oposedlastni ght
andshesai dyesandt hathewoul dcal
lme
whent heyhadsetadat e.Afterourphonecal lI
drovetot heGal l
erytorear
range.Iwast hat
boredpleasedon’ tjudgeme.Ihadbeent here
mov i
ngt hingsaroundf ort
hepastt wohour s,I
heardmyphoner i
ngandsoIwentt oansweri t
anditwasanumber
/
/Me:
hel
l
o?
Per
son:
HeyYay
a
Me:
Thomashi
.
Hi
m:Ar
eyoubusy
?
Me:
nonotr
eal
l
y.Whywhat
’sup?
Hi
m: canIt
akey ououtforl
unchordi
nner
?
Pl
ease…ifyourhusbandwon’tmi
ndofcause
Ichuckl
ed
Me:y
eahsurewhynot.Di
nnert
houghbecause
nowI’
m att
hegal
ler
y
Hi
m:Ihear
dtheopeni
ngwasqui
teahi
t
Me:
youknowme,
youknowmyst
uff
Hi
m:l
et’
snotgetcockypl
ease
Me:
I’
ll
cal
lyouwhenI
’
m doneher
eok
Him:
canIcomeseetheplace?Inev
err
eal
l
y
sawyourdr
eam comeal
i
ve
Me:y
eahsur
ewhynot
.I’
l
ltexty
out
headdr
ess
ok
Hi
m:sur
e.Seey
oui
nabi
t.Hav
eyoueat
en?
Me:
yeah
Hi
m:l
i
es
Me:
what
?
Hi
m: y
ousoundunsur
eandt
hatmeans“
no”
.I’
l
l
br
ingfood
Me:
finewhat
ever
.Cal
lwheny
ouout
side
Hi
m:sur
e//
Icontinuedmov ingpainti
ngsar ound.Looking
atthepl aceI ’
m guessi ngthemanagerorMel o
remov edherpi cturesandputt hem downi nthe
studi
odownst airs.Imov edthesculpturest o
whereIf elttheywoul dlookbetter.Iwould
standbackandl ookattheplaceandmov ed
somest uffaround.If oundmy selfsweepi ng
andthenmopi ng, notthatitwasdi r
tybutIwas
bored.Iwasdi st urbedbymyphoner i
ngingand
i
twasMar ssay i
nghewasout side,Ianswer ed
hiscallandwentt oopenf orhim.Hewas
carry
ingapl asticbag.Wesatont hefloorand
atewhi l
ecat chi ngup.
Him:youshoul
dn’
tal
l
owt
hist
ocomebet
ween
youguys
Me:Weallgrievedi
ffer
entl
y.I
fhi
m
di
sappear
ingf r
om thesur
faceoft
heear
thwi
l
l
makehimf eelanybett
er,
thensobei
t
Hi
m:y
ouhav
en’
tchangedonesi
ngl
ebi
t
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
Ihav
en’
thadanyr
easont
o
Hi
m:Isee
.
.
-
NARRATED
Yay aandThomashav ehadmanymor edates
orlunchessi ncethenandt hey’vebeengr eat ,
amazi ngev en.Thoughhert herapistwas
agai nstherhangi ngoutwi thThomast heway
shedi d, shesawnot hingwr ongwi thhanging
outwi thanol dfri
end.Theywer esi t
tingi
n
Thomas’ sapar tmentaf t
erahect i
cdayatwor k
thatt heybot hhaddr i
nkingabot t
leofwine, she
fi
gur edonegl asswoul dn’
thur tandonegl ass
turnedi ntoacoupl emor e.Theywer ebothtipsy
wat chi ngt hemov ieaddicted.Onet hingl
edt o
anot herandt heysharedaki ss, Yayaquickly
br
okei
t
Her
:Not
hisi
snotr
ight
.I'
m mar
ri
ed
Him:youdon’
tevenknowwher ehei
s.Areal
husbandwouldneverl
eav
ey ouwhenyouneed
hi
mt hemost.Hewouldneverdoyouli
kehedid.
Hesaidashekissedherneckcar
essi
ngher
wel
l-
shapedboobs
Him:Il
ovey
ouandIcantaket
hepai
naway
.
Justl
etmetaket
hepai
n
Hesai dlookingdeepi ntohert winklyey es.He
wassay i
ngallther i
ghtt hings.Ev ery t
hingshe
shouldhav ebeenhear ingf rom themanshe
vowedt o.Themanwhot oldheri nf rontofa
crowdt hathishear tbelongedt onobuther .
Despitetheheal i
ngandt het herapy ,Yaya
couldn’tfor
getev erythingt hathashappened
andwhatMel ohasputhert hrough, itwasn’t
goingtobeeasy .Ithasonl ybeent hreeweeks
nowsi ncether apei ncidentaf terall.Shewas
getti
ngt her
ebutt her ewasst i
llt
hathol ei nher
hear
t
Hi
m:l
etmemakey
ouf
eel
bet
ter
Godhewassopr etty.Sosexy .Ver ywel lbuil
t,
hisey esspeaki ngal anguaget hatonl yshe
couldunder stand.Shewasdr awnt ohim ashe
wasdr awnt oher .Shecoul dn’ tutterasi ngle
wor dofopposi ti
ont ot hethingshewassay i
ng.
Theywer esor i
ght.Ver ymuchneeded.They
wer eper fectl i
kehi sey es.Heki ssedhermaki ng
hiswaydownt ohernav elandal lthewayt oher
cli
t.Shecoul dn’thelpbutmoanashet hr usted
deepert aki nghert oawor l
donl yherhusband
hasev ertakenherbef orehedi dwhathedi dto
her.Hewenti nandoutsl owlyl ooki ngi ntoher
tearyey est ryingt obui l
daconnect iont hatwas
nott here.Herhear tbelongedt oonemanonl y
andt hismansweat i
ngheav ilyont opofher
wasdef initelynott hatman.Sher eleasedand
her eleasedaf terher.Hewentt odi sposeoft he
condom andcamebackt ofindhersl eepi ng
peacef ully.Oratl eastt hat’
swhati tseemedl i
ke
unt
ilhehear
dhersni
ff
ing
Hi
m:di
dIhur
tyou?
Shejustcr
iedsi
lent
lywi
thherheadcov
ered
wit
ht hebl
anket
.
Hi
m:Yay
apl
easet
alkt
ome
Her
:Iwantt
ogohome
Hi
m:Yay
apl
easecanwej
ustt
alk
Her
:no.Iwantt
ogot
omypl
ace.Pl
easet
ake
metomyhouse
Hedi
dn’
tar
gue.
Hi
m:I
’
llwai
tout
sidef
ory
ou
Hewal kedoutandshegotupt ochange.She
feltt
erri
blef orwhatshehadjustdone,shefel
t
disgustedbyher self
.Herhusbandcouldhave
beenly i
ngi naditchsomewherebuther eshe
wassl eepingwi t
hanothermaneitherthanher
husband.Inst eadofmakingherfeelbett
eror
takethepai naway ,sl
eepi
ngwithhim only
madeherf
eel
wor
seandt
err
ibl
e.
.
.
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NCOMES
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.
.
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***“
…Icant el
lj
ustbyy ourfacethi
spoi ntofus
beengonef orsol ong.AndIknowt here’
sno
repl
acingwhatwehav egoingon,forsol ong.
Butwheni thurts,Icanmakei tbetter.Gir
lifi
t
works.It’
sgoinbef orever.We’vebeent hrough
thewor st
,madei tthroughtheweat her.Our
probl
emsandt hepai n.Butlovedon’t
change…”***
-
THOMAS
You’
dthi
nkt
hataf
tert
hismanyy
ear
sI’
dbeov
er
herbutnope, I
’m stil
l headov erheelsabouther .
IknowIshoul dn’tlovehert hismuchbutIcant
helpmy self,shei sev eryt
hingamancoul dever
wantorneedi nt heirlivestomakei tbetter.
NowIknowIwentaboutt histhewr ongway ,
she’sst il
lmour ningherdaught erwhichl eaves
heri nav ulnerablest atebutIl oveYandi swa
andIwoul dgi veany thingt obewi thher .Idrove
straighttoherpl aceandshej umpedoutoft he
carandr ani nt
ot hehouse.Iwassoconf used
becauseonemi nutewehav i
nganamazi ng
sessi onwi thwhatseemedl i
keaconnect i
on
andt hent henextshe’ scryi
ng.Iwasv erygent l
e
withher ,Iwoul dn’tdar efuckagi r
lli
ke
Yandi swa, sheisonet obet reasured,takingmy
precioust i
mewi t
hherandmaki ngsureIhi t
everyangl eandr eachdeepdownwher el ove
resides.IknowYay awoul dbegoodf oreach
otheri fonlyshegav emeachance.Achancet o
showhert hatt heguyshemeti nherf i
rsty ear
i
nCal iisagr ownmanwhowant stoset tle
downwi ththel oveofhi slife.Idroveofft omy
placeandcl eanedupandhi tthesac.Thenext
mor ningIt riedt ocallherbutshekeptr eject i
ng
mycal ls.Iwasmeet i
ngupwi t
hmysi st
erf or
breakf ast.SheandYandi swa’ sfatherbrokeup,
turnsoutshecheat edont heguywi thsomeguy
from herschool andonet hingsledt oanot her
andt heyhadachi l
dbutev ersincethingsended
wi t
htheol dguysheandIgr ewcloserandi ts
safet osaywehav eagoodsi bl
ingbond.She’ s
engagedt othisnewguyandsheseem’ shappy
oratl eastt hat ’
swhati tlooksl i
kef r
om the
outsideandIhav en’
tbeengi venreasont ot hi
nk
otherwi se.Iki ssedherf oreheadandpul ledup
thechai ropposi teher.
Me:
sohow’
smyni
ece?
Her
:she’
sgr
eat
Me:
wher
eisshe?
Her:Ilef
therwi
tht
henannyy
oh,
she’
sa
handful
Me:
whendoy
oupl
anont
ell
i
ngherf
ather
?
Her
:hedoesn’
tneedt
oknowabouther
Me:
Lat
hicomeon
Her:noThomast
heguyhasal i
fe,
thelastt
hing
Iwantist
oseem desper
ate.Pl
usLolihasa
fat
herandhe’
sanamazingf at
hertoher
Me:
fine.
Her
:what
supwi
thy
ou?What
sbot
her
ingy
ou?
Me:
whosai
dsomet
hingwasbot
her
ingme?
Her:I
’
m notstupidnoram Ibl
i
nd.You’v
ebeen
hangi
ngoutwi t
hYandiswaandyou’v
ebeen
happy,whathappened?
Me:
promi
semey
ouwontsayshi
i
t
Her
:whenhav
eyouknownmet
osayshi
i
t?
Me:Iknowy
oust
il
lhav
ethi
sthi
ngwi
thher
husband
Her
:I’
m ov
erDer
ri
ckThomas
Me:
arey
ounow?
Her:I’
vegrownupt oreal
i
zethatIlost
everyt
hingthemi nuteIcr
ossedpat hswiththat
guy.Imeanmyl i
fewasgood, Iwasagoodgi rl
,
i
nnocentev enandIhadanamazi ngfri
endbutI
j
usthadt omeethi m andfal
lforhim.Iregretal
l
ofitbecauseIlostagoodf r
iend.Yandiswawas
agreatfri
endtomeandIchoseaguyov erher
Me:
Isee.Ev
ert
ri
edr
epai
ri
ngt
hatf
ri
endshi
p?
Her:It
hinkthatshi
phassai
l
edalongt i
meago
brot
her.Iwasabi t
cht
oherandsl
eepingwi
th
herfat
herdidn’
tmakethi
ngsanybet
ter
Me:didyoureall
ylov
etheguyorwer
eyouj
ust
caughtupi
nt hemoment?
Her:Ir
eal
lyl
ovedhim br
o.Iknowitwaswrong
butinmyminditfel
tri
ght,i
twasri
ghtt
omeat
theti
meanditdidn’
tmatterhowmanypeopleI
hurti
nthepr
ocessjustaslongasIwashappy
andsowashe
Me:
Iheary
ou
Her
:enoughaboutmypast.Whathappened
bet
weeny ouandYandi
swa?Pleasedon’
ttel
l
mey out
wosl eptt
oget
her
Il
ookeddown.Wasitwr
it
tenonmyf
orehead?
Howdidsheknow?
Her
:youi
diot
Shehi
tthebackofmyhead.
Her
:She’
smar
ri
ed
Me:
Iknow
Her
:Mel
oisgoi
ngt
oki
l
lyou
Me:
Icant
akehi
m
Her
:yousuchani
diot
Me:I’
m nott
heonewhomadeacommi
tment
,
shedi
d
Her:yesbutshe’
smourni
ngthel
ossofher
daughter
.She’sv
ulner
abl
eandyouj
ustknewal
l
theri
ghtthi
ngstosay
Me:
whatmakesy
out
hinkImani
pul
atedher
Shegav
emeal
ook
Her:
lookmei nt
heeyeandt
ellmethaty
ou
di
dn’tsayany
thi
ngtomakehersl
eepwit
hyou
Me:okmay beIsai
dsomet
hingbutIdi
dn’
t
manipul
ateher
Her:butyoudidThomas.Despit
eyousleepi
ng
wit
hher ,shel
ovesherhusbandandshewould
neverleavehi
mf ory
ou
Me:
eveni
fshef
ell
pregnantwi
thmybaby
?
Her
:youdi
dn’
tuseacondom?
Me:
wedi
dandi
tki
ndofbu…r
st
ShesmackedthebackofmyheadagainandI
hel
dthepartwher
eshehit
,hert
inyhandswer
e
pai
nful
AF
Me:
OUCH!
Her
:doessheatl
eastknow?
Me:
Idoubti
t
Her
:ThomasIt
oldy
out
ost
ayawayf
rom her
Me:Iwanttosi
s,Ir
eal
l
ywantt
obutIcant
.I’
m
i
nlovewit
hher
Her
:thepowerofpussy
Me:
youdi
dn’
tseet
hel
ooki
nherey
es
Her:yeahbecauseshewaspr
obabl
yimagi
ning
herhusband
Me:
may
be.If
oundhercr
ying
Her
:why
?
Me:
Idon’
tknow.Sher
efusest
ospeakt
ome
Her:ser
vesy
our
ight
.Yout
ookadv
ant
ageoft
he
si
tuati
on
Me:
whati
sitabouthi
m?
Her
:whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:whycantsheleavehi
m?Theguyhasbeen
MIAfor3weekssisandhehasn’tspokent
oher
si
ncehedisappear
ed.Whycantsheleavehi
m?
Hehashurthermoretimest
hanIcancounton
onehand,
hehascheatedonherendl
esst
imes
butshest
il
lst
ayed.Whycantshel
eavehi
m
Her:becauseshe’
sinlovewit
hhim.Shechose
togetherheartbr
okenbyhim andnobodyelse.
Sheknowsherwor thbutshechooseshim over
andov eragai
nbecauseshecannotimagi
neher
l
ifewithanyoneel
sebuthim
Me:
andt
hat
’snor
mal
?
Her
:isl
ovenor
mal
?
Me:
whatcanIdot
omakeherf
all
inl
ovewi
th
me?
Her:wel
lyouprobabl
ygotherpr
egnant
,ift
hat
doesn’
tdoitt
henIdon’tknowwhatwil
l
Me:
canwebeser
iouspl
ease
Her:giv
eup.Evenifshef
ellpregnantwit
hyour
chi
ld,chancesar
eshewouldn’tdarebewith
youandIdon’tseeMelorai
singanotherman’s
babysochancesareshewoul dgetanaborti
on
ortheywoulddiv
orceandYay awouldneverget
wi
thy
ou
Me:
your
eal
l
ythi
nkIshoul
dgi
veup?
Her :
it’
stheleasty
oucoulddo.ifshefoundout
thatthecondom burstandyoudidn’
tsayshii
t
aboutittoherthenchancesareshewillnev
er
forgi
vey ou
Me:
Ihav
etogett
owor
k
Her
:theor
phanagedoesn’
tneedy
ou
Me:
I’
m meet
ingwi
thal
andsur
vey
or
Her
:oh?
Me:
I’
m pl
anni
ngonbui
l
dingacl
ubar
oundher
e
Her
:howconv
eni
ent
Me:
pleaseLat
hi.Justdon’
t
Her
:fi
ne.Enj
oyt
her
estofy
ourday
Me:
thanky
ou.Iwi
l
l
Il
efthersomecashtot
akecar
eoft
hebil
landI
headedtotowntowher
ethecl
ubwoul
dbe.We
weregoingt ofi
xupanol dabandonedbui l
ding
andmakei tnew.Iwal kedinandwasgr eeted
byabeautifulwomanIhav eeverseen…after
mynieceandmysi st
er.I
’
mt al
kinghourglass
andall
.Shewasj ustbeauti
ful
.
Me:
Uhhm Hi
,I
’ml
ooki
ngf
orI
yanaJol
a
Her
:that
’sme
Weshookhands.MyGodherper
fumesmel
tso
damngood.
Me:Idon’
tknowpeopl
einconst
ruct
ionwor
kto
bet
hisgoodlooki
ng
Her
:don’
ttr
ytof
li
rtwi
thmechi
l
d
Shesai
dpulli
ngherhandawayfr
om me.she
hadaring,
anovalshapedr
ockonherr
ing
fi
nger
Me:
heshoul
dhav
eboughty
ouabi
ggerone
Her
:excuseme?
Me:
ther
ock.Heshoul
dhav
egot
teny
oua
biggerone.I
twoul
dgoper
fect
lywi
thy
our
skinnyfi
nger
s
Her
:oh
Me:
I’
m sor
rybuty
ouj
ustr
eal
l
ybeaut
if
ul
Her
:thanky
ou.SoMrSt
evensshal
lwe?
Me:
aft
ery
ou
SheledthewayandIj ustwalkedbehindher
admiri
ngasherhi pswentleftandri
ghtinthe
perf
ectmot i
on.Shewasj ustperf
ect
.She
showedmear oundandwesi gnedacontract
,I
waslookingathersignat
ure
Me:
Ithoughty
ourwer
eaMr
sJol
a…
Her
:Iam
Me:
thenhowcomey
oursi
gnat
uresay
sBess?
Her
:becauset
hat
’smysur
name
Me:
I’
m conf
used
Her:
All
myworkdocumentsandany
thi
ngwor
k
r
elat
edIusemyf
ather
’ssur
nameand
ev
ery
thi
ngel
seIuseJol
a
Me:int
erest
ing.Soy
ouar
eDamonBess’
s
daught
er?
Her
:fi
rstbor
n
Me:
Isee
Isai
dnodding.Wel lt
hiswasi nt
eresti
ng.This
womanwasr eal
lybeaut i
ful
.Adarkbeaut yeven.
AndthentheresYandi swawhoi sjustoutof
thi
sworl
d.Isayt hatinrefer
enceofknowi ngher
thewayIdonotl ookswi sebecauseI’m sorr
yto
saybutI
yanai spret
tier.
.
.
-
Mel
o
I
twasaboutt i
meIwentbackt owork.I’
vet ri
ed
fi
ndingoutwhocouldhav ebeenresponsiblefor
theenvel
opeIrecei
vedandIgotnot hing.Ijust
reacheddeadendafterdeadend.Ireceiveda
pict
ureofYandi
swawi thThomas, IwontlieI
wasf umi ngbutatt hesamet i
meIf eltlikeIhad
nor i
ghtt of umewhenI ’mt heonet hat
neglectedherf orthr eewhol eweeks, Iguess
shii
tlikethiswasboundt ohappen.Whoev er
sentmet hepi cturenewv erywel lthati twould
getmeal l f
iredup.Theywer einar est aurant
hav i
ngl unchorsomet hingandsheseemed
happy ,hishandwasbr ushingher sont hetable.
ItwasaWednesdayandIgott hepi cture
yesterday .Ididn’ tknowwhatt odoabouti t
reall
ybecausei tdi dn’tprov eany t
hing.Yay a
woul dnev erdosomet hingl i
ket hatoratl eastI
hopeshewoul dn’ t
.Ihadbeendr i
vi
ngar ound
since1am t hinkingofwhet herornotIshoul d
gohomeandIopt edf ort hegoi nghomepar t.It
wasal readypast6, Iwalkedi nsidet heki t
chen
andt hehousel ookedt hesame, t
her ewas
nothingdi fferentei therthani tbeingcl ean.I
wentupt hest air
sandheadedst r
aightt oour
room.Ther eshewasl ooki ngbeaut iful asever,
aGoddess, aqueenget t
ingr eadyt opr obably
gotowor k, shehadgainal
it
tlebi
tofwei ght
from thelastti
meIsawher.Shewasst andi
ng
i
nf rontofthemi r
rorf
ixi
nghersel
f.Istoodther
e
forami nutejustadmiri
ngt
hisbeautif
ul woman
beforeme
.
.
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16,
16:
52]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E32
**
*“…Whati sloveifyounotherewi t
hme?What
i
sloveifit
’snotguar ant
eed?Whati sloveifi
t
j
ustupsandl eav
es?Whati sloveifyounothere
nomore?Whati sloveifyounotreall
ysure?
Whatislove?Whati slove?.
..Ican’
tleave
wit
houtyou, Ican’
tleavewithyou…”***
-
Yay
a
Iwasst andingbythemi r
rorpreparingtogoto
work.Iwast ooearlyforwordsbutt henagain
whowoul dn’
tbewheny oudidn’tsleepawi nk
thepreviousnightandotherni
ght sf or3whole
weeks.Iwaswor ri
edaboutmyhusbandwhom I
haven’tseenforthatl
ong.
“Look,I
’mr eallysorryforev erythingI ’
vecaused
you,howImadey ouf eel,IknowI ’vebeencol d
butthatdoesn’ tmeanIdon’ tlov ey ou..
.I
’mt i
red
ofthislove-hateshitandi t’
smyf ault,i
thurts
met oknowt hatyouhur t.I’
llnev erst opcaring,
butifyoudeci detopushmeawayI ’l
lgo.Ilove
you.Iwasn’ tsupposedt ot reaty out hewayIdi d,
Igetlonel
yt oo...
butthenagai n,youagi rl
,you
catchfeeli
ngs, yousensi t
iveand
concerned...y
oucanl ookintomyey esandseeI
hatemy selfandI ’
m sor r
ywon’ tfixev eryt
hing
butitshowst hatIputmypr ideasi def oryou”
It
urnedt
olookathi
m st
andi
ngbyt
hedoor
l
ookingt heworsthe’
sev erl
ookedbefor
e.I
didn’
tknowwhatt osay ,
Imeanwhatcoul dyou
possibl
ysayt osomeoney ouhaven’
tseenin3
wholeweeksandj ustrocksupoutoftheblue.I
keptquiettr
yingtopr
ocesswhathehadj ust
saidtome.
Hi
m:Maf
aku
Maf akuismycl annameandheknowsv er
y
wellthatIcannotresi
sthim whenhecal
lsme
thatbutIwasdet erminedonnotgiv
inghimthe
sati
sfacti
on.Iresponded
Me:
Mel
okuhl
e
Isai
dwi t
haf i
rmv oi
ce.Herushedhishands
thr
oughhishairandthenwalkeduptomeandI
mov edback.NotbecauseIwasscaredofhim
butbecauseIwasscaredImi ghtj
usthurthi
m.
Heheldmebymyshoul der
s.
Hi
m:Howar
eyou?
Me:
I’
m goodandy
our
sel
f?
Ir
espondedcol
dasev
er
Hi
m:I’
m alsogood,
soyoudon’thav
eany
thi
ng
t
osayregardi
ngwhatIj
ustsai
d?
Heshowedr emorseandpain.Iwant
edt
o
for
giv
ehim don’
tgetmewr ongbutwher
ethe
hel
lhasbeenthesepast3weeks?
Me:
Idon’
tknowwhatt
osayt
oyou
Hel
etgoofmeandturnedawayfr
om me.He
t
henspokeagai
nwhi
lesti
ll
notl
ookingatme
Him:Guessnot
,wel
lok.
..
Idon’
twantt
ofi
ght
you.sook
Thiswasmyhusband.Thef ut
urefat
herofmy
unbornkids.ThemanIwant edtobeburied
besideshouldwedie,actuall
ywear egoi
ngt o
di
esomedayi nourli
vesbutIpr ayt
hatday
doesn’tcomesoon.3weeksbackIhadt his
wholeconv er
sati
onplannedouti nmyheadbut
nowt hatheishereandwesupposedt o
communi cateIam suddenlytongueti
ed.Iwas
goingt obel ateforwor ksoIwentt ofi
ni sh
fi
x i
ngmy sel
fupandt ookmyt hingsanddr ove
towor k.Ont hewayIcoul dn’thel pbutt hinkof
theconv enienceofhi sar rival,thedayaf terI
sleepwi thThomashej ustr ocksupoutof
nowher ewi thsomesappyapol ogy .Whatt he
hellwasexpect edofme?wher ewashehi ding
thiswhol eti
me?Iwassomadt hathewoul d
rockupj ustlikethatbutIwasmost l
ymadat
my selff orhav i
ngsl eptwi thanot hermani nmy
husband’ sabsenceandIwassur egoi ngt ohel l
forit.NowIunder standhowMel ofeltwhenhe
cheat edonme.Iknowonewoul dt hinkIdi dit
asr evengebuti twasn’ trev enge, shiithappened
andIj ustzonedout .Ididn’tknowwhatwas
happeni ngunt i
l i
twasact uallyhappeni ngandI
j
ustwant editalltobeov ersot hatIcanl eav e
andnev erseet hatmanagai n.Thegui l
tr esidi
ng
i
nmewast hewor st
.Seei nghi m st andbef ore
memademef orgetther apeandal lowt hegui l
t
ofsl eepingwi thanot hermansur faceandcl oud
mywhol et
hinking,IknewIhadtopullupa
bravef
aceandmakehi mthinkthatIwassti
ll
madeaboutwhathappened3weeksback.On
thewaytowor kthatwasallIcoul
dthinkof
f.I
gottoworkandpar kedoutsi
deinmyspotand
thenwenti
n.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Thel ooki nhereyeswasr agemixedwi thhurt
, I
reallydidanumberonherandIdon’ tthink
therewasanycomi ngbackf rom thisstateIput
heri n.Idon’tt
hinkit’
ssafet osayt hatshest i
l
l
l
ov edmeandwant edt obewi thme.If i
guredlet
megogetahai rcutandgobackt owor k.
Ever ythi
ngelsewewoul ddiscusswhenwebot h
gothomef r
om wor k.Theof f
icehadn’tchanged
butIhadal otofwor ktodoandnocl i
ent shad
pulledoutbecauset heythoughtthatIwasout
heal i
ngf r
om thedeat hofMi l
a.Speaki ngofher ,
herroom wasempt y,maybeYayapackedup
herthi
ngsinsomeboxesandst oredthem
somewher e.Iwassurpr
isedwit
hlunchbymy
eversolovingtwi
n.Ihadsomeexpl ai
ningt
odo,
wewer esitti
ngonthecouchchatt
ing
Her
:sowher
ehav
eyoubeen?
Me:
outandabout
Her
:don’tgi
vemet hatcr
apMel
okuhle.Wher
e
t
hehellhaveyoubeen?Youj
ustup’
dandleft
f
or3fl
ippingweeks
Me:
Iwashopi
ngI
’
dfi
ndy
ougoneal
ready
Her:
howdoIl
eavewhennobodyhasseenmy
br
otheri
n3weeks?
Me:
I’
m sor
ryIscar
edy
ou
Her
:Mel
owherewereyou?Di
dyouandYaya
hav
eafi
ght?Ar
eyouguysget
ti
ngadivor
ce?
Tel
lmewhati
sitr
eal
ly
?
Me:Ij
ustneededsometimeawayfrom
ev
eryt
hing.Ti
metojustcl
earmyheadandt
ake
abr
eat
herf
rom ev
ery
thi
ng
Her
:soy
ouandYay
aar
egood?
Me:
yeahwegood
Her
:thenwhyisshehangi
ngoutwi
thThomas
i
fyoutwoaregood?
Ishrugged.Yay awashangi ngwi t
hThomas?
Whatwasheev endoinginSouthAfri
ca?This
womanwasr eal l
ytest
ingmypat i
ence.She
knowsIdon’ tliketheguyandt henyenashe
goesonandhangswi thhi
m.Hayndi yal
ingwa
(I
’m bei
ngt ested)
Me:
Idon’
tknow
Her
:real
l
ynow?
Me:
Asecanpl
easej
usthav
eaqui
etl
unch
Her
:ohkay
.Somebodyi
sgr
umpy
Me:Someonet
emper
edwi
tht
hecarOl
wet
hu
wasdri
vi
ng
Her
:whatdoy
oumean?Shewasdr
ivi
ngYay
a’s
ol
dcarmos
Me:yes,andsomeonet
emper
edwi
thi
t,i
fhowI
don’
tknowsis
Her:soy
oumeantotellmethatsomeonekil
l
ed
Yasyonpur
poseanditwasn’
tanaccident
?
Me:lookatt
his.Igott
hispi
ctur
esaf
ewday
s’
back
Shelookedatthepictur
esandthelookonher
facewasenought otell
methatshewasn’t
readyforwhatshewasseeingeit
her
Her
:Sot
hisper
sonmeantt
oki
l
lYay
a?
Me:Idoubti
t.Yay
adoesn’
tdr
ivet
hemi
ni
any
mor e
Her:
AyIdon’
tknow.Wher
edoest
heobsessed
guyfi
tint
oal
loft
his?
Me:
Whati
fhewasnot
hingbutacoi
nci
dence?
Her
:ort
heypl
annedal
loft
hist
oget
her
?
Me:
I’
m get
ti
ngaheadachebyj
ustt
hinki
ng
aboutt
his
Her
:itmakesnosenset
hou
Me:
yout
ell
i
ngme
Wecontinuedmakingupscenari
osaboutwhat
coul
dhav ebeenhappeni
ngorwhati s
happeni
ng.Whetherornott
hispersonisdone
wit
hmyf amilyornot
Her
:di
dn’
tMi
randahav
eabr
other
?
Me:
yeahshedi
d
Her:
whati
fherbr
otheri
stheonedoi
ngal
lof
t
his?
Me:
Naht
hatguyi
snott
hatsmar
t
Her:canwej ustl
ookatal l
thepossibi
l
iti
es?I
meany out heonet hathasenemiesnoty our
wif
e.Whoev erkil
l
edYasywast r
yingtohurtyou.
Ourquestioni swho?Ol onaisal
sonott hat
smartbutshe’ scapable.Shedidatt
endy our
bachelorpartyafteral
l
Me:she’
snott
hatpet
ty.Pl
us,
she’
sseei
ng
someoneandi
tseemsseri
ous
Her
:yout
wot
alk?
Me:
sawi
tonI
nst
agr
am
Her:
Ithi
nkyoushoul
dhav
ethepol
i
cer
eopen
t
hiscase.
Me:yeahbutwhatift
hispersoni
saftermywi
fe
andinvol
vi
ngthecopsonlyputsheri
nmore
danger
?
Her
:ist
hiswhyy
ouwer
eMI
Afor3weeks?
Me:
Yeah
Shelookedatmeskept ical
.Thet hi
ngaboutmy
twi
nisthatsheknowsmeal ltoowel l,r
eadsme
l
ikeabook.Yes, I
’vehi
ddensomet hingsf r
om
herbutthethi
ngshav eawayofcomi ngout
whenwel eastexpectthem t
oandchancesar e
i
fIdon’ttel
lherthenshe’l
lfi
ndoutsomeot her
wayandwhenshedoesshewi llprobably
murdermeorgoandconv i
nceYay atol eave
me.
Her
:youknowI
’
m notst
upi
dri
ght
?
Me:
ye…s
Her
:wel
lthen.Outwi
thi
tBess
Me:
canIpl
easenott
ell
yout
hisonesi
s.Pl
ease
Her:
ifithassomet
hingt
odowi t
hyoubei
ng
gonefor3weeksthenIwantt
oknowabouti
t
HowdoItel
lherwi
thoutherr
eact
ingt
hesame
wayKat
edid?
Her
:Ihopey
oudi
dn’
tcheatonherMel
okuhl
e
Istoodupandwenttostandbyt
hewi
ndow.
Justincasesheat
tacksme
Me:Idi
dsomethi
ngter
ribl
e.Li
ker
eal
l
yter
ri
ble.
Ev
enwor set
hancheat
ing
Her
:di
dyouki
l
lsomebody
?
Me:
NO!
Her
:di
dyoupr
egnat
esomer
andom gi
rl
?
Me:
Iwish.Maybeshewoul
dbeabl
etof
orgi
ve
mefort
hat.Thi
soneisf
arwor
se
Her
:I’
m get
ti
ngt
ir
edofguessi
ngnow
Me: 3weeksagoIcamehomet ofi
ndYay a
passedout ,
Imyselfwasreal
l
ydrunkaft
erwe
foundoutabouttheguythathadanobsession
withMila.SoasItuckedheri
nshewokeupand
wehadal i
tt
lear
gumentandIsortoffor
ced
my sel
fonher
Shelookedatmewi t
houtevenbl
i
nking.Ikept
qui
etwaiti
ngforhertosaysomet
hing
Her
:your
apedher
Me:
Ifo…
Her
:st
opsugarcoat
ingi
t.You’
rear
api
st
Me:
Asepl
ease.Iwasdr
unkand
Her:
Idon’tcar
e.DoIlookli
keIcarewhet her
youweredrunkorsoberorwhateverexcusei t
i
sthatyouhave?Melokuhl
ey ourapedher .She
wasgri
evi
ngMi laandyourapedher
Me:
AseIknow
Her:noy oudon’ tknowMel okuhle.Youdon’t
knowwhatt hatdoest oyou.Youdon’ tknow
whaty oudidt oher .Thiswholet i
meI ’
m
thi
nkingy oujustlefttoclearyourheador
somet hi
ngbuty our apedher.Ihopeshe
presseschar gesandhav esyouar rested.Mi
l
a
wouldn’twantar apistforafather,she’s
probablyturninginhergr ave
Me:AsemahleIknowwhatIdi
dandIregr
eti
t.I
hat
emy sel
ffori
t.Whydoyouthi
nkIl
eft
?
Her
:whydi
dyoucomeback?
Me:
tof
ixmymar
ri
ageandseewher
ewest
and
Her
:Ican’
tev
enl
ookaty
ou.Younodi
ff
erent
f
rom Kevi
n
Me:
I’
m not
hingl
i
kehi
m
Her:
he’sarapistj
ustl
i
keyouar
e.Iseeno
di
ff
erencebetweenyoutwo.
Shewal
kedoutandl
eftmeoutofwor
ds.She
washur t,angryanddi sappoint
ed.Iknowmy
twin.Shewaspr obablyonherwayt oseeYaya.
Iwasr eall
yscr ewed.Thel astt
hingIwoul
d
haveev erimagi nedhappeni ngwasmebei ng
l
ikenedt oar apist,theguywhost ol
emysist
er’
s
i
nnocence.Iwasj ustlikehim.
.
.
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THPAI
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LOVE*
.
.
S03E33
***
“…Ifyoulookingforl
oveknowt hatlovedon’
t
l
ivehereanymor e.Helef
twithmyhear t.They
bothwalkedthroughthatdoorwit
houtme.I f
youtr
y i
ngtofindpitywell
youneedt olook
somewher eelse.CauseIsur
elycan’thelpyou,
I’
m hur
ti
ngmy
sel
f.I
’
vet
urnedi
ntosomeone
el
se…”***
-
Yay
a
Igott oworkandhav ebeensmi l
i
ngand
chat tingwit
hsomeofmycust omer sand
get t
ingnewbusi ness.Mysi sterflewi nthis
mor ni ngandcamest raightt othegal lery
,she
washel pi
ngmeoutandal sobecauseshej ust
want edtogetawayf rom Dur banev enifitwas
foraweek.Shewasont hef loorwhi l
eIhandl ed
somecal lsfr
om mycl ient swhi chIhad
negl ectedeversinceYasy ’
sdeat h.Iwasbacki n
businessbyf ul
l f
orceandt herewasno
stoppi ngme, Iwor kedt hroughl unchbusy
talki
ngont hephonewhi l
eeat ing.Thankst omy
sisteroritwoul dn’thav ebeendone.Asemahl e
stormedi nt
omyof f
ice.Shel ookedl ikeshehad
beencr yi
ng.Itoldtheper sonIwoul dcal lthem
backandsoIendedt hecal l andputt hephone
down.
Me:
Mahl
e
Her
:whydi
dn’
tyout
ell
me?
Ilookedatherexpect
inghertobeal
it
tl
emore
specifi
c.Whatwasshet al
ki
ngabout
?Whati
sit
thatIdidn’
ttel
lher
?
Me:
you’
l
lhav
etobeal
i
ttl
emor
especi
fi
csi
s
Her
:Yay
ayoucoul
dhav
etol
dme
Me:AsemahleIser
iousl
yhav
enoi
deawhaty
ou
ar
etal
kingaboutri
ghtnow
Iwasnowst andi
nginf r
ontofherandt hi
s
personwasnowcr yi
ng.Whatcoul dbesobad
thatIdi
dn’
ttel
lherthatwouldmakehercr ythe
wayshewascr yi
ngnow.Ij ustpull
erherinto
myar msbecauseitfel
tli
ketherightthi
ngt odo.
Her
:her
apedy
ou
Shesai
dinbet
weenhert
ear
s.Ikeptqui
etand
tr
iedt
othi
nkofwhatt
osaynext
.
Her
:whydi
dn’
tyout
ell
meYandi
swa?Thr
ee
whol
eweeksy
ou’
vebeensuf
fer
ingt
hisi
n
si
l
ence
Ikeptquiet
.SoMelotol
dherbecauseIknowI
haven’tt
oldany
one.Ibr
okethehugandwi ped
hertearsaway.
Me:
Asemahl
eI’
mfi
ne
Her:NoYandiswahowcanyoubefi
ne?He’
s
yourhusband,hewaswr
ongtodothatt
oyouI
don’
tcarewhatthematt
erwasbuthehadno
ri
ghtto
Me:
Mahl
e
Her
:Yay
aI ’
m sosorr
yhedi
dthattoyou.Pl
ease
t
ell
mey ougoingt
oleav
ehim Yandi
swa
keptqui et.Ihaven’thadthetimetoact ual
l
y
thinkaboutwher etofrom here.Imeanone
thingforsur eisthatIam madathi m butI’ve
alsowr ongedhi m.NOI ’
m notjust
ify
ingwhathe
didbutal lI’
m sayingisthatthere’
sal otat
stakeher e.Idon’twantMel oandIt obeadded
tothestatsofmar ri
agest hatendaf terhaving
l
ostachi l
d.Melokuhl eviolatedmesexual l
yand
asmuchasi thurtbutatt hesamet i
meIst il
l
l
ovehim.Despi teitallIam st i
l
linlovewithhim.
Idon’
tknowwhati twoul dt akeformet owal k
outonhim consideringtheamountoft i
mesI ’
ve
beenhurtbyt hi
sman.Isatherdownandt ook
herhandsintomi ne
Me:Asemahl
eyourpar
ent
scannotf
indout
aboutt
his
Shel
ookedatmel
i
keIwasr
etar
dedor
somet
hing
Me:
hearmeoutpl
ease.Youknowhowt
heyar
e,
Mel
owouldl
oseev
erythi
ng
Notthattheworl
dr evolv
esaroundmeor
whateverbutt
ruthbet ol
d,hi
smot herwas
molestedasachildandherhusbandwasr eady
t
omur derthewomanwhoputhi swif
ethrough
t
hatasachi l
d,andt henther
e’sAsemahlewho
wasraped,Iwasn’taroundthenbutwhatI
knowisthatKev i
ndiedi npr
isonbecauset hey
madesur ethattheniggawasl ockedupinacel l
withapersonwhopl easuredhi msel
fwithKev i
n
wheneverhef el
tli
keit.SoIdon’tknowwhat
exact
lykil
ledhim buttheguyi sdead.Coming
tomypoint ,
Melokuhleistheirsonyesbutt hey
wouldstr
iphim ofeverythi
nghehasandIdon’ t
wantthattohappent ohim.Icar eaboutthe
guy…shootme.
Her:Ican’tbel
i
ev eyouwoul
ddefendhim.You
soundlikeawomani nanabusi
verelat
ionshi
p
ri
ghtnow.Yandi swawhathappensifhedoesit
agai
nhuh?
Me: i
fhedoesi tagai
nt henwe’
l
linvol
vey
our
parentsandhav ehi
ml oseever
ythi
nghehas.
Asemahl epl
easejustletmehandlemy
mar r
iagetheonlywayIknowhow
Her
:nowonderMel
odoest
het
hingshedoes
Me:
what
’st
hatsupposedt
omean?
Her
:thaty
ou’
reaf
ool
forhi
m andI
’
m wor
ri
ed
thatthi
smanwi l
lbethedeat
hofy ou.Iknow
he’smybrotherandall
butbestbel
ievethatI
don’twanty
out obeaddedtotheli
stofwoman
thathavedi
edbecauseofhim.
Asemahlehadapoint
.Whatifmest ayingleads
tothedeat
hofme?Mydoct or/
therapistalr
eady
thi
nksImightbedepr
essedandI’
mt akingpil
ls
fori
tbutIdon’
twanttogett
oapoi ntwher eI
becomesuici
dal.May
beIshouldjustleave
Melo.
Her:
pleasethinkaboutyoursel
fjustt
hisonce
andimagineifyouwouldhav ewantedYasmin
tost
aywi thamanwhodi dherthewayMel o
didyou.Justthi
nkaboutit
.
Withthatshetookherthingsandlef
t.Aft
erher
tal
kwithmeIgotupandpackedmyshi i
tand
wenttoseemyt her
apist
.Itol
dheraboutMel o
comingbackandIt oldheraboutt
he
conversat
ionorwhateverthatwasthatwas
betweenAsemahl eandIandshef ul
lyagreed
wit
hAsemahl e,
saidmaybel
eav
ingwasforthe
bestorj
usttakesometi
meapartf
rom hi
m and
seehowthingsgo.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Idecidedt oleav
eearlyandj
ustheadhome.I
passedbyt hemallt
ogetsomethingtocook
andtoj ustpasstimeandIoptedforsomethi
ng
quickwhi chIknowYay awoul
dlove.
“
Mel
ohi
”
Avoiceofawomansaidbehi
ndme,It
urned
andshewassmil
ing.Shewaspr
ett
ynodoubt
buthowdoessheknowme?
Me:
Hi….
Her
:Jenny
.Jeani
ne
Me:
uhhm hi
Jenny
Her
:wher
ehav
eyoubeenhi
ding?Yousai
dyou
woul
dcallandyounev
erdi
d?Di
dIdo
somet
hingwrong?
Me:
uhhhm…
Iwassuperconfused.Sheseemedli
keani
ce
sweetgi
rlbutIdi
dn’tknowheratal
l
.
Me:
Pleaser
emi
ndmehowweknoweachot
her
?
Her
:wemetatt
hecl
ub3weeks’
back
Me:
club?
Her:y
ouwerepr et
tywastedsoi t
sf i
neI
under
standandIwon’tholditagainsty
oubut
youdohowev erowemel unch
Me:uhhm Jeanineisi
t?Iam marr
iedandmy
wif
ewouldn’tbecomfortabl
ewit
hmet aki
ng
somewomanoutf orl
unch
Her:It
hinkwewaypastt
hatst
age.Af
terwhat
happenedthatni
ght
Me:
whathappenedt
hatni
ght
?Ir
eal
l
ydon’
t
r
emembershi
it
Her:
wehadsexi
nmycarandy
out
ookmy
number
SHI
IT!I
’
mreal
l
yfuckedr
ightnow.
Me:
oh
Her
:yeah…Sol
uncht
omor
row?
Me:
yeahsur
e
Shegr
abbedmyphone
Me:
whatar
eyoudoi
ng?
Her
:cal
l
ingmy
sel
fsoIhav
eyournumber
Me:
oh
Shedi dsoandt henhandedmemyphoneand
kissedmycheekbef orewal kingaway.Iam
reallyfuckedri
ghtnow.Il ockedmyphoneand
l
ookedatmycheekf oranylipsti
ckmarks.You
nev erknowwi t
ht heseli
psticksyouladiesput.
Yay ausest heexpensiveonest hatdon’
tstain
myshi r t
sorcheeks…soy eah.Iboughttheli
ttl
e
thingsIwast heretobuyanddr ovehome.
WhenIgoti nt heyardshewasget ti
ngoutof
hercarwi t
hherwor kthi
ngs,Iparkednexttoher
andt ookoutthegr oceri
esandheadedi naft
er
her.Noonewassay inganyt
hingt otheother
.I
packedt hegroceri
esi nthei
rrespectiv
eplaces
andt henwentt ofetchmybagsi nthecarand
wentt oputthem inourr oom.Shewassi t
ti
ng
ont hecouchwi thherfacebur i
edinherhands.
Her
:Idi
dsomet
hingst
upi
dyest
erday
Ikeptqui
et.
Her
:Isl
eptwi
thThomas.I
’
m sor
ry
Ist
il
lkeptqui
et
Her
:Idon’twantustoendthi
ngsonasecret
ive
not
e.Ialr
eadyhatemysel
fenough.I
’
llsl
eepata
hot
eltoni
ght
Ist
il
ldi
dn’tsayany
thi
ng.Icoul
dfeelmyblood
boi
li
ngonamaxi mum.Howcoul dshesl
eep
wit
hthatguyofall
peopl
e?Sheknowshewant s
herandthenshegoesonandgiveshimreason
towanttostayinherli
fe.Shegotupandwent
i
ntothecloset
,I’
m guessingshewasgoingt
o
packupsomet hi
ngorwhat ever
.If
oll
owedher
tothecl
oset
Me:
wher
eishe?
Her
:Mel
…
Me:
hisaddr
essYandi
swa
Her
:no
Ichuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
i
ef.
Me:
Yandi
swawher
edoest
hisguyst
ay?
Her
:why
?Soy
oucangobeathi
m up?NoMel
o
Me:
don’
tbest
upi
dYandi
swa
Shet
urnedt
ome
Her
:you’
l
ljusthav
etof
indhi
myour
sel
f
Me:sowhat
?Thi
sisy
oupr
otect
ingy
our
boy
fri
end
Her
:boy
fri
end?
Me:Justt
ellmewher
ehel
i
vesandwewon’
t
hav
eanytroubl
e
Her
:justdr
opi
tMel
okuhl
e
Ithi
nkwhatgottomet hemostwashowcal
m
shewasaboutthiswholet
hing.
Me:don’
tfucki
ngtestmeYandi
swa.Nowi
feof
mi
newi l
lhoearound
Shedi
dn’
tsayany
thi
ng,
inst
eadshecl
osedt
he
zi
pofherbag
Me:
uli
hul
engoku(
soy
ou’
reasl
utnow)
?
Her
:excuseme?
Me:
yougoi
ngt
ohi
m ar
en’
tyou?
Her
:keepcal
l
ingmeasl
utandImi
ghtj
ustgo
t
ohim
I
tt ookallofmenottoslapthedayl
ightsoutof
her.Howshegoi nsleepwithanot
herguyand
thencomeanddi srespectmeundermyr oof
?
Shewal kedoutoftheclosetwi
thherthings,
I
f
oll
owedbehi
ndherandgr
abbedherar
m
Her
:Letgoofme
Me:
giv
emehi
saddr
ess
Shechuckled,shewasget tingpissed.Her
phonerangont hebedandhi snamepoppedup,
Igottoitbeforeshecoul dandt hrewitagainst
thewallanditbr oke.Iwalkedoutandt ookmy
phoneandcarkey sandl efttofi
ndt hi
sguy.I
call
edupmycousi ntotellmewher etofindhim
andshesentmehi saddress.Hel iv
edinan
apartment.Igott ohisdoorandbangedoni t,he
openedandIt hrewapunchathi m
Hi
m:whatt
h…
Ithr
ewanot heroneandhecr ouchedholding
hisj
aw.Ithrewaf ewmor eandt heysenthimt o
thefl
oorandIgotont opofhim andkepthi t
ting.
Allt
heangerIhadwasl eav
ingmybodywi th
ever
ypunch.Het ri
edfighti
ngbackbutIguessI
wasstronger.If
eltsomeonet r
ypulli
ngme
“
Mel
okuhl
egetof
fofhi
myougoi
ngt
oki
l
lhi
m”
ThatwasnodoubtYandi swa’svoi
ce,Idon’
tget
whyshewasdef endingtheguy .Shekepttry
ing
topullmeoffhim andIpushedherof fmeand
conti
nuedhit
ti
ngunt il
Ihadnost rengt
hlefti
n
me.Igotoffhim andhisf acewasbarely
recogni
zabl
e.Shewentupt ohi
m andputher
fi
ngersonhisneckt oprobablycheckfora
pulse
Me:he’
snotdeadi
fthat
’swhaty
ouwantt
o
know
Her
:hecoul
dgety
ouar
rest
edy
ouknowt
hat
Shet
ookhi
sphoneanddi
aledt
heambul
ance
number
Me:
Idon’
tcar
e
Her
:wel
lIdo
Me:
sav
emet
hebul
l
shi
t.
Igotupandlef
thert
alki
ngt
other
ecept
ioni
st
probabl
yorsomeonewhocoul
dbeofservi
ce.I
dr
ovehomeandeveryt
hingwasasIhadlef
tit
.
Heri
Phonebar
elyl
ookedli
keaniPhone
.
.
<3
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E34
***
“…SoI’
mjustspeedi
ngdownt heroadand
myheadoutofcontrol
causeI’mthi
nkingabout
youall
thewayhome.Gotal ongwaytoride
andIcan’
tevendenyI’
vebeenthi
nki
ngabout
youall
thewayhome…” *
**
-
Yay
a
Ever
ythi
ngwasamess.ReasonwhyIt
oldMel
o
wasbecauseIdi
dn’
twanthi
mf i
ndi
ngout
elsewher eorfrom someone.I ’
v ealway sbeen
thatper sonwher ehei sconcer ned,thet ruth
j
ustcomesoutofmymout hlikeawat erfall.I
t’
s
whathasbecomeofme.Theambul ancecame
andt ookhi mtothehospi tal,Iaskedt hem t o
givehimt hebestcar eandIwoul dset tlet he
bill
…att heendoft hedayi t’smyf aultheev en
l
ookst hewayhedoes.Ei shMel oreal l
ydi da
numberonhi m.Igothomeandwentst raightto
ourr oom andcoul dn’tfi
ndhi m butt hewat er
runningi nt hebathroom gav ehi m away .Iwent
i
nandf oundhi m standingundercol dwat er
naked.Fuckhest il
llookedsexyev ent hough
I’
m cer tainhewasn’ texer cisingwher ev erhe
washi di ng.Itookmyt hingsof fandgoti nand
stoodi nf rontofhim, hewascr ying.
Hi
m:Yandi
swapl
easedon’
tleav
eme
Ikeptquietandj
usttookhishandsint
omi ne
andlookedatthem,theywerebadlybrui
sed.
Hisknuckleswerebadlyi
njur
ed.
Him:IknowIhav
en’tgi
venyouanyreasonto
staywit
hmebutpleasedon’
tleav
eme.IknowI
pushedyout
ohim andI’
m wil
l
ingtoleti
tgoif
youare
Me:
Mel
o
Myv oi
cecameoutaswhi sper
.Mel
o’sbr
oken
huskyvoi
cewaspainful
tobare.WhydoIhav
e
aweaknessfort
hisguy?Its
Him:Maf akuplease.I’
m sosorry
.I’
mr eal
l
y
sorr
y.IpromiseI’l
l makethi
ngsbetter
.I
promiseI’l
lundothemessI ’
vecreatedbetween
us.Please.Justpleasedon’
tleaveme
Ilookedupathi
m andwi
pedhi
stear
swi
thmy
thumbs.Thewaterwasr
eal
l
ycoldey
.
Hi
m:Maf
akupl
ease
Ist
il
ldi
dn’
trespond.Iwant
edtosaysomet
hing
butIwast
onguet i
edsobadly
Hi
m:pleasegi
vemeachancet
ofi
xusandif
wedon’twor
kIpr
omi
setolety
ougo.Just
pl
easegi
vemeachance
Isti
l
l keptqui et
.Nor mall
yIhav eal otofishto
saybutt histimear oundIhadj ackshi i
ttosay.I
hadnot hing.Iwant edtotellhim Iforgi
vehim
buthowdoI ?don’tgetmewr ongIhav e
for
givenhi m butIjust…arghIdon’ tknow.Thi s
thi
ngAsemahl esaidtomeear li
eronhasbeen
ponderingonmymi ndheavil
yandr i
ghtnowi t
s
makingmef eelthewayIf eel.Ican’tputthe
wayIf eel i
ntowor ds.EvenImy sel
fam
confused.
Me:
Mel
olet
’sgetoutoft
hiscol
dwat
er
Isaidcl
osingt hetap.Itookatowel andhanded
i
ttohim andt ookonef ormy sel
fandwr appedit
aroundmybody .Igotdressedintosweatpants
andasweat erwhil
ehesatt herewithatowel
wrappedar oundhisbody .Isatnexttohim on
thecouchandt ookhishandsintomi neand
l
ookedatt hebr ui
ses,Itooksomeoi ntmentand
appli
editont hebruises.Hefli
nched
Me:
Mel
o
Hi
m:Maf
aku
Me:Weneedt ot akesomet imeapart
.Wear e
tootoxi
cforeachot herespeci
all
ynowwi t
h
Yasmingone.Webot hnotcopingwit
hher
deat
handwi ththewayt hingsarenot
hingwil
l
befi
xed.Wewon’ tbeabletofi
xusuntilweare
fi
xedindi
vi
duall
y
Hi
m:whatar
eyousay
ing?
Me: t
hatmay beit
’saboutti
met haty
ouandI
separat
edfrom eachotherandgothelp
i
ndivi
duall
yandsor toutwhatev
eriti
sweare
eachgoingthroughbeforewecandealwit
hour
i
ssuestogether
Hi
m:Asemahl
ecamet
oseey
out
oday
?
Me:yesshedidandshesaidal otofthingsthat
mademel ookatusdif
ferent
ly.I
t’snot
somethi
ngpermanent,
ifwecan’ tbefixedthen
i
twil
lbepermanentbutfornowl et’
sjustdot hi
s
Hi
m:Yandi
swapl
easedon’
tdot
his
Me:
I’
ll
sleepatahot
elandcomef
etchmyst
uff
t
omorr
owatlunch
Hi
m:Maf
akupl
ease
Me:Ever
ythi
ngwillwor
kouti
ntheendMel
o.
Hopef
ull
yforthebest
Hi
m:t
hisi
syoul
eav
ingme
Me:
Itst
empor
ary
Ikissedhisknuckl esandcuppedhi sfaceand
kissedhispar tedli
psandwentt otakemy
thingsfrom theclosetandl eftwi t
ht hatl
itt
le
bagIhadpackedear li
eron.Tomor rowIneeded
toguyanewphoneey .Iusedt hekitchenhouse
phonet ocallahot elandt hent ookmycarkey s
anddr oveofft othehotel.IthinkI’v
eoutcr i
ed
allmycr y.IwitnessedMel obr okenbutnot
oncedi dIshedat earandev enwhenhewas
hitti
ngtheshi i
toutofThomasIst il
ldidn’tcry.I
guessmycr yingday sareov er.Igott omyhot el
room andputmyst uffawayandt henhada
conv ersati
onwi t
hGod.Ineededhi m.Wi tht he
wayIj ustkeepst ray i
ngf r
om hi m Ineededhi m
nowmor ethanev er.IfIwant edmymar ri
aget o
wor kthenIneededar eal r
elati
onship, Ineeded
tomendt her elati
onshi pweoncehadbef oreI
l
ostYasy .Iopenedmyemai l
sandIhad
receivedanemai lfrom anunknownaddr ess
andi twasav ideooft heacci dent.Iquicklyshut
myscr eenandt ear sroll
eddownmycheeks.
Whywoul dsomeonesendmeav i
deoofhow
mydaught erdi ed?Imeanwhatcr ueltyist his?
Whydi dthisper sonev entapet hething?It ook
thehot elphoneandcal l
edMel o.Ihonest l
y
didn’tknowwhoel setocal l
,hisnumberwas
ri
ghtatt het opofhead.Heanswer edaf ter
somet ime.
/
/Hi
m:hel
l
o
Me:
Mel
opl
easecomeov
erI
’
m scar
ed
Hi
m:Yay
awhat
’swr
ong?What
’sgoi
ngon?
Wher
ear
eyou?
Hesoundedworr
ied,t
rustuMel
okuhlet
opani
c
whenhehearsf
earinmyv oi
ce.It
oldhi
mthe
nameofthehot
elIwasbookedin
Hi
m:I
’
m onmyway
//
Hedr oppedthecallandIcurledmy sel
fupint
o
afetuspositi
onandj ustcr
ied.JustwhenI
thoughtIwasheal i
ngf r
om herdeathandthenI
goonandgetav ideoofherdeat h.Whywoulda
persondot hi
s?Itwasn’teven10mi nutesasI
wasdr if
ti
ngoffIhear daknockont hedoor.I
wentt oopenandt hrewmy selfi
nhisarms
.
.
-
Mel
o
I’
m ahy pocri
te,Iknow.Ishoul
dhav enever
reactedthewayIdi dbutthethoughtoftheguy
screwingmywi f
emademegobal l
ist
ic.I
couldn’thel
pit.Iwasmad.Iwasmadatmy sel
f
toof orhavingbetrayedYayat hewayIdi d.Her
l
eav inggav emesomet imet orefl
ectont he
shiitthat’
shappened, t
heshiitwe’vebeen
throughandt heshii
twe’veputeachot her
through.Themi nuteIgotacal l
from her
soundi ngli
keshewast err
if
iedmyhear tli
teral
l
y
stoppedf oraspl i
tsecond.Icouldn’thelpbut
wor ry.Themi nuteIwalkedinshet hrewher sel
f
i
nmyar msandIj ustheldhert i
ghtl
yandshe
startedcryingalloveragai
n.
Me:
Maf
akut
alkt
ome.what
’sgoi
ngon?
Shepul
ledawayf
rom mychestandt
hentook
myhandandledmetothebedandopenedher
l
aptop.
Her
:Ir
ecei
vedt
hist
oday
Sheturnedthescreentome, Iwatchedi tandit
wasav ideoofthedayYasydi ed.Icouldn’t
evengof ur
therfr
om thecarspeedingpastt he
robot
s.Ishutthescreenwit
ht earsthreatening
myey es.Whywoul dsomeonedot hi
s?Il ooked
atYayaandshehadherfaceburi
edinher
handssi
tti
ngwit
hherlegscri
sscr
ossed.
Me:
whosenty
out
his?
Shelookedupatmewi
thherey
esr
edf
rom
cr
ying
Her:
Idon’
tknow.Ijustgoti
tinmyemai
l
s.Who
coul
dbedoingthi
sMel o?
Me:
Idon’
tknowbabybutI
’
m goi
ngt
ofi
ndout
Her
:pleasedo.Mel
oI’
m scar
ed.Whati
fitwas
t
hatguy?
Me:
he’
sinpr
ison.Idoubtt
hisi
shi
swor
k
Her
:thenwho?
Me:
Yay
a
Her
:yes
Me:
Ithi
nksomeonecutoft
hecarbr
akes
Her
:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
thatIt
hinksomeonehadpl
annedal
loft
his
Her
:why
?Itdoesn’
tmakeanysense
Me:
Idon’
tknow
Her
:Ithadbet
ternotbethatOl
onabi
tchorel
se
Iwi
llki
ll
herwi
thmybar ehands
Me:
shewoul
dn’
tgot
hatf
ar
Her:
wedidn’
tthi
nkMi r
andawouldgoasfaras
ki
dnappi
ngmey etshedid.What
’st
ostop
Ol
ona?
Me:
Y…
Her
:FUCK!
Shecutmeof
fasIwasaboutt
ospeak
Her
:howcoul
dInotseet
his?
Me:
Yay
awhatar
e…
Her:
whatifal
lthi
sishappeningbecauseoft
he
acci
dentt
hatcausedMirandatodie
Me:
what
?
Her
:whati
fthi
sisKar
ma
Me:
NoYay
ait
’snott
hat
Her:t
henwhatMelo?Whocouldhav
eki
l
ledmy
daughteronpur
poseandwhy
?
Me:
Yay
a.Youneedt
orest
.Yout
ir
ed
Her
:NOMelo.Mydaught
erdi
ed.Mydaught
er
waski
l
ledandIwantt
oknowwhyandwhodi d
i
t
Me:l
ook.Getsomesl
eepandwe’
l
llooki
nto
t
hispr
operl
ytomor
row
Her
:weneedt
otaket
hist
othepol
i
ce
Me:
theyal
readyr
uledi
tasanacci
dent
Her:I
twasnotacci
dent
.Mydaught
erwas
murderedMel
okuhl
e.Someonepl
ott
edtoki
l
l
her
.Why ?
Ishr
ugged.Ial
sowant
edt
oknowbutt
hiswas
ahardnuttocr
ack.
Me:
justgetsomesl
eeppl
ease
Her
:pl
easest
ayt
heni
ght
Me:
sur
e
Wegoti nthecov er
sandIwatchedherf
all
asl
eepi nmyar ms.Iwokeupearlyi
nthe
morningandl ef
theranoteandheadedtoour
house.AtlunchtimeIwenttobuyheranew
phoneandhadi tinsur
edandthentooki
ttoher
wit
hf ood.Iknockedonherdoorandshetol
d
met ocomei n.
Me:
sor
ryIl
eftear
ly,
hadt
ogot
owor
k
Her
:sur
eIr
eady
ournot
e.Howar
eyou?
Me:
Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
ou.Igoty
ouaphone
Her
:thanks
Sheputi
nherol
dsim andputiti
nthechar
ger
whil
eret
ri
evi
ngherol
dthings.
Her
:thanksf
orl
unch
Me:
mypl
easur
e.
Her:Mel
oI’
mreal
lysor
ryaboutwhathappened
wit
hThomas.IwasinabadspaceandIdidn’t
meanfori
ttohappen.I
fIcoul
dundoi
tthenI
woul
d
Me:
Yay
aIhav
etot
ell
yousomet
hing
Her
:yeahshoot
.
Theof
fi
cephoner
ang
Her
:sor
ryIhav
etoanswert
his.
Shewentt
oansweri
tandaft
erthecal
lshe
wentt
ohersi
tbehi
ndherl
aptop
Me:
real
l
yMaf
aku
Her
:noIjustr
eceivedanemailI
’v
ebeenwait
ing
f
orsinceMonday.Someonejustorder
ed3of
mysculpt
ures
Me:
wowbabet
hat
’samazi
ng.I
’
m pr
oudofy
ou
Her
:thanky
ou
Shesquirmedi nexcit
ement.Shecoul
dn’tev
en
hideherexci
tement .Thi
sistheYayaIl
ov et
o
see.Iwasstandingbehindherreadi
ngthe
emailwit
hher .Anewemai lpoppedupandit
wasav
ideo.Sheopenedi
tand
Me:
butwesupposedt
obehav
ingl
unch
Her:
Iknowbabe.Let’
sjustseewhatt
hisi
sand
Ipr
omiseyouwewi l
leatnow
Wewat chedthev
ideoandi
twasav i
deofr
om
thebarIwenttot
hatni
ghtandIwaswalki
ng
outwit
hJeaninetoacar
Me:
Yay
aI…
Sheraisedherhandformet oshutup.She
cont
inuedwatchingandt henawhil
elaterint
he
vi
deoIgetoutoft hecarandfixmypant sup
andwal kuptomycar .Shii
twasabouttogo
down.
.
.
[12/
16,
16:
55]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E35
***“…IwishIcoul dbel ievey out henI’
llbeal r
ight
.
Butnowev erythingy out oldmer eall
ydon’ t
apply.Tot hewayIf eel i
nside.Lov ingy ouwas
easybutonceupont imebutnowmy
suspicionsofy ouar emul ti
plyingandi t’sall
becausey oul i
ed.Ionl ygi vey ouahar dt ime
causeIcan’ tgoonandpr etendl i
keIhav en’
t
tri
edt oforgivethisbutI ’
m mucht ooful lof
resentment .Justcan’ tseem t ogetov erthe
wayy ouhur tme…It houghtIcoul dforgiveyou
andIknowy ou’v
echanged.asmuchasIwanna
trustyou,Iknowi taintthesame…” ***
-
Yay
a
Idon’tknowwhati twast hatIwasf eel
ingaf
ter
watchingthatvideo.YesterdayhebeatThomas
upintoapul ponlytofindoutt hathehimself
thatsameni ghthecamehomet orapemehad
j
ustsleptwithsomest r anger.Sowhat ?WasI
expectedt
obehav el
i
kehedidwit
hThomas
andgobeatupt hegi
rl
?That
’snotme.I
’
m sor
ry.
Ledidoesthatnotme.
Me:
Mel
okuhl
eleav
e.
Hi
m:Maf
akupl
easej
ustl
etme…
Me:
Mel
okuhl
eleav
enow!
Myvoicewassolow;Iwasspeaki
ngbetween
myteeth.I
’
m notavi
olentper
sonbuthi
m
st
ayi
ngherewasgoingtoturnmeintoone.
Hi
m:Maf
…
Me:Melokuhl
eDer
ri
ckBessgett
hef
uckoutof
mysightnow!
Iscreamedandhewal kedt othecouchand
tookhisthingsandwal kedoutwithoutlooking
back.Sincewhendoesmyhusbandgoi ng
aroundscr ewingrandom girlsinparki
nglots?
We’vehadcarsexwhenwewer eyoungerbut
thi
s?Thi sisnottheMel oIknowsincewe’ ve
beenmar r
ied.Iwantedt oscream soloud.Iwas
somad, sohur t
, betrayed, angr y,sad…j ust
everythingal latonce.Whoev ersentmet his
knewv erywel lthatt hiswast her eact i
ont hey
wouldgetf rom me.May bet hisper soni sdoi ng
thi
st obr eakMel oandIup.That ’st heonl y
reasonabl eexpl anat i
onIcancomeupwi t
h.
Whenwewer edat i
ngnoneoft hisev er
happened, sowhyal lofasudden?It ookmy
bagsandwentt oourhouse.Iwal kedi nheaded
toourr oom andst artedpacki ngmycl othes
i
ntosui tcases.Thi swasi t
.I’m donewi th
Melokuhl e.Ijust.Ican’ tany mor e.Thehy pocr i
sy
andt hel ies.Theynotmycupoft ea.Ipacked
upunt ilIwast i
edofpacki ng,didn’ tknowIhad
thi
smanyt hings.Ihadabout3bi gsui tcases
andmycl osetwashal fwayempt y.Ipacked
anotheroneandpul ledt hem t ot hej eep
becausei thadmor espace.It ookt heot her
remai ni
ngt woandputt hem i nsideandwent
backupt opackt hel astone.Fi nally, Iwasdone
andnot hingofmi newasi nt hecl oset .Idr agged
thelastsuitcaseandputi tinsi
dethecar .Iwent
backinsideandputmyr ingont heki tchen
counterandwal kedbacki ntomycarandl eft
thekeywi ththeguardatt hegat eanddr ov eoff
tothehot el
.Ineededt osear chforahouset o
stay.Il
eftmybagsi nthecarandt ookmy
l
aptopbagandpur seandt henwentupt omy
room andgotonl inetosear chforar ealestate
agent.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Whoev erwasdoi ngthi
s,thi
swhol evideothing
wasoutt ogetmenodoubt .Idon’tknowwhoi t
i
st hatI’
vewr ongedsobadl ythattheywoul dgo
thisfartodest r
oymymar ri
age,nodon’ tgetme
wrong, Iam toblamef ormymar r
iagefaili
ng
becauseoft het hingsI
’vedonebutsomeone
hereisaddingf uel t
othefir
eIhadal ready
start
ed.Igoti ntomycaranddr ovet omyof f
ice.
Ineededt ofindoutwhowasdoi ngt hi
s.Icalled
upBanel eandhadherl ookintotheipofthe
comput erthatsentthemessage.Ev erylaptop
hasani paddr ess.Shetoldmeshewoul dget
backtomewhenshehadsomet hing.Iwant ed
tocallYayabutshewassomad, sohurtand
j
ust…Idon’ tknowbutIwasscar ed.From
hereonIdon’ tknowwher eourmar ri
agest ands.
HadIbeenhonestwi t
hhert henwewoul dn’tbe
herebutIdeci dedtoactaf oolandlookat
wherewear e.Knockof fti
meIwenthomeand
theguardhandedmeYay a’
skeys.Iknowt hey
hersbecausef ort
hekeyhol der.
Me:
what
’st
his?
Hi
m:si
ryourwi
feaskedt
hatIgi
vet
heset
oyou
Me:
didshement
ionany
thi
ngt
oyou?
Hi
m:sor
rysi
r,no
Me:
okt
hanks
Idr
ovei
nandpar
kedt
hecarandwenti
nsi
de.
Themi nuteIwalkedintotheki
tchenIwas
welcomedbyherspar kl
ydiamondringIgother
forourwedding.Itwassitti
ngontheki t
chen
counter.Iwasreall
yfuckednow.Har d.Itooki
t
andlookedatit
Me:
whathav
eIdone?
Iwalkedupt hestai
rsandt ookmyt i
eof fand
prett
ymuchmywhol esuitandopenedt he
cl
osett ochange.Hersideoftheclosetwas
empt y.Shewasgone.Shewasr eal
lyleaving
me…wel ll
eftmebecausehel l
o??She’sgone
withallherthi
ngs.Ij
uststoodtherenotmov i
ng
aninch.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Iwasbackatt
hehot elf
rom vi
ewi
ngthelast
housewhi
chIfel
li
nl ovewit
honthespot.Cute
housei
nanicequietsubur
b.Nottoofarf
rom
wor kandhadabeaut i
fulyar d.Iwasgoi ngt o
signev er ythi ngt omor row.Thepr i
cet oowas
reasonabl eenoughbuti twasgoi ngt oleav ea
dentonmyaccount .I twasacut edoubl est ory
housewi t
h3bedr oomsupst airsandone
downst airs, hadacut ebacky ardwi thsome
beaut i
ful landscapi ngandani cepl acet ojust
sitandr elaxorr eadabookandj ustbei ny our
ownwor ld.Myphonewasdoner etrieving
ev ery
thing, i
ncl udingmypi ctures.Onmy
prev i
ousphone, mywal l
paperwasMel oand
Yasywhenwehadj ustgot tenhomewi thher .I
tookt hepi ctur eaf t
erIhadj ustf i
nishedbat hing
herandhewaswal ki ngoutoft heshower
toplesswi that owel ar oundhi swai st.Itwasa
cut eblackandwhi t
epi cture.Imadei tmy
wal l
paperagai n.Itwasabeaut i
fulpictur eand
despi t
eev er y t
hingt heywer emyf ami lyandwi l
l
alway sbemyf ami l
y .Ihadadozenmi ssedcal ls
from myi n- lawsandmyf ami l
yandj ust
ev ery
oneel sef rom lastni ghtandt oday .I
r
espondedt
oaf
ewandj
ustt
henmymot
heri
n
l
awcall
ed.
/
/Me:
Mrs.Besssnr
Her
:hel
l
obabyhowar
eyou?
Me:
I’
m goodMamaandhowar
eyou?
Her:
I’
m alsogood.I
’
vebeent
ryi
ngt
ocal
lyou
si
ncelastni
ght
Me:sorr
yMahIdeci
dedt
ojust
…youknowgo
MIAforadayort
wo
Her:yeahweallhavethosedays.Soli
sten
t
omor rowmorningI’
llbearr
ivi
nginJoburg,i
f
younotbusypleasefetchmef r
om theair
port
.
I
’m comingbackfrom Kenya
Me:
uhhm cal
lmewheny
oul
and
Her:
yousuchadol
l
.Thanky
oubaby
.
Goodni
ght
Me:
nightMa/
/
Me:
SHI
II
II
T!
Isaidpunchingt hepill
owcount l
esst i
mes.Why
didn’
tshecal lherson?Whyme?Al lherchildren
areher einJoburg,whydoesn’ tshecal l
anyof
them andnotme? ??Andst upidmecan’ tsayno
toMr s.Bess.Ijustcannev erbri
ngmy selfto.I
tookaf ewdeepbr eathsandcalmedmy sel
f
down.Ihadachoi cet oeit
hertellhert
hatI ’
m
donewi thmyhusbandorgobackt othehouse
andpr etendthatMel oandIaregood.Ical l
ed
Siseko.
/
/Me:
Myf
ri
end
Hi
m:hel
l
oMunchi
eshowar
eyou?
Me:
I’
mfi
ne…Wel
lnotr
eal
l
yfi
ne.Howar
eyou?
Hi
m:I
’
m good.What
’sbot
her
ingy
ou?
Me:
Ipackedupal
lofmyt
hingsandl
eft
Hi
m:Whatdoy
oumean?
Me:Imean.Icl
eanedoutmyclosetandl
eft
.
TomorrowI
’m si
gni
ngthepaperstomynew
house
Hi
m: whoaYandi
swal
etmegetoutofher
efor
asec.
Ihear
dhi
m getoutofbedandt
hedoorshut
ti
ng
aft
erawhi
le.
Hi
m:y
ouwer
esay
ing?
Me:
Sekoke
Hi
m:Munchi
esi
sthi
sadr
unkcal
l
?
Me:
what
?NO.
Hi
m: ar
eyouhi
ghatleast
?Pleaset
ellmey ou
hi
gh.Youwoul
dn’
tjustmoveoutofyourhome
nj
e
Me:
promi
semey
ouwon’
tshoutatme
Hi
m:Imakenopr
omi
ses.Whatdi
dyoudo?
Me:
hai
kepr
omi
sey
ouwon’
tshoutatme
Hi
m:Yandi
swayoumakingmepromi
sethi
swi
l
l
makemeshoutaty
ou.Whatdi
dyoudo?
Me:thedaybef
orey
est
erdayIsl
eptwi
th
Thomas
Hekeptqui etforawhile.Myheartrat
e
i
ncr easedfrom 72bpm toa1000.Sisekohas
grownt obecomet hatfriendIf
earthemost
whenIdosomet hi
ngwr ong.Hetendstosetme
straightwit
houtanyjudgement.Funnyhow
tablesturn.
Hi
m:Yandi
swa
Ikeptqui
etbecauseIknewwhathewasgoi
ng
tosaynext.
Hi
m:wasi
twor
thi
t?
Ist
il
lkeptqui
et
Hi
m:wasi
twor
thi
tri
ski
ngy
ourmar
ri
age?
Me:Mel
oisnosai
ntei
ther
.TodayIgotav
ideo
ofhi
mfucki
ngsomegi
rl
Hi
m:Meloi snotmyprobl
em, y
ouare.Youar
e
mybestfr
iendandnothim soIwon’
teven
t
ouchtheshii
tyousayhedid
Ikeptqui
et.
Him:wasitwort
hitke?Thiswholeyousleep
wit
hsomeoneandIsl eepwiththeguyyouhate
somuch…Wher ediditgetyou?Areyouhappy
wit
htheresul
tsofi
tall?
Me:Ididn’tsl
eepwit
hThomasoutofspi
teor
r
evengef orMelo.Weweredr
inki
ngandone
t
hingledtoanother
Hi
m:soy
oubackt
odr
inki
ngnow
Me:
itwasonceof
f.Sekopl
ease
Hi
m:I
’
m di
sappoi
ntedi
nyoumunchi
es.Ir
eal
l
y
am
Me:
Iknow.I
’
m di
sappoi
ntedi
nmy
sel
ftoo
Him:whywoul
dyousl
eepwi
thThomas
Yandi
swa?
Me:Idon’
tknow.Hesai
dal
lther
ightt
hingsI
guess
Hi
m:f
uckt
hat
.Doy
oust
il
ll
ovehi
m?
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:y
ourhusband.doy
oust
il
ll
ovehi
m?
Me:
ofcauseIl
ovehi
m Seko.Wi
thal
lmyhear
t
Him:thenwhydi
dy oumoveout
?Whyareyou
gi
vinguponever
ythingy
ouhavewor
kedso
hardfor?
Me:
Idon’
tknow.Ican’
tdoi
tany
mor
e.Hel
i
ed
t
ome
Hi
m:di
dher
eal
l
y?Orhej
ustdi
dn’
ttel
lyou
Me:Sekohedidn’
tfi
ndoutaboutThomas,
Itol
d
hi
m andhewenttobeathimintoapul
p.Wit
h
hi
m Igotavi
deofrom someunknownemail
Hi
m:r
ememberwhaty
ouoncesai
dtome?
Me:
Isayal
otoft
hingst
oyou
Him: andIquot
e“whathappensi nmyhouse
behindthosedoorsoughttostaythere.
”Now
I
’m notsayingI
’m nothereforyouoranythi
ng
butmyf ri
endwhathappensi nyourhouse
behindthosedoorsisforyouandy ourhusband
tofi
x.Iknownothingaboutmar ri
agebutIknow
i
t’
snotawal kinthepark.Ifyoudecidethati
t’
s
notworththefi
ghtanymor ethengoandgi veup
butbeforeyouj
ustthr
owi nthetowelthi
nkof
ever
ythingyouwouldbet hrowingaway .
Me:
soy
ousay
ingIshoul
dgoback?
Hi
m: that
’snotwhatI’
m sayi
ng.WhatI’
m say
ing
i
sthatdon’tmakeanyhastydecisi
onsyou
mightendupregret
ti
nginthelongrun.
Me:
oh.
Hi
m:Il
ovey
oumunchi
es
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooSeko
Hi
m:goodni
ghtandt
hinkaboutwhatIsai
d
Me:
goodni
ght
//
Ichangedi ntomypjaysandgotinunderthe
covers.Whathasbecomeofme?onemi nuteI
l
ovethi smanandt henextIhat
ehim somuch
butev enbeyondal
l t
hatit
’shar
dtoconv i
nceall
ofmet hatIhat
ehi
m andt hatI
’
m donewi thhi
m
compl etel
y.
.
.
<3
guysi onlygotmyl
apt
optoday.i
'
mreal
l
ysor
ry
forkeepingyouwai
ti
ngthi
slong.
[12/
16,
16:
55]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E36
***
“…andthout herearetimeswhenIhat ey ou
causeIcan’terasethetimesthatyouhur tme
andputtearsonmyf ace.Andev ennowI ’
m not
hati
ngyou,itpainsmet osayIknowI ’
ll
bet here
attheendoft heday.Idon’twannabewi t
hout
youbabe,Idon’twantabr okenhear t
.Don’t
wannatakeabr eat
hwi t
houtyoubabe.Idon’ t
wannaplayt hatpart
.Iknowt hatIl
ov eyoubut
l
etmej ustsay ,
Idon’twannal ov
ey ouinnoki nd
ofway…nonoIdon’
twantabrokenheart
.AndI
don’
twantt
opl
aythebrokenhear
tedgir
l…”*
**
-
Mel
o
Iwassit
tingathomeintheloungeprocessi
ng
ever
ythi
ngthat’
shappened.Igotacallf
rom B.
/
/Me:
tal
ktome
Her
:Ihav
eanaddr
essbutIt
hinki
t’
sadeadend
Me:
whatdoy
oumean?
Her:t
hisper
sonissmart.Theipaddr
essesof
theemail
scomef r
om twodiff
erentl
apt
opsand
dif
fer
entgeogr
aphicl
ocati
ons
Me:
any
thi
ngy
ougoti
sfi
newi
thme
Her
:okI
’
llsendt
hem t
oyourphonenow
Me:
okt
hanksB
Her
:any
timecuz
.Justdon’
tgot
her
eal
one
Me:
Iwon’
t.Thanksagai
n//
Af
tert
hecal
lIwai
tedf
orBt
osendmet
hese
addressesandt heoneofthecurr
entemail
wi t
h
thevideowasbasedi ncapetownandthefirst
oneoft heaccidentwasfr
om aroundJOburgin
hil
l
brow.IcalledSiyaandaskedhimtocome
overtomyhouse.Hecameaf t
eranhour
.
Hi
m:sowhat
’sgoi
ngon?
Me:Yayagotanemai
lwi
thav
ideooft
he
acci
dent
Hi
m:what
?When?Shemustbecr
ushed.Wher
e
i
sshe?
Me:
Shel
eftme
Hi
m:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:I
’veputhert
hroughhel
lbr
o.Myl
i
fei
sjusta
mess.I’
m notmeanymore
Him:Mel
oyouspeaki
ngi
nri
ddl
es.What
’sgoi
ng
on?
Me:
dudeIr
apedher
Wewer
est
andi
ngi
ntheki
tchen.Hepunched
meont hefacefel
tli
keIdisl
ocatedmyj aw.IfI
wasn’twr ong,t
henIwouldhavef oughtback
butIknowIwaswr ongforwhatIdi dand
may beIdeservedthepunch.Icouldtastethe
bl
ood.Thi sniggacansurethr
owapunch.Ihel d
mypai nfulandwenttogetanicepackf r
om the
fr
idge
Hi
m:t
hef
ucki
swr
ongwi
thy
ou
Me:Iknowbruh.Whydoy
out
hinkIwasMI
Afor
t
hreeweeks?
Him:you’
reafuckingasshol
eyouknowthat
.A
hypocr
it
e.Af
terwhathappenedtoAsemahle
yougoonputy ourownwi f
ethr
oughthat
Me:
IknowSi
yabongaok.Iknow
Him:Ishouldhavedonemor
ethanpunchy
ou
butI
’
llleti
tsli
de.
Me:that
’snotall
.Thatni
ghtIrapedhert
urns
outIsl
eptwiththi
sothercheek.Sher
ecei
veda
vi
deoofittodayatwork
Heshookhi
sheadchuckl
i
ng.
Him:Yandi
wasani
diott
othi
nkt
haty
oucoul
d
change.
Me:
shesl
eptwi
thThomas
Hi
m:Idon’
tbl
ameher
.Youpushedhert
ohi
m
Me:
that
’st
hel
astt
hingIneedt
ohearf
rom y
ou
Him:IfIal
way
stol
dyoushii
tyouneededt
o
hearthenwewoul
dn’
tbethefr
iendswear
e
today
Siy
abongawasallki
ndsofhi
smother
.Str
aight
tal
kert
il
lthedeat
hofhi
m buthemeantwel
l.
Me:
canwel
eav
enow?
Hi
m:bef
oreIf
ucky
ouupagai
n.
HewalkedoutandIwal kedoutaf t
erhim and
l
ockedupt henwedr ovetotheplace.Whenwe
goti
nsidetheapartmenttherewaspi ct
ureson
thewal
l.Somev er
ydist
urbi
ngandot hersof
YayaandYasy .Therewerealotofpicturesof
myfamil
yinthisper
son’
sapar
tment
,theguy
hadnudeshotsofYayaandt
henadozenmore
ofYayawi
thYasyandsomeofYasywi t
hMe.
Si
ya:
damn!
Me:
Iknow
Idon’
tknowwhethertheywereobsessedwi
th
Yayaorwit
hYasy…Ijustdidn’
tknowwhatto
makeoutofwhatIwasl ooki
ngat.
Hi
m:comeseet
his
Iwalkedoverandsquatt
ednextt
ohim.I
twasa
pict
ureofmycarf r
om whenIwentt
oPSJwith
theguystorescueYaya.
Hi
m:thi
sist
hecary
ouwr
eckedi
ntheacci
dent
wi
thMir
anda
Me:
buti
tdoesn’
tmakeanysense
Hi
m: coul
ditbet
heguyt
hatwaswor
kingwi
th
Mi
randa?
Me:
Idon’
tknowany
mor
e.I
tcoul
dbehi
m.
Somet
ypeofr
evengeorsomet
hing.
Him:butwhynotj
ustcomeaf
tery
ouandl
eav
e
YayaandYasyoutofi
t?
Me:
IwishIknew.Quest
ioni
showt
hehel
ldo
wef
indhi
m?
Him:fi
rst
ly,
weneedt
omakesur
ethatYay
ais
safe
Me:
shel
i
vesi
nahot
el.I
tssecur
it
yist
ight
Him:t
ight
erthanyourhouse?Don’
tbeani
diot
.
Gety
ourwifebackhomeanddeal wit
hthi
s
Me:Youknowhowst
ubbor
nYandi
swai
s.She
won’
tdoit
Him:lookatthi
splaceMelokuhl
e.Thisper
son
i
soutt ogetyouandlooksli
ketheywill
do
anyt
hingtheycantohurtyou.Tr
ackdownt hat
guyandMi r
anda’sfamil
y.Theymighthave
somethingtowit
ht hi
s
Justt
henmyphonebeepedi
ndicat
inga
message.I
twasavi
deoofYayainthehot
el
tal
ki
ngont hephone.Therewasn’tanysound
butitwasheri
nthehot el
.Idi
dn’tknowwhet her
tobescaredorwhatbutallIknowi sthatIneed
tomakesur et
hatmywi feissafe.Ifai
ledto
prot
ectourdaughter
,Ican’
tfail
mywi f
et oo.
Hi
m:getYandi
swahomedude.
Ical
l
edherandshekeptr
eject
ingmycal
l
s.
Hi
m:l
etmecal
lher
.
Hewal kedupt othewindowandcalledher
whileIlookedaroundthi
splaceforanyt
hing
thatcouldhelpme.Itookshotsofthescene
andSiyawal keduptome
Me:
and?
Him:shesay
sshe’l
lgohomebutshedoesn’
t
expecty
outobethere
JustasIexpect
ed.
Me:that
’sf
inebymeasl
ongasIknowshe’
s
saf
e.
Hi
m:I
’
llt
exthernow
Me:
I’
ll
sendsomeonet
ofet
chher
.
Hi
m:ay
t.
Itypedat extandsenti ttooneoftheguar dsat
homet ogof etchher
.Wet ookthepictur
es
downandsquashedt hem andputt hem ina
plasti
cbag.Ineededt ogot ocapetown.May be
thispersonist her
e.Iforwardedthemessaget o
Bt ofi
ndoutf ormewher eitcouldhav ecame
from.Thiswasal ottotakein.mydaught er
waski l
ledbecauseofme.i t’
smyf aultshe’
s
dead.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Aft
erthecall
withSi
yaIwentdownst
air
sto
checkoutandonmywayupIbumpedi ntoone
ofthehot
elstaf
fanddroppedmyphone.
Hi
m:I
’
m sosor
ry
Me:
it’
snotapr
obl
em
Hehel pedmewi t
hmyphoneandhewal kedthe
oppositedirectionandIheadedt otheelevat
or.
Igotintomyr oom andpackedupt helit
tle
thi
ngsIhadandheadedbackt othelobby.One
ofthehouseguar dswasf etchi
ngmeand
makingsur et hatIgethomesaf el
y.Siya
wouldn’ttellmewhatwasr eall
ygoingonei t
her
thanmyl i
f ebeingi ndanger
.
“
leav
ingsosoon?
”
Il
ookedupandt
heguyIhadbumpedi
nto
ear
li
eronwasst
andi
ngbefor
eme.
Me:
yeah.Iki
ndofhav
eto
Hi
m:ahhhman.I
twasl
ovel
yhav
ingt
oseey
our
f
aceher
e
Ichuckl
ed.
Me:I
’
veonl
ybeenher
efort
woday
s.Don’
tbe
dr
amati
c
Hi
m:st
il
l.Seei
ngy
oumademyday
Me:
gladIhav
esuchanef
fect
.
Hi
m:ni
cemeet
ingy
ouMr
sBess
Me:
li
kewi
se,
…
Hi
m:cal
lmeJohn.
Hewalkedof
fandj
ustt
henAmos(
guar
d)
wal
kedovert
omeandtookmybagsaf
ter
gr
eet
ingme.
Me:
thanky
ou.I
sMel
ohome?
Hi
m:noMa’
am he’
snotbacky
et.
Me:
ohok.t
hanks
Igotintomycarandhegoti ntohisandhe
droveoffbehindmeunt ilwegothome.Iwal ked
i
nt heywalkedi naf
termewi thmymany
l
uggage.Ideci dedtomakemy selfasnack,j
ust
somet hi
ngtomunchon.Whent heywer edone
theywentbackt ot
heirpostsandIwentt othe
l
ounget owat chsomet v.JustthenMeloand
Siyawalkedin.
Si
ya:
buddy
Igotupandwesharedahug.I
twassowar
m
andsoneeded.Webrokei
t.
Mel
o:I
’
llgopackabag.
Hewal
kedupst
air
s.
Si
ya:
yougood?
Me:yeahI
’m good.What
’sgoi
ngon?Howi
smy
l
if
eindanger
?
Het ookouthi sphoneandhandedi ttome.
Ther ewer epicturesonawal l
,picturesnoone
shoul dhav eont hei
rwall
’s.Theonl yperson
whohasnudeshot sofmei smyhusbandonl y
sot hisperson…Idon’ tknowhowhegott hese
andev ensot hesearerecentpictures.from the
nightIspentwi t
hThomas.Noneoft hem wer e
evert akenfrom myhouse.Somewer epi ct
ures
oftodaywhenIwentt ov i
ewt hehouses.And
thent herewer ethoseofYasmi nandI , Melo
andYasy ,MeloandI …justalotofpi ctures.I
gaveSiy
ahi
sphonewhenIf
eltIhadseen
enough.
Me:
how?
Him:whoevert
hisper
sonis,
theyhav
ebeen
keepi
ngcloset
absony ou
Me:
why
?
Him:Iwi
shIknew.Ourbestbeti
sthati
thas
somethi
ngtodowit
hMi r
anda’sdeat
h.Whoever
i
sdoingthi
swantstogetbackatMelo
Me:
uhhm I
’
llber
ightback.
Iwalkedupst
air
stoourr
oom andMel
owas
packing.
Me:
yourmot
heri
sonherwayher
e
Hi
m:shet
oldme
Me:
sowegoi
ngt
otel
lherorwhat
?
Him:Idon’tknowYaya.youcant
ell
heri
fyou
sureaboutyourdeci
sion
Me:
oh.
Hesatdownont
hef
loorandIsatdownnextt
o
hi
m.
Him: Inevernotoncemeantf orthi
ngst ogetto
thi
s.Ifyouwantadi vor
ce,thenI’m okwithit
.
I’
m sorryforeverythi
ngI’veeverputy outhr
ough
Mafaku.Ijustwi shIcouldundoi tall
butIcan’t
andIhav etolivewi t
hitall
.Il
ov eyousomuch.
sosomuchYandi swaandt hev owsImade, my
heartwill
foreverbey oursandnobodyel se.
Hekissedthebackofmyhandandt
henwi
ped
i
t.Heplacedmyr i
nginmyhand
Hi
m:t
hisi
syour
s.
Hegotupandwal kedout.Whydi ditfeell
ikehe
wasbreakingupwi thme?myhear tsankt othe
bott
om ofmyst omach.Inev erwantedt hi
s.I
knowwhatIsai dbutdivorce?That’
sal it
tl
et oo
much.Whatam Isupposedt osayt ohismot her
whensheget sheret omorrow?Melohadt aken
hisworkthingsandaspor tsbag.Iwonderwhat
happensnow.Ideci dedtojustgetinbedand
sl
eepmybr okenheartof
f.InextdayIwokeup
andmademy sel
fsomethingtoeat,
Ihad
not
hingfr
om Mel oonmyphone, nomissed
cal
lsorWhatsApporany t
hing.I
twasjustbl
ank.
Iat
eandt henlef
tforwork.Amahlewouldbe
l
andinghereat9or10am.
.
.
<3
[12/
16,
16:
56]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E37
***
“…I’
ml ostwit
houtyou.Ican’
thelpmysel
f.
Howdoesi tfeel
,toknowthatIloveyou
baby…”**
*
-
Yay
a
Iparkedinfrontofar estaurantandwebot hgot
offandwenti nside,i
twasapl aceInormall
y
wentt oforbreakfastorlunchwi t
hmysi st
eror
fr
iend.Itwasn’tfarfr
om t heoffi
cesoitwould
savemet hetri
p.Wepl acedouror der
sandt he
waitr
essl ef
ttohav ethatsor t
edout.
Me:
sohowar
eyou?Howwasy
ourf
li
ght
?
Youmi ghtthinkwegott hatoutofthewayon
ourwayher ebutMamaBesswast al
kingonthe
phonewi thherhusbandal l
thewayandshe
onlydroppedt hecallwhenwepar ked.They
wer esoinloveIenviedthem andwhatt heygot
goingon.IfonlyMel oandIwerel i
kethem.But
thenagainMr .Besssnrwasper fectevenwhen
hewasy oung.Thatmannev erputhiswi f
e
throughhalftheshii
tMel oputmet hrough.
Basical
lytheirprobl
emswer en’
tasbad
becauseMr .Bessdi dn’
thaveapastl i
kehisson.
Her
:itwasgood.Sohowar
eyou?
Me:
I’
m goodMahandhowar
eyou?
Her:
youknowwhatImeanYandi
swa.Howar
e
you?
Me:
I’
mfi
nema
Her
:andathome?
Shewasn’tevenpayi
ngat t
enti
ont omewhi l
e
askingt
hethingsshewasaski ng.Ididn’
tgetit
.
Howam Isupposedt oholdaconv ersati
onwi t
h
someonebusywi t
htheirphone?Thewai tress
cameandputourbev er
agesi nfrontofusand
thenshelef
t.
Her
:so?
Me:
weok
Her:Idon’
tknowhowol dyouthinkIam butI
’m
defi
nit
elynotmydaughteroranywherenear
yourage.I’
m notst
upi
dandsur eam notbli
nd
Me:
hai
boMah
Her
:don’
thai
boMahme.Tal
kYandi
swa
Me:
canweatl
easthav
ebr
eakf
astandt
alkat
home
Her:f
ineI
’l
ll
etital
lgobutl
ateryou,meand
Melohavetotal
k.Damonwillbefl
yi
nginlat
er
andsowill
yourparent
s
Me:
mah
Her:
don’tny
ame.Youbet
tergety
ourst
ory
st
rai
ghtkeMafaku
Ikeptqui
etandshesippedonhert
ea.Ourf
ood
cameandshedugi n.
Her
:thi
sisgood
Me:
yeahi
tis
Her
:howar
ethi
ngsatt
heMi
Ya(
gal
l
ery
)?
Me:
thingsatt
hegal
ler
yaregood.I
’
vemanaged
t
osell
af ewofmyscul
ptur
es
Her
:that
’sgood.I
’
m gl
adt
oheart
hat
Me:
sot
ell
meabouty
ourt
ri
p.Ev
ery
thi
ng
Her
:itwasagi
rl
’st
ri
p.Jen,
Siy
a,Sage,
ZekandI
.
wewentwil
d,t
hosewomensureknowhowto
part
yyoh.I’
m nev
erdr
inki
ngagai
naf
tert
his
pastweekend
Me:
hai
boMahsi
ncewhendoy
ougetdr
unk
Shechuckl
ed
Her
:leti
tbeourli
tt
lesecr
et.Daewoul
dmur
der
meifhefoundout
Me:
heht
hiswoman
Her:I
’
minmyfort
iesandt
hat
’swhenl
i
febegi
ns
kal
okubhey
ps.
Il
aughed.Thi
swoman.
Her
:whenl
astdi
dyouseeAsemahl
e?
Ichuckl
edbef
orerespondi
ngt
hinki
ngabout
howwet al
kever
ydayandseeeachother
almostdai
l
y.
Me:
Iseeheral
mostev
ery
day
Her
:thatoneneedst
ogetmar
ri
edal
ready
Me:
soont
oo
Her:t
hatboyofherscalledusandaskedforour
bl
essingandwegav eittohim butmydaught
er
bei
nghershesai dshewasn’tready
.Idon’
t
understandher
.SometimesIthinkmyreal
daughterissomewhereoutthere
Il
aughedandsodi
dshe.
Me:hayi
Mahdon’
tsayt
hat
.Thatper
sonl
ooks
j
ustl
ikeyou
Her
:that
’st
heonl
yreasonIbel
i
eveshe’
smi
ne.
Whosaysnotomarri
age?
Me:
yourdaught
er.I
fshedoesn’twantt
oget
mar
ri
ed,t
henwhoar ewetoforceher
Her:i
fIwasinafailedmarri
ageIwould
under
standhernotwant i
ngtogetmarr
iedbut
meandherf at
herhav edonenot
hingbutl
ead
byexamplesothatourkidscanknowandsee
whatreall
oveisl
ike.Youknow
Me:
Iheary
ouMah.
Wecont
inuedchat
ti
ngandt
henIdr
oveher
homeandgotbackt
owor
k.Igotacal
lfr
om
Melo.
/
/hi
m:hey
Me:
hi
Hi
m:howar
eyou?
Me:
goodt
hanksandhowar
eyou?
Him:I
’
m good.Mom t
ext
edmesay
ingt
her
e’s
goi
ngtobeameeti
nglat
eron
Me:
yep
Hi
m:ohokcool
.Ti
me?
Me:Idon’
tknow.May
beat6…y
ourdadi
son
hi
sway
Hi
m:yeahhecal
l
edmetof
etchhi
m.I
’
m onmy
wayt
otheair
por
tnow
Me:
okcool
.I’
l
lseehi
mlat
eront
hen.
Hi
m:Yay
a
Me:
yes
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou
Ikeptquiet.NotthatIdidn’tfeelthesame, don’
t
getmewr ongbutIwasst r
uggl i
ngtogett he
wordsoutofmymout h.IthinkIjustneedsome
ti
met ojustfigur
eitallout.Idon’tdoubtthatI
l
ov ehim butIdodoubthoworwher eheandI
standorwher ewegof r
om her e.Ijustneed
ti
met hat’
sall.
Hi
m:by
e//
Aft
erthecallIwentt ocheckonThomas.I twas
wrongofmet onotgoandcheckonhi m aft
eri
t
wasmyhusbandwhoputhi mt her
e.Hedid
nothi
ngwrong, hedi dn’
tbreakanyvowshe
made.I’mthemar riedonewhoshoul dhave
knownbetterandnotcheatonmyhusband.I
gottothehospitalandwentt ohisroom.He
waswi t
hhissisterandni ece.
Me:
hi
Them:
hey
WellLat
hit
haandherdaught
err
espondedand
hejustl
ookedatmeandbacktopl
ayingwit
h
hi
sniece.
Lat
hi:
Lolet
’sgogetsomet
hingt
osnackonand
l
eaveuncl
etotal
kok
Her
:yes,
mummy
Theywalkedouthandinhand.Iwenttosi
ton
thechai
rwhereLathi
thawassitt
ing.
Hi
m:whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Me:
Iunder
standI
’
mt helastpersony
ouwant
t
oseebutThomasI’
m sosorry.
Hi
m:howdi
dhef
indout
?
Me:
Itol
dhi
m
Hi
m: sowhatcoul
dhappen?Sothathecoul
d
dothi
shuh?Areyouhappywit
htheresul
ts?
Me:ofcausenot
.ThomasIdi dn’
ttellhi
m so
t
hathecouldcomehityou.Idon’
tlikekeepi
ng
t
hingsfr
om myhusband,that
’snotme.I ’
m
sor
ryhel
andedy
ouher
e
Him: whyar
eyouhere?Wonthehatey
oubei
ng
here?Doesheevenknowyouhere?
Me:
ofcausenot
.Ihadt
omakesur
eyouok
Hi
m: sowhotookcareoft
hebi
ll
?Wasi thi
m?I s
t
hathiswayofaski
ngmenottopresscharges?
Me:ThomasifMel
owant
edt
obei
npr
isonhe
woul
dbealr
eady.
Melomanagedtogetawaywi thkill
ingMiranda.
Whatmakeshimt hi
nkthathewoul dget
arr
estedf
orhit
ti
ngsomeoneandl andingthem
i
nahospital
bed.Iwon’tl
ietoyouIal sodon’t
knowwhynoonel ookedintot
heacci dent.
Therewasn’
tevenacaseorwhat soev er
.Itwas
rul
edasanaccidentandthatwast hat.
Hi
m:ohsowhat
?He’
sabov
ethel
aw?
Me:
ThomasIj
ustcameher
etoapol
ogi
ze
Hi
m:I
’
llf
orgi
vehi
m ononecondi
ti
on
Me:
oh?
Hi
m:bewi
thme.Leavehim Yandi
swaandI
pr
omi
senot
hingwi
llhappentoyourbabydaddy
.
Me:
what
?
Him:youwantt
okeepyourhusbandsafer
ight
?
Bewit
hmeandhewi l
lgetawaywi t
hhit
ti
ngme
fr
eel
y
Me: arey oublackmai
li
ngme?Andy outhi
nkI
wouldbewi thsomeonewhoblackmail
sintoa
rel
ationship?I’
m sorr
ybutt
hat’
snotme.Do
what everyouwanttoMelokuhl
ebutIwillnev
er
bewi thyou!
Itookmyt hingsanddrovebackt ot heof fice.I
waspi ssedt osayt hel
east.Ididthenor mal
andcal l
edi tadaywhenmom cal l
edt ell
ingme
thatshehadj ustl
anded.Shewaswi thmy
grandmot her .Shi
i
twasgoingt ogodowni nthi
s
meet i
ng.IgothomeandMel o’scarwashome
too.Iparkedandweal lgotoff.Itookt heirbags
upstai
rsaf terIwasdonegr eetingMr .Besssnr .
Itookaqui ckshowerandt henwor e
comf ort
ably.Iwasluckyenought ohavein-l
aws
thatletmewearwhat ev
erpleasesmebutI
decidedtogowi t
halongdr essandfli
pflops
andadoekonmyhead.Ipr eparedsomet hing
quickwhilewewai tedonmyf at
herandMel o
whowentt ofetchhim.Mom wal kedin.
Her
:needanyhel
p?
Shesaidhuggingmef rom behi
nd.GodI’v
e
beenlongi
ngforthi
s.Iturnedaroundandjust
l
etherembracemei nherwar m arms.Icoul
d
feel
alumponmyt hroat,
ifwhy?Ialsohaveno
i
deabutallIknowisthatjustbeinghome
(mom’sarms)mademewantt ocry.
Me:
noI
’
m good
Shel
etgoofmeandhel
dmeatar
m’sl
engt
h.
Her:
whenyoul
efthomeIt ol
dyouthatIwasn’
t
gi
vi
ngyouawayandthatyoualwayshavea
homewhenthi
ngsgettougharoundhere
Me:
Iknowmah
Her:Ihateseei
ngy oulikethismybaby .You
tr
yingyesbutyounoty ourself
.Younott he
YandiswaIknowandr aised.Ifeell
ikey ou’
ve
l
osty our
selfal
ongt heway .Iknowt hatlosing
Yasywashar dony ouandi tsti
l
lisbutYay aI
knowy ouoratleastIusedt oknowy ou.What ’
s
goingon?
Me:ever
ythi
ngwi
l
lbeouti
nthemeet
ingmom
don’
tworry
Her:andify
ouwantt
ocomehomeIf
ull
y
supporty
ouok?
Me:
Iknow
Igaveheranassuringsmi l
ebutmymom ai nt
nofool.Shecanalway sseer i
ghtthroughme…
sometimesbecauset hiswomandi dn’
tnoti
ce
j
ackwhenIwaspr egnant .Soy eah.Sometimes.
SheletgoofmeandIcont inuedwi ththef
ood
whil
eshet ol
dmeaboutwor kandot herst
uff
that
’sbeenhappeningsi ncewel astspoke.
Meloandmyf atherwal kedi
nwhenwewer e
abouttotakethet hingstothediningroom.I
greet
edmyf atherwi thahugandt hentookthe
foodtothediningt ablewhil
eMel owentt o
showhim wher ehewoul dbesleeping.
Wegat heredaroundthetableandthenateover
l
ightconversati
ons,whenwewer edoneeatingI
coll
ectedthedishesandwentt oputthem i
nthe
dishwasherbecauseIwasi nst
ruct
edt odoso.I
walkedbacki nandtookmyseat .
Khul
u:Yay
atal
k.
Il
ookedatMeloandt
henher.Whatam I
supposedt
otal
kaboutorsay?
Me:
Khul
u?
Khulu:tal
k.What’
sgoi
ngon?What’
ssohard
thatyourhusbandwoul
dleav
efort
hreewhol
e
weeks?
Ishrugged.Maybetheyshoul
dbeaski
ngt
he
personthatl
eftandnotme.
Mr.Bess: l
osi
ngachi ldi snoteasy.Itcanputa
l
otofst rainonone’smar ri
ageandasmuchas
noneofushav eactuallybeenher ewi thy ou
guyst owi t
nessit,
weknowt hatthet woofy ou
arenotok.Mel owentMI Aforthreeweeks
withoutanyexplanationorwhat soever.Weher e
becausewewant edy ouguy stotryandwor k
thr
ought hi
sony ourownf ir
stwithoutus
i
nterveningbutseemi ngl yyoutwocan’ t
.We
enternowher einwhathasbeengoi ngonunder
thi
sr oofbutwear ey ourpar ent
sandwecar e
aboutbot hofyout oget herandindivi
dual l
yand
wewoul dhat etoseey ouguy sthrowi tallaway
atsuchay oungage
Weal
lkeptqui
etandl
i
stenedt
oMr
.Bess.
Mr s.Bess: i
fthingsaren’tgoodbet weenyou
guy sthenmay beit’
stimey outwot ooksome
ti
meapar tandj ustfocusony ourselv
esand
fi
ndingt heper sonyouoncewer ebeforelosi
ng
Mila.andi fsti
llaft
ersomet i
meapar tthi
ngs
aren’tworkingt henitsfi
ne.Youtwocanj ust
endt
hings
West
il
ldi
dn’
trespond
Mr
.Bess:
okt
hen.Mel
okuhl
ewhat
’sgoi
ngon?
Him: YayaandIhav en’
tbeendeal i
ngwi th
Yasy’sdeath.Shecompl etel
yshutev ery
oneout
i
ncludingme.It r
iedeverythi
ngtobet herefor
herbutshej ustkeptpushi ngmeawayunt il
I
gaveupev ent ual
ly.ThreeweeksbackImadea
ter
ri
blemi stakeandIr egretitf
ully
.Ihurtherin
awaynohusbandshoul dhurttheirwif
eandI
hatemy selfforitevennowwhi chi swhyI
fi
guredthati twouldbebestImov eoutandl et
herdecidedwhet herornotshest i
llwantstobe
wit
hme
Hesighed.Iwassomehowmadt hathewould
ki
ndofblamemef orrapinghi
m.Losingachil
d
hi
tmehar dIadmitbutt
hatdidn’
tgivehi
m any
ri
ghttodotheshi
ithedidtome.
Dad:Weheary
ouSon.Yayadon’ty
ouhave
anyt
hingt
osayregar
dingwhatMel
ohassaid?
Ishookmyheadno.
Ishookmyheadno.
Me: Webot hmessedupeachot herreall
ybad
andmay beit’
sjustbestt hatheandIspl it
.Ilove
Mel okuhle.Ilovehim somucht hatIf eell
ost
withouthi m andIdon’ tthinkIl
ikethatbecause
nowIf eelli
keI ’
velostmy selfi
nt hi
s.May beif
heandIspl itthenitwillgivemesomet i
met o
fi
ndmy sel
fandi twill
givehi mtimet ofind
himself .Wear etooabsor bedi
ntoeachot her
thatlif
ewi thouttheot hermakesusdosome
crazyst uff
Khulu: Igrewupi naner awher ewewer etaught
thatnomount ai
ni stoobi gforGod.Wewer e
taughtt olayeveryproblem wef acei
nour
mar r
iaget oGodandl ethim bet heonetofi
xit.
Bothofy ouwereonceChr isti
ans.Idon’
tknow
whereorwheny oulostthatal ongthewaybut
youdi d.Ihearyouguy sgoingonandonabout
spli
tt
ingandf i
ndingy ourselv
esandI ’
min
supportofthatbutmay bethisspli
tt
ingofyours
shouldbeaboutf i
ndingyourselfi
nChr i
stfi
rst
.
It
’snosecretthatsomeofusl oseFait
hinGod
whenwel oseal ovedonebutt hisfi
nding
yoursel
fwon’tfi
xany thi
ngunlessyour et
urnto
Godandy ourfaithisrest
ored.
Mom: Mamai sright
.Ready ourbible,got o
chur
ch, f
orgi
v eyourselvesforwhaty ou’veput
eachotherthroughandf or
giveeachot herfor
whatyouy ou’veputtheot herthroughandf ind
awayf orward.Yasmi nwoul dn’
thav ewant edt o
seeyouguy slikethi
s.Shewoul dn’thave
wantedtoseeherpar entsbroken
Mrs.B:ifwhatyoutwohavei
smeanttobethen
i
twillbeandifnotthenGodwi
ll
pul
ltheot
her
awayf r
om theother
.Nomancanbreakwhatis
cr
eatedbyGod.
Inoddedi
nacknowledgementofwhatt
hey
weresayi
ngandsodidMelo.Theymadesense
anditwasaboutt
imeIfocusonmyspiri
tual
sel
fandjustgrowinGod.Thiswholedrif
ti
ng
awayfrom Godeverynowandt henisnotri
ght
.
Ineedtoful
lycommi tmy
selfifIwantmy
marri
agetowor k.
.
.
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16,
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E38
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…Andgirl
Immawhi sperthi
sintoy ourear,
Howdeepdoy ouwantmet ogo?Doy ouwant
met ospeedituporgosl ow?Startedf r
om the
bedandnowweouther eont hefloor.Girl
you
real
lyi
nforatreatnowbutdon’ tf
al li
nlove
causewejusthavingsex,I’
m gonnamakey ou
wetwenotmaki nglovetonight
.Hi cki
esallover
y
ourneck,
kissi
ngal
loveryourbodybabygi
rl
y
ougoingetitt
oni
ght
…”***
-
Mel
o
It
’sbeenamont hsinceourspl i
tbutImakei t
pointt ov i
sitherandat t
endt herapyev eryday …
wellal mostev eryday .Ifi
gur edIhaven’ treall
y
dealtwi thlosingYasyaspersayandal soI
neededt ogeti ntouchwi t hmyspi ri
tual sel
f.
YayaandIar eokIguessev enthoughwel i
v ein
separ atehousesbutwegood.Thi sstalkeror
what ev erthepersoni shasn’ tmadeanymov e
orsentmeorYay aany thingasy etsowehav e
nothingt ogoonj usty etbutIhav en’tstopped
searchi ng.Ioncewentt oCapet ownaf ew
weeksbackandwer eachedadeadend.Ev er
si
nceAsemahl eheardaboutt herapei ncident
ourrel ati
onshipisonast eepslope.Wewer e
meet ingf orlunchatacaf éneart heof fi
ce.
Me:
howar
eyou?
Her
:I’
m goodandhowar
eyou?
Me:
Imi
ssmysi
ster
Her:youlostthatwhenyouv i
olatedmyfr
iend
Melo.Idon’tknowhowYay awasabl etoforgi
ve
yousoeasi l
ybutI’
m sti
l
ltr
yingt o
Me: Aseplease.I’
mtryi
ngtorightmywr ongs
here.Pl
easemeetmehal f
way .IknowImessed
upandIknowwhatIdi dwaswr ongandI
promiseitwill
neverhappenagai nbecauseI
al
mostl osttheloveofmylif
ei ntheprocess
Her:
shetol
dmeaboutThomasandy
ou
sl
eepingwi
thsomegi
rl
Me:
ist
her
eany
thi
ngt
hatshedoesn’
ttel
lyou?
Shechuckled.Atl
eastalaughwasast
art
,it
wasbetterthannot
hing
Me:sisIknowImessedupandI ’
m goi
ngto
chur
chnowandat tendi
ngther
apyandthi
ngs
arel
ookingup.Pl
easeforgi
veme
Her:neverdoi
tagai
nMeloorIpr
omi
sey
ouy
ou
wil
lneverseemeagain
Me:Idi
dn’
tknowyoul
ovedmywi
femor
ethan
youl
oveyourt
win
Shej
ustl
aughed
Her
:jeal
ous?
Me:
hay
inoi
tscool
Her:y
oumybr
other
.Youownmywhol
elef
t
vent
ri
cle
Me:Ithoughtyou’
dsayIowny ourwhol
ehear
t
butseemingl
yy ougotot
herpeoplef
ort
hat
Her:
sincewhenar
eyouacr
ybaby
?Youknow
youhalf
Ichuckl
edandsodi
dshe
Her:I
’
m gl
adthaty
ouandYayaareworking
t
hroughwhat
everi
tisy
outwoareworking
t
hrough
Me:shecomplet
esmeAsemahl e.Igota
gl
impseofli
fewit
houtherandt
hat’snott
hel
i
fe
Iwantt
oliv
e
Her
:sot
hatmeansyouwi
l
li
ngt
olookpastt
he
whol
eThomasthi
ng?
Me: i
t’
snoteasybutI’
m will
ingt
o.I’
vescrewed
upsomanyt i
mes,morethanIcanev encount
butshealwaysstuckaround.Whati
diotwouldI
beifIlethi
m comebetweenus
Shelookedatmeandsmi ledproudly.Ilooked
atherandrol
ledmyey es.Icouldalreadyt el
l
whatshewast hinking.Iknewmyt winlikethe
backofmyhand.Butont herealwhatf ool
wouldIbetoletami st
akecomebet weenwhat
sheandIhave.Thi sbreakandcr yi
ngt ogr ow
upandbuildourselvesandheal woul dal l
befor
nothi
ng
Her
:li
stent
oyoual
lgr
ownupandshi
i
t
Me:
getaman
Shechuckl
edandsodi
dI
Her
:Ihav
eone.Ij
ustneedt
oknowt
hathe’
s
wor
thy
Me:
right
….
Her
:don’
tgi
vemet
hatl
ook
Me:
Idi
dn’
tgi
vey
oual
ook.Gui
l
tyofsomet
hing?
Her
:what
?No.Whenl
astdi
dyouspeakt
oYana?
Me:
it’
sbeenawhi
l
e.Why
?
Her
:so…
Me:
JesusChr
istshoul
dIbewor
ri
ed?
Her:
sheandherhusbandareget
ti
ngadi
vor
ce.
Shesay
sthey’
vefal
lenoutofl
ove
Me:
issheok?
Her:
youknowYana.She’
llpr
etendshehasit
fi
gur
edoutunt
ilshef
inal
l
ysnaps.That’
sjust
her
Me:
shecan’
tbegoi
ngt
hrought
hisal
one
Her
:she’
snot
.Shehasus
Me:
youknowwhatImeant
hough
Her
:Ihav
enews
Me:
o…k
Her
:I’
m goi
ngt
othest
ates
Me:
what
?When?Why
?
Her:r
ememberItol
dy ouI’
dbegonef ort
wo
year
s?Well
theycouldn’
tgetanyonebett
erf
or
t
hejobandtheyevenoffer
edmemor eofwhat
t
heyweregoingtopaymei ni
ti
all
y
Me:
andJames?
Her :hesai
dhecan’tbewi
thsomeonewho
refusestomarryhi
m andt
henjumpsatthe
oppor t
unit
yofl
eavi
nghim whenoppor
tuni
ty
presentsit
sel
f
Me:
Asemahl
e!
Her
:Mel
oI’
mfi
nepl
ust
hiswi
l
lhel
pmegr
ow
Me:
buty
oul
ovet
heguy
Her
:andIt
houghthelovedmet
oobutIguess
l
oveal
oneisnotenough
Me:
sowhat
?Youj
ustt
hrowi
tal
laway
?
Her:
maybehe’
snotmysoul
mat
e.May
bemy
soul
mat
eisint
hestat
es
Me:
siscomeon.Woul
ditbesuchabadi
deat
o
mar
rytheguy
?
Her :Ifeell
ikeIhav en’
tli
vedmyl i
feasIwantt o.
Someofusar enotpsy chedbyt hiswhol e
conceptofmar riage.It
hinkI’
veobser vedand
seenenoughar oundmet oknowt hatI’
m not
readyf ormar r
iageandt hechallengesitholds.
Don’tgetmewr ongIlovethatyouguy swork
throughy ourproblemsandmaket hingswor k
butI’m noty ouorYay asot hi
swhol ehol di
ngon
thi
ngwhent hegoinggetstoughi snotf orme.
Howcer tai
nam It hathewon’ tchangeaf ter
mar riage?
Me:
ther
e’sonl
yonewayt
ofi
ndout
Her
:andt
hat
’smar
ri
ager
ight
?
Me:yeahbutwhoarewet of or
ceyoui
ntodoing
somethi
ngyounotreadyfor.Whenyoureadyor
whenevert
hatwi
ll
be, you’
l
lknow
Her
:thanky
ou.Nowsupportmydecisi
onasI
hav
esupport
edyour
ssincefor
ever
Me:
youknowIgaty
ou.Il
ovey
oul
i
ket
hat
Her
:Iknow.
Shebrushedmyhandwi thanassuringsmi l
e.I
t
wasgoodt obeonsucht ermswithmysi ssy.I
l
ovethiscrazyper
sonsitt
ingoppositemeand
mylif
ewi t
houtherisnotwort
hlivi
ng.She’s
beenmyhal fsi
ncemom’ swombandshe’ l
l
al
waysbe.Ihatethatshe’sl
eavi
ngt hough.
Her
:Si
yat
oldmeabouty
ourt
ri
ptoCapeTown
Me:canthatguykeephi
smout
hshutwher
e
youareconcer
ned?
Her:
Ihavemywaystogetstuf
foutofhi
m.So
di
dy ouf
indany
thi
ngabouty
ourstal
ker?
Me:
wer
eachedadeadend
Her
:whynotaskdadf
orhel
p?
Me:
becausehe’
l
laskal
otofquest
ions
Her:evenso,hehasconnect i
onsevery
where
andy ou’
l
l f
indthi
spersonfaster
.Yaya’
sli
fe
mightbei ndangerher
e,l
et’snotgamblewit
h
herl
ifeplease
Me:I’
dnev
ergambl
ewi
thmywi
fe’
sli
fe.Yay
ais
saf
eandprot
ect
ed
Her
:Ihopesobr
o.whoev
erisdoi
ngt
hishas
t
hei
rmindsetonendi
ngyoutwo
Me:Idoubtit
.Ithinkthi
spersonjustwant
sme
tobemiserabl
eorsomet hi
ng.Heorshehasn’t
sai
dordoneany thingeversinceImovedoutof
myhome
Her:
sothi
spersonwant
syouguy
stobeapar
t?
That
’schi
l
dishandst
upi
dthou
Me:i
tmakesnosensebutt
hat’
stheonlyl
ogic
wecoul
dcomeupwi t
h.Si
yathi
nksthi
sperson
pr
obabl
ywantsoneofus
ShelaughedandsodidI.t
hisi
showcopsmust
feel
whent heycan’
tcr
ackacase.Myheadf
elt
l
i
kei twasgoi
ngtoexplodewit
htheendl
ess
t
hinkingf
rom t
hewholemakingupofscenar
ios.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Mel oandIar egood.I t’
sbeenamont hnow
sincet hesplit.Lif
ehasbeengoodIguess…ok
i
tsgoodbecauseIhav ethi
ssuddengl owonmy
skinwhi chI’m notcompl ai
ningf orofcause,
Mel oisasweet hear t
,verycli
ngyandasofl ate
I’
vebeenget ti
ngv eryhornyIev enboughta
vibrator#hides.Agi rl
hasneedskal okuandI
hav en’thadanyev ersinceThomasandhewas
notenough, Imeannoonecomescl oset oMelo
asI ’
vest r
essedbef ore.Yes,Thomasi spacked
andheknowswhathe’ sdoingbutIwi l
lalways
chooseMel oov erhim anyday .Melo’ssizeis
perfectifsuchat hingexists.Iwasgoi ngout
forlunchwi thLedi andAnita,i
t’srareforLedito
bei nJobur g.
Si
no:
bri
ngmesomet
hingni
cepl
ease
Si
nol
iv
edwit
hmei nmyhousewhi
leMeloandI
ar
edoi
ngwhatev
erthi
siswear
edoing
Me:
don’
tIal
way
s
Her:
andt
hist
imewenotshar
ingi
t!I
tsmi
ne
al
one
She’
sbeingdramati
c.Justbecausethelast
ti
meIboughtuslunchweat eherfoodtogether
eventhoughIhadal
readyeateninmymeet ing.
Me:youmakei
tsoundl
i
keIal
way
seaty
our
st
uff
Her
:youdoingt
omewhatgi
rl
fr
iendsdot
othei
r
boy
fri
ends
Shesai
drol
l
ingherey
es
Me:
bye!
Isai
dwal ki
ngoutlaughi
ng.Il
ovedmyl i
tt
le
si
stershame.Thet wi
nsandIdidn’
thavemuch
ofarelat
ionshi
pli
keIdidwithSi
no,Icanbarel
y
eventel
lthem apar tbutallIknowisthatthe
chatt
yonecal l
smewhenhewant ssomet hing
andthequi etone.Wedon’ ttalkatal
lunlessit
s
schoolr
elat edstuf
f.Iparkedmycarandgotof f
andwenti nside.Anit
awassi t
ti
ngpressi
ngher
phone
Me:
heysexymami
Shechuckl
edandgotupt
ohugme.
Her
:howar
eyou.Gody
oul
ookgor
geous
Shewashol dingmeatar m’slengthjustl
ooking
atme.Ifoundmy selfblushi
ng,she’snotthe
fi
rstper
sont ocompl imentmet oday .Fr
om
whenIwalkedi nthehost essshower edmewi th
acompliment .IguessIwast hewayYandi swa
Bessshouldlook.Wet ookourseats
Her
:youandMel
obeenbusynagi
rl
?
Ichuckl
ed.HowIwi
sh
Me:wishfult
hinki
ng.Wehaven’
thadanysi
nce
f
oreverbabe.SowhathaveImissed?
Shechuckl
edf
ir
st
Me:
Iwonder
Her
:notmynewst
otel
l
Me:
don’
tbel
i
ket
hatnowNi
ta
Her
:it
’snotmynewst
otel
lmos
JustthenLedi wal
kedinandIgotupt ohugher.
Wewer emakingsomuchnoi seoneofthe
waiter
scamet oaskustot urnitdownalit
tl
e.
Wet ookourseatsapologizing.Feel
sli
keI
haven’tseenherinagesthisone
Ledi
:youl
ookgood.Yougl
owi
ng
Me:
thanks
Ni
ta:
seewhatImean
Ledi
:ar
ey ouget
ti
ngsome?YougotaBen10
youai
nttell
i
ngusabout
?
Me:me?aBen10?HayiLedi
don’
tbedramat
ic.
I
t’
sbeensol
ongI’
m sur
eIhavespi
derwebsup
i
nther
e
Theybothjustl
aughedatmeandIendedup
l
aughingtoo.Ourdri
nksfi
nal
l
ycame
Me:isthata?Noway ?When?WhywasInot
t
old?Ihateyou.Letmesee
Iwassoexci t
edIwasev enscreami
ng.Ididn’
t
evencareaboutthewhitepeoplegi
vingme
dir
tylooks.MyBESTFRIENDwasengagedt o
bemar ri
edtohersweetheartwhom she’
sbeen
seeingsincel
astyear
Ledi
:dudecal
m down
Me:
scr
ewt
hat
.Dude!Yousai
dyes
Her
:duh!Asshol
etookhi
sti
me
Me:
you’
veonl
ybeent
oget
herf
oray
earchi
l
l
Nit
a:y
ouknowourgi
rlher
e.Mosti
mpat
ient
per
sonther
eis.
Me:fr
iendit
’ssobeaut
if
ul.Whenar
ewe
cel
ebr
ating?
Iwasr
emi
ndedofat
imeIwasonceasexci
ted
asshei snowaf terMel ohadpoppedt he
questiontome.Shet oldusabouthowhe
proposedandwher eandj usteveryli
ttl
edet ail
.
Niggapr oposedt oherwhi letheywer ehav i
nga
normal dinnerlastnight .Saystheguywasl ike
“soI’v
ebeent hinki
ng.Youknowhowal ly our
fri
end’saremar ri
edandy out heonlyonet hat ’
s
not.Howabouty oujoint heclubandbemy
wife”knowi ngThabo, t
hatguypr obablydi d
proposet oherl i
kethat .Hecr aziert
hant he
wor dcrazy.Af t
ermyl unchwi ththegirls.Lat er
onIcookedandt henshower edandl ookedsexy
asHel landt hencalledMel o.
//
Him:canIcometomor
rowi
nst
ead.I
’
m
swampedwithwor
k
Me:
buty
oual
way
scheckuponme
Hi
m:Iknowbabe.AndIpr
omi
sey
ouI
’
llcome
f
ir
stt
hingt
omorrow
Me:
youknowwhat
.It
sok!
Hi
m:Hai
boY…/
/
Idroppedt hecal lonhi m andpour edmy self
somechampagnef rom t hedi nnert ableIhad
setup.Youguy sdon’ tunder stand, wheny ou
wantsome, youj ustwantsomeandf oryour
HUSBANDt odepr iv
ey oul i
ket hat?I taintfai
r!
Hekeptcal l
ingandIkeptr ejecti
ng.Iwas
sli
ghtlymadathi m andIal sodi dn’ twantt otal
k
tohim any mor e.Af terf i
nishingmynone
alcoholicgl assofchampagne( I
’vebeenl ivi
ng
thissoberl ifeev ersi ncet hei ncidentof
sleepingwi t
hThomas)Iwentt or insei tand
thencamebackandst artedcl earingt hetable.
AsIwaspacki ngawayt hel astlunchboxi nmy
fri
dget hedooropenedandMel owal kedin
wear i
ngsweat pant sandt -shirtwi t
hpushi ns
whi l
eIst oodt herewear ingmybl ackl ace
mat chingunder wearwi t
haseet hr oughgown.
Hewast alkingwhenhewal kedi nbutst opped
themi nut ehel aidey esonme.Ihadmybackt o
him.
Me:
Ithoughty
ouwer
eswamped
Hi
m:Yay
awhat
’sgoi
ngon?
Me:nothi
ng.Iwasget
ti
ngr
eadyt
ogoshower
andthensl
eep
Hechuckledtohimsel
f.Hecoul
dn’tevenlook
meint heeyesthewayhewassohor ny.Yes,
I
havethatef
fectandIsti
l
ldo.hi
sjawwasont he
fl
oor.
Hi
m:y
oucan’
tdot
hist
ome
Me:
dowhat
?
Hi
m:t
his.Lookaty
ouYandi
swa
Me:
Idon’
tunder
stand
Him:Iwantt
otakey
ouont
hiscount
err
ight
now
Ifoundmyselfbl
ushi
ng.I’
vebeencr avi
ngto
hearthatf
rom hi
m.GODDamnt hisman.His
manhoodwasst rai
ghtup,vi
sibleonhis
sweatpant
stoo.Myguessi sthathegothome
andshoweredthenworehissweat pantswit
ha
t-
shir
tandgotbusy.Hehadat endencyofdoi
ng
thatbutstoppedwhenYasycamei nt
othe
pict
ure,whenshestartedwal
kingbecauseYasy
usedtohol dontoanyoneinherreachandpull
ontheirclot
hestostandup.Myey eswere
l
iter
all
yfixedonhispants,
Iheardhim chuckl
e
Me:
ByeMel
o
Iwal
kedt
othepassageandhegrabbedmeand
pi
nnedmetothewallwi
thhi
shandonmyass
ti
ght
ly
Hi
m:y
oucan’
tpuni
shmel
i
ket
his
Me:
li
kewhat
Hesmell
edsogood.Hel ookedsosexywithhi
s
bl
ackhairthathadgrownandwasal i
ttl
ewet
andcur
lyish.Iwassot ur
nedon.Hekissedmy
neckmakingmywhol ebodyshiver
,Il
etouta
moanandhechuckl edpleasedwit
hhimself
Hi
m:IseeIst
il
lhav
eanef
fect
Me:
Idon’
twantanyf
orepl
ay.Iwanty
ou
Isai
drubbi
nghi
m ov
erhi
ssweat
pant
sandmy
manwast ednotime.Idon’ tknowhowhe
ri
ppedmyunder wearof fbuthedi dandhe
i
nser tedhi msel
fwithoutwar ningwi thhisface
buriedinneck.Iscr eamedi npl easureandIf el
t
him smi l
ing.Wet ooki tupst ai
rsandj ust
screwedeachot her’sbr ai
nsoutunt il3am and
wej ustsleptont hefloorl i
kethatnakedwi tha
fl
eeceov erus.West il
l hadaconnect ion.The
whol eincidentdi
dn’tchangewhatheandIhad,
i
twasl i
kemymemor ywaswi pedofi tal
land
thef eel
ings/sparkthatwasoncet herehad
ret
ur ned.
[12/16,16:58]Wadz:Fi
rstt hi
ngsfir
st,
rememberIt ol
dyouguy sIdonthav eaphone
afterIgotmuggedi nOct ober.WellI
'
m stil
l
usingacr appyphoneev ennowandsomet i
mes
i
tdoesntev enwanttoswi t
chonandt henI'
m
l
ef tunabletopostatal
l.Sopl easebarewith
meunt i
lIgetabett
erphone. .
.dontknowwhen
thatwillbe.
.
.
*
WITHPAI
NCOMESLOVE*
.
.
S03E39
***“
…Hermi nd’swi deopenbutmyey eswi de
shut.Bli
ndswi deopenbutt hesunsst i
l
l t
haft.
Trynaputitinbef oret hi
sgirlwakesup.Cause
whenshewakesupshej usttalkstoomuch.
Fall
ing,whataf eeling.Wheny oudivi
ngi ntome
theoney oulove.Fal li
ng,it
’snotwhatI ’
m doing.
Seegi r
lmymi nd’ swi deopenbutmyey eswide
shut.GimmewhatI ’m aski
ngf or.Ij
ustwant
yoursex……don’ ttalkbackgirl gi
mmet hatsex.
Yourbody …”**
*
-
Yay
a
IwokeupwhenIfeltMelo’st
onguedoingt
he
thi
ngsi
tdoesbestdownt her
e.Icoul
dgetused
towaki
ngupli
kethis.GOODGODt hi
sman
knewhowt ouset hattongueofhis.Don’tj
udge
mewehav en’ti
nav er
ylongtime.Lastnight
ther
ewasZEROf orepl
ay .Imoanedinvol
untary
andIcouldf eel
him smi l
ingandhet ookthatas
aninvi
tati
ont ogoi ndeeperwithhistongueand
fi
ngertoo.
Me:
Mel
opl
ease
Myv oi
cewasf ai
li
ngmedismall
y.Iwasonmy
thi
rdorgasm bui
ldupandt
hismanbet weenmy
l
egswasr efusi
ngtogiv
emet hesati
sfact
ionof
rel
easi
ng.Hishandsweremassagingmyboobs
sogood
Hi
m:pat
ience
Hesaidi nthatvoiceofhis.Hecameupt okiss
mewhi leinsert
inghimself.Idon’
tthi
nkI ’
dever
real
lygetusedt othisguy’sshaft
,heisbigand
l
engthtoo.wedi dthethi
ngsadultsdoandt hen
webot hcame.Hedi dn’
tfuckmet histime
around,hemadel ovetome…sweetl onglov
e
making.Mywor dwher edidIgetthi
sguy ?He
l
ookeddeepi
ntomyl
azyey
eswi
thhi
ssexyl
azy
eyes.
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouYandi
swa
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooMel
okuhl
e
Andnot hatwasnott hesextalki
ng…ormay be
i
ttoobutInev erstoppedlov i
ngthi sguy.Idon’
t
evenseemy selflovi
nghi m anylesst hanIdo
now.hewasst i
l
linsideandIcoul df eelour
j
uicescombi nedleavingmybody .Myhands
wereresti
ngonhi shai r
yassandj ustplayi
ng
witht
hehai r
.Hesmi ledandgotof fme
Hi
m:wor
ktoday
?
Ishookmyhead.
Me:
can’
twej
ustst
ayl
i
ket
hisal
lday
?
Hi
m:y
ouknowIwoul
dlov
ethatbu…
Ij
ustturnedandfacedt
heot
hersi
de.Iknew
wherethiswasgoing
Me:
itsf
iney
ouhav
eal
otofwor
ktodo.I
under
stand
Deepdowni nsidemyhear twascr ushed.It
l
iteral
lysankt omyst omachandi thurtreall
y
bad.It houghtthatmaybeaftert
hiswewoul d
talkabouthim comi ngbackhomebutwhowas
Ikiddi
ng?Whowoul dwanttocomebackt oa
cheatingwi f
ereall
y?Heputhi shandonmy
shoulderandbr ushedit
Him:noy oudon’ tunderst
and.Thisisnotev en
aboutwor k.Yayawedon’ tevenknowwhet her
ornotyousaf eandwewon’ tknowunt i
lwe
knowforsur ethatthispsychoisoutoftheway .
Hehasn’tdoneany t
hingeversincewest opped
l
ivi
ngtoget herandy ouareverymuchsaf enow
andIdon’twantt oputy ouatanyrisk
Ikeptquiet.He’
sr easoni
ngmadesensebut
mnaI ’
mt ir
edoft hiswholeli
vi
ngseparately
thi
ng.It
’snotwor kingformeespecial
lynow
thatIgotat ast
eoft hereal
thing.Hekissedmy
neckandcuppedmysex .
Me:youhav
etogett
owor
kandsodoI
.you’
l
l
seey
oursel
fout
Isaidafterr
emovinghishandonmycooki eand
thengotupt oshower.Igoti nthewaterand
j
ustcried.Whatisgoingonher e?Whoi s
messingwi t
hourliv
esliket hi
ssucht hatIcan’t
evenli
v ewit
hmyownHUSBAND?If elthis
armswr aparoundme.Idi dn’tevenhearhi m
comei nbecauseIwassol ostinthese
thoughtsandthepainIwasf eeli
ng.Hej ust
huggedme.
Him:ev
ery
thi
ngi
sgoi
ngt
obef
ineSt
handwa
sam
Ij
ustcr
iedev
enmor
e.
Me:
Ihat
ethi
sMel
o.Ir
eal
l
yhat
ethi
s
Him:Iknow.Imissy
out oosobad.Assoonas
thi
ngscheckoutwe’
llbebackt
ogether
.Iwil
lbe
backhome
Idi
dn’
trespond.Idon’
tknowmahn,
Ijusthat
e
thewaythingshavetobebetweenus.Il ove
thi
smansomuchandIpr ayt
hatGodseesus
thr
oughthis.heremovedmef rom hischest
andthenheheldmeatar m’slength.Iwas
l
ookingdownandher aisedmyf aceupwi thhi
s
i
ndexfinger
Hi
m:Ilov
eyou.Il
oveyousomuchandi
tpai
ns
metoseeyoul
ikethi
s
Me:
I’
mfi
ne.I
’
llbef
ine
Heki
ssedmyf or
eheadandl
ookedatme.Iwas
nowl
ookingupathim.
Hi
m:buty
ousoador
abl
e
If
oundmy
sel
fbl
ushi
ng
Hi
m:ourdaught
erwasgoi
ngt
ogr
owupand
l
ookj
ustl
ikeyou
Me:Idi
dn’tl
ooklikeherwhenIwasababy
t
hough.Yasylookedlikeyoursi
ster
.The
r
esemblancewasr evolt
ing
Webot
hlaughed.Thi
sist
hef
ir
stt
imewe’
ve
ev
erspokenl
i
ket
hisaboutYasmi
n
Hi
m:Imi
sshersomuch.
Me:
Iknowbaby
.Imi
sshert
oo
Him:
doy outhi
nkwe’
llev
ercompl
etel
yheal
?Do
yout
hinkthepai
nget
sbetter
?
Me: wit
ht i
meitdoes.Wej ustneedtofind
comf or
tinknowingthatshe’sinamuchbet t
er
pl
acenow.Ut hixoakathat
hi angashi
yi(
TheLord
nevertakesandnotleavesomet hingbehi
nd)
Hi
m:Yay
aI’
m soso…
Me:it
’snoty
ourfaul
t.Wecan’tchangeFat
e.I
f
i
twasmeantt ohappent
henitwasgoi ngt
o
happenonewayortheother
.
Helookedatmeandj ustsmil
edandIcoul
dn’
t
hel
pbutsmiletoo.Yasminhadherfat
her
’s
char
mingsmile.Thatsmil
ethatcoul
dgether
outofanyki
ndoft r
ouble.
Hi
m:whatar
eyout
hinki
ng?
Me:
thatourdaught
erl
ookednot
hingl
i
keme
Hechuckl
ed.
Hi
m:t
hat
’snott
ruehai
bo.Youev
ensul
ki
ng
Me:
I’
m notsul
ki
ng.Shutup
Hi
m:andshe’sback.Iwi
shweIcoul
dst
ayher
e
wi
thy
ourightnow
Me:
Ihav
eani
dea…
Hi
m:t
hatsmi
l
e…shoul
dIbewor
ri
ed?
Me:
let
ssneakar
oundl
iket
eenager
s.Meetat
t
hehot
elandhav
efun
Him:butscr
ewingmywi
fei
nsomehot
elngat
hi
she’
sanescort
Me:Iknowbutwedon’
thavet
olookati
tthat
way
.It’
stheonl
ywaytonotal
armthi
sperson
Hi
m:y
ougeni
usy
ouknowt
hat
Me:
yeaht
hat
’swhyy
oumar
ri
edmedummy
Het
ickl
edmeandIst
art
edl
aughi
ng
uncont
rol
l
abl
y
Me:
pleasest
op
Isai
dst i
ll
laughing.Thesidesofmyst omach
wereevenpai nfulfr
om thelaughingandthe
ti
ckl
ing.Idon’tknowbutwej ustendedup
havi
ngsomei nt heshowerandt henwashing
andgoingt owor k.Onthewayt owor kwewere
chat
tingviaaphonecal l.
/
/Hi
m:seey
oudur
ingl
unch?
Me:
I’
m st
il
lsor
efr
om t
hismor
ning
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:st
opbei
ngacr
ybaby
Me:
don’
tst
artwi
thmeMel
okuhl
eBess
Hi
m:Ij
ustgott
owor
k.Il
ovey
ouok
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
e//
Iwal
kedinandmingl
edwi t
hsomeofmy
cust
omersandthengotsomereport
sand
someaccount
ingdone.Aft
erworkIdrov
etoa
hot
elandbookedaroom t
henwenthomet o
wearsexyl
i
ngeri
e.Onmywayoutoft hegat
eI
bumpedacarwhil
erever
sing.Igotout.
Hi
m:I
’
m sosor
ry
Il
ookedatthedentonmycarandi
twasn’
tbad
andnei
therwashis.
Me:
noi
tsf
ine
Hi
m: y
ouYandi
swaBess.Wemetatt
hehot
el
t
hatday
Me:
ohJohn.I
’
m sor
ryabouty
ourcar
Him: noI
’mtheonewhowast alkingonthe
phonewhenIshouldhavebeenl ooki
ngatthe
road.CanIt
akeyournumberinsteadandwe’ll
tal
konhowt ogoaboutthi
s?
Me:nothatwon’
tbenecessar
ybecausethe
denti
snotbad.Myhusbandwill
haveitf
ixed
Hi
m:ofcausey
oumar
ri
ed
Me:
any
way
.I’
m sor
ryabouty
ourcar
Hi
m:I
’
m sor
ryabouty
our
s.Iwi
l
lseey
ouar
ound
Hesaidwalki
ngtohiscarseemi
ngl
y
di
sappoi
nted.Igoti
ntomineandmyphonewas
ri
ngi
ng.
/
/Me:
Mel
okuhl
e
Hi
m:Yandi
swa
Me:
Iwasbabej
ustt
hismor
ning
Him:It
houghtwewer
ecal
l
ingeachot
her
’sf
ull
names…
Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
Hi
m:I
tsonl
ynowt
hatI
’
mleav
ingwor
k
Me:andit
sonl
ynowt
hatI
’
mleav
inghome.had
at
inyacci
dent
Hi
m:whatdoy
oumean?
Me:
bumpedintothi
scar
.Wel
lhebumpedi
nto
mebuti
t’
snothi
ngmajor
Hi
m:Whatdoy
oumeani
t’
snot
hingmaj
or?
Me:
it’
sjustal
i
ttl
escr
atchbabecal
m down
Hi
m:noYandi
swa
Me:Melo.I
’
mfine,
thecari
stheonescr
atched
andnotme.Meetyouatt
hehotel
Hi
m:eyf
ine
Me:
thanky
ou/
/
Idroppedthecallbefor
ehef ussedsomemor e.
Thismanwassomet hi
ngelseIswear,theway
hepanicswast hemostador ablethi
ngIhave
everexper
ienced.AsIwasdr ivi
ngIgotacall
fr
om anunknownnumber .Iwashesi t
antto
answerbutIanswer edanyway
/
/Me:
hel
l
o
Per
son:
Yandi
swa
Me:
uhhhm…whoam Ispeaki
ngt
o?
Hi
m:soy
oudon’
tknowmenow?
Itr
iedt
othi
nkofwhetherornotI
’
drecogni
se
thevoi
cebutst
il
lnot
hing
Me:
I’
m sor
ryI
’
m bl
ank
Hi
m:soy
oust
il
lwi
thhi
m ev
enaf
terev
ery
thi
ng?
!
Me: uhhm niggayou’
ll
havetobealit
tl
emore
specifi
c.Icanalwaysdropt
hiscal
lonyou
Hi
m:andI
’
llj
ustkeepcal
l
ing
Me:
whoi
sthi
s?
Him:youreal
lydon’
tknowme?hasitreal
ly
beenthatl
ong?Hashescrewedyoursenses
thatmuchthatyoudon’
tevenr
ememberme?
Me: Iwoul
dn’
tbeaski
ngwhoyouar
eifIhad
yournumberstor
edonmyphone
Hi
m:don’
tpl
aysmar
twi
thmeYandi
swaGxaba
Me:
itsBessnow
Him:yeahIknow.Ist i
l
lcan’tbel
i
evey ou
marri
edhim.Af t
ereveryt
hinghe’sputyou
thr
ough.Afterever
ythi
nghehasdonet oyou
andtoinnocentpeople
Me:
innocentpeopl
e?
Him:yesi
nnocentpeopl
e.Thatguyofy
our
sis
nott
hesaintever
yonethi
nksheis
Me:
whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Him: Yandi
swahecheat edony ouri
ghtaft
er
youtwol ostyourchil
dandher eyouaresti
ll
withhim.Whatwi lli
ttakeforyoutoleavehim?
him beinginacoffinbecausethat’
swhatwi l
l
happeni fyoudon’tst
opt hi
sfooli
shnessyou
doing
Me:
huh?
Him:youalreadylostyourdaughterbecauseof
hi
m.her apedy ouandy ousti
llwithhi
m.he
sl
eptwit
hahoeandher eyouarest i
llwi
thhim
Yandi
swa.Whatt hef uckwil
littake?
Me:l
ookIdon’tknowwhothehel
lyouar
ebut
pl
easedon’
tcallmeagai
n
Hi
m: t
hemorey
oust
aywi
thhi
mthemor
eyour
l
if
eisatr
isk
Ikeptqui
et.
Hi
m:thatcardentwasj
ustt
hebegi
nni
ngof
what
’stocome
Me:
arey
out
hreat
eni
ngme?
Hi
m: nohoneyIcar
etoodamnmuchabouty
ou.
I
’mjustwarni
ngyouthat
’sal
l
Me:
youcl
ear
lydon’
tknowwhoy
out
alki
ngt
o
Him:andy oudon’
tknowwhoy outal
kingto.I
’m
notscaredofyouoryourhusbandorevenyour
fat
herinlaw//
Ididn’trespondandnei t
herdidhe.Thenext
thingt hecallwascut .Ij
ustopenedt hegat e
usingt heremot eanddr ovebacki nsi
det hey ar
d.
Whatwashappeni ngt ous?Whowast hi
s
per sonandwhywer etheythr
eateningmet o
stayawayf rom myhusband?I t’
snotf airthatI
hav etolivelikethis.Ijustpar
kedmycarand
star t
edcrying…i fwhy ?Ialsohavenoi deabuti t
feltgoodt ocr y.Atleastthelumponmyt hr
oat
woul dgoawayi fIjustsatandcried.Idon’ t
knowhowl ongIhadbeensi t
ti
ngi nmycar
cry
ingunti
lIheardaknockonthewindow
whichstar
tl
edme.Iroll
editdownanditwas
oneoftheguards.
Hi
m:Ma’
am ar
eyouok?
Me:
uhhm y
esI
’
mfi
ne.
Hi
m:MrBesswasaski
ngabouty
ou
Itookmyphoneont hepassengerseatand
l
ookedatthescreenandIhadadozenmi ssed
call
sfr
om Melo.Seemsli
keIhadbeencr ying
foranhournow.
Me:
I’
ll
cal
lhi
m now.t
hanky
ou
Hi
m:sur
ethi
ngma’
am
Igotoutandt ookmyt hi
ngslocki
ngmycarand
walki
ngintomyhouse.Thi swholesobriet
y
thi
ngwaspai nfulforme.NowI ’
dberelaxi
ng
withaglassofwi neorchampagneandj ust
taki
ngabr eat
her.Ifiguredletmecall
Ledi and
askhertocomeov erwi thmygirl
s.
.
.
<3
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16,
17:
00]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E40
***“…ifIbeggedandi fIcri
edwoul ditchange
theskyt onight?Woul ditgivemesomel ight?
Shoul dIwaitfory outocal l
?Isthereanyhope
atall?Iaintdrift
ingby ….
.Itri
edt oreachyou.I
canal mostf eelyouy ounearlyhereandt hen
youdi sappeared….Iseey ourfaceIheary our
voice;myhear tstaysfai
thful
.Andt imehas
comeandt imehaspassed, i
fit’
sgoodi t
’sgot
tolastItfeelssor ight
…”***
-
Mel
o
Oneminut
eYay ai
smeetingmeatthehoteland
t
henthenextshe’
snotanswer
ingherphone.
What ’
saniggasupposedt ot hi
nk?Ireal
ly
thoughtwewer ef i
xi
ngusbutwi thYandiswa
youcannev erbet oocert
ain.It
riedcal
li
ngher
butshewasn’ tbudgingandwhenIspoket o
Asemahleshet oldmet hatsheandt hegir
ls
werehavingasl eepoveratmyhousesoIasked
hertogiveYay athephoneandshedi d.
/
/Her
:hel
l
o
Me:
arey
oudr
unk?
Her
:may
be
Shegi
ggl
ed
Her
:notr
eal
l
ydr
unkbae,
justhi
gh
Shegi
ggledagai
n.Icoul
dn’
thel
pbutl
augh.She
waswhisper
ing
Me:
whyar
eyouwhi
sper
ing?
Her:
sothatt
hemy st
eryguydoesn’
thearus
t
alki
ng.Hehasey
esandear sever
ywhere
Me:
Yay
awhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
IsweartoGodshewashal
l
ucinat
ing.My
ster
y
guy?Reall
y?Whowasshetal
ki
ngabout?
Me:
Yay
a
Her
:yes
Me:
I’
m comi
ngov
er
Her
:NO.pl
easedon’
tcomeov
er
Me:
why
?
Her
:Idon’
twanty
out
odi
ebecauseofme
Me:
younotmaki
ngsenseYay
a
Her
:Melopl
easej
ustdon’
tcomeov
er.Ican’
t
l
oseyoutoo
Iwasreal
l
yconfusedandshesoundedr
eal
l
y
scar
edandshaken.Whatwasgoingon?
Me:
Yandi
swawhat
’sgoi
ngon?
Shejuststart
edcryi
ng.HowcanInotwor
ry
whenshedoest his?HowdoIstopmysel
ffr
om
dri
vi
ngst r
aightt
ohernow?
Her
:hesaidthatthemoreIstaywithy
outhe
moremylif
eisatr i
sk.Hesaidhe’
snotscared
ofy
ouoryourf at
herMelo.I
fy oul
ovemet he
wayyousayyoudo, you’
l
lstayawayfr
om me
Nothingaboutwhatshewassay ingmadeany
sensetome.nowIdi dn’
twantt otakethe
thr
eatli
ghtl
ybecausebasedonwhat ’
s
happenedupuntilnowIwasr eall
yinno
posit
iontotaket
hreatsl
ightl
y.Sothisguy
wantsYandiswa?IfI’
vegather
edev ery
thi
ng
corr
ectly
.
Me:
nowt
hat
’snotf
air
Her:
pleaseMel
o.Pl
easej
ustst
ayawayf
or
once
Me:
Iwi
l
lgett
othebot
tom oft
his.Ipr
omi
se
Her:I
’mjustscar
edMelo.I
’
mr eal
l
yscar
ed.He
soundedseri
ousandnotsomeoneyouwoul
d
wanttomesswi t
h
Me:
sendmet
hisguy
’scont
actdet
ail
s
Her
:hewascal
l
ingmewi
thapr
ivat
enumber
Me:
Yay
a
Her
:yes
Me:hecal
l
edy
ouont
hephoneIr
ecent
lygot
you?
Her
:yes.Why
?
Me:Isor
tofhaveaconf
essi
ont
omake.
Pr
omisemey ouwon’
tbemad
Her
:unti
lIknowwhatI
’
m pr
omi
singt
o,Imake
nopromi
ses
Me:
babepl
ease
Her
:tal
kMel
okuhl
e
Me:Ihadyourphoneinst
all
edat
rackeranda
bugthatr
ecordsphonecall
s
Her
:youdi
dwhat
?
Me:
justhearmeout
Her
:NoMel
okuhl
eyou’
vecr
ossedt
hel
i
net
his
ti
mear ound.Whyt hehell
woul
dy oudothatt
o
me?doy oureal
lynottr
ustmethatmuchthat
youwoul dspyonmeandkeept absonme.
monitormyphone.Whatel sei
sont hi
sphone
thatIdon’tknowabouthuh?Whataboutthe
house?Doesi thaveanybugsorcamerasI
shouldknowabout ?
Me:
cany
oupl
easej
ustl
etmeexpl
ain.
Her
:tal
k
Me: Eversincet hisper sonwhoev erthisguyi s
camei ntothepi ctureI’v ehadbot hourphones
moni t
oredf orsaf etypur poses.Thel aststraw
waswheny our eceivedav i
deoofmeandt hat
gir
l.Banelet hensuggest edt hatwehav ebot h
ourphonesmoni toredi ncaset hi
sper sont r
ies
tocontactanyofus.NowIknewt hattheonl y
wayIwoul dbeabl etodot hi
swasi fsomet hing
happenedt oy ourphoneandy ouneededanew
onebecausey ouv eryinquisiti
ve.Mebr eaki
ng
yourphonewasn’ tplanned, Iwasj ustpissed
butthatgavemeanexcusetoalsogetyour
phonebugged.Whoeverthi
sguythatcal
ledyou
i
s,wewi ll
knowwhohei sbytomorrowso
pl
easedon’ tpani
c
Shekeptquietf
orsometi
meprobabl
ydigest
ing
whatIhadjustsai
dtoher
.Whocouldbl
ame
hert
hough?
Her
:sobyt
omorr
owwewi l
lknowwhot
his
per
soni
sandwheret
heyar
e?
Me:
hopef
ull
y
Her:
andthenyour
emovewhat
eversof
twar
eor
whatev
eryouhadi
nst
all
edonmyphone?
Me:
yes,
babe.Pl
easej
ustt
rustmeont
his
Her
:fi
ne.
Me:Ilov
ey ouokandIpromi
set
omaker
ightby
youforyouandYasmin
Her
:Iknow
Me:
goodni
ght
Her
:Il
ovey
ou/
/
Shedidn’
tevenwaitformyr esponsebef ore
droppi
ngthecal
lonme.WOAHt hi
sgirlreall
y
knewhowt odothethingstoani ggaey .Ireal
ly
wantedtomakethingsrightwi t
hher.Icall
ed
Baneleandsheansweredaf tersomet i
me
/
/Her
:canyouandyourwi
fej
ustgetback
t
oget
heral
ready
.Someofushavepeoplei
nour
l
i
ves
Me:Il
oveyoutoocuz.Sol
i
stentodaythi
s
cr
eepcal
ledherandthr
ewinsomet hr
eats
Her
:I’
l
lcheckherphoner
ecor
ds
Me:
nowpl
ease
Her:
don’
trushmeMel
okuhl
e.LookI
’
llkeepy
ou
post
ed
Me:
thanky
ousi
s.I
’
llpaywhat
ever
Her
:youmyfami
l
y.I
twoul
dbewr
ongofmet
o
makeyoupay
Me:
that
’sawesome.Thankssi
s
Her
:youwelcome.Justasl
ongasI
’
llf
inal
l
y
hav
eyouoffmyback
Ichuckl
edandsodi
dshe.
Me:
thanksB.
Her
:ni
ghtMel
o//
TrustBt oleav ey ouhangi nglikethat.Aftert
he
callwithherIt r
iedtosl eepbutIcoul dn’t
.A
whilelatermyphonebeepedandi twasan
audio.Ilist
enedandi twast heconv ersati
on
betweenYay aandt heguy .Shet oldmet hatshe
wasst il
lrunningt heguy ’sv oi
ceonsome
databaset hingyt of indamat ch.Howcan
someonedot his?I treall
ymadenosense.Di d
thi
sper sonwantar elati
onshipwi thYay aorto
makemesuf fer?Wasi tev enaboutme?what
wasi texact l
yandhowdi dheev enknowabout
therapei ssue?Ij usthopeBdi dn’tli
stentothe
wholeconv ersationorel sewor l
dwarI I
Iwasin
order.
.
.
-
Yay
a
It
’sbeenamont hsi ncet hephonecal lwiththis
strangerandashar dasi t’
sbeenbutMel owas
keepi nghi sdistance.Al itt
letoowel leven.I
wasatt heofficejustthinkingabouthi m
becauseev ersincet hatdayatni ghtheandI
hav en’tspokensi nceandi tsbot heri
ngme.I ’ve
beensi cktoo, buttodayorev ersincelastnight
I’
vebeenv omit i
ngandj ustnjenotokatal l.I
’ve
hadaf ev erthatwasn’ tgoingawayatal lno
mat terwhatIdi d.Sinowal kedi nonmei nthe
toi
letandIwasj ustsitt
ingdownneart het oi
let
seataf terhav i
ngpukedoutal lofmyl unch
Her
:youl
ookl
i
kehel
l
Me:
Ifeel
li
kehel
l
Her
:her
e’swat
er
Shehandedi
ttomeandIr
insedmymout
hfi
rst
bef
orespi
tt
ingi
toutandt
hendr
anki
tal
latone
go.
Her
:yousur
eit
’sj
ustast
omachbug?
Me:
yeahI
’
m sur
e
Her
:andt
he2weeks’
fev
er
Me:I’
vebeent
aki
ngsomemedsandI
’
m get
ti
ng
bet
ter
Inev ergetsi ckandev enwhenIdoi t’
snev er
thishectic.Myf l
uisy ourusual weekendf ever
typeoft hingandt hent hegi r
lisfinebutnott hi
s
ti
me.Thi st imear oundi tsbeent err
ibleandI
canbar elyev ensleepordownany t
hingwith
mi l
korany thingwithoilinitsothatmeansno
fri
esf ormeandwhat ev erIeathast ohav e
vinegarorl emoni nit.Asi nEVERYTHI NG!
Exceptf ordesser t…wel lsomedesser t
Her
:Icanbuyy
oul
emonj
uice
Me:pl
easeandmakemet hatt
eawi
thgi
nger
andgar
li
candlemons.Pl
ease
Her
:youwentf
rom dr
inki
nghotchocol
atet
o
t
hatnow
Me:ithel
pswit
hthef
lu.I
tsmakesitl
ess
t
err
ibleandIal
waysf
eelbet
teraf
terdr
inki
ngi
t
Her:
fine.I
fIdi
dn’tknowbet
ter
,Iwoul
dswear
youwerepregnant
Me:
andy
ouwoul
dknowr
ight
?
Her:Ihav
efr
iendsandI’
veseenthem go
t
hroughsomeoft het
hingsyouaregoing
t
hroughnow
Me:
thatt
eapl
ease
ThelastthingIwant edwast hepossibil
ityof
bei
ngpr egnant.Sinowasi maginingherown
thi
ngs;itwasn’tevenpossibleany waybecause
aft
erMi l
aIwentont hepill
soIwassaf e.I
walkedoutt omyof ficeandtri
edcal l
i
ngMel o
butwithnol uck.Whichwasst rangeofhi m.
LastnightIhadt hi
sdr eam t
hatsomet hingbad
hadhappenedt ohim andIwokeupandcal l
ed
him st
rai
ghtaf
tert
hedream andstil
lIdi
dn’tget
aresponseandeversi
ncethenI’
vejustbeen
pukingnonest
op.Icanbar
elystomachev en
thethi
ngsI’
vebeeneati
ngasoflate.Ical
led
Asemahle
/
/Her
:si
sii
n-l
aw
Me:
heyMahl
ehowar
eyou?
Her:
I’
m gr
eat.Letmeguess,y
ouwantmet
o
br
ingyouhotwingsandvi
negar
IchuckledbecausesheknewhowmuchIl oved
that.Iwouldalwaysrequestapacketofvi
negar
whenev erIbuymeatatKFCorChi ckenLicken’
,
don’tjudgeme.it’
sthebestthi
ngev er
!The
vinegarsubsidi
zestheoili
nthemeat .
Me:
nowt
haty
oument
ioni
tIwoul
dlov
ethat
Her
:somet
imesIsweart
oGody
oupr
egnant
Me: wi
shful
thinki
ng.Mahl
ehav
eyouspokent
o
yourbr
other?
Her
:notsi
ncey
est
erday
.Why
?
Me:
beentry
ingt
ocal
lhi
m si
ncel
astni
ghtbut
t
onoluck
Her:I
’
m surei
t’
snot
hing.He’
l
lpr
obabl
yget
backtoyou
Me:
Idon’
tknow.I
’
m wor
ri
edAsemahl
e
Her
:yeahy ourvoi
cesaysi
tall
.He’
llcal
lyou.I
’
ll
hav
ey ourstuf
fdeli
ver
edattheoff
ice
Me: pl
easehaveitdel
i
ver
edhome.Ican’t
stomachanythi
ngatthemoment
.Ithinkit
s
bestIgohome
Her
:okt
henI
’
llcomeov
ert
her
e
Me:
thanky
oul
over
.Yout
hebestsi
sii
n-l
aw
Her
:Iknow.By
e
Me:
bye/
/
Aftert
hecallwi
thAseIpackedmystuf
fand
prepar
edtoleave.WhenIgothomeIpar
kedmy
carandjustt
henoneoftheguardswal
kedover
tome.
Hi
m:Mr
sBess
Me:
hi.HowcanIhel
pyou?
Isai
dcoughi
ngonthet
issueIhadi
nmyhand.
Yes,t
hat
’showbadmyfluwas.
Him:ther
eisapoli
ceoffi
cerout
sideandhe
sayshewouldl
iketospeaktoyou
Me:
oh
Hi
m:shoul
dIl
ett
hem i
nMa’
am?
Me:
yeahsur
e.ThanksAnt
hony
Hi
m:nopr
obl
em Ma’
am
Hewal kedtothegateandIwal kedinsi
deand
putmybagsont hekitchencount erand
checkedmyphonef oranythingfrom Meloand
sti
l
lnothing.Isatonthehighchai rsadj
usti
ngi
t
enought oacomf or
tablelevel.Therewasa
knock
Me:
comei
n
Iy
ell
edandt
wocopswal
kedi
n.
Me:
hi
Them:
hel
l
o
Guy1:I’
m Of
fi
cerSi
khul
uandt
hisi
smypar
tner
Nyoko
Me:
nicet
omeety
ou.Yandi
swaBess
Sikhul
u:MrsBesswhenwast
hel
astt
imey
ou
spoketoyourhusband?
Me:
it’
sbeenamont
hnow
Theygav
emet hemostjudgment
alandwei
rd
l
ookonecoul
dev ergi
ve
Me:i
twassomethi
ngourther
apistsuggested
wedo.Weworki
ngonourmar r
iageandt hi
sis
j
ustoneoft
heexer
ciseswe’
vebeengi v
en
NowIliedbecauseIdon’
twantt
oputmy
busi
nessoutthere.
Me:
IfImayask,
what
’st
hisabout
?
Nyoko:yourhusband’
scarwasfounddeser
ted
i
nPr et
ori
aMr sBessjustt
hismorni
ng
.
.
<3
[12/
17,
12:
19]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E41
***“…thesef ourlonelywal lshavechangedt he
wayIf eel,thewayIf eel
, I’
m standingst i
ll
.
Not hingel semat tersnowy ou’
renother eso
wher ear ey ou?I’vebeencal li
ngyou.I ’
m
mi ssingy ou.Wher eelsecanIgo?Andwher e
el
secanIgo?Chasi ngy ou.Chasi ngy ou.
Memor i
est urntodustpl easedon’ tburyus,I
goty ou, Igoty ou.Runni ngr unni
ngr unning….
I’
mr unningf rom my selfnomor et ogetherwe
aintwai tedal l
…”***
-
Yay
a
WhenIwokeupIwasont hecouchinthe
l
oungeandthetwooffi
cer
saboveme.Ialmost
scr
eamedunti
lIrememberIpassedout.My
bodyhur
tal
mostl i
keIf
ell
.
Si
khul
u:Mr
s.Bessy
ouhadapr
ett
ynast
yfal
l
“
I’
m her
e”
ThatwasnodoubtAsemahl
e.Iknewherv
oice
al
ltoowel
l
Her:What’
sapol
i
cev
andoi
ngout
sideou…
uhhhm hel
lo.
Shesai
ddumbst
ruck
Them:
Hel
l
oMi
ss
Ase:
what
’sgoi
ngon?
Me:
youwer
esay
ingaboutMel
o?
Ase:
whataboutMel
o?
Theyl
ookedatmeandt
henatAse
Me:she’shissi
ster
.What
’sgoi
ngonwi
thmy
husband?Isheok?
Sikhul
u:Wej ustfoundhiscaronthesideoft
he
roadwithabr okenwindowandnoneofhi s
belongi
ngsini t
.Wet hi
nksomeoner obbedhi
m
andhepr obablymanagedt ogetaway
Me:ifhedi
dgetawayt
henhewoul
dbeher
e
r
ightnow.Whatar
eyounott
ell
i
ngme?
Sikhul
uthenextworstcasei
sthathemi
ght
havebeenkil
ledandhisbodydumped
el
sewhere
Ase:
excuseme?ifyout
hinkhe’
sdeadthen
whythehel
lar
en’
tyououtther
elooki
ngforhi
m?
Nyoko:
MissBessweunder
standyourconcer
n
butwefi
gur
edweshouldl
etyouknow
Me:andIappr
eci
atethatbutmyhusbandi
s
al
i
ve.ThatmuchIknow.Findhi
m
Nyoko:doyouhaveanypossi
blesuspect
s?No
onejustdi
sappear
s
Ase:
youdamnr
ightsol
ookf
orhi
m.
Si
khul
u:wewoul
dli
ket
oasky
ouaf
ew
quest
ionsMr
s.Bess
Ase:
why
?
Me:
why
?
Sikhulu:j
ustforsur
etyMrs.Bess,weof
tenhave
caseswher ethewifehassomet hi
ngt
odowi t
h
theirhusband’sdi
sappear
ance
Ichuckl
edi
ndi
sbel
i
efandsodi
dAsemahl
e
Ase:youcan’taskmysi st
eranyt
hingwi t
hout
herhavi
ngal awyerpresent
.Andluckyhershe
marri
edalawy erandIam adaught erofoneof
themostrespectedjudgesinthi
scountrysowe
knowherrights
Nyoko:i
fy ouhavenot
hingtohi
deMrs.Bess
t
henI’m sureafewquesti
onswoul
dn’thur
t
r
ight
Me:
getout
.
Si
khul
u:Mr
s.Besswej
ustdoi
ngourj
obs
Me:
myhusbandcoul
dbedeadandy
ouar
e
her
eaccusi
ngmeofhav i
ngsomethi
ngt
odo
wit
hhi
m disappear
ing.Ar
eyoufucki
ngwi
thme?
l
eavemyhouse
Ny
oko:
wewi
l
lbebackMr
s.Bess
Me:whenyoucomebackbr
ingmyhusband
wi
thyou.
Theywal kedout .Iwassopi ssedandsowas
Asemahl e.Howcoul dthesefoolseventhi
nk
thatIwouldhav eany thi
ngtodowi thmy
husbanddi sappearing?May bethat’
swhyI ’
ve
beensosi ck,may bemybodywast r
y i
ngtotel
l
met hatsomet hingbadhadhappenedt omy
betterhalf
.Igrabbedt hefoodf r
om thetabl
e
andst ar
tedeating.Asemahl elookedatme
Me:
what
?
Her
:wer
eyout
hathungr
y?
Me:li
keIsai
d.Ihav
en’
tbeenabl
etost
omach
any
thingt
oday
Her
:your
eal
l
ylov
ehi
m huh?
Me:
ist
hatev
enaquest
ion?
Her
:ofcausenot
.Iknowyoulovehi
m andy
ou
t
wohavesomekindofconnecti
on
Me: Asemahleisi
tweirdthatIhadadr
eam
abouthim,li
kesomethingbadhadhappenedto
him andthenthenextdayIhavecopstel
l
ing
met hatt
heyfoundhiscaront hesi
deofthe
road
Her:not
hing’swrongwi t
hthat.Itjustmeans
youcanfeel t
hethingsthathappent oyour
husband.Letmecal ldadandt ell
hi m what
’s
goingon.Ifanyonecanf i
ndhim, itsdad
Ijustnoddedandshewal kedoutt ocallher
fatherwhil
eIst uffedmy selfwit
hmywi ngs
that’
shadv inegaront hem.Godt heywer e
heav enl
y.I
tthendawnedonmet hatMel omi ght
bedeadorsomet hingandher eIwasst uffi
ng
my selfwit
hf ood.Ijustcr i
ed.Asemahl ewal ked
i
nandshej ustpulledmet oherar msandshe
criedwithme.Idon’ tknowwhat ’
swr ongwi th
mel
atel
y,Icryal
otandam anemot
ional
wreck.
Wehear
dSi y
a’sv
oice
Hi
m:somebodyex
plai
ntomepl
ease
Ani
taj
ustwal
kedupt
omeandpul
l
edmet
oher
ar
ms
Ase:
Mel
o’smi
ssi
ng
Si
ya:
yeahIgott
hatmuchf
rom y
oumessage.
How?When?
Ase:y
ouaskingme.t
hecopscamet
odayaf
ew
hour
s’back
Si
ya:
what
’suncl
esay
ing?
Ase:
say
she’
soni
t
Iwon’tli
eIwasf rustr
ated.Howdoesaper son
gomi ssi
ng?Anol dper sontobespecif
ic.
Whoev ertookhim knewv er
ywellthati
twoul d
scareme.Icouldn’thelpbutthi
nkthatcaller
hadsomet hingtodowi t
hmyhusbandmi ssi
ng.
NowIj ustneededt oknowwhatexact l
yitwas
thathewant edfr
om meorMel o.I
tcouldn’t
possi
blybecasht
hatmuchIknew.
.
.
-
Mel
o
SoYay aandIhav en’tseeneachot heri nli
kea
mont hnowandIwon’ tli
eit’sbeenhel lbutI’
m
respectingherandmaki ngsur et hatshe’ sdoing
greatatadi st
ance.Somyf ather ,Siya’sdad,
SiyaandIt houghtitwouldbebestt or attl
ethis
guyupandashar dasi twaswef inal l
ygott o
him becausehef i
nallymadeamov e.Weknow
whot heguyt hatcall
edwasandj ustwhenwe
thoughtwegothi m wer eachedwehi tadead
end.Iguesshe’ soneoft hoset haty ouf i
nd
whent heywanty outof i
ndhi m sowehadBanz
putat rackeronmei ncasehet riedsomet hi
ng
andluckymeorsadl ybutni ggadi dt ry
somet hingandher eIwasi nhisbasementor
whatev eritwas.Iwasdr ivi
ngar oundPr etori
a
whenmycarwasj ackedandt hisper sonmade
i
tapoi ntt ohi
tmer eal
lyhar dtoapointI
bl
ackedout .I
t’sbeent hreedaysnowsi nceI
l
asthadf oodorf el
tthesun' sheatonmyski n.I
haven'
tev enseent heguy '
sface.Hej ustcomes
i
nandr oughsmeupal i
ttl
eandthenl eave.I
t’s
beenhel l
.Todayhewal kedinwithoutamaskor
anythi
ngonhi sf ace.ItwassomeguyIhav e
nevermetbef ore.Ilookedupathi m andhehad
asmugonhi sface.
Hi
m:howdoesi
tfeel
tobeweak?
Me:
whoar
eyou?
Hi
m:howt
hemi
ght
yhav
efal
l
en
Me:
whoar
eyou?
Hechuckl
edt
hatannoy
ingev
ill
aughpeopl
ein
movi
esnormal
lymake.
Him:y
ouandYay
athoughty
oucoul
dpl
ayme
huh
Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:ohMelo.Howcanyouev
enaskmet
hat
?
I
sn'
ti
tobv
iouswhatIwant
?
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantf
rom us?
Hi
m:y
ouandwho?
Me:myf ami
ly
.Meandmywi fe.Youki
ll
edmy
daught
erandhernanny
.Wasn'tt
hatenough?
Hechuckl
ed.Il
ookedathi
m conf
used
Hi
m:youstil
ldon'
tgetitdoyou.Iwanty
out
o
l
oseever
ythi
ngjustl
ikeIdid
Il
ookedathi
m st
il
lconf
used.Whatwast
his
guytal
ki
ngabout
?
Me:andwhatdoesYay
anakedhav
etodowi
th
i
t?
Hi
m:shehasahotbody
.Duh!
Obviousl
y!I
t’
sthef
irstt
hingIev
ernoticed
aboutherbefor
eheramazingpersonali
ty.Just
ki
dding!
Me:
whygot
hroughal
loft
his?Whynotj
ustend
meonceandf
oral
l
?
Him: shetr
iedtoki
llher
selfbecauseofyouand
i
nsteadsheendedupnotabl etohaveany
chi
ldren.Becauseofyou.Youthenwentont o
ki
llher
Ital
lmadeal it
tl
ebitofsenseast owhohewas
tal
ki
ngabout .Hewast al
kingaboutMirandabut
Ineverdrov
ehert osuici
denordidImakeher
unabletohavekids.That
'sadecisionshetook
onherown.
Him:Iwant edy outohav eital
lsoyoucoul d
watchitallfall
apar t
.Youwer enevergoingto
behappy.Youki l
l
edherwi thoutaconscience.
Youdidn'tevenapol ogizetoherfamily
.I
wantedyout osufferthesamewayy oumade
meandherf ami l
ysufferBess
Me:yourproblem i
swithmeandnotYandiswa.
Pl
easejustleaveheroutofi
tbecauseshe
di
dn'
tdoany thingwrongher
e.
Hi
m:y
out
hink?Shef
ell
fory
ou.Mi
randawas
mygi r
lf
riendandthingsbetweenwer egoi
ng
goodunt il
youcamei ntothepictur
e.Yousee
yourwifehasev er
ybittodowi ththisasmuch
asy oudo.Iwaswi ll
i
ngt odropit,t
hatnightat
thehotelcauseIthoughtshehadl eftyoubut
whenIsawherwi thherbags.Iknewshewas
goingbackt oyou
Me:Iwrongedyou.Ikil
l
edyourgi
rl
fr
iendor
whatev
ershewast oyouandI'
m sorr
ybutit
wasanaccident
.Ididn'
tmeanfori
ttohappen
Him:adel
iberat
eaccident
.Shedidn'
tdo
anyt
hingt
oy ou.Shedidn'
tdeser
vetodi
e.
Me:
mydaught
erdi
dn'
tdeser
vet
odi
e!
Hechuckl
ed.Iwasannoyedandangryand
wantedt
ogetmyhandsonhi m butIcoul
dn'
t
getfr
eefr
om thecuf
fsonmywr ist
sbehindmy
back.
Him:nowshe,shewasjustcol
lat
eraldamage.
Thatacci
dentwasmeantforyourwif
e
Me:
younotgoi
ngt
ogetawaywi
tht
his
Him:youdon'tgeti
t.Ial
readyhav
e.Yousee
yourdaught
erisdead.Andsoony ourwi
fewi
ll
betoo
Me:justt
ell
mewhati
tisy
ouwantandy
oucan
hav
ei t
Him: atfirstIwant edhert oleav eyoubut
nothingy oudoi sev erenought omakeher
l
eav e.Idon' tgetit.Iwantedy out osufferand
feelthepai nIf el
twhenmysi sterl
efttocome
backt oy ou.Howshegav eital
l upjusttobe
withy ou.Youseey ou'vealwayshadi tyourway.
You'vealway shadt hisholdov erher.Shewas
will
ingtodi ei fshedi dn'
thav eyou.Hady our
wife..
.Girlfr
iendatt het i
menotbeeni nt heway
thenshewoul dhav ehady ouandy ouwoul d
haveherchi ldbynowbuty ou.Selfi
shDer ri
ck
Bessj usthadt oleadhert oherdeat h.
Me:pl
ease.I
'
m beggi
ngyou.Ki
llmeandjustl
et
Yay
abe.Yousayingshesuf
fer
edbecauseof
Yayabei
nginmyl i
feri
ght?Kill
meandletYay
a
betheonetosuff
er.LetYayagothr
oughthe
miser
yyoursi
sterwentthrough
Hekeptqui
etprobablythi
nki
ngaboutwhatI
wassuggesti
ng.I
'm alawyeraf
teral
l.Oneof
thet
hingswelearni
st ogetoutofpr
oblems.I
knowhowt otal
kmywayoutoft r
ouble
Him: soy ouwouldletyourwifediewit
h
depressionjustl
ikethat?Toloseherdaughter
andhusbandi nt
hesamey ear.
..I
nter
esti
ng.
ThenIwon' thavetokillher
,she'l
lj
ustdoit
herself
Hesmi l
edtohimselfpl
easedwit
hwhatIhad
suggest
ed.Atleastmywifewouldbesaf
efr
om
hi
m.Imeanti twhenIsaidIwoul
ddiebef
ore
l
etti
nganythi
nghappentoher.
Hi
m:I
'
llbeback
Hewalkedoutandlef
tmei nthedarkroom wit
h
not
hingbutmythoughts.Ikeptpr
ayi
ngthat
Yay
awassaf eandthatGodwaspr otect
ingher
wherevershewas.Icouldn'
tl
oseher.She
coul
dn'tdi
ebecauseofme.We' veal
readylost
ourdaughterbecauseofme,Ican'
tl
oseher
too.
..I
fIeven,makeitoutofher
eali
v e.
.
.
<3
[12/
17,
12:
21]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E42
***“
…Boy,you'
llbethedeat hofmeYoumake
mef eell
i
keI'm seventeen.You'
r emyJames
Dean..
..
.Butthatdon'tmeanat hingcauseI 'm
addict
edtother ush.CauseI'dratherdiey oung
thanli
vemyl i
fewi t
houty ouI'
dr athernotliveat
allt
hanmyl i
fewi t
houty ouCauseI '
dratherdie
youngthanli
vemyl i
fewi t
houty ouI'drathernot
l
i
veatal
lthanl
i
femyl
i
fewi
thouty
ou.
..
"**
*
-
Yay
a
Iwassi tt
ingi nourdaught er’
sempt yr oom just
thi
nkingaboutmyhusband.I ’
veal readyl ost
Yasmi n;Ican’ taffordt olosemyhusbandt oo.
JustasIwassi tt
ingliket hatprayingf orMel o’
s
safer eturnmyphonebeepedi ndicat i
nga
messagef rom ahi ddennumber .Iopenedt he
messageandi twasav ideoorMel oal l
beatup
youcoul dbar el ytell
whohewas.Att hat
momentIwi shedIcoul dpul lhimt omyar ms
andt ellhim ev erythi
ngwi l
lbeokandt hatwe
weregoi ngt ogett hrought his.Icoul dn’t
under standbecauseBanel etoldmeshehad
i
nsert edat r ackeronMel obutt heynev erfound
him andi t
’sbeent hr
eewhol eday snow.I nt he
endoft hev ideoZuko’ sf aceappear edandhe
spoke
Hi
m: NowYayaItr
iedever
ythi
ngtogetyout
o
l
eavehim.Ev
enthreat
enedyourl
i
fetoli
vehi
m
buty oual way sstay.YouseeJohnt hinksit
woul dbebesti fwel etyout akeyourownl if
e
butt hat ’
snotwhatIwant .IloveyouMaf aku
andIhav ealway slov edyoubuty ouchosehi m
ov erme.ov erus.Youst oodbyhi m ev enafter
ever ything.Ithoughtwi t
hMi laoutoftheway
youwoul dn’tfi
ndr easont ostaybutthe
Yandi swaIl ovehasal waysbeenst ubbornsoI
willgiv ey ouachoi cet omake.Youcanei t
her
bewi t
hmewi l
li
nglyorhedi es.Youhav e2
hour s.NowIdon’ texpecty outoinform anyone
oft hisorel sehewi l
l di
e.Yay ayouwer eso
closet oleav i
nghim.Idon’ tgetwhyy oustay ed
wit hhim.Il ov eyou.
Wi t
ht hatthevi
deoendedandacount down
start
ed.IknewZukowasapsy chobutt ogo
thisfar?Thatwasdr asti
cevenf orhim.How
wasIgoi ngt ogetawayf r
om theBesses
withoutthem askinganyquestions?Hi swhole
familywasher eandt her
ewasl iter
all
ynoway
out.Ev er
yonewassear chinghighandl ow.A
whil
elateratextcamet
hroughwit
h
coor
dinatesandthenmyphonerangst
art
li
ng
me.
/
/Me:
hel
l
o
Him: nowl i
stenver
ycarefull
y,thisi
snotaj oke.
Icaneasi l
ykill
yourhusbandt hesamewayI
kil
ledAndr ewandnoonewi l
lfindhisbody .If
youl oveyourhusbandli
key out hi
nky oudo
theny ouwi l
lmeetmeatt hosecoor dinat
es
tonightat23H00andnotami nutelat
e.I’
m sur e
byt henyourin-l
awswillbesleepingsoy ou’llbe
ablet osneakout.I
fyoucome, thenyour
husbandi sfreetogohome.Johnwi l
lsafely
returnhim home
Me:howwill
Iknowt
hathe’
sbeenr
etur
ned
saf
elyhome?
Hechuckl
ed
Him:ourplanel
eav
esat23H00don’
tbel
ate
sweetcheeks//
Iwasaboutt orespondwhenhecutt hecallon
me.Ijustcr iedlookingup.Everypartofmy
bodywant edt odoubtGod’sexistencebutmy
hearttoldmenott ogi v
euponGodashehas
notgivenuponmej ustyet
.Myhear twas
tel
li
ngmet otrustinGodbecausehedi dn’
tjust
dieformysi nsformet ogot hroughsomuch.I
prayedforgoodnewsorami racleorsomething.
Iwasdi sturbedbyaknockont hedoor.
Me:
comei
n
Mymot herwholookedi ndi
str
essandev enhad
teabagsunderhereyeswalkedin.Thi
swoman
l
ov edhersonmoret hananyt
hinganditssuch
moment swewer eremindedofthepeoplethat
arether
eforusnomat t
erwhat
Her
:howar
eyou?
Shesaidput
ti
ngherhandonmykneeasshe
satnextt
omewithherkneesupl
i
keme.
Me:Idon’
tknowreall
y.Ij
ustkeept
hinki
nghe’
l
l
wal
kinthatdooranyminutenow
Her:Iknowbaby.Mel
owilldoany
thi
ngt
ocome
backtoy out
hatmuchIknow
Me:
Mrs.Bess
Her
:yes,
baby
Me:di
dyouandMr .Bessev
erf
acesucht
hings
i
nyourmarr
iage?
Her :Godeachgi vesuschal
lengeswecaneach
manage.What everyouarecurr
entl
ygoing
throughr i
ghtnow, Godknowsthatit
’snottoo
bigfory outohandleandthatthi
swillonl
y
makey oustronger
Me:somet i
mesIf eell
ikeGodgivesmemor e
cr
editthanIdeser ve.I
’m onl
y24andI’v
e
al
readyl ostmyfir
stchi l
dandnowmyhusband
i
smi ssing.IfIdi
dn’tknowbetter
,Iwouldswear
Goddidn’ twantmet obef ul
l
yhappy
Her:
Godwantsnothi
ngbuthappi
nessforus.
Don’
tdoubthi
sint
ent
ionsnowYaya.I
twill
all
bewell
intheend
Me:
Ireal
l
yhopeso.Il
ovey
ouMah
Her
:Il
ovey
out
oobaby
Wesatinsi
l
enceunt
ilwewer
edi
stur
bedby
Asemahl
e.
Her
:wet
hinkwemayhav
efoundsomet
hing
Mom:
okwe’
l
lber
ightdown
Shewal
kedoutandMr
s.Bessgotupof
fer
ing
meahand
Me:
justaf
ewmi
nut
esMahandIwi
l
lbet
her
e
Shenoddedandl eftmealone.I
t’
snott hatI
wasn’ texcit
edbutt hi
shasbeengoi ngonf or
thepastt hreeday snowandIdon’ twannalieit
s
draining.Everyti
mewet hi
nkwer eaching
somewher ewej ustreachadeadendandt hat
i
sj ustdrainingforme.May beIshouldjusttake
Zukouponwhathesai d.Atl
eastI’l
lknowthat
myhusbandi ssafeandbackhomebut
knowi ngthemanImar r
iedhewoul dneverrest
untilhehadmebackhomewhi chiswhyIwas
seriouslyconsi
deringwhatZukohadsai d.I
knowMel oandhewoul dneverjustgivemeup
withoutaf i
ght.Igather
edthest rengthand
cour ageandwentdownst air
sandal leyes
turnedtome.Ther ewasev enMr s.Bess’s
brotherAluncedowi thhi
sITwi zf r
iendhelpi
ng
fi
ndMel o.
Mr
.Bess:
Kot
i
Me:
dad.Any
thi
ng?
Al
u:t
hisguyi
sgood.Heknowswhathe’
sdoi
ng
Ilookedatthet
imeandIhadanhourandahal
f
togettothosecoor
dinat
es
Ase:
Yay
awhat
’sony
ourmi
nd?
Me: guy
sthankyouforever
ythi
ng.AndImean
EVERYTHINGy oual
lhavedoneformethusfar
.
Youcanstoplooki
ngforMelobecausehe’
l
lbe
ret
urnedhomeat11pm.
Ama:
Yandi
swawhatdoy
oumean?
Me:
Asemahl
epl
easet
ell
myhusbandIl
ove
hi
m morethananythi
nginthi
swor l
dandI
woul
dratherdi
ethanlethi
m die.Thi
sexpl
ains
ev
ery
thi
ng.
Isai
dhandingheralet
terwri
tt
enMelo’
sname
ontheenvelope.I
twastheonl
ychoi
ceIhadt
o
savehi
m.
Dae:
Yandi
swawhatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:Ihav et
ogoandpl ease.Pleasedon’tf
ollow
meorel sesomethi
ngterri
blewillhappento
MeloandI ’
dneverf
orgivemy sel
fifsomething
happenedtohim.
Itookmycar skeysandr antomycarand
punchedinthecoor di
natesanddroveofftot he
place.I
twasawar ehouseneart
heairport.Igot
thereat22:
55pm andpar kedmycart hengot
offwithmyphoneandkey sandwenti nthe
abandonedwar ehouse.Zukowalkedupt ome
Hi
m:Iseey
oul
i
stened
Me:
Ineedt
oknowt
hatMel
oishome
Hi
m:Isai
dat11andy
ouar
eear
ly
Me:
ZukoIdon’
thav
eti
mef
orgames.
Hi
m:pl
easecomewi
thme
Iwashesi tantbutIwasal
socuri
ous.If
oll
owed
hi
m andhet ookmet oaroom wi
thamoni t
or.
Ont hemoni torwasJohn,t
heguyImetatthe
hotel.Howdi dtheyknoweachot
her?Nothi
ng
aboutt hi
smadeanysenset omeany more.
Him: Ibel i
ev eyou’v emetmyf r
iendJohn.He
andMi randahadaf li
ngbutMi randaleftthe
statesandcamet oSAandt hemi nutesher an
i
nt oDer ri
ckt hatni ghtintheel evatorshecalled
myf r
iendov erhereandendedt hingswi t
hhim
becauseshet houghtt hatsheandMel ocoul d
rekindlewhatt heyhad.Johnwasangr ywhen
yourboy f
riendki l
ledhi sgirlandf r
om then
onwar dshest artedpl anninghi srevenge
againstMel o.Hewant edhimt oloseev eryt
hing
butt ohi mt hatmeantget tingridofy ouand
that’showwemet .YouseeJohnandImet
throughamut ualf
ri
endwhogotsloppyandl
et
hisconsciousgeti
nt hewayandgothi
mself
arrest
edandwewer edeter
minedt
oseeit
through.
Ikeptquietmoti
onless.Idi
dn’
tevenknowhow
torespondtothi
satal l
.Iwasdumbstruck.I
l
ookedathi m bl
anklyandhechuckl
ed
Hi
m: Icanseeyousti
llconf
used.DamnIcoul
d
j
ustkissyour
ightnow
Idi
dn’
trespond
Him: Maxwassupposedt ogatherenough
i
nformat i
onabouty ourdai
lyrout
inesbuti nthe
processhef el
linlovewit
hy ouandwi t
hMi l
a.
Hewasr esponsi
bleforyournakedpicturesby
theway .YandiIneverwantedyourdaught erto
gethurtintheprocessbutshedi dandI ’
m sorry
Ithr
ewasl apathim whi
chIwasnotexpecti
ng
andneitherdi
dhe.Theangerinmecouldnot
beputintowords.Howdar emydaught
erbe
coll
ater
aldamagetohissicktwi
stedpl
an.Iwas
soangryIwasevenshaki
ng.I
fIspokeI
’
m
cer
tai
nnowor dsweregoi
ngtocomeout.
Hi
m:nowt
hat
’sj
ustchi
l
dish.
Idi
dn’tr
espond.Tear
sjustr
oll
eddownmy
cheeks
Him: Hady oul efthi
m af terheki lledMiranda
theny ouwoul dn’tbeint hisint hef ir
stplace
Yandiswa.Ify ouhadl ear ntfrom t hegetgot hen
youwoul dn’tbei nthi
smess.Ev erythi
ngbad
that
’sev erhappenedt oy ouhasonl yeverbeen
hisfault
.I’
vebeenwat chingf rom t hesideli
nes
andIcoul dhav et r
eatedy oubet terbuty ou
chosehi m Yandi swa.Youchosehi m overme,
overusev enaf terIapologi zedorwasi t
becauseoft hesexhuh?
Hewasv
eryangr
yhi
svei
nswer
eev
enpoppi
ng.
Me:sowhat’
syouplan?Getmetomarr
yyou
andthenl
i
vehappi
lyeveraf
ter
?Ist
hatwhaty
ou
aft
er?
Hechuckl
ed
Him:aslongasMel
oisali
vey
ouandIcan
neverl
i
vehappil
yev
eraft
er
Il
ookedathi
m st
unned.
Hi
m:l
ook
IturnedtothescreenandJohnwashi t
ti
ng
Mel oreal
lybad.Hekeptpunchi
nghim andthen
afterMelowasweakenoughhet ookoutagun
andpoi nt
edittohishead
Me:
Zukopl
ease.Pl
easedon’
tki
l
lhi
m
Him:ifitwer
euptomeI’dletyourhusbandgo
butnowJohni smad.Heisreal
lypissedabout
theMirandathi
ng
Me:ZukoIwi
l
ldoany
thi
ng.Justpl
easedon’
t
ki
l
lhim
Him:youneverr
eall
ydidknowhowt obeg.So
asIwasstil
lsay
ing.Johnhasami ndofhi
s
own,hewantstoavengetheloveofhi
sli
feand
Iwanttobeburi
edbesidetheloveofmyli
fe.
Nowitwon’tbef
aironJohnf
ormetogetwhat
Iwantwhi
leheischeat
edonwhathewant
s.
Me:
whygot
hroughal
loft
his?Whyki
l
lMi
l
a?
Him:Mi l
awasnev ersupposedtodie.John
meantt hatacci
dentf oryouofwhichIdidn’
t
knowt hatunti
lIfoundoutaboutMi l
abecause
theyknowIhav easof tspotf
oryousot hey
keptmeoutoft hel oop.JohnandIwantone
thi
ng,tomakeMel opay
Me:thenwhythr
eat
enme?whycal
lme
t
hreateni
ngme?
Him:
becauseIknewthaty
ouwouldtel
lhi
m
andt
henhewouldfal
lri
ghtint
oourt
rapandhe
di
d
IlookedaroundandIsawhi sgunontopofthe
table.It
ookitandpoint
edittomyhead.Ihave
wat chedalotofmoviesandIam hopi
ngthat
whatIam doi ngr
ightnowwor ksi
nmyf av
or
Me:
letMel
ogoandIwon’
tpul
lthet
ri
gger
Him:st
opbei
ngstupi
dYandi
swa.Webot
h
knowyouwon’
tpulli
t
Me:
your
eal
l
ywantt
otr
yme?
Icockeditandpoint edittomyheadagai nand
fearwaswr i
tt
enal lov erhisface.Nowmyaunt s
husbandtaughtmet haty oushoul dli
stentothe
soundofthecocki ngsoundandi fit
sli
ghtthen
there’
snobulletbuti fit
sheav ythenit’
sloaded.
Andt hi
sonehadbul letsinit
Hi
m:Yandi
sway
oudon’
twantt
odot
hat
Me:
ifJohnpul
l
sthatt
ri
gger
,sowi
l
lI
Hi
m:Yandipl
ease.Ist
il
lneedy
ou.Idon’
tsee
myli
fewi
thanyonebutyou.
Me:t
ell
Johnt
oletMel
ogoandIwon’
tpul
lthi
s
t
ri
gger
Seeminglymyplanwaswor king.Let’
sjusthope
i
tdoesn’tbackf
ire.Iwasscaredfordearli
fe,I
wasscaredformyhusbandbecauseIr eall
y
neededhimt ocomeoutoft hisal
iveandwel l
.I
sti
l
ldi
dn’tunderst
andwhyt heywouldgo
thr
oughallofthi
stroubl
e.Hetookouthis
phoneanddialedandthenIlookedatthe
monit
orandsawJohnanswer inghi
sphone.
//
Zuko:l
ethi
m goman.He’
sal
readyl
ost
Yandi
swa
John:
…..
Zuko:he’
snotwor
thitbuddy
.Justl
ethi
m go.
You’
veroughedhi
m upenough
John:
…..
.
Zuko:Ihatehi
mt ooandhe’sal
readylosti
tal
l.
Helosthisdaughterandnowhi
swi f
ei swi
th
meandshe’ sneverleav
ing
John:
…..
Zuko:evenifhetr
ieshe’
l
lneverf
indher
.Just
l
ethim goman.Wecangetawaywi t
hthi
s
wit
houtar ecor
dorwhatsoev
er
John:
….
Zuko:
younotgoi
ngt
ogot
opr
ison.Igoty
ou/
/
Johnr
emov
edt
hegunf
rom Mel
oandunt
ied
hi
m
Zuko:
nowputt
hegundownYandi
please
Me: Ineedt oknowthathe’
sbeenreturned
homesaf el
yorelsenoneofyouwil
l haveme.
Youdi dthistobewithmer i
ght
?Sot hatMelo
canlosemer ight
?SothatMelodoesn’thave
me?Makesur ehe’
ssafeandIwon’tpullt
his
tr
igger
Hi
m:f
ineYandi
swa.
Thethi
ngswedoforthepeopleweloveshame.
Fi
rstti
mehol
dingagunandi t
’stomyhead.
HowdumbcanIget?AllIkeptthi
nki
ngofwas
homeandmyhusbandbeingbackhomesaf el
y.
Hi
m:nowpl
easegi
vemet
hegunYandi
swa
It
urnedt
opoi
nti
ttohi
m.
Me:
giv
emey
ourphone.
Hi
m:no!
Me:
don’
tbest
upi
dZuko!
Him:noYandiswadon’tyoubestupi
d.If
anyt
hinghappenstomet henyoursweetli
tt
le
husbandwon’tmakeithometonight
Me:youmustt
hinkI
’
m scar
edt
opul
lthi
s
t
ri
gger
Isaidpoint
ingitonhislegsandpull
ingt he
tr
iggerandithi
thislegstartl
ingme.IthoughtI
wouldmi ssbecausemyey eswer eclosedwhen
Ihithi
sleg.Il
ookedathi slegandhewascr y
ing
i
nagonyandhewasbl eedi
ng
Me:
phonenow!
Hehandedi ttomecur si
ngunderhi
sbr eat
h.I
wasplay i
ngwithfir
e,Iknow.Itookthephone
anddialedAsemahl e’
snumberbecauseshe
madei tapointthatIknowitbyhead.She
answeredafterawhi l
eandIgav eherthe
coordi
natesIhadgot tenandshetoldmet hat
t
heywer
eont
hei
rway
.
.
.
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12:
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THPAI
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m spinni
ngr oundand
deepinsidemyt earsI’
lldrown.I’
ml osi
nggrip
what’shappening?Astrayf r
om lovethisi
show
Ifeel
.Thistimewasdi fferentf
eltl
ikeIwasj ust
av i
cti
m andt heycutmel i
keaknifewheny ou
walkedoutofmyl i
fe.NowI ’minthiscondit
ion
andIgotal lt
hesy mptomsofagi r
l wit
ha
brokenheartbutnomat terwhatyou’l
lnever
seemecr y
…” **
*
-
Mel
o
Iwasexpect i
ngthegunt ogoof fbutnothi
ng
happened.Somanyt imesI ’
vef aceddeathin
theeyesI’
m star
tingt othinkI’m cursedor
something.Imeant heamountofacci dent’
sI’
ve
had.Hepul l
edmeup, myv i
sionwasabi tbl
urry
Icoul
dbar el
ysee.Ni ggareallydi danumberon
meandhewasnotgoi ngtogetawaywi t
hit.
Hi
m:don’
ttr
yany
thi
ngst
upi
dsuper
man
Ikeptqui
et.Heremov
edthecuff
soffofmeand
Iwait
edforhimtodosomethi
ng.Ir
eall
yhadno
str
engthl
eftinmetofi
ghtort
rydef
endmy sel
f
ordosomet hi
ng.
Hi
m:seemsl
i
key
ourwi
fecamet
other
escue
Me:
mywi
fe?
Him:y eah.Seemsl
iketheMrs.chosetoleav
e
youratherhaveyoukil
l
ed.It
’sfunnyhowshe
didn’
tev encont
emplat
e,howqui ckshewasto
taketheeasywayout
Ilookedatt hisidiotthinkingtomy sel
fthatI
knowmywi fe.She’ sassmar tastheycome.
Whatwashappeni ngt omewassomet hi
ng
you’dexpectt ohappeni namov i
eandwi t
h
Yayaandal lIknowf orsurethathermov ie
wat chingski ll
sprobabl ycameintouse.Iwasn’t
evenpani ckingbecauseIknewt hatshe
woul dn’tjustjumpatt heopport
unityofleavi
ng
me.y es,Iknowhowmuchmywi felovesand
l
ikemeshewoul dr atherdiet
hanletsomet hi
ng
happent ome.
Me:
youcl
ear
lyunder
est
imat
emywi
fe.
Isai
dwi
thachuckl
e.Thi
sidi
otr
eal
l
ydi
dn’
t
knowmywif
ewell
Hi
m:whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
?
Me:Ithoughty
ouknewev er
ythi
ng?Weren’
tyou
theonelayi
ngoutev
eryt
hingformenotsolong
ago?Youknowmywi fesowel l
thenIdon’
t
underst
andwhyyoupanicki
ng
Hi
m:I
’
m notpani
cki
ng
Me:
theny
ouj
ustpi
nkf
ornot
hingr
ight
?
Hest artedboi li
ngandIcoul dn’thel pbutl augh.
Att hebackofmyheadIkeptpr ayingt hatmy
wifewaswel landsafewher evershewas.The
mi nutewewal kedoutIt hennot icedthatwe
wer en’
tf arfrom theairpor
t.Wewer einwhat
wasact uall
yawar ehouse.Heki ckedmeandI
felltothegr ound.Iwassopi ssedandsoweak.
Anyot hergi vendayhewoul dn’thav ebeenabl e
tolayahandonmebutbecauseIhav en’thad
foodorany thingorwhat soeverin3day sIwas
weaknott of orgetthatIwasal lbeatup.He
kickedmeont hestomachf l
ippingmeov er
Him: t
hat’
sforMi
randa.IknowItol
dZukoI
’
d
deli
veryouunhar
medbuty oudeserv
emore
thanthis
Me:
thengoaheadandki
l
lme
Him:deat
hwouldbetooeasy .Iwanty
outol
i
ve
yourl
if
eknowingt
hatIam alwayswatchi
ngy
ou
andknowingt
hatI
’m notdonewi t
hyou
Ichuckl
edandspi
tbl
oodt
othegr
ound.
Me:
youdon’
tscar
eme.Mi
randadeser
vedi
t
Hepoi
ntedhi
sgunatme
Me:pr
ovet
omeandt oyour
sel
fthaty
ounota
cowar
dandpul
lthet
ri
gger
Hi
m:st
oppr
ovoki
ngme
Me:I
fyouwant
edmedeadyouwoul
dhave
ki
l
ledmealongti
meagobuty
ounotki
l
li
ngme.
why?
Hi
m:shutup!
Me:
whyhav
en’
tyouki
l
ledme
Hi
m:shutup
“
dropi
t”
Il
ookedupandther
ewasaguyi napoli
ce
uni
for
m wit
huncleZuki
sa.Isi
ghedi
nrel
ief
.
Cop:
Isai
ddr
opi
tnowandki
cki
tov
erher
e
John:
he’
stheonewhoki
l
ledsomeoneher
enot
me.y
oushoul
dbear
rest
inghi
m
Thecopcuffedhi
mr eadi
nghim hisr
ight
sand
l
eadinghi
mt othevan.Unclehel
pedmeupand
thenwewalkedtohiscar.
Hi
m:howar
eyou?Youl
ookl
i
keshi
i
t
Me:
Ifeel
li
keshi
i
t.Wher
e’sYay
a?I
ssheok?
Him:y
ourwi
fei
sfi
ne.Yourf
atherwentt
oget
her
Isi
ghedi
nrel
i
ef.Atl
eastshewasf
ine
Hi
m:todaywer
ecei
vedacal
lfr
om hi
sfat
her
’s
wi
fe
Me:
yeah
Him:
afterhef
oundoutaboutYay
agoi
ngt
o
f
indyouhe….
.
.
-
Yay
a
Afterthecal lwithAsemahl eIwai t
edont hem t
o
gether ewi t
ht hecopsIhope.Zukowas
beggingmet ost opt hebleedingandIjust
stoodt herewi ththegunpoi ntedathim.His
phoner angi nmyhandandt hename“ John”
poppeduponhi sscreen.Ithoughtof
answer ingbutt henIdidn’tknowaboutt he
safetyofmyhusbandandsendi ngatextwould
besuspi ciousseei ngthattheycalledeach
other.
Hi
m:ifIdon’
tanswerhewi
l
lcomelooki
ngand
wedon’
twantthatnowdowesweetcheeks?
Ihadtothi
nkfast
.Di
dIreal
l
ywanthi
mtocome
l
ooking?Andifhedi
dwashegoi
ngtobr
ingmy
Melowithhi
m?
Hi
m:t
ickt
ock
Me:
shutup!
Hi
m: thi
sisnoty
ouYandi
swa.Younota
murderer
Me:
Zukoshutupandl
etmet
hink
Hechuckledathowconf usedIwas.Theonl y
knowledgeIhav eaboutsuchsi t
uationsi
s
knowledgeI’veonl
yev ergottenfr
om mov i
es…
thr
il
lersbecauseI’
m notbi gonact i
onmov i
es.
Thephonest oppedringingandIimmedi at
ely
putitonfli
ghtmode.May bethatwasgoingt o
buymesomet i
meandhav ehimt hinkwewere
ontheplaneseeingthatwewer esupposedto
beont heplanealr
eady .
Hi
m:y
oumustt
hinkJohni
saf
ool
Me:
hemaybesmar
tbutIt
hinkI
’
m smar
ter
.
Iwatchedt
hemonit
orandIsawhim gl
oat
ing.
Heseemedhappyandthat’
swhenhetookMelo
outofther
oom.Iwasonlyhopi
ngt
hathewas
ret
urni
ngmyhusbandbackhome
Me:
Wher
ear
ethey
?
Hi
m:f
arf
araway
Me:
don’
tpl
aywi
thmeZuko.Wher
ear
ethey
?
Him:
ev eni
fIt
ell
you.Whatgoodwi
l
lthatdo?
hemightaswel
lbedead
Iwassopi
ssedIhi
thi
m wit
hthebackoft
he
gunonhi
sheadandhecri
edinpai
nandheld
hi
shead
Me:
Wher
ear
ethey
?
Hi
m:I’
m nott
ell
i
ngy ou.I
fI’
m nothavi
ngyou
t
henIseenopointofmegivi
ngy ouanswer
s.
Ikeptqui
etandtri
edt ofi
ndawayar oundthi
s
butIcoul
dn’
tgetanythinghere.Ir
eal
lywas
fi
ghti
ngalosingbatt
le.Ical
l
edAsemahl e
/
/Her
:hel
l
o
Me:Mahl
epl
easet
ell
mey
ourf
atheri
sonhi
s
way
?
Her
:he’
sonhiswayt
herebabedon’
twor
ry.
Howareyou?Ar
eyouok?
Me:
yeahI’
m good.Pl
easecal
lmeassoonas
Mel
ogetst
here
Her
:ofcause.Il
ovey
ouYay
a
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo/
/
WhenIt urnedIfeltaslapthatsentmestrai
ght
tothefloor,Iwasparti
all
yblind.Ihel
dmycheek
whichfeltsodamnhotandi twassopainful
.I
can’tr
emembert helastt
imesomeonehi tme
Hi
m:nowIdidn’
twantt
odothisbuty
ouf
orced
me.y
oufor
cedmyhandYandiswa
Iwassti
l
ltr
yingt
oseest
rai
ghtandgetacl
ear
pi
ctur
e.Myheadwasspi
nni
ng
Him:It
riedplayi
ngnicewit
hyoubutyoujust
hadtocomplicatet
hingsal
lbecauseofadick.
Yandi
swaIlov eyouandIdon’
tthinky
ou
under
standthat
Me:i
fyour
eall
ylovedmet henyouwer
egoing
t
oletmego.Youweregoingtosetmefreeand
l
etmebewiththepersonIlov
e
Hi
m: hedoesn’
tlov
eyou.Whyel
sewouldhedo
t
hethingshe’
sdoneYandi
swa?Whyareyouso
bli
ndt ohisfaul
tshuh?Whyareyoual
ways
tur
ningabl indeyet
ohiswrongswhenyou
couldn’tevendothesamewithme?
Me:Zukoy oudumpedmebecauseIwoul dn’
t
l
osemyv ir
gini
tytoyou.Youref
usedtowaitf
or
me.that
’sthedif
fer
encebetweenyouandhim,
hei
spatientwit
hmeunl ikey
ouandhetreats
me10xt i
mesbet t
erthanyoueverdi
d
Hi
m:dot
hisi
saboutt
hemoney
Me: Iwouldsti
ll
bewithhim ev
eni
fhewas
brokeandwor eragsbecausehei
s10xt
heman
youev erwere
Hechuckl
edandshookhi
shead
Hi
m:he’
sreal
l
ybr
ainwashedy
ouhuh
Me:wakeupZuko.Ilovedy ouoncebutyougot
atasteofpussywhil
eyouwer eawayand
suddenl
yyourhormonesr anwil
dandspr ung
outofcontr
ol.Myloveforyouwasnev er
enoughtomakey oustayandbepatientwith
me.Iwi l
lnevergetbacktogetherwi
thy ouev en
i
fy ouwerethelastmanonear t
h.Il
ov edy ou
andy outookmyhear tandcrusheditright
beforemyey esandnotoncel ookedbackand
youthoughtan“ I
’m sor
ry”wasgoingt oundo
thepainyoucausedme.y ouwerethef ir
stman
toevermakemecr yZuko.Hav eyouanyi dea
howl ongitt
ookf ormetopickmy selfupaf t
er
thewayy ouendedt hi
ngswi t
hme?
Hekeptqui
et
Me:exact
lybecausey
ouwer
etoobusyenj
oy
pussy
Hi
m:Yandi
Iam sosor
ry
Me:no!keepy
ourapol
ogy
.Itwasal
ongt
ime
ago
Idon’tevenknowwhyIwascrying.May
bei
t
wasbecauseoft hepai
nonthesideofmyf
ace
thatstungsobadly
.Thedoorf
lewopen
“
dropy
ourweapon!
”
Idi
dn’
tev
ent
urnt
oseewhoi
twas.
“
wher
eisshe?
”
Thatwasnodoubtmyf atherin-l
awsv oice.If
elt
rel
ievedt ohearhisvoi
ce.Wedon’ thav ea
fat
herdaught errel
ati
onshipaspersaybutI
knowhecar esaboutmeandIl ovehim asa
fat
her .Ifel
thi
m cagemewi thhisjacketandI
knewIwassaf e.Godhiscolognesmel tso
damngood.Iseewher ehi ssongoti tfrom.He
helpedmegetupandhepul ledmet ohi sarms
andt henhepul l
edmeawayandhel dmeat
arm’sl engt
h
Hi
m:di
dhedot
hist
oyou?
Me:
Ishothi
m soIguessweev
en
Isaidtryi
ngtolightenupthemoodbuthewas
pissed.Idon’
tknowwhati si
twi t
ht heBess
menandf umingthemi nutetheyseeawoman
bruised.Hewaspi nk…her emindedmeofMel o
whenhewaspi ssed.Ifoundmy selfgiggl
ingon
theinsidebecauseIdidn’twannaseem l i
kea
l
ooney.Wewal
kedt
ohiscarandhi
swifewas
al
readyt
her
etowel
comemewi thwar
m arms
Her
:ohmygody
ourf
ace
Me:
I’
mfi
neMah
Her
:uhhm Yay
a
Me:
isMel
ohome?Hav
eyouf
oundhi
m?
Her
:yes,
babyandhei
sonhi
swayhome
Me:
okgr
eat
.Thenwhat
’sgoi
ngon?
Her
:it
’sy
ourf
ather
.He’
s….
.
.
<3
[12/
17,
12:
25]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E44
**
*“…thenyouwenttobreakmyheart,
didn’
tyou?
Wheredidwegowr ong?Isital
lmyfaul
t?
Wheredidwegowr ong?Isital
lmyfaul
t?.
.ButI
l
ovey ou,
andIlov
ey ousoWher edi
dwego
wrong?Isital
lmyfaul
t?…”*
**
-
Yay
a
Iwon’tborey ouwi thmyf ather’
sfuner al.I
twent
wellanddramaf r
ee.Yes, itwasn’teasybut
hereIam amont hl at
erandI ’
m healing.IthinkI
war medupt ot hei deaoflosinghimt hemi nute
Ifoundouthehadcancerandhewasi nandout .
Ifoundpeacei nknowi ngthathewasn’ t
suffer
inganymor e.Hi swifewasn’ttaki ngitwell
butshewasokIguessandsower etheki ds…
oratleastIthinkt heywer e.IstayedinDur ban
forawhi l
ebef orecomi ngbackt oJobur gof
whichI ’
vebeenher ef oramont hnow.The
beingsickcomesandgoesev erynowandt hen
buteithert
hant hatI ’
m goodandI ’m gai ni
nga
l
itt
lebitofwei ghtnowsot hat’
sgoodIguess.
Mel oandIhav enev erbeenbet ter
,he’st hebest
husbandany onecoul dev eraskfor.Hereminds
meoft het i
meIwaspr egnantwithYasy,how
l
ov i
ngandt hereheal way sisforme.it’
s
amazing.Ihadj ustfi
nishedeat i
nglunchwi t
h
thegir
ls(LediandAni ta)becauseAsemahl e
hadleftf
ort hestatesal r
eadyandshesay s
she’sdoi
nggr eatthere.Shewasgoi ngtobe
dir
ecti
ngoract inginsomemov ieoroneoft he
two…I’mr eall
yunsureaboutherst orybutal
l I
knowi st
hatshei sdoi ngsomet hingsheloves.
Ledi
:Whenl
astdi
dyougoony
ourper
iod?
Me:
whywoul
dyouaskmet
hat
?
Ledi
:shoul
dIt
ell
herorwi
l
lyou?
Shesai
dtal
ki
ngt
oNi
taandIj
ustst
aredatt
hem
bl
ankl
y
Nit
a:becauseyou’
vebeeneat
ingweir
dstuf
f
andyou’v
egainedsomeweightand…you’
ve
beensick
Me:
onl
ybecauseoft
het
hingst
hathav
ebeen
happeni
ngi
nmyl
i
fel
atel
y
Ledi
:webr
oughty
ouat
est
Me:
atestf
orwhat
?
Nitaputapr egnancytesti
nf r
ontofmeandI
j
ustlaughed.St r
esscanmakey ousi ckandgain
somewei ghtandeatmor ethany oushould.I
hadgot tenalit
tl
edarkerthanmynor malskin
tonebutt hat’
sbecauseofthewi nterweather.
Wewer einJulyalr
eadyandy ouknowhowt he
wintersuncanbe.
Me:
guy
sI’
m notpr
egnant
Nit
a:whenwast
hel
astt
imey
ouhady
our
per
iod?
Me:Idon’
tknowguy
s.Lastmont
hor
somethi
ng
Ididn’
twantt
ogivethem morereasonto
suspectmeevenmor ebecause.HonestlyI
’v
e
for
gottent
helastt
imeIwentonmyper iods.
I’
vebeentoobusymourningmydaught erand
myfat
hersoshootme…ohandmyhusband
bei
ngki
dnapped.
Ledi
:j
ustt
aket
het
estandpr
oveuswr
ong
Me:fi
ne.I
’
llt
aket
het
estwhenIgethome.
Happynow?
Ni
ta:
ecst
ati
c.
Me:nowcanweeatandt
alkaboutsomet
hing
el
se
Ledi:butwoul
ditbesobadi
fyouwer
e
pregnant?
Ikeptquietforawhile.HeckIdi
dn’tevenknow
whatIwasgoi ngtosay .Whatam Iexpectedto
say?IfIam pregnantthenI’
m pr
egnantachi l
d
ofrape.Shii
t!Ormay beit
sThomas’ skid?I
can’tbepregnantwithThomas’schildthough.
.
.
-
Mel
o
Ev ersinceYay a’
sf ather’
sf uneral sheandIhav e
becomet ightert
hanwewer ebef oreandI’v
e
madei tmydut ytobet hebesthusbandt oher
thatIcanev erbe.It’
st heleastIcoul ddoseei ng
whatI ’veputhert hrough.Iwasi nt heparki
ng
l
ott alkingtoaf r
iendont hephonewhen
Thomaswal kedoutoft her est
aur antwit
hhis
sister.Hewal kedupt ome.Isai dmygoodby es
andt henl ookedathi m.
Hi
m:wemeetagai
n
Me:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Hi
m:y
ounev
erapol
ogi
zed
Me:Ihadnor
easont
oandIwoul
ddoi
tal
lov
er
agai
n
Hi
m:youwon’
tbesayi
ngt
hatwheny
ouf
indout
t
hatt
heMrs.i
scar
ryi
ngmybaby
Ikeptqui
etandjuststaredathi
m wit
hthat
smugofhis.Iwon’tli
eIwasboi l
i
ng.Howdare
he?Yayatol
dmet hattheyusedacondom mos,
unlesssheli
ed…ar ghbutshewouldn’
tli
eabout
that.Shedi
dn’tl
ieabouthersl
eepingwit
hthe
guysowhywoul dsheli
eaboutusingacondom?
Andwhatdi dhemeant hatYayawascarryi
ng
hisbaby?Yayawasont hepi
ll
sohergetti
ng
pregnantwaslit
erall
ynotanopti
on.Shenever
missesaday …unlessshestoppedtaki
ngthe
pil
lwhenwef oundoutaboutYasmi n.
Me:
yeahkeepdr
eami
ng
Him:thecondom bur
st.Shemightj
ustbe
carr
yingmychil
dforallweknow
Icouldn’
tevenholdmy sel
fback.Ipunchedhi m
andhej ustl
aughed.Igoti nmycaranddr ove
strai
ghthome.Ont hewayIwasangr yAF.I
needanswer sfrom Yandiswa.Whatmakeshi m
eventhinkthatshe’spregnant ?Iwouldknowi f
shewas.Wai tshehasbeenf eelingsicklatel
y
andhasn’tbeendr i
nkinghert eawi t
hmi l
kas
sheusedt obefore.Whati fsher eal
lywas
pregnant?Igothomeandpar kedmycarand
headedstraightuptoourr
oom t
ofi
ndherandI
foundherint hecl
osetl
ooki
ngdownona
pregnancytest.
.
.
-
NARRATED
Ithadbeenamont hnowsi ncet hef uner
al,
threemont hssi ncet hemeet i
ngwi ththe
parent sthatf i
xedt heirmar ri
age.Yay ahadn’ t
beenf eel
ingl i
keher sel flatel
y ,she’sbeenv er
y
forgetful,l
azy ,nauseat ed, coul dbar el
ystomach
any t
hingwi thmi l
kini t.Atf ir
sti tdidn’
tbot her
hermuchunt i
lthi
sonet imeshewashav ing
l
unchwi t
hNi taandLedi andt heysuggest ed
thatther ewasabuni nt heov en.Theyhadev en
boughtherat estforwhenshegothome.She
hadj ustfinishedpeei ngont hest i
ckandt he
testhadt wol i
nes.Shehel dt het estinherhand
witht earsr oll
i
ngdownherey es.Memor iesof
thatoneni ght,thatonel itt
lemi stakeshehad
madecamer
ushi
ngbackt
oherl
i
keaf
lood.
"
Isi
tmi
ne?
"
Heaskedstandi
ngri
ghtbehi
ndher.Shequi
ckl
y
wi
pedhertearshopi
nghedidn'
tnoti
cethet
ear
s.
Her
:excuseme?
Hi
m:i
sthi
sbabyy
ouar
ecar
ryi
ngmi
neorhi
s?
Her
:Idon'
tknow.Whatdoy
out
hink?
Melo’st onewasn’ ttheoneshewasusedt o.He
seemedl i
kesomeonewhohadar oughdayat
workorsomeonewhowasst r
essedabout
somet hing.Sheknewherhusbandt hatwel
l and
quit
ef ranklythisangrymanwasnott heman
shehadbeenseei ngt hesepastf
ewmont hs.
Yestheywer eapar tforawhileandshewasn’ t
expectinghi mtor ockupt hewayhedi d.
.wel l
l
asttimet heyspokehewasatwor korhaving
l
unchwi thacl i
ent.
Him:i
fit
’shisandyoudeci
detokeepi
tthen
yououtofthi
shouse.Andi
fyouchooseus
t
heny
ou'
l
lter
minat
eit
Me:
andi
fit
’sy
our
s?
Hi
m:t
her
e'snowayi
tcoul
dbemi
ne
Her:r
eall
y?IfIr
ecall
,yourapedme.Di
dn'
tusea
condom orwhatsoeverandtheny
ouranaway
fort
hreefucki
ngweeks
Shet hr
ewt het estathi
m andstormedoutof
theroom.Si ncewhenwast hismanwhoonce
treat
edherl i
ket heworl
dr evol
vedar
oundher
j
ustt hi
smor ningwassuddenl yamonst er
?Was
thisbeastbefor ehercr
eatedbyherinf
idel
ity
?
Wasshet oblamef orhissuddenbehavior
?It
madenosense.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Hegrabbedmyar m asIwasaboutt owal
k
downthestai
rs.Ihadhadituptoherewit
h
Meloandhisbehavior
.Yes,Icheat
edonhimi
n
hi
sabsenceandhewoul
dn'thav
eknownhadI
notconf
essed.Whyi
sheacti
ngsometypeof
way?
Me:
letgoofme
Isai
dlooki
ngathi
shandonmyar
m
Hi
m:Yay
acanwepl
easej
ustsi
tdownandt
alk
Me:themight
yMelokuhl
eDer
ri
ckBess
suddenl
ywantst
ospeaktohi
sslutofawi
fe
Him:Iwasangr
yandt
hatwasuncal
l
edf
or.I
'
m
sorr
y
Me:
letgoofmyar
m
Hi
m:l
et'
sgobacki
nourr
oom andt
alk
Iwashellapissed.Howdar ehetal
ktomeli
ke
that
.I’
m hiswifeforChri
stsakeandhowdare
heexpectmet oaborteven?HebeggedKat
e
nottoabortbutI,hi
swi f
eshouldgetan
abort
ion?Howsel fi
shcanoneget ?
Me:
soy
ounotgoi
ngt
oletgoofme?
Hi
m:soy
oucangobackt
ohi
m huh?
Iy ankedmyar m andwal keddownt hest airs.
Tookmyphoneandcarkey sanddr oveout .He
wasanasshol e.Whodi dhet hinkhei s?So
yenahecandi sappearf or3weeksandsl eep
wi thsomegi rlhedoesn’ tev enknowandt hen
comebackandactasi fheshi itsrai
nbowsand
uni corns?Itdoesn'twor klikethat.Ther ainwas
pour ingsohar dIcoul dn' tevenseewher et he
hel lIwasgoi ngandt het earswer en'thelping
either.Ifoundmy selfpar kedi nfrontofmy
gal l
ery.Itookmykey sandopenedt heback
doorandwentdownt omyst udioandf oundal l
thepi cturesofYasyt hatwer efeaturedinmy
openi ng.Shewassoper f
ect ,
shewashappy ,
shewasbeaut if
ul andshewasgone.Ihav en't
beenher eeversincet heYasywasst il
lalive.I '
ve
nev erbeenabl etobr ingmy sel
ft ocomei nher e.
Iranmyf ingersonherf aceont hepicture.How
cansomet hi
ngsoper fectcoul dhav ecome
from hi m andI?Wher edi dev erythi
nggowr ong?
Maybeifshehadn'
tdi
edwewoul
dn'
tbei
nthi
s
mess.
Me:Imi
ssyouYasy.Imi
ssyousomuch.What
i
fthi
sbabyI
'
m carr
yingi
snotyourf
ather
s?
Funnythoughbecauseweusedacondom but
mistakehappeney .Whati fi
tburst?Isatdown
onthef l
oorandjustcr i
ed,everyt
hingwasa
messandIcoul dn'tf
ixi t
.Therewasnot hingI
coulddoabouti t
.IwokeupwhenIhear dt he
cardoorclose.Iopenedmyey esandIwasl aid
downi nthebackseatofMel o'
scar ,
Icouldt ell
bythesmel lofhi
scol ognethatitwashi scar .I
satupandhegoti nthedr i
ver’
sseatanddi dn't
sayany t
hingunti
lwegothome.Iwal kedout
fi
rstandhecamei nrightaft
erme
Hi
m:Maf
aku
Me:
Mel
okuhl
eI'
mti
red
Hi
m:Idon'
twantt
ofi
ght
.Ij
ustwantt
otal
k
Ishr
uggedandwentt
osi
tint
hedi
ningar
ea,
he
satont
hechai
rnextt
omeandt
urnedt
oface
me.
Him: I
'm sorryaboutear l
i
eron.Itwaswr ongof
met oasky outochoosebet weenmeandy our
babywheny ounev erdidmel ikethatwithKy l
e.
Iknowy ouhatemeandIhat emet oo,nothingI
doorsaycanundot heshi i
tIhaveputy ou
thr
ough.I '
m not hinglikeyou,I'
vetri
edtomov e
pastever y
thingl i
key oualway sdobutit’sso
hardbecauseIl ov eyousomuchandt hatwas
thelastthingIwoul dhaveexpect edfr
om y ou.
I'
m will
ingt otrymaket hi
swor kifyouare
Me:
whatar
eyousay
ingMel
okuhl
e?
Him:whet
heri
t’
smineorhi
s,I
'
m goi
ngt
ost
and
byyouasyouhavest
oodbyme
Me:Mel
owhywouldyouaskmetoabor
tmy
chi
l
dwhenyoubeggedKat
etokeepKyl
e?
Hekeptqui
et.Ist
oodupandwal kedt
oour
r
oom.Idon’tdoubtMelo’slov
ef ormebutIdo
f
eell
ikehe’
sbeingunfairtowardsme.Iwent
i
nsidetheshowerandjustl
ett
hewaterr
un
downonmyski n.Iwassoangryandsohurt
.I
l
ovet hi
sman;Il
ovehim somuchforhi
mt odo
mel i
kethi
s.
.
.
<3
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17,
12:
26]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E45
***“…Wewer ewal kingonmoonl i
ghtandy ou
pulledmecl ose.Splitsecondandy ou
disappearedt henIwasal lalone.Iwokeupi n
tearswithyoubymysi deabr eathofreli
efandI
realizet
hatnowenotpr omisedt omorrow.So
I
’m gonnal ovey ou,li
keI’m gonnalosey ou.I
’
m
gonnahol dy ou,li
keI’m sayi
nggoodby e.
WhereverwestandingIwon’tt
akeyoufor
grant
ed,causewil
lneverknowitwhenwe’l
lrun
outofti
me.SoI ’
m gonnaloveyou,l
i
keI’
m
gonnaloseyou.I
’m gonnaholdyou…”*
**
-
Mel
o
Thomas:Ilov
eyousomuchandIcannotwai
t
tofat
herourchi
l
d
Hesaidbr ushi
ngherbi
groundbel
ly
.Shelooked
beauti
ful
,pregnancyal
waysdi
dlookgoodon
herthat’
sforsure.
Her:Il
oveyoutooandthankyousomuchfor
thi
sgift
.Especi
all
yaf
terever
ythi
ngt
hat
’s
happened
Me:
Yay
awhat
’sgoi
ngonher
e?
Hi
m:shej
ustsai
dyest
omar
ryi
ngme
Me:
what
?Yandi
swahowcoul
dyou?
Her:
y ousai
dityoursel
f.I
fthebabyishisandI
deci
dedtokeepitthenI’m outofyourhouse
andthat’
swhatIdid.I’
m outofyourhouse
Me:Idon’
tbel
iev
ethi
sonesi
ngl
ebi
t.Thatbaby
youcar
ryi
ngisnothi
s
Hi
m: t
hisbabymybeaut
if
ulf
iancéi
scarryi
ngis
mi
neandwecannotwaittobethebestparent
s
wecanbe
Shehadarockonherf
ingerandi
twas
def
ini
tel
ynott
heoneIgaveher.
Me:
Yay
apl
easecanwet
alkaboutt
his
Her:
Mel
oyoumadey
ourdeci
sion6mont
hs
ago.
Me:
Yay
aIwasst
upi
dandchi
l
dish
Her:
eit
herwayMelowedone.I’v
ealr
eady
si
gnedthepaper
s.All
that
’sl
efti
sforyout
o
si
gnthem andfi
l
ethem
Me:
no!
Hi
m: don’
tmakethi
sanyhar
derony
our
sel
f
man.Justsi
gnthedamnpaper
s
Me:
him Yandi
swa?Ofal
lpeopl
eyouchosehi
m
Her
:Idi
dn’
tchoosehi
m Mel
okuhl
e.Youmade
t
hechoi
ceformeandherewearetoday
Me:IwaswrongandIseemymi st
akes.I’
ve
l
ear
ntmylesson.Yay
aIcan’
tli
vewithoutyou
Her:somanyt imesyou’
veusedt hatli
neonme
i
t’sevenlostitsmeaning.MeloIlovedy ou,
Idid
everyt
hing,Iwasev enwil
li
ngtodi eforyouand
whenal lofthatwassaidanddoney ouwenton
toinsul
tmeandt hrewmeoutofy ourhousefor
onesimpl emi st
ake.Amistakethatdoesn’t
evencomecl osetotheonesyou’vemade
Me:Yay
aIknowandIregr
etever
ythi
ng.I
fI
coul
dundoi
tal
lIwoul
d.Yandi
swaplease
Her
:NO.I
’
m sor
ryMel
o
Wi t
ht hattheywalkedawaywi t
hherclothesand
gotinsidehiscaranddr ov
eof f
.Iwon’tli
emy
hear twascr ushedi
ntoami l
l
ionpieces.I
t
l
iterall
ysanki ntomystomachandt herewasno
recov er
ingfrom whatIwasfeeli
ng.
Iwokeupsweat i
ngl ikeany thing.Thatwast he
wor stdr eam, especi all
ynowofal ltimes.When
IwokeupYay awasn’ tbymysi de.Icheckedmy
phoneandi twaspast9am al ready .ThankGod
i
twasSat ur
day .IcalledYay a’
sphoneandshe
didn’tanswermycal ls.Iknowt hatwhat
happenedy est erdaywaswr onganduncal l
ed
forandIr egreti tandt akef ullresponsi bil
i
tyf or
myact ions.Thatwasnowayt ot al
kt omywi fe.
Iwasmadatt hepossi bilit
yofmywi f
ecar ryi
ng
thatAsshol e’
schi ld.Ihav enor ighttobemad
ofcausebutst illi
tdoesn’ tchanget hemat terof
thesi tuation.Thesmugonhi sf acer eall
ygott o
me.It ri
edcal li
ngYay aagai nbutst i
llreached
herv oicemai l.WasIdr eami ngorwasi tal
lreal
andIj ustdi dn’twantt of acer eal i
ty?Whati fshe
wasr eallygoneandshel ef tmef orhi m?I
decidedt owakeupandmaket hebedand
shower .May bet hingswi llbecl earerwhenI
fi
nishshower ing.Af tert heshowerIcal ledmy
twiny.Imi ssedhersomuch.
/
/Her
:heybr
other
.Mi
ssmeal
ready
?
Me:whenhaveIev
ernotmi
ssedy
ou.Come
backal
ready
Her
:Ij
ustgother
etwi
nny
Me:
argh.Howi
sitany
way
?
Her
:it
’sgr
eat
.I’
vemetsomanypeopl
eandI
’
m
j
usthappy
Me:
andJames?
Her:wehaven’
tspokenev
ersi
ncet
hatdayhe
endedthi
ngs
Me:
arey
ouser
ious?Asemahl
ecomeon
Her:
MeloItri
edreachi
ngoutbuthedoesn’
t
wanttohearany
thingf
rom me
Me:doyoublamehi
mthough?Youchosey
our
car
eeroverhi
m
Her:
whatwasIsupposedtodoMelo?Il
ove
hi
my esbutt
hisi
simport
anttomethesame
waybeingadoct
ori
simportantt
ohim
Me:sowhat
?Hewassupposedt
ochoosey
ou
ov
ersavi
ngl
ives?
Her:Idi
dn’taskhi
mt omakeanychoi cesher
e
Melo.Arghcanwej ustt
alkaboutsomethi
ng
el
se,li
keYay abei
ngpreggies.Youmustbe
exci
ted
Me:
Idon’
tknowi
fIshoul
d
Her
:whatdoest
hatmean?
Me:
yest
erdayaf
terl
unchIr
ani
ntoThomas
Her
:and?
Me:
hement
ionedt
hatt
hecondom br
oke
Her:don’
ttellmey oubel
ievehim.Comeon
Melohewoul dsayany t
hingjustt
omakeyour
bl
oodboil.Weall knowthathehasawaywith
wordsthatjustt
icksyouoff
Me: beasitmay.Hewonbecauseheti
ckedme
offandIsaidsomewordsIt
oYay awhi
chI
cannottakeback
Her
:thenf
ixi
t.Maket
hingsr
ightwi
thherMel
o
Me:thismorni
ngIhadadream thatshewas
engagedtobemarri
edtohim andshewas
di
vorci
ngme.shewaspr egnantwit
hhisbaby
Shejustlaughed.Youknowthatannoyi
nglaugh
whichy oudon’tneedwhenyourhear
tisin
di
stress?Theki ndofl
aught
hatmakesy ou
wantt obursti
nt ot
ear
sandcry?Wellt
hatwas
herlaughandIhat edi
t.
Her
:itwasj
ustadr
eam.Cal
m down
Me:
what
everAsemahl
e
Her:
itwasjustadream Mel
ochi
l
l.Yay
awoul
d
nev
erleav
ey ouforThomas
Me:
yeahsoy
ousay
Her:
li
sten.Ihav
etogett
oset
,I’
l
lcal
lyoul
ater
ok
Me:
youshoot
ingascenet
hisl
ate
Her
:yeah.Dut
ycal
l
s.By
ebr
o,Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oosi
si/
/
JustthenYayawal kedinanddar eIsayshe
l
ookedbeautifulormay beit’
sbecauseoft he
dream Ihadandi twasmaki ngmeappr eci
ate
herevenmor e.Iranupt oherandpul l
edher
i
ntomyar ms.FeltlikeIhaven’tseenherinages.
Ipull
edherawayandki ssedherforehead.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Iwokeupandcal l
edmygy neaandaskedhert o
squeezemei nandsoshedi d.Iwast hr
ee
mont hsand3weekspr eggies.Thebabywas
thankfull
yMel o’
s.Idon’twantt olietoyouthe
wayIwassor el
ievedtoheart hatIwascar r
ying
myhusband’ schil
d!Ievenf orgotaboutwhat
wewentt hroughlastnight.That’show
ov er
joyedIwas.OnmywayhomeIpassedby
chickenlick’
nandboughtmy selfwingswit
h
vinegarandat ethem instorebef oreheadi
ng
home.Pl easedon’tjudgeme, Ilastatethis
mor ni
ngat6am, Ihadapi eandt hat’
snotal ot
i
fyouaskmesoy esIwaseat ingandIwas
eati
ngf ortwonowsoIhadev eryrighttoeat
thi
smuch.Themi nuteIwalkedi nMelopulled
mei ntohisarmsast houghhehadn’ tseenme
i
ny ears,i
twascut ehel ookedlikehewasabout
tocry.Afterhekissedmyf oreheadIl ookedup
athim andwi pedthel i
tt
letearhehadonhi s
eye
Me:
babear
eyouok?
Hi
m: pl
easedon’
tev
erl
eav
emel
i
ket
hat
.Iwas
wor
ri
edsick
Ijustl
ookedathi
m andl
aughed.Wast
hisman
forreal
?
Hi
m:soi
t’
sfunny
?
Me:babeIj
ustwentt
othegy
naet
hat
’sal
l
.No
needtowor
ry
Thi
swasr
eal
l
ycut
eyouguy
s.Idon’
tknowwhy
Melobecomesandemot ionalf
reakwhenI’m
pregnant
.It
’sl
ikehe’stheonethatgetsthe
hormonesandIt hecravi
ngsandsicknesses.I
wishallmypregnanciescouldgothi
sway .
Him: babyIdon’
tcar
ewhethert
hebabyi shi
sor
not.Iloveyousomuch.Pl
easejustnev
erleave
me
Icuppedhisfaceandjustadmir
edhisbeauti
ful
face.Hesti
ll
hadsomef adi
ngscar
sfrom t
hat
wholebeingtakenthi
ngy.
Me:
Mel
othebabyi
syour
s
Hi
m:what
?
Iletgoofhi
m andt
ookoutt
hescanandgav
eit
tohim.
Hi
m:t
hisi
sourbaby
Inodded.HesmiledandIcouldn’thel
pbut
smil
etoo.Hepickedmeupandhuggedme
ti
ghtl
yIcoul
dn’tevenbr
eathe.Ican’tr
emember
thel
asttimeIsawhimt hi
sexcited
Him: Ipromi setodorightbyy ou.Iknowhe
cameunderbadci r
cumst ancesbutt hankyou
Maf aku.IloveyousomuchandIsweart oGodI
will
spendt herestofourlivesmakingupf oral
l
thepai nIcausedy ou.Godt hankyousomuch
forthis.Il
ov eyou
Myl egswer ewrappedar oundhi swai standhe
j
ustmademef eelsuperl i
ght.Ikissedhim and
heki ssedmeback.Ourki ssgoti ntensesame
ti
meandt henextthingIknewi tIwassi tt
ingon
hisfaceandhewasscr ewi ngmewi thhi
s
tonguesogoodt akingmet opl acesIwantt o
stayi nforaslongasIl i
v ed.Afterthathe
fl
ippedmeov erandgotont opifmeandwe
hadani ntensewor kout.Byt hetimewewer e
doneIwasdr i
ppingwetwi t
hsweatandsowas
he.Yept hat’
showwedo.heki ssedmy
foreheadandsqueezedmyass.
Me:
mypussyi
sonf
ir
e
Hi
m:ai
ntnot
hingwr
ongwi
tht
hat
Me:
hey
!
Hi
m: y
eahy eahMafaku.I
’m al
sost
il
ltr
yingt
o
r
echargehere.May
beaf t
eranhour
Me:canIpl
easenapandwe’
l
ltal
kaboutt
hat
l
ater
Hi
m:f
ine
Ididn’
tev enwai tforhimt ocont i
nue, Ijust
dri
ftedof fstraighttol alaland.Isleptcont ent
knowingt hatIwascar ryingmyhusband’ schi l
d.
Godr eallydoesl istenst oourcr i
esbecauseI
prayedandhopedhar dthatt hischil
dwashi s.
WhenIl ostYasmi nIdi dn’tthinkI’
dfal l
pregnantsosoonandundert hecir
cumst ances
IdidbutI ’
m gr atefultohav e.Iwouldn’ tchange
anythingabouthowt hischi l
dwasconcei ved
becausenowi tbr oughtmeandhi sf ather
cl
osert hanweev erwer esot hankGod.We
hopingf oraboyt hist i
mear ound.
.
.
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13:
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E46
***“
…Iai ntneverhadnobodyshowmeal l
the
thi
ngst hatyouwoul dshowmei naspeci
alway
Ifeelwheny ouhol dmewegoi nal
waysbe
togetherbabyt hat
’swhatyoutol
dmeandI
beli
evedi tcauseIaintnev
erhadnobodydome
l
ikeyou…” ***
-
Mel
o
Wewer einDur banformypar ent
’sbir
thday
celebrat
ion.Dadhadt hissurpri
separtyplanned
formom.Di dn’twanttotel
lmewhathehad
plannedexact l
ybecausehedoesn’ tbeli
evethat
Iwouldbeabl etohideitfr
om mom.Yay awas
now5mont hsandshewasst art
ingtoshow
butwehav en’
ttol
dany onejustyeteitherthan
myt winnie…wellaft
ertheconv ersat
ionwehad
thatdayshedi dafoll
owupandIcoul dn’thi
de
i
tf r
om her .I
twasAugust27andYay aandI
weregi f
tshopping.Ireal
lydidn’
tknowwhatt o
getthewomanwhohasi tal
l
Me:
Yay
ayounothel
ping
Her
:yourmot
herl
i
ter
all
yhasev
ery
thi
ngbabe
Me:Iknowthatbuthel
pmepi
cksomet
hing
pr
ett
yforher
Her
:buyherheel
s.Shedoesn’
tgett
ir
edof
t
hose
Me:shehasawholeclosetf
il
ledwi
thheel
s.I
needsomethi
ngsent
imental
Her
:asky
ourf
athert
hen
Me:
youknowdad.Hepr
obabl
ydoesn’
t
r
emember
Her
:thenasky
ourauntSi
ya.Hav
en’
ttheybeen
f
ri
endsf
orl
i
kesi
ncef
orev
er?
Me:
that
’sact
ual
l
yagr
eati
deababe
Her:
awesome.Nowcanwegogetme
somethi
ngt
oeat
Ichuckl
ed.Iwasexpectingthatfr
om her.Yaya
andfood,sameWhat sAppgr oupItell
you.She
wouldevenkill
youforfood!Wewer ewalki
ng
aroundPavil
i
on.
Me:
whatdoy
ouf
eel
li
keeat
ing?
Her
:muggandbeanhai
bo!
Me:
ofcause.WhydoIev
enask?
Her:
actual
l
yIf eel
li
keeat
ingpi
zzabutt
hen
agai
nit
’sgoingtomakemev omit
Me:
I’
m sor
ry.Nopi
zzaf
ory
ou
Her:y
oumi ghtaswel
lshoul
dhav
etakent
he
si
cknessestoo
Me:what’st
hedoct
orsay
ingaboutt
he
si
cknesses?
Her:
thati
tsnormalandithappens.Chances
ar
eI’l
lbel
ikethi
sunti
lIgivebi
rth
Me:soify
ourbodyrefusesmi
l
k…howar
eyou
goi
ngtobreast
feed?
Her
:whosai
dIwasgoi
ngt
obr
east
feed?
Me:
whywoul
dn’
tyou?Br
eastmi
l
kisheal
thi
er
Her:
it’
sgoi
ngt
omakemyboobssagandI
don’
twantt
hat
Me:
ser
iousl
y
Her
:canwej
ustgogetf
oodal
ready
Wewentt oMuggandBeanandwer egiv
ena
tabl
eandsomemenu’ s.Shechosetheall
-day
Amer i
canbreakfastwhi
leIwentforaburger
andsomechi ps.Knowinghershewasgoi ngto
eatfr
om mypl atesomybur gerhadtonothave
cheeseini
t.Women!
Me:
Yay
awhydon’
tyouwantt
obr
east
feed?
Sheshr
uggedandsi
ppedonherj
uice.
Me:
Yay
a
Her
:babe
Me:
comeondon’
tbel
i
ket
hat
Her
:Mel
oI’
m scar
ed
Me:
whatdoy
oumeany
ouscar
ed?
Her:
whatifwhathappenedt
oMi
l
ahappenst
o
t
hisbaby
?
Me:
what
?
Iputmyhandoverher
sandInoti
cedshehad
tear
sinherey
eswhichshequi
ckl
ywiped
Her:IgotsoattachedtoYasyandbuil
ta
connecti
onwi t
hherandthenshewast aken
fr
om me.whati fthesamehappenstome?
Everyti
meIst artt
ogethappysomething
al
way ssnatchesmyhappinessawayfrom me
Me:Mafakul
ookatme.Nothingwi
l
lhappento
ourbaby
.Wewillseehi
m gr
owuptobet he
manheissupposedtobe
Her
:youpr
omi
se?
Me:
Ipr
omi
se.Iwi
l
ldoev
ery
thi
ngr
ightbyhi
m
Shenoddedanddr ankherjui
ce.Itpainsmet o
knowt hatt hi
swashowshef eltaboutt hi
s
pregnancy .Ouronl
ymistakewasmaki ngour
daught erapubli
cfi
gureandwe’ velearntfr
om
ourmi stakesnowandwewi l
ldobet terwit
h
thi
sone.
Her
:cal
lyouraunt
.
Me:
ohr
ight
.
It
ookmyphoneanddi al
eduncl
eAlu’
snumber
,
heknowshermorethanauntSi
yaoraunt
Anat
hieverdi
d.Heansweredaf
terawhil
e
/
/Me:
uncl
e
Hi
m:heynephewhow’
sitgoi
ng?
Me:
I’
m goodandhowar
eyou?
Hi
m:I
’
m al
sogood.TowhatdoIowet
hiscal
l
?
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
Ineedhel
p
Hi
m:ohGod
Me:don’
tpanici
tsnothi
ngbig.Tomor r
owis
mom’sbir
thdayandyougrewupwi thmom, l
ike
youwerether
emostofherchildhood.I’
mtr
ying
t
ogethersomethingsenti
mental
Him:somet
hingl
i
keherol
dfav
ori
tebookor
somethi
ng?
Me:yeahsomethi
ngl
i
kethat.Somet
hingt
hat
br
oughtherandBomicl
oser
Him:uhhhm Idon’
tknow.Letmet
hinkf
ora
second
Me:
ok…
Him:aft
ert hei
ncidentBomi gothert
histeddy
bearbutIdoubtitsti
llexists.I
tusedtosi
ng
somethingwheny oupr essi ti
nit
sbell
y.The
dayshel osti
tshewascr ushedandwecoul dn’
t
geti
tany whereel
seagai n
Me:
whatdi
ditsi
ng?
Hi
m: Idon’
tthi
nkIrememberbutI’
l
lsendyoua
pi
ctur
e.I’
m suret
here’
sapi
ctureofhercar
ryi
ng
i
tsomewher e
Me:
thanksuncl
e.Yout
hebest
Hi
m:Iknow.By
eson
Me:
bye/
/
Atl
eastweweregett
ingsomewher
e.YayaandI
at
eov eral
i
ghtconv
ersat
ionandawhilel
atera
pi
ctur
ecameinofmom holdi
ngtheteddybear
.
Me:
wehav
eat
eddybeart
ohunt
Her
:forwhat
?Ihav
en’
tev
engi
venbi
rt
hyet
Me:
notf
ory
ou.Formom
Her:
isn’
tMr
s.Bessal
i
ttl
etoool
dfort
eddy
bear
s?
Me:
shei
sb…
Her:exact
ly.Andwhatift
hatt
eddybeari
s
possessedandthenstart
sgoi
ngcrazyand
doi
ngt hi
ngs
Me:youneedtoqui
titwi
tht
hehor
ror
snow.
Theymakingy
ouparanoi
d
Her:
oldarti
fact
sbelonginmuseum orsome
exor
cist
’sbasementwheretheyar
eprayedf
or
andkeptawayfrom peopl
e
Me:
TheConj
uri
ngr
eal
l
ygoty
oupar
anoi
d
Her:I
’
m notbeingparanoi
d.I
’
mj ustsay
ingthat
whatifi
ttur
nsouttobepossessedandt heni
t
goesonakill
ingspr
ee
Icoul
dn’
thel
pbutl
augh
Me:
notev
eryt
oyt
urnsoutl
i
keChucki
ebabe
Her:
butwhatif.Melojustgetheranoldbook.
Somethingshewil
llov
eandwi l
llovet
oread
whenevershe’
sboredbecauset hesetoy
s
Me:youwat
chalotofmoviesbabeandIf
eel
l
iket
heymessi
ngwithyourheadnow.
Her
:let
’scal
lMahl
eandhearwhatshebought
Me:
fine.
Wecal
l
edAsemahl
eandsheanswer
edaf
ter
somet
ime
/
/Me:
tel
lmey
ounotsl
eepi
ng
Her
:sowhati
fIam
Yay
a:she’
sti
redbabe
Her:
myf avor
it
eoneandonl
ysi
steri
nlaw.How
ar
ey ouandourbaby
?
Me:
noway
s.Younothi
j
acki
ngt
hisonet
oo
Yay
a: I
’
llbor
rowy
ouhi
m whenev
erIgett
ir
edof
motheri
nghim
Ase:
yougoty
our
sel
fadeal
then.
Me:
youcomi
ngbackr
ight
?
Her
:haveyouseenthet
ime.Mom wil
lj
usthav
e
t
oforgi
veme.buthergi
ftshoul
dhav
earri
ved
t
hereal
ready
Me:
whatdi
dyougether
?
Her
:somet
eddybearshel
ovedasaki
d
Yay
ajustl
aughedatme
Yay
a:howof
tendoest
hishappen?
Us:
what
?
Yay
a:t
hiswhol
ehav
ingt
hesamei
deat
hing
Shesai
dlaughi
ng
Ase:wai
tyouwant
edt
ogetmom t
hesame
thi
ng?
Yay
a:buty
oubeathi
mtoi
t
Me:yeahnowIhav
etosear
chf
orsomet
hing
el
se
Ase:
shameman.Getherj
ewel
ry
Me:
shehasal
otofi
t
Yaya:
she’
sawoman.Nowomanget
ssi
ckof
di
amonds
Ase:
diamondsar
eagi
rl
’sbestf
ri
end
Me:
uhhhm f
ine.
Ase:
canIgetbackt
omysl
eepnow
Us:
fine
Yay
a:Il
ovey
ou
Ase:
Ilov
eyoumor
e
Me:
okby
esi
s//
Yay
a:whydi
dyoudot
hatf
or?
Me:
wewer
edonet
alki
ng
Yaya:yousoj
eal
ous.I
’
llcal
lherandwewi
l
lchat
forhours!
Me:
what
evercut
ie.Let
’sgo
Shestuckhert
ongueoutatmeandIj
ust
l
aughedather.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Thingsbetweenusweregreat
.Itwasli
kewe
j
ustf el
li
nloveandwecouldn’
tevenstayaway
fr
om eachotherforl
ong.Wewer ehappy.Wel
l
hewashappybutme, notsomuch.Idon’ t
knowIwasj ustscar edoft hispr egnancy .Also
consi deringt henumberAshant i’
sr ecent
mi scar r
iage.Idon’ tknowhowIf eel aboutthis
baby .I’m gladbutev erynowandt henIhav e
dreamsabouti tturningoutt obeThomas’ s
childandhav inghimi nmyl i
fef ort herestofmy
l
ife.Mymomentofweaknesseshaunt sme.
nowIcan’ ttellMelosuchbecausei twould
crushhi mt oknowt hatIhav edr eamsabout
him notbei ngourbaby ’
sf ather .IthinkIwentt o
threeGy naest oconf irm mypr egnancyandt hey
alldat ebackt othatni ghtwhenMel owasdr unk
meani ngt hechi l
dcannowaybeThomas’ ssoI
don’ tunder standwhyt hedr eams.May bei t
’s
becauseoft hisfearIhav e.Al sol oosingYasy
addst ot henumberoff earsIhav e,whati f
somet hinghappenst omeort ohi m af terIgiv
e
birth?Icannev erbeabl etohandl el osi
ng
anot herchi l
d.I tj
ustwoul dn’tbef airany more.
Weendedupget tingMr s.BessSnraJewel ry
boxwi t
hhernameengr av edonit.Appar entlyit
l
ookedl i
ket heoneBomi onceownedandshe
gav eittoMahl ewhenshewentof ftoVar sity.
Myhusbandgotsomet hingsent iment alafterall
.
Mr .andMr s.Besswer ef l
y i
ngintonightsoas
tonotr uint hesurpri
seherhusbandhad
plannedf orher .Onet hingIknowi sthati twas
goingt obeepi c.Thedr essheboughther ?
GoodGodhav emer cy!Thatmanhast astef or
day s.I’
mt heonl yonewhoknewwhatMr .Bess
hadpl annedf orhiswi feandIwashel pinghi m
throughout .Thev enuewasbookedand
ever yt
hingwasal r
eadysetf ort
omor row.Mel o
andIgothomeandher anmeani cebat h…by
homeImeanhi spar ent’shouse.
Me:
nowt
hisi
scoul
dgetusedt
o
Hi
m:Iknowr
ight
.Andy
oushoul
d
Me:
nccoooohar
en’
tyout
hesweet
est
Hi
m:ofcauseIam.I
’
m adr
eam
Me:
ohGod.Ngay
susa,
ngi
zoy
mel
a(Igot
ta
f
ini
shwhatIst
art
ed)
Helaughedandsodi dI.Igoti
nsi
demywat er
whichwast heper
fecttemperat
ureandithad
bubblesandbathsalt
s.Hegotinbehindme
andIjustrest
edonhischest
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou.Il
ovey
ouguy
ssomuch
Me:andwelovey
ouev
enmor
e.Mel
othanky
ou
f
orevery
thi
ng
Hi
m:ev
ent
houghIwasaj
erk?
Me:
don’
tst
artwi
thme
Heki
ssedmyneckandt
hatal
onewasenough
t
omakememoan
Me:
mmmmh
Hi
m:y
ouar
easexaddi
cty
eses!
Inudgedhi
m wi
thmyel
bow
Hi
m:ouch
Me:
cal
lmeanaddi
ctonemor
eti
me
Hi
m:b…
Inudgedhi
m agai
n
Him:fi
neI’m qui
et.Youneedt
ogi
vebir
th
al
ready,t
hesemoodswi ngsmnaIcan’
tdeal
anymore
Me:sowhenwegetoutofher
eyougonnagot
o
Ber
eari
ght?
Hi
m:t
odowhati
nBer
ea?
Me:
tobuyy
oubabychi
psatBP
Hejustl
aughedatme.It
urnedt
ohi
m and
sul
ked
Hi
m:babey
ouser
iouskant
i?
Me: y
oubabywant
schi
psf
rom BPwi
thal
l
sauces
Hi
m:t
hisi
sabuse!
Me:
don’
tyoudar
e.Inev
eraskedt
obepr
egnant
Him:Iknow.Iknow.I
’
m sor
ry.Iwi
l
lgogety
ou
yourchi
ps
Me:
lar
ge
Hi
m: Ibet
ternotheary
oucompl
ainabouty
our
wei
ghtke
Me:i
fIdon’
tcompl
aintotheper
sonfeedi
ngmy
cr
avi
ngsthenwhoshoul
dIcomplai
nto?
Hi
m:l
et’
stal
kaboutsomet
hingel
se
Me:
Ihav
en’
tfor
got
tenmychi
psMel
okuhl
e
Hi
m:Iknow.
Wehadani cepeacef
ulbathandaf
tert
hathe
wentdownonmeandt henlef
tmewhenIwas
aboutt
oorgasm.Saidhewaspunishi
ngmef or
thewhol
echipsthi
ngy.IwassomadathimI
wasevenpink.Att
hatmomentIhatedhim so
much.
.
.
<3
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12/
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13:
23]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E47
***“
…kissesli
kemar shmallowmel tonmyneck.
Whimsi cal
momentt oosweett ofor
get .Let
’s
getlostsomewher einthenight.Andt ell
your
stor
iesandI ’
l
ltel
lyoumi ne.I’
m bound, I’
m
boundI ’
m bound….Don’tstayhere,stayhere.I
needy ouaround.Stayhere,stayhere…”***
-
Yay
a
Iwaswokenbyami ll
ionsoftcoldwetkisseson
myf aceandonmyneck.Hi scolognewas
enought ogi vehim away.Ididn’
twantt oopen
myey esbybehi ndthemuskofhi sscentIcoul
d
smell mychi psandsuddenl yIwasnotmadat
hi
mf orli
vingmehangi nganymor e.ThewayI
wassopi ssedearli
eronIwentdr ysamet i
me
andjustgoti nbedandsl eptal
mosti nst
antl
y.
Hi
m:st
il
lmadatme?
Ikeptqui
etwhi
l
ehemassagedmyboobs
tur
ningmeon
Hi
m:Iknowy
ounotsl
eepi
ng
Istil
ldidn’
trespondbutinsteadani nvol
unt
ary
moanescapedmyl ipsandhej ustchuckl
edat
myneedf orsex.Iopenedmyey esandhewas
starri
ngr i
ghtint
othem.Godhewasabeaut i
ful
manwi ththoseeyesofhisthatdidwonder sto
meandsentchi ll
sdownmybody .Mybodywas
alreadyrespondingtohiscologne,hiswarm
breathandhi stouch.GodIwaspossessedI
swear .
Me:
wher
ear
ethey
?
Hi
m:what
?
Me:
Mel
oIcansmel
lthem.Don’
tpl
aywi
thme
Hi
m:JesusChr
ist
!Theyont
het
abl
e
Ili
teral
l
ypushedhi
m of
fofmeandwentt
othe
tableandopenedt
heboxandt
heywer
ejust
howIprefer
redt
hem,dri
ppi
ngwit
hall
sauces
butnott
oomuch.Itookafor
kanddugin
Hi
m:not
hanky
ou?
Ishookmyheadwi t
hmymout hstuff
edwit
h
theworl
d’sbestfr
iesIhadevert
asted.May
be
thatwasthepregnancytal
ki
ngbutGoddamn
theyweresogood
Hi
m:canIatl
easthav
esome
Ist
il
lshookmyhead
Hi
m:f
ine.NOmor
edi
ckf
ory
ou
Il
it
erall
ychokedonmychipsandhest
art
ed
l
aughingatme.Itr
iedt
oswall
owslowl
yandit
workedbuthewasstil
ll
aughi
ngatme.Ij
ust
sul
ked
Hi
m:y
oushoul
dhav
eseeny
ourf
ace
Ithr
ewapi
l
lowathi
m andheduckedandi
thi
t
thewal
l
Hi
m:andy
ousayy
ounotanaddi
ct
Itookmyf r
iesandwal kedout.Iwasreal
lyhurt
thatMelowoul dthr
eatenmel i
kethatespeci
all
y
afterhepunishedmet oday
.Hewasgonef or2
whol ehour
sormay bemor e.Thetri
pfrom Glen
AshlytoBereawasnotashor tone.Hecaught
myar m asIwasaboutt owalkdownt hestai
rs.
Hewashol dingbacklaughter
Me:
letgoofme
Hi
m:Maf
akuwher
ear
eyougoi
ng?
Me:
towat
cht
vint
hel
ounge
Hi
m:butwecanwat
cht
heonei
nmyr
oom
Me:
Idon’
twantt
oo
Hi
m:butbabenawemosy
oudon’
twantt
ogi
ve
mesome
Me:
keepy
ourdi
ckandI
’
llhav
emyf
ri
es.I
tsf
ine
Hi
m:Maf
akuIwasj
ustpl
ayi
ngwi
thy
ou
Me:
canIgoandeatmyf
ri
esi
npeace
Hi
m:ouch
Me:
letgoofme
Hi
m: xolokal
okuMf
azi
wam y
hini
(I’
m sor
rymy
wi
fe.Please)
Icouldneverfullygetusedt oMel ospeaking
Xhosaandhowf luenthewasi nit.Goshyou
wouldswearhewasspeaki ngFr enchor
Spanishthewayhej ustsoundedsexywhenhe
spoke.I’
m usedt odatingXhosamen, it’
sall I
’
ve
everbeenwi thbutnoneoft hem ev ercame
cl
oset ohowsexyMel omadeXhosasound, the
wordsjustrolledoutofhi stongue.The“ Mf azi
wam”par tjustmademykneesgoweak.
Whenev erhebegsmeheal way susesmycl an
namesorsomet hingbutnev er“Mf azi
wam” .I
couldfeelmycheeksget t
ingpinkbyt hemi nute
Hi
m:smi
l
eformepl
ease
Hesai
dwi
tht
hatchar
mingsmi
l
eofhi
s
Hi
m:NcumakalokuZi
qel
ekazi
(Smi
l
e
Zi
qel
ekazi
(cl
anname)
)
Itr
iedfi
ghti
ngtheedget osmilebutIl
ost
becausehereIwaslookingatmyhusbandand
smili
ng,f
orget
ti
ngthatIwasmadathi mjusta
secondago.Wewal kedtohisroom and
watchedtvwhil
eeatingmyf r
ieswithhi
m.Af t
er
eati
ngIgotontopofhi m,Iwasgoingtogetmy
Donewayort heother.
Hi
m:y
oudon’
tgett
ir
edhuh?
Me:
youwantmet
ost
op?
Igr
indi
ngonhi
m andki
ssi
nghi
sneck
Hi
m:hel
lno!
Me:
nowshutup
Icontinuedkissi
nghim andthenhel pedhi
m
takehist -
shi
rtoffwhil
ehehel pedmet akeoff
mine.Ihadf r
eedt henippl
efrom ourshower
andIwasn’ twearinganyunder wear…easy
access: P…Wehadanamazi ngst eamy
sessi
onandt henMelot ol
dmet odressuphe
wast akingmeout .Idi
dn’twearany thi
ngfancy
,
j
ustasimpl ewhitedressandapai rofcuteof
pinkruf
fl
edt ekki
esIgotf r
om TheFi x…y esI
stil
lwor
enor mal cl
othesfrom normal dail
y
shops.IwasYandi swabef or
eIwasYandi swa
Bess.Wegott otherest
aurantonFl ori
daroad,
i
twasal readyaround6pm.Wegoti nandi twas
notpackatal l
,wewer eledtoat ablefortwo
andwesatdownandl ookedthrought hemenu
Wait
er:
Hellomynamei sNikoandI
’l
lbeyour
wait
erf
ortheday.CanIgetyousomethi
ngto
dr
inkwhil
eyoudecide?
Mel
o:I
’
llhav
eagl
assofr
edwi
ne,
dry
Ilookedathi
mt hi
nki
ngofjusthowmuchI
wishedIcouldhaveagl
assofredwine,sweet
rosétobeexactbutI
’m pr
egnantandIcan’
t
haveanyalcohol
.
Me:
I’
ll
hav
eamangoj
uicet
hanky
ou
Hetookouror
der
sandl
eft
.Mel
olookedatme
andchuckl
ed.
Me:
whatnow?
Hi
m:Iknowhowmuchy
ouwer
edy
ingt
oor
der
wi
ne
Me:
yeahwhat
ever
Hi
m:sor
rySt
handwasam
Me:
scr
ewy
ou
Hi
m:y
oual
readydi
d.Mul
ti
plet
imes
Me:
cont
rol
your
sel
fMel
okuhl
emahn
Hi
m:whatdi
dIdo?
Me:
Iknowt
hatt
one
Hechuckl
edt
hatl
azyl
aughofhi
s.
Hi
m:f
ine.I
’
llbehav
eMr
s.
“
Cuz,
Yay
a.”
Il
ookedupandGoodGodcomet
hroughpl
ease!
.
.
-
Mel
o
Ifeel l
ikeit’
sbeenawhi l
esi nceYayaandIat e
out .Asi nwentoutoft hehouset ogoandhav e
dinnerandt odayIf eltli
kespoi li
nghertoher
favor i
teplaceher einDur banandt heysellthe
bestwi netoo.Ir eallyenjoyget ti
ngonher
ner vesshame, sheget st i
ckedof fbythetiniest
thingandi t
scut ei nmyey es.Iwatchedher
unabl et ohavewi ne,wel lYay apref
ersherwi ne
sweetandIpr efermi nedr y.LucandIkeepi n
touchev erynowbutev ersinceIsettl
eddown
hehasn’ tbeeninmyl i
feasmuchandIdon’ t
under standwhy .Weonl yev erseeeachot her
dur i
ngf ami l
yev entsandl astti
mewesaweach
otherwasatYasy ’sfuner al sohonestl
yIdon’ t
knowwhatexact lyitisIdi dt omycousin.I
l
ookedupandhewaswi thOl ona.Ofallpeople,
whyher ?
Me:
heycuz,
Olona
Yay
awasannoy
edbyt
hesi
ghtoft
hem.I
t’
sno
secrett
hatmywi f
edoesn’tl
ikeOlonaone
singl
ebitandLonahasn’tgi
venherreasont
o
l
ikeher.Olonawaspregnant
, whowouldhav
e
thought
?
Lona:
heyguy
s
Luc:
Ithoughtyouwer
einJobur
g?Whendi
d
yougethere?
Me:
it’
sbeenaweeknow
Ourdr
inkscameandYay
acoul
dn’
tbehappi
er.
Luc:
andyoudi
dn’
tthi
nkt
otel
lyourcousi
n.I
l
astsawy
ouwhenagain
Yay
a:Yasy
’sf
uner
al
Lona:Ihear
daboutyourdaught
er.Iwassadt
o
hearabouther
.I’
m sor
ry
Yay
a:t
hanks
Me:
thanks
Luc:
wehavetomeetupwhi
l
eyouher
e.When
areyoul
eav
ing?
Me:
Tuesday
Idon’
twantt
oli
eIjustwasn’
tint
erest
edi
nthe
small
tal
kandthat
’swhatLucwasdoingri
ght
now
Yaya:congr
atzont
hepr
egnancy
.Howf
arar
e
you?
Lona:
we7mont
hspr
egnant
Me:
we?
Luc:yeahwe.Weengagedact
ual
l
y.We’
l
lbe
gett
ingmarr
iedt
hisDecember
Yaya:congr
atul
ati
ons.Yout
wodeser
veeach
other
Lona:
uhhm t
hanks
Luc:
uhhm weshoul
dgo.CuzIwi
l
lcal
lyou
Me:
sur
e.Enj
oyt
her
estofy
ourni
ght
Them:
bye
Us:
bye
Me:
andt
hesar
casm?
Her
:whatsar
casm?
Shesai
dwitht
hemostwidestsmi
l
e.Thi
s
womansit
ti
ngopposi
temewassomethi
ngel
se
Iswear
.If
oundmysel
flaughi
ng
Her
:we7mont
hspr
egnant
Shesai
dimitat
ingOlona’
sv oi
ceandIcoul
dn’
t
hel
pbutlaughatherimpressi
on
Me:
your
eal
l
ydon’
tli
keherhuh?
Her:shehasn’
tgi
venmereasont
o.Shet
hrew
shadeatmef r
om dayone
Me:It
houghty
ourfeel
i
ngst
owar
dst
hem woul
d
hav
echangedbynow
Her
:nah.St
il
lthesame.Luchasn’
tdone
any
thi
ngtomakemel ikehi
m
Me:
ist
haty
ouort
hepr
egnancy
?
Her:
bot
h.Nooff
ensebuty
ourcousi
nhas
al
waysbeenf
aketowar
dsme.Idon’
tknowwhy
Me:
Luci
sjustLucbabe
Her
:ri
ght
.
Ijustchuckled.Yepshedi dn’tli
keLucandwho
coul dblameheraf tert
hest untsLuchasev er
pulled.Ay earaft
erourmar r
iagewemetLucat
mypar ent’
sanniversaryandy etagai
nhewas
tryi
ngt osetmeupwi t
hOl onaandYay afound
out, t
hingsthatnightdidn’
tgosowel l
Lucl ef
t
withOl ona.I’
m actuall
yshockedt hattheyare
toget herandengaged.Imeanwhendi dthat
happened?
Her
:whendi
dtheyhappen?
Ishr
ugged?
Her:oneminut
ehe’str
yingtohooky
ouupwi
th
herandthenexthe’
sknockedherup
Me:
Iknowr
ight
Her:y
ourcousi
nneversei
zest
oamazeme
shame.Pr
opstohim
Il
aughedatherandt
henourwai
tercameand
wepl acedouror der s.Sheaskedt oexcuse
her selftogopee.Whi leshewasi nthel oomy
phonev i
bratedindictingamessage.I twas
numberunknownandt hetextr ead“Youst il
l as
handsomeasev er.Iseewi f
eyi streatingy ou
wel l.Itwasni cetoseey ouandIhopewecoul d
meetupsomeot hert imeandcat chup; ).
Lona”Ir eadt hetextandchuckl edalone.What
thehel l
?Wasn’ tshepr egnantwi thmycousi n’s
kid?Whywasshesendi ngmesucht exts
any way ?Anot hertextf oll
owed“ Seei
ngy out ook
mebackt ot heamazi ngnightsweusedt ohav e
toget her.Imi ssyouMel o.Lona”Ir eadt he
secondoneandIser iousl
ycoul dn’tbelievemy
eyes, wasn’tsheint hecarwi thmycousi n?
Anot heronegoti n“ whatwehadwasspeci al
andIr eall
ymi ssit.IknowIshoul dbeov ery ou
alreadybutI ’
m stil
lnotov ery ou.Ican’ tbeov er
youespeci all
yaf t
ert oday.Ilovey ouMel o.
Lona”Ij ustreadthet extandl ockedmyphone
andputi tinmypocket .Whatt hehel lwasgoi ng
onher
e?Yay
acamebackandsatdown
Me:
youok?
Her
:Ij
ustgotacal
lfr
om Kat
e.Shesay
sKy
lei
s
i
nhospi
tal
Me:
what
?
Her:shesaysthedoct
orsai
ditwasn’
tanyt
hing
seri
ous.He’
sjustcomingupwit
hthefl
uthat’
s
al
l.He’ssl
eepi
ngnow.
Sheputherheadov
ermi
ne
Her:heydon’
tworr
yhe’
sfi
ne.Kat
esay
she
shouldbeouttomor
row
Ithi
nkshecouldseetheworr
ywrit
tenallov
er
myf ace.Iwasscar
edformyson.Ineededto
call
andcheckonhi m
Her
:wecanal
way
sgohomebabe
Me:
nol
et’
sjustenj
oyt
her
estoft
oni
ght
Her
:yousur
e?
Me:
he’
sget
ti
ngoutt
omor
rowr
ight
?
Her
:yes,
b…
Me:
nobut
s.He’
sgoi
ngt
obef
ine
Shejustnodded.Atl
easti
twasn’
tsomet
hing
ser
ious.
.
.
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:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E48
***“…Youf ixyourmake- up,j
ustso.Guessy ou
don’tknowt hatyou’
rebeaut i
ful.Tryonev er
y
dresst hatyouown, youwi ll
findi nmyey esa
halfhourago.Andi fyourmi rr
orwon’ tmakeit
anyclear erI’
llbetheonet olety ouknow.Outof
al
l ofthegi r
lsy oumyoneandonl ygir
l,ai
nt
nobodyinthewor l
dt onight.Allofthestar
syou
makethem shi neli
ket heyy our
saintnobodyin
theworldbuty ouandI …Youst opt heroom
whenwewal ki n,spot l
ightsonev erybody’
s
star
ri
ng.Tellalloftheseboy stheywast i
ngtheir
ti
me.Stopstandi nginl i
necausey ou’r
eallmine.
AndthiseveningIwon’ tletthefeeli
ngdie,I
neverwannal eavey oursi de…”***
-
Yay
a
Mr .Besssnrwaspl anni ngonr ecreatinghis
weddi ngdayorasy ouguy scallit
, r
enewi nghis
vowsi nfrontofhi sf ami l
y .Thedécorwasasi t
wasonhi sweddi ngdayj ustal it
tl
el essbi g
thanitwasbecausehewant edthist obean
i
ntimat efami l
yandcl osef r
iendst hing.Itwas
beautiful
,itmademef eel li
keIwast her
eon
theirweddi ngdayev ent houghIwasn’ tthere.
Mr s.Besswast urning48, Idon’ tknowwhyt he
oldmandeci dedt hat48wast her i
ghtaget o
renewt heirvowsbutwhoam It oarguewi t
hmy
fatherinlaw?Hewasexci tedandMr s.Bess
wasnormal.Ihadmadebr eakf
astf oral
l ofus
andwewer esitt
inghav i
ngbreakfastwithher,
Mr.Bess,Si
ya,ZukisaandJen.Jenar r
ivedlast
ni
ghtandSiyaandZuki sacamet hismor ning
j
ustinti
mef orbreakfast
…wel lIi
nvitedthem
over
.Ihadmadeenoughany way.Theirsonand
Nit
awer efl
yingi
nt odayintheafternoonandso
werethei
rotherfamilymember sandMr s.
Bess’
ssibli
ngs.
Ama:
that
’senoughKot
i,si
tdownnow
Me:
ohcomeonMaI
’
m al
mostdone
Ama:youcan’
tbest
andi
ngf
orl
ongi
nyour
condi
ti
on
It
urnedt
olookatMel
oandwenttositnextto
hi
m andhetr
iedt
oholdmeundert
het abl
ebutI
movedmyhandtothetabl
eandst
art
edeat i
ng
Jen:
whatcondi
ti
on?
Ama:
she’
spr
egnant
Igav
eMel
oadeat
hst
are.It
houghtwewer
en’
t
goi
ngt
otel
lthem
Him:don’
tgi
vemet
hatl
ook.Idi
dn’
ttel
lherI
swear
Ama:ohcomeon.I’m notstupi
d.Iknowwhena
womanispregnant
.Yout hi
nkIdon’theary
oui
n
themor
ningsandyourmi dni
ghtsnacks
Ifl
ushedi nembar r
assment .Thi swoman.Why
shebeput ti
ngmybusi nessoutt here?We
conti
nuedconv ersi
ngov erl ightconv ersation
andmypr egnancyandhowhappyt heywer e
andst uf
f.Mybabywasgoi ngt obespoi ltrott
en.
Theywer eal lj
usthappyf orus.Lat eronat6,
weheadedt oDer ri
ck’spar ents’ housebecause
that’
swher ebigf ami l
yev entsar ehel dany way.
Thelighti
ngi nthet entwasbeaut i
ful.Iy
ana
welcomedev eryonet ohermot her’sbi r
thday
andev ery
thingwentwel l.Mr s.Besswal kedi n
withherHusbandandMel osangYouandI ,
apparentl
yt heyhadt hei
rf i
rstdancet othesong
whent heygotmar riedandMr .Besswant edto
r
ecreatethatmoment
.Itwasj
ustr
omant
icI
wasjealous.
Dae: whenImety ou, y
ouwer ej ust17and
aboutt ostartvarsit
ythenexty ear .GoodGod
yougav emehel lforbumpingi ntoy ouand
droppingy ourphonei ntheprocess.Li ttl
edid
youknowt hatIplannedi t
.Iwasr eal l
yhoping
thatyouwoul dt akemyphonet hatwayIwoul d
gettoseey ouagai nbutmyancest orsandt he
wholeofheav enwasonmysi debecauset he
foll
owingy earwebumpedi nt
oeachot herand
youjusthappent obef ri
endswi thmybest
fri
end’ssisterJen…she’ l
lmurdermei fIdon’t
ment i
onhername.
Weal
ll
aughed.WeknowJenandshecr
azi
er
t
hant
hewordcrazy
.
Jen:
obv
iousl
y.Ihav
eaname
Weal
ll
aughed
Dae:Mr
s.BessIhavel
earntal
otfrom you.
We’v
ebeenatthi
sforabout30yearsnowand
wegr owi ng.Yeahi t’
sbeent hatlongsi nce
we’veknowneachot herandImadeanamazi ng
choiceher ebecauset here’snobet terwoman
thanmybeaut i
fulwifeov erher e.Thingswer en’
t
easy,ther eweret i
mesI ’
m sur eyouf eltli
ke
throwingi nthetowel butyounev erdidbecause
thelovey ouhadf ormeov ercamewhat ever
obstaclei twast hatwewer ef acingandf orthat
Iam gr ateful
.Maf akut hanky ouf oreverythi
ng
thusfar .Ihavenoi deawher eIwoul dbe
withouty ou.Ilovey ouSt handwasam.
Mrs.Besswipedhertear
sbl
ushi
ngatwhather
husbandhadjustsai
d
Ama: Iwon’tliethiscaughtmeoffguard.To
whoev erhelpedy oupullt
hisof
f,t
hanky ou
causeIknowmyhusbandwoul dn’thav
ebeen
ablet
odoi talone.
Weal
ll
aughedandsodi
dshe
Her
:Honey
.Thankyou.Il
it
erall
yhavenowor
ds
t
ogoonafterwhaty
ou’vesaideit
hert
han
thanky ou.Youhavedonemor ethanahusband
andaf athershouldinmyli
feandthekidsli
fe.
Sot hanky ouBess.Uhhm t
hankyoual l
for
comi ngandenjoytherestofyoureveni
ng
Wecl appedf orthem andal lwaswel l.My
batterywasf l
atsoIwasusi ngMel o’sphonet o
prettymuchdomostt hings, l
iket akev i
deos
andst uff.At extcamet hr oughf rom anunsav ed
number“ meetmeneart heguestbedr oom
ASAP.Lona”It hi
nkIr eadt het extaboutt hree
ti
mest r
yingt omakesenseofwhot heper son
was.WasMel ocheatingonmeagai n?Iwas
pissed.Coul dLonabeOl ona?If i
guredl etme
got ot heguestbedr oom upst airsandwhatdo
youknow, shewasl eani ngagai nstthedoor .
Aftert het extIwentt hroughMel o’smessages
andt hisgi rlhasbeent ext inghim si ncel ast
nightatdi nner.Idon’tunder standwhyMel o
didn’tthinkt oinform.Shewasbusyonher
i
Phonet hatshedi dn’tnot i
ceme.Iwal kedov er
toherandt hrewherahotsl apwhi chcl early
shockedherandshel
ookedatmest
unned.She
hel
dhercheek
Me:youhavesomener
veyouknowt
hat.I
cl
ear
lyunder
esti
mat
edyouthi
sti
mearound
Shewasst i
llshockedfrom mehav ingslapped
herlikethat.Iwaspissedbecausenotonl ywas
shedi sr
espect i
ngmebutshewas
disrespecti
ngmymar ri
age.ImeanIl etherwalk
al
l overmyr elati
onshi
pwhi l
ewewer estil
l
datingbutthis?ThisIwon’ttol
erate.Thi
si s
whatwecal linXhosa“Isi
sgezo”(beingsil
ly)
.
Me:somanyt i
mesI
’
veletyougetawaywith
di
srespect
ingmebutnotthi
sti
meOl ona.I
’
ve
haditwit
hy ou.
Idon’
tknowwhatt ookovermebutIwas
sl
appingherrepeatedlyandIdidn’tev
encare
aboutherbeingpregnantbecauseshehad
gonetoofar.Thi
scr azybit
chstandingbefor
e
mehadsentMel onudes, I’
mt alki
ngpict
uresof
hervagi
natypeofnudes.If el
tsomeonepul l
ing
meawayfrom herwi
thapi
eceofherweav
ein
myhand.
Me:
letgoofme
Voi
ce:
Kot
ithi
sisnowayt
obehav
e
Everyt
hingwentbl
ankwhenIr eal
i
zedthati
t
wasmyf at
herinl
awspeaking.Al
onewaseven
bleedi
ngnowandt heslapsonherfacewer
e
too.Li
ghtskinsbr
uiseeasi
ly
Hi
m: y
ougocl
eany
our
sel
fupandmeetmei
n
t
heroom.
Hesaidt
alkingtoOlonaandt henheletgoof
me.Iwasev enbreat
hingfi
re.Ithi
nkit’
smyfir
st
t
imeI’
veev ergot
tenviol
entwi t
hanyone…in
t
hisageI
’mi n.
Hi
m:whati
sthemeani
ngoft
hisYandi
swa?
Icomposedmy sel
f.Hewasclearl
ywai
ti
ngfor
anexpl
anati
on.ItookoutMel
o’sphonefr
om
mypocket,
mydr esshadpocketsandunl
ocked
Melo’
sphoneandwentt ohi
smessagesand
handedittoMr.Bess.Tal
kingwasonl ygoi
ngto
makemecr y
,theangerIhadwast hatofa
l
umpyt hroat
.Hekeptquietforawhileandjust
scrol
l
ed.Ithi
nkhegott othepict
uresbecause
hepressedtheescapebuttonandhandedme
thephone.
Hi
m:uhhm
Mel
owal
kedt
owar
dsus
Hi
m:ther
eyouare.I
’
vebeenl
ooki
ng
ev
ery
wherefory
ou
Hestoppedt
alki
ngthemi nutehesawhow
pi
ssedIwas.That’
sthethingaboutMelo,
he
wasabletor
eadmel ikehisfavor
it
ebook.
Hi
m:mi
net
alkt
ome.Dadwhat
’sgoi
ngon?
Dad:
fixt
hingswi
thy
ourwi
fe
Hesaidt
hatandwalkedaway.JustthenOlona
showedupandshewasbr ui
sed.Seeingher
mademeangryall
ov eragai
nwhichwasnot
heal
thyf
ort
hebaby.
Hi
m:Maf
akul
ookatme
Iwashesi
tantbuthet
urnedmyf
acet
ohi
m and
hecuppedit
Hi
m:what
’sgoi
ngon?
Me:
wher
edi
dshegety
ournumber
?
Hi
m:huh?
Isl
appedhi
m
Hi
m:WhoaYandi
swawhatt
hehel
l
?
Iwasaboutt
osl
aphi
m agai
nbuthehel
dmy
hand.
Me:
letgoofme
Hi
m: soyoucansl
apmeagai
n?No.Whatdi
dI
doYandi
swa?
Me:
wheredid“
lona”gety
ournumber
Mel
okuhl
e?
Hel
etgoofme.
Hi
m:whydon’
tweaskher
?
Hel
etgoofmyhandandt
urnedt
olookather
Hi
m:whathappenedt
oyou?
Her:
yourwi
fewental
lsupersey
an(
howeveri
ts
spel
tdr
agonbal
lzwatcher
s)onmyface
Ichuckl
ed,wasshereal
lygoi
ngtotestmey
et
again?Af
tert
hestuntshepul
led?
Me:
deal
wit
hyouhoeMel
okuhl
e
Iat
tempt
edwalki
ngbuthehel
dmyar
m,I
l
ookedathi
shandonmyarm
Me:remov
eyourhandbef
oreIgoal
l“super
sey
an”onyout
oo
Hechuckl
edsar
cast
ical
l
y.
Hi
m:Ol
onaIt
hinki
t’
sti
mey
oul
eft
Her
:what
?
Him:mywifei
spregnantandshedoesn’
tneed
youst
ressi
ngherout
Ichuckl
ed
Her
:she’
stheonewhoat
tackedme
Him:maybei
fyouhadst
ayedawaythenshe
woul
dn’
thave.Ol
onaj
ustl
eavebef
oreIthr
ow
youout
Shecli
ckedhert
ongueandwal
kedawaywi
th
hert
ailbet
weenherl
egs.Het
urnedt
ome
Hi
m:ar
eyoucr
azy
?
Me:
excuseme?
Hi
m:youcan’
tjustgoar
oundhit
ti
ngpr
egnant
womenYandi
swa.Shecouldl
ayachar
ge
Me:
thensobei
t
Hechuckl
ed.
Him:youwanttospendani
ghtinpr
ison?Fine
bymebutnotwhileyoucar
ryi
ngmybaby .
That
’snotgoi
ngtohappen
Me: howaboutyouexplai
ntomewhyyoudi
dn’
t
tel
lmeabouty ourhoesendi
ngy
outext
sand
nudes?
Hi
m:whatnudesYandi
swa?
Me:
don’
tpl
aydumbwi
thme.
Him:Ireal
lyhavenoideawhatyouaret
alki
ng
about.Andincaseyouhaven’
tnoti
cedIwas
toobusywor r
iedaboutmysontoevenopen
thosemessages
Me:
ohspar
emet
hecr
ap
Hi
m: youwannabediff
icul
tthenf
inebyme.but
doi
tsomeot hert
imeandnotduringmy
mother’
sspeci
alday
.
Hel
etgoofme
Him:Ididn’
tgiv
eOl onamynumberandIdon’t
knowwher eshegoti tfr
om.Iwasgoingtot
ell
youaboutitbutthemi nutey
outoldmeabout
Kyl
ey ester
dayitsl
ippedmymi nd.Sor
ry
Hewal
kedawayandIhel
dhi
sar
m.
Me:
sthandwasam
Hej
ustl
ookedatme
Me:
I’
m sor
ry
Him:I
’l
lnev
erjeopar
dizewhatwehav e
Yandi
swa.Notforanykindofpussy
.
Icoul
dn’thel
pbutl
aughathisl
astst
atement
.
Hepull
edmet omeandthenki
ssedmeonmy
for
ehead.
Him:nextt
imedon’
tbegoi
ngondr
agonbal
lz
carr
yingmybaby
Ilaughedandsodidhe.Wewenttogetme
cleanedupandthenheadeddownst
air
stoj
oin
theparty.
.
.
Iwasnowv er
ymuchv isibl
eandIwas7mont hs
preggiesandhappi l
yinlovewit
hmyhusband
andbabydaddy .Hewasasweet heartandhe
cateredtomyev er
yneedandIwon’ tl
ieIwas
enjoyingtheroyalt
reatmenteit
herthanhim
overdoingitbecauseIwasn’tall
owedt odri
veor
goany wher ewithoutaguar d.Olonanev er
pressedchar gesandshest oppedcont acti
ng
Meloandsentmeadm onI nst
agram
apologizi
ngf orev er
ythingandIdi dn’
trespond
becauseIdi dn’tfeell
ikeit.SheandLucwer eco
-parent
ing;theybr okeupaf terhefoundout
abouthert exti
ngMel o.Iwasatt hemal l
walkingwithoneoft heguar ds.Hewast ell
ing
meabouthi slatewi f
eandt hei
rbeauti
fulki
ds
Me:sowoul
dn’
tyourat
herbewi
tht
hosekids
i
nst
eadofbaby
sit
ti
ngthisol
dwomanri
ghthere?
Hi
m:y
ouonl
y24ma’
am
Me:
andyouol
denought
obemyf
ather
.Itj
ust
f
eel
swrong
Him:
bei
ngherepay
sthebi
l
lsandt
hegr
ocer
ies
andt
hefees
Ichuckl
ed
Me:
arewepay
ingy
oumor
ethanweshoul
d
Webot
hlaughed
Hi
m:I
’
m notsay
ingnot
hing
Ij
ustlaughedathowhesai
ditwi
ththatghet
to
accentfr
om thoseAf
ri
canAmeri
canmov i
es.
“
Isi
tmi
ne?
”
Idi
dn’twantt
oturnaroundbutwhowasI
ki
dding?Wewer eduri
ngthepeopleandthi
s
wasgoingtocir
culat
eonli
neifIdon’
tatt
endto
i
tnow.
Me:
Thomas
Hi
m:soi
sitmi
ne?
Me:
sadl
yno.
Hi
m:y
oul
yi
ng
Me:
whatpr
oofdoy
ouneed?
Hi
m:adnat
est
Me:
whenmybabyi
sbor
nI’
l
lhal
aaty
ou
Hi
m:noYandi
swal
etsgot
othehospi
tal
now’
Me:
uphambene!(
youmad)
.
.
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17,
13:
24]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E49
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Yay
a
Thomas:
excuseme?
Me:
whi
chpar
tdi
dn’
tyouget
?
Hi
m:Yandi
sway
ouowemet
hatmuch
Me:
owey
out
hatmuchf
orwhat
?
Him:
yourhusbandput
ti
ngmeinahospi
tal
bed
andmenotpressi
ngchar
ges
Me:t
hatwasy ourchoi
ceThomas.Enj
oyt
he
r
estofyourday
Isai
dwal
ki
ngawayandhegr
abbedmyar
m.
Guar
d:si
rremov
eyourhandpl
ease
Thomas: andwhothehelli
sthis?ArghIdon’t
care.YandiswaIwantpr
oofthatthi
sbabyy ou
arecarryi
ngisnotmine
Me:
letgoofme.NOW!
Hel
ookedatmeandl
etmyar
m go.
Me: i
fitwereyour
sI’
dbe6mont hspr
egnant
butI’
m not.I
’m 6monthsand3weekspregnant
goingon4weeksandt hismakesi
tmy
husband’sbaby.
Withthatwewal kedaway.Iwasr eall
ypissed
thatthisguywoul dpul
lastuntl
i
ket hatonme.
Itwasmybi rthdaytomorr
owandIaskednott o
celebratei
tbecauseIreal
lywasnotupf orit
especiall
ysinceitwasmineandMi la’
s.
Guar
d:Ma’
am ar
eyouok?
Me:yesI’
mf i
ne.Uhmm canwej
ustheadhome,
It
hinkI
’m donefort
heday
Hi
m:sur
e
Weheadedtothecarandwedr ovestr
aight
home.Iwasquietal
lthewayhome.Hedr opped
meoffandIwentinsi
deandjusttookanap.I
wasn’
tint
hemoodf oranythi
ng.Iwaswoken
upbyMeloki
ssingmyf or
ehead
Hi
m:hel
l
osl
eepyhead
Me:
heybaby
Isai
dwithmyeyeshalfcl
osed.Het
ookof
fhi
s
shoesandbl
azerandgotinbehi
ndme
Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngok?
Me:
yeah.Ij
ustmi
ssedy
out
hat
’sal
l
Hi
m: ifonlyyousawtheamountofmissedcall
s
Il
eftony ourphoney
ouwouldn’
tbesayingthat
Me:Iwastooti
redandf
astasl
eept
ohearmy
phone.Sor
ry
Hi
m:babe,
tal
ktome
It
urnedt
ohi
m andhewasl
ooki
ngatmewi
th
concer
nedey
es
Hi
m:i
sitt
hebaby
?
Me:nothebabyi
sfine.TodayIbumpedi
nto
Thomasatthemall
Hekeptqui
et.Idi
dn’tknowwhathewas
thi
nki
ngatt
hatmomentbutI ’m sur
ehehad
kil
l
edThomasat housandti
mesi nhismi
nd
Me:
hewantsustodoaDNAt
estt
oseei
freal
l
y
t
hebabyi
snothi
s
Hi
m:ov
ermydeadbody
.Ihopey
out
oldhi
m
t
hat
Me:ofcauseIdi
d.I
’
m notput
ti
ngmyunbor
n
babyatr
isk
Hi
m:good
Hepul
ledmetohi
m andpl
ant
edasoftki
sson
myli
psandt
henhebrokei
taf
tersometi
me
Hi
m:sot
omor
rowi
t’
syourbi
rt
hday
Me:
real
l
y?Mmmh…I
’
dfor
got
ten
Hi
m:r
eal
l
ynow?
Ikeptqui
et
Hi
m:Iknowwhaty
out
hinki
nganddon’
t
Me:
Ijust
Him:don’t.i
t’
snoteasyforget
tingherbecause
wenotsupposedt oforgether.Yasyisina
bett
erplaceandweneedt ocelebrat
eherl i
fe
rat
hertomour nher.Sheisahugepar tofour
l
ivesandwi ll
alway
sbe.Godbl esseduswi tha
happychildwhowoul dn’
twantt oseeuscr ying
onherbirthdaywhenwecoul dbecel ebrat
ing
Inodded.Hesmi ledatmeandki ssedmy
forehead.Icouldn’thel
pbutsmilethi
nki
ng
aboutj usthowbl essedIam t
ohav eMelokuhl
e
i
nmyl ife.Hehasbeenanamazi ngpartnerand
Iwoul dn’tt
radehimf ortheworl
d.Iwoulddie
forthismanr ighthereandIknowhewoul ddo
thesamef orme.
ThenextdayIwaswokenupwi
thhi
m wor
king
hiswaytolordknowswher ewit
hhistongue
betweenmyl egs.Il
etoutaswif
tmoanandt hat
alonepr
obablygottohisearsasmoti
v at
iont
o
keepgoing.Iexpl
odedinhismouthandhe
l
ickedmecl eanandthencameupt okissme
andthenhebr okeit
Hi
m:mor
ningMi
ne
Me:
mor
ningbabe
Hi
m:happybi
rt
hday
Iscr
eamedashewental li
nwithoutwar
ning
andhejustlaughedatmeIpi
nchedhim.That
waspai
nf ul
Me:
ouch!
Iwassobusydi str
actedbyhissexybeauti
ful
facestarri
ngdeepi nsi
demet hatIdidn’
tnoti
ce
him goingdeepinmedownt here…lol.Mybell
y
wasmaki ngithardf orhimtobeont opsowe
switchedposit
ionsandIwasont opofhim
workingmymagi c.Afteraf
ewr oundswe
passedout
.Wewer
ewokenupbyhi
sphone
ri
nging
Me:
answeri
t
Hi
m:mhm
Hewashal
fasl
eep
Me:
Mel
o!
Hi
m:f
ine
Het
ooki
tandgav
eitt
ome
Hi
m:y
ouwannaansweri
tmossogoahead
Andthenheclosedhi
sey
esagai n.Ij
ustt
ook
thephonengobathi
smanreall
ywasnotgoing
toansweri
t.I
twasAsemahle.Ianswered
//Her
:wher
eisthatwif
eofyour
sandwhyi
sn’
t
sheanswer
ingherphone?
Me:
mor ni
ngAsemahle.Howar ey
out
his
mor
ning?I
’m goodt
oot hanks
Her:
soy
ouguy
sanswereachot
her
’sphones
now?
Me:
youmakei
tsoundl
i
kei
t’
ssomet
hingnew
Her
:ri
ght.Happybir
thdayandy
ourgi
ftshoul
d
beknocki
ngony ourdoorst
epi
n10mi nut
es
Me:
Asemahl
eyoudi
dn’
thav
eto
Her
:Idi
dbecauseIwantagi
ftonmybi
rt
hday
t
oo
Me:andy
ouwi
l
lgett
hebestgi
ftmoneycan’
t
ev
enbuy
Her:
ify
out
alki
ngabouty
ou,
not
hanksI
’
m
good
Me:
hey
!
Her:
IloveyouandallbutIwantsomet
hingI
canlookatandberemindedofyou
Icoul
dn’
thel
pbutl
augh
Me:
andmebei
ngy
ourgi
ftwontr
emi
ndmeof
me?
Her
:What
?No.
Mel
o:ni
yangx
ola!(
youmaki
ngnoi
se)
Ihadputt
hephoneonl
oudspeaker
.Asemahl
e
andIl
aughed
Ase:
andt
hen?What
’shi
spr
obl
em?
Me:
he’
sti
redt
hat
’sal
l
.
Her:y
oumeany ouguyssexedeachot
hert
il
l
morning?Damngi
rlf
orapregnantwomanyou
sur
ecango
Me:
Asemahl
ecomeon
Mel
ogr
abbedt
hephone
Hi
m:byt
win/
/
Hecutthecallandswi t
chedt hephoneoffand
puti
tonhissideoft hepedest al
.Iwasl
eft
dumbfounded.What ’
swr ongwi t
hhim?Ijust
l
ookedathim withoutany t
hingtosaytohim
Him:gobackt
osl
eepwehav
eal
ongdayahead
ofus
Me:
Whydi
dyoudot
hat
?
Hi
m:Zi
qel
ekazi
wehav
eal
ongdayaheadofus.
Pl
easesl
eepnow
Isl
ideoutofthebedandwentt oshower.Melo
wasnotbeingfai
r.Iwenttolookformyphone
i
nmypur seandIhadadozenmi ssedcal
ls
fr
om pret
tymuchev er
yone!Justtheni
trang
againandi
twasAsemahl e
//
Me: Idon’
tknowwhat
’swr
ongwi
thy
our
br
other
Her:
arghyoushoul
dknowhi
m bynow,
hel
oves
hi
ssleep
Me:
hayheshoul
dn’
thav
edonet
hatt
hou
Her:
I’
m notev
enmad.Any
waygogett
hedoor
i
t’
shere
Me:
whati
sit
?
Her
:justgoandgett
hedoor
!
Me:
fine!
Her
:enj
oy.Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo/
/
Witht hatIwor eagownandt henheaded
downst airs.Thedoor bellrangandbef or eme
stoodAshandSer enawi thboxesandsmal l
suit
cases.Theyscr eamedandsodi dI .thi
swas
thebestgi ftev er;
Ilastsawt hem atYasy ’
s
funeral.Ididn’tgot othest at
estov i
sitthem for
thei
rbi rt
hday sbecauset heywer eatthet i
meI
wascaughtupi nmyf eel
ings.Theypul ledmei n
forahug
S:
comeondon’
tcr
y
Me:
thesear
etear
sofj
oy
Ash:
Iknow.Wemi
ssedy
out
oo
Me:
youguy
s.Thanky
ouf
ort
his
S:
wef
ri
endsandy
ouneededsomecheer
ingup
Me:
thanksguy
s
Webr okethehuganddamnt hegirl
slookedhot
!
Welookedateachotherandchuckled.I
coul
dn’tbeli
evet
hattheywer
eher e.WheredidI
getsuchfri
ends?It
rulywasblessednodoubt.
S:
ok.Canwecomei
n
Ichuckl
edandlett
hem i
nhel
pingt
hem wi
th
thei
rpackages
Ash:
thanky
ou.
Shesai
dleadingt
hewayt
othel
oungewhi
l
eI
waslef
ttolockup
S:where’
sthemanofthi
shouse?Shoul
dn’
the
beserv
ingyoubr
eakf
astinbed?
Me:
I’
veal
readyhadmybr
eakf
asti
nbed
Ser
enal
aughedandsodi
dAsh
Ash:
ya’
l
ldon’
tgett
ir
edhuh.Youl
ookgood
Me:
stopl
yi
ng.Youguy
slookbeaut
if
ul
S:we’vehadaprett
ylongf
li
ght
.Canweshower
fi
rstbefor
eever
ythi
ng?
Me:
yeahofcause.Youknowwher
eev
ery
thi
ng
i
s
Ash:
whathappenedt
ohospi
tal
i
ty
Me:
ya’
l
lknowt
hishousehai
bo!
Ash:
justsay
ing
Shesaidgoi
ngupt hestai
rsfoll
owingS.I
deci
dedtoalsogoshowerbecausecl ear
ly
ther
ewereplansfortodaywhichIknewnothi
ng
about.Mel
ojoinedme.Ididn’
tevensay
anyt
hing.
Hi
m:y
oumadaboutear
li
er?
Me:
shoul
dIbe?
Hi
m:Xol
okal
okuZi
qel
ekaz
i
Hesai
dki
ssi
ngmyneckbutIdi
dn’
trespond
Him: I
’
m sor
ry.Idi
dn’
tthi
nky
ou’
dtakei
tthi
s
personal
Ist
il
ldi
dn’
trespond
Hi
m:whatcanIdot
omakei
tupt
oyouke?
Me:
not
hing.I
’
m good.I
’
m notev
enmad
Hi
m:y
epy
ouar
emadatme
Me:nextt
imedon’tdothat.Askmetogospeak
el
sewherethandr
oppingthecall
li
kethat
Hi
m:under
stood
Me:
aren’
tyousupposedt
obeatwor
kal
ready
?
Hi
m:onmywi
fe’
sbi
rt
hday
?Noway
s
Me:
ohr
ight
Weshower edov erl
i
ghtconversat
ionandt hen
wedr i
edupandappl iedl
oti
ononourbodi es
andwor esweatpantsandwhitevanst-
shirts
wit
hourpushi ns.Hemadet hebedwhi l
eI
walkedouttocheckont hegir
ls.
.
.
1MONTHLATER
Mybirt
hdaytur
nedouttobemybabyshower
anditwasbeauti
ful
andIenj
oyedever
ybitofi
t.
Mypeoplearethebesty
oucouldaskf
or.
Melo’
sbir
thdaycameandpassedanditwas
nowChr i
stmasandt heChr i
stmasl unchwas
goingtobehel datmyhouse.Mr s.Bessand
herdaught er
sandt herestofourf amilyslept
herelastnight.AshandSer enalef tafterMelo’s
bir
thday.Iwokeupf eel
ingalit
tleundert he
weather.Ihadcr ampsonmyl owerbackbut
theywoul dcomeandgo, thi
sst artedlastnight.
Itwasint heearlyhoursofmor ningandMel o
andIwer eplay i
nggamesonhi st abbecause
l
itt
leonewasunset tl
ed.Igotupbutt hecr amp
gotwor se
Me:
ahh
Mel
o:babear
eyouok?
Me:
it’
sjustacr
amp
Him:i
t’
sbeenj
ustacrampsincel
astni
ght
Yandi
swa.Weneedtogety
oucheckedout
Me:
babeI
’
llbef
ine
Hi
m:ha.
aI’
m nothav
ingt
hatt
oday
.
Het
ookhi
sphoneandcal
l
edmygy
naewhi
l
eI
wenttogoandbe.WhenIwasdoneInot i
ced
bloodonmyunderwear.Istar
tedpani
cki
ng
becausebl
eedingwhenpreggiesi
snotagood
thingandl
i
ttl
eonehasn’tbeenacti
vethi
s
mor ni
ng
Me:
Mel
o
Ishout
edandhewal
kedi
nwhi
l
est
il
ltal
ki
ngon
thephone
Hi
m:y
es,
babe?
Me:
Ithi
nkweshoul
ddot
othehospi
tal
Isaidlookingatmyunder wearwhichhadbl ood
spots.Henot icedandhest art
edtell
ingthedoc
whatwaswr ong.Wedr ovetothehospitalwith
mymot herbecausewhenwegotdownst air
s
shewasdr inkingtea;saidshecouldn’tsleep.
Wegott othehospi talandthecrampsf eltli
ke
l
aborpai nsj ust10xwor sethantheywer e.Iwas
rushedintot hedeliver
yr oom wit
hmyhusband
ri
ghtbymysi de.
Me:
I’
m scar
ed
Hi
m:don’
tbe
Dr
:We’
l
lhav
etoper
for
m aCaesar
Melo:
butdocshe’
snotsupposedt
ogi
vebi
rt
h
now
Dr:
Iknowbutifwekeept
hebabyi
nther
eany
l
ongerthent
heremi
ghtbesomecompli
cat
ions
Mel
o:ok.Wegoi
ngt
obef
ine
Idr
if
tedofft
ol al
aland.Iwaswokenupbythe
noi
seintheroom.WhenIopenedmyey esMel
o
washoldi
ngmyhandt i
ghtl
ywit
hhishead
boweddown.
Me:
ismybabyok?
Mel
o:t
hankgody
ou’
reawake
Me:howlongwasIout
?Youl
ookl
i
key
ou
hav
en’tsl
epti
nday
s
Hi
m:3day
s.Iwassowor
ri
ed
Me:
howi
she?
Him:he’
sfi
ne.He’
sheal
thyandev
ery
thi
ng
checksi
n
Me:thenwhathappened?HowcomeIgav
e
bi
rt
hbef or
eti
me?
Hi
m:t
hebabywasi
nbr
eachposi
ti
on
Ikeptqui
ett
hinki
ngabouthowIdidever
ythi
ng.
Howwasi tt
hathewasstil
linbr
each?
Hi
m:heyhe’
sok.
Me:
Iwantt
oseehi
m
Mom:
I’
ll
gett
henur
set
obr
inghi
m
Thenursewalkedinandt heyhandedl
i
ttl
e
YangaMJ( MelokuhleJunior
)Besstome.My
l
it
tl
eonewasbor nonChr i
stmasandhewas
adorabl
e.Icoul
dn’tbehappiert
omeethim.
.
.
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12/
17,
13:
25]Wadz
:*WI
THPAI
NCOMES
LOVE*
.
.
S03E50-FI
NALE
-
Mel
o
4YEARSLATER
Yayawas28andIwas30y earsol d.Yangawas
4andhissisterAyandiswaMel ody( Asemahle
i
nsist
edinnami ngourdaught eraf terher)was3.
Wewer eahappyf ami l
yof5,Yay agav ebirt
h
about9mont hsagoi fI’
m notmi stakent oour
l
astbornDamonMi sokuhleBess, afterhim
Yayadecidedtogethert ubestiedbecause4
ki
dswer emor ethanenoughy ohha. a.Kylewas
now9y earsoldandhewasanamazi ngbig
brot
hertohissibli
ngsandhel ivedwi thYaya
andIful
ltimeandv isi
tedhismom on
weekendssincehisschool wast hissi de.We
hadagoodr elat
ionshipwithKat e,shewas
mor et hanjustKy le’smot herbecausesheand
Yay awoul dgooutwi tht heki dsev erynowand
thenandKat ehadanot hersonwhowas5y ears
oldnow.Li fewasgoodf oral lofusIguessand
Asemahl eandJamesdeci dedt of ixwhat ev er
troublestheywer ehav i
ng.Myki dswer espoi l
t
andy oucanbl ameMr s.Besssnrf ort hat
becauseshecoul dn’tsaynowwhent heyasked
forsomet hingsanddadt oo.Ev erytimet hey
wentt ov i
sithert heycamebackwi thnewt oys
andYay awasal way snothappybecauset hese
kidshav eenought oysasi ti s.Wehadj ust
got t
enbackf rom LA, Ashhadgi venbi rt
ht oa
babyboywhom weal lcall Mi raclebecausehe
wast heirli
ttlemi racle.Theki dswer eleftwi th
mom anddadi nDur bani ncl udingMi so.We
hiredacaranddr ov et omom’ shouse.Wegot
outandwenti nsideandt her ewasMi so’scr y.
Yay aleftmet hereandr ani ntot helounge, she
mi ssedhim shameandsodi dI.Ifollowedwi th
ev er
ythingandhewasqui etandbur i
edi nhi s
mot
her
’schest
.Thi
sboywasgoingt
obea
mama’
sboythewayhelov
edhismother
.
Me:
fami
l
y
Ki
ds:
daddy
Theyr
ani
ntomyar
msandweshar
edahug
Ay
a:pr
omi
sey
ouwon’
tleav
eusagai
n
MJ:
daddywemi
ssedy
ou!
Me:
andImi
ssedy
ouguy
stoo.
Webroket
hehugbutAyastay
edinmyarms
andmademecarryher
.Cr
ybaby!Iwal
kedov
er
togr
eetmom anddad.
Me:
howar
eyouguy
s?Howwer
ethey
?
Mom:
wegood.Youknowhowki
dsar
e.
Yay
a:IhopeMi
sodi
dn’
ttr
oubl
eyou
Dad:
boyonlyevercr
ieswhenhewant
sfoodor
hi
snappychanged
Mom:
oraf
terhef
ini
shest
alki
ngt
oyouguy
s
Yay
achuckl
ed
Yay
a:becausehemi
ssedhi
smummy
Themi nutehelai
dhi
seyesonmehest ret
ched
hishandsouttomelooki
nglikehewasabout
tocry.IputAyadownandtookMisofr
om Yaya
Yay
a:j
ustl
i
ket
hat
Me:
don’
tbej
eal
ous
Mom:
howwasy
ourf
li
ght
?Howi
sAshant
i?
Yay
a:she’sbet
terthanIthoughtshewoul
dbe.
Atl
eastshewast al
kingwhenwel eft
Mom:
oht
hat
’sgood.Andherbr
other
?
Yay
a:weneversawhim againaft
erAsh’sbl
ow
out
.Hewasn’tev
enther
ef orthefuner
al
Dad:butsoonerorl
aterAshwil
lfi
ndi
tinhert
o
for
givehi
m.Theyaresibli
ngs
Yaya:
yeahdadbuti
t’
shi
sfaul
tLaur
alostt
he
baby
Mom:
beasi
tmay
.Shewi
l
lfor
giv
ehi
m some
day
Iwasbusybondi ngwi thmykidsandt heywere
tel
lingmeaboutwhatImi ssedinthei
rabsence
andIwasj ustli
steningtothem goonandon.I
l
ov edtheseli
tt
leonesandIwoul ddoanythi
ng
forthem nodoubt .
Ay
a:daddywhatdi
dyoubr
ingus?
Youknowshe’
srunoutofthi
ngstot
ell
you
whenshest
art
saski
ngy outhat
.
Yay
a:not
hing
Ay
a:hay
imama(
nomom)
Yaya:wedi
dn’
tbr
ingy
ouguy
sany
thi
ng
ser
iousl
y
Youcouldseet
hedi
sappoi
ntmentont
hei
rcut
e
l
it
tl
efaces
Me:mummyi
ski
ddi
ng.Weboughty
oucool
t
hings
Them:
yheeey
i!
Yay
a:wher
e’sKy
leMah?
Mom:
hewentoutwi
thAsemahl
eandLi
z
Me:Asemahl
eisgoi
ngt
otur
nmysoni
ntoa
gay
Mom:y
oubeingdr
amaticwena.KyleandAse
hav
eanaunt
yandnephewrelat
ionshi
p
Yay
a:exact
ly.Youj
ustj
eal
ous
Dad:especi
all
yforsomeonewhogr
ewupwi
th
t
hreewomeni nhisli
fe
Me:
okl
etmegoandshower
Mom:
hav
eyouki
dseat
en?
Ay
a&MJ:
yes,
Boobi
e
Wel
aughed
Yay
a:gr
annywast
alki
ngt
omeanddaddy
Shesai
dst
icki
nghert
ongueout
Mom:
youcanbechi
l
dishatt
imes
Yay
a:nomahwehav
en’
t.wedr
ovest
rai
ght
her
e…y
oursondoesn’
tlov
emeany
mor
e
Dad:
hej
ustmi
ssedhi
ski
dst
hat
’sal
l
Yay
a:Imi
ssedt
hem t
oobutst
il
l
Mom:
weeh…ar
guewi
thy
ourmansi
si
Yaya:
letmegoshowersoIcanmakeus
somethi
ngtoeat
,GodI’
m soti
red
Mom:
yeahy
ouneedt
her
est
Yayast
oodupandMisost
art
edcr
ying.See
whatImean?Mama’
sboy
Yay
a:butI
’
m notl
eav
ing
Me:
hedoesn’
tknowt
hat
Yayatookhim andwentupst ai
rswithhim andI
tookourbagsandf ol
lowedandsodi dmy
wholecrèche.Mykidsweret ai
l
s.Wegoti nt
o
ourroom andYay aputMisoont hefloorand
tookoffherclot
hesandwr appedat owel
aroundherbodyandwentt oshower .Wej ust
satonthefloorandallpl
ayedont heiri
pad’s
whichMisoal sowant edtoplaywit
h.Hewasat
astagewher ehewasl ear
ningtowalkandt al
k
too.Hewasgr owingupwayt oofast.Hewasa
steadywalkerforsomeonewhom j ustamont h
agowashol dingont othi
ngstowalk.Yay a
camebackandt henIwenttoshower .I
twas
l
iketheseoneswant edtomakesur ethatwe
don’tl
eaveagai n.
.
.
-
Yay
a
Lif
ewasgoodf orev ery
one.Asemahlewas
engagedt oJamesandLedi whowasst i
l
l
mar r
iedtoherasshol eofahusband.Iwon’
t
evenhidethefactt hatIhat
edtheguy.My
fri
endstayedinanabusi vemarri
ageand
nothi
ngIsai dordidwasenought omakeher
l
ive.Itdi
dn’tsi
twell wit
hmebutIwasst i
llt
her
e
forherasherfriend.AftermyshowerIdeci
ded
tocallandcheckonherbutherphonewent
st
rai
ghttovoi
cemail
.Ical
ledherhusbandand
heansweredaf
terawhil
e.
/
/Hi
m:what
?
Me:
wher
eismybestf
ri
end?
Hi
m:ohnowy
our
ememberher
?
Me:l
i
stenI
’
m notpl
ayi
nggameswi
thy
ou.
Wher
eisNaledi
?
Hi
m:she’
sal
i
ttl
ebusyatt
hemoment
Me:
ify
oudi
dsomet
hingt
oherIsweart
oGod
I
…
Hi
m:you’
l
lwhat?You’
l
lwhatYandi
swahi
tme
wi
thabot
tleonmyheadagai
n?
Me:
youcl
ear
lydon’
tknowme.
Hi
m:what
everbi
tch/
/
Hecutthecallonme.i
fthere’sonethi
ngIdon’
t
underst
andiswhymyfri
end, str
ongestper
sonI
knewgrowingupwouldstayinanabusive
rel
ati
onshi
p?Itmadenosenset ome.Icall
ed
Ni
ta,
may
beshemi
ghtknowsomet
hing
/
/Me:
Nit
a
Her
:heybaby
Me:
heyhowar
eyou?
Her
:I’
m okbabeandhowar
eyou?
Me:I’
m ok.Beent
ryi
ngt
ocal
lLedi
buther
phonegoestovoi
cemai
l
Shekeptqui
et
Me:
Nit
awhati
sit
?
Her
:It
ri
edt
ocal
lyoul
astni
ght
Me:
Ani
tawhati
swr
ongwi
thmybestf
ri
end?
Her
:she’
sinhospi
tal
Me:
what
?GodIam goi
ngt
oki
l
lthatsonof
…
Icoul
dn’
tcont
inuebecauseki
dsi
nther
oom.
Her:shewasadmi
tt
edl
astni
ght
.Shehada
miscarr
iage
Tear
sjustr
oll
eddownmyey
es.
Her
:I’
m sor
ryYay
a
Me:
howi
sshe?
Her
:I’
m onmywayt
oseehernow
Me:
Nit
ahow?
Her
:youknowhowYay
a
Me:
I’
ll
meety
ouatt
hehospi
tal
Her
:okf
ri
end.by
e
Me:
bye/
/
“
ever
ythi
ngok?
”
Itur
nedar
oundandMel
owasst
andi
ngbyt
he
door
Me:
Ledi
hadami
scar
ri
agey
est
erday
Hi
m:y
oh
Me:
Iknow.Letmegetdr
essedandgoseeher
Hi
m:needmet
ocomewi
thy
ou?
Me:
nobabeI
’
llr
equestanuber
Hi
m:ok
Iwalkedint
otheclosetandputonsomethi
ng
simpleandquickandheadeddownstai
rs
request
inganuber.I
tdrovemet ot
hehospit
al
andwhenIgott her
eIcalledNi
taandshetol
d
mewhi chwardandIwentt her
e.
Me:
whathappened?
Iaskedaf
terbr
eaki
ngt
hehug
Her:
hehasn’
tstoppedcheati
ngonherandnow
hecamehomel astni
ghtandtheyhadahuge
ar
gumentwhichledtothi
s
Me:
wher
eishenow?
Her
:hehasn’
tbeenher
etoseeher
Itookadeepbreat
htocal
m my sel
fdown
becauseIcoul
dfeelt
heangerbuil
dup.
Her
:shej
ustneedsaf
ri
endr
ightnowandnota
l
ect
ure
Ikeptqui
etandwewal
kedi
ntoherwar
dandI
gotinsi det het i
nybedwi t
hherandj ustheldher
tomychestasshecr i
edallov eragai n.Seeing
myf riendi nt hatst
atewaspai nful.Nowoundi s
aspai nf ulast heonethatdoesn’ tbleed
becauset herear enost i
chesf oritandt here’s
not i
mef r
ameast owheny ou’l
lheal andthat’s
howIf eltatt hemoment .IfeltLedi ’
spai n,I
knowwhati t
’sli
ketoloseachi l
dandt here’
sno
tell
i
ngwheny ouwi l
lbeablet opi ckupt he
piecesandgoon.Ij ustlethercr yonmychest
untilshef eltshecr i
edenough.Shet oldmet he
whol est oryandshepr omisedt hatshewas
goingt ol eavehi mthisti
mear ound.
.
.
AFEW MONTHSLATER
Lediwasgoodandshewasf ocusi ngonpicki
ng
hersel
fupandmov i
ngon.Herex- husband,t
hey
wereintheprocessofadivor
ce, hewas
arr
estedforbeati
nguphisgir
lf
riendandl anding
herinahospi talbed.It’
ssaf etosayLedi ’
slif
e
wasgr eat .NitaandSi yahadt hreebeautiful
daught er’
si ncludingt heoneNi taoncehadwi th
Bonkeandt hei rl
ifewasadr eam becauseSi ya
nevergav eheranyt rouble.Jamesand
Asemahl ewer emar ri
edandt heywere
expectingt heirf i
rstchil
di namont hf r
om now
andwecoul dn’ tbehappier .Mel oandIwer e
muchbet tert hanwewer ewhenwest art
ed.We
werest rongerandmor einl ovethanev er.I’
m
gladtosayt hatt hepai nweendur ed,thepai n
heandIputeachot herthroughwasnotf or
nothi
ngbecausei tbroughtaboutl ove.Today
heandIar einsepar ableandnot hi
ngcant earus
apart.Mypai ncamewi thlov e.Ihopey ours
doest oo.
.
.
Thejourneywi
thMeloandYayaorwith
Yandokuhlewasanamazingj
ourneyandIam
proudtohav esharedtheirstor
ywithyou.Thei
r
j
ourneywasabumpyr idebutintheendlove
conqueredital
l.Idon’tknowwhaty oumay
havelearntf
rom thest or
ybutIdohopey ou
l
earntsomet hi
nghereandt her
e.Il
oveyouso
muchandIwi l
lmeety out oni
ghtwit
hournew
storyandnewf amily
.