The Good Soul

Posted originally on the Archive of Our Own at http://archiveofourown.org/works/816328.

Rating: Mature
Archive Warning: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
Category: M/M
Fandom: The Iliad - Homer, The Song of Achilles - Madeline Miller
Relationship: Achilles/Patroclus
Character: Achilles (Greek and Roman Mythology), Patroclus (Greek and Roman
Mythology)
Additional Tags: Achilles - Freeform, Patroclus - Freeform, Iliad, song of achilles, Homer
- Freeform, Slash, Greek myth - Freeform, Troy - Freeform,
Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Battle Scenes, Canon-Typical
Violence, Sexual Content
Language: English
Stats: Published: 2013-05-25 Completed: 2016-08-16 Words: 236,248
Chapters: 48/48

The Good Soul

by scarlett_the_seachild

Summary

Achilles/Patroclus. When Patroclus, the clumsy son of a disappointed father, is exiled to

Phthia for fostering, he feels totally justified in his dislike for the king's son. After all, who
could possibly tolerate someone so arrogant, so narcissistic, and so wholly and completely
everything that he wants to be? Rated M for later chapters.

Notes

I've had the need to write an Achilles x Patroclus fanfiction for sometime now, whether as a
means to get back into writing after a very long hiatus or simply to satisfy my own
indulgences I don't really know. Either way, this is the first proper piece I've written for
about a year so I hope it meets any standards and that you have as much fun reading it as I
did writing it.

This is set prior to the Trojan war when Patroclus is first exiled to Phthia. Hopefully it will
evolve into a kind of philosophical exploration of their relationship with some cutesy
teenage angst thrown in there too for the benefit of us fangirls (embrace it, it's a way of
life.) Also it's ok to laugh, I wrote this mainly for the poops and giggles.
 Patroclus

Today was a day of celebration. Wine was poured not from clay but from silver, a heifer had been
stalked, speared and roasted and the palace was heavy with the smell of dripping fat, incense,
purple and stinging burned in their candle holders and someone had sketched a phallus onto
Patroclus’ best tunic.

It was difficult, he decided, unless you looked at it from a certain angle, to tell exactly what it was.
It had been done very crudely with a stick of kohl and the hand was shaky, as if belonging to a
child. But despite this it had remained resistant to all his attempts to wash it or brush it off and he
supposed that whoever had done it had gone over it in wax or oil, resulting in a hard, translucent
sheen that served both as a protector and an emphasiser. But still, he told himself, it is difficult to
tell what it is. It is barely possible, unless you look at it from a certain angle.

In a desperate gesture of reassurance he laid it out on the mattress and surveyed it, arms folded. He
tilted his head. He looked at it from a certain angle. Shit.

This, he realised with a pang of regret, was exactly the reason his mother had told him to pack a
spare. She had foreseen this, in her uncanny, all-knowing, motherly way. It was evident in the way
she kissed him goodbye, the way her eyes shone sad and accepting as clear as if she had said “My
poor boy, my poor, poor son. They will tear him to pieces. They will make him meat for their
dogs.” He supposed he should have wondered when she hugged him so tight he felt his ribs wince
and the imploring look she’d sent in his father’s direction. And when she’d burst into tears he
supposed he should have done more than pat her awkwardly on the back and assure her that despite
what his father said he had never once considered himself a “sitting target,” although this was
partly due to the fact that running had been second nature to him since the invention of the sling
shot.

He crossed over to the heavy wooden chest and rummaged through his belongings, sending tunic
after tunic flying for the mattress; Too little…too much…too Thracian, too embroidered...too
bloody orange…and he wondered, perhaps if his this had been intentional, if Menoetius had
purposefully neglected to waste fine things on the son who had brought him nothing but shame
since day one. The thought was an unwelcome one and Patroclus dismissed it quickly as his fists
curled around something of fine, woven material. With considerable relief he yanked the tunic over
his head and turned to look in the mirror.

A pale, skinny young man looked back at him, big dark eyes set into a nervous thin face that was
all apprehension and insecurity, the kind of face, Patroclus noted grimly, that his father would have
described as “punchable.” He held his arms awkwardly by his sides as if he didn’t know quite what
to do with them, self-consciously aware of the pinched, gangling look of someone who had grown
a lot in a short space of time. The tunic hung off his frame like something dead, and he saw, with
an increasing sense of despair, that it was purple.

Purple was rich and deep and looked like the touch of velvet. Purple was a gesture of wealth, status
and high society. Purple was reserved especially for kings; kings, heroes and their sons.

Purple was so not his colour.

Instead of showing him off as regal and impressive the tunic only made him look insipid and
washed-out by comparison, highlighting the dark circles from lack of sleep round his eyes and the
sharp angles of his chin and jaw. It hung just above his knees, revealing the scabs and scruff of
childhood and shamefully skinny legs, like the bones of a sacrificial offering and his arms stuck out
at the sides as if they were trying to escape. He supposed his mother had packed it in the hope that
he would wear it with pride, that it would give him confidence and standing among the other boys.
Instead he just felt faintly sick.

But it was the next best thing he had, the only thing worthy of a king’s reception. So with a sigh he
turned away from the mirror and, casting a mournful look at the abandoned tunic, left the room.

As his feet made slap-slapping sounds against the grey tile he knew that if he was going to be
honest with himself, he really wasn’t that surprised. He’d noticed the other boys sizing him up as
soon as he’d walked in; caught every suppressed smirk, discreet nudge and whispered taunt as he
took his place in the long line of royal castoffs, the blood beating against his ears as he tried
valiantly to blot out the hushed hum of “murderer” from behind him and within. If he had been
bigger, more imposing, they’d have stayed out of his way; maybe even looked at him with a little
admiration. But looking like he did and being, generally, a pretty nice person he had only let down
their expectations and thus served as another massive disappointment.

He entered the hall cautiously, taking care not to look at anyone directly. Of course they looked up
when he walked in, grinning vulgarly to each other and making crude gestures; he felt his cheeks
warm but said nothing and took his place quietly in the line.

The boy in front of him, Deiomachus, turned to give him the once-over. “You’re wearing purple.”

“Well noticed,” said Patroclus, craning his neck to see what was happening at the front.

“I thought you were wearing the other one? The green?”

“Yeah well, so did I,” he replied through gritted teeth.

Deiomachus frowned. “So what happened?”

“Erm,” he bit his lip. “Well…don’t say anything, no big deal, what’s a joke between friends…but
someone drew something kind of…phallic…on the back.”

“By kind of phallic you mean…?”

“Well, um, a phallus, actually.”

It was with great restrain that Deiomachus held back a hoot of wild laughter, possibly stifled by the
arrival of the King and his two armed guards. “Someone drew a dick on your shirt?”

“Hey keep it down alright? I’m sure they didn’t mean any harm-”

“-Right,” the boy smirked. “Sure. You know you can report this?”

“And let my new father know I’ve been targeted for abuse on my first day, no thank you,”
Patroclus muttered. “Gods, what’s taking them so long?”

King Peleus, it appeared was no longer quite the man he had been thirty years ago. He was
lowered rather than sat into his chair and his knees gave a loud click that echoed across the hall. It
was hard to imagine, thought Patroclus, that this man had sailed with Jason, shaken hands with
Hercules and been given a goddess for a wife.

Once seated he folded his hands in his lap and surveyed the boys with polite curiosity, rheumy but
bright eyes tracing each face one by one. As they fell on him Patroclus attempted to stand a little
straighter but they passed him quickly, indifferent to the entirely unremarkable. He felt his
shoulders sag.

“Welcome,” he greeted in a voice that was surprisingly carrying, not at all like the expected rasp of
an old man. “Long has it been since such promising young men as yourselves have stood in my
halls, a credit each of you to the fathers that brought you here. I trust that you will all do your very
best to uphold the name of your house and abide by our customs, for remember that this is now
your country and I am now your king. Shame and disgrace are foreign words to our tongue and I
look forward to the day when it can be said that you have repaid my generosity with honour and
duty.”

He paused to bless them with a friendly, fatherly smile and the boys understood that he was
waiting for an expression of gratitude. A murmur of thanks rippled across the hall until, satisfied,
Peleus quietened them with a slight raise of his withered hand. “Phthia rejoices the receiving of its
new sons,” he declared warmly. “May you give her just cause.”

He leant back as if exhausted by the speech and gestured for a man to his right who held a piece of
linen in his hands. Immediately he cleared his throat and began to read off names. “Eukleides.”

A tall boy with a lolloping gait strode up to where the king sat and knelt. There was an exchange of
words, too far away for Patroclus to hear, then Peleus touched the boy’s forehead lightly and he re-
joined the group.

Kleonides.

Leonides.

Iasonides.

One by one another followed suit until the number of the unblessed dwindled, leaving Patroclus
one of the last waiting anxiously. Some of the names he recognised and knew that these were the
sons of kings and famous men. So what? he thought angrily. I too am a prince. I have as much of a
right to be here as anyone.

And more than most, said a nasty little voice at the back of his head. He ignored it and tried to
focus on what was going on but the gloom of the hall was bringing back unwanted memories;
snatches of high ceilings and arched doorways, wooden benches scraping the stone floor as they
were arranged for a trial, the look on his father’s face as he knelt in supplication, his mother crying
softly into her shawl, the dead boy’s parents screaming profanity after profanity until the sudden
slam of a door yanked him out of his reverie and he spun round to glimpse the source of the
disruption.

A boy stood in the doorway.

He was lean and slim as one of the young trees that grew wild on the beaches of Patroclus’ home
country, of average height but somehow he seemed taller. His limbs were a light brown from the
sun, like polished sandalwood and the strength in them was obvious yet without the crude bulk of a
brute. Instead he was delicately muscled, slender yet wiry with a face as fine featured as a girl’s
and framed by a dazzling shock of golden hair.

He strode through the hall, casual as a gust of wind and knelt at the king’s feet without sparing a
look behind him. As he passed Patroclus thought he caught the dry salt smell of the sea.
“Apologies for my lateness, Father,” he said. “I lost track of the time.”

“Rise, my son,” said Peleus with a smile. “And take your place beside me.” He patted the seat next
to his own and the boy sat, one foot dangling over the edge with a sort of casual elegance. “Here I
present my son,” spoke Peleus to the group, voice filled with a pride Patroclus hadn’t even thought
possible. “The prince: Achilles.”

“Hail, Achilles,” chorused the boys dutifully. The prince didn’t even bother acknowledge them,
only inclined his chin slightly to show that he had heard and instead focused his energy on flicking
the dirt from beneath his nails. Inexplicably, Patroclus felt a surge of instant dislike and was still
glowering at him when the scribe called out Menoitides.

“Menoitides?” he called again. “Is the son of Menoeitus present?” and Patroclus realised with an
unpleasant shock that he had been so busy disliking Achilles that he had missed his name. “Here
my lord,” he managed to stutter and hurried forward to the patch of stone floor where the others
had knelt. But in his rush he stumbled and with a cry was sent sprawling to the ground with an
ungainly thud.

Achilles was the first to laugh. His mouth opened pink and wide as a cat’s and his head fell back
against his chair as he began to shake uncontrollably. His reaction was quickly copied by the boys
behind him and soon the whole hall was filled with the sound of wild laughter, even the guards
clutched their ribs and wiped tears from their eyes as Patroclus stood, cheeks burning, and turned
his face towards the heavens.

Dear Zeus, he prayed, trying desperately to look anywhere but in front if him, if you have ever
loved me, even in that sick and twisted way of yours, do me a favour. Kill me now, and make it
quick.

He had no such luck. After what felt like an age Peleus raised his hand again, his leathery old
features twisted with repressed amusement, and beckoned him closer. Patroclus shuffled forward a
few steps, keeping his eyes fixed on the old king rather than straying to his right.

“You are Patroclus, son of Menoeitus?”

“I am, my lord,” Patroclus replied with as much dignity as it was possible to muster under the
circumstances.

Peleus nodded, suddenly serious. “I have heard your story, young man,” he said with a frown.
“You are here today because, as your father tells me, you have been exiled from your home. This
is so?”

“Yes my lord.”

“And that you killed a boy, no older than yourself.”

“Yes my lord.”

“Over a game of dice, no less.”

“Yes my lord.”

Peleus raised a thinning eyebrow. “And you are aware of your sin?”

For Gods’ sake. Yes, I killed a kid, yes I know I’ve earned myself a one way ticket to Tartarus, yes
I’m pretty bloody upset about it. He struggled to regain composure over his face as he replied “Yes
my lord. Very aware.”

“I should think so. Gambling is a very serious crime and I will not tolerate it as long as you are
under my roof. Is that clear?”

Patroclus stared in disbelief, searching the old king’s face for signs of jest. There were none. So he
cleared his throat and replied automatically “Yes my lord. Very clear.”

“Good,” said the king approvingly, reaching to touch Patroclus’ brow in blessing. “Rise, Patroclus,
and be welcome. You may still yet make a good man.”

He supposed he’s meant it as a reassurance but as he got to his feet and concealed himself at the
very back of the line Patroclus had the unsettling feeling that he had been cursed rather than
blessed. Certainly that was the impression he got upon catching sight of Achilles’ still smirking
face and the snickering green eyes that had never left him. He felt the heat rise to his cheeks and he
stared fixedly at the floor in an attempt to block out the scornful mutterings of the other boys, anger
and shame bubbling acidly in his stomach. Please Lord Zeus, he found himself begging, please let
it be over soon.

Finally Androclides re-joined the assembly and the scribe folded the linen back into his tunic. With
a wave of Peleus’ wrist the boys dispersed and were seated at long oaken tables laden with meat,
fish, bread, fruit and wine; watered almost to impotency and sharp tasting to Patroclus who was
used to the sun-sweet grapes of the south. He sat at the end, far away from the others who had
scurried to avoid him like a bad omen, and stared down at his plate for some sign of deliverance,
for an indication that some God up there had not yet forsaken him. None came and the bread stuck
in his throat when he swallowed.

A movement from the top of the dais made him look up and he noticed Achilles slipping from his
seat to join the boys at the far end. Patroclus was surprised, he had assumed that the boy prince had
his own private quarters and would be reluctant to mix with the cast-offs and strays of less
important families. The others, it seemed, had made the same assumption for they leapt up at once,
tripping over each other to make room and pulling their plates round so that the prince had all the
space he needed to spread his stately bread with stately honey and flick his noble princely hair out
of his noble princely eyes. Patroclus watched him, distaste increasing with every chew, bite and
swallow.

“Hey. Menoitides.”

“Huh?” he swivelled round to meet the grinning face of Leonides, gesturing towards his lap.

“You saving that for later?” he asked.

Patroclus glanced down and felt a sinking feeling in his gut. Somebody it appeared had upturned a
wine bowl and its contents was dribbling steadily onto Pactroclus’ tunic, staining the rich wool
inky dark. The upper end of the table guffawed and Achilles’ perfect features twisted into a leerish
grin until Patroclus’ face burned hot and red as a burning spit.

Purple, he concluded, staring down at his dampened lap, was really not his colour.
 Ampelius

He was woken the next morning by a splitting headache and a smack of yellow light. It came into
his room in floods, yanking him into consciousness like a slap in the face. Patroclus groaned,
squeezing his eyes shut tight as gates against an invasion and tried to will his mind back to sleep
but to no avail; the morning was persistent as a breeze slipped through the open window and under
the thin covers, ruffling his hair and prickling his skin like gooseflesh.

He shivered and wrapped the linen sheets tightly around his body, trying to recall snatches of his
dream. He was back at home in his father’s palace where the walls were comforting and the faces
familiar if not always kind. He was skipping stones across the sea surface, grinning as each one
was swallowed by the waves. His mother sat beside him, her face turned into the sun, hands folded
in her lap. A picture of perfect serenity. He tried to keep this last one fixed in his mind but it was
like cupping water in his hands. The harder he tried to hold on the more it began to slip away until
he was left alone in his cold, shadowy room; hating the morning and the promise of the day it
brought.

Eventually, when he had run out of excuses for remaining immobile he slid from the mattress,
dressed quickly and washed his face. The shameful tunic still lay rumpled and disgraced in the
corner. Patroclus’ pride forbade giving it to the slaves for washing when just the look on their faces
upon his return from last night’s feast had been enough to send him running for his room. The
king’s sympathy he could bare. Servants’ pity was another matter entirely. After deeming himself
presentable he headed downstairs to the main hall where most of the other boys were already
helping themselves to breakfast. Trying hard to ignore their barely suppressed sniggers he took his
place next to Deiomachus who smiled wryly at him.

“Made quite an impression last night, didn’t you?” he greeted. Patroclus couldn’t tell if his tone
was pitying or sarcastic.

“I’d rather not talk about it actually,” said Patroclus. “Pass me a bowl.”

“Oh yeah,” said Deiomachus. “You might not want to use that.”

“Why not?”

“I think someone pissed in it.”

Patroclus stared in disgust. “Are you serious?”

Deiomachus shrugged. “They knew you’d be the last one down.”

Patroclus looked round the room to meet a hundred grinning, eager faces. He sighed, ignored the
wooden bowls and platters offered him and grabbed an apple. Fruit, at least, could be trusted.

“What’s happening today then?” he asked, taking a cautious bite.

“Drills,” came the reply. “Drills and training. We’re supposed to be on the field in an hour.”

Patroclus felt his heart slide a little further down the walls of his chest. He had never been a natural
athlete, much to Menoetius’ shame and would often content himself with watching the other boys
as they raced, leaped and battled across the fields, their feet rising little golden clouds in the dirt as
sweat slipped from tensed limbs to the grey earth. He remembered countless occasions where he
would attempt to throw a shotput or launch a javelin only to suffer the humiliation of having it land
barely a foot before him, or enter a swimming contest only to come back up, spluttering.
Personally, he blamed the Gods. It was they who had seen fit to gift him with such weak arms and
thin shoulders, they who had bestowed upon him the esteemed title of Perfectly Average…at
everything.

“Who will be taking us?” he asked warily.

Deiomachus glanced around the hall and pointed to the high table where the noble lords of Peleus’
house sat munching on bread and honey. “There. Ampelius. I hear he has rather high standards.”

Patroclus followed his line of vision and settled on a sturdy, thickset man with a voice like a
battering ram and rather unruly facial hair. His heart sank a little deeper. Still, he thought, thinking
of the coldly beautiful boy who had swept into dinner the previous night, it could be worse.

He finished his breakfast quickly and tried to ignore the mounting sense of dread as he followed
the others outside and onto the practice fields. Overhead the sky was a brilliant, cloud-less blue
and the grass was damp underfoot, still clinging with the residues of the previous night’s rain, the
earth itself cool and springy. Patroclus tilted his neck in the direction of the sun as they lined up
wordlessly, poised and eager for instruction before Ampelius who stood like an overgrown thorn
bush, his ham-like hands clasped behind his back in typical soldier stance.

He needn’t have worried. Despite his wild appearance Ampelius showed himself to be pretty
reasonable and beamed at the boys with hearty, almost childlike enthusiasm. Inside every boy, he
told them in his ground-shaking boom of a voice, there is a man and inside every man there is a
warrior. His job was to bring the warrior out of each of them; to chisel away the soft exterior of
childhood to reveal a hard and polished core of rock and iron until they could stand and call
themselves the Sons of their Fathers. “Think of me as a carpenter,” he said. “And these,” he raised
his giant’s hands “Are my tools. With them I shall make fine chairs out of all of you, firm enough
for even the most bounteous of backsides.”

He threw back his great, shaggy head and laughed, causing little stones to jump up into the air and
cartwheel into each other. Patroclus thought he felt the ground beneath his feet vibrate.

They were given practice spears of roughly hewn wood and watched nervously as Ampelius
showed them how best to hold and thrust, correcting any untidy technique with a hearty roar of
“Not quite lad, not quite.” Patroclus held his weapon awkwardly and was silent when his grip was
corrected and corrected again. It felt strange, as if it did not rightly belong there and he experienced
a momentary settling of relief when it was released from his palms and skimmed the side of the
oak tree target with a feeble bump. The boys behind him tittered and Ampelius blew out a slow
breath. “And again, son. Only this time try and keep your eyes open.”

And so it went for rest of the morning.

It became quickly apparent to everyone, including Ampelius, that this was not a specimen built for
the spear. A hundred times Patroclus threw, renewing a desperate hope in his chest as the metal
point pierced the sky only to have those hopes come to a crashing thud at his feet, a few
centimetres behind the shaft. Beside him Leonides and Deiomachus were hurling their weapons
with Olympic accuracy, grinning each time the silver heads shredded the targets and left behind a
trail of little wooden splinters while his own fell short, aimed too high or missed the thing
completely. Ampelius accepted every dropped weapon and missed target with almost maternal
patience but after the first few dozen failed throws Patroclus could sense annoyance.

“Come on now lad,” he bellowed, his great hairy eyebrows meeting in a perplexed frown. “Get
your body weight behind it. We Achaeans are blessed with the strong backs of a bull’s and the
thighs of its plough. Show some of your parent’s good breeding!”

With that he took the spear from his hands and launched it at the oak tree, back and shoulder
muscles rippling like a turning tide. It cut through the air with a faint whistle and struck the bark
dead centre. A trickle of sap squeezed its way through the cracks as Ampelius turned to Patroclus
and handed him another. Patroclus squinted at the target. He threw. He missed.

At midday the sun burned huge, white and furious. Sweating and covered from head to foot in dust
the boys trudged wearily from the field over to where servants waited obediently with bread and
water. They collapsed into the shade and began to chatter loudly and boastfully about the day’s
exercise while Patroclus inched away until he was sat by himself to sip cool water and listen to the
crickets chirruping through the grass. His ears burned scarlet with humiliation and he avoided
Ampelius’ eye for fear that he might again see that ever-familiar shadow of disappointment flicker
and settle there.

He raised the water skin to his lips and looked around him with polite curiosity, confused over the
sudden quietness. The boorish conversation that had up till now been ringing like clashing swords
had come to a stop. All eyes were fixed on something on the other side of the field. Perplexed,
Patroclus followed their gaze. He stopped. He saw.

For a moment, he wondered what he was watching. Then, he realised. It was him. The prince.
Achilles. The sun had settled on his hair and face so that he seemed to be made entirely of gold and
in one hand he held a spear, not one of the practice play things of the past hour but something real
and lethal. He thrust and it seemed to Patroclus that the weapon was merely an extension of his
arm, as much a part of him as flesh and sinew for he held it so naturally and his movements were
all freedom and grace like those of a cat’s.

In a haze of dusty light Achilles’ feet licked the ground like pink tongues, his body a beam of
perfect energy as he struck one and two and three and –

Pause. Aim. Throw.

Like lightening splits the surface of a roaring sea the spear shone ablaze. It struck, with perfect
form and accuracy and the target shuddered and collapsed. An impossible throw.

He straightened. Turned. And with the foster sons of Phthia staring the wide-eyed, open-mouthed
stares of men who have just witnessed the divine the boy-prince smiled.

Patroclus’ breath lodged in his throat.

“LOOK AWAY!” Ampelius’ roar tore through the confounded silence like a charging bull at a
fair. “LOOK AWAY! NO ONE SEES THE PRINCE FIGHT! TURN AROUND! LOOK
AWAY!”

Setting himself between Achilles and the bewildered onlookers Ampelius ushered the boys away,
casting an anxious look over his shoulder. Patroclus just caught a glimpse of the boy slip out of
sight, taking his spear and splintered target with him. When Ampelius had moved out the way it
was as if nothing had ever been there.

“They say his mother is a goddess,” came a sudden whisper behind him. He whirled round.
Everyone’s face bore the same mystified, awe-struck expression as he knew he did.

“Hera herself as I heard it,” said another.

“No,” Androclides shook his head. “A wood nymph. From Pelion.”

“Don’t be ridiculous Thales,” another scoffed. “How could a wood nymph give birth to a fighter
like that? No, he’s one of Ares’…or Athena’s at the very least.”

“Athena’s a virgin, genius. Care explaining how a virgin gives birth at all?”

“Well I don’t bloody know, she’s a goddess, maybe they lay eggs or something…”

Patroclus listened to the excited supposes and presumptions of his peers with only half an ear. He
felt hazy, as he often did after too much wine at dinner and was filled with the sudden urge to sit
down and make sense of things. He felt addled and confused and suddenly, inexplicably angry
although at what he wasn’t quite sure. All he knew was that what he had just seen, what he had…
witnessed…should not have been possible. No one should have been able to move like that. It
wasn’t right.

It wasn’t fair.

He thought of his own clumsy steps onto the dais, of grazes and scars from tripping over his own
feet and landing in an ungainly mess at the king’s feet. He thought of the spear in his hands, how
uncomfortable he’d felt holding it and of Ampelius’ unhappy frown as it landed. Here he was,
flailing like a drowning man at the most basic of tasks as he, Achilles, made it look so easy.

Made it look beautiful.

He became aware, after a while, that somebody was watching him. He looked up. It was one of the
slaves, observing him sympathetically, a tiny, hateful smile playing at the corner of his mouth.
Irritation sparked once again in Patroclus’ chest. “What?” he snapped.

The slave shuffled his feet in embarrassment. “Nothing, young master.”

“Don’t give me that,” said Patroclus. “Come on, out with it.”

He waited expectantly, frustration mounting steadily until finally the slave spoke again, “There is
no point in envying him,” he said. “For he is matchless in skill and speed. The God’s have yet to
make a more perfect fighter, nor have they ever made one before. He will be the best warrior of his
generation.”

Patroclus stared. The slave’s face was unreadable. “How could you know this?” he finally
managed to mutter. “How could you possibly know this?”

The young man shrugged. “It is written.”

A boy’s name was called, the slave made his excuses and walked away, leaving Patroclus to stare
stupidly at the space where Achilles had been. If it had seemed empty before it was nothing but a
void now, a vast expanse of where once a demi-god had stood and where now there was nothing.
 Achilles
Chapter Notes

This chapter we get a little bit more of Achilles...and his...um...character. Be warned:

this is my own interpretation of the pre-Iliad story and it is set during Achilles'
younger years, before his ego gets a chance to cool down a bit. I write him as a dick
because there is quite a lot of evidence that he was rather and as this has no effect on
my love for him I hope you can bear it too. Of course that might just be because I'm a
masochist.

Life in Phthia began to pass in a haze of monotonous routine. Every morning Patroclus would wake
up and drag himself out of bed with considerable reluctance, dress in a simple starched tunic and
eat breakfast (alone). The next few hours were then spent wincing at Ampelius’ bellowed orders as
he tried not to make a fool of himself whether with spear, sword or javelin. When finally they grew
too weary to raise their weapons and the sun shone hottest in the sky they were dismissed to pursue
their own activities which usually involved running up and down the beach, pelting each other with
unripe figs, visiting the girls of neighbouring villages or venturing into the great, vast expanse of
sea that both beckoned to and mocked Patroclus, as if it knew him. He never joined the other boys
and they never asked him to. Instead he sat, under a tree or on the beach, quite intent to ignore and
with being ignored.

Some days it was as if he had never left home.

There was the one major difference though, and his greatest source of discomfort about his new
life in Peleus’ house. It was that of his host. He did not see Achilles often, mostly at meal times and
the occasional glimpse on the training fields when Ampelius’ massive girth was not hiding him
from view. But when he did he let him know it. When he walked into a room the servant girls
would drop whatever they were holding and become quite out of sorts. Ordinary, rational people
would become quite ridiculous and fall over themselves to serve him, to please him. Even grown
men, hardened from war and rough living would crack slow smiles at his effortless wit and charm.
Peleus’ foster sons became rivals for his notice, competing over who got the loudest laugh or
widest grin and he ruled them without even knowing he was doing so. He was the natural leader of
the pack, the golden boy and everybody loved him. Everybody except Patroclus.

Here, thought Patroclus, was a pampered pretty boy; all easy grins and adult charm with not an
inkling of sense in his perfect, everything-blond head. He could not understand for the life of him
why only he seemed to notice his arrogance, his tremendous conceit and his disdain for anyone
who did not go by the name of Achilles. Whereas the other boys competed endlessly for his
approval and affection it seemed blatantly obvious to him that the prince laughed loudest at his
own jokes, smiled widest at his own reflection and was pleased best by the failures of others. Such
a boy, Patroclus mused glumly, would be the favourite of Gods and women. He, Patroclus, found
him insufferable.

He was aware that some might have named his dislike uncalled for, especially as Achilles had
never spoken to him but for once at dinner when he had asked for the salt. Patroclus had been so
shocked that he’d knocked over the bowl in his hurry, prompting raucous laughter and mock
applause. But for then Patroclus had contented himself with hating Achilles from a distance,
shooting daggers when his back was turned and scowling into his food whenever his laugh rang
across Peleus’ hall.

Until one day, after arms practice when Ampelius had scattered the boys across the bay. Patroclus
was sat in his habitual spot under a tree, watching the waves roll easily onto the beach when
suddenly a single dice rolled onto the patch of sand beside him. He looked down and when he
looked back up again Achilles was standing in front of him, his hair swept up into a tangle by the
salt and grains of sand clinging to his palms.

“Hello,” he said, running a hand through his hair. “Sorry.”

The word was thrown casually, almost as an afterthought. It was not an apology, although
Patroclus was confused as to why this should make him angry. “It’s okay,” he muttered.

Achilles bent down and snatched up the dice in his long fingered hands. Warrior’s hands. Patroclus
watched him suspiciously. “What are you playing?” he asked despite himself.

“Tesserae,” the prince replied with a quick, sly smile. “Do you want to play?”

Patroclus shook his head abruptly. “No,” he said quickly.

Achilles’ eyes narrowed as Patroclus looked away embarrassedly. “Suit yourself,” he shrugged.

Patroclus did not answer. He hoped the boy would go away and leave him alone but when he
glanced out of the corner of his eye he was still there and his mouth was slightly open, as if he
wanted to say something. “Can I help you, prince of Phthia?” he asked, trying to keep the sarcasm
out of his voice.

Achilles frowned. “Yes,” he said bluntly. “What is your name, son of Menoetius?”

“Patroclus.”

“Patroclus.”

“Yes.”

“Why do you hate me Patroclus?”

Startled, Patroclus blinked. Achilles’ face was honest and questioning, like a young child’s. He
fished about wildly for an answer, protesting inarticulately that he would never presume above his
status to dislike his most gracious host when Achilles raised his hand with a look of sheer boredom
and he fell silent immediately. “Alright that’s enough,” he said. “If you’re going to do nothing but
bleat about it I have better things to do than waste my time listening to sheep.”

He turned to walk away, leaving Patroclus to open and close his mouth in outrage. A sheep? he
thought furiously. A sheep?! And who does he think he is, the prize of the flock? Sheep. I’ll give
him sheep.

“Prince Achilles!” he called before he could stop himself. The boy stopped in his tracks. He looked
over his shoulder, one perfect eyebrow raised expectantly. Patroclus took a breath. “I am not a
sheep!”

Achilles fixed him with a stare. It was a wicked thing and his eyes shone with mischief. Patroclus
felt himself gulp but he held his gaze proudly until the boy-prince smiled. “We’ll see,” he said
simply. “You can go on hating me if you like, Patroclus Menoitides. It wouldn’t be the first time
I’ve seen a man turn to resentment as a result of his envy.”

He sniggered as Patroclus’ eyes widened in indignation. “I’m not envious of you,” he mumbled
confusedly. “You’re a narcissist. A sycophant. The only reason nobody else will tell you so is
because your father is lord of these lands.”

“And what are you, then?” Achilles retorted and his eyes flashed bronze. “An exiled prince. A
murderer, if the rumours are true. No home. No prospects. No conceivable talent.”

He flushed at that and Achilles smirked. “Pretty face though,” he added. “You might make a good
eunuch.”

At that moment, Patroclus knew what he was supposed to do. He was to jump up, fix his
expression into one of heroic fury, deliver an excellent right hook into the little scrotum’s jaw and
not stop until he was a bloody pulp in the sand. He had seen it done so many times for insults much
less than this, had even done it himself in his father’s house. Reputations were built on such
actions, heroes born out of impulse and recklessness.

But he remembered where he was. A stranger in a strange land and his adversary was the king of
that land’s son, with a goddess for a mother and divine blood in his veins. He also remembered the
way he fought, the perfect execution of his limbs and the sculpting of his muscles, as though every
whisper of his body could speak the word Kill.

The twitch of Achilles’ lip was enough.

He leapt up and ran at him headfirst, fists raised. He could see Achilles’ stupid, smirking face
coming closer and closer until he was just about near enough to reach; he raised his arm and
swung, expecting the cool touch of knuckle colliding against skin. Instead he felt nothing as his
bunched fist fell through clean air, his body following. Achilles had sidestepped out of the way and
now grabbed the failed fist, pulling it backwards so that Patroclus was thrown onto the ground and
landed in a disgraceful heap at his feet.

He could hear laughing in the background and caught Achilles’ glittering smile at the boys
watching behind them. He spat out a handful of sand from his mouth. If you’re waiting for the
right moment for divine intervention, oh mysterious, hidden patron god of mine, he prayed silently
as more people began to turn to discover the cause of such hilarity, Now would be a good time.

“Now now,” Achilles sang merrily as Patroclus massaged his wrist. “Didn’t your mother ever teach
you to respect your betters?”

“You’re not better than me,” he managed to wince. The laughter grew louder. Achilles wrinkled his
nose as if trying to dislodge a fly.

“Maybe in another world,” he said. “Where cowardice and inadequacy are admirable values in a
man.”

“As opposed to vanity and conceit,” said Patroclus.

The gathered crowd grew silent as Achilles looked at him. It was only for a moment but for
Patroclus, kneeling at his feet and covered in sand it felt like a Golden Age. And as the time
passed, slowly like a man dragged by chariot he was not sure if he imagined a faint flicker of
humour pass across the prince’s face. Then it was over, Achilles offered Patroclus his hand, pulled
him to his feet and marched away without a backwards glance, the dice rattling in his hands and he
was certain he had imagined it.
Dinner that night was a particularly painful experience. The ballad of Valiant Achilles’ Versus the
Inglorious Patroclus was the evening’s subject of entertainment and wherever Patroclus looked
someone was relating the honourable tale to his neighbour, resulting in the standard rambunctious
hoot of mirth and a scornful look his way. He pushed the plate away, feeling sick and not trusting
himself to swallow. Aware that all eyes were on him he left the hall and went to bed early.

Listen to them, he thought bitterly, their voices following him up the stone steps. With their
flattering and their…their…backslapping. “Oh, let me pour your wine, Achilles,” “let me braid
your hair” “let me wipe your arse for you Achilles”! Gods. This whole place is full of pseuds and
donkeys.

By the time he reached his room he was just about ready to explode with resentment. He opened
the door and made ready to scream into his pillow when he stopped, realising there was already
someone in there. It was a girl, dressed in one of the short chitons of the servants’ quarters and she
jumped when he walked in.

“Young master,” she murmured, lowering her gaze and bending her knees in respect. “Please
forgive your servant the intrusion.”

“Intrusion?” Patroclus repeated, perplexed. “Yes. Yes! Intrusion. What are you doing in my
room?”

The girl gestured towards the bed with a frown. “Changing the sheets, young master.”

“Oh. Right. Sheets.” He breathed a sigh of relief, not knowing quite what he had expected. All he
knew was that this was Achilles’ home, he was likely to have spies everywhere and if he had
singled him out as a rival there was no telling quite what a young, female slave might be doing in
his bedroom. “Ok. Fine. Good work.”

The girl acknowledged the praise. “Is there anything else you would like doing?”

“Wha-? Oh, no,” Patroclus shook his head. “All good here. You may go.”

She nodded, the frown still playing slightly between her brows. “Forgive me for my impudence,”
she said slowly. “But might I inquire as to the well- being of my young master?”

“Pardon?”

“Is everything alright?”

“Oh,” said Patroclus. “Oh yes, it’s fine. Fine, everything’s brilliant. Just…the prince can be….but
yes, it’s fine. Thank you for asking.”

“You dislike the prince?” said the girl.

“What? No,” Patroclus shook his head quickly. “I never said…I mean…the prince is great! I love
the prince!”

“The prince.”

“Yes.”

“He’s a dick.”

“Yes. Yes he is.” Patroclus exhaled the breath he didn’t know he had been holding in.
The girl smiled and Patroclus gave a watery attempt back. “Don’t worry about it,” she said gently.
“If he had it this way we’d all be crawling along the ground like insects. As it is I just try to stay
out the way of his big feet.”

Patroclus forced a laugh. “Right. I’ll remember that. Thank you.”

“My pleasure,” she smiled again and gave a little bow, closing the door gently behind her.

Patroclus waited until her footsteps had faded down the stone corridor before collapsing onto the
neatly made mattress, groaning into the linen. It seemed that even now, in the silence of his
chamber he could still hear their echoing laughter, cruel and grinding against his ears. Achilles’
words rang loudest of all: “An exiled prince. A murderer. No home. No prospects. No conceivable
talent.”

He sighed a mournful little sigh and turned so that he was facing the window. The moon was
bright tonight and large as a coin, almost silvery in the dark sky. It was the kind of moon that the
goddess Artemis would bring to light the way for weary travellers and guard those who served her
while they slept. Patroclus closed his eyes and muttered a quick prayer. Surly the maiden huntress
would take pity on a poor, vulnerable soul such as he, alone and victimised in this hell of
charlatans. Surely she could give him peace of mind, for this night at least if not during the day.

If his words fell at all it was on deaf ears, for that night he dreamed of the dead boy.
 Leptine

Tesserae.

The dice fits comfortably in his hands, the edges and corners just poking into the flat of his thumb.
He runs a finger over the surprising smoothness, counting the sides and the little ridges. Funny, he
thinks, that I am playing with that with which I need to play. It is very awkward irony but he
speaks it aloud and the other boys gawp at him as they would a philosopher.

One look at their admiring faces is enough to convince him that he rather likes being drunk.

A thousand empty bottles lay cluttered around the board, nestling between dirty naked feet and
sticky hands. It all has the stale, slightly musty smell of his father’s store cupboard but it is strong
and needs a lot of water. It occurs to him that he might have got the ratio wrong; quantities confuse
him in this state, but he also decides he doesn’t care. Looking around him everyone is laughing
with a girl on his lap and he feels strong, so very, very strong.

Everyone sees the foul throw but Clysonymus is a big boy, built like a battering ram and his father
is staying in one of the palace’s nicer rooms. He has gotten away with it before now and it’s not
fair, he thinks, not when it’s my dice and my kingdom is so much bigger than his. And he feels so
very strong.

He is not sure who throws the first punch. All he knows is that he is alone and that he is staring
down at the broken fragments of a man’s skull. It litters the rock, like the cracked shell of a nut,
and runs a river over his bare feet and somewhere he thinks he hears a God laugh…

“PATROCLUS!”

“I’m sorry father!” Patroclus wailed and opened his eyes, expecting to meet the stern, condemning
face of Menoetius, with its pointed beard and eyes averted in embarrassment. Instead he found
himself staring into the ruddy, red-cheeked, flushed fury of his drill master.

“FATHER?” Ampelius bellowed and the ground seemed to shake beneath him. “FATHER?!”

“Sorry sir,” Patroclus cringed as the boys behind him tried to stifle their sniggers. “Slip of the
tongue.”

“LET ME ASK YOU SOMETHING BOY,” he continued to roar. “SINCE THE FIRST DAY OF
YOUR TRAINING IN THE ARTS OF WARCRAFT, WHEN YOU GAVE THAT ABYSMAL
SHOWING OF YOUR MILITARY TALENT, HAVE I EVER ONCE SUGGESTED THAT I
SHOULD LIKE TO BE EVEN YOUR MOST DISTANT RELATIVE?”

“No sir,” said Patroclus.

“DO I LOOK LIKE DADDY?”

“No sir.”

“DO I SOUND LIKE DADDY?”

“Gods no, sir.”

“NO! I DO NOT SOUND LIKE DADDY. BECAUSE I AM NOT YOUR FATHER, I HAVE
NEVER BEEN YOUR FATHER, AND, JUST TO MAKE IT VERY CLEAR, I HAVE NO SON!”

“No sir,” said Patroclus dully. “But you see, that’s exactly what he said.”

For a moment he thought Ampelius might beat him. He held his breath and waited for the giant,
hammer-like fists to come down but then the drill instructor shook his great, shaggy head and
sighed a mournful little sigh.

“I don’t know what to do with you today, lad,” he said sadly. “For one thing you can barely keep
your eyes open. You fell asleep in the middle of a chariot race and in the spear toss you just about
turned Calisthenes into a fruit kebab.”

“Yeah,” said Calisthenes. “Thanks for that.”

“What’s gotten into you this morning?” he continued. “I mean, don’t get me wrong, it’s not like
you’re a whole lot better on a normal day. But at the moment…Pegasus with dysentery would call
you shit."

The boys tittered and Patroclus looked up. Almpelius’ round face was creased with a frown and he
was looking down at him as though he desperately wanted to understand. But far from making him
feel better, if anything, the genuine concern in his voice only made Patroclus feel a little more like
dying. “It’s nothing sir,” he replied quietly. “I just…I didn’t sleep well.”

The empty shell of the dead boy swam into his head through a scarlet flood and he squeezed his
eyes tight to shut him out. Ampelius shook his head again and scratched the back of his neck.
“Well,” he began. “I thought we might try the javelin again this afternoon, that’s if Menoitides
here can even lift the damn thing in his state, but I’ve left them in the storeroom for cleaning.
Patroclus, you run a long and get them. And don’t you dare tarry or I will give you something to
tell daddy about.”

Patroclus gave a quick nod and sprinted off the field, ears burning. This, he thought furiously, was
not his fault. Zeus or some other cruel deity had tortured his night with dreams and now every time
he closed his eyes he saw Clysonymus, staring and white. He had not slept, only tossed and turned
in a fitful spell, twisting the linen sheets into sweaty knots around him. Sometimes the boy reached
for him and he swore he could feel his touch, like an icy breath on his forehead and sometimes he
spoke. He could never understand him though, for his words were too soft and too condemning.
The slow speech of Hades.

It was only when he was back inside and the stone walls cast their gloomy shadow once again that
it dawned on him. He had no idea where the storeroom was. The realisation sent a sickness into his
stomach. He couldn’t go back and ask Ampelius, the look on his face when he’d called him
“father” had shaken him enough. Besides, the idea of having to turn around and face the group of
snickerers and tormenters again was unthinkable. But if he took too long he knew Ampelius
wouldn’t think twice about thrashing him in front of the other boys which is not happening, he told
himself, never ever, ever.

He looked around fretfully for inspiration. Ahead there were three corridors; one which he knew
led to the Main Hall and two others which remained untried. Fine, this is fine, he thought calmly.
I’ll just keep turning left until I meet someone I can ask. And with a surprising decisiveness he took
the left corridor and headed down it without looking back.

It didn’t take him long to discover that the majority of passages in Peleus’ house looked pretty
much identical. Apparently the palace architect had wanted to represent the equality of the Phthian
people and the unanimity of the nation by designing a building of complete symmetric likeness. A
touching display of patriotic pride perhaps but it was lost on Patroclus who was beginning to feel
more and more like Theseus winding his way through the Minotaur’s labyrinth. His rule of left did
not appear to be working particularly well, he had seen no one and so could not ask if he was even
allowed in this particular wing and was becoming uncomfortably aware of how big the palace
really was. What’s more the hallways seemed to be never ending and although there were plenty of
doors on his left and right he came to no dead ends.

This is ridiculous, he thought, dodging a low-hanging torch bracket. Why on earth does Peleus
need a palace this size? He might as well have built a citadel on a molehill! He took another left,
grumbling to himself and stopped, realising that the hallway had at last reached its end. A single
door, marked with the characters that meant slaves only was set into the stone, gleaming mahogany
with a bronze handle. This must be it. All the other rooms are for attendants and visitors. Quickly
he reached for the knob, pushed the door open, and fell through darkness.

“AAAAGGGGGGHHHHH!”

“EEEEEEEEIIIIIIIIIKKKK!”

“Oh my Gods! Who’s there?! Show yourself!”

He grasped around blindly, his heart hammering in his ears until he felt his fingers clasp around
something soft. Whatever it was pulled away and he stumbled and slipped, landing painfully on his
front. “Ouch,” he groaned pathetically and groaned again as a light grew and swelled before his
eyes.

“Young master?” whispered the voice behind the light.

Patroclus rubbed his eyes and managed to haul himself into a sitting position. It was coming from a
lantern and holding the lantern was a slave girl, the same girl who had made his bed the previous
night. She was watching him with her mouth slightly open, as if she gazed upon a ghost or
apparition rather than a scrawny teenage boy who had taken a wrong turn and landed in a
disgraceful heap at her feet.

“Hello,” said Patroclus and got to his feet. As his eyes adjusted to the new brightness he saw
himself surrounded by an assortment of different vials and bottles, pitchers and amphorae. There
was not a javelin in sight. “This is not the storeroom.”

“Oh my gods,” said the girl. “I am so sorry! It’s my fault…I should have seen…Gods, I’m sorry-”

“-Huh? No, don’t be sorry,” he shook his head ardently. “It’s my fault completely. I wasn’t
looking. Well obviously, I couldn’t see-”

“-But you’re hurt!” she cut him off with a gasp, pointing at his knee.

Patroclus looked down. There was a gash of blood running steadily down his leg. “Oh, it’s just a
graze,” he replied dismissively, bending to wipe it away. “See? No problem.”

Still the girl stared in horror, lips moving without forming words. “My Gods,” she said again. “I
swear I never…I’m so sorry…please forgive your errant slave, master-”

“-Honestly it’s fine!” he insisted. “Like I said, it was my fault. I mean, I shouldn’t even be down
here.”

“This is true,” the girl nodded, biting her lip nervously. “Um…why are you down here?”
“I’m looking for the storeroom,” Patroclus replied. “And I think I’m lost.”

“I think so too,” said the girl. “This is a wine cellar.”

“Yes,” said Patroclus uncomfortably, looking around in interest. “That would explain the…um…
wine.”

He finished lamely and she gave a sweet, nervous laugh which he returned with a half-smile.
“Come on,” she said and took his hand. “I’ll show you.”

She led him back up the steps leading to the cellar and into the hallway. The glare of natural light
hit Patroclus hard and he found he had to squint to look at her while she, accustomed as she was to
the dim of the servant’s quarters, moved easily through the maze of stone and marble. He saw that
she was young, round about his own age in fact, with the light brown skin and dark eyes of an
Easterner. Her step was very light and she reminded him of one of the small, cautious, quick-footed
creatures that dwelt in the woods back home.

“The main route is back the way you came, then you take a right and then another right but I know
a much quicker way,” she explained.

“Right,” Patroclus nodded awkwardly. “Listen, I really am sorry about this. I hope I haven’t gotten
you into trouble or anything…You’ve probably got more important things to do…”

“Well yes, I do,” she admitted. “But to be honest I think I’d much rather be helping you then
assisting Phoenix with his oiling.”

The idea of the king’s chief advisor, stripped, naked and glistening with oil in all his eighty-year
old glory was not a particularly welcome one. “That’s…pretty disgusting.”

“It is isn’t it?” she agreed. “Here, this way.”

She led him through a series of secret and disconnected passageways, Patroclus guessed used only
by slaves when they wanted to appear invisible. His mother had often said that the mark of a good
slave was if you didn’t even know they were there and he had often wondered how they did their
jobs so quickly and so discreetly. Now he knew.

“Gods, you really know your way around this place,” he observed, bending to avoid hitting a very
low ceiling.

“Well I should do, I’ve been here since I was six,” she said. “I wouldn’t be much of a slave if I
didn’t, young master.”

“Please, enough of all this ‘young master’ stuff,” Patroclus cringed. “We’re about the same age, for
one thing.”

“Then what should I call you?” she asked. “Menoitides?”

“No,” he shook his head quickly. “Patroclus. Just…Patroclus. And you?”

She looked at him, puzzled. “Huh?”

“What do I call you? What’s your name?”

“Oh,” her big eyes widened in surprise and it suddenly dawned on Patroclus that she probably
wasn’t used to hearing that very often. “Leptine. Everyone calls me Leptine.”
“It’s nice to meet you Leptine,” said Patroclus and Leptine smiled shyly.

Leptine’s knowledge of the palace meant they reached the storeroom quickly and she helped carry
the javelins back with him. As they walked Patroclus told her all about his troubles with the other
boys, how failure seemed to follow him whatever he did and how even his drill master looked at
him with exasperation. He mentioned his encounter with Achilles and she clucked her tongue
impatiently at his name and tutted sympathetically when he described his humiliating attempt to
fight him. “That boy is spoiled,” she said angrily. “His father could give him the kingdom and he’d
complain that it isn’t as big as Mycenae. I just don’t understand how no one else sees it. You
should hear some of the other girls talk about him, as if it were Adonis’ chitons they were
laundering.”

“I can imagine,” muttered Patroclus glumly, thinking of the way his shoulders flashed in the
sunlight, like hard bronze.

They reached the big archway leading to the playing fields and Leptine handed Patroclus the
javelins. “I suppose I’d better get to the baths,” she said gloomily. “Phoenix is old, but he won’t
sleep forever.”

“Unless he dies,” Patroclus suggested.

Leptine laughed. “Well it was nice to meet you,” she smiled her small, guarded smile.

“Thank you so much,” said Patroclus. “Gods know what I would have done if I hadn’t…um…ran
into you. I hope I see you around.”

“I daresay you will,” she replied brightly. “It’s not all that big a house, for all its paths.”

She bowed, gave him a fluttery little wave and headed back inside. Patroclus watched her go, her
unbound hair tangling in the slight wind and was suddenly aware of the inexplicable feeling that
perhaps he was not so alone after all.
 Amyntor

Patroclus knew he was in trouble before he stepped through the door.

When you have lived a life of relentless injustice and victimisation you learn to develop a sixth
sense for these things. A subtle change in the air, a thickness of atmosphere, a face that looks up
when you enter a room, all catlike smiles and I know something that you don’t. Next thing he knew
he was sitting in front of King Peleus, backed by three of his chief advisors, watching the old man
shake his head sadly and saying “Dear, dear, dear.”

“But I haven’t done anything,” he protested feebly.

Phoenix, Amyntor and Cleitus exchanged looks of disbelief. Peleus shook his head sadly. “Now
see here lad,” Phoenix began. “It’ll be a whole lot better for you if you just tell the truth. No point
in all this unnecessary ugliness.”

“Tell the truth about what?” asked Patroclus.

Cleitus snorted derisively. “‘Tell the truth about what’,” he snarled “As if you did not know.”

“But I don’t know,” said Patroclus.

“Enough!” snapped Amyntor. “Stop playing the innocent! Accept it like a man, by Herkules and
admit to your crime!”

“But I haven’t committed any crime!”

“‘Haven’t committed any crime’,” mocked Cleitus. “Right. Sure.”

“It may not appear very serious to you, Patroclus,” said Phoenix gently. “I’m sure you meant no
harm. But I’m afraid it is quite a serious matter and your little joke has cost us rather dear, not to
mention a fair share of damage.”

“Damage?” Patroclus repeated, perplexed. “What are you talking about?”

“The COWS, boy!” answered Amyntor. “We’re talking about the goddamned cows!”

They stood there, eyes narrowed, waiting expectantly for his reply. Patroclus searched each face
for some humour, for some clue that this was just a big stupid joke and soon they would all burst
out laughing and send him back to his room with a clap on the back and a wine in hand. But there
was none. He took a breath. “I’m sorry,” he said, trying to keep his voice level. “But I still don’t
know why I’m here.”

The three advisors looked at each other. Peleus was still shaking his head, only he had now moved
on to twiddling his thumbs and gazing interestedly at the ceiling. Amyntor leaned forward until his
face was inches from patroclus’. “You are here,” he said very slowly, as if it was costing him a
great effort to stay calm. “Because someone snuck into the king’s fields, opened the gates for the
king’s herd and led them all into the king’s Great Hall, resulting in a thousand tripods’ worth of
damage and the consumption of at least four tapestries! Four bloody tapestries! And we have
reason to believe that that someone was you.”

“Ok,” said Patroclus. “Except it wasn’t.”

“‘Except it wasn’t,’” jeered Cleitus. “Shut up.”

“It wasn’t!” he insisted. “I don’t even know where the king’s fields are!”

“There is no point in denying it,” said Phoenix tiredly. “You were seen.”

Patroclus stared in disbelief. Amyntor and Cleitus crossed their arms and glared down at him with
triumphant disdain. “I was seen,” he repeated, trying to make sense of the words in his own head.
“By who?”

“Oh you would like to know wouldn’t you,” sneered Amyntor. “What would you do, go and finish
him off like you did the last?”

“It wasn’t like that,” Patroclus sighed. “Look, I really am sorry about the cows. But someone is
obviously trying to frame me so if you could just let me -”

“-Save your breath coward,” snapped Cleitus. “And keep your forked tongue behind your teeth.”

Patroclus fell back in his seat, seething and blinked back furious tears. This is not right, his head
yelled. This is not right, this is not right.

“A gambler, a murderer, and now a petty prankster,” said Amyntor. “We have no choice. The boy
must be punished.”

The three heads turned and each pair of beetle black eyes settled on Peleus’ glazed, absentminded
blue. There was a silence while the King of Phthia twidDled his mottled grey thumbs and hummed,
idly in time with the beat of Patroclus’ own heart. Suddenly, Peleus gave a raspy, phlegm-filled
cough and fixed Patroclus with a gaze that pinned him fast to the hard back of his chair, a scrutiny
that filled him with an ice fear that none of the advisors’ pitiless threats had yet to manage.

“Menoitides,” said Peleus and Patroclus felt a cold thing slither beneath his skin. “This is a most
serious matter.”

Patroclus blinked and swallowed as the king gave another hoarse cough and pulled the thick furs he
wore over his cloak tighter around his shoulders. Patroclus shifted in his seat, realising with a pang
that he had never been more afraid of an old man.

“You were sent here,” Peleus continued. “With hopes of redemption. Generously I accepted you
into my home and this is how you repay my kindness.”

“Please sir,” Patroclus attempted. “I never meant-”

“-Be silent,” said Peleus, raising a milk-white palm and Patroclus lowered his head. “I have heard
enough. Amyntor is right. You must be punished.”

The three advisors looked smug. Peleus cleared his throat again and continued. “However,” he
said. “We must be sure not to look too harshly upon the nature of boys. It is not a lesson of
Violence that you need but one of discipline. You must learn that you are no longer a prince of
Opus but a servant of Phthia. And there is only one way a boy can learn such a lesson.”

For a moment, Peleus’ eyes were hard as whetstones as he surveyed Patroclus. He held his breath
like a man drowning and his palms were wet, as a convict who receives his sentence. “Patroclus,
son of Menoitides, exiled prince of Opus,” Peleus began and his voice seemed to echo the deep
tones of a judge. “I condemn you to three months of enforced service. For now on you will be
treated as little more than a slave. You will sleep in the servants’ quarters, you will speak only
when spoken to and you will carry out every single task ordered by your superiors until it is clear
to me that you have learnt the obedience and restraint of an honoured citizen.”

So he spoke and to Patroclus each word was like the drop of a heavy stone on his skull. Finally he
folded his blue veined hands and asked “What say you to this?” and Patroclus stared back in
stunned disbelief, his mouth moving stupidly and soundlessly. Three months of enforced service.
Three months of ordered slavery. Death would have been quicker, and a thrashing less painful. Say
no, his mind screamed say you’d rather die. But there was only one answer one could give a king.

“I…” he stuttered and gulped. “There is nothing for a slave to say to his master.”

The king nodded approvingly. Amyntor, however, looked furious. “Begging your pardon my lord,”
he whispered angrily. “But the boy has committed a civic offense. Theft and vandalism against the
king! Three months of scrubbing floors is unlikely to discourage such delinquent behaviour.”

“We should leave him on a mountain with a fishbone and a slingshot,” nodded Cleitus. “That’s
what they do in Sparta.”

“But we are not in Sparta,” said Phoenix firmly. “Nor are we Spartans. Truth, this boy has done
wrong, as we all do when we are young. Show him the compassion you yourself would expect.
Besides, my lord is right. Violence will only encourage him. We don’t want to make him a
martyr.”

“So it is settled,” coughed Peleus. “Henceforth you will be stripped of your name and title. You
will address your peers as ‘sir’ and you will answer to the orders of any man in this house. Go and
take care of your belongings. Amyntor will show you to your new quarters.”

Amyntor shot Patroclus a filthy look as he got to his feet, mumbled a hasty “As it please you my
lord” and hurried speedily from the room. His heart was still pounding in his ears and his skin felt
clammy and cold as he raced up the steps to where, up till now, had been his chambers. He could
still feel their steely black eyes on the back of his neck, even upon slamming the door shut and
sinking pathetically to the floor.

It was only then that he was able to fully comprehend the unfairness of the situation. Someone in
the group had pulled the stupid prank with the cows and it was he, Patroclus, who was getting the
blame. “You were seen,” Phoenix had said. By who? Who had it out for him so badly as to risk
getting caught by the king himself? He thought back to the other day, sat beneath the tree on the
beach. “Didn’t your mother ever teach you to respect your betters?” Well. Here was a lesson he
was unlikely to forget in a hurry.

He packed his things quickly, reluctant to keep Amyntor waiting and left his room with a bag as
heavy as his deadened guts. The advisor stood at the foot of the steps, his lips curved in a
loathsome snarl. He barely spared his charge a glance before turning on his heel and marching
straight down one of the darkest corridors, leaving Patroclus to stumble anxiously after him.

“This passage will soon become very known to you,” he stated without looking. “Can you
remember the way?”

“Yes,” muttered Patroclus darkly.

“Yes what?”

“Yes sir,” Patroclus snarled.

Amyntor tossed him a black look and said nothing. They walked the rest of the way in silence,
their boots echoing across the marble and to Patroclus it seemed that his steps were growing
quieter, muffled against the gloomy dark until at long last they came to a tiny wooden door set into
the rough grey stone. The hinges were brilliant orange with rust and the surface had chipped to
splinters. Patroclus stared at it dully, watching it grow smaller before his eyes.

“Your room, my lord prince,” said Amyntor mockingly, almost wrenching the little door from its
cavity.

Patroclus peered round the man’s arm and for a moment was confused. Did the king truly mean for
him to sleep in a hole? Then he realised. There was no light in this part of the palace, save for a few
wavering candles dripping wax from their stubs. The bobbing flames cast dim shadows on already
shrunken faces, shying coyly away as if their entering had burned them. The quarters were tiny, yet
there had to be at least a hundred bodies pressed into the nooks and crevices, all of whom were
watching Patroclus warily. Patroclus looked back into their wide-eyed, distrusting faces and felt
faintly sick.

“Leptine!” barked Amyntor. Patroclus heard startled rustling from the corner, like that of a
disturbed mouse and the young girl who had rescued him only a few days past broke from the
shadows.

“Yes my lord?” Leptine answered, her eyes flickering nervously over Patroclus’ perplexed face.

“Teach Menoitides the ways and workings of this house. He is to be one of you now. Show him
how things are done. Teach him what it is to be a slave,” his lips twisted into a crude leer.

“And if he will not learn, my lord?” asked Leptine nervously.

“We shall make him,” he replied and left abruptly, slamming the door behind him with a force that
made the whole frame quiver.

Patroclus turned and surveyed the many faces watching him. Most were confused, a few were
suspicious. Leptine, however, looked as though she had been smacked in the forehead by the sun.

“I hoped I’d see you again,” she said brightly. “But what’s going on? What is Amyntor talking
about?”

Patroclus sighed and rubbed his eyes wearily. “It’s a long story,” he replied, feeling suddenly very
tired. “But I suppose I have three months to tell it.”

***

Leptine listened in sympathetic silence as Patroclus unloaded on her the whole sad, sorry tale and
when he was finished she abused the prince, the advisors and the society in which they lived with
such aggression that he even felt a little bit better. But as sorry as she was, she informed him gently,
there was very little they could do and they would all save themselves some pain if he could just
stick out his punishment, do as he was told and try not to upset anyone.

“You’re one of us now,” she told him with her melancholy smile. “That means they can treat you
like one of us.”

And that was how Patroclus found himself in a starched yellow chiton, scrubbing the floors of the
Great Hall.

On reflection, he found himself thinking, this really wasn’t all that bad a punishment. True, his
knees were skinned red from kneeling on the stone and his lower back ached to Hades. But the
room was cool and pleasantly dim, a welcome relief from the stifling wet heat of Phthian summer
and the palace was blessedly quiet. The lords had gone hunting, Peleus was resting in his chambers
and the boys were outside for morning drills. A slow smile crept up Patroclus’ face as he thought
about them all, sweltering under the ruthless sun, Ampelius’ heat-induced rage ringing in their
ears.

The resounding scrape of wood against stone blew away all thoughts of calm as Patroclus snatched
up the sodden rag and immediately sped up his strokes. He looked up uneasily as the huge double
doors opened, revealing the last person on Gaia’s green earth he wanted to see.

“Hey,” said Achilles. “Are you busy?”

Patroclus looked at him. He was lounging against the doorframe with his standard, detestable
nonchalance; his thumbs tucked idly into the low belt hanging off his slim hips. Hot anger flared in
Patroclus’ chest, mixed with a desire to slam the door into his face and not stop until he was
nothing but blood on the stone. “Yes,” he answered shortly and turned away.

Achilles ignored him and proceeded to pace around the room. Patroclus tried to keep his eyes fixed
on the soap sopped patch in front of him but his gaze kept drifting to where Achilles’ feet touched
the ground one and two and three, lightly with the grace of a dancer. Then he noticed the dirt
clinging to his heels, and now to the floor. His floor.

“I just did there,” he blurt out in irritation.

Achilles stopped and looked down. He shrugged. “Sorry.”

Sorry. He kept saying that but Patroclus wondered if he knew what the word even meant. “Did you
want something?” he asked. “Or are you just here to revel in your triumph?”

Achilles frowned. “I came to see you.”

“I’m flattered,” said Patroclus in a tone that suggested he was really, really not.

“Good,” grinned Achilles. “You’re learning something.”

Patroclus rolled his eyes and returned to scrubbing the floor. Achilles stood there, watching him.
Finally Patroclus looked back up, irritably. “What?”

“I can’t move,” his voice was smug.

Gods above. “When your mother held you in the Styx how tight was her hold? Or was it your wet
nurse who dropped you on your head?”

“And what kind of a way is that for a slave to talk to his prince? I should have you flogged.”

“Then why don’t you?” Patroclus snarled back. “Save us both this pointless conversation.”

He didn’t quite know what he was expecting to happen. All he knew was that this boy, this so-
called godchild brought out the dissenter in him and that he could not control himself, even if he’d
wanted to. It was as if Achilles had kindled a fire in his gut, a long suppressed spark that was
growing to flame and setting him alight with a sort of rebellious excitement. He did not care what
Achilles did as long as he knew what he thought of him, and as long as he considered him a force to
be reckoned with.

What he did not expect was for Achilles to look down at his feet, averting Patroclus’ gaze and start
to nibble on his lower lip. If he hadn’t known better, Patroclus would have said he was nervous. “I
need to tell you something,” he began carefully. “I never meant for…this…to happen.”

He gestured awkwardly at Patroclus kneeling on the floor, the rag in his hands oozing suds into the
puddle of water at his feet. Patroclus snorted derisively. “Right,” he said. “Okay. As if you hadn’t
got it out for me from day one. As if this wasn’t exactly what you intended when you told the king
it was me who pulled that prank with those stupid bloody cows-”

“-But that’s what I’m saying,” said Achilles hurriedly. “It wasn’t me.”

Patroclus stared. “Huh?”

“I mean, not the cows. That was me. But I didn’t tell father it was you. I would never do that.”

“Somehow I find that hard to believe.”

“I didn’t!” Achilles protested ardently. “It wouldn’t be honourable.”

“Honourable?” Patroclus repeated in disbelief. “Since when do you give two shits about
honour?”

“It’s all I give a shit for,” Achilles retorted. “Honour and glory. Everything else is ephemeral.”

“I think you’re confusing honour with egoism.”

“Maybe,” a flash of wicked smile. “But whatever my philosophy, it’s served me better than yours
has you.”

“Perhaps that’s because I don’t centre my philosophy on serving myself.”

“Evidently,” said Achilles with a nod to the bucket at his elbow. “But whatever, believe what you
like. I just thought I’d tell you. And I don’t lie.”

“If not you then who was it?” Patroclus challenged.

“I don’t know,” he shrugged. “Could have been anyone. A lot of people have it in for you,
Patroclus. You present an easy target. It comes with not being like the rest of them.”

“Right,” nodded Patroclus. “Well apologies my lord, but I’m not like the rest of them. So you’ll
excuse me if I don’t happily swallow up your bullshit.”

It was a step too far. Achilles’ eyes narrowed and in that moment, Patroclus recalled the whispered
rumours circulating the servant’s quarters and the palace walls, the inhuman tense of his arm and
back, the gold of divinity in his eyes. “Fine,” he said and his voice was like wind on the sea. “Play
it that way. I was on my way to tell father that it was me who put the cows in the Hall and to lift
your punishment…but I don’t think I will now.”

Something cold and slimy twisted in Patroclus’ gut as he looked up, furiously, into Achilles’
beautiful, sneering face. “You must do as your honour commands, my prince,” he replied with
more bravery than he felt.

“I will,” said Achilles. “And what’s more it will do you well to remember, slave Menoitides, that
as my servant I can ask you to do anything I want.”

Patroclus almost dropped the rag he was holding. There was something in Achilles’ voice that
made him feel suddenly very warm and when he spoke his voice was hoarse. “And what would my
lord have his servant do?”

“I don’t know yet,” Achilles replied with a sly smile. “I haven’t given it much thought. But don’t
worry. I’ll let you know.”

And with that he turned abruptly and left, slamming the huge double doors behind him and leaving
a trail of dirty footprints behind, gleaming laughingly from the polished grey stone.
 Attendance

As the days stretched into weeks Patroclus realised he had made a mistake in taking his new
position so lightly. Every morning, before Dawn had even so much as stretched her legs he would
be up; turning sheets, heating water and cleaning straw, yawning and rubbing sluggishly at his eyes
in the morning cold. He would then return to his quarters for a breakfast of dry, grey bread and
dates before beginning the day’s tasks, all of which were long, arduous and incredibly boring.

It was not so bad when Leptine was with him. Through shy beginnings of tentative, polite smalltalk
they had begun to reveal more of themselves to the other, weaving whole webs of history with the
threads of casual conversation until one day, Patroclus realised they had reached the stage where
they could say just about anything and whether with a word, or a smile, or just a look which said I
get you their world was just a little more calm. Patroclus had never been gotten by anybody before
and he wondered how many nights Leptine had lain awake waiting for someone to tell her dreams
to.

She was true to her word, leading him back and forth along the secret workings and inner passages
of the palace until he could trace them in his sleep. She taught him how to flit silently as a moth
from one room to another and how to step lightly across the stone like a cat with no shadow. She
taught him when best to speak and when to keep quiet and, most importantly, when to listen and
leave without getting caught.

“If you cannot hear you will not get far,” she whispered, one ear pressed to a door. “We slaves are
soldiers. Our sword is secrets. Our shield is gossip. And our fight is survival.”

She taught him how to tell from one sniff if a wine was very old or very young. She showed him
how best to skim the curds from the milk and make them into butter or cheese. She even revealed
to him the coveted art of herb lore; which roots cured stomach ache and which cleared the throat
from infection, the flower that could drive a man insane with lust and the one that brought on a
deep and dreamless sleep, the sap from one plant which could with three drops cure almost any
ailment known to man and with four bring an instant and painful death.

“Not all slaves know this kind of thing mind,” she told him matter-of-factly, chopping roots with a
silver knife. “It’s not something you just pick up. You have to be taught and you have to know
what you’re doing. One wrong ingredient and Phoenix’s simple sleeping draught will have him on
the privy for weeks and limping for months.”

“So where did you learn it all?” asked Patroclus, scattering the leaves into boiling water. He was
getting better with distinguishing between shape and colour but still had trouble measuring sizes
and quantities.

“My mother taught me,” Leptine replied. “She was the wise-woman of our village and knew all
manner of spells and plant properties. I never had her gift but the little I know serves me well
enough. A slave with a skill is worth more than a brothel can afford.”

There was something in her voice, the bluntness with which she spoke about her past that made
Patroclus sad and a little guilty for reasons he could not quite explain. Leptine was not from Greece
but from far away to the East where the people were brown-skinned and dark and spoke the deep,
melodic tones of the Anatolian tongue. When she was nine her village was raided and she was sold
into captivity, thrown onto a ship and sent across the Aegean Sea to live in a strange land with a
new name. Since then she had served in four different homes for four different masters, spoken
five languages and worshiped more Gods than she could remember. Seven years has erased nearly
all signs of her former accent, yet when she spoke of her old life her eyes grew bright with memory
and sometimes, at night, Patroclus would catch a murmur of whispered prayer to a nameless, half-
animal God and fall asleep with the faint rustle of hooves in his ears.

“So with this,” he picked up a red flower with large round petals. “You can get rid of a man’s pain
or send him into hallucination, just like that?”

“Not with that you can’t,” said Leptine. “You have to extract the milk from the bud. But yes, in
theory.”

“And this,” a star-shaped purple plant with a bright yellow centre. “Treats memory loss, shows the
future and acts as a poison?”

“And then there’s torture,” Leptine reminded.

“Do you realise how much power you actually have here?” Patroclus gaped wonderingly, turning
the plant over in his hands. “I mean…with these ingredients…you could do anything. All those
people who mistreated you or…or…hurt you. You could get them back with one drop of this or
this. No one would dare harm you again,” a lifetime of injustice, a hundred contemptuous faces
bled away like the prick of a thorn. “You’d be untouchable.”

Leptine surveyed him thoughtfully. “I know what you’re thinking,” she said gently. “But you can’t
play around with things like this. They’re meant to heal but they can also be incredibly dangerous.
I couldn’t risk something going wrong. Besides, the Gods get angry if you abuse their gifts.
They’re supposed to help people, not serve as revenge.”

Patroclus wasn’t sure that his Gods were quite as charitable as hers but he let it lie. Still, as they
prepared Peleus’ rheumatism tonic he could not quite keep out the image of slipping a discreet
something into Amyntor’s wine…or Cleitus’…or Achilles’…

“Patroclus,” Leptine’s voice cut sharply through the fantasy.

“What?” he blinked innocently.

Leptine shook her head. “No.”

“Oh come on,” he begged. “Just a little of the nightshade. Or the cassava root. He deserves it!”

“I don’t care if he kills your father and beds your sister, I’m not poisoning the prince,” she retorted.
“And he’s requested a wine serving at noon so you’d better go clean yourself up.”

Patroclus stared in protest. “Why me?”

“He asked for you specifically. Have fun.”

Groaning, Patroclus left the kitchen and made his way to one of the many rooms belonging to the
prince and his friends, muttering darkly to himself. Ever since the conversation in the Hall Achilles
had also been true to his word, having Patroclus perform every single task that came to him. Big or
small, simple or crippling it made no difference. So far he had been ordered to stack Achilles’
weaponry in order of size and weight, only to watch the prince send it back into its usual state of
anarchic confusion, “the way he preferred it”, immediately afterwards. He had also had him peel a
dozen apples before serving them to his horse and given him the impossible task of filling the
palace cauldron with hot water. It had only taken him two hours to realise that somebody had
riddled the bottom with holes.
He found him in one of the palace’s bigger rooms, lounging across a couch in his trademark
position with one leg dangling off the arm. Grouped around him were five or so boys mimicking
similar poses, laughing too jovially and talking too loudly in sickeningly obvious attempts to get
his attention. Achilles, however, ignored them, looking bored as he always did and was busy
staring into space when Patroclus walked in.

“Ahem,” Patroclus announced feebly and the boys looked up. At once Achilles snapped out of his
self-induced trance, flashing his most taunting smile.

“Lord Patroclus,” he purred and the room fell silent. “How gracious of you to join us.”

Patroclus glanced round the room. The faces were excited and smiling, their chests bursting with
baited anticipation. What jolly game was their clever prince playing now? And how could they
join in?

“Look boys,” Achilles continued in a voice of velvet poison. “Look how the prince of Opus takes
time out of his busy day to honour us with his most venerated presence.”

The boys tittered. Achilles smiled and their eyes locked. Patroclus saw in them the glint of humour,
the impish narrowing of mischief and he wondered how long Achilles had been waiting in sheer,
devastating boredom for him to walk through that door. If only he was alone, he found himself
wishing. I could take him if he was alone.

But unwilling to make a spectacle in front of all these young lords, he inclined his head graciously.
“You sent for me, my lord?”

For a moment, Patroclus thought he saw a hint of disappointment cross the prince’s face. Then it
was gone and the smile was back, mocking and contemptuous. “I’m thirsty,” he said.

Achilles nodded and crossed over to the other side of the room. A decanter of wine and a tray of
silver goblets had been set on a corner table and he poured them measurably, taking care to observe
the water to wine ratio as Leptine had taught him. He then handed one to Achilles first before
passing goblets to his company and waited anxiously as they raised the wine to their lips. Achilles
took a steady sip, swallowed and grimaced.

“A little thin,” he stated. “Are you sure you’ve got enough wine in there?”

I have, you know I have. “Quite sure, my lord.”

“Well I’m not,” Achilles shrugged. “I think we could do with it being quite a bit stronger, what do
you think?”

This question he tossed at his friends who promptly raised their glasses and cheered as if on cue.
Patroclus suppressed the sinking feeling in his gut and went to refill the decanter. He knew, as no
doubt Achilles did too, about Peleus’ views on the boys drinking strong wine. Only a few months
ago the fosterlings had been resigned to drinking half-and-half with added milk to curb the potency
further. “A man who cannot rule his own mind cannot possibly hope to rule a kingdom,” he had
often heard him tell his son. But it was either this or disobey a direct order.

Patroclus filled the goblets much to the boys’ delight and waited patiently for Achilles to taste.
Again he winced. “No,” he shook his head. “Still not getting it.”

He held the goblet out for re-filling. Patroclus hesitated. Achilles looked up, frowning curiously.
“Patroclus,” he said softly. “I asked for more wine.”
Patroclus bit his lip nervously. “But your father-”

“-My father,” interrupted Achilles. “Is not here. I’m thirsty. My friends are thirsty. Would you have
us drink this swill?”

“More wine!” chorused one of the boys and the others echoed in a loud, brazen chant. “More wine!
More wine!”

Achilles looked at Patroclus and offered an apologetic grin. “The public wants what the public
gets,” he said.

Patroclus glared at him and went back to fetch the decanter. By the third fill most of the boys were
already half-drunk with hilarity and juvenile rebellion but when Patroclus turned to go Achilles
stopped him. “Stay,” he commanded. “I may have more need of you.”

And so Patroclus found himself glued to a corner, watching as the movements became more
deliberate and the sentences began to make less and less sense. Soon the whole room was filled
with raucous laughter and nonsensical anecdotes and Patroclus felt as though he had stepped into
another time, another place where he did not belong and yet could think of no way to escape.
Please let nothing break, he prayed desperately. Please may no one kill each other. He tried not to
imagine how worse his punishment would be if the king found out it had been Patroclus who had
let his son kill himself out of drunken disobedience.

And yet, he realised, watching out of the corner of his eye, Achilles had barely touched his own
glass and was lying regally on the couch, surveying the scene before him with a mixture of
amusement and scorn. It was then that it occurred to Patroclus that Achilles, it seemed, felt nothing
for these people he called “friends”, except for a mild disgust he didn’t even try to disguise. They
were just all too reeling with delusion to see it. The thought made Patroclus feel strangely satisfied.

Achilles kept Patroclus there for an hour or so, having him refill glasses and move furniture around
the room so that he could see it in all its different “lights”. Finally, with half the room snoring on
their couches he turned to Patroclus and waved dismissively at the door. “You can go,” he said and
Patroclus made to get out as fast as he could. “Wait.”

Patroclus looked over his shoulder. There was a curious expression on Achilles’ face and his voice
sounded strange when he spoke, “Have my bath ready before dinner.”

oOo

“He said what?” shrieked Leptine.

“‘Have my bath ready before dinner,’” repeated Patroclus, perplexed. “Why? Does he not do that a
lot?”

“No, it’s just…um…” Leptine bit her lip. “You’re just not...trained for that…kind of thing.”

Patroclus frowned in perplexity. “Well how hard can it be?” he mused. “I just have to heat some
water, put it in a tub, maybe add some rose petals…or does he prefer lavender?”

Leptine shook her head pityingly. “I’m afraid it’s not that simple.”

Patroclus’ frown deepened. “How’d you mean?”

Leptine signed and once again Patroclus felt that feeling of stepping into an imaginary world,
where nothing made sense and everything meant something different. “Patroclus,” she took a
steadying breath. “Do you know what a bath attendant is?”

Patroclus nodded blankly. “Of course,” he replied confusedly, searching Leptine’s face for an
explanation. “They’re girls who…you know….attend the bathing. Sensually.”

Leptine nodded. “Yes,” she affirmed hesitantly. “But…um…not just girls.”

She stepped back, waiting for his reaction. Patroclus stared idiotically as the wheels turned slowly
through the mist of his mind, his eyes widening in sudden comprehension. “NO. No, no, no, no, no
there’s no way he can mean that.”

“What else could he mean?” shrugged Leptine. “He hasn’t asked any of the usuals. And he told
you directly…”

“I’m not doing it,” stated Patroclus, folding his arms protectively across his chest. “Just tell him
I’m ill or I’ve run away or…or I’m dead or-”

“-You don’t say no to a prince,” Leptine objected. “But listen, don’t worry about it. He probably
just wants to make you uncomfortable, to remind you who’s on top, so to speak. He’ll have you
pour his water…wash his hair….maybe oil his feet but that’s it. It’s just another way to humiliate
you, that’s all. To remind you of your status. You won’t have to…do anything.”

“Oh. Well,” Patroclus rolled his eyes. “If it’s only humiliation.”

“And you should thank the Gods for it,” said Leptine. “Most of us aren’t so lucky. But come, if
you’re to be a bath attendant even only by name you’ve got a lot to learn….and in a very short
space of time.”

Leptine led Patroclus to whom she referred to as “the usuals”, a handful of some of the prettiest
slaves in the palace specially trained in what they called “the bathing ritual.” Over the next two
hours they taught him everything from how best to pour the water to the venerated oiling process, a
lesson which Patroclus could be sure not to forget in a hurry. “A man’s body,” instructed one
attendant. “Is like a harp. You need to learn to play it in a way that is best pleasing.”

The attendants then showed Patroclus how to play the harp across the back and the thigh but when
they came to that most sensitive of topics in between the legs they found him completely
overwhelmed by a sudden violent coughing fit and could get no more out of him. Finally, when the
brilliant blue of the sky had darkened to a dusty mauve they announced him ready and with
Leptine’s last words of “Good luck” ringing in his ears, Patroclus headed towards the baths feeling
very much like a heifer, turning steadily on a spit.

The bathroom was a large chamber made mostly of marble. The ceiling was a giant dome
supported by six pillars the size of tree trunks and the floor was smooth as polished granite. Right
in the centre of the room was a large wooden bath and around it stood a dozen candle holders,
casting foreboding shadows across the sloping walls. Patroclus lit each one and the glow of orange
light bounced off the shining stone.

In an adjoining chamber a giant cauldron sat beneath a towering fireplace. Patroclus lit the fire and
waited impatiently for the water to warm. When finally steam began to rise he took the cauldron
off the flames and poured its contents into the bath, adding the oil, herbs and perfumes sitting in
bottles on the shelves. When the bath was made, he sat himself on the edge and watched dully as
steam rose from the water’s surface, twisting like vapid dancers and vanishing into the warm, wet
air. The scent of the herbs and oil mingled with rosewater was strong, almost stifling and he had to
resist the temptation to open a window when suddenly the door opened and all other thoughts
disappeared, like vapour, into the air.

Achilles’ arms were crossed over his chest. He wore a loose linen robe, light and hinting at the
perfect sculpt of his limbs and torso and when he saw Patroclus he smiled his curling, sneering
smile. Then he closed the door.

Patroclus swallowed. Hard.

“Good evening my lord,” he managed to rasp. His voice sounded hoarse and strange and he wanted
to die.

“Hey,” replied the prince. “I see you got my invitation.”

Patroclus suppressed the urge to roll his eyes and busied himself with measuring the water’s
temperature. Behind him he heard the subtle thump of cloth hitting floor, followed by the sound of
Achilles’ feet pacing the chamber. Patroclus felt his pulse quicken as the rising heat of the bath
crept across the back of his neck and under his chiton.

He gestured awkwardly towards the bath. “If my lord would like to step-”

“-Gods, enough with the servant formality horseshit,” Achilles snapped. “You’ve made your
thoughts about me perfectly clear. I think we’ve reached the level in our relationship where we can
at least speak plainly, don’t you?”

Taken aback by his bluntness, it was all Patroclus could do to think up a retort. “Fine,” he said.
“Let’s speak plainly. Why am I here?”

It was Achilles’ turn to be surprised. But he recovered quickly, arranging his features into a mask
of mocking irony. “Why,” he replied blandly. “These things are so much more fun when you have
the help of a pretty girl.”

Patroclus snorted derisively. “You’re disgusting.”

“And you’re an attendant,” Achilles pointed out. “So go on. Attend.”

He pointed to the linen robe, lying abandoned on the floor. Patroclus strode over and folded it
neatly before placing it on one of the side benches. Out of the corner of his eye he could see
Achilles lowering himself into the hot water, just catching a flash of chiselled calf before it was
swallowed by the surface. As Patroclus stood his eyes wondered over Achilles’ magnificent form,
marvelling over the perfect tautness of his upper body as he closed his eyes and let his head drop
against the carved wood of the bathtub. He watched as the muscles in his shoulders contracted and
relaxed, moving subtly beneath his skin like a wave under the sky.

And as he watched, as Achilles eyelashes fluttered closed and his mouth parted ever so slightly
Patroclus felt a sudden, inexplicable desire to touch him.

He opened one eye and Patroclus drew breath. “What are you waiting for?”

Patroclus gave a little start and approached the bath gingerly. There was a jar of scented oil on one
of the shelves and he took it, spreading it evenly over Achilles’ back and shoulders. The moment
his fingertips touched skin the prince issued a little sigh.

Patroclus swallowed. Harder.

“So,” spoke Achilles finally. “Are we going to get through this experience in excruciating silence
or make an attempt at awkward conversation?”

“It’s not like we have much common ground to discuss,” said Patroclus numbly, who was still
trying to process the development of his hands on another boy’s skin.

“Oh come on,” said Achilles with a yawn. “Two people with as much disdain for one another as
we have must have something to talk about. Where you were born, for example.”

“Opus,” Patroclus answered dully.

“And what was it like?”

“Warm,” said Patroclus. “Dull.”

“Phthia is dull,” said Achilles scathingly. “A dull, flat country teeming with dull, flat people. You
wake up every morning to the same simpering faces; ‘yes my lord’ and ‘as you wish my lord’.
Every one as empty as the last.”

“At least your people honour you,” objected Patroclus. “At least you wake up to servants and fine
food and praise.”

“Wealth,” Achilles sneered. “Comfort. Is that what drives men?”

“Only the ones who have never known it,” retorted Patroclus.

Achilles shrugged carelessly. “I have known it,” he said. “And I’m bored of it. Do my back.”

Remembering his lessons with the attendants, Patroclus slid the heels of his palms into the crevice
between Achilles’ shoulder blades and made small circles with the flat of his thumb. Achilles’
sighed again, sending prickles up his spine. The oil made him smooth and he glistened in the
flickering candlelight, giving Patroclus the distinct sensation that he was moulding pure gold.

“Why are you like the way you are?” he asked suddenly.

Achilles frowned. “Surely you’ve heard the stories.”

“I’ve heard them for what they are,” replied Patroclus, moving to massage just below his neck.
“Stories.”

“Then why don’t you tell me which stories you believe to be true,” said Achilles.

Patroclus thought hard, recalling snatches of gossip tossed by his peers and around the servants’
quarters. “Your mother is a goddess,” he stated. “As a child she held you in the Styx. They say you
are immortal,” he waited and when Achilles did not answer he took a steadying breath. “They say
you cannot be killed.”

Still Achilles said nothing. Patroclus, fearing he had said too much, lowered his hands to rub
Achilles lower back. He felt a kind of fire in his fingertips, spreading from the rosy warmth of
Achilles’ skin to his own gut, warming his insides and sending shivers across his body all at once.
Suddenly Achilles spoke, “She says I’m to be a God,” he said. “But I’ve heard her talk about
Olympus and it sounds just about as much fun as Phthia in a heat wave.”

Patroclus imagined the God Achilles glowing in all his divine glory, staring from a mountain
crevice with unsuppressed boredom and couldn't help but grin. "Perhaps that's because Olympus
isn't so different from here after all."
"Same faces," remarked Achilles. "Different names. My hair, now."

Patroclus complied, combing his fingers through Achilles' thick blond locks with olive soap. The
thought occurred to him briefly that this job as usually done by a woman but he waved it away
dismissively. He would worry about that later. "Don't you want to be a God?" he asked.

"I want to live forever," said Achilles. "But not on a cloud. And then father wants me to be a
man...a great king and rule over his little world and have a hundred sons called Peleus."

"Have you spoken to them?" Patroclus frowned. "Your parents, I mean?"

Achilles thought for a moment before shaking his head. "They love me," he replied. "And I know
they want the best for me. But they don't...get me. Sometimes they don't even understand what I'm
saying."

Patroclus said nothing. He was thinking about his own parents; his father's perplexed
disappointment, his mother's desperate searching for a reason why her son was so unlike her
husband. Achilles was still speaking "You don't know how it feels," he was saying. "To live your
life ungotten by anyone."

"It's like you're a ghost," said Patroclus. "And when you speak, all people hear is the wind."

"Yes," said Achilles. "Exactly."

He looked up. Beads of moisture clung to his forehead and his hair was plastered to his face. "They
all pretend to love me."

Patroclus thought of a room bursting with sycophantic laughter and wine spilling from drunken
mouths. "Yes."

"But you don't."

"No."

Achilles looked satisfied. "That's why you're here."

He sank back into the tub. Patroclus looked down at the water, where Achilles’ torso met his lower
half, the gentle curve of his waist, the smoothness of him and he gulped, tracing a finger hesitantly
down his spine. Achilles gasped at the touch and he flinched.

“You’re good at this,” he muttered. “Do the princes have many duties in Opus?”

Patroclus ignored the jibe, skirting the joining of Achilles’ thigh with his hand as he moved
steadily round the bath. Achilles’ eyes widened as slowly, deliberately he began to massage him.
He started outwards, working his way in with precision, and as he did so he became particularly
aware of how Achilles’ breaths were coming shallower and shorter, and even more so of the
reaction his own body was having to the prince’s laboured breaths, damp skin and ever so sweetly
parted mouth.

His hands were ceaseless. Achilles’ torso was arched, the whole of him almost rising out of the
water to reveal the pretty pink flush spreading from his face downwards and Patroclus wondered
idly if he had ever seen something so lovely. He was so close to Achilles that he feared he might
fall in But it doesn’t matter, he found himself thinking, just as long as he does not ask me to-

“-Stop,” exclaimed the prince, eyes flashing open and Patroclus froze. “Stop…just…stop.”
Patroclus jumped backwards, pulled his dripping hand out of the water and thrust it ashamedly
behind his back. Achilles, red-faced and damp-skinned was blinking hard. “Enough,” he said
quietly, so quietly Patroclus almost didn’t hear him.

Patroclus busied himself with the candles while Achilles got out of the bath. His heart was beating
frantically against his chest and he felt cold all over, as if he had just walked through a ghost.
Achilles towelled himself dry and pulled on the linen robe with the dependence of a soldier
buckling himself into his armour.

“You may go,” he said, breaking the earth-shattering silence.

Patroclus stood, routed to the spot. Achilles glanced over his shoulder and his face was like hard
iron. “Did you not hear what I said?” he snapped, eyes flashing like a knife in the back. “Go.”

And Patroclus, who knew an order when he heard it, left the room without a backwards glance. His
footsteps slapped across the stone like the clatter of a hundred hooves as he marched through the
halls, hardly daring to slow for breath. He felt as though the shadow of a force was stalking him,
breathing across his neck in a jeering whisper of a voice; I see you, it said. I see you I see you.

He did not stop when he arrived at his quarters. He did not stop to respond to Leptine’s cheery
greeting, nor answer her call as he drove past her. He did not stop until he reached his mattress and
the cool, gloomy safety of the slaves’ shared bedroom. Only then did he lie down, bury his face
into his pillow and try to make sense of what had just happened.

That was the first night he dreamed of Achilles.

 Mynax

Just a dream, it means nothing.

But what if it doesn’t?

A remnant of last night’s weirdness. Nothing more.

But what if it it’s not?

“Patroclus?” whipped Leptine and Patroclus started. “Are you here?”

“Yes,” Patroclus answered automatically. “Yes I am here, I am here and I am listening.”

“Oh really?” Leptine raised an eyebrow, her hands on her hips. “What did I just say?”

“Err…” Patroclus fumbled in his memory for a plausible answer, his eyes settling on the plants
strewn across the table. “You said you had to steam the root…and….err….wear it…around
your….scrotum?”

Leptine rolled her eyes. “As a lotion,” she sighed. “You have to wear it as a lotion.”

She dropped the vegetable on the table behind her and turned to face him, her dark eyebrows
crooked with concern. “Okay,” she began in a tone of voice that meant business. “What’s going on
with you?”

Patroclus tried to look oblivious and casual at the same time. “Nothing,” he shrugged. “Nothing’s
wrong. I’m fine. Brilliant, in fact. I just…I love herbal roots.”

“Patroclus,” said Leptine, fixing him with her sternest stare. “If you’re going to last long in this
place you really need to get better at lying. You ‘ve been distracted all morning and when you’re
not trying to amputate yourself,” her eyes wondered over Patroclus’ bandaged finger where a knife
had accidentally slipped “you just sit and stare into space. Don’t think I haven’t noticed. I know it’s
something to do with last night.”

Patroclus shuffled his feet awkwardly, dully aware that it would be easier to tickle a sleeping
Cyclops than it would be to hide something from Leptine. That girl spotted everything. “It’s
nothing,” he reassured her. “Just…when I was attending Achilles last night something a bit…
weird…happened.”

Leptine’s frown deepened. “What kind of weird?”

Patroclus mumbled something inaudible. “But hey,” he said loudly. “No big deal. I’m sure it
happens to everyone.”

Leptine looked confused but when it was clear Patroclus didn’t want to go into the details she
shrugged, silently resolving to find out later. Patroclus resided back into depressive silence. It had
been easy to convince himself last night that what had happened in the bathroom was nothing more
than natural occurrence. Yes, Achilles had appeared to respond…positively…to his touch and yes,
there had been an instant when Patroclus’ own response had been just as…positive. But that was
natural, what with the ridiculous proximity of their bodies and the pressing, wet, almost stifling
heat of the room. It was normal. It was scientific. And as Patroclus drifted into an uneasy sleep he
had half-managed to doubt whether anything had really happened at all, and it had all just been a
trick of the heat and the fumes.

Then came sleep. As soon as the curtains of his subconscious had fluttered closed the shadows on
the world began to take peculiar shape; delicate lines of tendon strung fine as the strings of a bow,
skin like polished wood, the rosy softness of thigh, the curve of a neck. Through snatches of
disconnected images the looms of Patroclus’ mind wove for him a tapestry of pink warmth and wet
breaths, long and laboured and pressing on the walls of his skull until he woke up, cold with sweat
and staring in horror at the patch of dark dampening the mattress between his legs.

He had said not a word that morning, only scraped his sheets into a hurried bundle and dropped
them in a bucket of cold water before anyone had a chance to question him. Then he had done his
chores and followed Leptine to the kitchens, nodding at her throughout the lesson and suggesting
an “Aha” or “Mm” at frequent interjections, all the while moving on automatic and hardly hearing
her words. His mind had vacated him, had made its home in dark rooms and damp mattresses and
it wasn’t until the knife fell that he realised he had no idea what he was doing.

“PATROCLUS!”

“I’m sorry!” wailed Patroclus, wrenching himself back to reality. “I’m sorry. I’m listening now.
Promise.”

Leptine just sighed. “Forget it,” she said. “You’re obviously not with it today. Why don’t we just
leave it for now?”

Patroclus nodded thankfully and sank onto a bench, rubbing his temples tiredly with his fingertips.
Leptine bustled about the kitchen throwing things into a steaming brew which she handed to
Patroclus. He took it with a grateful smile and drank, at once feeling soothed and calm. Leptine
perched next to him, sipping daintily from her own cup and for a while they sat there, neither of
them saying anything, just drinking and silently understanding the other’s need for thought.
Patroclus pondered morosely over all that had happened, wondering if Achilles was having similar
thoughts and if he’d be avoiding him from now on. For some reason Patroclus found himself
hoping he wouldn’t. The prince made him angry and miserable and he couldn’t remember a time
when he had walked away from a conversation without feeling insulted but at least he made him
feel something. Achilles was a distraction, a break from the wearisome predictability of life and
without his presence it was as though something was missing, some vital ingredient that held
Patroclus from the brink of oblivion and stopped him going under when he slipped.

As he mused Patroclus found himself slipping deeper into despondency and was only saved from
sheer depression by the sound of the door opening. They looked up to see Loras, a young slave
who often acted as messenger, standing before them and looking purposeful.

“I have a message for you,” he said, nodding at Patroclus.

Patroclus looked wary. “From who?”

“Ampelius,” Loras answered and the two exchanged glances. “He says despite your new social
status you are still required for drills and training instruction by the order of King Peleus. You will
attend every session with the other foster sons of Phthia before returning here to resume your duties
as a slave, starting immediately. He also bid me tell you that even the smallest beetle can draw
blood with a bite.” He shrugged apologetically. “I think he meant that as a compliment.”

“Probably,” sighed Patroclus, his heart sinking. “Ok. Thanks, Loras.”

Loras closed the door behind him and Patroclus’ head fell into his hands. Leptine put a sympathetic
hand on his shoulder as he groaned in self-pity. “What have I done?” he wailed, raising his head to
glare condemningly at the ceiling. “Tell me what I’ve done!”

“Don’t worry,” crooned Leptine reassuringly. “You’ll be fine. Their words can’t hurt you.”

“No, but fists and javelins might,” replied Patroclus through gritted teeth. “Suppose I’d better get
ready. I’ll see you later.”

He hurried back to his room and dressed quickly, unwilling to keep Ampelius waiting for any
longer than he had to. One of the compensating factors of slave life had been his exemption from
activities with the other boys, a fact from which he had drawn some comfort. He had almost
danced with glee upon hearing that he would never again have to watch as his spear fell
pathetically short of his target, or endure the laughter when he misplaced his footing and had to
flail to avoid landing on his sword. Now he cursed his naivety and it was with considerable
reluctance that he pulled on the starched training chiton and headed down the corridor that would
take him outside and onto the fields.

The group was already lined up when he arrived. Deiomachus nodded at him when he approached
but the others either laughed or sneered, hammering him with names as he took his place in the
line.

“Hey Menoitides, how are you liking your new room?”

“Hey Menoitides, when was the last time you took a bath?”

“Hey Menoitides, I need you to service an itch on my-”

“-Hey Menoitides,” called a voice and Patroclus turned around.

A boy was walking towards him. He was big, at least a head taller than Patroclus and built like a
bull, all power and muscle with a neck as wide as his torso. His shoulders were so large it seemed
to take extra effort to propel his body forward and by comparison his head seemed small, although
his jaw was square and blunt enough to split rock. His hair was bright red and curly, his eyes clear
and blue and were it not for the cruel twist of his slack mouth and the threatening glee in his eyes
he might have been handsome. Instead, he simply had the look of an oversized teenage
psychopath.

He stopped short of Patroclus who felt as though a lead thing had been dropped on his gut with
each step he took. “Mynax,” he said and the boy grinned.

“Thrown you out, have they?” he asked.

“No,” replied Patroclus, who couldn’t think of anything better to say.

“They’ve thrown him out,” Mynax announced, turning to address the group. “Prince Patroclus was
thrown out by slaves.”

“I’m still a slave,” Patroclus stated dully.

It was the wrong thing to say. Mynax’s eyes lit up with unsuppressed glee. “Prince Patroclus is
adjusting to his new position,” he exclaimed. “And why shouldn’t he be? It suits him so well.”
And before Patroclus could retort, Mynax seized him by the back of his head and yanked it so that
his neck snapped back and he cried out in shock and pain. Mynax brought his face close to
Patroclus’ and when he spoke he could feel flecks of spit peppering his cheek. “One might even
say he was born to it,” he hissed. “You were born to suck my cock Prince Patroclus-”

“-NEKROITIDES,” came Ampelius’ distinctive roar. “What are you doing with that boy?”

“Nothing sir,” replied Mynax, releasing Patroclus at once and blinking innocently. “Just messing.”

Ampelius squinted so that his black eyes looked like tiny beetles. “Patroclus? Is that you? You
look peaky. Are they letting you out enough? Get enough to eat?”

“Yes sir,” mumbled Patroclus as the other boys tittered, as if Ampelius was talking to a badly-
behaved pet.

“Hmm,” frowned Ampelius doubtfully. “Well, summon whatever strength’s left in you, lad. You’ll
need it today. Leonides, get the javelins. Let’s see how much our cellar prince remembers.”

It was a torturous session. It soon transpired that Mynax and his friends, all similarly thuggish, had
apparently missed Patroclus while he was away and regarded any moment not spent abusing him as
a moment wasted. Whether it was simply sticking a foot out as he passed by or sabotaging every
attempt he made with a weapon they would not let up until Patroclus turned to Deiomachus for
answers.

“Have I done something?” he implored furiously. “Because Mynax is making it look pretty
personal.”

“It’s Achilles,” Deiomachus explained. “Mynax knows he doesn’t like you so he’s trying to win his
approval.”

Patroclus stared in disbelief. “Why should Achilles’ opinion mean so much to him? He’s a prince
in his own right.”

Deiomachus glanced around discreetly, as if to check if anyone was listening. “I was talking to one
of the serving girls,” he began, with the air of someone about to divulge a great secret.
“Apparently, Peleus wants Achilles to start looking for a hetairoi.”

Hetairoi. Blood brother. Companion. Someone to fight by Achilles’ side in battle and sit at his
right hand during peace. Patroclus nodded in comprehension. Of course Achilles was looking for a
hetairoi, and of course, only the best would do. A boy of noble blood and pure, unblemished
history, strong enough to carry his own weapons and defend his prince’s.

That explains all the fawning, thought Patroclus. Anyone would kill for a place like that. “Well he’s
wasting his time,” he stated out loud. “Achilles hates everyone.”

Deiomachus shrugged. “Apparently not everyone.”

He pointed. Patroclus followed his gaze to where Achilles was sitting, having finished his own
drills, and was laughing at something Mynax had just said. Patroclus stared, an acid bubble of bile
rising from his stomach into his throat.

“Great,” he said, more bitterly than he’d intended. “I hope they’re happy together. They deserve
each other, they really do.”

Deiomachus looked quizzically at Patroclus. “You feeling okay?”

Patroclus blinked, suddenly aware of the inexplicable feeling of resentment in his gut. “Yeah,” he
said. “Yeah, I’m fine.”
But he wasn’t and as Mynax continued to flatter and fawn, once in a while sending scathing looks
his way the resentment continued to bubble like boiling water until finally, when Achilles had
returned to his training, Patroclus was feeling decidedly un-fine enough as to challenge Mynax.

He strode up to him boldly, aware of every set of eyes following him and his own sweating palms.
Mynax had his back to him and he was surrounded by friends, each one a towering fortress when
compared to Patroclus’ pitiable averageness. He took a steadying breath, forcing himself not to
look at Mynax’s rock-like fists and scratched knuckles.

“Hey,” he said and when he didn’t turn around he said “Hey” again, louder.

The chatter stopped. Mynax turned slowly, like an owl at night. His eyes settled on Patroclus and
he grinned, his lips twisting unpleasantly as if it caused him pain. Patroclus straightened his spine
and tried to look threatening. “Did you put the cows in the hall?”

Mynax laughed. “What?”

“Did you put the cows in the hall?” Patroclus repeated. “And tell Phoenix it was me?”

Mynax’s grin became a grimace. “And if I did?”

Patroclus squared his shoulders. “If you did,” he said. “And you are a man, you will say you did.”

Out of the corner of his eye, he thought he saw a few people nod appreciatively. Mynax pulled
back his upper lip, revealing pointed canines. Like a dog’s. “If I did,” he said slowly. “I see the
point was not taken to heart.”

Patroclus frowned. “And what point was that?”

“That some people are born to serve others,” said Mynax. “Some people are born to be slaves.”

The boys behind him sniggered. Patroclus felt the heat creep into his cheeks but he held his gaze as
Mynax began to walk slow, deliberate circles around him, poking viciously at any bare patch of
flesh he could reach. “Thin arms,” he taunted. “Weak knees. Little back. And the face,” here he
paused, just centimetres away. Patroclus could feel his breath on his skin and prepared himself for
the insult. But it never came. Instead, Mynax pulled back his hand brought it sharply across his
cheek.

Patroclus staggered backwards. He could feel the mark burning scarlet, heard the sharp intakes of
breath from left and right. Through watery eyes he saw Mynax looking triumphant, his features
wrought in perverse pleasure as his friends whistled and clapped, bursting with barely contained
anticipation. “By the way,” he was saying. “I also drew a dick on your tunic.”

His skin stung. His eyes sprang salt and he blinked hard, his head swimming as the world spun
before him. This was it. No man could sit idle and take such humiliation. Patroclus had to act and
fast. He had no other option.

He stepped forward and hit him.

As his knuckles met the side of Mynax’s face he became aware that this probably wouldn’t hurt
him as much as he’d meant it to. He had meant to get him in the nose but he’d turned his head at
precisely the wrong moment and the punch was disappointingly softened by the flesh of his cheek.
Still Mynax stumbled and when he stepped back Patroclus was pleased to see a matching bruise
already beginning to blossom.
“You little bitch,” he spat, his eyes burning yellow-white with fury. “You fucking little cunt.”

He launched at him with his whole body, fourteen stones of iron-hard muscle and Patroclus, who
could barely process what was happening, had no time to sidestep and caught the whole of it, like a
torpedo, in his gut. His head slammed against the ground and tiny silver spots popped up with the
impact, he blinked and the next thing he knew Mynax was on him, pinning his wrists down with
the strength of ten giants, his knees clamped atop his chest.

“Get off,” Patroclus hissed. “You fat fuck, get off.”

Instead Mynax tightened his hold, laughing manically so that flecks of saliva flew into his face and
Patroclus screamed with the pure injustice of it all.

Then, suddenly, Mynax’s face began to change. His jaw thinned, his cheekbones slackened until
Patroclus was no longer looking into his face but into that of Clysonymus’, his eyes bloodless and
unseeing, his chiton torn and running crimson. And Patroclus screamed again, wrenching his wrists
from the dead boy’s clammy grasp and twisting until he had him by the shoulders.

With tremendous effort he seized the boy’s sides as if they were handles and pushed him down.
His hands flew out, grabbing Patroclus by the ankles and he floundered, losing balance but instead
of hitting the floor he shifted his weight, collapsing into his assailant’s torso. As he thrashed,
kicked, punched and wrestled he realised suddenly that this was all too familiar, that his hands
would become sticky with blood and the solid body beneath him would turn limp with a snap, like
the break of a twig.

Then the face changed again and Mynax was staring up at him, eyes wide with astonishment as
Patroclus threw him down, twisting his legs behind him so that he could not get up. Around them a
crowd had gathered and voices were shouting encouragement, shrill and barbarous like chattering
monkeys as the two boys wrestled in the circle. And when Mynax finally gasped “Stop” and
Patroclus stood up the cheer was so loud birds took flight into the summer air, anxious to escape
the shrieks of wild animals.

And now someone was patting him on the back, another on his shoulder and Deiomachus was
yelling “I told you he could do some things!” but it was one face he looked for, a silver that stood
out from between the trees.

Achilles was watching, his head tilted to the side as if trying hard to work something out. Then
Ampelius called “PATROCLUS” and he was gone and Mynax was telling him he would kill him,
you ugly piece of shit, if it was the last thing he’d ever do.
 Doulos

“Wait, wait. Tell me again.”

Patroclus groaned, rubbing his temples with his fingertips. “I told you,” he said. “I won a fight
against Mynax, Ampelius pitted me against Leonides, Iasonides and Deiomachus, I won the fights,
Ampelius wet himself.”

“Then what?”

“Ampelius made me fight the whole group. Like, one by one.”

“And you won all of them?!”

“No,” he shook his head. “But I didn’t lose all of them either!”

“Oh my Gods!” Leptine squealed, throwing her arms around his neck. “This is it! Didn’t I tell you
there was something you’d be good at it? Something that would make you famous? You’re a
fighter, Patroclus! You can fight!”

“Steady on,” Patroclus hugged her, laughing. “I still lost a fair few. And my technique’s terrible,
Ampelius likened it to the style of a drunken bar brawl. And it’s only wrestling, it’s not like I can
do anything else. But I don’t know, when I fight something in me just…comes out, I guess. Like…
I don’t know…I just really, really want to win.”

“It’s heart,” Leptine beamed. “Pure heart. You’re winning on your bravery and courage. Your
desire to come out on top.”

Patroclus shook his head modestly. “I think it’s just the sheer desperation of not wanting to lose, to
be honest.”

Leptine smacked him reprovingly on the arm and, as she had a hundred times before, scolded him
on his total inability to accept praise. Patroclus humoured her but inside his mind was still reeling
with the adrenalin of the morning. Blood was on his tongue and sweat in the crevices of his hands
and elbows and his ears echoed with blasphemies and wretched gasps of “Stop”. His palms itched,
the tips of his fingers tingled with physical excitement and everything was flashing muscle and
groans of surrender. Everything, suddenly, was bronze.

It would be an understatement to say that Ampelius had been impressed. One look at Mynax’s
chastened scowl and Patroclus, bleeding but triumphant had him roaring with delight, almost
breaking Patroclus’ spine as he clapped him on the back. He had then, as if to confirm what he had
just seen, declared a spontaneous wrestling match between Patroclus and everyone, forcing him to
his feet even when his knees buckled beneath him and his body grew slick with blood.

“I KNEW IT!” the drills master had declared as Leonides collapsed, wheezing, against a tree.
“THERE’S FIGHT IN YOU BOY, IN YOUR FISTS AND YOUR NAILS AND YOUR TEETH!
THAT’S BLOOD IN YOUR VEINS, A SURVIVOR’S BLOOD! WE’LL MAKE A SOLDIER
OUT OF YOU YET!”

But at that moment, with a beaten rival shaking his hand with respect in his eyes Patroclus was not
thinking about survival.

“Promise me,” Leptine was saying. “Promise me you’ll think better of yourself now.”
Patroclus smiled. “Why should I need to,” he said. “When I have you to think so well of me?”

“I may not always be around,” she replied solemnly.

Patroclus scrutinised her frowningly, his dark eyebrows knitting a cloud of reproach across his
forehead. “What do you mean?” he said. “Why shouldn’t you be? Your place is here, you’re
staying here…right?”

“Well of course I hope so,” she replied, fixing him with one of her sad, a little pitying looks. “But
you know, people never have much choice in these matters.”

It was the way she looked, rather than what she said that revealed that by “people” she really meant
“people like me.” The thought filled Patroclus with a sudden dread, passing over him like a chill as
he thought about life without her melancholy, dark eyes, her thoughtful smiles and hesitant
laughter. And for the first time since he had known her he feared he would lose her.

The realisation was enough to scare him into flinging his arms possessively around her waist,
knocking her backwards into the silver they were polishing. “Patroclus!” she exclaimed in surprise.
“What are you doing?”

“Don’t leave meee,” he moaned sorrowfully.

“I’m not planning on it anytime soon!” she laughed. “Let go, you idiot.”

“No,” he clung childishly. “Not until you promise to stay here forever.”

Leptine giggled with a half-hearted attempt to push him away but Patroclus held tight, and was still
holding her when the doors opened with an obtrusive slam and the prince walked into the room.

Achilles took one look at them, Patroclus’ arms wrapped jealously around Leptine’s hips, the echo
of laughter frozen on her face and his eyes widened, then narrowed. “Am I interrupting
something?”

They jumped apart, excuses and explanations spilling from their mouths as they gestured and
justified, their embarrassment manifesting itself in frantic movements and pink cheeks. Achilles
watched the tragic show unfold, looking stony.

“Enough,” he snapped, his face flushing scarlet. “Whatever pursuit you enjoy in your own time is
no business of mine. But clearly you cannot behave as befits workers of my father’s house. You
will be punished.”

Leptine murmured compliance and looked down at her feet. Patroclus, however, looked indignant.
“My lord, that’s not fair,” he protested. “I was just messing around, Leptine didn’t do anything-”

“-How noble of you to say so,” Achilles cut jeeringly. “But it is obvious you are no good influence
on each other. You’re both on privy duty. Separately.”

Patroclus opened his mouth to argue but a sidelong glance from Leptine stopped him. Instead he
contented himself with a particularly malice-filled glare, mirrored by Achilles’ returning scowl.
“Hurry up with that silver,” he barked. “My laundry’s been fermenting for days and I need a chiton
for the afternoon. Idiocy is no excuse for laziness.”

And with that he turned on his heel and marched from the room, slamming the door behind him.
As soon as he was gone and out of earshot Patroclus punched a pillar.
“Fuck,” he hissed, massaging his knuckles. “That bastard! That stupid, milksop, chauvinist prick.”

“Chauvinist might be a bit strong,” said Leptine.

“No word is too strong,” replied Patroclus through gritted teeth. “I swear, I’ve had enough. If he
wants to take out his deep rooted personal issues on me…been like this for too long, ever since-”

He stopped himself just in time at Leptine’s questioning look, aware that he had been about to
divulge the details of his night in attendance. Achilles’ way of dealing with the incident had been
to pretend it never happened and instead focused all his energies on making Patroclus’ life a living
hell. A step up from his usual snide remarks, his every action was hateful and calculated and there
was unsuppressed anger in every humiliating ordeal he could think to put him through until, by the
end of the day, Patroclus was no longer sure who Achilles was punishing.

This time, however, he had gone too far. And apparently, Leptine thought so too.

“I know that look,” he said as she chewed her lip thoughtfully. “What’re you thinking?”

“Just that,” she answered slowly. “It’s a little too late in the game to be playing with words.”

***

Achilles had not been lying about the laundry. Upon entering they were greeted by a monument of
white, where tunic upon tunic had been thrown haphazardly into a corner until a linen tower had
risen, twisted and intimidating and bright with crimson sleeves and embroidered collars. Patroclus
and Leptine crept stealthily around the mount with all the wide-eyed innocence of a convicted
felon.

“This is a bad idea,” Patroclus muttered. “This is a very, very bad idea.”

“So why are you still here then?” Leptine retorted. “Nobody’s forcing you.”

“I don’t know,” he confessed. “I honestly don’t. This is stupid. This is suicide.”

“Oh, don’t be so melodramatic.” She crossed over to his bed where a fresh chiton had been laid out
neatly, sky blue with a border worked in gold and studded with lapis lazuli. It was the kind of
garment only princes could afford to wear, and would only be expected to on the most important of
occasions.

Leptine lifted the lovely piece and stuffed it unceremoniously into the leather bag she was wearing
over her shoulder. “Ok,” she said. “Pass me the deerskin.”

Patroclus handed her the heavy, brown tunic. “Remind me. What’s the point of all of this?”

“The king is having some very important visitors this evening,” Leptine explained, spreading the
deerskin where the blue tunic had lain. “Tribesmen from the northern regions. He needs their
armies to help deal with attacks from Thessaly. But they’re forest dwellers and animals are sacred
to them, especially the deer. So, we are to see that Achilles dresses for the occasion.”

She gestured to the ugly brown tunic, crumpled and misshapen against the sheets. Patroclus
frowned. “Achilles would never wear something like that,” he said dubiously. “He’s too vain.”

“He would if he thought it was expected,” Leptine replied wickedly. “He’s been brought up to
dress appropriately before his company. If he thinks his father means for him to wear it, he’ll wear
it.”
Patroclus looked at the tunic, at the blue chiton, at Leptine’s confident, self-assured grin. He shook
his head. “This is stupid,” he repeated. “This is a bad, bad, bad idea. What if they find out it was
us?”

“They won’t,” Leptine assured him. “Even if Achilles does suspect something he won’t be able to
prove it. Besides, his record holds against him. He’s been chided for insulting his father’s visitors
more times than I can count. He thinks it’s funny or something.”

“Some sense of humour,” Patroclus remarked dully. “I wonder he’ll juggle at our executions.”

“Look, do you want your revenge or not? Because honestly, privy duty is starting to look a lot
more appealing.”

“No, I do, I do, it’s just-”

“-Then enough with the negativity and help me straighten out some of these creases.”

***
It did not take long for the story of the prince’s disgrace to reach the servants’ quarters. Loras’ epic
recount to anyone who would listen told of how the chieftain and ambassador of the northern tribes
had taken one look at Achilles’ hairy, shapeless, doe-pelt smock and splattered the walls of the
Great Hall with Peleus’ famed hospitality with one massive heaving of their stomachs. Needless to
say blasphemies were uttered, foul oaths were sworn and the evening was ended in much
bloodshed and many a bruised feeling. It was, Loras assured them gleefully, a failure of
cataclysmic proportions with Achilles being named the venture’s sole cause and utter ruin.

That night, Leptine and Patroclus fell asleep giggling.

***
“Do you think it was too mean?” Leptine asked anxiously on their morning rounds the next day.

“Nah,” Patroclus shook his head ardently. “He needs to learn. Think about everything he’s put ¬us
through. If anything, this whole experience is good for him. Maybe he’ll come out of it with a new-
found desire to do good and treat people with respect and gentility.”

Leptine sniggered. “Maybe Zeus will shower roses instead of thunderbolts and Hades will wear a
pantyhose.”

Patroclus laughed. “Hey, you don’t know,” he smirked. “The appearance of self-love could just be
a desperate attempt to hide the sweet, sensitive soul inside-”

“-Doulos!” a loud, commanding voice cut across him. “Over here!”

Patroclus and Leptine looked up to see a huddle of boys at the far end of the corridor grouped
around a broom cupboard. They approached warily and as they did so Patroclus’ heart dropped into
his stomach. Standing at their forefront was Mynax.

Catching sight of Patroclus’ wary guardedness his face twisted into a broken-toothed grin. “Do not
look so scared, doulos,” he said scornfully. “My friends and I only require your assistance.”

“What do you want?” asked Patroclus.

Mynax gestured towards the broom cupboard. His huge hands seemed to fan the air. “Phineas’ dog
is trapped,” he explained. “We tried calling him but he can’t get out. And it’s below us to lower
ourselves to searching through broom cupboards. You however…”
“Right,” Patroclus rolled his eyes as Phineas grinned stupidly. “Fine. If we get your dog will you
leave us alone?”

Mynax nodded solemnly and made the sign of an oath before Zeus. Reassured, but not altogether
happy, Patroclus and Leptine opened the broom cupboard and stepped inside. It was pitch black
but for a tiny slither of light from a crack in the wall, showing shelves stacked neatly with soaps,
buckets and rags. Brooms and brushes littered the space in clusters. There was no evidence,
however, of any such dog.

Patroclus was just about to say so when the door slammed behind them and with the follow of a
click he knew, with dread, that it was locked. On the other side he could hear Mynax and his
friends splitting with laughter, deep and rolling like barrels smashing against a wall.

“The prince sends his compliments!” Mynax yelled triumphantly through the keyhole.

“He put you up to this?” cried Patroclus in outrage.

“Consider it justice,” replied Mynax. “And now, as my oath state, we shall leave you alone!”

He heard their laughter ringing down the hall, growing fainter and fainter as their footsteps died
out. Patroclus and Leptine hammered at the door, screaming with all the air in them in the hope that
someone would pass by. But when the minutes stretched into hours and still no one came their
shouts became quieter and less frequent until all they had strength to do was sit in the dark and
stare morbidly at their hands, taking shifts to call out.

They were found finally by another slave who had taken their wailings for the moans of trapped
spirits but had gone back just to check. But by that time it was late afternoon and they had missed
all the day’s chores. With most of the slaves too tired and resentful to believe their protests they
were taken before Amyntor and disciplined for shirking. Patroclus, being a prince and foster son of
Peleus got of lightly with only a few blotches of red and a wince when he moved.

Leptine was beaten until her back was bloody.

***
That evening, his body aching and the sound of Leptine’s whimpers searing in his ears, Patroclus
sought Achilles out.

He found him on the beach, throwing things into the waves and grinning when they swallowed
them up. The wind caught at his yellow hair, the only thing that stood out against the dark and
pulled it across his cheeks and lips. Standing barefoot on the rock, his body tipped towards the sea
he looked for a moment like one of the naiads of the crystal caves, or a mermaid or a girl.

Patroclus stormed up to him with all the hell-bent fire of a Fury and the naiad gave a very human
startle of surprise. “Hey,” Patroclus yelled over the crash of the waves. “What the fuck is wrong
with you?”

Achilles straightened up and set his face as hard as the rock beneath him. Patroclus stopped a few
feet from him, his hands curled into fists and his arms shaking with rage. “Leptine was beaten,” he
said.

Achilles shrugged uncaringly but the effect was ruined by the uneasy look in his eyes. “You asked
for it.”

The roar of the ocean was deafened by the pounding of blood in his ears and for a moment,
Patroclus was scared he would murder him. “Do what you want to me,” he shouted. “Hurt me. Kill
me, if you like. But I swear, if anything happens to her again because of you I will rip the God
right out of you.”

“She got me in trouble!” Achilles screamed, raising his fists like a child throwing a tantrum. “She
dishonoured my name! She brought shame to my father and he won’t even look at me and-”

“-That thing you’re dealing with,” said Patroclus. “All that pain and injustice you’re feeling, that’s
called life, Achilles and you’d better get fucking used to it. Why do bad things happen to good
people? Why is the one thing you never asked for always the one thing you get? You’d think I’d
know, I’ve only been getting it my whole fucking life. And you, you live in this beautiful world
and everybody loves you and everything is Achilles and Achilles and Achilles and when one thing
goes wrong, one thing, you act as if the whole world is conspiring against you-”

“-IT IS!” shrieked Achilles, sea salt streaking his cheeks. “IT IS IT IS YOU DON’T KNOW YOU
DON’T. YOU THINK YOU DO BUT YOU DON’T-”

“-I DON’T WANT TO,” Patroclus shouted. “WALTZING THROUGH LIFE BECAUSE YOU’RE
THE ONLY ONE WHO MATTERS. MAKING HELL FOR ANYONE WHO GETS IN YOUR
WAY. YOU’RE DISGUSTING, YOU MAKE ME SICK. I HOPE I NEVER UNDERSTAND. I
HOPE NO ONE EVER DOES. I’D RATHER BE A SLAVE FOREVER THAN THINK LIKE
YOU DO.”

“GO THEN,” said Achilles and the sea crashed around his words. “IF I’M DISGUSTING, IF I
MAKE YOU SICK, HOW CAN YOU BEAR TO LOOK AT ME? HOW CAN YOU BARE IT?
GO BACK TO YOUR WHORE, GO FUCK HER SOME COMFORT, GODS KNOW SHE
MEANS SO MUCH TO YOU.”

Patroclus stared. Achilles’ eyes were huge and wild and green as a monster, his skin stretched
skull-white across his bones with his hair whipped about his face he looked for a moment quite
insane. Patroclus searched him, the furious defiance in his eyes and his mouth, the anger and pain
in the straining muscles of his arms and shoulders. He searched him and his voice was heavy with
confusion when he spoke. “What is this about?”

Achilles blinked. His lip trembled. “I don’t know,” he said.

They looked at each other. The waves splintered huge crags of rock from the black cliffs in the
distance. The purple clouds burst with a shower of arrows, the wind pulled Achilles’ hair across his
face. And Patroclus, who had heard enough, turned and walked away without looking back.
 Apologies

He dreamt of him again, only this time he was the rock.

The sky still swollen purple, vacuums of black still shooting arrows at his feet. He was the rock
and the sea was angry, whipping up rage into curling waves to send them smashing against his side.
He held fast, the grey wall splintering into drops of salt as they met him but he held fast, you’ll not
move me, you’ll not move me...

The sea was angry. It rose like a demon, all green scale and yellow hair, roaring over the wind and
rain, summoning great wings and a tail of sea-weed as it thrashed. And Patroclus held, he was the
rock and you’ll not move me. Come on then, try, have a shot…

The sea rose, bringing with it the horizon until it had blot out the divide. A twisting pillar of water
hard as stone, whistling mournfully as the wind blew across its surface You don’t understand. You
think you do but you don’t…

“Patroclus!”

He opened one eye. Leptine was leaning over him, her hand on his arm as she nudged him gently
awake. “What is it?”

“It’s the prince,” she whispered hurriedly. “He wants to talk to us-”

“-Achilles?”

“Yes Achilles, how many other princes do we know? Come on, come on, he’s waiting-”

“-Alright, give me a minute...”

He fumbled with the covers, bleary eyed and groggy with half sleep and reached for his clothes, his
skin shivering with protest as the cold morning hit. Leptine waited anxiously by the door chewing
her nails, (a habit she had picked up recently) and as soon as Patroclus had pulled a chiton over his
head she took off down the corridor. And despite the fact that she’d been limping since the beating,
Patroclus still had to run to keep up with her.

“What’s this about?” he asked in hushed tones, trying not to trip over his feet while he straightened
the creases in the linen.

“No idea,” Leptine whispered back. “I just got up to boil water and he was there, waiting for me.
He told me to go and get you and not to keep him waiting.”

“My Gods he’s such a prick,” said Patroclus furiously. “You know he just wants to rub it in. His
triumph over our punishment. Maybe he’ll ask us to turn around so he can see the scars.”

“Maybe,” muttered Leptine but he knew she wasn’t really listening. They had reached the door to
the slave’s quarters where, leading from an antechamber, Achilles would be waiting.
Absentmindedly, Leptine fingered the bruises on her wrists.

“Patroclus,” she whipped round to face him. “I don’t know what this is about. But promise me,
whatever it is, that you’ll keep your temper.”

As if by reflex, a wave of indignation crept into Patroclus’ brow, manifesting itself into a resentful
frown. “Keep my temper?” he whispered heatedly. “Leptine, because of him-”

“-I know,” said Leptine anxiously, a finger still twisting around her wrist. Patroclus wished she
wouldn’t. “But if you don’t it’ll only make it worse. Please Patroclus….think of the consequences.
Yesterday was stupid. Risky. If we cross him now who knows what he’ll do? Please just…just
keep calm.”

It was the imploring look on her face more than anything else that did it. That, and the way her
fingers brushed against the angry dark splodges winding round her arm like a bracelet. He sighed,
his insides sinking as if to an ocean floor. “And if I get the urge to vomit?”

“Swallow it,” said Leptine abruptly and she opened the door.

Achilles was waiting for them as she’d said he was, however Patroclus found he had to squint to
make sure. He was holding himself differently, uncomfortably, and rather than the boy of casual,
effortless grace they were used to Patroclus thought he looked more like a naughty child who had
been caught with his hand on a honey cake. “Good morning,” he muttered. Leptine and Patroclus
exchanged a nervous glance.

“You wanted to speak to us, my lord?” said Leptine, her eyes respectfully lowered.

“Yes,” Achilles replied, his gaze flitting to Patroclus. Patroclus continued to stare brazenly forward.

He cleared his throat and the sound reverberated off the stone, as though the very walls were
bursting with that something they had to say. Patroclus raised his eyebrows expectantly. Come on,
he was thinking. Hit me, come on, we’re waiting. Try. Have a shot.

Achilles looked at the ceiling. “I’ve been thinking,” he said. Dangerous ground, thought Patroclus.
“Concerning my behaviour of late. And after much…reflection…I have concluded that my actions
yesterday were…unjustified…and unbefitting of my status.”

He lowered his gaze from the ceiling. Leptine and Patroclus stared, too perplexed to speak. “I
express regret,” said Achilles impatiently.

“Nothing to regret my lord,” Leptine mumbled but Patroclus had to stifle a scoff.

At once Achilles’ green eyes flashed in his direction, just catching the shadow of a smirk. “You do
not accept my apology?”

“Oh!” exclaimed Patroclus in mock surprise. “That was an apology? Forgive me my lord, you see I
couldn’t be sure.”

Leptine sent him a warning glance but it was too late, Achilles was scowling. “What more can I
say?” he asked. “It went too far, I didn’t mean for it to happen, what else do you want?”

“Oh nothing really,” Patroclus shrugged. “It’s just, for an apology, you kind of missed something.
A little thing, really. Just a word.”

Achilles looked confused. Leptine’s eyes were wide and jumping between the two as if following a
wrestling match. “Sorry,” said Achilles suddenly. “I’m sorry.”

“There you go,” Patroclus rolled his eyes. “But you know, it helps if you actually know what it
means. Feeling genuine remorse for what you’ve done. Not reciting words from your father’s
speeches. That kind of thing.”
Leptine’s head dropped into her hands. But to her complete amazement, Achilles looked more
disappointed than angry. “I do know what it means,” he said sulkily. “I just haven’t had often
cause to use it. I’ve never had to justify myself to anyone before.”

He looked so sad and mournful that Patroclus felt within him a degree of sympathy and when he
spoke he found his voice had softened. “It’s because…you just don’t think about what your actions
are going to mean for other people. It’s not totally your fault. You’ve been raised to put yourself
first. But you never consider the consequences of your anger or…or humiliation…and one day it’s
going to get you into trouble.”

He placed each word carefully, bracing himself for the explosion but Achilles looked only
resentful. “It’s you, you know,” he said dully. “I don’t know what it is….but you just make me do
things I wouldn’t even think about ordinarily. You don’t…you don’t know what you do.”

Patroclus frowned. “So,” he said slowly. “You’re saying all this…is my fault?”

“No,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “I’m just saying that since you got here I haven’t been…normal.
You bring out the worst in me.”

“You are literally blaming your sociopathic tendencies on me, okay.”

“No, Gods, that’s not what I mean!” he huffed in frustration. “Gods you’re so self-centred. Do you
know that? All that self-pity and “life is so hard”, it’s just another form of narcissism. You’re iust
as self-obsessed as I am. What’s more is you don’t even know it-”

“-Okay, let’s stop there,” Patroclus interrupted, palms raised in protest. “First of all, you’re plainly
wrong and misguided and you need your head examined but I don’t want to go into that. We keep
going in circles, you and I. It doesn’t make sense. You’ve…kind of…apologised and I accept.
Okay? Truce. How about we just…stay out of each other’s way for now on?”

Achilles looked at him searchingly, a slight furrow appearing between the fine downy gold hairs of
his eyebrows and his ocean eyes seemed darker, as though trying to find something in Patroclus’
face that he couldn’t quite fathom. Then he jutted his chin slightly in affirmation, a mixed gesture
of arrogance and submission. “Fine,” he said.

Patroclus sighed, feeling as though a huge weight had been lifted off him as Achilles turned to go.
But behind the relief he thought he felt a twinge of something, something close to regret although
he couldn’t think for the life of him think why. Nor did he understand, when Achilles looked back
over his shoulder, why he felt his stomach lurch.

“I just remembered,” he said, the words slipping feather-light from his lips. “Last night, you were
in my dream.”

Patroclus’ insides took another funny turn but he kept his face cold and indifferent, raising a single
eyebrow in cool nonchalance. “Were there grapes?”

“No,” Achilles answered, a faint pink tinge creeping into the pale hollows of his cheekbones. “I
think you were a mountain.”

Patroclus opened his mouth to say something but he was gone before he had a chance to form a
reply. Instead he turned to Leptine who was shaking her head, her hands spread over her face and
her wide brown eyes peeking, bewildered, from between her fingers.

“I don’t understand,” she said, her voice muffled by her palms. “What just happened?”
Patroclus shook his head. “I’ll get back to you,” he said.

oOo

Achilles was as good as his word. For the next few days he seemed little more than a ghost to
Patroclus, a fleeting glimpse of a soul occasionally caught haunting the end of a hallway or
vanishing behind a door but nothing corporeal, nothing real anymore. He saw him at meal times
when he came to clear the table, surrounded by Mynax and his disciples with quick laughter
spilling from his lips and he would feel sad, a bit, and spend extra time getting round to him and
lifting his plate. Once their eyes met and Achilles made an acknowledging movement that wasn’t a
nod, exactly, and Patroclus was so startled he almost dropped the jug he was holding.

This is better, Patroclus would tell himself, watching from a distance as Achilles and his friends
took turns in pelting girls with hard figs. This is good, this is healthy, this is better.

But as much as he’d told himself he was relieved that Achilles had finally, finally stopped using
him as target practice, he couldn’t help but feel like something was missing. The walls of Peleus’
house became washed-out and grey, he sunk into his familiar routine with a sponge in his hand and
Leptine at his side yet couldn’t stop himself looking up occasionally, as if to check that the doors
hadn’t flown open and a boy would be standing there, all taunting disdain and smelling of the sea.

Time passed strangely then, with every day seeming much like the next and although it could not
have been more than a week it felt like an age before Patroclus found himself standing sweat-
drenched in the sun and Ampelius was calling for another wrestling match.

“Wrestling match!” he boomed, ruddy face splitting with an eager grin. “Patroclus, Quintos, you
first.”

Patroclus felt a squirm of delighted excitement. Quintos, however, groaned. “But sir,” he protested.
“He’s beaten me, like, forty times. I can’t go against him again. It’s humiliating.”

“Your face is humiliating, Quintos,” belched Ampelius cheerfully. “In the ring. Now.”

Quintos scowled as they took their place in the makeshift ring, a large circle drawn into the sand.
“Just my luck,” he muttered darkly. “First fight of the day and I get faced against bloody Mighty
Menoitus.”

Patroclus grinned at the nickname. It had started off as a taunt by Mynax and his cronies but they’d
quickly dropped it upon realising that the other boys actually meant it genuinely. His skill as an
amateur wrestler had brought him greater standing than he’d thought possible; passing people in
the corridors meant approving nods, friendly smiles and the occasional high-five rather than shouts
of “doulos” or worse. Most people agreed now that some bitter sneak, jealous of his talents, had
framed him for the whole cow incident and he’d even heard one rumour that the reason for his
remarkable strength despite his scrawny stature was because he was, in fact, a lost son of Hermes.

“Don’t worry,” he assured Quintos. “I’ll go easy on you.”

Quintos nodded enthusiastically. “Please do,” he grimaced. “So not in the mood. Far too early in
the morning for this shit.”

Ampelius shouted “COMMENCE” and the boys began to circle each other, keeping a careful
distance and waiting for the other to attack. Quintos moved feverishly, like a rabbit pitted against a
wolf and he kept glancing outside the ring, as if hoping for a quick escape. Patroclus judged his
time, keeping a steady eye on his opponent’s sturdy brown limbs and the moment his hand
twitched he sprang, knocking Quintos backwards and pinning his upper arms to the ground.
Quintos struggled, trying to manoeuvre his legs into giving him some momentum but he gave up
quickly, and merely lay in the sand looking vaguely irritated as Patroclus sat up again, one arm
raised in triumph.

“BRAVO,” Ampelius clapped. “BRAVO, MY SON! Right, Stylax, Andros, you up next.”

The matches lasted all morning until by the end Patroclus was sticky with sweat and breathing
heavily but happy with his performance. He had won most of his fights and his shoulders ached
from being clapped on the shoulder so many times. He was feeling good.

Deiomachus and Leonides were leaning against the tree and held out their hands as he approached.
Patroclus high-fived them and sank down tiredly, gratefully accepting the offered water-skin. “You
want to be careful mate,” said Deiomachus jovially. “Ampelius will be signing you up for the army
soon.”

Patroclus shook his head amusedly. “Think I’ve got a while to go yet.”

He drank thirstily, listening with half-an ear as Leonides recounted his epic commentary of the
fights, relating with relish how Mynax had tripped over his own feet. Patroclus laughed
appropriately but his gaze had drifted to a little way off to where a crowd of people had gathered,
forming a ring round some hidden spectacle. He nudged Deiomachus and pointed. “What d’you
reckon?”

Deiomachus squinted and shrugged. “Only one way to find out.”

They approached warily, nudging their way through the mass to get to the front. As they neared
the familiar sounds of a fight grew louder, the slap of skin meeting flesh, the sharp grunts of pain
and effort, the crunch of a fist on a jaw. Then a flash of gold and Patroclus knew what he was
watching.

“Oh my holy fucking Zeus on a cloud,” breathed Leonides. “Should we be watching this?”

“Who cares?” answered Deiomachus, similarly awe-struck.

There was a tremendous thump as a body crashed to the floor and Achilles got to his feet, his arms
above his head in the pose of a champion. Another assailant rose from the throng but barely a
second had he crossed into the ring and Achilles was on him, his arm outstretched as he measured
his distance with professional concentration, the sinews tense as bow strings. His feet were light,
barely dusting the ground as he danced mocking circles, flying out with a teasing punch to the torso
until the other boy was also lying in the sand, winded, and clutching his gut.

Patroclus stared in dumbstruck fascination. Leptine had told him once that nearly all Achilles’
faults could be redeemed if you just stood and watched him fight. Now, being here, with not even a
thin sheen of sweat glowing on his forehead, he understood what she meant.

He was inhumanly fast. Patroclus could see him on one end of the ring, then he had ducked and
now he was behind you all in the space of about a moment. His strikes were perfectly executed, his
fists like flashing knives and when he moved it was as if he were the wind, his body a wave he
controlled it so expertly.

“Is there no one else?” Achilles cried and the crowd fell silent.

Patroclus, Deiomachus and Leonides looked at each other. “Not bloody likely,” Deiomachus
muttered.
Achilles looked at the crowd, frowning at the shameful hush that had come over the ring. Patroclus
knew what he was thinking. Sheep. Bleating, cowardly sheep. He felt a bubble of resentment. I am
not a sheep…

“Is there no one else?” he repeated. “Come on, I’m only human.”

This prompted a few nervous laughs but the crowd still shuffled awkwardly, avoiding the prince’s
gaze for fear he would pick them out. “No one?” pressed Achilles. The disappointment in those
two words was almost comical.

Suddenly, as if in a trance, Patroclus was aware of himself stepping forward.

Deiomachus noticed, grabbing his arm automatically. “What are you doing?” he hissed. “You’ll
get yourself killed!”

But Patroclus shook him off, feeling suddenly filled with a wild, reckless impulsiveness. His eyes
were bright, his fingers itched. Achilles had seen him. He was smiling.

“Is there no one else?” he asked one final time, his eyes fixed on Patroclus.

Patroclus raised his hand. “Yes,” he said and every head in the crowd snapped to him.

Achilles’ smile widened, his eyes narrowed but excited. “Well alright then,” he said.

The ring was re-marked and Patroclus took his place, aware of every eye fixed on him. Achilles
stood opposite, the shadow of derisive laughter hanging on the corner of his smile. Somewhere
someone was playing a drum.

“Rules?” asked Patroclus.

Achilles shrugged. “What rules?”

“Take your positions,” someone called. Patroclus assumed a basic boxer stance, his fists raised
defensively before him to guard his face. Achilles was on his toes, bouncing lightly with his hands
slightly curled before him, as if testing the air. “Ready. Okay. FIGHT.”

They circled each other like cats over a carcass, Achilles moving continuously, Patroclus’ feet
planted firmly to the floor. He kept his eyes fixed before him, too wary even to blink. Achilles was
still grinning but there was a hardness to it now, like it had frozen there.

“You sure you want to do this?” he asked wickedly. “Back out now and you might still save that
pretty pout of yours.”

“Yeah you wish,” Patroclus retorted. Achilles laughed.

Patroclus attacked first. As soon as he was in range he went straight in, arms thrashing in clumsy
punches for Achilles’ torso. Achilles blocked them, raising his on elbows in front of his face and
following with a couple of punches of his own. They met Patroclus straight in the stomach and he
fell back, breathing hard.

He waited a few seconds before going in again, this time dodging Achilles’ defence and smacking
him straight in the side. Achilles let out a tiny oomph of surprise and Patroclus retreated before he
could respond. When he looked up again Achilles was no longer smiling.

They went in at the same time. With a titanic clash they launched at each other and all semblance
of technique and courtesy went out the window. Patroclus’ arms flew around Achilles’ waist, his
face buried into his lower stomach as he tried to shove him back. Achilles twisted his legs around
Patroclus’, pushing back with his thigh until they were locked in each other’s grip. The crowd
began to scream hysterically as they wrestled like two writhing pythons, their skin already slick
with sweat as they struggled to keep hold.

Achilles was winning. Patroclus could feel him pressing into him, the strength in his arms and the
calves of his legs, now entwined with his in muddled confusion. He could feel the heat in his body,
all the suppressed anger and tension that had steadily built up between them, all of it mounting to
this one final clasp of bodies. The blood flowed hot in Patroclus, he was all fury and vengeance and
by the Gods if he wasn’t going to let Achilles know it. You’ll not move me, he found himself
thinking as Achilles fought desperately to pin him down. Come on, have a shot, you’ll not move me
by god you’ll not-

It all happened at once. Achilles, made furious with frustration and adrenalin released one of
Patroclus’ shoulders to draw back his arm. And, driven by some impulsive madness, he sent it fist-
first into Patroclus’ face. Patroclus fell back, stunned by the blinding force of the punch and
collapsed into the sand, tiny silver dots popping up before him. Achilles stood over him, fists
clenched. The crowd stopped cheering.

“Shit,” said Achilles, his face was deathly white as Patroclus staggered drunkenly to his feet. “I’m
sorry, I didn’t mean-”

He was silenced by the look Patroclus gave him, a look of pure loathing and humiliation. Blood had
begun to pour thickly from his nose, hot and sickly tasting of metal. Achilles stepped forward, his
hand outstretched in concern.

“Don’t touch me,” snapped Patroclus, spitting blood on to the sand. Achilles snatched his hand
back as if it burned.

The onlookers were silent as Patroclus pushed his way past them but he could feel their eyes
following him, burning into the back of his skull. As he moved, he half expected Achilles to follow
him. But he didn’t. He just stared, white as a dead man, at Patroclus’ retreating figure as his blood
dripped slowly down his knuckles, pooling softly onto the sand.
 Acastus

“There! Did you see him?”

“Who? Where?”

“That guy, over there. He’s the one who took on Achilles.”

“Took on Achilles? Sweet Semele, is he crazy or just stupid?”

“Gods, check out the face on that bruise.”

“I heard he cried when Achilles hit him.”

“I heard he fainted.”

“Ignore them,” Leptine murmured as Patroclus clenched his fists. “Just ignore them.”

Patroclus scowled and grit his teeth, conscious of each pair of eyes goggling after him as Leptine
led him speedily down the corridor. The news of his defeat had reached the palace before he’d
even had the chance to wipe his nose and by lunchtime it seemed even the lowliest slave had heard
the sorry tale. Patroclus had spent the past couple of hours enduring crude mimes of gushing blood
and listening with horror as the story became more and more heavily embroidered until even Loras
was convinced of how Patroclus had simply lain down in surrender as Achilles kicked him round
the ring like a throwing ball. After months of praying for deliverance, of limping and bleeding for
the approval of his peers this was what it had come down to. Achilles, a right hook and a blood-
stained chiton.

“Gods’ teeth,” Patroclus swore as the boys behind him began to point and snicker. “You’d think I
was the only one he beat. Just because I end up with this,” he jabbed at the angry blotch making
purple riot across his face. “Suddenly I’m the bloody indignity. He’s the one whobroke the rules.
And now everyone’s making out like I just stood there and let him hit me.”

“Mmhm,” nodded Leptine neutrally, avoiding his eyes.

Patroclus looked at her sharply. “You do agree, right?”

“Well, you know,” she replied, still keeping her gaze fixedly forward. “Obviously I think it’s
terrible that you’re hurt. But…um… he did say “no rules”.”

Patroclus stared. Leptine brushed her hair distractedly out of her face, long lashes softly veiling her
lowered eyes as if she were speaking to a lord or an overseer. “But that’s just…procedure,”
Patroclus protested. “Fight talk to make the tough guys look tougher. No one actually means it.”

“Looks like he did,” Leptine pointed out.

“Yeah…well…that’s just him,” Patroclus scowled. “He’s not normal. Most people, normal people,
don’t mean it. Like…you don’t…you just don’t punch people in the face! You just don’t do that!”

“You’re right,” said Leptine. “Of course. I mean, to challenge someone to a fight and then actually
hit them? Madness. Absolute outrage.”

She snuck a quick, amused glance at him. He was not smiling. “I don’t think,” he spoke, frosty
and deliberate. “That I like you anymore.”
Leptine laughed and threw an arm around his waist, hugging him tight. Patroclus did not return her
affection and remained stubbornly cold, his arms folded over his chest. “I’m sorry,” she said,
burying her head in the crook of his neck. “I’m sorry, that was mean. Poor Patroclus. Poor, poor,
wounded Patroclus. Forced to retire from a fight, who knows if he’ll ever recover from such a
terrible…nose bleed...”

“Shut up!” cried Patroclus, pushing her away as she broke into fits of hysterical laughter. “No stop,
you weren’t there, it actually really hurt!”

But this only made her laugh harder, tears streaming out the corners of her eyes as she clutched her
ribs and Patroclus stood with all the stony dignity of a marble pillar, trying to ignore the bemused
glances from passers-by. Slaves took one look, saw an unhinged serving girl and a boy with a stick
up his backside and hurried away, assuming this was not something good, obedient workers wanted
to be involved with. Patroclus set his jaw and looked up at the ceiling. “Are you finished?” he
asked when Leptine’s giggles finally began to subside.

Leptine hiccoughed. “Yes,” she said. “Oh Patroclus, I am sorry, really. But you have to admit…it
is a bit funny.”

“No,” replied Patroclus shortly. “I don’t.”

“Oh come on,” she poked him as he continued to look determinedly aloof. “He said sorry, by the
Gods. I mean he actually apologised. Surely that’s got to count for something?”

“Yay, sound the alarm, the prince has learnt a new word,” Patroclus huffed. “I cannot believe you
are actually defending him. Whose side are you on anyway?”

“Gods’ sake Patroclus,” Leptine rolled her eyes. “You know as well as I do this has nothing to do
with taking sides. Admit it. You don’t care about a stupid nose-bleed or that Achilles broke the
rules or embarrassment or whatever. The fact is you fought him and he won. You are pissed off
because Achilles is a better fighter than you.”

Leptine folded her arms and fixed him with her most challenging glare, her dark eyes at their most
defiant. Patroclus stared at her, dumbstruck. “Well that’s just…” he stuttered. “That’s completely
off the point…”

But before he had a chance to defend himself he was interrupted by a sudden horn blast, ripping
past them like a small hurricane and reverberating through the stone. Patroclus and Leptine hurried
towards the Great Hall, the flats of their palms slammed down over their ears, following the crowd
who had already gathered at its huge double doors. Peering through the gap between them
Patroclus could just make out an imposing figure standing atop the raised dais where Peleus sat
with Achilles, glowering, at his side.

“What’s going on?” he whispered to the boy stood in front of him.

“The king wants all his foster sons in the Hall,” he explained. “Some big announcement about our
futures or something.”

“Our futures?” Patroclus repeated wonderingly but further questions were cut short by Amyntor’s
self-satisfied little directive of “Enter.”

The doors opened and the boys flooded in, their hands clasped obediently behind their backs and
their gazes lowered. They lined up single-file in front of the dais, bending the knee before the king
and sneaking furtive glances at the man stood before them. Patroclus looked up and caught
Achilles’ eye. The prince blinked and tore determinedly away, his foot jiggling self-consciously up
and down on the arm rest of his chair.

Peleus raised his arms, thin as withered branches and appealed in his hoarse yet carrying voice, for
silence. Patroclus looked behind him to the back of the Hall where Leptine was waiting with the
other slaves. Brace yourself, she mouthed.

“My children!” called Peleus into the echoing hush. “Many of you come from golden lands, rich
with the fame that destiny awards the bold. As babes you will have fed on the milk of history, well-
versed in the wisdom passed in tales of old from generation to generation. The time has come,
brave boys, to add your own mark to that history! Behold, I give you Acastus, son of Pelias king of
Iolcus, esteemed hero of the Argonauts and venerable General of the Myrmidon army!”

The foster sons of Phthia applauded automatically as Peleus rose unsteadily to grasp his guest’s
hand. And Patroclus thought there was real warmth in that embrace, a gleam of fraternal bond that
can only come between those who have fought together, seen the same horrors and shared the same
hardships of life and war for many years. I wonder if I’ll ever have that, he thought, and was
surprised at himself.

Acastus helped Peleus back to his seat then turned to regard the gleaming faces pointed up at him
in fervent expectation. He was one of the few heroes that looked as tall as the songs made him out
to be and Patroclus could not help but look on him with admiration, recalling the stories his mother
would tell him of the Argonauts and their adventures. His face was battle-hardened, beaten and
brown as old leather and scars lined the crevices like rivers on a map. His brown beard was
streaked with grey, yet age had done little to corrupt that powerful body which still held the bulk of
his youth; beneath the leather pelt his tendons rippled and the muscles in his arms and shoulders
strained the seams of his armour.

He raised his hand and the room fell silent once again, awed by the sheer dominance of his
presence. “Sons of great men you were when first you came,” he spoke. “And stronger men yet
will you become. The time has come for you to pay back the debt you owe this fair country and
your king for bringing you so graciously under his roof. The barbarian hordes from Thessaly
swarm on the fringes of Phthian hills and valleys. Soon they will be upon us with none but the
might of the Myrmidons to hold them back. But who will protect our towns and villages while they
are away? Who will defend our women and little children from their savage spears and appetites?”

The boys looked at each other awkwardly as Acastus paused, waiting for an answer. None came
and he continued. “Who,” he went on. “Has the guts and the heart and the stomach to act as sword
and shield for this noble land, the last line of defence should the Thessalian pig-dogs break through
our ranks? When our soldiers are dying and all is lost, who will be the last hope to save our people
from slavery and death?”

He paused again, his ancient eyes boring into souls. “We will,” said a voice in the crowd and
Acastus nodded vigorously.

“Young you may be, yet old enough to take a stand. Inexperienced you may be but with arm
enough to raise a weapon. As the power of the Myrmidon army holds back the storm let the sons of
Phthia defend their gates.”

“Yes,” called more voices and Patroclus looked round. Heads were beginning to nod and to his
right Deiomachus and Leonides stood with their mouths hanging half open, their faces glowing
with the golden light of revelation and looking as though Beltane had come early. A few people
had started to cheer.
“Glory awaits you, my sons,” Acastus resumed. “Endless heroics beckon your name, destiny
herself shall be bent to your will. Join the home defence today and safeguard your country and its
citizens. Those who are worthy will be remembered as ideals of youth, work your way up and
become a hero of the army. Do your duty. Fight for your king. This is your chance, boys, to be
men. Let each man do his part.”

He raised his arms and a titanic roar greeted his words as the boys jumped up in applause, eager for
Acastus to spot his face as the next “ideal of youth”. What a load of bollocks, thought Patroclus but
even he could not help but clap along with the others, grinning stupidly with grandiose ideas of
fame swimming deliciously into his mind. He pictured himself, clad in bronze and commanding a
legion of young soldiers, scarlet plume nodding frighteningly from his head, a dash of colour
across the dull beige of his life. He imagined what his father would say, to know that the son he’d
never wanted was amongst the very elite, the honoured chosen of the home guard. My Gods he’d
be pissed, he answered himself, and felt his grin grow wider.

“Now is the time,” came Ampelius’ thundering crescendo over the ecstatic noise of the crowd.
“Let each boy wishing to sign as a volunteer of the Phthian home defence give his name here.” He
took from his belt a strip of linen and held it in front of him. At once the room fell silent. Written
word was as good as binding contract. Change of heart would do no good now, once a name was
down in ink there was no going back.

The sound of wood scraping against the stone floor cut the tension like a knife through soft bronze.
Achilles pushed back his chair and stood, like a God, before the wide-eyed gathering. Without
looking at them he hopped off the stage, marched straight over to Ampelius and took the linen
straight from his hands, writing his name at the top in large, black letters. Then he handed the linen
back to Ampelius, wiped the ink of his hands and left the Hall without a word.

It was as if this had been the signal they’d all been waiting for. The moment the doors slammed
shut the orderly line of boys dissolved into a swarming multitude, surging forward like a tidal
wave. Patroclus felt himself being pressed on both sides as his peers grasped for the sign sheet,
desperate to be the next to have his name down. Through the mass he could see Deiomachus and
Leonides attempting to clamber over the people in front. “Are you going for it?” Deiomachus
yelled, pushing away someone’s ear.

“Yeah,” Patroclus called back. “Yeah, I think I am!”

One by one he watched the crowd start to thin, the list becoming longer and longer as each boy
fought their way to the front and signed their name. Patroclus waited impatiently, suddenly anxious
to be part of something and to join his peers in their pursuit of renown. Finally, when Stylax
Kleonides had skipped away cheering, Patroclus found himself with the linen in hand, his heart
pounding with nervous excitement as his fingers brushed over the list. However, he was just about
to sign his name when he felt a heavy hand on his shoulder.

“Sorry Menoitides,” said Ampelius, his deep voice gentle. “But not this time.”

Patroclus stared in disbelief, feeling as though someone had just let all the air out of him. “What?”
he faltered. “Why not?”

Ampelius sighed, running thick, sausage-like fingers through his tangled thicket of hair. “Listen,”
he said eventually. “The home defence just doesn’t have the kind of resources to train up
volunteers into decent soldiers. Those in it come decent or not at all.”

“But I’m a good fighter,” Patroclus protested desperately. “You know it, you’ve seen me-”
“-Phthia needs combatants, Patroclus, not wrestlers,” Ampelius shook his head. “And someone
who can hold his own in a child’s contest is just not the same thing. Your spear toss is abominable.
You wield a sword like the thing’s on fire. You can barely even lift a shield-”

“-But I have the heart,” he insisted. “I’ve got spirit and I’m not afraid…please just give me a
chance and I could…”

But Ampelius just shook his head, looking pained. “I’m sorry son,” he said regretfully. “That’s my
final word,” and Patroclus knew the conversation was over.

For a moment he just stood there, looking wronged and defiant, then someone behind him yelled
Move arsehole, and he walked away slowly, feeling like someone had just smote at his head with a
blunt axe. Around him the crowd was retreating, the cheers were growing louder but he neither saw
nor heard any of it. He was aware only of a growing sense of resentment and self-pity, the pressure
of it swelling in his gut until he thought he might drown in it.

Don’t worry father, he thought darkly, ignoring Leptine’s call. I’m still here.

oOo

The next few days were some of his worst spent in Phthia. Drills went as normal, however the class
was split into the boys who would be part of the home defence, or as Ampelius had taken to calling
them, “his elite squad”, and those who weren’t. This meant that while he, Patroclus, was stuck
trying to hit a tree with a child’s javelin from a few feet away the “elite” were driving circles
around him on proper men’s chariots, or standing from the battlements like little Apollos, shooting
arrows down at bales of hay. They had taken to wearing special brooches clasped to their tunics
along with their new smug expressions, their days were marked with bro-hugs and high-fives and
there was even something in their air and manner of walking that just read “I’m better than you.”

The worst part was, in Patroclus’ view, they weren’t. Most of these boys he had beaten in training
matches or in friendly scuffles on several occasions; Mynax, who took his new position very
seriously, seized every opportunity to practice his new soldier’s techniques on stray children and
animals. Even Quintos, with his ferrety eyes and rabbit’s courage had taken to swaggering round
the compound, reprimanding anyone he tagged a “rule-breaker” with a tap of his shining new
badge. And it was for this reason, more than any other, that Patroclus began to hate the home
defence; not just because he had not got in, but because there were so many beneath him who had.

After the normal drill sessions the elite squad would take part in further training with Acastus
while the mediocre were allowed to take the rest of the day off. During these hours of freedom
Patroclus had time to mull over his hatred and would spend the afternoons sat under a tree on the
beach, reflecting over the canon of depression his life had become. It was almost as if time had
gone backwards; after his short peek of excellence he had gone back to his habitual state as a
nobody, which, it seemed, was his natural place in the world.

“Patroclus.”

And it wasn’t even as though they could find it within themselves to be gracious. The other boys
had begun to talk to him with excruciating sympathy, condescension in every word as if he were
but a child and they oh-so-grown up. Mynax relished telling people over-loudly about how poor
Patroclus had been so unlucky at not getting chosen but then, he supposed they weren’t too want
for wine servers in the army. He was back where he’d started, a misfit, a disappointment, a
faceless, no-named obscurity-

“Patroclus.”
“What?” Patroclus snapped violently, lifted his head from his knees and saw Achilles standing
over him, his gold-blond head blocking the sun. “Oh fuck off.”

“Whoa, what’s with the niceties?” observed Achilles casually. “Enough with the foreplay. Don’t
bottle up your feelings like that. Let it out, tell it straight.”

“You’re not funny,” Patroclus growled. “Go away. I’m not in the mood.”

Achilles smiled and shook his head. Escaping strands caught the light, setting his face aglow with a
pale yellow halo. “Well aren’t you just a ray of sunshine?” he grinned. “But don’t worry, I can fix
that.”

“Somehow, I doubt it.”

“What would you say if I told you I had a proposition for you, guaranteed to make your day just
that little bit brighter?”

“I’d say don’t bother me, I’m busy living happily ever after.”

“Aren’t you at least going to hear me out?”

Patroclus gave him a long look. Achilles’ eyebrows were raised and questioning, his palms
outspread. Half of him felt an automatic desire to grab a fistful of sand and fling it into his eyes, the
other was too driven by curiosity to lose it to antagonism. “Thirty seconds,” he said.

Achilles scratched the back of his neck self-consciously. “I want you to do me a favour.”

Immediately caution set his voice on edge. “What?”

“Will you fight me?”

Silence. Patroclus watched Achilles’ face for signs of jest. There were none. The rustle of the
leaves in the tree above him synced with the crash of waves on the shore, slowing time and
pushing the limits of the void between them. Achilles stood patiently, his thumbs tucked into his
belt as he tapped a rhythm out on his thigh. Patroclus stared at him. “What?” he said again.

“Will you fight me?” Achilles repeated, then added “No one else will.”

Patroclus snorted derisively. “Well forgive me my tone of surprise.”

“I need to practice,” said Achilles. “It’s all very well being the best but I’m not improving.
Everyone I fight either goes down too quickly or lets me win. It’s boring and pointless and it does
nothing for me. But with you I actually had to try.”

“Please, enough with the compliments, you’re making me blush.”

“I’m serious,” Achilles insisted. “Yours was the first proper fight I’ve had in ages. And I know
how badly you want to hit me. So come on. Let’s go.”

“What, so you can break my nose again?” muttered Patroclus childishly. “No thank you.”

Achilles frowned. “I didn’t break your nose.”

“No. Well,” he shrugged, feeling suddenly very foolish. “You might as well have done.”

“Oh come on,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “I already said I was sorry. And I am. I lost control. I was
frustrated and I wanted to win and I lost control. See how you do that to me? See why I need this?”

His request had turned into a supplication. Patroclus heard the desperation in his voice, saw the
entreat in his eyes, the purse of angst about his mouth. He wasn’t using the words but it was there
all the same. Patroclus sighed. “I don’t know.”

“What if,” said Achilles carefully. “I agreed to help you with your drill training? You want to be
part of the home defence, right? No problem. By the end of the month I’ll have you throwing
thunderbolts like an Olympian. The goddamn army will be begging to have you.”

The image of himself, clad in bronze and heroics came unbidden. Achilles was swift to press his
advantage. “You can be great Patroclus,” he said and the wind echoed his words. “I can make you
great. And all you have to do is hit me. As hard as you fucking can.”

He leant back expectantly, waiting for his answer. Patroclus turned his head slightly towards the
sea. There was a clear horizon, unmarked by rock or boat, a clear stretch of blue travelling forever
into the distance. The sunlight studded the surface white silver, shimmering flat and infinite as the
gentle breeze drew waves onto the dampened sand and Patroclus heard the word before he spoke it.
“Yes,” he said, and felt rain.
 Training
Chapter Summary

Warning: this whole first scene is stolen. Kudos if you can guess from where.

“Great,” grinned Achilles and took up a stance.

Patroclus stared up at him, perplexed. “What, now?”

“Why not?” Achilles answered, cracking the joints in his neck and knuckles. “No time like the
present.”

Patroclus groaned and heaved himself to his feet. Achilles was bouncing up and down on his toes
and shaking energy from his wrists, as if a sudden electrical current had shot its way through his
limbs and was sparking now at his fingertips. Patroclus took his place opposite him, scratching the
back of his neck self-consciously.

“So…what? You just want me to hit you?”

Achilles jumped, bringing his knees up to his chest. “That’s right.”

“Where?”

“What do you mean where, I don’t know, anywhere.”

“But, like, do you want me to make contact or are you going to block it or-”

“Gods’ teeth man, do you have to have a fucking neurosis over everything?”

“No, I’m just thinking that-”

“-Well don’t think,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “Just do. Come on.”

Patroclus scowled, drawing his fists in front of him unenthusiastically. Achilles cracked his neck
one last time and assumed a loose position, still jumping slightly on the balls of his feet. Patroclus
shook his head. “This is so fucking stupid.”

Achilles nodded. “Yup.”

His eyes were bright with manic excitement, his grin dug into the soft pads of his cheeks like an
axe split. Patroclus could see the nervous energy pumping him like battery acid, could almost hear
the electricity crackling in his veins. Don’t think. Just do.

The punch collided with the cushioning flesh of abdomen and Patroclus was aware of his knuckles
bending forward, curling into Achilles’ lower torso inch by crooked inch. Achilles’ stomach
tightened as he braced himself, tense muscles hardening against the softness of tissue but he still
went backwards, doubling over with a stifled grunt. Patroclus stood over him awkwardly. “Um…
you okay?”

“Fine,” Achilles wheezed. “Just…give me a second.”

Patroclus nodded, unsure of whether to feel guilty or pleased with himself. He settled on
ambivalent and started looking around him to check if anyone was watching. No one was and he
found himself grateful. Achilles was exhaling deeply, his head between his legs. When he
straightened up again Patroclus saw he was wincing.

“Good punch,” he gasped.

“Sorry,” grimaced Patroclus.

“No,” he shook his head. “No it was perfect.”

The rush of sailing limbs punctuated with the thump of Patroclus’ diaphragm meant he didn’t hear
the last word. All he was aware of was the wind suddenly knocked out of him, white spots
appearing at the corners of his vision as he grunted with surprise and pain. Achilles wiped his
knuckles on the back of his thigh, surveying Patroclus with the appraising air of an artist viewing
his work. “You good?” he asked.

Patroclus took a slow, steadying breath, trying to control the dull ache of his stomach. “Yeah,” he
replied.

“Excellent,” said Achilles, and attacked again.

It soon became uncomfortably apparent to Patroclus that the only reason his first punch had made
any contact was because Achilles had wanted it to. After that the match was very much one-sided
with Achilles scoring hit after hit until all he could do was raise his elbows up to his face and hope
very much that he would still be able to hold a sword after this, never mind join the home defence.
Achilles was ceaseless and unyielding in his attack, yet his eyes were calculating and thoughtful.
He was thinking as he fought, solving violent equations in his mind so that each move was
perfectly planned, timed and executed. Yet at the same time he moved instinctively, like it was the
wind carrying his body and he was little more than a leaf floating on it. Still each hit smacked like
a hurricane and soon Patroclus found himself face down and spitting out fistfuls of sand, his ribs
stinging with the impact of Achilles’ crescendo.

“That was good,” said Achilles, offering his hand to help him up. “You can do better though.”

“Oh can I?” Patroclus took it, wincing as his whole left side protested.

“Yup,” Achilles nodded. “Tomorrow morning, by first cock crow. Meet me on the training field.”

Patroclus’ eyes widened, aghast. “By first…by first…Are you serious? I have chores, I have…
sleep-”

“Enough,” Achilles cut across him. “First cock crow. If you’re not here before then I’ll be gone.
You want to learn, you follow my rules. Or I’ll drop you, simple as that. Understand?”

Patroclus glowered at him, thinking with a dull ache of his growing list of duties. “Understood,” he
replied reluctantly, then added “Maestro.”

A flicker of amusement danced across Achilles face, settling on the wry twist of his smile. “Good,”
he said with a glint in his eye. “See you then. Don’t be late.”

And with that he turned and walked back across the sand whistling as he went, leaving Patroclus
with aching ribs, a heavy weight in his stomach and wondering how, by Hades, he was going to get
all this round Leptine.
oOo

“No.”

“Oh come on,” Patroclus protested. “You haven’t even heard me out yet!”

“Don’t need to,” Leptine shrugged. “My name said in that way is all I need to know.”

“I’m only asking for an hour,” Patroclus pressed. “One, tiny little hour. Surely you can get
someone to cover me for then.”

“Oh yes, and any ideas who that might be?” Leptine huffed. “Which someone do you think is
going to have to get up at Gods know when to carry out all your chores and their own so that you
can throw things at squirrels?”

“Always with the squirrels,” Patroclus rolled his eyes. “I told you. The wind blew my catapult off
target.”

“Of course,” Leptine retorted. “Just like the wind dropped that battering ram off a cliff or the wind
set the stables on fire. In fact never mind the home defence, from what I hear the wind sounds your
biggest competition.”

“Yes, well, this is it,” said Patroclus defensively. “This is exactly why I need the extra training. So
that none of these…accidents…happen again. During a particularly bad….storm.”

Leptine raised her arms, gesturing before her. They were sitting on a stone bench overlooking the
field which, previously overrun with strangling black-green stalks and stems, was now utterly
weedless and shining with an afternoon of back-breaking work. “Look around,” she said. “Storms
enough out here. And there’s a hurricane all set to hit the privies tomorrow morning.”

“I’d kind of rather not.”

“What, is real work not heroic enough for you, or something? Or is the pleasure of my company
not enough of an incentive?”

“Well no offense, but as wondrous as your company is it’s hardly going to make me famous is it?”

Leptine rolled her eyes but didn’t say anything. Patroclus nudged a little nearer to see the look on
her face. She was always hard to read, years of being a possession had taught her to guard her
emotions jealously but it was the way she set her jaw that told him she was not happy. Patroclus
felt a stab of guilt and put his arm around her waist.

“Joke,” he said softly. “I’m joking.”

“I know,” replied Leptine loftily.

“I’m being a dick, aren’t I?”

“Yes.”

“Sorry,” he said and Leptine turned to look at him, her face so lovely and sad and forgiving that
Patroclus felt all over again like a terrible human being. She had a way of doing that, a way of
making people ashamed of themselves with just a look and Patroclus found he had to lower his
gaze to his feet if only to avoid that stabbing mercy.

“Forget it,” he said. “I’m talking bullshit. Don’t listen to me.”

“No,” Leptine shook her head, her brown hair fluttering in a melancholy way around her face. “No
it’s me. I’m sorry. It’s your life, you do what you want. You have that right. I think I’m just so used
to thinking of you as a slave that I forgot myself for a moment.”

Patroclus looked at her in confusion. “What are you talking about?” he frowned. “It’s not like that
at all.”

“Isn’t it?” she asked glumly. “We’re so close, you and I, that we forget we’re not the same. When I
look at you I don’t think prince or master but Patroclus. And you, you don’t see a slave or an
inferior. You just see me, your friend. We’ve grown so used to each other that it’s as if we were
born of the same colour in the same land…of the same mother, even.”

“But that’s how it should be,” Patroclus frowned. “Prince, master, slave, they’re just words
someone landed us with. They don’t fit either of us, and they certainly don’t define us. I’m the least
likely prince to walk Gaia’s green earth, just like no one in their right mind could ever label you an
inferior.”

“But people do,” Leptine reminded him. “And just thinking like that is state sacrilege. I mean, I
could be beaten and worse if anyone even heard me call you ‘Patroclus’.”

She looked down at her hands, blackened with dirt, against the coarse muddied wool of her skirt. A
single tear rolled down her cheek and dropped onto her skin, clearing a patch of shining olive
brown through the earth and Patroclus was so shocked for a moment that he just stared, his brain
unable to process that she was crying, actually crying. Then something kicked in his head and he
drew her into his arms, resting her cheek against his chest.

“I’m sorry,” she said wetly. “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been having these feelings
lately…horrible feelings…and I can’t sleep…”

“What feelings?” asked Patroclus, heart aching with concern as he held her.

“I don’t know,” she said. “I just feel like…soon…everything’s going to change. Something’s
coming. A storm or a God…something dark…and when it hits us nothing will be the same again.”

“A bad dream,” he reassured her. “Nothing more.”

Leptine shook her head. “I don’t know if it is or if it isn’t,” she sighed. “I’m just scared…terrified,
even, that whatever it is…it’ll hurt us. What happens when your punishment is over and you’re a
prince again? Will you see me differently? Because I don’t think I can bare it Patroclus,I just
can’t-”

“-Stop,” said Patroclus. “Stop. Listen and understand. I don’t care what country you come from, I
don’t care about the hailing of our mothers. You are my sister, Leptine, that’s not going to change.
Not now, not ever.”

He felt her heat leave him as she raised her head, a tiny frown marking her brow. “Sister?” she
murmured softly, her long lashes at their most veiled.

Patroclus nodded. Leptine watched him for a moment, searching his face for something until she
sighed, apparently giving up. Then she lifted herself from his chest, eased smoothly out of his
embrace and got off the bench. Patroclus watched her brush the mud from her skirts, sending dirty
clouds into the warm air, feeling suddenly uncomfortable and sad. Then she turned back to look at
him, flashing her sweet smile and all despondency was lifted, like the dust, into the air as she held
out her hand.
“Come on,” she said. “We’ll compromise. I’ll cover for you tomorrow if you take my afternoon
shift. That way at least I’ll have some time to catch up on sleep. And if Amyntor says anything
we’ll just say we switched because the weeding gave my hands blisters. How’s that?”

Patroclus nodded ardently, taking her hand and shaking it. “Great,” he replied, then added “Wait a
second. What do blisters have to do with you not being able to take the afternoon shift?”

Leptine grinned. “Nothing at all of course,” she said and, not for the first time that morning,
Patroclus had the distinct feeling that she was telling rather less than the whole truth.

First cock crow came like a slap in the face. Patroclus opened one eye a sliver, raising his head a
hair’s breadth above the thin blanket. A draft of morning hair came whistling through the cracks of
the wall, stinging his exposed skin and pricking it with goose pimples as he pushed the covers
reluctantly away from him and forced himself unsteadily to his feet. The slave quarters, always
dimly lit were pitch black in the early darkness and Patroclus blinked blearily, wiping sleep from
his eyes as he struggled to make out the door before setting about picking his way round the
several sleeping bodies carpeting the floor.

“Watch it, arsehole!” hissed one not so somnolent slave, yanking his hand under a bundle of dirty
covers as Patroclus missed his footing.

“Sorry,” Patroclus whispered back, approaching the door warily and feeling a sense of mounting
dread in his gut as he did so. This is so stupid, he chastised himself. So, so stupid. It’s not too late.
Turn around. Go back to bed now. Save whatever’s left of your dignity.

But as persuasively sensible as the voice in his head was, Patroclus found himself strangely
reluctant to return to the warm safety of his mattress. Despite the dark and the early hour and the
cold air down his chiton he could not help but feel oddly anxious to see what the morning would
bring, and as he snuck out gingerly onto the fields he wondered, with growing curiosity, what
Achilles had in store for him.

He saw him almost immediately, a slender black silhouette standing out against the powdered lilac-
blue of before dawn. He turned his head slightly as Patroclus approached, the gold of his hair
dimmed to dusty brown in the dark as he nodded his greeting.

“You came,” he stated.

“Don’t sound so disappointed,” Patroclus replied, shivering in the cold. “You should know by now
there’s no hope of me matching up to your expectations.”

“On the contrary,” said Achilles wryly. “You exceeded my expectations just by turning up.”

He folded his arms across his chest, looking Patroclus up and down, his lip curled contemptuously.
As Achilles’ eyes passed over his slight, hunched form Patroclus became uncomfortably aware of
how thin his chiton really was, provoking another involuntary shiver which had nothing to do with
the cold. Whether Achilles noticed or not he didn’t know, he just snapped his fingers suddenly and
pointed towards the training field behind him.

“I marked a track out in limestone,” he told him bluntly. “Run round it.”

For a moment Patroclus, convinced the earliness of the hour had somehow affected his thought
process, assumed he had him wrong. “You’re joking.”

Achilles shook his head. “People laugh at my jokes.”

Patroclus squinted at the field. Sure enough there glowed the track, a perfect circle gleaming from
the grass like a giant’s mouth stretched open in silent laughter. He turned back resignedly. “How
many times?”

Achilles shrugged. “Until I say stop,” he replied and gestured for him to start. Feeling like a man
heading to the gallows Patroclus walked over to the circle, his feet dragging like a noose around his
neck. He took his place and Achilles raised his hand into the air, letting it hang there a moment for
dramatic effect before bringing it down. His arm swung back pendulum style, a sword swing, and
Patroclus started running.

The first few laps were easy. Patroclus paced himself steadily, remembering how he had run just
about everywhere back in Opus, tearing across the countryside from boys with slingshots in need
of entertainment, from angry farmers whose fields he had trespassed, from his drunken father still
brandishing a bottle. He remembered how he had run from the dead boy, desperate to put as much
distance between himself and the blood, spreading flood-like after him. He remembered and the
memories pumped his legs like fuel round the track as Achilles stood, drumming out a beat with
his foot.

But before long he began to tire. By fifth or sixth his legs had started up a protest, by the eighth
they were burning. Achilles watched, silent unless he saw him begin to slow. Then he would call
out constructive comments such as “Keep running” and “Don’t stop” until Patroclus felt he was no
longer running on energy but on pure loathing, an emotion which only intensified lap by lap until
the fire in his calves and thighs begged to be put out.

Dawn came with rosy fingers, spilling orange light onto the field and still Achilles did not call an
end. Patroclus ran on, his whole body aching and his brain screaming at him to stop, just stop, but
he didn’t, even when his knees began to buckle and sweat turned the cloth of his chiton see-
through. He kept running, his chest feeling as though it were about to give up with every slap of
his foot on the grass, his breaths coming out in dangerously high pitched wheezes.

Finally, when the third cock had shattered the sleepy silence and the sun beamed a new day across
the sky Achilles called “That’s enough”. Within a second of the command Patroclus collapsed,
twitching like an insect onto his back, ribs splintering against his lungs and face scrunched up in
pain. Achilles loomed over him, observing him as though he were a vaguely interesting plant
specimen.

“Twenty five,” he announced. “An ok start. Tomorrow I want to see ten more than that.”

Patroclus opened one eye. “Tomo…” he stuttered, his voice hoarse. “Tomorrow?”

Achilles nodded. “Tomorrow,” he affirmed and yawned. “That’s assuming you’re still standing, of
course. For now you can go. That’s us done for the day.”

His grin blocked out the sun, a demon out of hell with his face half his shadow and Patroclus, to
whom every breath was like a knife between his ribs, wondered at how much hatred it was
possible for one man to feel.

At least, he thought as he limped back to the palace, clutching his chest and wheezing like an
ancient, I don’t have morning chores to deal with. Thank the Gods for Leptine, sweet Leptine and
her sweet, sweet compassion.

“Patroclus,” said Loras, greeting him in the corridor. “I hear you’re doing the afternoon shift.”

Patroclus nodded, too tired to reply. “Right,” said Loras. “You’re on oiling. Phoinix wants his
massage straight after dinner, no dawdling now, and remember to really get your hands in. Feel out
the crevices. And maybe take a comb. For someone his age that guy is surprisingly resistant
against hair loss. On everywhere except his head, that is.”

“I…” Patroclus stuttered, his tongue incapable of forming words.

“And be sure to powder your palms,” Loras continued. “Phoinix can’t abide rough hands.”
 Changes

And so it went on. Every morning at first cock crow Patroclus would get up, wipe the sleep from
his eyes and stagger onto the playing field where Achilles would be waiting, one foot tapping a
beat out on the ground and an arm raised in the direction of the track. And every morning Patroclus
would run until his legs burned and his chest begged for relief, his desperate prayers to hear the
word Stop mingling his sweat with silent tears. His prayers were never answered, not until he was
wheezing with every breath and the sun had just begun to break out from behind the olive trees.

Achilles watched him unpityingly, his face a mask of callous detachment as he stood at the edge of
the ring, hair uncombed and falling messily into his eyes. Each time Patroclus passed him he could
not help but glance his way, see the absence of pity there and become charged with a fury that
would channel his legs for another couple of laps as he thought up new and delightful ways to wipe
the smirk of his face. But when dawn finally came and Patroclus collapsed, panting, into the dirt
Achilles would walk over, stand above him like a God and pronounce his sentence: “Forty-seven.
Tomorrow I want sixty.”

Then there were the chores. Thanks to Leptine Patroclus was usually able to catch a couple of
hours sleep before he was summoned to do the afternoon’s shift, yet he always woke sore, irritable
and somehow more tired than he had been before. He would perform his duties zombie-like, as if
half entranced and spent more energy on forcing his eyes open than on listening to what the
overseer was saying. This resulted in unhappy consequences and more than once had received
beatings for getting caught dropping off.

For weeks the torment continued with little change to the training schedule. Indeed, Achilles
seemed to have no interest in anything besides counting how many times Patroclus ran round a
circle for he made no reference to any potential future sessions, nor did he hint at an ending to the
cycle any time soon. And Patroclus, determinedly unwilling to show any signs of weakness,
refused to question him about it, even when the hours became earlier and instances of passing out
halfway through his chores became more and more frequent. Until finally one morning, when
Achilles pointed toward the track, he shook his head.

“No,” he said. “No more.”

The fine hairs of Achilles’ brow knit together as he surveyed him. “Excuse me?”

“No more,” Patroclus repeated, lifting his chin in defiance. “I’m not doing it again. I know what
this is, this is your sick idea of a joke. Oh, how can we use Patroclus’ problems to our advantage, I
know, let’s have him run non-stop around a circle for no apparent reason! Won’t that be funny?
Well sorry to ruin your amusement but I’ve had enough torture and sleep deprivation and use as a
human punch bag to last me a day in Sparta. So no, I refuse, and both you and the home guard can
shove it right back up your-”

“-Whine, whine, whine,” Achilles shook his head. “Gods know that’s all you do. You think you
know torture? You wouldn’t last a day in Sparta.”

“At least in Sparta they teach you endurance,” Patroclus retorted. “Resistance. Pain control. They
see men suffer to make them strong, not for their own sick pleasure.”

“And what do you think I’m trying to do?” Achilles protested, gesturing violently. “This is all
about endurance. Tell me, when you first started, how many laps could you run?”
Patroclus wracked his brains for the memory. It was difficult, what with lack of sleep limiting his
awareness of reality all the days had started to blend into one. “Twenty…twenty five, was it?”

“And how many did you do yesterday?”

“Seventy,” replied Patroclus. “But that’s not the point-”

“-It is the point,” Achilles protested. “It is absolutely the point. A few weeks ago you could barely
get round the field. Now you’re belting your way round nearly a hundred circuits. I’m building up
your fitness, your speed, your stamina. I’m giving you the building blocks you need to become a
great warrior.”

Patroclus looked at him dubiously. Reading the doubt in his expression Achilles rolled his eyes and
took him roughly by the arm. “Right,” he said, leading him purposefully across the field. “Come
with me.”

“Where are we going?” asked Patroclus, hurrying to keep up with his urgent strides.

Achilles didn’t answer, only shushed him irritably as they walked back towards the palace.
Confused, Patroclus allowed himself to be led in through the back door, up the corridors and
winding staircases until they reached the landing of the highest rooms in the building. It was into
one of these that Achilles pushed Patroclus, closing the door self-consciously behind him.

Patroclus glanced round the room. It was large and spacious yet somehow seemed cramped due to
the amount of luxuries stuffed into the space. The floor was littered with rolled up carpets and silk
cushions, expensive fabrics and materials light as gossamer thread spilled out the window, their
brilliant colours flashing in the early light. Patroclus stared, dumfounded as Achilles set about
trying to find whatever it was he was looking for, sending trinkets and blankets flying over his
shoulders in impatience.

“Is this your room?” asked Patroclus, eyeing a small silver jar that looked suspiciously like face
powder.

Achilles sent him a dark look from beneath a scarlet quilt. “You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” he
scowled. “Well sorry to disappoint. This is my mother’s room for when she comes to stay and she
won’t be happy to know a mortal’s been in it. So be a good girl and try not to touch anything.”

At once Patroclus tore his eyes away and stared fastidiously at the floor, suddenly terribly
conscious of himself and his presence in such a place. He was also aware that, for the first time,
Achilles had referred to his mother as rather less, or more, than human. Watching him rummage
through her things, flecks of incense landing on his olive smooth skin he wondered how many
more of the rumours were true.

“Here it is,” he announced suddenly. “Okay. Come over here.”

“Why?”

“Just do it.”

Patroclus walked over to where Achilles was standing in front of an elaborately carved full-length
mirror. He looked up, staring in puzzlement at his reflection. Achilles was smiling triumphantly.
“See?” he said.

Patroclus peered at the glass. A disgruntled-looking skinny boy with untameable curling dark hair
and brown eyes, narrowed with distrust, peered back. “See what?” he replied, still perplexed.
“Look how much you’ve changed,” said Achilles excitedly, gesturing at the mirror. “A few weeks
ago and you wouldn’t have recognised you.”

“Are you sure that’s incense? Or have you been sniffing one of Cleitus’ herbal remedies?”

“Are you serious?”

“What?”

“You don’t see it?”

“See what?”

Achilles ran a hand through his hair, sighing exasperatedly. “Ok. Take off your chiton.”

Patroclus whirled round, mouth open. Achilles huffed in frustration. “Not all the way off. Just…
pull it down to your waist.”

“Why?”

“Just do it.”

Tentatively, Patroclus wrestled his arms from his sleeves and wrenched himself out of the rough,
homespun wool, pulling it down so that it bunched clumsily around his hips. The warmth of the
room, made thick with incense, stuffed silks and scented candles embraced his naked torso and he
felt the soft hairs of his skin prickle. Achilles stood a hair’s breadth behind him, his head slightly
bent so that the point of his chin almost grazed his shoulder.

“Here,” he spoke softly. “You have broadened. Do you see?”

He brushed his fingertips lightly across the top of his back. Patroclus, surprised at the touch, gave a
sharp intake of breath as the soft pads lightly grazed his skin. Looking at himself, at the areas
Achilles outlined he saw he had changed; his shoulders were wider and there was a subtle hint of
power in his upper back which hadn’t been there before. He turned his head an inch towards
Achilles, eager to see more evidence of improvement. “Is that all?”

Achilles shook his head slightly and moved his hands from Patroclus’ back to skirt his arms.
“Here,” he said, flitting over the wiry tendons, hardened from hours of propelling his body
forward. His hands were warm. Patroclus was aware of his own shallow breathing as Achilles
gently cupped his biceps, applying pressure to the supple skin and muscle.

“And here.” He continued to trace over his body, mapping out areas of taut muscle and sinew like a
general going over a landscape. His touch was light yet it might as well have burned; Patroclus
tried to hold his breath but it proved impossible. He felt like he was about to burst.

“Do you see?” Achilles whispered, his fingers still brushing his forearms. Patroclus could feel the
heat of his breadth creeping against his neck, the perfect pink lips almost touching his earlobe
sending tiny goose pimples erupting over his flesh, as if the whole of him were rising in response to
Achilles’ hands on him.

“I see,” he breathed back although his eyes were closed.

“I can show you more.”

Touch me again. “Okay.”

Achilles moved his hands inward, stroking the base of his spine with his knuckle. Patroclus could
hear his breathing growing laboured in his ear but he did not notice how Achilles’ hands shook, nor
how his eyes traced the smooth lines and contours of his body. His palms flattened against
Patroclus’ chest, browned by the sun and tensed with suppressed breath, his fingers centimetres
away from the hardened nipple. Patroclus made a tiny sound, halfway between a squeak and a
moan, then hoped to the Gods Achilles hadn’t heard.

“You’re harder here,” said Achilles with a voice like purple velvet. He was tracing the V shaped
grooves either side of Patroclus’ abdomen.

Patroclus nodded but his brain had long ceased to process what he was saying. He could think of
nothing but Achilles’ hands and his hot, shallow breath and the length of him pressing into his
back, every inch rigid and insistent. Patroclus swallowed hard and resisted the urge to grind up
against him, to roll his head back and fall against Achilles’ torso, to give himself up to his
wondering hands and the urgent pressure of his thighs.

“And all that,” said Achilles, dropping his hands suddenly from Patroclus’ waist, “From just a few
weeks’ worth running.”

Patroclus nodded distractedly, his skin left cold where previously it had been on fire. Achilles,
apparently noticing their proximity for the first time, stepped back, a pink flush coming into his
cheeks and turned away while Patroclus pulled his chiton back on. The room seemed now
uncomfortably warm, invasive even and the rich smells of hair oil, incense and perfume were
clagging his throat. This is his mother’s room, thought Patroclus and felt instantly sick.

“So you see,” said Achilles, his back still turned. “There is a point to all this. I’m not just torturing
you for my own amusement.”

“Does that mean I still have to run?” asked Patroclus, trying to keep his voice steady as his hands
shook on the clasp.

Achilles nodded. “Yes,” he said. “But I think it’s time we moved on, don’t you? Starting
tomorrow, we’ll work on your spear thrust. How’s that?”

Patroclus, whose brain was still working a little sluggishly, took a moment to process what he’d
just said. “Starting…”

“Tomorrow,” Achilles repeated. “Today you’re excused. It’s too late in the morning to get in more
than seventy and if you’re not doing better than there’s no point doing anything. Besides, you’re
clearly exhausted.”

Surprised and taken aback, Patroclus took a second to form a reply. “Oh,” was the best he could
come up with. “Um…thank you.”

“Get some sleep,” said Achilles, still not looking at him, and gestured toward the door. Patroclus
headed for it with a sense of mounting confusion, noticing as he did so the awkward angle at which
Achilles was turned, as if trying to hide something.

It was only once had had left the room and looked down that he realised it was a good thing too.
For had Achilles not had his back to Patroclus he would have noticed another, more obvious sort of
change, and one that certainly had nothing to do with exercise.

oOo

Achilles was true to his word. The next morning, rather than having Patroclus run the track he set a
javelin in his hands and set about teaching him how to throw. But rather than the new sessions
coming as a relief they proved instead to be a whole different trial. The tension between the two of
them was as bad as it had ever been, as if someone had lit a match beneath their feet which sparked
a flame, now burning brighter than ever. Achilles was impatient, unyielding and authoritarian,
Patroclus passive aggressive and surly with sarcasm. Thus the lessons mostly consisted of Achilles
demanding too much and Patroclus giving too little, resulting in high tempers and many a raised
voice.

It did not help, in Patroclus’ case, that with the past few weeks had come creeping into his anger
and resentment another quite different feeling. Every morning Achilles would stretch and yawn, his
pink mouth opening wide like a cat’s and Patroclus would trace over the lines of contracted muscle
in his arms or the crease of his eyes squeezed tightly shut against the early morning cold. He would
watch his demonstrations unblinkingly and suppress a groan over the way he shook his hair out of
his eyes or bit his lip whenever he had to focus on a target and when the sun shone he stood close
by him so that he could see beads of sweat form on his limbs, like diamonds studding a golden
casket.

It was torture, loving the way his hips swung tauntingly beneath the low girdled belt with all the
self-assurance of a king and the allure of a young hetera, craving the way he tilted his head back to
drink, his mouth slightly parted between the rosebud lips and hating him; hating his petulance, his
arrogance, his irresistible beauty and the undeniable fact that Patroclus simply could not stop but
stare and wonder and desire.

And so it went. Day after day the two would scream themselves hoarse, swearing oaths and hurling
insults into the sky until one of them would storm off, kicking clouds of dust with furious feet and
sending stacks of javelins crashing to the ground. Then later, Patroclus would lie on his bed,
blinking angry tears and thinking over the hundred things he should have said and automatically,
almost unconsciously, his hand would stray downwards, past the soft flesh of his abdomen to settle
finally between his legs.

“Bastard,” he would whisper into the still air, thinking of Achilles’ beautiful sneering eyes and
curling lip. “Stupid arsehole son of a bitch.”

He could almost hear Achilles laughing; cruel, hard laughter as he crept atop him, like a predator
preparing for the kill. He imagined his long-fingered hands scaling his chest and stomach with
calloused palms and a touch like silk. He imagined his smile as he stroked him, scornful and
mocking and full of disdain. He imagined him grinning with triumph as he came, lurching against
him and muttering a nonsensical stream of profanities.

Then he would see him again, leaning coolly against the storeroom door, his hair falling messily
into his eyes and feel half like slashing his throat and half like opening his own wrists.

“What sort of time do you call this?” he spat, seeing him approach.

“I’m sorry,” Patroclus glowered, thinking of the crisis earlier that morning when, upon waking to
find his sheets damp, he had not been able to reach the laundry room without crossing Leptine
who’d fallen asleep there while on shift the night before. In the end he’d had to beg a bucket of
cold water off Loras who had eyed him with far too much understanding for his liking. “I
overslept.”

Achilles shook his head. “Not good enough,” he said. “I told you if you weren’t here on time I’d
drop you. I have things to do, you know. I’m already giving up a lesson to be here. As it is it’s
philosophy, otherwise you’d be gone.”
Patroclus gave a low and exaggerated bow. “As ever you are most gracious, maestro.”

Achilles rolled his eyes and gestured for him to follow him to one of the fields Ampelius used for
spear practice. A large oak tree grew at the other end, a bull’s-eye dashed across it in shining red
paint. Achilles handed Patroclus a spear and motioned for him to take his mark.

“As I said before,” he said. “You’ve actually got a pretty decent arm. All you need is the speed, the
accuracy and the height.”

“Oh is that all?” asked Patroclus, raising his eyebrows mock-quizzically. Achilles ignored him and
set about correcting his stance.

“Straighten your back,” he ordered. “Bring your hand closer to your ear. Now bend your right knee.
Right knee. RIGHT KNEE.”

“I’m bending my right knee!”

“Since when was your right knee attached to your left foot?”

“Back off, okay, I know what I’m doing-”

“-So this performance just for my benefit?”

“No, you’re just…you’re distracting me-”

“-KEEP YOUR LEFT LEG STRAIGHT.”

“I’M TRYING, FUCK OFF.”

Achilles reached for the javelin, making to wrench it from his hands and on instinct Patroclus
threw. The shaft flew like a sling shot into the air, becoming a black arrow against the sky a good
few feet above the oak tree, eventually disappearing above and beyond it. Achilles turned to look at
Patroclus, smirking. “Like I said,” he scoffed. “Accuracy.”

“Got the height though, didn’t I?”

“Right, now go get the javelin.”

“I’m not getting it, you get it.”

“Well I’m not getting it.”

“Why not?”

“What do you mean ‘why not’? I’m the prince!”

“It’s bad manners for a student to touch a weapon before his teacher.”

Achilles gritted his teeth, the muscle in his jaw jumping as it often did when Patroclus antagonised
him. “I give you permission,” he said slowly. “Now go and get the javelin.”

“Permission refused,” replied Patroclus.

Achilles swore loudly and kicked a row of wooden targets. They fell into the dirt with a crash and
he swore again. Patroclus watched with faint amusement and smirked when Achilles rounded on
him. “See this,” he shouted. “This is what’s wrong with you. You’re lazy.”
“Lazy?” Patroclus raised his eyebrows. “What, just because I don’t want to walk all the way over
there and-”

“-You talk about wanting to get better,” Achilles interrupted him. “Then you make absolutely no
effort to do so. You want to get into the home guard but don’t turn up to training on time. You
want to be a soldier yet you can’t even lower yourself to taking orders from me. Make up your
mind, Patroclus, you can’t have it both ways.”

“Fine,” snapped Patroclus. “I’ve made up my mind. I’ve had enough of this. I don’t have to deal
with your shit.”

“I don’t have to put up with yours!”

Patroclus glowered at him, then turned abruptly and began to walk away. “Hey where are you
going?” Achilles called after him.

“This,” Patroclus replied. “This was a bad idea. I can’t take it anymore. I’m done.”

Achilles shouted something after him but whatever it was Patroclus couldn’t hear. He walked away
without looking back, feeling Achilles’ eyes on him even when he was out of reach.
 Agora

“You should go back.”

“I’m not going back.”

“But you should.”

“I shouldn’t and I won’t.”

Leptine fixed Patroclus with a condescending look and shook her head so that he could feel the full
force of her disapproval. Patroclus responded by knocking a bowl of strained oak leaves over her
side of the table.

Ever since he had come back from training yesterday morning covered in dust and fuming,
Patroclus had not stopped berating Achilles, relentlessly recounting everything to Leptine from the
prince’s dictatorial, control-freak methods to his ridiculous standards, ending of course with his
marching away in disgust and swearing never to return. Much to his displeasure, Leptine was once
again taking the moral high ground and after listening sympathetically to his curses and
blasphemies put forward the ridiculous notion that he might be better off just going back to talk to
him.

“You should just talk to him.”

“I don’t want to talk to him.”

“It’ll make you feel better.”

“I feel fine.”

She raised an eyebrow, the one which meant she knew much more than he was letting on.
“Patroclus…”

Patroclus tried to look oblivious and nonchalant. “What?”

“Don’t you what me,” replied Leptine bossily. “Look at yourself. You’re a mess. You look like an
insomniac struck by lightning.”

Patroclus ran a hand through his hair, cringing at how messy it had become. “Gods Leptine,” he
said, rolling his eyes. “You really know how to charm a man.”

He tried fixing his expression into one of casual exasperation, but then he thought of Achilles; the
way he had looked at him in anger and frustration and he remembered the feel of his hands on his
waist and his chest and knew that he was failing miserably. He knew how he looked; his hair
dishevelled from tossing and turning in bed, there were dark circles under his eyes from lack of
sleep and his cheeks were pale. For the past few nights he had lain awake, staring at the cavernous
stone ceiling thinking furiously of the boy and his beautiful fiery rage that leapt like a flame from
his hands and his eyes. And for the past few nights he had wondered who he hated more.

“Okay,” he said. “So I’ve been a little less than fine.”

He turned away slightly and busied himself with chopping roots for the tonics they were making so
that Leptine wouldn’t see his face. She sees so much, he thought as he cut stalks with increasing
aggression. If she wasn’t a slave she’d make one hell of a spy. He continued to slice through the
plants, bringing the knife down hard enough to cut through the table until a hand closed on his.

“Hey,” Leptine murmured. “What’s wrong?”

Patroclus shook his head, keeping his face turned away from her. “It’s nothing.”

“You know you can tell me,” she pleaded. “You can tell me anything.”

Not this, he thought and said nothing. Leptine sighed and returned to scooping the leaves back into
their bowl. Seeing her, with her head bowed over the leaves, Patroclus felt bad but he waved the
feeling away. Leptine was an amazing friend and he would trust her with his life…but his secrets
were his own.

There was a knock at the kitchen door and they both jumped, causing Leptine to knock the bowl of
leaves over again. Loras walked in, dressed in a clean chiton and looking very pleased with himself
just as she swore loudly. He gave her a reprimanding look.

“Leptine,” he said solemnly. “That is not the type of language you should be using before a Vassal
of Hermes.”

“Vassel of Hermes?” Patroclus repeated, raising an eyebrow. “What are you on about?”

“I’ve been promoted,” said Loras importantly, standing a little taller and puffing out his chest. “I
have officially moved up from part-time messenger to semi-fulltime messenger official. The Man
likes my news so much and we need a new keryx since the last one hung himself so they decided to
give me the job. Pretty great huh? I get a new caduceus and everything.”

Not caring enough to ask what on earth a caduceus was, or indeed what was the difference between
a part-time messenger and a semi-fulltime messenger official, Patroclus merely grunted. “That’s
great Loras,” he answered dully. “Truly. I’m happy for you.”

Clearly this was not the reaction Loras had wanted or expected, for he narrowed his eyes and there
was a sharp edge to his voice. “Good,” he said. “Because I deserve this, you know. I really do.
And you know what, you should be happy, because nearly all my news is about you.”

At this Patroclus looked up automatically, suddenly alert. “About me?”

“Ah,” Loras smiled smugly. “Care now, don’t you? That’s right, Patroclus. Everyone’s dying to
know the latest on your war with the prince. Kind of a Davos and Goliatides sort of deal. Most
exciting thing to happen since Cleitus’ wife drank hemlock. Personally I’m putting my money on
Achilles. As much as I’d like to support the underdog, he’d kick your sorry arse to Hades and
back-”

“-Enough Loras,” Leptine cut across him tiredly, plucking leaves from the floor. “Congratulations
on your promotion. Now is there any other reason you’re here or would you like me to make you a
laurel wreath?”

Loras gave her a withering glance, then fixed his bearing into one of professional composure with
his hands clasped behind his back. “It’s market day,” he announced formally. “Amyntor requires
two escorts to a sale in the agora this morning. Someone to carry his bag and defend him against
thieves and rapists and the like. You up for it?”

Patroclus was about to tell Loras where to go when Leptine suddenly jumped up, releasing a peal
of excitement and sending the bowl of oak leaves smashing once again to the floor. “Yes yes yes!”
she squealed. “Tell him yes!”

“Are you serious?” asked Patroclus, looking perplexedly at Loras who was watching enviously at
Leptine dancing round the kitchen.

“You’re so lucky,” he told them bitterly. “I would have gone but I have official messenger official
business to attend to. What one does for the job.”

He left the room muttering to himself, blotted out by Leptine’s ecstatic cheers of triumph. Patroclus
stared at her, dumfounded. “Why are you so happy?” he asked. “Carrying Amyntor’s bloody bags
and fighting rapists…why would you sign us up for that?”

“Because we get to go to the agora!” Leptine replied, grinning like a madwoman with her arms
waving in celebration.

Patroclus raised an eyebrow. Leptine had abandoned the bowl of oak leaves upturned on the floor
and was now involved in a passionate dance sequence with a broomstick. “Really?” he asked. “Is
that all? I’ve been to the agora like…I don’t know, a hundred times?”

Leptine let the broomstick drop with a clatter at her feet as her mouth fell open. “A hundred
times?” she repeated reverently. “I’ve been twice.”

It was one of those moments that Patroclus became suddenly aware of the stark difference between
Leptine’s life and his own. Back in Opus, when his father had sent him to the agora to pick up a
couple of dustpans or haggle for a goat it had been a chore. For Leptine, and other slaves like her,
it was a holiday.

They cleaned up the kitchen quickly before Leptine sprinted off to wash and get dressed. Patroclus
took his time; around him his friends were buzzing excitedly, asking him to bring them back a
ribbon or in some cases shoving whole lists in his face. Finally Leptine came down wearing her
best dress of dyed saffron, her soft brown hair aggressively brushed and her eyes bright and
shining. She grabbed Patroclus’ hand and together they ran off to meet Amyntor.

He was waiting by the palace doors and greeted them with his usual look of contempt. “So you can
find it within yourselves to be punctual,” he sneered. “Nothing like sugar to bring the rats scurrying
out of the shadows.”

Straight away Patroclus felt an instant surge of dislike but Leptine bobbed courteously and
fluttered her eyelashes as if he were Zeus of Olympus rather than the cruel and abusive chief
overseer. With an air of considerable reluctance Amyntor handed them a tiny leather pouch, drawn
together with a length of string. Inside were two small pieces of silver. Patroclus felt Leptine’s
knees buckle beside him.

“Gods know why the king feels the need to reward laziness,” Amyntor muttered darkly as they set
off down the road into town. “If you ask me he’s far too soft on you vermin, far too soft. If it were
me it wouldn’t be silver you’d be getting, oh no. It’d be The Rack, and leg casts of pure bronze.”

Patroclus ignored him. It had been far too long since he’d last been outside the palace grounds and
it brought an immense sense of freedom. The feel of the dirt road beneath his feet, the shuffle of
donkey’s hooves and the clink clink of metal bouncing in the little leather pouch brought back
memories of visiting the agora with his mother and her women on market days. He looked at
Leptine, glowing like the sun in her yellow dress and smiled. She grinned back.

The Phthian agora was much smaller than the one in Opus, yet far busier. As soon as they arrived
they were swamped by venders, “Some very good wine my lord, just got in from Corinth, care for
a taste sir-” “Daggers, pocket knives, short swords! You’ll be wanting to defend yourself lad,
when the Thessalians cross our border-” “Ribbons! Girdles! Pretty pearls for the lovely lady…”

“No thank you, no thank you,” Amyntor waved them away, then turned to Patroclus and Leptine.
“Right. I have some business over an excessively violent species of monkfish to attend to. We meet
back here for the sale at midday. In the meantime, do as you please.”

It was the words they’d been waiting to hear. As soon as Ampelius had swept away Leptine
grabbed Patroclus by the arm and carted him off to the nearest stall, holding the silver piece
between her finger and thumb as though it were something holy. She gazed at each vender in
rapture, stretching out shaking hands to touch things she could never own but there was no sadness
in her face; to her it seemed it was enough just to look and feel and have the bustle of the market
place around her and a tiny piece of fortune in her pocket.

They spent a good hour circulating the agora, Leptine pointing excitedly at anything that shone or
glittered, Patroclus simply enjoying the bustle of the marketplace and the seductive voices of
merchants calling over the noise of the crowd and the smell of herbs and spices in the air. They
stopped by a clothes stall and marvelled over the expensive looking tunics, softly fluttering from
the beams like swollen rainclouds of blues and purples. “They’re so beautiful,” Leptine sighed,
stroking the fine wool. Patroclus felt guilty, knowing that once upon a time some of these could
have been found in his wardrobe. He wanted to buy her one but there was no way they could afford
it, besides a slave would never be allowed to wear such finery. Instead Leptine spent her silver on a
yellow ribbon to match her dress and Patroclus helped her tie it into her hair.

“How do I look?” she said excitedly, trying to catch her reflection in a beaded mirror on sale.

“Like a princess,” Patroclus replied, truthfully, and she blushed.

“What are you going to spend yours on?” she asked, pointing at the pouch hung from his waist.

Patroclus looked at it, frowning, and shook his head. “Nothing,” he answered. “I have enough. You
have it.”

But Leptine would not hear of it. No matter how Patroclus insisted, even going to press it into her
palm she would not take it, telling him it was his money, rightfully earned and she had no call
taking it from him. In the end Patroclus gave in and bought a large kebab from an Anatolian vender
which he promptly declared he could not finish and gave to her. This was, of course, acceptable and
Leptine had no qualms eating the whole thing.

“Look!” she said suddenly, flinging a greasy, meat-stained finger in front of her. “It’s Achilles!”

Patroclus stepped out from behind the stall and peered through the crowd. Sure enough there was
the prince, surrounded by his usual fan club who were making so much noise Patroclus had
assumed they were merchants. They were huddled round a collection of unusual and lethal looking
weaponry and debating loudly the use of each, the discussion led by Mynax who had the most
carrying voice. Achilles hung back, showing little interest and casting an eye over the tents of
scarlet and green, where scarf-wearing women spoke in a strange language and held nutmeg and
cardamom.

“He looks bored,” observed Leptine.

“He looks sad,” said Patroclus and felt a pang in his chest as Achilles’ eyes swept across the
marketplace with cool detachment while his friends held torture weapons. “I should go talk to
him.”

“Oh great,” Leptine rolled her eyes. ““Maybe I should go talk to him”. Because that’s only what
I’ve been saying for the past – Patroclus, wait!”

Patroclus wove his way past the stalls, brushing canvases and curtains away impatiently with
Leptine hurrying after him. Achilles hadn’t yet spotted him but he looked up as he approached and
surprise registered on his face.

“Hey,” Patroclus greeted him, heart fluttering nervously in his chest. “You alright?”

At once the boys stopped talking to turn and stare menacingly at him, as if he’d been a thief
threatening their prince with torture and death rather than a servant saying hello. Achilles looked
taken aback and stood there blinking stupidly for a few moments before he had recovered himself.

“Yeah,” he replied. “I’m good. You?”

“Good,” nodded Patroclus. “You um…enjoying the market?”

He made a general clumsy gesture. Behind Achilles the boys exchanged glances. Mynax cracked
his knuckles. “I am,” said Achilles although Patroclus could tell this was a bare faced lie. “There’s
a man down there, eating fire. It’s very impressive.”

“I can imagine,” said Patroclus, feeling the corners of his mouth twitch into a smirk. Achilles
grinned back.

Not discouraged by the fact that Mynax’s hands were now balled into fists, Patroclus was just
about to mention the disastrous training session of yesterday morning when Leptine grabbed his
arm urgently. “Patroclus,” she hissed. “It’s midday. We have to go.”

“You’re leaving?” asked Achilles, trying and failing to hide his disappointment.

“Yeah,” said Patroclus distractedly. “Sorry…um…have a good day.”

And with that he sped off through the agora, Leptine’s ribbon bobbing like a candle in front of him
as they raced to reach the marketplace. A swarm of people had gathered round the square, hands
shoved deep within their pockets feeling for gold. Leptine scanned the many heads and picked out
Amyntor’s pointed black beard and surly expression, grabbing Patroclus’ hand so they wouldn’t
become separated. The overseer saw them and waved them over impatiently.

“About time,” he growled. “Here, take these.”

He shoved two canvas bags into their arms, both spilling from the rim with his purchases.
Patroclus’ legs buckled as he caught it and had to step back to regain his balance.

“Come on, come on,” muttered Amyntor. “Where is this sack of wine? Aha! Here we go.”

Patroclus craned his neck for a better view over the sea of heads. A little man, bald as an egg and
dressed in fine lilac silks was coming towards them, holding a lead in his hands with which he led
something Patroclus couldn’t make out. He wove his way through the crowd with many a
“Pariemai, pariemai, epaino, pariemai,” before he reached them, rubbing his hands together in a
slimy fashion.

“Lord Amyntor!” he greeted loudly. “My good friend! How are you, how are you? Still keeping
your beard sharp, I see? Good, good, very nice. Very commanding, if I may say so. What can I do
for you?”

“I am not your friend,” Amyntor snarled. “And you can start by turning up on time in the future. It
was you, Viros, who insisted on this ridiculous meeting after showing me that pile of rubbish you
call stock the other day, or have you forgotten?”

“A bad day my lord, a bad day,” Viros simpered. “Happens to the best of us…sure you
understand…”

“Well there’d best not be another bad day if you’d like to keep King Peleus from finding some
other greasy slime ball to buy his slaves from,” replied Amyntor and with a sinking feeling
Patroclus realised what Viros had been leading from the rope behind him.

“Of course my lord of course, whatever you say,” Viros bowed. “But, if I may be so bold, I doubt
you shall be disappointed. Very good stock we’ve had come in today sir, very good, all the way
from the east no less…if my lord would like to have a look…”

“Yes I’ll have a look,” Amyntor snapped. “Do you think I’d have come here for the good of my
health?”

Viros gave another little bow before sidestepping out the way and with a flourish of his hands
called the slaves forward. They shuffled an inch to the front, eyes downcast, each bound to the
same length of rope wrapped around their hands and in a few cases their feet. Each face was sallow
thin, there were dark shadows in the hollows of their cheeks and their eyes looked like bats
blinking in deep caverns so sunk were their sockets. Patroclus felt sick. Amyntor looked
unimpressed.

“This is it?” he said. “This lot have got barely any more meat on them than the last. What are you
feeding them, water and salt?”

Viros gave a watery smile of mock amusement. “Very funny sir, as always you make quite the
little joke. They may not look much but I assure you they are a most skilful and excellent bunch.
See this one here,” he grabbed an old man with a dirty white beard by his spindly arm. “Used to be
a healer back in Persia. Knows all there is to know about eastern medicine. Invaluable on the
battlefield, stick him in a tent with a few bandages and you’ll never lose another man. Good with
his numbers too-”

“-Then he can tell me how many years he’s got left to live,” Amyntor interrupted. “This one’s seen
too many winters. I’m not making an investment on a dying slave.”

“Very well sir, very well,” Viros purred, thrusting the old man back into the throng. “Then might I
interest you in this particular individual?

This time a fair haired, ruddy-faced boy stepped forward, tall and strong looking. “This one’s
brought in from Albion,” Viros explained. “Strong lad, brave, especially useful for manual labour.
These arms, see.”

“They’re a funny colour,” Amyntor frowned. “What is that, disease?”

“No sir, no,” Viros shook his head quickly. “He comes from a Barbarian tribe; paint themselves
blue and run round naked when they go to war. Think it protects them from harm.”

“Well clearly not,” said Amyntor, pointing. “The boy’s lame.”

Patroclus followed Amyntor’s gesture. Sure enough, while the rest of him was muscled and stocky,
the boy’s left leg stood at a funny angle which Viros had tried to hide by keeping it behind him.
Viros’ fat face flushed unattractively, giving him the look of a large red bruise. “Alright,” he said,
waving the boy away distractedly. “These are worthless, my lord, rubbish. Not worth your time nor
your exalted coin. But I have one very, very special offer to make…one guaranteed to make my
lord think a little…Pamaia!”

There was a little movement among the line as someone moved from the back, parting the group
like waves then Patroclus heard himself gasp. It was a girl but for a moment he was sure he had
seen a goddess. Long, shining black hair fell in thick straight waves like a waterfall past her
shoulders, her eyes were dark and lined with kohl and as she gazed at them they hinted at mystery
and secrets. Her sultry mouth was pricked in a coy smile. Patroclus swallowed. Amyntor looked as
though he had been struck by lightning. Viros was smiling smugly.

“Pamaia has this affect on most people,” he gushed. “She is beautiful is she not? And you should
see her dance! My my, what a mover. She also cooks and cleans as well as any maid, hairdresses to
an exemplary standard, speaks over five languages…and I’m sure I don’t have to inform you of her
other many skills.”

Here he gave a rather roguish wink and Patroclus instantly his ears and the back of his neck grow
warm. Beside him Leptine was looking stony. Amyntor, however, was pulling out his gold. “Name
your price,” he said.

oOo

By the time they arrived back at the palace dusk had come and the sky was powdery with blue and
purple pastels. Amyntor had taken Pamaia immediately to show the king his purchase, voice nearly
shaking with excitement. Worn out from the business of the day, Patroclus had been all set to crash
onto his mattress and waste away the rest of the evening in comfortable laziness, however Leptine,
previously so full of joy was now in a terrible mood and haunted the quarters like a black cloud,
snapping at anybody who dared to talk to her. Unwilling to be around her when she was like this,
Patroclus sneaked out subtly through the back door and made his way to the beach.

It was a cool evening and there was a pleasant breeze in the air. Patroclus stood there for a
moment, enjoying the slight chill of the sand between his toes and the flutter of the wind in his
hair. He peered out into the dark. There was someone up ahead, sat down on the sand near the surf
and without taking a step further Patroclus knew who it was.

“Hey,” he called and Achilles looked behind him. He waved. Patroclus took it as an incentive to
come closer.

He walked up and sat down next to him. Achilles didn’t look at him but continued to watch the
waves come in, gently rolling up onto the shore with each tug of the moon’s tide. “Did you have
fun?” he asked.

“Yeah,” Patroclus replied. “Did you?”

Achilles raised an eyebrow and they both gave a little laugh. Overhead a gull called mournfully as
it disappeared behind the cliffs. Achilles sighed. “I hate my friends.”

Patroclus nodded. “I also hate your friends,” he agreed.

Achilles smiled. They stayed silent a while, hugging their knees and digging their feet into the wet
sand and listening to the crash of the waves. Patroclus looked and saw Achilles drawing a circle in
the sand with his finger. “A while ago,” he said slowly. “You apologised to me for something.”
Achilles looked up, curious. “I remember,” he spoke softly.

“So,” said Patroclus, “I think it’s time I apologised to you.”

Achilles shook his head. “You don’t have to do that-”

“-No, I do,” Patroclus interrupted him. “I’ve been a dick recently. I mean…not always totally
unprovoked…but still. You gave up your time to help me and I responded by acting like a child. It
wasn’t right and I’m sorry. And if you would consider training me again I promise I will be the
most nauseatingly zesty, enthusiastic and eternally grateful student you could wish for.”

“Wouldn’t that hurt?”

“A little,” Patroclus admitted. “But I could take it.”

He snuck a look at Achilles from the corner of his eye. He was smiling slightly, still tracing
pictures in the sand. Patroclus nudged him. “Hey,” he said quietly. “Remember that deal we made?
To call for peace between us? Neither of us did too well there. So what do you say we try again?
Truce?”

He stuck out his hand and watched uncertainly for his reaction. The sea was calm and night was
drawing in. Achilles turned to look him in the eye and Patroclus saw the stars reflected there,
twinkling mischievously over the tide. “We are both far too wilful for peace,” he replied with his
casual, lopsided grin. “But I’ll agree to a ceasefire, if you promise not to be too grateful.”

Patroclus laughed and agreed. “To obstinacy, then?” he asked.

“To pig-headedness,” amended Achilles and the two shook hands.

Above them a gull called dolefully, circling the patch of moon glowing from the surface of the
ocean, like a silver coin, before disappearing with a sigh into the dusk.
 Pamaia
Chapter Notes

Just wanted to say a quick thank you to all your lovely comments and reviews! They
really do give me the motivation to continue and my ego is huge and needs regular
indulging so please, keep them coming. Thank you for such kind words, just to hear
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time.) I promise to update regularly from now on so look out for it once a week on a
Wednesday or a Thursday!

It was like a dream, the next few days, but one they both had to try not to wake from. Achilles was
still dictatorial and Patroclus often found himself wrestling with his disdain for authority but, after
many a restrained word or eye roll, they began to reach some sort of balance and soon discovered
that this, this “being nice to each other” thing really wasn’t all that difficult.

In fact, after a while, Patroclus found himself becoming less and less bothered by Achilles’
arrogance and pride. When he stopped sessions halfway through to check his hair it brought on
more amusement than hatred. When he boasted of his superior skill or called himself a God
Amongst Men (which he did a lot) Patroclus would respond by seizing him round the waist and
knocking him over rather than walking away in disgust.

Of course he was still insufferable and their fights, verbal or physical, were frequent and explosive.
Yet it seemed that all those little things; the narcissism, the conceit, all that had made Patroclus
loathe him so were just part of everything that made him Achilles; and at the same time, nothing at
all to do with him.

Another thing, mused Patroclus, watching Achilles climb a tree to retrieve a rogue arrow before
promptly falling out of it, is how alike we are. And it’s only taken me till now to realise it.

Later Achilles said something similar. “It’s like we’re two sides of the same dice,” he told him one
practice session. “Opposites and all, but the same.”

Patroclus didn’t even have the heart to tell him that a dice has six sides.

“You’re still an arsehole,” he reminded him.

“Yes but so are you,” Achilles shrugged. “Just a closeted one. Take the bow.”

Patroclus took the roughly hewn practice bow Achilles handed him, running the pad of his thumb
along the knotted wood. “I thought you hated archery?”

“No, I hate archers,” Achilles corrected him. “Weak-spirited, cowardly people; prefer to hide
behind their battlements and hit a man from a distance because they can’t handle braving death or
facing the body they’ve killed. No, I’ve no time for archers but I’ve nothing against archery itself.
It’s a skilled vocation, even if it means people spend more time fixing an arrow than battling an
enemy.”

Sounds good to me, thought Patroclus privately but supposed Achilles might hit him if he said it.
He raised the bow before him and, taking an arrow from Achilles, fit it into the string. Then he
pulled his hand back, keeping two fingers on the bowstring and let the arrow loose. It flew straight
through the air but, rather than piercing the red target, grazed only the side of the tree and landed in
the grass. Patroclus lowered the bow and cringed. “Oops.”

“That was awful.”

“Hey, my people weren’t built for ranged weaponry. We’re stocky and, um, muscular. Very good
at close contact.”

“Oh yeah, you’re a real Titan,” Achilles raised an eyebrow, eyes grazing over Patroclus’ lean body
and slim hips. “Here.”

He slipped subtly behind Patroclus, gesturing for him to raise the bow again. Patroclus did so and
as he drew it back he felt the brush of Achilles’ hand on his.

“Raise your elbow a little,” said Achilles softly. “And bring your hand up.”

“Like this?”

“Bit higher, up to your, um, mouth.”

Patroclus nodded although it was difficult to concentrate. Achilles’ breath tickled the back of his
neck and his hand was warm on the one that held the bow. He pulled the string tighter, narrowing
his eyes at the target. “Deep breath,” said Achilles. “Count to three.” Patroclus took a breath but it
came out shaky. He counted to three and released the arrow.

It leapt from his fingers with a twang and the string shook like an earthquake with the vibration just
as Achilles’ arms moved from Patroclus’ shoulders to slip round his waist. Patroclus gasped but as
soon as he was aware of the movement it was gone; Achilles had thrust his hands into his belt and
was looking innocently at the target. The feathered end of the arrow still shook with the impact.
The metal head was imbedded in the tree, dead centre.

“I did it!” Patroclus exclaimed delightedly, the moment forgotten.

“I know,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “I saw.”

Patroclus, bigger person that he was, decided not to pay him the courtesy of a retort and instead
responded with a crude but effective hand gesture. Seeing it, Achilles did not hesitate but launched
himself at Patroclus, grabbing his shoulders and knocking him straight to the ground. Patroclus
wriggled in his grasp, locking his legs around Achilles’ calves and for a while the two wrestled,
two pythons struggling for the upper hand and all the while giggling, like children drunk on their
father’s wine until Achilles swung Patroclus round with enough force to shake Olympus so that he
was laying beneath him, his back against the dirt.

“Apologise,” Achilles hissed menacingly but the effect was ruined by the giveaway twitch of his
lip.

Patroclus struggled but Achilles’ grip was tight, nailing him to the floor with the urgent pressing of
his limbs and heavy torso. He could feel the warmth shifting from Achilles’ body to his, tugging at
the thick folds of his chiton which rose and fell with every laboured breath, tickling Patroclus’
exposed chest where his own tunic had slipped. “Never,” he rasped.

Achilles growled and shook his tawny head, bearing his teeth like a young lion deprived of his
prey. “Apologise,” he repeated, increasing pressure on his abdomen until Patroclus cried out.
“Ah! Ok ok! I’m sorry!” he released, cringing at himself.

Satisfied, Achilles rolled off him and stood up. Patroclus got to his feet gingerly, massaging his
wrists and throwing dark glances at Achilles’ smug face, repulsive with triumph. “Sorry for your
mother!” he added and ducked the punch.

The next few hours passed in a series of disjointed practice sessions, frequently interrupted by
hasty squabbles and wrestling matches. When the sun was beaming hottest, and the white-blues of
the morning were beginning to bleed into afternoon golds they abandoned their weapons and lay
down in the grass. The cool shade of the olive trees was soothing to their skin and the smell of the
dark green leaves was thick and rich in the air. Achilles was staring up at the sky, one arm
outstretched, his hand opening and closing as if trying to grasp a cloud.

“So,” he said finally, letting his arm drop back to the earth. “Do you feel like a champion yet?”

Patroclus laughed. “I’m not sure I’ll ever feel like a champion,” he confessed. “I feel a lot less like
a liability on the battlefield, if that’s what you mean.”

“And so you should,” said Achilles. “I was talking to Ampelius the other day. He couldn’t stop
raving about you; how much you’ve improved, your attitude, your skill set, your hair...Reckons
he’ll be signing you up for the home defence within the month.”

Patroclus’ eyes widened. “Seriously? Are you sure? You’re not…you’re not pulling my leg?”

“No I am not ‘pulling your leg’,” Achilles rolled his eyes again. “Although from what it looked
like Ampelius was pretty close to pulling on something, Gods does he like you-”

“-Achilles. Are you sure he said that? Really said that?”

Achilles turned to look at him, his blue-green eyes boring into Patroclus’ with an intensity that
almost shook him. “Patroclus,” he said solemnly. “Would I lie to you?”

Patroclus suppressed a snort. “Um, let me think,” he said mockingly. “Yes.”

“I would not,” Achilles protested, sounding hurt. “I told you. I don’t lie. It’s dishonourable.”

“Ok so, what would you call what you’re doing to your friends?”

Achilles stared at him wide-eyed, as if Patroclus had just accused him of some vile crime and he
couldn’t quite believe it. “That is totally different,” he huffed. Patroclus waited for him to elaborate
but no justification came.

“Well…it’s not,” reasoned Patroclus. “You pretend to like them when you hate their guts. You let
them accompany you to places then spend half the time wishing you were somewhere else. I don’t
get it. You’re lying to yourself as much as to them and it’s just making you miserable.”

“No, you don’t get it,” Achilles sighed heavily. “Listen Patroclus; when you’re…when you’re
me…there are certain expectations people have of you. Everyone expects me to be charming and
witty and beautiful and brave andgenerous all the fucking time. People expect me to have a band of
merry followers; later they’ll be my trusted generals and advisors and I’ll win a lot of land for their
fathers to grow tomatoes on. They don’t really love me and I think a shallow grave’s the best place
for most of them but it’s all part of the image. That’s important, Patroclus.”

“Why?” Patroclus frowned. “Why is an image important if it’s an illusion?”

“Because people worship images, just like they believe illusions.”

“But it’s a lie.”

“Of course it’s a lie,” said Achilles impatiently. “Most things men praise or worship are lies. Don’t
you see? It doesn’t matter what the facts are as long as people hear what they want. And what
people want to hear is always changing. Look,” he pointed at the sky. “Fact: Uranus ate his
children, Zeus castrated him and his body is the sky. Gaia is his consort, their children are the
Gods and thus life as it is began. That’s fact. A few centuries ago an almighty Titan mother gave
birth to the heavens and the earth and Zeus and Hera and all the others are nothing but her
disobedient accidents. That was fact too. Who knows what they’ll be saying a thousand years from
now?”

Patroclus shivered. “That’s blasphemy.”

Achilles made a dismissive gesture. “’Blasphemy’ just means “not currently accepted”. It’s just
another word to get you to think like everyone else. Listen: The only fact is perception. Whatever
people believe is the truth.”

He leant back and gave a little sigh, his face obscured by a thin wall of long grass. Patroclus was
quiet, thinking about what Achilles had said. There was something wrong there, somehow. There
had to be. Achilles had to be wrong, or else everyone else was. He looked back up at the sky, at its
tremendous, pressing infinity and felt suddenly very small and unsure. Achilles turned his head to
look at him, his lips parted so slightly.

“I’ve frightened you now,” he said softly. “Haven’t I?”

Patroclus gave a nervous smile. “A little bit,” he confessed.

“I’m sorry,” said Achilles. “Ignore me. I’m talking bollocks, as usual. I’m no philosopher, just a
cynical teenager trying to justify himself. I don’t even know what I’m saying. You do that to me,
you know that.”

Patroclus frowned quizzically. “Do what?”

Achilles’ laugh was like a brook tumbling over pebbles. “Mess me up,” he answered, grinning.
“Spin me about. Force me to atone for my countless sins.”

He looked at Patroclus, smiling. It brought creases round the corners of his rock pool irises,
marking the smooth, impossibly smooth skin. There was nothing to do but laugh and smile back.

oOo

After a while of their mutual armistice, Patroclus found himself looking forward to his morning
practices with Achilles more and more. One of the reasons for this was that the atmosphere
amongst the slaves had been somewhat…chilly of late. Patroclus was well aware what the cause
was, as was anyone within a mile radius of Leptine or Pamaia.

The day after the trip to the agora, Amyntor had sent Pamaia down to their quarters to make her
permanent home and introduce herself to the other slaves. As usual, Leptine was given the task of
making the new arrival welcome due to her famous sunny disposition and warm temperament.

If Patroclus hadn’t known better, he’d have said Amyntor had the wrong girl.

As Leptine rounded up the other slaves she looked as though she were thinking hard on whether or
not to hit someone with a brick. Her face was set and stony, her mouth was a thin, pursed line and
her eyes were hard and steely as flints. She stood at the steps with her arms folded across her chest,
her chin jutting out in a gesture of dismissive pride as the new arrival curtsied and beamed.

“So,” she tossed sharply. “Where did you say you were from?”

Pamaia smiled at her and the whole room issued a little sigh. “Libya,” she answered. Her voice was
husky and soft, like embroidered silk yet smooth and deep. When she spoke the word it sounded
like a prayer.

“Libya,” repeated one slave in amazement. “But that’s…well…that’s far away!”

“It is,” Pamaia agreed. “Very, very far. And it feels further still.”

She gave a little wistful look to somewhere very, very far off. Beside him, Patroclus heard a breath
hitch in the boy’s throat. Leptine scowled.

“Pamaia,” she began.

“Oh, please call me Mai,” interrupted Pamaia.

“Pamaia,” said Leptine. “What did you do before? Back in Libya, I mean.”

“I was a dancer,” Pamaia replied. “I used to dance for lords and kings all over the country. I was
requested for all their parties, festivals, ceremonies. Any occasion, I would be happy to serve. Such
parties! You must imagine, these men. In all my life I have never seen such cloth. Such finery…
gold and silver brooches…beads like drops of fire and water…the celebrations would begin in the
afternoon, when the air was just a little damp, and then would not stop till the next night. The
music never stopped playing…it plays in my head still…”

Leptine rolled her eyes as at once the slaves began to clamour Pamaia for more stories, descriptions
of her home country and all the fabulous balls and banquets she had danced. Later while Leptine
and Patroclus were in the kitchen preparing the evening meal, she spoke to him crossly.

“You know what that means, don’t you?” she snapped.

“What?” asked Patroclus, absentmindedly examining an oddly shaped bulb.

“When she says she’s a dancer,” said Leptine. “You know what that means.”

“I had a notion it had something to do with moving in time to music,” replied Patroclus.

Leptine glared at him. “Don’t be coy,” she said. “‘Dancer’. It’s just one of those stupid terms men
use to make the profession more acceptable. So they can come home to their wives and look them
straight in the eye when they say it. Dancer. Gods, that’s a good one.”

“What’re you on about?” Patroclus sighed, rubbing his eyes tiredly.

Leptine slammed the knife down through an onion and the whole table shook. “She’s a whore,”
she said.

Patroclus raised an eyebrow and surveyed his friend. Her face was grim and set, yet decisive. And
the enthusiasm with which she sliced the onion let him knew she was not in a mood to be argued
with. Yet, once again, his scepticism got the better of him. “And you’ve just decided this now, have
you?”
“I haven’t decided anything,” replied Leptine crossly. “It’s as plain as the nose on her face. She’s a
whore, and a badly disguised one. Why else do you think Amyntor got so excited when he got
her?”

Patroclus thought back to the other day where, while out running errands, he had overheard the
overseer boasting loudly and elatedly about the bargain price he’d got on Pamaia to his friends. He
remembered his fevered words and the way the other men had laughed like donkeys at the lewd
gestures he’d made when describing her. He shrugged. “Ok, maybe she had her…duties…back
wherever she came from. So what? That’s no reason to be cruel to her.”

Leptine looked wounded. “I am not being cruel to her.”

“No of course not,” Patroclus answered sarcastically. “You’ve been the epitome of warmth and
welcoming. Hestia herself would have blushed.”

Leptine did blush; a fiery flush of anger colouring her nut brown skin with pinkish irritation.
“Okay,” she huffed. “So I haven’t exactly been the Hearth of Hospitality recently. I’m sorry, I
just…there’s something off about her.”

A wry smile twisted Patroclus’ lips. “Not her virtue, surely?”

Leptine fixed him with a black-eyed glare so piercing Patroclus almost put a hand on the table to
keep his balance. “No,” she snarled. “But there’s something else. Think about it; Amyntor
wouldn’t just buy a so-called “dancer” on a whim to indulge his own lusts and what use has Peleus
got for another palace slut? Mark my words, that girl is here for a reason. And sooner or later it’ll
come out.”

She looked back down at the table and resumed focus on chopping carrots for the stew.
Unconvinced, and more than a little amused, Patroclus decided to change the subject and the two
moved on to less sensitive topics of discussion.

But as time passed soon there was no denying it. Regardless of Pamaia’s previous history or past
profession the effect she had on King Peleus’ household was undisputable. Everywhere she went,
whether she was practicing dances for upcoming festivals or just carrying a pitcher of water
through a hallway heads turned and eyes strayed after her. When she entered a room the air
changed, became warm and promising and when she left there would be many left lingering after
the door. The twitch of her rosebud lip was all promises, a sidelong glance of her smoky-dark,
almond-shaped eyes was a secret just for you and even her suggestive stride and slowly swinging
hips were enough to drive men into a maddened frenzy.

Soon not just the slaves but the whole palace was rustling like leaves in the wind, full of whispered
stories about the dark eyed Libyan dancer who with just one look could turn a man insane.
Wherever Patroclus went there was a new tale about her, a new myth, and sometimes in the dead of
night he would hear the word repeated softly, whistfully, almost like a prayer, Pamaia. Pamaia.
She was a scent in the air, a silk scarf in a curtained room and everybody wanted to be near her in
the vain, desperate hope that she might move and brush against their arms, or else it was enough
just to see the candlelight dancing on her golden skin and in her long, dark hair.

Patroclus was, of course, aware of what was going on around him. Drills with the other boys passed
in worship of her slim waist and breasts, “like two ripe pomegranates,” as one exclaimed and
everyday Deiomachus and Leonides were thinking up new strategies to get her on her own. But to
him she was more of a story than anything else; a golden myth dreamed up by men, with little
foundation to it but structure enough to pass the time. Until one morning.
He had been in the process of a beautiful dream (of which he was not certain of the details, but he
was pretty there had been a blonde boy throwing food) when he was jolted awake by the deafening
blast of a messenger horn, accompanied by cymbals, millimetres from his ear. Eyes watering and
hands clamped over his aching eardrums he sat up and seized the culprit who turned out to be
Loras, on orders from Achilles to wake Patroclus up “in an as annoying a way as possible.” The
prince wanted to meet him for a fight before breakfast.

So, pumped with fury and a desire to hurt, Patroclus had been on his way to meet him when he
noticed Pamaia in the distance. She was standing in the middle of the corridor, carrying a batch of
fresh linen and looking horrified around her. Patroclus waved.

“Hello,” he said in what he hoped was a friendly and approachable manner. “Are you alright?”

“No,” she and Patroclus saw shaky tears, like tiny pearls, threatening to spill from her eyes. “I’m…
sniff…I think I’m lost.”

At once Patroclus felt a surge of pity as he looked at the poor girl, alone and terrified in the marble
halls. He put an awkward hand on her shoulder. “Don’t worry,” he told her gently. “I used to get
lost all the time. It’s a big house for such a small country. Where are you headed?”

“Lady Thetis’ room,” she answered, bottom lip shaking. “They tell me I’m to be her handmaiden…
but I don’t know where to find her. I’ve never even her face.”

Patroclus shook his head. “Nor I,” he replied. “And I’ve been here longer than you have. But I
know where her room is. Follow me, I’ll show you.”

“Gods bless you,” murmured Pamaia, wiping her eyes. “Thank you so much!”

“No problem,” replied Patroclus, thinking with a smile about a time not so long ago when he’d
been in exactly the same position.

Patroclus set off for the route he and Achilles had taken a few weeks ago, Pamaia moving subtly as
a ghost beside him. As they walked Patroclus found himself observing that she really was very
pretty, even with her eyes red from crying and tears still balancing on the ends of those long lashes.
The way she glanced hesitantly around her, so gently vulnerable made him feel suddenly very self-
conscious and by the time they arrived at Thetis’ room he found he was quite a lot warmer, and he
didn’t think it was the stairs.

“It’s just here,” he gestured lamely at the door, inlaid with a swirling pattern of seashells. “I’m
sorry, I don’t know how to get in…”

“It’s alright, I have a key,” said Pamaia, reaching into her bodice. Patroclus looked away sharply,
strikingly aware of the heat creeping up the back of his neck.

She opened the door and at once the warm, herby scent of the goddess’ bedroom enveloped them.
Pamaia set the linen next to the bed and turned to face Patroclus. “I am indebted to you,” she said,
dropping a curtsy and lowering her eyes in respect.

“Not at all, not at all,” Patroclus coughed awkwardly. “No problem. Happy to do it.”

“If there is ever any way I can repay you,” she continued, eyelids fluttering like butterfly wings.
“You must let me know.”

“Wha-? Oh! No! That really won’t be necessary,” Patroclus cringed, face glowing red as a skillet
on a fire. “I…just…Happy to help. You can find your way here now? For..um…ever?”
Pamaia gave a little giggle which sounded like silver bells. “Yes, I think so,” she replied coyly.
“Thank you, Patroclus.”

“No problem,” said Patroclus again, looking at the curtains covering Thetis’ bed and wondering if
it would be incredibly antisocial if he were to hang himself with them. “Any time. Um…how do
you know my name?”

Pamaia gave another little smile, a smile that seemed to give so much yet tell so very little. “Your
reputation for kindness presides you,” she said.

With that she closed the door. And Patroclus, who was not quite sure where his brain had gone,
found himself standing there ten minutes later, still staring at it.
 Clynsonymus

“So I hear this new girl’s causing quite a storm,” said Achilles, throwing a sword.

“You could say that,” replied Patroclus, catching it. “She’s all anyone can think about. People keep
turning corners hoping that she’ll be there, or telling stupid jokes just to hear her laugh. No one can
work with her in the room. It’s like she’s put a spell on the place.”

“Wow,” Achilles raised his eyebrows. “I’ll have to request a wine-serving sometime.”

Patroclus made a non-committal sound. For some reason, completely irrational, the thought of
Achilles meeting Pamaia filled him with dread.

The sword Achilles held was a blunt, heavy thing. He surveyed it interestedly, testing the weight.
“Do you think she’s pretty?” he tossed casually.

Patroclus shrugged. “Yeah.”

Achilles’ glance was full of mischief and there was a glint in his eye when he grinned. “Is she
prettier than me?”

Patroclus blushed and tried not to let his eyes stray to Achilles’ cornfield-yellow hair, pulled back
with a strip of leather from which a few strands had slipped and now framed his face with almost
elegant grace. He tried not to stare at the fine delicate bones of his face and jaw, the hollow of his
cheekbones and firm point of his chin. He dared not wonder over that beautiful body, all subtle
muscle and restrained power moving like rippled water under wind and gleaming like molten gold.

“I swear it Achilles,” he murmured, tracing over the perfect, bow-shaped mouth, pricked in a
teasing smile. “Of all Phthia’s maidens, you will ever be the loveliest.”

Achilles let out a hiss and thrust at Patroclus with the sword. Laughing, Patroclus dodged out the
way and parried it with his own. Achilles scowled. “We’ll see who’s the maiden,” he said, holding
the sword in front of him challengingly.

He thrust again and this time Patroclus was slow. The sword caught him on the side and he winced,
knowing that if it had been sharp and not a practice weapon Achilles might well have wounded
him. He responded by aiming for Achilles’ left thigh but he was too quick, blocking the clumsy
attack and responding with his own.

“You realise I could kill you in a second,” said Achilles conversationally as they fought.

“Oh really,” Patroclus scoffed but inside he didn’t dare doubt it.

“Really,” replied Achilles and with sudden, inhuman movement he dodged Patroclus’ sword blow
and gave a tremendous leap, his weapon aiming for the side of Patroclus’ neck. Gawping and
caught completely unawares, Patroclus dropped his sword just as Achilles mimed slicing through
his jugular. Then, as he landed, he felt his arms wrap around his neck.

“Haha,” grinned Achilles, holding him in a headlock. “You’re dead.”

Patroclus squirmed but Achilles held fast. He punched him in the stomach, feeling the hard plane
of abdomen but he just laughed and tightened his hold. He tried grabbing his legs and flipping him
round but Achilles saw him coming and moved out the way of his flailing arms.
“Let me go, arsehole!” he cried, voice muffled against Achilles chest.

“Now, now,” Achilles scolded him. “You’re not playing right. Corpses don’t talk.”

“Achilles,” whipped a sudden voice, loud and abrupt like the bark of a dog. Patroclus looked up
over Achilles’ arm and just as quickly wished he hadn’t. Mynax was standing a few feet away,
hunched like an enormous boarhound, his ham-like fists clenched and slack, axe-split mouth
gawping stupidly. Patroclus motioned for Achilles to let go but to no avail. The prince spun round
angrily, still holding onto Patroclus’ head.

“What?” he snapped.

Mynax gestured behind him. “The others wait for you,” he said. “Remember? We were to go
hunting this morning.”

“I’m busy,” said Achilles. Patroclus stamped on his foot.

Mynax’s icy blue eyes flickered from Patroclus’ face, peeping out from the tight grasp, to
Achilles’. They widened, then narrowed. His slack mouth grew slacker. “My lord-” he began
again.

“-Gods’ teeth,” Achilles swore, releasing Patroclus who fell back onto the grass with a soft thump.
“I’m coming, alright? Can you morons not manage without me for one minute?”

Mynax made a little bow but his eyes were fixed on Patroclus and when he spoke there was a new
malice in his voice. “As you wish my lord,” he said softly, then turned and walked away.

Achilles sighed and shook his head tiredly. “Morons,” he said again. He looked at Patroclus, his
expression reluctant. “I have to go,” he said apologetically.

Patroclus picked up the sword and made out like he was examining it. “Have fun killing things.”

Achilles grinned, slipping a fallen lock of hair behind his ear. “I’ll think of you,” he replied.

Patroclus stuck out his tongue and Achilles laughed. “See you later,” he said and turned to follow
Mynax across the field.

Patroclus watched him go, heels flashing as he ran, and couldn’t help but hope that had been a
promise.

oOo

He had not been lying when he’d told Achilles about Pamaia. Rather than her novelty wearing off,
as Leptine had coolly predicted, it was burning brighter than ever. People couldn’t work with her
around; it was all Patroclus could do to keep staring at the floor when people began to talk about
her in his hearing. She was infectious and whatever it was, it was catching fast.

The worst part was, ever since their encounter on the way to Thetis’ room Pamaia seemed to have
taken a particular shine to her “hero” as she had started calling him. Whenever she caught sight of
Patroclus doing his rounds she’d give a shy flutter of her fingers. If she saw him rounding a corner
she’d wait so that they could walk together. She told everyone who would listen how “gentle
Patroclus” had saved her on that first day, alone and confused in a strange new place when he had
swooped down, like a messenger sent from Zeus, to guide her.

Flattered and touched, Patroclus did little to discourage her and instead maintained resolutely to be
as nice as possible. Despite her many admirers Pamaia seemed to have few real friends and
Patroclus only had to think back to how it had been before he had crashed into Leptine so long ago
to know how that felt. She was beautiful yes, but she was also frightened and lonely and while
Aphrodite could put a sparkle in her eye and a swing in her hips there was very little she could do
about that.

One morning they found themselves together, polishing the walls of the Great Hall. Amyntor had
ordered Leptine to make rounds and check which areas of the palace were “up to standard”,
although why he did not say. In any case, Patroclus and Pamaia had a bucket of soap suds between
them and a sponge in hand and very soon they found themselves in conversation.

“But you’re a man,” observed Pamaia with wonder in her eyes as Patroclus sifted dirt from the
marble with practiced ease. “How are you so good at this?”

Patroclus laughed, wringing brown water from the flannel. “I’ve been here a while. And I had a
good teacher.”

Pamaia wrinkled her nose with disdain. “In my country, the women do the housework. There are
other jobs for men. Cleaning hay. Carrying heavy loads. Looking after horses. Things like that.”

“Yeah well,” Patroclus shrugged, far too well acquainted with himself and Achilles’ taunts to have
any delusions of macho-ness. “You certainly won’t ever see me dancing in any case.”

Pamaia giggled and tossed her long hair over her shoulders. Patroclus saw it reflected in the soapy
puddle, like a rainbow in oil. “I think you’d make a wonderful dancer,” she grinned.

“Trust me,” said Patroclus. “You don’t want to test that.”

Pamaia laughed again and Patroclus smiled, happy to sacrifice assumptions of his masculinity if it
put her at ease. He snuck a look at her from the corner of his eye as she sat back to scan the Great
Hall.

“It’s so strange here,” she said with a little sigh, eyes wondering over the dank dark of the hall. “So
cold.”

Patroclus, thinking of the sun on his back during afternoon drills thought “cold” was the last word
someone would use to describe Phthia. But he remembered the smothering warmth of the South
and how the northern countries with their green-grey seas had seemed a frightening contrast when
he’d first arrived and knew that wherever Pamaia came from it had been even hotter.

“You get used to it,” he replied. “Walking around, you get to know every face, every pathway,
every room. After a while even the trees become familiar.”

“Don’t you miss your home?” she frowned, rosebud lips slightly parted.

Patroclus made a funny gesture, halfway between a shrug and a dismissive wave. “I never…” he
began. “I guess I never felt like Opus was ever really my home to begin with,” he replied. “It’s just
the place I was born. It could have been anywhere.”

Pamaia nodded then turned away, biting her lip. Patroclus sat there hopelessly, at a loss of what to
say, how to comfort her. You arse. Of course she’s homesick. She’s been her what, a week? And
here you are talking about how things are so much better now. Dick.

“Hey,” he said awkwardly, motioning with the rag. “You missed a spot.”
Pamaia turned slightly. “Where?”

Patroclus dipped his fingers in the soapy water and flicked. A few suds jumped from his hands onto
Pamaia’s chiton. She squealed and retaliated, flicking water into his eyes. He responded with the
rag and she returned with the bucket.

Soon the whole corner of the Hall was a massive puddle with Patroclus and Pamaia sitting in it like
two islands, soaking wet and still flinging water at each other. Suddenly the double doors opened
and their heads flew up automatically, fearing Amyntor or worse. Then, seeing who it was,
Patroclus relaxed.

“Leptine,” he greeted her. Then he pointed at Pamaia. “She started it.”

Pamaia let out a sound of protest, instantly silenced by the look Leptine sent her. “Pamaia,” she
said in a voice of forced civility. “Amyntor wants you on bunting. I’ll take over from here.”

Pamaia gave a little nod and left the room, a string of tiny bubbles trailing after her like a necklace
of silver beads. The second the doors had closed behind her, Leptine’s polite expression slipped to
be replaced by a dark scowl.

“I see you two are getting on well,” she said with a nod towards the giant puddle pooling around
Patroclus’ knees.

“She was homesick,” Patroclus defended himself. “I was just trying to cheer her up.”

“Oh I think you’ve already cheered her up quite a bit,” Leptine sighed, shifting her skirts gingerly
as she tried to find a dry place to sit down.

Patroclus frowned curiously. “What do you mean?”

Leptine made a clucking sound of impatience with her tongue. “She asked to work with you
personally,” she replied.

Patroclus’ frown deepened. “Why would she do that?”

The look Leptine gave him made him feel like a small child who had just asked a very stupid
question. It also made him instantly aware of the answer. Despite himself, he could not help but
feel a little pleased. “Well,” he said warmly. “I’m flattered. She could have her pick of the whole
palace, the king included…then again, can’t say I blame her…they don’t call me Patroclus Adonis
for nothing…”

“No one calls you that,” said Leptine irritably. “And to be honest, I think you could do much better
than that…hetera...”

“You only hate her because she’s beautiful,” Patroclus pointed out.

“You only like her because she’s beautiful!” Leptine snapped furiously, eyes flashing and cheeks
glowing crimson. “Anyway, I don’t hate her. I just don’t trust her. There’s a difference.”

Patroclus shook his head, perplexed. Leptine was at her most self-righteous and he knew when she
was like this, as passionate as she was, it would be difficult to reason with her. “You have no
reason to distrust her,” he told her logically.

“Really?” she raised an eyebrow. “Patroclus, the moment she arrived her everything’s changed.
Look around. The whole palace is dribbling for her. She’s even got you under her spell.”
“Dear Gods on a mountain,” Patroclus rolled his eyes up to the heavens. “You know what I think?
I think you’re jealous.”

Leptine’s face morphed into a mask of indignation, her mouth opening and closing like a fish
caught out of water. Patroclus leant back in satisfaction and waited patiently for her defence. He
remembered them having a similar conversation, not so long ago, the protests and the objection.
Only this time the roles were reversed.

“I am not jealous,” she said finally and decisively. “I’m just…concerned…that what we’ve let in
through the front door won’t come back to bite us. You men act far more quickly on pride than you
do on intelligence and more often than not it’s we women who have to pay for it.”

Before Patroclus could reply the doors of the Great Hall flew open once again, letting in a gust of
air that swept ripples over the puddles of water. Leptine jumped up at once and lowered her eyes to
the floor while Patroclus stayed sitting. “Speaking of great pride and little intelligence,” he said as
Achilles walked in.

Achilles looked at him solemnly. “Patroclus,” he spoke seriously with paternal concern. “You
really need to stop being so down on yourself. Start recognising your skills and abilities rather than
focusing on your flaws.”

Patroclus shook his head amusedly, smirking, while Leptine looked confused. “Is there anything I
can help you with, my lord?” she asked tentatively.

“No, no, don’t trouble yourself,” he replied dismissively. “I just need to borrow Menoitides here a
moment. Won’t take long. An hour or so. Or three. Whatever.”

Patroclus exchanged a glance with Leptine who gestured for him to follow. “Go,” she said gently
and motioned to the little flood at their feet. “I’ll clear this up.”

Patroclus murmured his thanks and followed Achilles out of the gloomy chill of the Hall into the
sunshine. For some reason the prince was in a good mood for he walked with a spring in his step,
thumbs tucked into the belt wound loosely round his waist. Patroclus watched him warily. Since
their official “ceasefire” there had been no more dupes, tricks or practical jokes from either of them
or Achilles’ friends. However, Patroclus could not help but feel a sense of apprehension as he
looked round for whatever task Achilles had wanted him for and saw nothing.

“What do you want me to do?” he asked, scanning the area for hay to sift or bottomless cauldrons
to fill.

Achilles yawned and stretched, the belt slipping a little further down his abdomen as his torso
lengthened and contracted. “Nothing,” he answered. “I’m bored. Let’s go climb a tree.”

Patroclus blinked in disbelief. Achilles yawned again and cracked his knuckles. He was bouncing
slightly on the balls of his feet. “Are you serious?” Patroclus demanded. “I have work to do!”

“Work is boring,” groaned Achilles, scratching the back of his neck. “Come. Play with me.”

“I can’t,” Patroclus shook his head. “I’m going back inside.”

He turned to go when the flash of Achilles’ hand on his wrist stopped him. “Wait,” he spoke. The
word escaped his lips like a prayer whispered through a thin reed and Patroclus felt his heart leap
inside his chest. Achilles glanced behind him, as if to check that no one was listening, and bent his
head forwards slightly. “Patroclus,” he said, skipping each syllable like stones across a lake.
“Please.”
There was a purity in his voice, the kind Patroclus could sometimes make out after they had fought
and were laying on the grass, taking in the afternoon, or that night when they had spoken by the
sea’s edge with the tide licking their feet. There was a purity in his voice and his eyes begged with
the sweet desperation of the heart-wrenchingly lonely and Patroclus felt all his inhibitions melt
away as he beheld that face and those eyes and that voice. “Okay,” he said.

oOo

Achilles took him to the woods that grew beyond the grounds of the royal palace where, he said,
he’d spent most of his childhood whenever he was not on the beach. As they journeyed further in
the Cyprus trees grew closer together and the smell of lemon morphed into that of pine, moss and
the damp of the forest floor. Green sunlight cast dappled patterns on the ground and the colours
danced in Achilles’ yellow hair and for one wild moment Patroclus thought he was looking at
Daphne, the beautiful wood nymph who had spurned a god’s advances.

Does that make me Apollo then? The thought came unbidden into his head. Ashamed and fearful,
he pushed it away.

When they reached a glade they started to race. Achilles set up tracks winding through the trees,
from one end of the wood to the other and meeting back in the clear green space. They ran these
laughing and looking constantly over their shoulders to check if the other was behind. It was
Achilles, always Achilles, who finished first and he would stand there grinning at Patroclus, who
was bent over and breathing heavily.

When Patroclus had tired of losing they climbed the trees and dangled from the branches, plucking
fruit from the leaves and pelting them at each other and at midday they sat curled in the leaves, like
two woodland kings watching over their territory. Achilles was eating a fig from the neighbouring
tree. He peeled it with his fingers, sucked the juice off them and let the purple skin drop to the
ground.

“This place looks much nicer now than it did this morning,” he said conversationally.

Patroclus smelt the leafy, green smell of rain on the dirt and smiled. “How did the hunt go?”

Achilles rolled his eyes and bit into the fig. “Not well,” he replied. He was silent a moment,
apparently thinking. Then, quietly he added “Mynax caught a stoat.”

There was something in the way he said it, something in the way his eyes gazed fixedly at the floor
that filled Patroclus with a sense of dread. “And?” he probed.

Achilles sighed. Rubbed his eyes tiredly. Sunk his shoulders as if the burden he carried was too
much for them to handle. “What do you think?” he deadpanned. “He plucked its eyes out while it
was still alive and used them for marbles.”

The way he said it, in the flat, emotionless monotone did little for the abrupt swell of acid bubbling
in Patroclus’ stomach. He closed his eyes against the sickness, suddenly all too aware of how high
up they were. “He needs to go,” he said.

“Do you think I want him around?” rounded Achilles. “But what can I do? Father knows his
family, he wants him to be my hetairoi. I swear, I’d rather go into battle with a fully grown hydra.”

Patroclus looked away. He was thinking about Clysonymus, the boy he had killed over dice. “He
has something broken in his mind.”

“So do I,” said Achilles.

Patroclus shook his head. “You’re not broken,” he said. “I don’t know what you are, but you’re not
broken.”

Neither of them said anything for a while, just sat there, legs swinging from the tree. Birds sang
with high, thrilling voices and darted through the leaves like brightly coloured kites. Below a soft-
downed deer nudged through the undergrowth, nose twitching for berries and Patroclus thought of
Leptine, having to clear up the mess he had made while he sat eating figs. He decided to bring
back flowers.

“Mynax reminds me of a boy I once knew,” he broke the silence before he even knew what he was
saying.

Achilles whipped round urgently. His voice was a whisper. “The boy you killed?”

Patroclus nodded, not even bothering to ask how he knew. It seemed everyone did. But he avoided
Achilles’ eyes, scared of what he would see there. Disgust or hatred and I jump, he thought madly.
“Whenever I see Mynax,” he said. “I see him.”

Achilles gazed at Patroclus and his eyes were full of wonder. He inched along the branch until they
were touching. He put his hand on his shoulder. Patroclus bit his lip and realised he was crying.

“I still can’t sleep,” he confessed. His voice shook like a leaf trembling in the wind.

Achilles’ hand lifted from Patroclus’ shoulder to run through his hair, letting the thick, dark brown
locks slip through his fingers. Patroclus closed his eyes and sighed, leaning into the pressure as his
fingers settled on the base of neck, stroking tenderly. The tears slipped from his chin to darken the
forest floor.

“Patroclus,” murmured Achilles. “Listen to me. You’ve done nothing wrong. Any man would have
done the same in your place. He was bigger than you. You were defending yourself. Anyone can
see that.”

Patroclus shook his head and turned away. “Look at me,” said Achilles. “Look at me.”

He looked. Achilles' gaze bore into him, as if he could open his head like a casket and see into the
darkest parts of his mind. “I would have done the same.”

Patroclus took a shaky breath, and Achilles wiped his face with his sleeve, leaving the other hand
where it lay.

By the time they climbed out of the tree it was evening and the moon, bright and white as a coin
marked their path back to the palace. They said their goodbyes at the gate and went their separate
ways, Achilles to his chambers and Patroclus back to the servants’ quarters. He gave Leptine her
flowers, (yellow, like her ribbon) hugged her and made up his pallet for bed. But even when the
covers were over him and the room was heavy with the soft breathing of sleep he still had not made
his mind up on whether Achilles’ last statement had made him feel better or worse.
 Boundless

He began to see Achilles more often, almost daily. When Patroclus was done with his chores and
Achilles with his lessons the two would slip from the palace grounds, onto the beach or into the
forest and spend the rest of the day in blissful freedom, fighting or playing it made no difference;
the lines had already been blurred for a long while. Achilles showed him things; the ingenious little
traps he’d invented and built for animals, the best spots to search for wild mushrooms and hickory
nuts, how to move so silently not even the sharpest deer would raise their nose. In return Patroclus
taught him a little of herb lore and the names and functions of the plants that grew around the base
of the trees and surprisingly, Achilles learned fast and with fervour.

In those crisp mornings or sweltering afternoons they also learned about each other. With each
fight, conversation or play-wrestle they opened up a little more, giving up a part of themselves
piece by piece to the other, as if their souls were labyrinths and with every passing day they gained
another fragment of the route. At first Patroclus was guarded, tentative and kept glancing at
Achilles while he talked as if trying to judge his reaction. But as time went on he found himself
speaking more comfortably of things he had not allowed himself to think, things he had suppressed
into the deepest reaches of his mind.

Achilles was open, off-hand and talkative, as though the things he spoke of were as of little
consequence as the fish in the streams. But then suddenly he’d break off, frown, and stare half-
accusingly at Patroclus saying “I’ve never told anyone that before.”

And Patroclus would smile, half-teasingly, and reply, “Guess I’m not just anyone.”

It was a good time, the best of Patroclus’ days in Phthia and often after the two had been
swimming and were laying in the sun to dry he would trace the beads of water running off
Achilles’ golden limbs and think he’d never been so happy. Other times he’d watch as Achilles,
hidden within the green cage of a tree jumped and pounced on an unwitting forest creature, sliced
its gut and showed him its skin, grinning, and he felt slightly sick, ever so slightly afraid, and more
than a little desire.

Achilles was competition. He was forever trying to outdo himself, casting his ability off as a
limitation, his skill chains that prevented him from always being better. So he set up courses, tracks
and targets and tried to beat himself and when he did he would let out a victor’s yell of triumph and
strut around like a prince peacock for the rest of the day, as if he had just vanquished a long
standing rival. He would always make Patroclus go against him and whether it was who could run
the furthest in a minute or who could hold their breath longest underwater Achilles always won and
celebrated. Sometimes Patroclus thought Achilles made him compete just so he could watch him
win.

One morning, Achilles woke Patroclus up and took him to the beach. From there they climbed the
pale grey rocks that littered the shore’s edge higher and higher until they reached the cliffs,
Patroclus moaning all the while, Achilles snapping at him to shut up and trust him.

“This is stupid,” Patroclus grumbled, stubbing his toe on a loose rock. “The sun’s in my eyes.”

“Then fucking blink,” Achilles snarled. “We’re almost at the top.”

Patroclus squinted past Achilles’ ascending figure to where the cliff face curved into a plateau, the
flattened summit spiked with clumps of dry moss, like a few sparse hairs prickling from a balding
scalp. He shook his head exasperatedly and followed upwards, his feet and hands clumsy on the
rock where Achilles had been nimble and lithe.

Achilles reached the level first and, having heaved himself up, reached out a hand to Patroclus. He
took it and allowed himself to be pulled up, gingerly regaining his balance as a rush of the wind
made him suddenly aware of how high up they really were. Looking down the sea seemed so very
far away, a flat expanse of blue-green that glimmered with studded diamonds of light across the
surface. He looked back at Achilles. He was grinning wildly, wickedly, and the shining sea pooled
in his irises.

“Jump,” he commanded.

Patroclus gawped at him. “Are you crazy?” he exclaimed. “I’ll break my neck!”

Achilles shook his head. “You won’t,” he said. “Come on. It’ll be fun. You’ll enjoy it.”

“I enjoy my spine,” Patroclus replied. “Have you seen how high up we are? If the fall doesn’t kill
us the water will.”

“It’ll be fine,” Achilles insisted, rolling his eyes. “Trust me. I’ve done this, like, I don’t know. A
hundred times.”

Patroclus eyed him suspiciously. Achilles looked nonchalant and casual, as if he were asking him
to take a gentle dip in the river rather than jumping off a fifty-foot cliff. For some reason this
troubled Patroclus more than it reassured him. “You’ve done this before?” he asked cautiously.

“Yeah,” Achilles nodded, brushing his wind-blown hair out of his eyes. “Used to be one of my
favourite pastimes when I was a kid. My mother, she’d sit there,” he pointed to an indistinct blob of
brown Patroclus assumed was a rock. “And cheer me on.”

“And you say your parents are separated,” Patroclus murmured, glancing below him with a sense
of mounting nausea. The cold morning blew upwards from the salt spray into his face as he
imagined falling down, down, the sea rushing up to meet him as his limp arms scrabbled
desperately for something to hold on to. He shook his head.

“No,” he stated. “No way.”

Achilles fixed him with his most challenging stare. “Patroclus,” he said seriously. “Don’t be a
pussy.”

Patroclus huffed and turned away, crossing his arms defiantly over his chest. Achilles sighed and
then, softly as the breeze, took a step closer; his chin hovering just above his shoulder so that they
were almost touching. “Imagine,” he murmured, lips barely parted. “Taking the leap. Imagine
gravity falling away from you, like a heavy cloak, as soon as your feet leave the rock. Imagine
falling with no concerns, no limitations. Just falling through that cold, blue space between sky and
earth. Boundless. Ceaseless.” His eyes were wide, wild, and bearing with an ethereal intensity. His
mouth, so close. “I swear, the second you jump, you’ll wish you could fall forever.”

Patroclus looked back down. The sea roared in his ears, his face stung with the morning chill. The
waves curled onto the shore like a crooked finger, smiling at him, beckoning him. “You trust me?”
asked Achilles. Patroclus nodded. “Then jump.”

For you, then, thought Patroclus, recalling broken fragments of a reprimand given by his mother so
long ago. Something about if all your friends jumped off a cliff. He shook it from his mind and
closed his eyes. He took a deep breath. He jumped.
As soon as his feet left the rock he felt all his fears, inhibitions, anxieties leave him like a shift
shaken into the wind. There was only the rush of cold, pounding like blood in his ears as he fell, his
heart hammering in his chest until he thought it would break. But if it did, he thought, it would not
matter. Surely there was no greater way to die than this. He fell through that cold, blue space; the
wind and the sea screaming in his ears and the sound of Achilles’ mad whooping sparked the
realisation that never, never had he felt more alive and more a part of this world, never had the
blood pumped through his veins so fast, not even in the most electrifying fights had the adrenaline
zapped through him like a shock, making him scream with the pure, terrifying thrill of it all…

His legs broke the surface of the water, drops spraying in his face as if he had fallen through a plate
of shattering glass and he felt himself become immersed as it pulled him under. He opened his eyes
and all he saw was green, dark and foreboding and this is it, he found himself saying, this is where
it ends.

Then, with an abrupt lurching movement, he was pushed up like a bobbing cork, his arms and legs
thrashing frantically as he struggled to regain control. He spun round in the water until he was
facing the cliff. The plateau jutted out from its side, a towering Titan of grey rock, glaring, beaten,
down at him. Patroclus laughed insanely and whooped into the air just as a loud splash a few feet
away announced Achilles’ arrival.

“I missed your jump,” said Patroclus, swimming over to him.

Achilles turned, long hair gleaming and plastered to his skin, his eyes shining bright with adrenalin.
“That’s okay, I saw yours,” he replied. “How was it?”

Patroclus felt the grin split his face, huge and unrestrained. “Amazing,” he breathed. “I felt like I
was flying. Like I was a God.”

Achilles beamed back at him. “I know,” he said. He pointed at the cliff. “Fuck, look how high we
were! Not bad for the first time.”

Patroclus frowned, the words falling like heavy stones upon his numb ears. “…First time?”

Achilles was smirking. His face, combined with the understanding slowly dawning on Patroclus
mixed in his gut into sudden, burning fury. He lashed out with all the restraint of a young kraken,
diving at Achilles who bobbed instinctively out the way. “YOU ARSEHOLE!” he screamed.
“YOU TOLD ME YOU’D DONE THIS BEFORE! WE COULD HAVE DIED! YOU COULD
HAVE KILLED ME!”

Achilles just laughed, tempestuous, unrestrained, hair shining like liquid gold and Patroclus,
through his anger, found that he was laughing too, laughing like a madman as he dived after
Achilles into the waves.

oOo

An hour later they rolled with the tide back onto the shore. Sodden and shivering, their footsteps
made silvery tracks in the sand as droplets of water slipped from the ends of their soaking hair and
trailed after them in little dark spots. The buzz of the fall was only now just beginning to wear off
and strangely, although goose bumps had erupted all over Patroclus’ flesh it was as if someone had
lit a fire inside him and it’s embers now glowed with a comforting warmth, spreading rosily from
his chest into his stomach.

Beside him Achilles was skipping. He had rolled his chiton down to his waist and was squeezing
water out from the cloth. “Bet you’re glad you got up this morning,” he declared.
“You’re a testicle,” answered Patroclus.

Achilles snickered. Beads of water trailed down the muscles of his arms and shoulders, rolling off
like splaying light from his limbs. “Come on,” he said. “You’d never have gone for it otherwise.
And don’t tell me you didn’t enjoy it.”

Patroclus ignored this, for there was no denying the fire in his belly, nor the way his face glowed
like the sunrise. “Regardless,” he began. “You could have killed us both.”

Achilles shook his head. “I knew we’d be fine.”

“How could you know that?”

“I just know,” he stated stubbornly. “I have a knack for these things. Anyway, I’d have never asked
you to if I wasn’t sure.”

Patroclus glanced at Achilles, squeezing his chiton dry with ease and guessed this “knack” had
something to do with the way he always knew where falling fruit was going to land or exactly
when to strike a hunted animal or how to move so imperceptibly you’d have sworn he was
invisible. He shook his head in surrender and decided there were some things he was better off not
asking about.

They walked back across the beach shoulder to shoulder to aid the sun in warming their bodies.
Once they’d reached the palace, Achilles turned to Patroclus, scratching the back of his neck self-
consciously.

“So tomorrow’s my birthday,” he stated.

Patroclus tried not to let the surprise register on his face. “Oh,” he said.

“My father’s having this party,” Achilles continued, wrinkling his nose in distaste. “Just an excuse
for a massive piss-up in diplomacy. Some People Of Great Consequence will be there so they can
tell me how tall I’ve grown and how I look so much like my father and how last time they saw me I
was only up to their bloody shins or something. And there’ll be a lot of showing off of how much
gold and lentils Phthia has and maybe someone will bang out the harp and it’ll be hard to imagine
that nothing at all could be so exciting. Anyway, you should come.”

That explains the bunting, thought Patroclus, remembering how hard Amyntor had been working
the slaves recently. “I’ll be there anyway, won’t I?” he pointed out. “You know, pouring wine,
serving wine, spitting in the wine, that kind of thing.”

Achilles shook his head ardently. “I don’t want you there as my slave,” he said and an emphatic
passion rounded his words. “I want you there as my guest.”

He said it so flatly, so bluntly yet it did not present the heat rushing through Patroclus’ veins to rise
into his cheeks, nor did it dissuade the inevitable squirm of pleasure in his stomach knowing that
Achilles wanted him there, wanted him not because it was expected or because his father told him
so but because without him he knew he would once again be made a victim of his boredom.
Patroclus gave a wry smile, feeling suddenly blissful. “Well,” he said. “Seeing as you’ve sold it so
well.”

Achilles grinned, eyes shining as he slipped a fallen lock of hair behind his ear. “Tomorrow
evening then,” he stated, turning to go. “Don’t forget!”

“I won’t,” replied Patroclus over his shoulder, heading back to his quarters.
It soon transpired however, that this would have been impossible. How Patroclus had missed the
blatant and screaming symptoms of an upcoming event he had no idea, especially as for the next
few hours Amyntor had upgraded from tyrant to complete sociopath, taking to standing at the top
of the stairs and bellowing orders through a piece of hollowed shark bone which reverberated
round the palace and struck anyone within a few paces with deafening ear ache. Unfortunately,
Patroclus’ invitation did not excuse him from his servant’s duties and he and Leptine found
themselves shooting from room to room mopping floors, polishing marble and hanging
decorations, complying to Peleus’ every whim and Amyntor’s every command.

By the time the two were instructed to go over an enormous mosaic with a toothpick, Leptine was
feeling pretty resentful of the prince. “I can’t believe this,” she muttered, scratching dirt from the
tiles with unnecessary vigour. “You know, I bet he’s sitting in his room now, pouring over his silk
chitons and wondering whether to wear his hair straightened or curled.”

“Mmhmm,” Patroclus responded.

“Or he’s parading through the grounds,” continued Leptine. “Whip in hand, exercising his skill as
an overseer. Strutting like a bloody peacock, ‘did you know my mother’s a goddess?’ ‘did you
know I’m a prince?’ ‘did you know it’s my birthday?’ Well Happy birthday, Prince Narcissus. I
hope it’s bloody worth it.”

“Mmmhhhmmm,” answered Patroclus.

Leptine cast him a quizzical look. “You’re pretty quiet,” she observed. “Usually you’re the one
who can’t criticise him enough.”

Patroclus shrugged, conscious of the puzzling expression on her face. “I suppose I’ve just…grown
up a bit since then,” he replied ambiguously.

Leptine raised her eyebrows in mock-admiration. “Oh have you?” she said, the hint of a smile
tugging at her lip. “And when exactly did you undergo this spurt of maturity?”

“I don’t know,” muttered Patroclus stubbornly. “I’ve just been thinking recently that maybe…
possibly…we might have misjudged him. A little.”

Leptine’s eyebrows disappeared into her hair. “Those are words I thought you’d never say,” she
declared wonderingly. “What changed your mind?”

Patroclus shrugged again, uncomfortably aware indecision was becoming a habit. “He’s just…
different,” he explained feebly, trying to find words for the teasing warmth of his smile or the way
his hand had clasped around his with such easy reassurance as he’d pulled him to the top of the
cliff. “Something’s changed in him. I don’t know. Maybe he’s grown up to.”

He looked away, blushing, and refocused on scratching the dirt from a particularly interesting
looking tile, Leptine’s searching gaze burning into the back of his neck. At long last she yawned
and stretched and he felt the relief of her lifted scrutiny. “Well I’m glad you two seem to have
sorted out your differences,” she told him. “Surprised, confused, but glad. I just wish I could see
the same evidence of his ‘change’ as you do.”

“You don’t see it?” asked Patroclus, taken aback.

Leptine shook her head. “No,” she said bluntly. “I don’t. If anything he seems worse, what with the
party and his officially becoming ‘a man’ and all. He’s as selfish, conceited and full of himself as
ever. In fact, the only thing that seems to have ‘grown’ about him is his head.”
Patroclus forced a laugh and quickly changed the subject. There was no way he could explain to
Leptine that it was all his imperfections; his pride, his arrogance, his vanity that made him so…
well…perfect. How could he make her understand the pure, innocent joy in Achilles when he
discovered some child’s thing; an ant hill or a bee’s nest? Or the way he could spin whole tales
from words with an airy coolness, as if he did not even realise the beauty of what he had just said?

“Patroclus?” spoke Leptine softly, snapping him out of his daze. “Are you alright?”

Patroclus blinked. The world was suddenly all at once very bright and very hazy. “Yeah,” he
murmured. “I’m fine.”

Just fine.

oOo

Tomorrow evening came much sooner than Patroclus would have liked. Before he knew it the
whole palace was bustling with the anticipation of Achilles’ party, five minutes later it was dark
and Patroclus was tearing through his chest of possessions trying to find something to wear.

He had no idea why he was so nervous. This was Achilles, not a complete stranger from a far off
land or some heroic legend who had once laced Hercules’ shoe. He pulled out a green chiton, the
colour of spring grass and yanked it on over his head. It had been a favourite of his in Opus and he
supposed it would do well enough now.Glancing at himself in Leptine’s hand mirror he quickly
attempted to flatten the hair that stuck up round the back of his ears; it sprung back up resiliently
and he abandoned it, heading over to the Great Hall with a sense of mounting dread.

He heard the sound of music playing a long way down the corridor and as soon as he stepped in he
felt repelled by the sheer force of it; lutes and lyres, harps and drums playing with enough volume
to wake up half the Underworld. But as loud as the music was, it did little to drown out the
suffocating sounds of conversation that swelled through the room so that the very walls seemed to
pound.

Patroclus’ eyes scanned through the room, past Cleitus who was already lying in a paraplegic
muddle on the floor, being plied with wine by a servant girl to where Achilles sat, brooding in the
corner. His eyes lit up as Patroclus approached but his scowl did not shift, even as he sat down next
to him.

“Steady my lord,” Patroclus jested. “Calm yourself. You don’t want to go too hard too quickly.”

Achilles tossed him a dark look. Up ahead Phoinix was dancing, stark naked but for a string of
grapes around his neck, a doting female on each arm. “This is the worst evening of my life.”

“The worst evening of your life so far,” Patroclus corrected him. “Besides, what are you
complaining about? Look at all the presents!”

He pointed in the direction of a coffee table, groaning beneath the strain of gold and silver; dishes,
plates, tripods and amphoras glittering with pearls and precious gems. Achilles looked dismissive.
“Blood money,” he answered disdainfully. “You should have seen them all. Each one came up with
their father’s, went down on one knee and offered me a gift, like I was the king of fucking
Olympus. They each had a speech prepared. Like, an actual speech for Gods’ sake.”

Patroclus smirked, picturing the guests dropping their gift and running with Achilles’ insults
ringing in their ears. “So you won’t be upset if I told you I didn’t get you anything?” he asked.

Achilles shook his head. “Your being here is enough,” he replied simply. “Otherwise I swear I
would go mad. I may still go mad. Oh fuck, there’s Tyrus. And he’s got a tapestry.”

Patroclus followed his gaze to where one of Achilles’ friends stood on a table, a tapestry hung
around his neck like a feather boa. Achilles groaned and reached for his goblet. “Drink up,” he said
grimly, raising the wine to his lips. “It’s going to be a long night.”
 Symposium

The party stretched on long into the night. Considering the state of some of the guests within the
first hour Patroclus thought this was quite an achievement, however as time wore on it soon
became clear that the room was swelling. News of the festivities had spread and the Great Hall was
becoming packed with more and more guests; nobles, friends, slaves, even commoners who had
been drawn to the music and the laughter like insects to a wobbling flame until even the walls
strained at the seams. The cheer grew swollen and fat, the guests laughed louder and the goblets
and decanters felt much lighter.

Achilles and Patroclus sat in the corner of the room, watching the events unfold with detached
amusement. Through the fog of gyrating hips, spilled wine and pouring jewels Patroclus had the
distinct feeling of being within and without, an objective onlooker surveying the room with vague
but superior interest. And with Achilles beside him, in his gilded chair with one foot thrown over
the arm and a supercilious look on his face, he felt like a young God passing judgement on the
mortals.

However, he had taken Achilles’ advice literally. From the moment he’d entered the room to the
second Phoinix had restarted his strip-tease he had been sipping steadily from his goblet. And by
the time the celebrations had reached their peak, he realised he was quite drunk.

“What’s the ratio of this?” he asked, peering quizzically into the inky-black depths.

Achilles shrugged. He had been drinking too, not so much as Patroclus but enough to make his
eyelids droop slightly and a pale pink flush begin to creep across his cheeks. “Three,” he drawled.
“Four. Hundred.”

Patroclus shook his head. “You’re just saying words.”

Achilles snickered. His long hair had become dishevelled and fell in messily elegant waves, giving
him the look of someone who had a very tortured and mysterious past. He lifted his goblet to his
mouth and a tiny drop of wine clung to his lower lip. His pink tongue darted out to lick it off and
Patroclus felt something twitch within him.

“Let’s play a game,” said Achilles suddenly.

Instantly Patroclus was on guard. “What kind of game?”

Achilles picked up his goblet and wiggled it suggestively. Patroclus groaned. “Really?” he
protested. “I’m so drunk.”

“Not drunk enough,” retorted Achilles. “Come on, there are several hours of torture to endure
before we can leave and still be polite.”

Patroclus rolled his eyes. “Fine.”

Achilles refilled their goblets to the brim while Patroclus watched morosely. He had only ever
played one drinking game in his life and it had ended in murder and exile. The look of maniacal
delight in Achilles’ eyes as he handed Patroclus his goblet did little assuage his concerns. “Here’s
how it goes,” Achilles began in a business-like manner. “I will give a statement of something I
have never done. If you have done it, you drink. If you haven’t, I drink.”

Patroclus bit his lip. The alcohol made him feel sluggish and stupid and he wasn’t sure about how
he felt about confessing his life’s secrets to his previous arch nemesis. But Achilles’ face was
shining with excitement and in any case, he was far too lethargic to argue. “Fine,” he said
reluctantly.

Achilles smiled mischievously. “I’ll start,” he said with almost professional enthusiasm. “I have
never thrown up in public.”

Patroclus grimaced and took a drink. Vomiting in public was one of the worst things a prince could
do, displaying the weakness of an heir’s stomach and character. Achilles tut-tutted at him. “Were
you young?”

“Unfortunately not,” replied Patroclus with a sigh. “I was twelve. I was being introduced to these
ambassadors and my father…he kept poking me, kicking me, making me stand up straight,
etcetera. It was humiliating. So in the end I grew so uncomfortable with the situation I forced
myself.”

Achilles let out a peal of violent laughter. Patroclus blushed but couldn’t help but smile at the truly
awful memory. “It was not my proudest moment,” he admitted. “Okay. My turn. I have never seen
a God.”

Achilles rolled his eyes and drank. “Oh yeah,” groaned Patroclus, mentally cursing himself. “I
forgot about your mother.”

He shook his head. “I’ve seen others too,” he replied. “For my fourteenth birthday mother took me
to the place where all the naiads hang out. And I’m pretty sure I caught her talking to Artemis this
one time.”

Patroclus nodded, unable to suppress the envy rising up inside him. For years he had prided himself
on his piety, (his outward piety anyway) and the closest he had ever come to the divine was his
hands on the boy sitting opposite him in a Goddess’s bedroom. He decided he would use this
opportunity to find out more about Achilles’ other life in his next question.

“Right,” said Achilles, wracking his brains. “I have never told a lie.”

Patroclus looked at him, aghast. “Yes you have!”

“Well, not a direct lie.”

“What never?” Patroclus gaped as Achilles shook his head.

“I told you,” he said. “I’m morally impeccable.”

Patroclus scoffed and drank deeply. Achilles sniggered as he set down his goblet with a slam. “I
have never been to the Underworld,” he stated defiantly.

Achilles raised an eyebrow. Hesitantly, he took a sip. Patroclus’ eyes widened. “So it’s true?” he
gasped. “About your mother holding you in the Styx? That you’re…” he swallowed.
“Indestructible?”

“Well, I don’t know,” Achilles shrugged. “Mother says I am. She also says father raped her and
that before me I had seven siblings who died and that I am, in fact, my deceased elder sister
reincarnate. Which is why she dressed me up in skirts for the first four years of my life and called
me ‘Aikaterine’. She says a lot of things.”

He took a drink absently while Patroclus stared, in a state of semi-shock, trying to comprehend the
idea that this was a being whom, quite possibly, could not be killed. Achilles however did not
appear to notice his distraction for he was busy forming his next question. “Excluding each other,”
said Achilles finally, after what seemed like an eternity. “I have never wanted, with the whole of
my being, to kill someone.”

Patroclus closed his eyes and took a drink. Achilles looked stunned. “Clysonymous?” he asked.
“But that was an accident.”

Patroclus shook his head tiredly. “No,” he answered. “My father.”

Achilles’ mouth formed a little “o”. Patroclus gave a wan, sardonic smile. “You would too,” he
assured him dully. “If you’d known him.”

Conscious of Achilles’ eyes on him he took another drink, suddenly desiring it. “I have never told
anyone any of this before,” he said and was oddly delighted when Achilles did not drink.

“I have never…” Achilles began cautiously. “Prayed to Aphrodite.”

He snuck a look at Patroclus from the corner of his eye. There was a hidden implication in the
question, and they both knew it. But Patroclus left his goblet untouched. Even if he did have cause
to pray to the Goddess of love, she was far too fickle to test his luck.

Following from that Patroclus asked his next question, his heart slamming against his chest as he
did so. “I have never done…more…than kiss a girl,” he said, then added quickly, “On the mouth.”

Achilles looked at Patroclus steadily. Then slowly, heart-wrenchingly slowly, he reached for his
goblet. As his lips closed around the rim Patroclus felt as though someone had wrenched their fist
into his gut and was steadily unravelling his intestines. Achilles drank and placed the goblet back
on the armrest. Who was she? a voice in Patroclus’ head roared. Neither of them said anything.

Suddenly the corner of Achilles’ mouth twitched. The tell-tale sign for trouble. The crack widened
and then he was smiling with terrible malevolence. “I have never,” he said, drawing the words out
like a jeweller placing beads on a thread. “Gotten so pent-up from a fight that, straight after, I
decided to go to my room…and let off a little steam…”

Patroclus’ brow furrowed as he ran Achilles’ words through his mind, then slowly, slowly
comprehension dawned on him and he felt his eyes widen in shock and horror. “I am not answering
that!” he yelped.

“That means you have!” yelled Achilles ecstatically, pointing accusingly and with a kind of
psychopathic excitement.

“It does not!” Patroclus protested. “It doesn’t, it means I refuse to answer such a…a…personal-”

“-If you hadn’t then you could have just not drunk,” Achilles reasoned and Patroclus cursed his
own stupidity.

“No, I just...” he tried desperately to think up an excuse but Achilles’ detestably smug, knowing
look was doing very little for his calm. “I just…refuse to respond to your…immature and…
childish…childish…”

“Hey now come on,” Achilles laughed, slapping him playfully and infuriatingly on the shoulder.
“Don’t worry about it, I know plenty of guys who need a little…release…after a good fight…very
common, perfectly natural-”
“I don’t,” Patroclus sputtered, trying not to think about the number of times he had lain awake at
night, tracing over the bruises Achilles’ fists had left on his body and imagining his lips brushing
over them, and how his hand would always move automatically between his legs. “I make no
comment.”

Achilles was still smirking. “Fine,” he said. “If you won’t answer the question then you must do a
forfeit.”

Resigned, Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “What do you want me to do?”

“I don’t know,” Achilles shrugged. “Do something daring. Surprise me.”

He leant back in his chair, his foot jiggling up and down on the seat as his eyes swept the room,
like those of a hawk. The musicians had struck up another tune, this one languid and slow, and
there were girls now; dancing girls with flat stomachs and smouldering eyes whose slender wrists
flicked like curling smoke to the beat of the drum. There were hoots and catcalls as they trickled
out into the room, the cheers of old and young men alike louder with every flash of thigh.

Patroclus looked at Achilles, slung over his throne as if by accident, morose and brooding and dark
as a prince of Hades. He looked at his messy hair and his heavily lidded eyes and his full, red
mouth, ripened with wine and he felt desire take him, seize him with a sudden, desperate urgency
and a power so strong and sure that for a moment he knew nothing else. Do something daring,
Achilles had said. So Patroclus did the most daring thing he could think of.

Patroclus leaned forward. Achilles’ eyes flickered towards him beneath long lashes as gently he
took his chin in hand, so close that Patroclus could smell the grape on his breath. Heart hammering
and with a rush of current Patroclus turned his face towards him. And kissed him squarely on the
corner of the mouth.

It was a chaste kiss, almost brotherly. But the moment Patroclus’ lips left Achilles he felt instantly
frightened, and watched his reaction with painful anxiety. Achilles looked taken aback but not in
shock. The corners of his mouth twitched in a surprised smile.

Patroclus fell back into his chair, drained. “More wine, I think,” he declared, staring glumly into
his empty goblet. He cast distractedly round the room, desperately looking anywhere but at
Achilles until he spotted a slave girl carrying a tray laden with decanters and waved her over
excitedly.

“Leptine!” he called, instantly forgetting the events of two minutes ago in his delight. “Over here!”

“Good evening, my lords,” greeted Leptine, observing the two with a sort of wry amusement. “I
see you’re enjoying the celebrations.”

“Achilles,” said Patroclus, grasping Leptine’s hand. “I would like to introduce…the best goddamn
person in the whole fucking Cosmos.”

“Hello,” said Achilles with a clumsy wave, tipping the last dregs of his goblet into his mouth.

“Actually we have met before,” giggled Leptine but Patroclus was tugging on her hand.

“The best goddamn person,” he repeated. “The nicest, cleverest, prettiest girl the Gods ever made.
Leptine. Hey. Leptine. Did you hear me? I said you’re the prettiest girl in the world. Did you hear
me? Did you hear what I said?”

“Yes Patroclus, I heard,” grinned Leptine patting his hand, her cheeks glowing. “Thank you.”
Achilles looked unhappy. “Why is she the prettiest girl?” he grumbled. “I’m way more pretty than
her. I could be a girl.”

“Stay with us,” Patroclus implored, tugging at her skirts. “Siddown. Have a drink. Play the game-”

“I can’t,” replied Leptine regretfully. “I have to go serve. But you have a good night okay? Both of
you.”

Patroclus nodded and gestured at his cheek. Dutifully, Leptine bent down and kissed it, ruffling his
hair as she stood back up. Achilles pulled a face and another as she walked away.

“Is she not the best goddamn person,” Patroclus drawled at her retreating figure. “Is she not the
best fucking prettiest, loveliest girl who ever lived.”

“No,” said Achilles.

Patroclus watched Leptine as she made her way around the room, filling goblets and making polite
conversation with every drunken wreck sprawled untidily across the hall. She bent down to fill
Mynax’s glass and he saw how he looked at her, his empty blue-grey eyes calculating her slender
waist and breasts. She walked away and Mynax’s eyes followed her and Patroclus felt a cold thing
slither down his back.

But before he had a chance to say something, Achilles was grabbing his shoulder and pointing
towards the centre of the room where the girls had started to dance again. “Look there,” he
whispered as a hush fell over the guests. “There. That one.”

Patroclus squinted through the mist of sequins and glittering crop tops, settling on a girl who was
quite obviously the leader of the group. Her glossy black hair lay loose on her shoulders, her flat
stomach exposed to the heat of the room. She danced and she held the room transfixed, every eye
fixed upon her body as she moved sensuously to the music.

“Is that the girl you were telling me about?” asked Achilles. “The other day? Pamaia, was it?”

Patroclus nodded, unable to tear away from those languidly roving hips. “Yup,” he replied dully.
“That’s her.”

Achilles’ mouth slackened and gawped. Pamaia caught him looking and tilted her head back, her
arms above her head as she rocked her hips slowly back and forth. The drum beat quickened and
she moved faster, as if she and the music were one, bending and extending like a ribbon in the
wind. A thin sheen of sweat had appeared on her golden thigh, around the room the men were
watching with their mouth’s hanging open, wine dribbling into their laps.

Patroclus scowled, leaning back in his seat with his arms crossed over his chest as Achilles
continued to stare, as if caught by some enchantment. He glanced around for Leptine but she had
gone, he supposed to the storeroom for more wine. Pamaia had started to moan and her hands were
ceaseless over her stomach and torso. He nudged Achilles, “I’ll be right back.” Achilles nodded but
gave no answer, his eyes glued to Pamaia. With a sigh, Patroclus got up and made his way past the
incapacitated bodies, strewn about like corpses.

Look at them all, he thought bitterly. Lords and princes alike. Reduced to animals over a whore in
a bikini. He glanced behind him, seeing with distaste how they had grouped around Pamaia, like
pilgrims round a shrine. Then he frowned, noticing a seat that was empty. Mynax’s seat.
Suddenly a muffled sound came from the storeroom. Patroclus froze, one foot in mid-air. The
scuffling came again, followed by a sharp cry and then a flat, echoing sound. Dread heavy in his
stomach, Patroclus forced himself to move. The sounds grew louder with every step until he
reached the storeroom door. He stretched out a hand to reach the handle and wrenched it open.

Mynax was there, panting like a bull in heat. It seemed he was wrestling with something, forcing it
up against the wall as it writhed against his massive, boulder-like arms. Patroclus caught a flash of
brown hair and his heart jumped into his mouth.

Leptine’s skirt was bunched around her waist, her hair a tangled thicket. There were red welts and
scratches along her arms and legs, as if she had fallen into a thorn bush. She turned her head as
Mynax pressed his massive length against her and Patroclus caught the look of disgust on her face.
But in her eyes there was another look, a look which angered and terrified him more than anything
else. It was a look of resignation.

There was no time to think. The storeroom door banged against the wall as Patroclus launched
himself at Mynax, seizing his massive shoulders and wrenching him away. Mynax stumbled
backwards and turned just as Patroclus’ fist collided with his jaw. He staggered and lifted his hand
away from his mouth. Blood foamed from his nose and lip. He looked at Patroclus, the whites of
his eyes glowing like two pits of hell as he spat onto the stone. With a gigantic movement he
grabbed Patroclus’ torso and hurled him into the shelves. There was a clatter of pots and jars as
Patroclus lay there like a broken rag doll. Leptine screamed and Mynax turned back towards her.

“Come here you little bitch,” Mynax spat, saliva peppering his chin. “You think that faggot is
going to stop me from getting to your tight little cunt?”

“Get away from her!” yelled Patroclus from the floor, grabbing a jar and making to throw it.

With a crash the door banged open again, just as Mynax’s fingers closed round Leptine’s wrist.
Achilles’ stood in the doorway, face as hard as a battle god’s and glowing with all the harsh gold of
divinity. “Nekroitides,” he said in a voice cold as steel. “Release the girl.”

Mynax glanced at Leptine, then back at Achilles. “She’s a slave,” he snarled. “She’s mine to do
with as I will.”

“You will do so at your death,” Achilles retorted. “Release her.”

A black look crawled onto his face as he dropped Leptine’s arm. Leptine wrenched herself away at
once, making herself into a ball in the corner like an insect. Patroclus went to her, wrapping his
arms round her tiny form. She was trembling.

“She’s off limits,” Achilles spelled out distinctly. “You will not touch her again.”

Mynax gave an abrupt nod, spitting a globule of blood and saliva onto the floor before making to
leave. Patroclus’ glare followed him out the room and when he turned to look over his shoulder
their eyes met. And Patroclus had to stop himself from gasping, for the look Mynax gave him then
was one he had never seen before and hoped never to see again. It was the look of loathing in its
purest form, such hatred that it morphed Mynax’s face into a mass of writhing ugliness until he was
no longer a boy but something quite different, darker, and altogether more sinister.

And for the first time in a long time, Patroclus felt true terror. Then Mynax left the and all trace off
fear lifted as the storeroom door banged closed once more.

oOo
Leptine spent the next day in her room, talking to no one and letting no one near her. After
checking that she really was physically okay Patroclus left her alone, partially because he
understood her need for solitude and partly because he knew that if he saw her again, so broken
and anguished and fragmented, no one could stop him from acting on his anger. As it was he
walked around with it bubbling in his chest, so close to the surface that he was constantly on edge,
ready to lash out at anyone who happened to be nearby. Twice he passed the barn, leaking with
fresh, dry straw and thought about setting the place alight. They could all burn for letting it happen
to her.

The hangover didn’t help. He’d woken up with his hands clutching his skull, as if hoping to break
it open and release the demons clanging against it. He couldn’t think, couldn’t do his chores. Just
standing was an effort. Finally, when the pain got so much that even Loras had stopped talking
around him, he decided to brew up some willow bark to numb it. However, upon rifling frantically
through the kitchen store he found they were out and was forced to go outside and hunt for some.

It was a cool day, the sky the pearly colour of marble and a slight wind quivering through the tree
branches. Patroclus tilted his head back, letting the breeze pass through his hair and sending a chill
over his skin. The fresh air helped his head and he set off looking for willow with renewed vigour.

He soon found a tree where the bark was damp and green and set off stripping it with his knife.
With the cold air clearing his mind as he began the soothing, repetitive motions he found he was
able to think about last night more clearly, with hindsight. He remembered with a smile the game
he’d played with Achilles and the way they’d sat there getting steadily hammered together,
watching with ill-disguised disgust charades of the people around them. He thought of the way
they’d talked, as if they’d known each other their whole lives and nothing between them was
secret.

He remembered how he had kissed him and he dropped the knife.

Behind him came a cracking sound, like a twig snapping. Instinctively he seized the blade, holding
it out defensively. “Who’s there?” he called out, his pulse quickened, breathing sporadic. He held
his breath as a rustling came from the undergrowth and a figure began to emerge.

“I’m sorry my lord,” came a soft, honeyed voice. “I did not mean to alarm you.”

Patroclus released his breath as Pamaia emerged from the leafy refuge and lowered the knife. There
were tiny petals in her long hair, which fell in loose waves over her chest, and her chiton was
marked with emerald grass stains so that Patroclus though she looked like a wood nymph, emerging
from her floral bower. She gave a shy smile which Patroclus returned, wobbly with relief.

“What brings you out here?” he inquired. “Suffering the aftermath of last night’s festivities?”

Pamaia shook her dark head. “Forgive me,” she murmured. “I…I saw you, and I could not stop
myself.”

Confusion marked Patroclus’ brow. “I…” he began awkwardly. “Did you…follow me here?”

Pamaia nodded and bit her lip, a pretty blush colouring her soft cheeks. When she looked up,
Patroclus saw in horror that her eyes were damp. “I’m sorry,” she whispered. “There is a leash
which binds me to you.”

She took a step forward, her slender torso less than a foot away. Patroclus shook his ardently.
“No,” he stated. “No leash here. Definitely no leash.”
“You cannot tell me you don’t feel it,” she said, the words lifted feather light from her lips. “I saw
you watching me dance.”

Patroclus gulped. Tiny beads of sweat were clinging to his temple and his palms were clammy.
Suddenly the weather was a lot warmer than it had been a minute ago. “I have to go,” he mumbled,
snatching up the strips of wood bark and dashing off without hesitation, conscious of her staring
after him. As he ran he cursed himself; his awkwardness, his embarrassment, his general weakness.
What is wrong with you? he chided himself. Most men would jump at the chance of just getting to
talk to a girl like that. And there she is, practically throwing herself at you. You idiot. You coward.
Be a man, go back and face her.

He thought about how nervous she’d been; her loneliness, her mortification and he felt furious with
himself. His feet faltered on the ground, he stopped running. He turned round, making to head back
to where he had left her.

A flash of blinding pain and he was flung to the ground, the back of his head ringing with impact.
He cried out in shock but the sound was muffled as two hands grasped his throat.
 Thanatos

The thick fingers wrapped around his gullet and began to squeeze. Instinctively Patroclus’ knee
shot up, catching his assailant in the ribs and following swiftly with his foot. The attacker doubled
over, allowing Patroclus to scramble a few inches away where he caught a glimpse of copper red
hair and pale eyes. Mynax’s eyes.

But before Patroclus had a chance to exclaim Mynax’s arm had flown out and wrapped itself round
his ankle. He gave a sharp yank and Patroclus found himself being dragged through the mud;
leaves, dirt and thorns streaking his face as he hurtled backwards. Landing at Mynax’s feet he
attempted to pull himself up but he was too slow; all of a sudden Mynax was on him, pinning him
to the floor as he squirmed and yelped like a farmhand struggling with a badly behaved pig.

He had thrown his whole bodyweight; his massive, hulking form pressing into Patroclus’ torso.
Patroclus gulped for air, feeling like his stomach was being split in two as Mynax leered over him,
broken teeth and pale eyes gleaming. He tried to scream but the sound was muffled as a damp palm
slapped over his mouth. He bit it but Mynax held on, reaching once more for his throat.

The thick fingers looped his jugular. There was a dull pain at the back of his head and Patroclus
felt the breath fail in his chest.. He reached for Mynax’s face, his nails thrashing at his skin and
eyes but the boy held on, pressing him harder into the earth. The ache in his skull was spreading,
there was darkness at the edges of his vision, creeping across like a mist. Bruise coloured and
purple, silver lights were appearing before his eyes and Mynax’s face morphed before him into the
face of the boy he had killed so long ago.

Eyes milky white, bulging and unseeing. Skin fleshy as a bloated corpse. Through broken teeth icy
breath sounded a death rattle. Patroclus’ arms landed limply beside him and he felt his eyeballs roll
back into his skull.

The dark fringed the edges of Patroclus’ sight and everything was bruise-coloured. He felt light
suddenly, as if a great weight had been lifted and he looked around for Charon’s boat, certain he’d
see it steering its way through the black waters of the Styx. But there was no river, only the thick
brown mud in which he lay, sprawled on his back. Then a flash of light, so sudden and golden that
he had to shut his eyes. When he opened them again, the darkness had gone.

With an effort he forced himself to sit up. Mynax had disappeared to be replaced by a large, oddly
shaped boulder sitting in a pool of black mud. Cautiously, he crept towards it. With shaking fingers
and his heart slamming against his chest, he stretched out a hand. It met something soft.

Patroclus pulled and yelled, releasing the handful of tunic. The boulder had turned on his side,
revealing a slack mouth and bulging eyes. Milky white and unseeing. His face peered out blankly
from a shock of copper red hair but it wasn’t that which worried him, rather it was the unnatural
way in which it sat on his neck.

Black mud pooled around pearly splinters of bone, sticking out from the thin patches of flesh. It
streaked a trail across the earth and Patroclus found himself following it, stomach churning as it
wavered and stopped at a pair of dirtied feet. He looked up.

Achilles’ hands were dark. They were balled into fists and Patroclus could see the tendons jumping
beneath his golden skin. There were black streaks across the expensive wool of his tunic. He was
staring at Mynax.
Patroclus breathed and Achilles’ eyes flickered up. They met his gaze and held. And somehow
Patroclus had the distinct feeling that he was staring at a stranger.

Then Achilles’ bottom lip trembled. And as quickly as it came, the feeling was gone.

Suddenly a rustling sound came from behind them, followed by raised voices. Achilles and
Patroclus looked at each other, deathly white. The voices grew louder. Someone was calling their
names. Patroclus turned back to Achilles. “Run,” he whispered.

Achilles shook his head.

“They’ll think it was me who did this,” Patroclus insisted. “All you have to do is let them. You’re
the prince. Nobody cares if I live or die.”

Still Achilles shook his head. Behind them the voices had reached their maximum. Suddenly, a
woman screamed.

“Merciful Gods!” exclaimed Theodorus, Captain of the Guard, as he approached the body. The
king’s guard followed him closely and watched Achilles and Patroclus with condemning eyes.
Behind them Pamaia crouched with her eyes wide and hands clasped over her mouth.

Theodorus leant down beside Mynax, running his fingers over his wrist in search for a pulse. There
was no need, the splinters of bone poking out from what remained of his neck told him all he
needed to know. He closed the boy’s eyes then stood up, looking grave.

“Broken neck,” he declared. “Head snapped sharply to the side, with considerable force judging by
the angle of the bone. Dark patches down the side of the flesh, pressed by fingertips.” He looked
up. His solemn, penetrating gaze rested on the two white faces before him. “This boy has been
murdered.”

The words thudded to the ground at Patroclus’ feet, each one like a weight pulling him down. He
squeezed his eyes shut to blot out the level, judging stare of the Captain of the Guard but all he
could see was Clysonymous’ face, wavering before him. Pointing and laughing. “Which one of you
committed this vile atrocity?” asked Theodorus. His eyes flickered to Patroclus and rested.
“Menoitides,” he uttered. “Your history speaks for you.”

“No,” said Achilles abruptly, stepping in front of Patroclus. “It was me. I did this.”

Theodorus frowned. Behind him the guard were staring, their breast plates straining with
suppressed breath. “My lord?” Theodorus whispered in disbelief.

“That’s right,” nodded Achilles. “I did it. I killed him.”

There was silence except for Pamaia’s quiet whimpers and the resonant beating of Patroclus’ heart.
Even the leaves had stopped rustling and now perched, attentive and rigid with anticipation.
Theodorus was still frowning, trying to read Achilles’ face. Achilles stared back levelly, expression
blank. Finally, after an age, he spoke. “I suppose you’d better take me to my father.”

oOo

The walk back to the palace was the longest Patroclus had ever experienced. Despite Achilles’
confession the guard had insisted on treating him like a convict; his hands were tied behind his
back and two guards flanked him either side. Achilles was led by the shoulder and from the way he
was wincing Patroclus guessed the guard’s grip was tight. However, his hands were loose and he
was able to walk freely, a ridiculous injustice but Patroclus was too frightened to feel even faintly
resentful.

People stared as they approached. They cut across the market square and eyes followed him like
those of Argos, the monster watchman. One woman whispered to her friend, her finger crooked at
Patroclus. Shame coursed through him, he glanced at Achilles but he was still staring forward, his
face a terrifying blank.

Leptine was standing with a few other slaves at the palace gates, her head lowered demurely as the
Guard swept past. Catching sight of Achilles and Patroclus she frowned, taking in the splashes of
dark blood across their tunics. Her eyes widened.

“Send word to King Peleus,” Theodorus spoke to the slaves in an undertone. They obeyed at once,
running off in the direction of the king’s quarters. Leptine gave Patroclus a fleeting look from over
her shoulder; he tried to smile back reassuringly but the muscles had frozen in his face.

At long last they were escorted inside. The heels of the Guards’ boots slapped against the marble
floors and to Patroclus it seemed they echoed louder than usual, the corridor was colder, the
hallway darker. The pillars supporting the high ceiling loomed down at them, casting judgement
with their long shadows as they reached the door to Peleus’ study.

The old man was sat in his chair, half-hidden under a blanket of thick grey furs thrown over his
knees. He looked tired and feeble and as they entered the room he gave a sorrowful sigh that rattled
inside his skinny chest.

The door closed behind them and Achilles sank down abruptly onto one knee. “Father,” he
murmured without looking up.

Peleus stretched out a thin, papery hand. Achilles clutched it and pressed his lips to the large, egg-
shaped ruby stone that shone from his index finger. Peleus gave a thin, melancholy smile as
Achilles raised his head and met his father’s gaze. A silent exchange passed between the two of
them. Peleus’ withered palm brushed his son’s cheek and Patroclus knew then, that regardless of
whatever happened next, at least by one person he had been forgiven.

“Rise my son,” he said in his clear, powerful voice.

Achilles stood up, his face chalk white. All trace of familiarity was gone; Peleus’ expression was
stern and grave. “I have received word,” he began severely. “Of a most terrible crime committed on
my grounds by a member of my own household, no less. Now, had this information not come from
one of my most trusted Guard, I’d have had his tongue cut out for spinning lies and falsehoods.
But, as it is, I have no option but to trust his word to be true. A boy lies dead, and they tell me at
your hand.” He leant back in his chair, fingers folded in his lap as he surveyed Achilles. “What
have you to say to these allegations?”

Achilles did not reply but continued to stare at the floor. Peleus waited patiently but no words
came. At last Patroclus cleared his throat. All eyes shifted towards him. “If I may my lord-” he
began hesitantly.

“Quiet,” snapped Theodorus. “Hold your tongue!”

“It’s quite alright Captain,” Peleus stopped him gently. He gestured for Patroclus to continue.
“Speak.”

“Thank you my lord,” Patroclus inclined gratefully. “I was just going to say…it’s not Achilles’
fault. He was protecting me. Mynax…Nekroitides…he attacked me. I would have died had
Achilles not been there to stop him.”

“So you bore witness to this tragedy?”

“I did, sir.”

“And you say he was acting in your defence?”

“He was sir,” Patroclus nodded, unable to prevent the embarrassment flushing crimson into his
cheeks.

Peleus’ eyes, like clear water, narrowed. “Are you unable to fight your own battles, Menoitides?”
he questioned sharply. “Are you so helpless or reliant that my only son must risk his life and
freedom to come to your aid?”

“He is neither,” spoke Achilles suddenly.

Peleus’ head snapped round to face him. “Explain yourself then,” he commanded. “If Menoitides
here is perfectly capable of defending himself, why was it necessary for you, a prince of Phthia, to
throw away everything for an exiled slave?”

“Mynax had the upper-hand. He would have killed him.”

“And his life his worth more than yours? Do you have any idea what you have jeopardised? By
your actions you have prepared yourself for banishment or execution!”

“You would rather I let him die?” Achilles whispered. “Is that the sort of king you would have
your son be?”

For a second, Patroclus thought Peleus was going to hit him. He was breathing hard and his nostrils
flared with each exhale like an enraged bull. There was a long silence. Finally Peleus sighed and
leant back in his chair, rubbing tiredly at his rheumy eyes. “No,” he said at last. “You have done
exactly what I would hope and expect of a leader of our country,” there was a twinkle in his eye.
“And you have acted exactly as I would have, when I was your age. But unfortunately, that counts
for little. The dead boy’s parents will be here in the morning and they will not be forgiving. They
will demand recompense. Your birth and status will not protect you from their wrath.” He fixed
him with penetrating scrutiny, his clear blue eyes at their most intense. “You alone must face up to
your actions.”

He beckoned to Achilles who came forward reluctantly. Peleus smiled and clasped his shoulder.
“Gods willing you will come out of this a man,” he said.

Achilles said nothing.

oOo

And Achilles said nothing even after they had left the room. He was silent as Theodorus escorted
them back downstairs and instructed them they were not to leave the palace complex until after the
trial, which would take place the next day. He did not touch the food offered them and as soon as
the Guard’s back was turned he took off, sprinting across the fields and into the grounds, leaving
Patroclus alone to ponder morosely on the day’s events with an increasing sense of despair.

Luckily he was not by himself for long. As soon as the Guard gave him leave to return to the
slaves’ quarters he was met by Leptine who immediately pulled him into a secluded corner and
demanded he tell her all that had happened. Patroclus told her while he ate and watched the
emotions flicker across her face from disbelief to shock to anger.

“But there’s no way they can sentence him?” she protested. “Not for defence of an innocent?”

Patroclus shrugged helplessly. “I don’t know,” he replied. “Peleus will do all he can but by now
Mynax’s parents will be braying for blood. Hopefully they’ll let him off with a lenient
punishment…servitude or the stocks…but if he’s found guilty of murder…”

Leptine’s hands smacked over her mouth. “Not execution?” she whispered with wide eyes.

Patroclus shook his head. “Very unlikely,” he said. “No, banishment’s much more probable. A
couple of years’ exile to the northernmost regions. Of course, he’ll probably starve or freeze to
death, what with the winter coming. That’s considering he’s not killed and eaten by wolves or
wildmen. And he’ll never fight for Phthia, or make the Myrmidon army, or become king.”

“And for him that’ll be worse than death,” murmured Leptine. “What are we going to do?”

“What can we do?” Patroclus responded dully. “The king can’t even guarantee his own son
protection. If my word ever counted for anything, it certainly counts for very little now.”

“So you’re just going to leave him to the dogs?” said Leptine incredulously. “After what he did for
you? After what he did for me?”

“I never said I would leave him, I just don’t know what-”

“You would be dead if it wasn’t for him!”

“Gods Leptine, do you think I don’t know that?!” cried Patroclus, the wood used to board up the
holes in the walls. “Do you think I haven’t been running that through my mind every single
fucking second? I owe him my life, Leptine. I was attacked and I didn’t even have the fucking
willpower to defend myself. Do you know how I felt when I saw the blood running down his
neck? When I heard the bone snap? I was relieved. I was fucking relieved.”

He looked at Leptine and his eyes swam with bitter tears. “What sort of a man can say that?” he
whispered. “What sort of a man needs his friend to risk his life and soul for him? I’m useless. I’m
pathetic. And now Achilles is the one to pay for it.”

Leptine shook her head ardently, grabbing Patroclus’ wrist. “Don’t say that,” she said. “Never say
that. This is not your fault. Mynax was a psychopath. He was out to get you from day one. And if
not you, it would have been someone else. Achilles was just at the right place at the right time. He
saved you because he cares about you. You would have done the same for him.”

“He shouldn’t have had to make that decision,” Patroclus insisted. “I should have done it.” He
remembered Achilles’ carefree smile, glowing with youth and arrogance and innocence. He
remembered his childish bravery, his daring immaturity as he dived from the cliff-face. He
remembered how his bottom lip had trembled as Mynax’s blood dripped down his fist. He closed
his eyes. “I should have been the one to kill him.”

Leptine’s hand closed round Patroclus’. She clutched it tight. “What’s done is done,” she told him.
“You’re alive. That’s all that matters.”

Patroclus shook his head. “It’s not,” he said stubbornly. He stood up, releasing himself from
Leptine’s hold. Her hand dropped limply to his side as he turned away. “I have to see someone,” he
said and left before she could ask who.
Achilles was still missing. Word as going round that he had run off to escape trial. There was even
a rumour that someone had seen him walking into the sea to seek sanctuary with his mother and her
people. Patroclus knew they were lies. Achilles would not seek to escape his punishment but face it
like the man his father expected him to be. Just one of the many differences between us, thought
Patroclus bitterly as he charged down the hallway. As he searched Peleus’ words echoed in his
head, like a mocking song: Are you unable to fight your own battles, Menoitides?

“Achilles?” he called out into the alcoves and crevices of the palace. “Achilles, where are you?
Achilles? Ach-oh!”

He had walked straight into someone, a person, heading the opposite way. Taking a step back he
realised, with a sinking feeling, who it was. “Pamaia,” he murmured. “I’m sorry.”

“Not at all young master,” Pamaia answered with a graceful curtsy. “Forgive my clumsiness, I
wasn’t looking where I was-”

“-I don’t mean just for that,” Patroclus interrupted quickly. The events of the morning had instilled
in him a new determination. He took the girl by the hand and led her into an alcove. Pamaia went
willingly, confusion darkening her beautiful features.

“Earlier you told me something,” he said, fumbling over his words in haste. “You said you felt…
bound to me.”

Pamaia nodded slightly, the light brown of her skin glowing cherry-blossom pink. “I am too bold,”
she answered. “Forgive me my lord, I know that I am not worthy-”

“-No,” Patroclus cut across her. “No, don’t apologise. I was just very…surprised…at your
declaration. My reaction was discourteous and I am sorry for offending you. It’s not what I
intended.”

Her eyelashes flickered, like the wings of a bird, her inky eyes enigmatic. She was so beautiful and
Patroclus found himself drawn to her as they stood together in that tiny space. Her lips, so slightly
pasted, the subtle curves of her body so close. He thought about the way she had danced last night
and felt instantly warmer. She noticed, the corner of her mouth pricking into a teasing smile.
“You’re words are so practised,” she said softly. “Like a gentleman of a court. But I can see into
your heart.”

She lifted her finger and placed it on Patroclus’ chest. He felt his pulse quicken as she trailed it
downwards, his skin rising with the heat of her touch. “You desire it as much as I,” she said.

She was really very close. Patroclus could count the tiny freckles dotting the bridge of her nose. He
could smell her too, the engulfing, tantalising scent of rich perfume and spices. He gulped, thinking
of how he had ran from her and felt instantly ashamed. Are you unable to fight your own battles,
Menoitides? A real man would not hesitate. A real man would push her up against this wall and
take her now, take her and leave her screaming his name…

“You want me,” Pamaia was whispering in his ear. “Take me.”

Her perfume was heady. It crept up his nostrils, stinging his throat, choking him like a noose made
from a silk scarf.

“Not now,” replied Patroclus. “Tomorrow night. After the trial.”

Her smile was like a forbidden door, suddenly swung wide open to reveal the light behind him.
“Tomorrow then,” she promised. “Don’t leave me waiting.”
And as quickly as she had appeared she had gone, sweeping off down the hallway like a feather in
the wind. Patroclus peered out from the alcove, clutching the back of his skull. He had suddenly
been struck with a very painful headache that knocked irritatingly, like something he had forgotten.
He headed off down the corridor, Pamaia’s perfume still clinging to his throat.
 Homer

Hours later and nobody had seen Achilles. Patroclus, nervous and shaky from his run in with
Pamaia, had thrown himself into the search with almost aggressive determination, anything to
distract his mind from the intrusive closeness of her body and the cloying scent of her perfume. He
walked around the palace calling out Achilles’ name but his skull was buzzing with thoughts of her
body and her hair and the promises they had made in a darkened alcove.

But what was worse, he found, was that when she drifted into his head it was not accompanied by
feelings of lust or excitement. When he remembered his pledge to her, when whispers of tomorrow
night followed him through the corridors it was not with breathless anticipation that his heart began
to beat a little faster. The idea of her, stripped and naked and gleaming, her long nails digging into
his torso and back and his stomach churned inside him. He pictured her beckoning to him, her dark
hair falling in waves across the swell of her breasts, and he felt a little sick.

What is wrong with you? he found himself thinking furiously. She wants you. You’ve got her. Now
be bloody happy about it.

A sensible argument. Yet there was an inquisitive little voice at the back of his head which raised a
valid point: But do I want her?

Yes, was the plain answer. He couldn’t deny that he was attracted to her. The effect she had on
him, on every man, with her slow oscillating hips and seductive smile couldn’t be ignored. But for
some reason the idea of being withher filled him with terror.

But “Tomorrow night,” he had said to her. Those were the words. And they were words he
intended to keep. For the sake of his own dignity, if nothing else.

“Any sign of him?” he asked Ampelius, catching sight of the drill instructor striding down the hall,
mammoth eyebrows bristling.

“None,” came the reply. “We’ve looked all over the palace. He’s not in his chambers or his
classrooms or any room in the building.”

“Have you searched the grounds?”

Ampelius nodded. “We’ve sent out a search party to scout along the beach,” he replied. “So far,
nothing.”

Patroclus chewed his lip anxiously. Ampelius looked troubled. “Perhaps,” he began hesitantly.
“We should be looking a little further than the grounds.”

Patroclus shook his head emphatically. “No,” he said. “He wouldn’t do that. He wouldn’t run.”

Ampelius sighed heavily, as if his massive shoulders could not quite support the weight of his
troubles. “I hope you are right,” he said grimly. “All the worse for him if you are not.”

He walked away, shaking his head dejectedly. Patroclus tried not to think about that he was wrong
and Achilles had escaped. Because if that was the case then the trial, if there even was one, would
be little more than a formality.
Of course, he reminded himself, they’d have to catch him first.

That was a point. Suppose he’d made it. Suppose he’d made the getaway and was already trekking
his way North through the mountains, or whisked away to safety by his mother in a cloud of ocean
mist. Patroclus pushed the thought away, feeling suddenly cold all over. Somehow the possibility
of Achilles having left forever without even saying goodbye was an even harder idea to swallow.

The search continued and Patroclus joined with increased anxiety, calling “Achilles” until his
throat was raw. Still there was no sign of him. Finally, feeling exhausted and depressed Patroclus
trooped back towards the slaves’ quarters, just about ready to collapse and stare at the ceiling in
morose contemplation, only to find half a dozen people grouped around his bed talking.

They looked up when he entered the room. Leptine smiled and waved him over, showing him they
were friendly faces. “Any luck?” she asked.

“No joy,” answered Patroclus, sitting down between Deiomachus and Leonides. “What are you all
doing here?”

“It’s alright,” Leptine assured him. “They just want to know what happened.”

The boys nodded eagerly. “The whole place is buzzing with rumours,” Deiomachus informed him.
“It’s impossible to tell the truth from the bollocks.”

“Is it true that Mynax jumped you?” asked Quintos fearfully. “Like, genuinely attacked you?”

Patroclus rubbed his eyes tiredly. “Yes Quintos,” he replied dully. “Mynax genuinely attacked me.
In fact, I think it might have been the most genuine attack I’ve ever experienced.”

“I told you,” Andros rounded on him smugly. “He bribed a wood nymph to tell him when Patroclus
came along, then hid in the trees with a crossbow and a kitchen knife.”

“So why did he need to spring out on Patroclus then, if he had a crossbow?”

“Clearly it stalled, you know those things are faulty. And then Achilles came along and killed him
before he had the chance to load it.”

“Knife between the ribs, as I heard it,” nodded Leonides.

“No,” Loras shook his head. “He punched him straight through the windpipe. Left a hole right
through the trachea. That’s right, hey Patroclus?”

“I heard he reached into his chest and pulled out his heart,” stated Calisthenes. “He was holding it
in his fist, still beating when they found him.”

“What happened, Patroclus?”

“Yeah, tell us Menoitides.”

They all up looked at him expectantly. Patroclus took in their shining eyes and faces, eager for all
the gossip, all the gory details, the mottled flesh and broken bone, the glazed unseeing eyes with
those huge black, dilated pupils, the pearly pieces of shredded marrow. The boys looked at
Patroclus like dogs catching a scent, pink tongues lolling. Each shining, eager face, baying for
blood.

They wanted a story, something they could turn into a song or a ballad to impress strangers and
women. They could never understand what it had been like to be there, to smell the blood still fresh
on the air and mingling with the damp dirt, to see the boy’s life draining second by second from his
still white flesh into the ground. Still, if they wanted a song better it be built on fact rather than
fiction. And so, with a sigh, Patroclus told them everything.

He watched their faces morph as Leptine’s had until they all held identical expressions of horror.
Quintos looked prepared to throw up. “Well,” said Calisthenes. “At least you’ll both get off.
Mynax tried to kill you, Achilles acted in your defence. No one’s going to execute him for that,
right?”

The other boys exchanged glances. Calisthenes looked worried. “Right?” he pressed.

“It’s not…so simple,” replied Stylax. “Mynax’s family are prominent in these lands. They have
their own retainers, big enough to form an army. If that’s not enough of an incentive to keep on
their good side, they’re also filthy rich. They have major influence over just about every institution
and a finger in every pie, including the law.”

“But that’s so unjust!” protested Calisthenes. “Measuring a man’s worth based on a hierarchical
construct. What sort of society would advocate that kind of inequality and social prejudice?”

“Calisthenes,” said Patroclus. “You’re sitting in a slave’s bedroom.”

There was a momentary silence as the boys surveyed their surroundings. The thought occurred to
Patroclus that for the most of them this was probably the first time they had witnessed the true
lifestyle of those on the other side of things, the ones who poured their wine and made their beds
and lit the stoves so that the stone was warm underfoot on bitter mornings. And by the looks on
some of their faces, it was obvious they were thinking the same thing.

“Patroclus,” said Andros suddenly. “There’s another reason we’re here. We’re really sorry about
the cows and Mynax framing you and you being made a slave and all.”

“Yeah, sorry about that,” nodded Stylax. “We should have said something.”

“And we’re really sorry about being such dicks to you,” added Leonides. “Like when I spilt wine
on your tunic.”

“And when I tripped you on the stairs that one time.”

“And I pissed in your breakfast bowl.”

“You did what?!”

“Hey come on, you’re the one who put poison ivy in his mattress!”

“Oh what, some mild itching, at the most. Not, like, cholera!”

“The point is, we’re sorry,” interrupted Deiomachus. “And we want to help. In whatever way we
can.”

The boys nodded fervently, their guilt transforming itself into a keen enthusiasm and Patroclus
could not help but feel touched and a little awkward at such an unexpected display of remorse. He
tried to fix his face into a saint-like look of forgiveness but the events of the morning had taken a
grim toll and he found himself worrying, harder than ever, for Achilles’ fate.

“We have to find him,” he told them. “If we don’t they’ll think he’s tried to evade his punishment,
and that’ll make him look even guiltier.”

“Well, let’s think,” said Deiomachus, tapping his chin with his finger. “If we were Achilles, where
would we hide?”

“The cliffs?” Leptine suggested. “The ones you jumped?”

Patroclus shook his head. “Ampelius said a search party’s been sent to scan the beach, they haven’t
found anything.”

“The stables?” offered Quintos. “He’s fond of horses.”

“Too close to the palace,” said Deiomachus.

“His mother’s room?” suggested Leonides. “No one dares venture there.”

“Pamaia has a key. I doubt she’d withhold it under the circumstances.”

“Wouldn’t put it past her,” scowled Leptine.

“The storeroom?”

“Too small.”

“The basement?”

“Too obvious.”

There was a pause as they sat there, each of them going over in their minds various places Achilles
had every visited, or was ever likely to visit. Then suddenly Deiomachus snapped his fingers.
“Suppose we ask the beggars?” he exclaimed. “You know, the ones who are always hanging round
the gates? Surely they’ll have seen him leave?”

Leptine turned to him, looking incredulously impressed. “That’s true,” she exclaimed, surprised.
“I’d completely forgotten about them.”

“It was just a thought,” replied Deiomachus. “Probably won’t achieve anything.”

“But that’s a really good idea,” Leptine repeated admiringly. “And do you know, I bet no one else
will have thought of that.”

Deiomachus looked pleased. “Well you know me,” he shrugged officiously. “Always thinking
outside the box.”

“Well come on then,” said Leonides getting up. “Shall we go, Patroclus?”

But Patroclus remained seated, completely still as his brain began to whir with sudden revelation,
his mind fringed with cyrpus trees and following a winding path through the undergrowth, the
smell of lemons sharp and then, the subtle smell of pine. He leapt to his feet. “No need,” he stated.
“I know where he is.”

And before the others had a chance to ask he was off, sprinting out of the slaves’ quarters and
through the winding passageways that led to the palace’s backdoor, in the direction of the forest.

Of course, of course, he repeated to himself as he ran, the dark blur of the trees gaining focus with
each fall of his feet. How could I be so stupid? How did I not see it before?
He remembered Achilles’ words to him as, taking his hand, he’d led him through the trees along
the hidden route, secret to all travellers except he, to the spot in the glade where they’d hung from
the branches and pelted each other with figs. He remembered the self-conscious way he’d spoken
of his childhood, showing him all the places he used to hide and play. “This was always my place,”
he’d said, fingers brushing over greens shoots and mossy bark. “People hunt in these woods all the
time…but no one knows its secrets like I do.”

“Achilles,” Patroclus called out, weaving his way past landmark willows in his desperation to
remember the way. “Achilles, it’s me!”

Thorns snatched at his clothes and dragged their heads across his skin, streaking his arms with a
crosspatch of red. He batted them out the way, breaking boughs and branches as he hurried through
the forest. With every shrub and vine his anxiety increased, he looked above him and searched the
leafy roofs frantically for a flash of gold against the russet and green.

“Achilles!” he shouted and birds sprung from their branches into the air. “ACHILLES!”

“Patroclus.”

The voice was a whisper, so quite he almost took it for the rustle of the leaves. Patroclus spun
round wildly and immediately spotted a pair of eyes, wide and fearful, staring out at him from the
bracken.

Patroclus approached him cautiously. He was crouched in the leaves like an animal, his shoulders
hunched over his body and his arms wrapped protectively round his knees. Tentatively, Patroclus
moved the branches out of the way as he crept nearer, suppressing a gasp as Achilles’ face came
into view. He was covered head to foot in thick black mud. It caked his limbs and his chiton and
the creases of his face so that only his eyes showed through the dirt. His long blonde hair was a
tangled knot of black and red for there was blood everywhere, on his clothes, in his hair and,
Patroclus saw with dismay, lacerating the skin of his arms.

He did not speak as Patroclus neared him but flinched at the touch of his hand on his shoulder. “It’s
alright,” Patroclus spoke coaxingly, as if to a small child. “It’s alright, it’s fine, it’s me.”

Achilles did not answer, only stared blankly as he allowed himself to be raised to his feet. Patroclus
touched his hand. It was cold as the earth. He took it and together they made their way back to the
palace.

oOo

The moment they came into view, the small, dark boy emerging from the forest, leading their
prince by the hand a clamour broke out. Servants rushed out of the gates to meet them, covering
Achilles in thick cloaks and whisking him away to his chambers while messengers and couriers ran
to bring the news to Peleus that his son had been found. Patroclus found himself swamped with
various people wanting to thank him, pat him on the back or ply him with questions but he was in
no mood to form any sort of reply or respond to their congratulations. Leptine was waiting for him
at the entrance and together they slipped their way past the throng into a secluded spot near the
stables.

“How was he?” she asked him quietly once sure they were alone.

Patroclus gave a heavy sigh, his head falling into his hands and his knees giving way onto one of
the hay bales. “Bad,” he admitted finally.
Leptine sat down next to him. “Did he say anything?”

“No,” Patroclus shook his head. “Just stared and stared, without seeing anything. He moved like
he was in a trance.”

“He’s in shock,” Leptine told him. “He’s just been through a trauma. Even for someone like him, it
must be difficult to come to terms with.”

“Especially for someone like him,” Patroclus corrected her.

Leptine made a gesture of agreement and the two sat in morbid silence. Patroclus stared down at
his hands. Seeing Achilles like that had shocked him, he who was always confident to the point of
contempt reduced to that vulnerable, broken thing; that mocking light of vitality that was so bright
it could blind you extinguished.

“It’s so strange,” he spoke at last. “That he should hide somewhere only he and I would go.”

Leptine raised an eyebrow. “It’s not so strange,” she replied. “Clearly he wanted you to be the one
to find him.”

She said it so simply, as if the words bore no more significance than the sun on the hay, or a fly
landing on a horse’s back. But if it were so simple, thought Patroclus, if it was such an easy matter
then why, whenever he tried to find him, did it seem that another piece of him was lost?

The day shifted into the afternoon, then the sky was dark and the air humming with moths and
fireflies. Deiomachus had invited Patroclus and Leptine to eat with them in the boys’ chambers and
they talked in low, serious voices about the trial, Leptine carrying most of the conversation for
both of them. Patroclus listened, made grunts of assent when it was necessary and answered all
Quintos’ persistent questions but his head was somewhere else, in another part of the building and
when dinner was over he got up, thanked the company and left without a backwards glance.

Achilles had not come down for dinner. Patroclus had heard one of the slaves say he’d rejected all
food and hadn’t said a word since he’d got back from the forest. Instead he’d shut himself in his
rooms and refused every face that attempted its way past his door. A part of Patroclus wondered
nervously if he was even fit to see anybody in his state, but the other part, the one that had listened
to Leptine knew that if anyone was going to try it would be him.

He approached the door cautiously and knocked. There was no answer. “It’s Patroclus,” he called
out. Still no answer. Tentatively, he put his hand on the doorknob and turned, breathing a sigh of
relief when he found that it was unlocked. He pushed it open and stepped inside.

The chambers were pitch dark except for the pale light of the moon which trickled in through the
window and spilled across the sparse furniture: a wooden chest, a larger closet, elaborately
furnished and a bed. Achilles, however, was nowhere to be seen. Patroclus closed the door behind
him and as he turned he noticed a flicker of yellow light coming from an alcove in the corner of the
room. He went over to it and discovered another door left wide open, exposing a narrow stone
passageway which he knew led to the bathrooms.

The yellow light was the product of a single candle which bobbed with a small, faltering flame,
leaving most of the room in semi-darkness. Achilles was sitting in the large wooden bathtub at the
centre of the room, his back turned to Patroclus. He did not look up when he entered.

As Patroclus came nearer he saw that he was fully clothed. Frowning, Patroclus reached the
bathtub and touched the water. It was freezing cold. He looked up at Achilles with wonder. “How
long have you been in here?”

Achilles didn’t answer but there was no need, his face was white as the walls and his lips were
tinted with blue. He was hugging his knees and shaking, the heavy cloth of his tunic ballooning
around so that he looked like the victim of a shipwreck. Patroclus touched his shoulder and
flinched. It was cold as ice.

“Dear Gods,” he whispered. He must have been here for hours. “I’m going to get you some more
water.”

He crossed over to the stove where a large cauldron sat, already full, over the coals. He lit it and
within a few minutes steam began to rise from the surface. With an effort he lifted it and upturned
its contents into the bath, sending steam twisting into the air with a hiss. Achilles watched him, his
eyes a hopeless blank. There were still streaks of blood and dirt over his body and in his hair. On
impulse, Patroclus took the sponge that lay on the side of the bath and set about cleaning it off his
skin.

Time passed and the silence stretched on; Patroclus washed away the filth from Achilles’ body,
bringing the sponge back and forth across his limbs and his back. The glow of the little flame
danced across his skin so that it flickered like gold. Achilles looked straight ahead of him at
something Patroclus couldn’t see, some disembodied demon that haunted the shadows and
sometimes his bottom lip trembled.

“I see him,” he said and Patroclus almost dropped the sponge. “He’s standing in the corners.
Grinning at me. Laughing at me.”

Patroclus placed the sponge back on the side and bent down so that their faces were level. He
reached out a hand and brushed back Achilles’ hair from his jaw. “There’s no one there,” he told
him gently. “It’s just the shadows playing tricks on you.”

Achilles drew a shaky breath. Inside his chest Patroclus felt his heart skip a beat. He looked so
young. Instinctively Patroclus stood up, slipped one leg over the side and climbed into the bath.

His body was warmer now. Patroclus could feel the steam drifting from his arms and the folds of
his chiton to curl around his own. Patroclus put one arm around Achilles’ shoulders and drew him
closer, holding his body tight against his torso. He was still shivering, despite the heat of the water.

“I’m a monster,” he whispered.

Patroclus gripped him tighter, feeling tears springing in his own eyes. “Don’t say that,” he told him
through gritted teeth. “Never say that. You’re not a monster, you saved my life, you were brave
you were…heroic-”

“-Don’t,” Achilles cut him off bitterly. “You don’t know what I was thinking. You don’t know
what I wanted to do to him.”

He looked up. His eyes were no longer blank but swimming. A tear trembled and slipped,
splashing the water with a ripple. “I wanted to skin him alive for touching you.”

At his words Patroclus felt cold inside, like a serpent had slunk its way round his intestines and tied
a knot. There was something strange in his face, something dark that he had only seen once or
twice before but it chilled him to the core. It was as if he had muttered some sinister prophesy, and
yet, despite the unsettling words there was a part of him that was warmed by them, a part of him
that was insanely, absurdly pleased.
The arm around Achilles drew him closer, the other crept across his torso. Achilles sighed and his
head dropped onto Patroclus’ shoulder. Together they sat like that, watching the sputtering candle
twitch and dwindle, the water growing cooler around their warming bodies as the steam rose from
them, twisted, and died.

oOo

That night, Patroclus slept in Achilles’ room. After they had towled and dried he’d made to head
back to his quarters but Achilles stopped him with a simple, pleading look and any resistance
melted away instantly. After digging around in the wooden chest he’d drawn out some blankets
and linen and made a small, not totally uncomfortable bed on the floor. Achilles fell asleep the
moment his head touched the pillow and soon the room was filled with the sounds of his soft, deep
breathing while Patroclus lay awake, head buzzing with unquiet thoughts.

The next morning he woke up and saw Achilles’ bed was empty. He got up and found him already
up and washing, dressed in a clean tunic pulled down to his waist as he sloshed water from a bowl
over his back and shoulders. He looked over and gave Patroclus a swift glance.

“Morning,” he greeted.

“Morning yourself,” replied Patroclus, warily. “How are you feeling?”

Achilles pulled a sardonic expression. “I’ve been better,” he answered shortly. “But okay.”

Patroclus nodded. Achilles splashed water over his face, bending down so that the muscles flexed
in his back, tiny droplets lingering on his skin. Patroclus bit his lip and looked away. Last night
had been torture; he’d lain awake for hours going over the lines of Achilles’ face in his mind,
marvelling how calm and at peace he’d looked, despite the shadows plaguing his dreams. More
than once he’d resisted the urge to take the hand that poked out from the covers and run his thumb
over the scuffed knuckles, wanting to translate some sense of comfort and reassurance.

But as Achilles straightened up and turned to face him it was clear that the night was not to be
mentioned. While he was not exactly back to his old self the broken vulnerability had gone to be
replaced by a sort of grim determination. His jaw was set and his eyes were hard, like those of a
soldier heading into battle.

“Are you ready?” he asked him.

Patroclus nodded again. Achilles watched him levelly, his eyes deep and searching. Patroclus found
it difficult to hold his gaze but he did, unwilling to look away. “I’m going to need you today,” he
said finally.

He said it flatly, bluntly, completely devoid of emotion as if stating the sun had just come up. “I
know,” replied Patroclus.

For a moment they looked at each other. There was something new in that look, an unspoken
understanding that had grown in the night and been forged while they slept. Then Achilles told
Patroclus to get dressed and waited for him while he did so, beating out an impatient rhythm on his
thigh, restless energy crackling in his veins.

“By the way,” he told him in an off-hand, casual way as they left the room together. “After the
trial, I’m going to ask father to make you my hetairoi.”

Startled, Patroclus glanced at him out of the corner of his eye. Achilles was looking forward, his
face unreadable. But as they walked into the Great Hall, a hundred accusing faces turning to meet
them, Patroclus heard him swallow.

“The roaring seas and many a dark mountain range lies between us,” he muttered.

Patroclus smiled. He’d heard the line before, stolen from a poem read to him once, long ago. “Give
us a place to stand,” he replied. “And we will move the earth.”

They looked at each other. Achilles grinned. And, as they strode into the the crowd of accusers,
Achilles took his hand.
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The Hall was packed with unfamiliar faces and as they walked in each one turned towards them,
measuring them with cold, hostile eyes. The benches and tables had been pushed to the sides,
leaving a space in the middle of the room where a man and woman sat, close together and staring
straight ahead. An empty stool stood next to them. At the front a single long table had been drawn
up and at it sat the jury; a row of noblemen, among them Phoenix, Cleitus and Amyntor. Beside
them King Peleus was seated on his high chair, looking grave and very old. He gave no sign of
acknowledgment as his son entered the room, only raised his fist to his mouth and issued a raspy,
phlegm-filled cough.

Patroclus remembered with a pang his own trial in Opus, the arched ceiling of the Hall cavernous
and dark as though it were ringed with stalactites, how the pillars had loomed inwards, threatening
to close him in. It seemed so long ago, as if whole ages had passed between the boy who’d
hunched, shivering, under his father’s reproachful shadow to the boy who stood in the doorway
now, yet there were the scraped back benches and accusing frowns and he realised, with a shock,
how very little time had passed.

He swallowed and Achilles glanced down at him. “You okay?” he asked, eyebrow raised.

Patroclus closed his eyes and nodded, nerves crashing through his veins as the thought came to him
that last time he was in a place like this a boy was banished.

The sight of Amyntor striding towards them brought him back to reality and realised he was being
instructed on something. “Sorry, what was that?”

“You, over there.” He jerked impatiently in the direction of the stalls where most of the palace was
seated. “Sit near the front. Make sure you’re ready to be called up for witness.”

Patroclus’ tongue felt thick and loose in his mouth. “For…for witness?” he stammered.

“What,” Amyntor snarled mockingly. “Did you think someone else would clear up your mess and
that would be the end of it? The jury’s to decide on the weight of your testimony. Now go over
there and shut up until your name’s called. And you my lord prince,” switching expertly to a
smirking simper. “If you would follow me to your seat…”

He gestured to the stool propped a few feet away from the seated couple. Patroclus looked
apologetically at Achilles, the corners of whose mouth twitched in an attempt at reassurance. “It’s
fine,” he said. “You go over there. I’ll see you afterwards.”

He made to follow Amyntor but Patroclus held him back. “Achilles, wait.”

Achilles turned expectantly. Patroclus licked his lips, his mind searching desperately for the right
words. Don’t worry. I’m here for you. It’ll be okay. Somehow his lips struggled to form sentences
and try as he might he could think of nothing to say.

Achilles smiled. Repeated, “It’s fine.” Squeezed his hand and walked away. And it was only when
he dropped it that Patroclus realised he’d still been holding it.

“How touching,” Amyntor jeered as Patroclus turned towards the stalls. “Perhaps they’ll let you
accompany him on his journey north. You can keep each other warm.”

Patroclus ignored him and headed off to the stalls where his friends had saved a space for him. He
sat down tentatively, eyes never moving from Achilles who was looking at his stool with
contempt, as if to sit were somehow beneath him. He suppressed a chuckle, wondering how long it
would be before he asked for a cushion.

“Bloody big turnout,” observed Deiomachus, watching as people continued to file in through the
door.

Patroclus surveyed the room and noticed for the first time how many people there really were.
Most of them occupied the backbenches, intended for commoners and the ordinary people of
Phthia who sat side by side, gossiping with their neighbours over baskets of eggs and cheese. “I
suppose they had nothing better to do,” replied Patroclus scathingly, repulsed by their titillation and
their mindless, petty chatter.

“You’d have thought they’d come to watch a hanging rather than a trial,” said Deiomachus.

“Let’s just hope they’re disappointed,” Patroclus sighed.

“Hi,” came a breathless voice and they turned to see Leptine squeezing her way through the rows.
“Sorry I’m late, Sapphus the artist had me balancing fruit on trays for half the morning…had to
slip a sedative into his inspiratory draught before I could get away…oh no, there’s no room…”

“Don’t worry, I saved you a seat,” said Deiomachus.

“Oh,” answered Leptine, taken aback. “Thank you.”

“S’alright,” said Deiomachus.

“That couple over there,” exclaimed Patroclus. “They’re Mynax’s parents, right?”

As if he had heard him, the man turned his head sharply and Patroclus saw his face properly for
the first time. The resemblance to his son was not immediate, for while Mynax’s face had been
broad and slack, Nekros’ looked as if it had been snapped off. The angles of his chin and jaw jutted
out sharply from beneath a greased black beard that had been twizzled and knotted at the end.
Rather than making him look ridiculous, as it would have done on any other man, combined with
the familiar, blue-grey eyes that gleamed like chips of ice from deep sockets, he was just about the
most menacing man Patroclus had ever seen. The woman beside him was bone white. Her hair,
which must once have been red, had been reduced to a washed out tawny colour. Her eyes were
wide, as if she were preparing to scream.

“Nekros,” said Deomachus sofly. “Now there’s an evil bastard. Good job Peleus is acting judge or
he’d be yelling to have Achilles drawn and quartered by now.”

“Peleus is acting judge,” Patroclus murmured, taking into account his high chair and the line of
noblemen at his right hand. “I thought he wasn’t allowed to preside over the case?”
“By convention the king judges every case,” Deiomachus explained. “The jury announces the
verdict and Peleus chooses the sentence. Except in this case the jury decides the verdict and the
sentence, then the king will amend it as he chooses. So if the jury find him guilty and sentences
him to death, Peleus can decide whether it will be by sword or axe or hanging or dismemberment-”

“-Or exile,” offered Leptine.

“Or exile,” Deiomachus agreed.

“So who on the jury’s on our side?” asked Patroclus.

Deiomachus pointed, running along the line with his index. “Obviously Phoenix,” he said. “He’s
Peleus’ closest friend and like a second father to Achilles. Then there’s Phaedrus…he’s pretty
fair…Cleitus and Amyntor are only out for themselves, they’ll vote whichever way the wind’s
blowing-”

“-Especially if it’s against me,” Patroclus groaned.

“Malanthon’s in Nekros’ pocket, he buys his retainers…and there. Eumenes.” Deiomachus tapped
the air with his finger above the man’s head. “Of all of them, he’s the one you want to watch out
for.”

Patroclus squinted over to the end of the table where a small, thin man sat, sipping wine tentatively
from a goblet as if scared it would bite him. He raised an eyebrow. “Really?”

“Trust me,” nodded Deiomachus. “He’s been chief secretary here for Gods know how long.
Knows all the rules and conventions like they were written on his palm. Hyper intelligent, hard as a
brick of baked shite. Seriously, he can’t bend over for the stick up his arse. But if you win him, you
can pretty much dance out of here, naked, throwing candlesticks at children.”

“That’s an odd image,” frowned Leptine.

“It is an odd image,” Deiomachus agreed.

“But how am I supposed to do that?” wondered Patroclus aloud. Deiomachus’ reply was cut short
by the sound of the doors slamming closed and the last of the crowd trickled in, a hush falling over
the room.

“Achilles Peleides, son of silver-footed Thetis, prince of Phthia: realm of the Northern Kingdoms,”
announced Peleus, his voice ringing across the hall like an echo. “You stand trial for the murder of
Mynax Nekroitides. Do you swear before the Gods and your king that your statement will be true
and without falsehood?”

Achilles made the sign of reverence before Dika, the goddess of justice. Peleus looked satisfied.
Surely he was aware, as they all were, of Achilles’ flawless reputation for honesty.

“You will state your version of events,” Peleus ordered him.

Achilles nodded and stood up. Patroclus craned his neck to get a better look at his expression. He
did not look scared or nervous, only defiant; his lip already beginning to curl with curbed
insolence. Oh dear Gods, Patroclus found himself praying. Please let him keep his temper. Please,
please, please let him keep his temper, please…

“It was the morning after my birthday celebrations,” he began. “I woke up with a headache. I
thought a walk would help clear it so I went to the wood. As I approached I heard a disturbance, I
came closer and I saw Mynax attacking Patroc…Menoitides. He had him on the ground on his
back and his hands were clasped around his neck. I saw Menoitides trying to fight back but he was
weakening by the second. By the time I was close enough to act he was near death. I stepped in and
pushed Mynax away. There was a struggle and then he was dead.”

“How did he die?”

“I killed him.”

Shocked whispers reverberated through the audience in waves. Achilles’ face was deadpan and
sullen. His statement had been completely devoid of emotion. “He could sound more apologetic,”
Leptine whispered.

“Achilles doesn’t really do apologetic,” Patroclus whispered back.

“Do you believe it was Nekroitides’ intention to kill Menoitides?” asked Peleus.

“I do, sir.”

“Do you have any reason to believe that was his intention, aside from the events from that
morning?”

“Yes sir,” nodded Achilles. “The night before…at the celebrations…Menoitides and I prevented
Mynax from taking a girl by force. I believe Mynax blamed Menoitides for the humiliation.”

“Do we have the girl here?” Peleus turned to the jury.

“We do my lord, however she is but a slave,” Amyntor answered. “Her testimony does not count in
a civil court.”

“Ah,” sighed Peleus regretfully. “Pity. Very well, you may sit.”

Achilles sat down, crossing his arms over his chest defensively. As soon as he did so the chair
beside him scraped back and Mynax’s father stood up.

“To the floor, Nekros, son of Theleon, father of the deceased,” he announced in a voice as silky
smooth as the rich, crimson tunic he wore under a cloak of black furs. “Permission to address the
accused.”

“Granted,” Peleus gestured for him to continue.

Nekros inclined his head graciously and turned so that he was face to face with Achilles. Patroclus
could see the intense hatred in his eyes even as he smiled courteously, showing white teeth.

“A tremendous stroke of luck,” he said, twisting the knot at the end of his beard around his finger.
“That you should have been there at precisely the right time to save your friend. Uncanny, one
might say. The odds that you appeared just when Menoitides’ life was slipping away….A
remarkable coincidence. Tell me, why did you choose the wood that morning? I can think of more
cheerful places to rid oneself of a hangover.”

Achilles gave him a black look. “Because I like the wood.”

“Interesting,” replied Nekros. “And you just happened to arrive at the exact same spot as Mynax
and Menoitides?”

Achilles hesitated. Eumenes, who had been scribbling something down on a piece of linen, looked
up, blinking like an owl. “I didn’t know they were there,” he said at last.

The jury looked meaningfully at each other. Nekros raised an eyebrow. “You sound unsure,” he
said. “You are telling us you had no knowledge whatsoever of either Menoitides’ or Myax’s
whereabouts?”

“I didn’t know they were there,” Achilles repeated. “But I guess I had, like, a feeling or something,
I don’t know, that Patroclus was in trouble.”

Nekros’ other eyebrow shot up. “You mean a vision?”

“No,” said Achilles impatiently. “Not a vision. More like…intuition, or something.”

As soon as he said it, Patroclus felt his insides sink. Leptine’s head had dropped into her hands.
Deiomachus was cringing. “’Intuition or something,’” Nekros repeated, letting the ludicrousness of
the statement sink in. “So, conveniently, while on your way to the wood a sudden spurt of
‘intuition’ made you aware that your friend was in danger and convinced you that this is where you
needed to be. Correct?”

“Yes,” replied Achilles, scowling.

“And when you got there,” Nekros continued. “And found Mynax where your, forgive me,
‘intuition’ told you he would be, you broke his neck in one movement, is that correct?”

“Yes.”

“And was that before or after you broke up the fight?”

Achilles frowned. “What do you mean?”

“Did you walk up to Mynax while he was still strangling Patroclus and break his neck from behind
or did you pull him off first?”

Again, Achilles hesitated. Patroclus, understanding the trap in the question, held his breath and
hoped Achilles had too. “I pulled him off first,” he said finally.

Beside him, Leptine groaned. “So you broke up the fight,” Nekros spoke slowly. “Pulled Mynax
away from Menoitides and then killed him.”

Shit shit shit shit shit shit, Patroclus thought frantically. Come on Achilles. Tell them he attacked
you. Tell them you fought. But either Achilles didn’t recognise the significance of the detail or
simply couldn’t bring himself to be untruthful. “Yes,” he said, dully.

At once the noise of the hall rose to its high ceiling as a clamour rang out. Peleus rose his palm and
the room fell silent once again. Nekros turned back to Achilles, white teeth glinting like a dog who
had scented a deer. “Very brave of you,” he crooned softly. “To risk your life for some exiled
outcast foster-son. But then you are close aren’t you, Menoitides and yourself?”

Achilles’ eyes narrowed as Peleus leaned forward in his chair, frowning curiously. Patroclus felt
his blood run cold. “I don’t see how that has anything to do with it,” said Achilles stubbornly.

“Just trying to get a grasp on the nature of the relationship between those concerned in the case,”
Nekros shrugged airily.

“Well the nature of the relationship is none of your fucking business so you can go and grasp
something else.”

“Quiet,” cried Peleus as the crowd began to roar its appreciation. He glared at Achilles with a
rheumy eye. “And one would remind the accused to watch his tongue if he wants to see light
outside this trial.”

“No more questions my lord,” stated Nekros with a polite little bow and he returned to his seat.

“Very well,” asserted Peleus. “If Menoitides could come to the floor.”

With shaking legs Patroclus stood up. At once all eyes in the room shifted towards him. He
swallowed, hard, took a deep breath and approached the floor. He dared not look at Achilles, only
stared straight ahead, avoiding Peleus’ stern, steady inspection.

“Patroclus,” he said gently. “If you will tell us of what happened, starting from the festivities.”

Patroclus took another shaky breath. Sweat prickled his palms and he dug his nails into the soft
flesh. He could feel Achilles watching him, could almost hear his controlled, nervous breathing.
Next to him Nekros watched too, a thick strand of beard circling his index finger.

“Uh well it was quite late in the evening,” he began, desperately hoping he didn’t sound as nervous
as he felt. “Everyone was watching Pamaia dance and I started looking round Leptine-”

“-The slave girl?” one of the jurymen, Phaedrus, interrupted.

“Yeah,” replied Patroclus. “But I couldn’t find her so I guessed she’d gone to the storeroom. So I
headed over there and I found Mynax on…” he struggled to form the words as the unpleasant
memories washed back into his head. “On top of her…trying to force himself on her…I tried to
fight him but he was too strong so I yelled for help, Achilles heard and ordered Mynax to release
her. He obeyed, but reluctantly. The next day I was in the wood looking for kitchen supplies, I was
just heading back when Mynax jumped me from behind. He pushed me down, and then he…” he
gulped, thinking of the heavy weight of Mynax’s knees on his chest, the hot stink of stale breath.
“Tried to kill me,” he finished, somewhat lamely.

He snuck a look at the jury. They all had their heads down, conferring with each other. Suddenly
Malanthon raised his hand. “This girl,” he inquired. “Did you feel you had some possession over
her that Mynax did not have?”

“What?” said Patroclus, disgusted. “No, I don’t have…possession over her-”

“-Then why did you object to his handling her?”

“Because…because she’s my friend,” Patroclus answered in disbelief.

Malanthon raised an eyebrow. “You expect us to believe your interests and relationship with a
slave girl are entirely non-sexual?”

“Clearly he is shy,” quipped Nekros slyly and the courtroom tittered.

Phoinix raised his hand. “Was the party the first time you and Mynax came into conflict?”

“No sir,” Patroclus shook his head, hoping to Zeus his cheeks weren’t as red as they felt. “A few
weeks ago we fought during drill training. I bested him and he swore revenge. He swore he would
kill me.”
There was uproar as the audience began clapping or heckling his words, some people even taking
to their feet to shout across the hall. Peleus silenced them impatiently but even he looked perturbed
as Nekros stood up once again.

“Come now Patroclus,” he purred, and Patroclus felt a shiver run down his spine. “Let us not be
modest. Word has it you are quite the combatant, is that not so?”

He paused expectantly, waiting for a reply. Unsure, Patroclus looked around the sea of faces for
inspiration. None offered him any. “I’m ok at wrestling,” he said hesitantly.

“More than ok as I hear it,” Nekros continued. “Top of the class. Five times group champion.
Bested Mynax more than once, if your good drill master speaks the truth,” here he inclined his
head at Ampelius who nodded uncertainly. “Indeed, it is surprising that you were unable to hold
your own against one you had formerly defeated.”

“Like he said,” Achilles rounded furiously. “He attacked him from behind.”

“My question was directed at the son of Menoeitius, not Peleus thank you, my prince,” Nekros
snarled. “Still, you’re not exactly the helpless innocent you’re made out to be, are you Patroclus?
It’s certainly clear you can handle yourself in a fight. Look at you. Those are not the arms and
shoulders of a weakling. And besides,” here he grinned showing unusually pointed canines and his
eyes gleamed with maniacal menace. “It’s not as if your history is…shall we say…spotless.”

“OBJECTION!” Achilles yelled, leaping to his feet. “The indicter has no right bringing up past
events with no direct relevance to the case!”

“The court is advised to use whatever evidence is available to create a rounded view of the
accused,” Nekros argued.

“BUT HE’S NOT THE ACCUSED!” Achilles screamed, stamping his foot against the ground like
a tiny child. “I’M THE ACCUSED! YOU’RE USING HIS HISTORY AGAINST HIM! THAT’S
EXPLOITATION AND…AND MISUSE OF EVIDENCE AND-”

“-SILENCE,” Peleus roared. “Achilles, sit down and be quiet! Nekros, explain yourself. What do
you mean by referring to the witness as the accused?”

“I mean, my lord, that the events that have transpired are quite clear,” Nekros pronounced, eyes
burning with fury and loathing. “It seems obvious to me that your so called ‘witness’ is as much
involved with my son’s murder as that boy sitting there. Mynax and Menoitides quarrelled over
some harlot Menoitides had his eye on. Hell-bent on vengeance and seeking to establish himself,
Menoitides appealed to Achilles and together the two connived to teach him a lesson. So Patroclus
led Mynax into the wood and there he was ambushed by the two of them. Convenient, yes? No
other witnesses. Which allows them to make up this cock-and-bull story about my son having
some deep-seated, personal vendetta against this…this nobody,” he fixed Patroclus with a look of
disgust. “When none of you have any knowledge or evidence of Mynax being anything other than
gentle and amiable. Which is more than anyone can say for a disowned exile convicted of
homicide and a spoilt little sociopath with more looks than sanity.”

The reaction was immediate. Within a second three quarters of the courtroom were on their feet,
roaring their appreciation or shouting protests at Nekros who stood smugly before them, his black
furs bristling like the wings of some hideous bird. Achilles was screaming profanities at the top of
his lungs, his fists flashing as he struggled against the restraint of two guards, issuing a terrible
stream of oaths and blasphemies. But Patroclus could barely hear him above the pandemonium and
the chaos and it was only when Ampelius’ titanic lungs bellowed for silence that Peleus’ voice
could be heard ringing across the Hall.

“Enough,” he was saying. “Clearly the accused is in no fit state to stand trial at this point. We shall
have a short break and meet back here at midday. Guards, escort Prince Achilles to confinement
for holding until then.”

The guards made to take hold of Achilles by the arm but he shook them off abruptly and followed
them out the Hall without a backwards glance. As soon as he was gone the audience began to thin;
Patroclus stood up and Deiomachus and Leptine followed.

“Well,” said Leptine conversationally as they wove their way through the crowd. “That could have
gone better.”

Patroclus didn’t answer. He was still shaking with nerves and he didn’t trust himself to speak.
Eventually he mumbled something about needing fresh air and the three made their way outside
onto the field where they were met by a group of the other boys who had apparently waited to offer
Patroclus encouragement and reassurance.

“Wow,” Calisthenes shook his head in amazement. “That Nekros is bloody terrifying. If I were you
Patroclus, I’d keep on his good side.”

Patroclus gave him a dark look. “Thanks mate.”

“Someone needs to have a talk with Achilles,” noted Leonides. “If he carries on like this he’ll have
earned himself a one way ticket to Hades.”

“It’s true Patroclus,” Leptine affirmed seriously. “He’s not doing himself any favours. And his case
is weak as it is.”

“What?” Patroclus exclaimed aghast. “You can’t be telling me that the jury swallowed that bullshit
Nekros is serving?”

“If you mean his theory that you and Achilles were in cahoots and arranged the whole thing then
no, I don’t think they did,” she said matter-of-factly. “Even with his skills of persuasion it sounded
very far-fetched. But the fact that Achilles killed Mynax after he stopped him from killing you
seriously undermines his claim that he was acting defensively. It makes it look like he did it in a fit
of rage.”

Unbidden and unwanted, Achilles’ words crept back into his conscience from where they had been
pushed down into the dark corners of his mind: I wanted to skin him alive for touching you. “Of
course,” Leptine continued. “It certainly doesn’t help that you ‘quarrelled over some harlot’. And
your past conviction really isn’t working in your favour.”

“Yeah you probably shouldn’t have done that,” Deiomachus affirmed. “For future reference.”

“Well what am I supposed to do then?” Patroclus demanded. “Tell me, how do I fix this?”

The boys looked blankly at each other. Even Leptine was at a loss. “Right,” said Patroclus, getting
to his feet. “I have to go talk to Achilles.”

Peleus, reluctant to have his son and heir treated like a common criminal, had ordered for Achilles
to be held in one of the guestrooms rather than in the palace dungeons. Even so, it took a good ten
minutes of sweet-talking the guards into letting him pass and he was aware of them watching him
suspiciously as he approached their charge.
He was lying across a couch with his eyes closed, one arm thrown dramatically across his face so
that he looked like the tortured occupant of an oil painting. As Patroclus approached he opened one
eye, then shut it again, looking theatrically pained.

“What the fuck was that?” Patroclus rounded on him.

“What was what?” asked Achilles sulkily.

“This,” answered Patroclus, throwing his arms around in imitation of Achilles’ tantrum. “And the
yelling. And the screaming. And the calling Nekros a fat whore.”

“He insulted me,” Achilles snapped. “And I’m very sensitive about my mental stability. But what
about you and your past conviction of homicide, huh? What did you have to go and do that for?”

“Oh I’m sorry,” Patroclus retorted sarcastically. “Next time I decide to randomly murder someone
I’ll make sure to notify you first. Do you realise what position you’ve put yourself in? You’re on
trial for murder for Gods’ sake. Show some bloody restraint!”

“I’m trying!” Achilles snapped. “But that man, he makes my fucking blood boil. Did you hear
him? A remarkable coincidence…oh forgive me, your intuition…He thinks because he shits gold he
can buy justice. Like his wealth makes us somehow better than the rest of us. And no one else will
stand up to him because they’re scared he’ll ride in with his private army. It’s pathetic. It makes me
sick.”

“Yes it’s unfair,” Patroclus countered. “Yes the system is immoral and unjust and corrupt but it’s
still the system, Achilles, and you can’t fight it your whole life or it’s just going to get you killed.”

“Watch me,” replied Achilles stubbornly. “Anyway, I probably won’t die. Father will get it into his
head that it’s more merciful to let me live and send me away.”

Patroclus stared at him. “And how is that not more merciful??”

“I don’t know,” Achilles shrugged. “It’s a bit boring, isn’t it? Like, who will remember me if I’m
just banished? A noble execution would be far more dramatic. The country will be talking about it
for decades.”

He said it so casually, so matter-of-factly that Patroclus realised he was completely serious. Unable
to believe his ears, he found himself staring in astonishment as he struggled to comprehend what
Achilles had just said. “Are you insane?” he sputtered. “This is not a joke! This is your DEATH
we’re talking about! There is nothing ‘noble’ about it, you’ll be dead and that will be it and no
amount of country gossip will bring you back-”

“-Well forgive me for trying to consider things in a positive light!” Achilles cried. “But in case it
hasn’t occurred to you I don’t actually want to die and Elysium sounds even more boring than
banishment and I’ve never killed a wolf before, not a big one anyway, and father won’t even look
at me and it’s so unfair because everyone thinks I’m a murderer and a coward and it’s only because
no one except us and the other boys knows what a bastard Mynax was, and no one believes that I
knew you were in trouble but I did and now they all think I’m a liar or crazy-”

“-Wait stop,” Patroclus, who had mastered the art of tuning out Achilles’ rants and had been
nodding inattentively, yanked himself back to earth. “Say that again.”

“I can’t explain it, I just had a feeling you needed help, like a sixth sense or something…mother
says it’s because she’s part dolphin but I don’t-”
“-No not that,” said Patroclus impatiently. “The other thing. About Mynax.”

“Oh,” Achilles frowned. “That no one except us and the other boys know what Mynax was really
like. But a lot of good that will do us, I heard his mother telling the jury he was a fucking angel and
as for his father-”

“-I’ve got to go,” Patroclus interrupted him, mind-racing, and before Achilles could stop him he
was sprinting out the room.

The others were still sat outside waiting for him, Leptine and Deiomachus apparently deeply
involved in animated discussion but they broke off as soon as Patroclus slowed to a halt in front of
them. “What’s the matter?” asked Leptine concernedly. “Is everything okay?”

“Everything’s fine,” Patroclus assured her. “I have an idea.”

 Hetairoi

“Patroclus, I’m not sure about this.”

“Yeah, you know, I think you might have mentioned.”

“I mean I’m really, really not sure about this.”

“Why? What harm could it do?”

“Bodily harm, maybe? As in, physical injury? As in Nekros with a big pointy stick?”

Patroclus rolled his eyes and turned from Quintos to look demandingly at the other boys. They
were all avoiding his gaze and, it seemed, had all suddenly become very interested in their own
feet. “Oh come on,” he exclaimed in disbelief. “None of you? A few minutes ago you were all
swearing eternal loyalty and devotion. What happened to ‘we want to help’?”

“We do want to help,” answered Stylax. “Just…not in a way that could get us tortured and
impaled.”

The others nodded eagerly. Patroclus looked desperately at Deiomachus and Leonides, both of
whom were looking uncomfortably hesitant. “Well…you see Patroclus,” Leonides began.
“Nekros…he’s not the kind of man you stand up to. And you know, while we like you and all, we
also quite like being able to see and talk.”

“He cuts out people’s eyes with silverware,” Calisthenes explained. “And tears out their tongues.”

“Here’s an idea,” said Quintos. “How about we all go to the Temple of Athena and pray to the
Goddess to absorb Achilles’ sins?”

“Here’s a better idea,” snapped Deiomachus. “How about you shut up? Patroclus, pay no attention
these cowards. I’m up for it. Possible death, almost certain blindness and small chance of success?
Sounds like my kind of plan.”

Patroclus nodded his gratitude, yet inside him his stomach squirmed as the enormity of the
situation dawned upon him. He was only just starting to understand the full extent of Nekros’
influence and the shadow he cast upon the lands and lives of the people here. For the past half hour
the boys had regaled him with stories of cannibalism and infanticide and men whose skin had been
flayed off their bones, stories that apparently followed Nekros’ army and settled around the turrets
of his northern castle, like a thick black mist. He thought about what he was asking his friends to
do and wondered, with anxiety, what his answer would have been had the roles been reversed.

“But this is why we have to do this,” he continued ardently. “If no one stands up to him, he’ll just
keep doing whatever he likes. At some point, you have to say no to these people. And not just
Nekros, but all men like him.”

“What’s the point of being able to talk,” quipped Leptine. “If you are silent when you have
something to say?”

Deiomachus clapped appreciatively. “Here here,” he exclaimed to Leptine’s bemusement. “Wise

words, well said.” He glanced around him hopefully. The other boys were still looking uncertain
and none of them spoke, although some of them were glancing up at Patroclus with pained
expressions, as if suffering from some kind of internal torment.
Eventually, Patroclus threw his hands up in the air in defeat. “Fine,” he exclaimed, not bothering to
hide his irritation. “If you’re too afraid for your own skins to save an innocent man from being
thrown to the wolves then so be it. But I tell you this,” and suddenly his eyes burned furiously, as if
someone had lit a leaping fire in his chest and his voice grew low, “Cowardice is not being unable
to throw a spear or shoot an arrow. It is not losing a fight or trembling in the face of battle.
Cowardice is seeing wrong done and standing there and doing nothing.”

At his words several faces turned flushed and indignant, mouths gaping open and closed in
wordless objection but, unwilling to listen to their protests Patroclus had already begun to walk
away, his back turned so that they would not see the disgust on his face.

oOo

The bell was rung, commanding everyone back to the courtroom and one by one the spectators
began to trickle in until the Hall was once again choked with buzzing anticipation. Patroclus and
Leptine took their place in the stands, closely followed by Deiomachus who was looking
determinedly cheerful although he kept casting nervous glances in Nekros’ direction, as if judging
the safe distance between them. He had cast off his furs and sat there gleaming in his scarlet robe,
like a bright snake. Although his eyes betrayed nothing he was smiling, smug with perceived
victory, a horrible twisted thing which only served to make him look all the more threatening.

Achilles took his seat before the jury, led by a guard who remained warily at his side. There was
no need however; all trace of scornful, derisive anger had vanished to be replaced by a pale, wide-
eyed trepidation, evident in the edgy way he tapped out the characteristic jumpy beat on his thigh.
But it was not this that shocked Patroclus, rather it was the look of resignation with which he
greeted the courtroom and the deflated slump of his shoulders and spine. It was as if all the fury
had been let out of him, and with it, all the fight.

Peleus cleared his throat and a hush fell on the room. “We have heard statements from both the
witness and the accused,” he announced wearily. “Now is the time for the jury to review the
evidence with which to judge the actions of Prince Achilles Peleides and also, in light of Lord
Nekros’ indictment, the questioned innocence of Patroclus Menoitides. Unless any new witness has
further evidence to add to the case let him speak now, or we shall continue on to the weighing of
the current testimonies-”

“I do my lord,” declared Deiomachus, standing confidently.

The spectators whispered excitedly to each other. Nekros’ eyes narrowed. Peleus looked surprised
but gestured amiably. “Very well. State your name for the record.”

“Deiomachus, son of Eustos, foster-son of King Peleus of Phthia,” he stated, making his way onto
the floor. Patroclus saw the flash of stylus as the jury hurried to note it down.

Peleus inclined his head. “Speak, Eustoides.”

Patroclus watched, heart hammering as Deiomachus began to recount. He began by describing the
way Mynax had picked him out from the start, his frequent bullying and harassment. When he
came to relating the details of that first fight his voice rose and fell with such fervour it was as
though he were a bard narrating some legendary bloody battle and, looking round the room, the
spectators sat rapt as listeners round a campfire. He swore Patroclus’ statement to be true, and
when he told of Mynax’s promise he did so in a whisper, “I’ll kill you, you ugly sonofabitch if it’s
the last thing I ever do”. In the cold, shadowy dark of the Hall, Patroclus saw several people
shiver.
When he had finished the spectators burst into applause. Deiomachus performed a mock bow and
sauntered back to his seat. Out of the stands Leptine was clapping hardest, Patroclus cringed as her
enthusiastic whoops shot past his eardrums. “That was fantastic,” she was saying breathlessly.
“Wasn’t he fantastic?” Patroclus noticed her cheeks were rather pink.

Nekros, it seemed, was less impressed. His lip had curled, showing those curiously pointed canines
and he was appealing to the courtroom. “A very skilled storyteller,” he announced. “I can see a
great future ahead for this young man as a minstrel or in the theatre. Comedy, perhaps. But might I
remind you my lords this is a trial, not a drama, one boy’s word is hardly going to alter
proceedings.”

He waited patiently while the jury conferred. Phoinix and Melanthon were in heated debate, the
latter protesting loudly against the value of Deiomachus’ testimony. At last Phoinix turned away
looking cross and Melanthon smug as Eumenes announced gravely, “We are regretful to declare
Eustoides’ account insubstantial.”

Even as the courtroom rose to abuse the judgement Patroclus felt his insides sink, like lead, to the
bottom of his stomach. He and Leptine looked, stricken, at each other, both at a loss of what to do
or say. Nekros was smiling again, his long sleeves hanging as if heavy with blood. Seated on his
stool Achilles had ceased the tapping of his thigh and now stared, glumly, into empty space.

Peleus called for order, his voice very worn and his pale eyes seemed to droop with resignation.
“The jury have made their decision,” he sighed heavily. “It is now for them to decide the verdict-”

“-Wait!” came a timid, squeaky little voice from the back of the hall. Patroclus whipped round and
all heads in the courtroom followed suit as slowly, tentatively, Andros rose to his feet.

Peleus raised an eyebrow. “And you are?”

“Andros Stomatides, foster-son of Phthia,” he rushed.

“You have some evidence to add to the case, Stomatides?”

Andros looked at Nekros, then at Patroclus. He gulped. He nodded.

Patroclus watched as Andros confirmed Deiomachus’ statement, as well as adding his own
embellishments when it came to telling of Mynax’s character, recounting instances of abuse he’d
exacted on anyone within range of his fists. Although his testimony lacked the charisma and
performance of Deiomachus’, Patroclus could not suppress the tiny bubble of hope beginning to
grow inside him, a hope that continued to swell as the jury began to converse again.

As soon as Andros finished Nekros stood up to object. “Pure nonsense!” he bellowed. “Surely you
don’t expect us to believe that-”

But suddenly Leonides was on his feet and telling everyone enthusiastically that he had once
overheard Mynax’s plans to drop a poisonous stoat in Patroclus’ mattress. He sat back down and
was immediately replaced by Calisthenes and after him Stylax.

Patroclus watched in dumfounded amazement as one by one the foster sons of Phthia rose to their
feet and declared witness, testifying the truth of Achilles’ and Patroclus’ statements and relating
their own tales of Mynax’s violent and dangerous behaviour. Some of the accounts Patroclus
recognised and remembered, others were completely new to him, and others were elaborately
sensationalised, including Calisthenes’ speculations that Mynax practiced dark magic and was the
follower of a secret heathen cult, followed by Quintos’ statement which ended with him bursting
into tears and revealing that Mynax had once tried to touch him.

Each witness was punctuated by Nekros screaming his protests and pointing out every irregularity
and fabrication but it didn’t matter, suddenly no one was listening to him. The crowd were utterly
absorbed by the boys’ tales as though they were actors provided for their specific amusement.
Soon the Hall was resonant with laughter, tears and applause and Nekros’ pleas were utterly
drowned out. Phoinix and Phaedrus were both chucking heartily, Peleus was grinning indulgently
behind his hand and even Eumenes had cracked a faint, amused smile.

Finally, when the last witness had sat back down Peleus fixed his expression into one of impartial
severity and called once again for silence.

“Thank you boys,” he said. “For your contributions to the case. But it is now time to hand over to
the jury to make a decision…taking into account, of course, the newly imparted evidence,”
Patroclus and Leptine shared a look of glee, “And relay their verdict.”

Peleus folded his hands together and looked expectantly at the table of lords. No one dared utter a
word, as if the whole room was holding their breath. The jury was debating again, Phaedrus and
Phoinix heartily abusing Melanthon’s challenges while Cleitus and Amyntor looked on sullenly
but it was Eumenes Patroclus sought, Eumenes who was reviewing his notes with a slight frown,
his owl eyes thorough and meticulous. Patroclus could hear the blood rushing in his ears, his heart
pounding violently against his chest as the torturous silence stretched on and on for what felt like
an eternity. Beside him Leptine’s fingers were crossed in her lap, her lips moving in a wordless
prayer. Achilles was watching the jury, wide-eyed and poker straight.

Finally Eumenes looked up. He whispered something and the debate ceased. Heads began to nod.
And after a millennia, he faced the courtroom.

“We find the defendant…not guilty.”

“NO!” shrieked Nekros as the whole room jumped to their feet, waving wreaths and scarves in
celebration with a cheer that shook the great double doors and resounded across the stone,
vibrating the floor beneath their feet. Achilles sat dazed with bewilderment amongst the colour and
the sound, as if he were struggling to let himself believe it, then suddenly he was swarmed with
blessings and congratulations until he had disappeared under the joyful horde of bodies wishing to
shake his hand or clasp his shoulder. Patroclus and Leptine were jumping up and down with their
arms around each other, shedding tears of joy and relief.

“You did it!” she was screaming. “You did it Patroclus, you did it!”

She whirled around, and, spotting Deiomachus exclaimed, “And you! You were brilliant!”

“Oh that? That was nothing,” Deiomachus shrugged in a gallantly modest sort of way. “Just
helping out a friend.”

Leptine beamed and hugged him. When she let go, rather quickly, Deiomachus looked flushed but
very pleased with himself. Somewhere in the midst of the crowd, Nekros was still shouting abuse.

“You’ve made a mistake, Peleus!” he spat, flinging a long nailed finger at the king. “Who will
Phthia run to when the Thessalaians cross the borders and your so-called ‘Myrmidons’ lie in the
dirt? When the hordes of invaders flood the fields and the market place who will you turn to?
Because I tell you now, no soldier in my army will come to your aid unless you give me that boy’s
head on a spike, your son in return for the one he took!”
“The jury has spoken Nekros,” replied Peleus, surveying him with one eyebrow raised. “Go home.
Bury your son. Justice has been served.”

“THIS IS NOT JUSTICE!” Nekros screamed, spittle flying from his thin lips as he stamped his
foot against the ground. “And mark my words, this is not over!”

And with that he spun round and marched out the door, the folds of his scarlet robe billowing and
his pale wife, after casting a hasty terrified look behind her, hurrying at his heels.

When he was gone, Peleus’ shoulders slumped and he and Phoenix shared a troubled look. But
Patroclus, who was already weaving doggedly through the crowd didn’t notice. All he saw was a
flash of golden hair and a face, turned up in euphoric disbelief as he neared. Achilles still had the
look of someone in shock but as Patroclus came into view he stood up, pushing people impatiently
out the way in order to grasp his shoulders.

When he spoke it was as if the noise and the cheering of the crowds had faded away to nothing.
For all Patroclus heard was his voice, all he saw was his face gazing at him in almost rapture and
everything that was and had ever been had turned to a meaningless haze. “This was you,” Achilles
spoke and his eyes blazed with green flame as he held Patroclus’ gaze. “You did this.”

Patroclus’ throat was dry and he could not speak. Achilles’ grip on his arms was scalding, he felt
his eyes could burn right into him. Achilles licked his lips. “You saved my life,” he whispered.

Patroclus opened his mouth to reply but before he could summon the words Achilles’ arms were
round him, folding him against his torso. The breath died in Patroclus’ chest, coming out in a
muffled gasp at the glowing heat of Achilles’ skin, the supple hardness of his muscles tensing, and
relaxing as he held Patroclus to him. And standing there, amongst the chaos and the laughter and
the confusion it seemed the real world slipped away, leaving just the two of them, alone in a blur of
colour and sound.

oOo

The benches were scraped back into the centre of the room and the table where the jury had sat
was gone. Soon there was no sign there had ever been a trial. Torches burned in their brackets,
spilling pools of warm yellow light onto the stone floor and in the centre of the room a fire burned,
casting a rosy glow on the shadowy corners as it leapt towards the high ceiling.

On the left side of the room stood the lords of Phthia, all looking solemn, their eyes following
Patroclus as he approached the king. As he passed, Ampelius gave him a wink. Achilles was
standing at the front beside his father, the ostentation and formality of his ceremonial robes looking
rather ridiculous compared to his jaunty gait and casual stance. He grinned at Patroclus, his hands
clasped behind his back in a pose of mock seriousness.

Peleus sat on his throne, wearing his most regal robes and a similarly sombre expression, however
the effect was ruined slightly by the genial twinkle in his eye and the warmth with which he
clasped Patroclus’ hands.

“Achilles tells me it was you who mustered the witnesses to speak at the trial,” he stated. “Is that
true?” Patroclus nodded and Peleus broke into a smile. “Then your courage and quick-thinking has
saved my son,” he said. “And he and I are eternally in your debt.”

Patroclus snuck a look at Achilles who was looking slightly unhappy at the idea. Restraining a
smirk, he bowed humbly before the king. Peleus touched his forehead in blessing. “I shall thank
the Gods every day that he has you by his side,” he said. “Rise, my boy.”
Patroclus stood up. Peleus took his hand and reached for Achilles’. Then he turned to face the Hall.
“My lords,” he proclaimed in his clear, ringing voice. “Two souls stand here today. But, with the
swearing of this Oath they will be joined together as one. They will be brothers, tied by a bond
more powerful than blood. That is the bond of friendship and loyalty and it can never be broken,
not by man nor God. You will no longer be two men but two parts of a whole. One soul in two
bodies.”

He nodded to his left and a servant appeared, carrying an elaborately wrought golden goblet which
he set into Achilles’ hands. Achilles raised it before him, staring into Patroclus’ eyes. “With this
Oath I swear,” he declared. “To be your shield, your sword, in peace and in war. For your life is my
life and my blood is your blood.”

He drank and passed the goblet to Patroclus. “With this Oath I swear,” he answered with the words
he had been taught. “To be forever by your side in battle and in counsel. For your life is my life and
my blood is your blood.”

He raised the cup to his lips and drank. The wine flowed hot through his body, like the nectar of
the Gods. Peleus raised his arms around the two of them. "The sun was shining when this son of
Opus first stepped into these halls,” he announced. “Henceforth he shall be received in most high
honour and status, as the hetairoi of the prince and an eternal friend of our house.” He clasped their
shoulders and beamed at them both. “You have each other’s devotion. Now you must earn it.” He
clapped them jovially. “Go, my boys. I know you’ll make me proud.”

Achilles and Patroclus leapt of the stage to raucous cheer and applause. After they had poured out
the remainder of the wine onto the fire in libation to Zeus, thus concluding the ceremony, Patroclus
turned to Achilles smirking mischievously. “So,” he said. “Apparently you’re in my eternal debt.”

Achilles scowled. “I am not in your debt,” he replied scathingly.

“That’s not what your father said.”

“My father is a senile old man who can’t remember one day from the next,” Achilles huffed. “I
owe you nothing. I saved your life, you saved mine. That makes us even.”

“Until I save your life again, of course,” Patroclus taunted. “With my…what was it? Courage and
quick-thinking?”

“Suppose I get myself into dangerous situations,” said Achilles wickedly. “And make it harder for
you.”

“Then I suppose I’ll just have to always be there,” Patroclus answered. “To save your life.”

“And I will always be there to save yours,” countered Achilles.

They grinned at each other. The whole of the palace had finally been let in and the room was
bursting with celebration. The slaves and foster-sons were dancing together; Patroclus saw
Leptine’s yellow ribbon flash as she was led into the ring. “It’s a deal then,” said Achilles softly.
Then, as if on impulse, he reached for Patroclus’ hand, rubbing his thumb along the knuckles. He
leaned in. Patroclus felt his blood freeze in his veins as Achilles’ his lips stopped millimetres away
from his neck.

“Thank you,” Achilles whispered, like the brush of a feather against his ear.

Then it was gone, as quickly as if it had never happened. Achilles dropped his hand and
disappeared into the festivities. For a few seconds Patroclus stood there staring at his abandoned
palm, his neck tingling with the promise of Achilles’ touch. Then he shook his head, took a deep
breath and followed his retreating figure into the crowd.

oOo

The Phthian traditions of celebrating the swearing of companionship were far more exuberant than
Achilles had led Patroclus to believe. But then, he supposed, they all had much to celebrate. Very
soon the formal ceremony marking Patroclus out as the prince’s hetairoi had turned into a
salutation of Achilles’ victory at the trial and his triumph over Nekros.

Patroclus watched with amusement as Achilles was hoisted into the air, laughing as he slopped
wine over the people who were all chanting his name. He was grinning wildly, drunk on victory
and the praise of his subjects. Patroclus shook his head exasperatedly as Achilles began to chant his
own name along with them.

“To Achilles and Patroclus!” someone called out. “The best of the Myrmidons!”

Everyone took up the cheer, raising their goblets in great clamour. Patroclus found himself being
clapped on the back and his hand wrung thin, he thanked them all hurriedly in an attempt to escape
his new found fame which was quickly becoming suffocating. Achilles, who was being plied with
wine by a slave girl, did not notice him slip out the back door.

It was very late and the sky was pitch dark, except for the glow of light and laughter that grew less
as Patroclus increased his pace. There was no one about, for everyone was in the Hall celebrating
and his footsteps sounded eerily loud across the cold stone. His pulse too had quickened, he could
almost hear his heart pounding with every step.

As Thetis’ handmaiden, Pamaia had her very own quarters in the palace. Patroclus traced the route
automatically, his mind somehow disconnected from his body and conscious. There was still a part
of him that was screaming What are you doing? What are you doing?! But he ignored it, steeling
himself as he reached her door.

He knocked twice and waited. There was a short pause in which he considered fleeing for all his
life was worth, then he heard movement and with a click she opened the door.

She smiled when she saw him. “Patroclus,” she said, the word barely escaping her lips. “I’m glad
you came.”

Patroclus nodded, doubting his ability to form coherent sentences. Pamaia was wearing a long
chiton of an impossibly light, floating material which did little to disguise the curve of her breasts
and hips, nor the warm glow of her skin. Her long, shining black hair had been thrown over one
shoulder, revealing the fine line of her collar bone. Even in the dark, her kohl-lined eyes glimmered
like tiny candle flames. Patroclus swallowed. Hard.

“What are you waiting for?” she asked, her lip twitching teasingly.

And without a moment’s hesitation, Patroclus took a breath and stepped inside. The door clicked
shut behind him.
 Eratos

The door clicked shut behind him, like the slam of a prison cell. Patroclus felt a shiver of dread
course through him. He was at the point of no return. From this moment on, there would be no
going back. Pamaia hovered round the room lighting candles and incense. As she bent her neck
light fell on her skin and danced in her black hair, like little drops of flame had been snatched up
and caught in the thick, shining tresses. The glow of the lamps flickered on her body, the thin
material of her dress barely concealing her nakedness beneath.

She straightened up and faced him, the stick of incense in her hand streaming smoke into the warm
air. Patroclus watched with a lump in his throat as she reached for the clasp of her dress.

“It’s alright,” she crooned soothingly. “It’s natural to be nervous. I know you haven’t done this
before.”

Apparently, this was supposed to make him feel better. Instead the lump in his throat swelled and
tightened as Pamaia lifted the material away from her body. Inch by inch the dress slid off,
brushing softly as an insect’s wing over her bare flesh until she stood before him, fully naked, her
hair falling in waves over her breasts and dark skin glowing in the candlelight. She stood before
him, her eyes boring into his with dangerous magnetic force, like Aphrodite emerging from the
ocean foam. Patroclus’ mouth grew dry.

She took a step towards him, her lustrous hips swaying sensually. Patroclus kept his eyes fixed
forward, not allowing himself to look down at that small patch of dark between her legs. She
stepped nearer and he realised his palms were sweating, all the more when she took his hand and
placed it on her hip.

“Come on,” she murmured, holding his hand against her body. “Show me what metal you are
made of.”

Her skin was soft, like jasmine petals and bed sheets. He could smell the jasmine in her perfume,
soft and sweet and cloying. Patroclus gripped her hips, tracing the gentle curve of waist to buttock
but it was like someone had built a wall in his head. He could not think to do anything, only hold
her. Then suddenly she had slid up against his torso and was pressing herself upon him, her thighs
grasping his, her breasts with their hardened nipples digging into his chest. The shock of it made
Patroclus want to speak but he was prevented from forming words by the addition of Pamaia’s
tongue in his mouth.

She was so soft, her lips opening and budding like little roses around his, her tongue flickering like
vines along the grooves of his mouth. Patroclus stood frozen as a block of marble. The wall in his
head had grown larger and reinforced; try as he might he could not get past it. Her tongue was
cleaving and intrusive, he felt like some fat serpent had slithered in bringing with it a sickly sweet
toxin that was spreading everywhere; blocking up his throat and nostrils until he could take no
more. He broke away.

Pamaia looked at him frowningly. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” Patroclus shook his head quickly. “Just…nerves. Like you said, I’m sort of new to
this.”

Pamaia said nothing, only brought his lips to hers again. As her mouth worked fiercely on his
Patroclus mentally cursed himself.
You are not a man until you do this thing, he told himself. You are no one until you do this thing.
Spurred on by his own reproach he kissed her harder, his hand moving towards her left breast.
Encouraged, she brought their bodies closer together until there was no breathing space between
them. Patroclus felt like he was being buried alive. Typical, said a little voice at the back of his
head. Can’t even stir your sword to take a woman. Achilles managed it. Enjoyed it, too. But then,
he’s more of a man than you’ll ever be.

Achilles. Patroclus imagined him striding into the room, slipping out of his chiton and tossing it
roughly to the side. He imagined the light falling on his lean muscles and torso, the sandalwood
brown of his skin glimmering with gold as he grabbed Pamaia. He thought of the way the tendons
in his back would shift and flex as he moved against her, how his mouth would claim hers with
almost violent, dominating intensity. His hands on her body, rough and calloused as they were with
their scars, etched mementoes of one of their glorious fights. Shoving her roughly onto the bed,
pinning her down onto the mattress and grazing his teeth against her neck. And for the first time
since he’d entered the room, Patroclus felt his cock twitch.

But then Pamaia brought his hand to that place between her legs and Patroclus remembered what
was happening. The warning bells in his head were going off again, he snatched his hand away as
if burnt. Eyes flickered open. Pamaia was staring at him accusingly.

“What is wrong with you?” she snapped.

“Nothing!”

“Then why are you still soft?” she gestured to where, beneath his chiton, his member still hung
pathetically limp.

Because I don’t want jasmine, his heart seemed to scream. I don’t want bed sheets and honey and
vanilla perfume. I want scars and calloused palms and mad, fragile, beauty. I want golden skin and
bronze blood and mostly I want him. How to tell her that no matter how much he might want to he
just…couldn’t. Something inside was stopping him, telling him this was wrong. Patroclus searched
his brain desperately for an answer but landed upon none. Instead he grabbed her arm and kissed
her again, furiously, determinedly. He would break down this wall, he resolved. He would
overcome this weakness. Even if it meant using a little imagination.

Achilles’ head tilted back, water trickling out of the corners of his mouth as he drank. Achilles
running, his calves flashing beneath his skin in the sun. Achilles’ mouth inches away from his ear,
his hot breath creeping under his tunic, Achilles’ thighs coiled and tensed around his, slick with
summer sweat and violence, Achilles’ slamming his head against the ground when they wrestled,
the weight of his body pushing him into the dusty ground…

Pamaia’s hands beneath his chiton.

Without thinking, he batted her away, as if swatting a fly. The moment he did so he realised his
mistake. Pamaia’s eyes widened with scandalised insult, Patroclus made to apologise but it was no
use. Her cheeks had flushed scarlet with anger, her dark eyes flints of malice.

“There is something wrong with you,” she snarled. “I thought as much when first I met you. Weak-
hearted and mewling, like a sacrificial lamb. And the way you hanker after the prince. Pathetic. I
suspected there was something of the deviant in you. I didn’t realise you were actually incapable.”

Here she released a sudden, biting laugh, a laugh that chilled Patroclus’ core far quicker than her
words could hope to reach. He stared at her in disbelief; her lovely features were twisted in a dark
mask of mocking cruelty, all affected tenderness disappeared from her eyes which were steely and
black. “Wait,” he said, brain struggling to issue coherent language. “Are you saying that all
along…all this time-”

“-I was playing you from the start?” Pamaia finished for him. “Good Gods. For someone so far
removed from a man you really are remarkably stupid. Did you truly believe that this could be
anything other than an act? Look at yourself!” she gestured carelessly, poking humiliatingly at his
body. “You are, as they say, almost entirely unremarkable. Did you honestly think that someone
like me would look twice at an insignificant nobody like you? You are an amusement. A pawn, if
you will, in a game much bigger than your delusional, teenage-misfit fantasies.”

“You were acting,” he repeated dully to himself, the words tasting foul on his tongue. “Like you
wanted me.”

“I seduced you because I needed you,” Pamaia rolled her eyes. “That’s right. Looks like your ugly
little friend was right all along. Oh yes, don’t think I didn’t hear you whisper. I know exactly what
she thinks of me, as if she were the fucking Queen of Persia rather than some gawky little kitchen
rat. Truth is, I do no more than any girl in this place would do to survive. Except it seems I’ve
rather wasted my time, haven’t I?”

She flung an accusing finger at Patroclus, her long nail digging into his flesh like a harpy’s talon.
“All that effort I’ve spent on you,” she sneered. “You have no idea how sickening it was to look at
you every day and pull that so sad, so yearning expression. Did it make you feel wanted Patroclus?
Did it make you feel special?” She fixed him with a look that was filled with a strange mixture of
disgust and pity. “To think I almost lowered myself onto a blunt sword.”

Her nail drove further and with a sharp, wrenching movement she flung him away. Patroclus
stumbled backwards, tripping on an untucked corner of the carpet. Pamaia laughed coldly,
mercilessly, a vacuous empty thing absent of any human feeling. It was not the laugh of a woman
but a Goddess, a demon, and she was still laughing when Patroclus strode out the room, slamming
the door shut in her face.

oOo

He did not tell anyone about the incident. Leptine sensed, as she always did, that something was
wrong but when she tried to talk to him about it he grew surly and irritable. So instead she
contented herself with a reproachful look and resolved to treat him with haughty distance until he
humbled himself. As it was they barely had a spare moment to see each other anyway, for now
Patroclus’ days revolved around Achilles who, quite predictably, noticed nothing.

The very night of being made his hetairoi slaves had been sent to move all Patroclus’ possessions
into Achilles’ bedroom. A small cot had also been made up at the far end of the room; the sight of
it, with its feather mattress and throws of soft animal skins had almost made Patroclus weak at the
knees after months spent wrapped in the threadbare, moth-eaten blankets of the slaves’ quarters. It
was also right next to the window and when Patroclus couldn’t sleep he would listen to the gentle
wash of the waves, synonymous with the rise and fall of Achilles’ chest. He would look at him in
the dark, the child-like serenity of his sleep making him appear so much younger than he really
was as the moonlight tangled itself in his hair and limbs.

After the incident with Pamaia Patroclus found sleeping more of a chore than ever. He would lie
awake in his comfortable bed feeling like his skin was on fire with these feelings he could never
declare or act on, feelings he didn’t even understand. Lying on his side he would search Achilles’
face for answers or at the very least some inclination that he wasn’t going insane but all he would
feel was a crippling sense of desire, creeping on him like a disease and setting an ache in his bones
and in his head. In the end he was lucky if he had managed to close his eyes for an hour or two and
in the morning would have to think of a fresh excuse to Achilles’ insistent questioning as to why he
was so tired.

One such night came a few days later; Patroclus had lain awake for hours wondering if Achilles
would notice if he were to move the pillow that was blocking his face from view so that by the
time sleep finally arrived it came as a welcome relief. However, it seemed no sooner had he closed
his eyes that he was shaken rudely awake by the sound of Achilles bounding round the room.

“Good morning sunshine!” he proclaimed, his bright hair framing his face like rays of morning
light. “Who’s ready to learn?”

“No,” Patroclus grumbled, bringing the covers over his head “Not me. No learning today. Find
someone else.”

Achilles chuckled and set about his morning routine. This consisted of skipping round the room
singing “morning’s here” for a solid ten minutes before dropping down to the floor to carry out his
compulsive one-hundred push ups and one-hundred-and-fifty sit ups. Then he would jump back up
to wash and dress and stare at his reflection in the mirror. It was usually around thistime that
Patroclus would think about opening his eyes.

Except today he was prevented from dozing off by a new addition to the custom. He had just
yanked the blankets over his eyes and was beginning to sink back into his pillow when he felt the
cot creak with extra weight and Achilles clambered into bed with him.

“Rise and shine,” he crowed cheerfully, snaking his arms around Patroclus’ waist. “It’s a beautiful
day. To waste it is a sin.”

“Wha-no, Achilles, get off!” grumbled Patroclus, wrenching the covers over to his side of the bed.

Achilles propped his chin on Patroclus’ shoulder; he could feel him frown against him. “That’s not
a very sunny attitude,” he replied with a pout. “Looks like someone took a little trip to Grumpy
Land last night.”

“Fuck off,” Patroclus huffed, aiming a kick at him from under the covers. It missed but Achilles
rolled out of the bed anyway, laughing, ruffled Patroclus’ hair and skipped away. Patroclus lay still
for a little while, cursing his reddened cheeks and tensed muscles before brushing his dishevelled
hair out of his eyes and following Achilles to the wash basin.

He was right, it was a beautiful morning. The sky was a brilliant, hopeful blue with not a cloud to
be seen, except for the dark scowl that had settled on Patroclus’ face and prevented him from
enjoying anything from the warm air to the sun’s caress on the back of his neck. Pamaia had
visited him in his dreams last night and his sleep was haunted by the sound of her high-pitched,
demonic laughter that even now drowned out the birds’ song. While Achilles whistled on his way
to their first lesson Patroclus followed morosely, kicking at stray pebbles and insects, (although he
later felt bad about that and offered a honey cake to a nearby anthill) Pamaia’s insults ringing in his
skull.

As a companion to the prince, Patroclus was required to attend all his lessons and training in order
to make him into a suitable confidante and strategist for the future king of Phthia. This morning
they had Philosophy which ordinarily he would have been pleased about, considering the sessions
usually ended up in heated argument between the two of them which usually continued in some
sort of physical form outside. But as they sat down before Phoenix who promptly announced that
today they would be discussing the various and different interpretations of “love” he felt a little
like disappearing into his cushion.
“So who can tell me what kinds of love there are?” Phoenix asked, blithely oblivious to Patroclus’
stricken expression.

Achilles and Patroclus exchanged a hopeless look. Although they regularly sat up late into the
night discussing the more thought-provoking questions of nature they instinctively tended to keep
away from such sentimental or, as Achilles dubbed them, “effeminate” topics. “Erm,” said
Achilles. “There’s philia, storge and…eratos, is it?”

“It mostly certainly is,” Phoenix nodded gravely. “And can you give me a definition of any of
them?”

“Well, philia is like, friendship,” Achilles answered hesitantly. “Storge is family love or affection,
like how you’d feel towards your parents or your siblings and then eratos is romance or
something?”

Phoinix nodded, his long, grey-streaked russet beard bouncing up and down on his knee. “Very
vague,” he replied. “But basically correct. Philia is indeed as you say the platonic bond between
two people, a dispassionate, virtuous love that includes devotion and loyalty towards friends,
members of your family, fellow soldiers, countrymen etcetera. It is a mental love, residing
primarily in the mind and therefore can be seen as more rational or logical than the other kinds, as
erratic bodily impulses hold no sway over it.

Storge is the natural, compulsive love such as that felt by parents towards their offspring and vice
versa. While philia comes from the mind, storge love emanates from the heart, in deep-seated
emotional affection that survives even when all civility in the relationship has gone, for example
say you quarrelled with your father and crossed swords. The philial bond will have broken down,
however you would be reluctant to kill him due to the knowledge in your heart that you still love
him.

And finally eratos, or “romantic love”. Eratos is physical, passionate desire; romantic feeling
without logical reason. Eratos comes from the body and is therefore invariably sexual in nature. It
is pure sensual emotion, the kind of thing that happens when a young man meets a pretty girl for
the first time and says he is “in love” with her. But sure as the body breaks down, sags, becomes
old and loses its vitality, so eratos is equally ephemeral. The initial fire of a relationship will die
down and disappear over time if it does not have more lasting foundations behind it.”

Phoenix leaned back in his chair, folding his hands before him as he surveyed his two students.
“But you have missed one,” he told them. “There is one other word left, one people often forget.”
He fixed an earthy, brown eye on Patroclus who avoided his gaze. “Patroclus,” he said. “Perhaps
you know the answer?”

Achilles looked at him expectantly. Patroclus fiddled with the embroidery on his cushion.
“Agape,” he answered dully.

Phoenix nodded appraisingly. “Correct. Agape. Otherwise known as true, unconditional love. Less
tangible and often less recognisable than the other three kinds, yet far more powerful. In fact, some
have professed it to be the strongest force in the entire Universe, capable of altering the will of the
Gods and perhaps even fate itself. Unlike philia, storge and eratos, agape love is completely
selfless, willing the good of another while expecting nothing in return. This is what makes it so
rare. Even the purest, truest loves often expect something back. But agape supersedes common
human traits and physical boundaries. It is not from the head nor the heart nor the body but from
the soul and this is the reason it is so powerful. For only the soul lives forever, possessing true
immortality, while everything can only wither and die.”
Phoenix paused dramatically, as if to see what effect his words had had on them. Patroclus was still
much involved with the embroidered pattern on his cushion and did not look up. Achilles however,
was looking sceptical. “So,” he began. “You really expect us to believe that the most powerful
thing in this world is an incorporeal, totally conceptual super-force that comes from something we
don’t even know exists?”

“Of course the soul exists,” Patroclus retorted, although why he was so sure about this he had no
idea.

Achilles raised an eyebrow. “Really?” he asked. “Show it to me.”

Patroclus made to respond but could think of no reply. Achilles nodded smugly. “You see,” he
continued. “I think, therefore I must have a brain. Something beats in my chest and sends blood
around through my veins, so I know I have a heart. People regularly faint when I walk by and I
know they are looking at my body. But a soul?” he shrugged doubtfully. “I see no evidence for
this.”

“Just because you can’t see something doesn’t mean it’s not there,” Patroclus pointed out. “What
about wind or time or happiness? The word is too complex for just the material.”

“Yeah I get that,” said Achilles impatiently. “And I’m not saying love doesn’t exist, or anything. I
love my father for example, and I’ve witnessed the bond between brothers-in-arms and the way a
man looks at his wife. But I just don’t accept this agape stuff is real. People are too selfish and
greedy to love unconditionally, without expecting something in return. More often than not what
people call “true love” is really just eratos disguising itself.”

“If there was no such thing as agape then why would people worship Aphrodite in so many
forms?” Patroclus argued.

“I don’t know,” Achilles countered. “Perhaps because people have been wrong for so many years
it would be an embarrassment to admit it now?”

“Oh you’re just being contrary,” Patroclus snapped.

“Boys, boys, please,” Phoenix said wearily, with the air of a man who had said the same many
times before. “Why don’t we look at what Master Chiron had to say on the subject?”

An hour later the two struggled back into the sunlight, their heads fuzzy with theorems and
technical vocabulary. The day was hotter than ever and they raced down to the sea to cool off, the
cold water a welcome relief to their limbs, aching from sitting in a classroom all morning.
Patroclus sat in the surf, letting the waves wash over his knees and legs while he watched Achilles
dive into the waves and come up again like a bobbing cork. Try as he might he was unable to tear
his gaze away from his glistening arms and skin damp with saltwater and he wondered whether this
was love, the way he desired and yearned for this lovely, lovely boy, or “just eratos, disguising
itself”. And if it was really just eratos then why was it directed only at Achilles, why couldn’t he
stir it for Pamaia or some other woman?

It’s because you’re a “deviant”, said the sly little voice at the back of his head. Didn’t you hear
her? You’re a sick, twisted, parody of nature. A pervert. A freak.

Achilles emerged from the sea, shaking water out of his hair like a puppy and lay down next to
Patroclus on the sand with his hands behind his head. Patroclus looked at him from beneath his
eyelashes. There was a thin trail of light golden hairs that snaked from his navel to beneath his
chiton, now wrapped around his waist. For the life of him, Patroclus could not see how he hadn’t
noticed it before.

“Paint a mural, it’ll last longer,” said Achilles with his eyes closed.

Patroclus almost jumped out of his skin and muttered something nonsensical while Achilles
sniggered. “Some lesson huh?” he said at last. “Honestly don’t know why Phoenix became a
soldier, he’s much more suited to teaching.”

“Mmm,” replied Patroclus absently. “Achilles, do you really believe all that stuff you said about
love or were you just being a pretentious maverick?”

“Bit of both,” Achilles admitted. “Don’t call me pretentious.”

“But how can you be so cynical about it?” Patroclus ignored him. “Especially when so many
people have experienced it and sung about it and written about it-”

“-Maybe it’s because so many have experienced it,” Achilles interrupted him. “When so many
people claim to have “fallen in love” it kind of takes the magic out of it a little, don’t you think?
Turns it into a myth, almost. Anyway like I said, I don’t doubt philia or storge or eratos. I just find
the whole agape thing a little hard to swallow. Especially when you look at my parents. It’s hard to
believe that anything everexisted there at all, that they even liked each other once is debatable.
After they separated the idea of love was sort of…spoiled for me. I don’t know. Maybe it’s
because I’ve never experienced it. It’s hard to appreciate something you have no knowledge of.”

He lapsed into silence, looking contemplatively out at the waves. Patroclus felt something squirm
inside him at his words, he took a shaky breath as he breathed his next question. “So,” he all but
whispered, his stomach a tense knot. “You’ve never been in love, then?”

Achilles turned to look at him, his eyes wide as if the question had caught him off guard. The few
seconds he paused before his answer were the longest in Patroclus’ life. “No,” he said finally.

There was another silence but for the sea lapping the shore. Achilles was chewing his bottom lip.
They both knew what they wanted to ask yet, the question hung in the air like the seagulls above
their heads until Patroclus took the plunge.

“But you’ve…” he swallowed and his mouth instantly grew dry. “…Been with someone?”

“Not…all the way,” Achilles admitted. “Girls have always liked me and I’ve always liked the
attention. The furthest I’ve been is when I was fourteen and there was this shepherd’s daughter… I
used to see her sometimes when I was out hunting. She tended the goats up on the hills behind the
palace. I got quite friendly with her…she liked me quite a lot I think. Once she asked me to touch
her under her skirt…I was a bit clumsy and I didn’t really know what I was doing but she didn’t
seem to mind.” His cheeks had taken on a pinkish hue and he looked decidedly embarrassed.
“After that I sort of…lost interest, really.”

He looked back at Patroclus who was sifting sand between his fingers, determined trying not to
picture Achilles rolling around in the grass with pig-tailed, freckled shepherd’s daughter. “What
about you?” Achilles asked softly.

Patroclus shook his head, blushing. “No,” he replied. “Never.”

“Really?” said Achilles, truly surprised, his voice barely above a whisper. “But I thought…you and
Leptine…”

“No!” Patroclus protested, louder than he had intended. “Gods, no!”

 “You said you hadn’t at the trial,” Achilles wondered aloud, more to himself than anyone else.
“But I thought you were just backing up your case...so you mean you really never…?”

“Never,” Patroclus reiterated. “God…to even think it….no. She’s like my sister. I’ve never even
thought about…that…before. With her, I mean.”

Achilles made a sound that could either have been amusement or disbelief. Unwilling to risk losing
yet another shred of dignity, Patroclus dropped the topic and the two of them lay together on the
beach in a not altogether comfortable silence. But by the time the sun had dropped and a breeze
was beginning to brush over the sea’s surface, Patroclus thought Achilles looked rather pleased
with himself as they walked back to the palace, although again he could not fathom why.

oOo

That night Patroclus’ sleep was plagued with dreams. He dreamt he was being strangled slowly to
death with a silk scarf to high-pitched, female laughter while Achilles stood in the dark and told
him he did not believe he was really dying and therefore could not possibly help. He woke up
gasping and gulping for air, certain he had woken Achilles with his fitful tossing and turning.
However Achilles, was not in his bed. The covers had been thrown off, displaying the milk white
mattress beneath which lay as still and pale as a tombstone. Patroclus sat up and looked round the
room. He was nowhere to be seen.

It was then that he noticed the door was slightly ajar.

Logic told him he should forget about it and go back to sleep, that Achilles would be back again in
the morning or that he had somehow slipped into another stupid dream. But as if by its own accord
his body was acting instinctively; without hesitation he climbed out of bed and made for the door.

Achilles’ room sat at the top of a steep stone staircase. Patroclus headed down it cautiously,
conscience of the flat sound his feet made against the cold floor. It was late at night and everyone
was asleep, even the guards on shift were drowsing on each other’s shoulders, an empty wineskin
rolling at their feet. Turning away from them, Patroclus realised he could hear voices somewhere
along the corridor. Heart in mouth, he followed them until he was peering behind one of the walls.

There were two voices, raised heatedly as if in argument. The boy’s he recognised instantly as
Achilles’, the other, an unknown female’s. Whoever she was, she sounded close to tears.

“-Like a stranger to me, hardly see you anymore. You spend all your spare time with him-”

“-What, so I can’t have even have friends now?”

“You never needed them before! What happened to the days when just I was enough?”

“I was a lot younger then. A lot more…dependent…”

“You don’t need me anymore, is that it?”

“No, of course not-”

“-Oh so you don’t want me! I’ve got to say, that explains an awful lot!”

“Don’t be ridiculous, of course I still want you, how could I not want you-”

“-What happened to the boy who used to hold me to him? Like I was all he could ever need in the
world? You’ve changed so much…I barely recognise you!”
“Stop it, calm down, you’re being silly-”

“-I’M BEING SILLY?! YOU DON’T LOVE ME ANYMORE!”

“Shush! Be quiet, please! Of course I love you, I’ve always loved you and I always will! Nothing
is ever going to change that! Please don’t I cry, you know I love you…”

The woman had burst into tears; Achilles was now making soft, muffled crooning noises, as he
attempted to comfort her, presumably into her hair. Patroclus did not stay to find out; already he
was flying back up the stairs and into his bedroom where he shut the door and buried himself under
the covers of his bed, drawing the pillow over his head to blot out the sound of the woman’s
wailing sobs echoing in his ears. And for the first time in a long while, he cried himself to sleep.
 Storge
Chapter Notes

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Sorry this chapter's a little late but I am at long last on summer holiday (queue the
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once a week for at least the next month!

Achilles did not come back until early the next morning.

“Good Gods, I’m exhausted,” he declared, flinging himself dramatically upon his mattress. He
yawned loudly and rubbed his eyes, then immediately jumped up. “I want to climb the temple of
Aristaeus.”

Patroclus sent him an evil look from under the covers. “No.”

“Why not?” Achilles whined. “He’s the God of bee-keeping and fruit trees. Or are you afraid he’ll
sting us to death?”

“I’m not afraid, I just don’t want to,” Patroclus replied. Waspishly.

Achilles looked taken aback. “Okay,” he shrugged. “Then we could do that translation project
Phoenix set us? My Syrian Cave Giant’s pretty good but I think my Mermish lacks lustre-”

“-Finished it,” interrupted Patroclus abruptly, getting up to wash his face.

“Oh,” said Achilles. “Right. Well what do you want to do? We’ve got no lessons. The world is our
oyster. Let’s go stalk a mountain lion!”

“Oh yes, the famous mountain lions of the Phthian beach,” Patroclus retorted, pulling a tunic over
his head and heading for the door.

Achilles watched him frowningly from the bed. “Hey, where are you going?” he asked.

“Out,” Patroclus snapped and closed the door before he had time to ask where.

As he set off down the staircase it occurred to him that perhaps he was not being particularly fair.
Achilles clearly had no idea what he had supposedly “done wrong” and technically, technically, he
wasn’t exactly guilty of offense. It wasn’t as if he’d broken any vows or anything. There was no
rule bound in solemn oath that the prince should seek his companion’s approval before
becoming…intimate…with anyone else. But as memories of the previous night and the shaking
sounds of a woman’s sobs rung against the walls of his skull, Patroclus could not help but think
that Achilles had betrayed him somehow.

It’s because he didn’t tell me, he reasoned with himself. He’s at perfect liberty to do whatever he
likes with whoever he likes. But he should have told me. I’m his best friend. I should know these
things.
Yes, that was it. Achilles hiding this girl from him was more than plain secrecy. It was a betrayal
of trust. They had promised they’d never lie to each other and here was Achilles, after stating he
had never been in love, swearing undying affection to some scorned maiden. Patroclus recalled the
softness in his voice when he spoke to her, the gentle warmth in his words as he held her to him
and he felt his eyeballs prick. He wiped them furiously with his sleeve. How could he have been so
stupid to believe, to hope, when all along he had some girl sitting patiently in the corners of his
mind, waiting for his embrace and filling his head with thoughts of her? How could he possibly
ever match up?

He marched straight into the slaves’ quarters without knocking. As the door banged open a
hundred bodies jumped up with a start, then upon seeing who it was, returned to their previous
state of casual indifference.

“Where’s Leptine?” Patroclus asked Loras who was lounging atop his mattress, picking his teeth
with a piece of fish bone.

Loras did not look up, only resumed the scraping of his molar. “Where’s Leptine, what?” he said
coolly.

Patroclus rolled his eyes. “Where’s Leptine, Loras?”

Loras gave him a disdainful look from under his lids. “I do not answer to anything other than my
full title.”

“For fucksake Loras, I really don’t have time for-”

“Oh do you not have time?” Loras’ eyes flashed angrily. “Forgive me young master, I forgot you
lords have so much more to do than we little folk. Am I making you late for a hair appointment?
Or is it a wine tasting? I’ve always wondered…exactly how fruity is the Cyprian? Whatever it is,
I’m sure it’s so much more important than my role in the establishment-”

“-Please keryx Loras, Vassal of Hermes, semi-fulltime messenger official, swift-footed lord of the
silver caduceus, will you kindly fucking tell me where Leptine is?” said Patroclus, tapping his foot
impatiently.

Loras gave him a look that could curdle milk and returned to picking his teeth. “She’s out the
back,” he replied.

“Thank you,” said Patroclus, with a sarcastic bow.

Loras returned with the finger. “Have fun at your wine tasting,” he shouted at his retreating figure.

Leptine was out back, as Loras had said, overseeing what looked like the planting of a hundred
glowing pumpkins. On closer inspection however, Patroclus saw that they were lanterns, lined up
either side of a neatly swept pathway that winded into the forest. “What’s all this?” he asked her.

“Oh these?” she said airily, wiping her muddy hands on her apron. “Preparations for Beltane.”

She must have registered the blank expression on Patroclus’ face for her eyes widened in disbelief.
“You’re not telling me you haven’t heard of Beltane?”

Patroclus scratched the back of his neck awkwardly. “Of course I’ve heard of it,” he defended
himself in discomfort. “It’s the one where pagans have giant orgies and dance naked around the
fires of human sacrifice…?”
Leptine gave him her famous withering look. “I’m going to excuse that exhibition of ignorance and
xenophobia on the basis of a very exclusive and narrow-minded upbringing,” she told him.

“Thanks,” said Patroclus gratefully, hurrying to follow her over to where slaves were hanging
streamers. “So…what exactly is it? Something to do with the spring, right?”

“Sort of,” replied Leptine dryly. “It usually takes place on the cusp of spring and summer. It
celebrates the coming of summer and the fertility of the upcoming year. At this time, the Horned
God reaches maturity and is allowed to court the Great Goddess. It is their divine union that gives
the soil its fertility, allows the crops to take seed and grow and grants the community a fruitful
harvest come autumn.”

“Wait…what?” Patroclus frowned. “Great Goddess? Horned God? I thought their worship died out
years ago?”

“It did, but some parts of the land still remember the Old Religion. Long before your Zeus and
Hera sat on Olympus the Great Goddess had absolute power over everything and the Horned God
of the woods was her consort. Although most of the Old Ways were driven out by Olympian rule
you can still see elements of Her in much of your worship. Now I suppose She goes by your name
of Demeter, and He as your God Pan.”

Patroclus nodded his understanding. He’d forgotten that there was a religion and a way of being
before the priests began to make sacrifices to the Olympians. Even back in Opus he remembered a
tiny few leaving offerings for the “earth mother” at the base of large trees. When he’d asked his
own mother about it, she’d told him that long ago the Goddess held dominion over all that was, but
then she quarrelled with the new Gods and was overthrown in an ancient battle. Since then she was
confined only to the harvest and the deep wood, passing out of human knowledge and worship.
Menoetius, however, took a different view, saying there was no such thing as an almighty Goddess
and never had been, that it was some foolish fancy that only served to give women “big ideas”. He
then proceeded to ban the Beltane festival as “savage” and “uncivilised”, clearing out the earth
mother’s followers as if weeding a garden.

“So where do all the orgies come into it?” Patroclus snickered, watching two girls struggle with an
enormous May pole.

“Because it is essentially a fertility festival the rituals usually involve courting,” Leptine explained
matter-of-factly. “Boys and girls are expected to go together to the celebrations. Matches are made,
some even ending up in marriages (more often than not as a result of the couples’ own fertility). It
is the most overtly sexual festival we have all year…but mostly it’s just really fun and there’s food
and a bonfire and everyone gets really drunk and has a fantastic time. It’s like…the best thing ever.
I cannot believe you don’t do Beltane.”

Patroclus shook his head. “My father banned all worship of other Gods,” he explained. “He saw it
as a challenge to his own authority. And he was a very firm believer of keeping women in their
place, didn’t even like people praying to Hera, Athena and Aphrodite much. But such practices
aren’t really popular in the South anyway. Down there we’re more…um…” he trailed off
awkwardly, fearful of giving offense.

But as always, Leptine sensed what he meant. “You’re allowed to think ‘civilised’,” she said with
exasperation in her smile. “But trust me, compared to some of the places I’ve been Phthia is the
absolute pinnacle of progress. Anyway, enough about that. What did you want to see me for?”

Patroclus dropped his eyes to the dirt, scuffing the ground with his sandal. “I’m sorry,” he said
defensively. “Does one need a reason to drop by and say ‘hello’ to his favourite person?”
“Yes,” replied Leptine, crossing her arms with a raised eyebrow. “When it’s the first time he’s
decided to just ‘drop by and say hello’ in weeks.”

Immediately, shame coursed through Patroclus as he realised that this was, in fact, the first time
he’d seen her in a long while. In fact, this was the first time he’d even been down to this part of the
palace in ages, something probably connected with Loras’ less than kindly welcome. “Leptine I’m
so sorry,” he began to fluster. “I’ve been so-”

“-Busy, preoccupied, engrossed in adapting to life in a different social circle,” she waved his
excuses away as if batting a moth. “I know. Don’t worry about it, I’m just teasing. Now, tell me
what’s really up.”

Patroclus didn’t reply. Leptine searched his face for the answer before sighing exasperatedly. “It’s
Achilles, isn’t it? What’s he done now?”

Patroclus shrugged, wriggling his foot out of the hole he’d made in the ground. A worm had
wound its way round his big toe. He shook it off gently, aware that Leptine was still scrutinising
him. She sighed again. “You two,” she said tiredly. “I don’t think I’ve ever met two people more
able to get to each other. Whether it was something you said or something he did…you’re like two
women. No, you’re like a married couple.” She tilted her head quizzically at the sudden blush
flushing his cheeks. “What?”

“Nothing,” replied Patroclus quickly. “I don’t know. We’re just both very…strong willed, I
suppose. Anyway, it’s his fault this time, not mine.”

“Oh really?” Leptine raised the other eyebrow. “How so?”

In vain, Patroclus struggled to articulate the depths of Achilles’ deceit without mentioning the
argument he had overheard or the feelings, these days so close to the surface, that he had been
struggling so valiantly to supress. He also made sure to leave out his little encounter with Pamaia,
certain it was unlikely to get him into Leptine’s good books. As a result his explanation was
muddled and ambiguous and by the time it eventually petered out he was quite unsure of what he’d
just said.

Leptine too was looking singularly unimpressed. “It sounds to me like you don’t know why you’re
angry,” she voiced reasonably. “Any more than he does, I expect. You shouldn’t just leave him
confused like that. He’s probably wracking his brains this minute, trying to remember what he’s
done wrong.”

Patroclus thought of Achilles, murmuring his worries into some sweet-smiling, understanding face
and snorted derisively. “I highly doubt it.”

She frowned at him and he looked back down at his feet. He knew she was right, that he was being
ridiculous and illogical and stupid and that there was absolutely no reason for him to be angry or
upset. If he had any rational sense he’d just tell Achilles what was up.

Oh great, and how would that conversation go? he argued with himself. Hey man, sorry I was
cold with you this morning. It’s just I’ve been experiencing these odd spurts of intense homoerotic
lust and yearning for you and due to my complete social ineptitude and deep-seated
emotional/psychological issues, probably stemming back to early childhood trauma, passive
aggression is really the only way I can handle it. Oh, and did I mention, I love you so much it hurts
sometimes? If he was lucky, he’d get off with a bloodied jaw.

As he pottered around helping Leptine with Beltane decorations and talking about life in the slaves’
quarters a part of him wished he could tell her everything, from how he felt about Achilles to what
had almost happened with Pamaia. But every time he got close something pulled him back. It was
partly the fact that he just couldn’t find the right words but mostly he was terrified of her reaction.
The thought of her looking at him differently, as a freak or a “deviant” was more than he could
bear. And as much as he wished he could just crack open his skull and let everything come pouring
out he valued her friendship too much to risk her disgust.

Helping Leptine with her chores provided a double service in that it allowed him to spend time
with her and away from Achilles. But when noon came and Amyntor called her away to attend to
her other duties, he was left alone to think of more creative ways to avoid him. He managed this
fairly well, arranging for a practice session with Ampelius to improve his sword arm, dropping in
on friends who also had the day off and even offering to help Phoenix answer his letters. But when
dinner was called and the habitants of the palace filed into the Great Hall, he realised he could go
invisible no longer.

Achilles was sitting in his usual seat, waiting patiently for Patroclus to take his place beside him.
When Patroclus stalked by, sparing him only a snotty look and sitting instead next to Deiomachus
and Calisthenes, his eyes narrowed in indignation. In one swift movement he pushed his plate away
and marched towards them; Patroclus, who was rather enjoying being pursued for a change,
pretended not to notice and made a big deal of cutting his chicken until Achilles was standing right
next to him.

“Patroclus,” said Achilles.

Patroclus took his wine cup and raised it to his lips. “Yes?” he asked, muffled against the rim.

“I want to talk to you,” Achilles replied, through gritted teeth.

“That’s nice,” said Patroclus.

A nerve jumped in Achilles’ jaw, Patroclus could see it twitching beneath his skin like the flutter
of a butterfly’s wing. “I want to talk to you in private,” he reiterated, voice tense with the effort of
staying calm.

Patroclus looked up at Achilles. Their eyes met, a blazing clash of impetuous fury. He drained his
cup, stood and followed him out of the Hall. As soon as they were alone, Achilles rounded on him.
“Why are you being such a pissy bitch?”

Patroclus’ eyes widened in outrage. “A pissy…a…piss…You tell me!”

“If I knew I wouldn’t have asked,” Achilles retorted, folding his arms across his chest
challengingly. “Come on. This morning you act like someone rammed a hot spear up your arse.
You avoid me all day and now this? What’s going on with you? And don’t lie to me okay, I hate it
when you do that. Like, more than anything.”

“Okay one, that’s horrible imagery,” snapped Patroclus. “And two, are you fucking serious? You
hate it when I lie to you? What about you, Mr ‘Morally Impeccable?’ Or is this a one way thing?
Do the normal rules not apply to the Golden Boy, God Amongst Men?”

Achilles wrinkled his nose. “What are you talking about?”

Patroclus laughed hollowly. “Oh please,” he scoffed. “At least have the decency to be honest now.
As much as I commend your effort, it really is degrading to the both of us.”

“I swear to Zeus you could be talking Mermish right now,” said Achilles.
Patroclus stared at his blank, perplexed face in furious disbelief. “You lied to me,” he hissed.
“When you said there was no one else. When you said you’d never been in love.”

Achilles’ eyebrows knitted together in confusion. “No I didn’t.”

“Please Achilles, stop,” Patroclus groaned, throwing his hands up in despair. “I know about her. I
heard you arguing last night. You told her that you loved her and always would. And for someone
who doesn’t believe in true love that sounded pretty bloody true to me. Not that I care or anything,
like, do what you want. But you could have at least told me, I mean we’re supposed to share these
things, but I don’t know, maybe we’re not as close as I thought we were, maybe you don’t see our
friendship the way as I do-”

“-Hold up, princess,” Achilles cut him off. “You heard me arguing last night? With a woman?”

Patroclus nodded apprehensively. “She sounded pretty upset Achilles, you should be nicer to your
one-true-loves. And don’t fucking call me princess okay, just because I like to share my feelings-”

“-My Gods,” Achilles was shaking his head, a grin splitting his face. “You are such a little
shithead.”

Patroclus opened his mouth to retort but was shocked to find that Achilles had exploded into a fit of
laughter. “I can hardly see what’s so funny,” he muttered with dignity which only served to make
him laugh harder, his hands clasped across his stomach as he bent back and forth with hilarity,
tears pooling in his irises in an uncontrollable fit of mirth. Patroclus waited impatiently for him to
stop, looking round anxiously in case anybody walked by, feeling steadily more and more like an
idiot.

Finally, Achilles straightened up, wiped his eyes and attempted to fix his face into an unconvincing
serious expression. “Patroclus,” he said, the corner of his mouth twitching. “I think it’s time I
introduced you to someone.”

oOo

They abandoned dinner, Achilles still being prone to random fits of shaking his head and giggling,
Patroclus feeling too embarrassed and confused to face food. Achilles refused to elaborate on the
situation, telling him all would become clear if he “shut up and stopped being a twat for a second”.
Which is how Patroclus came to find himself following Achilles as he made his way across the
beach, marking a strange route through rock pools and reed banks as if dodging Greek Fire on a
battlefield.

It was getting to be late evening now; the day had melted into that warm buttery glow which fell
upon the rocks and seaweed like the touch of Midas. It fell on the sea too, the waves shining with
gilds of copper and blue yet Patroclus thought he’d never seen it look so hostile. It was like it was
judging him, waiting patiently for the moment when he would slip up. There was a slight chill to
the air and Patroclus shivered as he missed his footing and came plunging into a small rock pool.

Achilles glanced behind him at the splash. “You okay?”

“Fine,” Patroclus replied airily. “It’s only water.”

Achilles nodded and walked on until he reached a large grey boulder jutting out from a fringe of
reed beds, circled by a number of smaller rocks whose nobly brown heads could be seen, peeking
out from the foam. He waited for Patroclus to catch up, frowning concernedly. “You look cold.”

Patroclus peered at his arms where tiny goose-pimples had erupted. “I am a little,” he admitted.
“Here,” said Achilles and he put his arm around him.

At once the shivering subsided. The moment he felt Achilles’ warm weight press in on him
Patroclus felt a flutter inside his chest, like the beating wings of the seagulls overhead. Achilles
drew him closer, folding him into his torso so that Patroclus could feel the heat radiating from him,
as if there were an everlasting fire flickering for eternity in his chest. Yet, thought Patroclus,
breathing in. He smells like the sea. He closed his eyes and leaned against him.

Suddenly a stirring from the ocean forced them open again. Patroclus peered curiously over to
where the surface of the sea appeared ruffled, like someone emerging from rumpled bed sheets. At
once, Achilles’ arm flew off Patroclus’ shoulders and Patroclus’ eyes widened in pure astonishment
as, slowly, limb by limb, a person emerged from the sea foam; first a hand, then an arm, then a leg
until gradually a whole woman could be seen, stepping out of the surf. As she straightened up and
stretched, he felt his mouth drop open.

He was standing face to face with a Goddess. How he knew that he wasn’t sure, for she looked
very much like a normal woman. True her skin was strikingly pale, almost translucently so with an
eerie blue tinge that reminded Patroclus of wet shells. Her whiteness contrasted violently with her
bright red hair which hung in shining tresses all the way down her back, twisting in fabulous knots
like fishermen’s rope. A beautiful grey-green dress which looked as though it had been woven
from the sea itself clung to her slender form but it was the eyes that did it, those brilliant chips of
blue-green lined with a thin ring of gold, eyes like stones buried at the very heart of the sea bed,
eyes that pierced with an intensity that was violent yet magnetising, possessing an allure that was
both strange and dangerous. Eyes that he had seen before.

The woman took a few steps towards them, her long dress trailing in the surf. As she did so
Patroclus noticed she seemed to shimmer slightly, as if her skin were lined with faint, silvery
scales. Her eyes scanned Patroclus’ face briefly, narrowing only a little with suspicion before
passing over him and settling on Achilles’ face. The effect was instantaneous. Her whole face
seemed to light up, as if struck suddenly by the sun.

“Well, well!” she trilled and her voice rang like the little silver bells on a ships’ prow. “This is a
surprise! And there I was, sitting alone in my cave wondering just how long it would be before I
would be allowed even another glimpse of my darling boy only to find him come to me before even
a whole day has gone by!”

She clapped ecstatically and rushed to plant a kiss on Achilles’ cheek. When she moved away
Patroclus saw it had left a bright red mark.

“Patroclus,” said Achilles, in a voice as stiff and dry as driftwood. “I would like you to meet my
mother.”

My mother. The words fell upon Patroclus’ ears with the impact of a thousand but never, never
before had two words been so welcome. Instant comprehension dawned as he matched the high-
pitched, silvery voice of the woman in front of him to the one he had heard last night and realised,
with humiliation, the crushing blow of his stupidity which was not completely swallowed up by the
joyous swell of happiness already ballooning in his chest. Achilles was looking at him smugly, not
even bothering to disguise his delight at the idiotic mixture of surprise and slow understanding
creeping across Patroclus’ face.

“Your…” he swallowed, repeating the words to make them more real. “Your mother…”

“That’s right,” said Thetis with sudden aggression, whipping her head round as if noticing him
suddenly for the first time. “I am his mother. But whom or what, might I ask, are you?”
“This is Patroclus Menoitides, mother,” answered Achilles quickly, gesturing for him to step
forward. “Remember? The one I told you about? My hetairoi?”

“Hetairoi, what’s that?” barked Thetis. “Some sort of handmaiden?”

“Erm, no,” cringed Patroclus, still trying to process the realisation that he was, in fact, having a
conversation with an actual divine being while attempting to block out the sound of Achilles
sniggering. “I’m more of a friend. Type. Person. And a boy, actually.”

“‘A friend type person’?” Thetis repeated incredulously, turning back to Achilles. “Could this
perhaps be the very same ‘friend’ who has been stealing so much of your attention away from me
of late?”

It was Achilles’ turn to blush and look at his feet. “Well,” he mumbled shamefacedly. “I think
‘stealing’ is a bit of a strong word…”

“Oh do you?” rounded Thetis, the gold in her eyes flashing. “Let’s see if I can think of a better one.
‘Thieving’ perhaps? Or ‘diverting’? ‘Pilfering’? ‘Snatching’? ‘Purloining’? ‘Embezzling’?
‘Pinching’? ‘Appropriating’? ‘Nick-”

“-You know what mother, I think he gets it,” Achilles interrupted.

The moment he said the words, Patroclus was sure a chill crept across the water. All he knew was
the goose-pimples were back on his arms and he was terrified to breathe as Thetis’ eyes narrowed
and burned with furious green fire. Feeling as though his limbs had entered some form of paralysis,
he snuck a fraction of a glance at Achilles. He did not look fazed, only faintly bored as he stared
down his mother.

Then suddenly Thetis flipped her long hair and her eyes were sparkling with tears. “You are a
horrible, mean, cruel boy!” she announced. “You are just like your father! And I shall not see you
until you have come to apologise!”

And with that she turned on her shimmering heel and dived back into the sea. Patroclus caught a
flash of long white leg until that too had been swallowed up by the waves, leaving the beach quiet
and lonely once again.

Achilles turned to Patroclus and his voice was apologetic when he spoke. “She’s a little sensitive.”
 Philia

Achilles visited his mother often, and from then on Patroclus frequently went with him. In the light
of these visits it did not take him long to discover that “sensitive” was one of her less demanding
traits.

She was, Patroclus observed, a woman amplified; almost a parody of a female character. It was as
if someone had gathered the common fears, dreams and qualities of all mothers and multiplied
them by the stars. She was extremely over-bearing, fiercely protective and frequently excruciating,
on several occasions even driving Achilles away from her presence by berating him or bringing up
some mortifying story from his childhood. Yet she was also loving and gentle, doting on her son as
if he were a little babe of three years old and could do no wrong in her eyes, a quality that was,
however touching, more than a little disconcerting.

The resemblance between Thetis and her son was not immediately recognisable. When they were
together Achilles was the embodiment of calm and reason, if only to balance out his mother’s wild
temperament. But sometimes when they argued (and that was a thing to behold, if Patroclus had
thought their quarrels were bad this was a whole new level: the waves would crash around their
words, the wind whipping at their long hair and picking up every shouted profanity, lifting it into
the salty air to sting their blazing golden eyes) and mother and son was a more difficult thing to
distinguish. It soon became obvious where Achilles had gained his fiery temper, flighty disposition
and conflicting personality, sometimes relaxed as a calm sea, at other times dangerous as a tempest.

One thing that became immediately apparent to Patroclus was that, like Achilles, Thetis was
fiercely competitive, and especially so for her son’s affections. For the first time Patroclus felt he
really understood all Achilles had gone through while being the prize trophy coveted by both his
mother and father, or as he put it, “the bleeding carcass between the wolf’s lair and the lion’s den.”
Thetis loathed Peleus with a furious, burning passion and the majority of their visitations ended
with her reeling an endless stream of abuse of him while Achilles tried to keep his face from
betraying his anger and Patroclus made bracelets out of shells. She would not let one chance to
upbraid Peleus slip through her fingers and, as Patroclus soon learnt, challenged him over every
decision he made in regard to their son’s welfare.

“Why Zeus granted that man child custody I will never understand!” she screamed after Achilles
had ill-advisedly let slip that Peleus was considering buying him his own chariot. “Does he want to
see his only son and heir lying broken at his feet? Perhaps he does, perhaps his only aim in life is to
spite me! He knows it destroys me to even think of you hurt, everything he does to take you from
me is like a knife in my side…”

To his credit, Achilles would usually bare this without a murmur and only Patroclus noticed the
twitch in his jaw, set a little tighter than usual. But later when they were alone it was as if someone
had uncorked him and his own chastisements would come rushing out.

“All she ever thinks of is her pain, her hardship,” he complained as they sat together on the beach
one morning, the foam still bubbling from where Thetis had dived back into it. “She thinks the
whole world has done her some great personal wrong and no one has anything better to do than
conspire against her. She can’t appreciate anything from anyone else’s point of view, as if the
universe revolves entirely around her.”

Patroclus smiled secretly to himself. Achilles had changed a lot over the last few months, almost to
the point of actual maturity, yet he might well have described himself as he had been only a short
time ago. Achilles noticed and looked at him suspiciously.
“What are you grinning at?” he asked.

“Nothing,” replied Patroclus mildly. “It sounds to me like your mother just wants to make sure she
has an ally in you against Peleus. She’s making a point to show you how badly she has been done
by.”

“Of course she is,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “It has been so since I was weaned. She cannot get
over the fact that I am my father’s son as much as I am hers. She wants it to be me and her against
the world again, like when I was little. But I’m almost a man now and a soldier – my first
allegiance must be to my king.”

Patroclus nodded understandingly. He had been privy to their most explosive fight yet which was
over whether Achilles or ready or not to join the army. Thetis, while taking great delight in her
son’s skills, was of the opinion that getting involved with such trivial matters as regional disputes
was beneath him. She had no interest in human affairs, military or otherwise, and for the legendary
soldiers, commanders and heroes who had long inspired Achilles to glory she expressed nothing
but disdain.

“She doesn’t see why I waste my time with mortals,” Achilles continued. “When I tried to tell her
that I’m mortal she stuck her fingers in her ears and started singing the Ballad of Eurydice.”

Patroclus remembered a time when he had been walking alone along the beach and had come
across Thetis, deep in animated discussion with someone who, as far as he could see, was not there.
When she’d noticed him she bore her teeth like a wild animal and made a sudden, frightening
hissing noise. “Perhaps she’s been drinking too much saltwater,” he said dryly.

Achilles’ eyes flashed at him. “Are you calling my mother mad?”

“Of course not,” said Patroclus lightly. “Not really. Maybe a little bit. Why? Is she?”

Achilles made to box him round the face and would have hit him if Patroclus hadn’t seen it coming
and dodged out the way. “She’s the cleverest, kindest, most beautiful woman in the entire world!”
he huffed, cheeks burning red. Then he paused, looking thoughtful. “But yes. She is a bit mad.”

Patroclus nodded again, sympathetically. “Heredities are a bitch.”

This time Achilles’ fist connected with the side of Patroclus’ head and he was knocked backwards
into the sand. Patroclus lay there dazed for a moment as tiny silver spots erupted at the corners of
his vision but before he could shake them away Achilles was on top of him, trying to grip his fists.
Patroclus wrestled his right hand out of his grasp and sent it into Achilles’ torso before scrambling
to his feet, stopping to brush the sand out of his eyes. In a split second Achilles was on him again,
wrapping his legs around Patroclus’ and threatening to push him back down; Patroclus grasped
Achilles’ back and shoulders, forcing him into a wrestler’s hold.

For a while they stood at a stalemate, both of them writhing in each other’s grip as they fought to
force down the other. The morning sun was hot and soon their skins grew slick with sweat, yet the
angles and crooks of their bodies remained gritty with sand. Patroclus kneed Achilles in the gut and
Achilles responded by hitting him again, this time on the mouth, not very hard but hard enough for
him to lose his footing and fall once again to the ground.

Once down Achilles wasted no time in pinning Patroclus beneath him. He yanked his arms
viciously above his head, holding them there by the flat of his wrist and with the other he held
himself above Patroclus’ resisting form. He lowered himself so that their stomachs were touching,
Patroclus could see the thin sheen of sweat that clung to the tendons in his neck and shoulders.
Their legs were still intertwined and flailing to kick each other, feet brushed against knees, thighs
tightened and connected.

Achilles was heavy. He pushed Patroclus into the sand with only his upper body and as he moved
their groins slid against each other. Patroclus issued a little shocked gasp, his head falling
backwards so that he could see Achilles’ mischievous grin, damp and flushed with heat. Their
thighs were still wrapped around each other; Patroclus felt his muscles relax as Achilles hips
passed over him again. Then, with horror, he noticed the response his lower half was giving to the
pressure of Achilles’ body against it, combined with his heavy breathing and pink skin.

“Stop,” he gasped, hoping to the Gods Achilles did not hear the stifled moan behind it, or notice
how his hips quaked with excitement and terror.

But Achilles, it seemed, had taken the command for submission. “Do you yield?” he crowed
triumphantly.

“Yes, yes!” Patroclus cried in desperation. It was becoming almost too much to bare. Already he
could feel the blood rushing downwards. “I yield, you win.”

Achilles smiled but he didn’t get off. Instead he lifted his hand to brush Patroclus’ jaw, thumbing
the purple petals his knuckles had made that were already blossoming at the corner of his mouth.
Patroclus held his breath, petrified to move or speak. Achilles’ brow wrinkled in concern, his lips
ever so slightly parted. “I win,” he whispered. Then, without warning, he bent down and kissed
him hard on the mouth.

It did not last long. Patroclus had barely a moment to process what was happening; all he knew was
that Achilles’ mouth was hot and hard on his, his kiss burning as if branding him with hot iron. It
was like he was claiming something, the prize for his triumph in a single dominating action;
Patroclus’ brain was working just enough to process that he tasted like honey and sea-salt and that
his lips were dry and slightly chapped yet moist and soft behind the harsh, unyielding force. His
long golden hair had slipped from behind his ears and was falling now onto Patroclus’ face,
tickling his cheeks like drops of summer rain as he held himself above him by support of his arms,
fingers still digging into the warm sand. His mouth burned on his, his very touch was scalding and
Patroclus realised he was praying with every inch of his worth Let this never end, let this never end
or else God let me die.

Then suddenly it was over. Achilles had rolled off him and was pulling himself to his feet, dusting
the sand absentmindedly from his chiton. Patroclus lay on the ground, speechless and shaking like
someone struck by a lightning bolt.

“Phoenix will be waiting,” said Achilles and did not even spare him a glance before setting off for
the palace at a sprint.

And Patroclus, too stunned even to hear him, did not move, knowing full well he could never catch
up.

oOo

Achilles was not at Phoenix’s lesson, nor at any others for the rest of the morning. Instead he left a
message with the maesters that his father had sent him on some errand which would keep him busy
for most of the day. Patroclus did not know whether this was true or false; Peleus sometimes sent
Achilles off on random missions which kept him away from the palace, although he usually asked
Patroclus to accompany him. He wondered with a pang if Achilles was avoiding him, and if he
was, when it would be until he could next talk to him. So many questions whirled in his head it
was like someone had filled it with sawdust and shook it, leaving nothing but a floaty haze which
hung about all day.

Why should he be avoiding me? he thought to himself. If anything, I should be the one angry with
him. He walked around in a state of utter confusion, repeating the same word over and over in his
mind: Why? And what on Gaia’s green earth did it mean? The more he thought about it, the more
he realised it was not all as strange as that. Many a time had Achilles performed some kind of
gesture of superiority after winning a victory over Patroclus, usually one which established
Patroclus as subordinate or womanly. Smacking him on the backside, for example, was a particular
favourite, or making obscene gestures. Once he’d even had kissed him on the top of his head. But
never on the lips. Still, that was what it had to be. It couldn’t have meant anything else. It was
impossible.

But what if it’s not? Patroclus could not help the tiny little probing voice at the back of his head but
he shook it away impatiently. It had been one off Achilles’ dickish, insulting moves, that was all.
Anything else was simple wishful thinking.

But if that was the case, then why was he avoiding him now?

“Leptine!” Patroclus called, walking round the back of the palace and into the yard. Ordinarily,
loose chickens with scruffy faded red and brown feathers would have been pecking dimly at his
feet but someone had shut them away and swept the ground neatly of their seed. He looked about
for his friend and spotted her clearing the courtyard a little further away while around her male and
female slaves lifted hay bales and set them in decorative patterns around the back field. “Leptine!”
he shouted again, she looked up and waved.

“Come hither my beloved,” she said with a smile. Her face was gleaming with hard work and she
wiped it with the back of her hand.

“Preparations going well, then?” he asked her. The place was covered with brightly coloured
ribbons and streamers, glittering like jewels from the parapets. Lanterns swelled at every corner
and Patroclus imagined how glorious it would look at night when their orange light would beam
across the dark grass, woods and trees. Looking around at the hundreds of workers sweltering in
the heat and grimacing with stiffness he felt a little guilty; by rights he should be out there, doing
his fair share of the work.

“They’re going okay,” Leptine replied nonchalantly. Then suddenly her face broke into a wild grin
as if she could no longer keep it back. “Oh Patroclus, I’m so excited I could pee.”

“Well don’t do it here, you just swept that spot,” said Patroclus. “So this is a really big deal then,
this Beltane?”

“Such a big deal!” Leptine squealed. “Look Patroclus, it’s really the only time of the year when
slaves are treated exactly the same as freemen. Nobles and servants alike, everyone forgets who
they are and just gets drunk together! And Peleus always lets his slaves celebrate Beltane even
when some kings won’t allow it of their household because they think it improper. And then
everyone has to find a partner and all the boys get really embarrassed and ooh! You should see my
mask-”

“-Wait, Leptine, what?” Patroclus interrupted. “What did you say about...about finding a partner?”

Leptine cocked her head to the side and raised an eyebrow. “I told you before, didn’t I? Everyone
goes as a couple to Beltane. It is a fertility festival, after all.”
Patroclus felt himself go pale. One look at his expression of pure dread and Leptine burst out
laughing. “Oh Patroclus,” she exclaimed, patting his cheek fondly. “You do make me chuckle.
Don’t worry, the girls will be fighting over themselves to have you.”

Patroclus looked scandalised. “Are you mocking me?” he snapped.

“No I am not mocking you,” Leptine rolled her eyes. “Have you had a good look at yourself lately?
I think you would not be so displeased. All those extra training sessions have done you a lot of
good and since you started getting outside more your colouring’s really improved. You don’t look
nearly quite so ill. Also your hair’s better.”

Patroclus fingered the dark brown locks that hung in slight curls around his ears, secretly rather
pleased. “Besides that,” Leptine continued matter-of-factly. “Surely you cannot have escaped the
knowledge that you’re practically the talk of the palace at the moment. Everyone knows how you
beat Nekros at the trial, your success as a fighter is, well, legendary if broadly exaggerated and
your best friends with the prince, all of which adds up to make you a pretty eligible bachelor.” She
narrowed her eyes at him, scrutinising his dumfounded expression with the look of an old woman
attempting to force a threat through the eye of a needle. “This cannot seriously be news to you?”

“It is!” Patroclus insisted, spreading his hands in a gesture of shock. “How…how? I’m skinny and
pasty and cripplingly average and I have…weird knees…”

“You were skinny, pasty and cripplingly average,” Leptine corrected him. “You are now a true son
of Phthia, and one of the most desirable men of age around. Although yes, your knees are weird.
Please do something about them.”

“It’s a common trait of Opus royalty,” Patroclus complained.

Leptine nodded pityingly. “Heredities are a bitch.”

And just like that Patroclus’ entire good mood which had been so brightened by the colourful
ribbons and the spill of the sun on the field evaporated in a flash. He stared morosely over at the
wood where just a few weeks ago he and Achilles had hung like two kings from the branches and
felt a sense of despair and confusion wash over him. Leptine looked at him, frowning. “Are you
alright?” she asked.

Very nearly, Patroclus told her everything, including the kiss. But at that moment he really didn’t
have the heart. This was something he wanted to keep to himself. Still, Leptine was looking for
answers so he muttered pathetically, “I’m never going to find a partner.”

Leptine rolled her eyes again and seized his hands. “Right,” she said with all the authority of an
Empress. “Come on.”

oOo

As Leptine tugged him along past several more gaggles of young women, it occurred to Patroclus
that he had never before fully appreciated how popular he was. He still couldn’t understand it, to
himself he would always remain the pale, skinny misfit with hair that stuck up at the back and
elbows that stuck out at odd angles. But as Isotta the milkmaid waved him away coyly he realised
Leptine was right and that was no longer quite true. Not only in Phthia had he grown mentally and
emotionally but also, it seemed to his great delight, physically as well.

In the past half an hour he had had seven requests for a Beltane partner consecutively. Of course he
had been too taken aback to actually accept any and turned each one down as politely as he could
but he could not suppress the childish pride he felt at people, women, actually finding him
attractive. The first one who had asked him, a young red-headed girl who worked in the bathrooms,
he had been so shocked he said “no” automatically without even considering she had walked away
looking rather put out. Now, as base and immature as it sounded, he found he was really quite
enjoying doing the rejecting for a change.

“So what was that about never being able to find a partner?” smirked Leptine with her hands on her
hips.

“I truly had no idea,” Patroclus shrugged happily. “Just tie me down with a leather belt and call me
Adonis.”

“I told you, I will never call you that,” said Leptine.

They had made a detour to the kitchens. As soon as Patroclus stepped into that soft, cavernous
warmth and was hit by the smell of freshly baking bread he felt cosy and content inside. A part of
me will always be down here, he thought to himself, helping Leptine make breakfast. “I’m hungry,”
he announced and immediately started searching the cupboards for leftovers. While he was
searching he felt his hand brush over something soft. He looked down and saw clutched in his
fingers a bunch of bright yellow flowers.

He turned around, holding them out. “What are these?”

He had never seen someone turn red as fast as Leptine at that moment. She stared at his hand, her
face bright as a beetroot as she took the flowers from him. “Nothing,” she squeaked. “Just some
plants I had left over from Cleitus’ vitality draught.”

Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “Primroses?” he said. “A little subtle for a vitality draught?”

If possible, Leptine went redder so that her cheeks looked like two coals in the embers of a fire. “I
was trying something new,” she muttered. “Give them here, I’ll put them away.”

Patroclus passed them over, noticing how when her back was turned she took time to smooth out
the petals before hiding them away in the cupboard. When she turned back round Patroclus gave
her a knowing glance before continuing his hunt for food. Despite Leptine’s brave attempts to
strengthen her story, babbling on about plant remedies and herbal roots, it remained perfectly
obvious to the Patroclus that he was not the only one with an admirer.

Later that afternoon, his suspicions were proven justified. He and the other foster boys were
cooling in the shade after a particularly gruelling drill session; apparently all this talk of fertility,
flowers and coupling made Ampelius uncomfortable and he compensated by giving the boys
exercise after exercise to “prove that they were still men”. So it was that Patroclus found himself
collapsed under a tree, listening to the boys snicker about which girls from whom they wouldn’t
“mind a bit of it, considering” and their chances of getting it at the festival.

After a while Deiomachus came and sat by him. “You alright?” asked Patroclus concernedly.
Usually confident to the point of cockiness, today it seemed he looked a little ill.

“Yeah,” Deiomachus replied uneasily. “Listen mate, I wanted to ask you something.”

“Oh mate I am flattered, but you know, Brecca asked first and she’s had a hard time of it lately,
what with the scabies and everything. Maybe next year, yeah?”

Deiomachus laughed shortly. “Funny,” he stated without mirth. “Actually, I wanted to ask you
about Leptine.”
Patroclus tried not to let the surprise register on his face. Deiomachus coughed awkwardly into his
hand, then looked over his shoulder as if expecting to catch someone listening in. “I thought I
might…you know…ask her to Beltane,” he said. “And I wanted to check if that was alright with
you first.”

He looked at him expectantly, eyes wide like an eager child’s. Patroclus frowned in bemusement.
“Why would that not be okay with me?”

Deiomachus shrugged, thrusting his hands into the pockets of his tunic. “Well, you know,” he said
evasively. “You two are so close and all and you’re always together…I just thought that maybe
you’d have asked her.”

Patroclus had just started to recite his usual parrot speech (no of course not we’re just friends yes I
know we’re very close no not close enough for that) when suddenly the thought struck him. He
and Leptine were close. In fact, she was his best friend besides Achilles, and the first person he had
ever really felt close to in his whole life. He could talk to her about anything, well, within reason,
she was clever and funny and smart and he loved her. Really, it made perfect sense for them to go
together, even if it was only as friends.

But then he remembered her blush at the primroses and how she had smoothed out the petals one
by one and he thought, it wouldn’t be fair really, to deny her that. He looked up into Deiomachus’
keen, wide-eyed, waiting face and he smiled. “We’re just friends,” he stated dully and wondered
how many times he would have to say those words.

A look of relief washed over Deiomachus like a tidal wave. “That’s what I told Leonides,” he
explained. “He thought you were, like, together, I mean together together. And she is always
talking about you and you know, there’s always gossip…so it’s really cool if I ask her?”

Patroclus inclined his head, like a king bestowing some great gift. “She’s all yours.”

Deiomachus’ face broke into a great grin. “Great,” he beamed. “That’s great. Hey, thanks man.
You’re a lad. And if you ever need me to set you up with any of the gardening girls-”

“-I think I’m good,” said Patroclus.

Deiomachus grinned again, clapped Patroclus on the shoulder and bounded away like an excitable
puppy. Patroclus watched him go feeling a sense of joy only a little tinged with sadness. Once upon
a time, maybe, if things were different, it might have been he and Leptine walking to the festival
together hand in hand. People were always telling them they made a good couple and they would
laugh it off but perhaps there was some truth to it…or might have been again, if things were
different…

“Young master?” perked a small voice, he looked up and saw a slave girl standing before him
looking nervous. “Prince Achilles has returned from his errand. He bids you come to him.”

“Fantastic,” said Patroclus, scrambling to his feet. “Where is he?”

“He’s in his room,” the girl replied as he prepared to sprint over. “And also young master…I was
wondering if you were going with anyone to the Beltane festival…”

“Mmhmm, yes, I’ll let you know,” said Patroclus, barely registering what she had asked him.
Already he was running across the fields and through the palace back entrance, his heart
hammering like a carnival drum against his ribcage. Achilles was back, Achilles wanted to see him,
no he wasn’t avoiding him, they were going to speak, they were going to talk about this…he
thought about the sensation of Achilles’ kiss, still burning on his mouth as if it seared him.
Perhaps…perhaps…he did not know what he was wishing for, only that if they spoke now, if all
the cards were lain on the table then nothing would be the same ever again. But would that be such
a bad thing? he thought frantically to himself. He thought about Achilles’ grip on his wrist,
Achilles’ pelvis grinding him into the hot sand and he bit his lip. No. No it would not.

He leapt up the steps leading to Achilles’ room two at a time and flung open the door. Achilles was
laying on the bed, one foot dangling off the end. His small harp was laying abandoned on his chest
and Patroclus eyes it with apprehension, he only ever pulled that out when he was depressed or
feeling particularly contemplative. He gave Patroclus a swift, indifferent look.

“There you are,” he said, voice a monotonous deadpan. “You took your time.”

Patroclus swallowed. His mouth felt very dry. He became uncomfortably conscious of how heavily
he was breathing. That last flight was a bad idea. “I ran,” he replied and then wished he hadn’t.

Achilles’ frowned. A crease appeared in his smooth skin like a wrinkle in a linen sheet. “Why did
you do that?” he asked dully and Patroclus noticed that his eyes were rather red.

Patroclus had enough sense left in him not to answer that question. He sat down at the edge of
Achilles’ bed, his elbows balanced against the headboard. “Where did you go?” he asked. “I
looked for you.”

Achilles blinked and looked up at the ceiling. There was a mosaic printed there in orange and
green tiles, a giant kraken fighting with a whale. “My parents fought again,” he said, still in that
awful, awful monotone.

Patroclus tried to keep his voice steady as he asked him, “What about?” Please can we not talk
about this now, please can we talk about earlier, I want to talk about earlier…

“Father says I can’t go to Beltane,” he deadpanned. “He says it’s improper…says it’s alright for
the servants and the commoners but for the prince oh no, we are a civilised country he says, this is
a civilised palace. And he will not have me disgracing his name behaving like a heathen, getting
some silly wench pregnant and swelling with one of my bastards when I’m not even properly
married yet.”

“What did your mother say?” Patroclus inquired, feeling disappointment wash over him as he
realised they were not going to talk about the kiss. Clearly it meant nothing to Achilles, no big
deal, just a spur of the moment, seize-the-glory kind of thing. It was as if it never happened.

“Mother says I ought to go,” Achilles continued. “She thinks it’s good for my development, or
some such nonsense. But I know she’s just arguing for the sake of it, she doesn’t give a shit if I go
or not.”

He turned on his side and for the first time since he’d entered, looked Patroclus squarely in the eye.
Patroclus could see clearly that they were slightly swollen and shiny. He hadn’t seen him cry, not
since Mynax’s death and just like that time a swooping force of sympathy and love fell upon him,
he wanted to take him in his arms and kiss him; his mouth, his eyelids, his ears his hands, anything
to make the tears go away.

But the feeling disappeared as quickly as it came with Achilles’ next words. “So if I can’t go, you
can’t go,” he said.

And Patroclus felt like hitting him again.

 Beltane Eve

“What?” sputtered Patroclus.

“You heard.” Achilles put his arms behind his bed and leaned back so that he was resting on the
headboard. “If I can’t go neither can you. Which is only fair, really.”

“Oh no,” Patroclus shook his head. “No no, don’t you start bringing ‘fair’ into this. This is not fair.
This is so far removed from fair that you can’t even see fair anymore. But please, explain to me
how in your world this amounts to any kind of sensical justice?”

“You’re my hetairoi,” answered Achilles. “That means whatever I do you have to do too.”

“Really?” Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “I must have missed that part of the vow.”

“You’re supposed to be with me always,” Achilles snapped. “Forever by my side. How can you be
forever by my side if you’re rutting in the dirt with some lowborn peasant slut?”

Patroclus lifted his other eyebrow as he felt the heat rise in his cheeks. “In that case your wedding
night is going to be a very social affair.”

Achilles sent him such an evil look a lesser man would have fallen to his knees in supplication and
be hard pressed to feel shame. Patroclus however, charged to strength with anger, stood his ground
and continued to stare him down. “Look Achilles, I’m sorry about your parents,” he began, forcing
his voice into a tone of calm and reason. “I think it very wrong of them to keep you from the
festival, and more so to argue about it in front of you. You have every right to be angry and upset,
no child should have to watch their mother and father hound at each other like two jealous infants.
But you have no right to cast out all your frustrations on me. What do you want, when you’re
miserable I must be too?”

“YES!” Achilles shouted and Patroclus almost jumped backwards in surprise. “For you to be
miserable when I am miserable, for you to be happy when I am happy and when I want to die from
my sorrow for you to-”

“-You’ve never wanted to die, you vainglorious prick,” Patroclus snapped, all resolutions at
empathetic reason evaporating from his head. “You think far too much of yourself. And exactly to
which ‘sorrow’ are you referring? The heart-rending pain of mother and father not letting you go to
the party? Oh the brutality of life! The endless suffering of the wealthy adolescent!”

“What do you know about it?” Achilles barked. “You don’t live in my head. You don’t feel what I
feel. You don’t wake up every morning cold in the stomach for the fear that you are, finally, at last
going mad….” Suddenly he stopped looking fearful, his green eyes wide, as if terrified he had said
too much. “Anyway,” he said quickly. “It’s not about that. The point is I won’t have you disgracing
me with savage and barbarian behaviour. Father is right, it’s not dignified, with someone so high
up in the household as you.”

Patroclus stared at him, completely dumfounded. Achilles was no longer talking to him but at the
ceiling, in that way which meant he was trying to convince himself of what he was saying as much
as anyone else. “It’s not dignified,” he said again. “For the companion of the prince to participate in
heathen and pagan practices…rolling about in the mud with Gods know who…I won’t have it.
Suppose you stick it in some girl and she comes back a few months later swelling with your
bastard, begging acknowledgement of the brat and claiming entitlement to some high position...”
he swallowed, hard, and took a shaky breath. “No,” he shook his head. “I won’t have it.”

“Well I’m very sorry you feel that way but there’s not really much you can do about it,” shrugged
Patroclus.

“You’re not going and that’s final.”

“It’s not final and I am going,” Patroclus retaliated brazenly. “Who are you to command me? I’m
not one of your slaves to do your bidding! You don’t own me!”

Achilles did not answer, only shifted his gaze from the ceiling to fall on Patroclus. In that moment,
when their eyes locked, it was as if unspoken words hung in the air between them and a little voice
at the back of Patroclus’ head said: I think you know that’s not true. But Patroclus shook it away
impatiently. No, he told himself furiously. He wasn’t going to curl up and let Achilles walk all over
him. The boy needed to learn. His feelings weren’t the only ones which mattered. He wasn’t the
only one who suffered…

Achilles looked away, fixing his eyes back on the ceiling. When he spoke, his voice was a
monotonous deadpan. “I’ll tell the guards not to let you out,” he said tonelessly. “I’ll tie you down
if I have to.”

Patroclus stared at him. He did not really believe that Achilles would do such a thing but the fact
that he’d said it, that he was so ready to exercise his power of authority over him made him angrier
than ever. For some reason he found himself waiting for a few seconds, giving him a chance to
apologise or at least to grant some kind of word of explanation. When none came he made a noise
of disgust and left the room, slamming the door behind him.

As soon as the door fell shut Patroclus heard a crash sound from the other side, as if something had
smashed against the wood and he felt the impact of the hit through his back. The sound was
followed by a strangled sob and for a second Patroclus debated whether he should turn around and
go back in. In the end he walked away, realising as he climbed the stone steps that his hands were
balled into fists.

oOo

By the time late evening came he was still so furious he had taken to walking outside by himself to
clear his head. His anger had taken on a kind of physical form; he could feel it pumping in his
veins so that his whole body seemed to tingle with pent-up energy. He wanted to jump, scream, hit
something. Or, more specifically, someone.

“Why me?” he muttered apathetically to himself on the seventh turn round the palace stables.
“Why me and, Gods, why him?”

He did not arrive at an answer. The wind was picking up; it whisked his hair, blowing dark locks
onto his cheeks and stinging his eyes. Leaves and sheaves of wheat were lifted into the air, hovered
and settled on the ground and Patroclus could not hold back a scream.

“WHY HIM?” he demanded, turning his head up to the swelling clouds. “OF ALL PEOPLE WHY
HIM?”

“Patroclus?” quipped a small, cautious voice from behind him; he spun around in alarm which
dissipated as quickly as it had come. Leptine was standing in the shadow of the animal pen, a
concerned look on her face.

“Leptine,” he breathed thankfully then realised what he must look like, red faced, teary-eyed and
screaming at the clouds and felt immediately embarrassed. “Sorry, I was just…I needed to….”

He faltered off dumbly, making an evasive, helpless gesture. Leptine nodded sagely, turning on
him with a look of understanding. “It’s alright,” she said. “Sometimes I come down here too when
I need to clear my head. Or you know. Scream at the sky.”

Patroclus managed a weak smile then wondered with a pang whether she had heard exactly what
he’d been screaming. If she had done she made no notice of it , nor did she act as though he’d
behaved oddly in the slightest and Patroclus’ pulse slowed with relief.

“So,” Leptine smiled crookedly. “What is it this time? Or is it the same thing?”

Patroclus gave a sigh which was more like a groan of internal pain. “Same person,” he mumbled.
“Different thing.”

Leptine cocked her head inquisitively, her soft brown hair falling gently onto one shoulder.
Patroclus rubbed his eyes tiredly. “Peleus does not want him to go to Beltane,” he explained. “He
thinks it improper…and I suppose he fears him fathering a bastard when he remains as yet
unmarried. He and Thetis had an argument over it which he won. Consequently I have been
forbidden by Achilles from attending the festivities.” He ended with a tired, exasperated look. It
would take longer than it was worth explaining Achilles’ bizarre, premature reasoning.

Leptine looked aghast. “But that’s absurd!” she sputtered. “You can’t miss Beltane, that would be
like missing…well…Beltane!”

“Don’t think I don’t know that,” sighed Patroclus heavily.

Leptine gave him a funny glance, frowning at Patroclus’ morose expression and shoulders slumped
in dejection. “You aren’t seriously considering staying with him, are you?”

He remembered Achilles’ assertive, commanding voice, the way he had spoken to him as if he
were still a slave or subordinate. His fists tightened. “No,” he replied decisively. “He thinks I’m a
spaniel to order around, play with when bored, kick at will.” The memory of his kiss was still fresh
in his mind, he tried urgently to shut it out. “He needs to learn. People aren’t just toys…”

He petered out, nervous about hinting too much. It was already evident that something important
had happened between them, Patroclus could see in Leptine’s eyes that she sensed it. But she
looked satisfied and pleased enough with his answer.

“I’m glad,” she said and sounded it. “Of course,” and here she grinned impishly. “In that case you
still need to find yourself a partner.”

Patroclus felt his shoulders sag even heavier at her words. With all that was going on he’d
completely forgotten the convention, that he was supposed to go as a couple to a festival that was,
ultimately, in celebration of fertility and vitality. The thought made Patroclus shiver internally;
what in all of Hades was he supposed to do with a girl at a fertility festival?

“I’d completely forgotten,” he confessed. “And now I suppose it’s too late to find anyone.”

“Well you can’t go alone,” Leptine bristled. “People will think you’re undesirable. Or worse.
Impotent.”

“Great,” said Patroclus dully, the last shred of hope he had been clinging on to leaving him. “I
suppose I’ll just have to stay at home with Achilles and play knucklebones. Here meaning mine
connecting with his face.”
“Or…” started Leptine, chewing her lip thoughtfully. “You could come with me and Deiomachus.”

Patroclus started in surprise. “He asked you then?”

“Yes he did,” replied Leptine matter-of-factly and looking pinkish, twirling a strand of hair round
her index finger. “But you can come with us, if you want.”

Patroclus started to say yes, then he thought about how excited Deiomachus had looked as he’d
bounded away and Leptine’s face stowing away the primroses in the kitchen. He shook his head in
protest. “Leptine, that’s very kind of you but honestly, it’s fine. I’d just be the awkward tag-along,
you wouldn’t want me there-”

“-Oh but it would be no trouble,” Leptine interrupted him. “You can come with us to the festival so
that you don’t look like a loser, then once we get there we can go our separate ways. It’ll be fine.”

Patroclus nodded slowly, picturing the scenario in his head. “And what will people think when we
stroll up, the three of us, together? Two guys…one girl…?”

Leptine looked confused, then, seeing Patroclus’ raised eyebrow, looked appalled and yelped.
“They won’t be thinking that!” she exclaimed in reproachful alarm, slapping him on the arm.
“Dirty, dirty boy! Right, do you want to come with us or not because I am perfectly willing to leave
you and your muddied mind right here right now-”

“-No no, I want to come,” said Patroclus quickly. “I’m sorry. Thank you. Are you sure
Deiomachus won’t mind?”

“He’ll be fine,” Leptine shrugged. “It’s not like you’ll be with us the whole night.”

The phrase reminded Patroclus of something he’d said earlier in regard to Achilles’ wedding night.
Evidently it showed on his face because Leptine smacked him again. “Dirty boy!” she cried.
“Come on. If you’re coming to Beltane we’d better sort out what you’re going to wear.”

“What’s wrong with this?” Patroclus gestured at his tunic. It was made of good stuff and had an
elaborate border worked in embroidered threads of red and green.

Leptine eyed it disdainfully. “Patroclus,” she said. “You cannot go to the Beltane festival looking
like a prince’s companion.”

And before he had a chance to ask what she meant she had whisked him away; giving Patroclus the
unsettling feeling that he was growing less and less sure on what, exactly, he was getting himself
into.

oOo

After a good few hours among Leptine and the other slaves, it occurred to Patroclus that he had
severely underestimated the event. Looking at some of the outfits people planned on, it became
clear that the festival was much more Bacchic than he’d previously assumed. Apparently Beltane
was all about a return to the primitive state of man as all primal instincts and hungers were satisfied
in this one night of total abandonment. To represent this and the otherworldly aspect of the festival
that cut it off from civilisation, it was customary to dress in animal skins or costumes which
reflected man’s return to nature. This was why Leptine had scoffed at Patroclus’ desire to dress in
his expensive courtly tunic; in her words nothing was more likely to ensure celibacy at Beltane
than “dressing like an overseer.”

However, these words did very little to assuage Patroclus’ discomfort as he cast a shocked eye over
some of the other costumes, including one delightful piece designed with a very creative slit in the
skirt, “To make it easier for him,” as it explained by the girl in question.

This was topped only by Loras’ outfit which appeared to be little more than a loose and wiry string
made entirely from laurel leaves.

“I’m not wearing that,” Patroclus stated, staring in horror as Loras walked away.

Leptine giggled. “Don’t worry,” she assured him. “We’ll find something.”

This however turned out to be easier said than done. No matter how many outfits he tried on
Patroclus could not help but feel like a complete and total idiot in all of them. It certainly didn’t
help that a gaggle of kitchen girls kept hovering nearby, giggling every time he whipped something
off.

“No,” he declared, crossing his arms across his chest as the girls stifled their laughter.

He was wearing a costume made from very shiny leather which was uncomfortably and very
obviously tight, particularly in certain nether regions. Leptine wrinkled her nose, surveying him
from different angles.

“No…that’s probably not the image you want to portray,” she said, cringing at the places where
the leather was straining. “Although it does make you look remarkably well endowed…”

The girls burst into another fit of hysterics as Patroclus wrestled to get the ungodly thing off him.
“Right, that’s it. I’m not going,” he announced.

“Oh don’t be such a girl,” Leptine rolled her eyes, shooing the harpies out of the room. “Don’t you
think everybody’s going through the exact same thing right now? Here, try this.”

She tossed him a shapeless, brown thing which felt slightly furry beneath his fingertips. He pulled
it over his head and found it to be a deerskin tunic, not unlike the one they had tricked Achilles
with so long ago. It hung off Patroclus’ skinny frame like a bedsheet on a washing line, its long
sleeves dragging on the floor. Patroclus gave her a look understood by all to mean, “You can’t be
serious?”

However, Leptine it appeared, had a plan. She strode round to Patroclus’ side and with the knife
she’d used to slice the leather she cut off one of Patroclus’ sleeves, doing the same to the other
side. The thick wads of material fell to the floor, displaying Patroclus’ wiry arms and toned
shoulders. She then bent down and set about trimming away the hem until it was chiton-length,
falling just halfway down the thigh, persisting when Patroclus cried in protest, “Not my weird
knees!”

“Hush,” Leptine batted his flailing hands away. “It’ll be dark, no one will see them.”

When she had finished she stepped away to admire her handiwork. The newly shortened tunic
showed off the well-formed muscles in Patroclus’ arms and calves and the earthen brownish colour
worked well with the tan of his skin. But it still hung loosely off his body, giving Patroclus the
impression that he had been transfigured into a bean pole.

“Hold on,” ordered Leptine, disappearing from the room. She returned shortly with a belt-like
object clutched in her hand which she handed to Patroclus.

Patroclus took it warily. It was a bright golden colour of finely woven thread, however, there was
one thing which bothered him. “I’ve seen you wear this,” he accused Leptine. “This is a woman’s
girdle.”

“It doesn’t have to be,” Leptine argued. “When I wear it, it’s a woman’s girdle. When you wear it-”

“-It’s a man, wearing a woman’s girdle,” finished Patroclus.

“Just put the thing on,” snapped Leptine, wrenching it from his hands and winding it round his
waist herself. When she had it secured she nodded approvingly, handing him the mirror. “See? It’s
fine!”

Patroclus surveyed his reflection with apprehension. True the fine gold belt tightened round his
torso did make the outfit, pulling the tunic in at his hips so that it looked like it had a shape and no
longer hung down stupidly. But it was without a doubt definitely supposed to be worn by a girl. “I
don’t know Leptine,” he said unconvinced.

“Well what else are you going to do?” she challenged him. “It doesn’t work without it. Fashion
before comfort, darling.”

Patroclus looked down at the girdle, sliding it uncomfortably round his waist. Fashion before
comfort, he thought resentfully. Not fashion before dignity. He suffered to think what Achilles
would say if he saw him now. But it didn’t matter, he reminded himself. Achilles was not going.
And Leptine was right, he had nothing else. He looked at himself again in the mirror and tried to
look masculine and heroic.

“And yet,” he said. “How odd that a woman’s girdle should look so good on me, a man.”

“There you go,” smiled Leptine, clapping him on the shoulder. “Keep right up with that attitude
and you’ll have a great time.”

Luckily, in an environment so buzzing with excitement and anticipation, this was not such a hard
task to fulfil. Everywhere he went people were heatedly discussing the promise the next night
would bring, as if all their dreams and desires would somehow be magically fulfilled with the
coming of the Spring Moon. From costumes to food to music the palace had been transformed into
a hotbed of heated conversation, raised to boiling point with the approach of Beltane Eve.

On the way back to his room he overheard several prayers whispered behind doors and into
darkened alcoves and he remembered Leptine telling him that Beltane Eve was the night Aphrodite
heard all the supplications for her blessing and patronage, asking Patroclus jokingly whether he
was planning on trying his luck. He had replied jovially that he did not think one night would alter
his luck with the Gods and upon reaching his room he saw he had spoken true. The space was dark
except where moonlight spilled through the open window, pooling onto Achilles’ bed, a bed that
was revealed to be empty.

Patroclus tried not to let himself feel disappointed. He knew it had been foolish to hope that
Achilles would have stayed up waiting for him so that he could apologise or at the very least talk
things over. But as he crept into his own bed and waited for sleep to come he was surprised to find
himself praying into the dark. When morning came, he could not remember what on earth it had
been for.

oOo

Much to his expectation, Achilles was not there when he woke up either. Sighing, he dressed
quickly, made sure that his Beltane costume was safely stowed away in his chest and came
downstairs for breakfast.
In anticipation for the festival the normal timetable had been suspended. Clearly Ampelius had
worked out that to get any sort of decent, practical work out of the boys when the night was so
quickly approaching was an impossibility, thus the day had been turned into a sort of holiday and
everyone was exempt from lessons and training. Instead of engaging in a formal breakfast in the
Great Hall, the boys were spending the morning in one of the rooms set aside for their use and
Patroclus went to join them now.

When he entered a small group were already reclining on lounges, accompanied by some of the
slaves with whom they were friendly with. Unfortunately Leptine was not there as she was busy
serving the masters’ meals, however this gave Deiomachus the perfect opportunity to talk of her
incessantly.

“Cannot believe she said yes,” he informed Patroclus, shaking his head in stunned wonder. “I knew
she was pretty but man, you never told me she was so nice! And funny too! You know what she
said to me, when I asked her out? It was hilarious, she said-”

“-Pretty?” came a screeching, incredulous voice. “Pretty? That scrawny little wretch?”

Patroclus’ blood ran cold at the familiar scathing tone. He turned to see Pamaia stretched out
across one of the lounges, looking like a reclining Goddess except that she was snickering.
Patroclus hadn’t seen her since the unfortunate episode and he had dreaded the eventual encounter,
however he was surprised to find all the fear and intimidation she had inspired was gone. All he
felt now was a shock of pure dislike. “Sorry, did you have something to say?” he asked her.

“I’m just surprised,” she answered casually. “That the girl was planning on going tonight. Not just
that, but she’s even found herself a partner!” she nodded mockingly at Deiomachus. “Incredible!
Miracles happen every day. What did she do, agree to do your laundry for a month if you took her?
Or was it a little simpler than that?”

She made her hand into a fist and lifted it to her cheek, moving it back and forth. Some of the other
girls squealed delightedly at the gesture and the boys hooted. Patroclus and Deiomachus looked
stony.

“Actually Pamaia,” began Patroclus pleasantly. “I’m not surprised if this comes as news to you, but
some girls manage to attract male attention without having to suck them off first. I advise talking to
Leptine. She can show you how it’s done.”

This was followed by amplified catcalls and applause from everyone in the room; Patroclus sat
there smiling amiably in response to Pamaia’s seething expression and curling lip. “Look who’s
suddenly grown himself some claws,” she snarled when the clamour had died down. “Of course,
you’d know all about male attention. One might even say it was your speciality.”

“If you don’t have anything pleasant or intelligent to say, I advise you shut up.” snapped
Deiomachus abruptly.

“Forgive me,” said Pamaia airily, raising her hands in surrender. “I only wanted to congratulate you
on your gentlemanly behaviour. Taking that poor, ugly girl to the festival just so she’ll have a nice
time. You’re a real hero. I only hope you get something out of it is all. Next thing you’ll be telling
me this one here has found himself a partner,” she gestured derisively at Patroclus who coloured.

“Yeah, well, who are you going with?” he challenged. The moment he did so he regretted it.
Already all the boys around him were straightening up, eager to hear who among them had won
the ever-so-coveted prize. Pamaia observed them all amusedly, as if they were hungry dogs and
she alone held aloft a juicy bone.
“I’ve set my sights a little higher thanthe common rabble,” she replied smugly and evasively as a
dozen shoulders drooped in disappointment.

The boys glanced at each other curiously, trying to work out what she meant. Yet something in her
face and voice and Patroclus comprehended instantly. “If you’re talking about Achilles,” he said
hotly. “You’re out of luck. He’s not going.”

Pamaia looked shaken but not terribly perturbed. “The thought of you attempting to conquer at
Beltane a little too much for him?” she taunted. “I cannot say I blame him. Ah well. There will be
other opportunities, I suppose.”

“You’d be better of setting your sights a little lower,” retorted Patroclus. “He would never want
you.”

Pamaia raised a perfect black eyebrow, arched like a bow of ebony. “We’ll see,” was all she said
before sweeping brazenly from the room.

After a few seconds of stunned silence in which a few of the boys still looked vaguely confounded
in the wake of her presence, conversation began to swell again. Deiomachus resumed his
eulogising of Leptine, however Patroclus listened with only half an ear. Pamaia’s words had
shaken him, and they had also cast is mind back to something she had said that night they had
almost slept together: “You are an amusement. A pawn, if you will, in a game much bigger than
your delusional, teenage-misfit fantasies.” At the time he’d thought she had just intended to hurt
him. Now he wondered if there had been another meaning behind the insult.

Apart from that, the day passed without incident. Patroclus spent his free time making final
arrangements with Leptine and Deiomachus whom he had agreed to meet by the stairs as soon as it
was dark. As the sun made its way from one end of the field to the other, shifting the sky from its
original piercing blue to dusky mauve Patroclus found himself counting down the hours and
hungering for the time when everyone would slip on their masks and costumes and head down to
the woods. He felt a rhythm of excitement pulse through him, like was someone was beating a
drum in his chest, an excitement tinged with nerves and a little fear. He couldn’t tell how he knew,
but something special was going to happen this night. He could feel it.

At long last it was time. Patroclus slipped up to his room, fingertips tingling with a magic that was
almost tangible. Pulling his deerskin tunic out of the chest he slipped it over his head, followed by
the girdle although his hands were shaking so much he could barely fasten it round his waist. Just
then the door flew open and he jumped up with a start. He looked up. He swallowed.

“Hi,” he said, forcing speech past the lump already forming in his throat.

Achilles was leaning against the door, his thumbs tucked idly into the belt around his hips. “Hey,”
he greeted him. He brushed away the hair that was forever falling into his eyes and gave him a
scrutinising look. “Is that what you’re wearing?”

Patroclus looked down at himself, instantly self-conscious. “Um…yeah,” he mumbled.

Achilles strode into the room. Even with small steps he seemed to fill up the place, the room
looked smaller with him in it. He stopped in front of Patroclus and glanced him up and down, just
as he had done when they’d met for the first time. Time seemed to go by very slowly in that
moment as Patroclus stood like a statue, awaiting Achilles’ judgement. Finally he gave a small
approving nod. “Looks good,” he stated. Then, suddenly, he frowned. “Why are you wearing a
woman’s girdle?”
Humiliation, red and searing rode like a battalion into Patroclus’ stomach; he tried not to let it show
in his voice as he squealed, “It’s…it’s unisex.”

“It is not, it’s got flowers on it,” Achilles pointed.

Patroclus wrenched off the thing and examined it in detail. Sure enough, tiny flowers had been
embroidered into the design with what looked like birds and other small creatures. I am going to
murder Leptine. “Perfect,” he muttered under his breath. “What the fuck am I going to do now?”

“Well you can’t go in that,” Achilles raised an eyebrow and gestured at the shameful object still
clutched in Patroclus’ hand. “Wait a moment.”

He crossed over to his side of the room and rummaged around in the chest at the bottom of his bed.
Eventually he stood up, holding in his hands a strong, sturdy looking belt also made of deerskin.
He approached Patroclus cautiously with it, looking somewhat sheepish.

“The clasp is a little tricky,” he told him. “Here, I’ll do it for you.”

Patroclus nodded dumbly and raised his arms so that Achilles could snake the belt around his
waist, holding his breath as he worked the clasp a hair’s breadth below his navel. “There,”
Achilles whispered when he had the belt fastened. “You look like a true King Stag.”

“Thank you,” murmured Patroclus through barely parted lips. He did not trust himself to move, let
alone speak. And he was very conscious of the fact that Achilles’ hands were still on his hips.

“Apart from the antlers,” continued Achilles and Patroclus allowed himself to release the breath
he’d been holding as Achilles’ hands moved to touch his hair. His fingers combed the brown locks,
brushing and plucking them into a style that was elegantly dishevelled, as if he were an elf or fairy
that had just rolled out of bed. Every time his fingertips grazed the skin of his ears or forehead he
felt an involuntary shiver rush through him; he wished desperately that Achilles would take him
now into his arms and brand him with that kiss which was like fire and water.

Achilles was looking at him now, his bright green eyes with their gold-flecked irises boring into
him with that magnetising intensity which made Patroclus want to look away and at the same time
held him completely captivated. Patroclus held his gaze, desperately wanting to say something but
having no idea what. Then suddenly Achilles’ hands had slipped from his hair and were back on
his waist and Achilles was pulling him close, pulling him in against his chest and his arms circled
his back.

“Patroclus,” he whispered against his shoulder.

He wanted to say sorry. Patroclus knew from the moment he walked in that he regretted everything
that had passed between them that morning, the words he’d hurled and the ones which had been
hurled back in return. He wanted to say sorry but he couldn’t because he was Achilles. And that
was okay. Because Patroclus had already forgiven him.

“It’s alright,” he said and meant it. His hand reached up to touch Achilles’ neck, curled into the
thick, heavy strands that ran like a river of gold through his fingers.

Achilles made a sound like a sigh and drew him closer. Patroclus nestled his chin in the crook
between Achilles’ neck and shoulder. There were tears stinging his eyes and he fought to hold them
back. For how long they stood like that he didn’t know, it was as if time no longer existed for
them. After what could have been minutes, hours, or several sunlit days Patroclus remembered
where he needed to be. They broke apart and took a step away from each other, both looking a little
embarrassed. Achilles, as always, was the first to break the silence.

“Have fun tonight,” he said.

“I will,” replied Patroclus.

Achilles made a funny motion, as if he’d made to touch Patroclus’ face and thought better of it,
bringing it instead to scratch the back of his neck. For his part, Patroclus thanked him for the belt
and left the room, climbed the narrow stairs and emerged from the dark where he found Leptine
and Deiomachus waiting for him.
 Beltane
Chapter Summary

Before you read, I apologise for some of the things which happen in this chapter. Rest
assured, they had to happen. Next chapter I will make up for them.

Leptine and Deiomachus were waiting at the bottom of stairs, talking quietly and coyly. They
looked up as Patroclus approached, greeting him enthusiastically.

“There he is,” exclaimed Leptine beaming. “What took you so long?”

Patroclus, preferring not to answer, avoided her attention by diverting it towards herself. She was
wearing a short, russet-coloured dress with a hem and sleeves lined with reddish fur. Her soft
brown hair had been brushed until it shone in the moonlight, coppery strands settling gently on her
shoulders around which a fox-skin cloak had been fastened, two fabric ears artfully peeking out
from the hood. Her skin, flushed with excitement, seemed to glow golden through the dark and her
eyes were bright and shining as he had never seen them.

She smiled at him and Patroclus suppressed an intake of breath. Because she was his friend and he
loved her he had always thought her pretty, in an indifferent, platonic sort of way. But looking at
her now, so wild and small and fairy-like, he realised how truly beautiful she was.

“You look…amazing,” he breathed and her smile paled the moon.

“Puts me to shame, doesn’t she?” agreed Deiomachus playfully. He looked Patroclus up and down
with an approving expression. “A stag huh? Good call. Suits you. Wish you’d told me earlier, I
could have made you some antlers.”

He had fashioned for himself some sort of mask or helmet in the likeness of a wild boar, complete
with a set of gleaming white tusks. He took Leptine’s hand and she gave a remarkably girlish
giggle. “Shall we get going, then? We don’t want to miss the first dance.”

They left the palace and set off briskly down the winding path that streamed from the gates to the
wood. Overhead the moon shone bright as a coin dropped into a dark river, lighting the road before
them so that it appeared silver and curling like a ribbon of water. They made an odd three; the fox,
the boar and the stag travelling companionably together while to their every direction other couples
and groups were making a similar journey through the fields, the shadows of horns, tails, wings
and pointed ears stretched across the dark grass, an animal army come to seize their realm.
Patroclus wondered how the other creatures of the trees and bracken would react to this invasion,
these other animals who were like themselves only bigger.

Leptine and Deiomachus talked mostly to each other, flirting and giggling while Patroclus kept a
respectful distance, conscious of his inevitably resented presence. Looking down he saw their three
shadowy likenesses, distortedly caricatured; two of them entwined so that it was difficult to make
one from the other and the last standing alone, surrounded by a patch of green. With a pang of
sudden loneliness he cast his thoughts back to the palace where another wild thing paced around
their darkened room before curling, cat-like, upon a thin mattress.
With every step they took the noises from the trees grew louder. Balls of brilliant orange flame
flew over the branches and the very leaves seemed to shriek with music and laughter. “It’s like the
whole wood is alive,” said Leptine and Patroclus nodded. Tiny lights blinked out from the leaves
and branches, winking like the bodies of fairies or a thousand pairs of eyes. The laughter grew
louder, more raucous and they could feel the music vibrating beneath their feet. As the light of the
torches came into view Patroclus felt suddenly nervous, realising sharply that he had never been
anywhere like this before. The wood stretched before him like a dark, tumultuous sea; the joyful
sounds from within mocking as well as enticing.

“Is it really a good idea to throw fire around in a forest?” he asked doubtfully.

“Who cares?” Deiomachus shrugged and headed on in without hesitation, pulling Leptine behind
him.

Patroclus followed them, mumbling something about how he thought they would start to care if
the whole place went up in flames and they were all burned alive when, with one look at his
surroundings, the words fell out of his mouth.

It was as if he’d walked into a dream. The glen had been splendidly lit with a hundred torches, all
burning in their brackets, some in fantastical colours; purple, blue and green. They bathed the glen
in pools of bright light and cast flickering shadows on the dirt ground and trunks of the trees, the
wavering result of the cacophony of bodies packed within that space. Everywhere he looked there
were people, draped in masks and animal skins moving to the beat of the drum and flute that
seemed to sing from the very trees. People everywhere dressed like animals, moving, leaping,
grinding, dancing to the music and embracing the wild energy of the wood.

“It’s amazing,” gasped Leptine. A young man wearing horns and goatskin breeches in the likeness
of a satyr strode up to her and offered his hand. She laughed and allowed him to spin her under his
arm, curtseying in response to his parting bow before he skipped off and re-joined the throng.

“Let’s go get a drink,” suggested Deiomachus when her blushes had subsided. “Before anyone else
decides to carry you off.”

With Deiomachus in the lead they wove their way through the tangled thicket of dancers, holding
hands so that they wouldn’t become separated. At the edge of the ring a man wrung with vine
leaves and holding a staff like the one carried by Dionysus was standing next to several mysterious
looking caskets. Seeing them approach he reached into the nearest and withdrew three wooden
wrought goblets.

“Newcomers, huh?” he greeted them cheerily. “You’re just in time. It’s about to get pretty wild.”

“What’s that?” asked Patroclus, eyeing the goblets warily. “Wine?”

The man laughed at that, the little acorns tangled in his hair wobbling precariously. “If you’re
planning on getting through the night then you’ll be wanting something a little stronger than that,”
he replied amusedly. “But if it’ll set your mind at ease then sure. It’s wine.”

Patroclus looked at the goblet distrustfully, then at Leptine and Deiomachus. They shrugged and
accepted the drinks and Patroclus, who did not want to look like a killjoy, accepted his with
apprehension. Gingerly, he raised the cup to his lips and took a sip. The liquid was cool on his
tongue but left a burning trail as it slid down his gullet, giving Patroclus the feeling that his insides
were on fire. The moment it entered his stomach he felt his head swoon and he grimaced at the
strong, sharp taste. Whatever it was, it was unlikely Peleus would be serving it at his table any time
soon.
Deiomachus took a large gulp and swallowed it down, cringing at the bitter aftertaste. “Yuck,” he
exclaimed, shaking his head. “That’s horrible.” He turned to Leptine and nodded in the direction of
the ring. “Fancy a dance?”

Leptine grinned in response and took the offered hand, stopping to look apologetically at Patroclus.
“Be back in a bit,” she sung merrily before skipping off to join the line of dancers.

Patroclus waved at them, watching as their retreating figures disappeared into the frenzy until they
were just another costumed couple, clapping their hands and stamping their feet along with the
others. The musicians had struck up another tune and already many of the dancers were dripping
with sweat beneath their thick furs. Patroclus took another sip of his drink feeling a little awkward
and out of place. Everyone, it seemed, had come here with somebody. And here he was, standing
on his own in a corner while his friends were hand in hand.

Suddenly someone tapped him on the shoulder and he gave a little start. Turning around he saw a
pretty girl standing before him, a crown of spring flowers braided into her long hair. “Hello,” she
said with an apprehensive smile.

“Hi,” returned Patroclus, trying not to sound taken aback. “Um…can I help you?”

“Oh,” the girl flushed to match the colour of the rose buds in her hair. “I was just wondering if
maybe you’d like to dance.”

For one wild moment Patroclus almost turned to look over his shoulder, just to check that she was
in fact talking to him. But there was no one there except for the man dressed like Dionysus who
appeared to be drinking deeply from his own crates. He glanced at the ring of people moving
before the torches, their bodies twisting up and down like flames and he felt the alcohol within him
pleasantly warming his insides. He looked back at the girl who was waiting nervously for his
response and felt himself seized with an odd sort of confidence which certainly hadn’t been there a
few minutes earlier.

“Sure,” he replied, returning her smile. “I’d love to.”

Her eyes glowed in the firelight as she slipped an arm though his. Patroclus’ heart thudded as she
led him into the twisting, writhing mass but it was more from excitement than nervousness. “I have
to tell you,” he said to her, raising his voice over the noise of the drums. “I’m pretty terrible at
this.”

She laughed amiably and instantly he felt himself encouraged by her warm amusement. “Thanks
for the warning,” she shouted back. “Just follow my lead.”

He did as she told him, relaxing as she took both his hands in hers. The music had sped up to the
rhythm of a fast-paced folk song, such as that sung by shepherds in the mountains and valleys of
the North. The dance was instantly recognised by the people around him who commenced their
steps with renewed vigour and Patroclus was struck with a moment of panic as he realised that he
had absolutely no idea what he was supposed to be doing. Luckily for him however his partner
clearly did and he was more than happy to let her lead him along. As long as she was in charge he
found that it was surprisingly easy to keep up with her; soon they were arm in arm, stepping and
jumping in time with everybody else until they were both hot and breathing deeply.

“That was fun,” she exclaimed, clapping enthusiastically as the song came to an end.

“Yeah,” Patroclus agreed. “Sorry, I think I stepped on your foot a few times.”
“Don’t worry about it,” the girl grinned at his bashful expression. “Phew, it’s hot. Want to get a
drink?”

Patroclus nodded gratefully and they stepped out of the ring to refill their goblets. They talked for a
little while under the leafy canopy of a large Cyprus tree and as they did so Patroclus was aware
that he was growing steadily more tipsy. Whatever had been in those caskets was obviously
extremely potent and fast-working; already he could feel his head starting to swim and he had
trouble focusing on the girl’s words. However, looking up he could just about make out two
familiar figures running towards him, both red faced and breathing heavily.

“PATROCLUS!” Deiomachus roared, throwing an arm around his buckling shoulders. “WE
FOUND YOU! DON’T WORRY GUYS, I FOUND HIM! FOUND HIM!”

“He’s a little drunk,” Leptine explained in response to Patroclus’ questioning expression.

“Somebody pushed him into one of those caskets while we were dancing and instead of getting up
he just sort of…laid there and swallowed.”

“That’s right I did,” nodded Deiomachus proudly. “Damned good swill, that. Makes the palace
stuff taste like sheep’s piss. Did you see us dance Pat, eh? She was bloody good,” here he gestured
aggressively at Leptine. “Like a bloody dryad, or a fairy. A lovely little fairy.”

He leaned down and pressed a kiss into Leptine’s hair. Instead of blushing and pushing him away,
Leptine giggled and threw her arms around his neck which was a mark, Patroclus thought, that she
was none to sober herself. Indeed, when she refaced him he saw that her hair was now rather frizzy
and a slightly unfocused glaze had formed over her glittering eyes. “My feet hurt,” she complained.
“Can we sit down somewhere?”

“My friends are over there, just through those trees,” said the flower-haired girl, pointing to a little
way away. “You’re more than welcome to come and join us.”

The others nodded and followed the girl deeper into the woods where groups of people were sitting
in clusters like clumps of shrubbery, swigging from wineskins and talking or singing loudly. There
were couples too, tucked away non-too conspicuously into the undergrowth; their sprawling limbs
indistinguishable from the leaves and branches. Patroclus tried to avert his eyes as flashes of white
flesh peeked out from the smudges of green and brown but he found his gaze drawn back to them,
even as they retreated into the darkness and disappeared from sight.

The flower-haired girl led them to where a large group of boys and girls of about their own age
were sitting in a circle. They were passing something around, although with the absence of torches
in this part of the glen Patroclus could not see what it was. They sat down cross-legged on the
forest floor, Patroclus feeling suddenly self-conscious of his intrusion, his long legs which seeming
strangely too big among these people he didn’t know. They were welcoming though, greeting him
cheerfully and throwing over the wineskin. The flower-haired girl drank first and passed it to
Patroclus with a smile; Patroclus took it and lifted it to his lips.

“I tell you,” one boy was saying ardently. “There is no such thing as free will. The Gods plan out
our existence the moment we’re born. Earlier than that. From the moment we’re conceived, even.”

“Right,” responded his rival. “So when I got out of bed this morning and put on a yellow chiton
instead of a white one, that had nothing to do with my free will but because the Gods had ordained
it from my conception? To fit into some great master plan?”

“No arsehole,” snarled the former. “You get control of little things. Like what to wear in the
morning or whether to have bread or yoghurt for breakfast. But the big things, the things that really
matter? They’re out of our hands. If the Gods want you dead, you’re dead. If they want you to live,
become a king, rain gold out of your arse then that’ll happen. If they want you to murder your
father and marry your mother then that’s what you’ll do. It’s all written in the stars. Decreed by
destiny.”

The other boy shook his head. “No,” he said. “I don’t buy it. The world is too confused to have that
kind of meaning. Anyway, what would be the point in living if all you were was Zeus’ little game
pieces? What would be the point in anything if in the end you had no choice?”

“I don’t mean that effectively we’re just slaves of the Gods or anything,” the other retorted
impatiently. “I just mean that, at the end of the day, whatever we do is meant to happen. Our lives
mean something, in the bigger picture. So you can’t help who you kill or…or who you love
because whatever happens is supposed to happen. Humans like to have control, over the earth, over
animals, over their own lives. Free will is a human construction designed to deal with the simple
fact that we don’t always have control. And once we accept that fact maybe we’ll all be free to let
go and just let the chips fall where they may.”

His friend let out a low whistle and shook his head, as if the conversation had suddenly become too
much for him. “Whatever man,” he shrugged soundly. “I still say you look a little blue.”

The whole circle laughed and Patroclus joined in, although he was not sure he understood the joke.
It all became clear however when someone started passing around what looked like a bundle of
dried flower petals, electric blue and secured with a piece of string. When they came to Patroclus
he looked at the girl beside him questioningly.

“You chew them,” she explained. “Here.”

She broke off one of the petals and popped it in her mouth. Patroclus, with his extensive knowledge
of drugs and herbs realised that this was the blue lotus plant, an Egyptian flower which caused a
state of relaxed inhibitions and peaceful temperament. He was surprised, these were incredibly
expensive and hard to get. He made to ask how on earth they had gotten their hands on the drug but
to no avail, to the rest of the group everything was suddenly very funny. He shrugged, put one in
his mouth and chewed.

After that time seemed to pass in a haze; people it seemed were moving more slowly, or was it his
mind dragging back their arms and voices? Everything took on an ethereal edge to it as if he had
just stepped into the fairy world where time and space moved in different circles and chronology
was no longer important. Deiomachus and another boy in the group were doing somersaults with
Leptine looking on idly, cheering for one and then the other confusedly. Patroclus listened to the
talk which had gone from philosophy to sex to politics. The flower-haired girl was leaning against
him, her head on his shoulder. Absentmindedly, he stroked her hair.

She looked up at him. Her eyes were wide and slightly red, they beamed out from the smoke like
two lanterns. “You can kiss me if you like,” she said.

“Okay,” said Patroclus, and he did.

He could hear the beat of the drum through the trees, like the cool damp of the earth, and the soft,
mourning crow of the flute like leaves on the wind. The fire was yellow and leaping, despite his
distorted vision he thought he had never seen fire so bright nor shadows so dark. He felt all at once
peaceful and sleepy while at the same time nervous excitement charged in his veins; he wanted to
get up, run, jump, climb a tree and he wanted to curl up amongst the roots and close his eyes.

The musicians had begun again, around him people were getting up and making their way back to
the ring. The flower-haired girl had taken off with the boy who fancied himself a philosopher;
Patroclus looked around him, Deiomachus was involved in a drinking game with his new acrobatic
friend which he appeared to be losing; already he was heaving up against a tree and retching
forcefully. Leptine was looking on with a faint expression of disgust as with an enormous heaving
sound something spattered upon the ground. Patroclus approached her, putting a gentle hand on her
shoulder.

“Hey,” he greeted her. “Want to dance?”

Leptine looked at Patroclus and then back at Deiomachus, who it appeared had a prior engagement
with his own vomit. She nodded.

Together they walked back up the path until they had re-joined the dancers. The song being played
was not as fast as the last but slower, more haunting and somehow more beautiful. Patroclus took
Leptine’s hand but she shook her head, removing it and placing it on her waist.

Deiomachus hadn’t lied; Leptine was light on her feet and graceful as if she really were a dryad or
some other fantastical creature of the wood. Patroclus watched her spin and twirl, her hair flashing
red as she passed the light, red as autumn leaves and summer flowers and her face was bright and
merry. They changed partners; Patroclus was back with the flower-haired girl but his eyes sought
Leptine, skipping and laughing with another man, her little heels flashing against the beaten earth,
her slender wrist dipping and twirling like a ribbon caught in a breeze. And now they were back
together, their bodies close, his hands on her hips again and everything was fire and earth and
music.

They looked at each other, suddenly aware that they were no longer moving. The music started up
again and still they stood there in the middle of the ring, breathing heavily and holding each other’s
gaze. And Patroclus did not know if it was the fire reflected in her eyes or the strong drink or the
blue flowers but there was something different there, something which he certainly had never seen
from her before.

They crept back through the trees, bodies bent low like two children afraid of getting caught doing
something mischievous. The wood closed in around them, shutting off the brilliant yellow light of
the glade in a cool space of dark and damp. Patroclus’ head was fuzzy, even as he led her by the
hand and she lay down in the leaves he was unsure which girl he had with him and from the glazed
look in her eyes he thought she was thinking the same thing. But then she reached up, her small
hand brushing his cheek and he knew who she was, where he was, and what they were about to do.

“Patroclus,” she said and pulled his face down to meet hers.

Their lips met. She was little, so little, and her body was small and soft as a bird’s. That’s what she
looked like then, with her hair all snatched up with brambles and her costume ruffled, a bird caught
up in the brackets and snares. And suddenly she was reaching up under his shirt, her warm hands
were on his chest and she was pulling him down so that his body was pressed atop hers and
Patroclus, who seemed so big and clumsy in comparison, was terrified he would crush her.

She was soft, fluttery and warm. He felt her eyelashes brush against his cheek, heard her little sigh
as he kissed her, light as the brush of her hair on his face. He touched her breasts and she moaned,
pulling him closer to her. Then suddenly his eyes flew open, he saw where he was, rolling in the
dirt and the dark and it was Leptine in his arms, Leptine he was about to do this stupid, drunken
thing with. All at once the wall appeared in his head before he could stop it, try as he might he
could not get past it no matter how hard he kissed her or what her hands brushed against. All he
could think of now was that this was wrong, this was dirty, this was foolish. This was not what he
wanted.
“Patroclus,” she murmured again, twisting her hands in his hair but it was useless. Patroclus
squirmed uncomfortably at her touch and she felt it, although he kissed her again it was half-
hearted and unenthusiastic. He was shamefully aware of the fact that he was still soft underneath
his tunic, and what was worse, Leptine realised it too. The moment she did so her eyes widened and
her arm fell limply to her side. “Oh,” was all she said.

“Leptine I’m so sorry,” Patroclus started, tears springing unbidden to his eyes. “It’s not you, it’s
not…I’m so sorry…there’s something wrong with me I know it, I know-”

“-Hush,” spoke Leptine softly as bitter tears began to fall thick and fast onto the dirt. “No, no, hush
honey, don’t worry…there’s nothing wrong with you, you’re fine…you’re perfect…”

Her words, spoken so gently and carefully as she stroked his cheek only served to make him cry
harder until before he knew it he was sobbing into her chest, all the desires and desperations he had
kept corked up for so long pouring out like a flood from a broken dam. He cried for Achilles, for
the searing, agonizing desire that pricked like needles in his flesh, he cried for the sinful thoughts
and feelings that kept him awake at night, he cried for Leptine and the things he could not give her.
He cried and she stroked his head and held him to her like a mother comforting her son and “it’s
alright,” she promised him, “it’s going to be fine.”

He did not know how long he cried for, or afterwards for how long he slept. All he knew was that
at some point his tears were spent, his eyes were dry and he collapsed, exhausted with his head in
Leptine’s lap. He closed his eyes and passed out immediately, semi-conscious of her still softly
crooning words of comfort until she too slipped into unconsciousness. By the time he woke up
again he felt sunken and drowned; the glen was no longer an ethereal paradise but a cage, pressing
in on him, suffocating him. He was also startlingly and undeniably sober.

He sat up with a jolt and a spurt of panic. Glancing desperately around him he saw that the
celebrations were still going which meant they couldn’t have been out for more than a few hours,
although much of the dancing had fizzled out. Most of the couples had retreated into more
secluded regions of the forest and the coupling ceremonies were beginning; horror struck he
reached beside him and shook the sleeping body rudely awake.

“Leptine!” he hissed, tugging aggressively at her shoulders. “Leptine, wake up!”

“Huh? What time is it?” Leptine grumbled, reaching for a blanket and getting only leaves. Then
suddenly her eyes flew open; she sat up as if someone had charged her with an electrical current
and stared accusingly at Patroclus. “You!” she cried, hands flying to clamp the sides of her face.
“And me…just now…we didn’t…did we? Oh dear Gods, say we didn’t!”

“We didn’t,” said Patroclus quickly. “But fuck, it was close.”

“Oh my Gods,” wailed Leptine, clutching her knees and rocking back and forth like a madwoman.
“Oh my Gods oh my Gods…what were we thinking? What did we almost do?” And without
warning she raised her hand and struck Patroclus sharply round the head.

“Ow!” exclaimed Patroclus, clutching his already pounding skull. “What was that for?”

“For just…standing there and letting me throw myself at you!” she sobbed ardently. “Why would
you do that? What could possibly possess you to let me do that? You’re supposed to safeguard my
dignity, you absolute prick-”

“-Well I’m sorry Leptine,” retorted Patroclus, throwing his hands up in the air in distress. “But
funnily enough your dignity wasn’t the first thing on my mind at that point.”
But Leptine had stopped listening to him and had proceeded to snatching up handfuls of her hair
and wrenching them with her fists. With her eyes widened in horror and stark white skin she looked
for a moment quite insane. “Oh my Gods,” she moaned again. “I can’t believe I did that. When I
promised myself-”

She broke off with a sob, her head falling into her outstretched hands. Patroclus shifted around so
that he was sitting next to her and awkwardly put his arm around her shoulders, uncomfortable as
he was at their renewed close contact. Leptine was saying something but her words were muffled
by her palms, he only just caught the words “I’m so embarrassed” muttered between her fingers.

“Don’t,” said Patroclus, hugging her to him. “Please don’t. If anything I’m the one who should be
embarrassed.”

Leptine lifted her tear stained face to meet him, her cheeks streaked with dirt. “What do you
mean?” she asked.

Patroclus sighed, realising as he did so that there was no way he could put this off any longer.
“There’s something I have to tell you,” he began.
 Agape
Chapter Notes

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He started from the beginning, or as far back as he could remember. Back when he was new and
lonely and Achilles was just a boy with dice. Their first fight and how the blood charged through
his veins, the smash of knuckles connecting with sinew, their second: I want you to hit me as hard
as you can. In his mind’s eye he saw him running, saw the smile he would toss back at him from
over his shoulder, an afterthought, a flash on the wind. Holding him against the cooling water of
the bathtub until the shivering subsided. Dive bombing off the highest cliff and screaming until the
breaking of the waves drowned out all sound. Kissing him, with bloody knuckles and a flower
shaped bruise at the corner of his mouth.

“At which point,” asked Leptine, “Did it happen?”

And Patroclus shook his head. An impossible question, impossible. Because even now,
remembering how he had sat up in the middle of the night, drenched in sweat and staring in wide
eyed horror into the dark thinking “My Gods. That’s what it is” he thought No, it was before. Or
maybe it was always. Achilles would scorn such things he knew; fairytales, mythology, romantic
fantasy, but it was true. Even when he had hated him he’d loved him, had always loved him, before
they had ever even met.

He told her this and more. Watching Achilles touch him in the mirror, Here and here and
here…thinking of the sweat on his thighs while Pamaia stood naked in his arms. He told her all of
this with his head in his hands because he couldn’t look at her; surely, surely she would see him
now as he saw himself – a pathetic freak, a slave to his own perverse desires but he could not hold
back the words, now he had started he couldn’t stop and he kept talking until his voice was hoarse
and dry.

When finally he stopped, his last words petering out like the final feet of a very long race, he
ventured to look up from his palms. Leptine had said nothing all the time he’d been speaking, only
listened in silence, her face blank. Now she waited for him to regain composure and when he had
done so her voice was quiet.

“Feel better?” she asked, a twitch at the corner of her mouth.

The moment Patroclus registered the question he felt as though a huge burden had been lifted. He
felt lighter and free despite his exhaustion. The race was done and here he was now, stumbling
over the finish line not caring what place he’d come, only embracing the sweet relief that it was
finally over. “Yeah,” he said, rubbing his eyes tiredly. “Yeah, I do.”

“Good,” said Leptine and reached for his hand. Her eyes were brimming with tears. “Oh, Patroclus
I’m so sorry.”

Patroclus frowned at her in confusion as with her other hand she swiped at her eyelashes. “Sorry for
what?”

“Oh just…for everything,” she replied, her voice trembling slightly. “If I’d had any idea of what
you were going through...I mean, of course I knew what it was but not that it was so bad…I should
have said something, spoken earlier but you wouldn’t talk to me so I thought you didn’t want me to
know…you were always so closed off…”
“Wait,” Patroclus stopped her. “What are you talking about? Are you saying that you knew…all
along…you knew the whole time?”

“Did I know you were so much in love that it was driving you into self-hatred and destructive
emotional turmoil, no,” Leptine answered, raising her eyebrow. “Did I suspect that you might have
a small crush on your best friend? That was as plain as the moon in the sky, I’m afraid. You’re not
nearly as inscrutable as you think you are.”

“Then why didn’t you say something?” said Patroclus pleadingly. “Just a word or…or anything to
let me know that you were there, that you understood what was going on?”

“Because I didn’t think you wanted me to know,” replied Leptine with a sigh. “I kept waiting and
waiting for you to come and talk to me, to explain what was going on with you. But you never did.
So I decided that I’d give you some space, let you come around in your own time. I suppose I
thought that it would pass, that it was just a brief phase and a silly thing. It is a common enough
thing between boys, you know. I had no idea that you actually felt like…well…this.”

Patroclus groaned and let his head drop into his hands again. Darkness closed in around his eyelids,
pressed in by the weight of his palms. At the corners of his vision he could see tiny silver lights
appearing between his fingers; he shook his head to clear them and realised his temples were
pounding with head ache. “I don’t know what I feel,” he confessed. “I hate him. I hate him so
much.”

“No you don’t,” Leptine reprimanded him. “You’re only telling yourself that to make it easier.”

“It doesn’t feel easier,” muttered Patroclus.

“No,” said Leptine quietly. “These things never do.”

Patroclus looked up. Leptine caught his glance and held it, it was regretful and sad and for all the
things Patroclus would never comprehend, he understood it at once.

“Leptine,” he squeezed her hand. “I am so sorry.”

She smiled ruefully, the smile of someone who has long learned to accept their fate. “Don’t worry
about it,” she replied softly. “It would never have worked anyway. Whoever heard of an Eastern-
born slave marrying the son of a king? You might as well have proposed to Achilles! Or a goat!”

“You know it’s not that,” Patroclus insisted, horrified that this could ever have been her thought.
“Gods, never that. Tell me, you know it’s not.”

“I do know,” she reassured him, patting his hand with her own. “I’m sorry. I’m making light. It’s
what people do you know. To cope with heartbreak.”

The horror already wrenching Patroclus’ gut gave an extra sharp tug. “Did I really break your
heart?” he murmured, dumfounded that he had the ability to do such a thing, even unconsciously.

Leptine laughed. “No,” she replied. “I am not in love with you, Patroclus. I might have thought I
was, for a little while at least. You were the first person since I was taken into slavery to ever give
me a second glance, let alone show me kindness. The girl that I was, I began to hope. But I saw the
way you looked at him and…well. I am accustomed to knowing my place. Whatever romantic
intention, whatever naïve, childish emotion I ever had for you is long gone. I am content to be your
friend. Truly, I cannot imagine being anything else or other than.”

As the knot in his stomach loosened Patroclus let out the breath he had been holding in. Seeing his
visible relief Leptine laughed and drew him to her, planting an affectionate kiss on the top of his
head. “Oh hapless my Menoitides,” she crooned fondly, ruffling his hair. “What an ill-fated, star-
crossed pair we are. What can we have done for the Gods to justify such laughter at our expense?”

“Perhaps we sacrificed kittens in another life,” observed Patroclus gloomily.

“Perhaps,” Leptine agreed. “But I suppose the real question is what are you going to do now?”

Patroclus peered up at her through the circle of her arms. “What do you mean?” he frowned.

“Well,” began Leptine. “We’ve established how you feel about Achilles. We recognise your
complete inability to feel similarly for anyone else. There isn’t really any reason why you should
still be here.”

Patroclus wrinkled his forehead in bemusement. “But…where else should I be?”

She responded with such a Leptine-ish look of pure exasperation that he felt a little thrill of joy,
knowing with absolute certainty that whatever had happened between them, and whatever was still
to come their way, their friendship would survive this. “Patroclus,” she said. “You really are the
biggest idiot I have ever met. Surely you realise the reason Achilles didn’t want you to come here
tonight is because he was afraid you’d end up with somebody else? Well, I think we can safely say
now that that isn’t going to happen. So what the hell are you still doing here?”

“I don’t know,” Patroclus squirmed uncomfortably. “You seem to have all the answers, why don’t
you tell me?”

“You need to tell him how you feel. Go on! Tell him what you just told me!”

Patroclus stared at her. Her eyes were wide and shining fervently with enthusiasm; he peered at her
distrustfully. “Are you still drunk?”

“No I am not,” she huffed and then paused. “Well. Maybe a little. But that’s not the point. He
kissed you, didn’t he? That’s got to count for something! Odds are he feels exactly the same way.”

“Or else we’re both very, very tired,” Patroclus countered meaningfully. “Do you even know, can
you even imagine how he would react if I were to say to him what I just told you? You’d be
scraping me off the staircase for months.”

“Or it might just be the most fantastic thing you’ll ever do in your life,” argued Leptine. “And if
you don’t, you’ll regret it forever.”

“No one lives forever.”

“Come on,” she insisted. “Think. He forbids you from coming to Beltane. He risked his life,
freedom and his soul when someone tried to attack you. He gets jealous and defensive any time
you even look at me (don’t think I haven’t noticed, the other day he dipped my mop in yoghurt)
and it’s all he can do to be near you, to think of ways to touch you, even to kiss you. Either he’s
head over heels or he is one very eccentric individual.”

“Well that goes without saying,” answered Patroclus. “But Leptine, do you think I haven’t
considered these things? Do you think I don’t lie awake every fucking night considering them?
But the fact is he isn’t like you or I, he doesn’t play by our rules. He doesn’t think Leptine, he does
what he wants when he wants. And that’s not me being bitter, that’s just how he is. Anything else
is wishful thinking. Nothing more.”
As he spoke he realised, his heart dropping a few inches with each word, that he was right. It had
been so easy to wonder, to hope when Leptine spoke like that about him. It was so easy to think
actually yes, what if, perhaps and if Achilles had been an ordinary boy, any other boy then she
would have had a point. But the fact was he wasn’t ordinary. The normal rules didn’t apply to him.
When he wanted something he took it, be it a kiss or a human life.

“Alright,” said Leptine, crossing her arms over her chest in a gesture of defiance. “Say you’re right,
say Achilles is a self-indulgent little shit with a golden orb where his heart should be. You’re still
his best friend, aren’t you? He still cares about you in a way he’s never cared about anyone other
than his own reflection. You need to tell him how you feel, if nothing else to get it off your chest.
If you’re as close as you seem he’ll understand. You can’t go on like this, it’ll eat you alive.”

Patroclus glanced from the patch of dirt he had been tracing skulls into and met her eyes. She was
pleading with him, he could see it in her face. He knew it distressed her to see him like this, he
wanted so badly to make it all to her, to smile if it made her happy. But she was wrong, so wrong.
Still, he tried to look as though he was considering what she’d said and a moment later shrugged in
feigned resignation. “I suppose I might feel better if I spoke to him,” he lied. “I’ll think about it.”

For a moment Leptine looked at him as if she might press the issue. But to Patroclus’ relief she
only smiled and stood up, brushing earth and dead leaves from her skirt. Then she held out her
hand; he took it and allowed her to pull him up.

Only once on their feet did they appreciate how dark it really was. Most of the festival fires had
gone out to be replaced by fairy-lights made from tiny candles bobbing in jars which made the
wood look ethereal and strange. As they picked their way back through the tangled undergrowth
they noticed there were more shadows than there had been before, casting a dim, dusky green
gloom through the leafy canopy over their heads. The moon however was brighter than it had been
all night and lit their pathway for them; tracing the beams through the ailing trees it was as if they
were following a trail of silver coins.

The band had stopped playing now, only a couple of musicians still blew haunting songs on thin
pan-pipes and wooden flutes. Most people had retreated into the secret shade and were wrapped up
in their nights of love, however some groups had remained in the glade making sleepy, post-high
talk with their friends or else simply lying on their backs, gazing up at the stars. It pleased
Patroclus to see that Deiomachus was one of this latter; having risen from the patch of earth where
he had been lying face-down and unconscious for the past few hours he was now quite alert and
blowing steam from his breath into the clear, cold sky.

He looked up as they approached, a flicker of suspicion passing over his face when he spotted that
they were holding hands. “Where have you two been?” he inquired, a note of distrust in his voice.

Patroclus and Leptine looked at each other, knowing there would be no need to go over the events
of that night again. It was as if it had never happened and there was no reason for Deiomachus to
think otherwise.

“There you are, Leptine,” said Patroclus smiling. “Pure gratitude for you. There’s you, passed out
on the floor and us waiting devotedly by your side for you to come to, worried sick that someone
would come by and piss on your head or something. Then when we saw the bruise on your temple
Leptine got worried that you might have a concussion so we went off to find some herbs to deal
with it. She was all set to have a heart attack when we couldn’t find anyway but clearly you’re fine
and we needn’t have worried. Honestly, and there’s her crying her eyes out and you lying still as a
corpse. You should be ashamed of yourself.”

Deiomachus turned to Leptine looking startled. “Were you really crying over my lifeless body?”
Leptine glanced at Patroclus who gave a tiny, encouraging nod. Leptine took a deep, shaky breath
and squeezed her eyes shut as one who has suffered great emotional distress. “The fear was too
much to bear.”

Patroclus stifled a smirk as Deiomachus hugged her and lapsed into speaking words of comfort to
which Leptine responded diligently with occasional nods and helpless little sighs. As soon as it
became apparent all traces of suspicion had vanished Patroclus decided to take his leave, walking
away from the safe space of the glade back through the trees. This, as it turned out, was not one of
his better ideas as he was instantly surrounded by coupling bodies; he moved through the wood
quickly until he was out of dangerous territory and, doing so, realised he had come out of the wood
altogether.

He was now standing at the edge of the field near the end of the path that had led to festival.
Across the flat expanse of hay and long grass he could see the palace lights twinkling in the
distance. Inevitably his eyes sought that of the highest tower which remained unlit. Achilles was
probably sleeping by now, there being no reason for him to stay up. Or else he was lying awake on
his mattress, one arm outstretched before him grasping out at something invisible and always out of
reach, as he sometimes did when he thought Patroclus wasn’t looking. What was it, that intangible
object his fingers opened and closed around, that unattainable treasure he would reach and reach
for but never grab and pull back down to his chest? Patroclus had never asked, and would probably
never know.

He knew he was right. Achilles would not thank him to be exposed to every deep, dark thought that
had been curling its tendrils round the pillars of Patroclus’ mind. Even if he didn’t beat him to a
pulp there was no doubt their friendship would be ruined forever; there could be no coming back
from such a confession.

Patroclus looked behind him, back at the wood where the festival was still dragging on to its last.
He would do better to go back inside, to wait for his friends, perhaps find a girl to talk to if nothing
else. He should get on with his life, give up the visions and fantasies that had so far destroyed his
comfort and happiness, think of Achilles as a friend and nothing else. He would do better to stop
dreaming, to forget.

He looked at the tower, at the little black window and realised with a pang of sudden, inexplicable
certainty. He didn’t want to forget.

Fuck it.

oOo

He sprinted across the field as fast as his legs would carry him. As he ran he could feel his muscles
burning in complaint, he ignored them only driving his feet harder into the ground, arms pumping
wildly. For the first time he was grateful for all those extra running sessions; in the light of the
moon he flew across the grass, his long strides easily covering the distance even as his chest
begged for breath. As he put more and more width between him and the wood his heart grew
lighter and euphoria swelled in his chest with the insanity of what he was about to do. He was
taking the future into his own hands, regardless of what fate had planned for him. Whatever the
consequences he was finally doing something he wanted to.

He reached the palace and without a second’s pause for breath barged through the gate and raced
over to the back entrance. Using the tunnels he was by now so well acquainted with he hurried
through the slaves’ quarters, conscious of the sound of his feet slapping feverishly against the stone
floor despite the fact that there was no one there. Within minutes he found the staircase that led up
to Achilles’ room; heart hammering he leapt up them three at a time and when he reached the top
he just about kicked the door open.

To his surprise Achilles was wide awake and laying on his back, hands placed idly on his stomach
and green eyes fixed on the ceiling. He raised his head, startled at the sound of the door banging
against the wall and instinctively reached for the knife lying at his bedside. Then he saw who it
was and his figure relaxed although his face still betrayed his shock.

“What the fuck are you playing at?” he exclaimed, gesturing at the wall where the force of
Patroclus’ entrance had chipped away the paintwork. “You’ll wake up the whole palace-”

“-Shut up,” said Patroclus and letting the door slam shut behind him stepped swiftly into the room.
He saw Achilles’ eyes widen as he drew nearer, saw the mixture of confusion and bewilderment on
his face as he stepped shortly in front of the bed and reached to grab the back of his head. And
without another word, without the space of another heartbeat he wrenched him forward and kissed
him.

It was hard, brutal, like the first had been. Achilles barely had time to respond or betray his shock
when Patroclus released him and cut him off before he started. “No, shut up,” he said again.
“Listen for a fucking change. I don’t know what’s going on with me. Maybe it’s something to do
with my childhood, you know I never really got enough affection growing up and every time I
thought about asking a hug from my father he’d hit me over the head with something. My mother,
she was alright but can you really measure someone’s character by the lack of violence they carry
out against you? I don’t know, maybe this is all part of the Gods’ master plan and they arranged all
this as some drunken wager before my conception. Maybe I’m just fucked up. Or perhaps the
world is, if there’s one thing I’ve learned about coming here it’s that life is shitty. It’s unfair and
there’s injustice and underage drinking and poverty and good people are slaves and bad people sit
in high courts. So life is shit and sometimes I feel like it just took a big fat one on me but the only
thing I’m certain about, the only thing, is that there’s a light in it and I think it might be you. I don’t
know, maybe this would be easier if I was a king or still a prince or even a slave, just some…some
category to go by, to make some sense of this whole stupid, crazy thing. But if there’s anything
else I’ve learned it’s that we can’t have everything, simply because there’s not always enough
happiness to go around. And you can lay there bitching about it, wishing that things were different
or you can take what you can get and hope it lasts long enough to get you through the day.”

He paused and found he was breathing heavily, the effort of his speech combined with the run was
taking its toll. But if he didn’t say this now he knew he’d never find the courage again. And with
that thought in mind, he steeled himself to go on. “So that’s what I’m doing,” he said. “Taking
what I can get. And sure, it would be nice if I was brave or charming or beautiful or even if I could
look at you once without blinking in wonder. But here I am. Not a king, not a prince, not a slave.
Just a boy, standing in front of a God, asking it to love him.”

There. It was done. He stopped and waited, still breathing hard, the wind and spurt of sudden
courage that had carried him thus far at last run out. But now it was the tension that gripped him,
the wait for Achilles’ reaction.

He was staring at him, frowning, his mouth slightly parted, expression unreadable; it didn’t look
like anger but Patroclus couldn’t be sure. Looking down he could see that Achilles’ muscles were
tensed, shining bright white through the taught skin of his hand. Patroclus winced and braced
himself for the punch that never came. Instead Achilles reached up, grasped his jaw and pressed
his lips to his.

Within a second it all came flooding back. The memory of Achilles’ mouth on his, he wondered
how he had ever lived without it after that first taste that seemed now like a lifetime ago. It stunned
 him still to realise just how soft his lips were, opening against his like the flowering of petals. But
there was nothing lenient in the kiss, nothing forgiving. With desperate intensity they claimed each
other, hands clasping at the back of necks, fingers pulling through knots of tangled hair. Their
foreheads bumped together; Achilles’ palms were flat on either side of Patroclus’ face as their lips
met again and again, Patroclus could see beneath his eyelashes that his eyes were screwed up as if
from pain.

His mouth was hot; it was as if someone had lit a fire in their stomachs which was leaping up their
torsos and into their chests, curling from their lips like tongues of flame. As they kissed they
pushed at each other, their arms working furiously while they struggled to gain the upper hand,
bruising flesh as their shoulders bashed together. At one point Achilles actually shoved him away
and Patroclus felt a sharp flicker of horror, thinking that he had changed his mind when suddenly
he was back and kissing him again, this time more urgently, forcing him backwards onto the bed.

Patroclus stumbled, tripping over his own feet and landing on the mattress. Hastily he arranged
himself into a sitting position, struggling to suppress his glee as Achilles proceeded to clamber onto
the bed, his hands and knees flat on the mattress as he hovered over Patroclus. With his tawny hair
sticking messily about his face and his cat eyes shining brighter than ever he looked for all the
world like a great lion, standing on all fours.

“You are beautiful,” he growled angrily. “So shut up.”

And before Patroclus had a chance to respond he had leant down and was kissing his neck.
Patroclus eyes rolled back into his skull at the touch of Achilles’ lips on the supple skin beneath
his jaw, gasping as his teeth grazed his neck. He felt the curve of Achilles’ smile against his
shoulder and a jolt of competitive irritation shot through him. Instinctively, he reached down and
began to stroke the taught muscles of Achilles’ thighs, his fingers skimming his bronze skin with
feather light touches as they moved slowly inward. Suddenly Achilles gasped audibly and Patroclus
was thrilled to discover the hardness there, peeking out from beneath the thin cotton of his chiton.
His joy only intensified upon the realisation that Achilles was blushing.

“Alright,” he murmured, raising an eyebrow as he caught sight of Patroclus’ own erection. “Sit
up.”

Patroclus obeyed and Achilles moved away to allow him to scramble into an upright position.
Once apart they looked at each other, cross-legged upon the mattress. For the first time, it seemed,
they beheld each other; there was no light except for that of the moon and Patroclus had to peer at
him from the dark in order to make out the rosy sheen of his skin, dishevelled hair and swollen
lips. In all the time that he had known him, he’d never looked so lovely.

Patroclus put his hands on Achilles’ chest. He could feel the rhythmic beating of his heart beneath
his palm, like a ball of fire pulsing beneath his skin. He looked up and their eyes met.

“You can have it,” Achilles whispered, and kissed him.

Chapter End Notes

Yes, there will be sex next chapter.

Thank you for your patience, hope it was worth it. :)
 Ceaseless
Chapter Notes

Ok, first thing’s first. I have changed my name. I hope that causes little confusion, if
you type “The Good Soul” in the search bar it should still come up. Otherwise just
scan the Achilles/Patroclus section until you see it. Either way don’t worry, it’s still
me.

Secondly I’m sorry for the delay. I do have excuses but they’re too long and boring to
regale here and also they’ll just depress me. As it turns out there is actually quite a lot
you have to do to get into university. I’ve sorted out (most of) my life for the time
being so updates should be more frequent, however I cannot promise regularity. I’m
really sorry, I will try my best but it’s getting steadily difficult to find time to do
anything at the moment, let alone update a fanfiction.

And last thing, I just wanted to put in a bit about the story. Since I first started writing
this I have been blown away by the comments and amount of support this has
received. It was totally unexpected and I still haven’t quite gotten over it. You are
without a doubt the best readers I have ever had, and I’ve been writing fanfiction for a
while. I cannot thank you enough for all your kind words, encouragement and your
sheer perseverance with this. It is honestly so touching and I can only hope that if I
ever do become a published author I can fall back on readers half as fantastic as you.

Keeping that in mind and considering how long you’ve all been sticking with this, I
think it’s only fair that you yourselves have a stake in how this is going to go. I do
have a plan for where I want this to end and it will take up to ten chapters at least to
get where I want it. However, I will only continue writing if it’s what you guys want.
If you’d rather I just sort of stop hereabouts and turn it into a sort of epilogue then
that’s what I’ll do. Otherwise I’ll go right ahead and keep it up for as long as I can but
there’s very little point in doing that if I’ve got about three people keeping up. The
story is far from over, there are still many directions I could head in but it’s up to you
on whether you want to read on or let things settle down here. Please let me know in
the comments.

And finally a word about this chapter. Writing sex scenes is actually quite difficult for
me so apologies in advance. But before you get your hopes up I wasn’t comfortable
with having them dive headfirst into penetrative sex. As you’ll know by now I like to
build things up steadily and realistically and I’m going to keep doing the same with
their sexual relationship (sorry!) There will bepenetrative sex later on, just not in this
chapter. Also there was a little confusion over their ages, I had a private message from
a reader the other day who seemed to think they were around the ages of 12-13. THEY
ARE MUCH OLDER. I was going to leave it up to the imagination as long as it was
along the lines of post-pubescence but for the sake of argument Patroclus is 16,
Achilles is a few months older.

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After that they were slower, moving languidly, almost dreamlike as steadily they undressed each
other. Perhaps the full enormity of the situation had dawned on them now that the initial heat and
impulse of the moment was over, and they were both suddenly aware of how inexperienced they
really were. Patroclus’ fingers fumbled on the catch of Achilles’ chiton, feeling the heat rise to his
cheeks as it failed to undo and in the end Achilles had to do it himself, his hands quick and nimble
where Patroclus’ had been clumsy.

The thick folds of material slipped from his body inch by inch until they had fallen away
completely, revealing the magnificent torso beneath. Despite having seen it so many times, awake
and in his sleep, Patroclus felt his breath catch. After so long thinking and dreaming of this body he
could scarcely believe now that it was his and his alone. Mixed with the awe came a twinge of
embarrassment as his own tunic fell away; compared to Achilles’ sculpted form he felt himself to
be pale and average and not for the first time that evening he wondered why on earth Achilles
wanted him, why he had been given this gift of which he was so unworthy.

As if reading his thoughts, Achilles reached out and ran his fingers along the prominent line of
Patroclus’ collar bone, tracing the v-shaped groove at the base of neck. He set his lips to that
hollow, working upwards to kiss his neck and throat and Patroclus sighed, feeling himself relax
into Achilles’ gentle touch, even while his other hand made to tug away the remains of the tunic
still clinging to his waist. He flushed when it came off however, exposing his hot flesh to the cold
air and had to fight the reflex to cover up his erection with his hands. Noticing, Achilles whacked
his hand away and bent down towards his chest. As he did so his lower half brushed against
Patroclus’; he stifled a groan through clenched teeth.

Strands of silvery blonde hair slipped from behind Achilles’ ears as he began to trail kisses over
Patroclus’ chest. They tickled his skin, like the beating wings of a small bird and Patroclus was
reminded of that story, of how Zeus had come to Hera as a helpless, feathered thing and she had
clasped him against her breast, to keep him safe from the storm sending the galaxies tumbling
round the Universe. Achilles’ lips marked his flesh, as if he were claiming Patroclus for his own,
and each touch of his mouth was as branding as iron.

Suddenly he stopped. Patroclus’ eyes fluttered open to meet his, staring apologetically up at him. “I
don’t know what I’m doing,” he confessed.

He sounded himself so helpless, so completely at a loss that Patroclus’ first instinct was to laugh.
He reached out a hand to brush the hair off Achilles’ face, running his fingers through the tangles
and stroked the blushing skin at the back of his neck. “Well what you’re doing now seems to be
working,” he answered pointedly, twirling a curly thread of gold round his index.

Achilles smiled and kissed Patroclus sweetly, his tongue flickering lithely as a dancing flame.
Patroclus tightened his hold round his neck, drawing him closer to him and was disappointed when
Achilles broke off the kiss. The feeling did not last long however as Achilles lowered his head and
proceeded to take Patroclus’ nipple between his teeth. This time Patroclus could not suppress the
moan that came out with the sudden flash of pain and he felt Achilles’ grin widen. By the time
Achilles released him he was rock hard and his cock was throbbing urgently.

Achilles’ hands, long fingered and calloused from bow strings and the lyre flitted across his thigh,
barely grazing the tip. Patroclus swore as the light contact sent his head reeling and his cock gave
an involuntary twitch. Achilles hesitated, as if struck by a sudden idea and Patroclus almost
screamed at him, the suspense was almost unbearable. Then, as if he had made up his mind,
Achilles began to stroke him.

He was tentative, clumsy even, and Patroclus was aware of a cruel, perverse sense of glee at seeing
the magnificent Achilles, always so confident, now unsure of himself. But as Achilles’ movements
quickened all thoughts dissipated into the warm air and he was conscious only of the pleasure; of
Achilles’ long, supple, beautiful hands on him, weaving up and down as if he were working some
fabulous tapestry. His pulse quickened, his breathing grew haggard and he could not think but
could only tilt his head back as a moan escaped his lips and stars appeared at the corners of his
vision. He caught Achilles’ eye and suddenly they were both laughing at how much better this felt
when it was somebody else’s hands doing this, after so many nights touching himself under the
sheets this is what he had been missing.

Achilles’ strokes were faster than ever; Patroclus’ mouth fell open as he came in thin streaks
against the golden-brown plane of his stomach. They both gazed in shock at the lines of semen
glinting off Achilles’ muscles and dripping onto the sheets, like the corporeal incarnation of a
pearly white ghost until they were laughing again, partially from embarrassment and mostly
because it seemed like the right thing to do.

It was then that Patroclus noticed Achilles too was swollen and reddish, the tip slightly moist and
he realised that with his other hand he had been touching himself. Before Achilles had the chance
to say a word Patroclus had pushed him down so that he was lying flat upon the mattress. Swiftly
he touched him between the thighs and Achilles’ whimpered, a glorious sound which only grew
more guttural as Patroclus began to mimic his actions. Like Achilles he wasn’t sure what he would
like or what to do, and he didn’t want to seem as awkward and inept as he felt. So he did what
seemed natural, his hand moving in time to his hammering heart, at one point glancing nervously
up to gauge Achilles’ reaction. His skin was bright pink and damp with sweat, his bright hair
clinging to the hollows of his cheeks as his wet mouth fell open to accommodate the frantic rate of
his breathing. Suddenly he made a strange noise which sounded like “Fu-ghujcklus” as his eyes
rolled back into his head and he lurched forward, coming in reams onto the crisp, cotton sheets.

They collapsed onto the mattress, both of them breathing hard. Soon there was no sound but for
their soft panting and the steady thump of their hearts, gradually slowing to a calmer rhythm as
their limbs relaxed. The room was cool, it was raining outside, and Patroclus could see little
tendrils of steam rising from the sweat on their skin to settle on the air. He could smell salt; lying
there on their backs they could easily have been on the beach with the sting of the sea on their
glistening bodies and the tide washing over their feet. Their chests rose and fell like the crests of
waves, both of them too stunned with what had just happened to speak. Silence, thought Patroclus
whimsically, is most definitely something you can hear.

As usual, Achilles was the first to break it. “How long?” he asked.

Patroclus shook his head. “I don’t know,” he confessed. “A long time.”

“I can tell you when,” said Achilles, propping himself up on his elbow. In his sluggish state,
Patroclus thought stupidly that he looked like a mermaid. “Your first fight. When I saw you
pummel that bastard Mynax into the dirt.”

Patroclus stared at him in disbelief. “That was when…when…?”

“When I knew yeah,” nodded Achilles, correcting the unfinished question. “For certain, I mean. I
remember seeing that look in your eye and you had this gorgeous little split in your lip and I knew
right then that I liked you. It took a little more time for me to work out the rest.”

“But that was so long ago,” said Patroclus incredulously. “If you knew then why in Gods’ name
were you such an arsehole?”

“I don’t know,” Achilles shrugged, flicking his bangs out his eyes. “I suppose it’s a little like when
a boy likes a girl but he can’t show it. So he tells her she’s pretty by pulling her hair and pushing
her over and stuff.”

Through the dim, moonlit darkness Patroclus narrowed his eyes. “Is this you calling me a little
girl?”

Achilles smirked, turning his head so that he was facing Patroclus properly. “I’m just saying,” he
continued. “That being an arsehole was how I dealt with the situation. And you made it so
goddamn easy…don’t trick yourself into thinking that you were a stroll in the agora yourself. You
were such a self-righteous little prick. Still are, in fact.”

“Here comes the romance,” Patroclus rolled his eyes.

“But it must have been earlier,” Achilles carried on, a slight frown appearing on his pink-flushed
face, as though trying to explain something to himself. “Since first I saw you I couldn’t take my
eyes off you. I thought I would drive myself crazy trying to hide it. Surely you noticed?”

Patroclus shook his head, completely astonished. “No,” he said. “Never.”

“Never,” Achilles repeated, shaking his head in bewilderment. “And what about you? Why didn’t
you say something sooner?”

Patroclus shook his head, at a loss for an explanation. He felt like someone had robbed all the
words right out of his head leaving no room for anything but the purest happiness. All along, when
he had thought Achilles despised his very guts he had loved him, even as Patroclus loved him now.
He considered pinching himself just to check he hadn’t slipped into a dream but decided against it,
thinking that even if he had done, he didn’t want to wake up anytime soon.

“It’s just so strange,” sighed Patroclus finally. “All this time when we wanted to kill each other,
hating each other’s very being and now…now here we are. It’s just so…so insane, I mean, how did
we even end up this way?”

Achilles shrugged. “The Universe is incongruous and heteromorphic,” he answered sagely.

“Anyway, it’s not so strange. Perfectly understandable. To be expected, even. From the moment I
first saw you I was fascinated by you. You were so weird; so awkward and clumsy and angry at
everyone. And then I met you and you were so…different from the rest of them…it was perplexing
to me. You were such a little weirdo. And you were so like me, yet you hated me so much. How
can two people hate each other so avidly without liking each other a little? How could I possibly
not have been drawn to you?”

Their eyes met and locked. Patroclus found himself unable to look away from those eyes, with their
ocean irises, green and tumultuous as a storm at sea. Achilles smiled, moving to cup Patroclus’
cheek with his hand and when he spoke it was softly, so softly Patroclus had to strain to hear him.
“How could I have possibly stayed away?” he whispered.

His hand was soft, thumbing the angular line of Patroclus’ jaw bone with his thumb. Patroclus
leaned into his palm, burying his face into those callouses where sword hilts and the hefts of spears
had welded themselves against him, rubbing against the taut skin and scarred knuckles; evidence of
their many fights, now etched like ink into his flesh. He reached out with his hand, brushing
against the hollow of Achilles’ cheekbone and revelled at the impossible softness of his skin.

“You should have told me,” said Patroclus wistfully. “Or I should have told you. We could have
had so much time.”
Achilles shrugged, the lean branch of his shoulders lifting like a cypress tree in the wind. “No
matter,” he said. “We have all the time in the world.”

Patroclus smiled and nodded, blinking back tears. Happiness, he decided as Achilles thumbed the
matching scars on Patroclus’ knuckles, could be a painful thing. For a little while longer they
gazed at each other in the dark, learning each other’s bodies anew, scaling lines and crevices with
tender touches and soft, chaste kisses. Then at last Achilles put his arms round Patroclus and it was
not long before they were both asleep, suddenly overcome by the sheer magnitude of their joy and
the aftermath of love. Soon the room was quiet but for their breathing and the sound of the rain that
pattered against the windowsill before rising like steam into the night.

oOo

Morning came in waves of sunlight, drenching the room with pools of pale gold. Patroclus woke
up first and was at once awash with relief as it became apparent that last night had not been a
dream. Achilles was still sleeping soundly beside him, his face calm and mouth slightly parted.
Patroclus could feel his warm breath against his shoulder; for some reason he found this
reassuring. He never liked to see Achilles asleep. He always looked like he had gone somewhere
Patroclus was unable to follow.

Patroclus turned on his side, arranging himself so that he could see the whole of him. He looked so
much younger in this state, his face so untroubled by the plagues and excitements life was forever
springing at them. At this moment he could have been a child who had never held a knife or felt
the drip of blood running black along his arms. It remained a constant source of amazement to him
that one could look so white and innocent, so perfectly, purely naïve when the very balls of his
fists were crafted to kill.

Sunlight spilled onto the bed, setting Achilles’ face alight with a radiant glow and not for the first
time Patroclus struggled to comprehend how this was possible, that something so beautiful could
be firstly real and secondly his, to have, to touch, to love so freely and completely. Then with a jolt
of fear he wondered if perhaps, in the light of the morning, Achilles had changed his mind. What if
he was horrified at the events that had taken place last night? What if this was just another one of
his games and in a moment he would kick Patroclus out of the bed, laughing disgustedly and tell
him that he was pathetic and worthy only of the upmost contempt?

These thoughts flashed through Patroclus’ mind by the second, however, the moment Achilles’
eyes fluttered open and smiled at him they were gone. “Patroclus,” he said and the day was already
the greatest of his life.

They rose and washed quickly, their bodies still sticky with the residue of the night. Achilles
stripped the bed and bundled the sheets into a ball to be washed later, so that the dubious stains
would not arise suspicion amongst the servants who would later come in to do the laundry. Then
they dressed swiftly and headed downstairs for breakfast.

Even as they entered the Great Hall Patroclus felt sure that someone would notice a change. Surely
someone had to sense the warm glow radiating from the both of them, or at least glance up and see
the ridiculous grins plastered on both their faces. But no one did and breakfast continued as normal,
despite the looks neither of them could help sneaking each other from across the table, or the fact
that their legs would just happen to bump and graze against each other.

They bolted their food down as fast as they were able, much to the bemusement of their peers, and
when they were done they raced each other down to the beach. Achilles took off ahead of him of
course and the sound of his laughter caught and carried on the wind, his hair streaming behind him
as his pink heels raised massive clouds of sand. Patroclus forced himself to speed up in order to
catch up with him and when he was near enough he reached out to grab Achilles’ shoulders. At
once Achilles’ lost his balance and tripped, sending them both tumbling into the dunes.

For a little while they rolled about in the sand, the kicks and punches they threw at each other
broken only by breathy kisses and caresses. Gritty granules clung to their bodies, already slickened
by the sun and the exercise, making it easier to grip each other. At last Achilles pinned Patroclus
down and Patroclus, instead of throwing him off, allowed himself to be kissed, relishing the feel of
Achilles’ soft mouth sliding against his as his shadow loomed over him, and he tasted the honey
they’d both had for breakfast.

When they tired they sat up and crawled over to sit under a tree. Once seated beneath its shade
Patroclus glanced at Achilles’ out of the corner of his eye. His expression was unfathomable but
there was a slight smile tugging at the corner of his lip, as if he had a secret he was struggling not
to tell.

“You look like you just won a kingdom,” Patroclus observed.

The corner of Achilles’ mouth twitched. “I think I did.”

Patroclus took this as a good sign and charged ahead to voice the worry that had been irritating him
since he’d been awake.

“So no regrets,” he said, sifting sand through his fingers. “About yesterday? And last night. And
what we did.”

He held his breath even as Achilles looked at him quizzically, one eyebrow raised in a question.
“Regrets?” he repeated. “My only ‘regret’ is that we didn’t do it sooner.”

Patroclus exhaled, the tension in his body leaving him. “Good,” he replied. “Me neither.”

They were both quiet for a little while, listening to the sound of the waves rushing against the
shore. The smile tugging at Achilles’ lip had broadened now, he was grinning unabashedly at his
feet. Patroclus noticed and nudged him. “What?”

“It’s nothing,” answered Achilles.

“No go on, tell me.”

“It’s not important,” Achilles emphasised, a little pink coming into his cheeks. “I was just
thinking…that this is the happiest I’ve ever been.”

He looked at Patroclus and his eyes were shining brighter than the gold splitting the sun-drenched
clouds above them. Patroclus grinned back, knowing it was needless to put into words how he was
feeling. He wasn’t even sure if he’d ever known happiness before this. He dropped his head on
Achilles’ shoulder and Achilles put an arm around his waist, hugging him tightly against his body.
The wind picked up strands of Patroclus’ hair, ruffling it, and Achilles’ nuzzled the tousled locks.

“And also I was thinking,” he said against his ear. “That I really hope mother doesn’t find out.”

At once Patroclus’ eyes flew open; all the tautness flooded back into his muscles so that he was
rigid with fear. He stared at Achilles with the expression of a man begging for what he had just
heard not to be true but Achilles, who had decidedly less to fear from the Goddess, was busy
cackling to himself; amused by his own imagination and the infinite images of potential destruction
that would result from Thetis’ reaction. His amusement however was cut short as the figure of a
man could be made out running in their direction from across the bay.
“What do you think that’s about?” Achilles muttered, slipping his arm back from round Patroclus’
waist.

“I don’t know,” replied Patroclus but his insides squirmed nervously. Had they been found out
already?

The figure was sprinting, his legs and arms working with disciplined urgency. Achilles, suddenly
remembering that he was the prince, got to his feet and Patroclus clambered up after him, pulse
quickening as the man’s steps slowed to a halt in front of them. When he had reached them he
doubled over, clutching his knees and breathing deeply with his head between his legs. Beads of
sweat slipped from his forehead to form little dark spots on the sand.

“Take your time man,” said Achilles warily. “There’s no rush.”

“Thank you, my lord,” panted the man. Patroclus could hear the wheeze in his breath, he must
have killed himself to get here. Absentmindedly, and not without worry, Patroclus wondered what
on earth could be so important.

Achilles waited patiently while he caught back his breath. At last he straightened up and clasped
his hands behind his back, assuming a formal messenger stance. “I have…two messages,” he said
haltingly, his breath still heavy. “One for the both of you.”

Achilles made a small inclination with his head. “We’re all ears.”

“For Menoitides,” the messenger continued nodding at Patroclus. “Lords Ampelius and Acastus
have decided you are fit to be recruited into the home defence. Your duties and training will begin
at once and you will see Lord Ampelius at noon to be fitted with weapons and armour.”

Patroclus felt the joy inside him swell at the words and Achilles clapped him on the back. At last,
at long last they had recognised his worth. He had been accepted among the ranks of the home
defence and after that the army beckoned like a brilliant lighthouse throwing out beams of eternal
fame and glory. He raised his face to the sky where walls of lights spilled out from the cracks in
the clouds. Zeus, he prayed. If this is a dream, do me a favour. Let me sleep.

“Brilliant,” grinned Achilles. “That’s what we like to hear. And the other news?”

The messenger bowed courteously but firmly. “I fear that is best to be given by King Peleus, my
lord. He requests that he will see you now amongst his council. He says that Menoitides may
accompany you if you wish it, but there must be no other.”

“I do wish it,” said Achilles bluntly as Patroclus’ insides went cold. Peleus wanted to see them.
Both. Together. That could only mean one thing. Clearly Achilles was thinking along the same
lines because he appeared, as he rarely did in front of others, hesitant. “I also wish to know why my
father so requests my presence.”

The messenger looked uneasy. “My lord, I’m afraid I’m not at liberty to say-”

“-You have just been granted the liberty by your prince. Speak now, tell me what I am wanted for,
or you will tell my father that if he wishes to see me he will come for me himself,” interrupted
Achilles curtly.

The man turned pale at the thought of addressing Peleus so and he looked for a moment just as
queasy as Patroclus felt. Achilles winked at him, his way of telling him not to worry, that the
situation was under control, however his confidence did little to assuage Patroclus’ fears. As much
power as Achilles had over common men and messengers, Patroclus was dubious of how much
influence he had to change the will of the king once he had steeled himself to a decision. If Peleus
had somehow found out about the two of them, Patroclus knew he might as well skip the meeting
and head off to his room to pack his things.

The messenger licked his lips feverishly, clearly in some sort of internal turmoil. Achilles awaited
him, his expression cordiale and pleasant. “Speak,” he said amiably. “Unless you would prefer to
return to my father.”

“Prince Achilles, as a humble messenger you will know I am not privy to the political dealings of
the kingdom, therefore it is not my place to deliver-”

“-Speak,” said Achilles again and this time his voice hinted at impatience.

“We are at war with Thessaly,” the messenger rushed as if it caused him great pain to say the
words. Patroclus’ heart dropped into his stomach. “They are marching an army only three leagues
hence. Already they have crossed the border. They will be ready to attack in four days, at the most.
Peleus wants you in his council now to help plan Phthia’s defence.”

He eyed Achilles and when he spoke it was as if the words came from far away, not from the
mouth of a messenger but from all around them, and echoing from deep within. “Your time has
come, Prince Achilles.”
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Chapter Notes

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Patroclus could feel his heart leaping in his chest as he hurried to keep up with Achilles who had
abruptly assumed a fast-paced march in his urgency. His quick steps made little sound on the
marble floor while Patroclus’ feet slapped obnoxiously as he attempted to speed up and keep the
pace. They did not talk, Achilles’ keen eyes were fixed in front of him and steely, his carriage was
that of someone readying themselves. Although his expression was a blank Patroclus could see the
wheels turning in his mind as he mentally prepared himself for what was to come.

By the time they reached the War Room Patroclus’ ribs and chest were complaining and his pulse
fluttered with nerves and heavy breathing. Achilles however looked as if he had been carved out of
marble. After knocking brusquely and receiving Peleus’ wheezy “Enter” he opened the door with
little ceremony and walked into the room, Patroclus hurrying after him.

At his arrival all heads in the room turned towards Achilles, like sunflowers to light. No wonder,
he was the brightest thing in the room, the spun gold of his hair and gilded limbs acting almost like
a candle in the cavernous gloom. The War Room was dark for there were no windows; the walls
were roughhewn stone and all the furniture was hard, uncomfortable looking, and carved from
darkest mahogany. The only colour came from a few imperious looking tapestries, dyed in deepest
crimson and depicting scenes of battle.

It was hard not to feel intimidated in a room such as this one, and more so when Patroclus’ eyes
grew accustomed to the dark and he was able to make out the faces. Peleus was seated in his chair
and grouped in a circle around him on chairs or on cushions were Acastus, Phoinix, Amyntor,
Cleitus and Ampelius as well as a few other nobles whose names Patroclus didn’t know. He felt
their black eyes settle on him, weighing him up, and he resisted the urge to move behind Achilles.

Peleus’ thin face cracked in a smile. “Welcome my son,” he said, holding out his hand. “It is good
you have come. And Patroclus as well.”

“We are sorry to have kept you waiting father,” answered Achilles, crossing the room swiftly to
bend down and plant a kiss on the ruby ring glinting from Peleus’ index. “My lords,” he added,
with a stiff nod to the rest of the company. Patroclus followed suit, trying hard not to blush as some
of the men raised eyebrows at Achilles’ use of the inclusive plural.
“Come both of you, sit beside me,” Peleus gestured to his right side where two chairs lay empty;
they took them, Patroclus feeling a little odd looking down at the people seated beneath him. He
snuck a look at Achilles out of the corner of his eye. His face was still impassive, but beneath the
calm exterior Patroclus could sense an almost imperceptible twitch of excitement.

“Now we are all here,” began Acastus, getting to his feet. Patroclus had forgotten what a big man
he was, he seemed to fill the room with his shoulders as well as his voice. “Let’s get down to it.
The Thessalians have crossed the border. They will be ready to attack in three days, four if we’re
lucky. The Myrmidon army can meet them at the frontier but I fear chances of repelling them will
be slim-”

“-How so?” prompted Cleitus. “The Myrmidon army is the strongest force in all the Aegean.
Empires quake in their greaves just hearing our name. Why shouldn’t we send these Thessalian
pig-dogs back home with their curled tails between their legs?”

“Because we are not just talking about the Thessalaian army,” Acastus explained patiently. “It
seems King Poeas has been as busy in diplomacy has he has in military matters. He has made
alliances with forces all over the other side of the Othrys mountains. It seems your son’s coming of
age has made you a threat in the eyes of other rulers. Rumours of a Myrmidon Empire have
provided fodder for paranoid fallacy. And Prince Achilles is, as they say, notorious.”

Patroclus felt rather than saw the glee seize Achilles at the word. He turned to Patroclus grinning,
eyes shining with mischievous delight. Notorious, he mouthed at him.

“So how many are there?” Phoinix asked, an empiricist as always.

Acastus took a steadying breath before he answered. “So far our sources have reported ten
thousand strong.”

The words gripped the room with dramatic effect; beside him Patroclus felt Achilles grow rigid in
his seat as the number was echoed with scandalised disbelief and Ampelius swore loudly.

“We have just over half as many,” Acastus continued. “And we are ill-trained and ill-equipped. We
have not had to face so many for a number of years. The Myrmidons are indomitable yes, and if it
were not simply a case of figures I would still say we would send them like mewling whelps back
to their mothers. But the fact is we are outnumbered.”

“So what do we do?” asked Peleus.

Acastus shrugged his heavy shoulders with a disturbing air of resignation. “Call for aid,” he
answered. “Send word to Corinth, Ithaca, Argos. We cannot win this battle. Our best hope is to let
them have this one and catch them off guard while they are celebrating their victory with a full,
combined force.”

“Surrender, then?” Ampelius growled disapprovingly. “Is that what you’re suggesting?”

Acastus shook his head. “Don’t think of it as surrender,” he suggested. “Think of it as…temporary
submission.”

His words were greeted with a heavy silence. Patroclus took a moment to scan the faces around
him. None looked very happy. Both Peleus and Achilles looked as if they had been forced to
swallow something repulsive, he tried to imagine the two of them with their arms raised in
surrender as around them foreign soldiers looted and plundered. Achilles involved in a tug of war
with a Thessalian trying to take his lyre. He suppressed a chuckle.
“Very well,” said Peleus slowly after the quiet had become almost unbearable. Achilles’ head
snapped towards his father, his eyes wide. “Phoinix, send out a call for aid. Corinth have long been
allies of Phthia, they will come. As for Argos and Ithaca…no doubt our plight will seem small fry
to a son of Atreus and Odysseus is far too slippery to place my trust. But we cannot afford to be
picky with so few friends to choose from. Send word to them too. With luck, help will arrive before
the hoard reaches our gates.”

“So you will just lay down,” said Achilles hotly. “And wait for the problem to move out of our
hands?”

Patroclus felt his insides sink. Around him men exchanged glances and raised eyebrows, Peleus
looked singularly displeased. Magnificent, he thought to himself. His first time on an actual war
council and he can’t keep his mouth shut long enough to enjoy it. He wondered how many wars
Achilles would start when he became king, as a simple result of his own impetuousness.The idea
was unsettling.

“I know I am young,” Achilles continued. “But I must say, I never thought I’d see the day when
the Myrmidons were reduced to bleating sheep and our finest war captains to cowering women.”

“Achilles,” Patroclus murmured under his breath.

Achilles waved him away impatiently. “We’re talking about the greatest warriors Greece has ever
seen,” he went on. “The greatest commanders. The best tacticians. And of course, the noblest king.
Are you really suggesting we lay down our arms so easily? Without even giving the Thessalians a
chance of a fight? My lords, the humiliation itself will outlive us for generations.”

“Once again the young prince betrays his naivety,” Amyntor snarled, his lip curling. “Your words
are commendable my lord, and, if it is what you were afraid of, no one doubts your bravery,” a few
men snickered. Achilles flexed his knuckles. “However, fine sentiments will not get us out of this
fix. Submission is the only option, unless you have a better idea-”

“-I do,” Achilles interrupted him and it was Patroclus’ turn to snap to attention. “We send the army
to meet the Thessalians at the border. They will be beaten yes, and severely. Yet it will force the
Thessalians to exert themselves, to test their bronze against ours. By the time the battle is over they
will be tired, their numbers scattered. They will not reach the gates for another two days, at which
point the home defence will finish them off. Or at least buy enough time for aid to arrive before it
is too late.”

He finished and looked round the room expectantly for criticism or support. Acastus stroked his
beard thoughtfully. Ampelius looked a little confused, his heavy eyebrows bustling and Peleus too
was frowning.

“You would have me risk good men?” he asked. “Sacrifice half my army in an impossible battle to
buy us temporary glory?”

“To buy us time,” Achilles corrected. “True, Corinth has been our ally for years. But it will take
them long enough to get here, by which time Thessalians could already be making off with the best
of our silver. At least this way we have a chance at gaining a foothold over them before they wreak
wrack and ruin throughout the country.”

Phoinix turned to Acastus, his forehead layered with deep creases. “What do you think about this?”

Acastus scratched his jaw philosophically. “Our losses will be many,” he answered after a while.
“But we might save a few if we retreat back to the citadel before it gets too hot. Prince Achilles is
right, there is no guarantee help will come to us to save the situation in time. If we can delay them
even a little…it might prove useful.”

“But the home defence?” spluttered one of the lords. “You would trust the safety of your country
into the hands of some feckless adolescents? They will be speared where they stand, if they don’t
run for clean undergarments first.”

Achilles eyes flashed. “You underestimate the youth my lord,” he said dangerously. “This is a
mistake.”

He looked appealingly at his father, as did the rest of the room. Peleus tapped his long-fingernails
on the arm rest of his chair, his rheumy eyes uncharacteristically focused. He still looked unhappy.
Finally however he looked up. “We will do as the prince suggests,” he replied reluctantly.
“Acastus, ready the troops. Ampelius, the home defence. Time is of the essence, preparations must
begin at once.”

At his words people started getting to their feet, heading off to assume their various duties. Achilles
and Patroclus made to get up and follow them out the hall when Peleus’ raspy voice called them
back. “Wait a moment.”

Achilles turned expectantly. Peleus was watching him levelly, his mouth set into a tight, thin line.
It was as if a shadow had fallen over the pale, aged face, the darkness over the room creeping into
the deep lines and crevices, like the flit of Death’s wing. Patroclus swallowed as Peleus began to
speak.

“Do not think you have won a victory today,” he said coldly. “You spoke offensively and out of
turn. If that is the kind of behaviour you think I expect from a leader of this army you are wrong.”

“But-” Achilles started indignantly.

“-Don’t interrupt me,” Peleus raised a palm, his eyes suddenly bright as Achilles’ had been. “You
are young, you are naïve, you have no experience of battle. Yet you speak to hardened veterans as
if they are below you. I will not have it. You will show respect. Otherwise I will not allow you at
the next council. Do you understand?”

Achilles’ body was rigid and tense as marble. Patroclus watched his Adam’s apple bob as he
swallowed hard. “Yes,” he muttered.

“Good,” said Peleus. “You may go.”

Achilles gave a stiff bow which Patroclus copied hastily before sweeping after him out the room. If
he had thought his strides were long before it was nothing to what they were now, Achilles walked
like a man possessed in his haste to put as much distance between himself and the war room as
possible. At his sides his fists were bunched so tightly his knuckles shone white against the skin.

Once outside he lost it. Patroclus leaped out the way instinctively as Achilles kicked at a laundry
basket, sending linens into the wind like large flapping birds. “Can you believe it?” he rounded
after swearing so forcefully that a washerwoman jumped in startled surprise. “How dare he! And
after I practically wrote his strategy! Clearly the old man cannot handle a fresh voice. Perhaps he
fears his son will steal all the glory from him in talk as well as on the battlefield. Mother always
said he hated debate. Naïve. I’ve killed a man for Gods’ sake, how many ‘feckless adolescents’ can
claim that-”

“-Ding ding,” said Patroclus.

Achilles broke off and stared at him incredulously. “What?”

“Hm? Sorry?”

“Why did you just ding me?”

“Oh that?” Patroclus waved dismissively. “That was just the warning bell that goes off whenever
it’s time for you to stop talking stupid. Although apparently you can’t hear it, so I decided to start
sounding it out for you.”

Achilles’ eyes, already narrowed, became slits. “You have thirty seconds to amend the situation.”

“You know perfectly well that had nothing to do with jealousy. You addressed a room of
experienced, hardened war veterans as if they were your sparring buddies. As if you’ve been
through everything they have and come out of it laughing. Sure, you came up with a viable
alternative to retreat but at the cost of sounding like a complete dickhead. Oh, and you were just
about to use killing Mynax as evidence of your competence. That’s pretty uncool.”

“Fifteen seconds,” snarled Achilles. “I’m not feeling improvement.”

“You need to accept that you’re not just a prince anymore,” Patroclus told him calmly, as if
explaining mathematics to a child. “You’re a councillor. That’s going to require skill in debate as
well as on the field. Remember what Phoinix taught us, much of warfare happens behind closed
doors. If you want your father to respect you as a war chief you’re going to have to curb your
tongue, and your temper. Otherwise you’ll just get a reputation as an impetuous hot-head who likes
to shout for attention. No one will ever take you seriously.”

Patroclus waited patiently, arms crossed over his chest in anticipation of challenge. Achilles looked
sulky and his eyes were cast downward as he scuffed his foot against the ground. “But you like my
temper,” he muttered eventually.

A smile tugged at Patroclus’ lip. “Yes,” he replied admittedly.

Achilles glanced up, a wicked look crawling into his features. “And you also like my tongue.”

“Oh for Gods’ sake,” Patroclus rolled his eyes and Achilles tittered smugly. “That has nothing to
do with anything, stop trying to change the subject, you can’t just win me over-”

“-Can’t I?” purred Achilles, gently taking Patroclus’ chin with the crook of his finger and tilting
his face towards him. Patroclus felt all strength leave his limbs, his legs going wobbly at the
huskiness of Achilles’ voice and the proximity of his pricked, teasing mouth. His breath was warm
and sent shivers along his spine; Achilles closed the gap between them and Patroclus allowed
himself to surrender to the soft pressure of his lips, the skilful probing of his tongue as it flickered
across his bottom lip like a leaping flame.

They parted and Patroclus’ eyes fluttered open. “See, now you can’t do that to the people in there,”
he scolded him. “You will have to use your other persuasive charms.”

Achilles grinned. “I think I can manage that,” he conceded diplomatically. “Of course, they won’t
be able to dismiss me for long. Not when I’m holding the last resistance against the Thessalians.
Speaking of,” he glanced over his shoulder, as if something had suddenly occurred to him. “I
should go and talk with Acastus, start planning the defence. Come with me?”

Patroclus almost nodded before remembering the message they’d received before attending the war
council. “I have to see Ampelius,” he replied. “Need to get kitted out.”
In his mind’s eye he pictured himself holding a sword twice his size, in helmet and armour that
were far too big. He cringed inwardly. Achilles nodded. “I’ll see you on the beach when you’re
done,” he said. “Wait for me.”

Patroclus agreed and Achilles squeezed his hand before heading off in the direction of the
barracks. Patroclus turned and made for the opposite direction, toward the practice fields where
Ampelius would be waiting for him, like some giant excitable puppy eager to start a new
adventure. As he walked through the long grass he was aware of a certain feeling of change. It felt
strange to cross the fields now after passing through them so many times as an outcast, so unsure
of his place in the world. Now it was a different person who ran his fingers through the long green
stalks, a person who loved and was loved, and whom the Gods had finally, finally seen fit to bless.
But now everything was changing all over again and he wondered whether another person still
would come out of this in the end.

Ampelius was ready for him, massive palms outstretched in greeting and Patroclus thought it had
been a long time since he’d seen disappointment on that hulking face. Then again, he thought
grimly to himself, I’ve never fought in a war before. Clearly Ampelius was thinking along quite
different lines for as Patroclus drew nearer his grin only broadened until it threatened to split his
face in two.

“Here he is!” he announced jovially. “Hello Patroclus, welcome. Well, would you look at this! All
the best young fighters of Phthia lined up together, ready to save the country that has become more
like home to them than their mother’s own breast. Each one prepared to raise the spear and echo
the cry of war! War, my children! Isn’t it exciting?”

He beamed round at the collection of foster boys who stared wide-eyed back at him, hoping to look
keenly excited rather than vaguely sick. Patroclus exchanged a look with Deiomachus before
falling into step with him as they followed Ampelius to the armoury.

“So it’s true?” Deiomachus asked in an undertone. “We’re actually at war with Thessaly? Like a
real war?”

“Like an actual, real, honest-to God war, yes,” Patroclus replied.

Deiomachus let out a low whistle. “Fuck,” he said. “I never…I guess I thought it would be a few
years, you know? I mean, I knew we’d have to eventually but not… I thought at least until we
turned eighteen…”

Patroclus didn’t have anything to reply to that so he settled on a gesture of agreement. The reality
of the situation was only just starting to dawn on him; he was going to have to fight, not friends in a
ring or competition but strangers, intent on killing him. The idea sent a blossom of nausea swelling
at the pit of his stomach.

One by one the boys lined up at the door of the storeroom and looked nervous as Ampelius handed
them chest guard, greaves, sword, spear and shield. The armour was made of thick leather, a fact
Patroclus saw Deiomachus weigh up dubiously, mentally calculating the resistance needed in the
face of a spear flying at a ninety miles an hour. When it was Patroclus’ turn however, Ampelius
gave him the once-over before retreating back inside the storeroom and emerging with a complete
new set of armour, gleaming in the sun as it splayed light from all directions. Patroclus gawped
along with the other boys and tried not to let his knees buckle as it was placed into his hands.

“What’s this?” he managed to gasp.

“Your armour,” Ampelius replied. “The king has ordered that the prince’s companion will wear
bronze.” He smiled good-naturedly at Patroclus, as if at an inside joke. “You’ve come a long way
son,” he told him. “Don’t worry. I think it will suit you.”

Patroclus nodded dumbly and stammered out his thanks. He felt suddenly embarrassed, the armour
was heavy in his arms and the sun made the metal burn hot against his skin. He tried to avert the
other boys’ gawking stares as he struggled to carry it away.

When he had reached the beach he set the burden down, the muscles in his neck and shoulders
sighing with relief. He sat down cross-legged in the sand and propped the shield up against his
knee, allowing himself to examine it properly. The bronze was smooth and felt strangely soft to his
touch, as if it were fresh out the kiln. The sun had warmed it so that when his fingers skimmed the
raised surface it was like there was a beating heart somewhere deep within it, pumping away
streams of red-gold molten. Shivers shot down his fingertips and along his nerve endings and idly
he stroked the hilt of his sword.

“My what a romantic display,” came a voice and instinctively Patroclus’ fingers tightened; in one
swift movement he raised the sword into the air and held it challengingly in front of him, heart
hammering in his ears.

A high, shimmering laugh answered him, a laugh like the tide rushing over the rocks. In a moment
Thetis stood before him, her long red hair hanging in heavy ropes around her white shoulders. In
contrast to her skin, the armour looked positively dull. Patroclus’ felt something lodge within his
throat.

“Perhaps I should give you some privacy,” she said. “Tell me, is the weapon responsive to your
caress?”

Patroclus realised he was still holding the sword and instantly felt foolish. He dropped it
unceremoniously into the sand and sank clumsily to his knees. “My lady,” he mumbled
embarrassedly. “Forgive me, I did not know it was you.”

Thetis raised an eyebrow, an expression that was so painfully familiar Patroclus almost forgot to
breath. “Well obviously,” she said, in the tone of one addressing an imbecile. “I did sneak up on
you.”

Her footsteps made no sound on the sand, indeed there was no indentation of her movement except
for the trail of tiny droplets that slipped from her skin and hair as she walked. Her grey dress barely
fluttered in the wind, it was as if the rules of this world had no bind on her whatsoever. Patroclus
watched her approach hesitantly and tried not to take comfort in the fact that his weapons were
close by when she folded her legs and sat near him on the sand.

“So,” Thetis began with the air of settling down to a pleasant conversation. “I hear there’s some
sort of war on.”

Patroclus wondered if this was a test. He had no idea how much news reached her down there, in
the dark depths of the underwater caves although surely gods had their own networks of
information. It was impossible to tell anything from her face however so he settled on a standard
response. “Yes,” he replied warily. “Thessaly is attacking in three days hence. We are preparing
the home defence for the onslaught.”

Thetis nodded disinterestedly. “A chance to stand in the sun I suppose,” she said. “Time for the
mighty Menoitides to prove his noble worth.”

There was no malice in the jibe, only boredom. Patroclus remembered Achilles telling him that she
had little interest in mortal concerns and dismissed war matters as bringing about only more swiftly
an inevitable end. But if that was the case, then why was she here now?

“A chance for Achilles as well,” he suggested and, as expected, her green eyes glittered a little.

“Yes,” she murmured. “This is true. Although in all honesty I’d really rather he sit this one out. I
don’t have a good feeling about this war.”

The words were spoken so idly, so casually that anyone else might have taken them for a passing
comment. But to Patroclus, who had spent many hours in the company of the mother goddess and
her son, they were not lost. His eyes widened. “Why?” he said quickly. “What is it? What have you
heard?”

Thetis’ bone white arms raised and lowered. “Oh, this and that,” she answered airily. “Through the
grape-vine or whatever the ocean equivalent is. This war’s going to mean trouble, for everyone
involved. Important people as well I mean, not just humans. One of those big “turn of history”
deals. And I might have had a tiny little prophecy that someone is going to die.”

It was Patroclus’ turn to raise his eyebrow. “You've had a prophecy that someone is going to die,”
he repeated. “In a war.”

“Someone important, sponge-brain,” Thetis snarled. “Someone you know, or who my son knows.
Might even be you, come to think of it. Although as you so perceptively implied people die all the
time so. No harm done, really.”

With that Thetis got to her feet, stretched and yawned. “And there’s Achilles now,” she observed,
looking into the distance. Patroclus craned his neck. Sure enough there he was, his blond head
almost white against the blue of the sky. “I should head off. I’ve got some things to discuss with
that man,” she spat the last derisively, as if even the epithet of Peleus tasted stale in her mouth.
“Nice talking to you. Try not to die.”

Patroclus opened his mouth to reply but before he could form the words she was gone, leaving
nothing but a trail of damp splodges against the sand leading away from the shore. A few moments
later Achilles had replaced her and was taking her place in front of him.

“Hey,” he greeted him. “Nice armour. Not as nice as mine though. It’s got gold inlay.”

“I couldn’t be more jealous,” Patroclus responded dully.

Seeing the troubled expression, Achilles frowned. “You look like Hephaestus asked you to take a
bath with him,” he said. “What’s the matter?”

Patroclus made an airy gesture. “Just had a chat with your mother,” he replied.

A look of dumb shock and horror struck Achilles like a brick. “She doesn’t know,” he whispered.

“No, no,” Patroclus reassured him, although the fact that this possibility could produce such an
effect was probably something he should think about later, as well as the speed in which Achilles
visibly relaxed. “She’s had a bit of a prophecy. Says she has a bad feeling about this war with
Thessaly, that she isn’t mad about you taking part and that someone is going to die. Who could be
me, incidentally.”

Perhaps predictably, these words didn’t generate quite the same response as the former except that
Achilles’ frown deepened. “My mother had a prophecy that someone is going to die in a war,”
Achilles deadpanned.
 “Well, yes, that was pretty much my reaction,” shrugged Patroclus. “Although she said it would be
someone we know. Which is possibly more frightening.”

Achilles shook his head. “I really don’t think so,” he said. “Between you and me, my mother isn’t
exactly a natural talent when it comes to prophesising. A while back she predicted this massive
storm that would totally obliterate a nearby settlement we were trading with. It turned out she was
right in the end, although she failed to mention it wouldn’t come for another four years.” He shook
his head again, a mixed gesture of amusement and exasperation. “Either way, it’s a war, for Gods’
sake. There will be death. That’s just something we’re going to have to get used to. Anyway,
people die all the time.”

He got to his feet, dusted the sand off his tunic and offered a hand to pull Patroclus up. “Come on,”
he announced, turning on his heel. “Race you to the sea.”

He took off, pink heels flashing against the golden sand. Patroclus smiled and watched his
retreating figure grow smaller. However, even as Achilles looked back to yell childish abuse at
giving him an unnecessary head-start, Patroclus could not suppress the dark disturbance that had
unsettled him as Achilles repeated his mother’s words.

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The next few days went by in a blur, in fact Patroclus was never quite sure where one ended and
the next began. The time spent in the War Room was filled with plans and battle strategies, going
over numerous tablets, drawing and re-drawing maps in the sand. Achilles and Patroclus found
themselves standing for hours on end in that cold, dark, windowless room until their legs could
barely support them and they would stumble out into the open air, blinking stupidly at the harsh
brightness of the light. At night, when Patroclus was struggling to keep his eyes open and the talk
of numbers and provisions got a little too much for his brain, he would go and curl up on the
couch. Later Achilles would join him and they would sleep then and there, heads together, figure-
bearing tablets slipping from their hands.

If anyone had ever doubted Achilles’ leadership their fears were assuaged now. He was a natural
commander; perhaps not so surprisingly he enjoyed giving orders, yet they were always followed
without protest or resentment. And it wasn’t just because he was the prince but because he was
trusted, it seemed, to know what he was doing. It was no secret that the feral teenager had never
led an army before, or fought in a battle. But for some reason that didn’t seem to matter, he spoke
with such confidence and self-assurance that the soldiers obeyed and respected him as if he had
been a seasoned general all his life.

“It’s my natural charisma,” Achilles informed him matter-of-factly as one young soldier sprinted
off to fetch him breakfast.

“It’s your natural megalomania,” Patroclus replied and jumped out the way.

Mock as he might, Patroclus enjoyed watching Achilles in his element rather more than he might
admit. There was something fascinating (and admittedly attractive) in his authority, in the way
power seemed to come as lightly as the breeze ruffling his hair or the strength in his arms, not so
crass or forceful as to be vulgar but subtly, a narrowing of the eyes or a change in his tone of voice.
Unlike some of the older warriors he never needed to shout. And sometimes, catching a glimpse of
a grim face or tightly pursed mouth, Patroclus thought they resented him for it.

“Well that’s no surprise,” Leptine commented after Patroclus had voiced his suspicions. “They’ve
been commanding the Myrmidons for Gods know how long and it’s taken years to totally suppress
dissent. Now this green boy appears and wins unwavering loyalty in a heartbeat? I know I’d be
pissed off.”

They were in the barracks, organising food and bedding for the army’s imminent departure.
Patroclus put down the wine casket he was carrying and scratched the back of his head
thoughtfully. “I don’t know what it is,” he confessed. “People are just…drawn to him, or
something. Like, he doesn’t even have to try. He’s inspiring without meaning to be. It’s like…
what?”
Leptine was wearing a ridiculous smile, so big that it bordered on the unsettling. She shook her
head, attempting to clear it. “Nothing. Sorry.”

Patroclus shook his head exasperatedly and groaned. He had realised earlier that morning that
Leptine was still oblivious to all that had happened recently and he had come down to fill her in.
After making him go over the events of Beltane night several times over, Leptine proceeded to let
out an ear-piercing shriek which resulted in her being slapped round the back of the head by an
overseer. She had then picked up her broom, or faithful dance partner, and twirled around the
barracks before promptly bursting into tears of pure joy.

“You need to get a grip,” he told her bluntly.

“I know,” said Leptine. “Sorry. I’ll try and keep it to myself. Continue. You were telling me about
your lover’s matchless quality?”

Patroclus groaned again, dropping his head into his hands as Leptine cackled behind him. “Don’t
call him that,” he protested against his palms.

“Why not?” Leptine squealed. “You luuurve him. He luuurves you. You are in luuurve together…”

“Okay, firstly, last time I checked ‘lurve’ was not a thing,” said Patroclus irritably. “Secondly, let’s
try and keep it on the down low, okay? The last thing I need right now is the whole palace to know
that the prince and his hetairoi share a bed-”

This was interrupted by another high-pitched squeal as Leptine clamped a hand over her mouth,
little giggles escaping from between her fingers. Patroclus gave her a withering look. “You are a
pervert,” he told her.

Leptine grinned and shrugged. “I make no apologies.”

Patroclus rolled his eyes. Really the thought of their relationship getting out was at the very bottom
of his heap of worries, what with the war and the impending doom of Phthia. But he was finding it
difficult to ignore the looks people snuck him in hallways, the smirks some of the older nobles
exchanged when the two of them walked by which sent shivers of dread creeping up his skin in
waves. Although, if this was going to be Leptine’s reaction whenever he mentioned Achilles, he
was not sure which response he preferred to deal with.

“Enough about me,” he announced, attempting to steer the conversation out of less excruciating
waters. “What about your love-life? How are things between you and Deiomachus?”

The moment he said it, he regretted it. Leptine’s face, previously shining with mirth, seemed to
drop and a shadow flickered across it. However it only lasted a moment, within the second she had
snatched up the corners of her mouth again, fixing her expression into one that was forcefully
blasé. “Fine,” she replied easily.

Patroclus gave her a funny look. “Leptine,” he frowned. “What’s wrong?”

Leptine gave a weary sigh and turned so that her back was facing him. “It’s nothing, honestly,” she
replied, busying herself with securing the water-skins. “It’s just…well…he wants to sleep with
me.”

Patroclus held his breath but when Leptine didn’t elaborate he prompted her. “And…you don’t
want to?”

“It’s not that I don’t want to,” answered Leptine. Her voice was strangely small. “It’s just that I
can’t.”

Patroclus froze. Tentatively, he looked at Leptine over his shoulder. She was avoiding his gaze
although he could see that a faint colour had crept into her cheeks. He cleared his throat cautiously,
suddenly aware of the turn the conversation had taken and not all together comfortable with it.
“I’m not sure what you’re afraid of,” he began. “But it’s not all that difficult. Quite nice, actually.”

He trailed off pathetically as Leptine raised her head to shoot him daggers. “Patroclus,” she
enunciated. “I am not a virgin.”

And Patroclus should have known that, really, should have guessed it at the very least. Leptine had
been sold into slavery when she was only nine years old, had grown into womanhood in an
environment of utter debasement and cruelty. They had never discussed the subject before and
Patroclus had avoided it instinctively, cautious of bringing back traumatic or unwanted memories.
To many people, lords and slaves alike, bodies were bodies. He was no innocent, he knew what
went on behind closed doors and dark corners; serving boys and girls trying to snatch whatever
comfort they could from the harsh reality of their lives, or at least sharing a bed for the very sake of
keeping warm. But Leptine had never spoken of it to him and now, kicking himself, he realised
there must have been a reason for that.

“I…” he opened his mouth to say something but the right words did not fall out. “I…didn’t…”

“-It doesn’t matter, don’t worry,” Leptine interrupted him quickly and Patroclus, Gods help him,
felt a wave of relief. “Anyway, that’s not what I meant. What I meant was I cannot sleep with him
because the moment that I do he will leave.”

She said it very bluntly, as if stating basic fact, and despite himself Patroclus felt a bubble of
indignation. “You don’t know that!” he protested. “Deiomachus is decent, he wouldn’t-”

“-It’s happened before,” Leptine cut across him wearily. “Too many times to count. High-ranking
men persuade slave girls into their sheets, tell them that they love them, give them all kinds of
magnificent promises. And then, after they’ve got what they wanted, they leave the girl used and
heartbroken and there is nothing she can do about it. Deiomachus might think he loves me now but
what about in a year? Or a few months? Or when some beautiful noblewoman comes along,
dragging her dowry behind her? I can’t risk that. The humiliation would kill me.”

Patroclus looked at her, aghast that she could think of anyone so cynically, but knowing that he
could not really blame her. Leptine spoke from nothing if not experience after all and he had been
privy to enough boys’ conversations to know that, unfortunately, he could not accuse her of
paranoia.

“Do you love him?” he asked, suddenly.

Leptine shrugged. “I’m a practical person,” she replied, and Patroclus wasn’t sure what to say to
that.

Because if there was one thing he had learned, it was that there was nothing practical about love.
Deiomachus had been pining for a number of days now and evermore vocally. He had gotten into
the habit of catching Patroclus on his own so that he could bear his heart, and would then spend the
next hour eulogising Leptine and calling Eros a wanker until Patroclus could think of a good
excuse to shake him off. It was disconcerting, seeing a man reduced to such a pitiful state and
sometimes he could not help but feel a slight disapproval of Leptine’s deliberate indifference when
Deiomachus turned up to drills red-eyed and sniffing. But then he knew she was only trying to
protect herself, something she had been taught to do from day one.
“She should learn to be more trusting,” said Achilles, tracing circles onto Patroclus’ chest with his
finger. “You can’t live your life in fear forever.”

They were in the music room, Achilles perched above Patroclus who was laying on the carpet.
Theoretically they were supposed to be practicing, however their lyres lay abandoned in the corner.
Patroclus shifted his weight so that he was gazing up at him.

“That’s easy to say when you haven’t lived your life in fear for a day,” he pointed out.

Achilles made an assenting gesture. “True,” he agreed. “But I don’t see the point in her self-
discipline. All it does is make them both miserable. Also, not all men are like that.”

Patroclus groaned, partly due to the suddenly increased contact of Achilles’ touch on his skin.
“That is literally the worst argument in the case of male defence.”

“It’s true though,” Achilles murmured. The pads of his fingers were very soft as they skirted
Patroclus’ sternum. “I’m not, am I?”

The corners of his mouth twitched as Patroclus tried to suppress a smile. “One man hardly makes
up for the faults of many,” he replied. “Besides, you’re a freak remember?”

Achilles grinned, showing the white point of his canines. “Oh yeah, that’s right.”

He bent down so that their lips met. Patroclus sighed into the kiss and reached up to cup the back
of Achilles’ head, letting his hair slip through his fingers. It was getting almost ridiculously long;
strands of it dropped onto his chest and tickled his bare skin. Achilles moved down to kiss his
throat and shoulders, Patroclus closed his eyes.

“Anyway, there hasn’t been a chance to test your loyalty yet,” muttured Patroclus, aware of himself
becoming steadily breathless.

“Do you doubt it?” Achille’s growled, his teeth grazing the skin below Patroclus’ ear.

“Not yet,” answered Patroclus, suppressing a whimper as Achilles’ other hand clenched his ass.
“But…supposing some…some….beautiful woman comes along with a…a…massive dowry and a
king for a father…ah…”

“I’m not interested in her king father,” Achilles’ voice was low, seductive but Patroclus had to
restrain himself from rolling his eyes. He knew Achilles liked women. It was one of the first things
he had confessed since they had become known to each other. He didn’t blame him, but could not
help but feel a twinge of regret at this one seemingly small difference between them.

“You might be more interested when the time comes for an heir to take over your kingdom,” said
Patroclus.

Achilles stopped what he was doing, resulting in a tiny mewl of disappointment, to frown at
Patroclus. “What is this,” he asked, somewhat coldly. “An interrogation?”

Patroclus shook his head. “No, I just-”

“-You think I would just drop you the moment some slut appears bearing gifts? Is that really how
much faith you have in me?”

“I’m just…” Patroclus cast round for the right words. “I’m just being practical.”
The look of bemused scorn on Achilles’ face was almost comical. “Practical,” he sneered. “None
of this is practical. If I wanted practical I would be here with someone far less aggravating.”

Patroclus opened his mouth to retort something cutting but was stopped by Achilles kissing him
again, harshly. “Now shut up,” Achilles ordered him. “We’ll cross those bridges when we come to
them. Or I’ll burn them down.”

Patroclus grinned and nodded, surrendering to the measured listlessness of Achilles’ hands. They
were growing hurried now, one slipped under his chiton while the other dug sharp nails into the
flesh of his thigh; Patroclus moved to grasp the back of Achilles’ head, bringing him down again to
meet him. Achilles’ mouth was hot, his tongue moving expertly and with great curiosity, flickering
against his roof and the back of his teeth. Patroclus moaned again and Achilles bit his bottom lip.

A knock at the door sounded, followed by an urgent call as the door began to open.

“Shitting fuck,” announced Achilles, tripping over his limbs in his haste to leap away from
Patroclus and falling face first on the carpet.

The door opened to reveal Ampelius. He looked at Patroclus, his lips swollen and trying
desperately to flatten his hair against his scalp and Achilles who was hiding behind an amphora.
His eyes widened. For a moment it was as if time had stopped; Ampelius stared at Patroclus with
unrefined shock and Patroclus felt cold all over, the skin of his palms prickling with sweat.
Ampelius’ mouth moved and for a second Patroclus thought he was going to yell. But clearly
priorities had taken over, for he only shook his head, as if to clear an unwanted image, and
declared: “They are coming.”

It took a heartbeat for the words to sink in. Achilles leapt to his feet and marched out the room,
Patroclus scrambling hastily behind him. Ampelius held the door open for them, allowing them to
go first; Patroclus felt his eyes follow him but could not decipher the expression there. He could
feel the bread he’d had for breakfast swirling acidically in his stomach and his skin felt
unpleasantly clammy. Everything was happening so fast and why was it all he could think was that
they had been seen, they had been found out, as if his brain was not allowing him to dwell on the
actualities of impending battle.

Instead of heading for the War Room or his father’s chambers Achilles made straight for the
barracks. Acastus was there, making last minute provisions and directing the soldiers. The
Myrmidons stood like an army of ants, thick and sturdy, their shiny armour like hard shells with
their shields strapped to their backs. Each one held a spear in his large brown hand, the twisted
bones and knuckles standing out against the heft wood like the knots of trees.

“Is everything ready?” asked Achilles and if his voice wobbled slightly with trepidation who but
Patroclus was to know.

“Most certainly,” replied Acastus grimly. “We are leaving this very moment. With any luck, we’ll
reach the frontier by the time the sun is at its highest.”

“Any news from our allies?”

“We have received word from Corinth and they say they will come. Whether what is put in writing
materialises in the flesh, however, is another matter.”

While they spoke Patroclus let his gaze fall and wander over the soldiers. Each man wore a similar
expression of sturdy grim acceptance, their black brows pulled low over hard eyes. Standing as
they were, side by side like rows of corn it was easy to think them many. But ten-thousand,
Acastus had said. Ten-thousand. The odds were almost two to one. Next to them the mighty
Myrmidons would look only a handful.

“They’re all going to die,” Patroclus whispered.

Both Achilles and Acastus broke off to look at him quizzically. “Yes,” frowned Acastus. “But then,
that’s the plan, isn’t it my prince?”

He gave a little bow and left to re-join his men. The moment he was gone Achilles turned to raise
an eyebrow questioningly at Patroclus. “What’s the problem?” he asked wearily.

“You’ve sent these men to their deaths,” replied Patroclus.

“You were there, you heard what they said,” said Achilles. “This is the only way besides
surrender.”

“In which scenario no one gets killed,” Patroclus pointed out.

Achilles sighed, running a hand through his hair. It really was getting very long, the ends just
brushing the small of his back. From behind, anyone might think he was a girl. “This is war
Patroclus,” he said eventually and his voice came out hard. “People are going to get killed. It is
unsavoury, but unavoidable.”

“Except in this case, where it was totally avoidable.”

“Can we not do this now?” said Achilles impatiently. He cast around him anxiously, as if checking
anyone was listening in before lowering his voice. “Look. I really need you to be on my side right
now. Just for today, alright?”

He was giving him that look, the one where his eyebrows were ever so slightly upturned and his
eyes, ever so slightly wider. Patroclus huffed disgruntledly, feeling something twinge painfully
inside him. “‘Just for today,’” he mumbled sulkily. “I’m always on your side.”

Achilles grinned and the tension melted. “Good,” he said. “Now come on. We have a defence to
man.”

oOo

Patroclus did not know how long it took to win a battle. From songs and stories he’d gathered they
could last days, weeks even with soldiers taking it in turns to sleep and fight. However, in reality it
seemed a side’s fortunes could be made or broken within a few hours. Judging the urgency with
which the home defence was ordered, it seemed as though it was expected that the fight between
the actual armies would be over by sundown. And while the others seemed emboldened by the
prospect, Patroclus could not see how, in any way, this could be construed as reassuring.

A few of the older men had stayed behind in order to help with the defence. To some extent
however they were almost redundant; Achilles took on the mantle of general immediately and the
foster boys, knowing him as well as they did, responded to him keenly with their old eagerness to
impress. Patroclus suppressed a smile as a couple of boys showed off by heaving heavy catapults
onto the battlements, sending glances over their shoulders to check if Achilles was looking. Some
things never changed.

Phthia’s foster sons were not the only ones expected to see battle; Patroclus accompanied Achilles
on his rounds of the homes surrounding the citadel to see that every able-bodied man was supplied
with a weapon. It was harrowing to see so many young boys faced with the daunting prospect of
bloodshed and death and Patroclus had to remind himself that this was all necessary, this was all
the way it must be. He did not know what kind of people the Thessalians were; they could hardly
be very different, indeed, they were likely to be more similar to a Southerner like himself than he
was to these Northerners he had come to know. Yet it was easier, as the other boys had taken to
doing, to think of them as savages and barbarians. Monsters were easier to slay, after all.

By the time dusk had fallen and an eerie red glow tinged the sky, the palace was virtually
unrecognisable. A barricade had been built from fallen rock, hay bales and old furniture, upon
which several boys perched, spears poised, tiny faces peeking out from between the cracks in the
wall. Behind them archers stood from the battlements, for many of them their bows slightly too
big. All of them were taut as the strings they held, alert for any sign of movement beyond the city
gates. No sound could be heard, aside from the gentle blowing of the wind. It was as if the whole
palace was holding its breath.

Achilles and Patroclus had found a spot under one of the archways where Achilles was able to
survey the rest of the defence and still be easily heard. He had not been lying about his armour, it
was a thing of beauty. It was not ostentatious, Achilles himself was decoration enough and the
supple metal became him as if it were a part of his skin, the gold inlay glinting against his sun-
kissed arms and bright hair. Earlier Patroclus had helped him put it on, hands shaking on the leather
fastenings. As glorious as he looked, he did not like him in armour. He was too bright, too shining,
as if the bronze and gold had made him less human somehow.

There was no look of divine composure, however, in the look he gave him over his shoulder.
Achilles’ face was glowing with excitement, his eyes alight with mischief as he bounced lightly on
the balls of his feet, the tell-tale sign of mounting adrenalin. “You ready for this?” he asked
Patroclus, as if challenging him to a race, or a game of dice.

Patroclus tried to fix his face into one of matching enthusiasm but the courage he had spent the
whole day summing up had already shrivelled up and died. It was one thing fighting his friends
under Ampelius’ gruff supervision but these were grown men and warriors coming to kill him.
True, if Achilles’ estimations were correct they would be tired out from fighting the Myrmidon
army and in reality, all the home defence had to do was hold them off until the Corinthians arrived.
But try as he might, he couldn’t get Thetis’ warning out of his head. Someone you know, or who my
son knows. Might even be you, actually.

Achilles was looking at him. He took his hand and squeezed. “Do not worry,” he said. “Stay close
to me. You know I will not let anyone touch you.”

Patroclus supposed he should feel a prickle of indignation at that and his initial response was to
snap that he could look after himself, that Achilles should focus on keeping himself alive. But
instead all he felt was vague relief and reassurance, spreading like a steady warmth in his belly. As
long as we’re together we are safe, he found himself thinking and smiled back.

There was nothing left to do but wait. The minutes slipped into another hour and the rosy sky was
splashed with gold by the time the call sounded from above them. “Over there!” called a boy with
keen eyes whom Achilles had settled at the watch-tower. “The Thessalians are approaching!”

Patroclus craned his neck to see but could only make out a fuzzy dark shape moving down the hill,
like an army of ants. The breath lodged in his throat and the air around him felt suddenly cold.
Somewhere a horn was blowing, he couldn’t tell if it was from his side or theirs.

They were less far away than it looked. Patroclus had barely had time to take ten steadying breaths
before they were at the gates. The man at the front, Patroclus assumed must be King Poeas, raised
his hands to the sides of his mouth and called out.
 “Prince of Phthia!” his voice reverberated off the stone barricade. “Your Myrmidons have fought
well, bravely and long. However, bleeding and beaten, they have scattered and abandoned you.
You are totally deserted. Surrender now and we will show clemency. Resist and face desolation.”

He paused, cocking his head to the side in wait. A reply was expected in these situations, as
diplomatic as they were ceremony. Patroclus glanced at Achilles. He was chewing his lip,
preparing his answer.

“It is good to hear our armies worked you so well,” he called back through a gap in the wall.
“From what I can make out of you, my good king, the exercise can hardly have gone amiss.”

A snicker sounded from every end of the defence. King Poeas looked bemused at the laughter, a
protective arm round his prominent stomach. “I am warning you,” he shouted again. “My army
matches yours two-to-one. You are outnumbered. There can be no escape. Surrender now and save
your people. Save yourself.”

“We are outnumbered indeed,” retorted Achilles. “For each of your men could easily make up for
two!”

More laughter. Achilles, smirking, winked at Patroclus. Poeas was frowning incredulously.

“Is this an army of children to be amused so easily?” He meant it as a jape rather than an
observation.

Achilles giggled. “Are you an army of philosophers to be so wheezing?”

Laughter again. King Poeas looked aghast. “How old are you?”

Achilles was bouncing so high Patroclus feared he might take off. “Old enough for your mother!”
he cried gleefully.

“Enough of this,” Poeas snapped as members of his own army began to smirk. “Finish them!”

The Thessalians began to flourish their swords, surging forward to break down the gate. Achilles
gestured to the men, waiting upon his command. “Archers!” he called.

Black arrows fell like rain on the hoard, piercing armour and soft flesh that lay exposed. Several
too late to raise their shields collapsed, their knees buckling beneath them. They were paid no mind
however, the front line intent on breaking down the gate. Within moments it collapsed and the
Thessalians entered the citadel, flooding the streets like black mud.

Achilles turned to Patroclus. There was no fear in his eyes, only excitement. And Patroclus
remembered a boy he had found, shivering in the bushes with blood on his hands, he blinked and
the image was gone.

“Here they come,” said Achilles, and raised his spear.

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Nothing; no number of songs, ballads, accounts from veterans who had been there and done it and
seen it with their own black eyes, nothing could have prepared Patroclus for the sight of the
Thessalian army breaking down those gates and flooding the streets for the citadel.

It began the way water breaks through a damn. As the force of the wave built up with the crushing
pressure of the black-armoured soldiers, the wooden boards began to splinter. A single crack in the
design can let the storm in and within a moment the army was bursting past the walls, a shower of
rock and rubble flying in their wake. They surged into the market place, plates shining like a
plague of locusts, spilling and swelling around houses and food stands; Achilles yelled for the
archers to shoot again and a few collapsed into the beaten earth, however no sooner did one fall did
it seem they were replaced by another breaking crest.

Achilles pointed and the first line of defence came to meet them, emerging from the foliage of the
roughly hewn barricade like forest dwellers who have found their home threatened. From their
higher stand they had the upper hand, fighting the Thessalians at the barrier by sticking anything
they could reach with spears and dropping large rocks on unsuspecting heads. More arrows came
raining down and Patroclus watched with glee as numbers began to dwindle at the first line,
although they were replenished quickly. The Thessalians were strong, ox-like men and they tore at
the barricade with their bare hands. A boy Patroclus had seen but never spoken to raised his spear
as a soldier breached the wall; he batted it out of the way and stuck him in the throat with his
sword.

It did not take long for the barricade to scatter, soon the Thessalians had burst through the first line,
sending several boys running for cover as they surged ahead. From behind a row of small houses
came the second line and they jumped out on the unsuspecting hoard as they approached. A
skirmish begun, boy fighting against man while perched atop buildings others threw down
boulders and flicked catapults.

Achilles was twitching.

“No,” said Patroclus warningly.

“They need help,” Achilles protested. “And nothing’s happening over here.”

“They do not,” replied Patroclus, ignoring the last part. “Look at them. They’re doing just fine.”

And they were. Achilles’ placement of the home defence had given them an excellent advantage,
purely by way of level and terrain. While the foot soldiers fought with determination, having much
more to lose than the Thessalians, admittedly it was those standing above with heavier weapons
who had the most success. Earlier Achilles had been reluctant to fight this way, dismissing it is as
“cowardly and dishonourable”. And he might be right, however it was impossible to deny that it
was also effective.

Unluckily, one boy within Achilles’ line of sight took that exact moment to have his head dashed
against the side of one of the buildings. Patroclus cringed. Achilles looked round at him
meaningfully.

“You can’t,” Patroclus insisted. “You’re supposed to stay here in case any of them make it to the
citadel.”

“Well that’s just ridiculous,” Achilles scoffed. “Who’s idea was that?”

“Yours?” Patroclus raised his eyebrows pointedly. “You literally planned this whole defence
around the concept that the best warriors would guard the core of the citadel and the palace. ‘Like
an egg yolk’ you said. And then you started laughing at the word ‘yolk’. Remember?”

Achilles frowned. “That doesn’t seem like something I would do.”

“I swear to the Gods Achilles, do not go over there,” growled Patroclus in his most threatening
voice.

Achilles looked back towards the fighting. The Thessalians had beaten back most of the boys again
and the defence was largely scattered. The outer formation Achilles had planned was in fragments,
reduced to a bloody chaos of sword against sword. There was no way they could win on strength,
their entire victory depended on structure and strategy. A boy was laying on his back, his sword a
few feet away. Above him, a Thessalian prepared to jam his shield into his torso. Achilles bit his
lip.

“Fuck it,” he said at last. “Come on!”

And before Patroclus could scream abuse Achilles had hurled himself over the stone wall they had
been crouched behind and was sprinting off into the fray. Patroclus hesitated a few moments,
hissing at him to come the fuck back but when it became clear he was no longer in sensical
distance he groaned to himself and prepared to run after him.

“Achilles!” he shouted as he ran, trying not to lose sight of the dancing yellow hair. “We’ve got to
go back! The palace is our responsibility!”

“Wherever people are dying is my responsibility,” Achilles tossed over his shoulder.

“Oh how noble,” Patroclus snapped. “But what you really mean is wherever people are in need of
killing-”

The rebuke died in his mouth as out of nowhere an enormous boulder of a man emerged, towering
over Patroclus and blotting out the sun. Patroclus’ eyes widened and he swallowed hard as the man
grinned and raised his axe. He swung and instinctively Patroclus ducked, just as he had learned to
duck Achilles’ punches at the slightest twitch of an arm. He stepped out the way as the man came
hurtling towards him but not quick enough to miss the jut of his sword hilt and he fell to the
ground. The man approached him, still grinning, axe prepared to slice downwards but within a
second Patroclus had grasped his sword and was pushing it as hard as he could into his stomach.
Blood welled up like an ink stain, blossoming into the Thessalian’s mouth and dribbling between
his lips. His eyes bulged. Patroclus twisted the blade and then he was toppling, collapsing with a
dull thud into the earth.

Patroclus stood up, staring in shock at the body splayed spread-eagled in front of them. This was
the second time he had killed someone. He expected to feel horror at what he had done but there
was none; no nausea welling up in his stomach, no creeping feeling of cold dread on his skin. Only
a detached sort of bemusement as he surveyed the man who had only a few seconds ago been
standing upright, murder in his eyes, and a buzz in his veins that he recognised as adrenalin.

“Achilles!” he yelled and was surprised to hear he sounded gleeful. “Achilles, I got one!”

“That’s great, honeycake,” came the snarl back. “But I’m a little busy, do you mind if we save the
parade for later?”

The sarcasm snapped Patroclus back to reality. He looked over to where Achilles was engaged in
battle and suppressed the gasp that had gathered in his throat. For a moment he just stood there,
watching as Achilles sliced one Thessalian across the throat before turning and stabbing the other
one in the stomach, ducking a blow aimed at his head and catching him in the soft flesh at the back
of the knee. It was all one movement. One breath, almost. As if he were enacting the steps of a
dance.

Patrloclus shook his head and blinked his eyes that had been glazed over in awe. It was so easy to
forget, after the death of Mynax, that this was what Achilles was really good at. What he had been
born to be good at. He remembered the terrified look in Achilles’ eyes as he had gazed at the blood
on his hands, mixing with the mud. There was none of that now. In fact, as another man collapsed
at his feet, grasping at his windpipe, Patroclus could see the flicker of a smile pass across Achilles’
lovely face.

A Thessalian appeared, sprinting towards them. Without thinking Patroclus swung his sword. The
sharp edge caught him in the chest and he fell backwards. Achilles looked at him approvingly.

“Nice,” he said.

“We really should go back to the palace,” Patroclus replied.

“Why?” asked Achilles. “It’s much more fun here.”

Patroclus tried to give him an exasperated look but Achilles had already taken off again, towards
the direction where most of the fighting was taking place. Patroclus followed him, cautiously
keeping an eye out for arrows or catapults that were dropping left, right and centre. By squinting he
could just make out Stylax and Calisthenes, both of them against one large Thessalian. From what
it looked like they seemed to be overpowering him, although they were tiring fast.

A few feet away another Thessalian was ramming his shield into a boy’s face. He looked up and
caught Patroclus’ eye, within a split second he was charging towards him. Patroclus used his shield
to block his sword before throwing him off with all of his strength. There was an opening between
his arm and left side, he went for it, digging his sword point in until the blood flowed.

“See?” said Achilles said as Patroclus joined him, panting. “It’s just like wrestling.”

“No it’s not,” Patroclus tried to reproach him but even to himself it sounded unconvincing. Achilles
was right. No matter how hard Patroclus tried to remember that these were human lives they were
taking, he felt the same pumping excitement he did after a training match.

Stylax and Calithenes had succeeded against their opponent and were doubled over in exhaustion.
They waved joyfully as Achilles and Patroclus approached them, standing so that the defeated
body was in full view.

“How are things?” Achilles asked.

“Alright,” Stylax replied. “We’re doing okay, except that there are so many of them. Every time we
think we have them another squadron appears. It’s like fighting the bloody hydra.”

“You were right though,” added Calisthenes to Achilles. “They’re tired. You can tell. And they
weren’t expecting another fight after facing the Myrmidons. We took them by surprise.”

Achilles smiled and Patroclus was glad. He too had noticed the soldiers were slower than expected;
it should not have been so easy to be overpowered by a handful of semi-trained teenagers. If things
continued as they were, Achilles’ plan could quite possibly work.

Clearly Stylax was thinking along the same lines. “We only need to hold them off,” he reminded
them. “Before the Corinthians and what’s left of our army get here.”

Achilles nodded, apparently thinking. Suddenly his head snapped up; he grasped Patroclus’
shoulder and hurled him out the way. Patroclus barely had time to exclaim “Wha-” before Achilles
was slicing a Thessalian across the face with his knife. The soldier collapsed, knees bent into a
kneeling position clutching his eyes. Achilles snatched him by the hair, yanking his head back
roughly.

“Mistake,” he snarled before slamming his head against one of the fallen rocks, turning the
roughened grey bright scarlet. Sylax and Calisthenes’ eyes widened as Achilles returned, wiping
the blood off on his thighs.

“Don’t turn your back on these people Patroclus,” he stated grimly. “They have no honour.”

“Thank you,” breathed Patroclus who could hear nothing but the sound of his own heart galloping
in his ears.

“Don’t thank me,” said Achilles. “Just get behind me.”

He whirled Patroclus back as a spear came towards them. Achilles brushed it aside with a flick of
his shield, his other arm providing a barrier between the soldier and Patroclus. He wrenched it out
and flung it back. It pierced the man’s armour and he fell. Achilles turned back to Patroclus.

“You go nowhere without me,” he told him. “Swear it.”

“You’re not my mother,” Patroclus retorted childishly, attempting to throw off the protective arm.

Achilles tightened his hold. “Swear it,” he repeated. “I’m not playing games.”

Indeed, his face was deadly serious, his eyes piercing as poised spears. “I can look after myself,”
Patroclus muttered.

Achilles smiled fondly. “I know you can,” he said. “But I’ll feel a lot better if I know you’re
nearby. Swear it, or I won’t let you fight.”

Patroclus wanted to argue, wanted to prove somehow that he was perfectly capable of fighting the
Thessalians by himself. But out of the corner of his eye he could see Stylax and Calisthenes,
watching the exchange open-mouthed, slight perplexed frowns playing between their brows.

“Alright, I swear,” he conceded, anxious to end the disagreement before the other two started
asking questions. “Lead the way.”

Achilles nodded, saluted Stylax and Calisthenes and headed for the agora, keeping Patroclus close
behind him. It was hard to believe this was the same place Patroclus had visited with Leptine those
many months ago; the bright stalls had been slashed and overturned so that fragments of cloth and
broken wood littered the ground, swimming in pools of bright blood. Here and there bodies lay like
the flies that had hovered round the fruit but the fighting was too thick to see much else. Achilles
picked up a spear laying on the floor and thrust it into the first Thessalian he could see. He uttered
a guttural gasp before falling forward. At the sight of his fallen comrade another soldier let out a
cry of anger and lurched towards them, bringing his sword down to carve through Patroclus’ neck.
Patroclus parried it, knocking him backwards with his other fist and Achilles finished him off with
a slice to the ribs.

Stylax had not lied about their numbers. As they held the marketplace, beating back fresh hordes of
the soldiers piling in Patroclus lost track of time, or the number of men he and Achilles sent
sprawling into the dust. As they fought, wordlessly they seemed to have picked up almost a
rhythm, with Achilles dealing with those coming in from the right and Patroclus from the left
whilst covering each other partially with their shields. When he could get his hands on a spear or
fallen sword Achilles would launch it, leaving part of his body exposed and Patroclus would raise
his shield to protect the bare target. They almost took turns, finding that together they were
stronger and steadier even if the kills were slower.

However, Patroclus knew he was tiring. Both Achilles and the Thessalians set a fast pace and there
was no telling how long they had fought for. It was as if they had entered another dimension where
there was no measurement except for the number of bodies slain and the proximity of sword from
temple. After what must have been hours he was glistening with sweat and breathing hard. Achilles
looked at him concernedly, his own breath barely laboured.

“Are you alright?” he asked. Patroclus tried not to feel resentful that, other than his hair looking a
little more dishevelled, he was barely changed from before the battle had broken out.

“I’m fine,” he replied. “There are just so many.”

As if to confirm this, a spear came rushing for Achilles’ shoulder. He blocked it lazily and turned
back to Patroclus. Silently they surveyed the area; most of the bodies were smaller, the faces
familiar. With a pang Patroclus recognised several of those who had stood up for him in the trial
against Nekros; there was Andros, laying face up with a cut across his stomach, eyes wide and
mouth slightly open as if caught by surprise and a few meters from him Iasonides, a boy whom
Patroclus had shared jokes and water with on several occasions, but whose first name he’d never
known. Now he never would. The thought spurned a sudden and ready grief which gripped him
with astonishing urgency, he grabbed his chest and his knees buckled. On instinct, Achilles
grabbed his arm, preventing him from falling.

“What’s the matter?” he exclaimed, astounded. “Are you hurt? Are you wounded?”

“All of them…” Patroclus only murmur. “Dead. Andros…Iasonides…I raced against him once…”

“Oh is that all?” Achilles humphed impatiently. “Give me warning next time, why don’t you?
Right, let’s get out of here. Can you walk or is your conscience weighing you down too much?”

“I can walk,” Patroclus muttered, too dazed to be riled.

They moved away from the battle, seeking cover from the houses and hay bales that littered the
streets. Patroclus found that he was blinking stupidly but he could not get the image of those pale,
glassy eyes staring out of faces he had once known and liked. Achilles was muttering and swearing
under his breath, something about Patroclus having a girlish constitution but Patroclus ignored
him. It was different for him, he who had never seen anybody but himself and now Patroclus. He
did not know what it felt like to lose someone he had known, even in passing. For him, everyone
else had already been a ghost.

Suddenly a cheerful voice rang out, calling their names. Patroclus squinted in the direction and saw
Deiomachus waving over to them from atop of one of the higher buildings. Achilles propelled them
forward and helped Patroclus up the ladder until they had joined him on the roof, crouched behind
a makeshift wall of wine barrels. Deiomachus and Leonides greeted them like old friends who had
come to lunch. Beside them, Quintos was quivering noticeably, his hand clasped over his
abdomen.

“What’s wrong with him?” Patroclus gestured to Quintos whose face was pale as curdled milk.

“Him?” Deiomachus glanced at him dismissively. “Oh, he’s fine. Just spent the past hour holding
his own guts in. He was trying to run away when a Thessalian caught him in the stomach. Serves
him right, the cowardly bastard.”

“You were trying to run away?” Achilles enunciated, scandalised. “My father would have you
beaten for desertion.”

“Considering I’ve spent the majority of this battle inhaling my intestines,” Quintos snapped. “Don’t
be offended if I consider that a somewhat limp threat.”

“How’s it looking?” Patroclus changed the subject.

“Not too good,” Deiomachus replied with a heavy sigh. “Fact is their numbers are overwhelming.
We’re boys, they’re grown men. We can’t hold out for much longer.”

Achilles made a noise, less of anguish than of vague irritation. He frowned at Patroclus. “If I go
down there will you promise to stay up here?”

“I have wine,” volunteered Deiomachus, raising a skin. “Also Quintos has been passing us spears
and I’ve been throwing them down when the mood takes me.”

Quintos released a groan of confirmation. Patroclus nodded and Achilles gave his shoulder a quick
squeeze before leaping off the roof and sprinting back towards the fight. Patroclus watched him go
with a sort of passive gloom. He’d be better on his own, he knew. Faster. He wondered how many
men he would kill before they were finally forced to surrender.

“Hand me that spear,” he ordered Quintos. He obliged.

“Fifty points for the head,” said Leonides and for a while they took turns aiming at passing
Thessalians, missing about as many as they caught but cheering loudly whenever they did. A spear
point stuck a soldier in the thigh, resulting in Deiomachis laudably awarding him ten and Patroclus
absently wondered when killing had become a game. Then he looked at Quintos, pausing to spit
out mouthfuls of his own blood, and remembered the unseeing eyes of Andros and Iasonides and
he wondered, dully, at what else were they supposed to do.

“Do you think they’ll keep us alive?” he asked Deiomachus as he bent down to pick up another
spear. “If they win, I mean.”

Deiomachus shrugged. “Best not thinking about, I guess.” he replied.

“Patroclus!” yelled a voice and their heads whipped round towards the source.

It was Loras. He was sprinting towards them, zig-zagging his way past soldiers caught in combat
as if his life depended on it and paying little heed to the battle around him. Patroclus and
Deiomachus exchanged a foreboding look. It could not be good news, if it caused Loras to run like
that.

“Where’s Achilles?” Loras panted once he had gotten his breath back.

Patroclus gestured evasively. “What’s wrong?” he demanded. “What have you heard?”

“The Thessalians must have split their forces,” Loras replied. “There’s another army heading for
the palace. We’ve just seen them. They’ll be here in a matter of minutes.”

“Another army?” exclaimed Deiomachus. He looked as though he had just been struck.

Loras nodded. “They’re aiming for the back entrance,” he wheezed. “They must be planning to
come in through the cellar.”

“The basement,” repeated Patroclus. “But that means-”

He looked at Deiomachus and met an identical expression, face white and eyes wide in shock.
Achilles had ordered all those who could not defend themselves into the palace cellar which was,
at this moment, the refuge of predominantly women and children. Women, children…and slaves.

“Leptine,” they said together, and set off at a run.

The sound of the fighting around them was dulled by the pounding of blood in his ears and his
internal cursing. He knew there were people hiding in the palace, knew that Leptine had been one
of them, amongst several helpless innocents it had been his duty to protect. Still he had let Achilles
abandon his post and went with him willingly. And if not because he could not restrain him then
why? For pursuit of his own personal glory? As distasteful as the suggestion was, Patroclus would
have been lying to say it was not in the least bit true.

“There’s no hope for us now,” he told Deiomachus. “Not if they’ve sent another army by the back.
We might as well lay down arms here.”

“All we can do is make sure she’s safe,” Deiomachus replied.

Patroclus nodded and they increased their pace, loathe to think what could have happened if they
were too late. Leptine had a small knife on her Patroclus knew she had taken to carrying since
Achilles’ birthday party. But would that really be enough against a seasoned soldier, blood heated
by battle? And what about all the other vulnerable citizens, the young girls and women? They
would all be at the mercy of the Thessalians now.

As they rounded a corner and headed up the dirt path the back entrance of the palace came into
view. True enough hundreds of soldiers could be seen, huddled by the gates, as if preparing for
resistance. Patroclus and Deiomachus darted behind a wall, peering over the top to get a better
look.

“We might be able to sneak round,” Patroclus muttered. “I know some of the passages, we might
be able to get her in and out before anybody-”

“-Wait a minute,” Deiomachus thrust out an arm, holding him back.

“Deiomachus, we don’t have time for-”

“-No wait,” Deiomachus insisted. “Look at their armour. They’re not Thessalians.”

He pointed towards one of the men at the front, whose inlay was the most decorative. Patroclus
squinted at him to try and make out the decoration. Sure enough the style was completely different
to that of the Thessalians. What’s more, he was wearing a magnificent purple cloak and tunic.

“Oh Gods above,” Patroclus exhaled. “Don’t play with me now.”

Almost as if he had heard, the man turned round. His eyes met Patroclus’ before he could dart back
behind the wall. They crinkled into a smile and he walked forward to meet them.

“Thoas, King of Corinth,” he announced, hand outstretched in greeting. “I do believe you’re

expecting me.”

oOo

The poets do not lie when they tell of how quickly the tide of battle can turn. Unlike the
Thessalians or the Myrmidons, the Corinthians were not natural warriors, their wealth having been
built on trade, diplomacy and pottery rather than the plunders of war. However, that counted for
very little when their multitudes of fresh, lively soldiers came pouring in. To their credit the
Thessalians, once they had recovered from their initial shock and horror, put up an honourable
fight. But when the surviving Myrmidons also returned, screaming the battle cry with their spears
poised in vengeance, it did not take long for them to recognise the futility of the situation. The
combined forces crushed the Thessalians like rock against a walnut until they had no choice but to
retreat. Patroclus joined in the cheer, beating his sword against his shield as they watched the
Thessalians scramble to escape over the hills, a swarm of flies beaten back by fire.

“We did it!” Patroclus wept for joy, clutching Achilles’ to him. “You did it Achilles, your plan
worked! It worked!”

In response, Achilles let out a crow of triumph as he was lifted by the home defence into the air.
“I’m the greatest there ever was!” he announced and a hundred voices shouted in agreement.

Patroclus could only laugh. He did not remember the last time he had been so overwhelmed with
relief. To have come within a hair’s breadth of almost certain death and emerged unscathed…it
was nearly too much to comprehend. As the din rose around him, fists and swords waving in the air
and catching the light like multi-coloured flags he raised his face to the heavens. It was nearly dark
but he fancied there were still some slivers of light squeezing its way through the clouds. It was to
that which he addressed his thanks.

Around him he could hear similar responses given by the adults. “BY ZEUS’ HAIRY
BOLLOCKS,” Ampelius was booming, seizing Leonides by the scruff of the neck and ruffling his
hair with his knuckles. “DID WE SEND THE MANGY CURS SCURRYING HOME WITH
THEIR TAILS BETWEEN THEIR LEGS! AND AT THE HANDS OF CHILDREN NO DOUBT!
SHINING CHILDREN, ALL OF YOU! THE BLESSED SPAWN OF THE GOLDEN ONES!”

“We couldn’t have done it without Achilles,” Leonidas replied, wincing as he touched his scalp.
“He was like a one-man-army.”

“Yeah, or Patroclus,” Calisthenes laughed. “Achilles ripped apart anyone who even looked at him
funny. Wouldn’t have made a difference were it our side or there’s!”

Oh Calisthenes, Patroclus thought, icy dread curling in his stomach. To think I almost turned you
into a fruit kebab. He chanced a look at Ampelius. His ruddy face, previously animated in
celebration had darkened, the thorn-thicket eyebrows retracting over the shining eyes and his
mouth thinning into a grim line. He did not say anything and the comment was dissolved and
forgotten in the laughter that followed. Yet it lingered still in the anxious parts of Patroclus’ mind
and as he watched Ampelius walk away, trying to conceal his heavy frown, he knew he wasn’t the
only one.

There were no frowns to be seen in the Great Hall that night. After making sure Leptine was
alright, Patroclus had led her and the other hiding citizens upstairs where they joined in the
celebrations. Upon seeing her, Deiomachus seized her hand and kissed her in front of everyone,
resulting in an eruption of whoops and catcalls. When they parted Leptine’s face was burning
brilliant crimson, but she looked very happy. From across the room where Achilles stood with his
father, he caught Patroclus eye. He raised his goblet slightly and winked. Patroclus smirked,
returning the gesture. Later.

“Well Peleus,” bellowed King Thoas, clasping Peleus’ shoulder heartily. “You’ve raised yourself
some fine young men here. You should be very proud.”

Peleus’ smile was small and happy, almost serene. Next to the rich plum of Thoas’ cloak and
ostentatious gold jewellery he looked quite washed out. He looked at Achilles with an expression
of unadulterated pride. In his simple blue chiton with the pale gold prince’s band around his head
he looked for all the world as if he had really just stepped off Olympus.

“I am blessed with many fine sons,” Peleus replied. “But I think this time, the Prince Achilles
really has exceeded all expectation. The glory of this day belongs to him.”

Achilles face was glowing with the praise but he shook his head. “No father,” he replied. “This day
belongs to all of us. And to Patroclus as well.”

He held out his hand and Patroclus knew it as a sign to approach the dais, somewhat warily.
Whether he had need to be cautious was not revealed, Thoas’ eyes crinkled warmly as he shook
Patroclus’ hand. “Meonitides of Opus,” he greeted him. “I have heard a lot about you.”

Unsure of how to take this, Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “A lot of good I hope, sir?”

Thoas smiled. “Oh yes,” he replied. “A lot of good. In fact it seems I will have nothing but good to
bring back to Corinth,” he added, addressing them all. “My daughter, Princess Chloē, will be very
pleased to hear her father has made an alliance with such admirable men. She is forever worrying,
my sweet Chloē. I am sure she thinks some of my friends are a bad influence.”

“Why, that is the job of every good daughter,” Peleus laughed Thoas joined and the two kings
settled down to talk of diplomacy and toasts to their new friendship.

Achilles was busy being ploughed with wine by admiring subjects and Leptine was engaged with
Deiomachus. Feeling ridiculously buoyant, Patroclus floated around the Hall feeling like he was on
a cloud. After the victory today, he struggled to see how anything bad could happen ever again.
Sometimes his thoughts flitted to memories of the dead and he would feel an ache in his chest, like
something was squeezed tightly inside him. But as sad as he was about the loss of life, he could not
help but feel relief at least that Thetis’ prophecy had not yet come true.

“Patroclus,” muttered a voice.

He spun round to face the source. It was Ampelius, leaning against one of the pillars, surveying the
celebrations. The grim expression was still there and he was holding a wine goblet, from which he
 did not appear to have taken a sip. Patroclus swallowed hard.

“Master Ampelius?” he said, trying to keep his voice casual. “How can I help you?”

“None of that pansy nonsense now lad,” Ampelius growled. “Just get over here.”

Contrite, Patroclus wheedled over, casting glum looks over his shoulder as if hoping someone
might swoop in and save him. Ampelius brought the goblet to his mouth and took a deep draught.
When he brought it away, the tips of his moustache were shining and red.

“Right,” he said, suppressing a belch. “I think we need a little talk, don’t you?”

“I don’t know, do we?” muttered Patroclus sullenly.

Ampelius gave him a black look. “Come on now,” he said. “Let’s not make this anymore awkward
than this has to be. Do you think I liked having to see…well…what it is I have seen? Trust me,
there are far more pleasant sights on Gaia’s Green Earth. You…two boys…canoodling is not an
image I’d have stick with me in Hades. A man…with another man…it just doesn’t bode thinking
about. And I know we Greeks have our little ways but I suppose I’m a conservative man. For me
just some things…weren’t made to fit…other things….if you catch my drift-”

“-I honestly do,” interrupted Patroclus who was really, really starting to reconsider the positives of
his dying in battle.

“Well anyway,” continued Ampelius, an expression of deep discomfort on his broad face. “That’s
by the by. To be honest, I don’t really care what boys do with their…time. It’s none of my business
whether a man prefers his comrade for a bedfellow rather than some buxom kitchen wench. And I
suppose, if you are be inclined to swing that way, you could do a lot worse.”

Patroclus chanced a look up. Ampelius was drinking deeply from his goblet again, looking in quite
excruciating pain, yet a bubble of hope was beginning to grow in Patroclus’ chest when he spoke
again. “The only thing Patroclus,” he continued. “Is that others might not be quite as tolerant as I
am. No listen,” he protested when Patroclus turned his scoff into a sneeze. “I don’t know if you’ve
ever had this talk with your father but, well, it’s a rough world out there. Boys can be cruel and
men…well, men can be downright savages. And against my better judgement, I like you. I don’t
want to see you get hurt. And I don’t want you to risk any reputation you might stake for yourself
on some childish fancy. Legacies are made and broken on the most trivial of details. Do you really
want to risk your chances of glory on a trifle?”

Patroclus shifted his feet. He felt like he should answer but couldn’t think of anything to say. He
could feel Ampelius’ eyes boring into him and when he asked “Are you listening to me?” he made
a gesture between a nod and something non-committal.

Ampelius took it. “Good,” he sighed. “Because I really think you could go far, Patroclus. I really
do. Your fighting today showed that.”

Patroclus attempted a smile but it withered and died. Ampelius took a final swallow of wine, patted
Patroclus on the shoulder and walked away, leaving him with the feeling that, somehow, his cloud
had just been burst.

Chapter End Notes

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Chapter Notes

Huge apologies for the unforgivable delay. I've just been let out on study leave and as
much as I'd like to donate all my time to this the authorities have this bizarre idea I
should be studying for my future or something. Because you need A Levels to write
homoerotic historical fiction for a living. Le sigh.
This chapter's quite long...but not much happens. New characters are introduced
anyway, if briefly. Next one I'll make it up to you, promise. Much love for you
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Any hopes that the battle at the citadel had meant an end to the Thessalian conflict were very
quickly dashed. It became immediately clear that King Thoas planned to stay for weeks and
temporary quarters were set up to house him and his Corinthians. Indeed, Peleus spared no expense
in making sure his new allies felt completely welcome; when the hours were not spent hunting and
feasting they talked strategy, hammering themselves up in that oppressive, windowless room to
talk in low, grim voices. They had won a victory and showed their mettle, not only to the
Thessalians but to anyone who thought they might try their hand at breaching Phthian walls. But
rumours of Poeas’ networking reached the ears of the messengers within days, as did the whispers
of their swelling numbers, brewing over the hills like a storm cloud. Everyone knew there would be
another battle in open field. Only this time, the Myrmidons would be prepared.

“Apparently we have more allies coming,” Achilles informed Patroclus as they lay lazily in the hot
sun, wrestling with their feet.

“Who?” asked Patroclus. There had been a number of War Council meetings in the past few weeks
and while for Achilles it was compulsory to go Patroclus had taken to shirking them.

“Father didn’t want to say until it was absolutely set in stone,” replied Achilles with a slight frown.
“Actually, he looked a little embarrassed about it. Although I can’t imagine why.”

Patroclus tried to think of any kingdoms Peleus might be embarrassed about seeking help from.
King Agamemnon of Argos was, from what he had heard, a loud, swaggering man; inflated from
his realm’s recent bout of prosperity. He spoke to the rulers of smaller lands with ill-disguised
contempt and Patroclus had seen Peleus mention him a few times with an expression of distaste.
But Argos had not come with the Corinthians when Phthia had sent for aid the first time and
Patroclus doubted Agamemnon would lower himself to what he deemed petty squabbles between
small nations, unless there was something in it for him.

Either way, while talk of war was frequent and inevitable Patroclus found it fairly easy to block
out. He was still buoyed on the victory of the home defence and after that first hurdle the next one
seemed so far off. Besides, he had an easy distraction before him. What with the preparing for the
attack and structuring the city’s defence it seemed he and Achilles had had very little time to
themselves. Now, with this albeit brief respite, they grabbed the opportunity to discover each other,
making up for all those lost days where they had gazed in silent agony before quickly averting their
eyes. They visited all their old haunts: the dappled glen in the woods, the white cliffs at the sea’s
edge, but now when Achilles dived into the water below Patroclus was free to admire the muscles
rippling in his back, was free to hold his hand when they jumped together, was free, when a drop of
fig juice clung to his lower lip, to wipe it away with a dart of his tongue.

The seasons were changing, the air growing colder but the sun beamed ever brightly; bathing them
in pools of golden light even as they chased each other through the trees or along the beach, salt
spraying in the wake of their flashing pink heels. Hands would stretch out, clasp shoulders and both
would fall, tumbling into sand. A brief struggle, both clambering to gain the upper-hand before one
would always fall back in surrender and the winner would claim his prize. Hands would cup jaws,
eyelashes flutter, lips prick in a mocking smile and then meet. The air is chilly, their skin
roughened by goose bumps but it always tastes like summer.

One morning, Patroclus woke with a jolt. He had just had a rather unnerving dream in which a
woman, who might have been his mother only she had been sitting on a rock, held out an hour glass
to him and was gesticulating loudly. “Time!” she has shrieked as the sand grains slid against the
glass. “Look at the time! Look at it!”

He had woken up confused, oddly unsettled, and with a headache. The woman’s voice had been
exceptionally shrill. It was only then that he remembered: today was his birthday.

If anything, the revelation only made him feel more disturbed. He reached down to wake up
Achilles and tell him about the irritating, shrill woman only to find him gone. Confused, he looked
around the room, expecting to see him pounding out his daily push ups or else preening in the
mirror but there was no sign of him. Assuming he had gone to visit his mother, Patroclus yawned
and got out of bed, washed and dressed quickly before heading downstairs for breakfast.

Upon entering the Great hall he was met by Deiomachus and the other foster boys, waving him
over excitedly. He approached warily, taken aback by their disturbingly eager grins as they made
room for him to sit down.

“Here he is!” Deiomachus announced gleefully, reaching round to pat him heartily on the back.
“Happy birthday, mate.”

Patroclus looked down at the table and felt his eyes widen. Laying in front of him across the
polished wood was a handsome shield, made from bronze and stretched over with dyed, dark green
leather, upon which the silhouette of a stag was printed. A pattern of yellow forest leaves gleamed
round the edges and Patroclus looked up, eyes shining with awe.

“Is this real gold inlay?” he asked wonderingly.

“Yup,” Deiomachus replied proudly. “Cost a pretty penny, but we all pitched in.”

“Some of us more than others,” Leonides muttered, casting a scathing look at Quintos who glared
back and clutched his bandaged abdomen with a pained expression.

“But this is amazing,” Patroclus stretched out a marvelling hand to skim over the supple leather.
“My Gods. Thank you all, so, so much.”

“Well, we thought it was about time Phthia’s Great Defender had an adequate defence,”
Calisthenes grinned.

“It’s us who should be thanking you Patroclus,” Stylax nodded sincerely. “We won’t forget it.”

Too speechless to speak, Patroclus could only nod. His throat suddenly felt very thick and he could
feel the emotion pricking at his eyeballs. Apparently the other boys also felt the atmosphere was a
getting a little too sentimental because the conversation quickly turned to one of celebration as
between them they fought over who could heap the most food on Patroclus’ plate.

After breakfast and, the numerous thanks heaped on his friends until they had all disappeared with
embarrassment, Patroclus wondered outside. For a moment he stood there, eyes closed, head tipped
up to the sky. He had never been an earnest devotee to the Gods, even less so the more time he
spent with Achilles and his scepticism. But right now, with the morning sun warming the cold tip
of his nose, he felt it would be churlish not to offer a little thanks for all the blessings he had so
recently received. A cool breeze ruffled his hair and he smiled.

“You know you look a bit unwell,” said a familiar voice.

Rolling his eyes, Patroclus turned his grin on Achilles, watching him with his arms crossed over
his chest. “Go away,” answered Patroclus. “You’re spoiling my moment.”

“Trust me, nothing would make me happier than to leave you to your…moment,” shrugged
Achilles, scratching the back of his neck ruefully. “But it just so happens that I have…something.
For you.”

Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “You do know sexual favours do not count as good presents?”

Achilles made a huffing sound, blowing a lock of hair out of his eyes. “You should be so lucky,”
he retorted. “No, come on.”

Curiosity brimming, Patroclus followed Achilles away from the palace towards the wood.
Patroclus held his tongue as they moved deeper and deeper through the trees, knowing Achilles
would only snap at him to be patient. Finally, Achilles stopped before what looked like a tangled
thicket of shrubs and bracken with a satisfactory expression on his face.

“Oh the cleverness of me,” he crowed happily. “Sorry I had to be so mysterious and all, but I
couldn’t risk mother finding out about this.”

“You couldn’t be mysterious if you tried,” replied Patroclus, craning to get a better look. “What is
it?”

“One second,” said Achilles, moving forwards towards the undergrowth. Patroclus waited as he
busied himself, sweeping away the leaves and branches before at last he stepped back and
announced with a flourish: “Behold, Patroclus. The best birthday present ever.”

Achilles moved out the way and Patroclus’ breath caught in his throat. From amongst the earthy
greens and browns came peeking out the unmistakeable glint of gold. The more Patroclus’ eyes
roved the more he could make out…wheels…spokes…a leather seat…

“You got me a CHARIOT?!” he screamed.

“I guess I did,” replied Achilles smugly. “Although, just so you know, this is a joint present. And
by joint present, I mean for you and me. Like, I tell you now, I am going to be using this-”

Whatever further conditions Achilles had to impose were lost as Patroclus flung his arms around
his neck and pressed their lips together, leaving Achilles breathless but ridiculously pleased. “Are
there horses?” Patroclus asked urgently. “Can we use it now?”

“No, I got you a chariot without horses,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “A magical vehicle where you
have only to clap your hands and it will steer itself. I’m good Patroclus, but I’m not that good.
Balius! Xanthus!”
At his call, two handsome looking stallions emerged from the greenery, batting their tails and
looking curiously at them with large doleful eyes. Patroclus thought his heart might burst. Quickly
they harnessed them to the chariot, Achilles instructing him all the while on the best way to hold
the reins and how it was all in the shoulder movement, animals respect a firm hand Patroclus, a
little like you, so don’t coddle them okay, they’re war-horses, they can take it-

“Achilles,” Patroclus cut him off. “This is incredible, honestly, but please stop acting like you’ve
driven a chariot before. You have never drivena chariot before.”

Achilles gave him a scathing look before hopping in beside him. Patroclus breathed out slowly,
holding the reins loosely in his hands as if they really were something magical. He could feel his
beating pulse through the leather, as if there were a single vein reaching between him and the
horses, a strand of energy connecting them. The horses’ ears were pricked, their large nostrils
twitching at the air. They were ready. Patroclus hitched the reins.

“Whoa my Gods,” he gasped as the chariot jumped into action at a stomach-lurching pace.

“Ah,” said Achilles, in the dreaded tone of voice which meant he was about to admit something. “I
should possibly mention these are very fast horses.”

“You don’t say?” breathed Patroclus, struggling to pull them back to a canter.

“Well yeah,” shrugged Achilles, flicking hair out his eyes. “They’re immortal, so.”

Patroclus’ incredulous “What?!” was drowned out by the sound of hooves shredding through
brushwood as the chariot charged ahead. Patroclus put out one hand to steady himself before
shifting his position so that he had more balance. He leaned forward and concentrated hard on the
horses’ movements, the spasm of the muscles in their necks, the flash of their kneecaps. He tried to
shut out everything else so that the world slowed around him, allowing him to focus only on the
chariot and what lay directly in front of them. The horses were wilful, their long, tangled manes
blowing back into his face with the force of their speed but Achilles was right, they did respond to
a firm handling and soon Patroclus found he was directing them rather than the other way round,
albeit not wholly smoothly.

“I’m doing it!” he announced gleefully. “I’m driving a chariot!”

“You’re driving my breakfast,” Achilles groaned as the wheels ran over an ungainly bump. “Okay,
my turn.”

“What no, give me a second, I’ve been going about three minutes-”

“-Four minutes thirty at the very least, come on, you’re wearing out the wheels-”

“-Maybe that’s because you decided to test it out in a forest-”

A flash of colour in the distance, moving swiftly through the trees. They spotted it at the same
time, then suddenly it was gone. Achilles frowned. “What was that?”

“Probably just some animal.”

“Too big to be an animal.”

They watched the trees warily, eyes peeled for further disturbances. Then another flash, closer this
time, accompanied by the sound of hooves. Patroclus tried to dismiss it from his mind and
concentrate at the task at hand but it was impossible, especially as the sound was drawing nearer
and nearer until the whir of wheels was directly behind them. Achilles looked over his shoulder
and issued a little squeak.

“We’re being followed in a very great way,” he announced.

“Who is it?” asked Patroclus.

“Chariot.”

“I know what it is, who’s-”

The vague path they had been following took a sudden dip; Patroclus yanked the reins back as the
horses surged forward, moving faster and more frantically with the discovery of pursuers on their
tail. The whole chariot lurched to the right, bumping and buffering against the wheels with Achilles
and Patroclus clinging desperately to the sides before settling straight. Achilles put his head in his
hands. “My Gods,” he moaned into his palms. “What in all the Hells was I thinking. You can’t
drive a chariot. You can’t even ride a horse.”

Patroclus was about to passionately protest otherwise when he was distracted by a flurry of
movement from behind. Achilles gestured at him to keep his eyes on the road, turning to watch
their chasers. Their faces were half-hidden by helmets pulled low over their foreheads but they
were both grinning. The smaller one next to the driver was gesticulating, making signs Achilles
recognised as “beach”.

“Oh Hades’ skeletal prick,” Achilles swore.

“What?”

“They’re not chasing us. They’re racing us.”

Patroclus risked a look back. Sure enough the other drivers wore matching expressions of
determination tipped with mischief and they were urging their horses on with singular purpose.
Unwilling to lose to a pair of presumptuous strangers, Patroclus charged ahead.

It soon became clear, however, that these presumptuous strangers were by no means amateurs
when it came to chariot racing. As Achilles and Patroclus jolted along their way through the trees,
the walls of the chariot tilting from side to side their challengers drove smoothly, swerving past
roots and patches of raised turf as if the reins were an extension of themselves. Soon they less than
an inch away from them. Catching sight of them, Achilles released a huff of irritation and pushed
Patroclus out of the way.

“Right that’s it,” he declared, snatching the reins from his hands. “Give them here.”

“Fucking no, I was doing well-”

“Yeah? They’re gaining on us, explain that. Have them back if you’re so willing to lose to these
bitches.”

Ignoring him, Patroclus made a grab for them but Achilles held them out of arms’ reach, yelling at
the horses to go faster. The other chariot was nearly level with them now, Patroclus could see their
mouths stretched in laughter. Achilles drove the horses forward, their massive nostrils flaring as
they struggled to compensate. Beside them, Patroclus could see their competitors urging on their
steeds with a lazy crack of the whip. Achilles flung them a furious look and snarled: “Bastards.
We’re going to win this. Come on!”
“Achilles, look out!” Patroclus screamed and Achilles looked up just in time to see an approaching
tree trunk, less than three feet away. Instinctively he yanked the reins. The horses reared
indignantly, pulling up the frontal wheels of the chariot so that Achilles and Patroclus clung on in
terror, anxious of the thing upturning. Out of the corner of his eye Patroclus saw the other chariot
shoot past them, their high, youthful laughter crackling into the wind. Achilles, seeing them too,
swore loudly.

“They’ve won,” he announced angrily. “This wouldn’t have happened if you’d let me steer
earlier.”

“What,” Patroclus retorted. “So you could have crashed into a tree earlier and saved them the
trouble?”

Achilles glared at him but could think of no answer.

They made their way back to the palace in partial silence, broken only by Achilles muttering darkly
under his breath. Patroclus, who was by now well-acquainted with the bouts of immaturity that
flared up whenever he lost at something, ignored him and was instead immersed in thought of who
the charioteers had actually been. Now that he thought about it, their clothing had been strange;
except for the helmets they had worn loose tunics, the kind favoured by sailors and ships’ crew.

They wheeled the chariot in round the back, giving the servants strict instructions to keep it hidden
at all times. Neither of them were too worried about whether Peleus would approve, however there
was always a chance he might tell Thetis if pressured. For his part, Patroclus would really rather not
be included in that conversation. After making sure the horses were safely returned to their stables
they made their way back outside. Achilles was still too busy fuming to notice but there were
people everywhere, carrying boxes and crates, all of them dressed in similar loose-fitting tunics.
Patroclus tugged on Achilles’ sleeve.

“Look,” he said. “What do you think’s going on?”

Achilles squinted into the distance, towards the beach. He tilted his head into the sun, lighting up
the flecks of gold in his eyes and Patroclus knew he was seeing further than the mortal eye.
“There’s a ship,” he replied with a bemused frown. “Black flag, yellow borders. Know it?”

“No,” Patroclus shook his head. “Maybe we should go down-”

Achilles was already running in that direction. Patroclus shook his head and with a sigh took off
after him.

As they drew nearer the shore the number of men marching up and down increased. Patroclus
looked them over curiously. Big, brawny men with scraggy, unkempt beards, brown muscles
rippling in the salty air. Achilles and Patroclus stood back to watch them bearing their cargo up the
beach when a jovial voice caught their attention.

“Hello there,” a man greeted them, waving. “You must be the respective princes of Phthia and
Opus. Prince Achilles, Lord Menoitides, a pleasure to meet you formally. I’m afraid there was little
chance to exchange pleasantries this morning.”

Patroclus observed the man warily. He had a thin, brown face; lined and weathered but still
belaying traces of youth, evident in his open, friendly smile. His hair was thick, brown and curly,
cut just below the nape of his neck. He stood a little taller than average height with a slim, sinewy
body; the tendons in his arms and legs thick and tight as knotted rope. His whole expression
portrayed ease and affability, however the effect was ruined slightly by his eyes, an uncommon
shade of hazel that twinkled with a sharp intelligence and drew disturbingly close to cunning.

He had forgone his sailor’s chiton in favour of a plainly embroidered brown tunic, breeches and a
well spun woollen cloak. But the hint of mischief lurking below the surface of his honest
countenance meant Patroclus recognised him at once. “You were driving the chariot,” he stated. “In
the wood, earlier.”

“Quite so,” the man inclined his head, scratching at his short beard. “I must thank you for that.
Sailing is my life but being at sea for three weeks means you’re a little short of things to do for
entertainment. You did well actually, considering you don’t look quite old enough to be racing
chariots yet.”

“One could say you look a little too old,” Achilles snapped. “I’m surprised you didn’t put your
back out. Besides, you initiated it. We would have beaten you too…if the tree hadn’t been in the
way.”

Patroclus resisted the urge to put his head in his hands, even as the man laughed. “Right you are,
Prince Achilles,” he answered good-naturedly. “And quite as astute as the stories say. For once, the
bards fail to disappoint. Allow me to introduce myself. My name is Odysseus, from the island of
Ithaca. I received word from your good father that you were planning a little anti-Thessalian
coalition, and inviting me ever so kindly to join. Naturally I seek to offer my humbled thanks at
being remembered, from my far-flung scrap of rock. Might I be so impertinent as to trouble you to
lead me to him?”

Achilles and Patroclus exchanged glances. Every word he spoke sounded mocking, as though he
were laughing at some private joke, yet he spoke with such frank honesty it was difficult to
pinpoint a reason against him. Achilles scanned him cautiously, one eyebrow crooked. “Alright,”
he said slowly. “Follow me.”

“You are most gracious,” Odysseus smiled with a little bow. “I’ll just call my first mate.” Raising
his strong, calloused hands to the sides of his mouth he shouted: “Pelops!”

At his call, a young boy dropped the piece of rigging he was working on and strutted over to meet
them. Slim, lithe, dark, he was very pretty with a shock of black hair peeking out from a cap pulled
low of his eyes. Stopping in front of them, he looked Achilles and Patroclus up and down before
winking roguishly at Patroclus. Patroclus felt his eyebrows shoot up.

“Lead the way,” said Odysseus and Achilles and Patroclus headed off in the direction of the palace,
Odysseus and the boy following diligently behind.

Once sure there was a sizable distance between them, Patroclus spoke to Achilles in hushed tones.
“Who is he? Do you know anything about him?”

Achilles shrugged. “Only bits and pieces. He is the prince of Ithaca, but from what I hear he spends
little time there. For good reason; it is a barren scrap of an island and if I were its heir I would wish
to stay away while I still could. Father says he is a merchant, but with great hesitance. From what I
hear, he acquires as much of his goods by force and theft as by bargain.”

“You mean to say,” Patroclus whispered, scandalised. “That he is a pirate?”

Living in Opus, Patroclus had grown up in perpetual fear from the stories of sea-brigands who
leapt upon Southern ships and stripped them of cargo, leaving them like a bleeding carcass for
opportunists to find. Achilles shrugged again. “It would explain why Peleus is so reluctant to form
an alliance with him,” he replied. “Although I’d be more embarrassed that his army is so small.
We’re really scraping the bottom of the barrel with this one.”

Patroclus snuck a look at Odysseus from over his shoulder, currently deep in conversation with his
crewmate. From what he had heard, pirates were fearsome men with wild beards, broken teeth and
scarred faces. Odysseus, with his groomed hair, neatly trimmed beard and courteous, diplomatic
manner was about as far from this description as he could imagine. Indeed, he looked more like a
philosopher or a poet than a criminal.

Achilles led them into the palace and along the halls that lead to the chamber in which his father
received guests. Inside, Peleus and the Corinthian King Thoas were pouring over maps and heavy
scrolls blotted with battle strategy. They looked up when they entered and, seeing Odysseus,
summoned thin, unconvincing smiles.

“Well well,” Peleus wheezed. “If it isn’t the prince of Ithaca. I was starting to wonder if you’d lost
my invitation.”

“Oh no,” Odysseus replied airily. “My apologies for the delay. Word reaches us quite slowly from
where we are, I’m afraid. Had we been but thirty miles nearer we would have been able to help
you defeat the Thessalians. Not that you had any need of us, by the looks of it.”

“No matter, no harm done,” said Peleus dismissively. “You are here now and it is now that
matters.”

“Safe journey, Odysseus?” asked Thoas, his dark eyes hard beneath their brows. “Didn’t come into
any…trouble on the seas?”

If Odysseus detected any malice in Thoas’ tone of voice he did not show it. “None, thank the
Gods,” he replied pleasantly. “Luckily I know the waters well enough to avoid the particularly…
tumultuous routes.”

Thoas made a scoffing sound. “I dare say you do,” muttered Peleus. “In any case, we must offer
thanks that the waves were able to bring you here safely. We shall have great need of the famous
Ithacan hardiness in the upcoming days. But more of that later. For now you must be in need of
refreshment after your long passage. I’ll have a girl make your bath and another will show you to
your room. And perhaps one for your companion as well?”

“You are as gracious a host as they say,” said Odysseus with his little bow. “I wonder, Pelops here
has expressed a great interest in your famed stables. It’s all he’s could talk about the whole trip
here. Would it be possible for someone to show him around?”

Peleus looked delighted at the compliment to his horses, high spots of colour appearing on his
milky pale cheeks. “But of course,” he exclaimed warmly. “I’ll just send for someone to guide
you-”

“-No need,” announced Pelops briskly, grasping Patroclus by the elbow. “Menoitides here will do
just fine.”

Both Peleus and Achilles stared at the boy incredulously. Patroclus himself blinked
uncomprehendingly even as Pelops grinned up at him. “Very well,” said Peleus. “If Patroclus
agrees?”

Patroclus nodded, too taken aback to really appreciate what was going on. “Great,” declared Pelops
then turned to Odysseus. “See you in a bit,” he said before tugging Patroclus’ arm and leading him
rather forcefully back outside.
“So,” Pelops began, briskly falling into step with Patroclus once they were out of doors. “You’re
who they call the Mighty Menoitides.”

“People still call me that?” mumbled Patroclus in wonderment.

Pelops chuckled, although it was so high-pitched it was more like a giggle. “They do where I come
from,” he replied easily. “Although it might be a different story in the West, over in Nekros’ lands.
Did you know he still talks about skinning you alive?”

“I didn’t,” answered Patroclus tepidly, suppressing a gulp. He hadn’t thought about Nekros or
Mynax in months. In truth, he was rather shocked to discover the man set so much significance by
him.

“I met him once,” Pelops continued conversationally. “He came to my father’s house. Nasty man.
Terrible misogynist. And that awful squealing brat of his. I have to say, I was very pleased to hear
how you bested him in that trial, very pleased. In fact, that’s what set off my interest in you.”

He snuck a glance at Patroclus from beneath uncommonly long, dark eyelashes. Patroclus did his
best to look casual and indifferent but could not contain his inquisitive: “Oh?”

“Yep,” nodded Pelops. “I’ve been very curious about you for some time. Your story is quite a
gripping one; the forsaken prince, outcast, underdog, a stranger in a foreign land. Works his way
up to becoming one of the most genuinely well-liked notables this side of the Atlas. And, dare I say
it, one of the most eligible bachelors.”

Patroclus looked at him, aghast. Pelops laughed again. “So no one’s approached you yet? No?
Well, no matter. Soon you’ll have so many marriage proposals they’ll be coming out your ears.”

“I really can’t think where you’re getting this information,” said Patroclus, uncomfortably
conscious of the colour burning his cheeks.

Pelops tapped the side of his nose mysteriously. “You’d be surprised how much you can learn,” he
told him sagely. “If one only watches, and listens.”

They had reached the stables. With an exclamation of delight Pelops rushed over to admire Peleus’
most prized steeds while Patroclus hung back, secretly glad of the break from the rather probing
conversation. He watched as Pelops cooed and petted over the horses, running his fine white hands
through their glossy manes, hands that looked rather incongruous on a seasoned first mate. The
horses pressed their damp noses into Pelops’ palm; he issued his high-pitched giggle, whispering
admiring sentiments into their alert, attentive ears.

“You really like horses huh,” Patroclus deadpanned for want of a conversation starter.

“They are all that is good and noble in his world stitched into bone and flesh,” Pelops replied,
scratching a massive stallion behind the ears. “Back home my sisters and I used to race each other
on horseback….I don’t suppose you do that much here, do you?”

Patroclus shook his head. “It’s not…unheard of,” he answered tentatively. “I mean, we know how
to ride. It’s just…why would you? The physics of it…doesn’t make it the most popular means of
travel.”

Pelops looked confused and continued to do so until Patroclus pointed meaningfully downwards
with his chin. “Oh,” he said, expression clearing. “Yes. Well. I could see how it might take getting
used to, for some people. But you know, it’s really quite common in the East. The Anatolians
never go anywhere on foot. They’re like human centaurs.”
 “That’s interesting,” commented Patroclus who knew very little about the East, except for what he
had learnt from Leptine. “Around here we prefer…um…chariots.”

Pelops gave him an amused, knowing glance, tittering quietly before resuming his stroking of the
stallion. Patroclus moved to his side and joined in petting it roughly, casting an eye out for Balius
and Xanthus. He wondered how Pelops would react upon discovering the horses they’d driven that
morning had the blood of the Divine in their veins. He snuck a look at him from beneath his lashes.
He was remarkably sure of himself, caressing the horses with such confidence it was as if he had
bred and reared them himself. More than that, he spoke and acted with more self-assurance than
Patroclus had ever managed, even on his best days. He opened his mouth, about to comment on his
apparent skill with the horses when Pelops spoke first.

“I’ll tell you why I love them so much,” he said. “It’s because they’re like you and me. Loyal
companions. The comrades of great men, the ones who will never desert, will follow into death, if
necessary. The ‘unsung heroes’, a lot of the time.”

He looked up at Patroclus. For the first time since their acquaintance, his expression was serious.
“The reason I wanted to meet you Patroclus,” he began. “Is because I wanted to meet another
companion. I’ve heard all about you and Achilles, how he killed Mynax to save you, how you
saved him in return. I know about the bond between you, I know what you are. One soul in two
bodies. And I wanted to meet you because I’ve only ever known of one other bond like that. Mine
and his.”

He made a movement with his head, obviously gesturing towards Odysseus back at the palace.
Patroclus gazed at Pelops, completely at a loss for words. Pelops removed his eyes from Patroclus’
and resumed his patting of the stallion.

“Of course,” he continued and the gravity was gone from his voice. “I have to say I don’t quite
understand your affinity to the Prince of Phthia. He comes across as quite the little brat to me.”

Patroclus shrugged heavily. “Yeah well,” he answered tiredly. “Looks can be deceiving.”

Pelops’ smile could have split stone. “You’re quite right,” he said, and removed his cap.

Chapter End Notes

Fun fact: Ancient Greeks did not actually start riding horses properly until, like, 400
BC. Certainly they weren't used in battle until then, except for pulling chariots. The
concept of riding horses was actually introduced by Anatolians (like the Trojans) and
it was Greek visits to Anatolia and seeing men riding on horseback which led to the
centaur myth. So if you ever see a picture of Achilles and Patroclus riding romantically
along the beach on horseback...it's too cute to criticise for anachronism so don't.
 Penelope

“Oh,” said Patroclus.

“‘Oh’?” Pelops exclaimed. “Is that all? Aren’t you surprised?”

“Not really,” Patroclus confessed admittedly.

Pelops pulled a face in a way that conveyed the sentiment: Fair enough. She, for it was a she, bent
her head back and shook out her long, black hair. The locks came tumbling through her fingers,
framing her fey-like face in elfin bangs. She smiled brightly, stars glinting out from eyes so dark
blue they were almost black.

“The name’s Penelope,” she informed him. “Daughter of Icarius of Sparta.”

“Daughter of Icarius?” Patroclus repeated incredulously. “But that’s King Tyndareus’ brother.
You’re a princess?”

“If you like,” Penelope replied, rolling her eyes impatiently. “But before you worry yourself into
anxiety with any notions of kidnap, I am also Odysseus’ wife. And no,” she added before Patroclus
could interrupt. “We did not elope. I assure you the union was quite proper. You never saw a more
boring, conventional, patriarchy-conforming affair. Really, my father was very near balling for
joy.”

“Well that’s a relief,” said Patroclus who seriously doubted whether Phthia could afford another
enemy at this time. “And you’re telling me he’s a hundred percent okay with…erm…all this?”

“What he doesn’t know won’t hurt him,” Penelope shrugged. “And anyway, it’s none of his
business what I do with my life anymore. That’s the wonderful thing about marriage. Once you’ve
passed into your husband’s control you’re no longer under your father’s.”

“And uh,” Patroclus continued, wanting to get things absolutely clear. “Odysseus does actually
know that you’re
a..uh…”

“A woman?” Penelope offered with an amused half-smile. “I should think so. But I can’t say the
same for the crew, although I’m sure one or two of them must have figured it out by now, so I’m
sure you won’t mind keeping this our little secret.”

“Of course,” said Patroclus who really couldn’t picture any scenario in which he regaled the sailors
with the scandalous truth of their cross-dressing first mate.

Penelope grinned again, scratching determinedly at the back of her head. Patroclus surveyed her
meditatively, inwardly marvelling at how knowledge and just a few more inches of hair made her
cheekbones appear suddenly more rounded, the point of her chin sharper, her lashes longer. Still,
despite the physiognomy, he suspected it was her carrying, combined with the clear-faced spring of
one just fresh from girlhood that allowed her to bring it off so well.

“You have no idea what it’s like wearing this thing for three weeks straight,” she informed him,
lifting her cap. “Oh well. Protects from the lice at least.”

“The lice?” Patroclus grimaced.

“You try sharing a small, enclosed space with a hundred and seventy sailors,” Penelope retorted.
“The Aegean sea is no hot spring and men are animals. Long hair is an absolute hazard.”

“Why don’t you just cut it?” asked Patroclus.

“Because then she would be forced to conform to a single way of being,” came a voice at the stable
door. “And my wife likes to have her options open.”

Odysseus was leaning against the wood, his arms folded across his chest and an amused smile on
his brown face. Penelope flashed him a rude hand gesture which he answered with a chuckle.

“So Patroclus,” Odysseus said. “I see you are the fortunate holder of Penelope’s confidences. Tell
me; who do you like better, the first mate or the princess?”

Patroclus looked from one face to the other, his mouth gaping like a fish as he tried to think of a
sensical reply. Both sets of eyes were twinkling at him, as if he were being tested. “Um,” he began.
“I…uh…regret that I have not spent suitable time in either’s company to make an informed
decision.”

Odysseus laughed and Patroclus felt a wave of relief, feeling he had passed. “Good answer,”
Odysseus smiled appreciatively before slinking an arm round Penelope’s slim shoulders. “So,” he
addressed her. “Are we to be having the pleasure of Pelops or Penelope’s company this evening?”

Penelope looked thoughtful, twirling a long strand of hair round her index finger. “Peleus hasn’t
met Penelope yet,” she replied.

Odysseus nodded. “True,” he said. “And I’d hate for that dress you brought to go to waste,
however incongruous it does look on you.”

“You could always wear it,” Penelope countered.

Odysseus cringed mock-regretfully. “I forgot the shoes,” he replied.

Patroclus’ eyes darted between them, watching their interactions with increasing wonder and
bemusement. They were both grinning at each other, as if this was a game they played regularly
and took great amusement in having their fun at the expense of making strangers uncomfortable.
Not that Patroclus felt ill at ease; on the contrary there was something refreshing about these two
strange foreign visitors, unsettling yet exhilarating as a sudden sea breeze.

They walked back to the palace together, Patroclus listening with an enraptured grin as Odysseus
and Penelope bantered and chatted with each other, calling on him only occasionally to ask his
opinion in whatever debate they were having. Achilles was waiting for them by the gates, arms
folded and frowning. He gestured to Odysseus as they approached: “Council in the War Room.
They’re waiting for you,” he said.

Odysseus answered with a courteous bow; Achilles waited for him and Penelope to take the lead in
front of him before falling back into step with Patroclus.

“So?” he asked urgently, voice hushed. “What happened? Did he try anything?”

“What? No!” Patroclus shook his head ardently. “What? Why would you even-”

“Come on,” Achilles rolled his impatiently. “I saw the way he was looking at you. Like he could
eat you up for dinner. And then when he asked for you to ‘show him the stables’ I thought he just
might try-”
“-You are…unfeasible,” said Patroclus in bewilderment. “He was looking at me with interest. As
in with sexless, amicable curiosity. He wanted to talk about horses for Gods’ sake.”

Achilles gave a disbelieving snort. “Right,” he muttered. “I’m so sorry. Please forgive me the next
time I misinterpret a suspicious lone request to an unoccupied space.”

Patroclus sighed, giving him a fond, exasperated look. “Honestly,” he insisted, trying to sound as
emphatic as possible. “I promise. You have nothing to worry about.”

He nodded in the direction of Odysseus and Penelopes’ backs, raising his eyebrows meaningfully.
Achilles’ eyes narrowed perplexedly, then widened as his expression began to clear in
comprehension.

“Ohh,” he said sagely. “I see. Well. Either way, we’d best get to the Council quickly, before
anyone else starts looking at you with amicable curiosity.”

When they arrived at the War Room they found Peleus and the other lords and nobles waiting for
them patiently. Achilles and Patroclus took their places at the king’s right hand while Odysseus
assumed the empty seat next to King Thoas who spared him one look of vague contempt before
fixing his gaze determinedly forward. Looking around the room Patroclus noticed similar
expressions on the faces of some of the other nobles who were surveying Odysseus like something
many-legged that had just scuttled out from a dark corner. Others looked positively delighted at his
arrival, even crossing the room to shake his hand jovially and clasp his shoulder. He and Achilles
exchanged a look; clearly this was someone who was both loved and loathed in equal measure.

“Now that we are all here,” Peleus began. “Let us begin. Acastus, if you would.”

The general inclined his head before turning to address to the room. “First, praise where it is due,”
he announced. “We would never have gained such an advantageous head-start over the Thessalians
had it not been for Prince Achilles’ plan and his excellent command of the home defence. Thanks
to Achilles and Patroclus our losses so far have been limited and our motherland remains under
Phthian rule. It was a risky strategy, however it paid off, avoiding unnecessary loss of life and
dignity. For that, our relief and gratitude are yours.”

He put his strong, sinewy hands together and the rest of the room followed suit in echoing the
applause while Achilles looked on smugly. Achilles snuck a look at Amyntor and Cleitus who both
looked as if they had been forced to gulp down poison. Odysseus however looked fairly impressed
and clapped along amiably. Behind him, Penelope winked outlandishly at Patroclus who tried not
to grin back.

“However,” Acastus pressed on. “We must be careful of getting ahead of ourselves. We have won a
victory yes, but the battle is only half over. Already the Thessalians are well past licking their
wounds; they have rebuilt their forces and will be ready to meet us on the open field in a matter of
days. With the combined armies of Myrmidon, Corinth and Ithaca we number just over fifteen
thousand which will easily prove formidable against Poas’ allies. What possessed him to call on
those backward retrogrades Phokis and Boeotia I’m sure Athena only knows; to be sure there is
little glory in brandishing bronze against sharpened sticks and pointy fruit-”

“-Pardon my lord,” Odysseus interrupted apologetically. “Forgive the effrontery, but your tone
suggests you do not possess sufficient concern over the Thessalian confederates.”

“Concern?” Amyntor raised a scornful eyebrow. “Forgive us Prince Odysseus, I cannot speak for
the Ithacan constitution, but for us slightly more eminent nations the trifling stings of feral tribes
are hardly a matter of concern.”
“And that’s if the Boeotians can pull themselves away from their livestock to fight,” Cleitus
snickered. “Or should I say, out of their livestock.”

The crack was followed by an outburst of loud, exaggerated laughter from the other nobles.
Odysseus waited politely for it to die down before continuing.

“I have little doubt that neither Phokis and Boeotia will prove much of a challenge in the face of
such ‘eminent’ nations, as you say,” he said amiably. “However, I’m afraid I was referring to Poas’
other ally.”

He looked round the room expectantly even as his words were swallowed up by silence. Puzzled
frowns appeared on several faces, including Peleus’ and Acastus’. When the hush remained tensely
unbroken after, Odysseus’ face seemed to fall dramatically.

“Ah,” he groaned. “There’s something you don’t know. But I thought surely you’d have heard…
the news reached us all the way in Ithaca…even the Thebans were talking about it…”

“Speak quickly, son of Laertes, or not at all,” spoke Peleus brusquely.

“My apologies,” said Odysseus regretfully. “It is just…this may come as something of a shock.”

“Quickly,” Thoas snapped.

“Lord Nekros has joined forces with the Thessalians,” Odysseus announced. “He has lent him his
entire legion of retainers and the priceless asset of a brilliant strategic mind and genius cunning in
exchange for one thing,” he paused theatrically, surveying the troubled faces with dark intensity.
“Prince Achilles’ stripped, flayed body, hanging from the rafters of his palace.”

It was as if someone had plunged Patroclus headfirst into icy water. His entire body wracked with
numbing dread, he took a deep gulp of air but found it stuck in his throat. Around him he could see
his emotions displayed on the faces of the nobles, all stricken with horror and disgust. Out of the
corner of his eye Patroclus saw Ampelius drop his great shaggy head into his hands. Acastus
looked as if he had just been struck with a thunderbolt, his eyes wide with shock and disbelief.
Beside him Peleus’ face was grim, his wrinkled mouth thinner than Patroclus had ever seen it.

No one spoke, each man taking in the dreadful impact of Odysseus’ words. At long last, Achilles
broke the silence with a giggle. “‘Stripped’,” he repeated, grinning widely. “What a pervert.”

“Yes, well,” Odysseus resumed. “I think the idea is to take you alive, or at least, conscious enough
so that you still appreciate whatever it is they do to you. Patroclus, you get off a little more lightly,
he just wants your head on a spike. As for Phthia, the citadel will be handed over to King Poeas
and the lands and villages burnt to the ground. It was a rather speedy bargaining process as I heard
it. I’m sorry you two,” he added, addressing Achilles and Patroclus sadly. “No one appreciates your
act of bravery more than I. Followed the story very closely, rooting for you all the way. But it
seems your heroic attempt at overthrowing the oppressive establishment may have made you quite
a few, fairly powerful enemies.”

Odysseus leant back in his chair, arms crossed over his chest with almost sadistic satisfaction.
Patroclus glanced at Achilles who was frowning, although it was difficult to decipher his thoughts.
Furiously, Thoas rounded on Odysseus, eyes flashing. “And how long have you been sitting on this
information?” he demanded. “We’ve been preparing for this battle for weeks, why didn’t you
mention this earlier?”

“I thought you already knew,” Odysseus replied innocently.

“You insufferable, flea-ridden, sea-shitting pirate bastard,” Thoas yelled. “This is a man who we’re
supposed to trust! A whoreson son of a stinking bitch who would rather see our throats slit if it
meant he’d come out on top!”

“I’m really not interested in who tops to be honest,” Odysseus shrugged.

Thoas swore loudly and horribly, causing several people to wince. “Harsh language will get us
nowhere,” said Peleus firmly. “Although I must say Odysseus, the sentiment, although poorly
expressed, is relatable.”

Odysseus made an assenting gesture. “It is a good thing the Gods have seen fit to prepare me with
a few tricks up my sleeve,” he said. “Or my personality might have been truly unforgiveable.”

“We’ll be the judge of that,” Acastus retorted. “Go on. Tell us your plan and we’ll determine the
worth of its merit.”

Patroclus listened with half an ear as Odysseus explained his strategy to the Council, however most
of his attention was on Achilles who was currently deeply invested in chewing off a hangnail. He
could not dismiss the dreadful, unsettling trepidation that had come with Odysseus’ report…the
horrible news that Nekros was out there, biding his time, baying for their blood. For Achilles’
blood. He knew that Achilles feared no mortal man, believed himself to be untouchable either due
to the gift of the Divine or his own ability. But as Patroclus listened to Odysseus speak it began to
dawn on him just how mighty an opponent Nekros really was. Thinking back to the trial, to the
hate-filled promise Nekros had screamed as the jury announced their victory, he felt a jab of
panicky regret. At the time his triumph had seemed like a win; now it had only landed them deeper
in hot water.

Odysseus finished imparting his strategy and the talk moved on to resources, supplies and
numbers. Achilles had now stopped trimming his nails and was listening attentively, only
interrupting occasionally to ask questions. He kept casting flitting glances at Odysseus, as if
anxious for his good opinion. Patroclus, in contrast, could feel his attention beginning to slide. The
threat of Nekros and his resolve for Achilles’ destruction had shaken him and he found that no
matter how hard he tried to concentrate on weapon distribution his mind kept returning to the
sickening image of Achilles, broken and bloody, hanging from the rafters. The thought was almost
unbearable but he couldn’t shake it, it was like it had lodged in his brain as a blaring, grisly
warning. This is what will happen, it seemed to scream. This is the future if you do not do
something.

He sunk lower in his seat, mediating over recent events moodily to himself. The talk turned to army
rations he realised with a deep rumbling in his stomach that he was also very hungry. Thankfully,
by the time Patroclus’ eyelids were just starting to droop, it appeared Peleus was thinking along
similar lines.

“We will continue discussion tomorrow,” he concluded after what could only have been a few
hours but felt like several tiresome days. “For now I think we have had enough grim talk for one
evening. My lords, if you would care to depart and relax before dinner is served. Soon you will be
able to appreciate first-hand the hospitality of the Phthian culture you are helping to protect.”

One by one the lords got to their feet and dismissed themselves with a bow. Achilles waited until
Odysseus and Penelope had risen before approaching them.

“That was some trick,” he said, regarding Odysseus carefully. “Tell me, is it your plan to turn your
own allies against you, as well as the enemy?”
Odysseus chuckled amicably. “While you have already mastered the art of war it seems you have
some way to go in your studies of politics, Prince Achilles,” he replied. “First lesson: if you cannot
make people like you, then you have to make them need you.”

He waved cheerily before turning to follow the other lords out of the room. Penelope smiled
secretively at Patroclus. “See you at dinner,” she said before following suit.

Achilles watched them go thoughtfully, chewing his lip as he mulled over what Odysseus had said.
Catching his frown, Patroclus nudged him playfully in the ribs. “Come on,” he said. “We should
get ready.”

oOo

Celebrations in the Great Hall were always majestic affairs, however with the black cloud of
impending war hanging over the festivities there was a necessity for forced joviality which resulted
in this feast being even more outrageous than usual. Peleus, clearly embarrassed about having to
call for help from foreign leaders, pulled out all the stops to show his allies that Phthia was still a
nation of strength and unity, proven by displays of lavish expense and several initiatives to make
the guests “as comfortable as possible.” And so when Achilles and Patroclus came down for dinner
that evening they were faced with a circus-like cacophony of musicians, jugglers, dancing girls and
exotic “entertainers” whose bright scarves and golden bells set the Hall alight in a riot of colour
and sound.

The guests were seated at the highest of the tables, although Patroclus observed that someone had
wisely calculated a wide berth between Thoas and Odysseus. Achilles took the place Peleus had
provided for him next to the latter leaving Patroclus to take an empty seat next to Penelope.

“Good evening,” she greeted him with her trademark roguish smile. “Don’t you look dashing.”

Patroclus gave her the once-over. She was wearing a midnight blue dress, the straps of which
fastened round her neck where a silver torque also hung. Silver bracelets dangled from her slender
wrists like the rings of planets and her long, jet black hair hung loosely braided over her bare
shoulders. For the life of him, Patroclus could not see how he had ever mistaken her for a man.
“One could say the same,” he replied. “Aren’t you worried that people will…you know. Ask
questions?”

“I love questions,” Penelope shrugged, taking a sip from her goblet. “You’d be surprised at my
capacity for tolerance. I’ve had to put up with some very rude ones in my time. As it happens, it
appears there’s little need tonight. Not one person has paid me any mind since I sat down. I’m just
another unnamed woman at the table.”

Patroclus, conscious of the many admiring glances Penelope was receiving from across the room,
remembered Leptine’s experiences with distaste. “Wouldn’t you feel more comfortable dressed as a
man?” he nodded towards the upper end of the table. “You could join in with the conversation.”

At the other end it seemed the war talk had resumed ahead of schedule. Penelope pulled a face.
“There’s only so much testosterone-fuelled, aggressively-masculine diatribe I can stomach,” she
said dismissively. “Just because I enjoy the opportunities available to me as Pelops doesn’t mean I
don’t have better things to do than listen to men arguing about the best ways to kill one another.
Honestly, I’d rather weave for Arcadia and impale myself on my own spindle than be forced to
listen to another Big Dick Contest.”

She gave Patroclus a scrutinising glance from behind the rim of her goblet. “And unless I’m very
much mistaken, the same goes for you,” she observed. “Why else would you be talking to me, the
little wife, when you could be up there grabbing a tape measure?”

“Because you’re an interesting person to talk to,” mumbled Patroclus with a blush. “And besides,
it’s not that I’m not interested in military matters. It just seems there’s been little time for anything
else recently. It gets tedious, and more than a little depressing.”

“Fair enough,” said Penelops. “So then, we are agreed? No more war talk?”

She raised her goblet in proposition. Patroclus grinned and knocked it with his own. “Agreed.”

Twenty minutes later, they had barely started in on their first course and it had become blatantly
clear to Patroclus that he had made a very good call in sitting next to Penelope. If first impressions
hadn’t been evidence enough, it was soon apparent that she was unlike any person he had ever
known. He had been brought up with the expectations that highborn women were to be modest,
demure, and discouraged from voicing their opinions in the company of men, if indeed they had
any.

In this respect, and indeed in most, Penelope defied every single convention. She was loud, brash
and assertive with absolutely no qualms about expressing herself in any way that she saw fit, which
frequently resulted in Patroclus shooting anxious looks over his shoulder to check if anyone had
overheard. An extension of her fierce intelligence, she also possessed a very quick wit which she
used to regale the table with scandalous stories that sent the heat rising into Patroclus’ cheeks and
provoked several urges to crawl under the table.

Apart from the unsolicited insights into her sex life, Patroclus learned a great deal about Penelope’s
past; what it was like to be a girl child growing up in Sparta, her ravenous appetite for adventure,
her relationship with her family, especially with her cousins: Clytemnestra and Helen, whom she
regarded almost as sisters.

“Of course it was difficult sometimes,” she told him, rolling her eyes. “Growing up with Helen.
Imagine me: an ugly, black-haired, lanky-limbed thing with dirty knees bloody from climbing trees
and stealing birds’ eggs all day. Compare that to Helen, the little dove, all pink and white and gold
in her pretty dresses. You should have seen how the boys fawned over her, like she was Aphrodite
herself.’Nestra and I; we used to pull her hair and cut the heads off her dolls.’Nestra had it much
worse than I did, though. At least I have to put on breeches to look the part.”

Patroclus let out a loud guffaw of laughter even as Odysseus looked up from the other end of the
table. “Are you being ungracious about your womenfolk again, my wife?” he called. He looked at
Patroclus and winked. “To this day I ask the Gods why I didn’t pick the youngest daughter of
Sparta instead.”

“You make it sound as if the choice was yours to make,” Penelope retorted. “You should thank
those same Gods I was the only daughter of Sparta who would have you.”

Odysseus laughed good naturedly. “There is truth to that,” he nodded. “Although I have to say,
despite her aesthetic charms Helen was never really my type. I like my women to have at least
something going on in their heads.”

“She’s as vapid and silly as a lamb,” Penelope agreed. “Although I really shouldn’t bitch. It’s
really down to her that we are got together. Helen had a lot of suitors,” she explained in response to
Patroclus’ confusion. “Her father Tyndareus asked Odysseus to think of a way to prevent a fight
from breaking out, in exchange for his putting in a good word for him with my father, to secure my
hand.”
“And of course, my incomparable genius was more than up to the task,” Odysseus piped up.

“Ah yes,” Penelope rolled her eyes. “An oath! How original! How inspired! How truly, earth-
shatteringly ground-breaking! In fact, I’d go as far as to call it the greatest innovation since the
wheel!”

Odysseus shrugged casually, apparently unbothered by the sarcasm. “Worked, didn’t it?”

Penelope rolled her eyes again. “We’ll see,” she said. “Helen never learned how to be happy with
herself. She doesn’t know what she wants. And that means she’s going to keep looking for it, after
she’s got what she can out of Menelaus. Forget a woman, that man couldn’t satisfy a hole in the
ground-”

“-Oh my God,” cried Patroclus, dropping his head in his hands. “Change the subject, please.”

As Penelope tittered the music grew louder and quickened its pace. Suddenly the centre of the Hall
had been taken over by dancing girls, exhibiting their talents for the guests who crowed
appreciatively, tossing lewd remarks and golden coins alike into the ring. At the head of the throng
danced Pamaia, looking beautiful as ever in a flimsy silk costume that only barely clung to her
voluptuous figure. She flashed Patroclus a scornful glance from beneath kohl-lined lids before
engaging King Thoas.

Patroclus followed her roving hips with ill-disguised animosity. Catching his darkened expression,
Penelope raised an eyebrow. “Well she’s certainly very pretty,” she remarked. “Am I sensing a
little past history?”

“No,” replied Patroclus shortly. Penelope raised the other eyebrow. Patroclus sighed. “Yes,” he
amended admittedly. “We don’t get on.”

“Can’t imagine why,” said Penelope sweetly as Pamaiamoved from grinding against Thoas to
stroke Achilles’ throat.

Patroclus followed her gaze and felt a lump stick in his oesophagus. He made to get to his feet but
Penelope grasped his wrist with a flash. “Sit down,” she told him quietly. “Don’t make a scene.
What are you going to do, yank him away from his lap dance so you can lecture him on fidelity?”

“Maybe,” Patroclus muttered through gritted teeth. Achilles was laughing as the silk tickled his
chin. He felt something inside him squirm in protest.

“Well you can’t,” said Penelope bluntly. “Look around you. He’s surrounded by some of his
father’s most eminent guests and allies. This is exactly what Odysseus was talking about earlier.
Politics. He has an image to preserve. He’s got to play the part.”

Pamaia was holding both of Achilles’ hands in hers. The waterfall of her hair was brushing against
his chest, her hips were almost directly aligned with his. Patroclus swallowed hard.

Penelope, clearly noticing his pain, softened her tone. “It’s hard I know,” she said. “Whenever
Odysseus went away on one of his voyages I would wonder what new girl he would meet; on an
island, or another ship, or on the other side of the world. Every time he left I’d wonder if that was
the last I’d ever see him. And whenever he returned with a new trinket for me I’d ask myself
which woman he took it from, whether it was in exchange for something or if he’d stole it from her
while she slept.”

She paused and Patroclus looked up at her. Her voice had been factual, devoid of all emotion and
there was nothing that betrayed feeling in her eyes. She made an airy gesture. “It’s shit,” she
continued. “But what can you do? Nothing, except remember that it doesn’t count. All these other
girls, boys, whatever, they don’t mean anything. You have to bear in mind that it’s you he loves,
you he’s chosen to be with. Anything else is just political, or silliness. It doesn’t matter. In this
case, you have even less to worry about. All he’s got to do is look interested in that wet thing
between her legs for a few minutes while the others pat him on a shoulder and tell him what a ‘lad’
he is. She’s a slave girl. A prop. A test, if you will. It’s not like he has to actually do anything.”

“Really?” Patroclus asked hopefully.

Penelope nodded. “Sure,” she shrugged. “Now, if she was a noblewoman or a princess it would be
another matter. Then he might actually have to marry her. That would be really shit. But there’s
little chance of that with this one.”

This was true. Although Pamaia liked to act as though she could mould the world around her like
clay to her perfumed hands it was worth remembering that, in the great scheme of things, she had
very little real power at all. In fact, much of her bravado was probably compensation for the
knowledge that, despite her image of empowerment, she was and would always be a prisoner.
Realising this, Patroclus tried to relax and ignore her ministrations, an easier feat when she finally
moved away from Achilles’ torso.

Eventually the dancers dispersed and Patroclus resumed his conversation, casting only a few wary
glances in Achilles’ direction. He was currently engrossed in discussion with Odysseus and was
paying no heed to Pamaia, even as she continued to send him sultry looks from across the room.
Patroclus resolved to banish it from his mind, there was no need to bring it up later. As Penelope
had said, she was only a pawn. There was little real damage she could actually do. A few minutes
later he was enjoying himself again and was just beginning to feel pleasantly sleepy with food and
alcohol when King Thoas stood up, clapping his hands to call the Hall to silence.

“My friends,” he proclaimed in a heavy, important voice. “Great thanks to your generous
hospitality, the joys of which must be comparable to the feasts of the Gods in Olympus in their
golden halls! It is an honour and a privilege for Corinth to ally with such a country of big hearts
and full bellies!”

A heart cheer followed his words and Patroclus applauded along with the rest until Thoas raised
his hands again in order to continue his speech. “In return for such pleasures and bounties,” he
went on. “I have already placed my kinship and loyalty. However, neither of those virtues are quite
so pleasing to the eye as anything King Peleus has offered so far!”

He reached for one of the slave girls who was carrying a jug of wine and pinched her playfully on
the backside, causing her to yelp. Patroclus noticed Odysseus and Penelope exchange a black look.

“And so,” Thoas continued. “In order to seal the deal inflexibly, I make to you King Peleus an
offer. My daughter Chloē’s hand in marriage to your fine son, Achilles. Even as our two families
shall be come one, so will the alliance between Corinth and Phthia be ever stronger and thus our
defence against Thessaly!”

He threw his hands up into the air and a mighty clamour erupted. People jumped out of their seats
in celebration, diving across the table to wring the hands of Thoas or Peleus or Achilles. The music
started up again, ten times louder than before. Thoas and Peleus were clasped in an embrace and
toasting to the future of their children. Beside them, Achilles sat slumped in his chair, his face
deathly white as though he had just been stricken.

Penelope turned to Patroclus and her dark eyes were wide. “Fuck,” she said.
 Chloē

“Patroclus, wait!”

Patroclus ignored him, tearing up the spiral steps three at a time. Behind him he could hear
Achilles’ breath, only slightly laboured as he chased after him, the clatter of his desperate feet loud
on the stone. “Patroclus, come on! This isn’t my fault!”

Upon reaching the top, Patroclus did not hesitate before yanking open the door to their bedroom
and trying to slam it shut. However Achilles, with all his God-given speed, was only a few seconds
behind him and succeeded in jamming his foot in the door. Seething with frustration, Patroclus
attempted to force it closed but Achilles was fighting on the other side, his superior size, weight
and strength overwhelmingly weighing out. They struggled for a few moments as Patroclus
stubbornly wrestled with the handle until with a final push from Achilles’ end it went flying open
and Patroclus stumbled backwards into the room.

“Patroclus,” said Achilles again breathing deeply, although Patroclus suspected this was more with
the effort of trying to keep calm than from real exertion. “Come on, listen to me. I didn’t know
about her, I promise.”

“Really,” jeered Patroclus, voice heavy with disbelief. “You expect me to believe you spent the
whole of dinner sitting at the ‘lad’s end’ with Thoas and your father and she never came up once?”

“I didn’t know about her,” Achilles repeated and now his eyes were flaring. “Gods’ teeth, can you
not imagine my reaction if I had?”

“I imagine it would be similar to your very firm response to the announcement,” replied Patroclus
sarcastically. “Where you sat there and said nothing.”

“What was I supposed to do?” Achilles shouted. “Stand up, make a big scene, declare that the only
person I want to spend the rest of my life with is you? Do you know what that would have done to
the alliance? To my father? He has put everything he has into negotiating with these people, these
men from greater lands who look down at us as a mountain on a tussock. Do you think I want to be
the son who destroys all of that for his own selfishness? You were the one who told me I needed to
recognise there was a bigger picture beyond my own desires. You were the one who said that a man
has to make sacrifices.”

“Well yes,” said Patroclus exasperatedly, rolling his eyes. “But I didn’t mean me.”

“There was nothing I could have done but sit it out,” Achilles continued as if he hadn’t heard him.
“Be courteous. Play the part. To have done otherwise would have been to offer Thoas insult-”

“-And I bet that required a major effort on your part,” Patroclus flared up. “To sit there and put on a
brave face. ‘Oh no, I’m being forced to marry a beautiful princess with a massive dowry and half a
kingdom behind her, what a shame, I’m so, so sad…’”

“We don’t know that she’s beautiful,” Achilles muttered.

Patroclus seized Achilles’ kithara from his bedside table and aimed to throw it.

“Wait, stop, stop,” Achilles rushed at him, waving his hands frantically. “Calm down, you’re being
stupid-”
“-Yeah that’s right,” nodded Patroclus, raising the kithara threateningly. “Stupid old Patroclus,
Achilles’ stupid friend. Stupid enough to think that you actually cared more about me than your
status or your image-”

“THIS IS NOT ABOUT THAT!” Achilles yelled, clutching at locks of his own hair in frustration.
“For fuck’s sake Patroclus, do you even know how short-sighted you sound? How petty?”

“Fix it Achilles, fix it,” said Patroclus warningly, the hand that held onto the kithara white and
shaking.

“I had to sit it out,” Achilles repeated, struggling with the effort of keeping his voice level. “For the
time being. It would not have done to have made a scene there. But I swear to you: first thing
tomorrow morning I will go to Peleus, I will speak to him and I will call off the engagement.”

Patroclus held the kithara in the air but did not throw it. “You…you will go to Peleus?”

“I will,” Achilles nodded. “I promise, I will sort it. I don’t want to marry her, Patroclus.”

His face was very open, plaintive, his eyes wide and beseeching. Patroclus lowered his arm, feeling
suddenly bashful. “Not…not even if she is very beautiful?” he mumbled.

“Not if she were Aphrodite herself,” replied Achilles with a slight smile, stepping forward.

“Not even if she could bare you lots of children?” insisted Patroclus. “And came with a thousand
silver tripods?”

“I don’t care about children,” Achilles had advanced, he was standing right in front of him now.
“And I wouldn’t know what to do with a tripod.”

He raised a hand to cup Patroclus’ jaw, his green eyes bearing down on his with almost solemn
intensity. “Now will you be satisfied?” he asked quietly.

Patroclus let out a shaky breath, allowing his shoulders to sag. “Alright,” he exhaled. “But you’d
better sort it.”

Achilles made a hum of assent in Patroclus’ hair, bending to fit his head in the crook between his
neck and shoulder. Patroclus closed his eyes even as Achilles’ other hand enclosed around the one
that held onto the instrument.

“What were you going to do with this?” he murmured amusedly against the shell of his ear.

Patroclus’ gaze flitted to where Achilles had a tight hold on his fists and back up again. “I don’t
know,” he confessed. “Hit you with it.”

Achilles made a tut-tutting, reproving sound. “That would not have been friendly,” he admonished,
his hands moving efficiently to work off Patroclus’ belt. “I would have had second thoughts about
giving you your other present.”

“Is it another one I have to share?” quipped Patroclus.

Achilles halted on Patroclus’ belt and fixed him with a hard look. Patroclus felt a squirm of nervous
excitement, watching as his lip curled with distaste.

“I thought we had agreed to drop the subject,” he spoke, his voice dangerously low. “Clearly you
are still under allusions that I do not care for you.”
“Accept nothing without proof, remember?” retorted Patroclus challengingly.

“I will make you let this go,” replied Achilles and suddenly, without warning, Patroclus found
himself with his back against the wall, his arms pinned up above his head by Achilles’ wrist. He
tried to wriggle free but Achilles held him hard, one eyebrow crooked in admonishment.

“Naughty,” he said, smacking his cheek lightly. “My Patroclus, just when are you going to learn to
do as you are told?”

Patroclus opened his mouth to respond but was thwarted by Achilles sealing it with his own.
Against his own resolution he found his limbs relaxing, his defiance melting away at the hot,
unyielding insistence of Achilles’ tongue. His mouth opened beneath him, eager for more pressure,
for more exploration and Achilles obliged, pressing him harder against the wall until there was
barely room to breathe. He was heavy; Patroclus could feel the plane of his stomach muscles
pressing into his own torso as his shoulders towered over him, making him painfully aware of how
much smaller he was in comparison. Patroclus gave an involuntary shiver as Achilles moved to
stroke his ear with his tongue.

“That’s better,” Achilles purred, nipping his earlobe. “Perhaps I will give you your present after
all.”

“I…ah,” Patroclus struggled to enunciate as Achilles set his mouth to the skin just an inch away
from his throat, worrying it with his lips and teeth. Patroclus’ hands, now free, settled themselves
in Achilles’ hair, holding him there as his breathing grew increasingly laboured. Patroclus’ eyes
rolled back into his skull, gasping as Achilles sucked harder at his skin, the hint of teeth behind it
almost enough to push him over the edge. Absently Patroclus stroked the back of his head, if
nothing else to take his mind off Achilles’ red, wet mouth on his flesh before he came in his
chiton…

Suddenly with an obscene wet, suctioning sound Achilles had released his neck and was sinking to
his knees. Patroclus watched with confusion as Achilles positioned himself before Patroclus,
placing two hands on his thighs and rolling the hem of his chiton upwards. “What are you doing,”
Patroclus managed to gasp.

Achilles replied by smacking him, harder, on the side of his thigh. “No talking,” he ordered.
Patroclus watched, eyes wide in dumb wonder as Achilles lifted his chiton and stroked once down
the length of his cock before taking him in his mouth.

At once, all thought shot out of Patroclus’ head. Everything that had happened over the past few
hours; Penelope, Odysseus, the princess Chloē disappeared into insignificance. Nothing existed
anymore but for the indescribable feeling that arose from the hot, wetness of Achilles’ mouth on
him, sucking him slowly as he had on his neck just moments before. Patroclus’ head fell back
against the wall, exposing his throat but he kept his eyes on Achilles, Achilles on his knees with his
hair tangled and messy around his face and a heady look in his eye. Within a few moments,
Patroclus was panting and babbling like a madman.

“Bloody shitting…fuck Hell…don’t think this means I’m not still angry…ah...with you…you’re a
dirty…enfgh…cheating wanker bastard…fuck…don’t know why I keep you…ah don’t stop
DON’T STOP…I’m gonna…”

Hot, curling sensation was building up in Patroclus’ lower stomach, barely containable. Achilles
chuckled and the hum of the vibrations sent waves of pleasure shooting up the shaft; Patroclus
groaned audibly and gritted his teeth. Then Achilles swiped his tongue over the tip and with a
shout Patroclus came like a thunderbolt, head slamming backwards into the wall. Bright lights
were popping up at the corners of his vision, the world was a blur, he was nearly blind with
pleasure.

Achilles swallowed it all down before wiping his mouth with the back of his hand and getting to
his feet. He was grinning. Patroclus was shaking, hair plastered to his skull with sweat and skin in
flames, burning brightly as if he had a fever. Gently, Achilles peeled him from the wall and
enveloped him against his chest, holding him there tightly until the shaking had subsided.

“There you go sweetheart,” he crooned softly as Patroclus’ breathing slowly became regular.
“There you go. Good man.”

Patroclus tried to speak but could only manage a pitiful mewling sort of noise. Achilles chuckled
and carefully led him into the bed, wrapping the covers firmly around them both. The moment
Patroclus’ head touched the pillow he felt the beginnings of sleep crashing around him, stealing
itself upon his now fragile limbs within seconds. Achilles smoothed the damp hair away from his
forehead and stroked his knuckles with his thumb.

“Where did you learn that?” Patroclus breathed drowsily.

His eyes were closed but he could still see Achilles’ smile. “Been dreaming about doing it to you
for a while,” he said. “I guessed your nerves might benefit from a kiss down there.”

“Good guess,” replied Patroclus. He could still feel tendrils of warmth curling in his abdomen. He
shifted closer to Achilles needily who laughed and wrapped an arm possessively around his torso.

“There you are,” Achilles grinned. “You needn’t worry about losing me to anyone else. You have,
most assuredly, succeeded in making yourself mine.”

“You will fix it tomorrow, won’t you?” Patroclus yawned. “You don’t lie to me.”

“I don’t,” Achilles agreed. “Except…well. It’s possible I might have done once.”

But Patroclus was fast asleep before he had a chance to ask when.

oOo

When Patroclus woke up the next morning the bed was empty and Achilles was nowhere to be
seen. At first he was disappointed, then he remembered that he must have already gone to set
things straight with Peleus. Patroclus hoped Achilles’ refusal to marry the princess would not be
enough to drive a wedge between father and son, or between Phthia and Corinth but his anxieties
were superseded by a cool wave of relief that he would not have to hand Achilles over to anyone
else just yet.

He climbed out of bed and stretched, pleasantly aware of a sunny, warm feeling inside him that he
assumed must have something to do with last night. Grinning shamelessly, he made his way down
to breakfast. Leptine was standing at the door, holding a large tray of summer fruits. Patroclus
grabbed a peach from the stack and greeted her cheerily, prompting her to raise a curious eyebrow.

“What are you so happy about?” she asked.

Patroclus shrugged. “Nice day,” he replied airily. “Come over here, I want you to meet someone.”

Leptine followed him warily over to where Penelope and Odysseus were sitting, the latter engaged
in avid conversation with the man on his right while his wife played idly with an olive on her plate,
looking bored. Her face lit up as Patroclus approached and she nudged her husband.
“Don’t mind me for a bit dear,” she told him. “I’m just going to flirt outrageously with Menoitides
for a little while.”

“Whatever makes you happy dear,” Odysseus answered before resuming his conversation.

Penelope rolled her eyes before bringing them back to Patroclus. It was difficult to tell what style
she was going for today; although she wore a loose linen tunic with embroidered flowers that were
clearly supposed to be feminine, her legs were clad in a pair of men’s riding breaches. Either way,
she fixed Patroclus with a very womanish look after glancing him up and down, a look identical to
the one Leptine had just given him.

“Well, well,” she intoned. “Someone gained great favour with the Fates last night.”

Leptine goggled at him as he blushed from toe to root. “I…how would you know…”

“Please Patroclus, it’s written all over your eager teenaged face,” said Penelope. “Good work.
Although I’d have thought the events of last night might have put a bit of a dampener on the
mood.”

“Achilles is sorting it,” Patroclus assured her. “He’s gone to see the king now to call off the
engagement amicably.”

Penelope’s expression read, quite clearly: Good luck with that. However, she did not press the
matter but instead gestured at Leptine. “I suppose you’re going to introduce me to your friend?” she
said. “Or did you just come over here to boast your good fortune?”

Patroclus hurriedly introduced Leptine before Penelope had a chance to quiz him on the more
intimate details of his relationship. As expected, she appeared not the least bit perturbed that his
best friend was a slave although she did raise her other eyebrow inquisitively, as if wondering how
such a friendship could be born out of such circumstances. She asked her a great deal of questions
about Anatolia, particularly concerning their horse culture, and was especially pleased when
Leptine informed her that in her village they had even had a horse God.

“Sometimes I wonder why I don’t just move East,” Penelope said wistfully after listening to
Leptine describe the festival of Sozon. “Horse Gods and matriarchy. It sounds like a utopia.”

“Only a few cities are actually ran by women,” Leptine told her. “Although a lot of the land is de
facto owned by the Amazons. They can’t really have a legal right to it though, because they don’t
stay in one place but move around everywhere on horseback.”

After that Penelope’s eyes glazed over and they couldn’t get much more out of her, although
Patroclus did hear her whisper to Odysseus a few minutes later something that sounded strangely
like: “Can I divorce you and live as a lesbian Amazon horsewoman?”

Leptine had the morning off, so after breakfast she and Patroclus decided to go for a walk in the
grounds. The morning air was crisp and balmy and smelled pleasantly of wood smoke. As they
passed the stables Patroclus realised he was feeling relaxed and at peace with the world, a
sensation he’d never guessed he’d ever be feeling again after Thoas’ announcement at dinner.
Patroclus wasted no time in relating the situation to Leptine, however rather than looking reassured
and confident as he felt, she bit her lip anxiously.

“Oh Patroclus,” she began. “Do you…do you really think he’ll succeed?”

Patroclus looked at her perplexedly. “Of course he will,” he said, as if she had just asked him the
colour of the sky. “No one can make Achilles do something he doesn’t want to. Plus, Peleus dotes
on him, even more so since his plan worked out against Thessaly. He could ask for a pet chimaera
and he’d probably say yes. Besides, what sort of parent would force their child into a marriage they
don’t want anyway?”

“I suppose,” said Leptine, still looking unconvinced.

Her doubtful expression was making Patroclus depressed so he decided to change the subject.

“So, Penelope eh?” he grinned. “What do you think of her?”

Leptine answered without hesitation. “I think she’s fantastic,” she said. “Quite a…um…character.
She’s very…outspoken, isn’t she?”

“She knows her own mind,” Patroclus laughed, nodding at what had to be the biggest
understatement of the Bronze Age.

“And that’s ok with her husband?” Leptine raised an eyebrow. “I don’t think I’ve ever heard of a
marriage where the woman can do and say as she pleases. Doesn’t Odysseus mind?”

“No I don’t think so,” Patroclus shook his head. “In fact, I think he quite likes it. They amuse each
other. It’s a very equal sort of partnership.”

Leptine nodded and a melancholy look came into her eye. “Yes, that’s the way all relationships
should be I find,” she said sadly.

Patroclus snuck a look at Leptine out of the corner of his eye. She was scuffing the ground with her
foot, avoiding his gaze. Patroclus hadn’t asked but from what he gathered things hadn’t moved any
further with Deiomachus but were at a bit of a standstill: she was still refusing to let him into bed
with her and he was becoming increasingly frustrated, although Patroclus thought it was more out
of hurt that she didn’t trust him than anything else. Privately, Patroclus suspected Leptine might
feel better if she took her chances while they were hot instead of waiting for them to cool. If
women always waited for a man to show signs that he wasn’t about to bolt at the first opportunity
then no one would have any children. But then, he reminded himself, he was a man himself and
free, so he really didn’t have any right to an opinion on the subject.

They walked across the playing field and then back round towards the main gates, Leptine
entertaining him with tales from the servants’ quarters, including Loras’ recent exploits with a
married woman from the town. Apparently the caduceus was really doing something for his sex
appeal. She was just splitting his sides with a particularly apt impression of the official-semi-
fulltime-messenger-official when they noticed a long train of people, filing in through the palace
entrance. They halted curiously, observing that they all seemed to be carrying possessions: a
carved bedstead, an embroidered cushion, a harp, hunting dogs and silky cats, and what had to be
at least a hundred tripods.

“What do you reckon?” Patroclus asked Leptine who shrugged in bewilderment.

There was one young man at the back of the line, wearing a servant’s chiton, who appeared to be
struggling with a particularly heavy trunk. Patroclus and Leptine rushed over to him, each of them
taking hold of either side. “Here, let us help you with that.”

“Thank you,” said the servant gratefully, wiping sweat of his brow with a free hand. “I was just
thinking how magnificent it would be if I gave myself a hernia.”

“Have you had to walk very far with it?” asked Leptine.
The servant shook his head. “The wagon did most of the work,” he replied. “It is only a short
distance away, up that road there.”

He gestured in the direction of the dirt path that led into the town and beyond. Patroclus saw that
there was more than one wagon parked there, and it was from these that the servants were
unloading.

“Four wagons,” Patroclus counted. “Wow. You definitely have a job ahead of you.”

“You’re telling me,” the servant grumbled.

They lugged the heavy trunk through the palace doors and into the main building, which, even
with the three of them, was no easy feat. Patroclus began to reflect that his act of kindness might
have been a little too impulsive, particularly when, upon asking where he wanted it, the servant
pointed up the stairs.

“Gods-on-a-Mountain what’s in this thing?” Patroclus panted, sweat dripping down his neck to
mark the stone steps. “Rocks?”

“Just your standard haul of treasure,” the servant replied. “Lots of jewellery; golden necklaces,
rings, brooches etcetera, then a few goblets, coins, bolts of silk. Then you’ve got your precious
gems: rubies, sapphires, garnets, a few opals…”

“So rocks, then,” snapped Leptine, gritting her teeth over a particularly high step.

Finally, they came to a room on the third floor; Patroclus just had time to register that it was, in
fact, one of the best guest rooms in the entire palace before they set the chest down and he felt
nothing but a wave of sweet relief. The servant wiped his sweaty hair out of his eyes and bent
backwards, producing a loud and satisfying click.

“Thank you two for your help,” he addressed them. “Unfortunately I’m not quite sure how to repay
you unless…well…would you like a tripod?”

“We’re all good,” Patroclus answered with a smile. “But can you tell us…who is it that’s staying
here? It must be a guest of great stature, to have all of this brought up for a temporary visit.”

He gestured to the room around him which was stuffy with unburdened cargo. The servant’s brow
knitted together in a frown. “Great stature is correct,” he nodded slowly. “But I should be very
displeased if the visit turned out to be temporary, after that effort. Luckily I have faith in Princess
Chloē’s stamina, and her intentions for an extensive marriage.”

Patroclus felt as though he had left his stomach back at the foot of the stairs. Next to him he could
sense Leptine’s look of horror. The servant, noticing nothing, thanked them again and hurried out
of the room in order to help shift the load of the other wagons. By the time the echo of his
footsteps had faded away, Patroclus had recovered and was now shaking his head regretfully.

“Are you okay?” Leptine asked him tentatively.

“Yeah,” he answered heavily. “I just feel so sorry for that poor girl, having to come all the way
from Corinth for nothing. Achilles will have talked to Peleus and pulled out of the engagement by
now and she’ll have no idea. Bless her, I bet she was really looking forward to a nice big wedding.
And when you think of the servants having to reload all of this stuff…it’s sad really.”

Leptine gawked at him but when he continued to do nothing but shake his head out of sorry
compassion for the disappointed princess she obviously thought it best to say nothing.
They spent the rest of the morning outside, laying lazily in the grass and watching the world go by,
the sunshine warm and yellow on their bellies. When they had grown tired of pointing out the
shapes of clouds or cooking up schemes to get Pamaia sent away from the palace, each one more
ludicrous than the last, Patroclus remembered he had wanted to show her the chariot. They jumped
up to look for Achilles, as Patroclus strongly doubted that he’d approve of his using it without him,
and headed back toward the palace foyer.

Inside they were greeted by a cacophony of people, all huddled around something that Patroclus
could not see. Servants and retainers were darting this way and that, some lugging around what he
assumed were more of the princess’ possessions. Thoas was there with his thumbs tucked into his
belt, beaming indulgently at everyone and so was Peleus, smiling welcomingly at whomever
flashed by. He reached into the throng to clasp someone’s hand; Patroclus caught a glimpse of a
dainty palm, glittering with expensive-looking rings.

Odysseus was standing at the edge of the swarm, his arms crossed over his chest. Patroclus went
and stood next to him, craning his neck for a sight of the princess. “Where’s Penelope?” he asked.

“Playing another part,” Odysseus answered with a nod of his head and Patroclus realised she was
the one blocking his view. She was wearing another dress, dark green, stately and elegant and he
had not recognised her.

Suddenly Penelope moved to her right and for the first time the celebrated Princess Chloē came
into full view. She was wearing a dress of shocking pink bordered with gold, luminescent against
the tresses of her hair which hung in loose, honey-coloured curls. Her skin was honey-coloured too,
smooth and clear. Her eyes were large and dark and she was smiling, showing beautiful white
teeth.

“Oh she’s lovely,” Patroclus winced, ever-more regretfully. “How is she taking it?”

Odysseus shrugged. “In her stride,” he replied. “I should think she’s used to it by now. She is a
princess, after all.”

“Yes that’s true,” Patroclus murmured. “I suppose she’s had her fair share of disappointment.”

Odysseus wrinkled his nose, glancing down at Patroclus with bemusement. “Disappointment?” he
repeated confusedly. “I’m not sure I’d say that’s the first thing she’s feeling. Gods know Achilles
is no fishing trip but I should think at the moment she’s simply relieved he is not ugly or forty-
five.”

Patroclus stared, wide-eyed at Odysseus. “What,” he said in hushed tones. “Is that the kind of thing
they’re into in Corinth?”

Odysseus stared back at Patroclus as if he had gone insane. “What the hell are you on about?” he
asked, dazed.

Patroclus was saved from answering, and so from confirming Odysseus’ suspicions of madness, by
a sudden loud bark of his name. “Patroclus!”

They both whipped round to see Achilles running towards them. His eyes were wide and he looked
frantic. He opened his mouth and closed it a few times before he was able to speak and when he
did so his voice came out hoarse and dry. “There’s…um…” he began. “There’s been a…slight
hiccough-”

“-AND THERE HE IS!” Thoas boomed, holding out the arm that wasn’t around his daughter to
embrace Achilles. “The lucky groom-to-be! Achilles, come and meet your betrothed!”

Achilles gulped and darted a look at Patroclus. In all the time he had known him, Patroclus had
never seen him look so terrified. And for very good reason.

“You perfect little bitch,” Patroclus hissed.

Achilles swallowed again.

oOo

The fight that followed was the biggest Achilles and Patroclus had ever had. Slaves downstairs
cringed and cowered at the thunderous clamour coming from their room, the ear-splitting shouts
punctuated only by the sounds of breaking furniture. Their voices rang throughout the palace like
the crack of a storm through trees, echoing off the marble until the suggestion was put forward to
send someone up there to quieten them. There were, however, no volunteers.

According to Achilles, Peleus had simply refused to call of the marriage, stating that etiquette
dictated only Thoas could recall the proposal, having been the one to put it forward. Were Phthia to
back out now, Corinth would take it as a personal affront and any hopes of alliance would be
immediately shattered. It was simply impossible, Peleus had emphasised. Unless Corinth were to
withdraw the hand of their princess, the wedding had to go ahead.

Patroclus, however, had a different theory. He maintained that, rather than trying his utmost to
persuade his father, Achilles had taken one look at Chloē and made a U-turn, a suggestion that
Achilles took rather less than positively. This led to accusations of Patroclus being paranoid and
untrusting which he responded to with scorn.

“I’M PARANOID?!” he screamed indignantly. “Who was the one who dipped Leptine’s mop in
yoghurt?? And what about that retainer you tried to have exiled for saying that I had, and I quote,
‘a good arm’??”

“THAT WAS A TOTALLY DIFFERENT SITUATION!” Achilles yelled back.

“IN WHAT WAY?”

“BECAUSE…BECAUSE I DIDN’T KNOW YOU KNEW ABOUT THAT!”

The conversation ended with a splintered kithara and a slammed door as Patroclus stormed out
looking thunderous, into the living room where Penelope was sitting, perched on a couch and
apparently deeply engrossed in a scroll of poetry. Half an hour later, tears were falling thickly into
her lap as Patroclus sobbed heartily. Half a dozen empty wine jugs littered the carpet.

“Come on now,” Penelope crooned, patting him somewhat awkwardly. “It’s not that bad. There’s
no reason why a silly thing like marriage should stop you two being together, Arrangements like
these exist all over the country! What do you think I do whenever Odysseus goes off to war?”

“He will-hic-leave-hic-me!” Patroclus wailed helplessly. “You’ll see, once he’s got a-hic-a nice
young bride to-hic-keep him occupied and he’s had his-hic-first-hic-child he’ll lose-hic-interest-
hic-he’ll fuck off and I’ll-hic-have to become-hic-a virgin-hic-priestess to-hic-Athena-”

“Seeing as you have to actually be a virgin woman I’m not quite sure you qualify,” Penelope told
him sympathetically. Which, if anything, only made him cry harder.

“Where’s Leptine?” he asked suddenly. “Where’s Leptine, I want Leptine.”

“She’s coming,” Penelope replied with an anxious look over her shoulder, as if she was counting
the minutes until Leptine’s arrival.

“Well then where’s the wine?”

“I’m afraid you drank it all.”

Patroclus moaned dismally. “Why does everything I love leave me?”

He broke out into another wave of sobs and Penelope resumed the awkward, sympathetic patting of
his back. His plight was cut short however as at that moment the doors flung open, revealing a very
frenzied looking Leptine.

“Oh thank the Gods,” Penelope muttered, attempting to shift Patroclus’ stubborn form off her lap.
“What took you so long?”

But Leptine ignored her, instead seizing Patroclus arm with almost aggressive urgency.
“Patroclus!” she exclaimed. “You have to listen to me! I’ve just found something out!”

“What is it?” asked Penelope as Patroclus blinked blearily up at her.

Leptine looked around to check they weren’t being overheard before steaming ahead. “I was going
round sweeping all the guest rooms,” she told them excitedly. “When I nearly walked in on
Pamaia.”

“Oh that can’t have been pretty,” Penelope grimaced. Leptine tutted impatiently.

“No, she was praying,” she explained. “To Aphrodite. And I…well…I couldn’t really help
overhearing, but now I know why she’s here! It’s because,” she took a deep, dramatic breath.
“She’s trying to seduce Achilles!”

She paused victoriously, looking from Patroclus’ face to Penelope’s with the air of someone who
had just unearthed a great philosophical truth. However, the two slack, less-than-enthusiastic faces
before her seemed to be a little less than the reaction she had anticipated.

Finally Patroclus broke the silence with a croak: “Is that supposed to be something we didn’t
know?”

“Yeah, because I had actually worked that one out,” Penelope added. “And I have been here a
grand total of two days.”

“Alright but listen,” Leptine huffed frustrated. Her cheeks were glowing and her hair was
beginning to frizz around her face. “We thought she was acting alone, right? Out of self-motivated
ambition? Wrong! Turns out I was right when I thought Cleitus wouldn’t have bought her for no
reason. He was under orders to purchase the most beautiful slave he could find. And you’ll never
guess whose!”

“I have a feeling you’re going to tell us,” said Patroclus glumly.

Leptine glared at him before announcing with spectacular triumph: “Thetis’.”

This time, her words did produce a satisfactory response, from Patroclus at least. He sat up straight
on the couch as if hit by a bolt of lightning, face dumbstruck and feeling suddenly more sober.
“Thetis told Cleitus to buy Pamaia?”
“That’s right,” Leptine nodded. “She’s her instrument. Thetis is using her to try and gain influence
over Achilles so that she has another weapon to use against Peleus. She must have been intending
for him to fall in love with Pamaia, so that if he had to do so it would at least be with someone
loyal to her, someone who can help swing him to fulfilling his mother’s wishes. Apparently, Thetis
is furious about this marriage. Peleus didn’t even discuss with her, and now Achilles’ fiancée is
some political pawn of his that she doesn’t have the slightest sway over!”

For some reason, Leptine looked positively delighted. Through the haze of intoxication, Patroclus
struggled to hold onto her words which were gushing like a river during a flood: “From what it
sounded like, Pamaia’s really worried because she isn’t doing her job properly. Then she started
crying about something, something that would make it even harder for her to act but I couldn’t
understand what she was saying through the tears.”

Patroclus frowned, wondering what on earth it could be to make Pamaia break down like that.
Penelope, however, looked as if all the secrets of the universe had suddenly been made clear to her.

“This is it Patroclus!” she hissed. “Don’t you see? All the pieces are right before you! If we play
this right, we can stop this marriage!”

“How?” Patroclus stammered stupidly.

“By using the greatest weapon at our disposal,” she replied.

“Poison?” he suggested. Leptine groaned and dropped her head in her hands.

The corner of Penelope’s mouth twitched. “Close,” she said grimly. “Politics.”
 Politeia

That night Patroclus did not sleep but stayed up with Leptine and Penelope, talking late into the
night. As much as the latter insisted that all the pieces had been handed to him for assembling, for
the life of him Patroclus could not see how the little they had managed to unearth could possibly be
of use to them. And so, after a few more caskets of wine and several raucous sea-shanties it was
with a rather despondent air that Patroclus went up to his room the next morning in order to dress
for breakfast, thinking that the whole thing might be a lot easier if he were to slip hemlock in
Princess Chloe’s yoghurt.

He met Achilles on the stairs, coming down as he was going up. Patroclus acted as though he were
invisible until they were level, at which point he promptly slammed his shoulder into Achilles’
with as much force as he could muster.

“Sorry,” he said coolly as Achilles rubbed his bicep. “Didn’t see you there.”

Achilles narrowed his eyes. “Bet that hurt you more than it hurt me.”

“No,” lied Patroclus. In actual fact his whole left side was ringing as if he had just barged into a
marble statue. “If you had been walking head-first it might have been another matter.”

Rather than appearing wounded, Achilles rolled his eyes disdainfully. “Right, because I have a big
head,” he nodded. “Original. Very witty. Really Patroclus, I think you’re going to have to think up
some new put-downs, it seems your supply is running a little low.”

He continued on down the stairs without a backwards glance. Patroclus just had time to shout
“Your mother” at him before he disappeared round the corridor and out of sight.

Breakfast was a similarly hostile affair. Rather than taking his usual place Achilles was required at
the head table next to his father-in-law and bride to be. As Penelope and Odysseus were also sat
near Chloē, Patroclus was forced to park himself moodily beside Deiomachus and the other foster
boys where he was subjected to a blow-by-blow account of everything Leptine had said or done
over the past week. Patroclus responded by nodding and making sympathetic noises at relevant
intervals; meanwhile he satisfied himself by glaring at the head table from behind his goblet,
alternating between shooting daggers at Achilles and the princess.

“-And I asked her if he wanted to come with me to the hunt today but she just gave me this really
withering look and said ‘I might be busy’, like, really sarcastically and walked off before I had a
chance to work out what I’d said wrong. What do you think she meant, Patroclus? Patroclus?”

“What?” Patroclus wrenched his gaze from the head table and his fantasies from swapping
Achilles’ honey with laxative. “Sorry, rough night. What were you saying?”

Deiomachus rolled his eyes in exasperation. “The hunt today,” he said. “I asked Leptine if she
wanted to go together and she was really cold-”

“-Wait,” Patroclus interrupted, perplexed. “What hunt?”

Deiomachus shook his head despairingly at Patroclus. “Honestly mate,” he said, his voice
sounding almost awestruck. “Do you ever listen to a single thing that goes on around here?”

“Not if I can help it,” replied Patroclus with a shrug. “What’s this then?”
Deiomachus shook his head again with the air of someone who had been forced to condescend to
an idiot. “Peleus has organised a hunt in honour of our guests this afternoon,” he jerked his head in
the direction of Chloē who was leaning in to listen to something Penelope was saying. “To give the
couple a chance to get to know each other before, you know, the wedding. But, more importantly,
we all get to go and I thought it would be fun if I took Leptine for the afternoon but clearly she
disagrees…what d’you reckon? Is it a vegetarian thing? Is that it?”

But Patroclus had stopped listening, his mind reeling furiously with this new information. So
Achilles and Chloē were to spend the day, lounging in each other’s company in the warm sunshine,
eating summer fruits and basking in the afterglow of each other’s immaculate sex appeal? It
seemed all they needed were a couple of winged infants in loin cloths to perfect the scene.
Groaning miserably, he dropped his head into his hands and did not register the words Deiomachus
was still speaking to him.

“Patroclus!”

“What?” he snapped impatiently.

“I said, what do you think Leptine meant by-”

“-By saying she’d be busy?” Patroclus cut him off impatiently. “I don’t know man, maybe she’s
got other plans. Or maybe, and this is a longshot mind you, she was referring to the fact that she is
a slave and therefore will probably have other duties to perform at a large-scale, mass-invite event?
And if I were to hazard a guess at why she was angry, it might have had a little something to do
with the fact that you’re so wrapped up in insecure, post-adolescent anxieties to lose your virginity
that you didn’t even stop to consider that she might have other things on her mind.”

Patroclus stopped and glared round at the foster boys, all of whom were staring at him with a
mixture of surprise and apprehension. Deiomachus, looking rather red, was opening and closing his
mouth without saying anything. There was a shocked silence which lasted well into awkwardness
until, with a final huff of impatience, Patroclus stood up and left the Hall. As he walked he could
feel both Achilles’ and Penelope’s eyes on him. To his bitter disappointment it was the latter who
excused herself and got up to follow him.

He was breathing very hard by the time it took her to catch up with him and his eyeballs were itchy
with impending frustrated tears. He rubbed at them angrily as she approached before turning round.

“What?” he barked at her.

“‘What’?” Penelope echoed with a raised eyebrow. “What nothing, except that you just marched
out of the Hall with a face like a post-menstrual Hera. What’s the matter with you?”

Patroclus rubbed his eyes tiredly feeling that he was really not in the mood for a lecture. “Nothing’s
the matter,” he responded dully.

“Then you’d do well to start acting like it,” Penelope hissed, jabbing a sharp-nailed finger into his
chest. “This will not work with you moping around like a barrel of Greek fire, ready to go off at ay
moment. Our success depends on strategy and discretion. We need to be calm and cool at all times,
let no one suspect you have a plan-”

“-And exactly where is this ‘plan’ you speak of?” Patroclus interrupted heatedly. “What exactly do
you plan on doing with a disgruntled mother and a few shreds of court gossip?”

“I’m working on it,” Penelope snapped back. “In the meantime, you’d better start channelling your
inner courtier and practicing some etiquette. We’re going to the hunt this afternoon.”

“Oh no I’m not,” said Patroclus automatically, horrified at the idea of having to bear witness to
Achilles and Chloē simpering all over each other.

“Oh yes you are,” Penelope replied grimly. “I can’t think of a better opportunity to learn what we
can from little Miss Bride-to-be. So you’d better make nice with her this afternoon. And watch that
temper!”

She strode off briskly, leaving Patroclus looking furious and more than a little embarrassed in the
hallway.

oOo

Incredible as it may seem, for all the time Patroclus had spent in Phthia he had never been on a
hunt. He had been hunting and often, had stalked and trapped animals in the forest with Achilles
using clever little snares they made and set themselves. They had tracked deer as they moved
through the trees, marking their paths by the nibbled berries on a bush and evidence of broken
bracken. When they spied one, Achilles would make a soundless action to silence Patroclus before
reaching for his bow. One arrow straight through the eye. The shot would be quick, clean and
painless.

However, this cautious flitting from in and out of trees, of spending hours in silence looking for
footprints was so far removed from the sport and entertainment the palace nobles enjoyed it was
impossible to think of it as the same thing. At noon a massive procession streamed out from the
palace doors, complete with musicians and flag bearers, their bright standards flashing like jewels
against the clear blue sky. Towering birds of prey perched majestically on crooked arms made stiff
with leather as long lines of servants followed bearing baskets of fruit and flagons of wine, as well
as expensive, needlessly complicated hunting equipment, most of which Patroclus wagered would
never touch blood.

At the front of the procession marched Achilles and Chloē. The latter had clearly modelled herself
after Artemis, the Goddess of the Hunt and was looking radiant in a white dress that fluttered
behind her in the light breeze, her honey-coloured hair plaited with flowers. Beside her, Achilles
was looking handsome as ever in a white linen chiton; however his smile, unlike hers, looked
rather forced.

“He looks like he’s eaten a funny whelk,” muttered Odysseus to Penelope who sniggered. Shunned
by the other nobles, Odysseus and Penelope contented themselves with observing from their
modest place in the crowd and making the occasional dry remark. Penelope, for whom necessity
made it unable to assume her man’s disguise, was unable to participate in the hunt which she made
up for by being surlier and even more cutting than usual.

“Bloody bollocks,” she hissed to Patroclus, tripping for the third time over the long hem of her
dress. “Chloē had best be a mine of information if I’m to sweat in this bloody contraption all
afternoon.”

“You were the one who was so eager to talk to her,” Patroclus whispered back. “I was perfectly
fine with pretending she didn’t exist.”

Penelope was about to respond when the procession came to a halt. They had reached the fields
that lay on the border of the forests and the party began to split, the majority of men heading into
the dark, thick stretch before them while the women made themselves at home in the fields.
“Alright,” Penelope intoned to Patroclus in a hushed voice. “Looks like it’s time for me to join the
other fine ladies in idle conversation.”

She hurried off to join the other women in praising Chloē’s choice of costume while Patroclus
huffed and looked around for someone he knew. A short way away, slaves were hovering with
silver jugs containing sparkling wine and cold pomegranate juice, Leptine among them. He
approached her anxiously, checking there was no one within earshot.

“Hello my devious partner in crime,” Leptine greeted him. “How goes the sabotage?”

“Slowly,” replied Patroclus through gritted teeth. “Penelope swears we’re on to something with this
Thetis and Pamaia thing but I can’t see how it will be useful…I don’t think even she knows…”

“Do we have a plan so far?” asked Leptine.

“Less of a plan than a principle,” answered Patroclus. “Talk to Thetis, get her on our side
somehow. If anyone has the power to stop this she does, although actually persuading her to help
us is another matter entirely. I suppose if we can use Pamaia as some kind of leverage…I don’t
know. Have you heard any more about why she was crying last night?”

Leptine shook her head. “Nothing,” she said dully. “Although Loras said he caught her retching
while on privy duty earlier this morning, although that’s hardly surprising, considering the
smell…”

Patroclus nodded absentmindedly. He had just caught Deiomachus watching them rather glumly
from across the field. Patroclus felt a bubble of pity and a pang of shame upon having been so
sharp with him that morning. He looked back at Leptine, one eyebrow raised.

“I heard you were quite the cruel mistress with Deiomachus earlier,” he said.

Leptine’s cheeks coloured even as she clucked her tongue impatiently. “Gods’ teeth,” she swore.
“He can be such an idiot at times. Do you know he asked me if I wanted to come down here with
him? Didn’t even think for a second that I might have a previous engagement with lifelong
servitude.”

She waved the decanter she was holding so aggressively little drops flew out. Patroclus took note
of the anger in her voice, the frustration and saw how her eyes sparkled rather voilently. “Leptine,”
he said quietly. “If you’re not happy…if you don’t like him then you don’t have to stay with him.”

Leptine looked at Patroclus, sighed and slipped a fallen strand of hair behind her ear.

“I do like him,” she said finally. “I do. It just…it gets a little much sometimes. It’s not even him
I’m really angry with.”

She didn’t say anymore but Patroclus understood. It was not Deiomachus Leptine had lashed out on
but the world, and the one that, despite her best efforts, she would always be unable to break from.
Similarly, as Patroclus’ gaze drifted toward the princess he felt an overwhelming sense of
helplessness. At the end of the day, they were just pawns in a game much bigger than themselves.
How would they ever be able to challenge pieces and players so much more powerful?

Leptine was required elsewhere so Patroclus went over to Deiomachus with the intention of
apologising for his less-than-friendly reception, blaming his mood on stress. Luckily, he seemed to
realise that Patroclus was also speaking on behalf of Leptine for he did not press the issue further.
Thus the majority of the afternoon was spent lounging in the hot sun, taking bets with Deiomachus
and Leonides on which of the nobles would meet with the most success and drinking their body
weight in whatever cold liquid was immediately available.

Patroclus could feel his face burning and this chiton kept sticking uncomfortably to his back. Now
and then he would steal glances at Chloē, sitting in the shade of a large tree and looking
immaculate, pampered and fanned as she was by her many attendants. Beside her, Penelope was
looking increasingly hot and bothered and kept stealing envious glances at the scantily clad serving
boys. Patroclus felt a scowl form on his face as he watched Chloē, laughing and chatting with the
other girls, warm and golden as sunlight made flesh.

Then, suddenly, she looked up. Their eyes met. Patroclus looked away sharply, feeling suddenly
colder. But it was too late, Chloē was getting to her feet, was walking in his direction. Oh Gods,
Patroclus began to pray. Please make her not have seen, make her go away, make her turn
around…

But he had no such luck. Chloē was coming towards him and soon she was so close it was
impossible to continue to ignore her. Instead Patroclus looked up, forcing a horrible, garish smile
that he knew was more frightening than it was convincing.

“Hello,” he said in an awful, hearty voice. “Lovely day.”

“You must be Patroclus Menoitides,” said Chloē. She gestured at the patch of grass next to him.
“May I sit here?”

A number of responses jumped immediately into Patroclus’ head. He selected the one least likely
to result in his beheading. “You must sit where you please, princess.”

Chloē folded her long, tan legs gracefully beneath her, her skirts fluttering around her like the
wings of some brilliant bird. Patroclus watched her warily, unsure of how to react to the situation.
Once she was sat down she fixed him with a curious but open and friendly gaze which did little to
make him feel more comfortable.

For several seconds too long, neither of them said anything with both appearing to be waiting for
the other to speak first. Chloe’s hands lay in her lap and she kept twisting nervously at the rings
around her fingers. Finally, when she spoke, her voice had the high, strained quality of someone
trying far too hard to act casual. “Hot isn’t it?” she said.

Patroclus nodded and they lapsed into further silence. Chloē was chewing her lip. Patroclus tilted
his chin up towards the sky and prayed for a thunderstorm.

“I’ve heard a lot about you,” she began at last. “My father never ceases praising your exploits and
Achilles talks of nothing else. It’s as if everything is Patroclus, Patroclus, Patroclus. Is it alright if
I call you that, by the way? I feel like I know you quite well.”

Patroclus gave an ungracious shrug. It mattered very little to him whether or not anyone used his
patronym, he had felt disconnected from it for so long. Chloē, apparently unperturbed by his
indifference, carried on.

“You are Achilles’ hetairoi,” she said. “That means soon we will be almost like family. I’ll be
your sister.”

“I suppose so,” squirmed Patroclus, unsure of how this conversation could be any more awkward.

“You know him better than anyone,” said Chloē. “I wonder…could you tell me…is he…happy?
With the marriage, I mean?”
Patroclus frowned at her. Her eyes were wide and earnest, as if this was a question she had been
anxious to ask for some time. “Why shouldn’t he be?”

“Oh…No reason of course,” Chloē replied, colouring slightly. “Only...I know that it is part of our
unfortunate duty sometimes…to be forced into things that we do not want to do for the sake of our
country or our families…not that marrying Achilles is an unfortunate duty at all, of course…who
wouldn’t wish to be married to such a…such a man…any woman should be lucky and count her
blessings, as I do, most assuredly.”

“Ok…?” said Patroclus hesitantly, unsure of why Chloē was telling him this, or even why she was
talking to him at all.

“I mean to say,” Chloē continued and Patroclus noticed she was growing more and more flustered.
“What I mean is… sometimes we have to do things that go against…against our feelings. Against
our own natures, even. Do you…do you understand what I mean?”

Her expression was so desperate, her voice so plaintive that Patroclus wished that he could say yes.
It was clear from her upturned brows, the significance she was urgently trying to convey that she
wanted to tell him something. But all Patroclus could gather was that, for one reason or another,
Achilles wasn’t her type.

Apparently, this was not good enough for Chloē. She took a deep breath, as if steadying herself
before going in for the plunge. “Patroclus,” she began. “I-”

“Well, well, what’s this I see?” came the interruption of an unpleasantly familiar voice.

Pamaia was standing before them, her hands on her hips and her head tilted coquettishly, a curious,
playful smile on her lips. If Leptine had not been the one to tell him that she had walked in on her
in floods of tears Patroclus would not have believed it; there was no evidence showing on her
beautiful face of anything other than confidence and mischief.

“Has our young master Menoitides succeeded in luring you away, princess?” she said, raising a
perfect, winged eyebrow. “I can hardly dare to believe it. But then, his powers of attraction are
scarcely to be believed.”

The scoff in her voice was so evident that Patroclus felt his face grow hot with fury. Chloē, on the
other hand, appeared to notice nothing. On the contrary, she was gazing up at Pamaia with wide
eyes and her mouth slightly open, as if she could not quite believe what she was looking at.

“If I may my lady,” Pamaia proceeded with a pretty curtesy. “Might I show you some of the
delicacies we have prepared for you? I am sure you will find them much to your taste.”

Chloē’s eyes flitted to Patroclus’; he tried desperately to communicate a warning but too late,
already she was taking Pamaia’s hand and allowing herself to be led sluggishly away, like an
unsuspecting visitor to a fairy world. Unwilling to dwell on what mischief Pamaia could possibly
be plotting this time, Patroclus sat back to wonder what on earth his talk with Chloē had been
about. He did not have very much time to ponder however for he was jolted abruptly by Penelope
who was crossing the fields with exceeding haste in order to get to him.

“Hello,” Patroclus greeted her, bemused by her anxiety. “It’s alright, I kept my temper. Actually, I
managed to have a civil conversation with her which was…weird. You were right, maybe it does
pay to know the people you’re up against…I get the feeling there’s something she wants to keep
secret…nice girl though. I feel a little bad about wanting to kill her-”
“-Patroclus,” Penelope cut him off urgently. “Would you please shut up and look with your eyes
for one second?”

Patroclus frowned at her, perplexed. “Look with my eyes?” he repeated non-comprehendingly.

“What do you-”

He followed the line where Penelope was pointing, over to where Chloē and Pamaia were standing
by the food table. His mouth fell open.

“Ohhh,” he said as understanding crashed around him. “I see. Yes. That explains a lot.”

oOo

“So, whereabouts is Chloē from again?”

“Corinth.”

“Right. And that’s not far from Lesbos, is it?”

Leptine groaned and Penelope looked at Patroclus’ forcefully straight face with a look of utmost
disdain. “How long have you been sitting on that joke?”

“At least an hour and a half,” Patroclus admitted, scrambling to keep up with her. The afternoon’s
revelation seemed to have supplied her with renewed vigour; even in her long skirts Patroclus had
to match his pace to a jog as they headed down the corridor. “So what’s the plan?”

“We utilise this as best we can,” Penelope replied automatically. “We’ve been astonishingly lucky,
now that we have a bride and a groom who don’t actually want to be married. All we need to do is
convince Chloē to talk to her father and…for the love of Zeus Patroclus, will you please stop
smiling?”

Patroclus apologised and tried to clear the ridiculous grin from his face. He felt bizarrely elated.
Ever since catching sight of Chloē, looking spell-bound as Pamaia fed her tartlets from the tips of
her fingers Patroclus had found himself feeling much more disposed to the princess. Possibly the
knowledge that there was at least one other person who was looking even less forward to this
marriage as he was had gone to his head, either way he found himself skipping slightly on every
other step.

“It won’t be enough to have Chloē talk to Thoas,” Leptine was saying. “If he’s anything like Peleus
he’ll value an alliance’s stability over his child’s preference. And since when has a girl’s desires
ever had a political impact?”

“You’d be surprised,” Penelope smiled mysteriously. “But you’re right. We need another player on
our side. Someone with considerable power and influence.”

She turned to Patroclus who had been humming the Ballad of Eurydice cheerfully to himself.
“Patroclus, you need to talk to Thetis,” she instructed him. “Convince her to put pressure on Peleus,
make him fear the consequences if he goes ahead with this marriage. I don’t know how much
power the king’s ex-wife has over policy, but I think it’s a fair bet to say a goddess’ wrath might
give Chloē’s sentiments a little extra weight.”

But a thought had just occurred to Patroclus which caused his happy mood evaporate as quickly as
it had come. “Hang on,” he said. “Won’t Thetis be a little suspicious at why I’m so anxious for this
wedding to be called off?”
Penelope and Leptine exchanged meaningful glances. When the latter spoke her voice was gentle.
“That’s just a risk you’ll have to take,” she said.

Patroclus felt icy fear grip him even as he pictured the exchange. He and Achilles had been so
careful in hiding the true nature of his relationship from the volatile sea nymph, whose
unpredictability he knew had caused waves to rise and ships to smash in the past. He swallowed
the bile that had risen in his throat and nodded.

“You ought to go soon,” Penelope suggested softly. “It’ll be easier the quicker you get it out the
way. Meanwhile, I’ll go and find Chloē.”

“Do you want me to come with you?” Leptine asked Patroclus.

Patroclus shook his head. “She doesn’t like strangers,” he answered with a grimace. “It’s better if
it’s just me. Wait for me in the slave quarters, I’ll meet you there.”

Leptine nodded and the three parted. The moment they were out of sight Patroclus’ heart began to
hammer wildly in his chest. Apart from the time she had crept up on him on the beach, he had
never been alone with Thetis before. She unnerved him at the best of times; the prospect of gaining
her help after having his explained his reasons for wanting to break up the marriage wasn’t just
unlikely…it was downright unwise.

He decided to take the back entrance, passing the staircase that led up to his room on the upper
floor. On his way he saw Achilles, clearly making to escape away upstairs; once again he slowed
down until they were level before propelling all his body weight into slamming his shoulder with
his own.

“You really ought to watch where you’re going,” he snarled. As prepared as he was to forgive
Chloē, his newfound clemency did not quite extend to Achilles.

“That’s going to get old very quickly,” said Achilles warningly.

“You know what doesn’t get old?” Patroclus retorted angrily. “You. Because you’re immortal.”

“I-what?” Achilles frowned. “Is that supposed to be an insult? It doesn’t even work like that, that
doesn’t even make sense.”

“You don’t make sense!” Patroclus snapped back. “And don’t you worry about thinking up another
excuse for how you just can’t quite manage to get out of being married. Because I’ve got it
covered.”

Almost instantly Achilles’ expression cleared to be replaced by one of astounded incredulity. “You
have?” he prompted eagerly. “What are you doing? Have you got a plan?”

“The best plan,” Patroclus responded haughtily. “Don’t you worry about a thing. In fact, why don’t
you run your pretty little self off to daddy and let me handle the big boy stuff, okay?”

And with that he continued along the corridor and out of the palace, hoping against hope that
Thetis wouldn’t kill him before Achilles did.

oOo

He found her in a rock pool, her pebble-grey skirts trailing inkily into the clear blue water. She did
not look up when she approached, only crooked her finger with a doleful sort of air.
“Hello,” she said in a bored tone. “I’ve been watching the hunt.”

“From here?” asked Patroclus, looking around. From what he could see, there was no way Thetis
could have made out the wood from the confines of the beach.

“It’s easier than in the water,” Thetis replied with a yawn. “Of course, the silly bitch looks just as
vapid above the surface.”

A few hours ago, Patroclus would have rejoiced internally to hear Chloē described as such. Now he
felt a sting of abashed guilt and gave Thetis a reproachful look. “You shouldn’t call other girls
bitches,” he rebuked her. “It’s not good for solidarity.”

Thetis’ eyebrows disappeared into her violent red hair. “And exactly when did you join our
sisterhood, Menoitides? Is that why you’ve come, for a little girly gossip? Or perhaps,” her flint-
like, green eyes flashed. “A confession?”

Patroclus opened his mouth and closed it again, feeling as if she had just robbed the powers of
speech right out of his throat. Thetis laughed unpleasantly, the sound of waves smacking against
cliff walls.

“Do you think me deaf and blind, mortal?” she smiled with little joy. “There is only one force
strong enough to drive my little boy away from his mother’s arms…not love no, he cannot feel
that, not the kind you understand anyway, but the other thing…the one common to all adolescent
boys regardless of divinity or inheritance…But you needn’t worry,” she added with almost a
parody of maternal kindness. “In fact, you should enjoy it while it lasts. You will grow out of each
other. Oh yes, that is a certainty I’m afraid.”

“Is that why you told Cleitus to buy Pamaia?” asked Patroclus, forcing himself to remain above the
taunts now ringing in his ears. “So that Achilles would have someone to help him grow out of
me?”

He expected her eyes to narrow, for her to warn him not to meddle in a goddess’ design. Instead she
seemed unperturbed, busying herself with flicking grains of sand from under her fingernails. “It
always pays to have influence where you can,” she said idly. “If you think I was going to leave my
only son in the agenda of some exiled upstart you are sorely mistaken-”

“-I don’t have an agenda,” Patroclus told her quickly. “Really. I don’t have a clue about politics or
any of that. I’m only here because…well. I want to stop this marriage. And so do you. And I think,
if we work together, we probably can.”

He did not realise, until he finished speaking, that he had been staring at his feet. He forced himself
to look up into Thetis’ face although he found he couldn’t quite hold her gaze. To his intense relief
she did not look angry. On the contrary, she appeared to be thinking and there was a note of
resignation in her voice when she spoke again.

“It’s true that I cannot allow this wedding to go ahead,” she told him. “To have that man pick a
bride for our son without any input from me…a bride entirely contrived to serve his interests…it is
unthinkable. I cannot allow it. I am a goddess, I am his mother. His mortal whims are puny
whencompared to my plans…”

She trailed off whimsically, her face softening. Patroclus, warily observing the way her eyes were
glowing gold, said nothing about his fears for what these great plans might entail. One crisis at a
time, he told himself firmly.
“I will help you,” Thetis said abruptly, apparently coming back to earth. “I wasn’t going to. I was
thinking about drowning you both but I suppose Achilles might not like it if I did that. Very well. I
shall make my feelings known to Peleus. Although I warn you, even my anger might not persuade
him to call off an engagement he had not proposed. He is an obstinate man and mortals are so petty
about silly things like honour and etiquette.”

“If all goes well he should not have to,” answered Patroclus, thinking about Chloē. But the words
had barely to fall when Thetis had gone, leaving nothing behind but a blood red anemone where her
foot had been.
 Huios
Chapter Notes

Before you read, know that this chapter contains themes that some readers might find
upsetting. I've tried my best to deal with them carefully and with respect but please: if
you are offended by anything or think that something could have been done better,
please let me know and I will try my very best to fix it.
Also, there's like no Achilles in this chapter. Please read it still, I'll make up for it in
the next one. To be honest I think it's good for him not to be in every chapter. Does
wonders for his ego.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

Patroclus re-entered the palace with a sense of renewed purpose. His nerves were still tingling from
his meeting with Thetis, he felt as though whole bolts of electricity were running up and down his
arms and through his fingertips. For the most part he was still in a state of semi-daze, unable to
believe that he had come away with all his limbs intact, especially considering the leading topic of
the tense conversation. But here he was; still alive, still whole and, at least for the time being,
triumphant. Thetis had relented. He had succeeded in persuading a goddess. The only question that
remained now was one he reflected on with a twinge of unease: would it be enough?

“Patroclus!”

He started and saw Penelope waving at him from further down the hallway. He was just about to
wave back and relate excitedly all that had transpired between Achilles’ mother and himself when
he realised she was not alone. Behind her, a gleam of honey-coloured hair caught the light
streaming in through an open window and, before he could say a word, Princess Chloē had stepped
out to meet him.

“Hello again,” she greeted him with an intimate smile.

Taken aback, Patroclus made to sink into a clumsy bow but Chloē stopped him. “No need for that,”
she said brusquely and Patroclus noticed she had dropped the cautious, hesitant tone with which
she had last spoken to him. “I think we are both well enough acquainted with the others’
disposition to dispense with formality by now. Shall we get to business?”

Sinking even further into bemusement, Patroclus glanced at Penelope who gave him an
encouraging wink. “There’s an unused guest room just up here,” she said, leading the way.

The room was indeed empty, except for one lone slave sweeping who cleared out instantly at a
look from Penelope. Chloē sank down into one of the long couches and Penelope followed suit,
leaving Patroclus to claim a stiff, hard-backed chair which he sat on the edge on, looking tentative.

“So,” Chloē began with the air of one settling down to a pleasant conversation. “Let us not beat
about the bush. You want to ask for my acquiescence in ending this betrothal, is that correct?”

She looked at him expectantly, one slender eyebrow raised. Patroclus cleared his throat uncertainly
before replying. “Um…yes. It is. Princess.”
Chloē nodded in a satisfied manner, as if Patroclus had answered a test question correctly. “Right,”
she said crisply. “Well, first understand that it is indeed my inclination to go along with your plan.
You are correct in assuming that any…erm…male fiancé will not be exactly to my…um…taste. An
unfortunate characteristic in a princess, don’t you think? To, if given the choice, prefer the witch
over any handsome prince?”

She smiled, watching him ruefully and Patroclus realised he was expected to reply. “I don’t think I
myself am in any position to judge, my lady,” he mumbled. “Give me the handsome prince any
day.”

To his surprise, Chloē slapped a hand over her mouth and issued a rather indecorous giggle. “Oh
you are funny,” she said from between her fingers. “Although I have to say, I have heard as much.
I’m not sure how much drift you catch of foreign rumour but you would do well to be at least a
little more discreet in your regard. Of course, one would have only to look at you together to see
that you are completely enamoured with each other. Or talk to Achilles for half an hour.”

“You’ve spoken to Achilles?” Patroclus’ eyes widened in amazement. “Of this?”

“Of course I have,” shrugged Chloē. “What else was there to say once it transpired neither of us felt
the remotest attraction for the other? We had to break the ice somehow.”

Patroclus thought of Achilles and Chloē together at breakfast, heads close as they talked
animatedly under their breath and felt a little ashamed of himself. I shall have to apologise to him
later, he realised. The thought gave him little pleasure.

“So like I say,” Chloē continued. “The idea of tethering myself to some man for the rest of my life
isn’t particularly my idea of fun. Thus my first inclination is, of course, to help you. However,
although I undoubtedly possess some of the…um...unconventional about me, I’m afraid I remain,
in some respects, conservative.”

Here she leaned forward in her seat slightly, her soft brown eyes fixed unwaveringly on Patroclus’
face and suddenly he had the feeling that she’d arrived at what she’d come to say. “I love my
father,” she said. “And I love my country. I have been raised as a servant to both and I would do
anything for either. No I don’t want to marry Achilles, but since when has any woman wanted to be
handed over to a man she has never met, like property, like chattel? Many girls have had it much
worse; at least he is young with little interest in hurting me.”

She paused warily, as if anticipating a reaction. Patroclus, however, said nothing, waiting for her to
finish. When no one spoke, she ploughed ahead. “Here is what I am saying. I will have to be
married at some point, as is my duty and desire if it means what is best for Corinth. And if I must
be married, then I see no reason why it should not be to the prince of Phthia. So, Patroclus, I
suppose what I am asking you is: what can you offer me to abandon a daughter’s loyalty to her
father and a princess’ duty to her country?”

With the last word, she folded her hands prettily in her lap and blinked at him expectantly. For a
long while silence followed her question as she waited, slightly nervously it seemed, for his reply.
Patroclus glanced at Penelope. She was watching the exchange with anticipation, her eyes steely.
She seemed to be holding her breath.

Finally, Patroclus’ voice shattered the hush like the dropping of a pebble into still water. “It seems
clear to me, princess, that you are looking for something specific,” he spoke at last. “Why don’t
you name it?”

Chloē’s blush was violent and immediate, colouring her rose pink from chin to forehead. Her voice
when she spoke, however, was quite composed, if a little bashful. “I…well…I wanted to hear your
answer first. What do you say? Will you give her to me?”

Patroclus’ shoulders rose and fell. “She is not mine to give,” he said plainly. “As much as I need
and desire your help I can’t compel another person against their own free will. But say I were to
talk to her and she agreed…would it persuade you?”

Chloē’s face, which had fallen slightly at Patroclus’ reply, hitched back on its expression of
reserved dignity. “It…it might,” she answered quietly. “She would be a great…a great comfort to
me, when the time comes that I do have to marry.”

The note of sheepish embarrassment had crept back into her voice and Patroclus found himself
warming irrevocably to this quiet, dignified, honour-bound princess who wore her loyalty like the
gold band of state around her head. At that moment, he found himself hoping that he could do as
she asked, as much for her as for himself and he tried to convey the sentiment in the sincerity of his
next words. “I’ll do what I can.”

For a moment, there seemed to be fleeting flicker of understanding between the two of them as
they held each other’s gaze. Then Chloē stood up and straight away was back to her brisk,
business-like manner, although her cheeks still retained a trace of their rosy hue. “I should be
getting back,” she said. “Father will be wondering where I am. Um…you will let me know soon,
won’t you?”

“Of course,” replied Patroclus and Chloē flashed him one last grateful smile before disappearing
with a flutter of skirt.

Patroclus turned a doleful face to Penelope who was watching him with an odd expression that he
thought might have been pride.

“Well you certainly handled that very nicely,” she told him glowingly, confirming his estimation.
“Now all we need to do is bundle up the whore and we’ll have ourselves one perfect, successfully
demolished engagement.”

“Easier said than done,” muttered Patroclus, getting to his feet. The odds of winning over Thetis, a
woman who barely tolerated his existence, had been uncertain enough. But Pamaia, a nemesis
whom he knew felt nothing toward him but direst loathing, was more likely to spill their plan to the
nearest overseer out of pure spite than agree to help him.

They made their way towards the slaves’ quarters where Leptine was waiting for them as planned.
Upon entering the cloying, dark gloom with all its stinking warmth Penelope looked around
interestedly but said nothing, for which Patroclus was grateful. They sat down in the space Leptine
had cleared out for them and recounted to her everything that Chloē had said, concluding with the
bargain of her aid in return for Pamaia. When they had finished, Leptine looked as troubled and
dubious as Patroclus felt himself.

“Convince Pamaia to leave Phthia?” she repeated in disbelief. “We’d have an easier job getting
Achilles in a bodice, or asking Phoinix to stop drinking.”

Trying very hard to ignore the rather distracting image of Achilles in women’s underwear,
Patroclus attempted another angle. “Is it at all possible that she might leave of her own accord? I
mean, she and Chloē seemed to be getting on pretty well from where I was standing.”

“Oh grow up Patroclus,” Leptine chastised him wolfishly. “She was playing her like she played
you, like she plays everyone. Pamaia is motivated solely by drive and ambition. I doubt she’s got a
real feeling in her body.”

“Then that’s what we’ll have to appeal to,” said Penelope, plucking idly at a loose thread coming
away from the mattress she was sitting on.

“How?” Leptine persisted desperately. “Pamaia’s probably worth more than half of Peleus’
strongbox. Why would she trade her position as one of the most valuable members of his
household to become some little girl’s handmaiden? And don’t say for love, Patroclus, not
everyone is quite as romantic as you.”

“I wasn’t going to,” Patroclus hummed calmly.

“I suppose we’ll just have to offer her something else,” said Penelope. “Make another bargain.”

Patroclus’ head dropped into his hands. “I have a feeling we’re running out of things to trade.”

Penelope grinned at him and this time there was no mistaking the pride in her voice. “Even so,
you’re becoming quite the wily merchant,” she told him. “We’ll make a politician out of you yet.
How did you know it was Pamaia Chloē wanted?”

Patroclus shrugged and scratched the back of his head modestly. “I just thought about what I’d
want if I was forced to live in a strange land where I didn’t know anyone. A friend.”

Both Leptine and Penelope gave him such sugar-coated, doting looks in response that he felt his
face grow quite hot and he tried quickly to change the subject. “But uh, yeah, so, Chloē’s a
lesbian.”

“Who’d have thought it,” Penelope shook her head amusedly. “First a prince of Phthia, now a
princess of Corinth, no less. Whatever is the world coming to?”

“Maybe it’s spreading,” Patroclus grinned.

“Gone is the time of traditional values!” cried Leptine, raising her hands in mock-distress. “Is there
no morality anymore?”

“And she so prim and proper…looking like butter wouldn’t melt in her mouth,” added Penelope,
wiping away an invisible tear. “But alas, another vice-wriggling degenerate to join our ranks-”

“-That’s enough!” came a sharp voice.

Patroclus, Leptine and Penelope looked up in surprise. There, standing before them, stood Pamaia,
her face stark white and her eyes blazing with anger. She was shaking slightly, as if with fury, and
in one hand she seemed to be holding something behind her back. The other was clenched in a fist.

“Pardon?” said Patroclus in polite bemusement.

“I said that’s enough,” Pamaia hissed again through gritted teeth. “I heard you having a go at
Chloē, taking the piss, and you need to stop, right now. Just because she’s stolen away your fuck
buddy does not give you the right to talk about her like that…to make a joke of it…that girl has
been through more than you’ll ever know and you…you don’t deserve to shine her sandals. She’s
suffered enough without becoming the butt of your childish jokes. So shut up, now, before I make
you.”

“Pamaia, calm down,” Penelope appealed as Patroclus and Leptine stared, dumbstruck, at each
other. “We weren’t having a go at Chloē, we would never do that. We like her, we want to help
her-”

“-You expect me to believe that?” snapped Pamaia, jutting her chin in Patroclus’ direction. “After
all the shit he’s been saying about her? After all those plans to murder her?”

“That was before I found out she was a lesbian,”said Patroclus exasperatedly. “Now I think she’s a
delight.”

“You said you were going to put hemlock in her food!”

“I was joking!” Patroclus protested as Leptine looked at him through narrowed eyes. “Obviously!”

“Why do you care, anyway?” Leptine rounded on Pamaia fiercely. “What should the honour of
another deviant matter to you?”

The emphasis she placed on the word reminded Patroclus sharply and uncomfortably of the
incident that had occurred between him and Pamaia so long ago, where she had spoken to him so
scornfully. Clearly she was remembering it too although her reaction was not one any of them
could have anticipated, for she dropped her head and lowered her gaze to the floor, almost as if she
were ashamed.

“I admit that I may have spoken…misguidedly…in the past,” she muttered darkly at the pavestones
beneath her feet. “I know better now. But if you think I will stand by and listen while you-”

She broke off suddenly, grasping at her lower stomach. With the other hand slapped over her
mouth she began to make odd, convulsive movements, as if suppressing a retch. Patroclus, Leptine
and Penelope stared at her in bewilderment even as she wiped her mouth shakily with the back of
her hand.

As she straightened up, Patroclus noticed again how very sick and pale she was looking. Perhaps it
was just the absence of kohl that usually lined her eyes but somehow her beauty seemed washed-
out, as if someone had smeared a hand over a damp painting. The shadows under her eyes had
darkened to the colour of fresh bruises and her face seemed thin and oddly pinched, her collar
bones sticking out of her chest as if she wasn’t eating enough.

Leptine, it was clear, had made similar observations for she beheld Pamaia with a look of frowning
concern. “Are you alright?” she asked. “You don’t look well.”

“I’m fine,” Pamaia snapped testily. “And me at my worst is still better than you at your best, so.”

“You’re at your worst, are you?” said Patroclus quickly.

Pamaia glared at him. “Mind your own business,” she snapped. “There’s nothing wrong with me,
apart from exhaustion at this pointless conversation.”

“What’s that behind your back then?” asked Penelope.

Pamaia made an attempt to hide whatever it was she was holding but Penelope was too fast for her.
Quick as lightening she grabbed hold of Pamaia’s bony wrist and wrenched it into her grip,
revealing what looked like a lump of chalky mud clutched in her fingers. A large chunk appeared to
be missing on one side, accompanied by little indentures that looked suspiciously like teeth marks.

“You’re eating modelling clay?” Patroclus exclaimed in baffled disgust, staring at the teeth marks.
“How ill are you?”
But Leptine was looking at Pamaia with a new expression, and when she spoke her voice was low
and soft. “How long?”

Pamaia’s eyes flitted to her. She blinked and Patroclus was startled to see tiny beads of water
clinging to the long eyelashes. “Two months at the next half moon,” she whispered.

Patroclus looked from Leptine to Pamaia in blank confusion. Leptine’s eyes were soft with the
heaviness of crushing understanding and there was an energy between the two women such as
there had never been before, a kind of bond formed from wordless communication. “Oh Pamaia,”
Leptine sighed and Patroclus was shocked to hear something that sounded like sympathy in her
tone. “Can I ask whose?”

“You can ask,” answered Pamaia, hostility creeping back into her voice. “I couldn’t say for sure
even if I wanted to. Possibly Cleitus’. Not that it matters – a slave brat is still a slave, regardless of
its sire.”

And then it clicked. Patroclus’ eyes widened and he gesticulated wildly at Pamaia. “You’re
pregnant!” he nearly yelled at her.

Pamaia spared him a look of deepest loathing, causing his flaying arm to drop limply back to his
side. “How does it feel, Patroclus?” she asked him, her voice sharp as a knife’s edge. “To have won
at last? To have claimed victory over your enemy? Will you revel in your triumph, now that I am
destroyed?”

“Destroyed?” Penelope’s eyebrows knit together. “But surely a fruitful slave is held in esteem, as
having greater value? I should have thought you’d be rewarded for your fertility.”

Pamaia’s hair whipped her face as she rounded on Penelope, eyes blazing like those of an enraged
harpy. “I suppose you think I am to be congratulated, king’s daughter?” she uttered spitefully.
“And what reward should I be given? A trinket, perhaps? A few coins to spend at the market? In
return for my child, scarcely ripped from my womb before being placed on a boat to some foreign
land, thus to being its life in shackles. No mother there to ease the ache of the chains in the mines,
or to teach it to endure rape in the brothels. And what of myself, after my body is torn and sagged
from birth and my dancing days are over? A slum probably, after being sold cheap to whichever
whoremonger will pay for damaged goods. Or else to live here for the rest of my days as a
common serving wench, pining for the child I will never see again, until disease or my own hands
take me.”

She tore her gaze away, so that they would not see her blinking furiously over her shoulder.
However she could not quite disguise the strangled sob that broke out from her throat even as she
hid her face from them in the crook of her arm. Patroclus, Leptine and Penelope said nothing but
avoided each other’s eye, unsure of where to look. For Patroclus he felt oddly shaken, stunned by
this swooping sensation of guilt and despair such as he had never known before. In those few
moments every other emotion and desire deserted him until he felt nothing but sick to the core.

It was Leptine who spoke first, in a voice so small Patroclus almost had to lean in to hear it. “It
doesn’t have to be like that,” she said.

Pamaia looked at her and for a second it was as if that fleeting understanding had returned between
them. “No it doesn’t,” she agreed stonily. “And it won’t be.”

Patroclus frowned again at the prominent collarbone and the new translucence of her flesh as
comprehension suddenly dawned. “Is that what you’re doing?” he asked tentatively. “You’re trying
to starve it?”
Pamaia did not answer. Leptine, however, looked positively horrified.

“Oh Pamaia, you can’t!” she cried.

“Do not tell me what I can and can’t do,” Pamaia retorted poisonously. “It’s my body, I will do
with it as I please!”

“No, I…that’s not what I meant!” Leptine shook her head. “I mean it doesn’t work like that!
Human life is tenacious…the baby will not die but will continue to live off you until there is
nothing left. It will take all the goodness out of the food you allow yourself until you both become
weak…if you continue this way you are both going to die.”

“Then what am I to do?” rounded Pamaia, not quite managing to hide the appeal of hopeless
desperation in her snarl. “I’ll not bring a new life into a world such as mine. I’ll die first.”

And with her hair matted about her face in her fury as she stared at them with eyes so wide, the
black pupils dilated to enormous size so that they emphasised the dark shadows and luminescent
paleness of her skin, Patroclus did not doubt it. And as those last words fell from her mouth, ringing
with all the gloomy certainty of the direst prophecy, Patroclus realised suddenly how very cold it
was in their darkened quarters.

Again, it was Leptine to break the silence. “There may be another way.”

oOo

They had to wait until dark. It was only when they were certain that the very last slave had retired
to their mattress that Patroclus and Leptine stole into the kitchens, with Penelope keeping watch.
Despite the security ensured by the cover of darkness they could not take any chances and
Patroclus did not need Leptine’s warning of what would happen to them if anyone discovered what
they were up to. It was perfectly clear to him, in the way her hands shook slightly as she worked
and the restless glances she sent at the door that this was the most dangerous thing they had ever
done.

They spread out the various plants and herbs they had gathered on the table before them, among
which Patroclus recognised silphium, rue, and hellebore. Leptine gave Patroclus the task of boiling
water while she prepared them, separating the useful parts from the rest of the plant with her little
silver knife. Patroclus watched her out of the corner of his eye, cleaning and chopping with brisk,
expert efficiency even as her hands trembled infinitesimally on the blade’s hilt. Before he could
push the thought away, he wondered whimsically how many times she had prepared this exact
concoction.

“Are you sure this is safe?” Patroclus blurted out, again before he could stop himself. “It’s not
going to…hurt her, is it?”

“Oh it’ll hurt,” Leptine sighed, grimly and heavily. “There’s no helping that. The least we can do is
add a little poppy to help. But there shouldn’t be any lasting complications.”

She swept up the chopped herbs and tipped them onto the brass measuring scales as Patroclus set
about extracting and crushing the pain-dulling seeds from the poppy pods. He could hear night
sounds through the midnight black of the open window; the slow mournful hooting of an owl, the
hissing whisper of crickets in the fields. An involuntary shiver ran up his spine. Despite Leptine’s
assurances, as well as his own awareness of the narrow ignorance surrounding such sciences, he
could not suppress a little sympathy for those who would associate their purpose with witchcraft.
There was also, Patroclus remembered with a squirm, the more practical threat of Amyntor or
Cleitus bursting in on them any moment. Although slaves had apparently been taking similar
potions to rid themselves of unwanted pregnancies for years they had always to do so in utmost
secret, as they were technically robbing their masters of the property they were entitled to.
Patroclus new the enormous risk Leptine ran if an overseer were to discover she was stealing from
them and the thought was almost enough to make him want to upturn the entire cauldron out the
window.

If Leptine possessed any of Patroclus’ uncertainty she did not show it. Her face was impassive as
she added each quantity into the boiling water, stirring vigorously. The steam rose from the
simmering surface, making her skin shine damp and rosy and her hair frizz about her face. A few
minutes later she ladled the draught into a rough wooden beaker and gave it to Patroclus to hold
while she doused out the flames. Patroclus peered into the murky, swamp-coloured depths. It was
difficult to imagine that something so innocuous could possess such sway over life and death. He
repressed another shiver.

“Okay let’s go,” whispered Leptine when she had extinguished the last candle and the two tip-toed
out into the passageway where Penelope was waiting for them.

It took them a great deal longer than usual to exit the palace. Aside from the fact that Patroclus was
balancing a full mug of hot liquid they had to move slowly and cautiously through the
passageways, stopping at every corner to check there was no guard on duty and retreating speedily
whenever there was. Patroclus could hear not only his own heart but Leptine’s and Penelope’s as
they moved silently through the tunnels, their feet making only the barest sound against the stone.
It came as a great relief when the back entrance finally came into view and their sweating skins
made contact with the cold, night air.

Pamaia was waiting for them as planned in the furthest field, away from the prying eyes of anyone
who might be outside the palace. She had lost all trace of her former vulnerability, her face hard
once again with the steely boldness of resolution. However, her gaze faltered slightly as she
watched them approach, her eyes narrowing at the steaming beaker in Patroclus’ hands.

“You drink it,” said Patroclus unnecessarily when several moments had passed.

“It’s poison,” replied Pamaia distrustfully.

“On my word it is not,” said Leptine. “Drink. The child will be flushed from your body.”

“How can I trust you?” asked Pamaia. “You, who have always hated me from the moment I first
set foot in this place?”

Patroclus and Leptine looked at each other. They could make no secret of how they felt for
Pamaia, any more than she could them. The old animosity still lay, thick as smoke, between them.
But there was no hatred deep enough that could persuade them to abandon her now, with not a soul
in the world to help her. How to explain to her, that it was not friendship or even sympathy that
stirred their alliance now, but human duty? One hand extended to another in need, nothing more or
less?

“If you want insurance,” spoke Penelope at last. “There is something you can do for us. There.
That’s a language you can understand, isn’t it?”

Pamaia held her gaze challengingly for a moment before her features softened in resignation. “It
is,” she accepted. “And, I suppose, what choice do I have?”
With that she took the beaker from Patroclus’ hands and raised it to her lips. Patroclus held his
breath as she drained it and swallowed. He could see it moving, travelling along her gullet before
suddenly she dropped the beaker so that it landed in the grass with a light thump, and with a
stomach-wrenching grasp her hands flew to her throat.

“What have you done to me?” she gasped, collapsing onto all fours and trying to retch.

Patroclus sent a terrified look at Leptine, scared that they had poisoned her after all, but thankfully
there were no signs of shock on her face. She knelt in the grass next to Pamaia and placed a hand
on her back, rubbing in circles as she continued to gag. “It’s alright,” she murmured against
Pamaia’s groans. “You’re alright, be strong, it will all be over soon-”

Pamaia released a long strangled sob that seemed to split the night. She turned her face into a beam
of moonlight and Patroclus could see the silver tears shining there. Then she screamed and
Penelope nudged his elbow.

“Come on,” she muttered. “This is not our place.”

She led him away, far enough that Pamaia’s tears and shouts of pain grew dulled. Patroclus could
see them still, two black silhouettes crouching in the dark, one holding the other tightly to her as
she convulsed and trembled. It was as if Leptine’s tender words of comfort carried on the rustling
of the leaves and the grass. Patroclus closed his eyes and muttered a prayer for Pamaia, feeling
with the full weight of regret that there was nothing else he could do. Penelope was holding his
hand; she squeezed it and Patroclus knew that he was crying.

It felt like several ages had passed by the time the shadow of Pamaia was able to rise unsteadily to
her feet. Leptine helped her bury what remained and they did so in silence, staying a while before
Pamaia was ready to walk, shakily away. Leptine came back alone, looking tired and for some
reason, much older. Behind her a slim, black figure was swallowed up by the darkness.

“Where’s she gone?” asked Penelope.

“The beach,” Leptine replied wearily. “She needs to be alone for a time.”

“Is she okay?” said Patroclus, knowing dully that it was a stupid question.

Leptine made a non-committal gesture. “She will be,” she answered. There wasn’t much more to
say, so nothing more was said.

oOo

They said goodbye at the back entrance. Leptine took off to the well to wash the blood from her
hands and clothes and Penelope disappeared soundlessly to her own quarters. As Patroclus climbed
the steps up to his bedroom it seemed to him that the stairs wound higher than usual, that each time
his foot fell it cost him extraordinary effort to pull the rest of his body back up, as if it had become
heavier. Perhaps it was the extra weight he was carrying, of a grief that didn’t really even belong to
him. Or otherwise nothing more than the unbearable heaviness of life and being, the burden of
understanding that always seems to drag us down until we learn how to shoulder it.

Achilles was awake, as Patroclus had known he would be. He was lying on the bed with his head
turned to the side facing the window, out of which moonlight was pouring. His arm was
outstretched, his fingers twitching as if he sought to grasp it. But he looked up when Patroclus
entered, pushing himself into a sitting position and the silvery beams lay forgotten.

“Patroclus,” he breathed, his face brightening like starlight. “I knew you’d come, it was only a
 matter of time. Does this mean I’m forgiven?”

Patroclus did not answer, only crossed the room until he stood in front of the bed. He saw Achilles’
expression change before him, morphing from delight at his arrival to incredulity at the look on
Patroclus’ face. He paused before the foot of the bed, his face cast silver as a coin in the dark light
and without moving, as if asking for an invitation. And Achilles, understanding, raised his arms as
if giving one.

Patroclus fell into them. He eyes drifted closed as Achilles’ arms tightened around him, bringing
him securely into his torso. Patroclus could feel his heart beating through his chest, pulsating
against his cheek like a tiny sun. Achilles did not ask what had happened, he did not need to.He
radiated warmth. He always had done. And all he needs to do, thought Patroclus, holding him, is
keep his heart beating forever and ever.

They stayed like that a long time and it was a longer time still before they fell asleep. Just before
they did, Patroclus, remembering, asked Achilles when he had lied to him. And Achilles, smiling,
told him.

Chapter End Notes

For those of you who might not have picked up on it, the "lie" refers to something
Achilles told Patroclus back in Chapter 22. Search, and ye shall find.
"Huios" is the Greek word for "child."

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 Hekate
Chapter Notes

Thank you everyone who commented on the last chapter so respectfully. It was a
difficult one to write and it was very reassuring to know I'd managed to deal with the
issue without turning the comments section into YouTube. Again, thank you all for
supporting this and making your thoughts heard, it's one of my favourite things about
writing.
Very long chapter now and pretty bookey towards the end...prepare for major action
next chapter.

The news was all over the palace before Patroclus even had a chance to hear it himself. Someone
who had it from the king directly had told a lord who’d confessed it to a porter who had whispered
it to a slave who had told the entire underground. It was scarcely possible to move down a corridor
without someone claiming that they had been the first to hear it, had been privy to the conversation
at the time or else wiping the floors with one ear crooked above ground. But regardless of the
source, the simple fact remained fixed and unaltered. The wedding was off.

Considering the number of those who claimed to have heard the news first hand, Patroclus was
surprised how few knew the truth of the actual events that had ended the engagement. So far the
rumours he’d heard had ranged from Chloē herself being pregnant to the princess actually having
been a manticore in disguise. Certainly many of the stories included the involvement of Thetis as it
had been difficult to miss her, storming into the palace in a whirl of blue-grey skirt , her red hair
streaming behind her and eyes raging with immortal fury to accost Peleus while he was having his
bath. Patroclus had done a double take on his journey down a hallway upon spotting several
servants with their ears pressed up against the door as Peleus’ oddly squeaky, high-pitched voice
informed his ex-wife that on no account would he be calling off the marriage unless King Thoas
first decreed so.

Clearly, the ire of a goddess was too much for a king’s will to stand for long, or so was the
common conclusion. Only Patroclus, Leptine and Penelope it seemed knew of how Chloē had gone
to her father and begged him to call off the marriage, possibly making the valid point that a flimsy
alliance really wasn’t worth the consequences of divine wroth. With the added pressure of Thetis
glaring at him from across the room, Thoas’ fatherly compassion proved indomitable and within
the time it took to dissolve a legal contract the two kings were shaking hands amiably, though it
must be said, letting go rather quickly.

“You’d think they’d find something else to talk about,” muttered a disgruntled Achilles, having
just overheard a slave-girl telling her friend that Chloē had taken one look at Achilles’ nether
regions and headed for the hills. “Like, I don’t know, that perhaps we’re at war.”

“Or perhaps that you’ve just been made the youngest army captain in a century,” Patroclus
suggested with a raised eyebrow.

Achilles tossed him a dirty look but said nothing. Certainly they had found very little time to
celebrate their victory of late. Over the past few weeks the Thessalian force had been mounting
over the border and the time had finally come for the Myrmidon army to depart, including a
number of the most formidable young members of the home defence. And with it, Achilles as
captain.

It had not taken Acastus much persuading to allow Patroclus to serve as his second-in-command. It
was mutually accepted that Patroclus had served his worth both on the battlefield and off it, his
deeds as well as his status of hetairoi making him more than the suitable choice of deputy. And so
Patroclus found himself in the courtyard, saddling his horse with provisions for the journey ahead
and watching the stream of Corinthian household staff stumbling through the gates, lugging heavy
chests and tripods away with them.

“You know, I have never understood what those were for,” said Chloē, eyeing one of the latter
thoughtfully.

“Me neither,” replied Patroclus. “I mean, I suppose you could balance flower vases on it or
something.”

“There’s a hole in the middle,” Chloē pointed out.

Patroclus shrugged cluelessly. “Then I really have no idea.”

Chloē gave her little indecorous giggle. She was prone to laughing much more now, and even when
she wasn’t there was a ghost of it on her face, as if she were just waiting to. Patroclus spotted
Pamaia barking orders concerning some of her dresses and supressed a smile of his own.

“How long is the way back to Corinth?” he asked Chloē.

“At least four days hence,” Chloē replied. “But I do not think the time will go by too slowly.”

She cast a significant glance in Pamaia’s direction and Patroclus felt his insides glow, as if
someone had smothered them in warm butter. Chloē was grinning again, her brown eyes so alight
with joy that Patroclus hadn’t even needed to ask if she was happy. Were it another case he would
not have had the chance, for in the next moment Chloē’s arms were around his neck and she was
hugging him so tightly he thought he might faint.

“Thank you Patroclus,” she whispered into his ear. “For everything.”

“Thank you,” Patroclus wheezed back. “I mean, we couldn’t have done it without you.”

Chloē laughed. “I’m sure you’d have found a way,” she said. “I’m starting to think you’re the kind
of person who can do anything, if you put your mind to it.”

She released him and waved sunnily as he massaged his ribs. “Goodbye,” she said. “And
remember, if you’re ever in Corinth you have a place to stay. And that goes for all of you,” she
added as Leptine and Penelope had just emerged.

They waved goodbye as she followed her father into the royal carriage. Pamaia hesitated,
apparently having some trouble with the clasp of her bag. They had not spoken since that night;
Leptine had informed him sternly that some things were not for sharing and if Pamaia ever wanted
to speak of it then she could tell Chloē in her own good time. But she did not look unwell, although
Patroclus was wary of asking. They were not friends after all, there was too much bad blood
between them for that. But the old animosity had died away, and Patroclus was glad of that at least.

When she had made sure they were out of earshot, she looked up at Patroclus. Her eyes were hard
as they always were but they lacked their previous malice and there was a new flatness to her tone
when she spoke.
“Congratulations,” she said. “Be sure you look after each other.”

Patroclus nodded. “You too.”

The corners of Pamaia’s mouth twitched in what he thought might have been a quickly suppressed
smile. “She is a good girl,” she acknowledged. “A sweet girl. She will need protecting from some
of the harsher realities of life.”

“Thank you for agreeing to go with her,” said Patroclus sincerely.

Pamaia shrugged. “Every house welcomes a dancer,” she replied. “Besides, we are even now.
There are no lost bargains between us. Which means neither of us have any excuse to see each
other again.”

Patroclus inclined his head in acknowledgement. For a moment, Pamaia’s eyes flickered to
Leptine’s and held her gaze. Patroclus was just aware of Leptine nodding slightly before the
contact was broken and she had turned round abruptly to follow the Corinthians out the gates, her
long black hair swinging behind her. Patroclus watched her go, and as she climbed in next to
Chloē, could not help wishing her well.

“All these goodbyes are making me quite emotional,” he stated with a mock sniff.

“Well I hope you can sum up the effort for a few more,” answered Penelope. “My ship’s just
arrived.”

Patroclus whirled round instantly, mouth hanging open. “You’re leaving?” he demanded
indignantly. “But I thought…Odysseus…”

He gestured vaguely in the direction of the Ithacan and Myrmidon armies where Odysseus was
busy making last-minute preparations. Penelope shook her head.

“Someone has to go back home and look after things,” she replied. “Odysseus needs someone he
trusts to rule in his place while he fights the Thessalians. Better me than some shit-brained old
army veteran who will turn Ithaca into a chauvinist’s Elysium.”

Patroclus blinked at her glumly. “But,” he began. “I’m going to miss you.”

Penelope laughed and enveloped him into an embrace. “And I you,” she told him. “You have
transgressed all expectations, Patroclus. I have never been more proud of someone I can call a
friend. Promise you’ll write to me.”

“Every day,” Patroclus swore passionately.

“That’s excessive,” said Penelope. “But do keep me posted on the goings on of this place. It’s very
rare that anything exciting happens in Ithaca. And watch over him,” she added in an undertone,
jerking her head towards Achilles. “It’s our job, remember?”

Patroclus nodded. “I will.”

Penelope smiled and clasped his shoulders. “Good man,” she said. Someone had brought her a
horse to take her to the beach. She swung up onto it easily, as if anxious to get off the ground, and
once seated, despite the man’s breaches she wore, she looked more like a queen than Patroclus had
ever seen her.

“Keep in touch,” she ordered him, pulling on the reigns. “I’m rooting for you, remember?”
And with a last roguish wink and a wave for her husband, she cantered out the palace gates and
disappeared from sight. Patroclus wanted to watch until she had gone completely but an urgent jerk
at his arm prevented him from doing so. He turned to see Leptine, looking anxiously at him. “I
need to talk to you,” she whispered.

“Patroclus!” Achilles’ voice rang from across the courtyard. “We need to go.”

“Hold on,” Patroclus called back and gestured for Leptine to lead on.

She led him towards a small alcove, away from the bustling servants and the clanking of newly
polished armour where they were certain not to be overheard. Patroclus frowned curiously at her
and saw that she had resumed her old habit of biting her nails.

“What’s wrong?” he asked concernedly.

“There’s nothing wrong,” replied Leptine, chewing her lip. “Not…exactly.”

“Then what is it?”

She cast a cautious look over her shoulder, checking that there was no one nearby who could hear
before taking a deep breath. “Deiomachus has asked me to marry him.”

Patroclus felt as though his whole stomach had plummeted towards his feet. Conscious of Leptine
watching him nervously he blinked through the shock and struggled to sound as if he knew how to
articulate words.

“Bloody hell,” he uttered. “Wow. Um…and uh…what was it that was the…er…how do you
say…”

“I said yes,” Leptine cut across him bluntly. “Was that wrong?”

Patroclus scratched the back of his head evasively, rather taken aback by her wide, anxious eyes
and the urgency in her voice. “I dunno,” he shrugged unhelpfully. “Do you er…love him?”

“What does it matter?” answered Leptine impatiently. “Patroclus, he said that he’s going to use his
army wages and whatever loot he gets from Thessaly to buy my freedom from Peleus.And then he
will come back and marry me. Did you hear me, Patroclus? He’s going to buy my freedom. I’m
going to be free!”

And now he understood why her eyes shone so brightly, why her cheeks were so aglow with all the
warmth of the newly in love. She looked so excited, yet there was something else there, something
that could only be seen if you had been friends with Leptine for as long as he had. “So what’s the
matter?” he asked her.

Her bottom lip trembled. “I’m scared,” she confessed, her voice tiny. “What if something goes
wrong and he doesn’t come back? Or he falls in love with some pretty camp follower over there
and forgets all about me? And I’ll just be sat here, waiting, so close but with no way of knowing
how much further there is to go…I’m so close, Patroclus! I’m so, so close to being happy, to
having everything I’ve only ever dreamed of having and I’m…I’m terrified!”

“Hush,” whispered Patroclus, folding her against him and holding her tightly as she began to sob
into his chest. “Shh, don’t cry, you mustn’t cry. This is amazing news Leptine, amazing. I’m so, so
happy for you. It’s only natural to be scared but you really shouldn’t be…everything’s going to be
fine. Better than fine, you’re going to be a free woman! And you’re going to have your own house,
and a grey cat like you’ve always wanted, and…and babies and…and a husband who loves you.
This is everything Leptine and it will happen because no one deserves it more than you, no one!
Please don’t cry…don’t be scared, this is amazing…”

Leptine made a tiny, hiccoughing noise that Patroclus took to mean she was calming down. He
gently prised her off his chest and looked at her. Her eyes were red and there were tear tracks
running down her face, thin pale lines shining through the dirt and ash of the kitchen fires. He
wiped them away, smoothing her brown hair down around her ears.

“Patroclus!” he heard Achilles shouting.

“I’m coming!” he yelled back, rolling his eyes before turning apologetically back to Leptine. “I
have to go,” he told her. “Please don’t worry. It’s going to be fine.”

Leptine sniffed in response. “Here,” she said, and pressed into his hand a single yellow primrose,
such as the kind Deiomachus so often presented her with. “For luck. Look after yourself. Don’t let
Achilles do anything stupid.”

“I can’t work miracles Leptine,” Patroclus grinned, tucking the primrose into his tunic pocket.

“You’ve done alright so far,” Leptine shrugged. “Go on. And come home safely.”

Patroclus hugged her and just had time to plant a kiss on her forehead before sprinting off to join
the Myrmidons. Achilles was waiting for him by the gates, holding Banthus and Xalius by the
reigns. Patroclus looked them up and down incredulously.

“We’re travelling by horseback?” he asked, scandalised.

“No idiot, we’re planning on defeating the Thessalians with the power of flight,” replied Achilles,
scathingly. “How else do you plan on getting across the border?”

“But it’s a full days’ ride!” Patroclus protested, feeling his knees grow weak at the thought. “At the
very least!”

“Penelope mentioned you Northerners have little experience in this method of travel,” said
Odysseus, appearing from behind them. “Don’t worry. After three hours or so you stop feeling very
much at all. Until the next morning of course, but by then you’ll have an army of ten thousand
strong to take your mind of things!”

Chortling, he climbed up on to his horse with the same grace his wife had done before him.
Patroclus turned to Achilles, who was wearing a smug-faced grin, and glared blackly at him.

“I hate you,” he said.

“I missed you too,” Achilles replied.

oOo

The Myrmidons were hardy folk and strong soldiers, however it soon became apparent that
travelling by horseback was an ordeal that few could have predicted. By the time the sun was
highest in the sky several men were complaining of pains in the most sensitive of areas, as well as
general aching all over the body. The best that could be said was that it was not a hot day; the sky
retained a fair amount of cloud coverage and a cool breeze aided the horses in batting flies away
from their rumps and ears, as well as jolting Patroclus away from the strong temptation to fall
asleep. As it was, this would have been nigh impossible, for the simple fact that he had Achilles as
a travelling companion.
Patroclus did not know whether it was the successful ending of an unwanted engagement, his
promotion to army captain or the simple anticipation of what promised to be a particularly bloody
battle up ahead. But whatever the reason, Achilles was in a better mood than Patroclus had seen
him in for a very long time. He had spent the better half of the journey whistling, (bad) singing,
(worse) and chatting aimlessly, regaling his company with a number of “funny” stories, (an
irritating number of which seemed to involve Patroclus). When at last Patroclus threatened to
resume his silent treatment he turned to Odysseus for his source of entertainment, asking several
questions about the king of Ithaca’s adventures both on land and on sea.

“Is it true you are a pirate?” Achilles asked him directly, interrupting Odysseus’ explanation of
Arabian shipping laws.

If Odysseus was taken aback he did not show it. On the contrary, he looked at Achilles as if he had
just asked him a question of very deep, meaningful and perplexing significance. “Some say pirate,”
he answered, scratching his short brown beard thoughtfully. “Others say an enterprising young
man particularly skilled at coercing people out of seaborne goods.”

Patroclus scoffed. Achilles spared him a dirty look before returning to Odysseus. “You’re not that
young,” he stated bluntly. “But is it hard? I mean to say, is it very dangerous?”

“Depends on how you do it,” answered Odysseus, apparently deeply amused at Achilles’ curiosity.
“Of course with anything from a medium to a smaller sized vessel you can get away with the
traditional old boarding and slaughter…we always look like a merchant ship so we tend to catch
most people unawares…of course, with anything larger you’ve got to use a little more…initiative.
A particularly favourite trick of mine…you disguise the ship to look like you’ve been caught in a
storm, or robbed by pirates yourself. Then you wait until another boat draws nearer, looking to
offer help and…”

Odysseus drew a thin, long-nailed finger across his throat. Patroclus winced as Achilles laughed
heartily. Catching sight of his expression, Odysseus tilted his head.

“I see Patroclus disapproves of my methods,” he said with a small smile.

“I just don’t find the idea of killing innocent people particularly funny,” Patroclus replied
haughtily.

“An interesting one, the word ‘innocent’,” observed Odysseus. “Would you be so quick to use it, I
wonder, if I were to tell you the men I robbed belong to Nekros, or to the rich King Agamemnon?
And that a fair portion of the spoils go to much smaller vaults than my own?”

Patroclus said nothing, unwilling to enter into a debate on ends versus means. He knew now that he
was right to be wary of Odysseys; no matter how much he liked him and Penelope, they were both
far too cunning for anyone’s good.

“Well I don’t see a problem with it,” said Achilles stoutly. “Except that there’s not much glory to
be offered in that kind of trick. A fair fight is the only real honourable means of gain.”

Odysseus laughed. “You might think differently when the odds are not entirely in your favour,” he
advised him. “Although I think our definitions of glory might differ somewhat slightly. I see
myself as an adventurer above all things…for what is gold and silver compared to new lands…a
distant sunrise, the smell of strange spices in the air…different faces, different worlds. And so
many more, yet to be discovered. That, my friends, is the true treasure. The real glory of living.”

Achilles and Patroclus exchanged glances. Suddenly Patroclus was uncomfortably aware that this
was the most he had ever travelled, the furthest away from either Phthia or Opus he had ever been.
The thought was strangely discomforting; he wondered how much time he had left to see all these
worlds Odysseus spoke of with such wonder…or even if he ever would. Looking at Achilles, he
wondered whether they were making the best use of their time, fighting pointless wars he didn’t
really understand, or if they’d be better off finding a boat and sailing away together, in search of
another kind of immortality.

They journeyed on for several hours. With the steady plodding of horse hooves being the only
measurement of time Patroclus had no way of telling how long; certainly it seemed like several
seasons had passed as the scenery shifted around them. As they edged further north the fields that
surrounded the citadel became fewer, the land around them no longer flat but harsh and
uncompromising. Greens morphed into browns and then into greys with the approach of the
mountains, not gently rolling but sharp and craggy as flint stone, their shadows casting ominous
stretches of dark over the ground.

There was a change in the temperature up here too. Patroclus shivered as a blast of wind whistled
past them and drew his cloak tighter over his sheepskin tunic. Beside him the end of Achilles’ nose
and his hollowed cheeks were slightly pink; Patroclus resisted the urge to ride up close to him and
put his arm around his shoulders. He was not sure how much of the army knew about the two of
them, but he was unwilling to give credence to the several theories as to why Patroclus was made
second over several more experienced and prolific warriors. Whispered rumours of nepotism were
already rife enough with Achilles’ captaincy and he had been wary of several eyes on him the
whole time he had been riding.

At long last they came to the border and Achilles gave the command for his company to halt.
Patroclus peered at their surroundings through his face wrappings. They were right in the shadow
of a large mountain, on the edge of an equally foreboding looking forest. Before he had a chance to
voice his anxieties however, Achilles had already swung of his horse and was swaggering over to
join the other officers.

“Looks like good enough ground than we’ll find anywhere else,” stated General Acastus, sifting
the earth with the toe of his boot. “Give the order to make camp.”

“We’re making camp here?” Patroclus questioned Achilles as he joined him in unloading the
horses. “But it’s so dark…and…spacious.”

“For Gods’ sake Patroclus,” Achilles huffed. “We’re doing battle against an army nearly twice the
size of ours in the morning. I’d really rather you didn’t pussy out now over some scary looking
trees.”

“What I meant,” Patroclus snarled. “Is that it would be the perfect terrain for an ambush.”

Achilles frowned, glancing round the space thoughtfully. “You may have a point,” he conceded.
Then, spotting Deiomachus and Leonides, he waved them over. “You two are in charge of
overseeing the camp,” he told them. “Patroclus and I are going to scout the area. There’s a chance
the Thessalians have sent spies ahead of us.”

Deiomachus and Leonides nodded and went to organise provisions while Achilles and Patroclus
made a beeline for the trees. Patroclus suppressed a gulp as the forest swallowed them up; it was
darker than the one back home with the trees growing much closer together, shutting out the very
last of the dying evening light overhead. He was suddenly very aware of the sound of his own
breathing and that of Achilles’ beside him. Evidently Achilles was thinking along the same lines
for he gestured towards his weapon. “Swords out, do you reckon?”
“Yeah,” nodded Patroclus, glad that he had made the suggestion first.

They picked their way very carefully, sensitive to the slightest hint of sound or movement. Achilles
was on hyper-alert, his ears pricked, nostrils slightly flared like a wild animal picking up a scent.
Even the fine blonde hairs on the back of his neck were vigilant, standing to military attention. He
searched the undergrowth while Patroclus watched the trees, ready for the flash of a bow and
arrow or the booted foot of a Thessalian spy. They came to nothing, however, until a dip in the
patches of bracken they were following led them into an almost clearing, right in the centre of
which there seemed to be what looked like a very tall, thin boulder.

“What in Hades is that doing there?” Achilles frowned, edging around it curiously.

Patroclus followed nervously. As he did so, his eyes were drawn to the branches surrounding the
boulder, from which dangled a number of curious objects: snatches of ribbon, pieces of brightly
coloured glass, feathers, little cloth pouches. They all dangled jauntily in the mountain breeze,
flashing amongst the leaves like some bizarre fruit.

“It’s a woman,” Achilles breathed, examining the rough stone. “Patroclus, it’s a sculpture.”

Sure enough Patroclus could make out the crude bulk of roughly-hewn breasts, wide hips and long
hair framing a coarse, expressionless face. Once again his eyes flitted to the glittering branches and
then back to the stone carving.

“It’s not a sculpture,” he said. “It’s a shrine.”

Achilles stood up slowly, his eyes flickering towards the strange dancing objects. Patroclus saw
him shiver and a swallow travelled down his throat.

“We should go,” he said.

“So soon?” came a voice.

Quick as lightning Achilles thrust out an arm, pushing Patroclus back so that he almost fell against
the statue, and in his other hand a knife suddenly glinted. Harsh laughter echoed through the trees,
the sound of thin reeds rubbing together. Patroclus held his breath as up ahead the bracken parted,
revealing a figure coming towards them. Then, as they entered the clearing, he breathed a sigh of
relief.

It was a woman. She was old, impossibly old; her brown, weather-beaten skin hanging off her like
scraps of old leather. She was also tiny, her long white hair falling way past her knees, and the
sack-like brown robe she wore seemed to drown her. From her face, wizened and lined as a
riverbed, two beetle black eyes blinked out at them, creased in the dry humour that even now still
lingered in the trees. Patroclus nudged Achilles, telling him to drop the knife but he ignored him
and the weapon remained raised.

“Who are you?” Achilles demanded. “Declare yourself.”

“I need not, nor shall I,” replied the woman in her thin, reedy voice. “And you can put that down,
son of Peleus, unless your fear of the Thessalians extends to an old woman.”

At that Achilles did lower the knife, although slowly, and his eyes never left her face but held her
gaze warily. “I fear nothing the mortal world can offer me,” he declared seriously. “So unless you
be a goddess, you might dry directing your taunts elsewhere.”

The woman’s smile was no more than a contortion of lines. “I am no goddess,” she replied.
“Although from what I hear, it would make little difference to you, son of Peleus, who holds the
immortal world in likewise scorn. But no, I am merely a humble priestess looking to live out the
rest of her days in service to the Divine.”

She gestured with a long-nailed, claw-like hand towards the statue. Patroclus followed her gesture
and found to his discomfort that despite the crudity of the carving, a reverent shiver ran up his
spine.

“Hekate,” the woman said. “Mistress of magic, Lady of mysteries, Queen of all things that dwell in
the dark. Will you not allow her to pull back the veil, to dispel the mists that at this moment
enshroud your future…”

“I have no business with the Witch Queen,” Achilles interrupted her. “Nor any with the future.”

“Fool,” the woman snarled, her voice sharp and dry as the crack of the whip. “Your destiny will be
offered to you on a silver platter, when the time comes, although the fates will seem obscured to
you until it is too late. However, I was not speaking to you.”

Patroclus held his breath as the woman laid her heavy, black stare upon to him. Logic told him that
he had never met her before, yet somehow it seemed that she knew everything about him, as if
right now she could see into his soul.

“Tell me son of Menoetius,” she said and her voice rang out as if several had spoken. “Why always
do you walk in shadow? Do you think the Gods will not see you if you hide behind the sun?”

Achilles and Patroclus exchanged confused, nervous glances. “No…” replied Patroclus tentatively.
“I suppose I just…I didn’t think they’d be that interested in me.”

“An unwise presumption,” the old woman sneered. “Yet so it is with the ways of men: so often
those who expect greatness receive little, and those who seek to fade into history find themselves
with more fame than they could have possibly imagined. Others may think you are nobody
Patroclus, you may even still think so yourself. But I tell you now: The Gods have great plans for
you.”

Patroclus gulped and sought another look at Achilles. A crease had appeared between his brows
and he was chewing his lip, clearly discomfited. The old woman was still watching him
expectantly, as if anticipating his reaction.

“Will you ask the Goddess?” she prompted him after he still had not spoken. “Will you draw back
the veil?”

Her hand was extended now, reaching out to him. And suddenly, Patroclus had an inexplicable yet
powerful urge to take it.

As if reading his mind, Achilles sent him a warning glance. “Patroclus,” he said. “We have to get
back.”

“Wait a minute,” murmured Patroclus. He was looking into the stone face of Hekate’s statue.
Before he had thought it seemed blank, vacant, even vapid. Now, it seemed to be smiling at him.

“Wouldn’t you like to know,” the old woman was purring at him. “The answers lie before you…”

The answers…and if he thought about it, Patroclus realised he had a lot of questions. For one day
Achilles would have to marry and what would happen to the two of them when he did? How long
was it before the divinity in his veins started yearning for something greater than Patroclus could
provide? Tomorrow they would be walking onto a battlefield, and who was to say what the day
might bring? And always Thetis’ prophecy sounded at the back of his head, never far away:
Someone is going to die…it might even be you…

“Patroclus,” Achilles’ voice sounded louder, yanking Patroclus back to reality. “Come on. We’re
leaving now.”

Patroclus nodded, trying to clear his head of the sudden disturbing images that had flooded it. He
felt strangely cold all over and more aware than ever of the pressing, claustrophobia of the
increasingly darkening trees and the cool, damp smell of the clearing. He took Achilles’ hand and
allowed him to lead him authoritatively away, sparing one look over his shoulder for the old
woman. However, no sooner had he turned his head than had she disappeared.

They walked back through the forest in silence. Achilles still hadn’t let go of Patroclus’ hand which
Patroclus was glad of; his head was still a swimming mess of dark greens and browns and he felt
woozy, as if he had drunk too much wine. Once they had arrived back at camp and into the open
air however the vertigo lifted and he raised a shaking hand to his forehead to wipe of the sweat,
aware that Achilles was watching him anxiously.

“Are you alright?” he asked.

Patroclus nodded again. “Yeah,” he muttered. “That was weird.”

Achilles said nothing but continued to look at Patroclus with concern.

Deiomachus and Leonides had done a good job; all the tents were pitched and someone had even
got the cooking fires going, around which men had huddled in small groups to warm their hands
and ladle thick-looking stew into their bowls. Achilles and Patroclus ate quickly, unwilling to make
small-talk with the other captains and when they were done headed directly into their tent which,
Patroclus was pleased to see, was one of the larger and less moth-eaten ones.

They undressed, dumping their travel-worn cloaks and tunics in the corner next to the armour they
would be putting on the next day. Patroclus tried not to look at it. The anticipation of the coming
battle had just started to kick in and he wasn’t in the mood for another bout of wooziness. The
events in the forest had disconcerted him more than he could reason; try as he might he could not
get the little old woman’s words out of his head.

Clearly they had had an effect on Achilles too for he turned to Patroclus abruptly, his hands planted
on his hips. “Listen Patroclus,” he said in the tone of voice he used whenever he wanted to
convince people that he was a solemn and mature young man. “What that old witch said…about
you being a nobody. It’s bullshit. No one has ever thought that.”

Patroclus raised an eyebrow. Achilles made an assenting gesture. “Okay, so it’s possible some
people used to think that. And maybe one or two still do. But those people are very few and far
between. You’re a hero now! And that’s something no one can deny. You heard Odysseus and
Penelope…people have literally travelled far and wide just to see if the stories about you are true.”

“To see if the stories about you are true,” Patroclus corrected him. “I’m just a quirky side
character.”

“You are not,” Achilles gritted his teeth angrily. “That’s what I’m trying to tell you. This is your
story Patroclus, your song. Because you’re golden and they know it now…I’ve known it since first
I ever laid eyes on you. And now they do to. But you’ve never been nobody to me. Not ever.”
Achilles stared at him plaintively and wide-eyed and Patroclus half wanted to laugh at the
desperate bid for understanding in his expression. He stepped forward, placing both his hands on
the sides of Achilles’ face and looked directly into his eyes.

“I know,” he promised him as Achilles’ bottom lip trembled. “And I’m sorry. All that stuff with
Chloē…I don’t know why I was so jealous…I just can’t stand the thought of losing you.”

“But you won’t,” Achilles insisted and Patroclus noticed that he was blinking rather fiercely. “You
won’t lose me because there’s no one…I don’t see anyone else. Only you-”

Patroclus cut him off, pressing his lips fiercely to Achilles’. Achilles responded eagerly, throwing
off the last sleeves of his tunic so that he could grasp Patroclus by the shoulders, pressing their
bodies closer together. They moved hastily, clumsily, tripping over the pots and cushions littered
around the tiny space of their tent and Patroclus realised, with a violent pain somewhere in his
chest how much he really had missed him.

“You can’t pretend now,” Achilles muttered against the crook of Patroclus’ neck as he pushed him
onto the pallet. “You’re much more jealous than me.”

“I’m not-” Patroclus tried to protest before he felt Achilles’ hand skirt his hip.

“I didn’t like you not talking to me,” said Achilles. “Don’t do it again. I would rather have you
scream at me than ignore me.”

“Funny, I was just starting to enjoy the peace and quiet,” Patroclus breathed back and felt Achilles’
chuckle reverberate through his kiss.

oOo

An hour later Achilles lay sleeping, his face calm and untroubled once more. Patroclus watched
him a little while, lightly following the curves of his bones with his finger and savouring how his
eyelids flickered slightly when Patroclus’ knuckle brushed his bottom lip. Then, trying carefully
not to disturb him, he gently untangled himself from Achilles’ arms and crossed to the other side of
the tent where his clothes lay.

He dressed quickly, drawing his cloak tightly around himself to protect from the biting midnight
cold. He frowned at his sword, deliberating, and in the end settled on Achilles’ knife, tucking it
securely into his boot. Then, with one last look at Achilles to make sure he hadn’t woken, he
slipped out from the tent and into the night.

There was no one left outside, the mountainous temperature having driven even the commanders in
search of the protection offered by canvass walls. All around him the sounds of sleep rumbled from
tent flaps, a hum of breath like low thunder, readying itself for the storm ahead. The Myrmidon
army lay in a pool of milky light as the moon shone directly overhead, the barest patch of it scraped
by the summit of a distant mountain. It lit a path for Patroclus, guiding him away from the camp
and sloping downwards into the forest.

The way was harder to find by nightfall and Patroclus swore at his foolishness for not bringing a
candle. He was aided by the moon, however, and the reassurance that for some reason he was less
fearful than he had been earlier that evening. All previous dread had been replaced by a feverish,
humming anticipation, almost reaching excitement as he found his way once again into the
clearing.

The old woman was there, as Patroclus knew she would be. She was kneeling before the statue of
the goddess Hekate, her long white hair flowing around her, giving her the look of a drowned
person. Patroclus hovered uncertainly between the trees, unsure of whether he should announce
himself. This, however, proved unnecessary as the woman lifted her head and turned to him with a
knowing smile.

“Back again, Patroclus?” she rasped in her rough, high voice. “What is your excuse this time?”

Patroclus shifted his feet awkwardly and shrugged. “Curiosity.”

The old woman nodded sagely. “It happens to the best of us,” she said. “Even the strongest men
are oft unable to withstand the pull of the moon.”

She gestured to him to come forward. He complied somewhat tentatively, unwilling to meet her
eyes and fall victim to that terrible, soul-searching gaze. He stopped before the feet of the statue,
looking up into the face of the goddess. Hekate loomed down at him, seeming somehow taller and
more imposing in the dark. For a moment it seemed as though her folded hands would twitch and
shoot out towards him, even as the old woman’s hands were now extended.

“What is it you want to know?” she asked him at last.

Patroclus tore his gaze away from the goddess, forcing himself to look at the old woman. She was
watching him, her expression steady, betraying nothing. He took a deep breath, swallowing the last
of his fear before he spoke.

“Everything,” he said.
 Deiomachus
Chapter Notes

Longest. Chapter. Ever.

I'm so sorry this took so long, I'm going through a kind of shitty period with my
writing at the moment (inspirational/motivational issues), I promise I won't let this
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myself into it (not to mention 2 years!!) but please, bear with me if it takes a little
longer than I'd like. I promise there will always be an update in the end, even when
you feel like quitting it forever. I don't know if that'll persuade you to stick with this
but I hope it does, the support of you guys has meant more to me than I can articulate.

Thank you as ever. Much fighting, much war in this one. Prepare for some sadness.

“That’s rather a big ask,” said the old woman. “Are you sure you wouldn’t just like to know your
future?”

Patroclus shrugged indifferently. “Yeah, I suppose that’ll do.”

The old woman turned and, slipping her hand inside her brown robe, withdrew two small pieces of
flint. With them in hand, she crouched before a cluster of dry twigs and leaves at the base of the
Hekate statue and set about striking them. Patroclus watched her, a little cautious of whether
lighting a fire in a dry forest clearing was really the most well thought out idea but before he had a
chance to ask this she had stood up, a withered palm extended towards him.

“As with all services, the Goddess requires payment,” she rasped.

“I haven’t got any money,” replied Patroclus.

The priestess’ thin mouth twisted in a not entirely pleasant smile. “Gold is of little interest to the
Divine,” she answered. “Not all things with value glitter.”

She kept her palm upturned, expectantly. Patroclus searched briefly on his person; he was carrying
nothing of worth apart from Achilles’ knife tucked safely into the heel of his boot. He was about to
give up and ask the priestess whether he could owe her when he felt something soft brush against
the skin of his hand. Further inspection showed it to be the little yellow primrose Leptine had
given him, tucked into the waistband of his breeches. He held it out to her dubiously. “Will this
do?”

“What is it?” asked the old woman.

“A gift from someone very dear to me,” Patroclus replied. “A token of good luck, for tomorrow’s
battle.”

The old woman plucked the flower from Patroclus’ fingers and turned it over in her bird-like
talons, examining it as if it were a diamond. “It will more than do,” she answered. “This is a
powerful thing. All gifts given in love carry their own magic: protection, luck, healing. Are you
sure you wish to throw such a boon away? You may need more than a little of all three tomorrow.”
Patroclus, whose eyes had widened in reaction to the woman’s announcement, looked at the small,
unassuming thing in her hands and considered snatching it back. But then, he reflected, there can
be no better protection than knowledge, especially if the future tells me I am to die. “I am sure,” he
said.

The old woman took the flower and walked over to the fire, dropping it into the flames. Patroclus
felt a jolt of panic strike through him as it was consumed, to be replaced by a feeling of regret. But
then the woman was walking back towards him, the light of the fire flickering over her face like
scars and her eyes were dark as fathomless caves as she solemnly held his gaze.

“Three questions,” she spoke, her voice deep and low as he had never heard it before. “Ask.”

Patroclus took a deep breath, feeling the weight of enormity upon him. He was well aware that he
would never get this chance again and resolved to make the most of it. However the fire was
distracting, the blaze rising and twisting like a fickle serpent and he struggled to order in his mind
all the things he wanted most to know the answers to.

“What will happen tomorrow?” he blurted out once the pressure of thinking had become too much.
Will I die? Will Achilles? Or will it be someone…someone else?

He knew as he spoke how foolish he sounded. Hoping the priestess would not take his question too
literally, he held his breath as he waited for her answer. To his surprise however, it seemed a gleam
of understanding danced in the old woman’s eye.

“You speak of the sea daughter’s prophecy, the one they call Thetis,” she smiled. “She has the
Sight, yet she sees only as she desires and her will clouds her vision. I cannot tell you all that will
happen tomorrow, for the tides of battle are changing and unpredictable and that knowledge is not
made known to me. However, I can tell you with some degree of certainty that neither you nor the
son of Peleus will die.”

Patroclus breathed a sigh of relief. Yet, even as this assurance comforted him, he could not
suppress the feeling of dread that welled in him as he remembered Thetis’ reputation for
predictions that struck later rather than imminently. He put this from his mind however as the old
woman moved to stoke the fire and moved on to his second question.

“When will Achilles marry?”

The priestess shifted the burning twigs with a stick without looking up. “Exactly four moons from
now,” she replied. “To a princess from a land not far from yours.”

Patroclus felt as though he had been stuck open by a mallet made of ice. He stared at the old
woman unseeingly, gripped by a sort of numb horror as her words sunk in. Achilles was going to be
married. And not in the far distant future, to a nameless face made of smoke but in four months’
time, to a princess “from a land not far from yours”. Until now, Patroclus had known Achilles
would marry as a principle, in the same way that he knew all men must die and that one day the
sun would burn out. But now, with the old woman stating it so bluntly, he understood it for the first
time; not as a concept, but as stone hard fact.

He felt tears rise at the back of his throat and almost choked when he spoke again: “Will he love
her?”

The old woman fixed him with a beady black eye, her brow lowered in a stern frown. “Is that really
how you would like to waste your last question?”
Patroclus bit back the stubborn “Yes” he was about to spit out. On one hand, the desire to know
was such that he could feel it burning him. On the other, perhaps he would be better off without
such information. Caught in the limbo of his ambivalence he hesitated, and the old woman looked
at him disdainfully.

“I will tell you to save you from stupidity,” she snapped. “I see two wives in Achilles’ future. Both
daughters of kings, yet one will be a slave. You will love the pauper more but it is she you should
fear. That is all I will say. Now, ask your final question and make it worthy.”

Patroclus had opened his mouth to argue, demanding for her to speak more of Achilles’ future
bride but judging by the look on her face he thought better of it. Instead, he asked the question that
had been plaguing him since the old woman had first spoken to him, the question that had
prompted his return into the forest and the shade of Hekate’s statue.

“You said the Gods had plans for me,” he said, steeling himself. “What are they?”

The old woman cracked her thin smile, showing few and loosened teeth and beckoned to Patroclus
with a crook of her finger. “Come by the fire.”

Patroclus moved warily forward. The fire was burning brighter than ever, climbing so high he half
feared it would catch a tree branch. The old woman reached once again inside the folds of her robe
and withdrew a leather pouch. From it, she scattered sharp-smelling, pungent herbs into the flames,
murmuring words in a language Patroclus did not know as she did so. Half her face was lit by the
bright orange light, the other half cloaked in shadow and Patroclus remembered a story his mother
had told him of the Old Crone, the wisest and darkest of all the Goddess’ Aspects.

Suddenly she looked up and it seemed a very different face was before him than the one he had
seen moments ago. “Look into the flames,” she said.

Patroclus obeyed, squinting past the smoke that stung and watered his eyes. For several moments
he could see nothing, then as he stared for longer figures began to emerge, flooding his brain with
images as clear as a water’s reflection. A young, dark boy, sitting on a throne with the coronet of
state upon his head. A tremendous city, glittering with marble and quartz, its coffers so
overflowing with gold that it flooded the streets. And finally, a warrior atop a magnificent horse,
sunlight bouncing off his shining armour so that he seemed to be Apollo himself with his spear in
hand. Behind him, a vast host of nations, thundering across an open plain.

The visions faded, as if blown away by a gust of wind and Patroclus opened his eyes. The fire had
gone out, he could see a few curled and blackened leaves smouldering weakly within a ring of
scorched earth. He felt unnaturally cold and his previous dizziness had returned; he put out a hand
to steady himself as the world came steadily back into focus.

“What was that?” he gasped once his breath had returned.

“Your future,” the priestess replied, poking the ashy remains with a grim look. “Should you wish to
accept it.”

“You mean to say,” he sputtered, wiping his smoke streaming eyes. “That king…the man on the
horse…that was me?”

The old woman said nothing but continued to poke idly at the smothered embers. Patroclus waited
with increasing impatience, his heart thundering against his ribcage as the hooves in his head had
done, just moments ago. After what seemed like an age the old woman turned away from the ashes
and, with a heavy sigh, turned her gaze gravely back on Patroclus.
“In a few months from now Achilles will be offered a choice which will change the entire course of
history,” she told him bluntly. “The outcome of this decision will be echoed in time until the end of
days. It is this choice that everything until now has come down to, and the path he decides will be
the scale upon which his chance at immortality rests. However, what the bards will not sing is that
with this decision you also are granted a choice.”

She paused, as if waiting for Patroclus to interject. Patroclus however, struck dumb by awe, could
do nothing but listen as if his very life depended on what she would say. The old woman breathed
deeply and continued.

“Achilles’ path, should he so choose it, will take him far away,” she went on. “If you go with him
you will be remembered only as his companion. Your name shall be known throughout history
only as an accompaniment to his. You will walk ever more behind the sun, forever in his shadow.
But, should you stay, you will become a great king of legend, such as Arcadia has never known
and shall not again for a thousand years.”

Patroclus felt his mouth drop open and he searched the woman’s face for signs of jest. There were
none. He cleared his throat in an attempt to find his voice, however when he spoke it was shaky
and thin. “But how can that be,” he managed. “For I am disowned. I have no land, no rights to
entitlement. How could I ever be king?”

It seemed to him there was a look of pity in the woman’s eye and her voice was condescending
when she spoke again. “You are still your father’s oldest son,” she said, as if explaining matters to
a five year old. “A stronger claim than many who have ever seized kingship.”

Patroclus just stared dumbly, unable to believe what he was hearing. He had not thought of his
father or homeland properly in over a year. The idea that he still belonged to both was
incomprehensible. And this woman was suggesting that he, Patroclus, could be king? He briefly
imagined himself sitting on a throne and ruling a nation, sceptre in hand, and shook his head. The
thought was beyond ridiculous.

“You’re lying,” he stated as the only possible explanation.

The old woman sent him a withering look, filled with contempt. “Doubt me if you will, son of
Menoetius,” she said before gesturing towards the statue of Hekate. “Only do not doubt the Gods,
for it may just be the last thing you ever do. I tell you now, the Gods have great things in store for
you, should you accept them. And remember: those who give are rarely slower to take away.”

Patroclus did not stay to form a response. He turned on his heel and marched out of the clearing
without another word, his footsteps suddenly charged with a furious desire to leave this place and
forget; forget the old woman and everything he had just heard. He felt angry with himself, furious
that he had been weak enough to succumb to his curiosity and listened to what the old witch had to
say, even believed it. He tore through the forest, snapping branches and breaking bowers in his
wake as he set to put as much distance between himself and the Hekate shrine as he could.

Achilles did not stir when Patroclus re-entered the tent and crashed back in beside him. Patroclus,
yanking the blankets around himself viciously, envied him. He knew full well there would be no
more sleep for him tonight.

oOo

Achilles was up the second rosy-fingered Dawn had so much had stretched her back and was
tearing outside to do his push-ups. Patroclus pretended to be asleep as he clattered round the tent,
yelling orders over his shoulder for armour and weapons and supplies. From the moment that he
had come back from the forest he had not managed a single five minutes of sleep. This annoyed
him as, quite aside from making him tired and irritable before the battle, he was unable to convince
himself that the night’s misadventures had been a dream.

Outside he could hear others rising slowly from their tents, yawning, wiping away sleepy dust and
scratching at their groins before beginning the business of war. Patroclus turned and burrowed his
face in the furs and blankets. After everything he had just experienced, he had almost forgotten
they would be fighting Thessaly with the morning, bringing a new wave of anxieties crashing with
it. What with everything going on, he had barely given himself a chance to consider the realities of
what the day would bring. Now, laying flatly on his stomach he groaned, and wished he were a
stone.

“My sunshine!” Achilles crowed, bursting through the tent flap. “My sweetheart! My little golden
honey cake of fortune!”

“Get out,” Patroclus croaked as Achilles removed the covers from Patroclus and replaced them
with his body. “Get the–fucking hell! Get off me, you fat bastard!”

Achilles pouted. “Unkind,” he said, rolling off him. “Get up. I need you to help me put on my
armour.”

“Why don’t you do it yourself?” Patroclus scowled, sitting up and massaging his ribs. “I’m not
your squire.”

“No,” Achilles rolled his eyes, grabbing his greaves and helmet from the corner. “But you are my
hetairoi, and this is like, one of your special sacred duties and shit. So on your feet soldier, and lace
me up.”

Still grumbling darkly to himself, Patroclus reluctantly got to his feet and walked over to where
Achilles was standing, holding out his armour expectantly. On first glance, and particularly in
Patroclus’ fuddled morning state, it was difficult to see where the chest guard ended and Achilles
began. His skin shone golden against the inlay of the metal, smooth and perfectly fitted to the
muscles of the torso and breast plate. Patroclus pulled the leather straps tightly through the buckles,
making sure it was secure. A patch of neck shone through just above the collar bone and he could
not restrain himself from planting a kiss on the shining, supple skin.

“Why are you so beautiful,” he groaned, dropping his forehead into the crook of his neck. “It’s not
fair.”

He could sense Achilles’ grin behind the shield of his braided hair. “Envious?”

“Jealous,” Patroclus murmured against his skin. He breathed in Achilles’ scent; leather and bronze
and armour polish. “I’m jealous of anyone who gets close to you.”

“You’ll have plenty of chance to act on it then.”

“Don’t let anyone spill your blood,” said Patroclus. “It belongs to me.”

Achilles chuckled and Patroclus dropped to his knees, fitting his greaves to his shins. His knuckles
brushed against the back of Achilles’ calf; as he pulled the leather through, Achilles placed his
hand on his head, carding his fingers through the dark locks. Patroclus breathed deeply, letting his
forehead fall against the cold metal of Achilles’ thighs. Achilles stroked his hair, fingers closing
around the curls at the nape of his neck.

“Are you alright?” he asked softly, thumb pads brushing against his neck.
“Mmhm,” Patroclus hummed back. Behind the layers of bronze he was aware of the blood
pumping through Achilles’ body, blushing his skin the rosy hue it always was before a fight. He
closed his eyes and tried to hear it, rushing like the tide through his veins.

The door of the tent flapped open and both Achilles and Patroclus jerked up to see Odysseus
standing before them. His eyes flitted to Patroclus, bent on his knees and Achilles with a hand in
his hair and an eyebrow flew up.

“Please tell me I’m not interrupting anything,” he said dryly.

“Yes you were,” chirped Achilles before Patroclus had a chance to protest. “We were having a very
tender moment. What’s the problem?”

“The armies are assembled,” Odysseus replied. “Everything is prepared. The Myrmidons await
your command.”

“Excellent,” said Achilles breezily, grabbing his sword and shield before following Odysseus
outside. Cheeks burning, Patroclus hastily pulled on his own armour before hurrying after them.

Outside all the soldiers were stood in lines, their faces solemn and eyes, dark and intense. Achilles
walked up and down the formation, inspecting them row by row. Patroclus could see the thrill of
command gleaming in his eye as he looked his army up and down, his hollowed cheeks flushed
with pleasure. Patroclus stood at the front with Deiomachus beside him and they marched together,
limbs moving mechanically until Achilles gave the order to halt.

The rows began to split off into long, straight lines, flowing on from the Ithacan and Corinthian
forces to form one unit. Patroclus and Deiomachus moved forward so that they were at the front
with Achilles. As Patroclus readied Achilles’ spears he noticed Leonides who was watching the
skyline nervously.

“Look,” he said, pointing with his sword. “Over there.”

Patroclus looked. A haze of dense black smog seemed to have settled over the far end of the plain,
eating up the earth and thickening by the second. It took Patroclus a few moments to understand
that this was, in fact, the Thessalian army, although the revelation did very little to assuage his
nerves.

The hoard was massive, at least three times the size of the force they had sent to the citadel. As
they drew nearer he noticed, rising out of the sea of spears and helmets, an enormous chariot
crafted from black metal, emerging from the swarm like the head of a monstrous wolf. Inside it
Nekros was standing, clad head to toe in black armour bedecked with rubies, giving him the look of
a huge, bleeding scorpion. He swallowed.

“I have a feeling this one is going to be very different from the days of the old home defence,”
Deiomachus observed, settling his shield safely against the wooden cavity.

Patroclus snorted, trying to disguise the fear that was currently paralysing his limbs. “By ‘the old
home defence’ I assume you mean the one battle any of us have fought before?”

Deiomachus shrugged. “So shoot me,” he said. “I’m feeling nostalgic.”

Suddenly, absurdly, he began to laugh. Achilles, Patroclus and Leonides all turned to stare at him
as he doubled over, leaning on his spear for support. “What the hell is so funny?”

“I was just thinking about that time,” Deiomachus chuckled, shifting his helmet to wipe a tear from
his eye. “You know, when someone drew a dick on your tunic.”

Patroclus stared in disbelief as Deiomachus continued to rock with amusement. “Mynax,” he

hissed. “Mynax drew a dick on my tunic. And in case you haven’t noticed, his vengeful father is
standing right there, ready to add another skin to his cloak.”

“Mynax,” Deiomachus repeated, clutching his diaphragm and taking deep breaths. “Mental.
Absolutely classic. Ah Gods. We’ve come a long way, haven’t we Patroclus?”

He reached out to clasp Patroclus’ shoulder and Patroclus, perplexed but filled with a rush of
sudden fondness, echoed the action and grasped his arm.

After that it was as if a silence swept over the plain, broken only by the wind and the caws of
buzzards overheard, circling as if in expectation. To Patroclus it seemed like the world was holding
its breath, like the gasp before the dive that takes you under. He glanced along the front line, a
hazy flash of quivering bronze within the sharp, angular cut of helmets and spear shafts. Faces
beneath the shadow of metal brows, stern and set and preparing for death. Or glory, Patroclus
reminded himself, and felt his stomach swim.

Finally, General Acastus led the cry and it was echoed all along the lines; Achilles and Patroclus
raised their swords, the sharp points piercing the sky and bellowed their defiance.

To war.

The Thessalians broke the charge. The second their front line began to sprint the Corinthians
moved to meet them, shooting off across the plain like the crack of a whip with their swords held
aloft. Achilles gave the command and the Myrmidons filled the gap they had left, crouching low,
spears poised in anticipation. Behind them the Ithacans formed the final line of the formation,
arrows quivering against the drawn bow strings.

The Thessalians and Corinthians came together in a mighty clash, however it was so much of a
blur it was difficult for Patroclus to see what had happened. The moment the forces came together
Achilles gave the signal and the Myrmidons threw their spears. Patroclus handed Achilles the
javelins and held his breath as he launched the weapon with a dancer’s grace; it went whistling
through the air and caught a Thessalian straight between the eyes. Patroclus saw Deiomachus’ and
Leonides’ own eyes widen.

“Fuck me,” Deiomachus swore. “With a throw like that you could have hit Nekros!”

Achilles shook his head. “Too early in the day,” he shrugged. “Let’s give the poor man a chance.”

It soon proved that the Thessalians, however, were not a side to command a head-start. Within
minutes they had broken apart the Corinthian unit and Thoas’ forces were drawn into one-on-one
fighting as a stream of Thessalians broke across the plain, tearing towards the Myrmidons. In that
moment, seeing those men with blood in their beards and fire burning in their eyes, ripping towards
them like a pack of ravenous wolves Patroclus had a sudden urge to flee.

The instinct was drowned out by Achilles’ shout. “SHIELD WALL!”

There was no time to think; Patroclus brought down his shield and within seconds the full weight
of the charging Thessalians came hurtling against him, smashing with the sheer force of a tidal
wave against rock. Massive pieces of wood came flying off into the air as several shields
splintered; Patroclus felt his heels slip backwards and bent his knees, digging into the dirt to regain
his balance. On his right he saw Achilles, looking remarkably calm behind his shield despite the
fact that he currently had three men pressing in on him. With a sharp motion he slipped his sword
between the gap in the shield wall, and into a Thessalian torso. Patroclus followed his example,
jabbing clumsily at any part of flesh and army he could reach behind his shield. Blood was flying
in his face, the weight of the army was claustrophobia as he had never known it and for a long time
it seemed he had forgotten how to breathe.

A whistling noise shot through the air; Patroclus looked up to see a line of strange looking birds
flying upwards before plummeting down and a number of Thessalians stumbled and fell as the
Ithacan arrows hit them. Patroclus felt a surge of relief as the pressure on his diaphragm lessened,
however it was short lived as another wave of Thessalians slammed into them.

“HOLD FAST,” Achilles was shouting, slicing a Thessalian across the face with his knife and
sending him howling into the dirt. “STRENGTH, MYRMIDONS! STRENGTH! HOLD FAST!”

Patroclus gritted his teeth and summed up all the power he had within him. To his left
Deiomachus’ face was red with the strain of holding up his shield and a vein was pounding in his
neck. Patroclus saw space and with a tremendous effort moved forward. As the rest of the front
line did the same, Patroclus felt a thrill of glee when he saw the man in front of him sliding
backwards. They were gaining ground.

Patroclus had heard tales of the Myrmidon’s, “ant men”, strength long before he had come to
Phthia but he had never truly appreciated it until this moment. The Myrmidons held fast and then
pressed until, with one almighty haul, they threw the Thessalians off. And then, all hell broke
loose.

In the time that it takes to blink, a Thessalian was swinging towards him with a weapon that looked
more like a butcher’s cleaver than a sword. Patroclus raised his shield automatically; the point
lodged and stuck. The Thessalian huffed, grasping the hilt with both hands to try and heave it out.
Seeing his advantage, Patroclus swung his sword into the man’s side. The Thessalian let out a cry,
his hands flying to his ribcage. Patroclus thrust again, striking the man in the throat and he
collapsed, blood shooting from the cavity in ribbons.

He looked around, panting. Leonides was hamming down on a small, slight, man and Achilles was
dancing circles around three men simultaneously. Deiomachus was locked in combat with one
Thessalian, but as his back turned Patroclus saw another behind him, ready to strike. Instinctively,
Patroclus picked up the cleaver of the man he’d just killed and flung it. The man stumbled and fell,
out cold. Patroclus raced over and finished him off just as Deiomachus killed his opponent.

“Thanks,” he panted, noticing the dead man.

“Any time,” Patroclus replied. “How many are you on?”

“Seven,” Deiomachus answered. “Caught five in the shield wall alone.”

He squinted into the distance. Achilles was standing amongst a pile of dead bodies, already scarlet
from head to foot and yelling encouragement at the army. He caught Patroclus’ eye and beckoned
him over. Patroclus complied, dodging arrows and swords as he sprinted towards him.

“What is it?” he asked once he had reached him.

Achilles grinned, showing bloodstained teeth and moved out the way. Behind the pile of bodies lay
a wooden chariot, stripped to a single horse who was neighing pitifully.

“Achilles no,” said Patroclus.

“Achilles yes,” said Achilles. “Come on. I’ll let you drive.”

Patroclus sighed and, snatching up a handful of spears, helped Achilles push the chariot into an
upright position. Patroclus clambered in, snatching the horse’s reigns and striking him on the flank
with the flat of his spear. The horse gave a gut wrenching rear and broke into a gallop, sending both
Achilles and Patroclus lurching against the chariot’s sides.

“Where do you want me?” Patroclus asked once he had control over the horse’s movements.

“Anywhere any time,” Achilles replied filthily.

“Specifically.”

“That hoplite regiment will do.”

Patroclus yanked on the reigns, sending them pelting towards the Thessalian elite force. Achilles
grabbed a javelin and aimed it at a tall, muscular-looking man, whose inlayed armour and
decorated helmet suggested a captain of some degree. This was confirmed by the surrounding
soldier’s look of horror once the spear had hit its mark. The man’s knees had barely bit the dust
before Achilles was reaching out again.

“Another.”

Patroclus passed him another javelin and Achilles flung it, spearing three Thessalians where they
stood so that they looked like the Anatolian delicacy Leptine was so partial to. They carried on in
this manner, Achilles taking down soldier after soldier while Patroclus concentrated on
manoeuvring the chariot and avoiding the upsurge of spears that were being flung in his direction.
Soon they had carved a neat path through the hoard, the wheels of the chariot defeating nearly as
many as the spears, although they were still liable to need finishing off at sword point. Patroclus
was just fighting off a man who had attempted to climb into the chariot when Achilles grasped his
arm painfully.

“Over there!” he exclaimed, voice laced with excitement. “Nekros!”

With a crushing sense of dread, Patroclus squinted towards the man Achilles was pointing out,
hoping against hope that it wasn’t him. But there could be no mistaking that scorpion shell armour,
nor that look in his eye as they settled on Achilles, a look of deepest, direst loathing. Nekros saw
them approach and his thin lips curled into a sneer; he hitched the reigns of his own chariot and,
with a merciless whip for his warhorses, pelted towards them.

Automatically Achilles held out his palm; Patroclus pressed a spear into it and Achilles threw.
Patroclus held his breath as it glided through the air, straight and true as any arrow but just as the
point neared Nekros’ temple he raised his shield, throwing it off as if it were no more than a
passing mosquito. He reached behind him for his own weapons and flung. Patroclus did not need
Achilles’ pressing arm to tell him to duck; the shaft soared over their heads, so close that Patroclus
could feel it ruffle his hair.

“Forward!” Achilles yelled and Patroclus hitched the reigns. The horses sped up, their hooves
flicking massive clouds of dust and dirt into the air as they galloped towards the enormous black
chariot.

As they neared Nekros Patroclus looked at Achilles. His eyes were narrowed in concentration and
they seemed to be blazing, more gold than green, and Patroclus knew that he was calculating. He
also knew that he was considering doing something very, very stupid.
“Don’t do it,” said Patroclus warningly. “Please. Whatever it is.”

“I can make it,” Achilles muttered, more to himself than to Patroclus. “If we just get a little more of
an angle…”

The chariots were barely ten feet apart now. Patroclus could make out every one of Nekros’ pearly
teeth, gritted in hatred behind his twisted black beard. He remembered what Odysseus had said
he’d planned to do if he caught either of them and nausea mixed with fear in his gut. He shook his
head and steeled himself. This was no time for cowardice. Achilles was chewing his bottom lip, a
frown creasing his smooth skin and Patroclus understood. He was measuring the distance between
the two chariots.

“No,” he said instinctively.

“Hold this,” Achilles ignored him irritably, pressing his shield into Patroclus’ arms. Nekros’ chariot
was six feet away now. Patroclus watched, dumbstruck as Achilles proceeded to bounce lightly on
his toes, fingers twitching slightly as he prepared to jump.

“Achilles,” Patroclus just had time to gasp before Achilles launched himself from the chariot.

It was as if time had slowed. Patroclus saw a flash of pink heel disappear from the chariot wall and
suddenly Achilles was in the air, both knees bent, one leg crooked behind him, his body arched
like a perfect bow. His head was flung back, revealing his beautiful throat and his arms were taut
above his head holding the sword, its edge glinting in the apocalyptic sun. Nekros’ black eyes grew
wide, his mouth fell open as Achilles flew in a graceful arc and Patroclus knew that in those few
seconds he was not a boy at all but a God, a God of perfect light and speed.

Then Nekros raised his spear. Patroclus screamed and the God gave a very human cry of pain.

The point ripped through Achilles’ shoulder, dragging a bright scarlet line which continued long
after the flesh had ended, flying like the sash of a girl’s dress into the wind. At the same time
Achilles brought down his sword and made a wild slashing motion; Patroclus saw that he had
aimed to bring it across Nekros’ jugular but the hit had wavered his accuracy and he sliced across
the face instead. Nekros let out a tremendous howl as blood began to flow and his hands flew to his
eyes. Achilles seized the advantage and plunged for his loosened breast plate, however out of
calculation or plain instinct Nekros flung himself to the side and the sword fell through the air
before killing Nekros’ cowering charioteer. Then, without further hesitation Nekros leapt from the
chariot and began to sprint across the plain. Patroclus drew up beside Achilles as he straightened
up, flinging insults at Nekros’ retreating figure.

“LOOK AT HIM RUN!” he screamed. “FIGHT BACK, YOU COWARD! FIGHT BACK!”

“Achilles, your shoulder!” Patroclus snapped.

Achilles looked down at the wound as if he had only just noticed it was there. The spear had not
penetrated through to the other side, however it was still deep although there was too much blood
in the way for Patroclus to see how bad it was.

“You’re bleeding,” Patroclus gabbled stupidly.

Achilles raised an eyebrow. “Did you think I ran on pure sex appeal?”

Patroclus was too stunned to answer. All his brain energy was engaged in comprehending the
simple truth which he had only just now allowed himself to consider.
Achilles could bleed. And that meant he could be killed.

The sight of Achilles, gritting his teeth against the pain bought him back to earth. He ran up to
Nekros’ dead charioteer and rifled through his armour until he got to his under tunic. He shredded
the hem off with his knife and used it to bind Achilles’ shoulder, ignoring the impatient sighs and
mutterings arising from Achilles’ need to chase Nekros into the dust. The second Patroclus tied off
the bandage he had re-shouldered his shield and was just about to follow him across the plain when
Calisthenes came running to meet them.

“Captain!” he waved, eyes bulging fearfully.

“What’s the matter?” asked Achilles.

“The Thessalians chased Deiomachus’ unit into the low hills. They’re trapped their and
outnumbered. They need aid sir, urgently!”

Achilles’ shoulders sagged. He looked regretfully across the plain where Nekros was getting
further away by the minute. Patroclus could see how badly he wanted to chase him, but on the
other hand he could not leave his own men to die. Understanding, Patroclus put a hand on his arm.

“Go after him,” he told him. “I’ll go back with Calisthenes and get help to rescue the others.”

Achilles looked at him with an expression of mixed gratitude and reluctance. “I don’t want you
going off on your own,” he said.

Patroclus suppressed the urge to roll his eyes. “I’ll be fine,” he told him firmly. “Anyway, we’ll all
be a lot safer with Nekros dead. Go now, before he gets away.”

Achilles allowed another moment for a brush of worry to flit across his face before nodding and
leaping out of the chariot. Patroclus watched him run, his legs covering more ground than it was
possible for any other man until he was consumed by the cloud of dust left in his wake. Then he
turned and sprinted with Calisthenes across the battlefield and towards the cover of the hills where
the Myrmidon soldiers had been trapped. As he ran he passed Odysseus who was locked in battle
with an enormous man nearly twice his own size. The warrior was red faced and shiny with
frustration, for every time he swung his ham-like fists Odysseus merely sidestepped and cut him
with a sneaky strike of his long knife.

“Hello Patroclus,” Odysseus sang as the massive Thessalian, made clumsy with exhaustion, went
for a hit that left his whole left side exposed, allowing Odysseus to fell him with one final blow. “In
a hurry?”

“Some of our men need help,” Patroclus called back. “The Thessalians have them cornered.”

Odysseus nodded, wiped the sweat off his forehead and gestured to some of his men. “Eustor,
Karpos, with me. Lead the way Patroclus.”

Once they’d reached the hills they followed the sound of clashing blades until they discovered the
trapped soldiers. The Thessalians had them completely at their mercy and the looks on the
Myrmidon faces were those of men who were ready to go down fighting. They were replaced,
however, by expressions of pure euphoric joy at the sight of Patroclus, Odysseus and his men
rushing to their aid. Deiomachus let out a whoop as Patroclus ran up behind a Thessalian and
brought his sword quickly across his throat.

“That makes the second time I’ve saved your skin today,” he informed him, helping Deiomachus to
his feet.
Deiomachus grinned amiably. “I think it’s about time I returned the favour,” he replied.
“Whoopsidaisy.”

He stuck his foot out at a passing soldier rushing towards them, sending him sprawling into the
dirt. Patroclus and Deiomachus sunk their swords into him simultaneously before turning to help
Odysseus who was currently facing three men. At the sight of Patroclus one of them spun to face
him, aiming for his Adam’s apple. Patroclus parried the sword with his own and hit the man in the
stomach with his shield. He doubled over but recovered quickly, blocking Patroclus’ blow before it
struck. His next swing caught Patroclus on the calf, drawing blood but leaving his neck exposed.
Patroclus drew his word down, slicing sharply and the man collapsed at his feet.

Beside him, Deiomachus was plunging a spear into the body of his own opponent. “Twenty,” he
announced with a grin.

Patroclus looked at him, scandalised. “Like hell you’re on twenty.”

Deiomachus shrugged and blocked a blow from an engaging soldier as Patroclus lurched forward
and shoved him with his shield. The man staggered back, dazed and disorientated and both
Deiomachus and Patroclus stuck their swords in his chest.

“Twenty-one,” sang Deiomachus. “We make a good team.”

“Let’s not bang out the harp yet,” Patroclus retorted through gritted teeth. “Look.”

A fresh group of Thessalians had broken through and were running towards them, frothing with
bloodlust like the hounds of Hades. And at the head of them, a blood-soaked bandage strapped to
his face, was Nekros. His single visible eye scanned the scene around him until it settled on
Patroclus. A look of white hot fury filled his face and Patroclus felt a fear grip him such as he had
known only once before, at the hands of his son.

It all happened in an instant. Before Patroclus knew it Nekros was making for him. Instinctively he
made to rise his sword but he was too slow; he felt a crash of pain and a dull ache as the back of his
head struck the floor. He blinked stupidly through bleary dust, dimly aware of Deiomachus
shouting “twenty-two!” some way away. Nekros was standing over him, having just struck him
with his shield. His tall, lean frame blotted out the sun and his armour and furs stuck out of his
shoulders like wings so that he seemed for all the world like an enormous raven, clicking his beak
in anticipation of flesh and entrails.

Patroclus clambered against the rock, desperately trying to regain some measure of control over his
limbs when a kick from Nekros’ metal-clad, pointed boot caught him in the side. He wheezed and
spat out blood, feeling a sharpness in his breathing that signified broken ribs. Nekros looked down
at him, rolling around on the ground and clutching his sides. His sneer grew more pronounced.

“Long has the thought of this day sustained me in my pursuit of vengeance, little Menoitides,” he
said in a voice as silky smooth as polished steel. “And yet, in the here and now, with you wholly at
my mercy…I find myself disappointed.”

Patroclus peered up at him through swollen eyes. Nekros’ knife-edge face was carved into an
expression of troubled anti-climax. He shook his head, crestfallen.

“Really,” he spoke. “After your great triumph over me at the trail…after all your subsequent heroic
deeds…I was starting to question my initial assumption of you. But no, it seems for all the bards
and their stories I was right the first time. You are nothing.”
With the last word, Nekros clasped his spear and drove it down. Patroclus screamed as the metal
tore into his abdomen, pain shooting through him such as he had never imagined. It was
unbearable, eclipsing anything he had never known. And then it stopped. Blood pulled from a hole
in his armour, he could feel it leaving him. Nekros beheld him coldly, the ghost of enjoyment
gleaming in his eyes.

“How is it,” he crooned. “That something so feeble, so contemptible could possibly bring down a
man like my son? Surely there must be something about you, Patroclus? Something invisible to the
naked eye? Some spark of Divinity that sets you apart from the other dogs baying round the
prince’s table, begging for scraps?”

He placed his boot over the spear wound he had just made and pressed down. Excruciating pain
coursed through Patroclus, wracking his entire body so that he screamed and screamed and his
screams begged for this to stop, for it all to just end. And in those few seconds he found himself
wishing desperately for that cool darkness, that gentle gloom which would mean it was all over.

“Nothing,” sneered Nekros. “I thought not.”

“ACHILLES!” Patroclus heard himself crying, unsure of whether he was calling for help or if he
just wanted that to be the last thing he ever said. “ACHILLES!”

“He will not save you,” Nekros spat. “Gods save him when I get my hands on him. I have heard
tale enough of your preference, Patroclus, and how you let him use you. Suppose I let my men have
you, and they too can give you what you like.”

The point of the spear trailed up over Patroclus’ chest. He gritted his teeth as it circled the wound
once more before rising to rest at the hollow of his throat. Nekros’ eyes glinted maniacally, his lips
were curled wolfishly to reveal wet, bloody gums and those curiously pointed canines.

“Or,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “I could just kill you now.”

The spear point dug into Patroclus’ skin. A tiny bead of blood blossomed and trickled beneath his
armour. Patroclus closed his eyes and waited for death.

“NOOOOO!”

He heard the scream before he saw who it was. Patroclus felt the spear slip from his neck as
Nekros staggered backwards in surprise, struck by the force of a body catapulting into him. The
spear clattered to the floor; Patroclus’ sight grew hazy as he tried to focus on the two figures
caught in a wrestling match, both struggling to grip a hold of the others arms and force them
backwards.

Then a flash of something silver, like a knife, caught the sunlight and one of the bodies crumpled
before collapsing into the dirt. Patroclus struggled to hold onto his consciousness long enough to
see who it was but suddenly his vision was clouded by a stream of blinding golden light; the last
thing he saw before everything went black.
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When Patroclus woke up, the first thing he was aware of was pain. He breathed in and it felt like
his sides were wracked with splinters, pricking against the walls of his lungs. Looking down he
saw that his ribs had been bandaged, a starched strip wound around his torso with professional
tautness. A few inches lower he saw that his abdomen too had been wrapped, and there was a small
red blemish where the wound made by Nekros’ spear had bled through the dressing.

He was lying in a makeshift hospital bed; a wooden bench upon which his cloak and a few furs had
been draped roughly. He tried to shift himself from it when a sharp, jabbing pain came searing
across his chest and he cried out. The sound brought Machaon the physician hurrying over from
where he had been making compresses, shaking his head disapprovingly.

“No movement now,” he said sternly, easing Patroclus back onto the bed. “You need rest. Bones
heal themselves but it won’t help to knock them back out of direction.”

“What happened?” panted Patroclus, wincing as Machaon re-checked his bandages.

“Nothing too major,” replied Machaon in a business-like fashion. “A couple of broken ribs, they’re
not so difficult to heal. More serious was that tear in your abdomen. It was lucky Achilles brought
you here as quick as he did, a few minutes later and you might have bled out. I managed to stitch
you up alright and as long as you keep it clean it should stay clear of infection, although it’s going
to leave a nasty scar I’m afraid.”

But only one word had registered with Patroclus. “Achilles was here?” he blurted out. “Where is
he?”

Machaon made an impatient clucking sound with his tongue and teeth. “Of course he was here,” he
replied irritably. “Wouldn’t leave your side from the moment you were brought in. Took three men
to wrestle him out and force him to take care of his own injury. He’s fine,” he added in response to
Patroclus’ imploring expression. “Better than fine, in fact. On any other man a spear thrust like that
would have destroyed the ligament, he’d never have been able to throw a javelin with that arm as
far again. But it’s barely even left a scratch.”

Patroclus nodded absently. Achilles was alright and he, Patroclus, was also alright. Both these
factors seemed to point to another of immense relief: the Thessalians had lost and the Myrmidons
had won. Glancing around the large tent that served as a hospital, Patroclus saw this optimistic
notion confirmed on the surrounding faces; all of his fellow soldiers looked tired and battered and
many were wincing at injuries of varying severity. However there was also a shared look of relief
and a grim sort of triumph in the way the men winced beneath their poultices and took mouthfuls
of steaming healing draughts. In fact, between battlefield commentaries and shared cups, Patroclus
even saw a few crack a smile.

Reassured, Patroclus allowed Machaon to redress and apply fresh salves to his wounds while his
own mind drifted to what had happened just before he’d blacked out. He remembered Nekros
standing over him, driving his spear into his flesh. He remembered the pain, the indescribable pain
and then a hurled body and a golden flash before everything went dark. If they had won, it must
mean that Nekros had been killed in the struggle. Achilles had saved his life once again.

After making sure that Patroclus was unlikely to tear his stitches open, Machaon approved his
dismissal and released him from the bench, with stern instructions to redress the wound weekly and
treat it with lint, honey and animal grease to promote closure and protect against infection.
Patroclus left the tent with a slight limp, realising that aside from his more serious injuries he had
sustained a fair amount of bruising, no doubt from where Nekros had kicked him into the dirt, and
several patches of his skin blossomed with black and purple petals. He counted himself lucky as he
passed his comrades however, many of whom were displaying gaping flaps of bleeding flesh and
in some cases, missing limbs. Patroclus held his breath against the smell of rotting meat and sharp,
pungent vinegar as he moved through the tent, searching for faces he recognised.

He found Achilles by the tent’s entrance, talking in low voices with Acastus and the other
commanders. His shoulder had been bound but the strapping was as white as if the cotton had just
been plucked, with no betrayal of the wound underneath. His body was entirely devoid of the
bruising and scars that marked the other soldiers; indeed it hardly looked as if he had stepped off a
battlefield at all. He excused himself the moment Patroclus caught his eye and came rushing over
to him, brow furrowed with anxiety.

“How is it?” he quizzed him urgently. “That damn physician doesn’t know a goddamn thing, he’s
barely qualified to slay a lame horse. Are you alright? How’s your head? You should have it
dressed surely, you were out stone cold when I found you. For Gods’ sake look at you, you’re still
bleeding…I knew I should have gotten Phoenix to have a look at you, true it’s a long time since he
practiced medicine but at least he knows his acutes from his chronics-”

“-Achilles, I’m fine,” Patroclus interrupted him, drawing his hand away from his temple, which
was admittedly feeling rather tender. “It’s just dried blood, you don’t need to worry about it-”

“-Dried blood?” Achilles erupted furiously. “He let you lie there for hours without taking so much
as a wet towel to your skull? What the Hell was I thinking, letting you rot in these stinking
conditions…I should have taken you back to one of the commander’s tents...have a private
physician look you over-”

“-You most definitely should not,” Patroclus told him severely. “There are enough whispers of
nepotism as it is, how do you think it would have looked if I was carried like a fallen maid to a
commander’s tent while the rest of the army prays against dysentery? Anyway, I told you I’m fine.
Better than, actually, considering I feel like I had a very near brush with my own mortality.”

Achilles nodded. “You did,” he replied, against gritted teeth.

There was a muscle jumping in his jaw. Patroclus saw it, and saw that he was shaking slightly and
he wondered how long Achilles had been sitting up, wracked with fear and unsleeping, by his
bedside. With a sudden rush of affection, he took his hand. It was cold.

“I hear we won,” he said gently, hoping to steer Achilles away from his anxiety. “Tell me
everything.”

At once Achilles’ face lit up, as if someone had struck a match beneath it, his eyes gleaming with
excitement and pride and Patroclus knew that he had said the right thing.

“It was…amazing,” he gushed with awestruck wonder in his voice. “They were already four
commanders down before I found you and with Nekros dead they just crumbled. It was like cutting
off the head of a snake. The body just sort of….shook for a bit, and then it was still. For a while
the Thessalians continued to fight back, you know they’re strong people, but then it was over and
suddenly they were all running, just turned on their heels and fled. I swear Patroclus, you never
saw anything like it. We charged after them, cornered them in the low hills. After that it was a
massacre. There are no more than a handful left, including Nekros’ brother, that we’re to go out to
in an hour and negotiate peace terms.”

Patroclus nodded, feeling as though something had lodged in his throat, making it hard to swallow.
Achilles was still talking about the Thessalian’s defeat, speculating on whether Nekros’ brother
would agree to pay half his kingdom in reparations, but Patroclus was barely listening. He felt
drained, physically and emotionally, as if a heavy cloak had been lifted from his back and cast into
the wind, and he could barely comprehend the enormous truth of what Achilles had just told him.
Nekros was dead. The Thessalians were destroyed. It was over.

Exhausted, he sank to the nearest footstool, wincing against his twinging ribs. Achilles stopped
talking abruptly and fell to his knees, frowning at Patroclus. Patroclus made a small gesture,
signalling that he was alright but Achilles continued to gaze up at him with his forehead knitted in
concern.

“What did you do with the body?” Patroclus asked at last, breathing deeply.

It seemed to take Achilles a moment to figure out what Patroclus was talking about before his
expression cleared. “Nekros’?” Patroclus nodded. “I…uh…it’s there for them to take back.”

There was something in his voice, the inflection he always put on whenever he was trying not to lie
about something, that made Patroclus look up sharply. “Achilles,” he said. “What did you do?”

Achilles shifted his feet guiltily, avoiding Patroclus’ gaze. “Nothing,” he muttered sulkily.

“Achilles!”

“What does it matter?” Achilles snapped, fiery eyes blazing. “A body is a body, isn’t it? Just cold,
dead meat. Anyway, I did it for you.”

Patroclus stared at Achilles. His jaw was set, his mouth a firm, thin line and for the second time in
his life he had the unsettling yet distinct impression that he was looking at a stranger. At the back
of his mind he recalled the words Achilles had spoken to him once, wide-eyed and sodden with
blood and bathwater: I wanted to skin him alive for touching you. He put his head in his hands and
groaned.

Achilles was scowling, his chin jerking pointedly away from Patroclus and his arms folded across
his chest. Feeling a little guilty, Patroclus put out a hand and touched his shoulder lightly.

“I’m sorry,” he said. “Here I am, giving you shit, when I really should be thanking you.”

Achilles turned his face back towards him. Patroclus suppressed a gasp, shocked to see that his
eyes were sparkling with tears.

“No,” he stated in a voice like ice. “You should not be thanking me. What happened to you is my
fault. I should have been there to protect you and because I wasn’t…because I wasn’t fast enough
you almost…”
He trailed off, lifting his hand to wipe furiously at his eyes. Patroclus stared in dumb shock, even as
Achilles continued to avoid his gaze.

“I wasn’t there,” he repeated hotly. “And because of that, you got hurt.”

“Achilles, what are you talking about?” Patroclus pressed him urgently. “You were there. You
threw off Nekros. You saved my life.”

Achilles shook his head. He was still looking anywhere besides Patroclus and it was that, above all
things, that made his blood run cold. When he spoke again his voice was low and quiet, as if he
were ashamed of being heard.

“No Patroclus,” he said. “I didn’t.”

And Patroclus remembered. He remembered screaming in pain as a spear point dug into his skin.
He remembered hearing someone cry out and Nekros being thrown back as a body flew into him; a
fight, a struggle, and someone being thrown like a sack of grain to the floor…and then a flash of
golden light…

“Achilles,” he said. “Where is Deiomachus?”

Achilles bit his lip.

“Achilles,” said Patroclus. “Answer me.”

Achilles’ face was as set as marble. He stood up, holding his hand out for Patroclus. “I will take
you to him.”

Patroclus ignored the offered hand, clambering to his feet despite the fact that his legs were
shaking so much he was not sure that he could walk. He felt colder than he had ever felt in his life
as he followed Achilles back through the tent, following a smell that seemed to grow more intense
as they walked and the air to become thicker, or perhaps that was just the fact that it was buzzing
with flies.

Achilles stopped. “He is there,” he said and he pointed.

Patroclus followed his line of sight to wear hundreds of bodies lay side by side, wrapped in their
cloaks or in spare scraps of cloth and fur. His eyes scanned every face, each one blank and
unfamiliar to him in their death before settling on one.

Deiomachus’ body lay on a scarlet cloak. Someone had set his arms by his sides, so that he looked
to be sleeping; however the knife wound that shone from a cavity in his chest was displayed all the
more grotesquely. Apart from that his face was calm, his eyes closed and peaceful, yet this did
little to suppress the bile creeping into Patroclus’ throat as he beheld that face, a face upon which
the grey shade of death was already starting to creep.

oOo

Achilles explained it all. He had started to chase Nekros but had gotten caught up in a fight with a
Boetian detachment on the way, ending with the slaughter of three captains. By the time he
managed to shake them off Nekros had already made it to the hills. Achilles had arrived to find
Patroclus lying limp as a bonefish on the ground while Nekros and Deiomachus struggled over his
body. For a moment Deiomachus seemed to be gaining the upper hand, then suddenly a knife
appeared as if from nowhere and before Achilles could reach for a spear he was lying crumpled
beside Patroclus’ unconscious body. Achilles had killed Nekros then but he had been too late to
save him. He had died a hero, Achilles said, and if the Gods had such a destiny in store for him
then there was nothing any of them could have done to change that fate.

Achilles talked and explained it all and Patroclus heard him, listening with an unflinching
expression as he stared unseeingly into space. He was picturing the struggle, the silver knife
plunging into Deiomachus’ chest, his eyes bulging in surprise as blood pooled around the hilt still
sticking out. He wondered; had he tried to grasp it, as if by pulling out the offending object he
could gain himself a few more moments of breath, a few last glimpses of daylight before the edges
of his vision had begun to blur? He wondered whether he had still been alive when he had fallen,
whether he had felt the ground rushing up to meet him as he crashed into the earth. Or had his eyes
closed then and there with the easing of the silver blade, and his body had done nothing else but
follow?

“Patroclus?” said Achilles tentatively. He was looking nervously at him, waiting anxiously for his
reaction.

Patroclus blinked and realised that his eyes had glazed over. His head felt heavy, his mind foggy
and unclear. “I need…” he began, trailing off listlessly. “I need to go…”

He got to his feet and started to walk away, leaving Achilles staring imploringly after him. He felt
as though he were moving through a dream, his body propelling him automatically forward while
his head was somewhere else entirely. Indeed, he felt nothing else but a little puzzled as he
replayed Achilles’ words and what he had seen over again and again in his mind, finding the truth a
little harder to understand each time. For Deiomachus could not be dead. And that cold, grey, thing
that lay strewn across the ground beside a hundred identical corpses, like chaff left for crows…that
had not been him but an imposter, a fabricant, a weak joke. There was no other explanation that
made sense.

After a while he felt dizzy and weary and faint. He sat down on an empty footstool and put his
head in his hands with a hope to stop it from spinning. For how long he sat there for he didn’t
know; time seemed to go strangely, with colours swimming and bleeding into each other as people
rushed in and out, entirely ignorant of a boy sitting on a stool with his head in his hands. After a
time, however, he became aware of another presence sitting next to him. Glancing through the gaps
of his fingers, he saw that it was Odysseus.

He was sitting with his back hunched, his large brown hands clasped in front of him and a
thoughtful expression on his sharp, intelligent face, watching the goings on of the tent with the air
of a vaguely interested yet objective observer. He glanced at Patroclus and offered a thin, wan
smile.

“Despite all your drills and training,” he said quietly. “They never teach you how to deal with
grief.”

Patroclus snuck a look at him. Despite his smile, Odysseus’ normally affable face seemed
darkened and grim. He rubbed his eyes and found that they were dry, despite the forbidding
choking sensation he could feel welling up in his throat. He took a shuddering breath.

“It doesn’t feel like I thought it would,” he confessed shakily.

Odysseus laughed bitterly. “What, victory?” Patroclus nodded. “It never does. If young men knew
what war was really like, the world would have fewer soldiers and more physicians.”

Patroclus said nothing. They sat in silence for a while, watching the fallout and debris of battle flit
past them like the motions of a broom, sweeping dust under the carpet. Patroclus’ chest felt tight
and constricted, as if he’d been squeezed into a cage that was too small for him. Yet apart from that
he was aware of nothing but an overwhelming, crushing emptiness, a sort of hollow apathy more
dreadful than sorrow. Odysseus was twiddling his thumbs, showing broad, neatly trimmed nails
completely devoid of any blood or grit. Patroclus noticed this dully, and was struck by a thought
that became an urgent craving for knowledge.

“Where is Nekros’ body?” he asked.

Odysseus frowned. “It’s being prepared for its return to the family,” he replied warily. “Why?”

“I want to see it.”

The crease in Odysseus’ brow intensified and there was a glimmer of apprehension in his dark eyes
as he surveyed Patroclus. “Patroclus,” he began cautiously. “I don’t know…I don’t know if you’re
quite…aware…of what Achilles is truly capable of…are you…are you quite sure-”

“-I’m sure,” Patroclus cut across him bluntly. “And forgive me, but I flatter myself on knowing
Achilles’ mind somewhat better than you do. Will you take me to the body or not?”

He paused, waiting expectantly for Odysseus’ response. Odysseus continued to look at him, his
frowning eyes flitting momentarily to his forehead. Then at last, he stood up and Patroclus rose
automatically with him.

“Come then,” he said flatly. “Don’t say I didn’t warn you.”

Patroclus nodded his acceptance and followed Odysseus to a closed off section of the tent.
Odysseus lifted the flap and gestured for Patroclus to go first. He did so, heart hammering as he
prepared himself mentally for what he would find inside.

There were two attendants already in the darkened space, dabbing the body with oil and herbs.
They jumped up when Patroclus and Odysseus walked in and withdrew with their hands behind
their backs. Patroclus swallowed the bile rising in his gullet and forced himself to own. As he did
so, the breath he had been holding in stuck in his throat.

Where Nekros’ eyes had been there were two empty sockets. There was a gaping cavity in his
chest, laced with stitches where the attendants had begun to sew it back together. Behind the wings
of red meat that framed it the space was dark and hollow, the heart had been ripped out.

oOo

“Why did you do that?” Patroclus rounded on Achilles, bursting into their tent as he was
pulling on a fresh tunic.

“For Gods’ sake, are you still on about the bloody body?” Achilles groaned.

“What did you do with the heart?” Patroclus ignored him, conscious of the blood starting to boil
threateningly in his veins.

“What?”

“The heart Achilles, don’t play dumb, I know you did something with it-”

Before he could finish the flap of their tent lifted again, displaying the dominant form of General
Acastus. “Achilles,” he said. “It’s time.”
Achilles nodded and threw his cloak over his shoulders. Patroclus stared, seething as he walked out
the tent, following Acastus over to where the rest of the army was waiting.

“Are you coming or what?” Achilles barked at him and remembering himself, Patroclus jogged
over reluctantly to join the Myrmidons.

There was a very different atmosphere among the men this morning than the last time they had
stood assembled together, on the battlefield. The fear had gone to be replaced by a sort of righteous
contentment that made the soldiers stand taller, make their shoulders squarer and lift their chins in
a gesture of defiance and solidarity. On some faces, the smiles were hardened by the ghosts of the
victorious dead, giving their triumph an air of honourable melancholy. A soft wind blew from the
mountains, ruffling Patroclus’ hair as he stood darkly by Achilles’ side, casting frequent hostile
glances in his direction which Achilles ignored. He was not looking at him but at the horizon, his
eyes watchful and expression fresh-faced, clear and untroubled.

“Here they come,” said Acastus suddenly as smudged black shapes began to appear across the
plain.

Achilles held out his hand to the nearest attendant who was clutching something in his hands.
“Give me the box,” he ordered.

The attendant obeyed, passing an ornately decorated, relatively small wooden box to Achilles.
Patroclus eyed it warily but as the remaining Thessalians drew nearer knew better than to ask.
Achilles smiled pleasantly at the survivors, inclining his head with the graciousness of a host
welcoming guests into his home. His courteousness was unsettling and Patroclus saw his own
feelings mirrored on several faces as the Thessalians exchanged wary glances amongst each other.

“Welcome friends,” beamed Achilles. “I trust you all slept well? Some of you for longer than
others, I’m sure.”

Many of the Thessalians scowled. There was some movement however and one came forward so
that he was standing at the front of the assembly. Patroclus felt a jolt from somewhere behind his
navel as he looked upon that face, made sharp with familiarity. The likeliness to Nekros was
immediately recognisable, however on closer inspection Patroclus saw that his brother’s
countenance was fuller, the angles of his nose and jaw smoother and his eyes lacking the cold
malice that had driven the dead lord in hatred and revenge.

Patroclus saw also that even as he put himself at the head of the throng, thus establishing himself as
leader and heir to his brother, he was quite unable to meet Achilles’ friendly gaze. “Well met
Prince Achilles,” he greeted with practised eloquence. “I am Thengal, brother of Nekros now slain.
We come as an emissary, on behalf of King Poeas of Thessaly to discuss foundations for a lasting
peace between our two peoples.”

Achilles smile, which had been widening all the while Thengal had been talking, suddenly broke as
he began to chuckle deeply. Thengal blinked hard, his dark brow knitted in confusion as he shared
perplexed looks with his own men. Several members of the Phthian coalition too were wearing
expressions of deep bemusement; Odysseus was frowning and Ampelius appeared to be gritting his
teeth.

“I’m sorry,” said Achilles at last, in a tone that suggested he was really, really not. “It just always
tickles me to notice exactly how quick men are to talk of peace directly after having their arses
handed to them.”

A muscle jumped in Thengal’s jaw with the effort of forcing himself to keep his manner polite. “Be
that as it may,” he acquiesced. “The sentiment still stands. We are ready to discuss the terms of our
surrender. And if you are as good and honest as your reputation heralds you, you will hear us out
with honour-”

“-Oh will I?” Achilles grinned wolfishly. “You’re a fine one to talk of honour Thengal, considering
what you had for a brother. I was discussing with my good friend Patroclus the other night, I don’t
know if you know him? Here he is,” he seized Patroclus’ arm and pulled him forward; Patroclus
resisted the temptation to pray for the earth to swallow him up. “We were wondering whether it
was possible for the Gods to make a complete man, arms and legs and everything in between, if he
were without a heart. And he said, why yes, of course it is, just look at Lord Nekros. I shook my
head and said, don’t be ridiculous Patroclus, why, a man such as Nekros would surely be in
possession of a particularly fine and sturdy organ. To which Patroclus said, really? Well, show it to
me. So, in the interests of science I conducted for myself a little experiment…”

He opened the box. The reaction was immediate; at once men from both sides began to raise their
voices in outrage, gesticulating fervently at the box and at Achilles. Thengal’s eyes widened as he
stared, transfixed with honour, unable to look away. Out of the corners of his vision Patroclus saw
several men double over and heard the sound of their vomit spattering the hard ground. Achilles
was smiling again.

“As you can see,” he gestured lightly. “I was right.”

He threw the box at Thengal’s feet and the contents came rolling out, trailing flecks of drying
blood into the dust along with two smaller objects which on first thought Patroclus took to be
marbles. He was corrected however, as Achilles raised his hands to the sides of his mouth so that
his voice echoed into the wind: “It gives me great pleasure to announce that the body of Lord
Nekros is now available for ransom!” he shouted merrily. “Place your offers now and take home
this small sample. The eyes come free with the heart.”

He started laughing again, nudging Patroclus who gazed on, stony-faced. Thengal’s eyelids flitted
closed for a moment before he clicked his fingers, signalling for one of his men to rush forward
and remove the body parts from the ground. There was silence, but for the sound of Achilles’
cackling and the mournful gusting of the wind, whistling sorrowfully through buckles and greave
belts. Thengal straightened up and his features twitched in an effort to regain his composure.
Achilles waited for him expectantly, his face frozen in carnivorous grin that didn’t reach his eyes.

“What are your terms?” said Thengal finally, his voice dry and hoarse.

“Three years’ worth of your trading income in reparations,” Achilles answered immediately. “And
the North Sea shipping post. You get to keep all your land and your title, so much as it is worth, on
the condition that you vacate these lands and your retainers serve King Peleus in battle, when it is
his requirement. Poeas shall deliver a full chest of gold and silver in humble submission to my
father’s mercy. That is all. Go and deliver the proposal to him.”

Thengal inclined his head stiffly. “I will do so,” he replied. “Do I have your word that none of your
men shall harm us on route?”

Achilles nodded. “You do,” he answered. “I swear it by the Gods.”

A flicker of animosity darted across Thengal’s face, strengthening his resemblance to his brother
for a single moment as his thin mouth curled in a snarl. “As if that means as much to you as it
would to any other man,” he said.

“It means as much as you can afford it to mean,” Achilles retorted cheerfully. “On your way now.
Wouldn’t want to keep Poeas waiting.”

He waved them away with a casual flick of his wrists. Thengal spared him one look of deep disgust
and hatred before returning to his men and giving the signal to move out. The Myrmidon army
watched their retreat with uncertain satisfaction, Achilles waving them goodbye at their forefront.

“Best keep that thing on ice!” he cried, just before the horizon swallowed them up.

oOo

“He’s mad,” muttered Leonides as they rode. “He is actually mad.”

Patroclus said nothing. He had not spoken since they had been ordered to leave the border to begin
the journey back to Phthia. That had been six hours ago and he wondered whether his voice might
vanish from lack of use. He had not said a word to Achilles who had waited for him back at the
camp, their horses saddled and packed beside him, and watched his expression morph into one of
surprise and hurt when Patroclus walked straight past him. He had spent the journey riding next to
Leonides who himself was not in much of a talking mood but for the infrequent dark mutterings,
most of which were directed at the back of Achilles’ head.

“What are they thinking,” he continued. “Having a madman lead an army? He should be locked
away, except for in the direst heat of battle. His only purpose is to kill and to destroy. It’s all he’s
built for.”

Again, Patroclus could not bring himself to answer. Like the rest of the army, Achilles’ actions that
morning had shocked him to the core. Whilst having been fully aware, deep down, of the depths
that Achilles’ mind could reach he had never before appreciated that he could and would do such a
barbarous thing. Not even for him. It was this last thought that caused Patroclus to squirm in his
saddle. For while to the rest of the word, the desecration of Nekros’ body had appeared a random
act of triumph-induced cruelty, or at the very least a vicious warning for anyone else who tried to
challenge Phthian strength, Patroclus alone knew the truth. It was a warning, although not against
those who threatened Phthia. It was a promise of what lay in store for anyone who tried to harm
him.

Patroclus knew this, and still he could not bring himself to look at Achilles. He rode at the front of
the procession, chattering animatedly to Acastus and the other commanders of their victory and
debating whether or not Poeas would accept the peace terms. Surprisingly, the majority agreed that
Achilles’ conditions had been far too lenient. Achilles had allowed the Thessalians to keep their
land without altering any borders, demanding only financial reparations. While many were quick to
challenge the wisdom of such clemency, Achilles was quick to point out that it was gold and men
that Phthia really lacked and their coffers would not be filled with the addition of more land to
tend.

Patroclus did not really care. He did not want to think about Achilles or the Thessalians or the
economics of warfare. He felt a twinge of guilt whenever Achilles turned round to look
questioningly at him from over his shoulder but it was not Achilles he wanted to be with right now.
Leonides, at least, understood what he was feeling.

“He’s an animal,” said Leonides under his breath. “A monster.”

Still Patroclus said nothing, but continued to feign ignorance of the fact that Leonides’ eyes were
rather red-rimmed, and had been since they’d burnt the bodies.

It was evening by the time they arrived at the citadel. The marketplace was crowded with people
 anxious to greet their kingdom’s defenders; they stood by to cheer as the army marched through
the gates, waving ribbons and laurel wreathes and throwing down flowers as they passed.
Patroclus’ ears were closed to the celebration even as villagers reached up to touch his shield or
grasp his hand, desperate for some transfer of glory from the men who had risked their lives for
their king and their people. At the front of the procession Achilles was beaming and waving at his
people; Patroclus rode with his head down, feeling that he would trade all their praise for a hot bath
and a warm meal.

They clattered into the courtyard where the palace servants were waiting dutifully to attend to
them. Patroclus dismounted and looked round for someone to take his horse; no sooner had his feet
touched ground however did he feel as though he were being knocked back off them as Leptine
came sprinting towards him.

“Oh thank Gods, thank Gods, thank Gods,” she rushed, her arms wrapped tightly around his
midriff. “I’ve been up all night praying…I was so scared you wouldn’t come back…but here you
are, you’re back, and you’re alive, thank the Gods.”

She released him and Patroclus saw that her face was flushed, her eyes sparkling with emotion and
relief. “Where’s Dee?” she asked, craning her neck. “Why hasn’t he come running to greet his
fiancée?”

She laughed and, clasping Patroclus’ hand, attempted to stand on her tip-toes to look over the heads
of the soldiers. Patroclus caught Achilles’ eye; his gaze flickered to Leptine before he looked away
sharply.

“Leptine,” Patroclus swallowed, hearing his words come out hoarse. “I’m so sorry.”

For a moment Leptine looked confused, her bright eyes sparkling and her smile frozen on her face.
But when several seconds had gone by and Patroclus still hadn’t said anything her face began to
change.

“No,” she whispered.

And before Patroclus could even begin to think of another thing to say, she had collapsed into his
arms.

Chapter End Notes

Phew. That was an effort.

An explanation: as you're probably aware of by now, my interpretation of the
characters is very different to Miller's. While her Achilles is much more sympathetic
than Homer's, he's also much less complicated. I wanted to strike a balance between
the two interpretations, keeping his softness whilst also paying homage to the rather
darker side of his character.
Can I also just say a massive thank you to all you guys hitting me up on tumblr, I've
had some lovely messages and great conversations.
I am a friendly person. Please ask me things or come and say hi
 Agape II
Chapter Notes

Thanks all of you for being so open minded and cool about my characterisation in the
last chapter. This one's a bit of a filler I'm afraid, but it is necessary.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

It was evening and Leptine had not come down. Patroclus had spoken to several slaves who had
informed him that they had not seen her, that she’d been absent from chores since the army had
returned. Patroclus told himself not to worry, that she was resilient and all she needed was a little
time. Still he could not help but fear the consequences if Leptine were to miss all of her duties as a
result of her grief as he had an inkling that Amyntor would be none too understanding.

Her reaction to the news had been one of the most terrifying things he had ever witnessed. Leptine,
who was always so strong, hardened as she was by years of injustice, utterly crumpled. Her body
had shaken, wracked with dry sobs as she buried her head in Patroclus’ chest and amongst the cries
of Deiomachus’ name Patroclus had heard the mantra: “so close…so close” and it was then that he
knew what she really grieved for.

It had taken two servants to help carry her out, incapacitated and near hysterical with misery. She
had fought them and Patroclus saw several members of the Phthian army, who had remained stony-
faced throughout all the horrors of battle and loss, staring with their eyes wide in uneasy fear at the
simple sight of a young woman, screaming in anguish. For Patroclus it seemed that was the true
sound of war; not the horns nor the battle cries nor even the clash of sword on shield but that
female, blood-curdling cry for a man who was never coming home.

Sitting on the beach with the tide washing over his feet, Patroclus knew they were sounds he would
carry with him to his death.

It was growing late and the sky had darkened to dusky mauve dashed with pinks and lilacs, the
seagulls circling the wisps of cloud crowing softly to their mates. The sea was calm, the horizon
bare and it seemed to Patroclus that the battle had been little more than a dream, or a memory
belonging to someone else and not this same person that sat with his knees clasped to his chest and
a pebble clutched in his hand. The blood and the fury of just a few hours ago seemed wildly
incompatible with this world of fading skies and subtle winds, so much so that Patroclus squeezed
with the hand around the pebble his nails into his palm in a desperate attempt to wake up. He could
not understand how two worlds could coexist like that; peaceful as a beach at dusk one minute and
the end of all things at the next.

Someone was coming and there was no need to look up to see who it was. Patroclus would never
understand how he could be thinking about Achilles one moment and have him standing before
him the next but then again, he didn’t really care.

“You’re angry with me,” Achilles said.

Patroclus made a sound between a laugh and a snort that was completely devoid of humour. “What
do you want?” he asked.
“For you to help me to understand why,” Achilles replied, shifting his feet in the sand. “So that I
can say sorry.”

This time Patroclus did laugh properly; the wind whipped it up and carried it through the branches
of the Cyprus trees and over the rock pools. “You mean you don’t know?”

“No, I know why,” Achilles retorted, his hollow cheeks flushing. “I just don’t understand.”

Patroclus continued to chuckle without mirth and looked away bitterly. It seemed as though
something had set their relationship almost a year back and he was talking to the Achilles of some
ten months ago, the Achilles who thought that everything could be fixed with a simple “sorry”.
Glancing at him Patroclus saw this wasn’t quite true; Achilles was twisting his hands nervously, as
if trying to get them dry and his eyes were puzzled but intense, like a student genuinely confused
and in yearning for some imparted wisdom. However, it was the fact that he had to ask that
channelled Patroclus’ anger, already so close to the surface, even as he looked upon Achilles’
simple, pleading face.

“You don’t understand,” Patroclus repeated, spitting the words. “And what are you, a tiny child?
How many grown men have to ask what exactly you could have done to make someone the tiniest
bit upset with you?

A muscle twitched in Achilles’ jaw as his mouth grew thinner. “I killed Nekros,” he said bluntly. “I
put my thumbs in his eyes and he died. Then I tore his heart out. That’s why you’re angry, right?
Not because of what I did, but how I did it?”

“You tore his heart out,” repeated Patroclus through gritted teeth. “And put it in a box to give to
his brother.”

“Right,” nodded Achilles unconcernedly. “So what? What difference does it make? He was dead.
Dead people don’t feel pain or sorrow or humiliation so please Patroclus, explain to me. What is
the big deal?”

“THE DEAL, ACHILLES,” shouted Patroclus, jumping to his feet. “Is that you owe the dead some
respect. That is how we do it, that is how it has been done for thousands of years. Whatever a man
was in life is forgotten; once his soul has departed from this world he is become worthy of some
esteem and dignity-”

“WHY?” Achilles bellowed. “Because he ‘fought bravely’? Because he was a lord? A

commander? Why?”

“Because he was a man.”

“HE WAS A MONSTER.”

“AND WHAT ARE YOU?” the words fell out of Patroclus’ mouth before he had a chance to stop
himself. He could not withdraw them now, the only thing to do was to go on. “What are you now
that you have done this thing? You are no better or worse than he was.”

Achilles stared at him, dumb with shock and with a sudden sear of pain, slashing through him like a
knife Patroclus realised he had never seen him so hurt. Achilles opened his mouth, closed it and
opened it again. No words came out.

“Is that what you think of me?” he whispered finally.

Patroclus didn’t answer. The honest answer was no; that he knew Achilles was beyond such words
humans use to quantify understanding, that he wasn’t sure what he was. But he wasn’t sure that he
wanted to give that answer just yet either. Achilles was staring at him, his mouth slightly parted,
pleading with Patroclus to take back what he had just said. Seconds passed and the silence
stretched between them. Patroclus knew he had to talk, had to tell Achilles what he was feeling but
his tongue felt stiff in his mouth and no words sprung to it. All was confusion in his brain, a
muddled mess of emotion and sorrow and that one same question playing over and over: how can
two states exist so completely within one?

An age passed and Achilles shook his head in stunned disbelief. He turned to go and, as if out of
nowhere, Patroclus felt a sudden rush of fury course through him, searing through his veins until
his hands were bunched into fists.

“Hey,” he called after him as Achilles began to walk away. “We’re not done here.”

Achilles ignored him, if anything only quickening his pace. Patroclus’ fingers curled around the
pebble, still clutched in his sweaty palm. Hot anger burned through him until it was all he felt, until
he was blinded by it; he pulled back his hand and threw. “I said we’re not done.”

The stone hit Achilles in the small of his back. It struck his chiton and landed with a small thump,
raising a little cloud of sand as it did so. Achilles stopped in his tracks. He turned slowly, his brow
pulled into a frown as his gaze shifted from the pebble lying in the sand to settle on Patroclus’ face.
A flutter of something unrecognisable flit for a second over his face as they held each other’s gaze.

Then came the blow.

Patroclus wasn’t even sure who had struck first. All he knew was that suddenly he was grabbing
Achilles by the shoulders, the other arm clasped across his waist and Achilles was pushing him
backwards, struggling to free himself from the grip. Patroclus slipped his leg round Achilles’ ankle
and with a sharp tug managed to send him tumbling into the sand, bringing Patroclus clumsily after
him. Patroclus tried to tug himself out of the hold but Achilles was too strong; seizing his torso he
pulled Patroclus down so fast he felt his neck jolt with whiplash. Achilles brought his knee up,
catching Patroclus in the abdomen and then Patroclus hit him in the face.

Achilles’ head snapped back, baring his throat like a seal readying himself for a shark’s attack and
Patroclus, seizing his advantage, punched him again. The force sent Achilles falling and he landed,
stunned, onto his back. Patroclus clambered on top of him, wrapping his legs round Achilles’ shins
so that he could not get up. Blood was pounding in his limbs and in his ears, he could hear nothing
but the rush of the tide and his own heavy panting. The edges of his vision were tinged with red,
the anger that was spilling out from the back of his mind to the forefront of his sight. His fists felt
heavy with it, his muscles dragged down by wrath and furious, red-hot grief and all those feelings
that he couldn’t and wouldn’t put into words.

Achilles’ eyes were round as coins. There was a thin trickle of blood running from the corner of his
mouth, the skin around which was already flushing to mauve. Patroclus looked down at him and
saw his own shadow falling across the body beneath him, like the dark shade of Charon the
ferryman ploughing his boat across the river Styx. He remembered with a flash the feeling of terror
that had struck him as the spear head tore through Achilles’ shoulder, and the blood that flourished
like the streak of a paintbrush after him into the air.

Patroclus swallowed the bile that was rising in his throat and released Achilles. He climbed
unsteadily to his feet, wiping the blood and sweat from his face with the back of his hand. Achilles
did not move but continued to lay there, his wide, round eyes fixed on Patroclus’ lip. He was
shaking slightly.
The seagulls overhead were crowing to their mates, their cries mournful and low. The wind had
picked up, rustling the leaves of the Cyrpus trees so that their supple branches swayed to the left,
like the bones of a woman. Patroclus looked away from Achilles and cast an eye over the horizon,
searching for something to say. It offered no answers. With a heavy sigh, and a desperate feeling of
hopelessness, he turned on his heel and marched back towards the palace.

oOo

Leptine was still nowhere to be found. Patroclus searched all their usual places, even lingering in
the kitchen for a whole hour before he was chased out by irritable slaves. Finally he was forced to
conclude that if Leptine did not want to be found then it would take a man more skilled than he to
discover her. In any case, Patroclus knew that it was best to leave her alone if that was what she
wanted. This understanding did little to assuage his own feelings of loneliness however as he paced
dolefully round the palace grounds, kicking at anthills and wondering if things would really have
been worse if they’d lost the war.

A movement from the storehouse caught Patroclus’ eye and, curious, he wandered over towards it.
Drawing nearer he saw that it came from the Ithacan sailors, moving provisions along an assembly
line of crewmen to be packed away into their ships. At their head was Odysseus, overseeing the
preparations with his arms crossed over his chest. He looked up as Patroclus approached and
waved him over.

“Just in time,” he said amiably. “I was beginning to fear I would have to go back inside and look
for you.”

“You’re leaving?” asked Patroclus, eyeing the boxes being carried by the sailors.

Odysseus nodded. “I have a feeling I may have overstayed my welcome,” he replied dryly. “I just
bumped into Amyntor handing out wages for the army. Reacted very oddly when he saw me
coming, not that I’m not used to hostility from most people whose names I barely even know. I did
happen to notice that his pouch was rather fuller than it should have been, considering the wages of
any deceased are supposed to be returned to their families…if I were you Patroclus I’d head down
there and get my money out quickly, before he devises a way to keep it from you.”

Patroclus nodded but inside his mind was reeling. The wages of any deceased are supposed to be
returned to their families. Leptine and Deiomachus had been as good as married before he’d gone
away. And if Patroclus were to give her his wages as well it might be enough to buy her freedom
back from Peleus after all. Fingertips buzzing with excitement, he made a mental note to head
down and see Amyntor as soon as possible, a bubble of hope swelling in his chest as he turned back
to Odysseus.

“Are you sure you will not stay a little longer?” he asked. “I’m sure Peleus would be glad of your
insight when it comes to the peace talks with the Thessalians.”

Odysseus shook his head. “He has sycophants enough for that,” he answered with a smirk. “And
now that there is no longer really any use for me, I think it best to leave before I start to rub anyone
else the wrong way. In any case, I’ve been away from home long enough.”

There was something in his voice and a little twitch at the corner of his mouth as he looked fondly
towards the sea that made Patroclus think he meant something different from the word “home”. He
offered his hand for Odysseus to shake.

“Say hello to her for me,” he said. “I could do with her advice.”
Odysseus chucked amusedly. “Couldn’t we all,” he said, clasping it. “Not that she need ever know
that.”

Patroclus tried to return the smile but it slipped weakly off his face and did not meet his eyes.
Seeing this, Odysseus frowned and bent down so that he was looking Patroclus right in the eye, his
brow drawn low over his brown, weathered face, intense with uncharacteristic seriousness.

“I am not Penelope,” he stated rather needlessly. “But perhaps you will accept my advice, as a
cheap substitute?”

Patroclus nodded and Odysseus laid a hand on his shoulder.

“There are things in this world that we cannot understand,” he said, his intelligent, dark eyes
unflinching from Patroclus’. “And that we are not meant to. With such things the only question we
can ask ourselves is what our response is going to be. It is not our place to judge but we are given
two options: to stand by, or to walk away. Nothing more is afforded to us.”

He straightened up and looked at Patroclus with an expression of mixed pity and admiration. “He
loves you,” he said simply. “The stupidest person can see that. All you have to is decide whether
that is enough.”

Patroclus said nothing. Odysseus sighed and patted Patroclus once more on the shoulder.

“We will see each other again,” he promised with a wave of his rope-blistered palm before turning
away.

Patroclus nodded, raising his hand in farewell and watched as the Prince of Ithaca set off from the
palace and left with his men for the sea.

oOo

After Odysseus had gone, Patroclus wasted no time in setting off to find Amyntor. Part of his hurry
was influenced by the fact that, as long as he kept his mind busy and his muscles pumping in his
urgency, his thoughts were less likely to dwell on Achilles and what had passed between them that
evening, thus in turn decreasing the chances of him lashing out and destroying something.
Consequently he forced himself to focus, keeping his objective at the forefront of his mind.
Everything else could wait but this thing needed to be done.

He walked into the Great Hall and saw at once that it was crowded with long rows of men,
standing in line before the raised dais. On the stage, in front of a small table Amyntor sat with a
money counter, a scroll in one hand on which his beady eyes were resting, stylus in hand. Beside
him, an enormously fat sack of coins was resting, a gentle stream of gold and silver spilling from
its open lid like a jar of honey that had spilled on its side.

Forgetting himself in his haste, Patroclus tried to barge his way into the queue, however he was
swiftly halted by a look from a particularly large Myrmidon soldier who felt the need to crack his
muscles threateningly in order to make his point. Suitably abashed, Patroclus headed to the back of
the queue and waited for it to thin, tapping his foot against the stone floor in his impatience.

It did not take long for him to discover that Amyntor was really rather enjoying this new found
position of power. He called names slowly, intentionally mispronouncing or confusing them in
order to get a rise out of the exasperated, and rather tense, soldiers. Looking around Patroclus saw
that it was not just men who waited but women too, some holding children to their breasts or by the
hand. One little girl with lots of brown, curly hair and big dark eyes, clung to her mother’s skirts
with sticky, bannock covered hands. She looked up and met Patroclus’ eye. Instantly he felt a lump
rise and stick in his throat and he tore his gaze away, eyes stinging.

At long last, after Amyntor’s smirking, nasal voice had called out name after name Patroclus found
himself at the front of the queue. Amyntor was pretending to be writing something as he
approached and Patroclus rubbed his knuckles with his thumb as he made a big deal of ticking
something off on his scroll before finally looking up, a sneer on his thin, cruel face.

“Well, well, well, if it isn’t our gutter prince,” he jeered. “Come to claim your reward, have you?
Hasn’t Achilles given it to you already?”

Patroclus bit back a retort and forced himself to remain silent as Amyntor snapped his fingers at the
accountant. The little man gave a start and immediately set about measuring gold and silver from
the sack; once the scales had been balanced the coins were placed into a little leather pouch which
Amyntor chucked unceremoniously at Patroclus.

“There you go,” he snarled bitterly. “See if you can’t buy yourself some more influence.”

“I have not come only for my share,” said Patroclus, stuffing the money into his chiton belt.

Amyntor raised a thick, black eyebrow in exaggerated interest. “Oh?” he exclaimed with feigned
curiously. “Come to claim for a fallen husband, perhaps?”

“It’s for Deiomachus,” snapped Patroclus, his impatience flaring hotly. “Son of Eustos. I come on
behalf of his wife.”

The accountant’s eyebrows disappeared into his forelocks as he cast a wide-eyed look at Amyntor.
The latter’s mouth was thinner than he’d ever seen it and his eyes were shiny and hard.

“We have no record that Deiomachus Eustoides was ever married,” he said, his upper lip curling.

“No, well, you wouldn’t,” explained Patroclus, growing more confident. “They decided formally
just before he went away, there was no time to have it properly sanctified. But a spoken
engagement counts as legally binding, right? I’ll testify as witness to it.”

“So will I,” came a voice and Patroclus turned to see Leonides behind him. Patroclus flashed him a
grateful smile before turning back to Amyntor, an expression he was unsurprised to see, that was
not mirrored there.

Amyntor looked from Patroclus to Leonides, his lips and face pinched as if had just bitten into a
lemon. “It is true that in certain circumstances a verbal agreement can count as legitimate,” he said,
speaking with a careful hesitancy. “However, it depends entirely on the lady in question.”

Patroclus felt as though his innards had physically deflated, however he forced himself to look
Amyntor dead in the eye as he answered. “You know her. She is the servant, Leptine.”

Patroclus watched dully as Amyntor’s pursed mouth lengthened and contorted into a wicked,
leering grin, his eyes glinting with ill-supressed glee.

“Of course,” he said, his voice slow and mocking. “How convenient. The Golden Trio strikes
again, the Prince, the Outcast and the Slave combining their respective resources in the name of
Liberty and Justice. Tell me, how exactly is Achilles caught up in it this time? Are you intending to
persuade him to give up his wages too, in the hope that the force of your combined wealth might be
enough to free little Leptine from the oppression of lifelong captivity? Ooh very good, very good.
Except not.
You see Menoitides, I find it a little too convenient that your deceased friend, who is incidentally
no longer alive to claim credence to this, had apparently entered a binding but admittedly unwritten
contract with someone we all know to be the third adventurer in your merry little gang. And, seeing
as the word of a slave is most regrettably null and void in a civil court, I have no choice but to
dismiss your claim.”

“But she’s his wife-”

“-You cannot marry a slave!” barked Amyntor and flecks of spit flew from his lips in his rage.
“Not until they have first been freed, which, regardless of whatever truth you think there is, she
was not. And seeing as slaves have no right of inheritance and you are neither a family member nor
a trustee of Eustoides’ wealth, I’m afraid I have no other option than to restore Eustoides’ wealth in
the palace coffer’s-”

“YOU MEAN YOUR OWN POCKET!” yelled Patroclus and several people looked round in
alarm. “That’s what you’re doing isn’t it, cheating people out of their money because their
husbands and fathers aren’t around to back them up…you’re nothing but a leach, a parasite
sponging off families who are only trying to survive the best way they can now that their only
means of support is gone-”

“-BE SILENT!” Amyntor roared, slamming his fists down on the table so that gold pieces rattled
into the air and the accountant jumped in his seat. “You forget yourself, Patroclus Menoitides. You
may be the prince’s favourite, but that does not give you liberty to speak so to your betters!
Parasite, am I? Takes one to know one I say, or are you buried so deep in Achilles’ sheets that you
can no longer see yourself in the mirror? Take your money and get out of my sight, worm, before I
call the guards and have you seized for your impudence.”

Seething with fury, Patroclus stood for a few moments in front of Amyntor, his hands balled so
tightly into fists that he could feel the veins popping beneath his skin. Shaking off Leonides’
restraining arm, he turned on his heel and stormed out of the Hall. He heard neither Amyntor’s
taunts nor Leonides calling his name for the blood roaring in his ears and the sound of his heart,
thundering furiously against his chest. His face burned, it was as if his whole body was aflame and
the cool air that met him as he stepped outside offered little relief.

He stood for a minute outside the Hall, trying desperately to calm himself. Raising his hands to his
face he saw that they were shaking, it was as though he were running on nothing but pure rage. He
took deep breaths, tried counting backwards from ten but then Amyntor’s face flashed once more
before his eyes and he heard his voice in his ear: I have no choice but to dismiss your claim…
Parasite, am I? Takes one to know one I say…and everything flashed red before him-

“It isn’t nice, is it?”

He whirled round and was stunned to see Thetis watching him from where she sat, perched atop a
bale of hay. Her red hair hung, knotted and bright across her bared white shoulders and her long
skirts, today the colour of swollen clouds over a storm at sea, fluttered lightly in the evening breeze
as she surveyed Patroclus with a faintly interested expression.

“Now imagine,” she said, brushing a strand of yellow straw from her lap. “Feeling like that, say,
sixty percent of the time.”

“What do you want?” asked Patroclus bluntly. Of all the things in the Universe that he could
possibly be in the mood for right now, a conversation with Thetis was not one of them.

The goddess fixed Patroclus with a penetrating stare, her flinty eyes gleaming gold in a way that
was extremely discomforting. “I’m making a point,” she said.

Patroclus sighed and made an assenting gesture. Thetis hitched back on a haughty expression and
continued. “Imagine walking around with a little ball of fire, burning away inside your chest,” she
continued. “Some days it flares up, setting everything it touches alight and destroying anything it
gets close to. Other days it burns softly, like the warm glow of a cooling ember. Either way,
imagine waiting, permanently on tenterhooks, for the one thing that will add pitch to the flames.
Imagine, waiting for that one day, when the ball of fire in your chest will finally explode.”

She looked at Patroclus expectantly. Unsure of how to reply, Patroclus looked down at his feet and
sifted them through the dirt, uncomfortably aware of her eyes still on him. The silence stretched on
until it was nearly unbearable, Patroclus was about to open his mouth just for the purpose of saying
something when Thetis broke it with a regretful little sigh.

“Oh dear,” she exhaled whimsically. “I so hoped that it wouldn’t have to come to this. But you
know, I did warn you. I warned you again and again. And you, with your typical, male, human ego
paid no heed. What’s the crowing of a poor, mad, mother compared to the sheer, iron will of the
human heart, after all? Of course, now you have only yourself to blame.”

“What are you talking about,” said Patroclus tiredly, whose will to live was slipping by the minute.

“I told you,” repeated Thetis emphatically. “He was not made for mortal minds to grasp, nor mortal
hands to touch. You didn’t listen to me, and now you blame him for being what he his.”

Again Patroclus said nothing. Thetis surveyed him with something akin to pity, if it had not been
for the faint glow of satisfaction Patroclus could sense lurking beneath her sympathetic exterior. “I
am sorry,” she spoke and Patroclus thought there was some genuine empathy there. “I know what
it is you seek. But he cannot give it to you, it is not in his nature, he does not know how. He was
built for greater purposes.”

“I don’t believe you,” said Patroclus suddenly.

Thetis frowned at him bemusedly and she might well have done; Patroclus was not sure himself
where the statement had come from. All he knew was that he believed in it, as he had never before
believed in anything more wholly in his life. He was filled suddenly with a fierce conviction, it
gripped him unshakably and he faced Thetis feeling as though he would burst with it. He felt as if
he had just made a decision, or answered a question that had been put to him some time ago, the
resolution of which would stay with him from this moment on and forevermore.

“I know what you said,” he went on. “About him not having a heart. About him not being able to
love. But I think you’re wrong. He does have a heart, I’ve felt it, he gave it to me and if there’s any
bit of him that’s human then that’s what it is. Alright, he’s like nothing that I’ve ever seen before,
alright sometimes he’ll do things and I can’t understand why, even though they make sense to him
in his weird, wonderful way. And sometimes perhaps he’ll do something that I can’t agree with.
But even then I’ll never leave him. It’s not in my nature, any more than it is in his to throw a race
or turn down a challenge. I love him and if there’s a part of him that loves me back, in whatever
way he can, then that’s enough.”

He stopped, suddenly feeling embarrassed, and became once again very interested in his feet. But
when he looked up again Thetis was smiling.

“You do love him,” she nodded, understanding. “I see that. And you won’t leave him, despite my
best efforts. Alright. But listen to this if nothing else: his is a very specific brand of madness. Do
not stay with him in the hope that it’s going to get better because I tell you now, it is going to get
much, much worse.”

At her words it seemed to Patroclus suddenly colder and an involuntary shiver ran down his spine.
He could not tell whether this was nothing more than the pessimistic notion of a woman who did
not like him, or one of her premonitions. Either way, Patroclus could not help but feel glad when he
looked again and saw that Thetis had disappeared, no doubt to spoil the king’s recently won victory
by accosting Peleus up at the palace.

He knew, however, what he had to do. Without pausing for a second more he headed once again
for the back entrance, taking the slaves’ shortcuts through the palace tunnels until he came to the
winding staircase that led to his and Achilles’ room. He flew up the stone steps, taking them three
at a time and burst in without knocking. Stopping to catch his breath he glanced around the room,
his heart fluttering excitedly, expecting to see Achilles laying on his pallet with a lyre across his
chest, an arm outstretched before him and grasping towards something no one else could see.

He was, however, not there.

Deflating, Patroclus headed down the passageway that led to the baths but there too he had no such
luck. Remembering the last time Achilles had gone missing after Mynax’s death, Patroclus forced
himself not to panic. He had a habit of running off by himself when he was upset, after all, and it
was usually to a place where Patroclus could find him if he wanted him to. He quickly suppressed
the thought that always arose whenever they fought; that this time he had gone too far, that
Achilles did not want to be found, that Achilles was not coming back.

Come on, Patroclus told himself, leaning against the bath tub and dropping his head into his hands.
Think. The forest was a possibility but Achilles had gone there last time and something told him
that the green claustrophobia of the branches and roots wasn’t what he wanted. Patroclus tried to
picture Achilles’ manner as they’d fought. He had been hurt yes, but he’d also been angry and
confused, forsaking common values of decorum and tradition for a more natural, primitive state of
being. Where he wanted to be now was somewhere where he was understood. Somewhere that was
like him.

He found him by the sea. Not on the beach but by the cliffs, standing barefoot on the rocks like one
of the naiads from their crystal caves. His yellow hair was unbound and it flew behind him,
tangling in the wind’s snatching fingers. The waves were roaring as they had not been when
Patroclus had sat on the sand just a short time ago, sprays of foam mingling with the rain that had
only just started to fall. Achilles looked up when Patroclus approached, his mouth parting slightly
in surprise but before he could say anything Patroclus cut across him, leaping over the rocks to
reach him.

“Don’t,” he stopped whatever words Achilles wanted to utter. “It’s forgotten. I’m sorry for what I
said. And while I’m sorry for what you did, while I’m scared of what it showed me it doesn’t
nearly compare with my fear of losing you. But I need you to tell me Achilles, I need you to
promise me that that…wasn’t you. I need you to tell me that it was a…a fit of madness or a loss of
control because if it wasn’t, if that is the real you then I’ll still love you. But I won’t feel good
about it. So I need you to tell me Achilles that it wasn’t, and I’ll believe you.”

“It wasn’t,” said Achilles immediately. “It wasn’t me. I promise.”

Patroclus nodded. “I believe you.”

Achilles nodded back. His eyes were very wide, as if he were nervous and there was a purple bruise
at the corner of his mouth where Patroclus had hit him. Tentatively, he raised a shaking hand to
touch Patroclus’ face. However, the flood of relief that had washed over Patroclus wasn’t quite
 enough to quell all his anger and before Achilles’ fingertips could brush his skin, he seized his
shoulders and shoved him hard.

“Don’t you dare do it again,” he yelled, sea-salt springing into his eyes. “Promise me.”

“I promise,” Achilles repeated. “I promise, I promise, I won’t do it again.”

Patroclus crossed his arms over his chest, blinking furiously. Achilles, recovering from the push,
straightened up. He reached out to cup Patroclus’ face with his jaw, rubbing over his bottom lip
lightly with his thumb. Then he kissed him, kissed him with that hard, blazing way of their first, his
strong hands seizing the back of Patroclus’ head, fingers tangling into the curls as if in desperate
fear of their ever being parted again. Patroclus kissed him back furiously, the muscles in his hands
bunching on the material at Achilles’ waist into fists, relaxing only as they parted for breath.

“I love you,” said Achilles.

“I love you too,” said Patroclus.

They kissed again, and the waves crashed around them.

Chapter End Notes

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 Minnow
Chapter Notes

Happy New Year!!

Can we still say that? I think so. Anyway, apologies for not getting this in earlier, hope
you all had fantastic Christmases those of you who celebrate it and that 2016 is
treating you well so far. Turns out Christmas times is very busy times indeed, but one
of my resolutions is to be generally better in all aspects so look forward to more timely
updates from now on (I know, I also lose track of how many times I’ve said this.
Please humour me.)

Quite a long one, but I really enjoyed writing it. This is the point where you tell me it’s
shit.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

Dawn broke with rosy fingers and Patroclus turned on his side. Achilles was sleeping soundly, his
breathing slow and deep, tugging on his chest as it rose and fell like the gentle pull of the late tide.
His face was calm as it never was when he was awake and normally Patroclus didn’t like it, the
isolated, docile serenity of his expression far too close to another sort of state for comfort. But right
now, with his face so relaxed and at peace he looked so much younger, almost innocent, as if the
cares of the world had not yet touched him and he did not know them.

Patroclus wanted to memorise that face. He didn’t know when he would see it again. He drew his
hand from the covers and gently brushed it with his fingertips, flitting along his jaw, down the
bridge of his nose. As he reached his bottom lip, Achilles’ eyes flickered open. Smiling, he took
his hand and kissed the soft pads of Patroclus’ fingers.

“Good morning,” said Patroclus grinning, a delicious thrill running through him at the sight of
Achilles awake.

“I’ll say,” Achilles yawned, releasing Patroclus’ hand and stretching. “My back hurts.”

“My front hurts.”

“Oh that’s nice,” said Achilles as Patroclus snickered. “That’s really nice. Maybe if you weren’t
such a crazy control freak and just yielded for a change-”

“-You love it,” Patroclus retorted. “Don’t pretend.”

Achilles made an assenting gesture and Patroclus’ smirk widened. It was a crisp, cold morning and
the sunlight streaming through the window was the colour of pale gold looped with silver thread.
Craving warmth, Patroclus snuggled closer to Achilles, pulling the linen sheets tighter around them
both. Achilles slipped his left arm beneath him, hugging him closer with his right until their bodies
were pressed together. He rubbed his face with his thumb, staring deeply into Patroclus’ eyes as if
seeking to possess his very soul. Patroclus felt his butterflies in his stomach and wondered how,
after all this time, Achilles could still manage to make his pulse quicken.

“Speaking of,” he began. “I wonder if you remember something you said last night.”

The words had the desired effect; at once Achilles groaned and, grabbing a pillow, buried his face
into it as Patroclus cackled mercilessly.

“Fuck you,” he muttered, voice muffled.

“We already did that,” said Patroclus logically.

“Well I hope you enjoyed it,” snapped Achilles. “Because that’s the first and last time you’ll be
hearing it.”

Patroclus whined and pouted, attempting to drag the covers off Achilles to get his attention but
Achilles clung to them stubbornly, refusing to give Patroclus the satisfaction of looking at him.
Finally Patroclus gave up and collapsed dramatically back onto the pallet, simmering with defeat.

“Fine,” he conceded. “I suppose I’ll just have to assume you didn’t mean it, and are only using me
for my body.”

Achilles’ stifled voice sounded bored against the sheets. “You do that.”

“I will,” replied Patroclus haughtily. “And I hope you’re happy with the knowledge that, now that
I’m aware of your true nature, that’s the last time you’ll be hearing this-”

He began mimicking some of the choicest noises that had sounded last night but had barely got
going when Achilles shot out of the covers, grabbing Patroclus’ wrist and pinning him to the pallet.
Patroclus’ heart was galloping out of his chest when without ceremony Achilles kissed him
harshly, claiming his mouth so fiercely with his own Patroclus was sure it would add to his already
impressive collection of bruises. When finally he released him they were both breathless; Achilles
sat back up, the sheets slipping off his bare torso, and ran a hand through his tawny, messy mane
of hair.

“When will you learn to shut up?” he muttered.

“The next time you say it,” quipped Patroclus.

“Guess I’ll just have to learn to drown you out then,” answered Achilles, slipping from the bed and
stretching. He smiled as his limbs made a satisfying click and moved to the other side of the room
to wash himself. Patroclus rolled over, pulling the sheets back over his head in an attempt to claim
a last few desperate minutes of sleep before the day won his soul from him, however he was
thwarted in his efforts by a knock at the door.

Patroclus shot up like a cork, staring wide-eyed at Achilles. He was shocked, however, to see that
his panic was not mirrored there, rather Achilles made a dismissive gesture with his hand to
demonstrate his lack of concern.

“Let them in,” he whispered.

“What?” Patroclus hissed back. “But…but…”

He gestured crudely to himself, to his nakedness, to the rumpled sheets strewn across Achilles’
bed. Achilles shrugged.
“I don’t care anymore,” he said, voice still hushed. “They can think what they like. I’m done
hiding.”

And while they weren’t exactly the words he had said on the beach yesterday, they still sent a jolt
of electric glee shooting through Patroclus’ body.

The knock sounded again more urgently. Ignoring Patroclus’ hesitation, Achilles threw back his
head. “Come in,” he said authoritatively.

Patroclus threw the covers over his head and held his breath. However, instead of the voice of
shocked repulsion he had expected came one that was quite different in its tone.

“Good morning, my lord,” amusement, like the tinkle of silver bells. “Although, I see that you are
already having one.”

“Good day to you Leptine,” said Achilles, throwing the door open for her to come in. “Patroclus
heard you coming.”

Patroclus lowered the linen from his eyes and attempted a cheery wave, marred slightly by his
embarrassment. “Hello Leptine.”

Achilles rolled his eyes in disgust at Patroclus’ cowardice and turned back to Leptine who was
watching Patroclus, a shit-eating grin pricking her fey-like features. “How can we help you?” he
asked.

“Peleus asked Cleitus to inform you that the Thessalians will soon be here to formally discuss the
peace settlement,” she told him. “I thought you might prefer me in his place.”

“You’re a darling,” announced Achilles, grabbing a chiton and aegis and flinging them over
himself. He reached into the wash basin and flicked water at Patroclus. “Get up. The protagonists
are required.”

Patroclus, who was not necessarily tempted by the idea of facing a state assembly this early in the
morning, groaned into his pillow. “Not a protagonist,” he muttered. “Irrelevant side character.”

“Nethertheless,” said Achilles blithely. “Up you get. Thank you, Leptine. Tell my father I shall be
down in a minute.”

Leptine curtsied and left the room. Patroclus waited for her footsteps to fade down the staircase
before heaving himself off the bed with a tremendous effort.

“That could have been horrible,” he told Achilles.

“But it wasn’t,” Achilles pointed out. “You can’t live your whole life on what ‘could have been’,
Patroclus. At least, I can’t.”

He flung a chiton at Patroclus who, despite his reflexes being somewhat stalled, caught it in one
hand.

oOo

Half the assembly were already seated by the time Achilles flung open the doors to the Great Hall,
Patroclus hurrying behind him wiping sleepy dust from his eyes. They arrived relatively unnoticed
as many of the lords were occupied in animated conversations with their neighbours, discussing the
possible terms for peace in loud, carrying voices. The whole atmosphere was one of tense
anticipation and the very air seemed to vibrate with it. Leptine was standing at Peleus’ elbow and it
struck Patroclus suddenly that, after her brief moment of amusement upstairs, her face was
terrifyingly empty, her usually bright eyes almost hollow. She looked up at him and the small
smile she offered seemed to get stuck halfway.

As if he had sensed his desire, Achilles’ nodded at Patroclus and immediately struck up a
conversation with Peleus and Phoenix, giving Patroclus time to sidle up to Leptine and ask her
quietly, “How are you?”

She looked up at him blankly and Patroclus what a stupid question that had been. Before he had
time to rectify the situation however, the Hall doors opened once again and a sanctimonious little
voice announced: “King Poeas of Thessaly.”

Patroclus braced himself as at the same time Achilles straightened beside him. Poeas entered the
room, flanked by two servants who were carrying a chest between them. He was decked out in full
state attire, a cloak of deepest purple settled over his shoulders and gems gleaming from his ample
stomach, and yet, standing in the modest Hall in front of the plainly dressed victors, he looked to
Patroclus more like a rotund figure of ridicule than a dignified politician. Clearly Achilles thought
so as well as, glancing at him out of the corner of his eye, Patroclus saw a smirk fighting to reach
the surface.

“Poeas,” Peleus greeted him, and if Patroclus wasn’t very much mistaken there was a note of
smugness in his otherwise genial voice. “Words cannot tell how it warms my heart to meet you
here as a friend and not an enemy.”

“Don’t bother with them then,” Poeas snarled churlishly. “Let’s just get this over with.”

Peleus inclined his grey head. “As you wish,” he said graciously. “I take it you brought the sum
discussed?”

Poeas nodded jauntily and snapped his fat fingers to his servants who dropped the heavy chest in
the middle of the stone floor. Removing the lid, Patroclus saw that it shimmered with gold and
silver.

Peleus nodded his satisfaction. “Merely a portion of the value of slaughtered lives and those souls
that now rest in the cool shade of Hades,” he observed sorrowfully. “But good enough. Now, let us
talk peace.”

He sank back into his chair and gestured to Phoenix who got to his feet immediately.

“The terms discussed with the Prince,” Achilles winked rakishly at Poeas. “Were for three years’
worth of your trading income in reparations, as well as the North Sea shipping post, on the
condition that your land and title would be left to you. In return, any mercenaries or retainers that
bare your standard must serve King Peleus in times of battle, whenever it is asked of you. Are you
familiar with the terms expressed to you here?”

Poeas’ snarl grew more pronounced and his fleshy face seemed to darken. “How could I forget?”
he glowered. “When they were brought to me by Lord Thengal, as an adornment to the
abomination he carried in his hands, as bequeathed to him by the rabid dog that is your son?”

Achilles giggled and Patroclus kicked him. Meanwhile the assembly around them erupted;
Patroclus knew that few doubted the honourability of Achilles’ actions in boxing the heart and
eyeballs of Nekros for his brother, but for a defeated enemy to insult his opponent’s heir to his
face, and in the middle of a bargaining process, was just unheard of. Peleus’ eyes narrowed and he
sent Achilles a glance that would have shamed any other man to the core. When he turned back to
Poeas however his expression was stern and justified.

“I might remind you that you are a defeated supplicant, here to negotiate the conditions of your
surrender, not insult my family,” he scolded, as if to a misbehaving child. “Furthermore I might
remind you that it was my son that offered you these terms, terms that many chastised him for
being far too lenient. We were just discussing, before you came in offering insults, whether or not
we should add a proviso or two.”

Patroclus snuck a glance at Achilles. A slight frown had appeared between his brow meaning that
he disliked hearing his judgement being questioned but he said nothing. For once, Patroclus wished
he would. Many of Peleus’ advisers were looking militant, like pack hounds catching a whiff of
blood on the air, and Poeas like a particularly fat rabbit.

Phoenix withdrew a scroll from his tunic and unrolled it. Patroclus saw Poeas’ eyes bulge as he
took it in, a ball of saliva travelling and sticking in his gullet.

“As well as three years’ worth of trading income, it is King Peleus’ desire that you will also pay a
further four years’ income from agricultural yield,” he read. “You will also give to Phthia the
borderlands that lie currently beyond our reach, as well as the fertile fields that encompass it. No
Thessalian will enter our territory, under penalty of death.”

He resealed the scroll and awaited Poeas’ reaction. The Thessalian king’s mouth was working
soundlessly, his eyes threatening to force themselves out of his skull. A thin sheen of sweat
gleamed on his heavy cheeks and it was then that the gravity of what he was hearing fully
impacted Patroclus: these terms would ruin Thessaly.

“This isn’t fair,” he whispered to Achilles who shushed him.

Poeas, however, evidently agreed. “This is unjust,” he spluttered. “Phthia started this war just as
much as we did when you killed our sentries Lanssa-”

“-Why were they there to begin with?” Achilles pointed out. “Anyway, irrelevant. You didn’t like
my terms? Take my father’s. Dissatisfied with the first meal? Try a bigger portion.”

Poeas’ eyes flashed angrily. “I do not need lessons in politics,” he snapped, spittle flying from his
lips. “Not from an insolent little degenerate such as you, with nothing but a pretty face to distract
from your crippled mind. You should have been killed at birth.”

Instinctively Patroclus reached to yank him back into his chair, restraining him from hurtling
himself at Poeas. The action proved unnecessary however as Achilles merely leant back in his seat
and laughed.

“I’m wounded,” Achilles grinned. “Help me, I’m bleeding out. Oh wait. My body repairs itself at
twice the speed of a normal human’s.”

“OUTRAGE!” Ampelius was shouting from a far corner. “HOW DARE HE INSULT THE
FUTURE KING!

His words were echoed around the room, reverberating off the stone as nobles climbed out of their
seats to gesticulate and scream for the Thessalians’ removal from the Hall. Peleus and Phoenix
were arguing as loudly as their elderly voices would allow, the latter apparently advocating their
enemy’s execution. Achilles leant back in his chair with his arms crossed over his chest and
laughing loudly, like a little lord of Chaos. Meanwhile, Patroclus’ eyes sought Poeas. His damp
skin had adopted a greenish hue and his eyes were wide with horror, as if realising finally that he
had gone too far. His shoulders were slumped with dejection and Patroclus understood that he was
grieving now, grieving for his people who would suffer as a result of his own stupidity and
arrogance at the hands of a foreign nation.

“My Lords,” Patroclus called but his voice was drowned out by the clamour. Only Achilles looked
up at him questioningly, as if to say What are you doing, shut up. Patroclus tried again. “MY
LORDS.”

This time he was heard by a few who dropped their arguments to search for the source of the call.
Soon the room was quiet again and all the lords and nobles had turned their heads to look at him
expectantly. Peleus was blinking at him in polite surprise, the tips of his fingers pressed together as
if he desired nothing more than to hear Patroclus speak.

Oh balls, Patroclus thought to himself, his stomach swimming at the site of all these alert faces
turned in his direction. Okay. Really didn’t think that would work. But he took a deep breath and
cleared his throat.

“My lords,” he began again, cursing internally that his voice wasn’t quite as strong and stammer-
free as he had been going for. “It would be…very hard for us to ignore the insult this man has
offered us, here in our own Hall, as a supplicant to our mercy,” at once a resounding shout of
approval bellowed round his words accompanied by much banging of fists, he waited for it to
settle down before he continued. “He has shown no remorse for the suffering caused, both to the
men of our country and his own. A greater man would receive direst retribution for the way he has
spoken here this morning. BUT,” he raised his voice as the men showed signs of demonstrating
their agreement. “Does that mean we should punish innocents for the crimes committed by a single
man?”

Silence followed, one so taut that the sound of donkey sneezing could be heard from outside.
Finally a frowning noble broke it, addressing Patroclus with deep scepticism. “The Thessalians
asked for this.”

“The Thessalians didn’t ask for anything,” Patroclus countered. “I mean, I for one certainly don’t
remember going up to your average Thessalian farmer with an opinion poll and asking how he’d
feel about abandoning his vegetables and marching on a country he’s probably never even heard of
before. To be sure, King Poeas and his army have a lot to answer for, but they won’t be the ones
affected by these terms. It’ll be the ordinary people, those suffering from famine when they
haven’t enough to feed themselves, after all their agricultural income has gone to our coffers. It’ll
be the mothers, and the children, and the little babies who are already hurting enough, what with
the majority of their menfolk dead. These terms will ruin these people, most of whom have never
done any harm to Phthia.”

Many of the nobles exchanged amused glances and Patroclus felt the heat rush to his cheeks. “War
is not gentle business, Master Patroclus,” Phoenix addressed him kindly. “The debris of battle does
not fall in rose petals. Reparations have to be paid.”

“I know that,” said Patroclus impatiently, mindful of how several people in the room were
sniggering behind their palms. “I am not a child, I know how it works. But my lord, and I mean
this with the utmost respect, these reparations are disproportionate and, quite frankly, criminal.”

He held his breath as the lords began to mutter amongst themselves. His heart was thumping madly
with adrenaline and he sat on his fingers so that no one could see they were shaking. Out of the
corner of his eye he could see Achilles with his head in his hands; Patroclus refused to look at him.
With a flush of embarrassment, he realised how naïve he sounded, how politically inexperienced
and bursting excruciatingly with youth and idealism. In the end though, he didn’t care. Somebody
had to stand up for these people, and no one else was jumping to the task.

At long last, Peleus turned to Patroclus with a heavy, searching expression on his well-lined face.
“You speak honourably Patroclus,” he said warmly. “As usual, you bring men with many years
and experience behind them to shame and I am proud to have someone of such worthy intention in
my household. However, it is yet to be contested whether the recipient of such kindness is worthy
of it-”

“-He’s not worthy of anything,” Achilles protested, flinging an accusing finger at Poeas. “He was
really rude to me.”

“You can’t condemn thousands of people to poverty and death because one idiot was rude,”
Patroclus snapped back. “By that logic Phthia would be a wasteland by now.”

Achilles slumped back in his seat, arms crossed sulkily over his chest but looked grudging.
Phoenix was chewing his lip and Peleus too was stroking his beard thoughtfully, allowing a bubble
of hope to balloon in Patroclus’ stomach. This was short-lived, however, as a thin and reedy voice
splintered the new silence.

“If I may, my lord king,” Amyntor simpered and a flash of intense dislike stabbed through
Patroclus like a hot rod. “Perhaps there is some political, as well as ethical, merit to what
Menoitides says. If we chastise the Thessalians too harshly, their wealth will suffer. Their yield
will be less and, as a result, Phthia will receive less. And whether Phthia can, in fact, afford the
addition of further lands to tend is already a matter of debate. Much of our income comes from
trade with Thessaly. Therefore, it is of no advantage to Phthia to cripple the country, as these terms
will surely do.”

Patroclus’ mouth fell open as he stared at Amyntor, scarcely daring to believe what he was hearing.
The overseer’s face was unreadable; he was addressing Peleus with all of his courtly flattery and it
was impossible to work out what his thoughts were behind his cunning mask. King Poeas’
feelings, however, were obvious. He kept looking from Patroclus to Amyntor with incredulous,
barely disguised elation.

After a long stretch of time filled mostly by Achilles tearing at his nails with his teeth and Phoenix
looking pensive, Peleus spoke. “Amyntor makes a good point,” he relented. “Given the high
emotions surrounding this matter, it is easy to oversee issues of plain logic such as this. Very well.
We shall revert to Achilles’ original plan.”

There was a collective rumbling of discontent at these words, quickly silenced by a glaring look
from Ampelius from beneath his fearsome eyebrows. Poeas had tried to assume his dignified
position but was failing shamelessly as he struggled to mask his relief.

“Well,” said Achilles cheerfully. “I suppose you now have another thing to be thankful to Phthia
for.”

At this Poeas visibly bristled, his mouth curling back into its defensive snarl and he seemed to
shake slightly with bottled anger as he spoke. “The only thing that I am thankful for,” he hissed. “Is
that there are one or two voices of reason amongst this…this…Tartarus. This wolf’s pit. Master
Menoitides,” he turned to Patroclus who started. “I have heard tell of your kindness, your
intelligence and good judgement but never thought to look for it as an enemy of state. It is not only
I who thank you but my people, who will forever praise your compassion, your benevolence-”

Here he was cut off by a loud snort from Achilles. “Benevolence,” he repeated scathingly. “He’s
not that good. You just don’t know him. Sometimes, he can be a real dick. He’s a dick and I’m an
arsehole. Thinking about it, that’s probably why we get on so well.”

There came a sharp intake of breath from everyone in the assembly. Poeas was speechless. Peleus
was white as a sheet and his knuckles shone through as he gripped the edge of his chair, so tightly
it looked as though his thin bones would splinter. It was Patroclus’ turn to drop his head into his
hands.

Achilles cackled.

oOo

“Why?” Patroclus demanded once they were safely outside the confines of the Hall, which had fast
become poisonous. He could still hear the scandalised mutterings of the lords within and indeed, as
they began to trickle through the doors, was aware of several evil glances being shot his way.

Achilles shrugged. “Funny.”

Patroclus stared at him, aghast. His heart was beating as if he had ran a race and he could feel his
cheeks heating up with every whispered remark muffled behind a hand. He thought back to Peleus,
refusing to look at either of them as he left the Hall without a backwards glance. In his mind’s eye,
he saw Ampelius shaking his head in dumb disbelief. He had never felt so exposed in his entire life.

“I can’t believe you,” he said.

“Oh come on,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “Half the people in that room already knew. If you’re
worried about my father, he’s known for months. Probably for as long as we have.”

“That is a hundred percent not the point,” Patroclus snapped. “Even if the whole world knew, some
things are not to be said in front of a state assembly, in the middle of formal negotiations for a
peace treaty! For Gods’ sake Achilles, you’re going to be a king. Is that the kind of reputation you
want? Someone who makes crude jokes about anal before foreign powers?”

Achilles sniggered and Patroclus knew that he was fighting a losing battle. Reverting to his tried
and true method of getting through to Achilles, he said cuttingly: “You’re going to be a crap king.”

At once, Achilles’ eyes narrowed and Patroclus quickly suppressed the faint flicker of fear he
always felt whenever Achilles looked at him like that. “Take that back.” he said.

“I won’t,” Patroclus clung on stubbornly. “I mean it. If you go on acting like this, like the things
you say and do don’t matter, then you don’t deserve Phthia.”

For a long moment, Achilles continued to glare at him and Patroclus stood his ground, focusing all
his energies on holding his gaze. Finally, Achilles dropped his and looked at his feet, his
expression glum.

“You’re right,” he confessed miserably. “I’m shit. I don’t deserve to be king.”

Oh no, thought Patroclus, his heart strings pulling desperately taut. Undo, I didn’t mean it. Even if
it meant that he had gotten his point across, there was nothing worse than seeing Achilles with his
head down. It would have been so much easier if he’d just punched him.

“You’re not shit,” Patroclus struggled to maintain the high ground whilst also seeking to comfort
the person who was currently sticking knives in his chest. “I mean, look at the way you inspire the
army. I’ve never seen so much loyalty and devotion before. The men look to you as they would a
God, and your people will do the same if you give them the chance.”

“But that’s it,” Achilles protested. “Commanding an army, that’s all I know how to do. I’m no
good at politics or debate. I make jokes, or I lose my temper, not because I don’t know how to
speak but because I can’t play their game. And I can’t…what’s the word…articulate my emotions
or my feelings about a subject without getting worked up and then no one takes me seriously…”

He trailed off and suddenly his eyes were wide and he was looking at Patroclus in a new way, as if
struck by an idea of such intense originality it had shocked him. “But you can,” he said, and there
was awe in his voice. “You just did. What you said about the peace terms, and crippling the
people, you were so right and people actually listened to you, even when you have just about the
same economic understanding as a wet mollusc.”

“Thank you, for that,” said Patroclus frowning.

“I’m serious,” Achilles insisted. “You delivered an argument, entirely based on empathy for a
defeated enemy and you got the assembly to change their minds. That fat lump of lard was right.
You do have good judgement, and the ability to see things from others’ point of view which takes
most people years to achieve, and some people never. You’d make a great king.”

Patroclus scoffed but his mind was running at a hundred miles an hour. Not a day had gone by
since the night in the forest that he hadn’t thought about the old witch’s prophecy. The idea of
becoming king had impeded itself in the darkest recesses of his subconscious, like a tiny sapling
just taking root. Sometimes, when he was alone, he would shake the thought out and contemplate it
and before he knew it he was fantasising about what changes he’d make to the justice system, the
implementing of a monetary scheme that would serve the people rather than the nobles and the
army, more research into Eastern medical techniques…the abolition of slavery…

“Don’t be ridiculous,” he snorted dismissively. “Anyway, it wouldn’t have worked if it hadn’t been
for Amyntor. Speaking of, how weird was that?”

But Achilles had caught sight of his reflection in a water trough and was adjusting his parting.
When he looked back up his expression was entirely uninterested. “I’m sorry, what was that?”

“Oh never mind,” Patroclus snapped. “I can see you’re already preoccupied with what’s really
important.”

Achilles opened his mouth to reply but before he had a chance Patroclus turned on his heel and
began to march in the opposite direction. As he put more distance between the two of them, he
realised he was feeling irrationally irritated. Achilles’ joke, as harmless as it may have been, had
smarted more than he’d let on. It was alright for him, who had only to sit and wink to prove
himself, but Patroclus had worked hard to get to the spot of recognition he felt he finally deserved.
Speaking out in the assembly had been nerve-wracking yes, but it had also brought him an
immense sense of pride to speak and actually be listened to for a change, and by people much older
and wiser than he. And now Achilles had ruined all that in one thoughtless remark, rendering him
once again as no more than the prince’s poodle.

He didn’t realise until he got there that he had been heading for the slaves’ quarters. He found
Leptine predictably in the kitchen, wiping absently away at a spot that, for all intents and purposes,
already looked pretty clean. He hovered uncertainly for a second by the doorway, wondering if he
should come in but before he had made up his mind she had looked up, spotted him, and offered a
small smile.

“Hi,” she greeted him softly. A pause, and then: “That was quite some meeting.”
“You can say that again,” said Patroclus, closing the door behind him and coming to perch on the
table. He observed idly that it was unusually bare, devoid of the herbs and plants that usually
scattered the surface as Leptine’s haphazard, chaotic toil. “You know, I might make it my business
to find out Achilles’ weakness. Anything that makes it easier to murder him.”

Leptine’s eyes crinkled slightly. “I should think that much is obvious,” she commented.
“Although, I’ll admit that exposing your sex life to the entire council of nobles may not have been
his smartest move.”

“It’s not even our sex life,” Patroclus muttered. “I mean…we haven’t even done that yet.”

Leptine raised an eyebrow quizzically. “Really?”

“I mean, we’ve done stuff,” Patroclus amended quickly. “And some things that are similar, just
not…technically…ANYWAY. Erm…why am I here? Oh yeah, you. Um…I’m really sorry about
earlier, that was such a stupid question, obviously you’re not alright. Do you…er…want to talk
about it?”

For a few moments, Leptine said nothing. Then with a sigh, she folded up the rag she was using to
wipe the surfaces and put it away, turning to face Patroclus as she did so.

“I just can’t seem to do anything,” she said finally, and her voice sounded exhausted. “I can’t sleep.
I can’t work. All I do is think about…what could have been. You know, while you were away at
war, I’d entertain myself with fantasies. I had it all mapped out. We’d move away from the citadel,
build a small stone house near the mountains. Use whatever money we had left to buy goats. We’d
make cheese and travel to the agora every market day, to sell it with the milk and the wool, trade it
for grain and eggs. Aside from the flock we’d have two children, a boy and a girl, and my little
grey cat. Which I was going to name after you, by the way.”

Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “Pride-of-the-Father?”

Leptine grinned. “Minnow. I always think of you when I see them. I think you should have one as
your standard.”

Patroclus, who had rather banked on carrying something a little more macho than a tiny silver fish
into battle, made a non-committal noise.

“And then,” Leptine continued heavily. “I realised that most of what I was missing wasn’t really
anything to do with Deiomachus. It was what he offered me. A chance of escape, an opportunity
for a better life. And all my feelings of grief and regret are entirely, extraordinarily selfish.”

She looked up and Patroclus saw that her eyes were shining with tears. “Does that make me a bad
person?” she asked in a tiny voice.

For the second time that day, Patroclus thought his heart might break. “Oh Leptine,” he murmured,
slipping from the table to hug her. “You’re not a bad person. You’re the best person I know. And
everything you’re feeling is so, so valid. Dee was a friend, to both of us. But for you he was so
much more and it’s just so shit that he didn’t have the chance to be that…that you didn’t have the
chance to…”

He couldn’t finish. Leptine was crying soundlessly, he could feel her tears bleeding into his chiton.
There were no words in Greek or Anatolian or any other language on the Earth that he could say to
make this better.

“I swear to you,” he said at long last. “I will not rest until you are free.”
Leptine lifted her head from Patroclus’ head to shake it at him. “Don’t make promises you can’t
keep,” she replied.

oOo

After several cups of soothing, camomile-infused teas and a honey cake that someone had dug out
from the pantry and forgotten about, Patroclus and Leptine began to move on to cheerier subjects.
This mostly revolved around impressions of Poeas attempting to climb the stairs to his guest room
and musings of what words of wisdom Ampelius would offer Patroclus in response to Achilles’
disclosure at the assembly. They also had a very good time reading Penelope’s latest letter, despite
the rather ominous insinuations it contained as to some rumblings in Sparta, concerning the
marriage of her cousin Helen and her husband Menelaus.

Unfortunately, Leptine showed a similar amount of interest in Amyntor’s behaviour as Achilles,

here meaning, very little. “I think ‘suspicious’ is a pretty strong word, Patroclus,” she commented
doubtfully. “Maybe ‘surprising’ or ‘mildly unexpected’.”

“It is shady as fuck,” Patroclus replied heatedly. “Why would Amyntor care what happens to the
Thessalians? He hates foreigners as much as any of those crusty old men, and he hates me even
more. Why would he risk the council’s approval in backing me up?”

“Forgive the blasphemy, but is it possible that his motivations weren’t centred on you?” asked
Leptine amusedly. “Like, maybe, I don’t know, he genuinely has Phthia’s best interests at heart?”

Patroclus considered a moment, then shook his head. “No,” he said bluntly. “He’s up to
something.”

Leptine pulled a face that toed the line between vague exasperation and complete indifference.
“Well, as titillating as this complete and utter scandal is,” she said. “I actually have somewhere to
be, floors to mop, stables to sweep, etcetera. And if I’m not there in five minutes, Amyntor really
will have something to be shady about.”

“I’ll walk with you,” said Patroclus, jumping up and sweeping crumbs off the table.

They left the kitchen together and journeyed through the slaves’ quarters, passing the room that
Amyntor used formally as an office and more frequently to exact punishments on disobedient
slaves. Leptine was talking animatedly about the decline in the density of rat droppings when, upon
rounding a corner Patroclus yanked her back by the arm.

“What-” she started when Patroclus shushed her.

A finger to his lips, Patroclus glanced round the corner where he was sure he had just seen Poeas
emerge from the shadows. Sure enough there was the king, his gold and jewels glittering
incongruously amongst the dank of the underground tunnels and seconds later he was joined by
none other than Amyntor himself. Patroclus watched in amazement as the two greeted each other
and clasped hands warmly.

Then, if his eyes didn’t deceive him, Patroclus watched the Thessalian king slip something into the
overseer’s hand.

oOo

“Shady as fuck,” Patroclus related to Achilles.

They were in one of the empty rooms Phoenix used to teach them. Today they were studying
Mathematics, one of Patroclus’ most detested subjects, and he and Achilles had spent most of the
lesson throwing protractors at each other, prompting Phoenix to leave the room in favour of a short
respite. Patroclus was now taking the opportunity to fill Achilles in on all he and Leptine had
witnessed.

“Yes. Shady,” Achilles nodded. “If, by shady, you mean totally meaningless and boring.”

“He slipped something into his hand.”

“Did you see what it was?”

“No, but-”

“-Then I don’t care,” Achilles yawned. “Honestly Patroclus, if you’re going to be king you’re
really going to have to learn to prioritise. You know, tell which things are important and which are
a fabrication of your paranoia.”

“I know what ‘prioritise’ means,” Patroclus snarls. “And stop joking about me being king, I told
you it’s not funny-”

“-Alright,” he was interrupted by the return of Phoenix, who was holding something that looked
like a cooling towel such as the kind Leptine applied to headaches, to his skull. “Are we ready to
focus and return our thoughts to Calculus?”

Achilles pelted Patroclus with a compass.

“Fine,” hissed Patroclus once Phoenix had retreated in search of a sedative. “I’ll just find out what
Amyntor’s up to on my own.”

“You do that,” Achilles hummed, delicately shading in the penis he had sketched on Patroclus’
tablet.

oOo

This day was obviously one of several “firsts” for Patroclus. He had spoken out before the counsel
for the first time since becoming Achilles’ hetairoi. And now he was embarking on a potentially
perilous mission (as he had phrased it to Achilles, who had sworn at him) with neither the help of
him or Leptine. It was terrifying, but at the same time it was also fairly exhilarating.

He waited until the dead of night, when all the palace was asleep and Achilles was snoring soundly
before creeping out of his room and down the stairs. Using the tunnels he was by now well
acquainted with, he was able to avoid the guards on duty. Even so his pulse pounded with fear and
excitement as he made his way through the labyrinth of darkness that led to Amyntor’s office.

He approached the locked door cautiously, looking nervously from left to right for any sign of
approaching danger. There was none. Once certain the coast was clear, he withdrew the hair pin
Leptine had given him from his chiton and set about wriggling the metal end in the keyhole. After
several tense minutes he heard a click from the other side and the door swung open; Patroclus gave
one final glance behind him for safety’s sake and slipped inside.

Aymntor’s office was a small, dingy space; stuffy with scrolls and inkwells and brass scales of the
kind used for measuring coin. Patroclus wasted no time in leafing through the overseer’s
belongings, unearthing several unpleasant looking objects which could only be used for one thing:
inflicting pain. After quickly setting aside a particularly distasteful pair of what looked like
curiously crusted metal tongs he was about to give up, when suddenly he noticed a brick in the far
 wall which appeared to be protruding slightly further than the others by about half a centimetre.

Hardly daring to believe it, Patroclus raced over to it and carefully set two hands on either side of
the brick. Then, holding his breath, he lifted it away from the wall.

And a fat sack of Thessalian coins came pouring onto the floor.

Chapter End Notes

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 Theodorus
Chapter Notes

I don't even know what this chapter is. Like, I opened up a blank word document and I
just started writing and all these words came out and I am still no clearer as to what the
hell I've written.
One of my problems is, I have no idea how many of you guys are reading this for plot
and how many of you are reading this for cutesey greek fluff. Both are equally valid
reasons I assure you, but the thing is I started this with the latter intention and
suddenly all these characters and plot devices have appeared from absolutely nowhere
and there are 42 chapters and people are getting nose bleeds just ploughing through (I
have no idea if the latter is true but I feel like it must be.) Personally, I'm really
enjoying this bizarre trip because it's become sort of like an exercise in storytelling for
me; I get to make up my own characters and play with them and give them irrelevant
storylines but I don't know if you guys are cool with reading that? Basically, I don't
want to be selfish and be like "Ooh yes, let's throw in ANOTHER arch because I'M
PLAYING GOD" if I'm boring you all to death.
Actually, this is all totally irrelevant anyway because there are 6 chapters left and they
all follow the main myth. So this is a completely pointless note. I'm sorry, ignore me.
Read and comment lovely things because they make my eyes water and my heart very
full.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

Patroclus stared, dumfounded at the money in his hands. It streamed through his fingers as though
it were leaking molten, falling like drops of rain onto the stone floor. Looking at it closely, he saw
now that there were not only Thessalian coins but Athenian, Megaran, even a few heavily
decorated plates that looked as though they came from Argos. Amyntor certainly had been busy,
rounding up Peleus’ threats and potential allies, striking deals and bargains for every policy that
was put forward in Council. An image crept into Patroclus’ mind of an enormous, bloated spider,
sitting in the middle of a large and complicated web and wheedling flies towards it.

Footsteps sounded from down the corridor. Quickly, Patroclus grabbed the fallen coins, stuffing
them unceremoniously into the leather sack before slinging it back into the alcove. He made sure
the brick was properly fixed and nothing in the room was disturbed before checking the exit and
heading straight for the nearest corner, closing the door behind him.

There he waited, heart pounding violently against his ribcage and hoping desperately that the door
had relocked itself upon closing it. Before he had time to check however a shadow fell upon the
flagstones and Amyntor appeared from down the corridor. Sweat trickled down Patroclus’
forehead as he watched the overseer reach for a key and fit it in the lock.

He turned it. Patroclus held his breath. He heard a click, and Amyntor walked in.

Breathing an enormous sigh of relief, Patroclus hesitated only to wipe his forehead with a shaking
hand before setting off back through the tunnels, anxious to relate all he had discovered to Achilles.

oOo
Achilles was snoring when Patroclus re-entered. Throwing off his over-tunic, Patroclus did not
wait to wake him gently but shook him aggressively by the arm until his eyelids fluttered open.

“Achilles,” he whispered urgently. “Achilles, wake up.”

Achilles groaned, pulling the covers tighter over himself. “No Achilles till morning,” he muttered.
“Come back then.”

“No, you need to wake up now,” said Patroclus, flinging off the thick furs hugging Achilles’
shoulders.

Achilles jolted up with a start. His eyes flashed automatically round the room, as if seeking out
danger before settling confusedly on Patroclus. “Where’s the battle?” he asked.

“There is no battle,” Patroclus told him impatiently.

Achilles’ brow furrowed in confusion. “What?” he asked groggily. “Then why in Hades’ name am
I awake?”

“Because I found something,” Patroclus began hurriedly before Achilles had a chance to fall asleep
again. “I broke into Amyntor’s study and there was this brick sticking out of the wall-”

“-You broke into Amyntor’s study? Good Gods, Patroclus, why on earth-”

“-Because I thought he was up to something,” Patroclus interrupted him taciturnly. “And I was
right. He’s been taking bribes from just about every city this side of the Aegean. I found the place
he stashed the money. There were Thessalian coins, Achilles. Amongst many, many others.”

For a few seconds Achilles did nothing but blink at Patroclus confusedly; Patroclus waited for the
fog of sleep to clear away, which, while on any other man may have taken a while, thankfully
happened quickly.

“So,” said Achilles, his eyes brightening with the seeds of understanding beneath his frown.
“You’re saying that the reason Amyntor spoke out for Poeas during the Council is because he’s
taking bribes? And that’s what you saw Poeas slip into his hand earlier? Payment?”

“Exactly,” Patroclus nodded. “He’s been receiving rewards for every word spoken in that Hall.
Imagine how many laws Peleus has passed, how many treaties he’s signed just so that Amyntor
can have his payoff.”

“Bloody hell,” Achilles let out a low whistle. “This is a conundrum.”

He chewed his lip, clearly thinking hard. Patroclus could practically see the gears turning in his
head and said nothing, grateful that not only was he being believed but that Achilles was also
taking the matter seriously. Finally Achilles looked up and there was a decisive expression on his
face.

“Alright,” he said. “First thing in the morning we go to Peleus. We tell him Amyntor’s a spy, you
show him where the stash is hidden, an hour later he’ll be facing the full force of Phthian justice.
Sound good?”

“Sounds great,” replied Patroclus delightedly. “Hey, don’t you think we should go now? Only if
Amyntor discovers someone’s been in his room he might-”

“-No, no,” Achilles shook his head assertively. “These matters are best left till morning. Trust me
on this, Patroclus.”

Patroclus was unconvinced. “Are you sure?” he asked doubtfully. “Because I really think-”

But Achilles was already asleep.

Rolling his eyes and huffing frustratedly to himself, Patroclus crept in beside him. The night
outside his window was too dark for him to see out of it; he pulled the covers over himself and
attempted to get some sleep. This proved a futile endeavour, however, as his mind turned over the
possibility of Amyntor turning him into Peleus before he, Patroclus, had the chance to do the same.

The next morning Achilles opened one bleary eye to see him there, already washed and dressed and
bouncing slightly with nervous anticipation, gazing down expectantly at him from the side of his
bed. Achilles rolled his eyes at his eagerness, flinging the covers off himself and accepting the
tunic Patroclus handed him automatically.

“So how is this done then?” asked Patroclus, passing Achilles his comb. “Do we just storm into
Peleus’ room, relay the accusation and carry him off to see the evidence or what?”

Achilles shrugged and made a noise that sounded like “mehidunno.” Patroclus drew up behind
him, taking the comb from his hands to pull it swiftly through his long hair. Achilles accepted,
tilting his head back to allow Patroclus to braid it.

“I’ve been thinking,” he said suddenly. “I don’t think it’s a good idea if we just show him where
he’s hiding the money. It’ll look really suspicious if we just happen to know where it is. Amyntor
could easily accuse us of planting it there.”

Patroclus made an assenting noise. He hadn’t thought of that. “Then what do we do?” he asked.

“We should say we received a tip-off,” Achilles replied. “From a disgruntled slave or attendant,
maybe, who wishes to remain anonymous out of fear of provoking Amyntor’s wrath.”

Patroclus nodded, tying off the plait. “Sounds like a plan.”

Achilles glanced in the mirror, nodded approvingly and jumped up. For all his tiredness and
seeming lack of interest in the matter beforehand, Patroclus couldn’t help but perceive a distinct
thrill and excitement radiating from him as he pulled on his tunic and sandals, as though he were
readying himself for war. This is what he had become now, a soldier always on the verge of
preparing himself for a fight; even his hands seemed ready to ball into fists. The childish
enthusiasm that accompanied it, as with a sport or a game reassured Patroclus however and he
suppressed a grin as Achilles yanked open the door and more or less leapt down the staircase,
taking the steps three at a time.

Peleus’ room was far over on the other side of the palace. Achilles led the way with confidence,
meanwhile Patroclus was steadily falling victim to his anxiety. It was all very well for Achilles to
believe him, what with his penchant for adventure and early morning conflict, but the king was an
entirely different matter. Suppose Amyntor had grown suspicious, and had gone to them the second
he’d felt something was amiss? And if hadn’t, who was to say Peleus would even entertain such an
accusation? Amyntor was a key part of his inner circle, having responsibility over all the behind-
the-scene goings on of the palace. And, Patroclus reminded himself with an unpleasant squirm, he
had been around for a lot longer than he had.

They stopped in front of the largest and most ornately decorated doors in the palace. Achilles
knocked assertively and waited.
A few seconds of tense silence and then: “Enter.”

Achilles pushed open the door and walked in. To Patroclus’ relief Peleus was already awake and
was sitting as upright in bed as his old bones would allow him, aided by the assistance of at least
half a dozen cushions. Across the quilts and furs spread over his lap lay a tiny wooden table, like a
portable desk, laden with scrolls and parchment which he was examining diligently. At his right
hand stood Phoenix, waiting for him to finish so that he could pass on the many more collected in
his arms.

Peleus looked up as they entered, his rheumy eyes widened with surprise. “What brings you here
so early?” he greeted them bemusedly, eyes narrowing quizzically at Achilles. “Achilles, I thought
I’d made it clear you were to come this evening, and alone.”

“This isn’t about that, father,” said Achilles quickly as Patroclus’ eyes snapped towards him. “This
is…er…about another matter.”

Peleus made an assenting gesture. “Speak quickly, then.”

Achilles glanced at Patroclus who nodded encouragingly, although his mind was already distracted
with thoughts of what Achilles and his father possibly had to talk about later. “I have received some
information,” Achilles began carefully. “From a servant from the lower quarters. He imparted to
me something it grieves me terribly to repeat, and yet it is my sworn duty as both a prince and a
subject to bring it before you.”

“And what is this information regarding?” asked Peleus, his heavy grey eyebrows drawn into a
frown.

“It regards your councillor,” answered Achilles heavily. “The Lord Amyntor. My source tells me
that his allegiance…may have been compromised. That he has been taking bribes.”

For all Achilles’ bemoaning of a lack of oratory skill, Patroclus had to marvel at his skilful
articulation, his careful hesitation and delicate courtesy when speaking to people who really
mattered. Now he waited politely, his hands clasped behind his back in deference, waiting for his
words to sink in. After a long pause in which Peleus scrutinised his son and Phoenix stroked his
beard, the king spoke.

“And who is this source?” he asked, his eyes flitting very briefly to Patroclus who swallowed.

“They request that they remain anonymous,” replied Achilles promptly. “For fear of what would
happen to them should Amyntor find-”

“-For fear of the repercussions should their impartation prove false,” Peleus finished grimly. “As it
most assuredly will. Lord Amyntor has been a chief member of my household since before you
were born. He has seen to the day-to-day running of this palace and its affairs with expert ability
and integrity, now you tell me that after twenty years of unwavering service his loyalties are
compromised?”

Patroclus resisted the temptation to mumble his apologies and nod himself out of the room. A
swift, fiery glare from Achilles however ensured that he did no such thing and he remained rooted
to the spot, despite all his instincts yelling at him to beg forgiveness and make a run for it. Looking
at Peleus’ face, however, he saw that he looked more puzzled than angry and it occurred to him
that he was forcing Achilles to prove his point, rather than dismissing it automatically.

Go on Achilles, Patroclus found himself thinking fiercely. Go on, tell him what I found, tell him
Amyntor’s always been suspicious, tell him his first love is coin not Phthia, go on, tell him, tell
him-

“My Lord, I am of the exact same mind,” said Achilles and Patroclus’ eyes snapped to him
furiously. “In fact, when the rat came to me with the information I did consider having him beaten
for impudence and slander, so deep is my trust and admiration for the great man. The wretch did
insist, however, that if we were to trouble ourselves with searching the honourable overseer’s
office we would be sure to find something of interest to us. Frankly, I consider it a fool’s errand
and a waste of time, but I thought it would be irresponsible of me to dismiss the matter without at
least mentioning it to you first.”

He paused again, his head bent in a slight nod, as if in show of ultimate deference and respect. Both
venerable old men were still frowning, however the suspicion from Peleus’ face had cleared to be
replaced by a look of curious intrigue, as of one who desired to get to the root of a matter. Finally,
after coughing shortly he spread his palms in a gesture of acquiescence.

“You did right to bring it to me,” he acknowledged. “All rumours and whisperings about the palace
should be reported, however base and low. Likely this is a small case of some bitterness amongst
the lower levels, a slave with a grudge, perhaps. But to disdain such a serious allegation without
some investigation into the matter would be, as you say, irresponsible.”

Patroclus felt a trill of delight shoot through him as Achilles winked at him imperceptibly and
Peleus turned to address Phoenix.

“Send for Theodorus,” he instructed him. “Give him my seal of approval to search Lord
Amyntor’s rooms. Achilles, you will go with them. Let us put to the bed this misunderstanding.”

With another bow, Achilles and Patroclus exited swiftly, Patroclus trying hard to keep down the
nervous pulse of joy and excitement that was threatening to break through. Once a safe distance
away from the king’s chambers however, the two let loose their grins and high-fived.

“You’re amazing,” announced Patroclus.

“I’m the best,” Achilles agreed.

“And I love you?”

“Nice try,” Achilles slipped a strand of hair that had fallen from his braid behind his ear. “Alright.
The Guard will have been dispatched soon. We should go and meet them in the foyer.”

Patroclus agreed and the two raced down the steps to await the arrival of Theodorus, the Captain of
the Guard. Patroclus was nearly shaking with anticipation. He could scarcely believe what was
happening. After nearly two years of laying witness to Amyntor’s oppression, after experiencing
his cruelty first hand, it was almost too much to accept that they were so close to getting rid of him
and ending his reign of abuse once and for all. An image of Leptine, her back bloody and bruised
shot through his mind and he felt a stirring of righteous fury in his veins.

Achilles greeted the Guard with all his princely airs, doing a very good job of affecting boredom, as
if his father had just set him a tedious chore which would no doubt prove a waste of time. After
quickly briefing Theodorus they set off for the slaves’ quarters. Their ignorance of the
underground passageways meant the journey took a lot longer, giving ample time for Patroclus’
worries to return. He could not separate himself from the fear that Amyntor had somehow caught a
whiff of their scheme and had found another hiding place for the money. Suppose the Guard found
nothing, how would that look for Achilles? He had played well in affecting belief in Amyntor’s
innocence, thus preserving his dignity if things were to go wrong, but even so. Would Peleus take
the needless disruption and interrogation of one of his closest advisors lightly? What would
Amyntor do, once he inevitably discovered the plan had been Patroclus’ idea? And just what did
Peleus want to talk to Achilles about, alone and undisturbed?

They stopped in front of Amyntor’s office and Theodorus banged heavily on the door.

“Open up,” he commanded authoritatively. “Theodorus, Captain of the Guard, along with Prince
Achilles.”

Silence, apart from a slight scuffling from behind the door. Within a moment it had opened,
revealing the slim dark shadow of Amyntor, scowling malignantly from behind his black beard.

“My lord prince,” he greeted them affectedly, his oily tone doing little to hide the displeasure in his
eyes. “What a delightful surprise. Apologies on my inability to entertain you, but I must regret that
I am most busy at present-”

“-You will have to make time, Amyntor,” Achilles interrupted him. “We have instruction to search
your office.”

Amyntor’s dark eyes narrowed into slits. “Really?” he spat with a nasty look at Patroclus. “Whose
instruction?”

“By the order of King Peleus,” Theodorus answered, showing Amyntor his seal.

Amyntor snatched it from the captain. His eyes widened as they darted over the parchment, his
mouth falling open in shock. “No, no,” he murmured. “This can’t be. The king has never
questioned my loyalty…not in twenty years-”

“-Who says he does now?” shrugged Achilles. “We’ve had a tip-off. Probably nothing to worry
about, some poor bastard you’ve had flogged before now deciding to bite back while he still has
teeth. But I’m sure, if you have nothing to hide, then you won’t object making sure?”

“I…no,” Amyntor spluttered. “Of course I have nothing…how dare you insinuate-”

“-Good,” said Achilles, barging passed him and snapping his fingers towards the desk. “Start over
there. You two, search the back.”

The Guard surged in, led by Theodorus while Achilles and Patroclus hung back out of propriety.
Achilles was leaning nonchalantly against the doorframe, his thumbs tucked idly into his belt.
Patroclus watched the guards work, his palms sweating with nervousness. His anxieties however
were clearly nothing in comparison to Amyntor’s. He was staring in shock at the scene before him,
his eyes bulging out his skull as his papers were fanned out like pillow feathers onto the floor, his
bronze scales knocked off his desk, chests upturned and their contents rifled through with the burly
men breaking nearly as much as they examined. Achilles picked lazily at a loose thread on his
chiton sleeve as the crashing sound of an amphora shattering clattered through the din.

“So,” he said, addressing Amyntor amiably. “How’s business these days? Palace finances all in
order? No anomalies or anything like that?”

Amyntor it seemed could not find breath to answer him. One of the men had snatched up an
expensive looking candlestick and had hacked off the end with his sword in search of gold.

“Honestly I don’t know how you do it,” Achilles continued. “All those numbers…they make my
head spin.”
“You can’t do this,” Amyntor spluttered. “You have no evidence…no reason to believe-”

“-Well obviously,” Achilles cut him off with a roll of his eyes. “That’s sort of what we’re looking
for. Do you not know how these things work? Check under the caskets.”

The Guard had covered nearly every inch of the room. There was not a single item that hadn’t been
upturned, however, Patroclus’ eyes were fixed imploringly at the brick, still sticking out an inch
apart from the rest of the wall. He could not for the life of him understand how nobody had noticed
it, so caught up were they in ransacking everything they could grasp of the overseer’s possessions.
Patroclus tried to grab Achilles’ attention by nodding significantly at it but he was too busy
chucking heartily at Amyntor’s terrified face to notice. Frustratedly, he cast around for some way
of drawing notice to it, without revealing the fact that he already knew what was behind t.

The Guard had run out of things to inspect or throw onto the floor and were standing around
aimlessly, surveying the chaos they had created. Still the betraying brick remained unexamined,
and the bribe money, unfound. Theodorus came before Achilles, gesturing ruefully. “Nothing, my
lord.”

Achilles frowned. “Are you sure?” he asked with an uncertain look at Patroclus. “Look again.”

“We’ve looked everywhere,” Theodorus shrugged. “There is nothing.”

Amyntor’s face was starting to relax with relief. The Guard were shuffling their feet, preparing to
leave the room. Achilles was frowning and was not looking at Patroclus. There was nothing for it.
Theodorus was just about to give the signal to leave when Patroclus flung out an accusing finger.

“SAY,” he exclaimed. “Would you look at that brick, pushed out so oddly from yonder wall!”

Amyntor went as still as a corpse, all remaining colour flushing instantly from his face. Theodorus
turned questioningly, gesturing to one of the guards closest. Both Patroclus and Amyntor held their
breaths as slowly, painstakingly slowly, the brick was lifted from the wall. And, like a blockade
from a dam, the gold came pouring out torrentially onto the stone.

The guard bent down to pick up a coin, squinting at it between his thumb and forefinger.
“Thessalian, my lord,” he proclaimed. “Among others.”

“Well, well,” said Achilles, turning to look at Amyntor grimly and crossing his arms over his chest.
“A serpent and a traitor after all. Guards, seize him.”

The guards leapt automatically to Amyntor’s sides, hoisting his arms painfully behind his back.
Achilles watched amusedly at his futile struggles, a flicker of vaguely indecent satisfaction
marking his features.

“Take him to my father,” Achilles ordered. “After that, the cells. Let us see how he likes being
clapped in irons for a change.”

“THIS IS A PLOT,” Amyntor was shouting, wrestling fiercely with the guards who held on fast.
“THIS IS YOUR DOING, MENOITIDES! I HAVE BEEN SET-UP! I HAVE BEEN FRAMED!”

“First he takes bribes from our enemies, next he accuses the prince’s hetairoi of foul play,”
Achilles shook his head judgingly. “The man’s on a roll. Get him out of my sight.”

Still yelling curses and condemnations, Amyntor was wrestled upstairs. Achilles clapped Patroclus
approvingly on the back of the head before heading inside to scoop the evidence of his betrayal
back into the sack. Patroclus stood by the door, surveying the ransacked office. Shredded pages of
parchment and unravelled scrolls lay strewn across the floor like tattered leaves after a storm.
Furniture sat splintering on its side, arms and legs hacked off in several places by swords and axes.
It was the office of a ruined man.

Achilles straightened up, holding the sack of coins lightly in his palm. Catching sight of Patroclus’
pensive expression he strolled up towards him and slung an arm around his shoulders.

“Nicely played,” he sang, ruffling his hair affectionately. “Against all expectations.”

He released him and placed a soft kiss on the tip of his nose. “Come on,” he said before leaping up
the stairs after the Guard. And Patroclus, flattening his mussed hair irritably around his ears,
followed him.

oOo

Amyntor was growling, like an angry dog, before Peleus by the time Achilles and Patroclus arrived
at the foyer. The king looked wounded and vaguely crumpled, as if staggered by the knowledge
that his faith in a person had been misplaced. He was flanked by Phoenix and the rest of his
advisors, all of whom were glaring condemningly at the traitor. The giant Ampelius was watching
from the side-lines, his ruddy face uncharacteristically severe and Patroclus went to stand by him
as Achilles marched straight up to his father, the bag of coins clutched in his fist.

“Here’s your proof,” he said, dropping the sack into Peleus’ palms. “It seems you have been
sheltering a snake all these years.”

Peleus looked at the tainted gold with an expression of deepest disgust. “Achilles, see that your
informant is rewarded,” he said. “Theodorus, take him away and lock him in our darkest cell. His
presence here offends me.”

Patroclus watched as the guards tightened their grip on Amyntor’s arms and made to force him
back into the tunnels. Catching his eye, his face seemed to blaze with fury as he bellowed at
Patroclus: “THIS ISN’T THE END MENOITIDES! YOU WILL REGRET THIS! YOU AND
YOUR TUNNEL BITCH! MARK HERE, YOU WILL BOTH REGRET IT!”

“A rest, please,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “Can we not go a day without someone making a dire yet
oddly ambiguous threat?”

“Get him out of here,” ordered Peleus and Amyntor was wrestled away, still raving, from the
foyer. Very soon his oaths and blasphemies became fainter, echoing off the gloomy, lamp-lit
corridor to the dungeons until they could no longer be heard.

Patroclus was watching the scene grimly when he felt a nudge in his ribs that nearly knocked him
to the floor and saw Ampelius nodding sagely at him.

“Good work, Patroclus,” he said approvingly. “You make quite the rat-catcher.”

Patroclus looked up at him, startled. “How did you-?”

“-Oh please,” Ampelius interrupted him gruffly. “I should think I’ve known you for long enough
now to recognise when something has your handiwork written all over it. Zeus knows you two
haven’t exactly been the best of friends.”

Patroclus grunted noncommittally. “When will the trial be?”

“Trial?” Ampelius' wild eyebrows drew so low over his face that his eyes were nearly hidden.
“There is no trial for treason. Amyntor will be executed, first thing at dawn.

Patroclus’ eyes widened. “What?” he said, dumbfounded. “No…no trial? But how can that be,
that’s not right-”

“Neither is selling out one’s country for kudos and a bit of coin!” Ampelius bellowed fiercely.
“Mark me lad, the only hearing that man deserves will be before Cerberus. And that’s if he waits
long enough to listen.”

He walked away, leaving Patroclus alone and thinking, with numbing horror, about what he had
just done.

oOo

As expected, Achilles was fairly unsympathetic to Patroclus’ plight.

“I feel really, really bad,” Patroclus had told him upon returning to their room.

“Why?” Achilles sighed, with the distinct air of somebody who really, really did not want to have
this conversation.

“Because I didn’t realise there would be no trial,” Patroclus whined. “And that I’ve just sent a man
to a completely non-negotiable death.”

“Well that’s justice,” replied Achilles, picking up his lyre and starting to tune it.

“No,” Patroclus flared up fiercely. “Justice is when a man gets his say after he’s been accused of a
crime and then, after thorough and unbiased trial by his own peers, is awarded appropriate and
proportionate punishment.”

Achilles gave him a brief, amused look. “What world are you living in?”

Patroclus made an exhaled sound of anguish and collapsed onto his own, now rarely used, bed.
Turning his head he watched as Achilles plucked idly at the lyre strings, some jumpy and
unconventional tune he had likely made up himself.

“You don’t care do you,” Patroclus stated glumly.

“No I do not,” Achilles agreed.

“Why?”

“Because Patroclus,” Achilles put down the lyre to look directly at him. “There is only so much
concern I can manage for things that don’t directly affect me and I’ve got to tell you; summing up
some compassion for a sadistic racist is really cutting it fine.”

Patroclus rolled his eyes and stared up at the ceiling. The guilt had started to eat at him from the
moment he had learned of Amyntor’s imminent execution and proceeded to gnaw on his insides
until he felt distinctly sick. It didn’t matter that he knew Amyntor to be cruel, avaricious, and a
traitor to boot. The fact remained that he had sent a man to his death without first knowing what he
was getting into. He had set out to dig up some dirt on somebody he had problems with, not to put
the man’s head on a chopping block. And whether he deserved to die or not, Patroclus wasn’t sure
that a teenager’s dislike should be the deciding factor.

Patroclus jumped off the bed decisively. “I’m going to do something stupid,” he stated.
Achilles’ eyes narrowed. “Stupid enough to get you killed?”

Patroclus deliberated. “Most likely not.”

Achilles waved him away dismissively. “Have a party.”

oOo

“Leptine I need you,” Patroclus announced, barging into the kitchen.

Leptine put down the roll of dough she was pounding to raise her eyebrow at him. “And does
Achilles know about this?”

“No time for that,” Patroclus charged over to the cupboards and immediately began rifling through
the herbs and plants. “Where have all the poppy pods gone?”

He shut the cupboard abruptly and turned to rummaging around all the corners of the kitchen,
sending doors banging and clattering after him until he found what he was looking for. Once he
had the dried red petals in his hand he threw them onto the table and proceeded to slit open the
green pod with a knife, Leptine watching him bemusedly.

“You know,” she began once Patroclus had drained all the poppy extract into a wooden bowl. “If
you’re having a bad day, there are less drastic means you can turn to-”

“-What’s better for a fast-acting sleep inducer, henbane or valerian?” Patroclus interrupted her.

“Henbane,” Leptine asked perplexedly. “But why-?”

Patroclus turned back to the cupboard, searching through its contents until he held the star-shaped
flower and a handful of valerian root. He tossed them on the chopping board beside the bowl of
poppy and promptly set about preparing them. He hadn’t gotten far however before Leptine
grabbed the knife from his hand, making a noise like steam escaping from a kettle.

“Not so much!” she hissed, snatching the henbane flower out of his reach. “Who are you trying to
kill?!”

“I need a sleeping draught strong enough to knock out three armed guards,” Patroclus explained.
“So that I can sneak into the palace dungeons to have a talk with Amyntor and possibly set him
free.”

There was a long silence while Leptine stared at him, her mouth moving slightly although no
words came out. Finally her shoulders slumped in defeat, she shook her head in exasperation and
passed Patroclus the mixing bowl.

oOo

Sleeping draught prepared, Patroclus tucked it discreetly into the folds of his chiton and took off
through the tunnels for the guard’s barracks. Leptine had refused flatly to come with him and he
couldn’t blame her; despite what he had said to Achilles if found out the difference between his
punishment and Amyntor’s would be a matter of technicality. Her confidence in him wasn’t aided
by the fact that, admittedly, he did not really have any idea what he was doing. He didn’t
particularly want to see Amyntor executed at his own hand, but then again the law of the land
judged that he was getting what he deserved. Either way, he felt that if he had a chance to talk to
the prisoner, things would somehow find a way of sorting themselves out.
The guards on duty were allowed one casket of wine between them which they usually ripped into
at around late evening. This would give Patroclus ample time to add the draught, wait until the
guards were asleep and sneak down to the cells where they were holding Amyntor. He would take
the hairpin with him, although he was still ambivalent in his desire of whether or not to use it.

As he warily approached the barracks, however, it struck him immediately that something was off.
Usually the sound of the guards’ loud, boorish laughter and crude banter could be heard down the
very length of the tunnel; now, however, the passageway was eerily quiet. It might have been
Patroclus’ imagination but the tunnel seemed darker as well, as if the torches had been
extinguished further down. Nearing the guards’ post Patroclus saw that this was, indeed, the case
and long shadows now fell, creating an ominous gloom where orange light should have been.

Then Patroclus looked down and his stomach plummeted. For shadows were not the only thing
darkening the cobbled stone; squinting through the darkness, Patroclus could just make out the
unmistakeable splash of blood.

With cold dread mounting in his chest, Patroclus followed the trail hoping desperately that his
hunch was wrong. His hopes were dashed however, as his eyes fell upon the crumpled body of a
palace guard. His chin was slumped onto his chest, revealing a bare patch of fleshy neck out of
which shone a gaping, scarlet hole, as if slashed open by a small dagger.

Swallowing the bile rising in his throat, Patroclus bent down to examine the body. The belt from
which the cell keys usually hung had been hacked away and, straightening up, it did not take
Patroclus long to work out who had done it.

The cell behind the dead guard was wide open. And Amyntor was not inside.

oOo

It did not take long for the whole palace to hear the news of Amyntor’s escape. Guards were posted
at every entrance to the castle with strict orders to monitor the passage in and out. Theodorus was
ordered to take a number of men and scout the Phthian countryside for any sign of the traitor.
Every citizen was bound, by the word of the king, to report any suspicious activity or word of the
fugitive to the nearest official, or else risk being branded an accomplice.

Personally, Patroclus considered this a waste of time. If Amyntor, who knew the palace tunnels
better than any freeman besides Patroclus himself, had managed to escape the citadel unhindered,
then he was sure to have boarded the next ship for Egypt by now. In any case, Patroclus’ thoughts
were soon occupied by more pressing matters. Peleus had summoned Achilles to his chambers for
a private conversation, here meaning, one in which Patroclus was not privy to. And as Achilles was
being uncharacteristically evasive with regards to the topic, Patroclus decided he would make it a
point of business to find out himself.

With the excuse that he needed to visit the privy, Patroclus left dinner early while the king and his
son were still eating and headed straight for Peleus’ chambers. Once inside, he scanned the room
for a suitable hiding place and settled for behind an enormous tapestry. Checking that his feet were
well and truly hidden, Patroclus waited nervously, trying hard to quieten his breathing. At last the
door opened and Peleus entered, followed swiftly by Achilles who was looking quite bizarrely
anxious. Patroclus watched as Peleus seated himself behind his desk which creaked only slightly
with his weight, leaving Achilles to stand tensely in the centre of the room, clasped fingers
twitching behind his back.

“You know why you are here?” asked Peleus. His voice was deep and stern, Patroclus had never
heard it so severe.
The corner of Achilles’ mouth curled in a sneer that was so rarely seen these days. “Yes,” he
replied sulkily.

“Tell me.”

“Something to do with what I said at the Council meeting yesterday,” Achilles replied. “I imagine.”

He sounded bored, painfully bored. But Patroclus knew him and he heard the tiny, almost
undetectable tremble behind the cool, callous front. What was more he could see the way he
twisted his fingers behind him, and knew that the fire inside him had been kindled.

“You imagine,” Peleus scowled. “Correctly. Do you have any idea of what I have had to put up
with after your little spot of joviality? Do you know how many questions have been raised, how
many speculations I have had to quell?”

“I should think that after fifty years as head of state you should have grown accustomed to
answering stupid questions,” Achilles snarled back.

Patroclus cringed. From behind the tapestry he saw Peleus’ face grow white with livid anger.
“How dare you speak so to me,” he said dangerously. “Have you forgotten yourself? Do you
remember who you are? You are the son of a king, not some frivolous school boy with all the
unburdened hedonism of an easy life before him. I do not know what’s gotten into you recently.
These days, I can barely recognise my own son.”

“Oh, come on,” Achilles rolled his eyes. “Because of one joke? Or because of its punchline?
Because if you can’t recognise your son in that then I’m afraid you’ve been nursing some rather
serious delusions, my lord-”

“This is about more than just a joke!” Peleus riled. “This is about shaming your king before
negotiations with a foreign power. This is about shirking your duties, playing up in your lessons,
refusing to listen to the word of any older man. This is about desecrating the body of a fallen
enemy, of committing a blasphemy so abominable that had I not been assured of it by an entire
army of witnesses I would scarcely dare to believe it.”

Achilles said nothing. There was a muscle jumping in his jaw, like the flit of a small bird’s wing
and his shoulders were rising and falling heavily. He looked as though he were forcing to calm
himself down.

“Crimes against nature,” Peleus continued. “I cannot tell you how often I have heard that phrase;
whispered by my enemies, muttered to my face by my friends. Gods know Achilles, you are no
natural boy. I knew it when I first took your mother, when I first held you in my arms. I accepted it.
Encouraged it, even. But now when I see you act in such a manner, defying the law of Gods and
men, I have to wonder if there is any truth to what they say. That there is something…broken in
you. And if I, your father, can give credence to such gossip, then what will the average poor man
think of the king they are expected to follow when I’m gone?”

“You’re making excuses,” Achilles mumbled.

“I beg your pardon?”

“I said, you are making excuses,” Achilles repeated, more loudly. “We both know who this is
about. Why can’t you be a man and just say it? Stop pretending it’s my poor, damaged mind that’s
the problem, grow a spine and just say it.”

Peleus stared at him. His face was stark and bloodless, his eyes wide. Patroclus saw that he too was
 breathing hard, although whether from anger or exertion it was impossible to say.

After what felt like an age, the old man took a deep breath and spoke again. “You know the esteem
in which I hold that boy,” he said and his voice was taut with the effort of keeping it steady. “Not a
day goes past when I don’t thank the Gods for bringing him into our household. I could not
conceive of a worthier companion for my son and heir. And the bond that there is between you is a
rare and beautiful thing.”

“But?” said Achilles, stamping his feet impatiently.

“But it will not last forever,” Peleus glowered. “You are boys and you are young. You cannot stake
your name and your reputation on a fancy, Achilles. Sooner or later you will have to face reality
and that reality is this: men will not follow a man who himself is ruled by other men.”

“Bullshit,” shouted Achilles. “My men will follow me to Hell and back-”

“-Men are wolves,” Peleus countered. “They follow only the strongest of the pack. And a man who
allows himself to submit to another in such a fashion is weak in their eyes. Think, Achilles. Is this
how you want to be known to history? A man who may just as well have been born a woman?”

Achilles started forward and for a moment Patroclus almost darted out from behind the tapestry to
prevent him from rushing at Peleus. He contented himself with slapping a hand over his own
mouth to stop the fearful gasp from escaping as similarly, Achilles managed to restrain his fury.
The effort it cost him was obvious however; his limbs were pulled so tight Patroclus could see the
veins pushing through beneath the skin and his eyes burned with all the fiery coals of Hell.

When he spoke, the voice was almost unrecognisable. “You are my father,” he said and his words
reverberated with an awful thunder. “And it is because you are my father that I will allow you to
say such things to me.”

A swallow travelled down Peleus’ withered gullet but this was the only sign that showed he was
afraid. His voice, however, was quite calm when he answered. “I like Patroclus very much,” he
replied. “But I tell you now: if your behaviour continues, if you are not more discreet, I will have
no hesitation in sending him away.”

For a horrible, terrifying second, Patroclus thought that Achilles was going to hit him. The moment
passed however and Achilles had turned on his heel, preparing to march out of the room.

He stopped, however, when he reached the door. The terrible fury had gone from his face but his
words still seemed to ring, prophetic, into the silent chamber. “With or without Patroclus,” he said
with the faintest ghost of a smile. “I’m going to be much more famous than you.”

And with that he left the chamber, slamming the door behind him.

Chapter End Notes

Pheeww. Deep breath. I feel so drained. I really hope it's not so much effort to read
this.
Emotionally prepare yourself for the next chapter. You have been warned.
Aaaaand feel free to ask me invasive things on tumblr.I love you more than Pan loves
scaring people in the forest.
 Agamemnon
Chapter Notes

Remember when the chapters were 2000 words long? Yeah so do I.

Patroclus had to wait for Peleus to leave for his bath before he was able to slip out the room and
head back towards his own. The evening was still relatively early and most of the household were
still entertaining themselves in the Hall or in one of the palace’s several living rooms but Patroclus
was in little mood to join them. Instead he traipsed back to his own chambers, closed the door
firmly behind him and lay down on his bed, staring at the ceiling.

He wasn’t sure what he had expected. From the very beginning he had known this would happen;
it had been one of the reasons he had refused to admit his feelings for Achilles to himself in the
first place, let alone to anyone else. He had been so afraid of the consequences, of how others
would see them and now his fears had been realised. Questions…speculations…of course had been
aware of some of the looks he had received, particularly from older men who had spent their whole
lives working up to the position that he, Patroclus, had obtained at the age of seventeen after less
than two years in the same country. Of course he had been aware of scowls and grimaces whenever
someone caught them holding hands or exchanging a quick kiss or even just a smile, of course he
had been aware of it, he was not an idiot. But he had been so wrapped up in happiness, in this
giddy, foolish, clumsy state that he had not stopped to think, properly, about what those looks
really meant.

And what they meant was this: men will not follow a man who himself is ruled by other men. That
was it, the simple, plain truth of the matter. Love between boys was common enough amongst the
youth, or between a lord and his servant, or a man and a prostitute. But love such as theirs, between
two men of maturity and more or less equal social rank, replacing and transgressing that of man
and wife…that was different. A man ruled his wife. What kind of a man would allow himself to be
ruled in that way? And what kind of a man could follow such a man; a man of vice, a man of
weakness?

Patroclus sighed and rolled over on his pallet. He had not allowed himself to think that he might be
a hindrance to Achilles’ reputation, or his future as a leader of an army and a nation. But now there
was no way of getting away from the matter. His skill, charm and charisma would get him only as
far as men were willing to ignore the rest. And if the rest was permanently stood by him, then that
would only become increasingly difficult.

The door opened slowly, gently. Patroclus closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep as Achilles
approached. He felt the creak of the mattress beneath him, the shift of the covers as Achilles threw
them over himself. He heard him exhale, deeply.

It was a long time before either of them slept.

The next morning Patroclus rose before Achilles did and left the room before he had a chance to
half-open his eyes. It was a clear day but windy and Patroclus shivered as he sat on the beach,
hugging his knees to his chest and observing the goose-bumps that had risen over his arms. He had
thought a lot during the night, his brain intruding with new anxieties every time he came close to
falling asleep. He was still no closer with deciding what to do but was certain, at least, of one thing.
He would not be the cause of Achilles’ disgrace. The gods had made him magnificent, built for
greater things than others could hope to achieve. Who was he, a mere mortal, to get in the way of
that? He would not obstruct Achilles in his chance for immortality. But then, what? Would he
leave? Patroclus did not want to be selfish, but to do so would be to commit suicide. To live
without him now, he’d do just as well to wrench off his own arm.

His chin in his hands, he cast a weary eye over the horizon and wished for all the world that they
could be like Odysseus. Find a fast ship and keep on sailing. Leave the real world behind them,
avoid all their responsibilities, live forever outside of what society dictated for them. Live as they
saw fit. But deep in his heart, Patroclus knew that Achilles could not do that.He would come, if
Patroclus asked him to, but a part of him would be forever yearning for something greater than
happiness. It wouldn’t matter that they were together. Deep down, Patroclus knew that he wouldn’t
be enough.

“Peanut.”

Patroclus looked up to see Achilles striding towards him. His brow was slightly furrowed in
confusion and he looked down at Patroclus accusingly, as if he had done him a mild injury.

“Why didn’t you wait for me?” he asked indignantly. “I had to run here. It is early.”

“Well you needn’t have,” replied Patroclus indignantly. “I didn’t ask you to.”

Achilles scrunched his nose slightly in surprise.“Well,” he hummed. “Someone’s grouchy today.
Did you not get enough sleep? Because I can’t be blamed for that.”

“Actually,”Patroclus retorted, getting to his feet.“Funnily enough, not everything is about you.”

Achilles’ frown deepened as he looked perplexedly at Patroclus who scowling, his arms crossed
over his chest. “Well now, that’s simply not true,” he said finally, scratching absently at the back
of his head. “But if you tell me what’s going on, I’ll humour you?”

“You’re fine,” Patroclus snapped and began to walk back up the beach.

Achilles stood in the sand, watching him with his mouth slightly open before he shook himself
awake and made to after him. “Alright, I’m sorry,” he said. “Not everything is about me. I’ll admit
that would be illogical. So we’ll give you thirty percent of all things, and then I’ll have-”

“-I’m sorry to intrude,” a voice panted. “But might anyone know where I can find King Peleus?”

Both Achilles and Patroclus turned, surprised, to see a young man who had clearly just run up to
meet them. He was covered head to toe with sweat, drenching the sole loin cloth he wore around
his waist and was doubled over, breathing hard. Achilles and Patroclus shared a bemused look
before Achilles stepped forward.

“I am Achilles, Prince of Phthia,” he announced slowly. “And that depends. What do you want
with my father?”

The young man held up a finger and Achilles waited patiently while he got his breath back. “I have
a message,” he managed at last.

“A message?” Achilles raised his eyebrows. “Intriguing.Where from?”

“Argos, Mycenae” the messenger replied. “From King Agamemnon.”

Achilles and Patroclus exchanged another glance. For the life of them, neither could conceive of
any reason why the King of Argos would have any reason to write to Phthia.

Achilles’ eyes weighed up the messenger. His face betrayed great curiosity beneath the frown. “I
suppose you’d better come with us,” he said.

oOo

Everyone was assembled in the Great Hall for breakfast when Achilles and Patroclus walked in,
the exhausted messenger scurrying behind them. Peleus looked up quizzically from his plate as
Achilles strode into the centre of the room, sunk into a bow and stretched out his hand
flourishingly to present the young man.

“A messenger my lord,” he announced. “From Argos.”

“Argos?” Phoenix peered curiously. “What does Agamemnon want with us?”

“Speak messenger,” Peleus implored him.

The messenger nodded and assumed the correct pose with his arms clasped behind his back. “From
King Agamemnon of Mycenae, son of Atreus, lord of all Argos, leader amongst the Achaeans,
Conqueror of the Aegean and shepherd of the people to King Peleus of Phthia: Hail!” the
messenger began. Patroclus snuck a look at Achilles who rolled his eyes. Conscious of Peleus’ eyes
on them, Patroclus suppressed a smirk.

“Long have I desired conference with you, old and venerable sir of the mountainous North where
the winds and wolves howl. It has come to my profound regret, as I’m sure it will also be to you,
that we are not as close in friendship as would be my desire. You can hardly be blamed for this sir,
what with the wealth and resources available to your most humble nation being somewhat lesser
than ours. It would be impossible to deny, however, that it is Mycenae blood that has kept back the
floods of barbarians from the South from reaching your borders, thus keeping your lands and
people safe.

In light of this only too willing sacrifice, I feel it would not be impertinent to enlist your services in
return. It has no doubt escaped your vigilant and esteemed ears as to the state of current events.
You will have heard of my brother Menelaus’ marriage to Helen of Sparta and, subsequently, her
abduction by the perfumed popinjay of the East: Paris, Prince of Troy, and son of Priam. I need
hardly relate to you the insult this peacock has shown, not only to my brother but to all of Greece,
in this blatant contempt and disregard for our culture, history and honour.

It is with great hope in my heart, therefore, that I ask that you stand with the coalition of heroes,
this band of brothers that will fight for death or glory to bring back fair, virtuous Helen and help
reduce the city of Troy to dust.

Tellings of the Myrmidon strength have not failed to reach me, nor did your unanticipated success
against the Thessalians (a battle I am sorry to have missed!) I commit no folly in assuming,
therefore, that your armies will be only too eager to join the Thousand Ships and sail to Troy, to
Helen, and to everlasting life. I await, with great patience and baited breath, your answer.

Fortune Favour you!”

The messenger finished with a bow of his head and relaxed his posture. An intense silence
followed his words as they fell on the ears of those of the great Hall. For several moments no one
spoke as they sat there, waiting for the words and their significance to sink in when suddenly it was
broken by Phoenix.

“What a tosser,” he said.

“Agreed,” nodded Ampelius automatically. “Did you hear him? ‘Most humble nation.’ ‘Keeping
your lands and people safe.’ Who does he think he is?”

“And after completely ignoring our call to aid against the Thessalians,” added Acastus. “Before
having the nerve to insinuate that we owe him? And what about the ‘ I enlist your services?’ As if
we were his retainers, or another one of the provinces already under his thumb. As if we
automatically owe him our allegiance.”

There was a good deal of agreeable grumbling after this statement and Patroclus saw a few of the
older soldiers shaking their heads, beards bristling angrily. Privately, Patroclus agreed. He did not
know very much about Agamemnon, but the message had been distastefully presumptive.

“So we are agreed,” Peleus broke loudly through the mutterings. “We completely ignore this
message and leave Agamemnon and his brother to fight their own wars?”

There was a murmur of assent and soon the Hall was swelling with the cheerful sounds of breakfast
again. Achilles leapt up onto the dias and inserted himself into a conversation regarding several
rumours of rustler sightings that had sprung up over the land. The messenger stood, looking rather
aimless in the centre of the room, having been completely forgotten about. Patroclus rolled his eyes
and with a weary sigh, beckoned him over with a wave of his hand.

“Come with me,” he told him. “You must be tired.”

The messenger thanked him gratefully and together they made their way toward the palace
kitchens. Leptine was there with several other slaves, clearing away the remainder of the breakfast
things. She looked up sunnily when Patroclus entered and eyed the messenger with curiosity as
Patroclus clasped him on the shoulder.

“Could you arrange a bath for this one please?” he asked. “And something to eat. He’s come a long
way.”

Leptine nodded, clicking her fingers at a couple of girls who immediately leapt to the messenger’s
sides and whisked him away in the direction of the bathroom. Meanwhile, Patroclus sunk into a
chair and, pulling a bowl of dates towards him, began to pluck at them glumly. Leptine watched
him with a knowing expression and, after five dates had been successfully de-seeded, she grabbed
the chair next to him and forcibly took his chin in her hands.

“My flower,” she began solemnly. “Something burdens you.”

Patroclus yanked his jaw out of her grip. “It’s nothing,” he muttered sulkily.

Leptine released a deep sigh, running a hand through her tangled thicket of hair. “Patroclus,” she
said at last. “How long have we been friends?”

Patroclus shrugged. “Pretty much since I first got here.”

“Right. So would it be correct to say that if you saw there was blatantly something wrong with me,
it’d be rather offensive for me to insist otherwise?”

Patroclus shrunk further into his shoulders. “I suppose,” he mumbled.

“So I’ll ask again. What’s wrong?”

She stared at him intently, her big brown eyes fixed on his in that unsettling way she had which
rendered him incapable of lying to her, or avoiding any question she asked of him. He sighed again,
deeply, and replied “It’s Achilles” before telling her everything he had overheard in Peleus’
chambers. She did not interrupt him as he spoke, only listened with the shadow of a frown lurking
between her eyebrows as he related to her not only their conversation but also his anxieties, his own
feelings about being such a cause of conflict in Achilles’ life and future.

“I almost feel,” he concluded in the midst of a crushing sense of despair. “That I should leave.”

He feared for a moment that Leptine’s eyes might fall out of her face as she gawped at him.
“What?” she blinked.

“I can’t see any other way,” Patroclus insisted. “I can’t be the cause of his ruin Leptine, I just can’t.
I’ll never forgive myself. Men won’t follow a leader they don’t trust and Achilles was made to
lead. I don’t want to be that one who holds him back, too wrapped up in my own desires to keep
him from doing what he was meant to do.”

“Patroclus, I hate you for making me say this,” Leptine began. “But I really think you might be
underestimating men. Most soldiers wouldn’t care if their captain was a monkey in a helmet, as
long as it had the ability to win battles and keep his army fed. Look at Odysseus. He couldn’t care
less what you were, as long as he got home safely. Or Ampelius. Sure he might grumble, but I’m
pretty sure he would march into Tartarus and back if you asked it of him. Or Deio-”

She stopped abruptly and Patroclus, conscious of her expression, hurried on swiftly. “What you’re
talking about is a very small minority,” he told her. “And they all had time to get to know me first.
We’re talking about men whose only knowledge of me revolves around my name and my
orientation. They won’t have time to think ‘oh, he’s not such a bad guy after all, considering’.
They’ll be too busy thinking about how easy it will be to throw me over to the other side.”

Leptine looked doubtful. “I don’t think so,” she said dubiously. “From my experience, soldiers are
much more concerned about their own hides than their leaders’ private affairs.”

Patroclus shook his head, exasperated. “You’re really smart and everything Leptine,” he told her.
“But you just don’t understand war. And anyway, there’s...another reason.”

Leptine, whose expression had smarted somewhat at Patroclus’ comment, peered inquisitively at
him. “What is it?” she asked softly, noting that his face was turned deliberately away from her.
“Tell me.”

Patroclus, avoiding her gaze, looked down at his hands. The fingertips were purplish and sticky
with dates. The words he had meant to stay had gotten stuck on the way up and were now lodged
in his throat; he sat there, playing with the seeds he had collected, trying to think of a way to
articulate the feelings he had been rolling over and over in his head ever since he had left Peleus’
chambers. When he spoke his voice was very flat.

“I’m...not enough,” he said tonelessly. “Thetis was right. He’s too much for me. I spent so long
convincing myself, letting him convince me that we’re the same but it’s not true. He’s immortal, a
god. He has a chance for a life that I can’t even feasibly imagine. Me, you know, I’ll do my best.
I’ll work hard and I’ll fight and maybe the bards will compose a song or two about my exploits but
in the end I’ll fade. I’ll die and my name will pass out of memory like the dust from my bones but
he...one way or another he’s going to live forever. He’s going to be a god, Leptine. What use has a
god got for a boy?”
“Stop it,” ordered Leptine warningly. “Stop it, right now. Can you hear yourself? You’re talking
insane.”

“What if I’m not?” asked Patroclus imploringly. “What if I’ve just woken up? Being with him is
so, so stupidly great...why should it last? Why should I be happy? I’ve been so foolish, thinking this
would last forever I’d forgotten young we are, how much left there is of life and the world...if
Olympus doesn’t claim him, time will. Ampelius was right, Peleus was right. We’ve been like
children, playing games, thinking that somehow the rules don’t apply to us. Maybe it’s time to
grow up.”

He hadn’t noticed, until he stopped talking, that he was still staring at his hands. He looked up to
see Leptine, staring wide-eyed at him, her expression one of stunned disbelief. She was shaking her
head.

“I cannot believe what I’m hearing,” she said finally. “You’re literally talking yourself out of
happiness, the kind of happiness that is so rare it passes most of us by several times over. I could
literally kill you right now. Achilles is not a god, alright? He is mortal, like you, like me. Sure he
has the potential in his veins, but he has to decide to act on it. And something tells me that he
would much rather play games with you than trade his blood for ichor-”

“-I’m not letting him do that,” Patroclus cut her off. “How could I let him give that up for me-”

“-It’s not your decision to make!” Leptine cried. “It’s his, Patroclus, it has always been his. And he
chooses you. Gods, why are boys so stupid. Right, listen to me. You and Achilles...you’re
something else. There’s a connection between you such as the Gods can’t even mess with. You’re
everything that is modest and human and loving in him and he is everything that is fierce and brave
and terrifying in you. What was it Penelope used to say? One soul in two bodies. Like two sides of
a coin. Neither of you can live without the other so tell me, please Patroclus, what will happen if
you leave?”

“I’ll die,” muttered Patroclus. This was not new information to him and he was faintly annoyed that
Leptine was presenting it as such.

“You will both die,” Leptine amended, as if she had heard what Patroclus was thinking. “It’s the
same soul, Patroclus.”

She finished, glaring at him challengingly with her eyes were narrowed, as though daring him to
disagree with her. He opened his mouth to retort when he was saved by a knock on the door; they
looked up to see the messenger, a towel wrapped around his waist and holding something in his
hand.

“Apologies,” he said. “But I just remembered and I nearly took it into the bath with me. So before I
forget, this is for you.”

He handed Patroclus the scroll of parchment he was holding. Patroclus peered at the seal curiously.
Imprinted into the wax was the tiny figure of a boat. “It’s from Ithaca,” he exclaimed, ripping open
the letter delightedly. He had written to Penelope not three days hence, it was a wonder she had
managed to reply to him so quickly. Beckoning to Leptine, she came to perch near him so that she
could see over his shoulder and, with mounting excitement, Patroclus began to read.

From Penelope, wife of Odysseus of Ithaca to Patroclus Menoitides of Phthia: Hail!

Patroclus – thank you for your last letter. I always had a feeling there was something off about that
Amyntor. Very nasty smile, and he had an odd smell. It wouldn’t surprise me if he was taking
bribes from other nations. No doubt by the time this letter gets to you you’ll have it figured out.

You’ll forgive me for not replying properly but time is short; a messenger has just arrived from
Mycenae and he’s preparing to leave for Phthia imminently. You know how slow news travels to
Ithaca, I couldn’t let this opportunity pass by. Hopefully this should reach you within the next
couple of days, (here’s avoiding pirates!!)

Pay close attention to what I’m about to tell you. This messenger is on a mission from King
Agamemnon, brother to my cousin’s husband. Remember in my last letter when I told you that
Helen and Menelaus seemed to be going through a bit of a rough patch? Well, that might have
been something of an understatement. The sons of Atreus will no doubt be very quick to lament
Helen’s deplorable abduction...I, for one, have my doubts. Paris is a lot younger than Menelaus,
and from what I hear tell, quite a bit prettier.

This is all by the by; I have always said that Helen is a selfish fool and Menelaus isn’t much better,
only add wounded pride and a fragile male ego to the mix. Agamemnon, however, is a different
breed altogether. I don’t know how much you know about him but heed me: DO NOT BE FOOLED
BY HIS PRETTY WORDS. His father left him a dying city state on his death bed; now he controls
the whole of Greece and the West of the Aegean. You’ve got to hand it to him; the man has
managed to build the semblance of a nation out of feuding states and cannibal tribes. This doesn’t
change the fact that he is a nasty, scheming, conniving bastard. And not the fun kind, like the one I
married.

Rest assured, Agamemnon cares very little for his brother’s honour. If Troy falls, he controls the
Aegean. I’ve never known a man so ruthless in his greed for power, the whole “save the beautiful
damsel” act is nothing but a smokescreen to disguise what he really wants: the city. He will do
whatever it takes to get it and here is where we get to the point.

The messenger will tell you it’s the Myrmidons he wants, and he’s right. But more specifically, it’s
one Myrmidon. Achilles.

Agamemnon is hunting him, Patroclus. Tales of his skills have spread across to the other side of
the world and the Trojan King Priam is quaking in his sandals to hear them. Agamemnon will stop
at nothing to have Achilles fight for him and believe me, he knows how to tempt with honey. You
must be on your guard. Regardless of what they are saying, this is not going to be a short war.

I will send more information as and when I receive it. Until then, keep your friends close and your
nose to the ground.

Fortune favour you, and give my love to Leptine.

“Parchment,” said Patroclus. “Quickly.”

Leptine turned and dashed around in the cupboards until she had a length of parchment and a stick
of charcoal which she passed to Patroclus. Without hesitation, Patroclus set the charcoal to the page
and began to write quickly, pausing only to glance fleetingly at the messenger.

“Will you be going back to Argos via Ithaca?” he asked.

The messenger rolled his eyes. “I mean, I can do,” he replied reluctantly.

Patroclus wrote quickly, until the charcoal stub was barely half an inch long and the table top was
covered in black dust. Ending the letter with a fiercely underlined WHAT SHOULD I DO, he
passed it back to the messenger with his thanks and a promise that he would receive two gold coins
from Penelope upon his delivering it. The messenger nodded churlishly and exited, leaving
Patroclus and Leptine alone once again.

Leptine fixed him with her most severe look. “You should tell Achilles about this.”

Patroclus leaned back in his chair and sighed. “Yeah, I probably should,” he exhaled, getting to his
feet. “What are you doing later?”

Leptine pulled a face. “Working the fields,” she replied distastefully. “Fallow season’s coming. It
makes no difference with Amyntor gone, they’ll still have us there all night.”

Feeling a familiar pang of guilt and sympathy in his chest, Patroclus tried to convey as much as he
could in his next words to her. “Thanks Leptine. For everything.”

Leptine stood up and hugged him. Patroclus held on to her tightly, his face pressed against her little
shoulder, feeling the tears threatening to sting. Her little body was warm against his and hair
tickled his skin, it smelled of flour and fresh herbs.

“You remember that soul I was talking about?” she said in his ear. “It’s a good one, so look after it.
It’s worth it.”

Despite himself, Patroclus smiled. “I will,” he promised.

After what felt like a long time, Leptine released him and waved him away. Patroclus made to
leave the kitchen, however something caught him and he stopped in the doorway and looked back.
“Love you,” he called to her.

“Love you too,” Leptine replied with a smile. “Now go on.”

Patroclus nodded and took off down the corridor in search of Achilles, closing the door of the
kitchen and on Leptine behind him.

oOo

Achilles was out training on the fields so Patroclus made a beeline for that direction. Ampelius was
there, watching with his arms crossed over his chest, his enormous hulking form blocking out most
of the field from Patroclus’ line of sight. He looked over as Patroclus approached and grunted in
greeting.

“Menoitides,” he acknowledged him gruffly.

“Back to patronyms, are we?” Patroclus observed. “Rather thought we’d come past that. I’m hurt.”

“Drop the sark boy,” Ampelius growled. “You’ve close friends enough. ‘Bout time someone taught
you how to speak to other men. Should have done it a long time ago too, wouldn’t have none of
that pervert nonsense to do deal with now, jests about ungodly acts...before a foreign audience no
less...but no, the damage has been done...”

Having little patience for Ampelius’ dark mutterings, Patroclus cut across him swiftly. “Yes, we’re
all very sorry about that,” he interrupted him. “But if f you wouldn’t mind, can I have a word with
Achilles?”

Ampelius stared at Patroclus as if he had gone mad. “CAN YOU HAVE A WORD WITH
ACHILLES?” he bellowed, flecks of saliva flying from his beard. “CAN YOU...HAVE YOU
HEARD A WORD OF WHAT I JUST SAID?! NO YOU MAY NOT HAVE A WORD! THE
PRINCE IS TRAINING! DO YOU THINK THAT I’D CUT IT SHORT JUST SO YOU BOYS
CAN...CAN...”

“Canoodle?” Patroclus offered helpfully.

Ampelius looked very much as though he were resisting the urge to batter him. He restrained
himself however, blowing deeply out of his nostrils like a giant, winded boar.

“Get gone,” he said at last, his voice shaking with the effort not to yell. “And come back later, after
the prince has completed his drills.”

“But it’s-”

“GO,” Ampelius roared. “BEFORE I REALLY LOSE CONTROL.”

Patroclus rolled his eyes but, unwilling to incur the drill master’s ire any more than he had to,
obeyed, turning to walk across the field back to the palace. He had only just reached the entrance
however when a flash of violent red caught his eye; he turned his head and, to his surprise, saw
Thetis.

She appeared to be pacing, walking back and forth across the threshold with a sort of haphazard
compulsion, taking only a few steps before jerking round suddenly in the opposite direction. She
was rubbing her hands frantically in front of her, as if they were wet and she was trying to get them
to dry. Patroclus paused in the doorway, unsure whether it would be best to try and talk to her or to
leave her to it. Thinking he would do well to at least check, he called her name. “Thetis?”

The goddess gave no sign that she had heard him, only continued to pace backwards and forwards,
her movements increasingly erratic and Patroclus noted that she was also mumbling anxiously to
herself. Feeling very much that he would rather leave Achilles’ less than rational mother to her
pastime, Patroclus forced himself to approach her warily.

“Thetis,” he repeated. “Can you hear me? Are you okay? Should I...should I call someone?”

He was about to head back inside and notify a guard when suddenly, Thetis looked up. Her eyes
were terrifyingly wide, stretching the skin on her face which was as deathly white as a bonefish.
Patroclus swallowed and took a step back.

For a few moments, Thetis just stared at him. Then she hissed, bearing sharp teeth and before
Patroclus had a chance to do anything leapt into the air, transformed into a flying fish and
disappeared.

Patroclus stood their dumbly, gazing at the spot before him where a woman had stood and where
now there was nothing but a small puddle at his feet. “Right,” he said, and continued on inside.

He had several hours to kill before Achilles would be finished with his training. Unfortunately,
Achilles’ absence did not excuse him from lessons with Phoenix and, with Leptine working in the
fields late into the night, Patroclus was forced to sit through endless retellings of the Persian Wars
with the old man, who was clearly under the impression that he was giving Patroclus quite a treat.
After the lecture was over, Phoenix set him a three foot essay which he began with very bad grace,
looking up frequently to check the water clock on his desk. The days were getting shorter again and
outside the sky was already pitch black without even the reassurance of the moon to offer comfort.
Soon there would be no light for Achilles to continue training. With this in mind, Patroclus rolled
up his essay and headed once more for the fields.

Ampelius had gone and Achilles was just packing up by the time he got there, yanking spears out
the yielding earth. Even in the darkness his form seemed to glow silvery, as if he carried the light
from the stars somewhere in his chest. It lit his face and Patroclus saw that it was
uncharacteristically serious, the brow pulled low and pensive, as if he had been thinking for a long
while.

He glanced up briefly as Patroclus stopped before him, his hands deep in the pockets of his tunic.
“Oh there you are,” he acknowledged. “Are you done avoiding me?

Patroclus opened his mouth indignantly. “I haven’t been avoiding you!”

Achilles’ fingers wrapped around the shaft of a spear. He pulled and with very little effort the point
came sliding out of the ground. He straightened up.

“Really,” he said sarcastically. “Then I must have just missed you. All day. Since this morning.”

“I was with Leptine,” Patroclus replied defensively. “And then you were training and Ampelius
was being a knob...anyway this is stupid, I have something to-”

“-Wait no,” Achilles interrupted him. “Why is it stupid? You were a little bitch this morning and
then I don’t see you for the rest of the day, you can’t expect me to just ignore it without asking
what’s up.”

He waited inquiringly and Patroclus felt like stamping his feet in frustration. He did not want to
have this conversation now. Achilles’ exchange with Peleus could wait, they had more important
things to talk about, like Penelope’s letter.

“Nothing is up,” he answered. “I was just tired, that’s all. I didn’t sleep well.”

Achilles’ expression was almost comically wounded and when he spoke his tone was accusing.
“We don’t lie to each other Patroclus,” he told him. “That’s a rule.”

“I’m not lying,” protested Patroclus, although the heat was rising in his cheeks.

“Well you blatantly are,” Achilles shrugged. “I am one of the most extraordinary things this world
has ever seen, Patroclus. My extra-sensory perceptions are unparalleled. Do you really think that I
wouldn’t have noticed your feet poking out from underneath a tapestry?”

Patroclus opened his mouth to reply but honestly, there wasn’t much he could say to that. Achilles
didn’t even look smug; his arms were crossed over his chest and he was looking at Patroclus with
an air of exasperated disbelief. Humiliated, Patroclus tried to think of something to say that would
salvage his dignity but this turned out to be a hopeless enterprise. Fortunately, Achilles continued.

“I sought you out this morning so that we could talk about it,” he said and to Patroclus’ further
shame, his voice was remarkably sensible and mature. “So that I could tell you that nothing,
nothing, is going to keep me from being with you. That was all.”

There was a pause while Achilles waited expectantly for his reaction and Patroclus sifted the dirt
with his feet. Around them crickets chirped, their reedy voices whistling through the long grass to
their sweethearts with a coy confidence they could never muster during the day. Unable to meet
Achilles’ eye, Patroclus watched one which perched near his toe, rubbing its long wings together as
if it were hatching a plan.

“Well maybe that’s just it,” he said at last, still watching the insect. “I mean, it’s an easy enough
thing to say, isn’t it?”
Achilles frown was instant and fierce. “What?” he said.

“I mean,” Patroclus continued, his voice growing braver. “It’s easy enough to say it, think it even,
now. Safe behind palace walls, at the age of seventeen. With a clear horizon and the whole world
ahead of us. It’s an easy thing to believe.”

“What are you saying,” Achilles’ tone was dangerous. It was not a question.

“I’m saying things happen, Achilles,” Patroclus explained, with increasing desperation. “Plans and
people get in the way and...and there’s no telling what the future will bring. Sure it’s easy to throw
words like “forever” around but think about it; do either of us have any clue what it really means?”

“I do,” said Achilles with a sudden heat and Patroclus was taken aback to see that his cheeks were
burning, that his eyes were shining much brighter than they had been. “I’ve always known exactly
what it means, I don’t know about you-”

“-No that’s not what I’m saying,” Patroclus exclaimed hastily, watching horror-struck as Achilles
reached up to rub fiercely at his eyes. “Gods, no, that’s not what I meant...all I’m saying is that
we’re made different, Achilles, and the Fates will have different plans for us and I just don’t want-”

“-To waste your time on me,” Achilles finished. His bottom lip was trembling.

Patroclus felt a sickening, swooping feeling in his stomach. This wasn’t going at all like he had
intended. Achilles was rubbing hard at his eyes and his nose, looking like a little boy who had
fallen and scuffed his knee and Patroclus was standing there, horrified, trying to work out how he
had possibly gotten them both into this situation.

“No,” he said. “No, it’s the complete other...I don’t want you to waste your life on me, that’s what
I’m trying to-”

“-Please don’t,” Achilles moaned. “Please, please, I know I’m not good enough, I know, I never
was but please please please don’t...”

He had abandoned wiping his eyes now and the tears were falling thickly down his cheeks.
Patroclus stared at them. His throat felt swollen as if someone had tied a thick scarf around his neck
and the words took a long time to come out when he finally managed them. “You’re a god,” he
struggled. “And a prince, soon to be a king and you’re destined to be great, I can’t get in the way of
that-”

“Please,” Achilles kept repeating. “Please, you’re so good, you’re so kind, I’m not good enough,
I’m not worthy, I’m broken, I’m a monster but please don’t...”

“But if it’s for the best,” Patroclus said feebly. “If it’s the best for you...if I leave-”

“THE BEST FOR ME?” Achilles cried, sending the night birds darting into the air. “The best
for...Patroclus, I fucking miss your eyes when you blink, if you leave-”

He sunk to his knees and gazed up at him. His eyes were swimming like molten silver, his lips
parted as if in mid vesper and his voice was dry and cracked as one who begged for mercy when he
spoke. “If you leave I will die.”

Silence but for the crickets and even they seemed quiet for the pounding in Patroclus’ ears.
Achilles’ knees were in the dirt; he crouched with his hands outstretched towards Patroclus in
supplication. Neither of them said anything or dared to move but stayed frozen, as if suspended in
animation. Until a bead of water hit the ground, turning the spot to mud and Patroclus realised he
was crying too.

Then, voices. The moment in pieces, both Achilles and Patroclus turned towards the direction of
the noise. Patroclus could hear them only dimly, far away as they were, from one of the further
fields but Achilles’ ears were pricked. He got to his feet, eyes narrowed inquisitively as he tried to
decipher the source.

“What is that?” he murmured.

Light accompanied sound; strange, orange spots appearing through the black, bobbing and
wavering ferally in the distance. Both Achilles and Patroclus looked at each other, bemused. Then,
without warning, a scream ripped through the night.

“Something’s not right,” Achilles announced. “Come on.”

The supplicant of moments ago gone, Achilles took off across the fields and Patroclus sprinted
after him, his heart hammering wildly in his chest. He couldn’t explain why but he felt suddenly
wracked with fear, the night air feeling freezing with dread on his skin.

Even so, nothing could prepare him for what he saw when they reached the fringes of the field.

Men everywhere, dressed in dark leather and furs which they wore stretched across the lower half
of their faces like masks. In one hand they carried a weapon, a club or a mace or in some cases a
whip, in the other they held thick nets made of rope, such as the kind used to catch fish. There were
at least a hundred of them, darting across the field brandishing their nets and their bows and
arrows, bearing down on the slaves who were working in the fields.

One of the men caught a girl by the arm and bludgeoned her over the head with his club. She
collapsed and without hesitation he slung her over his shoulder to load into the cattle carts that
lurked in wait by the side of the road.

“Rustlers!” shouted Achilles. “Sound the alarm!”

He reached down instinctively for a sword that was not there. A look of panic struck his features –
he had left his spears behind. There being little time to look for a weapon, Patroclus took off in the
direction of the alarm bell that stood on the edge and yanked the rope. At once the clang of the
brass echoed across the field, splitting through the night. The rustlers paused in their work to turn
their heads towards the source of the noise and Patroclus saw several furious teeth gnash in the
darkness.

“About time, Menoitides!” a voice shrieked laughingly, a high, cold voice that was also
sickeningly familiar.

Amyntor sat astride a black horse. He was decked out in leather like the other men, a similar wad
of material wound round his mouth yet that did not disguise the leering grin that gleamed from his
eyes as he beheld Patroclus’ ashen face.

“Did you think I would be so quick to leave my property behind?” he shouted. “These are my
slaves after all!”

He barked an order to a nearby rustler who at once cracked his whip at a slave trying to escape.
The boy fell with a scream and the rustler beat down upon him. Patroclus just saw the boy’s hands
reaching out, attempting to stop the blow of the whip before they fell limply to his sides and he too
was dragged towards the carts.
“PATROCLUS!”

The scream sliced passed Patroclus’ eardrums, gripping his heart before being swallowed up by the
darkness. Leptine was clawing her way through the dirt as one man gripped her legs, attempting to
drag her backwards towards a cart.

Without thinking Patroclus sprinted towards her, Achilles’ shouts falling far short of reaching his
ears. With a sharp kick behind her, Leptine managed to fling off the rustler who’d seized her and
was now running towards him. Her path was blocked however by a man who stepped in front of
him and, before Patroclus had time to register what was happening, had slammed his fist into his
jaw.

Patroclus landed with a crash, head slamming against the floor. Silver lights popped at the corners
of his vision; he could just make out the orange lights of the rustler’s torches, burning like the
wands of the horsemen who heralded the end of days and flashes of colour as slaves tore past him
screaming, men and their whips hot on their heels.

Pushing himself up into a sitting position, he shook his head to clear it. All around him was
complete pandemonium; Leptine had vanished from sight. Feeling as though he might heave he
struggled to his feet, blinking to readjust himself to the darkness.

“Patroclus!”

He looked up and saw Achilles charging towards him on the back of one of the plough horses, the
reigns of another clutched in his hand. He chucked a bow and quiver at him and Patroclus saw that
they were wet with blood. “Get on,” he ordered before urging his own horse.

Throwing the bow and quiver over his shoulder Patroclus clambered onto the horse’s back. The
beast was uneasy; Patroclus could see fear quivering in his dilated nostrils. No time to calm him
however, Patroclus dug his heels into the horse’s flank and was almost flung backwards with the
force of its speed as it galloped after Achilles.

Amyntor was organising the loading of the captured slaves into the carts. Seeing Achilles and
Patroclus tearing towards him he yelled at them to hurry, a flicker of unease darting into his eyes.
A rustler had slung a net over Loras and another slave who were both fighting to tear it off;
focusing on him as the target, Achilles loaded his bow and let loose an arrow. It struck the rustler
right in the eye and he clutched his face howling, allowing Loras to help the other wriggle from the
net.

“PATROCLUS!” Leptine was screaming.

Patroclus scanned his surroundings. A man had Leptine by the waist and was attempting to club
her but for her restraint. Patroclus aimed with his bow but he had never been a good shot; the arrow
flew off target, missing the mark widely.

“STRUGGLE LEPTINE,” he yelled. “STRUGGLE, LEPTINE, LISTEN TO ME.”

He kicked the horse’s sides, steering it in her direction. Both Leptine’s hands were wrapped around
the end of the man’s club as she tried to wrench it from his grasp; Patroclus rode up until he was
level with the man and grasped him by the neck with his arms. Gasping, he released his hold of her
waist. Amyntor, however, his attention drawn by the commotion flung out a pointed finger at
Leptine’s retreating figure.

“A pound of silver for whoever captures that girl!” he yelled.

“Achilles!” Patroclus cried desperately.

Halting his horse, Achilles turned to see Leptine fleeing back to the palace, several men chasing
after her. He readied his bow to fire again, but at that moment Patroclus felt something seize him
and the next thing he knew he was sliding off horse. A rustler loomed over him, eyes popping over
his dark mask and mace raised. Patroclus squeezed his eyes shut, readying himself for the blow
when an arrow head tore through the man’s gullet, sending blood spraying in every direction and
he collapsed on top of him.

Pushing away the body, Patroclus saw Achilles holding the reigns of his horse out to him but those
seconds he had spent saving Patroclus’ life had cost Leptine; her cries ripped at Patroclus as the
three rustlers caught up with her, bundling her into one of the carts. Patroclus just had time to see a
flash of brown hair before she disappeared from sight.

As soon as Leptine had been loaded into the cart, Amyntor gave the order. The driver cracked his
whip and the horses lurched off down the road, Amyntor following behind them at a gallop.

“NO!” Patroclus screamed.

“COME ON!” Achilles yelled at him, grabbing his arm and pulling him onto his horse. He yanked
the reigns and they set off after the carts which seemed to be headed in the direction of the beach.

As the sound of the tide grew louder, Patroclus squinted into the dark and saw the skeleton of a
ship with black sails anchored in the waves. Understanding dawned with his terror and he screamed
at Achilles “FASTER!”

Achilles hitched the reigns again but the plough horse was not a war steed, let alone Banthus or
Xalius and he was tiring. A motion from the cattle cart kept Patroclus from swearing however; the
wooden door was shuddering, as if something inside was kicking against it. A moment later the
door had flown open and Leptine tumbled out into the road. Taking a second to orientate herself she
got to her feet and began to run.

Patroclus wanted to cry with relief. Leptine was strong, she was fast, years of manual labour had
made her both. Her long legs covered the distance with ease; she raced from the cart for all she was
worth, heels flashing against the dirt road and her long hair flying behind her. Patroclus saw
Amyntor look over his shoulder, he shouted at his men who turned their horses after her but it was
too late, surely, she was already half a road in front of them, she was going to make it...

A net flew.

Patroclus screamed.

Leptine tumbled into the road, snatching at the ropes that bound her before she was dragged
forcibly backwards into the cart.

The rustlers reached the beach. The carts were loaded onto the ship and the slaves spilled out. The
anchor was lifted and the men grabbed their oars until the ship was slicing a knife’s route through
the dark surface of the water. Achilles and Patroclus slid from the horse’s back and Patroclus raced
to the edge of the cliff they stood upon. He could see the moon now, its silver coin brightness
mirrored in the sea’s reflection but it brought no comfort now even as it illuminated ship’s black
prow.

Patroclus grabbed Achilles by the shoulders, his movements frantic in his desperation. “Lift the
winds,” he ordered him.
Achilles’ face morphed with confusion. “What?”

“Make a storm,” Patroclus insisted. “The waves...I know you can do it. Your mother can, and some
of her power lives in you. I’ve seen what happens to the sea when you’re angry...you can do it. Lift
the winds, do it now.”

“Patroclus, I can’t,” Achilles said, staring utterly flummoxed as Patroclus shook him. “I’ve never
done that, not consciously, I wouldn’t know how-”

“DO IT!” Patroclus shouted. “YOU HAVE TO TRY! DO IT NOW!”

The ship had reached the far cliffs and was sailing away with increasing speed. Patroclus let out a
yell of despair and shook Achilles more fiercely. “DO IT!” he screamed. “MAKE A STORM,
WRECK THE SHIP, YOU HAVE TO, WHY WON’T YOU-”

“-PATROCLUS, I CAN’T,” Achilles shouted back, wrenching himself from his grip. “Don’t you
see? Even if they survived the wreck, they’re too far out. The slaves can’t swim. Hundreds of lives
would be lost...including Leptine’s.”

Patroclus released Achilles and slumped to the ground with a strangled sob. The ship was halfway
to the horizon now, soon it would be out of sight. Achilles bent down and wrapped his arms around
him; Patroclus grabbed him by his back and pulled him closer to him, burying his face into his
chest. Achilles’ torso closed around him, solid and so blessedly there; he could feel the heat rising
around him like a promise of protection. Patroclus cried, grabbing the material of Achilles’ tunic in
his fists and Achilles held him tight, rubbing the back of his shaking form until the sobs had
subsided and repeating, like a mantra the words until Patroclus understood them:

It’s too late. She’s gone.

 Adonia
Chapter Notes

Consider this me trying to make up for the harrowing events of last chapter.
WARNING: This chapter contains cynical (and a bit kinky??) porn.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

Leptine was gone and Patroclus knew somehow that this was his fault. He had made her a promise,
a promise that she would be free or else he would never rest. But the words had been little more
than air, he had not acted fast enough and now she was on a ship carrying her off to somewhere on
the other side of the world, somewhere completely and utterly out of reach.

Patroclus tried not to think about her, terrified and so alone despite the tight, fleshy packing of a
hundred bodies pressing in on her every side. He tried not to think about her breathing in stale air,
about scrabbling to get away from the filth of the floors and the unwashed bodies, about crying at
night for the one person who couldn’t save her. More than anything, he tried not to think about
when the ship’s anchor would slam into strange and foreign sands and what would happen to her.
Would she be signed onto the property of some wealthy homeowner to work as a kitchen hand? Or
would one of the pinching old brothel women find her, and tell her that they were looking for a girl
who was healthy and still young? Even such a fate as this was better than the alternative:
backbreaking labour in the mines until the fumes of a poisonous earth grew blessedly too much.

But Leptine was gone and to Patroclus it didn’t make much of a difference whether it was to Crete
or Mesopotamia. He felt as much grief as if she had died. Life in the palace, indifferent to the loss
of a handful of captured slaves, carried on as usual but to Patroclus it felt empty. Everywhere he
went he felt as if he carried a tremendous weight around with him in the pit of his stomach, like a
talisman from the land of the dead. Now, the citadel was a ghost town and the people nothing but
flickering shadows on walls. Walking through the agora all he heard were echoes of sounds and
the vibrant colours she had loved seemed faded and washed out. Everything that was bright and
cheerful in the world had been sucked out, everything that was brave and good had left with
Leptine on that ship.

Not everything.

“We’ll find her,” Achilles promised him, daily. “Don’t worry. The Gods will keep her until we do
but make no mistake, we will find her.”

This was not just a vague statement, meant as a half-hearted attempt at comfort. Whether because
he could not bear to see Patroclus like this, or else because he too shouldered a portion of the guilt
for her abduction, Achilles worked tirelessly on Leptine’s trail. The day after she was taken he
went to Viros, the slave merchant, and forced him none too gently to give him the details of all the
known slave routes in and across the Aegean. Once handed the information he spent hours poring
over the maps, plotting different routes the ship could have taken. He even sent emissaries to the
nearest ports to catch the ship as it docked for water and supplies. So far all his efforts had been in
vain but that did little to sway his determination.

“These are all the major trading sites,” he showed Patroclus, pointing to where he had marked them
on the map in red ink. “Seeing as they were rustlers, rather than merchants with a valid licence, it’s
highly likely that they would have wanted to avoid these, instead heading for the black markets.
Plus it was a fast ship so it could easily have made it to Africa by now, but I think it will have
wanted to get rid of its cargo quickly. I think Cyprus is our best bet at this point.”

Patroclus nodded dully. He was buoyed by Achilles’ his optimism and keeping himself busy trying
to find her did a little to lessen the pain in his chest. But despite Achilles’ constant assertions to the
contrary, he could not let go of the knowledge that the Gods were not that kind. He could not shake
the dim awareness that sounded always at the back of his mind, that he was never going to see her
again.

Days passed, shifting blurrily into weeks. The palace had become haunted for Patroclus, for
Achilles as well it seemed, and they spent more and more time away from it. It didn’t hurt less but
with Achilles the pain was easier to carry until, after a time, he was able to smile again and even
laugh, putting aside the weight of guilt and grief until it was time to shoulder it again. Achilles kept
him grounded, kept him sane, refusing to let him drift away as if he had a tight hold around his
ankle. It was an odd feeling, being so completely dependent on a person but then Patroclus
supposed he had been so for a while, it just took the disappearance of the only other person in this
world to whom he was close to realise how much he truly, desperately relied on him.

They hadn’t spoken of what had transpired between them before the rustlers had come and
actually, Patroclus hadn’t thought they’d needed to. Three weeks passed however and Achilles and
Patroclus were sitting on the beach. Achilles had been running and Patroclus was timing him; it
was an activity Achilles had taken up fervently lately, testing himself, pushing to new limits. If
Patroclus hadn’t known better, he would have said that Achilles was training. But for what, neither
of them could explain.

Now Achilles sat with his legs outstretched before him, flexing his calf muscle and stretching.
“Time?” he threw out offhandedly.

“Two minutes twenty,” Patroclus replied.

Achilles pulled a face which meant that he could do better. “I’ve been thinking,” he stated.

Patroclus waited for an elaboration and when none came resisted the urge to retort satirically.
“About what?” he inquired politely instead.

“Us,” Achilles answered. “You and me.” He fixed Patroclus with a serious gaze over the hill of his
bent knee.

Patroclus glanced down at the patch of sand next to him. A small, translucent shelled insect
scuttled over a piece of driftwood, tiny legs flashing over a pink stomach. Patroclus watched it idly,
feeling tension creep over him, unbidden.

“I know you feel like you’re not good enough for me,” Achilles continued, his own eyes also
trained on the sand beetle.

Patroclus shrugged, a little unsure what he was attempting to convey. “I’m not the only one who
feels that way,” he said at last.

“True,” Achilles acquiesced. “But, if you think about it, the other half disagree. They think that I’m
not good enough for you.”

Patroclus frowned at him quizzically. “Whose half?”

“My half,” Achilles replied instantly. “Penelope’s half. Leptine’s too, probably,” he added.
Patroclus shook his head, feeling a little ashamed. “Leptine thinks we should be together,” he
mumbled, making a conscious point of speaking about her in present tense. “She’s always made
that very clear.”

“Okay, well,” Achilles made an assenting gesture. “What I’m trying to say is that I don’t see why it
should matter. People like to have opinions on something or other but at the end of the day, it’s
our lives, isn’t it? We get to decide what happens to us, not the Gods, not my parents, not anybody
else. I can’t sit around and let other people plan my future for me, Patroclus. I wasn’t made that
way.”

“Neither was I,” Patroclus pointed out. “But that doesn’t stop me worrying that one day you’ll
wake up and decide that actually, you want a different kind of future.”

Achilles eyeballed him inquisitively for a long moment and Patroclus resumed his watching of the
beetle which had successfully manoeuvred its way over the drift wood and was now burrowing
itself into the sand. Then Achilles lay down, placing his hands behind his head.

“You know you’re really insecure,” he said finally.

Patroclus sighed, stretching down next to him. “Yeah,” he exhaled. “I know.”

“Why are you like that?”

Patroclus shrugged against the sand. “I dunno. My dad, maybe?”

“I really want to kill that guy.”

“I’d strongly advise that you did not,” Patroclus said although, catching the indignation on
Achilles’ face he found it difficult to ignore the smile tugging at the corner of his mouth.

Achilles turned on his side, propping himself up on his elbow so that he was looking down at
Patroclus. There was a very light breeze which kept snatching strands of his hair and pulling them
across his face so that they stroked his bottom lip, like honey on fruit.

“I’m making a choice,” he spoke softly. “I don’t want to be Immortal. Not like Hercules, not like
mother wants. But I do want to live forever. Does that make sense?”

Patroclus nodded because it did.

“But I think my best shot of that is with you,” Achilles continued. “Because without you, I don’t
mean anything. I don’t count. So if you’re worried about getting in the way of my career or
whatever, then you should probably bear that in mind.”

Patroclus grinned. “That’s a really nice thing to say.”

“I can say a lot of nice things.”

“Yeah I know. I worry about that too.”

“You know what?” Achilles’ face drew closer. “You worry too much.”

His lips closed over Patroclus’ and instantly, at the gentlest touch of pressure Patroclus gave
himself up, his body softening as every thought of restraint deserted him. Achilles’ mouth was
warm and gentle, not fierce as it so often was, as if he were prepared to destroy Patroclus in his
desire to claim him. No, this kiss was soft, loving, and Patroclus opened up beneath it, responding
eagerly to the new insistence of his tongue as sunlight came pouring in.

After a time though they felt themselves growing impatient, their limbs tensing as the desire for
heat became needy. Achilles' breathing was becoming shallow, his hands bunching at the hem of
his chiton so that his knuckles brushed a patch of thigh. Patroclus could feel the flat pack of his
muscles hardening over him, radiating heat as his kiss grew bolder, more direct. His hands slipped
under his chiton hem, creeping up to clench the flesh of his ass and Patroclus arched forward with
a moan.

Suddenly, Achilles’ eyes snapped wide. His mouth fell open. “Shit,” he hissed, and rolled off
Patroclus.

Confused and extremely put out, Patroclus sat up and was about to ask Achilles what the matter
was when his own mouth snapped open so fast he thought he might have lockjaw.

Standing a few feet away from them, eyes blazing and her face stark white, was Thetis.

Achilles went for a cheery wave. “Hello mother,” he said. “What brings you here?”

Thetis did not look impressed. Her words, however, were aimed at Achilles when she spoke. “We
need to talk,” she said.

oOo

Considering the last time Patroclus had seen Thetis she had been pacing back and forth, ringing her
hands although they were devoid of water before ending the display by hissing at him and turning
into a fish, he supposed she was acting really quite calmly.

Achilles, who was currently attempting to restrain his mother from pulling out chunks of her own
hair, a difficult feat as she was trying to spit at him, clearly disagreed.

“CALM DOWN!” he was yelling at her, trying to keep a hold of her arms even as they were
turning scaly before his eyes. “For Gods’ sake, mother, calm down and tell me what’s wrong!”

“WHAT IS WRONG, THE SMALL BOY ASKS,” Thetis screamed, her blazing golden eyes
rolling backwards into her skull. “WHAT IS WRONG, WHAT CAN IT BE, THE SUN, THE
MOON, THE MOUNTAINS, THE TREES-”

“Narrow it down,” said Achilles tiredly, flashing a weary glance at Patroclus who was currently
engaged in making a necklace out of seaweed.

“I…I…I…I…I,” Thetis was making strange little stuttering noises, having thrown off Achilles and
running a thin-boned hand through her long and tangled hair. “I…I…I...”

Achilles looked desperately at Patroclus who shrugged, at a complete loss. Thetis had resumed her
pacing, her eyes so wide they stretched the entirety of her face so that she looked like a demon, or a
walking skeleton. She was wringing her hands again and Patroclus saw how the knobbly bones
stuck out from her wrist, the skin of which was thin and translucent so that her blue veins shone
through the flesh like bolts of lightning. She looked as though she had been starving for several
days.

She had started to talk to herself again, the words coming out fast and indecipherable, streaming
like the water over a babbling brook.

“A lady he loved, so fair and bright,

When he looked behind, her skin turned white…”

Achilles and Patroclus stared at her and at each other, both of them too wary to attempt to approach
her again. Patroclus saw that the skin of her shoulders glittered with the flakes of silver scales and
her shoulder blades jutted out sharply from her back, as if preparing to make way for wings.
Thinking of stories he had heard of the terrible creatures nymphs could turn into when prompted,
he repressed a shudder.

“Mother,” Achilles tired again despairingly. “Please, be calm. It’s alright, just tell me what’s
happened.”

For a moment, Thetis gave no sign that she had heard him but continued muttering to herself,
blinking absently up at the sky as if seeking its counsel. Then, finally, she stopped. She looked at
her son and it seemed that some essence of sanity had come back into her face as her huge, green-
gold eyes beheld him.

“They’re coming for you,” she murmured, her bottom lip trembling in a way that was horribly
familiar. “Oh Gods, they are coming, they are coming, what to do, what can be done, nothing,
nothing, nothing-”

“-Who are coming?” Achilles interrupted impatiently, although Patroclus had a feeling that he
already knew.

“The Thousand Ships,” Thetis replied, sounding irritable. “The Black King has been busy, oh yes,
with his little bees gathered all about. They will leave their nests and their honey to swarm and
sting but what should happen when the bee stings…what will happen to the little buzzing bees…”

She began to flap her arms angrily, all the while making distracted buzzing sounds like some
cantankerous insect. Achilles was still staring at her as if she had, at long last, finally lost it. For
Patroclus however, at least the first part of what she had said had registered with him.

“Hold on,” he said, frowning. “The Thousand Ships. Didn’t Agamemnon say he was putting
together such a force?” Catching Thetis nodding wildly, he addressed her. “That’s it, isn’t it? The
Black King, King Agamemnon? He’s coming?”

Thetis’ nodding grew more fervent, although her expression was exhausted, as if she had gotten a
tremendous load of her chest. Achilles looked extremely disappointed.

“Is that it?” he scowled as if this whole episode had been terribly anti-climactic. “We already knew
that. And I didn’t care very much the first time.”

“But he’s coming for you, Achilles,” Patroclus reminded him, having told him of Penelope’s letter
weeks ago. “And from what it sounds like,” he glanced at Thetis for confirmation. “He’s already
on his way.”

Thetis adamantly increased her nodding before collapsing onto a nearby rock, as though drained of
all strength. Pleased though he was at having understood her meaning Patroclus frowned, unsure of
why this revelation should have made her react in the way that she had. Patroclus wasn’t
particularly enthusiastic about the thought of Agamemnon coming to Phthia; from what it sounded
like here wasn’t a man with whom he would enjoy an exchange, still, Thetis’ reaction had come
across as fairly overdramatic. Beside him, Achilles was clearly thinking the same thing.

“So what?” he said.

“So they’ll try and get you to go to war,” answered Patroclus.

“But I don’t want to go to war,” Achilles blinked bewilderedly. “I was just in one. And sure it was
fun, but it also hurt more than I was expecting.”

“They will force you,” Thetis screeched.

Achilles’ sneer dripped with amused scepticism. “No one,” he said emphatically. “Can force me to
do anything that I don’t want to do.”

Thetis, however, appeared unconvinced. “They will make you with their honeyed words!” she
insisted. “Clever little bees, with their golden pots while the Queen grows fat on their tiny little
spoons-”

“-Cool,” Patroclus cut across her hurriedly. “But honestly Achilles, I think you should take this
seriously. From what it sounds like, Agamemnon is not the kind of person you want to mess with.
Saying no to him could make your life very difficult.”

“I’m not the kind of person you want to mess with!” Achilles countered angrily. “Agamemnon
should be afraid of me. He should come to beg for me to join his allegiance. And then when I say
no he can head back to his Thousand Ships with his tail between his legs. Unless, of course, I hear
what he has to say and decide that I do want to go after all.”

“NO!” Thetis cried, making both Achilles and Patroclus jump. “NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, YOU
WILL NOT BE GOING!”

Achilles looked at his mother, his eyes narrowed. For a moment Patroclus was sure that he would
retaliate furiously, would defy his mother’s forbiddance for the very sake of being contrary.
However, his voice was suspicious rather than rebellious when he spoke again. “What have you
seen?” he asked.

Thetis swallowed and to Patroclus that was confirmation enough. The goddess had had a prophecy.

“I see many things, some are important, some probably not, anyway, irrelevant, neither here nor
there, unrelated, not necessary, not necessary…” She began to babble again and Achilles and
Patroclus shared a wearied look.

“Alright,” said Achilles finally when Thetis showed no signs of shutting up. “Alright I won’t go, if
it means that much to you.”

A look of tremendous relief, as with a new dawn breaking over the hills, blossomed across Thetis’
face. She staggered forward to hug her son, clasping him to her so tightly Patroclus saw his eyes
water. “Sweet boy, golden child, I will keep you safe. They will not come near you, I will gouge
out their eyes-”

“-No need for that I’m sure,” interrupted Patroclus. “But how exactly do we plan on keeping
Agamemnon from finding you? Penelope said he will stop at nothing, and his reputation does
preceed him.”

“I’m not hiding, if that’s what you mean,” said Achilles indignantly. “He can come here if he
wants to, I’m not going to stop him-”

“-No!” Thetis exclaimed, looking fearful. “No, no, he must not find you, he must not see you, it
will mean the end.”

Achilles was looking sceptical again. Patroclus, however, was wrestling with a new sense of dread.
For he had just remembered the prediction Thetis had made: This war’s going to mean trouble, for
everyone involved. Important people as well I mean, not just humans. One of those big “turn of
history” deals. After all that had happened with Nekros and Poeas, Patroclus had assumed she had
been referring to the Thessalian war, and that the person she had seen die was Deiomachus. But he
had always wondered why she would care about him…and there was Achilles’ divulging of
prophecies that struck later rather than sooner…

But Thetis was becoming frantic again and, regardless of what Achilles thought of her fears, seeing
his mother in such a state was clearly as upsetting to him as any forecast of doom and destruction.
He took her in his arms and held her to his chest, making soothing noises into her hair until her
distress had subsided. “Alright,” he told her gently. “I won’t let him find me, ok? I won’t go, it’ll
be fine, everything will be alright…”

Thetis continued to rock and moan, snuffling into his chest. Over her brilliant red head which just
came up to his chin, Achilles rolled his eyes at Patroclus. Think of something, he mouthed.

oOo

Think of something. Easier said than done. Patroclus kicked aimlessly round the palace compound,
kicking at stones and knots of grass and wracking his brains desperately for a solution. He had left
Achilles with his mother who had made it abundantly clear that, after deciphering the madness that
was Thetis’ current state of mind, his presence was no longer required. He had exited the beach
non-too reluctantly, leaving Achilles to calm her down.

Except now, Patroclus had been left with the task of singlehandedly keeping Achilles from King
Agamemnon’s merciless clutches. How he was supposed to do this he had no idea, given that
Agamemnon commanded an army of such a size as Greece had never before seen and likely had
spies and sentries in every corner of the land. As well as the Gods on his side, apparently.

Patroclus sat down on a barrel someone had deposited near the stables and put his head in his
hands. Usually, in situations like this, he would head down to the kitchens and consult with
Leptine. But Leptine was not here. He exhaled through the gaps in his fingers and tried very hard to
ignore the foretelling itching in his eyes.

A shadow fell on the ground and Patroclus realised someone was standing before him. This was
confirmed by a voice that followed swiftly: “Patroclus Menoitides?”

Patroclus looked up to see a thickset, burly looking man scratching his head and holding something
in his hand. “Yes?” Patroclus raised his eyebrows questioningly.

“I sell jars,” said the man, as if that explained everything Patroclus had ever wanted to know.

Patroclus blinked. “That is…good.”

“Some of my jars come from far away,” the man continued. “I have to get a boat to transport them
from these places. It takes a long time, sometimes. Often, when I get back, everyone has already
got all the jars they need. It is frustrating, economically.”

Patroclus nodded slowly. “These are…economically frustrating times.”

“Last week, I had to get my jars from Cyprus,” said the jar seller. “The jars were many, and my
men were tired from the lifting. On the way back we stopped at a small island, Ithaca, to drink
wine and replenish our strength. There, a person of great attractiveness but ambiguous gender gave
me this letter to give to you.”

Patroclus took the letter and thanked the jar seller who walked away with the satisfied air of a job
well done. Shaking his head bemusedly, Patroclus opened the seal and bent to read Penelope’s
latest letter.

From Penelope, wife of Odysseus of Ithaca to Patroclus Menoitides of Phthia: Hail!

First thing’s first: I heard about Leptine. Peleus sent out a list of the slaves stolen and news of the
rustlers antics’ have spread down the Northern coast. Patroclus, I cannot begin to tell you how
sorry I am. In the little time that I knew her, I could tell that she was one of the best people I have
ever had the good fortune to meet. Believe me when I say that I do not think the Grey-Eyed Lady
will let someone of such goodness and bravery to come to any harm. In any case, I will keep an ear
to the ground and let you know if I learn anything of her whereabouts.

Now, about your other problem. You have no hope of keeping Achilles out of this war by keeping
him in Phthia. Agamemnon’s embassies are on their way to Ithaca as we speak; in fact, Odysseus
is currently in the process of thinking up his own scheme of avoidance (it is safe to say his oh-so-
clever oath may have backfired slightly. We are all so very shocked.) Your best bet is to get him out
of the country, as far away as you can. There he can lie low, until Agamemnon has given up the
hunt and set his sails for Troy. Of course, no one can know he is there.

In terms of a disguise, I think I have an idea. Be warned, Achilles isn’t going to like it…

oOo

“No,” said Achilles. “Absolutely not.”

They were in Thetis’ room. If Patroclus had ever wondered if he would ever be up here again,
never in his wildest dreams would he have thought it would be under these circumstances. Achilles
was stripped to the skin, but for a loin cloth to cover his modesty, and standing in front of a mirror.
Meanwhile, Thetis was in the process of showing him a brassiere.

“All the high class women are wearing one, Achilles!” Thetis huffed at him.

“Yeah, well, bully for them,” Achilles snarled. “I’m not putting that on.”

Patroclus laughed.

In fact, Patroclus had done nothing but laugh for the past hour and a half.

“It’s what women are wearing, you have to wear it,” Thetis informed him severely.

“You don’t wear one.”

“I live in the ocean. I don’t need support.”

“I HAVE NO BREASTS. I DON’T NEED SUPPORT.”

Patroclus laughed so hard he thought his ribs might break.

Penelope’s idea had turned out to be a simple and rather predictable one. Achilles would be
shipped off hence for fostering on Skyros, a tiny little island off the coast of Athens. There he
would live in waiting on the court of King Lycomedes, for an indefinite amount of time but not
before Agamemnon gave up the search for him. Upon first hearing this Patroclus had crumpled;
obviously he would not be able to accompany Achilles for fear of raising suspicion, and he did not
know when he would be able to see him again. His depression was eclipsed, however, by another
fundamental part of the plan: Achilles would be dressed as a woman.
At first, Achilles had flatly refused. It had taken the combined efforts of Patroclus and Thetis into
persuading him (Patroclus had his own reasons for helping out) and the argument that had
followed between Achilles and his mother had been of the likes that Patroclus had never before
witnessed. Both of them had screamed, thrashed about, yelled oaths at the Gods and at each other
before finally Thetis’ shoulder blades had seemed to splinter, leathery silver wings began to push
through the thin white flesh and Achilles had hastily acquiesced.

Thetis was much better now.

“Look at these bangles!” she exclaimed, opening one of her many jewellery boxes and
withdrawing two large golden hoops that glittered with small stones. “I haven’t worn jewellery like
this since my wedding day, I never have a reason to dress up anymore. Oh, I’m so glad we’re doing
this!”

Achilles grunted and did not look at Patroclus.

“Turn around so that I can lace you up.”

“No, mother, I told you, I’m not putting it on.”

“Everyone is wearing them Achilles, you will stand out!”

“I’ve never seen one.”

“Well that’s not particularly surprising,” Thetis scowled and Patroclus let out a hoot of mirth.

“Look at it, it looks like a torture contraption,” said Achilles, watching the thin leather brassiere
suspiciously through narrowed eyes. “There is no point, I don’t even have breasts.”

“If you stuff a few wads of cotton in the pads it’ll look like you do,” Patroclus pointed out.

Thetis made an ecstatic noise. Achilles gave him a look of such evil he was surprised neither he nor
the brassiere caught flame.

In the end, although Achilles remained obstinate about the brassiere, he did consent to wear an
apodesmos – a binding of thick fabric around his upper torso – which under the many dresses
Thetis had him try on did suggest a hint of a bosom. These dresses were many and varied; Thetis
had a whole closet full of costumes of various different colours and styles made from every kind of
material imaginable: cotton, linen, muslin, silk; dresses with low collars, dresses with embroidered
hems, dresses which were hardly dresses at all. Patroclus caught his breath upon her throwing open
the door, revealing rack upon rack of softly fluttering skirts in the breeze from the open window,
hanging in wait like many coloured dreams.

Achilles had not been so impressed.

Still, Patroclus was surprised he had agreed. Sure he had wrecked a few things and threatened to
throw himself off the nearest cliff to save the Trojans the trouble, but Patroclus had fully expected
a week at the most to convince him of the plan’s necessity. But then again, as Thetis kept
reminding them, they were running out of time. Although not so much that they couldn’t
experiment a little.

“I like the blue,” Patroclus nodded as Achilles stood at the centre of the room, snarling, with folds
of fabric hanging off him like a dressmaker’s dummy. “It accentuates his eyes, I think.”

“Yes me too,” agreed Thetis thoughtfully. “Although not quite so much as the lilac. I’m not mad
about the red border though, it clashes a little with his hair.”

Achilles’ face twitched oddly.

After settling on which dresses best flouted Achilles’ assets, Thetis washed and combed his hair,
pouring in a rich, heavily scented oil which made him sneeze. When it was dry, Patroclus helped
her braid and curl it in the current fashion until his tawny lion’s main sat in stiff ringlets and
whalebone pins at the back of his head. Then, nodding in satisfaction, Thetis stood up and crossed
over to the other side of the room towards her dressing table.

From beneath his elaborate coiffure, Achilles’ eyes narrowed in suspicion. “What are you doing?”
he asked, a note of fear creeping into his harsh voice. “What’s that?”

“Nothing to worry about,” replied Thetis smoothly, turning back round. Patroclus saw that she was
holding a small, mother-of-pearl dish in either hand which contained something that looked like
crimson dust. “Just a few finishing touches.”

“NO,” yelled Achilles emphatically. “No, you are not putting makeup on me!”

“Patroclus, restrain him,” ordered Thetis happily.

Patroclus seized his decidedly not-so-girlish arms and yanked them round the back of his seat. “I’m
so sorry,” he whispered into his ear, trying not to let a note of delight creep in.

“You are not,” snapped Achilles. “Mother, I am begging you-”

“-Oh, don’t be such a baby,” Thetis said in a tinkling voice like silver bells. “You’re going to look
so lovely when I’m done.”

By the time the goddess had finished with Achilles’ face, Patroclus was damn near crying with
laughter. It had taken several attempts as every time Thetis came near him with the brush he had
turned his head away sharply, smearing streaks of cerise across his face and chin. Finally however,
they managed to keep him still enough to apply all the cosmetics and Thetis stepped back to survey
her handiwork, Patroclus hastening to her side. And felt the breath knocked out of him.

Achilles was snarling at them with lips painted the daintiest rose, accentuating their perfect,
pricking rosebud form. With the avoidance of looking clownish his cheeks were very lightly
rouged with pink, so that they looked as they always did when he was chastened, or in bed,
stretching over Patroclus’ chest with his pretty mouth open and his hair sticking to his skin. His
eyes were carefully lined with kohl so that they seemed bigger in his beautiful, fine-boned face.
His skin was already too fine to use powder and the whole effect was fresh faced, at the very
pinnacle of youth.

Patroclus felt a stirring between his legs and hastily switched his gaze to the ceiling.

Achilles’ eyes snapped towards him. “Well?” he barked. “What does it look like?”

Patroclus gave him Thetis’ small hand mirror. “That is…really frightening,” he said. “You look
like a girl. And with not much effort.”

Achilles stared at himself for a long time, his pencilled eyebrows puckered as if deeply considering
something. Then he shook his head, sending his new ringlets bouncing around his ears. “There is
no way in Hades this will work.”

Thetis bristled. “Why not?”

“For one thing,” Achilles gestured towards his upper body. “My arms are too big.”

Thetis waved dismissively. “All your dresses have sleeves,” she answered.

“We could say you grew up with the Amazons,” Patroclus suggested. “And now you need
instruction on becoming a lady. To prepare you for future marriage.”

Thetis snapped her fingers in agreement and Achilles glared at Patroclus for a second time from
beneath his heavy mascara. “Alright,” he conceded. “But there are other things that are…too big.”

Thetis’ eyes narrowed. “Like what?”

“Like my…neck.”

Patroclus let out a snort which he turned quickly into a cough. Thetis looked stony.

“You will just have to hide your…neck,” she answered through gritted teeth. “In any case, a couple
of my ladies will be going with you. They are exceedingly clever tailors, and very discreet. I’m
sure we can have some of your clothes…adapted.”

Achilles nodded agitatedly, taking care to avoid Patroclus’ eye. This was fine by Patroclus as his
attention had been suddenly caught by the subtle bulge of Achilles’ upper bicep through the thin
muslin of his dress. Then Achilles sighed and tried to run his hand through his hair before realising
most of it had been pinned back and stopped short. “This is so stupid,” he muttered. “I’m going to
get caught.”

“You will not,” replied Thetis, eyes blazing furiously. “You must not. I mean it, Achilles. You
must guard your identity as if it were the dearest thing to you. Do anything, tell any lie. It matters
not. All that matters is that you are not found out.”

Achilles nodded stiffly, taken aback by the vehemence of her words. Patroclus looked at Thetis and
wondered, not for the first time that day, what she had seen to make her so afraid, to bundle up her
son in corsets and garters and send him to a foreign land until Gods knew when they would meet
again. Then again, not for the first time, he remembered Achilles was leaving him too, and a wave
of cold spread through his gut.

Suddenly Thetis burst into tears, jolting him out of his reverie. “Mother!” Achilles exclaimed,
staring in shock as she grabbed a scarf and blew her nose.

“I’m sorry,” she sobbed, dabbing at her eyes with the fringed silk. “It’s just…I’ve always wanted a
daughter!”

Thetis buried her face in the scarf, her body convulsing with muffled tears. Achilles turned his head
to stare at Patroclus in disbelief, his black-rimmed eyes wide and it seemed to Patroclus he could
read his face as clearly as if he had spoken.

What are we doing? it said. And, by Gods, what will we do?

oOo

They left Thetis still crying in her room. After the days’ events, neither Achilles nor Patroclus felt
much like going down to dinner. Thetis had informed them through her sobs that Achilles would be
leaving for Skyros first thing in the morning and that she would have everything arranged,
including her two most loyal Nereids to accompany Achilles across the sea to the house of King
Lycomedes.
When Achilles had voiced his wish to say goodbye to his father, she had thrashed about and
become so upset that Achilles had nearly ripped his dress in leaping to restrain her. No one must
know, she kept repeating, and although Patroclus suspected this had more to do with her jealousy
and competition against Peleus, privately he agreed with her. Agamemnon would be heading to
Phthia in search of Achilles and it was probably for the best if Peleus knew as little of his
whereabouts as possible. He did not think that he would betray Achilles’ secret, but there was a
chance he could let something slip to one of his advisors. Amyntor was gone but Cleitus, for
example, would be more than willing to spread the tale of the prince’s cross-dressing scandal,
especially if it earned him a Mycenaen coin or two.

Besides, Thetis was not alone in wanting to keep the business under wraps. Achilles travelled from
his mother’s room to his own wrapped in a thick cloak with the hood pulled low under his face. He
took no chances, forcing Patroclus to lead him through the tunnels so that he would not be spotted
by anyone. Once they reached their chambers he threw of the cloak, marched straight to the mirror.
A second later, Patroclus heard the sound of glass breaking.

“Look at this!” he yelled, jabbing a finger at himself. “Just look at this!”

“Oh don’t be so melodramatic,” Patroclus smirked. “I, for one, think you look very pretty.”

“Can you imagine what will happen if this gets out?” Achilles retaliated. “Goodbye any chance of
glory, although fame will be all too easy to come by. ‘Gather round! Come, hear tell the story of
Achilles, the only hero ever to feign menstruation!’”

“I mean, that’s an assumption,” Patroclus pointed out.

Achilles let out a little roar. His earrings dangled incongruously and Patroclus had to try very hard
to stifle a chuckle. Snarling, Achilles began to pace round the room, the rest of his face turning the
same colour as his delicately painted cheeks.

“What is she thinking?” she tossed at Patroclus. “She’s seen something. I know it.”

He stopped. Exhaled. His muscled chest rose and fell, shifting the folds of fabric that trapped it. He
looked more like a caged animal than a demure young lady but Patroclus still couldn’t help but be
drawn to the deep rose of his lips, slightly parted in his excitement, the smudge of black eyeliner
on his lids, the subtle fall of skirts disguising the power of the body underneath. He thought about
the touch of that fabric, soft on his knuckles as he ran a hand down a more silken patch of thigh
and felt his cock twitch again.

“I’m going to take this rubbish off,” stated Achilles irritably.

He turned to go and a plaintive noise escaped Patroclus’ lips. Achilles stopped to look quizzically
at him. Instantly, Patroclus felt a hot flush of shame course over his skin as he raised one perfectly
arched eyebrow.

“Patroclus,” he began slowly. “What was that?”

Patroclus shrugged in a feeble attempt to preserve his dignity. Achilles turned round so that he was
facing him fully. Placing one hand coquettishly on his hip, he cocked his head to the side. It was a
ridiculous gesture, a parody of womanhood. Still, Patroclus felt his pulse quicken.

“What did you say?” pressed him Achilles ruthlessly. “You’d rather I did not?”

“I said nothing,” replied Patroclus staunchly.

Achilles took a few steps towards him, his earrings swinging. He did not make any attempt to roll
his hips or alter his stride yet he still somehow managed to exude a delicacy and refinement that
had not been there moments before. He stopped in front of Patroclus, his smoky lined, heavily
lidded eyes boring into his as if he were trying to see into his soul. Patroclus swallowed and
Achilles watched the movement of his throat. The corner of his mouth twitched.

“Men in dresses, Patroclus?” he asked, his voice twinging with mock disappointment. “Never had
you pegged for the type.”

“I didn’t-” Patroclus started but found that Achilles running his tongue over smirking, pink lips was
irrefutably distracting. “I just thought we didn’t…quite finish what we started…earlier…”

Achilles laughed softly, his eyes flickering down to below Patroclus’ belt.

The next thing Achilles was laying on the bed, his back against the wall and Patroclus was kissing
him. He could taste the paint on his lips, metallic and then something else, something sweet like
berries in the summertime. He ran his hand down the length of the inseam of his dress and then
beneath the material up his leg, relishing the agonizingly soft touch of the fabric. Achilles gasped
into his mouth then bit his bottom lip, toes curling prettily.

“Alright,” Achilles panted as Patroclus’ lips brushed the taut tendons of his neck. “Now I’m
wondering if I should be worried.”

“You worry too much,” Patroclus breathed into his ear and Achilles laughed.

The chuckle choked off into a moan however as Patroclus’ mouth closed over the spot just beneath
his jaw and began to suck. Meanwhile the hand under his skirt had moved to graze over his thigh;
Achilles arched against Patroclus as his fingers pressed into a tender spot above his knee, a half-
healed bruise that matched the colour of his dress and Patroclus grinned against Achilles’ skin,
feeling the tent of his erection nudge his stomach through the thin fabric.

“Masochist,” Patroclus whispered teasingly.

“Takes one to know one,” Achilles retorted. “If I remember rightly it was you who gave me – ah-”

He jack-knifed forward, eyes widening almost comically as Patroclus’ knuckles brushed over the
sensitive skin on his other side. Intrigued, Patroclus filed that away for future reference. Achilles
yanked his head down to kiss him again. His mouth was hot and needy as it had been earlier that
day and Patroclus wondered if he had been thinking about it, imagining Patroclus’ mouth on him as
he tried on all those dresses. The thought made his lower half jerk forward and Achilles grinded
into him eagerly, both of them groaning at the extra level of friction the flimsy material provided.

Patroclus broke the kiss to nibble at Achilles’ ear lobe, the earrings laying abandoned on the
mattress. “Do you know what I’m thinking?” he said, his voice husky and low.

“What?” asked Achilles.

“I’m thinking that I’d like to see you come in your pretty purple dress.”

Achilles tried very hard to look scathingly at him, a difficult feat as Patroclus’ hands slid across his
skin to clench his cheeks. Achilles grit his teeth, pressing himself into Patroclus’ palms and the
grate of his fingernails. Patroclus slipped down, kissing the hollow and the base of his throat and
the patch of bare chest the dress revealed until he was hovering, his mouth inches away from
Achilles’ clothed erection. He grinned, looking up at Achilles and felt himself go even more rigid
at the sight of him, his eyeliner smudged and the paint on his lips smeared across his face, the
rouge lost to the rosy heat of his skin and sweat. His elaborate hairdo was in ruins, the ringlets
tangled and strands escaping from the knot at the back of his head.

“Oh my Gods,” Patroclus said, lust mingling with his amusement. “You should see yourself.”

Achilles huffed, as if trying to think of something to retort, but before he could do so Patroclus
wrapped his mouth round Achilles’ cock. Automatically Achilles’ hips snapped upwards and the
material shifted against Patroclus’ bottom lip. He could feel the blood pulsing through the veins,
could taste him, thick and heavy through the soap and jasmine. Achilles’ hands scrunched through
Patroclus’ hair and pulled him down, moaning unabashedly as Patroclus slid his way up the shaft.
Patroclus swirled his tongue around the width, bunching the material, and relished Achilles’
whimper, accompanied by a shortness of breath which meant that he was coming close. At that
point he dropped him from his mouth and Achilles stared at him accusingly.

“Not yet,” he said. “I’d like to hear you ask nicely for a change.”

“Oh you are such an arsehole,” Achilles grumbled discontentedly.

Patroclus frowned at him. “Unkind,” he said. “For that, I’m making you wait.”

Achilles had little chance to protest as Patroclus kissed him again, this time fiercely as he pressed
him back into the mattress, keeping a firm hand on his wrists but being very careful to avoid
brushing against his lower half. Skirting his tongue over Achilles’ bottom lip he bit down and
Achilles’ hips bucked again, desperate for friction. Patroclus jerked away, tutting disapprovingly.
Achilles tried to glare at him, but there was too much desperation in his voice for it to be
believable. “Patroclus,” he keened. “Please.”

Instead of replying, Patroclus shifted so that the fringes of his chiton grazed Achilles’ tip. He cried
out. “Please,” he whimpered. “Please, I need-” his pelvis quaked, finishing the sentence for him.

“So needy,” Patroclus said with mild reproof. “Is that you want, hm? To come in the dress we
spent so long picking out for you?”

“Fuck you,” muttered Achilles. “Yes.” There were tears beginning to prick at the corner of his eyes
and he grit his teeth against the strain of his weeping cock, seeping through the fabric still damp
from Patroclus’ mouth.

“Such impatience,” Patroclus chastised. Then, bending low next to Achilles’ ear he whispered.
“But then, you always were a little slut for me, weren’t you?”

Achilles made a noise that could have been of fury or of arousal, either way Patroclus found the
wind almost knocked from him as Achilles grabbed him by his shoulders and flung him down with
decidedly unmaidenly strength. Patroclus laughed even as his head hit the wall; Achilles’ eyes
were aflame, his mouth and cheeks flushed and swollen. Looking down, Patroclus saw that the top
of his dress had ripped so that the hard packing of muscle shone through the gape.

Achilles spread himself so that his legs were either side of Patroclus, who at last, offered him his
thigh. Achilles’ eyes rolled backwards, the lids falling closed as he began to grind up and down
Patroclus’ leg. Patroclus watched him, spellbound, his beautiful, red-smeared mouth open so
sweetly as he moaned against the aching relief. As his movements grew faster his breath came
quicker until he was panting and then suddenly, with an almighty lurch and a cry he came, dripping
through the dress against Patroclus’ thigh.

A few hasty jerks of Achilles’ fist and Patroclus came too, adding to the already sodden mess. For
 a few moments they clung to each other, breathing hard until their pulses had returned to normal.
Then, Achilles grabbed the hem of his dress, yanked it over his shoulders and hurled it viciously
across the room. Patroclus chucked satisfactorily as Achilles wrinkled his nose, eyeing the
shameful bundle with distaste.

Then he grabbed a cushion that was laying on the floor and hit Patroclus over the head with it.
“You’re a shit,” he announced.

Patroclus cackled mercilessly. Achilles spared him one evil look for the sake of his own self-
esteem before setting it aside to wrap his arms clingingly round Patroclus’ waist. Patroclus budged
up along the bed to give both of them more room before tucking his arm around Achilles’
shoulders and kissing the top of his untidy, golden head.

For a little while they lay in silence, Achilles’ head on Patroclus’ chest as he stroked his shoulder
idly with his thumb, both of them lost in their own thoughts. Then Achilles’ voice broke through
the calm, quiet and strangely insecure. “I don’t think that I can do this.”

“Sure you can,” replied Patroclus, twirling a loose strand of Achilles’ hair round his index. “I told
you before, you look enough like a girl even without all the stuff on.”

Achilles shook his head. “That’s not what I meant,” he said. “I meant…I don’t think I can be there.
Without you.”

He lifted his head to look at Patroclus, the sharp point of his chin digging into his torso. One look
at the honest clarity of his eyes and Patroclus felt the tears spring to his own as the feeling he had
been trying so hard to push away flooded through him. He pushed Achilles off him and slid off the
bed, shivering at the sudden coldness of the floor against his skin. Achilles propped himself up on
one elbow and watched him, his brow and mouth puckered.

“Where are you going?” he asked.

“Nowhere,” Patroclus blinked and tried to keep his voice steady. You’re the one that’s leaving.

Achilles frown deepened. He stood up and crossed over to where Patroclus stood trying not to look
at him and took his hands in his. They were warm, as if he had been holding a little ball of fire in
his palms. He raised them to his mouth and kissed them. Patroclus held his breath, watching
silently as Achilles straightened out each finger and touched them with his lips, as if bestowing a
blessing.

“There,” he said, dropping them finally. “A goodbye for each one.”

Patroclus released the shaky breath he had been holding in and Achilles wrapped his arms around
his torso, hugging him close. Patroclus pressed his fingertips into the skin of Achilles’ shoulder
blades, memorising how they lengthened and contracted under his touch. “I’m going to miss you so
much,” he whispered into his shoulder.

He could feel Achilles’ tears at the nape of his neck, warm like the rest of him. “You will see me
soon,” he promised. “There’s not a power in this world that can part us for long.”

Chapter End Notes

So I realise I sort of went from the sublime to the ridiculous with this one. This should
have a PWP tag.
But like, sex is important right? For…character development…and stuff? Yes. Sure.
Go on Scarlett, it’s fine.
Thanks as always for your incredible comments, this is the closest I’ve ever gotten to
writing kink so some reassurance while I go and wash the self-loathing from my body
would be gr8

and ma tumblr.
 Menoetius
Chapter Notes

The plot is back.

It’s a very hefty chapter this one, I do apologise. You will have to do a lot of wading
through political banter and clumsy economics and you know, just the kind of stuff
that’s super typical of slash fanfiction…

I truly am sorry.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

If Patroclus had though that he was going to miss Achilles, his fears were nothing compared to the
reality.

It had been much easier to pretend, lying in bed with him pressed against the curve of his arm, that
morning was never going to come. But it had and within hours that skipped by like minutes cut
short Achilles was back in Thetis’ room, donning a new dress and having his hair curled before
being accompanied by his mother and Patroclus to the harbour where two nereids and a ship were
waiting for him.

Achilles had taken one look at the ship and shaken his head. “I’m not going.”

Thetis rolled her eyes, a gesture that was so eerily familiar that in that moment, she reminded
Patroclus more of Achilles than the scarlet lipped person standing beside him. “Yes,” she’d said
through gritted teeth. “You are.”

Achilles pointed at Patroclus. “Then he’s coming with me.”

“Achilles,” Patroclus had begun but he was cut off by the knife slash of Thetis’ voice.

“We have been through this,” she’d hissed, eyes flashing dangerously. “The two of you are
infamous. Your disguise will be blown the moment you step off the boat and someone sees you
together. He cannot come with you. You will go to Skyros, and you will go alone.”

For a moment, Achilles looked as though he were going to argue. Instead his face sagged with the
appearance of acceptance and he flung his arms around Patroclus, almost knocking him backwards.
Out of the corner of his eye Patroclus saw the ship’s captain look away pointedly but Achilles
didn’t care; he hugged Patroclus so tight he thought his ribs would break and when he finally
released him his kohl-lined eyes were glistening with tears.

“You will come as soon as it is safe,” he ordered him. “And you will visit.”

Thetis made a coughing sound into her fist which sounded oddly like No. He won’t.

The message was not lost on Achilles whose face fell even further. It perked up, however, with a
new assertion. “And I’ll write every week,” he said decisively.
Thetis coughed again and Patroclus looked at her over Achilles’ shoulder to see her give an
infinitesimal shake of her head.

Patroclus managed a smile and they clasped hands, a firm, masculine gesture that was almost
brotherly before Achilles turned to climb onto the ship, his usual grace lost in the foreign tangle of
shawls and skirts and the nereids followed him, their faces still as a calm sea. He’d turned back to
wave and Patroclus had not stopped waving back until the ship was a long way out of port before
being finally swallowed up by the horizon.

Since then, Patroclus had felt little more than an echo. His days passed in a mechanical whir of
routine: get up, breakfast, lessons with Phoenix, break, training, dinner, bed with no sleep. For a
while he would try to sit up, talking with the other foster boys but it was never long before he gave
up the effort and retired to their room where he would lie on the bed, his hands clasped over his
chest, staring up at the ceiling and playing imaginary conversations over and over in his head.

It was times like these that he also missed Leptine more than ever. Whenever he needed a break
from playing or fighting with Achilles she would always be there, a mug of something hot in her
hands and a sympathetic smile on her face. Even just sitting and talking had lost its meaning as
every time he entered a conversation he would think about how Achilles would raise an eyebrow in
quizzical scepticism and reel something radical of his tongue as if it were poetry, or how Leptine
would nod in silent interest before politely offering another point of view. The days were longer
than ever and Patroclus drifted through them as if he were a ghost, wondering if this is how
Achilles had existed every day of his life before Patroclus had come to Phthia.

Just as no one quite existed for Patroclus anymore, for the most part he was largely ignored by the
residents of the palace. Patroclus suspected this might have something to do with Peleus, tearing
into his room two hours after Achilles’ ship slipped past the skyline, roaring with all the thunder of
the Olympian “WHERE IS HE? YOU KNOW, I KNOW YOU DO, TELL ME” before collapsing
in a crumpled heap, pressing streaming eyes into withered palms as a long low moan of loss echoed
off the silent stone. Since then, the king had acted as if Patroclus was not there, although Patroclus
supposed this was more to do with the painful reminder he served of Achilles’ absence, rather than
down to any sincere aversion.

A month passed, and then two. Patroclus only knew because the seasons were getting warmer
again and preparations for the Solstice were discussed in the village. Soon it will be Beltane, he
thought numbly and wondered idly if they celebrated it in Skyros, whether Achilles would go. It
would be the end of his disguise for sure but would Achilles pass up the opportunity, having
missed it last year?

These thoughts were exhausting and Patroclus let his head fall back against the bark of the Cyprus
tree he leant against, overlooking the sea. It was the tree Achilles had first came to him, die in
hand; Tesserae, he’d said. Do you want to play? He closed his eyes and listened to the rolling of
the waves onto the beach. He always fancied, that if he thought really hard, Achilles might hear
him.

A shadow drifted over his closed lids, blocking out the sun. He opened one eye a sliver and saw
Ampelius and nothing but Ampelius, his enormous width taking up most of the horizon. “Can I
help you?” he asked.

Ampelius reached up to scratch his chin, his hand disappearing beneath the mass of tangled beard.
“You missed training,” he said.

Anticipating an argument, Patroclus let his open eye fall shut. “Ah,” he breathed out slowly. “Yes.
I didn’t feel like it, you see.”
He felt rather than saw Ampelius grit his teeth, the rippling muscles of his arms flex. “You didn’t
feel like it,” he repeated.

Patroclus nodded. “That’s right.”

Ampelius released a very long, slow breath that ruffled his beard like a breeze drifting through
bracken. Risking a glance from beneath his eyelashes, Patroclus saw that he did not appear to be
furious. What’s more was that he was not yelling. This realisation was more disturbing than it was
reassuring and provoked him into looking Ampelius fully in the face as he waited for some kind of
explanation.

It came. Ampelius attempted to run a hand through the knots of his hair and Patroclus knew
immediately that something was wrong. “A message came for you,” he said at last. “I told the
messenger I would bring it to you directly. I thought you might want to hear it from someone you
knew.”

At once, Patroclus sat up straight. The first thing that had flashed into his mind was Achilles,
closely followed by Leptine. Then, catching the look on Ampelius’ face, he hoped severely it was
neither. His shoulders were slumped, his heavy head uncharacteristically downcast and his beetle
black eyes were solemn. Patroclus’ heart hammered against his chest as he pressed him. “What is
it?” he asked. “Tell me.”

Ampelius cleared his throat and hesitated, apparently searching for the right words. Patroclus
waited impatiently, his pulse leaping in his wrist as finally Ampelius spoke again. “There is no
easy way to say this,” he began. “Your father is very ill. In fact, he is dying. He has requested that
you come to him so that he may see you once before the end.”

He looked at Patroclus, and his expression was very frank under his wild, bushy brows. “Opus is a
long way,” he told him. “And there is not much time. I suggest you leave now.”

oOo

Opus. Patroclus had not heard the name, except as an accompaniment to his, for a long time.
Patroclus Menoitides of Opus, one-time prince and heir. A title without meaning. Patroclus had
disowned his family pretty soon after they had disowned him. Menoitides was less an expression of
kinship than a label, a means of picking a common name out of a crowd. He wasn’t quite sure
when he had stopped seeing himself as his father’s son, but he was fairly sure it was at least sixteen
years after Menoetius had ceased making the connection. As for Opus…it was a land he barely
remembered. It had never been his home in the way that Phthia had. And he had certainly never
known family before he’d left it.

Patroclus thought about this as he packed his bag. He was not bringing much as he did not plan on
staying long, just enough to see him through an anxious day before his father would finally call for
him and then one more out of politeness, to share in the house’s hospitality as was expected and to
see his mother. Then he would leave again, as soon as it was possible to do so without being rude.

A small wagon was waiting for him in the courtyard and a servant helped him load his things into
it. To his surprise Ampelius was also standing by the wheel and as Patroclus approached he saw
that he was looking gruffer and even more awkward than usual.

“What are you doing here?” Patroclus asked, frowning.

Ampelius cleared his throat again. “Well,” he said bad-temperedly. “As if we’d send you head-first
into a foreign country with nought but a scrawny youth for protection. What with bandits and
rustlers left right and centre, and Opus’ repute for piracy. Would have been very irresponsible.”

“You know, pirates keep to water, mostly,” Patroclus pointed out, gesturing towards the wagon.

Ampelius gave Patroclus his typical black look. “Enough of the back-chat boy,” he snarled. “I’m
coming with you whether you like it or not and there is very little sarcasm can do to change that.”

Too exhausted to argue, Patroclus shrugged indifferently. “Fine,” he said. “Try not to break
anything.”

Ampelius grumbled a response that Patroclus didn’t care to hear. He scrambled into the wagon
after Patroclus, the wooden planks and wheels creaking with the strain of his weight. Patroclus
almost suggested that he ride a horse alongside them if he was so intent on coming but, catching
sight of his curled lip and furious expression, thought better of it. He gave a word to the driver and
the wagon creaked reluctantly into movement; Ampelius leant back in his eat and promptly closed
his eyes, preparing to fall asleep. Patroclus turned to watch the palace grow further and further
away from him, saying a silent goodbye to the first place he had ever called home as the road
dipped and wavered, leading him back towards the land of his birth.

oOo

What with the addition of Ampelius and Patroclus’ luggage they made slow progress, giving
Patroclus ample opportunity to register spots he had passed on his way to Phthia, nearly two years
ago. It is always a very unsettling experience, going back the way one came, because the person
who is returning is never quite the same as the person who first arrived. For Patroclus, this was
especially true. The boy who had first come here, with his slight, skinny frame and skin pale from
lack of sun was so far removed from where he sat now it was slightly unsettling to think of him,
like looking back on a friend only half remembered.

“What are you thinking?” asked Ampelius suddenly from beneath the floppy hemp hat he had put
on to hide his eyes from the sun.

Patroclus tore his gaze from a brook that had seemed much bigger on the way up. “I’m thinking
about the last time I left Opus,” he replied.

Ampelius made a registering grunt. “So this should be a happy reunion,” he observed.

It was a mark of how well they knew each other that Patroclus heard the question. Patroclus sighed
and rubbed wearily at his eyes. “No,” he said shortly, after a long time.

For a similar while, Ampelius didn’t say anything and Patroclus thought he would let it go with his
usual trademark distaste for sentimental conversation. Then he said, “Well. Coming home is
always a sad thing, no matter which way you look at it.”

“I’m not coming home,” replied Patroclus bluntly. “And I’m not sad.”

He could feel Ampelius peering at him beadily from beneath the wide rim of his hat and he made
sure to be deeply invested in examining a stray length of wool from his cloak. “It’s like that, is it?”
said Ampelius finally. “With your father?”

“Yes,” deadpanned Patroclus.

Ampelius didn’t say anything. The wagon rumbled on and half an hour later, he was snoring again.

They had to camp overnight, sleeping in a small canvas tent barely big enough for one. The servant
had complained so much upon being forced to sleep next to Ampelius in the end he had been
banished outside where he lay, grumbling in his cloak and shivering melodramatically. In the
morning they made an early start, rising before Dawn had even put on her slippers and loading the
wagon up for the last stretch of road that would lead them to the Summer Country.

The first thing Patroclus saw of it was the wall. Menotius had built it when Patroclus was still a
child, to keep out foreigners. It had been enormous, circling the entire length of the kingdom and
interrupted only by sentries’ towers which were guarded night and day, armed and ready to shoot
anyone who looked the least bit “suspicious”. It had been one of Menoitius’ proudest achievements
as king and he often boasted about it when conversation was dry or he needed his ego stroking:
“Opus has never been attacked!” he would exclaim, banging his fist on a table for emphasis. “Not
once in all my years as king! Not from without, not from within and it’s my wall we have to thank
for it!”

Now however the wall was crumbling, standing at least a third of its original height. Patroclus and
Ampelius rode up to the gates where two guards stood, decked out in full armour as if ready to
spring into battle at a moment’s notice. As they approached their eyes narrowed instantly in
distrust and Patroclus felt a flicker of apprehension looking upon their unfriendly, wary faces.
Patroclus rummaged in his bag and withdrew a golden ring engraved with his father’s sigil which
he stuck out at the guards. The guards peered at it, nodded and let them in with ill grace.

The marketplace had been enormous and sprawling, so massive that they had had to extend the
boundaries of the city as the population and their businesses swelled. Moving through it was a
dangerous venture and he could not count the number of times he had been separated from his
mother by the bustling tides of commerce. But now there were barely twenty stalls, all selling
produce which looked thin and out of date. Similarly, so did the buyers and sellers, counting out
measly coins on gaunt palms, their faces pinched and sunken.

The people were all rags and tatters, shells of families rotted to nothing due to war or famine or
simple poverty. They collected in the shadow of the market, stretching out emaciated hands in
appeal to Patroclus and Ampelius, their voices hoarse with desperation and encroaching sickness.

“You’d find more cheer in a mausoleum,” Ampelius observed, looking with concern at a tiny
female child, her ribs poking through the holes of the raggedy dress she wore as she entreated
passers-by for charity.

The citadel was still as bright and gleaming as Patroclus remembered, although in some areas the
marble bore unmistakable signs of decay with black and green fungus creeping across the pearly
white stone. Upon reaching the palace steps Patroclus saw that there was an entourage of servants
standing in wait for them, at its head a young man who stood courteously with his hands behind
his back. They drew up and when Patroclus climbed out the carriage all the servants bowed low.

“Welcome home Prince Patroclus,” greeted the young man at the front. “It’s good to see you.”

“Likewise I’m sure,” replied Patroclus, handing the horses’ reigns to an awaiting attendant. “Who
are you?”

The young man smiled, emphasising the rosy apples of his cheeks. His skin was clear and youthful
and his eyes were bright with long lashes, glittering with humour and exaggerated by a thin line of
kohl beneath a mop of jet black curls. It did not escape Patroclus that he was exceptionally good-
looking.

“I’m Lysander,” he answered with a deferential bob of his head. “I’ll be your personal attendant
during your stay, if that’s alright.”
“That’s quite alright,” said Patroclus with a smirk. Behind him Amyntor looked as though he had
been forced to swallow poison.

“You’ll be tired after your journey,” Lysander commented perceptively. “And hungry too, I
imagine. I’ll sort both things out for you, if you’ll follow me.”

Patroclus nodded gratefully and together they followed Lysander up the steps and into the palace.
Once inside, Patroclus felt himself gasp. He had completely forgotten the sheer size and grandeur
of his previous home. It was at least twice that of the palace of Phthia and where most of it there
was built from cheap marble and roughhewn stone, here was a feat of glamour and style. The floor
of the foyer was an enormous mosaic, depicting Perseus’ slaying of the Gorgon Medusa, and the
snakes of her hair twisted into each corner of the room in an elaborate knot of shining glass. The
walls were taken up with murals of the Gods, their weapons and instruments set with real gold leaf
while their beauty shone in incredible colours. Meanwhile, pillars of brick red marble flanked
either side of the room, supporting an azure ceiling, gleaming with lapis lazuli like the vault of
Heaven.

Lysander stopped by a statue of Hercules, slinking an arm casually round the burly man’s
shoulders as he pointed up the stairs behind him.

“Bathroom’s that way,” he said off-handedly. “We’ve got some really pretty attendants here,
they’ll respond to your every need, if you catch my not-so-subtle drift.”

“Thank you,” cringed Patroclus. “But that won’t be necessary.”

Ampelius made a sudden coughing noise that sounded oddly like “Speak for yourself!” Ignoring
him, Lysander raised an eyebrow quizzically. “We also have boys if you prefer?”

“No, no,” Patroclus insisted hurriedly. “Very generous…thanks…but I really am all set on that
front.”

Lysander’s full lipped mouth curved into a smirk as he looked Patroclus up and down. “I’ll bet,” he
said and Patroclus was quite unsure how to respond to that. Ampelius apparently had it all figured
out however as he promptly dissolved into a fierce and sudden coughing fit.

After a long bath enriched with expensive oils he had never even heard of before, as well as a
generously laden tray of meats, Patroclus emerged feeling like a new person. Drying the last
remnants of travel off his skin he slipped into the warm, soft robe provided for him and thought
about the upcoming hours. He had never thought being back would be so strange. Then again, he
had never really thought about being back. In a way, his life had ended with his banishment from
Opus and begun again in Phthia. The Patroclus of this world had died a long time ago and now,
being here again, eating the food he used to eat, was sort of like staring at his own name on an urn.

Lysander was waiting for him in the guest room and he was not alone. Beside him stood a woman
and Patroclus did not need her to turn around and, with a strangled exclamation rush towards him to
know who it was.

“Patroclus!” she cried through a wrangled sob. “Oh my son, my boy, my boy!”

Patroclus’ mother through her arms around him and promptly burst into tears, dampening the collar
of his new robe. Patroclus hugged her, patting her on the back rather awkwardly. She released him
only to grab his face and pepper his cheeks with kisses.

“You’ve come back to us!” she exclaimed, bottom lip wavering. “Oh my son, I thought I’d never
see the day. How big you are! Like a young Titan! Isn’t he huge, Lysander?”

“Massive,” replied Lysander, with a painfully straight face. Patroclus glowered at him.

“Come,” his mother swept to the couch and patted the space next to her. “We have so much to
catch up on! Tell me everything. Are they treating you well? They’re obviously feeding you
enough. What about your friends? Do you have a sweetheart? Is she here? When can I meet her?”

Patroclus allowed his mother to ramble on, persisting in asking a long stream of questions that fell
into each other and not seeming very much bothered by the answers. He did not have to say much,
only nodded and smiled while she chattered on about the obstinacy of peasants, the hike in wool
prices, his father’s declining health, Helen of Sparta’s wedding dress. As she talked and talked,
occasionally stopping to pat Patroclus’ hand with her own or to flash him a blissful smile, Patroclus
had the impression that she was trying to claim something back, cramming years of separation and
lost time into the space of five minutes.

Finally she paused to draw breath and Patroclus took this opportunity to ask a question of his own.
“Mother,” he began. “I couldn’t help but notice, on my way in, Opus seemed …changed. Have you
fallen on hard times here?”

Over in the corner, Lysander fidgeted visibly. His mother hesitated before answering in her usual
airy way: “Well…it has been two years now. It’s hardly unusual that things should seem a little
different! But yes, I suppose you could say it has been somewhat challenging…you know the
damage a bad harvest can cause…and then your father had a little trouble borrowing money from
some merchants…”

“He’s run it into the ground, hasn’t he?” said Patroclus dryly.

His mother looked shocked by the suggestion. “He has not,” she said, bristling indignantly.
“Alright, maybe the coffers aren’t quite as tight as they used to be. But we have the new stadium to
show for it! You must come and watch the games while you’re here, my son. There’s still not a
kingdom in Arcadia that can put on a show like Opus! Only last week the King of Crete was here,
lovely man, and he said-”

She had begun to babble again but Patroclus only half registered what she was saying. He was
thinking back to Council meetings in Phthia, Phoenix discussing letters addressed from King
Menoetius asking for yet more money, the lords laughing, saying if Opus was short of gold it
could always melt down its stables. At the time Patroclus had paid little attention – Opus’
reputation for showing off was infamous and he had dismissed the exchange as a banterous dig
between competing nations. Now he realised the joke had been no less than a statement of fact.

As these thoughts mulled in his mind he looked up and realised that Lysander wasn’t quite meeting
his gaze.

oOo

Time dragged on. The little water clock on the corner table measured Patroclus’ growing anxiety
which each splash of liquid. His mother had now exhausted every angle of conversation and sat
perched on the couch, chewing her fingernails anxiously. Patroclus had to resist the urge to do the
same. He had never been more fully aware of the reason for this visit since setting foot in the
palace as when they all sat there in silent anticipation, waiting for the moment when a servant
would enter and tell Patroclus that his father would see him now.

Finally, the messenger appeared at the door. Patroclus sprung to his feet and his mother reached up
to put a hand on his shoulder. There was a few seconds of held breath, as if preparing for a dive as
the messenger locked eyes with Patroclus. “The king requests your presence.”

Patroclus’ mother stood up, hugged him to her and kissed him hard on the cheek. “Good luck!” she
chimed. “Do try not to make him angry. He is in such a sulky mood, these days. ”

Patroclus plucked his mother’s arms from around his neck and followed the messenger out the
room. Ampelius was waiting by the door having just finished his bath. He caught Patroclus’ eye
and held it before delivering a slight nod. He didn’t say anything, and didn’t need to. Patroclus
managed to nod back, it felt like a tremendous effort.

Menoetius’ room was huge. Everything was plum velvet and cloth of gold, winding from wall to
wall, the colours of an old bruise. Patroclus approached the bed warily. The human inside, if that
was what he was, appeared to be sleeping. Patroclus looked down and studied that face, a face he
hadn’t seen in two years. Nothing could have prepared Patroclus for the change that greeted him; it
was nearly unrecognisable from the image he’d held in his memory.

When Patroclus had known him, his father had been a thickset, sturdy man with the neck and
shoulders of a furious, prize bull. Everything about him had screamed strength and domination,
from the bulk of muscles in his arms and torso to his large, square head and jaw like a battering
ram. Now, Patroclus was staring into a face that was pale, emaciated. The ruddy cheeks were gaunt
hollows, shadows that were merely the suggestion of cheeks. His eyes were sunk deep in his skull
and surrounded by a purplish stain that bled into yellow, like a fruit that was rotting. His thick,
luxurious black locks and beard were gone to be replaced by a few straggling hairs that looked
more like cobwebs, draped across a dusty skeleton.

Then the skeleton opened one eye and Patroclus nearly jumped out of his skin. The jolt of fear
passed however as exasperation took over upon the budding realisation: Menoetius had only been
pretending to be asleep.

“Oh good,” the corpse croaked. “Just when I thought death couldn’t get any worse.”

And just like that, Patroclus was twelve years old.

“Hello father,” he said and tried not to let the hatred he had spent so long keeping down rise into
his voice. “How are you feeling?”

“Oh is that what we’re doing?” Menoetius coughed. “Father and son now, is it? Very well, very
well. I will play along. And how is my son getting on in his new land, servant to the king of a
country so far from his own?”

Anger bristled, sharp and hot. “You banished me,” hissed Patroclus indignantly.

Menoetius nodded, leaving barely an indentation against the pillow. “That I did,” he agreed. “Best
decision I ever made.”

He began to cough, horrible, rasping and full of phlegm. Patroclus turned to fill the goblet on his
bedside table with water and passed it to Menoetius who accepted it without thanks. He drank it
noisily, draining it to its last dregs before flinging it away.

“So,” he said, settling back into his cushions, his skinny chicken neck bobbing as he sunk.
“Rumours abound.” He fixed Patroclus with his most intent gaze, the one that Patroclus always had
trouble holding. He forced himself not to look away. “Apparently you are quite the hero now,” he
continued. “One can scarcely receive a soul without hearing tell of the Mighty Menoitides and his
adventures, battling the forces of evil and injustice and whatnot. I couldn’t believe it when I first
heard. My son? A hero? But perhaps they have lower standards in the North.”

“Or perhaps,” Patroclus suggested, fired up with suppressing his anger up to this point. “It did me
some good to get away from you.”

Menoetius nodded in absent-minded agreement. “Perhaps,” he said. “A decision of some mutual

benefit. I could not stand to have you another moment in my sight. Embarrassment. The word was
made to fit you. Your bludgeoning of that poor boy gave me all the excuse I needed to have the
shame of you gone from my conscience once and for all.”

Patroclus said nothing. Menoetius folded his spidery hands over his chest and, sighing, looked up
at the canopy of his bed. “Weak,” he exhaled. “That’s what you were. So many times I wondered
how this…this rabbit could be any son of mine. To this day I have my doubts, but I have no other
and appearances must be kept up. But why couldn’t you have at least acted my son, why couldn’t
you have played the part?”

“I tried to,” Patroclus said through gritted teeth. He was shaking now. “In between beatings, I did
try.”

Menoetius gave him a scathing look. “I did what any father would have done, under the
circumstances. You think I got where I am today by my father playing nursemaid? You’ll thank
me for it one day, if I ever managed to knock a little strength into you. Although clearly I didn’t
knock quite hard enough if some of these other rumours are true.”

His eyes, pale and already clouded with impending death narrowed. Patroclus resisted the urge to
look at his feet, forcing himself to meet that dark, condemning stare with all its black malice. “I
always knew there was something off about you,” he croaked. “Some…abnormality. Perhaps
that’s why I hit quite so hard. Of course, it makes sense that my only lasting legacy should be such
ignominy. The Gods need their fun, like the rest of us.”

“Is this what you summoned me here for?” Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “Because honestly, I have
better things to do than listen to this, and I’d rather not take up any more of your last moments.”

Menoetius glared at Patroclus for a few moments, his pale, scabby lips curled in a snarl of loathing,
revealing yellowed teeth. Then, finally he spoke again. “If I thought seeing you before the end
would save me,” he began. “I would not do it. As it happens, you are here in the name of a cause
much greater than the wishes of a dying man.”

Patroclus frowned as Menoetius began to cough again, he suspected more for dramatic effect than
anything else. He waited patiently, trying not to seem too interested despite his intrigue. At last,
after another sip of water, Menoetius continued. “I am talking, of course, about Opus,” he said.
“The kingdom needs an heir and, regrettably for the both of us, you are my only son.”

There was a hint of a smile in the look he gave Patroclus then, all sharp lines and barely suppressed
cruelty. Patroclus stood stock still as the words registered. Suddenly, he realised with almost
painful clarity, exactly what he was here for.

“But I am disowned,” he whispered, scarcely believing his own words. “How can I be heir if I’m
disowned?”

“Desperate times call for desperate measures,” Menoetius waved dismissively. “The Council will
make provision. And, as you have no doubt seen already, these are desperate times indeed.”
He began to laugh, a desperate, slightly crazed thing. Patroclus paid little heed. His legs felt weak
and all he could really think of right now was how badly he needed to sit down. And then,
unbidden into his mind came a snatching of memory, as if from a partly forgotten dream: …you
will become a great king of legend, such as Arcadia has never known and shall not again for a
thousand years. Could it be that the old Thessalian crone had spoken true?

“But I don’t want to be king,” gabbled Patroclus automatically, and the second he spoke the words
he wondered if this was a lie.

Menoetius shrugged against the pillows. “Means very little to me,” he said indifferently. “There is
another, your mother’s nephew, Eugenios. He has a fine army, with many numbers at his
command. But he is brash, hot-headed, and little versed in the ways of government. If I am to leave
the kingdom in his hands Opus will be dust in a matter of months.”

He turned his head to look at Patroclus, waiting for his action. But Patroclus just stared dumbly,
unseeingly, unable to quite comprehend what he was hearing. A chance to be king…the thought
was ludicrous. And yet here it was being offered to him, on a silver plate no less.

Seeing the shock on his face, Menoeitus cackled. “Don’t worry boy,” he said. “You were a
disappointment to me in life. You can hardly be much more in death.”

“I don’t care what I am to you,” replied Patroclus suddenly. “In life, or death. I would have been a
better son to you, if you had been some sort of a father to me. The only thing I have to thank you
for is for sending me away; I would never have known happiness had you not. But now I have
nothing more to say to you. Goodbye, father. Gods keep you and forgive you, as I do.”

He reached down to brush the pale, withered hand with his lips. Menoetius turned away so
Patroclus could not see whether the look on his face was pain or disgust. And with that, Patroclus
straightened up. He looked on his father one last time, and wished him well. Then, he left the
room.

oOo

“Well, here it is!” Patroclus’ mother exclaimed. “Take a look at that!”

Patroclus squinted to avoid being blinded by the sunlight. They were standing at the foot of a
colossal stadium. Built from concrete and sand, it stretched almost from one side of the city wall to
the centre, dwarfing every other building in its vicinity. It was a triumph of building and
architecture, comprised of multi stories and elaborate archways, each one individually carved with
scenes from history and mythology. Patroclus had to crane his neck to see up to the very top where
a marble Ares perched, the point of his sword glinting in the afternoon sun.

“It is the jewel of the kingdom,” his mother continued proudly. “Our pride and joy. It took nearly
30,000 slaves to build and five hundred shipments of gold!”

“Five hundred shipments,” Patroclus whispered shakily. The stadium winked at him in the
brightness, the buttresses smirking as if to say: And 30,000 slaves. Did you hear her? My roof
alone took a thousand!

“Of course, we don’t use it nearly so often as we did in the early days,” his mother was saying.
“Only for the occasional spectacle, or when a guest of real importance comes to visit. Most of the
time it simply stands as an empty landmark, which is a shame really. But what do you think?”

She was beaming at him, her face aglow with the light bouncing off the concrete walls of the
stadium. A few feet away Lynsander was looking on, watching his face carefully for Patroclus’
reaction. Patroclus looked up at the stadium. He looked at his mother. He looked at the stadium
again.

“What do I think,” he repeated slowly. “I think you spent five hundred shipments of tax payer gold
on a slab of empty rock.”

He snatched his gaze from the stadium to stare at his mother, eyes blazing. Even in his father’s
room he could not remember feeling so angry. The fury pumped through his veins like battery
acid; he curled his fingers into fists and kept them rigid by his side so as to stop them from
shaking.

“People are dying,” he stuttered through gritted teeth. “You walk in and you see poverty and
starvation. And you people are prepared to spend money on this…this nonsense?”

He waved fiercely at the offending landmark. His mother blinked bewilderedly at him. He was so
angry he wanted to shake her.

“You people have no idea, do you?” he lashed out. “What it feels like to be hungry, or desperate.
And here you are flinging money on something so stupid and pointless…no wonder this place is
decaying if these are your priorities!”

Patroclus’ mother opened her mouth and closed it again, although no sound came out. She looked
as though he had struck her. With a noise of frustration Patroclus whirled away from her and jerked
a finger at Lysander.

“You,” he said. “Show me the palace finances.”

oOo

The chief almoner was away on business so it was easy for Lysander to sneak him into the
Treasury room. No sooner had he entered the room did Patroclus proceed to rifle through all the
records of finance, scanning each document with growing horror and rage.

“What the fuck is this?” Patroclus demanded, holding up a scroll which detailed the receipt for five
hundred ice sculptures. “What the actual fuck is this?”

“Celebrations for the Queen’s anniversary,” replied Lysander with a wry twist of his lip.

“Anniversary for what?” Patroclus growled. “Please, tell me, what kind of anniversary warrants
the spending of one hundred gold caskets on something that fucking melts?!”

Patroclus threw the scroll to one side, so forcefully it nearly ripped in two. Lysander scratched the
back of his head, shrugging ruefully. “Your father strongly believed in the policy of ‘useful
splendour’,” he explained slowly. “It is a strategy favoured by many potentates whereby the
appearance of wealth will, in its time, generate it…”

Patroclus stared at him. His lips were pale when he spoke. “The appearance of wealth?” he
repeated, voice shaking with anger. “In its time??

He snatched up another scroll. Patroclus’ eyes darted across the page before this too was slammed
onto the table. “Why don’t the lords pay tax?”

Lysander’s smile was darkly cynical. “Because they’re lords.”

Patroclus dropped his head into his hands.

“Tell me,” he said, voice muffled by his palms. “Do you people have any basic economic
understanding whatsoever? Who are the people who actually have the money? And yet, this
government is squeezing every peasant for all that they’re worth, and throwing their livelihood
away…on ice sculptures.”

He tossed the scroll across the room in disgust. Lysander sidestepped it neatly, his expression both
apologetic and amused. He spread his palms in a gesture of hopelessness.

“This is what’s been happening,” Lysander shrugged. “For the past…well…since your father has
been king, basically. It’s gotten worse over the past couple of years, with his health in decline. His
councillors are falling over each other to please him, carrying out his every dying whim in the hope
that they’ll be rewarded in his will. Last week, he ordered for a forty foot statue of himself to be
put up in the agora. The plans are in process as we speak.”

Patroclus was saved from spitting a truly savage reply as at that moment, the door burst open
revealing the chief almoner. He was a thin, stooped man with a pinched face and would have been
decidedly unthreatening if he had not also been flanked by two armed guards.

“What in Gods’ name are you doing?” he hissed.

Patroclus however was undeterred. Leaping to his feet, he snatched up the fallen records and
shoved them in the almoner’s shocked, uncomprehending face. “I could bloody well ask you the
same thing!” he snarled. “Why don’t the lords pay any tax? And why do the merchants pay so
little? Why do you think it’s a good idea for the burden of the toll to fall on people who don’t have
any money?”

The almoner’s eyes bulged as he struggled to take in everything Patroclus was shaking in front of
him. “The merchants give us discounts,” he managed to stutter.

Patroclus swore loudly, stepping away from the almoner who looked relieved. He dropped the
scroll on the desk and marched towards the door, flinging a command to Lysander over his
shoulder. “Come on.”

“Where are we going?” asked Lysander, hurrying to follow him.

“To have a little look at my kingdom,” replied Patroclus curtly.

They took the wagon. Ampelius, who was currently being entertained in true Opeasian fashion,
was not in any fit state to care as Patroclus and Lysander harnessed the reigns and set off from the
palace. Soon they had left the citadel far behind them, rolling along dusty roads after carts and
trading coaches into the surrounding countryside. Despite all Patroclus had heard of last year’s
terrible harvest the scenery was green and fragrant as it had always been when he had lived here,
the air sweet and ripe with fig and olive. He was in little mood to enjoy it however as he sat,
simmering, in the seat beside Lysander.

It was worse than he’d thought. Every village they visited was the same; ramshackle, decaying and
stricken with poverty. Whenever they stopped and climbed out the wagon they were hit instantly
by the smell of desperation, unique to areas that have fallen upon the hardest of times; that of
rotting vegetables and bodies failing from the inside out and the warm sweat of sickness. The
people were very thin, the children indistinguishable from the skinny, dirt-coloured dogs that hung
around houses where sick people lay in appalling anticipation. They looked at Patroclus and
Lysander with dead eyes, their skin papery and hanging off their bones like canvas bags.
Patroclus strode up to various villagers whom, naturally suspicious as they were, were not
immediately inclined to talk to him. He soon learned however that there was no school nearby, and
not one in a hundred could read or write. He discovered also that the nearest hospital was in the
citadel, the closest thing they had to a healer being a local wise woman. After conducting his
investigation, fuming, Patroclus marched away so that they would not see the look on his face.

“What’s the matter?” asked Lysander with a raised eyebrow. “Not what you expected?”

Patroclus whirled around, gesturing aggressively and the stick and mud homes behind him. “This,”
he said. “Is a joke.”

Lysander nodded from where he perched casually from a fence. “Gets less funny with every year
you have to live with it.”

There was something in his voice, some bitterness behind the derisive humour that made Patroclus
join him on the fence. He frowned at him, concerned. “Did something happen to you?”

Lysander shrugged as if to convey that it wasn’t a big deal, and failed miserably. “My mother died
a couple of springs back,” he replied frankly. “She was really ill but with the king’s new tariff my
family couldn’t afford food, or medicine. I got the job at the palace to try and help but it made no
difference. She starved to death before the disease did its work.”

Patroclus’ felt throat very dry. “I’m sorry,” was the only think he could say.

“It’s just one story among many,” said Lysander. “You ask half these people and they’ll tell you
the exact same tale. I’ve got it much better than most of them.”

They sat together in silence for a while, watching an old woman chase a couple of scanty, loose
chickens into her yard. Patroclus was thinking. Now that his anger had simmered down the gears in
his head were starting to turn, as they always did whenever he thought he might have an idea. From
beneath his eyelashes Lysander was watching him, he could hear his quiet breathing and the
anxious flutter of his heartbeat.

“I can fix this,” said Patroclus suddenly.

Lysander looked sceptical. “How?”

“Have you not seen the palace?” Patroclus queried. “The finances make out the problems are due
to a lack of funds which is bullshit, obviously. The money is there, right there in front of us. All we
need to do is save it, before any more gets spent on ice. First port of call: get the lords paying tax.”

“You mean,” Lysander frowned. “A complete overhaul of the rigorous elitist system we’ve had in
place for over a hundred years, at the risk of fiercely upsetting the only people who have power,
not to mention the military, a traditionally conservative institution who will not take kindly
intervention from a ‘foreign’ ruler?”

Patroclus considered. “Pretty much,” he replied.

Lysander’s smile was wicked. “I love it.”

Patroclus chuckled and together they climbed back into the wagon, hitching the reigns to make
their way back to the citadel.

“The only problem is,” said Patroclus. “I won’t be here to see it through.”
“I guess you’ll just have to stay here forever then,” Lysander quipped. “What a shame.”

Incredulous, Patroclus raised an eyebrow at him. “Are you flirting with me?”

“Have been since you arrived, but thanks for noticing,” replied Lysander.

Surprised, but secretly very flattered, Patroclus thought it best to say nothing.

oOo

Once they had arrived back at the palace, Patroclus called an urgent meeting with all the king’s
financial advisors. Whilst they were singularly unhappy about being ordered around by a teenage
boy, and one who had spent the past two years in another country at that, Patroclus’ general
attitude was such that to say no would have taken a very brave man indeed.

“First port of call,” Patroclus announced, ignoring the several disgruntled faces. “Get the lords
paying their fair share. The fact that they don’t is an absolute outrage of stupidity. Secondly we
need to increase tax on those who can afford it, like the wealthier merchants. So you’ll have to give
up your discount, I’m sure you’ll all live. There’s going to have to be a lot of cuts to palace
spending as it is; no more needless festivals, no more parties, no more weekly hunts-”

“-But I live for my weekly hunt!” one of the advisors burst out. “It’s the only good thing left in my
life!”

Lysander’s cough sounded mysteriously similar to the word ‘hunt’.

“We also need to increase tax on luxury goods,” Patroclus added.

The lords looked at each other, nonplussed. “Like…grain?”

“NO NOT LIKE GRAIN!” Patroclus resisted the urge to pull out his own hair. “GRAIN IS THE
OPPOSITE OF A LUXURY GOOD, DO NOT INCREASE TAX ON GRAIN!”

“We could put a tax on silk,” someone suggested. “It’s expensive and out of fashion, currently.”

“Yes,” Patroclus snapped his fingers in relief. “Yes, that’s it, good thinking. A tax on silk. And
ivory. And oysters.”

“I don’t like oysters anyway,” said another and there was a rumble of agreement.

“The money will go into the building of a new school in every village,” Patroclus continued. “And
a hospital. They will have to be regularly funded and looked after. There should also be a new
policy put in place, making it a law for children to actually go to school.”

“They won’t go,” the almoner shook his head. “Their parents need them to work the fields, or they
will make less.”

Patroclus considered. “Alright,” he said at last. “We pay them. A silver for every missed day’s
work. We can use the money we get from turning the stadium into a tourist attraction.”

Several people’s eyes bulged. “You mean to say,” one of the advisors began in a voice of hushed
shock. “You want to fill our pride and joy with…with…foreigners?”

Patroclus nodded. “Yep,” he agreed. “Of course, we’ll have to take down the wall. It does look
decidedly antisocial.”
oOo

Patroclus penned down his ideas, drawing them up into a singular document, mostly for the benefit
of the advisors who still had some trouble with words like “budget” and “commodity”. He then left
them to argue about it while he left the room, craving some respite from the unforgiving day with
Lysander following behind him.

“That went well I thought,” Lysander said as they made their way to the courtyard.

Patroclus made a non-committal sound. Possibly recognising, after Patroclus’ rather aggressive
ministrations, how bad things actually were, they had not dismissed his plans out of hand. But
Patroclus knew that without him there to oversee them his policies were just empty words. He
carried no authority as he was now, just another competitor for the throne, caught in political limbo
while Menoetius still breathed.

“It will all fall through,” he sighed wearily, confessing as much as Lysander. “Give it a month,
everything discussed in that room will be little more than a memory and Opus will be knee deep in
rubble.”

Lysander looked pained for a moment before his expression became hopeful. “That’s why we need
you,” he said resolutely. “You’re the only one who can make this happen. It’s got to be you.”

Patroclus sighed again, running a hand through his hair. If he was being honest with himself, the
policies he had thought of today were only the tip of the iceberg. Once he had the budget balanced
and the coffers had a steady source of income, he had several projects he wanted to start work on: a
hospital, where the most brilliant minds from over the world could come and debate the latest
medical practices, a university and a library, the greatest in the known world. Such wonders would
draw visitors far and wide and their coin would fund the markets and small businesses, making the
country rich again. And he hadn’t even started on his desire to end slavery…

He was aware of Lysander watching him and he instantly became embarrassed. “I’m not qualified
to run a kingdom,” he shook his head bashfully. “It’s easy to sit and shout at people but when it
comes down to it, I’d probably make an even bigger mess of things.”

“You can’t make an even bigger mess of things,” replied Lysander, wrinkling his nose.

“I’d manage,” Patroclus laughed. “Anyway, there’s something else. I don’t think I could live in
Opus. Meaning…I don’t think I could leave Phthia.”

Lysander frowned and then his eyes widened with understanding, his mouth making a little “o”
shape as his expression cleared. “Not a something else,” he said. “But a someone else. Right?”

Patroclus felt his cheeks grow warm but could not hide the smile nudging them at the observation.
“Is it that obvious?”

Lysander nodded, smiling sympathetically. “A little,” he admitted. “Oh well. That sucks.”

“I’m really sorry,” said Patroclus truthfully. “If it wasn’t the case, I’d totally have been…you
know. Up for it.”

Lysander’s smile broadened but he waved dismissively. “Nah, it’s fine,” he replied. “But for what
it’s worth, I think you should stay. I think you could do a lot of good here, and I think these people
need you. I’ve only just met you and already I get the feeling that you’re the only one who can turn
this around. And I’m not just saying that because you’re attractive.”
 Patroclus chuckled but it was an empty sound, to hide the burgeoning temptation in his head. He
could do this, he knew he could. Opus needed him as king, and what’s more, he wanted to be
Opus’ king. Speaking in front of those advisors had made him feel powerful for the first time, as if
he could really make a difference in this world. But Achilles…how much would it mean without
him? The terrifying thing was that he didn’t know.

“Please just think about it,” finished Lysander.

They had reached the main gates. Ampelius and the servant was waiting for him beside the wagon,
both of them looking as though they had sampled all Opus had to offer and were now itching to go
home. Patroclus released the breath he had been holding in.

“I’ll think about it,” he promised, and offered Lysander his hand.

Lysander shook it warmly. “That someone else,” he said. “Is a very lucky person. I hope they’re
worth it.”

Patroclus thought about Achilles, tripping over the hem of his skirt as he climbed aboard the boat.
“Oh, he is.”

They said their goodbyes and then Patroclus turned to go. Just as he was about to climb into the
wagon however, he was knocked back by something hurtling towards him with all the force of a
catapult.

“You’re leaving?” his mother cried. “How could you? You’ve only just arrived! And we have the
games and the feast…they’re all being held in your honour!”

And suddenly, Patroclus found he had very little time for her.

“Cancel it,” he stated abruptly. “Give the food to the poor, the people who actually need it. If you’d
had any sense whatsoever that’s what you’d have been doing for the past two years, instead of
hankering on the every need of a dying bastard. You could have been a force of change in this
place, you had the power. But instead you just blocked your ears and soaked up your luxury.
Instead, you let my father beat this place. Just like you let him beat me.”

He turned away from her and, ignoring the alarmed, incredulous stares that were on him, climbed
into the seat beside Ampelius. “Goodbye mother,” he said bluntly and looked away before he
could see the tears spring to her eyes.

Ampelius lifted the reigns. The gates sprung open and the wagon rolled out of them, down the
dusty road and away from the citadel, the scrape of the thin wheels on dirt marking the distance
between them and the Summer Country. By the time Patroclus thought it safe to look behind him,
the wall was so far away it seemed no more than the gleam of a silver ribbon in the sunlight. He
felt something clench with his heart and he turned back round.

“You should consider it, you know,” said Ampelius suddenly. “Coming back. Being king.”

Patroclus said nothing.

Chapter End Notes

Achilles is back next chapter, never fear. Actually do fear, fear quite a lot because
guess who he’s with…

Give me abuse for my crappy updating skills here.

 Deidamia
Chapter Notes

It's alive!!
Ok, I did a thing in this chapter and a quick note before you plunge full steam ahead.
In Miller's version, and in mythology, I see Deidamia as a very sad character, rather
than the harpyish villain a lot of people make her out to be. I think she, as Thetis does,
represents those left behind after the men have gone to war; the mothers, the wives,
the pregnant women who do not know if the one they've put their lot with will ever be
coming back, or if they ever even loved them as much as their own egos or dreams of
a futile glory.
BUT I had to do a thing, and I have reasons for it, which I will explain at the end. I've
done Deidamia a great disservice in this story but please try and separate my rendition
of her from Miller's and from the character of mythology.

See the end of the chapter for more notes

Achilles did not visit and Patroclus did not receive any letters. Due to Thetis’ ministrations on the
day of his departure, Patroclus had not expected either. A lady in waiting with enough money and
privilege to hop on a boat to visit her family at every opportunity would raise suspicion, and letters
were too easily intercepted. The risk was too great, Thetis had said, and Patroclus agreed with her,
although privately he’d harvested a secret hope that Achilles would fly in the face of danger and
break the rules maybe once or twice. Achilles however was clearly bent on toeing the line, an
event so rare that Patroclus could not exactly condemn him for it, and no letters were sent. As a
result, Patroclus was forced to wait out the long, empty months of Achilles’ absence without so
much as a single word.

Which made it even harder when he received the news.

It wasn’t like the other times. There was no gruff-faced Ampelius to soften the blow, no messenger
come to address him direct. Patroclus had been in one of the palace’s empty sitting rooms, reading
about the history of the Peloponnesian wars when he had heard what sounded like a stampede of
footfalls outside the door. Opening it he was nearly buffeted by the surge of lords and advisors,
charging down the hall with their tablets clattering against their thighs and the tails of their tunics
flapping like winged colts. Patroclus stared at them, astounded as they rushed past, and was just
able to catch Phoenix by the sleeve.

“What’s happening?” he asked. “Where are you all going?”

Instead of answering straight away, Phoenix gave Patroclus a long, searching look. It was full of
heaviness and melancholy and it was this that let Patroclus know straightaway that whatever it
was, it wasn’t good.

“Yes, I suppose you ought to come too, Patroclus,” he said at last.

Bewildered, Patroclus followed him with a thousand questions exploding in his mind. It soon
became obvious that the lords were heading towards the Great Hall; Patroclus wondered what
Peleus could possibly have to say that would make them all react like this. At his side, Phoenix was
looking very grim, his lined mouth drawn uncharacteristically severe, and Patroclus was struck
again by the understanding that this could be nothing to celebrate.

This was further confirmed by the fact that, upon entering the Hall, he saw that Peleus was not
sitting in his chair. Rather he was walking up and down the dias, clearly in a great state of distress.
At his elbows advisors were trying to urge him into sitting down but he kept shaking them off,
wringing his withered hands together or else running them through his mane of silvery hair.

When Patroclus walked in, he looked up. Their eyes met and it seemed that Peleus’ were filled with
pain, although whether it was his own Patroclus couldn’t say. Then he tore his gaze away and
slumped at last into his chair, his head in his hands.

“My lord, we must act quickly,” Acastus was telling him imperatively. “They are braying for
compensation as we speak. It won’t be long before it will be bronze, not gold, that they’ll want to
deal in.”

War talk? Patroclus glanced questioningly up at Phoenix who was staring fixedly ahead of him.
Surely Phthia could not be facing another battle. Patroclus wracked his brains for any other states
that could possibly pose a threat but he could think of none apart from Mycenae, and Agamemnon
was too busy scowling the earth for warriors to bother about their little kingdom.

“But such a match,” Cleitus was scowling. “There is no way Phthia can come out of this better off.
What do Skyros have to gain? Marriage to Arcadia’s greatest son. Status. Renown. A considerable
dowry. In other words, everything. And what does Phthia get out of it? A decaying hovel, drained
of all wealth and resource, propped up by a dying king and a slut freshly swollen with bastard.”

Marriage to Arcadia’s greatest son. Skryos. No. All at once Patroclus felt very faint. His knees
quaked beneath him, he flung out an arm to the wall to stabilise himself. Phoenix glanced at him
sharply before discreetly offering his arm.

They were still talking, although Patroclus could barely hear anything over the roaring in his ears.
“It is not a matter of negotiation,” Peleus was saying. “What’s done is done. The evidence is all
before us.”

“But is it?” implored Cleitus. “How do we even know it’s his son? It could be anyone’s.”

Oh my Gods. Patroclus felt himself slip a little lower.

“How else do you explain how they…found him?” asked Acastus through gritted teeth.

No one said anything. Clearly the discovery of Achilles disguised as a woman was still raw. For
Patroclus, only two things had registered. He’s been caught…it’s his son…he’s been caught…it’s
his son…he’s been caught…it’s his son…

“The girl swears it’s his,” Phoenix spoke up. Patroclus wished he wouldn’t, a hundred eyes
swivelled to him and then back. “As does Achilles. He provides a full confession, and with great
dignity, might I add. Under the circumstances.”

Peleus made a scoffing sound, and he was not the only one. “Dignity,” he muttered under his
breath. “With our luck, news of his ‘dignity’ will travel across Greece faster than you can say
‘congratulations’. Oh, Gods. He’s brought Hell down enough in the past but he really has done it
this time.”

Phoenix made a non-committal gesture. “With respect my lord,” he said. “I’m not sure we can lay
the entirety of the blame on Achilles. I think we can all safely assume that this wasn’t his idea.”
The unspoken words were understood instantly by everyone in the room, although no one dared to
say the goddess’ name out loud. Patroclus had not seen Thetis since Achilles had left, apart from
the occasional glimpse on the beach or in the air, when in her newly favoured flying fish aspect. He
had felt sympathy for her, knowing that she too missed Achilles and like him, life held little
meaning for her without him. Now, all he felt was shock and rage, all-consuming and terrible.

“Be that as it may,” said Acastus swiftly. “The fact remains that Achilles has gotten the girl
pregnant and the consequences are his to bear. There can be no divvying up of responsibility. It is
not just a prince’s honour and a princess’s virtue at stake here. Phthia cannot afford another war,
even against an island so lowly and poor as Skyros, and the compensation they will demand will be
crippling if he does not marry her. We have no other option but to join our houses together in
matrimony.”

No, Gods, please no, let there be another way, please, Gods, listen. Peleus too was looking
profoundly unhappy, although his expression was more sulky than anything else. From the seated
Council, one of the lords spoke what he was undoubtedly feeling.

“But to Skyros,” he appealed. “When it is…so…so…small.”

The sentiment was shared by everyone in the room, slight nods and wistful mutterings. It was clear
that the hope had been for Achilles to marry a princess from a large and powerful kingdom, equal
in material majesty to his exceptional prowess. A girl from a family to rival Agamemnon, or
anyone else who might come knocking on Phthia’s door, not the only daughter of a tiny island no
one had ever heard of until this morning. It was obvious that everyone considered it an enormous
waste.

At last Peleus raised his palms, a sign that as far as he was concerned, the conversation was over.
“Small it may be,” he concluded heavily. “And low it may be. But, as Lord Acastus rightly pointed
out, we have little choice. Achilles must marry the girl, before word of this leaves our mutual
shores. I must also add that I have taken counsel from Achilles’ mother,” immediately, the
atmosphere in the room dropped as every man held his breath. Peleus continued, looking pained
and more than a little fearful. “She has…assured me that Achilles’ identity must be preserved at all
costs. Therefore his…masquerade…such as it is, must remain. Not a word of this is to get out.”

At once there was an outbreak of dispute. “But my lord!” someone cried out. “That is impossible.
How are we to arrange the marriage?”

“Phoenix shall lead a small delegation to Skyros,” Peleus replied calmly. “They will travel in
secret, and negotiations shall be made in secret. He will be leaving first thing this afternoon. That is
all.”

It might have been all, but it did not prevent the inevitable cacophony that followed it. Peleus was
escorted from the room to the sound of several people calling after him, imploring him for another
word or explanation.

Patroclus, deep in shock, heard nothing but a dull buzzing in the ears. Achilles has gotten the girl
pregnant. Achilles has gotten the girl pregnant. He couldn’t stop hearing it. Inside, his stomach
was churning. He could feel acid surging through the channels of his diaphragm, the fumes of it
burning his chest. He wanted to vomit. He was aware suddenly of a fierce grip closing sharply
round his arm, long fingernails digging urgently into the clammy flesh.

“Let’s go,” Phoenix whispered.

Patroclus allowed himself to be led away, round the throngs of ministers still calling for their king
to return and explain himself, past the doors of the Great Hall and back through the corridor until
they had returned to the empty classroom Patroclus had just left. A vague awareness at the back of
Patroclus’ mind thought with grim humour that Phoenix was not good at this; Leptine or even
Ampelius would have known to take him outside, to offer him the sky to scream at or a patch of
earth to spatter with his insides.

Instead he grabbed the first thing he could lay his hands on, a painted amphora, and heaved
pointlessly. Phoenix stood with his back to him, Patroclus supposed out of what he thought was
tact. He could see something was twitching in his expression, whether distaste or pained sympathy
Patroclus could not tell.

For a short time, Patroclus retched soundlessly. Then at last he breathed out, having not succeeded
in bringing anything up, and looked at Phoenix over the edge of its rim. “Alright,” he muttered
weakly. “What happened?”

Phoenix hesitated, scratching cautiously at the back of grey head. “It is as you heard it,” he replied
heavily. “We have received word from Achilles’ mother that he has been hiding on the Isle of
Skyros in the guise of a handmaid, only now he has managed to get the Princess Deidamia
pregnant and his identity has become known to King Lycomedes. The king is now demanding that
Achilles marry her in recompense, in order to preserve her honour.”

“How far along is she?” asked Patroclus.

Phoenix eyed him warily. “The goddess said two months.”

Patroclus swore viciously. Two whole months. And Patroclus hadn’t seen him in nearly four. A
snatching of prophecy crept into his mind, spoken by the old Thessalian priestess: “When will
Achilles marry?” “Exactly four moons from now, to a princess from a land not far from yours.” It
was coming true, all of it, and there was nothing Patroclus could do to stop it. And on top of it all
came the deep and agonising knowledge that, after all of that had been said and done between
them, none of it had meant a thing. He had not been enough. Achilles had betrayed him.

“Get out,” said Patroclus.

A flicker of uncertainty mixed with pity passed over Phoenix’s face. It was the latter Patroclus
found unbearable. “Patroclus…I know that you’re upset, but-”

Patroclus picked up the amphora and hurled it across the room. It smashed into pieces with a
resounding clash, littering the carpet with splinters of clay. Blood roared in his ears and eyeballs.
“GET OUT.”

Phoenix’s mouth was a firm, thin line. He pursed his lips and turned to go, but as he opened the
door he paused, looking back at Patroclus over his shoulder. “You heard Peleus,” he told him, quite
calmly. “We leave for Skyros this afternoon.”

He closed the door behind him. Patroclus waited until he could no longer hear his footsteps before
collapsing to the floor. The tears had started building back in the hall, now they came thick and
fast, soaking into the carpet as Patroclus lay there, his cheek pressed against the wool. He hugged
his knees to his chest, clamped in a tight ball and cried, stupidly, uncaringly, feeling as though the
weight of the world’s end was crashing in on top of him.

Achilles had not waited for him in Skyros. He had found someone else and he had fucked them and
now she was carrying his seed in her belly, his child, a combination of her and him that would
grow up to be the lawful heir of Phthia, and she the lawful wife that bore it. But more than that;
here was Achilles, who was always saying that he never lied, deceiving Patroclus in a way he had
never thought possible. Patroclus had always feared that one day Achilles would grow bored,
would tire of earthly joys in his pursuit of the stars, leaving him behind as he rocketed skywards.
But this, this savage betrayal, this juggling of hearts was not something of which he’d ever thought
he was able.

He wasn’t sure why. He had known for a long time just how capable Achilles was of causing pain.

But this pain…it stabbed at him, through his heart, crushing his ribcage, squeezing his lungs so
that he gasped for breath between sobs. Nekros, driving his spear into his abdomen, and the grey
shores of death hovering at the edges of his vision, even that hadn’t compared to this. Patroclus
cried until he had wracked his body dry of tears and lay on the carpet, shivering and hiccoughing
and thinking that only yesterday they had been standing on the beach: “I love you,” Achilles had
said, and like a fool, Patroclus had believed it meant forever.

After a long while, Patroclus released a long shaky breath. He untangled himself from the foetal
position, pushing himself up so that he was sitting, and wiped his nose and his face. He took deep
breaths, counting from one to ten and then back down again until his heart had slowed and the tide
in his ears subsided, allowing him to think clearly.

The girl in Skyros said that she was pregnant, and that it was Achilles’ baby. But as Cleitus had
pointed out during the meeting, there was no reason why both claims had to be true. Yes Achilles
had confessed, but Achilles had also done a great many strange things out of compassion, or a
sense of duty in the past. Possibly he had felt sorry for the girl, and did not want to see her
disgraced. Or perhaps there was another reason, another explanation for this insane, crazy, stupid
turn of events.

Or perhaps Patroclus was grasping at straws.

With a tremendous effort he got to his feet, rubbing his face with his hands. Either way, there was
only one way of finding out. And it was leaving Phthia this afternoon.

oOo

The air is different on the sea than in any other place. Nothing else quite compares; even standing
at the shore’s edge is a tamed version of that raw original; the wild, unbridled power of nature that
must have been in everything at the very beginnings of the world. Patroclus stood at the ship’s
prow, head tipped upwards, breathing in the crisp, salt, cold of it. The wind ruffled his hair,
dragging it over his cheeks and lips and eyelids, the hood of his cloak flapping like the flag of the
ship’s mast behind him. His tears had long dried, mingling with the sea salt and the flecks of white
foam jumping up over the wooden sides.

They had been sailing for three days. In that three days, Patroclus’ noxious cocktail of rage and
pain had narrowed into single-minded purpose: a desire for answers. The anguish he had felt upon
first hearing the news had simmered into a dull ache in his chest that renewed as they came ever
closer to the horizon. Now Skyros was in sight; Patroclus could see the hazy shadow of land in the
distance, like the smudge of a God’s thumb across blue canvas, and his heart hammered in restless
anticipation.

Phoenix was watching him, as he had been watching him more or less the entire length of the
journey. He looked as though at any moment Patroclus might choose to throw himself off the
boat’s side. Patroclus almost wanted to tell him that he had nothing to worry about on that front. If
the telling was true, and anyone needed throwing at the bottom of the ocean, it would be Achilles.
“Nearly there,” he murmured, coming to stand close by him.

Patroclus wished he wouldn’t. Quite aside from feeling rather less inclined towards people than he
normally was, Phoenix often exhibited an uncanny air that he knew exactly what you were
thinking, and judged you for it. It made Patroclus want to guard his thoughts around him.

However, Patroclus knew by now that the old man rarely did anything without a reason and sure
enough, his approaching him now was not from a wish to offer company. “I have to ask,” he began.
“What exactly are you hoping for, once we get there?”

Patroclus breathed out impatiently, saying a silent goodbye to his brief moment of calm before
answering Phoenix. “I’m not hoping for anything,” he replied shortly.

Phoenix waited expectantly for elaboration and when one came, pressed on. “Because even if he
has the best excuse in the world,” he continued. “Or if he apologises, and you forgive him, he will
still be the father of that child. Regardless of whether it really is his or not, that is how he will be
seen. And, accordingly, he will marry her.”

“Why are you telling me things I already know?” Patroclus snapped.

“Because I’m not so sure that you do know them Patroclus,” said Phoenix gently. “It’s easy enough
to nod and say ‘yes, Achilles will be married, yes he will have a son’ but I don’t know whether you
fully acknowledge the repercussions that will have. One day, Achilles will be king, this Deidamia
will be Queen…there will not be room for a third party.”

“Again, not exactly new information,” answered Patroclus who was now strongly considering the
merits of throwing Phoenix overboard.

Phoenix sighed, tapping his long, bird-like nails against the wood. When he spoke again, his voice
was quieter. “You have to have known this day would come,” he spoke softly. “I just don’t want
you to get your hopes up.”

His voice, dripping with sympathy and paternal concern, was unbearable. Patroclus turned his face
away and said nothing. Phoenix sighed again and moved away to oversee the sailors leaving
Patroclus to stare glumly out across the ocean.

He knew that Phoenix was right. No matter what he discovered in Skyros, the facts would remain
the same. They would return not together but apart, separated by the duties of wife and child.
Patroclus thought darkly back to when his biggest problem was the threat of the marriage to Chloē
and the Corinthians. What wouldn’t he give now to be back in that position, at least with Chloē he
and Achilles could have remained as they always had been. But no doubt this Deidamia would have
certain expectations of a husband, and if Achilles loved her too….

He banished all such thoughts from his mind. He would not dwell on them until he was able to talk
to Achilles again, face to face.

Hours later, the ship docked at Skyros’ harbour and Patroclus, Phoenix, and their entourage
climbed out to be met by a single servant. Rather than a wagon or horses, he led them on foot up a
thin, crooked path that winded uphill through the trees. At the top, a tiny citadel composing of a
smattering of small, thatched houses and a wall of sharpened sticks shone brightly against the sky,
as if blissfully unaware of its own mediocrity. The servant led them through the doors of the palace
and into the modest atrium. At once, Patroclus was struck by the contrast between this building and
that of Opus; instead of fancy mosaics and coloured marble, the walls and floor were rough stone
while the roof was suspended by wooden rafters. And instead of a cheerful Lysander to greet them,
at the foot of the stairs stood a girl.

She was smiling, Patroclus supposed, although on first glance it was difficult to tell. Her lip curled
in all the right ways but the effect was that of a smirk or a sneer rather than anything more friendly.
Raven curls, elaborately coiffured into ringlets framed an extremely smug face, a cat’s face, which
somehow made a barrier to her prettiness. From porcelain white skin her eyes shone green and
feline, narrowed with sly intelligence.

She bobbed her head daintily when they approached, extending a courteous hand. “Welcome,
guests, to Skyros,” she greeted them. “I am the Princess Deidamia, daughter of King Lycomedes.”

Patroclus gave a tiny start at the name. He wasn’t sure why, considering she was decked out in
apparel only a princess could afford on this tiny little island. A dress of shocking pink draped her
petite form and her pale, slender wrists and neck glittered with jewellery.

“You will be wanting to meet the men of the house,” she continued with a quirk of her mouth.
“Shall I take you to see my father first, or my betrothed?”

Her voice was extraordinarily nasal. Patroclus felt a bubbling of acid in his stomach which he
quickly suppressed as Phoenix inclined his head graciously. “If King Lycomedes is able to receive
us now, we would be most grateful.”

Deidamia nodded and gestured for them to follow her with a perfectly manicured hand. As they
walked along the stone corridor Patroclus noticed that she stuck her belly out slightly in front of
her, showing off a bump that Patroclus was not sure was there. If it was there at all, it had only
been two months. As if hearing his thoughts, she looked back at Patroclus over her shoulder and
smiled glitteringly. Immediately against his better judgement, he felt an instant surge of dislike.

Deidamia led them to their equivalent of a Great Hall which was not much more than a large barn,
towards the sides of which long tables and benches had been arranged where a few old men
munched miserably at bread sopped in milk. At the front of the room the oldest and most miserable
man sat in a high wooden chair. Deidamia bade them wait while she went up to this man and bent
near his papery cheek, whispering into his ear. The king nodded and straightened up as much as he
was able.

“The embassy from Phthia?” he breathed in a voice like wind through a crack. “Well met, well
met. Right glad I am to see you come so swiftly.”

“We take the matter very seriously, my lord,” Phoenix acknowledged. “King Peleus wasted no time
in assembling a group to deal with it with all the discretion it requires.”

Patroclus snuck a look at Deidamia. With her hands clasped just below her naval and the cream-
eating smile on her face, she looked anything but discreet. Beneath the surface of his skin he felt
himself simmering as he glanced around the room. Where is Achilles?

“The matter is indeed a sensitive one,” Lycomedes concurred. “And we shall soon discuss how
best to approach it. For now, however, you must be hungry and tired after your long journey.
Please, take a seat. My daughter has organised some entertainment for you while we wait for
supper.”

Phoenix nodded politely, Patroclus rather less so, and they took their places on the benches that had
been allocated to them. With a toss of her ringlets Deidamia clapped her hands. At once the door
behind her opened, and a line of girls came pouring out. Each one wore an identical white veil over
her face; Deidamia also accepted one which she attached with pins to her hair.
The girls lined up down the centre of the room, apart from two with a flute and a drum who
hovered at the sides. As the first notes blew from the flute the girls began to dance. Patroclus
watched intensely as their feet beat upon the roughhewn stone of the Hall, perfectly in time to the
beat of the drum, not out of any spellbound concentration but because he knew that amongst one of
them, Achilles had to be there. Marking him out from the rest of the throng was near impossible,
however, as the girls danced like bells along one length of ribbon, all flashing wrists and neat flicks
of the head until everything was a blur of coloured skirts and clattering beads.

And golden hair. Who was she; Deidamia’s partner, the tallest of the girls by far. Patroclus’ eyes
were trained on the pair of them, watching as Deidamia’s mouth pricked teasingly, her eyes
flirtatious as she beckoned her close. The other girl’s hand grazed her hip, snatching at the bright
pink fabric and Deidamia threw her head back, revealing her throat even as the veil obscured the
act. As the drum beat faster so their steps quickened, Deidamia and the girl with the flame coloured
hair seemed to be the only two in the room, the world could have been burning around them, just as
it was burning within Patroclus.

Deidamia and her partner were chest to chest. Patroclus stood up. The music stopped.

The girl with the flame coloured hair looked up. Their eyes met and from over the top of her veil
hers widened. She threw off Deidamia, discarding her like a scarf in a storm, and sprinted across
the room.

Patroclus fell, buffeted back by the force of Achilles’ embrace. He felt arms tighten around him,
felt that familiar torso contract as warmth surrounded him. But more than anything, he felt the
words whispered frantically, desperate as a prayer against his skin: I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry,
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry…

A high pitched wail broke through the stunned silence. It took a moment for Patroclus to realise
that it was a human sound, another to know that it had come from Deidamia. A third to understand
that it was a command: “Pyrrha!”

Achilles did not release Patroclus. He did not say anything, apart from the repeated mantra in
Patroclus’ ear. Lycomedes’ face was stony. He raised a palm and drew it sharply over the room as
if batting away a fly. “Leave us,” he commanded.

More than reluctantly, the few people sitting at the benches rose slowly to their feet and departed
from the Hall, taking their bowls with them. Achilles moved his arms round from Patroclus’ neck
but did not release his hold on his arm, gripping it arm tightly. It took Patroclus a stunned moment
to realise that he was standing behind him, as if he were using Patroclus as a shield of defence
between himself and Lycomedes. His face was fierce and determined, his chin raised in defiance,
but to Patroclus, partially obscuring him from view with his shoulder, he looked like he was hiding.

Once the last citizen had departed from the Hall Deidamia marched across the room and grabbed
Achilles by the elbow. There was none of the simpering smugness on her face now, her eyes blazed
with fury and humiliation.

“You have to finish the dance Pyrrha,” she hissed, yanking him towards her.

“Get the fuck off me,” Achilles snarled back, pulling himself out of her grasp and Patroclus was
shocked to hear the poisonous loathing in his voice. “Don’t fucking touch me again.”

Deidamia pursed her lips, looking anxiously over her shoulder. If it was face she was worried
about losing Patroclus thought she was fighting a futile battle; the only people who were left in the
Hall were already staring with rapt bemusement. “Pyrrha,” she said again, voice level as if she
were trying to sound reasonable. “You have to finish the dance.”

“My name is Achilles,” Achilles snapped, pushing her backwards. “And I don’t have to do a
fucking thing.”

“Achilles!” Patroclus exclaimed, scandalised as Deidamia stumbled with the force of Achilles’
push.

For a moment, she continued to look up at him, pleadingly. Then, she burst into tears. All the men
in the room hesitated, paralysed by the awkwardness that habitually inflicts them at the presence of
a crying female. Despite himself, Patroclus felt pity tug at his heartstrings as she wiped shakily at
her eyes and nose and around him he say his feelings mirrored on several others. Only Achilles
stood, stony-faced, his eyes as cold and hard as flints. Patroclus did not understand that expression,
nor had he though Achilles capable at directing it toward someone so obviously pitiable.

Finally, Phoenix’s tactful cough broke through the tense silence. “Perhaps it would be fitting if we
discussed the matter now,” he said quietly.

In response, Achilles ripped off his veil and headdress and threw it at his feet before wrenching
down his collar, exposing his bare chest. He did it all with such viciousness, it was like a caged
animal struggling to be free of his chains. Deidamia cried harder than ever.

Lycomedes glanced at his weeping daughter, looking pained. “Agreed,” he sighed. He ran a hand
through his beard regretfully, looking as though the whole world had become suddenly far too
complicated for him.

Phoenix spared Achilles a last wary glance before continuing. “As you know, the prince accepts
full responsibility for your daughter’s condition,” he said. “And, as he is a man of honour and good
character, he has agreed to marry her. Nothing would please his father, King Peleus of Phthia, more
to have our two kingdoms joined in the bonds of friendship and family. What is more, due to the
nature of circumstances, no dowry will be required. Rather, King Peleus is willing to pay a casket
of silver in compensation for the pains undertaken by your daughter.”

At this, Achilles snorted loudly. Everyone looked round at him; his face was burning with hatred
and his arms were crossed over his chest, his chin still upturned in aggressive insolence. However,
he said nothing. Ignoring him, Phoenix gestured to a couple of servants who brought the casket
forward and dropped it at the foot of Lycomedes’ chair, displaying the shining contents inside.
Lycomedes made a great show of having his people weigh and examine the loot, appearing to
consider the matter in great depth before finally nodding his approval.

“Very well,” he confirmed. He paused, frowning. “And the child my daughter is to bear?”

“Will of course be treated as the rightful and legitimate heir to Phthia,” Phoenix affirmed. “And
will be deemed so above any other children the prince may have. Dependent on gender, of course.”

“It’s a boy,” Deidamia murmured at this point. She had her hands over her face and she spoke
wetly from between the gaps in her fingers. “I know it.”

There was no true way to be certain of this, but Patroclus, who was by now fairly acquainted with
portent, felt the weight of prophecy in her words. His sense of hopelessness increased; a boy would
mean the world to Phthia, and probably to Achilles too by the time he beheld his son’s face and
saw his continued legacy there. Glancing at Achilles however Patroclus saw no such promise; his
face was still curled in loathing and fury, he looked as though it were costing him every effort not
to destroy the entire place.
Phoenix and Lycomedes resumed their strategizing, mapping out the terms of the agreement as if
they were conditions of a peace treaty. Deidamia kept trying to catch Achilles’ eye but he stared
straight ahead, looking determinedly at anywhere but her. Her bottom lip kept trembling, Patroclus
half wanted to put out a hand and comfort her. He felt suddenly very tired and confused. All he
wanted was for this day to be over.

At long last, the discussions were ended. Phoenix bent to kiss Lycomedes’ ring and when he
straightened back up it was with the air of one who has overcome great odds. Lycomedes looked
significantly more satisfied than he had done when they had first entered the Hall.

“The wedding shall take place this evening,” he announced. “At dusk. You shall stay here three
days as guests of my house and then return to Phthia. My son-in-law shall remain here, in
accordance with his mother’s wishes, in his previous guise.”

“No I won’t,” Achilles countered immediately. “I’ll be damned if I ever wear those fucking silks
again.”

“Achilles,” Phoenix started softly, then thought better of it.

“Is that all?” asked Achilles, ignoring him.

Lycomedes surveyed him with a frown, taking in the heavy rising of his chest, the fierce heat of his
cheeks, his hands bunched into fists at his sides. A flicker of unease passed over him, as it did over
everyone else who watched Achilles in that room.

“Yes it is all,” he said at last.

The moment the word fell from his lips Achilles seized Patroclus’ hand and marched out of the
Hall. Patroclus just had time to hear Deidamia’s strangled sob echo behind him before he was
being dragged along the corridor, emerging from the gloom and outside into the startling sunlight.

Achilles dropped Patroclus’ hand, turned round and for a second Patroclus had to catch his breath.
Seeing Achilles everyday meant Patroclus had grown used to his beauty, appreciating it as a man
whose home overlooks a deep valley enjoys a view. But after almost four months of separation, the
sheer loveliness of him came back with full force and he felt as though he was seeing that face once
again for the very first time; the hollow cheeks, the slender, fine-boned face with its sharp jaw, the
angry ocean eyes and the corn field hair, the perfect rosebud mouth, marred as it was by the
shadow of his sneer. And for a second, Patroclus wanted to weep. Not because of anything he had
just heard in that room, but because of the reminder of what he had missed all those long months.

Remember what he did. That’s right, as much as Patroclus’ heart ached and sung with the relief of
seeing Achilles again, he could not let it sway him now. He made his expression hard as he looked
back at Achilles, crossing his arms over his chest in a gesture of challenge, waiting for him to speak
first.

Achilles sighed, running a hand through his hair. It was so long now that it reached nearly to the
middle of his back, making him look more like a girl than ever. “Patroclus,” he began. “I’m-”

“-Don’t,” Patroclus cut him off, suddenly fuming with impatience. “Don’t say it again. Please, I
can’t bear it.”

Achilles stared at him. He blinked repeatedly, like a wild thing caught in a trap. “What else can I
say?” he asked.

And just like that, every feeling that Patroclus had had since that first meeting back at Phthia piled
up inside him. He felt as if he could explode with it, anger and pain battling for dominance inside
him as Achilles’ wide-eyed, despairing face stared back at him. He wanted to hit him, punch him,
not stop until he was bleeding on the ground at his feet. He wanted to grab him, hold him close, tell
him it was alright and that nothing he ever did would stop Patroclus from following him miles
across the sea. He wanted to destroy him. He wanted to kiss him. He wanted to kill him. He wanted
to kill himself.

“You lied to me,” he said instead and was horrified to hear the crack in his voice. “When you said
you wouldn’t…when you said you would never…”

He couldn’t bring himself to say the words. He could feel the tears spilling from his eyes, sliding
down his cheek and he hated himself for it, hated this sign of weakness and the knowledge that
despite it all, it barely changed a thing. Achilles was shaking his head.

“I didn’t lie to you,” he said.

“OH FUCK OFF,” Patroclus shouted. “DON’T YOU FUCKING DARE DO THIS NOW, DON’T
YOU TRY AND GET ROUND ME WITH YOUR LOOPHOLES AND YOUR…
YOUR…INTERPRETATIONS-”

“LISTEN TO ME,” Achilles grabbed Patroclus’ wrists, stopping the attack before Patroclus had
even decided on it. “JUST LISTEN TO ME, FOR ONCE. It wasn’t like that, alright? Okay, I
didn’t-”

“-Oh, what?” Patroclus cut him off sarcastically. “You’re going to tell me now that you’re innocent
in all this, that it’s not your baby, that she’s making it all up?”

Achilles bit his lip. He cast his eyes down, all his previous rage replaced by a look of crushing
guilt. “No,” he breathed. “No, she’s not making it up.”

Patroclus let out a roar of anguish, wrenching his fists from Achilles’ grip so that he could beat
them against his chest. Achilles let him do it, with each punch looking more and more miserable
until at last he batted Patroclus’ arms away, pinning his shoulders so that he couldn’t move.

“Listen to me,” he said again. “I did do it. It did happen. But she made me. I did not want to, and
she made me.”

Patroclus stared at him as if he had been speaking in tongues. “What do you mean she made you?”
he asked, baffled.

“I mean,” Achilles took a breath and Patroclus realised with sudden clarity how much it was
costing him to say this out loud. “She threatened me. Blackmailed me, really. She found out what I
am, who I was. Told me if I didn’t do it then she would tell everyone. I told her civilly to fuck off
at first, said she could say anything she damn well pleased.” His eyes were shining wetly, he
blinked furiously. “Then she said, if I didn’t, she would tell everyone that I forced her.”

He wiped his eyes. Patroclus stared at him in dumb shock, lost for a thing to say. Finally, he
managed to grasp back his voice: “Why didn’t you say? Why didn’t you tell anyone?”

The look Achilles gave him was harder and bitterer than Patroclus had ever seen. “Right,” he said,
and the snarl was back. “And who was I going to tell, a runaway prince from another kingdom,
dressed up in garters and hiding in a mist of women? And who was going to believe me, I, more
than a man and Achilles no less, at the mercy of a nine stone girl?”

Patroclus could not reply. Not because he had nothing to say, but because he too was having
trouble believing it. The look on Achilles’ face let him know he knew it too. His smile was a
hollow-pointed thing, empty and terrifying.

“There,” he choked. “Are you happy now? Is that what you wanted to hear?”

“No,” said Patroclus, horrified. It was the only word he could manage.

Achilles made a strange sound, like a void of a laugh. He crossed his arms over his chest and
looked away.

“So,” he said. “That’s that. And now I’ve got myself a pretty little wife, and a son and heir into the
bargain. Things could hardly go more right for me, could they?”

His voice was terrible to listen to. Savagely aggressive, every syllable a knife trust, but the forced
hardness barely disguised the choke of tears still behind it. Patroclus did not know what to do. He
had imagined this moment a thousand times on the journey. Grabbing Achilles, yelling at him,
forcing him to account and confess. Maybe hitting him for good measure. But this cold, matter-of-
fact, stating of truth; nothing could have prepared him for this.

When Achilles spoke again it was from far away, not meeting Patroclus’ eyes. “You forgive me,
right?”

Patroclus thought his heart would break. He lifted his fingers, touched Achilles’ face. “Oh love,”
he said softly. “There is nothing to forgive. I’m the one who’s sorry.”

oOo

Sorry or not, forgiveness or not, that was that. A wedding took place the same afternoon. Achilles
was lent a chiton and cloak which he wore with nearly as much discomfort as he had his girl’s
clothes. An hour beforehand he had found a pair of blunt scissors and hacked at his hair which now
hung, raggedly cropped just below his ears. No one had said anything, although the wisdom of his
having done so whilst having to maintain his disguise after the wedding was clearly debated.
Achilles did not offer his opinion on the matter. It was a silent understanding from his view that he
would not be putting on a dress again.

The ceremony took place in the courtyard which had been swept and strung rather quickly with
white flowers, of the kind that grew on the nearby mountains. The fire had been built up and now
burned with incense and sage to ward off malign spirits and bad feeling, although one look at the
unhappy faces stood round it suggested there was still plenty of both. At the edge of the ring a
dour-faced priest led a white goat with gilded horns by a length of straggly rope. Looking from the
goat to Achilles, it was difficult to tell who looked more defeated.

Deidamia came, her dark hair peeking out from beneath her veil and several of the same white
flowers. Despite the plainness of her white dress she was beaming and lovely, her cheeks rosy with
spring-like youth and a shudder of unease brushed over Patroclus as his mind dwelled once again
on what Achilles had told him. It was against his principle, generally, to doubt anything Achilles
confided in him. But his inner insecurities battled still against the simple unlikeliness that this wisp
of a girl, this pretty, smiling thing could force Achilles the lion into…well, into anything.

Achilles and Deidamia stood in front of the fire. The priest held their hands. The vows were made,
Deidamia’s voice clear and merry, Achilles’ sullen. The wine goblet was passed between them and
they drank. The goat was slaughtered and some of its blood sprayed onto Achilles’ chiton,
Deidamia’s white dress.
 “The Gods smile on this marriage,” the priest announced as servants dragged the body of the still
kicking animal.

If they are, thought Patroclus grimly. They are the only ones.

Because it was a wedding, there was food and music and dancing but nobody, apart from the
servants and lesser inhabitants of the palace, seemed much inclined to any. Deidamia, valiantly
insistent on making the day a success, seemed hell-bent on doing the job for all of them, clapping
her hands the loudest to the music, dancing every reel and taking more than her fill of food and
wine. After what had to be her fourth goblet, she grabbed Achilles’ hand and attempted to drag him
onto the floor.

“Come on, husband!” she trilled. “Dance with me!”

“Let go of me, you silly bitch,” Achilles snapped at her.

“Achilles!” Patroclus gasped.

Deidamia’s eyes narrowed and she dropped Achilles’ hand. There was none of the blushing bride
in her look now as she grabbed her goblet and tossed the dregs into her mouth.

“I wouldn’t worry about it, Patroclus,” she purred maliciously. “He doesn’t know how else to
speak to me. I tell you, I’m quite used to it.”

“Shouldn’t you be off getting people drunk?” asked Achilles. “Seducing the incapacitated or infirm
or anyone else who can’t say no, generally?”

“Oh man up,” Deidamia snapped before tossing back her head and leaping into the dance.

Achilles watched her go, the light from the fire glinting in his eyes like the demonic depths of
Hades. He leant back in his chair, nursing his own goblet. Shadows danced across his face, the
moving ghosts of those who cantered round the fire to the song of flute and drum. Out of the corner
of his eye, Patroclus watched the muscle jumping in his jaw.

“I want to make you a vow now,” Achilles said.

Patroclus looked at him. He had his knuckles resting on the table before him, gleaming white and
shaking slightly. He was still watching the dance, his face at once alight with an orange glow and
cast in darkness. “What?”

“This,” he said. “That no one can make me do a thing ever again, if I have set my mind against it.”

It should not have meant much. He took a long swallow of wine and allowed his fingers to tap
absentmindedly along to the jaunty rhythm of the music. It should not have meant much, he
seemed more relaxed now, as he always did when he had resolved something in his mind, but still
it should not have meant much more than an easing of conscience. Yet still it seemed, for the
second time that day, that Patroclus felt the heaviness of prophecy ringing in his ears.

Chapter End Notes

The thing - I've tried to touch on a lot of sensitive topics in this and one of them is the
reason for Achilles' incredible obstinacy in the Trojan war. Obviously we know a lot
of it's down to his being a stubborn bastard, but we also know that there's a part of him
that is honourable and noble, a part that I think would feel fairly squeamish about
letting people that he could have saved die. I thought it would be interesting to
examine his inflexibility over his refusal to fight, and his determination not to
compromise over his own sense of free choice.

Thanks for reading as always, please let me know what you think here or alternatively
here.

Also, only two chapters left!!! (Inshallah)

 Odysseus
Chapter Notes

Wowzers.
A note before you begin, (because I just love to do that.) I think some of you may have
worked it out already, but for those of you who haven’t I’ll just clear it up before you
get even more disappointed. I will not be going to Troy. I’ve thought about it and I
just think there’s so much more story I could get into but honestly, it’s taken three
years just to get to the point I’m at now, and my being such a slow writer I honestly
don’t think it’s fair on you guys to drag it out even more. I might do a sort of epilogue
after the next chapter, just to tie up loose ends and to sort of set the tone for future
adventure…but for me and these guys, the story ends here.
Words cannot describe how much I love you guys although I will try my best in the
final chapter, so more on that later.
Enjoy. It’s a long one. (Also as you can see in the tags I have added some new trigger
warnings for references of rape and non-con for this chapter so please bear that in
mind.)

See the end of the chapter for more notes

All in all, it was not a happy reunion. After the first night, Achilles remained much as he was when
Patroclus had first arrived on Skyros. He was surly and taciturn, barking at anyone who so much as
looked at him wrongly, who happened to be nearly anyone who found themselves in his immediate
vicinity. He walked around looking murderous, when he spoke his words were poison and, perhaps
most disturbingly, he was jumpy as a live wire.

On one occasion, a guard attempted to grab his shoulder in order to gain his attention. Achilles
grasped the man’s wrist and yanked it backwards until the man released a howl of pain and
Patroclus had to physically wrestle him away before he let it go. When Achilles whirled round to
face him his eyes were wide and flashing with gold, his expression unrecognisable. Patroclus
released him, dropping his hands from him in a wash of horror and icy fear. Then Achilles blinked,
his eyes returned to normal and he was dropping to his knees, clutching the hem of Patroclus’
chiton and begging forgiveness. As if on automatic, Patroclus put his hands numbly in his hair and
stroked it until he was calm. They didn’t speak about it again.

Which was the worst part, really. They did not speak at all, not about Deidamia, not about the thing
that had happened between them. They avoided the topic in a way that was so forcefully self-
conscious it was painful. Once in a while, Patroclus would pluck up the courage to ask, then he
would catch sight of Achilles’ face, the permanently narrowed eyes, the set jaw, his arms crossed
over his chest as attacking as it was defensive, and he would lose his nerve. He hated himself for it,
knew that he was a coward to let this defeat them, this unspoken subject between two people who
could speak about anything, yet that didn’t change the fact that whenever he opened his mouth he
found himself closing it again in a matter of seconds.

On top of all this, Achilles had returned to his old habit of picking out fights. This could range from
anything from a scuffle with one of the king’s Guard to a brawl in a tavern. The latter incidents
were becoming increasingly frequent; most evenings Achilles would grow frustrated with the
suffocation of the palace walls and drag Patroclus into town where he would then get drunk and
take on as many men as would dare to throw a punch. Soon however it got to the point when the
Skyros locals knew better than to go near him and Achilles ran out of townsfolk to fight. And so he
resorted to taking it out on Patroclus, pushing his buttons, trying to provoke a reaction.

“Look at you,” Achilles snarled after what had to have been his fifth cup. “Sticking around, as if
you don’t have somewhere better to be. Someone better to be. Why are you still here? Why are you
wasting your time, with a pathetic piece of shit like me?”

“Honestly, sometimes I ask myself the same question,” replied Patroclus boredly. He was looking
out the window, trying to gather some sense of the time.

Achilles pulled a face and slapped his empty cup off the table so that it clattered to the floor.
Patroclus raised an eyebrow at him, unimpressed. “You can go anytime you want,” Achilles told
him horribly.

Patroclus sighed, running a hand through his hair. He was tired, and so entirely not in the mood for
drunken self-deprecation. “Why are you like this, Achilles?”

When Achilles looked up, from the scarred wooden table, all trace of savagery had left his face.
The aggression was gone, in its place a wretched, desperate sadness that clawed at Patroclus’
insides like his slurred insults had barely even managed. “Because you don’t believe me,” he
muttered.

Shame, white hot and swift, flooded through Patroclus as Achilles reached for another wine casket.
He could not think of a thing to say, and remained dumb with disgrace as Achilles continued to
drink himself to a stupor and had to be half-carried back up to the palace.

Achilles would sleep it off, and in the morning he would wake up having forgotten all that was
said the night before and arise almost cheerful. No longer bound by the restrictions of his girls’
clothing, which he flatly refused to wear again, he was free to roam the woods and fields of Skyros,
racing, training and wrestling with Patroclus almost as if they were back on Phthia and the days
were largely spent with Achilles, sprinting around a makeshift track as though his life depended on
it with Patroclus sitting on the grass and timing him.

On good days, Achilles would regale Patroclus with stories of what it was like to live as a girl.

“You have no idea how boring they are, Patroclus,” he would tell him with a sort of awed
emphasis. “It’s not really their fault. All they’re allowed to do is sit around and weave or sew.
Sometimes the fun really starts and someone will crack out a game of petteia. I don’t know how
they stand it. I was going out of my mind after a month.”

Patroclus bit back what his urge was to say; that at least he’d had Deidamia, and her dances, to
entertain him. Again, he felt shame course through him as the thought crossed his mind. Achilles
laid down beside him in the grass, basking up the afternoon sun and Patroclus wondered if he’d
seen it in his face, leaping at the corner of his mouth as it almost left his lips. Herein lay the
problem: Patroclus knew now that nothing was secret between them. Achilles knew what he was
thinking, whether he said it out loud or not. Why are you like this, Achilles? Because you don’t
believe me.

It wasn’t entirely true. Patroclus wanted to believe him, wanted it desperately. He just couldn’t
fathom how the situation could come about. Deidamia was so small, so unassuming and so
beautiful that the idea of her forcing him into sleeping with her seemed completely ridiculous.
Patroclus had spent enough time around slaves and especially with Leptine to know what it was to
be completely in someone’s control. He knew what people with power were capable of, and all the
forms that power manifested itself. Even so, for such a thing to ever happen to Achilles, a man, a
prince, an almost god, was preposterous.

And so the days passed. For the most part, despite her and Achilles being married now, they had
little to do with Deidamia and saw her only at mealtimes. This was for the best, as Patroclus had
never heard Achilles speak to any person as he did to his wife, and he wasn’t sure he liked the
person he heard at these times. One morning, Patroclus was starting to wonder whether Skyros was
a completely earthly realm at all or in fact an extension of Tartarus when Phoenix came into the
room that he and Achilles were sitting.

“Greetings,” he said dryly. “I bring news from Phthia.”

At once Achilles lifted his head from Patroclus’ lap. The three of them had been starved of any
word from what Patroclus had begun to think of as “the outside world” for weeks and Patroclus felt
as though he were wasting away from lack of news.

“Agamemnon’s search has brought him to Phthia,” Phoenix continued. “Whilst under the guise of
accepting your father’s hospitality, he has hunted high and low for sign of you. I have it on
authority that his soldiers even stole into the villagers’ homes, presumably expecting to find you
hiding under a reed basket. In any case, he was unsuccessful. He has given up and is returning to
his own lands to prepare the siege on Troy.”

“Well that’s good,” said Patroclus.

Achilles said nothing but merely looked as though far as he was concerned no news, good or bad,
made much difference to him. “When can we go home?” he asked.

“Soon,” Phoenix assured him. “The king asked that we give it three days at least for the dust to
settle, and to be sure that Agamemnon will not change his mind and come back, net in hand. But I
will arrange for a ship to carry us back as soon as it is convenient.”

“Thank you,” said Patroclus, because Achilles did not look like he was going to.

For a moment Phoenix hovered in the doorway and looked as though he was going to say
something else, possibly a parting word of advice against charging drunkenly into town and
declaring oneself the best fighter that ever existed, but thought better of it. He nodded once and
left. Achilles dropped his head back into Patroclus’ lap and closed his eyes.

“He’s given up,” he murmured.

Patroclus nodded. “Yes.”

Behind the shimmering, almost silver of his eyelids, Achilles’ pupils moved. “They will be going
to war without me.”

Patroclus frowned. “Which is what we want,” he reminded him.

Achilles didn’t answer for a long time and Patroclus thought he had left the topic when he heard
him say, so softly he almost missed it, “We?”

Patroclus felt his pulse leap as his heart skipped a beat. He looked down at Achilles, almost
accusingly. “You said you didn’t want to go.”
Achilles shrugged, Patroclus felt it shift against his knees. “I suppose I don’t,” he said dully. “But
then I suppose, there are worst places to be. Like here.”

Patroclus wasn’t quite sure what to say to that. Somewhat lamely, he pointed out, “It’s only three
more days. Then we’ll be home again.”

Achilles frowned and Patroclus was sure that he was picturing life in Phthia, married to Deidamia
who would surely have to accompany them back. Life in Phthia, tethered to an unborn child and a
wife he did not love. He wondered whether Achilles considered it any sort of life at all.

Suddenly Achilles rolled off Patroclus. He stood up, stretched. “Oh well,” he said. “There will be
other wars.”

He left the room, leaving Patroclus to stare dumbly after him.

oOo

Three days. It felt in itself a lifetime. Since Phoenix had told them that soon they would be
returning, both Achilles and Patroclus felt themselves full of nervous energy that shot through them
like lightening. The walls of King Lycomedes’ palace felt more insufferable than ever with each
passing hour, the air hotter and more stifling until their skin pricked with the unbearablity of it. It
was all they could do to escape from the palace confines for an afternoon, to climb the trees or
swim in the sea, anything for some respite.

As the day of departure drew nearer, Achilles became even more brutal with his impatience.
Deidamia sensed this and, rather than avoid his fire, seemed to take some kind of perverse pleasure
in stoking the flames. It came to the point where, especially at mealtimes, Patroclus physically had
to fight the urge to leave.

The final straw came on the second day, at lunch. Deidamia was speculating in her nasal, carrying
voice about what life would be like for her in Phthia. Meanwhile, Achilles and Patroclus were
staring determinedly into their plates.

“Of course, I do not expect my husband and I shall share a room,” Deidamia was telling no one in
particular. “As much as I have heard of Phthian accommodation, I should suspect that three on a
mattress would be over-crowded, even for the most luxurious of beds.”

Patroclus said nothing but thought wonderingly how sweet and natural tasting the honey of Skyros.
Perhaps it was better exposed to the air than that of Phthia? He would never know.

“Perhaps I should take up with someone,” Deidamia continued blithely. “To keep me warm during
the winter, seeing as Achilles will be otherwise engaged.”

Achilles did not reply but merely lifted his bread to his mouth, chewing unconcernedly. Seeing
how little effect this comment had on him Deidamia bristled visibly and re-fixed her blade.

“Father always told me about that Myrmidon strength was very much exaggerated,” she began
scathingly. “I never expected to experience the lie first hand.”

“Tell me,” said Achilles, cutting some cheese. “Does your father know that his daughter’s a
rapist?”

Patroclus sucked in his breath sharply, looking down at his plate while Deidamia cut her eyes at
Achilles condescendingly. “Girls can’t be rapists,” she told him scornfully. “And I’m not sure if
anyone ever taught you, but boys are supposed to like sex.”
“If you say another word I might punch you,” replied Achilles.

“Achilles!” Patroclus barked at him, shocked.

But Deidamia merely took a sip of water, saying idly. “Whatever makes you feel like a man, dear.”

For a moment, there was nothing but silence. Patroclus held his breath, watching Achilles for his
reaction, his heart thumping against his chest. Deidamia was smirking. For a few seconds Achilles
remained quite unconcerned, continuing to spread cheese over his bread as if he hadn’t heard her.
Then, quite suddenly, he stood up and flipped over the table.

Deidamia screamed, along with several other people, as splashings of cheese and yoghurt hit her.
Bowls and plates went everywhere and the food was sent leaping to the floor as ceramic jugs
splintered with a surrounding crash. Patroclus stared, white-faced and wide eyed at the mess
around him and saw his expression matched on many faces, all staring at Achilles as if he were
something rabid. Achilles wiped his hands on a napkin and departed swiftly from the Hall without
looking back. It took the space of about three heartbeats while Patroclus sat there, paralysed,
before he too was getting to his feet, muttering “Sorry” and taking off after him.

“Achilles!” he shouted, increasing his pace to a jog as Achilles’ phenomenally swift feet marched
him outside. “Achilles what the fuck.”

“Go away Patroclus,” Achilles snapped back at him.

“No,” Patroclus replied, stopping in front of where he stood with his arms crossed over his chest,
looking fixedly away from him. “You’re going to tell me what the hell that was about.”

“You know what it’s about,” Achilles answered despairingly. “I already told you.”

Patroclus counted backwards from ten in his head, trying to calm himself down. Achilles was
blinking hard; Patroclus tried to make his voice level and rational when he spoke again. “Alright,”
he managed. “Alright, but that’s no reason to…to act the way you’re doing, or speak to Deidamia
that way. She’s your wife, you have to treat her with respect-”

“-Respect?” Achilles cut him off, echoing hoarsely, “Respect? Oh my Gods. I was right. You
don’t get it. You have no idea.”

Patroclus felt stung. He tried not to let it show as he said harshly, “If I have no idea it’s because
you won’t talk to me!”

He waited expectantly for Achilles’ answer. When none came immediately he allowed himself to
appreciate a flitting feeling of triumph. He watched Achilles, observing how his sharp eyes were
determinedly avoiding Patroclus’, the way a muscle jumped in his jaw with the effort of gritting his
teeth. Then, like a slingshot snapping, Achilles turned glaringly to Patroclus.

“Fine,” he snarled. “You want to know what it was like? Fine.

From the moment I arrived, I could feel her watching me. She wasn’t like the other girls, they
laughed at me, teased me, poked my arms and my flat chest and called me “the Amazon girl”. Not
her. She flirted with me. Blatantly, in front of everyone. Even when my back was turned I could
sense her eyes on me. When we danced she always picked me to be her partner. When we ate
dinner I could feel her hand on my leg under the table. It was like a game, all the others were in on
it. So many times I almost told her to stop it but how could I, her being the princess and me
needing to keep up that stupid bloody disguise. Anyway, it was only a game.
And then suddenly it wasn’t. I was walking down the corridor, carrying laundry and suddenly out
of the shadows these hands grab me, yank me into the broom closet. Before I have a chance to
work out what’s even happening Deidamia is kissing me, pressing herself to me, touching me
there. I pushed her away but she clung on, told me she was in love with me and that she wanted to
sleep with me. She grabbed my hand and put it between her legs so that I could feel how wet she
was. I told her no and pushed her again, not hard, I didn’t want to hurt her. But somehow I managed
it anyway; she looked at me with this wounded expression, like I’d betrayed her, and she told me I
had to, otherwise she’d tell everyone what I was. I said that was fine by me. And then she got
angry. She told me that if I didn’t, then she would go to her father and say that I had raped her.”

Here Achilles broke off. He swallowed and it looked like a tremendous effort. “You don’t know
what it feels like,” he continued shakily. “To be so completely at someone’s mercy that whatever
you choose, it’s not really a choice at all. I didn’t know what to do, I was barely thinking. My
fucking heart was going at a hundred miles per fucking hour, and there was all this fucking blood
in my ears. I couldn’t think straight. In the end, it didn’t sound like so much to do.

I didn’t realise how different it would be. She was everywhere, all over my skin and my body and
exactly where I did not want her. Her hands were so cold and her breath was hot and just…just
everywhere. When she saw how uncomfortable I was she grew frustrated. She kept saying things
like: “Men are supposed to enjoy this,” and “I have literally offered myself to you, you could at
least do your part.” It was maddening and so humiliating and I swear Patroclus, I have never
wanted to die before but at that moment I could think of nothing I wanted more.

When it was over she gave me this look of disdain, like she’d had better, and told me she would
call me if she needed anything else. And that was that.”

Achilles broke off, looking warily at Patroclus, gaging his reaction. Patroclus, who had listened in
horrified shock throughout the telling, felt as though words had been robbed from him. Finally he
managed to make some semblance of sound: “Did it happen once?”

“Three times,” replied Achilles. “When the mood took her. I don’t know why, it’s not like I gave
her much of a time. I think she just liked that I couldn’t say no. The power of it.”

He breathed out, an unsteady rattling sound, and rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand. “Can
you understand,” he said pleadingly. “Every time I look at her I feel that’s what I feel. The shame.
The embarrassment. The powerlessness. I don’t care if she’s a woman. I don’t care if she’s smaller
than me, weaker than me. I hate her for making me feel like that, even for a second.”

He looked away again, turning his head so that Patroclus couldn’t see his face. Patroclus was glad
of it; he didn’t want Achilles to see the guilt in his own features as he remembered how he had
doubted him, how he had lain awake at night with misgiving and all the while this is what Achilles
had been suffering. It was all that he could do to put his arms around him and hug him tightly and
hope that somehow Achilles would know how sorry he was, as he always seemed to know what
Patroclus was thinking, even and perhaps most especially when he did not know it himself.

Achilles’ arms climbed to circle his waist and gripped him so tightly Patroclus thought he might
break. Still he held him, pressing his cheek into the groove of Achilles’ shoulder as his other hand
stroked through his hair. He could feel Achilles shaking against him, his whole back shuddering
although no tears came. His nails clawed at Patroclus’ lower back, full of anger and bitterness and
relief all at once.

They stayed like that for a long time, until Achilles’ shaking had subsided and he was breathing,
heavily but steadily into Patroclus’ neck. Suddenly Patroclus felt him tense, the muscles of his back
growing rigid under his palms. “What is it?” Patroclus murmured.
“A ship,” Achilles’ replied, slinking his arms from around Patroclus to raise a level hand to his
brow. He was staring at the horizon.

Patroclus moved to stand next to him, squinting into the harsh light. He could just make out an
indistinct black smudge against the stark expanse of sky, too far away for mortal eyes to make any
clearer. “Can you see whose?”

“I don’t know…I…hold on,” Achilles narrowed his eyes, straining to see further. He took a few
steps forward, and then he frowned. “Black,” he answered at last. “And yellow sails.”

He turned to Patroclus and his face was utterly perplexed, mirroring how Patroclus felt himself.
“Odysseus,” he said, bemused. “But what’s he doing here?”

Patroclus shrugged, completely at a loss. What reason would Odysseus have to visit the far-flung
nothing of an island of Skyros? Unless…but no, it was impossible. Even though Penelope had been
the one to suggest Achilles assume a woman’s disguise, she’d had no knowledge of where Thetis
had decided to send him. Besides, what would Odysseus have to gain from being in league with
Agamemnon? He’d said before that he had no love for the man, and even less for pointless wars
far from the shores of Ithaca. Even so, it was better to be safe.

“Achilles,” Patroclus said urgently. “I’m sorry but…I think you should put on your disguise.”

Achilles stared at him as if he had gone mad. “No.”

“Please,” Patroclus begged him. “If it really is Odysseus then who knows what he’s come for? You
heard what your mother said: no one can know you’re here.”

“I thought we were friends with Odysseus.”

“We are,” Patroclus assured him. “But that doesn’t necessarily mean I trust him. Please, Achilles.”

For a few seconds, Achilles looked murderous. Then he swore loudly. “Fine,” he snarled. “For
fuck’s sake. Fine.”

He took off for the castle, kicking at the ground with his feet as he did so and raising little dust
clouds into the air. Patroclus sighed, running a hand through his hair distractedly as he tried to
think. Odysseus was coming, he would likely be here within three hours at the most. Odds were he
had no idea or interest of Achilles’ whereabouts; he was a pirate after all. Probably, he was just
looking for somewhere out of the way to unload his cargo. But if this was the case, and he didn’t
know that Achilles was here, then that would mean Patroclus would have to stay out of the way
too. For he of all people knew that where one was, the other would surely be.

Patroclus raced back to the palace, shouting everywhere for Phoenix. He found him deep in talk
with Lycomedes, no doubt apologising for Achilles’ conduct earlier. In the Hall servants were still
clearing away the remains of the catastrophic lunch from the walls and the floor; Deidamia was
nowhere to be seen. Patroclus strode up to the front of the Hall, ignoring the stares in his direction
and approached Phoenix.

“Odysseus is coming,” he told him in a rush. “He will be here in three hours, at the most.”

“The prince of Ithaca?” the old king brightened immediately, actually clapping his gnarly hands
together. “This is good news indeed. Trade has been slow of late. Ooh, I wonder if he will have
clams.”

Patroclus switched his attention to Lycomedes. “So he comes here often, then?” he demanded.
“For trade?”

“Well, I wouldn’t say often,” replied Lycomedes. “Truthfully, he comes not nearly often enough.
But when he does he brings very fine things indeed. In fact, I daresay a substantial part of our
economy is funded by his visits.”

Patroclus felt relief flood through him. So he had been right, and Odysseus was here for no other
reason except to rid himself of his goods. Still, Phoenix looked nearly as perturbed as he himself
had been, moments ago. “We must keep you and Achilles out of sight,” he said. “And I myself am
too easily recognised. We should don servants’ clothes and hoods, at the very least.”

Patroclus nodded in agreement. Clothes were fetched for them, rough, homespun tunics and
hooded cloaks which they pulled low over their faces. Achilles was banished to the women’s
quarters where he went, if not quite kicking and screaming, definitely hissing and spitting, trussed
up once again in his skirts and veil. He had barely vanished after the other ladies when there was a
knock at the door and a messenger entered the Hall, addressing Lycomedes.

“My lord, Prince Odysseus of Ithaca,” he announced with a bow.

“Actually,” came a politely amused voice that was very familiar. “Endless pardons for correcting
you but, it is in fact King of Ithaca now.”

From where Patroclus sat in a shadowy corner of the Hall he had to restrain himself from throwing
off his cloak, leaping up and grasping Odysseus’ hand. Odysseus looked nearly exactly the same as
when he had left Phthia. His thick, chestnut hair was slightly longer, his neat beard a little thicker
about his weathered brown face, but aside from that it seemed barely any time had passed since
their last meeting. He bowed courteously to Lycomedes, his sharp, clever eyes glittering as they
swept over the Hall.

Lycomedes frowned. “I am sorry to hear it,” he said. “Laertes was a good man. Still, I suppose a
congratulations are in order.”

Odysseus waved his hand dismissively. “They would be ill deserved,” he replied. “My services
were barely required. In fact, I did not have to do much at all, apart from stand around and mark the
time.”

At this, Patroclus saw instantly how much more popular Odysseus was in Skyros than in Phthia.
Several men cracked a smile whereas at home such a joke (patricide was always a sensitive
subject) would have resulted in many a stony face. Lycomedes himself laughed and beckoned
Odysseus and his crew on in, ordering his servants to help them carry the enormous caskets they
lugged behind them.

“Tell me my son,” Lycomedes addressed Odysseus heartily. “What have your adventures brought
us this day?”

“What indeed,” said Odysseus with a snakelike smile. “We were fortunate enough to...er…bump
into a merchant vessel, headed straight from the East. Take a look. I’m what we have here will be
of some interest to you, and particularly to the lovely ladies of your court. Consider this small
portion a gift to them.”

A sailor flung open one of the casket lids with his toe and Patroclus had to catch his breath. Inside
glittered such a haul of treasure as he had never seen before. Thick bolts of silk lay folded neatly in
shocks of rainbow colour. Rings, necklaces and brooches shone so brightly it hurt his eyes to look
and the rich smell of perfume seemed to rise from the loot, permeating the dank gloom of the Hall
along with spices and herbs, no doubt brought back from some far off country Odysseus knew like
the back of his hand. Patroclus saw Lycomedes’ eyes widen as he licked his lips, dry with greed.

“Yes you are right,” he murmured. “Deidamia should see this, Gods know she needs cheering
enough.” He clicked his fingers at a servant hovering nearby. “Fetch Deidamia and her girls.”

The servant departed and a moment lady the door behind Lycomedes was opening, the girls
streaming out with Deidamia at the front, looking haughty and expectant. Patroclus craned his neck
for Achilles who was trailing reluctantly behind, wearing a sea green dress and veil. Patroclus
glanced warily at Odysseus, however he was smiling politely at all the ladies and did not seem to
be paying any particular attention to the uncommonly tall, sulky-looking one at the back.

“Feel free to have a rummage,” Odysseus told them genially, gesturing at the open casket.

The girls released cries of glee and, encouraged by Deidamia, fell on the loot like ravenous ravens
over a carcass. Patroclus could hardly blame them; living in Skryos it could not be too often that
they were exposed to such treasures. He watched as previously demure hands snatched at coral
necklaces and mother-of-pearl compacts, sending gems and jewellery flying over their shoulders in
the scuffle. Achilles hung back, smirking as two girls fought over a pair of jade ear-rings. There
was a sword and shield set that someone had pulled out and abandoned and Patroclus saw his eyes
travel over to it. Instead, Achilles reached out his fingers and lightly touched the handle of a little
bronze mirror which he lifted to his face and mimed pouting into. Patroclus suppressed a grin.
Achilles put the mirror down.

It happened very quickly. A blast slashed through the air like a foghorn, causing several hands to
shoot up over ears protectively against the sound. Patroclus, who knew well enough what a sound
like that meant, leapt to his feet as did every other man in the Hall. We’re under attack. His hands
moved automatically to his belt for a weapon, only to find himself unarmed. He cast about him
despairingly for a dagger or some small knife. Around him the girls’ previous squeals of delight
had risen to screams of real fear as they huddled instinctively together, watching the door for
soldiers or bandits. And Achilles…Achilles had acted as he had been born to act. Without thinking,
he grabbed the nearest weapon in his sight; the sword and shield set. The shield he tossed at
Patroclus who caught it one handed before assuming the natural pose of the Myrmidon warrior;
calm, watchful, ready for war.

There was silence as every eye was trained on the door, waiting for it to burst open and for Hell to
unleash. Then, Odysseus started clapping.

“Bravo Achilles,” he said, and Patroclus was shocked to see that he was grinning. “Bravo. Truly
magnificent performance.”

For a moment, Achilles looked confused. He glanced down at the sword he was holding in his
hand, at his own body, his limbs, poised for attack. He looked at Odysseus. His expression cleared
to be replaced by one that was infinitely more savage.

“Motherfucker,” he swore.

oOo

“I really am sorry.”

“Don’t talk to me.”

“I know, it was a mean trick. I deserve it. Please, I beg your pardon.”
“No. You’re a betrayer of trust.”

Odysseus nodded ruefully and turned away from Achilles whose lip was curled and chin raised
away from him in defiance. He turned to Patroclus, gesturing sadly. “Achilles isn’t speaking to
me.”

“I don’t know why you think I am,” Patroclus replied.

The Hall had been emptied once again and the only people left in it were the three of them,
Lycomedes, who was sitting with his head in his hands and Phoenix whose mouth was as thin as
Patroclus had ever seen it. Deidamia, who had refused point blank to be sent away, had had to be
dragged out screaming and cursing. Everyone, Achilles and Patroclus included, was looking at
Odysseus with resentment.

“What are you doing here?” asked Phoenix angrily. “What do you want with Achilles?”

“Nothing myself, barring forgiveness,” answered Odysseus gravely. “But, as you have no doubt
worked out for yourselves, I come on behalf of Agamemnon. He has, in his wisdom, set me the
task of finding you as he has failed to do himself, and upon achieving that, persuade you into
coming with us to Troy.”

Here he broke off to look mournfully at Achilles who raised an eyebrow in disdain. “Well I think
we can all safely say that’s a no,” he said. “So why don’t we skip that, and you can tell us all how
you found me?”

Odysseus inclined his head in acquiescence before addressing Patroclus. “It wasn’t Penelope, if
that’s what you were wondering,” he assured him. “Actually, it was the captain of that same
merchant vessel which was so generous to us. After we took his ship I treated him to a cup of wine
before dropping him off at Cyprus; it was then that he regaled me with stories of the most beautiful
of Princess Deidamia’s women, tall as a giant, with a charmingly deep voice.”

Achilles flushed angrily. “I should have known you’d have your spies everywhere,” he said
waspishly.

“Naturally,” agreed Odysseus. “Not that you’ve been particularly discreet. I saw enough evidence
of your presence in the townsfolk’s hobbling the moment I arrived. Anyhow, that is by the by. I
know that you think you have set your heart against coming with us Achilles, but I really think the
least you can do is hear me out.”

He paused, as if waiting for Achilles to give him permission. Achilles glanced at Patroclus who
shrugged. Despite his less than friendly feelings towards Odysseus at this moment, Patroclus did
not like the idea of him having come all this way for nothing.

Achilles made an assenting gesture. “Go on then,” he said. “Make it quick.”

Odysseus took a breath and dived in without further hesitation. “You will likely have heard from
my wife that his brother’s honour is the least of Agamemnon’s priorities,” he began. “She is
absolutely right. Agamemnon does not give a rat’s sneeze for Helen. The city of Troy is the jewel
of the Dardanelles. Its walls have never been breached. It boasts the finest army this generation has
ever seen and, some say, the best warriors this generation has ever seen.”

Here Achilles scoffed and it was Odysseus’ turn to raise an eyebrow. “You may laugh Achilles,”
he said. “But in terms of kudos these past few months of obscurity have cost you dear. The Trojan
prince Hector is strong in fame as he is in arm and I have heard more than one describe him as
more than a match for the boy Achilles-”

“-Talk like that won’t get you anywhere,” Patroclus interrupted him, knowing full well that yes, it
would, and he should cut him off now before Achilles began to look anymore perturbed. “Finish
your pitch.”

“Agamemnon needs the greatest force Greece can muster to take Troy,” Odysseus continued. “You
can consider yourself part of that number, or you can hide behind your mothers’ skirts until it all
blows over. But take it from me, you will not want to miss out on this one.”

“Agamemnon made it sound as though it would be over by next Beltane,” Achilles frowned.

“Agamemnon is a liar,” Odysseus said simply. “This war will be the biggest history has ever seen.
I cannot say how long it will last.”

“There will be other wars,” Achilles argued, stung.

“Not like this one,” Odysseus shook his head. “The Fates have spoken. Those who fight at Troy
will be remembered for ever, and those who don’t will be mocked as cowards for just as long.”

“Is that what sold it to you, then?” asked Patroclus, unconvinced. “Everlasting glory?”

Odysseus swivelled his gaze back to Patroclus. “Of course,” he replied levelly.

“LIAR!”

Every head in the Hall whipped round as the booming voice rebounded off every wall. A sudden
strong gust of wind and salty spray had Patroclus raising his hands to his eyes; when he removed
them he was shocked to see Thetis, standing in the centre of the room as if she had been there all
along, a pool of water puddling around her damp feet.

“Mother!” Achilles cried, rushing to greet her. “How did you get here?”

Thetis blinked at Achilles as if he were a fool. “Obviously I swam,” she replied.

As if on cue, Odysseus sank gallantly to his feet. “My lady,” he exclaimed with grave solemnity.
“What an honour to see you again looking so well.”

“Quiet, worm-face!” Thetis screeched, flinging out an accusing finger. “Don’t listen to a word he
says! He is a liar and a serpent and he doesn’t pay import tax.”

“That is bad,” Patroclus told him severely.

“Pirate,” reiterated Odysseus.

“Achilles,” Thetis swept over and clasped Achilles’ cheeks between her bone white hands. Her
voice was shaking with urgency. “You must listen to me. Whatever he tells you is a lie.”

“It’s a lie that he’s going to be missing out on the biggest siege in history, is it?” quipped Odysseus.

“You don’t even want to go!” Thetis yelled. “Agamemnon said you had to, because you signed
that stupid Oath, and then when he tried to call you in on it, you pretended to be mad so that you
wouldn’t have to!”

“Is that true?” Patroclus demanded.

Odysseus looked as sheepish as it was possible for him to manage. “Alright,” he admitted, stroking
his triangular beard. “It’s true that my very clever Oath did land me in a spot of trouble. And it’s
possible that I did feign madness to get out of that trouble. But apparently, if you’re sane enough to
know not to kill your baby son, you are also sane enough to get yourself killed somewhere in
Anatolia. HOWEVER. Now that I have been…er…recruited, I’m pleased to say that I’m very
happy with how things turned out.”

“You drip poison into their ears,” Thetis screeched. “You are nothing but a puppet of the Black
King, doing his bidding without grace or question!”

“Come now,” Odysseus said, and Patroclus heard a note of impatience in his voice. “I don’t like
Agamemnon any more than the next man. But he is the way the world is going. He has put
together a force of a thousand ships. A thousand ships, Achilles. To not take advantage of his greed
really would be madness.”

“You’re nothing but an opportunist,” said Thetis scathingly.

“Noted,” Odysseus accepted. “However, you are an obstruction, Thetis, and I should think it just
about high time that you tell your son the real reason you do not want him to go to Troy.”

Silence fell as both Achilles and Patroclus turned to gape at Thetis. Her face was chalk white, her
green-gold eyes stretched wide in shocked horror. She looked as though she had just been struck.

“How do you know?” she whispered.

Odysseus gave her a withering look. “You know how I know.”

Thetis spat onto the floor. “Athena is a cow,” she said viciously and then she sighed and all trace
of resistance melted from her face, leaving a deep and harrowing sorrow. “Alright,” she muttered
heavily. “Alright. Achilles, this is how it will be: If you go to Troy, you will die.”

Patroclus felt as though something had dropped inside his stomach. Achilles blinked and was about
to say something when Odysseus interrupted with a sharp tutting sound, saying, “And the rest.”

Thetis glared at him and Patroclus thought Odysseus must have Athena’s protection indeed if he
could withstand such wrath. “If you go to Troy you will die young, but with glory,” she said. “Your
story will be told a thousand years to come, your name will be remembered forever more. But, if
you should stay, you will live a long and happy life, in peace and in obscurity. No one will
remember your name.”

Thetis crossed her arms and set her lip and Patroclus saw tears pooling in her angry, sorrowful eyes.

Achilles was frowning. “Is this one of your prophecies?” he asked slowly.

Thetis nodded. “Yes.”

“Oh,” Achilles’ face cleared. “Well. I’ll be alright then.”

“Achilles,” Odysseus said sharply. “I would encourage you with all my heart not to take this
lightly. This prophecy was written a long time before you were born. The Fates made it known to
me long before they revealed it to your mother. I would urge you to consider it well. It may not just
be you that your choice affects.”

Achilles’ eyes flitted briefly to Patroclus and then back to Thetis. His face was desperate and
uncertain, he looked for all the world like a little boy, lost and confused and not knowing who to
please. And like any little boy, he appealed to his mother. “What should I do?”

They were the entirely wrong words. “DO NOT ASK ME,” Thetis screeched. “Do not ask me to
even think on this burden, which I have carried in my breast alone and in suffering…do not ask me
to make that choice…to give up my son…my only son…”

The tears were coming thick and fast down her cheeks, her thin chest wracked and heaving with
sobs. Without another word she flung herself from the Hall, her silver-edged feet leaving a pitter-
patter of wet marks on the flagstones. “Mother,” Achilles groaned before taking off after her.
Patroclus made to follow when he was prevented by a strong grip on his arm.

“Patroclus wait,” said Odysseus urgently. “There is more.”

“More?” Patroclus raised an eyebrow. “Don’t you think you’ve said enough?”

Odysseus looked pained. “I have said no more than what should have been many months ago,” he
replied heavily. “But I cannot let you make any decision before you hear the whole of it.
Patroclus…there is a prophecy about you also.”

He released Patroclus’ arm and Patroclus, struck by the words, made no move to go. He knew in
his heart however exactly what Odysseus was going to say before he did so, and it seemed to him
that the words that came from his mouth were not spoken by him but by an old crone in a forest in
Thessaly, before a statue of a woman.

“In some ways, your prophecy is the mirror of Achilles’,” Odysseus began. “If you go to Troy, you
will be remembered yes, but only as a companion to Achilles’. Next to him, your future will be
dulled by the light of his glory. However, if you should stay, you will become a great king of
legend and no man will ever match your fame.”

He looked at Patroclus and, with the twinkle of amusement gone, his eyes were more serious than
he had ever seen them. “Think on it well,” he said at last before gesturing towards the door. “Go.”

For a moment Patroclus still found that he could not move, for his head was spinning. Then he
heard Thetis’ voice raised to the heavens and Achilles’, desperate and pleading in answer; he
turned on his heel and ran from the Hall and the words of the prophecy ran with him.

oOo

Evening fell like no other had ever fallen before. It took nearly two hours to calm Thetis, to talk her
down from her state of mounting distress until she was weeping quietly into Achilles’ shoulder as
he stroked her twisted knots of red hair. When at last he assured her with a final “I will think on it”
she stood up and dived into the sea, transforming herself into a silver salmon which slipped away
into the current, leaving a silver trail behind her, like the last of her tears.

There were no guest rooms available and so Odysseus and his men were housed in the stables for
the night. They would be sailing back to Agamemnon in the morning, and Achilles told Odysseus
he would have his answer ready by then.

In the meantime, Achilles and Patroclus headed to the room that they now shared. After making
sure that the door was locked and they could not be heard, Patroclus stood and faced Achilles.
“You can’t go,” he said.

Achilles looked at him quizzically. “I think I can.”

This was it. The moment all the events of Patroclus’ life had been leading up to; a cold room, a
warm boy, a future within grasp. He knew now that he was at a crossroads, and that whatever was
decided this night would decide their future. He stared at Achilles, thinking how he could possibly
make him aware of the same if he didn’t realise it now himself. “Didn’t you hear them?” he
demanded. “If you go to Troy you will die.”

“And if I stay I will also die,” Achilles agreed. “It will just be a longer, slower, more unbearable
sort of death with nothing at the end to show for it. I was listening, Patroclus.”

Patroclus dropped his head into his hands. There was a ringing in his ears and he could feel the
pressure rising inside him. He tried to count backwards from ten but felt that his mind couldn’t grip
on the numbers. “You will have a long life,” he forced out. “A happy one. You will take your
father’s place as King of Phthia and you will have many children and they will remember you-”

“-With Deidamia,” Achilles spat the name as if it were foul tasting. “Patroclus, you know as well
as I that any life with her is no life at all. Anyway, even if it were any other woman that kind of life
isn’t for me. I wasn’t meant to play the loving father, the doting husband. I wasn’t made that way.”

“So what are you saying?” retorted Patroclus harshly. “That you were made to kill instead? That
you were made for war and blood and death and destruction and they are all much nobler causes
than peace or stability or happiness?”

“It wouldn’t be happiness,” Achilles replied moodily. “It would be a slow rotting process.”

“You are unbelievable,” Patroclus snarled. “Do you know that there are men who force themselves
to fight, purely out of the hope that one day they will be able to come home again and live in
peace? And here you are, with a lifetime of promised peace before you, and you’re about to throw
it away for a boy’s dream of glory?”

Patroclus broke off, breathless from resentment and frustration. Achilles’ eyes flickered from his
hands, bunched into fists, before they fixed on him severely. “Patroclus,” he said softly. “Both you
and I know that neither of us were meant for peace. I’ve seen you on a battlefield. I’ve seen you off
it. You want fame and glory, same as I do. So why don’t you drop the parent act and we’ll talk
about what’s really upsetting you.”

Patroclus felt like he could have punched him. His fists shook as the muscles in his arms tensed
with fury and with grief, he could feel the water welling up at the back of his eyes as he yelled at
Achilles: “I don’t want you to die!”

Achilles nodded, as if they had finally come to the root of a matter after great deliberation. “Right,”
he said crisply. “I thought that might have something to do with it. Well, you needn’t worry
because I probably won’t.”

Patroclus gaped at him, aghast. “But the prophecy-”

“-The prophecy was made by my mother, who wants me to stay,” Achilles finished for him. “And
confirmed by Odysseus, who wants me to go. Either way, all I have is the word of two people, both
with their own agendas. Not enough evidence for me, I’m afraid. Besides, these things always have
loopholes. Worst comes to the worst, we’ll find our way around it.”

He said it so simply, so matter-of-fact that against his better judgement, Patroclus couldn’t help but
trust him. It was always this trick, this easy confidence and total belief in himself that had others
doubting their own reasoning, thinking that maybe this could work, if Achilles believed it so. Then
he heard Thetis’ words, shaking with suppressed tears and he felt like he was drowning. Clearly it
showed on his face because Achilles crossed over to him, and gently hooked his chin with his
finger.

“Patroclus,” he breathed softly. “Look at me.”

Patroclus did.

“I’m not going to die,” Achilles said. “Listen. I’m not going to die. They won’t let me. I’m
Achilles. I’m not going to die.”

And with the last word he kissed him. And to Patroclus it felt a little bit like a death, only because
he knew it was the end of one path and the beginning of another, and maybe there had been a
choice once but only so much as it had been a choice to love Achilles, and that had not been much
of one at all.

In the end, all things were as they were. Inevitable.

They undressed slowly, relishing the feeling of each other’s bodies after so long a time. Achilles
climbed out of his dress, almost tripping over the hem and instinctively Patroclus’ hands darted to
his chest, desperate to feel the firm pack of his pectorals, disguised as they had been under the
many folds of material. Achilles kissed Patroclus hungrily, moving his hands from his waist to
scrape his lower back. As Patroclus slid his palms over Achilles’ nipples he groaned, slipping
down to clench Patroclus’ ass. Patroclus arched into him with a moan, and felt a matching hardness
nudge against his thigh.

Patroclus could hear Achilles’ breathing growing laboured as Patroclus hands continued to move
ceaselessly over his chest. His forehead dropped against Patroclus who could hardly keep from
making the ridiculous, shameless panting noises as he ground against Achilles’ thigh. Achilles
kissed him again, catching his bottom lip with his teeth before shoving him non-too gently towards
the bed. Patroclus landed on the mattress with a light thump and then Achilles was straddling him,
reaching down to catch the skin of his neck between his teeth. Patroclus moaned, hands reaching to
claw the muscles of Achilles’ back as Achilles continued to kiss and suck at his neck, grinning
every time Patroclus’ hips bucked upwards.

To have all of Achilles now, after so long, it was almost too much. Patroclus could feel himself
becoming impatient as Achilles’ tongue flicked lazily at his throat and down to his collar bone.
Patroclus was just reaching to grasp between Achilles’ legs when he felt a gentle hand stop him.

“Wait Patroclus,” he said softly. “I…I want…”

“What is it?” asked Patroclus. Looking up into Achilles’ flushed face, his lips bruised and hair a
mess over his pink cheeks he felt ready to give him anything.

Achilles told him. Patroclus felt his heart leap into his chest as his pulse skipped a beat. He gripped
Achilles’ wrist tightly. “Are you sure?” he asked, voice laced with concern. “Even after…”

“I have never been surer of anything in my life,” Achilles cut him off sharply. “I want you,
Patroclus. I need you. Please.”

Patroclus licked his lips, suddenly dry with nervousness. His pulse was racing like a wild horse, it
was all he could do to nod detachedly. “Alright,” he murmured. “Pass me…that. Over there.”

Achilles looked over to where Patroclus was pointing and climbed off the bed to the chest where a
small bottle of oil sat for anointing. Achilles handed it to Patroclus who took it with shaking
fingers, trying hard to keep his hands steady as he struggled to uncork it. He kissed Achilles again,
grasping his shoulders and directing him gently into laying on his stomach.
“Okay, are you sure?” Patroclus asked again.

“I already said I was,” replied Achilles irritably but Patroclus could hear the skip in his breathing.

Patroclus poured the oil over his fingers. Then, taking a deep breath, he slid one inside Achilles.
“How’s that?”

He could see the edges of Achilles’ frown against the sheets. “Weird,” he said after a moment.

Patroclus pushed deeper. For a while nothing happened and, feeling fairly stupid, he was about to
give up when suddenly Achilles yelped and jolted up from the mattress, as if he had been touched
with a hot poker.

“Oh my Gods I’m sorry I’m sorry I’m sorry,” Patroclus blabbered, terrified that he’d hurt him.

“It’s really nothing you need to apologise for,” Achilles replied through gritted teeth and Patroclus
saw how he clenched the sheets of the mattress, the muscles in his back shifting like the coils of a
snake.

“Oh,” said Patroclus, understanding dawning, and he added another finger, crooking it at the same
angle. At once Achilles bucked his hips again, arching nearly completely off the mattress as his
nails curled into the sheets. Patroclus exploited this new found weakness until he had turned
Achilles into a writhing, swearing mess, moaning and muttering unintelligibly into his own fist.

“Fucking hell,” his growl was half a sob. “Fucking do it Patroclus, fuck me!”

“Alright, Gods,” said Patroclus, his amusement disguising the nerves still fluttering beneath his
skin. He coated himself liberally, hands shaking so wildly that he spilled half the oil onto the bed
and on Achilles, before lining himself up. He placed a steadying hand on Achilles’ shoulder, pulled
tense as a bowstring. “Are you ready?”

“Do it,” Achilles ordered him, sounding oddly strangled.

Slowly, Patroclus slid himself in. As he enveloped himself in Achilles’ impossible heat he felt his
mind go numb, all possible thought disintegrating into nothing. Then he heard Achilles hiss,
bringing him back to earth. He pushed further and Achilles gasped before grinding his teeth.

“Does it hurt?”

“Don’t be stupid, of course it fucking hurts.”

“Oh my Gods I’m so sorry, I’ll stop-”

“-NO, don’t. Stop apologising. Just…move.”

Patroclus took another breath, pulling back slightly before thrusting back in again. Achilles’ hips
twitched, his muscles lengthening as he forced himself to relax. Patroclus pulled back again, trying
to find that angle and when he did Achilles shouted out. Patroclus slid back and hit it again, trying
to keep his movements slow and languid until he heard Achilles whimper.

“Faster,” he moaned.

Patroclus increased his pace, trying to find a rhythm. It was getting far too much, the feel of
Achilles around him, the heat of him, all of it so urgently present Patroclus could feel his focus on
reality slipping. He was aware of the own noises he was making, as well as Achilles gasping on
every thrust, his face buried into the mattress as Patroclus held onto his hips and shoulders. It was
better than anything he’d ever imagined, he could feel the pool of pleasure curling and rising in his
stomach, building up so that it was almost unbearable.

“Achilles,” he gasped. “Fuck.”

Achilles cried back throatily, reaching down to take himself in hand. Patroclus batted his hand
away to do it himself, trying to keep his strokes in time with his thrusts. The heat in his stomach
was rising so fast he could barely think, he just had time to gasp, “I’m gonna-” before he was
coming so hard that he was almost blinded by it, falling back against Achilles’ back and clinging
as if it were a life raft. A moment later Achilles choked “Patroclus” and he too was coming in
shuddering tides until he had collapsed, boneless onto the mattress.

They lay there, too stunned to do much else except pant, trying to get their breaths back. Achilles
was shivering so hard that his teeth were chattering. Patroclus slid an arm round him and Achilles
crawled onto his chest, reaching over to grip his torso. Patroclus could feel his whole body
shuddering, Achilles’ heart going so fast he could hear it as well as feel it thundering against his
ribs.

“I take it back,” Achilles spoke, voice unsteady. “I think maybe I could die. I think you just killed
me.”

Patroclus forced a laugh, reaching up to touch the rose-flushed back of his neck, sliding his fingers
through Achilles’ hair. “That is in very bad taste.”

“Do you want to know something?”

“I don’t know, do I?”

“Yes. What I was thinking of: I was thinking of you and me in Troy. Taking the city. Just the two
of us.”

Patroclus felt his breath catch even as he frowned down at Achilles, his index curling round the
shell of his ear. In his mind’s eye he saw a black city, flames curling around the parapets and at the
steps two figures watching the walls crumble. “You have a lot of unresolved issues,” he managed.

“Good thing I’ve found an outlet, right?”

“Are we talking about Troy or what we just did?”

Achilles’ smile was wicked and knife bright. “Is there a difference?”

Patroclus scoffed and turned his face away. A moment later, he felt the pads of Achilles’ fingers,
feather light, brushing against his jaw. “Hey. Look at me. Hey.”

Patroclus looked at him. Achilles swallowed. “If I go,” he began. “Will you come with me?”

Anger, instant and inexplicable, reared up inside Patroclus and he glared at Achilles fiercely. “You
know you don’t have to ask that,” he told him ferociously.

“I know,” said Achilles. “But I want to. Please, Patroclus. Will you go with me?”

Patroclus blinked and a tear he didn’t know he was holding back slipped from his eyelashes. If
there had been water, it would have rippled. He felt his words had the same effect as he held
Achilles’ gaze and gripped his hand, a hand that could have the whole world, if it wanted.
 “Wherever you go, I will go with you.”

Chapter End Notes

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Chapter Notes

It’s a very strange feeling to finish something that you started three years ago. Having
just returned from the first of hopefully many adventures, the feeling I was aware of
most acutely was that of ‘the return’. It’s a cliché but only because it’s true: the person
who comes back is never quite the same as the one who went away. When I started
this story, I was 16. I was emerging from a particularly dark (wrong word. ‘Grey’ is
better) period in my life and I hadn’t written anything in months. For so long I’d lost
interest in everything and couldn’t be bothered to write because I had so little
motivation and inspiration. I read The Iliad and afterwards The Song of Achilles and
maybe it’s a cliché as well but again, only because it’s true: those books brought me
back. I discovered a new world, the world of classics and history and mythology and it
was such a relief because honestly, I couldn’t remember the last time I was truly,
deeply interested in something, with that nerdy passion that’s all consuming and
makes your friends beg you to “Shut the fuck up about Penthesilea already!” and I will
never, ever stop being thankful for that.

So, drunk on inspiration for the first time in an age I started this, purely out of self-
indulgence, a chance to learn more about mythology and a means of getting back into
writing again. It’s three years later and to this day I’m still getting over the response.
You guys have stuck with this, some of you from the very beginning (what the fuck???
You people are the real heroes. Like, kleos for ever man) even through the tragedy
that is my updating ability, you’ve commented, you’ve criticised, some of you have
even made fan art and fiction based on this. Even in my most apathetic moments
you’ve been sending me tumblr messages, telling me you’re still interested and excited
to know what happens next and that would be the push I needed to get out the next
chapter.

In all seriousness, this should not have taken three years. But I am a complete and utter
wasteman and sometimes getting out of bed in the morning is an effort so here we are.
I’m 19. I start uni this September, the next big adventure of my life, and the girl who
wrote the first chapter is a very different person to the one who has written the last.
Much like Patroclus, I feel like I’ve come full circle, and yet somehow I’m changed.
It’s a return, a sad one, but a very happy one as well and there just aren’t enough words
to express to you how grateful I am for the hand you’ve had in it.

Thank you. I love you all so very much.

All things are as they are: inevitable.

On the last day in Skyros, Patroclus rose with the dawn. He was up before the sky had yet to
completely recover from the night before when there were still navy shadows clinging to the
fringes of the horizon, edges vanishing into a yawning sea. Patroclus stood with his arms wrapped
tight around his torso, guarding against the early morning chill, and blinking away wind and salt as
he gazed at the ocean. The tide was just coming in and the foam cantered lazily onto the sand with
each tug of the waves, Poseidon letting loose his horses while he stretched and clicked his muscles.
A weak, early sun fell on the surface of the water, burnishing the skyline gold. His mother used to
call it Amphitrite’s necklace, when it was like this, as if the horizon were a trinket to grace the
throat of the sea god’s wife. When he was younger, Patroclus had taken her literally and at times
when he’d felt particularly lonely, or his father’s bruises were burning particularly fresh, he would
take himself down to the shoreline and pray to the kindly goddess for strength and courage. As he
got older, and his thoughts on such things turned more cynical, his gazing at the ocean became
more of a search for answers, a kind of meditation that was as much of an outward plea as it was
inward, a call on the forces of nature to align themselves with him and to explain to him his place
in a world that was so much greater and wilder than he was.

He didn’t know when the change had happened, and he’s learned to look at the sea without asking
it things.

“Beautiful, isn’t it?” came a soft voice at his elbow.

Patroclus didn’t need to look up to see who it was and his eyes remained fixed forward as Odysseus
came and stood next to him. He was wearing a thick cloak, made for travelling and harsh weather,
and his hands were buried deep inside it.

“I often wonder,” he began. “Why the Gods didn’t go the whole hog and make more of the world
Ocean. I’ve been so many places, seen lands and kingdoms you wouldn’t believe, and still nothing
ever compares.”

Patroclus snuck a look at him. Although the words were laced with all the typical hyperbole of a
poet, there was nothing poetic in the adventurer’s expression. He looked out at the waves with
absolute conviction, and Patroclus knew he had meant what he said.

“Is that why you travel?” Patroclus asked him. “Because you love the sea so much?”

Odysseus made an assenting gesture. “Partly,” he confirmed. “But more than that; I travel because
the sea is the only place that I have ever really been able to call home. Or,” he added with an
afterthought. “I should say it was.”

“What changed?” asked Patroclus.

“Penelope,” Odysseus replied. “Now, wherever she is is my home. Which is a damn shame, to be
perfectly honest. Before I met her I felt I could travel till my dying day. Now, I get sea-sick if I’m
away for more than a month. I’m afraid marriage has made me a truly sub-standard pirate.”

His tone was jovial, full of laughter, but being friends with a liar had made Patroclus only more
attune to when he was telling the truth.

“Why doesn’t she come with you?” Patroclus asked.

He didn’t just mean on his adventures, and he thought Odysseus understood the inference as he
hesitated before replying. “Oh I think she would do,” he answered at last. “It was one of the
conditions of our marriage actually. That if she agreed I would take her with me, to see the
pyramids of Egypt and the legendary tombs of the Aethiopes, the Nile and the Ganges...but there
are certain things we want to keep from those we care about from seeing. There is very little
adventure in watching a city burn.”

Patroclus felt an involuntary shiver run down his spine at the hollow, bluntness with which
Odysseus spoke. He swallowed dryly before asking, in a small voice, “Will it really be that bad?”

Odysseus sighed, drawing his cloak tighter round himself as a particularly bitter wind blew past.
“War is always bad,” he admitted finally. “I have never one to see much glory in the bloody
hacking of limbs, the raping of women and children, the pillaging of homes. I realise I’m in a
minority here; I have been called ‘coward’ more times that I can count on one hand. Personally, I
think that if the Gods have any plans of fame for me, they shall not be distinguished on the
battlefield. However, that is only my destiny, and who am I to belittle the fates of other men?”

Here he looked at Patroclus, and in that look was a wisdom of such depth as could not come from
any ordinary mortal and Patroclus remembered with startling clarity, that this man was said to be a
favourite of Athena. This realisation made him want to avert his gaze, all at once embarrassed and
a little fearful.

“You’ve made your decision,” said Odysseus. It was not a question.

Patroclus nodded. “Yes.”

Odysseus let out a sigh and Patroclus was surprised to hear how melancholic it was. “I cannot
make any pretence at shock,” he began. “But I feel I would be remiss as a friend if I were not to
ask: are you absolutely sure? Achilles is hardly the type to believe in his own mortality but
Patroclus, the prophesy states in no uncertain terms that if he goes he will die. There is no future
for you, for either of you, in Troy. But if you stay...Patroclus, if you stay you’ll be king.”

“I know what the prophesy said,” said Patroclus irritably. “But I’m sorry, a life without Achilles
isn’t a life at all. If he is fated to die in Troy so be it. I don’t plan on out-living him.”

“I thought you might say that,” remarked Odysseus ruefully. “And I see that you are not to be
pressed further. But I will just make clear to you: do not harbour any illusions that by going with
him he will somehow be saved. No man can change the course of destiny. Not even such a one as
brave and noble as yourself.”

Patroclus said nothing. Understanding that he had spoken enough, Odysseus sighed again, running
a hand through his windswept brown hair.

“We set sail at noon,” he spoke again after a while. “The plan is for you, Achilles and Phoenix to
return to Phthia, to make ready the Myrmidons and make your goodbyes. In three days’ time I will
met you with Agamemnon at Aulis. Phoenix will explain the details.”

Patroclus nodded, a silent dismissal, and Odysseus understood it as much. He turned away and
headed back up the beach, however as his footsteps had begun to grow familiar Patroclus heard
him pause in greeting of a new arrival, heard the two clasp hands and then the sounds of new feet
on the sand.

“Hello,” said Achilles. “What are you doing out here?”

Patroclus removed his gaze from the horizon to rest on Achilles. Looking into his face, wide eyed
and innocent, with no hint of the wild clashing turbulence beneath, he felt there wasn’t all that
much difference between his face and the expanse in front of him.

“I was remembering,” started Patroclus. “About how when I was little, I used to come down to the
beach and ask the sea for things.”

Achilles snorted contemptuously. “That’s very foolish.”

“I mean, I was about seven.”

“It would have been foolish at any age,” Achilles continued. “You shouldn’t stake your fortune on
something so fickle, and callous. If there’s one thing I know about the sea it’s that it doesn’t give
two shits, not about you, or anything else. Nor does any force of nature. That’s why people make
their Gods human.”

Patroclus smiled privately to himself. “You talk about the Gods as if we invented them,” he told
Achilles. “Like you don’t know that they’re real.”

“Oh I think they’re real enough,” Achilles shrugged. “But who’s to say that means we didn’t invent
them?”

Patroclus rolled his eyes, returning his attention to the gentle dragging of the tide. Achilles
appeared to be contemplating, he was chewing his lip as if deep in thought.

“Of course,” he started up again. “I’ll believe and say anything they want me to, and make a dozen
sacrifices, while we’re at Troy. I get the feeling we’ll be needing a little more than the sea on our
side, against Hector.”

“Who are you thinking?”

“Athena. Hera. Maybe Ares, I don’t know.”

“How about Apollo?”

Achilles made a face. “I don’t like Apollo.”

Patroclus clasped his ears in horror. “Gods,” he hissed. “We’re going to war. You can’t say things
like that!”

Achilles snickered and Patroclus whacked him. “What about Hades?” Patroclus asked.
“Considering the prophecy, having death on your side can be no bad thing.”

Achilles shook his head. “Nah,” he replied. “Hades can fight me.”

Patroclus was saved the responsibility of begging forgiveness for both their souls by Achilles’
slinging an arm heavily around his shoulders, steering him back towards the palace.

“This kind of talk bores me,” he said. “Let’s find some food.”

oOo

The ships were made ready and at midday Achilles and Patroclus were finalising the provisions for
the return to Phthia. Even in such circumstances, or perhaps especially so, neither of them could
suppress their eagerness for the return and they prepared for the journey with the utmost haste.
Finally, when all the luggage had been packed and Achilles’ dresses neatly stowed and folded
away, all that was left to do were the goodbyes.

Unfortunately, this was the part that Patroclus had most been dreading.

Daedemia had been alternating between screaming fits and hysterical crying since Odysseus’
arrival. Patroclus, who now felt he had rather a good grasp on the character of the princess, was
hard pressed to feel much sympathy. Indeed, it became quite plain to him that Daedemia’s tears
were more of a plea for sympathy and attention than any real distress and while he pitied anyone
who had to resort to such measures to be of notice, after Achilles’ account it was hard for him to
feel much more than revulsion when he looked at Daedemia. However, he still could not suppress
the stirring of humanity he felt when, at the hour of leaving, Daedemia rushed at Achilles, gripping
the folds of his chiton with tears lacerating her cheeks.

“You can’t leave!” she screamed at him. “You can’t!”

“I absolutely can,” snarled Achilles, tearing away from her.

But Daedemia held on fast, curling her fingers around his ankles, as if she were a taloned harpy.
“But our son!” she wailed. “Our baby! You’d leave me here to birth him and raise him on my
own?”

“On your own, or with whomever you can coerce into bed with you,” Achilles replied. “I don’t
care.”

He tugged away from her impatiently but Daedemia only wept harder, sinking her nails deep into
his skin. Achilles’ eyes blazed and there was no trace of compassion as he turned them on her.

“Let go of me,” he ordered in no uncertain terms. “Or I will do something I’ll regret.”

At the look on her face, furious and terrible in a way that no mere mortal could manage, Daedemia
released him with horror, as if she had been scalded. As Achilles whirled away from her however,
her face changed from distress to pure hatred.

“Very well husband,” she choked, anger ringing through her sobs. “Leave me as you will. But
know this: your son will grow up knowing exactly what kind of monster you are, and he will hate
you for it!”

For a brief instant, Achilles looked troubled. It was no light thing to speak of the relationship
between father and son, since the beginning of the world it had been at the centre of some of the
very darkest stories. But the moment passed and Achilles’ face was as hard and cold as it had ever
been.

“Do what you want,” he told her before shutting himself off completely and turning away.

Daedemia’s bottom lip trembled, however she rose resolutely to her feet, her fists tense with
loathing. Automatically her hands passed over belly, as if through touch along she could pass some
of that emotion to the infant sleeping there. Achilles grit his teeth and walked over to Lycomedes
who stood, surveying the scene with bitter distaste.

“I curse the day the day your brother brought you to this house,” said the old man.

“Then we have that in common,” replied Achilles.

There was not much more to be said. After a last long, harrowing look Lycomedes led his red-eyed
daughter back into the palace. The moment they were gone Achilles seemed to cheer and he said
goodbye to Odysseus with good humour.

“Goodbye, you snaky, conniving, opportunist, sea-shitting pirate,” he said. “I’ll see you in three
days.”

“Goodbye, you spoilt, pampered, sociopath, milk-sop mamma’s boy,” returned Odysseus gravely.
“Safe journey.”

Achilles clasped his shoulder warmly and with a last wave leapt onto the boat to join Phoenix,
leaving Patroclus alone once again with Odysseus.
“I think Achilles has already forgotten you were the one to rat him out,” Patroclus told him with a
raised eyebrow. “But I haven’t.”

“I wouldn’t have expected anything less,” replied Odysseus sombrely.

Patroclus smiled and offered his hand. “Safe journey, king of Ithaca.”

“And you, prince of Opus,” returned Odysseus.

Patroclus turned away and was halfway to clambering aboard the ship after Achilles when
Odysseus’ voice called him back.

“Patroclus.”

Patroclus looked at him expectantly. Odysseus was wearing an expression of complete

nonchalance, as if he had just remembered something that had hitherto slipped his mind.

“I meant to tell you,” he started. “But by the Grey-eyed Lady I must be getting old. I might be
mistaken, but rumours abound tell that you are interested in the whereabouts of a certain young
lady?”

Patroclus felt his blood freeze in his veins, even as his heart stopped beating. He could scarcely
dare to breathe the name out loud but thought he might faint if he didn’t. “Leptine?”

Odysseus snapped his fingers before slapping a palm dramatically to his forehead. “Ah yes,” he
exclaimed. “Thought I knew the name. Was off the tip of my tongue.”

“Where is she?” Patroclus demanded. “Is she alive? Is she well?”

“She is alive and well,” Odysseus confirmed, all mocking humour leaving his voice. “My sources
tell me that Amyntor’s ship landed in Abyssinia where she was sold to a brothel. However she
managed to escape and secure passage aboard a merchant ship, headed for Anatolia where she is
now working as a handmaid to that same merchant’s daughter. His name is Briseus, I believe, of
Lyrnessos, a town not so far from Troy.”

Patroclus stared at Odysseus who was smiling pleasantly at him as if he had said nothing at all of
any remote interest. “Why didn’t you tell me this earlier?!” Patroclus nearly screamed once he had
found his voice.

“Well, I didn’t want to influence your decision,” Odysseus replied innocently. “And perhaps there
is a slight chance that I was interested in what it would be without this information.”

Patroclus continued to gape at Odysseus, all responses completely blown out his system. Odysseus
merely chuckled at his shock and, with a parting wave, left for his own ship. As his figure grew
smaller, Patroclus felt the indignation inside him gradually bleed out. There was very little point in
remaining angry with Odysseus. It was like being upset at a scorpion after it stung you. In any
case, his heart was much too full with this news to feel anything other than the purest, most blissful
joy.

“You look cheerful,” Achilles remarked as Patroclus joined him on deck.

“I feel cheerful,” Patroclus replied. “Fancy stopping off at Lyrnessos before Troy?”

Achilles looked at him quizzically. “Why?”

Patroclus grinned, and it felt like the first time in months.

“Well,” he said. “I hear Briseus has got some really pretty handmaidens.”

oOo

As is often the way of things, the journey back passed much quicker than the journey there.
Patroclus didn’t know if this was because for the first time in four months he had Achilles beside
him again, or because after so long wondering and hoping he now knew that Leptine was alright, or
simply the relief that they were going home. Either way, it barely felt like any time at all had
passed before they were steeping off the harbour and onto the reassuringly familiar soil of Phthia.

Nearly every inhabitant of the palace and the citadel was stood outside the gates to greet them. At
its front stood Thetis whose eyes were nearly as raw as Daedemia’s had been. She greeted Achilles
with a kiss and a hug so fierce Patroclus saw Achilles wince over her shoulder. Peleus waited
patiently during these ministrations, casting a wary eye over his ex-wife. Once she had released
Achilles however several retainers nearly went flying as he barrelled forward to embrace his son.
Patroclus watched, a lump rising in his throat as the tears ran down Peleus’ pale withered cheeks
while he clasped Achilles to his bony form. He remembered how Peleus had shut himself away,
almost as Patroclus had done during the long months that Achilles had been in Skyros.

“Achilles,” Peleus rasped, as if too full of joy to say much else.

“Father,” Achilles managed and Patroclus saw that his eyes too were swimming. “Father, I’m so
sorry. I have brought shame and disgrace upon you. I’m so sorry.”

“Shame?” Peleus repeated in disbelief. “Shame? The only shame that you should feel is that you
did not say goodbye.”

Achilles squeezed his eyes shut but even so a tear rolled down his cheek. Perhaps it had occurred to
him, as it had to Patroclus, that Peleus had not had the slightest clue where he had been, or even if
he was ever coming home. With a heavy sight, Peleus released him.

“Soon you will be gone again,” he remarked mournfully. “There is little that can be done.
However, we can at least give you a mighty send off so that you do not forget us again so quickly.”

These words were echoed with a great cheer and with Peleus’ hand on his shoulder Achilles was
guided into the Great Hall, the elated crowd swarming behind him with Thetis taking up the rear.
Patroclus hung back however, as did Ampelius.

They stood alone in the courtyard, within the thick sphere of awkwardness. After several seconds
of uncomfortable silence, Patroclus took it upon himself to break the tension.

“Hi dad,” he said sarcastically.

“Hi son,” replied Ampelius.

Taken aback, Patroclus blinked. Catching sight of his bewildered expression, Ampelius laughed
loudly and after a moment Patroclus joined in. Then, Ampelius clapped him on the back so hard he
felt his knees buckle and together they followed the crowd into the Hall.

The Hall was decorated as if for a festival with fresh ferns upon the flagstones and the rafters laced
with streamers. The tables were bedecked with such a feast as Patroclus had not seen since the
Corinthian’s visit and after the past weeks of Skyros’ scanty hospitality he felt his mouth water at
the sight. Achilles was directed to the seat at Peleus’ right hand side and Patroclus to the place next
to him, however he viewed the table with the other foster boys’ with longing as talk turned
predictably to Achilles’ time in Skyros.

“So Achilles,” General Acastus began jovially, filling both he and Patroclus’ cups with wine. “You
enjoyed your brief spell amongst the fairer sex eh?”

“If all you need to do to catch a skirt is wear one yourself,” said a lord further down the table. “I
might stop having my tunics altered.”

“You could always borrow your wife’s,” answered another, and the table roared with laughter.

Patroclus glanced at Achilles. His face was very white, and his knuckles shone starkly through the
skin of his fist, however he didn’t say anything.

“Was she so beautiful, Achilles?” Cleitus continued. “She must have been, that you could stand so
long wearing a dress. But I suppose if you regularly took it off?”

The lords laughed again. Inside, Patroclus felt a little sick. He saw his feelings mirrored on
Achilles’ face, however was amazed to see him force a thin smile.

“Very beautiful,” he confirmed diplomatically. “Of course, I didn’t bank on her being clever as
well. She threatened to tell everyone who I was if I didn’t do it, and so you see, I had no choice.”

“Ah, a decision of mutual benefit then!” Ampelius roared jocularly and the lords cheered their
agreement.

Talk turned to other matters and Patroclus instantly relaxed. He looked at Achilles; he was still
quite calm, however his face had taken on a hue that was almost green. Discreetly, Patroclus
reached under the table until he felt Achilles’ fingers. When he did he took his hand, squeezing it
hard. Achilles clutched back gratefully and did not let go throughout the remainder of the
conversation.

Celebrations ran well into the night, in truth much longer than either Achilles or Patroclus had
stomach for. By midnight Patroclus was thinking longingly of his bed in his own room, however he
was jolted from his reverie by Acastus asking him a question.

“And you’re going with him?”

Patroclus, who had not been keeping track of the conversation, was about to reply that yes, with
any luck he and Achilles would be going to bed together, when he realised that this was probably
not an appropriate subject to voice at dinner.

“Sorry?”

“To Troy,” Acastus clarified. “You will be sailing with us?”

“Oh,” Patroclus swiftly yanked his brain into full consciousness. “Yes.”

“Atta boy,” slurred a drunken lord, slopping the majority of his mousakka down his front.

“I am very pleased Patroclus,” said Peleus. “Very pleased, but not surprised. I shall not fear nearly
as much if my son has a clear head beside him.”

It was the first time Peleus had spoken to him since Achilles had gone away and Patroclus was too
taken aback to think of a response. Before he had found his voice again Peleus had already turned
away; Patroclus turned back round and found Ampelius looking at him oddly, his wild eyebrows
drawn like a troubled storm down over his wine-ruddy face.

Later, when the majority of the lords were no longer in a fit state to plague them with questions,
Achilles leant close to whisper in Patroclus’ ear.

“Let’s get out of here.”

Patroclus nodded eagerly and after Achilles had excused them and wished his father goodnight, the
two stole from the Hall and sprinted the spiral steps upstairs to their room.

Once the door had closed behind them, Achilles wasted no time in pinning Patroclus to the
mattress. They kissed until both their bodies ached for more, and then Achilles was turning over
and Patroclus was moving against him. The moonlight slipped from the window ledge onto
Achilles’ shoulder like it had done that first night, and every night that Patroclus had gazed in
silent longing, half of him made silver as the coins they lay on dead eyes for the ferryman. Their
breaths were like wind dragging the tide and when Patroclus came he closed his eyes and saw
planets, stars, the whole of the Universe and its infinite constellations, spinning an endless dance
along the peripherals of his vision and as they lay there, breathing heavily in each other’s arms, he
understood for the first time that time, like the Gods, is no more than an invention.

Achilles had Patroclus’ hand and was gently kissing the knuckles. “What are you thinking about?”
he asked softly.

“Life,” Patroclus told him truthfully. “And death. And immortality.”

Achilles grimaced. “Whatever floats your boat,” he said.

“Achilles, are you sure you want to go?” Patroclus pressed him.

Achilles looked up, startled. “Yes,” he replied, as if the question had been a very stupid one.

This did not satisfy Patroclus. “Why?” he asked.

Achilles did not answer immediately but instead let his head drop against Patroclus’ chest.
Patroclus became instantly conscious of his heart, thumping rhythmically between them and knew
Achilles felt it too.

“In the beginning,” Achilles spoke suddenly. “There was Darkness, and that’s all there was for a
long time. Then one day, Darkness grey lonely. She gave birth and light came spilling out, not as a
whole but into thousands of little star pieces. The problem was, they all sort of looked more or less
the same. Only a few of them, the ones that were really bright, were the ones she could tell apart.
So Darkness took these ones and set them apart from the rest and the brightest star pieces she set
by her side to shine forever and keep her company while the others, after a long time, faded until
there was nothing left of them, until it was as if they had never been.”

Achilles finished and looked up at Patroclus. “If you were a bright star,” he said. “Why would you
choose to fade?”

Patroclus shifted tetchily beneath Achilles’ weight. “That’s a very elitist story.”

“Sorry,” replied Achilles boredly. “I missed out the part where the bright star meets another
grumpy, pedantic one with a stick up its arse and can’t go and join Darkness without the other one
tagging along.”
“I don’t have to come, you know.”

“I know,” said Achilles quickly. A pause, and then, “Why? Are you having second thoughts?”

Patroclus shook his head. “Just thinking about how you also missed the part when the bright star
burns out,” he said. “And Darkness swallows her children.”

Achilles was quiet for a very long time, and Patroclus thought he had fallen asleep. Then suddenly,
as Patroclus was dozing off, he heard his voice as small as anything against his chest.

“I need you to promise me something.”

“What?”

“If I die,” began Achilles. “I need you to promise me to live.”

Patroclus made a scoffing sound. “You ask far too much.”

“I’m serious,” Achilles insisted. “I can’t go if I think you’re going to do something stupid after I
kick it.”

“God,” snapped Patroclus, shoving Achilles away from him with distaste. “Stop talking about
death like that. It’s not funny.”

“I know it’s not,” said Achilles, although he didn’t sound convinced. “But I do need you to promise
me.”

“And what am I supposed to do?” demanded Patroclus, tears springing into his eyes. “Tell me
please, what I’m supposed to do without you?”

“Anything you like,” replied Achilles easily. “I’m making you steward until my heir’s of age. Rule
Phthia. Marry Leptine. Look after my son.”

He looked up at Patroclus, eyes wide and plaintive. “Look after my son,” he repeated. “She’ll try
and poison him against me...he’ll grow up hating me if she has her way. Don’t let him. Tell him
about me. Don’t let him think I’m a monster.”

He looked at Patroclus and Patroclus had never been able to say ‘no’ to that look.

What he thought, however, was dependent on nothing. And Patroclus would promise nothing.

oOo

The next three days were taken up with preparations and, despite the fact that they were never
apart, Patroclus rarely saw Achilles. He was constantly rushing in and out of the military barracks,
checking weaponry and provisions with all the pedantry of an accountant. His eye was required to
look over every list, his seal necessary for every new shipment and while the palace officials were
loathe to act without him he responded to each task with real vigour, earnest with his desire for
control over proceedings. He spent a good deal of time just walking amongst the men, getting them
used to his face and voice, learning (and promptly forgetting) each individual name.

When he wasn’t with the Myrmidons he was in the War Room with Phoenix and Acastus and
Peleus’ other advisors, going over strategies and re-examining their knowledge of the harsh plains
of Western Anatolia. Patroclus sat with him but could barely keep his eyes open as they poured
over maps and sketches, learning the towns with the easiest pickings, the safest trade routes. Then
there were the allies. Achilles would keep Patroclus up at night having him test him on the makeup
of the Greek force; each country, their king, their captain, his history.

Thus there was barely any time to get used to being back before they were making to set sail again.
When Patroclus awoke Achilles had already gone down, no doubt to oversee the loading of the
ships. He rose very slowly, heaving himself off the mattress to survey his room for the last time.

As he found himself looking at the small bed, the carved chest that contained clothes, the small
table with its broken kithara, he found himself realising that it wasn’t much really, not for all the
significance that this room with its four walls and large room carried. There was another door set
into the far side which led down to the bathrooms and Patroclus had a sudden flashback of pushing
it open and walking down a long, dimly lit corridor to find a boy, sitting fully clothed and shivering
in cold water, covered in blood. He looked at the chest and remembered how his hands had
trembled as he had filled it with his own belongings, the first night of moving into Achilles’ room,
still drunk from the celebrations after being made hetairoi. He looked at the bed and saw Achilles
laying on it, one arm outstretched towards the ceiling, his hand opening and closing around
something Patroclus couldn’t see.

Patroclus surveyed the room and thought that it was more made of memory than stone.
“Goodbye,” he said before exiting swiftly, closing the door behind him.

The Great Hall was noisy with the sounds of breakfast, bright morning chatter and the clatter of
bowls on the wooden tables. Again for a moment Patroclus found himself standing in the doorway,
thinking of how two years ago his name had been called from a scroll and he’d tripped as he
stumbled up the dais. He saw the benches pushed back to the sides, the centre of the Hall cleared
for trial as Nekros swept up and down, screaming for blood. Then someone shouted “Patroclus!”
and he came plummeting back to earth.

It was the foster boys. They waved him over and moved along the benches to make room for him
in between Stylax and Leonides. Initially Patroclus tensed, worried that someone was going to
bring up Skryos, but through some kind of collective intuition the boys seemed to know not to talk
about it. Instead they acted as though Patroclus had never been gone, stacking his plate with food
and plaguing him with questions about Troy.

“You’re so lucky,” Calisthenes said with awe as Patroclus repeated what Odysseus had told him,
about there being no war like this one. “Gods. If that’s not a direct ticket to Elysium I don’t know
what is.”

“Do you think Hector’s really as good as they say?” asked Stylax.

“Nah, he’s all talk. My friend’s brother’s cousin’s met someone who knows him and apparently he
isn’t all that. I bet we could take him, if we were allowed to leave the home defence.”

“Speak for yourself mate,” Quintos snorted. “I certainly would not want to fight him.”

“Quintos, you wouldn’t fight a baby who shat on your tunic.”

“Of course I wouldn’t fight a baby. Who would want to fight a baby?”

“Yeah but you actually couldn’t fight a baby.”

“Yeah, agreed. Could you fight a baby?”

“No, but you couldn’t because you’d lose.”

“If I fought a baby,” Quintos said, solemnly and deliberately. “I would win. Because of my
superior speed and strength.”

Calisthenes rolled his eyes. “Anyway,” he said. “Hector’s nothing. Either way, he won’t last five
minutes against Achilles.”

“He won’t last five minutes against Patroclus,” corrected Leonides and at this there was a great
cheer during which the boys clapped Patroclus heartily on the back and ruffled his hair until
Patroclus was blushing fiercely, his insides glowing with warmth.

After breakfast the boys departed for the beach. Someone had found a ball from somewhere and
they spent a happy hour chasing it in teams, that is, until Calisthenes hit Quintos who promptly
decided he had been killed and resolved to make one last stand, degenerating the game into a
shotgun wrestling match. Patroclus and Leonides laughed themselves hoarse from where they sat
watching events unfold with Quintos running around in circles while Stylax and Calisthenes rolled
around on the floor, hindered by a severe case of sand in the eye.

“I wish the Trojans could see this,” Patroclus told Leonides. “So they’d know what they’re up
against.”

“I wish Deiomachus could see this,” said Leonides.

Even after all that had happened, the sound of his old friend’s name was like a knife in Patroclus’
gut and when he exhaled it was almost painful. “Yeah,” he nodded. “Me too.”

Leonides didn’t say anything but continued to watch as Stylax and Calisthenes tossed Quintos into
the sea. As Patroclus looked on, it seemed that out of the corner of his eye he could see another boy
standing there, his hands in his pockets and his head slung back as he laughed loudly, youthful,
eternal.

Someone drew a dick on your shirt?

“Listen mate,” said Patroclus. “I think I know where Leptine is.”

Leonides looked at him and when he spoke, Patroclus wasn’t sure whose voice he heard. “Then
you’d better fucking find her mate,” he said.

Patroclus nodded. Leonides spat on his hand and offered it and Patroclus did the same, clasping it
tightly so that it wasn’t just a promise. It was an oath.

“Try and make it back, yeah?” Leonides said. “I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but the rest of us
have kind of started to like you.”

Patroclus laughed and nodded. Hearing him, Calisthenes looked up from where he had been
kicking Quintos into the foam and waved them over.

“What are you old ladies talking about?” he yelled at them. “Come and help beat up this coward
deserter.”

“Conscientious objector,” snarled Quintos.

Grinning, Patroclus offered Leonides his arm and pulled him before running to join his brothers
into the sea.

By the time they struggled off the beach, soaking wet and laughing it was afternoon. The sun was
at its highest in the sky and Patroclus could feel its rays burning the sea off his skin, leaving
nothing but salt. It was very nearly time to go; walking up to the castle he was passed by an
ongoing stream of men, carrying crates and sealed jars on their way to the port. Patroclus felt a
swooping sensation in his gut as he watched them, feeling an inexplicable kinship to the cargo that
was to be stowed away, compelled by heavier arms to the ship without any say in the matter. He
banished the thought from his mind. He had had a say in the matter. He had made this choice and
he wouldn’t allow himself to get cold feet about it now.

“Are you all set?” asked Leonides who was also watching the lifters levelly.

“Yeah,” said Patroclus, just as a thought occurred to him. “Hold on. I’ll be right back.”

Without further explanation he took off for the palace’s back entrance, shooting along the corridors
until he found the tunnels that led to the slaves’ quarters. As his feet echoed against the dimly lit
stones he couldn’t suppress a jab of nostalgia, remembering all the times he had taken this route,
darting into the shadows on some heroic escapade, Leptine’s quick, clever feet flashing ever in
front of him. He reached the splintered door at the end and, pushing it open, remembered how he
had first been sent here to serve as a slave and be taught obedience and had learnt so much more.

Loras was leaning against the wall, polishing his caduceus. He glanced up indifferently when
Patroclus entered but addressed his words to him as he approached. “You still here?”

“Only briefly,” Patroclus replied. “I’m looking for something.”

Loras snorted. “And here’s me thinking you came down to say goodbye.”

Patroclus made an acquiescing gesture. “That too.”

Loras scoffed but he put down his caduceus very tenderly and straightened up to switch his gaze to
Patroclus. “I know what you’re looking for,” he said, beckoning at him. “Come on.”

Loras wove through the piles of ragged, rat-eaten blankets and threadbare mattresses and Patroclus
followed him, curiosity brimming until Loras stopped at the far side of the cavern. He bent low,
reaching out into the darkness and his fingers closed around the edges of a loose brick. Wiggling it
assertively, he slid it from the wall before proceeding to reach in and take out various assorted
objects; coins, jewellery, packaged food. Patroclus watched bemusedly as the pile of treasures grew
larger before Loras finally exclaimed “Aha!” and turned back to face Patroclus. In his hands
gleamed a yellow ribbon.

“Any one of these arseholes would have had this if it had just been laying around,” he explained. “I
had a feeling you might want it.”

Touched, Patroclus reached out to take the ribbon. In the cavernous dark of the slaves’ quarters, it
was the only bright thing. “I really did come down here to say goodbye as well, you know,” he told
Loras after he had tied it securely round his wrist.

“Sure, okay,” Loras rolled his eyes. “As if you didn’t forget about us little people the second you
got invited to play house with the prince.”

Wounded, Patroclus frowned. “Is that what you think?”

Loras shrugged and shuffled his feet. It was difficult to tell whether he was being genuine, or just
his typical surly self. Either way, the idea that the slaves thought Patroclus had abandoned them
perturbed him enough to set a hand on Loras’ shoulder.
“I’ll never forget about you,” he promised solemnly. “Not as long as I live.”

Loras, colouring very faintly with the sentiment, nodded. “Good,” he mumbled. “Because you’d be
surprised how much of the world does.”

“Not me,” Patroclus assured him. “I promise.”

Loras offered his hand and Patroclus shook it. “Good luck, Vassal of Hermes,” he said.

“Actually, it’s Rod of Hermes now,” Loras corrected him. “I’ve just been promoted. Official quasi-
fulltime messenger official.”

“Proud of you,” said Patroclus.

They said their goodbyes and then Patroclus was clambering out of the gloom and once more into
the light, the flame from the torch brackets bouncing off Leptine’s ribbon bound securely round his
wrist. The corridors seemed quiet when he emerged from the tunnels and once outside he realised
why; the entire palace had gathered to see off the Myrmidon soldiers. Patroclus saw them shining
in their armour, the sun splitting their helmets as if they were the guardians of Olympus. At their
head was Achilles who was attempting to peer over the crowd; when he saw Patroclus he released a
huff of exasperation and waved him over.

“There you are!” he exclaimed. “We’re leaving, come on!”

And suddenly, they were leaving. Patroclus found himself pulled into embraces, his ears ringing
with goodbyes and good fortunes as heavy hands clapped his back and shoulders, or ruffled his
hair. For a moment he thought that he might actually break down as he hugged each of the foster
boys in turn, promising to come back with stories of Troy and to confirm which warriors really
were as fierce as legend said. When he reached Peleus Patroclus reached out to shake his hand,
however he just about had all the wind knocked out of him when the old man yanked him in for a
hug.

“Look after him,” Peleus whispered. “And look after yourself.”

Patroclus nodded. “I will.”

After squeezing him tightly, Peleus loosened his hold and placed his hands on both Patroclus’
shoulders. “Who but the Wise Ones could have predicted how you’d turn out?” he said warmly. “It
seems a very long time ago that a clumsy little boy tripped in the Hall upon having his name called
out.”

Patroclus pulled a face at the memory. “Can we not?”

Peleus laughed, reaching up to touch Patroclus’ face briefly. “Many times I have blessed the day
that you came into my household,” he told him. “Now I bless the day you leave it. Go well,
Patroclus.”

Patroclus thanked him and Peleus moved away to rejoin his son. When he was gone, Patroclus
craned his neck to catch a sight of Ampelius.

He did not have to look for long. The enormous man was sending people flying in his attempt to
reach Patroclus, tearing through the crowd like a terrifying force of nature. Patroclus barely had a
chance to tell him to calm the fuck down before he found himself suffocating against the giant’s
torso, ribs creaking feebly as Ampelius’ arms forced him into a bone-cracking hug. Patroclus felt
tears spring into his eyes, not from emotion but from real pain.
“Let go, you fat bastard,” he wheezed. “I can’t breathe.”

“Don’t take this from me,” Ampelius growled.

At last Ampelius released him and Patroclus massaged his bruised left side. He had little time to
recover however before Ampelius was clapping a hand to his shoulder and he was sinking a little
further into the dirt.

“Patroclus,” Ampelius said, and his voice was serious. “Look at me.”

Patroclus looked at him. His beetle black eyes were nearly lost by the furrow of his brow and his
face was crinkled with concern. He cleared his throat once and Patroclus braced himself, preparing
for a lecture.

“I’m sure you’re tired of hearing this,” Ampelius began. “But I don’t think you should go.”

“For Gods’ sake,” Patroclus rolled his eyes. “You’re right, I am tired of hearing it. Why is no one
giving Achilles grief over this, huh? Or Phoenix? The man’s pushing, eighty, friend. You know I
do actually possess some degree of fighting ability? And have fought in like, over one battle. Plus,
I’m not suffering from arthritis so really, who’s closer to death here-”

“-I’m not talking about your fighting ability,” Ampelius cut him off dismissively. “And to tell you
the truth, I’m not too worried about you. You’re too sensible to lose your head in a savage blood
frenzy and even if you did manage it Achilles wouldn’t be far behind to clean up the mess. No
Patroclus, I don’t think you should go because I think you should be king.”

He paused, looking expectantly at Patroclus and when he didn’t answer took his silence as
permission to plough ahead. “You have enormous talent, Patroclus. And I don’t just mean on the
battlefield but off it; in the Council chambers, in the Treasury, even in the War Room. You have a
kind of skill that so many soldiers can only ever dream of, the skill of understanding the world as it
is and the imagination to make it as you want it to be. You have drive and passion and ambition but
above all you have principles, and ideas of how to achieve them. A talent like that shouldn’t go to
waste, Patroclus. Opus needs you, and from there who knows? You have the chance to change the
world, and for the better. I can’t say that it’s your destiny to stay...but I could argue that it’s your
responsibility.”

He removed his hand from Patroclus’ shoulder and scratched the back of his neck with an
impatient huffing sound. “There now,” he said gruffly. “I’ve said what I have to say. Now I
suppose you’re going to ignore me as usual and climb on the boat to go Gods know where and find
Achilles and do Gods know what.”

Patroclus forced himself to smile, although he knew there wasn’t much humour in it. “Yeah I am,”
he replied. “But thanks for trying.”

Ampelius’ shoulders sagged. He didn’t look disappointed, just resigned, as if he had already
prepared himself for what Patroclus’ answer would be. “It would be a very good way of getting
back at your father,” he suggested.

Patroclus feigned confusion. “Why would I want to do that?” he asked. “When I can just take the
piss out of him here?”

Ampelius tried and failed to hide his smile. “You’re not funny,” he muttered darkly.

“You drink too much,” Patroclus retorted. “And your beard is stupid.”
Ampelius chuckled and cuffed him playfully on the back of head. “Go on,” he said. “Get going.”

Patroclus nodded and turned to go. He had barely gone a few steps however before he was rushing
back and hugging Ampelius swiftly round the middle. “Thanks for everything,” he said. “I’ll make
you proud.”

Ampelius grunted awkwardly. “Don’t be thick, boy,” he replied. “You already have.”

“What were you talking about?” asked Achilles by the time Patroclus finally joined him on board.

He was leaning against the deck, dressed in a plain white chiton and simple armour. A scarlet
cloak flowed from his shoulders, setting against the gold like the plumage of some fabulous bird.
His eyes were sharp with a rare hunger. Patroclus propped himself next to him, looking out onto a
sea of beaming faces and joyful waves.

“Ampelius was trying to persuade me that you were hardly worth sailing across the world for to
fight in some pointless battle,” he replied, flicking Achilles’ ear where his newly cut hair hung
raggedly cropped just below the lobe. Achilles brushed him away with a tsk, nudging Patroclus to
elaborate. “And?”

“Well obviously I said he had a point,” replied Patroclus.

Achilles swore savagely, pushing Patroclus away and he laughed. “Whatever,” he scowled. “As
long as he doesn’t get on the boat or we’ll never leave port.”

Patroclus shook his head. “Nah,” he replied. “I think he understood the fact of the matter pretty
well.”

Achilles raised an eyebrow. “Which is?”

Patroclus looked at him, eyes locking. Earth and water, always. “That I’ll go wherever you go.”

Achilles smiled, soft, radiant and in that moment the words that hung unspoken between them
didn’t matter: To the end and onwards. He lifted his hand and Patroclus thought that he was going
to touch his cheek but instead it settled on his neck, bunching round the material of his cloak.

“You’re wearing purple,” he observed.

Patroclus glanced down. He hadn’t even realised what cloak he had brought, just grabbing the one
at the top of his trunk. “Oh yeah,” he acknowledged. “Guess I am.”

“Suits you,” said Achilles.

Patroclus grinned. Achilles slapped his head before planting a childish kiss on the back of his neck
and turning away to address the sailors. “Full sail!” he shouted. “Let’s catch some wind!”

Patroclus watched him march up and down the deck, shouting orders to the men and strutting like a
peacock. Smiling to himself, he looked back as the ship eased out of the bay, the sails swelling and
billowing as the wind picked up, like enormous wings carrying them towards the horizon. As
Phthia grew smaller and smaller into the distance, until it was nothing but a hazy green smudge on
the skyline Patroclus saw it before him: the future, an infinite stretch of blue and gold, pledging
nothing, promising everything.

First, to Lyrnessos, to the house of Briseus and to Leptine.

Then, as the Gods would will it and as the wind and the sea would steer them there, onwards and
upwards into the future.

And to Troy.

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