Karina Zambrano
What is music to me? It’s not a beat, or a melody. It’s not a pattern of instruments, or a
party, a concert. For me, music is a memory. Similar to opening your mom’s album of pictures;
every photo had a story. Every photo marked a new chapter. I can do this with my albums. So
who am I? and how did I come to be? This is something I can only explain through music. Its not
only about what the music says and sounds but how I feel when I listen to it. Whenever I
mention a song or an album, there’s always a feeling, an aura, or a period of time of my life I can
connect it to.
“Songs4u” by Cuco (March-July 2020): I stumbled upon this album mid-pandemic. I was
at my most innocent state of mind, naive. If I ever mentioned I was sad during this period, it’s
probably because I couldn’t play with my friends at the park. I endlessly listened to this album
because it sounded sad and considering what was going on, I was sad as well.
“Flower boy” by Tyler the Creator (August 2020-February 2021): During this time, I took
in reading anything and everything I came across on; I was curious. From books to gossip. Every
good gossip had more than one point of view. You would be surprised how much I learned
through this. Beyonce got racists comments again? Then I ask, what is racism? Why are people
inclined to hate? Where did it start? Since when? There’s protests? Dead people? Why? How can
I help? etc. I have no idea if people my age did this, but I did.
“When we all fall asleep where do we go” by Billie Eilish (February- September 2021):
For a teenager going through puberty, that’s only just now developing their ideas and identity, a
relationship with another hormonal teeneger going through puberty, is not the right answer. The
seven most traumatazing months of my life came to be, but I wouldn’t take it back. This seven
months play a crucial role to whom I am today. I learned about things like homophobia and
xenophobia, but more importantly I learned about empathy, love, hate, you know, our day to day.
“Saturno” by Rauw Alejandro (January 2023, to present): I am finally myself. Confident
in who I am and what I want to do. I was always told while growing up to study what I like in
one ear, and to study what makes me successful in the other. So I decided to do both. I’m the
type of person that wants to please everyone, but I’m also the type that wants to prove you
wrong. I’m going to make my mother proud when I actually manage to graduate, get a job, buy a
house. At the same time, I’m going to prove wrong to everyone who said opening my own
business wasn’t “a good idea”, or “it’s going to be too hard for you”, “there’s already too many
people doing that”, or “just work a 9-5 with a good salary” as if that’s any easier. So I’m going to
study accounting and im going to certify myslef as a CPA. Yes it’s going to start slow, I’ll
probably start in a minimum wage, but it’s not where my story will end. Hopefully, all my
dreams will come true starting in the University of Puerto Rico, Rio Piedras campus.