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NDI
NGMYDESTI
NY
Season2
#1
"
Let'
sfor
getthebaggageoft
hepastandmake
anewbeginni
ng.
"
It
'sbeen8mont hssincemyhusbandandAv er
y
madeup, wel
lIshouldsaysi ncet heywere
forcedtomakeupandIwi shIcoul dsayour
l
iveshavebeenr osyev ersincebutI '
dbely i
ng.I
hadt oquitmyjobbecausehonest l
yIfel
tIwas
getti
ngpaidfornothingespeci al
lyconsideri
ng
theamountofmat er
nityleaveI '
vehadt otake
sinceIstart
edatthatjobandnowt hatwear e
expecti
ngbabynumber3, I
'mt i
red.
Li
:pl
easedon'
tl
ookatmel
i
ket
hat
It
s22:45andhej ustwalkedinfrom work.
That'
showi t
sbeenev ersincewef oundoutwe
arepregnant
,hewor ksli
keamani acalli
nthe
nameofsecur i
ngourf ut
ure.Igotupfrom t
he
couch,
taki
ngtheemptytubofy
ogur
twi
thme
andheadedtotheki
tchen
Hi
m:Abongi
wepl
ease
Me:yourf
oodisint
hewarmer,
ther
eisa6pack
ofcast
lel
it
einthef
ri
dgesoyoushoul
dbe
sor
ted
Ithrewtheempt yt ubint hebi nanddr aggedmy
heav yselfupstairs.I'
vegr ownt iredofr epeat ing
thesamet hingtohi m, Iappr eciatethathe
workssohar dt opr ovi
def orusbutI '
dr atherbe
ami ddleclassper sonwi t
hahusbandt hatget s
toeatdinnerwi t
husev eryni ghtthant obea
boredr i
chhousewi f
ewhosehusbandi snev er
home.Icheckedont heki dsbef oreheadi ngt o
bedandev enwhenIgoti nbed, Ikeptt ossing
anyt ur
ning.5mor eweeksandt hi
sboywi llbe
outofmeandIswearhewi l
l bethelastone.3
kidsismor et hanenoughnow.I 'm 26,Icanst il
l
fi
ndanot herj ob.Limilewal kedi ntoour
bedroom al mostanhourl ater,Iheardshuf fling
aroundbef
or ehegoti
nbed,pul
l
ingmecl
oser
andIjustr
elaxedandl
ethi
m be
Hi
m:I
'
m sor
ry
Me:
hmmm
Hisapologi
eshavebecomeli
kewateroffa
duck'
sbackbecausehekeepsrepeat
ingthe
verysamethingheapol
ogi
zesfor.
Hi
m: Ij
ustspoket
odaddyonthephone,
hehas
f
orcedmet ogoonpat
erni
tyl
eaveassoonas
t
hebabyarri
ves
Me:
hmmm
Imov edawayf r
om him andtur nedonmysi de
wit
hmybackt owardshim.Ilov ehim, t
hereis
nodoubtaboutt hatbutI'
mt i
redoff ight i
nga
l
osingbat t
lewhenitcomest ohi swor k.He
di
dn'tspeakagainandweev ent ual
lyfellasl
eep.
ThenextdayIwokeupbef orehi m,pr eparedhis
workclothesforhim asIusuallydot hen
headeddownst ai
rstomakebr eakfastf orhi
m.
I'
m notr eadyformydaught ertogotoschool
yet,shei sn'
teventwoy earsol dandIl
ove
hav i
ngt hem aroundandt heygi v
emeasense
ofpur posebecauseNi kiwej ustdoest
he
cleaningandl aundr
ywhi leItakecareofmy
kidsandmyhusband.
Li
:mor
ning
Me:
hey
Idishedupforhi
m,placedthefoodonatr
ay
thenplacedi
tbefor
ehim onthecount
ersi
nce
that'
swherehedecidedtosit
Hi
m:t
hanky
ou
Inoddedmyheadandcont i
nuedwi
tht
heoatsI
waspr epar
ing.Thi
sishowourmorni
ngshave
beenlatel
y,wehardlyt
alkandwhenwedo,
ei
therwef i
ghtorit
sbrief
Usi
:Dada!
Idon'
tev
enknowwhyshewasupsoear
lybut
thewayshescreamed,youcouldtel
lthatshe
wassurpri
sedtoseeherfat
her.Sherantohim
andhepickedherup
Li
:mor
ningdaddy
'spr
incess
Mybackwasst il
ltur
nedtot hem butIcoul
dn't
missthesoundsofhergiggles.Sheissucha
daddy'
sgir
l.Theyhadtheirconversat
ionwhich
wasmadeupofmost lybabyt al
kandLi was
tr
ulyent
ert
aini
ngher
Li
:myangel
Isti
llbl
usheveryti
mehecall
smethat
.Iturn
aroundandourey esmeet
,asmuchasIdidn'
t
wantt osmi
le,Iendedupsmil
i
ng
Li
:Il
ovey
ou
Usi
:yav
u
Webothchuckl
edthenhekissedhi
sdaughter
's
f
oreheadbef
oreputt
ingheronthecount
er
Me:
Ihav
emydoct
or'
sappoi
ntmentt
oday
Li
:I
'l
lbet
her
e
Me:
hmmm
Hegotup,appr
oachedmet henheldmywaist
andki
ssedmylips.Hisf
oreheadwasagai
nst
minesowhenhebr oket
hekiss,hedi
dn'
tmove
away
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouandIwon'
tfor
get
.I'
l
lbet
her
e
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Hi
m:ar
eyousur
e?
Inodded,hepeckedmyl ipsagai
nt henletgoof
me.Af t
erhehadl eftforwork,hi
ssonwokeup,
Idi
shedupf orthem, leti
tcooloffwhil
eNi kiwe
bathedthem.Icandoi tall
butBendingov erthe
bathtubtogi
vet wot oddler
sabat hcanmi ss
me.AsIwasf eedi ngthem, myphoner ang.
Me:
li
tt
lebr
other
Laz:
wear
eal
mostt
hesameage
Me:
almostdoesn'
tcount
.Howar
eyouandwhy
ar
eyounotatwor
k?
Helaughed.Mysibli
ngsaresti
l
lthecent
erof
mywor l
dandourr el
ati
onshi
phasgottenso
st
rongoverthepastcoupleofmonths
Him:I
'
m onmywayt
her
e.Iwanty
out
omeet
someone
Me:
isshey
ourgi
rl
fr
iend?
Hi
m:no.Yes.Imeanno,
shei
saf
ri
end
Il
aughed
Me:
arey
ousur
eshei
sjustaf
ri
end?
Hi
m: I
'
m sur
esi
s.CanIbr
ingherov
eronFr
iday
?
Af
terwor
k
Me:y
eahsure.Yourni
eceandnephewwoul
d
l
ovetoseey
ou
Hi
m: Imissmybabi
es.Ki
sst
hem formeand
pl
easekeepanopenmindwhenIcomeoveron
Fr
iday.Pl
ease
Me:
uhm OKhowol
disshe?
Hi
m:we'
l
ltal
klat
er.I
'
m att
heof
fi
ce.Lov
eyou
si
s
Me:
lov
eyout
oo
Thatconv ersati
onl eftmef eeli
ngabi tuneasy ,
Lazolabet ternotcomeher ewi thawomanol d
enought obehi smot herandcal l
herhi sfri
end.
Myappoi ntmentwi t hthedoct orwasat12so
afterfeedingmyki ds, Itookal ongr el
axing
bubblebat h.Mybodywasi nknot s, I
'm overdue
forat ri
pt ot hespa, I
'mi nneedoft heirhands
ont hi
shugebodyofmi ne.HowI '
v egonef r
om
size32t o38i njust8mont hsi sr i
di culous,i
ts
probabl ywhymyhusbandhasn' ttouchedmei n
4mont hs, Idon'tevenf eel comf ortablebeing
nakedar oundhi m any mor e.Ev ent uall
yIgotout
thebat htub, cl
eanedi tandwentt ogetdr essed,
Iwor eawhi telongboobt ubemat ernitydress,a
peachcar diganandpeachsl ipper s.Shoeshav e
beenat hingoft hepastwi ththi spr egnancy .I
cal
ledLiyanaasIwasapplyingmymakeup,
sheisscheduledforhert
hir
dmonth
appoint
ment .Iputt
hephoneonspeakerand
conti
nuedwi thappl
yingmymascar
a
Li
yana:
heybabe
Me:
heyl
overdol
l
.Howar
eyou?
Her:
I'
m drai
ned.Mor
ningsi
cknesshasme
goodtoday
Me:awshamebabe.Soy
ouar
eski
ppi
ngt
he
doct
or'
sappoi
ntment
?
Her
:yeah.Shauni
sher
etaki
ngcar
eofme
Onethingt hathaskeptmyf ri
endshi
pwith
Liy
anagoi ngist hatInev
ercommentonher
rel
ati
onshipwi thShaununlesssheasksmet o
becauseonemi nutesheishatinghi
m andthe
nextday,shei sgetti
ngfootrubsfr
om him
Me:
ohal
ri
ght
Her
:wear
enotbackt
oget
hert
hough
Ichuckl
edsof
tl
ywhi
l
eshaki
ngmyhead
Me:
we'
l
ltal
klat
er.Lov
eyou
Her:
letmeknowwhenyouareback,
Iwantt
o
br
ingZiy
atocomeplaywi
thUsi
Me:
alr
ight
WhenIwal kedintothedoctor'
soff i
ce,
Iwas
shockedt ofindmyhusbandal r
eadywai t
ing
there,Idi
dn'tseehiscarinthepar ki
ngareasoI
thoughthehadf or
gottenagain.I
'vehadtogo
throughnumer ousoft heseappointments
withouthim
Me:
Idi
dn'
tseey
ourcar
Li
:Itookanuber,someladycrashedint
omy
carthi
smor ni
ngsoitsbei
ngtakenin.Ishoul
d
haveitbackbyFr
iday.
Me:
ohl
et'
sgoi
n
Weexchangedgr
eeti
ngswitht
hedoctor,
she
checkedmyheal
thst
atusandthatof
fthebaby
Dr:yourbloodpressureistoohighandit
s
putt
ingthebabyi ndist
ress.Ifyoudon'
trel
ax,
youmi ghtjustgoint
oear l
ylabor
Isi
ghedheavil
y,woul
dearl
ylaborbesuchabad
i
deathough?ImeanI'm ex
hausted,
thi
sbabyi
s
heavyandI'
mf eel
i
ngheavil
y
Li
:i
sthereanythi
ngy oucanr
ecommendt
ohel
p
l
owerthebloodpressure
Dr:MrsHadebeI '
m putti
ngy ouonbedr estunti
l
yougivebirt
h.Idon'twantyoudoingany t
hing,I
don'twantyoustressi
ngaboutany t
hing,Ij
ust
wanty outorel
axandenj oywhat'
sleftofthis
pregnancy.
Lisqueezedmyhandtight
lyaswel
i
stenedt
o
ourchamp'shear
tbeatcausi
ngmetogetal
l
emotional
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08/
18,
15:
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Season2
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"Someti
mesyouneedt
opresspauseon
ever
ythi
ngandr
ememberwhyy oust
art
ed.
"
Thedoct
or'sappoint
mentputadamponmy
mood,evenwhenmyhusbandof fer
edt
otake
meoutforlunch,Iwasn'
tupfori
t
Li
:5mor
eweeksmyangel
Me:
Iwantt
ogohomeandsl
eep
Hi
m:OKt
henl
et'
sgohomeandsl
eep.
Ilookedathi
m withconf
usion,
usual
lyhe
forgetst
heappoint
mentandwhenhedoes
pitchup,hei
salwaysinarushtogetoutof
her e
Hi
m:don'
tl
ookatmel
i
ket
hat
Me:
Idi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng
Hi
m:doy
ouneedany
thi
ngbef
orewegohome?
Ishookmyhead.Wehadtousemycarsince
hisi
sgett
ingr
epai
red.Whenwegothome,the
ki
dswereevenshockedt
oseehi
m
Oy
int
ando:
Dada
Hecr awl edt owar dsust henst oodi nf rontof
hisf atherbef oref alli
ngt ot hegr ound.Atni ne
mont hs, het hinksheshoul dbewal kingal ready
buti tsnothappeni ng.It hinkUsi thandilei s
put ti
ngpr essur eonmybabyboybecauseshe
runsal lov erthehousel eav inghi m behi nd.We
stay edinbedal lday ,j
ustt het woofus,
remi nisci ngaboutourl ifebef oret heki ds.Five
weeksf lewbyv eryqui cklyandasmuchas
Limi lewasst i
llawor kahol ic, hewashomef or
dinnerbutmi ssedbr eakf asthal ft het i
me
becausehewoul dleav eear l
y .Itwasbet t
erthan
not hing, Icoul dseet hathewasput ti
ngi neffor
t
tomakeourmar r
iagewor k.Thewei r
dpar tis
thathi m cheat ingonmenev ercr ossedmy
mi nd, Idon' tknowwhet herIwasi ndeni alor
whatbuthi sbehav iortowar dsmenev er
changed, yeshewor kedal otbutIbel iev eits
j
ustwor k.Soher eIam, int hewor stkindofpai n
andbeingtoldtopushbecausethi
sbabywant
s
toexi
t.I'
mt i
red,I
'm sweat
yandI'
m nott
ryi
ngt
o
putmy sel
fthroughanymorepai
n
Me:
Ican'
tdot
his
Oyama:
yesy oucan.Justonebi
gpushandt
he
headwi
llbeout
Ikeepshakingmyhead,Ireal
lydon'
thavet
he
energytopushthi
sbabyoutany more,
why
couldn'
ttheydoac-sect
ion?
Li
:comeonmyangel
.Wear
eal
mostt
her
e
Heki
ssesmyf or
ehead,i
fonlyheknewhow
muchheisn'
thel
pingthesi
tuat
ion
Me:
voet
sekt
hisi
sal
lyourf
aul
t
Li
:yesbabyi
tis.It
akef
ull
responsi
bil
i
tybut
shoutatmewhenmysoni shere
Itakei
nadeepbr eathandpushwit
heveryt
hing
i
nme, thespi
ri
tbombofpushesandt hatsound
thatmelt
samot her'
sheartf
il
lst
heroom
Oy
ama:
youdi
dit
Me:cleanhim upandbr
inghimtome.Nothi
s
fat
herbutme.Hehoggedt heot
heronef
or
hoursbefor
eIgottoseehim
Oyamaandhisnur
sesbr
eaki
ntol
aught
erand
al
lmyhusbanddoesi
ski
ssmydryli
ps
Li
:Il
ovey
ousomuch
Me:
nomor
ebabi
espl
ease
Hi
m:OKmyangel
.Hewasourl
astone
Thisti
mear oundt hewholeHadabesl ashSmith
entour
agedi dn'tcomebuti twasjustmy
parent
sandt heirsigni
fi
cantot
hers,mysi bl
i
ngs
andLiyanaandherki ds.I
tssti
ll
acr azycrowd.
Mysoni scleanedupandpl acedonmychest .I
takeonelookathi m andmyhear tl
eaps
Li
:Imakegor
geouschocol
atebabi
es
Me:hel
ooksexact
lyl
i
keOy
int
ando.Bot
hmy
ki
dsdon'
tl
ookli
keme
Hi
m:uweakkal
okwenast
handwasam
Hepl
acedasof
tpeckonhisson'
sfacewhil
eI
gi
vehi
m anuni
mpressedl
ookthenheki
sses
mycheek
Me:
Sthol
okuhl
e
Hi
m:St
hol
okuhl
eOt
handway
oHadebe
Me:
Ilov
eit
Hi
m:andIl
ovey
ou
Ourhomewasnowev enmorechaot i
c,
Usithandil
esti
llfoughtfordaddy'
sat t
ention,
Oyintandojustwant edtoeatsandandcr awl
ar
oundt hebackyardwhi l
eKuhlecried24/ 7.He
di
dn' tcarewhetheritwasdayorni ght,hejust
cr
ied.Ev enUsit
handi l
ewasn'tthi
sbad
Me:
Ifeel
li
keI
'
m goi
ngt
olosemymi
nd
Ihadjustputhi
m downf
oranap,
hewas
3weeksoldnowandsuchacri
er
Li
:youneedabr
eak
Me:yesIdobutf
ir
stIneedanap.Wat
chy
our
ki
ds
Ilef
thi
m andf oundmy sel
fasleepinthefirst
guestroom If
ound.Ididn'
thav etheenergyto
goupt hest
airs.Babi
esareani ghtmare.Later
thatweekLazolacamet ovisi
twithhis"fr
iend".
Hehadcanceledt heothert
imesoIwasonl y
goingtomeett hi
sgir
lnow
Me:
Niki
didy
oupr
epar
ethepast
a
Ni
ki
:yesIdi
d,chi
l
ledt
hewi
neandj
uiceaswel
l
Me:
Thanky
ou.Ihadcompl
etel
yfor
got
ten
Sheflashedmeasmi le,Iwasgladshewassti
l
l
withusdespit
ehowmuchmyhusbandandI
keepmaki ngbabi
es.IchangedKuhle'
sdi
aper
thentookhimtothelounge,Lazol
a'
scarhad
j
ustpulledup
Li
:thi
sisexci
ti
ng
Me:
onl
ybecausey
oul
i
keot
herpeopl
e'
s
busi
ness
Hestuckhist
ongueoutatmeandIleanedover
andsuckedonitthenki
ssedhi
m maki
nghim
moanseducti
vely
Me:
behav
e
Hi
m:Ican'
t.Youj
ustmademehar
d
Il
aughed,toldhi
mt ogett
hedoorbecausehe
can'
tbehave.WhenLazolawalkedin,itt
ook
ever
ythi
nginmenott obejudgment albutIj
ust
coul
dn't
.IplacedKuhl
einhissleeperandgot
up
Laz:
heysi
s,bhutLi
Hedidamanlyhugwi
thLi
mil
ethenhuggedme
bef
oreki
ssi
ngmycheek
Me:
heyLaz
,ur
ight
?
Iwasn'
taski
ngabouthi
swell
bei
ng,
Iwantedto
knowifhewasmentall
yOK.Thi
smakessense
whyhesaidIshoul
dkeepanopenmindbutI
can'
they
Laz:
ndi
ri
ghtmnt
ase,
howar
eyou?Wher
ear
e
mybabi
es?
Icl
ear
edmythr
oatasani
ndi
cat
iont
hathei
s
bei
ngrude
Laz:ohsnapwherearemymanner
s.Abongi
we,
Li
mi l
ethi
sismygi r
lf
ri
endMi
l
a.Mil
athi
sismy
si
sterandherhusband.
OnlynowdidIhugt
hisMi
lachil
d,Isaychi
l
d
becauseshel
ooks15andLazol
ais23.
Li
:i
tsapl
easur
etomeety
ouMi
l
a
Shesmil
edi
nnocent
lyasIl
edt
hem t
othe
l
ounge.
Me:
whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
odr
inkMi
l
a?
Mi
l
a:any
thi
ngi
sfi
ne.
Me:
wine?
Shel
ookedatLazol
aasi
faski
ngf
orhi
s
per
missi
onorsomet
hing
Laz:
Mil
aisn'
tatt
hel
egal
dri
nki
ngagey
et.
Me:
Isee.Comehel
pmepl
easeLaz
Li
:I
'l
lhel
p
Me:
no!St
ayandi
ntr
oduceMi
l
atoy
ourki
ds
Lazol
afol
l
owedmet
otheki
tchen
Laz:
keepanopenmi
ndsi
s
Me:
shei
sachi
l
dLaz
Iwhisper
edsharpl
y.Mom woul
dn'
tappr
oveof
thi
sandIfeell
i
keI'm bei
ngdr
aggedi
nthe
middleofit
Hi
m:shei
s17.
Me:
sti
l
lachi
l
d.
Him:Il
ovehersi
s.Justgett
oknowherand
you'
l
lreal
i
zehowmat uresheis
Me:
arey
ouf
ucki
ngher
?
Hekeptqui
et
Me:
Lazol
aZi
khal
i
Him:no.Wearedoi
ngot
hert
hingsbutI
'
m not
havi
ngsexwit
hher
Me:
hmm
Wegotthedr
inks,serv
edMilaandLithen
Ni
ki
weannouncedt hatdi
nnerwasreadyand
wesatdowntoprayandeat
Li
:sowher
ear
eyouf
rom Mi
l
a?
Mil
a:Dur
banandPE.Wel
i
vedi
nPEunt
ilIwas
13thenwemovedher
e
Li
:reall
y?I'
mfrom PEaswel
l
.Mywi
fei
sthe
onefrom KZN
Shesmil
edthennodded,
shei
scut
e,beaut
if
ul
i
nfactandshesoundsni
ce
Me:
andwhati
syoursur
name?
Mi
l
a:Khumal
o.Lumi
l
anaKhumal
o
Wecont i
nuedtogett oknowher ,shereal
lyisa
ni
cegirlbutIsensethattroubleisgoingto
comemyl i
tt
lebrot
her'sway .Especial
ly
becauseshehasanol derbr otherwhoi seven
oldert
hanIam.Af terdinnerLazolahadt odriv
e
herhomebecausehercur fewwasat10pm
Me:
itwasni
cet
omeety
ouMi
l
a
Mil
a:i
twasni
cet
omeety
ouguy
stoo.Ihadf
un
t
oday
Weexchangedhugs,Iwhi
sper
edinLazola'
sear
t
hatwearesti
ll
goingtotal
kaboutt
histhen
t
heyl
eft
Li
:Il
i
keher
,shei
sni
ce
Me:
thatr
elat
ionshi
pisgoi
ngt
obeadi
sast
er
Hi
m:justbecauseshei
syoungert
hanhi
m by
what
..
.6years.6y
earsi
sn'
tbad
Me:i
tsnotbadwhenshei
s24andhei
s30.
Ri
ghtnowitsbad
Hi
m: well
Ili
keherf
orhi
m.Shehasagoodhead
onhershoul
ders
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
3*
"Onceinal
if
eti
mey oumeetsomeonet
hat
changesev
eryt
hing"
Idon'tknowwhet heritwasthebirt
hofhisson
orthef orcedpaterni
tyleavebutsomehowI
havemyhusbandback.Hei shel
pingoutwith
thebaby ,spoilsmeandspendsasmucht i
me
withtheki dsaspossi bl
e.Kuhlei
snowamont h
old,sti
l
l screamslikethereisnotomorr
owbut
heissof reakenadorable.
MaNt
ombi
:Idon'
tthi
nky
ourmot
herl
i
kesme
MydadandMaNt ombi wereher
etoseeKuhl
e
anditj
ustsohappenedthatmymom anduncl
e
Lubanziar
eal
sohere.Mymom i sj
ustone
dramati
cwoman
Me:
ignor
eher
,that
'swhatIdo80%oft
het
ime
Her:
howdoIignor
esomeonethatkeeps
tr
eat
ingmel
i
keamai d?Imustpickupaft
erher
now
Me:
what
?Di
dyout
ell
dad?
Sheshakesherhead,mymom i ssoannoy i
ng
though,Idon'
tknowwhysheisn'tfocusi
ngher
energyonhersonthat'
sdati
ngat oddler
.
MaNt ombi,Niki
andIwerebusyinthekitchen
prepari
nglunchwhil
emymom spentt i
mewi th
hergrandkids
Ni
ki
:si
sAbongi
we
Me:
yesl
ove
Her:
LunathiandLukhany
ojustar
ri
ved.Shoul
dI
gett
hem dri
nks?
Me:t
heyarekids,t
heycangetthei
rown
r
efr
eshments.Justpl
easecal
lLunathi
forme
Wi
thi
naf
ewmi
nut
esmyl
i
ttl
esi
sterwal
kedi
n
l
ooki
ngev
ersogor
geous.Weshar
edahug
Me:
wowI
'
mjeal
ous
Luna:ohpl
easeyouar
egoi
ngt
oloset
hatbaby
weighti
nnotime
Me:Ipl
antostar
tworki
ngoutsoon,I
'
mj ust
wai
ti
ngforthest
it
chestobecomplet
elyheal
ed
Ni
ki
:It
hinkev
ery
thi
ngi
sready
Me:
alr
ightl
et'
sdi
shupguy
s
Thelunchwasamazing,havingmyf amil
yhere
wasgr eat
.Li
mil
ehadtor ushtoRichardsbay
becauseofthewhol
ethingwi t
hShaun.Ican'
t
bel
ieveheisinacoma,hewasj ustfineawhil
e
agoandnowhei sbadl
yi nj
ured.
Mom:sowhat
'st
hest
orywi
thy
ouandy
our
mai
d?
Shewaslookingatmydadwhol ookedli
kehe
wasreadytoattackher.Iwasgoingtosi
tthi
s
oneouthey,I
'
mr ai
sing3kidswhichareal
l
undert
heageof5,
Ihav
emyhandsf
ull
Dad:
aski
es?
Mom: I
'
m notgoi
ngtorepeataquest
ionyou
cl
ear
lyhear
d.Areyouscrewi
ngthehelpnow?
Banzi
:Yol
anda!
Mom l ookedatuncleBanziandshruggedher
shoulders,i
twasaboutt ogodown.Usi wason
mymom' slap,Oyiwasonmydad' slapwhil
e
Kuhlewasi nLunathi
'sarms.Thesepeoplewant
togoateachot herwhileholdi
ngmyki ds
Mom:
I'
mjustaski
ng
Dad:
andnowI '
mjustaski
ngy out
omi ndyour
ownbusi
ness.Myli
feisn'
tanyofyourbusi
ness
Mom: ohgetof
fyourhi
ghhorseDube,
how
desper
atearey
outodateyourmai
d
Banzi
:Yol
anday
ouar
ecr
ossi
ngt
hel
i
ne
MydadtookOyi
ntandoandgavehimto
MaNtombit
henheadedoutthedoor
.Iknowmy
dad,
rightnowhewasj ustt
ryi
ngtokeephis
composure.Il
ookedatmymom, shenot
iced
mylookofdisapprov
alandjustsmil
ed
Mom:argmanheshoul
dlear
ntor
elax
,Iwas
j
ustmessi
ngwi
thhim
Me: youmeany ouwerejustbeingunnecessary
.
Thisismyhome, Ihavekidsheresoi fy
oucan
actyouragearoundmyf ather
,ifyoucan'tshow
hi
mt herespecthedeservestheny ouwon'tbe
welcomehereagain.
Mom:
I'
m asmuchapar
entt
oyouashei
s
Me:nomom that
'swherey ouaremistaken,as
muchasyouandIhavebur iedt
hehat chet
,that
manrai
sedme.Sohei sjustafewst epsabove
youwheni
tcomestobeingmypar ent
Igotupandheadedt othekit
chen,
Iwasn' t
goingtogoaftermydad, hehat
esthat.Igot
myselfaglassofwaterthengotst
artedont he
di
shes,thereweren'
talotsoIwasOKdoi ng
them mysel
f.WhenIwasdone,
myguest swer
e
gett
ingr
eadytoleav
eapartf
rom Lunat
hi
Mom:
I'
ll
seey
ouguy
sdur
ingt
heweek
Me:
didy
ouapol
ogi
zet
oMaNt
ombi
MaNt
ombi
:i
tsf
ineAbongi
we
Me:
noi
tsnot
.Mom?
Mom:
leav
eitAbongi
we,
shesai
ditf
ine
Me:thenyouwill
seemeandt
heki
dsonce
you'
veapologi
zed
Mom:
yho
Sheclappedonce, ki
ssedhergr andki
dsandlef
t
withherpartner
.Idon'tknowhowuncl eBanzi
handlesthatwoman.Awhi lel
atermydadcame
backintothehouse,spentaf ewmi nut
eswit
h
thekidsthentheyhadt oleave
Dad:
I'
ll
cal
lyouwhenwegetHome
Weshar
edal
onghug,
toomanyunspoken
t
hingswer
etherebutit
smydad, wedon' thav
e
t
osaymucht oeachotherbecausetheli
ttl
e
t
hatweshareisal
way smeaningful
.Ihugged
MaNtombiaswellandtheyl
eft
Me:
yhot
hedr
amai
nmyf
ami
l
y
Nikil
aughed.ThenextdayIdecidedtogo
checkonLiyana.Sheisn'
ttaki
ngthisShaun
thi
ngwell.WhenIgott oherpl
ace,Mangiwas
homeaswel l,weexchangedgreeti
ngsandIsat
down
Me:
whyar
en'
tyouatschool
Mangi
?
Mangi
:i
tshol
idays.I
'
m goi
ngt
other
ugbycl
ub
wi
thLuvoandthem
Me:
OK
Itur
nedt oLiy
anawhowasj ustst
ari
nginto
space.Icoveredherhandwi
thmine,gi
vingher
agentlesqueeze
Me:
mngani
howar
eyou?
Li
yana:
I'
ll
beOKmyf
ri
end.Howar
etheki
ds?
Me:l
oud,
messyandy etsoador
abl
e.Li
isn'
t
ar
oundsoit
'sj
ustusandNiki
we
Her
:theywon'
tl
etmegoseehi
m
Isqueezedherhandagai
nthengav
eheraf
aint
smil
ewhenshel ookedatme
Me:i
tsf
orthebestthough.Youar
epr
egnant
,
noonewantsy
out olosethebaby
Shesi
ghed
Her:it
sunfair
,theydon'
tevenupdatemeonhis
conditi
on.I
'mthemot herofhi
schil
dren,
Ihav
e
arighttoknow
Me:
true
Wesati nsi
lenceforqui
tesomet i
mebeforeI
decidedt ocleanuparoundthehouse,Mangi
wasal readyleavi
ngsoitendedupbeingjust
thethreeofus, Zi
yawasasleepthough.After
cleani
ngar oundtheloungeandthekit
chen,I
draggedLiy
anatogoshowerwhi l
eImadeus
l
unch.Iunderst
andhowshef eel
s,Idon'tt
hink
I
'dliv
eifsuchhappenedtoLi
mi l
e.JustasIwas
thi
nkingabouthi
m, hecal
l
ed
Me:
babakhe
Ihear
dhi
m chuckl
esof
tl
yandIsmi
l
e
Li
:howar
eyoumyangel
?
Me:
I'
m OK.Howst
hesi
tuat
iont
hatsi
de?
Hesi ghedheavil
yandmyheartstar
tedbeat
ing
faster.Shaunbett
ernotdi
eandleavemyfri
end
alonel i
kethi
s
Him:i
tsbadst
handwasam, hei
shav i
ng
sei
zur
esnowandf oam comesoutofhismout
h.
Me:
ohmy
Igaspedl
oudl
ywhol
ecov
eri
ngmymout
h
Hi
m:wearesti
l
lhopef
ult
hough.Hav
eyougone
t
oseeLi
yana?
Me:I'
m wi
thherr
ightnow,
wel
lshei
staki
nga
shower
Hi
m:al
ri
ght
.Pl
easedon'
tsayany
thi
ngt
oher
.
Me:
Iwon'
t.Whenar
eyoucomi
ngback?
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowlove.Thewhol
efami
l
yist
his
si
denowsoit'
shardtosay
Me: Iunder
stand.Youguy
smustst
ayst
rong,
I
'm prayi
ngforallofy
ou
Him:t
hankslove.IhavetogobutI
'l
lcheckon
youandthekidslat
er.Il
oveyousomuch
MaDubewam
Awarmf eeli
nggushedovermybody,
Ireal
l
y
misshim nowbutatthesameti
meI
under
standwhyheneedst obet
hatsi
de
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
eHadebe
Irel
easedasighafterIhungupt henplacedt
he
phoneonthetable.Iwashalfwayt hr
ough
cookingwhenIreali
zedthatLiy
anadi dn'
tcome
backfrom hershower.Shei
sprobabl
ynappi
ng
butsomethingkepttel
li
ngmetogocheckon
her.Il
oweredtheheatonbothstovest
hen
wentupstairs
Me:
mngani
arey
oust
il
lOK?
Therewasnor esponsesoIopenedthe
bedroom doorthenheadedf
ortheensui
te
bathroom andwhatIsawwasenought otur
n
myent ir
ebodycoldandmakeallthehai
rsonit
stand
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
4*
"
Kidsshoul
dn'
tbeal
l
owedt
ogr
owupsof
ast
."
Usi
:mommyI
'
mreadyf
ormypi
ctur
enow
Iwatchedherparadingaroundinhernew
schooluni
form,howi sitt
hatthepast5year
s
fl
ewbysoqui ckly
?I'm notreadyforhert
ostar
t
bigschoolbutsheissoexci t
ed,shehas
packedandr
epackedherschool
bag100t
imes
si
ncewecamehomewi t
hit.
Oy
int
ando:
Iwantapi
ctur
etoomommy
Kuhl
e:Iwantapi
ctur
ethr
eemommy
Usi
:youguysar
en'
ti
nbi
gschool
sonopi
ctur
es.
Ri
ghtdaddy
?
Liwalkedintot
heloungelookingeversosexy
,I
swearthismandoesn'tageatall.Which35
yearoldlooksl
iket
his?Hekissesmeonmy
l
ips,pull
i
ngmybot tom l
i
pbet weenhisteet
h
beforegivi
ngmeal ongpeck
Li
:goodmor
ningmyangel
Ismi
l
e,nahscrat
cht
hatI
'
m bl
ushi
ngl
i
kecr
azy
.
Myeter
nalcr
ush
Me:
mor
ningmyl
ove
Hesmi l
es,star
esatmeforawhil
ebefor
e
turni
ngtohiskidswhoar
ealr
eadybeggi
ngf
or
hisatt
enti
on
Usi
:howdoIl
ookdaddy
?
Shedoesat
wir
lforhi
m andsmi
les,
rev
eal
i
ng
hert
wogapsatt
hebottom r
owofhert
eet
h.
Li
:ev
enmorebeauti
ful
thanyoulookedthelast
ti
meyout
ri
editon.Comelet
'stakeapictur
e
Usi
:j
ustt
het
woofusr
ight
?Noboy
sal
l
owed
Oy
int
ando:
daddyi
saboy
Usi
:daddyi
saki
ngnotaboy
Shestuckhertongueoutatherbr
otherwho
i
gnoredherandcamet ome.Kuhlestoodinthe
middleoftheroom,watchi
ngmeandt hen
watchinghisf
ather
.
Me:
Kuhl
ewozababy
Onlyt hendidhecomemyway .Ifi
xedt hei
rt -
shirts,st
rappedtheirsneakersthent ook
picturesofthem justsotheywon' tfeellef
tout .
Afterpackingeveryone'slunch,Imademy sel
fa
quicksmoot hiebeforeheadingupst airstoget
dressed.Whi leIwasstillraisi
ngmyki ds, I
furt
heredmyst udi
espar tt i
meandnowI 'ma
quali
fiedtraumacounsel loratNet care
ParklandsHospi t
al.I
tfeelsgr eattobewor king
againandasmuchasI '
veonl ybeenwor ki
ngf or
j
ustov er6mont hs,I'
vebeenenj oyi
ngi t.Iputon
mynav ydresswithazi pint hefrontandcomes
j
ustbel owt heknee,foundmyr edst i
lettos
whichImat chedwithmyr edhandbagandr ed
necklace.Ididmymakeup, bri
ghtredl ipsti
ck
andlef tmyweav ehangi ng.
Me:
OKguy
slet
'sgo
Kuhl
e:y
oul
ookni
cemommy
Me:
thanky
oumypr
ince.Ar
eyouguy
sready
?
Usi
:I
'v
ebeenr
eadysi
ncel
astweek
Il
aughedasIt
ookmysmoot
hieandmyl
apt
op
bag
Li
:l
uncht
oday
?
Me:
Iwon'
tsaynot
othat
Li
:youl
ooksexyasf
uckbabywam
Iwinkedathim asIusher
edt heki
dsoutt he
door.Oyi
ntandoandKuhlewer emyf i
rststop,I
hadtowalkinwi t
hthem becauseitwasKuhl e'
s
fi
rstday
Me:
arey
oucomi
ngUsi
thandi
l
e?
Sheshookherhead
Usi
:Idon'
twantt
ogetmyuni
for
m di
rt
y
Ichuckl
edwhi
l
eshaki
ngmyhead
Me:
OKbaby
.I'
l
lbeback
Usi
:byeboy
s.Don'
tcr
ywhenmommyl
eav
es
youKuhl
e
IgaveUsithandi
lealookthatwasenoughto
shutherup.Asifshedidn'tcr
ywhenIlef
ther
here2yearsago.Kuhlewasholdi
ngmyr i
ght
handwhileOy i
ntandohel
dmyl ef
tone.Awhite
l
adyappr oachedusaswewal kedin,
shehad
thatper
manentsmil
ethatt
heset
eacher
sgi
ve
uswhenwedr opourki
dsoff
Lady
:hel
l
o
Me:
mor
ning.I
'
m her
etodr
opof
fmysons
Her
:OKt
hat
'sf
ine.Hav
etheybr
ief
edy
ouont
he
f
ees
Me:
yesI
'
vebeenbr
ief
ed
Her
:andy
outhi
nkyouwil
lbeabl
etoaff
ord
t
hem?Imeansi
nceyouhavetwoki
ds
Il
ookedatherwi
thmyey
ebr
owcocked
Me:
arey
ounew?
Agai
nthatsmi
l
eappear
edasshenodded
Her:
justgraduat
edf
rom UJ,
I'
m doi
ngmy
pr
acti
cals
Me:
hmmm Isee.Doy
oumi
ndcal
l
ingMr
sRoux
f
orme?
Her
:al
ri
ght
Shewaddledofft
owherever
,ev
enherwal k
annoyedme.Wheredoyougetoffaski
ngmei f
I'
l
laff
ordmykids'f
ees?Howisthatanyofher
busi
ness
Mr
sRoux:
MrsHadebe,
howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m wel
landy
ou?
Her
:I'
m wel
ltoo.Hel
l
oOy
int
ando
Oyi
ntandowavedatherwi
thasmileonhi
sface,
i
t'
shissecondyearher
esotheyar
efamil
i
ar
wi
theachother
Me:thi
sisOyi
ntando'
sbr
other
,Kuhl
e.Hewi
l
lbe
j
oini
ngyouguysthisy
ear
Her
:hel
l
oKuhl
e
Hehidbehindme,mybabyhasShyt endencies.
Wediscussedt
hebehaviorofhernewstaf
f
memberandshepromisedt odealwi
thher.
Oyi
ntandohadtodi
sappearwithKuhl
esot hat
hewon'tcr
ywhenIleav
ehi m.Thedri
veto
Usit
handi
l
e'sschoolwasshortsi
ncet
hei
r
school
sareclosetoeachot
her
Me:
doy
ouwantmet
owal
kyoui
n?
Usi
:yes.I
'
m scar
edmommy
Me:don'
tbe.You'
l
lmakef
ri
endsbefor
etheday
i
soverandyouareabi
ggir
lnow.Youarer
eady
f
orbigschool
Wewalkedunti
lthegatet
henIhadt osay
goodby
e.Shewasal r
eadycr
yingwhichbroke
myheart,
thi
sonei smybabythough,notas
str
ongasherbrother
s
Me:
Ilov
eyoupumpki
n
Her
:Idon'
twantt
ogoi
nmommy
Me:babycomeon.Youhavetogoinsot
hat
youcantel
lusal
laboutbi
gschool
whenweget
home.Wewi l
lev
enhaveicecr
eam
Her
:OKby
emommy
Ibl
ewheraki
ss,
shecaughti
tthenpl
acedher
handov erherheart.Iwas10mi nslateforwor
k
becauseofmycr azyki dsbutlucki l
ymyboss
di
dn'tseeme.Ihadev aluati
onst odoal l
morningandcompi lereportssoIhar dl
yhad
ti
met orelax.Ienj
oy edmyj ob,Iwasdoi ngwhat
Il
ovef oraf ai
ramountofhour sandt hemoney
waspr ettygoodnott hatIwasal l
owedt ospend
i
tonany oneexceptmy self
.Limi l
etakescareof
ever
ything,allt
hemoneyIear n,Ijustsaveor
spoilmyself.At11ther ewasaknockonmy
door
Me:
comei
n
Myassi
stant
,Zol
ekawal
kedi
n
Zol
eka:
itst
imef
ory
ouri
nhouseappoi
ntment
Me:
already?OKgi
vemeamomentt
henI
'
llt
ake
t
hefi
lefrom y
ouandheadout
Shenoddedt henwalkedout,ther
eisnothi
ng
thatgetsmeasemot i
onalashavingtogo
throughtheseinhouseappointments,
theyar
e
thatdepressing.WhenIsawt hattodayIwi ll
be
deali
ngwi thLiyana, myheartsankfurther.She
neverrecoveredf rom thel
ossofherchi ldand
nowshehasbi polardi
sordersosheisal way s
i
nandoutofher e.Igrabthefi
lefr
om Zol eka's
deskandheadt owardsthepsychiat
ricwar d.
Shesmi l
esf aintlywhensheseesme
Li
yana:
pleaset
ell
meI
'
m goi
nghomet
oday
Ismi
l
ethenpul
loutachai
randsi
tdown
Me:
howar
eyouf
eel
i
ngt
oday
?
Her:
don'tt
reatmelikeI
'
m cr
azyAbongi
we,
you
knowI'
m notcrazy
Me:Ijustwantt
oknowhowy
ouar
edoi
ng.
That
'sall
Her:
I'
m angr
y,youcan'
tkeepmel
ockedup
her
e.Mychil
drenneedme
Bytheti
meIwasdonewi
tht
hesessi
on,Ij
ust
wantedtocr
awl
upinmybedandsl
eep.That
'
s
howdr ai
nedIwas,Ireal
lywishShaunwould
j
usttakehertoanotherhospit
ali
nsteadofthi
s
one.Thisi
smybestf ri
end,i
tkil
lsmet oseeher
l
ikethi
s.Atluncht
ime, myhusbandcamet o
fet
chmeandwewentout
Li
:andwhocr
iedt
hemost
?
Me:yourdaught
erobviousl
y.Shedi
dn'
tev
en
wanttogointheschool
Hi
m: l
olIsawt
hatonecomi
ng.Shel
i
kesact
ing
macho.Sohowareyoumyangel
?How'
syour
morni
ngbeen?
Isi
ghed,
tookasi
pofmyj
uicet
henr
ecl
i
nedon
myseat
Hi
m:t
hatbad?
Me:
ShaunhadLi
yanaadmi
tt
edagai
n
Hi
m:shameman,
thosepoorki
ds
Me:weshoul
dgocheckont
hem l
ater
.If
eel
li
ke
I
'v
ebeennegl
ect
ingt
hem
Hi
m: we'
l
lgobabes.Idon'
tl
ikei
twheny
ou
wor
rysomuch
Hetookmyhandki
ssedi
tthensqueezedi
t
gent
lycausi
ngmet
osmil
e
Hi
m:t
her
ewe,
Iwanty
out
oal
way
sbehappy
.
Me:
anewcarwoul
dmakemehappy
Hi
m:OKI
'
llgeti
tfory
ou
Me:Iwantt
ogetitmy
sel
f,mymoneyi
sjust
si
tt
ingi
nthebank
Him:I
'l
lgety
outhecarAbongiwe,
I'
m notl
ett
ing
youspendmoneyonyoursel
fwhenI'
m her
e
Me:
sowhat
'st
hepoi
ntofmewor
king?
Him:babydon'tgolooki
ngforaf i
ghtwhere
ther
eisn'
tone.I'
my ourhusband,i
tsmyjobto
provi
deforyou.Youarenotwor ki
ngbecause
youhaveto,youareworkingbecauseyouwant
to
Idi
dn'
trespondt
othat
,hedi
dsayIshoul
dn'
tgo
l
ooki
ngf
oraf
ightwher
ether
eisn'
tone.
Hi
m:ar
eyoumadatmenow?
Ishookmyhead, ourf
oodarri
vedandIwast
ed
notimeindiggingin.Hetr
iedtokeept
he
conver
sati
ongoi ngbuthonestl
yIwasover
yonkelent
oy eLunch.
Him:i
sitt
hati
mpor
tantt
oyout
obuyt
hiscar
your
sel
f?
Me:
let
'sj
ustl
eav
eitLi
mil
e
Him:Ij
ustwantToknow,
may bet
henI
'l
l
under
standwhyyouwon'
tletmet
akecareof
you
Me:Idon'townany t
hingthatI'veboughtmy sel
f.
ThecarIdr i
vewasboughtbyy ou,thehousewe
l
iveinwasal soboughtbyy ou.AllIhavearethe
cl
othesinthecloset
.Ineedt of eell
ikeIown
something.It
simportantt
omet ohave
ownershipbecauseallmyl i
feI'
v ehadnothi
ng
andnowt hatIcanaffordthings,Iwant
somet
hingt
hat
'smi
ne.
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08/
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15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
5*
"
Ther
eisno"I
"int
eam"
Itseemedlikeheunder st
oodwhereIwas
comi ngfr
om, eit
herthatorhewasoverhaving
thisconver
sationbutonet hi
ngIknowforsure
i
st hatIam buyingthatcaronewayoranother
Me:whendoy
oupl
anont
aki
ngy
oursi
ster
's
cal
l
s?
Li
:pr
obabl
ynev
er
Me:
Limi
l
e
Myv oi
cewassof tandIhadextendedmyhand
toholdontohis.WhenAlwaleft,i
thi
tquit
e
badl
ybecausehedi dn'
tgett
osaygoodby e,al
l
hegotwasat extandthatwasit.Shecal
ls
almostever
ydayandhedoesn'ttakehercall
s
Hi
m:Abongi
wedon'
tgot
her
e,pl
ease
Me:
babyj
usthearherout
Him: sot hatshecanl i
eandmani pul
ateme?
NahI 'm OK.Shewasal lIhadandshelef
t,
withoutev ensayinggoodby e.Shedi
dthesame
thingmypar ent
sdi d,
atleastwitht
hem t
hey
didn'thaveachoi ce.AlwandeZunguisdeadto
Abongi wesost opbr i
ngingherup
I
twast hetoneofhi
sv oi
cethatmademeshut
up,
hewasangr yandt hel
astthingIwanti
sto
beattherecei
vi
ngendofhisr age.Af
terl
unch,
hedrovemebackt othehospital
,hewasat
l
eastcalmernow
Him:I
'l
lfetcht
hekidsfr
om school
,cookdi
nner
andhel
pt hem wi
ththei
rhomework
Ilookedathi
m wi
thsur
pri
sewr
it
tenal
lov
ermy
face
Me:
real
l
y?
Hel
aughed,
peckedmylipsandgotoutthecar
.
Hecametomydoor,openeditandext
ended
hishandtome.Itookitwi
thoutasecond
thoughtandgotoutt
hecar
Hi
m: Il
oveyoumyangel
andt
hanksf
orj
oini
ng
meforlunch
Me:
noneedt
othankmebaby
.Il
ovey
oumor
e
Weshar edahugandIwenti ntothehospi t
al.
WhenIgott omydesk, IdialedAl wa'snumber .
Shehadpr omisedtoatleastt ellmewher ethey
are.I
tsbeen5y ear
ssincet heyleft,5yearsof
mykidsnotbei ngi
ntouchwi ththeironlyaunt
and5y ear
sofmyhusbandsl owlylosinghis
mind.Mybi ggestf
earishim goi ngbackt othe
manhewaswhenIhadf irstmethi m
Al
wa:
hel
l
o
Me:
heyhowar
eyou?
Shel
etoutasi
ghandt
ookapause
Her
:I'
m OK,
howar
etheki
ds?
Me:
theyar
efi
ne,
Usi
thandi
l
est
art
edgr
ade1
t
odayandKuhl
est
art
edpr
eschool
Her
:wowt
heyar
egr
owi
ngsof
ast
.Imi
sst
hem.
Me:
whenar
eyouguy
scomi
ngback?
Her:ever
ytimeIaskthatquest
ion,myhusband
stor
msout .Youknowhesentmyki dsto
boardi
ngschool?Anqobehateshim,hedoesn'
t
evencomehomedur ingtheholi
days,hej
ust
goestohisaunts
Me:whydon'
tyouj
ustt
aket
heki
dsandcome
home?
Shechuckl
ed,
Icouldheari
nherv
oicet
hatshe
wasonthevergeofcr
ying
Her:
whatwouldbet hepoint?He'df
indusand
br
ingusbackhere.IneverthoughtI
'
dhate
l
iv
inginLondonsomuchbutGodknowshow
muchIcan'tst
andthisplaceanymore
Atl
eastnowIknowwher et
heyar
ebutshest
il
l
woul
dn'tdi
shonthesuddenmovetheydi
d5
y
ear
sago
Me:
Ispoket
oyourbr
other
Her
:wi
l
lhet
akemycal
l
snow?
Ipausedf
orasec,
inhal
eddeepl
ythenr
eleased
asigh
Me:
Itr
iedAl
wa,
Ireal
l
ydi
d
Her:butheisbei
nghisst
ubbor
nself
.I
underst
and.AnywayIhavet
ogo.We'l
ltal
k
agai
nsoonandpl easeki
sst
hekidsf
orme
Me:
Iwi
l
l
AttheendofmydayIwasn' treall
ytir
edbutI
wasappreciat
ingthatIdidn'
thavet ocook.I
drovepastTopsandpi ckedupabot t
leofwine
thendrovehome.Kuhl ewast hefi
rstonet o
spotmycarandhecamer unningtome, I
openedthedoor,pickedhim upthenpl acedhi
m
onmyl apbeforesmot her
inghim withkisses
Kuhl
e:mom!
Me:
don'
tcompl
ain
Him:yougoi
ngt
omakemyf
acepi
nkwi
th
l
ipst
ick
Iki
ssedhi
scheekonemor
eti
mej
ustt
oannoy
him
Me:
howwasschool
?
Hi
m:wepl
ayed,
drewst
uffandsl
ept
Me:
soi
twasbor
ing?
Heshookhisheadt hensmi l
ed.Helooksl
ike
Limi
lewhenhewasababy ,aunt
ieLwasayshe
l
ookslikeLi
mil
e'
sdadt hough.Oyint
andol
ooks
l
ikeLimil
enow,theyareeachot her'
sphot
ocopy
.
Me:
I'
m home
Usi
:mommy
Sherantome,st
il
li
nherschool
uni
for
m and
readyt
ostar
ttal
ki
ng
Me:
whyar
eyoust
il
li
nyouruni
for
m?
Usi
:I
'm hel
pingdadi
ntheki
tchen?
Me:
iny
ouruni
for
m Usi
thandi
l
e?
Ni
ki
:It
oldhert
ochangebutshewoul
dn'
tl
ist
en
Shestar
tedSulkingasshemarchedupt
he
st
air
s.Kuhlefoll
owedbehindherwi
thmybag
asIwentintothekit
chen
Me:
Hadebe
Helookedsof
reakensexyashesl
avedaway
behi
ndthepot
s
Li
:heymyangel
Me:i
fmydadwast oseeyounow,he'
dsay
cometakey
ourcowsback,youpai
dfornot
hing
Helaughed,
closedt
hepothewasst
ir
ri
ngt
hen
cametome, ki
ssedmethenpul
l
edback
Hi
m:andI
'
lltel
lhi
mt hatIl
ovespoi
l
ingmywi
fe.
Howwasyourday?
Me:
notbad.I
'
m goi
ngt
otakeabat
hthencome
hel
pyou
Hi
m:shoul
dIbr
ingy
ouagl
assofwi
ne?
Me:
yespl
ease.Iboughtt
womor
ebot
tl
es
Aftermybat h,Iwassorelaxedandabitt
ipsy
becauseLi decidedt
oleavet hewhol
ebottl
ein
thebathroom.Igotdressedinsweatshortsand
av estt
henmademywaydownst ai
rs
Me:
Oyi
ntando
Oy
i:mama
Me:
comeher
e
Hewalkedin,
iPadi
nhi
shandanddropped
hi
mselfnextt
ome.Iki
ssedhi
sfor
eheadandhe
ki
ssedmycheek
Me:
howwasschool
?
Hi
m:itwasf
ine.Iwaspr
otect
ingKuhl
ethe
whol
eday
Kuhl
e:l
i
ar
Oy
i:not
Me:
wel
lthat
'swhatbi
gbr
other
sdo.
Usithandi
l
eandherf athersetupthetablewith
thehelpofNiki
wet henwewentt oeat.The
conv er
sat
ionatthetableinvolv
edLimileandhis
kidsmostly,
IkeptthinkinghowIwasgoi ngto
conv i
ncehimtotakehi ssist
er'
scal
ls.Atleast
tohearherout
Li
:babyar
eyoul
i
steni
ng?
Me:
hmmm
Usi
:Ineedhel
pwi
thhomewor
kmommy
Me:
daddywi
l
lhandl
eit
Li
:andmommywi
l
lhandl
ethedi
shesr
ight
?
Me:
yesbecausey
ouguy
scooked
Whenthekidswereinbed,myhusbandandI
ret
reat
edtobed,myheadonhischestandhis
armsaroundme.Ilovet
hismansomuch, I
honest
lycan'
tpi
cturemyli
fewi
thouthi
m orour
ki
ds
Li
:what
'
swr
ong?
Me:
whosai
dany
thi
ngi
swr
ong?
Him:Abongi
wedon'
tfor
gett
hatIknowy
ou,
you
can'
tfool
me
Me:t
herei
snopointi
ntel
l
ingy
oubecausey
ou
ar
egoingt
ogetangry
Me:
giv
emet
hebenef
itoft
hedoubtpl
ease
Isi
ghed
Me:
Alwai
sinEngl
and
Hi
m:goodf
orher
Me:
Limi
l
eourki
dsdon'
tknowt
hei
raunt
Hi
m:andt
hat
'sachoi
cet
hei
rauntmade.
Me:
Idon'
tthi
nkshehadachoi
ce
Him:don'
tmakeexcusesforher.I
fImean
anyt
hingt
oher,sheshoul
dhav ecomehereand
sai
dgoodbyebutshedidn'
t.Leti
tgoanddo
y
our
sel
faf
avorandst
opt
aki
nghercal
l
s
Ididn'trespondaf tert hatandheal sodi dn'tsay
anythingel se.Ther eisnot hingasf rust
rat i
ngas
havingext ernal thingsaf fectingy ourmar ri
age,
myhusbandandIar egr eatbutt hist hi
ngwi th
hissisterwi l
l bet her easonwef i
ndour sel vesin
hotwat er.ThenextdayIwokeupasIf elthis
handsont hewai st bandofmypant iesbutI
choset opr etendasi fI'
m asl eep.Hegent l
y
remov edt hem t henopenedmyl egs.Hi shead
wasal readybet weenmyl egsandwhenIf elt
histongueonmycooki e,Imoanedl oudly.He
chuckledbef oreeat i
ngmeout ,tonguef ucking
mei ntoami ndbl owi ngor gasm t henhecl eaned
meupwi thhist onguebef orecomi ngup
Li
:goodmor
ningmyev
ery
thi
ng
Heplacedaki
ssonmyl
i
ps,
giv
ingmeat
ast
eof
myself
Me:
goodmor
ningl
oveofmyl
i
fe
IcouldfeelhishardpenisatmyentranceandI
openedmyl egswider.Theteasi
nghewas
doingwassuchat ur
non,hekeptgrazi
nghis
ti
pov ermycl i
t,causi
ngmymoanst okeep
goinghigher
Me:
babypl
ease
Hi
m:pl
easewhat
?
Me:
puti
tin
Heent er
edmef ul
lyinonet
hrustandI
screamedloudl
y,diggi
ngmynailsdeepi
ntohi
s
back
Me:
fuuuuck
Wemadel oveunti
lwebothcamet henIfl
i
pped
hi
m overandstr
addledhi
m,pinni
nghishands
ov
erhisheadandrubbingmypussyl i
psagai
nst
hi
sdick
Hi
m:MaDube
Hi
svoi
cewassof
tyetwi
thsomuchy
ear
ning.
Hehat
edbei
ngdominat
edi
nbedbutatt
he
samet
imeheenj
oyedit
Me:
HadebeIneedaf
avor
Hi
m:ngokubaby
?
Me:
yes
Il
etgoofhishandsandstr
okedhi
spenisf
rom
underme,
focusingonthet
ipthemost
Hi
m:hay
iAbongi
we,
hay
ibaby
Iwant
edtol
aughsobadl
y,heseemedso
vul
ner
abl
eandhorny
Me:
promi
semey
ou'
l
ltakey
oursi
ster
'scal
l
s
Hi
m:baby
Ii
nser
tedhi
minmebutdidn'
tmove,
hishands
movedtomyhi
psbutIst
il
ldi
dn'
tMove
Hi
m:babyy
ouar
etor
tur
ingme
Me:
sayy
es
Hi
m:babyno
Istar
tedrocki
ngmyhips,sway
ingmybodyon
topofhisanditwasdr
ivi
nghim cr
azy
.
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
6*
"
Someti
mesthehar
destt
hingandt
her
ight
t
hingar
ethesame"
Iwatchedhi
m dial
hissister
'snumberwhil
e
sideeyei
ngme.Hepl acedthephoneonhisear
forafewsecondsthenhungupandt hrewiton
thebed
Li
:thi
sisst
upi
dAbongi
we
Me:
babyy
oupr
omi
sed
Him:youwerebounci
ngonmydickso
obvi
ousl
yIwasgoingtosayy
es.It
snotf
airof
youtotr
ickmeli
kethat
Me:poi
nti
syousai
dyouweregoingt
odoitso
doi
t.What
'st
heworstt
hatcoul
dhappen?
Hi
m:t
hewor
sti
sthatIwi
l
lbel
i
eveherl
i
esand
f
all
int
ohermani
pul
ati
on
Irol
ledmyeyes,Iwasn'
ti
nt hemoodforhi
s
dramasoearlyi
ntheday.Heneededtomake
thi
scallsohi
m andhissi
stercangetov
erthei
r
nonsense
Me:I'
m goi
ngtotakeashower,
whenIcome
out
,Iwanttohearal
labouty
ourconv
ersat
ion
wit
hyoursi
ster
Hi
m:mxm
Hetookt
hephonefrom t
hebed,pr
essedita
f
ewt i
mesthenpl
aceditonhi
searashe
wat
chedmegetnakedandwr apatowelaround
mybody
Hi
m:hel
l
o
Ismil
edwi t
houthi
m not i
cingthenmademy
waytotheshowerboot h.WhenIgotoutt he
shower,hewassti
llt
alkingonhi sphone.He
hadhisfist
scl
enchedwhi chonlymeantone
thi
ng,hewasgetti
ngangr y.Iputlot
iononmy
body
,gotdr
essedt
henwentt
ocheckont
he
ki
ds
Me:
goodmor
ningbabi
es
Iki
ssedal
loft
hem bef
oresi
tt
ingnextt
o
Usi
thandi
l
e
Them:
mor
ningmommy
Me:
mor
ningNi
ki
Ni
ki
:mor
ningsi
si,
canIgety
ouany
thi
ng?
Me:
I'
ll
hav
ewhatt
heyar
ehav
ing
Shetur
nedaroundandf
ixedmeapl
ateoff
ull
Engl
i
shbreakfast
Oy
int
ando:
wher
eisdaddy
?
Me:he'
l
lcomedowninaf
ewmi
nut
es.Eatup,
I
don'
twantt
obelat
e
Nikipl
acedmyf oodinf
rontofme,Ithankedher
thendugin.Bytheti
mewewer edoneeat i
ng,
Limil
ewasst i
l
lnotdownsoIwentt ocheckon
hi
m.Hewasnowpaci ngupanddownther oom,
shout
ingt
oAl waIassumed.Oureyesl
ocked
whenIwalkedinandhestoppedshout
ing
Li
:what
?
Me:
youar
egoi
ngt
obel
atef
orwor
k
Hi
m:I
'
m notgoi
ngi
n
Me:
oh
Idi
dn'
tsayanyt
hingaf
tert
hatbutIdi
dn'
tmov
e
whi
chprobabl
yannoyedhi
m
Hi
m:wast
her
eany
thi
ngel
se?
Me:
uhm no
Hi
m:t
hengi
vemespace,
I'
m busyher
e
Hewalkedoutther oom ontothebalconyand
sl
ammedt heslidi
ngdoor .WhathaveI
unl
eashed?Mybi ggestfearri
ghtnowi shi
m
l
osinghi
stemperandnotbei ngabl
et ocontr
ol
hi
sanger.Ichangedoutoft heoutf
itIhad
pl
annedtowearatwor k, sl
i
ppedintogrey
l
eggingsandalooset
opthenwentback
downstai
rs.AsmuchasIwastaki
ngadayof
f,I
sti
l
lneededtotakemyki
dstoschool
.
Me:
youguy
sready
?
Usi
:wher
eisdaddy
?
Me:heisonanimpor
tantphonecal
l
,he'
l
lsee
youguy
slater
Usi
:andar
en'
tyougoi
ngt
owor
kany
mor
e?
Me:no,
lessquest
ionsandmor
emov
ing.Let
'
s
go
Iusheredthem t
othecaranddr
oveoff.
Usit
handil
ewouldn'
tstopwit
hherquest
ions
andhonestlyshewasfli
ppi
ngmymor ni
ng
upsidedown
Kuhle:
mamacanwehav
eicecr
eam af
ter
school
?
Me:
yesy
oumay
Oy
int
ando:
isdadf
etchi
ngusorar
eyou
f
etchi
ngus?
Usi
:Iwantdadtof
etchust
henwewi
l
lhav
eice
cr
eam f
orsure
Yhot heseki ds, Iwassor eliev
edwhenI
droppedt hel astoneof fanddr ovebackhome.
Somet hingi nmewoul dn'tletmel eavemy
husbandl iket hat.WhenIgothome, Isentan
emai ltowor kr epor ti
ngt hatIwon' tbecomi ng
i
nt henIwentt omybedr oom.Atl eastthe
phonecal lhadev entuallycomet oanend
becauseLi mi lewasnowl eaningov erthe
balconysmoki ngwi thagl assofwhi skyont he
rail
ing.Heonl ysmokeswhenhei sdr i
nkingbut
i
tswayt oear lyint hedayf oreitherofthose
things.Igoti nbed, swi t
chedt heTVont hen
pickedamov ef rom boxof f
iceandwat chedi t
.
Anhourl at er
, hewal kedi n
Li
:youdi
dn'
tgot
owor
k?
Me:
nope
Hi
m:whynot
?
Hetr
iedgetti
ngont
hebedbutIst
oppedhi
m
andhelookedatmeal
lsur
pri
sed
Me:gobrushyourt
eet
hfir
st.Youwer
edr
inki
ng
andsmoking,
Idon'
tneedthati
nmybedr
ight
now
Hi
m:f
inebutwhydi
dn'
tyougot
owor
k?
Me:
Ihav
eaheadache
Hi
m:suxoka
Hedisappearedint
othebathr
oom andret
urned
l
ater
,stil
lInj
usthisboxer
s.Hegotinbednext
t
omet henpull
edmeont opofhim
Hi
m:sowhydi
dn'
tyougot
owor
k?
Me:
Iwaswor
ri
edabouty
ou
Hi
m:I
'
mfi
ne.Gi
vemeaki
ss
Il
oweredmyhead,
brushedmyli
psagai
nsthi
s
bef
orehepul
l
edmei nforasl
owkisswhi
ch
turnedpassi onat
ewi t
hinseconds.Mycl othes
wentf lyi
ngt henIwasfli
ppedonmysi deandhe
enteredmef rom behi
nd.Wef uckedforhour s,
notgent lelovemakingbutr ough, hai
rpul l
ing
fucking.Byt heti
mewest opped, Icouldn'tfeel
myl egs, myv agi
nawaspai nful andIwas
exhaust ed.Ipassedoutwi t
hinsecondsand
whenIwokeup, i
twasar ound11: 30andhe
wasn' tnexttomebutt heshowerwat erwas
running.Igotoutofbed, openedt heslidi
ng
doort henmadet hebedandcl eanedar oundt he
room.
Hi
m:Ithoughtwewer
egoi
ngt
ospendt
heday
i
nbed
Me:
hay
iI'
m sor
e
Hi
m:di
dIhur
tyou?
IshookmyheadasIl ookedatmysel
fonthe
mirr
or.Ihadl
ovebit
esallovermybustar
eaand
myst omachbutl
uckil
ynoneonmyneck.I
wat chedhim getdressedthenIwentt otakea
l
ongr el
axi
ngbat h.Iknewhewasn' taboutto
talktomeabouthi stal
kwithhissisterbutI'
m
j
ustgl aditfi
nall
yhappened.Idon'tthinkI'
d
surv i
vegoing5y earswit
houttalki
ngt omy
sibli
ngs.
Me: y
ourki
dswanty
out
ofet
cht
hem f
rom
schoolt
oday
Wewer ei
nthekitchen,
hewasmakingus
toast
edcheesesandwichesandIwasj
ust
enjoy
ingt
hesightofhim
Hi
m:I
'm surei
twasUsi
thandi
l
ethatcameup
wi
tht
hatidea
Me:
youknowy
ourdaught
er
Myphoneranganditwasal
lthewayint
he
l
oungesoIwaddledal
lthewayther
e
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ournewwal
k
Ishowedhi
mthemi
ddl
efi
ngerandhel
aughed.
It
ookmyphone,
smi
l
edbef
oreanswer
ingi
t
Me:
heybuddy
Lwakho:
thewayImi
ssy
ou
Me:
itdoesn'
tcomecl
oset
othewayImi
ssy
ou
It
hrewmysel
font
hecouch,
placi
ngmyl
egson
i
taswel
l
Hi
m:t
hewi
feandIar
einDur
banf
ort
heweek
Me:
justt
het
woofy
ouori
sChl
oewi
thy
ou?
Him:Chloei
swithhermot her
.Wearegoi
ngto
chi
ll
atthehotel
unt i
lyouguysar
ebackfr
om
workthenwewillcomesayhi
Me:
LiandIar
eathome.Comet
hrough
Hi
m:al
ri
ght
IhungupasLi
gav
ememysandwi
ch
Me:
thanksl
ove
Heki
ssedmycheekbef
oret
aki
ngaseatnex
tto
me
Me:
Lwakhoi
sint
ownwi
thhi
swi
fe
Li
:why
?
Me:
Idi
dn'
taskbutt
heyar
ecomi
ngov
er
Hi
m:I
'
mleav
ingt
hen
Me:babecomeon.Idon'tev
enunder
standwhy
youandthatgi
rldon'
tvi
be
Hi
m:I
'
m al
l
ergi
ctohoes
3y earsagoLwakhobr okeupwithHail
eyand
start
eddatingSimniki
we,theygotmarri
edtwo
mont hsagoandLi mil
ecan'tst
andthegir
l.She
knowswhy , heknowswhyandLwakhoandI
arebeingkeptinthedark
Me:
youar
enotser
iousl
yleav
ingar
eyou?
Him:AbongiweI'
vehadonehel
lofast
artt
o
thi
sday,Idon'
tneedtobear
oundLwakho'
s
stupi
dwife.
Me:fi
ne.I'
l
ljustmeetupwi
tht
hem att
hei
rhot
el
orsomethi
ng
Hesighed,pr
obabl
yathowsadIsoundedwhen
Isai
dthatandIwasn'
tsul
ki
ng.Iwasreal
lynot
happyaboutthi
swhol
ethi
ng
Him:y
oul
i
keput
ti
ngmei
nawkwar
dposi
ti
ons
neh
Me: Idonot
.Thi
sisawkwar
dformetoo
becauseyouwon'
ttel
lmewhat'
sthedeal
wit
h
youandSim
Hi
m:y
ouwon'
tl
ikei
tsoI
'
drat
hernott
ell
you
Me:
nowIwannaknow
Hi
m: l
eti
tgomyangel .I
twon'
tbenef
itusi
nany
ki
ndofwayinsteadi
twil
lmakeyoulookatme
di
ff
erent
lyandIcan'
thavet
hat
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
7*
"
Whaty
oudon'
tknowcoul
dnev
erhur
tyou.
"
Ideci
dedtoleti
tgo,
overthe6yearsthatLi
mil
e
andIhavebeenmarri
ed,I
'
v el
earntthatt
herei
s
nothinggoodabouthi spast.I
tsdarkand
twistedandreallynotworthavisi
tattimes.
LwakhoandSi m arri
vedanhourlaterandI
mustsayLwakhodi dwell
withthi
sone, sheis
gorgeous.Thet all
model t
ypeofgi r
lwithanass
andboobst odi efor.Shewasrockingshorthair
,
makeuponf leekandcompl imentedherman
well.LwakhoandIexchangedhugst henIled
them tothelounge
Lwakho:
Limi
l
eHadebe
Li
chuckl
edt
henshookhi
shead
Li
:yaSmi
th
TheyshookhandsthenLi
lockedey eswit
hSim
anditwasawkwardforabitbecausesuddenl
y
ther
oom wentsil
ent
Li
:mol
oSi
mni
ki
we
Shesmi
l
edt
hennodded
Si
m:heyLi
mil
e
Againtherewassi l
ence,
I'
m prett
ysurethese
twohav ehistory.Sexual
histor
yinfact
.I
clear
edmyt hroatandeveryonerel
axed
Me:
wher
eismyChl
oe?
Lwakho:wi
thhermother
.YouknowhowHai l
ey
get
swi t
hherbabymamadr ama.I
t'
sexhaust
ing
act
uall
y
Me:justdon'
tl
etmybabysuf f
erjustbecause
youandhermot hercan'
tbeadult
s.Anywaycan
Igetyouguyssomet hi
ngtodri
nk?
Lwakho:Iwasact
ual
lyhopi
ngwecouldgoout.
IwenttoseeLi
yanaear
li
erandhonest
lyIneed
togoout
Li
:greati
dea.I
'l
lactual
lycat
chupwit
hy ouguys
becauseIhavetofetchtheki
dsf
rom school
Me:youcanfet
cht
hem babyandwe'
ll
leav
e
af
terwar
ds.I
'
m sur
ethey'
dlov
etoseeuncl
e
Lwakho
Lwakho:
andI
'
dlov
etoseet
hem
I'
m st
il
ltr
yingtofigureoutthi
sSimni
kiwegir
l,
sheistooquietformyl i
ki
ngbutbecausesheis
mybestfriend'
swi f
e,IguessIhavet
ol i
keher
Me:
Sim ar
eyouOK?
Shesmi
l
edf
aint
lyt
hennodded
Lwakho:
itspr
obabl
ythosepr
egnancy
hor
mones
Li
:youar
epr
egnant
?
Seethereisnot
hingwrongwiththatquest
ion,
i
tsprettynor
malbuttheprobl
em isthewayhe
askedit.Asi
fshockedthatSi
m couldget
pregnant
Lwakho:yepwear
epr
egnant
.2mont
hsand
count
ing
Heplacedhi
shandonherbel l
y,ki
ssedher
cheekandsmiled.Idon'
tknowwhatiti
sabout
guysthatmakethem gogagaoverusbeing
pregnant.Gogagaoverlobol
anegoti
ati
onsor
somet hi
ngimport
antli
kethatnotwatchi
ngus
bl
owupi ntot
hesizeofawhale
Li
:congr
ats.I
'
m goi
ngt
orusht
ogett
heki
ds
andweshalll
eav
e
Heki
ssedmycheekthenl
ipsandlef
t.I
wat
chedhi
m unt
ilhewasoutthedoor
Lwakho:
y oust
il
lsuckf
aceev
enaf
terbei
ng
marri
edforsol
ong?
Il
aughed.Hewasbei
ngr
idi
cul
ous
Me:hav
eyouseenuncl
eSosoandaunt
ieLwa?
Thoset
wosuckface
Lwakho:y
hot hoset wost
il
lhav
esexTheyarei
n
thei
r60syetai.Excusemeguys,Ineedt
he
bathr
oom
Hegotupandheadedtothebathr
oom andit
wasasifSi
m wasjustwai
ti
ngforhimtoleav
e
Si
m:soy
ouandLi
hav
ebeenmar
ri
edf
or6
y
ear
s?
Inod,
Isenset
herewouldbeafol
l
owup
quest
ionsoIj
ustwai
tedonit
Her
:andy
oudat
edf
orhowl
ong?
Me:4year
sifI
'
m notmist
aken.What
'st
hest
ory
wi
thyouandmyhusbandanyway?
Her
:whatdoy
oumean?
Shestar
tedact
ingfakeconf
usedandi
tjust
annoy
edmer eall
y
Me:youguyshav
ehi
stor
ytoget
her
,mi
ghtas
wel
lspi
lli
t
Her:
I'
venev
erdatedy
ourhusbandi
fthat
'
swhat
youarei
mplyi
ng
Me:t
henwhati
sit
?Hehatesyourgut
sandhe
won'
ttel
lmewhysohow'
saboutyoutel
lme
Lwakho:
whohat
eswhosegut
s?
Idi
dn'
tev
enseet
hathewasoutoft
he
bathroom, Si
m andIl ookedateachother,
obviouslyI'
m wai
tingf orhertogetusoutof
thi
spi ckl
e.Sheclearedhert hr
oat
Sim:wewer
etal
ki
ngaboutHai
l
eyandt
hatshe
hatesme
Lwakhoki
ssedherl
i
pst
hensatdown
Lwakho:don'
twor
ryabouther,
shei
sjustbi
tt
er
becauseInev
ermarr
iedher.
Wespokeaboutrandom t
hingsunti
lIhear
dthe
f
amili
arvoi
cesofmynoisemaker sasthey
r
ushedinthr
oughthedoor
Usi
:uncl
eLwakho
Shethr
ewherbagont hefl
oorandranto
Lwakhowhopickedherupandplacedheron
hi
slapwhil
eshewr appedherar
msar oundhi
s
neckandhuggedhim
Lwakho:
howar
eyoupumpki
n?
Usi
:uncl
eLwakhoYouknowIhat
ethatName
Li
:Igav
eyout
hatname
Usi
:Ist
il
ldon'
tl
ikei
t
Theboy
sjustgr
eet
edandwentt
othei
rrooms
Me:
whatar
etheysul
ki
ngabout
?
Li
:Oy i
ntandowantsanewPlayStat
ionbut
Kuhlewant st
hexboxsoItol
dthem t odeci
de
whattheywantbecauseI
'm notbuyingtwo
consoles
LiandIchangedthenwealldr
ov et
ogateway
foralatel
unchandsundowners.Iwasi
na
shortsummerdressbecauset
heheatwasa
l
itt
letoomuch.
Li
:sowhatar
eyouguy
sdoi
ngi
nDur
ban?
Lwakho:
toseeLi
yana.Shei
sbasi
cal
l
yfami
l
y
andweareti
ght
Li
:howi
sshe?
Me:
OKguy sthi
sisdepr
essi
ng,canwechange
t
hetopi
c.Sohow'smarr
iedl
if
e?
Si
mniki
wesmil
edasshel
ookedatherhusband.
Theset
woarei
nlov
e,nodoubtabouti
t
Si
m:sof
arsogood.I
tsgr
eati
nfact
Lwakho:
Ifeel
li
keImar
ri
edmybestf
ri
end
Me: hay
iI'
myourbestf
ri
end.Thati
sn'
taboutt
o
change
Weconti
nuedwit
hourconversati
on,l
otsof
l
aughsandhappymoments.Ireal
lyneededt
his,
j
usttobeoutt
hehouseandrelaxi
ng
Lwakho:
IhearLoy
isoi
sint
own
Li
:yeahhemovedher
e.St
artedanewj
obandI
guesshei
sget
tinghi
sshi
ttoget
her
Lwakho:
itsaboutdamnt
ime
Me:
excusemeguy
s,Ineedt
hel
adi
es
Ireal
lyneededtopee,soIlef
tthem atthetabl
e
andheadedt othebathr
oom.Itwasempt y
exceptforthi
sladyandherdaughter.Ismil
ed
thenwentintothestal
l,
didmybusi nessand
gotout
Lady:XolohIneedtousethebat
hroom t
ooso
stayhereandI'
llbeback
Xol
oh:
noLul
u,Igowher
eyougo
Lady:uhm doyoumindkeepinganey
eonher
forafewseconds,Ij
ustneedtouset
he
bathr
oom andI'
m onmyper i
odssoIdon'
twant
togoinwithher
Me:
alr
ightnopr
obl
em
Ili
ft
edthecut
ebabygir
lontot
hecount
erthen
washedmyhands.Shewasabitdar
kwitha
hugeafrot
hatwasti
edint
opom poms.She
real
lywascut
e.Af
terawhil
ehermom gotout
Lady
:thanky
ousomuch
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
itsapl
easur
eLul
u
Shegiggl
ed,
lookedatherdaught
ert
henshook
herhead
Her:i
t'
sGuguactual
l
y.Shecall
smeLulufor
somestranger
eason.Eversi
nceshewasa
babyshehascall
edmethat
Me:
ohi
tsni
cet
omeety
ouGugu.By
eXol
oh
Shewav edherhandandweal lexi
tedthe
bathr
oom.Ther ewasaguywai ti
ngforthem
j
ustoutside,hewrappedhisarm aroundGugu
themomentsher eachedhim andhekissedher
cheekbeforeli
ft
ingupt hei
rdaughter
Guy
:thatwasl
ong
Gugu:Bongay
ouknowhowXolohi
s,al
way
s
wanti
ngtogoever
ywher
eIgo.
Ismil
edasIwalkedpassedthem,waved
goodbyeandwentbacktothetabl
e.Therestof
theeveni
ngwentpret
tywellandbythet
imewe
gothome,theki
dswerewatchingTV
Me:
babecanwet
alkf
orasecond
Wewer
eint
heki
tchen,
alone.Iwascr
avi
nga
f
rui
tsmoot
hieandhewant
edi
cecr
eam
Li
:ifyouaregoi
ngt
oaskmeaboutSi
mni
ki
we,
don'tbot
her
Me:nah,y
ou'l
ltel
lmeaboutt
hatwhenyouare
r
eady.Iwanttoknowabouty
ourconver
sat
ion
wi
thyoursist
er
Hesi
ghed,t
ookaspoonf
ulofi
cecr
eam and
st
uff
editi
nhismout
h
Him:shedoesn' twanttocomeback.
Apparentl
ytheirli
vesarei
ndangeror
somethingstupidli
kethat.Iknowshewasl
yi
ng
Me: whati
fshewasn't
?Babeyouknowyour
si
ster,l
eav
ingthecount
ryl
iket
hati
sn'
therst
yle
Him:i
tst
hati
diothusbandofher
s,I
'
venev
er
l
ikedt
hatguy
.Hei scontr
oll
i
ng
Me:
butdi
dyouguy
smakeup?
Heshruggedhi
sshoul
dersandcont
inued
eat
inghisi
cecream,
Iknowmyhusbandwhen
hei
suptosomethi
ngandt
hatshr
ugt
ell
sme
hei
saboutt
ogetuptonogood
Ipour
edmysmoothi
eint
oami
l
kshakegl
ass
andsatnextt
ohi
m
Li
:youknowIl
ovey
our
ight
?
Me:Iknowmyl
oveandIl
ovey
ouj
ustasmuch
i
fnotmore
Him: andIwantyoutoknowt hatIhat
ekeeping
secretsfr
om you,Ij
usthat
et hatl
ooky ougi
ve
mewheny ouknowI '
m hi
dingsomethingsoI'
m
goingtoputtheSimniki
wet hi
ngtobed
Iadj
ustedmysitt
ingposi
ti
on,Idi
dn'tevenhav
e
topushforhi
mt ospi
lli
tal
l.Heclearedhi
s
thr
oat,
lookedatmethenquickl
ylookedaway
Him:r
ememberthegir
lShauntol
dyouabout
?
TheoneI
..
.uhm t
heoneIhurt
Inoddedbutsoonr
eal
i
sedthathewasn'
t
l
ookingmywaysoIhadtobev ocal
Me:
yeah
Iwhi
sper
ed
Him: shei sorwasSi mniki
we'sfri
end.There
wasapoi ntwher et
hingsbetweenmeandt hat
girlwer estil
lgoodandshegotpr egnant.I
t
wasn' tplannedobv iousl
ybecausewewer enot
i
nar elati
onshi pbutSimniki
weconv incedherto
haveanabor t
ionbecauseaccor di
ngt oher,I
wasn' tgoingt otakecareofmybaby .I'
vehated
herandherf riendsincethen.That'
swhyI
fuckedupt hef ri
endwhensher ockedupatmy
placeunannounced.
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
8*
"
Beli
evei
nyourmant
hesamewayyoubel
i
eve
i
nthoset
easandwai
stt
rai
ner
s."
I
tisn'teasyt
oloveamant hathasar oughand
darkpastbutthosear
etheonest hatarewort
h
thelovemorethananyone.Thosearetheones
thatdon'
ttr
usteasil
yandwheny ouf
eel t
rust
ed
bythem youfeell
i
key ou'
veaccompl
ished
something
Me:
doesLwakhoKnow?
Heshookhishead.Thisisn'
tabi
gdealri
ght
?I
meanitsnotaval
idreasonforLwakho'
s
marr
iagetogoupinsmoker i
ght
?
Him:Ihat
eherAbongiweandpret
endingnotto
hateheri
sn'
teasy.Tohavet
ositt
hroughthese
di
ffer
entoccasi
onswit
hherandsmileasifshe
i
sn'tt
hereasonformealmostget
ti
nglockedup
Me: Hadebeleav eallt
hatinthepast
.Youhave
kidsnow, 3beautiful
childr
enthatl
oveyou
mor ethanany t
hing.I'
m sorr
yyouwentthr
ough
thatwithSim andherf r
iendbutbabyyouhav
e
toforgiv
eandt rytoforget
Hechuckledwhileshakinghi
shead.Hewas
cal
m,alit
tletoocalm anditwasscar
ytosee
himli
kethis.I
fyouknowLi mil
easwellasIdo,
y
ouwoul dfearwhenhei
scal
minasi
tuat
ion
t
hatshouldangerhi
m
Hi
m:andnowshei
spr
egnant
Me:
Hadebeno
Heli
ft
edhisheadandoureyesl
ockedt
henhe
f
rowned.Ishookmyheadandhi
sf r
owngot
moreint
ense
Hi
m:whynot
?
Me:
thi
nkofLwakho.I
tshi
schi
l
daswel
l
Him:itwill
lookli
keanacci
dent
.Amiscar
ri
age
ofsomesor t.Abongi
wemybloodi
sgunning
forr
ev enge
Me: i
tsnotwor thit
.Howwi llt
hatmakeyou
diff
erenttoher?Imagineifsomeonekil
l
edone
ofourchi l
dren,canyouevenbegint
oimagine
thatpain?Letitgosthandwasam ngyakcel
a.
Justletitgo
Hi
m:hmmm
Il
efthi
mi nthekit
chenandwal kedi
ntothe
l
ounge,IsatbetweenKuhleandOy i
ntando,
ki
ssedtheirheadandsnuggledthem
Kuhl
e:ouchmama
Me:
aski
esbaby
.Hav
eyouguy
sbat
hed?
Oyi
:yeahandweat
e.Aunt
ieNi
kimadebr
aai
meat
Me:
didy
oul
eav
emesome?
Usi
:yeaht
her
eisl
otsofi
tlef
tint
heov
en
Me:OKandaftert
hisepi
sodey
ouguysar
e
goi
ngtobed.Tomorrowi
saschool
day
WhenIwokeupt henextdayIwasal onei nbed,
i
twaswayt ooearlyforLi
mil
etohav eleftfor
workandhewasn' ti
ntheshower.Igotoutof
bed,shower
edandgotr eadyf
orthedaybut
whenIgotdownst ai
rshewasn'
tthereeither,
I
greet
edthekids,
dishedupmybreakf astand
atewitht
hem
Me:
Oyint
andopl
easechecki
fdaddy
'scari
sin
t
hegar
age
Oy
i:dadl
eftal
ready
Me:
ohOK.Eatupsowecanl
eav
e
Afterdroppi
ngthem off
,Idr
ovetoLi'
soff
ice.I
don'ttr
usthim whenheisli
kethi
s.Hemight
j
ustdosomet hi
ngstupi
dthathewil
ll
ivet
o
regret
Me:
mor
ningSer
ena
Ser
ena:
mor
ningMr
sH,
howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m wel
l
,ismyhusbandi
n?
Her
:nohehasn'
tar
ri
vedy
et
Haibokant
iwhereisthi
sman?Isaidmy
goodbyestoSerenaanddi
aledLi
mil
e'snumber
asIwalkedtowardsmycarbutonl
yreachedhi
s
voi
cemail
Me:Li
mil
eHadebey
oubet t
ernotdowhatI
t
hinky
ouaregoi
ngtodo.Leavethatgi
rlal
one,
thi
nkofwhatitwi
ll
dotoLwakho,
thi
nkofmy
fri
endshi
pwit
hLwakho.St
handwasam i
tsnot
worthit
.Il
oveyouandcal
lmebackwhenyou
getthi
s
Idi
dn'tev enfeell
ikegoingtowor kbutbecause
Iwasn'tiny est
erday,Ihadtogoint oday.You
missonedayofwor kandy oufi
ndamount ai
n
ofpaper workthenextday .Iwentthroughthe
morningv eryabsentminded,Ikeptcheckingmy
phonef orLimil
e'scallorevenatextbutt here
wasnot hing.AroundlunchtimeItri
edhi m again,
thi
sti
mei trangtwicethenwentt ov oi
cemai l
Me:
mxm scr
ewy
out
hen
Li
:ser
iousl
yMaDube,
scr
ewme?
Il
ift
edmyheadandt herehestoodbymydoor
withhi
shandsinhispocket
s.Ijumpedupf r
om
mychairandwrappedmyar msar oundhi
m, at
fi
rsthedi
dn'
thugmebackbutaf terawhi
lehe
si
ghedthenwrappedhisarmsar oundmywai st
gi
vi
ngmeasqueezet
henki
ssedmyneck
Me:
whenIwokeupy
ouwer
egone
Webrokethehugandsatont
hecouchwi
thmy
bodyagai
nsthi
s
Hi
m:Ij
ustneededt
ocl
earmyhead
Me:
andi
sitcl
earnow?
Hedi
dn'
trespond
Me:
baby
Hi
m:i
tscl
ear
ing
Me:
itsAst
art
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:Idon'
tdeser
vey
ou
Me:
thennoonedeser
vesme
*
*
#Gugul
ethu
Ihat
edMondaysbecausetheymeantmyman
hadtogobackt
oJo'burgandI'l
lbesl
eepi
ng
al
oneall
weekunlessXolohdeci
destoshar
e
mybed
Bonga:
youneedacar
Me:
Idon'
tev
enhav
eal
ear
ner
's
Him:wellyouneedtogetoneandthenr
egi
ster
atdri
vi
ngschool.I'
m notcomf
ort
ablewi
thmy
wif
etakingpubli
ctranspor
t
Ir
oll
edmyey esasIwat chedhim getdressed
whil
eIj
ustsatont hechairbythedresserin
j
ustmytowel.Mymani swellbui
lt,
heev en
makesmef eelbadforneverhavingsteppedin
agym
Me:
uberi
sn'
tpubl
i
ctr
anspor
t
Hi
m: i
t'
snotyourcarsoi
tspubli
ctr
anspor
tand
whyaren'
tyougett
ingdr
essed?Youdon'
twant
t
obelate
Me:y
eahheyplusmynewbossi
sn'
ttheni
cest
manonthepl
anet
Iputloti
ononmybodyt hengotdr
essedthen
walkedBongaoutt ohi
scab.Wesharedalong
andintensehug,t
hetearswer
ealr
eady
thr
eateningt
or ol
ldown
Bonga:
pleasedon'
tcr
y
Isni
ff
edaf
ewt
imes
Me:
I'
m notcr
ying.Hav
easaf
efl
i
ght
Him:t
hanksbaby
.I'
l
lcal
lyouwhenIl
and.Il
ove
youGugu
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Iwavedast hecardroveoutofthecompl ex
thenwentbackint heflat
.Xol
ohandNanawer e
alr
eadyhavingbreakfastandIwasalmost
runni
nglatesoIdidn'thaveti
metoeat .Ihad
alr
eadyrequest
edmyubersoIj ustpackedmy
drawi
ngsintothebag, putmyshoesonand
packedf
rui
tforl
unch
Xol
oh:
Lul
ucal
lMbal
i
Icheckedt
het
ime,
Mbal
ii
spr
obabl
yal
readyi
n
cl
assnow
Me: we'l
lcall
Mbaliwheny
oucomebackf
rom
school.Ipromisebaby
Iki
ssedhercheeksandwentoutt
omyuber
.I
gottoworkj
ustinti
me
Me:
mor
ningSena
Sena:
youar
elat
e
Icheckedmywat
ch,
Iwas3mi
nsear
lysowhat
didshemeanIwasl
ate
Me:
I'
m ear
ly.Nge3mi
nsy
onke
Her:
didn'
tyougett
heci r
cul
araboutt
henew
ti
mes?Isenti
ttoeveryoneonFri
dayandMr
Smit
hhasbeenlookingforyoual
lmorni
ng
Isai
dasi
l
entf
uck,
Inev
ercheckmyper
sonal
email
sbecausenooneev ersendsemailst
here
butSenaexpl
ainedthatthewor kemail
swere
downsoshesenti tt
oourper sonaloneswit
h
herownpersonalaccount
Me:
OKl
etmest
artwi
tht
heboss
Her
:goodl
uck
Me:
I'
m goi
ngt
oneedi
t
Inervousl
ywalkedtoMrSmi th'
soffi
ce,
knockedaf ewti
mesbef oreIhear
dhisdeep
voicetel
li
ngmet ocomei nandIwalkedin.Our
eyeslockedandIquickl
ylookedaway,thi
s
man'ssexinessmakesmeev enmorenervous.
Me:
goo-
goodmor
ningSi
r
Hel
ookedathi
swat
cht
henatmybagsandhi
s
wat
chagai
n
Me:
I'
m so-
sor
ryI
'
mlat
e,Idi
dn'
tkno-
Loyi
so:don'
twast
emytimewit
hy ourexcuses,
I'
m noti
nter
est
edint
hem.I
'v
ealreadylef
tthe
bri
efonyourdesk,
got hroughi
tandIneedyou
tocomeupwi t
h5dr awingsbef
oretheendof
theday
Me:
y-y
essi
r
Forsomer easonIdidn'
tmovebecauseIdi
dn'
t
knowwhet herwewer edoneornotsoIj
ust
stoodther
e,myheadl oweredandmyheart
beati
nghardagainstmychest
Hi
m:t
imei
sti
cki
ngMi
ssZul
u.
Iquicklyheadedfort hedoorandonl ygott o
breathwhenIwasout side.Thi
smanscar esme
somuch.Iwasst uckinmyof f
icethewhol eday ,
tr
yingtocomeupwi thsomet hingthatwi l
lbeso
goodt hatitwil
lblowMrSmi t
houtofhi smi nd.I
wor kedstrai
ghtpastl unchtimeandbyt hetime
i
twasknockof ftime, Ihadonlycompl eted3
drawings.9hour slaterandIonl yhad3per fect
drawings.Whent herewasaknockonmydoor ,
myhear tr
acedbecauseIhadaf eeli
ngitwas
t
heboss
Me:
comei
n
Senawalkedinwit
hherhandbagandI
breat
hedasighofrel
i
ef.Sheapproachedmy
desk,t
ookonelookatmywor kandgaspedi
n
amazement
Sena:
Gugut
hesear
eamaz
ing
Me:
yout
hinkso?
Her
:def
ini
tel
y
Me:Ihopethebosswi
ll
thi
nksot
oo.Thatman
i
simpossibl
etoimpr
ess
Her:butheissohotthough.Hav
eyouseen
howt hesui
tshughishugearmsandthe
di
mpl esandbrowneyes.Yhoheget
smewet
ever
yt i
mehespeakst ome
Ibur
sti
ntolaught
er,
myfriendi
scr
azybutshe
hadapoi
nt.Themani sf
lames
Me:
woul
dyougetOutofher
ebef
orey
ouget
bot
hofusf
ir
ed
Her
:Lol
OKby
efr
iend.Enj
oybei
ngal
onewi
th
t
heboss
Myeyeswi
dened,
her
eIwast
hinki
ngI
'
m al
one
her
e
Me:
hei
sst
il
lher
e?
Shenodded,
wavedgoodby
eandl
eft
.It
sgoi
ng
tobealongni
ghtf
orme.
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
9*
"
Justbr
eat
h.I
twi
l
lal
lwor
kout
."

GUGULETHU

Suddenl
ynowthatIknewt hatmanwas
somewherei
nthebuilding,Icoul
dn'
tfocus,
I
hadtoredomyfort
hdr awingtwicebefor
eIwas
happywi
thitandbeforeIknewi
t,i
twas8pm
andIst
il
lwasn'tdone
Loy
iso:
comel
et'
sgo
Iscreamed.Idi
dn'thearhim comei
nsoheari
ng
him speakscar
edme.Il ookedathi
m andhe
hadaf rownonhisface
Me:
youscar
edme
Hi
m:y
ouscar
eeasi
l
y
Heapproachedmydesk, hi
scolognehadf il
led
myent i
reoffi
ceandhesmel tgodly.Thecloser
hegottomydesk, t
hef astermyhear tst
arted
beati
ng,Icouldn'
tbreathinhispresence,that'
s
howinti
mi dat
inghei s.Hestoodbehi ndmeand
star
edatmywor k
Me:I
'm notdoneyet
.Ist
il
lneedtoper
fectt
his
oneandIsti
llhav
eonemor etogo
Hi
m:hmmm notbad.
Wel
latl
easthedoesn'
ttot
all
yhat
ethem
Hi
m:packup,
wear
eleav
ing
Me:Ist
il
lhav
etorequestanubersoy
oucan
l
eav
ewi t
houtme
Hi
m:I
'
lldr
opy
ouof
f
Me:
uhm i
tsf
inesi
r
Hi
m:i
twasn'
tar
equestMi
ssZul
u.
Iswal
lowedhardandIpackedupmyt hi
ngsint
o
mywor kbagthent
ookmyhandbagandst ood
upbutinst
eadofmoving,
hejustl
ookedatme
Me:
I'
mready
Hi
m:don'
ttakewor
khome.
Me:butIdi
dn'
tfi
nish.Ist
il
lhav
etwodr
awi
ngt
o
wor
kon
Hi
m:y
oucanf
ini
sht
hem t
omor
row.Let
'
sgo
Hel edmeout,lockedupthenwal
kedtohiscar
.
I
'veneverbeeninsuchanexpensiv
ecar,
the
onlyti
meI'veseenthiscari
sonthemusic
vi
deosandCassper
'si
nstagr
am page.He
openedt
hedoorformethenwentov ert
ohi
s
si
deandhoppedin
Hi
m:doy
oul
i
kemycar
?
Hemusthav
enot
icedhowIwasl
ooki
ngar
ound
Me:
yes
Hi
m:br
eat
hMi
ssZul
u,Idon'
tbi
te
Me:
youscar
eme
Thatcameoutasawhi sperbuti
twasn'
tali
e,
hereal
lydoesscar
eme.Hei srude,
contr
oll
i
ng
andsexy.I
t'
sascarycombinati
on
Him:good.I
'
my ourbossnoty
ourf
ri
endsoI
shoul
dscareyou
Isighed.Idi
dn'tgi
vehi
m di
rect
ionst
owhereI
staybutbeforeIknewi
t,hewasatthegat
eof
thecompl ex
Me:
thanky
ouf
ort
hel
i
ft
Hi
m:opent
hegat
e
Me:
itsf
inesi
r,noneedf
ory
out
odr
ivei
n
Hi
m:opent
hegat
eGugu
That'
st hefir
stti
mehecalledmebymyname
andt herewassomuchaut hori
tyinhisvoi
ce,
I
pressedt hebutt
onontheremot eandthegat
e
openandhedr ovei
n.Igotoutthecar
Me:
thanky
ousi
r
Henodded, nosmi l
ej ustthenod.Iclosedt he
doorbuthedi dn'
tdr iveoffunt i
lIwasinsidethe
fl
at.Ihadtoopent hegat eforhim again.You
wouldt hi
nkafterthatni ght,hewouldatl eastbe
abitnicertomebuti tdidn'thappen,hekept
drowningmei nwor k,pushingmyl imitsyethe
hatesmewor ki
ngl ate.ThatweekendBonga
hadthingstosor toutwi thLi hl
ewithregardsto
Buhlesohedi dn'tcomet hisside.Iwokeup,
tookabat hwithXol oh, wewor emat ching
outfi
ts.Denim dressesandwhi t
eall
stars.Ihad
j
ustgottenpai
dsoIwastaki
ngherout.Mbali
sentapleasecal
lmeasweweregetti
ngready
soIcall
edherandputt
hephoneonloud
speaker
Mbal
i
:heyGugu
Me:
heyy
ou,
how'
sschool
?Howar
eyou?
Her
:I'
mfi
ne,
school
isf
ine.Uphi
uXol
oh?
Me:
righther
e.Babysayhel
l
otoMbal
i
Xol
oh:
hel
l
otoMbal
i
Ilaughedandl etherenjoyherconv ersat
ion
withhermot her.Ir
eallywishmysi stersstayed
withmebutatt hesamet i
meIwantt hem toget
thebestl i
fehast oof f
er,that'
swhyIwor kedso
hardinv arsi
tyandputmybl ood,sweatand
tearsintomywor k.Allofthisisforthem.The
uberdr oppedusof fatgateway ,
wehasal r
eady
hadbr eakfastsowewer ejustshopping
?
?:hey
Iturnedar
oundandi
twast hatl
adythathad
helpedmewithXol
ohinthebathroom afew
weeksback.Idi
dn'
tevencatchhername
Me:
hey
Her
:your
emembermer
ight
?
Me:ofcour
se,
Ijustdi
dn'
tcat
chy
ournamet
he
ot
herday
Shewasbeauti
ful
,nomakeupbutshest il
l
remai
nedfl
awlesswithherbeaut
if
ulcur
vey
bodyandnat
uralhai
r.Shehadherafroi
nabun
Her
:it
sAbongi
we,
Abongi
weHadebe
Me:
GuguZul
u
Honest
lyIwant
edt
obeher,
shelookedr
ich,
the
si
zeofthedi
amondonHerf
ingerwasadead
gi
veaway
Her:Iknowthi
sisgoingtocomeoffasstrange
buthereismycard,cal
lmesometi
meandwe
canmeetupf orl
unch.Myhusbandisfor
cing
met
omakef
ri
endsandt
hisi
smer
eachi
ngout
WesharedalaughasItookhercard.I
tsnotl
i
ke
Ihav
eanyfri
endsaroundhereei
thersothi
swill
begoodforbothofus
*
*
ABONGI
WE

Ineededt ogetoutt hereandl i

vemybestli
fe
andexchangi ngnumber swi thGuguwasmy
fi
rststart
.Wewer eoutf orourfami
lydaywhich
entail
sshoppi ng,shoppingandmor eshoppi
ng
andifwear elucky,atr
iptothebeach.Ifel
t
Li
mi l
e'sarmswr aparoundmewhi l
eIspoketo
Gugu, hekissedmyneckandmycheeksheat ed
up.Itgotwor sewhenhegr abbedmyassandI
l
etoutasqueal
Me:
Limi
l
e
Li
:yesmyangel
Me:
wear
einpubl
i
c
Hi
m:Idon'
tcar
e
Hespunmear oundtofacehim,ki
ssedme
passi
onat
elywhil
egrabbi
ngmyass.I tdi
dn'
t
takel
ongformetofeelhisharddi
ckonmy
stomachsoIsoonbrokethekiss
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Iknow
Hi
m:whatabouty
ou?
Me:
youknowIl
ovey
ou
Hi
m:sayi
t
IheardGugulaugh,onl
yt hendi
dIremember
thatIwasint
hemi ddleofaconv er
sat
ion
beforemyhusbandar r
ived
Me:l
etmei
ntr
oducey
ou.Thi
sisGugu,
mynew
f
ri
end
Helookedatmewi
thconf
usi
onandone
ey
ebrowr ai
sed
Me:andthat
'sherni
eceXol
oh.Gugut
hisi
smy
husbandLi
mile
Oy
int
ando:
mamacomesee,
thi
sissocool
Kuhl
e:y
eahmamai
tssuperamazi
ng
Theycamerunni
ngoutofnowherewi
th
Usi
thandi
l
estrol
l
ingbehi
ndthem
Usi
:i
tsnott
hatcool
mama
Me:andthesear
eourkids,Usi
thandi
l
e,
Oyi
ntandoandSthol
okuhl
e
Kuhl
e:hay
iit
sKuhl
emama
Wel
aughed
Gugu:
youhav
eal
ovel
yfami
l
y
Me:thankyou.Uhm wearehavi
ngadinner
par
tyatourhousenextweekendjustt
o
wel
comeaf r
iendofour
shome.Youshould
come
Gugu:
alr
ight
.Youshal
lsendmet
hedet
ail
s
Wewentoutsepar at
eway s,thekidssti
ll
wantedtobuyaf ewmoret hi
ngst henwe
order
edribs,
steakandwingsf ortakeawayat
spurandwenthome.Iwasn' tinthemoodt o
cookanyway
Li
:Imi
ssy
ou
Me:
I'
mri
ghther
ebaby
Hi
m:buty
ouar
ebusy
Me:youjustwantt
ogeti
nmypant
s,t
hat
'
s
whatyoumeanbyy oumi
ssme
Helaughed,j
umpedont
hecounterandst
ared
atmewi thasmi
leonhi
sfacewhichI
reci
procat
ed
Hi
m:yousayt
hatasifi
tsabadthi
ng.Any
way
wear
egoingt
ochurchtomor
rowright
Inodded,
sti
rr
edt
hepapt
hencov
eredi
tagai
n
andst ir
redt hegr avy
.Churchispar tofour
familytradi t
ion,wegoasof tenaswecan.
Somet imesi t'
snoteverySundaybutwego
often.Iwantmyki dstoknowt heimpor t
anceof
praying,pr ai
seandwor shi
pandt hatGodi sour
center.Li keptmecompanywhi l
eIcookedt hen
wecuddl edont hecouch
Li
:di
dyoui
nvi
teLoy
isot
oLi
yana'
sdi
nnerpar
ty?
Me: y
ouknowhowy ourcousi
nis.Ii
nvi
tedhi
m
buthepr obabl
ywon'
tshowup.Samewayhe
hasn'
tshownupf orthemil
li
ondinner
i
nvit
ations
Him:hepr
obabl
ywi
l
lcome.Justf
orShaun'
s
sake
Me:
Idon'
tthi
nkhel
i
kesme
Hi
m:Idon'
tthi
nki
tsthat
.It
hinkhehasn'
tcome
t
oter
mswi t
hhisdi
vorce
Imovedfrom hi
m,pl
acedmylegsonhi
slap
andgotcomfort
abl
e.Thi
sist
hetimeIenj
oythe
most .Whenwear enotpar entsbutthesame
Abongi weandLimi l
efrom backinmyv arsi
ty
day s.It
hinksomet i
meswegetl osti
nthekids
thatwef orgetwhowewer ebeforethem.
Liyanahadbeendi schargedtwoweeksagoand
thi
sdi nnerpart
yisjusttowelcomeherhome.
Weneededt omakesur eshewasOKwi t
hbeing
aroundpeopl ebeforeputt
ingittoget
her
Li
:youl
ookbeaut
if
ulmyangel
Hepeckedmyl i
ps,Iwasinawhiteshor
t
cockt
ail
dress,
peachstil
ett
oesandmyclutch
matchedmyshoes.Hewasl ooki
ngsexyas
al
waysinanav ysui
t,whi
teshi
rtwit
hnotie
Me:
I'
m ner
vous
Hi
m:why
?
Me:
I'
venev
erhost
edadi
nnerpar
tybef
ore
Hi
m:r
elax.ev
ery
thi
ngwi
l
lbef
ine
Ther
ewasqui
teacr
owddownst
air
sbutIwas
happywit
hthetur
nout.Ev
enKwandoand
Kwandi
lewerehereandQhaweandSihl
e.Li
hel
dmyhandaswemadeourwaydownst ai
rs.
Nowwewai tf
orourguestofhonor
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
10*
"
Onest
epatat
ime,
ther
eisnot
orush.
"

ABONGI
WE

AsImi ngl
edwitht heguests,Iwonder edif
Guguwoul dcome, sheseemsabi treser
ved
andshysoIwasabi tskept
ical.Ispotted
LwakhoandSi mnikiweandsuddenl yIdidn'tl
ike
thi
sgirlf
ormyf r
iendany mor e.Ihatet wofaced
peoplebutshestil
l l
ookedgor geousandt he
dressshewaswear i
ngmadei teasyt ospotthe
babybump.Ishar edahugwi thbot hofthem
Lwakho:Ij
ustspot
tedmybr
otherwi
thhi
slat
est
sugarbaby
Me:
hei
sst
il
ldat
ingki
ds?
Henoddedandi ndeedAv er ywaswithachi l
d,I
exchangedgr eeti
ngswi t
ht hem butdidn'
t
i
nteractmuch.Wear ecivilbutwearenot
fr
iends.Al
l i
nal l
itwasagr eattur
nout ,
nottoo
manyst r
anger sbecauseShaunhadgi venmea
headsupt hatLiyanagetsov er
whelmedqui t
e
easil
ylat
ely.Guguar ri
vedaf ewmoment s
beforeLi
yanaandShaunl ookinggorgeousin
hershortdresswhi chrevealedherbeaut i
ful
l
ongl egs
Me:
youl
ookgor
geous
Gugu:r
eal
l
y?Thanky
ou.Iwasn'
ttoosur
eoft
he
out
fi
t
Me:
itsabeaut
if
uldr
ess
WhenLiyanawal
kedi
n,ev
eryonewasjust
happyt
oseeherbackonherfeetandt
aki
ngon
l
ifeagain.Thewhol enight
,Shaunand
Langa(herbrother)nev
erlefthersi
de.I
'mjust
prayi
ngt hatShaundoesr i
ghtbyher,hehas
al
readyputmyf ri
endthroughhell
Me:
heymngani
Shesmil
ed,
pul
l
edmei
nforahugandhel
dme
ti
ght
ly
Li
yana:
Ihear
dyoupul
l
edt
hisof
f
Me:yepIwasn'
tgoingt
omakey
ourr
etur
n
somethi
ngonthelowdown
Her:t
hankyouAbongi
we,
itmeansal
ot.Wal
k
wit
hmepl ease
Shaun:
I'
m comi
ngt
oo
Shel
ooksathi
mlov
ingl
ythenki
sseshi
scheek
Her
:I'
l
lbef
inel
ove.Mi
ngl
ewi
tht
heboy
s
Shaun:
kissmepr
oper
lyf
ir
st
Hepul
l
edheri
nandt
heyshar
edaki
ssbef
ore
heev
ent
ual
l
yletgoofher
Shaun:
Ilov
eyou
Her
:Il
ovey
oumor
e
Sheblewhi m akissandwest eppedouti nt
o
thegarden,herholdingontomyhandt ightl
y.I
real
lyam happythatshei sback,sheist heone
personintheuniversethatdoesn'tdeserve
everyt
hingshehashadt ogothrough
Her
:It
hinkMangi
hat
esme
Me:
hei
syourchi
l
d.Hecoul
dnev
erhat
eyou
Shechuckl
edsof
tl
ythenshookherhead
Her:
hedoesn'
twantt ospendti
mewi t
hme.I
gett
hathei
sat eenagerbutI
'm st
il
lhi
smom
andheisst
il
lmylitt
leboy
Me:may beheisj
ustst
il
lcomi
ngtoter
mswith
ever
ythi
ng.Theki
dhasbeenthr
oughalott
hese
past5year
s.Gi
vehimti
memngani
Shesi
ghed,
Idon'
twanthert
ost
ressabout
anyt
hing.Toni
ghti
stocelebrat
ethewarri
orshe
i
s,toshowcaseherst
rengthandf orust
o
expr
essourloveandsupportforher
Her
:areyouhappy
?IsLi
sti
l
lthemany
ou
marr
ied?
Ismil
etomy sel
fjustthi
nki
ngabouthi m,hei
s
sti
l
lever
ythi
ngIwantandmor e.I'
m atmy
happi
estwhenI'
m wi t
hhim orjustthi
nki
ng
abouthi
m
Me: Iam andhehasgrownf r
om bei
ngtheman
Imar r
ied,t
hingshav
en'tal
waysbeenrosybut
I'
m sti
llcr
azyabouthim
Her:Idon'tt
hinkIst i
l
l wantShaun.I
'
llal
ways
l
ov ehim,heisthef atherofmykidsandhehas
taughtmeev eryt
hingIknowaboutl oveandsex
butIdon'twanttogr owol dwit
hhim.
Irel
easedasigh.Theysaywhenawomani s
fedup,shei
sf edupandther
eisnothi
ngyou
candoorsayt omakeherchangehermind
Me:hewai t
edyouknow.Iknowhehasalway
s
beenfuckedupbuttheguylov
esyouandhe
haschanged
Her:youareprobabl
yr i
ghtbuthowdoIst ay
withsomeoneIblamef orthe5y earsofmyl i
fe
I'
vewastedinament alhospit
al.Myhear t
knowsitwasn'thi
sfaultbutmymi ndblames
him.Abongiweapar tofmehat eshimj ustas
muchasIl ovehim.Howdowemov eonf rom
thatandbeaf amil
yandr ai
sekids?How?
Iswallowedhardasshel ookedatmewi thso
muchhur tinhereyes,itssadreall
y.Ifound
my sel
fcryi
ngjustfrom tryi
ngtoimagi nehow
shecouldpossiblybef eeli
ng,i
treal
lycan'tbe
easy.Eventual
l
ywewentbackt othehouse, I
wenttof i
ndmysi gnif
icantotherbutinsteadI
bumpedi ntoLoyi
sowhi chcaughtmeby
surpri
sedbecauselastt imeIchecked, hehadn'
t
arr
ived
Loy
:foraPer
sont
hati
nvi
tedme,
youar
e
shockedt
hatI
'
m her
e
Me:youcan'tbl
ameme,
itsnotl
i
key
oucome
whenIinv
iteyouov
er
Hi
m: I
'
vebeentr
yingtoset
tl
edownandf
indmy
f
eetAbongi
we.RelaxOK?
Heki
ssedmycheekt
hendi
sappear
edi
ntot
he
cr
owd
*
*
GUGULETHU

Idon'tevenknowwhyIcamet ot hi
sparty,I
don'tknowany oneapartfr
om thepersonwho
i
nv i
tedmebutIhadn' tseenmuchofhersi nceI
arri
ved.Iwasn'tgoingtocomebutBonga
pushedmet o,
tell
ingmet ogomi ngl
ewiththe
ri
chbecauseoneoft heseyearsthi
swill
beour
l
ife.Ihatedhowhedancedt oLihl
e'
sguitarand
j
umpedt oherwhi st
leev eryti
meshecal led.I
t
hasst artedaf f
ect i
ngourr elat
ionshipandnoti n
agoodway .Thel obolanegot iati
onsshoul d
havebeenunder waybynowbutev erytimeI
askhim abouti t,hetell
smet hatheneedst o
sortaf ewt hingsoutwi thLi hl
eandBuhl ethen
hewi l
l gettogoi ngt omyf amily
.Any wayatt he
party
, awai terofferedmegl assofchampagne
andIt ooki t
.I'venev ertastedchampagne
beforebutt hemomentIt ookmyf i
rstsip,I
underst oodwhyi tisli
kedsomuch.Ir eall
y
enj
oy edi t
Li
:ar
eyoust
il
lOK?
Itur
nedar
oundandhewasbehi
ndmesoIj
ust
nodded
Hi
m:ar
eyousur
e?
Me:yeaht
hischampagnei
skeepi
ngme
company
Hel
aughed
Him:comel etmei nt
roducet
othesepeopl
eI
cal
lfamily
.Idon'tknowwheremyl ov
elywi
fe
hasdisappearedto
Wewentar oundtheroom,Imethi
scousins
andtheirdatesthenIspott
edmybosswhohad
aninsanelygorgeouswomanbyhi ssi
de.Her
bi
gey esil
luminatedherbeaut
yevenmore
Li
:andt
hisi
sQhaweandhi
swi
feSi
hle
Iwasl
ookingatLoyi
sobutLi
milej
ust
i
ntr
oducedhim asQhawewhichconf
usedme
Me:
thi
sisGugu,
shei
sAbongi
we'
sfr
iend
Iwasst
ari
ngatQhaweasheext
endedhi
shand
formet
oshakeit
.Nomanbutthi
sisLoy
iso
?
?:shi
tev
ent
hephot
ocopyi
sher
e
Ismelthi
m bef
oreIsawhim,
hewascomi
ng
fr
om behi
ndmeandmaki nganoi
se
Qhawe:i
fyouanswer
edmycal
l
stheny
ou'
d
knowI'
mintown
Loy
iso:
Ihav
eaj
obf
ondi
n
Qhawe:
sodoI
Loy
iso:Ir
unanarchi
tect
uref
ir
m andyoulook
atv
aginaforal
i
ving.Wecan'
texact
lycal
lthata
j
ob
Qhawehithisshoul derbeforepul
li
nghiminfor
amanhugt henmov edont ohugSihl
e.They
l
ookedidentical
,theysoundedt hesameandI
coul
dn'
ttellthem apart.Theyevenhavethe
samehaircut
Loy
iso:
ourbeaut
if
ulwi
fe
Heki
ssedhercheek
Si
hle:
wher
ear
etheki
dsLoy
iso?
Loyi
so:
I'
m atapar
ty,
Idon'
twantt
otal
kabout
ki
ds
Suddenlyoureyeslookedandhest
aredatme
forali
tt
letoolong.Igotuncomf
ort
ableand
l
ookedaway
Li
:thanksf
orcomi
ngbr
o.Letmei
ntr
oducey
ou.
Thi
sisGugu
Loy
iso:
Iknowher.Sheworksforme.Excuse
meguys,Iwantt
osayhitoii
ntwana
Withthatsai
dbedisappearedi
ntothecr
owd
l
eavingmewi tht
hesepeopleandawkward
si
lence.Idownedtherestofmychampagne
Me:
hei
smyboss
Ispenttherestoft
henightwit
hLisaandKea
butmyey eskeptsear
chingforLoyi
sobutI
couldn'
tspothim
Kea:
Aver
yjustdi
tchedme
Me:
whoi
sAv
ery
?
Li
sapoi
ntedatagorgeousspecimenofaman
whowasstandi
ngnexttoanothergor
geous
cr
eat
ureandapregnantlady
Me:
isev
ery
onei
nthi
sfami
l
ygoodl
ooki
ng
Li
sal
aughed.Iwassl
owl
yget
ti
ngdr
unk,
Idon'
t
evenknowhowmanygl assesofchampagne
I'
vehadbutIwasl
ooseningupandhavingfun
Li
sa:
andt
hisi
sn'
tev
enal
lofus
Me:
soy
ouar
erel
atedt
othem?
Li
sa:sor
tof
.Mydadisbrot
her
swithLi'
sdad
andLoyi
soandQhawe'
smom isouraunt.
Me:
howol
disLoy
iso?
Li
sa:
39or40.I
'
m notsur
e
Me:
that
'sol
d
Shenodded,Keahadlosti
nteresti
nour
conver
sat
ionandwentt oherguy.Around11pm
Isai
dmygoodby estoAbongiwewhowasnow
i
nLi'
sarms
Abongi
we:
thanky
ouf
orcomi
ngGugu
Me:
Ihadf
un
WesharedahugthenIwentout
sidetowaitf
or
mycab.Iwasevenhavi
ngtr
oubl
est andi
ng
st
rai
ght
,that
'showdr
unkIwas
Loy
iso:
youar
edr
unk
Idi
dn'
tevenknowwherehecamef
rom buthe
wasnowst andi
ngi
nfr
ontofmewi
thhi
shands
i
nhispockets
Me:
yes
Het
ight
enedHi
sjaw,
nott
aki
nghi
sey
esof
fme
Hi
m:howar
eyouget
ti
nghome?
Me:
Ical
l
-
Bef
oreIcoul
dfi
nishmysentence,
threwup,
get
ti
ngabitofv
omi tonhi
sexpensiv
eshoes.

[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
11*
"
Exer
cisecont
rol
atal
lti
mes"
GUGULETHU

I'
vehadal otofembar rassingmoment sbutlast
nightt akest hecake.Whatmakesmat ters
wor sei sthatIhav enoi deawhathappened
afterIv omi tedal l overmybossesshoesbut
j
udgi ngf r
om mysur roundi ngs,ei therI'
v ebeen
ki
dnappedorIwenthomewi thsomest r
anger.I
stretchandy awnonwhatpr obabl yfeelslikea
cloud, thesesheet sar esocomf ortableandsof t
andwhi te.Act uall
yt heent i
reroom i swhi tewith
at ouchofgr eyher eandt here.I'm dr essedi na
l
ightgr eyT- shi r
tandmyunder wear ,mydr essis
noti nsi ght.Igetoutt hebed, headf orthe
bat hroom, washmyf aceandqui cklyri
nsemy
mout h.I'm atabi tofapani cbecauseIdon' t
knowwhosehouseI 'mi nandwhybutt heT-
shirtI'm wear ingbel ongst oaman.Al argeman
becausei t'
st helengt hofmydr ess, thesame
onet hathassuddenl ygonemi ssi ng.Istart
expl
or i
ngmysur r
oundings,exit
ingtheroom
andmaki ngmywaydownt hepassage.There
areblackandwhi tepicturesont hewall
s,alot
ofdif
ferentpeoplethatlookt hesame.Thewal l
l
ookingt owardsthestaircasehasapi ct
ureofa
woman, i
tstheonlypicturethatisincol
or.She
i
sinherweddi ngdressandsmi l
ingbeauti
ful
ly
.I
fi
ndmy sel
fstari
ngatt hepictur
ewi thasli
ght
smil
e
Loy
iso:
goodmor
ning
Igetaf r
ightandscream whichmakeshi m
l
aughf orsomer eason,I'
venevernot
icedthi
s
abouthim buthehasdi mples.Heisinhis
boxers.
..Justhi
sboxer swithhisar
msf ol
ded
acrosshischest.I
'veneverseenanythi
ngsexier
,
fora40y earol
d,hehasawel l
buil
tbody
Me:
uhm mor
ning
Hi
m:It
rusty
ousl
eptwel
l
Me:
uhm y
-yesy
esIdi
d
Hesmi l
esagain,
star
ingatt
heedgeofhi
sT-
shi
rt
,theoneonmybodyt henhi
seyesrun
downtomyl egs
Hi
m:comeImadebr
eakf
ast
Iwantedtoaskaboutthepi
cturebutsomet hi
ng
i
nmet ol
dmeI 'dbecr
ossi
ngt hel
ine.Isaton
thecounterchai
rswhi
leheplacedaplateof
foodinfr
ontofmeandagl assofcranberry
j
uice
Me:
th-
thanky
ou
Him:rel
axGugu,I'
m notgoingtohur
tyou.I
fI
wantedtohurty
ouIwoul dhavedonesoafter
yougotvomital
lovermyI t
ali
anshoes
Mycheeksheatedupwi t
hembar rassment .I
'd
honestl
yli
ketofor
getthat.Weateinsi l
ence
buteverynowandthenI'
dcat chhim stari
ngat
meandt heweir
dpartisthathewoul dn'tl
ook
awaywhenIcatchhim, i
nsteadI'
dendup
l
ookingaway.Whenwewer edoneeat i
ng, I
cl
earedupt hedishesandst ar
tedwashingthem
i
nt hesink.Ther
ewasadi shwashert
herebut
I'
veneverusedonebef oreandI '
veal
ready
embarrassedmy selfenough
Him:yourphonehasbeenr
ingi
ng.Ki
ngBaehas
beencall
i
ng
Isaidthatwithabi tofmocker
yi nhi
sv oi
ce
whichIignored.Hepoi nt
edwher emyphone
waschar gi
ng, Idi
sconnectedi
t,sentBongaa
textbuthedidn'trespondnordi
dhecal l
Him:KingBae?Ser
iousl
y?Ar
eyou12or
something
Idi
dn'
trespond,
honestl
yIwashur
tbyhi
s
commentandIthinkhereadt
hati
nthewayI
l
ookedathim
Me:
uhm wher
eismydr
ess?
Hi
m:It
hrewi
taway
Me:
youdi
dwhat
?Whywoul
dyoudot
hat
?I'
ve
onl
ywor
nitt
wice
Hi
m:i
thadv
omi
tal
lov
eri
t.
Me:
oh.Nowwhatam Igoi
ngt
owear
?
Him:
youdon'
tl
ikewhaty
ouar
ewear
ingr
ight
now?
Il
ookedathisT-
shi
rt
,asmuchasiti
saslong
asthedr
essIwaswearing,
Iwoul
dn'
tbecaught
deadweari
ngiti
npubli
c
Me:
Ican'
tgoout
sidedr
essedl
i
ket
his
Hi
m:thenwewon'
tgoout
side.Spendt
heday
wi
thme
OKthatt
otall
ycaughtmeof
fguar
d,l
eav
ingme
wi
thoutaresponse
Hi
m: cal
lKingBae,tel
lhi
my ouarewor
kingthat
wayhewon' tkeepcal
li
ngyou.I
'
m goi
ngt ot
ake
ashowerint hemeanti
me
Hehasthi
sthi
ngofnotrequest
ingmetodo
somet
hingbutr
atheror
deri
ngmet odoi
t.I
di
aledBonga'
snumber
Li
hle:
hisqueen
Irol
ledmyeyes,
Ireal
l
ywasn'
ti
nthemoodf
or
thi
sorforher
Me:
mayy
oupl
easegi
veBongat
hephone
Her
:heisbat
hingourdaught
er.CanIt
akea
message?
Me:
nahi
t'
scool
.I'
l
lsendhi
m at
ext
Ihungup, wentupst
air
st otheroom Ihad
wokenupi n,t
heshowerWat erwasrunni
ngand
hewassi ngi
ngbeautif
ull
ywhi l
etaki
nga
shower.Imadet hebed,openedthewindows
thensatonthebedandcal ledAmahle
Amahl
e:si
sGugu
Me:
heyhowar
eyou?
Her
:I'
m good.Imi
ssy
ouandXol
ohsomuch
Me:
Imi
ssy
out
oobut3mor
eweeksandy
ou'
l
l
beher
eforhol
i
day
s
Her
:yeahIcan'
twai
t.CanIspeakt
oXol
oh?
Me:
I'
m notathome,
I'
m atwor
k
Theshowerst oppedandaf ewmi nuteslater
,
Loyi
soent eredtheroom withawhi t
et owel
wrappedar oundhiswaist,hewasst i
llwhistl
ing.
Hehadwat erdr
opletssti
l
l runni
ngdownhi s
abs.Ipressedmyt highstogether
,try
ingt ohide
howt ur
nedonIwasatt hatmoment
Amahl
e:si
sGuguar
eyoust
il
lther
e?
Me:
huh?
Her
:pl
easebuymeai
rt
ime,
Idon'
thav
edat
a
Me:
OKI
'
lldoi
tlat
er.By
esweet
ie.Il
ovey
ou
Her
:lov
eyout
oo
Ihungup,
placedmyphoneont
hesi
de
pedest
al
Me:
thatwasmysi
ster
Whyam Iexpl
aini
ngmy
sel
ftohi
m?
Loy
iso:
Mbal
iorAmahl
e
Me:
Amahl
e.Wai
thowdoy
ouknowmysi
ster
s
Hi
m:Idon'
t.Youshoul
dpr
obabl
ytakeashower
Me:
yeah
Hi
m: therear
ef r
eshtowel
sandanew
t
oothbrushinthere
Me:
thanks
Igotupandheadedt othebathroom.It ooka
l
ongshower ,
thinki
ngaboutwhatt hehel l
wasI
doingherewi t
ht hi
sguyandwhyLi hl
e
answeredmyf i
ancé'sphoneandwhyhasn' the
cal
ledmeback?Af tershoweri
ng,Iwr appedmy
bodyinat owelandwentbackt ot hebedr oom.
Loyisowasnowi nblackrugbyshortsanda
whitevestthatlookedli
keitwasst uckonhi s
body
Hi
m:y
int
on?
Me:
Ineedt
ogetdr
essed
Hi
m:y
ouwantmet
oleav
e?
Inoddedshy
lyandhel
aughedsof
tl
ybef
ore
gett
ingup
Him: checki
nt hereformyboxer
s.Theyar e
cleanandIthinkt heyar
etheonl
ythingthatI
ownt hatwil
lfi
ty ou.YoucanweartheT-shir
t
youwer ewearingori fy
ouwantanotherone,t-
shirt
sareovert here
Ifoll
owedhi sfi
ngerswi t
hmyey esandj ust
nodded.Aftermoisturizi
ngmybodywi thhis
toi
letri
es,
Iputonnav yboxersandabl ackT-
shirt
.Luckil
yitwasn'toneoft hoseboxer swit
h
j
ustt hesl
itinfr
ontandnobut ton.Iwasn't
wear i
ngunderwearbecauseIhadwashedi t.
Downst ai
rsIfoundhim wat chingsupersport
s
bli
tz.Hetookonel ookatmeandsmi l
ed
Hi
m:y
oul
ookcut
e
Me:
thanks
Isatonthecouchatt
hefarend,
nowher
ecl
ose
towherehewasseated
Hi
m:comecl
oser
.Ir
eal
l
ydon'
tbi
te
Isatnextt
ohim andhel
ower
edt
hev
olumeon
theTVandstaredatme
Hi
m:sohowl
onghav
eyouandKi
ngbaebeen
t
oget
her
?
Me:
4year
s.Wer
ecent
lygotengaged
Hetookmylefthandandst
aredati
t,gi
vi
ngme
goosebumpsallover
Me:
Iuhm don'
thav
ether
ing
Hi
m:Isee
Me:
whyam Iher
eLoy
iso?
Hi
m:y
oudon'
twantt
obeher
e?
Me:
Idobut
Hi
m:why
?
Hewasl
ooki
ngatmyl
i
pst
henmyey
esand
backt
omyl
i
ps
Me:
huh?
Hi
m:whydoy
ouwantt
obeher
e?
Me:
Idon'
tknow
Iwaswhisper
ingbecausehi
sst
areswher
e
af
fect
ingme
Hi
m:br
eat
hGugu
Islowlyexhal
ed,
Ihadabsent
mindedl
yhel
dmy
breath
Hi
m:whydoy
ouwantt
obeher
e?
Hesl
owl
yranhi
shandupmyl
egsandIgasped
l
oudl
y
Me:
becauseofy
ou
Him:
Iwanty ouherebecauset
herearet
hings
I
'v
ebeenthinki
ngofdoingtoyousincet
he
momentIlaideyesonyou
Myey
eshadr
oll
edbackandIwast
ight
ly
squeezi
ngmyey
eli
ds
Hi
m:Iwanty
out
olookatme
Islowl
yopenedmyey es,hehadhisbott
om li
p
tuckedbetweenhi st
eethandgazedatmewi th
suchint
ensity.Hishandwasnowonmyi nner
thi
gh,drawingslowpatter
nswithhisf
inger
Me:
I'
m engagedLoy
iso
Him: andIrespectthat.Iwouldn'
tdoanythi
ng
toyout hatyouwoul dn'
twantmet odobutI
wantt oputeveryt
hingont heopen.Ithi
nky ou
aresex y,v
erysexy.Yourbodyscr eamsforme
totakey outobed,I'
v eimaginedyourl
egson
myshoul derswithmydi ckinsideyouevery
nightsincethedayIaidmyey esonyou
Igentl
ybitmybott
om l
i
p,heari
nghi
m speak,
heari
ngthethi
ngshewantstodotomewas
tur
ningmeon
Hi
m:yourpout
yli
psgiv
emeahardonevery
t
imeIl
ookatthem,y
oumustgi
vethebest
bl
owj
obsi
nthewor
ld
Iswal
lowedhar
d,t
hiswastor
tur
etoli
stenTo.I
knewIwaswetbecausehi
sboxerswer
enow
sti
cki
ngontomycrotchar
ea
Him:i
nsimpl
etermsGugu,
Ihav
etheut
most
desi
ret
ofuckyou.
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
12*
"
Over
wor
kedandunder
fucked"

GUGULETHU

Iwasgoingt hr
ought hemostatthatmoment ,
hehadn'tev entouchedmet hatmuchbutmy
pussywaspul sati
ng,wanti
nghim andwetter
thanI
'veev erfelti
t.Wasthisevennormal?How
doesaper sonhav esomuchpowert oturnme
onwithjustt heuseofhiswor ds?Iwanted
more,theanxi et
yandcuriosit
yofwhathecoul d
dotomei swhatmademewanthi m evenmore
butthenIt houghtofBonga.Ithoughtof
ever
y t
hinghehasgi venupt obewi thme, hi
s
eff
ortsthroughoutourrel
ationshipandasmuch
ashecomeswi t
hbabymamadr ama, Ican'
tdo
thi
stohi m
Me:
Loy
iso
Hi
snamesoundedl
i
keamoanasi
tescaped
mymout
h
Him:justthi
nkabouti
t.Sl
eeponit
.Mast
urbat
e
totheideaofmeandy ouandgetbackt
ome
wheny ouransweri
syesandnotamoment
sooner
Youseei
tswhenhesayst hi
ngsl
ikethat
,when
hi
sconfi
denceanddominanceoozesthr
ough
hi
sbodythatmybodybetray
sme
Me:
Ithi
nkI
'
dli
ket
ogohomenow
Hi
m:al
ri
ght
,I'
l
ldr
ivey
ouhome
Wewal kedupt hestai
rstoget
hersincehehad
toputonaT- shir
tandIwashopi ngtochange
i
nt oatleasthissweatpantsbecauseboxersin
themi ddleofthedayar eanono.Ist opped
whenwer eachedt hetopandIstaredatthe
pictur
e
Me:
whoi
sthi
s?
Him:myexwife.Themot
herofmyf
ir
stchi
l
d
andonl
ydaughter
Me:
youhav
eki
ds?
Hechuckl
ed,
lookedatmet
henl
aughedagai
n
Him:I'
m 40Gugu, ofcour
seIhav
eki
ds.My
daughterTshepi
sois11andmyboysare5.
Sabel
oandSambul o
Me:
ohOKsowhathappenedt
oyourwi
fe?
Hi
m:shelef
tme.Comesoy
oucangetoutof
t
hoseboxer
s
Idi
dn'
taskanyf
urt
herquest
ions.Thedr
ivet
o
mycompl exwasquietexceptf
ort
her
adi
o
pl
ayingandhishummi ng.Hehast
hemost
beauti
ful
voiceever
Hi
m:t
her
eyougo
Hepar
kedi
nsi
det
hecompl
ex
Me:thankyouforever
ythi
ng.I
'
llr
etur
nyourT-
shi
rtaft
erI
'
v ewashedit
Him: keepit
.Mygif
ttoyouandyoushoul
dn'
t
dri
nkt hatmuchagai
n.Iwon'
tal
waysbearound
toplaysuperman
Iswall
owedhar
d,heisbacktobei
nghi
s
asshol
esel
fandthesweetguyIwaswi
thnot
solongagoi
sgone
Me:
sur
e
Ibasical
lysprint
edtomydoor ,l
astthi
ngIneed
i
st heneighborsbeingall
upinmyf ace.Iwasi
n
j
usthi sT-shi
rtandIfel
tnaked.Xol
ohr antome
themomentIwal kedin
Xol
oh:
Lul
uyouar
eback
Ipickedherup, kissedhercheekt henwentt o
myr oom withher .Iwasment al
lyexhaust ed
andj ustneededt obel azytoday .Icouldn'tget
Loy i
so' swordsoutofmyhead, hewasj ustso
bluntaboutev er
y thinganddi dn'thidebehi nd
l
ov ej usttogetinmypant s.Imusthav efal l
en
asleepbecauseaf terawhi l
eIf eltmyphone
vibratingundert hepi l
low.Ihadev enforgot t
en
thatIhadcal ledBongaandhi sbabymama
answer ed
Me:
hey
Bonga:
mybeaut
if
ulwi
fe
Ir
oll
edmyey
es.
Me:
howar
eyou?
Him:I
'
m somi
ser
abl
eher
ewi
thouty
ou.Imi
ss
you
Me:
ohi
tsnotl
i
key
ouar
eal
oneany
way
Hepausedf
oraf
ewseconds.
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ouLet
hu
Me:
Idon'
tdoubtt
hat
Hi
m:Il
ovemydaught
eraswel
l
Me:
asy
oushoul
d
Agai
nther
ewasapause
Hi
m:Buhl
eandLi
hlear
eonepackage
Me:that
'sbull
shi
tandyouknowit.Buhleis
4y
earsold,shedoesn'
tneedhermothertobe
wi
thherwhenshev isi
tsandwhat'
sthisthi
ngof
Li
hleansweri
ngyourphonewhenIcall?
Hi
m:shei
sthemot
herofmychi
l
d
Me:
excuseme?Andwhatam I
?Don'tmakeme
f
eell
i
keasidechi
ckev
enwhenI'm not
Sincewhendoesbei ngababymamagi veyou
therighttoanswerhiscal
l
s?Bongabett
ernot
thinkjustbecauseIt
ookthebul
l
shitl
ayi
ng
downbackthenthatI
'
llgobackt
obei
ngt
he
nai
vegi
rlIwas.
Him:cl
earl
yy ouareupsetandhav i
ngthi
s
conv
ersat
ionov erthephoneisn'
tgoingt
oget
usanywhere.We'll
talkagai
nnextweekend
Me: no.Idon'
tneedyouhereunt i
lyoumaket he
necessarymovesthatshowt hatyouare
seri
ousaboutme.Youpr oposedBonga, tol
d
mey ou'l
lsendalet
terandy oudidn'
t.Don'
tthi
nk
youaregoingtoputmel aybye.
Ihungupbef or
eher esponded.I
'
m notgoi
ngt
o
beheretakingNonsensef r
om Himjust
becauseIlovehim
*
*
ABONGI
WE

I
'
m sogl
adIt
ookt
heki
dst
omymot
her
yest
erdaybecausetodayIjustwanttost ayi
n
bedthewhol eday
.Ineedit.Atthebackofmy
mindIsti
llhadmyt al
kwithLiyanaoccupy i
ng
space.AsmuchasLi yanaismyf ri
end,Ifeelf
or
Shaun.Hehasnoi deaaboutthestormt hat'
s
abouttohi
thi m
Li
:babyar
eyouawake?
Me:
no
Helaughed,
tur
nedmeov
ert
ofacehi
mthen
ki
ssedmynose
Hi
m:goodmor
ningbeaut
if
ul
Me:
hmmm
Heplacedanotherki
ssonmyl ips,
gentl
y
par
ti
ngt hem wit
hhistonguebefor
ekissi
ngme.
Morningbreat
handall
Me:
mor
ningLi
mil
e
Hi
m:youshoul
dbepr oudofy
our
sel
f.Lastni
ght
wasagr
eatsuccess
Me:
I'
m ashi
tt
yhost
Hi
m:Iagr
ee
Ihi
thisstomachwiththebackofmyhandand
heletoutagrunt
.Iwil
lhurthi
mifhespeaks
nonsenseher
e
Hi
m:butbabyyouwer
e.Youl
eftpoorGugut
o
f
endf
orhersel
f
Me: don'
tevengothere,If
eelsobadaboutt
hat
.
I
'm goingtotakeherouttodi
nnerjustt
omake
upforit
Hi
m:didy
ouknowherandLoy
isoknoweach
ot
her
?
Igotupf
rom t
hebedbecauseIhadt
heur
get
o
pee
Me:
hol
dthatt
hought
Igott
othebat
hroom,di
dmybusi
ness,washed
myhands,f
aceandri
nsedmymouththenwent
backt
obed
Me:
uthi
howdot
heyknoweachot
her
?
Hi
m:t
heywor
ktoget
her
Me:
hmm smal
lwor
ldhey
Hi
m: yeahbutLoyi
sowasjustbei
ngweir
d
ar
oundt hepoorgi
rl
.Idon'
tknowhowtoexpl
ain
i
tbuthewasbei ngweir
d
Weev entual
l
ygotoutofbedandwenttofeed
oursel
ves,Ij
ustwantedafr
uitsal
adand
smoothiesothat'
swhatIhadwhilehewental
l
outwiththebaconandeggs
Hi
m:wear
egoi
ngt
othezoot
oday
.Forapi
cni
c
Me:
youandwho?
Hi
m:mywi
feandI
Me:
yhohay
ikeI
'
mtoot
ir
edf
ort
hat
Heturnedaroundf
rom wher
ehewasf
ryi
ng
baconandlookedatme
Me:
what
?
Hayi
niIwast
ir
edf orr
eal.I
'm goi
ngtoneedthi
s
whol
eweekendjusttorecoverfr
om l
astni
ght
Hi
m:t
hisi
swhymengetsi
dechi
cks
Me:
becausewi
vesar
etoot
ir
edt
ogot
opi
cni
cs?
Henods
Me:
youar
ecr
azy
Hi
m:i
twi
l
lbef
unt
houghmyangel
.Pl
ease
Isighedt
henrol
ledmyeyes.Iagr
eed,l
astt
hing
Iwantismyhusbandget
tingasidechi
ck.I
'
dkill
them bot
h.Ical
l
edKwandowhi l
ewehad
brunch
Kwando:
heygi
rl
Me:
dinnert
oni
ght
Shel
aughed
Her:Kut
hini
ungabuzinempil
onj
e?Hasthe
whit
eladyalr
eadytol
dy out
haty
ouhaveone
minuter
emaining?
NowIl
aughed.Kwandoi
ssost
upi
d
Me:loluyaphaphayaz.Wecanmeetupat
Pavi
li
on,tell
yoursi
stersi
nlawaswel
landI'
l
l
bri
ngaf r
iend
Her
:notLi
mil
eIhope
Me:
hei
snotmyf
ri
end.Hei
smybest
ie
Il
ookedathi
m andhewasn'
tev
enl
i
steni
ngi
n
onmyconversat
ion
Her
:good.I
'
llseey
oul
ater
Ihungup,f
ini
shedupmyfoodthent
ooka
str
eakofbaconfr
om Li
'
splat
e
Li
:thi
ever
yisacr
ime
Me:what
'syoursi
smine.I
'
m goingtoshower
andgetr
eadyfort
hispi
cni
c,wanttojoi
nme?
Hi
m:I
'
mri
ghtbehi
ndy
oumyangel
Aft
erournaught
yshower
,weworematching
out
fit
s.Iwasinawhit
eshi
rtandbl
ackcutoff
shortsandwhi t
esuperstarswhilehewor e
blackdenim short
s,whit
evneckT- shi
rtand
whiteStanSmi t
hsneaker s.Thetri
ptothezoo
wasgr eat,
honestlyIwasgr at
efulfort
he
blanketbecauseitmeantIcouldnapwhenev er
andboydi dInap
Li
:youar
esounr
omant
ic
Me:
shutup,
yout
ookanapt
oo
Hi
m:onl
ybecausey
ousl
eptf
ir
st
Me:butIappr
eci
atet
hisHadebe,
Ienj
oyed
t
oday
Hef edmeagr apeandIsmi l
edwhil
echewi ng
onit.Whenwegothome, Igotr
eadyforthe
dinner
,Ihadalr
eadytext
edGuguabouti tand
thatIwasgoingtopickherup.
Li
:pl
easecomebacksober
Me:
nopr
omi
ses
Hi
m:Imeani
tMaDube,
Idon'
twantt
ohav
eto
gof
etchy
ou
Me:andpunishmewithamazi
ngsex.Imi
ght
j
ustmisbehavej
ustt
ogetthesex
Hepl
acedhishandsonmywai
standIwr
apped
myar
msar oundhisneck
Hi
m:y
oul
ookbeaut
if
ul
Me:
thanky
ouhubbydear
est
Ipeckedhi
sli
psandhepul
ledmecloser
,
makingourbodi
escr
ashagai
nsteachot
her
Hi
m:whatt
imewi
l
lyoubeback?
Me:
lat
e
Hi
m:hay
iAbongi
we
Me: babyyourFamil
yisintown,I
'
m maki
ng
eff
orttobeagoodhost .Dothesamewit
hthe
guys.IloveyouandIreal
lyhavet
ogonow.I'
m
al
readyl at
e.HespankedmyassasIwalked
awayandIj ustl
aughed
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
13*
"
Fri
endsmaket
hewor
ldbeaut
if
ul"

GUGULETHU

Ihadr ecei
v edacal l
from Abongi weinv i
ti
ngme
todi nnerwi thhersi stersinlawandsi nceIhad
not hingbett ertodo, Ifiguredwhynot ?!Af t
er
shower i
ng, Iwor eblackr ippedjeggi
ngs, aloose
halterneckbl ackt opandabl ackleat
herj acket
withbl ackheel s.Idon'tknowwhatIwas
grievingbutt hereisnowayonewon' tlookand
feel goodi nbl ack.I'
m notamakeupper sonbut
I'
m obsessedwi thsmel li
nggood.Abongi we
textedt ell
i
ngshei soutsidesoIgr abbedmy
bag, kissedmyni ecegoodby eandwalkedout
Abongi
we:
Ilov
eyourbody
Il
aughasweshar
eahug,
shel
ooksgor
geous
asever
Me:
Ilov
eyourst
yle
Her:
thanksboo.Justaheadsup,t
her
ewi
l
lbea
bi
tofacrowdwher ewearegoing
Me:
justf
emal
est
houghr
ight
?
ShenodsandIl etoutasighofrel
ief.Idon'
t
thi
nkI'mreadytobei nasoci
algatheringwit
h
Loyisoagai
n.Wel i
stentomusicaswedr i
veto
Gatewayandwhenwegett otherestaurantt
he
othersar
ealreadythere
Abongi
we:
I'
m notl
ater
ight
?
Kwando:
youar
elat
e.Asal
way
s
Abongi
we:I'
m amom guy s,
tryt
ounder
stand.
OKletmedot heint
rosandwecangetour
ni
ghtunder
way .
Iwasreint
roducedtoKwando,Si
hle,
Sphindi
we,
Si
mnikiwe,Lunathi
,Li
saandLumil
ana.Lunathi
i
shersi st
erandLumi l
anaisherbrother'
s
gir
lf
ri
endandt herestherfrom Li
mile'
sside.We
order
edt wobottl
esofwineandt he
conver
sationfl
owedeasily.Il
ikedthiscr
owd,
theyarechil
l
edandcr azy
Kwando:
guy
swecan'
tgetdr
unk
Abongi
we:r
ememberwhathappenedthel
ast
ti
mewegotdrunkt
ogether
.Lihadtof
lyfr
om
Jo'
burgt
opull
usoutofeyadi
ni
Me:
Iwantt
ogot
oey
adi
niguy
s
Lunat
hi:
weshoul
dgohey
.Justf
oranhouror
so
Myphonerang,whenIsawthati
twasBonga
cal
l
ing,
Iexcusedmyselft
oanswert
hecall
Me:
hey
Bonga:
I'
m sor
ry
Il
etoutasi
gh
Me:
forwhat
?
Him: f
orev er
ythingt
hatwear efi
ghtingabout.
ForLihleanswer i
ngmyphoneandf orthe
mil
li
onot herthingsI
'm st
il
lgoingtodowr ongin
ourrelati
onshi
p.IloveyouGugu, I
'
m notperfect
butI
'mt ryi
ng
Ismil
edtomysel
fasItookinever
ythi
nghewas
sayi
ng,hei
sri
ght
,heisn'
tperf
ectbutnei
ther
am I
Me:
andwhenar
eyougoi
nghomet
omy
mot
her
?
Hi
m: t
hisweekend,myunclesar
etakingthe
l
ett
ertoheronSaturdayandshewil
lhaveto
pi
ckadate
Soitt
ookmeputt
ingt
hepressur
eonhimfor
hi
mt oreal
i
zet
hatIwi
ll
notjustt
akehi
sshi
t
l
ayi
ngdown
Me:
OKt
hen
Hi
m:Imi
ssy
ou
Me:Imissyout
oo.I
'm outwi
thAbongi
weand
herpeopl
esoI'
l
lcal
lyouwhenI'
m backatt
he
fl
at
Hi
m:OKmywi
fe.Il
ovey
ou
Me:
lov
eyout
oo
WhenIgotbacktothetabl
e,t
hesepeopl
ehad
f
ini
shedt
hefirstbot
tl
eofwine
Si
hle:
thatt
ookf
orev
er
Me:
wasf
ixi
ngt
hingswi
tht
hef
iancé
Kwando:
youar
eengaged?
InoddedasIt
ookasi
pofmywi
ne
Kwando:
doesmybr
otherknowt
hat
?
If
rownedi
nconf
usi
on,
almostchoki
ngonmy
wi
ne
Luna:whi
chbr
other
?Youhav
eli
keahundr
ed
brot
hers
Kwandowasnowst
ari
ngatmebutIwasl
ost
andconfusedbecauseIhadnoi
deawhatwas
happeni
nghere
Kwando:
Guguknowswhi
chbr
otherI
'
mtal
ki
ng
about
Me:whydoyousaythatasi
fI'
m hav
ingat
hing
wi
thhi
m orsomethi
ng
Abongi
we:Kwandohal
t.What
'sgoi
ngon?We
ar
ealll
ostr
ightnow
Kwando:Sihl
eyouknowhowwhenLoy i
so
wantssomeoneheisstr
aightf
orwar
dabouti
t,
al
lconfi
dentandmacho
Si
hle:
yeahbutt
hat'
snothowhei
swi
thGugu
sohedoesn'
twanther
Kwando:
youar
ewrong,Iknowmybr
other
.
WenaGugumybrot
herhasfeel
i
ngsf
oryou
Thi
sti
meIact ual
lychockedonthewineandI
wascoughingall
overtheplacebutKwando
wasn'
tbother
edbecauseshekeptgoing
Kwando:hewon'
ttell
youthoughandev
eni
f
youaskhim,
hewilldenyi
t
Me:youarewrongt
oo.Hedoesn'
thav
efeel
i
ngs
f
orme, hej
ustwant
stosl
eepwithme.Hi
s
wor
ds
Ihadev ent
ual
l
ycalmeddownf r
om allthe
coughingIwasdoing.Ir
eal
lywantedthis
conversati
ont
obeputt obedbecauseIwas
gett
inguncomfor
table
Kwando:
weshal
lsee
Ourfoodarri
vedandLuckilyAbongi
weand
Lunathishi
ft
edthefocustoMi l
aandst
art
ed
questi
oningheraboutLazola
*
*
ABONGI
WE

Ourdi
nnerdat
eendedupbei
ngaf
ull
nightout
becausewef oundoursel
veseyadiniand
weirdl
yenough, whenwegott here,t
heSmit
h
entouragewasal soparty
ingastorm andwe
weref orcedtojoi
nthem.IwatchedhowLoyiso
couldn'tkeephiseyesofGuguandhowGugu
wasat adbituncomfort
ablear
oundhi m
Me:
Ineedt
hel
oo,
Gugupl
easeaccompanyme
Wemadeourwayt
othebathr
oom andthe
momentwewer
eoutofsi
ght,
sheletoutasi
gh
Me:
andt
hen
Gugu:
Ineedt
ogoAbongi
we
Me:
becauseofLoy
iso?
Shenodded.Theyhav esuchaweir
dv i
bebutI
knowLoyiso,heisbadnewsandIwoul dn'
t
wantGugut oevenconsiderhi
m wi
thout
knowi
ngal l
thefactsonhim
Me:
OKl
etmepeequi
ckl
yandweshal
ltal
k
Iwasn'
tdr
unkbutIwasn'
tsoberei
ther
,justni
ce
andti
psyandthat
'showIintendt
ostayallni
ght
.
Idi
dmybusiness,fl
ushedthenwentoutt
o
washmyhands
Me:
soar
eyoui
ntot
heguy
?
Sheshruggedhershoul
der
s,foraper
sonthati
s
engaged,t
hati
snotthecorr
ectanswert
ogive
Me:
hai
boGugu
Her:heisdiff
erentfr
om whatI
'm usedto,
heis
powerfulandcontrol
li
ngandI'
m notbli
ndso
I
'venoticedhowsexyhei s
Me:
but
?
Her:t
hereisj
ustsomet
hingwei
rdabouthi
m,i
ts
l
ikehi
ssoul i
semptyorsomet
hing.Hei
snot
t
heaffecti
onatet
ype
Me:
didhet
ell
youhewasmar
ri
ed?
Shenodded.IknowifwhatKwandosaidearl
ier
i
strueandItel
lGuguthis,
Loyi
sowi l
lhat
eme
butGuguismyf r
iend,
shehasarighttoknow
Me:hiswifedivorcedhim becausehecheat ed
onherwi t
hhisexf ormanyy earsandev ent
uall
y
gotherpregnant.Loyisoandbeingfait
hfuland
commi t
teddon'tgot oget
her.AsmuchasI
don'
tknowBonga, Idoubtheisthekindofguy
you'
dwantt oleaveforLoyiso.
Her
:soIshoul
djustkeept
hingspr
ofessi
onal
?
Me:i
tsfort
hebest.Iknowhei
syummyandal
l
t
hatbutheist
rouble
Weheadedbacktothet
abl
eandthemoment
myhusbandspott
edme,hecametome,
pull
ed
mecl
oset henki
ssedme
Li
:Imi
ssy
ou
Me:
I'
m her
enow.Whatar
ewedr
inki
ng?
Hi
m:I
'
m notdr
inki
ngsi
nceI
'
mthedr
iver
Itt
urnedoutt
obeaf unni
ghtandwewentour
separat
ewaysaround2am.Iwasbeyond
exhaust
edandjustwant
edtosleepbutmy
husbandhadot herpl ans.It ookaqui ckshower
thengoti nbedi nj ustmyunder wear .Heal so
tookashowerandbyt het i
mehegoti nbed, I
wassl owlydr ift
ingof ft osleep.If elthisar m
aroundmywai st,hi shandsl owlyrubbi ngmy
stomachasheni bbl edonmyear .The
goosebumpswer eal lov ermybodyandmy
heartwasr acing.Iwast iredbutIwassl owly
getti
ngt urnedon.Hi shandmov edt omyboobs,
givi
ngt hem agent lesqueezebef orepl ay i
ng
withmyni pples.Att hispoi ntmybr eathinghad
gottenheav i
erandqui cker .Ifel
thi shar don
againstmyasswhi chcausedmet ogr indon
him sl
owl y.Hi sgr oanswer ebot hat urnonand
mot i
vation.Ashi shandl ower edtot hespace
betweenmyl egs, Igent l
yopenedt hem wi der
forhim.Het urnedmeonmyback, t ookmy
underwearof fanddi v edbet weenmyl egs.His
tongueonmypussycausedmet or eleaset he
l
oudestmoanev erasIgr i
ndedonhi sf acewith
myhandonhi shead.Iwassot urnedonand
thewayheat emeout ,t
onguef ucki
ngmy
alr
eadywetcast leandnibbli
ngonmycl i
twas
enought osendmeov ertheedgeasIcameon
hisface.Hecont i
nuedli
ckingupmyj uicesand
pressinghi
st ongueonmyal readysensiti
vecl
i
t.
Hegi ggl
easIpul l
edhim upbyhi sears,I
neededhi minsideme
Li
:youj
ustcan'
twai
tmyangel
Me:
hay
ijustbr
ingi
t
Ispreadmylegswiderashegoti
nbetween
them, pr
essi
nghi
sharddickonmycli
t
Me:
babycomeon
Hi
m:y
int
oni
myl
ove
Heranhi
sdi
ckupanddownmyopeni
ng
causi
ngmet
osqui
rm al
lov
ert
hebed
Hi
m:st
ayst
il
lAbongi
we
Me:
babyIcan'
t
Iwr
appedmyl
egsar
oundhi
swai
standpul
l
ed
hi
mt ome.Heent
eredmesl
owl
y,f
il
li
ngmeup
asIhel
dhimti
ght
er
Me:
fuck
Hi
m:Gody
ouar
esowet
Hemov edsl owly,inandoutofmeReaching
placesthatonl yhehasev erreached.
Occasional l
ykissingmet henheplacedmyleft
l
egonhi sshoul derandpoundedi nmehardand
fast.Iscreamedhi snameasIdugmynai ls
deeperint ohisback.Myor gasm wasneari
ng
andmywal l
swer eholdingontohisdickt
ight
ly
Hi
m:wai
tforme
Me:
I'
m cl
ose
Hi
m:soam I
.Justhol
don
Ididn'
trespondbecauseIknewIwoul dn'
tbe
ableto.Myt oescur
led,mygripti
ghtenedandI
rel
easedintoanamazi ngorgasm andhe
explodedwithme.Shootinghisseedsdeep
i
nsi
deme.
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"
Deci
si
onsDeci
sionsDeci
si
ons"

GUGULETHU

AttheendofMar ch,mysist
erscamehomef or
theholi
daysandIwasatmyhappi est.Even
thoughmyf l
atisti
ny,t
heypref
ercomi nghere
i
nsteadofgoinghomet omymot her.Icame
homef r
om wor ktofi
ndAmahlewatchi ngTV
withXolohnexttoher
Me:
heyguy
s
Amahl
e:heysi
sGugu
Xol
oh:
hel
l
oLul
u
Me:
wher
e'sMbal
i
?
Mbal
i
:ki
tchen
Nanawenthomef ortheholidaysaswel l
becauseofthespacei nmyf latbei
nglimited
andMbali i
sheretowat chherownchi ld.I
changedintoleggi
ngsandat anktopthenput
onsneakers.Iwantedt ogojoggingjusttoget
fi
tandsli
mf ormyweddi ng.YepBonga
event
uall
ytookt hel
ettertomymot herandshe
setJune12f orthenegotiat
ions.Wordscan't
evenbegintodescribehowhappyIam, f
inal
ly
aft
erallt
hesey ear
sI '
l
lbeBonga' swife
Me:
I'
ll
bebackguy
s
Mbal
i
:youj
ustgother
e
Me:youshoul
dact
ual
l
ycomewi
thme.Lookat
you
Mbal
i
:leav
emeal
one,
I'
m ni
ceandt
hick
ShestuckhertongueoutatmeasIexit
edthe
door
.Ijoggedtot hepar
kwher
eIstr
etchedand
di
daf ewexercises
"
Arey
ousur
eyouknowwhaty
ouar
edoi
ng?
"
It
urnedaroundandl ockedeyeswit
hhim,he
wassmi l
i
ngwhi chIstil
lconsi
derarar
esight
.
Hewasi nblackrugbyshortsandavestl
ooki
ng
al
lsort
sofy ummy
Me:
yesIdo
Loy
iso:
doesn'
tl
ookl
i
kei
t
Me:
arey
ouf
oll
owi
ngme?
Hebursti
ntol
aughtermakingmeseem l
i
kea
f
oolforev
enthi
nkingthat
Him: whywouldI?Ijogevery
dayonthi
srout
e
soifanythi
ng,Ishouldbetheoneaski
ngyou
thatquesti
on
Me:
I'
m not
.Iwoul
dn'
t
Hi
m:r
elax.I
'
mjoki
ng.
Hest
aredatmylefthand,Bongaf
inal
l
ygave
mearingandIt
hinkthat'
swhathewaslooki
ng
at
Hi
m:ni
cer
ing
Therewassomet
hingi
nthewayhesai
dthat
thatmademethi
nkhewasn'
tal
ltoopl
eased
abouti
t
Me:
thanks
Hestoodinfr
ontofmestar
ingatmeforawhil
e
wi
thoutsayi
nganythi
ngunt
ilIcl
ear
edmythr
oat
Me:
Ishoul
dgetgoi
ng
Hi
m:y
eahbef
orei
tget
sdar
k
Ismil
edfai
ntl
yathim buthedi
dn'tret
urnt
he
gest
urewhichagai
nmademef eelsometype
ofway
Me:
bye
HenoddedandIjoggedoff
.Icouldst
il
lfeelhi
s
eyesonmeunt i
lIwasoutofhi
ssight
.Mbal i
wasdishi
ngupwhenIgothomesoIj usttooka
showerandj
oinedthem wi
thXolohonmyl ap
Mbal
i
:Thul
acal
l
edmey
est
erday
Me:
whatdi
dhewant
?
Her
:hewasaski
ngmet
obr
ingXol
oh
Me:
Ihopey
out
oldhi
m wher
etogetof
f
Shekeptqui
etmaki
ngstopwhatIwasdoi
ng
andgiv
ehermyundivi
dedat
tent
ion
Me:
Mbal
i
Her
:hei
sherf
ather
Me:wow.3yearsl
aterhedeci
dest
obeaf
ather
andyouar
egoingtolethi
m?
Her
:I'
m notsayi
ngI
'
m goi
ngt
otakehert
ohi
m,
I
'mjustsay
ing
Me:wellI'
m notgoi
ngtotel
lyouwhaty ou
shoul
ddowi thyourchi
ldMbali
.Youare18and
anadultsodowhat '
sbest
.Goodnightguys
Ihadlostmyappet i
tehonestl
yandIwas
avoi
dingsayingsomethingI'
l
lendupregrett
ing.
IputXolohont hecouchthentookmyplateto
theki
tchen.IhatehownaiveMbalii
sespeciall
y
afterhav i
ngf irsthandexper iencewi t
hhow
childi
shandi rresponsi blet heKhumal obrothers
are.Igoti nbed, sentBongaagoodni ghttext
thensl ept.ThenextdayIwasupear l
ysinceI
hadal otofwor kwai ti
ngf ormeatt heof f
ice.I
tookashower ,putonamonochr omedr esst hat
camej ustabov etheknee, blackst i
lett
oesand
ti
edmyhai rintoaneatbun.AsIf oldedmy
pyjamasandt hr ewt hem i nt hel aundr ybin,I
noticedLoy iso'sT- shirt.Ihav en'tbui l
tupt he
strengtht owashi t.Thescentoni tisamazi ng.I
request edanuberandwai tedwhi lehavingmy
breakfastwhi chwascer eal .Byt het i
meIgott o
theof fi
ce, i
twasanhourear lierthanusual so
I'
dassumei twoul dbeempt ybutwhenIsaw
thenav yBent l
eyi nthepar ki ngspaceIr eleased
asi gh.Ididn'twanthi mt oseemebutf inding
him atr eceptiont hrewt hati deast r
aightoutt he
window
Me:
mor
ning
Loy
iso:
youar
eear
ly
Me:
Ihav
eal
otofwor
k
Hi
m:wel
lyoubet
tergett
oit
Me:
yessi
r
Ihurr
iedt
omyof fi
ceandonlythendi
dIgeta
chanceTobreat
he.Ihat
ethewayhej ustt
akes
awayallt
heoxygenwhenhei sinmypresence,
i
tsbothannoyi
ngandscary.
Aweekbeforet
heLobolanegoti
ati
ons,I
neededtot
akeleaveandHRcouldn'
tapprovei
t
wit
houtLoy
iso'
ssignat
ureandhewasonsi ck
l
eave
Me:
sowhatmustIdo?
Sena:gotohishousemngani
.That
'
swhatt
he
guyatlegal
did
Isighedheavi
ly
,thi
sissuchadrag.Thedri
ver
tookmet ohishouseandalr
eadyIwasn'tOK
withthi
s,t
hiscompanyshouldreal
lyconsi
der
changingitspol
icy
.Ipressedt
hei nter
com and
thegateopened.Byt heti
meIgott othedoor,
hewasal readywait
ingforme,dressedasifit
wassnowi ngoutsi
det hatt
imeitwasn'tev
en
thatcold
Me:
hey
Loy
iso:
hey
.Unj
ani
?
Me:
I'
m wel
landy
our
sel
f?
Hi
m:t
hef
lual
mostki
l
ledmebutI
'
mfi
nenow
Iwantedt
olaughathowthemightypowerf
ul
Loyi
soSmithwasalmostdef
eatedby
somethi
ngasminorasfl
u.Heledmet othe
l
ounge
Me:Ineedt
woweeksofl
eav
eandHRneeds
youtosi
gnthi
s
Hi
m: t
woweeksi
sal
ot,
mayIaskt
her
eason
f
ortheleav
e?
Me:
Ihav
etogohomeandpr
epar
efort
he
l
obol anegot
iati
onsandstayanotherweekto
discussthi
ngswi t
hfamil
ywithregardst
othe
ceremoniesthataretof
oll
ow
Hi
m:Isee
Againhehadthatemotionl
essexpressi
onhe
hadthetimehesawmyr i
ng.Igavehimthe
papers,
hesignedthem andgavethem t
ome
Hi
m:t
her
eyougo
Me:
thanks
Hi
m:sohav
eyout
houghtaboutmyr
equest
?
Me:
I'
m get
ti
ngmar
ri
edLoy
iso
Hemov edcl
osert
ome,gent
lyrunninghi
s
thumbovermybott
om l
i
pwhilebit
ingonhis
own
Hi
m: soyouarenotevenatadbi
tcuri
ousasto
whatIcoul
ddotoy ou?HowIcoul
dmakey ou
f
eelandthesoundsIcoul
dgetyoutomake
Ipr
essedmyt
highst
ight
lyt
oget
herand
swall
owedthelumponmyt hr
oatwhil
eIlooked
ever
ywhereexceptathi
m.Heplacedhi
shand
onmyt hi
ghandIgasped
Him: Icoul
dmakey oufeelt
hingst
hatar
eso
for
eignt oyourbodyi
fonlyyougav
emea
chance
Whycoul dn'
tIspeak?Whycouldn'
tIpushhim
awayandl eave?WhywasIsuddenlyso
power l
ess?Hebroughthisfacecl
osertomine,
brushedhisli
psagainstmineandmyl i
psgentl
y
parted.Iwant
edhimt okissmebuthedi dn'
t
Him:Itol
dyouthelastti
methatIwon'
tdo
anyt
hingtoyouthatyoudon'
twantmetodo.
Doyouwantmet ostop?
Ishookmyhead, myheartwasbeat
inghar
d
againstmychestandIcoul
dfeelmypanti
es
gett
ingsoaked
Hi
m:usey
ourwor
dsGugu
Me:
no
Iwhi
sper
ed
Hi
m:whatdoy
ouwantmet
odo?
Me:
car
ryon
Hi
m:anddowhat
?
Iwant
edt
ocovermyeyesbecausesuddenl
yI
wasamil
l
iont
imesshi
erthanusual
Me:
kissmepl
ease
Hesmi
l
edwi
thasmi
rk
Hi
m:It
houghty
ou'
dnev
erask
Hishandwentt othebackofmyneckand
pull
edmet ohim ashesmashedhi sl i
pson
mine,hi
st ongueexpl or
edmymout hwhileI
suckedoni t.Thewayheki ssedmewassexy ,
seducti
veandoozedwi thsomuchpassi on.
Whenhepul ledoutofthekiss,hel
eftme
hungryforsomuchmor e.Heremov edthe
hoodiehewaswear ingtorevealashortsleeved
T-shi
rt
Him:i
st her
eanyt
hingelseyousti
l
lneedmet
o
doforyouortoyou?I'
m giv
ingyoual
lthe
power,
todayyouaretheboss
Me:
kissmybody
Hi
m:wi
tht
hatv
erysexydr
esson?
Me:
youcant
akei
tof
f
Hi
m:It
hinkitwi
ll
bealotsexi
eri
fyout
akei
tof
f
f
ormewhileIwatchy
ou
Ihadsomanychancet ost opt hisfr
om
happening,somanymoment st oremember
wher emyhear tli
esandwher eI '
m goingto
placemycommi tmentbutt hismomentr ight
herewasr uledbycur iosi
ty, l
ustandmywet
vagina.Igotupf rom thecouchandst oodin
frontofhim andsl owlyzippedopenmydr ess.
Thezi pwasi nthef r
ont,from t hebustarea,all
thewayt omyknees.Il etthedr essslowl
ydr op
tothef l
oorandr emainedi nj ustmybl acklace
thongandr edst i
lett
oes.Idon' twearabra
becausemyboobsdon'tneedone.Iwat
chedas
thefi
refi
l
ledhisey
esandhebitonhisbott
om
l
ipwhilet
akingint
hesi
ghtofme
Hi
m:f
uck
Hegotup,gr
abbedmyassthenl
if
tedmeup
andmylegswrappedar
oundhi
swaist
.
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*
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"
Youcan'
tpr
edi
ctl
i
fe"

GUGULETHU

Theextr
aweekIst ayedathomedi dn'
ttur
nout
thewayIhadhopedi twould.Ithoughtmy
husbandtobewoul dal
sobeonl eavebuthe
hadtogobackt owork.Somet hingaboutabi
g
proj
ectt
hattheyareworkingon.
Mom:
Guguar
eyousur
eaboutt
hisguy
?
Wewer echi
l
li
nginthel
ounge,j
ustmeandher
becauseMbali
wasatThula'
shouseand
Amahlewasatafri
end'
s
Me:
mom pl
easedon'
trui
nthi
sforme
Her:
Idon'ttr
usthi
m.Ther
eissomet
hingabout
hi
mt hatshowshedoesn'
thav
egoodint
enti
ons
Me:mxm andwhatdoyouknowaboutgood
i
ntenti
onswhenal
lyoudoi
sdri
nkandspeak
nonsense
IwasannoyedsoIgotupandwentt omyr oom.
Mymom hasnev erwi shedgoodthingsforme
oranyofmysistersbutsuddenl yshecanspot
someonethatdoesn' thavegoodintenti
ons.
Mxm shemustj ustleav emealone.Thenext
dayIdeci
dedtol eavehome, itwasstil
l
WednesdaybutI'dratherbewi t
hmymant han
bewithmymot her.Ical l
edtotel
lhimI'm
comingtoJo'
bur gandhewasj ustasexcited.
WhenIgotof
fattheair
por
t,Sbuwasther
eto
pi
ckmeup.Ihaven'
tseenhi
mi nagesso
i
maginet
heexci
tementwhenwesaweach
ot
her
Sbu:
Ilov
ethegl
ow.Youl
ookbeaut
if
ulGugu
Me:
I'
m happymyf
ri
end.Lookaty
ou
Him:don'
tev
enl
i
etome.I
'
m st
il
lthesameol
d
Sbu
Me:excepty
ouwearasui
tnow.Wher
eismy
man?
Him:atwor
k.I'
m goi
ngt
odr
opy
ouof
fathi
s
houseandheadout
Wedr ovet
oBonga'shousewhil
ecat chi
ngup
onoldti
mes.Het ol
dmeaboutNkul esti
llbei
ng
hel
lbentongetti
ngmebackandt hathet hi
nks
Bongaismanipulat
ingme.Ij
ustr
olledmyey es
becauseIhadnothi
ngtosayaboutthat
Sbu:
howl
ongar
eyoust
ayi
ng?
Me:
unt
ilSat
urday
Hi
m:ohgr
eat
,wecanhav
eabr
aai
onFr
iday
ni
ght
Me:
def
ini
tel
y.Thanksf
orpi
cki
ngmeup
Hi
m:sho
Igoti
nthehouse, changedintocomf or
table
cl
othesthendef r
ostedpork,marinateditthen
cl
eanedar oundtheloungesinceitwasabi t
messy.Iplayedmusi cwhi
leIcookedandmy
manwal kedinjustasIwasf i
nishingup
Bonga:
smel
l
sli
keheav
eni
nher
e
Me:youshoul
dhur
ryupandmarr
ymeandy
ou
cancomehometothi
sever
yday
Heplacedhisbagont hefl
oor,wrappedhi
s
ar
msar oundmeandgav emeat ighthugthen
ki
ssedmyf orehead.I
'
vemi ssedhim somuch
eventhoughIlastsawhim onSundaybeforehe
l
eft
Him:I
'm goi
ngt
otakeaqui
ckshowert
henwe
canspendti
metoget
her
Me:
OKl
ove
Igotcomfortabl
eonthecouchashi
sphone
rangfrom hi
sbag.WhenIsawthecal
lerI
D,I
quickl
yanswered
Me:
hel
l
o
Li
hle:
whoareyouandwhyar
eyouanswer
ing
myman'sphone?
Me:
yourwhat
?Youar
ecr
azyy
az
Her
:ohi
tsy
ou.Wher
eisBonga?
Me:
whatdoy
ouwantLi
hle?
Her:hai
bosi
siIdi
dn'
tcallyourphone,
sodon't
askmenonsense.Anywayt el
lBongathathi
s
chi
ldisal
mostoutofdiapers
Me:
diaper
s?Buhl
edoesn'
t.
..Hel
l
o?
Icheckedt
hephoneandt
hel
i
newasdead.
Whatdi dshemeant hathischi l
dwasoutof
diapers?Buhleis4y earsoldanddoesn' twear
diapers.Ideci
dedt ogot hr
oughhi sWhat sApp
andsawt hei
rconv ersati
on.It hinkmyhear t
stoppedbeat i
ngwhenIsawt hepi cturesLihle
hadsenthi m.Shehasasmal lchildwhol ooks
exactlyli
keBuhl e.Myhandswer eshaki ngasI
readmor eofhowshewast elli
nghi mt hatifhe
goest hroughwi ththenegotiations, hewi ll
neverseehi skidsagai n.Thatshei stiredof
himt reati
ngherl i
ketrashwhenshei stheonl y
onet hathasgivenhi m chil
dren.
Bonga:
babei
sthatmyphone?
Me:yeah.Li
hlesai
dImustt
ell
yout
haty
our
chi
l
disalmostoutofdi
aper
s
Hetookapause,
Ili
ft
edmyheadandst
aredat
hi
m wit
htear
srol
li
ngdownmycheeks
Hi
m:Icanexpl
ain
Me:
yougotherpr
egnantBonga?Agai
n?
Hi
m:l
etmeexpl
ainLet
hu
Me:don'
tcall
met hat
.Howcoul
dyoudot
hist
o
me?I'
my ourfi
ancéBonga
Him:i
tsnotl
ikeIcheat
ed.I
tsLi
hle,
sheal
ready
hasmychil
d
Islappedhi m acrosshi sf aceandst ormedi nto
themai nbedr oom andl ockedt hedoor .May beI
deser v
et his.May bet hi
si sGod'swayof
puni shingmeForsl eepingwi thLoy iso.That's
theonl ylogicalexpl anationbecauseIdon' t
deser v
et his.Hebangedont hedoorf orhour s
bef oregiv ingup.Iwasont hebedwi t
hmyhead
ont hepi llowcr yingmyey esout .Ithurtsobad, I
feltlikeIhadj ustbeenaf oolallalong.All t
hese
year sI'vebeent hinkingt hattheywer edone
kant iIwasj ustthef ool.Icoul dn'tevensl eep,I
stay edupunt ilsunriset hent ookashowerand
packedmybags.If oundBongaont hecouch, I
coul dn'tev enstandt hesi ghtofhi m
Bonga:
babycanwepl
easet
alk
Me:
I'
mleav
ing
Hi
m:whereareyougoi ng?LookIgetthatIwas
wr
ong,Ishoul
dhav etoldyouaboutthebaby
mont
hsago.Ijustdidn'
tfi
ndtherightt
ime
Irequestedanuberandwai ted,hewenton
tryi
ngtoexpl ainhimsel fbutIr eal l
ywasn't
i
nterested.Thedi srespectisn' tev enfrom that
hegotherpr egnant,it
st hefactt hathedoesn't
seeany thingwr ongwi thgettingherpr egnantor
evensleepi ngwi t
hher .Whenmyuberar r
ived,
I
l
efthim andwentst r
aighttot heai r
port,t
he
nextavailablefli
ghtwasi n5hour ssoIsat
therebusyonmyphonet r
yingt opasst i
me.My
phoner angandasmuchasIwasn' tinthe
moodf orany one,Icouldnev eri gnore
Abongiwe' scalls
Me:
hey
Abongi
we:
heyMbal
itel
l
smey
oul
efthome
Me: y
eah.I
'
m act
uall
ycomingbacktoDur
ban
today.I
'
mjustwai
ti
ngformyfli
ghtwhi
chisi
n
5hrs
Her
:babear
eyouOK?
Justt
henIbrokedown, ri
ghti
nthemi
ddleof
theai
rpor
tcafet
eria.I
'v
etri
edtobest
rongal
l
morni
ngandI'vefail
ed
Her:OKI'
m comingt
ogetyou.I
'
llt
aket
heLwa
squaredj
etandcomegety
ou
Idi
dn'
trespond,
Ijusthungupandcomposed
mysel
f.Withi
nanhourshewasinfrontofme
wit
harmswi deopen
Me:
hecheat
edwi
thher
Her
:ohmngani
aski
es
Sheledmet othejet
,Ihadneverbeenona
pri
vatej
etbeforesothi
swasexciti
ngbutIwish
i
thadcomeonadi ff
erentday
.Icri
edall
the
waytoDurbanandasmuchasshedi dn'
twant
toleav eme, Iforcedt heissue.Icr iedev eryday
for3weeks, Ididn'tgot owor kandhonest l
yI
didn'tcarewhet herIgotf iredornot .Within
those3weeks, Bongaandhi sfami lywer e
call
ingmeal lthetimeunt i
l Idecidedt oswi t
ch
myphoneof f.Ihatedhi m, Ihatedhi m with
everythingt hatIam.Ir emembert hedat ewas
July29, 6weekssi nceIbr okeupwi thBonga.I t
wasUsi thandi l
e's7thbi rt
hdayandXol ohwas
i
nv i
ted.Wel ef tthehousei nanubert o
Abongi we'shouse, i
tsthef irstti
meI '
vebeen
outsidesi ncet hebr eakup, I'
vegonef r
om asi ze
34t oasi ze28.Thedar kmar ksaroundmyey es
aresodar k,notev enmakeupcancov erthem.
Nikiwewasatt hedoort owel comeust henl ed
met owher et hemomswer echill
ing.Abongi we
gavemeat i
ghthugbef oreIsatdown
Abongi
we:
I'
m gl
ady
oumadei
t
Me:
Ineededt
ogetoutt
hehouse
Kwando:
wine?
Me:j
uicepl
ease.WowUsi
thandi
l
ehasal
otof
f
ri
ends
Li
yana:
thi
sisj
ustf
ami
l
y
Me:
wowsomanyki
ds
Theguy swerebusybraai
ngwhil
etheki
dswer e
beingenter
tai
nedwithgamesandclowns.Iwas
tryi
ngmybestt onotbeapart
ypooperbutI
reall
ywasn'tf
eeli
ngthi
spart
y
Kwando:
mybr
otheri
scomi
ngov
er
Li
yana:
whi
chone?
Kwando:
Loy
iso
Ireal
l
ydi
dn'
tcar
eabouthim.Hewast
hel
ast
thi
ngIwant
edtothi
nkabout
Loy
iso:
mol
weni
Everyoner
espondedexceptf
orme.Iwast
oo
focusedonthegameIwaspl ay
ingonmy
phone
Loy
iso:
mol
oGugu
Me:
hi
Hi
m:canwet
alkf
orasecond?
Me:
nahI
'
m good
Hi
m:i
twi
l
ljustbeasecond.Ipr
omi
se
Heheldouthi
shandt
omeandIsighedbef
ore
get
ti
ngupandf ol
l
owi
nghi
mtothegate
Hi
m:hey
Me:
hi
Hi
m:ur
ight
?
Me:
I'
mfi
ne
Hepaused
Him:youdon'
tl
ookf i
ne.Youhaven'tbeent
o
workinoveramonth,youarenottakingmy
cal
lsandyouneverl
eav ey
ourapartment
Me:
IfIdi
dn'
tknowanybet
terI
'
dthi
nky
oucar
e
Hefrowned,Iknowhej
ustwantst
omakesur
eI
showupf ort
hesexweagreedon
Hi
m:what
'st
hatsupposedt
omean?
Me:
li
key
ousai
d,y
ouj
ustwantt
ofuckme
Him:soj ustbecauseIhavenointent
ionof
bei
ngr omant i
call
yinvol
vedwit
hy ou,
I'm
suddenlyincapableofcari
ngaboutyou?Wow
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
16*
"Iwanttomeetmy
sel
ffr
om someoneel
se'
s
pointofvi
ew"

GUGULETHU

Idon'
tknowwhatLoy i
soexpect
edmetosay
butIknowt heki
ndofguyheis,
hehasmade
surethatIknowandAbongi
wehaswarnedme
abouthi
m count
lesst
imes
Me:
sonowy
oucar
e?
Loyiso:
subamuncuAbongi
we.St
upi
dit
yisn'
t
att
racti
ve
Me: i
ncaseyoumi
ssedit
,I'
m nott
ryi
ngt
obe
at
tracti
ve.Ar
ewedonehere?
Hi
m:mxm
Hewal kedoutt hegat e,Iwatchedhi m ashegot
i
nhiscaranddr oveof f
.Mxm asi fIcarewhat
hethinksisat tr
act i
veornot.Iwentbackt othe
l
adiesIwaschi ll
ingwi t
handwat chedthem
i
ndulgeinwi ne.Lat erthatdayXol ohandIhad
tosayourgoodby esandLi mil
e'sdriv
ertookus
home.Xol ohwasasl eepalreadysoIhadt o
car
ryherupt hest air
stoourf l
at.Mypoorni ece
hadjustattendedherf i
rstbir
thdaypar t
yand
shewasexhaust ed,Iontheot herhandam just
emotional
lydr ained.ThenextdayIwaswoken
upbymyr ingingphone, itwasBonga' smother.
Il
etoutasi
ghbef
oreanswering.Shebetternot
comeatmewithnonsenseandbullshi
tthis
ear
lyi
ntheday
Me:
hel
l
o
B'
smom:
goodmor
ningmakot
i
Irol
ledmyeyes,Ihadtost
opmy
sel
ffr
om
chuckli
ngsar
casti
cal
ly
Me:
unj
ani
ma?
Her:
I'
m notwel
l.Bongat
ell
smet
haty
oucal
l
ed
of
ftheengagement
Me:
thati
scor
rect
Her
:butwhy
?
Me:askyourson.Hei
stheonewhot
oldy
ou
af
teral
l
Iknowthatcameacrossasr
udebutwhydi d
shegetonlyhal
fthei
nfor
mati
onfrom herson?
Wheredidshethi
nkshewasgoingtogetthe
rest
?
Her:Gugumychil
dyouhavetounderstandt
hat
BongaandLihl
ehaveachil
dtogether
.They
spendalotoft
imetoget
herbecauseofBuhl
e
sowhathappenedwasboundtohappen
Me:
OKma.Hav
eani
ceday
Ihungup.Nxawhatt hehelliswrongwi t
ht his
woman?I twasboundt ohappen?Whatr ubbish
i
st hat?Ideci dedt ogetoutofbed, tooka
showert henwor egreyleggings,alongsl eeved
denim shi rtt
hatcamet omyassandwhi teboot
all
stars.It i
edmyhai rintoapony tailt
hen
gather edmywor kthings.It
'saSundayandI
plant ospendt hewhol edaycat chingupwi t
h
wor k,that'
sifIst i
llevenhav eajobhey .Itooka
bananaandanappl eandwentoutt omycab.
WhenIgott otheof fi
ce, Igreet
edt hesecur i
ty
guar d,Iwasj ustgladt herewasnoBent leyin
thepar kinglot.Mydeskhadsomanyf ilesoni t,
most l
yconsi st
ingofbr i
efsfrom cli
ents.I
playedEdSheer anasIgotst ar
tedonmywor k.
Around3pm Iwashungr ysoIor deredpizzafor
deli
very.Youknowt hatf
eelingyougetthat
someonei swat chingyou?Suddenl yIgotthat
feeli
ng,atfi
rstIignoreditbecauseIknewIwas
alonebutitpersistedandIraisedmyhead.The
momentIsawhi m, Ir
oll
edmyey esand
continuedworking
Loy
iso:
whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?
Me:
wor
king
Hi
m:i
tsaSunday
.Shoul
dn'
tyoubeathome?
Justthentwocuteli
tt
leboysrani
ntomyoffi
ce,
theyl
ookedlikehi
m andQhaweandI '
veseen
thei
rpict
uresonhiswalli
nhishouse
Me:
I'
m cat
chi
ngup
Boy
1:dadwhenar
ewel
eav
ing?
Loyi
so:assoonasI'm donehere.Gobackt
o
whereIlef
tyou,
I'
ll
bet herenow
Boy
2:y
ourof
fi
cei
sbor
ingdad
Loy
iso:
Sambul
oI'
m notgoi
ngt
orepeatmy
sel
f
Thetwoboysf ol
l
owedeachot
heroutt
hedoor
asheapproachedmeandsatonmydesk,
watchi
ngovermywork
Loy
iso:
Ist
il
lhav
en'
tfor
giv
eny
ou
Iputdownt hepenci
lIwashol
dingandlooked
athi
m, Icouldonl
ykeepeyecontactf
oralit
tl
e
whil
ebeforelooki
ngaway
Me:
forwhat
?
Him:
forgi
vingmet hebestsexI'
vehadi
nages
andt
hendisappear
ing.If
eltsoused
Hesai
dthelastpar
twi
thabi
tofal
aughi
nhi
s
voi
ceandf
inishedi
tof
fwi
thasmil
e.
Me: I
'
m sur
emanygi
rl
shav
efel
tli
ket
hat
becauseofyou
Helaughedthengotup,
hestoodinf
rontofmy
deskwithhi
shandsinhispocket
s
Hi
m:poi
ntt
aken.LookIdocar
eabouty
ouandI
waswor ri
edwhenyoudi
dn'tshowupforwor
k
al
lthoseweeks.Seei
ngyoubackher
etoday
meansy ouar
ebacktoyoursel
fri
ght
?
Inodded
Hi
m: good.I
'
m sor
ryf
orwhat
every
ouwent
t
hrough
Me:
thanks.SoI
'
m notf
ir
ed?
Hi
m:nahbuty
ouwil
lhav
etosi
gnawar
ning
t
omorr
ow.For
mal
it
ies
Inodded.Ishouldhav eexpectedthatt
hough,
I
can'
tjustdisappearfrom workforweeksand
thi
nkI'
llgetoffwithoutanyt
hingtroubl
ewhenI
ret
urn
Him:I'
l
lseey
out
omor
rowt
hen.Don'
twor
ktoo
hard
Me:
aboutourar
rangement
Hi
m:consi
deri
tnonexi
stentf
rom t
oday
Me:
oh
*
*
LOYI
SO

I'
vehadsexwi t
hal otofwomeni nmyl i
fe
wi t
houthav i
ngt owor ryaboutcat chi
ngf eeli
ngs
orev enhav i
ngt ochaset hem.Looki ngt hewayI
do, womenhav eal way sthrownt hemsel vesat
me, theexcept i
onbei ngthet womot her sofmy
childr enandnowt hisgirl
.Snei smyage,
Tshegoi sayearol dert hanIam whi chmakes
senseast owhyt heywer eachal lengebutGugu
frustrat esme.Shei saki d,I'
m 12y ear
sol der
thanher ,
sheshoul dbeput tyinmyhandsbut
shej ustwon' tgivei n.Af t
erwehadsexI
coul dn'tgetheroutofmymi ndandasmuchas
Ihat et oadmi tthis,IknowI 'vecaughtf eeli
ngs
forher .Ther
ei sjustsomet hingabouther ,
probabl yheri
nnocenceorhowshei sjustso
shyaroundmebutwhat everitis,Ineedtoputa
stoptoitbefor
eIf i
ndmy sel
fint roubl
e.Aft
er
myboy sandIl ef
ttheoffi
ce,Idr ovetoLi
mile'
s
house.Ilovemyki dsbutI'
m notgoodwi thkids
soI'
drathertakethem wheret herearemore
ki
dsfort hem t
oplaywith
Abongi
we:
Loy
isohey
Weshar edahug.Somet i
mesIwonderhowI
nevergotasluckyasLi mil
eandQhawedi d
wheni tcomest orel
ati
onships.Iknowmy
divor
cewas100%myf aultbutIlovedTshego.I
foundmybr othersandcousinatt heback.We
exchangedgreetings,
Igrabbedabot tl
eof
whiskeyandpour edmy sel
fagl ass
Qhawe:
wher
ehav
eyoubeen?
Me:
hadt
ocheckaf
ewt
hingsatt
heof
fi
ce
Li
:onaSunday
?
Shaun:
wit
htheki
ds?
Me:
fuckof
f
Theybrokeintolaught
er.AsmuchasIwaswi th
them physi
cal
ly,mymi ndkeptdri
fti
ngofftot
he
beauti
full
adyIleftatt
heoffi
ce.Althoughher
beautyhadtakenanosedi veoverthepast
coupl
eofweeks, shewassti
llbeauti
ful
Kwandi
l
e:ar
eyouev
enl
i
steni
ngt
othese
cl
owns?
Me:
hmmm
Qhawe:t
hisonei
sbusydaydr
eami
ng.I
'
m
sayi
ngIsawyourexaf
ewweeksago
Me:
OKso?
Qhawe:
shei
sdat
ing
Me:OKso?We'vebeendi
vorcedf
or5y
ear
s
Qhawe,
itwasboundtohappen
Theyal
ll
ookedateachot herthenatme.Yesat
somepointIconsi
deredTshegot hel
oveofmy
l
ife,
wewer etoget
herforalongti
meandI
marri
edherbutr
ightnowIdon'
tcar
ewhatshe
doeswit
hherli
feaslongasIst
il
lgett
oseemy
daught
er
Me:
what
?
Shaun:
youar
eov
erher
Me:yousaythatasi
fit
sabadt
hing.Any
way
whenareyoufoolsl
eavi
ng?
Qhawe:
Sihl
eandIar
eleav
ingt
oni
ght
Kwandi
:wear
eal
sol
eav
ingt
oni
ght
Me:
Qhawebr
uhcanwet
alkf
orasec
Hefol
l
owedmet oadistanceawayfr
om t
he
guy
s.I
ftherei
sonepersonIcantal
ktoabout
any
thi
ng,i
tsmyphot
ocopy
Qhawe:
OKwhoi
sshe?
Isi
ghed
Hi
m: dawgt
helastt
imeIsawy
oulikethi
swas
whenwewere16andyouhadstar
teddati
ng
Sne.Notev
enTshegogoty
oul
i
ket
his
Me:
itsGugu
Hi
m:Guguasi
nichomi
kaAbongi
we
Inodded
Hi
m:ngumnt
anamosl
oya
Me: IknowbuteishmfethuIcan'
tev enputit
i
ntowor ds.Shehasthi
sweirdeffectonme, she
getsmesmi l
i
ngevenwhenIdon' twanttosmi l
e,
sheishell
asexyandbeaut i
ful
.Sheissmar ttoo,
supersmar t
.Icoul
dgoont hewhol edayabout
her
Hi
m:sowhat
'st
hepr
obl
em?
Me: IhaveapastQhawe, av erydirt
yonewhen
i
tcomest owomen.Whati fsherejectsme?
Whati fshecan'tseepastthat?Atf i
rstI
thoughtmay beI'm goi
ngcrazyov erher
becauseIhav en'tbeenl
aidinawhi lesoIhad
sexwi thherandi twasasifmyf eeli
ngsgot
mor
eint
ense
AsmuchasIknewt hatherfi
ancewasfucking
around,
Iwasn'tgoi
ngtotellher
,shewouldn't
havebeli
evedmeany wayandbesidesIwould
havecomeacrossasast alker
.AssoonasI
foundoutshewasengaged, IgotaPIt
ocheck
outthefi
ancé
Hi
m:sowhat
'sy
ourpl
an?
Me:Idon'
tknowbruh.Iworkwi
ththi
swoman
f
ondinandasiti
sIcan'tst
ayawayfr
om her
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08/
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15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
17*
"
Youareev
ery
thi
ngInev
erknewIal
way
s
want
ed"

GUGULETHU
Loy i
soandIgotr eall
ycl ose, suddenl
yhewas
extremel ynicetome.Noti naf li
rt
ati
ous"Iwant
tofucky ouagain"kindofwaybutgenui nel
y
nice.Wewer ebuildi
ngaf r
iendshipthathadhalf
ourst affgossipi
ngaboutmeandt heotherhal
f
givi
ngmet hesti
nkyey e.WhenIgotmyl i
cense,
het ookmeandXol ohoutf ormi l
kshakesand
we'ver eall
ybeenget t i
ngt oknoweachot her.
Forawhi leIthoughtwest il
lhadsexual
chemi stryandIwant edt oexpl or
ethatbutit
seemsl i
keI '
vebeenf riendzoned
Loy
iso:
Ineedaf
avor
Wewerehavi
nglunchi
nmyoffi
ce,not
hing
f
ancyj
ustsandwi
chesIhadmade
Me:
I'
mli
steni
ng
Him: mynephewhasbeenacceptedatt
he
sharksacademyandmyparentsarehav
inga
part
yf orhi
m
Me:
OK
Hi
m:pl
easebemypl
usone
Myey eswidened,hecouldli
ter
allygowithany
gir
l t
othi
sandI '
m surei
twillbeaf amil
ything
thatdoesn'
tneedthepresenceofout si
ders.He
l
aughed, pr
obablyathowIlooklikeI'
m aboutto
shitmypants
Him:Iwi
shIcoul
dsayit
sgoi
ngtobe
somethi
ngsmall
butI
'
dbelyi
ng.Myfami
l
yis
huge
Me:
youar
enothel
ping
Hi
m:Iam.I
'
m pr
epar
ingy
ou
Me:
Ihav
en'
tsai
dyes
Hi
m:ar
eyougoi
ngt
osayno?
Ishr
uggedmyshoulder
s.Igotev
enmore
fr
eakedoutwhenhetol
dmewher et
hiswi
ll
be
andthesi
zeofhisf
amily
Hi
m:y
oual
readyknowhal
fofmyf
ami
l
y
Me:
Ist
il
lcan'
ttel
lyouandy
ourt
winapar
t
Hepl
acedhi
shandonhischesti
nthemost
dr
amati
cwayeverandIj
ustl
aughed
Me:
stopbei
ngdr
amat
ic
Hi
m: I
'
m off
ended.I
'
m mor
ehandsomet
han
Qhaweis
Wegott oPEont heThur
sdaywit
hhisnephew'
s
part
yonlyhappeningont
heSatur
day.Fr
om the
ai
rportwewenttoSpurforaqui
cklunch
Hi
m:Ihopey
ouar
est
il
lbr
eat
hing
Me:
thi
spl
acei
sbeaut
if
ul
Him:youhav
en'
tseenhal
fofit
.Igrewuphere
sotr
ustmewhenItell
youthati
thasalott
o
of
fer
Me:
I'
m ner
vous
Hi
m:don'
tbe.Myf
ami
l
yiscr
azybutamazi
ng
Me:
yourpar
ent
s?
Hi
m:i
fyouwer
emygi
rl
fr
iendI
'
dsayy
ouhav
ea
l
ottoworr
yaboutbutwear
efr
iendssot
hey
'l
l
benice
SeewhatImean, I
'vebeenf ri
endzoned.When
wegott ohi sparents'house,Iwast aken.The
housei shuge, ser
iouslyhugeandt hecar sthat
werepar kedout si
deindicatedthatI'
mi nover
myheadher e.Theannoy i
ngthingabouthi s
famil
yi sthattheyareal l
insanelygorgeous,the
guys,thewomenandt hekids.Sof r
eaken
gorgeous
Hi
m:r
eady
?
Inodded.Weappr
oachedthedoorinsi
lence
andthemomentwewal kedin,
itwasasifwe
hadwalkedi
ntoaminihotel
lobby
"
Uncl
eLoy
isoi
sher
e"
Loyi
so:t
hat'
sLov
uyo,
hei
sther
ugbyst
arIt
old
youabout
Me:
whoseki
dishe?
Loy
iso:Yandi
sa.Mypar
ent
sar
epr
obabl
yint
he
l
ounge.Come
Ifol
lowedhi m, myey eswerejustall
over,
admi r
ingev eryt
hingaroundme.Ihonestlyfel
t
l
ikeIdi dn'
tqualif
ytobeher e,
likeIhadtobea
cert
ainl ev
el ofri
chorbeautif
ul
Loy
iso:
heymama.Heydad
Hehuggedhismom,ki
ssedhercheekt
hen
shookhandswi
thhi
sdad
L'
smom:Ithoughtyou'
dbethel
astt
oar
ri
ve
andwhoi
sthisladynextt
oyou
Ismi
l
edbr
ief
ly
Loyi
so:Gugut
hisismymother,
Lwandil
eSmith
andthi
sismydadSosoSmith.Mom dadthi
sis
Gugu,agoodf
riendofmi
ne
Hispar
entsbothlookedateachot
hert
henhi
s
dadrai
sedhiseyebrows
L'
sdad:
fri
endy
ousay
?Wel
li
tsni
cet
omeet
y
ouGugu
Me:
itsni
cet
omeety
ouguy
stoo
Loyiso:
great
.I'
m goi
ngtogetGugusett
ledi
n,
takeanapandI '
l
lwakeupwheneveryoneget
s
here
L'
smom:
arey
ounothungr
y?
Loy
iso:
weat
ebef
orecomi
ngher
e
Igotset
tl
edi
ntheroom opposi
tehi
sthenhe
thr
ewhimsel
fonthebed
Me:
youhav
eyourownr
oom
Hi
m:I'
mtoolazyt
ogother
e.Ipr
omi
seIwon'
t
mi
sbehav
e.Ij
ustwantt
onap
Ideci
dedtolethim bebecauseIwasalsoti
red
andinneedoft herest
.It
hinkIf
ell
asleep
befor
ehim becausehewasst i
ll
tel
li
ngme
aboutal
lhi
sni ecesandnephews
*
*
LOYI
SO

Ismi ledtomy sel

fasIwat chedhersleep.As
muchasIwasexhaust ed,watchinghersleep
i
nst eadofSl eepingmy sel
fseemedwor t
hwhil
e
butt hedr owsi nesssoonconquer edme
becauseIwasoutl ikeali
ghtaf ewmi nutes
l
ater .I'
vecomeacr osssomanymoment s
wher eIt houghtwer eperf
ectformet ot el
lher
butsomehowIendupchi ckeningout.Iwantit
tobeper fect, f
orhernottoquest i
onitordoubt
thewayIf eel.Aphonecal lfr
om Tshegowoke
meupsoIdeci dedtotakethecallont he
balconyj ustsoIwoul dn'
twakeGuguup
Me:
hey
Tshego:
heyhowar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m goodandy
ou?
Her
:I'
m good.Tshepi
want
stocometoLuvo'
s
par
tysoisther
enowayyoucanfet
chher
?
Me:no.I
'm alr
eadyathomeandl
astIchecked
Qhaweisalreadyonhi
swaythi
sside
Shesighed.Imi
ssmydaught
er,
Ihaven'
tseen
heri
nmont hssothi
swoul
dhavebeenagreat
ti
metoseeher
Her
:uhm OKI'
l
l makeapl
an.I
'
llpr
obabl
yhav
e
t
obringhermysel
f
Me:
youshal
ll
etmeknowwhaty
oudeci
de
WehungupandIwentbackt owatchi
ngGugu
sleep.Shehadaweav eonandthestr
andskept
fall
ingonherfaceandIkeptr
emovingthem
Me:
damny
ouar
ebeaut
if
ul
Igent
lyr
anmyf
ingeronhercheek,
car
eful
not
towakeher
Me:howdoyoudoit?Howdoyoumakemeso
ner
vouswhenI
'm ar
oundyou?Whycan'
tIj
ust
behonestwi t
hy ouandt elly ouhowmadl yin
l
ov eIam wi thy ou?Iadmi tatfirstitwasabout
thesexbutIdon' tevencar eaboutt hesex
anymor e.IwishIcoul dtellyout hatyouar ethe
fi
rstthingIt hinkaboutwhenIwakeupi nt he
mor ning, t
hatseei ngyoursmi l
ewhenIwal k
i
ntot heof ficeal readymakesmyday ,thatI
can'twai tfory out omeetmyki dsbecauseI
wantt obui ldaf ut urewit
hy ou.Ir eall
ywi shy ou
couldr eadmymi ndandl ooki nt omyhear t,t
hat
wayy ou' dseeev er y
thi
ngIcan' ttellyou
Shelaidst
il
l,
breat
hingsoft
lywithherli
ps
sl
ightl
ypart
ed.Igentl
ygotupfrom thebed
whenIheardnoisecomingfrom downstai
rs,
my
si
bli
ngshaveprobablyar
ri
ved.
Gugu:
pleasedon'
tgo
Myhear
tstoppedforasecondbecauseapart
ofmeknewshehadhear dever
ythi
ngIthoughtI
wassay
ingtoasleepi
ngperson
Me:
Ihav
eto
Her
:pl
ease
Iwalkedbackt owardsthebed,sheadj
ust
ed
hersel
ftositupwithherbackagainstt
he
headboard.Isatnexttoherandsil
encefi
l
led
theroom
*
*
GUGULETHU

Iheardeverywor dhespoke,Ishouldhave
i
ndicatedthatI'
m awakebutt hemorehespoke,
themor eIwantedtohearandnowwear e
sit
ti
ngi nanawkwar dsil
ence.It
sbeenalmost3
monthssi nceBongaandIbr okeup,I'
m st
il
l
heali
ngandI '
m notstrongenoughtolove
someoneel se,notri
ghtnowt hati
s
Loy
iso:
didIwakey
ou?
Ishookmyhead.
Me:
Iwasawakebef
orey
ou.
..
youknow
Hi
m:soy
ouhear
dme?
Inoddedandi
twasbackt
osi
l
encef
oral
i
ttl
e
whil
e
Me:
Ineedt
ime
Him:under
standablebuttherei
smore.Ineed
youtoknowev er
ythingbefor
eyoueven
consi
derget
tinginar el
ati
onshi
pwit
hme
Wasn'tt
hist
hesameguyt hatsaidhedoesn'
t
wanttogetr
omanti
cal
lyinvolvedwit
hmeaf ew
monthsagoandnowhei sbear i
nghi
ssoulto
mewhi l
ehethi
nksIam asleep.Howthi
ngs
change
Hi
m:I
'
mtur
ning40ont
he27t
hoft
hismont
h
Me:
OK
Hi
m: t
hatshoul
dtel
lyouthatIdon'
thav
eti
me
t
oplaygamesanymore,Iplay
edenoughgames
duri
ngmyt wentiesandearlythi
rt
ies.NowI
wantt osettl
edown.Byset tl
ingdownIdon' t
meanIwantt omar r
yy outomorrowbutImean
Iwantt ofocusandi nv
estinonewomanand
thatwomani syou.Youalr
eadyknowt hatIwas
mar r
iedandt hatmywi fel
eftme
Me:
yes
Him: Icheat
edonher ,
numeroust imeswiththe
samewomanandt hat
'showSabel oand
Sambul ocameal ong.I'
mt el
li
ngy outhi
s
becauseIknowi twi l
lcomeupi fithasn'
t
already.Idi
dn'
tcheatonTshegobecauseI
didn'tl
oveherbutitwasbecauseIhadn' t
healedf r
om mybr eakupwithmyexsoIwant
yout otakeall
thet i
mey ouneedi nheali
ng
becauseIwoul dn'
twantt obeont hereceiv
ing
endofwhatIputmyexwi fethrough
Icl
ear
edmyt hr
oat.I
'
veneverseenhim so
vul
ner
abl
e,soshakenandnervous.TheLoyi
soI
knowist
hepowerful
,cockyandsexybastar
d
t
heyal
lLov
etohat
e
Me:
sowher
eisshe?Themot
herofy
oursons?
Hi
m:i
nthest
ates
Me:andi
fshecomesback?Wher
ewi
l
lthat
l
eav
eus?
Him:wherev
erwewer ethedaybeforeshe
showsup.GuguIl oveyou,morethanI'v
eev er
l
ovedinmylifeandIknowy ouwon' tbel
ieveme
ri
ghtnowbutIswearonal lthatIam,it
st he
tr
uth.Myheartbeatsforyou
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
18*
"
Iwi
l
llov
eyouaty
ourdar
kest
"

GUGULETHU

Me:
youar
est
ari
ng
Loy
iso:
youar
ebeaut
if
ul.Ican'
thel
pit
Me:stopbei
ngcheesyandl
et'
sgoseey
our
si
bli
ngs
Hi
m:y
ouar
esoeagert
omeety
ouri
nlaws
Ihithischestthengotof ft
hebed,hi
swords
wer etheonlythingplay
ingonmymi ndbutat
thesamet i
meIdi dn'
twantt of
ocusonthem
untilI
'
mr eadyt odateagain.Whenwegot
downst ai
rs,hi
st winhadjustar
ri
vedwit
hhis
kidsandhi swife
Qhawe:
Gugu?
Loy
iso:
mypl
usone.Getov
eri
t
Si
hle:
plusone?Yourdr
amat
houghhubby
Iwatchedhowhehuggedhi sbr other
'swifewit
h
somuchl ove.IswearQhaweandLoy isoare
thesameper son,Iseri
ousl
ycan' ttel
lthem
apartwhentheyar etoget
her.IhuggedQhawe
andSihlebeforeLoyisousheredmei nt ot
he
backy
ard
Hi
m:Tshegoi
sonherwayher
ewi
thTshepi
Me:
Tshego?
Him:myexwi f
e.Don'tworry,
sheisn'
tthe
dramacausi
ngtype.Ijustwanttogiv
ey oua
headsupbecausemyf amilylov
eher
Ifel
tasli
ghtsharppaininmychest,Iwas
j
ealous.Whatifhi
smot hernev
erl
ikesmeand
al
way scomparesmet otheexwifewhois
apparent
lyper
fectfr
om whatI'
veheard
Me:
OK
Hi
m:butIl
oveyou.Don'
tl
ett
hatatanymoment
sl
i
pyourmind
Me:
OK
Hewentbackintothehouseleavi
ngmeout si
de
witht
heki
ds.Iwasal i
ttl
erel
axedwhenI
spott
edLi
sa,sheistheonlyoneinthi
sf amily
I'
vehadagoodvibewith.Lat
erthatevening,
Tshegoar ri
vedandt hemomentIsawher ,
I
recognizedherfrom thehugepor tr
aiton
Loyiso'swallathi
shouse.Ev eryonefussedover
herandherdaught erwhil
eIjustchil
ledinthe
l
oungewi t
hSabel owhowasaski ngalotof
questionsandanswer ingthem himself
L'
smom: makoti
letmei
ntr
oducey
out
o
Loyi
so'
sfr
iend
Ismi
l
edf
aint
ly
L'
smom:thi
sisGugu,
Guguthi
sisTshego.She
usedt
obeyourf
ri
end'
swif
e
Me:
nicet
omeety
ou
Tshego:
li
kewi
se
Iactual
l
ydobelievethatshei
sthedr
amaf r
ee
type.Af
terdi
nnerIhelpedLi
saandOlwet
hu
cl
earupt hedi
shes
Li
sa:y
oul
ookl
i
key
ou'
drat
herbeany
wher
ebut
her
e
Me:
it'
sthatobv
ious?
Li
sa:
yep
Tshegowalkedi
ntothekit
chen,
dismissed
Olwethut
henpouredhersel
faglassofwater
Tshego:
soGuguhowdoy
ouknowLoy
iso?
Me:
weuhm wor
ktoget
her
.Hei
smyboss
Tshego:
ohthat
'sni
ce.Li
sapl
easeexcuseus
foramoment
Myhear tjumpedtomyt hr
oat,maybeIwas
wrong.May besheisthedramacausingt
ype
andI'm abouttogetabeati
ng.AssoonasLisa
l
efttheroom, Ipani
cked
Tshego:l
ookLoyi
sohasbr
ief
edmeabouty our
rel
ati
onshi
porrat
herhowhefeel
sabouty
ou
Hai
boLoy
isobr
uh?
!Whatt
hehel
l
?
Her
:mydaughtervisi
tsherfat
herev er
y
6mont
hsandshei sbasical
l
ystill
ababy .You
bei
ngi
narelat
ionshipwithherfathermeans
t
hatyouguyswillspendti
met oget
herand
t
hat'
swhereIcomei n.Idon'tknowy oubutI
wi
llgi
veyouthebenef i
tofthedoubt,respect
meashermot herandIwi l
lrespectyouasher
f
ather
'sgi
rl
fr
iend.
Me:
OK
Ididn'
tknowwhatt osay .Shewascal m about
thewhol ethi
ng,r
elaxedandaccepting.Why
couldn'
tLihlebeli
kethis?ThenextdayLi saand
Idecidedtogoshoppi ngwithAbongiweand
Liy
ana.Ineededsomet hi
ngtowearatt heparty
anyway .Wediscussedmyconv ersati
onwi th
Tshego
Li
yana:
doy
out
hinkshewasbei
nggenui
ne?
Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s.Idon'
tknowherso
shecoul
dhav
ebeenputti
ngupanactfort
hein-
l
aws
Li
sa:Ithi
nkshewas.Shehasal
somov edonso
Idoubtshewoul
ddwellonLoyi
so'
srel
ati
onshi
p
Abongi
we:I'
m wit
hLisaonthi
sone.Youjust
needtogetovery
ourfear
sandgiv
eLoyisoa
chance
Me:wai
tar
en'ty
out
hesameper
sont
hatsai
d
hewoul
dhurtme
Abongi
we: Ial
sothoughtBongawasper f
ect
andhetur
nedoutt obeadi cksowecan
concl
udethatI'
m ahorri
blejudgeofchar
act
er
Afterfi
ndingt heperfectdresses, wewentout
forlunchthenbackt othehouse.Thepar t
y
turnedoutt obeamazi ng,av erychill
edvibe
especiall
yconsi deri
ngt hatthemanoft he
momenti sjust14.Thisf ami l
yistoohugef or
myl iki
ng,theyar eoverwhelmi ngAndat adbit
ti
ri
ng.AsIl ist
enedt oYandi sagoonabouther
famousnei ghborsl ashbestf ri
end, Ifel
t
someone' shandonmywai stsoIt urnedaround
andIwasgr eetedbyhi ssmi le
Loy
iso:
canIst
eal
youf
oramoment
?
Me: aslongaswear
enotgoi
ngoutt
hegat
e.
I
'm cold
Hi
m:nah.Justupst
air
stomyr
oom
Themomentwewal kedi nt
ot heroom andthe
doorcl osedbehi ndus, hi
sl i
pswer eonmi ne.
Kissingmesl owlyatfirstthenhishandswent
tomyassandhepi ckedmeup.Il etouta
squeal ashet hrewmeont hebedand
continuedki ssi
ngme, getti
ngmet urnedonwith
everyki ssthenhepul ledback.Il ookedathis
browney esthatwer enowsmal l andhispi
nk
bottom l i
pthatwast uckedsexi lybetweenhis
teeth
Hi
m:y
ouar
edr
ivi
ngmecr
azy
Me:
rightbackaty
ou
Hecl
imbedof
fme,
lai
donhi
sbackt
henpul
l
ed
metohi
schest
Me:
whydi
dyoust
op?
Him:It
oldy
ouIdon'
tcar
eaboutt
hesex
anymore
Me:
butIcant
ell
thaty
ouar
etur
nedon
Hi
m: howcanInotbewheny ouki
ssmel
i
ke
t
hat?ButI
'
llwai
t.Idon'
twanttogi
vey
oua
r
easontodoubtmyintent
ions
Isighed.Iwantt oopenmyhear ttohim,Iwant
tolethimi nandt r
ythingsoutwi t
hhim butI
'm
soscar ed.I'
vehadmyhear tbr
okent wice
alr
eady ,whatifheturnsouttobeanot her
Bongaoranot herNkule?Iwouldn'tbeablet
o
surviv
eanot herheart
br eak
Hi
m:what
'sony
ourmi
nd?
Me:
not
hing
Hi
m:y
ouar
ely
ing.Tal
ktome
Me:
I'
m scar
ed
Hi
m:ofme?
Ishookmyhead
Me:
ofget
ti
ngmyhear
tbr
okenagai
n
Hi
m:welli
fitmeansanyt
hing,I
'
m al
soscar
ed.I
l
oveyoumor et
hanyoucouldeverl
ovemeand
t
hati
sscary.
Thenextdaywehadt ol
eaveforDurbanandI
washappy ,
Icouldn'twaittobeinmyown
spaceagai nandnothav ingtowor r
yaboutthe
perf
ectexwi feandhowi nsecureshemakes
mef eel.Sheistooni ce,
tooperfectandtoo
annoying.Iprobablywhatt obeherthat'
swhyI
don'
tlikeherplusitdoesn'thelpmucht hatshe
i
sbeaut if
ul
Loy
iso:
yoursi
l
encei
stool
oud
Me:
I'
mjustt
ir
ed.Iwantt
ogethomeandsl
eep
Hesighedanditwasbacktothesi
lence.He
droppedmeoffatthecomplex,
Isaidgoodbye
andhenodded.
*
*
LOYI
SO

You'dthinkatmyageI '
dhav eabetter
understandi ngofhowthewomenbr ainworks
butI'm sti
llascluel
essasaki dthatjustgothi
s
fi
rstgir
lfri
end.WhenIgott omyhugeempt y
house,Ithr ewmy sel
font hecouchand
switchedt heTVon.Iwr eckedmybr aintryi
ngto
fi
gureoutwhatgotGugui nsuchasourmood
becausel astnightever
ythingwasfine.My
thoughtswer ei
nterr
upt
edbyacal lfrom my
mot her
Me:
mama
Mom:
didy
ouhav
easaf
etr
ip?
Me:
yeahwedi
d.Enkosi
mama
Her
:goodIwantustotal
kaboutt
hatgi
rly
ou
wer
eherewit
hthisweekend
Isatupont hecouchbecauseknowingmy
mother,sheisaboutt
ogoonabouthow
i
nconsiderat
eIam toTshego'
sfeeli
ngs
Me:
yiy
ekemama
Her:
Iwon'tdot
hat.Iknowy ouar eagr
own
manandIshouldn'
tinvol
vemy selfi
nyour
busi
nessbutwhatyoudidisn'
tright
Me:yhohayikemama.Ican'
tti
ptoear
ound
Tshego'
sfeeli
ngsmna.Iwantt
obehappyas
well
Her
:andwhomakesy
ouhappy
?Gugu
Me: y
esactual
l
yshedoes.Iknowshei
sal
ot
youngert
hanmebutIloveher
Her:t
hat'sexactl
ywhatImeanwhenIsaywhat
youdidisn'
tright
.Whyintr
oducehertomeas
yourfr
iendthen?I'
my ourmotherandthat
'sa
bigdealtoawomant hat'
sinlovewit
hy ou
I
'
venev
erbeenmor
econf
usedi
nmyl
i
fe.My
mom isn'
tthej
udgment
alty
pethatwi
llpi
cka
wif
eforyouorchoosewhoyoushoul
ddate.
Sheisopenminded
Me:
I'
mlost
Her:
findyoursel
fthen.Decidewhoandwhat
t
akespr i
ori
tyinyourl
ife.Makethechangesthat
youfearmakingandt herestwi
llf
all
intopl
ace
Whenshehungup, sheleftmef eeli
ngeven
moreconfused.Afewmont hspassedand
Gugusti
llwasn'
tupforgivingusachance, she
evenst
artedref
usi
ngtospendt i
meatmy
houseandIwasclosetogi vingup.I'
venev
er
hadtochaseagirl
forthislong.
Abongi
we:
thatpi
ctur
eisdi
stur
bing
Me:thi
siswhyIdon'
ti
nvi
tey
oupeopl
etomy
house
Li
:whenar
eyout
aki
ngi
tdown?
Me:
whyshoul
dI?
Abongiwe:i
tsapict
ureofy
ourexwif
e.That'
s
reasonenough.HowdoesGuguevendealwi
th
l
ookingatit
?
Me:shedoesn'tbecauseshenev
erwantsto
comehere.Idon'tevenknowwhatshehas
agai
nstt
hishouse
Abongi we:it
snotthehouseyoui
diot
.It
sthat
picture.Howisshesupposedtost
arta
relati
onshipwithyouwhil
eyouar
estil
l
obsessi ngoveryourex?
[
08/
18,
15:
39]Mca:
Season2
*
19*
"Tohavesomeoneunder
standy
ourmi
ndi
sa
dif
fer
entki
ndofint
imacy
"

LOYI
SO
Ideci
dedthatmay
be,j
ustmay
beLimil
eandhi
s
tal
kat
ivewif
ehadapoi
nt.I
'
venev
erreal
ly
stoppedtoquest ionwhyIhav en'tt
akendown
thatpict
ure,Idon'tevenr emembert helastti
me
Ilookedatit.InawayIj ustforgoti
texists,
somehowi thasjustblendedi ntothewal l
paper.
Itookitdownt henextdayandst oreditinthe
basement ,may beTshegowoul dwantitor
Tshepi mightwantt okeepi thanginginher
room.Nexty earIwantmysonsher ewi t
hme, if
Icould,I
'dhav eTshepi hereaswel lbutTshego
wouldnev erletthatchil
dgo.
Me:
hey
Gugu:
hi
Wehaven'
tspokeninaweekandIwasdy ing
i
nsi
de.Imissedherandbeingint
hesame
bui
l
dingwithherever
ydayandhavi
ngtokeep
mydist
ancehasbeent or
ture
Me:
canwet
alk?
Her
:I'
m busy
Me:
Iwon'
ttakel
ong.Pl
ease
Ihadalr
eadywalkedint
oherof fi
cesoIpul
l
ed
thechai
randsatdown.Iwat chedhowhereyes
wentall
overt
her oom butneverrest
edonme
Me:whydi
dn'
tyout
ell
met
hepi
ctur
ebot
her
ed
you?
Her:whyshouldIhav
et otel
lyou?Yougoon
aboutthi
sgreatl
ovey ouhaveformey ety
ougo
homet oamonstersizepict
ureofyourwif
e
Me:
exwi
fe
Her
:notthepoi
ntandt heny
oui
nsi
stIspend
t
imewithyouatthathouse.
Me:OKI
'm sorr
y.Ishouldhav
ereal
i
zedt
hati
t
woul
dbeoffensi
vetoy ou.
Her
:ar
eyounotov
erher
?
Me:pleasecomeovertothehouseaf
terwor
k.
I
'l
lanswerally
ourquest
ions
Her
:whycan'
tyouanswernow?
Shewasget
ti
ngabi
tscar
edathowIwas
av
oidi
ngthequesti
onbutshehastotr
ustme.I
f
wehaveanychanceatmakingarel
ati
onshi
p
workt
henshehast ot
rustme
Me:becauseIbeli
eveacti
onspeaksl
oudert
han
wor
ds.I'
llseeyoulat
er?
Her
:I'
l
lsee
Me:
alr
ight
Ilefttheoffi
ceandwentst rai
ghthome.What
I'
m aboutt odoi spr
obablythecr aziestthi
ng
I'
veev erdonebutIguessi t
sall partofbeingin
l
ov e.Icall
edt hemov i
ngcompanyandhad
them packupev er
ythi
nginallther oomsexcept
forthekids'roomsandmyst udy .Byt heti
me
theywer edone, myhouselookedasi tdidwhen
Ifir
stmov edi nt
oit,
withafewexcept ionsher
e
andt here
Guy:whatdoy
ouwantust
odowi
thal
lthi
s
fur
nit
ure?
Me:
pawni
t.Takey
ourf
eeanddeposi
tther
est
i
ntomyaccount
.Yourbosseshav
ethedet
ail
s
Guy
:al
ri
ght
Theyl eftleavi
ngmel aughingatmy self
.Whatif
afterallthis,
shestil
ldoesn'twantme?Whati f
allofthisisstil
lnotenoughf orher?IswearI'
l
l
kil
lmy selfbecauseI'mtir
edofl i
vingwithout
thatwoman.Ir eachedformyphoneanddi al
ed
Liyana'snumber
Li
yana:i
tsneveragoodt
hingwhenIr
ecei
vea
cal
lfr
om you
Il
aughed
Me:youhavenofai
thi
nabr
other
.Ineedy
our
hel
pwithsomethi
ng
*
*
GUGULETHU
Iwonderwher et hel i
ght ningthathi tLoyi
soand
madehi mr eali
zet hatt hatpicturewasani ssue
camef rom.Ist illdon' tunderstandhowhe
possiblythoughti twasOK, t
hey '
vebeen
divor
cedf ory earsnow.Af terheleftmyof ficeI
keptthinkingtomy selfwhet herIshoul dgot o
hishouseornot .Ahugepar tofmewascur ious,
hedidsayhewasbr ingingact i
on.Il ef
tthe
offi
ceaf t
erwor kandwentst r
aighthome, took
ashowerandchangedi ntoboy fr
iendjeans, a
whiteblouseandbl ackandgol dsandal st hen
tookacabt ohi splace.Ineedt obuyacarnext
year,Ihavemyl icensenowany wayandt hese
cabsanduber sar ebur ningahol einmypocket .
Loy
iso:
heybaby
Idi
dn'
twantt
osmil
ebutIdi
danyway
.Hedi
dn'
t
l
etmein,i
nst
eadwest
oodathi
sdoor
Me:
arey
ounotgoi
ngt
oletmei
n?
Hi
m:aki
ssonmyl
i
psi
syourkeyt
oent
eri
ng
Me:
youar
esocheesy
Hi
m:t
ell
mey
ouar
enoti
mpr
essed
Hewasbeinghi
scockysel
fwi
thadashof
sweet
ness.Iwr
appedmyarmsar
oundhisneck
andki
ssedhisl
ipssl
owl
y
Hi
m:I
'
m goi
ngt
ohav
etocov
ery
ourey
es
Me:
arey
oupl
anni
ngt
omur
derme?
Hi
m:l
olmay
be
Hecov er
edmyey eswi t
habandanat henheld
myhandasweent eredthehouse.Iwasgetting
excit
edforsomereasonandwhenweSt opped
walki
ng,hedidn'
tremovetheblindf
oldinst
ead
hetookbothmyhandsi ntohis
Him:I
'm anidi
ot.Acl uel
ess,
inconsider
ateand
i
nsensit
ivei
diot.I
'
vebeensof ocusedon
showi
ngy ouhowmuchy oumeant omet hatI
l
ostsightofevery
thingelsearoundus.I'
dli
kea
doover,I
'm dyi
ngfrom notbeingabletocall
youmine.Idi
dn'
tdothi
stoi
mpressyoubut
rat
hertoshowyouhowmuchitmeanstometo
haveyouinmyli
fe
Heslowlyremovedthebl i
ndfold,Ibli
nkedaf ew
ti
mesthenmyey esfocused.Ther oom was
darkwit
hredcandlesalloverthepl ace,t
he
l
oungewhi chwasf i
l
ledwithfur ni
turethelast
ti
meIwasher ewasnowempt yandt her
ewasa
pi
cnicsetupinthemi ddl
eoft helounge
Me:
wher
eisy
ourf
urni
tur
e?Di
dyougetr
obbed?
Hel
aughed
Him:Idi
dn'tgetrobbed,Isol
dital
l
.Iwantto
buynewf urni
turewit
hy oubymyside.Inev
er
wantyout oeverfeell
i
keaguestinahouseI
wanttoturnintoahomef orus
Iwasinawe.Icoul dn'
tbel
iev
ehesol dhisenti
re
fur
nit
urejustbecauseofthatpict
ureIhated.I
knowwhathehasdonei sextraandoverthe
topbutitwassweetandr omant i
cinevery
aspectoft
hewor
d
Me:
wowLoy
isot
hisi
sbeaut
if
ul
Hi
m:pl
easeal
l
owmet
olov
eyou
Me:
yes
Hepi ckedmeup, spunmear oundcausingme
togiggleli
keateenagerthenkissedme
seduct i
vel
y.Wespentthateveningtalki
ngand
l
aughi ng.I
tsbeenalmost6mont hssinceIbroke
upwi thBongaandI '
mreadytogi velove
anothertry
Him:asmuchasI 'dl
ovet
ospendthenightwi
th
you,
Idon'thav
eabedsower eal
lyhavetodo
t
hisshoppingthi
ngtomor
row
Me:
Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ousol
dal
lyourf
urni
tur
e
Hi
m:Ihadt
omakeupf
ormyf
ool
i
shness.
Thenextdaywebot htookadayoffandwent
shoppi
ngf orf
urni
tur
eandImustadmi tthati
t
wastir
ing.Heletmedecideonevery
thingwit
h
noobj
ect
ion
Hi
m:ar
eweal
mostdone?
Me:
why
?Ar
eyout
ir
ed?
Hi
m:y
esandhungr
y
Me:wear
edone.Doy
ouhav
efoodaty
our
pl
ace?
Hi
m:asi
nrawf
ood?
Me:
yesbabe.Rawf
ood
Him:whywoul
dIbuyr
awf
oodwhenIcan'
t
cook?
Me:
yho!
Idraggedhimtopicknpay ,
webought
groceri
esandeventhoughhecompl ai
ned,I
didn'
tcare.Byt
hetimewegott ot
hehouse, t
he
furni
tur
epeoplehadjustf
inisheddroppingt
he
furni
tur
eof f
Hi
m:t
hisi
sbet
tert
hant
heol
dst
uffhey
Me:I'
m gladyout
hinkso.Nowwehav
eto
ar
rangeitinawaywewanti tt
obe
Hi
m:t
hisi
sexact
lyhowIwanti
ttobe
Me:
babyst
opbei
ngl
azy
Him:Gugust handwasam Iloveyoubuty
ouar
e
abusi
ve.CanIbef edfi
rstbefor
emov i
ng
fur
nit
urearound?
Heissuchabi gbaby.Imademacar oniand
mincebecausehewasal readycompl ai
ningof
hungerandIwantedsomet hingquick.Idished
upforusandweat ebytheki tchenontopof
thecountert
henmov edfurni
turearound.Byt he
ti
mewewer edone,Iwasexhaust edandjust
wantedtosleep
Me:I'
m sot
ir
edIcan'
tev
enappr
eci
ateal
lof
t
his
Him:youshoul
dmovein,
thatwayy
oucan
appr
eciat
eitev
ery
day
Me:Loy
isowe'
vebeentoget
herforaday.Idon'
t
t
hinkmovi
ngintoget
heri
sappropri
ate
Hi
m:whynot
?
Me:
babyst
eps
Hewaslayi
ngont hebedonhisbackwi t
hhis
ar
msbehindhisheadwhi l
eIwasonmy
st
omachadmi r
inghim.Ihopeheneverchanges
i
ntosomethi
ngorsomeoneIcan'trecognize
Hi
m:j
ustki
ssmei
nst
eadofst
ari
ngatme
Me:noandIneedt
ogohome.Ihav
eababy
wai
ti
ngformeathome
Hi
m:It
houghtIwasy
ourbaby
Yhoakat
efi
umuntu.Ipeckedhi
sli
pst
henli
fted
hi
m offt
hebedbuthegroanedandmoaned
Hi
m: babyI'
mti
red,y
ouareti
red.Can'
tyoujust
sl
eepoverandI
'
llt
akeyoutothefl
atinthe
morni
ng?
Me:
OKbuti
fyoupr
omi
set
ogi
vemea
massage?
Hi
m:y
ouar
eabusi
veGuguf
ondi
n
Me:
yety
oul
oveme.
[
08/
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15:
40]Mca:
Season2
*
20*
"Ther
eisnot
hingmoreassur
ingt
hana
communicat
ingpar
tner
"

GUGULETHU

Twomont hsint
omyr elat
ionshi
pwi t
hLoy i
so,
wemov edintoget
her.Iwashesitantatf
irst
becausefi
rst
lyi
twast oosoonandsecondl y
whatwouldhappentomysi ster
swhent hey
comehomef orholi
dayswhi chi
swhyIdi dn'
t
sel
lmyf l
at
Loy
iso:
babe
Me:hay
ibabyI
'
m sor
e.Ican'
thav
eany
mor
esex
wi
thyou
HelaughedandIl ookedoverathim.Ihadmy
l
egswidelyspreadont hebedwhilethefan
bl
ewcool i
ngairintomyv agi
na.Ineededt he
cool
ingsystem becauseIfel
tli
keIwasbur ni
ng
downthere.Iguesshav i
ngsomuchsexi sn't
goodafterall
Him:Iwasn'
tgoi
ngtosayany
thi
ngaboutsex.
Sabel
oandSambuloaremovi
nginnextweek
Me:mov
ingi
nasi
ntheyar
egoi
ngt
oli
vewi
th
us?
Hi
m:y
eah.Ihopet
hatwon'
tbeapr
obl
em
Idi
dn'trespond,
whycoul
dn'
theaskmehowI
fel
taboutlivi
ngwit
hhi
ssonsfi
rstbef
ore
deci
ding?
Hi
m:Gugu
Me:
Loy
iso
Hesatupont hebedandf acedmydi recti
on.
Somet i
mesIwonderhowt hewayhet hinks
nevermatcheshisage.Loyi
sojustdoesal otof
thi
ngswi t
houtthi
nki
ng,someti
mesi t
s
spontaneousandotherti
mesitsself
ishand
stupi
d
Hi
m:OKwhatdi
dIdo?
Me:not
hing.I
'
m goi
ngt
ocheckonXol
ohand
mysist
ers
Him: pl
easedon'
tdothat.I
fsomet
hingi
s
botheri
ngyou,pl
easespeakup
Me:
we'
l
ltal
kabouti
tlat
er
Iki
ssedhi sli
psbef orewaddl i
ngtot he
bathroom.Itookar el
axingbubblebat h,Ionl
y
gotoutwhent hewat erstart
edgetti
ngcol d.
WhenIgotbackt other oom hewasn' tt
here
anymor e.Iputloti
ononmybodyt henwor ea
shortoli
vesummerdr esswithwhiteandgol d
sandals.Downst air
sIf oundhim having
breakf
astwit
hTshepi
.Tshepihasn'
texact
ly
warmedupt omesoallI
'vebeengett
ingfr
om
herisatt
it
ude
Me:
mor
ningTshepi
so
Tshepi
:hi
Loy
iso:
arey
oul
eav
ingal
ready
?
Me:
yeah.Wehav
eal
ongdayaheadofus
Loyi
so:OKI
'l
lseeyoulat
erthan.Taket
heX6,
youknowhowIfeelabouty
out aki
ngcabsand
uber
s
Hetossedmet
hekeyst
ohiscart
henhel
dmy
handaswewal
kedoutt
hehouse
Me:
I'
ll
seey
oul
ater
Hi
m:alr
ightnanazi
.Ihopewecant
alkabout
what
everisbother
ingyou
Weshar
edaki
ssbefor
eheopenedt
hedoort
o
t
hecart
hencl
osedi
tforme
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ounanazi
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oobaby
*
*
ABONGI
WE

Me: Usi
thandi
leWasibusi
saHadebe,
I'
m not
goingtorepeatmyself
.St
opmakingfunofyour
brother
s
Usi
:butmom it
'st
hetr
uth.Kuhl
eisnav
ydar
k
andOyii
savocadodar
k
Li
:andme?
Hewalkedint
othel
oungeandmyheartsmil
ed.
Hespankedmyass,addi
ngagrabt
oitthen
ki
ssedmyneck
Me:
asIawai
ttheanswer
Usi
:daddyi
sper
fect
Oy
i:t
henI
'
m per
fectt
oobecauseIl
ookl
i
kedad
Kuhle:
yeahmet oo.Dadcanwepl
easegot
o
thebeach?I
tshothere
Il
ookedatmyhusband,Idon'
twantt
ogot ot
he
beachonthe2ndofJanuary
.Ihat
ecrowdsand
Idon'
twanttol
osemykids
Li
:askmommy
Usi
:mom al
way
ssay
sno
Oy
i:y
eahshei
snof
unatal
l
Me: youguyscan'
tev
enpr
onouncer
esponsi
ble
becausethat'
swhatmommyis.Mommyis
responsi
ble
Li
:I
'l
ltaket
hem t
obal
i
to,
Idoubti
t'
saspacked
Idi
dn'targuewithhi
m, Idi
dn'
tev engeta
chancetosayany t
hingbecauset heki
dsal
lran
tothei
rroomst henhesatnexttome, pul
li
ng
meupt ost r
addlehi
mt henkissedmynose
Li
:Il
ovey
oumyangel
Ibl
ushedwhi
l
eIst
aredathi
sbi
gey
es.
Me:
Ilov
eyout
ooHadebe
Hi
m:howl
onghav
ewebeenmar
ri
edf
or?
Me:
6year
sinSept
ember
Ican'
tbel
i
eveit
sactual
l
ybeent hatl
ong,it
honest
lyf
eel
sli
keitwasjusty
esterdayt
hathe
wokeuponemor ni
ngandgavemet her
ing
Hi
m:anddoIst
il
lmakey
ouhappy
?
Me:
mor
ethanany
thi
ngandany
one
Hi
m:ev
enmor
ethant
heki
ds?
Me:yep.Iwoul
dn'
thav
ethem i
fitwasn'
tfory
ou
st
handwasam.
Hi
m: OKletmegohel
pthem getr
eadyt
hen
we'
l
lleav
e
Ashelef
ttheroom,
ItextedLi
yana,Lunat
hiand
Mil
a,weneededagir
ls'
day.Guguhadal r
eady
tol
dmeaboutherpl
answi t
hhersister
s.My
husbandandhiski
dsleft,l
eavi
ngmewithan
emptyhouse.Ichi
l
ledThewi neandmade
snacksandfrui
tpl
att
er.Thosewomenbetter
notexpectmetocookf ort
hem
Luna:
hel
l
o!Wear
eher
e
Goshmysi
steri
ssoloudandforapregnant
per
son,
shel
ooksabsolut
elygor
geous
Me:
I'
mint
heki
tchenf
ool
Liy
ana: whyi
syourhousesoqui
et?Wher
ear
e
therascal
s?
Theywal kedintotheki
tchen,Mil
abei
ngthat
l
astonet owalkin.Thi
sonehasbeendat i
ngmy
brotherfor5yearsbutsheissti
l
lasshyasever
aroundus.Ihuggedal lt
hreeofthem,Li
yana
gotthewi neglasseswhil
eLunathigr
abbedher
appleti
zer
Luna:Ican'
twai tf
orthi
sbabytobeout
.Iswear
Thabanihasn'tcar
edaboutmesincehefound
outIwaspr egnant.Al
lhecar
esabouti
shis
daught
er
Liy
ana: al
lmenarel
ikethatboo.Themoment
youareknockedup,youbecomet hebaby
carri
erandtheonl
ythingtheycar
eaboutist
he
cargo
Iledthem outi
ntothepoolareaandtot hedeck
chair
s,Liy
anapouredthewi neandwer elaxed.I
keepasmal lci
rcl
eforagoodr eason,
my
husbandisfrom afamousf amil
ysowenev er
knowwhohasgoodi ntent
ionswhentheywant
togetclosetous.
Me:
Mil
ahowi
sourbr
other
?
Shesmil
eswi
thherheadl
ower
ed,
Ist
il
lcan'
t
getov
erhowcut
esheis.
Mil
a:hei
sfi
ne.Heisi
nJo'
bur
gwi
thmybr
other
andmynephewthi
sweek
Luna:
yhoIhopet
heydon'
tki
l
lourbr
other
Mi
l
a:t
heyact
ual
l
ygetal
ong.Si
mbongei
s
al
waysgladt
ohavehim ar
oundandasf or
Mnqobi
,heli
kesact
ingt
oughfornoreason
Luna:serveshimr i
ght
.Laz
olahasbeenapai
n
i
nal l
myr elat
ionshi
pssofi
nall
yheisatt
he
recei
vingend
*
*
LOYI
SO

AsmuchasIam nott hemostal ertperson

wheni tcomestotheactionsofthef emal es,
I'
vepickeduptheweirdv i
besbetweenmy
girl
fri
endandmydaught er.Tshepiisn'
texactly
ababyany more,shei
st urni
ng13t hisyearand
Ithinkahugepartofherst i
l
lhashopet hat
mommyanddaddywi ll
getbackt ogether.After
Gugudr oveof
f,Iwentbacki nt
othehouse
Me:
babyhasmommysai
dwhenshei
s
f
etchi
ngy
ou?
Tshepi
:shesai
dyouhav
etot
akemehome?
Me:
andwhendi
dshesayt
hat
?
Her
:whenshedr
oppedmeof
f
Me:andyoudidn'
tthi
nktot
ellmesooner?
Tshepi
soIcan'
tjustf
lyt
oJo'bur
gwheneveryou
andyourmom makedecisi
onsandnotincl
ude
me
Her
:buty
oudi
dlasty
ear
.Remember
?
Isi
ghed, r
ubbedmyf oreheadthensatdown.I
fi
nishedmybr eakf
astthenri
nsedourplat
es.I
don'tunderstandwhyherandGugucan' tjust
getalong,theymeant hewor l
dtomeandIcan' t
compr omiset heonefortheother
Me:looknanaI'
l
lmakeaplanforuncl
eShaun
oruncleLi
mil
etotakeyoubacktoJo'
burg.I
havetogotoPEt opi
ckupyourbrot
hers
Her
:theyar
enotmybr
other
sandy
ourst
upi
d
gir
lf
ri
endisn'
tmymom.Idon'tunder
standhow
youcanjustbehappywit
hallt
hesepeopl
ethat
hurtmom.Ithoughtyoul
ovedmom
Me:TshepisoAnathiSmithyoubet terwatch
howy outal
ktomey oungl ady.I'
m stil
lyour
fat
herandallt
hisatt
itudeyouar ethrowingmy
waywi l
ll
eadmet obeat i
ngy ou.Ndizakbetha
mntanam youwon'tbeli
eveit.Siyevana?
Shekeptquiet
,reachedforherphoneand
star
tedpressi
ngi t
.Afewmi nut
eslat
er,my
phonerangandi twasTshegoandIknewwhat
thecal
lwasaboutsoIdecl i
nedthecall
Me: l
ist
entomeTshepi,Iloveyounana, wit
hal
l
thatIam.Youaremyonl ydaughterand
whateverhappensbet
weeny ourmot herandI
won'tchangehowIfeelaboutyouandy our
posit
ioninmylif
e
Her
:Iwantt
ogohomet
omor
row
Me:
babycomeon.Youst
il
lhav
eanot
herweek
t
ospendwi
thme
Her:Idon'twantyourgirl
fr
iendher
e.Idon'
t
wantt hetwinsher
e.Ijustwantitt
omej ustme
andy ouandmom.Shei scomi ngher
e
tomor row
LastthingIwil
lhav
eismy12yearolddaught
er
givi
ngmeul ti
matumsinmyhouse.Hermother
keptcalli
ngmesoIanswer
edasIheadedt o
thelounge
Me:
Tshego
Tshego: whatthehelli
sgoingont her
eLoyi
so?
Whyi smydaught ertexti
ngmet hatshei
sn'
t
happyandshewant stocomehome?Isweari f
thatgir
lf
riendofyoursismistr
eati
ngmy
daughter,Iwil
ldealwithher
IList
enedtohergoi
ngoffangri
l
yatmeand
didn'
tsayasi
nglewordunti
lshewasdone
Her
:Loy
isokebual
ewena
Me: ohyouar
edonenow?SoI
'
m al
l
owedt
o
speak?
Her
:don'
tbechi
l
dishpl
ease
Me:chil
dish?I
'
mt hechil
dishone?Youcall
me
shout
ingatme, t
hreat
eni
ngmygi rl
fr
iend
Her
:Idi
dn'
tthr
eat
enher
Me: shutup.I '
m notdonet alki
ng.Ikeptquiet
andgav eyouachancet ospeaksoy ouare
goingt odot hesame.Idon' tknowhowy ouare
rai
singTshepi t
hatsidebutIwi l
ldieandbe
buried6f eetunderbef oreIr ai
seabr atfora
daught er.Idon'
texpecthert oli
keGugubutshe
wil
l respectherandasf orSabel oandSambul o,
Iknowt hatyou'
vebeenf eedingherbul l
shit
aboutmysonsandt hat'
sf i
ne.Iunder st
andwhy
youf eelthatwaybutdon' tfuckupmy
daught er'
srelat
ionshipwi thherbrothersorwe
wil
l haveapr oblem
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Season2
I
nser
t21
"
Howt
obeast
epmot
her
"

GUGULETHU

Mbal
i
:wear
einabookst
ore
Me:
congr
atul
ati
onsf
orst
ati
ngt
heobv
ious
Her:
itwasmoreofaquest
ionact
ual
l
y.You
don'
treadandy
oudon'
thaveababy
Wewer eintownforourdayout
,Amahl
eand
Xol
ohwer einthearcadet
wodoorsawayandI
ontheotherhandhadnoideawhatIwas
l
ookingforbutIwasinthepar
enti
ngai
sle
Her:waitunl
essy
ouandbhut
'Loy
isoar
e
expect
ing
Me:
woah!Rel
axgi
rl
y.Noonei
sexpect
ing
any
thi
ng.Act
ual
l
ylet
'sgof
indAmahl
eand
Xol
oh
Wewal kedoutt hebookshop, Iwastryingmy
besttoignoreherquest i
onsandcomment sbut
tr
uthbet oldIwasf eel
ingal i
ttl
eovermyhead.
Theboy saremov ingininaf ewday sandIdon'
t
knowhowt oevenhandl eitandwhatmakes
matterswor sei
st hatLoyisodidn'
tevencheck
howIf eelaboutthewhol ething.I
nsteadhe
madet hedecisi
on
Amahle:t
womoreweekst
henschool
opens.
I
'm notl
ooki
ngf
orwar
dtoi
t
Mbal
i
:that
'sbecausey
oudon'
thav
efr
iends
Amahle:
what ev
er.Si
s'Guguwhencanwego
st
ati
onaryshopping?
Me:probabl
yduri
ngtheweekend.I
'
m going
backt
owor knextweekandIwashopingyou
guyswouldn'
tmindvi
sit
ingmama
Isawt
hei
rfaceschangeandIknewt
heywon'
t
buyintothati
deabutIhadtot r
y.I
'mt i
redofmy
motheraccusingmeoft aki
ngherkidsf r
om her
,
thewomancal lstoswearatmeev eryti
me
they
'vefedhernicel
yatSophie'
starven
Mbali
:Idon'
tmind.Thul
a'
smom want
stosee
Xol
ohany way
I
'veactuall
ymadepiecewithherrel
ati
onshi
p
withtheKhumalosbecauseattheendofday
Thulaisthefat
herofherchi
ldandXolohisn'
t
mychi l
d
Amahl
e:wel
lI'
m notgoi
ngt
her
e
Me:Mahleyoucan'
tst
ayatthef
latal
one.Nana
i
sn'
thereandifMbal
igoeshome,whowill
look
af
tery
ou?
Amahle:I
'mt
urni
ng16si
sGugu,
Idon'
tneeda
baby
sitt
er
Me:
Idon'
tknowaboutt
his
Wehadl
unch,
Iboughtt
hem af
ewi
tems,
cl
ot hesandt oi
l
etr
iesthenIdrovethem tomy
fl
atandst ayedwiththem.Wecooked, tal
ked
nonsenseandact uall
yhadfun.Wi t
hthenew
mani nmyl i
fe,Ihavebeensidetracki
ngmy
si
ster l
yduti
es.Myphoner angjustaft
erwehad
fi
nishedeating
Me:
heyl
ove
Loy
iso:
nanaz
iar
en'
tyoucomi
ngback?
Me:
Iam,
itsst
il
lear
lyt
hough
Hi
m:Gugui
t'
shal
f9
Me:
ohshi
t
Wemusthavel
ostt
rackofti
mebecausel
ast
t
imeIl
ookedatt
hewatchitwashal
f5
Me:
wel
ostt
rackoft
ime
Hi
m:shoul
dIf
etchy
ou?
Me:
noi
tsf
ine.I
'
lll
eav
eint
henext30mi
ns
Hi
m:dr
ivesaf
ely
.Il
ovey
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
WehungupandIwasn' tsoexci t
edabout
l
eavingbutknowi ngmyman, hei sv erymuch
capableoff et
chingme.Idishedupf orhim and
hisdaught ert
hensaidmygoodby esbefore
dri
vingof f
.Itookinadeepbr eathandsl owly
exhaledast hecarcamet oahal t.Itookmybag
andt helunchboxandgotoutt hecar .The
momentTshepi sawme, sher oll
edherey es
andf ocusedonherphone.Herf atherwasn'tin
theroom
Me:
hey
Tshepi
:hi
Me:
wher
eisy
ourf
ather
?
Sheshr uggedhershoulderswhil
enoteven
l
ooki ngatme.Yhot hi
schi l
dwill
makemehate
al
l chil
drenontheplanet.Iswearshej
ust
drainstheli
feoutofme
Me:
uhm Ibr
oughtf
ood.Feel
freet
odi
shupf
or
y
our
sel
f
Her
:hmmm
Iplacedthelunchboxesi nthekitchenandwent
tofindmyman.Atl eastIknowhewi l
lputa
smi l
eonmyf ace.Thesoundsoft heshower
runningaler
tedmet hathewast akingashower
soIt ookmycl othesoffandopenedt he
bathroom doorthent hesli
dingglassdoor .He
l
ookedatmewi thaslightsmil
easIwr apped
myar msaroundhi m
Loy
iso:
heybaby
Me:
hey
Heki
ssedmyforeheadandIletoutasi
gh.I
di
dn'
tevenr
eal
izethatIwasholdi
ngmybreath
Hi
m:Imi
ssedy
out
oday
Me:
Imi
ssedy
out
oo
Wehadther
estoft
heshoweri
npeaceful
si
l
encet
hengotoutaf
terawhi
l
e.Igotdressed
i
nhisboxersandat
ankt
opwhi
l
ehej
ustwor
e
hi
sboxers
Me:
didy
ouguy
seat
?
Hi
m:y
eahweor
der
edpi
zza
Me:
oh.Ihadbr
oughtf
oodbuti
tsf
ine
Hi
m:whocooked?
Me:
Mbal
iandI
Hi
m:pl
easedi
shupf
orme.Justabi
tthough
AsmileCr
eptonmyf
acet
henhesmi
l
edbef
ore
pecki
ngmyli
ps
Me:
Ithoughty
ouwer
eful
l
Hi
m:mymom r
aisedmetonevert
urndown
f
oodt
hatmywi
fehascooked.I
tsof
fensi
ve
Mysmi l
ebroadenedasIgotofthecouchand
headedtot
hedoor .Hewasr i
ghtbehi
ndme,
busysmackingmyassandt ickl
i
ngme.His
daught
ergaveust hest
inkyeyethemomentwe
walkeddownt
hest
air
sthenshecamet
othe
ki
tchen
Tshepi
:daddy
Loy
iso:
yesNana
Tshepi
:mom say
sherf
li
ghti
sat7am ngomso
Loy
iso:
soy
ouar
eleav
ingt
omor
row?
Tshepi
:wellIwashopi
ngmom canst
ayunt
il
nextweekend.
Ipret
endedt obefocusingonthedishi
ngupI
wasdoingwhi leIawaitedhi
sresponse.Ihope
hedoesn'texpectmet obeunderthesamer oof
ashisperfectexwife.Thatwomanmakesme
doubtmyownbeaut y
Loyi
so:OKuzawuhl
alaphi
umamakhoxaef
ika
apha?
Tshepi
:ri
ghther
ewi
thmeandy
ou
Loyi
so:
hai
boTshepi
soy
ouknowGugul
i
ves
her
ewithme.
Ihel
dmybreat
h,pl
acedtheplat
einthe
micr
owav
eandcontinuedl
ist
ening
Tshepi
:can'tshegost
ayel
sewher
ewhi
l
emom
i
shere.Giveussomefamil
yti
me
Wowzat hi
schil
dhatesmehey ,
thehat
eison
anotherl
evel
.Iwai
tedpat
ient
lyfort
he
microwavetobedonesoIcangosleepthi
sday
off
Loyi
so:sugezaTshepiso!Umamakhocan
checki
ntoahot el
xauf unauhl
alaiv
iki
y onke
butIwon'thavemygi r
lf
ri
endputint
oan
uncomfortabl
eposit
ionbecauseofher.Asoze.
Tshepi:
goshev erythi
ngisaboutyourgi
rl
fr
iend.
Shehast akenovery ourl
i
fetat
asomucht hat
youdon'tevenhav espaceformnanomama.
Nextthi
ngy ou'
llhavebabieswit
hherandforget
all
aboutme.Ihat ey ouandIhateyouaswell
wenaGugu
Iwat
chedherst
orm outt
heki
tchenwhi
l
eher
fat
hercall
edafterherandshedi dn'
tbother
eventurni
ngaround.Hesighed, r
ubbedhis
for
eheadandshuthi seyes.Themi crowave
announceditwasdonesoIt ookhisplat
eout
andservedhim.Itseemsy onkelentowithhi
s
daughteri
sputti
nghimt hroughthemost
Me:I
'l
ljustgotot
hefl
at.Mbal
ii
sgoinghome
onFri
dayanywayandAmahledoesn'
twantt
o.
I
'l
lj
uststaywit
hher
Loyi
so:youarenotgoinganywher
eGugu.
Tshegoisn'
tst
ayinginmyhouseandTshepi
needstogetoverherli
tt
lebr
att
ybehav
ior
Me:maybeshej
ustwant
stospendt
imewi
th
bot
hherpar
ents
Him: t
hesoonersheunderst
andst hather
parentsaredi
vorced,t
hebet
ter.Il
ov emy
daughterbutherbehavi
ori
sstarti
ngt opi
ssme
off
Hewasangr
yandIdon'
tthi
nkI
'
veev
erseen
him angrysorightnowIdi dwhatIf
eltwasright
andgav ehim space.Igotint
obedandst ar
ted
texti
ngSbuonWhat sApp.Asmuchashi s
brotherandInev erworkedout,
heissti
ll
my
fri
end
Sbu:
whenar
eyouv
isi
ti
ngJo'
bur
g?
Me:
hopef
ull
ysomet
imesoon.Ineedabr
eat
her
Hi
m:why
?Tr
oubl
einpar
adi
se?
Me:no.Loyi
soandIar
egr
eat
.Abr
eat
herf
rom
t
hisci
tycoul
ddomesomegood
Iwouldnev
erdi
sclosemyr elat
ionshi
p
probl
emstoaguyf ri
end.Sbuislikeabrot
hert
o
mebutIknowhewoul dn'
tthi
nktwiceabout
di
sclosi
ngmyproblemst oBonga
Hi
m:well
comethr
oughanyti
me.Itwi
l
lbegr
eat
t
oseeyoupl
usNkul
eisthi
ssideaswell
Me:
hei
s?Why
?
Hi
m:heboughtt
wot
axi
ssot
heyoper
atet
his
si
de.Al
othaschangedi
nthepasty
ear
AsIt ypedmyr esponse,Loyi
sowalkedsoI
stoppedt ypi
ngandputmyphoneasi de.He
cl
imbedi nbed, gett
ingontopofmecausi ngmy
skintof i
l
lupwi thgoosebumps.Hispeniswas
semi erectasitpressedonmyt hi
gh
Loy
iso:
Iwantt
omakel
ovet
oyou
Iswal
lowedhardashebur i
edhisheadonmy
neck,
kissedandsucki
ngonmyski n.I
tdidn'
t
takel
ongf ormetobereadyforhim becauseI
waswetbyt heti
meheposi t
ionedhimselfat
myentrance
Me:
condom baby
Him:I'
ll
pul
lout
.Ri
ghtnowIdon'
twantany
thi
ng
betweenus
Iwantedt
oobj
ectbutt
hemomenthethr
ust
i
nsidemeIwasgone.Mynai
l
sdugdeepl
yint
o
hi
sbackasmymoansf i
ll
edt
heroom.Hewas
sl
ow, t
aki
nghi
sti
memakinglov
etomeasif
t
hiswasourl
astdayonear
th
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ousomuchnanazi
Hepl acedakissonmyf oreheadandConti
nued
excreti
ngpleasur
eallovermybody .Mybody
washi stohaveatthatmomentandhewas
taki
ngcar eofitj
ustt
hewayIwant edhimto.
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Season2
I
nser
t22
"
Bet
heener
gyy
ouwantt
oat
tract
"

ABONGI
WE

Theki dsandIwer evisi

tingmydadand
MaNt ombi foraweekendbef or
eschools
reopened.Theboy slovet hei
rgrandf
atherand
Usithandil
elovesthekitchenwhi chMaNtombi
entertai
nsherin.Theol dermykidsget,the
olderIfeel
.It'
sasifI'
llgot obedonenightand
wakeupt oKuhlebeinginhighschool .I
'
m not
readyforanyoft hatandithasnev erbeena
secretthatIfeargrowth.Whil
emyki dswere
beingentertai
nedbyt hei
rgrandparents,Iwas
spendingmydayr eadingabooki nthegarden.
Relaxati
onati t
sbest.Hubbycalledandmy
heartdidbackfli
ps
Me:
MrHadebe
Li
:hel
l
oMr
sHadebe
Me:
unj
ani
myl
ove?
Him:
ndi
kukhumbul
ebaby
.Whenar
eyouguy
s
comi
ngback?
Me:haibomyeniwam, wel
efty
est
erdayand
youarealr
eadymissi
ngus?
Hewasj ustbei
ngdramat i
c.Iwasmi ssi
nghim
toobutnottotheextentofwanti
ngt ogoback
homealready.Thisr
ightherei
sperfect,
absencemakest heheartgrowfonderanyway
Hi
m:Imi
ssy
ouev
erymi
nut
eyouar
enotnext
t
ome
Me:
wel
ll
ucki
l
yfory
ousi
yabuy
aksasa
Him:
goodbecauseIhav
eaner
ect
iont
hesi
ze
ofat
ower
Il
aughed,genuinel
ylaughedbecauseIwasn't
expect
ingthat.I
tsLi
mi l
eaft
erallsoIshoul
d
haveexpectedit
Me:
Godgav
eyouhandsst
handwasam
Him:heal
sogav
emeumfazi
whov
owedt
o
keepmefedi
never
yway
Icont
inuedl
aughi
ngunt
ilmystomachwassore.
Myhusbandisthecr
azi
estper
sononthepl
anet
Me:
youar
esopsy
cho
Him:
andundi
thandandi
nje.Baphi
abant
wana
bam?
Me:
wit
hthei
rgr
andpar
ent
s
Hi
m:kant
iuphi
wena?
Me:
I'
m out
side.Basendl
i
nibona
Wecont i
nuedtal
ki
ngf or10mor eminutesthen
hungup.Bytheendoft hecall,Ij
ustwantedt o
geti
nmycaranddr i
vet omyhusband.
Tomorrowsuddenlyfelttoofaraway.Iclosed
mybookt henwentbacki nsi
det hehouse
Usi
:mamagogoandIar
emaki
ngcupcakes
Me:
Ihopewewon'
tdi
e
Usi
:hawmama
Shelookeddi
sappoi
nted.Yhohay
ikeLi
mil
e'
s
daughteri
sasdramati
casherfat
her
Me:I
'mjustj
oki
ngbaby
.I'
m sur
etheyt
ast
e
amazi
ng
IhadaskedMaNtombinott
ocookbecauseI
wantedspurri
bsf
orsupper
.Theboy
swant ed
tocomewi t
hwhenIdrovet
othemallsoIl
et
them
Me:I'
m notbuy
ingsweets,
chipsorany
thi
ng.
Justt
hefoodandwear edri
vi
ngbackhome
Oy
int
ando:
I'
mthi
rst
ymama
Kuhl
e:y
eahmet
oomama
Me:
wel
lyou'
l
ldr
inkwat
erwhenwegethome
Kuhl
e:butmom
?
?:gett
heki
dsmi
l
kshakesAbongi
we
Thiscaughtmebysur pr
iseandwhenItur
ned
around,Il
i
ter
all
yscreamedwhenIsawwhoi t
was.Hesmi l
edbeforegivi
ngmeawar m hug.
Me:
ohmygosh.Dudehowl
onghasi
tbeen?
AJ:
Idon'
tev
enknowhey
.Howhav
eyoubeen?
Me: I
'
vebeengoodandyou?WowIcan'
tbel
i
eve
I
'm actual
l
yseei
ngyou
Him:
I'
vebeenOKhey.Ir
ecent
lygotdi
vor
ced
andI
'm asi
ngl
edadnow
Justt
henhi
ssonappr
oachedus,
weexchanged
gr
eeti
ngsthenhewentt
oplaywithmysons
whi
leIcaughtupwi
thhi
sfather
Me:
div
orce?
Him:wegrewapar
tandIguesswewer
ejust
nevermeantt
obe
Me:
I'
m sosor
ry
Him:thanks.Youseem happy
.Mar
ri
agel
i
fei
s
t
reat
ingy ouwellIsee
Ismi l
ed.Well
that
'snotal i
e.Mymarriageisn'
t
perfectbutmyhusbandl ovesmeperfect
ly.We
exchangednumber sbeforewewentour
separateways.Whenwegothomet heboy sran
totellmydadthatIref
usedt ofeedt
hem
Me:youguy
sdoreal
i
sethatyoul
efty
ourdadi
n
Dur
banandthi
sismydadri
ght?
Dad:
leav
emygr andsonsal
onewenaAbongi
we
andmakethem j
uice
Me:
theyar
etoospoi
l
ed.I
'
llmaket
hem sugar
wat
er.Thatshoul
dhumbl
ethem j
ustabi
t
Dad:
Ibought5l
ofor
osf
orar
eason
Me:
spoi
l
ed
ThenextdayafterchurchwehadSundaylunch
andthekidsandIwentbackhome.The
weekendwi t
hmydadwasexact l
ywhatI
wantedittobe.Rel
axing.Myhusbandcal
l
ed
j
ustbeforewegothome
Me:
wear
eal
mosthome
Li
:changeofpl
ans.Dr
opt
hekidsoffwi
thGugu
andLoyisot
hencomehome.We'l
lpi
ckthem up
l
ater
Ismi
l
edt
omysel
f
Me:
whatar
eyouupt
obabakaUsi
thandi
l
e
Hi
m:nothi
ng.Loy
isowant
sthem t
obondwi
th
t
hetwi
ns
Yeahr
ight
.Asi
fI'
dbedumbenought
obuyt
hat
*
*
GUGULETHU
BythetimeTshegoar ri
ved,herhotelroom was
bookedandr eadyforher.AsmuchasTshepi
tri
edtoplayeveryemotionalbl
ackmai lcar
din
thedeck,mymanst oodhisground.Idon't
knowhowmanyt i
mest hebratt
ypreteenthrew
thewordhateatus, moreespecial
lymebutI
couldn'
tbebothered
Loyi
so:nanaziIhavetogointotheoff
icef
ora
fewhours.Thereisanurgentboardmeeti
ng
Me:Loy
isoyoucan'
tl
eav
e.Yourwi
fei
scomi
ng
ov
erherei
nanhour
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Him:exwifebabyandsheisjustf
etchi
ng
TshepisoIdoubtshewi
llevencomei n
Me:
andi
fshedoes?
Him: i
tsnotli
keshewilldoanyt
hingt
oy ou.
Relaxlove.Thi
sisyourhomeandshei sthe
guest.Nottheotherwayaround
Me:
hmm
Hi
m: r
elaxnanazi
.Wannagi
vemeaquickbl
ow
j
obintheshower?Justt
ocal
myournerv
es
Hehadt hatslygri
nofhi s,
Ihithi
m wi t
hapi ll
ow
becauseIwasnotent ertai
nedbyhi mr i
ghtnow.
Thisisn'
tfunny.Webot hgotoutofbed, he
headedtot heshowerwhi l
eIwashedmyf ace,
brushedmyt eeththenmadet hebedand
openedthewi ndows.Imadeaqui ckbreakfast
forhim,eggsandsausagewi t
htoastandj uice.
Ialsomademy selfmuesliandyogurtthensat
ont hehi
ghchai r
swhilegoingthroughmy
socialmediaaccounts
Tshepi
:wher
eismyf
ood?
Me:
mor
ningTshepi
so
Her
:OK.Sowher
eismyf
ood?Iwantmuesl
ias
wel
l
Me: wel
lit
sinthepantr
ybabygi
rlandt
he
yogurti
sinthefr
idge
Her
:I'
m goi
ngt
otel
lmydad
Loy
iso:
tel
lmewhat
?
Il
ift
edmyheadf rom myphone, l
ockedeyes
wit
hmyv er
ysexymanwhowi nkedatme
causingmyv agi
natogetmoistinseconds.He
ki
ssedhisdaughter
'sfor
ehead
Loy
iso:
mor
ningnana
Tshepi
:morni
ngdaddy
.Yourgi
rl
fr
ienddoesn'
t
wanttofeedme
Loyisorai
sedaney ebr
owwhil
eIj
ustr
oll
edmy
eyes.IswearI
'm counti
ngt
heday
sunti
lthi
s
chil
dleaves
Loy
iso:
Guguisn'
tyourmai
d.Youknowhowt
o
makeyourownbreakf
ast
Tshepi
:mxm f
ine.I
'
llj
usteatwhenmom get
s
her
e
Loy
iso:yourchoicebaby
.Tell
yourmom I
'
llst
op
bythehotelaf
termymeet i
ng
Igavehi
m hisfoodthencont
inuedeat
ingmi
ne
whil
ehisdaughterj
ustl
ookedatus
Loyi
so:
thanksbabe.I
'
llseey
oui
nanhouror
two
Her insedhi splate,ki
ssedmet henleft
.I
cleanedar oundt hehouse, notthatitwasdi r
ty
sincet hehel perwasher eyesterdaythentooka
shower .Iwor eanoliv
egr eenshor tdr
ess,fi
xed
myhai rthenwentbackdownst air
s.Tshepiwas
alreadydr essedandwai tingforhermot her.I
pour edmy selfaglassofjuicethenwentinto
thelounge
Tshepi
:I'
m goi
ngt
otel
lmymom ev
ery
thi
ng
Me:goahead.I
'
m notscar
edofyourmom and
youarest
upi
difyouthi
nkyourl
ametri
ckswil
l
work
Her
:Ihat
eyou
Me:
tel
lmesomet
hingIdon'
tknow
Justthent herewasabuzzont heintercom and
sheranatl ightni
ngspeed.Afewmi nuteslater
,
hermot herwal kedi
nlooki
ngeversof lawless
whichmademyhear tj
umpt omythr oat.Ihate
howinferiorthiswomanmakesmef eel
Tshego:
hel
l
oGugu
Me:
hi
Tshego:
isLoy
isoar
ound?
Ishookmyheadandshemadeher
sel
f
comfort
abl
e
Tshego:ohgood.Iwashopi
ngwecoul
dt al
k
womant owoman.IwishIcoul
dsaymotherto
motherbutohwell
Iwantedtolaughyaz,l
i
keser
iousl
ylaughbutI
chosenotto.Inst
eadIadj
ust
edmysi tt
ing
posi
ti
onandl ookedather
Tshego:It
houghtyouandIhadan
underst
andi
ngwithregar
dstomydaught
er
Me: andwhatunderstandingwast hatexactl
y?
Becauset hewayIrememberi t,
y outoldmenot
tohar myourdaughterandthatifIrespectyou
ashermot her
,youwil
lrespectmeasLoy i
so's
gir
lf
riend
Shesmi l
edt
hencrossedherar
msacr
ossher
chestandst
aredatme.Imadesur
etost
are
ri
ghtbackather
Tshepi:shei
smeant omemommyanddad
al
way sshoutsatmewhenshei
sar
ound.Dad
neverusedtoshoutatme
Tshego: whenmydaught erisunhappy,t
he
clawsr eall
ycomeout .IknowLoy isoi
s
probablyst i
ll
pussywhi ppedthat'
swhyhei s
actinglikethi
sbutasf oryou,star
tknowing
yourplaceLi tt
legi
rlbeforeIdragyoutoit
my self
Ihear
dthedooropenandwit
hinami
nut
e
Loyi
sostoodi
nthelounge
Loy
iso:
Tshego
Tshego:wewerejustl
eavi
ng.Thanksf
ort
he
chatGugu.Tshepil
et'
sgobaby
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Season2
I
nser
t23
"
Theki
ngal
way
spr
otect
shi
squeen"

LOYI
SO
Ionlyreali
zedwhenIgott ot heoff
icethatIhad
l
eftoneoft hef i
l
esathomewhi chmeantIhad
todriveallthewaybackbecauseal lthedriver
s
werest il
lonl eave.WhenIsawTshego' scar
parkedi nthedr i
v eway,It
ookinadeepbr eath
andsl owlyexhal ed.Idon'
tneeddramar ight
now, especiallywiththi
sbigmeetingI'm alr
eady
goingt obel atefor
Me:
Tshego
Sheturnedtolookatmeandmyey esshift
edto
averynervousGuguonthecouch.Tshegohad
bet
ternotthrownherbul
l
shi
tatmygi rl
fr
iend
Tshego:wewerejustl
eavi
ng.Thanksf
ort
he
chatGugu.Tshepil
et'
sgobaby
Me: nahhol
donjustasecond.Didn'
tweagree
thatyouwerenott
ocomei nt
ot hi
shouseifI
'm
nothere?
Tshego:
Tshepi
wasn'
treadywhenIar
ri
ved
Me:
so?Whynotwai
tiny
ourcar
?
Shedidn'
trespond,Icouldtel
lshewasaboutt
o
givemeatti
tudesoIr ai
sedoneey ebr
owandif
therei
soneper sonthatknowswhatthat
means,it
smyexwi fe
Me:I'
m goi
ngtodropbyyourhot
ellat
er.There
ar
eaf ewthi
ngsthatweneedtostr
aightenout.
Nanazipl
easef
oll
owme.Ineedy ourhelpwit
h
somet
hing
Il
ovethiswoman, moreespeciall
ybecauseshe
i
sthefurthestthi
ngfrom crazy.Sheisquiet
,
somemi ghtmi st
akethatforweakbutshei sas
str
ongast heycome.Themomentwewal ked
i
ntothestudy,Iwrappedmyar msar oundher
andbroughtherclosetome.Ipl acedalong
ki
ssonherf oreheadandinhaleddeeplythen
sl
owlyletmybr eathout
Me:
arey
ouOK?
Shenodded.Itookast epback, li
ftedherchi
n
soshewoul dlookatme.I fonl ysheknewhow
muchpowershehasov erme, howI '
dbr i
ngthe
worl
datherf eetathersimpl er equest.Ther
eis
not
hingi
nt hisworldIwoul dn'tdof orher
Me:
arey
ousur
e?
Gugu:
I'
ll
bef
inebaby
Me:OKIhavetorushbackt
otheoff
icebut
whenIgetbackI
'
mt aki
ngyouout
.
Me:
thatwoul
dbeni
ce
Iki
ssedherli
psslowly,
Ifoundmysel
fget
ti
ng
tur
nedonthespot.That'
showweakIbecome
atthesi
mplestofint
imatemoments
Her
:pl
easegobef
oreyouar
eextremel
ylat
efor
t
hemeeti
nganddon'
tfor
getyourfi
l
e
Me:
Ilov
eyounanazi
Shesmi l
ed.ShelovesitwhenIcallhert
hat.I
grabbedmyf il
e,ki
ssedheragainandwalked
outthestudy.Tomysur pr
ise,
Tshegoand
Tshepiwerestil
lhere
Me:
andnow?
Tshepi:ar
eyougoi
ngt
ojoi
nusaf
tery
our
meeting?
Me: Tshepisothisi
syourdaytospendwith
yourmot her.Ihavet
hingstodo.I'
l
lseey
ou
guyslaterwhenIcomet al
ktoyourmom.Come
masambe
Iwasn' tleavingt hem heretoterrori
zemy
girl
fr
iendagai n.Themeet i
ngdr aggedonf or
hoursbecauset hedirectorscouldn'tagreeon
simplet hings.Anot heronewi thlawy erswas
schedul edf ormont hend.Idr oveoutt heoffi
ce,
grabbedf oodandwi neanddr ov ehome.Iwas
exhaust edandment al
lydrained.Goi ngout
wasn'tgoi ngt ohappenany mor e.Ismi l
edto
my selfwhenIsawt heladywhoownsmyhear t
sleepingpeacef ull
yont hecouch.AsIwas
aboutt owakeherupwi thakiss, myphone
rang
Me:
Tshego
Tshego:
arey
oust
il
lcomi
ng?
Isighed.Myhandwentf
ormyhai
randI
rougheditupabit
Me:
yeahgi
vemeaf
ewmi
nut
es
Iki
ssedGugu'
sli
psthemomentIhungup.She
smil
edthensl
owlyopenedherey
es
Me:
hey
Gugu:
hi.Whendi
dyougether
e
Me:now.Jongast
handwasam,t
hemeeting
dr
aggedonandngokIhavetogoseeTshego
Her
:oh
Me:uxolomylov
e.Ibroughtf
oodandwecan
gooutforbr
eakf
astngomso
Her
:al
ri
ght
Ipeckedherli
psthenwentt ochangei
nto
denim shor
tsandaT- shi
rt
.WhenIgottothe
hotel
,Tshepiwasasleepont hebed
Me:let'
stal
kont
hebal
cony
.Idon'
twanthert
o
hearthi
s
If
oll
owedherout
Tshego:beforeyousayanyt
hing,Ij
ustwantyou
toknowt hatwhatev
eryourgi
rlf
ri
endtoldyou
i
sn'thowi ti
s
Me:shedidn'
ttel
lmeanythi
ngandI'm nother
e
t
otalkaboutGugu.Iwanttotal
kaboutTshepi
Mydaughteri
sabr atandIhatei
t.I
t'
sher
mother
'sf
ault
,Iknowshef eedsherbul
l
shi
t
aboutme
Her
:OK
Me: st
optel
li
ngmydaught ercr
apaboutme.I
mayhav ebeenacr aphusbandt oyoubutI '
ve
alwaysbeenagr eatfat
hertomychi l
dren.You
haveyourownl i
fenow, you'
vemov edonandl et
medot hesamei npeace.I'
mtrust
ingyout o
rai
semychi l
dpr oper
lynottouseherfory our
ownv endet
tas.Recti
fythisshi
tTshegoorel se
I'
llt
akemychi l
d
*
*
GUGULETHU
Icoul
dn'
thel
pbutwonderwhatwashappeni
ng
i
nt hathotelroom.Myowni nsecur it
ieswer e
messingwi thmebecausesuddenl yIpictured
whatBongaputmet hrough.Ican' tt
rustababy
mamawi thmymanany mor e.Ibreathedouta
sighofreli
efwhenLoy i
sowal kedt hrought he
doorjustanhouraf terhehadl eft.Iwasev en
mor erel
ievedwhenIdi dn'tseehi sbratty
daughter.Aweekl aterTshegol eftwi t
hTshepi
whenSabel oandSambul oar ri
ved.Nowt hese
twoar emyabsol utefavori
tes.Theyknowme,
theyareareusedt omeandIt hinktheyloveme.
Sabel
o:dadsay
swemustcal
lyoumama
Loy
iso:
dadsai
d?Whendi
ddadsayt
hat
?
Sambul
o:ngoknj
enat
atahaw
Loyi
so:theyaskedi
fit
sOKt
ocal
lyout
hatandI
sai
dy es
Me:
oh
Loyiso:unl
essyouar
enotcomfor
tabl
ewi
thi
t
thentheycancall
yousomethi
ngel
se
Sabel
o:pl
easebecomf
ort
abl
ewi
thi
t
Ilaughedtomy self.Theseboy saretoocut e
andIlovethatI'vebuil
tabi tofar elati
onship
withthem.Whenwewentt of etchthem I
rememberLoy iso'smom t ell
ingmet hatthey'
ve
neverhadamot her'sl
ove.They '
vehadt hei
r
grandmotherbutnotamot her.Iwasadv i
seda
l
otaboutthem andIcoul dtell t
hatshewas
havingadiff
icultti
mel ett
ingt hem go
Me:
I'
m comf
ort
abl
ewi
thi
t
Sambul
o:y
eeey
!Nowwehav
eamamanoTat
a
Loy
iso:
OKboy
sgetoutofher
e.
Theyranoutthedoorwit
hthei
rbal
li
ntot
he
backyar
dandLoy i
sowrappedhi
sarmsaround
mef r
om theback,ki
ssi
ngmyneckandmaking
mesmi l
eendlessl
y
Him:ar
ey ousure?IthinkI
'
veover
whelmedyou
alotwi
thmyki ds.Ineedtomakesur
ey ouar
e
comfor
table
Me:
Iam comf
ort
abl
e
Him:enkosi
.Iknowwehav en'tbeentoget
her
forl
ongandI'v
ealreadyputyouthroughalotof
drama
Me:
itsl
i
febaby
.
Him:whenyoursi
ster
scloseforschool
,they
cancomehere.Thehouseisbigenoughforall
ofus.Xol
ohandNanacanmov eintomorrow
Me:
Loy
iso
Hi
m:onl
yify
ouar
ecomf
ort
abl
ewi
thi
t
Somanychangesinasuchashortspaceof
ti
me.I
thasn'
tbeenayearandal
readyitf
eel
s
l
ikei
t'
sbeen15years
Me:I
'l
ltal
ktot
hem f
ir
st.I
'
llcal
lMbal
iabout
Xol
ohandgetbackt
oy ou
Il
oveLoyi
soandIcantel
lthathelov
esmebut
I'
veal
sopi
ckedupthatheisinarushtoset
tl
e
downandI'
m onl
y30.Mylifebasi
cal
lyst
art
ed
5year
sago, I'
m st
il
lcatchingupwi t
ht herestof
thepeoplemyage.Thef oll
owingweekXol oh
andNanamov edin,Loyi
soandIwer egoing
backtowor ksoNanabei ngaroundwas
benefi
cialfortheboy saswel l
.Hersalarytri
pled
soshedi dn'tcomplain
Me:
happynewy
earf
ri
end
Sena:
wai
tar
eyoudr
ivi
ngt
hatX6?
Me:
yep
Loyi
solovedhisBent
leyt oomuchsoIdr ov
ehi
s
X6.Wecan'tshowupt owor ktogetherfor
obvi
ousreasons.West i
l
l havetoremain
prof
essi
onalbecauserelati
onshipsbetween
staf
fmember sareprohi
bi t
ed
Her
:wow.Someonehasbeensav
ing.I
'
m happy
f
oryouf
ri
end
Wetalkedaboutourholi
dayst
henIgottowork.
Idi
dn'
tseemymanal lday,
Iwasswampedwi th
workbuthemadesur etohavelunchdel
i
ver
ed
tomyof fi
ce.Loyi
sohashi smoment s.On
valent
ine'
sdayhehadev er
ythingplanned,
bookedoutanent i
rerestaur
antandabandt o
perfor
mf orusbutIwassosi ck.Icaughta
stomachbugf rom oneoftheki dsprobabl
y
becauseschoolswer eopen
Me:
I'
m sor
ry
Ihadmyheadf aci
ngthetoi
l
etbowl
,hewas
holdingmyweaveandIhadthr
ownupfort
he
mill
iontht
imet
oday
Loyi
so:i
t'
sOKnanazi
.Justgetbet
teral
ready
.
Youarescar
ingme
Me:
I'
llbef
ine.Getthatmixt
ureQhawet
oldy
ou
t
ogiveme.Itshoul
dwor k
Hi
m:y
ounev
ergotsi
ckbef
oret
heki
dsmov
ed
i
n
Ir
insedmymout
h,spl
ashi
nghi
m wi
thwat
eron
hi
sf ace
Hi
m:whatwast
hatf
or?
Me:
leav
emyki
dsal
oneandgot
owor
kpl
ease
Hi
m:I
'm notl
eav
ingYouher
eal
onewhi
l
eyou
ar
esi
ck
Me:
Nanai
sher
e
Wehear dsortknocksonthedoort
heni
t
opened.Sabelo,SambuloandXol
ohwal
kedi
n
andLoyisojumpedof ft
hebed
Loy
iso:
stopr
ightt
her
e!
Mypoorbabi
esgotaf
ri
ghtandf
rozeont
he
spot
Me:
Loy
isomahn
Loy
iso:
whatdoy
ouwant
?
Sambul
o:wewantmama
Loy
iso:
mamai
ssi
ck
Sambul
o:hawy
oumademamasi
ckt
ata
Loy
iso:
noy
oudi
d
Sabel
o:t
atasukakal
ok
Hewasblockingthem andSabel
okeptpeaki
ng
atmefrom t
hesides.Heisthestubbor
none
andSambuloisthe21questi
onsperminut
eone
Sambul
o:what
'swr
ongwi
thmama?
Loy
iso:
shei
ssi
ck
Sambul
o:ewebutunant
oni
?
Loy
iso:
uwugqi
rhawenangok?
Sabel
o:y
hot
atanawe.Sukahaw
Me:
mov
eoutt
hewayLoy
iso
HemovedandXolohwast
hef
ir
stonet
orunt
o
meandjumponthebed
Loyi
so:
theyr
uinedmyv
alent
inesdaypl
ansl
ast
ni
ght
Me:
got
owor
k
Loyi
so:
mxm I
'
m notl
ovedwheny
ourbabi
esar
e
her
e
Me:
youar
emybi
ggestbaby
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Season2
I
nser
t24
"
Takei
tall
onedayatat
imeandenj
oyt
he
j
our
ney.
"

GUGULETHU
Wi t
hintwoday sIwasf eeli
ngbetterandluckil
y
i
twasaSat urdaysoIgott ospendtimewi th
Loyisoandt hekids.Hewasst i
llf
ussingthatit
s
thekidsthatmadesi ck.WhatIdi dn't
understandwaswhatwasheexpect i
ngt o
happennow?MustIst ayawayf rom them?The
dramat hatcomeswi tht hi
smanofmi ne
somet i
messhocksev enme.Wedeci dedto
takethekidstouShaka, Abongiweandherki ds
will
alsobej oi
ningus.
Loy
iso:
arey
ousur
eyouar
eupf
ort
his?Wear
e
goi
ngt
obeoutt
heent
ir
eday
Me:I
'mf i
nebabyandpl easestopact
ingasi
fI
hadcancer.Justanupsetstomach
Hi
m:wel
li
tupsetmeaswel
l
Me:
let
'sj
ustt
akeashowerandgo
Themomentwegotundert
hewat
er,hepull
ed
metowar
dshim,ki
ssi
ngmyneckandgrabbi
ng
onmyasscheeks
Me:
Loy
isowear
enothav
ingsexi
ntheshower
Him:yesbaby
.Wear
enothav
ingsexi
nthe
shower
Hishandsmovedfr
om myasstocupmymould,
Irel
easedal
oudmoanashisfi
ngerent
eredme
foll
owedbyanot
herone
Hi
m:nosexbuty
ouar
esowet
Iignoredhi
m becausehewasmakingfunofme.
Wehadar oundintheshower
,anamazingone
thatleftmeevenmorehornysoweendedup
havi
ngtwomoreinthebedr
oom,
tookanot
her
showert
hengotdressed
Hi
m: I
'm sl
owl
ygett
ingusedt
ohav
ingsex
wi
thoutacondom
Me:
wel
ldon'
t
Hi
m:younevergi
vemeachancet
oev
enput
t
hecondom on
Me:
soi
tsmyf
aul
t?
Hi
m: f
ault
?Ther
eisnofaul
tinsexnanazi
.I'
m
j
ustsayi
ngmybabyhasabigappeti
teandI
l
ovethat
Ismil
ed,heisri
ghtthough.Ican'
tgetenoughof
havi
ngsexwi t
hhim, hetakesmetol ev
elsand
hei
ghtsnomanhasev ertakenmet oandwhat
ari
deiti
s.Wet ook"mycar "andasmuchashe
hat
eddrivi
ngit,hedi
dn'twantmet odrive
Sambul
o:wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Me:
uShaka
Sambul
o:ar
ewegoi
ngt
oswi
m?
Me:
ify
ouwantt
o
Sambul
o:i
fIdon'
twantt
oswi
m whatel
secanI
do?
Sambul o'
squest
ionswillexhaustyouandr i
ght
nowIwasget ti
ngexhaust ed.Il
ookedov erat
Loyisowhowashav ingthet i
meofhi sli
fe
l
aughingatme.Iplayedmusi contheradioand
thatseemedtokeephi m quiet.
Me:
Abongi
wei
sal
readyher
e
Loyiso:probabl
yUsit
handi
l
efor
cedthem t
oget
hereearlybecauseAbongi
weandearl
ydon'
tgo
together
Weparkednextt
othem,weexchanged
gr
eeti
ngsandIhuggedmyfr
iend.I
t'
sbeena
whi
le
Abongiwe:heeehmngani
vatnsi
treal
lyl
i
kes
you.Lookatyouglowi
ngandgai
ningwei
ght
Icouldn'
thel
pbutlaugh, i
tsbeen2mi nswit
hher
andshei sal
readycomingatmewi thall
sorts
ofjabs.Shewaslookingbeautif
ulasalwaysin
hersummerdr ess,heryoungestsonwas
holdi
ngherhandwhi leherdaughterwasstuck
toherfather
Me:
theshademyf
ri
end.Soear
ly
Abongiwe:lol
noshade,j
usthonestt
rut
h.Isay
weditchthemenandt heki
dsandgogeta
gl
assofwi ne
Li
:Ihear
dthat
Hekissedhercheekandshesmi l
ed,t
ryi
ngso
hardnottoblush.Idon'tgetitsomet
imes,how
canyoubemar r
iedforsomanyy ear
sandstil
l
actli
keteenagers?Theyar esoinlov
e,basi
call
y
j
oinedatthehipandi nseparable
Abongi
we:
itsagr
eati
dea
Loy
iso:
what
'sagr
eati
dea?
Me:
leav
ingy
ouguy
swi
tht
heki
ds
Li
:andgodr
inkwi
ne
Loy
iso:
at10am?
Hegav eusajudgment al
lookt hatmademe
questionourmor alsaswel l.Whodr i
nksalcohol
soear l
yi nt
heday ?Wegotr idoft hati
deaand
setoutf orwhatshoul dbeagr eatday.We
start
edatt heaquarium, t
heki dswer etrul
y
fasci
nat edbyeverythingthent heywentt o
swim bef or
ehavingl unch
Abongi
we:
isi
tOKi
fIhav
emywi
nenow?
Sheroll
edherey esandIj ustlaughed.The
momentt hewai t
ressbr oughtoutt heburger
s,
mystomacht ur
nedandIr ushedt othe
bathr
oom tov omit.Istayedf orcloset o30
minsont hatbathroom floorv omiting.
Abongiwehadf oll
owedmesoshewasj ust
outsi
dethedoorwhenIgotout .Irinsedmy
mouth,tookthebot tl
eofwat erfrom herand
downedi
t
Her
:howf
aral
ongar
eyou?
Me:
excuseme?
Her
:howmanymont
hs?
Me:
howmanymont
hsofWhat
?
Shechuckl edt
hemomentsher eali
zedthatI
hadnoi deawhatshewast alki
ngabout .She
keptl
aughi ngandshakingherheadal ltheway
tothetable.Aft
eraskingLimileforthecarkeys,
shedraggedmeoutt herestaurant,
pull
ingme
bymyar m
Me:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Her
:you'
l
lsee
Shedrovetot heclosestmedicalcentershe
couldfi
nd,onedoct orwasfreetoseeusand
wewenti n.Ihadnoi deawhatthehel lwas
goingonwi t
ht hi
sladyandshei gnoredallmy
questi
ons
Abongi
we:heyDrVi
sser
,I'
m Abongi
weandt
his
i
smyf r
iendGugu
Dr
:af
ter
noonl
adi
es,
howmayIhel
pyout
oday
?
Abongi
we:
we'
dli
ket
ohav
eapr
egnancyt
est
done
Dr
:bot
hofy
ou
Abongi
we:
no.JustGugu
IswearIchockedonmyownsal
ivaandst
ared
atAbongiwewithmyey
eswideopen
Me:
I'
m notpr
egnant
Abongi
we:greatt
heny
ouwi
l
lhav
enopr
obl
em
taki
ngt
histest
YesLoy i
soandIhaven'tbeencaut
iouswhenit
comest osafesexbutargmanI '
m notpr
egnant.
I'
dknowi fI
'
m pregnantri
ght?That
'swhatal
l
pregnantwomensay
Me:
thi
sisawast
eoft
imeandmoney
Abongi
we:
noty
ourmoneysor
elax
Ididthet estandwhi lewewai ted,myhear twas
pounding.Whati fI
'm pregnant?I'm notready
forthat.LoyisoandIhav ebeent ogetherfor
l
esst hanay ear,healreadyhas3chi l
drenand
thetopicofhav i
ngmor ehasnev ercomeup.I
can'thandleaki drightnow, notwhileI'm
alr
eadyamot hertothreeotherkids.The
doctor'
sv oicebroughtmebackt orealit
y
Dr
:OKt
henIhav
eyourr
esul
tsr
ighther
e
Me:
and?
Dr:
youar
eindeedpr
egnantMi
ssZul
u.I
'
dhave
t
odoanultr
asoundtofi
ndouthowf
arexact
ly
Myhear tcamet oacompl et estopf orafew
seconds, suddenlyIcoul
dn'tbreathe, t
heroom
fel
tsmal l
erandIwasget t
ingdizzy .Befor
eI
knewit,itwasl i
ghtsout.I
'
v enev erhadapani c
att
ackbef oreandI '
vebeent hr
oughonehel lof
ali
febutI 'v
esurvivedit
.Thedoct ortel
lsmeI '
m
pregnantandIlosei t
.Whenmyey esopen,I
'm
bl
indedbyt hebrightli
ght.Ibl
inkafewtimes,
groanasItrytosi tupandt hi
stimemyey es
l
andonLoy i
sowhoi sbusypacingupanddown.
ThemomentIcl earedmyt hroat,
herushedto
mysi de
Loyi
so:
youscar
edmenanazi
.Howar
eyou
feel
i
ng?
Heki
ssedmyf
orehead
Hi
m:ar
eyout
hir
sty
?Shoul
dIgety
ouwat
er?
Hepouredwat eri
ntoaglass,addedast
raw
thenIhel
ditformewhileIdrank.Idi
dn'
teven
needthestrawbutLoyi
sowasi ndramaking
modesoIl ethim be
Me:
thanky
ou
Justt
henthedoctorwal
kedi nfl
ashi
ngmea
smil
e.Il
ethim dotheul
tr
asoundandt hewhole
ti
meIkeptmyey esonLoyiso,Iwant
edt oread
hi
sexpressi
onsbecauseri
ghtnowIwasi n
pani
cmode
Dr
:youar
e8weekspr
egnant
Loy
iso:
that
'st
womont
hs?
Dr:yes.Iam worr
iedaboutyourbl
oodpressur
e
though.Iunder
standthatyouareabit
overwhelmedtodaybutyouaregoingtohaveto
keepitstabl
e
Inodded,mywordswer efai
li
ngmer i
ghtnow.
Thishastobesomesor tofadr eam,Ican'tbe
pregnant
.I'
mjustnotreadyforalloft
his.Iwas
givenmynextappoint
mentdat e,aprescri
pti
on
l
istwhichwecoll
ectedatthephar macyandwe
walkedout
Loyi
so:
doy
ouneedany
thi
ngbef
orewego
home?
Ishookmyhead.
Me:
theki
ds?
Hi
m:wi
thAbongi
weandLi
mil
e
Me:
OK
Izonedouti ntomyownl ittl
ewor l
daf terthat.I
didn'
twantt ot hinkaboutt hispr egnancyand
ri
skhav inganot herpanicat tack.Loy i
soal so
hasn'tsaidany thingsincewel eftthehospi t
al.
Whenwegott ot hehouse, Iranmy sel fabat h,
addedf oam andr el
axedwi thmyey escl osed
andmyhandonmybel l
y.Ican' tbeliev eIhav ea
persongr owingi nsideofme.WhatIf earthe
mosti sturningoutt obel ikemymot her.It's
easyt oraiseanot herperson' schildbecause
youcanal way sbl amet hepar ent '
sgenesi fthe
chil
dt ur
nsoutt obeascr ewupbutwhowi l
lI
blamef ormyownchi ld?
Loy
iso:
canwet
alkbef
oreIgof
etcht
heki
ds
Me:
OK
Hi
m:y
ouar
enotget
ti
ngout
?
Ishookmyhead.I'
m enj
oyingj
ustl
ayingi
n
thesebubbl
es,
theyarer
elaxi
ng.Hetookhi
s
cl
othesof
fthengoti
nbehindme,
maki
ngme
Restmyheadonhischest
Hi
m:ar
eyouOK?
Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s.
Him:Ineedyout
obeOKaboutt hi
sGugu.I
can'
tfor
ceyoutobehappyabouti
tbutIneed
youtobeOKsot hatourchi
l
dwil
lbeOK
Idi
dn'
trespond.Ididn'
tknowwhattosayto
hi
m.Hei sbeinghisusualsel
fasifwedi
dn'
t
fi
ndoutthatI
'm pr
egnantnotsolongago
Him:Iknowwedidn'
tplant
hisbuti
tsabl
essi
ng
nonet
heless.West
il
lhaveafewmonthst
o
warm uptothei
dea
Hi
shandswentst
rai
ghtf
ormybel
l
ythenhe
ki
ssedmyneck
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ounanazi
.Youandal
lourki
ds
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Isi
ghed.I
'
m soscar
edi
t'
snotev
enf
unny
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l
dbuti tt
akesar
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mant
obeaf at
herandagreatmantobeadad"

LOYI
SO
Ireal
l
yt r
iedt
odownplaymyexci t
ementf ort
hat
sakeofaccommodat i
ngGugubutwhenwe
wentforthe4thmonthappointmentandIheard
mychild'
sheartbeat
,Icoul
dn'tdoitany
mor e
Dr:
str
ong,
loudandheal
thyhear
tbeatwehav
e
her
e
Me:
mysoni
sheal
thy
Gugu:
youdon'
tknowt
hat
'saboy
Me:I'm act
uall
yhopingforagirl
.Ican'
thav
e
anotherSambulo.Oneinter
rogati
ngoffi
cer
undermyr oofisenough
Sambul oreal
lyi
sahandf ul
,heasksami l
li
on
questi
onspermi nuteandapparent
lyhegets
thatfr
om me.Ireall
ywashappyaboutt hi
sbaby
andev enthoughitwasn'
tplanned,
I'
m sti
l
l
gratef
ul.
Me:
doy ouneedany
thi
ngbef
orewegetbackt
o
t
heoff
ice?
Gugu:
aloewat
erandPer
iPer
ichi
ckenst
ri
ps
Me: al
oewaterIcangetf
oryoubutnott
hose
str
ips.Youhear
dwhatthedoctorsai
dabout
spi
cyf ood
Her:hav
eImentionedhowmuchbei ng
pr
egnantisani
nconveniencet
omyl i
fe?Ican't
dothisf
oranot
her5mont hsLoyi
so.Ijustcan'
t
Me:nanazi
comeon.Pl
easedon'
tst
artcr
ying
agai
n.
Thewat erworkswerealr
eadyoutandt
hisis
thatpar
tIdidn'tenj
oyaboutherbei
ngpregnant
.
Icouldbreathnexttoherandshewoul
dst ar
t
cr
ying
Her:youdon'
tunder
standwhatI'
m going
thr
ough.Ally
oucareaboutist
hischi
ld.Ican'
t
eatwhatIwantbecauseofthi
schil
dthatyou
putinmewi t
houtmypermissi
on
Me:I
'
m sor
rybabywam.Ipr
omi
set
onev
erput
achi
l
dinyouagai
n
Her
:nowyoudon'
twantmet
ocar
ryyourki
ds.
Whydoyouhat
emesomuchLoyi
so?Why ?
Istoppedthecaratt hemal l
par ki
nglotandgot
out.Ineededt obreat hbef or
eIl osemymi nd.I
am maki ngapr omi set omy selfthatI'
m never
maki ngthi
swomanpr egnantev eragain.Thisi
s
toomuchf oramant ohandl e.Iwal kedto
checkers,boughtt heal oewat erandnor mal
chickenstri
pst heIboughtmy selfDan-Upand
sourwor ms.WhenIgotbackt ot hecarshehad
stoppedcry i
ngbutt hel ookshegav emewas
enoughf ormet oknowt hatshei sn'
thappywi t
h
me.Thedri
vetotheoff
icewasasil
entone,
she
waspressi
ngherphonetheent
ir
eti
me.
Me:
yourwat
erandst
ri
ps
Her
:thanky
ou
Me:
Ilov
eyou
Her
:I'
m sor
ry
Shesmi l
edwhil
ebat t
ingherey
el i
dst
ryi
ngt
obe
cuteandsucceedingnicel
yati
t.Myhandwent
forherbel
lywhil
eIpeckedherlips
Me:
don'
twor
ryabouti
tbabe
ThemomentIwal kedintotheoff
ice,Iwast
old
aboutt
hechai rmanoft heboardbeinginmy
off
icewaiti
ngf orme.Thatisneveragoodthing
soIstr
aightenedmyt i
eandwal kedi n
Me:
MrGr
aham.Thi
sisasur
pri
se
WeshookhandsthenIsatdown.Ical
l
edf
or
t
wocupsofcoffee
MrG:
Iwi
shIcoul
dsayi
t'
sapl
easantone
Me:
whatseemst
obet
hepr
obl
em
Him: It
houghtIshouldbri
ngy outhi
stotakea
l
ookat .Justt
orefreshyourmemor y.I
'
vealso
takenthetimetohighli
ghtforyouthepart
syou
shouldfocuson
Hepl acedthecompany 'scodeofconductin
frontofmeandIsi ghed.Ialreadyknewwhat
thisisaboutbutwhatwor ri
edmei showitgot
out.Howdi dthebigbossoft hecompanyfind
out?Iturnedtothehighli
ghtedpageswhi ch
addressedromanticrelati
onshipsbetweenstaff
member s
Me:
Iam qui
teawar
eoft
hissi
r
Hi
m:good.Sowhi
choneofy
oui
sleav
ing?
Me:
excuseme?
Hi
m:bet
weenyouandthejuni
orarchi
tect
.
Whi
choneofy
ouisleavi
ng?Personal
lyI'
dwant
thearchi
tecttoleav
e.Ther
earealotoft
hem
l
ikeherany way.Youontheot
herhandarea
greatassettothecompany
Thereisnowayi nhellt
hatI
'm goi
ngt
ofi
remy
pregnantgi
rl
fr
iend.Especi
all
ynowwhenshei
s
hi
ghonhor monesandemot i
ons
Me:
I'
ll
leav
e
Hi
m:don'
tbest
upi
dSmi
th.
Me:
thi
sisasmar
tdeci
sion
Het ri
edtoconv i
ncemebutt hereisnowayI 'l
l
dot hattoGugu.Aftermymeet i
ngwi thMrGI
stayedinmyof fi
cet hi
nkingeverythi
ngt hr
ough.
Il
ov emyj obbutIalsol ovemygi r
lfr
iendand
sheneedst hismoret hanIdo.Ihad30day sto
comeupwi thadecisionandofcour seI'
m not
goingtot el
lGuguAboutt his.Whenwegot
home, thekidswerepl ayi
ngintheplay r
oom.
Theyar enotall
owedt owat chTVdur i
ngthe
week
Sabel
o:wher
e'smama?
Me:
hel
l
otoy
out
oondoda
Sabel
o:OKsowher
e'smama?
Me:
sayhel
l
ofi
rstt
henI
'
llt
ell
youwher
eshei
s
Sabel
o:I
'
llgol
ookf
orhermy
sel
f.
Hewal kedoutwhil
ecalli
ngoutforGugu.Hei s
soattachedtoher
,it'
sprobabl
ybecauset hey
arebothsostubborn.Ipi
ckedXolohup,threw
heri
nt heairt
hencaughtheragainmakingher
l
augh
Xol
oh:
agai
n
Me:
agai
n?Youar
egoi
ngt
ofal
l
Sheshookherheadwhi legiv
ingmeasmi le.
SheisoneofthereasonsIwantababygi rl
.
Babygir
lsar
eadorablepl ust
heyaresweet.I
pl
ayedwithherwhil
eMr21quest ionsignored
measifIwasn'ti
nt heroom
Me:
Sambul
o
Sambul
o:hmmm
Me:
hmmm y
ant
oni
?Sambul
o
Myvoi
cewasnowf
ir
m andhel
i
ftedhi
sheadt
o
l
ookatme
Hi
m:t
ata
Me:
yizapha
Heslowlywalkedt
owardsmethensatinf
ront
ofwhereXolohandIwerebui
l
dingLego'
s
Me:
what
'
swr
ong?
Heshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s
Me:
uyagul
a?
Heshookhi
shead
Me:
theni
phi
inxaki
?
Hi
m:ndi
khumbul
eumakhul
unomkhul
u
Itookmyphoneoutofmypocket
,di
aledmom'
s
numberandsheanswer
edaft
erawhile
Mom:yhot
heskyi
sgoi
ngt
ofal
ltot
hegr
ound
t
oday
Il
aughed
Me:
andgeteat
enbychi
ckensnehmama
Mom:
musaukungi
phaphel
a.Whatdoy
ouwant
?
Me:
hawmama.Can'
tIj
ustcal
lmymot
herj
ust
t
osayhel
l
o
Mom: no.Noy
oucan'
t.Whatdoy
ouwant
?I'
m
busy
Me:
busyngant
oni
mama?
Mom:Ihav
eamanthatst
il
lfi
ndsmev
erysexy
andwehaveal
otof
..
Me:OKmom,
poi
ntt
aken.Sambul
omi
ssesy
ou
guy
s
Turnsouthi
sgrandpar
entsweremissinghi
m
j
ustasmuch.Itmakessensesincethey'
vel
ived
wit
hmypar ent
ssincetheywer
ebabies.When
hewasdoneaskingmymot herathousand
questi
ons, Iaskedt
ospeakt omydad.Iact ual
l
y
appreciat
et hatmyrealdadisdead,Ican
al
readypict ur
ehowawkwar ditwouldbef or
hi
m becauseIwoul dn'tbeaboutthelif
eofhim.
MaybeQhawewoul dbebutIwoul dn'tbe.I
'l
lbe
aSmi thuntilIdi
e
Dad:heeehi
ndodaawusemdal
aforukhal
ela
ut
atakho
Il
aughed.Mydadi
sascr
azyashi
swi
fe
honest
ly
Me:
ubani
othendy
akhal
amna?
Hi
m:ngumamakhokal
ok.Unj
ani
kwedi
ni?
Me:hayinondi
ri
ghttai
mabutndi
nenxaki
apha
andIwashopingyoucoul
dshedsomewi sdom.
UyamkhumbulamosuGugu
Ihadtoexpl
ainfrom scr
atchwhoGuguis,
aboutourr
elat
ionshi
pandonlythendi
dhe
rememberher
Him:ohtheoneyoubroughtt
oLuv
o'spar
ty?
Uxokausit
hiy
iChom y
akho
Me:ewe.Iwasn'
tl
y i
ngbutshapthat'
sbesi
des
t
hepoint
.Sheispregnantandputt
ingme
t
hroughhel
l
Hi
m:ngumnt
anawesi
ngaphi
lonaLoy
iso
Me:hatat
aitsj
ustthethi
rdone.Sambul
oand
Sabel
oareoneperson
Hi
m: sunyaapha.Thi
sisbabynumber4.You
want6likeyourol
dman?
Me:j
ust5.Let
'snotgetdi
str
act
edkal
ok.How
doIdeal
withall
thehormonesandemoti
ons?
Yhomydaddeci dedtogiv
emeahi stor
ylesson
onwhathewentt hr
oughwhi l
emom was
pregnantwi
thYandi
sa.Judgingbythatstory,
that'
sexact
lywhatI'
m goingthr
ough.Afterthe
l
ongchatwi t
hmydad, Iwenttofi
ndmy
girl
fr
iendwhowasnowsnuggl edupwi t
ht he
kidsonthecouchwit
hlit
tl
espacef ormet osit
.
Iwantedt
oaskwhatthehel
l shewaseati
ngbut
deci
dedagai
nstt
hat.I
'
mt r
yingtokeepthe
waterwor
ksatbayasmuchasIcan
Me:
nanazi
Gugu:
babazi
Me:
Lol
oht
hat
'swhatI
'
m get
ti
ngcal
l
edbynow?
Her
:Ihear
ditf
rom Sabel
o
Sabel
o:i
t'
sasongwel
ear
ntatschool
Me:
OKsi
ngi
tandl
etmehear
Sabel
o:y
adlal
aimamazi i
dlal
elai
babazi
.Dl
ala
mamazi,udl
alel
eubabazi
SoIpaysomuchmoneyatt hatschoolf
ormy
chi
ldr
entobetaughtt
hisnonsense?Thi
sis
somePG25typeofcontent
Me:
nev
ersi
ngt
hatagai
n
Sambul
o:whynot
?
Me:
becauseIsai
dso
Sambul
o:butwhyar
eyousay
ingso?
Me:
Sambul
o
Sambul
o:t
ata
ThenIkeptqui
etandhekeptqui
etf
oragood
30secondsandst
art
edagain
Sambul
o:whycan'
twesi
ngt
hesongt
ata?
Sabel
o:dl
alamamazi
Hest
art
edofsoft
lywhil
eoccasi
onal
l
ylooki
ng
atmewait
ingf
orareact
ion.
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Season2
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nser
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"I
fIwroteabookaboutwherewest
andt
hen
theti
tl
eofmybookwoul dbeLi
fewi
th
Superman"

ABONGI
WE
Iwasl
osi
ngmymi
ndwi
thpl
anni
ngOy
int
ando'
s
bir
thdayparty
.Oneweekhewantsaspiderman
themeandt henextweekhewantst
hemi ni
ons.
I
'm soclosetojustdr
oppi
ngthewhol
ething
Oyi
ntando:Mommycanwehav
emypar
tyat
McDonald'
s?
Kuhl
e:mypar
tyi
sgoi
ngt
obeatMcDonal
d'
s
Oyi
ntando:
mypar
tyi
sfi
rstandI
'
m ol
dert
han
you
Me: y
ouarebothgivi
ngmeaheadache.Got
ell
yourfat
heraboutt
heset
hings
Youwoul dthinkast hekidsgr owolder,we'l
l
havelessheadachesaspar entsbutnope, my
ki
dsnev erstopt alki
ng.Andt henthereisthe
argui
ngt hatstartsassoonast heyopent hei
r
eyesandpr obablycont inuesdur i
ngtheir
dreams.Oy i
ntando' sbir
t hdayisonSat urday
andKuhle'sbirthdayi snextweekFr iday.WhyI
hadkidssocl oset ogether ,
nami angazbutI
l
ov emymunchki ns.Lazol aandLumi l
anawal k
i
nwi t
hUsi t
handil
e,t
heypickedherupfr
om
soccerpract
icebecausesometimesmy
husbandandIf or
gettopickupourki
ds.I
wouldn'
tsayitsnormalbuthonest
lyi
thappens
moreoftenthannot
Me:
mypumpki
n
Usi
:youguy
sfor
gotmeagai
n
Me:uhm nowedidn'
t.Youruncl
emissedyou
sohewantedtot
akey ououtfori
cecream and
fory
ouguystobond
Themcflurr
ycupinherhandmadet hi
ssoeasy
.
Mil
awasl ooki
ngatmewhi l
elaughi
ngto
her
sel
f.At25andengaged,sheremindsmeso
muchofmebef or
ethekids
Usi
:Idon'
tbel
i
evey
ou.Wher
eisdad?
Me: I
'
m agrownup, grownupsdon' tli
e.Your
fat
herisinthest
udywi t
ht heboys.Wenago
change,di
rt
yclothesinthelaundr
yr oom pl
ease
andnotont hebedroom fl
oor
Usi
:OKmommy
Sheranofftofi
ndherfat
her
,leav
ingmewi t
h
herauntandunclet
hatdon'
tl
ookt oopl
ease
wit
hme
Laz:
youguy
sar
ebadpar
ent
s
Me:weareamazi
ngpar
ent
s.Wej
ustf
orget
st
uffsomet
imes
Laz:
stuf
fli
key
ourki
d?
Me:I
'mignori
ngyounow.Mi
l
awoul
dyoul
i
ke
somet
hingtodri
nk?
Laz:
wear
est
ayi
ngf
ordi
nner
Igott hem bothjui
ce,
toldNikiaboutthem
stayingf ordi
nnert
henjoinedthem inthe
l
ounge.Mysi bli
ngsarebasical
lyhelpi
ngus
raiset heseki
dswhichisamazi ngforusand
theki ds
Me:
hav
eyouguy
ssetadat
efort
heweddi
ng?
Mi
l
a:December10
Me:
sof
ar
Li
:IknewLazol
awouldbether easonwhymy
daught
eri
shavingi
cecream beforedi
nner
Iturnaroundf i
rstwi
ththebiggestsmileonmy
face.Ididn'
treali
zeIwasmi ssi
nghi m bef
oreI
heardhisv oi
ce.Justl
ikelostpuppies,hi
skids
wer eri
ghtbehindhim,Isweartheyf ol
lowhim
allovertheplace
Laz:
thebestuncl
eev
er
Me:
debat
abl
e
Laz:If
etchy
ourki
dfr
om school
wheny
ou
for
gether
Usi
:Iknewy
ouguy
sfor
gotmeagai
n
Li
:west
il
ll
ovey
out
houghpumpki
n
Usi:
whatdaddyi
sdoi
ngi
semot
ional
blackmai
l
ri
ghtmommy ?
I'
veneverl
aughedsomuchi nmyli
fe.Idon'
t
evenknowwher eshehear
dthatbutI
'mjust
enj
oyi
ngseei
ngLi
bei
ngt
hrownundert
hebus
Li
:thi
siswhathappenswheny
oubr
ingy
our
workhomeAbongiwe
Me:
huhdon'
ti
nvol
vemei
nthi
s.I
'
minnocent
Wehadaf undinnerwit
hLazol
oandMi la,the
kidsenj
oy edi tt
hemost .I
'
m st
art
ingtogett he
feel
ingthatt heyaresi
ckofus,t
heyalway s
seem happi erwhenextendedf
ami l
yisaround
Usi
:uncl
eLazwher
eisuncl
eLuk?Henev
er
vi
sit
s
Laz:
I'
ll
tel
lhi
mtov
isi
tyoupumpki
n
Oy
i:pumpki
nst
ast
eyucky
Usi
:youar
eyucky
Li
:guy
sbeni
cepl
ease
Them:
sor
rydaddy
Aft
erdi
nnermybrotherl
eft,
Imadeament al
not
etocall
thatmischi
evousli
tt
lebr
otherof
mine.Lastt
hingIwantisforhi
mt obe
t
roublesomewiththevarsi
tygi
rl
s
Me:
OKguy
sbat
h,t
eet
handbedpl
ease
Usi
:Ihav
ehomewor
k
Me: OKcomedothehomewor
k,daddywi
l
l
checkit
.Boy
supstai
rsy
ougo
Theki
dsscatteredandmyhusbandst
aredat
mewhileshakinghishead
Me:
yini
wena?
Li
:daddywi
l
lchecki
t?
Me:Idon'
thavetheener
gyf
orgr
ade3
homeworkri
ghtnow
Hi
m:suchal
azymom
Me:
atl
eastI
'
m notal
azywi
fe
Hesmiled,
cockedoneey
ebrowthenpul
ledme
towar
dshim.MyarmswrappedAroundhis
neckandIsmil
edaswell
Him:defi
nit
elynotal
azywif
e.Thewayyou
wereri
dingmet hi
smorni
ngisall
thepr
oofI
need
*
*
GUGULETHU
Iwasnott akingbeingpregnantwell,somehow
theexcit
ement ,joyorwhatevergetspregnant
womengl owi ngjustwasn'thappeningwithme
andwhatmademat t
ersworseisthatIhadno
babybump.I 'm sureat4mont hsIshouldat
l
easthav eabumpbutnope.Iwasget t
ingfat
though,Iprobablygainedatleast500gev er
y
hour.Loyi
soont heotherhandwasbeami ng
withexcit
ement ,hehasbeent hroughthis
beforesoheknowswhathei sdoing
Loy
iso:
nowIcan'
tgett
hatst
upi
dsongoutof
myhead
Me:
Idon'
tunder
standhowy
out
hinkt
heki
ds
wi
l
lst
opsi
ngi
ngi
twheny
oust
il
lsi
ngi
t
Hi
m: i
tjustsoundsdirt
yandnast
y.Ihav
ea
f
eel
ingitsaboutstr
ippi
ngyaz
Me:
itsnotaboutst
ri
ppi
ng
Hi
m: whyandhowwoul di
mamazi
idl
alel
e
i
babazi
?Thinkaboutt
hisbaby
Me:st
opusi
ngy
ourt
est
icl
est
othi
nkpl
ease.I
ts
cr
eepy
Hi
m:whatshoul
dIuset
hem f
ort
hen?
Thehumori nhi
sv oicemadeitobvi
ouswher
e
hi
smi ndwasat .Hishandwentundermy
pyj
amat op,gi
vi
ngmyboobsasqueezebef ore
pl
ayingwithmyni pples
Hi
m:t
heyar
eget
ti
ngr
eal
l
ybi
g
Me:
all
ofmei
sget
ti
ngr
eal
l
ybi
g
Hi
m:andsexi
er
Hi
shandt
rav
eledt
omyst
omach,
youknowt
he
placewher eIshouldhav eababybumpbuti ts
MI A.Iheldmybr eathashet ookmysl eeping
shor t
sof ftogetherwithmypant i
est henpar ted
myl egsandf oundhisdest i
nation.Idon' tknow
whenIpassedoutbutIhav east rongf eel
ingI
passedoutdur ingar ound.ThenextdayIwas
wokenupbysomet hingwar m betweenmyl egs.
Atf i
rstIthoughtIwasdr eamingbutt hef eeling
gotr eal
lyintensesoIopenedmyey es.Onl yto
fi
ndLoy i
sowi thhisheadbet weenmyl egs.We
hadamor ningsession,Ihadtomakeupf or
fall
ingasleepdur ingsex
Loy
iso:
goodmor
ningmamakhe
Ismi
l
ed.Hegavemeawetandhotki
sst
hatl
eft
mybi
tingonmybot
tom l
i
p
Me:
mor
ningbaby
Hi
m:ndy
akt
handay
eva
Me:
Ilov
eyout
oo
Wet
ookashowert
oget
her
,hewokeupt
heki
ds
andbat
hedtheboyswhi
leNanabat
hedXoloh.I
madebreakf
astwhi
leev
ery
onegotready
Sabel
o:mor
ningmama
Me:
goodmor
ningbi
gboy
Irougheduphishai
r,whi
chneedst
ogetcutas
soonaspossible
Sambulo:
goodmor
ningmama,
arewehav
ing
kr
ispi
es?
Me:
mor
ningboy
.Nowear
ehav
ingweet
bix
Theyhat
eweet
bix,
appar
ent
lyi
ttast
esl
i
ke
car
dboar
d
Sabel
o:weet
bix?I
'
m nothungr
y
Me:
OKt
henI
'
llpackt
hem f
orl
unch
Sambul
o:f
orwho?
Me:
thebot
hofy
ou
Sambul
o:hawmama.It
houghty
oul
oveus
Il
aughed.Theseki
dsar
etoosmar
tfort
hei
r
owngoodbutt heyaret hecutestplusthey
annoyLoy i
so80%oft hetimewhi chisgr eat
entert
ainmentforme.Igav ethem theirplates,
thejoyontheirfaceswhent heyreali
zeditsnot
weetbixwasjustpr i
celess.Irecei
vedacal l
from MbaliasIsatdownt oeat
Me:
hel
l
o
Mbal
i
:si
sGuguheyunj
ani
?
Me:
I'
m goodandy
ou?
Her
:I'
m good.Ineedmoneyf
ort
ext
books
Me:
text
booksi
nApr
il
?
Her:
y eahuhm f
orthi
sonemodul
e.If
orgott
o
buythem i
nFebruary
Me:
OKI
'
llt
ransf
ermoneyt
oyourst
udentcar
d
Her:
no!Uhm I
'
m goi
ngt
obuyt
hem second
hand
Somethingwasoffabouther
.Needi
ng
text
booksinApr
ilmakesnosensetomebutI
pl
ayedthef
oolandagreedt
osendhermoney
.I
gavet
hephonetoXolohandtheyspoke
Loy
iso:
youar
efr
owni
ng
Me:
somet
hingi
supwi
thMbal
i
Hi
m:somet
hingl
i
ke?
It
oldhi
m aboutheraski
ngf
ormoneyand
cl
aimi
ngit
sfortext
books
Him: sheisinvar
sit
ynanazi
,ever
yonel
iest
o
theirpar
entstogetmoney.Bestpar
tabout
beinginvarsit
y
Me:Ij
usthopeit
snotforsomet
hingst
upi
dli
ke
al
coholorweedordr
ugs
Hi
m:orabor
ti
on.
Me:
notf
unny
Hi
m:I
'
m nott
ryi
ngt
obe.I
tsapossi
bil
i
ty
Me:
hmmm
If
ini
shedmybr
eakf
astI
'
m si
l
ence,
lucki
l
ythe
twinsweret al
ki
ngamongstt hemselv
esf or
once.WhenIwasdoneeat i
ngIri
nsedmypl ate
andLoy i
sohadf oll
owedmet ot
hekitchen.I
wasannoy edwit
hhi m, whywouldaborti
onbe
thefi
rstthinghethinksof fwhenIment i
on
stupi
dThi ngsmysi stercouldbeupto?
Hi
m:ar
eyoumadatmenow?
Ikeptquiet
,pl
acedmypl
ateonthedi
shesr
ake
thenwipedmyhandswit
hadishclot
h
Hi
m:Gugu
Me:
what
?
Her
aisedhi
sey
ebr
owsatmeasi
fshockedby
myr
esponse
Hi
m:excuseme?
Me:ify
ouhavesomethi
ngt
osayLoy
iso
khul
umaother
wisel
etmego
Him:hamba.Iwon'
ttal
ktoy
ouwheny
ouar
e
l
iket
his
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15:
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Season2
I
nser
t27
"
Howhet
reat
syoui
showhef
eel
sabouty
ou"

LOYI
SO
Natur
all
yIhavezerotol
erancefordi
srespect
andIhaveav er
yshorttemper.Don'
tgetme
wrong,I
'
m notabusiveandI'
veneverlai
dahand
onawoman, Ialwayschoosetojustwalkaway
whenconfl
ictari
ses
Gugu:
soy
ouar
enotgoi
ngt
otal
k?
Me:f
ondi
nhamba.Yougav
emet
woopt
ions
andI
'
vechosenone
Iwalkedoutt
hekitchenl
eavinghert
her
e.Iget
thatshei
spregnantandthehormonesareal
l
overthepl
acebutsheneedst oobeawar
eof
theli
neandnotoverstepit
Me:
guy
sI'
mreadyt
oleav
e
Sabel
o:soam I
Me:
hav
eyour
insedy
ourmout
h?
Sabel
o:doIhav
eto?
Me:
ifyoudon'
twantyourmout
hsmel
l
ingl
i
ke
t
hetoi
l
etthenyesyouhavet
o
Sambul
o:si
est
ata
Al
lthr
eeofthem rushedt
othebathr
oom whi
leI
di
dthesamet hencoll
ect
edmywor kbagand
wai
tedfort
hekids.Guguwasalsoaboutt
o
l
eave
Gugu:
I'
m sor
ryIsnappedaty
ou
Me:
youknowwhat
'st
hebestki
ndofapol
ogy
?
Her
:what
?
Me:
changedbehav
ior
Iknewshewasn'texpect
ingmetosayt hatbut
i
tsthetrut
h.Wehav e5monthsaheadofuswi th
thi
spregnancyandifwekeepgoingl
ikethis,
wewi l
lbr
eakupbeforethebabyisborn.The
ki
dsgrabbedthei
rbackpacks,
saidtheir
goodbyestoGuguthengotinthecar.Ipecked
herl
ips
Me:I
'm notgoingt
obeatt
heof
fi
cet
odaybut
doenj
oyy ourday
Gugu:
OKt
hanks
Me:
ndy
akt
handamaZul
u
Shesmi
l
edwhi
chmademesmi
l
etoo
Her
:Il
ovey
out
oo
Afterdroppi
ngthekidsoffatschool,Idr
oveto
theoffi
ce,gotmyfil
esandwentt omyf i
rst
meet i
ng.Ihadbacktobackmeet ingsuntil
l
uncht i
meandIusedt hatti
metogoseemy
l
itt
lebrother
.Ihavebusinesstodiscusswith
him.
Shaun:
Loy
isoSmi
th
Me:
ShaunSmi
th
Wel aughedbef oreourmanhugt hensatdown.
I'
m notbigont heemot i
onalsideoffamil
ylov
e,
Ilovemysiblingsandt heyknowt hat.I
'mther
e
forthem whenev ertheyneedmebutI '
m nott
he
typetocallandcheckupont hem.Ihavea
familyofmyownt hatIfocusonbutIdon't
neglectmysiblings.Ever
Me:
ugr
andbr
uh?
Hi
m:I
'
m goodmanandwena?
Me: I
'
m good.I'
m goi
ngt
obeaf
atheragai
nso
I
'm defi
nit
elygood
Hi
m: woawcongr
atsbr
o.Thi
sisamazi
ng.Igot
marr
iedandnowyouar
ehavingaki
d.Thi
sis
gr
eatstuf
f
Me:i
tis.Dadt
hinksI
'
llendupwi
thasmany
ki
dsashehas
Wel augh.I
'
mf r
om abigfami
lysoit
snatural
thatI'
dwantabigfamil
yformysel
faswell
.
Afterthi
soneIwantonemoreandI'l
lbedone
Me:
jongandodaIneedaf
avor
Hi
m:any
thi
ngf
ory
oubr
o
Me:Ineedyoutooff
erGuguaj
ob.Makei
tan
of
fershecan'
tref
use
Hi
m:worki
ngwi
tht
hegi
rl
fr
iendi
sst
art
ingt
obe
apr
obl
em?
Me:somethingli
kethat
.Iwantedtobetheone
tol
eavebutaftert
hemeetingIhadwithmy
l
awyerear
lier,
Ihavealott
oloseifIl
eavethat
company
Hi
m:al
ri
ghtnopr
obl
em.I
'
llcal
lheraf
terl
unch.
Howmanyfi
gur
esar
ewetalki
ng?
Me:
6fi
gur
esperannum
Iwatchedhim scr
atchhi
schin.I
thadt
obean
off
ershecan'tref
useandIknowshewon'
ttur
n
downmaki ngami l
li
onperyear
Him:I
'
llseewhatIcando.I
'l
lhav
etorunitpast
Zoesi
ncesheismypar t
nerbuti
fGuguisgood
atwhatshedoest
heni
tshoul
dbef
ine
Me:
thanksal
otbr
uh.Iowey
ouone
Ibreathedasi ghofrel
iefwhenIexi
tedShaun'
s
company .Atleastt
hatisonethi
ngoffmy
shoulder sandtakencareoff
.WhenIgothomeI
waswel comedbyt herichar
omasofahearty
homecookedmeal whichmademyst omach
grumbl eont hespot
Me:
I'
m home
Xol
ohcamer unni
ngt othedoor
,Ipi
ckedherup,
ki
ssedhercheek,
tickl
ingheri
ntheprocess
Me:
hel
l
opr
incess
Xol
oh:
uncl
eoy
iso
Me:
howwasschool
?
Her
:fun.Wepl
ayedandsl
eptandpai
nted
Me:
wowsoundsr
eal
l
yfun
Iwal
kedwi
thhert
otheki
tchen,
placedheron
t
heki
tchencount
erbef
oregr
eet
ingmywoman
Gugu:
heyl
over
Me:
youar
ecooki
ng
Her
:yep
Me:
andsi
ngi
ng
Shel
aughed.Ienj
oyseeingherl
i
kethi
s.I
t
al
waysservesasareminderastowhyIf
ell
in
l
ovewit
hher
Her
:I'
minagoodmood
Me:
gooddayatt
heof
fi
ceWi
thoutme?
Her:
youcoul
dsayt
hat
.Igotaj
obof
fert
oday
andI'
mtaki
ngit
.
Ismi
l
edt
omy
sel
f.Shaundeser
vesaBel
l
's
*
*
ABONGI
WE
Theweekendar ri
vedandwewer efi
nal
lyhav
ing
thi
spartythathasbeenthecauseofmy
headaches.Eventodayt
hekiddoesn'
tknow
whathewant ssoweendedupwi t
haspider
minionstheme.
Li
:Ij
ustgotof
fthephonewi
thmysi
ster
Me:
real
l
y?Howar
ethey
?
Hi
m: t
heyaregood.Shefi
l
edf ordi
vorcebut
Manqobadoesn'
twanttosignthepapers
Me:di
vor
ce?Af
terbei
ngmar
ri
edf
or18y
ear
s.
Yho
Howdoy ouevenbeginstart
ingoveraft
erbei
ng
withonepersonfor18years?The8yearsthat
Li
mi l
eandIhav ebeenmar ri
edforalr
eady
seemsl i
kealot.Howmuchmor eanadded
10yearstothat
?Andt hekids?
Him:I
'm wi
thheront
hisone.Manqobahas
beencontr
oll
i
ngmysisterf
oryear
snow
Me: don'
tgi
vemethat
.Manqobal
ovesy
our
si
sterandshel
oveshi
m
Hi
m:well
clearl
ynotany
mor
ebecauseshe
want
stodivor
cehim
Thistopicwasst art
ingt odepr essmeIwentt o
checkont hekidsandev eryonewashav i
nga
greattime.Oyint
ando' sfri
endsf rom school ,his
cousinsandhi ssibl
ingswer eallhavingabl ast.
IspottedAv er
ywi t
hhi sson, nopr et
tyy oung
thi
ngnextt ohimt hi
st imear ound.Ourey es
l
ocked, webot hsmiledt henIwav edathim.He
hasn'tchangedabi t,physicall
yorment all
y .
WhenIj oinedthegirls,t
heywer ealreadyt al
king
nonstop
Kwando:guy
sbei
ngasi
ngl
emot
heri
sshowi
ng
meflames
Liy
ana:j
ustt
aketheki
dst
oyourpar
ent
sunt
il
youfi
ndyourfeet
Kwando:
andhav
edadt
ell
met
hathet
oldme
so?Noway
s.I
'
llcomeupwi
thapl
an
Itwasmy sel
f,Gugu, Li
yana,Kwando,
Lunathi
,
MilaandLisa.Icouldn'
tinvi
teLwakhobecause
ofhiswife'
shistorywit
hmyhusbandandt he
tensi
onbetweenLi yanaandShaunwasal otto
takein.Wewer edrinki
ngwinesowhent he
secondbottl
ef i
nished,GuguandIwenttoget
mor e
Me:
arey
ouOK?
Gugu: I'
mj ustt
akingitonedayatat ime.Isti
ll
don'tthi
nkI '
m mom mat eri
al.Idon'tthi
nkIhav e
i
ti nmet odot hesoccerpractices,ball
et
classesandbi rt
hdayparti
es.I'
m car eerdri
ven,
myl if
ejuststart
ed.Ididn'
thav etheexcitement
ofbeingi nmyt wenti
esandnowmyt hi
rti
eswill
revolvearoundamanandababy .Iwantt ol
ive
forme, chasemydr eams, seet hewor l
d.
Me:wewill
revi
sitt
hisconver
sati
onaftery
ou've
hel
dyourbabyi
ny ourarms.Icanbetanyt
hing
thatyouwon'
tbefeel
i
ngt
hesameway
.Ki
ds
arespeci
albei
ngs
Justaswewal kedout,Ispottedmyown
speci
al beingspl ayi
ngont hewat er
sli
deandmy
husbandwat chingthem closely.WhenIhearal l
thetr
oubl esmyf ri
endsgot hroughi nthei
r
rel
ati
onshi ps,Ican'thelpbutwonderhowIgot
solucky.ThenIr ememberhowmuchIpr ayed
foral
loft his,howmuchIl ostinor dertobethis
happyandt henIseeAv er
yandI '
m evenmor e
grat
eful f
oral lt
hatheputmet hroughbecause
i
tledmeher e.Wher eI'
m desti
nedt obewiththe
mant hatwascr eatedforme
Usi
:mommy
Me:
yesbaby
Usi
:daddysay
sImustcal
lyou
Luna:
hay
itel
lyourdaddywear
ebusyher
e
Usi
thandil
elooksatmewi
thquest
ioni
ngey
es
andIjustl
augh
Kwando:
tel
lhi
mtol
eav
eyourmot
heral
one
Usi
:mom?
Me:
aibabyangazmi
na
Usi
:yhonami
angazt
hen
Sheranofft
oplay
,Ipour
edmy
sel
fagl
assof
wineandsatdown
Kwando:
youguy
sar
eannoy
ing
Me:
lol
becausewear
emar
ri
ed?
Luna:
andal
ll
oveydov
ey.Ni
yadi
kany
an
Me:
ninomonay
az.
Mynotsol
i
ttl
ebrotherappr
oachedusandhe
waswit
hagir
l.HeeehLukhanyahasgr
ownso
much
Luna:
ist
hatLuk?Wi
thagi
rl
?
Me:
looksl
i
kei
t
Eventual
l
ytheygott
ous,
thegi
rli
sal
lsor
tsof
cuteandquit
eshy
Luk:
somanywomen
Me:
uyaphapha
Weshar
edahug.Ihav
en'
tseenhi
minages
Luk:
heysi
s
Luna:
andIdon'
tgetahug?
Luk:uyaphaphaingxakiyakho.SisAbongst his
i
smyf riendKonke.Konket hisismysi sterand
herpeople.That
'salsomysi ster,
Lunat hi
,that'
s
mysisterin-
lawMi l
a,that
'sMangi '
smom aunt ie
Li
yanaandt herestmysi sterwil
lint
roducey ou
to
Me:
heyKonke
Konke:
hey
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stheonl
ybli
nddat
ewherey
ouknow
y
ou'l
lmeett
heloveofy
ourl
if
e"
GUGULETHU

Isubmi ttedmyr esignati

onamont haf terIhad
gottent hejobof ferandt heexcitementwas
hardtocont ain.Thi siswhatIwantf ormyl i
fe,
cli
mbi ngupt hecor porateladder,buildinga
namef ormy selfandnotl i
vinginLoy iso's
shadow.NowI '
m def i
nit
elybuy i
ngmy sel facar
nextyearandahouse.Thepl ansj ustkeep
fl
oodingmymi nd, bigplansandl ittl
epl ans.I
wast oldt hatIhadt oserve2mont h'
snot iceand
Iwasf inewi tht hatsi nceI'
llstar
tt henewj ob
4mont hsaf tergi vingbi r
th.Thetwomont hs
fl
ewbyqui t
ef ast ,nowI '
m 7mont hspr egnant
withababybumpt hesizeofsomeonet hati s
onlyamont hpr egnant .Ifi
twasn' tfortheki cks
thi
sbabygi vesme, I
'
ddoubtI 'm pregnant .My
boobsar ebiggerandf ull
er,myhi pswi derand
myass. .
.ohlor dmyassi sthesexi estit'sev er
been.Round,
fir
m andsodamnsexy
Loy
iso:
youar
esoobsessedwi
thy
ourbody
Me:doyoublameme?Lookatall
thi
ssexi
ness
anddon'
tev
ent hi
nkofact
ingl
i
keyoudon'
t
enj
oymynewbody
Hewr appedhi
sarmsaroundmywai
stf
rom t
he
back,pl
acedwetki
ssesonmyneckt
hen
ni
ppledonmyearlobe
Him:ohIenj
oyital
ri
ght.Thi
sbodyplusyour
hugeappet
it
eforsex.
..
I'
vediedandgoneto
heaven
Hepul
l
edmetowardshi
m,myassr
est
ingon
hi
snowst
if
fer
ect
ion
Me:
huhuhbaby
,wear
egoi
ngt
obel
ate
Hi
m:comeonnanazi
,ngi
zol
i
fakakancanenj
e
Ibur
stint
olaughter
,whenlastdi
dIhear
someonesaysuchaf ool
ishthi
ng.Ipushedhi
m
away,t
urnedaroundtopeckhisli
psthen
gr
abbedmybag
Me:
asambe
Hi
m:whi
l
eI'
mli
ket
his?
Me:
we'
l
lswi
tchont
heai
rconi
nthecar
Hi
m:y
ouar
ecr
uel
baby
Il
efthi
m whi
l
eheadjust
edhi
spant
s.Theki
ds
ar
eatschoolsot
hehousei
squi
et
Me:
heyNana
Shewaswat
chi
ngTVi
nthel
ounge
Nana:
hel
l
osi
si
Me:Loy
isoandIaregoi
ngoutf
orafewhour
s.
Pl
easeprepar
elunchf
orwhenwecomeback
Her
:al
ri
ghtsi
si
JustasLoy i
socamedownt hestair
s,hi
schi
l
d
star
tedthekickboxi
ngstunts,
catchi
ngmeoff
guard.Igaspedl
oudlywhil
eholdi
ngmy
stomach
Loy
iso:
andnow?
Me:
hej
ustki
ckedagai
n
Loyi
so:shebet
ternothi
det
oday
.Ican'
twai
tto
sayItol
dyouso
Me:
thi
sisaboy
.Icant
ell
Thedrivetothedoctorwasafunone,wewere
sti
l
larguingovert
hesexofthebaby.Icant
bel
iev
eI '
m givi
ngbir
thin2months
Dr
:myf
avor
it
ecoupl
e
Shesmi l
ed,wear eherf
avor
it
ebecausemy
boyfr
iendiscrazyandhismadnessi
sfel
tal
l
overandev er
ywherewego
Loy
iso:
Ihopeshedoesn'
tcr
ossherl
egst
oday
Me:
youmeanhe
Loyi
so:noIdef
ini
tel
ymeanshe.That
'
smybaby
gi
rli
nthere
Dr
:OKl
et'
sfi
ndout
Sheli
ftedmytop,appl
iedthegelandmov edt
he
scannerar
ound.Hisheartbeatst
il
lst
rongand
l
oud.Ifoundmyselfsmil
ingasIwatchedhim
onthemonitor
Dr
:legsar
enotcr
ossedt
oday
Loy
iso:
yes!
Dr
:let
'sseewhatwehav
eher
e
Shecont
inuedmovi
ngthescannert
hen
st
opped,chuckl
edt
ohersel
f
Me:
and?
Dr
:congr
atul
ati
onsguy
s,y
ouhav
eal
i
ttl
emi
ss
Smit
hontheway
Loy
iso:
haaa!It
oldy
ouso
Hekissedmyhandbef
oreki
ssi
ngmeful
lonthe
l
ipscausi
ngmetomoanwhichhadt
hedoctor
l
aughing
Loyi
so:
dochasany
oneev
erhadsexont
his
bed?
Ihithi
sshoul
der
.Afterwi pingt
hegel of
fmy
stomach,t
hedoctorgaveusapi ct
ureofthe
scanandweleft
.Thisidiotnexttomekept
hummi ngt
ohimselfwitht heper
manentsmi l
e
onhisface
Me:
mxm what
ever
Loyi
so:2mor
emont
hsbaby
.Just2andshe
wil
lbeher
e
Me:
arey
ouhappy
?
Hi
m:I
'
m mor
ethanhappyst
handwasam
Whenwegotbackt othehouse, Nanawassti
l
l
cookingsoImadeaf ruitsal
adwi t
hultr
amel
andsnuggl edwi t
hmymanont hecouch.He
wrappedhi sarm aroundme, kissedmy
foreheadthensmi l
edt ohimself.This
happinesst hi
nghasbeenal ongt i
mecoming
formeandI 'm gl
adi t
'sfi
nall
yher e.Myphone
rangfrom theki t
chencount ersoIr ushedt
oit
.
Privat
enumber ?Ai OK
Me:
hel
l
o
Si
lence.Ir
emovedthephonefrom myear
,
l
ookedatittoseei
fthepersonHadhungupor
notandthecal
lwassti
llgoi
ngon
Me:
hel
l
o
Thepersonont
heot
hersi
deoft
hel
i
nesi
ghed
heav
il
y
?
?:sawubonaGugu
Thevoicesoundedf
ami
l
iarbutIcoul
dn'
tputmy
fi
ngeronit
Me:
yebo
?
?:ukhul
umanoBonga
Me:
Bonga?
Ihadtouseoneofthechair
stobal
ancebefor
e
Isatdown.Ihav
en'
tseenorspokentoBongain
ages,yearst
obeexactandnowhecall
sme.
Forwhat ?
Him:yesBonga.I
'
mi nDur
banf
ort
heweekand
I
'dli
keforustomeetup
Me:
meetup?Mi
nanawe?Why
?
Hi
m:I'
dli
keust
otal
kGugu.Ihav
eal
otI
'
dli
ke
t
osaytoyou
Me:
I'
m sor
ryIcan'
t
Ihungup, t
ooki nadeepbr eathandsi ghed
heav il
y.Whynow?Whycal lmenowwhenmy
l
ifei smov i
ngf orward?Ihatedhimf orthi
s, I
'
ve
hatedhi mf oralotofthingsbutthiscallri
ght
nowmakesmehat ehim al
loveragain.Loy i
so
fetchedt hekidsfrom schoolwhil
eIt ookanap
ont hecouch.I tdidn'
ttakemuchf ormet o
knowwhent heywer ebackbecauseSabel oand
hisf at
herwer earguingthemomentt hey
wal kedinthrought hedoor.Sambulospot ted
meont hecouchandr ant ome,kissedmy
cheekandsmi l
ed.Theseboy saresoador able
Me:
howwasschool
?
Sambul
o:bor
ing.CanIhav
eicecr
eam mama?
Sabel
o:y
oucanbuty
oumaynot
Sambul
o:I
'
m nott
alki
ngt
oyou
Sabelo:
Idon'tcar
e.Youar
est
il
lnotget
ti
ngi
ce
cream.Rightmama?
Me:
comegr
eetmef
ir
st
Hesmi l
edshylybef
orecomi ngclosertome,
placingakisswherehisbrotherhadplacedita
fewmi nutesago.Xolohisn'
taboutthelif
eof
me, herandLoy i
soarethebestoff r
iends.I
don'texistwhenheisaroundwhi chiswhyIjust
sticktomyboy s
Sambul
o:somamaaboutt
hei
cecr
eam?
Me:
goeatf
ir
stt
henwewi
l
ldi
scussi
cecr
eam
Sambul
o:Idon'
twantt
odi
scussi
tnj
enamama.
Iwantt
oeatit
Ichuckl
ed.I
t'
sthi
sver
ymomentt
hatI
appreci
atet
hatmybabywi
l
lbeagir
l.
Thedat eisJul y31, aweekpastmyduedat e
andIcoul dn'tbebot her edactuall
ybecauseI 'm
notheav y,I'
m notst ressedandI 'm enjoyingt he
calm beforet hestorm.Iwakeupal onei nbed,
i
t'saTuesdayandLoy isomustbeatwor k
anyway .Itakeashower ,getdressedi nabr ight
yell
owmaxi dressandsl i
ppers.AsImakemy
waydownt hest ai
rs,Ispotmymani nt he
l
ounge.St andi ngtherewi t
hhisbackt owar ds
meandchannel hopping.Thecouchi sr i
ght
theresoIdon' tunderstandwhyhei sn'tsitt
ing
down.Iwr apmyar msar oundhimf rom the
backt henki sshisshoul der.Heiswi thoutaT-
shir
t
Me:
Ithoughty
ouwer
eatwor
k
Qhawe:
Loy
isoi
satwor
k
Iremovemyar msatl
ight
ningspeed.OKt
hisi
s
embarrassi
ngbuthel
aughswhichmakesme
feelev
enmor eembar
rassed
Me:ohmywor
dI'
m sosor
ry.It
houghty
ou
wer
e..
.
Him:don'twor
ryabouti
t.Youdi
dn'
tknowIwas
hereanyway
Me:st
il
l.Ishoul
dbeabl
etoknowmyown
boy
fri
end
Him:fr
om theback?Youar
ebeingtoohar
don
your
self
.Anywaywhat'
sforbr
eakfast
?
Wewalkedtowardstheki
tchen.I
'
m goi
ngtoki
l
l
Loy
isofornott
ell
ingmethatQhaweisher
e.
Whendidheevengethere?
Me:
whatdoy
ouf
eel
li
kehav
ing?
Him:ham,cheeseandmushr oom omel
etwi
th
sweetbel
lpeppersandj
alepeanos
Me:
OKsoundssi
mpl
eenough
I'
vemaster
edthisdishbecauseit'
salso
Loyi
so'
sfavori
te.Imadeitforthebothofus,
serv
edhim andweat e.Iwantedtoaskwhathe
wasdoi
ngi
nDur
banbutIal
sodi
dn'
twantt
obe
r
ude
Him:y
ourboy
fri
endhast
oldy
ouaboutt
he
damages?
Me:
damages?Whatdamages
Hi
m:forthebaby.That
'swhyweareher
e.We
ar
egoingtoyourfamil
yonFri
day
Me:
myf
ami
l
y?Excuseme
Igotup,
dial
edLoy
iso'
snumberasIent
eredhi
s
study
Loy
iso:
heymyl
ove
Me:Ij
usthadsexwi
thy
ourbr
othert
hinki
ngi
ts
you
Hi
m:Guguy
oudi
dwhat
?
Me:It
houghti
twasy
ou.Youdi
dn'
ttel
lme
Qhawewashere
Hi
m:I
'
m goi
ngt
oki
l
lthatbast
ard
Me:
notbef
oreIki
l
lyou
Hi
m:y
imakal
okbabyar
eyouser
ious?
Me:ofcour
senotbutwhydi
dn'
tyout
ell
mehe
i
shere
Il
etoutasi
ghandIj
ustl
aughed.Ser
veshi
m
ri
ght
Hi
m:y
oual
mostgav
emeahear
tat
tacknanazi
Me:
whyi
sheher
e?
Him: f
ordamages.YouDidn'
tthi
nkIwasgoi
ng
t
ol etmydaughterusey
oursurnamenowdid
you?
Me:
doy
ouev
enknowwher
etogo?
Hi
m:Ial
readyspoket
oyourmot
heraweekago
Iwasn'tgoingtoaskwhenandhowhegotmy
mot her
'snumber.Iwant edtobutthefeeli
ngof
wetnessf l
owingbetweenmyl egsshi
ftedmy
focus.Didmywat erjustbreak?
Me:
youneedt
ocomehomer
ightnow
Hi
m:I
'
dlov
etobabybutI
'
m swamped
Me:
mywat
erj
ustbr
okesounswampy
our
sel
f
Ihungup.Iwasi npanicmode, I
'
m scared,I
'
m
notreadyandI '
m notprepar
ed.Myheartbeati
s
at2000beat sperminuteandsuddenlyI'
m
sweating.MindyouIhav en'
tmovedfr
om where
I'
m standing.I
'
mi nabitofahazewhichIbreak
outofwhenIf eelsomeone'shandsonmy
shoulders.Ismil
efai
ntl
y
Qhawe:
arey
ouOK?
Ishr
ugmyshoul
der
s.Idon'
tknowany
thi
ng
ri
ghtnow
Hi
m:ar
eyoui
npai
n?
Againmyansweri
sint
hef
orm ofshr
ugged
shoulder
s
Hi
m:GuguI
'
m goi
ngt
oneedy
out
ofocus
Me:
focus?
Hi
m:y
esf
ocus.Ar
eyoui
npai
n?
Itakeinadeepbreath,
slowl
yexhal
eandt
ryt
o
focus.I
'm noti
npain
Me:
I'
m noti
npai
n
Him:OKgood.Takeabat
hwhi
l
ewewai
tfor
yourboy
fri
end
Me:OK.Pl
easemakemeacupoft
eawi
th
vani
l
lamil
k
Hi
m:OK
Idon'twantt otaket hest ai
rssoIuseaguest
bathroom downst airs.Ilayinthewar m water,
myey esshutasIt ryt oprocessall t
hat'
sabout
tohappen.I '
m aboutt ohaveababy .Awhole
babyi saboutt ocomeoutofmypunani .My
heartstart
sr acingagai nandI '
m backinpani c
mode.Af terwhatf eelsl i
keacent uryoftr
yingto
calm down, Qhawewal ksinwithmycupoft ea.
I'
m stalknakedandhonest lyIdon'tcar
e.I
alr
eadyhav eal otgoi ngon, myboy f
ri
end'
st win
seei
ngmenakedwi
l
lnotbot
hermer
ightnow
Me:
thanky
ou
Hi
m:Loy
isoi
sonhi
sway
Me:
OK
Hewalksout.Idr
inkt
heteaintinysi
psandit
doeswondersformynerves.Mymanwal ks
i
ntothebat
hroom asIfi
nishthecup
Loy
iso:
whatar
ewedoi
ng?
Me:
dri
nki
ngt
eai
nthebat
htub
Hi
m:why
?
Me:
Idon'
tknow
Hi
m:weshoul
dgett
ot hehospi
tal
.I'
veal
ready
t
oldt
hem wear
ecoming
Me:
OKgi
vemeaf
ewmi
nut
es
Hewalksoutafterki
ssi
ngme.Ilayint
he
bat
htubunt
ilIfal
lasl
eep.Idon'
tknowwhat
Qhaweputinthatteabuti
thasdonewonders.I
wakeupwhenIf
eel
mysel
fbei
ngl
i
ftedf
rom t
he
bat
htub
Me:
Loy
iso
Him:
getdressedplease.I
'
veal
readypackeda
bagf
oryouandt hebaby
Iscr
eam aswhatfeel
sli
keper
iodpai
nshi
tsme
l
ikeawave.Heplacesmeonthebed
Hi
m:weneedt
ogety
out
othehospi
tal
Inod.I'm cl
osetot earsbecauseoft hepainof
myut erusbeingshr edtopeaces.Whenweget
tothehospi t
al,I
'
mt ol
dI '
m notreadyt opopyet
.
Att hi
smomentt hepai nisunbearable,myback
i
sonf i
re,myuterusi sbeingtornapar tandI
can'tdothis.Iwasi nlaborfor17hrsbef or
eI
gav ebir
thtomydaught er.I
'veneverseena
babywi thsomuchhai rinmyl i
fe.Loy i
so
squeezedmyhandast heytookhert oget
cleanedup.Ilookedathi m andsmi led.Iwas
exhaustedbutIsmi l
ed
Loy
iso:
wedi
dit
Me:
issheOK?
Hi
m:shei
sper
fectnanazi
Qhawebr oughtmyangel tous,hewas
assi
sti
ngwi ththebirt
handhehadcheckedher
aft
ertheyhadcl eanedherup.Heplacedheron
mychest, hert
inyeyesopenedforaf ew
secondsthenclosedagain
Me:
wow
Loy
iso:
what
?
Me:
shei
sgor
geous
Loy
iso:
justl
i
kehermot
her
Il
aughedassheat temptedshovingherfi
sti
n
hermouth.Herfat
hergotupt otakeherand
l
aidheronhischest.Shelookedsot i
nyagai
nst
hi
schestbutthesightwast r
ueperfecti
on
Me:
Ilov
eyouguy
s
Qhawe:
wel
ovey
out
oo
Il
aughed
Loy
iso:
hei
sani
diott
hisone.Wel
ovey
out
oo
mommy
[
08/
18,
15:
40]Mca:
Season2
I
nser
t29
"
Ba•
by(
noun)
Al
i
ttl
ebi
tofheav
ensentdownt
oear
th"

GUGULETHU
Loy
iso:
youknowt
her
eisonl
yaweekl
eftr
ight
?
Me:IknowbutIcan'
tseem t
ocomeupwi
tha
name.Youar
enothelpingei
ther
Ourdaught eri
s3weeksol dandwehav ebeen
goi
ngt hroughthemostwi thnamingher.None
ofthenamesLoy isocomesupwi t
hseem fit
andrightforher.Sheisgorgeous,
tot
all
yher
fat
her
'sdaught
erbutIj
ustcan'
ttr
ustt
henames
hethi
nksof
Him:nanaziI
'
vecomeupwi
thnames,
youj
ust
don'
twantthem
Me:becauset
heyar
eaverage.Idon'
twantmy
chi
l
dhav i
nganaver
agename
Hi
m:Igi
veupony
ou.Ihav
etot
akey
ourot
her
ki
dst
oschool
Ilookedatmydaught erwhoi sfastasleepnext
tomeandIwascompl ete.NowIunder stand
Abongi we'
sobsessionwi t
hherki ds.Kidsjust
fi
llaspacey oudidn'
tevenr eali
zewast her
e.I
alreadyknowjusthowmucht hi
sl i
ttl
eonewi l
l
beget t
ingspoil
ed.Therewasasof tknockon
thedoorandt hesquadr anin
Sambul
o:i
sthebabysl
eepi
ngmama?
Me:
yesshei
ssoy
ouhav
etobequi
et
Xol
oh:
canIki
ssherLul
u?
Me:
gor
ightaheadsweet
ie
Iwatchedasshepl acedasoftpeckonthe
baby'
sf orehead.Thetwinski
ssedhercheek
thenkissedmycheek
Sabel
o:by
eby
ebaby
.By
eby
emama
Me:
byebi
gboy
.Il
ovey
ouguy
s
Them:
lov
eyout
oo
Theyr anoutagain.Idon'tknowhowmany
ti
mesI '
vetol
dthem tonotr uni
nt hehousebut
dot heyli
sten?Notachance.Ir eachedformy
phonewhi chwasv ibrat
ingonthepedest al
.I
rol
ledmyey eswhenIsawwhowascal l
ing
Me:
mama
Mom:
Guguunj
ani
?
Me:
ngy
aphi
l
amama.Unj
ani
?
Her
:hay
inami
ngy
aphi
l
a
Ther
ewasanawkwar
dsi
l
encewhi
chi
rr
it
ated
mebecauseshedi
dcal
lforar
eason,
shemust
j
ustgett
oit
Her
:unj
ani
umnt
anakho?
Me:
uri
ght
Her:OK.Uhm Gugumntanam accor
dingt
oour
cul
ture,
youshouldhav
ebeenher ef
orthe
damages
Me:t
hemoneyi
syour
smama.I
'
m sur
eSophi
e
wi
ll
appr
eci
atei
t
Againshepaused.Justheav
ybr
eat
hing
thr
oughthespeaker
Her
:Idon'
tdr
inkany
mor
e.I
'
m notwel
lGugu
Me:thengoseeadoctormama.I'
m nota
doct
ormina.Youhav
emoney .Goseeadoct
or
Her
:myli
veri
snogood.ThedoctorssayIneed
t
ohaveanoperat
ionandi
tsexpensi
ve
Me:Ij
usthadababymi
namamaandI
'
m not
wor
kingsoangi
namal
i
Her
:Iunder
standmntanam.Ki
ssmygr
andchi
l
d
f
orme.Somilangay
eloyomuntu
Me:
byeby
emama
Ihungup,huff
edloudlybefor
eplacingthe
phonebackont hepedestal
.Igotoutofbed,
tookaquickshowerwhi l
ethebabysleptand
whenIgotout,herfatherwasback.Iquickly
moist
uri
zed,gotdressedthenpumpedmi lkfor
her
Loyi
so:whyam Ifi
ndi
ngy
oupumpi
ngmi
l
kfor
ourchi
l
dsosexy ?
Il
aughedwhi
l
egi
vi
nghi
mthesi
deey
e
Hi
m:I
'
m ev
enhar
dyaz
Heissuchani di
ot,hi
m andQhawear eoneand
thesamething.SadlyQhaweonlystayedf
ora
week,hecouldn'
tkeephishandsoffhisni
ece
andIenjoy
edhav i
nghim around
Me:
Igotacal
lfr
om mymot
her
Hi
m:r
eal
l
y?Ut
hini
?
Itol
dhim aboutmyconver
sat
ionwit
hmommy
dearestandthel
ookhegavemedidn'
tsi
twel
l
withme
Me:
what
?
Hi
m:y
ourmot
heri
ssi
ckGugu
Me:sheisn'
tsi
ck.Shej
ustwantsatt
enti
on.She
i
salonenowandsuddenlywemustt akecar
eof
herwher
easshef ai
l
edtotakecar
eofus?
Hesighed.Hewasannoyingmeaswell
becausehedoesn'
tknowhowslythatwoman
i
s.Iknowher,t
hegood,thebadandtheugl
y
si
deofher
Him: nanazidon'
tletyourpastchanget
he
persony ouare.Helpher,notf
orherbutfory
ou
andYamkel ani
Me:
Yamkel
ani
?
Henoddedwi
tht
hebi
ggestsmi
l
eonhi
sface.
Thisi
s200ti
mesbet
tert
hant
henameshehas
beencomi
ngupwit
h
Me:Il
ikei
t.Youknowmymotherisal
ready
f
orci
ngherwayintomychi
l
d'sl
if
e.Busytel
li
ng
methatsomil
angayeumnt
anam
Agai
nhesmi
l
ed,
oneey
ebr
owr
aisedt
hist
ime
Me:
yini
?
Hi
m:Somi
l
a-ngay
eYamkel
ani
Smi
th
Me:
babyno
Him:babyyes.Thisi
sourf i
rstchi
ldtogether.
Thefi
rstr
ealcommi tmentinourrelat
ionship
andwewi l
lgrow,str
engthenandbui l
dast rong
fami
l
y
Nowmymot herhasi
ndirectl
ynamedmychi l
d.
Wef il
ledinthehomeaffairsfor
ms, wewer e
goingt osubmitt
hem t
henextdayf orherbi
rth
certi
fi
cate.Whenshewokeup, Ichangedher
diaperthengaveherf
athert hebott
letofeed
herwhi
leIwentdownst
air
stot
hrowt
hedi
rt
y
di
aperaway
Me:
Mbal
i
?
Thereshewaschi
ll
ingi
ntheki
tchenwit
ha
sandwichandagl
assofjui
cei
nf r
ontofher
Mbal
i
:heyGugu
Me:whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e?Shoul
dn'
tyoube
oncampus?
Her:
I'
m donefort
hedaysoIthoughtIshoul
d
comearoundandseemyniece
Ilookedattheclockont
hekit
chenwallandit
was9: 35.Howisshedoneforthedayat9:
35?I
tossedthediaperint
hebi
nandj oi
nedher
Me:
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Her
:not
hing.Ij
ustcamet
oseey
ouguy
s
Me:hmmm Isee.I
'
llbri
ngy
ourni
ecedown
whenshei
sdoneeating
Her
:OK
Me:I
'
m st
il
lwai
ti
ngf
ort
heJuner
esul
tsnj
alo
Mbal
i
Her
:akhona.Ij
ustf
orgott
hem att
hef
lat
Shewasl y
ing.Shedi
dn'
tfor
gett
hem,
shel
eft
them onpurpose
Me:
hmmm
Mbalispentt
hedaywit
hSomi
lawhi
l
eLoy
iso
andIstayedl
ockedupi
nourr
oom
Loyi
so:howmanyweeksbef
orewecanhav
e
sexagain?
Me:
howol
disSomi
l
a
Hesmi
l
edandIj
ustpr
etendednott
oseehi
m
Me:
Loy
isohowol
disshe?
Hi
m:3weeks
Me:
we'
l
lhav
esexi
n9weeks
Hi
m:r
hangabekuy
any
iwa.Doct
orsai
daf
ter
6weeksy
ou'
l
lbef
ine.
Me:
cul
tur
all
y
Him:st
oprightther
e.Mysur
namei
sSmi
th,
we
don'
thavecult
ure
Icoul
dn'thel
pbutlaugh,
heisani di
otthi
sone
andIstoppedtaki
nghim ser
iouslyalongti
me
ago.Hi
sphoner angandhesmi ledbefor
e
answeri
ngit
*
*
LOYI
SO
Me:
hel
l
oMr
sSmi
th
Mom:
don'
thel
l
oMr
sSmi
thme,
opent
hisgat
e
Iqui
ckl
ysatuponthebed.Shecan'tbehere,
canshe?Imeansheismymot herandIloveher
butsheknowsshehastocal
lbeforecoming
here
Me:
whi
chgat
emama?
Her
:thegat
esofheav
en.I
'
mtal
ki
ngaboutt
he
gat
etoyourhouse
I
fIwasn'
tsoshocked,
I'df
indthatf
unny.I
qui
ckl
yhungupthengotoffthebed.Whatis
mymotherev
endoingandwhydi dn'
tanyone
warnmeshewascomi nghere
Gugu:
andnow?
Me:
mymom i
satt
hegat
e
Her
:whi
chgat
e?
Me:
theoneout
sidet
hishouse
IthoughtIwasi
npanicmodebutGuguj
ust
unlockedanewlev
elofpani
c
Her
:shoul
dIchange?MustIcov
ermyhead?
Me:
babyr
elax.I
t'
sjustmymot
her
Her
:justy
ourmot
her
?Loy
isoar
eyoui
nsane?
Ipeckedherl
i
ps.Shemustj
ustr
elax
Me:
dowhatevermakesy
oucomf
ort
abl
e.Let
megoopenthegat
e
Iwalkedoutourbedr
oom andwentdownstair
s.
Themomentshewal kedi
n, shewasal
ready
shouti
ng
Me:
heymom.Idi
dn'
tknowy
ouwer
evi
sit
ing
Mom:Imi
ssmygrandki
dsandappar
entl
yI
hav
eanewonet
hatyoudidn'
ttel
lmeabout
BeforeIcoul
drespond,
Ifel
therMKbag
againstmyshoulder
Me:ouchmama.It
olddad,
Ithoughthet
old
you
Iwasrubbingthepainoutofmyshoulder.Now
Iunderst
andwhyt hesebagsaresoexpensive.I
fol
lowedherintot
hel oungewher
eNanaand
Mbaliwerewatchi
ngTVwhi l
eSomil
aslept
peaceful
l
yont hecouchsuckingonherthumb
Mom:
uthi
whodi
dyout
ell
aboutt
hischi
l
d?
Me:
Itol
ddad.It
houghthewoul
dtel
lyou
Her
:ist
hisSoso'
schi
l
d?
Me:
shei
smi
ne
Her
:hmmm andwhichonei
sthemot
her
bet
weent
hesetwo?
Me:hawmamay
ou'
vemetGugubef
ore.Shei
s
upstai
rs
Shesatdownnextt oSomi l
a,pi
ckedherupand
wakingherintheprocess.Iwat
chedasmy
mom' ssmilewidenedasshestaredather
granddaughter
Me:
Nanapl
easemakemymot
hersomet
hing
t
oeat
Nana:
OKbhut
i
Mbal
i
:I'
l
lhel
pher
Inoddedastheydi
sappear
edtowardst
he
ki
tchen.Af
terawhi
leGuguwalkedinwi
tha
doekonherheadandwearingalongmaxi
dr
ess.Iwant
edtolaughbutIdi
dn'
twantt
o
makeheruncomfort
abl
e
Gugu:
hel
l
oma
Mymom l ookedupandsmi ledatGugu.My
mom isjustthatki
ndofperson,war
m and
sweetunti
lyougiveherareasontotreaty
ou
sometypeofway
Mom:
hel
l
oGugu
Theyexchangedhugs.Mymom pattedthespot
nexttoherwheremydaughterwassleepi
ngnot
solongago,indi
cat
ingt
hatGugushouldsit
ther
e
Mom: soYouguy
sdeci
dedt
ohav
easecr
et
baby
?
GuguandIl
ockedeyesandIwatchedhow
scar
edshesuddenl
ywas.Wearenev ergoi
ng
toheart
heendofthi
ssecr
etbabybusiness.
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08/
18,
15:
41]Mca:
Season2
I
nser
t30
"
Dearmot
herinl
aw:thanky
ouf
orr
aisi
ngt
he
manofmydreams"

GUGULETHU
Ididn'tknowwhatt osay.HonestlyIdidn't
.I
thoughtLoy isohadt akencareofhissideoft he
fami l
y,iti
shi sfami l
yaf t
erallandwhatmade
mat tersworsei st hatI'
m notknownt ohis
mot herashi sgi rl
fri
end.WhenImether ,Iwas
j
ustaf ri
end.Ev enwhenwewentt ofetcht he
boy s,wedidn' tactuall
yadmi ttodat
ingbutIgot
thef eel
ingthati twasobv ious
Loy
iso:
secr
etbaby
?Real
l
ymom?
Lwa:shoul
dIaddsecretgi
rl
fr
iendaswell
?I
don'
tknowwhatiswrongwithyoukids?Why
doyoumakeusseem l i
kewear e
unappr
oachabl
e?
Loyisoreleasedasighashescr
atchedhishead.
Thisisbet weenhi
m andhismothersoIdon'
t
knowi fIshouldl
eaveorstay
Loyi
so:mamai
t'
snott
hatdeep.Ir
eal
l
ythought
dadtol
dyou
Lwa:whydidn'
tyout
ell
me?I'
my ourmot
her
Loyi
so.Canyouimagi
nehowhurtIwaswhen
Sosotol
dmey ouhadanot
herchi
ld?
Hervoi
cewasbr eaki
ngshewasclosetotear
s
butLoy
isost
il
lthoughtshewasbeingdramati
c
Me:I'
m sor
rywedidn'
ttel
lyouma.Wehadno
i
ntent
ionofexcl
udi
ngyouf r
om Somi
l
a'sl
i
fe
Shel i
ft
edherheadup, probablytost
opthe
tearsfrom r
oll
ingdown.Iunder st
oodherpai
n
atthismoment ,i
tsprobablythesamepainmy
mot herfeel
s.Theonlydiff
erencebei
ngthatmy
mot herdeserv
estheexclusionwhereasLwa
doesn't.NanaandMbal ibroughti
nfi
ngerfoods
withjui
cebutIof f
eredtomakeheracupoft ea
j
ustt
ocal
m herdown
Mbal
i
:Ihav
etogo
Me:
alr
eady
?
Her:
yeahIhav
etomeetupwi
thmyst
udy
gr
oup
Me:
alr
ightt
hen
Weshar edahugandl ef
t.Shewasbeingpicked
upbyacarIdon' tknowbutIwi l
laddressthat
whenmyboy fr
iendandhi smotherf
inall
ymake
peace.Ibroughtt heteatoherthentookmy
daughterfrom hersoshecoul deatcomf ort
abl
y
Lwa:
soy
ouguy
sar
einar
elat
ionshi
p?
Loy
iso:
mamahowl
ongar
eyoust
ayi
ng?
Lwa:
youwantmegoneal
ready
?
Loy
iso:ofcour
senotmama.Ij
ustwantt
oknow
soIcanensurethaty
ourst
ayi
sacomfort
abl
e
one
Lwa:
hmmm
Shecont
inuedsippingonhert ea,tot
all
y
i
gnori
ngLoy i
so'
squest ion.Therestoftheday
Loyi
so'
smot hertookov ermychild.Iwashappy
atf
ir
stbutthenthesquadcamehomeandI
wasmissingmypr incess
Sambul
o:gogo?
Sabel
o:wher
e?
Theybothrantot
helounge,
cli
mbedont hearm
restt
ofussovert
hei
rgrandmother
.Itwassuch
acutesight
,myboysreal
lyl
oveLwabutt hey
fi
ghtoverhersomuch
Sambul
o:whendidy
oucomeher
egogo?And
whatdi
dyoubri
ngme?
Lwa:
Ibr
oughty
oumyl
oveandaf
fect
ion
Sambul
o:by
eby
egogo
Sabel
o:y
eahby
eby
egogo
Theyj
umpedof
fthear
mrest
,pi
ckedt
hei
r
schoolbagsupont
hefl
oorandheadedfort
he
stai
rswhil
emumbli
ngsomethi
ngtoeachother
Me:
changeandcomedownt
oeat
Lwa:
Gugucomesi
twi
thme
Itooki
nadeepbr eaththenslowlyexhal
ed
befor
esitt
ingdownnextt oher.Somil
awas
nowasleepinhergrandmother'sar
ms
Lwa:
Gugu
Me:
ma
Her:
asmuchasheisagrownman,
hewi
l
l
al
waysbemypreci
ousbabyboy
Inodded.Idi
dn'
tknowwher
ethi
swasgoi
ngbut
Isti
l
lli
stened
Her:Loyisohasbeenthr
oughalot,
hehashad
hisli
fecompletel
ydestr
oyedonl
ytohavet
o
rebui
lditagai
n
Iqui
ckl
yswal
lowedt
hel
umpt hatwasf
ormi
ng
i
nmyt hr
oat
.AsmuchasIknowofLoyi
so'
s
hi
stor
y,hear
ingital
lov
eragai
ndoesn'
tmakei
t
easi
ertounderst
and
Her: asmuchasI 'm nothappyt hathehi d
Somi lafrom me, Iunderstandthathei s
guardednow.I t
'syourjobashi sgi r
lf
ri
endand
mot herofhischi l
dtohel phim breakdown
thosewal lshehasbui ltaroundhi mself.Ican
tell
thather eall
ydoesl ovey ouandy ouguy s
havet hi
sbeaut i
ful i
nnocentsoul together.Ican
alsot el
lthatyoulovehi m
Ismil
etomy selfatthethoughtofhowmuchI
l
ovethatman.Hel ov esmet hewayIwantt obe
l
oved,heworshipsthegr oundIwalkon,heis
ki
ndandanamazi ngf at
her.Hei
sn'tper
fectbut
heisperf
ectforme
Her:youal
sol
ovethoseki
dsasiftheyareyour
ownandassomeonewhogoti nt
oa
rel
ati
onshi
pAl
readyhavi
nghadkidsandmet
someonewhotreat
edmykidsashi sown,I
alwayscommendthat
Mysmi l
ebr oadensatthethoughtofSabel
oand
Sambulo.I'
vegot t
entothepointwherebyI
can'
ti
magi nemyl if
ewithoutthem.Theyhave
completedmyl i
feinway sIcan'
tevenexpr
ess
i
nwor ds.Il
ov ethoseboys
Her:I
'm goi
ngt obeher
efor3months.Justto
hel
py ouwiththebaby,
shari
ngmyown
knowledgeonhowt hi
ngsaredone.Duringt
hat
ti
meIhopewecangett oknoweachot heral
ot
bett
er.Somil
amakesusf amil
ynow
Thi
swomeni severy
thingyou'dwantina
mother,
aunt
,grandmotherorwhatever.
Def
ini
tel
ynotamonst er-
in-
law
Me:
I'
dappr
eci
atet
hatma
Her:I
'm glad.Anotherthi
ngI
'
dli
ket
oknow,
are
yourparentssti
llal
ive?
Me:
mymot
heri
s
Her:
askhertocomeoveraswel
l
.Itwi
l
lbea
gr
eatbondi
ngsessi
on
Myeyeswidenedatthati
dea.Mymot heri
sa
hotmess.Idon'
tknowwhet hersheiscoming
orgoi
ngandIknowshewi l
ldefi
nit
ely
embarr
assmet oLoyiso'
smot her
Me:
uhm l
etmegoputt
hisl
i
ttl
eonedown
ItookSomi l
aaf t
erhergr
andmot
herkissedher
forehead.Iplacedhergentl
yonherbedinthe
nur ser
yt hentookthebabymoni
tort
oourr oom.
Herf atherwast ypi
ngawayonhisl
aptopbut
l
iftedhisey eswhenheheardmewal ki
ngin
Loy
iso:
nanaz
i
Me:
heyl
ove
Hi
m:y
izapha
Me:
hol
don
Iwalkedovertot hebli
nds,openedthesl
iding
doorthenclosedt hebl
inds.Thesunwas
sett
inganyway .Icli
mbedont hebed,heclosed
thelapt
opandpl acedi
tont hepedest
albefore
l
if
ti
ngmeuptorestmyheadonhi
schest
.If
elt
hi
swar
mlipsonmyf or
ehead
Hi
m:ur
ight
?
Inodded
Me:j
ustabi
tti
red.Yourmom i
sst
ayi
ngf
or
3months
Him:3what?Dadi
sn'tgoingtoal
lowt
hatwhi
ch
meanshewill
comeher e.YesesI
'
m goi
ngto
haveLwaandSosoinmyhousef or3mont
hs
Me:
yep
Hi
m:doIhav
etheopt
ionofmov
ingout
?
Ishookmyheadwhi
lel
aughi
ng.Idon'
tmindhi
s
parent
sbei
ngher
e,t
heyareni
cepeople
Me:
yourmom want
smet
ocal
lmymot
herov
er
Him:yest
hatwoul
dbegreat
.ThatwaySomi
l
a
canbondwit
hbothhergr
andpar
ent
s
Igav
ehi
mthat"
ser
iousl
y"l
ook,
maki
nghi
m
shr
ughi
sshoul
der
s
Hi
m:i
tsj
ustasuggest
ionangel
Me:doesi
tmakemeabadpersonthatIdon'
t
wantmymotherher
eorev
ennearmychild?
Hi
m: youhav
eyourr
easonsandI
'
m notgoi
ng
t
ojudgeyou
Me:
but
?
Hedr
ewinadeepbr
eat
h,exhal
edsl
owl
ythen
t
ookapause
Me:
Loy
iso
Hi
m:ev
ery
onedeser
vesasecondchance
Me:Idon'
twanthert
odest
roymychi
l
dli
keshe
hur
tmysister
sandI
Him:givei
tatry.Ifshecomeshere,
shecan
seethedoctor
st hatsheneedst
osee.I
tsa
goodideamylov e
Isi
ghed
Me:
Idon'
tl
ikei
t
Helift
edmyheadwi thhisf i
ngersandourey es
l
ocked.Icouldn'
thelpbutsmi l
easIl ookedat
myhandsomeman.I '
m soi nlovewi t
hhim.I
don'tt
hinkI'
veeverfeltt
hiswayaboutany one.
Notev enBonga.Heeehspeaki ngofBonga,I
neverheardfrom hi
m agai nafterthedayhe
cal
ledme.I t
sgoodt hough, Idon'tneed
complicat
ionsinmyl i
ferightnowany way
Hi
m:I
'
m goi
ngt
ofet
chy
ourmot
hert
omor
row
Me:
OK
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ousomuchGugu
Me:
IknowandIl
ovey
oumor
etat
akhe
Hi
smouthcurv
edint
oasmileashebr
oughtmy
f
acecl
osert
ohisandki
ssedme.
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08/
18,
15:
41]Mca:
Season2
I
nser
t31
"
Not
hingcoul
dhav
epr
epar
edmef
ort
his.
Not
hing"

GUGULETHU
Loyisowasri
ghtaboutonet hi
ng,OKmaybe
abouttwoorthr
eethingsbuttheonethat
standsoutt
hemostist hatofhowhisdadis
i
ncapableofsur
viv
ingwi t
houthismother
Soso:
Lwandi
l
eyoul
i
ed
Lwar ol
ledhereyeswhi l
eshet riedveryhardt
o
hi
det hesmileonherf ace.Sosohadj ust
walkedinthroughthedoort ofindhiswifeand
mymot heri
nthelounge.Sur pr
isingl
ymy
motherhasbeenqui tecivi
l,notev enastench
ofalcoholandsheador esmyki ds.Shehas
madei thernormtor emindmet hatshewon't
embar r
assmei nfrontofthesepeopl e
Lwa:
whatdi
dIl
i
eabout
?
Soso:
howdi
d2day
stur
nto3mont
hs?You
sai
dyouarel
eavi
ngfortwodays.2day
s
MaHadebenott
herestofourl
i
v es
Lwa:
restofourl
i
vesSmi
th?Youar
eso
dr
amati
c
SheplacedSomi lai
nmyar msandappr oached
herhusband.Thewayt heylookedateachother
,
onet r
yingtobefakeangryandt heot
herone
fai
li
ngati gnor
ingherhusband.Lwawrapped
herarmsar oundSoso'sneckandsmi l
ed
gracefull
y
Lwa:
youar
eher
e
Soso:
andIwoul
dn'
twantt
obeany
wher
eel
se
Lwa:
I'
m gl
ady
ouar
eher
e
Sososmi
l
ed
Soso:
canIbegr
eet
edpr
oper
lynow?
Theyst
artedkissi
ng,i
tsal
waysbeaut
if
ulto
wit
nesslast
inglove.I
tgi
vest
herestofushope
Loy
iso:
guy
scomeon.Ser
iousl
y?
Me:
leav
ethem al
one
Loy
iso:
no.Mom!Dad!Getar
oom pl
ease
Soso:
giv
eusar
oom
Loyi
so:
youguysdor eal
izehowol
dyouar
e
ri
ght
?Youaregrandparents
Soso:
so?Ipr
obabl
ylastl
ongeri
nthesackt
han
youdo
Loy
iso:
Ithi
nkI
'
m goi
ngt
obesi
ck
NanahelpedSosowi t
hhi sluggageandhi m and
hi
swi f
elockedt hemselvesint hei
rroom allday
.
Lwahadbeenher eforaweekandSosoj oined
her.I
tsaSaturdayafternoon,Somi l
ajustturned
amont hol
dsoherf atherisgoingalloutforthe
l
it
tlecel
ebrat
ion.Mostofhi sfamil
ymember s
arecomingov erfordi
nner
Mom:
Ihaveanappoi
ntmentwi
tht
hedoct
or
t
omor
row.Pl
easedri
vemether
e
Me:
whatt
ime?
Her
:at11
Me:OKI
'l
ltakeyou.May
bewecanhav
elunch
wi
thMbal
iafter
wards
Mymot herloweredherhead.HerandMbali
don'tr
eall
ygetalong,act
uall
ynoneofmy
si
stersgetalongwithmymot her.Wet
oler
ate
herbecauseshei sourmotherandwecan'
t
exactl
ypretendli
keshenolongerexi
sts
Her
:youknowshehat
esmeGugu
Me:
shedoesn'
that
eyoumama.Shej
ustneeds
t
ime
Her:I
'm sorr
yforthewayIt
reat
edy ou.
Especi
allywenaGugu,youdon'
tdeserv
e
ever
ythi
ngIputy outhr
ough
Me:st
opapologi
zingmama.Wespokeabouti
t
andwe'
veputitbehi
ndus.Nousei
nmebeing
bi
tt
eraboutt
hepast
Twoweeksl
aterIhadmycheckupj
ustt
o
checki
fIhav
ehealeddownt
her
eandofcour
se
Loyi
sowasri
ghtnextt
ome
Dr
:how'
sthel
i
ttl
eone?
Loyi
so:get
ti
ngmor
ebeaut
if
ulwi
thev
ery
passi
ngday
Thedoctorcheckedmeandevery
thi
ngwasf
ine.
Sti
tcheshadhealedcompl
etel
y
Loy
iso:
sowecanhav
esexagai
n?
Ihi
thi
sarm.Hewasannoy i
ngmeandbei ng
i
nappropr
iat
eri
ghtnowbutthedoctorseemed
amusedbymyboy f
ri
end'
sstupi
dit
y
Loy
iso:
Iwantt
oknowhaw
Dr:
medical
l
yy esbuti
tal
ldependsonhow
Guguf
eelsaboutit
Loy
iso:
ohshei
sashor
nyasIam
I
'
vehadenoughofhimyaz,I
'm cl
oset
ojust
l
eav
inghi
mi nt
hishospi
tal
Me:
thanky
oudoc
Ther i
dehomewasanannoy ingone, hadI
knownt hatthi
swasgoingtohappen, Iwould
havebr oughtSambul
owith.That'soneper son
thatknowshowt ohandleLoyiso.Hisparents
excluded.
Me:
wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Loy
iso:
yousai
dyouar
enott
alki
ngt
ome
Me:becausey
ouwereannoy
ingmeandt
hisi
s
nott
heroutet
othehouse
Him:stayannoyedkemyloveandt
hat
'
s
becausewear enotgoi
nghome
Isi
deeyedhim,clear
lyshowingmyannoy ance
andhejustbl
ewmeaki ss.Aft
erdrivi
ngfor
whatfel
tli
keali
feti
me, wereachedour
dest
inat
ion.I
twasal akeresor
t,beauti
ful
,quiet
andperf
ect
Me:
thi
spl
acei
sbeaut
if
ul
Hi
m:ourpl
acef
ort
henextcoupl
eofhour
s
Myeyesbeamedwithexci
tement
.Lordknows
howmuchI'v
ebeenneedingsomethi
ngli
kethi
s.
Hegotoutt
hecar,
camet omysideandopened
mydoor
Hi
m:myl
ady
Hehadhi shandstr
etchedoutformetotake
andIdid.Hecuppedmyf ace,ki
ssedmeslowly
thenpull
edmybottom li
pbetweenhist
eeth
Hi
m:hmmm
Me:
behav
e
Hi
m:Idon'
tknowwhatt
hatwor
dmeans
Whilehesortedoutourcheckingin,Ical
l
ed
Nanat ocheckonmydaught erandsheassur ed
met hatmyheartwasf i
ne.IknowIshoul dbe
feel
i
ngbadf ornotmissingherrightnowbutI
don'
t.Aslongasshei sfi
ne,Icanr el
ax
Hi
m:whatdoy
ouwantt
odof
ir
st?
Me:
massage
Hi
m:byme?
Me:
byapr
ofessi
onal
Hi
m:hmm
Letmet r
anslat
equickly,what"
hmm"meansi n
Loyi
solanguageis"that'
swhatyout hi
nk".He
removedhisT-shi
rtandIf i
ndmy sel
fstari
ngat
hisabs,maybeIam ashor nyasheis,Ijust
hadn'
treal
izedit
.I'
mi nat r
ancewhichisbroken
bythesoundsofhisl aught
er
Him:youar
eget
ti
ngdr
ool
all
overy
ourdr
ess
nanazi
Me:mxm.I'
m goi
ngt
onapt
hengof
ormy
massage
Hi
m:I
'
llgi
vey
ouamassage
If
rown
Me:
wena?
Henodswhi leunbuckl
inghispantsand
droppi
ngthejeanstothef l
oor.NowI'm st
ari
ng
atevery
thi
ngt hati
ssexyabouthim.I t
sallout
i
nt heopen.Ifeelt
hemoi st
urebetweenmyl egs
andquickl
ypr essmythighstogether
Hi
m:ifyoust
il
lwantmor
eaf
tert
hat
,I'
l
ltakey
ou
t
othespa
Me:
whatar
eyouupt
o?
Hesmi l
es.Heisdef i
nitel
yuptosomet hing.The
massagehegi vesisfrom theheavens,his
stronghandswor kedmybodywel lbecauseI
fel
l asl
eeprightinthemi ddl
eofhistouches.
WhenIwakeup, I'
vediedandgonet oheav en.
Loy i
sohashi smout honmypussy , t
ongue
fuckingthelif
eoutofme
Me:
baby
Heignoresmebutcont
inuesdoingt
hemost
bet
weenmyl egs.Sl
owl
yeatingmeout,
enj
oyingmeasifI'
m hi
sfavori
temeal
.If
eel
my
i
nsidesturntowar mi cecream,getti
ngme
readyforacti
on.Mybackar chesandmyt oes
curl
,I'
m holdi
ngont ot hesheetsfordearlif
e,
gri
ppingandpul l
i
ngt hem.Thi smani sasex
god.Ifeelafi
ngerslowl ysli
deinsidemy
wetness,asecondf ollowsandImoanhi sname
l
oudly.Myhandgoesf orhi
sheadandIr i
dehis
face,f
uckinghistongueandhi sfi
nger s
Me:
Loy
iso
Histonguei sfli
ckingonmycl i
trapi
dlyandI
canf eelmyor gasm get
ti
ngcloser.Athir
d
fi
ngerent ersmebutnotwher etheother2are,
i
nsteadhef i
nger smyanusandi t
soverforme.
Myt oesar ecurledint
heair
,legswideopenand
Isquirt.Mybodyshakesandspasmsal lover
thebedwhi l
eImakeonehel lofamess
Hi
m:I
'
vemi
ssedy
ourmessyor
gasms
Idon'
trespond,
I'
m unabl
et ospeakr
ightnow,
I
needamomentor20.Her emoveshi
msel f
fr
om betweenmylegs,
cli
mbsontopofme,
ki
ssesmyl i
psmakingmetast
emy self
.Thet
ip
ofhispeni
sisatmyopeni
ng,I
'
m grindi
ngonit
,
tr
yingtogeti
tin
Hi
m:l
ookwhoi
sinar
ushnow
Me:
fucky
ou
Hesli
desin,
str
etchi
ngmyv
agi
nal
wal
l
sandI
scr
eam i
necstasy
Hi
m:shi
i
ii
t
Hequickl
ypul
l
souragai
n.Ishakemybodyi
n
f
rust
rati
on
Me:
whatt
hef
uck?
Him:
I'
mtr
yingt
omaket
hisl
astbaby
.Ial
most
came
Heslammedi ntomeagai n,
restedforafew
secondsthenmadesl owpassionatelovetome.
Hishandscar essedmybody ,
cover
ingev er
y
i
nch.I'
vemi ssedthis,
I'v
emi ssedhavinghim
i
nsidemeandI 'vemissedhavi
nghim wor shi
p
mybodyl i
kethis.Wemakel oveandreachour
cl
imaxatt hesamet i
mebeforehecollapses
nexttome.Heki ssesmyforeheadthenpulls
met olayonhischest
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ounanazi
Il
iftmyheadfrom hi
schest,oureyesmeetand
hekissesmedeeply.Iwantthisf
orther
estof
myl i
fe,j
usthi
m andourkids.Ourownhappi
ly
everaft
er
Me:Il
ovey
oumorebabazi
.Moret
hanl
i
fei
tsel
f
andmoret
hanany
thi
nginthewor
ld
Twoweekslat
erIst
il
lhavethataf
tersexgl
ow,
ngi
happyandi
tsevi
denteventoablindman
Me:
mor
ningma
Lwa:
mor
ningGugu.Needahand?
Me:
nahI
'
vegoti
tma.I
'
m al
mostdone
Shesi
tsont
hehi
ghchai
r,Ipourheracupof
coffeeandaf terawhileherhusbandjoi
nsus.I
makehi m acupoft easi
ncehei sn'
tacoffee
fan.BreakfastisreadyawhileLatersoIlaythe
tabl
ewi ththehelpofmymanwhocan' tseem
tokeephi shandsof fme.
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08/
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15:
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Season2
I
nser
t32
"
Alwaysshoott
oscor
e.Ev
enanowngoal
isst
il
l
agoal
"

LOYI
SO
I
tsbeen4weekssinceGuguandIst
art
ed
havi
ngsexagai
nanditfeel
samazi
ng.Hernew
bodyhasbecomemyweaknessandIthi
nkI
l
oveherevenmorenow
Me:
arey
ougoi
ngt
obeOKwi
thoutme?
Gugu:
yourpar
ent
sar
eher
e,mysi
ster
sareher
e,
Nanai
shereandmymot
heri
sal
sohere
Thereisabitofdr amawi thQhawe'sf
ami l
ythat
weneedt osor tout.OKmay beitsmorethan
j
ustabi tbecauseitsquit
ehecticandI'
mj ust
hopingwecandeal wit
hitproperlywi
thout
l
osingourmi nds.IpullGuguintomyar ms,how
i
sitthatI'
m alreadymissingherbutIhaven'
t
l
eft
Her
:I'
l
lbef
inebabe.Theki
dsandIwi
l
lbef
ine
Me:
nosext
oyswhi
l
eI'
m gone
Her
:howl
ongar
eyougoi
ngt
obegonef
or?
Me:
I'
m notsur
e
Shecocksherey
ebr
owatmewhi
l
egi
vi
ngmea
sl
ygri
n
Me:
mamakaSomi
l
aImeani
t.
Her
:I'
l
lsee.Thatshoul
dbemot
ivat
ionf
ory
ou
t
ocomebacksoon
Me:
I'
ll
trybaby
Af
terbr
eakf
ast
,Isai
dmygoodby
esandheaded
fort
heai r
port.I
tsthemiddl
eofSeptemberbut
i
tsstil
labitchil
lysoIgetcoff
eebefore
boardi
ngt hefamil
yjet.WhenwelandinJo'bur
g,
Qhawei swithNami andalr
eadywaiti
ngforme
Me:
tchi
nkwedi
nnguwel
o
Nami
:mol
otat
a
Weshakehands, t
hiski
disal
mostastal
lasI
am now.Ishakehandswit
hmyphotocopywho
i
sn'
thisusualcraz
yandannoyi
ngsel
f
Qhawe:
awul
ambanga?
Me:I
'm goodbr
o.Ihadbr
eakf
astbef
oreIl
eft
Dur
ban
Hi
m:well
let
'
sfi
ndacaf
enyanasoIcanf
il
lyou
i
nbef
oreweheadt
othehouse
Inodi nagreement .Aft
erthrowingmybagin
thetrunk,wef indacafe,orderbever
agesand
trytorelax.Isaytr
yt obecauseIcan'tev
enfake
relaxat
ionr i
ghtnow
Me:
sowhat
'sgoi
ngon
Qhawesighs,shakeshisheadwhil
eclenchi
ng
hisf
ist
s.Anyonethatknowsthebothofus
knowthatI
'mt heonewi t
hthetemperand
Qhaweisthemor ecalm andunder
standi
ngone
Me:
ndoda
Qhawe:
Olwet
hui
spr
egnant
Me:
what
?Umi
thi
uOl
wet
hu?Nj
ani
?
Qhawe:
njani
?Hehf
ondi
numi
thaunj
ani
umunt
u?
Me:st
upidquest
ion.I
'
mj ustshocked.Ol
wet
hu
i
sababy,howisshepregnant?Ujoleni
ni
uOl
wethuazeamithenje?
Qhawegav emeal ookthatt
oldmet hatmy
questi
onsar eannoyi
nghim.Wesati nsi l
ence
forawhile,Ireal
l
ycouldn'
tcomet otermswi t
h
thethoughtofOlwethubeingpregnant.Ij
ust
hadababy2mot hsagoandnowmydaught eris
pregnant.I
tjustmakesnosensekum
Qhawe:
noOl
wami
umi
thi
si
le
Me: nomahnQhawey oucan'
tbeser
iousri
ght
now.Thet r
iosare17,i
tmakesnosensethat
theyarehavingbabi
es
Qhawe:Ij
ustwantyoutohandley
onkelent
o
Loyi
sobecauseIal
readyf
eell
ikeI'
m goi
ngto
ki
ll
someone
Iwasthefi
rstoneuponmyf eeti
ndicati
ngthat
Iwasreadytoleave.Mybl oodfel
tli
keitwas
boi
li
ng,I
'm notevenatthel ev
elof
di
sappoint
menty et,
I'
m pissedashel l
rightnow.
OnamidrovetoQhawe' shouse
Me:OnamiIcouldmovef
astert
hanyouar
e
dr
ivi
ngbywalki
ng.I
fyoucan'
tdri
vet
hecar,
giv
e
i
ttometodrive
Nami
:speedl
i
mitnj
enat
ata
MyphonerangjustasIwasabouttotel
lhim up
fuckt
hespeedl
imit.Apict
ureofSomil
aflashed
onmyscreenri
ghtbelowhermother'
sname.I
decli
nedthecall
andhungup.Event
uall
ywegot
tothehouse,Ist
ormedthr
oughthefr
ontdoor
andmyey esweregreet
edbythoseofSihl
e
Si
hle:
Loy
iso
Me:
wher
eisshe?
Si
hle:
who?
Me:
Olwet
hu
Si
hledi
dn'
trespondwhi
chi
nfur
iat
edmemor
e
Me:
Nosi
hleI
'
m notgoi
ngt
orepeatmy
sel
f
Si
hle:
akekho
Me:
suxoka
Hereyeswentfr
om minet
ot hoseofher
husbandwhojustwal
kedpastherli
keshei
sn't
eveninther
oom.Olwamiwalkedinthr
oughthe
doorandthemomenthesawmei twasasifhi
s
bl
oodwentcold
Lwami
:mol
weni
tat
a
Me: ny
olweniny
olweni
yamasi
mba.Wher
eis
yoursist
er?
Lwami
:shei
suhm she'
s
Me:
thet
hai
ndoda.Uphi
?
Si
hle:
sheissaf
eLoy
iso.Youguy
sneedt ocal
m
downbefor
eyoudosomethi
ngyouwil
lregret
Idon'tknowwhereQhawehadgonetobuthe
ret
urnedwithadumpyofcast
lel
it
ethathe
gavet ome
Qhawe:hermotherIsHidi
ngher.Sihl
eenj
oys
thatmychi
ldi
spr egnant
.Uyay
ivuyelal
ont
o
andit
himamakhe
*
*
GUGULETHU
Iwasgoingoutofmymindwit
hwor r
y,neit
her
Loyi
sonorQhawewereansweri
ngtheirphones.
Sihl
esphonegoesst
rai
ghtt
ovoicemail.What
madematter
sworseisthatSomil
awouldn'
t
st
opcr
yingandhertemperatur
ekeptr
isi
ng
Me:
I'
mtaki
nghert
othedoct
or
Mom:
hav
eyout
ri
edpanado?
Me:I
'vet
ri
edev
ery
thi
ngmama.Not
hingi
s
wor
king
Lwa:OKdon'tcr
yGugu.Shewon'
tst
opcr
yingi
f
youstar
tcr
ying
Igav eSomil
atoLoyiso'smot herandjust
droppedonthecouch, sobbingloudly.Why
won'theanswerhisphoneandwhywon' tmy
daughterst
opcryi
ng?Hehasn' tbeengonef or
24hrsbutIalr
eadyfeellikeI'
mf all
i
ngapart
withouthi
m.Mymot hergav emeaj er
seyand
sl
ipperswhil
eLoyiso'smot herdressedSomila
war mly
Soso:
masambe
Lwa:
youcanst
ayl
ove.I
'
vegott
his
Soso:I
'
m notst
ayi
ng.You'
vegott
hisbuty
ou
needsomeonetohaveyouaswel
l
Atthehospi t
al,
Somi l
awasadmi tt
edfort
he
fever.If
oundpeacewhenshest oppedcr
ying.I
don'tthi
nkI'
veev erbeent
hisscaredinmylif
e,
thethoughtofmybabybei nginpainand
uncomf ort
ablehasscaredtheli
feoutofme
Dr
:Smi
th?
Iwasuponmyf
eetbef
oreLoy
iso'
spar
ent
s
Me:
yes
Dr:sheisgoingt
obeOK.Herfeverhasgone
downbutI '
m goi
ngt
okeepherforaf ewmore
hoursjustt
omakesureshei
swel lenought
o
gohome
Me:OKdoc.Thanky
ousomuch.Ar
eyousur
e
shei
sgoi
ngtobeOK?
Dr:I
'
m sur
ema'am.I
tsagoodthingyoubr
ought
heri
nimmedi
atel
y.I
tsnot
hingseri
ousbut
becauseshei
sst
il
lababy
,itcoul
dhav
egone
badly
Inodandhel eavesmewhi leIbr eathasi ghof
rel
i
ef.Wher ethef uckareyouLoy i
so?I'vebeen
cal
li
nghim andhehasn' tbotheredt oreturnmy
cal
ls.Heisasgoodasdeadt omer i
ghtnow
becauseIdon' tunderst
andwhat '
smor e
i
mpor t
antt hanhiskidsatthismoment .Around
6pm wet akeSomi l
ahome, sheissl eeping
peaceful
l
ynowwi thhersootherinhermout h.
Me:
nev
erscar
emel
i
ket
hatagai
nmyangel
Myphoner ingsasIplaceherinhercri
b.Icl
ick
myt onguewhenIseeherf at
her '
snameonmy
screen.Iki
ssmydaught er
'sfacebefor
eleaving
hernursery
.Idon'answerLoyiso'
scall
until
the
10thcall
Me:
hm
Loyi
so:
I'
vebeencall
i
ngy ou.What
'swr
ongwit
h
you?Whyhaven'
tyoubeenansweri
ngyour
phone?
Me:mxm konj
eyouanswer
edy
our
swhenI
cal
l
edyou
Hi
m: whymusty
oubesopet
ty?Iwasbusy
whenyoucal
l
ed
Me:yourdaught
erwasi
nhospi
tal
kebhut
iwhi
l
e
youwerebusy
Sil
ence.Icoul dhearhim breat hi
ngbuthe
wasn'tsayingany thi
ngandIwasn' taboutt o
sayanythingaswel l
.After5mi nsofsi l
encehe
hungup.Mxnl oyi
socangot ohel l yaz.Ifhe
knowswhat '
sgoodf orhim hebet t ercome
homet omor row.Iputmyphonei nt hechar ger
thenranmy selfabath.Ipour edint herelaxi
ng
oil
sandbat hf oam andsoakedmy selfin.IfI
wasn'tbreastfeedingI'
dloveagl assofwi ne
ri
ghtnow.WhenIwasdonebat hingIwor emy
gownwi thsl i
ppersthenwentt ofindsomet hi
ng
toeat.Amahl ewasi nt hekitchenwi thMbal ibut
t
hemomentIwal
kedi
n,t
heykeptqui
et
Amahl
e:si
sGuguIt
houhtul
ele
Me:
hmm
Itookmyfoodouttheoven,warmeditthen
pouredmysel
faglassofjui
ce.Mysister
skept
exchangi
nggl
ancesandlookingatme
Me:
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Mbal
i
:uhm not
hing.Ur
ightuSomi
l
a?
Me:
yeahur
ight
Amahl
e:ubhut
iLoy
isouzobuy
ani
ni?
Me:
why
?
Mbal
i
:justaski
ngnj
eGugu,
nor
eason
Iplacedmyspoonontheplateandl
ookedat
them.Theybet
terst
artt
alki
ngbefor
eIlosei
t
withthebot
hofthem
Me:
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Amahl
e:Ol
wet
hui
sher
e
Ifrownedinconfusi
on.Theonl
yOl
wethuIknow
i
sQhawe' sdaughterwhoisAmahl
e'
s
roommat eatboardi
ngschool
Me:
Huh
Amahledi sappearedi
ntoherroom andcame
backwi t
hOl wethuwholookedv er
yscar
edand
ver
ypr egnant.IswearIchockedonmyf oodas
Igaspedatt hesight
Me:
star
texpl
aini
ngAmahl
e
Amahl
e:shear
ri
ved3day
sago,
thedayaf
terI
ar
ri
ved
Me: soshehasbeenherefor3day sandnoone
hasseenher?HerGrandparent
sarehere,her
father
'st
winisher
eandy oudecidethebest
placetohi
deherisher
e?
Mbali
:wear
etaki
nghert
othef
latandweneed
yourhel
p
Me:
I'
m notget
ti
ngmy
sel
finv
olv
edi
nthi
s.I
'
m
cal
li
ngLoy
iso.Olwethuneedstogobackhome.
Runni
ngawayisn'tgoi
ngtochangeabyt
hing
Olwet
hu:sisGuguyoudon'tunder
stand.My
dadsaregoingt
okil
lme, t
heywill
kil
lSenzo.I
can'
tgohome.Atleastnotwhil
etheyaresti
ll
thi
sangry
I
'vebeenateenagerandI '
verai
sedt woteenage
gi
rls,
makingstupidmistakesispartofgrowing
upandIunderstandthatbutthissi
tuati
on
needsanadult
.Rightnowt headulthastobe
me
Me:sheisn'
tgoingtot hefl
at.She'
l
l stayher
e
unt
ilhergr
andparentscangetherf athersto
cal
m down.Ijustdon'tknowwhenLoy i
sowil
l
beback
Ol
wet
hu:
enkosi
sisGugu
Ismil
edatherweakl
y.YesesI'
dkil
lSomil
aif
shegotpr
egnantat17.I
'm notonet
ojudgebut
QhaweandSihl
earegoingaboutthi
sthewrong
way .Achil
dshouldneverf
earherparentt
o
suchanext ent
.WhenIwokeupt henextday,I
wasf eel
i
nghotduet othearmsthatwere
holdingmet i
ghtl
y.It
ri
edtoremovethem buthe
hel
dmeev entight
er
Me:
Loy
isol
etgoofme
Hebr eathedloudl ywhil
et ryingt ostretch
withoutlett
ingmego.Iwonderwhenhegoti n
sinceIdidn'thearhi m.Heki ssedmyshoul der
beforereleasinghi shol
donme.Mxm I '
m notin
themoodf orhi m orthi
s.It urnedt heshower
taponandl etitrunwhileIcl eansedmyf ace
thentookashower .NowIhav ethet hinkonmy
feetwiththisthingkaOl wet hu.Ireallywasn' t
expectingLoy isotobebacksosoon.Igotout
theshower ,moi sturi
zedmybodyt henwor e
blackjeggings, apeacht ankt op, peachbl ock
heelsandabl ackleathercr opt op.Itiedmy
braidsinat opbunanddeci dedt odi t
chmake
upf ortoday.I'
m al r
eadyr unningl ateany way
Loy
iso:
goi
ngsomewher
e?
Me:
yes
Hi
m:canIdr
ivey
ou?
Me:
I'
m al
readyr
unni
ngl
ate
Him:
I'
ll
takeaqui
ckshower
.I'
l
lber
eadyi
n
10mi
ns
Me:
hmmm
Aft
erpacki
ngal
lmynecessit
iesf orthedayi
nto
myhandbagIheadeddownstairs.Mymot her
waswatchi
ngnewswiththekids.Sambul owas
noti
mpressedwit
hwhatwaspl ay i
ngonTV
Me:
mor
ning
Sambul
o:mamauy
aphi
?
Me:
greet
ingny
anabi
gboy
?
Sambul
o:mol
omamam uy
aphi
?
Me:
out
Sambul
o:wi
thme?
Ishookmyheadandhi sj
awdr oppedcausi
ng
met olaugh.HeseemedshockedthatI
'm
l
eavinghim behi
nd
Sambul
o:hawmama
Me:
I'
m goi
ngt
othedoct
or.Yousur
eyouwant
t
ocome
Sambul
o:ei
sh
Hescr atchedhishead.Ithoughtasmuch.Thei r
fathercamedownt hestair
swi thSomilainhis
armsl ookingfuckensexy.Het ookanappl e
from thefrui
tbasketthenlefthisdaughterwit
h
Nana.It hrewthecarkeysathi m,saidmy
goodby esandwal kedout
Loy
iso:
wher
eto?
Me:
thehospi
tal
Hi
m:hospi
tal
?What
'swr
ong?
Me:
lastcheckup
Hi
m:oh
Hehadbeent enseupsi ncewewokeupt hi
s
morningandmet el
li
nghi mthatI'
m goingt othe
hospit
aldidn'
tmakehi m easeup.Onl ythe
soundsoft heradi
ooccupi edthecarasnei ther
oneofusspokeasi ngleword.Afterhavingmy
uri
nesampl etaken,thedoctorcamebackwi t
h
theresul
tsaf ewminut eslat
er
Loyi
so:i
sev
ery
thi
ngOKdoc?Youseem abi
t
shaken
Nowthathement
ionsi
t.Thedoctordoesl
ook
abi
toffashel
ookedatmyresult
s
Me:
pleasedon'
ttel
lmeIhav
eani
nfect
ion
Dr
:uhm y
oudon'
thav
eani
nfect
ion
Me:
OKsowhat
'swr
ong?
Dr
:youar
e4weekspr
egnant
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08/
18,
15:
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nser
t33
"
Wow!
"
GUGULETHU
Me:
aski
es?
Clearl
ymyhear ingwasget ti
ngimpai red
becausef orsomer easonIthi
nkIj ustheard
thatdoct orsayI'm amont hpregnant.My
daught eris10weeksol d.Just10weeksandI '
m
alr
eadyknockedup.Whatki ndofbunny
hoppinggy psydoest hatmakeme?If eel
Loyiso'shandonmi neandIqui cklyyankit
away ,hei smyleastf avor
it
eper soninthewor l
d
ri
ghtnow
Dr:
I'
m asshockedasy
ouarer i
ghtnow.I
nall
myy ear
sofbei
ngadoctor
,I'
venevercome
acr
ossthis
Me:
uhm nott
odoubty
oudocbutar
eyousur
e?
Dr:defi
nit
elysur
eMi
ssZul
u.Uhm
congrat
ulati
ons?
Isideeyedhim,thi
sisnottheti
mef orhis
sil
li
ness.It
ookmybagandwal kedout,Loy iso
wasr i
ghtbehindme.Whydi dIl
etthisfool dri
ve
meher e?RightnowIwanttogetoutofhi s
sight
.Itol
dhimt hatwehadt owai
t3mont hs
andhedecidest ojumpmei n6weekswi tha
rawpenis.Whodoest hat
?YesesI'ml i
vidwi th
anger.
Loy
iso:
MaZul
u
Me:
fokof
Ihearhissof tchucklesandI 'm notentert
ained.
Notonebi t
.Ihaveanewj obI'm meanttost ar
t
i
nlesst han2mont hs.AjobI 'm exci
tedabout
butimagi nehowIwi l
llookhav ingtogoon
maternityleavejust5mont hsafterIstar
t
working.Iopenedmyowndoorandmadesur e
toslam itshut.It
snotmycarany way.Whenhe
gotinthecar ,hedidn'tstarttheignit
ion
Hi
m:nanazi
Me:
takemehome
Hi
m:l
et'
shav
ebr
unch,
tal
kandt
hengohome
Me: thisi
snott hetimet
ocomeatmewi t
hyour
regularnonsense.Iwanttogohome.Iwantto
beawayf rom youforaf
ewhour sandmaybeI'
l
l
startfi
ndingthesoundofy ourv
oicewor
th
l
isteningtoafterthat
Hi
m:uy
ahl
any
a
Icockedmyey ebrowathim andhewasdead
seri
ous.Didthi
smanj ustsayI'
m crazy
?Notin
Engli
sh,notinhi
ssexyXhosal anguagebutin
mylanguagesoIhearhi m cl
earl
y.Loyi
so
doesn'
tknowmey az.Iunbuckl
edtheseatbel
t
andhepr essedthechi
ldl
ockbuttonandstart
ed
thecar
Me:
arey
ouki
ddi
ngme?
Him:youar
ebeingchi
l
dishnj
enasoI
'
lluse
chi
ldl
ockonyou.
Iopenedmymoutht
osaysomet
hingbutno
wordscameout
.Wow
Hi
m:cl
osey
ourmouthnanazi
bef
orey
oumake
mychi
l
dcol
dandbuckl
eup
Me:
mxm
Thedrivehomewasaqui etoneexceptf orhis
hummi ng,tappingoft hestaringwheel.Hecan' t
seri
ouslybehappyaboutt his.Thereisnoway .I
ref
uset obelieveit.Thewhol etimeI'
mt hinking
aboutSomi la,Loyiso'sparents.Thixotheyar e
goingtothinkI '
m al osegirlthathasnever
heardofcondomsi nherlife.YazIshouldhav e
seenthiscomi ngf rom themomenthewant ed
toshackupt ogether.Hewant stomakemea
babymaki ngmachi ne.I'
llprobablyneversee
thewallsofanof f
iceev eragai n
Hi
m:y
ouar
enotget
ti
ngout
?
Ihadn'
tevenreal
i
zedt
hatt
hatwewerehome
al
ready.It
ookmybagandheadedf
orthedoor
,
konj
etherei
sahousef ullofpeople.Idon'
t
thi
nkIcanhandl
et hem r
ightnow.Sabel oruns
tomethemomentwewal kin,
ignoringhis
fat
herwhoissti
llhummingt ohimsel f
.Theway
heannoysmer i
ghtnow
Sabel
o:mamam
Me:
heyboy
Sabel
o:umboni
l
ewenamamauOl
wet
hu?
Forfucksakethereisst
il
lthatdr
amaont opof
everyt
hingelse?Ican'
they.Notri
ghtnow.
Ayingi
dingale
Loy
iso:
Olwet
hu?
Her ushedtotheloungewhi l
eIwentupstai
rs.
I'
l
l getthedet
ail
slater.Ri
ghtnowIjustneedto
breathe.WhenIgett otheroom,It
akeallmy
cl
ot hesofandstayinmyunder wear,swi
tchthe
TVont hendi
alMbal i
'
snumber
Mbal
i
:Gugu?
Me:pleasemakemeat oast
edham andcheese
sandwichandbr
ingitupwit
haglassofmil
k.
AskAmahl et
obringmydaught
er
Her
:wher
e?
Me:
upst
air
s
Her
:OKt her
ewasleftov
erf
rui
tsowemadea
smoot
hie.Awuy
ifuni
?
Me:I'
ll
hav ei
tlat
er.Ri
ghtnowIwantmy
daughterandham andcheese
Ihungup, gotundert hecov
ersandst ar
ted
thinki
ngaboutmyl i
fe.HadIstayedwithBonga,
I'
dpr obablynotevenhaveachi l
dnow, l
etal
one
two.Wel lI'
dprobablyberai
singallhi
schil
dren
thathehaswi t
hLihl
e.Honestlymyl i
fei
sa
mess.Ipl acedmyhandonmyst omachand
sighed
Me:
yourTi
mingkodwanana.Soof
f
Amahl
ewal
kedi
ncar
ryi
ngSomi
l
a,Sabel
o,
Sambul
oandXol
ohwer
eri
ghtbehi
ndher
.
Me:
andt
hen?
Amahle: t
hingsar
eget
ti
ngheatedup
downstairssoumamasaidIshoul
dtaket
hem
tot
hepl ayroom
Me:
ohgood
Her
:uhm shoul
dn'
tyoubet
her
e?
Me:
wher
e?
Her
:downst
air
s.TheKhumal
o'
sjustar
ri
ved
Itookmydaught er,complet
elyignor
ingher
quest i
on.Mypoorangel wasrestl
ess,who
woul dn'
tberest
lessatthethoughtofhavi
nga
si
bling
Sabel
o:I
'
m st
ayi
ng
Amahl
e:noy
ouar
enot
?
Sabel
o:mamat
ell
thi
sHl
ehl
echi
l
dI'
m st
ayi
ng
wit
hyou
Il
aughed.Sabel
oissomethi
ngel
seandshei
s
def
ini
tel
ynotfeel
ingAmahle
Amahl
e:I
'
m 10y
ear
sol
dert
hany
ou
Sabel
o:l
i
ar.MamaHl
ehl
eisl
yi
ng
Me:
leav
ehi
m Amahl
e
Heclimbedonthebed, Iswit
chcartoonsonfor
hi
m andtoldhi
mt okeepquietbecauseSomil
a
wastryi
ngtosleep.Thatti
meSomi l
awasjust
l
ookingatmewi thhersootheri
nhermout h,
eyeswideopen.Mbaliwalkedinaf ewminut
es
l
aterwit
hmyf ood
Me:
thanks.What
'
shappeni
ngdownst
air
s?
Mbal
i
:theKhumal
o'
swer
eher
e
Me:
wer
e?
Her:bhut
iLoyi
sochasedthem away.Tol
dthem
tocomebackwhenOl wethu'
sfatherget
shere.
Apparent
lyhei
sont heway
Me:
hmmm
Itookabiteofmysandwichandmoanedin
sati
sfact
ion.Theki
dsfel
lasl
eepandIalso
decidedtotakeanap.I
tsbeenanevent
ful
mor ni
ngandIneededtorebootmysyst
em.
Loyisowokemeupwhi chirr
it
atedme
Me:
why
?
Loy
iso:
Imi
ssy
ou
Me:
youar
eannoy
ing
Hi
m:whyi
sSabel
oonmybed?
Me:askhi
m.Whydi
dn'
tyouwakehi
m upand
askhi
m?
Hi
m:sohecanat
tackme?Youknowt
heseki
ds
ar
edanger
ous
Me:
yety
ouwantt
oaddanot
herone
Hedidn'
tsayanyt
hingsoIgotoutofbed, st
il
li
n
myunderwearandbraandheadedf orthe
bat
hroom.Iwashedmyf aced,peedthenwent
tot
hecloset
.Tookoutleggingsandaloosetop
andclimbedbackont hebed.Loy i
sowasnow
l
ayingont heotherendofthebed,Sabeloand
Somi l
abet weenus.Hehadhi sar
msbehi ndhi
s
head,ey esclosedandlookingexactl
yli
ke
Sabelowhowasal sol
ayi
ngt hesamewayas
hi
sf ather
Loy
iso:
Icanf
eel
youst
ari
ng
Me:
youar
efeel
i
ngnonsense
Hi
m:Iwantt
ohol
dyou,
can'
tIgett
heseki
dsof
f
mybed?
Me: f
ir
stlywhosaidIwanty
outoholdmeand
secondlyyouknowtheywil
lwakeupify
ou
mov ethem.Especi
all
yuSomil
a
Hi
m:ai
I'
ll
takemychances
Hegotup,pl
acedSomi
laonhersi
decott
hen
pl
acedSabel
oonthecouchbutt
hebi
gboy
wokeup
Sabel
o:y
hohai
keut
ata
Loy
iso:
ndenz
ent
onmna?
Sabel
o:ndy
ahambamnamama
Hewal
kedout,
leavi
ngmel aughi
ngli
kecraz
y.
Myboy
saretheishthough.Noargument
Loy
iso:
Itol
dyouhewi
l
lat
tackme
Me:
umsukel
i
lenj
e
Hecl
i
mbedbackonthebed,
peckedmyl
i
ps
t
henpul
l
edmetolayontopofhi
m
Hi
m:hey
Ismi
l
ed
Me:
I'
m madaty
ou
Hefl
ippedmeov erandnowhewasontopof
me,hesepar
atedmyl egswi
thhi
skneeandgot
bet
weenthem
Hi
m:i
sitsuchabadt
hingt
houghbaby
?
Me:yes!Shei
s10weeksoldLoyi
so.That'
s
2monthsand2weeks.Theti
mingi
soff,what
aboutmycareer
?Whataboutmyl i
fe?Wear
e
notmarri
edbutwear
ealreadyatki
dnumber2.
Whatkindofwomandoesthatmakeme?
Hi
m:doy
ouwantt
ogetmar
ri
ed?
Me:
that
'snott
hepoi
nt
Hi
m:buty
oubr
oughti
tup
Itr
iedtopushhim offmebuthewastoost
rong.
Hiseyeswereburningahol
ethroughmi
neandI
knewhewoul dn'
tl
ett hi
sgo
Me:
Idon'
tknow
Hi
m:Idon'
twantt
ogetmar
ri
ed
Me:
whynot
?
Him:I
'v
ebeent her
e,donet
hatandgott
heT-
shi
rt
.I'
m good
Me:
wow.Awusuke
It
ri
edtopushhi
m of
fagai
nandhewoul
dn'
t
move
Me:
sukamahnLoy
isohaw
Hi
m:why
?
Me:haibot
hat
'snotaquest
iony
oucanaskme
r
ightnow
Hegotof fmeandIcli
mbedof fthebed,
checkedtoseeifSomilawasupandshewasn' t
soIkissedherf
ace,wor emysli
ppersand
walkedoutther
oom.I twasquietdownst
airsso
Ifi
gurednoonewast hereunt
ilIsawOlwethuin
thekit
chen.
Me:
heyIt
houghtt
her
ewasn'
tany
oneher
e
Olwethu:i
tsj
ustme.Mygr andparent
swentto
tal
ktomypar ent
s,Xolohwentoutwithher
parentsAndAmahle,Nanaandt heboyswent
tothepark
Me:
youdi
dn'
tfeel
li
kegoi
ng?
Sheshookherhead.Ihonest
lyfeltbadforher
,
shei
sakidandshemadeami stake.Her
parent
sarej
ustbl
owi
ngt
hiswhol
ethi
ngoutof
propor
ti
on
Me:
wannahel
pmecook?
SheshrughershoulderssoItookthatasayes.
Ipl
ayedmusi candwecookedt ogetherwhi
l
e
havi
ngalightconversat
ion.Ol
wethureal
lyi
sa
sweetchi
ld,abitnai
v ebutsweet
Her:y
ouar er
eall
ynicesi
sGugu.Idon't
under
standwhyTshepi t
hinksy
ouaremean.
Youaretheonlypersont
hathasn'
tshoutedat
meort hr
owninsult
satme
Me:
theyi
nsul
tedy
ou?Who?
Her:mydadsandmybr ot
her
s.IguessI
deser
veitbuti
tst
il
lhur
ts
Me: ohsweetynoonedeservest
obeanything
buthappyduringt
hei
rpregnancy
.Especi
all
y
yourfi
rstone
Iwr
appedmyar
msar
oundherandgav
ehera
war
m hugt henwi
pedhert
ears.Ourmoment
wasdist
urbedbyLoyi
sowhoclearedhi
sthr
oat
.
Ol
wethutensedupimmedi
ately
Loy
iso:
wher
eisev
ery
one?
Ol
wethuansweredhim becauseri
ghtnowinmy
worl
d,hedoesn'
texi
st.HetookoutSomila'
s
mil
kfrom thef
ri
dgeandwar meditup.Iwanted
t
oaski fshewasupalreadybutIdon'
twantto
t
alktohim
Me: Ol
wethupleasecheckonSomi
l
a.Ifshei
s
up,checkherdiaperandi
fal
li
swel
l,come
downwi t
hher
Ol
wet
hu:
andi
fal
li
snotwel
l
?
Loy
iso:
thenchangeher
Ol
wet
hu:Idon'
tknowhowt
ochangeadi
aper
mnat
ata
Loyi
so:that
'sf
unnysi
ncey
ouar
epr
egnantand
ever
ythi
ng
Icl
ickedmyt
ongue.Thatr
eal
l
ywasn'
t
necessar
y
Me:i
fal
li
snotwel
lj
ustgi
vemeashoutandI
'
ll
comehel
pyou
Ol
wet
hu:
OKsi
sGugu
Igav
eLoy
isoanuni
mpr
essedl
ook.
Loy
iso:
don'
tl
ookatmel
i
ket
hat
Me: howlongareyouandyourbrot
hergoingto
keepthi
sup?Thechi l
dismiser
ableenough
alr
eady,sheisscar
edandhurtandyouguy s
aren'
thelpi
ngthesit
uati
on
Hi
m:f
orasl
ongassher
eal
i
zest
hatshef
ucked
up
Me:youdon'
tthi
nkshereal
i
zesthatal
ready?
Shei
sachildLoyi
so.Shest
il
lneedsguidance,
l
oveandsupport
Ihatedt
hatIwasn'
tgett
ingthr
ought
ohim,thei
r
stupi
dmental
it
yisgoingtocostt
hem t
hei
r
daught
er
Loyiso: youdon'tunder standthiswenaGugu.
Mymot herhaduswhenshewasi nv ar
sitytoan
asshol ethattreat
edherl ikecr ap.Mysi ster
Yandisahadherf irstchil
dt oanot herasshol e
thattreatedherl i
kecr apandmybabysi s
Kwandoal sohasbabi esbyanasshol e.My
mom andYandi sagotl uckybymeet ingmydad
andOy amabutKwandodi dn't
.Idon' twantmy
daught ertober escuedbyaman, tobeused
andhur tbyamanort ohav etost ruggleandgo
tobedcr yi
ngbecauseofaman.QhaweandI
l
ov eourdaught er
s, al
l 3ofthem andwewi l
ldo
everythinginourpowert opr otectt hem.We
knowOl wethumadeami stake,wear enot
stupidbuti t
sami stakethatshoul donl yhappen
once.Idon' twantt ogot hrought hesamet hing
withTshepi andSomi lajustbecauseOl wethu
gotof feasil
y .
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menti
ssuesar
ejusti
nsecur
it
ieson
ster
oids"

GUGULETHU
Thisdayhasser
iousl
ybeenonebi
gfatwow
moment .I
'
mjustnotget
ti
ngabreak,
I'
m
ducki
nganddivi
ngjabsandl
owblowsnjet
oday
Me:
wow
Loy
iso:
what
?
Me:youwanttoputmeinashi
tt
ysit
uat
ion,
sameshitt
ysit
uat
iony
ouwanttofor
ceyour
daught
erstoavoi
d
Hi
m:huh?
Me:youreal
lydon'
tgeti
t?Li
keser
iousl
yyour
headisf
il
ledwit
hcement
Hi
m:don'
tdi
srespectmeGugu
Theagitati
oninhisvoi
cewasadeadgi veaway
thathewasget ti
ngangrybutIdon'
tcar
e.I'
m
angryaswel l
,pi
ssedasfucktobehonestand
theidi
otjustdoesn'
tgetit
Me:noLoy i
so.Youmust n'
tdisrespectme.Its
di
srespect
fultokeepknockingmeupwheny ou
havenointenti
onofmar r
yingme.I ts
di
srespect
fulforyoutowantt ohav esexwith
me6weeksaf terI
'vehadababy .I
ts
di
srespect
fulofyoutodisregardmycar eer
.I'
m
notbeingdisr
espectf
ul,
I'
m standingupf or
myself
Him:yousai
dyoudon'twantt
ogetmar ri
edand
becauseIdi
dn'
tfi
ghty
ouoni t
,I'
m di
srespect
ful
Me:Idi
dn'
tsayIdon'
twantt
ogetmar
ri
ed,
I
sai
dIdon'
tknow
Him:ei
theryouwanttoory oudon'
twantto,
ther
eisnoinbetween.Iknowforafactt
hatI
don'
twanttobutifyouweretosayyouare
t
aki
ngmyki
dsandleav
ingbecauseIdon'
twant
t
omarr
yyouthenI
'
dmar r
yyouinaheartbeat
Me:
whatar
eyousay
ing?
Him: I
'm sayi
ngI '
dgi
vey ouany thi
ngyouwanti f
i
twi l
lmeant hatyoudon'tleaveme.Your
happinessismyhappi ness.Iloveyoumor e
thanli
feitsel
f,Ican'
tbreat
h, Ican'
tfuncti
on
withoutyou.Youandmyki dsar eevery
thingto
me
Ididn'tknowwhatt osay.Ther eisasidet
o
Loyisot hatI
'
m stil
lyett
odi scoverbutsofarI
knowhei squit
epossessiveandabi t
controll
ingbutIlovehim andhel ovesme.
Olwethucamedownt hestairswithSomil
awho
wascr y
ingherlungsout.Loy i
sorushedtothem
Loyi
so:whathappened?Ol
wet
huwhyar
eyou
cry
ingaswell
?
Ol
wet
hu:I'
m sor
rydaddy
.It
urnedaroundtoget
t
hedi
aperandshemusthaverol
ledoverand
shefel
l
.Shewon'
tst
opcr
ying.I
'
m sor
ry.I
'
m so
sor
rysisGugu
It
ookmydaught erwhowasal r
eadypi
nkfr
om
cr
ying.It
riedt
ocalm herdownbutshewoul
dn'
t
st
opcr yi
ng
Me:Loyi
sogett
hecar
.Wear
etaki
nghert
othe
hospi
tal
Loyi
so:
hospi
tal
?Shej
usthadal
i
ttl
efal
l
,she
wil
lbef
ine
Me:thefactt
haty
ou'
veal
readyfuckedanot
her
babyinmedoesn'
tmeanthatSomilai
sgrown.
Sheis2monthsol
dandshefell
from t
hefucken
bed.
Iwasal readyi
nthecarwhenhedeci dedt o
walkoutt hehouse.Hewasspeedi ngthrough
thetraff
ic,pr
obablybecausehi
sdaught erwas
sti
ll
cr y
ingherlungsout.Shedi
dn'twantmi lkor
thesootherandnowshewasbur ningup
Me:
pleasehur
ryup.Shei
sbur
ningup
Loy
iso:
I'
m dr
ivi
ngasf
astasIl
egal
l
ycan
Thehospital
feltl
ikeitwasinanotherpr ovi
nce
andwhenwegott here,Qhawewasal r
eady
wait
ingforus.Het ookSomilaanddi sappeared
wit
hherwhi l
enursesf ol
lowedhim.Icr ashed
mybodyagai nstLoyisoandsobbed.He
wrappedhisarmsar oundmeandr ubbedmy
back
Hi
m: shewi
l
lbef
ine.Shei
singoodhandsmy
l
ove
Me:sheisj
ustababyLoyiso.Ali
tt
lebaby
.She
needshermother
'sat
tent
ionall
theti
me
Hi
m:Iknowst
handwaSam.Iknow
Hekissedmyforeheadandthewaiti
ngstart
ed.
I'
vehadalotofscarymomentsinmyl i
febut
thi
sonetakesthecup.Icoul
dsti
ll
hearher
cri
esinmyheadev enthoughshewasn'tcl
ose
tomeany more
Hi
m:nanazi
youneedt
ost
opcr
ying.Somi
l
awi
l
l
bef
ine
Inodded.Af
terwhatf
eltl
ikehour
s,Qhawe
camebackwi t
hmybaby .Shewasfastasl
eep
i
ndaddy '
sarms
Me:
and?
Qhawe:
shei
sfi
ne.Nodamage
Me:
arey
ousur
e?Qhaweshef
ell
from t
hebed
Qhawe: youdon'
tknowhowmanyt i
mesI'v
e
droppedthetri
oswi t
houttell
i
ngSihl
e.Such
thi
ngshappen.Shei ssti
llgoi
ngtofal
lonher
own, Sambuloi
sst i
llgoi
ngtodropher150
ti
mes.Suchmi stakeshappen
Itookmyangel,ki
ssedherr
epeat
edl
ythenher
fathert
ookherandsmother
edherwi
thkisses
aswel l
.
*
*
ABONGI
WE
Li
:Idon'
tknowwhatI
'
ddoi
fUsi
thandi
l
est
art
ed
dat
ed
Me:shei
s9,sheisn'
aboutt
ost
artdat
ingf
or
anot
her5to6yr
s
Him:rhauphambeneAbongi
we.Shewi
llst
art
dati
ngwhenshehasajobandadegree
Il
aughed.Genui nel
ylaughedatthedr eamsthis
onewassel li
nghimself.It
sasifipregnancy
kaOl
wet huhasmadeev eryguywi t
hadaught er
i
nthisfami l
ylosehismi nd.Myhusbandi sextr
a
onanav erageday ,
howmuchmor ewhent here
i
sdramaar oundhim
Me:di
dIhaveajobandadegr
eewhenwe
st
art
eddat
ing?
Him:nobutwenababyuthandai
zint
oandy ou
coul
dn'
tresi
stall
thi
schocol
ategoodness.My
daught
erwon'tbeli
key
ou
Me:
voet
sek
Ihithischestwiththebackofmyhandandhe
startedl
aughing.Thehypocri
syt
hatcomeswit
h
fatherswhohav edaughter
sisonalevel
ofi
ts
own
Him:kodwababyI
'
mir
resi
sti
blenawey
oucan
see
Me:
mxm al
lIseei
sabagofchar
coal
Him:mxm unomonay
azwenamakaUsi
thandi
l
e.
Jeal
ousy
Igotoutofbed, openedt hebl
indsandt he
sl
idingdoor .Itwasagl oomymor ni
ng,schools
wer eclosedbuthubbyandIst il
lhadt ogoto
wor k.Itookashowerandwhi lehet ooka
shower ,Igotdr essedandwentt oironhis
cl
ot hesandl aidt hem outforhim.Theki ds
wer estil
lasleepwhi chmeansNi kiwasal so
asleepsonobr eakfast.Ipour
edcer eali
ntotwo
bowl sthenwar medupt hemilk.Licamedown
whenIwasal readyeat i
ng
Hi
m:i
tssoqui
et
Me: arar
eoccasi
on.Weshoul
dgoonaf
ami
l
y
vacati
onyaz
Hi
m:i
nDecember
?
Me:
yeah.Let
'sgot
oCapet
own
Hi
m: t
heydon'thav
ewater
.Mykidsdon'tneed
t
hatki
ndoftraumawhil
etheyar
eonv acati
on
Hewaslaughi
ngandl ooki
ngqui
tepl
easedwit
h
hi
msel
fwhileIwasclearl
yannoy
edwithhi
m.
Somet
imesbeingyourhusband'
sbestf
ri
end
get
sannoyi
ng.Thi
swasoneoft hoseti
mes
Me:
youannoyme
Hi
m:y
oul
oveme.Let
'sgot
oMi
ami
orHawai
i
Myeyesbeamedwithexcitement,
thi
swas
somethi
ngtol
ookforward.Mykidshavenever
beenout
sidet
hecountr
yandt hisi
sexact
ly
whatweneed
Me:
let
'sdobot
h
Hi
m:bot
hwhat
?
Me:
Miami
andHawai
i
Hi
m:doy
ouwanty
ourki
dst
ogot
ovar
sit
y?
Me:
mxm nv
m
Afterbreakfastwesai dourgoodby esandwent
ourdiffer
entdirect i
ons.Thefi
rsthalfoftheday
waspaper workasperusual andar oundlunch
ti
meIhadasur prisevisi
tfr
om Guguandher
perfectpeach.Loy isomakesbabi esfrom
Wool worthsguy s.Cream wodwa
Me:
ncoahmanIj
ustwantt
oeatherup
Gugulaughedwhil
eIpickedthebabyf
rom t
he
car
seatandcuddledher.Akamuhl
eubabyyho,
shehadmef eel
i
ngbr oody
Gugu:pleasedon'
teatmybaby
.Unj
ani
mngani
?
Ihaven'
tseenyouinages
Me:youareamom nowst handwasoItot
all
y
under
stand.Sohow'
sli
vi
ngwi t
hthei
nlaws?
How'st
hesit
uat
ionwit
hOlwet
hu?Li
tel
l
sme
Qhaweisst
il
lpi
ssedashel
l
Don'tjudgeme,Il
ovef
reshgossi
pandsinceLi
refusesforustogoov
erther
e,Guguhasto
dishupt hegoods
Her:
yhowhereshoul
dIstar
t?LwaandSoso
ar
eamazingalt
houghI'
m st
arti
ngtopickup
whereev
erySmithmangetsthetemperfr
om.
Me:don'
tevengother
e,ev
erymant
hatgr
ewup
i
nthathousehasatemper
Her:If
eelsobadforOl
wethu.Ij
usthopethi
ngs
wil
lgetbett
erf
orheraf
tershegiv
esbirt
hngoba
r
ightnowQhaweandLoy i
soareputti
ngher
t
hroughhell
Me: hay
itheymustputherthr
ought
hedevi
l'
s
hel
l.Ababyat17?Hay i
theymustgett
hedevil
'
s
for
kbamuphendulengayo.Sosheknowsnever
toactoutofli
ne
I
tseasyt
opi
ckupwhensoneonedoesn'
tshar
e
yourvi
ewsandi
twascl
eart
hatGugudi
dn'
t
sharemyvi
ewonthi
s
Her
:I'
m pr
egnant
Me:
agai
n?
ShenoddedandIlaughed.Ispentagood
coupl
eofminutesjustl
aughing.YeerLoyi
soi
s
onefer
ti
lebast
ard.Haingeke.Thiswill
bebaby
number5forhi
m.5ki dsfrom 3mot hersi
salot
Me:forapersont hatdoesn'
tl
ikepr
egnancy
,
yousuredon'tknowt heuseofacondom
Her:awungi
yekaAbongi
wemf et
hu.I
'
m
st
ressednjeasiti
saboutwor
k
Me:t
akeabreakfr
om wor
kbabes.2y
earbr
eak
andr
aisey
ourkids
Her:
forgeti
t.Iwoul
dn'tsur
viv
e2y earsofsi
tt
ing
atHome.Ineedtobuildmycar eerandhave
somethingt
ocallbackin
Me:
fal
lbackon?Ar
eyouandLoy
isoOK?
Shesighedandt
hatwasenought
oanswermy
quest
ion
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"
Sacr
if
ices"
GUGULETHU
9mont
hsl
ater
ShakaSphi wi
nhl anhlaSmi t
h.That '
shi sname
andi t
ssuchaf i
tti
ngnamebecauseI '
mt he
l
uckiestwomani nt hewor l
d, theluckiestmom
i
nt hewor l
dinf act.Mypr egnancywasa
nightmaretomybody ,everythingIwi shedfor
whenIwaspr egnantwi t
hSomi la,Irecei
v ed
withShaka.Thehugebel l
y,thewei ghtgain,the
fatnose,swollenf eetandacneout breakwas
deli
veredinbucketl oads.I'
v enev erav oi
dedt he
mi r
rorasmuchasIdi dwhi l
eIwaspr egnantbut
goshIl ov
emyson.I '
venev erbeensoobsessed
overanotherhumanbei ngunt ilIsawhi m.Ihad
thebi
rt
hcontroli
mpl
anti
nser
tedwi
thi
n2
weeksaft
ergi
v i
ngbi
rt
h.I
'
m donemaki
ng
babi
es.Ir
eal
lyam
Loy
iso:
canIgetat
tent
ionaswel
l
Me:
nope
Hi
m:babyy
ouar
est
ari
ngatasl
eepi
ngbaby
Me:
aver
ycut
esl
eepi
ngbaby
Hi
m:I
'
m cut
etoo
Itookmyeyesof fShakaandlookedathi
s
sulki
ngf
ather.42hasneverlookedthi
sgood,
thebear
djustmakesI '
mlooksomuchsexi er
Me:
OKbabaz
iyouhav
emyat
tent
ion
Hi
m:Ispoket
oShaun
Me:
and?
Him:hecan'
tguar
anteethatt
hej
obwil
lst
il
lbe
wait
ingfory
ouintwoyears.I
'
mreal
l
ysorr
y
nanazi
Isi
ghed.Iknowitwasabi tf
arfetchedforme
tothi
nkIcouldtaket
woy earsoffandstil
lhave
ajobwaiti
ngforme.RightnowIj ustwantto
rai
semyki dsandbethebestmom t ot
hem that
Icanpossibl
ybe
Me:
itsOKbaby
.Iwaski
ndofexpect
ingt
hat
Hi
m:sowhatnow?
Me:nowIfocusonbei
ngamom andahouse
gi
rl
fr
iend
Hi
m: y
ouknowy oucanbeahousewi
fei
fyou
wantt
o.Justsayt
heword
Me:
itwoul
dbebet
teri
fyou'
dsayt
hewor
d
Thisti
mehesighed.Ev
erygir
lwantstoget
marri
edandhavestabi
li
tybutIdon'
twantitto
feell
i
keI'
mforci
nghim.Thatheisdoingitfor
me
Hi
m:Iwantwhaty
ouwantmyl
ove
Me:
don'
tl
ie
Him:can'
tIj
ustgi
veyouari
ng,
cally
oumywi
fe
andwepretendasi
fwearemarri
ed?
Hehadhi ssmir
kon,every
thi
ngisajoket ohim.
Idon'tev
enunderst
andwhyhei sn'
tatwor k,
busyannoyingme.ThesoundsofSomi l
a's
cri
escutourconver
sati
onshortbecausehe
rushedtogether
.IaskedNanatowar m upher
purit
ysodaddycanfeedher
Me:
hel
l
omypeaches
Sheburiedherheadonherf
ather
'sneck,
payi
ng
noattenti
ontome.Sheissospoi
ledbut
honestl
yallt
hekidsi
nthi
shousearespoil
ed
Loyi
so:
hambakumamapeaches.Daddyhast
o
go
Me:
youar
eleav
ing?
Loyiso:
Ihav
et of
etchtheki
dsf
rom schoolt
hen
headbacktotheoff
ice.I
'
m wor
kingl
ateagain
today
Me:
oh
ItookSomi l
afrom herfather
,aft
erabitofa
protestfr
om t hepri
ncess.Loyisohadbeen
workinglateev ersi
nceIgav ebir
th,i
fheisn'
t
workinglatethenhei swor ki
ngfrom home.I'
ve
beenadv isedt ogetanothernannybutI'
m not
upf ori
t.Iwantt obehandson
Loy
iso:
Ilov
eyounanazi
.
Me:
IknowandIl
ovey
out
oo
Hi
m:by
eby
epeaches
Me:huhuhLoy
isoy
ouknowshei
sgoi
ngt
o
st
artcr
ying
AndjustasIhadpr edict
ed,shestart
edcrying
themomenthewav edgoodby e.Hercri
eswoke
Shakaupandnowhewascr yi
ng.Lucki
lyNana
tookSomilatofeedherwhi l
eIhushedShaka
backtosleep.Alothaschangedov erthepast
coupl
eofmont hs,thebiggestchangebeing
Tshepimov i
ngthissidetoli
vewithherfather
.
Appar ent
lyhermotherisgett
ingmarri
edsoshe
shippedherhere.Theatti
tudeisst
il
ltherebut
I'
velearnttopaynomi ndtoher.Af
terdishi
ng
updi nnerforev
eryoneIcall
edthem t
oeat
Tshepi
:wher
eisdad?
Me:
att
heof
fi
ce
Tshepi
:wheni
shecomi ngback?Ther
eis
somethi
ngimpor
tantIneedt
ot al
ktohi
m about
Me:Idon'
tknow.I
twi
l
l pr
obabl
ybel
ate.
Any
thingIcanhel
pwi
th?
Her
:nahI
'
llwai
tfordad
Me:
OK
Af
tersupperNanaandIcl
ear
edt
het
abl
e
Me:
Tshepi
hel
pNanawi
tht
hedi
shespl
ease
Tshepi
:Ihav
ehomewor
ktodo
Me:ev
eryoneknowshomeworkgetsdoneat6
sot
hatIcanchecki
taft
ersupper
.Thedishes
pl
ease
Tshepi
:wel
lIwasbusyat6soI'
m goi
ngtodo
mineanddadwil
lchecki
twhenhegetsback
Me:youwilldoi
taft
ert
hedi
shes.Thi
sisn'
ta
RequestTshepi
so
I'
vehadi twit
hherat t
it
udeandi twasactual
ly
Loyi
sot hatadv i
sedmet oputmyf ootdown
andnotl ett
hischil
dwal kal
loverme.She
marchedi nt
ot hekit
chen,at
tit
udeov er
fl
owing
andIjustlaughedtomy self
Me:boysbr
ingyourhomewor
ksoIcanchecki
t
whi
l
ey oubath
Sabel
o:wear
egoi
ngt
obat
htoget
her
?
Me:
yesasal
way
s
Sabel
o:Idon'
twantt
obathwi
thhi
m mna
mama.Sambulopeesint
hewater
Il
ookedatSambul
owhoseemedr
ather
annoyedbyal
loft
his
Sambulo:whyarey
ouput
ti
ngmybusi
nessout
onthestr
eets?Why?
Me:boyyouar
e8y
ear
sol
d,whatbusi
nessdo
youhave?
Sambul
o:Idi
dn'
tpeei
nthewat
er
Sabel
o:y
oudi
d
Sambul
o:t
hatonet
ime.Webot
hpeed
Me: st
opar
gui
ng,br
ingthehomewor
kbooks
thengobat
h.Toget
her.Nopeei
ngi
nthet
ub
please
Theyscat t
eredupt hestai
rsleavingme
l
aughingatshaki ngmyhead.Theset wogi v
e
mesomuchj oy.IwatchedSomi lacrawlingall
overthelounge,occasional
lytryi
ngt ostand
andfalli
ngonherbum.Shei sgr owingtoof ast
andshei ssochubbyandcut e.Isti
llcan't
beli
eveshei sturni
ngonenextmont h.Af ter
checkingtheboy s'
homewor k,Ituckedt hem in
Sambul
o:nost
ory
?
Sabel
o:no!Wear
eol
dnow.St
ori
esar
efor
babi
es
Sambul
o:y
es.Somi
l
amustgetast
ory
Sabel
o:andShaka
Me:okgoodnightmyli
ttl
emen.MustIcl
oset
he
doort
oosincenibadal
amanj
e
Them:
no!
Somuchf orthem bei ngold.WhenSomi l
aand
Shakawer easleep,Itookal ongrel
axingbath.
Beingastayathomemom i sn'taseasyandas
fancyasitseemsont v.Especial
lywhent her
e
aresmallkidsinvol
ved.Myphoner angjustasI
wascleaningthebat htubsoIr ushedtoit
Me:
heybabe
Loy
:st
handwasam t
hewayImi
ssy
our
ight
now
Me:
buy
ababy
Him:I
'm goi
ngt
oleav
etheof
fi
cei
nthenext
hour
Me:
itsal
most9pm Loy
iso.I
t'
slat
etat
akhe
Hi
m:IknownanazibutIneedt
ofi
nisht
hese
r
epor
tsbef
oretheboardmeeti
ngi
n2day s
Isighed.Ther
eisnouseincomplai
ning.Heis
theonlyoneworki
ngr i
ghtnowsohonestlyI
shouldbeappreci
ati
vemor et
hananythi
ngelse
Me:y
ourdaught
erhast
hingst
haty
ouneedt
o
l
ookat
Hi
m:kut
heni
engani
kiwenanj
e?
Me:
youknowhowTshepi
is
Him:tchinIwon'
tbecontrol
ledbyher.I
'
m goi
ng
t
ocal lherandt
ell
hertogivewhateveri
tist
o
you.Didshewashthedishes?
Me:yeah.Iputmyf
ootdownl
i
key
ousai
dI
shoul
d
Hi
m:good.I
'
llseey
oui
nthenexthourmyl
ove.
Don'
twai
tupt
hough
Me:Iwon'
t.Shakai
sasl
eepr
ightnowandso
am I
AsmuchasShakai sn'
tfussy,Ialwaysneed
thatti
met osleepwhil
eheisasl eepbecausehe
i
satt hatstageofnotsl
eepingthroughoutthe
nightyet
Hi
m:ki
ssmyki
ngf
orme
Me:
Iwi
l
l.Il
ovey
ou
Hi
m:Il
ovey
oumor
eMaZul
uwam omuhl
e
Isleptwithasmi leonmyf ace.Ofcour se
Tshepi di
dn' tbr
ingwhat ev erIhadt olookatt o
meandIal sodi dn'tgoaf terher.Ihave4ki ds
thatI'
m alreadyr aisi
ngt hatwantmei nt heir
l
ivesandshowmet herespectIdeser v e,Idon'
t
hav eti
met obegat eenager .Around3Iwas
wokenupbyShakacr yi
ng.Atf irstIi
gnor edhim
buthedi dn'tstopsoIwokeup, hisfat
herhad
hisarmsar oundme.Idi dn'tevenf eelhim when
hegotinbed.Afterswit
chingonthesidelamp,I
gotoutofbed,changedmyson' sdiapert
hen
fedhim hi
smil
k.Whenhewasf ull
,Iburpedhi
m
andplacedhi
m backont hecot.Ikeptthesi
de
l
amponsohewoul dn'
tcryandgotbackinbed.
Hemusthav edozedof fonhisownbecause
thenextti
meIhear dhi
scr i
eswast henext
morningat6
Loy
:I'
vegothi
m babe
Me:
arey
ousur
e?
Henoddedwi thhi
seyesst i
ll
closed.Hel ooked
exhaust edbutIhadtogett heboy sr eadyfor
school anywaysoImi ghtaswel ll
eav ethese
two.Af terplaci
ngShakanextt ohi sfather,I
wentt of r
eshenupandwoket heboy sand
Tshepi upf orschool
.Ast hekidswer ehav ing
breakfast,Loy i
socamedownt hest air
swi thhis
daughteronhi sonearm andhi ssonont he
other.Somi laneedstostartwalkingal r
eady
Loy
:mor
ningguy
s
Boy
s:mor
ningTat
a
Loy
:Tshepi
soI
'
m gr
eet
ingy
ou
Tshepi
:mol
o
Loy
:di
dyougi
veGugut
hef
orml
i
keIt
oldy
out
o
l
astni
ght
Shedidn'
trespond.Icont
inueddishingupoats
forev
eryonethenmadebabycer ealforSomil
a
whowasal readycrawl
ingallov
ert hecounter
Loy
:Tshepi
so
Tshepi
:no
Loy
:whynot
?
Tshepi
:youhav
etosi
gni
t
Loy:t
hef orm saysi
tcanbesi gnedbyaparent
orguardi
anandGugui syourguardi
an.Cl
earl
y
youdon'twantt ogoonthistri
psoit'
sfi
ne.
Yourform shallr
emainunsigned
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"
For
giv
eness"
ABONGI
WE
Li
miler
ushedint
oUsi
thandi
l
e'sr
oom l
ooki
ngal
l
sor
tsofweir
d
Me:
andnow?
Li
:Ij
ustgotacal
lfr
om Al
wa
Me:
Alwaasi
nyoursi
sterAl
wa?
Henodded.Okwehav en'
theardf rom hersi
nce
herdivorcewasf i
nali
zed.Apparent l
yManqoba
eventual
lysignedthepapersbuthewont he
custodybattleandthetwinswil
l staywithhim
i
nLondon.Asf orAnqobe,heisst udyingatYale
Universi
tyintheUSA
Me:Usi
thandi
l
epleasegoaskaunt
ieNi
kit
o
makeyouguyssnacks
Usi
:andwhataboutmyhai
rmom?
Iwasdoingherhairbeforeherfatherwal
kedi
n,
si
mpl ecor
nrowsthatwer etaki
ngf or
ever
becausemydaught ercan'
tsitsti
l
l
Me:Ijustwantt
otal
ktodaddyt
henI
'
llcal
lyou
back
Her
:ok
Shewal kedoutandherfathersatnexttomeon
thebed.Hedidn'tl
ookokandhesmel tof
nicot
inesoIknowhehasbeensmoki ng.Li
onl
y
smokeswhenhei sst
ressed
Me:
whati
syoursi
stersay
ing?
Li
:shei
sbacki
nthecountr
y.Shelandedat
Ki
ngShakal
astni
ghtandcheckedint
oahotel
.
Me:whydi
dn'
tshej
uststayatt
hehousei
n
Jo'
bur
gandcomeheretoday
Heshruggedhisshoulders.Hehasn'
tseenhi
s
si
steri
n8years,Iunderst
andhissuddenanxi
ety
butt
hisshoul
dbeagreatti
meforthem t
o
act
uall
ytal
kandfi
xthi
ngs.Alwai
sfamily
Me:
issheal
one?
Him:IknowAnqobei
swi
thherbutI
'
m nott
oo
sureaboutt
hetwi
ns
Me:well
gogetthem.Theycanst
ayher
eunt
il
shef
indsherf
eet
Hi
m:her
e?
Me:yesherewithyouandy ourwif
eandki ds.
Shei
sy oursi
sterbaby.Fi
ndoutwher esheis
andgofetchher.I
'l
lcookwithNikiandyeah
we'
llhavefun
Hel ookedatmeli
keI'
m cr
azybutIhav
et obe
rainbowsandsunshi
neri
ghtnowbecauseheis
stressi
ngoutofhi
smind.Hepull
edmei nfora
kissthenpeckedmyli
ps
Hi
m:I
'
dbesol
ostwi
thouty
ou
Me:
Iknowt
hisv
erywel
l
.
Hi
m:behumbl
e.Il
ovey
oumyangel
Me:
Ilov
eyoumor
emychocol
ategoodness
Hechuckl edashet ookmyhandandwewent
downst air
s.Het ookhi scarkeysandl eft.I
'
m
clearlynotgoingt ofi
nishUsithandil
e'shair
todaysomybabygi r
lshall
best rong.Itookout
l
ambchops, porkchopsandwor sf r
om t he
freezeranddef rosteditbefor
emar i
nati
ngi tand
l
eav ingittostandf orabit
Me: Ni
kiwhenyouar
edonemakingt
hem
snackspl
easecookpap.Wehav
eguest
s
coming
Oy
i:whoi
scomi
ng?
Me:
fami
l
y
Usi
:andmyhai
r?
Me:
I'
ll
fini
shi
ttomor
row
Usi
:yousai
dwehaveguest
scomi
ngthough
mom.Guestsar
egoi
ngtoseemeli
kethi
s?
Thedramat hatcomesfrom Li
mil
e'
sdaught
er
wil
ldr
ivemecr azy.Il
i
kedherbett
erwhenshe
wasat oddl
er.Lessdrama
Me:
babyy
ourhai
risf
ine.Justl
i
kemi
ne
Itossedmyar t
if
ici
aldr
eadl
ocksaroundwit
ha
smileonmyf acebutmydaughterwasn'
t
havinganyofthat
Her:I'
m goi
ngtoundoall
ofthi
sandt
hendaddy
wil
ltakemet ot
hesalontomor
rowwher
ethey
wil
lactual
lyf
ini
shdoi
ngmyhair
Me:
Usi
thandi
l
eHadede
Her
:hay
imamay
hohaa
Niki andIlookedateachot
herandl aughed.
Shegav ethem t
heirf
oodandtheywentt ositi
n
thedi ni
ngr oom.Imadechakalal
a,yestheone
from thetinbutIsti
ll
madeitthenImadea
Gr eeksalad.Bytheti
meLicameback, hewas
wi thAlwa,Anqobewhowasl ookingli
kea
grownmannow, ZonqobaandSimphi we.The
l
astti
meIsawthet
winstheywere5y
ear
sol
d
butnowt
heyl
ookli
keteenager
s
Al
wa:ohmywor
dthi
shousehaschangedso
much
Irushedtoherandgav eherawarm hug.She
hasn'tagedatall
,st
il
ll
ookinggorgeousasever
withsomuchcl assbutyoucan'tl
iveint
heland
ofthequeenforsomanyy ear
sandnotcome
backclassy
Me:Ican'
tbel
i
evey
ouar
eback.AndAnqobe
l
ookatyou
Anqobe:
lol
heyaunt
ieAbongi
we
Imovedfrom hi
smot
hert
ohughim.Heisas
tal
lasLi
nowandsuchahandsomeyoungman.
Me:
youar
esogr
own.Howol
dar
eyounow?
Anqobe:
I'
mtur
ning20i
nNov
ember
Theki
dhadaBri
ti
shaccent
.Heehwow.I
movedtot
hel
it
tl
eonesandshametheydi
dn'
t
knowwhoIwassoi nt
roshadtobedone.They
hadfor
got
tenus.Ial
soint
roducedt
hem tomy
Kids
Me:babyyouandAnqobecansetupt
hebr
aai
st
and,themeati
sal
readymari
nati
ng.
Li
:okbaby
.Howmanybot
tl
esofwi
neshoul
dI
puti
nthef
ridge?
AlwaandIl aughed.I '
m gladheknowsthatI'
m
getti
ngnicelydrunkt oday.Heputtwobott
lesin
thefri
dgewhi l
eIt ookt heoneIhadputinand
wewentt ochillont hedeckbyt hepool
.Niki
broughtussnacksandt hecat
chingupwasin
session
Al
wa:Usi
thandi
l
eissogr
ownandt
heboy
slook
somuchl
ikeLi
Me:
aunt
ieLwasay
stheyl
ookl
i
key
ourdad
Her:
yeahbecauseLii
saspi
tt
ingi
mageofdad.
I
'v
emi ssedoutonsomuch
Me:
lucki
l
yI'
m her
etoupdat
eyou
ItoldheraboutShaunget ti
ngmarr
ied,
Loyi
so'
s
di
v orce,hi
m meet i
ngGuguandtheirki
ds,
Olwet hugetti
ngpregnantandOl
wami get
ti
ng
someonepr egnant
Her
:soQhaweandLoy
isoar
egr
andf
ather
snow?
Me:
yep
Her
:andLoyisohasaki
dthati
sthesameage
ashi
sgrandson
Itookasi
pofmywi
newhi
l
eshej
ustdowned
hers
Me:
yep.Loy
iso'
ski
dsar
egor
geoust
hough
Her
:al
l25oft
hem?
Ibur
stint
olaughter.I
'vemissedhersenseof
humourthemost .Noonehast hi
skindofsense
ofhumouront heplanet.Af
tert
ell
ingherabout
ever
yone,Iwantedtohearabouther
Her
:I'
m backf
orgood.Not
hingt
iesmet
o
Londonany
mor
e
Me:
soy
ouandManqobaar
ereal
l
ydone?
Shenodded
Her:thisdi
vorcewasmessy .Real
lymessy
becausehedi dn'
twantt
oletmego.West i
ll
l
ov eeachotherbutwehaven'tbeenhappyfor
years.Thefi
ghtswerebad,neverphysi
calbut
event hewordsstung
Me:
20y
ear
sofmar
ri
agegone.Yeses
NowIdownedmywine.Icoul
dnev er
.Wewould
worki
tout
,fi
ghtt
oot
handnailforeachot
her
.
20y
earsi
salif
eti
meguys
Her:Igott
hehouseinEsikhawini
,mycompany
andhalfofhi
smoney.Ididn'twanthi
sother
busi
nessesandassets.Ij
ustwantthebasic
stuf
fsoIcanstar
tmyl if
e
Me:shamemanatl
eastheknowsy
ouwer
e
nev
eraft
erhi
smoney
Her:I
'
mj ustbummedaboutmyki dsbutI
under
standwhyhewon.Ihav ealotofst
art
ing
overt
odo.I'm probabl
ygoi
ngtogotothe
companyafterthekidsl
eav
e
Whent hemeatwasr eadyNikidishedup
becauseIwasv er
ytipsythenwesatar oundt he
di
nnertableandate.Itf
eltsogoodt ohav e
Alwaandherkidshere.Myhusbandl ooksalot
morerelaxednow,Ikeepcatchinghim steali
ng
gl
ancesatme
Li
:Phi
wehowol
dar
eyouguy
snow?
Phi
we:
13
Me:
teenager
sal
ready
Zonqoba:
wear
eint
he8t
hgr
adenow
Li
:wowy
ouar
eal
mostdone
Kuhl
e:mamaAnqobehascoolPl
aySt
ati
on
gamesandhesai
dhewil
lleav
ethem f
orme
Oy
i:f
orus
Kuhl
e:y
esus
Li
:doy
ouknowwhoAnqobei
s?
Usi
:theyar
eourcousi
nsdaddy
.Weknow
Ilaughed.It
'sal
way sfunnywhenthekidscome
forLiandnotmef orachange.Af t
ersayi
ng
goodnighttoeveryone,Itookaqui
ckshower
thenjoinedmyhusbandi nbed.Iki
ssedhim
deeplyuntil
Iheardhim moaning
Li
:youar
ehor
nyar
en'
tyou?
Me:
uhhuh
Inoddedwi t
hasmi l
eonmyf aceasmyhand
wentintohisbrief
storubhi shardeningcock.I
sl
owlylower edthebri
efs,f
reedwhatIwas
l
ookingforandcont i
nuedr ubbinghim.Hef elt
warm againstmyhandandwhenhest ar
ted
oozi
ngpr ecum Igotwetterandhor ni
er.Ispread
hi
sjuicesallovertheti
pofhi spenisand
conti
nuedgiv i
nghim ahandj ob
Hi
m:ohshi
tbaby
.Fuck
Ireachedf orhisl
ips, kissedhimr oughlywhi l
eI
i
ncreasedt hespeedoft hehandj ob.He
moanedi nmymout hashehel dmet ighter
beforeIpul l
edawayf rom thekissandsucked
onhi sneck.Iplantedwetki ssesalloverhis
chestandhi schocol ateabsunt i
lIreachedhis
groinarea.Afterplacingasof tki
ssonhi stip,I
suckedhi m.Deept hroat ingwhi l
emoani ngwi t
h
hi
sf ull
erectpenisi nmymout h
Hi
m:f
uckIl
ovey
oubaby
Myhandr eachedf
orhisball
s,gi
vingthem a
gent
lemassagewhi chdr
ovehim overtheedge
andhecamei nmymout h.Icont
inuedsucking
hi
m unt
ilIhadswall
owedcompl etel
ythen
ki
ssedthetipagai
n
Hi
m:Iwannamar
ryy
ou
Il
aughedwhi
leIgotont
opofhim, str
addl
ing
hi
m.Hegrabbedmyass,squeezeditti
ght
lyand
ImoanedLoudl y
.Heusedhi sot herhandtorub
hispenisagainstmyopeni ng,occasional
l
y
pressingitonmyclitwhichwasdr i
vingme
crazy.Iwantedhim deepinsideme.Iwant edto
takear i
deont hemagicstick
Hi
m:y
ouar
esosexywheny
ouar
ehor
ny
Me:
babypl
ease
Hi
m:I
'
vegoty
oubaby
HistipwasnowatmyopeningsoIl
owered
my sel
fonitandthemomenthewasful
l
yinme,
Ihadmyf i
rstorgasm
Me:
ohf
uuuuuuck!
!
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"
Womanhood"
LOYI
SO
Tshepi
sohasbeengi
vi
ngust
hesi
l
ent
treatmentsinceIdidn'tal
lowhert ogoont he
school tr
iptoKi mberl
y.Evenhermot her
couldn'
tconv i
ncemeot herwiseandhermot her
i
sf arfrom beinginmygoodbooks.Shef ucked
upmychi l
dandwhenshesawt hatt hedamage
wast oomuchf orhertohandl e,sheshi psher
tome.Howam Isupposedt ochanget hisbr att
y
teenagertobei ngthechil
dIwantt or ai
se?How
wi l
lSomilabondwi thasisterthatdoesn' tev en
wantt oholdher ?Tshepihasr ealbrattyissues
thataregoingt odriv
emei nsane
Me:l
oveQhawei
scomingov
ert
omor
row.Hei
s
st
ayi
ngfort
heweekend
Gugu:oht
hat'
sgreat.Il
ovehavi
ngQhawe
ar
ound.Heisaballoffunener
gy
Me:
I'
m abal
loff
unener
gyt
oo
Shelookedatmewi t
haey ebrowraised.Shei
s
sobeautif
ul,
natur
all
ybeauti
fulandher
gor
geousdar kski
ngivesherthatexcepti
onal
gl
ow.Shei
ssoper
fect
Me:
Iam hawbaby
Gugu:
guyswhenl
astdi
ddaddydosomet
hing
funwi
thy
ou?
Sabel
o:daddoesn'
tdof
unt
hings
Me:
Itakey
ouguy
stot
hebeach
Gugu:
yousi
tint
hecart
heent
ir
eti
me
Me:
that
'sf
unf
orme
Shesmi
leswhil
eshakingherhead.Iwat chher
mixi
ngf
ormulaforbot
ht hebabies,Shakaisin
myarmsandSomi l
aiscrawli
ngar oundwith
Sambul
o.Thetwinsl
ov ethei
rbabysisteralot
Gugu:
youareanoldmanbaby
.Weunder
stand.
Qhaweist
heyoungery
ou
Me:mxm somuchf
orhav
ingmywi
fe'
ssuppor
t.
Wher
eisTshepi
?
Gugushr
uggedhershoul
der
s.Shemustbeal
l
l
ockedupi nherr oom again.GuguandIhav e
startedt al
kingaboutmar r
iage,sheisnewt o
thissoIunder standherobsessi onwiththeidea
ofget ti
ngmar ri
edbutf ormei t
snot hi
ng
exciting.Mymar riagetoTshegowasj usta
night mare,yeswehadourgoodt i
mesbutwe
alsohadsomer eal l
ybadtimes.Wewoul dfight
ov ermycheat i
ngev enwhenIwasn' tcheat
ing
any mor e.IgaveShakat oGuguandheaded
upst air
st ofindTshepi ,
Iopenedt hedoorand
shescr eamed
Tshepi
:pr
ivacyt
ata
Me:mxm whatpri
vacy
?Iknowyourbodyf r
om
headt
otoe,Imadeyouandyouaredressed
Her
:whati
fIwasn'
t?
Me:
whyar
eyoual
lcoopedupi
nher
e?
Her
:Idon'
tknow,
maybebecauseIcoul
dbein
Ki
mberl
yri
ghtnowbutyoudi
dn'tal
l
owmet ogo
Iwal
kedt
owar
dst
hedesk,
pul
l
edt
hechai
rand
satdown.
Me:whyar
eyousuchabrat
?Areyouli
ket
his
aswel
lwhenyouar
earoundKagi
so?
KagisoisTshego'sfi
ance.Idon'tl
iket
heguy
andithasnothingtodowi thjeal
ousy,
hejust
seemsal it
tl
etooper f
ect.That'
sthemain
reasonIdidn'
thesit
atewhenTshegosai dI
shouldtakeTshepi
Her
: y
oudon'
tcareaboutme.Youhav
ey our
per
fectf
amil
ythatIdon'
tfi
tinany
more
Me:perf
ectf
ami
ly?Youknowther
eisnosuch
t
hingandnanaI
'
llal
way
scareabouty
ou
Her
:thenwhydidyourepl
aceme?Firstwith
Xol
ohandwhenshel ef
t,youhadSomila.I
t'
sas
i
fyoujustwantt
ogetridofme
Me: t
hat'snott
rueTshepi
so.Somil
aisyour
si
ster,youarebot
hmyki dsandIl
oveyou
equall
y.Sheisababyandshelovesherbig
si
ster
Shewast ry
inghardnottosmil
ebutfail
ed.I'
d
hateforanyofmykidstothi
nkIlovethem any
l
essthanIdoort hatIl
oveoneofthem more
thanIlovet
heother
Her
:I'
m sorr
yifI
'
vebeenact i
ngbr
att
y.I
t'
staken
meawhi l
etoacceptthaty
ouandmamaar en't
get
ti
ngbacktogether
Me:Iunder
standpr
incessbutyouhav
etogi
ve
Guguthesamechancey ougav
eKagiso
Her
:soshei
sher
etost
ay
Me:
yes.Keepanopenmi
ndt
omemar
ryi
ngher
Sheloweredherheadwathulaforawhile,
I
di
dn'tknowwhatmor etosayaswel lsoIgotup,
ki
ssedherheadandappr oachedthedoorbut
st
oppedbef or
eIwalkedoutandt ur
nedaround
Me:
Ilov
eyouwi
thal
lmyhear
tTshepi
Her
:Il
ovey
out
oodaddy
*
*
#ABONGI
WE
HavingAlwaar oundhasbeengr eat,t
heki ds
havegottentobondwi tht heirauntandt heir
cousinsandmyhusbandf inall
ytalkedthings
thr
oughwi thhissist
er.Iwokeupt heMonday
morning,wenttowaket heki dsupt henwoke
mybeaut i
fulhusbandwi thaki ss.Iheardhi m
moanWi thhisey essti
llcl
osedt henhesl owly
openedthem
Me:
goodmor
ningHadebe
Hesmil
edt
henpul
l
edmesoIcanl
andonhi
s
body
Li
:goodmor
ningMr
sHadebe
Me:
weneedt
oshowerandgett
owor
k
Hestr
etchedthensatupwi t
hmest r
addling
hi
m now.HeisnakedandI '
mi nmysilknight
dr
ess,nounderwear.Icoul
dfeel
hismor ning
er
ect
ionbet
weenmyasset
scheeks
Hi
m:l
i
ftupabi
t
Me:
babywear
egoi
ngt
obel
ate
Hi
m:I
'
llbequi
ck
Il
if
tedupabi t
,heinser
tedtwofi
nger
sinhi
s
mouththenrubbedmycl i
tafewti
mes,maki
ng
meweti nst
antl
ytheninser
tedhi
sfi
nger
sinand
Imoaned
Hi
m:y
ouar
eal
way
sreadyf
orme
Befor
eIcoul
drespond,
Ifel
thi
speni
satmy
openi
ngandheshovedtheent
ir
ethi
ngi
none
go
Me:
Lii
i
ii
mii
i
il
eeee
Hel
aughed
Hi
m:If
uckenl
ovey
oust
handwasam
Hemov edmyhipswhil
eIrodehi
m.Afterour
shower
, wegotdr
essedandwentdownstai
rs
Me:
goodmor
ningev
ery
one
Al
wa:
youguy
sneedt
osoundpr
ooft
hatr
oom
Mycheeksheatedupinembar
rassment.I
ment
ionedthatIl
ovehavi
ngheraround?Iwas
ki
ddi
ng
Li
:wear
enott
hatl
oud
Anqobe:
lol
youar
eloudmal
ume
Thi
sconversat
ionisj
usttooawkwardformeso
Imadecerealf
orLiandmy sel
fthenjoi
nedthe
ki
dsatthetabl
e.Thetwinswerealr
eadyin
uni
for
m andeatingaswell
Li
:youf
oundaschool
fort
hem al
ready
?
Alwa:yeahi
t'
saboar
dingschoolbutt
heywil
l
onlybeboar
dedonceAnqobeleavesandIgoto
empangeni
Me:
nonsense.Theycanst
ayher
e
LiandAl
walookedateachotherandthen
l
ookedatme.Itwoul
dn'tf
eel
r i
ghthav
ingthem
atboardi
ngschool
int
hesameci
tywel
i
vei
n.
Wear efami
ly
Li
:youwi
l
lbeabl
etohandl
e5ki
dsmyangel
?
Me:youraunthandl
ed8ki
dssoI
'
m sur
eIcan
handl
e5
Al
wa:
shehad2nanni
es
Me:guysIcanhandl
eit
.Ni
kiandIhav
ethi
s
cov
ered
Alwa:okaslongasy ouaresur
e.I
t'
sonlyf
or
thi
syearthough.NextyearI
'
llt
akethem
Afterbreakf
astIdrovet owor kthenaround
l
uncht i
meImetupwi thLiyana.Shejuststar
ted
wor ki
ngatanengi neeri
ngf i
rm asahuman
resourcesmanagerpl usshei sdatingsome
whiteguyIhav en'
tmet .Shegenui nel
ylooks
happy .Herl
if
eseemst ofinal
lybecomi ng
together
Li
yana:
hewant
smet
omeethi
sson
Me:
hehasason?
Her:
yeahhehasason.A13y
earol
dthathe
hadwhenhewasinmatri
c
Me:sochomi
heisy
oungert
hany
ou?What
's
hi
snameagai
n?
Shelaughed.Itwasgoodt oseeherinthis
space.Shaunr obbedherofalotofhappiness
andI'
mj usthappysheisfindi
ngitagain
Her:hi
snamei sBradl
eyandheisonly3year
s
youngerthanme.Let '
sfocusmngani,
ifhe
i
ntroducesmet ohisson,doesthatmeanIhave
toint
roducehimt oZiya?IknowMangi woul
dn'
t
evenbeinterested
Me: Idon'tthi
nky ouhaveto,j
ustdoev
eryt
hing
atyourownpacemyf ri
end.Youguyshav
eonly
beent ogetherforafewmont hs
Her:10monthstobeexact.Hemakesme
happyAbongiwe,i
t'
ssoeasytotal
ktohi
m,he
knowsevery
thingaboutmypastandIr
eal
ly
bel
i
evehei
smysecondchanceatl
ove
Me:hebet
terbet
hereal
dealorel
seI
'l
lki
l
lhi
m
wi
thmybarehands.Imi
ssKwando.
Her:
weshouldt
akeaweekendandgoseeher
.
Sheiswor
kingf
orki
ckof
fmagazi
nenow
Kwandoisanotheronethathasn'
thaditeasy.
Aft
erherbr
eakupwi thMihl
e,shehadtofind
her
sel
fagainbutwhenshegott hekidsback,
shepi
ckedherselfup.Wit
houtthehelpofher
par
ents
Af
termylunchwithLiyana,Iheadedbacktothe
of
fi
ce,Ist
il
lhadaf ewpatientstosee.Monday'
s
ar
ealwaysthelongestdays.AsIwr appedup
myday,Igotacallfr
om myhusband
Me:
baby
Li
:heymyangel
.AJisi
ntownsowear
egoi
ng
outf
orafewdri
nks
Me:
justt
het
woofy
ou?
Hi
m:r
ememberNat
hif
rom t
heof
fi
ce?
Me:
no
Him:wel
li
t'
sgoi
ngt
obemy
sel
f,Nat
hiand
Bonga
Me:
uBongakaGugu?
Hedi
dn'
trespondandIt
ookhi
ssi
l
enceasay
es.
Me:
sincewhenar
eyouguy
sfr
iends?
Him:wearenotbutBongaandAJwor k
toget
herandt
heyareintowntoget
hert
omeet
upwithAlwat
omorrowmor ni
ng
Me:
hmmm I
'
llseey
oul
atert
hen
Hi
m:Il
ovey
ou
Me:
ILov
eyout
oo
*
*
#GUGULETHU
Sabel
o:mamal
ookatSomi
l
a.Shei
swal
ki
ng
Me:
Loy
isogetmyphone
Iwassmi l
ingasmybabywal kedf
rom Sabel
o
towardsSambulo.They
'vebeentr
yingt
oget
hertowalkonherownf orweeksnowandshe
fi
nal
lydid
Me:
Loy
isohur
ryup
Somilast
oppedwalking,
lookedatmet hengot
onherkneesandcrawledtome.Ev enshegot
tomebef or
eherfat
hercamebackwi t
hmy
phone.Iwentupst
air
swithSomilainmyar ms
tofi
ndoutwhatwast aki
ngherfathersolong
Me:
babyy
oumi
ssedi
t
Hewashol dingmyphone,hisey
esfi
xedonthe
screenandthelookonhi
sf acet
oldmethat
whateverwasgoingononmyphonewas
pissi
nghim off
Me:
tat
akhe
Helif
tedhiseyesandlookedatme.Somil
awas
al
readyjumpinguptogot oherf
ather
.Hetook
onelookatherandhiseyesrel
axedabit
Loy
iso:
comet
odaddypr
incess
Het ookherf r
om mewi t
houtacknowl edging
me, hehadshov edmyphonei nhi spocketand
walkedr i
ghtpastme.Knowi ngt hatIdon'tkeep
secretsfrom hi
m wast heonl ythi ngt
hatkept
mer elaxed.Ichill
edinourbedr oom, t
ryingto
crackmyheadast owhatcoul dbeonmy
phonet hatispissinghi
m off.Af terawhi l
e,I
heardaknockonmydoor
Me:
comei
n
Tshepiwalkedi
nwit
hatowelwrappedaround
herbody.Shedi
dn'
tsayany
thi
ng,inst
eadshe
star
tedcryi
ng
Me:
what
'
swr
ong?
Her
:I'
m bl
eedi
ng
Me:
wher
e?
Her:
Iwantmymot her.Pl
easej
ustcal
lhert
o
comehere.Ineedherher
e
Me:
okI
'
llcal
lyourdad
Her
: no!Hecan'tknowaboutthi
s.Hewil
lbeso
madatme.Pl easeGugu,pl
easejustcal
lmy
mother.Shewil
l knowwhattodo
It
ri
edt ocal
m herdownbutshewoul
dn'tst
op
cr
ying.It
ri
edtogethert
ositdownbutshe
wouldn'
tsit
Me:Tshepisotel
lmewhat'swrongandmaybeI
canhel
py ou.Areyouhur
t?Didsomeonehurt
you?
Sheshookherhead
Me:
buty
ousai
dyouar
ebl
eedi
ng
Her
:I'
m bl
eedi
ngdownt
her
e.Pl
easedon'
ttel
l
mydad
Onl
ythendi
ditcl
i
ckt
omet
hatshewast
alki
ng
aboutherper
iods.Shehadj
ustgot
tenherf
ir
st
peri
od
Me:gotakeabathandI'
l
lcometoyou.I
t'
s
not
hingtobescar
edof.I
t'
snat
ural
Her
:ar
eyousur
e?
Me:
yes.I
'
llcomet
oyou
Shewal kedout,
Isearchedformysanitarypads
thenwentt ogoleavethem onherbed.I'
l
l j
ust
havet otal
ktoherwhenshei sdonegetti
ng
dressed.Todayseemst obeabigdayf orthe
girl
s.IfoundLoyi
soinhisstudyandIwas
excit
edt oshar
et henewswi t
hhim buthestil
l
didn'
tlookok
Me:
arey
ouok?
Loy
:cl
oset
hedoorGugu.I
nfactl
ocki
t
Me:
ooohkwhat
'sgoi
ngon?
Il
ockedthedoorashegotuptoapproachme,
hetookmyphonefrom hi
spocketandgavei
t
t
ome
Hi
m:l
ookatt
hel
astmessager
ecei
ved
Myheartstoppedt
hemomentIr eal
izedthat
themessagewasfrom Bonga.Ij
ustsawhis
namethenlif
tedmyeyestolookatLoyiso
Hi
m:r
eadwhati
tsay
s
Tear
swer eal
readybl
urr
ingmyvi
sion,
hei
sli
vi
d
andI
'm scar
edsoIjustshookmyhead
Hi
m:readt
hemessageGuguandr
eadi
tout
l
oud
Ishookmyheadandhet
ookafewsteps
towardsmeandIt
ookacoupl
eofst
epsback
Hi
m:r
eadt
hemessage
Me:I'
mi ntownfortheweekandI '
dli
ketosee
youagain.Imi
ssy ouandI'
dreall
yli
ketotal
k
aboutus.I'
minthesamehot el
Iwasatt hel
ast
ti
me.Callme
Iswal
l
owedspi
t.Imetupwi
thBongaonce,
a
l
ongt imeagowhi l
eIwasst i
ll
pregnantwith
Somi l
a.Hewoul dn'tstopcalli
ngmesoIwent
therebutIdi
dn'ttellLoyiso.Iwasalreadygoing
throughthemostwi t
ht hepregnancy.Nothi
ng
happenedbetweenus.Iev enlef
thalfway
throughtheconv er
sationbecauseIdi dn'
twant
tohearanymor eofwhathehadt osay
Me:
babyi
tsnotwhati
tlooksl
i
ke
Hewasnowjustaf
ewstepsawayfrom me.He
hel
douthi
saski
ngformyphoneandIgaveitt
o
hi
m
Hi
m:whatdoeshemeanwhenhesay
she'
dli
ke
t
oseeyouagai
n?
Me:babypleasecal
m downsowecant
alk
aboutt
his
Hi
m:whatt
hef
uckdoeshemeanGugu?
Hisv
oicewasnowr
aisedwhi
chmademe
t
remble
Me:
Imetupwi
thhi
mlasty
ear
Hethr
ewmyphoneagainstthewal
landIgota
f
ri
ghtasIwat
chedi
tBreakintoamil
li
onpieces.
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08/
18,
15:
41]Mca:
Season2
I
nser
t38
"
Thef
ir
stst
ri
ke"
GUGULETHU
Feardoesn' tevenbegi ntodescribewhatIf el
t
atthatmoment .Loyi
soandIhav ebeen
toget herf
orawhi l
esoI '
veseenhi m angrybut
thi
si sn'tj
ustanger ,i
tisasifsomet hi
ngor
someonehast akenov erhisbody.Thev eins
thathav epoppedoutont hesideofhi shead,
ther edandnar rowedey esandt hewayhi s
voicecomesoutasr oarhasmeshaki nglikea
l
eaf .I'mfrozenont hespotandhei slooki
ngat
mebuti t'
sasifhei slookingpastme
Loy
:youst
il
ll
ovehi
m?Youst
il
lwanthi
m?
Ishakemyheadast ear
srol
ldownandoutof
nowher eIf
eelthebackofhi
shandmaking
contactwit
hmyf aceandIscream l
oudl
ywhi
l
e
stumblingback.Myownhandcov er
sthe
burningspotandIcry
Him:thi
siswhaty
ouwantright
?Youlikebei
ng
hurtt
hat'
swhyyougolooki
ngfori
twithyourex.
WhenItreaty
ouri
ght
,youarenotsat
isfi
ed
Thefi
rstpunchl
andedonmyr
ibsandIf
ell
to
thegr
ound
Me:
I'
m sor
ry.Loy
isopl
easest
op
Mycr iesandpl easfell
ondeafear s.Hishand
wentar oundmyt hr
oatandhel i
ftedmet oslam
mywhol ebodyagai nstthewall.Icontinuedt o
beghi mt ostopbuthewoul dn'
t.Myheadwas
bangedagai nstthewal lafewt i
mesandwi th
everyblowt hathethrewatme, henev er
touchedmyf ace.Idon'tknowhowl onghewent
onf orbeforeIpassedout .Thiswasn' tmyf ault
andIr efuset obel ieveitwas.YesIkeptmy
meet i
ngwi thmyexasecr etbutt hatdoesn' t
meanIhav etogetbeat enliket his.Howdoes
someonewhocl aimst olovememor et hanli
fe
i
tselfresor ttoput tingmei nt hehospi tal?My
son,oursoni s2mont hsoldandhi sfather
almostki ll
edme.Theki dswer ejusti nt heother
room whi leIcr i
edandbeggedhi mt ost opbut
hedidn' tcare.Hecont i
nuedunt ilIwas
mot i
onl essandt hat '
sthemanI 'v
echosent o
haveki dswi th,themanI '
vebeendi scussi ng
mar r
iagewi t
h.Mychoi ceinmenr eallyismy
downf all;Nkuler apedme, Bongacheat edon
meandLoy i
sohasbeat enme.Idon' tknowhow
l
ongIhadbeeni nt hehospi t alforbutwhenI
openedmyey esandr eali
sedt hatIwasal onein
theroom, Isighedi nr eli
ef.Itdidn' ttakel ong
beforeanur sewal kedi n
Me:
MayIpl
easehav
ewat
er
Shesmi
l
ed,
pour
edmeagl
assofwat
erandasI
tr
iedt
osi
tup,If
eltt
hewor
stpai
nonmyr
ibs
andst
omach
Nur
se:
takei
teasy
,youhav
en'
theal
edpr
oper
ly
Me:
howl
onghav
eIbeenher
e?
Shepagedt
hroughmychar
t
Her:
23days.You'
vebeenoperatedont wice.
Youhad3brokenri
bs,oneofthem pier
cedy our
l
ungsother
ewasal soalotofint
ernalbleedi
ng
Ididn'
tknowwhatt osay.I
'mj ustgr
atefult
hat
I'
m ali
ve.Idon'tknowwhocal l
edLoy i
so
becausewi thi
n30mi nshim andQhawewer ei
n
myr oom.I'm notscaredofhi m,I
'm pi
ssedas
hellathim andatmy sel
fforbeingsoweak.
Qhawecameandsatnextt omybedwhi l
e
Loyisojuststoodatthedoor .Hetookmyhand
andgav eitasqueeze
Qhawe:
heyhowar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me:
I'
minpai
nbutI
'
lll
i
ve.Whendi
dyouget
her
e?
Him:23daysago.Li
stenmyparent
shavea
hol
idayhomehere,i
thassecur
it
yandi
tsquit
e
comfort
abl
e.Youandt heki
dscanmovether
e
aft
eryougetdi
scharged
Il
ookedatLoyi
so,ourey
esl
ockedandhe
qui
ckl
ylookeddown
Him:
don'
twor
ryabouthim.Justsayt
hewor
d
andt
hemover
scanstarttoday
Itookalongpause,Qhawehasapoint,Ineed
togetawayfrom Loyi
so.Ev
enifi
t'
sjustfora
fewmont hs
Me:
theycanst
artmov
ingt
oday
ThemomentIf
ini
shedmysent
enceLoy
iso
wal
kedout
Him: I
'
llcall
them whenweleave.GuguI'
m
r
eallysorryaboutwhatmyidi
otbrotherdi
dto
you.Thereisnothi
nginthi
swor l
dthatawoman
candot
omakeherdeser
vet
his.
Iquickl
ywi
pedmyeyesast
ear
swer
eal
ready
bl
indingmyvi
sion
Hi
m:hei
sani
diott
hatdoesn'
tdeser
vey
ou
Ispentaf ewhourswithQhawet henhehadto
l
eav e.Thedoctori
nformedmet hatI'
l
lbe
dischargedi
n7day s.Iwasmissingmykidsso
muchbutwi t
hQhawear ound,
Iknowt heyar
e
welltakencareoff
.Iwasgivenpainmedicat
ion
andi tqui
ckl
yknockedmeout .
*
*
#LOYI
SO
I
tdidn'ttakelongformet oreal
izedthatIhad
fuckedupbi gt i
me.Idi
dn'tmeanf ormytemper
togetthebet terofmebutwhenIsawt hattext
,
i
tmademequest i
onalotofthi
ngs, i
tmademe
paranoidandnott omentionjealousand
i
nsecur e.Ilov eGuguwi t
hallthatIam, I
'
dmov e
mount ainsfort hatwoman, sheismybi ggest
weaknessandt het houghtofherwi thanother
mandr ov emecr azy .Ical
ledQhaweasIdr ove
anunconsci ousGugut othehospitalandhe
arr
ivedt hatnight.Hi sgreeti
ngtomewasa
puncht omyf acef ollowedbyanot herone
whichf ract
ur edmynoseandt helastone
bustedmyl ip
Me:
okIgeti
t
Qhawe:
I'
m cal
l
ingdad
Me:Qhawepl
easedon'
t.I
'
m beggi
ngy
ou.Soso
wi
ll
kil
lme
Him:
it'
snotl
ikey
oudon'
tdeser
vei
t.Whatwer
e
yout
hinki
ng?
Me: Iwasn'tt
hinking.Iwi
shIcoul
dtakei
tback.
Shei sgoi
ngtol eavemeQhawe, shei
sgoingto
takemyki dsandl eaveme
Isl
i
ddownt
hewal
landbur
iedmyheadi
nmy
knees.I
'm notonetogetfr
ightenedeasil
ybut
ri
ghtnowI '
m mor escar
edthanI'veeverbeenin
myent i
reli
fe.I
'm goi
ngtol
oset heonewoman
thathaslovedmei nawayI'vealwayswanted, a
womant hatrespectsmeandl ovesmychi l
dren.
Him:ndodapicky ourselfup,y
oudidt hi
sandit
s
youthathastofixit.I
'm notevengoingtoback
youupont hi
s,youf uckedupbr oandwhen
Guguwakesup, I'
m goi ngtoencourageherto
l
eavey ou
Iqui
ckl
ygotup,
hecan'
tdot
hat
.Hei
smy
brot
her
Me:
Qhawe
Hi
m: youfail
edbro.Wewererai
sednevert
ohi
t
agi
rlbuttopunishheri
nthebedroom.Dad
emphasizedthi
stousalotofti
mesandwhat
doyoudo?
Me: excusemei
fIcan'
tgetaner
ect
ionwhen
I
'm pissedof
f
Him:thenhitt
hegy m unt
ily
ouarecal
m.I'
m not
goi
ngt ogiveyouexcusesandopti
onsnow,you
al
readyfuckedup
Iranmyhandsov ermyheadandsi ghedl oudly
.
Idon'tknowhowI '
m goingt ofi
xt hi
s.Whent he
hospitalcall
edt ot ellmeshei sawake, Irushed
l
ikeamani act oseeher .I'
m suchacowar d
becauseIcoul dn'tevenl ookather ,I
'
m
ashamedofwhatI 'v
edonebutwhenshe
confi
r medt hatshewi ll
bemov ingoutwi t
hthe
kids,Istormedout .Ipunchedt hewal l t
he
momentIwasout si
de,fracturi
ngmyhand.I
retur
nedt ot hehospi talthatsameev ening,on
myownt hi
st ime.Iwat chedherasshesl ept
peacef ul
ly,
Il ookedatt hebandagewr apped
aroundherheadandmyhear tbroke.Howcoul d
Ihavedonet histot hewomanIl ove?
Me: I
'
m sosorrysthandwasam.Ididn'tmeanto
hurtyou.Il
oveyousomuchGugu, youknow
thi
s.Iwouldneverhurtyoui
ntent
ional
ly.Pl
ease
don'
tl
eav
eme
Shegentlyopenedherey
es,bl
i
nkingafew
ti
mesbef oref
ocusi
nghergazeonme.Myown
eyeslowered,mymouthwentdryandmyhear
t
star
tedpounding
Gugu:
whyar
eyouher
e?
Me:
I'
m sor
ry
Her
:Loy
isoIdon'
twantt
oseey
ou
Me:babypl
easej
ustgi
vemeachancet
o
expl
ain
Her:Ibeggedyoucountl
esstimesfort
hatvery
chanceyouareaskingmef orandwhatdi
dy ou
do?Youst r
angledme,punchedmeandbeat
mel i
keadog
Me:
I'
m sor
rysthandwasam,
tel
lmewhatt
odo
t
oshowyouthatI'
m sor
ry
Her:l
eav
emealoneLoyi
so.Justleav
emealone.
Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoyou,Idon'
twanttosee
you.Thesi
ghtofy
oumakesmewantt
othr
ow
up
Icr
ingedasthosewordsf ul
lyr
egist
eredinmy
mind.Slowl
yIgotupfrom thechair
,placeda
softpeckonhercheekthenstoodandl ooked
ather
Me: I'
m notgoi ngt ogi veuponusGugu.I '
l
l gi
ve
yout hespacey ouneedbutIst il
lwanttosee
myki ds.I'
llfi
ghtf ory ou,I
'l
lfightanyonejustto
gety ouback.Youwer emadef ormeandI 'm
madef oryou.Wear edestinedf oreachother
andIwi l
lbegy ou, goonmykneesev ery
dayi f
thatiswhati twi l
ltakef oryout of or
giv
eme.I
shoul dneverhav el ai
dahandony ouandI '
ve
regrettediteversince.Youar emyev eryt
hing
GuguandIl ovey ouwi thal
l t
hatIam
Twoweeksl at
erIwokeuptoanempt yhouse.
Guguandt heki
dsmovedlastweek,shocki
ngl
y
evenTshepimoved.Wel
lthatwasQhawe's
doing.Iwi
shIcoul
dsayIhatehim butDeep
downIknowhemeanswel
l
.
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08/
18,
15:
41]Mca:
Season2
I
nser
t39
"
Thereisthebr
eakdownbef
oret
hebr
eak
t
hrough"
GUGULETHU

Forsomer easonIdi dn'tbreakdown, Ididn't

havetheni ghtmar esort raumaaf terLoy i
so
beatmebutIr emainedst rong.Notonl yf or
my sel
fbutf ormychi l
drenaswel l
.Myv ery
vocalandi nquisiti
vechildren,Tshepi seemedt o
getwhatwashappeni ngbutt hetwinsj ust
didn'
tunder standwhywemov edhouses.On
Somi l
a'sbirthday,wejusthadaqui etfami l
y
dinnerwithcakeandobv iouslyLoy i
sowas
around.Wehav en'
treal
lyt al
kedsincet he
hospital
,whenhecomesher e,hespendst i
me
withthekidswhi l
eIgivet hem space
Sabel
o:sodadwhenar
ewegoi
nghome?
Loy
iso:
whydon'
tyouaskmom?
Sambul
o:becausemom sai
dwemustasky
ou
HelookedatmeandIjustshr uggedmy
shoul
ders.Ionl
ysai
dthatjusttogett
he
quest
ionstostopcoming
Me:I
'
m notpar
toft
hisconv
ersat
ionsodon'
t
l
ookatme
Loy
:I'
ll
tal
ktomom bef
oreIl
eav
ethenI
'
llhav
e
ananswerfory
ou
Sambul
o:wear
enotgoi
ngt
ofor
get
Shakast art
edgettingfussysoIgotup, placed
him onmyshoul derandwal kedar oundt he
l
oungewi t
hhim.Hewassl eepyandknowi ng
him,hewon' tfal
lasleepwhi l
eI '
m sitt
ingdown.
Afterdinner,
thekidsbat hedandt hei
rfatherput
them tobed.Thebi rt
hdaygi rlbeingthel astone
tofallasl
eep.Iwasal readyint hebedr oom
whenLoy
isowal
kedi
nandcl
osedt
hedoor
Me:
keepi
topenpl
ease
Loy
:Ij
ustwantust
otal
k
Me:
keept
hedooropen
Heraisedhi
sarmsintheairi
ndef
eatthen
openedthedoorj
ustabit
.Iwassi
tti
ngonthe
bedandwi t
hinaminut
ehewasnexttome
Hi
m:I
'
m sor
ry
Ididn'tsayany
thi
ngbutjudgi
ngfr
om thepause
thatfoll
owed,heexpect
edmet osaysomethi
ng.
Hesi ghed
Him:GuguIknowIfuckedup,
Iknowandy ou
havenoreasontof
orgi
vemebutI'm beggi
ng
youMaZulu.Pl
easecomehome.Ndy akcel
a
Me: I
'
m notcomingbackLoyiso.Theki
dswil
l
getusedtothi
sarrangementatsomepoint
.
Eventual
l
ythequesti
onswill
stop
Hi
m:Guguy
oucan'
tdot
hist
ome
Igotup,unbutt
onedt
hedeni
m shir
tIwas
weari
ngwhi l
ehewatchedmewithoutt
aki
nghi
s
eyesoffmyscar s
Me:Ican'
tdot
hist
oyouwhi
l
eyoueasi
l
ydi
d
t
histome
Ipoint
edatt hetinyscarwheretheinci
sionwas
madedur ingsurgerythenIpoint
edattheot her
one.Thebr ui
seshadheal edbutmyhear thasn'
t.
I'
m notreadyt ol
iveunderthesamer oofwitha
manIdon' ttrust
.I'
m notreadytoshareabed
withamanIdon' ttr
ust.
Him: f
orgi
vemest handwasam.Bel i
eveme
whenIt el
lyouthatIdidn'tmeantohurty
ou,
thatIwoulddieforyou,thatyouaremyli
fe.
Pleasefor
givemeGugu.Pl easebaby
Iqui
ckl
ywipedmyt
ear
sasIwat
chedhi
sfal
lto
thegr
ound
Me:
Ifor
gav
eyoubutIdon'
ttr
usty
ouany
mor
e
Hi
m:t
ell
mehowIcanbui
l
dthet
rustagai
n.Tel
l
mewhatIhav
etodoandI
'
lldoi
t.
Me:
justgi
vemet
ime.That
'sal
lIaskf
or.
Hekeptqui
etf
orawhilethenstoodup,wi
ped
hi
sfacewit
hhishandsthenlookedatme
Hi
m:I
'
llgi
vey
out
ime
Hetookhiswall
etoutofhi
sbackpocket
,
openeditt
hentookouthi
sblackcar
dand
pl
aceditonthebed
Him:whatev ery ouandt hekidsneed,youcan
usethatcardf orit.Tellmyki dsIlovethem,
ever
ymor ningandev erynighttel
lthem Il
ove
them andthatt hisisn'tthei
rfault
Ishouldhavesai dsomet hingbutIdidn't
,words
escapedmeatat i
met hatIneededt hem the
most.Wedi dn'tseeeachot herfor4months.
Whent hetwinsaskedwhydaddywasn' t
comingtoseeusanymor e,Ili
edandsai dhe
wasonabusi nesstri
p.At8y ear
sold,they
beli
evedmyst or
y
Tshepi
:ar
eyouanddadbr
okenupnow?
Me:
that
'sbet
weeny
ourf
atherandI
Her:okfi
nebutyoumustknowthatI
'
m not
8yearsol
dli
kethetwi
ns,Iknowdadi
sn'
tinNew
York
Me:
Tshepi
sowhatdoy
ouwantf
rom me?
Her:Iwantthet
rut
h.Iwantt oknowwhywel ef
t
ourhouseandmov edhere,Iwanttoknowwhy
dadstoppedcominghereandIwanty outo
stoply
ingtousandtreat
ingmel ikeachi
l
d
Lwa:l
astt
imeIcheckedTshepi
soyouar
ea
chi
l
dandthati
snowayt otalkToy
ourmother
Il
if
tedmyey esandIwasgreet
edbyLwa's
gor
geousf ace.At62thi
swomanlooksli
keshe
j
usthit40.Herhusbandwasbyhersideas
al
waysandshewasf uming
Tshepi
:sawbonaGogo
Lwa:
apol
ogi
zet
oyourmot
herbef
orey
ou
acknowl
edgeme
Tshepi
:shei
snotmymot
her
Shewhi
sper
edt
hatpar
tbutl
oudenoughf
oral
l
ofust
ohear
Soso:
whatwast
hat
?
Tshepi
:butmkhul
ushei
sn'
tmymot
her
Soso:
tchi
nndizakubet
haTshepi
soandIdon'
t
makeidl
ethr
eats
Tshepilookedatmeandt
henather
grandparent
sandagai
natme
Tshepi
:I'
m sor
ry
Lwa:
goodnowl
eav
eus
Shecouldn'
tgetoutoft
her
efastenough.Lwa
off
eredmeahugandIwenti nt
oherarms,
rel
easedasighthemomentsherubbedmy
backthenIhuggedSoso
Soso:
uphi
uLoy
iso?
Me:
att
hehouse
Soso:
sohel
efty
ouher
eony
ourown?
Me: wel
lnotexactl
y.Wear
egoi
ngthrougha
roughpatchatthemomentsoweareli
ving
separat
ely
Lwa:
you'
vebeenl
i
vingsepar
atel
yfor5mont
hs?
Inodded.Sosot
ookhi
scarkey
sandl
eft
*
*
#LOYI
SO
Thepast4mont hshav ebeenhell,
Ihadt ostop
my sel
ffrom call
inghersomanyt imes.Idon't
knowwhatIwast hi
nki
ngbutI'm clearl
ypaying
foritr
ightnow.Abuzzcamef rom theinter
com
andwhenIcheckedt hemoni t
or,Icussed
sil
entl
y.Whatt hehelli
smydaddoi nghere?
WhenIdi dn'topenthegate,hehoot edunti
lIdi
d.
Ipacedar oundtheloungewhileIwai t
edforhim.
IhopeQhawehasn'
ttol
dhi
m becausei
fhedi
d,
I'
m adeadmanwalki
ng
Dad:sogetthis,Idecidetotakemywi feona
holi
day,y
ouknowj usttorel
ievetheDecember
heatandtomysur pri
sewhenwegett othe
holi
dayhouset hatIboughtforher,thereare
peoplet
here.Explaintomer ealquickwhyt her
e
arepeoplei
nmyhol idayhouseLoyiso
Nogreet
ing,noaski
nghowI'
vebeenbut
st
rai
ghttothepoint
.Mydadi
ssomethingel
se
Me:
uhm I
'
llgett
hem t
omov
ebackher
etat
a
Him: Idi
dn'tasyout hat
.Iaskedyouwhyar e
theythere?I'
m notkicki
ngany oneoutbutI
wantt oknowwhyy ouareli
vingyourbestli
fe
herewhilethemot herofyourchil
drenisbei
ng
disr
espectedbyy ourdaughterinmyhouse.You
areherealoneandithi?I
nthisbighouse
Me:
uhm canIgety
ousomet
hingt
odr
inkt
ata?
Hi
m:getmeanswer
skwedi
nibef
orey
ouget
mewhi
skey
Mydadjustscaresmebecausehecan'ttal
k,he
j
ustr
oarsandy ouhavet
owat chyour
selfso
t
hatyoudon'tsaythewr
ongthing
Me:
wehadaf
ight
Hi
m:af
ightt
hatl
ast
sfor5mont
hs?
Me:okletmeexpl
ain,
Isawsomethi
ngonher
phoneandthenIl
osti
tndambet
ha
Isaidthel
astwor
dsof
tlybuthehear
dme
becauseIwasonthef
loorsecondsl
aterwi
tha
bleedi
ngnose
Him:getup.Yout
hinkyouar
eHercul
eswena,
goi
ngaroundbeat
ingpeopl
e.Iwanty
outobeat
me
Isl
owlygotupandbef or
eIhadachancet o
bal
ancemy sel
f,Iwasontheflooragain.Inever
hadachancetof i
ghtbackbecauseIkept
l
andingonthefl
oor.Mylipwasbust ed,myl ef
t
ey
eswol
l
enandmynosei
spr
obabl
ybr
oken
Me:
thi
sisnotf
airt
ata
Him:younevergav eGuguachancet of
ight
backnowdidy ou?Ishoul
dbeaty ousothatyou
endupinhospitalaswellbutIdon'
twantyour
mothertoki
l
l me
Me:
howdi
dyouknowsheendedupi
nhospi
tal
?
Him:youbrot
hert
oldmewhaty ourstupidass
didwhenhewasaskingforthehouse.Ihope
thatwomandoesn'
ttakeyouback.Youdon't
deserv
eher.Howmanyt i
mesdidItellyouto
useyourpeni
sandnotyourhands?Howmany
ti
mes?
Heleftmeonthef l
oorandwenttopour
whiskeyi
nhisglassandret
urnedwhil
eIst
il
l
chi
ll
edont hef
loor.Hemightj
ustknockme
againwhenItr
yt ogetup
Hi
m:nowhowam Isupposedtohav
esexwi
th
mywi
feinahousef
ullofki
ds?
Me:
dadIdon'
tneedt
oknowt
hat
Hi
m:knowwhat
?
Me:t
hatyouandmom hav
esex.I
t'
sdi
stur
bing
pl
usyouguysar
eol
d
Whenhewasdonedr
inki
ngal
lmywhiskey
,I
hadt
odriv
ehi
m home.Themomentmymot her
sawme,sher
ushedt
omyside
Mom:
whathappenedt
oyourf
ace?
Me:
yourhusbandhappened
Mom gavemydrunkf
atheral
ookt
hatwoul
dki
l
l
buthedi
dn'
tEv
ennoti
ce.
[
08/
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41]Mca:
Season2
I
nser
t40
"
Ichosetostaywithhi
mforev
ery
thinghedid
r
ightandnotleav
ehimfort
heonethinghedi
d
wrong"
LOYI
SO
Mymot hert
reat
sQhaweandIli
keki
ds,
mind
youshehas4otherchi
l
drent
hatcameaft
erus
Mom:
Lwandi
sowhatdi
dyoudot
omychi
l
d?
Dad:
not
hing.Wewer
epl
ayi
ng.Askhi
m
Mymom l ooksatmewi thraisedey ebr
owsand
honestlyIdon'twanttoent
ert ai
nthebot hof
them.Iwal kintothel
oungewher et heloveof
myl i
feiswat chingTVwhil
emyki dsaresitti
ng
onthef l
oor.ThemomentSomi l
aseesme, she
runstomel eavi
ngherbrot
heront hefl
oor.I
pickherup, thr
owherintheai rt
hencat chher
again.ShelaughssweetlythenIkisshercheek
andputherbackont hefl
oor
Me:
heyguy
s
Sambul
o:y
hounqabi
l
ewenat
ata
Me:
ndodaI
'
m her
engoku
Sabel
o:Imi
ssedy
ouwenat
ata
If
istbumpedbot
hoft
hem t
henpi
ckedShaka
upf
rom t
hef
loor
.
Me:
lendodast
il
ldoesn'
twantt
ocr
awl
Gugu:heisn'
tev
enint
erest
edi
nthat.I
'v
etrue
put
ti
nghim onhisst
omachbuthejustcri
es
andIhavetomakehim si
t
Nextthi
ngmymot herstor
msintothelounge,
l
ookingatherf
ace,Iknowsheisfuming
Mom:Kidsgotoyourrooms.Tshepi
sot
ake
t
hatbabyfr
om yourf
ather
Andl
i
keant
s,t
hescat
ter
edoutt
her
oom
Me:
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Mom:
yourf
atherj
ustt
oldmewhaty
oudi
d
Il
oweredmyhead.Mymom i stheonepersonI
di
dn'
twantf
indingoutaboutthi
s.Ican'
t
st
omachherlookofdisappoi
ntment
Mom:
Loy
iso
Me:
ma
Mom:
lookatme
Isl
owlyl
if
tedmyhead,Ikeptey
econt
actf
ora
secondt
henlookedaway
Her
:howcoul
dyou?
Me:I
'
m sor
ry.Inev
ermeantforittohappen.I
t
wasamist
akeIregretwhol
eheart
edly
Her:
Idon'
tknowwhosechil
dy ouar
eri
ghtnow
andwhorai
sedyoubecausetheki
dsIr
aised
don'
tdowhatyoudi
d.
Me:
mama
Her
:hay
iLoy
iso.Hay
imnt
anam
Shewalkedaway ,l
eavingmef eel
ingli
kethe
worstki
ndoft rash.It
'sbeen5mont hsbutithas
fel
tli
keit
slonger .Whycan'tallt
hesepeople
bel
ievet
hatIf eelbadf orwhatIdid,t
hatInever
meantforittohappenandt hatIl
oveGuguand
I
'ddoanythingt oprotecther
Me:
Ihav
etogo
Gugu:
youcan'
tkeepr
unni
ngawayLoy
iso
Me: sowhatshoul dIdo?I'
vebeengett
ingthe
punishmentfrom everyangl
eandI'v
ebeen
taki
ngitbecauseIknowIwaswr ongbutIdon'
t
thi
nkIcantakei tanymore.Maybeyouarejust
bett
eroffwithoutme
Shekeptqui
etwhichclear
lytoldmethatshe
agr
eedwithwhatIwassay ing.Isl
owl
ygotup,
wenttosaygoodbyetothekids
Tshepi
:dadcanIgov
isi
tmom?
Me:
hav
eyouspokent
oyourmot
heraboutt
hat
?
Tshepi:
yesbutshesai
dshewi
l
ltel
lmewhenI
canvisi
t
Me:ok.Checkwi
thherandthengi
vemedat
es
sot
hatIcanbookyourfl
ight
Iki
ssedt
hebabi
est
henl
eft
.
*
*
GUGULETHU
AttheendofJanuarywewereinCapet ownto
dropoffAmahl
e,OlwethuandEsihl
esincethey
areduetost
artvar
sity
.Weallagreedtostay
theni
ghtandonlyl
eavethefol
lowingday
Qhawe:I
'v
espokentomal
um Sakhi
leand
Kwandi
leandtheywi
ll
bemorethanhappyt
o
accommodateus
Loy
iso:
youar
esost
ingy
Si
hle:
youmi
spr
onouncedSmar
t
Me:
sowear
egoi
ngt
ospl
i
tup?
Qhawe:Iwast
hinki
ngmay bewecandr
opyour
mom of
fatmalume'shouseandwegoto
Kwandi
l
e's
Me:Iwi
l
l st
aywher
emymom is.Idon'
twanti
t
t
olookl
ikewearedi
tchi
ngher
Mymot herdi
dn'
tseem t
omindusdit
chi
ngher
butIst
il
lwantedt
obewheresheis.Wemadea
plant
hatwewoul ddropherof
fandtheywil
l
dropmeof fl
ater
.Theri
detoKwandil
e'shouse
wasaf unandquickone.Hi
swifewastheone
thatl
etusin
Loyi
so:doesKwandi
l
est
il
lnotkeepal
cohol
in
thehouse?
Sphi
ndi
we:
yep.Hedoesn'
tev
endr
inkany
mor
e
Qhawe:
suchani
diot
Kwandi:
ani
diott
hatwi
l
lst
il
ll
ook20ev
enwhen
I
'm 40
Kwandilelooksex
act
lyl
ikehisf
ather,ev
enthe
buffbodybuthedoesn'
tlookasscaryashi
s
daddoes.HehuggedSihleandIthensatdown
nexttohiswife
Si
hle:
wher
eisNokwazi
?
Sphi
:wi
thmymot
her
.Weneededt
hebr
eak
Loy
iso:y
oudon'
tknowwhataprobl
em chi
l
dis.
HaveyoumetMysons?Pr
oblems.Al
l3ofthem
Ihi
thi
schestwi
ththebackofmyhand.He
mustnotcomeher
eandcallmyson'
sprobl
ems
Kwandi
:ev
ent
hel
i
ttl
eone?
Loyi
so:
thatoneisanotherSambuloandSabel o
i
nthemaking.Hei sst
ubbornandascr eamer.
Nooneunderstandswhathesay sbuthej ust
scr
eamsandt heywaytheyfightnoSomila.
Me:pleasedon'
tbel
i
evehi
m,myki
dsar
e
ador
able
Kwandi
:thi
sisonl
ythesecondt
imewemeet
ri
ght
?
Inodded.It
'
st hef
ir
stti
meI'
m meet
inghi
swif
e
though.Theguyswentoutt
ogetdr
inksf
orus
whilewechill
edoutsi
debyt
hepool
Sihl
e:weshoul
dgoonahol
i
dayguy
s.Justas
thegir
lsnj
e
Me:
saywhenandI
'
llbet
her
e.Ineedi
tthemost
Si
hle:
youandLoy
isost
il
lhav
en'
tfi
xedt
hings?
Ishookmyhead.Iwantt heki
dsandItogo
backhome, Ij
ustdon'
tknowhowt oapproach
him abouti
t.I
t'
sanewy earandIwanttoput
everyt
hingbehi
ndus
Si
hle:
youguy
swi
l
lwor
kitout
Sphi
:ifi
t'
smeanttobetheny
ouwil
lfi
ndyour
waybacktoeachother
.Howmanykidsdoyou
guyshavetoget
her
?
Me:2buthi
sotherki
dsar
emyki
dst
oosowe
ar
erai
sing5ki
ds
Lat
ertheguyscamebackwi t
hwhiskey,wine
andbeerpl
usbraai'
dmeat.Weate,drankand
hadagreatt
ime.Ihaven'
thadsuchar el
axed
momentinages.IgotuptogopeeandwhenI
wasdone,averyt
ipsyLoyi
sowaswai ti
ngatthe
door
Me:
youscar
edme
Loy
:Il
ovey
ou
Me:canwecomehome?Imi
ssy
ou.Theki
ds
mi
ssy ou
Hepl
acedhi
shandonmywai standpull
edme
abi
tcl
osert
ohim unt
ilIwasj
ustabreat
haway
t
henki
ssedmeslowly
.
Aweekaf terretur
ningfr
om CapeTown, we
mov edbackhomeandt heboy swer ebey ond
happy .ItwasaMondaymor ning,thekidshad
l
eftforschool andIwasinthekitchenbl ending
fr
uitsforShakasi ncehehatespur i
ty.Ifeltarms
wrapar oundmef rom t
hebackandki sses
beingpl acedonmyneck.Ismi l
edt omy selfasI
sl
owl ycl osedmyey esandtookinhi sheav enly
scentt hensi ghed
Loy
iso:
goodmor
ningl
ove
Itur
nedaround,wr
appedmyar
msar
oundhi
s
neckthenpeckedhi
sli
ps
Me:
mor
ningbaby
Hi
m:I
'
mtaki
ngy
ououtf
ordi
nnert
oni
ght
Me:
arewecel
ebr
ati
ngsomet
hing?
Hesmi ledt
henwinkedatme.Ihelpedhim
col
lecthisworkt
hings,
hetookhislunchthen
l
eftafterki
ssi
ngme
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"
Ido"
ABONGI
WE
Todayi soneoft hoser andom day swher ebyi
bunkwor kandl eav eear ly,y
esi actuall
ydot hat
mor ethanoncei naweekandmybosshas
givenuponme.Any wayI 'm homeby1, I'
mi n
themoodofbondi ngwi thmyki ds.Theyar e
getti
ngol derandi t
sj ustamat teroft i
mebef ore
Usithandil
eisof ftohi ghschool .OKi sti
llhave
agood3y earstogobef orethathappensbut
3yearscanf lyby.Ichangei ntocomf ortableyet
styli
shclothes,grabt hekey st omycarand
dri
v etotheirschool.AsI '
m onmyway ,ireceiv
e
acal
lfr
om mybr
other
,thel
i
ttl
eone
Me:
heybabybr
o
Luk:heysismom say
si musttel
lyout
otel
l
Lunathit
hatshewantsustohavefami
lydi
nner
Me:yourmom andherdrama.Whendoesshe
wantthi
sfami
l
ydinner?
Him:ngomsoandi al
soneedtot
alktoyou
aboutsomet
hing,
cani swi
ngbyyourhouse
l
ater?
Me: whydon'
tyouj
oint
hekidsandiforl
unch?
I
'm onmywayt opi
ckthem upf
rom schoolnow
Thekidshardlyspendt i
mewi t
hextended
famil
yandnowt hatAl wa'skidshavegonet o
l
ivewiththei
rmot her,theyneedt oseeLukat
l
east.Kuhlerantot hecart hemomenthesaw
mest andi
ngagai nstitwhileOy i
ntandojust
str
oll
edandi couldn'tseeUsi thandi
le
Kuhl
e:mommy
Me:
hel
l
omypr
ince
Hi
m:di
dyoubr
ingmeany
thi
ng?
Me:ibr
oughty
oumyhear
twhi
chi
sfi
l
ledwi
th
l
otsofl
ove
Herol
ledhi
seyes,openedthebackseatdoor
andgotint
hecar.Oyi
ntandojustgr
eetedand
al
sogotinthecar
Me:
wher
eisy
oursi
ster
?
Oy
i:dr
amaornet
bal
lorsomet
hing.I
'
m notsur
e
Ihadtogoi nsidet
heschool andexcuseher
fr
om what everwouldbekeepingheratschool
l
ate.I
'm notabadpar ent
,I'
mj ustamom who
missesspendi ngt
imewithherkids
Usi
:wher
ear
ewegoi
ng?
Me:
out
Usi
:yeahbutoutwher
e?
Me:
outUsi
thandi
l
e.That
'sal
lyouneedt
oknow
r
ightnownana
Fi
rststopwasget ti
ngtheboystothebarbert
o
gettheirhai
rcutthenwedidabitofshopping
beforei t
ookthem tot
hearcade.Lukcal
led
whilewewer eatthearcadeanditol
dhim
wher ehewouldfindus
Luk:youbunkedwor
kandmadet
heki
dsbunk
school
Me:
noi
didn'
t
.School
wasoutwheni
gott
her
e
Hi
m:anddr
amapr
act
iceKaUsi
?
Me:mxm st
opjudgi
ngme.Thatchil
ddoesn'
t
needdr
amapracti
ce,shewasbor
ndr amat
ic
Onl
ythendidhegreetmepr
oper
ly,
wit
hahug
andakissonthecheek
Me:
what
'
sup?
Hi
m:I'
minlovewi
ththemostamazinggi
rl
,she
i
sbeaut
if
ul,
smart
,funnyandper
fect
If
oundmy
sel
fsmi
l
ing.Youngl
ovei
sal
way
sso
beauti
ful
towitnessandwi t
hmyot herbr
other
gett
ingmarri
edlaterthi
syear,
itf
eelsgoodt o
seeLukalsosteppingup.hehasplayedthese
gir
lsforl
ongenough
Me:
OKsowhenam i
meet
ingher
?
Hi
m:y
ou'
vemether
.Konke
Me:
Konkeasi
nMangi
'
sgi
rl
fr
iend?
Hi
m:Konkeasi
nmygi
rl
fr
iend.HerandMangi
br
okeup
Me:
becauseofy
ou?
Henodded.Idon' twantt obeapar tofthi
s.i
l
ov emybr ot
herandi wanthimt obehappyat
al
l t
imesbuti don'tl
ikethis.I
tputsmei nan
awkwar dposi
tionbecauseLi yanaismybest
fr
iendandMangi i
shersonandLuki smy
brother
.Imessnjey onkelento
Him:i
tsalongandcompl
i
catedst
orysi
sandi
don'
thav
et heener
gyt
onarr
atei
ttoyou.Ineed
youtohelpmeapol ogi
setoMangi
.Iknowwe
mightneverbefr
iendsagai
nbutiwantto
apol
ogisetohim.
Me: i
thi
nkyoushoul
dtalkt
oLi.Thi
sisaguy
thi
ngandheisinabett
erposi
ti
ontohel
py ou.
Youreal
lyl
i
kethisgi
rl
?
Him: il
oveherAbongiwe.I'
venev erf
eltthi
sway
aboutanyothergir
landI'
v etr
iedtofightmy
feeli
ngsforherbutt
hemor eifought
, t
he
strongert
heyfoughtback.Iwantt oevenstar
t
tal
kingtodadaboutlobola.
Ichokedonmyownsal iva.Lukhanyaistur
ning
21,hehasbeenchanginggirl
slikesockssince
hediscover
edpubit
yandnowhewant sto
marryhisbestf
ri
end'
sexgi rl
fr
iend?Probably
i
dli
siweinganekamamal a
Me:
aski
es?
Helaughed.Hebett
erbejoki
ngyaz.Honest
ly
I
'm pr
ayingthathei
sindeedj
oki
ng
Him: y
oudon'tunderst
andhowi feel
Abongiwe.
I
'm goingtomar r
yherNextyear
.Thatican
guaranteeyou.Li
fei
stooshorttowasteti
me
wheny ouknowwhaty ouwant
*
*
GUGULETHU
Tshepiwalkedintothebedr oom asiwas
gett
ingreadyforthisdinnerthatLoyi
sois
taki
ngmeon.Ihad4dr esseslaidoutonthe
bedsinceicouldn'tdecidewhichonei want
ed
towear
Tshepi
:Dadj
ustcal
l
ed
Me:
uthi
ni?
Her
:hesaysyoushoul
dn'
tworryaboutdr
ivi
ng,
hewil
lsendacart
ocomef et
chus
Istopwhati
wasdoingandtur
nedtof
aceher
.I
didn'
tknowt
hishadnowtur
nedint
oafami
ly
di
nner,
ithoughti
twoul
djustbet
het
woofus.
Reki
ndl
ingourlov
e
Me:
us?
Her:yeahus.Idon'tknowwhatheisupt
obut
that'
swhathesai d.Hesai
dhewill
sendtwo
cars,oneforyouandoneforus.Ohandyour
dressjustarr
ived
Me:
mydress?Tshepi
soy
oukeepconf
usi
ng
meevenmore
Shel
aughed.Shehasstar
tedwar
mi ngupt
ome
si
ncewemov edbackhereandit
hinkweare
sl
owlybui
ldi
ngarel
ati
onship
Her:OKthedr
essj
ustgother
e,someladyi
s
al
sohereappar
ent
lyshei
sgoingtodoyour
nai
ls
Me:
yourf
atheri
ssoext
rat
hough
Wesharedalaugh.i
ret
urnedthedressesi
had
t
akenoutbackint
othecloset
,woremygown
t
henwentdownstai
rs.byt
het
imei
wasdone,
i
l
ookedandfel
tli
keaqueen
Sabel
o:y
ouar
ebeaut
if
ulmama
Sambul
o:v
erybeaut
if
ul
Thekidswerei nbl
uejeansandblackhoodi
es.
al
lofthem exceptforShakawhowasi nhi
s
onesi
eandsl eepi
nginhissleeper
Nana:
thecari
sher
eguy
s.Let
sgo
Me:
minei
sher
etoor
ight
?
Tshepi
:yep.y
ourdr
ivert
oo
Mydr esswasawhi teandgol dlongmer maid
offtheshoul dergownwhi chshowedof fever
y
curveonmybody .Myhai rwaspi nnedt ohang
offonsi deonmyshoul dermaki ngmydi amond
earr
ingsv eryv i
sible.Thedriveropenedt he
backseatont hecarandi couldn'thelpbut
smilewheni sawLoy i
soinasui tlooking
absolutelygorgeous
Qhawe:
lookaty
oubusybl
ushi
ngher
e
Me:
mxm
Hi
m:lolyoust
il
lcan'
ttel
lusapar
tev
enaf
terso
manyyears
Me:mxm it
sdarki
nthi
scarsoy
oucan'
tbl
ame
me.whatarey
ouevendoi
ngher
e?
Ihonestl
ythoughthewasLoyisobutseri
ously
tomydef ence,
thecarwasdark.ihadtoli
sten
tohisnonsensethewhol
ewayt otherestaurant
andQhawespeaksal otofnonsense.
Qhawe:
youl
ookbeaut
if
ulbyt
heway
Me:
thanky
ou
t
hecarstoppedatahotelconfer
encearea,
it
wasbeauti
fulwit
hli
ght
sandf lowers.i
don'
t
t
hinkI
'
veev erbeent
othissideoftown
Me:
wher
ear
ewe?
Qhawe:Zi
mbal
i.I
'
m goingtot
akeyoutoaroom
wherey
ourboy
fri
endis.Hewant
stotal
ktoyou
bef
oreweal
lhav
edi
nnerasaf
ami
l
y.Ev
ery
one
i
shere
Me:
justf
ordi
nner
?
Hi
m:y
eah.Come
Hel edmet othebackofthehot
el,t
oa
guesthousetypeofsetupandLoyi
sometusat
thedoor.thesignswerether
ebutei
theri
was
blindorij
ustpretendednott
oseethem.Loy
iso
kissedmycheek, heldmyhandandledme
i
nsi det
hehouse
Me:what'
sgoi
ngon?It
houghtwear
egoi
ngt
o
hav
edinner
Loy
:wewi
l
l.Comel
etst
alkf
oraf
ewmi
nut
es
Wesatdownonthecouch.Wel
lisatdownand
hekneel
edi
nfr
ontofme
Hi
m:i
lov
eyounanazi
.Youknowt
hatr
ight
?
Inodded
Hi
m:andy
ouknowI
'
m notper
fectbuti
nev
er
stoptryi
ngt omakey ouhappybecausewhen
youar ehappy,myki dsar ehappyandI '
m happy
.
ialmostlostmymi ndwheny oul eftme,itt
ook
youwal ki
ngawayf ormet or eal
iset wo
i
mpor tantthi
ngs.fi
rst l
ythati am nothi
ng
withoutyou,ieat
,sleep, breathey ourl
oveand
yourpresence.Secondl ythatmyki dshaveno
l
oy al
ty
Il
aughed.Icoul
dfeel
thet
ear
scl
osi
ngi
nonme
butidi
dn'
twanttorui
nmymakeup.
Hi
m:y
oul
aughbutt
hoseonesdon'
tl
oveme
Me:
ilov
eyout
hough
Him:andiappreciatet
hatmor ethanyou'l
lever
knowbecausei knowi don'
tdeserveyou.
AnywayIbroughty ououtherebecausethekids
andihaveasurpriseforyou.wellihav
e
somethi
ngi wanttoasky ouandi needthei
r
hel
p
Hewenti
ntooneoft
her
oomsandcameback
withtheki
ds.thehoodieswerenowof fand
theywerewearingblackt-
shi
rt
s.Tshepiwas
carry
ingShakawhileSambulowasHol ding
Somi l
a'
shand.Theywer esmil
inghappil
ywhich
mademesmi l
easwel l
.Myki
dsarebeaut i
ful
though
Sabel
o:mamapl
easest
andup
Me:
ohy
eah.OK
Igotup,mysmilegrewbigger.I'
m sohappy
ri
ghtnowbecauset heyl
ooksoser iouswhi
le
carr
yingoutwhatev
ertasktheirfat
herhas
askedthem t
odo
Tshepi:
weasthemanychil
drenofLoyiso
AlwakheSiy
abul
elaSmi
thhavejustoneti
ny
questi
ontoaskyou.
Il
aughed.Ir
eal
l
ywasenj
oyi
ngt
his
Me:
OKgoahead
Tshepi
wast
hef
ir
stonet
otur
nar
oundandher
T-shir
thad" wil
l
"wr i
ttenoni twit
hgoldl et
ters.
Aftertheyhadal l
turnedar oundthei
rt-shir
ts
read"wi l
lyoumar r
yme? "Igaspedloudly,i
reall
ywascaughtbysur pri
sebecausewe
hadn'tspokenaboutmar r
iagei
nages.Last
ti
mei checked,hedidn'twanttogetmar r
ied
Me:
youguy
s
Loyi
sowasononekneei
nfr
ontofmewi
tha
ri
ngboxi
nhishand
Me:
youguy
sar
eget
ti
ngmesoemot
ional
Loy
:mykneei
sst
art
ingt
ocr
amp
Me:
ohshi
t.YesbabyI
'
llmar
ryy
ou
Heslippedt
heringont
omyf
inger
,gotupt
hen
peckedmylips
Hi
m:t
her
eisabi
tofapl
ott
wist
HetookShakafr
om Tshepiandgav ehi
mt ome.
Hi
sonesiewaswr i
tt
entoni
ghtwhichdidn't
makesenseifhewasalsopartoftheproposal
Him:nanazi
i f
lewinev
ery
onet hati
simport
ant
toyouandtous.Yourmotherandyoursi
ster
s
hel
pedmepl anyourdr
eam wedding
Iwasonsomeot
herl
evel
ofconf
usi
on
Me:
whatar
eyousay
ingt
omeLoy
iso?
Hi
m: wear
eget
ti
ngmar
ri
edi
ntwohour
s
st
handwasam.
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"
Becomi
ngMr
sSmi
th"
GUGULETHU
2hrs.That
'swhathesai dri
ght?Ihavetwo
hourstogetreadyf oraweddi
ngi onl
yfound
outabout10mi nsago.Whatifthedressdoesn'
t
fi
tme?Whati ft her
eisnodressandhewant s
met owearthisone?Whati fidon'
tli
kethe
dress
Loy
:babyr
elax
Me:youcan'
ttel
lmetorel
ax,ihav
et wohours
bef
oreigetmarr
iedandihav
enothingprepar
ed
Hi
m:ev
ery
thi
ngy
ouneedi
sher
e.Tr
ustme
Hekissedmylipsthenpeckedmycheek.Iwas
sti
l
l i
nabitofadaze,maybeI'm dr
eami
ngyaz,
thi
ssoundstoogoodt obetrue.Whopul
lsof
fa
surpr
iseweddi
ng?
Him:I
'
llseeyoui
ntwohours.Every
onethat'
s
goi
ngtohelpyougetr
eadyisalr
eadyhereandi
al
soneedtogogetready
.Iloveyousomuch
MaZul
uwam
Helef
twitht
hekidsjustasAbongiwe,Mbali,
Amahle,
mymot her
,themakeupl adyand
someotherl
adywhowashol dingmydr ess.I
t
wasinacoversoicouldn'
texact
lyseeit
Amahl
e:i
can'
tbel
i
evey
ouar
eget
ti
ngmar
ri
ed
Me:
nei
thercani
Abongi
we:
wehav
etwohour
sguy
s.Shower
,get
dol
l
edup,getdr
essedandl
etsgogether
marr
ied
Every
onescat teredtothediff
erentr
oomsandi
stoodgrounded.Howi sitt
hatthisi
staki
ngso
l
ongt osinkin?Ist hi
sreall
yhappeni
ng?
Abongiwegav emeagl asswithsomel i
quid
thatidownedi nstantl
y.i
ttookagoodt wo
secondsbeforei real
izedihaddownedal cohol
.
Verystrongalcohol
Me:
whatt
hehel
lwast
hat
?
Abongi
we:
whi
skey
.Howar
eyouf
eel
i
ng?
Me: ov
erwhel
med.Conf
used.Idon'
tev
ent
hink
I
'm awakeri
ghtnow
Astingi
ngsensat
ionspr
eadacrossmyl
eft
cheek.Di
dthi
swomanj ustsl
apme?
Me:
Abongi
we!
!
Her:
ifyouf
eltt
hatthenyouaredef
ini
tel
y
awake.OKbabesyouaregett
ingmarr
iedin
l
esst
hantwohours.Therei
sabathroom i
nthe
mast
erbedr
oom.Got akeabath.I
'
vegotyou
andt
oni
ghti
sgoingtobeperfect
Me:ohmywordit
satnight
.Abongi
weI'
m
bri
ngingmy
sel
fbadl
uck.Noonegetsmarr
ied
atnight
.
Her:y
ourmanisspontaneous.Don'
tovert
hink
i
t.not
hingwi
l
lgowr ong.Trustme.Gobath
I
tsamazinghowf ast2hr
scangobywheny ou
haveasurpri
seweddingcomi
ngy ourway.i
l
ookedattheclockonthewal
l ast
hemakeup
l
adyfini
shedtouchi
ngupmyf aceanditwas
19h30.30minstogo.
Mbal
i
:dr
esst
ime.I
'
m soex
cit
ed
Tshepi
:metoo.Ican'
twaitt
oseeyouini
t.
Mamay oushoul
dseehowcut eShakal
ooksi
n
hi
ssuit
.thedadsaretr
yingt
oteachhi
m howto
walk
Il
aughedner
vousl
yjustpi
ctur
ingt
hem.Wai
tdi
d
Tshepi
justcal
lmemama?Ilookedather
,she
wassmili
ngthenshewi
nkedatme
Me:
didy
ouj
ust
..
.
Tshepi
:youguy
sar
eget
ti
ngmar
ri
edaf
teral
l
Me:
comeher
e
Igaveherahug,ahear
tfel
twarm hug.The
progresswe'
vemadeoverthepasttwoy ear
sis
quit
eal ot
Me:
thanky
ou
Tshepi
:not
hanky
oumom
Amahl
e:guy
sti
mei
sn'
tonoursi
de
Wheni wasalreadyinmydr essicouldn't
bel
ievemyey es.IfIthoughtilookedlikea
queenearl
ierthenrightnowI '
mt hequeen' s
queen.Iwaslookingef f
ortl
esslybeaut i
fulandi
wasinsanelyi
nl ovewithmyweddi ngdr ess.i
t
fi
tli
keaglove.
Mom:
youl
ookgor
geousGugu
Me:
ifeel
gor
geous
Abongi
we:
let
sgogety
oumar
ri
edmngani
Itooki nadeepbr eathandsl owlyexhal ed.My3
bridesmai d,Mbali,Amahl eandTshepi l
ooked
gor geousandsodi dmymai dofhonour
Abongi we.Asi wal kedintot heweddi ngv enuei
keptpr ay i
ngsi l
entlythati donttripandf alli
n
fr
ontoft hesepeopl ebutwhenmyey esl anded
onLoy isoandourboy s,myhear tmel ted
i
nst antly.Thet winslookedsocut einthei rsuit
s.
l
ooki ngar oundicoul dtellthatalotoft hought
andpl anni ngwenti ntot hisnight.Theser mon
wasshor tsowegott ot hev owspar tver y
quicklyandi hadt ogof irst.Iwasn'tev en
prepar edf orthi
sweddi ngsowhenwasi goi
ng
togetachancet owr i
temyv ows?
Past
or:
Gugu?
Icl
earedmythr
oat
.I'
m st
il
lfeel
ingv
ery
over
whelmedbutI
'
vebeentakingalotofdeep
br
eat
hs
Me: I'
m al l
owedt omesst hispar tupbecausei
didn'tknowi wasget tingmar riedt oday .I
thoughtwewer egoi ngOutf ordi nner .Asi
walkeddownt heai sl
e, ididn' twantmyey esto
wonderar oundt oomuchbecausei wasal r
eady
nervousenoughsoi focusedmyey esont he
mant hatpul l
edal lofthi
st oget her.Youar ea
dream comet hroughLoy iso, youar eapr ayer
answer edandawi shgr ant ed.You' vebr ought
somuchl oveandhappi nessi ntomyl if
e, I
'
ve
grownwi thy ouov erthepastt hr eey earsandi
woul dn'twantt ochangeat hingaboutus.
Todaywet akeanot herst ept hroughourj ourney,
todayi becomey ourwi f
e.Iv owt ohelpy oulove
l
ife,toseeeachdayasanoppor tunit
yt obean
evengr eatermanandhusband.Iv owt onev er
disrespecty ou,tonev erl ookdownony oubut
toelev ateatal l
timesandt oal way sgi veyou
yourpl acei nourhome.Myl ov e,mysoul ,my
l
ife,
myhear tandmyl oyalt
yisy ourst ohave,
yourstotreasureandy ourstopr otect.I
promisetoal wayssubmi ttoyou, t
okeepy ou
wellfedi
nal lareasandnev erdenyy ouwhats
yours.Il
ovey oupastmymi nd, pastmysoul
andpastmybody ,
ilovefrom thedept hsofmy
heartwhereonl yyou,Godandourchi l
dren
resi
de.
Thetear
swer eal
readyrol
l
ingdownmycheeks
andiwasn'tgoi
ngtowipethem.Thesear
e
tear
sofjoyandiwanttheworldt
oseethem
Loy:ifi couldi wouldasky outomar rymeev er
y
weekj ustsoi couldseey outhishappyand
hearthosebeaut i
fulwordsbeingdedicatedto
me.Ioncer eadthaty oucannev ersayyoutrul
y
l
ovesomeoneunt ilyou'
veseent heperson
str
uggl i
ngwi ththeirheal
th,gri
evingalovedone
andst rugglingfinancial
ly.Foralongtimei
bel
ievedt hatuntilicamet oreali
sedthatit
snot
enti
relyt r
ue.Thewayi seeit,i
tiswheny our
l
ov eist ested,yourt rusti sbrokenandl oy alty
questionedandy oust illcomeoutont op.That '
s
wheny ouknowt hest rengt hofy our
rel
ationshi pandhowf ary ourl ovecanst retch.
i
nf rontoft hesepeopl eI '
m notaf raidt oadmi t
thatI'
m not hingwi t
houty ou.Youar emy
everything.I'
vebeenbl essedt obel ov edbya
queensuchasy oursel fandi ttookonesi mpl e
thi
ngf ormet or ealiset haty oudeser venot hing
l
esst hant hewor ldonasi l
verpl atter.Inf rontof
ourf r
iendsandf ami l
yi promi set of oreverl ay
thewor l
daty ourf eet,tonev erlayahandon
younomat terhowmuchmyt empermayr ise.I
promi set oloveinawayy ou'venev erbeen
l
ov ed,tomakey ouquest i
onev er t
hingy ouknew
aboutl ovebef orey oumetme.I '
m goi ngt ol ove
yousomuchuy ozeubacel eukut hi bangi khuze.
I'
llbey ourbestf riend, yoursuppor tsy stem and
yourbi ggestcheer l
eader .Youar emywor ld,my
universeandmyent iregal axy.Myl if
est ar ts
andendswi thyou.i l
ov ey ouMaZul uKaSmi th
Her emovedmyv ei
landpull
edmei nt
ohis
embr aceandki
ssedme.Ourf i
rstkissas
husbandandwi f
e.Iwasstil
lenj
oyingli
steni
ng
tohisbeauti
ful
wordsthathaveturnedmy
i
nsidesintowarmicecream.
Past
or:
idon'
tremembert
ell
i
ngy
out
oki
ssher
Loy
:youwer
etaki
ngt
ool
ong
Il
aughed, everyonedidact ual
l
y.Thet wins
broughttheringsandwowwer etheygor geous.
Iwasinlov ewi t
hmygor geouspearshaper uby
di
amondr i
ng.Si mple,
elegantandy etso
gl
amor ous.hiswasawhi t
egoldsimpl eband
withasmal lrubydiamond.Themomentwe
werepronouncedhusbandandwi fe,hepul l
ed
mei nforanot herki
ssthenwhi speredinmyear
Loy
:Il
ovey
ouMr
sSmi
th
Ismi
ledhappi
lywhi
l
est
ari
ngatmyr
ing.i
am
MrsSmithnow.
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ABONGI
WE
*
5year
slat
er*
Asapar entweal way saimt opr otectourchi l
d,
west rivetot eacht hem rightf r
om wr ongand
wespendmostofourt i
meemphasi singhow
wr ongl y
ingi s.Wegoasf arasusi ngr eligion
andt hebi ble.Wheni wasachi l
dmyf ather
alway stoldmet hatal yi
ngchi l
di sabadchi ld
andabadchi l
disthedev i
l'schild.Nowat
6y earsold,i di
dn'twantt obet hedev il
'schi ld,i
want edt obeGod' schildsoev enwheni tolda
smal lli
e, i
beggedGodf orf orgiveness.Par ents
dosomet i
mesl i
etopr otectt heirchildren, its
whatmakesusei thergoodorbadpar ent sbut
thepr oblem comeswhent hekidsf indout
aboutt hel i
eanddon' tseei tf
rom y ourpoi ntof
view.Myki dsar egr ownupnow, Usithandi leis
16, Oyintandoi s15andSt holokuhl eis14.
Usi t
handi l
er ecentl
yf oundoutt hatshei s
adopt
edandhascompl
etel
yshutusout
Me:Li
mileI
'm scared.Whati
fshedoes
somet
hingstupidandrunsaway?
Hekissedmyfor
ehead.Iknowheisasscared
asiam buthej
ustwon'
tshowit.Iwishshe
coul
djustgi
veusachancetoexplai
n
ever
ythi
ngtoher
Li
:havefai
thinthechil
dyour
aisedmyangel
.
sheisj
ustconfusedandangr
yatthemoment,
shewil
lcomear ound
Me:whatifshedoesn'
tLi
mile?Whatthen?
MaybeishouldaskShauntocomet al
ktoher
.
hewasinhershoessoheunderstandsthi
s
Hi
m:i
don'
tthi
nkt
hat
'sagoodi
dea
Me:thenwhatshoul
didoHadebe?Ican'
tj
ust
si
thereanddonothi
ng
Aknockonourbedr
oom doorpausedt
he
conv
ersat
ionwewerehavi
ng.I
twasLimil
ethat
wenttoopenandOyi
ntandowal
kedi
n.Hei
sso
tal
lnowwithadeepv
oiceandsucha
handsomeboy.
Oy
i:mom someonei
sher
etoseey
ou
Me:
who?
Oyi
:shesai
dshei
sasoci
alwor
ker
.Mr
s
Hadebe
Li:
mustbemamncaneAsemahl
e.Wher
eis
yoursi
ster
?
Oy
i:i
ntheki
tchen
Whenwegotdownstai
rs,
Asemahleal
readyhad
somethi
ngt
odri
nkinfr
ontofher
.weshar ed
hugs
Asemahle:
I'
m sorr
yforcomingunannounced
butIonl
ygotyourvoi
cemail
t hi
saft
ernoon
Li
mil
ecl
ear
edhi
sthr
oat
Li
:I
'm gl
adyoucoul
dcome.Letmeget
Usi
thandi
leandwecant
alk
Hecall
edoutforherandshecameandsatnext
tome.Itt
ookherhandinmineandgavei
ta
gent
lysqueeze
Li:
pumpkinthi
sisuncl
eSbani
'
smom.You
rememberherri
ght
?
Usi
:yesi
do.Hel
l
o
Asemahl
e:Hel
loUsi
thandi
le.Ihadabr
ieftal
k
wit
hyourdadandhetoldmeaboutyourrecent
fi
ndi
ngsandyouweren'
thappyabouti
t
Usi
:I
'mj
ustconf
used
Me:l
etusfil
li
nthegapsf
ory
oubaby
.Pl
ease
j
ustdon'
tshutusout
Usi
:iwanttoknowwheremyr ealpar
ent
sare,
whytheygavemeaway,whyyouguy sadopt
ed
me,howoldIwaswheny oubecamemy
par
entsandwhyyoukeptthi
sf r
om me
Hervoicewasbreaki
ngasshewascloseto
t
ears.shereal
l
ysoundedhurtandconf
used
Asemahle:yourmot herwas14yearsoldwhen
shehady ou,shewasst i
ll
achildhersel
fand
shefel
tshewoul dn'
tbeabl et
ot akecar
eofyou.
That
'swhyshegav eyouup
Usi
:am i
achi
l
dofr
ape?
Asemahl e: notasfarasiknow.Yourbi r
th
mot herwasachi l
dthatdidn'thavetheright
guidanceandsuccumbedt opeerpr essure.She
neverrev ealedtouswhoy ourfat
heris.Icould
tr
yt otrackherdownf ory
oui fyou'dli
ke
Myey esgrewwider
,Asemahlecan'
ttakemy
babyfrom meandgivehert
oanotherwoman.I
wouldneveral
l
owt hat
Usi
:noi
tsf
ine.Thi
ngsar
ebet
tert
hewayt
hey
ar
e
Sheturnedtolookatme,ij
ustwantedtowrap
myarmsar oundherandholdherti
ght.l
ooki
ng
athernow,icouldn'
thel
pbutthi
nkofthefi
rst
dayimether.Howi inst
ant
lyf
elli
nlovewith
her
.Mybeaut
if
ulpumpki
n
Me: adayaf tery ourdadandi gotengaged, i
wasadmi t
tedt othehospi
talbecausei was
bleedingheav ily.att
hehospit
al wedi scoveredi
hadbeenpr egnantbuti l
ostthebaby .The
doct ort
heni nf ormedusthatiwouldn' tbeable
tohav echil
dr en.Wewant edaf amilyandt hat
's
whywebr oughty ouhomewi thus.Usi thandil
e
yourf at
herandi l
oveyousomuch, i don'tcare
whatDNAsay s,youareourdaughter.Not hing
willchanget hat
Li:yourmotherisright
.Wedi dn'ttel
lyou
becauset ousyouar eourdaught ersowef elti
t
wasn'timport
ant .You'
vebeeni nourlivessince
youwer e3mont hsold,youareourchi l
das
muchasKuhl eandOy iare.Iam howev ersorry
thatweliedtoyouandkeptal l
oft hi
sasecr et.
Wewoul dnev erhurtyouintent
ionall
ymy
pumpki n
Hepul
l
edhert
owar
dsher
,ki
ssedherf
orehead
t
hengav
eherahug
Usi
:ihat
ethatnamet
ata,
uyay
azl
ont
onj
ena
*
*
GUGULETHU
You'dt hinkafterbei ngmar riedf or5y ears, i
woul dbeusedt oi tbutI '
m not .I'
m sohappy ,
contentandi nlov e.Ofcour sewe' v ehadour
fi
ghtsandpr oblemsbutwe' v enev ergonet o
bedwi t
houtt al
kingt hingst hrough.I tsoneof
thethingshi smot heremphasi zedonwhenshe
advisedme.Thatandt hatimustnev erdeny
him sex.Loy iso'
smom i sjustaspeci altypeof
woman.Myboy sar ei
nhi ghschool now, Tshepi
i
si nv arsit
y,Somi laisingr ade1whi leShakai s
i
npr eschool .Not hingmuchhaschanged
becauset hebicker i
ngandf ightingamongstt he
sibl
ingsi sanev er ydayt hi
ngev entoday .I'
m
wokenupbysof tkissesonmyf aceandi smile
wi
thoutopeni
ngmyey
es
Loy
iso:
goodmor
ningwi
fe
Me:
goodmor
ninghusbae
Iopenmyey esandheisalr
eadydr
essedupin
asuit.Helooksli
keheisreadyt
oleave.i
look
attheclockandits6:
05
Me:
wher
ear
eyouof
ftoosoear
ly?
Hi
m:myf
li
ghtt
oNai
robi
isat7:
15
Ihadcomplet
elyf
orgot
tent
hathewasl
eav
ing
forKeny
atoday
Me:
ifor
got
.whenar
eyoucomi
ngback?
Hi
m: i
n3days.Sat
urdaymor
ningI
'
llbeher
e
whenyouwakeup
Hepeckedmyl
i
psbuti
pul
l
edhi
minf
ora
deeperki
ss
Hi
m:i
lov
eyounanazi
Me:
ilov
eyoumor
ebabakhe.cal
lmewheny
ou
l
and
Hi
m:I
'
lldef
ini
tel
ydot
hat
Iwentbackt osleepaf terhel ef
tandwokeup
30mi nslater.myal arm hadgoneof f10mi ns
priortomewaki ngupbuti snoozedi t.Igotout
ofbed, t
ookashowert henwor enav ysli
mf it
chinosthatwer ef oldedatt hebot t
om, awhi t
e
blouseandnav yblazerwi thmyl ightpinkheels
whi chmat chedmybag.Iwasal readyrunning
l
at esoi settl
edforsi mplemakeup, j
ust
mascar a,eyeli
nerandpi nklipst
ick.Thekids
wer ealr
eadyeat ingwheni gott othekitchen
Me:
mor
ningguy
s
Sambulo:morni
ngmom.Dadmadeyoua
smoothiebef
orehel
eft
.It
sint
hef
ri
dge
Sabel
o:heal
somadel
unch,
ihopewewon'
tdi
e
Il
aughed.somet
imesLoyi
sodoesthese
amazingthi
ngst
omakemyl i
feeasi
erwhenhe
i
sn'
taround.Wedon'
thav
eNanaany moresi
nce
t
hekidsar
egr
ownsoi
hav
etodoev
ery
thi
ng
mysel
f
Me:fi
nishupguy
s,wehavetol
eavein10mi
ns
i
fIwanttobeatt
raf
fi
c.Babi
eswherear
eyour
bags?
Shake:
ont
hecoush
Shakahasali
spswhichannoyshim butithi
nk
i
tsthecut
estthi
ngever.Whil
etheyfini
shedup,
ipour
edmuesliinasealabl
ebowl,putiti
nmy
l
unchbagtogetherwi
thasmal l
yogur t
,my
l
unchboxandanappl e.
Me:
I'
m att
hedoor
Somi
la:met
oo.comeonboyswedon'
twantt
o
bel
ateandi
tsr
udetokeepl
adi
eswait
ing
Sabel
o:y
out
alkal
ot.l
etsgo
Lucki
lyeveryonemadeitonti
me,my sel
f
i
ncluded.IworkforShaun'
scompanyasoneof
4seniorarchit
ect
s.It
sagreatpay
ingjob,not
t
hati
evenneedt
hemoney
Nomt
hi:
goodmor
ningMr
sSmi
th
Nomthii
smyPAandherdeski sj
ustout
side
myoffi
ce.sheisoldert
hanmebutshegives
metherespectIdeserv
eandidothesame
Me: goodmorni
ngNomthi
.pl
easegetmea
decaflat
teandcomet
omyof f
icesowecango
thr
oughmydi ar
y
Her
:yesma'
am
Iplacedmysketchpadonmydesk, l
oggedon
tomycomput erandcheckedmyemails.
standardpr
oceduref
oreverymor
ning.Nomthi
retur
nedwithmycoffee,
wewentthroughmy
diary
Her:youhaveal unchmeeti
ngwithaMr
SbanisethuHadebeat12,herequest
edthatyou
guysmeether eattheof
fi
cesoI '
vebookedthe
boardroom
Me:
pot
ent
ial
cli
ent
?
Her:y
es.Hedidn'twanttodi
scl
osemuch,
he
sai
dhe'drat
hertalkt
oy ou
Me: uhm OKi nt
hemeantimegat herallthe
i
nf ormationy
oucanabouthim andhav eit
readyf ormeintwohour
s.Ihavedesi gnsIhave
tof i
nishsoidon'
twantt
oBeDi sturbedforthe
nexttwohour s
Her
:yesma'
am
Shewalkedoutleav
ingmetohav
emy
breakf
astandgetstar
tedonmywor
k
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GUGULETHU
Therewasnot hingmuchaboutthisSbaniguy
ontheinternetbutNomthimanagedtofindout
thatheisinthehospit
ali
tyi
ndustr
y.
Restaur
ants,hotel
sandlodgesarewhathe
makeshi smoneyfr
om andheseemst obe
goodati tj
udgi
ngbyhisnetwort
h.Iwas
readi
ngt hr
oughhi
sprofi
lewhenmyphonerang.
Myhear tdi
dabackfli
pwhenIsawmy
husband'snameonthescreen
Me:
myki
ng
Loy
: heymylove.Ur
ight
?Di
dyoust
arty
our
morningkakuhl
e?
Me:yesidi
dst
handwasam.Thankyouf
orthe
smoothi
eandmaki
nglunches.I
dbesol
ost
wit
houtyou
Him:mypl
easur
ebaby
.I'
m st
il
latt
heair
port
,i
haveameet
ingi
n30minssoI'
m wai
ti
ngfort
he
dri
ver
Me:wewil
ltal
klat
erbaby.Ial
sohav
ea
meeti
ngnowaswel l
.Lov
ey ou
Hi
m:l
ovey
oumor
e
Ihungup.Af
ewmi
nut
esl
aterMrHadebe
arri
vedandi prepar
edtogot
otheboar
droom.
Hisprofi
lesaidheis31butt
heguyl
ooked25
andf i
l
thyrich.Hesmil
edwheniwal
kedin,
stoodupt oshakemyhandthenwebothsat
down
Me:
goodaf
ter
noonMrHadebe
Sbani
:pl
easecal
lmeSbani
Hesmil
edagai
n,heseemsqui
tef
ri
endl
yand
wel
coming
Me:
OKSbani
,I
'm GuguSmi
th
Hi
m:t
hewi
feofLoy
isoSmi
thasof5y
ear
sago
Ichuckl
ed.IguessI'
m nottheonl
yonewhodid
herhomewor k.ToobadI'
m notevenongoogl
e
Me:
youl
ookedmeup
Hi
m: il
ookupever
yoneihaveanint
ent
ionof
wor
kingwit
h.ir
ecent
lygotmarr
ied
Me:
congr
atul
ati
ons
Him:thankyou.ihaven'tl
i
vedinonecityf
or
l
ongerthan3mont hssincemyv arsi
tyday
s.I
l
iketotrav
el,i
tsgreatformylineofworkplusi
s
agreatwaytounwi ndandr el
ax
Hespokewithconf
idence,powerandhedi
dn'
t
beatar
oundthebush.ial
readyli
kehimfor
bei
ngpreci
se
Him:mywifewantstosettl
eheresowebought
ahousebutshedoesn'tl
i
keitsowear e
renov
ati
ng.i
dli
keyout oheadthatup.I
'
ll
couri
ert
hehouseplans,youcancomeseethe
houseandchangeitt
osomet hi
ngwewoul d
l
ike
Me:
OKsoundssi
mpl
eenough
I
'
vedonet
onsofrevampi
ngdesi
gns,
icoul
ddo
t
hati
nmysleepeven
Him:basedonhowi mpr essediam byt
he
house,wewil
lstartt
alki
ngaboutwhatyoucan
doforthe6buil
dingsi j
ustbought
Me:
iwontl
ety
oudown
Him:bewarnedMrsSmith,
I'
m notamanthati
s
easi
lyi
mpressedsoyouhaveyourwor
kcutout
fory
ou
Nomat terhowr ichyouar e,y
ouwi llal
way sfeel
i
ntimidat edbypeoplewhoar ericherthany ou
andt hereisalway ssomeoner i
cherthany ou.At
theendofourmeet i
ngi hadt hefull
br i
ef,
deadlineandahugechi ponmyshoul der.thi
sis
agreatcar eeropportunityforme.Ther estof
mydaywassmoot hsailing,t
hecompanydr i
ver
fet
chedmybabi esfrom school andi l
etthem
chil
linmyof f
icewhi l
ei work.Sabeloand
Sambul ousual l
yhav ethingstodoaf t
erschool
soi onlypickthem upaf terwork
Shaka:
mommyI
'
mti
red
Me:
getoncouchandsl
eep
Shaka:
iwantt
ogohome.Whenar
ewegoi
ng
home?
Me: assoonasI'
m doneher
ebaby.Somil
ahelp
yourbrot
hertakehi
sshoesoffsohecansleep
onthecouch
Somi
l
a:cani
sleept
oomommy
?
Me:y
esmyl
ove.I
'
llwakey
ouupwhenwego
home
I'
m excit
edaboutthisnewprojectij
ustt
ookon
andi wantt
oimpr ess.Iwassolosti
nmywor k
thationl
yreal
iseditshometimewhenNomt hi
knockedonmydoor
Me:
homet
imeal
ready
?
Nomt
hi:
yesma'
am.I
'
mrushi
ngt
ogett
axi
es
Me:uhm I
'l
ldr
opyouof
f,pl
easej
usthel
pme
wi
ththesetwo.
Iswi
tchedever
ythi
ngoff
,inevertakework
home.oneofthethi
ngsLoyisoandi agr
eedon.
Icar
ri
edShakasinceheisthefussyonewhi l
e
Nomthicar
ri
edSomi l
a.I
tsalwaysriskyl
ett
ing
thekidssleepinthecarwi thoutbuckl i
ngthem
upbuti knowmychi l
dren,theywi ll
throwa
tantr
um iftheyarewokenupbef oretheyhave
hadenoughsl eep.Ipickedt heboy supf r
om
schoolandt heywoket heirsibl
ingsupt heni
droppedNomt hi
off.I
twasar ound6: 30pm
whenwegothomeandi won'tev enli
e,iwas
exhausted
Me:Sabel
oandSambuloshowerand
homeworkpl
easewhi
leimakedinnerand
swi
tchtheTVonfory
ourbrot
herandsist
er
Beingacar eerwomanandamot heri
sn'
tchild'
s
playespeciall
yonday swheni havetodoitall
my sel
f.Idefrostedandmar inatedmeat,
madea
Greeksaladt henboiledpotatoesformash.
Whent hatwasdone, igavemybabi esabat h
thenpouredmy selfaglassofwi newhi
chi had
whilegri
ll
ingt hemeat
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*
ABONGI
WE
Losingmydad18mont hsagowaspr obablyone
ofthemostdi f
fi
cultt
hingsI'
l
levergothrough
buttimetr
ulydoesheal al
lwounds.Isti
llmiss
him att
imesandnotadaygoesbywi t
houtme
thi
nkingabouthim.MaNt ombisti
ll
staysatthe
houseandt hekidsandi v
isi
theroft
en
Oy
i:mom mayi
pleasehav
eanewphone
Me:
asky
ourf
ather
Hi
m:i
did,
hesai
dishoul
dasky
ou
Me:why?Becausewhenyouaskhi
mfor
condoms,
hedoesn'tsayy
oumustaskme
Hisey eswidenedandhi smout hhungopen.
Theseboy sthinkI'
m stupid,asifi
don'
theart he
hushhushconv er
sati
onst heyhavewiththei
r
fatheraboutcondomsandext raall
owanceso
theycant akethei
rgir
lf
riendsoutondat es.I
heari
tal
l
Him:huhmom uhm l
i
keidon't
..
.me?Condoms?
Idon'
tknowwhaty
ouaretal
ki
ngabout
Me:
hmm I
'
m sur
eyoudon'
t.Asky
ourf
ather
Hi
m:aboutt
hecondomsoraboutt
hephone?
Me:
Oyi
ntandoy
enkosi
!!
Helaughed,ki
ssedmycheekthenhoppedon
thecount
er.Iwasmakingdi
nneranditwasj ust
thetwoofusinthehousesi
ncehisbrotherwas
atchoi
rpracti
ceandhi
ssist
erwasatt heli
brary
.
Daddywasatwor k
Hi
m:i
lov
eyouy
azmamam
Me:don'
tgetanyonepregnantOyi
ntando,
I'
m
notl
ooki
ngafteranybabiesmina
Him: t
hat
'swhydadgi
vesmemoneyf or
condomsnjenamama.Sothatnoonegets
pregnant
Me:
soy
ouar
ehav
ingsex?JesusOy
int
ando
y
azy
ouar
egoi
ngt
osendmet
omygr
aveear
ly
Him: r
elaxmom,ial
wayspr
otectmy
sel
f,i
respectwomenandI'
m aonewomanmanl i
ke
dad
Liandi havealway shadanopenr elati
onship
withthekidsandast heygotolderwemadei ta
comf ort
ablespacef orthem totalktousf r
eel
y
aboutper i
ods,sex,condomsandbasi call
y
anythingthatmakesr elati
onshipsbet ween
parentsandchi l
drenabi tuncomf ort
able.Kuhle
walkedinwi t
hhi ssisterandtheirfather.Li
ki
ssedmycheekbef oreplacinghislaptopbag
onthecount er
Li
:somet
hingsmel
l
samazi
ng
Oy
i:wear
ecooki
ngupast
orm her
e
igavehi
m asi
deeyeandhesmi
l
edbef
ore
blowi
ngmeakiss
Me:
we?
Oy
i:dadmom hasbeeneav
esdr
oppi
ngonus
Li
:real
l
y?Di
dyoudowhati
tol
dyout
odo?
Theywereal
readylaughing,
Kuhlewasalso
j
oini
nginsoUsithandil
eandi j
ustl
ookedat
eachot
herandshr uggedourshoul
ders
Me:
star
ttal
ki
ng
Kuhle:dadsaidi
fy oueveraskusaboutthe
condomsmoney ,weshouldtel
lyouthatwear
e
havi
ngsexandy oumustjustbehappythatwe
areprotect
ingoursel
ves
Me:
sonosex
?
Oyi
:mom wearenotev
en16y
etsonowear
e
nothav
ingsex
Li:
stopeavesdr
oppi
ngmyangel
.you'
l
lgi
ve
yoursel
fgr
eyhair
Me:
mxm gochangepl
ease
Li
:wehav
eguest scomingov
erf
ordi
nner
,i
hopey
oudidn'
tforget
Me:
idi
dn'
t
Usithandil
ehelpedmewi ththerestofthe
dinnerpreparati
onstheniwenttotakeaquick
showert ofreshenup.Ihatehavi
ngt ohost
peoplefordinnerduri
ngtheweek, i
ts
exhaustingreall
y.Li
wenttogett hedoorwhen
therewasaknockandt heywalkedin
Li
:heyguy
s
Hegavehiscousinamanhugt henhuggedhis
wi
febefor
eleadingthem t
othelounge.t
hekids
wer
estil
lsett
ingthetabl
esoipouredwhiskey,
wi
neandjuicef orev
eryone
Sbani
:Mr
sHadebe,
wef
inal
l
yof
fi
cial
l
ymeet
Ipl
acedthet
rayonthecof
feetable,
huggedt
he
bot
hofthem andsatdownnexttomyhusband
Me:
yeswedo.i
tsgoodt
ofi
nal
l
yputaf
acet
o
t
hevoi
ce
Sbani
:thi
sismywi
feLet
hiwe.Babyt
hisi
smy
br
otherLi
mil
eandhi
swi
feAbongi
we
Let
hi:
brot
her
?
Li:
inwhi
tet
ermswearecousi
nsbutinAfr
ican
ter
mswearebrot
her
s.Ourdadswerebrot
hers
Let
hi:
samewayLi
sai
syoursi
ster
?
Sbani
:yeah.Li
sa'
sdadi
stheoldestt
hencomes
Li
'sdadthenAunti
eLwathenmydad
Sbanii
sbabomncaneKK'ssonwithmam'
Asemahle.Hehasbeeninandoutofthe
Count
rysincehegraduat
ed.Gotmarr
iedinLas
Vegasearl
iert
hisy
earwithnofami
lypresent
.
Li
:I
'm glady
ouarefinal
l
yset
tl
ingdownndoda.
Thi
sthingoftr
avel
i
ngsomuchi sn'
tgood
Let
hi:
may
bei
fyout
ell
him,
hewi
l
lheary
ou
Sbani
:I'
m gr
owingupnowdon'tworr
ybro.I
'
m
marri
ednow,boughtahouseandIhaveaki
d
Me:
andexpect
inganot
heronei
see
Let
hiwasspot
ti
ngabeaut
if
ulbabybumpwhi
ch
madeherl
ookevenmorebeaut
if
ul
Let
hi:babynumber5forme.Myol
desti
s19
butheli
veswit
hhisfathernow
Wegott oknoweachabi tmoreduri
ngdinner
.I
l
ikeLethi,sheseemsgrounded,dri
venandyou
cantellt
hatsheisn'
twithSbaniforhi
smoney .
Shehasherownmoney .Afterdi
nnertheki
ds
didthedishesthenwenttobedwhi l
ewehada
nightcap
Li
:howdi
dyouguy
sev
enmeet
?
Theylookedateachot
herwi
thl
ovef
acesand
smil
es
Sbani
:shoul
dit
ell
thest
oryorwi
l
lyout
ell
it?
Let
hi:
goaheadl
ove
Sbani:i
metherdur ingourfinalyeari
nvarsi
ty.
Atfi
rstthroughafri
endofmi nethatwasint
o
herandt heylat
erdated.Theni metheragai
n
thefol
l
owi
ngy
ear
,shewor
kedatMel
omedwi
th
Lisa
Me:
soy
ouar
eanur
se?
Let
hi:
yeah
Sbani
:shewasalr
eadydat
ingAsi
bonge,
hei
s
st
il
lagoodfr
iendofmine.
Let
hi:Asiandi brokeupay earaft
erihadthe
twi
ns.Itwasacl eanbr eakup, ver
ymatureand
amutual decisi
on.Wewer enothappyany more
andwecal leditquit
s.Thef oll
owingy
earwhi l
e
onholi
daywi thMf undoandLi sainMiami we
bumpedi ntoeachot herandnowher ewear e.
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08/
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15:
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Season2
I
nser
t45
GUGULETHU
OnSat ur
daymor ni
ngiwaswokenupbyt he
smelloffry
ingbaconandeggs.WhenIsatup
onthebed, isawmyhusbandssui
tcaseatt
he
farendoftheroom.Hei sback.Iqui cklyleaped
outofbed,washedmyf ace,ri
nsedmymout h
thenwentdownstairs.Iwasi njusthi sT-shir
t
andhisboxers.It
hinki f
ellmor einl ovewi t
h
himf r
om watchi
nghi m preparebr eakfastwith
histwoyoungestkids.Shaka'sey esl i
ft
edf ir
st
andhesawmewat chingthem
Shaka:
mama
Istr
oll
edtowar
dsthem, wrappedmyar ms
aroundmyheart
'skeeperandkissedhim
deeply
.Iwasevenonmyt oes,pressi
ngmy
bodyagai
nsthi
s
Sambul
o:si
sguy
s.PG13pl
ease
Itot
all
yignor
edhim andsodidhisfat
her
becausehegrabbedmyass, l
i
ftedmeupand
mademewr apmylegsaroundhis
Sambul
o:dadseri
ousl
y?Wow.Youdonotl
ove
usasyourchi
l
dren
Loy
isopul
l
edoutoft
heki
ssbutdi
dn'
tputme
down
Loy
iso:
fini
shdi
shi
ngupandputour
sint
he
warmer
Sambul
o:dokeepi
nmi
ndt
hatwear
eawake
andal
ert
Loy
iso:
idon'
tcar
e
Hecarriedmeallthewaytoourbedroom where
hetossedmeont hebedandgotbetweenmy
l
egsandki ssedmeagain.Icoul
dfeelhispeni
s
pressi
nghardagainstmycli
tthr
oughhi s
sweatpantsandtheboxersiwaswearing
Hi
m:goodmor
ningbeaut
if
ul
Me:
goodmor
ningmyl
ove
Wehadanamazi
nglovemaki
ngsessi
onbef
ore
wecuddl
edi
nbed.Iev
enfor
gott
hatiwas
hungr
y
Hi
m:howwasl
i
fewi
thoutme?
Me:
hect
icasal
way
sbutwesur
viv
ed.Wor
khas
alsobeenhecti
c.Ihav
eanewpr
ojectwi
tha
veryt
ightdeadl
ine
Him:
ihopey
ouhav
en'
tbeenbr
ingi
ngwor
k
home
Me:nahi
haven't
.it
snothi
nghect
ic,
itj
ustt
hat
themani
sdiff
icul
ttoi
mpressandyouknow
howri
chpeopl
ecanbe
Helaughed,ki
ssedmycheekthenmademelay
di
rect
lyontopofhim bef
orepecki
ngmyl
ips
Hi
m:y
oudoknowy
ouar
eri
cht
oor
ight
?
Me:ichoosetoignor
ethatl
i
ttl
efact
.Theguy
ownsthehotelwegotmarri
edat.Wellhedi
dn'
t
ownitattheti
mebecauseheboughtittwo
year
sago
Hef
rowned
Hi
m:Sbani
?
Nowi
frowned
Me:
youknowhi
m?
Hi
m:y
eahhei
smycousi
n.
Me:yourwhat
?Howmanycousinsdoyouhav
e
andhowcomey ou'
venev
ermenti
onedhi
m
Him:wearenotclose.I
'
m closewitht
he
cousi
nsigrewupwi t
h.Ngumnt anaUSbani
becauseit
hinki
wasi nfir
styearormatri
c
whenhewasbor n
Me:ohmakessense.Tel
lmeaboutal
lyour
cousi
ns
Hi
m:al
loft
hem?
Inodded.Thi
soneisabitclosedof
fwhenit
comest ohi
sfami
ly.y
ou'dswearhisfami
ly
star
tsandendswit
hjusthisparent
sand
Qhawe
Hi
m:OKletmetakey
ouback.waybacksot
hat
wedon'
thav
ethi
sconver
sat
ionagai
n
Me:
OK
Hi
m:onceuponat
ime
Helaughedandipi
nchedhi
sni
ppl
ewhi
ch
madehim groani
npain
Hi
m:I
'
m notgoi
ngt
otel
lyoui
fyouabuseme
Me:
khul
umabhut
i
Him:yesonceuponat
imetherewasmkhulu
HadebeandGogoHadebe.Theybot
hpassed
awaybefor
ewemet
Me:
yourmom'
spar
ent
sri
ght
?
Him: y
eah.Theyhad3ki dstogetherbutmkhulu
alsohadanotherchi
ldfrom hi
sCasanov adays.
I'
m notquit
esurewhoi stheoldestbetween
uncleNami anduncl
eSakhileandt henther
eis
mymom anduncl eKK.UncleKKwasatour
wedding,uncl
eSakhil
ewasn' t
Me:heistheonethatt
oldt
hestor
yofyouand
Qhawebreaki
ngthewindowwit
htheball
and
bl
amingitonhim?
webot
hlaughedashecont
inuedt
odenyt
hati
t
wasthem andnott
heuncl
ethatbr
oket
he
wi
ndow
Hi
m:l
oly
eahhi
m
Me:andiknowuncl
eSakhil
e,west
ayedathi
s
housewhenwewenttodropAmahlei
ncape
town
Him:ohy eah.Sothosear
emymom' ssibl
i
ngs.
UncleNami died,
youknowthisandhehad
AlwandeandLi mil
e.Uncl
eSakhi
leonlyhasLi
sa
anduncleKKhasSbani
Me:
ohsohei
syourcousi
ncousi
n
Hi
m: babyIdon'
tknowwhatcousi
ncousi
n
means
Me:
itmeansi
mmedi
atecousi
n
Iwasal
readyr
oll
i
ngmyey
esbecausei
knowhe
knowswhatimeant
Hi
m:I'
m goi
ngt ofl
i
py ouoverandtel
lthi
sstor
y
wi
thmydickinsi
dey outhenaskyouquesti
ons
l
ater
.Rol
lyourey
esagai
nandy
oushal
lsee
Mymout
hopenedbuti
qui
ckl
ycl
osedi
t
Hi
m:y
ouKnowmymom'
ski
ds.Al
l25ofus
Me:hahathat'
snotf
unny
.Soi
tsy
ouandQ,
Yandi
sa,Shaun
Him:Shaunisn'
tmymom'schil
dbiol
ogi
cal
l
y.
DadcheatedandShaunappear
ed
Me:what?WowOK.Theni
tsKwandoand
Kwandi
?
Him:yeahandt henweal
lhadourownkidsand
nowmymot herhas20gr
andki
ds.That
'
si fi
count
edcorrectly
Me:
wowy
ouguy
sar
eal
ot
Him:andthat
'sjustmymother'
sside.Idon'
t
knowmuchaboutmybi ologi
caldad'ssi
deand
i
tsnotli
keicareaboutt
hem
Iwasget
ti
ngt
ir
edofbei
ngontopofhi
m so
nowihadmyheadonhi
schestandmylegi
n
hi
sthi
gh
Hi
m: Dlami
nigr
andparent
shadmyf atherand
hi
sbrother
.Myfat
herhadus, Lut
handoandAJ.
AJhasakidor2,idon'
tthi
nkLuthandohasany
ki
ds.Shehasal
way sbeenstuckupthatone
Me:
OKt
hat
'sshor
t,br
iefandsweet
.Smi
thsi
de?
Him: Grandparent
salsodiedbef oreimety ou.
Thisonei sabitcomplicated.Mydad' sparents
di
edwhenhewasaki dsohewasr aisedbyhi s
auntanduncl e.Hi
sdad' sbrotherandhiswi f
e.
Thosepeopl eareuncleMi keanduncl eJason's
parents.
Me:
sot
heyar
ecousi
ns
Him:yeahbutt
heygrewupl
i
kebr ot
her
s.Like
uswithLiandAl
wa.uncl
emikehadAveryand
Lwakho
Me:
Abongi
we'
sexandherbest
ie
Hel
aughed,
shookhi
sheadt
henl
aughedagai
n
Him:yeahthosetwo.Uncl
eJasonhadJaden
andJessica.SameJadenwhoseweddingwe
wereat2December sago.That
'
saboutit
Me:l
etmet el
lyouaboutmyf
ami
l
ythenwecan
goeat
.I'
m hungry
Hi
m:goaheadnanazi
Me: i
don'tknowmygr andpar
ents,mom and
dadhadme, Mbali
andAmahle.Daddi ed,mom
becameanal cohol
ic.Mbal
ihadXolohandi had
ShakaandSomi la,whi
leAmahlethankful
l
yhas
nochild.Let
sgoeat
WhatIl ovemostaboutmyboy sisthatthey
neverforgettheirchoressowhenwegott othe
ki
tchen, i
twascl ean,theloungewascl eantoo.
Thejoysofhav inggr ownkids.i don'twanta
maidbecausei wantmychi l
drent ohav ea
normal li
fe.Iwarmedupourf ood, servedmy
husbandandweat einthekitchen.Sabel o
walkedi nwithhissisterwhowascr y i
ngfor
somer
eason
Sabel
o:shewant
sherpar
ent
s
Loy:whatdidy
oudot
hati
smaki
ngherwant
herparent
s
Sabel
o:t
hecorr
ectquest
iont
oaski swhatdi
d
shedotoShakaforhi
mtodowhathedi dtoher
thati
smaki
ngherwantherparent
s
Me:
youguy
satannoy
ing.Thebot
hofy
ou
Theintercom madeasoundandt heprincess
thatwascr y
ingrantothescreenwhenshesaw
Shakar unni
ngtowardsit
.Ijustwatchedt hem
pusheachot heraround,
fight
ingoverthe
answerbut t
on
Me:
Somi
l
asukal
apho
Somi
l
a:sukaShaka
Shaka:
hay
igoaway
Me:Sabel
opleasej
ustanswerthatbef
ore
t
hosetwokil
leachotherori
kil
lthem
Nowt heywerefi
ght
ingwit
hSabelobecausehe
answered.Afewminutesl
aterwehear
dacar
parkoutsi
de
Loy
:whoi
sit
?
Sabel
o:somel
ady
.Mi
ssV
Me:
MissV?
Loyi
sowentt oopent hedoorwhi
leicl
ear
edthe
di
shesandputt hem inthedi
shwasher.I
'
ve
neverseenthi
sladybutjudgingf
rom t
helook
onLoy i
so'
sface,theyknoweachother
Me:
hel
l
o
MissV:hi
.Loyi
soareyouj
ustgoi
ngt
ost
and
t
hereandnotevengiv
emeahug
Hepausedf
orafewsecondsthent
urnedt
o
l
ookatmebefor
eaddressi
ngSabel
o
Loy
:taketheki
dst
oy ourr
oom andst
ayt
her
e
unt
ili
tel
lyousomet
hingdif
fer
ent
Sabel
o:OK
hedi
dashi sf
atherhadi
nst
ruct
edwhi ch
conf
usedmeev enmore.ar
ewei ndangerof
somesortandwheredoesLoyi
soknowt hi
s
womanfrom?
Me:
what
'
sgoi
ngon?
Henowhadhi
satt
ent
iononthiswomanwho
wasnowl
ooki
ngatmefrom headtot
oeand
gi
vi
ngmesti
nkyl
ooks
Loy
:Sneuf
unant
onapha?
Sne?Thi
snamesoundsf
ami
l
iar
Sne:i
sthathowyougr
eetanol
dfl
ame?Not
evenahugLoyiso
Loy
:I'
m notgoi
ngt
orepeatmy
sel
fSnenhl
anhl
a
Sne:I
'
m backi
nthecount
ryandi t
houghtI
shoul
dcomebyandseemyki ds.Yourmom
gavemeyouraddr
ess
Andthenevery
thi
ngbecameclear
ed.Thi
sist
he
wrecki
ngball
Sne,theonet
hatdestr
oyed
Loy
iso'
sfi
rstmar
ri
age.Themot
heroft
het
wins.
Thi
sisher
.
Me:
getout
Sne:
excusemewhat
?
Me:
iwanty
ouTol
eav
emyhouse
Sne:
I'
m her
etoseeLoy
iso
Me:
thent
akehi
m wi
thy
oubuti
don'
twanty
ou
i
nmyhouse
Shet
urnedt
olookatLoy
isoi
ndi
sbel
i
ef
Sne:
Loy
iso
Loy:y
ouhear dher.Ify
ouarereal
lybackfor
good,I'
l
lgetmypar entst
osetupameet i
ng
wit
hy ourf
ami l
yandwecant alkaboutthe
twi
nsbuty ouhavenobusinessbeinginour
houseandcomi nghereunannounced.
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LOYI
SO
Myhear tstoppedbeat ingforasecondwheni
sawher .Wehav en'tspokeni nyears,thelast
ti
mei sawhermy14y earoldsonswer en'tev en
6mont hsol dandi wasst il
lsoi nlovewi t
hher .
Thisist hewomant hati wouldhav eleftany one
for
,shehadmyhear ti
nherpocketandshe
knewt hisalltoowel l
.Lookingathernow, she
hasn'tchangedmuch, sheisstill
beaut i
ful,she
i
sst il
lsexyandshecoul dsti
lldoallthecr azy
thi
ngsshedi dbackt henbutt hereisa
dif
ferencenow.I 'vechanged.I '
m nol ongert he
Loyisot hatiwasbackt hen,theonewho
couldn'tkeephiszipcl osedwhenar oundher
Me:
uthi
mymom gav
eyoumyaddr
ess?
Sne:
yes.Shecoul
dn'
treachy
oudur
ingt
he
week
Me:
iwasoutoft
hecount
ry
Sne:
shedi
dn'
tsay
,iaskedf
ort
headdr
ess,
got
onaplaneandfl
ewher
e.LookI
'
m nother
eto
causeanyt
roubl
e
Gugu:i
don'tcare.Thi
sisourhomeandwe
haveastr
ict
ly"noexesall
owed"rul
eher
e
Sne:
ijustwantt
oseemysonsLoy
iso.Pl
ease
Iscratchedmyheadbef orecoveredmyf ace
withmyhands.howdoesmydayt akesucha
swingwheni tstart
edof fsowel l
?Inever
thoughthowi twouldbewhenSnecameback,
especiall
yfortheboysbecauseasmuchas
theyknowGugui sn'
ttheirreal
mot her,
they
don'tknowSne
Me:guyspleasecanwej ustcal
m downabi t.
Sneithi
nky oushoul
dleave.I'
l
lcall
mypar ent
s
andwecanmeetupwi thyourparentsandtal
k
butri
ghtnowi can'
tl
etyouseet heboysbefore
I'
vespokentothem
Icoul
dseethehurtanddi
sappoi
ntmentinher
eyesbuthonest
lyt
herei
sn'
tmuchi coul
ddoor
say.lastt
hingiwanti
sformywi
fet
hinki
ngi
don'tsupporther
Sne:OKI
'l
lfl
ybackhomei
nthemor
ningandI
'
ll
waitf
ory
ourcall
Gugu:nextti
medon'
tj
ustshowuphere
unannounced.i
won'
tal
lowyoutofuckupmy
marri
agethesamewayy ouf
uckeduphisf
ir
st
one.
Sne:
Ishoul
dleav
e.
Shewalkedoutthedoor ,i
stoodthereunti
lher
carwasoutthegat ebefor
eslammi ngitshut
.
whywasi soturnedonbyGugust andi
ngher
ground?Thatshitwasfuckensexy
Gugu:
whatar
ewegoi
ngt
odo?
Ishr
uggedmyshoul
der
s.Ir
eal
l
yhav
enoi
dea
Me:I'
l
lcal
lmypar
entsthent
akei
tfr
om t
here.i
j
ustdon'
twantmychi
ldrent
oendupget
ti
ng
hur
t
Her:t
heboy sar
ematuredf
arbeyondt
hei
r
year
s.theycanhandl
eanyt
hing
Me:i
hopeso.Canwenowt al
kaboutyou?
Wher
edidal
lthatf
eist
inesscomefrom?
Ihadasmir
konmyf ace,
asemi har
ddickand
myhandswerealr
eadyonherwaist
.She
l
aughed,
cover
ingherf
aceandburyi
ngitonmy
shoul
der
Her:aweddingr
ingunl
ocksal
otof
superpower
s
Me:
ohy
eah?
Shenodded.Wekissedshor
tlybef
oreilef
ther
togotomystudy.idial
edmymot her
'snumber
andwait
edforhertopickup
Mama:
heyLoy
iso
Me:
mamakunj
ani
?
Her
:ngi
ri
ghtandwena?
Me:
USneebel
apha
Her:shamethatpoorwoman.Sheaskedmet
o
cal
lyouandi coul
dn'
treachandshewant
edt
o
seeherchi
ldren
Me:youshoul
dn'
thavegiv
enhermyaddr
ess
mamabecausesherockedupher
eandyou
knowihaveawif
e
I'
m sur
eSnegothomeandpl ayedthevi
cti
m
motherthatmissesherchi
l
dren.Samechildr
en
shehasn'tseenorspokent
oi n14year
s.
Her:idi
dn'tgiveheryouraddresssoshecan
comeaf t
ery ou,igavei
ttohersoshecansee
herchil
dren.theyareherchi
ldrenandtheboy
s
arenotbabiesany more
Me:pleaseorganiseameet i
ngwiththeVi
cker
s
fort
omor r
ow.I'l
lflyhomelatert
odayandwe
canallt
alkaboutt hi
s.I
tsbeen14years
Her:
justdon'
tgetdi
vor
cedf
ort
hesamer
eason
agai
n
Me:
hawmama
Her:
youareyourfat
her
'ssonwena.Snei
sto
youwhatLuminj
alowastohim
Me:
byeby
eMr
sSmi
th
Her
:lov
eyou
Me:
lov
eyout
oomama
Thisthingwi t
hSneneedst ojustbesortedout
i
nadaybecauseIdon' twanttobearoundher
fortoolong.Don' tgetmewrong,il
ovemywi fe
mor ethanI '
veeverlovedanywomanbutatt he
endoft hedayI '
m ahotbloodedmansoi don'
t
wanttot estfate.Theboyswerewatching
soccerint heloungeandtheli
ttl
eonesand
Guguwer en'
tinsight
*
*
GUGULETHU
Ifi
nishedpacki
ngforLoyi
soandi t
henstar
ted
packingfort
hekids.Hewascrazytoeventhi
nk
I
'll
lethi
m gotothissocal l
edmeet ingwit
hout
me.Wewer egoingt oleavethekidswith
AbongiweandLi sincewear ecomi ngback
tomorrowanyway .Loyi
sowal kedintoShaka'
s
room asiwaspacki ngforhim
Loy
:ar
eweOK?
Me:
wear
efi
ne
Hi
m: ar
ey ousur
e?Looknanazi
I'
m sor
ryabout
t
hiswholethi
ng
Me:i
tsnotyourfaul
tandbesi
desweal
lknew
t
hisdaywouldcome
Honestl
yI '
m scared,i
lovethoseboysandidbe
soheartbrokenifSnetakesthem away.We'
ve
beenineachot her'
sli
vessincetheywere
5year
sol d.Iwenttodropthekidsoffonmy
ownsinceLoy isowasstil
lsorti
ngoutafew
thi
ngs.Usithandi
leopenedthedoorforus
Usi
:heyauntGugu
Me:
heybaby
.Ur
ight
?
Her
:yesandy
ou?
Me:
wear
efi
ne.Wher
eisy
ourmom?
Sheledustothel
oungewher
eAbongi
wewas
onthecouchwatchi
ngTV.Weshar
edahug
bef
oreisatdown
Abongs:
soshei
sreal
l
yback?
Me:
yep.Iki
ckedherout
Shel
aughed
Her
:youl
i
e
Me: I
'
m deadseri
ous.Shei
sn'tal
lbi
tchyl
ike
Tshegobutidon'
tli
keherbecauseofthe
att
achmenttheyhavegoi
ngon
Her:
babeLoy
isoi
syour
s,hel
ovesy
ouandy
ou
knowthi
s
Me:aimnganangaz.We'l
ltal
kwhenweget
backandt
hanksforwatchi
ngt heki
ds
Her
:any
timel
ove
Thefli
ghtt oPEwasar elax edone.I
tstheone
ti
met hati appreci
atedhav ingapriv
atejet
accessibletous.Iwoul dn' thavesurvi
veda
commer ci
alfli
ghtinthemoodt hatI'
min.A
dri
verpickedusupf rom t heairpor
tanddr ove
ustotheSmi thresi
dence.Hi sdadwasatt he
dooralreadywai ti
ngf oruswhenwear ri
ved
Soso:
hel
l
omakot
i
Ismil
ed,heissuchasweetol
dman.he
wrappedhisar
msaroundmegi v
ingmeawar
m
hug
Loy
:letgoofmywi
fe.Youhav
eyourown
Soso:youusedtosuckmywife'
sti
tt
iesandi
nevercomplai
nedandyouwanttocomplai
n
aboutahug
Loy
:hahahadady
ouar
esoi
nappr
opr
iat
e
Wegoti
nthehouse,
iwentt
oputourbagsi
n
ourroom t
henj oi
nedever
yoneont
hepati
ofor
sundowners.Igreet
edLwaandshegav
emea
warm hugaswel l
Lwa:
youl
eftt
heki
ds?
Loy:y
eah.ev
eryoneneedstoagr
eeonwhat
s
goi
ngtohappenfir
stbefor
eibri
ngt
heki
dsint
o
thi
s
Soso:
smar
tmov
e
Thatnightwesl eptearl
y.i wastoanxiousand
ti
redtostayup.Thenextnextdaywewentt o
church,camebackt oprepareforSundaylunch
withtheVickers.Snearrivedwithherparent
s
andherbr other.Theywereabeaut i
fulfamil
y,I
won'thidethat.Wehadl unchov ersmalltal
k
thenwegott othemeeting
Soso:
Snehowl
ongar
eyoubackf
or?
Sne:
forgood.I
'ml
ooki
ngt
oev
enbuyahouse
i
nDurbanjustt
obecl
oset
omysons
Loy
:i don'
tthi
nkthat'
sagoodi
dea.Wel
lnot
unt
ilwe'vespokentothem
Sne:fai
renoughbutLoyi
soy ou'
vehadthem f
or
14yearsandnowi dl
iket
obeanact iv
epartof
thei
rli
ves.Theyar
emychi l
drenaswell
Loy:y
oudon'tgettoplaythatcar
dSnenhl
anhl
a.
Wesathereinthi
sv eryr
oom 14year
sagoand
youchosetoleavethem behi
ndandconti
nue
wit
hy ourl
i
fe
Sne:chose?Ididn'
tchooseanyt
hing.y
oumade
thatchoi
ceforme.y ousai
ditsei
therimov
e
backhereorileavetheboys
Me:
soy
ouchosey
ourcar
eerov
ery
ourki
ds?
Myquesti
onsoundedabi tjudgemental
may be
becauseiwouldneverputanythi
ngoranyone
befor
emychildren.Butt
henagainwear enot
al
lthesame
Sne:
don'
tj
udgeme.i
hadmyr
easons
Me: ij
ustdon'tunderst
andhowy ourreasons
stoppedyoufrom visit
ingthem orcall
ingthem.
Yesmay beLoy i
somadey ouchoosebet ween
yourchil
drenandy ourcareerbutidon'tthi
nkhe
stoppedyoufrom visit
ingyourchil
drenorf r
om
havingarelat
ionshi
pwi ththem
Sne:
youwoul
dn'
tunder
stand
Irol
l
edmyey es.Theeasi
estdef
enceev
er.
Play
ingvict
im andclai
mingpeopl
ewon'
t
underst
and
Lwa:yousaidtomey oudidn'
tfeel
wel comed
byLoyisoandTshegobuty ouknewv erywell
thatt
heboy sst
ayedwithmef or5yearsbefor
e
theymov edtoDur
ban.inevermadey oufeel
unwelcome
Sne'
sdad:l
ookwearegoi ngaroundincir
cles
Fornor
eason.Thechil
drenareSne'sandshe
hasari
ghtt
ohav earel
ationshi
pwiththem
Me:
ithi
nkweshoul
dlett
heboy
sdeci
deon
thei
rowniftheywantthatr
elati
onshi
pwithyou
peopleornotbecausewecan'texact
lyf
orce
them
Loy:whatpi ssesmeof final l
oft hi
sisthatSne
doesn'twantt otakeherf ai
rshar eoftheblame.
Sheisplayingt hevict
im andbl amingev er
yone
butherself
.Youf uckedupandy oubetterown
uptothatwheny ouseetheboy sorel
set hey
won'tgiveyouasecondoft heirti
me.
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GUGULETHU
Loyisowasr i
ghtaboutonet
hing,t
heboyswon't
entert
ainthi
swomani fshecomeswithshady
tacti
cs.Theywil
lshowherfl
amesandi wil
l
l
aughathert hewayi l
aughathim
Sne:
sowhencani
come?
Loy
:theweekend.I
'
llt
alkt
othem dur
ingt
he
weekandhearhowt heyf
eelbutl
etmemake
onethi
ngcl
ear,i
ftheydon'
twanttoseey
ou,
i
wontfor
cethem
Sne:wel
ldon'
tsabot
ageme.I
'
mthei
rmot
her
aft
eral
l
Shewasnowl ooki
ngatmewithast
inky
att
it
ude.Doesthi
swomannotknowthatihave
batt
ledTshegoandTshepi
andcameupont op?
Sheisjustsmal
lfr
ytome
Me: i
fbyt hei
rmot heryourefert
ot hem sli
ding
outofy ourvaginaandnotmi nethensur elove,
youaret hei
rmot herbutI'mthewomant hey
callmama.I '
mt hewomant heyconfidein,t
he
onewhohasbeent hereforthem sor eal
l
y
braggi
ngabouty ourvaginahasnothingon
whati couldbragoni fiwantedto
Idi
dn'thearherspeakagainforther
estoft
he
meeting.Wehadt oleav
edirectl
yaft
eri
t
becausewest i
llhadtofet
chthekids
Loy
:It
hinky
oushoul
dtal
ktot
hem
Me:
me?
Him:pleasenanazi
.youunder
standt
hem bet
ter
t
hani doandmay beIwon'tev
enputiti
nthe
r
ightway
Me:youarejustr
unningawayf
rom Sambul
o'
s
quest
ions.t
hat'
sall
therei
stoi
t
Hel aughed,winkedatmet henlaidont hebed
withhishandsbehi ndhishead.Hel ooksso
handsome, t
hegreyhairhasst artedpoking
thr
oughbutev enthatmakeshi m evensexier
.
At49, i
tsti
llamazesmehowhecanst i
llkeep
upwi thShakaandSomi l
a'snonsense.Ij ust
i
gnor ethem andwhenoneoft hem startscry
ing,
istartshouti
ng.Afterwehadsupperhet ook
thelit
tl
eonest othekitchent omakel unch.
Theyar epickyeaterssoify oumaket hem what
youwantandt heydon'tli
kei t
,thelunchboxwi l
l
comebackl ooki
ngt hesamewayi tdi
dwhen
t
heyl
eftwi
thi
tint
hemor
ning
Me:
pleaset
urndownt
hev
olumeSabel
o
Sambul
o:ar
ewei
ntr
oubl
e?
Sabelo:t
hepor nmagazi nesarenotmi ne.In
factidi
dn'tevenknowi twaspor nunti
l igot
homeandwheni sawi t
spor n,
iputitaway
withoutl
ookingatit.Ipromisemama
Sambulo:
pleaser
emindmetoneverdo
anyt
hingi
ll
egalwi
thy
ouinthef
uture.y
out
alk
toomuch
Iwasn'tgoi
ngtobringupthepornmagazinei
foundinhisbagbecauseiknowhegotitfrom
Oyint
ando.Abongi
wegav emet heheadsup
becauseLimil
eistheworstwit
hthosekids
Me:t
hat'
satopi
cforanot
herday
.ther
eis
somet
hingi
dli
ketotal
ktoyouguysabout
Sambul
o:what
sthatmama?
Me:
youknowi
lov
eyouguy
sver
ymuchr
ight
?
Andy
ouguy
swi
l
lal
way
sbemybabi
es
Theybot
hnodded
Me:youst
il
lrememberthati
mety
ourdadaf
ter
hehadyouguysangi
thi
?
Sabelo:rel
axmama, weknowy ouarenotour
bi
ologicalmotherbuty
ouaretheonlymother
we'veeverknownandwel ov
ey outoo
Sambulo:yeahmom.Noneedt ohavethist
alk,
weknowt hetrut
handwedon'tcareabouti
t.
weareallafamily,
you'
venev
ertreat
edus
di
ff
erentl
yandy ou'
vebeenagreatmothert
ous
Me:
yourr
eal
mot
herwant
stomeety
ouguy
s
Sambul
o:meetusforwhat
?Di
dn'
tshemeetus
whenshegav
ebirt
htous?
Sabelo:
I'
m sti
ll
stuckonrealmot
her
?Youare
ourrealmother
.sheisj
ustthewomant
hat
dumpedusatGogo' shouseandnev
erl
ooked
back.
Me:guysI
'
m sur
eyouhavequest
ionsf
orher
andshewant
stoexpl
ainher
sel
ftoyou
Theylookedateachot herthenlookedatme.i
washopi ngtoreadsomesor tofemoti
onfrom
thei
rey esbuttheywereblank.Theseboysare
real
l
yt heirf
ather'
ssonsandI '
m star
ti
ngtopick
upsomuchofLoy i
sofrom Shakaaswel l
Sambul o:becauseiwasrai
sedinahomewhere
respectisoneofthefoundat
ions,I
'l
lagr
eet
o
thi
soutofr espectf
orwenanot at
a.
Sabel
o:sameher ebuti wanty
outoknowthati
havenointer
estint hatwomanoranythi
ngshe
hastosay.Ijustdon'twanthertomakeyou
l
ookbadsoi tsfine.I'
ll
meetupwi t
hher
prov
idedthatyouanddadar ether
e
Sambulo:shemustj
ustnotcomeher
ewi
th
nonsensebecauseI
'
lll
osei
t
Me:
hay
iSambul
o
*
*
LOYI
SO
OnSat ur
dayitwasGuguandi thatwer
e
anxiousandallov
ertheplacewhil
etheboys
werechil
ledasever.TheyweretooCal
m and
thatwasthescarypart
Sabel
o:wheni
ssheget
ti
ngher
e?
Sambul
o:wewantt
ogot
oKuhl
e'
shousef
or
vi
deogames
Me:
rel
axshewi
l
lbeher
esoon
Sambulo:andsheisnotsl
eepi
ngov
erright
?
Becauseifshedoes,
I'
m sl
eepi
ngover
kwaKuhle
Thischi
ldandhisquesti
ons,yesesman.Wasn'
t
hesupposedtooutgrowthisphase?The
i
ntercom madeasoundandGuguwentt o
answeritandopenedthegate
Gugu:
shei
sher
e
Sabel
o:showt
ime
Igavethem asternanduni
mpressedl ookand
Sambulojustwinkedatmeandt heydidthei
r
stupi
dhandshake.Snewalkedinwear i
ng
caramelti
ghtpants,bl
ueheel
s,whiteblouse
andcarryi
ngabluehandbag.Shel ookedready
forabusinessmeeting
Sne:
hel
l
oev
ery
one
Gugu:
hi
Me:
hey
.Comet
hisway
ThemomentshewalkedinSabel
olaughed.Oh
dearl
ordt
hisi
sgoi
ngt obealongmorning
Sambul
o:shar
ethej
okehal
f
Sabel
o:t
hisistheladythatwasherewhendad
madeusimpr i
sonedinmyr oom l
astweekend.
dudeshedidn'
tevenrecogniseme
Gugu:
Sabel
o!
Sabel
o:uxol
omama
Sne'
sf acetur
nedsourt hemomentshehear
d
Sabelocall
i
ngGugumama.Whatdi dshe
expect?Thattheywouldcall
herbyhername?
Thatwouldnev erhappeninmyhouse
Me:boy
sthisi
sSneVi
cker
,thewomant
hat
gav
ebir
thtoyou
Sne:
yourmot
her
Sabelo:
ili
kewhatdadcall
edy
ou.I
tsmore
fi
tt
ingespeci
all
ysincemymot
her'
snameis
Gugulet
huMaZul uKaSmi
th
Sne:
I'
myourmot
herSabel
o.i
gav
ebi
rt
htoy
ou
Me:
Snedon't
.cal
m down.Thi
sisSabel
oand
t
hat
'sSambul
o
Sambul
o:i
hav
equest
ions
Ofcoursehedoes.Whendoesheev ernothave
quest
ions?Hetookoutapi
eceofpapert hat
hadwriti
ngonbothsi
desofit
.honestl
yi don'
t
thi
nktheseboy
sar et
aki
nganyofthisseriousl
y
Sne:
I'
ll
answeral
loft
hem
Sambulo:anddad,mamapleasedon'
ti
nter
vene.
don'
ttel
lmet hati
cantaskt
hatwheniaskher
somethi
ng.
Me:I
'm notpromi
singany
thi
ng.Iknowhowy
ou
ar
esoi will
stepi
nwheni f
eell
ikeyouar
e
cr
ossi
ngt heli
ne
Sambulo:hmm f i
ne.sobirt
hmot herhowdid
youseethisplanni
ngoutwheny oudecidedto
l
eavewhat ev
ercav eyouwer ehi
dinginf
or14
year
sandcomeher e?Whatwasy ourpl
anand
howdidyouseei tworkingout?
Theybot
hcr
ossedt
hei
rlegsandf
oldedt
hei
r
armsatt
hesameti
me
Sne:uhm obvi
ouslyiknewt hatyou'
dbe
conf
usedandpr obablyunwelcomingtothei
dea
ofmer et
urni
ngbuti washopi ngoverti
mewe
woul
dbeabl etobuil
dourr elati
onshi
p
Sabel
o:I
'
m notconf
used.hal
far
eyouconf
used?
Sambul
o:notonebi
t.whatwoul
dmakey ou
thi
nkwewouldwanttobuil
darel
ati
onshi
pwit
h
you?
Snel ookedoveratme, hopi
ngidstepi
nbutI
wasn' tgoi
ngto.Sof art
hesequesti
onsare
relev
antandt heydeserveanswerstot
hem.She
clearedherthroat
,loweredherheadabitand
sighed
Sne:guyslook, iknowy ouguy sdon'toweme
anythi
ng,ifanythingI'
mt heonet hatisindebted
toyouandi tsclearthatyouhav eal otofanger
towardsmeandi can'
tblamey ouf orthat.i
didn'
tstepupf ory ouwheni shouldhav e,i
madebaddeci sionsbutI '
m here.I'
m begging
foryourforgi
venessandf oranotherchance
Sambulotur
nedt
ol ookatmeandi
knewa
quest
ionwascomingmyway
Sambul
o:howol
dwer
ewewhenshel
eftus?
Me:
3mont
hsol
d
Sabel o:JongaMi ssV, icantspeakf orSambul o
buti canspeakf ormy self.I'
m notangr yaty ou
andi don' thatey oubecauset hatwoul dbei
car eenoughabouty out oev ent hinkabouty ou
andi honest lydon't.Ihav en'tl ackedamot her'
s
l
ov einal l14yearsofmyl ife,Gogodi dagr eat
j
obwi thusandmamacont i
nueswher eshel eft
off.Idon'tknowwhatr oley ouwoul dhav et o
playinmyl if
ewhenal lther olesal readyhav e
peopl eexcel l
ingatt hem.I 'm st i
llaki d,i
gett hat
butI '
vebeenr ai
sedandcont inuet ober aisedi n
awayt hatist eachingmet oqui cklyspotthe
thingst hatwontbui l
dme.Thi sr ighthereis
goingt omessmeup, it
sgoi ngt omessupal ot
ofmyRel at
ionshipsandi cantl ety oudot hat .
Yourt imingi stotal
lyof f,may bei fyoucame
back10y earsagot hi ngswoul dhav ebeen
differ
ent
Myhear
tbrokeonbehalfofSne,
evenGuguhad
t
ear
sinhereyes.Iwar
nedherabouttheseboy
s,
t
heydon'tnursefeel
ingsandentertai
nthi
ngs
j
usttomakeot hersfeelbett
erabout
t
hemselves.Snewasal readycry
ingandSabelo
i
stheniceone.Hegotupt ogetherwaterand
t
issuesandplaceditbeforeher
Sambul o:theonl ythi
ngi cangi veyoui sthe
assurancet hatifwebumpi nt
oeachot her,
i
won'tignorey ou.I'
m notr ude,i
fy ouof f
ermea
l
iftI'
l
lprobablygeti nyourcar .I'
l
ltreatyouthe
samewayi tr
eatmom anddad' scolleagues
andI '
m notst upidsoi wil
l qui
cklypickupwhen
thebumpi ngi ntoeachot herissuddenl y
planned.Doy ouhav ekidsofy ourown?
Iwant
edtolaughatt
hewayheaskedt
hisbuti
hel
dmylaughteri
n
Sne:
ihav
eadaught
erbutshei
sint
heUS
Sambul
o:howol
disshe?
Sne:
shei
s13
Me:
youhadanot
herchi
l
day
earaf
tert
hem?
Sne:iwasi
nabadspaceLoy i
so,i
madesome
pret
tymessedupdeci
sionsandiwanted
somethi
ngtotakeawaythepai
nofleavi
ngmy
sonsbehi
nd.
Me:andy
oul ef
therbehi
ndy
ety
oucl
aimy
ou
ar
ebackforgood
Her:sheiscomingthi
ssideinJune.Sabel o,
Sambul opl
easejustt
hinkeverythi
ngover.I
knowi t
salottotakei
nbutpl easedon'
tmake
yourfi
naldeci
sionnow.Kendr awouldlov
et o
meety ouguysatsomepoi nt
.I'v
etoldherabout
you.iknowyouguy swontbelievemebuti do
l
ovey ouandiam real
lysorry
Sambul o:
ihave2sister
smna, Tshepiand
Somi l
a.Kendr
awi l
lj
usthav etobest r
ong
wit
houtme.uhm Mi ssVpl easedon'tthi
nkthe
decisi
onI'
m makingnowi st hr
oughangeror
hurtbecauseI
'm nothurtorangry.I'
m annoyed
nj
e
Me:
Sambul
o!
Gugu:
myekebaby
Sambul o:l
ikeSabel osaid,yourti
mi ngisoffand
i
thasal way sbeenof f.Hady ouleftwhenwe
wer e5andonl ycamebacknowt heni dbe
angryandhur tbuty ouleftatat i
mewheni was
vulnerabl
eandcoul dn'
tcreateanyki ndof
attachment.Idon'tknowy ou,idon'trecogni
se
youasmymot herandnoamountoft imeand
thoughtprocesscanchanget hat.uMaZul u
kaSmi thi
smymot her.
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GUGULETHU
ThefollowingMondayaf t
erthetwinsroast
ed
Sne,ihadameet i
ngwi thSbaniHadebe.Iwas
act
uallyannoy edwit
ht hefactthathenever
menti
onedt hathewasLoy i
so'
scousinbuti
wasn'
tgoi ngt obr
ingitup,especial
lyata
businessmeeti
ng.Her
ockedupinmyoffi
ce
dressedcasual
l
yindar
kinkj
eans,awhi
teT-
shir
tandsneakers
Sbani
:Mr
sSmi
th
Me:
MrHadebe
Hi
m:howar
eyou?
Me:
I'
m wel
landy
ou?
Hesmil
edt
henshookhi
sheadbef
oresi
tt
ing
down
Me:
I'
m wel
ltoo.Upf
oraf
iel
dtr
ip?
Me:
fiel
dtr
ip?
Ifrowninconf
usionbuthequickl
yassur
edme
thathewantedmet oseethehouseiwas
maki ngpl
ansfor
.Ididn'
thav
eanymeet i
ngs
exceptmymeet i
ngwi t
hShaunandZoeat3pm.
Sbani
:shoul
dwet
akemycarorgoi
nsepar
ate
car
s?
Me:
yourcarshoul
dbef
ine
Theguydr i
vesaRollsRoy cesoy oucan'tbl
ame
mef orwanti
ngt obeinit.Hedrov eusto
Zimbali
.Thehousesint hisareaaregorgeous
andhiswasnoexcept ion,itwasperfect
actual
lysoididn'
tunderstandwhyhewant sto
changeit
Me:
thi
shousei
spur
eper
fect
ion
Hi
m:truebutyouknowhowyouguysar
e,
want
ingyourowntoucht
oahouse
Abeautif
ull
adymetusatt hedoor,shewas
spott
ingacutebabybumpandahandsome
l
itt
lemanwasst andi
ngnexttoher.Sbani
pi
ckedtheli
tt
leboyup,peckedthelady'
sli
ps
andrubbedherbell
y
Sbani
:heyl
ove.i
missedy
ou
Lady
:youl
eftl
esst
hananhourago
Sbani
:anhouri
sal
ongt
ime.l
etmei
ntr
oduce
youtoourarchi
tect
.Guguthi
sismywi
feLet
hi,
sthandwasam t
hisisGugu
Ismi
l
edbef
oreshaki
ngt
hel
ady
'shand
Me:
itsapl
easur
etomeety
ou
Let
hi:
li
kewi
se.t
hisi
soursonLet
hinhl
anhl
a
Me:
hei
scut
e
Her eal
lywasadorable.Sbanishowedme
aroundthehouseandi i
nstant
lyfel
linl
ovewith
i
t.Doublestoreyhousewi t
h7bedr ooms,3at
thebottom and4atthet op,i
ndoorandoutdoor
pool,barar
eaandawhol elotofotherf
eatur
es
thatiwil
lprobabl
yhav etorndown
Me:
thepl
answi
l
lber
eadyi
ntwoweeks
Let
hi:
thatqui
ck?
Me:yourhusbandgav
emequi
teat
ight
deadl
ine
Shelookedathim wi
thoneeyebr
owrai
sedand
hejustsmil
ed.Thi
sguyisfor
eversmi
li
ng.i
ts
cont
agi
ous
Let
hi:
Sbani
!
Sbani
:baby
Her
:youwanthert
orushthehousesoy
oucan
t
akeherf
orthosebui
l
dingsofyour
s
Sbani
:ourbui
l
dings.Me,
youandal
ltheLet
hi'
s
Hetur
nedtol
ookatmewhi
l
ehol
dinghi
swi
fe'
s
handf
irml
yandr
ubbi
ngi
t
Sbani
:allourki
dsar eLethi'
s.Lethimpi
lo,
Let
huthando,Let
hokuhle, Let
hinhlanhl
aandt
his
oneinhereisLethukukhany a
That
'ssosweetthough,
wel
lthoughtoutnames
andquit
emeaningful
Lethi:
i l
i
kethem buthet
hinkstheyar
echeesy.i
don'tknowknowwhat '
scheesyaboutbri
ngli
fe,
bri
ngl ove,
bri
nggood,bri
ngluckandbri
ngli
ght.
Me:menwil
lfor
everbemen.Imadealit
tl
e
di
scov
eryt
hatourhusbandsar
erel
ated
Sbani
laughed,
itwascl
eart
hatheknewal
l
al
onganddidn'
tcaret
oshare
Sbani
:wasi
tLoy
isoorAbongi
wet
hatt
oldy
ou?
Me:Loyi
so.Ican'tbeli
evey
oudidn'
ttel
lme.
AnywayI'
mi nv
iti
ngy ouguyst
odinneronFr
iday
.
Bri
ngthekidstoo.
Lethi
:ar
ey ousur
e?Wehav
e3ki
dsandt
heyar
e
alottohandl
e
Me:
Loy i
soandi
hav
e4ki
dssowear
eusedt
o
t
hecrazyli
fe
Sbanidrovemebackt ot heof
fi
ceanhourlater
,
promi
sedt ocallmedur i
ngtheweektoconfi
rm
di
nnerforFriday
.Istil
lhadanhourbef
orelunch
ti
mesoi di
dabi tofworkandatexact
ly1pm
myofficephoner ang
Me:
Nomt
hi
Nomt
hi:
MrsSmi
thy
ourhusbandi
sher
e
Me:
sendhi
mthr
ough
Af ewsecondsl
aterther
ewasaknockont he
doorandQhawewal kedin.I
'
velearnedtotel
l
them apar
tnowsot heydon'
tconfuseme
any mor
e.Il
aughedthemomenthewal kedin
Me:whyar
eyoutel
l
ingmysecr
etar
ythaty
ou
ar
emyhusband?
Qhawe:
you'
l
lseej
ustnow
Myphoner
angagai
n
Me:
yesNomt
hi
Nomt hi
:ma'
am somet
hingst
rangei
s
happeni
ng
Me:
somet
hingst
rangel
i
ke?
Nomt
hi:
ma'
am y
ourhusbandi
sher
e
Ideci
dedtopl
ayal
ongbecausenowi
know
whatQhawemeantby"
you'l
lsee"
Me:
yesy
ousenthi
minal
ready
Nomt
hi:
noMa'
am hei
sher
einf
rontofme
Me:
whodi
dyousendi
n?
Nomthi
:idon'
tknowma'
am.Idon'
tknow
what
'sgoi
ngon
Il
aughed,
Qhawewasal
readyi
nst
it
chesf
rom
al
lthel
aughi
ng
Me:
sendhi
min
Loy
isowal
kedi
nandi
immedi
atel
ygotupf
rom
mychai
r
Me:
youguy
sar
egoi
ngt
oki
l
lmysecr
etar
y
*
*
ABONGI
WE
Marri
agel i
fehasbeensobeaut if
ulformy
husbandandIbuti woul
dbelyingifisaidi
ts
beenper f
ect .We'vehadtoovercomesomany
chal
lenges, histemperbei
ngthebi ggestone
butI'
venev erlefthissi
debecausei knowthe
ki
ndofl ovet hismanhasf orme.Hehasnev er
fai
ledtoshowmet hatI'
ml oved, appreci
ated
andrespectedinourhome.Nowt hatthekids
areall
grownupandwi llbeleav i
ngt hehouse
soon,I
'mlookingforwardt oitjustbeingthe
twoofusagai n.Thefreedom ofhav i
ngsex
anywayinthehousewi t
houtt hefearofachi l
d
walki
ngin,i
swhati l
ookf orwardt othemost
Usi
:mom mayi
pleasehav
emoney
?
Me:
I'
m poorUsi
thandi
l
e,asky
ourf
ather
Her:
mom y ouboughtanewcart
womont
hs
ago,youar
enotpoor
Me:iam poorbecausei
boughtanewcarand
whatdoyouwantmoneyf orany
way?
Liwal
kedi
njustasi
wasi
nthemi
ddl
eofmy
sent
encet
hentri
edt
owal
kaway
Me:
don'
tyoudar
eLi
mil
eHadebe
Li
:idon'
twantt
oint
err
upty
ouguy
s
Me:
thi
sconv
ersat
ioni
sbet
weent
hebot
hof
y
ou.i
tdoesn'
tconcer
nmeonebi
t
Hepeckedmyl i
psthensatonthearmrest
stari
ngathisdaught erwit
hhisarmscrossed.
thesekidsarealway saski
ngforsomething.
j
usttheot herdayOy i
ntandowantedanew
phone,Kuhleaskedmef oranewPlayStati
on
consolelastnightandnowt hi
sonewant s
money
Usi:
dadmyfri
endsandiwantt
ogot
othemal
l
tomorr
owandineedmoney
Li
:what
shappeni
ngatt
hemal
l
?
Usi
:mom!
Me:
hai
bowhatdi
didonow?
Usi
:daddoesn'
tunder
standwhatitmeanst
o
beayoungwoman.Pleasejustgi
vememoney
Li
:youandy ourbr
other
st hi
nkmoneygr
owson
tr
ees.gocallt
hem,wear ehavi
ngafami
ly
meetingr
ightnow
Ichucklesoftl
y.Thedramakinghasbeen
unleashed.Usit
handi
legoesupstair
stogether
brothersandmyhusbanddeci desthatt
hisis
thebesttimetoclimbont opofme.mydr ess
ri
sesabi texposesmybar ethi
ghs.heki
sses
mesl owlywhilegent
lybit
ingonmybot t
om li
p
Me:
hmm
Amoanescapesmymouthasi f
eel
mysel
f
get
ti
ngmoistbet
weenmylegs
Li
:iwanty
ou
Me:
fami
l
ymeet
ing
Hi
m:whydi
dwehav ekids?I
'
mr eadyt
ojust
movey
ourpant
iesasi
deandsli
dein
Il
augh.Hequickl
ymov esoffmewhent hekids
walkdownthestair
s,i
canseet hebulgei
nhis
pantsandiswall
owspit.heplacesascat
ter
cushiononhi
slapandcl ear
shisthr
oat
Li
:youguy
sar
egoi
ngt
ost
artear
ningy
our
ext
ramoney
Kuhl
e:ear
ning?
Me:
yesmyboy
,wor
kingf
ory
ourmoney
Oyi
:soyouguy
sar
enotgoi
ngt
ogi
veusmoney
any
more?
Li
:you'
llst
il
lgetyoural
lowancebutany
thi
ng
morethanthat,y
ou'l
lhavetoear
n
Thesekidsar
etoospoiled,t
heyarenotbrat
s
butwe'v
emadet hem accustomedtogett
ing
ever
ythi
ngtheyaskforandthatneedsto
change
Kuhl
e:how?
Li:ext
rachor
es.Washingthecar
s,doi
ngt
he
garden,gi
vi
ngthedogsabat het
c.Doi
ngt
hings
thatwepayotherpeoplet
odo
Usi:andyouguyswill
payus?Shoul
dweget
thi
sinwr i
ti
ngbecauseidon'
ttr
usty
ou.Mom
always"borr
ows"themoneywegetfrom gogo
andnev
erpay
sitback
Il
augh.I
'm keepi
ngt
hatmoneysafefort
hem,
Lwaalwaysgoesover
boar
dwiththeseki
ds
Li
:wewi
l
lpayy
ou.Mom wi
l
lpayy
ouact
ual
l
y
Kuhl
e:noways.dady
ouknowhowmom i
s,she
won'
tpayus
Me:
hawguy
swhydon'
tyout
rustme
Oyi:
iloveyouMaDubekat
atabuty
ouar
ea
shopaholi
c
Me:
wow.Fi
net
heny
ourdadwi
l
lpayy
ou
Kuhl
e:t
hanky
ou
Me:youguysar
enotl
oyal
tot
hewomant
hat
gav
ey oul
if
e
Wel eavethem i
nthelounge,
headuptoour
bedroom andgetuptonogood.Laterwe
decidetogooutfordinnerwi
ththeki
ds,i
ts
beenawhi lesi
ncewe'vedonethat
.ishower
fi
rstthenputonablackcocktai
ldr
esswithabi
t
offl
oral
detail
,mar
oonsuedeheel
pumpsand
ti
emyhai rI
naneatbun.
Li
:il
ovet
hisdr
essony
ou
Heki
ssesmyneckandwrapshi
sar
msar
ound
mywaistf
rom t
heback
Me:
thanky
oumyl
ove.Ar
eyourki
dsr
eady
?
Hi
m:y
eah.Howdoi
look?
Hewasinblackj
eans,mar
oonlongsl
eeved
shi
rtwhi
chhefol
dedatthear
msandbl ack
l
oafer
s.Hewaslooki
ngsexyasusual
Me:
li
keaGQmodel
Hel
aughedwhi
l
eshaki
nghi
shead
Hi
m: thanky
oufor16y
ear
sofabeaut
if
ul
marr
iagemyangel
Me:
16y
ear
sdown,
ali
fet
imet
ogo
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LOYI
SO
I'
veal way sdr eamtt hatt hewomanI '
llmar rywil
l
l
ov emeandt akecar eofmet hesamewaymy
mot herdoesandi thinkGugucomescl oset o
that .Shej usthasi tinhert ot akecar eofme
andt heki ds, yesshei scar eerdr ivenbutshe
balancesi tallquitewel l now.I 'mt hehappi est
I'
llev erbeandi tsallthankst ot hechangeshe
hasbr oughti ntomyl ife.I tsThur sdayt odayand
I'
vet akent hedayof fbecausef i
rstlyI'
mt i
red,i
j
ustl andedf rom Egy ptl astni ghtandsecondl yi
wantt ospendt imewi tht heki dswhent heyget
backf rom school .Ionl ywakeupat11duet o
hungersoi madecer eal andat einf r
ontoft he
TV, Qhawei sstil
lintownsoi knowhewi l
lbe
bar gingi nher eany timesoon.Ihadl eftfor
Egy ptonMondayni ghtandr eturnedl astni ght,
aqui cki nandoutt hathasl eftmeexhaust ed.
Aftereat ingi takeashower ,putonbl ackchi no
shor t sandagr eyvneckT- shi r
t.Wheni get
backdownst
air
smybr ot
herandmycousi
nsar
e
hel
pingt
hemselvest
omywhi skey
Me:I
'
m goingtochangethel
ocks.Doy
ouknow
howexpensi
vethatwhi
skeyi
s?
Sbani:t
astesli
keoneoft
helabel
s.Ihav
eboxes
ofthosethingsatt
hehot
el
Qhawe:didyouheart
hat
?Theki
dhasboxesof
t
hisshi
t,cal
m downoldman
Me:
ifI'
m anol
dman,y
ouar
eanol
dmant
oo.
Wearetwinsi
diot
Li
:youguy
swi
l
lnev
ergr
owup
Ipourmysel
faglassthenwegochi
l
loutsi
deby
thepool
,i
tshotandthehousei
ssuf
focati
ng
Li
:youar
eawaret
hatwear
ecomi
ngher
efor
di
nnert
omorr
owri
ght?
Me:
yes,
ithi
nkGugudi
dsaysomet
hingabouti
t
Qhawe:Si
hlei
sfl
yi
ngi
ntoni
ght
.Soiwas
t
hinki
ngweshoul
ddosomethi
ngni
cefort
hem
Me:
them who?
Li
:thewomenthatputupwi
thourbul
l
shi
t
ndoda.Keepup
Me: whatbul
lshi
t?Welov
eourwives,
wetr
eat
them l
ikeroy
alty
,wedon'
tcheat
.Sowhat
bull
shi
t?
Allt
hreeofthem l
ookatmewithquesti
oning
eyesthemomenti saywedon'
tcheat.idon'
t
underst
andwhyI '
m get
ti
ngt
hislookbecause
I'
venevercheat
edonGugu
Qhawe:
ndoday
oudon'
tcheat
?
Me:
any
mor
e
Weal ll
augh.Atsomepointy ouout
gr owallt
hat
crapandprior
it
iseyourl
ife.I
'
m oney earaway
fr
om 50andmyy oungestchildi
s6yearsold.I
can'tst
il
lbechasingski
rt
satt hi
sage, I
'
vehad
al
l t
heskirt
siwant
Li
:wemi
ghtnotcheatbutourt
emper
sar
ever
y
problemati
c.Her
eiswhatiwasthinki
ng,Sbani
hasahot eli
nMilansot
omorrowmor ningwe
canf l
yther
ewiththewi
vesandkidsandhav e
dinner
Me:
inI
tal
y?
Honestl
ythi
smadenosensetomeandi t
snot
l
ikeoneofthem want
stopr
opose,
thesei
diot
s
areal
lmarri
ed
Qhawe:ist
il
ldon'
tgethowGugumar r
iedy
ou,
youhav
enor omanceinyourl
i
fe.Atal
l
Me:ihav
etonsofromance.Ipl
annedasur
pri
se
weddi
ng.noneofy
ouev erdi
dthat
Li:
surpr
iseweddi
ngsar
ethewhi
tepeopl
es
versi
onofukut
hwala
Me:
fokofwenabl
ackcat
Wespenttheafternoondiscussingthi
str
ipto
It
aly
,peopl
einmyf ami
lyhavet oomuchmoney
andtheyneverknowhowt ousei t
.At2pm i
left
t
hem inthehouseandwenttopickupmykids
f
rom school,i
deci
dedtogetLi
mi l
e'
skidsas
wel
lsincetheygotot
hesameschool asthe
t
wins
Sabel
o:MissVcamet
oourhockeypr
act
ice
yest
erday
Sambul
o:di
dyout
ell
herourpr
act
icet
imes?
Me:
yes.sheaskedf
ort
hem.
Sabel
o:y
ouknowmamai sgoi
ngt
oki
l
lyou
whenshefi
ndsoutr
ight
?
Me:shealr
eadyknows.wedon'tkeepsecret
s
f
rom eachotherandi
tsnotsuchabadthing
t
hatSneisshowingeff
ortguys
Sambul
o:shei
sst
alki
ngus
Idecidedtochangethetopicbef
orethesetwo
startwit
hthei
rdrama.Iplayedmusicwhil
ethey
tal
kedamongstt hemsel
v esandispoketomy
princesssi
nceShakawasasl eep
Somi
l
a:i
hav
eaboy
fri
enddaddy
Me:
aboywhat
?
Somi
l
a:boy
fri
end.Li
keTshepi
Me:hai
bowhendi
dTshepigetaboy
fri
endand
howdoyouknowshehasone?
Sambul
o:Somi
l
ayouar
esuchasni
tch
Me:leav
emychi
l
dal
onewena.di
shoutt
he
goodsbaby
Somil
a:hi
snamei
sMazwi.Heal
waysbuysme
sweet
swhenicat
cht
hem ki
ssi
ngbythegat
e
I'
m goingt oki
llt
hatchild.I
tsagoodthi
ngshe
i
scomi nghomet onight.Shei
s20buti don'
t
care,i
don' twantherdat i
ngandwhatisshe
ki
ssingboy sinfrontofmybabyf or
?Whatmust
Somilal ear
nfrom that?
Sabel
o:y
oucansaygoodbyetothosesweets
wenaSomil
abecauseTshepi
isgoingtoki
ll
you
Somi
l
a:hawu
Whenwegothome, t
heki
dschangedoutof
thei
runi
for
ms,theboyssetupthePlay
Stat
ion
andIwentbacktotheguysout
side
Li
:di
dyougetmyki
ds?
Me:yeah.Usit
handil
eiswit
hSomilaandthe
boy
sar einthelounge.Maj
i
taapparent
lyTshepi
i
sdating
Sbani
:so?
Qhawe:
Tshepi
isachi
l
d.Dat
ingf
orwhat
?
Li
:Loyisowhatwer
eyoudoi
ngwheny
ouwer
e
herage?
Me:
fucki
ngev
erygi
rloncampus
Qhawe:
whi
chmeansherboy
fri
endi
sdoi
ngt
he
same
Me: andmylit
tl
egir
lwil
lcomehomewitha
brokenhear
t.Qwear ef
indi
ngt
hatboyand
putti
nganendt ot
his
Q:
exact
ly
Theguyslef
twhenGugucamehomebut
Qhawewassl eepi
ngov
erbecauseSi
hlewas
arr
ivi
ngt
onightandwehadtodealwi
ththi
s
i
ssuewithTshepi
Gugu:
whydoesmydaught
ert
hinkhersi
steri
s
goi
ngtoki
l
lher
?
ShehadSomil
aonherhipandaconfusedl
ook
onherf
ace.Sambul
olaughedandqui
cklyl
eft
ther
oom
Me:
idon'
tknow
Somi
l
a:daddyknows
Me:
shei
sdat
ing
Gugu:
who?
Me:bothofthem.Thatoney
ouarecar
ryi
nghas
aboyfr
iendandsodoesTshepi
SheputSomil
adownandsatonmyl apwithher
armsaroundmyneck.Thi
sishersof
teni
ngme
upmove.Iknowi
talltoowel
l
Gugu:
myl
ove
Me:
noGugu
Her
:hei
sani
ceboy
Me:y
ouknowhi
m?Soy
ouknewaboutt
hisand
di
dn'
ttel
lme
Her:
itsgi
rl
sst
uffbabyandwebot
hknowhow
youcanbe
Qhawewal kedi
ntotheroom al
ldr
essedup.I
checkedtheti
meandi twasalmostl
andi
ng
ti
mef orSi
hleandTshepi
Qhawe:
ser
iousl
yguy
sgetar
oom
Me:y
ourwi
feknewaboutTshepi
anddi
dn'
ttel
l
me
Qhawe:thisremindsmeofwhenAl wastar
ted
dati
ngthatboy f
ri
endofhersandmamai nv
ited
himfordinnerwhiledaddywasinjobur
g.
Womenj ustdon'tseethi
ngsthewaywesee
them.Bestthingforustodoisrai
seour
daught
erst
hebestwayweseef
it
.Let
'
sgo
Gugudidn'
twantt
ogetof
fmeunti
lit
ickl
edher
andshesqueal
edandj
umpedof
f
Me:
youdon'
twantmet
ogo?
Qhawe:hayi
stopnegot
iat
ingwi
tht
error
ist
s.
Shewil
lusethesecr
etweapononyouandy ou
wil
lhav
enochance
Gugu:
lol
whatsecr
etweapon
Qhawe:youknowwhati ti
s.Si
hlecomingi
s
wit
hLeloandEndi,
pleasesortoutwheret
hey
wil
lsl
eep.Pr
ettypl
easewifey
Hebl ewGuguaki ssandi draggedhi m outthe
door.ilovet hattheygetalongandi callSi
hle
mywi f
eandhi skidsaremyki ds.Qhaweandi
areoneper son,wedon' thavet hesame
personalit
ies,wel i
kedifferentthingsbutwe
shareabondt hatisunbreakable.Weagr eeon
alotoft hi
ngs, wer ai
seourki dst hesameway
andhedoesn' thav ethebadt empert hatido.
Wepi
ckupSi
hleandt
heki
dst
henwedr
ive
home
Qhawe:
sohow'
sUPTshepi
?
Tshepi
:varsi
tyi
sgr
eat
.lotsofnewpeopl
eand
secondyearismor
eset
tledthatf
ir
sty
earwas
Si
hle:
that
'sgr
eat
.asl
ongasy
ouar
eadj
ust
ing
Tshepi
:iam
Me:
andt
heboy
fri
end?
Cwaka.Silencef
il
ledt
hecar
.Thiswholethi
ng
real
lyannoysmebecausenextt
hingshewillbe
pregnantandidhavet
odealwit
hallofthat
drama
Sihl
e:don'
tst
arty
ournonsense.Thebot
hof
you
Me:sheknowssheshoul
dn'
tbedat
ingSi
hle
andvar
sit
yboysar
eshit
Si
hle:
soshemustdat
ewho?Guy
sthatwor
k?
Qhawe: whymustshedat etobegi
nwith?Why
areyouactingasifsheneedstodatei
norder
tosurvi
ve.Shemustgetadegr ee,
getajoband
thendate.nott
hisnonsensesheisdoi
ng.
Tshepi
:cani
saysomet
hing?
QandI
:no!
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08/
18,
15:
41]Mca:
Season2
TheFi
nal
e
ABONGI
WE
Limi
lewalkedinwit
hhiskidsat18h00.Thi
sis
thet
imethattheyshoul
dbedoi nghomework
butwhataretheydoi
ng,bayazul
anotatawabo
Kuhl
e:heymom
Me:
don'
theymom me,
uphumaphi
?
Oy
i:wewer
ewi
thdadatuncl
eLoy
iso'
shouse
Li
:heymyangel
Heki
ssedmyneckt
henj
umpedont
hecount
er.
Iwasbusywi
thdi
nnerpr
eparat
ionssoi
didn'
t
havet
heener
gytofi
ghtwit
hhim
Li
:ihav
easur
pri
sef
ory
ou
Me:
angi
yi
funi
Helaughed.Idon'
tknowwhat
'sf
unnybecause
I
'm bei
ngdeadseriousher
e
Hi
m:i
mtaki
ngy
ououtf
ordi
nnert
omor
row
Me:taki
ngmet oGugu'
shousef
ordi
nner
doesn'
tcountast
aki
ngmeout
Hi
m:doesMi
l
ansoundl
i
ket
aki
ngy
ouout
?
Iimmediat
elystoppedwhatiwasdoi
ng,cl
osed
thepotandturnedaround.Di
dhej
ustsayMil
an?
Me:
Ital
y?
Hi
m: y
esmyangel
.Wef
lyoutt
omor
row
morni
ng
Me:
ohmygoshbaby
,ser
iousl
y?
Iwasal
readywr
appi
ngmyar
msar
oundhi
s
neckandki
ssi
nghisface.I'
m goi
ngtoMi
l
anf
or
di
nnerandi
tsnospecialoccasi
on.
Me:
fini
shcooki
ng,
I'
m goi
ngt
opack
Hel
aughed
Hi
m:OKbaby
.packf
ort
heki
dst
oo
Ist
oppeddeadi
nmyt
racks
Me:
whatki
ds?
Hi
m:ourki
ds
Me:
why
?Bay
aphi
labo?
Mxm t
her
egoesmyexci
tement
.Ihav
etobea
mom i
nMilanaswel
l
?Why?
Hi
m: wecan'tleav
ethem babypl
ustheyneeda
br
eak.Schoolsarecl
osi
ngt omor
rowanyway
Me:
theyar
e?
Heshakeshi
sheadwi
thasmi
l
eonhi
sface
Hi
m:y
ouar
esuchal
azymom
Me:
Mxm l
eav
emeal
one
Imakesuretopackv eryl
i
ttl
eclot
hesformy sel
f,
iwanttoshopunt i
lidr
opwhenwegett oIt
aly.
It
ali
anshoes,I
tali
anbags,iwanti
tal
l.Ihel
p
Usit
handi
lefi
rst,
sheneedstopackli
ghttoo.
Sheismyshoppi ngbuddy
Usi:
mom doyouthi
nkdadwoul
df r
eakoutli
ke
uncl
eLoy
isoanduncl
eQhaweifistar
tdat
ing?
Me: hewil
lprobablybeworsepumpkin.Your
f
atherisveryoverprot
ect
iveofyouandsoare
yourbrot
hers
Her
:butt
heyar
eyoungert
hanme
Me:itdoesn'
tmatt
ertot
hem.Theylov
eyou
andyoubeingtheonl
ygi
rl,
theywantt
oprot
ect
you
Her:t
hatsucks.t
herei
saguyatschool
that
askedmeoutbuti sai
dno
Hai
bokant
ihowol
dam i
?Howi
sitt
hati
al
readyhav
eachi
l
dthatget
saskedout
?
Me: good.Dat
ingcomeswithalotofchanges
andcompl i
cat
ions.Thi
ngsyouarenotreadyfor
.
iknowy ouwouldn'
twanttodi
sappointyourdad
Her
:yeahi
woul
dn'
t.Boy
scanwai
t
Aft
erhel
pingher
,ihel
pedOyi
ntando.Thatone
i
sstubbor
nsoi j
ustsatont
hebedandwat ched
hi
m dohisthi
ng
Oy
i:whyar
eyoust
ari
ngatmel
i
ket
hat
?
Me:
yougr
ewupt
oof
astki
ddo
Hi
m:noi
didn'
t.I
'
m st
il
lyourbabyt
houghmama
Me:youareevent
all
ert
hanmenowandy
our
voi
ceissodeep
Hechuckl
est
henshakeshi
shead
Him:thegi
rl
slov
emyv
oiceandt
heyl
ovet
hat
I
'm dark
Me:
don'
tbeget
ti
nggi
rl
spr
egnantOy
int
ando
pl
ease
Hi
m:I
'
m nothav
ingsexmama.Tr
ustmepl
ease
Me:andalwaystr
eatwomenwit
hr espect
.Don'
t
hur
tthem andfor
ceyour
sel
fonthem
Him:mom I '
veseent hewaydadtreatsy
ouand
Usit
handi
le.Ifit
reatmygi r
lanydi
ffer
ent,wher
e
wouldihaveseent hat?AndI'
veseenhowy ou
anddadar etogether
, abi
ttooi
nappropr
iateat
ti
mes
Webot
hlaugh
Me:
behav
eyour
sel
f
Hi
m:buti
tsal
ll
ove.t
hat
'swhati
wantaswel
l
Me:don'
trusht
ohav
eki
ds,
theyspoi
l
ev
eryt
hing
Hi
m:i
lov
eyouMaDubekat
ata
Me:
ilov
eyout
ooHadebe
Heki
ssedmycheekandi
madehi
mlowerhi
s
headsoicankisshisforehead.Hei
squit
ea
sweetboy,qui
teemotionalli
kemewhichireal
ly
appr
eciat
eabouthim becausehelooksnothi
ng
l
ikemesohemi ghtaswellhavemypersonal
it
y
Me:letmeleavey
outhenbecausey
ouseem t
o
hav
eev er
ythi
ngundercont
rol
Iwalkoutofhi
sroom andgot oKuhl
e'
sroom.I
rememberspeci
fi
call
ytell
inghi
mt ot
akeoutall
theclot
heshewantstoleavewit
handputhis
suit
caseonthebedbuthashedoneanyofthat?
Ofcoursenot
Me:
Sthol
okuhl
e
Kuhl
e:mom whati
sgoi
ngon?
Me:
whatdi
dIsayt
oyou?
Hi
m:iwasabouttodothat
.Letmesendt
his
t
extr
ealqui
ckandI'
l
ldoit
Iy
ankedt
hephonef
rom hi
m Andr
eadt
het
ext
Me:
ubusyuy
ajol
alanawheny
oushoul
dbe
packi
ng.Whoi
sthi
sLet
habogi
rlany
way
?
Hi
m:noone.Pl
easemayi
hav
emyphoneback
Me:no.Star
tpacki
ngwhi
l
eikeepmy
sel
f
ent
ert
ained
Him:mom i
nvasi
onofpr
ivacy
.I'
m goi
ngt
otel
l
dad
Il
ockhisphonethenpl
acei
tonhisdesk.
Pr
ivacyi
ssomet hi
ngweemphasi
sal ottothe
ki
dssoi mightaswel
lpr
act
icewhatipreach
Me:
soy
ouhav
eagi
rl
fr
iend
Him:mom thi
sisawkwardf
orthebothofus.
Canwepleasenotdoit
?Oyihasagir
lfr
iendas
well
Me:t
hisi
sabouty
ounotOy
i.Youdon'
ttel
lme
st
uff
Hi
m: i
telldadst
uff
,isn'
tthatt
hesameas
t
ell
i
ngy ou?
Ishakemyhead.Ihav
emycut
efaceonandI
'
m
pr
etendi
ngt
obesul
ki
ng
Hi
m: don'
tdot
hatwit
hyourf
acemom,
itl
ooks
wei
rd.OKwhatdoyouwantt
oknow
Me:
ever
ythi
ng
Him:ihaveagirl
fr
iend,hernamei sLethabo
andsheisinmycl ass.Wear einthechoir
toget
her.Ther
ethat'sever
ything.ByeI
'l
ltel
lyou
whenI'm done
Me:
youar
eyourf
ather
'sson
Hi
m:t
hat
'sawesomet
hough
*
*
GUGULETHU
Tshepi
:momspleasetal
ktoyourhusbands.
Theyaret
ryi
ngt
or ui
nmyl i
fe
Shestor
medi nwit
hSihl
eri
ghtbehi
ndher
gi
ggl
ing.Si
hleandishar
edahugwhileMi
ss
Smit
hslammedthef
ri
dgedooraf
tert
aki
ngout
abott
leofwat
er
Me:
what
sgoi
ngon?
Tshepi
:theyhav
eMazwi '
snumber
.Idon'
tknow
howandwhybutt heyhavei
tandt
heycal
led
hi
m
Me:
say
ingwhatt
ohi
m?
Tshepi
:yourhusbandtoldhimthathewants77
cowsbythet i
meschool opensandtheother
onesai
di fhedoesn'
thavethecowsi ntwo
weeks,hecanforgetaboutourrel
ati
onshi
p.
Thetwi
nswalkedinlaughi
ngandhavi
ngthe
ti
meofthei
rli
ves.Loyi
sowascarr
yingEndi
and
Qhawewascarryi
ngLelo
Me:
ser
iousl
yguy
s?
Theyl
ookedateachot
herandshr
uggedt
hei
r
shoul
der
s
Loy
:what
?
Q:wehandl
edthi
sdi
ff
erent
ly.That
'
swhaty
ou
sai
dweshoulddo
Si
hle:
youembar
rassedher
Loy
:shewi
l
lbeov
eri
tsoon.Idon'
tl
iket
hatboy
any
way
Me:heisn'
tfory
out
oli
ke.Youguy
sar
eso
ext
rayaz
Tshepi
:exact
ly.Soext
ra
Loy
:Tshepi
!
Me:
leav
eTshepi
alone.Ni
msukel
e
Tshepi
andSihl
ewenttogetset
tl
edwhi
l
ei
di
shedupforever
yone
Q:
thatwasf
unt
hough
Loy
:ican'
twai
tforSomi
l
a'st
urn
Me:
youguy
sar
eannoy
ing
Loy
:youl
oveusany
way
Thenextdaywewokeupqui
teear
lysi
nceour
fl
ightwasat8h00.Wewer etakingSbani '
sjet
soi didn'twantust obel ate.af t
ershower i
ngi
gotdr essedi nmyadi dasgr eyt r
acksui tand
blacksneaker sthenwentt ogett helit
tleki
ds
ready .Wedr oveouti ntwosepar atecar sat
7h00.Wef oundAbongi we'ssquadal ready
thereandSbani '
ssquadj oinedus10mi nslater
.
That swhenwemetMpi lo,Let hi
'
ssonandshe
metmychi l
dren.Thef l
ightwasal ongoneand
byt hetimewegott oourhot el r
oom, ij
ust
want edt osleep.TheRosaGr andMi lanois
wher ewewer estayingat .Appar entlySbani
recent l
yboughti t
me:
ineedanap
Loy:it
hinkweshoul
dtakeonewhi
l
etheki
ds
areasl
eep.
Eachfamil
yhadtheirownpriv
atesui
tesoaf
ter
tucki
ngmybabiesin,igoti
nbedwithmy
husband
Loy
:ar
eyoust
il
lmadatme?
Me:
sleepLoy
iso
Hi
m:wewer
ejusthav
ingf
unNanazi
Me:
hmm
Iwasdr i
ft
ingofftosleep.Iwasn'tmadathi m
buthim andQhaweneedt ostopwiththei
r
nonsense.Isleptri
ghtthroughthenightandin
themorningweal lshower edandwentt othe
hotelr
estaurantforbreakfast
.Wehad6ki ds
thatwerebelow10y earsold,6teenagers,
Tshepiand8adul ts.I
tsanunder st
atementto
saytherewer ealotofus
Me:
aft
erbr
eakf
astI
'
m goi
ngshoppi
ng
Abongs:
wear
egoi
ngshoppi
ngbabes
Lethi
:I'
ll
stayandkeepaneyeontheki
ds.I
'
m
pregnantsoshoppi
ngdepressesme
Sbani
:wewill
stay.Wel
i
v edher
efor2mont
hs
sother
eisnothi
ngnewforushere
Iwasn'
tgoingtoaskt hem iftheyaresur
e,j
ust
nowtheychanget heirminds.Weshoppedt i
l
wedropped,Tshepi waswi t
hMpi lomostofthe
ti
meandt heteenager swerewi t
htheguys
whil
eUsiwaswi thus.
Loy:
youbet
terwearoneoft
hesedr
essesf
or
di
nner
Me:
pickoneandI
'
llweari
t
HeChosear edVer sacebar
ebackandl ong
sleevedshor tdresswhichipai
redwithgold
stil
ett
oesandagol dneckpiece.Hejustwore
blackchinos, bl
ackandr edGuccishi
rtand
Gucci l
oafers.Wewer ematchi
ng.The
restaur
antwasbookedoutsoi twasjustour
crewandt hewai t
ers
Li:
beforepeopl
est
artt
aki
ngcr
edi
t,i
justwant
tosaythiswasmyidea
Qhawe:
eyuy
aphaphabl
ackcat
Abongs:
Qhawesoxabana
Qhaweraisedbothhi
shandsasaform of
apol
ogi
singwhilest
il
ll
aughi
ngthenhestoodup.
Thewai
terhadjustserv
edourmaincourse
Qhawe:blackcat
..
.ohImeanLimi
lei
sri
ght
,thi
s
washisideabutweallpai
dfori
tany
way
Sbani
:thel
i
esi
nthi
sfami
l
y
Loy:
ntwanar
elax.Wewi
l
lpayy
ou.Wi
thl
i
fe
l
essonsandwisdom
Loy
isoandQhawedi
dthei
rst
upi
dhandshake
Qhawe: asiwassayi
ng.Wedidthi
st i
nything
j
usttoshowy ouguysthatweappreci
atehaving
youinourli
vesandthatwedon'tt
akey oufor
grant
ed.Nosihl
eDlamini
,st
handwasam, love
ofmyl i
fe
Si
hlet
ookhi
shandandst
oodup
Qhawe:iknowI'm nottheeasi
estper
sont
obe
marri
edto.Iknowi getangr
yandsayhurt
ful
t
hingsbutyou'v
est oodbymeev er
yti
me.
you'
vebeenbymysi deaswerai
sedthet
ri
os
andyouaresti
ll
bymysi deaswerai
seLel
oand
Endi
.Thankyouforbeingmypar
tneri
n
ever
ythi
ng.Il
oveyoumyQueen
Ididn'tknowQhawehadsuchasweetsi deand
wat chingSihl
eblushi
ngli
kethatwasj
ustso
cute.Theyshar edakisst
hensatdownandLi
stoodup, taki
ngAbongiwewithhim
Oy
i:godad
Hecl
appedhi
shands
Li
:shont
wana
Hewi
nkedathi
m
Li
:it
hinkI
'
vebeenmar
ri
edt
hel
ongesther
e
Qhawe: keepdreami
ngbl
ackcat.I
'
vebeen
marri
edf or20y
ears,
you'
veonl
ybeenmarri
ed
for16years
Li
:mxm y
afanal
ent
o.MaDubewam
Kuhl
e:MaDubekat
ata
Il
aughed.Abongi
we'ski
dsar
esuch
cheer
leader
sthough.
Li:
myangel
,mydef
ini
ti
onofper
fect
.Godi
lov
e
youwoman
Abongi
wel
aughed
Li:16y earsisn'tchi l
d'splay ,it
sal ongasst i
me
actuallybuti tsbeenqui t
eabeaut ifulj
ourney .
youknowev eryt i
mey our efertotheki dsas
"Limile'skids"y our emi ndmeofmama.She
usedt oalway scal lusabant wanabakaSoso,
evenwhenwewer enoti nt rouble,wewer est i
l
l
abant wanabakaSoso.Thanky ouf orbeingt he
kindofmot hert oourchi ldrent hatdoesn'tlimit
them, t
hatdoesn' tjudget hem butl ovest hem
uncondi tionall
y .Thanky ouf ornev erchanging,
nomat terhowf atyourbankaccountgot ,you
stil
lremai nedt hesamehumbl esoul ifel
l i
nl ove
with.Youar eonei nami ll
ionMaDubeandi will
alway sr emindy ouoft hat
Theystart
edkissi
ngandtheydidnotseem l
ike
theywantedtostopany
time.Ihadtocall
them
toorderwhenLi'
shandwentforAbongiwe's
ass
Me:
hai
bot
her
ear
eki
dsher
e
Li
:ourki
dsar
eol
dsi
si
Loy
:si
tdownbl
ackcat
Abongs:
mxm hat
ers
Sbanist
oodupl
aughi
ng,
hewasal
readyhol
ding
Let
hi'
shandsoshest
oodupwi
thhi
m
Sbani
:babyidi
dwar nyout
hatpeopl
einmy
famil
yarecr
azy.Younowseeforyour
sel
f
Li
:i
tsnotal
lofus.i
tsj
ustt
het
wins
Sbani:it
sallofy ouguys.Myloveiknowyou
thoughtidi
dn' tloveyouenoughtobri
ngyou
homet omyf ami l
ybutihopethatI
'
veprovent
o
youthattherei sn'
tawomanal iv
ethatil
ove
mor ethanyou
Loy
:asi
dial
mal
umekazi
Asemahl
e'
snumber
Sbanil
aughedwhi
l
eshakinghishead.Butwhy
di
dithavetobemyhusbandthatcan'
tbehave
hi
mself?Imeanwhatdi
dIdot odeserv
ethis?
Huh?
Sbani :
OKmay beit
sat i
ebet weeny ouandmy
mot herbuti appreciateyourpr esenceinmyl i
fe
andmyent i
refamilydoes.You' veshownme
thatamanneedst oset tl
edownandhav ea
home, you'v
etaughtmet obeaf atherbeforei
goty oupr egnantandt hat'swhati l
oveabout
you.You' vekeptmei nvolvedinallourchil
dren'
s
l
ivesandI '
vealwaysf eltrespectedbyy ou.Il
ove
youMr sHadebeandt hanky ouforputti
ngup
withme
Theydidn'
tev engett
oki ssbecauseLoyi
sowas
al
readyonhi sfeetdr
aggingmewi thhim.Ever
y
mant hatsaidsomethingtothei
rwife,
stoodup
wheretheywer eseat
edt hensatdownagain
butnotLoyiso.Hetookmyhandanddr agged
met
othecent
reoft
her
oom
Me:
youar
esoext
ra
Loy:y
oudon'
tdeservemedi
ocr
ethi
ngs.These
youngboy
ssaidI'
m notr
omanti
c
Li
:youar
enotv
ele
Qhawe:
youar
eanol
dman
Loy:what
everi
don'tcar
e.Soi
spoket
omy
fri
endEdtheot
herdayandheowesmea
favour
Qhawe:uyaxokasani
,youdon'thav
eaf
ri
end
cal
ledEd.Iknowally
ourfr
iends
Hetookbot
hmyhands, lookedmeintheey
es
andsmil
edsli
ght
ly.Tot
allyi
gnor
inghi
sbrot
her
Me:
babywhoi
sEd?
Hi
m: Edbabyhaw.Theonet
hatsi
ngsy
our
f
avouri
tesong
Myhusbandi
stheambassadorofbei
ngext
ra
andbeingshady .Heknowsi l
ovePer f
ectbyEd
Sheeranandiknowf oraf actthatheisn'
t
fr
iendswithEdSheer an.Icouldbetmyl i
feand
myki dsonthi
s.Qhawewast hefi
rstoneto
l
aughandev eryonejoinedin.Icouldn'
thel
pbut
l
aught oo.
Me:ser
iousl
yLoy
iso.Whatam i
goi
ngt
odo
wi
thyou?
Loy
:lov
emeandpr
omi
set
onev
erl
eav
eme.
Ismiledt
henpeckedhisl
i
ps.Musi
cstart
ed
play
ingsoft
lyandiknewt
hatmyfavour
it
esong
wasabouttoplay
Loy:isuckwi
thwor dsnanazi,
youknowthi
sso
I'
m goingtol
etthi
ssongt hatyoul
ove,
speak
formeanddar l
i
ng..
.
Me:
yes?
Loy
:youl
ookper
fectt
oni
ght
Iwasbl
ushi
ngendl
essl
y.Hepul
l
edmei
nfora
slowdancewhi l
eevery
onejustwatchedus
thenthemusicpickedupandwesangal ong
soft
ly.Hebroughthisf
acetowardsmyearand
whispered
Loy
:tur
nar
ound
Itur
nedar
oundandt her
estoodEdSheer
an.I
gaspedl
oudl
y,wrappedmyar msar
oundhis
neckandki
ssedhim deepl
y
Me:
ilov
eyousomuch
Hi
m: nowherecl
oset
ohowmuchi
lov
eyou
MaZuluKaSmit
h
TurnsoutEdSheeranwastouri
ngItal
yanyway
andSbani or
gani
sedhimlastminut
et ocome
perfor
mf ormyhusbandandiatLoy i
so'
s
request.
*
*
THEEND