She fears being dirty but does dirty deeds anyway
Not because she loves it but she's too deep to climb out
In her self she buries her lies , her pain and her regret
She baths in her own tears because she claims they wash away her pain
Regret creeps in everytime after she bathes, her pain multiplying and her tears staining her
She's not alone, her demons keep her company
They feed off her sadness and feast on her guilt
She let's them burn her and bruise her heart
Not because they harvest the life out of her, until the pain numbs her mind and soul
She hides away her broken pieces in hopes that she will put them back together on her own
People offer to Help her out she refuses claiming the pit is her safe haven su
Claiming the pain is worth the numbing
She covers her tear stained face with a mask
The regret with hollow smiles
The pain with numbness
She fears being clean cause the dirt has become a part of her she thinks it brings her comfort
She's now nothing without the pain , nothing without her broken pieces
She wants to love the demons for staying with her through darkness
She ran away from the light, she was scared of opening her eyes to look at the sun
She now turns to her loneliness
Its bitter but at least she does'nt remember
But 1 sip does'nt't do the loneliness
So she takes another and another until she's lost count
She chugs her sorrows down her throat
It burns but it hurts less than reality.
She cuts , the blade cold on her skin, cold like her pit of demise
She stares as the metal slices her flesh splitting it open
It gives her a valid reason to cry...
She bathes once more but in her emptiness this time , it numbs her pain
The pit is now darker , deeper and emptier .
She can't take it so she cuts deeper and further , hoping to end her suffering .
She is found
Her eyes flick open
White coats like angels hover over her and she knows she has been saved
They bath her , she smiles as her pain slowly vanishes
the regret breaking leaving her soul
And the demons burning as they are touched by the light
And then she remembers
The light always shines brighter than darkness
Her raw skin sees light ice again
Is this the sweet kiss of grace?
Is this what forgivess feels like?
