Chapter 1 My Little Secret and a Big Lie

It was horrible I didnt wanted this to be like this. I dont want to hear these things in my head. I cant control it. I just hear everybody. I dont want to hear this, if that accident wouldnt happen. I would be normal? If my mom didnt wanted to go to that trip All started when my grandma give to my mom a trip to an island the Caribbean. A was on high school and I needed to do exams. My mom has never let me go alone on a trip but this time she made an exception because my dad was going to go. I didnt see him since his wedding. For going to the island first I need to take an airplane. Then I need to take a plane to the island. I am scared of flying. I dont trust in technology. A storm is coming the pilot said dont worry; we are going to get out of it safe. The helicopter moved like a roller coaster. I didnt could scream I was very scared for screaming. I thought I was going to die. I have never been that scared. The pilot loses control of the plane.
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I was terrified by the moment. I opened the door. It was very difficult to open it. The door was very heavy. Jump to the water He said. I closed my eyes and jump to the water. I was alive. The helicopter crashed through the water. I was in the water. There was something in the water. First I thought it was gasoline, but gasoline floats on water. There was blood all over my face the pilot screamed for help I couldnt do anything to save him. . I would never forget his British accent. In some moments the pilot was dead. There was land near. I swim all the way to the land I called for help and a generous woman helped me. The next day a rescue helicopter came. My mom, my dad, and my brother where waiting for me in the helicopter. We took the first airplane to go home. After hours of flight we get home. We live in New York. I live just with my mom. My brother is in college in California. My mom and my dad are divorced he married again two months ago and I didnt see him since that until the accident happened. The next two weeks from the accident I had really painful headaches. I thought my head was going to explode. Then the pain disappeared but I started hearing thing. I didnt want to hear those things. I started to read minds. I dont want to hear this I didnt make something really bad to this happen to me. I start walking and all this comes to mu head. I cant control it. People think really weird things. Now I know things I didnt wanted to know. My friends

Open the door he screamed opens the door fast.

think horrible things about me. Now I know that Tyler (my boyfriend) has another boyfriend. My life is falling in a hole without ending. Lindsay! Tyler is here my mom shouted from the kitchen. I was really, really, really, really angry with Tyler. I didnt want to talk with him. I didnt want to talk with anybody but especially not with him. I get to the kitchen. Hi he said. What do you want? I asked. I wasnt going to tell him the truth. I wasnt going to tell him the truth. I want to talk with you. I need to tell you something also I was going to say a big lie, sometimes is better so cover things with a big lie. I am bored of you, I want to finish. For me being with you was a waste of time and an error. That shouldnt have ever happened. I can be mean if I want to I cant be with you. Im sorry. That really hurt him. His eyes were watery; all what I said hurt more to me than to him. He gets out fast.
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Hi girls, I made cookies. My mom said. Your mom is really pretty; I also like your house. She said. Thanks I answered. She is perfect, her family is perfect. I would like my life to be like this. If my parents had no problems, maybe we would be like this. She thought. I didnt want to read her mind. I couldnt control it. I didnt know that your parents have problems. I accidentally said. You checked on my computer while I was on the bathroom. She seemed really angry. NO! I answered. So, how did you knew that? she was crying tell me how did you? she took her notebooks and computer and go away. Mom I need to tell her my secret, she is my best friend, now she thinks Im a monster You dont need to tell anyone about you little secret but if you think its necessary, you should tell her she smiled now go to sleep you are tired. Today in high school I am going to tell her my little secret. I dont know if she is going to believe me. Is she trust on me she
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What happened? my mom asked. I started crying my mom and she told me I had always hated him, he didnt worth it. The next day my friend Melissa came home. We needed to do a geography project.

would believe me. The friends are hurt with the truth so as not to destroy the lie.

I was going to get my Spanish books in my locker and Tyler still wanted to talk with me. He was thinking of giving me a gift. I was really angry with him. I needed to go and talk to Melissa. Let me go I told him. I will never let you go he demanded let me talk. Ok I finally said. He opened his mouth like he was going to talk but nothing came out of his mouth. Exactly what I was thinking you were going you say I said with a smile in my face. Lets just dont battle we were happy together he said. You where happy I didnt wanted to talk with him I dont have time to talk. Like I said you were a waste of time. I start walking searching for Melissa then I found her. She was wearing the t-shit I give her for her birthday it was black with a sign that said I hate you in white big letters. I gave her that because t-shirt I thought I would look cool with her black hair. She was wearing that with blue jeans and black high heels. When she saw me she said: What do you want? You are not my friend to be searching for me.

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Telling the truth

I need to tell you the truth. Why I know those things. I know secrets I dont want to know. With me everybody is without secrets, without lies because, I know these things, I can do this thing that is making me crazy. Everything in my life change and it was perfect before I wasnt finished when Melissa stopped me. What are you trying to say? I had an accident since that weird things start to happening I was really nervous. I took a deep breath I have my little secret that is getting bigger through time. I cant control it I start saying. Just say it she was an anxious. There is people thinking of what they are going to wear tomorrow, of what they are going to do next week, of going to the bathroom, all this weird things come to my head and I cant control them I finally said I read minds. I know its just a stupid excuse to make me forgive you. I had already forgiven you. I will ignore this big lie. She told me with tears in her eyes something was happening to her.
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Since two days ago I havent seen her. She is not coming to high school. She thinks that my family is perfect, but my mom is depressed since my dad got married again but Meredith. She is the new wife of my dad she has completely blond hair she says its natural but I know is fake. She is stupidly an idiot. She is just pretty. I was home eating with my mom when Melissa called me. I came back home yesterday and the house was empty, my mom is gone. I thought she was going to come back so I waited here but she didnt. She left me alone. she said. My mom and I get to Melissas house. She was sitting in her bed with all her hair in her face.

Why are you crying? I asked to her. It was a stupid question because I read her mind before she could say something. My dad has been gone from home since yesterday but that are my problems dont try helping me that will hurt me more than if you read my diary. She told me.

-----------------------------------------This is so awful. My mom said. I want to die. I am alone I dont know what do. She said. You are not alone, we are with you. My moms took her hands and take her to the car.
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You have an idea where your mom is? No, I dont have any idea where she is. My dad was gone from home one day before she was. My mom was like crazy, she cant live without my dad. She is maybe searching for him. The next day Melissa came to high school with me. I didnt want to leave her alone. Are you right? I asked her. If I dont talk about that I will be right. She smiled like with pain. I am here for you need me, Im your friend. I smiled. Like I say friends are there for you forever and always or they are not friends.

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Chapter 3 Love Hurts but Revenge Makes Me Strong

I was going to take my books Tyler comes again to say: You need to come back with me, we were a good couple I dont want. Give me a reason to come back? I said to him. He started to thinking but in the end he couldnt say anything. Nothing you see, you do not have nothing and I start walking. Think about it He shouted while I was walking. I am going to think about it I yelled while I was walking. I do not read his mind because I dont wanted to know what he was thinking. I dont know if I really want to go back with him because he really hurt me.

go to see her, she always ask who I am and dont remember after being almost all the day with her. All I read in her mind is: I want to die. It is really sad. I want to help her all I can until she die. All day in my Grandma house I was thinking about Tyler and I finally after thinking all day I decided NOTHING, I dont know what to do. Because one part of me wants to go back with him, but other part really, really, hates him. Later that day after hours of thinking. I know what I am going to do. Its a bad thing that is going to hurt him more or the same way he hurted me. Revange its how I call it. After two hours on subway. I get home. I need to do a Geography exam. I studied all the night with Melissa. I dont know if I am beginning to be a bad person because I abusing my power to do bad things, in exams I heard all the answers. Ill just forget it. Yesterday I talked with Tyler What do you think about us? Tyler asked. I think that we are going to start again I told him. I know that he has another girlfriend and Im not going back with him for a good thing, I am going to have revange, and revange is a good thing.

Now it was Friday. I need to go to see my grandmother because she is almost dying she is really old and wants to die she has 85 years, her hair is really white. She lives in the beach. Every time I
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Maybe I'm not the person everyone thinks I am. Everyone is going to know who is the real Lindsay Gray know. Today we need to organize the prom night of the 11th grade; next year is going to be our prom night. I am going to make that night to be a night that no one would ever forget. I will make it the perfect place for revenge. Every girl in 11th grade hates me and I hate them too. I know that they think I am a stupid and I also know that one of them is girlfriend of Tyler and I also know that they envy me because Im prettier that all they together. A weird thing happened after school. I was at the super market, I know that what I saw was real, I saw Veronica she is a girl that is always in trouble almost no one trust on her she has black hair, really pretty black hair. She is the type of girl that looks like a good person, but when you get to know her you realize that is completely the opposite. She is the type of girl you dont want your parents to know is your friend. She has powers like me a power that is better than mine. She can render herself invisible and later project powerful force fields. I saw her. Some boxes fell and with her force fields she stops them from hitting her. Then she saw that I was seeing her. SHE SAW ME! she was thinking and then she disappeared.

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I know secrets about people you would like anyone ever know. I use those secrets in my benefit. I know you can hear me. Dont try to hide. I said and she appeared. What do you want? she asked. I know you render yourself invisible. I told her very fast. You wont tell my secret? she asked me. No, I will tell you my secret. I get closer to her ear and whisper I can read minds. If you tell something I will kill you. I will kill you too if you tell my secret. She whispered back. We can be good friends, we both have powers. I have a plan and I want you to help me I make a pause and continued my boyfriend Tyler cheated on me and I want to make him suffer, I want revenge. I hate cheaters. I will help you This is going to be perfect. I smiled and go to my house. I discovered a new thing about my powers. I close my eyes, think about someone and it appears magically in my head. I discover it because I was thinking about Veronica and then she appeared.

She was sitting on the floor crying, I dont know why. Wouldnt say anything about this because she would get angry. She looks like someone that would never cry. Whenever you feel sadness is chasing you, let it into your life, you would learn to be strong.

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Hi! Veronica said to Tyler Mmmm Hi he said. I was seeing everything with my new power. Lindsay is waiting you at the gym she said to him. Ok, I am going now. He responded. When he was in the gym he screamed: Lindsay! We turned off the lights and locked the door and leave him all the night in the gym. We have so much fun doing that. We were in my house after that. How did you get your powers? I asked Veronica Last year I have a car accident, the car fell into a river the water has these green things, and it was really weird. The same passed to me. Not the same but something similar. Mine was a plane accident in the Caribbean and I think that same green things were in the water. I said back.

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You were alone in the accident? Yes, with the pilot but he died. I wasnt alone; I was with my brother Jason. She confessed.
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*-Love is Like Ghosts-*

So, your brother has powers? I asked slowly. Yes, he has super speed and has the ability to run and move extremely fast. She told me. I want to see that. I has lovely face while I said that come with you brother next time. I dont know if he is going to come. Tell your mom to force him. We dont live with our mom; we left her house after the accident. I didnt know that, sorry. Veronicaa, I have a plan. Including your brother. She sight and said: Ok! I will convince him to come to your house today. Everything is going to be perfect. I made an evil smile. In the afternoon they were at my house.
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Hi he said. He has a deep voice Nice to meet you. Hi I think he could see in my face that was haunted of seeing him. Dont be more obvious she was thinking. I made a quick smile to her. I have a plan that includes you Jason I said. She is really pretty Jason was thinking. Thanks I unconsciously said. Remember she read mind. Veronica remembered him. What is the plan? Jason asked. Jason is going to make Tyler jealous. I told them. So, I will need to pretend I like you he said. Yes, but it would be just for some time, its a plan with some problems but we would make work. He smiled and then said: ok. Where I am in this plan? Veronica asked. You need to convince Tyler that Jason likes me and that I think he is cute.
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Hi Victoria said and get in. Beside her was her brother. OMG! Her brother is so cute. He has brown hair and green eyes. He is Jason, my brother.

There is a problem. Jason is not in our high school. I can solve that problem. Veronica said. How? When Im invisible I can do whatever she argued. When you can do that? I asked her. Now, if you want. She responded. Ok, so tomorrow we will start with the plan. The next day we already have our plan to be perfectly done. Its supposed anything to be wrong. We need to wait until everyone is out or at least Tyler I told them. 7th grade in, 8th grade in, 9th grade out, 10th grade getting ready to get out, 11th grade also getting ready to get out. I told them.
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I just wanted to apologize. she was making him walk where Jason was. When Tyler sees Jason he said: What are you doing here? What do you think Im doing? Jason answered and continued walking. I thought that they didnt know each other. I want to ask Veronica how they know each other, but Im not going to. She would get angry, she dont like questions. Two days later I was with Tyler he is really cute. I love his blond hair and his blue eyes, but I dont love him. I like someone. This someone is someone I dont need to like is someone that ill just say it. I like Jason. We dont talk too much in high school we dont talk he is one year older so I can contemplate his handsomeness in class. He looks so rocker and so bad boy. He has this awesome style, this awesome green eyes and his brown hair. I will keep that just for me. He is Veronica's brother. I will only be with him if Veronica says is ok. Now Im not going to have to pretend. Love is like ghost, everybody talks about it but just a few have seen them and I am not going to see it soon.

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Tyler was in science class. No one was watching us so we started. Veronica started. She turned invisible and was making sure that he get where Jason and I are. Wait! She yelled to Tyler. If you are going to make me a prank again, go away. I know that you are mad at me but I am here to say sorry for that

The morning of the next day I was getting ready for high school when I remembered that I needed to call Veronica. Today we are going to make Tyler jealous with Jason. I dont want to hurt him but I need to he broke my heart. When we get to high school we started. Jason and I were by the lockers he was hugging me by the hips. Moments later Tyler came. Why are you with him? Tyler asked angry. He seemed like he hated Jason. He is my friend I told Tyler. Stay away from him. Tyler told me like if Jason was dangerous.

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Tyler was furious and wanted to start fighting with Jason. I am not going to fight with you, it doesnt matters haw much you hate or how much I hate you I wont fall that deep. Lets go I took Jasons arm and start walking. I was confused I didnt know that Jason and Tyler hated that much. What is happening? I want the truth. She discovered it. Stupid Jason. She was thinking.
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Discovering Interesting Things!

Yesterday I had a strange dream. It wasnt a dream it was a nightmare. I was on a dry field running from something but I couldnt see of what I was running. Then I was lying in the floor probably dying. It was a really strange dream. Ill just forget it.

I discovered it. Now speak. She demanded. Jason and Tyler are brothers she made a pause and continued my mom is Jasons mom, but my dad is not Jasons dad. Jasons mom is not my mom. Tylers dad is not my dad but id Jasons dad. Ok. I said confused. If you didnt understand, Im sorry I wont repeat it. I understood, but why they hate each other? Tylers mom and his dad were married, his dad cheated on her mom with Jasons mom that is my mom, it was an adventure but she got pregnant of Jason she has the baby and Tylers dad was maintaining them and a year later Tylers mom get pregnant and someone told her that her husband has an adventure and a baby. She made him choose between her and Jasons mom and he choose Tylers mom. One year later, my mom married with a millionaire, had me, and now she maintain us. I still dont know why they hate each other! I demanded. Ok she said and continued They grew up, Tylers mom say that Jason is an error and my mom say he is not an error because he was born before Tyler. I need to tell you something, please dont get angry. I am hearing. She responded. face.

I like Jason I blurted out. I dont care. She said word per word with a smile in her Yesterday was the best and worst day of my life. I was really magical moment. I was with Jason. We were in the rocks. Its a place with teens can hangout. He was wearing a red-black plaid shirt, with blue jeans and black converse.

When he came he didnt talked to me he was seated in a rock seeing me indirectly every 10 seconds. I couldnt keep my eyes from him. In just some seconds he came were I was. We start talking slower and slower. He was just looking at me. He so cute and handsome and I am me. In a moment his lips touched mines and I felt sparks fly. I have never felt that before. He took my hands and that magical thing happened again. We cant be together because Jason has a girlfriend. But there is something worse I didnt wanted to happen. Tyler watched us.
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Are you joking? Im serious You cant tell me with who to be, you are boyfriend not my father. I said to him. He was so angry that he put his hand up like he was going to hit me. I started walking toward the door. He took my arm and said I love you. There is a problem I had never loved you. That really hurted him. I get to the rocks and seated there almost all day. Thats why I love weekends. After almost all day there Jason appeared and instead of hi he gave me a fast and sweet kiss. I smiled back to him. I thought he was going to pretend that nothing happened from the other day. Michelle is her name. She is from United Kingdom. She have British accent, red straight hair and she is freckled. She is really beautiful. She has light blue eyes that I envy. I have seen her with Jason; I also have seen her spying me. She knows that Jason and I have a special connection. So she is spying me. I know it because Ive been reading a girls mind. That was really annoying me. So I followed her mind sound or whatever it is.

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Ive been thinking of what I am doing. I was thinking about the Jason thing until Tyler came to my house. We need to talk he said. I dont think so I answered. I dont want you to be or see or talk with Jason

The sound ended in the walls, and then I understood why I couldnt see her. She has ghost powers. I would love to have those powers. She can render herself invisible, cross walls and more. She is wonderful. I had never envy anyone, she is prettier than me. I know you are looking at me. I screamed to her. Then she came out from the wall. I had an accident, I was with my mom, my dad and my two sisters, and they all died, including me. I died drowned in a river, my family died when the car exploded. I could see my body cold and dead. I touched it and I was absorbed by it. I was in a beach. I was wet; I was on my body again. I could breath, I was alive, and I could hear my heart beats. I got a second chance. I was alone in the world when Jason found me. He is everything for me. Stay away from him or youll regret it. She whispered invisible.

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Its not in your hands that Im with him or not. He is with you because he has pity of leaving you alone. At the moment I said that she slapped me. I will get my revenge. Wait for it. I told her. Sorry, it was an accident.

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Is that what the doctors told your mom and dad at the hospital? You are hurting everyone with your secret. she said ignoring what I just said. I found a way to survive with my secret, even thought everyone I care about gets hurt I answered.

I dont know I answered You dont put paper over the windows unless youre a vampire Michelle appeared. So, you are coming to prom night I said to Michelle. I will make you suffer, just wait for it. She said and disappeared. We would see who is going to win at the end. I screamed because I knew she was going to hear me I hope you have fun. She appeared and says: If lying was a crime, youll be in jail. Then she disappeared again. We needed to put on our dresses. Veronicas dress was really beautiful it was green with thick straps. It was a shiny dark green a loved that dress. She used it with black high heels with her hair up in a very cute hairstyle. My dress wasnt a really big thing. It was black and strapless but it was really cute. I was using it with also black high heels but with my hair down. My dress was really cute but her dress was really fashion. After some time people start coming, Veronica was receiving the people and Michelle came and was talking to her. I thought you were emo she started always alone in the corners.

Chapter 7 Prom Night*

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place. Why did you put paper over the windows? Veronica asked.

Keep walking or I will hit you. Veronica said and Michelle continued walking. Michelle was wearing a blue dress with thick straps. I was shiny. Her red hair looked great with her blue dress, she was really beautiful.

I hate you my voice was breaking. I couldnt breathe. I fell with my back through the floor. Never trust a pretty girl with an ugly secret she whispered Like my favorite phrases says: when karma comes back to punch you in the face I want to be there to help her. She laugh and then go out.

When Jason came she gave me a big hug and a little sweet kiss in the cheek and then in my lips very slowly. I could see Michelle really angry. Prom night ended. I was on the stage and Michelle came. You are afraid of me. I can see it in your face. Im not afraid of you. I answered.
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Then a girl came she was probably eleven years old. So, you are the new one? She said with a sweet voice dont be afraid, in some moments youll past to the forest, you will be happy forever, this lets say your second life, but dont get to comfortable, you need to survive in the forest, its a beautiful place but be careful he can hear you. She smiled and pointed my body touch it. She disappeared. I touched my body it was cold and dead. A light appeared and I fainted. When I woke up I was on a forest. I was landed on the floor. My cloth was not the same that I had when I died. I was wearing a white dress with res in the bottom. I was using these cute shoes. That girl appeared again the one that told me to be careful. Follow me she screamed and started running through the foggy road.
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She started walking toward me and I started walking back. I get to the edge of the stage a stage of three meter high. I was going to fall so I took her hands. I could let you fall, but trust me. I-I-I trust you, I trust you. She disappeared like dust letting me fall. She appeared again and said: Do you feel pain? Poor you she smiled.

I followed her walking slowly when I was on the heart of the fog I couldnt see nothing. There was when my second life started, my paradise and my darkness.

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Natalia Martnez is the author of Without Secrets. She lives in Liberia, Guanacaste, Costa Rica with her family. She likes to use Facebook and see movies online. She loves her computer.