"Letter to myself"

Today I sat down and thought, all my life I have written letters to the
people I love, but I have never written a letter to myself. I have been
like any other person, full of titles like everyone else, I have been a
friend, a daughter, a sister, I have wondered what I have been and
what I have done, the frustrations I have had from not wanting to fail,
and I have also listened to that voice that tells me you have to, you
must, the voice that does not allow me to make mistakes.

At what point did I feel responsible for the balance of the universe? At
what point did I stop being my own center and become, by my own
decision, the center of others? It seems that life itself named me the
provider, and yes, I did it on my own to solve the problems of those I
love before my own.

Dear me, I've been wanting to sit down and write to the person I am
for a while now, but I had forgotten who I was. I've put my energy into
thousands of other situations. I know that sometimes you feel lost and
you should know that you're just a little teenage girl. Don't worry,
you're fine, or at least you're trying to be. Don't lose that ability to see
life a little more beautiful than it sometimes is.

You are at university, in your long-awaited and longed-for career that

is more than you expected, you see in it the opportunity to be
yourself and you have also met people who let you be that way, I
want to tell you that, just like now, you will lose people you love so
much, but you will gain new friends to share, it will be later when you
discover what love really is.

Let me give you some advice, don’t stay still for too long, stagnant,
life and time go on; don’t be afraid of pain, nor insist on keeping by
your side the people who refuse to love you, one day you will learn
that change on the inside is much better than change on the outside,
you are worth as much as what you don’t think you are worth, don’t
stop, sing, dance, play, follow your heart, be incoherent, senseless,
illogical, dream of everything you see and are passionate about, even
make fun of yourself and your defects, be what you want to be, never
stop being who you are, nor make the mistake of not loving yourself,
there is no more perfect way than being yourself, accepting

Your mistakes and valuing your successes.

I know there are days that don’t let us think clearly, but let go of
everything that doesn’t make you happy, move, you’re not a tree,
make mistakes, keep doing them, they make us human, fall in love
and keep loving with the same desire.

All the good things in life are messy, so don’t dress yourself up too
much, okay. One more thing, love yourself with every little bit of you.

Today I am alone, standing in front of my problems, putting my life on

hold, and I have decided to listen to the voice that takes care of me,
that helps me, that loves me, alone without anyone having to applaud
me for what I do well or what I don’t do well, alone in this room where
for the first time I am applauding myself.

We have shared so many years together and I think I never gave you
the value, much less the recognition that you should have had. We
went through many tests and you never abandoned me, always there,

Strong, persistent, you didn’t give up or let me do it.

I never thanked you, on the contrary, I unfairly blamed you for

everything bad that had happened during our life, for the times you
made mistakes, the bad decisions you made (in my opinion), I judged
you and punished you for finding you delusional, dreamy, impulsive
and trusting.

I didn't have the good fortune to really know you until yesterday,
when I saw how much I had mistreated you physically, mentally and
spiritually. However, you didn't abandon me like I did for ____ years!!
Yes!! Years to realize how valuable and important you are to me, I
have dedicated thousands of letters, given thousands of "Sorry" to
people who perhaps didn't deserve it, I swear! I stopped to appreciate
qualities and praise everyone, I offered my company without
hesitation to whoever needed it, I valued people who failed me, but
you, my faithful companion, I didn't even turn to see if you were still
standing, if you were okay, if you needed anything, I stopped listening
to you a long time ago and I took for granted that it was your duty,
that you had no right to complain.

Sorry, I only remembered you in the worst moments and it was to

reproach you for your decisions, your mistakes. You never heard from
me a: "How beautiful you are" "What a wonderful person you are" and
above all things you never heard me say or even think these words "I
LOVE YOU" because I didn't, that's right even if it hurts you to read it
all these years I didn't love you, even until yesterday I didn't, sorry
but I must be honest with you, especially with you...

It wasn't until I saw you last night, so unprotected, fragile, hurt,

tired from everything and still STANDING!!! YES!! YOU WERE STILL
THERE

ME with so much love, with a courage and strength worthy of praise,

What really struck me the most was your strength, your firm gaze.

and a temple that I had never seen before; what can I say? I was
surprised to see you,

Because I had never had the good fortune to know you, or to look at
you as I did. For the first time I felt compassion for you, I looked at
you with new eyes, perhaps the same eyes with which the people who
love and value us look at us today.

You know? Last night I realized that you deserve my love more than
anyone else in the world. We went through some tough times and let
me tell you, you became my heroine, I admire you, I never thought I
would say this about you, you are a wonderful person with qualities
that I have rarely seen.

You are beautiful, seriously! You are worth much more than all those
with whom you compared yourself and felt inferior, you were never
less than anyone, you always had countless qualities, which
compensated for those you saw missing, but you were so determined
to see what you did not have, that you did not have the fortune of
seeing the human being that you were, you could not see that your
beauty does not only lie in your exterior, but is the essence of your
soul, and what to say about your strength! How much strength you
have!

You were able to overcome each and every obstacle that life put in
our way, why didn’t I meet you before? I surely wouldn’t have let
anything happen to you, like you did to me. Sorry! I want to fall on my
knees in front of you and beg you to forgive me, but now that I know
you, I know that you don’t want to see me like this, because you love
me too much and you sacrificed everything for me. However, even
though you only wanted me to recognize you as such, I dedicate
these words to you.

I am writing this letter to you because I felt the urgent need for you

Forgive me for so many years of abandonment, for silencing you, for

Punish you unfairly, I know you forgave me a long time ago, but

I also know how much it will mean to you to hear it from my mouth,
written in my own handwriting.

TODAY THAT I GIVEN MYSELF THE OPPORTUNITY TO KNOW YOU, TO

LOOK AT YOU WITHOUT JUDGING YOU, LOVE SPROUTED FROM MY
BEING: TODAY I LOVE YOU! And I want to make you the promise that I
will never silence you again, today you have your place here by my
side, we go together on this path, today you are no longer the cause
of my ills, on the contrary, you are the reason why today I am
standing here, fulfilling a dream that we have been nurturing since I
was very young, I owe all of this to you and only you; because your
strength is incredible! It kept us standing in the worst storms.

Thank you, infinite thanks for everything! I embrace you in light, love
and I let you go, I take away all the pressures I put on you, the goals
that kept you from sleeping, from hunger, from life itself! I free you
from what I wanted you to be, because you are much more than I
imagined you would be when you were a child, you surpassed all my
expectations, today I just want you to be light, to let go of all that
baggage and rest my dear UNCONSCIOUS SELF, because the rest of
the path depends on me and all I want is to not let you down.

I hug you, I hug you!! And I don’t want to let you go!! I take you by
the hand, you will never be alone. Now it’s my turn!

From your Unconscious Self to

you Woman.
Hello, ____________________________________________today I want to
address you from the depths of your BEING. I am your unconscious. I
am writing this letter so that you keep it in mind at every moment
from now on. I decide, I choose to be with you from now on, to
achieve our mission and vision of life.

First of all, I want to tell you that I know what you are going through,
that these have been difficult times, that there have been difficult and
sad moments, but I want you to know that you are okay and that you
will be better.

First of all, you should be clear that you will never be alone, and when
that feeling comes over you, remember that you have me as a
companion and accomplice along the way. I will always be by your
side.

Please know that I am proud of you, that you have my admiration and
respect for your courage and bravery and for everything you have
achieved in your life.

Especially for what these last few years have been and represented. I
hope you can also see and be aware of this, but if one day, or at some
point for some reason you forget, don’t worry, I’ll be there to remind
you of every step you’ve taken and what you’ve forged.

Today, by choice, I began to focus on you and give you what you need
to be well, to seek and pursue what you want and to be happy.

However, today, more aware of everything and with the clarity that
we have achieved in this time, I assume my commitment to you to
take care of you and look out for you above all and everyone, each
and every one of our days. I will let you feel sadness and nostalgia
when these feelings invade you. I will allow you to be afraid when
something scares you or you find yourself facing something unknown,
but in the same way I will let you know that this is part of life, that
you can always choose, that making decisions makes us stronger and
that every situation passes.

That allowing ourselves to feel all this, to feel vulnerable, is not only
good, but natural, but we will not make it a lifestyle for ourselves nor
will we stagnate in it.

We will simply be taking another step. When you fall, when you
stumble, I will be there. And I will be the one who lifts you up, and
makes you see that as long as we give meaning to it and learn from
those experiences, there are no falls or stumbles, we have
accumulated Life lessons.
I will show you the beautiful things of every day, of every person and
of every moment and situation.

I will help you see and understand that everything happens for a
reason and that everything is for the best; that we will plan our lives,
set goals and objectives, desires, but that we will also have to adapt,
identify and take advantage of what life itself will offer us. Sometimes
it will not be so easy, but together we will decipher and find the way.

I will remind you that life is a roller coaster, with ups and downs, but
the point of it is to enjoy the ride… that the power is there.

You have it and it is you who grants or does not grant that power to
others and who decides to allow them or not to hurt you or lead your
life.

Only you choose, just as only you should take the reins of your life,
and just as it is okay for you to say No when you feel like saying No.

That opening up to others is good and that, even though you may end
up hurt on occasion, you should never stop feeling, trying and giving
yourself to others if you so wish.

I will teach you that every person is in our lives for and for something.

That some will be passengers and others will accompany you on the
journey for a longer time, but that you will learn from all of them and
leave something behind in all of them.

I will teach you that there will be losses along the way, different types
of losses. Together we will understand that they are inevitable and at
the same time necessary, but even more, I will help you and you will
learn that losing something or someone does not mean losing
yourself, but on the contrary, sometimes they are necessary, to
continue finding and discovering ourselves as the person that we are.
You will learn that even though there are things you will not forget,
you will learn to live with them in a healthy and positive way. Contrary
to the above, I will never abandon you. I will comfort you when you
need comfort.

I will guide you when you need guidance and I will become your
compass when you don't know where to go. When I think it is
necessary, I will remind you of the paths you have walked, I will
remind you of where you come from and who you are, since the past
marks you, but it does not condition you.

So rest assured that I will always push you forward and towards the
future you desire.

At the same time, I will show you each of the things you should be
grateful for in life. You will appreciate, value and give meaning to each
detail, each moment, each person who surrounds you and touches
your life, each opportunity to continue growing and, especially, the
fact of being alive and healthy.

Be clear that you can, and that you have all the capacity to do
everything you set out to do and that together, we will fight and

we will face whatever comes your way.

Others will always be a support, but you should know and understand
that our goal has been and will be self-sufficiency, and that you
should trust in yourself.

The answers are yours and no one else's. Will you need other people?
Yes, but never to be happy. I will continue to provide you with the
tools, exercises and techniques necessary to be happy and so that
you can continue living YOUR LIFE as YOU want and as YOU know how
to do it, don't doubt that.
A great stage ends and today another one begins. Let yourself feel, I
give you permission to feel as many emotions as invade your
interior... Don't worry about what comes next, I'll take care of that.

I just want you to know that you are ready to take the step, to LIVE...
and remind you that you are not undertaking this new journey alone,
you are accompanied by experience, maturity, growth, the knowledge
of these years and even more so by your best friend, me, you.

unconsciously, unconditionally with you

All this without having to pay excess baggage, only in exchange your
promise to live your life respecting yourself and being happy every
day to come, today is the beginning of your new life.

With all my love for you, from your unconscious self.