UNBREAKABLELOVE

¶¶I
ntr
oduct
ion¶¶
Loveisselfi
sh,l
oveisabstr
act,lovei
sruthl
ess,
l
oveisjealous,
loveiskind,
l
ov eiscar
ing,
l
oveis
support
ive,l
oveiscauti
ous,loveispr
etty
,l
oveis
bad,
loveisuncondit
ional

Therearemanydef i
nit
ionsaboutloveandtr
ust
met heyall
ent
irel
ytrue,butsomehowIalso
cr
eatedmyowndef i
niti
onofl ovesi
nceit
di
ffersfr
om cr
eaturetocr eat
ure.
..

LOVE
Loveisdeeplikeanocean,
loveisbri
ghtl
iket
he
morningsun,
loveisli
kearivert
hatfl
ows
endl
essly,
lov
ei sanemotionhiddenbeyondthe
star
s,l
oveist
her ootofHEARTBREAK
Me:
"Ok,
stop,
stop,
ohmygoshy ouaret
hewor
st
mal
estri
pperI'
veeverseeni
nmyli
fe"
Il
aughedpr
ett
ybadl
y
Hi
m:"
Oh,
okMi
ssyl
et'
sseey
oudoi
t"
What
??Hewant
smet
ost
ri
pforhi
m
Me:
"Gameon!
!"
Ipushedhi mtot hewallandst ar
teddoingmy
thing,Istart
edf i
rstbyswi ngi
ngmyhi psf r
om
sidetosi deinslowmot i
ons,makingsur ethat
hedoesn' tforgetthisgir
l,
Ithentwerkedfor
him,grindingmybehi ndofhi smanlyprivate
par t
,j
ustoutofcur iosi
tytheguychuckled...
Him:"
Yourstr
ippi
ngski
l
lsar
ean
embarrassmentt
ohumanki
nd,
Missywi
tht
hat
fl
atass"
Me:
"NoIdon'
thav
eaf
latass,
wena"
Hi
m:"
Youdomamahl
e"
Ist
art
edt
ickl
i
nghi
m
Me:
"Takebacky
ourwor
ds"
Hej
ustl
aughedwi
thhi
svoi
ceechoi
ngacr
oss
t
heroom
Him:"
OK..st
op.
..
Itake.
..
them back,y
ouOKsor
ry
yougottheper
fectassandwhat '
s
embarrassi
ngi
sthatIsti
lll
ookatitwheny
ou
walkaway "
Sosweet
Me:
"NchoobabysoIst
il
ltur
nyouon"
Hechuckl
ed
Hi
m:"
Yourass,
noty
ourugl
yface"
Igav
ehi
m ahotsl
ap
Hi
m:"
OuchRat
othathur
ts"
Me:
"That
'sf
orsay
ingI
'
m ugl
y"
Isatont
hebed
Hi
m:"
Kadl
alasweet
ymahni
,
mypancake,
i
roningboar
dy adaddy,
youaret
hemost
gorgeousgi
rlI
'
v eevermet,
tl
osunedaddynana
maan"
Wekissed,
hej
ustknowswhi
chbut
tonst
opr
ess
andwhen

Hi
m:"
DamnIl
ovet
hisbaboon"
Me:
"Voet
sek"

Thi
sguyt
houghI
'
m suddenl
y"Baboon"t
ohi
m
now
Shoot
!!
!Sor
ryIgotcar
ri
edaway
,byt
hewayI'
m
Ler
atoMofokengaged19andt
hisi
smystor
y.

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eLov
e
I
nser
t1
Yohwill
aper sonevergetsomebeaut ysleepin
thi
shouse,therewassomest rangenoises
comingfrom downstai
rs,butwhywouldt hey
makesuchanoi seI
'
m sti
llsl
eepingandthat'
s
rude
[
DoorOpens]
OhGosh,
jbur
iedmy
sel
fundermypi
l
low

Makhadzi
:
"Ndi
Matshel
oni
Ler
ato"
shepour
ed
col
dwateronme
Me:"Whatt
hehellMakhadzi,
youcomehere
t
ell
i
ngme" ndimatshel
oni,
ndimatshel
oni
"ndi
matshel
onimybehindgetout!
!!"
Makhadzi
:
"Tshi
i
mot
shashi
shi
?(excuseme?
?)
Me:
"Justl
eav
e"
Shecamet
owar
dsme
Makhadzi:"
Watchy
ourwordswheny ouspeak
t
ome, al
ltheot
hermai
densareal
readyatthe
v
il
lagewhatar
eyoust
il
ldoi
ngher
e"
Vi
l
lagef
orwhat
??
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryMa,
butwhymustIber
obbedof
f
mysl
eept ogot
osomev i
l
lage"
Makhadzi:
"Hei
ijustwakeupstopaski
ng
quest
ions,y
ourhusbandiscomingoutt
oday
"
Ohhh
Me:
"Oh,
sowhatmustIdo?
?"
Shegav
esomecl
othes
Makhadzi
:"Weart
hese"
Me:
"Wher
e'sashi
rt"
Shechuckl
ed
Makhadzi
:"Havey
ouev
erseenv
irgi
nmai
dens
wear
ingshir
ts"
Me:
"Haa,mar
aI'
mtheChi
ef'
swifewhyshoul
dI
t
akepartint
heDombaDance"
Makhadzi
:"Youaskt
oomanyquest
ions,
you
haven'tr
eached21y
etandy
oust
il
lav
irgi
nso
getready"
Yoh!
!!
Me:
"Thi
sishumant
raf
fi
cki
ngi
nVendav
ersi
on"
Makhadzi
:
"Dohav
eany
thi
ngt
ohi
de"
Shest
art
edr
ighti
nmyey
es
Me:
"No,
noI
'
llbedownst
air
sinaf
ewmi
nut
es"
Shel
eft
HumanTr aff
icki
nginatradit
ionalversi
onIt
ell
you,whyshouldweparadeshi r
tl
essfor
someoneasi fhe'
sspecial
,Ijusthatemy
parentsf
orsendingmet othi
sf amily
...
.
I'
ll
beat t
endingtheDombaDancei ntheVenda
culturewhenamanhasabr okenhear tbecause
oft helossofhislovedone.
Inhissorrowhe
wal kedintoLakeFundudziatwhicht i
mehe
turnedintoapy thon.Thi
spart
icularpythonis
thegodoff ert
il
it
yandcaresforthecropsand
whoispacifi
edannuall
ybythepouringof
sacr
if
ici
albeerontothewaterandbyy oung
vi
rgi
nVendamai densperfor
mingthefamous
Domba-pythondance.I
'
m notVendabutIhav e
toat
tendsinceI'
m Vendamyt radi
ti
on

Iqui
ckl
ytookt
hosewetsheet
sof
fthebedand
wenttobat
h.
Iworemyassignedclothi
ngandwent
downstai
rswhereeveryonewasreadytol
eav
e.
Weleftandar
riv
edatt hev i
l
lagewher
ewewill
awai
ttheret
urnoftheChi ef

Tshepo
Hi I
'
m TshepoMojapelo,
Rato'
sfi
rstl
ove,
I'
m
current
ly25year
sandstil
ll
ivewithmyparents,
well mymom,daddiedyear
sagoatt hearmy,
I
don'tcomefr
om ar ichf
ami l
ywearejustan
ordinar
yfami
lytr
yinghardtogetthr
oughadai l
y
basis,
I'
m at axidr
iverbuttr
ustmei twasnotby
choiceIforcedbyci r
cumstances,I'
vebeen
putti
ngawaysomemoneysot hatIcoul dgo
studyformechani calengi
neeri
ng,Ilovef i
xi
ng
carsbutI'dalsowantt oseemy sel
fatt hetop
fi
xingaeroplanes,shipsandmor emot ors,
I
knowi t
'sadr eam butIbeli
evethatdreamsdo
comet rue.
I'
vebeenwai t
ingforhoursforRat ot oarr
ive,i
t'
s
ourfourthyearanniversarytodayandIhad
goneal l
out,Itooksomemoneyf rom myVar si
ty
savi
ngandpl annedaspeci aldinnerdatefor
her,
buttheissuei sthatshehasn' tarri
ved
yet,
thisi
sdef ini
tel
ynothowIhadpl annedt hi
s
evening,
Itr
iedcal l
i
ngherandl efttonsof
messages
Iswi
tchedof
fthecandl
esandgotunder
cov
ers

Ler
ato
Thisceremonyt
ookl
ongert
hanIhadexpect
ed
theChiefi
sbackani
sbusyargui
ngwi
thhis
aunt,
Makhadzi

Iwentt
omyroom sinceIwast ir
ed,Iswit
ched
onmyphoneandIhadnumer ousmi ssedcal
l
s
andvoi
cemessagesfrom Tshepo,Iopened
them
"
HiRat
oar
eyoust
il
lcomi
ngI
'
vebeenwai
ti
ng"
"Rat
oit'
sme.
..
agai
npl
easecal
lmewheny
ou
getthi
s"
OhGoshItot
all
yforgotaboutouranni
ver
sar
y,I
shoul
dgo,
butit
'sl
atebutI'
m going

Isnuckedoutofthehouseandthedr
iverdr
ove
met oTshepo'
sandIcall
edhim
"
Hel
l
o"hegr
oanedf
rom hi
ssl
eep
Me:
"Comeopent
hedoor
"
Hehungupandcamet oopenthedoorand
wentst r
aighttohi
sroom,
bathongno"Hi Rato"
today,Il
ockedandwenttohisroom,
hewas
standingbyhisbedsoIwentandhuggedhi m
from behind.
..
Me:
"I
'm sosor
rybaby
"
Him:"
Likeyoursor
rywoul
dbri
ngmymoney
back,
allIwant
edwasaquieteveni
ngwi
thy
ou"
Me:
"ButI
'
m her
enow"
Hi
m:"
Themoodi
srui
ned,
goodni
ghtLer
ato"
Hemustbepissedhe'
snev
ercal
l
edmebymy
f
ull
namebefore..
.
Me:
"OK,
I
'l
lgoI
'
mreal
l
ysor
rybabe"
Him:"
Justsleepyou'
ll
leav
eint
hemor
ningi
t'
s
dangerousoutther
e"
Funnyhowhest
il
lcar
esev
ent
houghhi
sangr
y
Itookofmycl
othesandsleptwi
thmy
undergar
ment
s.Hehuggedmef r
om behi
nd.
..
Hi
m:"
Nanal
ookatme"
If
acedhi
m
Hi
m:"
Don'
tbl
amey
our
sel
fOK"
Me:"
Buti
t'
smyfaul
tthaty
ourmoneywent
downthedr
ain"
Hehel
dmet
ight
er
Hi
m:"
Doy
oubel
i
evei
nGod?
?"
Me:
"Iguess"
Him:"
Godisgreatbaby,he'
l
lgrantmewi t
h
manymor ebl
essing,atl
eastIeastIl
ostthe
moneydoingsomet hi
ngforyouandt hat
'
s
becauseIl
oveyouI '
ddoitagainifIhadto"
Me:
"Soy
ounotangr
y"
Him:"
No,Iknowy ouhadt
oper
for
myourwi
fel
y
duti
es,
let
'sjustsl
eep"
Heheldmesoclosetohim,
aft
eraf
ewmi
nut
es
Icoul
dhearhi
m snor
ingsof
tl
y
Her
eal
l
ylov
esmedoesn'
the
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eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t2

Thendo
Ndaa,Iam ThendoNel uonde, 35yearsof
age,I'
m abusinessmanbutal soChiefofa
suppor ti
ngVendaclan,aboutmyper sonal
it
yI'
d
rathernotgetint
oitbutj ustsoyouknowI '
ma
tradi
tionalmanandIdon' tt
akeshit
,Igota
reputati
onofgetti
ngthi ngsdoneinmyown
way .
..

[
Itwasabeaut
if
ulSundaymor ni
ngandthe
Nel
uondefami
lywasgather
ingaroundt
helong
t
ablehav
ingadecentbr
eakf
astfil
ledwi
th
j
oy,
l
aught
erandhumor
]

Weal
ll
aughed
Me:
"Thosewer
ethegoodol
dday
s"
Makhadzi
:"I
ndeed,
soKhosi(
chi
ef)i
sthe
busi
nessworldst
il
lper
fect
"
It
ookanapki
ntowi
pemymout
h
Me:"
Ee,ever
ythi
ngi
srunningsosmoot
hlyI
'
m
ev
ent aki
ngadayofftoday"
Theyal
ll
ookedateachot
herandl
aughed
Me:
"Ndi
nny
i(what
)??
"
Tendani:
"Justt
hatyounevert
akeabreakmy
l
oveandi t'
sgoodtoseeyoutaki
ngcareof
yoursel
f"ThatwasTendanimybeaut
iful
secondwi f
e
Me:
"Wel
lamanhasgott
otakecar
eofhi
msel
f
Takal
ani
:
"Ar
eyouokt
hough"
Shepl
acedmyhandi
nher
s,she'
smyf
ir
stwi
fe
Me:"
Athidivhi
,j
ustthatI'
m st
il
lconfusedast
o
whyshe'
ddiejustl
ikethatandwor stshewas
pr
egnantanddidn'
ttellasoul
"
Takal
ani
:"Ndiapf
esesaj
ustbest
rongf
or
us,
thewholecl
an"
Me:
"Iwi
l
lmuf
unwawanga"
Makhadzi
:"
Ishoul
dbeleav
ingt
omor
row,
so
Thendoyougott
adoit
"
Do?
??
Me:
"Dowhat
??"
Makhadzi
:
"Br
eakt
hej
ar,
weneedasheetf
or
pr
oof"
Me:"
Pfesii
t'
sst
il
lsoonIst
il
lhav
en'
tgot
tenov
er
Rendani
"
Makhadzi
:"
Younotgetti
nganyyoungerThendo
andthatt
hroneneedsanhei
r"
Fuck!
!!
Me:
"OKf
ine,
wher
eissheany
way"
Makhadzi
:"Mukhada,
comenow!
!!
"
Shecal
l
edoutandwel
aughed,
bloodyMukhada

Tshepo

"
Wakey
,wakeysl
eepyhead"
Shet
urnedandpunchedmei
nthef
ace,
WTF
Me:
"Ouch,
Baboonwhatwast
hatf
or"
Her
:"
Forsnor
ingt
hewhol
eni
ght
"Shegi
ggl
ed
Me:
"I
'm sorr
yNana,
daddywi
l
lmakebr
eakf
ast
t
ofeedthissil
l
yass"
Ispankedherass
Her
:"
Stopi
t"
Sher
ubbedi
tandIspankedi
tagai
n
Me:
"St
opwhat
??"
Her
:"
Whaty
ou'
redoi
ng"
Me:"
OK,
i
t'
sbeenf
oury
ear
sBabooncany
ou
bel
i
evei
t"
Her:
"No,
andwe'vebeent
hroughsomuchwi
th
youlosi
ngyourdad"
Me:
"Andy
oubei
ngt
her
eev
eryst
epoft
heway
"
Ipul
l
edheri
ntoahug
Her:
"Webot hhadabitt
ert
ast
eofli
feandwe
sti
ll
togethert
il
lthi
sver
yday,
nocheat
ing,
no
secret
s,j
ustusbeingi
nlov
e"
[
DoorOpens]

"Boyki
etlohoBoit
umel
oisher
ewi
thmy
granddaughter
"
Shej
ustbar
gedi
nfuckwhatam Igonnadonow
Me:
"Maaaa"
Shej
ustl
eft
,Rat
ost
art
eddr
essi
ng
Me:
"BabeIcanexpl
ain"
Her
:"
NoneedIgetthemessage,l
i
fegoeson,I
'm
marr
iedandt
heti
mehasar r
ivedf
orustoletgo
"
Ihel
dherhands
Me:
"Rat
oletmeex
plai
n"
Shey
ankedherhandsoutofmi
ne
Her
:"No,
Tshepo,
ourli
tt
lefant
asyhadtocometo
anendonewayort heotherandIt
hankyoufor
doi
ngthehonors,
I'
m goingbacktomylovel
ess
marr
iage"
Sheputonhershoesandthrewkey
satmet
hen
l
eftt
heroom andIranaf
terher
Me:
"Rat
owai
t,
Baboon"
Justt
henahotsl
apl
andedonmyf
ace
Her
:"
Boi
tumel
omybl
oodsi
ster
,youhav
ea
chi
l
dwi
thmysi
sterTshepo!
!!"
Tumi
:
"Si
s,
I'
m sor
ry"
Rat
o:"Ishoul
dhav
eknown,
Isawt
hesi
gnsbut
i
gnoredthem"
Shejustbr
okedown, mot hertr
iedcomf orti
ng
herbutshelef
twi t
ht earsf l
owingandIr an
di
smal l
yaft
erherunt i
l shegoti nt
ot hetaxiand
gavemeadi rt
ylook,Ideser veitbutIsweari t
wasaoneni ghtthi
ng, Iwasgonnat ell
herbutit
wasv er
yhardtrustme. ..

Ler
ato

Doy ouknowneedl es,

yesneedles,theyseem
tobepi erci
ngmyhear t,Iar
riveattheRoy al
housewi thwar mtearsrunninguncontrol
lable,
I
tr
yst oppingthem butmyey esfail
meast he
paininsidemei sunbearableandundesi r
able
Ientert
hehouseandfi
ndthewholef
amil
y
si
tti
ngandsippi
ngsomewi ne,
howIwi
shI
coul
dhav eahappyf
amilyofmyownsome
day.
..

Makhadzi
:"Heh,
Mukhadadi
dn'
tsl
eepathome"
Shecl
appedherhandsonce
Ij
ustl
ookedatherast
het
ear
sfl
ew
Me:"
Don'ty
ougett i
redofIllt
reati
ngme
Ma,
pleasestopithurt
s,I
'm al
sohumanandIgot
emoti
onswhi chIcanhidebutrightnow,
ri
ght
nowI'
m notinthemoodofhi dinghowIfeel,
j
ust
l
eavemeal oneMa"
Iranupthestai
rstomyr oom andshutt
hedoor
thenl
ocked,andletal
lthepai
nescapemysore
body.
..
.
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eLov
e
I
nser
t3

Inmymi ndt hewor ldisupsi dedownandpeopl e

aretumbl i
ngdown, Ijustdon' tgeti twhywoul d
Tshepodeci det osl eepwi t
hmysi st er,topofi t
allt
heyhav eabr at.
That '
sal lTshepoev er
wantedachi ldtocal lhi
m" daddy "rightnowhe
hasev er yt
hingheneeds, hewon' tcar eaboutme
anymor e.Ist i
llcan'tbeliev ethatf oury ear sjust
wentdownt hedr ain,wor dofadv ice" nev er
beli
ev einmen"t hesecr eat urest elly ouexact l
y
whaty ouwantt ohearanddot heexact
opposi te,asf ormysi sterat ypical whor eshe
hastwoki dsf r
om di f
ferentf athersaddi ng
Tshepo' sbr att ot hetroopi t'
st hree,y eahshe
hasthr eeki dsf rom di ff
er entfather s,Isohat e
herri
ghtnowt hatIwantt opoi sont hatl itt
le
bratofher s,
y eahI 'm gonnapoi sont hat
chil
d,shecan' ttakemyf ame, Tshepol ov esme
notsomebratf
rom mysist
er,
hehastogi
veme
hi
sundiv
idedat
tent
ionnotthatchi
l
dshehast
o
di
e..
.
Ihear
daf
aintknockonmydoor
Me:
"Goaway
"
"
Youcan'
tbel
ockedupi
nther
efor
ever"
Me:
"Takal
ani
justl
eav
e"
Her
:"
I'
ll
wai
tti
l
lyouopen"
What
ever
Me:
"Fi
nej
ustcomei
n"
Shegoti
nandsatont
hebed
Her
:"Iknowyoupr
obabl
ytr
yingt
ofi
gur
eout
whyI'
m her
e"
Me:
"Car
etoexpl
ain?
?"
Her:
"Ther
e'sayoungman,hesaysheneedsto
t
alktoyouitsur
gent,
Ithi
nkregar
dingschool
"
Me:
"Asy
oucanseeI
'
m notmy
sel
fcar
etosend
hi
m up"
Shesmi
l
ed
Her:
"Sur
ejustmakei
tsnappybef
oret
heChi
ef
ar
ri
veswedon'twantt
obedeadnowdowe"
Me:
"No,
thanky
ouTakal
ani
"
Shehel
dmyhands
Her
:"
Any
timesweet
y"
Shel eft
,t
hat
'sjustthethingaboutTakalani
she'ssweetandcar ingshe'stheonlyonewho
hasbeenni cetomei nthishouse,t
henyou
comet oMakhadz i
,sher eal
lyhatesmyguts
andIhat eherstooshej ustdriv
esme
crazy,backt
or eal
it
y
[
DoorOpens]
Andi
t'
sTshepoIshoul
dhav
eknown,
sfebese
Me:
"Obat
langmowena"
Hi
m:"
Kopahoexpl
ain'
a"
Me:"Ther
e'snoreasonabl
eexpl
anati
onf orwhat
youdidTshepo,
sleepingwi
thmysisterand
giv
ingherachil
d,thentel
lmeeverynightthat
youlovemeandshi t,
Imeanwhodoest hat
Tshepohuh??"
Him:
"Rat
osi
tdownandl
et'
stal
kaboutt
hisas
adul
ts"
Me:"
Don'tt
ell
meaboutadult
swena,whatdo
youknowaboutadult
hoodwhenyoubehavi
ng
l
ikeafucki
ngbrat
!!
"
Iscr
eamedathi
m
Him:"Warasa,
l
ooky esIsleptwit
hyour
sist
er,
andyesIenjoyedthesexverymuchat
thatsopl
easestopbeingachi l
dandgrowup
weneedt oputthi
sbehindusandf ocusont
he
chil
d"
Ididn'texpecthi
mtosaythatheenjoyi
ngt
he
sex,Ididn'
twanthimt
osayt hat
,i
thurt
sme,and
emot ionsfail
edmeagai
nandIbegant ocr
y
Me:"
Youcango,
Idon'
twantt
ohearhowy
oudi
d
i
t"
Hi
m:"
Rat
obabyI
'
m sor
ryt
hatcameouti
na
wr
ongway"
Me:"LookI'm abiggir
landIcanhandl
e
everyt
hingt hatcomesmyway ,
asyousaidy
ou
needtof ocusony ourchi
l
d,j
ustl
eavefor
get
thatyouev ermetme"
Him:"
I'
m notgoi
ngany
wher
eLer
atoy
ouhav
eto
l
ist
entome"
Me:
"Sayy
ourpi
eceandl
eav
e"
Hesatnextt
ome
Him: "
Remembert heyearbeforewemet ,
whenI
foundoutaboutdadhav i
ngcancer ,
Idrovetoa
clubandt hat
'swher
eImety oursisterandyou
knowhowshei s,
weendedupdoi ngi t
,t
henshe
fellpr
egnantandIadvihert
ol eav
eunt il
she
givesbir
th"
Ohhhh
Me:
"That
'swhyshej
ustl
eft
"
Him:
"Yesbabytrustmethishappenedbefor
e
wemet ,
Iwasjustafr
aidt
ot el
lyoubecauseI
knewyou'dgocrazyonme"
Isl
appedhi
m
Me:"That
'sf
orcall
i
ngmecr azy,y
oushoul
dhav
e
tol
dmef rom t
heverybegi
nning,nowIwas
gonnadosomet hi
ngreal
lybad"
Hi
m:"
What
??"
Me:"
Iwasgonnapoisony
ourchi
l
d,buti
twas
j
ustastupi
didea"
If
iddl
edwi
thmyf
inger
sandher
oseup
Hi
m:"Nana,don'
tyouev
ergett
hoseki
ndsof
i
deasinyourheadOK"
Me:
"Yessowecool
??"
Hi
m:"
Wecool
skeem"
Me:
"Auwel
a"
Wef
istpumped
Andhuggedf
oraf
ewmi
nut
es,
justr
eleasi
ng
thet
ensi
on
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eakabl
eLov
e

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nser
t4

Tshepo
ThankGodImadeupwi ththatchi cknowit'
s
ti
meIpl anmysecondmov e,phelaLeratoi
smy
ti
ckettosuccesswhydoy out hinkIsti
ll
remainedherboy f
riendevent houghshe's
marri
ed, i
t'
sallaboutthemoneybaby. Her
marit
al f
amilyissoooorich,Ij
ustneedt o
convi
nceheri ntodoingsomet hingbigforme..
..
Tumi
:
"Babyar
en'
tyoucomi
ngbackt
obed"
Sheaskedwi
thhersweetv
oice
Me:"I
'
m comi
ngsweet
hear
tjustgetr
eadyf
or
papa"
Shegi
ggl
ed,Isolov
eherev
ent
houghshe'
sa
l
it
tl
eol
derthanIam

Ler
ato

I'
m sohappythatImadeupwit
hmybaby,I
knewthatTshepowouldnev
erplaywi
thmy
heart
..
.
Igetoutofbedonthi
sfait
hfulmorningandhit
theshower,
aft
eracoupleofminutesaknock
l
andedonmydoor ,
Iquickl
ygrabbedat owel
to
wrapmybody .
..
Me:
"Comei
n"
[
DoorOpens]
Thendo:
"Goodt
hingy
ouar
eawake"
Me:
"Sur
ecanIhel
pyou?
?"
Hi
m:"
Takeof
fthatt
owel
it'
sti
me"
Pl
easegi
vemeabr
eak
Me:
"Li
ker
ightnow?
?"
Hi
m:"
Yes,
l
et'
sgett
hisov
eranddone"
Me:"
Can'
twepost
ponei
ttol
ater
,Ir
eal
l
yhav
eto
got
oschool
"
Him:
"Bei
ng30minut
esl
atewon'
thur
t,
I'
l
ltake
yout
heremysel
f"
Thener
vesar
eki
cki
ngi
n
Me:
"OK,
her
egoesnot
hing"
Idropthetowelonthefloor
,andhestar
ted
runninghi
shandsallovermybodymakingme
feelsooouncomfy,
butIhavetodothisfort
he
sakeofmymot her.
Thenhet akeshi
s"ni
gga"
outandj
ustshov
esi
tinandIgaspi
npai
n..
Me:"
Pleasetakei
touty
ou'
rehur
ti
ngme"
hej
ust
goesindeeper
Me:
"Pl
easest
op!
!!
"
Pop!
!!
!!
!!
!,
hej
ustpoppedt
hecher
ry,
Iseebl
ood
al
lovert
hesheets.
..
.
Him:"
Thatwasnothar
dnowwasi t,I
'
llt
ake
thi
s(t
hesheet
)tot
heelder
s,j
ustcl
eanyour
sel
f
up"
HeleftandIwentbackintheshower
,cryi
ng
won'tbri
ngbackmyv i
rgi
nitynowwil
lit
,soI
hav
et obeproudthatIam nowawoman. ..
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17:
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t5

Ler
ato
Aft
ertakingashoweragai n,Iquickl
ydr essed
andwor eahoodie,noonewant stoseemyhai r
hl
ehor rort
rustme, anywayIf eel sodirtyinmy
mindIimaginedmyv irgi
nitybeingt akenbyt he
manIl ovewholeheartedlyinar omant ictypeof
way,
aguywhowoul dtellmenott obeaf r
aid,
butthenthat'
sjustinmyheadr i
ght.

Iwenttothedini
ngar eaandtheyallstar
ted
ul
ulati
ngandimmedi atel
yIhadt hi
surgetocry
becauseitwasasiftheyarecelebrat
ingmy
downfall
,
tear
sjustfai
ledmeandr anacrossmy
cheeks.
..
Makhadzi
:"Wi
pethosetear
s,wewanta
gr
andchil
dbefor
ethisweekends.
"
Hehthesepeople,
theythi
nkt
heyownme
shame,butt
heydoImustkeepmyheadup
becauseI'
m doi
ngt hi
sformymother
..
.
Irodewi t
hThendotoschoolandhe
accompani edmetocl
assthentookouthis
walletandgavemeaf ewtwohundredrand
notes..
Him:
"You'
ll
catchacabhome,andpl
easedo
somethi
ngIcan'tbesl
eepi
ngwi
thsomeone
wholooksli
kethis"
Thenhel ef
t,
thenerv
eoft hi
sguyt hough, l
ucki
ly
thelect
ureswenttoawor kshopsoI '
llhave
somet i
met ocatchupwi t
hmybest i
es,Iwalk
towardsthem andsitdown,Ihav
et wof ri
ends
i
t'sKabeloandNtombi .
..

Me:
"Myf
avor
it
epeopl
e"
Nt
ombi
:
"Heygi
rl
"
Kbj
ustl
ookeddown,
sowei
rd
Me:
"Kabel
obot
hat
a??
"
Hi
m:"
Not
hinggi
rl
,j
ustt
hatwehav
esomet
hing
t
otel
lyou"
Me:
"Tel
lmeal
ready"
Ntombi:
"WesawTshepowi
thy
oursi
stoday
beingal
ll
oveydov
ey"
Me:
"NoguysTshepoandImadeupandhe
madeitcl
eart
hathi
srel
ati
onshi
pwit
h
Boi
tumeloi
nvol
vest
hechil
donly"
KB:
"I
'm af
rai
dhewasl
yi
ngt
oyou"
Me:"Guyskatsebahoreyoudon' tl
i
keTshepo
butpleasest
opt ry
ingtosabotageour
rel
ati
onshiporelsethi
sfri
endshipwil
lbeover
soon!!"
Igotupandlef
t,Il
ovemyfr
iendsbutt
his
hatr
edtheyhaveformymanhastocomet oan
end.
..

Thendo
Makhadzi
!!
!!Hay
ithi
swomancant
alk,
she
keepsrepeat
ingt
hesamet
hingi
ndi
ff
erent
versi
on.
..
Me:
"Yes,
I
'l
ldoso"
Her
:"Anddon'
tl
etany
onet
ouchher
"
Me:"
YesMakhadzi
Ihear
dyou,
cani
gonowI
hav
eameeting"
Her
:"
I'
ll
seey
ouwhent
hegi
rlhasconcei
ved"

ThankGodshe'
sleav
ing,
Icanf
inal
l
yli
vei
n
peace

Tshepo
OhFuckmogalwabor
ashame,
can'
tshej
ust
l
eaveal
ready
..
.
Her:
"Andbabyt
heyhavet
henerv
et otur
nme
agai
nstyousay
ingyouar
est
il
lwithTumi"
Gr
eatmypl
ani
sbei
ngcompl
ete
Me:"
Theycr
azybabe,
youknowyou'
ret
heonl
y
oneforme,
youshoul
dgetawayfr
om f
ri
ends
l
iket
hat"
Her
:"Your
ight
,Mar
ayousodi
stantt
odaywhat
'
s
up"
Gr
eat
!!
!
Me:
"Ei
shbabeIdon'
thav
ethemoneyt
opayf
or
mybaby'
sdaycar
e"
Shet
ookoutherwal
l
et
Her
:"
Her
ebabesor
titout"
Me:
"You'
ret
hebestRat
o"

Ikissedher,
she'ssostupi
dcan'tsheseeI
'm
playingher,
wellthesecondphaseiscomplet
e
turni
ngheragai nstt
hoseclev
erfri
endsof
hers,yougoingdownLerato

[
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06,
17:
50]St
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e
I
nser
t6

✴ Ler
ato✴

Hepul
l
edoutandexpl
odedal
lov
erme.
..
Me:
"OhMrTshepocansur
edohi
sthi
ng"
Hecaughthi
sbr
eat
h
Hi
m:"
Yesbabyt
urnar
ound"

Hest art
edpoundi ngmef rom behind,
guywas
sweat i
ngandwel lIdon'tknowi fheisgood
withthissexthingybutassoonasheunzi pped
histr
ousersandl ethis"nigga"runwildIwas
real
lydisappointedIr eal
lythoughthehada
huget hi
ngy butt henhet ookitoutandallI
sawi sadisgracet ohumanki ndsuchasmal l
di
ck.
..
.

"
Ohhhshi
tRat
o"
Heexpl
odedt
henpul
l
edoutandl
ayedonhi
s
back
Hi
m:"
Howwasi
tbaby
??"
Me:
"I
twasgood"
If
akedasmi
l
e
Iwentt
ocl
eanmy
sel
fup
Me:
"Letmegetgoi
ngbabe,
it'
slat
e"
Hi
m:"
Yeahsur
eletmewal
kyouout
"
Hescr
atchedhi
shead
Me:
"Pr
obl
em?
?"
Hi
m:"Ei
sh,y
ouknowtomorrowi
stheduedat
e
f
ortheregi
str
ati
onsandI
'
m shor
tofmoney"
Ohpoort
hing,
Ifi
l
ledi
nachequef
orhi
m and
gav
eitt
ohi
m
Him:"
R20000Rat
o,t
hiswi
l
lwi
pey
ourbank
account
"
Me:
"Justt
akei
tanddowhaty
ouhav
etodo"
Hi
m:"
Thanks"
Hehuggedme

Thendo
Wheret
hef ucki
nghellist
hatSothogir
l,i
t'
s
22:
03al
readyandshehasn' tar
ri
vedweshould
beonoursixthroundbynow,Ipourmyself
somewhiskey,gulpedi
tononegoandwentt o
herr
oom,she'snotsleepi
ngtodayI'
l
lshowher.

AfterafewminutesIcouldhearsomeone
cli
mbingupthestair
s,shecomesinsi
dethe
room andIgaveherahotslap
Me:
"Wher
ethehel
ldoy
oucomef
rom?
?"
Her:
"Af
ri
end'shouse,
wewer
edoi
ng
homework"
Shehel
dhercheekandIgav
eheranot
hersl
ap
Me:
"Doy
out
hinkI
'
m st
upi
dgi
rl
y"
Her
:"
No,
notatal
l
"
Me:
"Thenwhyar
eyoul
yi
ngt
ome"
Ipunchedherfucki
ngfacetoapul
p,Iki
cked
thosekneessothatnextt
imeshecomeshome
l
ateshe'l
lknowwhathappens
Her
:"
Stop,
you'
rehur
ti
ngme"
Shecr
ied
Me:"
Takeof
fthosecl
otheswear
emaki
nga
baby
"
Shebegantoundr
esswit
hcrocodi
l
etear
s
st
reamingdownherugl
yface
Me:
"Comebi
tchopenupt
hoset
highs"
Sheopenedt
hem
Me:
"Wi
der
!!
!"
Ipartedherthi
ghsandent er
edmyselfhard,
thi
s
bit
chwasj ustscreami ngnonst
op,
Ireleasedin
herthenwentf orround
two,t
hree,
four,
fiv
e,si
x,seven

Thet
imewas03:
17whenIpul
l
edout
..
.
"
CanIsl
eepnow"
Sweetv
oice
Me:"
No!!!
Wehav et
omakeababy
r
emember ,comeonnowony
ourkneessuck
t
hiscock"
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eLov
e

I
nser
t7

Ler
ato
Voi
ce:
"Mi
ssNel
uonde"
If
eltsomeoneshaki
ngme
Me:
"Huh?
?"
I
twasmyl
ect
urer
Hi
m:"
Classi
sov
er"
Me:
"Ohsor
ryf
orsl
eepi
ngsi
r"
Him:
"It
'
sokj
ustmakesur
eitdoesn'
thappen
agai
n"

Il
efttheclassr
oom andNtombiandKabel
o
weresitt
ingatourspot,
Ij
ustpassedt
hem and
l
eft
...

Mywholebodyisachi
ng,
mykneesareweak
andI
'
m evenli
mpingasIwalkandnotto
ment
ionthebr
uisesonmyface,
horr
if
icItel
l
you,myv agi
nalareaisalsoal it
tl
ebruisedafter
allt
hev i
olat
ionsdoneoni t.
I'
m sotir
edoft hi
s
l
ifeattheageofni neteenIshoul dbeoutthere
partyi
ngandhav i
ngf un,changingboyfri
ends
l
ikepanties,
butnoooLer at
oisawi feandis
tr
yingforababy ,
whatwi llIevendowi thachild,
myl i
feisscrewedup. .
.

Tr
ing,
Tri
ng

Me:
"Tshepi
"
Hi
m:"Hi
sweet
hear
t,
comeatsi
sDee'
sfastf
ood
f
ast"
Me:
"OK,
I
'm onmyway
"

Tshepo
Thedayhasfi
nall
yarr
ivedIcan'
twai
ttoseeher
facewhenshehearst
henews. .
..
Tumi
:
"Iwonderwhatshe'
l
ldobabe"
Me:
"Rel
ax,
she'
l
lbeher
esoonst
handwa"
Ipul
l
edhercl
oserandki
ssedhersof
tli
ps
"
Tshepowhatt
hehel
lar
eyoudoi
ng!
!"
Ipul
l
edoutf
rom ourki
ssandl
ookedather
..
.
Me:"
OhLer
atomissdr
amaqueenj
ustsi
tand
st
opembarr
assi
ngyoursel
f"
Rat
o:"
NoI
'
llst
andwhyam Iher
e??
"
Me:"
Ohstr
aightt
othepoi
ntIl
i
ke,
Tumi
myl
ove
t
ell
her"
Rat
o:"
Yourl
ove?
?"
Me:
"Hei
ishutupandl
i
stensf
ebe"
Tumi:
"OhRat
oIsohatetobethecarr
ierofbad
news,
butf
ir
stofal
lIwoul
dli
ketothanky oufor
blessi
nguswi thmoneyal
lthisti
me,
ourhouse
i
scompl eteandourbabygirl
isinaperf
ect
daycarethankstoyou,
any
wayt hemainpoi
nti
s
thatyouwer eadopt
ed"
Rat
o:"
Iwaswhat
??"
Tumi:"
Eishosl owmahn,actual
lyt
heyfoundyou
i
nasewagepi pethenboughtyouhomeand
rai
sedy ou,
thenmarri
edy ouint
osomef amil
yso
thatt
heycoul dli
veamor ebett
erli
feusi
ngyou
ofcoarse"
HehI
'
mlov
ingt
his.
Rat
o:"
Stopl
yi
ngBoit
umel
o,ourpar
entwoul
d
nev
erdosuchathi
ng"
Tumi:
"Mypar ent
shun,t
hinkofitLer
atoy
ou
werealwayssecondbest,doi
ngthe
cooki
ng,cl
eaninget
c."
Rat
o:"
OhIgeti
tsoy
ouwer
eal
lpl
ayi
ngme"
Me:
"Fi
nal
l
ysheget
sit
,Inev
erl
ovedy
ouLer
atoi
t
wasal
lapl
ay"
Shej
ustr
ushedoutoft
her
ecr
ying.
..
Tumi
:
"Wegotherbabe"
Me:
"Yeahwedi
d,l
et'
sgetout
taher
e"

Bi
tchWentDown
[
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t8

SoTshepor eal
lytookmef orar idealongone
atthat,
afouryearride,
Ithoughthewast he
one,t
hathelovedme, butclearlyIwas
wrong.Andaboutmypar entsIr eal
lyneed
answers,Igott
awi petheset earsandcall
MaTumel o
Ir
ingedherandshepi
ckedupi
mmedi
atel
y.
..

Me:
"MaTumel
odumel
a"
Her
:"
Dumel
aRat
ohowar
eyoumybaby
"
Cutt
hecr
apal
ready
Me:
"Ar
eyoumyr
eal
par
ent
".
Her
:"Babywher
edoest
hatquest
ioncome
f
rom"
Me:"
Justanswert
hedamnquest
ion
MaTumelo"
Her:
"OKyouwantthetrut
h,t
henI'
l
lgiv
ei tt
oy ou,
noI'
m noty
ourmot herIf
oundyouandt hought
youweremyti
ckett oagoodli
feandyou
are,
j
ustl
ookatt
hehouseI 'mli
vi
nginrightnow"
Me:
"Wer
eyouev
ensi
ck?
?"
Her:
"Nodarl
ingt
here'
sthi
sthi
ngcal
led
pr
etenceIdon'
tknowifyouknowabouti
t"
Shel
aughed
Me:"Yourl
i
ttl
efai
rytal
ewil
lbeov
erassoonas
Thendohearsaboutthi
s"
Her"
Hahahaha,
heal
readyknows,nowjustbea
goodwif
eandmakebabi esal
lshall
bealri
ght"
Me:
"Youwi
l
lpayf
ort
his"
Her
:"
Keepdr
eami
ng"
Me:
"Godwi
l
ldeal
wit
hyoual
l
"
Shej
ustl
aughedanddr
oppedt
hecal
l
...

¶¶Nar
att
ed¶¶
Ntombi andKabeloweresitt
inganddiscussi
ng
thi
smat teraboutLer
ato,
theydeci
dedt hatt
hey
wil
lremai nbei
ngherfri
endandsuppor ti
ngher
eventhoughshe'snastytowardsthem, t
hey
beli
evethatshe'l
lcomearound
TshepoandBoitumelol ef
tSouthAfr
icaand
wenttoMozambi quetost artanewli
fe
ther
e,l
eavi
ngtheirdaughterandBoit
umelo'
s
twoboy swi
ththeirparents

Thendo
YeahIl i
kewhatIsee, t
hebitchishomeear ly
today,
Ilostahugedeal todayandI'm pret
ty
frust
rated,I
'l
ltakeoutal lmyfrust
rati
onsonher
fucki
ngpussy ,herpussyi sthebestIreall
ycan'
t
getenoughofi t
,all
Ieverwannadoi st ofuck
herallnight
,themoi st
ureandwar mthinthere
i
soutoft hi
swor ld..
.

I
'm nowlayi
ngnakedinherroom assheent
ers
wit
ht ear
sfi
ll
ingherey
es.
..
Me:"
Heywipethosetearsawayandcomesuck
t
hiscock,
Iknowyoudon'thavecl
asses
t
omor r
owsowe'llbefucki
ngthewholeni
ght
andt
hewhol
eoft
omor
row"
Her:
"Canyoujustgi
vemeabr
eak,
I
'm swol
l
en
andithur
ts"
Me:"
Int
hatcasey
ouneeddoct
erdi
ck,
comeon
youwast
ingti
megir
ly"

Shejustsl
i
ddownandcr i
ed, I
'v
enev erheard
someonecryliket
hatbefore,Isomehowf el
t
sor
ryforher,
butIst
il
lneedt hatpussy..
.
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I
nser
t9

Ithasbeenexactlyfourmont hssinceIwas
kickedoutli
kear agatt heNeluonde
household,
thi
ngisIf oundoutt hatIwas
pregnantbutthe"Mai ne"(v
endasangoma)
predict
edthatthechildwasnotofNel uonde
bloodmeani ngt hatt hechildI '
m car ry
ingi s
Tshepo' schi ld.Heal soseemedt ohav e
vanishedt hrought hi
nai rbecauseIhav en'tsaw
him sincef orever.Lif
ehasbeent oughsi nceI
didn'thaveany onet odependonbutmy self
,
l
uckilyt hebur saryiscov eringmyf eesand
booksal lIhav et odoi smai ntai
nmy selfand
theper sonI '
m car ryi
ngi nsideme. SoIhadt o
fi
ndaj ob,Iwor knightshi ft
satacl ubandi t'
s
reall
yt i
eringbutIhav et odoi tinor derto
survive,int hemor ningi t
'sschool andatni ght
i
t'swor kIcanj ugglet henbot h.I
'm cur r
ent l
y
l
ivinginaoner oom apar t
mentwhi chIcan
affordandal thoughl if
eisr oughatt hemoment
I'
mj ustgl adt hatIgotawayf rom Thendoand
hisabusi vesel fmymi ndi sfinal
lyatease.

Ij
ustfi
nishedwri
ti
ngmyt estwhichIhad
missedbecauseIover
sleptbutmylectur
erwas
ki
ndenought ol
etmewr it
eittoday.
AnywayI'
m
i
ntolawsonot hinghecticbuty ougottaread
andstudyhardifyouwantt hatdegreewhichis
whatI'v
ebeendoi ngforthepastf ewmont hs.I
getoutofclassandfindmymunchi eswaiti
ng
forme,ohIforgottoment ionthatImadepeace
withmyf r
iendsitwasv erystupidandidi
ot i
cof
met obeli
eveaf ouryearguyov ermyl i
feterm
fri
ends.

Nt
ombi
:
"Youcanst
opsmi
l
ingRat
o"
Ist
oott
her
esmi
l
ingl
i
kear
etar
d
KB:
"She'
sdaydr
eami
ng"
Me:
"I
'm notandIl
ovey
ouguy
s"
Nt
ombi
:
"Aowwwel
ovey
out
ooRat
o"
Wethengroupedhuggedandf et
chedourfood
fr
om thecafet
eri
a,
wewer enowsitti
ngdown
chat
ti
ng,gossi
pingaboutrandom st
uff
..
.
KB:
"Youl
ookl
i
key
ouar
eni
nemont
hspr
egnant
"
Wel
aughed
Me:
"Tel
lmeabouti
t,
I'
m sooof
at"
Nt
ombi
:
"Andugl
y"
Me:
"Voet
sekwena"
KB:
"Okmybeaut
if
ull
adi
esIl
ovey
oubutIgot
ta
hi
tthegy
m"
Me:
"Gr
eatThandof
orus"
KB:
"YeahI
'
llf
uckhergood"
Nt
ombi
:
"Toomuchi
nfo"
KB:"
EishIalmostf
orgotmymom sai
dIshoul
d
gi
veyouthis"
Hegav
emeal
unchboxwi
thf
oodandapackof
pi
l
ls
KB:"Thepi
ll
swil
leaseyourpai
nsandshemade
yourfav
ori
test
ewwi t
hjam"
Me:
"Thanky
ouv
erymuchandpl
easet
ell
mama
she'
sadar
li
ng"
KB:
"Wi
l
ldoby
eladi
es"
Hel
eft
Me:
"Sowena?
?"
Nt
ombi
:
"Nna?
?"
Me:
"Comeony
ouknowwhatI
'
mtal
ki
ngabout
"
Her
:"
Okwedi
dit
"
Me:
"Hebr
oket
hecooki
e??"
Her
:"
YesRat
oandy
esi
twasamazi
ng"
Me:
"Mar
ahowdoy
ouf
eel
??"
Her:
"I
'm goodbesi
dest
hatmynunai
sonf
ir
e
r
ightaboutnow"
Il
aughed
Me:
"Wel
comet
owomanhood"
Her:
"I
'm ev
enol
dert
hatyouar
e,sodon'
ttel
lme
aboutwomanhoodbaby
"
Me:
"Ar
gyouonl
y21wena"
Her
:"
Andy
ouar
eonl
y19"
Shel
aughed
Me:
"Voet
sek,
I'
mleav
ing"
Her
:"
I'
ll
comebyl
ater
"
Me:
"Ok,
seey
ahsweet
y"
Ihuggedherandwentt
omyapar
tmentt
osl
eep
befor
egoingtowork

¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶
Gooddayev er
yoneIam Nt ombif
uthi
Mali21
yearsofage,aXhosagi r
llocat
edinLimpopo,
I
sti
lll
iv
ewi t
hmypar ent
sfornow,Ihaveone
boyfri
endincasey ouarewonderingandI
att
endt heUniver
sityofVendastudyi
ngtowards
pathology.
Byt hewayl astnightIfinall
yhadsex,somethi
ng
thatev er
yonehasbeenbl abbi
ngaboutsayi
ng
howamazi ngitisandi tisgreatIcoulddoi
tall
dayi fIhadto,j
ustkiddingSphamandl aalmost
kil
ledmel astnight,I'
m wi thhi
m asI'
m wrapped
upi nmynaught yt houghts...

Him:"
Ithasbeensai
dthatcur
iosi
tyonceki
l
leda
cat
"
Me:
"I
'm notcur
ious"
Hi
m:"
Youar
eaboutme"
Hehadt
hisl
ousysmi
rkonhi
sface
Me:
"NoI
'
m not
"
Hi
m:"OK,
thenst
opst
ari
ngatmel
i
keI
'
m some
pi
eceofmeat"
Me:
"Mypi
eceofmeat
"
Iwentcl
osert
ohi
m andhemov
edback
Hi
m:"
NoooIknowwhaty
ouwantandI
'
mti
red"
Me:
"But
..
."
Him:
"Nobut
sbabewejusthadli
ke9roundf
or
hour
s,y
ougonnabeaddi
ctedtosex"
If
rowned
Me:
"I
'l
lhav
etof
indmy
sel
fanot
herdi
ckt
hen"
Icur
sedbeneat
hmybr
eat
h
Hi
m:"
Youwoul
dn'
tdar
e"
Hi
sfacechangedi
mmedi
atel
y
Me:
"Rel
ax"
Hi
m:"
Ok,f
ineonel
astr
oundandy
oudoi
ngal
l
t
heworksexy"
HespankedmeandIj
umped.
..
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e

I
nser
t10
¶¶Ler
ato¶¶
Yohhayit
hisgi
rltal
kstoomuch,Ij
ustwokeup
andNtombiisal
readyheret
alki
ngnonstop.
..

Me:
"Whenar
eyougoi
ngt
oshutupmar
a"
Her
:"
WhenIdi
e"
Shegi
ggl
ed,
wit
hhersweetv
oice
Me:"
I'
m gonnabat
hpl
easemaket
hebedand
somethi
ngtoeat"
Her
:"
I'
m noty
ourmai
dwena"
Me:
"Buty
ou'
l
lendupdoi
ngi
tany
way"
Her
:"
BecauseIcar
e"

Af
terafewminut
esIfi
nishedbathingand
dr
essedint
omyunifor
m, f
ixedmyhai randdi
d
myli
pglossupkeepnomake- uptoday.
..
Me:
"Thanksf
ort
hef
ood"
Isai
dasIdugi
n
Her
:"
It
'sonl
yapl
easur
ebabe.
Rat
o??
"
Me:
"Huh"
If
ocusedont
hef
ood
Her
:"
Arey
ousur
eyoucar
ryi
ngonechi
l
d??"
Me:
"Yeahwhy
??"
Her
:"Youbumbishugeforfourmonths,
we
got
tagotothedoctort
ochecktheremightbe
morethanonebabyinther
e"
Shegotapoi
nt
Me:"
Ihopenot,
I
'l
lgotot
hedoct
oronFr
iday
si
nceI'
m notworki
ng"
Her
:"
Per
fect
,I'
l
lgowi
thy
ou"
Me:
"Sur
e,Ishoul
dgetgoi
ng"
Her
:"
Rat
oIdon'
tthi
nky
oushoul
dgot
oday
,j
ust
l
ookaty
ourf
eet"
Me:
"Babej
ustr
elaxI
'
llbef
ine"
Her
:"
Ify
ousaysosweet
y,
I'
l
ldr
opy
ouof
f"

Wewentt ohercaranddroveoff.
Throughout
thi
swholepregnancyKabeloandNtombi have
beenverysupport
iveandIreal
l
yappreciatet
hat
butsometimesIfeell
ikeI
'
m aburdent othem
andthatsucks.
..
"
Andweher
e,t
akecar
eofy
our
sel
fbabe"
Shesmi
l
ed
Me:
"Wi
l
ldobabe"

Iwenti
nsi
det
owor
k

¶¶Kabel
o¶¶
DumelangI'
m KabeloMalebo21years,
Ihav
ea
onebeauti
fulgi
rl
fr
iendandI'
m cur
rentl
y
studyingtowar
dspat
hol
ogyjustl
ikeNtombi
,I
currentl
yli
vewit
hmygir
linourapart
ment.
..

Wear
enowbusyar
gui
ng.
..

Me:
"Comeondon'
tbel
i
ket
hatThando"
Ihel
dherhand
Her:
"NoI'
m si
ckandt
ir
edofthi
sKabelo,
wejust
hadsexandweshoul
dbecuddlingandchat
ti
ng
andall
youthi
nki
ngabouti
sLerato"
Me:"Iknowy oudon'
tli
keherbutshe'
smyf r
iend
andIr eal
l
yhav etot
akethefoodtoher,
shegets
hungryatnight"
Her:
"Areyoufucki
ngher
??Ar
eyout
hef
atherof
herbaby?
? "
I
sshei
nsane
Me:
"Yougoi
ngt
oof
arwi
tht
his,
I
'm notf
ucki
ng
her
,she'
smyf
ri
end"
Her:
"Thenl
eaveheralonetobr
eat
h,y
ouspend
moretimewithhert
hanwi t
hmehowdoyou
t
hinkthatmakesmef eel
"
Me:
"I
'm sor
rymyl
ove"
Her:"
Yeahsheboughtt
hisuponhersel
fshe'
ll
havetodealwi
thit
,wedidn'
tsendhert
osleep
aroundwit
houtpr
otect
ion"
I
sshecr
azy
Me:"Don'ty
oudaresaysheboughtthi
supon
hersel
f,doyouhaveanyideawhatshe'
sbeen
thr
ough"
Her
:"
Idon'
tknowandIdon'
tcar
e"
Me:
"Mx
m,I
'
m goi
ngt
obed"

Thandojustknowshowt
ofuckmeup
someti
mesdamn! !!
¶¶Ler
ato¶¶
It
'sonlybeen4hour sandmyf eetarealready
ki
lli
ngme, Kabelocalledmeear li
erontel
lingme
hewon' tbri
ngmef oodt onight
, Idi
dn'
texpect
himt odoso, Ij
usttoldhimi t'
sfineandthatI
won'tbeneedi ngthef ood.I'
m busystudyingas
I'
m waitingfortheorder,theyplaysoul,
j
azzand
RnBher esoIcanconcent r
ate
"
Orderf
ort
abl
e6"
Iqui
ckl
yst
oodupanddel
i
ver
edi
t
Me:
"Her
eisy
ouror
dergent
lemen,
enj
oy"
Guy
1:"
Thanky
ouNt
ombi
ent
le"
Ismi
led,
thi
sguyhasbeencal
l
ingmet
hatev
er
si
nceIgother
e
Me:
"Ouch!
!"
Guy1:
"Ar
eyouf
ine"
Me:
"YesI
'
mfi
ne"
Ihel
dont hetabl
efordearl
i
fe,myfeetcan'
tget
offt
hefloorIcan'
twal
kandt hepai
nis
unbear
able
Guy
1:"
Arey
ousur
e,mustIcal
lanambul
ance"
Me:"
No,j
usthel
pmewal
ktot
hecount
er,
oh
shi
t!
!"
HestoodupandIhel
dont
ohi
m butst
il
lI
coul
dn'
twalk
Guy
1:"
I'
ll
car
ryy
ou"
Hescoopedmeupandplacedmeonachai
r
andpl
acedmyfeetonanot
herchai
r"
Guy
1:"
Getheal
edNt
ombi
ent
le"
Ismi
l
edathi
m andhewentbackt
ohi
stabl
e
Me:"
Ohfuck,
babywhyar
eyouki
l
li
ngmommy
l
iket
his"
Isai
drubbi
ngmyt
ummy
"
Itol
dyounott
ocome"
Thatwasmyboss,
Cynt
hia
Me:
"Ir
eal
l
yneededt
hemoney
"
Her:
"Butyouarei
nnoshapeofworki
ngLer
ato,
I
bett
hisisyour9t
hmonthri
ght
??"
Me:
"Nof
our
th"
Her:"
Wow,
yourpregnancyisrough,
tell
youwhat
yougohomeandI '
llkeeppayyouf ort
heweek
thencomebacknextweekwheny oufeel
bett
er"
Me:
"Real
l
y??"
Her
:"
Yeahyouar
eoneofmyl oy
alstaff
,soI
'
m
j
ustdoi
ngsomet
hinggener
ousinretur
n"
Me:
"ThanksCy
nthi
athatmeansal
ot"
Shesmi
l
edandwal
kedaway

Ei
sht
hisi
sthewor
stpr
egnancyev
er
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eLov
e

I
nser
t11

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Gu,
Gu,
Gu
That
'st
hesoundofal
oudknockonmydoor
Me:
"Whoi
sit
??"
Ishout
edst
il
li
nbed
"
KeKabel
oRat
o"
Me:"Yoht
akespar
ekeyundert
hematand
open"
Heunl
ockedf
rom out
sideandopenedmy
wi
ndowsandcur
tains
Me:
"Waphaphay
az,
whosai
dyoumustopen
mycurt
ainsandwi
ndowssoear
lyi
nthe
mor
ning"
Hi
m:I
t'
spastt
wel
veausi
nyana,
wakeupI
'
m
t
aki
ngyouout
"
Me:
"Iseewhaty
oudoi
ngandy
oushoul
dst
op"
Hi
m:"
Stopwhat
??"
Her
aisedaney
ebr
ow
Me:"
Hidi
ngsomet
hingf
rom me,
Iknowy
ou
phel
a"
Hel
etoutasi
ghoff
rust
rat
ion
Hi
m:"
Thando"
Me:
"Whatabouther
??"
Him:
"Shelef
tmeRat
o,shepackedal
lhert
hings
andl
eft"
Me:
"Di
dyouf
ight
??"
Hi
m:"
Yesabouty
ouandf
ood"
Me:
"It
houghtIt
oldy
out
ost
opbr
ingi
ngme
f
oodbecausey
ourgi
rlai
n'
thappyaboutt
hat
"
Hi
m:"
Iknowbuti
t'
sjustf
oodmos"
Me:
"YesIgety ou,
butwomengetj eal
ouswhen
t
hei
rotherhalfpaysatt
enti
ontoanother
f
emale,
justputyoursel
finhershoesand
i
maginehowshef eels"
Hi
m:"
Cany
ouatl
eastt
alkt
oher
"
Me:
"Hayi
noKabel
o,wat
sebannal
eThandor
e
wat
erandoi
l
"
Hi
m:"
Please"
Hebegged
Me:
"Your
eal
l
ylov
eherdon'
tyou"
Him:"
Alot,
getupIsai
dI'
mt aki
ngy
ou
out,
Ntombii
swaiti
ngforus"
Me:"
Ican'
twal
kmyf
ri
end,
theycar
ri
edmeher
e
l
astnight
"
Her
ubbedmybel
l
y
Him:"
Yousi
l
lybaby,
pleasegi
vemommyabr eak
she'
sbeent
hroughalotalr
eadyj
ustbeagood
babyOK"
Me:
"Cr
azy
"
Hi
m:"
We'
l
lcomebyl
ater
"
Me: "
No,
gospendsomet
imewi
thThandoand
yourmal
efr
iends"
Hi
m:"
Soy
oupushi
ngmeaway
"
Me:"
No,I
'
mtr
yingt
ofi
xthi
ngsbet
weeny
ouand
Thando"
Hi
m:"
OKby
e"
Hel
eftandIsl
eptagai
n

¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶
I
'
m athomesi
tt
ingwi
thmom i
nmybedr
oom
Her
:"
Nana"
Me:
"Yesmommy
"
Her
:"
Arey
oust
il
lav
irgi
n??
"
Icoughed
Me:
"Huh?
?"
Her
:"
Youhear
dme"
Me:"
Uhm no,
andIapol
ogi
zef
orl
ett
ingy
ou
down"
Her:
"I
t'
sfinebaby
,asl
ongasy
ouar
eusi
ng
pr
otecti
on"
Me:"
Reall
y??
Oht
hanksmom I
'
m gonnaf
uck
ev
eryday"
Her
:"
Thi
xoNt
ombi
fut
hi"
Me:
"What
,di
dIsayt
hatoutl
oud?
?"
Her
:"
Yes,butbetweeny
ouandIy
ourdadandI
f
uckever
y dayt
oo"
Shewhi
sper
ed
Me:
"WoahmamaIdon'
thav
etoknowt
hat
"
Her
:"
Justwar
ningy
out
hati
fhearsoundsdon'
t
bescared,
itwi
l
lbemom anddaddoi
ngt
he
deed"
Ewww
Me:
"Ishoul
dmov
eout
"
Her
:"
Pleasedo"

HehIcan'
tbeli
evethi
smymom wantsmeto
moveout,
I'
m sogladhopemydadagr
ees

¶¶Unknown¶¶
Someoneonr
obat
sat
hokol
emosamo
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eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t12

Aknockhi
tmydooronceagai
nandIgr
oaned
i
nfr
ust
rat
ion"
Whoi
sit
",Ishout
ed
"I
t'
susopenup"
Me:
"Youknowwher
ethekeyi
s"
Theyopenedupandgoti
n
Nt
ombi
:
"Youneedabat
h"
Me:
"Iknow,
butmyf
eetar
efai
l
ingme"
KB:
"St
il
lcan'
twal
k??
"
Me:"
Icanbutit'
shardtodoso,
myfeetar
eso
heav
y ,
Ijustr
egretsl
eepi
ngwit
hTshepolook
whereitl
andedme"
KB:
"Don'
tbet
oohar
dony
our
sel
fRat
o"
Hesatnextme
Ntombi
:
"Besi
desyou'
llgetthr
ought
hisy
ou'
re
oneoft
hestr
ongestpeopleIknow"
Theykeepi
ngmesane
Me:
"Youguysal
waysfi
ndawayt
omakeme
f
eelawholel
otbet
ter
"
Them:
"That
'swhatf
ri
endsar
efor
"

Wet al
kedandgossipedaboutthelatestnews
andthi
shappeni
ngatschool ,
i
twasl oadsoffun
thatIf
oundmyselfdri
ft
ingint
osleep

¶¶Nar
rat
ed¶¶
KB:"
Ntombimyfr
iendIhav
e4t
icket
sfort
hegi
g
happeni
ngonSat
urday"
Nt
ombi
:
"Youl
i
e"
KB:
"No"
Hewav
edt
hem
Nt
ombi
li
ter
all
yjumpedonhi
minexci
tement
Ntombi
:
"Ohmygoodnessit'
sgonnagodown,
boNast
y,Sj
ava,
Kwest
a,AKAetc"
KB:
"Yeahbr
ingSphaal
ongOK"
Nt
ombi
:
"Sur
e,Ishoul
dgetgoi
ngSphai
swai
ti
ng
f
ormeany
way"
KB:
"Shoul
dwewakeherup?
?"
Nt
ombi
:
"Letherr
est
"

Theyl
eftandlockedt
hedoorf
rom out
sidet
hen
wentt
heirseparat
eways

¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶
PeopleIthi
nkI'm addictedtosex,
it
'sjustthat
thewaySphahi tsitturnsmeonIev enwentto
thedoctorforanImpl antandaninj
ect i
onsince
Ili
keitr
aw.Iarri
vedathomecomi ngf rom
Spha'sapartmentit'
sar ound23:
34Ij usthope
dadisn'
taround
"
Wher
edoy
oucomef
rom Nt
ombi
"
Me:
"Fr
om Ler
atodad,
shecoul
dn'
twal
ksoIhad
t
ohelpher
"
Hi
m:"
Thenexpl
aint
his"
Het
hrewmysext
oysatme
Me:
"Dadt
heybel
ongt
oLer
ato"
Him:"ThisismyhouseNt ombi,
Iwon'ttol
erat
e
youdoi ngnastythi
ngsundermyroofandy ou
knowdamnwel l
thatyoushoul
dbehomeby
thelatest21:
30,you'
vealwaysr
espectedand
abidedbymyr ul
es,i
fsexmakesyoulose
respectyou'l
lhavetostop"
Me:
"Dad.
..
"
HecutmeoffandIl
ookeddowni
n
embarr
assment
Him:"Tellt
hatboyf
ri
endofyourt
ocomeov
er
fordinnertomorr
owandit'
snotupf
or
discussi
on"
Hewentbackt
ohi
sroom

Mymom t
houghwhywoul
dshet
ell
dadt
hatI
'
m
sexual
lyact
ive,nowhewant stomeetSphaI
wonderhowhe' llr
eact
.Ishoul
dcallLer
atoso
thati
fdadcallshershe'l
lbeablet
ocov erf
or
me

I
trangf
orseconds,
Rat
opi
ckupal
ready
..
.
Her
:"
Yes?
?"
Me:
"LookIneedy
out
ocov
erf
orme"
Her:
"DonePapajustcall
edaski
ngmeaboutt
he
sextoysandIagreedthatt
heyaremi
ne"
Isi
ghed
Me:
"Thanksf
ri
end"
Her
:"
Youshouldhi
sthem,
don'
tl
eav
ethem
l
ayi
ngaround"
Me:
"Ij
ustcan'
tgoani
ghtwi
thoutt
hem"
Her
:"
Byeandst
opwi
thsex
"
Me:
"Suredon'
tfor
gett
hedoct
orsappoi
ntment
t
omorrow"

Iabor
tedt
hecal
l
,wor
emyPj
'
sanddr
if
tedt
o
sl
eep

*
*NextDay
**

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Ihaveanappoi nt
mentt odayandi t'
smyf i
rst
eversinceIgotpregnantandt odayal sonarks
myf i
ft
hmont hbeingpregnant,Ilooked
every
wher eformybagpackwhi chhasal lt
he
i
mpor tantdocumentsI'
llneedi tjusthitmethat
Imusthav elefti
tinmyl ockeratt heclub,
soI'
ll
gotherefir
stbeforegoingtot hedoct orand
att
endingmycl asses.
Isteppedoutoft heshowerdriedmyselfand
wor emybl ackmat er
nit
ydresswithbl
ack
sandal s,t
hencombedmycoar sehai
randdida
neatbun. Ilockedmydoorandwal kedt othe
cl
ub, Ididn'teveneatcauseIwasrunninglat
e.
Iar
ri
vedatt
hecl
ubandgoti
ntheel
evat
or
"
Hol
dit
"
Someguyr ani
nsi
de,
theni
tcl
osedand
ascended.
Af
terafewsecondst
heel
avat
orgotst
uckand
al
lIwantedt
odowascry
Me:
"OhGod"
Theguyl
ookedatme
Hi
m:"
Rel
axNt
ombi
ent
le,
they
'l
lfi
xiti
nnot
ime"
Ohi
t'
sthatguyf
rom t
hecl
ub
Me:
"Youknowt
hat
'snotmynamer
ight
"
Hi
m:"
Yesbuti
tsui
tsy
ou"
Hesmi
l
ed
30mi
nut
espassedandst
il
lnot
hing
Ihadal
readysatdown
Hi
m:"
Iseey
oucanwal
kagai
n"
Me:
"YeahIal
mostdi
edYoh"
Hel
aughed
Hi
m:"
I'
mj ustgl
adyou'
ref
ine,
buty
ourf
eetr
eal
l
y
l
ookl
ikepumpkins"
Ihi
thi
m pl
ayf
ull
y
Me:
"What
ever"
Hesatdownandst
art
edmassagi
ngme
Hi
m:"Justr
elaxI
'
llmassagey
ourf
eetwhi
l
ewe
wai
t"
Me:
"Iwon'
tsaynot
oaf
reemassage"
Hechuckl
edandcont
inuedmassagi
ngme
tel
l
ingmeallabouthimsel
f,andIdi
dn'
tev
en
askbuti
t'
sfunhangingaroundhim
Hi
m:"
Soy
ouni
net
eenandpr
egnant
??"
Me:
"Asknoquest
ions
andI
'
llt
ell
nol
i
es"
Hi
m:"
OKmam,
youev
enf
ini
shedmyf
ood"
Me:"
I'
mr eal
l
ysorryI
'
llmakei
tupt
oyou,
Iwas
j
ustsuperhungr
y"
Hi
m:"
OKI
'
llhol
dont
othatf
avourNt
ombi
ent
le"
Me:
"Whenar
eyougoi
ngt
ost
opcal
l
ingmet
hat
"
Hi
m:"
WhenImar
ryy
ou"
[
10/
06,
17:
52]St
ri
ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t13

¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶
OhhhgoshIj ustcan'
tbeli
evemydad,heasked
met otel
lSphat ocomet odinner
toni
ght.
Peoplemydadi sst r
ictj
usti
magi
ne
whathe'l
ldot omypoorbabyandhowt hehell
am Isupposedtot el
lhi
ml et'
shopeheagr
ees..
.

Ij
ustl
andedathisapar
tment,
Iopenandgeti
n
fi
ndi
nghim wat
chingagamewithhisf
ri
ends.
..

Me:
"Hi
guy
s"
Isai
dinav
eryl
owv
oice
Them:
"Hi
Ntombi
"
Sphast
oodupandt
her
estf
ocusedont
he
game
Me:
"Weneedt
otal
k"
Ipul
l
edhi
mthebedr
oom andsatdownwi
th
hi
m
Hi
m:"
Isev
ery
thi
ngOK?
?"
Me:
"Yes,
wel
lki
nda"
Hi
m:"
Babear
eyoupr
egnant
??"
Hehadahugesmi
l
eonhi
scut
eface
Me:
"Nomydadwant
syouatdi
nnert
oni
ght
"
Thatcut
esmi
l
ejustwor
nof
fimmedi
atel
y
Hi
m:"
No,
I'
m notgoi
ngt
her
e"
Me:
"Sphapl
ease"
Him:"NoNtombiyouknowhowy ourdadcan
be,heput
supt hr
eatsandwhatifhefindsout
thatIbr
okehispri
ncesses'
vir
gini
tywhatwill
happenthen?
?"
Me:
"Heknowsaboutmyv
irgi
nit
y"
Hi
sey
espoppedout
Hi
m:"
How?
?"
Me:
"Hef
oundsext
oys"
Him:"
Whatt
hehel
lar
eyoudoi
ngwi
thsext
oys
anyway"
Me:"
Don'
tmi
ndt
het
oys,
i
fyoul
ovemey
ou'
l
l
come"
Hi
m:"That
'sblackmailbuti
t'
sfi
neI
'
llcome
wear
ingmyf avori
tesuit
"
Me:
"Thanky
oubaby
"
Ihuggedhi
mthenki
ssedhi
m al
lov
eranddown
ther
etoo

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Me:
"It
oldyouthatt
heel
evatorgotst
uckthat
'
s
whymissedt
hedoctor
s'appoint
ment!
!"
BengKhul
umanoNt
ombi
Her
:"
OkIsai
dIunder
standst
opshout
ingatme"
Me:
"Sor
ryf
ri
endkedi
hor
mones"
Her
:"
Omakay
ouj
ustwant
edt
oshoutatme"
Il
aughed
Me:"
True,
Ishoul
dgetgoingKBiswait
ingri
ght
out
sidemybathroom doorandmycoffeei
s
get
ti
ngcold"
Her
:"
Kaka moomgani
thatwi
l
lgetr
idofhi
m"
Me:
"Tj
ooby
e"
Ihangedupwashedmyhandst henKBandI
wenttoourt
abl
e,Ibetmycoff
eei scoldnow,
andguesswhowef oundatourtabl
e,Thando
KB'sgir
l

KB:
"Thandowhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e"
Heaskedpi
ssed,
Ij
ustsatdownsi
ppi
ngmy
cof
feeandenj
oyedt
hemov ie
Thando:
"Whatam Idoi
nghere?
?OKI'
ll
tel
lyou
whatI'
m doi
nghere,
I'
m her
etoeatt
hegoodies
j
ustli
keher"
Shepoi
ntedatmecausi
ngascene,
Ij
ustsi
pped
mycoff
ee
KB:"
Stopembarr
assi
ngy
our
sel
fThando,
Ithi
nk
youshoul
dleav
e"
Thando:
"OhI'm notleavi
nghoney ,
younev
er
takemer est
aurantsli
ketheseKabelobutyou
takeher
,what'
ssospeci alabouther?
?What
doesshehav ethatIdon'thave??
"
Shebr okedowni nt earsandthat'
swhenIsaw
thatshe' sreall
yhurt,Ithi
nkIshouldkeepmy
distancef rom KB,Ihav ebeent r
yingtopush
him awaybuthi m bei ngagoodf ri
endhekeeps
maneuv ering,
Idon'
twantt obear easonfor
anot hergirl'
stear
s,Idon'twanttobet hecause
ofherpai nbecauseIknowpai n,ihavebeen
throughpai nandit
'snotagoodt hingto
exper
ience,
hear
inganothergir
l'
ssobsi
sthe
mostheartbr
eakingaudi
tory
KB:
"Thandobabewhat
'swr
ong,
Ler
atohel
pme"
Me:
"Takeherhomeandt
alkt
hist
hrough"
KB:
"Yeahl
et'
sgo"
Me:
"NoI
'
llwal
kit
'snotf
ar"
KB:
"OK"
HeleadThandot
otheexi
tthenshet
urnedand
l
ookedatme
Thando:
"WenaLer
atoenj
oyt
hatcof
feef
ori
t
wil
lbetheendofy
ou"

Theylef
tandIwalkedt
oSisDeetofetch
moneyf ormyAVONorders.
Isel
lAVON
product
sonthesidesi
nceIcan'
tsur
viveont
he
cl
ubwagesonly..
.
¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶

I
t'
spastsev enandmom andIar edoi
ngthe
fi
naltouchupsforthedi
nnert
akingplaceat
20:00,
justt
henIheardaknockitmustbeSpha
Dad:
"Gett
hedoorbubu"
That'
swhathecallsme,Iwenttoopenthedoor
andGodSphadr essedupf ort
his,
hewas
standi
ngt
heiruptalll
ookinghotandcute,
I
wantedhi
sli
psrighttherebutthenmydad
Me:
"Hi
comei
nandr
elax"
Iwhi
sper
ed,
Icoul
dseehewasscar
ed
Hi
m:"
Eveni
ngev
ery
one"
Mom: "
Hell
omyson,
wel
comet
otheMal
i
househol
d"
Spha:
"Thanky
ouma"
Bat
hongpapagr
eett
heguy
Dad:
"Fol
l
owme"
Heroseupandleadhi
mtohi
sst
udy
,mypoor
Sphawasshaki
ng
Me:
"Mawhati
syourhusbandupt
omar
a"
Mom:"Youknowyourfat
herishotheadedso
youneverknowwhat
'sinthatheadofhis"
Me:
"Ij
usthopet
hatSphai
sal
ri
ght"
Mom:"Wi
l
lyour
elax,
ever
ythi
ngwi
l
ltur
noutj
ust
f
ine"
Shehel
dmyhand
Me:
"I
fyousayso"

*
*Int
hest
udy
**
Laught
er

Dad:"YouknowSphat
hisi
sthewor
ld'
sfi
nest
whiskey"
Spha:
"NahI
'
m goi
ngwi
thHennessey
"
Dad:"
Ohnoboyy oust
il
lhavet
olear
n,Isay
comef oragameofgol
fonMondayandy ou
mightscoresomepot
enti
alcl
i
ents"
Spha:
"I
'm game"
Dad:
"Manofi
nst
inct
sIl
i
key
ouSpha"
Spha:
"Thanky
ousi
r,
ImeanBr
aMandl
a"
Dad:
"Goodnowlet
'sgoconfuset
hel
adi
esby
pr
etendi
ngasi
fIhateyou"
Spha:"
Sur
ecan'
twai
ttoseet
hel
ookont
hei
r
faces"

Theylaughedandwentt
othedi
ningar
ea
l
ookingangry

Dad:
"Bubuwher
e'sCy
nthi
a??
"
Me:
May
bewi
thhergi
rl
fr
iendoratt
hecl
ubdad"
Dad:
"Thatsist
erofy
our
sshoul
dst
opwi
tht
his
l
esbi
ant hi
ngandgetmarr
ied"
Ij
ustcont
inuedeat
ing
Spha:
"Si
rpl
easepasst
hesal
tpl
ease"
Dad:
"Geti
tyour
sel
f"

WeateanddadandSphadidn'
tgetal
ongatal
l
,I
wonderwhatwer
etheyt
alki
ngabout

¶¶Kabel
o¶¶
Tissueslayi
ngev er
ywhereandloudsobs
hoveringtheroom,anindi
cat
ionthatmygir
lis
reall
yhurtshe'snottheki
ndofpersonwho
wouldcr yeasi
ly
Me:
"I
'm sor
rybabe"
Her:
"Youkeepsayi
ngthatbutt
henr
unbackt
o
yourbel
ovedLerat
o"
It
ookherhandsi
nmi
ne
Me:"Thandolookatmemyl ov
e,Il
oveyouand
onl
yy ou,y
ouar ethereasonIwakeupahappy
manev erysingl
edaypl easetr
ustmewhenI
saythereisn'
tanythi
ng, Imeananythi
ngatal
l
happeningbetweenLer atoandI"
Her
:"
Idon'
tknowKabel
o"
Me:"
Hey
,heyl
ooky
ouneedt
otr
ustmeont
his
one"
Her:
"IdotrustyouandI 'm alsosor
rythatI
causedascenebackt hereIalsothi
nkIshoul
d
apologi
zetoLer ato,
Lerato!
!!OhmygoshKabelo
I'
l
lber i
ghtback.Lerat
o!!!
!"
Shetookhercarkey
sandj
ustst
ormedout
,I
don'
tevenknowwhy .
..

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶
Igrabbedt hemoneyf rom SisDee.AsI '
m
walkingalongtherodeIf eeltheur
get opuke,I
wentdownonmykneesanddi dmyt hing,next
minuteIf el
tsomethingeat i
ngmeupi nside,I
fel
tdr owsyandfel
l l
ay i
nginapool ofmyown
vomit,Ifel
tmoredrowsyandmyey esbecame
heavyshut ti
ngcompl etel
y
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52]St
ri
ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t14

¶¶Unknown¶¶

Dr
ivi
nghomewi
thmyt
wof
avor
it
epeopl
eint
he
worl
d

Si
hle:
"Sodadwhatar
eyouget
ti
ngmef
ormy
bi
rt
hday"
She'
sbeenaski
ngmet
hatf
orweeksnow
Me:
"Ican'
ttel
lyoubabygi
rl
,j
ustwai
tandsee"
Sbu:
"Anddadyoushoul
dthrowusa
humongouspart
ythi
syear
"
Me:
"OKSbuIwi
l
l"
Sihl
e:"
NoI'm notshar
ingmydaywi
thhi
m
again,
Iref
use"
Sbu:
"You'
l
lhav
etont
ombazanawet
wins
remember"
Si
hle:
"Ar
gwhat
ever
"
Sher
oll
edherey
es
Me:
"Soyouguysar
ereall
ytur
ning14,
yourmom
mustbeover
joy
edinheaven"
Si
hle:
"Iguess"
Sbu:
"Dadl
ook"
Me:
"Whatnow"
Sbu:
"Dadoutt
hewi
ndowt
her
e'saper
sonl
ayi
ng
t
her
e"
Ipul
l
edov
er
Me:
"Shoul
dIhel
p??
"
Si
hle:
"Yest
hat
'sl
i
keadecentt
hingt
odo"
Me:
"Ok"

Igotoutofthecarandfoundawomanl aying
therel
ooki
ngunconsciousinvomit,
youknow
whatI'
m swall
owingmypr idet
hosecarseats
will
bewashedIhav etorushhertothehospi
tal
Icar
ri
edhertothecarandplacedheri
nthe
emptyrankofseat
s,asSi
hleswit
chesthel
i
ght
onIfi
nall
yseewhoitis,
Ntombenhle
Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
ewakeupbaby
"
Ishookher
Si
hle:
"Dadhospi
tal
"
Igoti
nthedr
iver
sseatanddr
oveof
f
Sbu:
"I
sshey
ourgi
rl
fr
iendorsomet
hing?
?"
Me:
"No"
Si
hle:
"Buty
oucal
l
edherbaby
"
Theyar
ereal
l
ybuggi
ngmet
heseki
ds
Me:
"Wil
lyoushutupyoutoo!!
!Justshutt
hehel
l
upI
'
llt
ellyouwhentotal
k!!
"
OhthankGodtheyar
equiet
,Iarr
ivedatt
he
hospi
tal
andcarri
edhert
orecepti
on
Me:
"Hey
,pl
easegetadoct
orwear
elosi
ngher
"
Her
:"
Doy
ouhav
eherI
D"
Me:
"Justgetadoct
or"
Her
:"
Whati
sshet
oyou?
?"
Me:"
She'
smywi
fedammi
t!
!!
Thi
xogeta
doct
or!
!"
Shegott
onsofquesti
onsandmywi f
eisdyi
ng,
I
j
ustwenttoawardandranli
keamadman, t
hen
fi
nal
l
ygotadoctorandtheycheckedherout
Si
hle:
"Dadshe'
snowy
ourwi
fe?
?"
Me:
"Gi
rl
yIsai
dI'
l
ltel
lyouwhent
otal
k"
Shej
ustmi
ndedherownbusi
ness
Thatl
adyf
rom r
ecept
ioncame
Her :
"Siryourwif
ehast oundergosur ger
yand
doesnothav emedicalaidsowe'll
hav eto
transferhertoapublichospit
al,
unlessyouar
e
wi l
l
ingt ocovertheexpenseswhichcanbe
reall
yexpensive"
Me:
"Her
etakemycar
danddoy
ourj
ob"
Her
:"
Siri
tcanbev
eryexpensi
ve"
Me:
"Yesdoi
t"
Her
:"
Sirl
i
keR50000+expensi
ve"
Me:
"LadyIsai
dgonow!
!"
ShewentawayandIj
ustsatt
her
ewai
ti
ng

*
*NextDay
**
¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶

IwasatSpha'
sapar
tmentdaddyal
l
owedmet
o
go
Me:
"Hemustreal
l
yli
key
out
hatheal
l
owedme
t
osleepov
er"
Him:
"Headoresmebabe,
eveni
nvi
tedmet
oa
gameofgolfonMonday"
Me:
"Wenamahn,
hangar
oundt
opdogsnow"
Hi
m:"
Yeahi
magi
net
hecl
i
ent
sI'
l
lbewi
nni
ng"
Me:
"Justgooutt
her
eandgr
owy
ourcompany"
Hi
m:"
Ourcompanysweet
hear
t,
lastr
ound?
"
Me:
"Whynot"
Ist
art
edr
idi
ngi
tinaci
rcl
e
Ast
hemoansescal
atedmyphoner
ang
Spha:
"Don'
tansweri
tbabe"
Me:
"I
tcoul
dbei
mpor
tant
"
Igr
abbedmyphoneandSphar ol
l
edover
get
ti
ngfull
accessofmypussyandf
ucki
ngme
har
dwhileIanswermyphone

KB:
"Nt
ombi
arey
out
her
e??
"
Me:
"Ohhhh,
Ahhh,
yes"
Him:"
Stopfucki
ngal
readyandcometot
he
hospi
talLer
atohasbeenadmit
ted"
Me:
"Whi
chhospi
tal
"
Hi
m:"
I'
ll
textt
hedet
ail
s"
Hehangedup

Me:"
Babycany
oudri
vet
othehospi
tal
Ler
ato
hasbeenadmi
tt
ed"
Hi
m:"
Sur
e"
Wef
ixedour
sel
vesandhi
tther
oad

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Myey esareheav yandasIopent hem t

helight
fl
ashesrightinthem causingmetoclosethem
againforprotect
ion,Iscanther
oom thatI
'mi n
andit'
sunrecognizable,IseeMrNkosiandtwo
ki
ds,KabeloandThando, NtombiandSpha
standi
ngar oundmel ookingworr
ied.
..
Me:
"What
'sgoi
ngon,
i
ssomeonedead?
?"
Iaskl
ooki
ngcl
uel
ess
Nkosi
:
"Nobutsomeoneal
mostdi
ed"
Me:
"Who?
?"
Them:
"You"
Theyr
espondedandal
lIcoul
dthi
nkofi
smy
baby
,butseei
ngmybumpt
her
eputmet
oease

Weall
chat
tedaboutmyneardeat
hexper
ience
andmadeajokeoutofi
t
Justt
hent
hedoct
orgoti
n

Doc:
"MrNkosi
y ourwi
fei
srespondingverywel
l
t
othemedicat
ionIseeher
e'syourcard"
Wi
fe?
?
Me:
"Doct
orhowi
smybaby
??"
Doc:
"Youmeanbabi
es"
Me:
"Whatdoy
oumeanbabi
es"
Doc:
"Ohyoudidn'
tknow,y
ouarecar
ryi
ng
sext
upl
etsandtheyareheal
thy"
Thenhel
eft
Theyal
lbur
sti
ntol
aught
erast
ohowshockedI
was
Me:"Don'tl
aughpeopl
e,si
xbabies,
howt
hehel
l
am Igoingtomaintai
nsixpeople"
Tear
sjustfl
ew,onl
yifIhadkeptmyl egscl
osed
Iwoul
dn'tbeinthi
ssit
uati
onrightnow
Nkosi
:
"Rel
axNt
ombenhl
e"
Hehel
dmyhandandr
ubbedmybel
l
ywi
tht
he
ot
herone
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e

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ato¶¶

Peoplewentbacktot
heirhomesandIwasleft
wit
hNt ombi
,Kabel
oandThando,wewer ej
ust
chat
ti
ngaboutrandom stuf
fandtheyt
oldme
aboutthegi
ghappeni
ngt oni
ght
..
.
Me:
"I
'm soj
eal
ousguy
s"
Ntombi
:"Don'
tbeassoonasy ougi
vebi
rt
hwe
gonnapart
yeveryweekend"
Me:
"Yesmogal
"
KB:
"Soi
stheNkosi
guyy
ourhusbandnow?
?"
Ij
ustl
aughed
Me:"
Nooo,
he'
stheguyIwasst
uckwi
thandhe
of
tencomesatthecl
ub"
KB:
"Isee"
KBkindal
ookedangr
yandThandowassi
tt
ing
att
hecornerl
ooki
nguncomf
ortabl
e
Me:
"ThandoIknowi
twasy
ou"
KB:
"NoRat
o,Thandowoul
dn'
tdot
hat
"
Me:"She'
sy ourgi
rlandyouhaveever
yri
ghtt
o
def
endherbutIknowi t'
sherrememberwhat
shesaidyester
daybefor
ey oulef
t"
KB:
"What
??"
Me:
"'AndwenaLerat
oenj
oyt
hatcof
feef
ori
t
wi
ll
bet hel
astofy
ou'"
KBwentt
oher
KB:
"I
sthi
str
ueThando?
?"
Heaskedwi
thacal
mvoi
ce
Thando:
"YesandIr egr
etit
,Ler
atoI
'
m sorryOKI
wasjustj
ealousthatKBspendsmor eti
mewith
youthanwit
hme. Myact i
onswerestupi
dandI'
l
l
takeonanypunishment"
KB:"
Youpoi sonedmysister
,myonlysist
er..
.I
meanf r
iend,it
'sov
erThandoandy ouLerato
youhavet olayachar
geagainstherIwon' t
tol
erat
et hi
snonsense,I
'l
lcometof et
chy ou
l
aterwegoi nghome"
HeleftandThandofoll
owed,
i
tsmyfi
rstt
ime
seei
nghissodefensiv
ewhat'
sgoi
ngon??
Me:
"Whatj
usthappened?
?"
Nt
ombi
:
"Ishoul
dbeaski
ngy
ou,
Nkosi
cal
l
syou
awife,
KBsay
syouar
ehi
ssi
ster
,what
'
sgoi
ng
on?
?"
Me:
"Aket
sebe"
Nt
ombi
:
"I'
l
lseey
out
omor
row"
Sheki
ssedmycheekasshest
oodup
Me:"
Enj
oythepar
tyanddon'
tdosomet
hingI
woul
dn'
tdo"
Shejustlaughedandleft
,t
hist
hingofme
car
ryingsixbabiesdri
vi
ngmecr azywhatwi
llI
namet hem,wil
lIevenrecogni
sewho'swho?
?

¶¶Kabel
o¶¶

Ihavebeenkeepingthissecr
etfor2weeksnow
andIcan'
tdoi tanymoremom anddadwi ll
havetocomecl ean,
it
'snotmyfaultt
hatthey
messedup,I'
m donekeepingthi
sshit
,assoon
asIseeLeratoI'
llt
ell
her.I
'
m athomenow, Ihad
cal
l
edaf
ami
l
ymeet
ing.
..
Me:"Mom,Dadyougot
tacomeoutandmeet
yourdaught
erwhom y
ouhaddeser
tedf
or
year
s"
Mom: "
Ireall
ywanttotel
lLer
atot
hatshe'sout
daughterbutI'
m af
rai
dofhowshe'l
lreact
"
Dad:
"Andwhati
fshest
ressesal
otandl
oseher
baby
"
Me:
"Babi
es,
she'
scar
ryi
ngsext
upl
ets"
Mom:
"Ohmypoorbabyshemustbeexhaust
ed
"
Dad:"
We'llhavet
otel
lher
,wecan'
tletour
daughtersuff
erwhenweareri
ghtheretohel
p
her"
Me: "
Greatt
ellher
,Isti
l
lcan'
tbel
ievethatmy
fr
iendismysister
,Ishoul
dprepareforthegi
g
byfam"
Them:
"Byboy
"
Atleastt
heyaregonnatel
lLeratothet
rut
h,I
wassopi ssedwhenthatNkosiguywas
touchi
ngmysi st
erandThando,I'
ll
havetodeal
withher.
..

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Thedoct orj
ustbr
oughtmydischar
gepapers,he
saysthatI'
m goodtogoandIshouldtakeit
easyandeathealthy.Hegav
emesome
vit
aminst ohel
pwiththemorni
ngsicknessand
thepains.
Doc:
"Youhusbandhasj
ustar
ri
vedsoy
ou'
re
goodtogo"
Me:
"Hei
snotmyhusband"
Doc:"
YeahIcoul
dseehowconfusedy
ou
were,
butbet
weenyouandIIt
hinkheishead
ov
erheel
swi
thy
ou"
Het
henl
eftandMrNkosi
camei
n
Him:
"Ntombenhl
e,
it
'sgoodt
oseey
ouheal
thy
agai
n"
Hesmi
l
ed
Me:
"Andi
tfeel
sgoodt
obeheal
thyagai
n"
Ismi
l
edback
Hi
m:"
Let
'sgo"
Me:"
WaitMrNkosi
whatar
ey oudoi
ng?
?Why
ar
eyoubeingsoni
cet
ome, payi
ngmyhospi
tal
bi
l
lsandstuf
f??
"
Him:
"Fir
stl
yst
opcall
i
ngmeMrNkosi I
'm Vusi
andI'
m doi
ngall
thi
sfrom t
hegoodnessofmy
hear
t"
Me:
"Butsi
rIt
hinky
oushoul
dst
op"
Hi
m:"
Whywoul
dIdot
hatNt
ombenhl
e"
Me:
"I
t'
sinappr
opr
iat
eandNt
ombenhl
eisnot
mynamey
oushoul
dst
opcal
l
ingmet
hat
"
Him:"
WhenImar
ryy
ou,
nowl
et'
sgoIgota
surpr
isef
ory
ou"
Heputhi
shandinmineanddroveoff
,thi
sguy
i
screepy
.Hedr
ovefort
helongestt
imeIended
upsl
eepi
ng.

Hi
m:"Andhereweare,
wakeup,
Ntombenhl
e,
wakeupSthandwaSam"
Heki
ssedmyl
i
pssof
tl
y,t
henIwokeup
Me:
"Whatar
eyoudoi
ng"
Ir
ubbedmyey
es
Hi
m:"Atr
uelov
e'ski
ss,
theysayi
texi
stsand
t
hereIki
ssedyouandyouwokeup"
Me:
"Whoar
eyou?
?"
Hi
m:"
Iam yourl
i
fet
imepar
tnerNtombenhl
e,
giv
e
meyourbr
okenhear
tandIshal
lmend
i
t,
handl
i
ngi
twi
thcar
e"
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e

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ato¶¶

Theguywasbeingallcr
eepyonme,t
ell
i
ngme
togivehi
m myheart
,ohhel
lnoIai
n'
tgi
ving
anyonemyheartwhatdoeshewantt
odowi t
h
i
t..
.
Heki
ssedmethentol
dmeaboutt
het
ruel
ove'
s
ki
ss,
Imeanwhodoesthat
Me:
"MrNkosi
youar
ecr
eepy
"
Him:
"Cr
eepyf
ory
ou,
comeIhav
easur
pri
sef
or
you"
Hewentar
oundt
oopent
hedoorf
ormest
il
l
put
ti
nghi
shandi
nmi
ne
Isawav er
ybeaut i
fulvintagehousebeforemy
eyes,Iwasastonishedbyt hebeaut
ybefore
me,thelawnwasper fectlycutandthecute
housewasj ustinthemi ddle,
heopenedthe
doorandwegoti nside
Hi
m:"
Wel
come"
Me:
"Wowy ourhousei
ssooooamazi
ngl
ygr
eat
t
operf
ect
ion"
Hi
m:"
Oht
hisi
sn'
tmyhouseNt
ombenhl
e"
Hechuckl
edsof
tl
y
Me:
"Ohkay
..
.t
henwhyar
eweher
e??
"
Isai
dwithmyv oi
cetrembl
ing,
whatifhei
sa
seri
alki
l
lerandI'
mjusthi
snextprey
Hi
m:"
Youar
esweat
ingbeaut
if
ul"
Hetookoutahandkerchi
eff
rom hi
spocketand
i
tcover
edaknifehethenwipedmyf acewi
thit
I
'
m goi
ngt
opi
ssmy
sel
f
Me:
"TakemehomeSi
r"
Him:"Rel
ax,anywaythisisyourhouse
Ntombenhle,assoonasIsawt hi
sspaceI
thoughtofyou,Isawthatyouli
kepeaceand
quietsoIdecidedtobuil
ditforyou"
I
'
m conf
used
Me:
"But
..
"
Hecutmeof
f
Hi
m:"
Youhav
en'
tseent
hebestpar
tcome"
Hepull
edmet
osomer
oom,
cov
eredmyey
es
t
henleadmei
nsi
de
Hi
m:"
Thi
swast
hesur
pri
seIwast
alki
ngabout
"
Her
emov
edt
hebl
i
ndf
older
I
nt hi
sroom t herewer esixbabycots,
i
twas
pai
ntedpi nkandbl ue,t
herewereteddy
bears,
diapers,babyclothes,
toy
sitwasanurser
y
Me:"
Stop!
!Pl
easest
opwhat
every
ou'
ret
ryi
ngt
o
do"
Him:"
AllingreattimeNt ombenhl e,nowsleep
t
ight,
thereareclothesi ny ourclosetandfood
i
ntheki t
chen,Ihav etof et
chSi hleandSbusiso
f
rom theirgr
andf ather,don'tdoany thi
ngthat
wil
lhurtthebabies, I
'l
lbeher efirstthi
ng
t
omor rowmor ning"
Hegav emeakeyandl ockedwi
ththeot
herkey
fr
om out si
de,I
'
m scared,ahouse??
?baby
stuff
???sixcots?
?howdi dheknow??what
's
goingon? ??
whoi she???

*
*NextDay
**

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶
War
mli
psagai
nstmi
newokemeup
Hi
m:"
Ntombenhl
e,y
ouar
eev
enmor
ebeaut
if
ul
wheny
ouwakeup"
Me:
"Mor
ning"
Hepl
acehi
shandonmybel
l
yandr
ubbedi
t
Him:"
Mor
ningmybabi
es,
Ihopeyou'
rest
il
lok
daddywi
l
lbeher
eever
ystepoft
heway "
Me:
"MrNkosi
,whenwi
l
lyoust
op"
Him:"
Noquesti
ons,
Iranabathfory
ou,
and
cookedyousomebreakf
ast
,Iknowyouhat
e
eggsthough"
Howt
hehel
ldoesheknow

Iwenttobat
h,af
tert
hatcl
othesandunder
wear
wasplaceonthebed,
heevenknowsmybr a
si
ze
Iwor
ethenavybl
uetr
acksui
twi
thblacksnugs
andahoodi
e,j
ustt
henaknockl
andedonthe
door
Hi
m:"
Arey
oudecent
??"
Heshout
edf
rom out
sidet
her
oom
Me:
"Yescomei
n"
Hecamei
nwi
that
rayf
ull
off
ood
Him:"Justopenthesl
i
dingyou'
l
leatbythe
balconyIwantthesunrayst
ohityourgor
geous
face"

Heplacedthef
oodont
het
abl
eandpul
l
eda
chai
routforme
Him:"Thi
skiwif
rui
twi l
lhel
pwithgrowth
Ntombenhle,
thestrawberri
esaretokeepy our
l
ipssweetandsof tasalways,
asforthe
watermeloniti
stokeepy ourski
nsoftand
deli
cateformetot ouchthr
oughourjourney"
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ato¶¶

Bet weeny ouandIMrVusi Nkosi scarest he

l
iv i
nghel loutofme, fi
rstitwast hemassagei n
theelev ator,
thenmyhospi talbi
llsandnowa
housef arawayf rom theci tywi t
hf urniture,food
andcl othessomehowheknowsmysi zet hi s
tracksuitfit
smeper fectly.Idonotknowabout
youbutIt hinkIshoul dkeepmydi stance, thing
i
shehast histhingoft alkingandIj ustobey ,
is
i
tbecauseI '
m scaredofhi m orisi tbecausehe
hassomeki ndofst rongef f
ectonme. Bottom
l
inei sItoldhi mt hatIcannotacceptt hehouse
andt hatI '
ll
payhi m hismoneyf orcov eringmy
hospi t
al expensesandhewasl ikeIquot e
"Ntombenhl e,Ntombenhl eallingoodt ime, hold
ont othosekey s"
Hi
sact
ionsar
ehor
ri
fi
c..
.

I
'
vebeenchi
l
li
ngwi
thNt
ombi
atherhouse.
..
Me:
"Sohowwast
hegi
g"
Her
:"
Itwasl
i
tmgani
voi
cey
aKwest
abedoi
ng
t
hemost"
Me:
"KBandThando?
?"
Her:"
Tjoot hosetwoarecrazyabouteachother
dude,wewer edri
vi
ngtogetherandt
heysatat
thebackal lofasuddenthereweremoansand
groans,t
heydi dn'
tevenl
astthewholenight
i
mpl yi
ngt hathismom issickandwhatnot"
Me:"Theycan'
tgetenoughofeachot
her
yest
erdaywhenhedumpedherIwasnotev en
shockedbecauseIknewthey'
ll
betoget
heri
n
notime"
Her
:"
Otl
oet
sangkaThandot
hough"
Iknewt
hatt
hisquest
ionwoul
dcome
Me:"
Not hi
ng,I
'
mt i
redofdramasoIwon'
tdo
anyt
hingplusIunder
standwher
eshecomes
fr
om,facti
sthatI'
mfinenow"
Her
:"
Youaret
ookindRat
o,butI
'
m ony
oursi
de
nomatt
erwhaty
oudo"
Me:
"Ev
eni
fIki
l
lher
"
Her
:"
I'
ll
hel
pyouki
l
lher
,youmyr
ideordi
ebabe"
Me:
"Iknow,
Ishoul
dgetgoi
ng,
nosexNt
ombi
"
Her
:"
Pinkypr
omi
seandki
ssNkosi
forme"

Il
aughedatwhatshehadsai d,
Itoldherabout
everythi
ngthathappenedbet weenMrNkosi
andIandshesai dthattheguylovesmet hat
'
s
whyhei streati
ngmel i
keaqueen, shesaidthat
Ishouldgivehim myhear tbecausemenl ike
him arerar
e,butIdon'tknowifIshouldtrust
him,yesIdreamtabouthi mlastnightandhe's
beenal l
overmymi ndl atel
ybutthatdoesnot
meanIl
ovehi
mri
ght
??

¶¶Kabel
o¶¶

Thattimehasar r
ivedoft el
li
ngLeratowhoshe
real
lyisandwheresher eal
lybel
ongs.Isti
ll
cannotbeli
evethatshe'smysi ster
,wegonna
havetonsoffunt ogetherI'
vealwayswant edto
haveasi bl
i
ngandnowIhav eoneI'm overj
oyed,
butIwonderhowshe' lltakeit
.Anywaymygi rl
andIhav efi
xedthingsandmov edon,Il
ov e
Thandoguy snomat terwhathappensI '
llbeby
hersideatallt
imes
I'
m atmycr
ibr
ightnowandwe'
rewai
ti
ngf
or
Lerat
o..
.
"
I'
m homeev
ery
one!
!"
Ler
atoshout
sfr
om t
heki
tchen
Me:
"Thi
sisnoty
ourhousewena,
youmaki
nga
noi
se"
Rato:
"What
everI
'
m nother
efory
ou,
I
'm her
eto
seemom anddad"
Yeahsheaddressesmypar ent
sasmom and
dad,
Iwonderhowshe'll
reactwhenshef
inds
outt
heyareherrealpar
ents..
.
Rat
o:"
Howar
eyouguy
s"
Mom:"
Wear ef
inesweethear
t,bef
orey
oudi
gin
wehavesomethi
ngtotell
you"
Dad:
"Andi
t'
sver
yimpor
tant
"
Rat
o:"
Iknowy
oumypar
ent
sguy
s"
Howdi
dshe.
..
Dad:
"How?
?"
Rato:"Dur
ingt
hepastfewmonthsmom has
beensupersupport
iveshebehavedl i
kemy
mot herandnotmyfri
ends'
mot herifyouknow
whatImeanandKabel ocal
ledmehi ssi
sterso
Iputoneandonetogetheri
t'
snotr ocket
sci
ence"
Me:
"Can'
tbel
i
eveIhav
easi
ster
"
Dad:
"Bel
i
evei
tson"
Rat
o:"
Yesbel
i
evei
tI'
m her
etot
akey
ourpl
ace
boy
"
Theyal
ll
aughed
Mom:
"Ar
eyouf
ineRat
o??
"
Rato:"
I'
m beyondfi
neI'
m happy,I
'vebeen
waiti
ngforthisdaysi
nceforev
er,Iwantedt
o
comef orwardbutIwasscaredthatmysearch
couldbewr ong"
"
Wel
ovey
ouRat
o"
Weal
lsai
dandt
hecr
yingsessi
onbegun

I
twasaf
unfil
l
edev eni
ngwithmyfami
l
yand
myl
ongl
ostsi
sterwhichIador
esomuch
Rat
olef
tandIal
sol
eftgi
vi
ngourpar
ent
ssome
space.
..

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Greeti
ngsmydearf ri
ends,Iam VusiNkosi34
yearsofage.I
'm cur rent
lyawi dowIlostmywi f
e
thr
eey earsback,yesshel eftwithoutwarni
ng
andmademedoubtmyposi ti
onasahusband
andfatherbutI'
m gl adthatshel eftmewi t
htwo
wonder f
ulgif
ts,whi chareSi phesi
hleand
SbusisoNkosi,theyar emybeaut i
fult
winswho
wil
lbet ur
ning14y earssoont heyhavegrown.
I
'
m aPaleontologi
standaSecr
etAgentt
oa
v
erypowerfulcompanyinEur
ope.
Iam amanofi ntegri
tythat'
swhoIam,some
mightsayI'
m my ster
ious,
someevensayI'm
creepywhil
eotherssayI '
m ahar
dbuttocrack,
I
don'tknowIst
ill
sayI '
m amanofi nt
egri
ty.
Duringt hepastfewmont hsIsawaj ewel a
bri
ghtonatt hat,
whenIsawherIcoul dsee
heartbreak,pai
nandst r uggl
ebutwhatmademe
mor eat tr
actedtoheri sthatshei sa
hardwor kingwoman, Iwoul dwat chherst umble
acoupl eoft i
mesbutmanagedt ogetbackup
bymar keti
ngherself,wor ki
ngatt hecluband
sell
ingAVONpr oduct s,Ireal
isedt hatshe's
ti
redwhenshecoul dn'twalkatt heclubt hat
's
whenIf i
nishedherhouseof f,
pleasedon' task
whyI '
m doi ngallI
'
llsayi sthatNt ombenhl eis
myl if
etimepar t
nerandi fyoulov eamot her
you'l
llov eherchi
ldrent oo,t
hat'
swhatr ealmen
do..
.
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Ihav
ebeenf
orcedt
omov
einwi
thmynewl
y
foundpar ents,t
heysayi t
'sdanger oustol i
ve
aloneandt hatIneedamot her
lysuppor tat
ti
mesl iket hese,Icanf eelthebondbet weenus
asaf ami lyandIbel ievethatIf inall
ybelongtoa
groupofgoodpeopl e.Ther e'sonet hingthat
surpri
sedmedur i
ngt hepastf ewweeks,
Thandohasbeenext remel ynicet owardsmeI
meanr eallynicetoanext entofbuy ingmegi f
ts
andst uff,
althoughshe' sbei ngsoni ceIstil
l
watchev erymov eshemakest horoughly,
..
.
"
Ler
atoweeet
sohahl
eMosadi
"
That
'smymom,
i
tfeel
ssogr
eatt
obewokenup
bymymom
Me:
"I
m awakeol
dwoman"
Her
:"
Oldwomankemmao"
Shehi
tmewi
thapi
l
low
Me:
"I
'm cr
avi
ngsomest
ewwi
thj
am"
Her
:"
Luckyy
ouI
'
vecookedi
tjustt
hewayy
ou
l
i
ke"
Me:
"Youar
ethebest
"
Her:
"IknowRato,
goshoweryouhav
eamor
ning
cl
assandI'l
lbedroppi
ngyouoff
"
Me:
"Kabel
ogoneal
ready
"
Her
:"
Hel
eftl
astni
ght"

Sheleft
,eversi
ncethisfamilyreuni
on
saga,
Kabel ohaskepthisdistancefr
om Ntombi
andI.He'smoreoverprotect
iveandannoysthe
shi
touttame.

Ididmyhy gi
eneprocess,t
henwor eagrey
mat er
nitydresswithblacksnugs,
mommysay s
thatatthisstageofmypr egnancyIshould
avoidtrousers,whenIaskwhyshesay sno
questionsjustdoit,
anywayIcombedmyhai r
andt i
editintoapony t
ail
,al
thoughI'
m pregnant
Ist
il
lhav
etol
ookcut
eri
ghtandIdo.
..

Me:
"Mor
ningdaddy
"
Hi
m: "
Hell
osweet
hear
thowar
eyout
his
morning"
Hegav
eadecentsmi
l
e
Me:
"I
'm per
fectandhungr
y"
Hi
m:"
Youal
way
shungr
y"
Hechuckl
ed
Me:
"Don'
tbl
ameme,
i
t'
syourgr
andchi
l
dren"
Mom:
"She'
seat
ingf
orsev
enpapahawu"
Me:
"Yest
ell
him mama"
Mom:"Sowenawher
e'st
hatbl
ankl
yIgav
eto
you"
Me:
"Onmybed"
Imumbl
ed
Mom:"Youshouldwrapi
taroundy
ourwai
st
Ler
ato8mont hsasepapadi
"
Me:"MaraMaI
'
lll
ookl
i
keagr
anny
,whatwi
l
l
peoplesay
"
Mom:"
Don'
tmindpeoplebaby,
you'
redoi
ngt
his
f
ort
hesakeofyourbabies"
Me:
"OKf
ine,
byedad"

Mom andIl
eft
,shedr
oppedmeatv
arsi
tyand
wentt
owork..
.

¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶

Ihavebeenhav i
ngsexnonstop,atnightwhen
I'
m athomeandSphai snotbesidesmeIself-
servi
cemy sel
fwiththetoy
,Ij
ustcan'tgoaday
withoutbei
ngfuckedupsoSphadeci dedt
o
takemet othedoctor.
..
Doc:
"Soy
ousay
ingshecan'
tgoadaywi
thouti
t
"
Spha:
"YesDoc"
Doc:
MissMali
,woul
dyoucar
etoexpl
ainhow
youf
eeldur
ingsex"
Me:
"If
eel
rel
ax,
Ienj
oyt
hewhol
epl
easur
eofi
t"
Doc:
"Doyouper
hapssitwit
hyourpar
tnerand
j
ustt
alkaboutr
andom st
uff"
Spha:"
Weusedt odothatbutt
henIint
roduced
hertosex,t
hat
'swhenshewentall
crazyonme
notthatIdon'
tli
kei
tbutit
'st
oomuch"
Doc:
"Ithi
nkt haty
ouguysshouldspendmore
qual
it
yt i
mewi thyourcl
othesont
hanoff
,an
MissMal it
akeonahobbyanddonothav e
i
nti
macyf orawhol emonthnoteven
masturbati
on"
Spha:
"I
'l
lmakesur
eshedoesn'
t"
Wewentt
othecar
Me:"
Ther
ewasnoneedfort
haty
oujust
li
ke
wasti
ngmoneyonst
upi
dthi
ngsSphamandl
a"
Him:"
Yoursexualaddi
ti
onisnotstupi
dandyou
knowit,
any
waywhenwer eyougoingtot
ell
me
thaty
ouhadani mplantandinj
ect
ion
done,
Ntombi"
Me:
"Iwasgoi
ngt
otel
lyou"
Hi
m:"When?
?,Youknowwhatnev
ermi
ndIt
hink
weshoul
dbef r
iendsf
ornow"
I
she?
??
Me:
"Ar
eyoubr
eaki
ngupwi
thme?
?"
Hi
m:"Noweneedabreakfrom eachot
hert
o
meetnewpeopl
eforachange"
Me:
"I
sther
esomeoneel
seSpha?
?"
Hi
m:"
No,
babyj
ustabr
eak"
Me:
"Dr
opmeof
fatschool
,
Ihav
ecl
assatt
wel
ve
"

Wedr oveinpuresilence,weshoul
dbef r
iends
fornow,i
shenut s,
ohIseehi scompanyis
growingandhehangsoutwi thmoreadvanced
peopleandherealisesthathewon'twastehis
ti
mewi thVarsi
tygirls.
..

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Me:
"Doy
ourhomewor
kyouguy
s"
Si
hle:
"OKdaddyaf
tert
hatwest
il
lgoi
ngt
othe
mov i
esr
ight
"
Me:
"Yessweet
hear
t,i
nthemeant i
meI
'
m goi
ng
t
omeetsomeoneI'
llberi
ghtback"
Sbu:
"Ki
ssherf
orme"
Hay i
thesekids.Iwenttomeetupwi t
hmy
l
awy ertofi
nalizesomei mportantpaperwork
whichIhavet ot aketoNtombenhle,wehav e
beent i
ghtl
atelybutst i
l
lnotdati
ng,I'
m not
stupi
dorany thingbutIwanttodot histheri
ght
way ,
all
gentl
emenshoul dwatchmemov eand
l
earnf r
om me, thisi
showy outreatawoman.

SoIsenthert
hel
ocati
onwherewewil
lbe
meeti
ngandther
eIseeherst
andi
ngbesi
det
he
road.
..

Me:
"Dumel
aNt
ombenhl
e"
Ismi
l
edandshef
rowned
Her
:"
Don'
tDumel
aNt
ombenhl
eme,
ihav
ebeen
wai
ti
ngfory
ou"
Me:
"Woah,
sl
owdownNt
ombenhl
eIgoty
ou,
I
'm
sor
ryaboutmyl
atear
ri
val
OK"
Ibr
ushedhercheekwit
hmyindexfi
ngerand
sheletoutt
hatar
ousi
nggi
ggleofher
s
Her:
"OKsowhyareweinthebushes,
andwhere
i
sthefoodyousai
dther
ewasgonnabef ood
r
ight
"
Me:
"Idi
dsayt
hatcome"
Ihel
dherhandinmineandl
eadhert
oa
tr
eehousei
nthebushes
Me:
"Andher
ewear
eNt
ombenhl
e"
Her:
"Wowt hi
splaceissobr
eat
htaking,
thank
youforbr
ingi
ngmeher eMrNkosi"shehugged
me,wellt
hat'
sthefir
st
Me:
"I
t'
smyj ob,
l
et'
scl
i
mbupt
het
reehouseour
f
oodisther
e"

Shej
ustst
oodt
her
elooki
nggor
geous
¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Heht
hisguyexpect
smet
ocl
i
mbupt
her
e
Me:
"Youwon'
tbeabl
etocl
i
mbupt
her
e"
Him:"
Wi t
hmebyyoursi
dey
oucanconquer
anyt
hing,
let
'
sgo"
Heheldontomywaistmaki
ngsuret
hatIdon'
t
missastepunt
ilwewer
eupther
einthat
t
reehouse
Hi
m:"
Comeoni
n"
Me:
"Wow"
That
'stheonlythi
ngImanagedt osayasIwas
ast
onishedbythebeautyinsi
dethere,
andhe
hadli
ttl
epicni
cplannedout,
bathongwhoisthi
s
guy,
I
'l
ltell
youheisheavensent
Hi
m:"
Sitdown,
todayIdi
dn'
tbuyKi
wibutt
he
str
awberr
iesandwater
melonaresti
ll
her
e,y
ou
knowIthoughtyou'
dwanttoeatt
his"
Hef ed
me,maskhopasa,
amakipki
p,
majakat
hat
a,col
our
blocki
ng,t
heyhavedi
ff
erentnameshefed
them tome
Me:"
Ithoughtyouboughtsushi
butI
'
m gl
ady
ou
wentallkasi
onme"
Him:
"Yest
hat'
swhyImadeskopof
ory
ou,
a
cow'
shead"
Me:
"NoI
'
m noteat
ingt
hat
,j
ustl
ookatt
het
eet
h"
Him:"
Tr yi
tNtombenhleandify oudon'
tl
ikeit
you'
ll
nev erseemeagainandi fyouli
keityou
wil
lhav etogiv
emey ourheartandletmebe
yourl
ifeti
mepar t
ner
"
It
ast
edi
tandwel
lher
eal
l
youtdi
dhi
msel
f
Me:
"Il
ovei
t"
Her
aisedmychi
nwi
thhi
sindexf
ingerand
ki
ssedmesof t
ly,
explor
ingmybodywithhi
s
manlyhands,
gri
ppingmywaistl
inehar
dand
bi
ti
ngmyl owerli
parousingmeevenmore
Him:
"SoNt
ombenhl
ear
eyougi
vi
ngmey
our
hear
t??
"
Heaskedwit
hhisdeepvoicewi
thhi
sbr
own
ey
esstari
ngdeepi
nmi ne
Me:
"I
t'
sal
lyour
s"
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e

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nser
t20

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Aft
erourt
alkatschoolItookNt ombit
othe
mallj
ustt
oclearherhead,IjustwithSphacoul
d
seehowmuchshel oveshi m,theyspentway
toomucht i
met oget
herthatt heirlovegot
compr essedandcouldnotexpand
anymor e,
thatwhyIadvicedhert ogivehi mt he
breakthatheneedsandi fher eall
ylov esher
he'l
lcomear ound.Sowedi dal it
tl
ebi tof
shoppingandwhenwer eachedt hebabyIwent
crazybyallthebabystuff,Icouldjustimagi ne
howt heywi l
ll
ookonmysi xprideofjoy .
..
Me:
"Awooht
heysocut
e"
Her
:"
Iknowr
ight
,l
et'
sbuysomemor
e"
Me:
"Youj
ustr
eadmymi
nd"

Weshoppedt i
l
lwedr oppedandt het i
mewas
16:00Iwasexhausted,t
othinkthatat18:00I
havetomeetupwi thVusiandat20:00Nt ombi
i
nvitedmetoherhousesay i
ngherpar ent
sneed
toseemesomyschedul eisprett
ytight
,we
werenowwalkingintoSpurandNt ombi j
ust
fr
ozeonthespot..
.
Me:
"What
'swr
ong?
?Ar
eyouf
ine?
?
Her
:"
Sphai
ssi
tt
ingt
her
eRat
owi
thagi
rl
"
Me:
"So?
?"
Her:
"Don'
tsaySOLer at
o,can'
tyouseet hat
he'
sbeencheati
ngonme, I
'm goi
ngthere,j
ust
l
ookatthem hol
dinghandsandhugging"
Shecan'
t
Me:
"Nt
ombi
justbr
eat
h,y
oucan'
tgot
her
e"
Shej
ustwentt
her
e
Ohgosh

*
*Att
het
abl
e**

Nt
ombi
:"
Hei
iwenasf
ebewhatar
eyoudoi
ng
wi
thmyman!
!"
Shesl
appedher
Spha:
"Nt
ombif
uthi
stopi
t,
whatt
hehel
li
swr
ong
wit
hyou,
a.amahnstopi
t"
Nt
ombi:
"Youcan'
ttel
lmet
ost
opSphay
ouar
e
mi
neandmi neonl
y"
Gi
rl
:"
Your
sonly?
?Hehthisgi
rl
,i
phi
iri
ng,
I
t'
snot
t
heresosi
yashare'
amtase"
Sheshouldnothav esai
dt hat
,nowNt ombi
was
ontopofhert hr
owingpunches,thepoorgi
rl
wasjustscreamingandnotf i
ghting,
minanda
bukel
aiMov i
ekesana,Ijuststoppedherwhen
thepoorgir
lstart
edbleeding
Me:
"Nt
ombi
stopi
tmyf
ri
endshe'
snotwor
thi
t"
Il
ookedatSpha
Me:
"Andhe'
snotwor
thi
t"
Shejustcr
iedwipi
ngherbloodyhandsonher
shi
rtandpeopl
ewer ewatchi
ngandt aki
ng
vi
deosimagine
Nt
ombi
:
Ijustl
ovehi
m wayt
oomuchRat
o,and
hei
sleav
ingmef
ort
hatgi
rl
"
Spha:
"I'
m notgoinganywher
eNt ombi,andI
l
ovey outooverymuchatthat,
youjustjumped
toconclusi
onsmyl ove"
Nt
ombi
:
"Andwhoi
sshe?
?"
Spha:"
She'smysi st
er,Iwastel
l
ingheraboutyou
andhowI 'm scar
edofl osi
ngyou,
shehugged
andheldmyhandsasasi gnofcomfortt
ell
i
ng
met hatIshouldnotletyougo"
Nt
ombi
:
"Idon'
tbel
i
evey
ou"
Spha:
"Tr
ustmemunt
uwam,Ij
ustneededher
advi
ceonhowtodot
his"
Hehbanna,Sphawentdownononekneeand
openedtheboxrev
eali
ngabeaut
if
ulri
ngwit
h
bl
ackdiamonds
Spha:
"Wewer ej
ustdiscussi
ngmypr oposal
Ntombi,
wil
lyoumakemet hehappi
estmani n
thewhol
ewi deworl
dandbemywi f
e"
Ntombij
ustcover
edhermouthandt
ear
sfl
ew
downhercheeksandhej
usthel
dher
Cr
owd:
"Yes,
Yes,
Yes!
!!
"
Peopl
ewer
escr
eami
ngIt
ell
you
Nt
ombi:
"Yes,
I
'dbemor
ethanhappyt
obey
our
wi
fe"
Sphapi
ckedherup
Spha:
"Shesai
dyespeopl
e!!
!Soladi
esdon'
tyou
daremesswit
hmey ousawt hatmygir
lcan
ki
cksomeass"
Theyl
aughedandr
etur
nedt
othei
rseat
s
Gi
rl
:"
Congr
atul
ati
onsbr
o"
Shegr
oanedi
npai
n
Ntombi:
"Ohmygoodnessweshoul
drushy
ou
t
ot hehospi
tal
,I
'mr
eall
ysor
ry"
Gi
rl
:"
It
'sOK,
Ipr
ovokedy
oubutdamny
ou'
reone
cr
azybit
ch"
Me:"
Congrat
ulat
ionsguy
s,I
'
m sohappy
,let
'sgo
shopforadr
ess"
Spha:"
Haait'
sst
il
lear
lyRatobesi
desshe'
llbe
l
eavingwit
hmewehav esomebusinesst
ot ake
car
eof "
Theyst
art
edbei
ngnaught
y
Me:"Byeguy
sandt
aket
hepoorgi
rlt
othe
hospit
al"
Gi
rl
:"
It
'sLuy
anda"
Me:
"OKby
eLuy
anda"
Lu:
"By
ebeaut
if
ul"

Il
eftandwenthomet
ofr
eshenup
Ibathedt
henworemynav ybluemat
erni
ty
dresswit
hnavysnugsandcombedmyhai r
l
etti
ngitf
lowonmyshoulders..
.
Mom:
"Goi
ngsomewher
eRat
o??
"
Me:
"YesMa,
seey
oul
ater
"

It
henlef
t,
Iwonderwhatwe'
l
lbedoi
ngt
oday
,I
misshi
m somuch

¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶

SphaproposedandI '
m superhappy ,Iwasnot
expecti
ngither eal
lyt ookmebysur prise,when
wear r
ivedathisapar tmentIthoughtwewer e
gonnafuckbuthemadei tcl
earthatweshoul d
fol
lowthedoct or'
sor derssoit'
scool .
Todayat
20:00I'
l
l beathomer eadyt ot
akeRat oatsome
pubThandohadbookedf orherbabyshower .
Thandoi stheonet hatplannedev er
y t
hingand
shemadei tver
ycleart hatshedidn'
tneedany
helpfr
om any oneespeci all
yme...
Me:
"If
eel
li
keani
diotf
orbeat
ingy
oursi
sterl
i
ke
t
hat
"
Hi
m: "Youar
emyidi
otbesi
desLuyandai
sa
l
esbianwhydoyouthi
nksheworewhatshe
wore"
Me:
"Ir
eal
i
zedaf
ter
war
ds,
she'
shott
hough"
Hi
m:"
NoI
'
m hot
"
Me:
"Jeal
ousmuch"

Wespentt hetimetogethercommuni cati

ngand
gossi
pingy er
rSphauthandai zi
ndabay ou'
d
swearhe'sgaysomet i
mes. .
.

¶¶Vusi
¶¶
Me:
"Yes,
makesur
eyouhav
ebackup"
Her
:"
OKnopr
obl
em "
Me:
"Weget
ti
nghert
oday
"
Her
:"
YesandIcan'
twai
t,
seey
ou"
Me:
"Sur
e"

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Ij
ustarri
vedatthehouseandt
helight
sare
of
f,
thingisIl
eft
nmykeyt hi
nki
ngthatVusi
wouldbehereI'
llj
usthavet
owait
..
.

"Ler
ato,
Ler
ato,
Ler
atowowgi
rly
oucanbe
play
ed"
Il
ookedatt
heper
sonspeaki
ng
Me:
"Thando?
?Whatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e??
"
Her
:"
Let'
snotmakethingshar
dgi
rl
yyoucl
i
mb
i
nthatcarr
ightnow!
!!
"
Shepul
l
edoutagun
Me:
"No!
!"
Twomengotoutoft
hecarandcar
ri
edme
i
nsi
de
Her
:"
Isai
dgetin,
youar
egivi
ngbi
rt
htoni
ghtand
we'
l
lsell
thosebabi
esofy
oursnowgeti
n"

Coul
dNkosi
bewor
kingwi
thThando?
?
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nser
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¶¶Thando¶¶
Ifi
nall
ygotthebitchit'
sbeenlongsi
nceIgav e
mycust omerssomebabi es,i
t'
snotsomet hing
personalt
houghI'mr unni
ngabusinesshere
andoneofmycl i
entsrequest
ed6babi es,
Ijust
tookanopportunitywhenIsawone,wej ust
arri
vedatthewarehousewher ewewi l
lbe
taki
ngthebabies..
.
Me:"
Putheronthattabl
esgents,
andy ougo
f
etchthesci
ssorsandsomet owels"
Hi
m:"
Sur
ethi
ngboss"

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

I'
m soscaredaboutwhat '
saboutt ohappen,I
knewThandowasupt onogoodal lIshoul
d
havedonewast otrustmyi nst
incts,butwhatis
confusi
ngisthefactthatshemi ghtbewor ki
ng
withVusi.
..
.
Her
:"
OhIseeyouar
eawakenowbeagoodgi
rl
f
ormeOK, y
ouaregi
vi
ngbi
rt
htoday
"
Thoseguy
stookofmyundi
es
Me:"
Lookl
et'
stalkaboutt
hisy
oucan'
ttakemy
babi
espl
easejustst
op"
Her:
"Takethi
sasablessi
ngindisgui
sey
ouar
e
sti
l
ly ounggol
iv
eyourli
feal
lIneedaret
he
babies"
Me:
"NoIr
efuse!
!"
Her
:"Thescissorsandglov
espl
easeandgent
s
hur
ryup,t
hisonehasasweetpussyaf t
ert
he
j
obyoucanal lfeasti
fyouwantOKSikes"
Hi
m:"Whynotfeastnowsothatwecanopenup
t
hatpussyi
nthatwaythebabieswi
l
lgoout
i
mmediatel
y"
Her
:"
Yeahy
our
ight
,f
uckhergent
s"
Hi
m:"
Ohwhatasweetpussy
"
Hel
i
ckedmypr
ivat
ear
ea
Hi
m:"
Comeonguy
staket
hosecocksout
"
Theystar
tedunzi
ppi
ngthei
rtr
ouser
sbei
ng
readyt
ofuckmeup...

"
Freeze,
I
SISputy
ourhandswher
eIcansee
t
hem"
I
twasVusiandagr
oupofmenandwoman
wi
thguns
Vusi
:"
Youareallar
restedf
orbabytr
affi
cki
ng
youhavether
ighttoremai
nsil
ent,
every
thi
ng
yousayordomaybeusedagai nstyouint
he
cour
toflaw"
Hesaidastheywerecuff
ingt
hem andsendi
ng
them away
,Iam nowconf
usedandIneed
answers
"
Greatj
obNkosi
"
"
NiceoneNkosi
"
"
Youdi
ditagai
nmyman"
Theywer
econgr
atul
ati
nghi
m

Hi
m:"
Ntombenhl
ear
eyouOK?
?"
Heunt
iedmeandgav
ememyundi
es
Me:"
NoI
'm notOK,
whati
sgoi
ngon,
Ial
most
l
ostmybabies"
Tear
swel
l
edupi
nmysor
eey
es
Hi
m:"
Rel
axNt
ombenhl
e,Igoty
ou"
Hesai
dpul
l
ingmei
ntoahug
Him:
"Si
tdownI
'
llt
ell
youev
ery
thi
ng,
youseem
conf
used"
Me:
"St
artt
alki
ng"
Him:"Iam asecretagentfr
om t
heInter
nati
onal
SecretInt
ell
i
genceSer vi
cewestopthewor l
d'
s
mostf ear
edanddanger ouscr
iminal
sso
"Thando"hasalwaysbeenwanted,sheisknown
forcaptur
ingpregnantwomanandt aki
ngtheir
babiestosel
lthem,youarethel
uckyone
becausewecameont ime,sheusesfake
namesev ery
whereandherr eal
namei s
CandiceMcAr t
hur"
Me:
"Soy
ouwer
ejustdoi
ngy
ourj
ob?
?"
Hi
m:"
Yes"
Me:"Meani
ngthatyoudi
dnotl
oveme,Iwas
j
ustbai
ttoyoucatchi
ngt
hebigfi
sh"
Him:"
NoNt ombenhleyouar emyqueenandI
meantev er
ysingl
ethi
ngt hatIsai
dto
you,
pleasefor
givemef ornottel
li
ngyouwhatI
dobuty ougot
taunderstandthatI'
m asecr
et
agentsoeverythi
ngi
ssecr et
ive"
Ij
ustdon'
tneeddr
ama
Me:"Thankyouforsav
ingme, butIdon'
tthi
nk
thi
sthinghappeni
ngbetweenuswi ll
everwork,
I
don'
twanttobecaughtupi nsomedr ama,Il
ove
youbutIcan't
"
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nser
t22

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Hur t,di
sappointed, underesti
mat edt hat '
showI
feel r
ightnow,Itriedexplaini
ngev er
yt hingthing
toNt ombenhl ebutshewoul dnotbudge, Itri
ed
allthetri
cksi nt
hebookt ogetherbacki nmy
l
ov i
ngar msbuti tseemedasi fIwasj ust
wast ingmyt imewhi chcannotber est oredbutI
didnotr eall
ymi ndl osi
ngal lthetimeIhav efor
theper sonIlove.SoIhadt hisideat oqui tmy
j
obt oshowmyl ov eanddev otiontoherbut
thenIt houghtthatsomet hi
ngswedof orlove
canbev eryidot
icandst upidsomet i
mes, I
forgotthatIhav et wopeopl ewhodependon
mei nordertosur vive.
Iknowt hatido
Pal
eontol
ogyonthesi
debutt
henIl
ovemy
j
ob,
ifshedoesnotwantt
obewit
hmet henso
bei
t,Iwon'
tfor
ceher
.

IjustwishthatGodwoul dblessNtombenhl e
withalovingmant hatwil
l l
oveherandherki ds
unconditi
onally
,atypeofguyt hatwi l
ll
istento
herandgui dehertotherightdir
ection,at y
peof
mant hatwi l
lhonorandtreatherli
keaQueen
thatsheis,Iwouldbethatguybutt henlife
happenedandev er
ythi
ngchangedf rom hotto
not.

I'
llheadi
ngbacktoEur opetomorrownightwith
myki dsIreal
lywantedtosettl
edowni nmy
homecount rybutthenIcan't
,Idon'
tbeli
eve
thatIwil
leversetmyf ooti
nSout hAfr
icaagain
sincethepeopleherearecruel
,tal
ki
ngabout
Nt ombenhlei
nparticul
arIl
astsawandt alked
wit
hherlastweekandherwor dsstungli
kean
angrybeeal
lIcansayisthatIneverwantto
seeNtombenhleagai
n..
.

*
*Fl
ashback*
*

Me:"
I'
m sti
l
l holdingyourhear
tinmybar ehands
Ntombenhle,let'
sjustf
orgetwhathappened
andstar
taf resh"
Her
:"
Nogobackwher
eyoucomef
rom,
I
'm not
t
heonef
oryou"
Me:
"Youar
etheonef
ormeandev
enmor
e"
Her:
"Justgoandpayat
tent
iont
oyourki
ds
Vusi
"
Me:
"Theyneedamot
herf
igur
e"
Her :
"Thenmar rysomewoman, i
t'
snotmyf aul
t
thaty ouneglectedthei
rmotherthatshewent
allouttosleepwi thmenall
ov erandendedup
wit
hAI
DS,
nowy
ouwantt
ogi
vei
ttome,
geta
l
if
e
*
*EndFl
ashback*
*

SoIdon'twanttoseet hatwomanagainshe
reall
yopenedupoldwoundsandwhat '
sworse
i
st hatshesaidal
lthatinapubl
icpl
ace,It
old
herthosesecret
saboutmywi febecauseI
trust
edher..
.

¶¶Kabel
o¶¶

Yohnev ertr
ustagi
rli
ny ourl
if
e!!
!Those
creat
urescanmesswi thyourmindandmake
youbelievei
nlovei
fyouwer eanon-beli
ever
CandiceMcAr t
hurt
hat'
sThando'srealname
thatgir
lmademef al
lforherwithmenot
knowingthatshewasgonnasel lmysist
er'
s
babies.Well
Ifeelali
ttl
ebi thear
tbrokenbut
neverthel
essI'
mf i
ne,Isawt hatIhavebeen
dist
anteversinceourr eunionsoIjustwant
ed
tocheckuponRat osinceshe'sbeendownf or
thepastfewday s.
..

Me:
"Tal
ktomesi
s"

Her
:"
Huh"
Shewasdeepi
nhert
hought
s

Me:
"ComeonIcanseey
ouhav
eal
otony
our
mi
ndsooutwit
hit"

Her
:"
Youaguyr
ight
"

Me:
"Duhi
sthatat
ri
ckquest
ion"
Her:
"Mxm, sol
ikehowwoul dyoufeelifyoutol
d
yourgir
lsomethingbecauseyoutrustherand
shejusttal
ksaboutiti
npubli
c?"

Me:"Iwould..
.wel
lletmet el
lyousomething
aboutusguy s,weacttoughattimesbut
somet i
mest hebaggageget sheavyandwe
can'tdoitanymore.Gir
lstendtothi
nkthatthey
aretheonlyoneswi thfeeli
ngsbutdoforget
thatwear ealsohumanandweal sohave
feel
ings"

Her
:"
That
'snotwhatIasked"

Me:"YesIknowI'
mj usttryi
ngt
oshowyouthe
otherendofthet
unnel,Iknowwhyyouar
e
askingmethatquesti
onandIsawandheard
howy ouspoket ot hatNkosi guyatthe
restauranttheot herday.Itwasnotcool Lerat
o
andasabr otheri t
'smyj obt osetyoust
rai
ght
youdonott al
kt oanot herhumanbei ngli
kethat
thewor d"respect "i
sther ef orareasonno
mat terhowpi ssedy ouar e,didyouseehowhe
reactedaftery ousaidall that"

Her
:"
No"
Shel
ookeddowni
nembar
rassment

Me:"Hel
ookeddefeated,
hetri
edacti
ngstrong
i
nf r
ontofyoubutIcouldseethatwhatyou
sai
ddroppedhimtot hegroundandopenedup
woundsthatcan'
tbecov er
edagain,
nextti
me
thi
nkbefor
espeakingthatwil
lhel
pyou"

Her
:"
I'
m sor
ry"
Me:
"I
'm nott
heoney
ouwr
onged"

Icouldseet hatshewasashamedofherl ousy

acti
ons, butonaseriousnotewhatLer atodi
d
wascr uelandselfi
sh,youwouldnot
understandbutIwast here,
Iwitnessedthe
wholesceneIwoul dnev erwishmyenemyt o
experi
encesuchr emor se.
..

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Iwantt oapologizebutmypr idehasgotthe

betterofme,Iwantt otellhi
mt hatI
'
m sorr
y,I
wasnott hinki
ngandt hatIjustwantedtoget
him ofmyback, thatIdidnotmeanwhatIhad
said,buti
tissaidthat90%oft hethi
ngsyousay
whenangr yareent i
rel
yt r
ue.Comet othi
nkofit
IdonotevennowwhyIsai dal
lthosethi
ngs,
I
shouldbethankf
ult
hatVusiwasmanenough
tocomesav emeandmanyot hervict
imsout
ther
ebutthenonceagai
nIbecamesel fi
sh.
Ireceivedanear f
ulf
rom mybr ot
hertoday
hearingallthatcomi
ngf r
om aguyIfinall
yfeel
thepaint hatVusimightbeencount
ering,Ibet
thathecur sesthedayhemetme

"
Locki
ngyour
sel
fint
hisr
oom won'
ttur
nback
t
hehandsoft
ime"
Thatwasmymom ent
eri
ngmyr
oom wi
that
ray
offood

Her:
"Kabel
otol
dmewhatyoudi
d,Icamet
otel
l
youthatIdi
dnotr
aisey
oul
iket
hat"

Me:
"Youdi
dnotr
aisemesol
et'
snotgetahead
ofour selvesher e,youl eftmei nasewagepi pe
thenlef tandhadagoodl i
fewhi l
eIwas
suffering,onlyify out ookcar eofy our
responsi bil
iti
esIwoul dnotbeher e,
Iwoul dnot
bepr egnantwi thsixf uckingbabi est hatI
actuallyhat e,
MaTumel omi ghthav ebeenan
asshol ebutshewi l
l alway sbeamot herto
me, t
hewomanwhor aisedmeev ent houghshe
struggleshenev erleftmeouti nthecol dlike
youhav edonesodon' tcomeher et el
li
ngme
howy ouhadr aisedmewoman! !
"

"That
'senoughLer
ato!
!I
fyoudonotappreci
ate
whatwehav edoneforyousof
arther
e'sthe
doorit
'sal
waysopen"
Thatwasdaddydear
est

Me:"Yeahsendmeawayt
hat
'swhaty
oudo
bestanyway"
Ahotslaplandedonmycheekasmommy
dear
estranintoherhusband'
sar
mscr
ying

*
*Mor
al*
*

•
Nev
ert
akepeopl
ewhol
ovey
ouf
orgr
ant
ed

•
Beconsi
der
atenotsel
fi
sh

•
Secr
etsar
efort
hegr
avenott
hepubl
i
c

•
Respecti
sther
ootofl
i
fe

•Nomattert
hecir
cumstances,
backgroundor
condi
ti
onsneversayt
hingsthatwi
llmakeyour
mot
hercr
y
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e

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¶¶Nt
ombi
¶¶

Iknowi t
'sbeenjustaweeksi
nceSpha
proposedbuttheexcit
ementinmyhearti
s
overf
lowingIjustcannotwai
ttosayIdoand
behispar t
nerforev
er.
..
.

I'
m current
lyatt
hemal l
wi t
hRatowal ki
ngto
Steersandf i
nal
l
yarri
vi
ngandor deringsome
food,soIwasbusyshowi ngherdressesand
shitonmyphone. .
.
Me:"
OhmygoodnessThi
xocheckt
hisoneout
gi
rl"

Her
:"
Yeahi
t'
sni
ce"

Me:"Justni
ce,
tal
ktomemyf
ri
endwhati
s
buggingyou??
"

Her:
"Ifeel
li
keIoweVusi anapol
ogyandmy
mom anddadf orbehav
ingthewayIdid
yest
erday"

Me:
"Sowhati
sst
oppi
ngy
ougi
rl
"

Her
:"
YouknowIam notgoodwit
hthosest
uff
soIdon'
treal
l
yknowwhattosay
"
Me:"
Saywhati
sinyourhear
tandpl
easeRat
o
hl
ehavesomerespect
"

Her
:"
Iwi
llandIam sor
ryf
orr
uini
ngy
our
momentwithmydulll
i
fe"

Me:
"I
t'
sOK,
doy
oust
il
ll
oveVusi
mar
a?"

Her
:"Al
otbutf
ornowIj
ustwanttoapol
ogi
zeI
r
eal
izet
hatwhatIdi
dwasnotcool,
l
ater
"

Me:
"OKshar
pI'
l
lwai
tforSpha"

Shel
eftandIwai
tedf
orSpha
IknowLeratosheisaver
ytal
kat
iveandbubbl
y
personbutsometi
messhetal
kswayt oomuch
thatsheendsupsayi
ngthi
ngssheshouldnot
sayt
hati
sherweakt
rai
t,
tal
ki
ngt
oomuch.

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Aftery
esterday'
sinci
dentmymom di dnoteven
wanttoseemyf ace,
nottoment i
onmydadhe
wouldgivemenast ystar
esnje,
Ijustcamein
thehouseandhear dthem t
alki
ngsoIdecided
toeavesdrop..
..

Mom:"Iwantnothi
ngtodowi
thher,
whatshe
sai
dlastni
ghtreal
lyt
ornmeapar
tPapa"

Dad:"
Iknowbambol
wam butweshouldgui
de
hertobeabett
erwomannotj
ustthr
owi nt
he
towel"
Mom:
"IdonotknowPapat
hatgi
rli
s..
."

Igoti
n

Me:"Asil
ly,naught yandasor eassl oser,sorry
forswearingmamaIdi dnotmeant odi srespect
you.Mamal ePapaIf eel very,
v ery,verybadt hat
Iwannaki l
l mysel fbottom l i
nei st hatIf eel
bad,Iam verysor rythatIspoket oy oui nt hat
kindofmannery esterday, Ishoul dnothav e
takenoutmyf rust r
ati
onsony oubecausey ou
wereonlyt ryi
ngt ohel p,
Iknowt hatImi ght
seem li
keanungr eatf
ul bitch,sorryt oswear
againbutIr eal
lyappr eciat eyouguy si
nev ery
momentofmyl i
feIam gr eatful thatyounev er
stoppedlookingf ormeandmypastl i
fei snot
yourfaul
tbecausey ouwer enott here.Youguy s
havebeent r
eatingmesowel l sinceIgother e
andy oudonotdeser vet obet reatedwi th
disrespect,
pleasefi
nditi
nyourlovi
nghear
tst
o
forgivemef orbeingsuchanungreatf
ul
bitch,
sorryforsweari
ngagain"

Theyjustkeptqui
et,
Iguesstheywer
e
processi
ngmyapol ogyandImesseditup
becauseIkeptswearingher
eandthere.
..

Dad:
"Si
tdownRat
o"

Mom:"WedonothateyouRatoandwefor
gave
youal
ready,
al
lwewantedwasforyout
oreal
i
se
t
hatyouracti
onswer
eunjust
"

Dad:"
Iwatchedthevi
deoofyouspeaki
ngto
thatmanandImustsayyourwordscut
deep,
youdonothavetoapologi
zetousforwe
areyourparent
sandwewill
alwayslov
eyouno
matt
ert
hecircumstancesbutIdot
hinkt
hat
youowethatfai
regentl
emanadeepapology
"

Mom:"
Youhavet
ogoandapologizetohim now
sot
hatyoucanf
indpeacei
nyourheart
"

Me:"
OKI '
l
lgotomorr
owit'
sgett
inglat
e
now,
thankyouforf
orgi
vi
ngIlov
ey ouguy
s"

Ihuggedt
hem

Mom:
"Wai
tthi
scamei
nfory
ou"
Shegav
emeal
ett
er

Me:
"Ohmay
bei
t'
saboutmyAVONst
ock"
It
henopent
hel
ett
erandr
ead.
..
Myl ovingNt ombenhl easy ouar er eadingthisI
mi ghtbeatt heairpor torinapl anebackt o
Eur ope, besidesallyourshenani gansIj ust
want edtot elly
out haty ouar ethemostmat ur
e,
kindhear tedandgor geousy oungl adyIhav e
evermeti nmyl i
fe.Ireall
ywant edt oset t
le
downi nSout hAfri
cabutIcoul dnotbecause
theonl ywomanIl ov ehadshat teredmyhear t
j
ustknowt hatIwil
l alwaysl ovey ohandIv alue
allthemoment swehav espentt ogetherev en
thought heywer eshor tt
erm, behindt hi
sl et
ter
aret hepaper sforthehouseandachequet hat
willsuppor tyouandOURbabi es

Lot
sofl
oveVusi
*
***
***
***
***
***
**

*
*Mor
al*
*
•
Yourpar
ent
swi
thal
way
slov
eyounomat
ter
what

•
Honort
hef
ri
endsy
oukeep

•
Someti
mesy
oudon'
tknowwhaty
ouhav
eti
l
l
i
tsgone
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eLov
e

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nser
t24

Aft
erIreadthatlett
erIswall
owedhar dandt
he
moment sthatwehadshar edtogetherr
an
thr
oughmymi nd,t
hat'
swhenIr eal
i
zedthatI
wouldbeverystupidtoletamanl i
keVusisl
ip
thr
oughmyf ingers,
Ist
oodupandt ookmy
mom'
scarkey
sandwal
kedt
othedoor
..
.

Mom:"
Ratoyoucannotdr
ivewher
ear
eyou
goi
ngI
'l
ldropyouoff
"

Me:"
NoMaI
'
llf
igur
eitoutt
hisIhav
etodo
myself
"
Iwal
kedoutandwentt
othecarwi
thmymom
anddadbehi
ndme

Dad:
"Ler
atodoy
ouhav
eadeat
hwi
sh?
?"

Me:"
I'
dratherdiethanlosehim,
ifIdodiej
ust
knowthatIdiedforthepersonIlove,
myworl
d,
mysmi l
ekeeper"

Dad:
"Gogethi
m sweet
hear
t"
Me:
"Yesdaddy
"

Ist
artedthecarandhitapol
ewit
hmymom
scr
eami ngfi
nal
lyIgotonther
oadandsped
off
,Iwassweating.
..

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Thetimehasarr
ivedformetogobacktowher
e
Ibel
ong,
taki
ngalastlookofmyhouseand
wait
ingfort
heki
dst ocomedown..
.

Me:
"Hur
ryupy
ouguy
s"

Sbu:
"I
'm her
epopsj
ustwai
ti
ngf
orSi
hle"
Si
hle:
"I
'
m comi
ngj
ustput
ti
ngmyl
i
pincheck"

Me:
"Wel
eav
ingy
ouher
eit
'sget
ti
ngl
ate"

Si
hle:
"I
'
m her
edadj
eez
"
Sher
oll
edherey
es

Me:
"Nev
erev
erdot
hatagai
nyouher
eme"

Si
hle:
"YesI
'
m sor
rydaddyl
et'
sgo"

Iopenedt
hedoorandshewasstandi
ngt
her
e
l
ookingawful
..
.wi
thherey
esgl
ossy

Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
ewhatar
eyoudoi
ngher
e??
"
Shej
ustpour
edherhear
toutast
ear
sescaped
herbeaut
if
uley
es
Me:
"Comei
n"
Il
edheri
nsi
de

Her:
"I
'm..
..
Idon'tknow.,
Iknowthatyouhat
e
me..
.Ican'
tli
ve..
.wit
houtyou.
..
I'
m sorr
yabout
ever
ythi
ng..
.Ineedyou"
Shesai
dwi
thherv
oicebr
eaki
ng

Me:"Nt
ombenhlebreathIdonothateyou,
Ihat
e
yourat
ti
tudeandactions,
pleasesaywhatyou
wanttosaywehavet ogo"

Her:
"YesIknowt hatyouareleavi
ng,Ij
ust
wantedtoapologizeforsayi
ngthosekindsof
thi
ngsandrevealingyoursecret
sinpubli
c,al
lI
wantistoyoutof orgi
vemeandmyhear tshal
l
beinpeaceandIwi llal
sohavepeaceinmy
heart,
Iknowt hatIdonotdeser veyour
for
givenessbutt rut
histhatIcannotli
ve
withoutyouVusi .
VusiNkosi youaremylif
e,you
aremybr eath,pl
easejustforgiv
emeandI 'l
lbe
outofy ourl
i
f epleaseVusi pl
easeeeeee"
Shewentdownonherkneesandcr
iedso
pai
nful
l
y,Icoul
dseeSi
hlei
ntear
sasshehitmy
arm

Sihl
e:"
Dad,dadyoual
wayssayt hatev
eryone
deservesasecondchance,
pleaseforgi
veher"

Sbu:
"Youal
sosaidthatIshoul
dnotl
etagi
rl
cr
y,j
ustl
ookatherdad,weneedher
"

Sihl
e:"
Andwel oveherandy ouloveher
too,
what evershehasdonemi ghthav
ebeenbi
g
butcan'tshegetonel astchance"
Ili
stenedt
omyki ds,
sotheyreal
l
yli
stenasI
teachthem aboutl
i
fe,
ItookNtombenhl
e'
shand
i
nmi ne

Me:"List
entomeNt ombenhl eInev erhat edyou
Ntombenhl eandseeingy oucr yovermemeans
thewor l
dtome, itshowst haty oureall
yl ove
mebutatt hesamet i
meseei ngyoubr eaksmy
heartbecauseyouar ehurting.Pleasest op
cryi
ngIf or
giveyouandIl ovey ouv erymuch, I
hateitwhenwear eli
kethis.West i
llhaveal ot
totalkaboutbutfornowcany oubemi neonce
again"
Ihel
pedherst
and

Her
:"
I'
ll
bey
our
sfor
ever
,t
hank.
..
"
Thenshecol
l
apsed.
..
Me:
"What
'swr
ongNt
ombenhl
ewakeup"

Si
hle:
"Dadi
sshedead?
?"

Me:
"Let
'sj
usttakehert
othehospi
tal
,
staywi
th
usNtombenhl
e..
."

Icar
ri
edhert
othecaranddr
oveof
f
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¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Af
terNt
ombenhl
e'
ssuddenpassi
ngoutIdr
ove
hertothehospi
talandtheyplacedheri
nthe
ER,i
thasbeenhourssincewehav ebeen
wait
ingforanupdateoratleastsomethi
ngto
workwith.

Sihl
e:"
Dadi
sshegonnal
eav
eusl
i
kemommy
haddone??
"

Me:
"Justsl
eepnanashewi
l
lbeal
ri
ght
"

Somequest i
onsar etoughtoanswerl
ikethe
oneSihl
ehasj ustasked,whet
herNtombenhl
e
wil
lbealr
ightornot,Idon'tev
enknow.

Sihl
eandSbuar ereal
l
ygr eat
chil
dren,
someti
mesIwi shthatthei
rmother
wasst i
llher
etoseeherchildr
engrow,Iusedt
o
l
ov ethatwomanbutthenl i
fehappenedandI
sl
owl
ybegant
ohat
eanddespi
seher
.

Itallbegan10y ear sagowhenIgotaj obat

ISIS,
thewor kloadhadbecomemor eandmor e
byasecondandIst artedf ail
ingtodomyj obas
ahusbandandaf ather.Ispentmor etimeat
wor kthanathomebutt rustmei t
'snotl i
keIdid
i
tonpur pose,allIev erdidwast rytopr ovide
herandourki dswi t
habet t erli
febecauseIdi d
notwantt hem togr owupi nt hesamesi t
uat i
on
l
ikemi ne,wherebyIhadt obegf oral i
ving
(storyforanotherday ).
Butt henmywi fet ook
myef f
ortsforgrantedandst artedgoingi nand
outwi thdif
ferentmenofdi ff
erentsizes,t
hati s
whenshegotsi ckandwer eal i
sedthatsheher
statushaschangedf rom negat i
vetoposi tiv
e.

Somemightsayt
hatIpushedhert
otheedge
andt
hatInegl
ect
edherbutinmyown
experi
enceIwoul dnotsayt hatIneglectedher ,
all
Iev erdidwast omakeourl i
vesbetterbut
shechoset obeunf ait
hful,
wev owed" forbet
ter
orwor se"shecoul dhav ewai t
edformet obe
mor efinancial
lystablebutshechoset orun
withthebi gdogs.Althoughshehur tmeIcoul d
notjustleaveherliket hat
,soItookcar eofher
andunf ortunatel
yshedi edthreey ears
ago,pl
easedonotgetmewr ongIam nott r
ying
touseNt ombenhlet ocleanupt hewoundmy
l
atewi fehadcr eated,IloveNtombenhl eandI
wouldki l
l f
orthatwoman.

*
*Fl
ashback*
*

Iwasst i
l
linEur opewhentheyassi
gnedme
wit
ht heprojecttotr
ackdownCandice
McArthur(Thando)sinceshehaddri
ft
edto
SouthAfri
ca,soIcamet oSAandsawwhot he
nextv i
ctim was, itwasabeaut i
fulAfri
can
womanwhowor kedatacl ubatni ghtandwent
toschool dur ingt heday .
Atf i
rstitwasal labout
wor kbutt henast i
mewentbyInot icedher
personalit
y ,t
hewayshei sunderpr essureand
simplythewayshei nteractedwi thalmost
everyone,onet hingf orsur eisthatsheal way s
hadt hatdeal breakingsmi leofher sthatwoul d
makemecr azyev eryt
imeIseeher ,
soIf el
lin
l
ov eaftert hreelongy ear sofsadnessand
discomf ortIf ellinlovewi thal ady16y ears
youngert hanIam butt heni t
'sthehear tnot
me. .
.
*
*Fl
ashback*
*

Sobeinginthi
ssituat
ionofwait
ingforhours
remi
ndsmeoft hedaymywi f
edi ed,
Icannot
l
ooseNt ombenhleIneedher,
weneedherbut
whatcouldbewr ongwithher
??
"
MissLer
ato"

Ij
umpedof
fmyseatasIhear
dthatname

Me:
"Doci
sshef
ine?
?Ar
ethebabi
esf
ine?
?"

Doc:
"Ar
eyouf
ami
l
y??
"

Me:"
NobutI
'
m herboy
fri
end,
whati
sgoi
ng
on?
?"

Doc:"
I'
m sorr
ysirbutherhealt
hcondi
ti
onsdo
notconsernyou,
butthanksforbei
ngagood
Samarit
anandbr i
ngingherhereonti
me"
Thenhewentaway,
doesthatguyknowhow
muchNtombenhlemeanstome? ?Doeshe
knowthepai
nIfeel
whenshei snotbymyside?
?

Me:"
Sbu,
Sihl
ewakeupl
etmet
akey
ouguy
s
home"

Sbu:
"Wher
eisSi
sLer
ato?
?"

Sihl
e:"
Yeahhasshegi
venbir
th,
ohmywor dI
real
lyhavet
oseethebabi
es,Iguesst
heyar
e
cute"

Me:
"Let
'
sgoguy
s"

Theyar
esoexcit
edaboutt
hebabi
esand
Ntombenhl
e,t
heyev
enaskedmeitthey
'l
lbe
mov
ingi
nornot
.

It
ookherphoneandcal
l
edhermot
her

Her:
"Ler
atongwanakaohokaehl
e,
it
'sal
ready
pastmidni
ghtcomehomenow"

Me:"Hel
lomam i t
'snotLerat
o,Ij
ustwantedto
i
nformy outhatLerat
oi si
nhospital
,theyf
ound
adiagnosi
sandneedf amil
yhere"

Her
:"
TjooooModi
mowakamypoorbaby
..
."

Icoul
dhearherbreat
hingdeepl
yfrom t
heother
endofthephone,
shemustbedev ast
ated,
not
toment
ionmewholastsawherat19:
46i
t'
s
now02:
58,myonl
ytr
ustisi
nGod..
.
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e

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t26

¶¶Kabel
o¶¶

Ijustrecei
vedacallf
rom myoldnansayi
ng
thatIshouldrepor
ttothehospi
tal
because
Leratohasbeenadmi t
ted,
Iwonderwhatcoul
d
bewr ongwi t
hher.

Mypoorsi st
erhasbeent hr
oughsomuch
al
readyfrom Tshepoandherfakefami l
y
pl
ayinghertoThendoabusingandf orceful
ly
penetrat
ingherandnowonahospi talbed,she
i
sonl yni
neteenforcr
yingoutloud,
can'tshejust
gi
vebirt
handliveherl
i
fetot
hefull
estl
ikeki
ds
herage??Godcanyounotgi
veherabreakof
somesort??

Iam dr
essi
ngasacoupleofthoughtsr
un
thr
oughmymi ndandIf
eell
ikebit
sofoxygen
arebei
ngwithdr
awnfr
om myf l
esh..
.

"
Comeony oudon'
thavetogo,
justl
ookathow
wetmypussyi
sjustf
oryoulov
erboy "
Shesay
sasshepul
l
smet
owar
dsher

Me:
"Heyhandsof
f"
Ir
emov
edmy
sel
ffr
om hergr
ip

Her
:"Comeonwebot
hknowy
ouneedi
t"
Sheunzi
ppedmyj
eans
Me:
"Isaidhandsoffwoman!
!!
Dressupandget
t
hehelloutofher
e"

Her:
"Ar
gyouareall
thesame,gi
vememy
moneyfort
henight
,andremembery
ouwil
l
comebackformeloverboy"
Igav
ehert
hemoneyandshel
eft

Sheisoneofmy" St
ressRel
iever
s",
aftert
his
wholesagaofThandonotbeingThandoIhave
beenbrokenandsadsosexwast heonlyway
out.
..

Iarr
ivedatthehospi
talandi
mmediatel
ysaw
myf amilysi
tt
ingonthechai
rs,
soIwentupt
o
them...
Me:
"Dumel
aMa,
Pawhati
sgoi
ngon?
?"
Ist
oodinf
rontoft
hem asmymot
herpour
ed
her
sel
fout

Dad:"
Rat
owenti ntolabourt
wohour sago,
boy
t
hedoctorhasnotupdat edusyet
,don'
tmind
yourmothersheisjustemoti
onal
"

Me:
"OKt
hat
'sar
eli
ef"
Isi
ghasIsi
tdown

Mom: "
Ifshediesi
twi
llbeonyouTeboho,
you
encouragedhertogooutatni
ght
"

Dad:
"Stopbei
ngdramati
cNtswaki
webot
h
knowthatLer
atowil
lbefi
ne"
Mom: "
OhsoI'
m dramat
ic,
mybabyi
sdy
ingi
n
ther
eandyoutel
lmeaboutbei
ng
dramati
c,
don'
ttr
ymeTeboho"

Dad:
"Shei
sgi
vi
ngbi
rt
hnotdy
ingsokaokopa.
..
"

Justthenthedoctorcameourway,t
hankGodI
wouldnotstandthesetwo(mom anddad)
argui
ng..
.

Me:
"Canweseeher
??Ar
etheyf
ine?
?"
Hejustshr
uggedhi
sshoul
der
s,whatdoest
hat
supposedtomean

Doc:"
Wet ri
ed,wer eal
lydid,
but.
..welost3
i
nfantsandtheot herthreewil
lhavetobe
pl
acedi nanincubatorforaperiodofamonth
ormor esi
ncet heyarenotyetstableandmor
e
heal
thyf
ornor
mal
inf
ant
s,I
'
mreal
l
ysor
ry"

Me:
"OKbutwhataboutt
hemot
her
??Mysi
ster
i
ssheokay?
?"

Doc:"Nowef oundoutthatshehashy poxemia

shewi l
lhav
et oremainincomaunt i
lshewakes
up,I
Fshewakesupbuti t
'suptoyouguy s
whetheryouswi t
choffthemachinesory ou
keepheronl i
fesupport
"

Dad:
"Doccanweseeherandt
hebabi
esnow?
?"

Doc:
"Yesf
oll
owme"

Mom:"
WenaTebohot
hedi
vor
cepaper
sar
e
comi
ngfory
ou"
Me:
"Mama,
stopi
tmahnj
eez"

*
*Nar
rat
ed*
*

Fort hoseofy ouwhodonotknowhy poxemi ais

adi seasewher ebyt hebr ai
nshut sdownbi tby
bitduet olackofoxy gen/ oxygendiff
usi on.I
tis
causedbyhear tconditionsincludi
nghear t
defect s,
lungdi seasessuchasast hma, constant
headaches, l
ossofmemor y,
conf usion,shortnessofbr eathandev enr apid
hear tbeats.Patientssufferi
ngfrom Hy poxemi a
aremor elikelyt obeinComaf oralongper i
od
oft i
mei fnotmont hstheny earsortheyj ustdi
e
i
ft heyar eatt hef i
nalstage...
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e
I
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*
*Nar
rat
ed*
*

Lif
ehasbeent oughont heMal ebohousehol d
thei
rpoordaught eri sst i
llonherdeat hbedt ill
thi
sv er yday ,
itisthef i
r stdayofJanuar yoft he
foll
owi ngy earandt hisdaymar kstwomont hs
andaf ewhour ssinceLer at
ohasbeen
admi tt
ed.I fIwer eherf ami l
yIwoul dtaket he
decisionofswi t
chingof fthemachi nesandl et
thepoorgi rlrestinpeacebutaspar entsitwi l
l
alway sbehar dt obur yy ourv eryownchi ld,
itis
bestifi ti
st heot herwayar oundwi t
ht hem
buryingy oui nstead.Aboutt hethreebabi es
whomadei ttheyar est il
l i
nhospi t
alreceivi
ng
thebestcar et heywi llev ergetbutclearlyand
surelytheyneedamot her '
sl ov
eIam sur et hat
theycanf eel herabsencesi ncetheynev er
r
eal
l
ybondedwi
thher
.

[
Thehospi
tal
]

Thefamil
yisgat
heredaroundt
hebed,theydo
notknowwhattodo,t
heyareti
redandallt
hey
needisf
orthei
rdaughtert
obeokay..
.

Kb:"
Reet sangj
wal
e,
it
'sbeent
womont
hs
people"

Dad:
"I
t'
supt
oyourmot
herson"

Mom:"Leaveheral
oneshewi
l
lwakeupIknow,
I
canf
eel i
t"

Dad:
"OKwewi
l
lwai
tti
l
lthi
sweekendsi
f
nothi
nghappenswewi
l
lswi
tcht
hemachi
nes
off
"

Mom:
"Youmustbecr
azy
"

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Iti
sabeaut ifulSundaymor ningonanewy ear,
thebirdsarechi rpingbeaut if
ull
yout side,
people
aresingingsongsofpr ai
seandev er
yonei s
happyt hatTheAl mightyGodhaskeptt hem
unti
lthisnewy ear .Iam alsohappyt hatmyki ds
andIar edoingjustf inebyt hegr aceofGodbut
ther
ei ssomet hing, l
etmer athersaysomeone
missi
ngandt hati sNt ombenhl e,herfamilydid
notallowmet oseeherandIcoul dnotsayt hat
Iam herboy fri
endbecauseofouragegapbut
onsomeday sIwoul dbribethedoct orjustto
seeherandt hebabi es,Iknowi tiswr ongand
i
ll
egal
butIcoul
dnotsl
eepwit
houtknowi
ng
whati
sexact
lywrongwi
tht
heloveofmyli
fe.

Thepasttwomont hshavebeenr eallynerv

e
wrecki
ngIhavetoadmi tandwi t
hSi hleandSbu
aski
ngwhenwi l
lshecomel i
vewi t
husmakesi t
moreharderbyami nut
e,justthi
nkingaboutthe
si
tuati
onmakesmeweepasIt r
ytohi demysel
f.

"
Ther
eispoweri
nthenameofJesus
Ther
eispoweri
nthenameofJesus
Ther
eispoweri
nthenameofJesus
Tobreakeverychai
n,
breakev
erychai
n,
break
ever
ychain"
Sihl
ecomesoutoft
hechoi
rsingi
ng,
taki
ngmy
handandl
eadi
ngmet ot
hefront
Sihl
e:"
Ithurt
stoseemyf at
herl
ikethi
s,j
ustlook
athim Iam sur
eallofy
oucanrelatewhenIsay
MrNkosi hasnotbeenhimsel
fallIam asking
fori
sfory ouguyst
okeephiminy ourprayers"

Pastor:"
Af ami
l
ythatpray
stoget
herst
ays
together,AmenBazal
wane"

Them:
"Amen"

Pastor:
"Nowawi semanoncesai dtomethat
sometimesy ouneedtoexperi
encepainsi
ncei
t
partofli
febutyoushoul
dnev erl
etpai
nrule
yourli
fe,
andthatmanisrighther
estandi
ng
nexttome,tell
meNkosi whyareyouinso
muchpai nmydearfri
end? ?"

Me:
"Icannotdi
scusst
hesi
tuat
ionwi
thy
oubutI
canprayandtal
ktoGodabouti
t,
canIj
ustgeta
chancetocommunicat
ewit
hGod"

Pastor
:"
Asyouwi
sh,
whoam It
odenyy
ouf
rom
yourGod"

Me:"DearGod,t
odayIcrytearsthatmeana
hundredthi
ngsatoncehappyandsor r
owf
ul
anddesperateandhopeful.
Itrustyout
osort
thenoutasyoucatchthem, t
ohearandanswer
eachprayert
heyrepresent.
Icryforthoseofusl eftbehind,forthel onel
y
oneswi thhollowsinourhear ts.Iasky out o
comf ortus,gi
vepeace,rest
orehopeandl avi
sh
uswi thlove,f
amil
yandbel ongi ng.Inthedept hs
ofloss,meetuswi thyoursel
f .
Fat herIaskt hat
youheal mybel ovedNt ombenhl ewhohasbeen
i
nhospi talfortwomont hsnowpl easesend
yourtouchuponher .
Ipraytoy oubecauseI
knowt hattearsarealanguaget hatyou
understand.Theyspeakmor eaboutwhatour
heartsfeelthananywor dscouldev er
express.Whenwor dsjustwon'tcome, i
t'
sour
tear
st hatshoutouttoy ou,
rest
or ehersoul
AMEN

Peeeepeeeepeeee
Machi
nesr
angatt
hehospi
tal
.
.
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e

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t28

Il
ookar oundandseepeopl e,
aroundme,whati
s
goi
ngonandwher eam I??Ionlyremember
apol
ogisingtoVusi
,didhegobackt oEur
ope
andleavemewi t
ht hesepeople??..
.
"
LeratomybabyI
'
m sogl
ady
ouar
eawake,
I
missedyou"

Me:
"Who.
..
arey
ou"
Afel
lowwoman,
man,ay
oungboy
,andgi
rlar
e
sur
roundi
ngt
hebed

Her:
"I
t'
smey ourmothersweet
hear
t,ohmy
babyhasf
orgottenme"
Shest
art
edcr
ying

Me:"
Rel
axmot
herIcanseei
t'
syouIwasj
ust
pl
ayi
ng"
Il
aughed

Dad:
"Thi
sisnotfunnyRat
oyouscar
edusbut
wearehappythatyoumadei
tsweethear
t"
Me:"I'
m alsohappy,i
tseemslikeIwokeup
yesterdaybutthedoctorwant
edt odr
aint
he
highdosagef r
om mybodyt hatiswhyhecal
l
ed
yout oday"

Mom:"
Andyouareget
ti
ngdi
schar
gedt
oday
,so
ar
eyouhappyt
ogohome??"

Me:
"Yeah.
..
wai
twher
ear
emybabi
es?
?"
Iaskwi
thshockonmyface,
daddyl
ookedat
mom andIl
ookedathert
oo

Mom: "BabyIhat
etobethebarri
erofbadnews
butyoul ostt
hebabi
es,
youlostthr
eeandthree
surv
ived"
Whatshej ustsai dreall
ypiercedmesodeep
butIhav etopret endli
keIam nothurt,
Idonot
wantt obeabur den.TrustmewhenIsayl osi
ng
achildissadbutl osi
ngchildreni
sworse,Idid
ever
y t
hingfort hem buttheydecidedtoleave
meanddi ejustlikethat,
whatungrat
efulbabies,
Iam hurtbutl i
keIsai dIam gonnapretendto
befinewi t
ht hi
swhol ethingbutIam hurtI
real
l
yam. .
.

Me:
"Iti
sok,
maybeGodwant
edittobeli
kethatI
wi
ll
justhav
etoworkwi
thwhatIhaver
ight
"

Dad:
"Mmm whendi
dyougetsooomat
ure"

Me:
"Let
'
sjustsaypai
nchangedmedaddy
"

Dad:
"Hopei
tchangedy
ouf
ort
hebet
terhoney
"
Me:
"Forthebet
ter
,youguyscangonowbut
Nt
ombi staywegottat
alkgi
rl
"

Mom:
"Ki
cki
ngusoural
ready
"
Shel
aughed

Kabel
ocametohugmeandt
heyl
eftl
eav
ing
mewithNtombi

Me:
"Iseear
ing"

Her
:"If
inal
l
ysai
dIdol
astmont
hfr
iendandIam
sor
ryyoucoul
dnotmakei
t"

Me:"I
tisOKbabesbesi
desasl
ongasy
ouar
e
happyIam happy
"
Her
:"
Youar
ereal
l
ybecomi
ngmat
ure,
Ili
ke"

Me:
"Hahahaha,
Ihav
egr
owngi
rl
"

Her
:"OhRat
oyouareonl
ytur
ning20inafew
day
ssodon'tt
ell
meaboutgrowthbabygi
rl
"

Me:"Mxm makey
our
sel
fusef
ulandhel
pme
pack"

Shel
aughed

Wepackedtheli
tt
lethingsIhad,whi
lehav
ing
fun,
chat
ti
ngnonstopandgettingatwomont hs
scoopphel
aNtombi knowsev er
ythi
ngshetold
met hewhol
eLimpopoj ui
cyscoopandI
l
aughedal
lthet
ime.
..

"
Andher
ear
emommy
'sbabi
es"

Thedoct
orandnur
secamei
ncar
ryi
ngt
hem

Me:
"Thanky
ou"
It
ookoneandNt
ombi
tookt
wo

Her:
"Wowt heyaresocut
efr
iend,
sayhi
toaunt
y
Ntombibabies"

Il
ookedatt
heoneIam car
ryi
ng,
WHAT!
!!

Me:"OhmygoshNt
ombi
theyl
ookj
ustl
i
ke
Thendo!
!!
!"
..
.
Her:
"Theyr
eal
l
ydo,
l
ookatt
henosewhatar
e
yougonnado??
"

Me:"
Idon'
tknowbutal
lIknowi
st hatIam
goi
ngtoprot
ectt
hem wit
hever
ythingIgot"

Her:
"Let
'sgowewi
l
ldi
scusst
hisathomeor
l
ater
"

Shedr oveanddroppedmeof fathomeand

wentt oherhousetocookf orherhusband,
that'
smar r
iageli
feforyou,
Iwentinsi
deand
placedmybabi esinthei
rcotandwentt o
freshenup

Idr
iedmy selfandwor
esomeblackjeanswit
h
anoff-
shoulderyel
l
owshi
rtandblacksandal
s
andIwor eadoek. Mybodyi snotthat
bad,
mat t
eroff actIjusthavel
itt
lewaytogo
unti
lIgetmyor i
ginalbodyback,
Ilookatmysel
f
i
nthemi rrorandwhatdoIsee? ?Iseeahot
mommyoft hr
ee...

"
Ler
atocomeoutweneedt
otal
k"

Thati
smom bar
gingi
nmyr
oom

Me:
"Ther
eist
hist
hingcal
l
edknocki
ngwoman"

Her:
"Noti
nmyhousey
oungl
ady
,comeal
ong
now"
If
oll
owedhert
othedi
ningar
eaandsatdown

Dad:
"Rat
oyouknowwecannotkeepcal
l
ing
them "
Babiesfor
ever
"soanyname
suggesti
ons??
"

Me:"
Yep,
Bophel
o,Bohl
aleandBokamoso,
they
hav
emeaningremember"

Dad:
"OKIl
i
ket
henames"

Mom:
"Met
oobaby
"

Me:
"CanIgof
orsomef
reshai
rnow?
?"

Mom:"Haveyoucheckedift
hediaper
sarest
il
l
dry
??Didyoubreast
feedt
hebabies??
Andhave
yousetthecartobebabyfr
iendl
y??"

Me:
"Mamahl
epl
easel
ookaf
tert
hem f
ort
wo
hour
sonl
y"

Mom:"
Sor
rygi
rlIgott
ogot
oameet
ingwi
tht
he
gi
rl
s"

Me:
"Dad?
?"

Dad:"
Sor
rysweet
hear
t,Iam wat
chi
ngt
hegame
wit
htheguys"

Tj
oot
heyar
esomeant
owar
dsmebuti
t'
sfi
ne
Iquickl
ybreastf
edmybabies,
changedtheir
diapersandthei
rcl
othest
henplacedthem in
thecarinthosebabyseat
sandhittheroad..
.

¶¶Vusi
¶¶
Thereisnothi
ngasf unaschil
li
ngandchat
ti
ng
wit
hy ourfamil
y/ki
ds,gett
ingt
oknowwhat
happensinthei
rliv
es...

Sbu:
"SodadlikeIsaidIsawSi
hlewi
thaboy
yest
erdayaf
terchurch"

Si
hle:
"Nohei
sly
ingdad,
youknowhei
sly
ing"

Me:"
HowwouldIknow,
al
lIknowi
st hatIwi
l
lki
l
l
ev
eryboyt
hatcomesnearmypri
ncess"

Sbu:
"Yeahmet
oo,
anyboycomi
ngnearmysi
sI
wil
lki
llhi
m"

Me:"
Anywayar
eyouguy
sreadyf
ort
heni
nth
gr
ade??"
Sihl
e:"
Whowouldn'
tbe,Imeannewt
eacher
s,
newwor k,
newenvi
ronment
"

Sbu:
"Wel
lI'
mjustexi
tedt
oseemygi
rlnot
hing
much"

Me:
"Doy
ouhav
eadeat
hwi
shSi
busi
so"

Sbu:
"Noti
fIki
l
lyouf
ir
stPops"

Heht
hiski
dist
est
ingmepeopl
e..
.
[
Knockont
hedoor
]
Si
hle:
"I
'
llgeti
t"

Sbu:
"Wai
t,
let
'sr
acet
othedoor
"
Si
hle:
"Mayt
hebestmanwi
n"

Theyracedt
ot heki
tchendoorandopenedand
Icoul
dhearthem shouti
ng

Si
hle:
"Si
sLer
ato,
ohmygosh"

Sbu:
"Wemi
ssedy
ou,
canIcar
ryt
hem"

Si
hle:
"Wewi
l
latwi
tht
hem i
nthebedr
oom "

"
Don'
tdr
opt
hem OK"

Sbu:
"Wewon'
trel
ax"
IseeSi hleandSbupassingmewi thbabiesin
theirarms,somybabyi sreall
yhere??Iquickl
y
stoodupandwentt hekitchenandt heGoddess
wasst andingtherel
ookingf r
eshanduni que,I
j
ustwentov ertoherandscoopedherupand
kissedherwar mlipsgentlywitheverybreath
describinghowmuchIr eallymissedher...

Me:
"ILOVEy
ouNt
ombenhl
e"

Her
:"
ILOVEy
out
ooVusi
"

Me:
"Comeher
e"
Iki
ssesheral
lov
erherfaceandshegi
ggl
ed
makingmealothappi
er.
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eLov
e
I
nser
t29

LeratoandVusi exchangedki ssesandhugs

andt heywerethri
ll
edtoseeeachot her
again,youwouldsweart hatithasbeeny ear
s
si
ncet heysaweachot herandhonest l
yithas
beenonl ytwomont hs.
Thet wol ovebi
rdscan't
gettheirhandsoffeachot her,t
heyaresooooo
i
nlov eitmakesmecr y.
..

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Me:
"Onel
astt
imeNt
ombenhl
epl
ease"

Her:
"NoVusi
ithasbeen2hour
swi
thy
ou
ki
ssi
ngmeIhadenough"
Shef
rowned
Me:"Youlookevencuterwhenyouf
rown,buti
t
i
snotmyf aul
tthatyourl
i
psaresweetandthat
yourcheeksarerosey"

Her:
"Whatev
er,
youhavenotseenthebabi
es
comelet'
sgotoSi
hle'
sbedroom "
Shewal
kedt
othedini
ngr
oom exi
tandt
urned
backamewit
hafrown

Me:
"What
?"

Her
:"Come"

Me:"
Youref
usetogi
vememyki
ssessoIwi
l
lsi
t
her
eunti
lIgett
hem"
Shef
rownedonceagai
nandcamet
ome,
sat
onmylapandgavememykiss

Me:
"Goodgi
rlwecangonow"

Her
:"
Come"

Me:
"Wai
t,
Ihav
etocar
ryyouiti
srudet
oleta
l
adywal
konhert
wohindfeet"
Ipr
act
ical
l
ypi
ckedherup,
shej
ustgi
ggl
ed

Her
:"
Nowt
hisi
scr
azybutIl
i
kei
t"

Me:
"Iknowy
oudo"

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶
VusiopenedthedoorofSi
hle'
sroom andwe
wentinsi
de.
..

Us:
"Ncoow,
theyar
esocut
e"

Aswewal kedinwefoundthem
sl
eeping,Bohl
aleandBokamosoonSbu'schest
andBophel oonSihl
e'
schest,t
heyl
ookedso
cute,
Ifeltwarmli
qui
descapingmyeyes
uncontroll
abl
y,
Vusil
ookedatmeandpl acedme
down

Me:
"I
'm sor
ry"

Him:
"Hey,
hey
,don'
tbeNanawhati
sbot
her
ing
youst
handwasam? ?
"
Me:"Iam sosorry
..
.(
cri
es)it
'sjust
..
.seei
ngthem
l
ikethis..
.(
cri
essomemor e)remindsmeoft he
onesIl ost
(br
eaki
ngdown) I
'
m sorryforl
osi
ng
them"
Vusi j
ustcar
ri
edmetothedini
ngar
eaand
placedmeont hesof
athenputmyheadonhi
s
chestbrushi
ngmybackgently

Him:"Shhh, Shhh,y
oudonothav etobesorry
Nanai ti snotyourfault,Iknowy ouwon't
beli
ev emebutsomet i
meswhenGodpl ants
badthi ngsi nyourli
feitismai nl
ybecauseheis
busypr epar i
ngapr osper ousfutur
eaheadof
you,
likemewhenIhear daboutt hei
rpassi
ngI
couldnoteatf oraweekbecauseIwashur t
ing
simplybecausey ouar ehur t
ingpleasest
op
Cryi
ngNt ombenhleasy ourt ear
smakemy
heartbl eed"
Me:
"Butwhydobadthi
ngsal
wayshappent
o
me,
whydoesGodalwayspuni
shme,whatdi
dI
dot
oof f
endhi
m"

Him:"Youdidnothingwrong,j
ustwaitpati
entl
y
bl
essingarecomi ngyourway ,
OK,nowkeep
cryi
ngNanal eti
talloutaft
erthi
sIdon'tever
wantt oseeyoucryandt hebabiestoowould
notwantt oseetheirmothercry
ing
everyday,
giv
ethem achancet orestinpeace"

Isomehowf eltmuchbet t
er,
Ionlyfoundout
thatIlostmybabi estodayandIr eallytr
iedto
pretendthatIwasf i
nebutIcouldn' tbareseeing
theothershappyandsoundandt hem deadsoI
reall
yfeltasifIbetr
ayedthem andt hatiti
smy
fault
,butthenmybel ovedboy f
ri
endpl acedme
i
nt herighttr
ack.
Ihav
ebeencr yi
ngformomentsnowandVusi
wasjustsi
tt
ingther
eandtel
l
ingmetoleti
tal
l
out

Me:"
Thanky
ouVusi
,
Idon'
tdeser
vey
ou,
Ireal
l
y
don'
t"

Hi
m:"
ButIdeserv
eyou,
youar
emyl
i
ghtt
hrough
t
hedarkness"

Me:"
Andy
ouar
emymat
cht
oli
ghtt
hef
ir
e
wood"

Hel
aughed

Hi
m:"
Youar
emyMonkeyt
hrought
hej
ungl
e"
Me:
"Ni
ceone,
youar
emyper
sonal
ther
api
stl
i
ke
f
orr
eal
"

Hi
m:"
DamnIl
ovey
ouwoman!
!"

Me:
"Let
'
swat
chamov
ie"

Hi
m:"
OKy
ouchoose"

Me:
"Or
phan"

Heshookhi
shead

Him:"
Ilovehorr
or,comedy,
sci-f
i,t
hril
l
er,
act
ion
younamei tbutfort
oni
ghtlet'
swat chromance,
Tit
ani
cmyl ovethatmovieremindedmeofy ou
wheny ouwereinhospi
tal
,Ithoughtyouwere
gonnal
eav
emebutt henGodpr
ovedmeour
l
oveisr
eal
lyunbr
eakabl
e"

Me:"
Youcoul
dhav
eonlysai
dweshoul
dwat
ch
Ti
tani
cnotgi
vemeaspeech"

Hi
m:"
Fucky
ouNt
ombenhl
e"

Me:
"I
ttakest
wowannahel
p??
"

Hi
m:"
WhenImar
ryy
ou"

Hethenki
ssedmycheekandheldmet
ighti
n
hi
smuscularar
msaswewat chedt
hemovie

I
twashighl
yemot
ionalt
hatt
helegendar
yVusi
Nkosi
shedsometear
stooIsawhim andhe
waslike"Ihavesomet hingi nmyey e"those
werehisexactwor ds,t
hisguyr eall
yamazesme
atti
meandhi sl
ovef orGodandchur chisv er
y
massivesomet i
mesi tscar estheli
vinghellout
ofmebutf actisthatIlov ehim andIwoul dki
ll
forhi
mi fIweretobegi v enachance. Webot h
endedupsl eepi
ngast hemov ieended

01:
23(
TIME)

Nyweee,
Nyweee,
Nyweee,Nyweee(
babycr
ies
maki
ngtheother
scrytoo)

"
Ntombenhl
ewakeup,
heywakeup"
If
eltsomeoneshaki
ngmesl
i
ght
ly

Me:
"Huh?
?"
Hi
m:"
Ithi
nkt
heyar
ehungr
y,pl
easebr
east
feed
t
hem"

Me:
"OK"

Itookmytopoffanduncl
i
ppedmybr
aandhe
coveredhi
sey
es

Me:
"Whyar
eyoucov
eri
ngy
ourey
es?
?"

Him:"Iam notal
lowedtoseeyounakedor
shir
tl
essNt ombenhle,
youaremygirl
fri
endnot
mywi feandIrespectyousoI'
l
lbeintheother
room ify
ouneedme"

Me:
"Sur
e"
Ibr
east
fedt
hem andwor
emyshi
rtagai
nthen
mymancamein

Hi
m:"
Letmeputt
hem i
nbed"

Me:"No,
youhavetotakemehome,mypar
ent
s
wil
lkil
lmewhentheyr eal
i
set
hatIdi
dnot
spendtheni
ghtathomeandbettery
etwi
tht
he
babies"

Hi
m:"I
tisl
ateanddar
kplusdon'
twor
ryt
hey
won'
tki
lly
ouIgotyoucover
ed"

Me:
"OK,
youseem sosur
eofy
our
sel
f"

Hi
m:"
I'
ll
prepar
etheguestr
oom f
ory
ouguy
s"
Me:
"Thanky
oust
handwa"

Aft
ert
hepreparat
ionofthebedroom wef
inal
l
y
hadagoodnight/
morningsleep.
..
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t30

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Lastnightwasamazi ng,spendingthenight
withtheloveofmylifeandt hekidswast he
feel
ingIhavewantedt oex per
ienceinav er
y
l
ongt imeandlastnightIrecei
v edthatf
eeli
ng.
Somet i
mesIwonderwher ewoul dIbeifIhad
notmetNt ombenhle,may beinEurope
dr
owni
ngmy
sel
fwi
thwor
k.

Ithasbeenl ongsi
nceIsawmyki dssohappy ,
may beNt ombenhlei
sthewomanIhav ebeen
searchi
ngf or,
shemightbeyoungbutshehas
experi
encedl i
feandmaturi
tyi
sf l
owingover
her,
ithasjustbeenmonthsbutitfeel
slike
years,
Ireall
yneedherinmylif
e,weneedher .

Soar ound05: 30inthemorningIheardthenew

bornscr yi
ng,Iwenttothei
rroom andfound
theirmom sl eepi
ngpeacefull
yIthentookthem
andt uckedt hem i
nwi t
hmeunt il
they
slept.
Theyar esooooadorableandcut ethe
threeboy s,Ij
ustcannotwai
tforthem togrow
wear egoi ngtohav esomuchf untogetherwi
th
Sbu.

Iwentt
otownear
li
eront
obuyout
fi
tsf
or
Ntombenhle,
Bohl
ale,
Bophel
oandBokamoso
becausetheydi
dnotpackanover
nightbag.
I
j
ustarri
vedbackathomenowasIr ecei
veda
cal
l.
..

Me:
"Yesuncl
e"

Hi
m:"
Wehav
esenti
tson"

Me:
"Okt
hanky
ouuncl
e"

Him:"
Youhav
edonewel
lson,
onFr
idaywewi
l
l
bethere"

Me:
"OkIwi
l
lcomeandgi
vey
out
hecasht
oday
"
Hi
m:"
Okdon'
tfor
getmybr
andy"

Me:
"Iwon'
tIpr
omi
se"

Thi
suncl
eofmi
neandhi
sBr
andy

[
Ent
eri
ngt
hehouse]

Ifi
ndSihl
eandSbust i
l
linpyj
amasatthi
s
hour,
i
tisaround12:
00theseki
dsreal
l
ywantt
o
messwi t
hme. .
.

Me:"
Siphesi
hlehaveyoumadey
ourbedand
washedthedishes??
"

Si
hle:
"NoIwi
l
ldadj
ustaf
terCakeBoss"
Shesai
dwi
thoutev
enl
ooki
ngatme

Me:"
Standupandgowasht hedi
shesnowand
youareagir
lyounotsupposedt
obeweari
ng
pyj
amasatthishour
"
Iswi
tchedt
hatTVof
f

Shejuststooduprol
l
inghereyesandwentt
o
theki
tchen,shehasali
tt
leat
ti
tudewhi
chIneed
tofi
x

Me:"
AndwenaSi
busi
sohav
eyoudonet
he
gar
den?
?"

Sbu:
"Nahpopsi
mmadoi
flat
er"

Me:
"Yout
woar
est
art
ingt
ofor
getwhoI
am,
standupandgodot
hegar
dennow!
!"

Sbu:
"Okj
eeznoneedtoshouty
ou'
l
lwaket
he
babi
esandSi
sLerat
o"

Theseki
dst
hough,
butt
heyar
eteenager
swhat
canIsay

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

"
Aft
ernoonSweet
hear
t"

Vusi
standswi
that
reyofmout
hwat
eri
ngf
ood

Me:
"Hey
"
Isayr
ubbi
ngmyey
es
Hi
m:"Ihopey
ouar
eful
l
yrest
edsi
ncei
t'
spast
t
welv
enow"

Me:"
What
??Youmustbet
hinki
ngIam l
azy
,I
'm
sor
ry"

OhgoshIam sooooembarr
assedr
ightnow
i
maginewaki
ngupatt hi
sti
meVusimustbe
t
hinki
ngIam alazyass

Him:
"NoIunder
stand,
youarebr
east
feedi
ng
andi
tdrai
nsyousoit'
scool
"

Me:
"OKsohowar
eyout
odaysi
r??
"

Hi
m:"
I'
m happyasy
oucansee"
Hehadhi
scut
esmi
l
eonr
efl
ect
inghi
sbr
il
li
ant
ly
whi
tet
eet
h

Me:"Isee,
butIhear
dyoushout
ingatSbuand
Si
hle"

Hi
m:"
Pleasedon'
tint
ervenet
hatwasbet
ween
meandthem mylove"

Me:
"Iknowbutpl
easedon'
tbet
oohar
don
t
hem"

Hi
m:"
I'
ll
trybutt
heyar
ereal
l
ytest
ingmel
atel
y"
Her
est
shi
sel
bowsonhi
sknees

Me:
"Remembert
heyar
egrowi
ngmyl ov
eit'
s
t
hegrowt
hhormonest
aki
ngover
,pl
easetr
yto
bemor
egent
lewi
tht
hem ok"

Him:
"Ok,
Il
ikehowy
oucar
eaboutt
hem,
thank
you"

Me:
"That
'swhatmot
her
sdo"

Hi
m:"
Youconsi
dert
hem y
ourki
ds?
?"

Me:
"Yesy
ourki
dsar
emi
neandmi
near
eyour
s"

Hi
m:"
Youar
esoooowonder
ful
Ntombenhl
e"
Hegav
emeawar
m hugofappr
eci
ati
on

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t31

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Aftereat ingVusi ranawar m bathformewi t

h
differentbat hsal tsaf t
erwar dsIf el
tsor elaxed.
Iwor et heout f
itthatheboughtf ormewhi ch
wasbl ackl eggingswi thabl ackt opwrittenin
whi te"NewMom" ,Idon'tknowabouty oubutI
thinkIf oundmy selftheper fectgentleman, a
guywhol ov esmef orwhoIam andnotwhatI
hav e,actual lyhei st hefirstguyt oevershowme
real l
ov e,Ireal l
ywantt ogi vehim myal lbutIam
afraidt hatIwi lll
ov etoomuchandendupbei ng
disappoi nt edi nthenearend. Iknowmy selfI
tendt ol ov et oomuchandendupbei ng
broken, taket hesituat i
onaboutmyf ir
st
boy fri
end( Tshepo)i ntoconsi derati
onIlov edthe
guywayt oomucht hatlovebl i
ndedmeandI
couldnotseet hatIwaspl ayedandIwasl eft
broken, Iactuall
ydonotknowi fIhaveheal ed
yetandIhav eaf eeli
ngthatIam tryi
ngt ouse
Vusi asapat chtoclosethatgapinmyhear t
butatt hesamet imeIhav estr
ongf eeli
ngs
existingandst il
ldevel
opingforhim,I'
m bet ween
arockandhar dplaceri
ghtnow, maybeIshoul d
tel
l Vusi aboutmypastandwhot hefatherof
mybabi esmi ghtbe,Iwanttoopenupt ohim
butIam af r
aidthathewi l
lseemei nadi f
ferent
eyei fheknowst hehist
orybehindLer ato.

Afteralongdriv
ewi ththesebabiesofmi ne
sl
eepingpeacefullyIfi
nall
yarriv
edathome, Ibet
Iam indeepshittodaybuti ti
sokayal lshal
l be
fi
ne.Iopenthediningroom doorhopi ngtofind
noonei ntherebutunf or
tunatel
yIfounddad
withtwounf amil
iarfacesgatheredinthedining
area..
.
Dad:
"Ohher
ey ouare,
comesweet
hear
tIwant
yout
omeety ouruncl
es"
Nowt
hat
'swei
rd
Ipushedt
hepr
am neart
hecouchI
'
llbeseat
ing
on

Me:
"Dumel
angBagol
o"

Uncl
e1:
"Dumel
angwananaoj
wang?
?"

Me:
"Ahht
jhe,
kephet
sent
atewenaoj
wang?
?"

Uncl
e1:
"Lennaf
elaj
wal
omydaught
er"

Uncle2:"
Ilov
eyourl
evel
ofr
espectmydear
daughter
"
Me:
"Keal
ebohant
ate"

Dad:"
Babygi
rlt
herei
sal et
tert
hatcameinher
e
ear
lyint
hemorninganditi
smai nl
yabouty
ou
soherequi
ckl
yrealt
hisandtel
lustheway
for
ward"

Hegav
emeabr ownenvel
opewithal
ett
er
i
nsi
de,
Iopenedi
tandt
helet
terr
ead:

Mndeni wakwaMal eboothandekayo.Phi

lane
nathisi
yaphil
a.Si
bhalalencwadingoba
i
ndodanay ethuuVusi Nkosiubethandaukucel
a
i
sandlasendodakazi yenuuLeratoMalebo
emshadweni .
Ngokuzithoba,
sicel
a
ukuthut
hukisaubuhlobophakat i
kwemi deni
yet
hu.Ngokosiko,
singathokozaumai mideni
i
ngahlel
ailangaesingathumelangal o
abakhongi.
ThinaabakwaNkosi
besi
ngakujabulel
aukut humelaabakhongi mhla
zi
wu-6/7Januar ykulonyaka.
Sicelanisazi
se
usukueningaluj
abulelaNinaabomndeni
wakwaMal ebo.Si
bhalalencwadi ngokukhulu
ukuzi
thoba.
Thi
naumndeni
wakwaNkosi
.

No!
!!
!!
!!
!!
!

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Aft
erameet i
ngwithmyuncl esIdeci
dedto
checkuponmybestf riend,t
heguyIgrewup
wit
h,t
heguywhowoul dscr at
chmybackandI '
d
dotheexactsamething,hi
snamei sThendo
andheisachiefbutalsoabusinessmanon
t
hesi
de.
..

Me:"
Sorr
yIdi
dnotat
tendyourweddi
ngman,
so
wherei
syournewwi
feIgott
aseeher"

Hi
m:"Ohthatbi
tchgotimpregnat
edbysome
ot
herdudesoIkickedherout"

Me:
"Yoht
hathar
sh,
arey
ouf
inet
hough?
?"

Him:"
YeahI'
m cool
,besi
desIdidnotreal
l
ylove
herIj
ustwantedbabiesf
rom her
,shewould
havebeenmybabymaki ngmachine"

Me:"
Dudeyouar
eapur
ephy
co,
Iev
enf
orgot
howcrazyy
ouare"
Him:"
ButIam ser i
ousman,thatgirl
'scookie
wasthebest,Ihaven'
ttast
edany thingl
ikethat
i
nallmyli
f e,
everyti
mewedi dthedeedIwoul d
wanttostayinbedt hewholedayj ustfucki
ng
herup"

Me:"Toomuchi nf
ormati
ondawg,
Isuggesty
ou
respecthermanstoptal
kingsoi
l
labouther
,cut
hersomecr edi
t"

Him:"
Shewasabi
tchandthat'
sthat,
andwena
youwantmetobeyourBestmanwhoi sthe
speci
all
adyt
owinthemightyVusiNkosi
'
s
heart
??"

Me:"Manthisl
ady,
Imetlasty
ear
,sheisa
goddess,apuredi
amondhernamei s
Ntombenhle,
Igavehert
hatnamebecausei
t
assembleswhosheisinsi
deout
"
Him:"
WellIcannotwaitt
omeetNt
ombenhl
e,
hopeshehasani cebodymanwedon'
twant
shapel
esswomannowdowe"

Me:"Wel
lIdi
dnotreal
lyf
ocusonherphy si
cal
appear
ancethatmuchbutallIcansayi
sthat
sheisanAfr
icanWomani fy
ouknowwhatI
mean"

Il
oveNtombenhlesoooodearlysotodayIwoke
upanddecidedtodotheri
ghtthingIknowthat
shewi
llacceptmyproposalr
ight??
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nser
t32
Ithasbeenadaysi nceVusi senttheelet t
erand
Ihavebeeni gnori
nghimf l
at ,
Ilovehi m but
mar r
iageisnotonmywi shl i
strightnow. Imight
knowhi m buthedoesnotr eall
yknowme, my
heartistel
li
ngmey esbecameobv i
ouslyhe
wouldmakeaper fectli
fepar t
nerandIl ovehim
sodeadly ,
butyetagainmymi ndi stel
li
ngmeno
becauseIhav enotbeenst raightupwi thhim,so
Iam reall
ystuckthatiswhyIcal l
edNt ombi to
comeIr eall
yneedagi rl
'stalk..
..

[
Mom ent
erst
her
oom wi
thNt
ombi
]

Mom: "
Ntombitel
lyourf
ri
endheret
hatshe
needstoli
ght
enupshei sget
ti
ngmarri
ednot
dyi
ng"

Nt
ombi
laughed
Me:"
Mom youwouldn'
tunder
standwhatIam
goi
ngthr
oughri
ghtnow"

Mom: "Thenmakemeunder standLerato,y

oube
goingthroughsomest uf
fbutnottell
ingmeas
amot her,ohhowIlongtohavegi r
l'
stalkwit
h
youbuty oualway
sshutmeout ,
tel
lmebaby
whatam Isupposedt odosot hatyoucan
acceptmehuh? ?"
Shest
art
edbei
ngt
ear
y

Me:"Mapleasedon'tdothis,
Ilovey ouvery
muchandt rustmewear est i
llgoingtohave
tonsofmother-daught
ertalks.
Whodoy out hi
nk
Iwil
lgotowhenIencount ersomepr oblemsin
l
ife?
?Toyoumot herpl
easedon' tcryi
thurtsme
10timesmor e"
Ibr
ushedherback

Mom:"Thankyoubabybutpleasemakeupyour
mindtheNkosifamil
yneedsourrepl
yand
pl
easestopignori
ngmysoni n-
law"
Sheleftt
heroom andNt ombii
mmedi at
ely
att
ackedwit
hahug, exactl
ywhatIneeded

Nt
ombi
:
"Let
'st
alkbabe,
what
'
spoppi
ng?
?"

Me:
"Vusi
want
stosendhi
suncl
es"

Nt
ombi
:
"Andy
ouar
enothappybecause.
..
??"

Me:"Ist
il
lhav
etotell
him aboutThendoand
st
uffbutIam notsur
eifthesekidsare
Thendo'ssoIgot
tadoatest"
Ntombi:
"I
t'
sobvioustheyarehisevenablind
mancanseet hatRato,
buttomakey ouhappyI
wil
ltr
ytogethishairorsal
i
v aIdon'
tknowhow
butI
'l
lmakeapl anandwe'l
l dothetest"

Me:
"Thanks.
..
"

[
PhoneRi
ngs:
Vusi
]
Ij
usti
gnor
edi
t

Nt
ombi:"
Youhav et
otel
lhi
m onewayort
he
ot
herandignor
inghi
m won'
thel
p"

Me:
"YeahI
'
llpayhi
m av
isi
ttoni
ght"

Nt
ombi
:
"Toni
ght
??Whyatni
ghtwhatdoy
ou
wantt
odo?
?"
Shehadasi
l
lyf
aceon

Me:
"Hai
bo!
!Nt
ombi
youar
efucki
ngdi
rt
ygi
rl
"

Ntombi:
"Buti
naser i
ousnot
ewhenl
astdi
dyou
getl
aidmyf r
iend?
?"

Me:"
Lasty
earwhenThendol
ockedmeupi
nthe
bedr
oom wor
stsexever
"

Ntombi
:"
Let'
sjustf
orgetaboutThendo,
soyou
t
elli
ngmethatVusinevergaveyouthesi
gnal
"

Me:
"Nohemadei tcl
eart
hathewil
lwai
tfor
mar
riageandIr
especthi
mforthat
"
Ntombi:"
Wowhei ssuchagentl
eman,he
resi
stedallt
his,
gir
lifIwasnotagi
rlIwoul
d
havefuckedy oubynow, hav
eyouseen
yoursel
f??
"

Me:
"Hehy
ouwantt
orapemeal
ready"

Shegi
ggl
ed

Ntombi:
"Rel
axIwon't
,any
wayIhopeIbecome
t
heMai dofHonour,
mybabyiscomingback
t
odaysoIhav et
ogivehimtheewarmest
welcome,i
fyouknowwhatImean"

Me:
"YesIknowwhatyoumeanbutpl
easedon'
t
makebabi
esI'
m notr
eadyt
obeanaunt"
Ntombi:
"Whatev
erl
et'
sgoI
'
lldr
opy
ouof
fat
Vusi
'shouse"

Me:
"Yeahl
et'
sgo"

Ntombi:"
A.ahleLeratoyoul
ookli
keyoust
il
l
pregnant,
wearsomet hi
ngreveal
i
ngmaybethi
s
redskir
twithsli
ppersandacroptop"

Me:"
YohI '
m amom notateenagerwena,
I'
l
ljust
weartheseshor
tswit
hthatyel
lowshir
t"
Iqui
ckl
ywor
ethem

Nt
ombi :
"Bet
ternowy
oul
ookl
i
kea19y
ear
ol
d,l
et'
sgo"

Wewentdownst
air
s
Me:
"Mom canyoupl
easewat
cht
hebabi
esf
or
meI'
l
lberi
ghtback"

Mom: "
OKsweetiejustdon'
tspendt
henight
becauseIcanseemysonI n-l
awwon'tbeabl
e
toholdhi
mselftoni
ght"

Me:
"Yohmama"
Il
ookeddowni
nembar
rassment

SoNtombi drov
emet
oVusi
'
shouseandwent
toherhusband

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Icannotgethol
dofNt
ombenhl
e,
shehasbeen
i
gnoringmeev ersincethatproposal,maybe
shedoesnotwantmar ri
agenowIf eelbadfor
rushi
ngthings,Ishouldhav ebeenmor epat i
ent
butmebei ngmeIr ushedt hi
ngs.DamnIam so
angrywithmy self
.Igav ebeenchi l
l
ingwi t
hmy
homieThendot hi
sev ening,j
usttal
kingabout
random stuf
f..
.

Thendo:
"Shest
il
lnotanswer
ing?
?"

Me:
"Yeahandwhatfr
ust
rat
esmet
hemosti
s
t
hatImissherbr
o"

Thendo:
"Hehy
our
eal
l
ylov
ethi
sgi
rlhey
"

Me:"
Sheisnotagirl
sheisawomanand
mothert
othreebeauti
ful
boy
sandyesIador
e
her
"
Thendo:
"She'
ll
comear ounddon'
twor
ry,
Sihl
e
bri
ngmei cecubesbabygir
l"

Si
hle:
"Comi
ngr
ightupUncl
eThendo"

"
FAM I
'
m home"
Ihear
dNtombenhl
e'svoi
cefrom t
hekit
chen
andIcoul
dal
readyhearSi
hlecomplementi
ng
her

[
Int
heKi
tchen]

Sihl
e:"
Wowy oulooksocuteandyoungtoo,
I
haveneverseenyouli
kethi
sbefor
ey ouare
sooohotSisLerat
o"
Rat
o:"
ThanksSi
hle,
wher
eisy
ourf
ather
??"

Si
hle:
"Youmeanyourhusbandt
obe,
heisi
nthe
di
ningroom wi
thouruncl
e,
buty
oucangoin"

Rat
o:"
OKbutuy
aphaphat
odaySi
hle"
Shegi
ggl
edandl
edmet
othedi
ningr
oom

Sihl
e:"
Uncl
eThendobehol
dmybeaut
if
ulsi
ster
Lerat
o"

IcouldseeNtombenhl
e'
sfacetur
nredandher
kneesbecameweak,wi
thhercheekswetwit
h
tearsasshesawThendoandhim ontheot
her
sidewasshocked

Rat
o:"
Fucki
ngasshol
e!!
!"
Shetookav
asef
rom t
het
abl
eandt
hrewi
tat
Thendo

Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
est
opwhati
swr
ong"

Rat
o:"
Bloodyv
ult
ure!
!"
Shecr
iedasherti
nyfist
shitThando'
schestso
har
dandhejustheldherti
ghtl
yint
oahug

Thendo:
"Iam sor
ryRato,
aboutev
eryt
hing
pl
easestopyou'l
lenduphurti
ngyour
self
"
Hesai
dbrushingherbackasshebecamemore
weakandcri
edsomemor e,
pushi
ngThendo
awayandcry
inginmyar ms

Iwonderwhati
sgoi
ngon,
dotheyknoweach
other
??Am Imi
ssi
ngsomethi
nghere?
?
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eLov
e

I
nser
t33

¶¶Vusi
¶¶

Whatthehel
lisgoingon??Ntombenhl
eisbusy
swear
ing,
cryi
ngandact i
ngcrazywhi
leThendo
i
sbusyapologi
singforwhat?
?Idonotknow

Me:"
Hey,
heywhatt hehel
li
sgoingonbetween
youtwo??Doy ouperhapshav
eahistor
y
t
ogether
,justpleasetel
lmewhatist
hepr obl
em
"

Thendo:
"ThisismywifeVusi,
yesshelef
tbutwe
neverdi
vorced,t
hisi
smyf ucki
ngwifeItol
dyou
abouthert
heot
herday
"

What
???

Me:
"What
??Shei
syourwi
fewhogotpr
egnant
??
"

Thendo:
"Exactl
y,Idonotknowwhaty ouare
pl
ay i
ngatbutyou'l
lnevermar
ryher,
sheissti
ll
mineandIam hopi ngt
omaket hi
ngsr i
ght
betweenus,t
herewon'tbeanyweddinghere"

Me:"
Youfucki
ngmadehergot hr
oughhel
l
,you
usedherandki
ckedheroutl
i
kefucki
ng
sl
ut!
!Bl
oodymoron"

It
hrewapunch,
mor
epunchesandki
cks,
noone
wi
l
lmesswi
thmyNt
ombenhl
eandgetaway
wi
thi
t

Thendo:"
Youwi
l
lpayf
ort
his,
shei
smi
neIpay
ed
forher
"

Me:
"Gett
hef
uckoutbef
oreIl
oosemycool
!
!"

Hewentoutli
mpingtothedoor,
Iwonderwhy
Ntombenhl
edidn'
ttel
lmethatshei
smar r
ied,
shi
t!
!

Sihl
eandSbuj
ustsawavi
olentsi
deofme,
I
neverwant
edmykidst
owit
nessthat

Me:
"Sbu,
Sihl
eum.
..
guy
spl
ease.
..
I'
m sor
ry.
..
"
Sbu:
"Wow,I
'
m di
sappoi
ntedy
our
eal
l
yletme
downPops"
Hewentupt
ohi
sroom

Sihle:"Idon'tevenrecognisey
ouany more,
Sis
Ler atopl easej
ustleavemydadal onewejust
wantt hingstogobackal one,
wecan'tst
andthe
negl ectany more,wedol oveyoubutIdon'
t
thinkit '
swor ki
ngout "
Sheal
sor
ant
oherr
oom t
oo

Rat
o:"
I'
m sor
ryVusi
,Ir
eal
l
yam"

¶¶Ler
ato¶¶

Ifeel
soashamed,
thewaySi
hlespoker
eall
yhi
t
hardandsomehowiti
str
ueeversi
nceIcame
al
ongthei
rfat
herhasbeengivi
ngmor e
at
tent
iont
hatthem soit
hinkIshoul
dleti
tgo

Itr
iedt
ell
ingVusiwhatisreal
l
ygoingbuthe
mustbeshockedbecausehej ustt
oldmetogo
backhome,Ir
eall
ydon'tknowwhattodo
anymore,
Iguessi
t'
sov er

Me:
*Vusi
pleaseber
easonabl
etuu"

Vusi:
"Ineedabreak,
Idon'
tknowifIshoul
dsti
ll
becalli
ngyouNt ombenhl
e,butt
heniti
sclear
thatyouaresomeone'swif
ewhohappenst obe
mybestf ri
end"

Me:"
Vusipleasejustgi
vemeachancet
o
expl
ainev
er yt
hingindet
ail
"
Vusi
:"
Ladypleaseleavemypr opert
y,Iam a
manofintegri
tyandIr eal
lycannotinvade
anot
her'
sman' sproperty,
I'
m sorrybutIthi
nk
weshouldleaveithere"

Me:
"NooooVusi
Noooo"

Vusi:
"ComeI'l
ldr
opy
ouof
fIcan'
tl
ety
oucat
ch
ataxiiti
slat
e"

Afewmoment
slat
erhepul
l
edof
finf
rontof
ourhouse

[
InTheCar
]

Vusi
:
"Lookum.
..
we'l
ltal
kIam j
ustshockedand
fr
ust
rat
edyouknow"
Me:
"I
'm sor
ryei
sht
hisi
ssooof
uckedup"

Vusi:
"Lookwewil
ldeal
withthi
sasaf ami
l
ybut
fornowIneedtothi
nkthi
ngsthrough"

Me:
"Sowher
edoest
hatl
eav
eusVusi
??"

Vusi
:
"We'
l
ltal
kabouti
tNt
ombenhl
eby
e"

Me:
"By
e"

Vusi
:
"Andoh,
youl
ookbeaut
if
ult
oday
"

Me:
"Okay
"
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eakabl
eLov
e
I
nser
t34

AfterVusi droppedmeathomeIwentst raight

tomyr oom, Iam sohur tIknowt hatIshould
hav etoldhi m soonerbutIwasscar edandnow
Iam aboutt ol ooset heonl yguythatiscloseto
myhear t,Iwasgonnaagr eetohisproposal and
Ialsodi dn'twantt hi
smar ri
agetobebui l
tupon
l
iesandsecr et s.Ialway smesst hi
ngsup, what
Sihlesaidt omer eall
ycutdeepbutsomehow
shewasr ight ,ev ersinceIbecamepar toftheir
dad'slifehehasbeendi verti
nghisattenti
on
towardsmet hant hem soIunder standwher e
shecomesf r
om, t
het hingt hatamazesmei s
thatthrought hi sshor tper iodoftimeVusi andI
hav ebeent hroughal otandweal way scame
outstrongasaf ami l
y,likehehadsai dearl
ier
thatwewi lldeal wi t
ht hisasaf ami l
ythat
simplymeanst hathei swi l
li
ngtotryandmake
thi
swork,t
hatmeanshetr
ulyl
ovesmenowal
lI
havetodoistosi
thi
m downandtel
lhi
m
ever
ythi
ngaboutmypastwi
ththatmor
on.

[
Mom comesi
n]

Mom:
"Ev
ery
thi
ngokay
??"

Me:
"Yesmom ev
ery
thi
ngi
sper
fect
lyf
ine"

Mom:"
OKt heninthatcaseIwil
ltel
lyouf
ather
t
ocontacttheNkosihousehol
dtocomeby
t
omorr
ow"

Me:"No,y
oucan't,
atl
eastnotnow,VusiandIar
e
goingthroughsomethi
ngandweddi ngbell
sar
e
thelastt
hingonourmindsrightnow"
Mom:
"Soev
ery
thi
ngi
snotokay
"

Me:"
Notreal
l
yMa,Imi
ghtl
oosemypart
ner
,I
needtof
il
eforadi
vor
cewit
hThendo"

Mom: "
Ireal
lyf
orgotaboutthatman,j
ustknow
thatIwi
llbewit
hy ouever
yst epoft
heway ,
now
bondwithyourbabiest
heymi ssyou"
Shel
eft

Me:"Heybabies,mommyreal
l
ymi ssedyou
today,Iwantyouguyst
obegoodboy sand
don'twakeupi nt
hemiddl
eofthenightOK??
"
Ispoketot
hem asi
ftheywi
l
lrespondt
omy
request
Me:"
Ohsoy ouguy
swantsomemi l
kfrom
mommy ,
I'
l
lstar
twit
hy ouPhel
o(Bophelo)and
pl
easedon'
tbit
emel i
ketheot
hertime

Ibondedwit
hmybundlesofj
oyforaboutt
wo
hoursorsoasweal
lfel
lIasl
eep,
Iwasawoken
myphone

Tr
ingTr
ingTr
ing

[
It
'sNt
ombi
]

Me:
"Sol
ate?
?"

Her
:"
Sor
ryi
fIwokeyouup,
j
ustknowthatDNA
r
esul
tswi
ll
bereadyt
omorr
owmor ni
ngI
managedt
opul
li
tof
f"

Me:"
Ioweyoubi
gti
me,
butI
'
llmakei
tupt
oyouI
pr
omise"

Ntombi
:
"I'
mjusthel
pingf
ri
endi
t'
snobigdeal
I
gott
agoSphaisalr
eadybei
ngnaught
y"

Me:
"OKenj
oyy
ournaught
iness,
bye"

Iam cl
osetofindi
ngwhotherealfatherofmy
kidsi
s,
Iam sonervousandIpraythatThendo
i
snotthefather,
Idon'
twantanyt
hingtodowith
thatman

¶¶Vusi
¶¶
Me:
"Yesuncl
eIunder
stand"

Him:"
Sowhenar
ewegoi
ngt
otheMal
ebo
househol
d"

Me:
"Pl
easel
et'
sputi
tonhol
dforawhi
l
euncl
e"

Hi
m:"Whatwentwr
ongyouweresoexci
tedt
he
ot
herdayandnowyouwantt
opostpone"

Me:
"I
tisnot
hingIcan'
thandl
e,
Igot
tagoby
e"

WhenIfoundoutt
hatNtombenhleisthegirl
Thendohasbeent
alki
ngaboutIjustl
ostit,
so
shecheat
edandgotpregnant
,butsti
l
l If
eelli
ke
Iwast ooharshonher ,
Ishouldhavelistenedt
o
herinsteadofbrushi
ngherof fli
kethat,
y ou
shouldhav eseenthedisappoint
menti nhereye
whenIdr oppedheroff,
Idonotl i
kethewayIl eft
thi
ngswi thhermatteroffactIam call
ingher
now

I
tjustr
angf
orsecondsandf
inal
l
yshepi
cked
up

Her
:"
Hel
l
o"
Shesai
dinasl
eepyv
oice

Me:
"HeyNana,
didIwakey
ouup?
?"
Her:
"Notr
eal
l
yIwasbusycalmi
ngBokamoso
downheiscr
yingsopai
nful
l
y"

Me: "
Sorr
yyouhadt ocal
m hi
m downalone,
you
shouldbewit
hmeandIshoul dbetheone
helpi
ngyouwiththeseki
ndsofthi
ngs,
Iam
reall
ysorr
ybaby"

Her:
"NoIam sor
ryf
ornottel
l
ingy
ouaboutt
he
r
ealmeandmypast ,
Iwannacomecl
eanbut
youwon'
tletme"

Me:
"Iwasj
usti
nshockwecant
alkabouti
t
t
omorrow"

Her
:"
OK,
areSi
hleandSbuokay
??"
Me:
"Not
heyarest
il
lnott
alki
ngt
omebutt
hey
wi
ll
comearound"

Her
:"
OKl
etmesl
eepIl
ovey
ou"

Me:
"Il
ovey
oumor
ethandi
amondsandgol
d
myl
ove"

Her
:"
Stopl
yi
ng"

¶¶Thendo¶¶

Leratoi
smi neandIwon' tlethergowit
houta
fi
ght.WhenIsawhert odayIcouldnoteven
recogni
seher ,
sheloopdiffer
entandbeauti
ful
I
havenev erseenherli
kethatanohdamn! !She
rockedthatoutfi
titr
evealedallt
hecurvesand
thatsexybut
tofher
s.Iam notl
ett
inggoso
easil
y,
shewill
remai
nmi nenomat tert
he
cir
cumstances
[
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06,
17:
54]St
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t35

Itisanewdayf ormet ostartaf resh,correctmy

mi stakesandsi mpl ybemy selfinev ery
possi bleway .
Iti
sf unnyhowweaskf orGod' s
guidanceandr estorationwhenwear ein
troubleIam notsay ingallofusbutt hev ast
maj oritywithmei ncluded,Ionl yremembert o
prayandj ustconversewi thGodwhenIhav ea
heav yloadonmybar eshoulders.Speaki ng
from per sonalexperience,
Ir ememberwhen
Thendousedt obeatmeupandv iol
at emybody
allIev erthoughtaboutwast henegat ivethings
thatcameoutoft heabusebutnott heposi t
ive
thi
ngs. Iusedt opr ayev erynightaski ngGodt o
turnmyl i
fear oundandt akemeoutoft hat
scenar i
obutasal way sIf orgott othankhi mf or
savingmyl if
et hroughoutev erybeat i
ngIgot ,l
if
e
i
spr eciousandt hati sal lthatmat t
ers.Ialso
recallwhenIwasst i
llpr egnant ,onmyf i
fth
mont ht oneexactmyf eetwoul dbeheav yand
swol l
enasIwal kdoort odoort ocol l
ectmoney
formyAv onpr oducts, af t
ert hatIwoul dgot o
wor kandser v ecust omer swhi l
estudyingon
thesi debecauset hef ol l
owi ngmor ni
ngIhadt o
got oVar sit
y.Myl i
fewashel latthatti
mebutal l
Icaredaboutwer et hebabi esIwascar r
ying
andmyst udi
esnot hingmuch, nothing
l
ess. Somest udent satVar sitywoul dgossi pand
l
aughatmebehi ndmyback, Iwast hatlaughing
stockofTheVendaUni versitybutIst i
llkeptmy
headuphi ghbecauseIknewwhatIwant edt o
achiev einli
fe.
Ilear
ntaboutt
heroughnessofl
i
featavery
youngageandatthispoi
ntinmyli
feIam r
eady
totackl
eevery
thi
ngthatcomesmyway .

Iwaswokenupmyasoundofav eryr hythmi cal

i
nst rument al
,Isatupst rai
ghtandaman
dressedi nblackandwhi tetoldmet ogetoutof
bed,Idi dashesai dandhei nstructedmet o
fol
lowwhi terosepedal swhi chledt ot he
bathr oom obviously
, heopenedt hebat hroom
doorf orme,Igotinandcl osedt hedoor ,ont he
toi
letseatwasanot ewhi chr ead"Enj oyy our
bath,relaxandst opst r
essing, y
oubr eakf astwi ll
ber eadyi naf ewmi nutesandoh, yourpar ents
arenotathomesoImadepl anby ef ornowmy
l
ov e"
ThishasVusiwrit
tenalloverit
,whatdi dIdoto
deserv
ehimt hough,Il
ingerint
omyt houghtsas
thewarm watergetsabsorbedthr oughmyskin
pores.
Smil
ingtomy sel
fIdiscov erthatthi
sguy
i
strul
ytr
eat
ingmeli
keaQueenIj
ustwi
shI
coul
ddothesame.

Justf i
nisheddryingandl oti
oni ngIf i
ndanout f
it
onmybedwi thanot eagai n"Anout fi
tformy
Queen, Ichoseredbecausei tbr i
ngsoutt he
sparki nyourbeaut i
fuleyes"Wowr edbr a,r
ed
Victori
a'sSecretpant yandar edshor tjumpsuit
withsilverheel
s,Idressedint ot hatastonishing
outfitandIlookedi nthemi rrorohgosht his
thi
ngr evealseverythingbutIl i
kei tthough, I
l
ooksobeaut if
ul.Ijustcombedmyaf roand
appliednudel i
pgl ossandwentt otheki tchen.

AsIst epinthekit
chenIam welcomedbyav er
y
i
nv i
ti
ngsmel l,
Iseeal
l t
hefoodont hemini
tabl
e,Iwonderwhoi sgonnaeatt hatbecauseI
won'tit'
sjusttoomuchandIcannotdeal butit
smellsgoodt hough,asIam walkingaroundin
thehousehopi ngthatVusiwillappearIcome
acrossanot hernote"
Juststayt hewayy ouare
Ntombenhl e,Iwil
lseeyouaf t
eraf ew
hours,
don'twor r
yacarwillcomeandpi cky ou
upandt akey ousomewher e,Istil
ll
ovey ou
mor ethanev erNana"af
teraf ewhour s,thi
s
guythoughbuti tisokIwil
l wait.

I
nthemeant
imeIwi
l
lgot
oNt
ombi
[
Knockont
hedoor
]
"
Fami
l
yI'
m home!
!"

Mycr
azyf
ri
enddeci
dedt
obar
gei
n

Me:
"Heybabe"
Ismi
l
ed
Her
:"
Hehbannajwal
ewenawhenyoul
ooki
ng
sodel
ici
ouswhati
sgoi
ngon,
??"
Shel
ookedatmef
rom headt
otoe

Me:"
IwishIknew,
Vusij
ustboughtt
hisout
fi
t
andsai
dIshouldweari
t"

Her:
"IknowkeVusiwhochosetheout
fi
tphel
a
wenaandf ashi
on,
notbestf
ri
ends"

Me:
"ButIst
il
ll
ookbeaut
if
uli
nmyowncl
othes"

Her:
"Iwonderwhatisheplanni
ng,
Ibethewi
l
l
chowthatpussytoni
ght"

Me:"
Notatal
l,
heisnott
hatki
ndofmanand
besi
des,
Idon'
tfeel
li
kehavi
ngsex,
Ihat
eit
"
Her
:"
Ify
ousaysobabe,
any
wayIboughtt
het
est
r
esul
ts"

Shehandedmet heclosedenv el
opeandI
openedit
,and.
..
.and.
..
and...
.andIdonotbeli
eve
whatIseeThendois99. 99%t hefat
herofmy
babi
es,mymoodj ustdropped.

Me:
"I
tiswhati
tis"

Her
:"
Yeah,
wai
twhati
sthi
s"
Shet
ookapaperf
rom t
hef
loorandhandedi
tto
me

"
Don'
tletany
thi
ngr
uiny
ourdayNt
ombenhl
e,I
l
ovey
ouNana"
Mydayj
ustgotr
uined
[
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06,
17:
54]St
ri
ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t36

Me:
"JeezNt
ombi
whyar
eyoust
ari
ngatmel
i
ke
t
hat
??"
Shequi
ckl
ylookedaway

Her:"
St opstr
essi
ngaboutt
hisbabydaddyissue
Lerato,youhavebeeni
nhospit
alduetostr
ess
don'tletthi
saddupanddeteri
orat
eyourhealt
h
pl
ease"

Me:"
FriendrelaxIam notst
ressi
ngabout
any
thing,any
wayIwon' tl
etthi
sdragme
down,t
hekidsarehi
ssowhat ??Thatdoesnot
changehowIfeelabouthi
m andonet hi
ngfor
surei
sthatIwon'tl
ethi
m sabotagemy
rel
ati
onshi
pwithVusi"
Isai
dstandi
ngupandwashi
ngt
hegl
assesi
n
thesi
nk

Her
:"
Your
eal
l
ylov
ethi
sguyhuh?
?"

Me:
"Ohy
es,
Iador
ehim andIwoul
ddoanythi
ng
t
obewit
hhi
m,heisbasical
l
ymyever
ythi
ng"
Ibl
ushedasIconf
essedmyl
ovef
orVusi

Her:
"Ar
g,youaresoinl
ovethatyoudidnotev
en
i
nvesti
gat
et heguy,
hei
sjusttoogoodtobetrue
f
ormyl i
ki
ng, y
oushoul
dbecar eful
"
Shesay
swi
thar
atherst
rai
ghtf
ace
Me:"St
opdoi
ngt hatNt
ombi
,youknowthatVusi
l
ovesmeandt hathewon'
tdoanythi
ngtohur
t
me,sostopi
t"

Her
:"
Youusedt
osaythatTshepolov
eyouand
t
hathewon'
tdoany
thi
ngtohur ty
oubuthedi
d"

Me:
"Whydi
dyouhav
etobr
ingt
hatoneup?
?"

Her
:"
I'
mjustf
aci
ngt
het
rut
h"

Me:
"Youar
est
art
ingt
oannoymeNt
ombi
"
Isai
dcl
imbingt
hest
air
stomyr
oom t
ofet
ch
someti
ssueasshef
oll
owedme

Her
:"
Rat
othi
nkabouti
ttheguyal
way
ssay
sthe
ri
ghtt
hings,henev
ermakesmist
akesandhe
hasnevercall
edyoubyyourr
ealname,
Imean
whodoest hat?
?"

Me:"
Whyar eyouagainstVusi
all
ofasudden,
whatiswrongwit
hy ouNtombi??!
!Just
l
eave.
...
"

BeforeIf
ini
shtalki
ngshet
hrewmeonthebed
andsmashedherl i
psonminewit
hherot
her
handtryi
ngtounz i
pmyjumpsui
tandt
heother
brushi
ngmybr east

Me:"
Stop,Stopi
tgetof
fmewhatt
hehel
lar
e
youdoing??
"
Isai
dpushi
ngherof
fme

Her
:"
Rat
oum.
..
"
Me:"Savei
t!
!Whatthehell
wasthat
??What
's
gott
enintoyouhuh??Areyouf
ucki
ngouti
fyou
mind!!
??"

Her
:"
Cal
m downRat
o"
Shesai
dhol
dingmyhand

Me:
"Don'
tfucki
ngt
ouchme,
whyt
hehel
ldi
dyou
t
hat
!!
??"
Iy
ankedmyhandoutofher
s

Her:"
That'sbecauseIloveyoudammit!!
,Ihave
alwayslovedyouLerato,Ireal
l
ytr
iedtof i
ghtoff
thefeel
ingbutitwashar d,
Ilov
eyouLerato,you
havenoi deawhatitisli
ketoli
veafakel i
fe
whenIknowexact l
ywhatIwantandt hatisto
bewi t
hy ou"
[
Pee,
Pee,
Pee]
Ihear
dacarhoot
erf
rom out
side,
Ibeti
t'
sthe
dri
ver

Me:
"Justl
eav
eIgot
tago"
Iqui
cklyfi
xedmyhairwhichwasabi tmessy
andthenwentoutlockedthehouseandtheguy
openedthecardoorforme

Wedr ovemil
esawayf r
om home,butatthe
samet i
memymi ndwasmilesawayfrom the
road,
Iam j
ustfuckedupandconfusedtoo.

"
Mam,
wehav
ear
ri
ved"
Thedriv
ersai
dasIqui
ckl
ysnapoutofmydeep
thought
s
Me:
"Wher
ear
ewe?
?"

"
Iam notall
owedt
osaybuty
oucanf
oll
owt
he
t
rai
lri
ghtther
e"
Wi t
ht hatsaidhegoti nthecaranddr ove
away ,l
eavingmei nt hemiddl eofnowher e,well
thetrailspokenabouti sthatofwhi t
ef l
ower
petals,IwalkcluelessasIf oll
owt heall
eged
trai
lofpet al
s,asIam busywal kingIcome
acrosst owhatl ookslikeacav e,
doIr eall
yhave
togoi nsidethiscav enow?? Iquesti
onmy sel
f
asImakemywayi nthedarkcav estil
lfoll
owing
thetrailofpetals.

AsIam stil
lwalkingcuriosit
ycr eptinasto
whatisreall
ygoingon,befor eIknowi tIwas
pul
ledtoar oom andblindf olded,well
scaredi
s
anunderstatement,whatt hehel l
isgoing
on??Coul
dNtombi beri
ghtaboutVusi
,
ori
sthi
s
Thendo'
sdoings,
andwhataboutNtombi'
s
behavi
orear
liert
oday?
?
[
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06,
17:
54]St
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t37

I
twasquiet,
butIcoul
dhearfootst
eps,a
mul
ti
pleoffootst
eps,
Ipray
edt heOurFat
heri
n
myheartastheycametowardsme...

"
Undr
essherqui
ckl
ywedon'
thav
eti
me"
Awoman'
svoi
cesai
d

"
All
thecl
othes?
?"
Anot
herwomanr
epl
i
ed
"
Not heshoesandthatthi
ngsheisweari
ng
l
eavetheunderwear
,I'
m gonnafet
chtheout
fi
t
makeitsnappy"

Icoul
dhearbythev oicesthatthosepeople
werewomenandIt riedtalkingtothem,aski
ng
them whati
sgoingonbutt heywouldjusthum
songsofwhichIfoundf amiliar
Onewomanundressedmewithherrough
handsdoi
ngsomethingsonmyface..
.

"Goodyouaredone,
wehav
etohur
ryort
hese
peopl
ewill
fineus"

Fi
net hem??Aretheysel
li
ngme? ?Ihavealotof
questionsi
nmymi ndbutsti
l
lIremainquiet
becausemyquest ionswil
lobvi
ouslybe
answer edwi
ththehummi ngoffamili
arsongof
whi
chIdonotknowt
hel
yri
cs.
Astheyarebusydressi
ngmeIf
eel
thatt
he
shoesaretekki
es.

Sti
llbl
indfoldedtheyheldmyhandandwe
walked, asti
mewentbyIwashandedt oa
rat
herr ougherhandthathel
dmet ight
lyand
i
mmedi atel
ywewentt ohaltashe/shemade
mekneel downont hecoldfl
oor,
I
twasdead
qui
etandIbecamemor escaredbya
minute,butstil
lIr
emainedsil
ent

Vusi

Iam astonishedbythebeaut
yIseebeforeme,
a
beauti
fulfacewhichseemsrathercl
uel
essand
questi
oning
Past
or:"
Dearlybeloved,wear egat heredhereto
uni
tetwohappysoul sbutnotf orget t
ingt
he
wonderf
ul f
ami l
i
est hatbredt hem. Weaskt he
l
ordAlmightytoblesst hisr
itualwi t
hpeace,
l
oveandf ai
thful
ness.Bef or
eIcont inueIwould
l
iketoaskifthereisany oneagai nstthisri
tual
,
if
sospeaknoworf oreverholdy ourpeace.Itis
deci
dedthen,l
et'
spr oceedy oumaysayy our
vowssir"

Me: "
IVusi muziNkosi,t
akey ouNt ombenhle,well
LeratoMal eboasmyl awf ulweddedwi feI
promiseact uall
yIdonotpr omi seaspr omises
canbebr oken,Iwil
ltakecar eofy ouandour
kidseverydayandev eryhour ,Iwillmakesur e
thatyougot obedonaf ullstomacheach
night,
Iwillbefait
hfultoyouandonl yyou,t
imes
maybet oughbutIpr omi setobebyy oursi
de
everystepoft heway ,thr
oughsi cknessand
throughheal t
hIwi l
lholdy ourhandandast hey
sayt
il
ldeat
hdousapart
,buti
twon'
tIpr
omi
se
yout
hatify
oudi
eIdie,
Il
ov ey
ou"
Iki
ssedherhandandknel
tdownt
opl
acet
he
ri
ngonherti
nyfinger

[
Wow,
socut
e,wel
ldonepoi
]

Peopl
escr
eamed

Pastor
:"
Awoopleaser
emov eherbl
indfol
d,she
alsowantst
oseepeoplephel
a,l
ethersayher
vows"
[
CrowdLaughed]
AsIr
emov
edherbl
i
ndf
old

Sheli
ter
all
ybrokedownint
otear
sstil
lkneel
i
ng
onthefl
oor,
shereal
lybr
okedown,t
heywayshe
cri
edr eal
lymadeevery
onecr y,
Icoul
dsee
ti
ssuesandhandkerchiefspl
ayingar
oundt
hei
r
eyes,well
met oo,
hercr
ymademeweakasI
kneltdownandheldbot hherhands.
..

Me:
"Hey
,heywhati
swr
ongbaby
??"

Her
:"
Ican'
t.
..
Ahhhohhh"
Wordsfai
l
edher
,Ihuggedherandhel
dher
t
ight
ly

Me:
"Tel
ldaddywhati
swr
ongNana,
shhshhh"
It
ri
edcal
mingherdown

Her:
"You.
..
real
l
yl ove.
..meand..
..
Ionthe..
.other
handwasdoubt i
ng. .
.yourl
ovef
orme,andwe
sti
l
lhavesomei ssueswear edeal
ingwit
hr i
ght
now,
Idonott
hinkt
hatmar
ri
agewi
l
ltr
eatus
goodVusi
"
It
ookherhandsandst
aredi
ntoherey
es

Me:"Lookatme" LeratoMalebo"whatwear e
deali
ngwithisastorm anditshal
l pass,we
havebeenthroughsomuchi nthelit
tl
et i
mewe
havebeentogether,thi
stooshallpass,Ial
way s
tel
lyouthatwehav e...
"

Us:
" Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e
Webot
hsai
ditandt
hecr
owdwentcr
azy

"
Truel
ove,
Ali
l
il
iAl
i
li
li
,
Semot
shwer
esenat
la!
!!
"

Her:
"I
'm sor
ry,
ILerat
oMal
ebotakeyou
Vusi
muzi Nkosit
obemylawf
ul wedded
husband,Iintendt ot akecareofy ouandour
ki
dsaswel l
,everyev eningwheny ouknockof f
fr
om wor kIwi l
ltakeof fyourshoesandgi ve
youamassage, Iwi l
lmakesur eyoueatl i
kea
ki
ngthaty ouar e,andser veyouawel lbaked
desertaft
erwar dsbutmosti mpor tantl
yIwillbe
yourfri
endandl endy ouashoul dert ocryon
wheni nti
mesofhar dshipandt rouble,Il
ove
youVusi andIwi l
lfeedy outhebestf oodev er"

"
Feedhi
minbedt
ooMakot
i"
Mymom shout
edandy oushoul
dhav
eseen
Nt
ombenhl
e,Ler
ato'
sfacelol

Pastor
:"Hehtheysayfeedhiminbed,wi
thal
l
thatemoti
onalexper
ienceyoumayfinal
l
ykiss
thebri
de"
Iknel
tdown,heldherwaistandki
ssedherli
ps
passi
onatel
yasIcar r
iedherfr
om thef
loorst
il
l
connect
edtot heki
ss

"
Hai
boVusiy
ouar
efi
nishi
ngherof
f,
sav
eher
f
ort
oni
ght
"
Mydadshoutedoutandt hecr
owdl
aughedand
mypoorNtombenhle,
Leratowas
ashamed,
bur
yingherfaceonmychest
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Surpri
sedisanunderstatementIanshocked
actual
lytobetrut
hfulIhavealotofmixed
emot i
ons.WhatIhadinmi ndwasabeaut i
ful
romanticpicni
cbutthenMrNkosi haddiff
erent
plansasalwaysthissurpri
seweddingreal
ly
tookmebysur prise.Event houghIwoul dwant
tobemar r
iedinawhi t
edr ess,
tradi
tional
isway
bett
er,Idi
dnotmeant obeadr amaqueenbut
whenIhear dVusi sayi
nghi svowsIj ust
becameemot ional t
hatallIcoulddowascr y
butnowIam happyaboutev erythi
ngandIwi l
l
notlettearsruinmyl if
eany mor eallIhavet
odo
i
st r
yandmaket hingsrightinev er
ypossibl
e
way.

Wejustcamefrom HomeAf fair

snowt osign
andgetourmarri
agecerti
ficate,wel
li
tissett
led
Iam nowaMr sNkosi,y
eahLer atoNkosii
t
soundssoooori
ght,Iam happy .

Myfamil
ytookmet omyi n-l
awsear
li
erand
nowthecel
ebrati
oni son,Iam nowi
naroom
wit
hwomenandt heyaret el
l
ingmehowt o
tr
eataman,gi
vingmer ulesandIam l
ist
ening
at
tendev
ly.

"Mygirl
amanshoul dbetr
eat
edwi
thr
espect
,
neverevershoutaty
ourman"
Onewomansai
d

"Yesandmakesurethatwhenhear r
ivesat
homef r
om workhegetsfood,
becauseawayto
aman'shearti
sthr
oughhisstomachr emember
that
"
Theot
heronesai
d

"Andbethereforhim mylove,andshowhim
youarenotlazyfeedhimthef oodoffl
esh,
yes
feedhiminbedRat onomat terhowtir
edyou
areneverl
etyourmanst arv
ei nbedorelsehe'
l
l
seekfoodelsewhere"
"
Anyquest
ions?
?"

Me:
"No"

"OKthenlet
'sgoshowt heNkosihousehol
dthat
ourgir
lhasmanners,ri
ghtnowtheyaregoing
togi
vey oumatri
monialname,ev
enifyouare
nothappywithi
tjustsmil
eandlookhappy"

Wegotoutoft hathutandwenttothemain
housebutbeforethatIwassmearedall
over
mybodywi t
hcowdung, andthesmellGod.
So
wewenti nt
hemai nhouseIhadadoekonwi th
ablanketov
ermyshoul der
swithmekneeli
ng
downandwai ti
ngtohearmynewname.

"Ler
ato,
Ler
atoweastheNkosi
househol
dhav
e
comet oadeci
siont
her
efor
efr
om thi
sday
f
orwar
dyouwi
l
lbeNt
ombenhl
eNkosi
"

I
'
m Ntombenhl
e,myhusband'
sfav
ori
tenameI
l
i
ter
all
ysmil
ed.

"
Hehlookathersmi
li
ngweal lknowyoul
ove
t
hatname,
yourmotheri
n-l
awandf at
heri
n-l
aw
woul
dli
ketosayafewwor ds"

Vmom: "
Mydear estmakotiwedonotknow
muchabouteachot heryetbutIfeel
li
kewe
haveastrongbondalready,Iam soblessedt
o
haveyouinmyson' sl
ifewelcomeandIhope
youtr
eathim good"

Me:
"Iwi
l
lMa"
Vdad:
"Idon'
thavemucht osaybutdamnmy
sonhaschosenwel l,
youarebeauti
fulmy
dar
li
ngIam ov er
joyedthatVusif
inall
yfound
l
oveagain,t
reathim wellpl
ease"

Me:
"Iwi
l
lBaba"

"Wit
hthatsai
dIam nowcl
osi
ngt
his
cel
ebrat
ion,y
oucangohomemypeopl
eitwas
funi
ndeed"

Vmom:
"Let
'sgoMakot
i"

Vusi
:"
Ohnomom wewi
l
lbegoi
ngt
oourhouse
sor
ry"

Vdad:
"YoudowhatIt
aughty
ouson"
Vusi

Hehthi
sol
dwomanwant
stot
akemyl
ady
awayfr
om me,
nev
er.

Iact ual
lyboughtanewhousei twouldbe
disrespectfult
oletNtombenhlesleeponmy
l
at ewi f
e'sbed,wearr
ivedandshewasal ready
asleepbutIf eelhert
ir
ednessithasbeenal ong
day .Iwentovertohersideandcarri
edher
i
nsi deandohmybabysmel l
sreall
ybadlythis
cowdungr eall
ymadeanumberonher ,
Iplaced
heront hecouchasIwentt orunherabat h,
I
placedherPj '
sont hebedandwentt owakeher
up.

Me:
"Nanawakeupwear
ehome"
Ishakehergent
ly

Her
:"
Ilov
eyout
oo"

Me:
"YesIknowbuty
ougot
tawakeup"

Her
:"
YesIwi
l
lbutt
omor
row"
Shesai
dwi
thhersl
eepyv
oice
Icarr
iedhertot
hemainbedroom andplaced
herintheshower
,t
henopenedthecold
water,
youshoul
dhaveseenhowshej umpedup

Her
:"
Ahhwhatt
hef
uckdude!
!"

Me:"It
ri
edwaki
ngyouupbuty
ouwoul
dnot
budgesoIhadnochoi
ce"
Her
:"
I'
ll
gety
ouf
ort
his"

Me:"
Whatev
erj
ustshoweraf
tert
hatgeti
nthe
bat
htubandbat
hyoursmelli
soutofthi
s
worl
d"

Her
:"
Fucky
ou"

Il
aughedatherasIl
eftt
her
oom

Ler
ato

Afteraf ewmi nut

esIfi
nishedbat
hingandwor e
thePj '
sont hebedthenwentdownst ai
rs,
wait
Vusi boughtanewhouse, wowthi
si shuge,I
spotVusi inthedini
ngarea
Me:"
Myhusbandwhydi
dn'
tyousayy
ouar
e
buy
inganewhouse?
?"
Iwentt
osi
tnextt
ohi
m

Him:
"Well
mywi f
eIwant
edt
osur
pri
sey
ou,
are
yousur
pri
sed?
?"

Me:
"Iam y
our
eal
l
ychosewel
l
"

Him:"
Anythi
ngformybeaut
iful
wi f
e,nowwe
havetotal
kaboutmoreser
iousissuestel
lme
aboutyouandThendo"

Me:
"OKit'
salongstoryt
hough,myf akefami
ly
mar
riedmeofftoThendoi twasanar r
anged
mar
riagewedidn'
tevensignallheeverwanted
wasahei r.
Thendodi dnotl ov emeandIdi dnot
l
ov ehi
m either,hewasmyv i
rgi
nbr eakerbut
thewayhebr okemyv ir
gini
tywassobadand
painf
ulitwast hewor stexper i
enceev erhe
for
cedhi mselfintomeIwoul dt el
l hi
mt ostop
andtakeitoutsi ncehewashur ti
ngmebuthe
wouldjustgoonandsat isf
yhi msel f
,
sometimeshewoul dl ockmeupi nmyr oom f
or
thewholedayj ustfuckingt heshitoutofme
anditwaspai nfulVusi hereallybrokeme"

Hi
m:"BabyI
'
m sorr
yyoucanst
opbecauseIsee
t
hissti
l
lhur
tsyou"

Me:"NoI'l
lconti
nue,Ihadaboyfr
iendbeforet
he
mar r
iageandIcouldnotletgobutitseemed
thathewaspar tofthegamehet ookmef ora
ri
desoIf el
lpregnantandtheyki
ckedmeout
notknowingthatthebabieswerehis,
yesmy
babiesar
eThendo'
sbabi
esI'
m sor r
yfornot
tel
l
ingyouearl
i
erIwasscar
edt hatyouwon'
t
seemet hewayyoudi
dbefore."

Him:"BabyIactuall
yloveandrespectyoueven
morebecausey ouhadthecour aget
otellme
yourst or
yandthaty ounevergaveupony our
babies,Ival
ueNtombenhleandIam wi l
li
ngto
rai
set hekidsasmi ne"

Me:
"Thanky
ou,
butwhati
sint
hatpl
ast
ic"

Hi
m:"
You'
l
lseet
hatl
ater
"

Me:"
I'
m goi
ngtosleepther
ewon'
tbel
ater
any
waywher ear
et heki
ds??"
Him:"
Nt ombenhle,
Ntombenhlehav
ey ouev er
seenkidswiththei
rparent
sonthefi
rstnightof
marri
age??Phelay ouandIar
enotsleepi
ng
toni
ghtwear egonnadoadultbusi
nessifyou
knowwhatImean"

Whatdoeshemean?
??
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Vusi

Iam thehappiestmani ntheuniver

se,
today
marksoneoft hegreatestdaysofmyl i
fe
seei
ngandhear ingthewomanIl oveconfess
herloveforme.Youknowl oveisav er
yfunny
thi
ngitisalmostrar
et ofi
ndy oursoulmatein
thi
sl i
fet
imebutIguessthatweareoneofthe
l
uckyonessincewef oundeachother
,wel
lI
foundherbutst
il
lbesidetheagegapwearea
perfectmat
ch.

SowhenItol
dmyoldmanaboutNt
ombenhl
e'
s
agehewasli
ke.
..

Fl
ashback

Dad:
"Sosonhowol
disy
ourwi
fet
obe?
?"

Me:
:
"19t
urni
ng20"

Dad:
"YohVusiy
ouwantt
orapet
hepoor
gi
rl
,j
ustki
ddi
ngboyi
t'
swhatt
hehear
twant
s"
Me:
"Yebo!
!!
"

EndFl
ashback

Anywaywhenshet ol dmeaboutherdeal wit

h
ThendoIbecamer eallyangrybutIt r
ied
controlli
ngmy sel
finf rontofherbutdeepdown
Iwant edt ogetupandgomur derThendo,I
meanhef orcedhimsel fonher,herapedherfor
cryi
ngoutl oudbutshewasscar edtorepor
t
him becausehei st heChi efandnoonewoul d
beli
eveher .
Idon'tknowi fIshouldcarryonwith
mypl ansf orhert onight ,
Idonotknowi fsheis
readyf orlovemaki ngbutI '
l
ltryandifshefeels
uncomf or
tableIwi l
l stop.

Ntombenhl
emademewat chahor
rormovi
e
wit
hherbutguesswhat,
shesl
epti
nlesst
han
anhour,
butI
'm waki
ngherupshecan'
t
sl
eep,
ther
eisnosl
eepi
ngt
oday
..
.

Me:
"Nana,
wakeupst
handwasam "
Ishookhergent
ly

Her
:"
Noooo,
I
'mt
ir
ed"
Shesai
dwi
thherey
escl
osed

Me:"
OkIcaneatal
lthi
spi
zzaal
one,
i
t'
sfi
ne
sl
eep"
Iknowshel
ovespi
zza

Her
:"
Huhpi
zzawher
eisi
t"
Shepr
act
ical
l
yjumpedof
fthecouch

Me:
"HahahaI
'
m ki
ddi
ngIj
ustwant
edy
out
o
wakeup"

Her
:"
Wabor
ababyhl
e"

Me:
"Any
wayI
'
m hungr
y"

Her
:"
Um...
let
'sor
derpizzat
hen,
oryoucancook
f
oryour
selfbesi
desyoutheonehungr
ynotme"

Me:"Amandoesnoteatf astfoodwhenhehas
awi f
eandIbett heyt
oldyouthatri
ghtor
shouldIcal
lthem andtel
lthem t
hatyouarenot
respect
ingme? ?
"

Her
:"
Nooo,
pleasedon'
tI'
l
lobeyf
rom nowon"

Me:
"Goodnowcookf
ormeI
'
m hungr
y"
Isai
dwi
thast
ernv
oice

Her
:"
Whatwoul
dyoul
i
ket
oeat
??"

Me:"Makeanyt
hingthatyouthi
nkwil
lfi
l
lyour
husband'
sstomach[ shest
oodup]andwait
whatareyouwearing??"

Her
:"
Pyj
amas"

Me:"
Youcan'tcookformei nthat
,her
eint
his
pl
asti
ciswhaty ou'
l
lwearev er
yti
mewear e
al
oneinthi
shouse,wearthatandcookforme"
Ihandedhert hepl
asti
c,sheaskedwhatwasin
thereearl
ierandnowsheget stosee,
i
tissome
blacksti
lett
oswithr
edandbl ackbodysui
t
whichisopendownt here,
yeahtherei
sno
fabri
chidingthesweetcakeandIboughtitf
or
ar
eason.

Soonshecomesdownwear i
ngitandmyey es
godirectl
ytohersweetinnocentface,t
hent o
heryell
owcleav agedowntoherlowerar ea
whereIseet hatmywomani sactuallygift
ed
herbehindismassi v
eandthecutecur vesadd
spi
cet othat
...

Me:"I
t'
s22:15nowandby23:
00Iwantmyf
ood
onthetabl
eorelset
her
ewill
betr
oubl
emakei
t
snappy!
!"
Ibangedont hetableasIwentupst airsto
changemyt radit
ionalatti
reint
osomet hing
mor efl
exible,
soIt ookoutmyol djam from the
90swhenIwasst il
lfl
exibleandladi
eswoul dgo
crazyatthest r
ipperclub,myblackg-stri
ngoh
yesmenal sohav eg-str
ingsincasey oudidnot
knowbuti tseemsl i
keIhav egrownal otdown
thei
rlucki
lyIboughtanewonewhi chf
it
sme
perf
ectly,
Ilookinthemir
roranddamnifIwas
awomanIwoul drunformylif
e.

Igobackdownst air
stof i
ndNtombenhlesti
ll
busywi t
hthepotsandt hearomaindi
catesthat
sheisdoingagreatjob,
Ijustst
andfor
moment sjustwatchi
nghermov ethenshe
droppedthespoon,shebenttofet
chitandoh
GodIsawt hewholepackageandMrDi cky
downt herecoul
dnotcont r
olhi
mself.

Igototheki
tchenwhensheimmedi at
ely
star
teddr
ooli
ngandt hespar
kinhereyeswas
anindi
cat
ionthatshelov
eswhatshesaw. .
.

Me:
"Hey
!!
It
's22:
59t
imei
sti
cki
nggi
rl
y"
Her
:"
I'
m al
mostdonej
eezVusi
!!
"

Me:
"Youshout
ingataman? ?
I'
ll
showyouwhat
t
hetruemeani
ngofrespecti
stoday
"
AsIsaidthatsheimmedi
atel
ykeptquietand
cont
inuedwithwhatshewasdoing,soIwentto
hugherfrom behi
ndandshegraspedforair
..
.

Me:
"Ar
eyouf
inemyl
ove?
?"
Iki
ssedherneck

Her
:"
Um.
..
no.
..
your
..
.i
srubbi
ngagai
nstmybut
t"

Me:
"Mywhatsweet
hear
t??"

Her
:"
Yourmanhood"
Me:"
Oht hi
sguy,
Iguesshel
ovesyou
sweethear
tdon'
tyoulov
ehi
m? ?"

Shej ustkeptquietsoIwentonmykneesand
partedherlegsandwhenIl ookedupIsawmy
sweetcakeIt henusedmytonguet ol
i
ckthe
j
uicedownt here,
asIam busyli
cki
ngand
throbbingIletgoandusedmyf ingeri
nst
ead
rubbingherclitinafastmode

Her
:"
Ohhhhhst
opVusi
pleasest
oooopAhhh"
Shebr
eat
hed

Me:
"Isai
ddon'
tyoul
ovet
hisguy
!!
??"
Ipoi
ntedatMrDi
cky
Her
:"
Ido,
Idookayohgoshst
op!
!"
Herkneesweretr
embl
i
ng,
Iguessshewas
r
eachingheror
gasm

Me:"DishupformeandIdon'twantanyt
hing
dri
ppingfrom t
hosesexyl
egsofyours,
I
'm not
donewi t
hy out
henighti
ssti
l
l y
oungmyl ove"

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terLowSor
ry
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e

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OhGodVusi isatotal
lydif
fer
entper
sontoni
ght
andheisreall
yscari
ngmebuti nagoodway
though,
Icanclear
lyseethathel
ovesbei
ngin
chargebutguysmymanhast hemost
wonder
fulbodyhispacks,
theVli
netheyar
e
j
ustonpointplushi
shandsomefacetooheis
j
ustper
fectIwouldnotaskformorewhatI
hav
eisalreadyenough.

Heisweari
ngthi
sG-str
ingandallIwannadois
l
aughbutIcan'
t,
notnow..
..
Ifeel
somewar m
l
iqui
dfal
l
ingdownmyl egsVusiisgonnaki
llme

Him:"
Ntombenhlewhyarey oubei
ngasi
ll
ygi
rl,
I
sai
dIdon'twanttoseeanythi
ngdownyourl
egs
butcl
earl
yyoudidnotli
sten"
Hesai
dst
andi
ngupcomi
ngmyway

Me:
"I
'm sor
ryIcoul
dn'
tcont
rol
mysel
f,I
'
lldi
sh
upf
oryounow"

Hi
m:"
I'
m nothungr
yforf
oodany
mor
e,Iam now
hungryf
oryou,y
ouhav ebeenasil
lygi
rland
daddydoesnotli
kesil
lygir
l,
Iwantyouonyour
kneesonthetablenow!!
"

IobeyedasIcl
i
mbont
het
abl
e,
heal
socl
i
mbed
onthetabl
e

Vusi

Me:"
Goodgir
lnowIwanty ourbutti
nmyf ace
andyourl
i
psplayi
ngwithMrDi ckywedon't
wanttomakehim angr
ynowdowe? ?"

Her
:"
Noooo"
Shesai
dasshegrabbedDickyandplacedhim
i
nhermouth,
asIkeptli
cki
ngawayherj ui
ces
andthr
obbi
nginsi
deherwithmyindexf i
nger
Me:"Yesbabyjustl
iket
hat
,makeme
happy,Ohhhyeah"

Sheseemsl i
keshehasexperi
enceonbl ow
j
ob,r
ightwhenshereachedherorgasm Irubbed
onhercli
tfast
erandshewasshout i
ng

Her:
"Ohhhhhh,
Vusist
op!!
!Ahhhh!
!!I
'
m gonna
expl
odeinyourface.
..
"

Ijustcont
inuedunt
ilsheexpl
odedr
ighti
nmy
face

Me:
"Si
l
lygi
rl
,come"

Icar
ri
edhert
othemai
nbedr
oom anddr
opped
heronthebedasIwenti nforakiss,
bit
ti
ngon
hersweetl
ipswhi
legrabbingthatmassiveass
wit
hbothhands,
Istoodupst il
lconnect
edtothe
ki
ssandpinnedheragainstthewall

"
OhhhVusi
,
Ahhhh"
Shesai
dinbet
weent
heki
ss

Itookmyot herhandunzi pthebodysui

tbutit
gavemepr oblemssoIr i
ppeditoffandsucked
onherlef
tbr east,Ifor
gotsheisstil
lanew
mom soherbr eastscont
ainmilk,
thesourl
iqui
d
wasnowi nmymout h

Irantothebat
hroom andbr
ushedmyt
eet
h
quickl
ythenwentback

Me:
"Whydi
dyounotwar
nme?
?NowIdr
ank
br
eastmi
l
k"

Shej
ustl
aughed

Me:
"We'
l
lseewhoget
sthel
astl
augh"

Icont
inuedwithwhatIwasdoing,ri
ppingthe
damnbody sui
toffherbodyunti
lshewas
completel
ynakedmyar ousalr
ateroseasI
l
ookedatherfrom headt ot
oeandMrDi cky
j
ustbecamehar dandev enl
onger.

Il
ayedheront hebedandki ssedherneck
l
eavinghickieshereandt her
eandt hent heI
star
tedsweat i
ngwhi chmeansIhav etot ake
outthestress.Il
eftherformoment stakingof
myG- st
ri
ng,thenspr eadherthi
ghsapar tput t
ing
onelegonmyshoul derandpressi
ngtheot her
onthebedasIknel
tbet
weenhersexyl
egsst
il
l
hol
dingt
heotheroneonmyshoul
der

"I
fithur
tsj
ustpi
nchmyar
m andcl
osey
our
eyesokay"
Isai
dadjust
ingmy
sel
ftoent
erherhol
y
tr
easur
echest

"NoooVusiit
'st
oobi
g,
Ihaveneverseen
anythi
ngl
ikeiti
nmyli
febef
ore"
Shewasscr
eami
ng

"
Shhhhh"

Iputmyf
ingeronhermout
hasIputi
tin

"
Ouch.
..
isi
tal
li
n??
"
Sheaskedi
npai
n

"
Justt
het
ipbaby
"
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Vusi

DamnIhadaj ammi ngsessi

on, i
tisnow03: 57I
cleanedNtombenhl eupandl etherrestIreall
y
kil
ledher,
atthi
spoi ntshewassnor i
ngsoftl
ymy
babyr eal
l
ygav ei ttome. Soaft
erour7thr ound
shegav emeal apdancesway ingherhipsside
tosideandgr i
ndi nghermassi veassonmy
manhood, itwasf unandwhenourbodi es
becameoneIf eltapr ickofscarl
etexplosi
ons
i
nbot hourhear ts,NtombenhleandIdi dnot
hav
esexbutmadel
ove.

I
nthemeant
imeIcont
inuedwi
thmyassi
gned
wor
k

Ler
ato

Ijustwokeup,
act
ual
lyIwaswokenupbyVusi
,playi
ngwit
hmyclit

Hi
m:"
Andf
inal
l
yshewokeup"

Me:
"Heybaby
..
."

Hi
m:"
Howar
eyoumyl
ove?
?"
Me:
"I
'mf
resh,
I
'm good"

Hi
m:"
Iseey
ouev
engl
owi
ng"
Hekeptr
ubbi
ngmycl
i
t

Me:"
Remov
eyourhandf
rom mycakeIwanna
pee"
Igotupandwentt
othebat
hroom

Me:
"OuchShi
t!
!!
"
Hecamer
unni
ngIt
ell
you

Hi
m:"
What
'swr
ongNana"

I
'
llcont
inue
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cont
inuat
ion)

Hi
m:"
What
'swr
ongbaby
??"

Me:
"Ican'
tpeeVusi
Ican'
tpee,
ohgosh"
Ir
eal
l
ytr
iedbuti
twasf
ucki
ngpai
nful

Hi
m:"
Sor
ryNanaj
ustpee"

Me:
"Mx
mit
'sal
lyourf
aul
twena"

Hi
m:"
Okaypeeandi
fit
'spai
nful
youcanpunch
me"

Me:
"Okayst
andcl
osersoIcanpunchy
ougood"
Ij
ustpeedIwasgonnadoitanywaybutIdi
d
notmisstheoppor
tuni
tyt
opunchmyVusi

Him:"
OuchNt
ombenhl
eyoucanr
eal
l
ypunch
hey"

Me:
"YeahcomeI
'
llmakey
ousomebr
eakf
ast
myl
ov e"

Vusi

Ntombenhlewasbusycookingupastormin
thekit
chensoIwasjustsi
tt
ingandl
isteni
ngto
hertal
kaboutwhychosetostudyl
awandIwas
capti
vatedj
ustst
ari
ngather

Her
:"
Hai
iVusi
stopst
ari
ngatme"
Me:
"Sor
rymyl adyy
ourbeautyi
sjusttoomuch
f
ormeandt hanksf
orthebeaut
iful
nightIr
eal
l
y
f
uckedyougood"

Her
:"
Nahy
oupl
ayi
ngmyboy
"

Me:
"Youwer
etheonescr
eami
ng,
AhhhVusi
it'
s
t
oobig,
i
twon'
tfi
tst
op!
!"
Isai
dinagi
rl
yvoi
ce

Her
:"
What
ever"

Me:"
Awoomypoorbabyy oucannotev
enwal
k
pr
operl
y,Iguessi
t'
shotdownther
e"
Il
aughed
Her:
"OkayfineVusi
,
youknowy ourwayinthe
bedroom Igiv
eyouthatbutyouarenev
er
gonnatouchmeagai nphel
awenay ouchow
pussydude"

Me:"Ahhbabyyounotfairnow,
I'
ll
carr
yy ou
aroundthehouseunt
ilyoucanwalkproper
ly
again"

Her
:"
I'
m goingtoshowerandIwanttoseeal
l
mykidstoday,
here'
syourfoodenj
oy"

Shel
eftcatwal
ki
ngupt
hest
air
s

Ler
ato

Iwasbusyshower
ingandVusi
camet
ojoi
nme
andIbety'
all
knowwhatwentdowninour
showersessi
on,wewerenowl
oti
oni
ngandVusi
i
sreall
ynaughtyguy
s,t
henmyphonerang

Me:
"Pl
easepassmyphonebabe"

Hi
m:"
Okayher
esweet
hear
tI'
l
lbedownst
air
s"

I
twasNt
ombi

Imadeal
oudspeakerwhi
l
eIkeptdr
essi
ngup

Me:
"Hel
l
o"

Her
:"
OhRat
oyouf
inal
l
yyouanswer
edmy
cal
l
,howar
eyoumybaby
"

Me:
"Whatdoy
ouwant
??"

Her
:"
Lookaboutt
hekissIreal
l
yenj
oyedi
t,
it
r
eal
lymademySat ur
day"

Me:
"Ar
eyoufucki
ngoutofyourmindNt
ombi
t
hatki
sswasami st
akeandyouknowit
"

Her:"Looklet
'smeettot
alkaboutitokay
please,Ir
eall
ycan'
tdealwi
thmyf eeli
ngsfor
you,t
heyar etoost
rong"

Me:
"Okayf
inet
extandpl
aceI
'
llbet
her
e"

Her
:"
OkayIl
ovey
ouRat
o"
Iwantedt
oswearatherbutIIsawVusiatthe
doorandabor
tedt
hecall
.Vusij
ustst
aredatme
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Ler
ato

Iam gonnabestr
aightupwi
thmyhusbandand
tel
lhi
m ever
ythi
ng

Me:
"Vpl
easesi
tdown"
It
ookhi
shandi
nmi
neandsatonhi
slap

Hi
m:"
So?
?"
Heputhi
sar
m ar
oundmyneck

Me:"
Iknowy ouhear
dtheconversionbetween
Ntombi andI,sheki
ssedmey esterdayandsai
d
shehasdev elopedf
eeli
ngsandst uffbutI
swearthereisnothi
nggoingonbet weenher
andI"

Him:"
Nana,
lookIdon'thav
et i
metofightgi
rlsif
i
twereamanaf teryouIwouldhavegonecr azy
butsi
nceit
'sagirl
Ithinkyoucanhandleit
."

Me:"
OKthanksmyl
oveIt
houghty
ouwoul
dbe
angr
y"

Him:"
Nahit
'snotabigdealbabybutIr
eal
l
y
havetogotal
kwithThendoIhopeyoudon'
t
mind"
Me:
"I
t'
scool
"
ButdeepdownIwasquest
ioni
ngmy sel
fasto
whywouldhegotal
kwithThendobutit
'snone
ofmybusiness

Him:"
I'
ll
alsocomewiththeki
dssi
ncet
he
school
sar er
eopeni
ngtomorr
ow"

Me:
"Yourki
dsreall
yhat
emet
hough,
Ij
usthope
t
heyhavefor
givenme"
Eversi
ncethatinci
dentwhenVusi
beatthehel
l
outofThendoSi hl
eandSphahavebeenreal
ly
nastytowardsmeitreal
l
ypainsmyhear
t
becauseIreall
ylov
ethei
rfat
her

Hi
m:"Nt
ombenhl
est
opwor
ryi
ngt
heywi
l
lcome
ar
ound"
Me:"Okayl
et'
sgoy
ou'
l
ldr
opmeof
fatNt
ombi
'
s
house"

Wegoti
nthecarandhedr
oppedmeof
fat
Nt
ombi'
splace

Vusi

Ifi
nall
yarri
vedatt
heroyalhousether
earea
fewthingsIneedt
odiscusswithThendowe
agreedtomeethere,
ohtherecomeshiswif
e..
.

Takalani
:"
A.aVusi
,Iguesscongrat
ulat
ionsar
ein
orderIheardyoumarri
edLerato"

Me:
"ThanksLani
wher
eisThendo?
?"
Takal
ani:
"He'l
lbedownanymomentf rom now,I
j
usthopey ourfr
iendshi
pisnotoveryouguy s
havebeenthroughsomest uf
ftogether"
[
ThendoEnt
ersTheRoom]

Thendo:
"ExcuseusTakal
ani
"
Shel
eftt
her
oom

Me:"
I'
m notheret
ofi
ghtbutt
oseekpeaceIdo
notl
iket
histensi
onbet
weenusman"
Iwasserious,ThendoandIhav ebeenf r
iends
si
nceanear lyage,hehasbeenabr otherInever
hadevent houghhei sapl ay er
,healsogota
si
detheIl ovewhichist hel ovi
ngand
under
standingside.Irememberwhenmyl ate
wif
ebecameHI Vposi ti
veIr eallyl
ostitbuthe
wastherewi t
hmeev eryst epoft heway
maki ngsurethatSphaandSihlewereokaythat
i
swhyt heygotangrywithNtombenhlebecause
IhitThendobecauseIwast ryi
ngtodefend
her,wereal
lyhav eahi
storyanditwoul
dbea
pit
yi fIl
eti
tslidedownthedrain

Him:"Vusi Iam al sotir

edbr a,
youlov eLeratoso
andIdon' twel lnotinthatwaysoIam happy
foryouguy s.
Iknowt hatIacteddr amat i
call
yat
fi
rstbutIt ooktimet ot hinkthi
sthi ngthroughi
real
isedthatt hatwomanmakesy ouhappyand
that'
sallIwantf oryout obehappyand
sound,canwej uststopt hi
squarrelli
ngand
mov eoni tisreal l
ygettingboring"

Me:"I'
m gl
adyoufi
ndi
tbori
ngasIdoandalso
thatwearefi
ne,
SphaandSihl
ereal
l
ymiss
havingyouar
ound"
Him:"Ial
somi ssmycr azypeoplebutona
seri
ousnot eIreall
ywanttoapologizetoRat o
forallt
hebadt hingsIhavedonetoherIr eal
l
y
feelbad,Ir
apedherVusi,Iam afuckingrapist
shet ol
dmet ost opbutIdidnot,
youknowIst i
ll
hearhercriesinmyheadev er
ynight,Ibroke
herman"

What
??Thendoi
ntear
s,hewasr
eal
l
ycr
ying

Me:"
Yout
alktoherman,
showherthatyou
r
eall
ymeanit
,mywifei
safor
giv
ingpersononl
y
i
fyoumeanit
"

Hi
m:"
Pleasef
orgi
vemef
orr
uini
ngy
ourwi
fe"

Me:"
Youarefor
giv
enmanbutjustmaket
hings
r
ightwi
thherIdonowwantt
obecaughtupin
t
hemi
ddl
e"

Wer eall
yhadadeepconv ersi
on,Iknowthat
somewi l
lsaythatIbet r
ayedNt ombenhlebutI
'l
l
l
aymyf actsonthet able,t
hisisnotabout
betrayalwhatIam doi nghereisteaching
Ntombenhl esheisst i
llver
yy oungandIhav et
o
pointhertotherightdirect
ionnomat t
erhow
hurtyouar eyoustil
lhav etoforgiv
eandl i
ve
yourlif
e.Astheysayi tinSesothokeamo
hodisaNt ombenhleshei sstil
lababyandhas
gotlotstolearnandwi t
hmebyhersi deall
shallbewel l

Ler
ato

Ihavebeenchil
l
ingwit
hSphaf
orhour
snow,
he
sai
dNtombi hasbeenwei
rd
Spha:
"Rat
o!!
It
'ssogoodt
oseey
ougi
rl
,l
ooki
ng
fl
y"

Me:
"Wowt
hanksSt
hel
ol,
wher
eisy
ourwi
fe?
?"

Spha:
"I
ntheguestroom,she'
sact
ingki
nda
weir
dlat
elyIr
eall
ymi sstheol
dNtombi"

Me:
"Met
oocanIgocheckonher
??"

Spha:
"Yeahgoahead,
pl
easebegent
lewi
thher
she'
snothersel
f"

Iwenttooneoftheguestbedroomsandfound
herint
heresi
tt
ingont hef
loorandhuggi
ngher
kneeswit
htear
sf l
owingdownhercheeks
Me:"Nt
ombi
??Whati
sgoi
ngon?
?Whyar
eyoh
cr
ying?
"

Her:
"Rat
oI '
m sosor
ryaboutmyr
ecent
behavi
or.
..Iwasnotmysel
f"
Shecont
inuedt
ocr
y

Me:
"Buty
ouar
ecr
yingbabe,
whati
sgoi
ngon?
?"
Noshereal
lyl
osti
tIhav
eneverseenherl
i
ke
t
his,
sheIj
ustover
emoti
onal
rightnow

Her
:"
Rat osomethi
ngreal
l
ybadhappenedto
me..
.Icoul
dnottel
lSphaIam scar
edt
hatIwil
l
l
oosehim asIreal
l
ylovehim"

Me:
"Whathappenedt
oyou?
?"
Her:
"RatoIwasraped,
theyrippedmydr essoff
andrapedmet heyhurtme,theywer etoo
many ,
RatoIf
eeldir
ty,
Itri
edi gnor
ingitbybeing
alesbi
anbutIcouldn'
tIsti
llhavenightmares
aboutthatni
ght,
iti
ssopai nfulRato"

Ijustwentdownonmykneest ohugherandI
endedupcr yi
ngtoo,
Iknowhowi ti
sli
ketobe
rapedthatshi
thurt
sandmyf r
iendjustwent
throughitt
oo

Me:
"Shhh,
i
twi
l
lbeokaybabe"

Her:"
Noi twon'tRat
oIalsof oundoutt
hatIwas
pregnant,Iwantedtosurpr
iseSphabutthenI
l
ostthebabyi nthatrapeprocess,
Il
ostmy
baby,IbetSphadoesnotwantmeany more,can
y
ouj
uststayf
ort
heni
ghtpl
easeIr
eal
l
yneed
y
our
ightnow"

Me:
"Yesit
'sokayI
'
llst
aybabe,
l
etmecal
lVusi
t
olethi
m know"

Him:"
Ntombenhlewher
ear
eyout
hebabi
es
needtobebreastf
ed"

Me:"BabyIwon'
tbeabl
etocome,somet
hing
j
ustcameupNt ombir
eal
lyneedsme"

Him:"
NoI'
m notall
owi
ngthatNt
ombenhleyou
areamarri
edwomanandy oucan'
tbespendi
ng
yourni
ghti
nanotherman'
shouse"
Me:"Vusi
pleasebabysomet hingreal
l
ybad
happenedtoher,
Iknowt hatthisi
sagainstmy
wif
elyduti
esbutmyf r
iendneedsmebyher
si
de"

Him:"
OkayNanai
tsoundsser
iousbutpl
easebe
safeandt
ell
Ntombit
obebetter"

Me:"
Thanksf
orbei
ngsooounder
standi
ngIl
ove
youbye"

Iabor
tedt
hecal
landNt
ombi
wasj
usti
ntear
s

Seei
ngherl
i
ket
hisr
eal
l
ybr
eaksmyhear
t

Her
:"
Ilostmyf
ir
stbaby
,whatki
ndofmom does
t
hathuh?
?"
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*
*Nar
rat
ed*
*

Ithasbeenapproxi
mat el
ytwoweekssince
Lerat
oandVusi sai
d" Ido"andt
hingsar
e
mov i
ngrathersmoothly.

Ntombi f
inall
yhadt hegutstocomecl eanto
Sphaaboutt herapeandt heloseoft hebaby
andSphadi dnott akeitver
ywell buthehadt o
manupanddeal withthesit
uati
onl i
keaman
bysupportinghi
swi f
ethroughthistough
processandmaki ngsur ethatal
l i
swel lwi
thher
physical
l
y,emotionallyandment all
yandbyj ust
beingtherebyhersidetel
l
inghert
hat
everyt
hingwil
lbefine.

Ntombihasbeenat t
endingther apyandsheis
heal
ingst epbystepbyt hegraceofGod
Almight
ybesi destheroughpat chtheyhave
encounteredthesetwolov ebirdsgoteven
cl
oserthanev erbefor
eandar eonami ssiont
o
tr
yformi niNtombisandSphasassoonasour
l
adyheal sup.

Backtoourf avour
it
ecoupl e.Iknowi thasbeen
approximat el
ytwoweeksofmar r
iagebutsi nce
everyhousehol dhasi tsupsanddownst hi
sis
whatisr eall
yhappeni ng,Vusi'
skidshav e
enduredsomepower fulhatr
edt owar dsLer at
o
andshei sr eall
ytr
yingt obeamot hert hey
neverreal l
yhadbutt heyarejustmaki ng
mattersr eall
yworset hanthepr evioust i
me.
*
*Ler
ato*
*

Iti
s04: 56onaFr idaymor ningandIam just
stari
ngatt hecei l
ingdeepi nmyt hought
s.Ihave
tri
edev erymet hodi nthebookt omakethem
l
ov emebutt heyt hi
nkt hatIam heretot
odi ver
t
thei
rf ather
'sattenti
ont omeandmeonl yand
theonl ythi
ngIam r eal
lytry
ingtodoistobea
mot herandj ustbet hereforthem.Someday sI
woul dtrytorepremandt hem andtheywould
j
ustgi vemenast ylooksandl ousycomment s.

*
*Fl
ashback*
*

Si
hle:
"Ar
gLerat
ojustwasht
hosedishesand
l
eavemealoneIgotbett
ert
hingst
odobi t
ch"
Shesai
dthatt
hrowi
ngt
hedi
shwashi
ngcl
othat
me

Me:"
Sihl
epleasest
opt
alki
ngtomel
i
ket
hatat
l
eastshoul
dmesomer espect
"

Sbu:"Youarenothermom, andrespecti
s
earnedLerato.Youthi
nkthatwedon'tseet
hat
youar eonl
yher etoeatourfat
her'
smoneywit
h
yourlit
tl
ebrats"

Sihl
e:"Yesshei smaki
ngdaddyhersugar
daddy ,
justsoyouknowIwill
neverrespecty
ou
Leratot heagegapbetweenyouandIisonly5
soy ouar esti
l
lqchil
dinmyey esbl
oodyslut!
!"

*
EndFl
ashback*
Sot hati sbasicall
ywhatIhav et obearwi th
ever ysingledayandIbety ouar ewonder i
ng
wher eisVusi whenal l
thisi shappeni ng,wellhe
wentbackt oEuropeandhasbeenwor kingona
newpr ojectofcatchingthewor ld'sbi ggest
scammerIdi dnotwantt obot herhi m butt hank
Godhewi llbelandinginSout hAf r
icat odayI
reallymi ssmyhusbandandhi st ouchonmy
delicateskin.Anyway sbetweeny ouandIal lI
everwantt odoi schopSi hl eandSbuupand
throwt hem i napot ,
cookt hem andf eedt hem
tothedogsnextdoor ,that'
sj usthowIf eel.Iam
ti
redandIcannotdeal wit
ht heseki dsany
l
onger .

Isli
ppedoutofbedandbrushedmyteet
hand
facethenwenttoSihl
e'
sroom t
owakeherup
sothatshecanpreparef
orschool
Me:
"Gi
rlwakeupandpr
epar
eforschool
"
Ishookhergent
ly

Her:
"Leavemeal
onewhor
egogetsomedi
ckor
something"
Shethrewthatl
oadofi
nsul
tsonmebutst
il
lI
remainedcal
m andwentt
oSbu'sr
oom

Me:"Sbumyboywakeupandpr
epar
efor
school"
Ishookhi
m gent
lyt
oo

Hi
m:"
Lerat
ojustl
eav
emyr
oom seei
ngy
our
f
acedi
sgustsme"

Ij
ustl
eftt
heroom andwentt
opr epare
br
eakf
astthenwenttomybabies,
Ijustsmi
l
ed
whenIfoundBophel owideawakesucki ngon
herownf i
ngersandmumbl ingthingsIdonot
know,asIcarri
edhim andputsomeni pplei
nhis
mouthhej ustsuckedthemilkoutofmeand
l
ookedsocut e,eventhoughThendoi satot
al
j
erkhegav emebeaut if
ulbabiesandIthank
himforthat.

Aft
ertwohour
sIwenttovi
sitmymom Ihav
e
notbondedwi
thhersi
nceIgotmar
ri
ed

(
Opensdoor
)

Me:
"Mom I
'
m home!
!"
IshoutasIent
ert
hehousethr
oughthekit
chen
doorandshecomesrunni
ngwithabigsmil
eon
herface
Her
:"
Heyst
rangerhowar
eyoumybaby
??"
Shehuggedme

Me:
"I
'mf
inemot
herandy
our
sel
f??
"
Iputthepr
am besi
desmeandt
hrewmy
sel
fon
thecouch

Her:
"Youknowy ouroldladyi
salwayssuperb
butyoudon'
tlookfinejustl
ookattheeyebags
aret
hebabieskeepingy ouawakeatnight
??"

Me:"
Notreal
lyMaI
'
mfi
ner
eal
l
yit
'snot
hingI
can'
thandl
e"

Her
:"
Rat
owhati
sgoi
ngon?
?"

Me:
"I
t'
sSbuandSi
hlet
heyhat
emeMom,
they
cal
lmeall
sor
tsofnamesandi
t'
sreal
l
y
str
essi
ngmeout
"

Her:
"Looky ouareawomannowy ouhav et
o
dealwiththosekidseveni fitmeansasnackon
thebutt,
youneedt ostopst r
essi
ngbecausey ou
aregoingbacktoVar sityonMondayandy ou
knowt hatpeopl
ewi l
lbel ookingaty ouwanting
toseehowy ouareafterpr egnancyandhow
marri
agel i
feistr
eati
ngy ounowbeamom t o
them andnotaf r
iendift heyhatey outheyhate
youjustkil
lthem wit
hl oveandki ndnessmy
baby"

Thewordsmymom shower
edmewithmade
mestr
ongerandnowIcant
ackl
eany
thi
ngthat
comesmyway .
..
..
Ithi
nk
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e
I
nser
t45

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Youknowi ttooksomet i
met ogetal ongwit
h
mymom, Isti
lldon'
tbutthepr eci
oust i
mewe
spenttogethertodayreall
ymeantal ottome
andIreall
yappr eci
atethatshei str
yingbyal
l
meanst osuppor tme,Iappreciat
eher .

RightnowIam inmymom'scarshejustpul
l
ed
overinf
rontofmyhouseohhowIli
kethe
soundoft hat
..
.

Mom: "Weshoul dgetyouacar,Idon'

tli
kethi
s
thingoftakingtaxi
satnightwit
hmy
grandchil
drenthatiswhyIwantt hem t
ocome
staywithmesot haty
oucanf ocusony our
st
udi
es"

Me:"Idon'twantanycarf rom youmot her

,Ihav
e
dreamsandoneofmydr eamsi stobyemyown
carwi t
hmypaychequesonot hanksandabout
thebabiesIpreferthem stayingwi thmeIam
thei
rmot herandIhav etot akecar eofthem I
can'tdumpmyki dsjustl
iket hat"l
ikesomeoneI
know"sonomyki dsaremi neandt heyare
stayingwithme"

Mom: (Shest rangledme) Leratowhatarey ou

tryingtosayhuh? ?Youareev eny oungtohav e
kids,gir
lsy ouragear eouttherehav i
ng
boy fr
iendsandgoi ngtoclubs,simplyhav i
ng
funnott akingcar eoflit
tl
ebast ards.
Letmet ell
yousomet hingsweet heartonlyifyoukepty our
yellowl egscl osedy ouwoul dnotbei nthis
situati
on, onlyifyouopenedy ourbookst han
yourlegsyouwoul
dnotbeher e,y
ourfir
stt
hree
babieschosedeat
ht hantol
ivewithyou
becauseyouarepoisonousLerat
o!!!
"

(
Ler
atochocki
ng)

Me: "
Ishouldn'
thavecomet oy ou..
.well
..
.may be
i
fy out ookeptyourl
egsclosedy ouwoul dn'
t
needt odumpmei nasewagepi peoryoucoul d
havet erminat
edmeatl eastnotletmel i
v ei
n
sorrowanddi smaybuty ouknowwhatmot her
youandIar et
hesaywebot hopenedourl egs
andgotknockedupbutt henIchoset osuf f
er
withmyki dsandy essomedi edandi thurtme
deeplybutIkeptmyheadhi ghandwentonwi t
h
l
ife"
Isai
dopeni
ngt
hedoort
oleav
e
Mom:"
Youarenothi
ngli
keme,youar
ejusta
l
ooseBITCH,
getoutofmycar
"

Ij
usttookmybabi eswitht
hei
rpram and
hur
riedtomyy ard,l
ooki
ngbackseeingmy
mom dr i
veawayaf t
ersayi
ngthosecutti
ng
wordst ome,IalsosaidwhatwasinsidebutI
neverthoughtshewoul dgosodeep.

Ienterthehousethrought hekit
chendoorand
wenttot hedi
ningareaf i
ndingSihl
eandSbu
watchingTVlookingpeacef ul
,Ir
ememberthe
dayswhenweusedt ogetalongbutheysuchis
l
ifei
tdoesnotgoaccor dingtoplan,
sti
l
lonthe
spotSbuandSi hlestandbesidesmeasmy
eyesswel l
upwi t
htears

Sbu:
"Cr
ybaby,
youknowwehear
dwhatyour
mamasaidoutther
eandy
ouknowwhatsheis
r
ight
,youar
easel
fi
shbi
tch"

Sihl
e:"
Ler
atocan'tkeepherlegscl
osed,
Ler
ato
can'
tkeepherlegsclosed"
Shewentar
oundmesi
ngi
ng

Sbu: "
Idonotknowwhatf at
hersawi nyou,well
youar ebeaut if
ulIgiveyouthat,
yougotani ce
bodyt hattur
nsev erymanonbutdoy ouhav e
thebr ains,at
otalbigfatno,condomsarea
solutiont oeverysingl
eproblem butyou
decidedt ohititrawandcomewi thsi
xchildren
thent hreedied,t
heyar eal
lgonnadiemar kmy
wor dsBI TCH!!"

"
EnoughSi
busiso!
!,
Iwantbot
hofyouinyour
r
oomsnowI '
m gonnadealwi
thyoutoni
ght"
Vusi
sai
dst
andi
ngatt
heent
ranceIdi
dnotev
en
seehi
m

Sbu:
"Dadwear
esor
rypl
easef
orgi
veus"

Vusi
:"
Toyourr
oom now!
!,
yout
ooNt
ombenhl
e
gotoourr
oom now!
!"

Ijustshutt hehel l
upandobey edandwentt o
mybabi es'room,changedt hem andplaced
them int heircotssincet heywer eti
redthenI
wentt ot heourr oom andj ustsatbyt hevani
ty
l
ooki ngatmyownr efl
ectioninthemi rr
or,
I
hear dSbuandSi hlescr eaminghorribl
yjustl
i
ke
mewhenmydad, wellfakedadusedt obeatme
upf orthesi mplestthingsl i
kespill
i
ngadr opof
wat eront hef l
oor,
hewoul ddragmei nmyand
Boitumel o'
sr oom,lockt hedoorandst ri
pme
nakedt henhewoul dtakeouthi ssjambokand
beatmet i
l
lIbledaf terthebeat i
ngsmypoor
vaginawoul dsuf ferfrom t hefi
ngersofanol d
manwhowor kedatt hemi nesyoucansi mply
i
magi nehowr oughhi sfingerswere.Iwouldcry
andpr aybutseemedl ikeGoddi dnotev enlook
overmeandconsi dermypr obl
emsbutt hen
thi
si smydar kestsecr etnooneknowst hatmy
fakedadusedt ofingerf uckmeaf terevery
beatingev enwheni twasj ustt
hetwoofushe
woul djustplaywi thmywomanhoodl i
keitwas
somesor toft oybuty etagai nInevertol
d
anyoneaboutt hi
sbecauseIam ashamed.
Hear
ingt
heseki
dsscr
eam t
akesmeback.

Sti
lll
ooki
ngatmyownr ef
lect
ionont hemi r
rorI
thi
nktomy sel
fthatmaybeSbui sright
,Iam
beautywi
thoutthebrai
nstrut
hbet oldatschool
IpassedbutIwasnotandAst udent50%is
whatIcouldandwhatIgotsoIam not
i
ntell
i
gent.
Theirsobsr
emi
ndmeofmi ne,
tear
sdropasI
covermyearsf
rom t
hehor
roriam hear
ingr
ight
now...

*
*Vusi
**

Istoodbyt hedoorandheardwhattheywer
e
sayingt oNtombenhl
eIjustl
osti
tandbeatthei
r
sorryassesup,i
tisnotabusebutal
essonthey
can'tjusthavet
heaudacit
ytotal
ktothei
relder
l
iket hat.

Ient
erourr
oom andfi
ndNt ombenhlecoveri
ng
herear
sandthevani
tydr
ippingwit
ht ear
s..
.

Me:
"Babyar
eyouf
ine?
"
Her:
"Yeah(sni
ffs)I'
mf i
ne,
I'mj usthappytosee
youbaby..
.(
cri
es),I'
m sorr
yt hatIcouldn'
tput
t
hem intheirl
ane,If
ail
edy ou..
.(cr
ies)
"

Me:"Shhhbabeit
'sokayyouarenewt othi
s,y
our
tear
sar emydownfallsweet
hear
t,
Ijustwant
apologi
zeonbehalfofSbuandSihl
e, I
'
lldo
anyt
hingjustf
orgi
vethem babypl
easeIbeg
you"

Me:
"Canyougivemethekeystothathouse
t
hatyouboughtforme,
Ican'
tli
vewithyourki
ds
t
heyinsul
tedmeintheworstpossi
bleways"
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17:
55]St
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t46
*
*Vusi
**

Lastni ghtwasj ustsobad, yesIdoadmi tt

hat
Ntombenhl ehasbeent hr oughal otbuttheway
sher eact edlastni
ghtreallyscaredmet he
hatredi nherey esformyki dsandohshe
ment ionedt hatshewoul dliketomov eoutthat
i
sdef initelynothowIpl annedourl if
et obe,
mhm I '
mj ustso...
.Idon'tknowbutI 'm not
al
right...

[
DOOROPENS]

Rato:
"Morni
ng,l
ookImadey ouguysbreakf
ast
andlunchfort
odayandI'
m afr
aidtosaythi
s
butIwasdeadseri
ouslastni
ghtaboutmov i
ng
outIhopeyoudon'
tminddroppingmeof f
pl
ease"
Me:"
Babepl
easel
et'
snotdot
his,
Ifeel
li
kei
t'
s
notagoodi
dea"

Rato:"
WellIthinkiti
sbonamonaVusi nnaI
don'tl
ikeyourkidsokay ,Iusedtol
ov ethem but
giv
ent hei
rrecentbehav i
orIfucki
nghat ethem,I
don'twantthem any wherenearmeormy
chil
drenyouhear dwhatSbusai dlastnightthat
all
mychi l
drenar egoingt odiewhatdoy ou
thi
nkaboutt hat,Idon'
tfeelsafearoundthem
anymor eI
'm sorry"

Me:"
Atleastgiv
et hem achancepl
ease
Ntombenhle,t
hisrif
tbetweenyouandthem i
s
t
eari
ngmeapar t
"
Ipul
l
edhert
ome
Rato:
"Don'ttouchme,beamananddowhati s
ri
ght,yourkidsdon'
tapprov
et hi
smarr
iageand
theywilldoanythi
nginthei
rpowert
odestroyi
t
theycanev enkil
li
ftheyhadto"

Me:
"Ler
atoNkosiar
eyousay
ingmyki
dsar
e
mur
derershuh!
!?
?"

Rat
o:"
Theycoul
dbe"

Me:"
Lerat
ost
ophav
ingt
hosesi
l
lyt
hought
s
okay
!!
"

Rato:"
Sbusayi
ngmyki dswi
llal
ldieisasi
ll
y
thought!
!Vusi
I'
m outofher
eI'l
ltakeacabifI
haveto!!
"
Me:"
Ntombenhl
est
opbei
ngsochi
l
dishcome
uphere!
!"

Ihear
dhershoutf
rom downst
air
s

Rat
o:"
Noleav
emealoneandst
opshout
ingy
ou
ar
escari
ngmeshi
tVusi"

Afteraf ewmi nutesIlookar oundourbedr oom

andf i
ndoutt hatNt ombenhl ereallypacked
everythi
ngsheownsandi snowr eallygone,al
l
mar r
iedcouplesf ightandt hatwasourf ir
st
fi
ghtasacoupl e.Ifeelbadbutatsomepoi nt
andt i
meIgot taunder standt hatitispartoflif
e
i
tcan'tbest r
awber r
iesandcr eam f oreverso
yeah,I'l
lgocheckonherl aterwhenshei scalm
becauseIknowmywi feshe'st hecr azytype
andIdon' twanttogonearherwhenshei sthi
s
angry
*
*Ler
ato*
*

Lif
eisjustbor
ingsomet
imesimagineVusi wi
th
adeepv oi
ceshouti
ngatme,hereall
yscared
me,damnhi sv
oiceismot
herf
uckingscarybutI
l
ikeitt
hough..
.

Itisnowl at
ear ound18:56andIj ustgotoutof
theshowerandI '
m homeal oney ay!!Aboutthe
kidsIwassoangr yearl
ieront hatIcall
ed
Kabeloandhecamet ofetchthem andsai dhe
willr
eturnthem tomorrowatl eastIwi l
lrestfor
thenight,Iplanonwatchingmov iesandeat i
ng
j
unkf ood, l
etmest ar
tbypl aysomegqom
musi cyebo!!

[
KnockOnTheDoor
]
Ohnooooowhocoul
dthatbeKabel
ocan'
t
r
etur
ntheki
dssoear
ly

Iqui
cklywr
apmybodywi
that
owel
andgo
openthedoor
..
.
I
t'
sVusi

Me:
"Ar
git
'sy
ou"

Hi
m:"Don'
ttel
lmey
ouwer
eexpect
ingsome
ot
herguy"

Il
aughedassout

Me:
"Nosi
l
lycomei
n"
Hi
m:"Youseem t
obehappyandwhywasn'
tI
i
nvi
tedtothepar
ty?
?"

Me"Par
ty?
?NooIam j
ustenj
oyi
ngmy
sel
fthat
'
s
al
l
"

Hi
m:"
Idi
dnotknowy
oucoul
ddancet
hough"

Me:"
Youdon'tknowmuchaboutme,
didy
ou
knowthatIam apar
tyani
mal
"

Hi
m:"
NobutIdoknowthatyouwer
esoangry
t
haty
ouf
orgotthaty
outurni
ng20year
stoday
"

What
???
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06,
17:
55]St
ri
ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e
I
nser
t47

Vusi
:
"Yeahhappybi
rt
hdaymyangyQueen"

Me:
"I
sitr
eal
l
ythe30t
hofJanuar
y??"

Hi
m:"
YesNt
ombenhl
e"

Ohnooohowcoul
dIf
orgetmyownbi
rt
hday
,
whodoesthat

Me:
"Wel
l
,It
otal
l
yfor
got"

Him:"
Maybeifoutrel
axmoreandwor
ryl
ess
yourmemorywill
beokay,
doremembert
hatt
he
doct
orssai
dyoushoul
dnotst
ress"

Me:
"Yeahyour
ight
,anywayt
hanksfort
he
r
emindernowwhereismypresent
??"
Iaskedwi
thahugesmi
l
eonmyf
ace

Him:"
Ididnotgety
ouany t
hing,
besi
desI
wantedtogetyouacarbutIknewthatyou
wouldnotaccepti
tbecauseyouwanttobut
yourfi
rstcarwi
thyourownmoney"

Mybeauti
ful
smi
l
enowt
urnedi
ntoaf
rownasI
f
acedhim

Me:"
Okayiti
scool,
I
'm gonnawearmypy
jamas
I
'l
lberi
ghtback"
Him:
"Don'
tbel
i
ket
hisNt
ombenhl
e,
don'
tbe
angr
yatme"

Me:"
I'
m notangr
y,makey
our
sel
fathome,
I
'm
coming"

WhenIgoti nt hebedr oom Iswit

chedonmy
phoneanddat a,that
'swhenmessagespopped
i
n, peoplewi shingmeahappybi rthdayday,soI
reall
yforgotmyownbi r
thdaywow. I
'm notangy
atVusi don'tgetmewr ongi wasjust
disappointed,It houghhewoul dgetmeal i
ttl
e
somet hing.

[
PHONERI
NGS]

Me:
"Heygi
rl
"
Ntombi:
"Bi
rt
hdaygi
rl
,I
'
mtaki
ngyououtj
ust
bathI
'
m onmywaywi thy
ourout
fi
t"

Me:"
OhnoIcan'tgooutfr
iendVusi
isaround
andI'
m al
sonotatourhousebutmine"

Ntombi:
"IknowwhereyouareKabel
ot ol
dme,
Vusiwi
llhavetosl
eepalonet
onight
,youtur
n
20once"

Me:
"OkayI
'
llbewai
ti
ng"

*
*Nt
ombi
**

Higuysi
t'sbeenlongsoalit
tl
eupdateabout
mylif
eisthateveryt
hingi
sshini
ngbri
ghtl
y.
I
wenttother
apyandI '
m get
ti
ngbett
erandthe
mostimpor t
anthighli
ght,drumrollplease,
just
ki
ddingI
'm gonnagr aduateont he16t hof
Febr
uary,yeahI'
ll
beaf ul
lPathologistonthat
day,
I'mjustgladthatIwillbedonewi thVarsi
ty
atl
ast.

Todayi t
'sRato'
sbirt
hdayshei st urning20
years,
she'syoungandv ibrant,sheneedst ogo
outrelaxandhav efun,
hav esomeal coholin
hersystem. I
tdoesnotnecessar ilymeany ou
havetobeathomeal lthet i
mei fy ouarea
youngmom, sometimesy ououghtt oleavey our
babiesforfewhour ssot hatyoucanbr eath.
I
promisey ouifRatodoesnotgi veherbabiesa
ti
met obr eathshewil
lendupwi t
hpost natal
depressionandwedonotwantt hatnowdowe.

SoIplannedagir
ls'
nightout
,i
tisgoi
ngtobe
funt
rustme.Ij
ustarr
ivedatRato'
shouseI
wonderwhyi
tissof
arbutt
heni
t'
sbeaut
if
ul.

Ij
ustbar
gedi
n

Me:
"Gi
rll
et'
sgety
ousexyl
i
keme!
!"

Ishoutedent
eri
ngt
hehouse,
for
get
ti
ngt
hather
husbandishere

Hi
m:"
Pleasel
ear
ntoknockNt
ombi
"

Me:
"Yes.
..
I'
m sor
rySi
r,i
sLer
atoher
e??
"

Hi
m:"
Upst
air
stur
nlef
t"

Me:
"Thanks"
*
*Ler
ato*
*

Ihear
dNt
ombi
scr
eami
ng,
ohher
eshecomes.
..

Her
:"
Yohf
ri
endVusi
isscar
y,t
hewayhespoke
t
ome"

Me:
"Lol
,
imagi
newhenheshout
s"

Her
:"DamnIdon'
twannagot
her
e,her
e'sy
our
out
fi
tfort
henight
"

Me:
"Noy
oudi
dn'
t"

Her
:"
Ijustdi
d"
Me:"
Thanky
ouf
ri
end,
ial
way
swant
edt
his
out
fi
t"

Okaysooney earbackNtombi andIwent

shoppingbutthenshesawmest ari
ngatt hi
s
beauti
fulout
fi
tsmi l
i
ngtomy self."Youwant
i
t??"Sheasked."No,j
ustl
ookingbesi desit
's
expensiv
e".DeepdownIneededt hatoutfi
t,i
t
wasabl ackshortj
umpsuitSissyBoyt obe
exactwithbl
ackblockheelsandasi l
vercl
utch
bag.

Her
:"OkayRat
ocomeoutal
ready"

Me:
"Okayher
egoesnot
hinghowdoIl
ook?
?"

Iwentov
ert
oher
Her:"
Youl ookst unni
ngbabe, j
ustlookatthe
openingatt hebackr eveal
ingy ourtat
too,
the
yel
lowishcleav agesshowingandnott o
mentiont hecur vesandthathugebut tofyours
l
ookinghel l
afine,andtheny ourfaci
aljust
exquisi
tenott oomuchmake- upshowingy our
natur
al beautyandy oulookbeaut if
ulmyf r
iend
"

Me:
"Thanksandsodoy
ou,
l
et'
sgo"

Her
:"
Yeahl
et'
sbounce"

Wegodownst
air
sandNtombiwentt
owai
tfor
mei
nthecarwhi
leIt
alkt
oVusi

Hi
m:"
Ihopef
ory
oursaket
haty
ouar
enot
goi
ngany
wher
e"

Me:"
BabyNtombiistakingmeout
,t
ocel
ebr
ate
mybir
thday
,canIpleasego"

Him:
"Noy ouar
enotgoinganywher
ewear i
ng
t
hat,
youcanwearthatherei
nthehouseforme
t
oseebutnotforothermentosee,
it
'sei
ther
youchangeoryounotgoi
nganywhere"

Me:
"Vusi
pleaseIl
ovet
hisout
fi
t"

Hi
m:"
Ntombenhl
ethatout
fi
tist
oor
eveal
i
ng"

Me:
"Ibegy
ou"

Hi
m:"
Okaygoy
oudowhaty
ouwantany
way
s
butbymidni
ghtIwantt
oseeyouinbedwi
th
me,andohtheycanl
ookbutnott
ouch"
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*
*Ler
ato*
*

Me:
"Thanky
ou,
Thanky
ou,
Thanky
ou"

Iki
ssedhi
m al
lov
erhi
sface

Him:"Enj
oyyour
sel
fNt
ombenhl
e,andy
oul
ook
gorgeous"

Me:
"Okayby
e"
Ipracti
call
yrantothedoorandint hecar,my
husbandi sthebesthereal
lyagr
eed.Ijustcan'
t
waitforthefuntonight
,anddidtheytelly
ou
thatLeratocandance??Ohy esIcanr eal
lyget
downdanci ngismyt hi
ng.

Okaywedrovet
osomecl
ubandNt ombi
bl
indf
oldedmetot
heent
rance.
..

Her
:"
Ready
??"

Me:
"Li
keIhav
eachoi
ce"

Her
:"
Mxm waphapha,
sur
pri
se!
!"

Sher
emov
edt
hebl
i
ndf
olderandAi
khona
Nt
ombi
!!
!

Me:
"Hay
iipl
easet
akemehome,
ast
ri
pcl
ub
Nt
ombi!
!"

Her:"
Lolrel
ax,
let'
sgohav esomef unIknow
parti
esareyourthing,y
ouarenowt wentyyears
fr
iend,l
ookaty ouabeautif
ulmom, wifeand
fr
iendcelebr
atethisdayli
keit
'syourlast,
happy
bi
rthdaysweetheart,Il
oveyouandpleasedon't
cry"

Heht
hisgi
rl

Me:
"Iwon'
tcr
y,canIonl
ygetmyhug?
?"

Wehuggedandgotatt
hedoor
Securi
tyMan:
"Chi
l
ddoy
ourpar
entsknowyou
arehere?
?GohomeorI
'
llt
akeyouther
e"

Me:
"Sor
rybhut
iukhul
umanam?
?"

Hi
m:"
Yebo,
yout
heonl
ychi
l
dIseeher
e"

Nt
ombi:
"Brot
hermyf
ri
endi
stur
ning20t
oday
pl
easel
etusin"

Hi
m:"
IDorSmar
tcar
dpl
ease"

Ishowedhi
m,Ial
wayscomeacr
ossthatone
that
hati
swhyIcarr
ymyIDever
ywherego
Hi
m:"
Okaysor
ryy
oucangoi
n"

Nt
ombi
:"Yeahi
nyourf
ace!
!"

Wegoti
nsi
deandi
twasr
eal
l
ypackedf
ora
cl
ub

Nt
ombi
:
"Si
ncewhenobuaSeZul
uwena?
?"

Me:
"Keny
etswekemoZul
umo'
gal
"

Nt
ombi
:"Waphaphahl
elet
'sgetshot
s"

Thefunwasintense,
theyonlypl
ayedEngli
sh
songsandIwasbor edtothecorewhil
eNtombi
wasdancingonthedancef l
oorandthrowi
ng
cashtothemalestri
ppers,
hehifSphacoul
dsee
whatIam seei
ngher
e.

Me:"BarManasexonthebeach,26shot
sand6
packsofStr
ongBow,
leCastl
eLightabut
ihl
e"

"Pl
easeyouhavetoslowdownmi
ssbeaut
if
ul
gir
lsl
ikeyoucan'
tgetdr
unk"

Me:"Abut
ikopanthotsakahl
eandet
saplanDJ
aletseAmapiano,
Gqom,Houset
hismusi
cis
ki
l
lingme"

"
What
every
ouwantmyl
ady
"

Idrankandt
hemor
eIdi
dtheor
eIbecame
energi
zed
Ntombi:
"Mmat
atl
ohoi
t'
syourj
am ,
Gugul
ethu
baba"

Ispr
angof
fmychai
r

Me:
"Yay
!!
Yay
!!
Yebo!
!I
mpi
l
oyase.
..
"

At
urnonIt
ell
you

Nt
ombi:"
Bany
esef
ri
endbanny
eny
ii
!!
,
That
'
s
mygi
rl
!!
"

Ayikennakaj
aiv
ashame,
Iknowmywayont
he
dancefl
oor

"Si
si,
Iseey
ouar est
eal
i
ngmyspotli
ghthow
aboutachal
lengehuhl
et'
sseewhoi
sthe
Queen"

Somegi
rlt
appedmeont
heshoul
dersay
ing
that

Me:"
Bonagi
rlI
'
m her
etohav
efunnott
o
compet
e"

"OkayIcanseey
ouar
escar
edofmesoI
'
lll
et
goLOSER!!"

Cr
owd:
"Yeahshe'
sscar
edLoser
,Loser
!!
"

Nt
ombi
:"Ar
eyouf
ine?
?"

Me:"I
'm goooodf
riendandyouknowwhatI'
m
gonnachall
engehersorr
yass,
ther
eI'
m put
ti
ng
R3000down!
!"

Cr
owd:
"Yooo!
!"

"
I'
ll
puti
nR4500"

Me:
"R6600"

"
Arggl
et'
sdot
his!
!"

Me:
"GameOn!
!"

Awoobaba,youseewhent heyplayPianoIgo
crazyandyesIwon,Ij
ustdi
dwhatIdobest
nothi
ngmuchandguesswhatt hegirlwho
chall
engedmepl ay
swithherbuttthat'
swhat
shecall
sdancingImeanhobapal akasebono
pl
ease!
!

"Att
entionpl
easeever
yone!
!Wehaveabi r
thday
gir
linthehousetoday
,ourbel
oveddancer
LeratoNkosi
"

YhoooNt
ombi
isf
orwar
d

Nowt hest r
ipperscameandt ookt
othest age
anddidt hei
rthing,Nextt
hingIwasheldby
waistandIwasgr indi
ngontheguy,
nextthingI
wasgr abbedr oughly,
anditwasVusihewas
nowpul l
ingmel i
keachil
dandIwasr unning
aft
erhim

Vusi
:"
Ntombi
,i
nyourcarnow,
Sphai
swai
ti
ng
fory
ou"
Her
:"
Yessi
r"

Myfri
endr
ant
ohercarshameandt
hensped
of
f"

Iwasnowt
ipsy
,supert
ipsy

Me:
"Vusi,
youar
etest
ingme,Iwasst i
l
lhav
ing
f
unintherewhati
syourpr
oblem kanti
"

Hi
m: "
Geti
nthecarNt
ombenhl
eI'
l
ldeal
wit
hyou
l
ater"

*
*Vusi
**

Iam ani
nsecur
emanandbei
ngsecr etagentI
havetopr
otetmyf
ami
lyandf
riendsatall
ti
mes.SowhenNt oNt
ombenhleandNt ombi l
eft
Ifol
lowedthem t
oastri
pcl
ub,Ijustsatatthe
backmi ndi
ngmyownbusinessbutthingisthey
touchedmywoman.
Damnshehadtoomuchtodr
inknowandshe
i
sjustt
alki
ngt
oomuch.

Her:"
Vusiyouaremyhusband,
Ilov
eyouVusi
youknowthemomenty oucameintomyl
i
feI
f
eltbl
essed,Il
olov
eyou"

Me:"
YesyoudoNtombenhl
e,butbehav
ingl
i
ke
youj
ustdi
disnotcool
"

Her
:"V,
myhusbandt
hatwaspl
ainf
unnot
hing
much"

Me:
"Butt
hewayt
heyt
ouchedy
ouNt
ombenhl
e,
t
hatIdi
dnotl
i
ke"

Her:
"Vusimahnot
herkidswantt
ot ouchtoo
youcan'tt
ouchal
one,
yougottasharedon'tbe
sel
fi
sh"

Me:
"Shutupi
t'
sjustt
heal
cohol
tal
ki
ng"

Her
:"
Noi
t'
snot,
youknow guycanreall
yhandle
awomanIwonderhowheisinbed,hahaha"

Shei
sreal
l
ytest
ingme

Wearri
vedatt
hehouseandIcar
ri
edheri
n
si
ncesheshecoul
dnotevenwal
k

Me:
"Sl
eep,
Ntombenhl
eyour
eal
l
ywast
ed"
Her
:"
Hay
ii
,mesl
eep?
?Today
??Nev
er!
!"

Me:
"Sl
eepsweet
hear
t"

Her:
"A.
aVusi
nobi
rt
hdaydi
ck?
?NoIwantmy
di
ck"

Me:"
Got
othest
ri
pperatt
hecl
ubhe'
l
lgi
veny
ou
somedi
ck"

Her
:"
Noooo,
I
'm goi
ngt
ocr
y"

OhGodshest
art
edcr
ying

Me:
"St
opbei
ngdr
amat
icpl
easeNt
ombenhl
e"
Her:
"NoVusi
..
.y
oucan'
tsayt
hatt
ome,
you
can'
tmakemest ar
vel
i
kethi
s"

Me:
"Sl
eep"

Her
:"
No,
I
'm cal
l
ingmymot
heri
nlaw"

Sher
eal
l
ycal
l
edher

Mom:
"Makot
i??
"

Her
:"
Hel
l
oMa,
Vusi
isbei
ngnast
y..
.t
owar
dsme.
..
"

Mom:
"St
opcr
yingwhat
'sgoi
ngonov
er
t
her
e??
Vusi
whatar
eyoudoi
ngnomyLer
ato"

Me:
"Not
hingMa,
shehadt
oomucht
odr
ink
t
hat
'sal
l
"

Her:
"NoMahedoesnotwanttogi
vememy
di
ck,hedoesnotwantt
osl
eepwit
hmehesay
s
I
'm di
sgust
ing"

Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
est
opl
yi
ng"

Mom:"
Giveherwhatshewant
sorI'
ll
come
t
her
emy sel
fandwatchyoudothedeed"

Me:
"Okayf
ine,
I'
ll
giv
eherwhatshewant
s"

Mom:
"Iwantt
ohearhermoan,
doi
t"
Me:
"Real
l
ynow,
Ma"

Mom:
"Vusi
don'
tmakemeangr
y,doi
t"

Her
:"
Don'
twor
ryMaI
'
llshowhi
mfl
amest
o
t
oni
ght"

Mom:
"Okayby
eMakot
i,
it
'sal
readymor
ning"

Mom abortedt
hecal
landmywi fewasf
lames
t
onight
,thewaysherodei
treal
l
yamazedme
,shewasincontr
ol

Me:
"Openup"
Her
:"
NooooVusi
Ihav
ehadenough"

Me:
"Yousai
dyouwantitnowcomeon,
passme
t
hepackofcondoms"

Her
:"
Let
'shi
titr
aw"

Me:
"Real
l
y??
"

Her
:"
Yesbutdon'
tgot
oof
ast"

Irubbedmymemberagainsthertr
easure,
teasi
ngher,
shewoul
drockherhipssothatI
couldpenet
rat
eherbutIwoul
dwi t
hdraw,f
inal
l
y
igotinsi
deher

"
Ahh,
.
..
Vusi
.
..f
ast
erbabyf
ast
er"
i
twasl
i
kesher
eadmymi
nd,
Iwenti
nfast
er

"
Whosepussyi
sthi
s??
"

"
It
'sy
our
s..
..
ahhhbaby
..
.ahh"
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*Vusi
**

Ithasbeen30mi nutessinceIcamebackf rom

gym andnowI 'm hi
tt
ingtheshower.YesterdayI
askedmymot hertoteachSihleandSbusome
mannersandsheagr eedthatt
heywi l
lstaywith
herandfatherandcomedur i
ngtheMar ch
hol
i
days,
Ial
readymi
sst
hem butIal
sot
hinki
t
i
sfort
hebest.

Thereisanupcomi ngheistinGer manyand

si
nceIam thegener alIhavet otakepar ti
n
stoppi
ngitfrom happening,thi
ngi smyj obis
dangerousandIdonotact uall
yknowi fIwi t
h
havethechancet owakeupt henextdayt hatis
whyIam great f
ulaboutthegi f
toflif
e.Itri
ed
l
eav i
ngtheISISandf ocusonpal eontologybutI
can'ti
t'
swher emyhear t'
sat.

Onethingf orsur
eisthatI'
m worr
iedabout
Ntombenhl eandherfri
endshipwit
hthat
Ntombi gi
rl,
Idon'
ttr
ustthatgir
latal
lsheseems
si
nist
er,it
'sli
keshewant sNtombenhletoget
i
ntotroublebutIwil
lprotectmywifefr
om
peopl
el i
keheratallti
mes.
"
Ohshi
t!
!"
IhearEnhl
ecur
singasIgetoutoft
heshower

Me:"
MorningMrsNkosi
whatcoul
dbet
he
pr
oblem onthi
sfi
nemorni
ng"

Her
:"
Hel
l
oMrNkosi
it'
sjustheadacheki
l
li
ngme
"

Me:
"Wel
lthati
swhatyougetwhenyoudrink
t
oomuchandforgett
haty
ouarebreast
feedi
ng"

Her
:"
Tellmeabouti
t.
..Getdr
essedy
ouar
e
t
emptingme"

Me:"Hahayouaresof
unnyNtombenhl
e,br
ush
yourteet
handtakeashowerI
'l
lmakeyou
br
eakf
astandbr
ingy
ourpi
l
ls"

Her
:"Okay
..
.butwhatpi
l
ls?
?"

Me:
"Mor
ningAf
terPi
l
ls"

Her
:"
Ohsowehi
titr
aw.
..
lol
letmeshower
"

Me:
"Youdot
hat
,I
'
llber
ightback"

Il
eftherintheretodohert
hingandwentt
o
makebr eakfast

AsIwassti
ll
busyIrecei
vedacal
lfr
om an
unknownnumber
..
.
Me:
"Yes?
?"

"
Hel
l
oMrNkosi
"

Me:
"Sur
ewhoam Ispeaki
ngt
o??
"

"
WellI
'
m asour
ceandIhavesomei
nfor
mat
ion
r
egar
dingt
heGermanhei
st"

Me:
"Okay
..
.so?
?"

"
Ithoughty
oumi
ghtneedi
nfot
hat
'
sal
l
"

Me:
"Idonotneedi
nfobutt
hanksmam,
bye"

"
Wai
t,
wai
t,
eveni
fiti
ncl
udesy
ourbel
oved
Ntombenhl
echeat
ing?
?Butt
heni
t'
snoneofmy
busi
nessbye"

Me:
"Notmywi
fe,
goodby
e"

Iabort
edthecalli
mmedi
atel
y,
mywi
fei
snota
cheatItr
usther

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Igotothekit
chenandfi
ndVusi
star
ingoutt
he
windowlooki
ngstr
essed

Igot
ohi
m andhughi
mfr
om behi
nd

Me:
"V,
whati
sbot
her
ingy
ou?
?"
Hi
m:"
Not
hingsweet
hear
tal
li
sgood"

Hef
akedasmi
l
e

Me:
"Fakesmi
l
e??Bot
hat
akengpapa?
?"

Hi
m:"Not
hingr
eal
ly.
..Hereeatanddr
inkyour
pi
l
lsbaby,
I
'l
lgodr
esst henwe'l
lgotothemall"

Me:
"Sur
e"

Somethi
ngi
supwi t
hVusi,
Icanseeitinhi
s
eyes t
hatt
herei
ssomethingheishidi
ngfr
om
mebutwhat??
Asiam wrappedupi
nmyt
hought
sIr
ecei
veda
cal
lfr
om Ntombi

Her
:"
Heygi
rlhangov
erej
wang?
?"

Me:
"Yer
ryangbet
hamar
rket
labashar
p"

Her
:"
Whyr
esat
swef
orbeerl
ater
??"

Me:
"Okaysur
e"

Her:
"Makesur
eyouwat
chVusi
,
manywoman
wanthi
m"

Me:
"Youcr
azygi
rl
"
Whywouldshesaythat
??ButVusiwoul
dnot
cheatonmeItr
ustmyhusband..
.
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eLov
e

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*
*Nt
ombi
**

Phaseonecompl ete,
Igotthem bot hcurious
abouteachot hers'mov es.
Byt hem Imean
Lerat
oandVusi ,Ihavealway swant edVusi I
eventoldLeratot hatIhadacr ushonhi ml ast
yearwhensheusedt owor katthecl ub.
Yest he
guyusedt ogot heirwithhiscolleaguebutt hen
Lerat
obeingt hebaddestbi tchoft hem all,
took
himforherself.Vusi i
sagoodguyhet r
eats
womenwi thr espectandhehast hatbossyv i
be
i
nhi m whi
chmakesmybl oodboi landIalso
hear
dfr
om Lerat
othathei
stotall
ygoodinbed,I
al
sowanttofeel
"hi
sdickt
ouchinguntouchabl
e
spot
s",
yeaht
hatishowLerat
oputi t
.

Nooneknowsany thingaboutLer atol i

keIdo
notev enhermot her.Si
nceschool shehas
alwaysbeent heonewhowaswant edbyal l
the
guysandIwast hener dwhoal way swr oteher
homewor kanddoneherassi gnment s.Ler at
ois
notwhoshesay sshei s,toev er
yoneshebr i
ngs
outthesobst oryaboutbei ngusedasasl aveat
home, beingi naf orcedmar ri
ageandbei ng
rapedbyThando, hav eyouev eraskedy our self
whyhewoul dr apeher ??Thatisbecauseshe
encour agedhi mt o, shewouldt el
l met hatshe
can'twai ttorideThendo' sdickbi twhenshe
getsitshecr i
esandsay sshewasr aped. Well
thatisLer atof oryoual l
shewant si spity ,
I
rememberhowsheusedt omakef unofmei n
highschool infrontofal lt
heot herleaner s
say i
ngI '
mf atandt hatnoguywoul dsleepwith
mebecauseoft hest retchmar ksi haveallover
mybody ,shebul l
i
edmeandsi nceIwasscar ed
tospeakoutIr emai nedqui etandbegan
strategisi
ngapl anf orrev enge.Iwanthert o
feelthepai nt hatIf elt,
Iwanthert ocry,Iwant
hertol oosesomet hi ngv aluablet oher ,
her
husband, herki dshermoney ,l
i
keIhadl ost
somet hingv aluablet omet oo.Sphamandl ais
notmyv i
rginbr eaker, aroundsi xteeny earsI
sleptwi thTshepowhowasLer at o'sboy f
ri
end
andIf ellpregnant ,soIt oldheraboutt he
pregnancyandshet hreat enedmet oki l
lmy
babysot hatherr elationshi pwi thTshepocoul d
l
astbutwher eishenow? ? Hebet rayedherand
l
ef t

Seethatyourpr
eci
ousLer
atoisnotsoi
nnocent
aft
erall
,
shemademyl i
feali
vi
nghell
Spha:"
Baby,
i
t'
sti
mef ormet
ogo,I
'l
lseeyou
nextmonthyouknowhowthesebusi
nesstr
ips
are"
Heki
ssedme

Me:"
Howaboutsomequi
cklovemakingbef
ore
yougomaybewhenyour
eturnyou'
l
lbea
f
ather"

Spha:
"Mmmm Il
i
ket
hesoundoft
hat
"

*
*Vusi
**

Wej ustret
urnedf
rom themallandIsti
llcan'
t
getthisthi
ngofNtombenhlecheatingoutofmy
head..
.Iseehersmil
ingatherphoneandnow
I'
m mor ecuri
oustoknowwhatwhati sont hat
screen,ohGodletmecontrolmy sel
f
Me:"
BabyBohl
aleneedschangi
ng,
Ithi
nkhedi
d
numbert
wo"

Her:
"OkayI
'
llchangehi
mint
womi
nut
es,
hahaha"
Sheanswer
edst
il
lonherphoneandl
aughed
whichmadememorecuri
ous

Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
ethebaby
"

Her
:"
Yeah,
yeahI'm comi
ng.
..OhGodt
hisguyi
s
f
unnyhahaaaaaa"

Sheconti
nuedtobeonherphoneandl
aughed
,damnthatwomanthatcal
l
edmehasplanted
somesil
lyideasi
nmyhead
Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
e,changet
hechi
l
dnow!
!"

Thi
stimeIrai
sedmyv
oiceal
i
ttl
ewhi
ch
st
art
ledher

Her:
"Isai
dIwil
lVusi
,whatpar
toft
hatdon'
tyou
underst
and?
?!"

Me:
"Youngl
adyyoudon'
trai
sey
ourv
oiceatme
doy
ouunderst
and??"

Her:
"Buti
t'
sfinei
fyourai
seyourvoi
ceatme,
whathappenedtoequali
tyi
nthi
smarri
age?
?!!
"

Me:"
Isai
dst
opr
aisi
ngy
ourv
oiceatme
woman??
"
Her
:"AndifIdon'
t,
whatwi
ll
youdo??Beatme
up,
rapeme,orevenki
llmewhatwil
lyou
do?
? Cheatonmewi t
hsomeotherwoman??"

Me:
"Ntombenhl
edoy
our
eal
l
ythi
nkIwoul
d
r
apeyou??"

Her
:"
Well
youareThendo'
sbestfr
iendandbi
rds
oft
hesamefeat
hersfl
oktoget
herri
ght?
?"

Me:"
Wellgoodluckwit
hschoolt
omorrow,and
j
ustknowthatyoureal
lyhur
tmyfeel
i
ngsby
sayi
ngallt
hosethi
ngs,
Ntombenhl
ewat chhow
youtr
eatpeopl
e"

Il
eftandwenttoourhousel
eav
ingherwi
tht
he
babi
esatherhouse
*
*Ler
ato*
*

Idon'
thaveti
meforVusi
andhisdramanxa,he
shoul
djustgotoGer
manyonceandf oral
l
sometimeshebehav
esli
kemyfathernotmy
husband.

[
Knockont
hedoor
]

Me:
"Comei
n..
."

Nt
ombi
:
"Gi
rlwhat
'
swi
tht
hesadf
ace?
?"

Me:
"Vusi
andIf
ought"
Her
:"For
gethi
m,l
et'
sgoandt
akeoutt
hest
ress
att
heclub"

Me:"
I'
dlovetobutt
hebabi
esar
eher
eandI
hav
eacl asstomor
row"

Her:
"Justcal
lKabel
o,he'
l
ltaket
hent
othei
r
gr
andparents"

Me:
"Goodi
dea,
I
'l
lcal
lhi
m now"

I
tri
nged.
..

Me:
"Hel
l
oKabza"

Hi
m:"
HyLi
lsi
s"
Me:
"Bonapleasecomegetthebabi
esandtake
t
hem home,
tell
mom tolookaft
erthem j
ustf
or
t
omorrowbecauseIknowshehatesthem"

Hi
m:"Don'
tbeli
kethatRat
omahn,wenale
mamaneedt osor
toutyourdi
ff
erences,
I
'l
lbe
t
hereinafew"

Me:
"Okayby
e"

Me:
"Hei
scomi
ng"

Her
:"
Rel
otawa!
!"

Me:
"Yebo!
!"
Her
:"
Andmay
begetsomedi
ckt
oni
ght"

Me:
"Yohdr
eam onI
'
m mar
ri
ed"

Her
:"
I'
m gonnat
akeVusi
from y
ouot
labona"

Me:
"Theonl
ywomanwhot akesVusi
from me
wi
ll
endup12feetunder
"

Her
:"
YohRat
o,I
'
m ki
ddi
ng"

Kabelocameandt
ookt
hebabi
est
henwewent
tothecl
ub

Her:
"BonaMpho,
guyhasacr
ushony
ouI
swear"
Hecamet
ous

Mpho:
"Heyl
adi
es"

Me:"
HiMphowhatacoinci
dencebumpi
ngi
nto
youaft
erwechat
tedear
li
eron"

Mpho:
"Wel
lenj
oyy
ourni
ghtmybeaut
if
ulpeopl
e
"

Me:
"Ni
ceguy
"

Her
:"
Yeahwanthi
m??
"

Me:
"Nahnotmyt
ype,
Ipr
efermyment
all
and
dar
kli
keVusi
"

Her
:"
HehVusi
oji
sit
sekor
obel
a"

*
*Nt
ombi
**

Ikeptthrowi
ngdrinksatLer ato,
andshedanced
andbecamewi ld,
rightnowshepassedoutand
Mphopassedoutt oo,soIusedmybr i
l
li
ant
mi ndandtookoffRat o'stopandMpho'sthen
madet hem l
ookliket heyjustdi
ditandtooka
pictur
e,t
hendressedt hem upagai
n.

Me:
"Ratowakeup,
youneedt
ogohomei
t'
spast
12al
ready"

Her
:"
Yeah.
..
let
..
.us.
.go"
Me:
"Letmedr
opy
ouaty
ourpar
ent
s'house"

Her
:"
Sur
e"

Thi
sgi
rldoesnotknowwhati
sgoi
ngt
ohi
ther
,
wat
chandlear
n
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e

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nser
t51

*
*Ler
ato*
*

"
Ler
ato,
Ler
ato,
Ler
atoTsohahl
engwanaka"
Ihear
dsomev
oicesi
nmysl
eepandwokeup
Iscannedt
her
oom Iwasi
n,
itwasmyr
oom
backathome,It
urnmyheadandfacemy
mom, t
hewomanwhogav ebi
rtht
omebutI
hateherver
ymuch..
.

Her
:"
Canwet
alk?
?"

Me:
"I
fyouar
egonnaj
udgeme,
thenno"

Her
:"
Iwon'
tj
udgeIpr
omi
se"

Me:
"Okayt
alk"
Isatupst
rai
ghtasshet
ookmyhandi
nher
s

Her:
"YouknowRatoIfeell
i
keyouneedt ohear
mysideofthestor
yaboutwhyIdesert
ed
you.
WhenIhadKabeloIwas15y earsoldandI
managedtogivehi
mt oyourf
athersothathe
couldraisehi m becausemypar entswer ev ery
stri
ct,
immedi atelyafterIgav ebi rtht heysent
Kabelot oy ourf ather'
sf amily.ThenIhady ouat
seventeenbuty ouwer edi ff
erenty oul ooked
l
ikeanal bi
noandatt hatt i
meal binoswer e
beingkilled,Iwasy oungandconf usedIdi dnot
knowwhatt odo, yourf atheront heot herhand
wasi nmi l
i
taryschool buildi
ngaf ut uref orusso
Ihadnochoi cebutt ol eavey oui nt hatsewage
pipe,
Ipromi sei twassaf e,Iknewt hatsomeone
wouldf i
ndy ouandr aisey ou.Theonl yt hingIdid
notrealisewast hatyouwer egonnaneedme
butallthatcanchangenow, pleasegi vemet he
chancet obeabet t
ermom"

Tear
sdr
oppedf
rom hercheeksandshesobbed

Me:
"Idon'
tknowmom,thet
hingsyousai
dtome
t
heotherdaydi
dnotsi
twel
lwi t
hme"
Her:
"Isaidal
lthatoutofanger
,youhavethi
s
thi
ngofpushingaper sontoofarnowonderyou
wanttobeal awyer,butonaseriousnot
eI'
m
deeplysorr
y"

Me:"
I'
m al
sosorr
yforsayi
ngwhatIsai
d,Iwas
har
shony ouandyoudidnotdeser
vet
hat"

Her
:"
Truce?
?"

Me:
"Tr
uce"

Wehuggedi
tout

Me:
"Okayy
oucanl
etgonow"
Her:
"Il
oveyouRato,
youknowIwant
edt
oname
youPalesabutt
henI'
vegrownt
olov
eLerat
o"

Me:"
WellIcan'
tbel
i
evet
hatI
'
m aboutt
osay
t
hisbutIl
oveyoutoomom"

Her
:"
Youmademyday"

Me:
"Somom,
don'
tyoumi
ssy
ourgr
andki
ds"

Her:
"Justsayyouwantmet otaket hem si
nce
youaregoingbacktoschool,
I
'l
l godosome
shoppingfort
hem andthey
'l
lvisity
ouon
weekends"

Me:"Thanksgr
anny
,l
etmebat
hIsmel
ll
ikea
shebeen"
Her:
"Becareful
ofNt ombi,
Ist
il
ldon'
tlikeher
andremembert hatmenlikeVusiaren'tno
moredon'tsabotageyourrel
ati
onshipbecause
offr
iends"

Shel
eftmyr
oom

It
ookof
ftheweav
efr
om myheadt
henwashed
myhai
r
Ibathedandwor egr eytrackpant
swithabl
ack
vestandmyol dschool bl
ackVans,t
henI
combedmyhai randdi damessybun,and
appli
edli
pbalm. Ijustlookednatur
aland
beauti
fulout
sidebutIf eltugl
yanddir
tyi
nsi
de.

Iwentdownst
air
stomybabi
es
Me:"
Heyy ouguy
s,l
ookIknowIhavebeenabad
mom lat
elybutt
rustmeI'
m gonnamakeitupt
o
youokay"

Theysmil
edandmumbl
edIdon'
tknowwhat
thengi
ggl
ed

Ij
ustsmil
edtomysel
f,Ir
eal
l
ygav
ebi
rt
hto
handsomeyoungmen

Imadethem f
oodandfedthem,
thengav
ethem
thei
rbot
tl
esandtheysl
ept

"
Yousogoodwi
tht
hem sweet
hear
t"

Me:
"Dad!
!"
Ir
ant
ohi
m andj
umpedonhi
m

Hi
m:"
Hel
l
obaby
"

Me:
"Hi
dad,
Imi
ssedy
ou"

Hi
m:"Metoopri
ncess,
buty
ou'
vebeenscar
ce
si
nceyougotmarri
ed"

Me:
"Iknow,
it'
shar
d"
Isi
ghed

Hi
m:"
Probl
emsal
ready
??"

Me:"
Yeah,
Ifeell
i
kehebehav
esmor
eli
key
ou
t
hanaspouse"
Hi
m: "
May bet
hati
sbecauseheisol
derand
mature,
hecaresabouty
ou,t
alktohi
m"

Me:
"Ican'
tfacehi
m,Iaccusedhi
m ofr
api
ng
me"

Hi
m:"
Didhe?
?"

Me:"
NoeishdadI'
l
lfi
xit
,Igot
tagomycl
ass
st
art
sat12:00"

Hi
m:"Letmedr
opy
ouof
fandy
ou'
l
ltel
lme
more"

Me:
"Okay
"
Daddr
oppedmeof
fandIwentt
otheDean'
s
of
fi
cefi
rst

Iknocked

MsMkhi
ze:
"Comei
n"

Me:
"Gooddaymam"

Her
:"
Ler
atoModi
se"

Me:
"Nkosi
,
I'
m mar
ri
ed"

Her:
"Ithoughty
ouwerenotcomi
ngbackaf
ter
yourpregnancy
,youar
eevenmarr
iedwow,
and
youlookgooddarli
ng"
Me:"Thanky oumam, Iwouldl
iket
oregi
sterf
or
thi
sy earsinceIpassedlasty
ear,
I
'm
commer cingwithlaw"

Her:
"Thatisgoodtohear,
Ili
kethatyoudidnot
gi
veup, y
ou'l
lmakeagr eatl
awy eroneday,
but
badnewsi sthaty
ourbursaryhasbeenfrozen"

Me:
"I'
ll
payforthef
ir
stmodul
eandt
ryt
ogeta
j
obforthenext
"

Her
:"
Ithoughty
ourhusbandwoul
dhel
p".

Me:
"NoIdon'
twantt
odependonhi
m"

Her
:"
Ili
ket
hatkeepi
tup"
AsIam walki
ngdownt hecor r
idortocl
ass
peoplest
aredatme,somesmi l
edand
welcomedmebackwhi l
esomegav emedirt
y
l
ooks.Butt
henIexpectedthistohappenpeople
thi
nkthati
fyoufal
lpregnantatay oungageit
's
theendofyoubutnotme, Imadei tmygoalt
o
ret
urnandgetmylawdegr ee

*
*Vusi
**

I
tisaround19: 45Mondayevening,Ij
ustarr
ived
fr
om thelab,si
nceIhavenotstart
edwi t
hthe
hei
stjobyetI '
m busywi
thmyot herprof
ession
whichispalaeontol
ogy.

Myphonebeepedf
rom mypockedasIsi
tdown
t
otakeasi
pf r
om mycoff
ee
ItwasaMMS, actual
lyaphot
owhi chhada
subheading"
Sti
llt
hinkyourwi
feisloyal
??For
mor einf
omeetmeat20: 30I'
l
ltextyouthe
detail
s"
Icl
ickedont hephoneandmybloodst
art
ed
boil
ing,I
'm aj
eal
ousman,nowseei
ngmywi f
e
nakedi nbedwithanot
herguymademeangry,
I
havet oseeNtombenhle

Iwal
kedt
omyki
tchendoorandopened,
ther
e
shest
ood

Her
:"
Vusi
babyIcamet
oapol
ogi
zeabout
..
."

Me:"
Savei
t,
comei
n,
howcoul
dyoucheatonme
huh!
!??
"
Her
:Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout,
Idi
dn'
tcheat
,l
et
goofme"

Me:
"Don'
tpl
aydumbexpl
aint
his(
Ishowedher
t
hepic)
"

Her
:"
NoIdi dn'
t,
i
t'
sPhot
oshopMphoandIar
e
j
ustfr
iends"

Me:"
Idon'
tl
ikeitwhenpeopl
eli
etome,
whydi
d
yousl
eepwithhim!
!"
Ihel
dherhand

Her:
"Vusiyouar
escar
ingme,l
etgoofmyhand
youhurti
ngme,Idi
dnotdoitIpr
omise"

Me:
"Damny
ouNt
ombenhl
e"
Il
eftt
hehouse

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Somethi
ngisnotri
ght
,Idi
dnotsl
eepwith
Mphoev eni
fidi
dhewouldtel
lmeissomeone
tr
yingt
oplaygameswithmeandVusi?
?

Myphonebeeped

Ntombi:
"Meetmeat20:
50,
I
'l
ltexty
out
he
detai
l
s"
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e

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nser
t52
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*Ler
ato*
*

Itookagl assanddranksomewat er,

sti
ll
shockedaboutt hepictureIsaweali
erIkeep
askingmy selfi
fIwast hatdrunksl
eepwitha
guyatacl ubbutthenMphoi sagoodguyhe
woul dnottakeadvantageofmej ustl
ike
that,
may beIshouldcallhimforconfi
rmati
on.

Hi
m: "
HeyRatoi
fyouar
ecall
i
ngaboutt
her
ide,
i
wi
llbether
eat10:
45ok??
"

Me:"
No,noi
t'
ssomethi
ngdi
ff
erent
,kopaho
bot
sa,di
dyouandIhav
esexonSunday"
Him:"
Oh,
yeah,Ir
eall
ydidn'
tknowy
oucoul
d
perf
orml
ikethat
,youdeser
veanawar
d"

Me:
"Ohnoooo!
!!
Mymar
ri
agei
stot
all
yov
er"

Hi
m:"Chil
lI'
m ki
dding,besidesyouknowI
woul
dn'teventouchy ouinappr
opri
atel
ysowhy
woul
dy ouaskmet hat?
?"

Me:"
Ther
eisapicofmeandyounakedatthe
cl
ub,
someonei
stry
ingt
odest
roymymar r
iage"

Him:"Ohthat
,myunclei
sthesecur
it
yguar dat
theclubhetol
dmet hatNtombiwastaking
pict
ureswhil
ewewer eoutofi
t,
Iguessthat
answersyourquest
ion"
Me:
"Butshei
smyf
ri
end,
whywoul
dshedo
t
hat
??"

Him:"
Isn'titobviousthatshewant sVusi,l
ook
RatoIdon' tmeant obedef ensiv
ebuthav ey ou
noti
cedy ourbehav iorl
atel
y,youhardlyhave
ti
mef ory ourownbabi esandt hati
sbecauseof
Ntombi,she'sleadingyouast r
aybutt hen
becauseshei sy ourfri
endy oucan'tseeat hi
ng"

Me:
"Howdoy
ouknowal
lthi
s??
Arey
ouspy
ing
onme??
"

Him: "
No,I
'm st
udyi
ngjour
nali
sm remember,
soI
thinkthi
ngsoutofpropor
tionmymi ndis
designedtolookbeyondtheori
ginal
view,adv
icefrom metoyou,becareful
ofwho
youcal
lyourf
ri
end,Nt
ombi isasnakepl
ease
wakeupbefor
eit'
stoolat
e,seeyoutomor
row
bye"

Everyonekeepswar ningmeaboutNt ombi ,

fi
rstyitwasVusi,thenmom andnowMpho, I
thinki
t'saboutti
meIst art
edl i
steningtothem
andkeepmydi st
ancef rom her.
Whywoul dshe
playmi ndgameswi thme? ?Iguessi t
'sabout
ti
meIper f
ormedrev er
sepsy chology.

Sti
ll
indeepthoughtsIhearaphoneri
ngingand
tomyownsur pri
seit'
sVusi'
sphone,
helefti
ton
thekit
chencounter
,i
twasanunknownnumber
soIansweredandwai t
edfortheper
sont ot
alk

"
Ohhi
lov
erboy
,Ihopey
ouar
eony
ourway
,I
guessi t'
stimeIr eveal
edwhoIam, i
t'
sNtombi
andj ustsoy ouknowwear egoingtohavefun
tonight,Ihavethedivor
cepapersreadyand
Leratowi l
lbeher ei
naf ewminutesIcan'
t
wait,shewon' tknowwhathi
ther,well
hurr
yyou
arelate"

Iabortedthecalli
mmedi at
elyafterhearing
that,
soVusi suredoesn'tknowany thi
ngabout
thi
sshi t
,thi
ngswi l
lsur
el ygetuglytonight,
not
withmyman, notwit
hmybabi esanddef ini
tel
y
notwithme, I
'l
lshowNt ombi thatshecan' t
messwi thus.

Idon'
tknowwhatt odobutIsureknowt hatt
his
gir
lhasapsychologi
calprobl
em andmightbe
dangeroussoIwentthroughVusi'
sthi
ngsand
tookoutthesi
lentgun,
l
oadeditandsli
ppedit
betweenmybreaststhencaughtataxit
o
Nt
ombi
'
shouse.

*
*Nt
ombi
**

Mypl aniscomi ngtogether,sohere'showIgot

Vusi inmyhouseandonmybed, itwasact uall
y
easybecauseIhi redsomest r
onghi t
menabout
threeoft hem, t
heygav ehim afewpunchesand
Itoldt hem totiehim uponmybednaked, Ialso
askedt hem toinj
ecthim withCrystalMethnow
thatist hedr ugusedtoincreaseaman' ssexual
desi r
ebuti tlast
sonly30mi nut
es,itwil
lmake
him gocr azyaboutmeandexecut emypl an
further..
.

Me:
"Comeonputthosef
inger
sinsi
de
me,
harder
.!
!Ohy
eah!!
"
Atthi
spoi
ntIwasr
idi
ngi
tandhi
sgr
oans
tur
nedmeon..
.

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Ifi
nall
yarrivedar ri
vedatNt ombi'
shouseandI
couldhearmoansandgr oansfr
om thekit
chen
l
eadingmet ot hebedroom wher eIf
oundmy
husbandf uckingmyf r
iend,hewasreall
y
fucki
ngherandt hei
rreacti
onsshowedt hat
theybothar eenj oyi
ngit,
IwantedtocrybutIdi
d
notall
owmy selftodoso. Ahotbal
lofpepper
ragedthroughme. ..

Vusi:
"Ohy
eahNtombimybaby
,Ler
atohasgot
nothi
ngonyou,
shi
t!
!!
"

Nt
ombi
:
"Hav
eyoudonet
hisposi
ti
onwi
thher
??
"

Vusi
:"
Noshe'
sal
way
saf
rai
d,buty
ou,
oh
shi
t,
ki
ssme"

Me:
"Enough!
!!
"

Ntombi:
"OhIseey
ou'
vear
ri
ved,Ihopey
ouli
ke
whatyousee,
meandmyfutur
ehusbandhi
tt
ing
i
traw"

Shecl
i
mbeddownt
hebedandcamet
ome

*
*Vusi
**

Ouch,
myhead,
huh,
whyam Inakedandi
sn'
tthat
Ntombenhl
eandNt
ombiargui
ng??
Rat
o:"
Whati
swr
ongwi
thy
ouhuh?
?"

Ntombi :
"Youreal
lywantt oknow,l
etmet ell
you,youaremypr oblem,Ihaveissueswithmy
brainbecauseofy ou,y
esIhavebipolar,
Ihav e
beendr i
nkingmedi cat
ionforyear
snowandi t
hascomet oapointwhereIam tir
edoft hose
pil
ls"

Rat
o:"
Sowhathast
hatgott
odowi
thme?
?"

Ntombi
:"Whathasi
tgott
odowi t
hy ou?
?Ar
e
youser
iousl
yaski
ngmethatquesti
on"

Rat
o:"
Whatdoy
ouwantmet
orepeatmy
sel
f??
"
Ntombi
:"Don'
t,
doyourememberhowy ouused
tomakefunofmei nf
rontoft
hewholeclass
sayi
ngt
hatI'
mf at
,t
hathurtmebuty
oudi dnot
real
i
sebecauseal
lyoueverdi
dwasbullyme"

Rat
o:"Nt
ombi,
Ihadnoideathaty
oufel
tthat
way,whydi
dn'
tyouconfr
ontme??"

Ntombi:
"Itri
edbutyouwereselfi
shandnev er
t
houghtaboutt hef
eeli
ngsofothers,(
snif
fsand
t
earsrol
l)Irememberwheny ouforcedmet okil
l
mybabyj usttosaveyourr
elat
ionship
wit
hTshepo, nowIcan'
thavekidsallbecauseof
you"

Rat
o:"
Thathappenedalongt
imeagoNtombi
andIhadnochoiceIwasgonnal
ooset
helov
e
ofmylif
etoyou"
Nt ombi
:"IsufferedbutIwon'tsufferalone,y
ou
alsohavet of eelt
hepainthatIfelt,
itol
dy ou
thatIhadacr ushonVusibutst i
llyout ookhim
foryourself.Imighthavekil
ledmybaby
becauseofy oubutknowt hatIalsoki l
ledyour
threepreciousbabiesatthehospi tal"

Me:
"Youdi
dwhat
??!
!?
"

Ntombenhl
ewasnowont
opofNt
ombi
t
hrowingpunches

Ntombi:
"Stopitbi
tch!
!(shetookoutagun)you
all
shall
dietoday,butI'
llst
artwi
thVusi,
Iwant
youfeelt
hepai nofyourhusbandbeingkil
l
edin
fr
ontofyou"
Rat
o:"
Noti
fIki
l
lyouf
ir
st"

Ntombenhl
etookoutagunfr
om herbreast
s
andpoi
ntitatNt
ombiwhil
eshepointedhersat
me

Me:"Nt
ombenhl
eputthatgundownit
's
danger
ous,
youarenotamur der
ermylov
eput
i
tdown"

Rat
o:"
Shutup!
!"

Shewasnowshaki
ng

Nt
ombi
:
"Resti
nPeace,
3,
2,
1"

Du,
Du,
Du
GUNSHOTS!
!!
!!

WhoKi
l
ledWho?
??
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*
*Vusi
**

Me:
"Ohnooo!
!!
Ntombenhl
ewhatdi
dyoudo?
?"

Shejustsl
iddownthewal
lwit
hthebloodall
overher,
shewasshaki
ngandshi
ver
ingpointi
ng
thegunathersel
f
Her:
"Iki
l
ledher
..
.she'
sdead,
Ial
sodeser
vet
o
di
e,Vusi
"

Me:
"Pl
easeputt
hatgundown,
i
t'
snotwor
thi
t"

Her
:"
Ican'
t,
Ihav
etodi
e"

Shewasshaking,y
ouwouldnotunder
stand
thespaceIwasinri
ghtnow

Me:"Babypleasejustthi
nkaboutus, t
hinkabout
Bohlal
e,Bokamoso,Bophelo,Si
hle,Sbuandt he
restofthefamily,
whatwi l
lItel
l ourbabies
whent heygrowup? ?Thatthei
rmot herki
ll
ed
hersel
f? ?
Ican'tbethebarri
erofbadnews
Ntombenhl epl
easedr opthegundown.
Your
ememberhowy
ouusedt
ot el
lmet hatone
dayy
ouwantt
obeoneoft
hebestatt
orneys
,thaty
ouwanttobuyy ourowncar,andohIstil
l
rememberwheny ousaidthatyouwantto
maket hi
ngsri
ghtwit
hSihleandhav eal
adies
dayatthemallwit
hmycr editcar
d,j
ustt
hink
aboutthegoodyouwoulddoi nthi
sworld."

Her
:"
ButI
'
m abadper
son"

Me:
"Noy
ouar
enot
,comeher
e"

Ihel
dhert
ight
ly

Her
:"
Okay
..
.whatdowedonow?
?"

Me: "
Ican'
tlety
ougot ojai
l
,i
twasei
thershe
diesorIdiebutyouchosetosaveme,now
l
istentomeIwanty outotakemycarkeysand
dri
vehome,
i
llmakesur
ethatnot
hingl
eadst
o
you"

Her
:"
Letmehel
pyou"

Me:"
GohomemysweetNt
ombenhl
eanddon'
t
ut
terthi
stoany
one"

Iti
st hef i
rstti
me, sheobey swithoutbei ng
stubbor n,Itooksomespi ri
tsandspr i
nkleditin
herey es,thenclosedt hem bydoingt hatt he
forensicpat hol
ogi stwon'tbeabletodet ectthe
l
astper sonshesaw, Ithenwentt ot hedoorand
wipedt hehandl esf orfi
ngerpri
nts,af t
erthatI
tookherphoneandt hegunNt ombenhl e
used,thent ookNt ombi '
sgunandpl acedi ti
n
herhand, Imadesur ethatIcalculat
edt hespeed
anddi stanceoft hebul l
et,soitwill
sur eseem
l
ikesui cide
Af
terdoi
ngallt
hatIputsomepot
sont he
st
ove,
itwi
ll
lookli
keshewasbusycooking.

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Ihaveki ll
edaper son,thepersonwhowasmy
fri
endf oryears,
Iknowwhatshedi diswr ong
butIam t oblamet oo. TheloveIhadf orTshepo
wast oomucht hatIbecamesel fi
shand
persuadedNt ombi toterminateherbaby, Iam a
badper son.Shehel pedmedur i
ngmydi ff
icul
t
pregnancy ,shewasagoodf ri
endbesi desher
shenani gans,butIbecameav i
ll
ainonceagai n
andt ooksomeone' swi f
e,daughter
,si
sterand
fri
end,Iwon'tbeabl et oforgi
vemy self,ev
en
thoughIcan' tcryatt hi
smoment ..
.
PhoneRi
ngs

Mpho:
"I
'm onmywaygi
rl
..
."

Me:
"What
??I
t'
snotmor
ningy
et"

Mpho:"Rat
oit
's09:
55,
whati
sgoi
ngon,
you
sounddown"

Me:
"Not
hing,
Ifeel
sickt
hat
'
sal
l
,"

Mpho:
"Okayt
henr
estandbest
rong"

*
*Vusi
**
It
'sthenextdayandIjustarri
vedathome, I'
m
exhaustedandallIneedismybed, Iguessyou
arewonderingwhyIdon'tfeelgui
ltyaboutthi
s
case,i
tisbecauseIhavedonet hi
sbef or
e,my
j
obcomeswi thmanysituati
onsandki ll
i
ngis
partofthem.TheonlypersonI'
m wor r
iedabout
i
sNt ombenhle.

Igetinourroom andf
indherst
il
lint
hose
bloodyclot
hes,
shaki
ngandstari
ngoutthe
window,Igoandhugherfr
om behi
nd.
..Andshe
screams

Me:"Shhhh,it
'smebaby,Iwi
l
lbewithy ouever
y
stepoftheway .(
shebegantocryforthefi
rst
ti
meaf terthekil
l
ing)Yescr
y,l
eti
tallout,
it
sjust
me, Igotyoubabe"
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*
*Vusi
**

Seei
ngNtombenhlel
iket
hisbreaksmedown,
i
t
hascometothatpoi
ntwhereIdonotknow
howtohelpherheal
.
..

Me:"
YoucangonowIj
ustr
anabat
hfor
you,
Ntombenhl
e"

Ishookhergent
ly

Her
:"
Oh,
thanks"

Shest
oodupandt r
iedwal
kingbutsheended
uponthef
loor
,herkneeswereshakyaswell
as
herhands..
..
Ijustpi
ckedherupandtookhert
o
thebathr
oom, Iundessedherandputthe
bloodycl
othesinablackplast
icbag,
thenI
placedheri
nt hebathtubandwashedherup.
..

Me:
"Rai
sey
ourl
egf
ormebaby
"

ShedidasIaskedandIwashedherl egsand
thi
ghs,thenpouredsomesoapont hesponge
andwashedherback, t
henherchest,
Icoul
dfeel
herheartbeati
ngrapidly
,mypoorwi f
eshejust
remainedquietandstaredatnot
hing,ohhowI
hateseeingherli
kethis.
..

Me:"
Herebabyy oucanwashyourpri
vat
earea
now(Iguessshewasnotevenheari
ngme)don'
t
worr
yI'l
lhel
p"
Icl
eanedherpriv
atear
eat horoughl
ythentook
heroutofthebath,
smearedsomeVasel ineon
herbodyanddressedheri
nt opajamas,t
hen
putherundercover
sandgotundercov erstoo.
..

Me:
"Sl
eept
ight"

Her
:"
Okay
,yout
oo"

(
HoursPassedI
tWasNowPastOneI
nThe
Mor
ning)

Her:"
No!!!
!I
'
m Sorry!!
!Pl
easenotmy
baby.Ntombi.
..
.Ididn'
tmeanto!!
Nooooo!
!!
Stop!
!!!
"

IhearNt
ombenhl
escr
eami
ngf
rom mysl
eep,
I
l
ookbesi
desmeandshei
snoti
nbed

Her:
"Idi
dnotmeant
opl
easef
orgi
veme!
!!
Nooo
don'
ttakeme!
!"

Igetoutofbedandfi
ndheri
ntheclosethi
ding,
wit
htearsstr
eamingdownhercheeks

Me:"
Hey,
heyit
'sgonnabeal
ri
ght,
comet
ome,
I
sweart
hatyouwil
lbesaf
ewithme"

Her
:"
No,
shewasher
e,shewant
edt
otakeme"

Me:"
Noonewi l
ltakeyouaslongasI
'
m st
il
l
al
i
ve,comebabylet'
spray"

Her
:"
Ifal
lthi
scangoaway"
Isatnextt
oheront
hefloorandhel
dher
hands,
asshecl
osedhereyes

Me: "Fat
herGod, todaywecomet oy ouas
sinners,wear enotper f
ectfatherandwedi da
mi stakeitmighthav ebeenNt ombenhl ethat
pulledthet ri
ggerandf i
redtheshotbutIwas
therewi t
hher ,soIam toblamet oo.Fatheryour
childhasbeent hroughalot,
sheisonl y20
pleasegiv eherabr eakandonceagai nwe
apol ogi
zef ortakingoneofy ourcreati
onsand
mayNt ombi RestI nPeace,Amen"

Her
:"
Amen
Canyoujusthol
dmeandsi
ngformethat
songyoual
wayssingwheny
ouaresad"
Me:
"Asy
ouwi
shmyQueen"

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Ithasnowbeent woweekssi ncewebur ied

Ntombi ,
ithasbeenhar dbutt henIgot hr
ough
eachdaywi t
hstrengthinmybei ng.Thesad
thi
ngi sthatSphai stornapartandIhav e
becomehi sdiar
ynow, yesnotadaygoesby
withouthim call
ingmeandt ell
ingmehowhe
feelsi
t'stort
ureIt el
lyou.
..

Peeee!
!!
Peeee!
!!

Vusi
:"
Mphohasar
ri
vedmyl
adyhav
eagood
day"
Me:
"Samet
oyoumyKi
ng"

Iki
ssedhi
m andhegr
abbedmyass

Hi
m:"
YummyQueen"

Me:
"Naught
yKi
ng"

Pee!
!!
Peee!
!!

Hi
m:"
Yourhusbandcan'
twai
t"

Webot
hlaughed,
that
'swhathecal
l
sMpho

Igeti
nthecar
Mpho:
"Mywi
fe"

Me:"
Heyhubby
,pl
easest
opbywi
mpyIdi
dnot
hav
ebreakf
ast
"

Mpho:
"Sur
ethi
ng,
Igotsomegoodnews"

Me:
"Tswakat
sona,
papa"

Mpho:
"Nahskawar
aor
atadi
taba"

Vusi
istrul
yagr eatguy,
hebel
iev
est
hatpray
er
i
stheanswertoev eryst
ruggl
eandi
t'
str
ue,l
ook
howLeratoisheali
ngdaybyday.

Heev
enwashedher
,ohwhatawonder
ful
man
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e

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t55

*
*Nar
rat
ed*
*

Iti
snowl at einJune, thecol dbreezei s
creepinginandnoonewi shest obeout sideat
thispoint.Thi ngshav ebeengoi ngsmoot hlyat
theNkosi househol d,Vusi l
eftforGer manyi n
Februaryandj ustarrivednowi nJunebecause
hisassignedj obhasbeencompl et
e.Meanwhi l
e
whenhewasst i
l
l i
nGer many ,Lerat
ohasbeen
stayingwi thSbuandSi hl
et heyhav eputt hei
r
diff
erenceasi deandar enowhappybei ng
aroundLer ato,wellabouthrownbabi esher
mom of feredt orai
sesi nceshesawt hatLerato
wasunderpr essure, wit
hschool ,
beinga
mot hertof ivekids( SbuandSi hleincluded)
andbeingawife,
sotheycametoaconcl
usion
thatshewil
lgogetthebabi
eswhensheis
free,
nott
hatsheisdeser
ti
ngthem,
i
t'
sforthe
best.
..
.

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Lif
ehasbeent r
eatingmegoodov erthepast
fewmont hs.Varsityiscoolandi haven'tmade
anyfri
endsatal l,
theonl ypersonbymysi dei
s
Mpho. Tobet ruthf
ul MphoandIonl ymeta
Varsit
ydur i
ngmyf irstyear,Il
ikehi m because
heisnotf akeandhei sast raighttalker,
so
whenev erIdosomet hi
ngshi ttyhet el
lsme
str
aightup. Wehav ebeenext remel ycloseand
west i
llareupt othisday .

Iam nowincl
assandthi
snewl
ect
urerhas
beental
ki
ngnonst
optell
i
nguswhoheisand
someannoy
ingshi
t.
..

"
Hel
l
oMi
ssycar
etol
i
stent
omewhenIt
alk?
?"

Il
ookedup,
ohhewast
alki
ngt
ome

Me:
"I
'ml
i
steni
ng"

"
Noy
ounot
,whatdi
dIsaymynamewas?
?"

Me:
"Idon'
tknow,
Sizweorsomet
hing"

"Wrong,
pieceofadvicegir
lyl
i
stenwhenIt
alk
orelset
here'
ll
betrouble"

Me:
"Pi
eceofadv
iceSi
rwedon'
tfucki
ngcar
e
aboutyournameorage,y
ourjobi
st oteachus
nottel
lusyourshi
tt
ystori
es,
gotthat?
? "

"
Leav
emyclassnow,Idon'
thav
eti
mef
or
r
ebel
li
ousy
ounggir
ls"

Me:
"Wi
thpl
easur
e"

Ilefttheclass,onlyt womi nut

esot helecture
wasl eftsoi twasnobi gdeal,
thatnewl ecturer
i
sr udeandar rogantIhat ehim alr
eady.Fucki ng
bitchheev encal l
edme" r
ebell
ious",
canhe
evenspel lthef uckingshit,
Ihateyoung
l
ect urersalltheyknowi stowooVar sit
y
girl
s.Plainbullshit
,theyknowt hattheyhav e
madei tinl
ifebutst ill
theywantt ocomeher e
togetgi rl
s,knockt hem upandl eavethem like
that,t
ypicalper ver
ts!!!
[
Mphoshowsup]

Mpho:"Whateveryouar
ethi
nki
ngofi
sei
ther
ev
ilorful
lofshit
"

Me:
"OhheyIdi
dnotseey
out
her
e"

Mpho:
"I
t'
sbecauseyouwer
enoti
nthi
s
wor
ld,
what'
sbuggi
ngyou??
"

Me:
"Not
hing,
let
'sgoi
got
tacook"

Mpho:
"Iknowyouar
ehidi
ngsomethingIcan
seei
tinyourey
esbutt
henlet
'sgo"
Heputhi
sar
m ar
oundmyneck

[
Int
hecar
]

Mpho:
"Rat
o??
"

Me:
"Huh?
?"

Mpho:
"Ar
eyouhappywi
thy
ourl
i
fet
husf
ar?
?"

Me:"Well
Ineverimaginedmy selfbei
ngmar ri
ed
withbabi
esattheageoft wentybutt heni
t'
s
God'spurposeIcan'
targuewi t
ht hat
,soto
answeryourquesti
on,
y esyesI'
m happywi thmy
l
ife"

Mpho:
"Why
??"
Me:"Becauset
hepeopl
einmylif
ear edoi
ng
wel
l andarehappy
,sowhewhentheyarehappyI
am happy"

Mpho: "Buttheny ougotalotony ourplat

e,when
youar ri
veathomey ougottacookf oryour
family,helpSbuandSi hl
ewi t
hhomewor kwhen
theyneedhel p,andthenatnightdoadul t
businessi nthebedroom andalsost udy,
don'
t
youf eell
ikeit'
stoomuchsomet i
mes? ?"

[
Wear
ri
vedatmyhousebutr
emai
nedi
nhi
scar
]

Me:"
Ido,Ir
eall
ydobutt hi
ngisGodbl
essedme
wit
hanamaz inghusband,tohi
m marr
iageis
notabouti
nti
macy ,
i
t'sabout
commi t
ments,
fai
thful
nessandequal
i
ty.WhatI
doheal
sodoesbutasanAf r
icanwomanI
knowmyworthforexampleIcannotl
ethi
m
washmyunderwearthat
'srude.

Hel
ookedatme

Mpho:"Whatyoujustsaidisverytouchi
ng, you
haveawonder f
ulhusband, r
espectandl ov
e
hi
m,menl i
keVusi arer
are.Ial
soli
ket helevelof
maturi
tyyouhaver i
ghtnow,youseem likea
di
ff
erentpersoncompar edtotheLer at
oIknew
2yearsand3mont hsback"

Me:"
Okay..
.I
'
llt
akethatasacompl
ement,but
whythosequesti
ons??Ihopey
ounotdy
ingor
any
thing"
.

Hel
aughed
Mpho:"Youal wayshaveawaytobr i
ngasmile
uponmyf ace.Nosizwei
spregnantandshe'
s
fucki
ngstressed"

Me:"What??Youknockedherup,
dudehowcoul d
youbesocar eless?
?Haven'
tyouhear
dabout
condom? ?
!!
SafesexMphosaf esexforcr
ying
outloud!
!!
Shit!
!"

Mpho:
"St
opshout
ing"

Me:"
NoIwon't,you'
vemademeangr yMpho,
do
youhaveanideahowmuchdi aper
scost
??And
t
hemi l
kfor
mul a??A.amahnwasborawa
t
seba,wabor
ast rai
ght!
!"

Mpho:
"Whyar
eyoushout
ingl
i
keIknockedy
ou
uphuh?
?"

Me:"
BecauseIknowwhatNosi zwei
sgoing
t
hrough,sheisst
ressedandneedsyou,
actual
l
y
t
samayaoy ehoyena"

Isuddenlyhear
daknockont
hewi
ndow.
..
I
rol
ledthewindowdown

Me:
"Daddy
??"

Vusi:
"Ineedy
oui
t'
sur
gent
.Andst
opshout
ingat
thepoorguy"

Mpho:
"Yer
rthanky
oumybr
a,y
ougotonecr
azy
wi
fe"
Vusi
:
"AndIl
oveherl
i
ket
hat
"

Vusi
lef
t

Me:
"Wenawear
enotdone,
we'
l
llat
er"

Mpho:
"Yesmom"

Me:
"I
tai
n'
tfunny
"

Mpho:
"Buty
oul
aughi
ng"

Me:"Whatev
erbonapl
easebether eforyour
gi
rl
,sheneedsyoumorethanever.Akerehonol
e
mnate,
lenyobanakaf
leshnowf acethemusic"
Il
eftandgoti
nthehouse

Me:
"Daddywhati
sgoi
ngon,
yousai
dit
'sur
gent
"

Vusi:
"Sihl
ehaslockedhersel
finthebathr
oom
eversincetheycamefrom schoolandsheis
cr
y i
ng"

Me:
"Sbuhav
eyout
ri
edt
otal
ktoher
??"

Sbu:
"Meanddadbot
hSi
sRat
obutsher
efuses
toopen"

Me:
"OkayI
'
llt
ry"

Ipl
acedmybackpackonthet
abl
eandwentt
o
knockont
hebathr
oom door
Me:
"Si
hleopenupsweet
ypi
e,
it
'sSi
sLer
ato"

Si
hle:
"Si
sLer
ato,
I.
..
need.
..
.y
ou,
pleasehe.
..
l.
..
p
m..
e"

Shecr
iedpai
nful
l
y

Me:"
Okaythen,
opent
hedoorsot
hatIcanhel
p
youbaby
"

Sheopenedt
hedoor
,Igoti
nandl
ocked

Me:"Whati
swr
ongsweet
hear
t,whyar
eyou
cr
ying??"
Sihl
e:"
AtschoolIhadpainsi
nmyst omach,t
hen
Iarr
ivedathomeandwentt ot
hetoil
etbutthen
Isawsomet hi
ngstrangemypantywasf ul
lofa
l
otofbloodandmyst omachst
il
lhurt
s"

Thet
imehasar
ri
ved

Me:"
Ohmybaby,
yourper
iodshav
est
art
ed,
you
knowwhatt
hatmeans??
"

Si
hle:
"No.
..
"

Me:"Youaredev el
opingintoay oungwoman
now,youaregr owingsweet heart,nowhere'
s
whattodo, neversleepwi t
hboy s,
andbysleepI
meandon' thav esexIknowy ouknowwhatsex
i
s.Atthi
spoi ntyouhav etoav oi
deggsanddai r
y
product
s.Butdon' tlety
ourper i
odr ui
nyourl
ife,
it
doesnottalksoy
oucanov
ercomei
t,
any
quest
ions??"

Sihl
e:"
Whydoesdevel
opi
ngi
ntoawomanhav
e
tobesopainf
ul?
?"

Me:"Thati
sbecausewear estr
ong,
Godcr eat
ed
rockswhenhemadeus, heknowst hatwewi l
l
barethepai
n.Putthepadonputtwoiny our
bag,t
henwashy ourpant
ies,
bet
ter
??"

Si
hle:
"Iki
ndafeelmuchbet
tersi
nceIspoke
wi
thyou,thankyouMOM"

Sheat
tackedmewi
thawar
m hug

Di
dshej
ustcal
lmeMOM?
?
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eakabl
eLov
e

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nser
t56

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*Ler
ato*
*

Aft
ert hatsweett alkwithSi hl
eIfeltli
kea
massiv eloadofst oneshasbeenl ift
edof fmy
shoulders.May bet hatiswhatIneeded, an
i
nterventi
onofsomesor tIfeeltr
ulyblessedI
won'tlie.
Att hi
spoi ntImi ssmyl i
ttl
eones, Imi
ss
changingt heirdiaper s,Imissfeedingt hem,I
j
ustmi sst hem. Nowt hosear etheperksof
bei
ngamot her.

WhenIcamei ntoourroom myhusbandwas

fastasl
eepbutnowasIst epoutoft
he
shower,
heisful
lyawake..
.
Vusi
:
"Yougi
rl
scanr
eal
l
ytal
k"

Me:
"Heydon'
tbl
ameus"

Ir
epl
yappl
yi
ngsomel
oti
ononmybody

Vusi
:
"Whatwasbuggi
ngSi
hlei
tseemedser
ious
"

Me:
"Wel
l
,herboy
fri
endcheat
edonher
"

Vusi
:"What
!!
!Whatboyf
ri
end,
thaty
oungl
ady
wil
lknowmet oni
ght
!!
"

Her
oseupf
rom t
hebed,
hewasr
eal
l
yangr
y,I
hel
dhi
m

Me:
"St
op,
I
'm ki
ddi
ng"

Vusi
:
"Don'
tyoudar
epl
ayl
i
ket
hatNt
ombenhl
e"

Me:"
I'
m sor
rymylov
e,j
ustchi
l
l,
okaySi
hlehad
herf
ir
stperi
odt
odaythat
'swhyshewasoffi
sh"

Vusi
:
"Buthow?
Shei
syoungNt
ombenhl
e"

Me:"Wellsheisnotasyoungasy outhinkshe
i
s,pubert
yhasl ongbegunandIknowt hatasa
fat
heritwill
behar dt
oseey ourpri
ncess
becomingay oungwoman"

Vusi
:
"YeahIknowbutIwantt
opr
otecther,
the
wor
ldi
sreal
l
yhar
shoutt
her
e"

Me: "
Iknowt hi
smi ghtsoundcli
chébutI
suggesty ougiv
eherspace, l
ethermake
mi st
akes,she'
lll
earnfrom hermist
akesand
pickherselfup"

Vusi:
"Damn,Ist
il
lcan'
tbeli
evet
hatmyli
ttl
egi
rl
i
sgrowingonme,butIknowsheisinsaf
e
handswit
hamot herli
keyoubyhersi
de"

Asmi
l
ecr
eptuponmyf
ace

Me:
"Shecal
l
edmemom,
cany
oubel
i
evei
t"

Vusi
:"YesIdobel
i
evei
t,
youar
ehermom andI
am gl
adtocall
youmot
herofmykids,
Ij
ust
mi
ssmyboy
snow"

Me:
"Imi
sst
hem mor
e"

Vusi
:
"NoImi
sst
hem mor
e"

Me:
"Imi
sst
hem t
hatt
hemor
ningsunl
i
ght"

Vusi
:
"Imi
sst
hem t
hant
hebr
ightst
ars"

Me:
"Imi
sst
hem t
hant
hebl
ueski
es"

Vusi
:
"Imi
sst
hem t
hany
ou"

Lol
,
Ilaughedmyassoutbyt
hatone
Me:
"Soy
oudomi
ssme"

Vusi
:
"Mydearwi
feasecondwi
thouty
oubymy
si
deist
ort
ureal
readynowi
maginemont
hs"

Me:
"Your
eal
l
yli
kemedon'
tyou"

Vusi
:"
(Heswitchedofftheli
ghtsandl ef
tthe
si
delambson, thenhel
dmywai standpulled
metohim)Idon'tli
keyouIlovey ou,
youaremy
ever
ythi
ngandImeani t.I
fIhadnotmety ouI
wouldhavegonebackt othatstageofdeni al
agai
n"

Me:ButI'
m notper
fect
,Ihav
edonealotof
mistakesi
nlif
eandIsuream notev
eryguy'
s
dr
eam girl
"
Vusi:"
Lookatme, Idon'tneedper fectbecause
perfectisf ake,
Iseekr eal nessandt hat'
swhat
andwhoy ouar e.Irememberwheny ouusedt o
serveusatt hecl ub,wit
habr i
ghtsmi leony our
face,Ialsor ememberwheny oust ruggl
edt o
walk,thewor r
yi nyourey esshowedt haty ou
weremor ewor ri
edaboutt hebabi esy ouwer e
carryi
ngt hany ourownwel l
being.Thati st he
kindofwomanIneeded, at rueAf ricanwoman
whot hinksofhery oungonest hanher self, that
momentIt rul
yf ell
fory ou,itwasnotaboutt he
beautyorbodyshapebutaboutwhoy our eal l
y
are,
Ifellfory oubecausey ouar enotper fectbut
real
.Andy oument i
onedt haty ouar enotev ery
guy'sdream gi rl,
Ntombenhl ehav ey ounot iced
howheadst urnwhenwear eatt hemal lor
anywher e, Iwanty out ost opt hinkinglessof
yourselfbecausey ouar eawayl otmor et han
that,
youar ear arejewel hiddenamongt he
stars"
Il
ookedathi
m,di
dhereal
l
ysayal
lthosethi
ngs
aboutme.OhGodwhatdi
dIdotodeserv
ehim

Me:
"Inevert
houghtyousawme,i
nthatkindof
waythankyou,
youjustmadef
eelsospecial
"

Vusi
:
Thenwhyar
eyoucr
yingmydear
"

Hewi
pedt
ear
sonmyf
ace

Me:
"Theyar
etear
sofj
oy"

Vusi
:"
Isee,
thenIguessi
t'
saboutt
imeIgav
e
yousomethingt
ocryabout"
Heki
ssedmyl
i
ps

Me:
"Lookunder
neat
hthebl
anket
s"

Hel
ooked

Vusi
:
"Ohl
uckyme,nowt
ell
meNt ombenhl
ehow
di
dyoucopewhenIwasnotar
ound??"

Me:"WellItr
iedt
ohol
dmy sel
fbutIcoul
d
not
,soIkindausedmyfi
ngersandsort
ed
myselfout"

Vusi:"
Mmm sot hat'
swhaty oudowhenI '
m not
around,y
oustuf
fy ourf
ingersi
nmycher ry,
you
havebeennaughtyNtombenhleandIwantt o
teachyoual
essony ouwi l
lneverf
orget
,t
ellme
howy
oudi
dit
"

Me:"
I.
..
wat
chedsomeporn.
..
.t
henIl
i
ckedmy
fi
nger
sanddir
ect
edthem t
omypussyrubbi
ng
agai
nstmycl
it
"

Vusi
:
"Li
ket
his?
?"

Hef
orcedmykneesapar
tandstart
edrubbi
ng
mycl
it
,f
ir
stl
yinsl
owmotions,
thenfast
er

Me:
"Yes.
..
yes"

Vusi
:"
Sodi dyouf
eel
bet
teraf
ter"
sor
ti
ng"
your
selfout?
?"

Het
hrobbedhi
stwof
inger
sinsi
demeandIf
elt
myor
gasm bui
l
dup

Me:"
No..
.ahhh.
..
I.
..
I.
..
I.
..
need.
.ed.
..somet
hing
st
ronger
"

Vusi
:"
Ohreall
y.
..Whatist
hat"
somet
hing
st
ronger
"Ntombenhle?
?"

Me:
"Oh!
!!
!I
t'
syourcock.
..
pleasedon'
tst
opI
'
m
r
eachi
ngmyor gasm"

Hest
oppedandl
i
ckedhi
sfi
nger

Vusi
:"
Mmm tast
y,
let
'ssl
eept
omor
rowi
s
anot
herday
"

What
??!
Aft
erdoi
ngt
hist
ome,
i
fhewant
smet
o
begf
ori
tthenIwi
l
l

Me:
"Noy
oucan'
tdot
hat
..
.pl
easebaby
"

Vusi
:
"Sl
eepi
t'
slat
e"

Me:
"No.
..
Iwanty
oui
nsi
deme"

Vusi
:"Todowhat
??"

Me:
"Tof
uckme.
..
"

Vusi
:"
Yougoty
ourf
inger
s..
.sodowhaty
oudo
best
"

Me:
"Okay
,I'
m sor
ryIwon'
tdoi
tagai
n"
Vusi
:
"Pr
omi
se"

Me:
"Ipr
omi
seI
'
llwai
tfory
ouIpr
omi
se"

Ican'
tbel
ieveIwasbeggi
ngf
ori
tbuty
ouknow
whatIdon'tcar
e

Vusi
:"
Per
fect
,Iwanty
ouony
oural
lfour
shur
ry
up!
!"

Idi
dast
old

Vusi
:"Not
hat
'snotr
ight
,chestdownandassup
doit
!!
"
Heposit
ionedmewel landt ooksometi
mej ust
l
ooki
ng,beforeIknewitIfeltahardspankon
oneofmybut tcheeks,
itstungli
keabeebut
wasgoodatt hesamet ime,Iscr
eamed,andthe
moreIscreamedt heharderthespanks

Vusi
:
"Shi
tyoudr
ippi
ngwetbaby
..
.ohy
eah"

Anot
herspankbutt
hist
imeher
ubbedi
t

Het
ookof
fhi
sboxer
sandv
est

Hekeptr ubbi
nghismemberagainstmeandI
felthowharditwas,
myimaginati
onjustran
wild,Iwi
shhecouldj
ustfuckmeandst op
playinggames,mywishcametrue,If
elthi
m
enterme
"
Isi
tal
li
n"
IaskedbecausewhatIf
eltwasr
eal
l
yhuge

"
Ntombenhley
ounev
erl
ear
ndoy
ou,
i
tjustt
he
t
ipal
ri
ght"

Inchestoi
nchesthenhewasful
lyinsi
deme,
poundingmefasterasmymoansgotl ouder
,I
reachedmythir
dorgasm andst
il
lhehasnot
cummedev enonce.
Hepickedmeupf r
om t hebed,
hel
dmet i
ghtly
andpinnedmeagainstthewall
wit
hmyl egson
hi
sshouldersandfuckedmehard,
Icoul
df eel
hi
swar m br
eathonmynakedbody

"
Ohbabyy
ousohotandgoodt
oo"
Hesai
dinbet
weenhi
sdeepgr
oans

From thewalltobeingdr oppedont hebed, hi

s
ball
ssmacki ngagainstmeandwi thmyf or
th
orgasm bui
ldingup,heuppedhi spaceandI
explodedasheal soreleasedinsidemeandl ay
ont opofmef orsomet i
mej ustkissi ngand
holdingmywai stti
ghtl
y ,
thenhepul ledout

Wentt
ofet
cht
het
owel
towi
pebot
hofus

"
SleepmysweetNt
ombenhl
e"

*
*Vusi
**

I
t'
snowaround04:
46inthemorning,
Ijust
wokeupandIcan'
thel
pbutrepl
aythescenes
thatt ookplaceear li
eron, Ilookundert he
blanket sandseet hatMrDi ckyisr eallyhungry
att hispoint,l
ookingatt hebeaut if
ul
Ntombenhl esleepingpeacef ull
y ,
If orceher
kneesapar tandst areathercher ry,iti
ssosmal l
andcut esomet imesIam ev enscar edt ofuckit
thinkingthatIwi ll
ripitapar t.Il
i
cki tandwr ap
myt onguear oundi t
,sheisget t
ingwetf orme,
eveni nhersl eep,shei snowdr ippingwetand
i
t'st i
met of eedMrDi cky,
Iputt het ipinandshe
wakesupmoani ngwhi cht urnedmeon

Rat
o:"
Vwhatar
eyoudoi
ng?
?"

Sher
ubbedherey
es

Me:
"Shhhgobackt
osl
eep"
Iwentful
l
yinandshegaspedf
orai
r,
fast
erand
fast
erIwent

Rat
o:"
Aaah,VIhaveclassandIdi
d..
..
not
sl
eep.
..
.Ahhgofaster
"

Shet ol
dmeexactl
ywhatIintendedtodo,Iwas
nowpoundingevenfast
eri
nsi deherunt
ilshe
reachedheror
gasm andIr
eleasedtoo

Me:
"Restf
ornowsweet
hear
t"

Ihel
dhercl
oset
omeandki
ssedherf
orehead

Me:
"Il
ovey
ou"

Iwhi
sper
edi
nherear
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*Ler
ato*
*

Iti
snowmor ningandSbuandSi hlehave
alr
eadygonet oschool.Ijustgotoutofthe
showerIhavecl assin40mi nut
esandIguess
Mphoi sonhiswayt ofet chme.Vusi j
oinedme
i
nt heshowerandIbety ouknowwhatwent
downinthere.Iam nowbusyl ot
ioni
ngandhe
wasstari
ngatme. .
.

Vusi
:
"Doy
ouenj
oyt
empt
ingme?
?"

Me:
"Whatdi
dIdo"

Vusi
:
"Wi
ggl
i
ngt
hathugeassi
nfr
ontofme"
Me:
"Ohsowantt
hisass"

It
wer
kedi
nfr
ontofhi
m,j
ustt
easi
nghi
m

Vusi:
"Si
l
lybabe,
gof
etchmywat
chont
he
ki
tchencounter
"

Iwentt
othekit
chent
ofetchhiswat
ch,
next
thi
nghehuggedmefrom behi
nd

Me:
"Letmegodr
ess"

Vusi
:
"No,
canIhav
eat
ast
eofy
ouonel
astt
ime
"

Me:
"NoVI
'
m gonnabel
ate"
Vusi:
"Ntombenhl
etheBi
blesaysaskandy
ou
shall
recei
vebuti
fyoudon'tgi
vei
ttomeI'
ll
takeit
"

Hescoopedmeupandputmeont heki
tchen
counter,
thensl
i
ppedhi
scocki
nsi
demeand
fuckedmegood

Pee,
Peee
Mphohasar
ri
ved

Vusi
:"I
'
llt
akey
ou"
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e

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*

Ifeelsoooogood, I'
m sexy,
I'
m gl
owing,I
'm
cute,
heyI '
m athehappiestgir
lonEarthall
becauseofmyl ovel
yhusbandwhom Iador e
withallmybeing.Vusiwassor oughonmel ast
ni
ght, t
odayearlyinthemor ni
ngandbef or
eI
wentt oschoolbutyouknowwhat .
..
Ienj
oy ed
everysinglemoment ,Ireal
l
ylovehim heismy
soulmate.

Backtoreali
tymyhusbandjustdroppedmeof f
atschoolandI'
ml i
kefiv
eminuteslate.
..
nobi
g
deal.
..
Ient
ertheclassandt
het hatnewlect
urer
stopsmei mmediatel
y.
..

"
Litt
leMissy
,fi
rst
lyy
oudidn'
tl
ist
enwhenI
t
alked,
nowy ouarel
atef
ormyclass"
Me:
"Sor
ryI
'
mlat
eSi
ritwon'
thappenagai
n"

"Yesi
twon'tbecauseyouwon'
tbeher
e,l
eave
myclass,
Icanclearl
yseeyouar
enotser
ious
aboutt
hislawdegree"

Me:"
I'
m sor
ry,
i
fIkeepl
eav
ingt
hecl
assI
'
llf
all
behi
nd"

"
Thati
snoneofmybusi
nessl
eav
e!!
"

Il
eftt
heroom,whydoest
hisguyhat
emeso
much??Whatwrongdi
dIdotohim??

"
Andy
ouwhat
'swi
tht
hef
unnywal
k"
Il
ookedupandi
t'
sMpho

Me:
"Heyy
ouwhyar
eyounoti
ncl
ass?
?"

Mpho:"MrM i
snother
e,don'
trunawayf
rom t
he
quest
ionwhat'
swit
hthewalk??"

Me:
"Not
hingmyl
egsar
eti
red"

Mpho:
"Ly
ingVusi
deal
twi
thy
ou,
"
Hel
aughed

Me:
"Okayf
ine,
her
eal
l
yki
l
ledme"

Mpho:
"Yougot
tagetusedt
oit
"
Me:
"DudeIcan'
ti
t'
sli
kei
tgr
owsov
erni
ght"

Mpho:"
Lol
,l
etmegofet
chmygir
lit
'sherf
ir
st
appoi
ntmentwi
tht
hedoct
ort
oday"

Heat
tempt
edt
oleav
e

Me:"
Hubby,I'
m pr
oudofy
ouf
orst
eppi
ngup
andaccept
ingthi
sasaman"

Mpho:
"That
'sbecauseIgotanear
ful
from y
ou
Wi
fey,
damny oucanshout"

Me:"
Giv
emeahugdummy (
wehugged,
)Iknow
you'
l
lbeagr
eatf
ather"

Hel
eft
Ij
ustremai
nedinf
rontoft
hecl
asshopi
ngt
hat
l
ectur
erwil
lcal
lmein

[
PhoneRi
ngs]

[
MOM]

Me:"
Myfav
ori
tel
adyi
nthewor
ld,
howy
ou
doi
ng??
"

Mom: "
I'
m goodsweet
hear
t,um.
..
somet
hing
ha.
.ppened"

Herv
oicebecamecr
ackyandshest
art
edcr
ying
Me:"
Mom t
alkt
omewhat
'swr
ong?
?Ar
eyou
okay
??"

Mom:
"I
..
.can'
t,
I'
m s.
.o.
.r
..
r.
.ybaby"

Shecr
iedpai
nful
l
y
AndIst
art
edget
ti
ngwor
ri
ed

Me:
"Mamahl
ebot
hat
akeng?
?"

Mom:"BokamosoandBohlal
e..
.theyare
si
ck,
verysi
ckwejustgotatt
hehospitalnow
andi
tdoesnotlookgood"

Me:
"Mot
herwhathappened?
?"
Mom:"Theydi
dnotmov
e,t
heyl
ookedpal
e,
they
,
t
hey.
..
"

Thent
heconnect
ionbr
oke

Tear
sstar
tedstreami
ngdownmyf
ace,
notmy
babi
esohlor
d,notmybabi
es

Ical
l
edVusi

Me:"
Vpl ease
comeandf et
chmesomet
hingr
eal
l
ybadhappened
tomybabies"
Vusi:
"Cal
m downNt
ombenhl
eIcan'
theara
thi
ng"

Me:
"Comef
etchmenowpl
ease!
!"

Vusi
:
"OkayI
'
m onmyway
,whyar
eyoucr
ying?
?"

Me:
"JustcomeI
'
llexpl
ainev
ery
thi
ng"

If
oundmy
sel
fonmykneescr
ying

"
Hey
,Mi
ssywhat
'swr
ong?
?"

Thatl
ect
urercamet
owar
dsme

Me:
"Leav
emeal
one"
"Lookifi
t'
sregar
dingmekicki
ngyououtof
classt
henI'
m sor
ry,youcancomein"

Real
l
y??

Me:
"Igotgr
eaterprobl
emst
hant
hat
,pl
ease
l
eav
emeal one,okay!
!"

Vusi:
"Whati
sgoi
ngonher
e??Heymanar
eyou
gi
vingmywifepr
obl
ems??"

Me:
"No,
hewasj
ustl
eav
ing"

Vusi
ledmet
othecar
Vusi
:
"Whoi
sthatguy
??"

Ir
emai
nedqui
et

Vusi
:"Nt
ombenhl
e??
"

Me:"
Justdri
vetothehospit
alandstopaski
ng
st
upidquest
ions,
mybabi esaresi
ck!"

Vusi
:
"Oh.
..
.I
'
m sor
rybabyIdi
dn'
tknow"

Me:
"i
t'
scool
,
sor
ryf
orsnappi
ngaty
ou"

Wethendr
ovet
othehospi
tali
nsi
l
ence,arri
ved
andf
oundmom,dadandKabel
oal
readythere
Me:
"Whati
sgoi
ngon?
?Whathappened?
?"

Mom:
"Wear
est
il
lwai
ti
ngf
ort
hedoct
or"

Wewai
ted
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Doc:
"Mr
sNkosi
??"

Me:"Yest
hat'
sme,
pleasetel
lmewhat
happenedtomybabies"

Doc:"Wehaver unthet estsandunfort

unatel
y
wef oundachronicbrai ntumoronbothof
them,I'
m af
rai
dt osayt hisbutwecan'tdo
anythi
ngabouti t
,i
t'
sbey ondourpower s,
it'
s
eit
heryouswi t
chof fthemachi nesorhopethey
will
wakeup, I
'
m sor r
y"

Me:"No!!!
!St
opsayingal lt
hoset
hings!
!!
Stop!
!!
Mybabi eswill
surviv
e, comeBophelomybaby
yourbrotherswil
lbefine"

*
*Vusi
**
SometimesIj
ustdon'
tgethowGod
oper
ates,
mytwoboy st
hixo
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*

Doy ouknowt hepainofbur yingyourown

chil
dren?? Thepainofnotknowi ngwhatwent
wrong? ?Thepai nofnotbeingabl etosay
goodby e.Ialway sheartal
esofhowamazi ng
Godi s,
howhewor ksinmy steri
ousway sbut
thenthequest ionsthatcurrentl
yoccursinmy
mindi s,whereisGodwhenpeopl edie??Where
washewhenmypoorbabi esdied??Thisthing
i
ssosad, Ican'
tbest rongany more,
Ijust.
..
Asther i
ghtful parentIdeci dedt oswi t
cht he
machi nesofonMonday ,t
her ewasnochange
what '
ssoev erandIf elti
tinmyhear tthatmy
babiesneededt or esti
npeace, i
thurtmev ery
muchseei ngt hem i nthatposi tion,onthe
hospital bedwi thoutmov i
ng, talkingorjust
gi
v i
ngmet heirbestsmi l
es. I
twashar dbuti t
hadt odone, noonecanunder standmyhat red
andf r
ust rati
onov ermy selfatt hispoint.
Ihav e
donemanybadt hingsinli
f eIdeser ve
everythingcomi ngmyway ,i
t'
scool I'
ve
accept edit.

I
tisnowWednesdayandwej ustcamef r
om the
f
uneral
,whenthecasketswentdownIwant ed
t
oscream andgetthem outofthere,
Ijustst
ood
t
hereandwatchedmypr i
deandj oyfadeaway .
..

Me:
"YouknowBophel
omyboy
,youar
ethel
ast
manstandi
ngnow,Ineedy
out
odomeaf
avour
pl
easedon'
tleav
eme"

Isayallt
hisl
ooki
ngatthepeacef
ulBophel
o,he
hasalwaysbeenthecal
m one,
hejustsmil
ed
andlookedaway

"
Canwet
alk?
?"

Il
ookbehi
ndmeandspotThendo

Me:
"Tal
k"

Thendo:"
I'
m sor
ryyouhadtogothroughal
lthi
s
al
one,i
fIcouldt
urnbackthehandsofti
me,I
would.
.."
Icuthi
m of
f

Me:"
LookyouandIar enotf
riendssoitwould
behi
ghlyappreci
atedify
ouleavebecauseyou
di
sgustmeandaboutBophel oI'
ll
seey oui
n
cour
tforf
ullcust
ody"

Thendo:"Ler
atoIunderst
andthatyouare
hurti
ng,andyoucanhav eful
lcust
odyof
BopheloonlyifIcangettheoppor
tuni
tyto
i
ntroducehimt omyancestorsandpay
maintenance"

Me:"
I'
m noti
ntheri
ghtst
ateofmindtomake
hast
ydecisi
ons,
soI'
ll
getbackt
oy ou"

Thendo:
"OkaycanIhol
dhi
m??
"
Me:
"Youhav
e5mi
nut
es"

I
'
llcont
inue
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Cont
..
.

*
*Vusi
**

Myhear ti
sbl eedi
ng, ourboy sarenowon
Earth'scoldestsur face.Youshoul dhaveseen
Ntombenhl esher eallyistryi
ngt oputonthe
strongv ersi
onofher selfbutdeepdownIknow
thatsher eall
ycan' thandl ethepainfori
t'
stoo
muchf orher.Atthi stimeshei sver
yfuri
ous
andheremot i
onsar eallovertheplace,
soI
totall
yunder standitwhenshei sharshover
me, someonehast obeherpunchi ngbagandI '
l
l
beher sifthatwi l
lmakeherf eelanybett
er.
..
Si
hle:
"Dad?
?"

Me:
"Yespr
incess"

Sihl
e:"
Wil
lMot
herbeokay
??,
I
'mr
eal
l
ywor
ri
ed
abouther"

Me:"
Yourmot
herwi
l
lbef
inej
ustgi
vehert
ime
okay
"

Si
hle:
"Butwhatdi
dshet
odeser
veal
lthi
s??
She
i
sagoodper son"

Iwi
shIhadt
heanswer
sforherbutmyheadi
s
bl
ank

Me:
"Looki
t'
slat
egopr
epar
etosl
eepy
ou
wri
ti
ngmathemati
cstomor
rowIhopey
ou
pr
acti
cedwell
enough"

Si
hle:
"Okay
..
.pl
easet
ell
herIl
oveher
"

Me:
"Wi
l
ldosl
eept
ightpr
incess"

Si
hle:
"Yout
oodaddy
"

Si
hlelef
tandSbuwasst il
lthererest
inghis
eyesbutonecouldseethathei snotfi
ne..
.And
asafatherIhavetomakesur ethatyourki
ds
ar
ef i
neatallt
imes

Me:
"What
'sony
ourmi
ndboy
??"

Sbu:
"Um.
..
ohPopsIj
ustf
eel
soheav
y,ImeanI
kindablamemy selffort
hedeathofBokamoso
andBohl al
e,theysayt hegreat
estpowerison
thetongue,rememberwhenIt oldSi
sLerato
thatal
lherbabi eswi l
ldi
e,nowtwohasdiedand
therei
sonel eft.It
hinkshehatesmebecause
shenev ert
alkst omel atel
y"

[
Ler
atoEnt
ers]

Rato:
"SbumyboyIdon'
thateyou,
it
'sjustt
hatI
havebeenoutofmymindlatel
ybutit
'snotyour
faul
t,pl
easest
opbl
amingyoursel
f,t
hishas
nothi
ngtodowithy
ou"

Sbu:
"Okaythanks.
..
I'
l
lgosleepnow,feel
i
ng
muchbet t
er,
ni
ghtdad,ni
ghtmom. .
.um Imean
Si
sLerato"
IsawNtombenhl
esmi
l
east
othewaySbu
addr
essedher

Rat
o:"
Giv
emeahugbat
hongSbu"

Theyhugged

Sbul
eftf
orbed

Me:
"Howdoy
ouf
eel
rightnow?
?"

Rat
o:"
Likedy
ing"

Me:"
Sorryf
oryourl
oss,
whatcanIdot
omake
youfeel
bett
er??"
Rato:"Not
hingreally,
Ij
usthavetoaccepti tand
mov eon,um. .
.babeIalsowanty out oknow
thatIappreci
atey oubeingthereformet hrough
allt
hesehor r
ibleti
mesIknowt hatIdon'tshow
grati
tudebutthent hankyou,y
ouhav ebeen
mor ethanahusbandt omebutabi gbrother
andbestf r
iend.BokamosoandBohl alewoul d
wantmet obehappyandst r
ongf orthei
r
brothersothatiswhatI '
m doing"

Me:
"Okay
,l
et'
sgot
obed"

Rat
o:"
Car
rymet
obed,
may
beI
'
llf
eel
much
bet
ter
"

Me:
"Nowt
hisi
sbr
iber
y"

Shel
aughed
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It
'sabr andnewweekandIhav ebeensuper
over protectiv
et owar dsBophel o, yeahheis
l
ivingwi t
hmenowpl easedon' tblamemeIj ust
can'taf fordtolooseanot herchildagai ncan
your eal l
yi magi
net hatoutof6Inowonl yhav e
onel eftbutt hensuchi sli
feIhav etowor kwi t
h
whatIhav e.Ther eare5possi blest agesofgr ief
andIwoul dli
ket obr i
efyexplainhowIgot
throught hem allfir
stly,"
DENI AL"Iwasso
fuckedupt oapoi ntwher ebyIcoul dnot
believei t,Iwassay ingt omy selfthatitisalie
andi blamedmy sel
ff oreverything,Iwouldask
my selfev erynightast owhywoul dGodbl ess
mewi thsext
upl
etsbutki
l
lthem onebyone,
I
passedthedeni
alst
ageandenteredanew
stage.
"ANGER"
Iwast ooangr y,fr
ustrati
onruledmywor ldat
thatpar t
icularpointIwoul dbreakev eryt
hingI
sawandber eadytofaceGodandt ellhi
mt o
hisfacet hatIhat ehim,Iaskedmy sel fwhy
woul dhesayweshoul dnotkillbutt henhe
doessamet hingandki ll
smybabi es.Then
camet hest ageof" DEPRESSI ON"bei ngtoo
attachedt oBophel omypoorboycoul dnot
evenbr eat hIwasal loverhim,themomentI
heardadodgysoundIwoul drunt of etchhimin
hisroom andwat chhim sleep.Onewoul dswear
Iwasgoi ngcr azy.
Then" BARGAI NI NG"Ibegan
preparingmy selftohealandbei ngt hebest
LeratoIcoul deverbeaf t
erthatst agecame
"ACCEPTANCE"I '
m notdonewi ththatst ageyet
I'
mt il
lint hatroutetocompl etei tbutt obe
honestI '
mf eeli
ngmuchbet teralreadyIj ust
mi
ssmyhusbandandki
dst
hough

Incasey oudi
dn'
tknowmymot herinlawt ook
mewi thhertoKwaZuluNatalwhereshe
treatedmeandwegott oknoweachot herabit
,Igetal ongsoperfect
lywit
hmyf atherin
l
aw, theguyadoresme. Ihavebeenself
study i
ngandgoingbackt oLimpopotowr iteso
ev er
y t
hingisi
norderwi t
hschool.

LikeIsaidImi ssmyki dsandhusbandv ery

much, Ijustcan'twaittol eavethisplace.Don'
t
getmewr ongit '
sfunher ebutmyi n-l
awsar e
naughtysor rytosayt hatt heyare,al
way s
talki
ngaboutsexandki ssi nfr
ontofmeIat
thatpointmyl i
bidolev elsjustri
set oa
crescendo( Letswailangny esasfapano)...

"
Makot
idi
dyoucook?
?"
Sheaskedent
eri
ngmyr
oom whi
l
eIwas
l
oti
oning.
..

Me:"
YeboMa,thebreakf
asti
sont
het
abl
eIj
ust
hadtotakeaquickshower
"

Ma:"Thati
sverymatureofyoumakoti
,awoman
cannoteatherbr
eakfasti
npajamas"

Me:
"YessowhencanIgohome?
?"

Ma:
"Youar
ehome"

Me:
"YouknowwhatImeanMa"
Ma:"
AwoooMakotiI
'
m sti
ll
enj
oyi
ngyour
company
,youl
ikeadaught
ert
ome,pleasest
ay
afewmoreday
s"

Me:
"Li
keIcansaynot
oyouMa,
I
'l
lst
ay"

Ma:"Okaygetdr
essed,
Mmm Icanseemysoni
s
eat
ingfreshmeat"

Me:
"Ma!
!"

Ma:
"I
t'
str
uenowonderheget
sfat
"

Me:
"OkayMa,
canIgetdr
essednow?
?"

Shel
aughedandl
eftt
her
oom
I
'm atmyin-
lawsIhavetol
ookrespectf
ulsoI
woreablackfi
gur
ehuggingdr
esswi t
hmy
bl
ackVansandabl uedeni
mj acket,
myhair
wasamessIwr appedadoekonmyheadand
bef
oreIwentdownstai
rsVusi
v i
deocall
edme

Vusi
:
"MyLady
..
."

Me:
"MyLor
d..
."

Vusi
:
"Howhav
eyoubeen?
?"

Me:
"I
'm goodasy
oucansee,
your
sel
f??
"
Vusi
:
"I'
m goodbutImi
ssy
out
hough"

Me:
"Imissy
out
oobuty
oudi
dn'
ttakemycal
l
s
why
? ?
"

backgr
oundvoi
ce:"
Vusihurr
yup,Ineedtogo
tothemall
andI'
m gonnasucky
oudr ylov
er
boy"

Awoman'
svoi
ce?
?

Vusi
:
"Um.
..
cal
lyoul
ater
,Il
ovey
ou"

Me:
"Vusi
whoist
hatwoman?
?Ar
eyoucheat
ing
onme??.
.."

Heabor
tedt
hecal
l
I
fheischeat
ingonmeI
'
m gonnaki
l
lhi
m and
hi
sfucki
ngwhore

Iwentdownst
air
stoj
oint
hef
ami
l
yfor
breakf
ast
..

Pa:
"Nt
ombenhl
elooki
ngbeaut
if
ulasal
way
s"

Me:
"Thanky
ou"

Iwasnownoti nt
hemoodf orfoodIwasj
ust
rephrasi
ngwhatthatwomanwassay ingt
omy
husband" Vusi
hurr
yup..
..
I'
m gonnasuckyou
dryloverboy"
ButVusi
wouldnotdot
hatbutwhydi
dhehang
uponme? ?
Ma:
"Sowhenwasourgr
andsonconcei
ved?
?"

Pa:"
Yestel
lus,
wewanttogowit
hyouf
ora
checkupsometime,
Ntombenhl
e"

Me:
"Whatgr
andson?
?"

Theyl
aughed

Ma:"Youarereal
lygoodatacti
ng,
youtri
edto
hi
dei tbutwesawt hesymptoms,youare
gett
ingfatt
er,
yousleepal
ot,youaregl
owing,
onemi nut
ey ouaresadandtheotheryouare
happyandy oueatforAf
ri
ca"

Me:
"What
??I
'
m notpr
egnant
,noi
tcan'
tbe,
I
'm
not
"

Pa:"
Dropt
heactNt
ombenhl
eweseer
ight
thr
oughyou"

Theylaughedwhi
letouchi
ngmyt
ummyand
pl
ayingwithmycheeks

Me:
"Excuseme"

Il
eftt
her
oom andwenttomyroom and
dumpedmysel
fonthebed,
nooooi
tcan'
tbe
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*Vusi
**

Todaywasav eryfunfil
l
eddayIgott hechance
toenjoymy sel
fwiththekidsandmycousi n
Nompi lo,shecameonSat urdaymor ningand
thekidsar esohappymet ooit'sbeenl ong
sinceIsawandbondedwi thher .
Sheisoneof
mycr aziestcousinsandshemademer eal
i
se
somet hingthatIforgottodof orNtombenhl e,
I
can'tevenIf or
gotthat..
.

Nompilo:"
Loverboy,
I'
m sosadthatIcoul
dn't
meetNt ombenhleandworseI'
ml eavi
ngforLA
t
onight"

Me:
"What
??Youl
eav
ingt
oday
??"

Nompi
l
o:"
Yeahy
ouknowwor
kingont
heCr
uise
i
shecti
cbutthendon'
tforgettogi
ve
Ntombenhl
emygiftandtellherIl
oveher
"

Me:
"OkaythenIguesswe'
l
lseey
ouagai
naf
ter
t
enyears"

Nompi lo:
"St
opbeingli
kethat
,youknowmy
gir
lfr
iendmissesme,bythewayI '
m mar
ryi
ng
thatchickbroi
t'
sbeenlongandIl ov
eherdude"

Me:
"Congr
atul
ati
onsni
gga,
tr
eatherwel
l
"

Nompil
o:"
I'
ll
sendy
ouguy
sinv
itat
ionsassoon
asIl
and"

Me:
"Okayl
et'
schi
l
lforowt
hen"
Nompi
l
o:"
Sur
eIgot6hour
stospar
e"

Wechill
edjustwatchi
ngsoccermatchesand
dri
nki
ngsomebur ningli
quor,
nowthisiswhatI
cal
lchi
ll
ing

I'
l
lcall
Ntombenhl
elat
ermyai
rt
imedepl
eted
earl
i
er

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Noooothisthi
ngofVusi
doesnotwanttol
eave
mymind,I'
m goi
nghometodaymyin-
lawswil
l
havet
of orgi
veme

Ipackedmystuffandt
ookmybooksthen
bathedBophel
o,gav
ehi
m somet
hingt
oeatthen
car
ri
edhi
m onmyback.
..

Me:
"Ma,
PaI
'
mleav
ing"

Ma:
"Whysosudden?
?"

Me:
"Ihav
etot
akecar
eofmyownl
i
ttl
efami
l
y"

Pa:
"Sohowar
eyougonnagett
her
e??
"

Me:
"I'
l
ltakeat
axi
"

Pa:"
Lookletmegi
veyout
hekey
st otheSUV
thenthatwayy
ou'
l
lbeabl
etodr
iveyoursel
f"

Me:
"No.
..
um.
..
Ican'
ttakey
ourcar
"
Ma:"
TakeitNtombenhl
eIcanseeyoureal
ly
wanttogo,butbeokayandt
akecareofour
gr
andson"

Me:
"MaI
'
m notpr
egnantIswear"

Pa:
"Okayher
ear
ethekey
s,t
rav
elsaf
e"

Me:
"Thanks,
Il
ovey
ouguy
s"

Theysmil
edandaccompaniedmet othecar
andIdrovei
npeacel
isteni
ngtoBeyoncethe
l
adythatcal
msmymi ndandsoul whenIwant
toki
ll
someone'
sson,Idri
veforsometime..
.

[
PhoneRi
ngs]
Me:
"Mpho?
?"

Mpho:
"Woahwhathappenedt
ohubby
??"

Me:
"Sor
rymahnbabeswhat
'
sup?
?"

Mpho:
"Al
li
sgoodIjustmissedyouandyour
cr
azi
nesswhenar
ey oucomi ngback?
?"

Me:
"I
'm headi
ngther
enowsowe'l
lmeet
t
omorrowIdon'thav
ecl
assany
way "

Mpho:"
Okayar
eyousur
eyouar
efi
net
hough?
?
Yousounddown"
Me:"
I'
mjustf
uckedupaboutwhatmyi
n-l
aws
sai
d"

Mpho:"Car
etoshar
ethesenewst
hatbr
oke
yoursoull
i
kethi
s"

Me:
"Theyt
hinkI
'
m pr
egnantdude"

Mpho:
"Ar
eyou?
?"

Me:
"Don'
ttel
lmey
ouar
esi
dingwi
tht
hem"

Mpho:"
Broyou'
vebeenupanddownandar
e
get
ti
ngbig"

Me:"
StopitMphostopsayi
ngthatokay,
Iam not
pr
egnantandifam Iwoul
dter
minatethebaby,I
don'
twantachi
l
dMpho"

Mpho:
"Chi
llj
ustt
akeat
estt
obeont
hebr
ight
er
si
deokay"

Me:
"Mx
m by
e"

Mpho:
"Ical
l
edwi
thmyai
rt
imesoI
'
llbet
heone
t
ohangup"

Me:"Okayt
heny
ou'
l
ltal
ktoy
our
sel
fI'
m madat
you"

Il
efthi
mtal
ki
ngt
ohi
msel
fthi
sguyt
hough

*
*Vusi
**
Wehadf un,
f unisthehi ghlightoftoday,
so
Nompi l
oi sal esbi
anshehasbeenonef rom a
veryyoungageev ennowatage31shei sst i
ll
one.Atfir
stsheconf usedmebutt henIgrewt o
understandher, she'scool oncey ouaresitti
ng
wit
hhery ouwoul dev enf orgetthatsheisa
female.Heronl ypr obl
em i sthatsheisapl ayer
she'sgotal ustfuleyefort heladieswhichis
whyI '
m surpr i
sedthatshe' ssettli
ngdownI
guesspeopl egr ow...

Nompi
l
o:"
Goal
!!
!!
"

Me:
"Naht
heygotl
uckymahn"

Nompi
l
o:"
Justaccepti
t"
Me:
"Mx
m"

[
DoorOpens]

Ntombenhl
ecomesinandput
sthebabyasi
de
andcomeslashi
ngoutonme

Rat
o:"
Wher
eissheVusi
???
Wher
eisshe?
?"

Me:
"Who?
?Whatar
eyouonabout
??"

Rat
o:"Yourwhorey
our"
I'
m gonnasucky
oudr
y"
whereisshe??
"

Me:"
Waitchi
ll
,
thatwasmycousin,Nompil
o,she
i
slesbi
anI'
m notcheat
ingorany
thing"
Rato:"
Um..
.sor
rybutdon'ty
oudarehangupon
meagain,
I'
llki
l
l y
ouf orr
eal
,hel
l
oumm. .
.what
'
s
yournameagain??"

Nompil
o:"
It'
sNompiloandy oumustbethe
f
eist
ybutyetexqui
sit
elyhotNtombenhl
e"

Me:
"Yeaht
hat
'sme"

Nompil
o:"
Youarereal
l
ybeaut
if
ulImustsay
Vusi
chosewel
l,
giv
emeahug"

TheyhuggedandNompil
otouchedNt
ombenhl
e
'
sassandsheslappedher

Rat
o:"
Don'
tev
erdot
hatshi
tbi
tch"
Ntombenhl
epul
l
edmei
ntoadeepki
sst
henl
eft
t
heroom

Nompi
l
o:"
Wow!
!"

Me:
"It
oldy
oushedoesnott
akeanyshi
t"

Nompil
o:"
ButdudeNt ombenhl
eismor efine
thanmyownl ady
,andherbodybroohshit!!
The
assdudepleasegivehert
ome, please"

Shewentdownonherknees

Me:
"Dr
eam On"
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eLov
e
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t61

*
*Vusi
**

Aft eraccompany i
ngNompi lotot heairportI
wentst r
aightt omybr okenhear tedwi fe.I
t'
sso
funnyt hatNt ombenhl ereall
ythoughtt hatI
woul dcheatonher, itwasapr ankguy s
Nompi l
oandIpl annedt hecheat i
ngpr ankon
Nt ombenhl eandi treall
ywor ked,shewas
fumi ngy ou'
dsweart hatshewasi nitt
oki l
l
somesonebutImanagedt ocal m herdown. My
wif eisreall
yf eistythoughandIl ov eherasshe
i
sbutonaser iousnot eIwoul dnev ercheaton
Nt ombenhl eIdoknowt hatnoonei sper f
ect,
I
'm
alsonotper f
ectbutf ait
hfulnessmeansal otto
me.
Me:
"Soy
our
eal
l
ymadatmeNt
ombenhl
e??"

Rat
o:"
Yes.
..Youbr
okemyhear
t"

Me:"
ButItoldyouitwasaprank
sweethear
t,
pleasedon'
tbemad"

Rat
o:"
Don'
tev
erspeakt
omeagai
n"

Me:
"Soy
ouwon'
tspeakt
ome?
"

Shenodded

Me:
"Ev
eni
fIdot
his?
?"

It
ickl
edher
Shei
gnor
edi
t,
keptt
hel
aught
eri
nsi
de

Me:
"Okayl
etmef
indt
het
ickl
i
shspott
he
t
ummy "

Shebur
sti
ntol
aught
er

Rat
o:"
Okayst
op,
I'
ll
speakwi
thy
oubabe"

Me:
"Am If
orgi
ven?
?"

Rat
o:"
Yes,
yesbutI
'
llgety
ou"

Me:
"Thanky
oubutnomor
epr
ankspl
ease"

Rat
o:"
We'
l
lseeaboutt
hat
"
[
PhoneRi
ngs]
(
Mom)

Mom:
"Hel
l
omysexyi
diot
"

Me:
"Mom!
!"

Mom:"Imi
ssy
ouboy
,di
dNt
ombenhl
ear
ri
ve
saf
ely
??"

Me:
"Yesdi
dn'
tshecal
lyouguy
s??
"

Mom:
"NoIguessshei
sst
il
lmadatmef
or
cr
acki
ngt
hepr
egnancynews"

Me:
"Whatar
eyouonaboutmot
her
??"

Mom: "
Vusimyboy ,
takealookatyourwi
fe'
s
act
ionslat
ely
,tht
hedr ast
icwei
ghtgain,
theway
sheeats"

Me:"
Mom youareov
err
eact
ingNt
ombenhl
e
woul
dhavetol
dme"

Mom:
"May
beshewant
stosur
pri
sey
ou"

Me:
"Andy
ouj
ustr
uinedt
hesur
pri
set
hen"

Mom:
"Justwat
chhercar
eful
l
yby
e"
Sheabor
tedt
hecal
l
Rat
ocamei
n

Rat
o:"
Arey
ouf
ine,
youl
ookwei
rd"

Me:
"I
'm goody
ousl
eepi
ngsoear
ly?
"

Rato:"
MyloveI'
dlovet
ori
dey
ourcockt
oni
ght
butI'
m ext
remel
ytir
ed"

Il
aughed

Me:
"Youcr
azybr
o"

Shedr
if
tedi
ntosl
eep
*
*Ler
ato*
*

Me:
"Can'
taper
sont
akehershoweri
npeace?
?"

Mpho:
"St
opbei
ngl
i
ket
hisdude.
..
I'
vebeen
wai
ti
ng"

Me:"
I'
llbeoutokay
,I
'm dr
essi
ngnowandI
'
lleat
br
eakfastj
ustbepati
ent"

Mpho:
"Justf
ini
shupwi
fey
"

Iabor
tedt
hecal
l
Dressedi
ntomyblackskinnyjeans,mybl
ack
snugsandyel
lowtracktopandahoodi et
hen
wenttotheki
tchenforsomethingtoeat

Vusi
:
"Fi
nal
l
y,comeeatImadebr
eakf
ast
"

Me:
"Looksdel
i
cious,
letmedi
gin"

Isuddenl
yhadanur
gtopuke

Vusi
:
"Yougood?
?"

Me:
"Yeaht
heseeggsar
e..
.eww"

Ir
ant
othebat
hroom t
opuke
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ct: Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

I
nser
t62

*
*Ler
ato*
*

MyclassforthedayjustendedandI '
m Ihavea
gr
eatplanupmysl eevetogetVusi aboutthe
pr
ankthingifhereall
ythi
nksthatit
'soverI
wanttoshowhi m.Justwatchthi
sspace.

"
Nkosi
pleasest
aybehi
nd"

Me:
"Whatdoy
ouwant
??"

Hi
m:"
I'
m notgonnabi
tey
ourheadof
fsor
elax
"
Me:
"Youwast
ingmyt
imeSi
r"

Him:"
Pleasesitdown,Iwantt
oapologi
zeforthe
wayIhav ebeentreat
ingyou.
Youreal
lydi
dn't
deser
vet hatki
ndoftreat
ment"

Me:
"Thenwhydi
dyoudoi
t??
"

Him:"
Ithoughty
ouwer
eoneoft
heser
ebel
l
ious
younggirl
s"

Me:"
WellI
'
m not,
whaty
oudi
dreal
l
yhur
tmet
o
behonest
"

Him:
"Okayli
keIsai
dIf
eel
bad,canIt
akey
ou
outf
ordinnert
omakeupfori
t"
Me:
"No"

Hi
m:"
Comeon"

Het
ri
edt
oki
ssme

Me:
"No!
!Fr
eak!
!"

Hi
m:"
Justbemi
ne"

Me:"I'
m mar ri
edokay,seetheri
ng(Iwav
edi ti
n
hisface)it'
snotfordecorati
on,
andoht r
ythat
againI'
llcutyourdickoff
,chopit
,cooki
tthen
feedittoy oursor
ryass"
Il
efttheroom ,
don'
twor
ryy
our
sel
fnowIki
ck
assifyoutryt
odosomethi
ngf
unnyt
ome

Ilef
twi t
hMphoandhi sgirlf
ort hecheckup
andwehear dthebaby '
shear tbeatandthings
gotintensetearsofjoyrolleddownt hef acesof
thesetwosoont obepar ents.Theysharet rue
l
ov eandt heyarejustperfectforeach
other,
thei
rbabywi llbeauti
fulandcut e.

Me:
"Thati
smagi
cal
,
imeant
hehear
tbeat"

Doc:
"Iknow,
yougotanyofy
ourown?
?"

Me:
"Yeahsi
xboy
s,but5passedon"

Doc:
"Sor
rybutl
ookont
hebr
ight
ersi
dey
oust
il
l
y
oungandy
ouwi
l
lgetpr
egnantagai
n"

Me:
"Your
ight
"

WeleftanddroppedNosiathomebecauseshe
f
eltsi
ck,buti
t'
snobigdeali
t'
spregnancy

Wearri
vedatmyhouseandwewer efi
nishi
ng
t
hefoodinthehouse,Si
hleandSbuwentto
t
hei
rgrandpar
entssinceitst
heJunehol
idays

Me:
"Remembert
hatf
avourIsai
dI'
l
lasky
ou?
?"

Mpho:
"Yeaht
alkt
ome"

Me:
"It
oldy
out
hatVpr
ankedmer
ight
??"
Mpho:
"Yeahandy
ouwantt
ogethi
m??
"

Me:"
YeahandIwaswonder i
ngi
fyoucoul
dhel
p
meout,seeit
'sacheati
ngprankandsi
ncewe
ar
ecloseitwi
llbebel
ieveabl
e"

Mpho:
Nodon'
tgetmei
nvol
vedVusi
wil
lscr
ew
meup"

Me:"
Pl easelooki
t'
seasywel eaveourcl
othesi
n
her
et hatwillf
uckhim upimmediatel
y,t
henwe
gotot hebedroom andIwearalinger
ie.
When
hecomeswegetunder cov
ersandIpret
endli
ke
I
'mridingitandmoanl oudly,
nobigdeal"

Mpho:
"Idon'
tl
iket
hisatal
lbutI
'
lldoi
tjustt
o
makeyouhappy"
Me:
"Thanky
oumyf
ri
end.
"

*
*Vusi
**

Ij
ustcameoutofar oughmeeti
ngaboutthe
cur
rentf
ossi
lthathasbeenfound,ohGodlet
menotboreyouguy swit
hthedetail
s

Iam nowatthecl
ubwi
thThendohav
ingsome
fi
newhiskey
..
.

Thendo:
"Sodi
dshement
ionme?
?"

Me:"DudeNtombenhl
ehatesyoushenever
tal
ksaboutyou.
Lookyouhaveputhert
hrough
hel
lnowt el
lmeifyouwer
einhershoeswould
y
ouwantt
oli
key
ou(
ift
hatmakessense)"

Thendo:"Nobutbroshedoesn'
twantmet
opay
maintenancefort
hechil
d"

Me:"
Thati
sbecauseI'
mt her
e,Icant
akecareof
Bophel
o,I
'
mt echni
cal
lyhisf
athersopl
easejust
l
eavemywi f
ealone"

Thendo:
"Sur
eum...
actual
l
yIwoul
dli
key
out
o
si
gnupashi sl
egalf
ather
"

Me:
"Idon'
tmi
nd,
it
'sactuall
yagood
move[
PhoneRi
ngs].
..
sorryIgot
tat
aket
his"

(
Ler
ato)
Me:
"Yesbabe"

Rat
o:"
Howf
arar
eyou?
?"

Me:
"I
'm att
hecl
ubI
'
llber
ightt
her
e"

Rato:
Okayt
henIhadaspeci
alnumberfory
ou
butdon'
tworr
yther
eisal
waysanextti
me"

Me:
"Um.
..
I'
m onmywaynow"

Rat
o:"
Hur
ryup"

Shehangedup
Me:
"Igot
tadashbr
o"

Thendo:
"Sur
eseey
ah"

Il
eftIr
eal
l
ycan'
tl
etanoppor
tuni
tyl
i
ket
hisone
passmeby

SoIarri
vedathomeandIf oundNt ombenhl
e'
s
braandpanti
esont hef l
oor,aguy'
sshir
tand
whiskeytwoglasses,strawberr
iesand
cream.I
'
m gonnakillNtombenhleohmyGod
shesheisevenmoani ng.
Wai
tletmet
akeakni
feandl
oadmygun

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Vusi
arr
ivedl
ett
hef
unbegi
n
Me:"
Hei
shereletmecl
imbontopofy
ou,
you
hol
dmywaistorsomet
hing"

Vusi
openedt
hedoor

Me:
"Ohy
eah,
fuckmehar
der!
!!
Ahhh"

Mpho:
"Cum f
ormebabyy
es,
j
ustl
i
ket
hat"

Vusi
:
"Whatt
hef
uckar
eyoudoi
ngNt
ombenhl
e??
"

Me:
"Um.
.I
..
.I"

Vusi
:
"Wi
thMpho,
whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?
?
Comeher
eboy
!!
"

Helosti
tandIreal
l
ywant
edtol
augh,
hehada
gunandknif
eli
kereal
l
ynow

Me:"
Babyl
eav
eMphoal
onei
t'
snotwhati
t
l
ooks"

Vusi
:
"Shutup!
!"

Hefi
redashotont
hechestofdr
awer,
oht
hisi
s
bad

Me:"
V,babeit
'sapr
ank,Mphoi
swear
inghi
s
t
rousers,
Itol
dyouI'
ll
getyou"

Hel
etgoofMphoandwentt
osi
tont
hebed
Mpho:
"Br
oI'
m gone,
Vusi
cheerupbr
o"

Mphol
eftandVwasr
eal
l
ygr
umpy

Vusi
:
"Damny
ougotmedude"

Me:
"IknowI
'
mthemast
erpr
ankst
er"

Vusi
:
"Icoul
dhaveki
ll
edyouthemomentIsaw
hi
mt ouchi
ngy
oui r
eal
lyl
ostit
"

Me:
"Let
'
ssl
eep"

Vusi
:
"NoIgotot
herpl
ansf
ory
out
oni
ghtsex
y"
Hespankedmyass
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eLov
e

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nser
t63

Iti
snowMondayl ateinJul y,asiti
sknownt hat
Iam studyinglaw.Thet i
mehasar r
ivedf orme
toshowof fmyskill
si nthehi ghcour tforthe
l
astr ati
ngofmycur r
iculum thenI '
l
l graduate
andgetmydegr eebutonl yi fIdomy
best.Fi
rstl
yIhadt ofindal awf ir
mt hatIwi l
l
wor kforandf or
tunatelyIhav eanint ervi
ew the
topat t
orneyofRheederAt torneys.Ijusthope
I'
ll
beadmi tt
edforthisismyl asthopeal most
allt
hel awf i
rmsdeclinedbecauseofmymar ks
turnoutofl asty
earfingerscr ossed

Idon'
thav
eanyf
ormal
clot
hingi
nmycl
oset
andthat
'sabummerbecauseIhav
etol
ook
prof
essi
onal
..
.

[
VEnt
ers]

Vusi:
"Youmustbeluckytohav
eahusbandl
i
ke
me,hereIboughty
outhesetowear
"

I
twasablackpenci
lski
rt
,awhi
tebl
ouse,
a
bl
ackcoatandbl
ackheel
s

Me:
"Whatdi
dIdot
odeser
vey
ou?
?"

Vusi:
"Youstay
edt r
uetoy our
sel
f,nowtakemy
cr
editcardandbuyy our
selfsomeprof
essional
cl
othingwheny oucomeback"
Me:
"I
FIgetadmi
tt
ed"

Vusi
:"
What'
swit
ht henegat
ivi
ty??Justgother
e
andanswert
hosequesti
onswithpassion,
good
l
uckandIloveyoubye"

Heki ssedmegoodby eandImadesome

breakfastformysel
f,Iat
ethenheadedout
.Thi
s
carofmyf at
heri
nlaw real
lyhel
psbutIwantt
o
retr
ni tsoon

Afewhourslat
erIheardmynamebeingcall
ed
"MrsNkosi
"Ihavebeenwai
tingsi
ncemorni
ng
butheyIdon'
tmindit
'swor
thiti
ntheend.
Ist
oodupandfol
l
owedt
hatgor
geousl
adyt
oa
hugeof
fi
ce.
..

Her
:"
MrsNkosi
isourl
astandf
inal
onef
ort
he
day
"

Him:"Sur
el hopeshewon'twast
emyt ime
consider
inghermarkal
locati
on,sendheri
n
Cynthia"

Iwenti
nandhei
ndi
cat
edmet
osi
t

Me:
"GooddaySi
r"

Him:"I
tsMrKarlt
hankyouver
ymuch,
now
l
istentomeifyouareher
etowast
emyplease
standupandleave"

Theguyi
shotbuthi
sar
roganceki
l
lsmyv
ibe

Me:
"I
'm nother
etowast
eanyt
imeSi
r"
Him:
"Nowtel
lmewhyy ouwantt
obeal
awy
er
oranat
tor
neyfort
hatmatt
er?
?"

Me:"Wel
lbecauseI'
m agoodli
erandIcan
tackl
eever
ychall
engethatcomesmywaywit
h
passi
on"

Him:"
Iseebutthenfrom ot
hercandidatesIgot
answerssuchas,tohel
pot hers,t
oprove
cl
ient
sinnocentandsoonbuty ouseem tobe
point
ingever
ythi
ngtoyourselfwhyisthat??
"

Me:"YouseeSirsomet i
mesani ndivi
dualhas
gott
abeal it
tl
eself
ishbydoi ngthatIcantake
thesit
uati
onandpoi nti
ttowardsme, tofi
gure
outhowIwoul dhandleiti
fitweremei nthe
part
icul
arsit
uati
on"
Hi
m:"Soyourst
rat
egyi
stur
ningt
hesi
tuat
ion
ar
ound??
"

Me:"
Nounl
i
keot
herat
tor
ney
sIdon'
twor
kwi
th
st
rat
egi
es"

Hi
m:"
Whyi
sthat
??"

Me: "
Becauseattor
ney stendtosti
ckthei
rown
strat
egical
way s,
whati fever
ythi
ngfal
ls
apart?Whatthen??Ibeli
evethatgoi
ngwitht
he
fl
owi skeyinthatwayIcanal wayschangemy
tune"

Him:"
Inter
est
inglastquest
ionwoul
dyoupref
er
anaveragecl
ientoradangerousone,
mot
ivat
e
youranswer"
Me:
"Thedanger
ousonebecauseI
'
m al
way
sup
f
orsomechil
lychal
l
enge"

Hi
m:"
Okayt
hanksf
orcomi
ngMi
ss?
?"

Me:
"Mr
sNkosi
"

Him:"
Yesthatl
ookdon'
tcal
luswe'
l
lcal
lyou,
I
guessyouknowyourwayout"

SucharroganceIhat
ehisgut
salreadybutt
hen
that
'spartofl
if
esometi
mesy oumeetkind,
nice
andsomet i
mesy oumeetawful
,
arrogantbl
oody
savages

I
twasnowar
oundf
ourt
ofi
vesoIwentt
o
someclubjusttodr inkmysor rowsaway, Ij
ust
knowIwon'tbeadmi t
tedIwasat otalass
thr
oughoutthewhol et hit
hingbutthi
ngi sthatI
wasjustbei
nghonest .Peoplethi
nkt hatwhen
youareint
olawy ouhav etodot hi
ngy ouhave
tofol
lowint
ot hef ootstepsofever
ysuccessf ul
att
orneyouttherebutIdonotwantt hat,Iwant
todomyownt hing, Iguessmyownt hingisnot
goodenought hen.

Thewhol epregnancythi
nghasbeenstuck
i
nsidemyheadi t
'sal
lIthi
nkabout,
myi nl
aws
call
endlesslyaski
ngmeaboutt hewell
bei
ngof
thechi
ld.Idon'
twanttobepregnantIdon'
ta
chil
d.
Soaf tersomedr i
nksIwentt oCl i
cksto
purchaset wopregnancytestsjusttobesure
I
'mj usttir
edofeveryoneassumi ngthatI
'm
pregnantandVusi ismakingitwor seby
watchi ngwhatIeatandallthatshit.
*
*Vusi
**

Ij
ustarr
ivedathomeandSbuandSi hl
eare
al
readyi
nbed,nofoodcooked,
somuchf ora
marri
edmanbutt hennostr
essI'
vealr
eadyate.

Igetint
hebedroom andf
indNtombenhl
e
si
tti
ngonthebedwithhrheadbent
..
.

Me:
"Ar
eyougood?
?"

Her:
"Um..
.y
eahIwasaboutt
ocook,
you
hungry
??"

Shesai
dbutIcoul
dtel
lsomet
hing'
sup
Me:
"No,
I
'm goodar
eyousur
eyouf
ine?
?"

Her
:"
YeahI
'
llj
ustt
akeashower"

Thensomethi
ngfel
lwhenshestoodupandshe
pi
ckeditupandhi
diti
mmediatel
y

Me:
"Whati
sthat
??"

Her
:"
It
'snot
hing"

Me:
"Thenwhyar
eyouhi
dingi
t??
"

Her
:"
Just,
i
t'
snot
hingr
eal
l
y"

Me:
"Gi
vei
ttome"
Her
:"
No"

Me:
"Nt
ombenhl
egi
vei
ther
e!!
"

Her
:"
Okayt
her
eVusi
!
!"

Shethrewapr egnancytestandranouttoher
carthendroveoff,
thetesti
spositi
vesowhyis
shelikethi
s??I
t'
sgoodnews, letmefol
lowher,I
dodon'tunder
stand..
.

Icouldseehercarf rom afarandshewas

speeding,Ij
ustremai nedbehindher ,suddenl
y
hercarstoppedatsomedeser tedplace.Igot
offmycarandf oll
owedheri ntosomer oom ful
l
ofbloodont hefloorIpeekedt hrought hedoor
tohearwhatt heywer esaying,
wi t
hsomeguy
Rat
o:"
Isai
dIneedanabor
ti
onnow!
!"

Hi
m:"
Okayl
i
eont
hebedI
'
llbewi
thy
oushor
tl
y"

What
??Ij
ustbar
gedi
n

Me:
"Ar
eyouki
l
li
ngmybabyNt
ombenhl
e"

Rat
o:"
Vusi
??Whatdoy
ouwanther
e??
"

Me:
"Don'
taskmet
hatwhyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his!
!!
"

"
Ist
her
eapr
obl
em her
eMr
sNkosi
?"

Rat
o:"
Yes,
thi
smani
scr
azypl
easecal
lthe
pol
i
ce,
andr
esumewi
tht
heabor
ti
on!
!"
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*
*Vusi
**

Ij
ustdon'
tgetLer
atohowcouldshedothi
s,
I
meanachildisabl
essi
ngfr
om Godbutshe
wantstoki
l
l mybabynoIwi
llnotal
lowt
hat.

Me:"
YouknowwhatIam t
ir
edofy
ouandy
our
chi
l
dishness.
"

Rat
o:"
Docj
ustgetonwi
thi
tandsendt
hisman
out
"
Me:"
Heymani fyouvalueyourl
i
fey
oubet
ter
keepyourhandsoffher"

Hel
eftt
her
oom

Rat
o:"
Vusi
pleaseIneedt
odot
his"

Me:
"Whyar
eyoudoi
ngt
his?
?"

Rat
o:"
Idon'
twantt
otal
ktoy
oul
eav
e"

Me:"Okaythenletmet ell
y ousomethingi
fyou
happent ogothroughwi t
ht heabort
ionbe
preparedtosi
gnt hedivorcepapers,
bykil
l
ing
thatchil
dyouwi l
lbemynumberoneenemy ,
i
t'syourbodyany waysodowhaty ougottado"
Il
eftherther
eandwentbackhome. Youknow
shecandowhat evershewant
swhatI '
m gonna
donowi scallt
heelder
stosetherstr
aight

(
Dad)

Dad:
"Yesboy
??"

Me:
"Canyoupleasecomewi
thuncl
eSi
pho
t
omorrowit
'sURGENT"

Dad:
"Whati
sgoi
ngont
her
e??
"

Me:
"Al
otpopsj
ustcomeI
'
llf
il
lyouup
t
omorr
ow"
Dad:
"Okayson"

It
hinki
tov
ernow

*
*Ler
ato*
*

Ij
ustar
ri
vedathome,
myparent
s'house.Idon'
t
knowwhatgoti
ntome,
Vusi
won'tunderstand.

Mom:"Ler
atowhatdoy
ouwanther
e,y
oul
ook
t
err
ibl
esweety"

Shesai
dleadi
ngmet
othedi
ningr
oom

Me:
"MaI
'
m pr
egnant"
Mom:
"Ohmybabyt
hat
'sgoodnews"

Shegav
emenahug

Mom:
"Butwhyar
eyousosad"

Me:
"Idon'
twantt
hebaby
,Iwantanabor
ti
on
mot
her"

Mom:
"Ar
eyououtofy
ourmi
ndLer
ato?
?"

Me:
"No"

*
*UNKNOWN*
*

Mymot
ivesar
ewor
king,
Ihav
ebeeni
nthi
s
businessfortoolongtobecont rol
ledbya
younggi r
lli
keLeratoNkosi.
Nowshewant sto
ter
mi natethebaby,i
t'
sallme,I'
mi nher
head.ThisisnottheLerat
oev eryoneknows,
havet r
appedhersoul andmindi ti
smel i
vl
iv
ing
i
nsidehernow.

Me:
"Hel
l
oLer
ato"

Rat
o:"
Pleaseleav
emealone,
pleasel
etmysoul
andmindintomybodypl
ease"

Me:
"Wai
tIgotnewsf
ory
ou,
sweetRat
o"

Rat
o:"
Whatnews?
?"

Me:
"Wel
li
fIorshoul
dIsayy
ouwel
lIbecause
I'
minsi
deyourbodyarhgwhatever,
ifI
ter
minat
ethebabythenVusiwill
divor
ceyou
andyouwil
lendupmi ser
abl
elikealways,
that
'
s
howIli
keyou"

Rat
o:"
Youcan'
tter
minat
ethebabyi
tcoul
dbe
mylast
"

Me:
"Idon'
tcar
e!!
!!"
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e

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*
*Vusi
**

I
t'
sabrandnewmorningandmyheadisnoti
n
t
heri
ghtstat
e,Nt
ombenhl
enevercamehome
yesterdayandt hatpossi blymeanst hatshe
wentt hroughwi ththeabor ti
onbutt henme
beingamanofmywor dIt hi
nki t
'saboutt i
meI
servedherwi t
ht hosedi vorcepaper s,
please
don'tgetmewr ongIdol oveNt ombenhl e
wholehear tedl
yi t
'sjustthatthewayshei s
behav inglessensmyl ovef orherandIf ind
my selfnotwant ingany thingtodowi t
h
her.May beit'
smyf aultIshoul dhav el
efther
alone,sheisst i
l
l youngandwant stoexpl or
eI'
m
anol dman16y earsherseni ori t
'sall
wr ongso
bydiv orci
ngherI 'l
lbedoi ngt herightthi
ng.

Ical
ledafami l
ymeeti
ngtodiscusst hi
s
sorr
owfulphenomenon,r
ightnowwear eather
cri
bandIhav en'
tseenheryet,
hermom anddad
areherel
ookingworri
edandconf used

Me:
"Av
erygooddayt
oyoual
l
.I'
m af
rai
dtosay
thi
sbuttodayIcomewithsadnessinmyheart
yourdaught
erwaspregnantanddidanabor
ti
on
nowtellmeisthatagoodthi
ng??"

Rdad:
"Sonmywi fetoldmeaboutthi
syest
erday
tobehonestIdon'tknowwhati
sgoingonwi t
h
Ler
atoit
'sl
ikeshe'sawholedi
ffer
entper
son"

Ntombenhle'
sdadobj
ect
ed,
Icoul
dseer i
ght
throughhi
seyest
hathewasemotional
l
y
drained

Me:"Iunder
standsoIhavecomet
oa
conclusi
onofdivor
cingher
..
."

[
Rat
oent
ers]
Rato:
"YhooVusi abort
ion'
nyanafelaosobatl
a
div
orce,l
etmet ellyousomethingmybr ot
her,I
Lerat
oNkosi soontobeModi seagai
nam nota
babymakingmachi neifyouwantababyt akea
secondwifeIdon'tcareaslongasIgetmy
monthlyal
lowance"

Rmom:
"Ler
ato!
!"

Rat o:"Don'
tnyeratome,VusihastoknowthatI
don' treal
lyl
ov ehim Ij
ustwantedhismoney
from t heverystart
,thi
nkaboutitwhowould
resistahandsomeguywi t
htonsofmoneyI '
m
talkingaboutbi l
li
onshere,al
lIeverwant
edwas
moneysoy oucangoaheadanddi vor
cemeI '
ll
begl adtosign"

Rdad:
"EnoughLer
ato!
!"
Rato:"
Nowai tforthebestpar tMamazaledo
youknowt hatwhenIwasst il
latyourhouse
andyouwentt ochur chforsleepoversyour
husbandandIhadt hethetimeofourl i
ves,
you
didsaythatIneededheal i
ngandy ouknow
whatIgotdickhealingitwashel l
Itel
lyou"

Mom:
"Baba!
!"

Me:
"Dad!
!"

Rat
o:"
Itwasfunt
ell
them "
Dad"
,i
twasf
un
wasn'
tit
??"

Dad:
"Whatar
eyout
alki
ngabout
??Whyar
eyou
l
iket
his?
?"
Mom:"Hehy
ougotaner
vendoda'
ndi
nthe
di
vor
cepaperswi
l
lbewait
ingf
oryouathome"

Mom t
ookherhandbagandl
eft
Dadf
oll
owedher

Me:"IrespectwomenandIr espectyou,
whoever
youar eonethingIknowisthatyouarenot
LeratonotmyNt ombenhle,MrsandMrNkosi
bewar ethi
sisnotyourdaughterIknowyour
daught er"

Rdad:
"Whatdoy
oumean?
?"

Me:"
Justobser
ve,
I
'l
lbebackwi
tht
her
eal
Ler
ato"
Iknowmywi feandt hi
sisnother.HowdoI
know??Ntombenhlewoul dneversay
"Mamazala"
.Sheisalwaysveryshytowar
dsmy
parent
sandt odayshewast al
kati
veand
unmanneredt r
ustmewhenIsayt hisi
snot
Ntombenhle

*
*Unknown*
*

Vusi i
sst i
ll
handsomet houghandi ntell
i
gent
too,ohhowImi sshi
m, myper f
ectgent l
eman
ohhowImi ssSi
phesihleandSi busisomy
babies.Iam notabadper sonorshoul dIsay
ghost,allIwantismyhusbandt obef ai
thf
ul
towardsmeandmeonl yImi ghthavenotbeen
fait
hfulbutIdoknowt hatit
'sabadhabi tt
o
takeoutev ilwi
thevi
l.Iwassl eepinginpeacein
bymygr avebutmyspi ritgotdistur
bedwhen
myhusbandfel
li
nlovewithanotherwoman
andnowsheispregnantwi
thhischil
dIcan'
t
al
lowthi
stohappen.

Me:"Ler
atoNkosi
,youknowIdon'
tli
ket
hat
sur
nameony ouitdoesnotsui
tyou"

Rat
o:"
Wel
lthat
'sy
ourownopi
nion"

Me:"
Yourightbuti
tisaf
actt
haty
ouwi
l
lloose
Vusif
orev
er"

Rato:
"Okaythenyouwi ni
fyouwantthatto
happenthensobei t,
yourwishi
sgranted
congrat
ulat
ions,
I
'm notgonnabeganymore"

Soshei
snotgonnaf
ightme,
coul
dIhav
ea
wr
ongi
mpr
essi
onabouther
??

Me:
'
'Soy
ougi
veuponVusi
??"

Rato:
"I
t'
snotent
ir
elyaboutVusi
,
youseem t
o
knowtoomuchabouthim whoareyou
anyway??"

Me:"
Greatquest
ionIdon'
tknowi
fVusi
hast
old
youaboutNonkanyi
so"

Rat
o:"
Yest
hat
'sVusi
'
slat
ewi
fe"

Me:"Whydon'
tyousay"
was"pastt
ense
becauseshei
sdead"

Rat
o:"
Becauset
heywer
est
il
lmar
ri
edwhenshe
di
ed,
soi
twoul
dbedi
srespect
ful
ifIsay"
was"

Me:
"Iam Nonkany
iso"

Rat
o:"
Buty
ouar
elat
e"

Me:
"Herspi
ri
t"

Rato:
"Whyar
eyout
ryi
ngt
oter
minat
emy
baby??"

Me: "
Ilov
echil
drenbutImadeapromi
setoVusi
thatnootherwomanisgonnacarr
yhisbaby
unlessit
'sme,
Iwantedhisf
ir
stchi
ldt
obe
carri
edbyme"

Rat
o:"
ButSi
hleandSbu.
..
."
Me:
"Theyar
enothi
s"

Rat
o:"
What
??"

Me:"Nevermi
ndthat
,Idon'
tl
iket
hef
actt
hat
Vusi
lovesyoumorethanme"

Rato:
" That'
sbecausey ounev ergav ehima
chancet olovey ouwhol eheartedly,t
hemi nute
hewentawayy oucont inuedwi t
hy oursi l
ly
aff
airs,actual
lywhenVusi t
alksabouty ouhe
wouldal wayssmi leandIwoul dseei tinhi s
eyest hathemi ssedy oubuty ouwoul dnev erbe
j
ealousbecauseIknowt hathel ov
esy ou,you
arehisf i
rstl
ovef orcryingoutl oud.Nowpl ease
l
etmegoIhav et otakecar eofVusi andt he
chil
drenandIhav ewor kt odot oo,
don' truinmy
l
i
febecausey
our
shasv
ani
shed"

Wowshei
swi
se

Me:"LookIwasbei ngself
ishIthi
nkit'
sabout
ti
meIl etVusigo,andohLer at
opleasetake
careofmybabi es,Iguesstheyar
ey ourbabi
es
now, I
'
m sorry
"

Rato:
"I
t'
sokayIunder
standpl
easer
esti
n
peace"

Ishal
lhav
eanev er
last
ingsl
eepLer
atoi
sn'
ta
badgir
laf
teral
lsheisamotherandwif
ewho
hasacari
ngheart
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e
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*
*Ler
ato*
*

Myheadi shurt
ingIfeell
ikeIhavehit
somethinghar dwit
hi t
,Ij
usthadabaddream
aboutVusi '
swifebutitendedpret
tywell
I
guess.IseethatIam athomenowi nmy
room,whyar en'
tIatmyhouse
Igotoutofbedandwentt
othel
oungef
indi
ng
dadandVusi i
nther
e

Me:
"V,
Imi
ssedy
ou"

Ihuggedhi
m

Vusi
:
"Um.
..
okaywhathappenedt
oyou?
?"
Dad:
"Ar
eyour
eadyt
osi
gnt
hedi
vor
cepaper
s??
"

Me:
"Nowhatdi
vor
cepaper
sdad?
?"

Vusi
:
"I'
m di
vor
cingy
ou,
yousai
dyou'
l
lbegl
adt
o
si
gnthem "

Me:
"What
??Noy
oucan'
twhy
??"

Vusi
:
"Don'
tpl
aydumb"

Me:"
I'
m notpl
ayinganyt
hingVusiyoucan'
tj
ust
di
vorcemepleasemyhusbandI '
l
lbethe
per
fectwif
ethatyouneedmyl ov
e"
Vusi
:"
Let'
sgohome,
MrModi
sedon'
twor
ryI
'
ll
deal
withher
"

Wel
eft,
I
'm conf
usedasf
uck

*
*Vusi
**

Iknewi
tnowt
hisi
smywi
fe,
myr
eal
wif
e.
Whenwear ri
vedshetol
dmet hatshehasa
headacheandthatshefeel
sconfused,
she
doesnotremembermuch,ri
ghtnowshejustgot
outoftheshowerandImadeherlunch

Me:
"Ar
eyouf
eel
i
ngbet
ter
??"

Rat
o:"
Nomyheadi sbet
terbutIf
eel
li
ke
sl
eepi
ngIdon'
trememberanythi
ngt
hat
happenedf
ort
hepastf
ewhour
s"

Me:
"Okaybutwhatdoy
our
emember
??"

Rat
o:"
Iremembergoingt
omyi nter
viewthen
goi
ngtothecl
ubthat'
sal
l,
aft
erthatIsl
eptand
hadaverywel
lnotbadbutsurpr
isi
ngdream "

Me:
"Okaywhatwast
hedr
eam about
??"

Rato:"I
t'
slong..
.ButI'
llt
rytosummar i
sei tfor
you,um...
Nonkany i
sotookmyspi r
itfr
om my
bodyandt ransferr
edherst omybody, t
henshe
keptsay i
ngshewi llt
erminateababyand
um...wewi l
ldi
vorce..
..
ouchmyhead, myhead
hurt
s.Thenshel etmegoandaskedmet otake
careofy ouandt hechil
dren,shef
eltl
ikey ou
l
ovememor ethanher "
Me:"Theloveparti
st r
ue,Il
oveyoumorethan
anyoneinthisworl
d, y
ourdream wastr
uey ou
werebehav i
ngdiff
erentl
yandIcouldt
ell
somethingwaswr ong,I'
mv erysor
ryt
hatyou
hadtogot hroughthathorr
ibl
edream"

Rat
o:"
ButVusishealsoment
ionedt
hatSbuand
Si
hlear
enotyourkids"

Me:"Yeaht
heyar
enotshecheat
edonmebutI
tooktheki
dsasmyownbecausethei
rfat
her
haddied"

Rat
o:"Youar eagoodmanVusiandyouneeda
chi
l
dofy ourown,
yourownbl
oodjustknowt
hat
Iwi
llgiveyouthat"
Me:
"Youar
epr
egnantsweet
hear
t"

Rat
o:"
Real
ly
??I
'
m keepi
ngthebabyt
hen,
Idi
dn'
t
wantachi
l
dbuttheni
t'
sokay"

Me:
"Whydon'
tyouwantachi
l
dsweet
hear
t??"

Rat o:"I
'
my oungandI '
m scared( shestart
ed
gettingt eary)
theotherkidsatVar sitywi
lll
augh
atmeandcal lmenames. Bophel oisnotevena
yearol dandI 'm al
readypregnantagai n,
myl ast
pregnancywashel l I
'm scar
edt hatthisonet oo
shal lbet hesame.Allmybabi esar edeadwhat
i
ft hisonedi estoo? ?
(shecries)

Me:"Someti
meshistorydoesnotrepeati
tsel
f
mywi fe.
AndIsuggestthatyoust
opwor r
y i
ng
abouttheki
dsatVarsity,
it'
snotasintobe
pregnantespeci
all
ywheny ouareamar r
ied
woman. I
tshowst hatyouareanAfri
canwoman
myAf ri
canwoman, pl
easestopcr
yingl
ooknow
youmaki ngmecr y"

Rat
o:"
(l
aughs)It
houghti
ndodadoesn'
tcr
y"

Me:
"Real
mencr
ybutper
ver
tsdon'
t"

Rat
o:"
IseebutI
'
mreal
l
yscar
edbaby
"

Me:
"Don'
tbeI'
llbewi
thyoueverystepofthe
way
.Youhavemadethehappiestmant hi
swill
bemyfir
stbaby,myownblood,
thankyou
mommy "
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e
Fi
nal
e

Nar
rat
ed

Thr
eey
ear
slat
er.
..

Leratobecameaquali
fi
edat t
orneyandhas
recentl
yopenedherownlawf i
rm andevery
singl
eclientwant
shert
or epr
esentthenthat'
s
j
usthowgoodshehasbecome.

HerkidsBopheloandt hethreeyearol
dbaby
gir
lBonoloarejustgrowingint
obeautiful
chil
dren.AboutSihl
eandSbuwel lt
hethe17
yearoldsnowhav eboy f
ri
endsandgi r
lf
riends
theyarenaughtyhereandt her
ebutstil
l r
egard
Lerat
oast hei
rmot her.
Duringt hepastt hreeyearsadarkcl oud
emer gedov ert heNkosi householdwhenVusi
wasdi agnosedwi thCancer,notjustCancerbut
bonemar rowCancer .
Hecoul dnotbeabl eto
wor kany moreduet ohisconditi
onsoLer at
o
hadt owor ktwi ceashar dtoprovideforher
familyandatt heendoft hedayshehadt ogo
homeandt akecar eofhersickhusband,
alt
houghshewast aki
ngst r
ainshenev er
showedt hatshewashur tandscar ed.Lastti
me
IcheckedVusi had2mont hst oli
vebutIdon' t
recallanymor e...

Vusi

Myti
mehasar ri
vedIneverthoughtthatIcould
besoweak,notbeingabl
etogetoutofbed. I
j
ustwantt
odie,yesIknowNt ombenhleandt he
ki
dswil
lbehurtbuttheywil
lheal,
I'
l
lneverheal
sol
ivi
nganylongerki
l
lsmeinsideand
out
.TodayI
'm ev
enweakerthantheregul
ar
day
sIdon'tknowmay beGodiscomingtofet
ch
me

Rat
o:"
Babe,
Vusi
,
Nkosi
!!
Whati
swr
ong?
?"

Shekeptshaki
ngme

Me:"Ntombenhleyouhav earr
ived,youlookfar
morebeautiful
today..
.(
coughs)sorry,
please
promisetotakecareofev er
ythi
ngwhenI '
m
gone,thewi
llIl
eftever
ythingforyou..
.yoursand
thekidsfut
ureissecured"

Sheki
ssedme
Rat
o:"
Stopt
alki
ngl
i
ket
haty
ouar
ehur
ti
ngme"

Me: "
I'
m sorrymylove,
butIdof eelmyspiri
t
beingwithdrawnfrom mybodybi tbybit,
Ij
ust
wanty outoknowt hatIneverplanneditt
oend
l
ikethis,
Ialwayswishedthatwewoul dgrowold
togetherbutthenGodhadot herplansforus,
I
LOVEYOUandourwewi l
lforeverhave

Us:
" Unbr
eakabl
eLov
e

Vusi
Died

Nar
rat
ed

Thepowerofl
oveismight
iert
hantheswordI
mustsay
.Thesetwoindi
vi
dualshavebeen
thr
oughdi f
fi
cultobst
acl
esofl
i
febutl
earntt
o
overcomeev er
ysingl
eobst
acl
ebystandi
ngtal
l
andjoini
ngforces.

Yesl
ovei
sbl
i
nd
Lov
eissel
fi
sh
Lov
eisabst
ract
Lov
eisj
eal
ous
Lov
eisr
uthl
ess
Lov
eiski
nd
Lov
eiscar
ing
Lov
eissuppor
ti
ve
Lov
eiscaut
ious
Lov
eispr
ett
y
Lov
eisbad
Lov
eisuncondi
ti
onal
BUT.
..
.Inev
erknewt
hatl
ovecoul
dbe
UNBREAKABLE

Leratonev ert
houghtshewoul df
indl
oveaf t
er
al
l t
hebadt hi
ngsthathappenedtoherbutthen
cameacl assi
cmanVusi whois16yearsher
senior.
Shef oundhappinessagai
nandlivedher
dream li
fe.

Somemi ghtsayVusiwasaSugardaddy,
BlesserorthosekindsofnamebutIsaythey
arewr ongVusiiseverygi
rl
'sdr
eam man,
they
mightsaywhatt heyhadwasaf ant
asybut
onceagai nIcal
litLOVE!!

THEEND