1.
My episodes are back so I thought I was getting better but seems like I was baai wrong now
I’m back to square one seriously can my life get more annoying than this.
2. I miss Ty and maybe the anxiety’s brought the episodes, but I can’t have them now, I don’t
have diazepam or lamotrigine or chamomile, FUCK!
3. I can do this. SHE (THE BITCH) IS GONNA COME BACK MONDAY OR TUESDAY. GOOD LORD!
4. I CAN DO THIS. I’M STRONGER THAN I KNOW THAN ANYONE KNOWS.
5. I fight battles with myself every single day because there are some things that I just can’t say
out loud, I hate myself for being this, I hate that I love being different although my being
different doesn’t help me, instead it isolates me and leaves me lonely again, I hate that I
can’t seem to find myself every time I search inside.
6. I don’t mind being alone but don’t get my family involved I want them to be happy.
7. Ty are we really gun last forever I mean I want us to. I love you
8. Seery I miss you bro and I love you, you too Hazel and Zeery and y’all fam back at home.
9. So, I’m feeling better now, and I hope I don’t get this kind of episode anytime soon cause my
exams are approaching and I can’t afford to spiral like I did last term end of year.
10. These days it’s like I don’t believe in my abilities anymore like everything that I do is just not
meant to be I guess it has to do with the fact that I hate this country so everything just feels
forced like I could be doing something else with my time.
11. I love shawarma and cheese griller and Liquifruit and candy plus fruits just not bananas urgh
I literally can not stand those things.
12. I love Gray, black but I don’t like wearing it alone, honestly, I like all colours just depends on
the clothing I want to buy.
13. I’ve been single for a very long time and its fine cause it helps me to not add more stress to
my many life problems.
14. Can I be attracted to OP I mean is it ok?
15. I think I’m losing my mind again like once wasn’t enough.
16. So, I’m tired right now so I’m just going to stop writing now, its kind of draining. Well
imagine if I had to write a book bout the story of my life ‘damn that will be sad. Ok I hate
that this word app shit is shortening my expressions right now I had written that I’m really
tired but, guess what, it changed it to just tired I mean how do I show the severity of my
exhaustion if this thing keeps on doing that, now I’m pissed, Bye.
17. Today I woke up with a massive headache and the thing all my life I’ve never had