SWITCH THE LIGHT TO HAPPY, PLAY THE VICTIM AND YOU LOSE

On this beautiful day, I am looking out to the River Thames and the light is glorious. I have less time for girlfriends nowadays, that always play the victim and think their  problems are greater than anybody else's?  I do not want to be thought of as a victim. I like the idea of bravery and valour and prefer people who take responsibility for their actions. There is something very unattractive about women who have everything, who think they have nothing, in their fifties.  They should think before they trample on your feelings and thoughts of others, perhaps they should remember what they have done?.  I no longer need a friend who ever so slightly bad mouths me, while I try and improve my life and improve the lives of others?.  In fact I love to help others. I have little patience for people that continually grab approval and attention but live off the 'poor me syndrome'.  You do not need 'things' to feel good about yourself.  I love a drama queen but it has to be an amusing one.  As we know, nobody is better than anyone else and time marches quickly on some people find it easier to find happiness and positivity than others. We are all trying to get through.  Happiness is easily found within us and you just have to choose to turn it on.    My son said that the reason I had luck as I always imagine it and I bring it to me.  I think it is the only way forward.  He said that I even wore the clothes because clothes I believe bring me luck too. I remove anything that seems to not want that for me.  Computers, walking in the park, smelling flowers, laughing. Anybody who makes me laugh can be forgiven.  Those people are delightful petals of the universe and should be nourished.    If we plant seeds for misery then we get it.  I remember these fine words from Raja Yoga. I had a brief session with Gizi and wonderful guru who said we should all watch where we plant our seeds and what we do with them.  

WHAT I AM DOING IS WHAT I AM DOING. THANK YOU GOD FOR A LOVELY TIME

I keep reminding myself the pearls of wisdom Gizzy gave me a few years ago from Raja Yoga in London, for those not in the know, it is a Yoga for cultivating the brain.  Her words were this."Do not forget that what you are doing is what you are doing" So what I am doing is having an incredible time if I think about it.  I am hugely grateful to all those who are part of my life.  Tonight I dashed around, I wanted to stay put, but could not less I offend someone.
First I went to Focus Feature party at The Chateau Marmont, for their films and in particular I was kindly asked to go with Jack again to see his friend Gary Oldman and his wife Alexandra. She was beautifully dressed in a emerald green sequin dress by Dolce and Gabbana.  She looked ravishing.  I talked to Gary who I truly admire. He is down to earth and you would never believe he was up for an oscar tomorrow. He was so pleasant, relaxed and focused.  He was describing his dinner jacket tomorrow by Paul Smith,  it sounded  incredible with navy blue velvet piping.  His mother is going too, she is 92 and has a wonderful sense of humour. Three weeks ago I took her to lunch at Soho House where we talked about musicals and film. This woman was on the ball. Attractive and vital she was definitely the mother of one of our greatest living actors.

Then I went to Chanel and Charles Finch's party at the best Italian Restaurant in town. Medeo. I truly love chatting with Sidney his wife. Sadly it was too busy but there was Dustin Hoffman with all the beautiful people, Charles, always give a great party.  I was invited by Sydney his wife and sat talking with the charming Susan and Richard Young who was photographing everybody. I see them usually with Tracey Emin in London. Tracey gives good parties too, she knows how to entertain and is totally egalitarian.  If you are there, she loves you. I think this is a rare and beautiful characteristic.  We sat and commended her.   Leaving the Chanel party with a bottle of delicious Gardenia Scent I felt a  very lucky girl. So what I am doing is what I am doing. I am spraying myself as I slip my toes into delicious new sheets and know that I shall sleep well after reading Finch's Quarterly.