10 yr relationship--ending. CC was my final goodbye [highly shortened]: " [CC] is my archetype--neurodiverse, intelligent, insecure, manic, and passionate. Love of my life; a loving person who never deserved what I've said and done, you see the world in a wonderful way--you made me a better person. I'm proud of you while I can't get rid of the voice in my head that says it can work, I know you deserve respect, and I know I can't keep doing it. Know that all I wanted was to do you right; always."