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“30 years and i still don’t know shit, 30 years and i still don’t know. 30 years and I still don’t show it, 30 years 30 years
...well I’ve been told to get a clue, about a million times or two, and i wanna make my move but i killed my ambition with the bong in the kitchen and i really hate to say it but it’s true.
30 years and i still dont know shit, 30 years and i still dont know, 30 years and i still dont show it heres to hoping i outgrow this. 30 years and i still dont know shit, 30 years and i still dont know, heres to hoping i outgrow this, in 30 years, in 30 years.
(losing all the games I play) And i’ve been told to get a clue (dont wanna give myself away) about a million times or two (betting with a poker face) but i dont wanna make a move i’m on the couch with my buddy with the pipe in the study and I’m embarrased to admit it but it’s true
30 years and i still dont know shit, 30 years and i still dont know, 30 years and i still dont show it heres to hoping i outgrow this. 30 years and i still dont know shit, 30 years and i still dont know, heres to hoping i outgrow this, in 30 years, in 30 years. 40 years and i still wont know shit, 40 years and i still wont know, 40 years and i just might show it heres to hoping i dont blow this! 40 years and i still wont know shit, 40 years and i still wont know! Heres to hoping i dont blow this in 40 years in 40 years
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dayz gone
03:11
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“I lost my keys I can’t win, all that i love is in my voltswaggon. I think i broke my phone again, still havent learned my lesson. This room can never repay, everything i love i gave away without knowing what it takes from everyone around me (from everyone around me) The miles show on my face (the miles show on my face) my friends get further every goddamn day (every goddamn day) they say its selfish to complain when i say that i’m breaking. I’m sorry for not smiling through it
Dayz gone can’t count on anyone, i put the blame on everybody around. Right back to day one, right where we started from, fucked up and no fun, no good for anything else
I know we have to go soon but i’m plastered to this dirty motel floor, from the night before. Three more weeks on this run, cannot fall apart now, gotta grip my nerves and pay my dues i know that i desereve this but just give me ten more minutes, i’m sorry for not smiling through this.
Dayz gone can’t count on anyone, i put the blame on everybody around. Right back to day one, right where we started from, fucked up and no fun, no good for anything else x2 I lost my keys i cant win, all that i love is in my VW i think i broke my phone again.
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team fight tactics
02:49
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Sunday night dreaming of sneaking you in through the window, we can play nintendo, you gotta stop letting me win though. Monday night we can do whatever you wanna, we dont have to watch football, i probably watch too much football.
I’m stuck, nothing i can do when i cant stop thinking bout you and the way that you laugh when you finish my jokes and you were deadass when you said i’m not a joke to you
Oh honey, you make me wanna be somebody, and even though you think i’m funny i’m not a joke to you
I think i need you more than money, you make me wanna be somebody and even though you think i’m funny I’m not a joke to you.
You put up with my dumb band and my drunk friends and we dont fight, well only on game night then maybe we just might. If you play your cards right you can roll my d20 but only if i can pick dinner (do you even know what you want for dinner? I do not. Were going to wafflehouse)
I’m stuck, nothing i can do when i cant stop thinking bout you and the way that you laugh when you finish my jokes and you were deadass when you said i’m not a joke to you
Oh honey, you make me wanna be somebody, and even though you think i’m funny i’m not a joke to you
I think i need you more than money, you make me wanna be somebody and even though you think i’m funny I’m not a joke to you.
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lord have mercer
03:46
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“In the name of love I lost an arm and a leg and more. In the name of love i gave all the flesh that you begged me for. In the name of love i let you swallow me alive. In the name of love i need to get away from you”
“So can you tell me now, how big a boy are ya? Now that i’m calling you out, ate up with your paranoia, I hope it destroys ya”
“In the name of love i drained myself on the killing floor. In the name of love I taught myself to train the carnivore, In the name of love i removed your teeth one at a time you can’t hurt me anymore. In the name of love i became a vessel you can’t possess”
How big a boy are ya? Now that i’m calling you out, ate up with your paranoia i hope it destroys ya can you say it now? How big a boy are ya? Now that i’m calling you out, ate up with your paranoia i hope it destroys ya.”
In the name of love I buried you in the bed you made, drowned you in the blood you spilled man down, who wants to join him? I’ve got a taste for it now how big a boy are ya? Now that i’m calling you out, ate up with your paranoia, i hope it destroys ya. Can you say it now? How big a boy are ya? Now that I’m calling you out, ate up with your paranoia i hope it destroys ya”
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It’s nuanced and i’m abstract, I’m sorry i get sidetracked but lately i dont know who i am. Its messed up that i’m messed up but i’m out of good ideas, everything is screaming and you’re so quiet. It’s intricate, incredible, you try and love its tangible, but one of lifes cruelest jokes is its temporal and its terrible, its beautifully unbearable and if all that sounds like bullshit, its cause it is.
It’s clear to me why i’m so lonely, I only worry about me.
If i could just stop talkin about myself maybe i’d mean something to someone else but the words are burning in my throat whoa there they go. I want to cut them out, cut them out, i want to cut it out, cut it out, i want to cut them out, cut them out, oh whoa, there they go.
I’m awkward and exhausting, and it feels like a haunting, a memory of future i can’t find
It’s clear to me why i’m so lonely, I only worry about me.
If i could just stop talkin about myself maybe i’d mean something to someone else but the words are burning in my throat whoa there they go. I want to cut them out, cut them out, i want to cut it out, cut it out, i want to cut them out, cut them out, oh whoa, there they go.
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midnight mass
03:48
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I almost miss doing drugs with you but you never call me back when your sober. you Do everything that we used to do but you cant fall in love when its over
I almost miss doing drugs with you, long night drives hitting bumps on the shoulder. With everything that we were into, fly around town in your corolla. I almost miss getting drunk with you, late night drags when the air got colder, with the beds that we crawled into, never really cared if we got older. Losing you is the price to be ok.
I almost miss doing drugs with you but you never call me back when your sober. you Do everything that we used to do but you cant fall in love when its over
I almost miss getting high with you, midnight mass in the middle of the summer, with everything that you got into, everynight turned into a bummer. I almost miss all the fights with you, coming home late heartbeat like a drummer, no matter what you put me through id take you back cuz i almost miss you. Losing you was the price to be ok. Close the door, i cant stay, i cant watch you fade away
I almost miss doing drugs with you but you never call me back when your sober. you Do everything that we used to do but you cant fall in love when its over
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guitar pro 5 theme
00:28
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CLIFFDRIVER
01:00
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“Bird brain! There’s so much hate, where is the love? Put your egos aside, evolve your mind. Give yourself time, Evolve or die. The only one that can save you is you. Give yourself time, evolve your mind. The only one who can save you is you.
I am a bird i am flying so high (don’t be a birdbrain) the icecaps are melting were all gonna die (dont be a birdbrain) your ignorance drains us, your greed is a shame (dont be a birdbrain) the whole world is burning and youre all to blame. Theres so much hate, where is the love birdbrain
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would tho
03:02
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This empty space between waking and a dream is pulling at the seams of the night before. I could never glean the darker side of sleep, hidden in some ween song from 1994.
I am one with her darkness, i am the curese in the night
I dont i dont want to go with you (chase you into the dark) i dont i dont want to go with you (watch you fall apart) i dont i dont want to go with you (prey upon your heart) i dont i dont want to go with you
Wish i could skip this scene it always seems to leave and everythiing will freeze as she slips under the door. And underneath the streams of her disembodied screams like some reoccuring meme as i’m burning on the floor.
I am one with her darkness i am the curse of the night
I dont i dont want to go with you (chase you into the dark) i dont i dont want to go with you (watch you fall apart) i dont i dont want to go with you (prey upon your heart) i dont i dont want to go with you
Existential immolution burns in the black, the dying light illuminates her on the left hand path. The road is never ending stuck brain dead in my tracks. Friend or foe i dont want to go
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“Would be glad if youre right and you get your reward that you didnt waste it on us? You turned down the refugee, left famine in the street while you hid in a McMansion with your fancy lights and smoke machines.
Do you remember me as a child? Don’t you still love my laugh?
If we dont get eternity why dont you want this life with me?
Praying on dying dreams and suburban sprawl, which one of us fell short? your law was suppsed to be love
Don’t you remember me as child? Dont you still love my laugh? Dont you want this little while before he burns me with the chaff?
If we don’t get eternity why dont you wan thiis life with me? Deep guilt wrapped in fragility, I’ll always wish that you wanted me.
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Oh no not this again,
I’ll ghost my therapist and all my friends,
become a hermit on the weekend
feels like my shell is closing in.
Oh no here we go again. Here we go again
How is this my default?
I only listen to the insults,
my lungs are choking on the asphalt.
I cant afford my adderall.
So while i’m riding this free fall (everytime I)
ignoring all my phone calls (say i’m fine)
gave up the alcohol (i realize i still)
so i count the cracks in my wall (kinda wanna die)
I dont go to parties even when i’m invited i never know what to say.
I know things are changing i know that i’m changing so why does it feel the same?
Oh no not this again,
I’ll ghost my therapist and all my friends,
become a hermit on the weekends
feels like my shell is closing in. X2
Oh shit not this again. Here we go again x2
I dont go to parties even when i’m invited i never know what to say.
I know things are changing i know that i’m changing so why does it feel the same?
I can’t go to shows without feeling so old I get dressed but dont leave the house,
the curtains are closed and i’m sleeping alone lock me in and dont let me out.
I dont go to parties even when i’m invited i never know what to say.
I know things are changing i know that i’m changing so why does it feel the same? (and i keep getting in my own way)
always in the corner like a recluse,
feeling like a drug that you just abuse,
when life is nothing more than win or lose
on and on so it goes.
Are the weekends just a waste of my time?
Lie straight to your face when i’m asked if i’m fine
sit down take my meds and fall back in line
get it right i’ll be just fine
Oh no not this again,
I’ll ghost my therapist and all my friends,
become a hermit on the weekends
feels like my shell is closing in. X2
Oh shit not this again.
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You can’t look yourself in the eyes most days, can’t seem to shake this feeling of violent rage with who you could’ve been, and who i shouldve been. Your close knit friends have all spun away and you still pop a stitch when you hear my name and it starts again all alone again.
You always go for broke when you cant deal, guess the patterns and spin the wheel. Nothing matters if nothings real so sit back and relax until you go to hell
You fall asleep with the office on and youre still replaying the same 12 songs just like we used to do, old blink 182. And every night you slip into, the same damn paterns you cant tear through you’ll get high again, all alone again
You always go for broke when you can deal, guess the patterns and spin the wheel. Nothing matters if nothings real so sit back and relax until x2
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