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I came to you all broken
Shattered to bits
In the hope you could piece me back together
You held me in your hand
But then you blew me away
Like a terrible wind blowing on a feather
Why did you do it
I don't understand
Did you think it was right
Did you think that you should
When it all comes down to it
The answer is clear
You hurt me just 'cause you could
You know all my foibles
And my vulnerable parts
And you stabbed them like an open sore
And I apologized profusely
Over and over
And said, Please may I have some more
When I think about it
It don't make much sense
You are the engine and I'm the caboose
You have all the power
And I trail along
While you wield the abuse
I believed in you
That was my mistake
Never believe no one you always say
I hope you are happy
Did you get what you want
Tearing me to shreads like a bird of prey
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I and Thou
04:25
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My friend Pete
He just don’t get it
He thinks I’m clearly out of my gourd
Well I don’t blame him
I think it’s nuts
Like I’ve fallen on my own sword
On my own sword
Never gonna get
Never gonna get
Never gonna get
Never gonna get over it
No way, no how
Never gonna get
Never gonna get
Never gonna get
Never gonna get over it
I and thou
My friend Pete
He’s kind of pissed
He says I need to get my shit straight
What can I say
I’d have to agree
But that shit smell don’t wanna dissipate
Fumigate
Yeah I know it's messed up
But it's better that I've fussed up
My friend Pete
He says I’ve lost it
What in the world could I be thinking
Wanna tamp it down
Wanna cover it up
But it’s not shrinking
It’s not shrinking
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You tell me that I'm a grown man
And I can make my own choices
But what I hear is I'm a little boy
Who heeds belittling voices
What you say and what I hear
Are two very different things
What you say and what I hear
Is that part that stings
What you say, what I hear
What you say, what I hear
You tell me that I should buck up
And I can handle the pain
But what I hear is that you think I'm weak
And I can't get out of the rain
Does it matter what you say
When I can't hear
You tell me you're wary of motives
And you can't give me what I need
What I hear is you want to leave
And it plants that doubting seed
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Goin' Down
05:16
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I can feel it, feel it bad
Shoved in me like a hose
There it is like a cancer
Going down, down
There it is
I feel the feeling
Feel it deep in my guts
There it is
Can't ignore it
Going down, going down
Boo-ya, boo-ya baby
Going down, down
Boo-ya, boo-ya baby
G oing down, down
I said, Hey, hey
What you say
Get yourself right outta town
Hey, hey
Going down
Going down, down
I can feel it like a worm
Burrows into my bones
I can feel it
Nasty shit
Going down, down
There it is
Black as sweep
Blacks out the light
Can't shut it out
Shut it out
Going down, going down
Where am I now
Where am I going
I have no way
No way of knowing
When I get there
What will I see
Going down, going down
The sun is gone
The moon is rising
The hammer hits the nail
The jig is up
The dream is over
Going down, going down
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Where do you go
When you got nowhere to go
When you got no place to be
What do you do
When you got nothing to do
And all you want is a little sympathy
Who really cares if you find your way
Who will stick around until judgment day
What becomes of the brokenhearted
Just one more soul soon departed
What do you got
When you got nothing at all
When nothing’s ever gonna change
What can you hope for
When you ain’t got no hope
No hope for just a little exchange
How much longer can you hold on
When you got nothing to hold on to
How much longer can you keep going
Will you ever break on through
What can you say
When you got nothing to say
And no one will ever lend an ear
What can you see
When there ain't nothing to see
The road ahead is unclear
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Needs
03:48
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You say that I am weak
I'm weak 'cause I see needs
As a part of the human condition
You say that I am feeble
Feeble and frail
A lifetime of submission
I got needs
But that don't make me needy
They give me strength to keep on livin'
I got needs
But that don't make me needy
My needs they are a given
You say that I'm pathetic
I'm pathetic 'cause my needs
They make me seem kinda lost
But you don't know
You don't know
The nature of my holocaust
When I am hungry
I eat and fill my face
I eat until I am sated
When I seek loving
I wanna fill your space
I wanna feel elated
You say that I am dumb
I'm dumb 'cause I see needs
As some kind of salvation
But when you got nothing
You got nothing to lose
And you're starved for sensation
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Lemme tell you just how bad it feels
‘Cause I’ve lived through it firsthand
Don’t get any better this, boy
It’s like waking up in Zombieland
Have you ever been broken
Have you ever been split in two
Have you ever been smashed to bits
Till there’s nothing left but residue
Have you ever been broken
Have you ever been broken
Lemme tell you just how much it sucks
And every day is one more day to rue
You say you want to end it all
But you’re a coward through and through
Have you ever been hurt so bad
Have you ever felt the deepest sad
Lemme tell you it ain’t no Penny Lane
This desert where you find yourself marooned
You can try to escape to the past
But nostalgia is just pain from an old wound
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Empty House
04:17
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When I came home
The door was ajar
And my junk was strewn all around
I listened close
For the cry of your song
But I didn't hear a single sound
In this empty house
Nobody is home
And no one is coming to call
In this empty house
It's just me, myself and I
And the night is starting to fall
I did the dishes
Washed all the clothes
Then I put my books in their proper place
One fell open
Page two-twenty-three
And there was a picture of your face
It was summer
When you came running
It was fall
When you ran away
There was no note
No proof you'd even been here
Other than a trace of your sweet smell
I sat on the bed
Pulled up the covers
Like an oyster inside a shell
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Limerence
03:54
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There's a look in your eyes
It consumes me like a fire
I'm helpless and I'm hopeless
Can’t let go of my desire
I am filled with a sickness
This addiction I have for you
You occupy my every single thought
And my thoughts are born of blue
You shine, you shine
You shine, you shine
You shine with the hope of deliverance
You shine, you shine
You shine, you shine
But your shine is a terrible limerence
Never thought I’d feel bad
About something that feels so good
I just want to let you go
But I couldn't even if I could
What is this strange obsession
It’s not like anything I’ve ever known
Something once so small
Has blossomed full-blown
Shine, shine
Shine all over me
I whisper these words
Here is my confession
What was once a diversion
Is now an obsession
What strange disease is this
That sickens me like a cancer
I turn to you for comfort
But I get no answer
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Sorry Anyway
03:59
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I been known to make mistakes
Yeah I make them every day
I fuck shit up like a clumsy oaf
With bad faith and foul play
I have learned to cop to it
Not excuse myself what for what I done wrong
Take responsibility for who I am
Stop being so headstrong
But there are times when I been hurt
Much to my dismay
Then I’m not sorry
No sorry, no no
But then I say I’m sorry
Sorry anyway
I been known to break some hearts
Burn a house or two down to the ground
I lied until it became truth
And I stuck it in a burial mound
I’m pretty clear now just where I been
And where I might be going on to
I’ll send ya a postcard sometime
Even though that’s not something that I do
I’m sorry for all the things I done
And I'm sorry for the things I might do
I’m sorry that I ever might’ve hurt ya
That’s something that I never meant to do
I been known to lose my way
And fall completely off the grid
And there are times
When I'm absolutely certain
Certain of the all the shit I did
I know that I am no monster
Then again maybe I am
Even if you can prove it to me
I’m not gonna give a damn
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Insparables
04:44
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I had been waiting for you
But I just didn’t know it
Seems like I dreamed you up
And from those seeds I sow it
I knew it right from the start
I recognized your face
A familiar foreign body
In a forever embrace
I feel you in my bones
I feel you in my heart
Resist if you will
Nothing can tear us apart
Inseparables
Wish I could just let you go
But I don't have the will
So I tumble on down
My Jack to your Jill
Inside me there’s a longing
That fills me with frustration
Without you I’m alone
Left to lonely masturbation
I’ve known you for forever
Though I don’t know you at all
Such a crazy conundrum
Way beyond my wherewithal
How can we be together
When we are always apart
What I think with my head
Never matches up with my heart
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The Worst Hurt of All
04:05
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When I think about it now
I think I’m out of my mind
I mean why was I so completely enamored
You had me believin'
You were queen of the world
Until my heart it got sledgehammered
Nothing feels as bad as feeling the worst
When the worst is the worst kind of fall
But when you’re down, you’re down
And you can’t get back up
And that is the worst hurt of all
I caught a glimpse of a fearsome beast
And a face that looked a lot like you
It had your green eyes
And your aquiline nose
And an expression that seemed sort of blue
Feeling all beat up, all beat up and broke
And I am hurt in the deepest marrow of my bone
You have said your peace
In the midst of a war
And left me a complete unknown
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Eliot Wilder Boston, Massachusetts
“Keep ravens and they will tear your eyes out.”
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