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through blood, like kin
01:43
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I’m here because of the loves that I have known
Head clear in the skin that I have grown, I put down all my weapons
Five years since the clay split, and I can feel the change
Spent time kicking doors in, wondering where I have been
And I sang all there is to sing
To build myself up and get through some stuff
To be free of the sting
And I fell in love with my best friends
Redrew myself in kin that would last, not love that would end
I cried out for love abstracted from bone and stretched over skin
Now these unchartered loves, they flow through my blood, they flow through kin
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2. |
don't let it die
06:06
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When those who love you leave
When there are no words to speak
When pain is bittersweet
Play your song
For all the restless nights
For all the joy inside
For when the flame ignites
Just play your song
And I’d be lying if I said I always kept it true
Yeah all this pressure for success can change your point of view
When all our pain is packaged up
People writing songs just to stay on top
I feel we’re watching something sacred turn from gold into dust
So don’t let it die
We’ll have nothing left to sing about if we trade it in for chips
So don’t let it die
Let it consume you, let it move you, let it squeeze you it its grip
Just don’t let it die
When all there is grief
It climbs from underneath
There’s marching in the street
Just play your song
When you choose the way to light
When you lose the will to fight
Or when you’re aching for the answers
When you’ve taken all your chances
Just play your song
And I’ve been feeling something different when I hit the keys
Every word and every note is soaked with silent grief
It’s like I’m pleading with you both, won’t you help me find my way back home
Out of the darkness, I can hear you, saying please just play that song
I feel the pain as we age
This world is darker every day
Joy turns to flame in our mouths
All that once held now falls
I turned to you before I knew
That the day I lose myself is when I’ve lost you
You are the best of what we’ve built, you are the memory of our longing
Our longing
Our yearning
Our longing
Our burning
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3. |
the day
04:14
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Had to give the news today
They always said that it’d feel this way
I could barely move, my brain
Is taking me back to the day
Empathy removed, as soon as I had said the words
Your rationale, with tears, it blurred
You had the wound, cut, returned
And I held the knife, that’s what’s worse
And I hate to see you breaking down
I know the pain I once have drowned
I tend to look until I’ve found
The ones that lift you up, they bring you down
It’s just better this way
It’s just better this way
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4. |
back of my eyes
04:11
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I woke up beside you and I tried to find you
I know how your mind works, but I can’t see through you
My lips can still taste the smoke on yours, it lingered as I leaned in for more
I had never met a man that I adored like I held in my arms that night
Where did all the years go
don’t take the memories with you
I’ll write it on the back of my eyes
I’ll hold the corpse ‘til it turns blue
I am in my bedroom that we built together
Hearts full of hope we’d end up together
All the joy we breathed in those years together, I can’t let go
Of your hand in mine, who’ll speak first now that we’re out of time
Our love was always in water
I want to flow with the current now the cracks are dry
I don’t want to say that it’s true, cut off my blood in you
Walk down the hallway of our time, and close the door to our room
I don’t want to say that it’s true
But we both know that we are tired
So let’s find the peace in the quiet
Lay down, my love, in the silence
So don’t close up on me
Together we can grieve
Hold my hand I’ll walk you there
To set each other free
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5. |
kawai
04:15
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I’ve been thinking of how to show my face to you
Hiding always seems easier than folding in back to you
But here I am naked and sheepish at your door, will you answer me
Because when I’m before you, my skin’s laid bare and I learn things I’m not prepared to
So take this long due plea as my apology
You live in the first house I ever knew (still know the way back)
Dressed in black, and white as the snow
You watched as I grew, beside you
So many nights, aching to just escape my head and you were the only asylum
You showed me how to stand upright
And you gave me all the keys so I could finally find some release
You held me with no bias and you let me journey beneath
But I’m losing the fight with time
As I grow older you fall behind
And I gave you all of my mind
But you never had your reply
My friends tell me I should come by
I don’t listen and I don’t know why
But in the resonance of your rhyme
I think I’m scared of what I could find
But I’m glad I came here tonight
You don’t blame me for taking time
You only hold me as I write the lines
And you’re still dressed up in black & white
When I hear you I start to cry
You don’t have words, so I give you mine
With all the ways you know my mind
there is nothing that I can hide
The ways you know my mind
There is nothing that I could hide
And when I hear your voice
I start to cry
But you don’t have words
So I give you mine
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6. |
calvert street
00:50
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7. |
marrickville pause
04:32
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We fly on a carpet through soundwaves and end up alone in a far place
There’s no one but us in its hallways
Lined with stardust sticking to my heart
but how did all this start
could it have been avoided
I only wanted to make art
when the hour is late and the lights dim
there’s no-one on earth but me and him
we travel through musical spacetimes
and I confuse this pleasure as romance
the blood is pumping thick now
are you the thing of beauty or are you just a man
Where do we go from here
Where do we go from here
I love you when I shouldn’t
I love you when I don’t
Will I ever see with sobriety
What’s real away from our odyssey
I’m trying to know if in our place
Love as we know it takes different shape
But how do I break your gaze
Why does my skin feel so glazed
In a dreamstate with you
This is what I’ve always wanted
To dive into space wide open
You entered my life and I needed it
Little did I know it would be this hard
The blood is in my heart now
We’re at the sticky centre
Of where the loves I know unfold
I’ll try to meet you in the middle of what we both see
You’ll try to meet me in the middle of what we both need
I’ll try my best to keep my head up while my words bleed
Although I try I know the truth will never find peace
So please may it set me free
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8. |
a quiet kind
03:42
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Big thief stole my glance away from the green
So golden from the sun’s rays
So golden just like Mary must have been
And when I looked back it was darker
Like a forest and I thought that things sparkle when the light hits them
Coz there’s a different kind of light in them
It’s a quiet kind, a hidden kind, like laughing when you are alone
And now the green is faded again, carved in to some fluorescent
And I think that the sun is meeting it late
And I see that green is patient like a heart broken waiting on the threshold of being okay
‘Cause there’s a different kind of light today
It’s a quiet kind, a hidden kind, like laughing when you are alone
And now the green is faded again
Carved out by shaded stencils
And I think that its rays are halved by a cloud
And I wonder if another has ever wondered
About the way it wanders on the grass like me
Coz there’s a different kind of light in me
It’s a quiet kind, a hidden kind, like laughing when you are alone
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9. |
ecstasy
05:17
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The woman in white
with cerulean eyes
placed purple sweet on my tongue
Eyes close in delight
pleasure and fear collide
she is my captain tonight
She says
I’m gonna take you to a place where the people shed their faces
and indulge in isolation
I say
I can’t exist much longer vacant
captain, fly me to escape
she pulled the ripcord under
I flew down into
Ecstasy, with her denim black coat she was heaven to see
Could have sank a ship cold way she licked the venti
And even as the club rolled she was quiet mostly
And in the moonlight she glowed she was hooked and heavy
Said she didn’t even like what the club was playing
So we stumbled outside with my shy heart thumping
And I felt myself hung between bliss and blistering
She’s driving us real late through the streets
Is this thing on tonight?
These nerves are permeating all my senses
My premonitions are relentless
I would follow this girl to the end of the world
If it meant that this night wouldn’t end without her
I’m swimming deep in her curls
Where is she taking me?
The danger is plain to see
I’m losing myself in greed
I want to feel good
I want to feel good
I want to feel it with you, baby
The woman in white with cerulean eyes
Placed purple sweet on my tongue
She left me rolling, losing myself in her
I’ll find my own way tonight
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10. |
interstice
05:00
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This temperamental magnet has attracted me to you
Like novacane I’m stacked against my poison overdue
Written on my will is a cause of death procured to satisfy my own thrill
I’m coming into view now, skin as suit and fears as ale
I am coming into dreams now, can’t decipher what is real
I’m a pendulum in swing from left to right
I’ll kiss and then I’ll bite
On earth and then in flight
What will I want tonight
How many times will my heart let me fall from friend to more
I don’t care much for Eros
But his wings falter near us
He falls down from full clouds
Casts his gaze ‘neath my own brow
Love lays out on a flat plane
Affect blurs through the dark space
I draw lines slanted each ways
I draw lines through the straight lanes
Let me invent this love place
Let me invent this love place
I feel love in a few ways
I don’t think that should feel strange
Let me invent this love!
Let me invent this love place
I feel love in a few ways
I don’t think that should feel strange
I am coming into dreams now, can’t decipher what is real
I’m a pendulum in swing from left to right
I’ll kiss and then I’ll bite
On earth and then in flight
What will I want tonight
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Ella Haber Sydney, Australia
Sydney-based singer/songwriter.
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