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Biblical Love
03:46
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I want a biblical love
But it’s never enough
Bled every day for a month
A chemical release
I’ll make it up to you
There’s something strange in the water
I miss my prepubescent body
I miss my ten year old dreams
Now I sleep with a knife
I’m baptized in the night
I want to be faithless and pure
I want to be quiet and sober
I want to be untouched and clean
Til you follow me home
And you take that from me
But it feels like I’m climbing fucking mountains to get to you
And God, you’re so tortured, I just love that about you
I want a biblical love
But it’s never enough
Want it to tear me apart
Drain the breath from my lungs
Til I’m coming undone
But how much more do you need?
Do you want me to bleed?
All night I’m clenching my teeth
You hunt me down in my dreams
Make a martyr of me
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2. |
Cat's Cradle
03:50
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I’ve been collecting all your pictures
I’ve been dressing in your clothes
I’ve been translating all our planets
You send me messages in code
I think I’ve seen you in the movies
You look so tall up on that screen
Your tears are silver light and plastic
It doesn’t mean a thing to me
Now I spend my days dreaming about you
'Cause you’re so cool
And I spend my nights twisted up for you
'Cause you’re so cruel
Oh no! I’m dreaming again
All I want is you
I’m frightened by the world
You’re the only one who turns me on
When I touch myself I feel you near me
I chase the light that chases you
My fingers tapping on the mirror
Only your voice can pull me through
I walked through the rain to come and see you
To touch the edges of your world
You tie my insides up, cat’s cradle
I’d crawl through hell to be your girl
Now I spend my days dreaming about you
'Cause you’re so cool
And I spend my nights twisted up for you
'Cause you’re so cruel
Oh no! You don’t know my name
But I would die for you
I’m frightened by the world
You’re the only one who turns me on
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3. |
Maniac
02:25
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If I’m being honest, I don’t want you to be happy
I want you to suffer, now what does that say about me?
You’re driving me crazy, you make me stupid
And you make me lazy, I make you mean
And God, I’m so tired, and you’re still a liar
After years of therapy
I won’t be such an easy mark
The next time that you find me, you won’t find me waiting
I will get everything I want
While you give up so easy, back to the life you hated
When there’s no one left to blame for the rain
Baby, what you gonna do with all that pain?
I invite him over just to hold me
Even if I have to let him know me
You ask me if that’s biblical and I finally think you’re funny
Hide the bottles in the closet
Leave the glasses in the sink
If you’re so fucking worried then just say a prayer for me
Did I really hurt you?
Your misery’s leaking all over my bedroom
Your crocodile tears
You tell me to slow down, I think you should go now
Burn your image in my mirror
And oh, the things you tell your friends
You put me in your movie
Yeah, you made me the star, babe
That girl is such a maniac
I think she loved me too much
Well, here’s to feeling nothing
When there’s no one left to blame for the rain
Baby, what you gonna do with all that pain?
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4. |
Valentine
04:34
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I’ll throw you a party, with all of your friends
We’ll kiss like the movies, we’ll stay 'til the end
And then we’ll get married, we can live on the beach
Where it’s always October, 'cause you’d give up the sun for me
And all your friends hate me, I’m not a likeable girl
Your parents keep saying that I’m more trouble than I’m worth
Valentine, what do they know?
Does it belong to you and me or everybody now?
Love of mine, why’d you go?
I can't forget you now, it’s impossible
Do you want to be free?
Do you just want to be free of me?
I was always a stranger, not a comfortable kid
Sick from the sunlight, crescent moon wrists
But I gave you something, I built a whole world for you
But I took it too far like I always do
And I love you so deeply, and you hurt me so bad
I'm all out of poetry, you made me so sad
Valentine, are you happy now?
You're so good at leaving, can you teach me how?
Love of mine, I’m not doing so well
I’ve never been a runner, I tend to stick around
But you were always a flight risk
Everyone knew it
Except for me
(Valentine)
(Valentine)
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5. |
Eternal Sunshine
04:02
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I’m sorry flowers, another disaster
I broke a glass, you cleaned it up
Nobody told me what I’m meant to do after
With all of these pieces swept under the rug
Now I’m sleeping with someone who doesn’t make the bed
But he can never hurt me, I don’t let him in my head
Nothing is sacred, and nothing feels right
I guess I held onto you too tight
I’m not stupid anymore
You stop me at the door
You make your hand a gun
You lie to everyone
I drank all weekend, found a new ceiling
Became someone you could never love
But you slept beside me so I didn’t worry
You waited so long to pull the plug
Now you hold your secrets, your bitter poetry
Your encyclopedic knowledge of everything that’s wrong with me
And God, you’re so passive, is it in your blood?
You won’t fight for a single thing you love
You don’t scare me anymore
You stop me at the door
You make your mouth the sun
You swallow everyone
But I won’t ever let you find me
I will salt the earth behind me
I will eat up every part of your rotten little heart
It’s your fault that I’m alive
It’s your fault I want to die
But I will learn to love this world
I won’t be November’s girl
Hold your hands out like a prayer
Tell me, what part of this is fair?
Someday you’ll carry all this sorrow
But not tonight and not tomorrow
One day you’ll miss what you had
And I will make it hurt so bad
Cause I will cut off my own hand before I reach for you again
You keep the rain outside your door
While in my heart, it pours and pours
Tell me how you came to be in and out of love with me
I’ve got nothing left for you
I am sinking into blue
And I won’t dream of you this time, I will have a spotless mind
Witness protection, 51-50
You couldn’t wait to make the call
Get me sedated, no need to feel guilty
There’s nothing you’ll be liable for
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6. |
The Ides of March
02:39
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Why’d you let it get so scary?
And did you mean to end up dead?
Well, last night Francis slept beside me
And she could feel my heartbeat through the bed
Didn’t know this was our last dance
Ruby, why’d you take so much?
But then you held me in the ambulance
How deep is your love?
How deep is your love?
(How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love?)
(How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love?)
(How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love?)
(How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love?)
(How deep is your love? How deep is your love? How deep is your love?)
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7. |
Cordelia
03:33
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I would buy a gun, and I’d take any pill
If I knew it would bring me to you but I don’t think that it will
It doesn’t make me angry, I don’t feel that anymore
I’m never disappointed cause I’ve seen this place before
I think I saw you in the city, you looked paranoid and thin
Your face betrayed the weather, I could see it on your skin
I think I found our constellation, I can see it from your house
They say the stars are dying but so is everybody else
Now I wake up every morning waiting for the day to end
Measuring the shadows that I carved out of my hands
My saviour’s in a bottle and he keeps my edges soft
His sympathy’s relentless while I let my insides rot
Cause I don’t think that you’re waiting anymore
Do you think someone would tell us if we made some grave mistake?
All our buried conversations, our forgiveness came too late
Now it’s someone else’s secrets on the collar of your shirt
It doesn’t make a difference, it just makes my stomach hurt
I think I heard you on the radio, you sounded like a star
Now everybody loves you but they don’t know who you are
They say you don’t have any manners cause they didn’t raise you right
But the world has been so cruel, how could you bear to be polite?
For a moment you looked wounded, then you walked right out the door
Living in a movie, I collapsed against the wall
That fatalistic summer, you turned the tide on me
I swallowed my heart and chased my shadow down the street
When I’m feeling tragic, it’s all I think about
If you feel it once then you can never go without
Some kind of revelation that leaves you terrified
I think that I am evil, I could kill you if I tried
But I don’t dream about it anymore
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8. |
Squirrel Cinderella
04:01
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Another beam of light for my collection
No one told me how much this would hurt
My sweetheart has something to tell me
But I won’t be the one to hear it first
I didn’t sleep all week in California
Never thought that things could get so bad
Try to take some solace in the sunlight
It’s not much, but it’s the only thing we have
Now I’ve become a squirrel Cinderella
The days fly by the window of my room
Sitting on the balcony forever
Convince myself that I’ll never miss you
And I’ve tried so hard to find a soft way out
Summer’s on her way, she’s bringing molly
And Jenna’s got a necklace with a spoon
The internet is gonna make me crazy
Mountains are trees, I don’t believe in the moon
The drugs don’t work the way they used to
And you don’t send me dirty pictures anymore
Half a bottle down so I don’t miss you
Just a three day headache, nothing more
And someday we might laugh about this, baby
But right now it just makes me want to cry
You’re already thinking about Christmas
I just want to make it through July
Now I’ve become a squirrel Cinderella
Waking up in someone else’s room
Sitting on the balcony forever
Just another morning without you
And I’ve tried so hard to find a soft way out
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9. |
Skeleton Key
03:18
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After you leave me
Do you find it easy to get seduced?
Who are you waiting for
When you’re not waiting for me?
You could have broken me out of this life
That I’m chained to
I gave you my skeleton key
And you gave it away
But where have you been?
A ghost of a lover
Counting my heartbeats
'Til I see your hologram eyes
You can take it away
I won’t live by my hunger
I’ll keep you in still frames
A celluloid dream in the back of my mind
I know we’re doomed
Yeah, baby, please don’t remind me
I want you the way
That I want to be eaten alive
For all of the nights
That I made you applaud my soliloquies
What would it take
To make me a thorn in your side?
At the end of it all
Did you get what you wanted?
Afraid of the things that you’d do
For a life that’s not yours
I don’t mean to be cruel
But I’m so fucking haunted
I don’t think you know what I mean
When I say that I’ve been here before
Did it break your heart
Or did you see it coming?
Led to the edge of the world
With the sun in my eyes
Then I’m back in that dream
And I’m running forever
I’ll wake up with your hands on my lungs
For the rest of my life
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10. |
Pushing Daisies
03:43
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I wind my mechanical heart in the mirror
I fraction my face until I don’t look real
Then I sit with my crooked reflection ‘til you come to find me
Then I kneel beside you, pulling your teeth
You chase the sting with your tongue to your cheek
You get your hands in my head, rearrange all my dreams
And now you don’t look the same
With the moonlight eclipsing your face
Did you see too much?
How will I fall asleep tonight?
There’s some things you just can’t medicate
It’s never enough
And I don’t think you understand
All the things that you could have had
You’re reckless in love
And I’m not your enemy but I’m not someone you can trust
He boarded a train heading south in the fall
You keep his photograph taped to the wall
I study the lines on his face and I trace them on you
Trapped in a static electrical loop
Chasing a cellular void in your room
The rain keeping time with your eyes, dripping gunpowder blue
They got my chemistry wrong, I hide the pills under my tongue
But you’re never satisfied
You want something that’s larger than life
And I give that to you
But it doesn’t mean anything
If my love is a victimless crime
You’d rather be bruised
I think you’re crazy, my love
We’ll both be pushing daisies by the time morning comes
Daisies to bloom
There before the grace of God
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I run my mouth and it’s not great
But you broke my heart on my birthday
You said, "don’t cry, you’re making this harder"
Well goddamn, you’re just like your father
But if I beg you, would you stay with me?
And if I stay up, would you lay with me?
In the morning, you can leave again
And I promise I won’t lose my shit
Call all my friends, call off the wedding
Leave me at the altar, give me a good ending
'Cause you’re a good man, you do everything right
And when I get psychotic you don’t put up a fight
But you need a vacation, a break from my love
'Cause I’m always wasted and I need too much
With my splintering syntax, hysterical grammar
Parenthetical sadness, it doesn’t really matter
I’m not a runaway bride, wasn’t born for deceiving
I love you too much, I’m no good at leaving
Who’s gonna hold you now?
I won’t wait around to find out
Who’s gonna get you high?
Let you take the stars from their eyes
Baby please, it’s not gonna be me
You should get a ride home from someone who loves you
Did you show up just to hurt me?
Just to waste my time, or just to look at me?
Did you think that I would beg you?
Did you wanna make me cry?
Oh, what a tragedy
'Cause life’s so sweet and my friends adore me
Honestly, baby, you bore me now
I’m having fun again
One more time just so you remember
No one’s gonna do the things I did to you
And when you come back
I’m gonna make you
It’s dangerous to get what you want
Who’s gonna calm you down?
You always got so nervous in a crowd
Baby, why do you look so tired?
You should get a ride home from someone who loves you
Is this a worthy goodbye?
You drained the sun from my sky
To light up the halo above you
Well, God help the next girl that loves you
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