1. |
Spite Is Might
01:20
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2. |
Appentence
04:49
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this isn't a question of etiquette
it's only a statement of relevance
to steal the embrace of a tourniquet
I'll need to undress it and see the flesh
I want all you people to understand
to feel the betrayal of another man
exploring the dark if you think you can
examine the way it'll force you to pray
sometimes these walls will close right in
absorb the color from the waste
sell all the flavor I can taste
give us this day our daily bread
already drunk on wine instead
might feel better when I'm fed
it came from the south for a friend of mine
we needed her teeth to identify
the reason she feels such an appetite
revealing a beast like a parasite
can't help I'm addicted to novacaine
it's taking my soul to another plain
controlling the narrative not the pain
remaining a need or a longing to feed
implies we'll pause before we begin
stare at the sun our only threat
comes so easy when it's spread
we watch the birds circle our heads
built up an appetite for death
might feel better when they're fed
so legit I can't commit
the broken sentence I submit
comes apart just like a threat
the seasoning in all the sweat
all the flesh you can absorb
a piece of meat that I adore
all the squeezing you can get
I'm teasing like a tourniquet
and now I fear we've reached the end
tried to remember to forget
oh lord the rumors that we've spread
somethings can never be unsaid
life feels better when you're dead
our lives are better when we're dead
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3. |
Six Hits (Let It Be)
05:02
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skies open, raining again today
I'm hoping, I'm wishing but I won't pray
all wet soaking it up
I can take a lot of pain but enough is enough
inside, trapped myself
my god I didn't think that this
could happen to someone else
six hits, loving it rough
but no one ever knows if you cover it up and you
fall down, don't make a sound
lights out, I don't know what you're talking about
this time I've lost tonight
but tomorrow's the chance to make it right
all of the scenery is strange
gone a year I'll face the change
there is nowhere left for me
I let it be
my mind is going blank and I can't recall a reason
or a soul that I should thank
new world I won't embrace
a dimension that's preventing me from keeping the pace
slowed down you'll grab the knife
and dissect the little decency installed within my life
another answer that I can't place
you may forget my body but not my face
I know I'm a disgrace
there is no peace until I die
all of the scenery is strange
gone a year I'll face the change
there is nowhere left for me
I let it be
every destiny turns black
in the end we'll face that fact
my future's gray and I can't see
so let it be
my mind is going blank, there is no one to thank
dissect what's left of me, but you won't let me
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4. |
Self Image(s)
05:52
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understand that I went backwards
falling over going home
but moving forward as I spoke
I thought you understood the consequences
diversion from the earth
a newer version of my birth
deserving every moment
I said this time I meant it
I need to stop this, it's all a mistake
I said I'd do it, whatever it takes
this time I'll keep every promise I make
take a step backwards and give me the strength
give up my life and rewind it tonight
so sudden but safe led to the light
betray my stay because here I'm ok
there's nothing really left for me anyway
give up my life and rewind it in white
no tunnels to take me to sleep tonight
betray my stay cause the answers
reveal themselves to live happily after
repeat the sequences, I don't know what this means
cause all i see between us is me saying
separate the fake reflections
the same, it's all the same
my name my clothes my everything
again I'm left here thinking that
I thought I could see it
now I'm fading falling in cascades
I feel safer when I'm translucent
and I'm phasing, changing different shades
I'm so lucid when I'm not moving
give up my life and rewind it tonight
so sudden but safe led to the light
betray my stay because here I'm ok
there's nothing really left for me anyway
give up my life and rewind it in white
no tunnels to take me to sleep tonight
betray my stay cause the answers
reveal themselves to live happily after
I need to stop this, it's all a mistake
I said I'd do it, whatever it takes
pull the trigger cause everything's fake
pull the trigger and everything breaks
give up my life and rewind it tonight
so sudden but safe led to the light
betray my stay because here I'm ok
there's nothing really left for me anyway
give up my life and rewind it in white
no tunnels to take me to sleep tonight
betray my stay because here I'm ok
there's nothing really left for me anyway
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5. |
Siren Song
04:04
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once upon a time you could read my mind
and dictate my life all ahead of time
teach me once again everything so wrong
sing a siren song just to string me along
when I start to believe you can help
get lost in myself and lose sight of just how
I can't further relate
no I can't, it's impossible
I can't help but feel slightly betrayed
that something you said
could take me so far away
despite all the strength that it takes
to not medicate, I'm losing my faith again
all I know is that I'm not the same
I lose all the weight and safely sink home again
despite all the strength that it takes I
stay awake to witness my day as it breaks
caged in ribs and rhymes I can fake the joy
and I guess sometimes I prefer the void
I swear somewhere deep within that hole
lies a filthy heart that once was a soul
a heart that once was a soul
say you don't own me cause you've lost control
I can't help but feel slightly betrayed
that something you said
could take me so far away
despite all the strength that it takes
to not medicate, I'm losing my faith again
all I know is that I'm not the same
I lose all the weight and safely sink home again
despite all the strength that it takes I
stay awake to witness my day as it breaks
can I, will I ever fade away
tonight I'll try, guess I'm here to stay
can't die inside of a memory
can you help me please?
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6. |
Seasons In Hell
04:26
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I try to shrink to lengths at which my arms can reach
I'll need another way, occasional apologies
and when I go to hell they'll try to sell me all my dreams
just a testament, the origin of obscenity
and I'm designed, defined by only everything
create another way to beg you for my amnesty
as I'm confined, dispersing my anxiety
know when we step outside you'll always see the worst of me
I guarantee, the worst of me
get to know the first disease
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7. |
Of Love and Death
05:17
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pretend, just let me sleep again
I'm losing confidence with consciousness
I need to begin
I don't know why but just look under my eyes
through the REM into a dream where I can save you again
and I feel so cursed with this long life
because I wanna go to heaven but I don't wanna die
I close my eyes just to kill some time
escape eternity and exit anywhere that I like
and the screams might seem like
they're coming from someplace inside
I hide within my body alive
when I die don't let them bury me, I'll never survive
just leave a trace of me as debris
to leave my mark on this place
in case I still can't see
I lied when I said I never try
when I die don't let them bury me, I'll never survive
set free, now I'm just by myself
there's no use for good health
when I'm trapped here without you
I swell like an ocean inside
when you died you couldn't stop me from,
you couldn't stop me in time
I throw my fist deep within the beach
but the heart of the earth is too far out of reach
tearing graves in the sand in the shape of my veins
I lay down as I drown while the blood comes in waves
and the screams might seem like
they're coming from someplace inside
I hide within my body alive
when I die don't let them bury me, I'll never survive
just leave a trace of me as debris
to leave my mark on this place
in case I still can't see
I lied when I said I never tried
when I die don't let them bury me, I'll never survive
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8. |
DMT
04:36
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delete my education it dies in waves of code
naive infatuation I need I feed I grow
this time it ends abruptly, one nation rule the clock
three seconds start the countdown
it's all coming down, tick tick tock
remix our words with fire, they all still sound the same
the glow makes you perspire but you'll never know our names
the empty eats the canvas, the walls begin to rot
an off white tragedy while a revolution's about to start
don't try to tell me that I'm doing this right
while I'm living my life like it wasn't really meant for me
I'm burning fast upon entry here being so sincere
when I say the air is so hard to breath
they wanna follow you in nursery rhymes
so we can freeze all time
and go to sleep when you say it's alright
start to breathe when the oxygen leaves
and you can't conceive
of what one thought really does to your mind
you're chanting death to me but I'm so out of touch
all trapped in apathy, assumed I knew too much
and protest seems like action, it all goes much too fast
a delayed reaction, a modest greeting much too crass
to chain a reaction a poem goes in motion
once sparked by desire it ends in explosion
I can't understand why our world is so silent
in fits of expression our passion turns violent
don't try to tell me that I'm doing this right
while I'm living my life like it wasn't really meant for me
I'm burning fast upon entry here being so sincere
when I say the air is so hard to breath
they wanna follow you in nursery rhymes
so we can freeze all time
and go to sleep when you say it's alright
start to breathe when the oxygen leaves
and you can't conceive
of what one thought really does to your mind
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9. |
Gemini Transmuter
05:10
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when the left eye is blind leave my logic behind
and I just can't unwind what I see in my mind
holding onto a thought I could just recreate
I believe you could teach me to not dilate
ask myself to stop myself
I've tried so hard for no one else
I've tried so hard to be what you don't want me to be
wrong answer so divine
I could love you right inside of this rhyme
I guess by now you see that I'm my own worst enemy
no more lies, cursed
now the right can not see what you want me to be
cause ideas aren't answers, they're just a disease
full of toxins the insects are failing to take
in an image of you that's so wrong, stay away stay away
ask myself to stop myself
pull my heart off my sleeve, put it into my mouth
I tried to stop the beat but it just started to bleed
wrong rhythm run so fast
never try to learn your lesson when you channel the past
I know by now you see that I have no real history
in every way I retained your grace
I tried at least to salvage what I couldn't replace
focus on you, I'm too weak to play
a slave unto the speed at which my vision relays
and every day make the same mistake
accept that I'm the accident expecting to break
I set it up I deserve your worst
I blame myself cause this must be a curse
with my ear to the ground I'm recording the sound
of the movement of you cause the nightmare is true
never knew what I had til the moment it changed
it got lost in amazement in mazes of rain
ask myself to stop myself
I couldn't let go and I couldn't let it out
I tried to change your mind
but then you started to die
transforming gemini
I know you have to adapt if you wanna survive
I wish we could relate in a more comfortable place
in every way I retained your grace
I tried at least to salvage what I couldn't replace
focus on you, I'm too weak to play
a slave unto the speed at which my vision relays
and every day make the same mistake
accept that I'm the accident expecting to break
I set it up I deserve your worst
it wasn't your fault, it was only a curse
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10. |
Perish The Thought
05:53
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don't wait up for me, I can't think straight
this time please don't freeze
just run from focus til I can't see
why am I the one resenting everyone I love
don't wanna fake another smile
don't ever want to see you move on
why is it everything is all the same
even through all the fame
I stand beside myself inside of a joke
even when I admit to take the blame
and tarnish my own name
the guilt inside me causes myself to choke
all these dreams in me
achieved but still I don't feel complete
all alone somehow
this time there's nothing stopping me now
I'll reach my arms outside the window
catching any breath I can
(I'll need the strength to lie about my
perfect promised land)
these words embodying them all as
herds of dolls before the fall
(caked up in makeup tracing
circles in the sky until I call)
coming to my senses, losing all I never had
I'm burning each and every photograph
to keep from looking bad
saving faces I'd forgotten
save my own face, no exception
frame them safely, fake a smile
and say goodbye to my reflection
why is it everything is all the same
even through all the fame
I stand beside myself inside of a joke
even when I admit to take the blame
and tarnish my own name
the guilt inside me causes myself to choke
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