Former You

by Hammydown

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vickegan I saw you in Toronto last year and have been psyched to hear recordings of what you performed! Thanks for making this album 💖 Favorite track: Wedding Guest.
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hellbendervinyl We love Hammydown! The vinyl pressing for this record was lovingly handled by Hellbender Vinyl (hellbendervinyl.com) in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. Put this on your turntable and let this album ride! Favorite track: Former You (feat. Caroline Rose).
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soupnstew Absolutely love the energy and sound on this album. I had to buy it the minute I heard Former You, but Meltdown has become the favorite. Great for a chill house party. I’m so glad I got to see you open for Caroline Rose. Favorite track: Meltdown.
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  • Record/Vinyl + Digital Album

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1.
Outside 04:02
So I swallowed the gall and I let you fall didn’t heed the signs The taste of my mouth as it all dissolved and it took some time It unfolds like a shade as it melts into the wall for me to find You wanted to stall so I made the call with you in mind ‘Cause I’m on the outside tell me are you alright? ‘Cause I’m on the outside I could never tell if we were on the rise ‘Cause I’m on the outside tell me are you alright? ‘Cause I’m on the outside I could never tell if we were on the rise Flipping back through the pages we were bounding down the halls with arms entwined Little drunk and the blush painting ‘cross our baby faces in rewind I’ll hold onto this for so long I’m not sick of you All curled up and the curtains drawn You know the weight of the way we do You know the weight of the way we do ‘Cause I’m on the outside ‘Cause I’m on the outside So tell me are you alright? ‘Cause i’m on the outside I could never tell if we were on the rise ‘Cause i’m on the outside Tell me are you alright? ‘Cause i’m on the outside I could never tell if we were on the rise
2.
An empty promise now you’re missing what you came for It feels ironic to be tangled and bound I guess the bits of telephonic buzzes are the almost Mix the gin and tonic and pretend I’m around It’s a former you It’s a deja vu It’s a point of view Just do what you want to do It’s a sober truth It’s a shade of blue It’s your favorite muse Just do what you want to do A tiny glimmer in the corner of a bookstore But you’re hardened that it feels like a chore You hope a part of you still lingers in the margin Reaching for it as it falls to the floor It’s a former you It’s a deja vu It’s a point of view Just do what you want to do It’s a sober truth It’s a shade of blue It’s your favorite muse Just do what you want to do (Just do it) Just do what you want to do (Just do it) Just do what you want to do
3.
Sideline 04:20
It was eating away how we didn’t bother You were counting the days and I felt smothered Now we’ve taken space and the will to recover It’s great to see the smiling faces of our brand new lovers If I’m honest I’m another Whole people waver like a landslide I’m glad you called this summer I hear you keeping on the bright side Oh well- we hurt each other A failure by design It’s time to clear the clutter I’m always rooting from your sideline I know I’ll miss your sister’s kids and I’ll ask about your mother Think it’s just that kind of thing even though we know we’ll never Oh it hits this type of change rattles at the shutters All the sudden shift of lanes yeah now you’re burning rubber If I’m honest I’m another Whole people waver like a landslide I’m glad you called this summer I hear you keeping on the bright side Oh well- we hurt each other A failure by design It’s time to clear the clutter I’m always rooting from your sideline I think we tried to prove them wrong just like the kids do I think you knew it all along and I think I did too If I’m honest I’m another Whole people waver like a landslide I’m glad you called this summer I hear you keeping on the bright side Oh well- we hurt each other A failure by design It’s time to clear the clutter I’m always rooting from your sideline
4.
Only Key 00:40
I gave you the only key Banging on my own front door Shall we break the burden? It’s so heavy I’m inclined to try all night Left in the bitter sun Squash out the need to run I’ve got to find the might To realize See it in a better light
5.
The Storm 03:12
You caught me frowning in the mirror Wont let me blame it on a bad year I tend to pent up all my anger and you know I’m quick to point the finger I turn it to myself ‘Cause I can’t be Who I used to be 3AM there’s a storm inside of me And now I’m squirming in my bed clothes Imagine smashing up my windows Next thing I’m knocking down my own trees You find me ripping up my Main Street And now I can’t be stopped ‘Cause I can’t be Who I used to be 3AM there’s a storm inside of me and when we fight Just know we’re on the same side It’s all on fire Down power lines I hope we’re on the same side No I’m no liar I’m just preoccupied
6.
Dandelion 02:51
Lacing up to run again the magic mile I’ve been having fun like I’m entitled I’m a dandelion still a child better mow me down of all my wild Tendencies Tendencies On the way out she said “I’m not gonna watch you as you float away” I’m not looking for no one but my own self to blame I’m not trying to strand you while you lay awake I’m just hoping you’re here when I return No one asks me anymore It’s out of style Blocking out my closest friends all the while Breaking myself up again in two piles Better scrub me down of all my vile Tendencies Tendencies On the way out she said “I’m not gonna watch you as you float away” I’m not looking for no one but my damn self to blame I’m not trying to strand you while you lay awake I’m just hoping you’re here when I return
7.
High 04:20
I’ll just pretend we’re in an indie film Play a soundtrack loud as we drive away from your hotel As if we’re underneath some spell Slam on the gas I start to question myself Tonight you know I better catch that flight Oh you learned oh you learned You found I barely have my head on tight Throw it all to the wind Oh yes I’m high and I’m tired Tongue tied Can’t tell you why why but you’re right I know that’s what you’d rather hear Your buckle clicked as we broke through With a look so cold Beside the paper moon Tonight I don’t how to act surprised Let it burn let it burn It’s like you hardly even had to try Throw it all to the wind Oh yes I’m high and I’m tired Tongue tied Can’t tell you why why but you’re right I know that’s what you’d rather hear Throw it all to the wind Oh yes I’m high and I’m tired Tongue tied Can’t tell you why why but you’re right I know that’s what you’d rather hear I know that’s what you’d rather hear I know that’s what you’d rather hear
8.
Meltdown 02:58
Now we’re finally taking it serious What took so long? I’m sick of feeling deliriously blind I wonder should I stick around Cuts you to the bone are you bleeding yet? You said it we’ve got a lot in common But then you fade into the background And now that all of the chips are falling Five seconds away from a meltdown Seconds away from the broke bough Seconds away from the unsound Seconds away from the body count When did I become quite so delicate what for? ‘Cause now I tend to think I’m irrelevant and wrong Desensitize you to the nines Fine but then it starts to overdevelop and we’ve let a lot build up here You said it we’ve got a lot in common But then you fade into the background And now that all of the chips are falling Five seconds away from a meltdown Seconds away from the broke bough Seconds away from the unsound Seconds away from the body count Five seconds away from a meltdown Five seconds away from a meltdown Five seconds away from a meltdown Five seconds away from a meltdown
9.
Is my shirt too tight? Do I seem all right? Do I look like a boy in a suit and tie? Nice to meet you I am fine I’m having a real nice time Thanks so much for having me Hold one moment I just might be Losing it Hard to believe a safety pin holds it all together I am crawling in my skin I’m sizzling on the frying pan Do I make you uneasy? Shaky hands spilled all my medicine and now I’m sick again Can I slip away to a safer place? To a body that feels okay Find a state of grace Ladies in the bathroom line staring in fluorescent light Try to smile don’t offend Will this party ever end? I’m losing it Hard to believe a safety pin holds it all together I am crawling in my skin I’m sizzling on the frying pan Do I make you uneasy? Shaky hands spilled all my medicine and now i’m sick again
10.
Swerve 03:05
Things are falling to shit again your friends tie it up in a bow You’re not making any moves but you still want a place to go You take one hard on the chin again like you did just an hour ago You’re not fooling anyone and they all have the want to know And now you’re hitting the walls again Your fears stacking up in a pile but you’re not scared of anything you say with a crooked smile You take one right to the heart and then you stall on the second mile but you’re not taking any calls and you’re deadset against the dial You want to stay right with everyone You want to go left alone You want to stay right with everyone You want to go left alone You want to stay right with everyone You want to go left alone You want to stay right with everyone You want to go left alone You want to stay right with everyone You want to go left alone You want to stay right with everyone You want to go left alone

about

Personal growth is a journey that weaves a path through the past, present and future. There’s the awkward, fumbling confusion of childhood, the hilarity and mortifying shame of puberty, and the suffocating nostalgia that piles up thick with age. Like the burning itch of an ever-shrinking sweater, you can’t ignore when it’s time to peel away from the parts of yourself that no longer serve you and walk away from them forever. Few can speak more to the sacred nature of such metamorphosis than the trans community- and Hammydown (aka Abbie Morin - they/them) is humbled to add their vulnerable, and often catchy musings to the conversation with their upcoming debut LP, Former You.

Abbie entered their thirties March 12, 2020 (yes, they are a Pisces) while on the road playing in their best friend’s eponymous band, Caroline Rose. Drunk, bemoaning a canceled tour, and naive to the global chaos about to ensue, the two made a backup plan- a new Hammydown record. Working from a mouse-filled cottage in remote Maine, Abbie’s 2nd floor Burlington, Vermont apartment, and Caroline’s Texas home studio- they have spent the past 5 years chiseling out a world for Hammydown’s songs to emerge. Abbie’s colorful lyrics, pop infused melodies and 90s grunge guitar intersect with the complex, cinematic, and deeply thoughtful production of Caroline Rose to form a unique sonic palette that simultaneously feels as unexpected as it does familiar. The songs are rife with the frustration of a queer millennial caught in the dumpster fire of our modern world, and Abbie isn’t afraid to laugh through the pain.

Hammydown aims to bring you just a bit of hope- tiny triumphant journeys to find friendship, self compassion and empathy for all of the versions of ourselves we’ve left behind along the way.

Copyright Hammydown 2025 // Slings & Arrows 002

credits

released October 3, 2025

Abbie Morin- vocals, acoustic & electric guitar, keys, synth
Caroline Rose- backing vocals, acoustic & electric guitar, bass, keys, synth, percussion
Mike Dondero- bass
Riley Geare- drums
Zack James- percussion

Lyrics: Abbie Morin
Music: Abbie Morin & Caroline Rose

Produced by: Caroline Rose
Engineered by: Caroline Rose & Riley Geare
Additional Engineering : Benny Yurco
Mixed by: Riley Geare
Mastered by: Riley Geare

Cover art: Ellen Voorheis, Katie Palatucci & Abbie Morin
Additional Design: Mark Balderston

Copyright Hammydown 2025 // Slings & Arrows 002

Press photo: Daniel Brooks

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