michaelcrucifix
i love this album because it made me nut, not once, but every FUCKING time i listened.
Favorite track: this is a song about being gangstalked (ft. /papercut).
itbechrisvrosky
Ayo this ep is sooo hard it even made me hard๐คจbut aye 10/10 recommend yaheardd also love papercut that song wit em hard too๐ค๐ต๐ฅ๐คง๐ตโ๐ซ๐คฏ๐GANG
Favorite track: how many milk crates do you stand on to talk down to me?.
Cant feel love
Why is it so
Hard to
Let it in
Heart overflows
But nothing makes it thru
Built a brick wall
While I was sleeping
Mortared with trauma
The pieces slide right in
No-one gets in
At first that was the point
But the sunlight hardened faster than I expected
Now I'm clawing with nothing wasnt prepared for this
Now I'm trapped in the dark
Desperate for company
May have built this
Tomb
But it's
not
my fault
It's
A long fuckin story
Thought I had no choice
Thought it was right
It was
Normal as day to me
May have built this
Tomb
Without
A key
In a lapse of my young judgement but
What do you expect
What should I have done
Would feeling it be better
I cant feel love offered to me
I can only give and hope it's returned
My
Whole
Life
Stuck with a feeling of
Anxiousness towards all my peers
Couldn't make a connection
Love
Was
Just
A word said to pacify
Justify
Not a real feeling
What I would give for a chance to go back
And explain to myself that it wasnt normal
To feel this emptiness
That there's more at play here
Fuck
Me
Why
Did it have to go this way
Empty pain
I can't handle it
Day
By
Day
I keep feeling life less
It keeps up
I'll keep sinking lower
In
To
This
Abyss that my mind's become
I wont care
I'll be too detatched
Day
By
Day
I'll just get more useless
Taking up
All of my friends mental space
I
Wont
Care
I may finally know peace
If I can
Kill this part of me
Is it
Too much
To ask
To feel some affection
Is it
Enough
To live
With lack of emotion
Am I
Enough
To be
Worth being cared about
Is it
Too late
For me
To turn my life around
Is it?
I'm so fucking tired
It's all so fucking dull
I'm
Seeing the eyes in the dark again
Always watch every move hoping to catch me
Cant even tell what is real
I'm always looking over my shoulder
Convinced that somethings there
Fuck
Losing face to the void again
Broadcasting all of my failures to
Mysterious entities or
Any motherfucker with a reason to harm
I'm Consuming
Anything to dull the edge
So I dont think about the things
That others can
Percieve about my life
Conscious leaving
In a state of emptyness
The eyes return they're always there
To think I'll escape was a fabulous lie
Fuck
Is anyone out there
Fuck it
Come
Show your face you cowards
I'm under control
I cant relax
Every nerve is about to break
I cant handle
The uncertainty
[/papercut]
I cant handle
All of this uncertainty
Is it all real or in my head
Does it really matter if it's still my life
Falling farther
Into this chasm i call
My mind and all it's nervous thoughts
I wish I could just live a regular life
Why
Cant I shake this
Know it's a delusion but it feels so
Real
I'm feeling sick
Surrounded on all sides but when
I turn around I see no-one
Fuck this
I'm done
Throwing
Away the pieces because
Something in my brain tells me they just dont fit
Pieces
Of me
My life
And everything I've lived
Shattered, cut like glass
Fingers shred to make them stay
Fuck
Did you feel the mood
Shift there
Say two goddamn words
Now
I'm a spectacle
Look me in the eye
When you're
Talking to me I'm not just
A fucking child
Look at me
Look at me
Dont look down at me
Why'd I tell you shit
That I cant take back
Why'd I tell you shit
Cant look at me now
Dissapointed with the company I keep
Dont keep me around cause you feel bad for me
Fuck
My dignity
I'll show you my skeleton room
I just cant stand folks acting
Like they wanna save me
Motherfucker save yourself
Fuck
I know my life's been rough
I know that think you have my heart in mind
Just shut up and go
Dont need pity
I just need support
I dont need this
Fake friendly rapport
Even when it's real
Makes me feel ostracized
Like I lie
When I do fine
What if they're all right
That I'm really too weak
To decide
How I'll survive
Stop that pity shit
Spend that energy anywhere else but dont do it in front of me
Stop that pity shit
I cant stand the feeling that youre looking down on me
Stop that pity shit
I dont care who you helped before
I can handle my own shit
Stop that pity shit
All this self serving bullshit sapping out all of my humanity
Why cant I do
All the simple tasks that my friends do
Why cant I behave in a
Way that doesnt make me fall apart
Look in the mirror and dont like anything
Dig in my heels and dont change anything
Fuckin why even bother now
Not like I really try
I'm slipping
I cant even eat
I havent
Showered in a motherfucking week
I know it'll kill me
If I cant pick up the pieces
I'm so fucking worried
This is how it ends
Pathetic
That I've sunk to this
Disgusting
Husk where all ambition loses light
If years can heal
Why have ten not
I'm still sinking
I've not seen the light for so long
That I dont know that it's real
That I cant know that I'll heal
I just sit here doing nothing that could help my daily struggles
Fuck
I'm letting
My life fall apart
Everything
Has just found a way to pile up
I dont wanna do this shit
Wanna be normal
I cant die like this
Refuse
I need to make a change
Daily feel like a failure
The final straw was years ago
But I feel
Embarrassed
Needing help with such
Simple shit that my peers can do without constant reminders
Never ends
These last few years
This constant downhill slide
Personal and global it's just
Total collapse of what we were promised
Clock in and
Work to go home
To eat and go to sleep
No time for some variation
No power to make a change
And I'm supposed to feel lucky because at least I have
Home and health and work to do but fuck all that
Renting isnt shit, my health based on ignorance and
I cant miss a week without losing it all
This cant be what we've all been working toward this whole fucking time
Let me dream just a bit longer
Fuck
Whole fucking species surrendered
To a few deep pocket cowards
Leaving us asking
when does it end
I just dont get
How anyone is satisfied
I just dont get
How anyone lives to old age safely
I just dont get
Repeat repeat repeat repeat re-
I feel trapped in a loop
And I'm not satisfied
And I cant find a dream to chase
Just ones where teeth fall out
Time just doesnt feel real
Doing the same old shit
I know I'm not a special case I
Just cant stop feeling
Like I'm stuck in this
Repeat repeat repeat
I'm in a rut again
Repeat repeat repeat
I'm clawing at my eyes again
Repeat repeat repeat
I miss the trauma because
At least in fear I felt
The minutes matter
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