Disobedience

by Prune Carmen Diaz

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1.
I would like to be someone else to figure out all the shadings that underline your emotions your delicate inclinations instead I never understood you your behaviour as subtle as the first snow whitens the plain your implicite gestures even if I could be someone else and figure out all the shadings that underline your emotions I’d imitate your perceptions
2.
Arcadia 03:47
unknown father and dead twin brothers unknown brother and dead twin fathers should I, should I, should I, should I, should I, should I follow you we met so lately and that is a shame but what can we say 'cause now things are done can I, can I, can I, can I, can I, can I follow you unknown father and dead twin brothers unknown brother and dead twin fathers unknown father and dead twin brothers unknown brother and dead twin fathers
3.
Loneliness 03:12
and my loneliness, oh my loneliness became someone, became someone every fuckin night, every fuckin night I sleep in her arms I sleep in her arms and my loneliness, oh my loneliness became someone, became someone every fuckin night, every fuckin night I sleep in her arms I sleep in her arms I became irrelevant I am a stranger in my own skin my pain is a restless soldier I lost myself in the dead-end road and my loneliness, oh my loneliness became someone, became someone every fuckin night, every fuckin night I sleep in her arms I sleep in her arms and my loneliness, oh my loneliness became someone, became someone every fuckin night, every fuckin night I sleep in her arms I sleep in her arms I became irrelevant I am a stranger in my own skin my pain is a restless soldier I lost myself in the dead-end road
4.
lost ships in dark oceans where to hide when comes the storm the waves sink lonely naves salt and cold water will bore holes in shells when the night begins to fall all the sailors pray silently for an island to die a reef to shatter somewhere someone is taking care last days of sailing religiously and being alone among a blind crowd the faith they used to have is like a drowned man thrown by the sea when the night begins to fall all the sailors pray silently for an island to die a reef to shatter somewhere someone is taking care
5.
Unfolded 02:31
in my brain there is a small place where nothing lives I apologize but I can’t go back in time to make you love me again I only know the counterforms my life has been so often folded and unfolded, we can see the joints I lost myself into unfamiliar landscapes peaceful graveyards you feel like a queen but you never had a crown no kingdom either I only know the counterforms my life has been so often folded and unfolded, we can see the joints I only know the counterforms my life has been so often folded and unfolded, we can see the joints
6.
your love was a swimming pool mine was deeper than the ocean children peed all over your wading pond dolphins jump quietly in mine poor lonely lovers that gave all their precious water did I diserve it did you diserve it our bark is on fire my soul is a player my faith a flower that grows under water water I admit I often dreamt you would sink my head under water until bubbles stop popping up my body resting there forever I hate you so much and made up my mind did I diserve it did you diserve it our bark is on fire my soul is a player my faith a flower that grows under water water deeper there’s no light deeper there’s no light sinking deeper far from light I spent so much time trying to defame you but you are probably benevolent so are my jellyfish friends did I diserve it did you diserve it did we diserve it did they diserve it did I diserve it did you diserve it did we diserve it did they diserve it
7.
foggy mountains surrounding black lakes foggy mountains surrounding black lakes heartless creature I will give time to my pain I don’t even know your name I don’t even know your name broken bridges above dried rivers broken bridges above dried rivers heartless creature I will give time to my pain I don’t even know your name I don’t even know your name
8.
you just killed the stars and you made the sky blind but you will burn in hell I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear sunsets are always longer cigarettes are always shorter all the lies you left behind there is nothing to save there is nothing to save there is nothing to save oh what you did to me I became this monster that frightened you so much who never says goodbye who never says goodbye who never says goodbye you are my nightmare the reason i don’t sleep the shape i do regret but you made the sky blind but you made the sky blind but you made the sky blind you just killed the stars and you made the sky blind but you will burn in hell I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear I’ll make you disappear

about

Disobedience is the meticulously crafted debut album from an
atypical artist. Produced entirely at Humus Studios in La
Chaux-de-Fonds, it features the same ingredients that set the
mood of her first single "December": dusty pianos, vintage
keyboards, reverberating organs and distorted drums. Prune
Carmen Diaz chisels out an ageless pop, and carefully lays
eight burnt poems in a silky orchestral jewel case.
Prune Carmen Diaz's background and autistic sensibility hardly
made her a natural pretender for the spotlight. Yet, over time,
She has allowed herself to be carried along by her entourage,
patiently anchoring herself on stage, and managing to make
her spleen be heard as raw as it is, without filter nor
euphemism. This album is the result of a long journey towards
acceptance, which, in her words, could not be achieved without
disobedience.
"Disobedience" deals with the notion of identity in the general
sense of the term, although it ultimately covers several
different realities. I'm trying to find out who I am in a world
that feels often hermetic to me. So far, my life has been
relatively complicated. I was born in 1987 in La Chaux-de-
Fonds, into a working-class catholic family. I was hosted at my
uncle, my aunt and their daughters, as my mother was
working full-time and I didn't know my father. For as long as I
can remember, I've always felt a kind of intra-familial
dysphoria, feeling different without being able to explain it, a
feeling corroborated by the constant yoke of religion. I grew up
feeling guilty all the time and ashamed of everything.
So my album talks initially about sedition and the kind of
courage it takes to refuse to follow orders without questioning
them. Breaking away from this means often being alone,
turning vulnerability into strength and otherness into pride.
Disobedience also adresses the difficulty of managing my
Asperger's syndrome, and its symptoms such as synaesthesia
and hyperaesthesia, and how they can be expressed. As an
autistic woman, I was taught from an early age to obey and
remain "in my place", even if that place was mortifying, to
keep quiet and to accept living rules that made me unhappy.
The fields of domination are as varied as they are deleterious,
and getting out of them requires constancy in the pursuit of
happiness.

This album is largely imbued with the ideas of Romanticism,
and is constructed rather like a memento mori. It is rooted in
the paintings of Poussin and Friedrich, and in the literature of
Kant and Schopenhauer. It describes melancholy, suffering and
boredom, drawing on sensitive experiences common to many
people. I write about what I know best, anguish and distress,
it's like that, what counts, if not to be fully happy, is at least to
stay away from pain." (Prune Carmen Diaz)

credits

released September 26, 2025

Written, composed and produced by Prune Carmen Diaz & Louis Jucker
Arranged by Nathan Baumann, Louis Jucker, Pascal Lopinat & Elie Zoé
Recorded by Louis Jucker
Mixed by Louis Jucker
Mastered by Morgan Hug
Label & Distribution - Humus Records
Publishing - Humus Publishing

Prune Carmen Diaz – vocals
Louis Jucker – bass, guitar, keys, backing vocals
Nathan Baumann – piano, rhodes, keys
Pascal Lopinat – drums, percussions, guitar on track 01
Elie Zoé – keys, bass on track 01
Kevin Galland – backing vocals
Fabian Tharin – backing vocals

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