How many times can I break down before I’m gone How many years can I hate myself pretending there is nothing wrong Say “It’s okay, it’s not enough for me to break things off” And I think it’s my fault ‘cause I know That I will give you all of me kneeling on the ground And you can take me piece by piece Until I’m hollowed out I’ve been feeling empty since you left The scars have set in From the cuts you dug so deep I’m so done with paying for your sins The wounds that you inflicted How’d you wash the blood Oh, oh You paint a perfect public picture, well. Roll back the sleeves No you won’t let them see what’s behind the scenes Do you feel powerful when I’m bleeding? And you’re the reason that I’m breaking down ‘Cause you’ll say it’s my fault ‘til I bow So I will give you all of me trying not to cry And you will break me piece by piece Until I’m dead inside I’ve been feeling empty since you left The scars have set in From the cuts you dug so deep I’m so done with paying for your sins The wounds that you inflicted How’d you wash the blood Oh, how’d you wash the blood Why am I the one to pick up the pieces that you left in your wake How come the monsters never pay the price for the people that they break I hope you pay someday and I’ll be doing great ‘Cause I’m done paying, yeah that debt is yours to take I’ve been feeling empty But I know the scars are healing From the cuts you dug so deep I’m so done with paying for your sins I will not be your victim You can’t have more blood No, you can’t have my blood...

Wrote another song about my trauma (whoops) Maybe I should just cry to my mama But I’m spilling the tea and I’m not gonna clean up Maybe spread it around I’ll tell the whole town ‘Cause you suck and that’s my problem Go suck your own bottle I’m sending the bills for my therapy I hope that you find pain and misery I wish you nothing but bad luck I know it’s petty but You suck Sorry if you think that I’m a drama queen But coming from the bad guy running through my dreams Call me what you want, but you still did the deed So I’m wearing my crown To tell them what went down ‘Cause you suck and that’s my problem Go suck your own bottle I’m sending the bills for my therapy I hope that you find pain and misery I wish you nothing but bad luck I know it’s petty but You tore me down and locked me up Told me I’m not enough So I’m the lucky one So I kept my mouth shut You played the long game for a grift Yeah you robbed me of everything And got away with it So I’ll settle the score No I’m not your Toy You suck and that’s my problem Go suck your own bottle I’m sending the bills for my therapy I hope that you find pain and misery I wish you nothing but bad luck I know it’s petty but You suck

Vampires They want me for more than blood They follow me home to feed from my soul Don’t care if there’s nothing left on these weak bones I called for vampires Drain me of my life force Mmm Vampires There’s a coven on every corner I’ve got nowhere to hide Eyes all over me Do they ever blink And no one ever warned me They don’t come just at night I can’t seem to sleep Are they in my dreams Chasing, erasing me Vampires They want me for more than blood They follow me home to feed from my soul Don’t care if there’s nothing left on these weak bones I called for vampires Drain me of my life force Mmm Vampires, Mmm I’ve been selling the taste, yeah ‘Cause I gotta survive I’m commodified Have another bite And it feels like a wasteland Is anybody alive I can’t seem to find Anything that feels right We’re dying, goodbye to the light Vampires They want me for more than blood They follow me home to feed from my soul Don’t care if there’s nothing left on these weak bones I called for vampires Drain me of my life force Mmm Vampires I called for vampires And you know there is no escaping You’re either predator or prey And I chose And there’s no, and there’s no going back It’s death or drink But death isn’t fast Exsanguination’s real slow Vampires They’re coming for more than blood They follow me home to feed from my soul Don’t care if there’s nothing left I called for vampires Drain me of my life force Mmm Vampires

Just an average burnt out indie pop girl Running ‘round the seven circles made your own hell Gotta pull yourself together while you go out of your mind Practicing your smile ‘cause you don’t have time to cry… Over stressed and depressed and compulsively independent But if you keep doing well no one figures out you’re pretending Head down, don’t tell Lost all social connection it’s more like social misdirection If you tell them you’re okay how many people would question it “So strong”. They’re wrong. Just an average burnt out indie pop girl Running ‘round the seven circles made your own hell Gotta pull yourself together while you go out of your mind Practicing your smile ‘cause you don’t have time to cry Always gotta be on so they don’t eat you alive Yeah, you indie pop girl Got your Barbie doll image best hide your internal grimace You can’t react when you’re treated like you’re just something to pillage “Calm down”, “Don’t frown” You owe everyone responses don’t you know you belong to them Your desires don’t matter they just want all you can offer Don’t think, just sing… Just an average burnt out indie pop girl Running ‘round the seven circles made your own hell Gotta pull yourself together while you go out of your mind Practicing your smile ‘cause you don’t have time to cry Always gotta be on so they don’t eat you alive Yeah, you indie pop girl Learned every kind of tension pulled in every direction Will you learn to let go… Yeah you’re just an average burnt out indie pop girl Running ‘round the seven circles made your own hell Gotta pull yourself together while you go out of your mind Practicing your smile ‘cause you don’t have time to cry Always gotta be on so they don’t eat you alive Yeah, you indie pop girl

He sees me three times a week On a screen But he believes he knows me And what I should be A small peek behind the scenes Try to be honest But he’s already got his story They don’t care, it’s an obsession Now I’m sharing all their transgressions What did he just say to me The audacity “Your life’s so picture perfect So who cares what’s beneath the surface You’re just one dimension Oh, and did I mention I can tell that you’ve been lying ‘Cause otherwise you wouldn’t be trying To have a life I’m owed more of your time And explanations why” Sure. Picture perfect life He sees me living it up It must be so glamorous It’s easy living their dream Ignore all the pain that I feel If he can’t see, it isn’t real I’m happy, obviously! They all say “Isn’t she lucky” But she’s still been crying in her sheets Maybe it’s not everything it seems “Your life’s so picture perfect So who cares what’s beneath the surface You’re just one dimension Oh, and did I mention I can tell that you’ve been lying ‘Cause otherwise you wouldn’t be trying To have a life I’m owed more of your time And explanations why” Sure. Picture perfect life Oh, picture perfect life How’d you know I always wanted someone To mansplain my life to me Don’t know where you got your expertise But you know better, surely… My life is picture perfect Who cares what’s beneath the surface I’m just one dimension And I heard you mention Sorry, I was never lying I shouldn’t be apologizing For my life But I’m sure you think you’re right So I won’t waste my time Sure. Picture perfect life

Standing alone in the shower Body’s tense wonder if I'll make it out Doors are locked checked them all like a thousand times But the water’s covered me in doubt My skin is crawling Screams someone's watching But there's nobody there I'm alone in my bathroom This is the world that we live in Girls waiting for the next villain And he could be anywhere Or anyone, don’t breathe He's hanging out with his friends Empty words wondering when it's going to end Can't say the thoughts really in his head You're weak if you speak with any substance He is hiding what's deep inside him But it's breaking him down he's alone in his own crowd This is the world that we live in Boys listen for the next villain And he could be anywhere Or anyone, don’t scream But now we will rise the villains will fall As they realize that their way’s out the door, oh We won't have to fight to see them crumble The poison’s in their lies On their words they will choke Now this is the world that we live in Calling out all of the villains And we could be anywhere Or anyone, can't run

Double taking when I'm walking down the street All you take in is another pretty face And that must mean that I have got it so easy Yeah that must mean that there is nothing more to me Call me “pretty baby” tone deaf boys who want to play Well babe you couldn't take the games I handle everyday I'd like to see you try Trust me I'm not your type Looking for someone who's just a little dumb Or too afraid to speak her mind Silly little girl bend her to your will But I'm not one to go down quiet Don't underestimate me you won't survive Better to just forget me…bye Acting surprised that I know seven letter words Well I can tell you that your comments are superfluous I may have daddy issues but I still love Star Wars Isn't it shocking how I'm actually a person Call me “pretty baby” tone deaf boys who want to play Well babe you couldn't take the games I handle everyday I'd like to see you try Trust me I'm not your type Looking for someone who's just a little dumb Or too afraid to speak her mind Silly little girl bend her to your will But I'm not one to go down quiet Don't underestimate me you won't survive Better to just forget me…bye Ohhh I'm not your baby girl I'm coming for blood Think you're the predators but I'm on the hunt You should keep quiet baby hold your tongue You've been driving me crazy you better run Looking for someone who's just a little dumb Or too afraid to speak her mind Silly little girl bend her to your will But I'm not one to go down quiet Don't underestimate me you won't survive Better to just forget me…bye :)