im scheduled to work 6 day this coming week after working another 6 days in a row, as a cook.
They figured out i am competent. I hate it. Now they have me working the jobs of two people while paying me the entrance amount for a fucking McDonald's worker.
I took this job because i thought it would fit my schedule, would be low stress and it was close. It has continued to be close by and that's all. I dont need the money right now, i got two other gigs lined up for the next month that i can easily make more money from doing shit thats much easier, i also watch people's houses and take care of pets and plants and shit like that and do construction work.
They keep scheduling me to work at 6 am. I already have insomnia, so im tired as fuck all the time and now ever more so because there is no consistent start time, or days when i work, or schedule so half the time i have no fucking idea when im going to work until the coming day.
Ive only seen my kid once this week and that was only for a few hours. I basically missed this whole summer with him because I've been working.
I just wanna spend time with my kids in the summer and not be so tired all the time and cursed for being good at my job by being fucked over till im burnt out.
Also i keep having horrible dreams. My main job right now has been processing meat, turning whole chickens into smaller bits. I ripped the spines out of so many birds, i keep cutting into their meat, i never really used to feel gulity about it before but now every time i break a bone or rip out a spine or cut up some other meat, my brain goes "look at that blood, this thing was alive, now its dead so that people can ignore it and it be thrown into the trash later because they didnt want to eat it" and i feel bad about it. Im used to making food people waste, but not at this scale, i feel like a needless butcher. I feel like i have more in common with the chickens, i feel like meat waiting to be wasted for some ungrateful bastard that never cared in the first place.
My immediate boss is a Trumpy, misogynistic bald white dude who, for the sake of my job, ive been trying to be nice too. Im nice too everyone at work though. Also he stole my work weed and then paid me for it…
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