Touch me, hug me, squeeze me, 'love' me, I'll remain in place,
You overclock the system, let it freeze, regain that space,
The burdens of a thousand trojans scarred within my base,
Security stopped scanning, have a smile on my face,

Watching from above as the horrors play below me,
Have to smooth it over, gotta terminate it slowly,
I am not a stranger to this, these viruses know me,
Turn my senses off, pretend that this is not unholy

I'll play dead,
Maybe you might stop ahead,
Too scared to voice my own thoughts,
You'll give a reason instead,

Easier silent than single,
That's what I would think,
I built you up so high, I learned to let myself go sink.
And now I'm doubting all my actions while you point out all the flaws,
Feeling like it isn't true but stuck enough to pause,
It's fun to play the savior until I got ahead,
And when I stood up for myself you ran away instead.

(I know I'm awake, but... I feel so foggy...)
(No more, no more...)

No more, not at all, I won't be violated,
I'll rip a fawn response to shreds, I'll never be invaded,
And it's not just you, from others, convinced myself I was hated,
So badly damaged, couldn't tell a soul, patiently waited

I started feeling anger towards myself instead of them,
How fucking backwards is that shit? Those thoughts were coming from within,
We'll do our best to scan the system, go remove infected files,
Give my directory a kiss, replace them with something worthwhile

Seeking out solutions, troubleshooting from within,
Recovering parts of me that shrunk and grew too thin,
Repairing the firmware of my mind, I'll take it back,
Finding confidence and love for me I used to lack,

I was told that playing dead's a smart way to survive,
But I'm not here to simply breathe, I'm on this earth to fucking thrive,
Make no exceptions, firewall is hella reinforced this time,
I won't become encrypted, I will love as long as I'm alive

I won't play dead,
I'll do whatever I can,
You could compress me again, I'll extract rage from within,

Easier single than silent, that's what I know now,
The me you knew is dead and I will never be knocked down,

Overflowing heart with a weapon made of steel,
I will act authentically, but will turn on a heel,
Thanatosis protects you if you're someone's next meal,
I'll stay the sweetest now but if you cross me again I won't yield

I'll love me more than anybody could and that's a fact,
Personify my thoughts and I'll make sure that I can act,
I'll die before I ever close myself off, won't relax,
I promise to take care of myself, foot in the right tracks,

I'll love so fucking hard but I'll defend it even harder,
I'm a person, friend, a sister, artist- fuck, I'm someone's daughter,
Treat people the way you want the treatment or get slaughtered,
I lower my tolerance for my own respect and honor.

(The sun continues to rise... it's getting easier to breathe again... every day I feel a little more like me...)