eternal damnation of the twisted mind; ok guys heres my confession, for as long as i can remember iv always wanted to feel normal, but i never have, no im not a gender bender or closet gay, but in my own diagnosis from endless research, i am a monster, the kind of things nightmares are made out of,and no i wasnt abused as a child, or have a domineering mother, i have no disability and i wasnt bullied at school, i wish and wish and pray to high heaven that my demons would subside, that i could be happy with a house a wife and kids, but that doesnt interest me at all , the thought of that makes me suicidal.the thought of working everyday for the rest of my life, abiding the law, laying down and taking crap, living by other peoples rules of right and wrong makes me physically sick. reason for my diagnosis...i dont think like normal people, i dont get disgusted at the horrific, studies on sphycotic serial killers reveal their inner windings, and i am 85 percent identical, it doesnt stop there, as long as i can remmeber iv been attracted to underage girls, not just old-legal, old puberty, i have sick, degrading and often voilent thoughts, the range of my fantasies goes from everything, from kids to beast to rape to degration even murder, yes thats right murder and i dont mean thinking bout it when i get pissed off i mean actually fantasising,rush of pleasure when thinking of choking someone, actually picturing a knife severing skin,planning down to a t the perfect murder and selected victims etc etc, the list could go on, i have planned my whole life, from the time i became aware of my condition i have portrayed a perfect "innocent" image of myself to others, minus a few rookie mistakes,everyday, for years and years. purely on the intention of if i ever act on my volcanic urges, that no one would suspect little old me, (you have to admit thats dedication to your art).now the awkward part...the 15 percent of me that craves normality. i have not yet acted on these impulses,the amount of times iv been ready to go on a spree that would garauntee to shock the world, i would litterally pray that i had a non-curable illness (see movie-saw)to then have an excuse to do what i want, the only thing that has stopped me from doing any of these things, my family, i couldnt bare them live with the shame of my name over their heads, my mother who is damn near a saint, my three lovely sisters, and my hard working father,it is because of them my enemies are safe to sleep at night, and the people of this world dont shudder at my name. god forbid if anything ever happens to them and i lose them, or they dissown me for whatever reason, then youll all know my name and this post will be the marking of my literary warped confession. being only 21 myself, there is plenty of time for this jekyl and hyde side of me to cease battling eeach other and show the world what were made of. untill then my friends, i leave you with one thought, is it better to die knowing you did everything u want but with a bad name, or to live a long life, and die an old unhappy man, filled with regrets, a wasted life. au revior

when i attended george washington u. i started stealing bras from the dorm laundry to figure them out cuz i was an idiot and thought being with girls i'd have to know how to get them off. i ended up in my dorm bathroom jerkoff off with the bra wrapped around my cock. it was exciting so i did it again. soon realizing panties would be softer, i made the switch and became addicted to panties. it didn;t take long to start wearing them. i had a 28 inch waist and no body fat and look amazing... like a girl... in panties. i'd jerk off looking at myself in the mirror. gwu dorms are apartment style, private bathroom in each shared room.

one day i was in the main building, the marvin center. i was a straight guy. always. i was in a mens room to piss. it was a weird atmosphere and i didnt get it at first. lotta guys in the all urinals taken. no one seemed to be peeing and i could see guys glancing over. i got mad as hell, turned and there were a couple guys who had their heads above stall doors to look to the urinals. they ducked as i turned fast but i saw them.

in the outer mens room sink area i was talking to myself about "faggots" etc and 1guy tall and foreign had followed me out and was grinning at me. i yelled at the guy using every known slur, hurried to my dorm and ended up telling my roommates about it.

days later? i stole more panties, jerked off and kept them, and that triggered thoughts of the mens room. the anger somehow got crossed up and became curiosity, excitement, whatever. i went back, wearing pink victoria's secret second skin satin panties under my sweatpants. i took an end stall in a mens room and was soon seemingly the center of attention. made sense. i was 19? 20? slim and looked like a high school kid. guys were looking in where the space is on each side of the stall door.

i kept mt gaze down. i could see their feet at the door. there were literally 2 guys at each crack. they'd jiggle the door but i was NOT gonna open it. no fucking way. i jerked off like that. i was there day after day cumming with my pink panties pulled to the side and men looking thru the cracks at the door jiggling the door hoping i'd open it.

eventually i'd lean back so they could see my face and i could kinda see them a bit. and then one day i opened the door and had a crowd of guys pretty much, jerking off as i stroked my panty boy cock. any time a guy went to step forward i motioned emphatically to stop them. i never ever spoke at all in there. guys would watch me and jerk off and cum and the next guy would step to the threshold.

early into all of this i of course started to get off specifically because guys were excited to watch me,. they wanted me and i was making them cum. that made me crazy and i always wanted to stay and not cum until several guys dumped their cum because of me. i got off on them getting off. and so finally at some point after months of this i let a guy into the stall. the first 2 guys i ever sucked were very similar and i'm not sure which came first. 1 of the 2 had red very short almost military hair, was as thin as me, and as i would soon understand after sucking more cock - his dick was one of those seemingly hard as metal. not thick, a bit thin, good for a rookie cock sucker.

i stayed on that toilet. he got closer, i was kinda letting him closer then stopping him for a few minutes. i hadn;t intended on sucking him. i just meant to let him come closer. was tired of policing my doorway constantly. he was patiently forceful, finally straddling the bowl and getting right in my face and of course by that point i was expecting 50 50 to have his cock in my mouth.

ok, now i ended up sucking cock there so many times... but this 1st cock easily drew the biggest crowd ever, which was definitely somewhat of a coincidence. there were multiple guys behind him watching. and there were 2 guys in the next stall loo0king over, a very rare thing even though i've mentioned it twice here. and there was a guy looking UP from the space below the stall wall. including the guy about to fuck my mouth, there might have been 10 guys. at least 8, likely more.

I am going to have my first time with a porn star in two weeks. We agreed $1,000 for two hours and discussed things like facials and unlimited cum. She said no to filming.

Any advice on how to get the most out of it? How kinky and open minded is it sensible to expect? Any rookie errors to avoid etc?

I am new so I thought hell might as well get my mistakes and rookie wrong turns out of the way. The subject states random. So anyone up for random sex.

So I guess the Denver Broncos decided to go with Kyle Orton as starting QB because they felt they needed a pro to show the rookies how to DROP THE FUCKING BALL!

So look, I gotta get this off my chest and I know some of you will doubt its true so I'm just gonna say now I'm not even sure I'm getting away with this so I'm not going to make my odds any worse by posting pictures or anything. I grew up with a small group of close friends and four of us are living together now as adults. My best friend actually ended up together with the only girl in our group about four years back and they have a pretty strong relationship. Few months back she comes back from a company party kinda drunk and I don't know their personal details but he acts kinda distant now, like there's a trust issue. I know it's only a paranoia thing because we grew up together, there's no way he'd have caught her cheating and not told me. So lately she seems stressed and kind of lonely in a house full of the people she cares about most, I feel like shit when I see my friends hurting so I tryn talk with her one the other day (morning) to let her know I'm there to help however I can. She ends up hugging me which is no biggie, she hugs all of us but she kinda leans into this one and when I ask if she's ok(I'm thinking she's crying or something) she looks up and doesn't really kiss me but moreso smashes her lips against my face while I'm just standing there frozen mid what-the-fuck-faced. Eventually I ended up returning the kiss and given that our 4th rookie was visiting family and my friend (her boyfriend) works early shifts we had the house to ourselves. At one point I had started pulling away thinking this was wrong but I guess she noticed and got me up against a wall and started rubbing my dick over my pants and just kind of gave me this look that said she really needed this. We ended up having sex several times before we realized it was getting kinda late and we'd have to stop. I should mention I'm not as good looking or social as my best friend but I guess based on a conversation after all this went down he never seems to care about their relationship and she ended up kind of craving the affection I show the people I care about (only friends and some family). On some level I've always loved this girl and for the time we spent together the other day I was convinced that things might work out, like maybe my friend really lost interest in her and would be happy for us. I always thought I was kinda smart but the fact that I bought that subconscious load of shit is evidence that I'm half a retard. This is never going to work out and now I'm sitting here having just fucked my friend who is in a committed relationship with the friend who's been a brother to me since we were seven and eight hating myself for backstabbing him, hating him for not treating her the way she deserves and if I'm being honest hating her a little for tempting me with what I can't have. Even if she chose me over him I would regret hurting him.

http://www.shooshtime.com/videos/108946_porns-newest-rookie-will-drive-you-insane/#axzz1aKfUzTkx
anybody have a clue who she is?

I confess, I'm a rookie on this website and I'm very curious on some of the groups/categories here. I'm very interested in the incest and dressed and undressed groups.

That's a rookie mistake :P

I confess to being a tri-sexual in middle and high school....My best friend was my direct next door neighbor, our GF's lived on the same street (convenient), so we usually all hung out at my house (pool). We started playing strip UNO and a UNO version of "Do or Dare" My buddy lost a hand, so his gf dared him to suck my dick, to my surprise, he did just that, never had my dick been so hard. I lost, his gf made the same request, I did the same, but gagged, and dry heaved. He fucked my gf and I fucked his, that same day, it was pretty wild. The next day, he and I were alone in my room, when I asked him to suck my dick, this time he did so much more passion, admitting he has always wanted to do so, but thought i would reject him as a friend if he asked. I told him I was not going to be sucking anymore dick, he said that it was cool, and asked me to fuck him in the ass, which I had never tried anal before, I was still a rookie as it pertained to sex. I was 8 inches at 14, and thickened up pretty well by 17. Using baby oil, i was able to get in his ass, but it was a fight, he screamed and cried so much as pushed deeper, he scared me, but every time I stopped he got mad. He sucked me and I fucked him until we graduated, and have not seen him in more then 20 years. During my high school years and college, i worked at a Hi-rise luxury apt. complex as a concierge. I made extra money reading books to older men, while wearing underwear, or allowing them to suck my dick, occasionally fucking them in the ass, these guys were all married straight men, it was crazy. One guy was so afraid I would tell his wife, that he co-signed for a new 91 Mustang Saleen, and ended up paying the notes. I love rich white people, they are so crazy. The tenants would at Christmas time give us guys 2500.00 a piece, hell i sometimes made that in a good week of reading....I have not touched another man since those days. I am now retired and part owner of a oil and gas pipe company with 40 flat-bed 18 wheeler's, have two kids in college (UT and Baylor) and a second wife of 10 years, who is 10 years younger then me, and the daughter of one of the guys who I used to screw as a kind.