Reversibility

by Poor Benjy

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1.
2010 01:20
2.
Whatever you looked at, you sensed looking back Like furtive pupils camouflaged in every milieu It’s not narcissism but implies a duality Of yourself as object and yourself as subject There’s reversibility to every gaze, every touch There’s reversibility to every throw, every kiss You don’t know how much I love you, no you don’t It hurts me so badly, you have no idea You feel your free will as a breeze; your body as a snag Peachy pale deathwish scrabbling at the aerobatics Of pneumas, sylphs, and flounced wraiths Libertine delusions There’s reversibility to every gaze, every touch There’s reversibility to every throw, every kiss You don’t know how much I love you, no you don’t It hurts me so badly, you have no idea There’s reversibility to every gaze, every touch There’s reversibility to every throw, every kiss You don’t know how much I love you, no you don’t It hurts me so badly, you have no idea You don’t know how much I love you, no you don’t It hurts me so badly, you have no idea
3.
Old Wounds 03:31
I still remember When you came back And said to me That you would like to be The only One I know Forever Keep it true It’s bad, bad, bad We can’t just be friends Old wounds, they don’t heal When you’re here We can’t just be friends (we’re aging faster now, we’re aging faster now) Old wounds (we’re aging faster now x3, faster x2) We’re aging faster now x8
4.
Please don’t wake to PTSD in the room You can’t keep the shadows of edges away Standing spent and etiolated in your brother’s doorway Wrists dripping and scaring his hoodie-wearing girlfriend It’s kind of funny He tosses the controller, struggles out the neon beanbag Yelling “Mom!” and “My God, what the fuck is wrong with you!” You stare blasėly Please don’t wake to PTSD in the room Your thoughts have a presence that preclude silence Riding to the clinic in the backseat of your mom’s fourdoor Watching the countryside fleet to nether of your sightline I’m still here Floating on a gurney, wheeled into a beeping backroom Pleas and technical cadences coalesce above you Sterilized in white I thought I could rescue you, maybe I was delusional I thought I could rescue you, maybe I was delusional I thought I could rescue you, maybe I was delusional I thought I could rescue you, maybe I was delusional
5.
Seroquel 07:21
There is a cowboy locked in your toychest He tries to shoot his way out But outlaws in footy pajamas Don’t get too far You put ribbons around your sister’s wrists Tied them to a train track Going around a Christmas tree There are no stops If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room They’d never of put me on Seroquel Someone needs to tell these doctors not everything can be solved With a pill If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room They’d never of put me on Seroquel Someone needs to tell these doctors not everything can be solved With a pill Your sister listens to Frankie Avalon While taking a bath The cold tiles felt so good On her scoliosis Every pinch, stim and wild yawp Has been Oedipalized By a school counselor trying to Send you away If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room They’d never of put me on Seroquel Someone needs to tell these doctors not everything can be solved With a pill If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room They’d never of put me on Seroquel Someone needs to tell these doctors not everything can be solved With a pill If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room They’d never of put me on Seroquel Someone needs to tell these doctors not everything can be solved With a pill If they knew my biggest problem was sitting across the room They’d never of put me on Seroquel Someone needs to tell these doctors not everything can be solved With a pill Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel (Just a pill, just a pill, just a pill, just a pill) Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel (Just a pill, just a pill, just a pill, just a pill) Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel, Seroquel (Just a pill, just a pill, just a pill, just a pill)
6.
Her curls in the reef Mermaid lagoon Eyes opaque like marble Skin paling wraithwhite Suppurated and blue Wedded to the murk Frills of lace, sinuous and still Limbs suspended in forgivance Kept forever in vines Two weeks ago Actaeon’s revenge Capering in the wood Barefoot, the ferns’ caress Caked soles and a jouncing basket The vagrant watched raggedly from his hollow Hatchet holstered in a trouser loop Gingerly arisen Skulked and loped, tree to tree Froth on the mind Lunged Phalanges flexed Dug tautly In the dirt Of her prayer
7.
Untitled 01:44
God only knows God only knows God only knows God only knows God only knows God only knows God only knows God only knows There’s gonna be a way There’s gonna be a way There’s gonna be a way
8.
Sapling 06:46
A painful tread Hunchbacked and squat Robed in bleak cloths Wailing his name Through ashen gloom (have you seen my son) Walls of smoke drift (his hair is brown) Squint against debris (eyes blue as thistles) Gray and churned ground (only seventeen) Blasted limbs strewn (have we not yet) Stepping over each one (sacrificed) Hoping none are him (enough of our children) In – In this nuclear apocalypse Children – they fuse into trees Incarnadine hued Branches outlining their sprites I can see their faces looking down at me Seeking a vessel to absorb into their roots And create more heads (heads) Is this a fever dream, I don’t know But I’ll tell one (tell you one!) Thing of which I’m certain That’s it’s not okay for us to be apart for so long And it’s not okay for you to hide from me Rivulets form (forming) In the creases (creases) Of my old face (old skin) No magic left (disenchanted) All these old tears (old tears) I can cry out (crying) Cannot revive (time is) These battle wastes (money) Unblanketed (so cold) Anonymously (no names) Did he yell for me? (Did he?) When he was shot (My sapling, please) Is there any way that I can push forward? Maybe again we’ll be together Please don’t let me become cynical Please don’t let me become cynical

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released December 12, 2024

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