1. |
Anchor
04:28
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My heart has set anchor on the bottom of my left shoe
It's the first thing I step on when I make my way to you
It's clear I'm leaving a bloody trail
Still I'll give you the hammer to pound the last nail
In my casket
Just bury me in the back of your mind
At least I'm somewhere in there
Tangled up in all your white lies
I've been working on my state of mind
While we're crossing over the state lines
I'm not trying to outlast the storm or the pain
Too much sacrifice, too little gain
I'm just learning how to dance in the rain
My eyes are weighed down by all the sights that I've been seeing
But really it's just you in multitude of seasons
It's clear my emotions are unsustainable
Still I'm racking up a bill on this payphone
From my heart to my brain
I've been working on my state of mind
While we're crossing over the state lines
I'm not trying to outlast the storm or the pain
Too much sacrifice, too little gain
I'm just learning how to dance in the rain
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2. |
Make It Out
04:46
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Sometimes I think that I’ve lost all my direction
Contempt with this projection, well give it time
And I’m not sure if I should brush my teeth and lie in bed
Get some sleep or try again to get anything done
Giving up has never been so easy
Look at me
Doomed to cycle through eternity
Someone help me out
I can see, my own mind is suffocating me
And I’m so filled with doubt
That I’ll ever make it out
It’s hard to feel like I’ve got a sense of urgency
And I don’t care I’m barely scraping by
But I’m pretty sure that I could be so much better off
If I could just do what was in my head
Look at me
Doomed to cycle through eternity
Someone help me out
I can see, my own mind is suffocating me
And I’m so filled with doubt
That I’ll ever make it
Run to my car in the dead of winter
Cold air it burns my face
But I’m not late, I’m just impatient
And I’ve got no time to waste
There's so many things I’d like to get done
I’ll never get done at this rate
Medicate to motivate
Look at me
Doomed to cycle through eternity
Someone help me out
I can see, my own mind is suffocating me
And I’m so filled with doubt
Don’t think I’ll ever make it out
I don’t know what to do
When all I want to do is…
Stop
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3. |
Change
03:27
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It's snowing outside and it's snowing in my mind
No friends around for a late sunrise
It's been what feels like for forever
And things are far from getting better
I turn left, then crank the stereo
Just eight minutes, till eight hours till I go home
No rest just rehearsing what I know
For a hope that you'll hear how much we've grown
Will the industry be here
If it takes another year?
It's snowing outside and it's snowing in my mind
No friends around for a late sunrise
It's been what feels like for forever
And things are far from getting better
We used to
Turn up, and tear your faces off
Rocking out to bars and legion halls
But now we
Tune up, and strum under a loft
Rocking out to mirrors on bedroom walls
Will the industry be here
If it takes another year?
Will anything remain
Of all age venues and hopes of fame
Or am I just gonna sit here and watch snow turn to rain
Turn to snow
Turn to rain
It's snowing outside and it's snowing in my mind
No friends around for a late sunrise
It's been what feels like for forever
And things are far from getting better
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4. |
5 Questions
04:35
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When I wake up
Set a reminder just to keep waking up
Without an alarm
I'll forget about dawn
Then I won't wake up
What if I don't like waking up?
The days, the weeks, the months just keep adding up
And every clock
Is another rock
Knocking on my window
The hard place on the other side
Is a daily nine to five
With a partner, some kids, a cup of coffee and a complementary free pen
What do I want?
Who puts up the front?
And how do I make myself wanna live?
Where will I go
When I've given up all that I know?
And why do I crave the unknown?
So I start my day
Paralyzed by problems that won't go away
And every thought
Thrown at this roadblock
Brings back more disarray
I put my foot out the door
For a second I'm forgetting what I abhor
And then I recall
The root of it all
Another joyless job
It's not the work that I don't wanna do
It's just seems that I keep on burning through
A time in my life when I choose the device that decides the
course of my life from today to the long night
What do I want?
Who puts up the front?
And how do I make myself wanna live?
Where will I go
When I've given up all that I know?
And why do I crave the unknown?
I know something needs to change
Cuz if I go on with the day to day
And my monotonous ways
Then I'm gonna raze my soul
What do I want?
Who puts up the front?
And how do I make myself wanna live?
Where will I go
When I've given up all that I know?
And why do I crave the unknown?
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5. |
Mental Marathon
05:35
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I'm just so agitated
By my dilapidated state
I've got too much on my plate
When I get berated
By my ingrained self hate
I shut down and get crushed by the weight
It's not that easy shooting the breeze
I feel that shaking in my knees
And I forget how to breath
Loneliness lasts an eternity
My savior’s lost in the sea
When will they rescue me?
When I'm running mental marathons
Where every thoughts a cataclysmic outcome
All solutions spoken in a foreign tongue
I overstimulate into a doldrum
I'm always running mental marathons
Where I'm the only thing that I'm running from
Every opportunity could load the gun
To start the race
Or kill my sobriety
So thank you anxiety
It's not that complicated
I get fixated on my worth
A penny buried in the dirt
It's just a fabrication
My heart's been rocking a shirt
Sewn from the times that I've been hurt
Trust is fickle when it breaks
You can't just patch it up with tape
After you instigate
So can I trust myself in this mental state?
I break promises in haste
To intoxicate
Instead of running mental marathons
Where every thoughts a cataclysmic outcome
All solutions spoken in a foreign tongue
I overstimulate into a doldrum
I'm always running mental marathons
Where I'm the only thing that I'm running from
Every opportunity could load the gun
To start the race
Or kill my sobriety
So thank you anxiety
I'm always running mental marathons
Where every thoughts a cataclysmic outcome
All solutions spoken in a foreign tongue
I overstimulate into a doldrum
I'm always running mental marathons
Where I'm the only thing I'm running from
Every opportunity loads the gun
To start the race
To kill my sobriety
Thank you anxiety
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6. |
Uncle Qrow
03:51
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I know your glass is half full
Buts it's the contents that alarm me
Your futures looking dull
On the path that you're following
It really feels like you've given up
Like the rut that you've got stuck in got its roots up in your garden
Strangling the flower beds and spreads like dandelions
At some point you've gotta grow
Oh uncle Qrow
You're always passed out on the floor
When you wake up, you wished you hadn't
Try to forget your waking sadness
Oh uncle Qrow
It really feels like you're letting go
And the only thing I want is for you to be happy
I see the fear in your eyes
Wonder what you'll regret tomorrow
Your good intention is lost in your lies
You will reap the seeds you sow
You make me feel like I'm never enough
Like all the words that I've been saying start the wars that keep me praying
That someday you will listen
And keep yourself from giving in
Just open the door
Oh uncle Qrow
You're always passed out on the floor
When you wake up, you wished you hadn't
Try to forget your waking sadness
Oh uncle Qrow
It really feels like you're letting go
And the only thing I want is for you to be happy
I know you're trying, know you're trying
Your bad lucks got you stuck in the muck
Just stop relying, stop relying
On a liquid you're addicted to it makes me sick
Burnt through the wick
Oh uncle Qrow
You're always passed out on the floor
When you wake up, you wished you hadn't
Try to forget your waking sadness
Oh uncle Qrow
It really feels like you're letting go
And the only thing I want is for you to be happy
Get up uncle Qrow!
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7. |
Glass Bones Interlude
00:55
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8. |
Burnout
04:17
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My passion
Is burning me out
It's subtracting
All of my friends from what's happening
Every time I ask what's happening
It feels like I'm a has been
They respond with "nothing much man, but how ‘bout you?"
And I'll say I'm fine, I'm just fine
Even if my own demise might seems so sublime
Tell me what you wanna hear
I'll make my inhibitions disappear
Ostensibly in the clear
My bastion
Of self deprecating reactions
Refute all positive interaction
I'm killing attraction
A tactful retraction
Could save myself in an orderly fashion
I'll say I'm fine, I'm just fine
Even if my own demise still seems so sublime
Tell me what you wanna hear
I'll make my inhibitions disappear
Ostensibly in the clear
What does it matter if I'm empty on the inside
Long as what I'm draining creates a painting
To portray every reason I'm not fine
I'M NOT FINE, I’M NOT FINE
You'll pretend the metaphor
Means no more than glass bottles on sandy shores
I litter these letters wherever I go
My only hope is they never return home
I'm fine I'm just fine
Really it's just all the fiction up in my head
Whispering into my ear
Rehabilitate my biggest fears
Please get me out of here
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9. |
(a)pathetic
05:04
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Apathy weighs heavy on the chest
Laying down but I can't get any rest
Read the same paragraph a thousand times
Don't process the words between the lines
It's not making sense
Why swing for the fences
If I don't learn a lesson
Cuz as of lately I don't feel like feeling anything
As of lately I don't feel like feeling anything
Guess I'll pack a bowl
Scramble up and feel my fingers flex into the floor
Cats scratching at the door
Time to let em in and let go
Miss the message in every empty bottle
When change arrive I choose to dawdle
No time for a trite mistake
Another bend, come around, feel the fever break
Feel the fever break
As of lately I don't feel like feeling anything
As of lately I don't feel like feeling anything
Guess I'll pack a bowl
Scramble up and feel my fingers flex into the floor
Cats scratching at the door
Time to let em in and let go
Life is just a let down lately
Life is just a let down lately
Whether it's growing up or giving in
I’m burned out on adrenaline
Life is just a let down lately
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10. |
Chorale of the Grove
00:42
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11. |
Optimist
04:57
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I used to be an optimist
So centered on the positive
A silver lining addict, now I've had it
Jaded habits and slaughtered rabbits
You want a little luck for free
Feel fine taking advantage of me
Malevolent acts
Take an ax to a tree
I'm falling, and taking you down with me
Nevers never been my strong suit
I'll never do it again
I’ll never do it again
Can't pretend that I don't know how it ends
I'll never do it again
Maybe I could throw a fist
Frustrated, burnt out pacifist
You lit the fire, gave me desire
Never was a liar nor a fighter
Its seems so villainous
We’re all trained to be idiots
Focus groups focus the youth
Glued to their screens give up their dreams
And flee the scene once so serene
I'll never do it again
I’ll never do it again
Can't pretend that I don't know how it ends
I'll never do it again
Instead I’m asking
Why are we fighting each other?
Behind the glass there's a man
Drunk off his ass with power
Laughing while lining up the masses
Single file, single file, single file might take a while
Single file, single file, single file skip the trial
Single file, single file, single file might take a while
Single file, single file, single file wait a little longer
Never again
No, never again
I'll never do it again
Never believe again
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12. |
Esker Grove
05:01
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When I was nine
I shot bottles in the sky
Just to watch them fly
Like my heart rate when you walked by
I try to set things in motion
'Cept that I bottle up my emotion
Into the bathroom I, stall
Wait for my heart rate to fall
Take a trip down to Esker Grove
A walk in the park where you'll find your soul
Didn't know that you're lost
It won't matter the cost
Cuz it's better than before
Get lost in drip of the espresso
The caffeine cult continues to grow
But that's not how I fill the hole
It's you
Just the other day
I went out of my way
To compliment the rays
Of sunshine sliding off a stranger’s face
If I could just apply that grace
When my mind starts to race
And our eyes embrace
Then flick away like yesterday
My smile fades as I walk away
Take a trip down to Esker Grove
A walk in the park where you'll find your soul
Didn't know that you're lost
It won't matter the cost
Cuz it's better than before
Get lost in drip of the espresso
The caffeine cult continues to grow
But that's not how I fill the hole
It's you
Order after order
My habits are my mortar
I set my foundation
The world still turns
And I've missed my turn
Ensue my sedation
When the world’s shut down and burning to the ground
I wish I took the chance
To find my other half
Cuz half a man can't handle this alone
Take a trip down to Esker Grove
A walk in the park where you'll find your soul
Didn't know that you're lost
It won't matter the cost
Cuz it's better than before
Get lost in drip of the espresso
The caffeine cult continues to grow
But that's not how I fill the hole
It's you
Take a trip down to Esker Grove
A holy place for a hipster hoax
The lights are out, the sign on the door
Says they're closed indefinitely
I've taken a hit or two before
But this one really took its toll
This routines getting old
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13. |
Swan Song
04:51
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Just hang on
Please outlive me when I'm long gone
Won't be long till I'm overdrawn
And as I lay here I'll sing my swan song
A pile of bricks, thrown through the window
My bag of tricks has a hole in the bottom
It matches my heart, all the love it just fell through
The engine won't start, I'm rolling in neutral
As I'm rolling down I heard a herd of emotion
Hurtling towards self destructive
Productive production of a product I need to survive
Sometimes it feels good to cry
And so I cry
Just hang on
Please outlive me when I'm long gone
Won't be long till I'm overdrawn
And as I lay here I'll sing my swan song
Suture and sin keeping me together
Red thread and pins puppet my denial
My hospital bed is in Orange County
And I'll find my end right where I'm standing
Reprimanded for all my panning
Planning for futures that are never happening
Happened upon a happy ending
Ended up with transfer pending
Approval
Just hang on
Please outlive me when I'm long gone
Won't be long till I'm overdrawn
And as I lay here I'll sing my swan song
Trying not to breathe too hard
Get control of my emotions (just hang on)
Think till scarred
And dream in the moment like I used to (sing my swan song)
Like I used to (till I've overdrawn)
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14. |
Faint Love Song
03:42
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Two thousand miles from my home
Where I grew up and I got stoned
Now I’m throwing up in a bathroom
At a basement show in Lincoln
Next we drive while we all die
A little bit a lot of the time
Tie your loose ends
The captain’s ship is sinking
Well all I wanna do is fall in your arms
All I wanna hear is a faint love song
As I sober up and saunter out
Lost again in my own self doubt I say
I’m not healthy in any way
All I wanna feel is a caged heartbeat
Beating away tonight’s defeat
I’m either dead or desensitized
This baby bird hasn’t learned to fly
I tow the line of success
Outlined but not filled in or ever defined
No one to tell me if all this work is for nothing
I’m singing on stage to scant straight faces
Caught up in their own rat races
But you can’t erase the pain if you keep running
All I wanna do is fall in your arms
All I wanna hear is a faint love song
As I sober up and saunter out
Lost again in my own self doubt I say
I’m not healthy in any way
All I wanna feel is a caged heartbeat
Beating away tonight’s defeat
I’m either dead or desensitized
This baby bird hasn’t learned to fly
But if I could, where would I go?
When the only thing I want is next to me
But I know that they don’t want me and neither do I
So I soar up in the clouds
Hoping when I come back down that I’d forget myself
Or forgive this wealth of emotion
Cuz anyone would drown in that ocean
All I wanna do is fall in your arms
All I wanna hear is a faint love song
As I sober up and saunter out
Lost again in my own self doubt I say
I’m not healthy in any way
All I wanna feel is a caged heartbeat
Beating away tonight’s defeat
I’m either dead or desensitized
This baby bird hasn’t learned to fly
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