Journey Home EP

by Skylar Conover

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1.
Journey Home 03:16
Verse 1 It's like writing with your main hand after years of Having it tied behind your back The words get so much easier and your stories come alive but then the pen is slapped from your hand and you're left fighting the urge to cry Chorus But it's the joy of the sunrise It's the smell after rain It's the happiness you finally feel after a lifetime of pain It's the love of friends that show you you're not alone It's the hope of the journey home Verse 2 It's like wearing glasses for the first time When you've been struggling to see for your whole life They're annoying and they fog up all the time But still it's far better than Being blind Chorus But it's the joy of the sunrise It's the smell after rain It's the happiness you finally feel after a lifetime of pain It's the love of friends that show you you're not alone It's the hope of the journey home Bridge Have you ever had to pee but the bathroom's taken? Have you ever been left beaten in the street? Have you ever been hated for no reason When you've never hurt anybody? You've never hurt anybody you've never hurt andybody.. Have you ever cried when you saw yourself inside the mirror Because you finally look the way you'd always hoped? Or at least you see the possibility of the person you were meant to be And for the first time, you love yourself? For the first time, you love yourself For the first time, you love yourself Chorus It's the joy of the sunrise It's the smell after rain It's the happiness you finally feel after a lifetime of pain It's the love of friends that show you you're not alone It's the hope of the journey home
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Chorus Oh you, can't you see You mean everything in the world to me? And when I look at you I know All the pain you've had to go through for so long So long Verse 1 All those times at your mom's house years ago That feeling that you'd get When you stayed up too late and borrowed her clothes You wished to be a girl More than anything else in the world Maybe a genie or a spell, could set your mind at ease and you could be yourself Without losing anybody else Chorus Oh you, can't you see You mean everything in the world to me? And when I look at you I know All the pain you've had to go through for so long So long Verse 2 All the guilt that you carried through the years One day you'll realize that It was never really yours to bear There's nothing wrong with you And I'm so sorry you were lied You are beautiful and that's the truth Chorus Oh you, can't you see You mean everything in the world to me? And when I look at you I know All the pain you've had to go through Bridge Just think of all the time You've still got left so don't you leave yet Everyone you know is blind So let them know before you go And they might surprise you still Everything you've been through is real They still can change their minds They might just need some time Chorus Oh you, can't you see You mean everything in the world to me? And when I look at you I know All the pain you've had to go through
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Verse 1 A woman's lying in the street The cold air's blowing hard and she's starting to freeze Her wig was ripped off and was thrown in a tree And no one walking by could spare a shred of empathy Can't you see? Chorus Everyone thinks they would be the Good Samaritan But she was trans so they left her lying there beaten and broken, crying and hoping the next person could be the one. Verse 2 She's spotted by a pastor but he walks right past her She's clearly not living the faith He's followed by a deacon, could he be the reason for hope that she might be saved But he too walks away... Chorus Everyone thinks they would be the Good Samaritan But she was trans so they left her lying there beaten and broken, crying and hoping The next person could be the one Bridge A Muslim man walks up to her Carries her to a doctor And covers her bills that night He makes sure she is okay Because he's been left beaten that way He knows what it feels like Misunderstood Parables Poor faith Christian rules Trying to obscure what's right But Jesus spelled it out Love others as you do yourself Not just if they are Christian and white. We're all human, just like yourself Full of hopes, dreams, worries, and doubts We all show compassion to those we see ourselves in Try to see yourself in everyone else Try to see yourself in everyone else Chorus Everyone thinks they would be the Good Samaritan But she was trans so they left her lying there Beaten and broken, crying and hoping The next person could be the one Outro Could you be the one? Could you be the one? We're all human, just like yourself Full of hopes, dreams, worries, and doubts We all show compassion to those we see ourselves in Try to see yourself in everyone else.
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Verse 1 All these thoughts Always there Always running through my head This fight is always on my mind I want to think of other things instead Pre-Chorus But in the morning When I'm alone Throughout the day When I start to zone Out Chorus Why'd it have to be so hard Fighting always like this? Sometimes I feel like I can win But I know it's only just pretend Cause I don't want to give this up I don't want to lose this part of me If I could only wake up as myself If I could only wake up and be Free Verse 2 I spent way too long Feeling guilt For the things I can't control. There's a war raging in my head And I was worried for my soul. Pre-Chorus But late at night I'd see the stares Of all the people I could lose.. ...please don't make me choose. Chorus Why'd it have to be so hard Fighting always like this? Sometimes it feels like I can win But I know its only just pretend Cause I don't want to give this up I don't want to lose this part of me If I could only wake up as myself If I could only wake up Bridge Fields of flowers trampled under boots Clouds of smoke and lives lost to soon I don't know what I'm supposed to do Let this all continue? I know the thing that could end this war But the world won't listen and asks me to try more I don't know what I am fighting for I'm exhausted to my core. I just want the bombs to cease I... just want peace Chorus Why'd it have to be so hard Fighting always like this? Sometimes I feel like I can win But I know it's only just pretend Cause I don't want to give this up I don't want to lose this part of me If I could only wake up as myself If i could only wake up and be free Outro Cause then this war would be over now And I could send the troops home to their lives There'd finally be peace deep inside of me This Civil War won't be costing me my life.
5.
Dysphoria 04:21
Verse 1 When I was a kid I just wanted to wear pretty things But I was terrified everyone would hate me And so I hid it from the world I hid the only part that I saw as myself Verse 2 I remember lying awake at night wishing just to end it all Cause maybe I'd come back as a girl angel Nothing in life could bring me joy All because I'd been born a boy Chorus I tried to fight it I tried to run I tried to live my life and be the perfect son I tried my best to do everything right So please tell me why Do I still have this hole inside? And I, I'm tired of all of this If only it could be solved with just one wish Verse 3 Even when I became a man these feelings never left me Though I had many traits people told me they envied They said my beard was simply just the best And that would be great if I'd ever wanted it Verse 4 I still lay awake at night, wondering if this will ever end But I throw on a smile and I Just pretend No one can know the way I feel Cause if I told a soul then all of this would be too real Chorus I tried to fight it I tried to run I tried to live my life and be the perfect son I tried my best to do everything right So please tell me why Do I still have this hole inside? And I, I'm tired of all of this If only it could be solved with just one wish Bridge When I looked inside my heart I realized my sadness was a choice Do I live my life for others or do I finally use my voice My soul right now is hurting, why do I put up with it? If my friends and family leave me, then did they ever love me then? Chorus I'm tired of fighting I too weak to run run Is it wrong to want my life to be one, I can call my own? I'm tired of living this stranger's life So tell me please can I Take off this mask and make it mine? Cause I... I'm tired.

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A collection of songs about my trans journey.

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released February 7, 2022

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Skylar Conover Arkansas

Her love of songwriting came from the need to express the feelings she was normally too afraid to voice. Her songs include her experiences growing up trans and neurodivergent as a way to help put into words what many in the community suffer silently.

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