1. |
Tendrils
04:10
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asked me to uncover my face,
we kissed and i pulled back
said I didn't know what to do,
you said we'd figure it out soon
i don't wanna like you like this,
can't you tell it won't work
I'm not gonna love you for us,
those climbers choke me
i know i asked you out,
and i sound like a dick,
but i mean it
i'm about to stop
talking to you
and i know you'll hate it
i decided to want you
you tripped in love with me
i don't wanna see you again,
I'm scared that I'll vomit
i washed my jacket when i left,
it had your scent on it
i don't wanna seem mean,
but I hate that you
think I'm pretty
i keep wanting to stay
but its only to
keep you happy
i regret our first date
you believe it was lovely
i have tried to like you
you will learn to hate me
you will learn to hate me
you will learn to hate me
you will learn to hate me
you will learn to hate me
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2. |
Sorry Sixteen
04:12
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dear former self i have a couple things to talk about
you’re gonna move in a matter of years
the first guy to hurt you did it pretty bad
and i regret to tell you he wont be the last
he wont be the last
and i’m so sorry sixteen
all the things you’ve seen
learning lessons you shoulda learnt later
cause you didnt know any better
you didnt know any better
quick heads up, shits gonna go down in a couple years
youll find a job and date a guy who’s 23 years older
time will tell the time old tale that age has no hold on maturity
and hes the one saying sorry
yeah hes the one saying sorry
and im so sorry sixteen
for all the things you’ll see
it takes him months to write a letter
he really shoulda known better
he really shoulda known better
and nothing feels the same
for me to say that it gets better with age
it wont matter one day
but i’m so sorry sixteen
for all the things you have to see
these lessons aren’t meant till later
you shouldn’t have to know better
you shouldn’t have to know better
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3. |
Passing By
02:26
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A couple years ago I
found myself behind you
Contemplating whether
I would say hello or not
My second storey window
Looked over lines and asphalt
And you were there a little
Only passing by
But I won't fall in love if you don't want me to
I don't know the answer
But I can look at you and
feel comfortable and
I don't know why
I keep reading over
Everything you send me
Maybe you had hinted
You had laughed at that joke
But I won't fall in love if you don't want me to
I don't know if you can feel it
But i think I've known you since I
was a kid and I don't wanna
mess it up
I won't fall in love if you don't want me to
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4. |
Guts
03:28
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you wiped the tears off my face as a joke but i dont mind
im sure that i blushed anyway, sweaty hands, but it's alright
and i think you're lying, cause what kinda joke even is that
but its fine, take your time, we've still got all the rest of both our lives
so stand and wait for me
and pull me on to my feet
make a move
find the guts
cause im waiting
think you're smooth?
try it out
I've been waiting
i hate all your friends they're all fake I don't know if you see it
im tired of pretending i like them cause they never tried it
am i going crazy, or is this just how it's always been
i get off on saying it all comes around in the end
you stand and wait for me
and lie between your teeth
make a move
find the guts
cause im waiting
think you're smooth
try it out
ive been waiting
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5. |
I'm Gonna Be Fine
02:56
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Soft spoken lies and rhetorical maybe one days
two hour drive to get all my shit down to my place
Warm HSP on the table, music is going on
i’ve done it all but it’s just A MOMENT TO PIVOT ON !!!
i’m breaking habits and starting my own new rituals
I’m mending scars and creating a whole new bible
I’m living bigger than anyone else at my age
I look alive in the mirror and say that
nothing’s ever easy the first time
take another chance, give another try
there’s nothing left to prove at the finish line
all in all i think im gonna be fine
i’m making friends and breaking hearts like i’m a natural
i cry em off but i know that the feeling’s mutual
Life has no handles, i grab it by the mantles
pull it up when i need a break
nothing’s ever easy the first time
take another chance, give another try
there’s nothing left to prove at the finish line
all in all i think you’re gonna be fine
No one ever gets it their first try
Give it what Ive got, cause Ive got time
Im never gonna lose, cause it’s my life
All in all i think im gonna be fine
nothing’s ever easy the first time
take another chance, give another try
there’s nothing left to prove at the finish line
all in all i think you’re gonna be fine
No one ever gets it their first try
Give it what Ive got, cause Ive got time
Im never gonna lose, cause it’s my life
All in all i think im gonna be fine
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6. |
Friends Again
04:40
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you're dancing around to taylor swift
although you don't know what this song is,
swaying along, like a leaf in the autumn breeze
you point out the stars, say some stupid joke,
and i laugh cause i laugh at stupid jokes,
you know I do, and you smile because i laughed
I'm shivering in my lumberjack shirt,
perfume stained by the fire pit,
you see me cold, and offer me your sweater
I say no, didn't wanna come off weird,
but i appreciate the offer
You smile, and say that it's all good
And I realise years from now,
when I'm older and full of doubt
ill look back on all the times we had with a lighter brow
and although right now it hurts
i’m not gonna make it all get worse
you're the best friend i had for what it’s worth
but i'm okay with it if you don’t wanna be friends again
Remember the party I sat there alone,
you were always wondering
what you could do to make me feel better
Then the night came and I gave you
The things that I had bought that day
I hope that you still wear that sweater
And I realise years from now,
when I'm older and full of doubt
ill look back on all the times we had with a lighter brow
and although right now it hurts
im not gonna let it all get worse
you're the best friend I had, for what it’s worth
but I’m ok with it if you don’t wanna be friends again
How do I even start?
I'm so grateful, I'm so thankful
I'm sorry I made it suck,
I mean it this time, please don't be a stranger
Cause I know that years from now
When I'm older and full of doubt
I'll look back on the times we had with a lighter brow
And although right now it hurts
I'm not gonna let it all get worse
You’re the best friend I had, for what it’s worth
And I'm okay with it if you don't wanna be friends again
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7. |
DESERVE IT
03:54
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Loved me like a father's supposed to
And left me like they do
Do you even notice the world under you
Saw me like a lover's supposed to
But kept me in a box
My friend's called me crazy
Well I was crazy in love
Why would you do this
And why did it have to be me
Tore the shirt I skirted 'round you in
As if it matters
Cause I'm more torn than that shirt ever was
How could you do this
And how did I believe
Why would you do this
And why did it have to be me
And how could you do this
Oh, and how did I believe
And I'm sorry that your mom's dead
You know she'd be disappointed
And I'm sorry that your dad left
But you know that you deserve it
And I'm sorry 'bout your best friend
You know I was gonna tell him
And I might forget what you did
But you know I'll never forgive
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8. |
Deep Breaths
02:54
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When we met did you realise I was already in too deep?
When we met did you notice the way you were looking at me
In my head I don’t make mistakes and
Only my heart breaks but
I can only be so strong
And all I’m asking now is
Can you tell me how you
Got to know me so well
Big steps, deep breaths in the sunlight
shooting shit just to feel like I’m alright
You say you’re focused on your health
You were only focused on yourself
Tell your friends you’re alone on the weekend
Im telling mine that I’m yours for the taking
Did you ever think of me again?
Did you ever think of me again?
I think i loved you then
And maybe i love you now
I think I tried my best
My best is better now
And Id wanna see you in the morning light and
See your eyes so bright and
Never have to go back home
But only I can tell its
Only hurting myself and
All we are is old burns
I wanna scream through the lock in your doorway
I wanna know if you’re feeling the same way
I wanna say I hate what you said
Wanna say I miss you instead
Do you regret what you did now we’re over?
Do you miss having me riding shotgun?
Or did you never think of me again?
Did you never think of me again?
Did you never think of me again?
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9. |
The Last Time
03:38
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Sometimes detours can have happy consequences
No trains for an hour can turn to fun
Little memories and moments close enough to heaven
They give you all you need, and then they’re done
I know things don’t last forever but I want ‘em to
I know nothing’s worth losing track of life
But I joke and say I cost you a little over a dollar
But we both know I was sold far before that
You showed me so many different colours
You showed me so many different smells
And honest, even now, I can tell you
Katrina and the waves have nothing on how I felt
Sometimes things just don’t work out the way you want ‘em to
Nobody knows the answer every time
Just man up, grow up, own up to it
And if it’s not your fault it’ll all work out with time
Maybe months along the line you’ll find a letter
He’ll tell you how he’s found himself after all this time
He’ll apologise and say you don’t deserve it
And you can let it go and forgive him with a smile
Someday you’ll find yourself just sitting quiet
Your mind will take you back, go far and wide
You’ll think about what you did that summer
And realise you already missed him for the last time
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10. |
Give Me A Break
03:55
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Swimming in the strait
Freezing, but fine
I try to breathe
I try to make you look at me
Crying in the car
Losing my mind
I try to hold you
But you just phase through me
so could you give me a break?
Give me some semblance of relief
It’s all i can take
It’s just getting old now
Im tired and run down
I’m trying to hold on
Im sick of the sad songs
So please get a move on
Oh, give me a break
Sleeping through the day
Dying at night
I try to hate you
I try to wish i didn’t know you
Keeping to myself
Lying to my friends
I try to live
But i fail
so could you give me a break?
Give me some semblance of relief
It’s all i can take
It’s just getting old now
Im tired and run down
I’m trying to hold on
Im sick of the sad songs
So please get a move on
Oh, give me a break
Lie like a dog and a husband
Say that it’s all out of love, then
Take what you want and destroy it
Keep going until i’ve got nothing
Tell me you don’t really hate me
Don’t hear a word that i’m saying
Say on the phone that you miss me
Call me a dick when you see me
(quiet) so could you give me a break?
Give me some semblance of relief
It’s all i can take
It’s just getting old now
Im tired and run down (kick back in)
I’m trying to hold on
Im sick of the sad songs
So please get a move on
Oh, give me a break
You said you couldn’t believe you had sex with me
not cause i’m hot but cause i was 18
and I didn’t know what to call my thoughts
so i just tried to forget it
two months later and nothing changed
but you finally decided to come out and say
that we weren’t even dating
Now I feel fucking stupid
Took a year alone and took some space
You apologised but you didn’t change
I took a chance at forgiveness
And i don’t know why I listened
Blame the drugs you’re on, blame the pain you felt
But never take the blame for the pain you’ve dealt
I don’t know how to share a bed
I don’t know how to fix my broken head
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11. |
Raymonde
03:49
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you go out on your own
and you don't need a reason
putting on your coat
no need to be speeding
you don't have to run
but you can if you want to
and you don't have to go
noone's gonna find you
you're doing so well
you're doing so well
you can call your friends
however loud you want to
noone's gonna judge
noone's gonna hurt you
you're doing so well
you're doing so well
you're giving your all
you're giving your all
it's all in the past
memories can hurt you
but it's gonna pass
you're gonna be alright soon
you're doing so well
you're doing so well
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12. |
Start Again
04:31
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My head was always too big for my body
But my heart is so much bigger than you think
You never seemed to want to be around me
But I guess I never put it on my sleeve
I can’t pretend that you both got off easy
But I have to say that it’s not all on me
It’s true that I could never really open up
But no one ever opened up to me
I get you probably didn’t plan to hurt me
But I cant pretend to see the way you see
What did you think would happen?
What did you think I’d do?
I dont mean to be rude but I just hope i dont inherit that from you
I hope you never answer this next query
But When you think about that older life
Do you blame yourselves for who i was
Or do you still believe the fault’s all mine
so I changed my name
I changed my mind
I made my way
Left it all behind
I quit my job
I cut my hair
I lost the war
But I kept my honour
I gave up early
To keep my life
I don’t get credit
But I get to thrive
The curtain’s closing
The act must end
But I keep going
I’ll start again
I’ll start again
I’ll start again
I’ll start again
I’ll start again
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13. |
Ruby (ft. Velaspace)
03:19
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i called you to me
from across the room
paper in hand
you followed suit
you wiped the salt off
my ruby face
i looked at you
it seemed so cliche
i don't know the truth
i don't know the game
lest i fall for you
test the waters, eh?
for my wistful eyes
i know you're to blame
sick of something i
thank you for the flame
Grab my hand behind your father's back,
Drag me out under the moonlight
Show me everything I never had
Give me light until the sunrise
Kiss me only when we're all alone
Touch me when nobody's watching
Want the way I look at you all night
Look at me all night
you say I'm friendly
i say you're scared
you roll your eyes
i touch your neck
I dont know the truth
I dont know the game
lest I fall for you
Tell me what you'd say
for the way I look
i know you're to blame
tell me what you want
tell me what to say
Grab my hand behind your father's back,
Drag me out under the moonlight
Show me everything I never had
Give me light until the sunrise
Kiss me only when we're all alone
Touch me when nobody's watching
Want the way I look at you all night
Look at me all night
Oh,
I didn't wanna go,
and when you asked
how my night went
I felt the world go quiet
You made the world go quiet
Grab my hand behind your father's back,
Drag me out under the moonlight
Show me everything I never had
Give me light until the sunrise
Kiss me only when we're all alone
Touch me when nobody's looking
Want the way I look at you all night
Look at me all night
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14. |
Tasmania
03:40
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Standing on the cliff,
you asked what i thought i saw
I really don’t know why
But i thought it was tasmania
You looked dumbfounded
Not my best moment
And one month later
We were on that island
We didn’t do too much,
ate overpriced chocolate
Talked about our futures,
Looked at some mountains
I think that’s when i found out
That thing was fleeting
You didn’t have to,
but I still wish you’d just told me
I don’t know why I’m still hung up,
I don’t know why I’m feeling sore
You moved away, and even now I’d
crash a wave up on your shore.
I wanna move away and on
from all the things we shared
But i still feel the ache,
I wanna feel somebody with me there
On a weekend trip to Goldy,
The hotel was cheap
Didn’t know that it was schoolies
Surrounded by munted teens
Did it creep you out that
a good amount were older than me?
I barely drank then
Hadn’t even tried weed
I don’t know why I’m still hung up,
I don’t know why I’m feeling sore
You moved away, and even now I’d
crash a wave up on your shore.
I wanna move away and on
from all the things we shared
But i still feel the ache,
I wanna feel somebody with me there
Sometimes I think about you
It still makes me cry
You didn’t love me
Not the same way I (loved you)
I knew that it was over
Back when it started
You didn’t have to
But i still wish you fucking told me
I don’t know why I’m still hung up,
I don’t know why I’m feeling sore
You moved away and even now,
You’re skipping rocks into my shore
and I can’t Bring myself to hate you
But fuck i wish I did
Cause i still feel the ache,
I wanna feel now, what I did,
Cause I just can’t throw it away,
I wanna feel somebody with me there
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Spencer Raymond Melbourne, Australia
pop-rock indie electronic music.
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