I had my suspicions. Semenjak kebelakangan ni bila menjelang malam je hidung I mula gatal2. You know what, I blamed it on the Indonesians, or the peat fires in Selangor and made worse by the non-existent rain. KL hujan almost everyday but masuk sini je, not a drop. Semenjak I berkarier baru ni, I have to take another road to get to my destination. Today, because of the course I had to attend, I tiba rumah dekat nak maghrib. When I passed tepi kebun you all, there it was, the fire you all created in all its glory. I was fuming mad! I considered driving straight to the police station…but it’d be too hasty. Not long ago, I reported about what you guys did (although this evening’s ‘bornfire’ was the mother of it all) but being the silly me, I reported it to the wrong department. Yes, I was laughed at but at least I let it off my chest to some government officer and poor her for being at the receiving end. I also wrote to the newspaper but of course I was criticising a govt’s policy…not surprising it didn’t get published (sent to the wrong newspaper).
We bought this house because of its township…it’s spacious, lots of greeneries, no ugly house renovations, low crime rate, basically no eye sore lah….until now. This little house is causing us an arm and a leg, I have to travel nearly an hour to work everyday…but hey it’s OK, the neighbourhood is clean, little pollution since they aren’t many vehicles on the road and serene….as one neighbour of mine had told me, her chronic sinus problem cleared up when she moved here from OKR..and she was a Chinese (101% if you know what I mean) who didn’t mind living in an area predominantly Malays as her health got better. So did mine..
When Pak Lah launched the bumi hijau, OK la, nak tolong orang2 gomen save money. Berkebun lah you all kat tengah2 pekan. It’s Ok, as long as you people are happy dapat save duit, anak ada belanja ke sekolah. Tak kisahlah kan, walaupun in the process some green area had to be sacrifised in the process. Some kebun I see amat mencacatkan pemandangan. Dengan guni plastik baja merata2 and nak kata kebun, nampak cam tak berbela. It’s still OK, lantak koranglah tak kacau deria I yg lain…but when It comes to open burning, menambahkan pollution, jerebu, global warming, SORRY 3 lori. I can’t compromise the health of my children who may be prone to getting asthma and sinusitis like their mum. Sampai bila I kena ambik anti-histamines???
I did the rational thing just now. I got home, called up the DOE and filed a formal complaint. Tomorrow, I’m going to call up the Corporation (badan ‘polisi’ yg menjaga keharmonian bandar bestari ni kononnya) and do the same. They may laugh, they may not take me seriously. In the meantime, I will be taking pictures of you guys in action. I mean war…you pyromaniacs of Precinct 9G, consider yourselves warned.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Borak-borak
Amboi2.....berlawan2 nampaknya kawan kita tu menghapdate blog ye.....anyway, keep up with the good work Esah, wherever tempat foya2 you may be.
Today i browse through suratkhabar BM and tersentap kejap i. Frankly speaking, MG jarang beli BM kecuali bila MM dah habis kat stesen minyak sepelaung dari rumah i tu (dekat rumah mak pak i, bila weekend je, kitaorg ni dididik dgn disogokkan segala neka jenis suratkhabar (cam ko Esah, beli Daily Sport lah, The Sun lah come weekend). Daripada yg berbau serius sampai la ke tabloid. Agaknya kalau ada adikberadik i yg multi lingual tentu TamilNesan or NanYangSIangPau pun masuk. Bila kawin ngan MG, i macam tersentap because come Sunday morning, what??? Ini je???) Anyway, macam saja nak bagi hati i direntap2, one page screaming, Anuar ada aura.....Idak ke i terkedu and luka lama berdarah kembali? FYI, satu bulan i mendambaka adegan2 Anuar Jeng bukak tie, cufflinks segala neka dia. Bila time i nak bayar (thru website) nengok2 tiket dah kena rerelease you!!!! Siapa la yang bongok menguruskan the tickets hari tu??? (me!). So this is something we shan't talk about for a very long time (at least until mamat tu buat konsert lagi).
Then dalam suratkhabar Bintang they were focusing on those people with mental problems/handicaps found in a particular welfare home...tak berbaju and caged or chained like animals. Imagine kan, if the house let's say has 50 inmates, petugasnya less than 10....camna nak buat 24/7 care kan? Don't get me wrong, i bukan menyokong what they are doing, i find it despicable but i think it's the govt yg perlu bertanggung jawab...channel more money, create more posts, create more public awareness supaya tak lah bila ada je family member yg ada mental sickness terus je dump kat satu tempat, tak tengok2 dah and these people are subject to abuse.
Speaking of people with learning disability ni, my exposure to it came quite early in life. Learning disability is a broad, general term...kenkadang tu, tak didiagnose pun betul2 apa silapnya. Esah lebih tau, kan Esah? Anyway, at this kaum kerabat house of mine kat kampung, setiap kali i balik kampung untuk beraya barulah melawat makcik pakcik ni because rumahnya jauh ke dalam. At a corner of the kitchen tepi tingkap, there was this person yang terdampar atas tilam yg ak bersarung. Ada sikit2 bau hancing pun. Tak boleh bersuara...agaknya her many siblings pun forgot that she existed and the only interaction she got was probably when time dia nak makan kut. Setiap kali we all melawat i would ask my mum, what was wrong with her. Apparently she was born normal but demam panas sampai jadi macam tu. Her parents were loaded bukannya takde duit. Now i always wonder why tak dibelikan kerusi roda utk dibawa hirup angin kat luar tu sekali sekala atau kalau tak nak bela sangat gajikan orang untuk bela? (During that time it was pretty easy to get a local maid). Many years later we heard that she had passed on, tanpa disedari oleh her family members. Sad but she clearly was much better off in the other world.
A few years back, a cousin of mine wanted me to recommend a paediatrician to have a look at her nephew. He was 5 but he refused to communicate, limited eye contact and activenya jenis tak makan saman. A few diagnoses came to mind but of course i am no expert so i refered him to someone i know who dealt in paediatric neurology. They came back, i asked what the verdict was? Ooo..the doctor thinks he is autistic, suggested where he can have support but we are not buying it (ni termasuklah my cousin his aunt). The parents thought so because dia tak menepati semua ciri2 autistic child..they were banking on one factor and that was, he would give his parents a hug whenever he was asked to. An 'orang alim' had told the parents that masa dia dalam perut lagi dia selalu kena sampuk. Tsk tsk tsk...it may or may not be the correct diagnosis (autism) but in the meantime the boy is losing out in terms of education - socially, academically etc. It's the stigma of having an 'abnormal' child requiring special attention (i.e. kena regularly jumpa speech therapist, physician, psychiatrist etc.) sebab tu parents in denial kut.
Then, there was this one trainee. She got married masa tengah belajar, soon after that she started to stare into empty space. Taknak betinteraksi dgn orang. Husband inks that dia kena 'buatan orang' (if i may add,ada kelucahan yg i nak kata tapi i'll let it go since this is quite serious topic) because kononnya mak tak setuju depa kahwin. To tangguhkan study, she was required to be seen by an expert, hence a psychiatrist. She was diagnosed as schizophrenic. The problem is walaupun dah lama jugak benda ni berlaku husband still tak boleh terima kenyataan, still cakap yg dia dah OK, dah jumpa 'orang alim' dah. Denial = tak bagi bini ubat = lagi teruk sakit bininya.
On a much cheerful topic, MM baru didatangkan khas oleh MG...what? Si Memek jadi tajuk utama? Bila ditanya samada dia masih bersama Normang, dia hanya tersenyum manja?? And sebab tu lelaki mudah tertawan?Ptuiihhhh! Memek juga cakap yg dia kini senang berkawan dengan Normang because dia bukan laki orang sekarang...yeah la you punya pasal la! Cam takde jantan lain nak orat. Speaking of this, Ok la Normang tu nampak macho, hensem...bebudak muda cam si Memek tu mudahla nak terpikat. What about si penyanyi unsur2 arab and that ustaz??? I rasa kalau dah memang betul bila you orat tu jantan masih laki orang, just be dignified and tak yah cakap banyak2. The least pun cakap la, saya minta maap dah tersuka nak wat camna?? Ni boleh nak menyaman bini or exbini orang tu pulak for meghoyan. Shame on you!
On one last cerita before i go off...a fe years ago, mak i sibuk berkempen mintak derma utk ustaz kat tempat dia ngaji pi sambung masters kat Indo. He's still young, late 20s kut. Sibukla dia berkempen cakap ustaz tu sponsor seniri etc. Sebagai pendidik (cewah) dan jugak because i ni anak mithali (and mak i selalu ingat i paling banyak duit antara adik beradik - mak, org lain pun banyak duit gak tapi depa selalu buat muka susah..haha), i pun menderma. Then, 2 years later mak i bercerita la pasal ada ustaz dia kawin lagi satu kat Indo masatengah belajar and the 1st wife masa jumpa my mum kat masjid peluk my mum and mengalir air matanya. So, Cik Kiah pembela nasib wanita ni pun bertanya, is this the same ustaz yg i ada gak contribute duit belajar dia ni??? A ah, cakap my mum. Whaaattt? Orang suruh pi belajar bukannya kawin. Tu la students jantan ni, senang sangat nak hilang konsentrasi. Bila jadi student je nak bercinta (i'm sure dia cintan cintu ngan 1st wife dia masa student). What happened? Mak i cakap towards the end masa nak siapkan thesis dia, dia selalu study sesama ngan pompuan ni. So.....you guess the rest la kan.
So i said to my mum, if i have the chance to meet him, i'll make sure i stare bermakna kat dia. Amboi! Orang pergi belajar, ni sempat tambah cawangan lagi. Asyik nak bercinta je, camna Melayu nak maju!
Today i browse through suratkhabar BM and tersentap kejap i. Frankly speaking, MG jarang beli BM kecuali bila MM dah habis kat stesen minyak sepelaung dari rumah i tu (dekat rumah mak pak i, bila weekend je, kitaorg ni dididik dgn disogokkan segala neka jenis suratkhabar (cam ko Esah, beli Daily Sport lah, The Sun lah come weekend). Daripada yg berbau serius sampai la ke tabloid. Agaknya kalau ada adikberadik i yg multi lingual tentu TamilNesan or NanYangSIangPau pun masuk. Bila kawin ngan MG, i macam tersentap because come Sunday morning, what??? Ini je???) Anyway, macam saja nak bagi hati i direntap2, one page screaming, Anuar ada aura.....Idak ke i terkedu and luka lama berdarah kembali? FYI, satu bulan i mendambaka adegan2 Anuar Jeng bukak tie, cufflinks segala neka dia. Bila time i nak bayar (thru website) nengok2 tiket dah kena rerelease you!!!! Siapa la yang bongok menguruskan the tickets hari tu??? (me!). So this is something we shan't talk about for a very long time (at least until mamat tu buat konsert lagi).
Then dalam suratkhabar Bintang they were focusing on those people with mental problems/handicaps found in a particular welfare home...tak berbaju and caged or chained like animals. Imagine kan, if the house let's say has 50 inmates, petugasnya less than 10....camna nak buat 24/7 care kan? Don't get me wrong, i bukan menyokong what they are doing, i find it despicable but i think it's the govt yg perlu bertanggung jawab...channel more money, create more posts, create more public awareness supaya tak lah bila ada je family member yg ada mental sickness terus je dump kat satu tempat, tak tengok2 dah and these people are subject to abuse.
Speaking of people with learning disability ni, my exposure to it came quite early in life. Learning disability is a broad, general term...kenkadang tu, tak didiagnose pun betul2 apa silapnya. Esah lebih tau, kan Esah? Anyway, at this kaum kerabat house of mine kat kampung, setiap kali i balik kampung untuk beraya barulah melawat makcik pakcik ni because rumahnya jauh ke dalam. At a corner of the kitchen tepi tingkap, there was this person yang terdampar atas tilam yg ak bersarung. Ada sikit2 bau hancing pun. Tak boleh bersuara...agaknya her many siblings pun forgot that she existed and the only interaction she got was probably when time dia nak makan kut. Setiap kali we all melawat i would ask my mum, what was wrong with her. Apparently she was born normal but demam panas sampai jadi macam tu. Her parents were loaded bukannya takde duit. Now i always wonder why tak dibelikan kerusi roda utk dibawa hirup angin kat luar tu sekali sekala atau kalau tak nak bela sangat gajikan orang untuk bela? (During that time it was pretty easy to get a local maid). Many years later we heard that she had passed on, tanpa disedari oleh her family members. Sad but she clearly was much better off in the other world.
A few years back, a cousin of mine wanted me to recommend a paediatrician to have a look at her nephew. He was 5 but he refused to communicate, limited eye contact and activenya jenis tak makan saman. A few diagnoses came to mind but of course i am no expert so i refered him to someone i know who dealt in paediatric neurology. They came back, i asked what the verdict was? Ooo..the doctor thinks he is autistic, suggested where he can have support but we are not buying it (ni termasuklah my cousin his aunt). The parents thought so because dia tak menepati semua ciri2 autistic child..they were banking on one factor and that was, he would give his parents a hug whenever he was asked to. An 'orang alim' had told the parents that masa dia dalam perut lagi dia selalu kena sampuk. Tsk tsk tsk...it may or may not be the correct diagnosis (autism) but in the meantime the boy is losing out in terms of education - socially, academically etc. It's the stigma of having an 'abnormal' child requiring special attention (i.e. kena regularly jumpa speech therapist, physician, psychiatrist etc.) sebab tu parents in denial kut.
Then, there was this one trainee. She got married masa tengah belajar, soon after that she started to stare into empty space. Taknak betinteraksi dgn orang. Husband inks that dia kena 'buatan orang' (if i may add,ada kelucahan yg i nak kata tapi i'll let it go since this is quite serious topic) because kononnya mak tak setuju depa kahwin. To tangguhkan study, she was required to be seen by an expert, hence a psychiatrist. She was diagnosed as schizophrenic. The problem is walaupun dah lama jugak benda ni berlaku husband still tak boleh terima kenyataan, still cakap yg dia dah OK, dah jumpa 'orang alim' dah. Denial = tak bagi bini ubat = lagi teruk sakit bininya.
On a much cheerful topic, MM baru didatangkan khas oleh MG...what? Si Memek jadi tajuk utama? Bila ditanya samada dia masih bersama Normang, dia hanya tersenyum manja?? And sebab tu lelaki mudah tertawan?Ptuiihhhh! Memek juga cakap yg dia kini senang berkawan dengan Normang because dia bukan laki orang sekarang...yeah la you punya pasal la! Cam takde jantan lain nak orat. Speaking of this, Ok la Normang tu nampak macho, hensem...bebudak muda cam si Memek tu mudahla nak terpikat. What about si penyanyi unsur2 arab and that ustaz??? I rasa kalau dah memang betul bila you orat tu jantan masih laki orang, just be dignified and tak yah cakap banyak2. The least pun cakap la, saya minta maap dah tersuka nak wat camna?? Ni boleh nak menyaman bini or exbini orang tu pulak for meghoyan. Shame on you!
On one last cerita before i go off...a fe years ago, mak i sibuk berkempen mintak derma utk ustaz kat tempat dia ngaji pi sambung masters kat Indo. He's still young, late 20s kut. Sibukla dia berkempen cakap ustaz tu sponsor seniri etc. Sebagai pendidik (cewah) dan jugak because i ni anak mithali (and mak i selalu ingat i paling banyak duit antara adik beradik - mak, org lain pun banyak duit gak tapi depa selalu buat muka susah..haha), i pun menderma. Then, 2 years later mak i bercerita la pasal ada ustaz dia kawin lagi satu kat Indo masatengah belajar and the 1st wife masa jumpa my mum kat masjid peluk my mum and mengalir air matanya. So, Cik Kiah pembela nasib wanita ni pun bertanya, is this the same ustaz yg i ada gak contribute duit belajar dia ni??? A ah, cakap my mum. Whaaattt? Orang suruh pi belajar bukannya kawin. Tu la students jantan ni, senang sangat nak hilang konsentrasi. Bila jadi student je nak bercinta (i'm sure dia cintan cintu ngan 1st wife dia masa student). What happened? Mak i cakap towards the end masa nak siapkan thesis dia, dia selalu study sesama ngan pompuan ni. So.....you guess the rest la kan.
So i said to my mum, if i have the chance to meet him, i'll make sure i stare bermakna kat dia. Amboi! Orang pergi belajar, ni sempat tambah cawangan lagi. Asyik nak bercinta je, camna Melayu nak maju!
Friday, July 10, 2009
Update 2
Baby X is not well…she has the HFM disease. She picked it up from her boyfriend aka neighbour’s son yg tua 2, 3 bulan saja. From him la anak I tu tau belajar kissing (or sayang and dia akan kiss dgn mulut ternganga. And shut up Esah, I know what you are about to say). He must love her so or at least like her very much kerana sanggup meminjamkan toys dia pada Baby X. Ada je toy foreign yg Baby X akan bawak balik. Anyway, yesterday I called up MG at the office and broke to him the news about the infection…MG terdiam sekejap…he was feeling guilty because about 3 weeks ago before dia berfoya2 kat Phuket he had the disease…I don’t know where he’s been sticking his hand or mouth for that matter.When he told me I cepat2 balik rumah from the office and stripped off all the bed sheets, towel etc. , pindahkan barang2 MG to the other bedroom…no touching the kids, kids not to sit on the sofa. I guess my cross infection control berjaya…until la boipren si kecik tu kena and the rest is history. Sekarang ni que sera sera je la.
I had to attend a meeting to ‘membincangkan pasal research’ since I ni dah jadi student balik kan. I was nervous….i didn’t know where the place was, my supervisor thought it would be good for me ‘to meet people’. Little that he know I am always nervous about meeting new people and kalau boleh I just want to be part of the furniture. Laa…those people who attended the meeting were mostly students doing their masters, muka muda2 belaka, some tu looked like they haven’t even passed their puberty. They were talking in languages I don’t understand : IHC la, genome la, entah apa2 C lagi and the title of my project is soooo simple that I think I need to add on my car plate number WRC to it to make it look gah. Obviously there was refreshments afterwards which of course I cabut asap clutching my handphone talking loudly to a pretend person kononnya cam ada emergency ß sicko!
I call this as myself having problem with self esteem. I am a people pleaser or doormat is the other name for it. From there I rushed to workplace A, dok bertapa kat cafeteria for another half hour or so, hiding basically. I told my little boss that I won’t be joining for the dept. meeting but kalau terserempak dgn dia of course I akan kata ye je. I attended another meeting because the person chairing it had asked me to…but for 2 hours, I was just a pretty face there…angguk, senyum and gelak at the appropriate time.
I find it difficult to say no to people. Daripada yg memintak derma walkathon ke sampai la suh attend meetings… satu lagi bab2 yg kena melawat org kat hospital ni…my MIL has the habit of telling me so and so masuk hospital kat workplace B, kalau I ada masa pi la menjenguk. Aiyayai….once the uncle I was to visit had a stroke. He couldn’t recognise me let alone talk. And anak dia yg meneman tu pun tak pernah jumpa i….just imagine I yg sungguhnya pemalu ni kena make small talks dgn budak bujang ni yg must be thinking who the hell this woman was. Recently, kena pergi melawat sekali lagi atas ‘permintaan’ MIL jugak…I gave myself 15 mins (buat cukup syarat je) but tup2 stayed on sampai 2 jam because the uncle’s wife pot pet pot pet….it’s better this way, I just needed to nod and smile. (Herannya, MG terlepas pulak daripada kena buat kerja2 masyarakat ni). Then, my dad once called and told me that my cousin from kampung yg kena breast cancer tu tengah nazak…why don’t i…..mula2 memang I tak ‘rela’ nak pergi. I didn’t know what to say in that kind of situation. But then my sister called and told me how they (the cousins) were so proud of watching me on tv (that time) that heboh satu kampung, itu sepupu teman tu…How can I not go, kan? Not because I ni cam celebrity ke but because they are my suku sakat, not to lupa asal usul and walaupun benda kecik camtu I buat but they were so proud of me. Bila nak balik and the sister peluk I and cakap, Cik Kiah, tolong doakan ye….it took me a few seconds to think what to say. My cousin tu dah tenat…takkan I nak cakap, don’t worry, everything will be allright. Delusional ke apa? So I said, I akan doakan yg kita semua tabah nak mengadap pemergian dia. Bernas ke you rasa I cakap camtu?
Baru2 ni, one of my colleagues cakap, Cik Kiah…masa you mula2 start kerja (nearly 10 years ago), you were so kerek. But now ni langsung tak, selalunya org makin lama makin kerek. I see that as a compliment (walaupun dicap kerek satu ketika dulu). A ah…when we were young, tambah lagi baru dapat degree bergelaran, kita memang rasa kita la penyelamat dunia, kita la pemberi afas baru…then bila dah lama sikit, pi study lagi, tambah lagi dgn life experiences, we discover that there are a lot of things out there that we don’t know and there a lot of other people who are much better than us. And this humbled us, or me. So I would like to see myself as padi, makin berisi makin tunduk…..(sorry la Ok, nak gak puji diri sendiri…hehe)
p/s I bersiaran melalui netbook and broadband. Soooo savvy! (walaupun lembab dari org lain)
I had to attend a meeting to ‘membincangkan pasal research’ since I ni dah jadi student balik kan. I was nervous….i didn’t know where the place was, my supervisor thought it would be good for me ‘to meet people’. Little that he know I am always nervous about meeting new people and kalau boleh I just want to be part of the furniture. Laa…those people who attended the meeting were mostly students doing their masters, muka muda2 belaka, some tu looked like they haven’t even passed their puberty. They were talking in languages I don’t understand : IHC la, genome la, entah apa2 C lagi and the title of my project is soooo simple that I think I need to add on my car plate number WRC to it to make it look gah. Obviously there was refreshments afterwards which of course I cabut asap clutching my handphone talking loudly to a pretend person kononnya cam ada emergency ß sicko!
I call this as myself having problem with self esteem. I am a people pleaser or doormat is the other name for it. From there I rushed to workplace A, dok bertapa kat cafeteria for another half hour or so, hiding basically. I told my little boss that I won’t be joining for the dept. meeting but kalau terserempak dgn dia of course I akan kata ye je. I attended another meeting because the person chairing it had asked me to…but for 2 hours, I was just a pretty face there…angguk, senyum and gelak at the appropriate time.
I find it difficult to say no to people. Daripada yg memintak derma walkathon ke sampai la suh attend meetings… satu lagi bab2 yg kena melawat org kat hospital ni…my MIL has the habit of telling me so and so masuk hospital kat workplace B, kalau I ada masa pi la menjenguk. Aiyayai….once the uncle I was to visit had a stroke. He couldn’t recognise me let alone talk. And anak dia yg meneman tu pun tak pernah jumpa i….just imagine I yg sungguhnya pemalu ni kena make small talks dgn budak bujang ni yg must be thinking who the hell this woman was. Recently, kena pergi melawat sekali lagi atas ‘permintaan’ MIL jugak…I gave myself 15 mins (buat cukup syarat je) but tup2 stayed on sampai 2 jam because the uncle’s wife pot pet pot pet….it’s better this way, I just needed to nod and smile. (Herannya, MG terlepas pulak daripada kena buat kerja2 masyarakat ni). Then, my dad once called and told me that my cousin from kampung yg kena breast cancer tu tengah nazak…why don’t i…..mula2 memang I tak ‘rela’ nak pergi. I didn’t know what to say in that kind of situation. But then my sister called and told me how they (the cousins) were so proud of watching me on tv (that time) that heboh satu kampung, itu sepupu teman tu…How can I not go, kan? Not because I ni cam celebrity ke but because they are my suku sakat, not to lupa asal usul and walaupun benda kecik camtu I buat but they were so proud of me. Bila nak balik and the sister peluk I and cakap, Cik Kiah, tolong doakan ye….it took me a few seconds to think what to say. My cousin tu dah tenat…takkan I nak cakap, don’t worry, everything will be allright. Delusional ke apa? So I said, I akan doakan yg kita semua tabah nak mengadap pemergian dia. Bernas ke you rasa I cakap camtu?
Baru2 ni, one of my colleagues cakap, Cik Kiah…masa you mula2 start kerja (nearly 10 years ago), you were so kerek. But now ni langsung tak, selalunya org makin lama makin kerek. I see that as a compliment (walaupun dicap kerek satu ketika dulu). A ah…when we were young, tambah lagi baru dapat degree bergelaran, kita memang rasa kita la penyelamat dunia, kita la pemberi afas baru…then bila dah lama sikit, pi study lagi, tambah lagi dgn life experiences, we discover that there are a lot of things out there that we don’t know and there a lot of other people who are much better than us. And this humbled us, or me. So I would like to see myself as padi, makin berisi makin tunduk…..(sorry la Ok, nak gak puji diri sendiri…hehe)
p/s I bersiaran melalui netbook and broadband. Soooo savvy! (walaupun lembab dari org lain)
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Update 1
I have not updated in a long, long time disebabkan oleh panggilan tugas and not berfoya2 macam orang itu. One night only a few days ago, with the children and laki asleep, it was a condusive time for me to blog which I did…tulis berjela2 using MG’s pda (yg ghope2nya ada kemudahan bertenet and idak diperkhabarkan pada bininya yg suka belayar ni) and honestly I press the published button but yilek pocik. Of course stim pun terencat kan?
Last week, I attended this stats course at workplace B….ada kemudahan wifi tetapi only to those yg sanggup mengisi borang berjela2 and of course mike tak kosser! Pas tu bila singgah kat opis tempat kerja sampingan I tu, bos baru I kat situ jenis set2 yg control freak and habis segala neka block programme dia instalkan kat computers kat situ and obviously blog ilmiah kegemaran I takkan dapat di layari….jangan kata blog sebegitu, maybank2u pun tak boleh! Speaking of the course, teramatlah boringnya tapi berfaedah. Si Baung, me and my little boss took turn to sleep. Selama ni I ingat Si Baung selalu attentive sebabtu selalu dikerahkan utk attend meetings, talks or seminars. Tipah tertipu you! Baru 10 minit penceramah bukak mulut dia dah berdengkur…literally. Pas tu tak nak ngaku that he snores. The only highlight during the week was when this guy gave a lecture…so posh bbc english one! Celik bijik mata pukul 8 pagi tu. Although after half an hour Cik Kiah rasa cam nak ketuk kepala and ask him to speak properly…malaysian english mah!!
I am supposed to be a student now kan, so I cuba kurangkan masa ke workplace I tu because kat sana penuh dengan gejala2 sosial yg boleh membuatkan orang terlajak especially to someone like me yg iman memang tipis pun..pantang diajak berfogging, makan atau merendek. Yg herannya, supervisor I cam take it for granted je yg I ada tempat nak port, so idakle dia bagitau I kat mana I boleh port sementara I jadi student i. Buat satu hari nanti I meghoyan and duk kat 5 foot way luar bilik dia baru tau. So, nak tak nak balik la I ke opis I dan kuatkan semangat menangkis segala godaan yg datang.
A ah Tun Jin oiii..penangan I nak buat PhD ni memang teruk sekali…..i really had to psyche myself up…yes, I need a new challenge but at the same time hati tu gusar, larat ke aku?? It would have been different if I had a lot of encouragement from the upper level…the big boss had said me being married with anak and all pas tu decide nak buat locally pulak, terlampau banyak distractions (those who had gone before from my workplace have all been men, or single ladies). Sebagai boss di tempat ni, I don’t think he should have said it that way – what choice have we yg tak berkeinginan langsung nak masuk private sector got melainkan to move forward and improve? Kalau tak dok la bertapa sampai pencen grade 52 je. Of course it added pressure on me to perform and prove that man wrong kan?
So, I thought, I have to be more organised for a start. Apa yg boleh memangkinkan semangat i? Well, I am a very simple person…I went and got myself some highlighters and colourful stick Ns. Gelak la korang but frankly speaking I got through 1st and master degrees without having any of those. And then, ada la cik kak ni bertanya kat I satu hari, Cik Kiah….you taknak beli laptop baru or netbook ke since you nak start jadi student balik ni? Oh no! Mulai dari itu hati I digodek2 with the thought of a new, lighter, more aesthetically pleasing netbook (yg sesuai dibawa ke st@rbucks dan kopitiam yg sewaktu dgnnya…niat terpesong betul). Pas tu the vision of me with my cute little netbook dok kat sofa kat rumah berblogging sambil2 tengok tv came to mind….dengan adanya netbook and new wireless internet connection (bye bye 1515 MG yg amat menjeruk hati I tu), dunia ini tanpa sempada uols!
Dah 2, 3 malam tido terbayangkan netbook, terpaksalah I succumb to my nafsu..i asked for MG’s opinion and he said, kan awak baru beli laptop last year. Iyele, laptop tu beli sebelum netbook keluar. Anyway, laptop boleh dok rumah, netbook masuk handbag. Then, I went and berbroadband….semalam pulanglah I dgn package2 yg sinful itu..obviously la si netbook itu kena disorokkan dpd tuan rumah. Bukannya I mengabiskan duit dia, but I just don’t want him to find out yg I asyik mengabiskan duit i… terbayanglah di otak I a more internet savvy Cik Kiah once si laki dan anak2 dah masuk tido…but ….dekat sejam I godek2 laptop, netbook and broadband benda alah tu and tak dapat2 nak connect tau! Tension! Sementara nak sort out benda tu kena la I sekali lagi remain tak savvy. Don't get your knickers in a twist Esah...(main carut2 lagi kat tefon aku ye. Kemain lagi!)
Last week, I attended this stats course at workplace B….ada kemudahan wifi tetapi only to those yg sanggup mengisi borang berjela2 and of course mike tak kosser! Pas tu bila singgah kat opis tempat kerja sampingan I tu, bos baru I kat situ jenis set2 yg control freak and habis segala neka block programme dia instalkan kat computers kat situ and obviously blog ilmiah kegemaran I takkan dapat di layari….jangan kata blog sebegitu, maybank2u pun tak boleh! Speaking of the course, teramatlah boringnya tapi berfaedah. Si Baung, me and my little boss took turn to sleep. Selama ni I ingat Si Baung selalu attentive sebabtu selalu dikerahkan utk attend meetings, talks or seminars. Tipah tertipu you! Baru 10 minit penceramah bukak mulut dia dah berdengkur…literally. Pas tu tak nak ngaku that he snores. The only highlight during the week was when this guy gave a lecture…so posh bbc english one! Celik bijik mata pukul 8 pagi tu. Although after half an hour Cik Kiah rasa cam nak ketuk kepala and ask him to speak properly…malaysian english mah!!
I am supposed to be a student now kan, so I cuba kurangkan masa ke workplace I tu because kat sana penuh dengan gejala2 sosial yg boleh membuatkan orang terlajak especially to someone like me yg iman memang tipis pun..pantang diajak berfogging, makan atau merendek. Yg herannya, supervisor I cam take it for granted je yg I ada tempat nak port, so idakle dia bagitau I kat mana I boleh port sementara I jadi student i. Buat satu hari nanti I meghoyan and duk kat 5 foot way luar bilik dia baru tau. So, nak tak nak balik la I ke opis I dan kuatkan semangat menangkis segala godaan yg datang.
A ah Tun Jin oiii..penangan I nak buat PhD ni memang teruk sekali…..i really had to psyche myself up…yes, I need a new challenge but at the same time hati tu gusar, larat ke aku?? It would have been different if I had a lot of encouragement from the upper level…the big boss had said me being married with anak and all pas tu decide nak buat locally pulak, terlampau banyak distractions (those who had gone before from my workplace have all been men, or single ladies). Sebagai boss di tempat ni, I don’t think he should have said it that way – what choice have we yg tak berkeinginan langsung nak masuk private sector got melainkan to move forward and improve? Kalau tak dok la bertapa sampai pencen grade 52 je. Of course it added pressure on me to perform and prove that man wrong kan?
So, I thought, I have to be more organised for a start. Apa yg boleh memangkinkan semangat i? Well, I am a very simple person…I went and got myself some highlighters and colourful stick Ns. Gelak la korang but frankly speaking I got through 1st and master degrees without having any of those. And then, ada la cik kak ni bertanya kat I satu hari, Cik Kiah….you taknak beli laptop baru or netbook ke since you nak start jadi student balik ni? Oh no! Mulai dari itu hati I digodek2 with the thought of a new, lighter, more aesthetically pleasing netbook (yg sesuai dibawa ke st@rbucks dan kopitiam yg sewaktu dgnnya…niat terpesong betul). Pas tu the vision of me with my cute little netbook dok kat sofa kat rumah berblogging sambil2 tengok tv came to mind….dengan adanya netbook and new wireless internet connection (bye bye 1515 MG yg amat menjeruk hati I tu), dunia ini tanpa sempada uols!
Dah 2, 3 malam tido terbayangkan netbook, terpaksalah I succumb to my nafsu..i asked for MG’s opinion and he said, kan awak baru beli laptop last year. Iyele, laptop tu beli sebelum netbook keluar. Anyway, laptop boleh dok rumah, netbook masuk handbag. Then, I went and berbroadband….semalam pulanglah I dgn package2 yg sinful itu..obviously la si netbook itu kena disorokkan dpd tuan rumah. Bukannya I mengabiskan duit dia, but I just don’t want him to find out yg I asyik mengabiskan duit i… terbayanglah di otak I a more internet savvy Cik Kiah once si laki dan anak2 dah masuk tido…but ….dekat sejam I godek2 laptop, netbook and broadband benda alah tu and tak dapat2 nak connect tau! Tension! Sementara nak sort out benda tu kena la I sekali lagi remain tak savvy. Don't get your knickers in a twist Esah...(main carut2 lagi kat tefon aku ye. Kemain lagi!)
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