Accompany

上帝知道人类怕孤独，所以祂配给了我们影子，所以白天我们可以假装不害怕孤独。可是当晚上关起灯时，影子没有了，那种孤单的恐惧，往往只有自己了解。

God knew that people are afraid of solitary, and give us shadows so that we can pretent that we are not afriad of being alone at daytime. But when all the lights went off at night, you are the only person who knows and understand the fear of loneliness, of your own self.

FUN!!

Bryan complained that all the previous entries are sooooo emo. Got emo meh?! yeeeaaaaaa

Okay...here are some of my favourite photos on Bin and RotiBoom's birthday party last sunday.

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!!

We went to a restaurent in Kepong which serves traditional korean food called DAORAE, I think they have some other branches in Hartamas, Ampang or else. Very nice I would say, I love their food!! But then this is my first trial on korean food, sooo....I don't know what's the bad korean food. YuShu should come with us larrr...

We We Weeee We We

Those red circles are the food that we ordered, actually they have a similar taste, yet still very nice to me :) AND I love their VEGIE!!!! I just finished up all of them, and it is REFILLABLE, how nice!! I AM NOT COW!!

I love this maggie too~~muacks~~

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Actually it was a belated birthday party for both of them, but I think we all still have lots of fun with it :)

just see how the kesian birthday was treated, then you'll know....

OI!!It's MINE!!!

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After that we all went to Minny's house...for doing nothing. Some were looking at our old stupid pics back in high school life, some were busy gossiping.....For people who did not have anything to do, nope, they were having fun with the little sunflower actually =_=

see your nose already know who you are kay

just let the empty sunflower go please...

My Agoh!Came back from Taiwan finally :)

I really had fun that night. Everything is changing with the time, but I know there are still something that will never fade. Like those my sohai friends, and our friendship.

PS: Guess what is this?!NO prize kk....

Pretence

Since when I do care about how people see me and what they know about me. NO, no way.

Just feel like I'm not myself anymore, no? I used to be very noisy, laughing screaming shouting damn loudly, cos I don't mind other people who I don't know might see me as psycho or else, I don't care.

I'm afraid that I'm gonna misspeak something and lead to some misunderstanding, so I keep quiet. I'm afraid that I'm not the one WHO I should be in others' eyes, so I BEHAVE myself and try not to make a fool on it. I'm afraid that I'm the one who gonna be left out, so I play hard in every role.

Or emmm.....Is that, we all have to learn how to pretend in carrying well our own characteristic which is acceptable by people? Not even know if are we happy with it? We are nothing but hypocrite. We are just pretending, who we are suppose to be. Maybe only me, I'm just shamming.

Can I change? Or I should be the real me who I used to be.

Yea, USED TO BE.

We are shaped by the time, maybe goood maybe bad. Like we know how to hide the tears when feel like crying. Good to be tough, bad for hiding the real feeling.... or cheating yourself that you're tough enough.

I don't know what I'm talking about.

PS:And actually you always know what you really want to talk about. BRAVO

“Best Friend”

你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。
他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这么一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。
你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。
做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？
你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜，可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . . （完）

在你心里也有这样的一个人吗？

我？不确定。不确定自己能不能像朋友一样待他，不确定我们是不是真的能无所不谈，不确定....某天当我在某个街角看见他牵着另一女生的手时，我的心脏仍然维持正常频率地走到他面前跟他微笑打招呼。

但我想我会慢慢习惯，习惯他会坐在我旁边，但我们都没说上话。习惯每天的话题中都会出现他的名字，然后若无其事得跟着傻笑。习惯每天对他的思念，然后将它放在心底。习惯我们之间的这个距离，和没勇气说穿的默契。

现在能做的，就只有努力的习惯很多习惯。

:X

I LOST MY WORDS

how how how??

PS:try to catch me/my mood/updates from the music....maybe.

I can't help.

I am lost.