Liar !!

LIAR. The word has been haunting me since I received that sms of yours. I am utterly shaken.. beyond words.
Must have read it zillion times. Every single word is etched in my heart. You called me; we were extremely happy speaking to each other after many days and suddenly within a few hours you labeled me a liar.

WHY ??

I am at a loss.
You owe me an explanation. Are you listening ? You just can’t get away like this. I don’t want to call you a coward because you are not. I know you are equally pained by this act. Why ?

I always try to give my 200% to any bond, any relation and still leave some space for forgiveness but not here. You were too close for any space between us.

My cell has some of your messages including the first one sent from VT station and it will have this one too.. ... to constantly remind me in case I tend to forget.

And I will not try to get over it. From my side nothing has changed, you’ll remain the same person; will have the same place as before.

But no, you don’t deserve me or my friendship.
My dear, you have lost me.. possibly forever…

And in times like this I always try to pep myself up by the lines once told to me

“Fortunate are the ones who are your friends”.

God Bless you. Be happy and be yourself, always. Enjoy your secured world of self-beliefs. I am with you, as always.

Wish Me !!

Is this the new year wish I wanted from you ?? Tell me, don’t I deserve anything better ?? Oh, why I keep expecting something propitious when I know nothing, absolutely nothing can change your sick mind.

Oh, what a way to start the New Year ! Look, what I have received as a new year gift from you. A tattered and terrified me, a naked me in front of the whole world.

In my entire life I never felt this frightened, disturbed, raped and lonely... not even at a time when I lost my dear someone. But today, I lost everything.. my faith, my trust, my openhearted laugh, my honour and above all, myself, which I so wrongly thought are safe. Today I hang my head in shame. You proved me wrong. At least today it looks like so.

Try as hard as you can. You can’t kill me with your demeanors. From that loss of mine in the past, I had emerged and I’ll emerge again. I know it won’t be easy but I promise you that.

I also wish you a very happy time ahead.

Come on !! Have guts and wish me NOW !! Will you ??

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