#146 self esteem anyone?

I weigh around 50kilos before I got pregnant and once I knew I was pregnant .. I ate every single thing that I want. Until the 40thweek .. I weigh around 65kilos.

Seriously I don't really mind with it. Bajet nak kuruskn badan during confinement. Konon nk pakai bengkung n makan jamu segala. Last minute I gave birth through c-sect. So , segala impian nak pakai bengkung musnah. And naazhim got jaundice for a month so I couldn't eat jamu since I fully bf him at that time.

after my cuti ended, my weight was back to normal but sadly my shape is totally out. Sedih ok! Segala baju kurung yang berfesyen2 mmg stuck dekat hip. perut jangan cerita la since I x pakai bengkung .. Mmg nmpk la die bulge ala2 muffin tu. Aaaa!! Jeans2 lame mmg dah tak boleh pkai ok. How sad. Baju kebaye habis sedekah kat org. Kalau keluar asik pkai skirt labuh but now I already bought new pants. Saiz x same ok. Jeng!

And when naazhim was at 4 month, he got chickenpox. 2weeks after that .. I got the chickenpox. Ye. Saye tak penah kene chicken pox lagi. Sekian. At the age of 27 I got chicenpox! 27!! Dah tua ok! It took about 2 weeks to recover .. But the scar is still there. Huwaaaaa! Dah la shape x macam dulu .. Parut chickenpox plak x hilang.

I felt so terrible and my self esteem dropped down the drain. I was worried sick if my hubs finds me unattractive. Huhu. But alhamdulillah .. I'm not sure how tapi parut dekat muka 100% gone. Nasib baiiiikkkkk ... Scar dkt badan pon bit by bit hilang eventhough not all but i am thankful enough. Perut je masih boroi and I don't really know what to do with it .. Bengkung? Exercise? Tinggal harapan je la. Hehe.

Kadang2 bile tanye hubs .. U sayang I lg tak .. Mesti lah die jawab sayang kan .. X kesah sume tu la .. Ape la .. But to be honest .. Msti lah I KESAH ngn keadaan I skrg. Huwaaaaa! Nk tanye mommies yg dapat balik shape dolu2 ... Korang mkn @ buat ape eh?? Mind to share?
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#145 8month y'all

Aik? Dh 8 bulan? I've been so freaking busy and lazy at the same time to update my blog. I've been wanting to update tp ade je halangan yg melintang so I keep postpone-ing my urge to write. And now .. Here I am .. Writing something precious about my son's milestone. Tapi bulan2 sebelumnye takde story mory the morning glory pn. Sobb!

Ok let's start. Naazhim at 8month .. Hurmmm .. Boleh mengengsot dengan sangat laju .. Ala2 komando gituuu. Able to sit but with help .. Kot x tu dduk senget je. Recognize familiar faces tapi if stranger dukung nak aje. Pitching mase meraung masih lagi mcm dulu cuma tak selalu la. PAYAHHHHHH sangat nk pkaikan baju sebab sgt lasak n once letak trus meniarap. Belum boleh merangkak lagi and it worries me so much. Huhu. Oh! Dh tumbuh dua batang gigi. ;) and suke sangat dengar lagu boboiboy.

Ajim .. Mami loves u so much. It is so fascinating watching u grow up each day. ;)

#144 whyyy?

I edited my last post but something happened and all the picture gone. Only 3 je kot yg saved. Argh. X berape nak milestone la nampaknye.

Later la update the milestone picture ;p

So, tomorrow Naazhim turns 7months ;) time flies fast. Rase macam baru je semalam in labour. But the truth is .. Here he is .. Turning 7 months old .. able to roll his body by himself .. LOOVVVEEEE to explore every single corner of the house, will put every thing he had in hand to his mouth. Able to recognize people .. Nak je kat org lain but after a few seconds baru meraung ;) still tido dalam buai .. Nasib2 je blh tepuk2 n terus tido kat katil. Marah bile cium kuat2. Suke sembur2 air liur .. N tergelak kuat if dedi die gelikn perut die. Tp if mami buat .. Die bwt derkkkk je. Chet!!

Ohhhh Naazhim .. Mami wants nothing but the best for you. I love u so much!

#143 milestones

#142 testing

I changed my phone. So I have to re-configure AGAIN. Hope this will work. So many things to update ;)
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#141 ChickenPox! I Hate You!!

Kesian tak??! My baby got chickenpox .. At 4 months. Serious sedeh. Doc cakap kalau blister tu baru kluar harini .. That means die dah infected 2weeks ago! I pon tatau die jangkit kat sape sebab Naazhim bukan pegi nursery pon. So I assume he got infected when we were outside. Kat shopping mall most probably. :( kot la.

Before this tido malam macam biase. Merengek sikit2 la. But last night was disastrous. Every half n hour die menangis and it took about an hour to put him to sleep back. Susu memang tak nak. Kalau nak pun mmg lucky la. Sedihhhhhh sangat tengok die nye condition sebab kite taktau mane yang sakit. Mane yang gatal. Mane yang tak selesa. :( it hurts me so much looking at him crying and I can do nothing.

I don't know how to handle baby yang kene chickenpox!! Anyone care to share any experiences regarding this matter? :(

#140 Naazhim at 4 month ;)

Ok. After berubat a few days ago, Naazhim is much much better than before. Jarang nak nangis tak tentu pasal. Kool aje die ;)

And now he is able to sleep without buai ;) tapi kene dodoikan la. Kalau die boleh tidur sendiri atas katil memang syok abis. Tapi papehal pon I am grateful enough die boleh tido without crying his lung out. That's an achievement!