duck and cancer...

so i was working at the chinese takeaway last night and a middle aged man came in with some einstein kinda hair with the hamsap kinda look and came up to me to make an order..

heya, so what can i get you today?

hm..... let me seee........ *flip menu flip flip flip flip*

hm.... do you have roast duck?

erm.... yup, and what sauce would you like?

well, pineapple!

ok... and so, would you like it to go with chips, boiled rice or fried rice?

fried rice would be great!

alright, anything else?

mmm... can i have some prawn toast...

alright...

and some spring rolls...

ok...

and thats everything...

*went into kitchen and gave the order*

*after a minute......*



you know what? youre the first customer that ordered duck dish so far for the few weeks that i had been working here... .... i mean, maybe its cos its the most expensive dish to order i think.. (duck dishes are practically a pound or two more expensive than the other meats..)

ha... well, life is short, we'll just have to enjoy it to the fullest ei..

*smile*...

*pointing at himself* ive got myeloma, so.... i try not to think about what to eat or not to eat...

*my heart sank that instant*

then we kept talking the whole time about his family, his life, his health while waiting for his food to be prepared ..

its merely 10 15 minutes but so much went thru my mind la..

ah.....

are these signs for me not to think or worry about stuffs too much and just chill the fuck out and move on? haha....

lalalalala....

ive got only saturdays free for this week cos im working tomorrow again... and the next free day will be saturday liao...

gg....

shed a tear...

one patient came in today and i was at the reception and when she came to me i said: heya, may i help you?

she just went thru her bag and took out a piece of paper that stated an appointment with my boss and so i said that: I'll go get my boss... and so i went in to her office and told her about the patient that came for her appointment and then return to the reception area to get her: she's ready for you... just enter the room to the right..

she was sitting on a chair when i said that but she did not response..

and then i called out to her again... but she did not response as well, i mean of course she was looking elsewhere..

anyway.. so i went over out of the counter to tell her and then only she stood up after seeing me coming and then when i want to really say something she pointed to her ear and forcefully said with a low voice: im deaf...

that instant i was taken back but i didnt really show it out but just to point at the door where she would go in for her appointment..

after she entered the room i went back in behind the counter and everything just fly pass my mind...

she looks very very decent and for her to tell me that, it was really unexpected and maybe at that point i just really couldnt hold back anymore and tears just filled my eyes..

well no one noticed since the weather is so dry those tears evaporates instantly anyway..

...

then i told myself, be grateful....

i put on a smile after that and everything was good till now..

ive been struggling these few days thinking about bubu and all and like trying to talk to him and all and like.. like those hard-to-get-rid kinda ex... haha... but like... i think he has got his life to live and im just too far to make an impact on his anymore, at least for now..  letting go is not easy but like, its easier after today..

dont know la..

maybe its just a temporary feeling but like it felt better than 10 people trying to console me kinda thing...

maybe its just my own internal conflict..

conflict or not.. hopefully it will be better after this....







:)

lucky me...

was helping a coursemate of mine to sort his accommodation and transport for his summer placements stuffs..

he was posted to a place quite ulu kapit near the coast up north 4.5 hours bus ride from home..

he has to find and rent a place to stay.. and that place is really like kampung... now wanna find place to stay also damn difficult cos its bloody expensive and cos of summer time the coast memang price UP UP UP!! lolllll...

so was talking to him and...

tuls ah....


huh?


you know youre quite lucky right?


.....


you got the interview and you get the job(he got it without interview but a random selection from the company)... and sumore its only 8 mins bus away from home... you can save so much and you dont have to stress over all these...


...hm.... 

i didnt realize until i saw him...

but yea...

i was calmed out of a sudden after talking to him...

a sense of relief and everything..

knowing that he was here for 3 years already and got somewhere so far away and his pay from work will go to all to feed his accommodation and transport while mine is just in the comfort of walking distance after barely being here for a year...

contented...

imma go get a nice long warm shower now...

Scheduled post: 10 things your dog would tell you

another touching short fact thingy.. lol...

10 Things Your Dog Would Tell You....
 
1. My life is likely to last 10 to 15 years. Any separation from you will be painful: remember that before you get me.
 
2. Give me time to understand what you want of me.
 
3. Place your trust in me- it is crucial to my well being.
 
4. Do not be angry at me for long, and do not lock me up as punishment.

5. You have your work, your entertainment,and your friends. I only have you.
 
6. Talk to me sometimes. Even if I don't understands your words, I understand your voice when it is speaking to me.
 
7. Be aware that how ever you treat me, I will never forget.
 
8. Remember before you hit me that I have teeth that could easily hurt you, but I choose not to bite you because I love you.
 
9. Before you scold me for being uncooperative,obstinate,or lazy, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I might not be getting the right food, or I have been out too long, or my heart is getting to old and weak.
 
10. Take care of me when I get old; you too will grow old. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say: "I cannot bear to watch" or "Let it happen in my absence." Everything is easier for me if you are there, even my death.
 
Remember that I love you.

Scheduled post: Dont drink and drive

i think i read this short story below twice on different occasions and i teared each time.. hm.. its a good one.. if you dont tear, youre either too numb or have got no mood.. haha.. enjoy exercising your eye la...

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I was walking around in a Big Bazar store making shopping, when I saw a Cashier talking to a boy couldn't have been more than 5 or 6 years old..

The Cashier said, 'I'm sorry, but you don't have enough money to buy this doll. Then the little boy turned to me and asked: ''Uncle, are you sure I don't have enough money?''
...
I counted his cash and replied: ''You know that you don't have enough money to buy the doll, my dear.'' The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.

Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. 'It's the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much . I wanted to Gift her for her BIRTHDAY.

I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.' His eyes were so sad while saying this. 'My Sister has gone to be with God.. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister...''

My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: 'I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.' Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me 'I want mommy to take my picture with her so my sister won't forget me.' 'I love my mommy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.' Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly..

I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. 'Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?''

'OK' he said, 'I hope I do have enough.' I added some of my money to his with out him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money.

The little boy said: 'Thank you God for giving me enough money!'

Then he looked at me and added, 'I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give It to my sister. He heard me!'' 'I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn't dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose. My mommy loves white roses.'

I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local

news paper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy?

Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the news paper that the young woman had passed away.. I couldn't stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed for ever...

The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him.

Please DO NOT DRINK & DRIVE.

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kena za..

there was this advertisement on facebook but i cant find the HTML so cant paste it here but the story goes like this, this old couple was awaiting for their son to come back for dinner in their kampung on chinese new years eve and yes he did came back for new years eve but left the house once he arrived, went out and lepak with his friends.. the mum since morning had boiled sai yong choi soup and the couple waited for the son to come back to have family dinner but only return home 1 am in the morning.. the ad end with the father heating up the soup and pour out a bowl for him but he rejected it and went straight to bed..

its sad la..

but what even more sad is, he actually used it agaisnt me..

b, so this year how long will you be in skudai wor?

hm.. i think for 1 day only...

alah.. then i mai cannot see you lor?

nevermind la...

but i came for you last year mar.. thought that i can do it again..

er... last year different mar, last year valentines..

hm... ok la... *besong punye face*

yala, like what you posted on fb also wert, chinese new year spend time with family mar, wanna come see me sumore, go SPEND TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY!

yer.. use my link and za me back one!!

but yeah, what he say also true la.. stupid pabo bubu.. this year's valentine falls on monday.. how i wish its on sunday... huhu...