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Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Makeup

It's strange for me to look back at these pictures of my pregnant belly because they almost don't seem real. When I was hugely pregnant I looked at pictures of my non-pregnant self and couldn't believe there was a time when I wasn't huge. And now I look at the pregnant pictures and can't believe there was a time when I was that huge. Being pregnant is weird.

It feels good to be back in some of my old clothes. Not that I can fit into all of them yet but at least I have more of a selection! And on the topic of looking and/or feeling better - I have a couple of new items in my makeup back that I am loving so I thought I'd share. (pictures are links)

First, this Blushwear Cream Stick from Clinique. It's pretty awesome. It's like a huge tube of lipstick that you rub on your cheeks. I've been wanting to try some cream blush and I'm glad I did (especially since the one I have was free)!

Second, this Lock & Roll 12-hour Eyeshadow from Tarte. I read about this in a magazine and it sounded interesting enough that I ordered one. It's cream on one end which goes on first (apparently I'm into cream makeup these days), then a roll on powder that goes on second. True to it's name it will last for 12 hours and will. not. crease. It's shimmery and makes me feel a little fancy when I wear it.

I also am the proud new owner of a foundation brush which makeup artists have been recommending for years but I never wanted to take the plunge. I found a coupon code and a sale and probably free shipping which made the one I bought worth trying. I don't use it every day because I'm sometimes lazy when putting on makeup but I like it and it makes your foundation look great. I'd recommend getting one....with a coupon code and sale and free shipping. :)

*Clinique or Tarte, if you want to pay me for this little advertisement you can just mail me a check.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

New Pictures

We got a new camera.
(Canon Rebel T1i)


It took these pictures.




I'm 23 Weeks and counting.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

EMERGENCY Room is a stupid name.

You know, they should really re-name the emergency room. Maybe they should call it the'slow room'. Or maybe they should just call it '24-hour doctor's office' so then we'd all expect to wait several hours in the waiting room.

And with that....my story. (warning: long & dramatic..for effect)

There I was, in a cleaning/organizing frenzy of our top floor. The plan was to spend the morning getting that done and then the rest of the day working since I work better in the afternoon than the morning. Anyway, I was making some serious progress (the kind that actually looks messier than when it started) and about 1:30 pm I decided that I'd better eat. I started feeling a little weak and dizzy. Then my vision started blurring. Wow, when a pregnant girl needs to eat - she needs to EAT! So I went down stairs and ate a quick sandwich. The plan was to get some work done but then the headache started and the vision was still blurry. I felt all out-of-sorts so I decided maybe lying down for a few minutes would be a better idea. And then...the wrath of the headache. Never have I felt such searing pain in my head. I couldn't fall asleep (my cure-all) or move or even breath. I laid there for about 45 minutes and decided maybe I should try some acetaminophen (tylenol - the only pain reliever for preggies). But then the vomiting began. At this point, I pretty much knew I was in trouble. I wasn't panicked, but concerned and in so much head pain I couldn't think straight.

I knew I couldn't drive so I called Becky. No answer. I called Karen. No answer. (they live closest to me and had a chance of being home) I called Krista and when she answered I burst into tears and could barely even sputter out what was wrong with me. I finally got it out and she said that I needed to go to hospital and that she'd get in the car that second and come pick me up. I told her I'd call my doctor while she was driving over and we'd make a plan when she got here.

So I called the Doctor's office and asked to speak with a nurse. The sweet receptionist asked if someone could return my call but when I responded with a crying, sputtering, "uh, well, ummmm" then she knew it was an emergency and went to get one for me. I spoke with the nurse who was nice and calming but she wanted to check with the doctor before telling me anything. Since the doctor was with a patient she said she'd call me right back as soon as he was out and it should only be a few minutes. That five minutes felt like an eternity - like I was waiting for someone to call me with my final fate. *okay, that was a little dramatic* When they called back she said that she and the doctor agreed that I should go to the hospital. She told me that they would normally just have me come into their office to get checked out but since they were closing in 20 minutes that I should head to the hospital. Oh good, she didn't seem panicked.

Krista rings my doorbell worried that I'm passed out and dying inside but I answered and we hugged and then I cried again. I told her what the doc said and then tried to figure out what I was supposed to take with me. I chose a bottle of water, an orange, a sleeve of saltines, a bowl (you know, for in case I needed to lose the crackers in Krista's car) and a book. I realized even at the time that that was a dumb idea but it was the only thing I could think of to do in case I had to be there a long time. My headache would not be having any reading, however. Anyway, so I collected my things, already in comfy clothes because - cleaning earlier, and we were on our way to the hospital.

Did we all figure out by now that Carl was out of town? Thought about that for a second...cried some more...and then tried to pull it together to call him. I called - he picked up and hung up. I called again - he picked up and hung up. Stupid work. So I sent him a text: I got really sick and so Krista is taking me to the hospital. I'll let you know as soon as I know more. Wouldn't you know it - I immediately got a call back. :) I quickly filled him in but we were walking into the ER by this point so I promised an update when I had one, let him know of my obvious disappointment that he wasn't with me, and forged through the doors of the busy emergency room. Krista and I had discussed on our way to the hospital that I should play up the pregnancy bit and try to cry some more and maybe I'd get seen sooner. I did talk about the pregnancy when checking in (obviously) and I did whimper through every answer but it didn't help.

(This picture was posed dramatically on purpose)

And so we waited. I got to sit in a wheelchair and got an 'official' barf bucket just in case (which I'm happy to say I never used). Travis came and picked up the kids and Krista and I waited some more. Throughout this whole waiting time I would randomly just start leaking from my eyes. It was really awesome. I was texting Carl hourly updates that went mostly like this: No update. Still waiting.

Krista had already canceled one piano lesson that night and I told her to go to her next one. There was nothing she could do for me there and we'd already been waiting for 3 hours by this point and I should get called back any time. She didn't go easy, but I convinced her it was best (because it was). So I called my mom. And I took a little walk around the waiting room until I got a little dizzy and swirly again. I ate my orange and some crackers and tried to drink my water so they wouldn't try to hydrate me with an IV. I watched a crazy lady come into the waiting room, be crazy, and then leave. I read 1/2 of a paragraph in my book. And then I had been waiting four hours.

Wait, what? FOUR FREAKING HOURS in the EMERGENCY ROOM!? Good thing it wasn't a freaking emergency! No one in there was losing their limbs or anything - everyone just looked sick...like me. Krista called me on her way back to the hospital to see if I wanted food but I was just going back so I told her to go home and check on her family and that I'd call her if I needed her or when I was discharged. And then probably cried some more. No sobbing, just quiet tears streaming down my face. It had been a long day. I was tired. My head hurt. Where was my husband!? Oh yeah, 2,000 miles away. More tears.

I got back to my partition of the room, put on my fancy gown, and waited for the doctor. He was excellent. He was super nice, not dramatic about any thing happening or any conclusions he was drawing. He didn't act like I was an idiot for coming in with a headache and asked all the right questions. I told him my theories of my diagnosis because I'd talked to my mom on the phone in the waiting room and we had consulted with Dr. Google and Dr. I-had-a-friend-once-who-_____. He agreed they were possibilities. They were very worried about my blood pressure but I never gave them anything to worry about. He asked me more than once how my blood pressure had been so far throughout my pregnancy - great, thank you. I am actually quite healthy. They took my BP a couple times there at the hospital expecting it to be high but both times it was slightly lower than average. Boo-ya! I was rocking this exam.

He offered me morphine (with the assurance that they safely give it to pregnant women all the time) but I declined. I asked for more tylenol instead. He gave me a quizzical look and said that I could have whatever I wanted but that it didn't seem to help last time I took it. So I reminded him that I don't think it was in my system long enough to work and that I'd like to try it again. He offered anti-nausea meds but I declined those too. I've never had a problem with tylenol before and didn't want to be scared of it in the future so I had to try it one more time. (future note: you are fine to take the tylenol because you didn't get sick from it but go ahead and take the offer of morphine next time)

My phone was almost dead and beeping at me. Crap. Carl and Mom and Krista were all trying to check in with me but I had to turn it off to save what precious little juice was left to call Krista to get a ride home when it was time. Who thinks to grab a phone charger on their way out the door to the hospital? Who would have thought I'd be there for 6 1/2 hours?

Okay, so he says, "the problem is that what we never like to hear is 'this is the worst headache I've ever had'". So I apologized and then told him that without a doubt this headache was blowing all of my other headaches combined right out of the water. So we decided on a CATscan just to be sure. They wheeled me down a million empty, sterile halls to an xray room. A technician met me outside, had me sign a form, and took me in. I laid there waiting to have my head go into the machine and the tears silently flowed. Not because I was scared of the CATscan but because....well, I'm not exactly sure. Same reason they came all afternoon/evening I guess. I really wished Carl had been there. The whole thing was quicker than I expected. Before I knew it I was back in my 'partition'.

Finally, a nurse stops in to check on me and bring my tylenol. I told her that they said they would want a urine sample and that I'd like to give that RIGHT NOW, PLEASE. She was really friendly and nice, pointed me in the right direction, and I think we shared a moment there when I realized she was pregnant too (which I would later learn was twins) and we understood each other there in that hospital.

Can you guess what happened next? I waited some more. This time I curled up on my side (which proved a little tricky on that awful hospital ....if you can even call it a bed) even though the back was a little propped up for a sitting position. I used the extra blanket they gave me as a pillow and tried to close my eyes and rest. I was actually pretty tired by this point. I didn't sleep but closed eyes felt nice on my brain.

RESULTS: CATscan came back clean: No bleeding; no tumors. I was relieved. Urine test came back clean: No drugs (jk), no protein. My vitals looked good. We checked the baby's heartbeat: it was strong. And I never tire of hearing that whir. DIAGNOSIS: probably a horrible migraine. He gave me a prescription for an anti-nausea medicine that is one of the leading meds for migraines too - safe for pregnancy. He also gave me the green light to go on vacation and told me I could just take my pills in case I needed them. Huge relief. Then I signed some insurance forms (thank you, insurance!) and re-robed.

I called Krista to come pick me up. She took me through a drive-through to get some food (which I didn't really eat because I wasn't feeling up to it if you can believe!), and to CVS to fill my prescription. (quick sidenote: dear insurance company - having two cards - one for medical and one just for prescriptions is DUMB because I don't carry both. thanks) We headed back to the Lundells because I had asked for a Priesthood blessing. We called and woke Wesley Hunter up at 11 PM (good cause though) and he came over to assist Travis. It was a lovely blessing and I was so grateful to have the option.

Lundells let me sleep on their couch so I didn't have to go home to an empty house. I slept well and then here we are. I'm not back to 100% but I am feeling a ton better. A couple times while I was in the waiting room I contemplated just leaving. Maybe it was silly I was there. Perhaps I would have had I not been pregnant - but I had a secondary obligation at that point. And a couple times since they decided on migraine, I've wondered if it really warranted a trip to the emergency room. The answer is yes. Blurred vision, dizziness, vomiting, and excruciating pain in your head is a reason to go get checked out and I can sleep easier knowing it's not something more serious.

I can't begin to express my gratitude for the Lundells. They spent many, many hours with their normal lives interrupted helping me in my time of need. Thanks Travis for watching the kids so Krista could stay with me. Thanks for the blessing, and thanks for being SO-O sweet to me while I was crying. Thanks Krista for your lack of hesitation to rush to my aid. Thanks for your support and your company. Thanks for your hospitality and most of all, your friendship. We owe you BIG!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

New Years Resolutions

I made two New Years Resolutions last year.

1. Develop my talents. Preferably including something musical.

I am quite happy to report my resolution was successful. Not much new to add to THIS POST about developing my talents but I really made a conscious effort this past year to learn new things and build on some of the inklings that I already possessed. I still need to practice the piano a heck of a lot more than I do now but I'm leaps and bounds ahead of where I ever imagined I could be.

2. Get a Facebook account.

Good job to me - I did that too. Just a couple days shy of the new year but I still made the deadline. So far, I still don't really like it. I think the interface is unfriendly and messy. I don't like the idea of people just trying to get as many 'friends' as they can and I don't see why it's an easier way to communicate with me than via phone, text, or email - just like we've been doing. But I'm still giving it the ole' college try and I haven't given up.


2011's Resolution is not easier, but I won't have to try as hard to make it happen.

1. Have a baby.

That way - after late May/early June, I can stop worrying about my resolution. Easy.

Happy New Years, Everyone!

Saturday, December 25, 2010

On Christmas

The Brewer family often does letter gifts for their family. Each year everyone is given a topic to write on and submit. The letters, stories, and/or pictures are compiled and copied and each family receives a set. This year our topic was on Christmas. We REALLY enjoyed reading all of them on Christmas Day from everyone. Carl and I decided to do a little different spin on our letters and write them to our unborn child. Carl wrote all about the tradition of decorating cookies, complete with descriptions of particular cookies from Christmas' past. I wrote a bit more of a traditional letter, a 'reason for the season' type and for posterity's sake thought I'd share it here.

December 2010

Dear Baby Brewer:

During this Christmas season we are full of anticipation and excitement. We are so excited to have you come into our family. We can’t wait to meet you and watch you grow! We are also excited for all the delicious treats that come around at Christmastime. I’ve been anticipating listening to Christmas music since September. There’s always the anticipation and excitement of Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I look forward to the tradition of fondue dinner on Christmas Eve and, of course, the presents on Christmas Day. I often look forward to people opening the gifts I got FOR them more than the presents that have my name on it. I love this season! I love sitting by the Christmas tree decorated with twinkling lights, fire ablaze in the fireplace, and a mug of hot chocolate in my hand.

I hope that you’ll come to love and anticipate these traditions with our family too, but most of all, I hope and pray that we can all always remember the true ‘reason for the season’. Amid the anticipation of all the fun things at this time of year I hope we remember the great anticipation the world had of the Savior coming to the Earth. I hope we can remember the excitement of the Son of God making his appearance here to live a life that we could try to emulate, to teach us the importance of love and forgiveness, to give hope to the poor in spirit, and ultimately to die for each one of us so that we could return to our Heavenly Father someday. There is no better gift He could have given us.

As I have been pregnant with you during this holiday time I have thought more and more about Mary. Your father and I have felt so grateful that our Heavenly Father has entrusted us with your care. He is relying on us to teach you the best we can and raise you in righteousness. I can’t imagine the pressures Mary felt knowing that she was being entrusted to bear and raise the Savior of the world. I’m grateful for her faithfulness and example…and grateful I won’t have to cross a desert on a camel when I’m 9 months pregnant!

You’ll see as you grow up in our home that the gospel of Jesus Christ is the most important thing to us. We try to base every decision we make on how our Father in Heaven would want us to live. We try to follow our Savior’s perfect example by giving service, loving our neighbors, and giving glory to God. We do our very best everyday to live the gospel. We are not perfect. We falter. And for this reason we are ever grateful for the Atonement. You will mess up too – and we will love you anyway. Someday you’ll have to make your own choice whether to attend church, whether to live the gospel as you’ve been taught, and to gain your own testimony. We hope you’ll choose what we have found to be the greatest joy in our lives. We hope we’ll have been able to show you the tremendous blessings that come from living God’s way. It gives us hope when times are rough, direction when we aren’t sure which way to turn, and the knowledge of our potential eternal family that brings indescribable happiness and comfort. We want nothing less than this happiness for you.

We love the Savior and His gospel. We love our families. Know that we love each other…and we love you already. Merry Christmas, little one.

-Mom

Friday, December 3, 2010

More Freezing


We did another exchange of freezer meals before holiday craziness got too underway. This time around was a much bigger operation with a lot more people and options to choose from. I keep trying to find the time to compile all the things I've learned while doing these freezer meal exchanges in case anyone wants to try them out with some of their friends. I highly recommend it! It's a day or two of mass shopping and cooking frenzy - but still not that bad and in the busy days to come when you can just pull a delicious meal out of the freezer without much thought - those busy days just melt away.

I did marinated chicken this time. You can see all my bowls/containers holding ziplock bags of marinade. I felt like that seemed a little too simple so I also did twice-baked potatoes to go with it. I don't think I'd do this particular marinade again. It wasn't terrible, but I've had better.

I sure have been enjoying these other meals during this busy holiday season!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Ouch


I was looking online at some cactus plants. I'm considering this one. What do you think? Ouch.