HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally got back into my old blog, I've been trying since February. Google Blogger was no help, I just kept trying and trying and finally figured out what I was doing wrong and BAM! here I am....so I hope I haven't worried anyone, I'm doing pretty well and have been continuing my story on a new blog, but except for those who asked, I couldn't figure out how to get my new link to people. Here it is, it's a continuation of this blog and I will posting updates there :) The Climb, part 2

Have a great day :)

Velda

I got great news yesterday - NO BRAIN BORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I AM RELIEVED. I won't be put back on any meds including chemo since all looks well.

All it was took was a fall

Just a fall was all it took for the doctor's next words were "we may be considering brain surgery" subdural hematoma something..it was a blur. I really don't have any details, not sure I want any. I should know more in 2 weeks.

I'm exhausted, angry, sore, dizzy (no blonde jokes),and all the mish mash of feelings and such that go along with this horrible disease. I wouldn't wish any of it on my worst enemy.

I am having some sort of reaction to something. Remember when I was first diagnosed and started treatment and all my skin began peeling, well it's doing it again. It isn't painful this time, just irritating. I can literally take my long fingernail and lift flakes of skin off anywhere on my body. I am going thru bottles of aveeno and dove soap and epsom salts. I feel like a fish. By the time this is healed my hubby will have soft silky hands lol.

Thank you for your wishes and thoughts. I have received many cards and am still sending and writing mine, so if you get a christmas card in July don't be surprised.

Thank you again for all your love and support

~Velda

Merry Christmas

Today not only do I celebrate Christmas and my friend Aurelia's birthday, but I also celebrate 27 months since my diagnosis. Christmas was bittersweet.It was our first christmas without Charles, but he was with us in a very unique way. He arranged for us to have 2 blue spruce saplings to plant in memory of him. It brought many of us to tears.

The kids of course had a great time tearing open packages and squealing with delight at each and every new toy and outfit. Dinner by Julie was magnificent as usual....

I was surprised by a very special gift. Charles' girlfriend was left $10,000 in trust for my funeral and burial. In the next couple weeks I am going to have to face death straight in the face to go with Peter and Diane to make my own funeral arrangements. I am not sure how I am going to do that. I'm quite scared really, but I suppose it needs to be done. I was astounded by his incredibly generous gift.How do you thank someone for something so huge when they are no longer on this earth?

I love you Charles...keep a chair warm for me....

It's almost time for christmas!!

So it's very nice to be able to take my mind off my worries lately. I have finally been approved for both my provincial and Canadian disability which allowed me to clear up a little debt we had, buy everyone Christmas gifts, pay bills and rent a month ahead and a few things for myself 'just because I could'.I filled the freezer, bought myself a new wardrobe.

Everything is up for Christmas.

On the health note, things are going very well. I was having a few issues last time I wrote but between my family doc and my in home nurse we've been able to reorganize things, add and remove medication and other suggestions which seem to have settled things down for me.

I can't believe it's almost the 3rd Christmas since I was diagnosed and I'm still here, walking on my own two feet. Once again, thank you for all the love and support.

stuff

I've been collecting questions to ask my oncologist for my next appt, which was today.

1. Remember that excrutiating pain I had weeks ago? They took me off the bone strengthing injections snd suddenly the pain was gone

2. Tarceva - this is the oral chemotherapy drug I started a week ago.I've begun to itch. I wasn't worried, it's one of the minor side affects

3. Bound to happen. Taking calcium and vitamin D has brought me vomitting and nausea. I figured if I took an ondansatron wait for a 1/2 hr, take the calcium and then take the balance of my pills, this would work.

4.Tarceva has also given me cold sores and cankers

5. Tarceva has given me scary nightmares, the last one I had involved radishes

5. And then I won't go to too much detail, but I have a GINORMOUS hemorrage