Brothers and best friends

1000 hours  230509

"You can always count on your brothers to be there, well, sometimes..."

This is my motto right now, i think, lol. Last night me and my " burn the night" brothers had a BBQ in sec8 again, this time in a playground(lol). It was kind of disappointing at first since we were supposed to go to Port Dicksontoday but it was cancelled because some dudes couldnt make it. Gle wtf seyh. Well, we enjoyed it anyways since there were lots of food. 

All guys like food right? ;p

Haha. And stories about wierd stuff like "Naj's first day working at Vincci" where he aadmired the stick the staff use to pick up the boxes in the middle of the stack (-.-"). 

Shyt man lets just say the BBQ was the cause of my kenyang gle seyh. After that was shisha with Faris. Went home at 3 but still, i couldn't sleep cause i had to pick up a couple of friends who're back from Kelantan. we procceded to play DOTA in the morning (still no sleep). lol. This is the picture of the windrunner, which is the character that im currently using in DOTA. Shes awesome~   

Busy busy day....

Alan is effing tired as hell

Intersession hell!

0300 hours  190509

I drove from KL to Segamat the other day. Probably my record time, because my housemates told me they were gonna have a left4dead matchwith my classmates' housemates. My house vs theirs. Seems like a big thing, with bragging rights ^^, so i noticed i was still in Damansara at 1930 hours, i drove at average around 160kmh on the highway and arrived in Segamat at around 2130. thats 2 hours. well, done that before, but i think thats the fastest i can do in wna. lol. Turns out, the match couldn' happen cause the other house was over-hardworking, im left2boredom... (lamee)

Intersession = 2 hours class per day + 22hours of extreme boredom

             = HELL

"This is gonna be a looooong month...."

I took statistics(QMT161) this time. Wouldnt have if my whole class wasn't over hardworking enough to take it...

Alan has applied for Self Torture 101 May 2009 session

Asshole, thats me

0300 hours 190509

Have you ever known a girl who falls in love, then gets her heart broken by the guy, and then blames every guy on earth for it and says that all guys are the same and cant be trusted?

Oh c'mon, theyre everywhere! Personally, i dont believe all guys are the same, neither do i believe all girls are the same(gle stereotyping), but maybe, just maybe, im one of the guys that are assholes in relationships. Why do i say this? Well, its because, when i look back on my past relationships, they all turned out to be disasters, mostly all my fault. Its as if ive got a curse to never be happy in a simple relationship where we both are in love with each other, nothing complicating it. Recent problems are: 

i) turns out, im not callenging enough

ii) i couldnt say that i love her

iii) i suddenly stop contacting her (because i feel i couldn't connect)

iv) i find out yet again im still not over my ex at all

Alan sucks in relationships

Analyzing Relationships

0200 hours 190509

In certain points of view, relationships are really simple. Sometimes couples fight about all the unimportant things, but they just cant understand it, thus they are clueless about what to do. They think too much and complicate the situation.Their mind is clouded and confused. Well, you know what they say, love blinds people(but then again, so does lust -.-"). Have you ever listened to a close friend when they need someone to talk to abaout problems with their partner, and you thought that it was a simple unimportant problem that isnt even worth fighting over? This is because youve got no deep feelings to cloud your judgement of the situation. So i think it is betterto have someone else analyzing your argyements between you and your partner(unless, maybe if its too personal(unless you tell your bestie everything))..

"When youre in love, you become an idiot"

Alan is psycho-analyzing things too much (-.-")

emotional

0200 hours  190509

well nowdays i dont get access to the internet much so these dates are the real dates that i wrote these posts.

Have you ever beenin a relationship? Stupid question, yeah, but have you REALLY been in a relationship? One that you think would work. Some call it knowing that youve found the 'one'. I personally think its bullshit. Anyone could be the one. But everyone wants that nice feeling of having found that person. Anyways, if you think you have, well, prepare to get hurt. I dont think those feelings can actually last very long, well, not if yr my age(waaayyy tooo young to believe smething like that). A while back, i got this seggestion from a friend to write down my thoughts when i get sleepy(since, it seems, when i get sleepy, wierd and occasionally interesting facts start coming out from my mouth). Once there was this quote i remembered: "Hope is the first step on the road to disappointment", it was from the warhammer 40k librarian. lol. It was kinda true and logical, really. You cant expect people to always feel the same way you do. So thats where i confirmed my theory that when i get emotionally down, i start to write songs, since im writing one now..

Alan is emotional, a little bit too much