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Bantorus MC #2

Aching To Exhale

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Raul Sanchez, president of the Lagsturns Motorcycle Club, proved himself over the span of eight years to lead the outlaw bikers. No longer able to distinguish right from wrong, the undercover FBI agent is after blood when he finds out the Mexican Mafia took his woman. When he finds out his other half is still alive, he sheds the badge, throws himself into chaos, and seeks biker justice. Because any man who touches his woman is going to die.

Swinging on a pole in a seedy lounge in Palm Springs, Crystal Rose works to keep herself one-step away from trouble. With a prior rap sheet of pissing off a rival MC president, shacking up with a crazed out drug addict who used her for collateral against the Mafia, she’s one day away from disaster. All she wants is the one man who rocks her world. But she can't go back, because loving Raul could get him killed.

212 pages, Kindle Edition

First published August 26, 2013

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Debra Kayn

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Debra Kayn is published by Grand Central Publishing, Simon & Schuster Publishing, Carina Press - Harlequin Enterprises Limited, and repped by FinePrint Literary Management. A member of RWA and a multi-bestseller, she always has another book coming soon.

Believing everyone deserves to love and be loved, she takes the most unlikely characters and turns them into heroes and heroines.

She lives with her family in the Bitterroot Mountains of beautiful North Idaho where she enjoys the outdoors, the four seasons, and the wild animals that gather in her yard.

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Profile Image for CasPerfitz~SLiTsReaD.
649 reviews41 followers
August 29, 2013
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first off, that cover is so darn hot! The story, not so much. The blurb says it all...

Raul Sanchez is one hot tough biker undercover FBI..... Cyrstal, is a sexy pole dancer, and a tad bit irritating.


The suspense and action on the story is always on the go.... the sex, meh... sorry...




For a biker book, and I'm a biker babe *wink wink* it just doesn't leave up to my hot biker book standard, lol... but that's just me ;)
Profile Image for  B.E.Love.
1,330 reviews132 followers
August 26, 2013
Ok were to start. The cover, what's not to like, yep I'm one of those girls who likes her covers and this girl LIKES the cover. To be completely honest I hated Crystal in book one I wanted her to die a slow painful death with heaps of humiliation thrown in (yes I'm also one of those vengeful types when it comes to OW). I loved Raul I hoped and hoped he would get a book but I never in a million years would have thought or wanted him to be with Crystal. Dun dun dun, color me shocked when I saw they were together but I trusted Debra and loved book one so I took a leap of faith, and boy was it worth it. This was a great second book to a great series.

Raul has been a member of the Lagsturns for eight years and he's also been an undercover agent for the FBI tracking down a drug deal/woman smuggler. At the end of book one Raul was ousted to us and two others (Rain and Tory from book one) as an undercover FBI agent and Raul believes Crystal is dead. Crystal was escorted out of town for causing problems with Rain and Tory, she was with a druggy and was an all around nasty girl (sleeping with men and being tossed around) yeah can you see why I hated her. But have you ever heard the saying "no matter how flat a pancake, it always has two sides" and man did we have Crystal all wrong. She has only ever wanted and loved Raul and she would do anything for him, she kept secrets and pains and thought she was not worthy of Raul or anything good.

One year later, When Raul finds out Crystal is alive, he stops at nothing to bring her home and keep her safe while trying to uncover and bring down the Mexican Mafia and others in the MC he believes are working against the MC. As Crystal and Raul get back together they learn that all the things they thought about themselves and each other are wrong and that in the end the only thing that matters is the each other. Crystal and Raul learn to trust each other and reveal their dark pasts and secrets. When Raul finally takes down the ringleader and Crystal and Raul finally think they are in the clear and are able to go back to their life in the MC, a new danger enters their lives that threaten not only their lives but also the life they built together.

I really enjoyed this book Debra Kayn has a way with words and story telling that hooks you and draws you in till the last page. She reveals sides of her characters that would have been easy to look over and she makes you love what you thought you never could. Raul was a great hero he loved Crystal and was willing to do anything for her and did whatever he needed to keep her safe. Crystal was a scarred woman who hid for fear of hurting those she loved and would do anything for the people in her life. This is a great addition to a series that I've love, and I can't wait to see what will happen next.
**thank you Debra Kayn for so graciously giving me an ARC copy of this book.
Profile Image for Jenn.
1,034 reviews256 followers
March 26, 2014
2.75 Stars

This story was a big improvement over book one in how it was written. I enjoyed it but maybe a tad less then I enjoyed book one. Which is too bad because I liked Raul a lot in book one.

What I Liked:
1. I liked how Raul called Crystal his life: mi vida.
2. When Raul was sweet with Crystal.
3. I actually really liked how the ending worked out.
4. I liked the small surprise regarding someone in the book.
5. Once they were FINALLY a real couple once and for all; always a couple.
6. Even though the Lagsturns were not a clean club, and the Bantorus rivals, I still liked them a tad bit.
7. No dealing with club whores.
8. It ran more like the MC books I'm used to a bit. (I still like when they don't fully conform to the normal MC books though.)


What I had issues with:
1. I didn't feel a connection with the couple.
2. I didn't find that Crystal's story was all that sad.
3. I felt that Crystal's sob story about bad parents reminded me too much of Tori's sob story in book one.
4. I never felt the loved connection with Raul and Crystal.
5. I really didn't care for Crystal, as I had previously disliked her in book one.
6. I didn't like how Raul treated Crystal at times...even when he was just trying to protect her. But then again, it was pretty much typical MC behavior.
7. Editing issues. Especially with peoples names.
8. I didn't like how the major even happens too fast and is over too fast.
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643 reviews185 followers
December 14, 2016
I had a hard time starting this book. After reading the first book in this series, I just couldn't because Crystal got on my nerves. So now nearly a year later I just sat down and started reading.

I have to say this book surprised me. I didn't hate Crystal. After reading her story and her reasons for her behavior I started to like her. She's a strong woman who just loves the wrong kind of guy. If Raul would have stand by her from day one than all this mess would have been avoidable. It's clear that Crystal has a huge secret, that stops her from giving her all into the relationship. But I think they would have worked it out, and no way was this secret big enough for all this drama.

I can't understand Raul. I know he's a hot man on a bike with a secret. He's an FBI-Agent. It's also clear that he loves Crystal, after all he calls her mi vida.



So my whole problem in this book is with Raul. He's not my type of man. I can't get a hold of him, and his love for Crystal seems not real enough for me.

The ending left me questioning the hole thing. No way would they let them leave as easily. I didn't like this ending. But no one asked me anyway for pointers.

I'm glad I read this one, because now I got over my hate for Crystal. And if Raul it what she wants, then she can have him.

Now I'm going to read the next book in this series, and hope I get to moon over another badass alpha-male. Wish me luck!
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729 reviews24 followers
January 20, 2015
I wanted to see if Debra Kayn can make me like Crystal after the first book.

Raul Sanchez has been a member of the Lagsturns for eight years but he was an undercover agent for the FBI working to take down a drug dealer/woman smuggler.
In book one, Raul helped Rain get Tori back from her older brother and in the process he revealed his true identity and purpose in Lagsturns MC.

Crystal...was pole dancing when Raul came to take her back in his life. She was in the past tossed from one man to another. She played Rain for information, had a shady relation with Tori's brother and overall created problems to everyone.

One year later, Raul finds out Crystal is alive, and he brings her back to his MC to keep her safe from Mafia and in the process solve his case.

The start a journey of discovering each other and find out that they were not what they tought.

So, I didn't like Crystal till the end of the book. She was not that on the outside for what she did to Rain and Tori...I was not convinced. Embarrassed maybe, but she was resentful on Tori for what she had. These traits make her human but not likable....
I am still not clear why Raul let her go and in such a nasty way to go and get her back and there was not much talk about it.
Raul was sweet, not all alpha and possessive, or at least I didn't feel it.
Nice HEA and interesting place for Raul and Crystal to restart their life together.
October 22, 2018
2nd reading: Read this first in 2013. This is Raul and Crystal's story. Even though it is labeled as Bantorus MC, Raul is in the Langsturn MC (on the cover), but we first saw them both in the first Bantorus book about Rain and Tori. Enjoyed this the second time around. Not really 1% activities going on, so the club girls and the violence isn't there like most MC books now. I read the entire Bantorus series thru the 2nd generation in the Federal MC chapter established by Slade's son Kurt. Enjoyed reading these characters again but can't believe how much more raunchy the MC books I read now are.

1st reading: Loved this book, and it got better with each chapter. Raul (first seen in Breathing His Air) is a hot alpha biker with an interesting side job that makes every minute more dangerous than the next. He's so obviously in love with Crystal, but they're both trying to make up for past mistakes, and sometimes that gets a little trying for their relationship. One of the things that I really liked about the previous book was the great writing and the lack of serious editing problems. The great writing continues with this book, but the editing was rather sloppy this time around - disappointing because of the great story, fully described/developed characters, and the intensity of the book. I will definitely seek out more books written by Debra Kayn.
Shelved as 'could-not-finish'
November 25, 2013
Unfortunately this is a D-N-F for me. The writing is is choppy and not at all engaging. There is no emotional or even basic connection to the characters. It's written in 2nd person singular perspective and it makes it really hard to care or connect with the storyline or the characters. Everything is rushed and thrown at readers as if they just have to accept it and move on. There's also a lot of mention of the past, one we do not see so it's hard to understand or follow the characters past relationship.

I am really disappointed as we all love a good Alpha male biker but this story didn't do it for me. I made it like 40% and had to move on. It was predictable in some ways but just did not engage or capture me enough to keep me entertained.
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2,246 reviews88 followers
March 26, 2024
Holy cow, Raul is Hot. Crystal is a drama queen, but it’s actually pretty endearing, once the other parts of her personality are revealed. I’m not down with what she and Raul did to Rain, and her initial breakup with Raul is sketchy, but them not always being good people makes them more interesting. Definitely, the characters are what makes this a good story. I normally hate with the heat of a thousand suns romance novels involving FBI agents, but this one was good. This book is not Safe because there is trafficking.
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568 reviews44 followers
August 26, 2013
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My rating: 4 of 5⭐


Crystal Rose is surviving. That's how she ended up in a dirty dive, pole-dancing with her eyes closed, imagining herself to be somewhere else. She definitely is not here by choice, jumping to avoid the dirty grabby hands trying to get a piece of her. What she never expected was the one man she never could stop dreaming about to suddenly show up, and order her on the back of his bike.

As an undercover operator for the FBI, you sometimes have to spend years building up your cover and Raul Sanchez, president of the Lagsturns Motorcycle Club, has eight years of hard work put in. It took him that long to prove himself and win the loyalty and trust of this group of outlaw bikers.
For many months he lived under the impression that the woman he had turned away, was dead at the hands of the Mexican mob. When he finds out she is alive and in possible danger, he doesn't hesitate. He goes to 'collect' her and keep her safe, and damn the consequences.

Unaware of Raul's real profession, Crystal is completely confused by his sudden appearance. All she knows is that he tossed her out of the club house, quite suddenly, almost a year ago. She has no way of knowing he was trying to protect her. Had Raul realized he was throwing her to the 'wolves', in the hands of drug dealers, he might have thought twice. Now he wont let her out of his sight again until the big players have been brought down, and the threat against his woman is gone.

But secrets tend to get in the way, and both Raul and Crystal have plenty of them. Once they are forced to come clean with each other, they realize it is not just the Mexican Mafia they have to fear, but some pretty powerful people from Crystal's past as well.

*****

A hard-lovin', hot-bodied biker who no longer knows what side of the law he is on, takes on a tenacious, barely surviving fallen angel, to rescue, to tame, to protect and to hold.

Fast moving from page one, I was not bored for one minute. Lots of action and intrigue, some seriously steamy sex and an interesting twist at the end!

Even though this is technically a stand alone book, there was a lot of background context to catch up with in this story. All of which is very important to understanding the dynamics in the book. Both of this story's main characters, Raul and Crystal appeared in a previous book, BREATHING HIS AIR, and we see that story's protagonists, Rain and Tori again in this book as well.

Crystal in particular was not necessarily a nice person then, but only now do we find out the circumstances, and suddenly her character is much more understandable and sympathetic.

Raul was hot, even then. In ACHING TO EXHALE we get a much closer look at him. A bit of insight and it makes him all the more appealing.

✨Trust Debra Kayn to create chemistry that blows right off the pages!!✨

**ARC received from author in return for an honest review**
Profile Image for Lisa.
913 reviews26 followers
October 14, 2013

This is book 2 in Debra Kayn's bikers series. This time we're in Langsturns MC territory with Raul Sanchez. In that first book Crystal comes across as a mean chick that causes problems when she is sent by Raul to sleep with the president of a Rival motorcycle club. At the end she's kicked out and set on a bus out of town but she ends up with a druggy guy and then disappears. Most people would think good riddance but you know how these things go. You don't really know everything you think you do. This story is enlightening in you find out who Raul and Crystal really are. There are lots of secrets to overcome and trust to earn. There is so much more to both of them than you could every imagine based on the previous book. Crystal's past has haunted her for the past 12 years. No matter what she does or where she goes she can't catch a break. She thought she had finally found a place to belong with Raul and then he coldly sent her away. Little did she know he was trying to protect her. Then she fell in with the Mexican mafia by association with the druggy guy she left with. Desperate for a place to stay she went with him and then got mixed up in some nasty business. After getting away from that and hiding out she's working as a dancer in a seedy club when Raul comes to find her and drags her back to the Langsturns club. This is when we start finding out what's really been going on and more about Raul and Crystal pasts. It's not what you think. Debra Kayn has to do some serious work to redeem Crystal in the readers eyes ad she definitely did that for me. This is fast paced, action packed twists and turns and sizzling sex scenes. If you are into hot motorcycle rising guys. Raul definitely fits the bill and even Rain from book one is back in this one. At just over 200 words you can read this book in a evening curled up in your favorite chair. Just like i did!
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1,350 reviews158 followers
January 11, 2015
Raul Sanchez, president of the Lagsturns Motorcycle Club, proved himself over the span of eight years to lead the outlaw bikers. No longer able to distinguish right from wrong, the undercover FBI agent is after blood when he finds out the Mexican Mafia took his woman. When he finds out his other half is still alive, he sheds the badge, throws himself into chaos, and seeks biker justice. Because any man who touches his woman is going to die.

Swinging on a pole in a seedy lounge in Palm Springs, Crystal Rose works to keep herself one-step away from trouble. With a prior rap sheet of pissing off a rival MC president, shacking up with a crazed out drug addict who used her for collateral against the Mafia, she’s one day away from disaster. All she wants is the one man who rocks her world. But she can't go back, because loving Raul could get him killed

*I love the fact that he was willing to over take her fears of her past relationship with her parents. They both supported each other in all their secrets and that's what brought them closer together. I also liked the fact that she had such a great attitude about herself and stuck up for what she wanted. It did have some interesting parts however it did not catch my attention very easily. I enjoyed the action parts of the story with all the gun shots and what not.
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9,520 reviews161 followers
September 1, 2013
I love reading Debra's books especially the ones with hot MC club men, Raul he's a possessive sort, "Crystal was his woman, and he'd kill anyone who took her from him." He also likes to lay down the law, "no more running around, doing your own thing, and trying to save your own a**. Your a** is mine. Only mine. You have to listen and when I say you're staying in, you stay in without question until I tell you otherwise." He loves smelling like his woman, to him there is no better scent, "I smell like you." He pushed her back down on the bed and kissed her. "My woman." He also has a temper, "you think?" Raul's mouth tightened. "I spill my guts, take care of you, eff you, and then I get woke up to find out you were going to skip out on me? What the hell?" Even when he's down he thinks about his woman, "it'll heal. Bullet went clear through." He sighed heavily. "Medication is kicking my a** right now or I'd take you on the couch and show you how much I need you." I thought the names Crystal and Raul were familiar and it wasn't until I saw two certain characters in the book that I realized what previous book they were both from. I'm glad Raul got his story I liked him in the other book.
Profile Image for Dani Graves.
Author 3 books4 followers
September 5, 2013
Romance with Excellent Intrigue . . .

I really like the first book, ‘Breathing His Air’ by the same author, but I loved this one more. Tori, in the first book, is a bit kooky and fun loving, and Chrystal is the jealous adversary but let’s face it she was the woman to hate. As this book starts we find out a whole lot more about what was happening with her in the first book.

Clearly a misunderstood woman, after being used by one MC Prez against another and banished from the club by the man she loves. I think we begin to understand her, but when that same man shows up to reclaim her things get exciting. I really wanted to hate Raul, even if he was supposed to be the good guy. His treatment of Chrystal was so wrong, and I’m not sure how she could still love him so blindly.

The mystery and danger surrounding these two characters, keeps the pages turning to the very end. The relationship and love story between them is fraught with secrets and hot sex. If I had anything negative to say, it would be that Chrystal’s continual need to sacrifice herself for Raul is a bit over the top.

Will be looking for the next installment . . . if there is one.
1,934 reviews74 followers
June 23, 2017
I was on the fence about having Crystal as the heroine, but I liked the ending. I just wish we knew about Crystal's father as the crazy evangelist earlier. Maybe if I had read flashbacks with her parents, I would have sympathized with her a little more. In Breathing His Air she was the crazy ex biker chick- OTT jealous & hateful towards Tori and Rain's relationship. I'm still wondering why Raul kicked her out of Lagsturn and pushed her towards Rain. If Raul is so love with her,why push her away? I would recommend this to "biker romance"lovers. I just wish there was more about Crystal and Raul together rather than all the undercover schemes and identities. I'd give this 3.5/4 because I wanted to read about Crystal's past much earlier in the book. I wish more time was spent with Raul and Crystal together instead of on Garcia's take down.
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1,025 reviews25 followers
March 7, 2014
I loved it!

If you read book one, Breathing His Air, you learned what Raul Sanchez's true profession is. In this book, he takes on the Mexican mafia. Crystal Rose is back and totally redeems herself. We learn her background too. And, boy is it a surprise. The story was very intense with scenes where I found myself chewing my fingernails with anxiety because it was so well written. I felt like I was there, part of the story. I was scared and nervous at times about what could happen. The sex scenes, well, we'll just you imagine that until you read the book. All I can say is it's hot. I can't wait to read Debra Kayn's next book in this series.
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785 reviews8 followers
August 30, 2013
I really do love this series! I thought this book was so well written that I could see it all playing out in my mind..... it might be because I have been binging on Sons of Anarchy, but still it was a great read. Lots of mystery, action and of coarse the love between Raul and Crystal.. so special! Loved it!
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2,459 reviews32 followers
January 18, 2016
Raul and Crystal were hot together but there were to many secrets going on. I wish Kayn did a prequel to book 1 and gave us Crystal and Rain's story and added Raul to the story so we could get more of a background on these characters. I am glad Raul and Crystal got there HEA. I really like this series.
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September 23, 2013
This is another great read tho I did prefer the first book about Rain and Tori I did end up liking Raul and Crystal but her story was nothing what I was expecting I did like the ending of this book tho a bit abrupt
96 reviews
December 5, 2013
I really did wanna like this book but it just fell a bit flat for me. I just wanted more!, more from raul, more from crystal, and more from the storyline. It was all like 85% there but didnt quite fufil its potential to be amazing x
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529 reviews12 followers
February 27, 2014
I wasn't sure about reading Crystal's story because I hated her. I have to say she redeemed herself though. Raul is one sexy dude, but not as badass as some of the other bikers, but he still had a great story to add to the series.
89 reviews
April 6, 2014
I expected more from this book but I think I didn't enjoy it as mu h because I came to dislike crystal so much in the previous book.

She tried to redeem herself but it didn't work for me. ending was good and I loved sanchez. Let's hope the next book is as good as the first one.
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1,134 reviews63 followers
November 6, 2015
I am really loving this series so far .. I think I liked the first book in the series more than I did this one just for the fact that I hated Crystal from the first book and so I found it harder to like her in this book .. I am still really enjoying this series though . :)
Profile Image for Victoria Paige.
Author 30 books890 followers
April 24, 2014
This was a pretty good MC read. It dealt more with club business than club whores for a change. I did wish for more sizzle between Raul and Crystal. I liked the plot between the MCs, the Mafia and the Feds, not so much the backstory with Crystal's parents.

Note: I did not read book 1
Profile Image for Peta Benjamin.
737 reviews23 followers
October 27, 2013
This was a good read, different from other biker books, lots of different situations and many characters so I am guessing there will be other books involving the many characters. Enjoyed it.
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169 reviews1 follower
September 16, 2013
this is the second book dragged alittle in parts but still a good read charcters where interlinked with charcters fron breath is air 4 stars
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