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273 pages, Hardcover
First published January 15, 2019
"Isn’t it impossible, though, anyway, to love someone all the time? That’s why marriage is a contract. Those awful vows people invent for themselves now: ‘I promise to always love the way you rub your nose’, or ‘I promise that your singing will always make me happy’. But sometimes the way he rubs his nose will make you want to kill him! You stay with him because it’s in your contract, it’s the deal you agreed. ‘In sickness and in health’. That gets you over the tough spot. He stays with you for the same reason. It’s more decent."
I'm not saying that the past was good, she went on, – or fair, or better, or anything. But nothing will ever be more beautiful than this, will it? It's surpassingly beautiful.
Long ago, when Isobel was a baby, Christine had fought Alex for her life, so that he would acknowledge that in the domain of the mind they were equals, separate as equals. She couldn't remember now why this had mattered so much, or where her appetite had come from for those long late-night sessions, prising away layer upon layer of resistance and falsity, confession matched with counter-confession.
Chris' work, for instance, Zachary persisted, wanting to persuade his friend in this moment of openness between them. He wanted to open it wider: embrace the women inside their intimacy. – How has she been able to make her art so freely? It's poured out of her, hasn't it? Why hasn't she felt the heavy hand (of history) on her shoulder?
Alex looked startled, before a shutter fell across his expression, across some secret. It took him aback, Zachary saw, to have Christine's work invoked in the same scale as anything he, Alex, might have done. Zachary was startled too. He hadn't known that Alex didn't take his wife's work quite seriously: didn't, in their horrible old schoolboy phrase, really rate it. He must have only been kind, and condescending, and keeping a domestic peace, when he had acquiesced for all these years in seeming to rate it. The implications of Alex's mistake – Zachary was sure it was a mistake – seemed for a moment fairly tragic. And the night's happy mutuality deflated, each man was disappointed in the other. – As you say, Alex said drily, but with finality, as if it were the end of any discussion he wanted to have. – It pours out of her.