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Forgiveness can be hard to come by… An unputdownable new novel from bestseller Samantha Tonge

 How far would you go to make amends?

When Emma fled her home at Foxglove Farm, she’d let down and hurt those who cared for her most. But now, two years later, she’s ready to face up to her past; she’s ready to go back.

But Emma’s unannounced return causes more problems than she could have foreseen. The people she knew and loved aren’t ready to forget, let alone forgive. And the one person she wants to reconnect with the most, her mother, can’t remember who she is.

Just as Emma starts to rebuild trust, an uncovered family secret and a shocking past crime threaten her newly forged future...

Sometimes simply saying sorry isn’t enough.

Perfect for readers of Ruth Hogan or Amanda Prowse, this is an extraordinary and unforgettable novel about running away from yourself – and finding a way back.

283 pages, Kindle Edition

First published July 23, 2018

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Samantha Tonge

24 books331 followers
Samantha Tonge lives in Manchester UK with her husband and children. She studied German and French at university and has worked abroad, including a stint at Disneyland Paris. She has travelled widely.
When not writing she passes her days cycling, baking and drinking coffee. Samantha has sold many dozens of short stories to women’s magazines.
She is represented by the Darley Anderson literary agency. In 2013, she landed a publishing deal for romantic comedy fiction with HQDigital at HarperCollins. In 2015 her summer novel, Game of Scones, hit #5 in the UK Kindle chart and won the Love Stories Awards Best Romantic Ebook category. In 2018 Forgive Me Not, heralded a new direction into darker women's fiction with publisher Canelo and in 2020 her novel Knowing You won the RNA's Jackie Collins Romantic Thriller Award.

http://samanthatonge.co.uk/

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Profile Image for Julie .
4,223 reviews38.1k followers
June 20, 2019
Forgive Me Not by Samantha Tonge is a 2018 Canelo publication.

Emma has returned to Foxglove Farm hoping to make amends to her family and atone for her many indiscretions. While she hopes everyone will be happy to see her and she will be accepted back into the fold like a prodigal daughter, the reception she receives is hardly welcoming.

The story flashes back to the months leading up to her decision to return home and the present day, where Emma struggles to gain her sister’s trust and forgiveness and take care of her mother who has Alzheimer’s. No matter how hard she tries, no matter what good she does, her sister simply can not find it in her heart to forgive Emma.

Yet, Emma is determined to forge a new life for herself, to care for mother, and do her part to help her family. However, there is a dark pall hanging over her head. A secret she hasn’t found the courage to own up to, one that is eating away at her more and more with each passing day. Will Emma find the strength to face her worst fears and do the right thing?

This novel took me by surprise. The first book I read by Samantha Tonge was a super, light-hearted romantic comedy, and her other books seem to fall into that same category for the most part.

Although the synopsis makes it clear this book has a more serious tone, that delightful cover led me to believe any uncomfortable subject matter would be handled with a light touch.

While the author does keep the atmosphere carefully balanced, she doesn’t pull punches or water anything down. As a result, I was stunned by the weight of this story. This is really an incredible story of a woman who is determined to get her life back together and hopefully make amends to those she hurt.

It is a realistic portrayal, which offers hope and redemption, but also remains pragmatic, emphasizing that recovery is an ongoing thing, that no matter what, there will be moments of weakness and denial and forgiveness can't always be an automatic assumption. Some cuts are simply too deep.

Although Emma originally set out to right the wrongs of the past, in the end her personal growth is what stands out. This is a cautionary tale, but it is also a powerful story of forgiveness, not only of others, from others, but of yourself, as well.

This is also a story of gaining independence, of standing up on one’s own two feet, facing one’s demons, and finding an inner strength you didn’t know you had. It's about growing up emotionally, accountability, and acceptance.

I must say I am deeply impressed with this novel. Samantha Tonge has proven her mettle, writing on such a deeply poignant topic and tackling big emotional issues, which up to this point has not been her usual style. If this book is any indication, Samantha is hitting her stride. She’s shown depth and range with this novel. I’m looking forward to seeing what path her career takes from here.

4 stars

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2,090 reviews15.7k followers
July 23, 2018
4 Captivating Stars 🌟🌟🌟🌟

This was a beautiful book about forgiveness, mistakes, second chances, addiction, family, and friendship... I have a very personal connection to this book... my life as well as the lives of my children have been touched by addiction... so when I read a book like this with an alcoholic who I am meant to sympathize with it is somewhat difficult... because I know far too well what it is like to pick up the pieces and hold a family together in the wake of addiction... will I ever forgive the person in my life who has left me to clean up the mess? Probably not! But I have to say Samantha Tonge has done an extremely good job of creating a very empathetic character in Emma.....

Emma returns home after several years away... she has spent time on the streets, battled her addiction, and now wants to return to her family... The reunion however is not filled with tears of happiness and hugs... her mother is suffering from early onset Alzheimers and doesn’t even know who Emma is... her sister Andrea is bitter and angry, Emma left her to deal with her mother’s health issues and all the family’s financial issues alone.... will the sisters ever have a strong relationship again? And does Emma deserve her sister’s love and forgiveness?

This book really gave you a lot of food for thought.... Emma was a very likable character, especially in the beginning when you did not know her past... but when do you remember the past and when do you let it go? There were times in this book I felt as though Andrea and the other towns people were being very harsh and unfair to Emma, but then I thought that was slightly hypocritical of me.... was Emma a good person who made some mistakes? And if so what should the cost of those mistakes be? I just don’t know.... are all actions forgivable?

This book also touches on the issue of homelessness... The homeless in this Book were referred to as “rough sleepers” a term I have never heard before... i’m not really sure if this added anything to the story? Although there was a character who I particularly liked that was homeless... also I am not quite sure what the laws in the UK are as far as mental illness and homelessness, so the problem might be completely different in the US? I have no idea.... I think it is a problem no matter where you are, it just might be a completely different problem from one country to another dependent upon laws....

This was a well told nicely paste story with well develop characters... absolutely recommend if you enjoy books that really make you think and don’t shy away from the tough issues...

*** many thanks to the publisher for my copy of this book ***

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330 reviews537 followers
July 23, 2018
Wow, what an emotional ride that was.

First of all, I’d like to thank Samantha Tonge, Canelo and Rachel for including me in this cover reveal and blog tour. It has been my pleasure to be apart of this special book’s release.

This absolutely striking cover is a reflection of the words inside - this is a special story, one I honestly almost gave up on because the emotions were so vivid and strong. I felt so very much for these characters, you will be put in their shoes and understand their lives and grow with them.

This is a story about forgiveness, about finding one’s true self and true acceptance through it all. Everyone is going through their own struggles and this is one woman’s journey to finding herself.

Emma has returned to her home at Foxglove Farm after some time away, hoping to make amends and heal what was once broken. Told in alternating timelines, the reader slowly becomes privy to what has happened in the past in order to understand what is unfolding presently.

This is some extremely powerful writing, like I said, it was a truly emotional journey for me. My empathy for Emma was profound, and watching her grow into the person she is today was felt deeply. There was also a very interesting cast of characters and a lovely little three-legged dog to enjoy (as a mom to my own three-legged pup, I especially appreciated this!).

Definitely recommend to readers who enjoy an in depth character study, and stories about family and forgiveness. This book is now available!

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3,262 reviews1,775 followers
March 14, 2019


My Review:

Forgive Me Not was not what I was expecting, it really wasn’t my cup of tea as my personal preference is to eschew high angst and constant conflict. Yet the book was well written and a thought-provoking family drama, and certainly gave me pause in my own thinking as it squeezed my heart and put a few hot rocks in my throat. Having dealt with more than my share of addicted and/or prevaricating personalities, I had a hard time appreciating the main character of Emma. Emma had been a rather heinous problem child and abandoned her family after causing and leaving them with yet another appallingly hideous mess. She was the worst type of manipulative and selfish party girl and had been for quite some time. After she finally hit bottom and found an impetus to clean up in rehab, she slowly and carefully went about her recovery and sincerely attempted to make amends, but she didn’t seem to fully realize just how much she needed to atone for.

Emma returned to her small village but not to the open arms she was hoping for; her family and the entire community at large were having none of it as they were struggling with their own hard times - and they were more than done with Emma. Every single one of them doubted her veracity, and for good reason. I didn’t blame them. Not one bit. I’ve jettisoned people for far less. But it was rather unnerving for me to consider if maybe, possibly, I should have given some of those a third chance. Although this was probably Emma’s thousandth chance… But there are some acts that cut extra deep and just aren’t forgivable, and Emma had committed far too many of those, and repeatedly, and to my horror - with little consequence.

The writing was insightfully observant and evocative with several interesting storylines involving the small and quirky little village and its unique inhabitants. To end on an upbeat, I do have yet another new addition for my Brit List with “mithering,” which Mr. Google defined as to irritate or pester. I cannot wait to start employing its use.
3,117 reviews
July 23, 2018
Book Reviewed by Stacey on www.whisperingstories.com

Emma has returned to her family home at Foxglove Farm, Healdbury, to make amends and apologise for her past behaviour to her older sister Andrea and her mum.

However, although she wasn’t expected to be welcomed back with open arms, she certainly wasn’t expecting the scene that she sees before her. Her mum has early onset Alzheimer’s and doesn’t recognise her. Her sister wants her to leave and tells her she isn’t welcome and doesn’t want anything to do either her ever again. Even her ex-boyfriend Bligh tells her to leave.

With her family, friends and even the villagers wanting her to go, it takes all of her strength to stay and fight for forgiveness, but not everything is forgivable, could this be the case for Emma?

The book is exceptionally poignant and covers some tough subjects such as alcoholism, homelessness, and forgiveness. All were handled with care and thoroughly researched, which shows in the superb, realistic writing.

The story moves between the present day and months before Emma’s return home in which she was in Manchester and sleeping rough in the city centre. With Manchester being my hometown it was lovely (even in the circumstances) to see all the areas mentioned, giving me plenty of scope to perfectly visualise the scenes. It was also eye-opening to see just what those sleeping rough in the city go through.

‘Forgive Me Not’, is a new direction in writing for Samantha Tonge, away from her Rom Coms. She may have thought it was a risk heading in a different direction, but it definitely has paid off as this book was an absolute joy to read. I loved every minute of it and congratulate Samantha Tonge on writing a fabulous, heartfelt and insightful, book that will stay with me for a long time.
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923 reviews56 followers
October 2, 2018
I loved this tale of forgiveness and moving on with life. There are really good characters and I enjoyed the dynamics between the two sisters and I loved the descriptions of Foxglove Farm.

It's a great piece of contemporary romance, the first I've read of this author and I'd happily read some more. Really enjoyable read.
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3,251 reviews568 followers
July 9, 2018
Easily one of the best books I have read this year, and its a story and its message that will stay with me for long after I've finished it.

This is an eye opening read as it deals with issues that people don't think about too much (or at least I'm ashamed to say I don't), and just goes to show that even after reaching rock bottom, there is a chance to improve your life.

It is a story of self awareness, self discovery and learning to live with your past, as well as trying to forge a better future for yourself.

This is a book that from the first few pages had completely enthralled me and I found myself reading far later into the small hours of the morning than intended, and then the following day read the majority of the book in one sitting, completely oblivious to the outside world.

I was hooked on discovering everything about Emma, from the year or so before she returned to Foxglove Farm, to how she is trying to make amends. I was enthralled by her life, which doesn't make for easy light hearted reading, and focuses on a gritty reality.

The characters, especially Emma were completely believable, and I found myself really warming to her, despite had we learnt about aspects of her past first, you may not have been as keen.

I have been a fan of Samantha Tonge's previous books for years, but whereas they were generally romantic comedies this is full deep and meaningful women's fiction, a marked change of direction, but if this is what she is capable of long may it continue.

I will say that depending on your own circumstances some of the issues tackled in this book which is clearly well researched, could be upsetting or disturbing, but yet to name them I feel would be a spoiler, and also potentially give you pre-conceptions about the book that it doesn't deserve.

Forgive Me Not is a book best read without too much prior information, just sit down for a few hours, and allow yourself to be drawn into Emma's story. I could barely tear myself away.

I am completely thrilled that I had a chance to read this book, it truly is something special.

Thank you to Netgalley and Canelo for this copy which I have reviewed honestly and voluntarily.
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879 reviews38 followers
July 7, 2018
This is an excellent book and all about forgiveness and how it can be hard to do but how you have to to move forward. It's a book you just don't want to put down as so well written and shows how you can run away from problems but you are always pulled to go back and having to forgive people you love. Great characters and story plot is so believable.
Emma fled from home after making so many mistakes and letting down so many people down and hurting so many. Two years later she wants to go home to face her past at fox grove farm. Is she making the right decision she doesn't tell anyone she's coming but when she arrives it causes more problems than she dreamt of. Sadly the people she hurt aren't ready to forgive her and her mother is ill and doesn't even recognise her she struggles with this. Emma slowly starts to build the trust but then she finds a secret about her family and it changes everything she also tells then a crime she thinks she did in the past so can she settle back down or not is sorry simply not good enough.
Worth far more than the five stars I have given it just didn't want to put it down.
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920 reviews42 followers
July 23, 2018

I was lucky enough to be invited on the cover reveal for this title a few weeks ago and since then I’ve been itching to read this latest offering from Samantha Tonge. Her last book One Summer In Rome wowed me and I became quite hooked on her style of writing and emotive content. This book offered so much more of this from the blurb and I was not left disappointed.

I would say that this moves away from the contemporary romance genre and centres itself firmly in family drama. The dynamic between the sisters, as well as Bligh, and the neighbours of Healdbury (all with their own faults, heartaches and problems) is key to the journey this book takes you on.

It tackles some pretty difficult subjects including dementia, addiction, homelessness and bereavement; you are constantly considering your own viewpoints as you navigate the choices and stories of the characters and I think it will really make some people realise their own preconceptions about these issues are based on inaccuracies. This book is clearly so well researched and written from the heart; this makes it compelling and incredibly poignant. However, despite the hard hitting issues, it is ultimately uplifting, full of hope and a celebration of an “ordinary life” which many often take for granted.

One final thing to say is, wow what an ending, very cleverly done and leaves you with plenty to consider.
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655 reviews183 followers
July 23, 2018
All reviews can be found on my blog at https://thewritinggarnet.wordpress.com

How many of you reading this, have made a mistake which later cost you the people you loved?
How many of you have found yourself stuck in a rut due to your own bad choices, have chosen to put yourself on the straight and narrow, yet people refuse to give you the benefit of the doubt?

Of course you have, we all have. We can't all be perfect.

Emma has chosen to return to the place her life changed forever - her childhood home. Even though it took Emma a lot of guts to return to the 'scene of the crime' so to speak, she found herself underestimating her family's reaction to her reappearance. Emma knows that she has made a lot of mistakes, she also knows that she has paid the price for every single one of them, but will her family see that she is being genuine? Or is it too little too late?

At first, Samantha Tonge keeps Emma's mistakes under lock and key, building my curiosity every time I turned the page. What on Earth did she do for her family to turn their backs on her? Has she learnt from her mistakes, whatever they may be?

Emma's story certainly made me sit up and take notice. At first, I couldn't see much wrong with what she did, but as soon as the author went into detail about the bad decisions Emma made, my opinion changed and I could see why the outcome is what it is. That said, I couldn't help but feel as though I was missing something as, instead of feeling as though I was reading a brand new novel with brand new characters, I felt as though I had walked into the storyline halfway through and couldn't seem to work out why I felt as though I had missed out on a lot of things. Before anyone says anything, no, I didn't begin the book halfway through, it just felt like that for me which was a bit of a shame.

However, I have to say that that was the only irk I had with the book! I loved how the authors change in direction was written from the heart, bringing the story to life on various different levels. Personally, I couldn't really ask for more!. Samantha Tonge hasn't just picked a theme from random and decided to write about it, she has chosen a theme which she knew needed to be written about to not only educate people, but to also make people take notice and think about their own decisions in life. I have to say that after reading 'Forgive Me Not', my opinion of one thing in particular has changed dramatically. Without giving anything away, I used to be like many of the characters in the book and look down my nose at people who had to set up camp where required, pretty much because I looked at it from a pessimistic and disbelieving angle. But now? Now I can't help but look at them like one of us and, if I had to choose one important lesson to take away from this book, it would definitely have to be the vague lesson I just mentioned. How could it not be?

I will say one thing though, there were times where I felt that Emma was expecting far too much from her loved ones, yet there were times where I felt as though her loved ones were hearing her but refusing to listen. The phrase 'I'm sorry', is one of the most overused lines ever. Even though, as humans, we expect apologies, how many of us can truly say that we believe every single one of them? Saying that you're sorry is all well and good, but for me it's the actions that got alongside it is what I take more notice of. Reading 'Forgive Me Not' cemented the fact that I just can't forget, but it has taught me the value of learning to forgive.

I am very proud of Samantha Tonge and this book, as I know it must have taken a lot to write a novel that is so close to home. It takes a lot of courage and determination to write something like this and personally, I think that the author has aced it.

A life-affirming, thought-provoking, emotional, and poignant novel which holds even more power than Iron Man himself. Such a pleasure to read.
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4,839 reviews119 followers
July 27, 2018
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This is a fabulous book!!

I loved everything about this book from the gorgeous front cover to the ending!

I have been a fan of this authors books for a while now and I was delighted to see that this book was being released and sat patiently for it to be available for me to read – and I have to say now, I absolutely loved it – I read it in a few hours after it landed on my Kindle and have been raving about it to family and friends since!

The book has some fantastic characters and I warmed to hem right from the outset, the story is one that makes you think and it is one that will stay with me – definitely five stars and easily one of the best books I’ve read in 2018!!

Make sure you grab your copy now – it will be worth it – I loved the whole thing!
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Author 215 books202 followers
August 7, 2018
This was a brave and touching story of a woman trying to reconnect with her family on the road back from addiction.
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485 reviews42 followers
August 10, 2018
Forgiveness.......one of the hardest issues to struggle with !! This book really gets to the heart of the matter and the story of Emma really gave me a lot of food for thought. To be deeply hurt by someone is life changing and I know to forgive and forget is equally difficult.

Addiction in any form is so destructive to both the sufferer and those around them and I found the book addressed many underlying issues in a very understanding way.

Emma has struggled with addiction for many years. She finally left home after many shameful episodes and her family and community have given up on her! After several years of battling with her demons she returns home. Her family reunion is fraught ... her mum is struggling with early onset Alzheimer’s.... her sister is angry and bitter ... her ex boyfriend is distant ... but will broken bridges ever be repaired ?

The book covers not only addiction but homelessness, mistakes, forgiveness, second chances, self love and acceptance. It contained well developed characters and covered tough issues .

I recommend this book wholeheartedly although it took me a while to get hooked it was a brilliant emotional story with a surprise ending which had me thinking about the characters even after I’d turned the last page,

Thank you to netgalley and the publishers for my chance to read this fantastic book.
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3,843 reviews133 followers
August 3, 2018
I have thoroughly enjoyed reading romantic comedies by this talented author and was initially unaware of the change in genre portrayed in this emotive and very moving novel but I found it to be an enthralling read. It reflects on events from the past and present concerning Emma who is now facing up to her past and moving on to look to the future. She left home two years ago, leaving her older sister to care for their Mum (who has dementia) and their home, Foxglove Farm. Emma is ready to face up to her past and wants to atone for her behaviour and actions from then but her return doesn’t go as she’d anticipated.

By relating events from the past and present, many different issues are shared and explored, developing the readers’ knowledge of some difficult subjects in an easy to relate to manner. Sometimes just saying you are sorry really isn’t enough for many different reasons. Emma’s life journey, learning to take responsibility for her own actions now and from the past, the struggle of accepting just what she might be responsible for and helping others, too, all play important roles in this story. It is a coming of age story with a real twist at the end! I suspect this story will have a lasting impact on my own attitudes and behaviour to others in future and I hope many others will also enjoy – and learn from – this superb story.

I requested and was given a copy of this book, via NetGalley. This is my honest review of the book after choosing to read it.
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Author 14 books284 followers
July 9, 2018
This is a big change in direction for Samantha Tonge and she has executed it expertly. FORGIVE ME NOT is a beautifully written story about addiction and forgiveness, about hope and human fallibility. An unputdownable read that had me rooting for the main character from the get go and desperately wanting her to put her demons behind her, to let go, to move on. I had so many feelings while reading and that is the sign of a very good book for me. And that last chapter? Wow! Bravo Sam!
1,618 reviews7 followers
August 1, 2018
Emma had decided to return home to Foxglove Farm after being away for over two years, but what will her reception be........ she certainly didn't leave on good terms! Her optimism is totally blown out of the water, her sister hates her and can't even look at her and her mother has dementia and doesn't know who she is. For once in her life though Emma is determined not to run away and so stays to try and build bridges and give the much needed help to her sister

A great book it works well telling Emma's back story in flashes and I loved all the stories of the homeless people showing how anyone can end up in that predicament, andI thought it was a great little twist at the end.
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584 reviews12 followers
August 2, 2018
I’ve read all of Samantha Tonges books and enjoyed them all immensely. This book is in a completely different vein from previous reads. This read is a journey of discovery and a quest for forgiveness which contains a story that will not leave you for quite some time. A at times heart breaking account of family life ripped apart by alcohol and Alzheimer’s. The description of the effort needed to fight internal demons and build bridges is portrayed in such a real way. I did not see the twist at the end! An amazing read. I finished this in 24 hours as I could not put it down. This book is a fantastic reading web you need to tangle your self up in
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1,973 reviews
July 31, 2018
I’ve read some books by this author before and they’ve all been light-hearted romantic chick-lit type books.  This book has gone in a completely different direction, and is nothing like her previous books!  Two years on, Emma has returned to Foxglove Cottage, her home that she left after she’d let down and hurt the people who loved her.  Returning was never going to be easy and she quickly realises that she is not welcome in the village….by anyone.  Her mother, the one person she seeks forgiveness from, is suffering from dementia and can’t remember who she is, and her sister certainly isn’t welcoming her home with open arms.  Can she rebuild their trust?

Emma’s character initially, for me, was confusing.  There was no clue at the beginning as to what had happened two years previously, just that nobody was pleased to see her return home.  As the book moves on you begin to understand Emma more and more and you realise that two years before she was on a road to self-destruction with her alcohol addiction and as a result she ended up homeless and sleeping rough on the streets.  You do feel for Emma throughout the book, although sometimes in a more negative way, thinking of all the hurt she caused people when she was in such a dark place.  You can also feel for her family when she returns, as she had obviously done unforgiveable things and behaved in such a bad way before she had left, that it was very difficult for them to even consider forgiving her.

It certainly isn’t a light-hearted book.  It tackles some strong and sensitive subjects, which some may find upsetting to read.  But it is also a book of self-discovery and forgiveness.  Without giving away any more of the story I think it’s safe to say it is completely different to the author’s previous books!  It is though, most definitely, a book where you will need a couple of hours and a box of tissues to fully appreciate Emma’s story!
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Author 54 books1,080 followers
July 12, 2020
I absolutely loved this book. Emma returns to her former home at Foxglove Farm. She's not the same person she was when she last lived there but she's not the only one to have experienced change. With a mother and sister who no longer recognise her but for quite different reasons, Emma can stay and face the past, or she can flee again.
We know from the outset that things went very wrong before Emma left home but the back story is steadily revealed over the course of the book. I loved the way Forgive Me Not was written, gradually building up a picture of what went wrong and why. For me, this was a page-turner which I devoured in a couple of days on holiday. Emotional and uplifting, and a great story. Thoroughly recommended
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Author 1 book68 followers
July 23, 2018
The first time I read the blurb of this book I knew it would be something special and important. I knew it would probably make me emotional and it would probably be one of those books that make us think about our lives - past, present and future. I wasn't wrong.

This book was a beautifully done. A book about forgiveness, second chances, family, and friendship... And about being human. It touched my heart because it made me realize some things about my personal life, about all the actions, mistakes and stubbornness attitude I had that cause me pain, or cause me to stay away from some people that once upon a time had an important part in my life. It doesn't mean that by staying away from some people was the wrong decision. In some cases it was the right decision, but in other, it makes me sad.

So with this book, I start thinking if I can have a second chance with some of my childhood friends. It was eye opening and the way we can create empathy with the characters speaks highly of Samatha Tonge's writing style.

But the book is also about addiction and how not only does it affect the person dealing with it (the addict) but also the family and friends. Although personally I can't relate to it, as a Social Educator, I did study about it, and I spoke with people that were going through the rehabilitation process. I listen to them talk about how it changed their relationship with family and friends. And reading Samantha's book made me think about that afternoon in the rehabilitation clinic and it made me think about life.

And if you think addiction, forgiveness, coming back home, family and friends, are all the topics that this book talks about, you are mistaken. It talks about Alzheimer's too. Again my college times helped me connect with this subject and because I understand it, it was easier to believe the storyline and the plot, related to this topic.

So, as you can see, and if you read the book you will fully understand it, this book touches a lot of strong subjects that are a part of our life, our societies. The way it's brilliantly written, with a good development of characters and plot, in a good pace of the storyline, made me feel connected to the story and feel like I know those characters in real life.

As you read the book you get to feel all of that because Samantha gives you the chance to understand all side of the story. And you end up loving the message she's trying to teach you. Aren't we all human? Don't we make mistakes? Don't we have bad moments? Don't we have cracks in our hearts, and are even self-conscious? Don't we try hard to get better when we wish and need to accomplish our goals or change our lives?

Well, we are complex beings and life is unexpected. Do we deserve forgiveness? I personally believe that sometimes the only person we have to forgive is ourselves. And other times, we really don't understand what we are loosing and all the opportunities we have lost until we really fall into an abysm and there is no more light or help, and we are stuck with the voices in our heads and all the pain and sorrow and whatever else is there. So, yes, life is messy, second chances are sometimes more like 1000 chance, it's sometimes hard to believe someone after they have disappointed us some many times, and life keeps going.

Those are just some of the thoughts I had after reading the book and thinking about forgiveness and life. Nevertheless, the realism in this book made it so much exciting to read. And for all those reason, I loved the book, and I recommend it to everyone.
[Thank you Rachel, at Rachel Random Resources, Samantha and Netgalley for the eCopy of this book in exchange for an honest review.]
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1,120 reviews41 followers
August 31, 2018
Loved the book. I did not expect the last chapter and it was a complete surprise. It explained a lot and why Andrea couldn't forgive Emma. This book centers around family relationships and forgiveness. Emma and Stig were my favorite characters. I am talking about the Emma who shows up at Foxglove Farms after seeking treatment. Stig just seemed like such an all around good guy.

Emma returns home to Foxglove Farms after being gone for two years. Emma is an alcoholic and has returned home to make amends with all the people she hurt, which is pretty much everyone living in her village. Mainly she wants to apologize to her sister, mom and Bligh. Her mom is suffering from early-onset Alzheimer's and has no idea who Emma is when she arrives. The book alternates between the present and the months leading up to Emma returning home. Emma completely changed her life but her sister just doesn't trust or believe her. It was interesting discovering what happened the days leading up to Emma leaving her house and how the blood got on her car. I understand why Bligh and Andrea do not trust her and have a hard time forgiving her.

I loved the story, writing style and characters. I never warmed up to Andrea or Joe. Hated his reaction when he heard what happened to Emma. Andrea just seemed miserable. I loved reading about the farm Emma grew up on. It sounded like a wonderful place to live. I understand how Emma felt when she learned what her mom was hiding all those years. Now Emma can't even talk about it with her mom.

Definitely recommend the book. I look forward to reading more by the author.

Thanks to NetGalley, Canelo and the author, Samantha Tonge, for a free electronic ARC of this novel.
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363 reviews19 followers
July 25, 2018
I previously read One Summer in Rome by Samantha Tonge, and I just knew that I would be in for another treat. This book has a harder edge to it but the characters and plot were equally as compelling and the author doesn't shy away from some sensitive subjects. The issues are extremely well researched, informative and thought-provoking.

The main character Emma returns to her former home, Foxglove Farm, to make amends for something she did in the past. Her family are hostile, even the villagers and the pub landlord are unhappy to see her back, but what could she have done that was so bad?

The book takes us back to what happened to Emma whilst she was away, and she certainly had a rough time, but the reader is not told why Emma's life hit rock bottom until much later. This kept me gripped and made me think how easily life can turn on its head and the unthinkable can happen to almost anyone.

The book is about forgiveness and new starts in life. Emma seems determined to do whatever she has to do to regain her place in the family. Since she left, her mother's health has deteriorated rapidly, and sister Andrea feels angry that she has been her mother's carer along with running the farm almost singlehandedly.

The characters are completely believable, flawed and strong. I wasn't sure about some of them at first, but in typical Samantha Tonge style, the reasons become apparent as the story unfolds. I loved how the family sheepdog accepted Emma back without hesitation, it was heartwarming to see that one relationship could never be broken.
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Author 21 books194 followers
August 27, 2018
Forgive Me Not by Samantha Tonge is a moving novel about family estrangement, addiction and the damage it causes, love, loss and longing to make things right again. It follows the character of Emma, who finds herself living on the streets but yearning for the family love and security she once had. This book is totally different to others I have read by Ms Tonge and she has done a wonderful job of writing in a different genre.

The story is about being able to forgive yourself, and that is one of the hardest things a human being can do. Emma struggles to negotiate her way through the life she has created and her journey is a very emotional – and often uncomfortable – one. It is about learning to love yourself, accepting that everyone makes mistakes and will continue to do so – because there is no magic wand – and about moving on, even though life will always be different because of what you have done and put others through. The book also touches on the difficulty of dealing with losing a loved one to dementia and having to watch as a person you love changes before your eyes.

However, in spite of the difficult issues that Ms Tonge writes about, this is ultimately a story of hope and about how the every day life that we often take for granted is one to be treasured.

A moving and gripping read.
11.3k reviews187 followers
July 15, 2018
Can you go home again? Emma hopes so. She's trying to make amends for things she did when she lived at Foxglove Farm with her family. It's not so easy, though, as things have changed, her mom no longer recognizes her, and she's got a big burden to shift. Of course there's a family secret which changes her view of herself and her situation. This is a well written story of a woman coming into her own and understanding her own place in the world- and gaining the forgiveness of others but more importantly of herself. Thanks to Netgalley for the ARC. This is well written and thoughtful.
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301 reviews10 followers
July 10, 2018
Not what I was expecting when I picked-up a Samantha Tonge book.

It was good, just a bit heavier than the happy RomCom/Chick Lit I was expecting.

After a bit of research I found she is no longer writing RomCom so I guess I should have expected it.
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559 reviews27 followers
August 6, 2018
Forgive me Not was a story about family and forgiving what has happened in the past and moving on to a better life.

I really bonded with Emma in the story and the problems she was faced with, I have never read any books by this author before I will definitely be on the lookout for her other books, this was a fabulous read, I really enjoyed it.
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1,878 reviews53 followers
September 5, 2018
How far would you go to make amends? It’s a good question, but for me the more important question is whether every act should be forgiven, just so the guilty party can feel better about themselves?

Emma is an alcoholic. Her drinking has cost her friendships, jobs, her family and her reputation. She rationalises every bad decision she makes and likes to blame everyone but the person feeding the habit. A common story, and it’s fair to say this story doesn’t focus on the victims as much as on the the addict and her attempt to make amends.

Emma makes her way home and attempts to fix her broken friendships and family ties. They have no real concept of the way she has spent the last few years and are reluctant to give her another chance. She also brings her second life home with her, which causes a lot of friction in the community.

Tonge reproduces the uncomfortable reactions of the general population really well in relation to the homeless. Questions of guilt, powerlessness, doubt and fear are mixed with general misconceptions about these people, who are caught in a cycle of addiction, lack of support and strict bureaucracy.

Kudos to Tonge for shedding a light on the way society treats the homeless and the difficulties they have on the street, especially whilst trying to get back into the flow of a ‘normal’ life. It’s important to add that not all homeless people have substance abuse problems, it is true however that the majority do. It’s another story and statistic whether the substance abuse came before or after becoming homeless.

Addiction is a cruel foe, it doesn’t care about emotions or relationships, it is greedy and just wants to be fed. The author shows the destruction of addiction and how much damage the loss of trust can cause in relationships and in a family dynamic.

Emma is selfish, self-absorbed and sees everything through her own frame of reference, which is tainted by her need to numb and forget all of her presumed grievances. Even when she seems to understand the damage she has caused she always brings it back to how she feels, as opposed to how everyone else might be feeling.

It’s an uncomfortable read at times, because it walks the thin boundaries between reality and fiction really well. The author doesn’t present a sympathetic main character, instead she gives the readers the stark realism of the addict and their thought process.

I think it is a read that will make readers sway one way or the other. At the very least it gives an intimate insight into the complexity of a downwards spiral and the never-ending road to recovery. A road which can sometimes be smooth, but also forces the addict to deal with the occasional sinkhole and crossroads. It’s an honest and heartfelt read.
*I received a copy via NetGalley*
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197 reviews2 followers
August 6, 2018
Emma has been away from home for two years and in that time her problems have spiralled out of control. Having sought help she feels the time has come for her to return home to the family farm and face the mess she left behind when she fled on a whim one evening, leaving everyone and everything she knew behind.

She may have changed, but it’s clear on her return that not only her family but the local villagers can’t bring themselves to believe her. To them Emma is still the same liar and thief that left a trail of destruction her wake and it’s going to take more than a simple “sorry” for them to change their mind. Emma thinks that because she has changed her life she would be welcomed back into the fold like nothing has happened, sadly for her it’s not that simple, life has continued without her. She needs to rake back over the past in order to move forward and learn to forgive herself in the process with the only hope her family and friends will do the same.

This book joins Emma as she is en-route home to visit family and it’s not immediately clear what has happened to her since the last time she was there. The story flits between past and present gradually building a picture of Emma’s relationship with alcohol and the descent she found herself experiencing which lead to her living on the streets in Manchester. Once she hits her rock bottom we are taken on a journey, walking alongside her as she seeks help to change her life. Emma’s situation is so real for so many people and it’s impossible not to warm to her, she was my favourite character and I was rooting for her throughout.

Forgive Me Not pulls no punches, it’s a hard-hitting, gritty read that tells it like it is. Dealing with real, serious issues including homelessness, miscarriage and alcoholism, it’s a world away from Samantha’s previous novel One Summer In Rome. Despite being in stark contrast to her previous work, I absolutely adored this book, it had me in tears – always a sign of a good read – and Samantha’s writing style has the knack of drawing me in making it her books extremely difficult to put it down. The story line of this novel is both gripping and thought provoking and really gave me plenty of food for thought about both giving and receiving forgiveness.
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194 reviews36 followers
July 23, 2018
I’ve read and enjoyed a few of Samantha Tonge’s previous novels which have been predominantly light hearted romantic novels which are easy reads. Forgive Me Not is a much deeper story focusing more on family dramas which really made me think and question the characters motives while I was reading it.
It’s been two years since Emma fled her home at Foxglove Farm after causing trouble for all those around her when she was drunk. After living on the streets and hitting rock bottom as an alcoholic she finally faced up to her demons and sought help. Now she’s been sober for almost a year and is ready to return home and seek forgiveness from all those around her. But what Emma learns when she returns home that its not easy for those to forgive you if you can’t forgive yourself.
I found this a very heavy and emotional read which was highly addictive as I was eager to know all about Emma and her problems and what she’d done in the past that was so bad. It’s a novel which takes some serious and often overlooked issues and creates a well-rounded, believable story which has been researched incredibly well. Despite its main themes covering alcoholism, dementia and homelessness I found this a very inspiring and uplifting read.
The characters in this book are all realistic and its refreshing to read something where nearly everyone has flaws, it made the story feel more genuine. For me Emma was my favourite and for her Emma to turn her life around the way she did and change from being selfish and care-free to be an honest and compassionate person was a real inspiration to read about.
Forgive Me Not is fantastic read and I think Samantha Tonge has done a marvellous job going in this new direction, I’m really looking forward to what she comes up with next. The best thing about this book, that ending wow, I totally didn’t see that coming.
Thank you so much to the Samantha Tonge, the publishers and Rachel’s Random Resources for sending me a copy to review.
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701 reviews60 followers
July 23, 2018
I'm sure if you are a fan of Samantha Tonge you will know that this book is a slight change in direction. I guess you could say that this is a more emotive story however you will still find the same warmth and love just like in her other stories. In Forgive Me Not we meet Emma who has had a very turbulent past and as this story progresses we see exactly how her actions not only affected her but others close to her. It is a deep and honest story about what happens when a person reaches rock bottom but then luckily begins to see a way forward. After all the hardest thing to do is live with yourself and that is what Emma faces. Emma is such an interesting character, I felt drawn to her even if at times the things she did were so very wrong. I always appreciate the flaws in characters as they are truly the ones that are most realistic.

Forgive Me Not has a balance of warmth and grit that easily pulled me into the story. As we are shown Emma's past and present giving you a complex character that made me want to know more about her. The storyline isn't what I would call light hearted but I still loved the message that this books portrays. It highlights human frailty but also strength and determination. How we all have struggles that can be hard to face but it is all written in a sensitive and honest way.

The theme of forgiveness is a big one and I loved how Samantha Tonge explored this from all sides within the story. I was left thinking about the characters long after I had turned the last page proving this book had the power to get under my skin.

Thought provoking and emotional with a powerful message.

Five stars from me!

With thanks to Rachel at Rachel's Random Resources and Canelo for my copy.
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