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and my mom was the production secretary ... so I was on the set most days ... bothering the grips and Hans and mostly Walter, as I wanted badly to be a camera man when I grew up. I never saw this film and would love to just to see how the shots looked when they're all put together and not just out of order, crappy rushes.

It was an interesting thing to see all this behind the scenes stuff going on ... the fights ( Hans and Walter went at it a lot ), the affairs between cast members ( it was after all damn close to the 70s ... ) and the drug use on set and off was prevalent and a couple of the actors actually got hep from shooting up something with dirty needles. At 13, a lot went over my head, but a lot didn't too ... I was dubbed the "Penguin in Bondage" by the crew ( a Frank Zappa reference ) and taken in as their pain-in-the-a$$ mascot. Indeed I wish I was older, but I had a blast in Jeff city for that summer.