I began the documentary with the idea that I'll get to learn more about the programs Paris Hilton keeps mentioning, instead I revisited a suppressed memory.
When I was about 7 years old I recall my half sister being in and out of my life. The time we did spend together she was the funniest person I knew and I would normally feel excited to have her around. I remember her mother coming to pick her up one day after she had spent over a year with us and told my father she had a "contingency plan" in place in case she began acting out again. My sister was 14 years old, she was rebellious on paper but nothing that could not be managed since my parents had proven in the last year that she was just starving for attention and got her to change. However, her mother thought otherwise.
A month later her mother contacted my father to let him know that she was going off to a "behavior modification program" and that she would pay for it. My father reluctantly agreed and off my sister went. The next time I saw her I was 12 years old and she was a shell of the girl I remembered. Yes, we were both older by now but something was different beyond normal aging, she was hurt.
Today she does not speak to my dad despite him stating he would have intervened sooner had he known. It took this documentary for me to connect the dots on why she stopped keeping in touch and cut off her parents. As a child, things are explained on a surface level, "your sister was a broken kid due to a divorce and now she resents the world". I never even contemplated it was the program she was sent to, even though I now can connect how that was what ultimately broke her.
After finishing the documentary I questioned my dad about the "special school" she was sent to and he had a difficult time even explaining it, instead he summarized it to "a reformatory".
Today I am 33 years old and even though I am grateful that I did not suffer from the same fate as my sister, I feel guilty for not learning of this sooner. I can only hope she is willing to speak to me one day again.
Thank you all who participated in this documentary, it was not your fault.
"You're not a victim for sharing your story.
You are a survivor setting the world on fire with your truth. And you never know who needs your light, your warmth, and raging courage." -Alex Elle.
