What If the Pain Wouldn't Go Away?

"If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me.""If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me.""If I had thought that life was good and good things happened and things were happy, I would have been crushed into the ground. It would have killed me."