Keep Your Cool

by Riley!

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1.
777 03:00
i’m rolling off the deep end losing out on sleep and i don’t think i’m ever gonna stop what’s another wager? i think it’s in my nature i just wanna make it to the top when i think of you cut me some slack, i’m holding back when i think of you i know it’s unhealthy, i know it’s bad when i think of you i’ve got an edge, i’m feeling blessed when i think of you lost another grand i never understand why take another spin guess i never really know when to quit always online lately constantly debating save me god, you must fucking hate me!
2.
‘course it all starts to hit when i’m lying in bed maybe if you’d be so kind as to listen to all the problems in my head i’d never have to worry about sleeping in i’d never have to take these stupid meds again everything is always moving too fast, too fast can you make it slow down? so i try flushing out everything that you said “you gotta learn to keep your cool, man, or you’ll wind up dead!” there’s gotta be a fucking switch i can hit to make it slow down every time i try to close my eyes i get hit with a wave of a million lights each and every one of them is saying different things every time! every time! every time! i say shit i dont mean when i’m fucked up called you, drunk, and i wouldn’t shut up oh my god i should just keep my mouth shut every time i get pissed off i should mull it over sleep it off and call when i’m sober send a text for digital closure every time sorry if it seems like i don’t give a fuck i just really don’t appreciate any of the attitude going down in flames is worse than going down at all but it never really clicked for me i never had that breakthrough
3.
it’s in my nature to wanna run away i don’t wanna face the truth i don’t want anything anything at all and my hands still tremble at the thought of connection (oh no) i don’t want your affection just need control of the situation i’d rather burn out than fade away i know, i know, i know it’s unhealthy but i like it that way woah, it’s in my nature i’m running away again i’m running away
4.
Kill Yr Boss 02:11
fuck it, left a trail of blood on my way out no, you're not the boss of me anymore hated it here anyway see ya later, alligator! and in my head i’ve killed you again and again and again and again and again gut you open and watch the… spill! never felt so relieved never felt so free
5.
going 10 over the limit inside my head surprised i haven't said anything stupid yet that’s a conversation i’m not gonna humor ‘cause i know you're doing it for the attention look me in the eyes just say that you wanna go home i can tell you're bored because you wont stop checking the time on your phone i’ll regret everything i said it was all petty words and wishful thinking i'll shut up if that's enough It was all petty words and wishful thinking (Heccra) just a trip to the city a photographer meetup i’m in the passenger seat of your car and we’re pulling up late once again you didn't plan shit i nearly begged my dad to say i can't go she’s gonna fuck it all up ‘cause i know the car will be towed when we get back i’m so used to people feeling this way about fuck-up me how am i feeling this way about you?
6.
Ego Peek Mid 02:43
hesitant to leave my lips sometimes i got a fucking ego other times i feel like shit swear to god i mean it when i say that i'm not sick yeah, but every wednesday i just wanna kill my therapist oh my god would you look at your face? even when you feel at home you look so fucking out of place how embarrassing is that? when you stutter on your name everything that i've become is everything that i hate i know that i don't wanna go back everything is so lacking i'm not okay the dosage left me feeling hopeless even though i know this “take it everyday” and you're right must’ve slipped my mind so drunk i thought i knew the words when you got sick of the itch you ripped the tag off of your shirt but what's even more annoying is how you act so pretentious trivial as hell, just like a silly argument and…
7.
Die Mad 01:26
guess i’m just a fucking asshole throw me in a blackhole tell all my friends and my family that i'll be alright became an alcoholic invested, i was all in fucking it all up and riding that rapid decline i’ll burn that bridge when i get there sorry, life is not fair one day everything that you love will wither and die! and if i’m just a fucking asshole throw me in a blackhole lock me away ‘til i wither away ‘cause i’ll bitch and i’ll moan and i’ll kick and i’ll scream and i’ll cry
8.
so brace yourself for the impact close your eyes and let it go black left the light on, thought you'd come back eat your heart out are you full yet? it’s everyday now what i'd give to up and leave this place you're an adult so wipe that shit-eating grin off your face when everyone said that they want you dead is that when it finally clicked in your thick head? and it's honestly so pathetic how you don’t seem to fucking get it (Sam Wegrzynski) pathetic’s an understatement i’ll try not to hold my breath but it'll be hard not to smirk when your plan doesn't work did you bet you'd get saved in the end? well, when it all sinks in you'll be sorry this happened you'll remember me when i said… did it finally settle in? i’m sure you hate every single word i wanna say, right? you’re so pathetic why won’t you get it?
9.
overwhelmed with existential dread i'm playing worst-case scenarios in my head but it's okay, i feel okay haven't grown a day since i turned 18 sorta gave up on all i wanted to achieve but it's okay, i feel okay i’m pushing my luck again every time i claw my way out i fall right back
10.
Talk It Out 02:52
burnin’ red when i get angry tell myself i won't fall outta line got too drunk and slammed the car door i know it probably happened once or twice just forget it it’s overwhelming yeah, i get it don't need to tell me promise that i’ll calm the fuck down i’d really love to try and talk it out sorry for how i’ve been acting don't really know what that was all about just forget it it’s overwhelming yeah, i get it don't need to tell me that i need to work on myself but goddamn this doesn't help i never put the effort you deserve swear to you again that i've changed but it always ends the same i never fully try to make it work sitting under a neon light i didn't mean to go and start a fight but i know myself and that's just how i get busted lip so ill shut up now burnt that bridge along anyhow your worst is surely better than my best

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riley! from texas coming in hot with their 3rd LP

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released April 19, 2024

Credits: Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Kieren Krebs at Overcast Recordings in Austin, TX.

Additional trumpets on track 9 performed by Cameron Brickell

Additional steel guitar on track 10 performed by Zane Ruttenberg of Thanks Light…

Photos taken by Carl Neeley, edited by Joey Martinez

Riley! is: Ryan Bluhm, Kris Gallardo, and Cesar “Izzy” Izaguirre

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